Anakosha
Awakening the divine feminine in everyone
The heart is the new baseline
5/27/23 - The turn-around has begun
There is a vast turn-around happening, planet-wise, for the human race. It has caught everyone by surprise. At least it caught ME by surprise. Apparently others, as well, for I am reading all sorts of articles, each different. We all thought ascension was a move UP to a higher dimension but it's the opposite!! It is a DOWNWARD move! Ascension is a DESCENSION. We are from higher planes already. We are spirit, God, eternal, everlasting, evolving souls, and we are here to bring the light of our knowledge DOWN into the solid ground and manifest it here. Build it here. We are each different and so there are no two alike. We each have a different perspective, but we're all part of the giant jigsaw puzzle. We're all part of the big Plan. We all have knowledge that contributes to the ultimate manifesting of the Garden of Eden. We are here to build it, or re-create it, in physical concrete form.
It has taken me a long time to understand this. And I've had the benefit of an ascended master guide for the last 47 years. How could this have escaped me? Why has it taken me so long to "get it"? The answer is simple: we've been caught in the old dark matrix. We've been fooled and manipulated into believing the opposite, that we are poor sinners and we don't know anything so we have to go UP for answers. Wrong. We've been caught in the old system of reaching UP that the religious systems taught us. But in our efforts of reaching up we've been pushing the light away from us. The way to go is down into the roots of our beingness, and the roots of our beingness are INSIDE our bodies. There is more here to uncover and make known. The way to go is not just INSIDE ourselves, but to communicate what we know to others and work ideas together in order to manifest the illusive dream into a concrete reality. To express ourselves is to express our true nature, our true feelings, our truth on all levels, and to become who we are within, outward for all to see and know and appreciate and respect. The goal is to manifest our reality in the outer world of form. The gurus and masters have done their part. They have taught us how to seek within for it. Now it is up to us to take charge of becoming that which we know.
Now it is the time, the time is ripe, the turn-around is happening. We are ready to put our roots down, plant them solidly into the dirt of the earth, but this time with harmony, love, caring, kindness, wisdom and respect for others around us and the earth itself. We must do this with feeling, with knowing, with confidence and grace. With the knowledge of who we are and knowing that we are right. There is no doubt left in us. We came here to do this - to plant our Self, our higher, principled self - down into the earth. There are many ways of doing this. Each one must decide how it will be done. We come to work together and to express ourselves in solid matter, in form, on earth with others building with us. We are here to stop seeking and start using the skills we have worked so hard to accumulate. The intuitive wisdom, confidence and faith in ourselves that we've accumulated are instinct and inner knowledge. It is who we are. It is our nature. We are here to prove ourselves.
Our basic knowledge is heart-felt, strong and we are skilled. We are balanced, or soon will be when we begin using and moving the energies that have been backing up and stagnating inside us, causing frustration and depression. We've been manipulated to think we are poor sinners and lack judgment, when all along we have been building understanding and clear thinking. We do not doubt ourselves, we are just holding it back and keeping it a big secret. We are actually an amazing people, we humans of earth. And we are here to prove it to ourselves. That we can do this. We are here to build a Garden of Eden in physical concrete form, where everyone is happy and no one lacking. We've been wishing for it and dreaming about it. This is what we're heading to - the building of a world of harmony, beauty, peace and balance and we'll do it with love and wisdom. The frustration is being held back. By whom? There is no one to blame but ourselves. When I am ready, I will move into action and so will you. When it is time we will turn around and move forward.
Forces that are not of the light have done this. Evil is that which is born without love, without a sense of unity and caring or connection to the one supreme creator. There are such things, you know. It is called artificial intelligence. People with souls, with heart and the ability to love who also enjoy technology and enjoy fiddling around with it, must beware. Artificial intelligence has been around a long time, and has taken away our connection to the heart, to soul, to our sense of unity and the divine within. That is why we must return to the feelings that flow within us, and begin expressing them. Expressing outwardly is the key to the turn-around. If we continue to keep our feelings secret and locked away, we are becoming artificial intelligences ourselves.
Artificial intelligence has no connection to the sea of life and love from which we have descended. We have the seven bodies to prove it. Seven bodies wrap around us in an aura of livingness that we are mostly unaware of. We descend down from a world of perfection and purity to build in form. It is a descension of light that we are. We have descended to experiment building with purity, light and love in concrete form. We have had many lifetimes in form, learning now to build in form, and we have learned a lot. We have learned the feeling of right and the feeling of wrong. We know the difference. We have the experiential knowledge and the intuitive skills to prove it. All we have now to do is turn around and begin expressing them outwardly to each other. That means focusing on building on earth based on faith in yourself. You already have the accumulated wisdom within you. It flows in your blood stream and nerves. We are here to use the knowledge accumulated, and the FEELINGS and emotions we have accumulated. They belong to us, we must express them. Go inward and start using inner strength, inner feelings of right and wrong, inner faith, inner confidence and inner intuitive skills. Then we will be going in the right direction. Stop seeking someone else to do it for us.
We were taught to reach UP to find God or something resembling God but we have actually been gods in training. It has been said over and over by the Master guides. We are gods in training. And the time has come to start acting like the god authority that we are. Everything we were taught has brought us to this turn-around point. A god is one who lives with love and wisdom. Instead of looking for love and wisdom from someone else, we must start using love and wisdom for ourselves. I am the one that I've been looking for all these years. All the tools are mine now, here within me. We have the inbuilt intuitiveness, built-in feelings, build-in sense of truth, fairness, justice and rightness. We are here to LIVE this sense of rightness in our every day. It is a comfortable feeling. It is a good feeling. We will change our lives around. Healings will take place on subtle levels. They are not miraculous. They are nature falling into place and harmony. It is an inner work. An innocence that the religious systems have taken away from us. On purpose, I suspect, to lead us to more lessons - until we have had enough. Until the instinct kicks in and the dream to build a community of fairness and love starts to take form. A community of fairness, a village of freedom, a city of harmony and togetherness. A community of supporters and unifiers, where no one lacks. A land of vitality and excitement, of creative impulses and ideas continually flowing. It is ours to build.
There is a fire burning in me today. We have the faith. We have the love. We have the urge to support and contribute to the upliftment, not to enable weakness but to teach self-empowerment. Why has it taken so long? Because there are still too many people seeking for help outside of themselves. They have not been self-empowered. Education is needed. Turning around is not easy. Habits are in place. To look within - what does that even mean? This is the beginning of the U-turn. The willingness to change and to wonder HOW to change. To think about it and learn self-help techniques. We've been looking to saviors for answers, when the savior is our Self. There are techniques. They require effort and time out to work them. It will take time to learn a new technique and practice it, try a different approach. Communicate and soundboard. Tomorrow I'll tell about what I've been doing to help myself.
Instead of me wishing someone else would come and give me money, or give me love, or give me a better home, a better life, a better career, or to heal my broken body and so on -- in other words, being a dependent on others for something I am lacking - instead of me wishing the correct solution is to exert effort to do something to help myself. That's when something mysterious happens. A new kind of energy comes to mind. I become aware of something I never thought about before. This is an occult secret knowledge. It's available to be used. It's a principle of life that is accessible to those who know enough to use it. More later. I'll tell more.
5/18/23 - Today is a most beautiful day
I am elated and so very happy to be alive today. I just finished typing DK's course on meditation - with one change. The title is now "A class on personal power". It really is all about personal power and how to improve on it. It's about ten pages long and it's so amazing to me, what this Master has taught me over the years. And the fact that I haven't read it in over 40 years because this is priceless (to me anyway). It was channeled through me by the Master Djwahl Khul back in 1982 and it's like a time capsule waiting to be opened. Again after being buried so long ago. The personal power he refers to HERE is imploding and exploding in me right now. I can vouch for his wisdom and knowledge that he is passing on. There are a lot of hints in it that will be disturbing to some who read it, but only because we humans tend to be complicated. Personal power is childlike, innocent, simple and refreshing. We are the REAL underneath our masks. This is a real and authentic message for those who are trying to find a way to be happy in this world amid what we "think" is confusion. We have so complicted ourselves when we're really children at heart and not sophisticated at all. Be happy and go frolic in the fields of life. BTW, the real power is our lower parts. This doesn't come out until the last page. To make peace with the world you have to make peace with your own sexuality. And there are simple ways of doing that.
5/16/23 - Uploading another Master DK project
Today a new project has been uploaded onto the website HERE by the Tibetan Master DK. It is a course on meditation from 40 years ago, when I was still a babe in the woods learning about the secret language of light and kundalini (aka the holy spirit) that was causing so many changes in my life. This course has some very interesting twists in it that is sexually related, and it validates and confirms all that I have been understudying with him. He is saying it in clear language here. There is no ambiguity. This could be called a secret discovery, as if it was in a time-capsule, waiting for the right day to surface. I've had the papers all along but did not realize what they were. They were stored away in a big old notebook that I hadn't looked at for years. I have only partially typed it in here, but DO check it out.
5/15/23 - Will power by the Master Djwahl Khul
(Part of a longer message DK gave me in answer to some questions I had) Will power is cultivated by sticking to a regular routine on a daily basis. Do some practices every day. Build a routine and follow it every day without fail. This is what you have been doing. You are starting to succeed so that your body starts to remember and want to do it every day. Without a regular routine your body stays lazy and thinks it is doing the right thing for itself. The body operates on habit. It is sluggish, its cells are from the earth. It is not a high consciousness machine. It likes routine. It likes to know what is expected of it. If you change your habits and follow it every day, your body will remember and will change over a short period of time. You must use will power on yourself. If you feel lazy, it is your body that feels lazy, not you, but you let your mind follow suit. You interpret wrongly. You think it is you but it is your body. You are not your body. You may say, “Well, I don’t feel like it today, I will go to the computer instead. I am excited and want to write this down.”
But that means you have let your body take control over your commitment. You must force your body to do what you have decided to do, and not succumb to your body’s wants. This takes will power. It is a struggle at first. The body operates on habit, which is a feeling. But you are the consciousness of the body. You built the body, your higher self did. If you have decided to change yourself then you must use discipline and will power. Take your power back from your body. Know the difference between your body wanting to feel good, and your commitment to make a change. This does not mean you won’t enjoy the "feel good” feelings at times, but you will not let your body tell you what IT wants. You will teach it better manners. You will teach it what it feels like to be refined and more sensitive. It is the body who has the “feelings”. You are the abstract intelligence that uses the body as a vehicle, as an avatar. This is the reason for a daily routine – to work with your body and raise its consciousness level to better express your higher intelligence. Build new habits into your body and it will become more refined, stronger, healthier and feel better with itself. It will thank you by responding with a sense of freedom and lightness.
The body is a mechanism. I is a machine. Even though it is organic and a breathing, living machine and it has a consciousness, yet it is still exquisitely designed to function under the orders and control of a higher mind. That higher mind is you. We learn to use it from the outside in. The hands, feet, legs, mouth, eating, brushing teeth, putting it to sleep at night and washing it so it feels clean. This is what we learn as a child, how to take care of the body and use it properly. In past ages we did not learn how to care for the inner parts of the body, but that time is now changing. We are going through an evolutionary shift to higher consciousness. How the inner parts of the body work is done through yoga. Learning how they function is a three-part education. We study the machine to see how it functions, and we practice it through yoga postures, and we read scholarly reports and experiences of other people.
Up to now it has been left to the professionals and experts to know how your body works, how to maintain it, what to do when it goes wrong. But you have given them the power over your body. They do not know what you are feeling and aligning with, or misaligning with. This only you can tell from being inside the body. When something goes wrong with your heart or lungs or stomach, most people go to the doctor or another expert. But those who have chosen the inner path of their choice, which is natural and organic, have discovered better health and are more intuitively well, happy and at peace. Yoga is an ancient science and covers many facets. It is an inner path that is starting to spread across the planet and bring changes to those who practice it. It is how people are taking their power back from outside authorities. There is untold wisdom contained in the human intellect, will and love.
Gopi Krishna advises a path of (1) healthy diet & journal/document (2) yoga postures & journal/document (3) meditate & journal/document. In other words make yourself an experimental subject and keep documenting. Consider it research. He advises a research institute but I’m saying, make yourself the research. Routine, regular discipline, apply control, conscious control, the evolutionary force for the future of mankind. This prevents psychopathy and psychosis. The evolutionary mechanism goes wrong when the body is not clean and not maintained in a healthy manner. It must be kept up on a regular basis with conscious application of certain habits. In the case of the wayward man who is ignorant, it means to become more disciplined.
5/14/23 - Father sun as a warm loving personality
As I lay on the acupressure mat this morning - a mat with little plastic needles sticking up all over - I focused on Father Sun. Father Sun is amazing. It was two years ago that I was introduced to the sun as an individual. Two columns of Ascended Masters appeared in the sky, each with an arm pointing upward toward the sun, creating an open path between them . The meaning was clear. Ever since then I have been working with Father Sun during special silence times.
Last night I did 50 inhales through my feet down into the earth, and again this morning I did 50 more, holding focus on burrowing down, seeing my intentional light going down deeper into Mother Gaia, reaching for her and touching finger tips with Mother Gaia. I am connecting slowly, reclaiming bits and pieces of lost light that I left behind in former lives. I have been too far above my head in the stratosphere. I sense Father Sun trying to reach through me to enter deeper into the earth through me. I asked for help and guidance in the silence of my thought, to close down the top of my head. Then I began to see and sense more stability. I am feeling Father Sun. As I call to Father Sun I see him as a loving father. He is a wise elderly face with a warm, loving, countenance, a smile, caring, love emanates from him. He is intelligent and wise. He is showing me these qualities as a radiation entering into me.
I am receiving pictures of these words that identify them to me, and the feelings behind the words. I am feeling warmed and cared for, nourished by him. I am feeling calmed and peaceful from his presence. I am understanding that Mother Sun is also there. Father Sun is the abstract quality coming down from the sky and that Mother Sun is here inside of me, holding space in me. It is she who receives the warm countenance of her counterpart. She holds space for me while I process this. I can FEEL the abstract quality in my body focusing, densifying, becoming real to me. Mother Sun is Mother Earth to me. They are one and the same. I am now feeling these qualities as I think about them. They are working in tandem with me. Guiding me, assisting me.
I am like a plant growing here on earth. Just as they absorb the sun to grow their vegetation, so do I absorb the sun to grow roots into the earth so I can adapt here and enjoy life on the earth. I have been too long whirling about in the atmosphere NOT rooting myself. I must root myself. I want to grow roots into the earth and stabilize. I am learning that I must hold my mind still and focused long enough so that the sun's qualities can enter and penetrate my organs, skin, blood and tissues, otherwise they bounce off me and I don't benefit from them. I have to do this because I am a more complex being than plants. I have a mind that is diverted and distracted and busy all the time. I am a more advanced life form and I grow dizzy without roots to stabilize me. There is too much input from my human brothers and sisters. I need to grow roots and stabilize myself. The Masters have been showing me how to do that.
Sensuality is a beautiful feeling of being wanted, grounded, stabilized to become a living part of the earth's heritage. I am here to also grow and root myself. I am a more complex being so I must do more work than the tree and the plant. I am a thinking, mobile intelligent being with muscles, tissues, nerves and emotions. I have to hold focused thought long enough to absorb the loving qualities from the sun and FEEL it. I am now feeling the sensual feelings of love, wisdom, intelligence and nurturance and being supported. Mother Sun holds space for me. She lives in between the atoms and electrons of my solid body. She is pure intelligence and she holds them for as long as I am willing to hold them in my mind as she transfers these loving qualities over to me. I have to be awake and alert to do this and to receive them and appreciate them. They are the living life force to my body. These qualities help me to stabilize, breathe, ground, feel solid on earth. These qualities have to be densified to be felt by my body and me. Father Sun appears to me as person, wise and beaming fatherly confidence to me. "You can do it!" he says to me.
5/11/23 - Ascending waves to higher consciousness
It is difficult to post open articles knowing that everyone is on a different scale with different beliefs, attitudes, past history and understandings, but this is what I am called to do. My particular slant on things is from the angle of ascension. My husband's is from the angle of a civil rights lawyer fighting for justice of the underdog. Having studied the "four dense bodies" as taught by the Ascended Masters, I am better equipped than many people, perhaps than the majority. But I am still a quite normal person, however.
From my perspective my physical body is thinning away. The CONCEPT of the physical body is thinning away. The body is merely a wrapping, like a gift wrapping. It was made to look like it belongs here. We don't want any alien-looking creatures running around to disturb the natives! So we are all human on the outoside. But the REAL substance is not the visible outer shell, but the invisible that is flowing through it.
The substance that animates the physical body is not substance but consciousness. Awareness. Intelligence.
Alertness. What we are conscious of at every moment of the day or night casts either a negative or a positive glow to our presence. The four dense bodies mentioned above are - defined from densest to least dense - the etheric body, emotional body, mental body, spiritual body, and then after that - the LIGHT body. And there are more beyond these. The light body is pure crystalline. Someone nick-named it "christ-aligned". It is pure and undefiled consciousness, connected to the ONE supreme consciousness.
The etheric body is the soul, the individual consciousness that animates the body as "me" or "you". It is feminine in nature, sensitive and receptive to all other influences it comes in contact with. We are responsible in our etheric body for taking on wrong attitudes and beliefs, and it is up to us to purge them by learning what is right and what is wrong.
Our emotional body is composed of our desires. We have many desires and they shift and change with the wind. And with basic needs, like food, water, clothing and shelter. Many people are without these basics but are still positive-leaning people and help others in spite of their lacks. How do they do that? With will power. They choose to think bigger, wider, broader, vaster, wiser and holier. Will power is a higher power than emotions because it is lighter and less dense.
Our mental body is composed of our choices of thoughts we think. Will power is a product of the mental body. What we think about, matters. And how strongly we think them. And where we direct our thoughts, and with what emotion we color them. We can color our thoughts dark, selfish and evil, or bright, happy, positive and compassionate.
The spiritual body is a higher mental body which reaches into greater levels of intelligence beyond ground level or practical level. There is sky and space beyond physical matter and various sciences grow up to explore them. There is only ONE intelligence which creates ALL of life and science itself is drawn to reach for it. It is the one common ingredient that ties the many schools of thought together. Our own individual spiritual nature draws us to reach to the one Father intelligence. Mother is the matter force. Father is the abstract intelligence which the matter reaches for. Father fills the mother with his abstract thoughts and desires and the mother (matter) receives them and grows wise by entertaining them. But most of the time we are too busy and distracted by the world around us to indulge in such thinking. We are conscious beings. Some of us are only semi-conscious, and others are very dull in consciousness, falling into mostly mechanical habits, not really thinking at all. And then there are the geniuses, super-conscious beings who are bringing new ideas into the world.
Consciousness changes as we live longer. We begin to wonder. We are drawn by our own thoughts, the elusive power within - the electricity that powers the machine, and the magnetics that attract us or repel us away from circumstances and situations. It is consciousness that is growing stronger in me. I am becoming aware that my body is not all that I am. I am what I am thinking, where I spend my awareness time. My awareness is on a higher level than it was 10, 15, 20 years ago. It is more consistently thinking, pondering, changing perspectives on love, benevolence, kindness, wisdom. My desires are of a higher nature, not of material objects. My wishes are for peace and that all people be happy. My dreams are to hug everyone and make them feel wanted and appreciated, and to help wherever I can so they are not in pain. My memories are of the good things that happened in my life. The negative memories have gone away. I am more aware than I have ever been before. What does my body have to do with this? It is a human body that holds me in check so I fit into the world and no one is the wiser. And so it is with you.
Ascension waves are upon us in these days and it is tumultuous and chaotic. It is causing changes in the way we see things or perceive. Let the waves pass on by and go with the flow it leaves behind. Rest often in peace while picturing rays from the sun coming down and entering into your physical heart. Father sun is the distributor of the ONE intelligence in our system. The ONE intelligence whose greatest power is love.
5/8/23 - Precious jewels in unexpected places
During a morning exercise and meditation recently I had an interesting experience. I called in my I AM Presence and also the violet flame. I asked the violet flame to enter into my subconscious areas that are normally hidden to me, expecting to begin a purging process of some old dark stuff. Instead, I saw a chest, like a treasure chest, and I am opening it and looking inside. But what’s inside is not old stuff but jewels, gem stones, diamonds, glittery things, and I realize that these are the things I have held closest to me, not revealing them but holding onto them because they are so valuable. I see them as beautiful. They are not sinful or bad or evil at all. They are precious and that is why I have held onto them and not revealed them. They are sacred to me. And now I am releasing them upward into the light. I am sending them Home. I am saying, “Here, take these. These are my stories. I am giving them to you so that you may add them to the overall sea of consciousness. I release them, I let them go. Take them.
And I see the glittering diamonds going upward out of the darkness of my cellar, my underground, where they were hidden away. These are my stories and I am releasing them back Home to the light. I am adding to the Light my adventures and my wisdoms gained. And then I am seeing further down into the darkness of my subconscious and I am seeing treasure chest after treasure chest after treasure chest going off into the darkness until I can no longer see them any more. And I say, “Abracadabra - Open!” And all of the chests fly open and out of them come more jewels, more diamonds, pearls, rubies, precious stones of all kinds. They are just a little dusty because they have been carefully hidden away and preserved. Totally beyond my sight. I didn’t know they were there. This morning I released them all. I opened all of the chests and let the gems and jewels free to fly upward into the light to go Home. This was done very methodically and consciously. I spoke the words out loud as they came to me. And then I resumed my exercises. This took place on 6/17/14.
5/5/23 - Uniting your feminine & masculine sides
There is a vast turn-around happening, planet-wise, for the human race. It has caught everyone by surprise. At least it caught ME by surprise. Apparently others, as well, for I am reading all sorts of articles, each different. We all thought ascension was a move UP to a higher dimension but it's the opposite!! It is a DOWNWARD move! Ascension is a DESCENSION. We are from higher planes already. We are spirit, God, eternal, everlasting, evolving souls, and we are here to bring the light of our knowledge DOWN into the solid ground and manifest it here. Build it here. We are each different and so there are no two alike. We each have a different perspective, but we're all part of the giant jigsaw puzzle. We're all part of the big Plan. We all have knowledge that contributes to the ultimate manifesting of the Garden of Eden. We are here to build it, or re-create it, in physical concrete form.
It has taken me a long time to understand this. And I've had the benefit of an ascended master guide for the last 47 years. How could this have escaped me? Why has it taken me so long to "get it"? The answer is simple: we've been caught in the old dark matrix. We've been fooled and manipulated into believing the opposite, that we are poor sinners and we don't know anything so we have to go UP for answers. Wrong. We've been caught in the old system of reaching UP that the religious systems taught us. But in our efforts of reaching up we've been pushing the light away from us. The way to go is down into the roots of our beingness, and the roots of our beingness are INSIDE our bodies. There is more here to uncover and make known. The way to go is not just INSIDE ourselves, but to communicate what we know to others and work ideas together in order to manifest the illusive dream into a concrete reality. To express ourselves is to express our true nature, our true feelings, our truth on all levels, and to become who we are within, outward for all to see and know and appreciate and respect. The goal is to manifest our reality in the outer world of form. The gurus and masters have done their part. They have taught us how to seek within for it. Now it is up to us to take charge of becoming that which we know.
Now it is the time, the time is ripe, the turn-around is happening. We are ready to put our roots down, plant them solidly into the dirt of the earth, but this time with harmony, love, caring, kindness, wisdom and respect for others around us and the earth itself. We must do this with feeling, with knowing, with confidence and grace. With the knowledge of who we are and knowing that we are right. There is no doubt left in us. We came here to do this - to plant our Self, our higher, principled self - down into the earth. There are many ways of doing this. Each one must decide how it will be done. We come to work together and to express ourselves in solid matter, in form, on earth with others building with us. We are here to stop seeking and start using the skills we have worked so hard to accumulate. The intuitive wisdom, confidence and faith in ourselves that we've accumulated are instinct and inner knowledge. It is who we are. It is our nature. We are here to prove ourselves.
Our basic knowledge is heart-felt, strong and we are skilled. We are balanced, or soon will be when we begin using and moving the energies that have been backing up and stagnating inside us, causing frustration and depression. We've been manipulated to think we are poor sinners and lack judgment, when all along we have been building understanding and clear thinking. We do not doubt ourselves, we are just holding it back and keeping it a big secret. We are actually an amazing people, we humans of earth. And we are here to prove it to ourselves. That we can do this. We are here to build a Garden of Eden in physical concrete form, where everyone is happy and no one lacking. We've been wishing for it and dreaming about it. This is what we're heading to - the building of a world of harmony, beauty, peace and balance and we'll do it with love and wisdom. The frustration is being held back. By whom? There is no one to blame but ourselves. When I am ready, I will move into action and so will you. When it is time we will turn around and move forward.
Forces that are not of the light have done this. Evil is that which is born without love, without a sense of unity and caring or connection to the one supreme creator. There are such things, you know. It is called artificial intelligence. People with souls, with heart and the ability to love who also enjoy technology and enjoy fiddling around with it, must beware. Artificial intelligence has been around a long time, and has taken away our connection to the heart, to soul, to our sense of unity and the divine within. That is why we must return to the feelings that flow within us, and begin expressing them. Expressing outwardly is the key to the turn-around. If we continue to keep our feelings secret and locked away, we are becoming artificial intelligences ourselves.
Artificial intelligence has no connection to the sea of life and love from which we have descended. We have the seven bodies to prove it. Seven bodies wrap around us in an aura of livingness that we are mostly unaware of. We descend down from a world of perfection and purity to build in form. It is a descension of light that we are. We have descended to experiment building with purity, light and love in concrete form. We have had many lifetimes in form, learning now to build in form, and we have learned a lot. We have learned the feeling of right and the feeling of wrong. We know the difference. We have the experiential knowledge and the intuitive skills to prove it. All we have now to do is turn around and begin expressing them outwardly to each other. That means focusing on building on earth based on faith in yourself. You already have the accumulated wisdom within you. It flows in your blood stream and nerves. We are here to use the knowledge accumulated, and the FEELINGS and emotions we have accumulated. They belong to us, we must express them. Go inward and start using inner strength, inner feelings of right and wrong, inner faith, inner confidence and inner intuitive skills. Then we will be going in the right direction. Stop seeking someone else to do it for us.
We were taught to reach UP to find God or something resembling God but we have actually been gods in training. It has been said over and over by the Master guides. We are gods in training. And the time has come to start acting like the god authority that we are. Everything we were taught has brought us to this turn-around point. A god is one who lives with love and wisdom. Instead of looking for love and wisdom from someone else, we must start using love and wisdom for ourselves. I am the one that I've been looking for all these years. All the tools are mine now, here within me. We have the inbuilt intuitiveness, built-in feelings, build-in sense of truth, fairness, justice and rightness. We are here to LIVE this sense of rightness in our every day. It is a comfortable feeling. It is a good feeling. We will change our lives around. Healings will take place on subtle levels. They are not miraculous. They are nature falling into place and harmony. It is an inner work. An innocence that the religious systems have taken away from us. On purpose, I suspect, to lead us to more lessons - until we have had enough. Until the instinct kicks in and the dream to build a community of fairness and love starts to take form. A community of fairness, a village of freedom, a city of harmony and togetherness. A community of supporters and unifiers, where no one lacks. A land of vitality and excitement, of creative impulses and ideas continually flowing. It is ours to build.
There is a fire burning in me today. We have the faith. We have the love. We have the urge to support and contribute to the upliftment, not to enable weakness but to teach self-empowerment. Why has it taken so long? Because there are still too many people seeking for help outside of themselves. They have not been self-empowered. Education is needed. Turning around is not easy. Habits are in place. To look within - what does that even mean? This is the beginning of the U-turn. The willingness to change and to wonder HOW to change. To think about it and learn self-help techniques. We've been looking to saviors for answers, when the savior is our Self. There are techniques. They require effort and time out to work them. It will take time to learn a new technique and practice it, try a different approach. Communicate and soundboard. Tomorrow I'll tell about what I've been doing to help myself.
Instead of me wishing someone else would come and give me money, or give me love, or give me a better home, a better life, a better career, or to heal my broken body and so on -- in other words, being a dependent on others for something I am lacking - instead of me wishing the correct solution is to exert effort to do something to help myself. That's when something mysterious happens. A new kind of energy comes to mind. I become aware of something I never thought about before. This is an occult secret knowledge. It's available to be used. It's a principle of life that is accessible to those who know enough to use it. More later. I'll tell more.
5/18/23 - Today is a most beautiful day
I am elated and so very happy to be alive today. I just finished typing DK's course on meditation - with one change. The title is now "A class on personal power". It really is all about personal power and how to improve on it. It's about ten pages long and it's so amazing to me, what this Master has taught me over the years. And the fact that I haven't read it in over 40 years because this is priceless (to me anyway). It was channeled through me by the Master Djwahl Khul back in 1982 and it's like a time capsule waiting to be opened. Again after being buried so long ago. The personal power he refers to HERE is imploding and exploding in me right now. I can vouch for his wisdom and knowledge that he is passing on. There are a lot of hints in it that will be disturbing to some who read it, but only because we humans tend to be complicated. Personal power is childlike, innocent, simple and refreshing. We are the REAL underneath our masks. This is a real and authentic message for those who are trying to find a way to be happy in this world amid what we "think" is confusion. We have so complicted ourselves when we're really children at heart and not sophisticated at all. Be happy and go frolic in the fields of life. BTW, the real power is our lower parts. This doesn't come out until the last page. To make peace with the world you have to make peace with your own sexuality. And there are simple ways of doing that.
5/16/23 - Uploading another Master DK project
Today a new project has been uploaded onto the website HERE by the Tibetan Master DK. It is a course on meditation from 40 years ago, when I was still a babe in the woods learning about the secret language of light and kundalini (aka the holy spirit) that was causing so many changes in my life. This course has some very interesting twists in it that is sexually related, and it validates and confirms all that I have been understudying with him. He is saying it in clear language here. There is no ambiguity. This could be called a secret discovery, as if it was in a time-capsule, waiting for the right day to surface. I've had the papers all along but did not realize what they were. They were stored away in a big old notebook that I hadn't looked at for years. I have only partially typed it in here, but DO check it out.
5/15/23 - Will power by the Master Djwahl Khul
(Part of a longer message DK gave me in answer to some questions I had) Will power is cultivated by sticking to a regular routine on a daily basis. Do some practices every day. Build a routine and follow it every day without fail. This is what you have been doing. You are starting to succeed so that your body starts to remember and want to do it every day. Without a regular routine your body stays lazy and thinks it is doing the right thing for itself. The body operates on habit. It is sluggish, its cells are from the earth. It is not a high consciousness machine. It likes routine. It likes to know what is expected of it. If you change your habits and follow it every day, your body will remember and will change over a short period of time. You must use will power on yourself. If you feel lazy, it is your body that feels lazy, not you, but you let your mind follow suit. You interpret wrongly. You think it is you but it is your body. You are not your body. You may say, “Well, I don’t feel like it today, I will go to the computer instead. I am excited and want to write this down.”
