Anakosha
Integrating sex and spirituality
Blog by Diana
Archives 5/4/14 to 5/6/15
Archives 5/4/14 to 5/6/15
5/6/15 - I have been asking myself why do I not want to provide massage any more? I love massage. I started out loving massage with all my being. I found great pleasure in joining, bonding, becoming one with another person through loving touch. But over the years I have been pulled into the sexual energies of men through my loving touch massage. It was a tumultuous, conflicting learning experience which has culminated in these final days of resistence. I find myself resisting the sexual behavior (turn-on) that I seem to produce in men (never women) while they are being massaged. I give of myself lovingly and wholeheartedly because that is simply who I am. But over the years I have fluctuated back and forth between wanting to continue working at masssage and not working at it. Sometimes I’m OK with it for my loving nature wants to assist the man to feel good, which he inevitably does at the end. I enjoy giving pleasure. Recently, however, I find myself silently saying “No! No! No!“
This resistence became so strong in me that I went into out-and-out rebellion. When my little cell phone rang, I stopped answering it on the spot, waiting for the caller to leave a message. Then I would make a decision whether to call him or her back. If I didn't want to, I wouldn't even call back. This was totally unfair of me, but I didn't know what to do. I was in total conflict and thus frozen like a deer in the headlights.
I continued arguing with myself, Why am I feeling this way? I want to do loving massage which is elevating for both the client and myself, but what do I do with the monster thus unleashed in the process? And why am I so against it? What is it doing to me? Why am I feeling this way? Massage has been an income-producing occupation and I've enjoyed the work - up to a point.
I decided to ask my higher guidance. I don’t ask my higher guidance often. I reserve this special privilege for the only the most important issues. But this one issue was becoming a most important life-altering issue and I wanted to know the WHY of it. This is what I got.
“When a man has his release in a sexual orgasm, he is expelling all the toxins and misqualified energies that he has allowed to build up within him. These impure energies which he himself creates, drop downward, pulled by gravity to the lower parts of his body. Uplifting happy thoughts and feelings gathers around the upper body and head and bubble upward into the atmosphere above the head, but negative particles are dense, made heavier by impure thoughts, selfish motives, unkind, hateful, and meanness. These fall earthward within the auric field of the individual creating a heaviness that encircles him around. The desire to have sex is a desire to rid himself of unclean emotions and thoughts which he terms “stress”. He feels it as stress and as a suffocation because it really is preventing his own pure life from shining forth and expressing freely in his life.
The desire to have a sexual blowout is a desire to get rid of this heaviness that has built up in his energy field and is now suffocating him. It is causing tension which causes erratic and moody behavior. It is like being in a straight jacket. Women experience this too, in subtly different ways. The life-long work is to learn what causes these mood swings. If a man or woman would learn to raise their thoughts to a happier, higher level and not permit negative thoughts or emotions to linger in them, they would enjoy a more pleasant and freely expressive life - one not driven by the constant need to have a sexual release to feel good again.
There is nothing wrong with sex but the intent and motive behind it. A sexual "need" is selfish, where a loving attraction to be with someone is not selfish but an expression of joy and wonder. In the latter case a sexual encounter would be relaxed and equally loving rather than darkly demanding. When sexual need is present, there is force behind it which is unnatural. When one has become more uplifting and happy in thought and feeling one feels free and no force is required to feel loving. No negative particles are involved that are pushing for release.
Human kind is here to learn to choose wisely the types of thoughts and feelings entertained. You are here to learn the cause and effect of negative vs. positive thought. You are the masters of your thoughts; choose wisely for you prepare your future by the thoughts you carry around with you today. Negative and depressing thoughts are best changed with forgiving yourself and appreciating even the bad thought. Love and appreciation is the transformative agent. Do not permit negative thoughts to build up and you will not build heavy dense layers that suffocate you.
Mankind is here to learn from mistakes, not be buried by the aftermath of mistakes. Be wise. Become enlightened to the laws of life and flow with them, not against them. Man is here to raise the energies that flow through him cleanly, like a fresh sparkling river of pure undiluted LIFE. Do not allow that pure undiluted life to become impure by negative thought whether it be a negative reaction or a negative experience.
There is a universal sense of “dirtiness” around sex and prostitution for this reason, though most people are unaware of the truth of it. Women who work in this field take these toxins into themselves in the process of giving the man the release they need. She is doing him a great service. Likewise the man who is performing the service for women. Or men for men and women for women. It does not matter who is performing the service, they are accepting the misqualified energies of the other. That is why you are resisting this behavior. Those who perform sexual services should learn how to cleanse themselves before and after so they may remain healthy in body, mind and spirit.
The introduction of Tantra is instruction in inner work. The Western version of Tantra is in error, with a sexual overcast to it. Tantra is a teaching in elevating thought. Practitioners are taught not to release their energies or physical semen (their dirty laundry) into a lover. Tantra is a beautiful purifying course of study that one may undertake alone without a partner. This inner work involves keeping one’s thoughts and feelings pure and uplifted. Even when a thought or a feeling enters, one learns how to be the master of those thoughts and feelings, and how to change them to kind, loving, intelligent and beautiful thoughts and feelings. In this way he elevates and inspires himself and all who come in contact with him (or her). Purity of body is also required, which one would automatically and naturally be impulsed to follow, if one's thoughts and feelings are inspired by higher and more elevated living. These are the trainings of Tantra. When done in advance, prior to love-making with another person, one has most loving and sweet encounters.
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4/19/15 - I may be coming to an end of a long, long epic phase in my life's journey. I have used this blog as a sounding board. I have been writing to "it" as if talking to a counselor. It reflects who I am, what I am conscious of, what I've learned. But I have been evolving my understanding beyond where I perceive most people can go who check this website. It has been increasingly more difficult for me to write because I have been discussing sex and spirituality as two separate facets of personality, and now I have reached the point where they have merged. Sex and spirituality have become one higher thing. It is so difficult for me to talk about sex as something separate. It's kind of hard to describe in words.
For such a long time the discussions here have been about these two separate parts of me - male and female. Sex and love. People who have found this site naturally read it from that perspective, and so this website has takeno n a personality of its own. Now that I have reached this realization, this understanding, which is rather a simple anti-climax to a lifetime of struggling to find it, I don't have a whole lot to say any more. Sex isn't some "thing" any more to figure out. Spirituality isn't some "thing", either. It's always been me. I guess I have finally absorbed my sexuality into myself. All I know is that sex and spirituality are no longer in dispute. They are no longer on opposite sides of the fence. I can say that because I have nothing more to say. I was considering removing this site, but then I realized that people are accessing the book "Swinging With Safety" that is posted here. And they are accessing the articles - more of the sexual articles than the spiritual ones. So if this site can help others I will keep it up. But it feels as if I have come to the end of something, as if my journey is over. Now what do I want to do?
Perhaps I will start a new website and ramble on and let forth a stream of consciousness. I am getting that most people are not interested in the spiritual side of sexuality. I am sure that is because there is a lot of unresolved feelings and issues about sex. Relationships are falling apart and new ones beginning. I am getting that there is a LOT of interest in sex. A LOT! And that spirituality is not entering into their consciousness. It is as if sex is sex and spiritual is something they don't understand and don't want to talk about. But people want something "more" to their sexuality and to their relationships. Men write wanting to introduce their wives to swinging. Women write they want to find a better lover. Divorces happen, polyamory is tried, more problems follow. This is the continuing struggle between men and women. Relationships suffer when there is struggle. And so do children.
My journey thus far has been playing through the crazy-weird-lovable world of swinging, while at the same time for 40 years working with, studying and absorbing esoteric, mystical, spiritual laws. It has been a profound journey, integrating these two opposing forces. It has provided so much insight, peace and a sense of personal fulfillment. Sex and spirituality merged together produces love. In higher law there is the concept of the trinity. Sexuality and spirituality producing love is like that. Two parents merging together produce a child that is greater than the two parts. I would be glad to communicate by email with anyone who wants to soundboard about this wonderful, beautiful and exciting concept. Most people who have communicated with me are not interested, so this is mere mention in passing. But sex does indeed lead to love, but then it is no longer sex as a separate act. When love takes over there is a merging of both parties, one is not more dominant than the other because love is the melting agent. This happens only if one is willing to apply the higher laws of goodness, which means choosing the high road over the low.
The high road means applying top-of-the-line wisdom, discernment, intelligence, kindness, compassion, and thinking of others before self. Giving instead of taking. All of these qualities combined are the bricks and stones that build the high road. Sex is a good place to start practicing. Applying intelligence, wisdom, compassion, tenderness, discernment, in proper doses as they apply, especially while engaging in physical sensual or romantic pleasures, leads to a quality life. One that is fulfilling, at least to the one who is consciously trying to better him/herself. Sex is a good place to start practicing because the problem remains that some people are pushy and others are yielding. What do you do when faced with an uncomfortable situation? Sex is a good place to start applying the higher laws because sex is not always easy. You don't always get those kinds of opportunities to try something new and different to gain personal growth and elevation.
What I have been connecting with through this website is men wanting more sex, and women wanting more love. Like east and west they never seem to meet. Is this an eternal conflict? One that will never end? Of course not. But it's a rare person who makes a decision to change. When a person chooses to take a different tactic other than the same tactic used for years prior, perhaps a little more intelligent approach, a wiser approach, either a softer approach or a harder approach, depending on the situation, there is inevitably a different outcome.
Sacrificing selfishness - "I want" and "I need" - and taking a step back to consider the other person usually produces more benevolent results for all concerned.
Sexuality does not need to be given up. What needs to be given up is selfishness, which is the one-sided view that my needs are more important than anyone else's needs. When I consider the other person over and beyond myself, and what his or her needs are, I immediately become a bigger person and access more love. Radiating more love is attractive. People want to be around you more. It's like moths to a flame. I have been practicing this for years. However, it requires balance. I have needed to discipline myself to use qualities that weren't natural to me at first, like discrimination so I didn't feel "used and abused". I had to learn discernment which means choosing for my sensual partners those I want, rather than those who want me. And courage. That was a hard one. I am a coward at heart. I don't like to stand up for myself but I had to learn to do that. I learned to have the courage to say what I didn't like. Honesty. How many of us have learned to be honest about what we TRULY feel and want and desire? We've been programmed to "get along with people". So we compromise and play artificial games to fit in. Integrating sex and spirituality, which is Anakosha's defining motto, is really about integrating all these noble qualities that we love in our heroes. Noble means the high end of a quality - that which is uncompromised.
If one approaches a sexual relationship with noble qualities one leads a decent life that is happy, natural, peaceful and abundant. In the sexual relationship there is plenty of opportunity to work on issues that bother people. Overly male people are pushy and need to work on applying softer, more tender, more giving qualities, like listening carefully, and responding truthfully, from the heart. Overly feminine people need to apply more strengthening qualities, like courage, will power, logic, intelligence and determination to speak the truth because feminine people tend to manipulate and fudge around the truth. There are many high-end qualities that have been sacrificed in order to get along in the culture. Children see this in adults and rebel against it. Children will always respect truth, even if it's a hard truth. They hate lies. They can feel when adults lie. They are energy beings. They feel a lie as a "wrong" vibration.
Today I have removed the page on Massage with its future massage dates. There will be no more attempts for group massages for couples. I attribute the low response to the fact that it was all about loving touch and not sex. It just wasn't drawing interest. I was unsuccessful in getting the point across that it could lead, over time, to a more advanced love-making experience tantra style, but it would take time. I think it was a good try and I am glad to have explored and tested the culture. it was yet another learning experience. I have enjoyed soundboarding with a few nice people who have contacted me. Insightful letters back and forth have raised my consciousness. But I learned that I am premature in trying to sell this beautiful, loving, healing, elevating sensual Massage in a group format. It doesn't work in today's busy "quick-pill" environment. Without a sexual reward at the end of the evening, nobody wants to waste their time. If only they could see beyond the immediate physical body. Most earthlings think that the physical body is all there is. NOT TRUE! There are levels beyond levels beyond levels, and each higher plateau is more open, free, loving and serene and beautiful than the one before.
I have been blogging for a long time about sex and spirit as if they were two separate things, but now that they are fused there are no more walls that separate. No more issues. Perhaps I could tell some stories that would highlight some of the issues (problems) I've seen in the past. We all tend to love story-telling.
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4/8/15 - Today I have posted a new page on this website called "Healing". It has to do with sexual healing but it is just "Healing" in the menu above. I watched a video today that is a game-changer for me. My struggles to bring about sacred loving massage for purposes of healing and elevation (without sex being the goal) have been answered. I understand now. Not enough couples responded to the "Massage For Lovers" that was scheduled for this coming Saturday, April 11, so it is cancelled. I am disappointed, of course, but now I have a better insight as to why. Most people have said that the "no sex" part of it has turned most people off, and yet that is precisely why I was promoting it - to cultivate the divine feminine, the spiritual, the sacred, the tantra that exists within within both men and women. Why not sex? Well, it's complicated but there is a reason. Why I promoted it in that manner will be made clear by listening - and watching - Shannon Post explain it as she is being interviewed by Andre Weber. The realization that most people are not ready for a healthier and more wholesome form of love and bliss, is clear. It is all about the divine feminine vs. the dark side of sex. She says it much better than I can.
4/1/15 - I have taken a break from Anakosha the last few weeks and feel myself moving on to some of my other interests. I had sent out another message - to this time couples only - about the upcoming April 11 Massage for Lovers that is on the calendar. I received one response and got all excited. But then nothing more. The lack of interest is encouraging me to move on to other things. I am coming to the conclusion that I am using words that most people don't relate to. Men in particular don't seem to relate. Women more so but women are not interested in presenting themselves for massage and being touched by strangers. Women have a different need.
I tried to reduce my lofty vision and come down to a more common base, use more common language and - yes - even allow that they can carry it further after the massage, by mutual consent of course. I didn't want to do that but I gave in, thinking I could attract more people to attend. But each time I take another step down to common ground, my interest diminishes just a little bit more, as if I am leaving something important behind which is a part of me. This is teaching me something.
How often have I tried this? Numerous times over the years. It never got off the ground. What I am concluding is, first of all, I'm not a good promoter but secondly and more important, the audience is not out there. They aren't prepared. There is a fundamental non-togetherness in many couples. A dissonance that agitates if you go down too deep. They have worked it out on the surface level for maintaining the family home but the heart-mind connection is not worked out yet between couples. Swinging works because it's just sex. Nothing serious. Nothing intimate. Nothing real. Which is why I keep trying to introduce a more heightened and conscious way of making love - something that is not "just sex". Something that touches people on a higher level where hope and beauty and refinement exist, along with authenticity and the body is beautiful not sinful and it is to be considered sacred. Such a connection stimulates personal spiritual growth.
It has been a long and tedious lesson for me to come down to earth and accept that most people are not ready to step into this beautiful place that I have been writing about for so long. But on the positive side, swinging is a first step. Maybe I'll return to the swinging lifestyle and promote it there. Not as a class on intimacy or love (which scares people so badly they go running out the door) but simply as massage. Lighten up. There are the women who have come to terms with their sexuality. They would probably love a massage to add to it. Well, maybe.
While it sounds presumptuous of me to think I have something to teach about love, the fact of life is, ALL women are able to teach about love. They could show or demonstrate it if they had the opening to do so. Women have not come out of their shell yet because it is a male-dominated world (mental and controlling) so women don't reveal their gentler nature. Some of them get bitter over time when they don't get the opportunity to flower and bloom where they are planted, which they would very much like to do. It takes an atmosphere of kindness and sunshine to bloom a flower. So deep down women relate to what I'm talking about. They can relate because I've put what they feel into words. I've noticed that some men are relating to it too but they tend to color it with sexual innuendos, where the women don't want to go there. At least not the way I am presenting it.
But I speak as a woman who has grown wiser and more loving by integrating sex and spirit. I am an internal creature which means I am love-centered. While men are different from we women we all come from different planets and different sections of the galaxy. But we are all here to mix and mingle and learn how to get along. I have learned that loving your way through it, including sex but not limited to sex, is just about the best way to solve problems and issues. Mental issues, emotional issues, even physical issues, can often be resolved through a loving encounter with someone. Love is like a magic potion that transforms things. Makes them palatable and sweet to the taste, like sugar.
I see everything as united and whole and complete and happy. These are the eyes through which I look at the world. In a recent conversation with my husband he was explaining why a certain law was becoming a national issue and causing such a big ruckus in Wisconsin. It was as if he were speaking Greek. I couldn't follow his words. I tried to figure out why. I know the English language but it was how he was delivering them that was confusing to me. He was taking bends and side roads and offshoots in his thinking, and right-hand turns and curves that sometimes went totally off my mental page. He created an ever-widening maze of facts and developed an incredible energy matrix around the subject like a gigantic mandala. Those intricate sand paintings by Tibetan Buddhists are always pleasing to my eye but not this kind of mandala! He lost me.
I am a simple person. I am heart-based and unity conscious. That means I see things through eyes of wholeness. I don't break things down into segments and compare them against something else that went before. I am happy being right brained and dwell in cosmic consciousness. I do not go easily into my left brain to follow someone else's complexities. When you come from the heart, you are simple and clean.
I'm not sure if Massage for Lovers will take hold. My take is that couples - the man and woman that compose a couple - are most likely not on the same page between themselves. I think back to how many women have contacted me through Anakosha. Probably one in 30, off the top of my head guess. Most of the people who contact me about massage are men. Their language is lightly sprinkled with sexual innuendo. On the other hand when women contact me they are interested in the aspects that are more lofty. They want to meet and talk. They see a friend in me who understands them. They are not contacting me for sensual purposes but for feminine support. I am now thinking about a Wise Women's gathering. "Women Talking" is a good title to begin with - we can discuss just about anything.
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3/23/15 - Is there a massage therapist out there reading this who would like to attend a senior couples swing party in Naples on May 2? Starts at 4 pm. Come early and relax. The cost of attending would be of course free, but I would ask you to provide several massages. At least two. I already have plenty of massage tables. I just need the expertise and the warm willing bodies who are semi or fully trained massage therapists. Licensed is not important because you won't be paid for your services. Either a man or a woman massage person, or perhaps both. I am wearing myself out and need help in nurturing these people. I am a giver and I have given so much of myself that I am being drained. I am seeking someone who themselves might like to learn more about swinging and perhaps participate whenever they feel ready, but providing massage is a good way to become exposed and meet some of the people. You will be providing a much-needed service. Frankly, swingers need it most because they are too expectant and rush through things. Contrary to popular belief, massage at a swing party would not be a sexual massage. It is for de-stressing, relaxing, internally relaxing, deep down inside. It is for healing, not for pumping up and stimulating them. Through massage you can help them get the REAL love energy flowing, which is locked up inside tight, strained muscles. Many people come to parties already stressed to begin with. They have been rushing to get here, driving a long way, trying to fit into the program and they're expected to perform when they get here. And they probably haven't had a massage in a long time so they are not relaxed. I have hugged some really tight people in my day. They literally bounce off each other when they're tight. I have done a lot silently working their energies into relaxation mode so that I could be with them comfortable. I don't like to be with someone who feels tight as a guitar string! I believe massage would improve the quality of love-making between them (and me!). Please, if you resonate with this, contact me. I would love to talk to you about it and other possibilties.
3/9/15 - In my communications via email with people who find my website, I tend to expound on a stream of consciousness that would be good for others to hear. Here is one such letter that went out this morning, minus the personal references. The parties refer to those that my husband and I host occasionally for senior couples over 50.
We don't refer couples to other couples and we don't set up private dates ourselves with couples we don't know. Our parties are multi-couple and tend to draw people from long distances. They are not local. The beauty of a swing party is that it gives everyone a chance to plan ahead to come to Naples and meet other couples and have some fun that night but also to go away with some contacts.
When I started out in the lifestyle with my late husband, I started out on the sex level. Parties were and still are for sex. But then I started to evolve. Sex alone didn't satisfy me. I wanted other level connections with other people besides my husband. The parties provided that for me. I have resisted private dates because a private date in swinging means you have sex with each other. It is expected. I learned that private dates were not good for me. It forced me into sexual encounters with people I didn't have resonance with. I have been learning through the swinging playing field how to manage myself. It has been a good school for me. It is not good for everyone. I have learned that I must have a connection on all four levels (mind, feelings and spirit before I can feel good about having sex with someone. Feeling bad after sex is harmful. All of this has been my own journey. Other people have their own methods of learning. I have learned to overcome some negatives about sex, and have brought a positive, loving, nurturing energy into my own sexual field.
Unfortunately, people who know me think everyone is like that and they aren't. Everyone is their own unique person. It is an important lesson not to judge a person by the cover on the book. So a party is the best avenue for you two when you arrive in Florida, if you want to connect with me. Then we can meet personally, and also you can meet some of the other couples. I don't want you to have unrealistic expectations coming here. Feeling free and open is the greatest feeling in the world, and we get that at a party, whereas a private date we would not. We don't get that in private dates except on rare occasions which are not usually repeatable. Sex is a school room. The sexual chakra is a foundational building block. In my opinion it is critical to have a good foundation in sex. Many people have skipped over that part and gone on into the beautiful energies of the higher chakras where it's more fun. In the end we are all trying to find the light (information) in ourselves.
Swinging is not a gathering of everyone on the same frequency. They are all different. They just play at being sexual while they are at a party. I tend to want to interact with an individual on higher levels. If I get the green light feeling that it would be good to go further, then I can do that because I'm not hung up on sex. But I need the green light first. I discovered that women are more complex than men. They (we) need more time to adjust to a person. Men respond to women on different levels. Some are aggressive, some are shy, some are hopeful, but all have been damaged by sex just as women have been. It's complex. So at parties it's not a "one size fits all" gathering. We are many. But it's a wonderful chance to find new ways to activate different energies within ourselves. People are mirrors and bring out certain responses in us. I have learned to read my own energies through this exposure to so many others. It has made me strong and forgiving of errors. But not everybody is like that, and it can get kind of hairy and creepy sometimes. Everyone is struggling with sex. It's hard work but it's important work.
I just don't want you to expect everyone to be on the same page when you get here. We will all be different. A crazy variety of different personalities. It is a good field in which to practice unification principles. How to harmonize that which is out of balance. We can't change other people but we can change ourselves from the inside, to provide ourselves with our own sense of harmony and love, which tends to spread out and influence others. A swing party provides an excellent vibrational field in which to practice all sorts of different energies, with a sense of fun and freedom, where sex is permitted but not to be expected.
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3/8/15 - Check out this video below by Anaiya Sophia. This is advanced training in the sacred sexual arts, which includes sexual healing so necessary for a more evolved love relationship. This is the best demonstration I've seen so far in the field of sacred sex. It is the woman who leads us to higher ground, but only when she is sufficiently prepared. Otherwise the male in her own self, and the men in her life will keep her sacred feminine energies subdued. A sacredly empowered female is known as a "goddess". Much of what is shown on this video is instinctive to women, but until a woman is fully empowered with her sacredness she will continue to be subdued by either the male in herself, or the men in her life. Anaiya shows an empowered goddess energy. She is showing a technique here which is highly skilled. You will note how natural the movements are. Women do this instinctively, without training, in the bedroom.
A woman is the leader of love because of her inner connection to spirit. She carries the womb of creation and the subtle energy field of divine creation. A woman's body is the connecting link to the divine, and through that to the potent kundalini stored on the etheric plane at the tailbone. A woman's body takes kundalini upward along a feminine path. A man's body takes kundalnii upward along a masculine path. Together, if both parties are in sacred mode, they may merge the potency stored in kundalini and become one and loom further upward beyond the physical bodies into out-of-body states of divine love. This is rare at this current age in our society, but more information (light) is coming to bear on the subject. Techniques are being taught. A skilled woman is a beautiful connecting link to train and prepare men and other women. But again, this is rare.
If a woman has had a hysterectomy, she still has those organs in her etheric body. She can still make the connection with kundalini. A woman becomes ready to receive the potent kundalini by studying spiritual law and integrating those higher values into her daily life. This helps her to master her lower urges of negativity, lust, fear, obsessions, jealousy, etc. As she takes better control over her negatives, she opens the blocks that have been holding her back. As she opens to cleaner, more wholesome values, she shifts her attention away from the negatives and more to the positives. Opening higher chakras helps her to access these higher energies (qualities). Listen and observe the quality of Anaiya's voice. She reveals she has mastered her lower tendencies (appetites). Watch more of her short videos on Youtube. For the men - if your position is sound and stable enough, you will allow the women in your life to express their sacredness which is uniquely a feminine quality. Look for the feminine attributes in your female associates. All women - mother, wife, girlfriend, daughters, nieces, friends. Empowering them with sacredness empowers you with sacredness. It raises you to a higher place. Forget locker room talk with the guys, there is more to life than that. A man has a different role to perform than a woman. Appreciate, honor and revere her spiritual base.
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This resistence became so strong in me that I went into out-and-out rebellion. When my little cell phone rang, I stopped answering it on the spot, waiting for the caller to leave a message. Then I would make a decision whether to call him or her back. If I didn't want to, I wouldn't even call back. This was totally unfair of me, but I didn't know what to do. I was in total conflict and thus frozen like a deer in the headlights.
I continued arguing with myself, Why am I feeling this way? I want to do loving massage which is elevating for both the client and myself, but what do I do with the monster thus unleashed in the process? And why am I so against it? What is it doing to me? Why am I feeling this way? Massage has been an income-producing occupation and I've enjoyed the work - up to a point.
I decided to ask my higher guidance. I don’t ask my higher guidance often. I reserve this special privilege for the only the most important issues. But this one issue was becoming a most important life-altering issue and I wanted to know the WHY of it. This is what I got.
“When a man has his release in a sexual orgasm, he is expelling all the toxins and misqualified energies that he has allowed to build up within him. These impure energies which he himself creates, drop downward, pulled by gravity to the lower parts of his body. Uplifting happy thoughts and feelings gathers around the upper body and head and bubble upward into the atmosphere above the head, but negative particles are dense, made heavier by impure thoughts, selfish motives, unkind, hateful, and meanness. These fall earthward within the auric field of the individual creating a heaviness that encircles him around. The desire to have sex is a desire to rid himself of unclean emotions and thoughts which he terms “stress”. He feels it as stress and as a suffocation because it really is preventing his own pure life from shining forth and expressing freely in his life.
The desire to have a sexual blowout is a desire to get rid of this heaviness that has built up in his energy field and is now suffocating him. It is causing tension which causes erratic and moody behavior. It is like being in a straight jacket. Women experience this too, in subtly different ways. The life-long work is to learn what causes these mood swings. If a man or woman would learn to raise their thoughts to a happier, higher level and not permit negative thoughts or emotions to linger in them, they would enjoy a more pleasant and freely expressive life - one not driven by the constant need to have a sexual release to feel good again.
There is nothing wrong with sex but the intent and motive behind it. A sexual "need" is selfish, where a loving attraction to be with someone is not selfish but an expression of joy and wonder. In the latter case a sexual encounter would be relaxed and equally loving rather than darkly demanding. When sexual need is present, there is force behind it which is unnatural. When one has become more uplifting and happy in thought and feeling one feels free and no force is required to feel loving. No negative particles are involved that are pushing for release.
Human kind is here to learn to choose wisely the types of thoughts and feelings entertained. You are here to learn the cause and effect of negative vs. positive thought. You are the masters of your thoughts; choose wisely for you prepare your future by the thoughts you carry around with you today. Negative and depressing thoughts are best changed with forgiving yourself and appreciating even the bad thought. Love and appreciation is the transformative agent. Do not permit negative thoughts to build up and you will not build heavy dense layers that suffocate you.
Mankind is here to learn from mistakes, not be buried by the aftermath of mistakes. Be wise. Become enlightened to the laws of life and flow with them, not against them. Man is here to raise the energies that flow through him cleanly, like a fresh sparkling river of pure undiluted LIFE. Do not allow that pure undiluted life to become impure by negative thought whether it be a negative reaction or a negative experience.
There is a universal sense of “dirtiness” around sex and prostitution for this reason, though most people are unaware of the truth of it. Women who work in this field take these toxins into themselves in the process of giving the man the release they need. She is doing him a great service. Likewise the man who is performing the service for women. Or men for men and women for women. It does not matter who is performing the service, they are accepting the misqualified energies of the other. That is why you are resisting this behavior. Those who perform sexual services should learn how to cleanse themselves before and after so they may remain healthy in body, mind and spirit.
The introduction of Tantra is instruction in inner work. The Western version of Tantra is in error, with a sexual overcast to it. Tantra is a teaching in elevating thought. Practitioners are taught not to release their energies or physical semen (their dirty laundry) into a lover. Tantra is a beautiful purifying course of study that one may undertake alone without a partner. This inner work involves keeping one’s thoughts and feelings pure and uplifted. Even when a thought or a feeling enters, one learns how to be the master of those thoughts and feelings, and how to change them to kind, loving, intelligent and beautiful thoughts and feelings. In this way he elevates and inspires himself and all who come in contact with him (or her). Purity of body is also required, which one would automatically and naturally be impulsed to follow, if one's thoughts and feelings are inspired by higher and more elevated living. These are the trainings of Tantra. When done in advance, prior to love-making with another person, one has most loving and sweet encounters.
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4/19/15 - I may be coming to an end of a long, long epic phase in my life's journey. I have used this blog as a sounding board. I have been writing to "it" as if talking to a counselor. It reflects who I am, what I am conscious of, what I've learned. But I have been evolving my understanding beyond where I perceive most people can go who check this website. It has been increasingly more difficult for me to write because I have been discussing sex and spirituality as two separate facets of personality, and now I have reached the point where they have merged. Sex and spirituality have become one higher thing. It is so difficult for me to talk about sex as something separate. It's kind of hard to describe in words.
For such a long time the discussions here have been about these two separate parts of me - male and female. Sex and love. People who have found this site naturally read it from that perspective, and so this website has takeno n a personality of its own. Now that I have reached this realization, this understanding, which is rather a simple anti-climax to a lifetime of struggling to find it, I don't have a whole lot to say any more. Sex isn't some "thing" any more to figure out. Spirituality isn't some "thing", either. It's always been me. I guess I have finally absorbed my sexuality into myself. All I know is that sex and spirituality are no longer in dispute. They are no longer on opposite sides of the fence. I can say that because I have nothing more to say. I was considering removing this site, but then I realized that people are accessing the book "Swinging With Safety" that is posted here. And they are accessing the articles - more of the sexual articles than the spiritual ones. So if this site can help others I will keep it up. But it feels as if I have come to the end of something, as if my journey is over. Now what do I want to do?
Perhaps I will start a new website and ramble on and let forth a stream of consciousness. I am getting that most people are not interested in the spiritual side of sexuality. I am sure that is because there is a lot of unresolved feelings and issues about sex. Relationships are falling apart and new ones beginning. I am getting that there is a LOT of interest in sex. A LOT! And that spirituality is not entering into their consciousness. It is as if sex is sex and spiritual is something they don't understand and don't want to talk about. But people want something "more" to their sexuality and to their relationships. Men write wanting to introduce their wives to swinging. Women write they want to find a better lover. Divorces happen, polyamory is tried, more problems follow. This is the continuing struggle between men and women. Relationships suffer when there is struggle. And so do children.
My journey thus far has been playing through the crazy-weird-lovable world of swinging, while at the same time for 40 years working with, studying and absorbing esoteric, mystical, spiritual laws. It has been a profound journey, integrating these two opposing forces. It has provided so much insight, peace and a sense of personal fulfillment. Sex and spirituality merged together produces love. In higher law there is the concept of the trinity. Sexuality and spirituality producing love is like that. Two parents merging together produce a child that is greater than the two parts. I would be glad to communicate by email with anyone who wants to soundboard about this wonderful, beautiful and exciting concept. Most people who have communicated with me are not interested, so this is mere mention in passing. But sex does indeed lead to love, but then it is no longer sex as a separate act. When love takes over there is a merging of both parties, one is not more dominant than the other because love is the melting agent. This happens only if one is willing to apply the higher laws of goodness, which means choosing the high road over the low.
The high road means applying top-of-the-line wisdom, discernment, intelligence, kindness, compassion, and thinking of others before self. Giving instead of taking. All of these qualities combined are the bricks and stones that build the high road. Sex is a good place to start practicing. Applying intelligence, wisdom, compassion, tenderness, discernment, in proper doses as they apply, especially while engaging in physical sensual or romantic pleasures, leads to a quality life. One that is fulfilling, at least to the one who is consciously trying to better him/herself. Sex is a good place to start practicing because the problem remains that some people are pushy and others are yielding. What do you do when faced with an uncomfortable situation? Sex is a good place to start applying the higher laws because sex is not always easy. You don't always get those kinds of opportunities to try something new and different to gain personal growth and elevation.
What I have been connecting with through this website is men wanting more sex, and women wanting more love. Like east and west they never seem to meet. Is this an eternal conflict? One that will never end? Of course not. But it's a rare person who makes a decision to change. When a person chooses to take a different tactic other than the same tactic used for years prior, perhaps a little more intelligent approach, a wiser approach, either a softer approach or a harder approach, depending on the situation, there is inevitably a different outcome.
Sacrificing selfishness - "I want" and "I need" - and taking a step back to consider the other person usually produces more benevolent results for all concerned.
Sexuality does not need to be given up. What needs to be given up is selfishness, which is the one-sided view that my needs are more important than anyone else's needs. When I consider the other person over and beyond myself, and what his or her needs are, I immediately become a bigger person and access more love. Radiating more love is attractive. People want to be around you more. It's like moths to a flame. I have been practicing this for years. However, it requires balance. I have needed to discipline myself to use qualities that weren't natural to me at first, like discrimination so I didn't feel "used and abused". I had to learn discernment which means choosing for my sensual partners those I want, rather than those who want me. And courage. That was a hard one. I am a coward at heart. I don't like to stand up for myself but I had to learn to do that. I learned to have the courage to say what I didn't like. Honesty. How many of us have learned to be honest about what we TRULY feel and want and desire? We've been programmed to "get along with people". So we compromise and play artificial games to fit in. Integrating sex and spirituality, which is Anakosha's defining motto, is really about integrating all these noble qualities that we love in our heroes. Noble means the high end of a quality - that which is uncompromised.
If one approaches a sexual relationship with noble qualities one leads a decent life that is happy, natural, peaceful and abundant. In the sexual relationship there is plenty of opportunity to work on issues that bother people. Overly male people are pushy and need to work on applying softer, more tender, more giving qualities, like listening carefully, and responding truthfully, from the heart. Overly feminine people need to apply more strengthening qualities, like courage, will power, logic, intelligence and determination to speak the truth because feminine people tend to manipulate and fudge around the truth. There are many high-end qualities that have been sacrificed in order to get along in the culture. Children see this in adults and rebel against it. Children will always respect truth, even if it's a hard truth. They hate lies. They can feel when adults lie. They are energy beings. They feel a lie as a "wrong" vibration.
Today I have removed the page on Massage with its future massage dates. There will be no more attempts for group massages for couples. I attribute the low response to the fact that it was all about loving touch and not sex. It just wasn't drawing interest. I was unsuccessful in getting the point across that it could lead, over time, to a more advanced love-making experience tantra style, but it would take time. I think it was a good try and I am glad to have explored and tested the culture. it was yet another learning experience. I have enjoyed soundboarding with a few nice people who have contacted me. Insightful letters back and forth have raised my consciousness. But I learned that I am premature in trying to sell this beautiful, loving, healing, elevating sensual Massage in a group format. It doesn't work in today's busy "quick-pill" environment. Without a sexual reward at the end of the evening, nobody wants to waste their time. If only they could see beyond the immediate physical body. Most earthlings think that the physical body is all there is. NOT TRUE! There are levels beyond levels beyond levels, and each higher plateau is more open, free, loving and serene and beautiful than the one before.
I have been blogging for a long time about sex and spirit as if they were two separate things, but now that they are fused there are no more walls that separate. No more issues. Perhaps I could tell some stories that would highlight some of the issues (problems) I've seen in the past. We all tend to love story-telling.
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4/8/15 - Today I have posted a new page on this website called "Healing". It has to do with sexual healing but it is just "Healing" in the menu above. I watched a video today that is a game-changer for me. My struggles to bring about sacred loving massage for purposes of healing and elevation (without sex being the goal) have been answered. I understand now. Not enough couples responded to the "Massage For Lovers" that was scheduled for this coming Saturday, April 11, so it is cancelled. I am disappointed, of course, but now I have a better insight as to why. Most people have said that the "no sex" part of it has turned most people off, and yet that is precisely why I was promoting it - to cultivate the divine feminine, the spiritual, the sacred, the tantra that exists within within both men and women. Why not sex? Well, it's complicated but there is a reason. Why I promoted it in that manner will be made clear by listening - and watching - Shannon Post explain it as she is being interviewed by Andre Weber. The realization that most people are not ready for a healthier and more wholesome form of love and bliss, is clear. It is all about the divine feminine vs. the dark side of sex. She says it much better than I can.
4/1/15 - I have taken a break from Anakosha the last few weeks and feel myself moving on to some of my other interests. I had sent out another message - to this time couples only - about the upcoming April 11 Massage for Lovers that is on the calendar. I received one response and got all excited. But then nothing more. The lack of interest is encouraging me to move on to other things. I am coming to the conclusion that I am using words that most people don't relate to. Men in particular don't seem to relate. Women more so but women are not interested in presenting themselves for massage and being touched by strangers. Women have a different need.
I tried to reduce my lofty vision and come down to a more common base, use more common language and - yes - even allow that they can carry it further after the massage, by mutual consent of course. I didn't want to do that but I gave in, thinking I could attract more people to attend. But each time I take another step down to common ground, my interest diminishes just a little bit more, as if I am leaving something important behind which is a part of me. This is teaching me something.
How often have I tried this? Numerous times over the years. It never got off the ground. What I am concluding is, first of all, I'm not a good promoter but secondly and more important, the audience is not out there. They aren't prepared. There is a fundamental non-togetherness in many couples. A dissonance that agitates if you go down too deep. They have worked it out on the surface level for maintaining the family home but the heart-mind connection is not worked out yet between couples. Swinging works because it's just sex. Nothing serious. Nothing intimate. Nothing real. Which is why I keep trying to introduce a more heightened and conscious way of making love - something that is not "just sex". Something that touches people on a higher level where hope and beauty and refinement exist, along with authenticity and the body is beautiful not sinful and it is to be considered sacred. Such a connection stimulates personal spiritual growth.
It has been a long and tedious lesson for me to come down to earth and accept that most people are not ready to step into this beautiful place that I have been writing about for so long. But on the positive side, swinging is a first step. Maybe I'll return to the swinging lifestyle and promote it there. Not as a class on intimacy or love (which scares people so badly they go running out the door) but simply as massage. Lighten up. There are the women who have come to terms with their sexuality. They would probably love a massage to add to it. Well, maybe.
While it sounds presumptuous of me to think I have something to teach about love, the fact of life is, ALL women are able to teach about love. They could show or demonstrate it if they had the opening to do so. Women have not come out of their shell yet because it is a male-dominated world (mental and controlling) so women don't reveal their gentler nature. Some of them get bitter over time when they don't get the opportunity to flower and bloom where they are planted, which they would very much like to do. It takes an atmosphere of kindness and sunshine to bloom a flower. So deep down women relate to what I'm talking about. They can relate because I've put what they feel into words. I've noticed that some men are relating to it too but they tend to color it with sexual innuendos, where the women don't want to go there. At least not the way I am presenting it.
But I speak as a woman who has grown wiser and more loving by integrating sex and spirit. I am an internal creature which means I am love-centered. While men are different from we women we all come from different planets and different sections of the galaxy. But we are all here to mix and mingle and learn how to get along. I have learned that loving your way through it, including sex but not limited to sex, is just about the best way to solve problems and issues. Mental issues, emotional issues, even physical issues, can often be resolved through a loving encounter with someone. Love is like a magic potion that transforms things. Makes them palatable and sweet to the taste, like sugar.
I see everything as united and whole and complete and happy. These are the eyes through which I look at the world. In a recent conversation with my husband he was explaining why a certain law was becoming a national issue and causing such a big ruckus in Wisconsin. It was as if he were speaking Greek. I couldn't follow his words. I tried to figure out why. I know the English language but it was how he was delivering them that was confusing to me. He was taking bends and side roads and offshoots in his thinking, and right-hand turns and curves that sometimes went totally off my mental page. He created an ever-widening maze of facts and developed an incredible energy matrix around the subject like a gigantic mandala. Those intricate sand paintings by Tibetan Buddhists are always pleasing to my eye but not this kind of mandala! He lost me.
I am a simple person. I am heart-based and unity conscious. That means I see things through eyes of wholeness. I don't break things down into segments and compare them against something else that went before. I am happy being right brained and dwell in cosmic consciousness. I do not go easily into my left brain to follow someone else's complexities. When you come from the heart, you are simple and clean.
I'm not sure if Massage for Lovers will take hold. My take is that couples - the man and woman that compose a couple - are most likely not on the same page between themselves. I think back to how many women have contacted me through Anakosha. Probably one in 30, off the top of my head guess. Most of the people who contact me about massage are men. Their language is lightly sprinkled with sexual innuendo. On the other hand when women contact me they are interested in the aspects that are more lofty. They want to meet and talk. They see a friend in me who understands them. They are not contacting me for sensual purposes but for feminine support. I am now thinking about a Wise Women's gathering. "Women Talking" is a good title to begin with - we can discuss just about anything.
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3/23/15 - Is there a massage therapist out there reading this who would like to attend a senior couples swing party in Naples on May 2? Starts at 4 pm. Come early and relax. The cost of attending would be of course free, but I would ask you to provide several massages. At least two. I already have plenty of massage tables. I just need the expertise and the warm willing bodies who are semi or fully trained massage therapists. Licensed is not important because you won't be paid for your services. Either a man or a woman massage person, or perhaps both. I am wearing myself out and need help in nurturing these people. I am a giver and I have given so much of myself that I am being drained. I am seeking someone who themselves might like to learn more about swinging and perhaps participate whenever they feel ready, but providing massage is a good way to become exposed and meet some of the people. You will be providing a much-needed service. Frankly, swingers need it most because they are too expectant and rush through things. Contrary to popular belief, massage at a swing party would not be a sexual massage. It is for de-stressing, relaxing, internally relaxing, deep down inside. It is for healing, not for pumping up and stimulating them. Through massage you can help them get the REAL love energy flowing, which is locked up inside tight, strained muscles. Many people come to parties already stressed to begin with. They have been rushing to get here, driving a long way, trying to fit into the program and they're expected to perform when they get here. And they probably haven't had a massage in a long time so they are not relaxed. I have hugged some really tight people in my day. They literally bounce off each other when they're tight. I have done a lot silently working their energies into relaxation mode so that I could be with them comfortable. I don't like to be with someone who feels tight as a guitar string! I believe massage would improve the quality of love-making between them (and me!). Please, if you resonate with this, contact me. I would love to talk to you about it and other possibilties.
