Anakosha

Awakening the divine feminine in everyone
The heart is the new baseline
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Master Djwhal Khul

A book in progress
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"Tantra as a Way of Life"
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INTRODUCTION

This page is an ongoing book in progress being compiled from old files. It extends into page 2 from year 2000 to the present day. The latest entry was added on 2/22/23, a channeling received on 1/24/19. They are posted chronologically by date received. A little background about this book....

When the kundalini dramatically awakened in me in 1976 and took me into the light, my metabolism skyrocketed, and within days words started pouring into my mind like rivers.  I began writing the words down by hand. A stream of consciousness started filling me up so that my mind whirled dizzily with super-charged energy. Words that made sense but were beyond my normal thinking. I didn't know the word "channeling" at the time, and I didn't know who was talking to me. I couldn't control it. Fortunately, I was married to a man who did not think I was crazy and asked questions what was happening to me. He insisted on continuing our sexual life together, difficult for me at first but proved to be a lifesaver, keeping me grounded during the early years of this transition. I learned later that such a dramatic kundalini awakening was extremely rare. No one knew about it and I had no one to advise me. If you are interested in knowing more about kundalini, click HERE and listen to the Sadhguru tell about it. I totally relate to his explanation.  

But this book is not about MY life, my personal story is HERE. The purpose of THIS book is to put forth the channeled messages and visions I received over the last 47 years. The Tibetan Master DK stepped forward a short while after I was taken into the light. He made himself known in various ways. He has been my chief number one guide ever since. He is an ascended master who presides in a physical body (?) in a monastery on the borders of Tibet. The reason for the (?) is because I don't understand how he is in physical body and also ascended. DK has been close to me all these years. He connects subjectively, telepathically, and never uses his name. His presence is one of compassion, love and wisdom. My awareness blends with him, and when he ends his message, there is a sense of depletion. He's gone. He also steps aside when other higher sources speak to me. He is not just a teacher, he is a guide. He guides many students worldwide in the right way to go. He has published many books through the authorship of his student, Alice Bailey. He continues to guide me today. Just recently he has asked me to put my many channeled messages on the Anakosha website. It is time, he says. I have many, many files of them. They have been prolific and tucked away in different places. So I am selecting randomly and transferring them to this site. They are in chronological order by the date received. There are also some personal vision experiences of my own, not channeled. I have added a table of contents below. This is a book in progress. It is not done yet and probably never will be. It is an ongoing saga. When I re-read them I see with different eyes.  BTW, He is the one who suggested the title, "Tantra as a way of life". * With deepest, purist love, Diana of Anakosha 

TABLE OF CONTENTS

 5/6/76 - A personal connection with the fire of kundalini
1977 - Grounding ethereal thought in the world of matter
9/18/81 - Hail to the light in the pelvis (a poem)
​1981 - Future sex requires love
3/23/81 - The gift of love from a spiritual teacher
3/24/81 - The energy called love
​3/25/81 - Reunite with the spirit of love
​7/10/81 - Techniques of the light; mastering the sex forces  
7/22/81 - How to avoid negative psychic experiences 
​4/17/82 - Sunlit magnificence (a vision)  
6/30/83 - Preparing for classes 
​7/1/83 - Universal principles
​7/3/83 - Your consciousness is God consciousness
10/10/93 - Sexual enlightenment
​2/16/94 - The urge to worship
7/15/95 - Tapping the erotic lifestyle
10/16/95 - Greetings, I Am Anakosha
9/18/98 - Consider the opposite, look deep into the other side
9/14/02 - You are your own Source, there is no other 
2/20/02 - The Book of Anakosha
9/4/05 - Register love on your brain cells
12/3/05 - The answer lies in awakening consciousness
​12/20/05 - An unusual experience
​10/30/11 - Breathe through your feet
7/23/12 - A white tigress teaching
​7/24/12 - Let your dreams go, they are pebbles in the way
​7/25/12 - Don't hold onto your dreams
​7/26/12 - How creator creates through you
​8/12/12 - Kundalini must be relesed slowly
10/1/13 - Tantra is not a quick fix
10/5/13 - The four lower bodies
10/6/13 - Keep your mind in the open position
10/11/13 - The feminine way to swinging
10/14/13 - DK speaks especially to couples
10/24/13 - You can't teach others
10/7/14 - The fully realized man
​4/26/16 - Do we really need sex?
9/5/16 - The importance of receiving
2/16/17 - The sun is enfolding your heart but the earth pull is strong 
2/22/17 - An introduction to Tantra through the chakras
3/5/17 - Tantra was a teaching
11/11/17 - Tantric love
1/11/18 - Women Talking
​1/24/19 - 
​3/17/19 - Men and women flow in opposite directions
​4/18/19 - You are cultivating individuality, not personality
5/12/19 - On being too feminine
9/14/19 - Message from my higher self
​9/22/19 - When someone demands your attention
​12/10/21 - Receiving is the greatest lesson

5/6/76 - A personal connection with the fire of kundalini

(This was written within 10 or 20 days after kundalini dramatically awakened in me during a guided meditation in Costa Rica. There was no date so I assigned one randomly.) 
 
This morning after Bob left for San Jose, I was quite alert and anxious to sit down at the typewriter. But because of the extremely interesting things that have been happening, and because Bob has suggested that I direct this force, I wanted to tap into it again to set the course of the day. It occurred to me that I could possibly write better and more efficiently if I put myself in contact with the impersonal force within my body.
 
Over the past few days, whenever I consciously become aware of the forces within, my breathing automatically becomes rhythmical. I become more aware of things happening, and it does create a certain element of peace for me, wherever I am, even in the city. I also am aware of wanting to move, flex the spine, the shoulders, stomach muscles. This I never did before. It feels like my own body is becoming aware of itself and doesn’t let me forget it. It makes me feel good.
 
Yesterday, I saw a picture in a book of a helium atom. It was radiant in the nucleus and the electrons were semi-radiant as they spun around, held in place by an irrevocable chemistry. I could feel that unflinching attraction within the whole unit, immovable to any outside force except for the proper chemical mixture. I could easily imagine a human being as that central nucleus. He would be as radiant as his awareness would allow him to be. In other words, his own conscious knowledge of his forces would create the radiance. At the same time he would hold in check all his outer circumstances by the very same chemistry that the helium atom held its electrons in check. He has the power to control his life if he learns how to do it.
 
I am sure this is how man is meant to be, and he is meant to learn how to do this at the same time becoming aware of the interdependency on all other aspects of life. We cannot turn this power against natural evolutionary forces of other beings, or it will turn against us. We will be splitting the atoms of a natural force, causing a random, destructive reaction. But there are natural currents in life, currents of evolution and consciousness raising, among all organisms in life. We must feel our way onto these currents and go with them. Those who fight it, using their own personal desires for selfish or harmful ends will face hurt in many forms. Rubbing against the grain causes antagonism, and no man is excepted to the natural currents of life. Those who follow these natural flows of energy and do not try to change them, will find an upward, cyclical or spiral pattern. There is light involved which seems to flicker in the conscious mind and stimulate various parts of the body. I think this energy IS light, just as fire is light.
 
I was fully conscious, sitting on the bed, cross-legged. I centered my attention within my body. It moved into a rhythm of breathing. It seemed the breathing out was heavily accentuated at first, then the inhale was deeper and then the inhale and exhale became in unison, both equal in strength and timing. Shortly, I sensed that this was enough and it was ready now. This recognition can only be defined as a sense, because a thought is a stronger and more directed thing. A sense of something going to happen is a feeling, differentiated from a definite thought.
 
I sensed the movement first, before the movement took place physically. Then the body started to sway gently. The head turned to the right and stayed there. The body’s rhythmic movements became faster and faster. This is the same action which happens each time I allow my body to succumb to these inner forces, though never quite the same exact pattern. It seems to be a random shaking up of the whole body. I let it happen and the energy seemed to come faster and faster, in violent movements. The hands jerked back and forth, then in a circular movement, the wrists flopping so that the hands were totally loose and flopping. The head swinging from side to side, faster and faster. The whole body jumping up and down, alternating to shifting from side to side. I imagine someone watching me while this is going on, and I can’t help but think I would look like a mad woman. But I remember reading the little I can find on such experiences that it has been labeled the serpent fire because of its tortuous movements. To me it feels as though these inner forces of the body are shaking loose all obstruction and trying to infiltrate the entire body, to make it alive and responsive to the spirit which is being tapped. Since the first few times, I have definitely felt my body more responsive to the moment, moving whenever it feels to move, instead of holding it in check because of outer circumstances. I was aware of this sitting in a banker’s office yesterday. My spine wanted movement and I wiggled it around, and the shoulders, and I could sense a balancing taking place ever so slightly. It seems these actions are a preparatory stage to go through, to make a person ready for the dictates of more responsible action ahead.
 
I remembered Bob while I was going through these movements, he was in San Jose. He had stressed that this power should be directed and I thought, yes, it should be directed. Just to let it happen and go on like this without direction is to play with a powerful thing. Two days ago, after 35 minutes of such actions, Bob came to me and placed my right hand on his neck over a lump which has been evident for a couple of years now. He told me to use the power constructively. At first I was self-conscious and probably blocked the flow. But then I relaxed and let happen whatever would happen. My body started to breathe deeply, inhaling deeply and exhaling with marked force, my hand pressing in on the lump. I was amazed to think that the force knew what to do. I think I stopped it before it was time. Perhaps not. I sat back and removed my hand and became aware of a dull ache extending up my arm to the elbow. Then my hand started to shake, faster and faster, wrist flopping. That was two days ago.
 
As I was sitting on the bed this morning I remembered Bob’s lump and thought to direct the energy which was causing my whole body to move in such erratic fashion and with such violence. And at that, my body stopped and recaptured a balance. Then I realized how strong it had been because my breathing had been exceptionally heavy. I felt then the energy start to quiver in my right arm which moved outward slowly and extended straight to the east. I was sitting facing east and San Jose. There are no words to describe the power or the energy that I felt. I did not control this movement. I have been learning to go into neutral, into a surrendering mode when the movements come onto me. Lights flickered behind my closed eyelids. My arm shook and I could feel a concentration of the force in the palm of my hand. I quivered strongly and my body tingled throughout. And then I sensed Bob and his lump and my hand slowly closed. I could feel my hand closing around the lump removing it as it were. My hand withdrew and the lump was being dissolved in my hand. The energy was like light burning it away and I clasped both hands together and it was gone. Dissipated.
 
Sitting still afterwards, slowly the rhythm returned. The breathing came in short breaths, stressing on the exhale, shorter and shorter when my body started to sway and move. I wanted then to open my left arm and hand for this power to come through. My attention focused there and it seemed  as though my body stopped upon the thought of direction. And slowly the left arm pulsed with the energy, not as strong as the right side. I increased my focus and eventually the pulsations came stronger and the left arm started to quiver and I looked for a direction to send it to. I thought of the Centro Cultural which Bob had talked about yesterday as an idea to start a group discussion there. I thought of the building and Mr. Green, the director whom we are going to see later. It will be his decision whether we will do anything with group therapy at the Centro. The energy was coming more slowly, but definitely there. Eventually the arm started to quiver and shake and, again, I could feel the concentration of energy within the palm of the left hand. It began to raise, as it became stronger and I pictured the building and Mr. Green and the energy seemed to extend and encompass the building. Again there was light and power and energy all around. It was flowing but not as strong as the first time with the right arm.
 