But that means you have let your body take control over your commitment. You must force your body to do what you have decided to do, and not succumb to your body’s wants. This takes will power. It is a struggle at first. The body operates on habit, which is a feeling. But you are the consciousness of the body. You built the body, your higher self did. If you have decided to change yourself then you must use discipline and will power. Take your power back from your body. Know the difference between your body wanting to feel good, and your commitment to make a change. This does not mean you won’t enjoy the "feel good” feelings at times, but you will not let your body tell you what IT wants. You will teach it better manners. You will teach it what it feels like to be refined and more sensitive. It is the body who has the “feelings”. You are the abstract intelligence that uses the body as a vehicle, as an avatar. This is the reason for a daily routine – to work with your body and raise its consciousness level to better express your higher intelligence. Build new habits into your body and it will become more refined, stronger, healthier and feel better with itself. It will thank you by responding with a sense of freedom and lightness.
The body is a mechanism. I is a machine. Even though it is organic and a breathing, living machine and it has a consciousness, yet it is still exquisitely designed to function under the orders and control of a higher mind. That higher mind is you. We learn to use it from the outside in. The hands, feet, legs, mouth, eating, brushing teeth, putting it to sleep at night and washing it so it feels clean. This is what we learn as a child, how to take care of the body and use it properly. In past ages we did not learn how to care for the inner parts of the body, but that time is now changing. We are going through an evolutionary shift to higher consciousness. How the inner parts of the body work is done through yoga. Learning how they function is a three-part education. We study the machine to see how it functions, and we practice it through yoga postures, and we read scholarly reports and experiences of other people.
Up to now it has been left to the professionals and experts to know how your body works, how to maintain it, what to do when it goes wrong. But you have given them the power over your body. They do not know what you are feeling and aligning with, or misaligning with. This only you can tell from being inside the body. When something goes wrong with your heart or lungs or stomach, most people go to the doctor or another expert. But those who have chosen the inner path of their choice, which is natural and organic, have discovered better health and are more intuitively well, happy and at peace. Yoga is an ancient science and covers many facets. It is an inner path that is starting to spread across the planet and bring changes to those who practice it. It is how people are taking their power back from outside authorities. There is untold wisdom contained in the human intellect, will and love.
Gopi Krishna advises a path of (1) healthy diet & journal/document (2) yoga postures & journal/document (3) meditate & journal/document. In other words make yourself an experimental subject and keep documenting. Consider it research. He advises a research institute but I’m saying, make yourself the research. Routine, regular discipline, apply control, conscious control, the evolutionary force for the future of mankind. This prevents psychopathy and psychosis. The evolutionary mechanism goes wrong when the body is not clean and not maintained in a healthy manner. It must be kept up on a regular basis with conscious application of certain habits. In the case of the wayward man who is ignorant, it means to become more disciplined.
5/14/23 - Father sun as a warm loving personality
As I lay on the acupressure mat this morning - a mat with little plastic needles sticking up all over - I focused on Father Sun. Father Sun is amazing. It was two years ago that I was introduced to the sun as an individual. Two columns of Ascended Masters appeared in the sky, each with an arm pointing upward toward the sun, creating an open path between them . The meaning was clear. Ever since then I have been working with Father Sun during special silence times.
Last night I did 50 inhales through my feet down into the earth, and again this morning I did 50 more, holding focus on burrowing down, seeing my intentional light going down deeper into Mother Gaia, reaching for her and touching finger tips with Mother Gaia. I am connecting slowly, reclaiming bits and pieces of lost light that I left behind in former lives. I have been too far above my head in the stratosphere. I sense Father Sun trying to reach through me to enter deeper into the earth through me. I asked for help and guidance in the silence of my thought, to close down the top of my head. Then I began to see and sense more stability. I am feeling Father Sun. As I call to Father Sun I see him as a loving father. He is a wise elderly face with a warm, loving, countenance, a smile, caring, love emanates from him. He is intelligent and wise. He is showing me these qualities as a radiation entering into me.
I am receiving pictures of these words that identify them to me, and the feelings behind the words. I am feeling warmed and cared for, nourished by him. I am feeling calmed and peaceful from his presence. I am understanding that Mother Sun is also there. Father Sun is the abstract quality coming down from the sky and that Mother Sun is here inside of me, holding space in me. It is she who receives the warm countenance of her counterpart. She holds space for me while I process this. I can FEEL the abstract quality in my body focusing, densifying, becoming real to me. Mother Sun is Mother Earth to me. They are one and the same. I am now feeling these qualities as I think about them. They are working in tandem with me. Guiding me, assisting me.
I am like a plant growing here on earth. Just as they absorb the sun to grow their vegetation, so do I absorb the sun to grow roots into the earth so I can adapt here and enjoy life on the earth. I have been too long whirling about in the atmosphere NOT rooting myself. I must root myself. I want to grow roots into the earth and stabilize. I am learning that I must hold my mind still and focused long enough so that the sun's qualities can enter and penetrate my organs, skin, blood and tissues, otherwise they bounce off me and I don't benefit from them. I have to do this because I am a more complex being than plants. I have a mind that is diverted and distracted and busy all the time. I am a more advanced life form and I grow dizzy without roots to stabilize me. There is too much input from my human brothers and sisters. I need to grow roots and stabilize myself. The Masters have been showing me how to do that.
Sensuality is a beautiful feeling of being wanted, grounded, stabilized to become a living part of the earth's heritage. I am here to also grow and root myself. I am a more complex being so I must do more work than the tree and the plant. I am a thinking, mobile intelligent being with muscles, tissues, nerves and emotions. I have to hold focused thought long enough to absorb the loving qualities from the sun and FEEL it. I am now feeling the sensual feelings of love, wisdom, intelligence and nurturance and being supported. Mother Sun holds space for me. She lives in between the atoms and electrons of my solid body. She is pure intelligence and she holds them for as long as I am willing to hold them in my mind as she transfers these loving qualities over to me. I have to be awake and alert to do this and to receive them and appreciate them. They are the living life force to my body. These qualities help me to stabilize, breathe, ground, feel solid on earth. These qualities have to be densified to be felt by my body and me. Father Sun appears to me as person, wise and beaming fatherly confidence to me. "You can do it!" he says to me.
5/11/23 - Ascending waves to higher consciousness
It is difficult to post open articles knowing that everyone is on a different scale with different beliefs, attitudes, past history and understandings, but this is what I am called to do. My particular slant on things is from the angle of ascension. My husband's is from the angle of a civil rights lawyer fighting for justice of the underdog. Having studied the "four dense bodies" as taught by the Ascended Masters, I am better equipped than many people, perhaps than the majority. But I am still a quite normal person, however.
From my perspective my physical body is thinning away. The CONCEPT of the physical body is thinning away. The body is merely a wrapping, like a gift wrapping. It was made to look like it belongs here. We don't want any alien-looking creatures running around to disturb the natives! So we are all human on the outoside. But the REAL substance is not the visible outer shell, but the invisible that is flowing through it.
The substance that animates the physical body is not substance but consciousness. Awareness. Intelligence.
Alertness. What we are conscious of at every moment of the day or night casts either a negative or a positive glow to our presence. The four dense bodies mentioned above are - defined from densest to least dense - the etheric body, emotional body, mental body, spiritual body, and then after that - the LIGHT body. And there are more beyond these. The light body is pure crystalline. Someone nick-named it "christ-aligned". It is pure and undefiled consciousness, connected to the ONE supreme consciousness.
The etheric body is the soul, the individual consciousness that animates the body as "me" or "you". It is feminine in nature, sensitive and receptive to all other influences it comes in contact with. We are responsible in our etheric body for taking on wrong attitudes and beliefs, and it is up to us to purge them by learning what is right and what is wrong.
Our emotional body is composed of our desires. We have many desires and they shift and change with the wind. And with basic needs, like food, water, clothing and shelter. Many people are without these basics but are still positive-leaning people and help others in spite of their lacks. How do they do that? With will power. They choose to think bigger, wider, broader, vaster, wiser and holier. Will power is a higher power than emotions because it is lighter and less dense.
Our mental body is composed of our choices of thoughts we think. Will power is a product of the mental body. What we think about, matters. And how strongly we think them. And where we direct our thoughts, and with what emotion we color them. We can color our thoughts dark, selfish and evil, or bright, happy, positive and compassionate.
The spiritual body is a higher mental body which reaches into greater levels of intelligence beyond ground level or practical level. There is sky and space beyond physical matter and various sciences grow up to explore them. There is only ONE intelligence which creates ALL of life and science itself is drawn to reach for it. It is the one common ingredient that ties the many schools of thought together. Our own individual spiritual nature draws us to reach to the one Father intelligence. Mother is the matter force. Father is the abstract intelligence which the matter reaches for. Father fills the mother with his abstract thoughts and desires and the mother (matter) receives them and grows wise by entertaining them. But most of the time we are too busy and distracted by the world around us to indulge in such thinking. We are conscious beings. Some of us are only semi-conscious, and others are very dull in consciousness, falling into mostly mechanical habits, not really thinking at all. And then there are the geniuses, super-conscious beings who are bringing new ideas into the world.
Consciousness changes as we live longer. We begin to wonder. We are drawn by our own thoughts, the elusive power within - the electricity that powers the machine, and the magnetics that attract us or repel us away from circumstances and situations. It is consciousness that is growing stronger in me. I am becoming aware that my body is not all that I am. I am what I am thinking, where I spend my awareness time. My awareness is on a higher level than it was 10, 15, 20 years ago. It is more consistently thinking, pondering, changing perspectives on love, benevolence, kindness, wisdom. My desires are of a higher nature, not of material objects. My wishes are for peace and that all people be happy. My dreams are to hug everyone and make them feel wanted and appreciated, and to help wherever I can so they are not in pain. My memories are of the good things that happened in my life. The negative memories have gone away. I am more aware than I have ever been before. What does my body have to do with this? It is a human body that holds me in check so I fit into the world and no one is the wiser. And so it is with you.
Ascension waves are upon us in these days and it is tumultuous and chaotic. It is causing changes in the way we see things or perceive. Let the waves pass on by and go with the flow it leaves behind. Rest often in peace while picturing rays from the sun coming down and entering into your physical heart. Father sun is the distributor of the ONE intelligence in our system. The ONE intelligence whose greatest power is love.
5/8/23 - Precious jewels in unexpected places
During a morning exercise and meditation recently I had an interesting experience. I called in my I AM Presence and also the violet flame. I asked the violet flame to enter into my subconscious areas that are normally hidden to me, expecting to begin a purging process of some old dark stuff. Instead, I saw a chest, like a treasure chest, and I am opening it and looking inside. But what’s inside is not old stuff but jewels, gem stones, diamonds, glittery things, and I realize that these are the things I have held closest to me, not revealing them but holding onto them because they are so valuable. I see them as beautiful. They are not sinful or bad or evil at all. They are precious and that is why I have held onto them and not revealed them. They are sacred to me. And now I am releasing them upward into the light. I am sending them Home. I am saying, “Here, take these. These are my stories. I am giving them to you so that you may add them to the overall sea of consciousness. I release them, I let them go. Take them.
And I see the glittering diamonds going upward out of the darkness of my cellar, my underground, where they were hidden away. These are my stories and I am releasing them back Home to the light. I am adding to the Light my adventures and my wisdoms gained. And then I am seeing further down into the darkness of my subconscious and I am seeing treasure chest after treasure chest after treasure chest going off into the darkness until I can no longer see them any more. And I say, “Abracadabra - Open!” And all of the chests fly open and out of them come more jewels, more diamonds, pearls, rubies, precious stones of all kinds. They are just a little dusty because they have been carefully hidden away and preserved. Totally beyond my sight. I didn’t know they were there. This morning I released them all. I opened all of the chests and let the gems and jewels free to fly upward into the light to go Home. This was done very methodically and consciously. I spoke the words out loud as they came to me. And then I resumed my exercises. This took place on 6/17/14.
5/5/23 - Uniting your feminine & masculine sides
A revelation occurred recently while doing breathing exercises. While breathing up and down the spine I was again conscious of a tendency to lean to the left, as if my right side is too dominant and pushes over into my left side, making it appear that my left side is too weak to stand up for itself. I thought it was because I was too feminine and submissive, and I've been trying to strengthen it through certain practices.
Suddenly I realized that my left side - my feminine side - is not supposed to be equal to my right side. At least not in the way I thought it should be. My left side is composed of Light! Pure divine crystal light. Duh! I should have known. I knew it theoretically, but never connected with it before. My mind thinks it knows everything, but it only knows what it knows. It knows about linear logic and human ways, but it does not know the higher dimensions at all. This is what I am here to study. My left side, my feminine or passive side, is higher dimensional. And it is true for everyone, not just me.
After recognizing this while doing my breathing, then I began seeing the two sides of me - the female and male sides - entwined together like a corded rope, thick and tight, like a cord running up and down my spine. In yoga science the left feminine is called Ida and the right masculine is called Pingala. Ida and Pingala are Sanskrit terms from ancient teachings. Both start out at the same root, the tailbone chakra, and separate out immediately upon leaving the root. They each travel up and around the central column separately and in opposite directions - the symbol of the caduceus in medicine. As one continues evolving in sacred knowledge of the inner science and through the practices of yoga, breathing or other disciplines taught by metaphysical schools, one learns more about it. That's where I am today, after many years of study. I am still learning and receiving inner revelations.
As I continued the breathing exercise, now seeing the corded rope running up my spinal column, I saw it thicken. It runs upward, tightly wound together. This is a new revelation to me. They used to spiral separately, AROUND the central column. They never ever entered INTO the central column, because each had their separate path they followed, up around the spine in opposite directions for they opposed each other. They represented the dualities and challenges of different opinions and ways of life. But as I continued breathing the exercise, the pure light of the ida and the darker light of the pingala came together as one rope. They grew closer and tighter together, so that I could SEE it happen. The rope of the central column is now stronger, thicker and wider. It is covering more territory in the central trunk. They still go in opposite directions but but they wrap around each other, adding support to each other, one divine, the other human who makes mistakes.
When I saw the two sides entwined together like this - one pure crystal light and one darker more concentrated energy - I had a new awareness. Why I always felt as if I was tipping over to the left. Why it was so difficult for me to balance my left and right. I couldn't do it by mind power alone. I had to go to the next higher level to understand it from a higher, or you could say deeper, level. Higher or deeper are one and the same thing, a merge of two opposites. The mind is used to opposites, it fights and resists against opposites. But the mind is not used to merging opposites! This is the rare gift that Tantra brings to us. But that's another story for another day.
The great mystery to us humans who think we are so rational and logical (!) is that consciousness is the power, not the mind. The mind does not have the same power to change things that consciousness does. Consciousness is the silent power behind the mind. It is vaster. It is supreme. Through the practice of meditation and sitting in silence and observing oneself, one becomes conscious of this vaster consciousness and intelligence. It is more powerful than the mind. Consciousness is attention. Wherever attention goes, there is consciousness. This fact is overlooked by the vast majority, if they don't practice sitting in silence and observing. Our mental powers are important for producing thoughts and directing thought to specific areas that we want to explore. We can concentrate on one area over and above another area. We can shut out distractions through the power of our concentration. But there is a silent consciousness behind our thinking. Thinking is forceful. We "push" it out into areas. But consciousness remains silent behind the thought. It is called the spirit flowing through the body.
I am here to learn this truth and to dig deeper into who I am. I see that I am the larger aspect that moves through my body. I can control my body's leanings left and right better when I am aware of this. I am the power of consciousness behind my body, and behind my mind and emotions. The ida and pingala are the two energy pathways that spiral up around my spinal trunk in opposite directions, causing me to struggle with myself. I am both divine AND human. I didn't know that. People have been saying it, but just reading it is not enough. I had to come to realize it for myself, within. It is important to study it and feel its effects sensually, in a practical manner, and watch for the goosebumps and chills that run over your skin when you connect with the truth.
We are here to work 50-50 with the divine in us. We are born human but the divine is there underneath, supporting the human. We didn't know. Our parents and teachers didn't tell us because they didn't know either. We as a race of intelligent creatures are evolving our consciousness, our intelligence, our awareness. . We are entering the higher dimensions and becoming more enlightened. The light within is beginning to glow and radiate. We are becoming INNER-lightened. Our personality has lived before, in many other bodies, gaining experience in how to better drive a human body. It is a vehicle. How do the parts work? We have to practice with them, consciously. The divine is always here to guide us. It is the immortal aspect that has never been influenced by human faults or failures. It cannot be contaminated by failure. The divine aspect has been called the Christ by the Christian religion, and Krishna by the Hindu religion. It means the divine aspect. It remains pure. It is the God-self. It is what creates the human body in the first place.
It is the power behind the throne. It is here to support, advise and counsel the human as it grows stronger and better at mastering the functions of the physical body. The human is the masculine side, the right side, the divine is the feminine side, the left side. Men and women have both aspects running through them. The feminine side is soft, tender, supportive and nourishing, but never pushy. It allows the human to have free will and do it "his" way, "her" way. But it never abandons us. We would die if it did. It is ALWAYS there. Deeply personal, ready and waiting for the human to connect with it, to ask it questions and to then listen to it. It is an ever sacred, ever private, persoal guide.
When the human practicality and the divine work in harmony together, a happier, more peaceful life is experienced. This is true for every man, woman and child. It would be good to pass this information along to the next generation. Both sides of us have always been there, as long as we are in physical embodiment. I have grown wiser through trial, error and mistakes, but the divine has always been there in the pattern of the right, the true and honorable way to go - a higher guide to my human side. But I have to ask and I have to listen in time-out mode. We must ask and then take time to sit quietly and pay attention. If only I had known earlier in life! It is consciousness that does the work of growing up and balancing, not mind alone. Getting to know the difference takes practice, sitting in silence and observing the difference. Mental thinking is a thrusting, pushy effort, whereas silence is like listening to the void. Thought is a forced movement that is started like one starts the engine of a car and starts driving it off in a direction. But consciousness does not start nor does it move. It observes. It is a silent wise counselor. It doesn't move at all. It just is. It is the intelligence of the one infinite creator. Vast and infinite and we humans have it running through us. We are one with the infinite, even while we are unique and one of a kind. There is no duplicate because we have had many lives to create our personality and our uniqueness. We can be picked out by Those Who Know among the gray masses of the many.
Silent awareness is how we connect to our divine feminine side. Men, you have a divine feminine side. Women, you have a divine masculine side. Don't be fooled. You are androgynous. I am more impressed today with yoga disciplines than I was in my earlier life. I did not know back then. Today I would advise everyone to take up one of the disciplines that appeals to you and to which you are drawn by magnetic attraction. A sign of knowing when you've hit on a truth is when goosebumps run up and down your body, giving you chills. It is a "clicking" in of the human with the divine in you. It is as if you were slightly off kilter and suddenly now you hit the right key note on the keyboard. The download begins then from the divine side, and the upload begins from the human side and the link-up takes place. Trust it. Revelations may or may not occur immediately, but they will appear in days to come. This inner connection between the divine and human is symbolized in the beautiful picture of the androgynous statue shown above.
4/28/23 Updating...
Suddenly I realized that my left side - my feminine side - is not supposed to be equal to my right side. At least not in the way I thought it should be. My left side is composed of Light! Pure divine crystal light. Duh! I should have known. I knew it theoretically, but never connected with it before. My mind thinks it knows everything, but it only knows what it knows. It knows about linear logic and human ways, but it does not know the higher dimensions at all. This is what I am here to study. My left side, my feminine or passive side, is higher dimensional. And it is true for everyone, not just me.
After recognizing this while doing my breathing, then I began seeing the two sides of me - the female and male sides - entwined together like a corded rope, thick and tight, like a cord running up and down my spine. In yoga science the left feminine is called Ida and the right masculine is called Pingala. Ida and Pingala are Sanskrit terms from ancient teachings. Both start out at the same root, the tailbone chakra, and separate out immediately upon leaving the root. They each travel up and around the central column separately and in opposite directions - the symbol of the caduceus in medicine. As one continues evolving in sacred knowledge of the inner science and through the practices of yoga, breathing or other disciplines taught by metaphysical schools, one learns more about it. That's where I am today, after many years of study. I am still learning and receiving inner revelations.
As I continued the breathing exercise, now seeing the corded rope running up my spinal column, I saw it thicken. It runs upward, tightly wound together. This is a new revelation to me. They used to spiral separately, AROUND the central column. They never ever entered INTO the central column, because each had their separate path they followed, up around the spine in opposite directions for they opposed each other. They represented the dualities and challenges of different opinions and ways of life. But as I continued breathing the exercise, the pure light of the ida and the darker light of the pingala came together as one rope. They grew closer and tighter together, so that I could SEE it happen. The rope of the central column is now stronger, thicker and wider. It is covering more territory in the central trunk. They still go in opposite directions but but they wrap around each other, adding support to each other, one divine, the other human who makes mistakes.
When I saw the two sides entwined together like this - one pure crystal light and one darker more concentrated energy - I had a new awareness. Why I always felt as if I was tipping over to the left. Why it was so difficult for me to balance my left and right. I couldn't do it by mind power alone. I had to go to the next higher level to understand it from a higher, or you could say deeper, level. Higher or deeper are one and the same thing, a merge of two opposites. The mind is used to opposites, it fights and resists against opposites. But the mind is not used to merging opposites! This is the rare gift that Tantra brings to us. But that's another story for another day.
The great mystery to us humans who think we are so rational and logical (!) is that consciousness is the power, not the mind. The mind does not have the same power to change things that consciousness does. Consciousness is the silent power behind the mind. It is vaster. It is supreme. Through the practice of meditation and sitting in silence and observing oneself, one becomes conscious of this vaster consciousness and intelligence. It is more powerful than the mind. Consciousness is attention. Wherever attention goes, there is consciousness. This fact is overlooked by the vast majority, if they don't practice sitting in silence and observing. Our mental powers are important for producing thoughts and directing thought to specific areas that we want to explore. We can concentrate on one area over and above another area. We can shut out distractions through the power of our concentration. But there is a silent consciousness behind our thinking. Thinking is forceful. We "push" it out into areas. But consciousness remains silent behind the thought. It is called the spirit flowing through the body.
I am here to learn this truth and to dig deeper into who I am. I see that I am the larger aspect that moves through my body. I can control my body's leanings left and right better when I am aware of this. I am the power of consciousness behind my body, and behind my mind and emotions. The ida and pingala are the two energy pathways that spiral up around my spinal trunk in opposite directions, causing me to struggle with myself. I am both divine AND human. I didn't know that. People have been saying it, but just reading it is not enough. I had to come to realize it for myself, within. It is important to study it and feel its effects sensually, in a practical manner, and watch for the goosebumps and chills that run over your skin when you connect with the truth.
We are here to work 50-50 with the divine in us. We are born human but the divine is there underneath, supporting the human. We didn't know. Our parents and teachers didn't tell us because they didn't know either. We as a race of intelligent creatures are evolving our consciousness, our intelligence, our awareness. . We are entering the higher dimensions and becoming more enlightened. The light within is beginning to glow and radiate. We are becoming INNER-lightened. Our personality has lived before, in many other bodies, gaining experience in how to better drive a human body. It is a vehicle. How do the parts work? We have to practice with them, consciously. The divine is always here to guide us. It is the immortal aspect that has never been influenced by human faults or failures. It cannot be contaminated by failure. The divine aspect has been called the Christ by the Christian religion, and Krishna by the Hindu religion. It means the divine aspect. It remains pure. It is the God-self. It is what creates the human body in the first place.
It is the power behind the throne. It is here to support, advise and counsel the human as it grows stronger and better at mastering the functions of the physical body. The human is the masculine side, the right side, the divine is the feminine side, the left side. Men and women have both aspects running through them. The feminine side is soft, tender, supportive and nourishing, but never pushy. It allows the human to have free will and do it "his" way, "her" way. But it never abandons us. We would die if it did. It is ALWAYS there. Deeply personal, ready and waiting for the human to connect with it, to ask it questions and to then listen to it. It is an ever sacred, ever private, persoal guide.
When the human practicality and the divine work in harmony together, a happier, more peaceful life is experienced. This is true for every man, woman and child. It would be good to pass this information along to the next generation. Both sides of us have always been there, as long as we are in physical embodiment. I have grown wiser through trial, error and mistakes, but the divine has always been there in the pattern of the right, the true and honorable way to go - a higher guide to my human side. But I have to ask and I have to listen in time-out mode. We must ask and then take time to sit quietly and pay attention. If only I had known earlier in life! It is consciousness that does the work of growing up and balancing, not mind alone. Getting to know the difference takes practice, sitting in silence and observing the difference. Mental thinking is a thrusting, pushy effort, whereas silence is like listening to the void. Thought is a forced movement that is started like one starts the engine of a car and starts driving it off in a direction. But consciousness does not start nor does it move. It observes. It is a silent wise counselor. It doesn't move at all. It just is. It is the intelligence of the one infinite creator. Vast and infinite and we humans have it running through us. We are one with the infinite, even while we are unique and one of a kind. There is no duplicate because we have had many lives to create our personality and our uniqueness. We can be picked out by Those Who Know among the gray masses of the many.
Silent awareness is how we connect to our divine feminine side. Men, you have a divine feminine side. Women, you have a divine masculine side. Don't be fooled. You are androgynous. I am more impressed today with yoga disciplines than I was in my earlier life. I did not know back then. Today I would advise everyone to take up one of the disciplines that appeals to you and to which you are drawn by magnetic attraction. A sign of knowing when you've hit on a truth is when goosebumps run up and down your body, giving you chills. It is a "clicking" in of the human with the divine in you. It is as if you were slightly off kilter and suddenly now you hit the right key note on the keyboard. The download begins then from the divine side, and the upload begins from the human side and the link-up takes place. Trust it. Revelations may or may not occur immediately, but they will appear in days to come. This inner connection between the divine and human is symbolized in the beautiful picture of the androgynous statue shown above.
4/28/23 Updating...
Well, the vastness energies are swirling like crazy, widening me and updating my brain. I am being expanded from the old me to a newer model and it's dizzying. My abilities to handle the lighter, more expanded energies are working overtime. I am adapting very slowly, but adapting I am. It is extremely difficult to think straight but determination to see it through to the end is the only way to deal with it. Determined to stay standing and talk normally and don't give in to what other people say. I am my own authority. I know what I'm doing. The downloads of new revelations continue create new brain cells as long as I stay determined and keep my mind open. I am OK even though my brain swirls and bumps against the walls of my skull. I have received instructions and am allowing it. The goal is to bring the "far out" in closer,, narrower, more focused, more real, with boundaries. Every morning I wake up with new information talking to me and my brain is accepting unbelievable information. As I journal each day my own revealings, I don't have time to read and post beautiful, awesome articles by other people, though I scan through them and am educated by them. We are all working this spiritual widening process together, each in our own way.
On the physical level, today Doug switched us over from one internet provider who is an older one, to another, newer, younger company who can provide faster service. The technicians were here installing and explaining to Doug as I listened, and my mind exploded into their space and reeled dizzily with unfamiliar energies. But I continued to listen like a normal person.
Wednesday Doug created a zoom meeting with my family to celebrate my 85th birthday. I haven't been in contact with them much over the years, but it was fabulous and awesome because, while talking with them on a mundane level I was also connecting with them in the starry planes of their higher selves. I saw their energies and merged with them, becoming one with them in their vastness. There is no way to say it better than that. I was able to participate with each of my family on both the ground level and in the vastness of their higher intelligence. Afterward, while sleeping, I saw even more and further, and I woke up the next morning with more connection. The connection is solid and real with them. Even after all these years.
I cannot begin to say here in words the experience but I'm trying. I want to share what I know. The result of all this unfolding contact with higher dimensional space is overwhelming, would be overwhelming if I didn't know that it's a normal process of consciousness evolution. And that it IS natural and we ARE protected by an infinitely compassionate God who is pulling the strings and has a Plan. Do not fear it. I am being told that I'm simply widening my abilities to handle it. Nerve synapses are expanding and upgrading the limitations I have been carrying. A dizzy, empty mind is a temporary inconvenience. Accommodate it with faith. The higher dimensional insights are worth it. It is my job, my duty, my mission to write my story to encourage others that it is OK, that it is normal and natural, and to go with the circumstances. They will pass and you will be better for it. I want to help. I wish I could help those who may be going through a difficult time right now. It could be any number of things that cause confusion, pain or upheavals. Please know, if you are reading this, that you are not alone. We are all part of the process of an immaculate evolution for the Earth. There is far, far, far, far more than we understand that is behind this evolution to higher planes. We are going to be the winners if we can get through it without crumbling. It WILL pass. Be strong and be determined. It changes quickly if you let it. No matter what the world is going through outside your front door, if you stay standing and stay centered in your own body and spinal column, and agree to let every one else take care of their own problems, it will pass on by you. Keep your connection to the ground you stand on. Go outside and sit or lie down on the grass for half an hour. Mother Earth will nourish you and take away your confusion.
There is a tube of etheric light that runs up and down around your spinal column. Breathe up and down it, from Sun to Earth. It comes in from above your head and down into your brain and your brain squeezes it to fit. Let it squeeze. Pretend you are normal and it's OK. It will pass. Give it a little time. Lie down and rest while picturing this tube of light going down your spinal cord into the earth beneath you (even when you're lying down). It is the main trunk of your REAL self. You are flowing into your body through your spine and going down to connect with the Earth who is your Mother life force. Your brain is flowering as you hold this picture in your mind. The top of your tree of life is a flowering of new leaves and branches growing. And the dove of peace and love is sitting in those top-most branches giving you comfort.
Repeat the OM or Aum. The symbol is pictured at the top of this page. The Om is a long drawn-out sound "ooooommmmm", which is comforting to the body. It is like a mother's lullaby. It is the universal music of the spheres. Picture the symbol of the OM, memorize it. Hold it in your mind's eye as you silently or slightly louder chant the Om. This will help to stabilize your physical body, all the parts will feel nourished and soothed. Lie down and do this as often as you feel the need to. But then get up and move, again, because moving stretches your muscles and your brain cells so that your true and authentic spiritual, mental, emotional self can flow through into your body and enlarge the parts that need enlarging. This is an alignment process. Align your various levels so they are in harmony. Do this often. Do it before sleep or in the night when you can't sleep. And if you need some encouraging words, contact me via the contact page and I'll write you back. Bless you. Peace and love. You are not alone.
4/25/23 - You are a sphere of light!
I woke up this morning hearing words in my mind: “You are not a body but a sphere of light, of consciousness." As the words continued I took the note pad and began writing.
You had time during embryo stage to become accustomed to it. You helped it, or saw it being built cell by cell, atom by atom, so you are aware of how your body looks and operates. You know its purpose intimately, and after your body – not YOU but your body - was born you had time in the new world of people and objects to learn how to use your new body. You learned how to move the legs, the arms, the head, stomach, the mouth to eat, to make noise, to respond to the feel of arms holding you. And slowly you identified with your body and became familiar with it. You did it before with other bodies, many other lifetimes in the past, but you have forgotten that now, in your dedicated focus on this one body.
So you are not your body. You are the conscious sphere of light and intelligence that moves your body and enjoys its sensations. There are seven layers of specific gifts that you have built into your sphere of light. If your culture doesn’t teach you about these qualities – love is one of them – then they remain in the background of your life as a feature that you long for. You dream of love. Truth is another natural quality in you but often the culture doesn’t value truth or high-light it, so it too reains in the background.