3/9/15 - In my communications via email with people who find my website, I tend to expound on a stream of consciousness that would be good for others to hear. Here is one such letter that went out this morning, minus the personal references. The parties refer to those that my husband and I host occasionally for senior couples over 50.
We don't refer couples to other couples and we don't set up private dates ourselves with couples we don't know. Our parties are multi-couple and tend to draw people from long distances. They are not local. The beauty of a swing party is that it gives everyone a chance to plan ahead to come to Naples and meet other couples and have some fun that night but also to go away with some contacts.
When I started out in the lifestyle with my late husband, I started out on the sex level. Parties were and still are for sex. But then I started to evolve. Sex alone didn't satisfy me. I wanted other level connections with other people besides my husband. The parties provided that for me. I have resisted private dates because a private date in swinging means you have sex with each other. It is expected. I learned that private dates were not good for me. It forced me into sexual encounters with people I didn't have resonance with. I have been learning through the swinging playing field how to manage myself. It has been a good school for me. It is not good for everyone. I have learned that I must have a connection on all four levels (mind, feelings and spirit before I can feel good about having sex with someone. Feeling bad after sex is harmful. All of this has been my own journey. Other people have their own methods of learning. I have learned to overcome some negatives about sex, and have brought a positive, loving, nurturing energy into my own sexual field.
Unfortunately, people who know me think everyone is like that and they aren't. Everyone is their own unique person. It is an important lesson not to judge a person by the cover on the book. So a party is the best avenue for you two when you arrive in Florida, if you want to connect with me. Then we can meet personally, and also you can meet some of the other couples. I don't want you to have unrealistic expectations coming here. Feeling free and open is the greatest feeling in the world, and we get that at a party, whereas a private date we would not. We don't get that in private dates except on rare occasions which are not usually repeatable. Sex is a school room. The sexual chakra is a foundational building block. In my opinion it is critical to have a good foundation in sex. Many people have skipped over that part and gone on into the beautiful energies of the higher chakras where it's more fun. In the end we are all trying to find the light (information) in ourselves.
Swinging is not a gathering of everyone on the same frequency. They are all different. They just play at being sexual while they are at a party. I tend to want to interact with an individual on higher levels. If I get the green light feeling that it would be good to go further, then I can do that because I'm not hung up on sex. But I need the green light first. I discovered that women are more complex than men. They (we) need more time to adjust to a person. Men respond to women on different levels. Some are aggressive, some are shy, some are hopeful, but all have been damaged by sex just as women have been. It's complex. So at parties it's not a "one size fits all" gathering. We are many. But it's a wonderful chance to find new ways to activate different energies within ourselves. People are mirrors and bring out certain responses in us. I have learned to read my own energies through this exposure to so many others. It has made me strong and forgiving of errors. But not everybody is like that, and it can get kind of hairy and creepy sometimes. Everyone is struggling with sex. It's hard work but it's important work.
I just don't want you to expect everyone to be on the same page when you get here. We will all be different. A crazy variety of different personalities. It is a good field in which to practice unification principles. How to harmonize that which is out of balance. We can't change other people but we can change ourselves from the inside, to provide ourselves with our own sense of harmony and love, which tends to spread out and influence others. A swing party provides an excellent vibrational field in which to practice all sorts of different energies, with a sense of fun and freedom, where sex is permitted but not to be expected.
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3/8/15 - Check out this video below by Anaiya Sophia. This is advanced training in the sacred sexual arts, which includes sexual healing so necessary for a more evolved love relationship. This is the best demonstration I've seen so far in the field of sacred sex. It is the woman who leads us to higher ground, but only when she is sufficiently prepared. Otherwise the male in her own self, and the men in her life will keep her sacred feminine energies subdued. A sacredly empowered female is known as a "goddess". Much of what is shown on this video is instinctive to women, but until a woman is fully empowered with her sacredness she will continue to be subdued by either the male in herself, or the men in her life. Anaiya shows an empowered goddess energy. She is showing a technique here which is highly skilled. You will note how natural the movements are. Women do this instinctively, without training, in the bedroom.
A woman is the leader of love because of her inner connection to spirit. She carries the womb of creation and the subtle energy field of divine creation. A woman's body is the connecting link to the divine, and through that to the potent kundalini stored on the etheric plane at the tailbone. A woman's body takes kundalini upward along a feminine path. A man's body takes kundalnii upward along a masculine path. Together, if both parties are in sacred mode, they may merge the potency stored in kundalini and become one and loom further upward beyond the physical bodies into out-of-body states of divine love. This is rare at this current age in our society, but more information (light) is coming to bear on the subject. Techniques are being taught. A skilled woman is a beautiful connecting link to train and prepare men and other women. But again, this is rare.
If a woman has had a hysterectomy, she still has those organs in her etheric body. She can still make the connection with kundalini. A woman becomes ready to receive the potent kundalini by studying spiritual law and integrating those higher values into her daily life. This helps her to master her lower urges of negativity, lust, fear, obsessions, jealousy, etc. As she takes better control over her negatives, she opens the blocks that have been holding her back. As she opens to cleaner, more wholesome values, she shifts her attention away from the negatives and more to the positives. Opening higher chakras helps her to access these higher energies (qualities). Listen and observe the quality of Anaiya's voice. She reveals she has mastered her lower tendencies (appetites). Watch more of her short videos on Youtube. For the men - if your position is sound and stable enough, you will allow the women in your life to express their sacredness which is uniquely a feminine quality. Look for the feminine attributes in your female associates. All women - mother, wife, girlfriend, daughters, nieces, friends. Empowering them with sacredness empowers you with sacredness. It raises you to a higher place. Forget locker room talk with the guys, there is more to life than that. A man has a different role to perform than a woman. Appreciate, honor and revere her spiritual base.
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3/7/15 - I’ve met some people recently who have lost their loved ones. It throws you for a loop when, for ANY reason, you find yourself alone. The lessons of the sages from the East are now coming to bear fruit. The stillness that meditation practice brings about, is the withdrawing of our energies on other people and external objects. We were born into a world of separation when we were born as babies. We left the comfort of knowing ourselves and being at peace with ourselves, prior to birth, and then we found ourselves in this tiny little form. We had to depend on others to survive and over our growing up years we learned to interact with others and depend on them, one at a time. Family, friends, co-workers, employers, lovers. Being dependent on others is the world we were born into. A pretty sucky world it has been. But as we mature we grow wiser and more inward. Our journey brings us inevitably back to ourselves. Plus the world is going through a massive shift in consciousness which adds to the confusion. More spiritual techniques are coming to light. Light is information. Information is light. We have been living in a world of darkness, disinformation and confusion, so the shards of light coming in (new spiritual information) is pointing us in the right direction.
These also add to our ability to connect more intimately and lovingly with our partners, for as we connect with ourself better, we automatically become closer to those near and dear. I've been involved in the spiritual path for a long time. It brings me closer and closer to those I am intimate with because I am more in touch with myself. My journey keeps winding upward to open new vistas, higher views, deeper values, more exquisite physical life. So if you are one who is depressed because of losing someone, or simply depressed because you feel so alone and lonely and undervalued, then it is time to turn inward and let go of those old thoughts. Easier said than done, UNLESS you have a path and something solid to hang your hat on. You have the power to be self-sustained. You were self-sustained before you were born as a helpless baby and you learned to become dependent on others. Then someone disappears from your life, or something is taken away from you. This has thrown you for a loop because you forgot - we all forget - we are self-sustaining. The only way out of misery and depression - some people are even suicidal - is to return to self. This is where the Eastern sages are coming in handy. They have some wonderful techniques to teach. They have the meditation techniques. I would encourage anyone who is depressed to find a class that speaks to you. Look around. Joining a group of yoga practice or meditation practice is a good place to begin recapturing your own personal power.
Spiritual awakening is like a journey through a forest. When everything familiar falls away and you feel lost, that is the beginning of the spiritual journey. It is in the unbalancing and instability that we look around for something solid. Where do we look to find stability? To your inner self. The search begins. It takes an effort to stop looking to other people for fulfillment and answers. The inner path is what takes us through the scary space of loss and depression and out the other side. The inner path is a conscious awakening journey. When we stop relying on others for answers, when we take time to sit in silence with a particular technique, then we begin to experience self-empowerment - the empowering of our own inner vitality. We call it the real self which doesn‘t die with the body. When we sit in stillness and silence in the void, we access information which is in the meridians flowing through us and in our chakras through which the light flows into us.
When we sit in the silence, like in yoga or meditation, and just observe, just listen to our body talking to us, our INNER body talking, we start feeling peaceful. There is a light in the center of the heart and it radiates peace out in concentric waves like a pebble thrown in a pond. This light is information of a higher order than what we learned growing up, which taught us to depend on first the mother, then the father, then the siblings, then the friends, then the law, the government, the love of our life - and we learned hard lessons because these were undependable. They shifted and changed.
The only solid person there is, is the inner self, which is the understanding and the knowing within. There is information that comes to us in the stillness of meditation when we are really, really quiet. The information comes in the form of peace and stillness and a looming knowing. It doesn't come in words. It feels comfortable and serene. it is called "self empowerment", not "ego empowerment" but "self empowerment" as in your immortal self who lives forever and can never die. This is not some vague promise. It is practical. That’s why so many people are turning to yoga and/or meditation. It produces real results. It’s primal, vital energy, that clears the head by clearing away the fuzziness of others.
When I stay in meditation (in silence) I become really blissful and awake and aware. This awake and aware state is only the beginning. There is more. When we come to the end of a meditation session, it's difficult to come back and get up and do normal things again because this is a world where everything is separated and moving away or changing or limiting or pressuring. So going back into meditation periodically, is like going to school and learning a new way of living life from a higher, more transcendent state of consciousness, where nothing can disturb you. A love lost is actually a love gained for self. You pull back the emotional investment you gave to someone or to some THING, and it snaps back to where it belongs - in you. You get your power back. You feel more alive, more interested in life and living, more clarity, more vision, more purpose.
Periodic sessions sitting in stillness teaches us in small gradual doses, how to build back up your own primal energy that we had as children, and before we were born into this crazy world of struggle and limitations. When the walls drop away and we are left stranded, it is the only way to go. Go inward. The lessons we receive in silence helps us to withdraw our power from others and the external world. We pull it back to ourselves. There is the safety and the solidarity that we need. It is not lonely in here. It is safe, it is warm, it is comforting. We can anchor ourselves to it and remain safe when the world shifts and traumatic events happen. We are still here, within, inside. We lost contact with ourselves. That is why we have the Eastern sages coming to remind us of these ancient, self-empowering techniques.
Meditation is a method of de-programming us from the external matrix. Many books have been written about spirituality, but the ONLY book that will get us there, is the book within which we access by sitting in silence and stopping the mind. Fifteen minutes morning and night would be a good start. The lessons are inside, in the heart, in the feelings, in the emotions, the moods, the still small voice, the dreams, the body responses, but we have to listen. There is sage advice in the silence. You are a walking library of information. Information is light. Light is information. Turn the light on inside. It is called enlightenment. It's not brain-based or ego based, it is stillness-based. We need stillness to “remember” the naturalness of our OWN power.
It’s easy to fall in love with someone else’s path, and it's fun to journey with them for awhile, but we dis-empower ourselves by doing so. Every drop of attention we give to someone else takes it away from us. We need to put that attention back into our own body cells if we want to stay healthy, positive, clear-minded and simply feel good with ourselves.
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3/5/15 - In discussing a new massage workshop approach with a man, I mentioned chakras. He did not know about chakras, so I took this opportunity to write a thumbnail sketch in a way that hopefully is concrete enough? I don't know. It is a difficult subject to explain..
When you die you leave your body, but as long as you are in your body YOU are flowing in and out of your body - your brain, muscles, organs, fluids, bones, everything - to maintain your own physical body. It is not your conscious mind doing this, but a much advanced aspect of yourself. You are today a watered-down version of your super-advanced consciousness, but it is still YOU flowing through and maintaining your body. The journey through life is all about waking up to your higher self and consciously joining more and more with your own higher self. The "Ah HA!" moments of enlightenment is one such expansive joining.
How do you flow into your body? You are flowing into your body along very precise circuitry called "meridians". This circuitry has been mapped out. Acupuncturists use it. You are constantly flowing into your body through tiny hair-thin invisible conduits that make up a beautiful pattern of light, like a lacy filigree of light, which is called your light body. Light is information, so your light body is full of information from your higher self. This is your spiritual body that keeps your physical body alive and healthy. Or should.
This delicate circuitry radiates out from 7 main chakras placed along the spine, from the tail bone to the brain. Chakras are open windows through which YOU, as your super advanced self, flows down into density and into your muscles, bones and organs to hold you in health. Chakras are like "buttons" that button your light body into your physical body. But actually your light body built your physical body as an embry in your mother, around itself.
"Chakra" means "wheel". Named because it spins. There are 7 chakras. Each chakra radiates a positive quality to help you on your journey from childhood through puberty to manhood to old age. Each chakra is like the next grade in school with a teacher sitting behind a desk waiting to teach you the next lesson in life. But the teacher is your own higher self, the next higher version of yourself that you are to learn about yourself. The knowledge is all within you, or getting ready to come into you through the open window of the chakras which feed into the ganglionic nerve centers that reach down into the dense physical organs and glands of the body. When you have an "Ah HA!" moment of enlightenment, your glands respond at the other end with happy chemicals and hormones that enrich and nourish your body.
In a baby and young child the chakras spin fast and clean, so the baby learns fast and moves quickly to puberty. He is vibrant and alive. But as the child grows older he starts to gather NEGATIVE experience which slows down the chakra spinning. If he stores those negative experiences instead of letting them go (which he should learn to let go) his chakras become "squashed" from all this negative energy and the chakras further slow their spinning. He starts to feel "old" because his chakras are not feeding him clean, pure, pristine spiritual energy from his higher or super self. Now he shows signs of disgruntlement, embitterment, and he seeks to make changes in his life. When the chakras are operating properly, they keep spinning and spitting out clean spiritual energy to keep him healthy and vibrant and creatively interested in life and the projects at hand. When they are not spinning he feels fatigue, weighed down, boxed in, chronic disease, deterioration and worse - death.
Knowledge of the chakras, the light body, the meridians and how they work, has not been taught to us from childhood. They have been kept hidden away for centuries. If only we knew about it from childhood we would change our whole life for the better. No one knows where these teachings came from. My Indian teacher said it did not originate in India. India took the information and wrote it down and preserved it, but it originated elsewhere. When hoards of roaming invaders burned their way across the planet, intelligent people hid them away underground, in monasteries and caves. About 50, 60, 70 years ago the first signs of change began. Indian teachers came to America and Europe to teach this information about body, mind and spirit. It was the end of the dark age and the beginning shards of light of the new age began to be seen. Yoga, Ayurvedic knowledge of nutrition, health and diet came west. The Kama Sutra and the art of love-making, the I-Ching and prophecy, the internal exercises of China all started to be taught.
So many new and interesting practices came to us in America, but it is ancient knowledge that was given to mankind at the beginning of civilization by advanced races from beyond. The Hindu culture is rooted in this science and therefore a lot of teachers are Indian. Chakra is an Indian word, but Japan, Asia, Sumeria and other regions have their own versions (cultures). It's all about learning how to live healthily, youthfully, vibrantly and creatively in a physical world, without taking on negative energy and how to burn negative energy. So the chakras are an important part of love-making and learning.
I became aware of this hidden knowledge about 60 years ago, not all at once but in a slowly expanding fashion of one "Ah HA!" moment after another. It used to be secret. People didn't talk about it 60 years ago. It was too far out. Too foreign. My mother kept it secret from her minister at church. But I've watched it come slowly out into the open over the years, through books and workshops and special conferences. My mother had books on her book shelf that pointed in this direction so I had access early in life, but most people didn't have that opportunity to tap into it.
I recently learned of two new centers in Naples who are offering classes by different presenters along these lines, but knowledge of chakras is sacred and individual. Love-making involves the chakras and personal, inner knowledge of oneself. If we learn an "Ah HA!" piece of information from a teacher, we need to turn around and meditate upon it, and integrate it privately and in a most sacred manner, into our deeply personal life. So the way YOU make love will be different from the way other men make love. Hearing this knowledge for the first time is a sign from your higher self, and it needs to be applied softly, gently, even reverently into action and behavior. that is why no two people are alike. We should not follow after another person. We are each unique and the teacher is within, waiting for us to listen. He is in the nerve ganglia. We hear him talking through our body responses, our mental responses, our emotional responses. Under his mentoring we can change our world and our habits into a more refined and beautiful life.
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2/28/15 - The Massage for Lovers scheduled for today has been cancelled for lack of reservations. I have posted on the MASSAGE page that the future dates will be kept open to allow for continued response. This is an offering that perhaps is ahead of its time. It contains a Tantric influence that taps into divine love through the higher self and through the chakras and meridians, rather than lusty sex through the lower regions. Higher and lower refers to consciousness. Where is your consciousness during your waking hours? High? Low? Somewhere in the middle?
Imagine a chart with "dark and depressed" at 0 and "good mood" at 5 and "joyful happy" at 10. Where would you place yourself? Maybe you fluctuate a lot, depending on where you are in the day, what you are doing, who you are with, or the environment. Fluctuating moods is a sign of not being in control of your own energies. A master is always at peace no matter what is going on around him or her. During the Massage For Lovers we will teach about the light body and how to tap into it. It is not just talk, as in a lecture, but through hands-on practice and the experience of physical contact. The hands-on connection is how a person learns best. It includes the mind, the body AND the feelings. When you sit and listen to a lecture, you are listening only with your mind. Your cells and your feelings are not being included.
Participating in close physical contact is how we receive on all four levels - mind, body, feelings and subconscious. The subconscious is known in esoteric field as the soul. Unresolved issues reside there and go with you from life to life when you die, waiting to be resolved. These four levels can be quickly aligned and tapped into through LOVING massage. Again, there are consciousness techniques that go along with this.
The spirit and soul of a person (the light of a person and the unresolved dark of a person) is super-imposed over the physical body vibrating at a higher, faster rate so it is "above" the physical. The spirit and soul enters into the physical muscles, tissues and fluids of the body when you lift your conscious mind up, intelligently, intentionally and willingly. It's sort of like lifting a cup up in the air to receive rain drops coming down from above. Then the chakras open. They are normally closed off like the lens of a camera. Each chakra is separate and one can open without the other, but ideally all should be open. Our lives would be hugely better if they were all open. We would be transported into harmony and joy. But we are normally "down" and "normal" and open to all the problems and negatives of the individuals around us including the media. So the technique is to go UP in your mind and clear the lower atmosphere that is filled with toxins of mind, body and emotions.
This is a science. It works every time. My husband likes to say, "Can it be scientifically proven? Can the same results be attained if different people use the same technique over and over again?" Yes, without question. It has been done for eons by those who were willing to be trained and to practice the art. This art is a skill learned through experience. It is the art of Love.
When you look UP, not down, while in close physical contact intimately with your lover, you can experience not just physical joy, but mental, emotional and spiritual joy all at the same time. This takes you above 10 on the imaginary mood chart. Making love from that joyful, ecstatic plane is wonderful but it doesn't happen until there is a contact made with the four levels - mind, body, feeling and subconscious. There are techniques to be learned which, hopefully, the Tantric massage can assist with.
Massage For Lovers is not just a new way of experiencing sex. Sex is done from the two lowest chakras and we will be reaching for and opening five more mental zones above the two lowest ones. It may be too far out of the ordinary for most people. Maybe it's not going to work, but I will keep the schedule of dates posted on the MASSAGE page to see what develops. Perhaps the concept will take seed and grow. Individuals whose mates do not want to participate are welcome to contact me. It is possible that a single individual without his or her partner will feel freer to let let him/herself go if their mates are not present. This is an experiment in progress. We are learning as we go. If someone has been in a long-time relationship together so that they each can read each others' mind, would they be held back by their association with that partner? They are intricately involved, as one. They are locked into a matrix of long standing. Would they feel free to change their mental outlook, their mood, their sense of excitement and adventure if their partner was nearby watching? Well, we will see.
2/25/15 - We are made of love. Love is everywhere. It governs the atoms and electrons of your body. Love is a conscious substance. It is intelligent. It is awake and aware and it moves your body around and your mind and your feelings. It gives you breath and life. In physical form, love is the atoms and swirling electrons that make up the molecules and fibers of your body. If you did not have so many beliefs and fears that restrict you, you would feel lighter in body and happier in mind and feelings because the atoms and electrons would be able to swirl and vibrate faster. It is limited belief - "I don't believe in such things" - and fear which leads to all sorts of negative attitudes that bogs you down.
You use love to create because love is all there is. In the beginning creating something new is fun and exciting. You reduce love down into shape and form with substance and meat to it, by focusing with all your passion on your new creation. You take your ideas from infinite space and, with love, you mold and shape it into musical creations, artistic creations, relationships, school lessons, houses, tall buildings and bridges. You love to create. Your favorite creation is new relationships because old relationships tend to get dull. New relationships feel good because you don't have any past memories or past mistakes to cast shadows. New relationships are pure love relationships. You glow when you think of your new lover or your new friend because nothing has spoiled it yet.
But creating in the world of form - our world of solid physicality - is pushing the envelope. We are each creating something new and so it is by trial and error. Our creations are experiments. We actually don't know how a new creation is going to work out. We plunge in with excitement, all aglow. Whether it be a workshop like my dream, or a new relationship that you have made. We are passionate. It is something NEW!
Why don't our old relationships and our old workshops feel like enough for us? Because we haven't continued to polish them with our love. Instead of polishing them up every morning with caring attention, respect and gratitude for their existence, we re-play replay thoughts of "old". Yesterdays oldness and mistakes creep into our thinking. The habits of the day before and the day before that and the day before that, until we are remembering all the mistakes and errors, and feeling all those mistakes and errors and we are bogged down. What was originally a glowing exciting love affair of whatever - art, music, a class, a book - dulls down and becomes discarded. And we turn our attention to something new. That's why a new relationship, a new art piece, a new music CD, a new anything is so much more exciting. We are creating something new and there is no past to get in the way.
Is there a solution to this? The Galactics say it best. Learn to create with love in every thing you do. Every moment of every hour of every day. It is a learning process. We are evolving into more advanced human beings by expanding our love and broadening our hearts. We need to love what we created YESTERDAY. Not discard it. Revivify it through caring, loving, attention. The most important creation of all is a primary relationship. I know many primary relationships that are not happy but they THINK they are. They could re-create their original love relationship by forgetting the errors and mistakes and concentrate, meditate, on love.
Learn to create love every morning when you wake up. Forget your mundane responsibilities for an hour and spend time on love. If you don't have a partner, focus love on and into yourself. Love is in you already but it's not activated. The best love of all is love for yourself. One hour of loving yourself is begun by sitting quietly in an attractive location, peacefully with quiet music playing, perhaps a candle or two or three, and saying, "I love my heart, I love my brain, I love my blood flowing through my veins." Name every party inside and out while putting your hands on your own body and allow the love to flow from your hands into your skin. Your legs, your feet, your arms, your stomach, the top of your head. Know that love is constantly pouring through you and love is the swirling atoms and electrons. Love never ceases flowing but you can dumb it down by what and how you think. Think love for this one hour. Then you can go back to thinking negative. This is how to awaken love within you and speed up the vibrations of the atomic structure of your body, brain and feeling world.
If you have a primary relationship, buy a massage table. Give your partner a massage once a week WITH LOVE, and see what happens. Give your child a massage and see what happens. Give your friend a massage. Give yourself a loving massage. Then you are re-creating something new. You are a god or goddess in training to learn about love. Pick up discarded love objects off the floor and dust them off. Take them over to the light blazing through the window and examine them. Hold them close to your lips. Smell the sweet fragrance of the love that is held locked inside the atoms and molecules. Reviviy all in your life and love it back to excitement again. Be a happy god or goddess. Keep resurrecting that which was cast aside as old.
2/23/15 - Good morning everyone who reads my blog. I am sorry to report that there have not been any more reservations to the Massage for Lovers on February 28, this coming Saturday. I will wait hopefully for a few more days but the sense is that it may not happen. I may not be dealing with reality here. I have a vision, a dream, a KNOWING of a wonderful realm of pure love that human beings can access and feel physically, which will alter their reality. I have experienced it in meditation alone. I have experienced it while giving massage. I have experienced it while receiving massage, and I have experienced it in the bedroom making love. I have tried to bring this wonderful reality to the consciousness of others over the years, but I have been unsuccessful in starting up a group. It is the group that is not coming together. Not enough people are responding. I must accept that it's probably not going toh appen. I'm not sure why my dream isn't developing for it is an amazing energy. An amazing sense of fulfillment and ecstasy. But I'm not able to sell it.
In my communications with my invisible guides I am told that I am operating on the divine feminine vibration, which is very loving but it's not leadership energy. I just don't have what it takes to promote, organize and set things up. My talent lies in the loving hands-on transference of knowledge through physical contact. Hands on. I am told to give instruction and guidance online, in the written word, rather than try to organize and bring people together in a single location for hands-on. I may do that.
Well, that is all for today. Life continues to unfold new information, new knowledge, and an endless supply of peace, love and light. There is so much love in the world. It is there. It can be felt. What a shame that more people don't know how to access it. I will try to give some guidance in writing. Bless you, enjoy yourself. Be kind and loving to one another.
2/10/15 - There were three couples at the January Massage for Lovers. The next one will be held on Saturday, February 28, 2015 at 7 pm, and there will be two changes different from the first one.
Change number one: I will provide a demonstration of loving massage using a suitable volunteer. We will start out in the living room meeting one another, and there will be a table right there. I didn't do that last month and I realized later that there are certain attitudes that need to be SHOWN rather than talked about. Attitude is more of a feeling. You can FEEL an attitude when a person is doing something, such as if a person is doing it grudgingly and not really liking it, or if he is doing it with love. Since this is a Massage for Lovers, not a Massage for Begrudgers, this is important aspect of what we are about to do.
Change number two: In January we used the formula for a GROUP massage, meaning 3 or more people at a table. I realized after that the "flow" (connection) was not being made. Probably because they were trying to follow orders. I think it will be much more free and people feel more independent if the massages were done one-on-one and with someone not their primary mate whom they have known for years. With your primary mate you already know everything there is to know about them and you don't stretch your mind or your emotions by giving them a massage.
So swapping massage partners will provide a greater opportunity to stretch boundaries and draw on the natural good feelings within to without. There is a natural reserve in all of us that holds back those good feelings. We are careful who we touch. We don't know how they will respond. This is precisely why we are doing this - to practice working with energy. The more we practice with strangers, the more confidence we gain within ourselves. We'll never learn without trying it out. Hands-on experience is the best way to learn about yourself.
We all have our comfort zones. We don't like to rock the boat. We all want life to be easy and smooth. But easy, smooth and comfortable tends to produce boredom after awhile. Life requires refreshing, movement, change, stimulation, evolution, advancement, deepening, widening, expanding. Each one of those descriptive words requires stretching outside the normal day-to-day activity. It may be scary, but I can promise you - no, I can guarantee you - that you will be moved and excited by this if you are willing to be moved outside of your comfort zone.
A third change: I want everyone to use the hot tub afterwards. Unless, of course, there is a medical or physical reason why they can't. This is another way of providing a sense of freedom and spontaneity into a more expanded space.
Time is going by very fast. I apologize for not sending more notices out about Massage for Lovers. I intend to remedy that by sending updates more often from now on. A few couples have indicated an interest for the February 28 event. Single individuals will be considered if they fit the "beginners mind", meaning if they are not looking for a party. This is not a party.
If you are planning to attend, you would need to be here by 7 pm. It goes until 11 pm. There will be a few snacks for munchies and water. It is $20 per person, payable on arrival. In order to attend we request you fill out the privacy agreement & questionnaire if you have not already done so. Click the link www.anakosha.org/privacy.html. I will respond immediately with directions.
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1/30/15 - As we study sex we can't help but get into the higher laws of our nature and who we are. There is no way to study sex without stumbling upon that secret door. What is orgasm, anyway? It is the connecting of the two potent currents, one coming down from the sky and one coming up from the earth. These two currents flowing through us all the time create blockages, which create explosive connections under certain conditions. But the blocks fall back into place after the explosion is over. And once again the inflowing current from Earth builds up and needs to be exploded again, reconnected again. The the blocks fall back into place and it continues this way.
There are blocks in the way which creates orgasm. Like dams in the river that stops the flow of water. These blocks are going to be removed as we push into the subject with our curiosity and wanting to know more about it. Then the orgasm is going to take on a different form. There isn't a single person alive today, I am convinced, who is not curious about sex. What is it? Why is it? Where does it come from? Why am I having such problems with my relationships? It is good to question. We must keep our curiosity alive and continue to wonder about it because sex was given to us as a gift and a signpost along the way. One that we would not miss. We can't miss sex. It's a biggie. Yes, we can avoid it and deny and ignore it and reject it, but it keeps popping back up again in some other form. So we continue to be curious. Some people take the dark path down into shadowy places that cause even more problems. It is wise to remember the heart connection because there is light in the heart. When you continue to go down into dark places where there is no light, and no hint of light, you can easily lose your way and not find your way back.
I've been putting my thoughts out in words on this website, but my journey is not your journey. You have your own to follow. Keep on studying your own nature and allow your own personal integrity to be your guide. Not your idealism - idealism never got anyone anywhere but lonely and separated - but follow your own personal heart wisdom. There is balance in the heart. Idealism doesn't create a sense of peace. It makes you feel alone, like a lone wolf crying in the wilderness. When you follow your heart wisdom your sense of feeling alone vanishes. This is the higher order of right and wrong, higher than the laws created by human culture which are full of do's and don'ts that may not apply to you. Your heart holds the secret of your right and wrong. Remember it as you journey through your sexual escapades.
1/24/15 - We had our first Massage for Lovers a week ago, January 17. Since then vast amounts of knowledge have been unfolding, like a super nova exploding and releasing information in my brain. I’ve needed time for these colorful shining sparks to diminish, cool down and burn out before I could begin writing about them rationally. The next Massage for Lovers will be February 28 from 7 to 11 pm and it will be structured somewhat differently. And I thank the three couples who joined me that evening. You were the beginning of a new process which will continue to grow and evolve into something more in the future.
I have known for a long time that loving massage by warm, nurturing hands is a natural prelude to lovemaking. While some additional skills will enrich the experience and make it better, I don’t want to detract from a simple massage on a massage table. It will start the natural bliss flowing and prepare both parties in a most fulfilling way IF they take the time to do it. It must be taken seriously. I recommend every couple have a massage table in their home and that they use it before sex activity.
There is an energy in the body that is innate, natural and very sensual. It gets fragmented during the typical day of moving about, which causes tension. This natural energy is what I want to focus on through instruction and demonstration on our massage nights. It is a wonderful feeling energy which can lead to bliss, out-of-body experiences, rapture and more. We are equipped with it. Our systems are built for bliss, Dr. Candace Pert has said in her laboratory research. But most of us keep it closed down. We hold it back. The quickest and surest way to get it moving is through loving massage. The focus is on loving, not impatient, not five or ten minutes. Not “let’s get it over with quickly because I have someplace I have to go.“ Massage requires planning ahead and using some intelligence. Wisdom. Caring. Consideration. Etc.
Professional massage therapists do this in preparation for a client and use this wonderful healing energy for their patients, but they stop short in their application because they are not been trained in the deeper aspects of this profound loving energy. There is a “more” to it. Loving massage has greater gifts for humanity than simply healing. It is a tremendous boost to the inner awareness leading towards enlightenment. I would like to see couples start to use massage at home. They can increase the quality of their lives with regular loving massage. Here is the nuts and bolts of why massage is important before having sex.
Every human body has two different life forces flowing through it but both of them are diminished and cut down to a low trickle because of cultural programming, most of which is mental brain washing. When we start massaging each other we by-pass the brain and the complex wiring that censors everything that enters our awareness. The bliss energy in us starts moving all by itself simply from placing hands on the skin, unless, of course, there is bad chemistry between the two people. When two people are compatible and in agreement, the bliss energy starts flowing immediately by simply placing the palms of the hands directly onto the skin.
I am calling this energy “love” but it’s more of a universal bliss sensation. It’s impersonal and universal, like the sun that feels good on everyone alike. The love energy in our bodies is a radiation like the sun, but without the dangers of sunburn. There are other side effects to watch out for, like male erections and women turning on and seducing the massager, but that’s why it is important to practice and learn about these forces within, why they are there and how we can use them correctly to enhance and enrich our lives.
This natural inherent life force is intelligent and discriminating as well as peaceful and powerful in a strengthening way. When this energy starts moving through the hands into the body, it opens energy centers that are part of the body‘s electrical system. These energy centers are called chakras, a Sanskrit word from India. They are etheric connections to universal mind. They come from beyond us. There are no logical explanations. These energy centers start fluctuating and opening when we move the stagnant energy out of the way. Insights start coming to us. The one who is giving the massage also is provided with insights of his or her own. We are linking up through this higher bliss energy which is universal in everyone, but we each have a unique pattern to our molecules and cells that contain the colorful history of our individual past. So universal enlightenment energy affects each of us differently.
The human energy system is designed to receive energy through the feet from the earth. It flows up to through the legs, up the spine, to the crown of our head where it connects with the second flow that is coming down from above as a higher vibration. The Earth energy is a lower vibration. There are levels of density in us. Each energy portal (chakra) gives us access to a higher energy, or lower, depending on where we are on the ladder - low and going up or high and going down. We are all very different and each processing our life energies in our own way. Some of us are trying to come down, others of us are trying to go up. Some people do not have the higher chakras open, some do not have the lower chakras open. Some people are more balanced and have all the chakras at least partially open. There is a science to it.
There has always been information available about the human body’s electrical system, called “the light body”. But most of it has been wrapped in mystical stories of legend and myth. The majority of people were not ready to hear this. Only within the last 50 years has this information been slowly seeping out of the cloaked walls of monastaries and mystery schools. We are getting more and more of this information now, as it comes through many channels like myself. My focus has been on the body. Others has been on the mind. Still others has been on the soul and spirit.
With my focus on the body, I see there are two separate flows of electricity going through us. One coming down, one going up. Our bodies are made of earth elements. Our bodies are animal, much like the tiger, the moose, the elephant. However, the “I” in me and the “I” in you is star material. It is coming down from above. We are a self-conscious awareness that identifies as “I” and which is temporarily inhabiting this body. We leave it every night when we go to sleep but we are actually a splinter or ray of separate consciousness from the unbroken sea of consciousness. We are part of a cosmic consciousness. We are a universal consciousness descending down into this finite, limited, concrete animal body trying to fit into it.
It’s uncomfortable at first, but our parents help us get a grip on our bodies, and as we grow up life takes over and provides us with further challenges so that we learn. We go through a series of lessons in closing down. We learn to manage our dreams, to restrain our spontaneity, to withhold our desire to love and laugh. And we go to school and fill our heads with useless facts and figures. But we grow and learn and adapt and eventually conform, all the while diminishing our vastness and our ability to be in love with all life.
As we are descend from above us, there is another life force flowing up from Mother Earth. It enters through our feet and travels up our legs. It is the same life force that makes the grass grow and the animals run and the vegetables ripen so we can eat them in their season, and then they whither and die at the end of their cycle. We too wither and die at the end of our cycle, but it doesn’t have to be that way because we humans are different. We have a descending life which is self conscious and connected to immortality. We have an ability to know ourselves. That makes us different from the animals. Animals and plants do not have a self-conscious life that we do. It’s true they have a soul that is evolving, but they are not self conscious and they don’t have free will. They are limited to behavior within the matrix of their own species. We humans are not thus limited. Although it would appear that we are limited, in truth, we are not. We have the ability to grow beyond what we THINK is our limitations because of this descending consciousness.
The next step in our evolution as a species, the human species, is to become aware of the descending flow of consciousness which links us to our star selves and our star families. We were diminished when we were born. We had to forget who we were to “fit in”. But when we start tapping into the higher chakras in our bodies, we will resume our spiritual journey. With chakra energy opening and activating, we become healthier, younger, more vital, more aware, more enlightened. The descending flow is the greater flow over the Earth flow because it is of a higher vibration. We must tap it in order to grow more aware of who we are and to bring in those multidimensional gifts we know we have but can‘t seem to access because of human frailty.
The power to make love is accessed through the lowest chakra on the totem pole of our spine. Many people are dwelling in their brain chakra. Many people in their heart chakra. Many people in their sex chakra, but most people have not the knowledge to put them all together. Through massage we balance the fragmented energies. By unifying all the energies (chakras) in the body we become stronger and wiser with longer-lasting strength and body parts.
In past centuries this information was forbidden to the average person. It was spiritual information reserved for special students who had to pass intense tests, locked up in monastaries and mystery schools. But it’s time now for everybody to know abut it. This information is available on the streets and on the internet. Information is releasing faster than anyone person can keep up with. We are taking a cosmic leap into a new evolutionary phase. We are tapping into the stars. We are learning about the rich heritage we carry within our genes. Namely, while the body is fed from below, our spirits are fed from above. This two-way energy flow is happening in all of us. One coming from Mother Earth who provided us with the substance for our body, and one coming down from above which provides us with consciousness and the ability to know ourself.
We have been making love (having sex) for eons of time the way the animals do. We have been running on animal instinct when it comes to procreation, but we have been refining our conscious intelligence. The broader human understanding has not yet recognized the descending flow and remains in the limited belief that we are restricted to Earth. When we begin honoring our higher selves, which is beyond our sight but there nonetheless, we will open to the “more” of us which is full of love and wisdom. We can do that through loving massage. We will begin gaining new insights about love and sex.
This is difficult to put into words because everyone has a different belief system. Our different beliefs contradict others around us. We live in the same households and carry conflicting beliefs. It is what keeps us separate from one another. But there is another way to come back together again, and that is through non-verbal love and loving touch. Our hands are not discriminating. The energy in us is not discriminating. Only the mind and belief systems are discriminating. The love that runs through our bodies is the same love that runs through our neighbor’s body. It comes out of the same pool of universal love. It is my desire to get people together to put hands on one another and start accessing the bliss energy in the higher chakras. The universe is expanding and it’s expanding through each one of us. It’s time to step aside and make room for the “more” to expand in us. To set aside philosophical differences and find that which is unifying in us.
It’s not important to know the what and how of these chakras, only that they are there and we will access them through full body loving touch. It is like climbing a seven-step ladder to a higher window in the building. The view is different from the higher level. It is more refined. Refinement is an application of intelligence that raises us upward. Rather than make sex at the bottom levels, we learn to lift the orgasmic energy upward into the body rather than clamp downward on it and force it to explode.
The earth energy travels up from earth to the brain and the top of the head. At the crown of the head it links with the consciousness coming down. Consciousness coming down is immortality descending into the physical body. It comes down to enrich the body and expand into physicality. The earth and the whole eco system is enriched from the downward descending energy. It is important to recognize this downward flow.
Sex, relationships, families, the earth, everyone will be enriched. Spending time massaging one another with love will help to open the higher body energy centers and allow more refined insights into our lives. To create a greater orgasmic experience we need the richness of the immortality flow from above. That is what is missing in those who are seeking greater sexual experience. Love is not personal. It is the universal field in which we float. We need to access it.
We have this incredible energy at our disposal. There is meant to be a figure 8 flow, ascending and descending in a repeating infinity pattern. We interfere with it when we divert the upward flowing earth energy into sex and cumming. Then the power is cut off at the first two chakras. We want to cum, so we cum! And we cum! and we cum! Until we die. The immortality gene doesn’t awaken as long as the earth energy doesn't link up with the downward flow. There are some things that we can do to enable the two rivers of life in us to blend and flow together smoothly, which will distribute the bliss energies through the whole body, head to foot including the brain. When time is taken to prepare the two bodies with love and bliss, THEN the humans should make love. That's when sex is no longer sex but making love.
After the two bodies are flowing with this bliss energy and both bodies are in synch and both bodies are at one and both bodies feel good, and they make love, miraculous things happen then. The mind opens to multiple dimensions. They may learn things that they had forgotten. Their physical bodies may remain entwined while they are aware of soaring among the galaxies. Sex is a gift for the gods. Sex is used as a stepping stone to higher levels beyond sex to a love that is infinite.
It is not that sex the way we do it today is wrong but there are ways to improve on any relationship. There are enlightened ways to enhance the sexual relationship that is more fulfilling to both people. It translates into being more spiritually advanced if both people are being fulfilled instead of one. The way sex works in many relationships today, as I have discovered in my swinging career is, the one who is most needy seduces or forces the other before the other is ready, who then goes along with it and remains incomplete when done since the seducer or forcer is usually not thinking of the other person but only him/herself. Some people in relationships are horribly abused in this way and if a person allows it to go on for any length of time, violence can result.
But not to leave this subject on such a negative note, love is SO easy to access that I feel it is time to begin demonstrating this to others! I am amazed at how simple it is when I prepare for love. The sensual feelings flowing through my body begin when I take the time to sit quietly alone and close my eyes and focusing on one of my special meditations. The best sex I have with my husband is after I have taken the time to meditate first.
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1/13/15 - Oh, this is lovely! I can't resist posting it here. I get channelings all the time from people and since I am a student of the Ascended Masters, I pay attention to what they say. This one is from Mary Magdalene through Mercedes Kirkel on November 16, 2014 At Unity of Sedona:
The question of Mary Magdalene: I have two questions about soul purpose. The first one is: Did you always know your soul purpose? The second one is: How do we know what our soul purpose is? I know there are signs and gifts that we receive, but I feel like I’m still in the waiting room.
Mary Magdalene: Relative to your first question, “always” is a very long time. (long space of silence) As far back as I can reach, I have known my soul purpose.
Relative to your second question, not knowing your soul purpose is a sign of not being in your heart. The foundation of not being in your heart is being divorced from your body, fundamentally, as well as your sexuality and your emotions. This is a very contemporary problem.
What will help you is to know yourself through these vehicles, through your body, through your sexuality and really your energy system, and through your emotions. And the thing that tells you more than anything is your passion. What do you have passion for? This is a sign of your soul path, your soul purpose. It is a sad state that so many people are not in touch with their passion. It’s a sign that something has gotten shut down.