I feel that I am preventing the flow from my own knowledge, or rather lack of knowledge. I will have to become more conscious of it. I am sure my whole body, right this moment, could be alive and vital with this energy but my lack of usage makes me believe otherwise. It is the conscious knowing how vital these powers are that allows the power to flow. Man must become aware of his body and the forces that dwell inside. It does not take care of itself - it is up to man to recognize and use them. We were given at birth a body, but we must learn how to direct it, and build on it, and use the energies within it. I am quite conscious that my lacks and weaknesses are the result of my own ignorance. The recognition and experimentation of these things will awaken them for use. It lies within our choice, within our own free will and wherever we choose to direct our own will.
 
Sitting still afterwards, I became aware of the peace that comes from completing a job. It is like the energy becomes still, withdraws or rests after each positive action. Shortly the breathing came in short breaths again, stressing on the exhale, shorter and shorter. When my body went into rhythmic motion again, I thought of another direction. I thought of Marg Larkins, which was harder to do because I didn’t know what kind of thought to send. So I just thought of letting her self flow back to center and I saw her central force, which has been scattered through the years, and pictured it being pulled back to center. I thought of her being uplifted, though I don’t think I directed that. It just happened automatically. And both arms lifted, this time not so much energy was pulsating. But I was conscious of a concentrated force at the palms. The palms formed a cup and the energy was there in the cup of my hands, as a - like a ball of light and energy. The arms lifted higher and higher and Marg seemed to be the focal point within the light. It became brighter and stronger and my body tingled. The body tingles at the height of the action. In the past, I used to feel tingling at the height of a perception of some inner thought. The tingles go through the whole body like a wave. I think this must be a mild form of energy release, opening up the cells to knowledge or perception - like an open mind suspends all thought. Going back to when Marg first came to me, when my hands first went out and extended to the east in front of me, I sensed her being, or her body, or her whole presence. In the palm of my hands I sensed the pressure of touching her but not in the sense of a physical touch. It was as though I had “found” her and had contacted her through whatever channels you contact someone at a distance. I sensed her and at that point the energy started to pulse stronger and the ball of light formed in the cup of my hands.
 
I feel that the mind is such a sensitive instrument that when it is still and at peace, one doesn’t want to ruffle its feathers, so to speak. One wants to stay peaceful and not disturb the actions that are happening. But one slowly learns that the mind has a function. It doesn’t really “go” anywhere. It’s not asleep. It is just sitting in neutral position. One can form thoughts even while the force is coming through and acting. You CAN direct it. In defense of all nature, however, I would suppose that these forces cannot normally be tapped until the person has learned to direct or control his thoughts along a constructive line. Otherwise, the world would be in chaos, placed there by people tapping into limitless energy without understanding. The mind is a tool, a director of this energy, and it takes wisdom to know how to use it. Bob has been a constant reminder to me that these energies must be used for a constructive purpose. As he says, there are many people in the world who are doing magician’s tricks, but also there are many people who are healing sicknesses and disease. There is a purpose for man’s inner hidden powers. But the purpose, I think, is revealed slowly, as one learns to use them. Intuition plays a strong part in this. There is natural intelligence directing it, and the further along one goes in following his natural intuitions, the more he MUST follow his intuitions. He is prevented from doing certain things which would hurt either himself or another person. He is prevented by these very forces he has unleashed. Once he unleashes them he becomes them and he is unable more and more, as he finds out, to do things against his nature.
 
There is a tremendous science involved with this - a true and natural science. I think that possibly these ancient teachings that have been hidden for so many years, may be ready to be taught openly to people. But it must come in a direction controlled by this natural intelligence. I think it has come to many people who didn’t quite know how to use it. Definitely it needs balance, and practical application in the world of the layman. It cannot be totally and impartially scattered. Possibly Bob and I could do it together, but we must be open to the inner directions.


1977- Grounding ethereal thought in the world of matter 

(Found in my files with no date, a single page typewritten, when I first started keeping the automatic writings. Around 1977 or 1978.)

The master gland – the pituitary – the very center of the brain, governs and measures the growth of an individual. Not only his physical growth but his awareness, too which is infinite. You could grow in awareness, in theory and abstract knowledge forever, just as a tree could, in theory, grow upward and upward forever, if it were fed the proper stimulants to make it so. However, if a tree does not have a root system equal to the massive branches above, then it will become a very unhealthy tree and eventually fall weak and sickly under its own weight.
 
There is a similar root system in man specifically created to balance out his ethereal growth by grounding him. And just as with the pituitary gland, there is a physical organ which governs and measures his ability to stay on the ground with his feet planted firmly on the soil of practicality and earthiness. This gland is harder to understand and is infinitely more mysterious. The sexual organs, combined with the reproductive organs in men and women, govern and measure the ability to stay on earth. To live on earth and be happy here, fulfillment depends upon expression. And upon the health and freedom of both attributes – the ethereal and the earthy - the leafy branches of the tree top and the heavy and solid root system below.
 
The metaphor of a man to a tree has always been used. A quick look at a diagram of man’s autonomic nervous system will reveal an uncanny similarity to a tree. The tree of life of the Bible. Fine and delicate branches link up with larger branches which link up with even larger branches which link up with the main trunk line of the spinal column which descends to the pelvic region where it suddenly bursts outward again and downward like massive roots digging deep into the soil in ever increasing finer and finer branches. The pelvic root system with its glandular activities summed up in the sexual organs represents, in spite of our over complications, an extremely simple facet of man: the passionate and overwhelming desire of man to unite sexually with a mate is the desire for wholeness and union. Mental energy builds up, physical expression follows - a natural ground for a super charged electrical circuit. A splurge of love and total explosion of infinity in one finite moment. The feeling says it all.
 
It is the grounding and balancing of ethereal thought into the world of matter, into the world of flesh and sensation. There is a delicate, infinitely beautiful balance living in man and there always will be, between his spiritual flights of growth and his earthly pleasures. To grow spiritually without ever becoming grounded is similar to inflating a balloon. It will grow but remain empty inside until one day when its limit will be reached. Then the danger of bursting becomes evident and there is no place to go but down. Down to back and fill in the empty spaces.
 
On the other hand, to enjoy earthly pleasure only is as unbalanced as the other. If there is no spiritual growth, a man stays on one level only, as the animals do. Sleeping and eating and reproducing for sheer matter fulfillment alone. This eventually will bring atrophy to the spiritual powers of man and decay is inevitable. And so the two must go together. They always have. One must not be intimidated by the high cycle of another person who judges the opposing cycle. There is no teacher but one’s self. Only the inner self can feel the ebbing and flowing of the balance and the forces inside. Only the inner self can act out of its own knowledge of that balancing act. The privacy of thought is an immense world all its own – a university of understanding and learning. There is no room for outside teachers.
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3/23/81 - The gift of love from a spiritual teacher

(This paper is one of three in a row, entered here as 3/23, 3/24 and 3/25/81. They were found in tandem in my files only recently with no date. They are from the era 1981 when I was on fire to start giving classes in Costa Rica. I did not know I was channeling. High thoughts were constantly pouring through my mind.  I have assigned them dates to put them into the timeline. This is a single typewritten page.) 

The power and energy of a consciously awake individual and spiritual master may jump across space and time and matter to another individual who is not yet awake. Such is the power of spiritual awareness. It is a light of profound ability which extends beyond the laws of cause and effect that we know. There is nothing through which it cannot penetrate. It can dissolve barriers of heavy negation, such as centuries of wrong doing. It can melt disbelief in an instant. It can restore limbs in the twinkling of an eye. It has no limits.

When such a transmission is given to another it is given as a gift, for it has not been generated from within, but from without, from another person who has more than the one receiving. This is what is meant by the "grace of the guru", and upon such transmissions of spiritual energy which is in reality an awareness, has been built the entire structure of religious systems. From master to disciple who becomes a master to new disciples. From heart to heart the power is passed as from a father to a son, as a spark leaps from one live wire to another at the space of several millimeters.

However, this transmission may also be received without the help of a physical guru or master. It may be transmitted through the spiritual ethers from higher beings in more refined layers who are no longer present in the world, but who constitute the "heavenly hosts and angelic choirs". It is far more difficult to do it oneself, but it is a far more valuable and rewarding way, for the grunginess of earth's atmosphere is like a sticky, clinging mud to the spirit of the individual who must lead a life of involvement with the  affairs of the world. In order to tap this source of power which is felt as love, one must learn how to reach up with one's entire being, instead of allowing oneself to continue to be dragged down. This is the only way to reach high enough into the spacious realms of refinement to touch the subtle glory of love and pull it down and out into the form of one's life and circumstance.

It is through conscious effort and will power to do good for oneself, to think good about oneself, and to worship the good that is in oneself, that one taps the higher powers. It is done through devotion to the highest in oneself. And to begin, one holds a steady, consistent attitude of reverence for one's own goodness, and begins to take action to amend the wrong that has been done to the sacredness of the inner heart of one's own self. If one cannot love oneself, then it is an impossibility to love another and do good to another. The task begins with oneself.

One may use an outside form of good if one wishes, to get started in the right direction, such as using the model of Jesus in one's mind and heart continuously, or the Buddha or a saint, or Muhammed or Zoroaster. Or one may do it all alone, by simple devotion to virtue, through the praise of that virtue known as love. But such an action of inner changes in attitude eventually makes itself known in the outer actions of the individual - and the transformation begins. And so it is that we direct our attention to the shifting of our conscious thought to virtuous ends.


3/24/81 - The energy called love

(This paper is one of three in a row, entered here as 3/23, 3/24 and 3/25/81. They were found in tandem in my files only recently with no date. They are from the era 1981 when I was on fire to start giving classes in Costa Rica. I did not know I was channeling. High thoughts were constantly pouring through my mind.  I have assigned them dates to put them into the timeline. This is a single typewritten page.)

The sea of universal energy is in reality a sea of love, and everything we do either adds to or subtracts from that universal storehouse. When we enhance the joy of life, whether in ourselves or in another through encouragement and recognition, we increase the reservoir of that energy. But every time we put someone down, including ourselves, we sap the energy from that ebullient sea of joy and allow it to drain away, losing a portion of ourselves in the process. No different than blood is wasted through an open wound. Each action that we perform, each thought and word we give out, shifts the balance of love energy allotted to the whole world, as our intentions permeate the sea of love intelligence in which we live and draw our breath, changing the balance in our account to a plus or a minus. Occult knowledge is knowledge pertaining to the right use of this love energy which is all that is uplifting to the spirit of man, while the wrong use of love is all that pulls down, thwarts opportunity at every pass, discourages and connives to usurp the happy heart of man. Right use of energy comes down to us in our modern terminology as the word Righteous, which tells us that righteousness is not a moral act, but an act of efficiency and wisdom, conserving or adding to the store of energy which has been allotted to each human being to do with as he sees fit. He alone is responsible for his life and his destiny.


3/25/81 - Reunite with the spirit of love

(This paper is one of three in a row, entered here as 3/23, 3/24 and 3/25/81. They were found in tandem in my files only recently with no date. They are from the era 1981 when I was on fire to start giving classes in Costa Rica. I did not know I was channeling. High thoughts were constantly pouring through my mind.  I have assigned them dates to put them into the timeline. This is a single typewritten page.)

Before you rise in spirit, you must first re-unite with this spirit, for it is the light from which you originally descended. This is the light of love which is the spirit of man. It is the light of happiness, and supreme ecstasy and bliss and self knowledge. It is the power behind your self. You are but a shadow of this light self, a shadow lying prone upon the ground in a one-dimensional world of physical matter. But as you raise your hopes, your vision, your understanding, you will become absorbed once more into the light of this unlimited love which is the fire of your breath and your life.