As I said, there are seven gifts that you are embedded with, that are given to you to use and to learn how to activate during your life in form. You are here to learn how. There are only seven. These ae called the seven bodies and the seven chakras. There are many other names that have been given for them, for there are many shades, colors and approaches you may use. Names are important to learn, but how you apply these gifts and qualities in your daily life is what matters the most. Your creative ability is put to the test. Do you apply them to your life and actions? You are here in a body of form to learn how to USE these qualities every day, for they are YOU. This is the hard part. You have to figure it out because these gifts are who you are. They are built into you. They ARE you. You ARE the gifts. You came here to gift them to the world of form. There are forces against you to stop you from manifesting these gifts, so you get frustrated. But you have intelligence and stubbornness and patience and love and purity and truth and kindness and determination and wisdom from past life experiences. You have skills that you have acquired over many lives in form.
You have logical, mathematical, scientific methods that you have proven to yourself that work for you. Your innate sense of right and wrong is your own personal nature, there for you to use as needed. You have already experienced the form life. You know how it works. You experience peace as it contrasts against pain, and comfort vs. discomfort. You have learned. You know this instinctively. As you continue to organize and apply your seven virtues and qualities - the gifts given you by the creator - so they are functioning well together, aligned together and harmonized together, then you will feel more and more free, happy and in the right place to fulfill yourself. You are becoming more free to live your life the way you want to live it, happily and with creativity, comfort, pleasure and love. You have it all. You have all that you need to live in form, on earth, in harmony and in peace with others. You are not missing anything or feeling lack anywhere. You are fulfilling your desire to be here. Your will to live is strong. You are using your intelligence to figure out the best way to accomplish what you want to accomplish. You are using love, kindness and patience to work well with others. You are using your purity, your truth, your sense of peace and comfort to tell you when you are on the right path.
As you apply, manifest and express all of yourself, your gifts and qualities freely, to reach that point of perfection while in body, then you are home free. The seventh gift is freedom in form. The seven chakras have been broken. They were the closed gates until you mastered them, one by one, and opened them from your inside knowledge. Not by what other people told you, but by applying yourself, your own innate knowings to situations. Always the freedom to express your OWN truth, not someone else's truth, is the right way to go to order to correct the disfigurement that had to play out in your life. It had to draw your attention to it. You had to find the right approach to take and it was within you all the time. Distraction caused by outsiders caused you to forget yourself. This distraction had to be mastered before you could turn within and listen to your own guidance. You had to reach that point of listening to your heart, your heart's intelligence, your feeling channels of comfort and peace and knowledge. Then circumstances changes. Then you are done with it. And life becomes ,more beautiful.
Learning to live whole and free in form life, especially on planet Earth, has been a hard school. But you have learned. You had tricks up your sleeve. You were not sent here without guides. You are your father’s child. You have his qualities in you. These qualities ring like a crystal clear bell striking another inside you in purity. You know when you have the right solution. Your mother is with you all the way through the form life. She is the mother of form life. She is your innate intelligence, holding your body together. Pain tells you one thing, peace and kindness tells you another. You have learned to be discerning. And to listen. To follow the rightness, and turn away from the wrongness. Struggle tells which way to go. Your mother is there to tell you, for she lives in your feelings and your innate body intelligence.
Kirlian photography has captured proof of the real you in the form of pictures of glowing radiation around you. You are not your body. You are the radiation that moves through your body with intelligence. You are the space holding your body together, which requires atoms and electrons to cling together to form cells and molecules and larger organs, bones and muscles that gives shape and function to your body. You are the intelligence holding these cells together. And when you sleep at night, you travel to other realities and meet and enjoy interacting with others, learning and teaching as you go, as appropriate. Life is harmonious. Life flows together as needs are expressed and answered.
The more refined you become in your ability to express your seven gifts, manifest your seven gifts into your outer life, the better your life adjusts to harmony and happiness. Harmony is the natural order of life. You no longer need to seek answers because solutions just appear naturally. You are becoming balanced, just as the planets are balanced in their orbits around the suns. As your own life improves you may notice that you are less able to feel good around certain people. They do not belong to your natural resonance - your home energies. Then it is that your inner gifts may begin to be seen by others who have not yet mastered their own inner qualities. You then become a light to the world around you. By sharing your truth openly and freely, daringly and courageously, frankly and truthfully, then the more you will notice vitality creeping into your day-to-day life. The vitality of youth and vigor. Life becomes more powerful when things are harmonized. When thoughts and emotions harmonize and don't conflict. Then the urge and excitement to serve the world around you increases. You find solutions more quickly. You find people responding to you more readily. You do not want to lie down and rest so much because there is a quickening of interest. Life is moving more swiftly through your body as you enter the higher regions of thought, feeling and mind.
4/23/23 - Born of the Earth, heading for the Stars
I am born of the Earth, the Earth gave me form. The substance of old matter built my form. This old matter was discarded by others when they died and it went back into the earth. The Earth recycles matter that was once used by others. The Earth provides a home for self-aware beings to start out as basic form. The first basic form is mineral, sand and rock. It is a dull consciousness at first. It then grows in self awareness to learn movement, like the one-celled amoeba, then two-celled and more. Then self-consciousness grows into larger substances like grass and then into fruit and then into trees. Then self-consciousness grows into crawling things on the ground, then into animals with four legs, then into higher animal forms, each round of evolultion for this SELF awareness taking on more and more alertness.
Then self consciousness grows upright to stand on two legs, and all the while earth is home, born of the earth. We are that self-aware human who is now standing up, walking, talking and growing more civilized. We are looking up beyond earth, wondering what's out there, building telescopes, learning more about space and other planets, other galactic civilizations, wondering about inhabitants, about the sun, the galaxy and more. The mother flame kundalini has started expanding in us. Geniuses have come forward. Children are showing signs of knowing more than the parents. New brain cells are growing beyond earth’s former limits. The upright spine has opened in some, not in others, and the mother flame is giving birth to the pouch of life called the christ or crystal at the tailbone. The tail bone flame is heating up and burning through the veils, obstructions called chakras, and the heat is radiating a vaster intelligence as it flows up the spine. That which was called "the christ" in religious terms has been activated by certain movements, disciplines taught by teachers coming suddenly forward.
The physiology, muscles, nerves and tissues, are activated. Movement is felt throughout the body, organs. There is mystery, there is confusion, there is pain, disease, problems. We must struggle through it. The evolution from earth human to divine human is underway. It is SELF consciousness. No one can do it for us. We are the intelligence inside the shell. We are breaking free of the shell. Hysteria and fear walk hand in hand with awesome elation and excitement. The human is reaching beyond the earth. He can't help it. It is in his nature. He is intelligence walking the earth. There is a greater intelligence beyond him and he is reaching for it, drawn like a moth to a flame. Like a female to a male. The spine is an open channel from earth to sky. Out of the sides grow smaller nerves to feed the vital organs with awareness. The body is waking up. We have drunk the elixer of life and we don't know what to do with it. What do we do with the old ways? When it reaches the brain it creates headaches and dizziness and it pounds - knock, knock, knock - against the skull, building pressure. Trying to get free, to find the father. It is self-aware now. The brain is activated to more intelligence, to the need for more control over the mind. The craziness, the dizziness, the hypocondriac CAN BE controlled. My mind is clearing now. New insight is coming.
The pure crystal light pattern has been with me forever, but today for the first time I am accepting it. I am realizing it. I received instruction in the night. I asked about it as I went to sleep - I asked Yeshua how did HE find it and how and could he give me some instruction. And I got it in the night, both in printed form, words after words after words printed, and also in spoken words. I am shown the seven layers of attributes, the gifts that we parrot the words of but don't apply. These need to be applied regularly, hourly, outwardly in daily life. I saw the multi-colored spheres around me in the oval shape of the auric field and I was shown the words - will power, intelligence, love, purity, truth, mind and freedom. These are to be applied in real life silently, under conscious control and managed to perfection.
The pure crystal light is unfolding in me. I already know it as a pattern for the human. It was shown to me as a tree of life, as a web of pure gold light. And it was also shown to me how a darker web of limited sight has created an artificial web over it. A darker web has grown over in front of it, around it and is feeding off it like a parasite. We are the ego, gaining in understanding as we live through circumstances and pressures. The pure gold light is still there or we wouldn't be alive. It takes care of our bodily systems and needs to breathe, eat and eliminate. The pure gold light is the same pattern in everyone. It is what we as individuals that builds character over on top of it. Infuses our unique ways into the pure gold of our life force. The pure gold is the template we all live off of without exception, but it is we who must perfect our life through conscious managing of the details. As we become more in touch with our own internal nature we follow the pure gold pattern within. We nbecome more knowledgeable, more patient, more peaceful, more gracious, more refined. We are a combination of divine and human.
The crystal pure light is the same in everyone. It is the individual who gives it character and builds into it the unique experiences which we entertain through our life on earth. We "color" our divine pure gold light with our personality. It is not wrong. It is meant to be. We are meant to become living individual masters of our lives. We have much to offer from our accumulated skills. There is no other like me or you. We alone are the creator of our perfection.
We are becoming an individual that is unique in the whole living sea of the One. You are connected to the One life through the gold and crystal pattern within. It looks like a web of gold. It is the link to the One intelligence - the only ONE intelligence in existence - out of which all life springs. This link lies within the human frame, within the human cells, the atoms and, yes, even the space between the swirling electrons of the atoms. The space is the consciousness. God consciousness means the Good consciousness. The right consciousness. The Father-Mother consciousness. Father is the abstract intelligence, and Mother is the form-building consciousness. She holds the atoms and molecules together like glue to form the solid structure of the human body, cells and tissues.
She is known as Mother Shakti, or Mother Kundalini. She resides in the ethers around the coccyx (tailbone) at the base of the spine. She feeds intelligence and life up the spine to keep the body alive. She will enlarge the dose of life if the individual will turn inward and ask for it. She is intelligent and will listen and respond. She is the divine feminine. She receives abstract intelligence from the One and gives form and life to the individual from birth through until death of the form. She will provide not only life but intelligent answers and instructions if the being will listen and follow through. If the individual will not listen or pay attention, then the flow remains the same. But if the individual will become silent and carry on a conversation with the Mother Shakti who is intelligent, she will increase the dose of life. It is the same type of relationship as a good child listening and talking with a good responsive mother.
4/19/23 - Why do we go to the heart?
Imagine being in a black room. You can’t see anything. You reach out to feel your way around. You can feel walls and objects but they are foreign to you. You continue fumbling for a long time. It is very confusing and unfamiliar. You feel scared. Finally, after some length of time and fumbling, your hands run across a button, you push it and suddenly there is light! It is a light switch! You find that you are in a beautiful room with windows that you did not see before. You see friends, familiar friends, waiting for you outside, and more friends behind them, and even more friends, as if there is a gathering of family. And you see a door which you did not see before. It is open. It was never locked to you. You just didn’t know it was there. The feelings of loss, confusion and panic that covered you and smothered you are now gone. You feel free and happy because - all because you can see. And because you can see your friends happily waiting for you, happy that you found the right switch. The secret switch in human beings is the heart.
These revelations are sent to me, I just realized, in one fell-swoop blast. I get the information all at once, in words, but not in words. It is as if I receive the information from all over everywhere at once. Like when the light turns on in a completely black room. It doesn’t require "time" to receive this information, as in one word after another after another, which we need in 3D. It takes "time" to read words, to use our senses or listen to someone speak, but when we go into the heart and look up, with patience we can turn on the light. I just realized that this morning.
4/13/23 - The holy spirit as a radiating sun in the body
In the last few days I have been led to find answers, click-click-click, that I've been searching for since 1947. It was in 1947 that I went into the light during a meditation in an OBE - out-of-body experience. When I returned to normalcy (although a new normal) I had questions. What just happened? Today I'm filled with excitement because, again, click-click-click, things are linking up like wild fire. Yesterday I found something in my journals and want to share it (Click HERE). This was a channeling from the Master DK. I had forgotten about it and revisiting it was mind-blowing. I see with new eyes. I'm linking in better to it. Each of us is on our own unique one-of-a-kind spiritual journey to higher understanding. We are evolving our understanding. It's a new age and the new age is dawning fast. It is an age of sharing, revealing and telling each other what is going on in our lives. Hearing other people's stories helps us. They remind us that we are all connected. They fill in gaps in our understanding. We are linking up. Even though we are each different and our paths take different routes up the mountain (and through rocky places) still, we are on the same journey to the same destination. We are part of one vast elegant superior mind that holds the suns, planets and people in orbit around the sun - plus we are human too. We are meant to know this about ourselves. There is a sun within us trying to shine.
The process of kundalini awakening is the process of the sun trying to shine outward into manifestation from inside us. The holy spirit is awakening in the human body, and it is causing a lot of havoc and confusion. We don't understand what is happening. It has ALWAYS been here. It has ALWAYS been operating. We just weren't evolved enough to see it, as a race of humans evolving. We didn't realize that puberty and the sexual arousal had anything to do with the holy spirit trying to shine. We didn't know the word "kundalini". But today we are learning about it. There is research going on behind the scenes which we don't know about. There are lights in the sky, aurora borealis and star ships and other unknowns - radiations from beyond us. There is a cosmic story unfolding and we're starting to become aware of it. Suddenly it is breaking free of the closet in which it has been hiding. Suddenly there are headlines. And there are people talking about it. There are books being written. Youtubes being aired. Scholars writing about it.
And here's the thing: Behind every young person's puberty, around age 10, 12 or so, the kundalini stirs. It is also known as the holy spirit. It stirs and sends radiations up the spine to adjust and prepare the body - making it tender for love - because what is to come is loving beyond measure. It is time for the body to quicken for love. The fruit has ripened. This body has grown and is ready to bring forth the first glimmerings of the holy life that is held within. That gave it life to begin with. Can you remember back to that day of puberty? When the feelings started? There was a warmth, a loving goodness that needed to be expressed, shared, allowed to grow. Perhaps there was abuse or something worse. But we, humanity, did not know. There was ignorance. It was insinuated that it was bad, evil, and to stifle it, put it back down, ignore it. We became divided then.
Meanwhile the sages of the East were developing their enlightenment techniques, following ancient texts. Today they have spread those techniques around the world and have drawn millions into practicing yoga, meditation and inner spiritual studies. The planet is moving slowly but surely out of the dark ages. We as a race are evolving consciously from animal man to God man, turning animal grunts to refined noises of song, love and reverence. The awakening of kundalini brings betterment, sophistication, intelligence, beauty and truth. There is a higher power now moving through our lives. It is active, for good or for bad because there are misalignments and misconceptions that need clearing. Detox is a purging. Shortly after my dramatic awakening of kundalini in 1976 and my journey into the light, I was led in a higher way. I felt it. I found the Gopi Krishna interview tapes which preceded his books. Gopi Krishna had a similar awakening experience prior to me, but it was a bad one. He had a terrible time adjusting to the pure God-like energy. He had not prepared for it. I had been better prepared without realizing.
Gopi Krishna was so haunted by his years-long trauma with kundalini, that he began a study of the ancient texts and pushed for scientific research. In the 1970's John White published a book of many sources, writings of many teachers, gurus and scholars on the subject of kundalini awakening. He was not the author but the editor. Gopi Krishna comes out on top, remaining the scholarly leader of the pack by bringing the mysterious subject into modern terms. It is natural, he says. We must understand how it functions biologically. It is this other-worldly radiation that begins quickening in every child around the age of 10 or 11 at puberty. It is the breaking free of the light within, the love within. The consciousness of the child is getting ready to expand and reach the brain. It first awakens the body, then the brain and delivers new insight and information about who he/she is, and what he is capable of, his destined place among the stars, enlightened. But he is told to bury it. Hide it. It is sex and it is sinful.
Yet the sun still shines within. The mystery is still unexplored and unexplained. Our bodies are still in confusion, our minds unsure which way to go. All the while there is a sun shining and breaking up the false ideas that have led us wrong, down negative paths into bad ways that hurt us. The sun that is shining is trying to reach out and connect with others, to share the stories so we can bring love, joy and freedom back to the planet. The plan is to become a radiating planet of happiness, peace among all the people, with intelligent, benevolent leaders. The shining comes and goes and comes back again. We haven't been paying attention. We haven't gotten the message yet - that we are a people of light, not darkness. It is the plan that we evolve OURSELVES. We don't have a savior. We are the one who saves our bodies from wrack and ruin, by operating together, peacefully, harmoniously, sharing as a team.
And the wonderful, beautiful human bodies of my friends and peers whom I have held and loved and stroked all through my adult life, were the ones that kept me grounded, sane, happy and moving forward with my own plan. So I am here today to talk about the kundalini and tell my story. Many stories. Others had to go through horror stories because they didn't have the insight that I had been given - to follow my instincts, my heart, my feelings of goodness that arose naturally from within. Follow your GOOD feelings. The feelings of rightness. It is the love within the human body that is trying to be born. Not to save others, but to save ourself. We are the first one to save, our own body. Be selfish about loving your own body. Make sure you are the first one to take care of. Then you can reach out and care for others. Be kind. Be aware. Love is the guiding light. Love is what we must follow in everything we touch, hold and do. Love is not what we used to think. Love is not personal. It can't be closed down and locked inside a narrow box. It can't be fixed like that. The love in us has to expand to others or it becomes warped. Love has to be opened up INSIDE the marriage or the marriage will fail. Truth, freedom, balance of power, openness, respect for individuality, of kindness, sharing experiences, sensitivity, and all the rest of the good qualities also need to be present inside the relationship or it won't work.
Love is much bigger than the words "I love you." Love is kind and highly aware of right and wrong. It keeps the peace and the precision of things moving orderly through life. There is a balance to all things. It keeps the universe running smoothly and our personal lives as human beings can also be run smoothly. Tuning into the sun within - the love within - is the answer to whatever might be hindering or blocking us from moving on. It is the bigger part of our humanness. Its the OLD thoughts and restrictions that cause the problems. Sharing stories openly can help. That's why I'm posting articles about kundalini here. One of the more beautiful ones, was channeled by Master DK and can be read HERE, in my new "Kundalini Blog".
4/11/23 - Your tailbone holds the key to your identity
On the physical level, today Doug switched us over from one internet provider who is an older one, to another, newer, younger company who can provide faster service. The technicians were here installing and explaining to Doug as I listened, and my mind exploded into their space and reeled dizzily with unfamiliar energies. But I continued to listen like a normal person.
Wednesday Doug created a zoom meeting with my family to celebrate my 85th birthday. I haven't been in contact with them much over the years, but it was fabulous and awesome because, while talking with them on a mundane level I was also connecting with them in the starry planes of their higher selves. I saw their energies and merged with them, becoming one with them in their vastness. There is no way to say it better than that. I was able to participate with each of my family on both the ground level and in the vastness of their higher intelligence. Afterward, while sleeping, I saw even more and further, and I woke up the next morning with more connection. The connection is solid and real with them. Even after all these years.
I cannot begin to say here in words the experience but I'm trying. I want to share what I know. The result of all this unfolding contact with higher dimensional space is overwhelming, would be overwhelming if I didn't know that it's a normal process of consciousness evolution. And that it IS natural and we ARE protected by an infinitely compassionate God who is pulling the strings and has a Plan. Do not fear it. I am being told that I'm simply widening my abilities to handle it. Nerve synapses are expanding and upgrading the limitations I have been carrying. A dizzy, empty mind is a temporary inconvenience. Accommodate it with faith. The higher dimensional insights are worth it. It is my job, my duty, my mission to write my story to encourage others that it is OK, that it is normal and natural, and to go with the circumstances. They will pass and you will be better for it. I want to help. I wish I could help those who may be going through a difficult time right now. It could be any number of things that cause confusion, pain or upheavals. Please know, if you are reading this, that you are not alone. We are all part of the process of an immaculate evolution for the Earth. There is far, far, far, far more than we understand that is behind this evolution to higher planes. We are going to be the winners if we can get through it without crumbling. It WILL pass. Be strong and be determined. It changes quickly if you let it. No matter what the world is going through outside your front door, if you stay standing and stay centered in your own body and spinal column, and agree to let every one else take care of their own problems, it will pass on by you. Keep your connection to the ground you stand on. Go outside and sit or lie down on the grass for half an hour. Mother Earth will nourish you and take away your confusion.
There is a tube of etheric light that runs up and down around your spinal column. Breathe up and down it, from Sun to Earth. It comes in from above your head and down into your brain and your brain squeezes it to fit. Let it squeeze. Pretend you are normal and it's OK. It will pass. Give it a little time. Lie down and rest while picturing this tube of light going down your spinal cord into the earth beneath you (even when you're lying down). It is the main trunk of your REAL self. You are flowing into your body through your spine and going down to connect with the Earth who is your Mother life force. Your brain is flowering as you hold this picture in your mind. The top of your tree of life is a flowering of new leaves and branches growing. And the dove of peace and love is sitting in those top-most branches giving you comfort.
Repeat the OM or Aum. The symbol is pictured at the top of this page. The Om is a long drawn-out sound "ooooommmmm", which is comforting to the body. It is like a mother's lullaby. It is the universal music of the spheres. Picture the symbol of the OM, memorize it. Hold it in your mind's eye as you silently or slightly louder chant the Om. This will help to stabilize your physical body, all the parts will feel nourished and soothed. Lie down and do this as often as you feel the need to. But then get up and move, again, because moving stretches your muscles and your brain cells so that your true and authentic spiritual, mental, emotional self can flow through into your body and enlarge the parts that need enlarging. This is an alignment process. Align your various levels so they are in harmony. Do this often. Do it before sleep or in the night when you can't sleep. And if you need some encouraging words, contact me via the contact page and I'll write you back. Bless you. Peace and love. You are not alone.
4/25/23 - You are a sphere of light!
I woke up this morning hearing words in my mind: “You are not a body but a sphere of light, of consciousness." As the words continued I took the note pad and began writing.
You had time during embryo stage to become accustomed to it. You helped it, or saw it being built cell by cell, atom by atom, so you are aware of how your body looks and operates. You know its purpose intimately, and after your body – not YOU but your body - was born you had time in the new world of people and objects to learn how to use your new body. You learned how to move the legs, the arms, the head, stomach, the mouth to eat, to make noise, to respond to the feel of arms holding you. And slowly you identified with your body and became familiar with it. You did it before with other bodies, many other lifetimes in the past, but you have forgotten that now, in your dedicated focus on this one body.
So you are not your body. You are the conscious sphere of light and intelligence that moves your body and enjoys its sensations. There are seven layers of specific gifts that you have built into your sphere of light. If your culture doesn’t teach you about these qualities – love is one of them – then they remain in the background of your life as a feature that you long for. You dream of love. Truth is another natural quality in you but often the culture doesn’t value truth or high-light it, so it too reains in the background.
As I said, there are seven gifts that you are embedded with, that are given to you to use and to learn how to activate during your life in form. You are here to learn how. There are only seven. These ae called the seven bodies and the seven chakras. There are many other names that have been given for them, for there are many shades, colors and approaches you may use. Names are important to learn, but how you apply these gifts and qualities in your daily life is what matters the most. Your creative ability is put to the test. Do you apply them to your life and actions? You are here in a body of form to learn how to USE these qualities every day, for they are YOU. This is the hard part. You have to figure it out because these gifts are who you are. They are built into you. They ARE you. You ARE the gifts. You came here to gift them to the world of form. There are forces against you to stop you from manifesting these gifts, so you get frustrated. But you have intelligence and stubbornness and patience and love and purity and truth and kindness and determination and wisdom from past life experiences. You have skills that you have acquired over many lives in form.
You have logical, mathematical, scientific methods that you have proven to yourself that work for you. Your innate sense of right and wrong is your own personal nature, there for you to use as needed. You have already experienced the form life. You know how it works. You experience peace as it contrasts against pain, and comfort vs. discomfort. You have learned. You know this instinctively. As you continue to organize and apply your seven virtues and qualities - the gifts given you by the creator - so they are functioning well together, aligned together and harmonized together, then you will feel more and more free, happy and in the right place to fulfill yourself. You are becoming more free to live your life the way you want to live it, happily and with creativity, comfort, pleasure and love. You have it all. You have all that you need to live in form, on earth, in harmony and in peace with others. You are not missing anything or feeling lack anywhere. You are fulfilling your desire to be here. Your will to live is strong. You are using your intelligence to figure out the best way to accomplish what you want to accomplish. You are using love, kindness and patience to work well with others. You are using your purity, your truth, your sense of peace and comfort to tell you when you are on the right path.
As you apply, manifest and express all of yourself, your gifts and qualities freely, to reach that point of perfection while in body, then you are home free. The seventh gift is freedom in form. The seven chakras have been broken. They were the closed gates until you mastered them, one by one, and opened them from your inside knowledge. Not by what other people told you, but by applying yourself, your own innate knowings to situations. Always the freedom to express your OWN truth, not someone else's truth, is the right way to go to order to correct the disfigurement that had to play out in your life. It had to draw your attention to it. You had to find the right approach to take and it was within you all the time. Distraction caused by outsiders caused you to forget yourself. This distraction had to be mastered before you could turn within and listen to your own guidance. You had to reach that point of listening to your heart, your heart's intelligence, your feeling channels of comfort and peace and knowledge. Then circumstances changes. Then you are done with it. And life becomes ,more beautiful.
Learning to live whole and free in form life, especially on planet Earth, has been a hard school. But you have learned. You had tricks up your sleeve. You were not sent here without guides. You are your father’s child. You have his qualities in you. These qualities ring like a crystal clear bell striking another inside you in purity. You know when you have the right solution. Your mother is with you all the way through the form life. She is the mother of form life. She is your innate intelligence, holding your body together. Pain tells you one thing, peace and kindness tells you another. You have learned to be discerning. And to listen. To follow the rightness, and turn away from the wrongness. Struggle tells which way to go. Your mother is there to tell you, for she lives in your feelings and your innate body intelligence.
Kirlian photography has captured proof of the real you in the form of pictures of glowing radiation around you. You are not your body. You are the radiation that moves through your body with intelligence. You are the space holding your body together, which requires atoms and electrons to cling together to form cells and molecules and larger organs, bones and muscles that gives shape and function to your body. You are the intelligence holding these cells together. And when you sleep at night, you travel to other realities and meet and enjoy interacting with others, learning and teaching as you go, as appropriate. Life is harmonious. Life flows together as needs are expressed and answered.
The more refined you become in your ability to express your seven gifts, manifest your seven gifts into your outer life, the better your life adjusts to harmony and happiness. Harmony is the natural order of life. You no longer need to seek answers because solutions just appear naturally. You are becoming balanced, just as the planets are balanced in their orbits around the suns. As your own life improves you may notice that you are less able to feel good around certain people. They do not belong to your natural resonance - your home energies. Then it is that your inner gifts may begin to be seen by others who have not yet mastered their own inner qualities. You then become a light to the world around you. By sharing your truth openly and freely, daringly and courageously, frankly and truthfully, then the more you will notice vitality creeping into your day-to-day life. The vitality of youth and vigor. Life becomes more powerful when things are harmonized. When thoughts and emotions harmonize and don't conflict. Then the urge and excitement to serve the world around you increases. You find solutions more quickly. You find people responding to you more readily. You do not want to lie down and rest so much because there is a quickening of interest. Life is moving more swiftly through your body as you enter the higher regions of thought, feeling and mind.
4/23/23 - Born of the Earth, heading for the Stars
I am born of the Earth, the Earth gave me form. The substance of old matter built my form. This old matter was discarded by others when they died and it went back into the earth. The Earth recycles matter that was once used by others. The Earth provides a home for self-aware beings to start out as basic form. The first basic form is mineral, sand and rock. It is a dull consciousness at first. It then grows in self awareness to learn movement, like the one-celled amoeba, then two-celled and more. Then self-consciousness grows into larger substances like grass and then into fruit and then into trees. Then self-consciousness grows into crawling things on the ground, then into animals with four legs, then into higher animal forms, each round of evolultion for this SELF awareness taking on more and more alertness.
Then self consciousness grows upright to stand on two legs, and all the while earth is home, born of the earth. We are that self-aware human who is now standing up, walking, talking and growing more civilized. We are looking up beyond earth, wondering what's out there, building telescopes, learning more about space and other planets, other galactic civilizations, wondering about inhabitants, about the sun, the galaxy and more. The mother flame kundalini has started expanding in us. Geniuses have come forward. Children are showing signs of knowing more than the parents. New brain cells are growing beyond earth’s former limits. The upright spine has opened in some, not in others, and the mother flame is giving birth to the pouch of life called the christ or crystal at the tailbone. The tail bone flame is heating up and burning through the veils, obstructions called chakras, and the heat is radiating a vaster intelligence as it flows up the spine. That which was called "the christ" in religious terms has been activated by certain movements, disciplines taught by teachers coming suddenly forward.
The physiology, muscles, nerves and tissues, are activated. Movement is felt throughout the body, organs. There is mystery, there is confusion, there is pain, disease, problems. We must struggle through it. The evolution from earth human to divine human is underway. It is SELF consciousness. No one can do it for us. We are the intelligence inside the shell. We are breaking free of the shell. Hysteria and fear walk hand in hand with awesome elation and excitement. The human is reaching beyond the earth. He can't help it. It is in his nature. He is intelligence walking the earth. There is a greater intelligence beyond him and he is reaching for it, drawn like a moth to a flame. Like a female to a male. The spine is an open channel from earth to sky. Out of the sides grow smaller nerves to feed the vital organs with awareness. The body is waking up. We have drunk the elixer of life and we don't know what to do with it. What do we do with the old ways? When it reaches the brain it creates headaches and dizziness and it pounds - knock, knock, knock - against the skull, building pressure. Trying to get free, to find the father. It is self-aware now. The brain is activated to more intelligence, to the need for more control over the mind. The craziness, the dizziness, the hypocondriac CAN BE controlled. My mind is clearing now. New insight is coming.
The pure crystal light pattern has been with me forever, but today for the first time I am accepting it. I am realizing it. I received instruction in the night. I asked about it as I went to sleep - I asked Yeshua how did HE find it and how and could he give me some instruction. And I got it in the night, both in printed form, words after words after words printed, and also in spoken words. I am shown the seven layers of attributes, the gifts that we parrot the words of but don't apply. These need to be applied regularly, hourly, outwardly in daily life. I saw the multi-colored spheres around me in the oval shape of the auric field and I was shown the words - will power, intelligence, love, purity, truth, mind and freedom. These are to be applied in real life silently, under conscious control and managed to perfection.
The pure crystal light is unfolding in me. I already know it as a pattern for the human. It was shown to me as a tree of life, as a web of pure gold light. And it was also shown to me how a darker web of limited sight has created an artificial web over it. A darker web has grown over in front of it, around it and is feeding off it like a parasite. We are the ego, gaining in understanding as we live through circumstances and pressures. The pure gold light is still there or we wouldn't be alive. It takes care of our bodily systems and needs to breathe, eat and eliminate. The pure gold light is the same pattern in everyone. It is what we as individuals that builds character over on top of it. Infuses our unique ways into the pure gold of our life force. The pure gold is the template we all live off of without exception, but it is we who must perfect our life through conscious managing of the details. As we become more in touch with our own internal nature we follow the pure gold pattern within. We nbecome more knowledgeable, more patient, more peaceful, more gracious, more refined. We are a combination of divine and human.