When you find your soul path, a team of wild horses couldn’t keep you from it. So look for the signs; look for the little corners. Look for something that gives you joy. Look for something that gives you energy. Look for something that you do even when you’re tired, even when you’re sick, even when you’re supposed to be doing something else. (She laughs gently.) Find your passion. And that will point you to your soul purpose.
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1/12/15 - Sharing those deep, almost hidden, emotional feelings and inner wishes in your heart of hearts, is how you grow to become a master. You grow exponentially when you start expressing each tiny wish that you hold locked up inside where nobody can see it. That's your truth. Nobody else's truth, just yours. There is no other truth than that which is in your heart. Truth is one of the seven chakra energies that must be uncovered and revealed. It is one of the seals in the Book of Revelations. It is one of the seven lamps that need to be lit in the seven churches of biblical lore. The truth of what you want and feel is fundamental to who you are. Hide it and you are not who you are yet. Share this truth with your primary partner first or whoever your most important and closest friend is. It will bring immediate changes in your life when you speak your truth, because you will change. A piece of the veil will be peeled away so your light can be revealed in the most miraculous ways that even you won't believe.
I know people who will say, "If I speak what is in my heart my life will be over because my partner will not accept it!" Yes, your past life will be over but a new life will begin. It does not mean the end of your home life or family life or your journey with your primary partner, it means that your reality will change. You will shift things around and open new doors of opportunity. How other people see you will change. Your light will shine. They will not be able to avoid it if you speak your truth out loud. This will change the way they respond to you. However, you can go on as you were before - not revealing your truth - and nothing will change.
That's the whole point of sharing your inner hidden self and showing it outwardly to the world. Share it. Express it. Recognize it yourself. Change your life by getting rid of the baggage that has been causing you pain and suppression of your real self. This baggage is your belief system. It is not your primary partner or your home or your job or your neighbors or friends. It is how you think about them. It is your belief system. It is how you color them (falsely) through your belief system. You have been the one holding your own truth back. Use truth with kindness, even joy and happiness, but use it like a weapon to change your life. It is a magnificent, noble and courageous weapon. It is the weapon of the gods.
I slept two hours past my usual wake up time this morning and it was a slow waking process. I was peacefully slumbering away like a hibernating bear. As I came slowly to consciousness I realized I was still deep inside the dream. It was the divine plan. I could still feel it. My physical brain cells one by one began sparking to life, remembering the plan. I sat at the side of the bed consciously directing all parts of my body to awaken. I have to write this down in words or it will get lost.
It wasn't like I was the observer in my dream but I was inside my own body, inside the living cells and atoms of my body. I was feeling the animal creature that my body is from the viewpoint of the cells, atoms and electrons. I was the spirit and consciousness of the cells. I was aware of my limitations. I was a part of the elements and evolving through the elemental kingdom. I was working inside an animal body. I was dumb, limited and lethargic, but I had a life. I had a dream. I had a purpose. I had a soul. From this perspective I realized the elemental kingdom as a totally different race of beings than I, the spirit living temporarily in the body, using the body to walk around. I realized how important this animal body is, composed of tiny little living creatures with a soul which is put together in some amazing, intricate, immaculate design so that it works in harmony with all the other parts. Who is in charge here? These little living beings composing my body are trying to obey my every wish but I am not good at giving them directions so they do their job the best they can. They live to serve ME, the spiritual presence moving through it.
They are glad to serve the spirit who dwells within as the god of their being and who is present in their midst. As a little entity within the cells I felt humble and my eager to serve the god within, but the god doesnot recognize me as being alive. He misuses me. He trashes me. He fills me with toxic food. He causes me pain. He belittles me. He makes me do things I don't want to do. This god whom I long to serve is an abusive god but I obey him because that is who I am. I am a member of the elements and that is what I trained for. I am following the programming in my heart. I obey.
I was shown this by being placed within the living cells of my body and becoming one of them, serving as a physical muscle cell or blood cell or bone cell. Every cell in my body is alive, playing its part in harmony with all the other living parts. The elemental kingdom is everywhere alive around me, even the trees and rocks and birds - the earth elements, the water elements, the rock elements, the trees, the grass, the insects, the animals. But the humans are different. The human race is a totally other matter.
I shifted over to becoming the spirit dwelling in this body. I am eternal and immortal. I come from the heart of god to live on the earth in an elemental body. I am here to become conscious. As I become conscious of who I am and the body I am living in, which is only temporary, I am building a conscious bridge between God and the lesser evolved mineral, plant and animal kingdom - the form world. The creator wants to extend his kingdom into density. I am a bridge. I am to become aware of both above me and below me and walk in harmony. The angels are a third race or kingdom. They are here to assist me because I lose myself easily in the world of the lesser evolved creatures. I turn to the angels for guidance when I need them. They are always around. The angels, the elementals and the humans - these three kingdoms have been called "the holy trinity" by the ascended masters.
As I am becoming aware of my duty - to build a consciousness bridge between God and the elements of Earth, I realize I have to express my inner urges, my inner wishes, my inner desires, my inner heart, because my heart is the heart of God Creator. I come from there. That's my home and I am part of the extension of God Creator out into the world of density to extend his consciousness further and further into the darkness.
I have been implanted with a "plan" in my heart - the perfect plan is in me - and I too must follow it, just like the little elementals. I am a conscious spirit come to blend, merge and unify with the animal creature called "my body". I am learning to identify myself within my animal body, but the only way I can do that is to express in words who I am. I am learning to express myself in worlds. I have to define myself. I have to share who I am, and I have to share truthfully. Then I can live happily alongside the elemental kingdom as a god.
As I blended with elementals of earth, the little living forms of earth, I saw they are not solid concrete forms. That is an illusion. Each little blade of grass is a living entity who has temporarily shaped its consciousness into the form of a blade of grass. I saw this. It had to train to earn this job over eons of time. It is evolving its consciousness, its mind, if you will, to hold a focus. It chose a blade of grass to focus on. It learned how to image the shape in its mind and to hold onto that shape. Each blade of grass that we walk on without regard or thought, is one of these living beings who is serving as a blade of grass on Earth.
Likewise, each cell in my body is a living entity who had to train to earn this job of being a liver cell and holding onto that thought. It trained under a master deva who also had to grow from babyhood to master, and now is teaching the little ones to hold shape and form on the earth and on other planets. I as the spirit dwelling in this body of such fascinating living cells of every thought and variety, did not know this. I was ignorant. But I am waking up. Each cell in my stomach, each cell in the lining of my intestines, each heart cell and bone cell and cell in my pineal gland is a living entity.
And each cell is awaiting instructions from ME, the spirit or lord of the body. My instructions go out to them in the form of emotions and thoughts. My cells obey my deepest feelings and wishes. How ignorant I was! Now I see that I must be more responsible for my inner truth. I MUST acknowledge my own truth and own it. Who I am depends on it. I am what I am but if I pretend to not be what I am I am an obstruction to every single entity living in my body who is trying to evolve into its own perfection. Here I am living inside this perfectly designed machine composed of countless billions of little conscious beings of life who are holding a place for me by holding the shape of my liver, stomach, pancreas, brain, everything is held in place by a living system of conscious beings just for me. I guess I should go along with the plan and also obey my heart. There is a bigger plan than one I know.
At one time the earth was about to go out - poof! - and its atoms recycled. But there was one, Sanat Kumara from Venus, who said, "No, I will go and dwell on Earth and give it my light." They say at that darkest hour there was only one being who held the light at that time and kept the earth from vanishing. When Sanat Kumara came to live here his presence emitted a vast radiation of love and light and he began drawing human beings to to him in pilgrimage form to the temple his followers built for him. It was in the middle of the Gobi Desert. His love and light fed the dying hearts of the people and they began to wake up. They too began to radiate their consciousness out and exponentially consciousness grew on the Earth. Sanat Kumara is known in the old testament as the Ancient of Days. This was a long time ago in our history. Exponentially the light of consciousness grew and grew, and today, the beginning of 2015, our world has been saved from extinction. It is guaranteed. The earth will not be terminated. There are still those who lag behind and insist on operating in fear, doom and war and refuse to follow the light and the love in their hearts, thinking they can do it alone, separately and selfishly, without needing the light of the creative force which fathers all living things. But in the shift that is happening today they are doomed to failure unless they turn to love. Nobody can live inside the body of a living creation without love living in their hearts.
The portal to life is in the heart. Always in the heart. To keep it beating. We have to learn to share what is in our hearts if we want to grow and expand in consciousness (light and love). Otherwise the light remains turned down low with a covering over it and we forget who we are and create false masks to take its place. That is why sharing our truth is so important. As we share our innermost truth, we should share it with wisdom, purpose, purity, love, peace and freedom. These are the qualities of the seven chakras planted within us. When we express our truth in a balanced way, we grow exponentially. Our reality changes and abundance flows. This was my dream this morning, watered down into words.
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1/6/15 - Not to lose track of sex as my husband accuses me of (!) we had a party New Years Eve and because it was smaller than usual and there were some new couples to provide some new energy to get to know, we were able to become closer to everyone at the party than we normally do. This is from a swinger's perspective. When there are too many people involved at a swing party and everyone has sex on the mind, it grows chaotic. People don't get close enough to actually FEEL something on a deeper level because there is too much confusion in the air and too many bodies moving around. It is difficult to focus. But in order to have an attraction of some sort with someone, it is required that one slows down sufficiently to "connect". It's like connecting two wires together in the car engine to get it to run. Without that connection, be it physical (chemical) or emotional or mental, nothing happens and people start pretending or forcing themselves in to acts that are meaningless.
When there are fewer people around the air is clearer and less muddied and confused. The fewer people the better. The opposite point of view is "the more people there are, the more variety to select from" and some swingers prefer the larger parties for that reason. Well, that is one point of view. However that point of view is the meat market perspective. One can look around a room full of people and see who looks good to you from merely an eye-candy point of view. First sight. But when you have less people to choose from, then you are forced to connect with a person and FIND something meaningful within that person. And it is surprising how this produces such good results. I can tell you many stories with delightful endings. Times when I couldn't have what I would have preferred but had to go with the flow of the moment (because that's who I am) and to be with someone I did not choose to be with. And yet it turned out to be a positive experience and a memorable one that contains something deep beyond words, and I can recall that experience easily from my mental archives. So much is hidden behind our immediate first glance choices. Look at second choices and third. There is something there for you.
1/5/15 - As we enter the new year we are amping up the schedule for Massage for Lovers, which includes teachings on the chakras and auras. The seven chakras are portals through which certain qualities enter into human world to bring about a better balance to life. More peace, more love, more of everything. There are seven tones in the musical scale, and there are seven basic colors in our light spectrum, and there are seven major chakras in the human body. Sound and color kind of blend together into one beautiful symphony on the higher planes, and so it is when the human being begins working with the chakras in him/herself.
We human beings have these seven vibrations (tones and colors) moving through us all the time. They are anchored within us and they enter into our solid physical world through our awareness. If we don't know about them, if we remain ignorant of them, they cannot give us their blessings very well. We block the flow. Within the radiation coming down through open and flowing chakras is our human potential, like pristine rivers flowing down a mountain towards the sea. A most beautiful being perfect in every way, lives in shimmering perfection above each one of us like a god or goddess on a higher plane. It is time we began recognizing it.
Chakras are ethereal. You won’t find them with medical scanning equipment. They come from higher planes, just as we do. If you don’t believe in higher planes or if you don't understand higher planes, it doesn’t matter. It will not diminish the beautiful feelings that flow when certain techniques are applied. There is a science to it which has been proven over and over by spiritual science students over the centuries.
These are mystery school teachings. As near as 100 years ago these teachings were prohibited from being given to the general population. The church confiscated these teachings eons ago to prevent the non-elite (commoner) from growing in personal power. The church has had a very firm control over the population, intimidating everyone from going direct to the source of power - within. Knowledge of the higher dimensions, the chakras and the spiritual science that goes along with it, fuels understanding and grows the confidence and power to think for yourself, to be independent, to dare to live free and love as your heart desires.
The number seven refers to seven very specific tones or qualities that can be woven into a human being's world to bring balance, intelligence, love, purity, truth, peace and freedom. These seven qualities are much more than mere words imply, but we start with a mental description and then we'll apply it to feelings.
(1) Stability - a peaceful solid grounded connection with physical Earth.
(2) Discernment - alertness, wisdom and illumined intelligence.
(3) Love - gratitude, adoration and sacred appreciation
(4) Purity - clean and sparkly fresh in body, mind and feeling
(5) Truth - nothing vibrates like truth!
(6) Peace - comfort, warmth and closeness
(7) Liberation - freedom
A word is a shell that contains the living energy inside it. We have to break open the shell to become immersed into the energy itself. When you are immersed in one of these qualities, you BECOME the quality. Then you know without a doubt who you are. It is a part of you - a very natural and beautiful part of you. Our feelings and emotions and inner senses have been blocked off by living in a mental, analytical world. That is why we are bringing about massage as a way of bringing feeling into each other through loving touch.
Massage for Lovers is a social group dedicated to lifting, raising and appreciating the hidden energies within. We can help each other access these beautiful energies by soothing touch. I know there is a lot of fear of intimate massage, but when sex is taken out of the massage, all pressure to perform is removed. Only love remains. There is more to the human being than meets the eye. Let's access it by participating in loving touch. It is a different kind of therapy. It is love therapy.
The qualities that come through the seven chakras feel intimate and comfortable. When a chakra is open you feel a certain kind of bliss. It is wholesome and good. It immediately overrides the more noticeable ailments in the body, mind or emotions. It is a natural energy. It feels familiar. It is familiar because it comes from you. It is your natural home and it feels very loving. These energies feel good when they are flowing, but you don't even know they are there because so seldom do people engage in this type of loving massage. Most people approach massage as sexual foreplay or physical therapy (which often hurts). Loving touch in a group of other aware and alert and sensitive people willing to give and take gentle warming massage, without pressure to have sex, is the best way to open the chakras. There is more to discuss and demonstrate in person.
12/23/14 - It is all beautifully serene and quiet today. While my sisters up north are all making busy plans with family over the holidays, I feel as if I am living in another zone altogether from the rest of the world. It is SO quiet and SO peaceful. Nobody is around. Nobody is reaching out for us, demanding our attention. My husband is communicating through his computer with the outside world and I am too, but I'm also communicating in other ways. Without family and friends I am feeling kind of elevated. In a more rarefied space, and he seems happy with that. It is a new experience because Christmas has always been about family and friend gatherings. It's quite extraordinary. I think we have created it to be this way, without people around and without any plans to have people around. Now there is room to relax and spread out and appreciate the quiet. I feel as if I am basking in the silence as if it were sunlight. It's a connection of sorts, a connection with no one thing in particular, just spreading out and clicking in, wider and wider, out across the land because there's no one demanding my attention. Even he seems happy. I checked in this morning with him and looked deep into his eyes and he is peaceful and happy too. I hope everyone is as happy as I am today! My love goes out to all.
12/22/14 - Since sending out the e-flyer about the Massage for Lovers, I have been in communication with several men. Men apparently see things differently than women do. Ha! All in good fun and for clarifying and gaining new understanding. There are people interested in Tantra but appear to each have a specific idea of how this should look. It is this "specific idea" that each person carries that mystifies me and causes me to step back. I don't know how to fulfill everyone's "specific idea" of how Tantra should look like. I only know what I know, and don't know how to give to people what they want. So I write and write. I have so many articles in my files of writings over the years that there is no sense any more. I'm reaching a new plateau. I'm now writing to other people instead of myself alone. I love to write emails because they are spontaneous. I don't have to edit them and I don't have to present a "case" and I don't have to explain myself. It's just how I see it.
For example, I see Tantra as a spiritual exercise that you can do alone. It's not about sex. Someone took issue with this - in a good-natured sort of way - and I know my view is different from the way most people see Tantra. But as I wrote back to this man, the way I see it is, within every human being, both men and women, there is a light in the physical heart which is not of this world, that keeps the heart beating and the body alive and everything working. This light is US in a pure state of awareness. The ancients called it the "observer" or the "watcher". It doesn't move. It just is and it's us. It is not confined to earth but embedded in the human body to keep it alive. I get this from the many studies I've been doing along the esoteric line of thought most of my life, no religion, no single path, just picking it up here and there among many sources, including my own personal experiences.
So when we are at rest inside the deepest quietest part of our being, which is in the physical heart, we are retreating to the "observer" or "watcher" position which is neither male nor female. Transcendentalists go there when they meditate. I go there quite a bit myself. However, as many would point out, for creation to continue creating and the world of form to continue evolving and growing, it needs opposite poles to drive things and move things around, back and forth, and up and down, in and out. Even the blade of grass growing up through the topsoil needs something to push against. So do we need people to push against. In order to make things happen we need the male and the female, which are opposites. They push and pull against each other. And yet in the symbol of the yin and yang they are entwined together revealing the opposites at rest. They are actually embracing each other, almost erotically, but they are resting, not moving.
In the resting state at the heart of creation - the heart of God they call it - there is no movement. They say we are all residing in the heart of God no matter what we do or where we go we are always within the heart of God at all times. It is only our movement that causes a sense of separation and loneliness and feelings of funk and the urge to search for answers or someone to fulfill our needs. We are eager to return to wholeness and bliss but in the movement and thinking and planning we don't know how to get it. To find the bliss and wholeness and fulfillment we have to stop all action. The purity of bliss is available, always and eternally available to us, but our busy activity and constant movement, thinking and planning, keeps us separated from it. That's why people meditate or take drugs when they don't know how to meditate.
When I go into that zone it is really, really, really quiet and so peaceful and so beautiful and nothing moves but my awareness expands and I see things from the observer position and I experience being everywhere. There is no movement or urge to search, no urge to rest, no urge to eat, no urge for love, because I am inside of love and I have it all. I'm completely happy, beyond words. My mind - the gears of my thinking mind - are absolutely still and yet there is a greater that I am a part of which I don't see when I am actively moving around and planning my agenda which causes me to shrink to a smaller place and the wheels start up and I am walking around bumping into things again.
From my experience, most people see Tantra as action and movement, while I see it as being silent in the position of the observer - the silence of no movement - and being in total calmness and at rest while being close to another human being who is doing the same thing. Not moving but being in the silence together, in the spirit together. Is this possible? I assume it is very rare, but I know what it is must be like. I know I have experienced it before. Another life? I am ready for this experience but I do not have a partner who will sit in silence with me. This takes time and patience. But unusual things happen when two people go into the silence together, in close proximity, touching but not moving. I'd love to experience it with someone in this life.
Tantra is not very well understood here in the West, but only because we haven't been given the spiritual understanding. The science behind Tantra. From my perspective, which is a woman's perspective, it is in the silence that we open portals to the cosmic half of ourselves and receive the inpouring of powers that are beyond us. Plus, being in the physical with another human being, we also draw on the Earth power known as kundalini which feeds the sexual energy. In this era of more open sexuality and exploration, it is natural to stumble upon Tantra and want to experience it. But since each person has a different idea of what it should look like, how is this possible? Opinions, wants and desires get in the way of success in many projects. Maybe a gathering of open-minded individuals who are interested in Tantra and who would be willing to discuss it with others, instead of insisting on doing it their way, would be a good way to begin an exploratory study group on Tantra. Actually, that's why I'm starting the Massage for Lovers. It just may turn into a Tantra study.
12/21/14 - I have been visited by the angels this past week. Someone sent them to me in a type of ritual or program. So I prepared to receive them and built an altar for them. They have been telling me things - not in words but in awareness - like from their awareness to my awareness. It is a very specific mental telepathy, like a down load of information. I have been receiving communications from them. I bought a bouquet of white flowers and place them on my altar and opened windows and lit candles and put on gentle music and burned incense and smudged my aura. The air is so tranquil and peaceful as I do this. And I name the archangels as a way of inviting them into my space.
I was talking with them again this morning. I got up early and walked outside in the pasture while there was still fog on the ground and the deer were grazing, and the angels told me to be with my higher self and let all human effort go. "You are here to blend with your divinity, which is that natural feeling of no effort, and to be with the elements of the earth which need your help which you can only do by being natural within yourself. You can only be natural by letting go of all pressures to conform to other people and the outside world. You are all natural beings of great light and great wisdom and great goodness and this greatness flows and flows and flows when you don't try to reduce it to fit into a form or format. " I am getting this really strong right now - that the sweetness and the beauty and the love and the joy is what is natural. Everything else is unnatural. Mankind has been messing up the naturalness of the flow so our task is to break out of human thinking (the matrix) and go quietly into the brightness and the freedom and disappear into the wholeness which is our natural state, no effort involved.
Someone sent me an angel message this morning. I want to share it here.
MESSAGE FROM THE ANGELS
My dear friends, we love you so very much. Merry Christmas! Happy Hanukkah! Happy Light in the Darkness, and Light rising up within your beautiful, brave, and bountiful hearts.
For indeed, light did not come into the darkness, but rather was revealed in the midst of the darkness. Light always exists dear ones. Light is what the entire universe is made of. In the midst of the greatest trials, one must only look in the most humble places to see evidence of God's love. Whether it be in the light of an oil lamp, a babe in a humble manger, or in a simple flower growing up through a crack in a concrete sidewalk... love is ever present, always seeking to reveal itself, always seeking to grow.
We celebrate your holidays because your holidays celebrate love! Look for love this week! Look for it everywhere! See it in the faces of those smiling and in the faces of those scowling. Look for it in the most beautiful decorations and in the most garish displays of artificiality. Someone loved themselves, their jobs, their families, or their ideas enough to create everything you see in front of you. The first soul to mix concrete loved the idea of a solid platform. The first person to create the jack hammer to break it up loved the idea of change. The first wise man to follow the star loved the idea that God so loved the world. And you dear ones, you so love others that you wait in lines, spend your hard earned money or time, take time to wish others well. You do these things, you create, you sing, you worship, you wish goodness upon others - all because you love.
All love is the love of God. All light is the same light present in the lamp, in the manger. All of you without exception birth the divine in the most humble places and spaces within your lives. A quiet smile for a stranger. A kind word for a clerk. Allowing a rushed and rude driver ahead of you in traffic... These are the moments when innocence and love are birthed in the manger, again, and again, and again.
Close your eyes during this holiday season. Breathe deeply. Feel the light within your heart. Breathe. Receive. Expand. Fill up your cup with love and pray that the whole world would allow for the same. This is our Present to you Dear Ones. a gentle reminder that the light born on Christmas, the light burning in the lamp in the temple, the light that lives and breathes within you is your perfect gift to all of humanity.
God Bless You! We love you so very much.
The Angels
12/12/14 - Gearing up for massage. Not just any massage. It has to be loving massage - loving massage for lovers. We must learn how to prepare for loving massage. Show love. Think love. Express love. First think love, then feel love. You don’t feel love on command, but you can think love on command. Think first, mentally. Then feel love, physically. How? First start the engine by imagining love in the body cells. Pretending, fake it til you make it. Put focus on love in your muscles and tissues and organs. Use your body to feel love, not your mind. Your mind can't feel anything. It can only think. Put attention in your own body parts because that's where feelings are felt.
It’s like starting your car on a cold morning. The turning of the key in the ignition starts the engine, which sputters and sparks into life. It’s electrical. So is your mind electrical. Spark your body engine by putting your focus into your body cells. Distribute your intention to love throughout your body, like the car engine distributes its spark, it's electrical spark, and sends the gas through to the various parts which make the car run.
Put your love attention into your hands first. There are major chakras in the palms of your hands. Put your love attention into your liver, your stomach, your kidneys, your feet. Form the words “I love you” into your own body first, before putting hands on someone else, to help you warm up your body with love. Get your own juices flowing first. Your mind can’t feel, your brain can’t feel, it is your body that feels so put your love into your body.
Women need love to prepare themselves for touch from another. The touch itself carries energies that are foreign - thoughts, motives, intentions, fears, memories - these are all energies that are not her energies. They belong to another. So when another touches her she receives those foreign energies. That’s why women need to be prepared with love first, before engaging in intimacy. She is a receiver. Women receive energies much quicker than men whose natural currents are outward flowing. Hers are inward flowing. This is unconscious on her part. She is unaware. So another person’s touch is entering into her body unaware. She can't help it. And if it's to be a physical contact, those energies are unfamiliar and strange. That's why women like to feel out another person before doing anything with them. Her body, mind, feelings, and her aura has to read this other person and adapt to him or her and process. This takes time. She may decide to reject that person's touch because no matter how hard she tries to process it, that person's touch is incompatible.
That's why we prepare for love. Prepare ourselves for love so we can bypass the extraneous, individual histories, which are external to our inner heart love, and then we can proceed with our LOVING massage. We must prepare ourselves with love, starting with the mind, then the body and feelings, before we begin massaging.
Everyone stiffens at the thought of being hit with something or someone foreign. We all brace ourselves against whatever is coming if we know it is coming. If we don’t know, we don’t consciously brace for it, but we may have a sense of something coming, a foreboding perhaps or on the other hand, an anticipation of something exciting about to occur for us that our auric field picks up from energy waves that heading in our direction. Women's intuition has based on the science of life. Men may not be aware of incoming waves of because men are not receivers, they are radiators flowing outward. Women are the in-breath and in-drawing while men are the out-breath and outward flowing. The earth itself is breathing in and breathing out. The planets and the suns are also. There is an in-breath and an out-breath to all living things but we won't get into that today.
12/10/14 - It occurred to me today that for many men (not all, certainly, but those I know) it is difficult for them to "see" or imagine invisible energy, such as picking up a lie from another person, or a hesitancy, or a pushiness, or a jealousy, or a fear, or a doubt - these are all feelings that may not show up on the face or in behavior. This is what feminine energy is. Females pick up on these things easier than men do. It is also the basis for meditation, and doing inner work and getting in touch with the higher self. The chakras are invisible energies that tie into the field of life that surrounds us on a horizontal level. And the vertical tube of life that comes down from above us, through the spine, and down into the earth beneath our feet through which flows the sky energy, the positive protons from the sun now being called photons, and the earth energy which are the negative electrons. Hence the need to balance these energies, but if they are invisible and you don't believe in them, it is hard to get there. This is another reason for men to lift their consciousness above physical. Think of it as expanding your light out further afield from your own immediate world, like you are a light and you are turning up your brightness. Look to the sky and to the horizon and imagine the "beyond". This is not just feminine, it is spiritual and when you die you will realize that you are spirit first and foremost. You're just inhabiting the physical body for now.
12/9/14 Almost two months have gone since posting here. My focus has been working through old energies and making room for the new. I am cleansing myself, fasting, using the violet flame (violet transmutes negative energy) and other techniques to bring in the more rarefied energies, meaning lighter ways of seeing. I am a heart person, always have been, and this morning a long-time friend sent an article about the heart. It was how people get confused over the phrase "follow your heart" because sometimes they think they are following their heart but it ends up getting them into trouble and they don't know what they did wrong. The author of the article is a doctor and is trying to explain it but didn't do a very good job, in my estimation. So I wrote back to my friend the following:
This is interesting - it's really about the TRUE you vs. the manipulated and emotionally messed up you. The higher self or god-self (actually the GOD/GODDESS) pours into the body through the heart but we mess up those absolutely pure energies by misusing them or attaching them to something or someone and then finding out we shouldn't have but the damage is done and we now have a "memory" and that's misqualified energy (not pure). So then we have a small heart energy but meanwhile the BIG heart energy is still flowing. We just have to learn not to attach it to anything. Just live it! Impersonal love vs. personal love. In personal love we attach, want, desire, compromise, wrap ourselves around external objects, even do bad things against our nature when we attach to someone or something (obsess). But in impersonal love we remain unattached emotionally, and pure in our love. In the true state of love we do not attach and do not get hurt and are invincible.
Over the last two months I have been processing through my own emotional attachments and fantasies and other things that I've held onto for decades, and trying to replace them with a lighter, softer, easier, more gentle att-it-tude. I really want a group of lovers to gather in my home for massage, but 40 years of submitting to male-driven sex and swinging has been a heavy energy to overcome. The subtle and profound emphasis is not in rejecting sex and swinging, but in elevating myself to the pure love state. This has been difficult and has required a lot of intense inner work, because it's me I have to raise, not other people or swinging. I must raise my own vibrations, my own attitude, and my own feelings about it, while being discerning and not allowing myself to be lowered in vibration and attitude and feelings, which means not giving in to someone else just because they're needy. It's tricky but I'm getting there. It's all about respect, appreciation, even reverence for the life that plays through me and other people. Those attitudes make all the difference in the world.
The damage that women carry forward from past lives and genetics is huge, and only women can overcome them. The men can only love them while they are processing, if they want to help, and not pressure them. We women have acquired so many unpleasant experiences with patriarchy that our trunks in the attic and cellar are overflowing with darkness. I don't think men know that. Only love will raise us up and help us change our attitude for the better, not more orgasms. Although they help if the orgasm is couched, embraced and nurtured in love. We are growing - I am growing - in understanding and becoming empowered as the world shifts to become more feminine. The Earth is a feminine being and she is alive and she too is throwing off the patriarchal abuse.
There is so much more to the love connection than submitting to male needs for sex or power. Even men are confused over all of this change. My advice to men: show love to your women and let them take the lead. See where it goes. The woman's side of sex, the woman's side of the partnership, is all about love. Love has been dismissed for eons as a foolish thing and not at all practical. But there really is a higher cause, a greater good, a deeper connection, a more wondrous love to be experienced in the field of human intimacy and women hold the magic. They have not known that. They are just beginning to wake up to it. Love, when placed first over the genitals, will erase all the negatives from the past. But it can't be achieved by repetitive tunnel-vision focus on physical orgasms thru physical rubbing.. There is a higher dimension to the human being that has been neglected, which is more heightened and revealing and fulfilling as well as sensual. It's an inner work but I'm getting there. It's an inner work for everybody and I am hopeful that the massage evening for lovers will help more people get there too. A schedule for massage evenings has been planned. The schedule will be soon be posted. The first one is January 17, second February 28, and then every 6 weeks.
10/9/14 How often has a woman told a man "Stop it, you're too rough, don't touch me there!" and the man droops and flags, his feelings hurt, his confidence wanes, desire leaves him? And how often has a man pushed too fast and too hard on a woman to cause her to throw up walls of defense and resistance and to harden her heart? Both cases are common in the battle between the genders. This scenario is played over and over in every town, city and village in the world, keeping men and women divided. What is missing? I believe that it is time to learn how to approach one another with gentleness. Let's practice loving one another through slow sensual massage - not sexual but whole body love - and heal the sexual wounds that have been passed down from generation to generation, for centuries. It's an ancient war that has been going on for years and it is preventing us from the embracing one another with mutual love. Make love, not war. Make love in a sacred way.
10/7/14 This morning a wonderful vision was shown to me of a fully realized man. Uumm, lovely. This vision came as a feeling coupled with a picture. It affected me on levels that are wordless. I want to try to express the feeling because I am always focusing on the feminine qualities and, contrary to popular belief, a man who is fully in touch with his feminine side is waaaaay more attractive than one who is not. Most readers interpret feminine to mean woman or a gay man, but there is something powerfully masculine in a man who is whole and complete with both a gentle side and a strong masculine side. Every man has a feminine side, for he is 50% male and 50% female. Most men have been conditioned to hide their female side. Likewise, every woman is 50% female and 50% male, she just hides the 50% male side so she is not wholey empowered. But let's look at an empowered man.
A man's body is male, no question about it. But his body is only the vessel through which he moves and operates as an intelligent operating force. The body is a vehicle, just like his car that he gets into every day and drives. The body is not who he is. Who he is is intelligence manifesting as thought and feeling. This intelligent being is both male and female in thought and feeling. It is only when he is raised in a less-than-perfect society as ours is, that he is indoctrinated from infancy to hide his female side. A boy is taught from infancy to "be a man" and thus close off his delicate sensitivities which are his feminine side. Most boys are taught not to cry and not to express emotion or high ideals or a sense of justice or fairness, or appreciation for beauty or a taste for dance or the arts. These are too delicate, in our society, for a man to have. They are "gay". And yet these are very much a part of his wholeness. He cannot be complete without them. As he grows into adulthood and continues to deny expression to his own inner beauty and grace, he grows harder and more masculine. More macho. He develops a certain hunger for the feminine touch, for his body needs it. His body follows its natural growth pattern and at puberty there is a physical awakening of sex hormones in the genital region, indicating he can now reproduce, but there is a deeper and more intense hunger. He needs feminine energy for his soul, not just his body. He is lacking in that area - intimacy, gentleness, awe and wonder, because he has been trained to shut that side of him down and he is energetically out of balance. He is tilting too far over into the masculinity zone.
Perhaps the reader will disagree with me, but I am sharing a word picture of something I saw today - a fully-realized man. A whole man, not a screwed-up man with issues. We do not see such men in our society often, if ever. A fully realized man is not hungry for sex, nor is he hungry for a relationship. He is his own man and happy with his life. He balanced between his heart (feminine) and his mind (masculine). He has learned to keep his heart open. He has not closed off his feminine side. His physical body is male and he is attracted to women in the same way as any normal man, for he loves to be in love and he loves beauty, grace and togetherness. But sex is not driving him. He has a respect for the whole person, and an appreciation of nature and ALL people everywhere - not just women. He has the ability to enjoy the many pleasures that the world has to offer, and the ability to be in joy and spontaneity as he feels, as well as to be serious, practical and a leader of men where needed. He can laugh and cry as he is moved to do so., as well as be the warrior when he is called upon, because he does not have unresolved issues plaguing him. He embodies his own wholeness in his skin, and he is comfortable with who he is. He is not operating at the 50% level, which we would call the macho male, but is the kind of man all men and all women would find attractive and likeable.
It's hard to describe the feeling of what I saw. It was a feeling. It was a presence. It was loving and warm and yet masculine in every way. It was wise and intelligent. Profoundly knowledgeable. He was like a god in man's body. You could not help but stop and gaze at him in wonder, trying to figure out what it was that captivated you. But he was just a human being. I am trying to define the feeling, the impact, the glow and the presence of this man in my vision. He had a very powerful presence. You could imagine him being able to move mountains if he wanted to, but that he kept that power under wraps until needed. This gave an image of a very strong, very warm, very gentle, very human, and very attractive man.
I am painting this picture so that men who read this might understand - allowing your female side to express in your thoughts and emotions and life is not being gay, and not being feminine. It is being more masculine, not less. It is important that a man realize how much he loses by not allowing his sensitive nature to co-exist along with his masculine. He has this energy within him. It is a powerful spiritual energy. I am articulating this for a reason. If men everywhere accepted his femaleness, the world would spring back to rightness immediately, for it has been the unbalanced male who has become unduly aggressive, mean and vicious without his feminine side. He would become in short time very comfortable with himself and at peace with his life. What at first feels vulnerable to him would eventually prove to be a wholeness that he has not experienced before, and it would give him more power, purpose and meaning.
The inner feminine is sometimes called the inner child. The inner child has been neglected. The supposition is that the child has not grown up to adulthood. But the inner female is always a child. It is happy and joyful and spontaneous and in love with life with delight twinkling in the eye at play. A man who has these qualities would be stronger than those men who do not express it. All men could express their inner child, with a little solitary alone time to connect with it. He would be able to give expression to his inner, heretofore unexpressed inner thoughts and feelings. He would be MORE of a man, not less. He would find himself surprisingly stronger than he ever thought possible, because he would be operating on 100% fuel instead of only 50%. The fuel is the spirit of the person, not the body itself. The fuel is the life force of an individual, not the body itself. The body is only the vehicle, the car, that the person gets into and drives around. But if the person runs out of fuel, out of spirit, out of life force, then the car, the body, runs down and grows old. It cannot keep itself alive. It needs the fuel - the 100% octane. The macho male thinks he is so powerful and manly, but he can't do it alone without the spiritual fuel of 100% - the other half of himself which is hidden. One who has accepted his own gentleness, grace, vulnerability, beauty and refinement, would appear as a gentleman. That private acceptance within would flood his mind, body and feelings and saturate him with powerful confidence and inner knowledge. No amount of book learning or higher education gives that to a man. Only his willingness to connect with his heart, the feminine and spiritual side of himself.
The same is true with a woman. Most women operate on 50% of their life force, not 100% as they could. Yes, their physical bodies are feminine and they might be the most beautiful woman in the world. But their bodies are only a vessel, a vehicle. She herself is a non-physical, very powerful being using that beautiful body to operate through. When she, the powerful being, is raised as a young girl by her parents, she is more than likely being cultivated toward the feminine side. They are probably clipping and cutting back her male side, so she will "fit in". Most girls are taught to be soft and gentle and to not express their intellectual side or their strengths or practicalities or tendencies for science, math, politicians, baseball or motorcycles. And yet she has all of these tendencies within her. They are skills and talents and abilities. Who knows what she would produce if she did not cut off her male side? As young girls grow into womanhood they become increasingly hungry for male energy - the male energy that they rejected and denied expression to. They grow unbalanced. She develops a certain hunger for boys. And when her body awakens at puberty with sex hormones flooding her nerves and tissues, she has no control over it. She needs and wants a boy man. Whereas if she had been allowed to be a fully-realized girl from childhood she would not be caught in the flood of emotions at puberty. Imbalance causes her intense desire for male energy, for she has refused to let it live and express in her. This hunger radiates out into the atmosphere around her and men and boys are attracted to it like a moth to a flame.
When a person blocks whole portions of themselves from expressing, which our society unfortunately requires, there is the beginning of imbalance. It manifests as inability to see clearly or choose wisely and as a hunger for the opposite sex or fighting with the opposite sex. Wholeness, on the other hand, is a feeling of being healthy, at peace and more or less fulfilled. It is the aching hunger for the opposite sex that is, in my opinion, the most damaging result of denying the inner male or the inner female from expressing. It creates the friction and the struggle that exists between men and women everywhere. It is global. Even in our enlightened society here in the West, there is enmity between men and women. This enmity dissolves into love during a love affair and honeymoon, but quickly disappears after that. Why?
Because while they are in love they are balanced in their energies. Love balances. Love accepts. Love does not reject or deny. Love includes. As soon as they stop being in love, they fall out of balance again and the hunger returns for the opposite sex. And yet it is within the man himself, within the woman herself, that the balance is found. One can have hundreds of sex partners in life and never achieve that ultimate peace that comes with being in balance. It is all about energy. Inner energy. Male and female energy integrated inside one's own skin. Is it possible a baby can be raised as a fully-realized boy or girl? I believe it is not only possible but that we are seeing it with our own eyes. It is happening right now in the child prodigies. What we call "geniuses" but they are not geniuses. They are merely healthy, whole-bodied individuals operating on a full tank of life force, fully-realized. I believe these child prodigies are not super human but wholey human. What do you think?
9/17/14 I'd like to share an article that came to me this morning. It was tacked onto a Galactic article which I am also interested in. This is channeled by Wes Annac at WesAnnac.com. It's about difficult relationships and it's right on!
What to Learn in a Difficult Relationship
“My partner and I just got back together. My question would now be, is the relationship both for our highest good? What lessons do I need to learn in this difficult relationship? Shall I continue with it or put an end to it in order to be open in a new relationship?”
A: We’re happy to see that you and your partner have given togetherness another honest try. We’ll be glad to reiterate a basic few things to keep in mind in regards to any relationship in hopes that they help you find what you’re looking for, and we encourage any two souls who want to make a relationship work to keep the importance of mutual love and respect in mind.
A lot of people on earth are trying to make their relationships work; trying to see beyond the petty fighting and the things that keep them apart and into the harmony that’s meant to strengthen their bond, and we encourage you to give the mutual respect you require from your partner. More relationships would soar if respect were just as involved as love, and for any relationship to thrive, it’s essential to see the importance of respecting one another. As easy as it can be to think more about oneself than another, an element of disrespect comes into play when anyone does this.
Selfishness sends a message to one’s partner that they aren’t as heeded or respected as oneself, but selflessness will help a relationship thrive as much as the respect that drives it. If one can learn to think less about themselves and more about the people around them, any relationship they attempt to keep strong will flow gracefully and the person they’re with will seem to be the ‘one’ for them. While twin flames certainly exist, relationships aren’t inherently necessary to thrive on earth.
Many people have chosen to come together in the form of relationships because they have karmic lessons to teach each other, and you, dear reader, will learn a lot from your relationship’s revival. The lessons you’ll learn will help you see certain things about yourself in a new light, and the hope is for you to provide the same thing for your dear partner. Mutual love and respect should always be a factor in any relationship, and when the usual lower and degrading qualities come back to the surface and cause arguments or similar acts of disharmony, we encourage simply walking away and asking yourself what it is about this partnership that’d cause them. What lies deep within you that’d cause disharmony between another – specifically, a person you intend to love?
These questions are very important from our perspective, and there are plenty of things you and your partner can keep in mind as you attempt to make your relationship work. One of those things is, again, if you’re receiving the level of love and support you desire from each other.
Find Inner Wholeness
Are you getting what you desire out of a relationship, or do you feel as if spending time submerged deep in the self will help you find what you seek? In a sense, you don’t want to expect your partner to provide whatever it is you feel to be missing within, and this is a trap a lot of souls initially fall for in regards to relationships. You have to be whole within before you can make a relationship with another work, and if both partners seek something out of the relationship they haven’t found within, there’s bound to be difficulty and clashing.
There are bound to be arguments and everything under the sun that leads to disharmony, because both souls would be incomplete; searching for something that’s meant to be found within but that they use relationships or other external things to find. We encourage you, dear reader, to find the love and wholeness that exist within if you want your relationship to last, and we’ll encourage the same for your partner.
In time, everyone will see that togetherness can only be created or strengthened if the people involved feel whole or fulfilled within, and we’ll make our final expressions for this communication with encouragement to keep the love flowing, no matter what happens. If any of you find yourselves arguing with your partners or descending into lower qualities for any reason, remember to take a step back and realign with the sacred inner love you’re meant to feel and radiate to the rest of humanity.
We never recommend suppressing negative emotion when it comes to the surface, but we absolutely recommend refusing to let it influence your thoughts and actions. Love is required in this time of increasing wholeness, and whether or not you find your love from a relationship, you’ll each find it in ways that work best for you.
Every soul will find what seems missing within, and we’ll encourage our reader and any other reader out there who’s worried about potential relationship problems to keep in mind that the love and fulfillment you seek will always live within. You can seek them externally, but it won’t do much good if you can’t already feel them in your heart.
Thank you to my higher self and spiritual guides.
Wes Annac
(Permission is given to spread this post far and wide, as long as the following bio is included.)