Why is it so difficult, you may ask, for individuals to merge with the inner light of love? Why is it that more people don't succeed? The answer is simple, dear ones, before you can re-unite with the spirit of love and become as one with that pure love, you must first make your peace with this world, the world of matter, emotion and psychic manipulation. The problem is rejection which turns to hate and anger. The problem is that no one understands how to love and absorb the ugly one into the light, to transform the features of ugliness. The problem is here, dear ones, in your ability to accept the ugliness, or rather, your lack of ability to accept. Your world is a mere reflection of the struggles going on in the hearts of the people who live in it. It should have no hold on you. You are free. You have no responsibility for the struggles of others, if you could but realize it. Your only duty is to raise yourself. So begin to put your own life in order, pull yourself together and make plans to organize your life.

How do you make peace with your world? This is the meaning of this course. We will travel down the road of education - education in the ways of THIS world, not the next. You already know the ways of the spirit. This part is innate in you,. What you DON'T  know is the ways of the world, nor do you understand the meaning of your struggles here. It is a problem of THIS world, not a problem of the pure flame of love energy that beats your heart.


7/10/81 - Techniques of the light, mastering the sex forces
 
(A handwritten page found with July 1981 written across the top, and "channeled". This was in the beginning days  when Bob and I started to host seminars on swinging for couples only.) 

You and Bob and the people come first over the house. The house is merely a tool through which to teach the light. You and Bob and the people come first. When teachings start to come from within, don’t make the common mistake that most people do. These revelations are meant for you. Don’t give them indiscriminately to the people. First look at them. Learn to accept what is your private teaching and absorb them. They would not come to you unless you NEEDED them, called them to you. YOU are the magnet. They are meant for you first, last and always. Heed them. Drink them in deeply. Read them over often. This is an Ode to You.
 
Your eyes are the only eyes that see. Whatever you see is the only truth. Your heart contains the one and only truth. Whenever your heart speaks, listen. Listen. There are depths to your mind that only you know. In these depths, reality tries to speak to you. Whatever you know in these depths, know with all your heart that this is the truth. Do not let others tempt you away from that which you know. Your heart knows the truth. Listen to it. Relax and listen now. Sleep if you will, but let go and listen.
 
Do a second book entitled “Spirit”. The nature of spirit is to rise. This is what your people feel in mystical experience and in sex. It is what is bound and heavy during incompatible sexual experience and wrong acts, for spirit tells you what to do, which chemistry to follow that will let you feel good within yourself. It is the intelligence of the person – the true intelligence of the person – this then is your subject matter for your second book.
 
You do not need a three-hour session every day [of spontaneous movements]. Let your rising spirit tell you when to take it. Follow its calling and its urging as it manifests as mood. Don’t ignore it! In your exercises, when they take over, always seek to align your self with the momentum of your body movements – NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND. Sometimes your movements are slow and you think to yourself that you should be going at it more rigidly – don’t! Give in and give up to that spontaneous body force which is flowing in you and you will feel a wonderful release. It is your mind that is running away, pull it back. This mental fighting that you do is the cause of all your frustrations. On the other hand, there are times when your body is moving fast very naturally, following its own impulses which you cannot see and you think that you should slow it down. Why? Who are you to judge something which you cannot see? There is a time for all organisms, for all things and when the time arrives, flow with it. Give in and you will gain more and more all the time.
 
The law of spirit is magnetism first, last and always. There is no way to intervene with this law. It is the law that says like attracts like and it is not a manmade law! Let’s spend a little time on this one phrase and examine it. There are those who will counter with “But opposites attract too.” Such opposites are illusion. On the surface they may appear to be opposites and you have formed a convenient theory of how a lack is attracted to a surplus of one quality or another. But that is on the surface of the personality. They may come from different cultural, religious, or economic backgrounds. You could say conditioned approaches to life’s problems are opposite each other. But what you fail to see is the deeply buried, internal nature that is reaching out to feel and touch that same essence in another. It is spirit, unknown, unseen, undetectable and magnetic. The workings of the spirit cannot be altered by physical means when it is alike in both parties.
 
It is possible to awaken this sparkling effervescence while still living in the world of jobs, daily newspapers, television, violence and the eternal struggle to cope. It is possible even while holding down a job and while associating with people from all walks of life, moving all the while in and out of heavy environments that tend to cling. It is highly advantageous to learn more about the ebullient nature which lives imprisoned in a semi-dazed condition most of the time, inside the body and mind. Why does it awaken only on occasion? How can a person bring it alive? Is spirit mind? Is the spiritual person the ghosts we see? If a person is really a glowing, ethereal entity held prisoner inside his body, then why? For what reason? Who did this to him?
 
In olden days men were guided to enlightenment by teachers who watched their students every day for years. They watched how they moved, how they walked, talked and slept and ate. They tested their reactions which revealed their weaknesses and their strengths. The teacher came to know the student well, yet still it took years and sometimes a lifetime and sometimes a student never reached the goal of enlightenment – that state of conscious knowledge where everything one does feels good. It feels good because you only do that which is compatible to you, and anything you set your heart to, because you set it towards only those goals that are natural and right for you, you achieve. This is the place where you are re-united with the light of life, the source of all living things, the intelligence, the well spring of love and knowledge, justice and balance. Here one may rest and yet be moving; he may close his eyes and still see, close his ears and still hear, he may not eat food and still be full, sleep and yet remain awake.

Here one may rest and stop his endless searching and yet all that he could want would be his. Seriousness becomes a smile, happiness becomes glee, joy becomes eternal bliss. The knowledge of who he is, from where he comes is reached. He is secure that he will never have to leave this place again. The glow of fresh visions surround him continuously, elevating him in their effervescence, and all physical forms upon which he looks, no matter where he looks, take on the quality of translucence for the light of life within the form is no longer hidden from his eyes. He sees all things, knows all things and his knowledge dances in union with the light of the forms around him, no matter where he walks, no matter how low he goes, no matter how old his body gets. For his light, the spirit within, is free from the hold the flesh had upon him. And though he still chooses to live within it, his body is an enlightened one.
 
This is the promise that is passed on to you from ancient times, restated over the years by certain ones who know. It promises you that you too may reach this place, perhaps soon, perhaps a long time from now, but there is no one who will not reach it, for everyone has come from there. The age is here where we may tell you, not just the few but all people across the globe. You must work and live with other men and women, raise your children and perform your tasks that take you or time and drain your energy, but I will teach you the techniques that will bring you closer to your goal. They are not new, but very old, these techniques of the light.
 
Techniques are worthless unless you work upon your Self and not just your world in which you live. You must prune away the greed, the selfishness, the intolerance that you know deep down you have. These are the weaknesses that bind you to your prison of flesh and to your circumstances. Weed out the discriminations of the flesh and become discriminating with your soul. Master desire and replace it with a TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT attitude. Prejudice against any man, woman or child because he is black, yellow, Jewish, democrat or communist or whatever you have labeled him besides his name, must go if you are to see through clean eyes and master your pre-conditioned mind. No one else can do these things for you. No teacher, student, friend or parent. Only you. I can give you these techniques and guidance, only you can learn. Ritual is important. More later.
 
Misuse of the sexual energies is almost universal. It is another sign that the body and the mind has control of the YOU which dwells a prisoner inside. But you need not abstain from sex. That is a misconception that is as old as time. Personalized instruction are not just techniques to follow blindly but explanations of why.  Before we begin, your mind may wander a lot and you wonder where to focus your thought. Your inner body is made of light. Where special functions are going on there is even greater light. But I am going to give you only two great lights, important lights upon which to dwell. One is at the top of the head where your mind is waking up and the other within the sexual and reproductive area, where your body is waking up. As you follow the breathing techniques, go first to the sexual area and then to the top of the head. Allow yourself to fluctuate between these two places and go where it is the most natural to go. Body and mind must be joined by YOU, the spirit. Don’t make them important, just be aware.
 
These exercises are geared to lead you away from outside teachers. Turn to your SELF and your own awareness. You are the comfortable place. Be as comfortable and snug and warm within your body as if you were in the arms of a protective mother or father. Settle in and relax in those arms, for they really are there. You may not see them because you don’t know and do not trust. But they are there, warm and glowing. Your mind may argue that it’s selfish to feel this way, but don’t listen. Let the feelings that give you peace take hold – they are never wrong. Allow the feelings that give you warmth and comfort, these are what you want. Let them be your guide. They will guide you to the center. They will take you home again. Let the goodness shine, it is the truth, the sun. Here within are all the answers. Here is only peace and love.
 
Learning to use sex properly is part of the awakening of spirit. One is meant to become a master of the sex forces in his body which is the same spirit that is awakening. To become a master of something one does not run away from that which one wants to master. Too many people abstain from sex in the belief that they have mastered their desires. And when the feeling smolders inside them when chemistry strikes, they have to work harder and harder to hold it down and themselves above it. If one finds oneself “working” at it then they are going about it the wrong way.
 
The funny part about life that most people miss, is that the easy way is the right way. Nature tells you by a good feeling which way is right. Everyone thinks the hard way is the right way but the harder it is to accomplish a thing, the more you are swimming against the tide. Your nervous system knows what to do in all cases, if you give it free rein. It is following a discipline that you know nothing about, and therefore you must learn. The red rejection light on a computer warns “reject – improper info.” Good feelings are open doors leading forward.
 
With the arousal of the spirit comes a re-awakening of the sexual appetite. It is a necessary chapter in your education. The chapter is entitled “facing your own sexual appetite and learning all about it. Lab work required.” The God part of you is trying to reach the human part of you.


7/22/81 - How to avoid negative psychic experiences

How do we tune into enlightening and heightening psychic experiences and not the negative spooky kind? Consciousness is a light. That’s all it is, first, last and always. Your consciousness is a light, even though it is darkened now, it will become brighter as you remember who and what you are. Remember your capacities and your qualities, remember the whole thing. But for now your consciousness is like a flashlight beaming outward in the dark, and it illumines only that upon which you focus your beam. Everything else remains in darkness. So, if you read about spooky stories, think about the supernatural, or voodoo, or the sensational aspect of psychism – then this will be all that you see, all that will come to you. That is all you have illumined with your thought and your will. And whatever you dwell on will come to you. It is spiritual law. You attract it.
 
If you want to attract the higher things, think of them. Wonder about them. Feel the mystery and take wild guesses as to what it would be like to be “high”! Give yourself to it – yield to it, flow with it. Then you will receive more of that kind of thing. You will see those kinds of inspirational articles when you pick up the newspaper instead of the spooky kind. That level of goodness will strike out at you when you meet a new person, rather than his negative qualities. Wherever you shine your beam of light, there the world is illumined. It is illumined from within, it is seen from within, and from within you attract what comes to you. Your teachers abound all about you, but they stay hidden until you call them.


9/18/81 - The light in the pelvis

(This was channeled thru me after I learned that Rajneesh (aka Osho) had started a settlement in Antelope, Oregon, where he made splashing headlines across the country as a guru who gave positive spiritual teachings about sex. It was a powerful validation of my own newly awakened ever-present kundalini energies. I mailed it to Osho but never heard back.)

Hail to the Light
Oh, hail to the light in the pelvis!
Oh, hail to the light in the mind!
Oh, hail to the light in the cells in between
Throughout this body of mine.
 
Oh, hail to the light that is lucid,
The light all-knowing and wise,
The light that shines in the pelvis
From the throne in the heart in disguise.
 