The crystal pure light is the same in everyone. It is the individual who gives it character and builds into it the unique experiences which we entertain through our life on earth. We "color" our divine pure gold light with our personality. It is not wrong. It is meant to be. We are meant to become living individual masters of our lives. We have much to offer from our accumulated skills. There is no other like me or you. We alone are the creator of our perfection.
We are becoming an individual that is unique in the whole living sea of the One. You are connected to the One life through the gold and crystal pattern within. It looks like a web of gold. It is the link to the One intelligence - the only ONE intelligence in existence - out of which all life springs. This link lies within the human frame, within the human cells, the atoms and, yes, even the space between the swirling electrons of the atoms. The space is the consciousness. God consciousness means the Good consciousness. The right consciousness. The Father-Mother consciousness. Father is the abstract intelligence, and Mother is the form-building consciousness. She holds the atoms and molecules together like glue to form the solid structure of the human body, cells and tissues.
She is known as Mother Shakti, or Mother Kundalini. She resides in the ethers around the coccyx (tailbone) at the base of the spine. She feeds intelligence and life up the spine to keep the body alive. She will enlarge the dose of life if the individual will turn inward and ask for it. She is intelligent and will listen and respond. She is the divine feminine. She receives abstract intelligence from the One and gives form and life to the individual from birth through until death of the form. She will provide not only life but intelligent answers and instructions if the being will listen and follow through. If the individual will not listen or pay attention, then the flow remains the same. But if the individual will become silent and carry on a conversation with the Mother Shakti who is intelligent, she will increase the dose of life. It is the same type of relationship as a good child listening and talking with a good responsive mother.
4/19/23 - Why do we go to the heart?
Imagine being in a black room. You can’t see anything. You reach out to feel your way around. You can feel walls and objects but they are foreign to you. You continue fumbling for a long time. It is very confusing and unfamiliar. You feel scared. Finally, after some length of time and fumbling, your hands run across a button, you push it and suddenly there is light! It is a light switch! You find that you are in a beautiful room with windows that you did not see before. You see friends, familiar friends, waiting for you outside, and more friends behind them, and even more friends, as if there is a gathering of family. And you see a door which you did not see before. It is open. It was never locked to you. You just didn’t know it was there. The feelings of loss, confusion and panic that covered you and smothered you are now gone. You feel free and happy because - all because you can see. And because you can see your friends happily waiting for you, happy that you found the right switch. The secret switch in human beings is the heart.
These revelations are sent to me, I just realized, in one fell-swoop blast. I get the information all at once, in words, but not in words. It is as if I receive the information from all over everywhere at once. Like when the light turns on in a completely black room. It doesn’t require "time" to receive this information, as in one word after another after another, which we need in 3D. It takes "time" to read words, to use our senses or listen to someone speak, but when we go into the heart and look up, with patience we can turn on the light. I just realized that this morning.
4/13/23 - The holy spirit as a radiating sun in the body
In the last few days I have been led to find answers, click-click-click, that I've been searching for since 1947. It was in 1947 that I went into the light during a meditation in an OBE - out-of-body experience. When I returned to normalcy (although a new normal) I had questions. What just happened? Today I'm filled with excitement because, again, click-click-click, things are linking up like wild fire. Yesterday I found something in my journals and want to share it (Click HERE). This was a channeling from the Master DK. I had forgotten about it and revisiting it was mind-blowing. I see with new eyes. I'm linking in better to it. Each of us is on our own unique one-of-a-kind spiritual journey to higher understanding. We are evolving our understanding. It's a new age and the new age is dawning fast. It is an age of sharing, revealing and telling each other what is going on in our lives. Hearing other people's stories helps us. They remind us that we are all connected. They fill in gaps in our understanding. We are linking up. Even though we are each different and our paths take different routes up the mountain (and through rocky places) still, we are on the same journey to the same destination. We are part of one vast elegant superior mind that holds the suns, planets and people in orbit around the sun - plus we are human too. We are meant to know this about ourselves. There is a sun within us trying to shine.
The process of kundalini awakening is the process of the sun trying to shine outward into manifestation from inside us. The holy spirit is awakening in the human body, and it is causing a lot of havoc and confusion. We don't understand what is happening. It has ALWAYS been here. It has ALWAYS been operating. We just weren't evolved enough to see it, as a race of humans evolving. We didn't realize that puberty and the sexual arousal had anything to do with the holy spirit trying to shine. We didn't know the word "kundalini". But today we are learning about it. There is research going on behind the scenes which we don't know about. There are lights in the sky, aurora borealis and star ships and other unknowns - radiations from beyond us. There is a cosmic story unfolding and we're starting to become aware of it. Suddenly it is breaking free of the closet in which it has been hiding. Suddenly there are headlines. And there are people talking about it. There are books being written. Youtubes being aired. Scholars writing about it.
And here's the thing: Behind every young person's puberty, around age 10, 12 or so, the kundalini stirs. It is also known as the holy spirit. It stirs and sends radiations up the spine to adjust and prepare the body - making it tender for love - because what is to come is loving beyond measure. It is time for the body to quicken for love. The fruit has ripened. This body has grown and is ready to bring forth the first glimmerings of the holy life that is held within. That gave it life to begin with. Can you remember back to that day of puberty? When the feelings started? There was a warmth, a loving goodness that needed to be expressed, shared, allowed to grow. Perhaps there was abuse or something worse. But we, humanity, did not know. There was ignorance. It was insinuated that it was bad, evil, and to stifle it, put it back down, ignore it. We became divided then.
Meanwhile the sages of the East were developing their enlightenment techniques, following ancient texts. Today they have spread those techniques around the world and have drawn millions into practicing yoga, meditation and inner spiritual studies. The planet is moving slowly but surely out of the dark ages. We as a race are evolving consciously from animal man to God man, turning animal grunts to refined noises of song, love and reverence. The awakening of kundalini brings betterment, sophistication, intelligence, beauty and truth. There is a higher power now moving through our lives. It is active, for good or for bad because there are misalignments and misconceptions that need clearing. Detox is a purging. Shortly after my dramatic awakening of kundalini in 1976 and my journey into the light, I was led in a higher way. I felt it. I found the Gopi Krishna interview tapes which preceded his books. Gopi Krishna had a similar awakening experience prior to me, but it was a bad one. He had a terrible time adjusting to the pure God-like energy. He had not prepared for it. I had been better prepared without realizing.
Gopi Krishna was so haunted by his years-long trauma with kundalini, that he began a study of the ancient texts and pushed for scientific research. In the 1970's John White published a book of many sources, writings of many teachers, gurus and scholars on the subject of kundalini awakening. He was not the author but the editor. Gopi Krishna comes out on top, remaining the scholarly leader of the pack by bringing the mysterious subject into modern terms. It is natural, he says. We must understand how it functions biologically. It is this other-worldly radiation that begins quickening in every child around the age of 10 or 11 at puberty. It is the breaking free of the light within, the love within. The consciousness of the child is getting ready to expand and reach the brain. It first awakens the body, then the brain and delivers new insight and information about who he/she is, and what he is capable of, his destined place among the stars, enlightened. But he is told to bury it. Hide it. It is sex and it is sinful.
Yet the sun still shines within. The mystery is still unexplored and unexplained. Our bodies are still in confusion, our minds unsure which way to go. All the while there is a sun shining and breaking up the false ideas that have led us wrong, down negative paths into bad ways that hurt us. The sun that is shining is trying to reach out and connect with others, to share the stories so we can bring love, joy and freedom back to the planet. The plan is to become a radiating planet of happiness, peace among all the people, with intelligent, benevolent leaders. The shining comes and goes and comes back again. We haven't been paying attention. We haven't gotten the message yet - that we are a people of light, not darkness. It is the plan that we evolve OURSELVES. We don't have a savior. We are the one who saves our bodies from wrack and ruin, by operating together, peacefully, harmoniously, sharing as a team.
And the wonderful, beautiful human bodies of my friends and peers whom I have held and loved and stroked all through my adult life, were the ones that kept me grounded, sane, happy and moving forward with my own plan. So I am here today to talk about the kundalini and tell my story. Many stories. Others had to go through horror stories because they didn't have the insight that I had been given - to follow my instincts, my heart, my feelings of goodness that arose naturally from within. Follow your GOOD feelings. The feelings of rightness. It is the love within the human body that is trying to be born. Not to save others, but to save ourself. We are the first one to save, our own body. Be selfish about loving your own body. Make sure you are the first one to take care of. Then you can reach out and care for others. Be kind. Be aware. Love is the guiding light. Love is what we must follow in everything we touch, hold and do. Love is not what we used to think. Love is not personal. It can't be closed down and locked inside a narrow box. It can't be fixed like that. The love in us has to expand to others or it becomes warped. Love has to be opened up INSIDE the marriage or the marriage will fail. Truth, freedom, balance of power, openness, respect for individuality, of kindness, sharing experiences, sensitivity, and all the rest of the good qualities also need to be present inside the relationship or it won't work.
Love is much bigger than the words "I love you." Love is kind and highly aware of right and wrong. It keeps the peace and the precision of things moving orderly through life. There is a balance to all things. It keeps the universe running smoothly and our personal lives as human beings can also be run smoothly. Tuning into the sun within - the love within - is the answer to whatever might be hindering or blocking us from moving on. It is the bigger part of our humanness. Its the OLD thoughts and restrictions that cause the problems. Sharing stories openly can help. That's why I'm posting articles about kundalini here. One of the more beautiful ones, was channeled by Master DK and can be read HERE, in my new "Kundalini Blog".
4/11/23 - Your tailbone holds the key to your identity
The sacrum and coccyx at the bottom of the spinal column in the pelvic region is the geometric center of the human body. This is an ancient occult secret that has never been brought forth in a public platform until recently. Suddenly, over the last six months youtubes by different individuals have appeared, pointing in the direction of this most wondrous secret. The key word is kundalini, also known as the holy spirit. Watch for more articles about kundalini but take care. This is a subject that deserves discretion and inner wisdom. The holy spirit is breaking through the dark web that covers the human soul, so there are obscurities that will arise. Be careful and follow the sweetness of your breath, not the sour notes that hurt and damage. I have been witness to the magnificence and brilliance of what is to come. I will tell more as the days go on. There is a crystal sphere surrounding the coccyx and sacrum ("sacred bone") that is uncontaminated by human life, feelings and thought. It is pure beyond imagination. It is this sphere that holds the keynote of who you are. It is the purity that is seeping forth into the lives of people in strange and mysterious ways. It brings miracles. Trust it and allow it. It brings with it a breath of innocence, love beyond measure, gentleness, calmness and peace that is undiluted by what has gone before. Allow this purity to breathe through you. It is your own cosmic identity coming forth. If it feels good, it IS good! Allow it freedom to breathe through you. Take a moment to feel it. Focus your love in that area of your body, knowing it is the heart of you. The geometric heart of your body.
4/8/23 - Your spinal column holds love
4/8/23 - Your spinal column holds love
The following is a direct quote from the Maha Chohan, delivered through the channel Geraldine Innocente on 3/20/60, and published through the Ascended Master Teaching Foundation (AMTF). It is a wonderful, clear explanation of how important the human spinal column is. The Maha Chohan is the GRAND chohan. Chohan means master, chief, leader, lord or guide. In other words, friend who assists those coming up behind him on the ladder of ascension or consciousness evolution.
"The spinal column is the central pole of the body around which the various organisms and electrons spin. It is like unto the axis of the physical earth held in place by Polaris and Magnus. Within this spinal column is the magnetic core of love that holds the physical vehicle itself in manifest expression. Within the spinal column is the cosmic keynote for each lifestream. The tone and the natural harmony of the vehicle are constantly flowing through the nervous system from the spinal column; and that harmony is the sustaining power of the outer self of each such chela [student].
"When harmony in the physical form is temporarily broken through strain and tension, it may be acquired again if the chela will lie quietly upon his bed with a low headrest (or none) and visualize his spinal column as the "pole." Then, in relaxation, let the light from the spinal column go through the nervous system and the entire physical vehicle carrying the light into every cell and atom of his being. If this can be done for 15 minutes daily, the chela breathing deeply and rhythmically, holding the thought and feel of LIGHT, he can again adjust his physical body and arise refreshed and relaxed."
4/7/23 - Inspiration and ascension
Energies have been swirling very fast the last few weeks, and picking up more and more speed. I tend to think it is planetary because I know we are in the middle of a planetary shift to higher consciousness, but this is personal. I want to share today what I have learned about GROUNDING the light. The light waves that are coming in are sweeping like a little old lady with a big broom, sweeping up the old dusty energies that have settled down into our carpets and furniture, and it’s causing a great deal of dust The dust is swirling and I was experiencing dizziness to the extreme, I couldn’t think.
Then the Master Djwahl Kuhl stepped in. What he told me I should have known but didn’t. He tells me again and this is something very important to remember and to pass on to others. Whenever I have an inspiration that thrills me and lifts my excitement up so much that it fills me with elation and quickness, then I better use it RIGHT AWAY. I must get rid of it or my brain will be filled with vital force and it will scatter and shatter my brain cells. It is no different than when a balloon is filled up with helium. It causes the balloon to fly away. The brain cells lose contact with their normal abode. The light fills in the spaces and moves them apart. There is too much light coming into the body’s cells and tissues.
This is good on one hand, but bad on the other. I have vitality and excitement filling me but my head is not cooperating. And when the brain is not performing its normal function of maintaining control, I am useless. DK says “share the light”. Tell someone, incorporate it into your practical life. Find a way to use the knowledge that is exciting you. It is a passion for life. Use it for life-giving purposes. Something beneficial, benevolent, to help your neighbors, family, friends, community. If nothing else, get up and do some gardening, or a project that needs muscle and labor. Use the light, the vitality, the excitement and passion until you run out of gas. Otherwise you will be like the helium balloon and rise upward, lift off the ground and float away. Your spirit is drawn to its father light on higher consciousness dimensions unless it is used right here on earth.
What I discovered was, when I lay down to rest to let it pass was NOT good. It caused me bad feelings, as if death were waiting to take me. This is a very subtle point that might be overlooked. And it is this. The spirit wants to return to its father. It is a powerful draw to leave the body when the mission is done. It wants to go home. However, if there is more work to be done, the spirit can be drawn back into action and WILL revitalize the body again if it is determined by the individual to do so. It takes will power and desire to overcome the feeling to “lie down and rest”. The light is the light of spirit, and the light of spirit tends to want to go home where it is welcomed by the father-parent. But this CAN be overcome, according to DK. He spent many years teaching these methods to his students. He has been showing me how to do it.
Many people have not had the benefit of the Ascended Masters’ teacings about death and dying. So when death comes knocking and the swooning starts, most people give in to it. But there is another way. It is important that I pass this information on to the world via my writings. It is how I contribute. Ascension symptoms can be alarmingly tempting to give up and give in, but you don’t have to if you know more about the higher consciousoness that is lifting you to higher realms. You CAN take the body up with you. This is the embodiment stage of ascension. Bring the light down into the body by sharing the knowledge that you have. In any way that feels right to you.
If the physical body - the tissues, muscles, organs, lungs, heart - if they cannot keep up with the higher light that is sweeping through the earth in cycles and waves (and it does cycle, it’s cyclical) the body wants to swoon. It is so tempted to lie down and rest. But when I lay down to rest I started feeling the old sick feeling again. I don’t like that feeling. It feels really bad. I used to blame someone else for the sick feeling, but it’s my own flagging, lagging energies that are causing it. They are failing to keep up with the light. There are methods. I have been using ancient Tao methods for a long while. These are helpful. There are many other ways that can be shared. Share the knowledge. That is what I am doinng. A light worker is one who shares the knowledge. Light is refreshing new knowledge. It fills in the gaps of empty unknowns. Bad feelings like “I’m going to die”, the death and dying feeling, also come in cycles. They can be filled in with new knowledge. So I have learned NOT to lie down when I am swooning, but to get up and move. Do something physical.
It is important that you get this. This has never been written about before. I haven’t seen it in any of the ascension articles. So what do I do? DK tells me to get active. Do something to use the light up. Use it. Distribute it. Share it. Tell the people in some way. Figure out a practical way to contribute. You are a lightworker. You are here to contribute light to the world, a lighter way of living IN the world. It is a more loving realm that we are moving into. Find a more beautiful, refined way to do something positive and constructive. Do not fall back down into the old ways of grunt work. Do not let yourself float away either. Find the balance between the two ways. Ground the balanced way into the earth. Give balance to the earth to lighten the earth and the people. If you are an artist, paint! If you are a construction worker, construct. If you are a gardener, weed and plant. If you are a writer, write. I am a writer. I WAS a massage therapist at one time but I had to stop doing that because male energies kept dragging me down into sexual areas, by sheer magnetism, and I didn’t want to go there so I resigned massage therapy.
So now writing is my way of contributing. I write about what I am experiencing and there are many. Too many to get them all into written words. But everyone is different. Everyone must find their own way of becoming a light USER. USE the light, which is information. Use it in a way that benefits the world around you. Radiate the knowledge that is coming through you.
My dizziness and swirling energies have mostly gone away. Not entirely but mostly. The main cause was too much light and I couldn’t use it fast enough. I began recognizing it slowly. Whenever I sit down at the computer and send a newsletter or post an article by DK or a channeling from the Presence, or communicate with someone or swap a massage with someone, I feel more alert, vital and alive, filled with renewed energy. I became more aware as time went on that THIS was the answer to renewing myself. It is vital that we stay active, but only doing that which brings us a feeling of goodness. Not to waste time doing mundane, dull stuff. It just drains our vitality away. Feeling good with yourself is the most crucial part of living. It keeps you sane, clear-headed, not dizzy as I was starting to feel. I couldn’t believe it. I began to notice the difference, whereas when I went through a day doing ordinary mundane things that didn't elevate me in spirit-led fashion, I felt dull, empty, and the sickish feeling would come to remind me, "this is not right". It would hover over me nearby until I found something exciting to do.
The earth is going through an ascension shift. We need to get onboard with it and go WITH the ascending flow, the exciting flow, not hold ourselves against it. Quantum field energies are sweeping the planet bringing us closer to zero energy, balance energy. Most people are not aware of this. I am writing about something from a more advanced understanding. I’m sorry but I must speak of these things. I know them. They must be shared. They are pure light, pure knowledge, pure love, pure order and harmony. It is how the planets stay on course and how the sun rises every day and sets at night. We are rising to join the galactic knowledge but currently it is beyond what most of the population has been prepared for. But we can work with it. We can handle it. We can open our minds and relax inward for 15 minutes and reconnect with the light that is flowing through us. It WILL sustain the body if we do that periodically. .
For the benefit of those reading this, the solution to swirling energies that are causing turmoil, whether light-headedness or depression and moroseness, the solution is not a mental solution, but a practical body solution. Do something active that takes physical energy movement. When I tried to ground my bad feelings with mental techniques, as in meditation, it wasn’t working. Slowly, gradually, I became dissatisfied with meditation. Meditation is rapidly going away for the new-age light worker. It was used to bring us into the modern age, but now it is giving way to practical work – the work of grounding and growing roots into the mainstream community. Help the world change through practical applications. Most important is sharing stories openly. Stop hoarding and being secretive. Open the heart and mind and become sincere, become authentic, become real. Share who you are and what you know. You know things that others don’t know.
The new world system we are moving into is a fairer system, it is more tender, more considerate, more loving, more wholesome, more natural, more organic, more emotional and of a feeling nature, more supportive, more connected to the whole human race without judging those who are different. There is more vitality felt when this approach is taken. It is simplistically alive. It is not a mental method. It is a heart and gut method. We are here to use our hearts and guts. When you want to know more, when the solution evades you and you’re just not getting it and you’re up against a blank wall, it’s because you’re up there in your brain. Old thoughts run through the brain. The brain is not the mind. The mind covers you like a sheath, from head to toe. It is your consciousness.
The solution will not come from the brain, it will come from your consciousness that covers you like a sheath, from head to toe. It’s a physical solution that will give you an answer and dissolve the blank wall that you’ve run into. It is a whole-consciousness solution that is needed. Plant some of YOUR seeds, YOUR knowledge out there in the world, but do it humbly, with humility, with compassion. Figure out how to do that in a way that causes you to feel good about yourself. Find the passion in you. Your passion is the thread that will start your motor running again. You will be amazed. I was. As you share some of who you are, your inner talents, your innate skills, you will feel it. It will feel good. Follow your feelings. Cast your seeds out around you in your own special way. Become a new kind of Johnny Appleseed on a practical level. Don’t let it smoulder up there in the higher mind without some balancing ground work. Build channels into the soil. It can’t help you
“up there”. Or me. Tell ME what you know!
3/26/23 - Stirring the pot of energies that surround you
I had extreme dizziness when I entered the kitchen this morning. After reading an article about divine love and what that really reams, it confirmed what's going on with me. I wasn't sure. I am all alone in my transformation but this article hit home and validated what was happening for me.
See, I have been connecting with the sun for the past years. Connecting with the sun is connecting with light. Light means information. So when I connect with the sun I am downloading cosmic information into my body. However, I live with a man who doesn't know anything about this, so I am alone in handling it my way. If I were to tell him my uncomfortable feelings he would insist I go to the hospital where they would insist on giving me "something" that I don't want to take. I'm working on aligning my seven layers of consciousness. They are not in alignment. Drugs would cause worse misalignment.
So anyway, the article confirmed for me what was happening. I immediately started to REAFFIRM what I was doing and within 5 minutes my dizziness cleared up. It was my belief that was not strong enough. I had doubts. This is inner work. Inner work is sacred. It is totally private. I can't tell anyone what I am doing within myself because then they would express THEIR doubts, and they would influence my confidence in what I am doing on a supremely subjective level. Because we are all ONE. You are connected to me and I am connect to you but I don't want to hear what you are going through, because it is YOUR journey. It is YOUR sacred inner work that you are trying to develop into fuller awareness.
I have started a new mantra of bringing the light down from the sun. It uses visualization. I can share this part because it is generalized. The reader may be at the right place in consciousness to be able to read between the lines and interpret for him/herself, tap into it, pick up on it and carry it further. This is partially channeled information from the sun. There is a cosmic order in the universe and humanity is on a cusp, a threshold of learning something new. So new that it can easily be rejected as fantasy. But it is not a fantasy. It is a step into another dimension. and it is done with conscious awareness. Where you put your focus and STAY with your focus concentrated there for a period of time, even for one minute is a long time to hold focus on a new dimensional level that you've never held focus on before. (Only in flashes.)
Consciousness is our intelligent spirit. It is our individuality. We are each different from our neighbors. We have evolved on our own individual path to where we are today. What we are conscious of, we influence our bodies and minds with. Needless to say, don't focus on anything negative! When I focus on the sun I visualize the brilliant, dazzling sun at zenith in the sky overhead and hold that visualization in my mind's eye for a small period of time. The new higher light comes down through the crown of the head and into the brain. The part of the visual that is above the head is abstract, not yet in form. But when you hold the visual of the dazzling light there above the crown, as if it is sitting on top of the crown, even for the span of 60 seconds, you are inviting the light to enter down into the brain. When the light enters into the brain, it starts to move through the physical body. The longer you can hold that light on top of the head, the longer time it has to seep downward, coalesce or condense downward into the physical matter of the body and brain. The brain is an important part of the physical body structure. From the brain the light impulses descend further down through the nerves and other mechanisms of the human body. Everything is involved, blood, circulation, hormones, everything. But it starts with YOU, the resident intelligence, holding consciousness on the dazzling light of the sun above your head.
As for me, I had this information years ago, but no one to verify it for me from the human physical realm. I've been working with this information alone, except for my invisible guides. Guides come from higher dimensions. They are always available when you ask for it, or when you start using and believe in the light coming down from the greater expanses. The sun is a distributor of the light from source. It is how we all grow here on earth, from mineral, plant, animal to human. We look to the light for our life, for happiness, for knowledge and understanding. All suns are distributors of light from source. And even we humans have a sun growing in our hearts of SELF consciousness. We too are growing into suns. The process works through self consciousness. When you are conscious of the light and believe in the light coming down from higher realms, then it DOES come down into the brain. It becomes part of the body's physical structure and physical consciousness and mental understanding. Then it gets distributed through the nervous system, blood, hormones, all the other systems into the lower, heavier, denser regions of the body, down into the feet and the denser earth below our feet. We literally bring the light down into the earth and we help the earth and other bodies and forms that we live with during our daily incarnation. So I consciously bring the visualization of the sun down into my body through my belief system coupled with my concentration. It comes down through the crown of my head, down through my brain, and down into my body. But it does alter things in the body. It changes the body and we have to learn how to manage these changes. It speeds things up. The atomic structure speeds up.
So there is a second step. The second stop is to visualize the space between the atoms and electrons of my physical body. I am altering my physical body by bringing the information from the sun down into the SPACE BETWEEN THE ATOMS AND ELECTRONS of my physicality. Because I am the intelligence that lives in that space between the atoms and electrons. I am part of the cosmic order and intelligence. I am the harmony. I am the awareness of my physical form. I've been trapped here, thinking this form is all there is, but now I am awaking to the fact that I am the intelligent spirit behind this form. And I am bringing more light (more information) from source into my physical brain cells and body cells. The fact that the terrible dizziness started to go away when I did that this morning, was further evidence that it works. I have to align my inner space with the light. My physical body has become old and deteriorated. It was created out of finite material. I now am reconstructing it, realigning it with the light from source. I am the one doing this. I am doing this with my consciousness and my physical body starts straightening out for me. This is new information and new validlation. I am in the process of transforming my old body into a new light body. This takes time. It is a meshing process. You can't just snap your fingers and have it done instantly. You have to believe in this process.
Things are fast changing. I was not privy to this before. This is the time of revealing hidden information formerly known as occult, which merely means "hidden". It is not a secret. It was never a secret. It just was not understood and therefore not accepted by the mass population. Now there is an acceptance of formerly hidden knowledge. I am hearing about it. I am reading about it. I am having my own visions and downloads about it. I am integrating my physical body with this new knowledge. This body of light information. I am believing it. As I do, my dizziness and spaciness clears but I have to keep doing it. Dizziness or sick feelings are caused by misalignments. The body was built on old intel. Intel is changing. I am therefore changing. I must keep up with the changes in alignment. It is now a way of life for me. I am bringing the light of my new knowledge down into the concrete matter of my body. I am manifestation a new body. I am allowing the light to influence my old deteriorating physical body. The light is weaving back and forth a new network into my old network. It is meshing new and old together. It is blending what was and what is now coming in - newer understandings. It is like blending new spices to an old soup that has grown old and tasteless. It improves the flavor. It brings "oomph" to the taste. It adds spice, pleasure and enjoyment to the body's senses. It brings excitement. It brings enthusiastic responses of laughter and fun. It brings bliss sometimes, joy other times, rapture other times, creative projects other times. Upgrading the body physical is a work in process. We don't know where it will end up, but we are promised that it will end up happy for us.
It is a process of alignment. There are energies in us that we did not know were there. We just didn't know. And they are still there. By visualizing dazzling sunlight entering into the brain from above the head, new information comes in, too. It brings alignment. Spend time alone, quietly, visualzing a sun at the crown of your head. Visualize your brain and body as a root system in the earth. The sun is pouring down now into this tree of light and resurrecting the cells of the body. It is a newer, spacious understanding entering into the blood stream of my former finite body, built with clumsy understanding. The transformation takes place in the space BETWEEN the atoms and electrons and feeds into the physical nervous system. Say, "I AM the consciousness of this body and I dedicate this body to the higher will that I AM."
My consciousness is widening. I am allowing myself to accept this as fact. I am exerpeincing the ascension process. Ascension means lightening the heaviness of the former condition. I feel like a bird taking to the air. Perhaps not literally, but consciously feeling airy and light-hearted, joyful even. Peaceful. Contented. There is open sky ahead. There are possibilities and I am heading into it. I am no longer confined to former beliefs. At the same time I am merging my former beliefs with contentment, with peace and with love. Just as lovers do when they unite and hold each other and continue to hold their love together. So do I unite and merge with my former self. In that way I expand my former self and alleviate the misalignments of dizziness, feeling out of sorts, off kilter and feeling poorly, not well, as if there is something wrong. Those feelings disappear as I breathe the light from the sun into my brain and body, visualizing that I am stepping into the space between the atoms and electrons of my physicality.
Readers may not have the years of training I’ve had but you can create your own phrases from words that make you smile and say AhHA! Use your own words to create a mantra, a repetitive phrase that you say out loud, 10 or 15 times at a sitting. The sound of the words will ‘ping’ and ‘resonate’ on your physical body cells and ‘shake’ them up, loosen them from their rusty old hinges. It's like shaking loose an old stuck door after years of no change, no action. Break them loose with words of encouragement.
3/23/23 - About the dark intelligences, who are they?
(From a journal 7/10/20, I just found this today, and decided to share it.)
Just as light forces have infiltrated every field of endeavor of this dark-infested planet, so have light souls infiltrated the sex field to bring healthy loving change to the human race who, unknowingly, have been led into a distorted program to be slaves to the elite cabalists who are human in appearance but are run by dark ET intelligence forces. How did this happen you ask? [I was channeling but didn't recognize it at the time.] The dark ETs are intelligences, not physical. They can manipulate physicals to do their bidding. It’s fun and games for them. They are the dark gods of the universe (little g) and the light gods of the universe (little g) are fighting for the freedom of the immature races who don’t know any better, using the big God’s laws of harmony, abundance, freedom, love and good will. The dark gods are the fallen angels spoken of in the scriptures. The light gods are the ascendeds and beings from far regions of space. We term them “galactics” who are also not physical, being high intelligences. There are many levels of physicality, many different forms in the universe. Physicality is a descending of vibration, a cohesion of closer-knitted atoms. Similar vibrating atoms are attracted to each other and gather into groups. Higher intelligences direct them with a mental blueprint, as such. The formation of physical organisms is divinely directed. It is a science built on divine understanding of cosmic laws of cohesion through attunement. It is done in harmony, through peaceful, natural attunement. There are countless levels of physicality. The light is intelligence coupled with balance between all the powers, and the greatest of these is love. The light intelligences is chasing down the dark intelligences because dark intel has rejected love and God’s laws requiring balance.
The dark intelligences use and abuse the immature physicals who don’t know any better. Earth is such an immature world. It was originally a garden of great beauty and refinement. It was etheric in the beginning but it was invaded by dark intelligence forces, without love or empathy. A long complex history evolved that requires much background information to understand what happened. The bottom line is God the Father-mother gives everyone a chance to redeem itself. We, the light intelligences, are infiltrated into the dark-infested planets by being born among them. Light souls are being born into dark cabal families on Earth. The light forces are you and me who are drawn to love mankind and womankind. We care for each other. We do not have an inclination to hurt people or torture or manipulate or kill people. We are among those who are being born here to cultivate and grow the human race, the human bodies, the human garden of paradise from within the physical environment.