I’m a 21 year old awakening seeker and creator of The Culture of Awareness daily news site.
(For the whole article go to http://wesannac.com/2014/09/17/qa-galactic-fleets-and-relationship-issues/#more-2844
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9/12/14 I am working on a new HOME page for Anakosha. While communicating with some people I am beginning to understand that, in order to create a quality group of people for a loving touch massage, I will need to meet each individual personally first, and swap massages with them. This is a "stepping back" for me. I need to regroup and re-analyze my approach. Most people are not as ready as I am to jump into an evening of group massaging with total strangers. I will have to go slow here.
While sex is an important part of human life, sex as most people know it is in its infancy. Yes, it's good for releasing stress and tension, but it is not ideal in most people’s lives. I’ve talked to many people over the years. Most individuals, women especially but some men too, find themselves still hungry after sex. The ideal sex would be a deeper, more fulfilling lovemaking encounter, but that is rare indeed. So, yes. Sex is important but there is more to sex than meets the eye, which is the reason for the loving touch approach to massage. It's a half-way step to nurture and love the body with several people participating, not just one which creates attachment to that "one". The loving hands-on approach stimulates the love that is stagnant, frozen and locked inside the cells of the person being massaged. The love is not free to move until it is addressed with love of the same quality. When we stimulate the love inside the body on the table and move it around with our LOVING hands, the person feels warm and fuzzy all over. Sensual yes, but not sexual. Men usually translate the warm, fuzzy feeling into sex but in a group men will learn to NOT change it to sex but learn to savor the warm, sensual feelings and expand them and circulate them until his whole body is floating on air without weight and without need to release. This is a tantric technique but it can't be explained. It has to be experienced through feelings, under guidance.
On the other hand, if the receiver does not trust the one or two or three people who are putting their loving hands on their skin, they will remain locked up and frozen. We all need to practice letting ourselves loosen up and trust. But it's going to take practice. It will change our lives. It will change our ability to respond in an open manner. It will change the way we look at the world.
9/10/14 When you have sex with someone it disturbs your equilibrium. I was told that before, but I never realized it for myself until one day recently when I was with a man reaching for orgasm. I was reaching and he was trying. I kept reaching and he kept trying. This went on for a while until I felt very strange, as if I would have a heart attack. My blood was boiling - not in a sexual way but in a bad way. I was getting a little bit of sexual feeling but it was overwhelmed by blood rushing, heart pumping and energies whizzing and exploding and going in a crazy fashion. It was not good so I stopped the effort.
I didn't realize what was happening until this morning as I was bonding (making love) with my husband. His energies and mine have become smooth after 20 years. I do not have to try hard or reach some kind of unknown with him. My body, mind, feelings, spirit, all coalesce and are at peace with him when I make love. It is smooth and gentle. It feels right and good. The realization struck me then that when we have sex with others we have to do a lot of struggling to reach each other. I think it's my maturity that is teaching me. It takes a while to get it. That's why I am so selective today in choosing my love partners.
9/9/14 In reviewing some Tantra websites I ran across this message from www.maresimone.com, which is so well put: "Female sexuality is expansive and mysterious like the deep sea. A sexually awakened woman has a vastly unlimited capacity for orgasm! The feminine valley orgasm is quite different from an aggressive peak orgasm. The valley often begins from deep within where explosive waves of energy arise that can last a long, luscious time… and then continue to the next wave of continuous bliss. Unfortunately, many women do not reach their full sexual potential. Recent statistics state that four out of five women do not reach sexual climax through intercourse! Why? Firstly, there are the cultural and religious stigmas around sex that cause women to feel shame and guilt about their natural sexuality. To make matters worse, often their partners lack the knowledge and skill that can help guide them into expanded states of orgasmic bliss. Because most men are not yet capable of experiencing full body, energy or valley orgasms, this makes it difficult for men to even comprehend, let alone hold the space open for a woman to reach her full orgasmic pleasure potential."
I'm still learning....
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9/7/14 We had a date this weekend. It was supposed to be a lifestyle date. Well, it WAS a lifestyle date. At least for my husband and the other woman. For me I went into it with unsureness. It was akin to stepping off a cliff. I didn't know what I was going to do because I am not really a good swinger any more. My heart isn't in it. But I am still processing through this new phase of growing yet again past a boundary of unknown substance. I've hit a ceiling. How to break through this ceiling, I have no clue. I've been hitting this ceiling again and again and trying to figure it out. Today I had a breakthrough.
The other man was a beautiful man, and an ideal soundboard. He was articulate and demanded me to be articulate. It was pressure on me but it was good for me to practice articulating my deeper feelings. As a result I was able to say things I didn't want to say before. I began the weekend socially and in my normal head space. I then found it necessary to explain that my heart wasn't in it and that I was not a good swinger and I apologized for not being what was expected of me to be. I was able to say it. Wow. It proved later to be a breakthrough. I have not been able to say those words. and remain positive and happy about it.
I then invited him to receive a massage from me and he was more than happy to receive it. Meanwhile the other lady and my husband were having a play date. The massage was not sexual. We discussed that beforehand, that it would not be. He was happy to go along with it. He lay on the table and the moment I put my hands on his feet I was rewarded with an immediate connection. It seemed as though I soared through all seven levels at once and reached zero point energy. The zenith experience. This is the space that I get after an hour's meditation. It is like the trance state. It is the point where there is no movement and I am at one with the sea of life, even though I am touching his feet. It is a most peaceful and wonderful place to be. Words are not necessary while in that space. Words can be exchanged but they are words spoken from a quiet place. No movement is noticed. The words simply flow out from the heart because there is no sense of having to reach a destination. There is already a connection from heart to heart and mind to mind. I do not think he experienced what I experienced, but that doesn't affect me and my wonderful sense of being at peace. At one. In love. In wholeness and completeness. While this space is not sexual it has a similar feeling that I have after a really good orgasm - one that blisses me out. You might call it the afterglow or "the little death".
After the couple left I was noticeably sharper and full of energy. I began talking to my husband and telling him things in an onrush of words that surprised even me. I was SO vitalized! So refreshed. I was joyful. I was excited for the first time in several weeks. A lifestyle party does not do this for me. Even an orgasm does not do this for me. It is an entirely different connection. I would call it a connection to spirit - my spirit and his spirit merging. It was tantric. It is like being born again. It was such a complete recharge of body, mind, feeling, spirit. In fact, I believe the feeling is the result of my blending my own body with my own mind with my own feeling with my own spirit. I think I jumped a timeline today. I am closer to today's time. I've been lost in the future which is not grounded in the NOW and today. So I think I'm bringing that future into the timeline of today. I am finding a grounded path. I have been searching for one. I think I've got a better grip on it. No more fantasizing, but getting more rooted in the here and now.
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9/5/14 Once again I have been soaring into higher places and having a difficult time coming back to land. We had a lifestyle party for seniors last week (Florida Silver Foxes). This type of party brings me close to grounding, because many people come into our home and it is exciting. We have dinner and socialize. This brings me to ground and reminds me that I can't do this journey alone. No matter how wonderful I feel when I am in meditation, and how high I soar into future realms, it is the interaction with other people and the intimacy that we experience together than brings it into the hear and now and makes life more solid and real. It is difficult to maintain interest though in sex as sex is commonly understood, because my energies are out beyond the physical. I have integrated the higher planes into my life so well that the physical is lagging behind, not so important any more. But I do enjoy it when it happens. Sex alone, physically speaking, is kind of empty and meaningless to me. What keeps me continually involved in the lifestyle of swinging is the refreshing interaction with people, mentally and emotionally. That seems to round it out for me. Merging physical bodies without that is kind of dead to me. It is difficult to say this to the men I meet in the lifestyle. The fault or credit is mine, no one else's. I don't know how to say it so I'm trying out these words on this blog. I am searching. I have found the perfect experience while giving massage but there is something not right about it. It is one-sided.
This deeper inner level is meaningful when the second person can return the same subtle inner feeling. Then two beings merge into a zone that is beyond anything imaginable. I have had other lifetimes when I was involved with Tantric lovemaking. I have had flashbacks to these times. It is something I am trying to find in this lifestyle, but so far I have been unable to link up with someone who is familiar with what I am doing. It is a natural process, and when this natural process is allowed to go to the peak of its natural cycle, for like everything, there is a cycle involved, then there is fulfillment that is - again - beyond what can be imagined.
I have matured and peaked in the lifestyle of swinging. It has given me so very much. I have grown knowledgeable and wise and elevated through the many people I have worked and played with in sexual parties. Now I have grown beyond them. The lifestyle parties are now seen as immature. Mostly rushing to cram as much as possible into the time allotted. Where once I enjoyed it, I now shy away from it. While I can still play my role when needed, I am increasingly pulling back, not wanting to fulfill someone else's sexual needs. I am seeking the mutuality of consciousness where Kundalini thrives and drinks deeply of the nourishing love and reverence, where Kundalini stirs naturally, without forcing it, and there is a spark, a pizzazz, a lightening zap that starts an inner flow swirling electrons. It produces a visceral response way down deep and all over. It springs to life a new kind of energy that I don't feel very often. In fact rarely. Maybe the last time was another life? I don't know why I am looking for this in the lifestyle, but I continue to hope. Most people don't understand my words. I want to remain still and in a sacred mental space with someone until I get a response. I know if I remain silent and still enough and the other person also remains silent and still enough, a natural rhythm will take over. Usually I start out silent and still but the man's need and rhythm takes over which leads us into the sexual act and I remain stulted. As a woman I want to please so I play out the role. Why don't men follow MY lead? I have followed theirs for many centuries. I wish there were more people trained in white tantra. Red tantra is sexual. White tantra is spiritual and brings all seven levels into alignment. I know I am from the future. I have come back to lead the way to higher ground. It is difficult. Sigh. But I have both feet on the ground (finally)! And I am watching this new phase in me unfold. In a way it is kind of exciting.
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8/16/14 I have not forgotten Anakosha! Thank you for your wonderful comments. I love you and am constantly thinking of you - those who read my blog. I check the number of hits every day. I have been spending most of my time lately in my other websites: www.galacticfederation-naplesFL.org and www.worldmeditations.org The celestial realm of advanced civilizations who are coming in their star ships with vast knowledge, intelligence and infinite love. This is native to me and draws me like a magnet. But there is something I read this morning that made me think of Anakosha. I have given up trying to have a massage group of higher consciousness because I found most people did not understand what I was talking about. I just want to say, "There is something BIG to be found if you can get past the focus on sex." (Hint: I said FOCUS on sex, not sex itself. If you can get past the tunnel vision on sex you enter a vaster deeper more profound place.) I confess I have been sorely disappointed. I have enjoyed the swinging lifestyle for many years because my focus was not on sex. The encounters I have had in the swinging lifestyle have elevated me, expanded my perceptions, my consciousness, my tolerance, my sense of self-worth and in so many other ways. I am not the same person I was. But my focus is not on sex. My focus is on the quiet connection in the silence when we are together. Most people are afraid of that.
I have enjoyed a deep and profound something there are not words for, and I wanted to share this deep soul-connection intimacy with others because it is so enriching and universal, not personal. Not ego-driven. There is no possession or controlling of other people when you are in this vast and universal sea of oneness and feel so connected and in love. And it's physical! It can be done with a small group under guidance, but most people who responded to my promotion were not able to rise up to this higher level. Their focus was on sex.
Love has been the chief motivation behind Anakosha from the beginning. Love is bigger than a person. It is an energy that surrounds and interpenetrates the person and all things around him. It's in the air itself. The air is a product of this love on a higher plane. The swinging lifestyle is an ideal focus for universal love to flow downward and into the physical form because people are trying to have open minds about something that used to be totally private and locked behind closed doors. When doors are opened, when hearts are opened, when minds are open, when bodies are opened, then love flows in.
The problem has been that most men seem to have an obsession on sex. Some women too but the majority of men indicate that if there is no sex involved with the massage they aren't interested. That realization was a disappointment to me. But - alas - one moves on. This was a chance for me to move on alone. I gave up the idea of holding a massage group but I have not given up the concept of the higher love. I still host swing parties - the swinging scene is a first step into greater awareness, tolerance and respect, as I said previously. And from there there CAN be a spiraling higher, if one is inclined to do so. I am. I go into ever clearer spaces of greater refinement, appreciation, pleasure, beauty and oneness. The advanced civilizations that have been visiting us from other planes (planets) have so much love and wisdom that teach us just by standing next to them. They are visiting now, again, after many thousands of years in great number. I have created a website to honor them. They are us in a future incarnation. They have been around for millions of years and travel space freely, without fuel. They are our elder brothers and sisters. They can show us so much. Not only in the areas of technology and improving the environment, but also about our deep personal relationships and inner feelings of confusion.
They are showing us that love is the glue that holds everything together, and the ONLY thing that holds us together, and the only solution for our world so bent on destroying it through war. The term "oneness" is used a lot by them. You know what it means. We just don't know how to get there but they are showing us. They are working with us, with you and me. I have aligned with them. This oneness is a little confusing if you have not had some background training in these matters. This talk about celestial visitors and higher ways does not take away from sex and the whole field of swinging, human love and intimate relationships. It enriches us. It rounds it out, fills it in the voids, draws us together, deepens our understanding of how connected we are. And in our swinging encounters we come away feeling bigger, better, higher, more energized and more noble. All the good words that we would love to hear because they ring true.
Sex is not a four-letter word. It is not evil. It is not beastial. It is not dominating, manipulating or degrading or shameful. Sex becomes filled with those negative qualities when a person THINKS that way. If a person changes his thoughts to love, respect, appreciation, sex becomes deeper, better, more pleasing. This is the big shift in consciousness that is coming to all of us in this new age. The world and we on it are in the process of rising up out of the density of the third dimension to the lightness of the fifth dimension. The dirtiness of sex doesn't apply in 5D. Sin, fear, doubt, shame, all of this would not be able to withstand the light and love that prevails on the fifth. We in our world are beginning to experience the separation as negatives fall away and we find ourselves more tolerant and graceful in the face of situations that were once unpleasant. There is a more noble view of intimacy and the body. It is more real.
I receive many new articles of information every day that deepens my understanding of this lightening process of letting go of the old heavy patterns that bog us down in arguments and misunderstandings. I am passing this understanding on by writing about it in my websites. Here is an excerpt from an article that came in this morning. It was written by an ascended master.
"In order to accomplish the move into a higher realm, it is necessary for you to learn the pleasures and satisfactions of being One with others around you, with all living Beings, within and on your planet and beyond. This great leap requires a massive shift in consciousness to the ability to form and enjoy deep psychic connections with others without feeling any fear that you might be compromised by the voluntary resignation from your career as an independent ego.
"This means, of course, that you must be able to be fearless. All ideas about avoiding relationships in order not to 'get hurt' must be re-evaluated in the light of higher realms, where feeling hurt or deceived or misused are not a worry, or even a consideration. Where there is no ego to be bruised, there is no disappointment; there is only acceptance, awareness, and Truth.
This is all about relationships and the close personal connections we have every day with the people in our lives, including our own relationship with ourselves, with our families, with our life partners and with our sex life. This is a concept that goes beyond sex as we practice it and beyond ego. That doesn't mean we don't make love physically, as we always have. But the focus is different. The focus goes far beyond the genitals and orgasm. It is beyond the need to possess or control other people. It is beyond survival mode, and the "me first" mode and it is reached putting the conscious mind into the heart and feeling your way through situations with harmony and respect.
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8/5/14 This week's Time magazine (August 18) has a cover story on low testosterone and the upsurge in plush office spaces called "Low T Centers", meaning low testosterone. I took the time to read this article because I have another story to tell. The article speaks of walking into offices smelling musky with masculinity and well-stocked bars with young attractive female receptionists and posters of well-muscled young athletes on the walls. Aging men walk into this man-cave which bombards him with everything he is missing in his life. Is it any wonder that he pays out the nose for the treatment that will possibly bring back his youth?
The treatment of course draws on the physical world of pills, food, hormones and exercise, whereas my story is that the non-physical plays a more important part than we realize. The physical body is merely the bottom layer of a series of non-physical and invisible energies which is "the Self". Into these invisible layers we store our thoughts and feelings haphazardly and without thinking. All that a person has ever done, both the good and the bad, has been passed up into the higher dimensional realms of his own dynamic and creative Self. His mind (the mental layer), the feelings (emotional layer) and the subconscious (etheric or spiritual layer). These three layers of the Self - mind, feeling and spirit - are three separate dimensions, each one non-physical and invisible to our physical eyes and therefore forgotten. Only the body is visible to us and so only the body is important to us. But the body is disposable. It dies and we get reborn into another body. And another. Whereas the mental, emotional and spiritual bodies are eternal and do not die because they are who we are. Our thoughts, emotions and unresolved issues are part of us. They go with us when we drop the body and move on. They are who we are and what this is reflected in the body we wear.
Every minute of every day and every night when we are sleeping, we are feeding our thoughts, feelings, intentions, desires, visions, dilemmas and confusions into who we are - our invisible bodies that go with us wherever we go. We cannot escape them until we finish them, complete them, resolve them and purify ourselves. The heavy burdens we have stored in our mental, emotional and spiritual bodies are the REAL cause of our aging process. What weighs on us. What we did yesterday, how we thought yesterday, how we dreamed or held onto anger yesterday - this is what produces the final result that shows up in our physical body. This is ancient wisdom, the eternal truth provided by the invisible brotherhood of light, of angels and the company of heaven which the churches have confiscated and hidden from the world's population. These are the mysteries that have been intentionally kept from us. Today this knowledge is coming out. It is seeping out through the cracks of major religions. Watch for it.
Low testosterone, according to the Time article, is a measurement of a living body, limited to ONLY the body. We have no way of measuring what has been stored in the energy bodies beyond our knowledge. Only what is contained in the physical body right now, is measured. Candice Pert, a PhD who worked in the lab all her life, lectures that your body cells are changing by the second. Modern technology measures you for low blood sugar or low testosterone at, say, 1 pm on any given Tuesday, and by 6 pm on that same Tuesday, if measured again, you could have high blood sugar or high testosterone. Why? Because our bodies are not dead pieces of meat. Measurements do not last beyond the few minutes during which we are measured. They are constantly changing. If you are depressed, Dr. Pert says, instead of taking Zoloft, go to Disney World and take a ride on Magic Mountain. You will feel excited and joyful because your body cells will release joy hormones and it won't cost you anything other than a ticket. This is the invisible world that we carry around with us everywhere we go. We have our own cures within. The inner life, if we began to access it through provided instructions, would provide natural remedies for what ails us, including erectile disfunction.
The Time article writes that prescriptions for testosterone sales were $2.4 billion in 2013. It further explains that a doctor's prescription cannot be written unless there is a medical condition associated with it - and aging is not a medical condition. So, in order to accommodate the growing demand of aging men, doctors are now prescribing off-label testosterone for men with borderline low testosterone (T for short). It's a worldwide boom. Canada online has filled millions of prescriptions, and more and more men are bypassing doctors to buy T-boosting supplements.
The worldwide boom in testosterone treatments are limited to treating the physical body, which is the bottom layer of what is actually seven layers of non-physical energy. We are only addressing the four lower layers (bodies or dimensions) because the three upper layers (bodies or dimensions) are already perfect, refined, pure, noble and whole (holy) and do not need fixing. Only the four bottom layers need correcting. Namely the mental, emotional, etheric and physical which is disposable from life to life. Our world mistakenly thinks the hard physical world is all there is and therefore that is all that is addressed. But the physical world is a shadow of the living and vital forces of the dimensions that vibrate above it. If a leg goes bad and all other treatments fail, doctors will cut off the leg without looking to the source of the problem, which is the etheric, mental and emotional storehouse of negative energy which caused the leg to go bad.
The underlying cause of all "disease" including aging is more than energy medicine or alternative/complementary medicine, although there are benefits to be found in these fields. But even alternative/complementary medicines do not address the quality of emotion and thought. The growing erectile problems of aging men are problems caused by a limited belief system - a belief that age is a decaying process. By expanding to a larger quality of life and a greater belief in eternal vitality ever flowing, never stopping, and learning to rely on that flow of living light and love, will do wonders for the health and richness of a person's life. The aging process is one of dying. It is caused by restrictions in both how one thinks and how one feels. Limited thoughts and limited feelings close down on the flow of life. Life is constantly, moment by moment, expanding. If we do not expand with it we begin the dying process. Restrictions means restrictions of the heart and mind by focusing on the small and petty things such as focusing on survival mode and not having enough to pay the bills when there are options all around. Or staying in low self-esteem when there are rich and powerful affirmations and support at every turn. Or staying in lack of confidence when opportunities abound to break out of the narrow confines of one's tiny world. Life CAN be turned around. Not with a "quick-fix" pill from the doctor, although that might help alleviate some of the symptoms it doesn't cure the underlying problem. It might give an immediate erection but it doesn't change the way you feel about love. It is the long-term changes in attitude, i.e., the joy and happiness factor, that will produce long-term changes in health.
Low testosterone is a burgeoning profit-making business because aging men are trying to find the fountain of youth. I am sorry to say that it can't be found in the pill. The growing old, the weighing down, the loss of vitality, virility and flexibility is a condition that has been created by years of past damaging living behavior. The good news is, it can be corrected with a change in behavior that would appear at first glance to be drastic and near impossible to sustain to most men. But if they could stick with it, they would regenerate the physical body and bring a level of joy, peace, love and abundance and freedom into their life that it would be unbelievable. It would be staggering and yet it would be perfectly acceptable and natural to be so happy.
What is the miracle cure that would regenerate an aging body? Not to go back to age 20 or 30, but to FEEL like age 20 or 30. It is priceless knowledge and it is free. The only cost is a few hours a day dedicated to alone time and determination to practice - and the cost of a book or two to follow. Recent studies show so many problems resulting from drugs being administered for low testosterone that lawsuits are beginning to appear in court. Experts are trying to sort out fact from fiction as the science of testosterone therapy is still unknown. And it won't be. Not until and unless the individual addresses his own inner spiritual growth process. He is a spiritual being to begin with and he is a spiritual being all through his life but he doesn't live like a spiritual being which would be an expansive, noble, powerful, fearless person, radiating with health and vitality. Instead most human beings live like a dying person, focused on disease, survival and death. It is this narrow focus that is cutting off the natural life that is flowing through him, that is causing aches and pains, blurry eyes, muffled hearing, loss of spring to the stop, tiredness in the morning, lower back pain, cells mutating into cancer, and male impotency.
It happens to women, too, says the article, but women handle it better. "A nip, a tuck and a tint," where men buy a Vegas condo and a sports car. The article further admits that "women are more intimate with the cycles of life." Ah Ha! A tiny seed of recognition. It is INTIMACY that men are missing the most. Men have difficulties admitting to it for he was raised in the exact opposite: to reject intimacy and tenderness. The male has squandered away something vital through his youthful hound-dog days. Instead of stockpiling energies of positive vibration, such as concern for the more sensitive of the species, he has stockpiled energies of selfishness, greed and the resultant anger and loneliness that goes along with that type of life. Most men, although it was not their fault since they were programmed that way, have ignored and rejected the qualities of the heart out of fear it would make him weak.
It does not change a man into a woman to be heart-based and sensitive. Many heroic men in the history books were muscular, brave and acted from the heart, and capable of loving tenderness when needed. But little boys who are taught to ridicule sensitive people grow into strong men who eventually themselves grow more sensitive and weak with age - if they don't learn and change their love approach. We all leave human wreckage behind us in the wake of our passing when we are careless in thought, word, feeling and action. A wise man does not act that way. But our culture has said "Boys will be boys". It was the way of a young man and this ill behavior was encouraged. Now, today, that aging young man is paying the price. He is older and facing a slow decrepitude of body, mind and spirit. He is looking for a pill instead of looking inside his own heart and into his own thoughts, where vitality is made. What turns stiffness and aging around to joy and abundance is largeness of spirit and concern for others. Expressing forgiveness and appreciation and other qualities of the heart are inner attributes. That's where the turn-around happens. Giving altruistically, from a true desire to help others, is what builds up treasures in heaven which in turn reflects back down into the physical body as health, healing a glow that shines through the physical from beyond. This is the storehouse of vitality that will build up an erection when it comes times to make love. It comes from a different source than the locker-room machismo talk of conquering the girls and picking as many cherries as possible. Bed-post notchers. It does not matter how old a person is, as long as there is breath and a heart pumping, health can be returned to the body. Giving from the heart instead of the pocket book is rule number one.
A little more insight about the bodies I keep talking about. There are three more bodies that lie over on top of the physical body, interpenetrating the physical. One is the etheric body which contains all of the negative or harmful energy which is unfinished, unresolved or un-repaid misbehavior in thought, word and deed ever done in the past. Everything bad we've ever done to harm another must be cleansed and gotten rid of and can be done by practicing certain disciplines. Cleansing procedures, breath work, prayer work, and more can be found in appropriate books.
Body No. 2 is the mental body and lives in a mental dimension. It interpenetrates the etheric body and the physical body. It contains all the thoughts and intentions of this life from birth, both the good and the bad. At death, anything unfinished is put into the etheric body and carried forward to the next life to resolve, while everything good goes up into what is called the "causal body" and becomes the "treasures of heaven". As the mental body grows older and more cynical, its contents register on the physical body as decay, dragging it down.
Body No. 3 is the emotional body which is larger than the previous three and interpenetrates all three. It contains all the feelings and emotions of this life from birth - happy things and unhappy things. All the fears, guilt, shame, trauma - the negatives - must be cleansed or released or they are carried forward into the next life. Meanwhile, the body registers whatever is carried around in the feelings. Often the bad feelings outweigh the good and the body simply grows old and dies from sheer loneliness and heartache from being shut off.
The ancient mystery schools - older than the planet itself - are the wisdom of the ages that dictate the proper practices to do on a daily basis to uplift our spirits, and to maintain a more positive life and lifestyle. The practices cleanse the aura, the chakras, the mind, feelings and peel away the astral darkness that covers us in the invisible fields that we carry around with us without knowing. Ignorance of how the spirit lives and functions while in the physical brings disease and decay. When we learn how to keep the body, mind and spirit clean, we keep it vital, fresh and flowing pure. It is the great work of life. It is why we are here: to learn how to love. A body CAN be renewed and replenished to feel youthful and disease-free. We CAN be quick of step again because, just as decrepitude comes from negative thinking, feeling, intending and acting, so does youth and vitality come from positive thinking, feeling, intending and acting. But it requires a change in lifestyle. There is hope for old men yet!
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7/31/14 This morning I was once more reminded of how people are tricked into so easily ruining their lives through what they think is a "falling in love" scenario when it is simply a beautiful passing warming wonderful heart-soul-mind-body connection with someone. It is good and natural and wholesome to have such a connection but it is not meant to be a "falling in love" connection which has repercussions. Don't let a beautiful connection with someone cut you off from your family, friends, children, financial arrangements and home because they are your responsibility. You can't divorce them spiritually with a piece of paper from the county courthouse. There will be damage.
The message, is don't fall in love. Don't FALL in love. Don't let your attention fall down to the naval chakra which is where the emotional hooks are cemented and established from one person to another. Lift your love upward and keep it at a high place and free. Enjoy the sunset, the walks on the beach, the talks by the fire, the romantic settings. Dream, yes, but remember your responsibilities to all that you have created. Then when you make love which involves your genitals, you can snap back to the high place again. Let it go and walk away a free agent spiritually and emotionally.
People make the mistake of falling downward to the naval, sexual and genital chakras where they become confused over where their responsibility lies. From the emotional (naval) chakra you tie into your lovers extended family and life on into the past forever. And your lover ties into your extended family and former lives. You can't help but become confused. If you will stay in the heart and higher, you will retain some clarity. This requires keeping your attention on the big picture. Keep your attention in your heart and head. Not your heart and lower head but your heart and your brain-head.
Watch out for your emotions. They will change. Don't fall in love, meaning don't let your attention fall down in the body to the lower regions. Love is an uplifting sensation like bubbles in a glass of champagne. Love is not a falling sensation. If you are feeling a falling sensation, then you are trapped. Get away from that person as fast as you can. Love is not a narrowing sensation to only that one person. Love brings a sense of freedom. A sense of joy and a sense of wanting to shout to the whole world how wonderful you feel. Love does not give you a feeling of "let's find a dark corner and get it on." That is a narrowing sensation. Be aware. Watch your own feelings. This advice is not given to people. It is time to grow up and be aware that love is not sex. Love is not wanting to marry someone. Love is not wanting to have an affair. Love does not crowd you into a corner to choose or hide or figure out how to get away with something. Do you understand? It takes being on alert to understand what this means.
When you cut out everyone else in favor of the one with whom you THINK you are falling in love, you are causing damage. Remember: love expands, it doesn't fall. If you "fall in love" you are no longer in love. You are trapped. We use the word "infatuation". We use the word "hooked". She's hooked on him or he's hooked on her. Love doesn't hook you, emotions hook you. Everything is energy. Love is a universal energy of oneness. When we remain in the universal love energy everything goes smoothly, happily, joyfully, freely, no guilt, shame or remorse. When we fall into other energies that we ourselves create, or that we pick up from other people, we leave all that happiness behind. It can happen in an instant if you are not aware. Love is an energy that is free. Hate is an energy that is not free. Jealousy is an energy that is not free. Love is the only energy that is pure and human beings CAN access it. We are supposed to tap it and use it in our daily life. Learn how to tap into love energy and not get hooked into other energies caused often by other people. Don't get "hooked".
Don't let yourself descend down to the "hooking" zone which is in the gut, the solar plexus, the genitals. Love remains in the heart and it expands UP. Love is all there is but people can misqualify it with lesser thoughts and feelings. We all have misqualified energy that we have created, which is less than love. We can get rid of that by learning how to stay in love and let the old bad energy dry up into dust and float away. The point is, if you are zeroing in on only one person and you are thinking of leaving your husband or your wife for this other person, don't act yet. Instead, sit down and talk to your husband or your wife and tell them you need to be with this person for a short period of time because this person has something you need (you can use the word want if you like) but it's not going to be forever. This is something that is happening NOW. Don't make the mistake of cutting off one person and family and substituting another person and family through the entrapment of marriage or relationship. Be free.
You remain free by articulating, explaining that you don't want a commitment from either one. You want to remain free. That is your right to be free mentall, emotionally and spiritually. However, if you have a wife or husband, then you have practical obligations. You must honor them if you want to do this the right way.
Go to this other person with whom you want to spend time and tell this person that you want to spend time with him or her but without a commitment. It is not permanent. Repeat, not permanent. When you make a decision to go "permanent" when you are dizzy in infatuation and you think you have "fallen in love", don't. You will be making the biggest mistake of your life. It is possible after you have processed through the levels you need to process through, that life will be different. But do it right, not wrong.
I am being stimulated to write this because of yet another sad story I heard this morning. A woman friend and her husband had an open relationship. The woman "fell in love" and left her husband and married the new man. The new husband wanted a monogamous life with her. In the heat of the affair she didn't care. It was only afterwards that she realized what she had done but it was too late. With her ex she had a beautiful life. It was happy and they had many friends, both separately and together. Their life was good together. They were both givers and they each gave permission to the other to have affairs. But she became trapped by a man emotionally and she lived with him for 25 years. We do not know the quality of her life but she disappeared off the map and her many friends missed her. Only today did we hear from her. She was about to get a divorce at age 57 when her husband had an auto accident and died in the crash.
It is always the cheating and the resultant guilt that pulls people down. It makes people choose between one person and another. Why not be open and expand and allow and give permission to your mate to do the same? This is the next step beyond monogamy. When you are "hot" for someone, you might not want to take the time out to ask yourself if this is what YOU want, or are you being drawn in by the other person? If you don't know yourself well enough you can be pulled in by another person's wants. You think it's your own feeling but we are all one underneath. You can become very confused if you do not know yourself. When an attraction comes over you, take a step back and ask yourself, Do you REALLY wants this? Often a passing attraction is someone else's desire, not yours. There are a lot of "wants" floating around in the atmosphere. It is important to have a strong attachment to your own mind and agenda.
Know what you want. If you know that you truly want to be with this person, then be open and honest and talk to BOTH of them. Make sure that neither one of them is asking you to leave the other one. Be your own person and make your own decisions. It is not fair for someone to pressure you to choose. Life is happy and joyful when you are free to make your own decisions. But make the right decisions. If you have made obligations to others and you have a family, you are not free to make autonomous decisions any longer. You must consult with them. Be open and honest and you will find yourself becoming freer and freer.
One of the problems with our evolving culture is is the institution of marriage and the complex set of expectations and rules surrounding it. By accepting monogamy through marriage or a committed relationship you make a promise not to break those traditions. If you desire to break free of monogamy or a committed relationship WITHOUT problems kicking back at you, you must begin talking, explaining, communicating and planning openly, with the others involved if possible. Do it right.
The growing idea of polyamory - being free to love as many people as you want to - is a step in the right direction but if you have commitments, then you have to do your homework. I know people who are married and involved in swinging or polyamorous affairs without telling their spouses. There is a lot of hiding and pretending going on in these relationships. They are in effect leading double lives. They are cheating. This is not said in judgment, but it is intelligent advice. Make your life easier by communicating your truth. Get free sooner rather than later. Otherwise you will face a harsher backlash. The longer you put it off the more accumulated feelings of betrayal, hurt and anger build up for an explosive backlash. You do not want this. It is better to start your communication now about what you truly feel, what you truly want, and ask how can we make this so?
It is not fair to the other people in your life to run around loving everybody you want without being accountable for what you are doing. You must be responsible. If you have a husband at home and children still in your care, you are hurting them. It is not good enough that they don't know. They DO know underneath in subconscious zones. Life is one. We are all connected. We know when someone is not being honest, and karma is a bitch. It does come back on us. Everything we do registers on the atoms and electrons of our own electromagnetic field, which passes outward into the air of the those people who live around us. They pick up information "through the air" as some would say. They "just know". Any secret we carry around with us is not secret. The information is out there on the wind.
If there is a point to this message other than a desire to vent over a story I just heard, it is to remind the reader who happens onto this site that true love is expansive and free. Emotional involvements pull you down to worrying over who will find out and how to meet in secret and on and on into the twilight zone of confusion. True love is happily free of negativity. True love does not fall down into the genitals or the lower part of the body which is the animal nature of a human being. We are meant to lift our animal natures up to become one with our spiritual natures. It is not what we do, it is the quality of how we do it that matters and influences our moods. Do we do it in shame, guilt and worry? Or do we engage in our affair freely, with joy, love and soaring happiness? Universal love is anchored in the heart. It comes down from above your head from your higher self in a never-ending flow of love and light and goodness. And it is anchored in your heart which is your permanent identity which lives through this life and has lived through countless other lives in the past, and will continue to live beyond this life.
You are an eternal being anchored in your physical body in your heart. It is important to connect with this love because it keeps you free from falling into the hands of dangerous situations, meaning your attention falls away from your own best interest and is pulled away to support someone else's interest. Be aware of "falling in love".
I have heard so much about open relationships and polyamory and I myself have been involved in swinging. None of them is the answer to a predicament. You, the individual, needs to be honest with yourself and, secondly, honest with all the other people in your immediate family of close friends. You can't do this if you forget who you are and have been pulled away from who you are at the basic level. Be true to yourself and you will be true to all the other people in your life. You have an obligation to your Self - the you who is flowing through your heart every moment of the day and night without stopping. That's the only place you will know what is true for you. Close your eyes for a few minutes and stop all thoughts. Just be. Just feel. Just be still.
The story I heard this morning has only reminded me (again) of just how important this lesson is. So many lives are ruined because of FALLING in love instead of RISING UP in love and expanding in love. You can raise your whole life, family, friends, abundance, creativity, by being in love with life including the people in your life. Let life choose the people who cross your path. You can be intimate with more than one person but don't let them pull you down and demand that you make a choice between "him or me". Be accountable, be responsible, but remain free within yourself and you do that by being honest. Remember who you are.
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7/25/14 It is more and more difficult to confine my attention to sexual discussions because my consciousness is expanding to take in the greater whole. Meaning there is so much more to see, feel, know that my awareness feels "pinched" to focus on sex as I knew it "yesterday". I keep trying to focus on the issues that I have historically been focused on, such as how to move out of jealousy into the joy of giving your mate permission, and how to move out of guilty feelings over sex into the larger concept of love, beauty and grace of the human body, but it is going over the same ground. It's too old for me. Those pages have already been written. They are posted on this website.
It's so old and boring going over the same things day after day. The information is old. What I know is old. It's history. Our lives feel old. Our bodies feel old, our lives are depressing because we carry around old energy. We keep repeating ourselves because of yesterday's energy. We keep re-breathing yesterday's motions and we struggle for fresh air, new inspiration, brighter futures. It's time to move on.
This perspective leads me to write we need some new air, some new moisture, some new ideas, new inspiration and stop re-cycling yesterday. How? How do we stop mimicking ourselves and do the same thing every day and drag around the chains of the past into each bright new day? By stepping outside of the old box and trying something totally new. This is why I love the swinging lifestyle. Because it is the only avenue I know where I can touch people with open-minded freedom. And not the same people either. Monogamy gives us permission to be free and open with one person, but in swinging we get a variety of opportunities to experience new encounters. It is not sex. It is connection with newness, differences. We are provided with changes in how we do things and we are challenged.
I love to take the time to massage someone and wish with all my heart that someone would massage me with the same quality that I give. I keep returning to the concept of group massage because it is an opportunity for advancement, enlargement, growth, however you want to call it. It is a whole-person event, not limited to sex. The next time you have the opportunity to massage someone, put your hands on them in a different way. Put your hands flat on their skin and feel your palms on their flesh. Just hold them there for a minute. You are now breathing in new fresh air, as long as you hold your hands on their skin.
Now open the top of your head and visualize - picture, imagine, focus your attention on - way up above your head into the sky. Imagine the sun. Go into the sun while you have your hands on their skin. Don't move your hands. Stay still and make this connection first. Feel the sun shining down on you, sending its life-giving rays down through your crown, down into your brain and right on through to your neck and out both shoulders and down both airms and out your palms of your hands into this person on the table. This person is a grounding object for you. The energy is being drawn from the sun above you because this person is a magnet. She or he is in a receiving mode, or should be, as long as they are the one on the table. They have gone still and silent and become receptive. That makes them a magnet. You are now acting as a conduit, like a wire through which flows electricity.
Now put your attention into the center of the Earth. Picture a sun in the center of the Earth, a firey ball of light which is the heart of Mother Earth. Imagine it, visualize it,put your attention on it and allow the yourself to merge with it. You have to be still to feel the subtle blend of energy - your energy and the eaerth's energy. Your heart with the Earth's heart. The sun's energy with you and with the Earth. The Earth is the deepest ground you can find on the planet. There is nothing deeper or more grounded and therefore more complete for you. The center of Earth will draw even MORE light and love and goodness from the sun, as you make this wholesome connection. You will begin to feel the subtle movement as these two connections merge and begin to flow through you. It is a good nourishing energy. It feels good. The Earth is another body, just like yours, that needs the sun's energies in order to live and grow.
Now slowly move your hands over the person on the table. Let this energy take over for you. You will experience a spontaneous flow to your hands. Let them go where they will. You will be breathing in from the sun through you and the person on the table and down to the sun at the center of the Earth, and back up again on the exhale. But don't bother thinking about it. Be free to enjoy the feelings this brings. It is a melding experience, a melting event, where you, the person on the table, the sun, the Earth, are all connecting. The key is the flow. We are so often cut off and separated from our environment and other people that we don't often get to feel the unity that underlies all of life. Enjoy it. There is a flow of energy that takes over and happens automatically once you make the connection with your consciousnes. Consciousness is the key. Become consciousof the subtle peace that takes over.
The sun is your Godfather parent and the Earth is your Godmother parent, and you are their child who draws energy from both of your spiritual parents. Breathe fresh air in from your father, the sun, and from your mother, the earth, and allow these energies to simply BE in you together as one. It is like a waking meditation. An alive meditation, and all the while your hands and roaming over this person on the table, and they are feeling it too. Relax, allow, you don't have to work at this. It's just the opposite of work. It is pleasure. It is why I get so much pleasure out of massaging people. I just wish there would be some others who would massage me with this same quality. You can do this alone, for yourself, as well, by placing your hands on your own skin, all over, wherever you can reach. But it's more fun to do it with others.
You are connecting your masculine and feminine. This translates into a combination - a mixture or blend - of excitement from Father Sun and peace from Mother Earth. Father Sun's energies are spiritual, male and on fire with inspiration, advancement, transformation and creativity. Father Sun is from the future and way ahead of us mere mortals. Father Sun can see further than we can see, and can guide us to our future selves if we allow it.
Mother Earth's energies are female, nourishing, loving, peaceful, accepting and deeply humbling. Mother Earth holds us in her arms and feels the pain just as we do. But she is our Mother in matter. She is physical like us but she is a spiritual being like us. She sees further, feels deeper and loves wider. She helps us to be nourishing, peaceful, humble and accepting of ourselves, warts and all, and to love ourselves regardless.
Between the sun's energies and the earth's energies we are connecting with our own masculine and feminine energies within us. These are spiritual forces, not physical. With this connection we - and the person on the table through us - feel a strange and unusual combination of excitement from Father Sun who is male, and a peaceful loving nourishment from Mother Earth. Allow the Mother to be dominant. Don't turn it sexual for the remainder of the massage. You can make love afterwards if there is mutual consent. But the whole point of the massage is to cover the whole body. If you get too excited and are in danger of turning it sexual, remember the feminine side. Remember the peace and nourishment side of life and allow that to be dominant for as long as the massage continues.
Now, if you become really good at this balancing act, you will find that the trickle of turn-on excitement adds to the mix in a sensual way and spices it up. But do not turn it sexual. Keep that balance. Keep it on the edge. Keep it a whole-body massage - fingers, toes, soles, hair, face, everything all over. You can include the outer genitals but don't linger on them. They are part of the body too.
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7/15/14 So much going on, no time to write into my blog. Every day I am getting new messages. Things are changing, evolving fast. I have to step back often. I spend at least an hour a day, sometimes more, to sit very still and connect and then I am barraged with all sorts of insights and awareness.
The first thing I want to say is, the Ascended Master Overlighting Massage, which is a page I posted a couple of weeks ago on this site, has brought me in contact with a beautiful individual who is totally compatible to this concept of HANDS ON connection. So now I am once more putting out a call for anyone within driving distance of Naples who might be interested in grounding their energies via hands-on massage to contact me. This is not a sexual massage. An in-person meeting is important to establish a connection. It is the first step. I do not expect many people to follow up on this. It will be a rare individual who will find this of interest.