Here in this tender region
I hail thee, oh light in man!
Here from thy fiery temple
Reveal thy wondrous plan!
 
Thou art a window open to the sky
Through which the light may come.
Now condensing here within
The heart of the pelvic bone.
 
Thou art focusing within the bowl
A crystal shape assume
Amongst the roots of the living tree
I see thy radiant form!
 
Oh, hail thou loveliest of jewels
A crystal diamond true!
Reflecting truth and radiant fire
The clearest, purest blue.
 
The spark is everywhere, I see!
A flood of golden light
Combining now with earth and flesh
To force thy Presence into Life.
 
Oh, hail to the light in the pelvis!
Oh, hail to the light in the mind!
Oh, hail to the light in the living cells
In the body of all Mankind.
 
Refine this inner brain and mind
This inner body pool,
That it may be your servant
And unresisting tool.
 
As one whole lamp aglow and lit
By the Presence of the Sun
Undivided here within,
Infinity is One. 


1981 - Future sex requires love
 
(I found this in the files, hand-written sometime in 1981, after we started exploring the lifestyle of swinging. I know now that it is DK speaking, but I didn't know it at the time.)

On a practical level, sex in the normal sense is a portal to higher consciousness but only when it is respected. Respect is an elevation of thought chosen by the mind. The higher the respect level, the higher the experience one may have during the intimate act. Let's say respect is the lowest level. From there, one may rise a bit higher through appreciation, then a little higher still through gratitude, then a bit higher through joy, higher still through reverence, and yet higher through adoration, praise and so on.
 
All of these thoughts, when held in the mind, are different frequencies. They put out and generate different waves that vibrate with feelings. They are felt viscerally, internally, as feelings when entered into. When thoughts are focused on these feelings, which one must practice with to better identify which is which, it is possible to "fix" them into that frequency like a laser beam or a flashlight held by the mind's attention.
 
When the mind wanders like a lost soul, mental attributes diminish and become defused. So the power of mind is developed by practicing with these higher states of consciousness, combined with the ability of mind to hold that focus. That is when the quality focused upon becomes a feeling. Mind must hold the focus long enough that it descends into density, which is physicality. Sensuality is a held thought focused on long enough to become physical.
 
In our culture we have not been trained in this art. Most people think sensuality is an accident that comes from some mysterious chemistry between people. That is far from the truth. We MAKE our sensual feelings by focusing on the quality we want. We "make" love by thinking and holding love in our thoughts, not by diddling the yoni or pumping the lingam.
 
When we focus our conscious minds on our heart we can become more loving.  The brain is the cold mechanical computer where intelligence is received from higher planes and stored. The body is where love is received from higher planes and stored. It's a step-down process. The two go hand-in-hand. We receive intelligence (which is light) and it becomes love as it descends down into the body from higher planes. The mind receives and passes it down into the body by holding it and directing it downward. The body receives it as sensuality. Mind and body must work together to create a loving sensuality. They walk the path together.
 
When we focus on the third eye, specifically the middle of the brain where the pineal gland is, we receive intelligence from our higher self. Our God-self. The third eye must open to receive. Until it opens, it can open and close randomly. The third eye mostly recycles what intelligence it has already accumulated. But we can receive more. We are infinite creators.  For example, one does not simply "make up" or pretend an emotion of adoration. One must think the thoughts like "I love you, I adore you, I revere you, you are beautiful, you are so precious to me." Thoughts of that nature. As one builds a momentum of this type of thought, which you can think silently, it doesn't have to be out loud, it raises your consciousness until you are literally singing these adoring phrases out loud. You are opening and receiving the beautiful higher conscious that is infinite and close to the creator and the angels of heaven, even as you are a physical body.
 
Your heart, which is where your true God-self is anchored, automatically kicks into action. The cells of the body, yours and your lover's, are stirred by this thought-triggered emotion of loving adoration because you are setting into motion the vibration of higher and ever-higher frequencies. This is the real secret of Tantric love which has been lost today.
 
If one is going to pursue this path, the first thing to consciously change is to stop using the dirty words common to our culture which we think are sexy and cute. They are not. They carry very low energy in them. They pull you down to the lowest common denominator - basic physical animal sex. These are downward-spiraling thoughts. They are heavy with not only animal instinct but unresolved and undesired instincts of terror, fear, hurt, pain, and more. The way to change them is to think the high thoughts mentioned above, starting with "I love you," silently in your mind. This is used in solitary Tantra too, where one person is working with the higher God self and praising the Presence of God.
 
Think words of love, praise and gratitude and as you say these words silently, pretty soon new beautiful words start to flow forth on their own. You are basically building a momentum of this beautiful energy, taking it away from the old ways and carving out a new groove that is precious and exhilarating. New neurons are created and put to work in the brain. You are literally bush-whacking a path through the tangle and undergrowth of the wild forest.
 
It is consciously-directed thoughts that tap you into the love energy stored on the high shelf of the heart. You have to reach up for them. These words, spoken silently in the heart, then enter into the blood stream as the heart pumps, pumps, pumps your blood, and carries the vibrations of your words all through your body, transferring it via vibration and breath to your lover and your lover's body. These words are literally being woven, as you speak them, whether silently or whispering them out loud, into the fabric of your muscles and tissues and elevating you to higher planes of consciousness and physicality. They are bringing more light and good, positive energy into you. It is a spiritual journey. Making sexual love is a sacred act when it is done this way. Sacred does not mean somber. Sacred means joyful, light-hearted and fun-loving.
 
Sacred sex is light-hearted sex. Most individuals you meet on the street would not know what sacred sex is. Most people don't know what Tantra is but they are drawn to the word like flies to honey because there is a vibration to it. A sweetness. A light. Love. If you are ever asked about sacred sex, you will know what it is. It is light-hearted sex raised to the highest level of love you can imagine or build. And it comes from the heart.
 
Through the use of conscious focus on love, gratitude, joy, and other words you can come up with, you can expand sexual energy from the groin to the heart, to the head, to the arms, fingers, legs, toes and higher into the etheric body, the mental body and the feeling body, and out through the physical body.  And you can do this with any partner you happen to be in bed with. You do not "love" this one particular person, you enter into the energy of love, appreciation, reverence, gratitude and joy within yourself. It is a loving relationship with yourself, and then you share it with whoever you are with. This is how you can love many people, and not be confined to one person for the rest of your life - which does not mean you don’t have responsibilities once you enter into an arrangement by contract and agreement. We all have ethical responsibilities to be morally committed to our agreements.
 
The skill requires developing within self. It lies within the morals and principles of each person. The skill does not lie within the partner to make you feel good. In fact, the one special person at home is the most difficult partner to work with because of repeated patterns that develop over time. Intimate practice time with other people is beneficial to enhance the lovemaking at home. Committed relationships need to expand into love in order to endure. Often, it is easier to work with a partner you are not familiar with.
 
A man or woman can become quite a famous lover by learning the art of sacred sex which is using consciously controlled thoughts of love and appreciation during the act of sex.  The sex partner will feel it if it is genuine and not contrived. This is the truer concept of tantric love-making. It is creating the love first within yourself and then sharing it. It is an advanced form of love-making. The traditional form of sex and love, as when boyfriend and girlfriend become infatuated and form an exclusive relationship, wears off in time unless they learn the art and skill of maintaining a momentum of love which comes from their higher selves. This is not customarily done for lack of education in the sacred arts. Most couples end up falling flat in the love department and take each other for granted.
 
Every couple starts out on a honeymoon high, a wave of love  for one another. It's called "new relationship energy". NRE for short in polyamory circles. But in time new relationship energy descends into taking one another for granted.  Boredom sets in and then possession due to not being fulfilled and jealousy if they look at another person. They do not understand what happened to the high of earlier days and want to get it back but don’t know how. The grip tightens on possessing each other and knowing what each other is doing in their absence. It turns into jealousy at glances at other women or other men.  The problem is lack of love within self. The spiritual path is about loving yourself. Loving yourself brings such a feeling of well-being and security that you cannot be afraid of losing your mate. You want him or her to be as free as you feel.
 
Typically, a couple falls into cultural habits. Everyone does it, we think to ourselves. It is expected. Taking one another for granted is normal. Limits are placed on behavior, jealousy follows and suffocation is the result, as we ourselves hold ourselves back from saying what we feel. We remain increasingly unfulfilled because we look to our partner to provide us with everything we feel is lacking. They can't. They simply can't fulfill you on all the deep levels that you are. Our needs are repressed.  Our past lifetimes are filled with this pattern of behavior because monogamy and possession of each other has been the cultural habit for thousands of years. We do it over and over and over, generation after generation. We are still doing it today, but today there are new inroads being made.
 
How to change this pattern? Talk about it. Find ways to open up about what you feel – and listen to your mate as they speak their feelings out loud. Don’t take it personally. Take it impersonally, with kindness. Go slowly. Talk honestly. Do not hide or repress your feelings. Having intimate encounters with others should be done without cheating. In open agreement, or as best as possible. Be careful of your relationship. You entered into it. Be responsible for your part in keeping it intact. Honesty is the only way to maintain a relationship. Hiding the truth from one another is a downward spiral.
 
The swinging lifestyle continues to grow because it works. Couples can experiment and enjoy feelings that are different than the ones they have at home. They can stretch beyond the rigid confines of a one-person ownership. Love is renewed at home when each partner is pleased with themselves for giving their partner the freedom to enjoy another person.  If there is a problem, hopefully they will try again and work through it by sharing their feelings openly with each other. It comes with a struggle and perseverance to get back on the horse to change the game into a positive, more light-hearted one.
 
The world has changed. The goodness of monogamy remains but the hurtful and suffocating aspects of monogamy are changing. It is a new age. When newness is brought into the relationship - and it's is up to each couple to decide together how to arrange it on a practical level – then there is more freedom in the world. You can expect it.
 
We do not have the right to repress our partner, and it is more important not to repress ourselves. Our first responsibility is to self.  It is through the conscious use of love during sex that sex changes to lovemaking. This is making sex into sacred sex.  A relationship includes the necessity of being honest.  No cheating.  A single person not committed can have as many lovers as desired, but when a relationship begins to form, honesty starts to play an important role. Otherwise, love is not being included in that relationship.
 
Cheating is an aspect of not-love. It seems to be universal today because monogamy as a cultural rule has everyone in its vice-like grip. The advice is, if someone is suffocating in a relationship that is too rigid, talk. Talk about it to the partner. Talk, talk, talk. There is no way that a relationship can continue to be stuck if there is talking about it. Sometimes one must insist on a sit-down meeting across a table when all else fails. Sometimes saying something in passing and going out the door, does not work. Give yourselves honest discussion times periodically.
 
Every couple in the lifestyle of swinging today, has "talked about it".  That's in quotes because talking about it is the one common rule in swinging. You have to open the discussion and talk about it. A couple can agree to just about anything if they talk about. They cannot move themselves past the stuck point of boredom and suffocation and even depression, if they don't. There are any number of ways they can relieve the suffocation, boredom and depression. It is the first rule of love - to be real by revealing your true feelings. Be brave. Initiate the "talk".
 
Be the brave warrior of your own heart by daring to step forward and stand in the sunlight of your own self, revealing yourself. The worst thing that can happen is an argument or a slammed door or temper tantrum - and then it passes. All things do pass. Do not be afraid. There are worse things that could happen. A person will be surprised at how good he/she feels when they take a stand like that. It is because they draw on inner power and when you draw on inner resources you open the door to even more of the same. A person is so much more than he/she thinks they are.
 