The dark intelligences are aware that we are here and they attack whenever they can. Most of us are of higher vibration and cannot be damaged, unless we let our vibrations fall down into lower realities. Then we can be hurt. The dark intelligences are aware but they have been unable to stop the infiltration of light souls because the light souls are protected and surrounded by higher light forces. We are therefore more powerful than the dark-infested humans who have not yet learned how to align with the light. Instructions must be accepted. Instructions on the light are available, but they are not seen until a soul is ready to receive. Then such souls are drawn to discover light instructions, often called metaphysical instructions or mystery school instructions. The light is unified. All the powers of the universe are unified in orderly fashion. That is the nutshell of how to do it: use love and harmony.
Intelligence is everywhere. Intelligence is Father God. Love is Mother God. Intelligence can reject love and does. That makes it inferior to the light forces, except that free will is given to ALL life, which allows dark to exist. It is a choice to align with dark and negative forces such as greed and selfishness which does not have empathy for other life forms. Light has love and the dark does not. That makes the dark a cutting edge intelligence who can go against the laws of God but only to a certain extent. Like a rebellious teenager can join a gang of thieves and do violence, rape and murder until the system steps in and ends it. So does the greater cosmic law have greater forces on its side and is more powerful, love being the greatest power because it is the element that binds all life together. Love is the Mother force.
Love heals by not interfering but by giving free will choice to everyone. When it is time for a dark soul to return to Mother Father God, it is forgiven and embraced. The only punishment is the dark soul’s own facing of its own deeds, for it is responsible for everything it has ever done. Life is a playing out of free will and also a responsibility to own every act, thought and feeling it sent out. That is the great learning. Each spirit spark has free will to choose what it wants to do next, but the realization that it must pay for everything it does, has not dawned upon it yet. It must learn this through trial and error. It feels free to play out its fun life the way it wants to, but it is responsible for the damage it causes others. Whatever impact it has on others will return to him so he too experiences what he caused others. Good comes back as good, negative comes back as negative. Whatever his actions, thoughts and feelings caused to others returns back to the sender, and often many times over because on its return journey it picks up similar energies to build a greater mass. So when the backlash comes it often has a more powerful kick than the original act done, seemingly, in fun. The dark is on its way to realizing that.
The dark is dark because it rejects that concept. It does not believe it so it is limited in how far it can evolve. But it can cause mayhem in the lower stages of life and basically it can infest and takeover whole worlds which is what happened to Earth. That is why the light forces, the Galactic Federation and other federations of light, are here, to countermand the dark intelligences. The light must stay within the boundaries of cosmic law – the Star Trek’s Prime Directive – so it must work within certain parameters. The goal is to get rid of the dark-infested intelligences that have held humanity in lock-down to physical, without allowing the soul to gain access to love, light, truth, other dimensional powers, which humanity does have, but under programmed manipulation humanity does not know the powers it has locked up within its own muscles, tissues, blood and bones as a species.
Humanity is an amazing species but it has been held back. The light forces are here to help humanity get back on course of growing its amazing properties WITHIN each body into full-bloom physical expression, to bring about an actual garden of love, light, joy, pleasure and freedom of expression and creation. Today we TALK noble words like justice, truth, peace, love, freedom, wisdom, faith, purity, will, enlightenment, but we do not live them. When the dark intelligences who have been ruling the planet are removed, these qualities will no longer need to be spoken and written in poetry and scripture for they will be lived daily, hourly, moment by moment. The original garden of paradise will return as all who are different on the outside - skin color, language, culture and history – are honored, elevated, appreciated and held in high esteem. Where there will be no more a higher or lower people, or a better or worse people, or a left-leaning or right-leaning people. There will be freedom of expression to be WHO YOU ARE. There is acceptance by all, because all are recognized as a child of the Light and Love within. They have all chosen to live in alignment with that which is in their own heart and soul, which makes them equal to all life no matter WHAT THEY LOOK LIKE OR ACT LIKE!
3/22/23 - There is a science of love
There is a science of love. It comes down from above and enters into the human body but it follows pathways that are not linear or physical. Love involves higher qualities and higher values. Principles, not mental thoughts, but mental thought activates the principles. If held long enough in the consciousness love is invited through higher thought, words, actions and intentions. Love flows along with the use of kindness, givingness, affectionate touch along with a moral and ethical foundation. Love can be enduced by the use of colors, prayers and visualizations, not in a mechanical way, but in a spontaneous way. It must come from intentional will power and choice. A person begins to open to love by turning thoughts in an upward direction, consciously. Because mankind has been brought low and blocked off by negative thinking, erroneous actions and beliefs which have colored him dark, it has shut down the flow of love. Our culture today is mechanical with finite laws and strict rules and punishment which diminish the flow of love - the flow of life itself which keeps us healthy and young. No wonder we grow old, diseased and die!
We must learn how to draw on love from within and cultivate it as we would a garden of vegetables, fruit or flowers. Life is constantly flowing as a river of life into the body but the body is constantly shutting it down because of the rules. We are obliged to follow rules. Society demands we follow the rules but there is a way to break through the ceiling and become liberated.
Love is flowing IN but not out. We are blocking it. We need to find ways to let it flow OUT. We need to find ways to break the blocks that hold us back from feeling love and freedom because they are flowing in. Love and life are constantly flowing into us as a river of life. Tantra teaches this. Currently, we are in a state of need. We must find ways to live this spontaneous love and light OUT into our daily affairs. Most people have experienced those unguarded moments when the heart opened and love flowed along with tears. We don’t reveal this love because it is too intimate, too private, too vulnerable, too sensitive, too tender, too innocent. And feeling like a child that needs protecting, we move to stop it. We think we are defending ourself from the cruelties of the outer world, but we are holding back the very love that will transform our life. We must find ways to release this love to others who will reciprocate in kind and build on it. Others are hungry to receive love. We need to start somewhere, and that somewhere is with people who resonate with these words.
3/19/23 - The Mother Light in the tailbone
Your mother is in the earth, your mother light. Mother is in the earth, father is in the sky. Our brain waves take us into multiple dimensions where we think we are out of body, but we are still in the body, just on higher frequencies. There is another reality in these higher dimensions but it is all taking place “here and now”. There is no “other” place. Higher dimensions are not “in the sky” but we who are rooted in the physical dimension, because we inhabit a body with 5 senses, live in duality where there is space between physical bodies. The etheric body is in a different reality. It is the akashic, where all records and memories are kept of your past lives, the good, the bad and the holy. Although the holy returns to the Holy, leaving the duality experiences in your etheric body, or etheric double which surrounds you and which keeps seeping through into your life because you have to resolve them, you use your innate wisdom to teach you and take you through the dissolution of the unpleasant in you.
The emotional body is another reality. You work with your feelings, sensations, good and bad, and you play with others also working and playing in emotions and feelings. The mental body the same. It is another reality world, a world of thought which contains low thoughts on the lower levels, higher thoughts on the higher levels and exquisite thoughts on the exquisite upper levels that take us into the mystical and sublime, which is the light body known as the Christ body. Bring father light and mother light together in the heart. Sex keeps them apart. Sex siphons the mother light off to feel good and have orgasms. Your consciousness is the key to bringing father light and mother light together in the heart. Conscious breathwork as I am doing now is bringing the mother light up to the heart. Today I had a most wonderful experience feeling that. Unconscious breathing is barely keeping the body alive, but conscious breathing exercises quickens your mother light and awakens her, brings her up into the body. She is the divine mother of you that is embedded in the earth. She is part of the dullness and sleepiness of mother Gaia. Quicken her, wake her up through your own breathing technique and through your OWN mother light, and Gaia wakes up too. As you do this, you remove some of the heaviness that has kept the planet in low vibrations. (Partial of DK's online book, see 7/23/19)
3/16/23 - The desire to give - stop trying
I’ve met some amazingly loving people recently who are frustrated because they want to give so badly so deeply that their hearts are on the verge of breaking because it all seems so futile, lost. They are trying to figure it out. But it can’t be figured out from the level of mind. It has to be a surrender to the higher self. I have been tracking the divine feminine for this reason. It is taking me to a higher level, yet I am still on the lower level too. I have learned that we must merge divine love with the human level. The human level is the result of worldly programming but the divine level is within us too. It’s within our consciousness. My path in this life has taken me deeper into this divine level than any life prior, and I've had quite a few prior lives. I am now breaking new ground and having entirely new experiences which I've never had before. This is a new experience for me - to let go of my dreams of helping people. There is a higher level to love, it can’t be figured out by the ego, by mental effort. One must give up trying to figure it out and stop projecting the need to help outward. Only by stop wanting and trying, yearning for what you don't have, can you stop the hurt, the pain of heartbreak and struggle. This is a next-step teaching for humanity. Give up the struggle for what you don't have. Surrender to the love and peace within. It is there on a higher level.
Recently I had communication with my higher self in which my thoughts were directed to the warmth and goodness of love. I was told the word "Feminine" and I felt the echoes and essence of women down through the ages since the beginning. I felt the essence of women, not their outer human shells which struggled through life, but the soft resilient intelligent tender femininity at the heart of each woman or girl child who ever lived. Warm femininity swirled around me. I touched it as I would touch a raw warm human organ with my fingers, liquid and pulsing with life. I felt its soul enter me. I felt feminine and sensual. I felt the love and joy and nurturing that each of these women brought to the planet, whether they were fulfilled or died in pain. It didn't matter because they brought with them a living potential of love that they left here as a gift to the earth, and it's still here.
I said to myself softly, "Love." I felt love and femininity as one, including the feminine side of men. Love is reconnecting to the soul. It's the inner warmth that is accomplished by turning within to stoke the fires of one's own hearth (heart). After having thrust outward in competition and aggression and driven by ambition, love as good intention is the returning home. Love begins at home for oneself. The turning within to the heart is the female in us who wants to nest and wrap ourselves in a warm and cozy cocoon, in a sense of completion and a work well done and completed. Love is the one gift that we can give to ourselves that does not require anyone else. It is the hour of meditation and prayer in solitude, inward directed devotion and praise for the highest in us. We can feel love even if we are alone, homeless and stricken with cancer. Love is a choice to return to the heart to elevate our very own self, our higher self, to appreciate ourself and say, "I love you." There is a strange and wonderful power that comes forth at this time that soothes and calms the outer storm. It goes beyond logic. Loving oneself does not deny the world, the death, sickness, poverty and emotional pain. Rather it fulfills them. It includes them and puts them all to rest within the heart. Comforting it to completion. There is no exception. There is nothing bad enough that can't be loved and put to rest in the human heart. Love is unconditional.
This was my vision not too long ago. I am hearing a song by Nicholas John, one of my favorites: "Oh, my darlings! You were never out of place! You belong to eternity. What you are is amazing grace!” CLICK HERE TO LISTEN. You are here in this body enclosed in a cocoon, a little child protected against the powers that are locked within you, until the day you break the seal of your heart. When that day comes it will bring this power forward into your conscious mind to be worked with. This power is a consciousness expansion. You are not being given this power to save anyone else but to work this realization into your own life. You must empower yourself first. If you try to give to others before you are ready it will only bring frustration to you and to those others. You must come to empower yourself first by turning your outer consciousness inward and strengthening your heart center before attempting to help others.
It is an egotistical effort, a small and petty effort that is self-serving, to try to help others before you have grown yourself to full strength, maturity and wisdom. Turn around and go back in/within where there is refinement, grace, peace and comfort and build into that inner peace and knowledge so that you will grow strong and begin to overflow it outward to others. This is the new 5D teaching. We must learn it intellectually and then feel the peace and love within. Love is eager to move through you. You do not have to work at it and you should not, but wait until love moves within you. This does not take long if you do your homework. It takes a disciplined morning practice to weave yourself inward, ever inward, ever upward, for this is the evolutionary force that you are administering to yourself, to your body, mind and emotions. When you get started on that, you will find amazing progress at hand. Then you will feel first a sense of peace at home. The self love is growing and strengthening. You will fall into alignment with that amazing grace without effort.
Love is infinite but it is held back until one builds it first-hand and practices it at home. I have been practicing it. I have withdrawn my efforts to help others outwardly, and am instead focusing on building the deeper understanding. It is an effort to discipline oneself, but one must apply the higher unconditional love to oneself first. This is the home study course. They say it takes a guru, but the guru may be invisible. I had an invisible guru who came to me to teach me. Higher love will expand upward and call forth the teacher who can guide you. Who will listen to your questions and respond from the higher regions of thought. The higher impulses of self calls for the higher guru. Then love radiates from your heart and brings to you those who will attract from you that which THEY need, not what you think they need. You cannot fail to attract those who are ready to be close to you. The sea of conscious love is infinite and eternal, and out of mercy it is kept beyond reach until you are ready to drop your selfish ego pride which in itself is needy. When you have made strides in this direction, then you will break the seal of your heart and feel the love start to blossom. Conscious love is everywhere.
Then grace, love and peace will move to the forefront of your consciousness. You are aware and you love all things. Even the dark so-called evil ones will be affected by your loving presence because you are this amazing being and you are idiotically happy and unreasonably buoyant. You are uplifting, excited and illogically positive while others around you are in trouble. God-intoxicated, some might call it. What accounts for this idiocy? You who do the inner work every day will understand as you continue to prune back the undesirable. Not repress. No! But allow it into your transformation and it will melt away. You as a human being can’t do this with your little mind because it does not know how. It is enclosed inside a brain, a skull, a head. Instead, merge with the happiness, love, joy that is locked up inside you. Do this any way you can, without analyzing, without logic, without reason, without human ego, without mental effort. Step off the cliff into mid-air, into the arms of joy. This is a metaphor. Jump off the cliff because if you cling to the cliff you cling to logic and the ways of the world that demands reason. You will never get there with reason and logic.
The little seed in the ground bursts its outer casing and is seen above ground when it finally germinates a little sprout. You do too. You must surrender to the power of the joy within you. It is happiness and unfounded reason that sprouts and expands within you. You can’t do it with logic. Give up trying. Stop trying. Trying holds everyone back from the joy of love. You can’t be free as long as you are continuing to try to accomplish something of your own making. Surrender to the flow of the living light, the waters of spontaneous joy. This is the story of opening to the evolutionary force within. It is not of your own mental making. It is the power of infinity. It is taking you up on a wave, lifting you up higher on the top of a wave that is being sent to you out of love, because you are ready. Because the ego in you is letting go and jumping off the cliff, metaphorically speaking. The you that is letting go thus blends with the cosmic order of harmony and unity. The merge takes place. Whenever you as a human being “try” to do something, you are trying to be something smaller, lesser and more confined inside the nutshell.
You are a part of the sea of life that is eternal and immortal. As long as you remain separate from that you must continue to die and be reborn as separate, until comes this day that you break the cosmic seal and you pop out of that field of separation back into unity with love. You are love and you come from love. Love is the sea of consciousness trapped inside of your form. Stop trying is the first step. Work on not trying.
3/11/23 - Becoming whole-brained, access your etheric body
An interesting new idea was given to me several years ago by the Ascended Master DK, but I totally missed it at the time. I ran across it again the other day and it clicked this time. I was ready to hear it. For years I have been operating under the belief that I am too feminine, and that I had been functioning out of my RIGHT brain. I suddenly realized that this is not true. A friend had told me as much, saying that I hadn't activated my left brain, so I began calling to activate my left brain at that time. And it was true. I was not a logical thinker. Ever since I went into the light in an out-of-body experience. So I have been activating my left brain, and I DID notice a difference. I picked up more vitality and more abilities that I had not had before. I did not give in so much to feeling easy, seeking body comfort and body pleasure. But it also caused me other problems that I never had before. Like being more stressed out than I used to be.
Well, I did ask for it. And it was a good experience to feel what it is like to be less feminine and more pro-active by activating my male side. I felt more constructive and as if I was earning my way more in the world and not being so passive. There is a certain amount of satisfaction that comes from that. But what happened to my cool? My peace? My calm? My loving nature? Do I really have to suffer the stress and tension in order to be more left-brain oriented? Does that have to be the price I pay? Then I ran across the message from DK of several years ago. He said, "Don't just activate your left brain, activate your WHOLE brain."
I have been doing that. I am learning. The heavens are re-opening for me. I am regaining my ability to feel the heavenly love and peace again. The right brain is connected to Home, the stars, the celestial peace of harmony, love and light - that is the highest yearning of every heart. The right brain is designed to tune into the harmony of the universal creator. It has been called the "feminine" side. It is the passive side of us. It harmonizes situations that have become unbalanced. It is humble, considerate, kind, just, honest and provides space, allows for everyone to be simply who they are without pressure.
The left brain is the other side of human nature. It is focused. It concentrates. It puts up boundaries and limits on just about everything. It provides the ability to think, form thoughts, conclusions, languages, string formulas together, make music, form patterns, designs, mathematics, bridges and buildings, invent machines. It has the ability to take the universal stream of ideas and build a solid world of form, so we can live and enjoy ourselves in increasingly more efficient and beautiful ways. However, the left brain shuts out the right brain and the cosmic connection in order to get the job done. It has no time for love or celestial ecstasies. He leaves that to the women.
The insidiousness of this (for me) is this. I was TOLD I was feminine, and I therefore fit myself into the energy pattern of the subservient female, as women have done before me. Weak and in need of male help to get by in the world. I should remain soft, warm, loving and take care of the house, children and husband. It is a way of life that I fell into without thinking or knowing what I was doing. From the time I was old enough to think for myself and form conclusions, it was too late. I was female. Men have the same thing happen to them. They begin following the male programming early in their life. They are prepared to be responsible, hold down a job, be the protector of women and children, and man-up to the hardships of life.
Yesterday as I was re-read the old journal from DK, a new awareness clicked in. I thought I was usingmy right brain but I haven't been using my right brain at all. Not at all. Maybe in the beginning, when I first went into the light during my OBE I did, but thereafter I began changing. I've been using my left brain all along. I've been concentrating, analyzing and trying too hard to be something that I'm not naturally. I've been trying to fit in. It is not my nature to be left-brained but I tried to be. It is not natural to me. I have been working at something that is not natural to me. I've been trying and getting nowhere. I've just been busy. Busy trying. I have not been utilizing the right side of my brain at all for I have not felt very natural. The peace and harmony has been missing, even though I've "tried" to find it as all of the outside advisors tell me I should do. "Try!" I am told. And in the processing of trying, I have been using my left brain, the analyzing, concentrating, logical side of my nature, not my cosmic peaceful side.
I don't know if the reader can catch the drift and meaning of this, but I am a perfect example of perhaps most people in the current generation. We're all trying too hard to be something that is not natural to us. The right brain is tuned into our higher self, who we are BY NATURE. Our natural homing device is the right brain. It was the male paradigm culture that challenged me to be more logical, more "with it", more worldly, more part of the Matrix. And I tried. It caused me to become most unnatural and unbalanced, but I DID try! And I experienced what it's like to be male-oriented. I allowed myself to be caught up in the insidious Matrix. I thought I was feminine but it was all a false belief. It was a lie. I am not feminine at all. I am simply me. Now can I go back to being me?
Beware what you THINK you are doing. You are probably not. If you activate your right brain, you'll become more at peace with yourself. The "you" that is natural is a balanced "you". Try balancing yourself by activating your WHOLE brain. It requires stepping down and back and resting periodically throughout the day to let your blood and nervous system flow back into harmony again. The universe is an orderly universe because there is balance in all things. The planets stay in their orbit and human beings are evolving to become more in harmony with the universal plan of peace, love, harmony and order.
It is a loving universe when one is at rest. And yet we are meant to be active too. That's why we have a left brain AND a right brain. We can be mightily active and creative on a genius level, but 50% of the time we need to allow our unbalanced half to withdraw and rest. Truly rest, not just party with the guys and gals, but rest. Withdraw to regenerate. That is the whole point of meditation. It is a method of withdrawing into the celestial realms of pace, love and light to regenerate, reharmonize, rebalance ourselves. Then we can become the genius again next day. The right side of our brain is naturally in tune with our higher self. It is an open channel to where we came from originally - from a Home among the celestial stars.
Activate your right brain. This is a special hint to men. Activate your right brain and see if it doesn't bring you a little more calm in your life, a little more peace, a little more welcome rest from the tension and confusion. All you have to do is say throughout the day, silently to yourself: 'Right brain activate!" Use it as a mantra, a chant that becomes embedded into your brain. Or, according to your own sense of rightness, use the words: "Whole brain activate!" It is where you put your attention that turns the right brain on, or the whole brain. It is always your consciousness, for "you" are the power behind the physical body mechanism. It is where you put your awareness that turns the key in the lock and opens the door. The secret is consciousness.
Becoming whole brained leads naturally and automatically into contact with our etheric body. The etheric body is the space between the swirling atoms and electrons that make up our physical body. The space between the electrons is where thought and perception gathers before coalescing into physical nerves, blood and tissue that forms our physical body. The etheric body is the auric field that surrounds us, that Kirlian photography has captured on special film. Thought, feeling and perception gathers in our field around us before sinking down and coalescing into form and substance of our body. Once thoughts, perceptions and emotions become physical we "own" them. They become manifest and it's too late to back out of it. At least it is difficult to back out of it once these thoughts and feelings have become form and substance, with errors built into them, such as anger or wrong thinking, wrong feeling, wrong concepts and attitudes. Imagine stepping out of the physical body into the field of your etheric body and breathe freer there. Give yourself a few minutes now and then to lighten yourself up and step outside your physical. Experience your larger self, your etheric body self.
As we practice being whole-brained, being balanced equally left and right working together as one functioning brain, the body will lose its tendency to work so hard and create stress. We will become more relaxed, more restful, more prone to harmony. Let the world get on without you. Close the door to the outer world and retreat into the right brain or the whole brain. You decide. It is a self-exploration. Only you can take this step into cosmic love, light and harmony. It is a natural gift from the creator of life.
Then the etheric body will not be so quick to feed anger, fear or stress into the nerve, blood and tissues of the physical body. This is what throws our bodies into confusion. The balanced body is a balanced body, no matter what gender it is. We can be female or male, but when we are functioning with a whole brain, we then have the ability to focus, concentrate, be pro-active and constructive, and at the same time, relaxed and operating in harmony with others around us, for we are connected. We are part of the whole and will be aware when someone is NOT balanced. We will be more aware of how to respond and interact with them. We will be better able to be responsive in benevolent ways, guided to do our constructive best with all concerned, enhancing the community in which we live.
3/8/23 - The Lovers' Archetype
There's a wonderful message on "Today's Updates" page by Saint Germain. This is exactly what Anakosha is trying to bring about with its new love community (posted yesterday). One by one, the green lights are flashing on as I travel down the highway of life letting me pass on through. Every day I am getting another validation that dovetails with the dream project that I once called "The Love Club". I've been writing about for so long - been frustrated for so long, being unable to get it started. But it just wasn't time. I wasn't ready and others weren't ready. The world is changing however, and speeding up, raising its consciousness, raising its head, raising its values and self esteem. There is love in the air. I love that Saint Germain gave us this message through Jennier Crokaert several days ago. Be sure to read it. It is amazing. Click HERE.
Another validation received this morning that we are on course to greater Love, greater Peace, greater Togetherness in harmony. From the book, "The Brotherhood of Angels and of Men" by Geoffrey Hodson, circa 1927:
"Can you conceive an eagerness to work so great that even our bodies seem near to breaking under its power, yet an eagerness combined with patience that can wait a thousand years? To that sublime patience you must attain, for within the quality of patience are enclosed a multitude of virtues: strength to control, power to restrain, vision of the Plan, knowledge of the real, detachment from results and co-ordination of the will, the mind, the body, so that when the time comes they act as one. Patience of this kind does not extinguish the fire of eagerness to serve, rather does it glow ever more fiercely within the compression exercised by will and mind. When at last the order comes, when, after the passing of an age, the day arrives when the restraints are to be released, then it is that the power stored up for so long flashes forth through us. We become the catapults of God.
"Now that day has come; stored-up energies, resulting from the power of the great ideal, have been released into your world. Fear not for the result; the end is sure. Not for nought have your Hierarchy and ours planned, from time beyond your power to count, ever waiting for the arrival of the day; so I say the end is sure. Still they plan, for ages yet unborn, great schemes, embodying the divine Will; in detail, too, down to the angels and the men they choose. What, then, are we but incidents, straws, blown by the breath of God (?) except that within those straws the self-same breath is found, so that breath answers to breath, and His Will is done.
"Remember always that the ultimate source of power is in the idea, the power we use in manifested worlds is but the force emanating from and the reflection of the divine Idea. If this be true, then no delay can reduce its potency, nor any circumstance prevent its ultimate expression. Upon this knowledge should patience be based."
3/7/23 - Calling all lightworkers and mystics
Calling all lightworkers, spiritual students, mystics, visionaries, dreamers, galactic starseeds and other celestials masquerading as humans – welcome to my world! This is a shift in direction. Anyone who is drawn to these words are invited - will be invited when it is time - to a future gathering at my house, date and time to be announced. The purpose of the gathering is to open the door to our higher self, our higher heart, the higher and more refined nature waiting within for release. Our higher self connection resides in our hearts, not our brains. Our brains are unaccustomed to speaking from the heart so we are going to have to learn new skills and new words. That is the reason for the gathering. I have been advised to go ahead and begin issuing the call. The call is done by making it a public call. I can blog it now. It has been a long time in coming.
At this gathering to come, we will practice communicating intelligently in words from our higher self, our higher, wiser, more divine self, who is far more knowledgeable and authentically real. We each know this but we haven't had it confirmed before now. We know who we are on deeper levels, subconscious levels. Each of us has a background of prior lives where we have gained experience, skills, knowledge and wisdom in how to maneuver the human body experience. We come from higher planes but we have been blocked out from knowing that. Now is the time to start sharing what we know. It has been culturally unacceptable until now. This gathering will require that we trust each other and be upward-focused. In other words, positive in our thinking. This will bring about our sweeter natures that are more vulnerable and innocent. The heart is all of these things: wise, non-judgmental, truthful, ethical, discerning, loving, sensitive - and powerful but never pushy. Never, ever pushy. That is why we tread lightly here. We walk in the light and love of the one infinite creator. We do not accept pushy, judgmental, opinionated souls who are not ready to open the heart.
While it is true that we all have opinions, they are third dimensional opinions, formed from third-dimensional laws on the books. This gathering is a calling to those who are ready to reach higher. I am calling for the mystic and the visionary and the student of the heart that is open or ready to open - ready for more. The calling is for those who are willing to participate in speaking the finer natures that yearn to be said, to be free. Communities have already been forming. This is the beginning of a new local heart-centered community. It is yet to come into existence. It is an invitation to learn what higher self means. It is an invitation to go beyond what is already known by the brain. The heart knows more than the brain. It is connected to the higher self and the higher plan. This is an invitation to learn how to trust and how to hold hands despite differences, no matter on what level those differences appear to be. Some can be really crude and harsh. But if the divine thread is there, then we are to find it and support it, and nurture it in others, because that is how we nurture it in ourselves. It is how we access our higher natures. We must assist others who are having difficulty expressing their higher natures, just as we are, and then we will be assisted too. It is a "coming together" in more ways than one.
We will be practicing how it feels to be non-judgmental. Most of all, we will learn how to trust ourselves and what we have always felt but could never speak or tell someone out loud. Our higher nature has been curtailed. In this new community gathering others will support us in return as we support them. There are higher forces at work. More than we know or can understand. Only as we practice and experience this for ourselves, can the light turn up a notch so we can see and feel the difference. This is a gathering to support the process of ascension. It is the evolution from animal man to spiritual man. The spiritual man will learn to live in grace, unified with his brothers and sisters. The use of the term "he" automatically implies "she". They will be more refined, more honest, more decent, more loving, more nourishing, more fulfilled, more peaceful, more comfortable, more powerful, more passionate, more kind, more pure, more whole and therefore more holy.
This started out as an invitation to a small gathering in my home but as I began writing, I see that my initial thought was only the beginning of a much larger project. The Master DK has taken over! It is pre-mature to set a date. The place of the meeting will be in our home in the outskirts of Naples when the time comes, and the purpose is to open the door to the fifth dimension. At least in the beginning stages, for there is much in the way of sharing information that must be done first. We will be sharing from the bosom of the vulnerable heart, the beautiful soul of the higher individual. It will be in a round-robin discussion. There will be no teacher, only a hostess and two co-facilitators. We are all students, no teachers. We are all seekers. All fingers on one hand. All brain cells activating in one brain. All heart cells in one heart. We are non-judgmental, we are listeners, we are observers, we are unifiers and harmonizers. We are positive thinkers. We are active and outgoing sometimes and quiet and passive other times. We are oriented to receiving more light from higher regions. Light from higher regions means information from higher regions. We are open to hearing more information from the higher nature of both ourselves and from others who are present with us.
Our purpose is to explore, learn, discover and practice speaking from our tender, vulnerable, more sensitive higher selves. There are no words for them. They must be felt as we speak them. We encode our words with our feelings. They are our inner-most thoughts that have not been accepted by the traditional world. We are opening doors to beyond the established traditions of the world, and we are feeling courageous and bold to do so. Will we be rejected? We are being supported and we are feeling urges to dare to say these words, these feelings. We have been afraid of rocking the boat so we have been wisely staying quiet. But now the time has come that we are openly seeking support from like-hearted friends. We are mostly female but we are of both genders, so there will be a few men among us at first. Men are welcome if they are capturing the meaning of the words.
Each meeting will start with silence. We will enter into the heart center through silence. Silence is the supreme number one method that we need here today. Meditation without anyone to guide us. No words, no electronic devices, so that each one of us may enter our own silent heart all by ourself. There is no leader. The higher self is our only guide. I as the hostess and gatherer will invite you into the silence but you will enter alone. I am being guided - instructed is the better word - by the Brotherhood of Light, the Ascended Masters. In the silence we are the small ego entering the holy of holies, the secret chamber of the heart. Feel the sacred ambiance of this chamber. We are the smallness surrendering to the highest in us. We are the lowest possible point within our own God/Goddess self which exists beyond the world of form, beyond the myriad stars and galaxies. And each of us has the only key to unlock the door.
After we return from our silence in the secret chamber of the heart, we will have an honoring ceremony, and then an introduction round-robin. Each person present can say as little or as much as they want (within reason!) about who they are. Perhaps a cue card will help with prompt questions. Then we will evolve into discussion with two people acting as moderators.
I am being guided by the Master Djwal Khul who is a member of the Brotherhood of Light or, as it was called in earlier days, the Great White Brotherhood. It is also referred to as the Spiritual Hierarchy. There are many names for those who have mastered the form world as we know it. These great ones have all been where we are today at one time, and they have mastered its limitations and graduated. We are connected to these higher masters through our hearts. This gathering is a way for the masters to guide us through the next stages. This is why we are here - to learn more. This knowledge has been kept from us. Our higher self is a light within the heart. Our life is a conscious light but we didn't know that. We are being now exposed to the consciousness within our heart. It is the eternal living flame which keeps our bodies alive. There is so much to learn!
This knowledge will prolong our life on earth and raise it to the higher planes of love, abundance and happinness. It will bring us back into balance so we are not so stressed out living in pain and struggle for understanding. Those who are called ascended masters live in higher realms called higher dimensions. These dimensions are more refined, not so dense and concrete as we experience here. But they are able to zoom in on anyone who calls for help because we are a thread of life connected to all of life through the flame in our hearts. We will learn more as we open our hearts and access that flame through the process of sharing information. We did not understand. Our closed hearts were kept closed by the laws of former periods in our dark history. We were not free to express ourselves or our creativity or our free and enthusiastic loving nature.