Secondly, I want to talk to women. This is private for women only. I want to tell women that there is a huge difference in the male body vs. your female body. There are many men who have a feminine side and there are many men who are gay, but the fact that they have a male body puts them in a different category that you. I want to remind everyone, men included, that you have four bodies or four levels or four aspects to who you are. Each aspect is different. You have a mind, you have feelings, you have soul (subconscious past lives) and you have a physical body. These four aspects are usually separate and not aligned with the other three. When all four levels are aligned you are so comfortable inside your skin that you feel blissful.
So a man can be feminine in his feelings, in his mind and in his soul (subconscious past lives) but if he is inhabiting a male body then he's probably confused. His body is different from a female body and he may not understand why. The two genders were created for different reasons. One to be outward-oriented to interact with the outside world and be the movers and shakers to build and create. The other, the female was made to nurture, bear children, be mothers and lovers. There are women who are male in feelings, in mind and in soul (subconscious) but inhabiting a female body and probably not comfortable in it. Souls switching from life to life from being in a male body to being in a female body and vice versa does happen when a male has become TOO male, or a female has become TOO female. Then the oversoul will put that person into the opposite gender body for a lifetime to help them balance. Confusion over being born into the wrong body is the result of such a switch. They probably lived many lifetimes in the other gender and now they are in the opposite gender. The purpose is to bring balance to the soul, to learn by living-in what it's like being a man, or being a woman. The advice is to bite the bullet and not only accept this body but love this body. Learn the qualities that this body has to offer you. It is a beautiful body (if only you knew!) and it has profound secrets to share with you if only you would love it and admire it and appreciate it.
This advice goes for everyone, whether they feel in the wrong body or not. Each gender manifests differently but it is up to the intelligence (spirit) living in the body to decide how it will play the game out - hatefully, bitterly, resentfully or lovingly. People are always trying to merge and meld the male and female bodies together, saying there is no difference between them. They say that we are all the same underneath. They do not want to recognize that men and women are different on ALL levels, not just the physical. Where they are the same is at the spiritual level, the divine immortal level, which is very real. Not only real but the ONLY real there is. Everything else - mind, feeling, subconscious and physical, is temporary.
These four aspects in each person are often not aligned or in agreement with each other. The mind can be running on a totally different track than the feelings. And the body can be doing totally different acts than the mind wants to or the feeling wants to. And unknown forces "push" people to do things they don't want to do, which comes from past life unresolved issues needing resolution (karma). Unresolved past life issues will continue to pop up over and over until the issues are faced head-on, wrestled with, accepted, dealt with, loved and forgiven. Then it won't pop up any more after that. So deal with your issues.
The modern advice to bring "mind, body and feelings" together refers to this, because mind, body and feelings are usually not on the same page with each other. We can meld mind, feelings, subconscious (soul) and physical together easily when there is love. Take a moment before sex and think "love" into your mind, feelings and breathe deep into your subconscious. Your body will follow along. Bring love into the sex act.
A man and woman can have a delightful melding experience when they are BOTH operating, thinking, feeling, and acting in the love mode. Otherwise there is a struggle and a challenge and they run hot and cold because they miss the mark. They are not in alignment with their own mind, feelings, subconsious and physical. We must recognize the difference between these four aspects. When we do recognize the different levels, we can recognize that there IS a difference between men's minds vs. women's minds, and between men's feelings and women's feelings, which dictate how they play the game. Men and women play the game of life differently.
This finishes the preamble. Now here is what I REALLY want to say, and it's for women only.
Women, what you feel, what you dream, what you know, what is important to you, the men do not have that. It is something built into the female body. The men WANT it but they can't have it. They are seeking the feminine through you. They feel lost without it. It is a feminine connection they are missing, which they don't have because they are in a male body which was created for a different purpose. There is a reason they as a soul are inhabiting a male body. Their role is different. They have the feminine within them but most men do not understand what that means or how to get it. So most men are looking for the feminine outside of themselves. They look to other people to provide it. They look to women, or perhaps they look to their same gender and are labeled homosexual. But they look for it outside of themselves and that translates into sex. But they are also looking for feminine mentality and feminine emotions. The male body needs help in finding their feminine feeling and feminine connection. They don't need sex as much as they need love. Sex provides the orgasm but they need more than an orgasm. They don't need to be catered to or cooked for or their laundry picked up after them or the million other things wives and girlfriends do for their men, as much as they need to find the intimacy in their life. They are missing the vulnerability. The love connection. The acceptance connection.
You can mirror back to him what the feminine energy is by BEING feminine in your actions and reactions, instead of being defensive, mean, angry, or however you deny your beautiful and divine feminine self. The man needs to be shown what the feminine energy is so he can find it and copy it in himself, by himself, for himself. He needs this intimate connection so desperately. I have seen it in so many different forms. They are so desparate that they come across as pushy. They do not realize they are pushing you away. They are crying to be heard, to be accepted, to be understood, to be listened to, to be held like a child, to be mothered. They won't admit that. That is why I'm telling you. They have bamboozled the women into thinking they are he-men and strong and don't need any of that feminine stuff, when in actuality they are hungry for it. They are seeking the love within themselves. They are yearning for the other half of themselves and don't know where or how to find it.
Those men on the spiritual path have picked up the trail and are following the inner path. They are finding the love within themselves which is a higher love than the one they have through sex or relationship. The love they have with their own inner soul is more complete and more satisfying and more humbling. But the culture has told men that they "need sex" and they should "go and have sex" and that's the only way they know how to get relief from the maleness they feel pushing outward, outward, ever outward, from inside. Through sex and orgasm.
Women, it is time to stop being on the defensive from this that comes from men. It is time to stop running away. Stop feeling as if you must run from men or defend against what you think they want. It's all surface stuff. They want the inner feminine. Realize how much power you have inside your feminine body. Understand they want what you seemingly have and they don't understand. It is not so much the sex they want (they won't admit that) but the femininity. Since they don't have femininity in themselves, they want YOU, the woman. Many men control their women in order to keep the feminine by their side. They think they can have the intimate connection by possessing their gal. Not true. They can't.
Stop the game of being chased. Stop retaliating. Some women get so angry at men that they simply shut down and shut off. What a waste. Stop being chased and stop being defensive. You, the woman, have more power than the man in your life no matter how demure or shy you are, because you have a connection that he doesn't have. He COULD have it, but he is looking for it in you and in all the wrong places. Give him what he REALLY needs. How?
What to do and how to do it? Switch your consciousness from being defensive to neutral. Not aggressive, not assertive, not demanding and not commanding. But neutral. It is in the neutral position that you find your power. It's in the center. It is the pole in the center. Yoga teaches that you have a pranic tube that runs from above you down through the crown of your head down your spine and is anchored to the earth. Imagine that tube as a tube of light, like a neon light, bright as the sun. That is your center power. You find it inside of yourself. Running away from some pushy guy is not going to give you your power back. Stop and stand your ground and go into your pranic tube of light which is centered and neutral within, running from above your head to below your feet in the earth.
When you are in neutral, which is what people do when they meditate, you are automatically going into your inner self. You have to. When you stand still in the face of something you don't like or you're just tired of seeing it all the time, stand still, sit down, go neutral, go inside to the light. From that position you will connect with love because it's love that is coming down from your higher self above your head. You will know what to do because you are in love. No striking out. No angry words. No defensive complaining of headaches. No submitting to his needs. No humbling yourself before him. No apologies for doing "wrong". This is sacred territory you are entering - inside yourself. Going inside means not the physical organs, but the energy of the light that you are, the feeling of who you are, the presence of who you are which is an immortal presence because you - the light inside - is a river of life that flows as long as you have a body. And you have lived in many bodies before this one. You have jumped from body to body down through history. In time you will remember.
Being chased keeps you outside of yourself in the outer world, running, always running. Stop! Stop and face yourself, face your power, face your strength, face your truth. What is your truth? Know it. Handle it. Become it. Breathe it. Make it real. Become the dominant force in every encounter with a man - or a woman. The dominant underlying force is not a force at all. It is acceptance, it is love. It is being in touch. It is being whole. By doing this you are not aggressive, not hard, not pushing him away but soft like cotton, and yet you are totally and absolutely in control underneath because underneath is love. Universal love. And love is the greatest power in the universe. It is what holds everything together. Did it fall apart? Apply the glue of love and see what happens. Apply it on all four levels. It is not WHAT you do, it is how you do it, the quality of how you do it. So do it with love.
Most men would be appalled if they knew that women perceive them as pushy. Most men don't want to push their women but women expect them to be the dominant power and so they prepare for it and anticipate it. Stop expecting dominance from a man, stop expecting it from a man and stop preparing for it. Instead be all that you are centered in your feminine love and light. Women for ages have been yielding, surrendering, bowing low to men since forever. It's their programming but it's an old, obsolete program that has run out of time. It no longer works. This is not going to shift automatically. You are going to have to make the effort to shift yourself. Do the homework.
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6/30/14 More insight into the question about "naughty" (in the Q&A). Men may think it's cute and a joke but women are trying to get away from the vibrations of "naughty" and "bad". It's a downward direction. Female bodies have had enough of that. The female bodies have the genetics of all female bodies that have ever lived on the planet. They have the abusive history stored inside their genes. Female bodies have been subjected to bad stuff, abuse, murder, torture and more for eons. This is the real bad stuff, not pretend, and women don't think it's cute at all. They don't want to go there.
They may go along with it to please their man to keep him from straying, because that's what women do. But deep down inside they feel the degradation. They don't like it. It brings up very bad feelings. It's visceral, not conscious. It doesn't go through the conscious mind, although there may be dark visions that flash with a shudder. I've had them. These are unresolved traumas stored in the etheric body called the soul - the one that lives on from lifetime to lifetime, from body to body, carrying everything with it until it is faced, dealt with, resolved and dissolved.
So, guys, consider what you're doing when you put a collar on her and whip her because it's "cute". If it turns her on and lights her up, her body is obeying what its genes tell her to obey. It has been programmed to obey. It's time to get over the dominance of evil, bad and naughty stuff because the world is turning away from the dark side and heading off into the light while we still walk on the ground here. The dark/abusive/torture/chain stuff is going to be left behind. It is the age of enlightenment. The spirit is coming into the play now and the spirit plays the "up" game. The "up" game evolves us to betterment and beyond what we formerly were.
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6/27/14 It has been a month since writing in my blog. I check the number of hits every day and see that there are people checking in with this website. I've been away for two weeks on vacation with three sisters and my perspective keeps changing. But even so, underneath it all the same path keeps emerging strong and solid. I am integrating sex and spirituality. I cannot leave sex out of my journey, and I cannot leave spirituality out either. They are dovetailing. I just need to find the words. I failed to bring it about in group massage.
Tantra does not work for me because I haven't been to school to become "certified" in Tantra. I haven't learned it from anyone else in this lifetime or embodiment. But I know it anyway and use it quietly, silently, within myself, whenever I make love. I don't need to tell anyone about it. Today while making love with my husband I felt him inside me going into my etheric body. This was an unusual experience. It felt him moving past the physical and carressing every cell in my body. Feeling is spirituality awakening. Find some new feelings to move you past former places. I felt this morning that every cell was being stroked by loving hands. I felt them physically, or etherically you could say. I was being massaged from the inside. Not just in the genital region, but all over. In my arms, hands, torso and brain. Everywhere. When I suddenly thought of him, I began what I often do - I directed a line of light to his prostate and imagined his prostate swirling with sparkling golden light. Light is love. Love is light. They are synonymous. Then I brought the light up, step by step, through the chakras which are portals or centers where spirit enters the body. I spent time focusing the light in each chakra, holding the light there. By the time I reached his head, the pineal gland, he was cumming. I could feel him.
Now I didn't learn from anyone how to do this. It was a past life memory. I learned it somewhere, some other time. You too have knowledge and talents within you. You do not need a teacher. You need only to become aware of the hidden spiritual processes that you already have, that are there at your disposal. Experiment with them. Awakening is a consciously directed experimentation on yourself. You have power in your mind and in your heart. The heart and the mind working together is light (mind) and heart (love). Bring them together.
My journey is to articulate and name the process. I am putting these feelings into words. Everyone has them but our culture demands we don't listen to ourselves but listen to "authorities". Stop listening to authorities and other people. Start listening to yourself and your own inner feelings, your own inner perceptions, your own knowledge, for you DO have knowledge. You have more knowledge from former lifetimes than you can possibly use in this one lifetime. But you can draw on it. You have volumes and volumes of information that is your own personal library of skills and talents stored within your heart. That is why your heart is wiser than your mind. The feeling of knowing that all is well, and that love really does rule your life is stored there and you can access that when you start lifting yourself above the depressed and stressed human world of downward motion.
I am writing about integrating spirituality into the sexual life or, if you don't do sex any more, into the physical life. Most people look "down" for sex. I look "up" for sex. When I am in bed with someone for lovemaking purposes, and when I cum I pull it "up". It's all about feeling. Lift the feeling "up". Lust is restricted to the "down" feeling. It's restricted to the physical. It's dense and heavy so you feel it burning you. It consumes you. Most people fall in love with that feeling. But on the other hand swinging introduces freedom. A sense of freedom is a RELEASE from the physical body, and a RELEASE from the limitations of our culture. It is not physical. It is spiritual. What is released? The spirit. The soul. YOU! Notice the next time you feel free and exhilarated. Integrating freedom into physical sex and lust doesn't take away the lust feeling, it lightens it and expands it and refines it so you feel as if you are floating in a sea of expansive pleasure. You lift off. Without the "lift" the lusty cum remains in a heavy state and does not produce a high feeling after. Watch for the high feeling after. Sometimes people are angry after sex and engage in arguments over who did what and laying blame. It's because the human condition is 100% depressed vs. the 100% spiritual. Try the "lift" process in any way you can. Repeat the words, love, gratitude, thank you, I love you. Use uplifting beautiufl words. The best one are "I love you!" saying them silently if necessary. Lift yourself up while making sex.
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6/24/14 Greetings to all my friends in the lifestyle of sexual sharing.. Fun and pleasure to you. Keep on having fun please. Don't let the word "spirituality" dampen you. Spirit is the lighter side of you. To access spirituality brings joy, relief, release and freedom to explore and expand beyond limits imposed by mankind. In the world of sexual sharing (or swinging) we have been weaving together two very profound forces, namely sexuality and spirituality.
You don't hear spirituality discussed much in the swinging lifestyle, because a lot of people associate it with religion, but that's not true. Your spirit is your sense of who you are. We discover a lot about ourselves in sex. We don't just play with sex in our swinging lifestyle; we play with our spirituality too. We have been joining our sex and spirituality without realizing it. We in the lifestyle of swingiing are becoming enlightened because we are growing in understanding of who we REALLY are.
Sex relates to the physical part of us and is limited to the body. Spirituality is not limited to the body. It is our spirit which flows like electricity through our body to beat our hearts and breaths our breath and feel our feelings and think our thoughts. And when the body dies it lives on afterward. When we play at sex with others beyond our mate at home (which falls into a rut) we explore different sensations. We learn about ourselves. In so doing we grow in understanding. We are becoming enlightened. Now I am putting new words to these wonderful fun times we enjoy in swinging. Our happiness and sense of freedom we have is proof that we are becoming more spiritual. Spirituality is very much a part of the swinging lifestyle.
Before entering the swinging lifestyle, sex and spirituality are separate for most people. But as a couple continues to play in the lifestyle they begin to merge their spiritual understanding into the fabric of their life. A new consciousness begins to unfold and insight twinkles and sparkles and new discussions take place. If they can work through the stumbling blocks of old boundaries and old belief systems, the couples grows in personal power, each of them, and in confidence, self esteem, and loving kindness for others. They grow spiritually. Swinging is a spiritual path.
There is a sex and spirit movement gathering momentum in the outer world culture, in what we call the "straight" world, but OUR lifestyle is different. We in our lifestyle already know on a cellular level that our sex is healthy and good, so we don't have a "bad" to fight against and try to overcome. At least not as much. But while we may feel this goodness and this happiness and freedom on a cell level (soul level) we don't always know it on the mental level. Our minds are often separate from our heart and other visceral organs. Our gut instinct (cellular, soul) is often in opposition to what we've been taught is "right".
Often our heart thinks one way and our minds think another, which can cause conflict within. But increasingly we are hearing the phrase, "Follow your heart." Or "Follow your bliss." And that's what swingers are doing. They are enjoying their sexual encounters because. There is happiness and bliss in it, once the bugs have been worked out. Everybody has a few issues to work out, but if they stick with it they will soon experience what I calll "the glow". They know they are on the right course. It's an inner knowing. Sexuality and spirituality are coming together. The day will come, if they continue, when they finally merge and life takes on a healthy glow which never leaves. There is something beautiful and sacred about their sexuality and they don't abuse it - they enjoy it. And there is something sensual about their spirituality. I want to tell you a story.
One day in our early swinging days, we had another couple over for drinks and hot tub. Her husband and I had gone to the kitchen for drinks. My husband and Erica were in the hot tub playing around in the darkness. No lights on. We arrived just as Erica reached the big O and I saw her light up like a Christmas tree. She let out a low moan at the same time. I was amazed to see her whole nervous system light up starting with an explosion in her pelvic region and spread instantaneously to all parts of her body at once. She looked like a Christmas tree with many tiny intricate branches quivering and sparkling with golden light. I bowed my head automatically and felt emotion well up within me. I was struck by the holiness of it. And then the vision faded and she was once more just a woman. There is something very sacred about sex.
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5/27/14 - After my blog of 5/6/14, elevating into Tantra, I have continued to unfold new thought. It is difficult to hang onto a solid thought these days, since everything is shifting to a more expanded space. It feels to me as if infinity is moving into my mind but I am being told to focus. The training today is to focus on one thing. Learn how to focus and how to control your thoughts.
Last week a female friend called out of the blue (she doesn't read Anakosha) to ask me if I would like to go with her to learn some Tantric training. I checked out the website of a Tantric Goddess and immediately realized that Tantra is too small a focus for me. Another step to an even wider place.
I have been a student of the Ascended Masters all of my life - those who have guided and protected humankind for millennia. But I had two separate lives - one for swinging and sexuality exploration and the other alone as an aesthetic. I've been struggling to connect the two worlds together for the last 35 years, but most people don't want to hear about the spiritual side. Most people are locked into the physical sexual side.
Knowledge is power. Knowledge is upliftment. Knowledge is enlightment. Knowledge provides the link through the confusion and mysticism. Knowledge brings light and the "Ah HA!" connection. Link up after link up after link up. "So that's how it works!"
Knowledge is what has been kept from the poor people because generation after generation they have been locked out of higher education because of money. Poverty. No skills to move themselves up the ladder. Everything has been rooted in money. You either had it or you didn't. Now the ages are changing. Poor people used to remain stuck to the lowest level of existence because they did not have knowledge to empower them and infuse them with confidence in themselves. They were kept in ignorance by those in power of money.
Through the Anakosha site we will be focusing on providing knowledge that most people would not likely get in a thousand years if it were presented in the verbiage of the ancients. The ancient relligions and unknown language. So Anakosha will translate. There are seven levels to the individual. You have seven levels. Do you know what they are? And why they are there? And how you can identify with them? How do they influence you? More later on this. I'm zeroing in.
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5/6/14 - Anakosha is elevating into Tantra because it seems like the only place to go after so many years on the sexual journey. But the way the Western mind has watered Tantra down, I am calling it White Tantra is a more refined spiritual approach than the Red Tantra approach. Tantra is a truly balanced way of experiencing life. The original teachings seem to be lost, as far as the modern version goes.
Red Tantra is a touching approach meant to stimulate the kundalini, which is the energy behind sex, with some teaching involved but it is mostly a service performed on or for someone else. White Tantra is a spiritual approach done by two people mutually, together. It is basically non-touching and utilizes meditation techniques.
Most spiritual people try to elevate themselves out of the physical world and leave the body behind. But my training has been a very good blend of both the physical and the non-physical. The high and the low, ====
both sun and earth energies. They are very real forces beyond our what our brain knows. The kundalini is the earth energy that comes up through the feet and, if it gets blocked by closed chakras, it creates the horny feeling for sex. The sky energy is the positive intelligence that comes down through the crown of the head and, if it gets blocked by closed chakras, it creates pressure in the head. -- Sky energy is super intelligent and creates brilliance in the form of ideas, genius, courage and all the noble qualities of human beings. Earth energy is super grounding and peaceful and harmonious. It brings peace and tranquility to the human being. Tantra brings these two forces together - the high and the low - the brilliance and the peace and weaves them together through very practical exercises. But first there has to be an explanation or the exercises don't mean anything. When these two forces meet and blend they create bliss and a sense of rightness and wholeness in the person. -- The sky energy is masculine, the earth energy is feminine. It's up to each individual how s/he blends the two. Most people are unbalanced. I was too-feminine when I first came to you and you were too masculine. Over time we balanced each other out by absorbing the qualities of the other. -- Tantra provides exercises that uses the male and female body in certain ways, very confusing and complicated if you try to understand it on the Internet. Sex is not left out but it is postponed until the two people understand certain things which I will be expressing through writings on Anakosha. -- When two people are more balanced, each in themselves, their sexual experience is more blissful (as we are experiencing) and it can open doors to higher states of consciousness when they make love. We are doing that between ourselves right now.
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5/4/14 - (Newsletter sent out today) I am sad to report that Anakosha is folding her wings on all group events. This includes meet 'n greets, group massages, sensual massages and introductions to Tantra. The response has been too small to continue. I want to thank those who have been supportive of Anakosha, for you have fed my enthusiasm. Unfortunately there was not enough interest and the window of opportunity began to close. The website will be empty for awhile, although it will remain online, until the new phase unfolds.
Anakosha has been a vehicle of exploration for me. It has been an unfolding journey. I didn't realize that I was coming from a space where most people are NOT! Not yet anyway. Unconditionally loving on all levels. I discovered that group massage is scary to a lot of people. I was surprised to realize that. To me, having many hands on me in a non-sexual but nurturing way produces such beautiful uplifting feelings - out-of-body feelings that are so free, happy, healthy, healing, comforting, nurturing, blissful, and revelatory. To me, it is not a preparation for closeness, it IS closeness. It just feels so natural but I have found most people are not ready. For involvement in a group anyway. I am sorry if I created expectations of a wonderful group of lovers when I can't pull it off!
I accepted several weeks ago that my great desire for a group of trained lovers through massage, wasn't going to happen. My hopes started fading. I was unsure what to do about it so I just waited and watched my interest fade, like a plug had been pulled and the lights were going out. Energy comes in cycles. We all see that in our daily lives. You can't fight it when the tide shifts. So I don't know what is coming next, but I'll post it on the website www.anakosha.org. I just felt my list of interested people should know.
As a massage therapist I will continue to practice massage, but I feel to design a specific ritual for couples that would assist them privately at home, to raise themselves to higher levels of love. These would involve esoteric techniques which I have been practicing for many years. They are similar to the original Tantra teachings which always required special instruction. It's a spiritual approach rather than a sexual approach, called White Tantra. Red Tantra is a sexual approach. Most westerners are not aware that there is a difference and seek only Tantra, thinking it is a sexual technique but it is not unless it has been watered down.
White Tantra involves a man and a woman but it is non-touching until a certain point is reached. It's all about bringing spiritual energies down from above into the body where it shines like a sun, and spiritual energies from below the body, called Kundalini, up. Both spiritual energies meet in the body and produce sensations of bliss, but each individual has to do it for himself or herself FIRST, because each person is unbalanced in their male-female energies. So Tantra practice has them balancing themselves first and then they may enhance themselves further by enjoying physical lovemaking.
The original Tantra that was taught thousands of years ago by monks who mostly dwelt in solitude, taught it only to those who already had years of self-practice and were ready to receive this advanced training. Today we live in a different era and these knowledge is coming forth, but the training is lacking. Very, very few people are willing to put the time and patience into the training. Learning to be open and receptive to forces not seen, both above and below the body, is the training and practice needed.
My training has been in the swinging lifestyle which is mostly physical-focused sex and a lot of fun. Connecting with a sex partner in swinging is a physical interaction that is joyful and happy and very freeing. But it arouses the kundalini only far enough to "cum". It does not let that holy energy rise up the spinal column to the top of the head to connect with the higher self which is trying to come down. When we engage in sex play, the goal is orgasm which diverts the kundalini outward into the physical.
Well, I musn't get carried away into the deeper aspects of this. I tend to do that once I start writing about it. This is just a little hint of the direction Anakosha is heading in, Anakosha being my higher self.
So long for now. I wish you happiness and an open mind. Seek further beyond what is obvious on the surface. Take time to stop and shift focus to the daydream state. You can go "in and out" at will. It's good preparation for everything you do in life.
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These also add to our ability to connect more intimately and lovingly with our partners, for as we connect with ourself better, we automatically become closer to those near and dear. I've been involved in the spiritual path for a long time. It brings me closer and closer to those I am intimate with because I am more in touch with myself. My journey keeps winding upward to open new vistas, higher views, deeper values, more exquisite physical life. So if you are one who is depressed because of losing someone, or simply depressed because you feel so alone and lonely and undervalued, then it is time to turn inward and let go of those old thoughts. Easier said than done, UNLESS you have a path and something solid to hang your hat on. You have the power to be self-sustained. You were self-sustained before you were born as a helpless baby and you learned to become dependent on others. Then someone disappears from your life, or something is taken away from you. This has thrown you for a loop because you forgot - we all forget - we are self-sustaining. The only way out of misery and depression - some people are even suicidal - is to return to self. This is where the Eastern sages are coming in handy. They have some wonderful techniques to teach. They have the meditation techniques. I would encourage anyone who is depressed to find a class that speaks to you. Look around. Joining a group of yoga practice or meditation practice is a good place to begin recapturing your own personal power.
Spiritual awakening is like a journey through a forest. When everything familiar falls away and you feel lost, that is the beginning of the spiritual journey. It is in the unbalancing and instability that we look around for something solid. Where do we look to find stability? To your inner self. The search begins. It takes an effort to stop looking to other people for fulfillment and answers. The inner path is what takes us through the scary space of loss and depression and out the other side. The inner path is a conscious awakening journey. When we stop relying on others for answers, when we take time to sit in silence with a particular technique, then we begin to experience self-empowerment - the empowering of our own inner vitality. We call it the real self which doesn‘t die with the body. When we sit in stillness and silence in the void, we access information which is in the meridians flowing through us and in our chakras through which the light flows into us.
When we sit in the silence, like in yoga or meditation, and just observe, just listen to our body talking to us, our INNER body talking, we start feeling peaceful. There is a light in the center of the heart and it radiates peace out in concentric waves like a pebble thrown in a pond. This light is information of a higher order than what we learned growing up, which taught us to depend on first the mother, then the father, then the siblings, then the friends, then the law, the government, the love of our life - and we learned hard lessons because these were undependable. They shifted and changed.
The only solid person there is, is the inner self, which is the understanding and the knowing within. There is information that comes to us in the stillness of meditation when we are really, really quiet. The information comes in the form of peace and stillness and a looming knowing. It doesn't come in words. It feels comfortable and serene. it is called "self empowerment", not "ego empowerment" but "self empowerment" as in your immortal self who lives forever and can never die. This is not some vague promise. It is practical. That’s why so many people are turning to yoga and/or meditation. It produces real results. It’s primal, vital energy, that clears the head by clearing away the fuzziness of others.
When I stay in meditation (in silence) I become really blissful and awake and aware. This awake and aware state is only the beginning. There is more. When we come to the end of a meditation session, it's difficult to come back and get up and do normal things again because this is a world where everything is separated and moving away or changing or limiting or pressuring. So going back into meditation periodically, is like going to school and learning a new way of living life from a higher, more transcendent state of consciousness, where nothing can disturb you. A love lost is actually a love gained for self. You pull back the emotional investment you gave to someone or to some THING, and it snaps back to where it belongs - in you. You get your power back. You feel more alive, more interested in life and living, more clarity, more vision, more purpose.
Periodic sessions sitting in stillness teaches us in small gradual doses, how to build back up your own primal energy that we had as children, and before we were born into this crazy world of struggle and limitations. When the walls drop away and we are left stranded, it is the only way to go. Go inward. The lessons we receive in silence helps us to withdraw our power from others and the external world. We pull it back to ourselves. There is the safety and the solidarity that we need. It is not lonely in here. It is safe, it is warm, it is comforting. We can anchor ourselves to it and remain safe when the world shifts and traumatic events happen. We are still here, within, inside. We lost contact with ourselves. That is why we have the Eastern sages coming to remind us of these ancient, self-empowering techniques.
Meditation is a method of de-programming us from the external matrix. Many books have been written about spirituality, but the ONLY book that will get us there, is the book within which we access by sitting in silence and stopping the mind. Fifteen minutes morning and night would be a good start. The lessons are inside, in the heart, in the feelings, in the emotions, the moods, the still small voice, the dreams, the body responses, but we have to listen. There is sage advice in the silence. You are a walking library of information. Information is light. Light is information. Turn the light on inside. It is called enlightenment. It's not brain-based or ego based, it is stillness-based. We need stillness to “remember” the naturalness of our OWN power.
It’s easy to fall in love with someone else’s path, and it's fun to journey with them for awhile, but we dis-empower ourselves by doing so. Every drop of attention we give to someone else takes it away from us. We need to put that attention back into our own body cells if we want to stay healthy, positive, clear-minded and simply feel good with ourselves.
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3/5/15 - In discussing a new massage workshop approach with a man, I mentioned chakras. He did not know about chakras, so I took this opportunity to write a thumbnail sketch in a way that hopefully is concrete enough? I don't know. It is a difficult subject to explain..
When you die you leave your body, but as long as you are in your body YOU are flowing in and out of your body - your brain, muscles, organs, fluids, bones, everything - to maintain your own physical body. It is not your conscious mind doing this, but a much advanced aspect of yourself. You are today a watered-down version of your super-advanced consciousness, but it is still YOU flowing through and maintaining your body. The journey through life is all about waking up to your higher self and consciously joining more and more with your own higher self. The "Ah HA!" moments of enlightenment is one such expansive joining.
How do you flow into your body? You are flowing into your body along very precise circuitry called "meridians". This circuitry has been mapped out. Acupuncturists use it. You are constantly flowing into your body through tiny hair-thin invisible conduits that make up a beautiful pattern of light, like a lacy filigree of light, which is called your light body. Light is information, so your light body is full of information from your higher self. This is your spiritual body that keeps your physical body alive and healthy. Or should.
This delicate circuitry radiates out from 7 main chakras placed along the spine, from the tail bone to the brain. Chakras are open windows through which YOU, as your super advanced self, flows down into density and into your muscles, bones and organs to hold you in health. Chakras are like "buttons" that button your light body into your physical body. But actually your light body built your physical body as an embry in your mother, around itself.
"Chakra" means "wheel". Named because it spins. There are 7 chakras. Each chakra radiates a positive quality to help you on your journey from childhood through puberty to manhood to old age. Each chakra is like the next grade in school with a teacher sitting behind a desk waiting to teach you the next lesson in life. But the teacher is your own higher self, the next higher version of yourself that you are to learn about yourself. The knowledge is all within you, or getting ready to come into you through the open window of the chakras which feed into the ganglionic nerve centers that reach down into the dense physical organs and glands of the body. When you have an "Ah HA!" moment of enlightenment, your glands respond at the other end with happy chemicals and hormones that enrich and nourish your body.
In a baby and young child the chakras spin fast and clean, so the baby learns fast and moves quickly to puberty. He is vibrant and alive. But as the child grows older he starts to gather NEGATIVE experience which slows down the chakra spinning. If he stores those negative experiences instead of letting them go (which he should learn to let go) his chakras become "squashed" from all this negative energy and the chakras further slow their spinning. He starts to feel "old" because his chakras are not feeding him clean, pure, pristine spiritual energy from his higher or super self. Now he shows signs of disgruntlement, embitterment, and he seeks to make changes in his life. When the chakras are operating properly, they keep spinning and spitting out clean spiritual energy to keep him healthy and vibrant and creatively interested in life and the projects at hand. When they are not spinning he feels fatigue, weighed down, boxed in, chronic disease, deterioration and worse - death.
Knowledge of the chakras, the light body, the meridians and how they work, has not been taught to us from childhood. They have been kept hidden away for centuries. If only we knew about it from childhood we would change our whole life for the better. No one knows where these teachings came from. My Indian teacher said it did not originate in India. India took the information and wrote it down and preserved it, but it originated elsewhere. When hoards of roaming invaders burned their way across the planet, intelligent people hid them away underground, in monasteries and caves. About 50, 60, 70 years ago the first signs of change began. Indian teachers came to America and Europe to teach this information about body, mind and spirit. It was the end of the dark age and the beginning shards of light of the new age began to be seen. Yoga, Ayurvedic knowledge of nutrition, health and diet came west. The Kama Sutra and the art of love-making, the I-Ching and prophecy, the internal exercises of China all started to be taught.
So many new and interesting practices came to us in America, but it is ancient knowledge that was given to mankind at the beginning of civilization by advanced races from beyond. The Hindu culture is rooted in this science and therefore a lot of teachers are Indian. Chakra is an Indian word, but Japan, Asia, Sumeria and other regions have their own versions (cultures). It's all about learning how to live healthily, youthfully, vibrantly and creatively in a physical world, without taking on negative energy and how to burn negative energy. So the chakras are an important part of love-making and learning.
I became aware of this hidden knowledge about 60 years ago, not all at once but in a slowly expanding fashion of one "Ah HA!" moment after another. It used to be secret. People didn't talk about it 60 years ago. It was too far out. Too foreign. My mother kept it secret from her minister at church. But I've watched it come slowly out into the open over the years, through books and workshops and special conferences. My mother had books on her book shelf that pointed in this direction so I had access early in life, but most people didn't have that opportunity to tap into it.
I recently learned of two new centers in Naples who are offering classes by different presenters along these lines, but knowledge of chakras is sacred and individual. Love-making involves the chakras and personal, inner knowledge of oneself. If we learn an "Ah HA!" piece of information from a teacher, we need to turn around and meditate upon it, and integrate it privately and in a most sacred manner, into our deeply personal life. So the way YOU make love will be different from the way other men make love. Hearing this knowledge for the first time is a sign from your higher self, and it needs to be applied softly, gently, even reverently into action and behavior. that is why no two people are alike. We should not follow after another person. We are each unique and the teacher is within, waiting for us to listen. He is in the nerve ganglia. We hear him talking through our body responses, our mental responses, our emotional responses. Under his mentoring we can change our world and our habits into a more refined and beautiful life.
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2/28/15 - The Massage for Lovers scheduled for today has been cancelled for lack of reservations. I have posted on the MASSAGE page that the future dates will be kept open to allow for continued response. This is an offering that perhaps is ahead of its time. It contains a Tantric influence that taps into divine love through the higher self and through the chakras and meridians, rather than lusty sex through the lower regions. Higher and lower refers to consciousness. Where is your consciousness during your waking hours? High? Low? Somewhere in the middle?
Imagine a chart with "dark and depressed" at 0 and "good mood" at 5 and "joyful happy" at 10. Where would you place yourself? Maybe you fluctuate a lot, depending on where you are in the day, what you are doing, who you are with, or the environment. Fluctuating moods is a sign of not being in control of your own energies. A master is always at peace no matter what is going on around him or her. During the Massage For Lovers we will teach about the light body and how to tap into it. It is not just talk, as in a lecture, but through hands-on practice and the experience of physical contact. The hands-on connection is how a person learns best. It includes the mind, the body AND the feelings. When you sit and listen to a lecture, you are listening only with your mind. Your cells and your feelings are not being included.
Participating in close physical contact is how we receive on all four levels - mind, body, feelings and subconscious. The subconscious is known in esoteric field as the soul. Unresolved issues reside there and go with you from life to life when you die, waiting to be resolved. These four levels can be quickly aligned and tapped into through LOVING massage. Again, there are consciousness techniques that go along with this.
The spirit and soul of a person (the light of a person and the unresolved dark of a person) is super-imposed over the physical body vibrating at a higher, faster rate so it is "above" the physical. The spirit and soul enters into the physical muscles, tissues and fluids of the body when you lift your conscious mind up, intelligently, intentionally and willingly. It's sort of like lifting a cup up in the air to receive rain drops coming down from above. Then the chakras open. They are normally closed off like the lens of a camera. Each chakra is separate and one can open without the other, but ideally all should be open. Our lives would be hugely better if they were all open. We would be transported into harmony and joy. But we are normally "down" and "normal" and open to all the problems and negatives of the individuals around us including the media. So the technique is to go UP in your mind and clear the lower atmosphere that is filled with toxins of mind, body and emotions.
This is a science. It works every time. My husband likes to say, "Can it be scientifically proven? Can the same results be attained if different people use the same technique over and over again?" Yes, without question. It has been done for eons by those who were willing to be trained and to practice the art. This art is a skill learned through experience. It is the art of Love.
When you look UP, not down, while in close physical contact intimately with your lover, you can experience not just physical joy, but mental, emotional and spiritual joy all at the same time. This takes you above 10 on the imaginary mood chart. Making love from that joyful, ecstatic plane is wonderful but it doesn't happen until there is a contact made with the four levels - mind, body, feeling and subconscious. There are techniques to be learned which, hopefully, the Tantric massage can assist with.
Massage For Lovers is not just a new way of experiencing sex. Sex is done from the two lowest chakras and we will be reaching for and opening five more mental zones above the two lowest ones. It may be too far out of the ordinary for most people. Maybe it's not going to work, but I will keep the schedule of dates posted on the MASSAGE page to see what develops. Perhaps the concept will take seed and grow. Individuals whose mates do not want to participate are welcome to contact me. It is possible that a single individual without his or her partner will feel freer to let let him/herself go if their mates are not present. This is an experiment in progress. We are learning as we go. If someone has been in a long-time relationship together so that they each can read each others' mind, would they be held back by their association with that partner? They are intricately involved, as one. They are locked into a matrix of long standing. Would they feel free to change their mental outlook, their mood, their sense of excitement and adventure if their partner was nearby watching? Well, we will see.
2/25/15 - We are made of love. Love is everywhere. It governs the atoms and electrons of your body. Love is a conscious substance. It is intelligent. It is awake and aware and it moves your body around and your mind and your feelings. It gives you breath and life. In physical form, love is the atoms and swirling electrons that make up the molecules and fibers of your body. If you did not have so many beliefs and fears that restrict you, you would feel lighter in body and happier in mind and feelings because the atoms and electrons would be able to swirl and vibrate faster. It is limited belief - "I don't believe in such things" - and fear which leads to all sorts of negative attitudes that bogs you down.
You use love to create because love is all there is. In the beginning creating something new is fun and exciting. You reduce love down into shape and form with substance and meat to it, by focusing with all your passion on your new creation. You take your ideas from infinite space and, with love, you mold and shape it into musical creations, artistic creations, relationships, school lessons, houses, tall buildings and bridges. You love to create. Your favorite creation is new relationships because old relationships tend to get dull. New relationships feel good because you don't have any past memories or past mistakes to cast shadows. New relationships are pure love relationships. You glow when you think of your new lover or your new friend because nothing has spoiled it yet.
But creating in the world of form - our world of solid physicality - is pushing the envelope. We are each creating something new and so it is by trial and error. Our creations are experiments. We actually don't know how a new creation is going to work out. We plunge in with excitement, all aglow. Whether it be a workshop like my dream, or a new relationship that you have made. We are passionate. It is something NEW!
Why don't our old relationships and our old workshops feel like enough for us? Because we haven't continued to polish them with our love. Instead of polishing them up every morning with caring attention, respect and gratitude for their existence, we re-play replay thoughts of "old". Yesterdays oldness and mistakes creep into our thinking. The habits of the day before and the day before that and the day before that, until we are remembering all the mistakes and errors, and feeling all those mistakes and errors and we are bogged down. What was originally a glowing exciting love affair of whatever - art, music, a class, a book - dulls down and becomes discarded. And we turn our attention to something new. That's why a new relationship, a new art piece, a new music CD, a new anything is so much more exciting. We are creating something new and there is no past to get in the way.
Is there a solution to this? The Galactics say it best. Learn to create with love in every thing you do. Every moment of every hour of every day. It is a learning process. We are evolving into more advanced human beings by expanding our love and broadening our hearts. We need to love what we created YESTERDAY. Not discard it. Revivify it through caring, loving, attention. The most important creation of all is a primary relationship. I know many primary relationships that are not happy but they THINK they are. They could re-create their original love relationship by forgetting the errors and mistakes and concentrate, meditate, on love.
Learn to create love every morning when you wake up. Forget your mundane responsibilities for an hour and spend time on love. If you don't have a partner, focus love on and into yourself. Love is in you already but it's not activated. The best love of all is love for yourself. One hour of loving yourself is begun by sitting quietly in an attractive location, peacefully with quiet music playing, perhaps a candle or two or three, and saying, "I love my heart, I love my brain, I love my blood flowing through my veins." Name every party inside and out while putting your hands on your own body and allow the love to flow from your hands into your skin. Your legs, your feet, your arms, your stomach, the top of your head. Know that love is constantly pouring through you and love is the swirling atoms and electrons. Love never ceases flowing but you can dumb it down by what and how you think. Think love for this one hour. Then you can go back to thinking negative. This is how to awaken love within you and speed up the vibrations of the atomic structure of your body, brain and feeling world.
If you have a primary relationship, buy a massage table. Give your partner a massage once a week WITH LOVE, and see what happens. Give your child a massage and see what happens. Give your friend a massage. Give yourself a loving massage. Then you are re-creating something new. You are a god or goddess in training to learn about love. Pick up discarded love objects off the floor and dust them off. Take them over to the light blazing through the window and examine them. Hold them close to your lips. Smell the sweet fragrance of the love that is held locked inside the atoms and molecules. Reviviy all in your life and love it back to excitement again. Be a happy god or goddess. Keep resurrecting that which was cast aside as old.
2/23/15 - Good morning everyone who reads my blog. I am sorry to report that there have not been any more reservations to the Massage for Lovers on February 28, this coming Saturday. I will wait hopefully for a few more days but the sense is that it may not happen. I may not be dealing with reality here. I have a vision, a dream, a KNOWING of a wonderful realm of pure love that human beings can access and feel physically, which will alter their reality. I have experienced it in meditation alone. I have experienced it while giving massage. I have experienced it while receiving massage, and I have experienced it in the bedroom making love. I have tried to bring this wonderful reality to the consciousness of others over the years, but I have been unsuccessful in starting up a group. It is the group that is not coming together. Not enough people are responding. I must accept that it's probably not going toh appen. I'm not sure why my dream isn't developing for it is an amazing energy. An amazing sense of fulfillment and ecstasy. But I'm not able to sell it.