When you adopt a truly loving and authentic attitude, you find healing and support. It is through one's own heart that you find solutions that are unique for you and your situation.  Each person must take responsibility for his or her own thoughts and direct them to the heart, if they want to become more real and more authentic and to change their life from boring to exciting.
 
Regarding sex and lovemaking, it is not in the movement of hip against hip or groin against groin,  but in the movement of loving thoughts-made-into feelings, where one does not want to hurt another. The physical anatomy of sex is secondary and will take care of itself when the time comes. The focus on reverence, joy, appreciation and respect is what releases the deepest, best and most pure parts of a person, the highest and most refined ideals and motivations.  This is what fills the body with turn-on feelings we call sensuality. It is love and it comes from the heart and the mind.
 
Tantra, as it is traditionally taught, is with one special partner who is willing to work with you consciously, and it is "work".  There is a lot of practice time.  Couples were opposites. For centuries men and women had to really "work" at it to find a higher place in themselves because it did not come natural to them. There has been animosity between men and women for a long time.
 
Today we are seeking a new dawn happening. The swinging lifestyle is producing understanding between men and women. They are enjoying sex with each other on a higher plane. Mars and Venus are working it out.
But still, today, monogamy is stifling a lot of individuals. They are not able to "talk the talk". One person may really want to explore having sex with other people, but the other may not. Often it's the man taking the initiative and he is trying to talk his lady into trying it with him.   When your partner has no interest whatever in doing this with you, then what do you do? Do you put your urge for more sacred love on hold forever?
 
The only solution lies within one's own heart and inner being. Each person has a higher self that has all the answers. But those answers are usually buried beneath the layers upon layers of belief systems. There are so many factors to consider when inviting someone in to open up the monogamous relationship. These factors cannot be articulated. They must be felt as one walks through it, step by step. And beginning "the talk" is the first step. To try to "set someone up" is a mistake. Authenticity cannot be manipulated with much success. The heart is over-lighted by the higher self, which marches to a different tune than the human being which is weighed down by limited beliefs and fantasies.
 
Sex is a journey that involves your genitals. Spirituality is a journey that involves your ideals. Sex involves the lower body, spirituality involves the heart and head and higher. Most people in the lifestyle do not take into consideration the heart and head, but they GET THERE ANYWAY!  This is such an important point. The sexual lifestyle known as swinging is a higher path because people have to be polite, tolerant, and respectful. That lifts them above the non-swinging individual who is still monogamous or cheating on the side.
 
Many people associate intimacy with emotional pain so they want to just "have sex" only and not get into the bonding of heart, mind and soul, which is true lovemaking. Most women have shame associated with their genitals, and many men do too. They may THINK they don't if they were raised in the locker-room mentality of "men are men", but take them out of the locker room and connect (if you can) with their higher heart as I have done, you will find a great deal of resistance. I honestly did not know this five years ago, how hurt they are. How damaged and alone they feel. They want sex badly because it is the only time they feel love coursing through their body.
 
The fear of being emotionally hurt again - and this fear stems from lifetime after lifetime - is the impetus to rush the sex to completion to get it over with fast. Sacred sex and tantra is about slowing down and connecting with those emotions.  Tantric goddesses are popping up everywhere these days because the age of male-dominance has come to an end and the age of the feminine is rising. It is the age of Aquarius made popular by The Fifth Dimension. The feminine in all of us will rule. Peace will guide the planets and love will steer the stars, as the says.  With the dawning of the Age of Aquarius, which is the rise of the feminine gentleness in everyone, harmony and understanding, sympathy and trust will abound. There will be no more falsehoods or derisions.
 
When the feminine starts to rise in a man, intimacy exposes the underbelly of pain. It makes a man vulnerable because he feels soft and pure and innocent of heart. This is what he has been guarding himself against and steel himself so he won't feel it. It is the feminine in him. He feels afraid but that is why a man should try to find that soft underbelly within himself, and take every opportunity to step into with eyes wide open.  Opening "the talk" with a primary partner is an essential part of the journey because this is meeting vulnerability head on, and hidden within vulnerability is strength and power.
 
One doesn't know this until stepping into it.  It feels as if you are stepping off a 14,000 foot cliff into the air to experience free fall.  It is not required that your partner approve what you open "the talk" with.  It is only required that you speak from your heart and be true to your own underbelly of feelings. This is important (when the time comes) because your partner is entangled and enmeshed with you, emotionally and mentally. Disentangle yourself. If you duck out, cower out and do something without your partner's knowledge, guilt will move in quickly and harden you all over again, for you MUST steel yourself from feeling that emotional pain. Also, it is possible that your partner will know anyway, at least on a subconscious level. It's not easy to fool someone with a cheating affair. Some get away with it but not many.
 
Be free of guilt so you can be whole before starting out on the path of sexual self discovery. Sex is a powerful gift that has been given to human beings to experience the joy of heaven while still in a physical body. The orgasm itself has been called the "vibration from  Home".  It was given to us to enjoy, not just to produce children as the churches say. We know that because the female clitoris has no other function than pleasure, according to science. If it were true that females were ONLY made to reproduce for men, and gave men the pleasure only, why would there be a clitoris in a woman?
 
To enjoy the sensations and pleasures of the gods, as we were made in their image, then we need to start behaving god-like and goddess-like, meaning with beauty, grace, dignity, love-filled and joy-filled. True, there are schools of thought that steer us up to thee lofty regions but they also steer us away from our sexuality - and away from the richness that is possible to feel in our earthly bodies. Our juices are the physical manifestation of primal energy which flows like rivers through the spine, the heart, the blood, everywhere in the body. We can pour negative depraved thoughts into our that primal energy, which is neutral, or we can pour lofty thoughts of grace and love to elevate our sexual encounters.
 
In my opinion, sexuality is being redefined in these years. The lifestyle of swinging and swapping partners is merely a forerunner of what is to come. As the Earth shifts astrological signs from Pisces to Aquarius, begun in 2000, so are our bodies and minds shifting and changing. We are realigning with the feminine grace and gentleness. The masculinity in us - in women too - is changing and letting go of personal power and control to a greater power and greater control which is celestial. Cosmic in origin. Astrological signs are more easily readable as waves of love are coming in.
 
We are healing. Sex with love is healing. It opens gateways to the heavens within ourselves. We do have a heaven within. As we look at sex as sacred it does not require your partner to also look at sex as sacred. Your partner does not need to think like you do. This is an inner journey. You are only responsible for your own thoughts, feelings and actions.
 
Swinging is like grand-central station, many people coming and going from different places, different cultures with different belief systems. Some are negative, some positive, some neutral and just colorful. Some are weird and dangerous. The only way to make swinging beautiful and good for you, the only way to protect yourself, is to magnify the positive. Own your own thoughts and feelings and strengthen them with love. Don't be sucked into losing your power to someone else by doing things you don't want to do, or perhaps prematurely before you are ready, which make you unhappy. Own yourself and your feelings and speak them out loud. Be authentic and true to yourself. Be in the energy of love inside of yourself, in your mind and your heart, and you can't go wrong because you will be unable to hurt others or pressure them or control them when love is present within.  Then you will be free and enjoy the freedom to love, and the love of freedom.
 
Be aware of the WHOLE person, not just the physical person. Be aware of the limitations of this person, their boundaries and their fears - and love them regardless. Love them  back into wholeness again. We are all fragmented, every single one of us. We wouldn't be earth-bound if we were truly free.  But our work is to GET whole by taking the wholesome role of caring, intelligence, consideration, empathy - all of the words that we would call good. These are the high ideals we are here to manifest in our lives and behavior. We improve ourselves as we do. We can do this as whether we are in a monogamous committed relationship or experimenting with the lifestyle of swinging. We can change a smothering unhappy relationship at home, into a refreshing, loving encounter at home, by applying some of these beautiful and graceful methods. These are the moral principles that religions use to guide us, but they are also applicable in sexual encounters too - and in every situation you can think of: politics, business, neighbor relations, social projects, art, music, science, whatever and wherever. By taking focus off of the form and the goal, and putting focus on considered thought and feeling, we can change the world in which we live and move and raise our families. The form is not important; the energy we put into the form is.
 
Sex the way most of us do it is rather unconscious. When we are young we let our hormones lead us. As we grow older we follow the same behavior and wonder why we don't enjoy it so much.  Many people never get the change to let their hormones lead but are abused when young, shutting them down.  Then we become powerless to speak true for ourselves. Instead we allow our bodies to be used as victim or subservient. It's all due to unresolved issues of past lives which feed us, prompt us, remind us that there are issues we HAVE TO CHANGE.
 
Our earth bodies are animal bodies. We are spirit living in an animal body. As long as we are unaware that we are spirit living in an animal body, we will continue to be the victim or the abuser, one or the other, the way the animals are in the wild.  As we wake up to realize that we are a thinking, intelligent, celestial being, living in a body, and that we can CHANGE our life by changing our thought and bringing our power out into action, we are on the right track to a full and abundant life.  We have  the capacity to rise above it with our thoughts which in turn feed our feelings. Sex is the gift of the gods. It comes in three parts. Each part needs to be considered separately. The physical body, take good care of it, keep it active, feed it good foods, don't eat toxic food. (2) the subconscious, past life issues that keep popping up saying, "Look at me! Look at me!" (3) the mental body, the conscious mind. And (4) the feeling body, which is that part of you which feels and feeds you with impressions not able to be articulated. Pay attention to these perceptions because the feeling body is the pathway to the purity of spirit.
 
I have been studying sex first hand for a long time, actually for lifetimes. I have found that swinging is a first step out of the box. It reaches past many boundaries that formerly kept us locked into a prison. The journey is well underway to higher ground if we are participating in couples swinging.  Each individual steps outside the box of monogamy in his or her own time. It can't be rushed. But it is a sure sign of coming into the new age when a couple - a man and a woman together - agree to explore their sexuality with others with grace, dignity and respect if not love. It shows they have grown beyond ownership of each other. They have agreed on what behavior they will follow.
 
It is a sane and logical path for two people in a relationship. It is not jumping off a cliff to see what happens. They pre-plan it because they are growing beyond the first two chakras which are the animal chakras (survival and tribal). The first chakra is a powerful fight and flight energy needed in order to survive. The second is the tribal energy which gathers in tight family for ownership and protection. The third chakra is the awakening of personal identity. Personal power endows the growing soul with the knowledge that he or she can grow and evolve separate from the birth community. It is the beginning of reaching upward to higher ground, to evolve and become better and express what is growing within the heart and mind.
 
The majority of the population have been operating within the third chakra, which is the individual power energy, the "me" energy. We have been exploring ourselves in this energy for many lifetimes over the last 2000 years. We are now passing out of the third chakra and into the fourth chakra and into the Age of Aquarius, which is the heart. There is much to experiment with here, among which is the unifying energy of love, healing of factions, the ending of war and the dark forces of evil. Those who cannot go with the new flow of the heart will drop out naturally, one way or the other, as is inevitable when the tide turns because the ocean is bigger than individual ego. (From 1981)


4/17/82 - Sunlit magnificence (a vision)

Last night the presence came again, after fifteen months. Fifteen months during which I lost count the number of times I crumbled my writings into a ball and threw them into the wastebasket to stare hopelessly out the window at the ever changing colors in the air around me, oblivious to my frustrated attempts. 
 