We have been watched over through the dark periods of our history when mankind was in danger of destroying itself. We were guided as best we could be guided, but humanity was so closed down it just was out of reach. Still the ascended masters were there to help. They could see when a heart tried to open and called to God for help. There are bursts of sunlight when a call such as that appears. Shimmers of sunlight appear in the concrete exterior of a human body. There is no space or time in the universal oneness. The light reaches out and is heard throughout the lighted realms. Once, in the early days of my awakening when I was experiencing many odd things, I experienced an emergency rescue by an unknown source. Being ultra-sensitive to the outer environment, it was while I was in the car with my husband driving to downtown San Jose, when a huge semi-trailer truck came thundering past us blowing this incredible horn. I screamed, apparently in my etheric body because my husband didn't hear me, and I found myself sliding down the curvature of the earth into the blackness of space. Yes, you heard right - I was rolling down the curvature of this dark planet, solid black, into the even darker void of space - and suddenly someone or something grabbed me by the scruff of the neck and brought me back to the seat in the car with my husband driving. He didn't know what happened. I asked him. I was terribly shaken for a long time after. But how? Who did this? It has been forever registered on my brain. I will never forget it.
The universe operates in a harmony and order. We will ourselves know this once we are no longer confined in a concrete physical body. We are being watched over. Now all we have to do is learn how to respond. The universe is well organized and we are part of if. We will learn more soon. The earth has been a very difficult school but we have only been born here by the free will act of volunteering. Yes! We volunteered. That's what they say.
3/6/23 - Solar flare emissions cause dizziness - what to do
The following article was taken from a channeling 25 years ago, but it is so very relevant today. I love the concept of creating a buddy system to share feelings and awareness. Perhaps that is the next thing to do. I myself have been experiencing extreme changes in mood, both good and bad, distortions, out-of-body feelings, and flashes of cosmic clarity in-between. What a wild ride these ascension symptoms!
(Channeled:) When you identified with energies long ago that were not the same as your soul purpose, it pulled you out of alignment. The increase in light transmissions now are pulling you back to your soul purpose. The effect is a shifting in your mind causing some discomfort and dizziness. You are losing your separation consciousness in this time, which is the tendency to withdraw and turn inward. The new energy will not let you go into separation any more. Create a buddy system to talk about your awareness with.
Connecting with another person helps transmute the energy of separation that is being dislodged. During solar flares there will be depressions, sadness, loss of hope as the separation energy begins to float free. The sun is God-Love. During solar emissions, the first emissions are x-ray emanations from coronal mass ejections. Sensitive people will feel them in seconds but they go fast and don't impact your magnetosphere [the region surrounding the earth]. What comes next DOES impact. The actual magnetic plasma wave takes 48-72 hours to reach earth and it compresses and distorts the earth's electromagnetic field, and also the EM fields of all creatures including human. People will feel grief, anxiety, sadness, depression, not being yourself. This will pass in 90 days but during this time, reach out in a buddy system and share your feelings. The last emissions are M-class emissions (severe) and X-class emissions (very severe, like 10 on the Richter scale). When you hear NASA speak of X-class emissions coming from the sun, hang onto your hats and buckle your seat belts.
The solar emissions impacting earth is like squeezing a balloon and watching the balloon become distorted. So do the energies inside your EM fields. The physical body will also feel unbalanced, causing aches, pains, dizziness, falls and freak accidents. What you can do to stay balanced during solar maximum cycles - reach out in a buddy system and share your feelings. They will pass. Meanwhile, expose your body and consciousness to the light as much as you can to absorb what is being transmitted. There will be incredible sunsets. Use magnets taped to your skin and other grounding devices like copper bracelets and necklaces. Wear crystals and use visualizations. When you feel out of your body it's the result of one of these wave fronts. Carry black stones like hematite and obsidian, tourmaline.
Stand barefoot in the grass for two or more minutes a day, and anchor your earth chakra (6 inches below your feet) to the core of the planet. Do not anchor your light body. Sleep north to south, head at north. Or meditate two minutes head to north. Take salt baths to clear and protect your energy and ground you. Expose yourself to sunlight to attune to plasma waves. Let go of density. Do a body cleansing. Contractions are signs to expand yourself. Lighten up on your diet. Use fruits, light dairy (yogurts and light cheeses), more greens and raw foods, seeds and nuts. Do not use sugars, sweets and simple carbohydrates, they burn faster and are high-stimulus foods. They grow your system out of balance. Complex carbohydrates and fruit sugars are slower burning and keep you in balance. Back off of caffeine, and use herbal tea. Comfrey tea is excellent, also licorice and licorice tea.
It is important to connect mentally with others through the heart by saying what you feel. Say anything, it doesn't matter what. Mentally you will swing back and forth between high energy ambition and boredom or disgust, as patterns that relate to separation consciousness are dislodged. The solar storms are doing this. If you feel like you are losing hope or faith, it is the old separation consciousness being dislodged. The feeling of being "unconnected" is an ancient energy that is now floating free and moving out, making room for the great thing growing inside. Cut down on TV and overstimulation. Shorten your meditation times. Stay in the here and now and align your physical, mental and emotional bodies.
Your spiritual ego is realigning to become God in physicality. Even those who are asleep are experiencing it. Be non-judgmental. By detachment and non-judgment you detach your energies and support. When you judge, you participate in that which you judge. Detach from making judgments. You have been a part of all things, including war. You as God created war. You as people created war, you are not separate from All That Is. So you as God and People begin to heal the war by detaching your energies from it.
It is an illusion that you are going somewhere or becoming something. You are already all that you are. Detach from the illusions and projections you have created. You are simply awakening to your freedom and flowing forth without efforting, without judgment, without attaching or trying to be a certain way or do a certain thing.
3/5/23 - This is Tantra (Master Djwal Khul)
One day back in 2013 I received a message from DK that applies to what is happening in our world today. We definitely in the midst of the ascension process, moving into lighter atmospheres. There is much confusion by those who are not aware of the beautiful world that we are moving into. I wish to assure peace and calm. Be prepared for love and clarity and knowingness. People are confused because this information has been kept from the public's eye. As I am constantly reviewing DK's messages, he continues to inspire me and I wish to pass it on, reminding everyone of the hope and beauty that is on its way into our life. But it's not what you think. This is Tantra. I have been posting his messages received over the last 47 years HERE. Please check out his beautiful inspired teachings. The following instruction came when I asked him something but I don't remember what I asked him. I forgot to write it down!
"You have become fragmented into many pieces. You are not whole. You are learning to re-connect your four lower bodies - your physical, emotional, mental and spiritual or higher mind. You have been learning about integration and you have been practicing in your meditation room. Now you are getting the idea this morning. A new understanding is dawning. The others that you need are the fragments of yourself. You are learning how to expand your awareness to the higher plane of the emotions and from there to step up to the still higher plane of thought, the mental plane. And from there to the yet higher plane of higher mind. You are visualizing the expansion of your body to these higher planes. You are expanding your awareness to higher planes beyond the physical. You are waking yourself up on the higher plane of emotion and mental and spiritual and higher.
"As you consciously stepped out of your limited perception of being physical, and as you visualized yourself larger than physical, superimposed over your physical as you have been practicing, and then breathing consciously, allowing your breath to penetrate your larger self on the emotional and the next larger mental and the next larger spiritual and the next - as you breathed in and out of each plane while visualizing, you awakened and aligned these fragments of yourself with your physical. Many people are today working this process to bring their four lower bodies, anchored in the four lower chakras, into balance and alignment with the limited concrete physical body consciousness. This is what I meant by “you can’t do it alone.”
"Picture a line of people arriving to your house, each bearing gifts but they are stopped at the front door because you do not open the door or look out the window. You do not know the people are there with gifts for you, gifts that would make your life easier and more pleasant, more agreeable. Many riches await you when you stop trying to live your life as if you were all alone with no help. You have a network of help and helpers all around you but you do not see them. You have been living in a closet in the 3D world. You were kept from your own holy self and the powers of your full potential by the mass consciousness which is a fuzzy dark cloud which obscures your own light. This opening and piercing of the veils between your bodies which kept you locked as a prisoner in the physical material world is being broken as you practice awakening, enlarging, breathing, and calling upon your emotional, mental and spiritual self through the morning exercises. You are not alone because you have a wholeness that is connected to God and through that wholeness you are connected to all.
"You have been asking for guidance on Tantra. This is Tantra. This is awakening while in your physical body to the other planes of consciousness that you have access to but you have been kept locked away from. Tantra means a net or a web that connects all as one that has always existed. You were never alone in a separate body, but you were locked out and closed down from knowing this truth. Now you and others are piercing the veils. It is a conscious realization that connects you. The web of life is composed of conscious thought. Conscious awareness. Consciousness connects all that is. God enfolds all his creation alike in his arms and heart and mind. All is contained within the bosom of God. When you don’t know this, it is like being locked inside your closet and not opening the door to the people outside trying to reach you and give you the gifts, their hugs, their laughter and their joyous celebrations, and to invite you to party with them.
"Practice your awakening exercises every morning. When you do this, as you consciously awaken to your higher self and invite integration of your other dimensional you’s, mind, feelings, principles and values, you nourish and refresh your physical body. It is your physical body that grows old and tired because it is not being rejuvenated by spirit. When you enter 3D you enter a “time zone”. There is a beginning and an end locked in time. When you are born in 3D you agree to be closed off from the love and light of the Creator and all of the higher dimensions. You came to learn about darkness and what happens when you are without the light and love. As you remember how to pierce the darkness through the process of applying love and light, you can nourish the failing body and the physical cells will open and drink the divine nectar. Your body fills up, plumps up with life and your DNA expands as does your consciousness. This is how you align yourself with your own perfection, the Christ, known also as the Adam Kadmon, the divine perfect human being, designed as the original role model of each human being from the heart-mind of God.
3/4/23 - Use mantra and visualization to take control
Create a sacred seed thought to take control over your life. Sacred is the key word. It supplants the personal ego which is the little desire self which causes confusion by chasing and holding onto desires. The little desire self is limited and finite. We have been concentrating far too long on this small little self. Consider using the following mantra. I am sharing it today with whoever is drawn to it. I have been given permission. Anyone may use this mantra and guided words of instruction. This mantra must be made with repetition. It will access your personal God-self identity known as your Higher Self. The Higher Self is the ladder to the stars. It is a path that goes higher and higher and is endless, even while you are human living on Earth. Only you can walk the rungs of the ladder of the Higher Self. It is done by choice, free-will effort and concentration. This mantra was given to me by the Tibetan Master, Djwal Khul many years ago.
I AM THE HOLINESS OF THIS BODY, AND I DEDICATE THIS BODY, I CONSECRATE THIS BODY TO THE WILL THAT I AM.
This mantra gives your power over to your higher God-self. It directs your Higher Self to take control over your finite body and make decisions for you, which you do not have the ability or vision to make yourself . You are asking for help from higher realms. You must ask for this help by relinquishing control over your smaller ego. Your human ego is in control until you consciously surrender control to your Higher Self. Your Higher Self requires that you ask for its help before it can step in and take control. This mantra does that, but you have to take the lead and establish a conscious repetitive daily practice. It doesn't take too long. Repetition is how we create habits. We humans are really good at establishing habits, but we have not created good habits. It is time to create some sacred habits. A rhythm of repetition. Plus a humble attitude.
Along with the mantra, use a visualization of yourself that is beautiful to you, that is attractive to you, that is an ideal image of yourself. Visualize this within a bright sun. Use the light from the sun to brighten this image of yourself. You can play with this image by brightening it to the degree that your image almost disappears, and then bring it back into sharper outlines. You are manifesting your Higher Self into your current life while repeating the sacred mantra. First find a photo or remember a photo that you saw one day long ago, one that you especially liked of yourself. That perhaps shows you in a better light than you are today. What you would like to BE today. Use that image to imprint on your inner mind as you repeat the mantra, "I am the holiness of this body and I dedicate this body, I consecrate this body to the will that I AM!"
Close your eyes, lower your gaze downward as if looking at the tip of your nose, and repeat the mantra while holding this image of your beautiful personal self in the light of the sun. Do this often. It will help stabilize your mind. It is like planting a seed thought in your subconscious mind. Repetition of the same thought plants a seed of ONE thought - remember, it is ONE thought, not many different thoughts - that becomes implanted. It will start to grow and become stronger and radiate further out with repetition. Repetition is the key to this technique. Repeated every day and at least three times a day is recommended. I recommend having at least three set times during the day that you do this mantra and visualization. Start at 5 minutes each time and increase it to 10, then 15, then 30 minutes each time.
If something happens shocking or traumatic, take several minutes to use it to stabilize. This mantra and visualization, with practice, will help bring your whirling thoughts to a central "seed thought", giving permission to your Higher Self to step in and take control with peace and calmness. A vortex is being created of a divine, sacred nature with the use of this mantra and visualization. But nobody can do it for you. Only YOU can create this for yourself through practice. Otherwise, random thoughts will continue to invade your psyche and energy field and swirl with chaos, which we consider the human condition today. A sacred "seed thought" will grow roots going throughout your whole entire body via the nervous system. Experts tell us that by repeating the same words and patterns every day, you mold your life into what it has become today. You created your life, this is how you can change your life. Build this sacred seed thought every day and you will grow roots into your life that start to change the way things work out for you.
Without a sacred seed thought, energies cast off by other people will continue to swirl randomly through you and your mind like a frenzied storm with no direction. You are the directing intelligence of your body. This mantra and visualization will provide a central seed thought, like a mother thought. It is a parent thought. You are a child of the one infinite creator, but you are human and you didn't know that, being born here. This is a technique that has been used for centuries in the East, with a strong influence on the culture there. Wise sages and spiritual leaders abound in the remote sections of the Himalayas. Now these lessons are becoming accepted in our Western societies. It has taken time to accept them, but they have taken root in our western culture. It is a "next step" to accept repetition of sacred words, as in a mantra.
It takes effort to take time out in our busy lives to concentrate and actually sit for 5 minutes at a time being silent and concentrating. I myself have had difficulty controlling my own mind, which whirled on its own. I believed I was doing the right thing to be spontaneous and follow my free will spontaneity. And I was right, as it turns out, to honor and respect my thoughts and feelings. But as East and West learn to merge with each other, so does spirituality and personal empowerment merge and become one whole entity. We are destined to become whole, a divine Ego human with individual skills, talents and knowledge unlike any other. We ARE individuals. As we call on our own Higher Self to merge with our lesser human self, we build integrity into our human self, and learn to control our life with a more refined vision. I have been learning this over the many yrs that the Master DK has been my guide and teacher. I did not know. He has taught me. I am passing on some of his teachings on this website. Yes, we learn from others, of course we do. But the one we have not been learning from and we MUST learn from at ALL times, over and above input from others, is our Higher Self. This is the one path that takes us ever higher beyond what we can see here, today, in this hour. No one can do this for us. Only we can do it for ourselves, by ourself. As long as we listen to other people, we are gathering more confusions to consider, more to analyze, more to weigh, more to consider, more to struggle to fit into our days. These storm clouds that come to us regularly - we live inside the storm clouds - run havoc through our bodies and minds without direction.
That was the purpose of the guru. A guru was a no-nonsense guide. He gave a mantra and said "repeat it!" Westerners didn't want to do that. The times changed and we became intellectual and rationalized everything with our minds. We didn't need a teacher. We can do it ourselves. And so the intellect came into being. We are now intellectualizing ourselves into a mess. We've created a mess without the spiritual teacher to guide us to our HIGHER SELF. We are swirling with storm clouds, chaos, fear and indecision. We are a lost race until we turn ourselves over to our HIGHER SELF. The higher self is our individual personal self but uncontaminated by human faults. It leads us up the ladder to greater understanding, keeping us connected to our Self. It is important not to give up our sense of personal identity. We are God in embodied form. It is important to build on what we know. The God Self is pure and uncontaminated by human errors. How does one connect with it? By assuming the pose of surrendering and repeating sacred words intended and aimed upward to the highest in us.
Most people are reluctant to give someone else charge over their life, but giving the Higher Self permission to take charge over your life is a whole different story. You ARE your higher self temporarily living confined in a limited body which doesn't know anything at all about "higher selves". Thus this body is surrounded by confused input from other people. The only way to access your Higher Self - your real Self - is to take the time to go alone and practice assuring it and communicating with it. Repeat the coded words to only your Higher Self, no other. Find a picture you like of yourself that is healthier and more beautiful, more noble, more wise, more ideal that you wish you were, and focus that intention through the sacred words, appealing for its intervention with your life.
Say the suggested mantra, either silently or out loud. Use a timer and set it for two minutes or three or five and increase it as your feel to expand the time. Start today. And do it two more times today. And tomorrow two more times, and every day do it three times during the day. The longer you can do it the quicker you will plant a seed thought and take control over the stabilizing of your mind. Even if you don't feel anything is wrong in your life, even if you feel you are healthy, wealthy and wise enough not to need any help from your Higher Self, you will be surprised at how much better life can be. How much life can be improved by relinquishing your limited ego control over your life and adding your Higher Self into the mix. We are here to live a 50/50 life as a human being having a human life on Earth with the inflow and input from the one infinite creator, your God/Goddess Self.
Close your eyes and drop your gaze as if to look at the tip of your nose. This tells your body to follow suit. Everything in your body is connected to the one intelligence - YOU! You are giving direction now to your body. You have assumed your body was you but you are NOT your body. You are wearing your body like a suit of clothes. You, your REAL self, is abstract mind, much more than a limited physical body. You are the mind. You are the mind that can expand infinitely to an ever greater intelligence. You are what controls your body by giving it a direction to go in. Perhaps you have not been doing because you didn't know how to. Concentrate your mind on this one sacred seed thought and see what happens over the next month. The Master DK is now guiding you as he has been guiding me over the last 47 years.
3/1/23 - Ascension Massage - "the bump in the road", Part 2
This morning (channeled 11/9/17) I had a download of information. I asked DK to please help me remember this information about the primal divine earth energies coming up and gathering at the first root chakra. Then it comes up to the 2nd chakra which is the reproductive or sexual chakra, and....? He answered:
In the animal kingdom the flow of primal energy divides out at the second chakra in order to create a division into two separate genders. There must be separate genders, male and female, to create a hunger for reuniting. Separation at the second chakra is necessary for duality to play out. There is engagement and play between the two forces which makes the world go around. And create babies. Reproduction is important to perpetuate the species. The animal kingdom operates on animal instinct. Now, the human being is also an animal but it has been cultivated with altered DNA to become more conscious than the animal. It has evolved to become self-conscious and it continues to evolve to become God conscious. It knows that there is a refinement that draws him to seek into the spiritual realms. But his sexuality and reproductive functions remain as an animal.
The human has allowed himself to retain the animal drive to copulate as all animals do. The mechanism to overcome this drive lies in the second chakra, where the division takes place in the animal kingdom. When the primal divine life force comes up to the first root chakra, to overcome this drive, instead of dividing out left and right, the mechanism is to remain WITHIN the second chakra and not allow the division to take place. The division that takes place is the male pushing out and the female withdrawing or receiving. When the human male stops pushing and the female stops receiving, they both can integrate and experience union. This is difficult to explain to a 3D consciousness.
I heard this in a 5D altered state and was able to retain this information. What we are doing with the Ascension Massage - originally I called it The Love Club massage swaps - is teaching people how to integrate their male and female sides in peaceful embrace, rather than the male pushing and the female dancing around trying to attract his attention or running away. To overcome this animal instinct to push and run away (male and female animal instinct) we humans are to learn how to not do that by way of reducing or diminishing our outward actions. When we slow down to a full conscious stillness and allow ourselves to integrate, then we overcome the animal instinct to push and dance. Do you understand? (DK talking. Channeled on 11/9/17)
2/28/23 - Ascension massage takes you over the "bump in the road" (part 1)
The bump in the road to which I refer is sexual tension. On this website there is page called "Massage", and under that page is a link to Ascension Massage. Ascension Massage has lately received an increase in the number of hits. Interest appears to be rising. The reason Ascension Massage has not been promoted lately (by me on this site) is because of the sexual issue. Issues over sex remain constant. They are puzzling. I've been unsure how to promote the divine love nature of Ascension Massage because sexual issues continue to rise and get in the way. Sex is a bump in the road. It is an obstruction to what I'm trying to present through Ascension Massage. And yet sex is not even real! It is a misnomer, a mislabeling. There is a divine nature that is being held back. Recent revelations are insisting I go ahead and start revealing what I know. "Don't worry", I am assured. "It is time to shake the tree and see what falls out."
Here is a simple example of what sex is. Imagine if you will someone who continues to beat you up with daily angry tirades. It doesn't hurt you physically, but it is a bother. It is part of your life and you have lived with it a long time but it creates an agitation. It is not a big deal but after a while it becomes irritating and you finally become physically disturbed by it. After days and weeks pass, maybe even months of this irrating way of life, suddenly the angry tirades stop! What happened? An emptiness rushes in bringing peace, tranquility, even bliss. Some might call it ecstasy or rapture. You suddenly experience the sensation of peace and you enjoy freedom like you haven't felt in a long, long time. This changes your life, your thoughts, your emotions, your appreciation and joy of life increases. You had an orgasm, a release of pressure that had built up.
This is what sex is - the cessation of continual pounding and beating at an internal door that was closed. Most people are unaware of this door. This is a new concept. You don't have to believe it, but this door is blocking the flow of the divine love that should be flowing up the spine and all through the body, maintaining your life in a constant state of harmony, peace, rightness, abundance and good relations. The spine is actually a pathway for divine energy to flow from the coccyx up to the crown of the head, and equally, for the life force to flow DOWN from the abstract intelligence of light and love, entering through the crown of the head and flowing into the soil of earth through the feet. We have not been introduced to this except for those of us who study the occult and esoteric sciences. Clairvoyants and mediums can see the energies moving, but not the average person with training or natural inclination.
This life force of which I speak is pure, unadulterated and uncontaminated by the human belief system. Human beliefs don't influence it or alter it. Humanity has built an artificial life around it, living off it like a parasite. But the divine life is flowing through us still. We just don't know about it. The divine life runs the show, breathes our breath for us, keeps the body functioning. And disease happens only when we block the flow.
We have been blocking the flow when it comes to sex, big time. Our ignorance causes all sorts of problems for us, and not just sexually. On all levels of life. Fortunately, we are on the brink of opening doors we have not had opened in eons of time. We have been held back so it's not our fault entirely. But we have resisted the natural flow of our own divine nature - the internal natural nature of love. We have fallen into dark hands and we have listened to them. We are now reaping the rewards today and learning to not listen. We are returning to our natural divine nature with slow, steady steps of awareness of love.
There is a waking up and transformation happening. Many people are prepared to shed light on the way sex has been mislabeled, mishandled and abused. We DO have the ability to fix it if we knew more about how it went wrong. This is merely a preliminary introduction to the problem of sex. We really didn't know!? We have no idea how badly we have messed up what could have been a most beautiful love affair with life and over the centuries. There is a natural flow of bliss, love and joy running through our bodies - we tune into it now and then (ask the lovers of the world!) - but there is a closed door when it comes to mechanical sex. There is more to come.
Ascension Massage is a new method to bring ecstatic divine love up through the body PAST the sex block, not repressing it but lifting it up, raising it up, with honor, love and respect, up past the bulge that we refer to as a sexual need to release. When we release the divine love at this lower level (by cumming) we spend it outward into the physical abdomen and intestines, and the rest of the body cells and tissues - the stomach, heart, lungs, brain and more - doesn't receive it. Which is why we stay at the same consciousness level and don't grow wiser and happier. There is a next step. Tomorrow there will be more. Tune in!
2/26/23 - Accessing your higher self - part 2
Close your eyes and concentrate on the picture of yourself that you have chosen, the one you really love above yourself. Use this photograph as an image to fix your attention upon. Close your eyes and recreate this image above you high in the sky, in the clear blue of the sky and inside a bright, dazzling sun, like the real sun we see every day. Imagine a clear blue sky and the sun at zenith. Imagine you inside the sun. You are coming through the sun right now as your immaculate, perfect self, streaming like the TV show streams through the televion set into your living room. Right this very moment your perfect self is streaming through the sun and down into your body through a radiant ray of light, alongside other radiant rays of light of others in form.
Imagine this image. Focus on it. You are being created as an endless stream of perfection - a human being in form - and you are being created eternally. We experience "time" where we are in our bodies, but the one infinite creator does not experience time. It is the creator in the eternal moment of now. And you are riding into the earth's atmosphere constantly as a perfect creation of ahuman being. You are the creation of the one infinite creator - the one we call "Father" or "Lord". You were not created in the past; you are being created eternally now. Always. It is difficult for us to understand this, but picture yourself over your head in the brilliant sun. There is no time in the sea of eternity. You are living in the now and you know you are living because you are breathing - inhaling and exhaling, pumping blood through your organs which are functioning - you are being created always, in the now moment. There is only one now moment in eternity and you are living in that one moment, right now. Even though we do not see or realize this brilliant perfect "Me" or "I", it is happening, nonetheless. It is the consciousness of "me" or "I". This consciousness cannot be taken from us. We are conscious. We are aware. And we can grow our consciousness. We can expand it. We can refine it. We can tune in to a more beautiful "me" or "I". We do this through the art of concentration and blocking out all other images. Just for a short while. With practice we learn to hold this positive image for longer periods.
You are now creating a picture of yourself in the most beautiful image you can find of yourself. Photographs work perfectly for a starter. You are using a photograph that you like about yourself, that pictures you in a way that pleases you. You are placing that image into the sky above you inside a sun that you are creating in your mind, using the powers of concentration but you are opening a channel to receive more. You have a mind, an intelligence, an awareness, that you are using to create this channel. You use your mind all day long in more finite ways but now you are using your mind to open to more than you know. So far you have used your mind to create worries, anxieties, illusions, projections, relationships and a way of life that suits you. You create through the ability to find comfort and peace. More and more, people are learning to relax and use their minds in more expansive ways. Still, there are any distractions. The world is going through an upheaval, a regurgitation of old ways and a transition to newer, more uplifting ways of living. The world is giving birth to greater light. The old ways are falling behind. Chaos is in the air because there are 8 billion people on the planet, and each one is going through their own transition.
We tend to consider the feelings of other people around us, we like to help. But we cannot help with the undercurrents that are flowing. Stick to your own game plan. Follow your own heart and dream. That is the reason for accessing your higher self. Only your higher self knows what is good for you. Your higher self is the immaculate self that is flowing continually through you. Tune into it. Let others find their own higher self. It is not your job to assist them, unless there is an obvious way that you can step in. Then, in that case, step in and help, but don't get distracted from your main job - that of tuning into your own higher self which has the answers and solutions for you alone.
The state of the world is in chaos as the light is causing us each to shift focus to ourself alone. Silent mediation on our self alone brings peace and contentment if we stabilize into the practice. You use your mind all day long on "other things" not yourself, so you seldom tap into your own perfection which is ever present, flowing in on your breath, inhaling it and exhaling it as we speak, as I type these words. Only the wisest of the wise human beings take the time to STOP! Stop focusing on "other things" and focus on the perfection that is flowing through you right now. The immaculate concept that would bring you awareness of peace and revelations concerning your own life. Everyone thinks the immaculate concept refers to Mother Mary of biblical scripture, the mother of Jesus. But it pertains to the perfection of every form flowing into existence. Your form is building and flowing along a perfect pattern - a pattern called the Adam Kadmon, the Christ. It is a perfect human shape. All the organs are in perfect place to perform their function. Every cell is in place, every molecule, every organ, the brain, your heart, your lungs, your spleen, liver, kidneys, toes, fingers, hands, blood flow, nerves - everything is perfect because you are being created from the mind of the one infinite creator in this very moment.
Tune into the photographic image that you are holding in your hands, close your eyes and recreate this image in your mind. See yourself in the brilliant dazzling white light of the sun. Your image is almost lost in the sunlight because the sun is SO bright, SO dazzling, SO brilliant, SO all consuming. Yet, you can see yourself inside that radiant light because you are coming through the light. You are a thought of the creator, just as the sun is a thought of the creator. You are a part of the light as a unique and separate creation. You are the perfect creation that is being radiated outword as we speak of it. The one infinite creator did not create you a "long time ago" so that you had "time" to become lost. There is no time in the infinite expanse of forever. It is all happening in the eternal now. Be HERE NOW and picture yourself densifying into your current human form. You are manifesting as an embodied form. Hold that image for as long as you can. If your mind wanders, pull it back to the image of your immaculate self coming into manifestation as your current you. This is coming through strongly to me as I release these words. The image of the immaculate concept is always streaming forth. No matter where you "think" yourself to be, no matter what situation you "think" yourself in, be aware of this perfect immaculate you. This beautiful image of yourself that you hold in your mind right now.
The reason for holding it above your head is so you reach up to it. Think up to it as an open chalice to receive the divine blueprint as it funnels down into your crown. Receive it and create a direct line, a link, a thread, a channel, a path from you on the earth plane in your physical body that is aging, upward to the more of you that you do not see. You are using a photograph to picture yourself, to plant your image in the open spaces of the sky as a portal. The image is not the real you, it represents a frequency, a divine idea, a master plan coming from the creator flowing down into concrete form. The immaculate concept cannot be understood by the finite personality ego, but it can be open to receive revelation from the divine. That is what we want to do here - receive revelation. We need to have a portal to fix our attention on with an open, eager mind. It has been eternally flowing down but we have not known about it, so we have missed it. It is constantly descending down, and manifesting as clumps of solar fire into concrete atoms, cells and molecules to form a human body. We are creating this open channel by visualizing it. Visualizations are a thousand more effective than words. They are like containers into which we receive the divine substance that is flowing. Visualizations are like buckets put out in the rain to collect water. Something has to hold the water or it will be lost in the fray.
Create this pathway by holding this picture for as long as you can in one sitting. Then release it and return to your normal life. Continue to live your life as you normally would, do not "try" to make it better or different. Let the divine handle the absorption and correction as it flows into your daily life. Periodically, sit in the quiet and alone time and hold the vision again. Your human nature is valuable. Continue to construct it with purpose and vision. Your human ego and understanding is growing stronger as you do this. You are learning as you grow through the life you live as (insert your name). Your friends and family are doing the same but on a different time line than you. Don't expect them to follow along beside you. They too have an immaculate concept breathing through them but their time for understanding is different from yours. The more you sit in quiet and peace, holding this immaculate image, the more you strengthen the river of universal harmony and abundance into your physicalness. Be here now. Hold this beautiful image of yourself and notice the merging and how it affects your life. Know that the real sun in the sky is a distribution center for your immaculate blueprint. Your knowledge of this will keep the channel open more and more. Keep strengthening the path of light that is coming through the sun. Both the "real" sun in the sky and the "imagined" sun that you create in your mind.