In my communications with my invisible guides I am told that I am operating on the divine feminine vibration, which is very loving but it's not leadership energy. I just don't have what it takes to promote, organize and set things up. My talent lies in the loving hands-on transference of knowledge through physical contact. Hands on. I am told to give instruction and guidance online, in the written word, rather than try to organize and bring people together in a single location for hands-on. I may do that.
Well, that is all for today. Life continues to unfold new information, new knowledge, and an endless supply of peace, love and light. There is so much love in the world. It is there. It can be felt. What a shame that more people don't know how to access it. I will try to give some guidance in writing. Bless you, enjoy yourself. Be kind and loving to one another.
2/10/15 - There were three couples at the January Massage for Lovers. The next one will be held on Saturday, February 28, 2015 at 7 pm, and there will be two changes different from the first one.
Change number one: I will provide a demonstration of loving massage using a suitable volunteer. We will start out in the living room meeting one another, and there will be a table right there. I didn't do that last month and I realized later that there are certain attitudes that need to be SHOWN rather than talked about. Attitude is more of a feeling. You can FEEL an attitude when a person is doing something, such as if a person is doing it grudgingly and not really liking it, or if he is doing it with love. Since this is a Massage for Lovers, not a Massage for Begrudgers, this is important aspect of what we are about to do.
Change number two: In January we used the formula for a GROUP massage, meaning 3 or more people at a table. I realized after that the "flow" (connection) was not being made. Probably because they were trying to follow orders. I think it will be much more free and people feel more independent if the massages were done one-on-one and with someone not their primary mate whom they have known for years. With your primary mate you already know everything there is to know about them and you don't stretch your mind or your emotions by giving them a massage.
So swapping massage partners will provide a greater opportunity to stretch boundaries and draw on the natural good feelings within to without. There is a natural reserve in all of us that holds back those good feelings. We are careful who we touch. We don't know how they will respond. This is precisely why we are doing this - to practice working with energy. The more we practice with strangers, the more confidence we gain within ourselves. We'll never learn without trying it out. Hands-on experience is the best way to learn about yourself.
We all have our comfort zones. We don't like to rock the boat. We all want life to be easy and smooth. But easy, smooth and comfortable tends to produce boredom after awhile. Life requires refreshing, movement, change, stimulation, evolution, advancement, deepening, widening, expanding. Each one of those descriptive words requires stretching outside the normal day-to-day activity. It may be scary, but I can promise you - no, I can guarantee you - that you will be moved and excited by this if you are willing to be moved outside of your comfort zone.
A third change: I want everyone to use the hot tub afterwards. Unless, of course, there is a medical or physical reason why they can't. This is another way of providing a sense of freedom and spontaneity into a more expanded space.
Time is going by very fast. I apologize for not sending more notices out about Massage for Lovers. I intend to remedy that by sending updates more often from now on. A few couples have indicated an interest for the February 28 event. Single individuals will be considered if they fit the "beginners mind", meaning if they are not looking for a party. This is not a party.
If you are planning to attend, you would need to be here by 7 pm. It goes until 11 pm. There will be a few snacks for munchies and water. It is $20 per person, payable on arrival. In order to attend we request you fill out the privacy agreement & questionnaire if you have not already done so. Click the link www.anakosha.org/privacy.html. I will respond immediately with directions.
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1/30/15 - As we study sex we can't help but get into the higher laws of our nature and who we are. There is no way to study sex without stumbling upon that secret door. What is orgasm, anyway? It is the connecting of the two potent currents, one coming down from the sky and one coming up from the earth. These two currents flowing through us all the time create blockages, which create explosive connections under certain conditions. But the blocks fall back into place after the explosion is over. And once again the inflowing current from Earth builds up and needs to be exploded again, reconnected again. The the blocks fall back into place and it continues this way.
There are blocks in the way which creates orgasm. Like dams in the river that stops the flow of water. These blocks are going to be removed as we push into the subject with our curiosity and wanting to know more about it. Then the orgasm is going to take on a different form. There isn't a single person alive today, I am convinced, who is not curious about sex. What is it? Why is it? Where does it come from? Why am I having such problems with my relationships? It is good to question. We must keep our curiosity alive and continue to wonder about it because sex was given to us as a gift and a signpost along the way. One that we would not miss. We can't miss sex. It's a biggie. Yes, we can avoid it and deny and ignore it and reject it, but it keeps popping back up again in some other form. So we continue to be curious. Some people take the dark path down into shadowy places that cause even more problems. It is wise to remember the heart connection because there is light in the heart. When you continue to go down into dark places where there is no light, and no hint of light, you can easily lose your way and not find your way back.
I've been putting my thoughts out in words on this website, but my journey is not your journey. You have your own to follow. Keep on studying your own nature and allow your own personal integrity to be your guide. Not your idealism - idealism never got anyone anywhere but lonely and separated - but follow your own personal heart wisdom. There is balance in the heart. Idealism doesn't create a sense of peace. It makes you feel alone, like a lone wolf crying in the wilderness. When you follow your heart wisdom your sense of feeling alone vanishes. This is the higher order of right and wrong, higher than the laws created by human culture which are full of do's and don'ts that may not apply to you. Your heart holds the secret of your right and wrong. Remember it as you journey through your sexual escapades.
1/24/15 - We had our first Massage for Lovers a week ago, January 17. Since then vast amounts of knowledge have been unfolding, like a super nova exploding and releasing information in my brain. I’ve needed time for these colorful shining sparks to diminish, cool down and burn out before I could begin writing about them rationally. The next Massage for Lovers will be February 28 from 7 to 11 pm and it will be structured somewhat differently. And I thank the three couples who joined me that evening. You were the beginning of a new process which will continue to grow and evolve into something more in the future.
I have known for a long time that loving massage by warm, nurturing hands is a natural prelude to lovemaking. While some additional skills will enrich the experience and make it better, I don’t want to detract from a simple massage on a massage table. It will start the natural bliss flowing and prepare both parties in a most fulfilling way IF they take the time to do it. It must be taken seriously. I recommend every couple have a massage table in their home and that they use it before sex activity.
There is an energy in the body that is innate, natural and very sensual. It gets fragmented during the typical day of moving about, which causes tension. This natural energy is what I want to focus on through instruction and demonstration on our massage nights. It is a wonderful feeling energy which can lead to bliss, out-of-body experiences, rapture and more. We are equipped with it. Our systems are built for bliss, Dr. Candace Pert has said in her laboratory research. But most of us keep it closed down. We hold it back. The quickest and surest way to get it moving is through loving massage. The focus is on loving, not impatient, not five or ten minutes. Not “let’s get it over with quickly because I have someplace I have to go.“ Massage requires planning ahead and using some intelligence. Wisdom. Caring. Consideration. Etc.
Professional massage therapists do this in preparation for a client and use this wonderful healing energy for their patients, but they stop short in their application because they are not been trained in the deeper aspects of this profound loving energy. There is a “more” to it. Loving massage has greater gifts for humanity than simply healing. It is a tremendous boost to the inner awareness leading towards enlightenment. I would like to see couples start to use massage at home. They can increase the quality of their lives with regular loving massage. Here is the nuts and bolts of why massage is important before having sex.
Every human body has two different life forces flowing through it but both of them are diminished and cut down to a low trickle because of cultural programming, most of which is mental brain washing. When we start massaging each other we by-pass the brain and the complex wiring that censors everything that enters our awareness. The bliss energy in us starts moving all by itself simply from placing hands on the skin, unless, of course, there is bad chemistry between the two people. When two people are compatible and in agreement, the bliss energy starts flowing immediately by simply placing the palms of the hands directly onto the skin.
I am calling this energy “love” but it’s more of a universal bliss sensation. It’s impersonal and universal, like the sun that feels good on everyone alike. The love energy in our bodies is a radiation like the sun, but without the dangers of sunburn. There are other side effects to watch out for, like male erections and women turning on and seducing the massager, but that’s why it is important to practice and learn about these forces within, why they are there and how we can use them correctly to enhance and enrich our lives.
This natural inherent life force is intelligent and discriminating as well as peaceful and powerful in a strengthening way. When this energy starts moving through the hands into the body, it opens energy centers that are part of the body‘s electrical system. These energy centers are called chakras, a Sanskrit word from India. They are etheric connections to universal mind. They come from beyond us. There are no logical explanations. These energy centers start fluctuating and opening when we move the stagnant energy out of the way. Insights start coming to us. The one who is giving the massage also is provided with insights of his or her own. We are linking up through this higher bliss energy which is universal in everyone, but we each have a unique pattern to our molecules and cells that contain the colorful history of our individual past. So universal enlightenment energy affects each of us differently.
The human energy system is designed to receive energy through the feet from the earth. It flows up to through the legs, up the spine, to the crown of our head where it connects with the second flow that is coming down from above as a higher vibration. The Earth energy is a lower vibration. There are levels of density in us. Each energy portal (chakra) gives us access to a higher energy, or lower, depending on where we are on the ladder - low and going up or high and going down. We are all very different and each processing our life energies in our own way. Some of us are trying to come down, others of us are trying to go up. Some people do not have the higher chakras open, some do not have the lower chakras open. Some people are more balanced and have all the chakras at least partially open. There is a science to it.
There has always been information available about the human body’s electrical system, called “the light body”. But most of it has been wrapped in mystical stories of legend and myth. The majority of people were not ready to hear this. Only within the last 50 years has this information been slowly seeping out of the cloaked walls of monastaries and mystery schools. We are getting more and more of this information now, as it comes through many channels like myself. My focus has been on the body. Others has been on the mind. Still others has been on the soul and spirit.
With my focus on the body, I see there are two separate flows of electricity going through us. One coming down, one going up. Our bodies are made of earth elements. Our bodies are animal, much like the tiger, the moose, the elephant. However, the “I” in me and the “I” in you is star material. It is coming down from above. We are a self-conscious awareness that identifies as “I” and which is temporarily inhabiting this body. We leave it every night when we go to sleep but we are actually a splinter or ray of separate consciousness from the unbroken sea of consciousness. We are part of a cosmic consciousness. We are a universal consciousness descending down into this finite, limited, concrete animal body trying to fit into it.
It’s uncomfortable at first, but our parents help us get a grip on our bodies, and as we grow up life takes over and provides us with further challenges so that we learn. We go through a series of lessons in closing down. We learn to manage our dreams, to restrain our spontaneity, to withhold our desire to love and laugh. And we go to school and fill our heads with useless facts and figures. But we grow and learn and adapt and eventually conform, all the while diminishing our vastness and our ability to be in love with all life.
As we are descend from above us, there is another life force flowing up from Mother Earth. It enters through our feet and travels up our legs. It is the same life force that makes the grass grow and the animals run and the vegetables ripen so we can eat them in their season, and then they whither and die at the end of their cycle. We too wither and die at the end of our cycle, but it doesn’t have to be that way because we humans are different. We have a descending life which is self conscious and connected to immortality. We have an ability to know ourselves. That makes us different from the animals. Animals and plants do not have a self-conscious life that we do. It’s true they have a soul that is evolving, but they are not self conscious and they don’t have free will. They are limited to behavior within the matrix of their own species. We humans are not thus limited. Although it would appear that we are limited, in truth, we are not. We have the ability to grow beyond what we THINK is our limitations because of this descending consciousness.
The next step in our evolution as a species, the human species, is to become aware of the descending flow of consciousness which links us to our star selves and our star families. We were diminished when we were born. We had to forget who we were to “fit in”. But when we start tapping into the higher chakras in our bodies, we will resume our spiritual journey. With chakra energy opening and activating, we become healthier, younger, more vital, more aware, more enlightened. The descending flow is the greater flow over the Earth flow because it is of a higher vibration. We must tap it in order to grow more aware of who we are and to bring in those multidimensional gifts we know we have but can‘t seem to access because of human frailty.
The power to make love is accessed through the lowest chakra on the totem pole of our spine. Many people are dwelling in their brain chakra. Many people in their heart chakra. Many people in their sex chakra, but most people have not the knowledge to put them all together. Through massage we balance the fragmented energies. By unifying all the energies (chakras) in the body we become stronger and wiser with longer-lasting strength and body parts.
In past centuries this information was forbidden to the average person. It was spiritual information reserved for special students who had to pass intense tests, locked up in monastaries and mystery schools. But it’s time now for everybody to know abut it. This information is available on the streets and on the internet. Information is releasing faster than anyone person can keep up with. We are taking a cosmic leap into a new evolutionary phase. We are tapping into the stars. We are learning about the rich heritage we carry within our genes. Namely, while the body is fed from below, our spirits are fed from above. This two-way energy flow is happening in all of us. One coming from Mother Earth who provided us with the substance for our body, and one coming down from above which provides us with consciousness and the ability to know ourself.
We have been making love (having sex) for eons of time the way the animals do. We have been running on animal instinct when it comes to procreation, but we have been refining our conscious intelligence. The broader human understanding has not yet recognized the descending flow and remains in the limited belief that we are restricted to Earth. When we begin honoring our higher selves, which is beyond our sight but there nonetheless, we will open to the “more” of us which is full of love and wisdom. We can do that through loving massage. We will begin gaining new insights about love and sex.
This is difficult to put into words because everyone has a different belief system. Our different beliefs contradict others around us. We live in the same households and carry conflicting beliefs. It is what keeps us separate from one another. But there is another way to come back together again, and that is through non-verbal love and loving touch. Our hands are not discriminating. The energy in us is not discriminating. Only the mind and belief systems are discriminating. The love that runs through our bodies is the same love that runs through our neighbor’s body. It comes out of the same pool of universal love. It is my desire to get people together to put hands on one another and start accessing the bliss energy in the higher chakras. The universe is expanding and it’s expanding through each one of us. It’s time to step aside and make room for the “more” to expand in us. To set aside philosophical differences and find that which is unifying in us.
It’s not important to know the what and how of these chakras, only that they are there and we will access them through full body loving touch. It is like climbing a seven-step ladder to a higher window in the building. The view is different from the higher level. It is more refined. Refinement is an application of intelligence that raises us upward. Rather than make sex at the bottom levels, we learn to lift the orgasmic energy upward into the body rather than clamp downward on it and force it to explode.
The earth energy travels up from earth to the brain and the top of the head. At the crown of the head it links with the consciousness coming down. Consciousness coming down is immortality descending into the physical body. It comes down to enrich the body and expand into physicality. The earth and the whole eco system is enriched from the downward descending energy. It is important to recognize this downward flow.
Sex, relationships, families, the earth, everyone will be enriched. Spending time massaging one another with love will help to open the higher body energy centers and allow more refined insights into our lives. To create a greater orgasmic experience we need the richness of the immortality flow from above. That is what is missing in those who are seeking greater sexual experience. Love is not personal. It is the universal field in which we float. We need to access it.
We have this incredible energy at our disposal. There is meant to be a figure 8 flow, ascending and descending in a repeating infinity pattern. We interfere with it when we divert the upward flowing earth energy into sex and cumming. Then the power is cut off at the first two chakras. We want to cum, so we cum! And we cum! and we cum! Until we die. The immortality gene doesn’t awaken as long as the earth energy doesn't link up with the downward flow. There are some things that we can do to enable the two rivers of life in us to blend and flow together smoothly, which will distribute the bliss energies through the whole body, head to foot including the brain. When time is taken to prepare the two bodies with love and bliss, THEN the humans should make love. That's when sex is no longer sex but making love.
After the two bodies are flowing with this bliss energy and both bodies are in synch and both bodies are at one and both bodies feel good, and they make love, miraculous things happen then. The mind opens to multiple dimensions. They may learn things that they had forgotten. Their physical bodies may remain entwined while they are aware of soaring among the galaxies. Sex is a gift for the gods. Sex is used as a stepping stone to higher levels beyond sex to a love that is infinite.
It is not that sex the way we do it today is wrong but there are ways to improve on any relationship. There are enlightened ways to enhance the sexual relationship that is more fulfilling to both people. It translates into being more spiritually advanced if both people are being fulfilled instead of one. The way sex works in many relationships today, as I have discovered in my swinging career is, the one who is most needy seduces or forces the other before the other is ready, who then goes along with it and remains incomplete when done since the seducer or forcer is usually not thinking of the other person but only him/herself. Some people in relationships are horribly abused in this way and if a person allows it to go on for any length of time, violence can result.
But not to leave this subject on such a negative note, love is SO easy to access that I feel it is time to begin demonstrating this to others! I am amazed at how simple it is when I prepare for love. The sensual feelings flowing through my body begin when I take the time to sit quietly alone and close my eyes and focusing on one of my special meditations. The best sex I have with my husband is after I have taken the time to meditate first.
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1/13/15 - Oh, this is lovely! I can't resist posting it here. I get channelings all the time from people and since I am a student of the Ascended Masters, I pay attention to what they say. This one is from Mary Magdalene through Mercedes Kirkel on November 16, 2014 At Unity of Sedona:
The question of Mary Magdalene: I have two questions about soul purpose. The first one is: Did you always know your soul purpose? The second one is: How do we know what our soul purpose is? I know there are signs and gifts that we receive, but I feel like I’m still in the waiting room.
Mary Magdalene: Relative to your first question, “always” is a very long time. (long space of silence) As far back as I can reach, I have known my soul purpose.
Relative to your second question, not knowing your soul purpose is a sign of not being in your heart. The foundation of not being in your heart is being divorced from your body, fundamentally, as well as your sexuality and your emotions. This is a very contemporary problem.
What will help you is to know yourself through these vehicles, through your body, through your sexuality and really your energy system, and through your emotions. And the thing that tells you more than anything is your passion. What do you have passion for? This is a sign of your soul path, your soul purpose. It is a sad state that so many people are not in touch with their passion. It’s a sign that something has gotten shut down.
When you find your soul path, a team of wild horses couldn’t keep you from it. So look for the signs; look for the little corners. Look for something that gives you joy. Look for something that gives you energy. Look for something that you do even when you’re tired, even when you’re sick, even when you’re supposed to be doing something else. (She laughs gently.) Find your passion. And that will point you to your soul purpose.
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1/12/15 - Sharing those deep, almost hidden, emotional feelings and inner wishes in your heart of hearts, is how you grow to become a master. You grow exponentially when you start expressing each tiny wish that you hold locked up inside where nobody can see it. That's your truth. Nobody else's truth, just yours. There is no other truth than that which is in your heart. Truth is one of the seven chakra energies that must be uncovered and revealed. It is one of the seals in the Book of Revelations. It is one of the seven lamps that need to be lit in the seven churches of biblical lore. The truth of what you want and feel is fundamental to who you are. Hide it and you are not who you are yet. Share this truth with your primary partner first or whoever your most important and closest friend is. It will bring immediate changes in your life when you speak your truth, because you will change. A piece of the veil will be peeled away so your light can be revealed in the most miraculous ways that even you won't believe.
I know people who will say, "If I speak what is in my heart my life will be over because my partner will not accept it!" Yes, your past life will be over but a new life will begin. It does not mean the end of your home life or family life or your journey with your primary partner, it means that your reality will change. You will shift things around and open new doors of opportunity. How other people see you will change. Your light will shine. They will not be able to avoid it if you speak your truth out loud. This will change the way they respond to you. However, you can go on as you were before - not revealing your truth - and nothing will change.
That's the whole point of sharing your inner hidden self and showing it outwardly to the world. Share it. Express it. Recognize it yourself. Change your life by getting rid of the baggage that has been causing you pain and suppression of your real self. This baggage is your belief system. It is not your primary partner or your home or your job or your neighbors or friends. It is how you think about them. It is your belief system. It is how you color them (falsely) through your belief system. You have been the one holding your own truth back. Use truth with kindness, even joy and happiness, but use it like a weapon to change your life. It is a magnificent, noble and courageous weapon. It is the weapon of the gods.
I slept two hours past my usual wake up time this morning and it was a slow waking process. I was peacefully slumbering away like a hibernating bear. As I came slowly to consciousness I realized I was still deep inside the dream. It was the divine plan. I could still feel it. My physical brain cells one by one began sparking to life, remembering the plan. I sat at the side of the bed consciously directing all parts of my body to awaken. I have to write this down in words or it will get lost.
It wasn't like I was the observer in my dream but I was inside my own body, inside the living cells and atoms of my body. I was feeling the animal creature that my body is from the viewpoint of the cells, atoms and electrons. I was the spirit and consciousness of the cells. I was aware of my limitations. I was a part of the elements and evolving through the elemental kingdom. I was working inside an animal body. I was dumb, limited and lethargic, but I had a life. I had a dream. I had a purpose. I had a soul. From this perspective I realized the elemental kingdom as a totally different race of beings than I, the spirit living temporarily in the body, using the body to walk around. I realized how important this animal body is, composed of tiny little living creatures with a soul which is put together in some amazing, intricate, immaculate design so that it works in harmony with all the other parts. Who is in charge here? These little living beings composing my body are trying to obey my every wish but I am not good at giving them directions so they do their job the best they can. They live to serve ME, the spiritual presence moving through it.
They are glad to serve the spirit who dwells within as the god of their being and who is present in their midst. As a little entity within the cells I felt humble and my eager to serve the god within, but the god doesnot recognize me as being alive. He misuses me. He trashes me. He fills me with toxic food. He causes me pain. He belittles me. He makes me do things I don't want to do. This god whom I long to serve is an abusive god but I obey him because that is who I am. I am a member of the elements and that is what I trained for. I am following the programming in my heart. I obey.
I was shown this by being placed within the living cells of my body and becoming one of them, serving as a physical muscle cell or blood cell or bone cell. Every cell in my body is alive, playing its part in harmony with all the other living parts. The elemental kingdom is everywhere alive around me, even the trees and rocks and birds - the earth elements, the water elements, the rock elements, the trees, the grass, the insects, the animals. But the humans are different. The human race is a totally other matter.
I shifted over to becoming the spirit dwelling in this body. I am eternal and immortal. I come from the heart of god to live on the earth in an elemental body. I am here to become conscious. As I become conscious of who I am and the body I am living in, which is only temporary, I am building a conscious bridge between God and the lesser evolved mineral, plant and animal kingdom - the form world. The creator wants to extend his kingdom into density. I am a bridge. I am to become aware of both above me and below me and walk in harmony. The angels are a third race or kingdom. They are here to assist me because I lose myself easily in the world of the lesser evolved creatures. I turn to the angels for guidance when I need them. They are always around. The angels, the elementals and the humans - these three kingdoms have been called "the holy trinity" by the ascended masters.
As I am becoming aware of my duty - to build a consciousness bridge between God and the elements of Earth, I realize I have to express my inner urges, my inner wishes, my inner desires, my inner heart, because my heart is the heart of God Creator. I come from there. That's my home and I am part of the extension of God Creator out into the world of density to extend his consciousness further and further into the darkness.
I have been implanted with a "plan" in my heart - the perfect plan is in me - and I too must follow it, just like the little elementals. I am a conscious spirit come to blend, merge and unify with the animal creature called "my body". I am learning to identify myself within my animal body, but the only way I can do that is to express in words who I am. I am learning to express myself in worlds. I have to define myself. I have to share who I am, and I have to share truthfully. Then I can live happily alongside the elemental kingdom as a god.
As I blended with elementals of earth, the little living forms of earth, I saw they are not solid concrete forms. That is an illusion. Each little blade of grass is a living entity who has temporarily shaped its consciousness into the form of a blade of grass. I saw this. It had to train to earn this job over eons of time. It is evolving its consciousness, its mind, if you will, to hold a focus. It chose a blade of grass to focus on. It learned how to image the shape in its mind and to hold onto that shape. Each blade of grass that we walk on without regard or thought, is one of these living beings who is serving as a blade of grass on Earth.
Likewise, each cell in my body is a living entity who had to train to earn this job of being a liver cell and holding onto that thought. It trained under a master deva who also had to grow from babyhood to master, and now is teaching the little ones to hold shape and form on the earth and on other planets. I as the spirit dwelling in this body of such fascinating living cells of every thought and variety, did not know this. I was ignorant. But I am waking up. Each cell in my stomach, each cell in the lining of my intestines, each heart cell and bone cell and cell in my pineal gland is a living entity.
And each cell is awaiting instructions from ME, the spirit or lord of the body. My instructions go out to them in the form of emotions and thoughts. My cells obey my deepest feelings and wishes. How ignorant I was! Now I see that I must be more responsible for my inner truth. I MUST acknowledge my own truth and own it. Who I am depends on it. I am what I am but if I pretend to not be what I am I am an obstruction to every single entity living in my body who is trying to evolve into its own perfection. Here I am living inside this perfectly designed machine composed of countless billions of little conscious beings of life who are holding a place for me by holding the shape of my liver, stomach, pancreas, brain, everything is held in place by a living system of conscious beings just for me. I guess I should go along with the plan and also obey my heart. There is a bigger plan than one I know.
At one time the earth was about to go out - poof! - and its atoms recycled. But there was one, Sanat Kumara from Venus, who said, "No, I will go and dwell on Earth and give it my light." They say at that darkest hour there was only one being who held the light at that time and kept the earth from vanishing. When Sanat Kumara came to live here his presence emitted a vast radiation of love and light and he began drawing human beings to to him in pilgrimage form to the temple his followers built for him. It was in the middle of the Gobi Desert. His love and light fed the dying hearts of the people and they began to wake up. They too began to radiate their consciousness out and exponentially consciousness grew on the Earth. Sanat Kumara is known in the old testament as the Ancient of Days. This was a long time ago in our history. Exponentially the light of consciousness grew and grew, and today, the beginning of 2015, our world has been saved from extinction. It is guaranteed. The earth will not be terminated. There are still those who lag behind and insist on operating in fear, doom and war and refuse to follow the light and the love in their hearts, thinking they can do it alone, separately and selfishly, without needing the light of the creative force which fathers all living things. But in the shift that is happening today they are doomed to failure unless they turn to love. Nobody can live inside the body of a living creation without love living in their hearts.
The portal to life is in the heart. Always in the heart. To keep it beating. We have to learn to share what is in our hearts if we want to grow and expand in consciousness (light and love). Otherwise the light remains turned down low with a covering over it and we forget who we are and create false masks to take its place. That is why sharing our truth is so important. As we share our innermost truth, we should share it with wisdom, purpose, purity, love, peace and freedom. These are the qualities of the seven chakras planted within us. When we express our truth in a balanced way, we grow exponentially. Our reality changes and abundance flows. This was my dream this morning, watered down into words.
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1/6/15 - Not to lose track of sex as my husband accuses me of (!) we had a party New Years Eve and because it was smaller than usual and there were some new couples to provide some new energy to get to know, we were able to become closer to everyone at the party than we normally do. This is from a swinger's perspective. When there are too many people involved at a swing party and everyone has sex on the mind, it grows chaotic. People don't get close enough to actually FEEL something on a deeper level because there is too much confusion in the air and too many bodies moving around. It is difficult to focus. But in order to have an attraction of some sort with someone, it is required that one slows down sufficiently to "connect". It's like connecting two wires together in the car engine to get it to run. Without that connection, be it physical (chemical) or emotional or mental, nothing happens and people start pretending or forcing themselves in to acts that are meaningless.
When there are fewer people around the air is clearer and less muddied and confused. The fewer people the better. The opposite point of view is "the more people there are, the more variety to select from" and some swingers prefer the larger parties for that reason. Well, that is one point of view. However that point of view is the meat market perspective. One can look around a room full of people and see who looks good to you from merely an eye-candy point of view. First sight. But when you have less people to choose from, then you are forced to connect with a person and FIND something meaningful within that person. And it is surprising how this produces such good results. I can tell you many stories with delightful endings. Times when I couldn't have what I would have preferred but had to go with the flow of the moment (because that's who I am) and to be with someone I did not choose to be with. And yet it turned out to be a positive experience and a memorable one that contains something deep beyond words, and I can recall that experience easily from my mental archives. So much is hidden behind our immediate first glance choices. Look at second choices and third. There is something there for you.
1/5/15 - As we enter the new year we are amping up the schedule for Massage for Lovers, which includes teachings on the chakras and auras. The seven chakras are portals through which certain qualities enter into human world to bring about a better balance to life. More peace, more love, more of everything. There are seven tones in the musical scale, and there are seven basic colors in our light spectrum, and there are seven major chakras in the human body. Sound and color kind of blend together into one beautiful symphony on the higher planes, and so it is when the human being begins working with the chakras in him/herself.
We human beings have these seven vibrations (tones and colors) moving through us all the time. They are anchored within us and they enter into our solid physical world through our awareness. If we don't know about them, if we remain ignorant of them, they cannot give us their blessings very well. We block the flow. Within the radiation coming down through open and flowing chakras is our human potential, like pristine rivers flowing down a mountain towards the sea. A most beautiful being perfect in every way, lives in shimmering perfection above each one of us like a god or goddess on a higher plane. It is time we began recognizing it.
Chakras are ethereal. You won’t find them with medical scanning equipment. They come from higher planes, just as we do. If you don’t believe in higher planes or if you don't understand higher planes, it doesn’t matter. It will not diminish the beautiful feelings that flow when certain techniques are applied. There is a science to it which has been proven over and over by spiritual science students over the centuries.
These are mystery school teachings. As near as 100 years ago these teachings were prohibited from being given to the general population. The church confiscated these teachings eons ago to prevent the non-elite (commoner) from growing in personal power. The church has had a very firm control over the population, intimidating everyone from going direct to the source of power - within. Knowledge of the higher dimensions, the chakras and the spiritual science that goes along with it, fuels understanding and grows the confidence and power to think for yourself, to be independent, to dare to live free and love as your heart desires.
The number seven refers to seven very specific tones or qualities that can be woven into a human being's world to bring balance, intelligence, love, purity, truth, peace and freedom. These seven qualities are much more than mere words imply, but we start with a mental description and then we'll apply it to feelings.
(1) Stability - a peaceful solid grounded connection with physical Earth.
(2) Discernment - alertness, wisdom and illumined intelligence.
(3) Love - gratitude, adoration and sacred appreciation
(4) Purity - clean and sparkly fresh in body, mind and feeling
(5) Truth - nothing vibrates like truth!
(6) Peace - comfort, warmth and closeness
(7) Liberation - freedom
A word is a shell that contains the living energy inside it. We have to break open the shell to become immersed into the energy itself. When you are immersed in one of these qualities, you BECOME the quality. Then you know without a doubt who you are. It is a part of you - a very natural and beautiful part of you. Our feelings and emotions and inner senses have been blocked off by living in a mental, analytical world. That is why we are bringing about massage as a way of bringing feeling into each other through loving touch.
Massage for Lovers is a social group dedicated to lifting, raising and appreciating the hidden energies within. We can help each other access these beautiful energies by soothing touch. I know there is a lot of fear of intimate massage, but when sex is taken out of the massage, all pressure to perform is removed. Only love remains. There is more to the human being than meets the eye. Let's access it by participating in loving touch. It is a different kind of therapy. It is love therapy.
The qualities that come through the seven chakras feel intimate and comfortable. When a chakra is open you feel a certain kind of bliss. It is wholesome and good. It immediately overrides the more noticeable ailments in the body, mind or emotions. It is a natural energy. It feels familiar. It is familiar because it comes from you. It is your natural home and it feels very loving. These energies feel good when they are flowing, but you don't even know they are there because so seldom do people engage in this type of loving massage. Most people approach massage as sexual foreplay or physical therapy (which often hurts). Loving touch in a group of other aware and alert and sensitive people willing to give and take gentle warming massage, without pressure to have sex, is the best way to open the chakras. There is more to discuss and demonstrate in person.
12/23/14 - It is all beautifully serene and quiet today. While my sisters up north are all making busy plans with family over the holidays, I feel as if I am living in another zone altogether from the rest of the world. It is SO quiet and SO peaceful. Nobody is around. Nobody is reaching out for us, demanding our attention. My husband is communicating through his computer with the outside world and I am too, but I'm also communicating in other ways. Without family and friends I am feeling kind of elevated. In a more rarefied space, and he seems happy with that. It is a new experience because Christmas has always been about family and friend gatherings. It's quite extraordinary. I think we have created it to be this way, without people around and without any plans to have people around. Now there is room to relax and spread out and appreciate the quiet. I feel as if I am basking in the silence as if it were sunlight. It's a connection of sorts, a connection with no one thing in particular, just spreading out and clicking in, wider and wider, out across the land because there's no one demanding my attention. Even he seems happy. I checked in this morning with him and looked deep into his eyes and he is peaceful and happy too. I hope everyone is as happy as I am today! My love goes out to all.
12/22/14 - Since sending out the e-flyer about the Massage for Lovers, I have been in communication with several men. Men apparently see things differently than women do. Ha! All in good fun and for clarifying and gaining new understanding. There are people interested in Tantra but appear to each have a specific idea of how this should look. It is this "specific idea" that each person carries that mystifies me and causes me to step back. I don't know how to fulfill everyone's "specific idea" of how Tantra should look like. I only know what I know, and don't know how to give to people what they want. So I write and write. I have so many articles in my files of writings over the years that there is no sense any more. I'm reaching a new plateau. I'm now writing to other people instead of myself alone. I love to write emails because they are spontaneous. I don't have to edit them and I don't have to present a "case" and I don't have to explain myself. It's just how I see it.
For example, I see Tantra as a spiritual exercise that you can do alone. It's not about sex. Someone took issue with this - in a good-natured sort of way - and I know my view is different from the way most people see Tantra. But as I wrote back to this man, the way I see it is, within every human being, both men and women, there is a light in the physical heart which is not of this world, that keeps the heart beating and the body alive and everything working. This light is US in a pure state of awareness. The ancients called it the "observer" or the "watcher". It doesn't move. It just is and it's us. It is not confined to earth but embedded in the human body to keep it alive. I get this from the many studies I've been doing along the esoteric line of thought most of my life, no religion, no single path, just picking it up here and there among many sources, including my own personal experiences.
So when we are at rest inside the deepest quietest part of our being, which is in the physical heart, we are retreating to the "observer" or "watcher" position which is neither male nor female. Transcendentalists go there when they meditate. I go there quite a bit myself. However, as many would point out, for creation to continue creating and the world of form to continue evolving and growing, it needs opposite poles to drive things and move things around, back and forth, and up and down, in and out. Even the blade of grass growing up through the topsoil needs something to push against. So do we need people to push against. In order to make things happen we need the male and the female, which are opposites. They push and pull against each other. And yet in the symbol of the yin and yang they are entwined together revealing the opposites at rest. They are actually embracing each other, almost erotically, but they are resting, not moving.
In the resting state at the heart of creation - the heart of God they call it - there is no movement. They say we are all residing in the heart of God no matter what we do or where we go we are always within the heart of God at all times. It is only our movement that causes a sense of separation and loneliness and feelings of funk and the urge to search for answers or someone to fulfill our needs. We are eager to return to wholeness and bliss but in the movement and thinking and planning we don't know how to get it. To find the bliss and wholeness and fulfillment we have to stop all action. The purity of bliss is available, always and eternally available to us, but our busy activity and constant movement, thinking and planning, keeps us separated from it. That's why people meditate or take drugs when they don't know how to meditate.
When I go into that zone it is really, really, really quiet and so peaceful and so beautiful and nothing moves but my awareness expands and I see things from the observer position and I experience being everywhere. There is no movement or urge to search, no urge to rest, no urge to eat, no urge for love, because I am inside of love and I have it all. I'm completely happy, beyond words. My mind - the gears of my thinking mind - are absolutely still and yet there is a greater that I am a part of which I don't see when I am actively moving around and planning my agenda which causes me to shrink to a smaller place and the wheels start up and I am walking around bumping into things again.
From my experience, most people see Tantra as action and movement, while I see it as being silent in the position of the observer - the silence of no movement - and being in total calmness and at rest while being close to another human being who is doing the same thing. Not moving but being in the silence together, in the spirit together. Is this possible? I assume it is very rare, but I know what it is must be like. I know I have experienced it before. Another life? I am ready for this experience but I do not have a partner who will sit in silence with me. This takes time and patience. But unusual things happen when two people go into the silence together, in close proximity, touching but not moving. I'd love to experience it with someone in this life.
Tantra is not very well understood here in the West, but only because we haven't been given the spiritual understanding. The science behind Tantra. From my perspective, which is a woman's perspective, it is in the silence that we open portals to the cosmic half of ourselves and receive the inpouring of powers that are beyond us. Plus, being in the physical with another human being, we also draw on the Earth power known as kundalini which feeds the sexual energy. In this era of more open sexuality and exploration, it is natural to stumble upon Tantra and want to experience it. But since each person has a different idea of what it should look like, how is this possible? Opinions, wants and desires get in the way of success in many projects. Maybe a gathering of open-minded individuals who are interested in Tantra and who would be willing to discuss it with others, instead of insisting on doing it their way, would be a good way to begin an exploratory study group on Tantra. Actually, that's why I'm starting the Massage for Lovers. It just may turn into a Tantra study.
12/21/14 - I have been visited by the angels this past week. Someone sent them to me in a type of ritual or program. So I prepared to receive them and built an altar for them. They have been telling me things - not in words but in awareness - like from their awareness to my awareness. It is a very specific mental telepathy, like a down load of information. I have been receiving communications from them. I bought a bouquet of white flowers and place them on my altar and opened windows and lit candles and put on gentle music and burned incense and smudged my aura. The air is so tranquil and peaceful as I do this. And I name the archangels as a way of inviting them into my space.
I was talking with them again this morning. I got up early and walked outside in the pasture while there was still fog on the ground and the deer were grazing, and the angels told me to be with my higher self and let all human effort go. "You are here to blend with your divinity, which is that natural feeling of no effort, and to be with the elements of the earth which need your help which you can only do by being natural within yourself. You can only be natural by letting go of all pressures to conform to other people and the outside world. You are all natural beings of great light and great wisdom and great goodness and this greatness flows and flows and flows when you don't try to reduce it to fit into a form or format. " I am getting this really strong right now - that the sweetness and the beauty and the love and the joy is what is natural. Everything else is unnatural. Mankind has been messing up the naturalness of the flow so our task is to break out of human thinking (the matrix) and go quietly into the brightness and the freedom and disappear into the wholeness which is our natural state, no effort involved.
Someone sent me an angel message this morning. I want to share it here.
MESSAGE FROM THE ANGELS
My dear friends, we love you so very much. Merry Christmas! Happy Hanukkah! Happy Light in the Darkness, and Light rising up within your beautiful, brave, and bountiful hearts.
For indeed, light did not come into the darkness, but rather was revealed in the midst of the darkness. Light always exists dear ones. Light is what the entire universe is made of. In the midst of the greatest trials, one must only look in the most humble places to see evidence of God's love. Whether it be in the light of an oil lamp, a babe in a humble manger, or in a simple flower growing up through a crack in a concrete sidewalk... love is ever present, always seeking to reveal itself, always seeking to grow.
We celebrate your holidays because your holidays celebrate love! Look for love this week! Look for it everywhere! See it in the faces of those smiling and in the faces of those scowling. Look for it in the most beautiful decorations and in the most garish displays of artificiality. Someone loved themselves, their jobs, their families, or their ideas enough to create everything you see in front of you. The first soul to mix concrete loved the idea of a solid platform. The first person to create the jack hammer to break it up loved the idea of change. The first wise man to follow the star loved the idea that God so loved the world. And you dear ones, you so love others that you wait in lines, spend your hard earned money or time, take time to wish others well. You do these things, you create, you sing, you worship, you wish goodness upon others - all because you love.
All love is the love of God. All light is the same light present in the lamp, in the manger. All of you without exception birth the divine in the most humble places and spaces within your lives. A quiet smile for a stranger. A kind word for a clerk. Allowing a rushed and rude driver ahead of you in traffic... These are the moments when innocence and love are birthed in the manger, again, and again, and again.
Close your eyes during this holiday season. Breathe deeply. Feel the light within your heart. Breathe. Receive. Expand. Fill up your cup with love and pray that the whole world would allow for the same. This is our Present to you Dear Ones. a gentle reminder that the light born on Christmas, the light burning in the lamp in the temple, the light that lives and breathes within you is your perfect gift to all of humanity.
God Bless You! We love you so very much.
The Angels
12/12/14 - Gearing up for massage. Not just any massage. It has to be loving massage - loving massage for lovers. We must learn how to prepare for loving massage. Show love. Think love. Express love. First think love, then feel love. You don’t feel love on command, but you can think love on command. Think first, mentally. Then feel love, physically. How? First start the engine by imagining love in the body cells. Pretending, fake it til you make it. Put focus on love in your muscles and tissues and organs. Use your body to feel love, not your mind. Your mind can't feel anything. It can only think. Put attention in your own body parts because that's where feelings are felt.
It’s like starting your car on a cold morning. The turning of the key in the ignition starts the engine, which sputters and sparks into life. It’s electrical. So is your mind electrical. Spark your body engine by putting your focus into your body cells. Distribute your intention to love throughout your body, like the car engine distributes its spark, it's electrical spark, and sends the gas through to the various parts which make the car run.
Put your love attention into your hands first. There are major chakras in the palms of your hands. Put your love attention into your liver, your stomach, your kidneys, your feet. Form the words “I love you” into your own body first, before putting hands on someone else, to help you warm up your body with love. Get your own juices flowing first. Your mind can’t feel, your brain can’t feel, it is your body that feels so put your love into your body.
Women need love to prepare themselves for touch from another. The touch itself carries energies that are foreign - thoughts, motives, intentions, fears, memories - these are all energies that are not her energies. They belong to another. So when another touches her she receives those foreign energies. That’s why women need to be prepared with love first, before engaging in intimacy. She is a receiver. Women receive energies much quicker than men whose natural currents are outward flowing. Hers are inward flowing. This is unconscious on her part. She is unaware. So another person’s touch is entering into her body unaware. She can't help it. And if it's to be a physical contact, those energies are unfamiliar and strange. That's why women like to feel out another person before doing anything with them. Her body, mind, feelings, and her aura has to read this other person and adapt to him or her and process. This takes time. She may decide to reject that person's touch because no matter how hard she tries to process it, that person's touch is incompatible.
That's why we prepare for love. Prepare ourselves for love so we can bypass the extraneous, individual histories, which are external to our inner heart love, and then we can proceed with our LOVING massage. We must prepare ourselves with love, starting with the mind, then the body and feelings, before we begin massaging.