How does one explain the splendor of the sun? How does one name that which has no name? Where does one find the temerity - the audacity - to attempt to fit that celestial brilliance into the rigid casing of the English language, where it must conform to human logic? For fifteen months I tried. I have been trying to create a helpful program of instruction to suit the times. There are so many people who want to know about meditation and the long lost powers of a race of gods now disguised in flesh. I could tell them. For fifteen months I have examined my task from every perspective imaginable. I have built it up and I have honed it down so that the simplest minds could understand. I have colored it with the truth that is stranger than fiction and I have filled it out with the meat of the practical mind. I have written it and revised it, again and again and again. And each time I have thrown it away. I have tried to explain the nature of that which cannot be explained. I have tried to fit the immortal into a mortal format, and for the last fifteen months the presence has not come, neither in the day nor in the night as it used to. Its absence seems to say, “Go ahead! Chisel it down to human size if you want but the fires of vision will not support you, nor will the majesty that you once knew visit you during such miniscule efforts!”
 
Finally I have been forced to admit to that which I once knew but had conveniently forgot. That which touches my inner heart from time to time, does so at the whim of a law not my own. That which illumines my inner eye is a light of a type unknown to me. I am but a fluff riding on giant waves, the recipient of a flame whose origins I do not understand. And so, two days ago I gave up in utter and complete frustration and agreed to stop all attempts to capture it in words. I gave up and in the wake of my surrender, the presence came again. In the night it came - that mystical light which conforms not an iota to the laws of this world, nor to the piousness of my body and mind. Undaunted by my imperfections it sought once more to establish itself within my being in all its sunlit magnificence and impart a message to me.
 
Somewhere around dawn it came. I do not remember if my physical eyes ever opened or not, for I was in that peculiar state of consciousness which I have come to know so well, and for which I yearn so much these days, where my physical surroundings dwindle into nothingness as the ephemeral lights begin to twinkle into a crackling alertness in my mind, which signifies the coming of a great event.
 
The following attempt to describe the vision is a direct result of that particular visitation last night. I must put this down in writing. I must. I do not know why but I must. As I awoke from the stupor of sleep, I became conscious of an immense sea of pulsating and sparkling lights which seemed to be electrical in nature. The over-all color was orange but with gold overlying and darkness underlying and blackness in the background. Upon closer inspection I found that I was WITHIN this sea of tiny little specks of light, each one of which was so miniscule as to be as small or smaller than an atom, for they were not able to be seen with the physical eye.
 
I did not see any one speck individually, per se, yet somehow I knew that each one was distinctly separate from its neighbors and unique. Yet simultaneously it was a unified part of the whole. The effect was like a strange kind of liquid undulation heaving with a mightiness that defied description, and a unity that defied separation. This flowing sea of lights stretched in all directions into infinity for, again I don’t know how, but I knew that there was no end. I seemed to be part of this network of crackling lights that caused a great increase in my state of alertness. And as I watched I saw that each tiny spark was a mind with a consciousness all its own and it moved and glittered and sparkled with an intensity unique from its neighbors. The overall movement was one of exquisite sophistication and harmony not unlike a great orchestra caught up in a symphony of sounds where each instrument moves only in relation to the whole, never, never by itself.
 
I was overwhelmed with the immensity which was so obviously a living mind with vast powers of intelligence capable of holding the whole system together and in my heart there rose a song of devotion and praise, and I knew that I was one of those sparkling specks of light. I was struck with awe, and no matter in which direction I turned to look I could see far and deep. And I saw the varying shades and hues of light, the darker ones brownish in color falling into the backdrop, while the most brilliant ones, the color of the sun, came forward to catch and dazzle my eye, so alive where they - and radiating.
 
And now comes the hardest part of all. My words describe what I saw but there was another dimension to the vision which involved a penetration of feeling. The message that soon began to impress upon me was done through this deeper level of feeling. The sense of awe and grandeur to which I first awoke out of a dead sleep, was only the beginning. For shortly I found myself within the brilliant rays of a flaming intelligence focalized in the form of a sun. It burned with a white fire, whiter than any white I have seen thus far, yet I knew it to be a person. And as I fell into the magnetism of this intellect, I felt myself absorbing its attributes so that I was no longer myself, though I must have retained the shell of my former being in order to remember and describe it now. But for that span of time I was a part of that magnificent singular mind - that most impressive being - and I felt the whole spectrum of goodness - compassion, wisdom, intelligence, love, strength, purpose, clarity, refinement - it was, somehow, a fulfillment of what every mind should be, although who am I to say? I cannot imagine any mind on Earth ever attaining this grandeur even if it were to evolve for a million years. Such purity is impossible to imagine and yet, perhaps not. Perhaps not.
 
As I was being absorbed into the radiation of those rays, it was like being absorbed into the delicious rays of the warm summer sun yet a thousand times over. I became conscious of absorbing also a message most especially meant for me. I was being drenched with a quite specific instruction, through and through, body, mind and soul. It was so abundant and overflowing that at the height of the message it seemed that I WAS the instruction itself imprinting itself into every atom that composed my body. The moving pageant of the entire solar system would have faded into insignificance compared to that one moment in my life. And now I must attempt a translation into English, for this is specifically my task.
 
There was a prelude to the main body of the message and it was this: Had I been outside of the brilliance of this solar presence I would not have been able to receive its message. Thus for the short time that the message was being impressed upon me I was absorbed into it to become one with it. Only this way, I was told, could I have withstood its presence. This knowledge was given to me through an absorption into my whole being. The main part of the message was as follows:
 
“There is an element unlike any element thus far discovered by mankind. It has yet to be researched and known. This elemental experience was given to me but I cannot describe it in words. I felt it and I knew it for the space of several moments. This element is similar to a power, yet it is more than a power for it comes close to being a substance. It is not fire, yet it is similar to fire. It is not water yet it is similar to water. It is not air yet it is similar to air. It is not substance yet it is similar to substance. It is not intelligence yet it is similar to intelligence. It has all of the above elements within it, yet it is more. It is somewhere between the physical and the nonphysical. This element has yet to be discovered and known and written about, and I am one of many who can do it. There are others. Many, many people are involved with it at varying levels, but those who are dealing with it on other levels cannot define it. I am to define what I experience. The visions I see come out of it and my movements are an effect of it. All of the incredible experiences I have been having come out of it and now I must put my experiences into words.”

In the lingering afterglow of this message I waited, as if on pause, because there was a secondary message. Its meaning was burned even deeper into the very core of me so that it became a permanent part of me, and it was this.
 
“I am not to presume that I know any more than anyone else pertaining to this element, for this is not the case. I have a certain purpose to accomplish, and I have been prepared to carry out this purpose. My purpose is that of a recorder, not unlike the historian who records the facts as he sees them. If there were no historians, there would be no history books for others to use as reference points and guidelines in their work with this new element.”
 
The experience was still going on as I began coming out of that brilliant place into a smaller, darker space and I awoke in bed beside Bob, who was still asleep, trying to capture the echoes of it as it faded. Through my mind moved the haunting impression of once having held the glory of a sunset in the palms of my hands. It took me a long time to adjust to the flat darkness of the bedroom, time in which I became once more conscious of the clock whose red numerals glowed in the semi-dark and the heaviness of sleeping bodies. The soft light of the dawn was apparent through the draperies.
 
At length a bird called and pulled me all the way awake. I lay still and then at length shifted and put one arm across Bob and pulled myself close against his warm back, glad now for his fierce protection which, in times past, so annoyed me. I was glad because I could tell him in the morning about it. Who else would have encouraged these other worldly things and listened with such patience as I stumbled over the words? I pondered the element. What was it? The extraordinary feeling of it still soaking in my depths. It was sensory. What does it mean? The feeling is hauntingly familiar. It is extraordinarily close. It is significant. But of what? I pondered a long time and finally went to sleep.
 
I woke about 10 with Bob and even before I opened my eyes I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt the meaning of the message. I could identify the element that has yet to be discovered. The element is the soul. The substance of the soul, the other side of the physical. I was stunned. My experiences have been with the mysterious substance of the soul, alive and real in everyone but yet unknown. The unknown element is the soul, that illusive substance of personal identity which is the keystone of the new age. Chills run through me as I write this.
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Postscript: This was written in 1982. Today 6/10/22, after a significant reconnection with DK, I re-read this again. He is showing me that the nadis, chakras and levels of the aura that I’ve been studying, IS the element called the soul. We call it the etheric body but it’s the soul. I’m having at this moment another OMG moment! 
 

6/30/83 - Preparing for classes

This was marked 1983. Papers with no dates are from sometime in 1983. I remember preparing to give classes in Costa Rica to be held after hours in the Edifio Noga, the new building in uptown San Jose that our business moved into. I had only one class there but I was on fire preparing for them. As I  started re-reading these journals on 3/28/17 I could feel DK‘s presence VERY strongly. I am sure it was He who was working through me to get these classes started. There are many papers such as this in the files, which I have overlooked because they seem to be my own scribblings. At the time we were going through a great upheaval and I couldn't get the classes together. 
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In order to awaken the inner senses, the outer senses must be softened and changed. This does not mean you have to make dramatic changes, but little changes here and there. All it requires is a little time and certain daily practice. The first change is to practice meditation. It is necessary to go alone behind closed doors for several minutes periodically throughout the day. This is to keep your mind in low gear and to prevent it from racing. As you begin slowing down your mind you will begin hearing your inner moods better and develop an attitude of greater respect. 

The second change is to practice expressing your true feelings more. It is necessary to express at least once during the day, one thought, idea or emotion that you would normally have kept secret and unexpressed. This is to soften the habit of mechanical action and mechanical response to situations. As you soften you become more responsive to your inner emotions and urges. You will activate the inner power which is dormant inside, except on occasion when it explodes in a carnival of expression.

The third change is to start changing your hard-nosed attitudes to softer, more understanding ones. Love is the greatest power in the universe. Do not underestimate the power of love, for it is a true power, and its hand-maidens are mercy, compassion, tolerance, understanding, truth, justice and freedom. These are the attitudes that will, when inserted here and there into your daily life, begin the magic of changing your inner feelings from coldness, isolation and loneliness, which is so common among humanity today, to softness when confronted with situations that once caused you to respond in a mechanical way.


7/1/83 - Universal principles  

There was no date on this typewritten piece. It was received around 1983 in Costa Rica. There is a statement referring to me, personally, typing this - an example of how the one who is speaking meshes with the personality it is speaking through.
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There are certain principles that govern the universe and the world - cosmic principles that are irrefutable but which mankind does not fully comprehend yet. These principles are the laws of God as they are written in the scriptures of the world, because there was no body of science in those days of scriptural writings, and therefore no base of common understanding of universal action and reaction. And even today, the main body of mysticism deals with those principals that have not been defined and proven yet by science. Little understood is the brilliance of the light of reason existing behind the mind, yet it is governed by a consistency that has outlived the birth and death of many suns, many galaxies. Intelligence governs not only this little world, but worlds beyond our vision, and it is with intelligence that we must approach our inner selves, our inner sense, known throughout history as the third eye.
 
By following these principles, they will lead us out to the other side - the side of universal action, universal light. Mankind, with his reasoning mind thinks that they are moral principles, unnecessary to him, but he does not see how his disregard of those principles brings about his own unhappiness. It is no different than the plight of the ignorant man who sticks his fingers into the wall socket, alive with electric current. His ignorance of the principles of electricity does not prevent him from getting hurt; whereas his knowledge of how that current is directed throughout the house can save him from physical hurt and further, can also bring him many happy rewards as he begins to wake up and understand the benefits of the electrical force.
 