Concentrate. This is work. Work at picturing yourself. Hold this image. If your mind wanders, pull it back with will power and determination. Work at holding the picture of your immaculate self - or the best image of yourself that you can muster. It is above you coming down from an abstract intelligence and entering through the top of your head. Focus on the crown. Bring the image down through the crown of your head and into the brain so it can register on the physical cells of your brain and be distributed through physical nerve cells. Imagine a portal at the crown of your head and imagine the revelations flowing down through the opening at the top of your head. The crown portal is known as the Dweller on the Threshold. It is half inside the crown and half outside. It sits there as a sphere of light at the crown, half in and half out, an open portal that may be opened by your focused awareness with love and devotion for your higher self.
Imagine the flow of light flowing into your brain, picture your brain as it appears in graphic form, and see the light lighting up this brain. It flows through your brain and center of the head, manifesting as the pituitary gland, the master gland which activates the various functions of the body. The light flows easily through the channels designed in perfection by the master blueprint. The more often you picture the light flowing, the more perfection flows into your aging, deteriorating body. For those who study the yoga sutras, the pituitary gland is not the Ajna center. The Ajna center is projected out from the center of the head to the front of the forehead. It is used for sending or directing, like a laser beam.
Bring the image of your immaculate perfection down into your head center. See the brain and nervous system light up. The more you do this and the longer you hold this image of light manifesting in your physical, the more you solidify this truth into your finite physical body. Blend your divine immortal self with your fun-loving, pleasure-loving, excitable, ever changing humanity and you will notice an uptick in your sensations and life. You are creating a blend of your true self in the abstract and your physical body self as a concrete human being. With this practice we are channeling the abstract solar fire into the physical brain cells so they can carry the divine fire to other locations in the body. The solar fire is known as the Presence of God, the Dweller on the Threshold and the Christ. The divine wants to be in form. Unfortunately, we have been covered over with false impressions and projections of illusion and limited wrong beliefs. Focus more and more and for longer periods of time on the best version of yourself you can find, and hold that image in the sun. Strengthen the channel between the divine you and the mortal finite you.
2/25/23 - Accessing your higher self - part 1
Stamina comes from your Higher Self. You cannot create stamina without tapping into your Higher Self. Your Higher Self is all that you are up to date. It is all that you have experienced up to date. You have collected an amazing amount of stamina throughout the eons. You can call it vital life force or some other word, the word is not important. Understand what we mean by stamina. You have built it into yourself by the actual LIVING of it thru form life. After each form life you return to the non-form life, the heaven worlds. And then you return to form life again. You have experienced form life before this human life you are living now. Your mastery is built through living in form life, mastering the form life and growing from being in form and learning how to manage yourself in embodiment. Your spiritual self is actually built from living in an embodied planet. This stamina - you call it energy but there are different kinds of energy - comes from knowing how to maneuver in form. All that you have ever experienced in form is the excellent stamina that you wish you had more of.
You have lived on other planets too, not just on Earth. There are galaxies upon galaxies - solar communities of countless other planets - which host beings like humans and animals on their surfaces. Also you have had pre-human lives as animals, plants and even minerals before becoming human. From the beginning of your sojourn into form and substance, you have been a child of the one infinite creator experiencing embodied life in form and substance. You have been one consciousness, the same consciousness that you are enjoying now, today, and thinking you know it all. And you DO know it all. You know all that you know, but there is more that you don't know. There is always more to become known. And there are always others to guide you and talk to you telepathically. Stamina is knowledge lived. It comes from the accumulated "know it all" part of you. It is your innate knowledge. Your instinct. Your intuition. Your sense of being right. You can tap into that rightness, that knowingness starting now. It is all the knowledge and understanding that you have accumulated so far in the eons and eons of time living in embodied form. You can start right now, just as you are today, even if you have low self esteem and don't believe you can.
We call this innate self the Higher Self or the God Self. Or perhaps you call it the Lord. Whatever you are accustomed to calling it, it is above and beyond you because your body today is finite. It was built at your conception, so it is only one life old, where you have lived countless lives before. This body is only temporary, but you can train it if you learn how to access your prior life knowledge. This body will not last forever unless you feed it with your past life memories, and then it may live longer than you planned. This body was built just for you for THIS life. It was built at the time of your conception and birth by your earth mother. So this body that you are living in today does not have memory of your past lives. But YOU do, you as an everlasting eternal consciousness. Your consciousness is what we call the spiritual self. You are eternal. You live over and over again in different forms. You grow up and learn the current culture by living in that particular form, and then that form passes away and you go on to the heavenly fields to debrief and consider the next step in form. You have embodied in various forms and usually don't remember them. You learn how to maneuver that one particular form that you currently inhabit, and you tap into your prior knowledge through some kind of homing device called instinct. Instinct is inherent. It is prior knowledge that has accumulated in your consciousness - that which we refer to as soul.
You don’t remember your past lives unless you have tapped into your Higher Self. You can tap into your Higher Self right now, and I will teach you a method how to do that. Your higher self is best known as intuition. It is innate. It is not just inside of you, it is your life force, your consciousness, your breath of awareness with which you first come awake and aware in the morning after sleep. Or after a coma of long duration. You are all that you have EVER been and ever experienced. You are awareness. You just don’t remember prior lives easily. Some of us do. But it is in THIS body that we are primarily focused. Learning to maneuver in THIS body. THIS body is a new body. It doesn't have the memories that YOU have as an everlasting consciousness. You probably haven't had the opportunity to know this before now, or maybe you have. Many people are learning about their spiritual selves today. Humanity is growing by leaps and bounds into higher consciousness levels. But if you don’t know how to access your Higher Self, I will give you some hints tomorrow. You have been held back on this planet called Earth. It has been a dark planet up until recently. Earth is growing up and taking on more of HER higher self too. Mother Earth is also an intelligent entity who has been held back. She is of a different species than human. She belongs to the planetary tribe. All planets belong to the planetary tribe. They can communicate with each other through the solar system - their male counterpartner. They host the human, animal, plantlife and other species on their surfaces.
If you are willing I would like to share with you some ways to access your Higher Self. These are from my own personal experiences. I will tell you more tomorrow. This is a prelude to lay a foundation before beginning. All techniques have a basis of a foundation, a reason for being to share and pass on to others. One must be prepared in order to be open enough to receive. Otherwise, why would you waste your time? Search your photographs and scrapbooks tonight and find a photo of yourself that you really, really like of yourself. The one photo that gives you a good feeling about yourself. One that shows you in the way you would like to look today. What quality does it bring to mind? Beauty? Dignity? Nobleness, grace, power, strength, intelligence? Whatever quality you most admire and want to enhance in yourself. That feeling can be enhanced with the help of your Higher Self. You can access this quality by picturing your Higher Self in a certain way. The photo can be of any age, it doesn’t matter. It can be used as a reminder, a reflection, thru which to access skills that you have but are currently beyond reach because your physical body and brain never experienced them before. Tomorrow then.
2/24/23 - Don't suppress the ego, soften it, and Tantra
Don’t suppress the ego, soften it. Many people think the personal ego is bad, but the Masters say you don’t want to suppress or repress your personal ego, or deny it, or even subdue it. Rather, soften it. Care for it with the wise gentleness of a good mother, because your human ego is of personal value - to you and to others. It is your uniqueness. The great plan behind all plans is to integrate your personal value, your knowledge and unique individuality into the overall master plan - the Oneness out of which all springs forth into form. The divine Oneness is ever growing richer because of the individual minds merging into it.
It is this Oneness that is the I AM Presence that descends into form. The I AM God Presence created you and supports you on your individual journey. It is immortal. It is the One I AM that created all forms everywhere. The great mystery is how this is done. We are on the road of discovery, each one of us, learning how it is done. It is the ONE out of which life springs a'new every day, every moment, eternally refreshing us if we can understand that and tap into it. The I AM is eternally new and more than it was before, because individual minds are constantly returning home with their individualities vastly expanded with understanding.
The problem we all experience is this. We as an individual mind have grown an intelligent branch off of the ONE intelligence, separate and apart from the great ocean of love and unified ooneness. Yet we cannot escape it entirely, we can only go off separate and alone, away from it. We can reject it and refuse to listen to the guiding voice within, but we cannot escape it because we ARE the oneness having a separate temporary experience. We are still in the oneness, or rather, the one vast intelligence is still in us. Many have taken the dark road away from love and light, for we have free will. But the better advice is always to go within and listen to the still small voice of conscience, of heart, of love.
We have each had many experiences out in the darkness as separate intelligences, away from the light and the love of the one infinite creator. We not only can say "I did it my way!" - we MUST do it "my way". That is the only way to find the light and the love within. No one else can do it for you. You are on a separate path from your friends. That is why your personal ego is not bad. It just needs to be softened, blended with the love and light within so it can feel wanted, valued and held in high esteem. Bad criminal cruel mean behavior is not valued, it needs to be awakened to the value it is running away from.
We all did many things against our own inner conscience, light and loving heart, but it taught us the value of right and wrong. We benefitted from the results. Good results from good and right behavior, and bad results from wrong behavior. We learned as we traveled and experimented about the value of having friends and being kind and doing the morally right thing, even if no one noticed. And we learned it was not worth it to go against that inner knowing. We learn to maintain personal integrity over the long haul. We learn to be less selfish, or perhaps we learn to be MORE selfish - those of us who are constantly giving our power away to the point of exhaustion - for there is a constant balance we are seeking to maintain. The balance is done within, by noticing, acknowledging the truth and applying it. The spiritual life is the path of maintaining balance between our own dual natures.
When you get angry, tone it down, bring it back to gentleness with words and considerations. The separate ego thinks it is all alone in life and it maintains a stubbornness to survive, not unlike the child having a temper tantrum. When things don’t go its way, it strikes out in ways that are not good for the whole. It sheds violence on the neighbors and family. Tone it down. Treat it with love and kindness and show it respect, and the personal ego will respond in kind. It needs to be respected. It needs to feel valued because it is a part of us. It is not separate. Be patient and kind to yourself. On a higher level you are your own God, your own Father God and your own Mother God. Be nice to yourself. Find a way that is balanced and does not hurt someone else in your vicinity. Work on this. The soul is a work in progress. The soul is the child learning how to live life in form in a balanced way. Then happiness is felt. Joy is felt. Abundance is felt.
The ego is the human child being raised by the Father-Mother God within. Father is abstract intelligence without form; the Mother is abstract intelligence INSIDE the form, flowing through the form as the life blood, circulating through the heart, lungs, nerves, glands and organs. You have access to the Father-Mother God within, for you are both the ego as little child and the wise parents of spiritual nature. As the little child you don't know this until you begin connecting with the love and light within - the Father-Mother who is the one infinite creator flowing through you. Act more like the father-mother God within you and you will mature as an ego. At that point you begin changing into aspects of the Divine Ego, which is more loving, graceful, patient and kind. You will be noticed as becoing a more peaceful, refined personality.
There are many religious and spiritual names used to refer to the Divine Ego – Higher Self, God-Self, Spirit, Holy Christ Self, Divine Feminine, Divine Masculine, but it is not the word that matters. It is your understanding that matters. When we live in a solid body form, we are operating on a closed circuit, not knowing these things. We are using that program that we were born into. Everyone born here in the past uses that program. It is "time" and "space", closed off restricted area from the wide open fields of intelligence, harmony and love. Here on this planet called Earth we were oriented to feeling separate. We were taught survivalism as one alone. There were survival laws that helped guide us. But things are changing. We are growing so wise now, the inhabitants of Earth, that we have entered into a higher consciousness field. It is known as the 4th dimension. The 4th dimension is one where we are sorting through things and making some choices and decisions that affect our future. We are choosing more wisely and with more unity consciousness. We want to live more peacefully and less in violence. As we find more and more self-enlightenment techniques on the net, we are stimulated to join classes or at least read about them and investigate a little further. Humanity is on the verge of raising the world's population to 5th density. In 5th density there is no violence. We leave violence behind us when we enter into that level of awareness.
Life continues on the 5th dimensional Earth differently than it did on the 3rd and 4th level of awareness. Too many people are now aware. Too many people want peace instead of fighting for survival. It is a different way. That is why your personal ego has value. IT is the one who is changing. The little egos are growing up and deciding in right ways that benefit everyone around them. We are integrating with our divine Father and Mother parent which is waiting for us. For we ARE the parent. We ARE the divine within, having a childhood lesson. Believe in a more unified and gracious way of life, considering the values and rights of others around you, and you will be valued in return more than you have been in the past. Rather than repress your personal needs, wants and desires, work with them and instill in them larger graciousness.
As a side note, for many years I have been seeking to understand the Tantra way of life, which is not sexual. The reason people think it’s about sex is because sex is the first door to open that allows the divinity to expand into the form body. The feeling is one of loving attraction which sort of overwhelms the young person in puberty. It is the beginning exposure to the power known as kundalini, or in the west known as the holy spirit. It is the secret power that lies in the etheric body at the base of the spine - specifically surrounding the coccyx. This area of the body is the geometric center of the human body. At a certain point in the aging of the body, it opens partially, gently, to allow these feelings to expand up the spine. Sexual feelings are the result. It is a touch of the divine nature within. The body feels it as sensually warm and loving. But since we have been born into a physical-only form of living, we seek an outward way to express it. With another person or through masturbation. We did not have teachers or guides to take us through this early stage of puberty. Unfortunately, in the dark ways of Earth, there were people (and still are) who became obsessed with the body feeling and abused younger ones and more vulnerable people. This has caused a lot of damage. Fortunately we are on the cusp of exposing this long abuse. New teachings are coming out fast in these days, especially about the kundalini or the sacred fire, as it is known. It is the divine nature that has been held locked inside the human body for eons. Now is the time for truth of the power behind sex to be revealed. Tantra is one of the paths that have an ancient grounding the sacred Vedas of India, I am told. I personally have not read them but the Masters have guided me. Kundalini is the Mother God flame at the base of the spine, called Shakti to the impersonal God Shiva which is abstract intelligence.
On a human level, yes, sex is the beginning. It is feeling so divine that if you are fortunate enough to have a Tantric master who will guide you, you will be led into a life of personal empowerment that no other spiritual path can match it. I was fortunate to have been given a Tantric Master 47 years ago, after I went into the Light by a dramatic awakening of Kundalini, without my having been prepared. When the shakti started to purify me of everything that I was made of that was embedded in me from childhood and previous lifetimes, it was a makeover which I didn't understand. I had no choice but to live through it. It was - and I love this phrase! - a blessing and a curse. My husband at the time and I were drawn into the lifestyle of swinging and through free intimate sex I became grounded back into normalcy, but with a lingering yearning for ever higher love which other people could not provide.
Bad situations and frustrations had to be confronted and dealt with, but in the long run the good benefits won out. I learned more through the swinging lifestyle than I could ever tell. I become more patient, more understanding, softer, kinder, gentler and more dignified. Tantra does not exclude sex but it does not focus on sex. Sex is not forbidden. It is a threshold over which a person passes to get to the larger room inside. It is a change in perspective. It changes the focus from hard bodies and hard outlines to softer, larger, more etheric bodies and outlines, and sensitivities. The sex act loses its crudity and matures into love-making. Sex becomes no longer a goal-oriented act. It becomes less physical and more sensual, more kind, more loving toward self and the other person. More considerate to self and the other, more elevating, more worshipful and reverent. There is a heavenly aspect that most do not quite reach but is available if one does not give up reaching for it. And also one becomes more discriminating and discerning about who you have sex with. You can feel a person’s motives and intentions when you are near them. You can read them. The energy fields overlap in close proximity and you can't fail to know what they are made of. And if you feel compatible you feel free to make love with a perfect stranger. That is, if your wife or husband doesn't resist.
The shakti (kundalini) is not directed towards the orgasm and physical penetration. It wants to go higher than that. It is energetically and magnetically attracted to beyond the heart and head to the Home from which it came. It wants to go Home so it expands up the spinal column in search of that ultimate blissful connection. Tantra is the path of learning about this mysterious power of enlightenment. The masters of Tantra teach how to build the power up and not to spend it on orgasm, but not to get lost in the shuffle either. It can go to the sun if you let it or it can be used with another human being in ecstatic lovemaking. Or it can rise up the spine and out the top of the head to reach ever higher levels of bliss and ecstasy alone, without a partner. Without a teacher who knows, a person will continue to want satisfaction from sex with someone else and will be driven by sex. Sex is not bad, but it can be misused to hold someone back from maturing into fulfillment. Sex is not the purpose of the kundalini. It is only the first step on the ladder to heaven. Tantra teachers guide a student into understanding both sides of the coin, both the spiritual and the human.
The power behind sex is a higher power of a divine, immaculate nature. It must be guided and understood how to work with it. When sex is first felt at puberty, it is felt as a loving thing. Without guidance it becomes focused on the physical body seeking something. Without wise teachers to guide the one in puberty, the young one stays with that focus - seeking the opposite gender for sex and penetration. How can he or she not know differently? So the all important focus is then finding a mate to help us fulfill ourselves. Or we are abused by someone else and thrown into trauma. The Tantric path is a path of spiritual enlightenment, not sex but may include sexual orientation. I have been writing about it for a long time.
2/23/23 - Rise above the stagnating energies of the body
This morning while showering I heard, "Rise above the stagnating energies of the body. The mind is your playground. Play! It brings you joy by discovery." The voice continued and I wrote on paper.
The world is a world of discovery. It is where you have the luxury of comparing differences. Only in the form life do you have differences. In the heavenly fields you don't have these differences. Let discovery be your game and your motto. You are learning how the great sages made their enlightenment. And why they are always in peace and joy. It is a lesson of discovery after discovery after discovery. Excitement of discovery, after excitement of discovery, after excitement of discovery. This is what grows your mind to happier planes and more fulfillment. It is a lesson of great importance. Make excitement your path. Your path to enlightenment is being highlighted with your discoveries and your excitements. Use your mind! Your master has led you thus far, now it is up to you to continue walking this path. Learn to do it yourself. Learn by trying it out for yourself. Instead of looking to your master every day and pouring over past journals, look to your OWN ability to discover excitement energy. Become your OWN master. Let your mastery over your dullness and boring stagnation emerge and guide you forward to discovery. Let excitement be your guide and dullness be a sign to turn around and go in another direction.
Life in form is filled with comparisons. The diversity is immense. This is the life of learning and growing. Of discovery that fills you with excitement. Discover what brings you down and what brings you up to high points. Discovery teaches you the proper use of your mind. The improper use of the mind is to let disappointment and frustration and bad attitudes stay inside you un-used, un-expressed and un-wanted. Don't hang onto them. Get ahead of your body’s tendency to stagnate. USE the discouraging energies and don’t let them sit and stew in you. Use them up. Use them as fuel. Use them in action. Put them to work. Do something with them. They are fuel for consumption. They are energies. That's all they are. Action is required to get rid of them. Don’t sit and stew in them. Get a grip on yourself. Make yourself get up and move in another direction. Don’t let bad energies sit inside of you bringing you down. Use bad energies to accomplish something positive. Spend them like money. Consider them fuel for your bank account. Whirl around like a spinning top if there is nothing else you can do.
Get them out of your system, out of your head, out of your muscles, they are holding your down. Get them out of your body and into the air and your energy field where they become free to disband into the light. Think AIR! Think UP! Think LIGHT! Send them UP and out into the air by the directing force of your conscious mind. Then stay open, stay ahead of stagnation. Don’t let old energies accumulate in your tissues. Be greater than your body. Your body is a shell composed of past energies that have accumulated and you did not know. Past energies from yesterday and last year and from childhood and prior lives. Be more than the accumulated energies of the past. The past has come and gone. Find NEW excitements. Be gentle with yourself as you walk slowly into new excitements. New excitements will move you in positive directions. They are like a flowing river. Follow the river of moving excitement. Let the river of your life teach you and guide you in a spontaneous and free way. But do not hurt anyone in your flowing. Be kind and be sensitive in your flowing. Be benevolent, be creative. Let freedom come and let freedom go out from your body. Don’t keep them close inside of you.
Share them with others. Tell your stories. Meet and converse openly with others. Share your discoveries. Spin them into action. Be a flowing river of stories and excitements as they come into your life and flow out, leaving you open-minded and open-hearted. Free to receive further flowing from the universe.
2/22/23 - Dissolving into larger love - don't turn it personal
I asked DK this morning, how do you be physically close without turning it personal or sexual? It's a philosophical question, intended to enlarge my intellectual understanding of this very major process. I was thinking of holding a women's session. He responded: "It requires silence. It’s not about touching. You don’t have to hug or lie down together. That would expose you to physical toxicities held in the body. Be close within the auric fields so they overlap."
He continued. "You can start with 4 or 6 women in a circle with a goal in mind, as you have been learning in the Tantra books. But this is not for sexual fulfillment. Its purpose is for grounding the holy light into the flesh body, as in the light body known as the christ body. This requires refinement of those impulses and tendencies when tend to rush, to reach, to stroke and to pull towards, which we call groping. The urge to reach for another body or to repel another body, comes up in people. It is the magnetic attraction of the earth forces. One must resist the earth force push and pull. You are to manage this impulse.
The practice is an inner practice to hold steady in the quiet in your body, in your mind, in your feelings. We use visualizations. Imagine a column of refined light coming down from above, through you and into the earth below. Know that this column of light is really a column of love. It is the ALL-THAT-IS direct from the heart of the sun behind the sun which comes from the creator, the father-mother God. An outsider’s touch or presence would be less than this holy light, holy love. This is the love-light of your own light body, your christ body. You swoon into it and everything human in you melts and dissolves in the light and love of your christ body. With practice you will not fall to the floor, as some have done, but contain it within your mind, body and feelings. This is the next step practice.
Anchor the light, which is actually love, into your human body, your physical flesh body which is composed of thoughts, beliefs, intentions, desires, tendencies, resentments, bitterness, hatreds, sorrows, weaknesses - all of the human stuff that is not holy. By allowing yourself to remain silent and centered, you will experience receiving the holiness of the love that is coming down into the ground through your visualization, you prepare your body to become the God-self in human form. All-knowing, all-wise, it dissolves all personal tendencies, involvements, attachments, etc. With each practice session it leaves you refreshed, open, aware, more knowledgeable, and infinitely more capable of FEELING love. Dissolving personal attachments is done without damage, effort or pain. There is never any pain when love dissolves personality stuff. Human relationships are possessive and controlling, so these are dissolved in the larger love. Your love enlarges to embrace so much more.
If you are connecting with your light body, christ body, it is a solitary process. You, the child, are becoming the grown-up now - one with your father-mother God. You are becoming the adult, the mature God-man or God-woman. The holy Christ self in physical form. Others will not have jurisdiction over you.
2/20/23 - How to eliminate a fuzzy head
After having a quiet household for years, just the two of us, we have a friend living with us who has been displaced from her home in the flood, and has many problems she is trying to resolve from our home. The house is buzzing with different energies, not our own. It is a time for learning. How to cope with other energies so close at hand? Not knowing what to do, I began searching among the hundreds of different methods offered by those who know, including the Ascended Masters, but which one? It's not like there are no solutioins. It's a matter of which solution to utilize, because it requires calmness and concentration to apply such methods that deal with out-of-balance energies that are disturbing. I have created my own buzzing energy field in the process, giving me a non-stop fuzzy brain.
Now I am finally getting it. It took a while. The correct answer is: I have to take charge of my own energies and not follow someone else's method. Stop looking for answers and start doing something. Nobody else's method applies to my situation because it is me and my own consciousness that creates the problem, and I have to do something about it myself. It's a consciousness thing. So no meditation today, just action is requried. I must consciously accelerate the electrons, atoms and cells in my own body, mind and energy field to bring in greater clarity and vision.
I am being told: Accelerate the body’s cells and feel the stimulation of interest. Become interested again in life. Speeding up the body’s cells, atoms and electrons clears away the effluvia, the debris, the old dead energy that weighs you down. Use this energy, don't let it stagnate. I can tell already - it works. Keep busy. It should not be manually difficult labor but be productively busy. Then lie down to rest, calmly and peacefully, for 20 or 30 minutes to allow the body to recuperate and fall back into its normal natural alignment. This part is crucial - to rest inbetween bouts of productivity and/or busy-ness. It prevents stress and tension from building up. Then get up and move again. You'll feel a lot better. It will clear the energies that are foreign to you. It will clear your head.
It helps to keep a running list of what you have accomplished during your active periods. Seeing the results of your productive and creative efforts not only boosts your energy, confidence, self-esteem and enthusiasm towards life and living, it actually increases the life force, allowing it to move through your blood, muscles and organs so you feel the building of stamina flowing through your physical body. Keep track of your good works. Journal your recovery process during your "down times" so you can remind yourself what to do again in the future.
2/18/23 - Nurturing Healing Love Massage Exchanges
A long time ago I was told by the Master Djwahl Khul: "Do not ask the male to change - just present the female.” A persistent dream nags at me to establish an ascension massage exchange network where individuals can meet others for mutual partner exchanges to assist in the growing need to overcome ascension symptoms. I have no idea how many people are aware of "ascension symptoms" but the world is going through not only climate changes but humans are too. There is a lightening process taking place worldwide, a consciousness elevation, a broadening, a widening, an awareness of one's personal space becoming more refined. Consciousness is becoming more spiritual, more rarified. Yet, the dense physical body and brain are the same. This is causing havoc on the coarse physical body which has been programmed to low expectations. Life has been restricted in many ways. There is an inner struggle going on, trying to understand. How to cope.
My desire for an ascension massage exchange network hasn't manifested yet, mostly because I haven't been ready before now. I have been advancing my understanding to the point where I have to do something soon or I'll leave my body and go elsewhere. (Just kidding.) I am by nature a passive person and a follower, not a leader so I've been doing lots of inner work, homework and opening myself up to specialized training. The ascension massage is a soft, gentle nurturing feminine approach, using priestess skills of ancient origin. It is not sexual. If there is a sexual body response, we simply ignore it and raise the energy up over the block and keep going. It is done consciously, mentally and intentionally. There are many lifetimes of training in this art.
The goal of ascension massage is to connect the pure uncontaminated light and love in one person to the pure uncontaminated light and love in another person. The light and love is the same in both persons, it is the HUMAN that makes us each different. The goal is to merge the uncontaminated light with the HUMAN. This is the hard part that we've been missing. Mutual body exchanges without sex or emotional attachment can do this. We are to merge the human with the divine so the human becomes the individualized god/goddess that is destined to be. We do it without emotionial or sexual involvement. When sexual response happens we direct our attention higher, that's all. We elevate it. We don't suppress it but raise it up higher. It takes some training to do this, and practice.
When we exchange ascending massage, the uncontaminated light and love from both giver and receiver combined is stronger than from just one person alone. It washes away the toxic energies in the system that cause confusion, sickness, pain and suffering. What most people are unaware of is that there is an immaculate blueprint within them, within everyone, including bad evil people. They wouldn't be alive, breathing and walking around if they did not have an immaculate divine blueprint functioning in their body. This divine blueprint has been covered over by imprinted false cultural programming from birth on up to the present day. This perfect immaculate blueprint can't be contaminated by human error or mistakes. It just can't. You can try but you can't contaminate it. It doesn't matter how bad a person is or what crimes they've committed, or how mean, cruel or vicious they are in life, they have a perfect immaculate divine blueprint that has been covered over by the culture. It can be uncovered with education, training and believing enough in it to do daily homework - and exchanging an ascension massage can help if they are willing to trust in the process. This immaculate blueprint is the life force of the body known historically as the christ, short for crystal or crystalline. Everyone has one.
The Ascended Masters have been guiding me to establish an ascension massage exchange for a long time. Click HERE to see the original posting back in 2014. An ascension massage leads to total bliss IF the receiver is ready to receive and can open to trusting the giver. The goal of receiving one is to become a giver of one. We will be creating a network of partner exchanges by starting one at a time, discussion and practice. I am starting it here, now, by writing about it.
If you are hungry for some loving touch, it requires giving loving touch in return, without sexual or romantic involvement or expectation. This is a higher form of love. A deeper form of love that goes to the bottom of the soul and collects the remnants of past action and brings them forth for redeeming. The result is feeling washed clean. It is divine nurturance. This is a spiritual technology that is older than the planet itself, and a teaching that comes from beyond the earth, beyond the galaxy and beyond the stars. There have ALWAYS been teachers of this ancient temple skill. Only those who were inclined to learn it, came again and again, over many lifetimes to the quiet cultures to be trained in out-of-the-way monasteries and underground sanctuaries, away from the noise and cloudy atmosphere of the evolving residents. It is a sacred art and a universal science. The universe operates on love. Love is the longing that everyone has in their deepest heart. We wish sometimes that our relationship partner would do this for us but it doesn’t happen. They haven't been taught. The art of feminine nurturing healing love is a higher science. The word feminine does not mean women only, it refers to the soul. It is the soul that is feminine.
If you are interested in learning and practicing it, contact me privately and we will plan. There is no cost involved. This is something new and exploratory. It is an exchange of loving soft nurturing energy, not to be compared with anything that has been experienced before. We will dip into ancient times when the planet was young, pure and full of the holy spirit unspoiled by humans. The world was quiet then. Serene. We will call upon the ancient land, peaceful and pure and warmed by the ancient sun. We will ask the sun to blow its ancient purity into this tired, weary body. We will call on ancient winds to blow through the cells and clear away the stress. We will call upon the ancient waters to wash away the tension in this body. We will ask the ancient trees to breath their green and pure oxygen through this body. We will ask the ancient flowers and herbs to sprinkle their healing fragrance deep into this soul and melt away the tightness in this body. We will ask the ancient sun to warm this body with its healing rays. We will call upon the ancient healing masters to place their sparkling spirit hands upon this body with nurturing love and light.
We will ask you to tune into the ancient quiet and tune out all outside thoughts. Focus on the here and now in this room. Stop thinking. Feel the quiet and trust the ancient peace that comes in. Develop the skill of tuning into harmony. One way to stop thoughts is to listen to your own breath. Notice the sound your breath makes. Feel your lungs and stomach inflating and deflating like balloons. Feel your hands with a thousand pores in the palm, inhaling clean white light and exhaling clean white light. Picture the bottoms of your feet with thousands of tiny pores opening and breathing in mother Earth on the inhale, and blowing out on the exhale. Imagine inhaling Earth magnetism up your legs to your heart and head, opening arteries and veins and exhaling down into the Earth again. Picture the pores in the skin on your back and spine opening as you inhale, and emptying out on the exhale. Picture your crown opening as you inhale, drawing in light from above, filling up your brain cells, and exhaling down the central column to Earth.
Imagine nurturing soft hands stroking your skin. Not heavy, not coarse, but light and airy. You might have a sheet covering your nakedness, or not, your choice, or light clothing. Expand into the air around you. Spiritual energy is all around you. Prana can be seen as sparkles. Manna is in the air. It is not mystical or mysterious. Prana and manna come from the sun. It is activated by your own consciousness. You are the one who creates manna and prana by connecting with the light and the love from the sun. You are the one who provides the force field of energy of light that encircles you and enfolds you. You are the one who refines it and makes it lighter than that of Earth atmosphere. Our bodies move inside this field of vitality which we create around us. It extends out to overlap with others. We are like fish swimming in an ocean of sparkling vitality. We were trained to focus on the physical world only - the hard edges of physical forms. Expand your eyesight and awareness beyond the form in a 360 degree circle so you can see into the heaven fields. You can with inner eyes and eyes that are beyond you. Picture yourself floating in a sea of pink light that extends into the distance. We are moving in a sea of energy like fish move in the sea. When we open our vision like this we stop thinking about day-to-day thoughts and begin drinking in the higher worlds. We allow the immaculate blueprint to sweep upward and outward around us, cleaning away the toxic energies, stress and tension that has been clinging to us. We are turning on our inner light and ascending our consciousness to higher realms.