Everyone stiffens at the thought of being hit with something or someone foreign. We all brace ourselves against whatever is coming if we know it is coming. If we don’t know, we don’t consciously brace for it, but we may have a sense of something coming, a foreboding perhaps or on the other hand, an anticipation of something exciting about to occur for us that our auric field picks up from energy waves that heading in our direction. Women's intuition has based on the science of life. Men may not be aware of incoming waves of because men are not receivers, they are radiators flowing outward. Women are the in-breath and in-drawing while men are the out-breath and outward flowing. The earth itself is breathing in and breathing out. The planets and the suns are also. There is an in-breath and an out-breath to all living things but we won't get into that today.
12/10/14 - It occurred to me today that for many men (not all, certainly, but those I know) it is difficult for them to "see" or imagine invisible energy, such as picking up a lie from another person, or a hesitancy, or a pushiness, or a jealousy, or a fear, or a doubt - these are all feelings that may not show up on the face or in behavior. This is what feminine energy is. Females pick up on these things easier than men do. It is also the basis for meditation, and doing inner work and getting in touch with the higher self. The chakras are invisible energies that tie into the field of life that surrounds us on a horizontal level. And the vertical tube of life that comes down from above us, through the spine, and down into the earth beneath our feet through which flows the sky energy, the positive protons from the sun now being called photons, and the earth energy which are the negative electrons. Hence the need to balance these energies, but if they are invisible and you don't believe in them, it is hard to get there. This is another reason for men to lift their consciousness above physical. Think of it as expanding your light out further afield from your own immediate world, like you are a light and you are turning up your brightness. Look to the sky and to the horizon and imagine the "beyond". This is not just feminine, it is spiritual and when you die you will realize that you are spirit first and foremost. You're just inhabiting the physical body for now.
12/9/14 Almost two months have gone since posting here. My focus has been working through old energies and making room for the new. I am cleansing myself, fasting, using the violet flame (violet transmutes negative energy) and other techniques to bring in the more rarefied energies, meaning lighter ways of seeing. I am a heart person, always have been, and this morning a long-time friend sent an article about the heart. It was how people get confused over the phrase "follow your heart" because sometimes they think they are following their heart but it ends up getting them into trouble and they don't know what they did wrong. The author of the article is a doctor and is trying to explain it but didn't do a very good job, in my estimation. So I wrote back to my friend the following:
This is interesting - it's really about the TRUE you vs. the manipulated and emotionally messed up you. The higher self or god-self (actually the GOD/GODDESS) pours into the body through the heart but we mess up those absolutely pure energies by misusing them or attaching them to something or someone and then finding out we shouldn't have but the damage is done and we now have a "memory" and that's misqualified energy (not pure). So then we have a small heart energy but meanwhile the BIG heart energy is still flowing. We just have to learn not to attach it to anything. Just live it! Impersonal love vs. personal love. In personal love we attach, want, desire, compromise, wrap ourselves around external objects, even do bad things against our nature when we attach to someone or something (obsess). But in impersonal love we remain unattached emotionally, and pure in our love. In the true state of love we do not attach and do not get hurt and are invincible.
Over the last two months I have been processing through my own emotional attachments and fantasies and other things that I've held onto for decades, and trying to replace them with a lighter, softer, easier, more gentle att-it-tude. I really want a group of lovers to gather in my home for massage, but 40 years of submitting to male-driven sex and swinging has been a heavy energy to overcome. The subtle and profound emphasis is not in rejecting sex and swinging, but in elevating myself to the pure love state. This has been difficult and has required a lot of intense inner work, because it's me I have to raise, not other people or swinging. I must raise my own vibrations, my own attitude, and my own feelings about it, while being discerning and not allowing myself to be lowered in vibration and attitude and feelings, which means not giving in to someone else just because they're needy. It's tricky but I'm getting there. It's all about respect, appreciation, even reverence for the life that plays through me and other people. Those attitudes make all the difference in the world.
The damage that women carry forward from past lives and genetics is huge, and only women can overcome them. The men can only love them while they are processing, if they want to help, and not pressure them. We women have acquired so many unpleasant experiences with patriarchy that our trunks in the attic and cellar are overflowing with darkness. I don't think men know that. Only love will raise us up and help us change our attitude for the better, not more orgasms. Although they help if the orgasm is couched, embraced and nurtured in love. We are growing - I am growing - in understanding and becoming empowered as the world shifts to become more feminine. The Earth is a feminine being and she is alive and she too is throwing off the patriarchal abuse.
There is so much more to the love connection than submitting to male needs for sex or power. Even men are confused over all of this change. My advice to men: show love to your women and let them take the lead. See where it goes. The woman's side of sex, the woman's side of the partnership, is all about love. Love has been dismissed for eons as a foolish thing and not at all practical. But there really is a higher cause, a greater good, a deeper connection, a more wondrous love to be experienced in the field of human intimacy and women hold the magic. They have not known that. They are just beginning to wake up to it. Love, when placed first over the genitals, will erase all the negatives from the past. But it can't be achieved by repetitive tunnel-vision focus on physical orgasms thru physical rubbing.. There is a higher dimension to the human being that has been neglected, which is more heightened and revealing and fulfilling as well as sensual. It's an inner work but I'm getting there. It's an inner work for everybody and I am hopeful that the massage evening for lovers will help more people get there too. A schedule for massage evenings has been planned. The schedule will be soon be posted. The first one is January 17, second February 28, and then every 6 weeks.
10/9/14 How often has a woman told a man "Stop it, you're too rough, don't touch me there!" and the man droops and flags, his feelings hurt, his confidence wanes, desire leaves him? And how often has a man pushed too fast and too hard on a woman to cause her to throw up walls of defense and resistance and to harden her heart? Both cases are common in the battle between the genders. This scenario is played over and over in every town, city and village in the world, keeping men and women divided. What is missing? I believe that it is time to learn how to approach one another with gentleness. Let's practice loving one another through slow sensual massage - not sexual but whole body love - and heal the sexual wounds that have been passed down from generation to generation, for centuries. It's an ancient war that has been going on for years and it is preventing us from the embracing one another with mutual love. Make love, not war. Make love in a sacred way.
10/7/14 This morning a wonderful vision was shown to me of a fully realized man. Uumm, lovely. This vision came as a feeling coupled with a picture. It affected me on levels that are wordless. I want to try to express the feeling because I am always focusing on the feminine qualities and, contrary to popular belief, a man who is fully in touch with his feminine side is waaaaay more attractive than one who is not. Most readers interpret feminine to mean woman or a gay man, but there is something powerfully masculine in a man who is whole and complete with both a gentle side and a strong masculine side. Every man has a feminine side, for he is 50% male and 50% female. Most men have been conditioned to hide their female side. Likewise, every woman is 50% female and 50% male, she just hides the 50% male side so she is not wholey empowered. But let's look at an empowered man.
A man's body is male, no question about it. But his body is only the vessel through which he moves and operates as an intelligent operating force. The body is a vehicle, just like his car that he gets into every day and drives. The body is not who he is. Who he is is intelligence manifesting as thought and feeling. This intelligent being is both male and female in thought and feeling. It is only when he is raised in a less-than-perfect society as ours is, that he is indoctrinated from infancy to hide his female side. A boy is taught from infancy to "be a man" and thus close off his delicate sensitivities which are his feminine side. Most boys are taught not to cry and not to express emotion or high ideals or a sense of justice or fairness, or appreciation for beauty or a taste for dance or the arts. These are too delicate, in our society, for a man to have. They are "gay". And yet these are very much a part of his wholeness. He cannot be complete without them. As he grows into adulthood and continues to deny expression to his own inner beauty and grace, he grows harder and more masculine. More macho. He develops a certain hunger for the feminine touch, for his body needs it. His body follows its natural growth pattern and at puberty there is a physical awakening of sex hormones in the genital region, indicating he can now reproduce, but there is a deeper and more intense hunger. He needs feminine energy for his soul, not just his body. He is lacking in that area - intimacy, gentleness, awe and wonder, because he has been trained to shut that side of him down and he is energetically out of balance. He is tilting too far over into the masculinity zone.
Perhaps the reader will disagree with me, but I am sharing a word picture of something I saw today - a fully-realized man. A whole man, not a screwed-up man with issues. We do not see such men in our society often, if ever. A fully realized man is not hungry for sex, nor is he hungry for a relationship. He is his own man and happy with his life. He balanced between his heart (feminine) and his mind (masculine). He has learned to keep his heart open. He has not closed off his feminine side. His physical body is male and he is attracted to women in the same way as any normal man, for he loves to be in love and he loves beauty, grace and togetherness. But sex is not driving him. He has a respect for the whole person, and an appreciation of nature and ALL people everywhere - not just women. He has the ability to enjoy the many pleasures that the world has to offer, and the ability to be in joy and spontaneity as he feels, as well as to be serious, practical and a leader of men where needed. He can laugh and cry as he is moved to do so., as well as be the warrior when he is called upon, because he does not have unresolved issues plaguing him. He embodies his own wholeness in his skin, and he is comfortable with who he is. He is not operating at the 50% level, which we would call the macho male, but is the kind of man all men and all women would find attractive and likeable.
It's hard to describe the feeling of what I saw. It was a feeling. It was a presence. It was loving and warm and yet masculine in every way. It was wise and intelligent. Profoundly knowledgeable. He was like a god in man's body. You could not help but stop and gaze at him in wonder, trying to figure out what it was that captivated you. But he was just a human being. I am trying to define the feeling, the impact, the glow and the presence of this man in my vision. He had a very powerful presence. You could imagine him being able to move mountains if he wanted to, but that he kept that power under wraps until needed. This gave an image of a very strong, very warm, very gentle, very human, and very attractive man.
I am painting this picture so that men who read this might understand - allowing your female side to express in your thoughts and emotions and life is not being gay, and not being feminine. It is being more masculine, not less. It is important that a man realize how much he loses by not allowing his sensitive nature to co-exist along with his masculine. He has this energy within him. It is a powerful spiritual energy. I am articulating this for a reason. If men everywhere accepted his femaleness, the world would spring back to rightness immediately, for it has been the unbalanced male who has become unduly aggressive, mean and vicious without his feminine side. He would become in short time very comfortable with himself and at peace with his life. What at first feels vulnerable to him would eventually prove to be a wholeness that he has not experienced before, and it would give him more power, purpose and meaning.
The inner feminine is sometimes called the inner child. The inner child has been neglected. The supposition is that the child has not grown up to adulthood. But the inner female is always a child. It is happy and joyful and spontaneous and in love with life with delight twinkling in the eye at play. A man who has these qualities would be stronger than those men who do not express it. All men could express their inner child, with a little solitary alone time to connect with it. He would be able to give expression to his inner, heretofore unexpressed inner thoughts and feelings. He would be MORE of a man, not less. He would find himself surprisingly stronger than he ever thought possible, because he would be operating on 100% fuel instead of only 50%. The fuel is the spirit of the person, not the body itself. The fuel is the life force of an individual, not the body itself. The body is only the vehicle, the car, that the person gets into and drives around. But if the person runs out of fuel, out of spirit, out of life force, then the car, the body, runs down and grows old. It cannot keep itself alive. It needs the fuel - the 100% octane. The macho male thinks he is so powerful and manly, but he can't do it alone without the spiritual fuel of 100% - the other half of himself which is hidden. One who has accepted his own gentleness, grace, vulnerability, beauty and refinement, would appear as a gentleman. That private acceptance within would flood his mind, body and feelings and saturate him with powerful confidence and inner knowledge. No amount of book learning or higher education gives that to a man. Only his willingness to connect with his heart, the feminine and spiritual side of himself.
The same is true with a woman. Most women operate on 50% of their life force, not 100% as they could. Yes, their physical bodies are feminine and they might be the most beautiful woman in the world. But their bodies are only a vessel, a vehicle. She herself is a non-physical, very powerful being using that beautiful body to operate through. When she, the powerful being, is raised as a young girl by her parents, she is more than likely being cultivated toward the feminine side. They are probably clipping and cutting back her male side, so she will "fit in". Most girls are taught to be soft and gentle and to not express their intellectual side or their strengths or practicalities or tendencies for science, math, politicians, baseball or motorcycles. And yet she has all of these tendencies within her. They are skills and talents and abilities. Who knows what she would produce if she did not cut off her male side? As young girls grow into womanhood they become increasingly hungry for male energy - the male energy that they rejected and denied expression to. They grow unbalanced. She develops a certain hunger for boys. And when her body awakens at puberty with sex hormones flooding her nerves and tissues, she has no control over it. She needs and wants a boy man. Whereas if she had been allowed to be a fully-realized girl from childhood she would not be caught in the flood of emotions at puberty. Imbalance causes her intense desire for male energy, for she has refused to let it live and express in her. This hunger radiates out into the atmosphere around her and men and boys are attracted to it like a moth to a flame.
When a person blocks whole portions of themselves from expressing, which our society unfortunately requires, there is the beginning of imbalance. It manifests as inability to see clearly or choose wisely and as a hunger for the opposite sex or fighting with the opposite sex. Wholeness, on the other hand, is a feeling of being healthy, at peace and more or less fulfilled. It is the aching hunger for the opposite sex that is, in my opinion, the most damaging result of denying the inner male or the inner female from expressing. It creates the friction and the struggle that exists between men and women everywhere. It is global. Even in our enlightened society here in the West, there is enmity between men and women. This enmity dissolves into love during a love affair and honeymoon, but quickly disappears after that. Why?
Because while they are in love they are balanced in their energies. Love balances. Love accepts. Love does not reject or deny. Love includes. As soon as they stop being in love, they fall out of balance again and the hunger returns for the opposite sex. And yet it is within the man himself, within the woman herself, that the balance is found. One can have hundreds of sex partners in life and never achieve that ultimate peace that comes with being in balance. It is all about energy. Inner energy. Male and female energy integrated inside one's own skin. Is it possible a baby can be raised as a fully-realized boy or girl? I believe it is not only possible but that we are seeing it with our own eyes. It is happening right now in the child prodigies. What we call "geniuses" but they are not geniuses. They are merely healthy, whole-bodied individuals operating on a full tank of life force, fully-realized. I believe these child prodigies are not super human but wholey human. What do you think?
9/17/14 I'd like to share an article that came to me this morning. It was tacked onto a Galactic article which I am also interested in. This is channeled by Wes Annac at WesAnnac.com. It's about difficult relationships and it's right on!
What to Learn in a Difficult Relationship
“My partner and I just got back together. My question would now be, is the relationship both for our highest good? What lessons do I need to learn in this difficult relationship? Shall I continue with it or put an end to it in order to be open in a new relationship?”
A: We’re happy to see that you and your partner have given togetherness another honest try. We’ll be glad to reiterate a basic few things to keep in mind in regards to any relationship in hopes that they help you find what you’re looking for, and we encourage any two souls who want to make a relationship work to keep the importance of mutual love and respect in mind.
A lot of people on earth are trying to make their relationships work; trying to see beyond the petty fighting and the things that keep them apart and into the harmony that’s meant to strengthen their bond, and we encourage you to give the mutual respect you require from your partner. More relationships would soar if respect were just as involved as love, and for any relationship to thrive, it’s essential to see the importance of respecting one another. As easy as it can be to think more about oneself than another, an element of disrespect comes into play when anyone does this.
Selfishness sends a message to one’s partner that they aren’t as heeded or respected as oneself, but selflessness will help a relationship thrive as much as the respect that drives it. If one can learn to think less about themselves and more about the people around them, any relationship they attempt to keep strong will flow gracefully and the person they’re with will seem to be the ‘one’ for them. While twin flames certainly exist, relationships aren’t inherently necessary to thrive on earth.
Many people have chosen to come together in the form of relationships because they have karmic lessons to teach each other, and you, dear reader, will learn a lot from your relationship’s revival. The lessons you’ll learn will help you see certain things about yourself in a new light, and the hope is for you to provide the same thing for your dear partner. Mutual love and respect should always be a factor in any relationship, and when the usual lower and degrading qualities come back to the surface and cause arguments or similar acts of disharmony, we encourage simply walking away and asking yourself what it is about this partnership that’d cause them. What lies deep within you that’d cause disharmony between another – specifically, a person you intend to love?
These questions are very important from our perspective, and there are plenty of things you and your partner can keep in mind as you attempt to make your relationship work. One of those things is, again, if you’re receiving the level of love and support you desire from each other.
Find Inner Wholeness
Are you getting what you desire out of a relationship, or do you feel as if spending time submerged deep in the self will help you find what you seek? In a sense, you don’t want to expect your partner to provide whatever it is you feel to be missing within, and this is a trap a lot of souls initially fall for in regards to relationships. You have to be whole within before you can make a relationship with another work, and if both partners seek something out of the relationship they haven’t found within, there’s bound to be difficulty and clashing.
There are bound to be arguments and everything under the sun that leads to disharmony, because both souls would be incomplete; searching for something that’s meant to be found within but that they use relationships or other external things to find. We encourage you, dear reader, to find the love and wholeness that exist within if you want your relationship to last, and we’ll encourage the same for your partner.
In time, everyone will see that togetherness can only be created or strengthened if the people involved feel whole or fulfilled within, and we’ll make our final expressions for this communication with encouragement to keep the love flowing, no matter what happens. If any of you find yourselves arguing with your partners or descending into lower qualities for any reason, remember to take a step back and realign with the sacred inner love you’re meant to feel and radiate to the rest of humanity.
We never recommend suppressing negative emotion when it comes to the surface, but we absolutely recommend refusing to let it influence your thoughts and actions. Love is required in this time of increasing wholeness, and whether or not you find your love from a relationship, you’ll each find it in ways that work best for you.
Every soul will find what seems missing within, and we’ll encourage our reader and any other reader out there who’s worried about potential relationship problems to keep in mind that the love and fulfillment you seek will always live within. You can seek them externally, but it won’t do much good if you can’t already feel them in your heart.
Thank you to my higher self and spiritual guides.
Wes Annac
(Permission is given to spread this post far and wide, as long as the following bio is included.)
I’m a 21 year old awakening seeker and creator of The Culture of Awareness daily news site.
(For the whole article go to http://wesannac.com/2014/09/17/qa-galactic-fleets-and-relationship-issues/#more-2844
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9/12/14 I am working on a new HOME page for Anakosha. While communicating with some people I am beginning to understand that, in order to create a quality group of people for a loving touch massage, I will need to meet each individual personally first, and swap massages with them. This is a "stepping back" for me. I need to regroup and re-analyze my approach. Most people are not as ready as I am to jump into an evening of group massaging with total strangers. I will have to go slow here.
While sex is an important part of human life, sex as most people know it is in its infancy. Yes, it's good for releasing stress and tension, but it is not ideal in most people’s lives. I’ve talked to many people over the years. Most individuals, women especially but some men too, find themselves still hungry after sex. The ideal sex would be a deeper, more fulfilling lovemaking encounter, but that is rare indeed. So, yes. Sex is important but there is more to sex than meets the eye, which is the reason for the loving touch approach to massage. It's a half-way step to nurture and love the body with several people participating, not just one which creates attachment to that "one". The loving hands-on approach stimulates the love that is stagnant, frozen and locked inside the cells of the person being massaged. The love is not free to move until it is addressed with love of the same quality. When we stimulate the love inside the body on the table and move it around with our LOVING hands, the person feels warm and fuzzy all over. Sensual yes, but not sexual. Men usually translate the warm, fuzzy feeling into sex but in a group men will learn to NOT change it to sex but learn to savor the warm, sensual feelings and expand them and circulate them until his whole body is floating on air without weight and without need to release. This is a tantric technique but it can't be explained. It has to be experienced through feelings, under guidance.
On the other hand, if the receiver does not trust the one or two or three people who are putting their loving hands on their skin, they will remain locked up and frozen. We all need to practice letting ourselves loosen up and trust. But it's going to take practice. It will change our lives. It will change our ability to respond in an open manner. It will change the way we look at the world.
9/10/14 When you have sex with someone it disturbs your equilibrium. I was told that before, but I never realized it for myself until one day recently when I was with a man reaching for orgasm. I was reaching and he was trying. I kept reaching and he kept trying. This went on for a while until I felt very strange, as if I would have a heart attack. My blood was boiling - not in a sexual way but in a bad way. I was getting a little bit of sexual feeling but it was overwhelmed by blood rushing, heart pumping and energies whizzing and exploding and going in a crazy fashion. It was not good so I stopped the effort.
I didn't realize what was happening until this morning as I was bonding (making love) with my husband. His energies and mine have become smooth after 20 years. I do not have to try hard or reach some kind of unknown with him. My body, mind, feelings, spirit, all coalesce and are at peace with him when I make love. It is smooth and gentle. It feels right and good. The realization struck me then that when we have sex with others we have to do a lot of struggling to reach each other. I think it's my maturity that is teaching me. It takes a while to get it. That's why I am so selective today in choosing my love partners.
9/9/14 In reviewing some Tantra websites I ran across this message from www.maresimone.com, which is so well put: "Female sexuality is expansive and mysterious like the deep sea. A sexually awakened woman has a vastly unlimited capacity for orgasm! The feminine valley orgasm is quite different from an aggressive peak orgasm. The valley often begins from deep within where explosive waves of energy arise that can last a long, luscious time… and then continue to the next wave of continuous bliss. Unfortunately, many women do not reach their full sexual potential. Recent statistics state that four out of five women do not reach sexual climax through intercourse! Why? Firstly, there are the cultural and religious stigmas around sex that cause women to feel shame and guilt about their natural sexuality. To make matters worse, often their partners lack the knowledge and skill that can help guide them into expanded states of orgasmic bliss. Because most men are not yet capable of experiencing full body, energy or valley orgasms, this makes it difficult for men to even comprehend, let alone hold the space open for a woman to reach her full orgasmic pleasure potential."
I'm still learning....
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9/7/14 We had a date this weekend. It was supposed to be a lifestyle date. Well, it WAS a lifestyle date. At least for my husband and the other woman. For me I went into it with unsureness. It was akin to stepping off a cliff. I didn't know what I was going to do because I am not really a good swinger any more. My heart isn't in it. But I am still processing through this new phase of growing yet again past a boundary of unknown substance. I've hit a ceiling. How to break through this ceiling, I have no clue. I've been hitting this ceiling again and again and trying to figure it out. Today I had a breakthrough.
The other man was a beautiful man, and an ideal soundboard. He was articulate and demanded me to be articulate. It was pressure on me but it was good for me to practice articulating my deeper feelings. As a result I was able to say things I didn't want to say before. I began the weekend socially and in my normal head space. I then found it necessary to explain that my heart wasn't in it and that I was not a good swinger and I apologized for not being what was expected of me to be. I was able to say it. Wow. It proved later to be a breakthrough. I have not been able to say those words. and remain positive and happy about it.
I then invited him to receive a massage from me and he was more than happy to receive it. Meanwhile the other lady and my husband were having a play date. The massage was not sexual. We discussed that beforehand, that it would not be. He was happy to go along with it. He lay on the table and the moment I put my hands on his feet I was rewarded with an immediate connection. It seemed as though I soared through all seven levels at once and reached zero point energy. The zenith experience. This is the space that I get after an hour's meditation. It is like the trance state. It is the point where there is no movement and I am at one with the sea of life, even though I am touching his feet. It is a most peaceful and wonderful place to be. Words are not necessary while in that space. Words can be exchanged but they are words spoken from a quiet place. No movement is noticed. The words simply flow out from the heart because there is no sense of having to reach a destination. There is already a connection from heart to heart and mind to mind. I do not think he experienced what I experienced, but that doesn't affect me and my wonderful sense of being at peace. At one. In love. In wholeness and completeness. While this space is not sexual it has a similar feeling that I have after a really good orgasm - one that blisses me out. You might call it the afterglow or "the little death".
After the couple left I was noticeably sharper and full of energy. I began talking to my husband and telling him things in an onrush of words that surprised even me. I was SO vitalized! So refreshed. I was joyful. I was excited for the first time in several weeks. A lifestyle party does not do this for me. Even an orgasm does not do this for me. It is an entirely different connection. I would call it a connection to spirit - my spirit and his spirit merging. It was tantric. It is like being born again. It was such a complete recharge of body, mind, feeling, spirit. In fact, I believe the feeling is the result of my blending my own body with my own mind with my own feeling with my own spirit. I think I jumped a timeline today. I am closer to today's time. I've been lost in the future which is not grounded in the NOW and today. So I think I'm bringing that future into the timeline of today. I am finding a grounded path. I have been searching for one. I think I've got a better grip on it. No more fantasizing, but getting more rooted in the here and now.
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9/5/14 Once again I have been soaring into higher places and having a difficult time coming back to land. We had a lifestyle party for seniors last week (Florida Silver Foxes). This type of party brings me close to grounding, because many people come into our home and it is exciting. We have dinner and socialize. This brings me to ground and reminds me that I can't do this journey alone. No matter how wonderful I feel when I am in meditation, and how high I soar into future realms, it is the interaction with other people and the intimacy that we experience together than brings it into the hear and now and makes life more solid and real. It is difficult to maintain interest though in sex as sex is commonly understood, because my energies are out beyond the physical. I have integrated the higher planes into my life so well that the physical is lagging behind, not so important any more. But I do enjoy it when it happens. Sex alone, physically speaking, is kind of empty and meaningless to me. What keeps me continually involved in the lifestyle of swinging is the refreshing interaction with people, mentally and emotionally. That seems to round it out for me. Merging physical bodies without that is kind of dead to me. It is difficult to say this to the men I meet in the lifestyle. The fault or credit is mine, no one else's. I don't know how to say it so I'm trying out these words on this blog. I am searching. I have found the perfect experience while giving massage but there is something not right about it. It is one-sided.
This deeper inner level is meaningful when the second person can return the same subtle inner feeling. Then two beings merge into a zone that is beyond anything imaginable. I have had other lifetimes when I was involved with Tantric lovemaking. I have had flashbacks to these times. It is something I am trying to find in this lifestyle, but so far I have been unable to link up with someone who is familiar with what I am doing. It is a natural process, and when this natural process is allowed to go to the peak of its natural cycle, for like everything, there is a cycle involved, then there is fulfillment that is - again - beyond what can be imagined.
I have matured and peaked in the lifestyle of swinging. It has given me so very much. I have grown knowledgeable and wise and elevated through the many people I have worked and played with in sexual parties. Now I have grown beyond them. The lifestyle parties are now seen as immature. Mostly rushing to cram as much as possible into the time allotted. Where once I enjoyed it, I now shy away from it. While I can still play my role when needed, I am increasingly pulling back, not wanting to fulfill someone else's sexual needs. I am seeking the mutuality of consciousness where Kundalini thrives and drinks deeply of the nourishing love and reverence, where Kundalini stirs naturally, without forcing it, and there is a spark, a pizzazz, a lightening zap that starts an inner flow swirling electrons. It produces a visceral response way down deep and all over. It springs to life a new kind of energy that I don't feel very often. In fact rarely. Maybe the last time was another life? I don't know why I am looking for this in the lifestyle, but I continue to hope. Most people don't understand my words. I want to remain still and in a sacred mental space with someone until I get a response. I know if I remain silent and still enough and the other person also remains silent and still enough, a natural rhythm will take over. Usually I start out silent and still but the man's need and rhythm takes over which leads us into the sexual act and I remain stulted. As a woman I want to please so I play out the role. Why don't men follow MY lead? I have followed theirs for many centuries. I wish there were more people trained in white tantra. Red tantra is sexual. White tantra is spiritual and brings all seven levels into alignment. I know I am from the future. I have come back to lead the way to higher ground. It is difficult. Sigh. But I have both feet on the ground (finally)! And I am watching this new phase in me unfold. In a way it is kind of exciting.
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8/16/14 I have not forgotten Anakosha! Thank you for your wonderful comments. I love you and am constantly thinking of you - those who read my blog. I check the number of hits every day. I have been spending most of my time lately in my other websites: www.galacticfederation-naplesFL.org and www.worldmeditations.org The celestial realm of advanced civilizations who are coming in their star ships with vast knowledge, intelligence and infinite love. This is native to me and draws me like a magnet. But there is something I read this morning that made me think of Anakosha. I have given up trying to have a massage group of higher consciousness because I found most people did not understand what I was talking about. I just want to say, "There is something BIG to be found if you can get past the focus on sex." (Hint: I said FOCUS on sex, not sex itself. If you can get past the tunnel vision on sex you enter a vaster deeper more profound place.) I confess I have been sorely disappointed. I have enjoyed the swinging lifestyle for many years because my focus was not on sex. The encounters I have had in the swinging lifestyle have elevated me, expanded my perceptions, my consciousness, my tolerance, my sense of self-worth and in so many other ways. I am not the same person I was. But my focus is not on sex. My focus is on the quiet connection in the silence when we are together. Most people are afraid of that.
I have enjoyed a deep and profound something there are not words for, and I wanted to share this deep soul-connection intimacy with others because it is so enriching and universal, not personal. Not ego-driven. There is no possession or controlling of other people when you are in this vast and universal sea of oneness and feel so connected and in love. And it's physical! It can be done with a small group under guidance, but most people who responded to my promotion were not able to rise up to this higher level. Their focus was on sex.
Love has been the chief motivation behind Anakosha from the beginning. Love is bigger than a person. It is an energy that surrounds and interpenetrates the person and all things around him. It's in the air itself. The air is a product of this love on a higher plane. The swinging lifestyle is an ideal focus for universal love to flow downward and into the physical form because people are trying to have open minds about something that used to be totally private and locked behind closed doors. When doors are opened, when hearts are opened, when minds are open, when bodies are opened, then love flows in.
The problem has been that most men seem to have an obsession on sex. Some women too but the majority of men indicate that if there is no sex involved with the massage they aren't interested. That realization was a disappointment to me. But - alas - one moves on. This was a chance for me to move on alone. I gave up the idea of holding a massage group but I have not given up the concept of the higher love. I still host swing parties - the swinging scene is a first step into greater awareness, tolerance and respect, as I said previously. And from there there CAN be a spiraling higher, if one is inclined to do so. I am. I go into ever clearer spaces of greater refinement, appreciation, pleasure, beauty and oneness. The advanced civilizations that have been visiting us from other planes (planets) have so much love and wisdom that teach us just by standing next to them. They are visiting now, again, after many thousands of years in great number. I have created a website to honor them. They are us in a future incarnation. They have been around for millions of years and travel space freely, without fuel. They are our elder brothers and sisters. They can show us so much. Not only in the areas of technology and improving the environment, but also about our deep personal relationships and inner feelings of confusion.
They are showing us that love is the glue that holds everything together, and the ONLY thing that holds us together, and the only solution for our world so bent on destroying it through war. The term "oneness" is used a lot by them. You know what it means. We just don't know how to get there but they are showing us. They are working with us, with you and me. I have aligned with them. This oneness is a little confusing if you have not had some background training in these matters. This talk about celestial visitors and higher ways does not take away from sex and the whole field of swinging, human love and intimate relationships. It enriches us. It rounds it out, fills it in the voids, draws us together, deepens our understanding of how connected we are. And in our swinging encounters we come away feeling bigger, better, higher, more energized and more noble. All the good words that we would love to hear because they ring true.
Sex is not a four-letter word. It is not evil. It is not beastial. It is not dominating, manipulating or degrading or shameful. Sex becomes filled with those negative qualities when a person THINKS that way. If a person changes his thoughts to love, respect, appreciation, sex becomes deeper, better, more pleasing. This is the big shift in consciousness that is coming to all of us in this new age. The world and we on it are in the process of rising up out of the density of the third dimension to the lightness of the fifth dimension. The dirtiness of sex doesn't apply in 5D. Sin, fear, doubt, shame, all of this would not be able to withstand the light and love that prevails on the fifth. We in our world are beginning to experience the separation as negatives fall away and we find ourselves more tolerant and graceful in the face of situations that were once unpleasant. There is a more noble view of intimacy and the body. It is more real.
I receive many new articles of information every day that deepens my understanding of this lightening process of letting go of the old heavy patterns that bog us down in arguments and misunderstandings. I am passing this understanding on by writing about it in my websites. Here is an excerpt from an article that came in this morning. It was written by an ascended master.
"In order to accomplish the move into a higher realm, it is necessary for you to learn the pleasures and satisfactions of being One with others around you, with all living Beings, within and on your planet and beyond. This great leap requires a massive shift in consciousness to the ability to form and enjoy deep psychic connections with others without feeling any fear that you might be compromised by the voluntary resignation from your career as an independent ego.
"This means, of course, that you must be able to be fearless. All ideas about avoiding relationships in order not to 'get hurt' must be re-evaluated in the light of higher realms, where feeling hurt or deceived or misused are not a worry, or even a consideration. Where there is no ego to be bruised, there is no disappointment; there is only acceptance, awareness, and Truth.
This is all about relationships and the close personal connections we have every day with the people in our lives, including our own relationship with ourselves, with our families, with our life partners and with our sex life. This is a concept that goes beyond sex as we practice it and beyond ego. That doesn't mean we don't make love physically, as we always have. But the focus is different. The focus goes far beyond the genitals and orgasm. It is beyond the need to possess or control other people. It is beyond survival mode, and the "me first" mode and it is reached putting the conscious mind into the heart and feeling your way through situations with harmony and respect.
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8/5/14 This week's Time magazine (August 18) has a cover story on low testosterone and the upsurge in plush office spaces called "Low T Centers", meaning low testosterone. I took the time to read this article because I have another story to tell. The article speaks of walking into offices smelling musky with masculinity and well-stocked bars with young attractive female receptionists and posters of well-muscled young athletes on the walls. Aging men walk into this man-cave which bombards him with everything he is missing in his life. Is it any wonder that he pays out the nose for the treatment that will possibly bring back his youth?
The treatment of course draws on the physical world of pills, food, hormones and exercise, whereas my story is that the non-physical plays a more important part than we realize. The physical body is merely the bottom layer of a series of non-physical and invisible energies which is "the Self". Into these invisible layers we store our thoughts and feelings haphazardly and without thinking. All that a person has ever done, both the good and the bad, has been passed up into the higher dimensional realms of his own dynamic and creative Self. His mind (the mental layer), the feelings (emotional layer) and the subconscious (etheric or spiritual layer). These three layers of the Self - mind, feeling and spirit - are three separate dimensions, each one non-physical and invisible to our physical eyes and therefore forgotten. Only the body is visible to us and so only the body is important to us. But the body is disposable. It dies and we get reborn into another body. And another. Whereas the mental, emotional and spiritual bodies are eternal and do not die because they are who we are. Our thoughts, emotions and unresolved issues are part of us. They go with us when we drop the body and move on. They are who we are and what this is reflected in the body we wear.
Every minute of every day and every night when we are sleeping, we are feeding our thoughts, feelings, intentions, desires, visions, dilemmas and confusions into who we are - our invisible bodies that go with us wherever we go. We cannot escape them until we finish them, complete them, resolve them and purify ourselves. The heavy burdens we have stored in our mental, emotional and spiritual bodies are the REAL cause of our aging process. What weighs on us. What we did yesterday, how we thought yesterday, how we dreamed or held onto anger yesterday - this is what produces the final result that shows up in our physical body. This is ancient wisdom, the eternal truth provided by the invisible brotherhood of light, of angels and the company of heaven which the churches have confiscated and hidden from the world's population. These are the mysteries that have been intentionally kept from us. Today this knowledge is coming out. It is seeping out through the cracks of major religions. Watch for it.
Low testosterone, according to the Time article, is a measurement of a living body, limited to ONLY the body. We have no way of measuring what has been stored in the energy bodies beyond our knowledge. Only what is contained in the physical body right now, is measured. Candice Pert, a PhD who worked in the lab all her life, lectures that your body cells are changing by the second. Modern technology measures you for low blood sugar or low testosterone at, say, 1 pm on any given Tuesday, and by 6 pm on that same Tuesday, if measured again, you could have high blood sugar or high testosterone. Why? Because our bodies are not dead pieces of meat. Measurements do not last beyond the few minutes during which we are measured. They are constantly changing. If you are depressed, Dr. Pert says, instead of taking Zoloft, go to Disney World and take a ride on Magic Mountain. You will feel excited and joyful because your body cells will release joy hormones and it won't cost you anything other than a ticket. This is the invisible world that we carry around with us everywhere we go. We have our own cures within. The inner life, if we began to access it through provided instructions, would provide natural remedies for what ails us, including erectile disfunction.
The Time article writes that prescriptions for testosterone sales were $2.4 billion in 2013. It further explains that a doctor's prescription cannot be written unless there is a medical condition associated with it - and aging is not a medical condition. So, in order to accommodate the growing demand of aging men, doctors are now prescribing off-label testosterone for men with borderline low testosterone (T for short). It's a worldwide boom. Canada online has filled millions of prescriptions, and more and more men are bypassing doctors to buy T-boosting supplements.
The worldwide boom in testosterone treatments are limited to treating the physical body, which is the bottom layer of what is actually seven layers of non-physical energy. We are only addressing the four lower layers (bodies or dimensions) because the three upper layers (bodies or dimensions) are already perfect, refined, pure, noble and whole (holy) and do not need fixing. Only the four bottom layers need correcting. Namely the mental, emotional, etheric and physical which is disposable from life to life. Our world mistakenly thinks the hard physical world is all there is and therefore that is all that is addressed. But the physical world is a shadow of the living and vital forces of the dimensions that vibrate above it. If a leg goes bad and all other treatments fail, doctors will cut off the leg without looking to the source of the problem, which is the etheric, mental and emotional storehouse of negative energy which caused the leg to go bad.
The underlying cause of all "disease" including aging is more than energy medicine or alternative/complementary medicine, although there are benefits to be found in these fields. But even alternative/complementary medicines do not address the quality of emotion and thought. The growing erectile problems of aging men are problems caused by a limited belief system - a belief that age is a decaying process. By expanding to a larger quality of life and a greater belief in eternal vitality ever flowing, never stopping, and learning to rely on that flow of living light and love, will do wonders for the health and richness of a person's life. The aging process is one of dying. It is caused by restrictions in both how one thinks and how one feels. Limited thoughts and limited feelings close down on the flow of life. Life is constantly, moment by moment, expanding. If we do not expand with it we begin the dying process. Restrictions means restrictions of the heart and mind by focusing on the small and petty things such as focusing on survival mode and not having enough to pay the bills when there are options all around. Or staying in low self-esteem when there are rich and powerful affirmations and support at every turn. Or staying in lack of confidence when opportunities abound to break out of the narrow confines of one's tiny world. Life CAN be turned around. Not with a "quick-fix" pill from the doctor, although that might help alleviate some of the symptoms it doesn't cure the underlying problem. It might give an immediate erection but it doesn't change the way you feel about love. It is the long-term changes in attitude, i.e., the joy and happiness factor, that will produce long-term changes in health.
Low testosterone is a burgeoning profit-making business because aging men are trying to find the fountain of youth. I am sorry to say that it can't be found in the pill. The growing old, the weighing down, the loss of vitality, virility and flexibility is a condition that has been created by years of past damaging living behavior. The good news is, it can be corrected with a change in behavior that would appear at first glance to be drastic and near impossible to sustain to most men. But if they could stick with it, they would regenerate the physical body and bring a level of joy, peace, love and abundance and freedom into their life that it would be unbelievable. It would be staggering and yet it would be perfectly acceptable and natural to be so happy.
What is the miracle cure that would regenerate an aging body? Not to go back to age 20 or 30, but to FEEL like age 20 or 30. It is priceless knowledge and it is free. The only cost is a few hours a day dedicated to alone time and determination to practice - and the cost of a book or two to follow. Recent studies show so many problems resulting from drugs being administered for low testosterone that lawsuits are beginning to appear in court. Experts are trying to sort out fact from fiction as the science of testosterone therapy is still unknown. And it won't be. Not until and unless the individual addresses his own inner spiritual growth process. He is a spiritual being to begin with and he is a spiritual being all through his life but he doesn't live like a spiritual being which would be an expansive, noble, powerful, fearless person, radiating with health and vitality. Instead most human beings live like a dying person, focused on disease, survival and death. It is this narrow focus that is cutting off the natural life that is flowing through him, that is causing aches and pains, blurry eyes, muffled hearing, loss of spring to the stop, tiredness in the morning, lower back pain, cells mutating into cancer, and male impotency.
It happens to women, too, says the article, but women handle it better. "A nip, a tuck and a tint," where men buy a Vegas condo and a sports car. The article further admits that "women are more intimate with the cycles of life." Ah Ha! A tiny seed of recognition. It is INTIMACY that men are missing the most. Men have difficulties admitting to it for he was raised in the exact opposite: to reject intimacy and tenderness. The male has squandered away something vital through his youthful hound-dog days. Instead of stockpiling energies of positive vibration, such as concern for the more sensitive of the species, he has stockpiled energies of selfishness, greed and the resultant anger and loneliness that goes along with that type of life. Most men, although it was not their fault since they were programmed that way, have ignored and rejected the qualities of the heart out of fear it would make him weak.
It does not change a man into a woman to be heart-based and sensitive. Many heroic men in the history books were muscular, brave and acted from the heart, and capable of loving tenderness when needed. But little boys who are taught to ridicule sensitive people grow into strong men who eventually themselves grow more sensitive and weak with age - if they don't learn and change their love approach. We all leave human wreckage behind us in the wake of our passing when we are careless in thought, word, feeling and action. A wise man does not act that way. But our culture has said "Boys will be boys". It was the way of a young man and this ill behavior was encouraged. Now, today, that aging young man is paying the price. He is older and facing a slow decrepitude of body, mind and spirit. He is looking for a pill instead of looking inside his own heart and into his own thoughts, where vitality is made. What turns stiffness and aging around to joy and abundance is largeness of spirit and concern for others. Expressing forgiveness and appreciation and other qualities of the heart are inner attributes. That's where the turn-around happens. Giving altruistically, from a true desire to help others, is what builds up treasures in heaven which in turn reflects back down into the physical body as health, healing a glow that shines through the physical from beyond. This is the storehouse of vitality that will build up an erection when it comes times to make love. It comes from a different source than the locker-room machismo talk of conquering the girls and picking as many cherries as possible. Bed-post notchers. It does not matter how old a person is, as long as there is breath and a heart pumping, health can be returned to the body. Giving from the heart instead of the pocket book is rule number one.
A little more insight about the bodies I keep talking about. There are three more bodies that lie over on top of the physical body, interpenetrating the physical. One is the etheric body which contains all of the negative or harmful energy which is unfinished, unresolved or un-repaid misbehavior in thought, word and deed ever done in the past. Everything bad we've ever done to harm another must be cleansed and gotten rid of and can be done by practicing certain disciplines. Cleansing procedures, breath work, prayer work, and more can be found in appropriate books.