One of the first principles of life is that it deals in fact - in truth. There is no room for pretense in the kingdom of intelligence. What intelligent man would lie or pretend an untruth to arrive at a truth? A reality? Pretense, half-truths, manipulations of the truth, anything less than the whole truth, will produce the same: something faulty. “Know the truth and the truth shall set you free,” is an example of cosmic principle given to a people before their time. It is an immortal principle and therefore, an immortal teaching. Until an individual learns to deal in the substance of total truth, he is working against cosmic principals and in such a battle, we know who is going to win in the end.  To deal in truth is not a morality. It is a scientific approach to a scientific law, yet unproven by the measuring sticks of the 20th century. In this lesson we will limit the philosophy of dealing in truth to the realities of modern problems. It is, as you may will imagine, a problem of great complexities, for most individuals have woven such a fine tapestry of half-truths that it seems, to the naked eye, an impossible task to begin dealing in the whole truth. We will discuss this, and also, we will discuss further the reason why we should do this. Proper understanding of the principle of truth is an absolute necessity before anyone will agree to begin dealing in it.
 
Another important principle of life as it manifests around us in nature is the law of attraction and repulsion. Intelligence demands the observance of reality in situations. If something fits it is good, if something does not, it is bad. This is not a moral teaching, it is an observation - a keen observation that looks deeper than the skin into the inner heart of the things involved. It is not good to mix hydrogen and chlorine in the kitchen because it will create an acid which could eat away the hands or the container that it is kept in. They are not harmoniously balanced. It is also not good to put a bird in the same cage with a cat because the cat will eat the bird. They are not harmoniously balanced. Each belongs to a different order. So it is with the affairs of mankind. Each individual has an inner sense which speaks to him whenever he meets a new person. It continues to speak to him as he talks with this new person. And it will speak continuously to him as he carries on his affairs with this person. One must learn to follow the inner sense when it comes to day-to-day involvements. One must learn to skim off the beauty from the so-called ugliness of life and drink it to nourish the soul and keep the flame of hope alive. Otherwise, to force unwanted conditions onto the inner heart will drain the energy away. Wasted energy is a double negative for it stills the sustenance of the inner man on one hand, and on the other it prevents him from the hope that would drive him on.
 
Another principle of life so often overlooked in the daily affairs of men is the principle of freedom. The will to express is an impulse of much greater proportion than is realized, and it is less than intelligent to prevent its expression, for the will for freedom inside each individual is founded in a universal sea of force and it will build inside the breast if restrained. We are not dealing with human forces now, we are dealing with cosmic forces which have existed long before man came on the scene, and will exist long after he is gone. For man is the cosmic resident inside the house of clay and the strength of the cosmos lies behind him, ready to push him over the narrow edge constructed by limited intelligence. One must learn on one hand to allow the creative ideas of others to express, without negation, interference, or judgment. And on the other hand, one must learn to express one’s own ideas, thoughts and opinions, in spite of negation, in spite of ridicule, for such will be swallowed up if one perseveres, in the splendor of the intelligence from within.
 
Each individual is a source of intelligence, a light unknown yet, for it is unexpressed. Each individual is an unfinished product yet, and the brilliant genius lies yet untapped. The purity of the individual is that which the scriptures call “divine”. And the door of this divine self is here, now, where you are. The inner sense is the innocence of that individual, untouched and uncontaminated by outside influences.
 
There are, in reality, three Selfs. The first is the one you know yourself as right now -limited to external situations and confined to the world of other people. The second self is that of the heart - the one who desires freedom and knows that he could have it if he acted, but he is afraid to act. Not quite ready to act, he wants to wait a bit. This second self is aware that the power is within him, but he is still too influenced by the outer world, and he carries a wealth of past memory with him - memory of other lives, unpaid debts to other people. He is weighed down by these unfinished businesses. Yet, he knows more than he says.
 
The third self is the pure Self, a flaming glory of brilliance and clear reasoning and noble vision. The third self is aware of the cosmos and the laws of the cosmos for it IS the cosmos. It is hard to explain the third Self. If you could somehow see into the heart of your real Self - the immaculate purity of your real identity - that which says I AM - you would probably suffer a stroke of the heart for shock and shame at what you have allowed yourself to become. But this is not meant as a judgment, it is the human scene. The crystal purity of the true Self is a power formidable in its nobleness and its desire for truth, freedom, compassion, mercy. The true Self could not live in this world. It could not allow the compromises that are the necessary part of human life. Therefore, it is covered over with thin layers of darkness to cut down the intensity and the brilliance. This is true with every human being, saint or sinner alike. And yet, this brilliant consciousness is present within every human being. Is the watered down awareness of the self, as I am, here, now in this house, typing on this typewriter. And so, it is this that we would return to - the glory of pure power, pure innocence, pure knowing, pure understanding, pure intelligence.  It is this purity of self that is called the third eye, the inner eye and the inner heart, uncontaminated by the world of other men, singular in purpose, singular to the creative urge within. How do we go about doing this?  It must of necessity, be a job of discrimination and great wisdom, for we do not want to topple the systems of the world. We want to integrate our truth and creative expression with that which already is. Let memory be washed away and cleansed so no recurrent episode can bring it back to hurt. Release those who have harmed you in ignorance. They do not know what they do. One day they shall, but meantime, don’t intensify your bondage to the human scene. Release, and let go.”.

7/3/83 - Your consciousness is God consciousness

Your consciousness is God consciousness underneath the layers that cover you. It makes no difference how many layers cover you, your consciousness is still a spark of God and when you say, “I AM,” God is pronouncing a divine statement. Or at least he is trying to pronounce it underneath the doubts and inadequacies that you think you have. Still, your consciousness is God consciousness, dull as it may be. Your consciousness is the consciousness of the supreme creator, toned down, way down, to fit into this world. And everything you visualize and make a habit out of becomes a living creation of your own making. Your consciousness is God’s consciousness.
 
Not knowing this, you have created some unpleasant habits, creations that backfire on you and gotten you into some unpleasant situations.  But they are easy enough to change if you will put the effort in for yourself. You are a portion of God consciousness, the cosmic intelligence that made the worlds, galaxies and suns, but you are covered over by seven veils which are in reality seven densities which hold you down, and through which you have to work to get back to the Godhead out of which you descended and back to your full awareness of who you are, and to realize the glories you once had.
 
The only way to get through those densities is to burn your way through them and dissolve those densities.. And the only way to burn your way through is by activating the principles of God. That’s what human life is all about - experimenting with those God qualities on the Earth plane. God qualities mean good qualities, because God means good. It was declared, “Let it be on Earth the same as it is in heaven.” That is the desire of the creator to bring his goodness into form. That’s what we are here to do. That is our job - to make them active and useful principles on Earth, and we do that by activating them in our lives.
 
So to burn through those densities that hold you back you have to activate the six major powers of God, each of which burns through one density. The six major powers of God are freedom, peace, love, will, truth and knowledge. These are the six qualities that burn through the six densities. The seventh quality, which is purity or holiness, will come automatically when these six are practiced and used every day in every aspect of life on a permanent and consistent basis. This isn’t impossible at all, it’s not only possible, it’s desirable, and it’s fun, too. Because contrary to popular opinion, meditation is not a wishy-washy art, nor is God a mamby-pamby power. All power comes from God and you have seen a bit of what kind of powers we have in the world. There’s a lot more where that came from but we first have to know what we are doing or we’ll blow the whole world to smithereens.
 
So, whatever you can imagine or conjure up in your mind is going to become a reality if you do it consistently.  We have to begin with the simply idea of visualization and how powerful it is . Lots of people don’t understand the reason for ritual. They think it’s better to be spontaneous, but ritual is simply the act of forming a habit. We are going to form new habits in order to break out of the rut of the old habits. A habit is a creation. That’s why in order to bring about changes in your life you’re going to have to do these meditation visualizations every day. It is suggested that you do them three times a day - for only five to ten minutes each time. That is not a lot. That’s only fifteen minutes at the least and thirty minutes at the most. That is all it takes to change your life and bring some of your original spark of life or radiation or power back to you. You were the original creator of your life and your problems. You are now going to learn some techniques that will jar you loose from the rut so you can realize your creativity again. This is not wish-washy. Meditation is not going to put you into a trance, but rather it’s going to make you feel more alert, more alive, more eager to get back out into the world. If your meditation doesn’t do that, then you’re falling into a trance. And although there’s nothing wrong with falling into a trance, you’re not going to become more powerful that way. You’re going to become another spacey dependent.
 
So let’s get started by putting some dynamic habits into your life - rituals that follow the same pattern every day. When you get bored with that ritual, then it’s time to move on and develop a new ritual. If you’re bored from the first day, then you’re not giving it a chance and you shouldn’t even be thinking of meditation. You’ve weighed God down with your consciousness. Your consciousness is still God’s consciousness and it‘s up to you to get back to your original purity.
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10/10/93 - Sexual enlightenment

There are many levels to the sexual activity and you could say there are many dimensions hidden behind the veils of illusion surrounding sex. Diana and her circle of professional and spiritual brothers and sisters all have one thing in common. They are interested in bringing sexual enlightenment to each and every individual who asks for it, no matter on what level he or she is. We are here to walk with you and talk with you. Anakosha refers to, and means the process of releasing the blocks around the root chakra at the base of the spine in the sex area, and instructing how to raise it up to the second. Anakosha means releasing the Mighty God Presence that is locked in the body cells. Specifically it refers to processing the God Presence [kundalini or holy spirit] out into manifestation and provides gentle guidance in opening the stubborn resistance. It refers to the ecstasy that takes place when the individual learns how to let go and let God “come out” into his/her life and body, mind and actions.

The process of releasing the sexual force is tremendous and momentus. It is earth shattering, quite literally, for it “moves” former conditions out of the way that once was blocking. But it is not enough to release the monstrous force for it could be a dangerous force. The ancient cultures knew this and had schools to help people learn where to go with this powerful unleashing, which is like a snake whipping back and forth, lashing out and back, it could cause harm. They are taught how to control it, not repress it but be mindful of it and work with it as you would work with a mighty and wild unbroken stallion with soothing words, a gentle touch, an understanding ear, a softness, a wise gentling down with sensitivity which includes understanding that this force must have expression.

This sex force must be released periodically in each person, according to his or her need. And so with guidance from “the one above”, referring to the next energy center above the root force [chakra], the emotional needs of this most basic force is met. This is where those of you who are exploring the swinging field are today. You are in the process of recognizing, contrary to your forefathers, that this sex force MUST have release. Further, that it is good to release it, not bad, not dangerous, not likely to take you to hell but that it is actually wholesome and healthy for you, for your relationship. It creates balance for the rest of your life. It is the soul. The seat of the soul is the seat of sex. It is the bride, the female force.

​“Getting into swinging” is a major step over the threshold of the prison that says, “No, you mustn’t”. For a couple discussing this, getting to “Yes, I can,” or "Yes we can", is a decision-making process that requires connection, discussion and a mutual decision. “Yes, we can!” Or “Yes, we will explore,” or “Yes, we will give it a try!” A yes means you are ready to take the first step into a journey that will never end. The raising of the sex force [the kundalini or holy spirit] is the raising of the soul to God. The repression of sex is repression of the soul. The prostituting of sex is prostituting of the soul. The guidance of the sex force through the six gates above the root, is the guidance of the soul through interdimensional sensitivity (second chakra), wisdom and strengthening (third chakra), unconditional love (fourth chakra), will and determination to act (fifth chakra), intellectualism (sixth chakra) and union with God (seventh chakra).


2/16/94 - The Urge to Worship 

On the animal body and the state of worshiping upwards, it is not the body which is animal in nature, it is the attitude that is the unpleasant part.  In your worship and prayer you focus upward, and indeed there is a holy draft that sings upward into the heights.  It is within every man, woman and child that this sacred flame burns upward, and it is the center of the urge to worship.  A mistake has been made in judging the body as gross.  It is not the body, which is mindless in and of itself that becomes gross, it is the mind that lives in that body.  And so we lend attention to the mind.

Let us turn the mind in an upward direction in all that we do and the body becomes holy - a temple housing a holy mind.  We are here to awaken the body temple and the mental temple and the emotional temple and all of the layers of the body to the fact that God lives here within.  God is the good within man. It is God, not the little i who lives here within these walls of flesh and psychic turmoil.  And so the need for prayer, meditation and the lifting of the mind upward, upward, into the elevated state of worship.  We must learn to worship as we perform our daily tasks, worship as we play, worship as we work, worship as we play with pets, tend gardens, make love.  Our bodies are holy temples, let us worship as we swim, and talk with friends and eat our food and work at desks.  Let us worship the holy One, God, good, within, and thus we shall refine our bodies and accomplish God's tasks.
 
It is time for dramatic change. It is time to assert yourself. Take each morning and dedicate yourself to the Cause that fathered you. The dense matter which entraps you is not listening to your words. Assertion is required. Assert yourself to make a space, a time, a place for your words. Dedicate each hour to a cause. Each hour is dedicated to a purpose and reason for YOU being here. You have a purpose above and beyond the density of matter, of being lost in matter. Cleanse and purify yourself, your body first. THAT is the first order of the day. The second hour is dedicated to your Father Cause, your own Holiness. I am the Holiness, thus say, “I Am the Holiness of this body and I dedicate this body, I consecrate this body to the will that I Am.” Believe on Me the Holiness of my body and all things will come to pass.


7/15/95 - Tapping the erotic lifestyle

My child. You are here with me now. Take your time to relax. Go with the flow from inner to outer. Allow the phone to ring. Allow the world around you to ring upon your ears and your nervous system, digest it. Be at peace with your world and your inner self, allow them to merge. We are gaining a foothold here, we are coming through to you more than you realize in your focused attention on work. What you are doing is good, let there be no excuse at your timing.

Now, there is one thing we wish to convey to you. We are longing to tap your individuality - that which is in your soul and makeup. The tranquility of higher consciousness coming through into flesh via the erotic lifestyle, the sex, is a rare activity and we would tap it and use it and bring it forth. Bring it forth into the outer world for all to see. We wish you to write your messages and talk to the people. We wish you to teach and go on television and radio. We wish you to write letters and speak on phone. We wish you to exude the sparkling ecstasy teachings just as the rose exuded the sparkles to you in the Oklahoma backyard of Karen. You are holding it back. You are holding onto a very precious thing and we would ask you to release it. We would ask you to allow it to come forth. We would ask you to give it to the world, to your friends and your strangers. We would ask you to be generous with your knowledge and let it slip through your controlling fingers. Release control and relax.

When you relax, you become yourself. You are a mighty personage, a mighty light full of love, why do you hold on to that light and keep it sealed?  Allow it to express, allow it to shine. Give it forth.  Let your belief systems melt away and simply give. The first indoctrination to giving and letting go, for that is a mystery to you and you do not know how to do this, is to take one thing at a time. Take one step at a time. When opportunities knock, when invitations knock on your door to write or speak or teach, accept them. Do not hold back. Opportunities are invitations to you to give of yourself. Do not try to give something tiny at home in a controlled way, but give outward in a big way. There are people out there who are waiting for you to give forth, to come forth and give. They are waiting and you know they are waiting. Why are you holding back? It is time for you to begin your teachings. Do you have any questions?

When in a quandry, let it flow. Let it go. We are helping and guiding. The weekends you mention are good, allow them to mix as you are mixing your own life together. The outer and the inner, allow the old and the new to merge and mix, they will create a new personality for you to show the world. This is the beginning of Anakosha the soul. The spirit that is ready to shine, the spirit that is in you. The beginning of the meld.  Allow Dennis to help, to teach, to learn, to show the way as only he can show. All is naturally coming about. Allow it. Allow yourself to be who you are, and support Doug in being who he is all the way. Let us go all the way. Let us stop the holding back, the exerting of control.  Release and relinquish control.  It is to your SELF that you are relinquishing.  Can you not feel that? That there is that within you that wants to do this?! You know! 

Let yourself do what you want to do. Let yourself shine, and tell the others to let themselves shine, too. When they are all shining, you will merge together to form a flowering pod, an essence of holiness that will emerge into the world as a fifth dimensional flower, a flower of peace and abundance, wrapping the arms of spirituality around the flesh bodies and lifting them up higher and higher. We are ready to receive the flesh bodies into spirit light. We are there, waiting for the bodies to rise, to lift them up, we want them to look up, to smile at us and to wonder where we are hiding. We are waiting for you, for them, to seek us out and reach up to hold our hands. We are waiting to come out and show ourselves to you. You are holding us back by trying to control your actions. It is no different than when you complain about men in the group room who control the action there. Let yourself go and follow the river that streams through you and flows outward onto your world.


10/16/95 - Greetings, I Am Anakosha

(I don't remember typing this, unknown date. Approximately October 1995.)

Greetings, I am Anakosha. I am the divinity in you.  I am neither male nor female, but the combined force of both - a force as opposed to a "cancelling out" as some would suppose, or neutrality.  When you consider the imbalance of male or female separately, you will see that each suffers from a need caused by a lack of union with the counterpart.  Thus the eternal search for a suitable mate which takes up so much time.  However, once that suitable mate has been found, the struggle for a mate is over and the struggle for balance begins, for finding a mate does not bring the long awaited balance.
 
The interaction between male and female is an interaction that takes place within yourself.  The sex force is a physical manifestation of a deep spiritual hunger.  The sex drive is the urge to balance the two extreme natures within you, positive and negative, or as some would say, the aggressive, outgoing, confident nature, and the passive, introspective, shy and hesitant nature.  These two natures exist in all beings for they are the yin and yang, the pendulum of the cosmic clock.  It creates the urge to grow and change.  It creates curiosity and the urge to find ways to unite.  The perspective from one extreme causes curiosity about the other and if the pendulum of opposite views should cease, outer activity would cease also, for the world would come to a rest in the arms of loving embrace.
 
But this is only an appearance from an outer standpoint.  An outside observer would not see the ecstasy between the two lovers, would not see the high energy of love.  And this brings us full circle back to the first statement of this discourse:  Greetings!  I am the divinity in you.  I am neither male or female but the combined force of your two opposing natures.  Congratulations, you have brought those two eternal enemies into friendship and brought peace to your members.  You have "jumped the track" of the third dimension and are now participating in the fourth and fifth dimension where oneness is the underlying urge, not two opposing urges.  Where once your main thrust in day-to-day affairs was war and struggle and finding solutions to end the struggle, in this new dimension of beingness, the underlying urge is to share.  It is not a struggle but a love whose only desire is to share and unite with others.  That is why you are called Anakosha - school of oneness.  You represent An, the One.  Kosha meaning school.
 
I am the divinity in you.  When the male and female nature in a person is brought into harmony and balance so there is respect and acceptance of BOTH natures (by the ego), then the wall between the two melts away.  The joining of forces creates an extraordinary power, the power to love, to heal, to soothe away fears and pain.  It is the power of the divine love, for the mystical marriage has been accomplished, meaning not two separate individuals coming together in marriage, but two separate parts of the same person are now brought into alignment.  An outside observer will not know what is happening unless they too be already on that high plateau and from that inner plane "see" the mighty event take place in another.  But try as you will, you will not be able to explain the condition to another who has not yet brought his or her male and female into alliance.
 
The urge to share with another man or woman from their fourth dimensional oneness will not take the shape of sex.  That is, genital sex.  The future shape of sex is intimacy and bonding.  Those who express the need to slow down are seeking to hold back their aggressive male natures.  Their control.  Those who seek to speed things up are seeking to spark, ignite the passion in their female natures - their OWN natures, not some one else's.  But because they live in the third dimension with physical focus, which is the eternal playground of internal processes, they transfer these needs onto their mates.  Husbands and boyfriends seek to ignite a firey sexual response in the wives and girlfriends when they are really trying to encourage and bring forth the totality of their own feminine self.  They really want to be able to accept the nurturing nature that is in THEM, and which they have for the most part denied. 
 
Their inner urge is to be able to feel and emote, vs. think and act.  They want to be able to cry and be in touch with the innocence and the child in them, too, just as their mate symbolizes.  So they are reaching for femininity, not knowing how profound, how deeply seated their desire is.  They have reduced it to a genital satisfaction (the sex act) because they are male dominant.  They are aggressive and thrusting outward into the world of others and other physical things.  They want to make a dent in things, to make changes in the world.  But the deep inner urge is to find peace within which only softness can provide - an easing up and a letting go.
 
I am Anakosha, the School to which you come to learn about Oneness. In your field of sexuality, you will play a different role than most. You will take the struggling male and the struggling female and try to bring them together. Use Tantra - the Tantrick tradition came about as a tool for those on the fourth dimension to help ease the way of those stuck in outer entrapments of sex. 


9/18/98 - Consider the opposite, look deep into the other side

(I am in meditation and questioning. Anakosha is a school, isn’t it?  What can I do to help the most?  On a practical level. How can I help? Answer:) 

Be free. Consider the fruition of purpose whenever you give a place to the sun of self. Be careful when you live happy. Redeem the power of your selfhood. Power is in the holding forth of your self. Where is the one you want to help?  Is it not here within?  Be at peace. You do not have to search for an answer. Rest. Relax. Enjoy who you are!  You are the love of the Creator. You are the power of the momentum of the Creator moving through you. Where will you go from here?  I will tell you. Please consider the world of the opposite.  Consider it. The plan is to merge, but the opposite must be considered. The place where you do not want to be, or where you have not made peace with. That is the plane of your love. That is the salvation of your beingness. In the quandry of the complex, look deep into the other side, the other side that you have rejected. I am here to serve you with answers to your questions, but you have to use those answers and walk the path that those answers pave before you. Come up higher and let us sing together the story of the first-born. The one who is your Self who has not fallen. He/she is every bit a part of you.
 
(I ask, what can I do to further the cause of freedom within Anakosha?) 

We of the higher spheres are watching you progress.  There is none of the old school left in you from the Zephyrhills days. There will come a time soon when you may go forth in your plans to implement the school of Anakosha.  We will help you. This is YOUR project. You are the one who is bringing it forth into manifestation. Do not look to us for credit or longing. We are your brothers and sisters, and we will help you, but you are the one who sees the value in what you are serving. We do not. We cannot help you with the values. But you are God in action and God is shining his light on the people in this movement through YOU. Your light, your vision is the brightness that will light the way for others to follow.  The support you give to your people is the strength of the will power. The highest cause, the highest purpose, the highest morality is the one you present to them. Do not give that up.

Allow yourself to shine and use the words that you feel in your heart. Do not look to us so much, but rely upon your own self to make this work. Do not place so much credit on the parts of others. Yes. They have their own strengths and powers, but retain your goodness and your virtues to your self for these virtues feed you and nourish you. If you give them away they cannot help you; they help the others. Energy, even God’s energy, is either given away or retained. Plausible actions are waiting around the corner.  Create from the right brain and not the left. This is your thinking side, and the side that must consider the practicalities of the people around you. Do not waste so much energy on wishing and waiting for the universe to give you what you need. You are the power. You are the energy. You are the one who will make Anakosha move. Do not be afraid. You will have what you need at the time you need it. We are here to help. 

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