Body No. 2 is the mental body and lives in a mental dimension. It interpenetrates the etheric body and the physical body. It contains all the thoughts and intentions of this life from birth, both the good and the bad. At death, anything unfinished is put into the etheric body and carried forward to the next life to resolve, while everything good goes up into what is called the "causal body" and becomes the "treasures of heaven". As the mental body grows older and more cynical, its contents register on the physical body as decay, dragging it down.
Body No. 3 is the emotional body which is larger than the previous three and interpenetrates all three. It contains all the feelings and emotions of this life from birth - happy things and unhappy things. All the fears, guilt, shame, trauma - the negatives - must be cleansed or released or they are carried forward into the next life. Meanwhile, the body registers whatever is carried around in the feelings. Often the bad feelings outweigh the good and the body simply grows old and dies from sheer loneliness and heartache from being shut off.
The ancient mystery schools - older than the planet itself - are the wisdom of the ages that dictate the proper practices to do on a daily basis to uplift our spirits, and to maintain a more positive life and lifestyle. The practices cleanse the aura, the chakras, the mind, feelings and peel away the astral darkness that covers us in the invisible fields that we carry around with us without knowing. Ignorance of how the spirit lives and functions while in the physical brings disease and decay. When we learn how to keep the body, mind and spirit clean, we keep it vital, fresh and flowing pure. It is the great work of life. It is why we are here: to learn how to love. A body CAN be renewed and replenished to feel youthful and disease-free. We CAN be quick of step again because, just as decrepitude comes from negative thinking, feeling, intending and acting, so does youth and vitality come from positive thinking, feeling, intending and acting. But it requires a change in lifestyle. There is hope for old men yet!
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7/31/14 This morning I was once more reminded of how people are tricked into so easily ruining their lives through what they think is a "falling in love" scenario when it is simply a beautiful passing warming wonderful heart-soul-mind-body connection with someone. It is good and natural and wholesome to have such a connection but it is not meant to be a "falling in love" connection which has repercussions. Don't let a beautiful connection with someone cut you off from your family, friends, children, financial arrangements and home because they are your responsibility. You can't divorce them spiritually with a piece of paper from the county courthouse. There will be damage.
The message, is don't fall in love. Don't FALL in love. Don't let your attention fall down to the naval chakra which is where the emotional hooks are cemented and established from one person to another. Lift your love upward and keep it at a high place and free. Enjoy the sunset, the walks on the beach, the talks by the fire, the romantic settings. Dream, yes, but remember your responsibilities to all that you have created. Then when you make love which involves your genitals, you can snap back to the high place again. Let it go and walk away a free agent spiritually and emotionally.
People make the mistake of falling downward to the naval, sexual and genital chakras where they become confused over where their responsibility lies. From the emotional (naval) chakra you tie into your lovers extended family and life on into the past forever. And your lover ties into your extended family and former lives. You can't help but become confused. If you will stay in the heart and higher, you will retain some clarity. This requires keeping your attention on the big picture. Keep your attention in your heart and head. Not your heart and lower head but your heart and your brain-head.
Watch out for your emotions. They will change. Don't fall in love, meaning don't let your attention fall down in the body to the lower regions. Love is an uplifting sensation like bubbles in a glass of champagne. Love is not a falling sensation. If you are feeling a falling sensation, then you are trapped. Get away from that person as fast as you can. Love is not a narrowing sensation to only that one person. Love brings a sense of freedom. A sense of joy and a sense of wanting to shout to the whole world how wonderful you feel. Love does not give you a feeling of "let's find a dark corner and get it on." That is a narrowing sensation. Be aware. Watch your own feelings. This advice is not given to people. It is time to grow up and be aware that love is not sex. Love is not wanting to marry someone. Love is not wanting to have an affair. Love does not crowd you into a corner to choose or hide or figure out how to get away with something. Do you understand? It takes being on alert to understand what this means.
When you cut out everyone else in favor of the one with whom you THINK you are falling in love, you are causing damage. Remember: love expands, it doesn't fall. If you "fall in love" you are no longer in love. You are trapped. We use the word "infatuation". We use the word "hooked". She's hooked on him or he's hooked on her. Love doesn't hook you, emotions hook you. Everything is energy. Love is a universal energy of oneness. When we remain in the universal love energy everything goes smoothly, happily, joyfully, freely, no guilt, shame or remorse. When we fall into other energies that we ourselves create, or that we pick up from other people, we leave all that happiness behind. It can happen in an instant if you are not aware. Love is an energy that is free. Hate is an energy that is not free. Jealousy is an energy that is not free. Love is the only energy that is pure and human beings CAN access it. We are supposed to tap it and use it in our daily life. Learn how to tap into love energy and not get hooked into other energies caused often by other people. Don't get "hooked".
Don't let yourself descend down to the "hooking" zone which is in the gut, the solar plexus, the genitals. Love remains in the heart and it expands UP. Love is all there is but people can misqualify it with lesser thoughts and feelings. We all have misqualified energy that we have created, which is less than love. We can get rid of that by learning how to stay in love and let the old bad energy dry up into dust and float away. The point is, if you are zeroing in on only one person and you are thinking of leaving your husband or your wife for this other person, don't act yet. Instead, sit down and talk to your husband or your wife and tell them you need to be with this person for a short period of time because this person has something you need (you can use the word want if you like) but it's not going to be forever. This is something that is happening NOW. Don't make the mistake of cutting off one person and family and substituting another person and family through the entrapment of marriage or relationship. Be free.
You remain free by articulating, explaining that you don't want a commitment from either one. You want to remain free. That is your right to be free mentall, emotionally and spiritually. However, if you have a wife or husband, then you have practical obligations. You must honor them if you want to do this the right way.
Go to this other person with whom you want to spend time and tell this person that you want to spend time with him or her but without a commitment. It is not permanent. Repeat, not permanent. When you make a decision to go "permanent" when you are dizzy in infatuation and you think you have "fallen in love", don't. You will be making the biggest mistake of your life. It is possible after you have processed through the levels you need to process through, that life will be different. But do it right, not wrong.
I am being stimulated to write this because of yet another sad story I heard this morning. A woman friend and her husband had an open relationship. The woman "fell in love" and left her husband and married the new man. The new husband wanted a monogamous life with her. In the heat of the affair she didn't care. It was only afterwards that she realized what she had done but it was too late. With her ex she had a beautiful life. It was happy and they had many friends, both separately and together. Their life was good together. They were both givers and they each gave permission to the other to have affairs. But she became trapped by a man emotionally and she lived with him for 25 years. We do not know the quality of her life but she disappeared off the map and her many friends missed her. Only today did we hear from her. She was about to get a divorce at age 57 when her husband had an auto accident and died in the crash.
It is always the cheating and the resultant guilt that pulls people down. It makes people choose between one person and another. Why not be open and expand and allow and give permission to your mate to do the same? This is the next step beyond monogamy. When you are "hot" for someone, you might not want to take the time out to ask yourself if this is what YOU want, or are you being drawn in by the other person? If you don't know yourself well enough you can be pulled in by another person's wants. You think it's your own feeling but we are all one underneath. You can become very confused if you do not know yourself. When an attraction comes over you, take a step back and ask yourself, Do you REALLY wants this? Often a passing attraction is someone else's desire, not yours. There are a lot of "wants" floating around in the atmosphere. It is important to have a strong attachment to your own mind and agenda.
Know what you want. If you know that you truly want to be with this person, then be open and honest and talk to BOTH of them. Make sure that neither one of them is asking you to leave the other one. Be your own person and make your own decisions. It is not fair for someone to pressure you to choose. Life is happy and joyful when you are free to make your own decisions. But make the right decisions. If you have made obligations to others and you have a family, you are not free to make autonomous decisions any longer. You must consult with them. Be open and honest and you will find yourself becoming freer and freer.
One of the problems with our evolving culture is is the institution of marriage and the complex set of expectations and rules surrounding it. By accepting monogamy through marriage or a committed relationship you make a promise not to break those traditions. If you desire to break free of monogamy or a committed relationship WITHOUT problems kicking back at you, you must begin talking, explaining, communicating and planning openly, with the others involved if possible. Do it right.
The growing idea of polyamory - being free to love as many people as you want to - is a step in the right direction but if you have commitments, then you have to do your homework. I know people who are married and involved in swinging or polyamorous affairs without telling their spouses. There is a lot of hiding and pretending going on in these relationships. They are in effect leading double lives. They are cheating. This is not said in judgment, but it is intelligent advice. Make your life easier by communicating your truth. Get free sooner rather than later. Otherwise you will face a harsher backlash. The longer you put it off the more accumulated feelings of betrayal, hurt and anger build up for an explosive backlash. You do not want this. It is better to start your communication now about what you truly feel, what you truly want, and ask how can we make this so?
It is not fair to the other people in your life to run around loving everybody you want without being accountable for what you are doing. You must be responsible. If you have a husband at home and children still in your care, you are hurting them. It is not good enough that they don't know. They DO know underneath in subconscious zones. Life is one. We are all connected. We know when someone is not being honest, and karma is a bitch. It does come back on us. Everything we do registers on the atoms and electrons of our own electromagnetic field, which passes outward into the air of the those people who live around us. They pick up information "through the air" as some would say. They "just know". Any secret we carry around with us is not secret. The information is out there on the wind.
If there is a point to this message other than a desire to vent over a story I just heard, it is to remind the reader who happens onto this site that true love is expansive and free. Emotional involvements pull you down to worrying over who will find out and how to meet in secret and on and on into the twilight zone of confusion. True love is happily free of negativity. True love does not fall down into the genitals or the lower part of the body which is the animal nature of a human being. We are meant to lift our animal natures up to become one with our spiritual natures. It is not what we do, it is the quality of how we do it that matters and influences our moods. Do we do it in shame, guilt and worry? Or do we engage in our affair freely, with joy, love and soaring happiness? Universal love is anchored in the heart. It comes down from above your head from your higher self in a never-ending flow of love and light and goodness. And it is anchored in your heart which is your permanent identity which lives through this life and has lived through countless other lives in the past, and will continue to live beyond this life.
You are an eternal being anchored in your physical body in your heart. It is important to connect with this love because it keeps you free from falling into the hands of dangerous situations, meaning your attention falls away from your own best interest and is pulled away to support someone else's interest. Be aware of "falling in love".
I have heard so much about open relationships and polyamory and I myself have been involved in swinging. None of them is the answer to a predicament. You, the individual, needs to be honest with yourself and, secondly, honest with all the other people in your immediate family of close friends. You can't do this if you forget who you are and have been pulled away from who you are at the basic level. Be true to yourself and you will be true to all the other people in your life. You have an obligation to your Self - the you who is flowing through your heart every moment of the day and night without stopping. That's the only place you will know what is true for you. Close your eyes for a few minutes and stop all thoughts. Just be. Just feel. Just be still.
The story I heard this morning has only reminded me (again) of just how important this lesson is. So many lives are ruined because of FALLING in love instead of RISING UP in love and expanding in love. You can raise your whole life, family, friends, abundance, creativity, by being in love with life including the people in your life. Let life choose the people who cross your path. You can be intimate with more than one person but don't let them pull you down and demand that you make a choice between "him or me". Be accountable, be responsible, but remain free within yourself and you do that by being honest. Remember who you are.
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7/25/14 It is more and more difficult to confine my attention to sexual discussions because my consciousness is expanding to take in the greater whole. Meaning there is so much more to see, feel, know that my awareness feels "pinched" to focus on sex as I knew it "yesterday". I keep trying to focus on the issues that I have historically been focused on, such as how to move out of jealousy into the joy of giving your mate permission, and how to move out of guilty feelings over sex into the larger concept of love, beauty and grace of the human body, but it is going over the same ground. It's too old for me. Those pages have already been written. They are posted on this website.
It's so old and boring going over the same things day after day. The information is old. What I know is old. It's history. Our lives feel old. Our bodies feel old, our lives are depressing because we carry around old energy. We keep repeating ourselves because of yesterday's energy. We keep re-breathing yesterday's motions and we struggle for fresh air, new inspiration, brighter futures. It's time to move on.
This perspective leads me to write we need some new air, some new moisture, some new ideas, new inspiration and stop re-cycling yesterday. How? How do we stop mimicking ourselves and do the same thing every day and drag around the chains of the past into each bright new day? By stepping outside of the old box and trying something totally new. This is why I love the swinging lifestyle. Because it is the only avenue I know where I can touch people with open-minded freedom. And not the same people either. Monogamy gives us permission to be free and open with one person, but in swinging we get a variety of opportunities to experience new encounters. It is not sex. It is connection with newness, differences. We are provided with changes in how we do things and we are challenged.
I love to take the time to massage someone and wish with all my heart that someone would massage me with the same quality that I give. I keep returning to the concept of group massage because it is an opportunity for advancement, enlargement, growth, however you want to call it. It is a whole-person event, not limited to sex. The next time you have the opportunity to massage someone, put your hands on them in a different way. Put your hands flat on their skin and feel your palms on their flesh. Just hold them there for a minute. You are now breathing in new fresh air, as long as you hold your hands on their skin.
Now open the top of your head and visualize - picture, imagine, focus your attention on - way up above your head into the sky. Imagine the sun. Go into the sun while you have your hands on their skin. Don't move your hands. Stay still and make this connection first. Feel the sun shining down on you, sending its life-giving rays down through your crown, down into your brain and right on through to your neck and out both shoulders and down both airms and out your palms of your hands into this person on the table. This person is a grounding object for you. The energy is being drawn from the sun above you because this person is a magnet. She or he is in a receiving mode, or should be, as long as they are the one on the table. They have gone still and silent and become receptive. That makes them a magnet. You are now acting as a conduit, like a wire through which flows electricity.
Now put your attention into the center of the Earth. Picture a sun in the center of the Earth, a firey ball of light which is the heart of Mother Earth. Imagine it, visualize it,put your attention on it and allow the yourself to merge with it. You have to be still to feel the subtle blend of energy - your energy and the eaerth's energy. Your heart with the Earth's heart. The sun's energy with you and with the Earth. The Earth is the deepest ground you can find on the planet. There is nothing deeper or more grounded and therefore more complete for you. The center of Earth will draw even MORE light and love and goodness from the sun, as you make this wholesome connection. You will begin to feel the subtle movement as these two connections merge and begin to flow through you. It is a good nourishing energy. It feels good. The Earth is another body, just like yours, that needs the sun's energies in order to live and grow.
Now slowly move your hands over the person on the table. Let this energy take over for you. You will experience a spontaneous flow to your hands. Let them go where they will. You will be breathing in from the sun through you and the person on the table and down to the sun at the center of the Earth, and back up again on the exhale. But don't bother thinking about it. Be free to enjoy the feelings this brings. It is a melding experience, a melting event, where you, the person on the table, the sun, the Earth, are all connecting. The key is the flow. We are so often cut off and separated from our environment and other people that we don't often get to feel the unity that underlies all of life. Enjoy it. There is a flow of energy that takes over and happens automatically once you make the connection with your consciousnes. Consciousness is the key. Become consciousof the subtle peace that takes over.
The sun is your Godfather parent and the Earth is your Godmother parent, and you are their child who draws energy from both of your spiritual parents. Breathe fresh air in from your father, the sun, and from your mother, the earth, and allow these energies to simply BE in you together as one. It is like a waking meditation. An alive meditation, and all the while your hands and roaming over this person on the table, and they are feeling it too. Relax, allow, you don't have to work at this. It's just the opposite of work. It is pleasure. It is why I get so much pleasure out of massaging people. I just wish there would be some others who would massage me with this same quality. You can do this alone, for yourself, as well, by placing your hands on your own skin, all over, wherever you can reach. But it's more fun to do it with others.
You are connecting your masculine and feminine. This translates into a combination - a mixture or blend - of excitement from Father Sun and peace from Mother Earth. Father Sun's energies are spiritual, male and on fire with inspiration, advancement, transformation and creativity. Father Sun is from the future and way ahead of us mere mortals. Father Sun can see further than we can see, and can guide us to our future selves if we allow it.
Mother Earth's energies are female, nourishing, loving, peaceful, accepting and deeply humbling. Mother Earth holds us in her arms and feels the pain just as we do. But she is our Mother in matter. She is physical like us but she is a spiritual being like us. She sees further, feels deeper and loves wider. She helps us to be nourishing, peaceful, humble and accepting of ourselves, warts and all, and to love ourselves regardless.
Between the sun's energies and the earth's energies we are connecting with our own masculine and feminine energies within us. These are spiritual forces, not physical. With this connection we - and the person on the table through us - feel a strange and unusual combination of excitement from Father Sun who is male, and a peaceful loving nourishment from Mother Earth. Allow the Mother to be dominant. Don't turn it sexual for the remainder of the massage. You can make love afterwards if there is mutual consent. But the whole point of the massage is to cover the whole body. If you get too excited and are in danger of turning it sexual, remember the feminine side. Remember the peace and nourishment side of life and allow that to be dominant for as long as the massage continues.
Now, if you become really good at this balancing act, you will find that the trickle of turn-on excitement adds to the mix in a sensual way and spices it up. But do not turn it sexual. Keep that balance. Keep it on the edge. Keep it a whole-body massage - fingers, toes, soles, hair, face, everything all over. You can include the outer genitals but don't linger on them. They are part of the body too.
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7/15/14 So much going on, no time to write into my blog. Every day I am getting new messages. Things are changing, evolving fast. I have to step back often. I spend at least an hour a day, sometimes more, to sit very still and connect and then I am barraged with all sorts of insights and awareness.
The first thing I want to say is, the Ascended Master Overlighting Massage, which is a page I posted a couple of weeks ago on this site, has brought me in contact with a beautiful individual who is totally compatible to this concept of HANDS ON connection. So now I am once more putting out a call for anyone within driving distance of Naples who might be interested in grounding their energies via hands-on massage to contact me. This is not a sexual massage. An in-person meeting is important to establish a connection. It is the first step. I do not expect many people to follow up on this. It will be a rare individual who will find this of interest.
Secondly, I want to talk to women. This is private for women only. I want to tell women that there is a huge difference in the male body vs. your female body. There are many men who have a feminine side and there are many men who are gay, but the fact that they have a male body puts them in a different category that you. I want to remind everyone, men included, that you have four bodies or four levels or four aspects to who you are. Each aspect is different. You have a mind, you have feelings, you have soul (subconscious past lives) and you have a physical body. These four aspects are usually separate and not aligned with the other three. When all four levels are aligned you are so comfortable inside your skin that you feel blissful.
So a man can be feminine in his feelings, in his mind and in his soul (subconscious past lives) but if he is inhabiting a male body then he's probably confused. His body is different from a female body and he may not understand why. The two genders were created for different reasons. One to be outward-oriented to interact with the outside world and be the movers and shakers to build and create. The other, the female was made to nurture, bear children, be mothers and lovers. There are women who are male in feelings, in mind and in soul (subconscious) but inhabiting a female body and probably not comfortable in it. Souls switching from life to life from being in a male body to being in a female body and vice versa does happen when a male has become TOO male, or a female has become TOO female. Then the oversoul will put that person into the opposite gender body for a lifetime to help them balance. Confusion over being born into the wrong body is the result of such a switch. They probably lived many lifetimes in the other gender and now they are in the opposite gender. The purpose is to bring balance to the soul, to learn by living-in what it's like being a man, or being a woman. The advice is to bite the bullet and not only accept this body but love this body. Learn the qualities that this body has to offer you. It is a beautiful body (if only you knew!) and it has profound secrets to share with you if only you would love it and admire it and appreciate it.
This advice goes for everyone, whether they feel in the wrong body or not. Each gender manifests differently but it is up to the intelligence (spirit) living in the body to decide how it will play the game out - hatefully, bitterly, resentfully or lovingly. People are always trying to merge and meld the male and female bodies together, saying there is no difference between them. They say that we are all the same underneath. They do not want to recognize that men and women are different on ALL levels, not just the physical. Where they are the same is at the spiritual level, the divine immortal level, which is very real. Not only real but the ONLY real there is. Everything else - mind, feeling, subconscious and physical, is temporary.
These four aspects in each person are often not aligned or in agreement with each other. The mind can be running on a totally different track than the feelings. And the body can be doing totally different acts than the mind wants to or the feeling wants to. And unknown forces "push" people to do things they don't want to do, which comes from past life unresolved issues needing resolution (karma). Unresolved past life issues will continue to pop up over and over until the issues are faced head-on, wrestled with, accepted, dealt with, loved and forgiven. Then it won't pop up any more after that. So deal with your issues.
The modern advice to bring "mind, body and feelings" together refers to this, because mind, body and feelings are usually not on the same page with each other. We can meld mind, feelings, subconscious (soul) and physical together easily when there is love. Take a moment before sex and think "love" into your mind, feelings and breathe deep into your subconscious. Your body will follow along. Bring love into the sex act.
A man and woman can have a delightful melding experience when they are BOTH operating, thinking, feeling, and acting in the love mode. Otherwise there is a struggle and a challenge and they run hot and cold because they miss the mark. They are not in alignment with their own mind, feelings, subconsious and physical. We must recognize the difference between these four aspects. When we do recognize the different levels, we can recognize that there IS a difference between men's minds vs. women's minds, and between men's feelings and women's feelings, which dictate how they play the game. Men and women play the game of life differently.
This finishes the preamble. Now here is what I REALLY want to say, and it's for women only.
Women, what you feel, what you dream, what you know, what is important to you, the men do not have that. It is something built into the female body. The men WANT it but they can't have it. They are seeking the feminine through you. They feel lost without it. It is a feminine connection they are missing, which they don't have because they are in a male body which was created for a different purpose. There is a reason they as a soul are inhabiting a male body. Their role is different. They have the feminine within them but most men do not understand what that means or how to get it. So most men are looking for the feminine outside of themselves. They look to other people to provide it. They look to women, or perhaps they look to their same gender and are labeled homosexual. But they look for it outside of themselves and that translates into sex. But they are also looking for feminine mentality and feminine emotions. The male body needs help in finding their feminine feeling and feminine connection. They don't need sex as much as they need love. Sex provides the orgasm but they need more than an orgasm. They don't need to be catered to or cooked for or their laundry picked up after them or the million other things wives and girlfriends do for their men, as much as they need to find the intimacy in their life. They are missing the vulnerability. The love connection. The acceptance connection.
You can mirror back to him what the feminine energy is by BEING feminine in your actions and reactions, instead of being defensive, mean, angry, or however you deny your beautiful and divine feminine self. The man needs to be shown what the feminine energy is so he can find it and copy it in himself, by himself, for himself. He needs this intimate connection so desperately. I have seen it in so many different forms. They are so desparate that they come across as pushy. They do not realize they are pushing you away. They are crying to be heard, to be accepted, to be understood, to be listened to, to be held like a child, to be mothered. They won't admit that. That is why I'm telling you. They have bamboozled the women into thinking they are he-men and strong and don't need any of that feminine stuff, when in actuality they are hungry for it. They are seeking the love within themselves. They are yearning for the other half of themselves and don't know where or how to find it.
Those men on the spiritual path have picked up the trail and are following the inner path. They are finding the love within themselves which is a higher love than the one they have through sex or relationship. The love they have with their own inner soul is more complete and more satisfying and more humbling. But the culture has told men that they "need sex" and they should "go and have sex" and that's the only way they know how to get relief from the maleness they feel pushing outward, outward, ever outward, from inside. Through sex and orgasm.
Women, it is time to stop being on the defensive from this that comes from men. It is time to stop running away. Stop feeling as if you must run from men or defend against what you think they want. It's all surface stuff. They want the inner feminine. Realize how much power you have inside your feminine body. Understand they want what you seemingly have and they don't understand. It is not so much the sex they want (they won't admit that) but the femininity. Since they don't have femininity in themselves, they want YOU, the woman. Many men control their women in order to keep the feminine by their side. They think they can have the intimate connection by possessing their gal. Not true. They can't.
Stop the game of being chased. Stop retaliating. Some women get so angry at men that they simply shut down and shut off. What a waste. Stop being chased and stop being defensive. You, the woman, have more power than the man in your life no matter how demure or shy you are, because you have a connection that he doesn't have. He COULD have it, but he is looking for it in you and in all the wrong places. Give him what he REALLY needs. How?
What to do and how to do it? Switch your consciousness from being defensive to neutral. Not aggressive, not assertive, not demanding and not commanding. But neutral. It is in the neutral position that you find your power. It's in the center. It is the pole in the center. Yoga teaches that you have a pranic tube that runs from above you down through the crown of your head down your spine and is anchored to the earth. Imagine that tube as a tube of light, like a neon light, bright as the sun. That is your center power. You find it inside of yourself. Running away from some pushy guy is not going to give you your power back. Stop and stand your ground and go into your pranic tube of light which is centered and neutral within, running from above your head to below your feet in the earth.
When you are in neutral, which is what people do when they meditate, you are automatically going into your inner self. You have to. When you stand still in the face of something you don't like or you're just tired of seeing it all the time, stand still, sit down, go neutral, go inside to the light. From that position you will connect with love because it's love that is coming down from your higher self above your head. You will know what to do because you are in love. No striking out. No angry words. No defensive complaining of headaches. No submitting to his needs. No humbling yourself before him. No apologies for doing "wrong". This is sacred territory you are entering - inside yourself. Going inside means not the physical organs, but the energy of the light that you are, the feeling of who you are, the presence of who you are which is an immortal presence because you - the light inside - is a river of life that flows as long as you have a body. And you have lived in many bodies before this one. You have jumped from body to body down through history. In time you will remember.
Being chased keeps you outside of yourself in the outer world, running, always running. Stop! Stop and face yourself, face your power, face your strength, face your truth. What is your truth? Know it. Handle it. Become it. Breathe it. Make it real. Become the dominant force in every encounter with a man - or a woman. The dominant underlying force is not a force at all. It is acceptance, it is love. It is being in touch. It is being whole. By doing this you are not aggressive, not hard, not pushing him away but soft like cotton, and yet you are totally and absolutely in control underneath because underneath is love. Universal love. And love is the greatest power in the universe. It is what holds everything together. Did it fall apart? Apply the glue of love and see what happens. Apply it on all four levels. It is not WHAT you do, it is how you do it, the quality of how you do it. So do it with love.
Most men would be appalled if they knew that women perceive them as pushy. Most men don't want to push their women but women expect them to be the dominant power and so they prepare for it and anticipate it. Stop expecting dominance from a man, stop expecting it from a man and stop preparing for it. Instead be all that you are centered in your feminine love and light. Women for ages have been yielding, surrendering, bowing low to men since forever. It's their programming but it's an old, obsolete program that has run out of time. It no longer works. This is not going to shift automatically. You are going to have to make the effort to shift yourself. Do the homework.
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6/30/14 More insight into the question about "naughty" (in the Q&A). Men may think it's cute and a joke but women are trying to get away from the vibrations of "naughty" and "bad". It's a downward direction. Female bodies have had enough of that. The female bodies have the genetics of all female bodies that have ever lived on the planet. They have the abusive history stored inside their genes. Female bodies have been subjected to bad stuff, abuse, murder, torture and more for eons. This is the real bad stuff, not pretend, and women don't think it's cute at all. They don't want to go there.
They may go along with it to please their man to keep him from straying, because that's what women do. But deep down inside they feel the degradation. They don't like it. It brings up very bad feelings. It's visceral, not conscious. It doesn't go through the conscious mind, although there may be dark visions that flash with a shudder. I've had them. These are unresolved traumas stored in the etheric body called the soul - the one that lives on from lifetime to lifetime, from body to body, carrying everything with it until it is faced, dealt with, resolved and dissolved.
So, guys, consider what you're doing when you put a collar on her and whip her because it's "cute". If it turns her on and lights her up, her body is obeying what its genes tell her to obey. It has been programmed to obey. It's time to get over the dominance of evil, bad and naughty stuff because the world is turning away from the dark side and heading off into the light while we still walk on the ground here. The dark/abusive/torture/chain stuff is going to be left behind. It is the age of enlightenment. The spirit is coming into the play now and the spirit plays the "up" game. The "up" game evolves us to betterment and beyond what we formerly were.
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6/27/14 It has been a month since writing in my blog. I check the number of hits every day and see that there are people checking in with this website. I've been away for two weeks on vacation with three sisters and my perspective keeps changing. But even so, underneath it all the same path keeps emerging strong and solid. I am integrating sex and spirituality. I cannot leave sex out of my journey, and I cannot leave spirituality out either. They are dovetailing. I just need to find the words. I failed to bring it about in group massage.
Tantra does not work for me because I haven't been to school to become "certified" in Tantra. I haven't learned it from anyone else in this lifetime or embodiment. But I know it anyway and use it quietly, silently, within myself, whenever I make love. I don't need to tell anyone about it. Today while making love with my husband I felt him inside me going into my etheric body. This was an unusual experience. It felt him moving past the physical and carressing every cell in my body. Feeling is spirituality awakening. Find some new feelings to move you past former places. I felt this morning that every cell was being stroked by loving hands. I felt them physically, or etherically you could say. I was being massaged from the inside. Not just in the genital region, but all over. In my arms, hands, torso and brain. Everywhere. When I suddenly thought of him, I began what I often do - I directed a line of light to his prostate and imagined his prostate swirling with sparkling golden light. Light is love. Love is light. They are synonymous. Then I brought the light up, step by step, through the chakras which are portals or centers where spirit enters the body. I spent time focusing the light in each chakra, holding the light there. By the time I reached his head, the pineal gland, he was cumming. I could feel him.
Now I didn't learn from anyone how to do this. It was a past life memory. I learned it somewhere, some other time. You too have knowledge and talents within you. You do not need a teacher. You need only to become aware of the hidden spiritual processes that you already have, that are there at your disposal. Experiment with them. Awakening is a consciously directed experimentation on yourself. You have power in your mind and in your heart. The heart and the mind working together is light (mind) and heart (love). Bring them together.
My journey is to articulate and name the process. I am putting these feelings into words. Everyone has them but our culture demands we don't listen to ourselves but listen to "authorities". Stop listening to authorities and other people. Start listening to yourself and your own inner feelings, your own inner perceptions, your own knowledge, for you DO have knowledge. You have more knowledge from former lifetimes than you can possibly use in this one lifetime. But you can draw on it. You have volumes and volumes of information that is your own personal library of skills and talents stored within your heart. That is why your heart is wiser than your mind. The feeling of knowing that all is well, and that love really does rule your life is stored there and you can access that when you start lifting yourself above the depressed and stressed human world of downward motion.
I am writing about integrating spirituality into the sexual life or, if you don't do sex any more, into the physical life. Most people look "down" for sex. I look "up" for sex. When I am in bed with someone for lovemaking purposes, and when I cum I pull it "up". It's all about feeling. Lift the feeling "up". Lust is restricted to the "down" feeling. It's restricted to the physical. It's dense and heavy so you feel it burning you. It consumes you. Most people fall in love with that feeling. But on the other hand swinging introduces freedom. A sense of freedom is a RELEASE from the physical body, and a RELEASE from the limitations of our culture. It is not physical. It is spiritual. What is released? The spirit. The soul. YOU! Notice the next time you feel free and exhilarated. Integrating freedom into physical sex and lust doesn't take away the lust feeling, it lightens it and expands it and refines it so you feel as if you are floating in a sea of expansive pleasure. You lift off. Without the "lift" the lusty cum remains in a heavy state and does not produce a high feeling after. Watch for the high feeling after. Sometimes people are angry after sex and engage in arguments over who did what and laying blame. It's because the human condition is 100% depressed vs. the 100% spiritual. Try the "lift" process in any way you can. Repeat the words, love, gratitude, thank you, I love you. Use uplifting beautiufl words. The best one are "I love you!" saying them silently if necessary. Lift yourself up while making sex.
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6/24/14 Greetings to all my friends in the lifestyle of sexual sharing.. Fun and pleasure to you. Keep on having fun please. Don't let the word "spirituality" dampen you. Spirit is the lighter side of you. To access spirituality brings joy, relief, release and freedom to explore and expand beyond limits imposed by mankind. In the world of sexual sharing (or swinging) we have been weaving together two very profound forces, namely sexuality and spirituality.
You don't hear spirituality discussed much in the swinging lifestyle, because a lot of people associate it with religion, but that's not true. Your spirit is your sense of who you are. We discover a lot about ourselves in sex. We don't just play with sex in our swinging lifestyle; we play with our spirituality too. We have been joining our sex and spirituality without realizing it. We in the lifestyle of swingiing are becoming enlightened because we are growing in understanding of who we REALLY are.
Sex relates to the physical part of us and is limited to the body. Spirituality is not limited to the body. It is our spirit which flows like electricity through our body to beat our hearts and breaths our breath and feel our feelings and think our thoughts. And when the body dies it lives on afterward. When we play at sex with others beyond our mate at home (which falls into a rut) we explore different sensations. We learn about ourselves. In so doing we grow in understanding. We are becoming enlightened. Now I am putting new words to these wonderful fun times we enjoy in swinging. Our happiness and sense of freedom we have is proof that we are becoming more spiritual. Spirituality is very much a part of the swinging lifestyle.
Before entering the swinging lifestyle, sex and spirituality are separate for most people. But as a couple continues to play in the lifestyle they begin to merge their spiritual understanding into the fabric of their life. A new consciousness begins to unfold and insight twinkles and sparkles and new discussions take place. If they can work through the stumbling blocks of old boundaries and old belief systems, the couples grows in personal power, each of them, and in confidence, self esteem, and loving kindness for others. They grow spiritually. Swinging is a spiritual path.
There is a sex and spirit movement gathering momentum in the outer world culture, in what we call the "straight" world, but OUR lifestyle is different. We in our lifestyle already know on a cellular level that our sex is healthy and good, so we don't have a "bad" to fight against and try to overcome. At least not as much. But while we may feel this goodness and this happiness and freedom on a cell level (soul level) we don't always know it on the mental level. Our minds are often separate from our heart and other visceral organs. Our gut instinct (cellular, soul) is often in opposition to what we've been taught is "right".
Often our heart thinks one way and our minds think another, which can cause conflict within. But increasingly we are hearing the phrase, "Follow your heart." Or "Follow your bliss." And that's what swingers are doing. They are enjoying their sexual encounters because. There is happiness and bliss in it, once the bugs have been worked out. Everybody has a few issues to work out, but if they stick with it they will soon experience what I calll "the glow". They know they are on the right course. It's an inner knowing. Sexuality and spirituality are coming together. The day will come, if they continue, when they finally merge and life takes on a healthy glow which never leaves. There is something beautiful and sacred about their sexuality and they don't abuse it - they enjoy it. And there is something sensual about their spirituality. I want to tell you a story.
One day in our early swinging days, we had another couple over for drinks and hot tub. Her husband and I had gone to the kitchen for drinks. My husband and Erica were in the hot tub playing around in the darkness. No lights on. We arrived just as Erica reached the big O and I saw her light up like a Christmas tree. She let out a low moan at the same time. I was amazed to see her whole nervous system light up starting with an explosion in her pelvic region and spread instantaneously to all parts of her body at once. She looked like a Christmas tree with many tiny intricate branches quivering and sparkling with golden light. I bowed my head automatically and felt emotion well up within me. I was struck by the holiness of it. And then the vision faded and she was once more just a woman. There is something very sacred about sex.
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5/27/14 - After my blog of 5/6/14, elevating into Tantra, I have continued to unfold new thought. It is difficult to hang onto a solid thought these days, since everything is shifting to a more expanded space. It feels to me as if infinity is moving into my mind but I am being told to focus. The training today is to focus on one thing. Learn how to focus and how to control your thoughts.
Last week a female friend called out of the blue (she doesn't read Anakosha) to ask me if I would like to go with her to learn some Tantric training. I checked out the website of a Tantric Goddess and immediately realized that Tantra is too small a focus for me. Another step to an even wider place.
I have been a student of the Ascended Masters all of my life - those who have guided and protected humankind for millennia. But I had two separate lives - one for swinging and sexuality exploration and the other alone as an aesthetic. I've been struggling to connect the two worlds together for the last 35 years, but most people don't want to hear about the spiritual side. Most people are locked into the physical sexual side.
Knowledge is power. Knowledge is upliftment. Knowledge is enlightment. Knowledge provides the link through the confusion and mysticism. Knowledge brings light and the "Ah HA!" connection. Link up after link up after link up. "So that's how it works!"
Knowledge is what has been kept from the poor people because generation after generation they have been locked out of higher education because of money. Poverty. No skills to move themselves up the ladder. Everything has been rooted in money. You either had it or you didn't. Now the ages are changing. Poor people used to remain stuck to the lowest level of existence because they did not have knowledge to empower them and infuse them with confidence in themselves. They were kept in ignorance by those in power of money.
Through the Anakosha site we will be focusing on providing knowledge that most people would not likely get in a thousand years if it were presented in the verbiage of the ancients. The ancient relligions and unknown language. So Anakosha will translate. There are seven levels to the individual. You have seven levels. Do you know what they are? And why they are there? And how you can identify with them? How do they influence you? More later on this. I'm zeroing in.
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5/6/14 - Anakosha is elevating into Tantra because it seems like the only place to go after so many years on the sexual journey. But the way the Western mind has watered Tantra down, I am calling it White Tantra is a more refined spiritual approach than the Red Tantra approach. Tantra is a truly balanced way of experiencing life. The original teachings seem to be lost, as far as the modern version goes.
Red Tantra is a touching approach meant to stimulate the kundalini, which is the energy behind sex, with some teaching involved but it is mostly a service performed on or for someone else. White Tantra is a spiritual approach done by two people mutually, together. It is basically non-touching and utilizes meditation techniques.
Most spiritual people try to elevate themselves out of the physical world and leave the body behind. But my training has been a very good blend of both the physical and the non-physical. The high and the low, ====
both sun and earth energies. They are very real forces beyond our what our brain knows. The kundalini is the earth energy that comes up through the feet and, if it gets blocked by closed chakras, it creates the horny feeling for sex. The sky energy is the positive intelligence that comes down through the crown of the head and, if it gets blocked by closed chakras, it creates pressure in the head. -- Sky energy is super intelligent and creates brilliance in the form of ideas, genius, courage and all the noble qualities of human beings. Earth energy is super grounding and peaceful and harmonious. It brings peace and tranquility to the human being. Tantra brings these two forces together - the high and the low - the brilliance and the peace and weaves them together through very practical exercises. But first there has to be an explanation or the exercises don't mean anything. When these two forces meet and blend they create bliss and a sense of rightness and wholeness in the person. -- The sky energy is masculine, the earth energy is feminine. It's up to each individual how s/he blends the two. Most people are unbalanced. I was too-feminine when I first came to you and you were too masculine. Over time we balanced each other out by absorbing the qualities of the other. -- Tantra provides exercises that uses the male and female body in certain ways, very confusing and complicated if you try to understand it on the Internet. Sex is not left out but it is postponed until the two people understand certain things which I will be expressing through writings on Anakosha. -- When two people are more balanced, each in themselves, their sexual experience is more blissful (as we are experiencing) and it can open doors to higher states of consciousness when they make love. We are doing that between ourselves right now.
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5/4/14 - (Newsletter sent out today) I am sad to report that Anakosha is folding her wings on all group events. This includes meet 'n greets, group massages, sensual massages and introductions to Tantra. The response has been too small to continue. I want to thank those who have been supportive of Anakosha, for you have fed my enthusiasm. Unfortunately there was not enough interest and the window of opportunity began to close. The website will be empty for awhile, although it will remain online, until the new phase unfolds.
Anakosha has been a vehicle of exploration for me. It has been an unfolding journey. I didn't realize that I was coming from a space where most people are NOT! Not yet anyway. Unconditionally loving on all levels. I discovered that group massage is scary to a lot of people. I was surprised to realize that. To me, having many hands on me in a non-sexual but nurturing way produces such beautiful uplifting feelings - out-of-body feelings that are so free, happy, healthy, healing, comforting, nurturing, blissful, and revelatory. To me, it is not a preparation for closeness, it IS closeness. It just feels so natural but I have found most people are not ready. For involvement in a group anyway. I am sorry if I created expectations of a wonderful group of lovers when I can't pull it off!
I accepted several weeks ago that my great desire for a group of trained lovers through massage, wasn't going to happen. My hopes started fading. I was unsure what to do about it so I just waited and watched my interest fade, like a plug had been pulled and the lights were going out. Energy comes in cycles. We all see that in our daily lives. You can't fight it when the tide shifts. So I don't know what is coming next, but I'll post it on the website www.anakosha.org. I just felt my list of interested people should know.
As a massage therapist I will continue to practice massage, but I feel to design a specific ritual for couples that would assist them privately at home, to raise themselves to higher levels of love. These would involve esoteric techniques which I have been practicing for many years. They are similar to the original Tantra teachings which always required special instruction. It's a spiritual approach rather than a sexual approach, called White Tantra. Red Tantra is a sexual approach. Most westerners are not aware that there is a difference and seek only Tantra, thinking it is a sexual technique but it is not unless it has been watered down.
White Tantra involves a man and a woman but it is non-touching until a certain point is reached. It's all about bringing spiritual energies down from above into the body where it shines like a sun, and spiritual energies from below the body, called Kundalini, up. Both spiritual energies meet in the body and produce sensations of bliss, but each individual has to do it for himself or herself FIRST, because each person is unbalanced in their male-female energies. So Tantra practice has them balancing themselves first and then they may enhance themselves further by enjoying physical lovemaking.
The original Tantra that was taught thousands of years ago by monks who mostly dwelt in solitude, taught it only to those who already had years of self-practice and were ready to receive this advanced training. Today we live in a different era and these knowledge is coming forth, but the training is lacking. Very, very few people are willing to put the time and patience into the training. Learning to be open and receptive to forces not seen, both above and below the body, is the training and practice needed.
My training has been in the swinging lifestyle which is mostly physical-focused sex and a lot of fun. Connecting with a sex partner in swinging is a physical interaction that is joyful and happy and very freeing. But it arouses the kundalini only far enough to "cum". It does not let that holy energy rise up the spinal column to the top of the head to connect with the higher self which is trying to come down. When we engage in sex play, the goal is orgasm which diverts the kundalini outward into the physical.
Well, I musn't get carried away into the deeper aspects of this. I tend to do that once I start writing about it. This is just a little hint of the direction Anakosha is heading in, Anakosha being my higher self.
So long for now. I wish you happiness and an open mind. Seek further beyond what is obvious on the surface. Take time to stop and shift focus to the daydream state. You can go "in and out" at will. It's good preparation for everything you do in life.
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