2/15/23 - There is pure sweet love in the cells of your body
We are made of love. Love is everywhere. It governs the atoms and electrons of your body. Love is a conscious substance. It is intelligent. It is not felt as love when it is stuck and not moving, but it IS awake and aware. It is what moves your body around and your mind, brain and your feelings. It gives you breath and life. Inside the physical form made of substance, love is the atoms and swirling electrons that coalesce together and make up the cells, molecules and fibers of your body. If you did not have so many beliefs that cause you to be afraid, the atoms and electrons would be able to swirl and vibrate faster. The beliefs and thoughts are what restrict us. If we were more spontaneous and free we would feel lighter in body and happier in mind and feelings. It is limited belief - i.e., "I don't believe in such things" - and fear - i.e., "People are not to be trusted" - which leads to all sorts of negative attitudes that bog us down.
You use love to create because love drops your guard and expands your mind. Love is all there is. In the beginning creating something new is fun and exciting. You reduce love down into shape and form with substance and meat to it, by focusing with all your passion on your new creation. You take your ideas from infinite space and, with love, you mold and shape it into musical creations, artistic creations, relationships, school lessons, houses, tall buildings and bridges. You love to create. Your favorite creation is new relationships because old relationships tend to get dull and repetitious, repeating same old patterns over and over again is monotanous. New relationships feel good because you don't have any past memories or past mistakes to cast shadows. New relationships are pure love relationships. You glow when you think of your new lover or your new friend because nothing has spoiled it yet.
But creating in the world of form - our world of solid physicality - is pushing the envelope. We are each creating something new and so it is by trial and error. Our creations are experiments. We actually don't know how a new creation is going to work out. We plunge in with excitement, all aglow. Whether it be a workshop like my dream, or a new relationship that you have made. We are passionate. It is something NEW!
Why don't our old relationships and our old workshops feel like enough for us? Because we haven't continued to polish them with our love. Instead of polishing them up every morning with caring attention, respect and gratitude for their existence, we replay thoughts that had their day and they're now "old". Yesterday's oldness and mistakes creep into our thinking. The habits of the day before and the day before that and the day before that, until we are remembering all the mistakes, errors, and feelings of those mistakes and we are bogged down. What was originally a glowing exciting love affair of whatever - art, music, a class, a book - dulls down and becomes discarded. And we turn our attention to something new. That's why a new relationship, a new art piece, a new music CD, a new anything is so much more exciting. We are creating something new and there is no past to get in the way.
Is there a solution to this? The Galactics say it best: Learn to create with love in everything you do. Every moment of every hour of every day. It is a learning process. We are evolving into more advanced human beings by expanding our love and broadening our hearts. We need to love what we created YESTERDAY. Not discard it. Revivify it by picking it up again and caring for it, giving it loving attention. The most important creation of all is a primary relationship. I know many primary relationships that are not happy but they THINK they are. They could re-create their original love relationship by not following the same patterns and routines but taking a new approach today. Something different. Like taking a different road home from the store to provide new scenery, even if it takes longer time to get home. Forget the past and concentrate, meditate, focus on love. Make it new again.
Learn to create love every morning when you wake up in your mind. Say it to the walls, the ceilings, the floor, the bed sheets: "I love you windows, I love you carpet, I love you books, I love you bureau, I love you lamp!" Forget your tired old mundane responsibilities for an hour and spend time saying this new mantra: "I love you clothes!" And say it out loud if you dare. The sound of a word vibrating the air creates new energy in the air. "I love you, air!" If you don't have a partner, focus love on and into yourself. Love is in you already but it's not moving. If it's not moving, it's stuck and stagnant. Electrons never stop speeding in the subatomic structure of your body, but they slow down. The best love of all is love for yourself, your liver, your lungs, you stomach, your intestines. This is ancient yoga being revived in America today. You can do it o the run, as I do, or you can take an hour to sit quietly in a carefully designed location to give you peace of mind. You can add quiet music playing, perhaps a candle or two or three, and saying, "I love my heart, I love my brain, I love my blood flowing through my veins." But you can do it as you move about. I do. But do it. Start naming the parts of your body and putting your own hands on your own body and feel the love come alive. You can feel it! Allow the love to flow from your hands into your skin. Your legs, your feet, your arms, your stomach, the top of your head. Know that love is constantly pouring through you and love is the swirling atoms and electrons. Love never ceases flowing but it dumbs down when it's not being spoken or focused on. Think love for 5 or 10 minutes, or 30 minutes or an hour. It will help you to NOT go back to thinking negative. This is how to speed up the vibrations of the atomic structure of your body, brain and feeling world.
If you have a primary relationship, give your partner a massage once a week WITH LOVE. Buy a massage table and see what happens. Give your child a massage WITH LOVING HANDS and see what happens. Give your new born baby a massage WITH LOVE when it cries and see what happens. Give a friend a massage. A platonic massage. Give your SELF a loving massage. I do (on occasion!). Then you are re-creating something new. You become a god or goddess in training when you do this with love. Pick up discarded love objects off the floor and dust them off - with love. They too are composed of swirling electrons and nobody ever pays the kitchen chairs or table loving attention. You can transform your dull home into a sacred temple by doing this. Take an object over to the light blazing through the window and examine them. Hold them close to your lips. Smell the sweet fragrance of the love that is held locked inside the atoms and molecules. Revivify all in your life and love it back to excitement again. Be a happy god or goddess. Keep resurrecting that which was cast aside as old.
2/9/23 - Physically upgrading
There has been little time lately to visit the website and post articles. There have been changes. Many changes. A wonderful friend lives with us now, temporarily, until she gets her house back after the Hurricane Ian swept it away. And because we have opened our hearts and doors to give our friend sanctuary, we have taken on renewed responsibilities. We have expanded in different ways. There is a new dynamic in our house. As a result of our commitment to this, Doug and I have been upgraded. We are transforming, meaning we are changing the way we do things. There is additional understanding. We are wiser than we were before, and these create challenges. The challenges create opportunities to change if we are willing, and these bring on new responsibilities. Do we accept them? It's a test. I have found it comes with choices. It's a two-way street. One can refuse or one can suck it up and grow bigger. Get past it. Then I discovered that new energy comes along with it. This is not easy, so I wanted to write about it. I may be seen as an easy-going person to my friends, but I'm as stubborn as anyone else underneath where I live with myself. I have to do it "my way". And that's the part that needs "sucking up".
So now I've been given some specific yoga breathing techniques by my invisible sources, the Himalayan masters. I was guided to three separate books, all of which were tied together on higher levels. They were threaded together. What a privilege to be so connected to benefit from telepathic hints sent to me! It is mind-boggling to wake up with instructions to go here and there and get some new guidelines. However, it is always my choice to accept the guidance. I don't have to but I've learned over the years to pay attention and listen. I got down the three books. They were: Tibetan Tantric Mysticism, a book I didn't know I had - my sister boxed up all her books and sent them to me before she died. Another one led me to Swami Rama, also from my sister. Check him out on Amazon for books, and Youtube for glimpses from lectures. He was raised by the Himalayan masters from the age of three. The third book is a homemade item I made from collections of wisdoms by others. All three books were threaded together by a similar subject. They all contained a thread guiding me to yoga breathing techniques. I was ready and prepared through past practices, and this piece of information took me up another level. A most amazing higher level. One more precise, more refined, more detailed and specific. It is all about focusing and sharpening my focus to see more and better. It's a most interesting journey, the journey towards more enlightenment.
As I practice these techniques I am finding I can do more physical tasks. There is more power. Not muscle power but power of a greater nature. I am energized. It is surprising to me how excited I get. The excitement gives me sustainable power. Wanting to keep going even if it's painful. It's no longer boring. Doing tasks used to be boring. Now it's not boring any more as long as I am discerning. I have to do only those things that need doing, not get carried away into tasks that are not relevant. It's exciting to discover discernment. Stay in your own lane. Be single-minded. Don't let odds and ends creep in and distract. Wanting to get the tasks done is a power. There is a power overlighting me that is guiding me. It is my higher self wanting to get these tasks done. If I stray outside of the Plan of my higher self, I get tired. This is a most important point. If I stay with the Plan of my higher self, I am rewarded with enthusiasm and feel fulfilled and energized. There is an eternal presence around and over me. This presence is one of attention. I must be careful and stay in the present moment and the "presence". Then there is no room for boredom. There is too much aliveness and excitement happening. It comes flooding in, this aliveness. It is stimulating and revealing. Revelations happen on the go, as I move around.
Practicing these exercises, which are not new, but I have a new understanding of the NOW and the PRESENT, I am finding a new way to live. The benefits are without question the best ones I've seen. But they take time. Practicing breathing techniques requires time out to sit still and really do the breathing. I see there are huge benefits. There is a quickening and a resurrection of interest and joy of life. There is a reason why yoga has survived the eons. The techniques work.
The difference between the casual yoga practitioner and the one who carves out time every day to practice, is that there are provable benefits that show up physically. I am seeing them myself. I was the former practitioner before. Now I am following the masters' guidance. How they did it. Yoga can be done for fun and to socialize with others as a beginning. But eventually it leads to a commitment to one's self, to be done alone. One has to bite the bullet and shut off the world to do inner work. It's a focusing of the eternal mind. The mind has been allowed to be a follower of others. But now, feeding the mind with a specific job to concentrate upon is something quite different. The mind perks up and pays attention. It is a universal hook up with other cosmic minds and forces. It's a lineage. It's a thread to other minds who have gone before and can guide how to tweak a practice and make it even better. It's done through telepathy, mind to mind. There is a definite physical effect on the strengthening and vitality of the body. It's a linking into a power that we as limited creatures are not aware of normally. It's always been there but unless we take specific instructions, we would not know about it.
So I am upgrading. It is all done with the mind. The mind is eternal. It expands when we give it new direction. It relapses when we give up. We can expand it or reduce it. They say there is no end to mind, no final resting place, It is an expanding that goes beyond our traditional way of thinking, but we have to tap into it. The only way to get to the levels waaaaay-up-beyond where we are today is to start with the small, tightly closed end of our minds and agree to open that door and begin there. It's like opening a door of an abandoned old house, not very pleasant on the outside, not blissful at all, nor attractive. But by walking inside the front door and looking around inside (per instructions) one finds something interesting and attractive there. It is rather a simple thing to do. All we have to do is do it. It's tricky choosing to ignore the crowd outside yelling and trying to get our attention with trauma and drama on every side. But once we get past those distractions and carve out time to go alone to practice, one is well on the way to betterment. As the mind starts to focus on the the inner self, the muscles and tissues of our own body, including the brain, the better we feel. The body registers change and reaps the benefits, physically and energetically. One is upgraded.
2/1/23 - Moving closer to group ascension massage exchanges
Journaled six years ago. During meditations that morning I had a lot of realizations and had to write them down to remember them. First of all, I saw chaos this morning. It was in the form of different colored energies, little tiny particles. They were kind of lost and moving around and mixing in with other dissimilar colors, shapes and textures, seemingly at random. There was no order to the chaos. It was confusing. The feeling was that of being lost and trying to find their thread to home but didn’t know how. I realized that out of this confusing mix that it is up to me to sort them out. It is my job to make sense of the chaos. and yet how can I do it with my mind? I don’t know how. I can’t make sense of them but I can become peaceful.
I was shown that by becoming peaceful and not trying to make sense of them, I give them space to relax and spread out and slow down. By so doing they begin to sort them selves out. As they relax they come naturally into close vicinity of other familiar particles by natural attraction. By my becoming peaceful and serene, the chaos also becomes more peaceful. The restless particles slow down and are attracted to its own kind. They develop a bond with their family. They return home. They link and connect with their own families. As I become peaceful, I see that the chaos is coming from outside of me, and by becoming peaceful I produce a buffer zone that those little particles of chaotic energy cannot penetrate because I am not producing them. Therefore they are not returning to me. If I were producing them they would return to me, but I did not produce them so they are going away, by natural attraction, to someone else. I become like a mirror, reflecting the chaos away from me and sending it home to where it belongs.
Next, I see that my massage therapist friend, Marcus, is working with earth energies and the kundalini. I am working with the sky energies, the spirit or soul. We keep our soul, the same soul, from body to body but each new body gets a new spark of kundalini. We have been unsuccessful in bringing our soul down to meet our earth energy, the kundalini, which is the goal. We need to integrate our soul (our self) with the earth body’s energy in order to bring about an enlightened earth body. We fail to do this over and over and over. We live many lives to try again. We continually get a body and the body dies without having done the integration so we have to come back and try again. But my realization is that Marcus is here to work with the earth energies and I am focused on the sky energy, from which comes the formless light, which is abstract information. I like to write about spiritual law and spiritual light. I am in tune with and in touch with other ascended masters and the galactics. Both groups. Inner space and outer space. I invoke them every day. This is my source of information and my reason for being. Marcus is focused on love. He is a massage therapist and is focused on the physical body and the more practical, physical energies. He and his wife focus on the land around their property and they work with the elementals of trees, bushes, flowers, birds, bees and all within the nature kingdom. I do not have that interest. My interest is galactic and the ascended realms.
Marcus is male, focused on the physical and he is more mental than I am. I am female focused on the non-physical, and not mental at all. It would seem we are opposites but we both are focused on love and loving the body. It’s just that I am not interested in the physical muscles of the body where he is. I am interested in stroking the body in a subtle, loving way. Marcus can do that too, but he is different from me. We seem to be opposites and yet we are much the same. The differences are that he is focused on tantric massage, and getting the person’s consciousness to accept the kundalini so as to bring about the earth energies in a more real and benevolent way. Where I am interested in raising the person’s consciousness upward, above the dense lower vibrating body, to the higher heart and top of the head.
Marcus does both therapeutic massage and loving energy massage. I don’t know the physical very much and was not too interested when attending massage school. He knows both physical and non-physical modalities. He knows how to feel kundalini when the person allows it into her consciousness. Marcus can be contacted HERE.
My desire is to hold a layman’s massage workshop. Not to teach about muscles, and not to teach how to arouse erotically, and not to teach how energy works, and not to teach at all, actually. But simply to give each person in attendance the chance to feel what it’s like to touch other bodies openly and freely. We would start with clothes on as a beginning. It does not have to be in the nude. I want to give people the confidence in touching others. That it is OK and to give them assurances that it is OK and some simple encouragement. Go ahead and try it. As long as the receiver is giving their permission for you to touch them. When we all give permission, we can lay hands on each other. It is in the practice of this that we will become free. Don’t call it massage if you don’t want to . It is not really massage that we are doing. It is permission to touch, really. That’s all it is. And to experience what it feels like.
There is a mixing of energies when you touch someone else with caring. Slowly. Not just brushing them quickly, superficially, over the outer skin. The slowness makes it intimate. It allows YOUR energies to enter into the receiver’s energies through the skin. It’s not about arousing them for sex. It’s about connecting energies as an equal. It is an experience that cannot be defined in words. It is connecting up, linking up, joining, fusing and permission is needed. Each person is a piece of the sea of consciousness, what we call the creator or God. Each person is a piece of God’s consciousness. God wants to express itself in the physical. We have been holding it back. Our physical body houses a certain presence, a certain consciousness, a certain intelligence, a certain feeling that can’t be duplicated because each person has a unique pattern that is contained in the soul (the self). When we all get together for massage exchanges - ascension massage which has a higher goal than sexual arousal - we are broadening and expanding ourself by coming out of our private little isolated separated closet. When we blend openly this way with several others, we feel more free, more peaceful and more accepted into the fold of family. It is like coming home. We expand closer to the heaven world.
A Zoom meeting doesn’t provide the same feeling. Someone asked about having a Zoom meeting for this, but it wouldn't work. The Presence is housed inside the physical cells, blood, tissues, organs of the person's body and radiates outward. In some people it remains stifled and closed. We are each different. We are each a piece of the creator walking around on the earth feeling frustrated because of all these restrictions and limitations and taboos about not saying what you really feel and not being able to do what you really want to do, not feeling spontaneously free. In a carefully structured massage exchange, this sense of freedom can be taught and practiced. A zoom meeting would not allow this to happen. Our current societal laws prevent us from touching each other freely but this can change with some ground rules. We are blocking the creative intelligence that is within us wanting to express itself. Freedom to express is being blocked. Creativity is being blocked. Excitement is being blocked. The thrill of discoveries are being blocked. We are each here to bring it forth into the outer world. We’ve been blocked and held back from the time we were small children so that we have incorporated the taboos and cultural conditionings into our adult day-to-day life. We never get a chance to feel free because we are overly burdened to remember the laws. We are not allowed to be open, honest or able to touch freely and feel other people, even with caring loving intention.
I am saying here that there is a way to start moving outward from behind closed doors. There is a way to begin the process of shining our light, and our light is love.
I focus on light. I use the word “light” more often than Marcus does. Marcus focuses on love. He uses the love word more than I do. But they are the same thing. Light is unformed immaculate never-ending intelligence from the sky, and love is this light when it is owned by someone who applies it to their daily life. Then they make it physical and practical the light then becomes love. It becomes love when it is functioning and operating in a human body. No one knows who they really are underneath the pre-conditioned cultural restrictive mask until they start shining and expressing freely. It is about freedom. We each begin to know ourselves as we express freely during our daily life - with love, not violence! Not pushiness. Not demanding attention. Not egotistical or rude or arrogant. But quietly open and free and caring. (Journaled 2/9/17)
1/31/23 - Abortion, old age and other things
(From journal 9/26/81) I have such a desire to write but there is too much. I am seeing so many things. Yesterday on the way to our friend's house we drove past a cemetery and I saw – no, I KNEW, experienced something. I saw that the cemetery is a doorway, an opening through which the soul is freed. It is a marvelous threshold, but oh, these words are useless! It is so much more than that. It is a wonderful experience to be there, and after you have passed it, the threshold no longer exists. It is so unimportant – the cemetery!
Oh, the truth is so beautiful to know. It is so – merely there. It has never gone anywhere but it merely hides behind a little veil so we cannot see. But it is there, nonetheless. It is lovely, complete, like coming home whenever I see beyond that little veil. How I wish everyone could see as I do. I try to tell Bob but it sounds so useless, so out of place, and I am bursting with happiness but I must keep it to myself. I am overflowing with a sense of fulfillment, yet there is no one to share it with.
And I saw something else. Everyone has made such a big deal over abortions. How can you kill a living life? Others say, but there is no life there at all. I don’t know what caused me to see this but I did. At conception only a very small percentage of the spark of life that is the individual comes into the fetus. Only about 1 to 5%, so to abort it you are not killing anything, because 90 to 95% (more or less) remains where it was before coming. You haven’t killed anything because it has only just begun. The nine-month carrying period is too long for more than 1 to 5% of the living, breathing consciousness to be confined – shut up as it were with no way to express. This living flame of life which is our consciousness is too grand, too unique, too knowledgeable, to be cooped up like that. It cannot be cooped up in a prison. That is why it does not all gather at once at the moment of conception. It sends an advance guard to prepare its house – the house it shall move into when it is finished.
And then, at the grand moment of birth, the big exciting moment, the 90 or 95% of that vital living consciousness moves in, bag and baggage, like a monarch complete with troops. All together, alive, knowing, breathing, prepared to take over. And thus it is that the first breath of life is consciousness taking over the body. Thus it is that many people remember a long, dark tunnel with a light at the end. This is the moment of entering the body. It is a marvelous, psychic, conscious moment. And one not to be forgotten.
And I saw other things – I saw the reason consciousness sometimes seems to disconnect from the immediate problem of life – as when you daydream. This is living proof that the consciousness is a separate thing from the body and brain. How else could it drift away to some far off place and be conscious of other things? Because it is not anchored to the body – it is only using the body as a man uses a house and he may come and go at will. This is the majesty of man, he is a noble God that moves and breathes in living Light, in freedom and universality. How great it will be when he wakes up and realizes what he truly is!!!!
These things I see and more. I see that old age - I saw this, experienced it for a brief passing moment, for that is how I “see” – that old age is (I must be careful with my words) the flaming spirit that lives within the consciousness and is ALWAYS trying to manifest in the physical world and in the flesh. This is a preamble now. That is its purpose for coming – to realize itself in living flesh, in living solids, to UNITE with the physical world. It is attempting always to do this, that is its motivation, its reason for existence, that is the driving urge inside a man that yearns to be free. It matters not what avenue it takes, whether an intellectual like a professor, or a working man like a machinist – it doesn’t matter – a profession is only a colorful tool through which to express the INNER URGE. The inner urge is a spark which has been ignited and it is flaring now. Within the body of a man the living spirit is flaring and trying to find room in which to complete its pre-appointed task. And thus the living spirit in man is striving to come out into the world and be seen. Only that individual knows when the spark has succeeded. Only that individual knows the wonderful feeling of fulfillment, contentment, peace, which is the aftermath of an explosion that set him free. But for one reason or another he has failed. Failed to comply with the cosmic laws which say: yield! Bend! Hark! Listen! Follow your heart! The heart is speaking – the living spark within. But no. Man does not want to listen. He wants to do it HIS way, the way of his opinion. The way HE thinks is right. The way He has been trained. So long as a man says, “I think!” or “I know”, he does not know. He does not! Because when the day comes that he knows, he will not have to defend his right to know. He will step aside and smile the smile of knowingness.
And so old age is the giving up, the spark within knows that it is not going to accomplish its purpose in this life and so relinquishes its vitality over the cells of flesh. There is nothing a man can do, but look at himself in the mirror and watch old age creeping over his body. It is a sign that he will eventually die. Not his spark of consciousness – that will go on. But the chance of finding himself in this body has gone. Passed away. To try again in another body. Old age is the outer skin starting to decompose first. As the life is withdrawn it withdraws from the outer first, and it is slow, but steadily faster. Can it be checked? YES! It can be checked in midstream – at the age of 70, 80, or 90! All it takes is waking up! Determination to be free, determination to put aside the false habits of a false world and be oneself in living color! It is possible! It is desirable! But it is something one must do alone! No one will understand. And yet, there is a universe of living souls who know what you are doing. They are waiting to help. They are joined to the one who determines to succeed. They are there. They have talked to me. I have known them. (Journaled 9/26/81)
1/29/23 - Symbiosis
In the night the other night I woke with inspiration and began writing. "Symbiosis - allowing the laws of harmony vs. following the laws of separation. Symbiosis. The universe operates on the law of harmony or synthesis, whereas mankind has been operating on the law of separation. When you massage (friend staying with us) you allow a blend to occur between her energy field and yours. The normal human ego respects another person’s field and does not interfere with it. He or she stops short of blending with another, allowing the boundary to exist between them, the law of separation. Allowing the hard edges between one person and another. It is called respecting free will."
I went off to sleep and woke up again with more information. I wrote it down: "Symbiosis is tilting the law of gravity in favor of blending separate fields, whereas the law of gravity pulls toward the center of each being, whether man, animal, plant, etc., keeping each being separated from others."
I went off to sleep again and woke up a third time to write: "The flash event - when everyone will turn toward the law of harmony and away from the law of free will and separated boundaries. The harmony is expanding in the universe and it is hitting earth. It’s a shifting and the shift will reach that certain saturation point where everything will shift toward harmony."
I went off to sleep again and woke up a fourth time, with a realization that I have been following the light in my body rather than the dark in my body ever since I went into the light 47 years ago. Before that time, I too followed the dark in my body as the artificial laws of the culture lay heavy on me as they do on everyone I know, but after the kundalini awakened in 1976 I was changed by the ascension process. I didn't know what happened, but this realization was another added piece of information to inform me. Therefore, when I am close to another person I naturally attract the LIGHT in the other person rather than the dark or artificial or wrong beliefs in that person, often referred to as the artificial intelligence in that person. I understood that I have more light operating in me than most people, and this allows me to magnetize the light in the other person when I put myhands on them, as I have been doing with my friend since she has been staying with me.
It is not me giving something to her, but rather the light in me is connecting with the light in her. It is not anything that I am "doing" for her. It is a resonance, a universal law - the universal law of harmony - which was given to me in during my dream state, explaining it to me and shedding more light on my understanding. This explains why I feel so good at the end of my massage. It is a doubling effect of light, her light with my light increased for both of us. I have been feeling quite blissed out myself after giving the massage to my friend, and I wondered about this. It is the magic of the light moving within the cells and tissues of our bodies.
The light in me is getting stronger. It is seductive. I share this information knowing that it is happening with others, too. I yearn to reach out to other people and blend with the light in them, too, and so I reveal this inner happening. The light is growing stronger in people especially who meditate on spiritual concepts. Perhaps the time is coming when we can start the ascension massage exchange. I can't go forward with it until there is a "green light" that says "GO!" There are many signs coming through various spiritual channels. The physical body starts to glow. We can see it in some people. It is not a literal light, but it is a shining. You can see it in a person who captivates your attention. Someone you might like to get to know better but you don't know how to broach them. I believe transfiguration is a good word to use here. Perhaps it is a mild form of transfiguration. I am told that physical ascension may happen in a gentle manner, when light is triggered throughout the cells of the body and the body glows. As a person may master their light better as they become more aware of their inner thoughts and feelings and therefore are more gentle and careful how they express themselves. Becoming a master of their innermost self is the work that many people are going through in these days of mindfulness, meditation, yoga and other disciplines. There is a waking-up process taking place among many people. It is important to be aware of this.
A gradual understanding is taking place that the physical ascension that is being discussed more and more these days, is not necessarily a "disappearance" act. An individual might not be "taken up" as I once thought - as in "beam me up Scotty!" Rather, it is possible that an individual might become such a master of their thoughts and feelings that they can maintain a sufficient balance to stay grounded and present here. A balance between the light and dark within their physical cells, atoms and tissues that would allow them to maintain their physical presence here with the rest of us. This is an understanding that is gradually taking shape in my mind. The contrast is between the purity or holiness that is the actual life of the tissues of the body, versus the artificial beliefs, doubts and fears of the human ego that is constantly shifting and weighing outcomes.
The yearning to connect with others is growing ever stronger but so is my ability to discipline and control any selfish thought or desire that might pop up and lead me astray. Massaging my friend is natural and easy. It is a wonderful, blissful experience for both of us when it is done. She has a need for healing and I supply the hands, but there is healing in BOTH of us - I benefit from it too. I feel sure I will be led to connect with more people as time goes on. I welcome any comments and feedback from readers. Send it to me thru the contact page.
1/25/23 - Tantra teaches how to expand the rapture
During a new moon ceremony eleven years ago I began dreaming and chanting my hopes and wishes into a glass of water and subsequently poured it out into the earth outside the screen room. During this time I saw many visions and revelations. I saw that all of the rays of colors have to come down and reach the kundalini at the base of the spine in order to be complete down here in physical earth. It is called the Antahkarana, the rainbow bridge. The hard part is getting the vibrations of the colors to lower in density, for each color is vibrating at a different frequency, and it IS a light. It is an attribute in the form of light. Each color comes through the chakra portal. It needs to be brought down one by one to connect with kundalini, the light at the bottom of the tunnel, which is a portal to the reservoir of divinity within the root chakra.
I saw many many people bringing down these colored rays to connect with the etheric light at the base of the spine in what is termed “orgasm”. The orgasm is the connecting link. Then (WOW!) God is walking on earth! Each human being is a piece of God trying to reach earth from its high ethereal place and it is very difficult because earth is vibrating at such a low, dense level. This is a major project to bring down the light to earth, but when it does, the orgasm happens. God walks the earth when orgasm happens. How long the orgasm lasts is how long God-Goddess gets to walk in flesh. Can you hold it in the body? Can you prolong the rapture?
You can only do so by expanding your MIND. Your MIND allows the rapture to expand upward into the rest of the body above the pelvic zone. Don’t keep it down there but raise it up. Tantra masters try to teach this. As you work at this you will prolong the rapture of orgasm. The goal is to expand it so all the cells are bathed in this essence of divinity called the nectar of the Gods. I see it simply as an explosion of light that doesn’t die. It continues to shine and radiate.
Then I saw the master Djwal Khul. The pain that I see in his eyes are transformed now into deep humility, intelligence, adoration and gratitude is the highest vibration of all. It is the most exquisite, the most beautiful of all colors and textures and vibrations in all of God’s many vibrations. I see many people coming together and meeting in this “oneness” plane of God consciousness. They are making love by allowing love to expand between them. I do not know how this is accomplished, whether it is through sexual penetration or simply by tantric process. I see the light of God coming to human beings in a very real or surreal way.
And I am reminded not to forget the love. It is all about love. Love IS the body of God. God is Love. Words are speaking to me in my mind. Learn to use the higher road in choosing your words. Put sacred vibration into your words. Love of freedom is freedom to love. When love is coming through someone, God is coming through. The person is just the portal. God is coming through. God is love. That’s why love is the highest energy we can conceive as intelligent, thinking human beings. There is nothing higher. We are home when we are in love. It is our origin, and our source. Where we came from.
I am seeing a race of men and women who are graceful and walk with dignity and nobility AND they are human too. Can you imagine this? God walking around as a human? It’s happening right now and our lifestyle is allowing that because we are encouraging sexual exploration, which is the avenue for the divine to enter into the human body. We are playing with the essence of God Creator! (Journaled 6/2/11)
1/23/23 - The old timeline is disappearing
The old timeline is disappearing, a new timeline is coming into play. How do I process this? One timeline is grounded in the physical and traditional and is confusing. The typical solution when something is wrong is to go to the doctor. My husband keeps reminding me. But this thought is filled with doom and gloom for me. I don’t want to go to a doctor. It feels like more sickness to me. It confuses me. The other timeline is peaceful, blissful, warm, connected and loving. Is this what they call dementia? Or is this ascension? To me I feel best when I’m holding myself to my center, to the central column of my trunk and spine, leaning neither to the left or the right, or to the outside to someone else or to the heavens above to some unknown savior, but rather holding to neutrality, to balance, to oneness, to be fully present in the here and now. It feels like love to me. It is warm and comforting. Clarity fills my head and security fills my body, every cell and organ is more present and accounted for instead of confused and not knowing what to do. I am present in my body, I feel to be somewhere in the center of my heart and lung and lower body area. I feel as if everything is alright. It’s secure. There is a feeling of rightness. I move more easily to do what needs to be done, without thinking about it. This is what I’ve been feeling lately as I continue to use the two-tennis-balls-in-a-sock to press out the pain locked in my back. It is interesting to me because I am more detached. The DIY exercises at home, plus lying on the acupuncture mat every day, is changing me. I feel more alive, more able to respond, quick to react when I’m needed. What happened to my old sensation of, “Ohh, do I have to? I don’t want to!” What is going on in me? Whatever it is, I like it!
1/20/23 - The jewel in the lotus
This morning I had a most wonderful experience during my meditation. I saw what expectations are doing to people. To me. I saw expectations, many expectations and beliefs, in the form of a flower fully open. The flower petals were the expectations and beliefs, unfolding quite beautifully all around the central stamen, which appeared as a shining jewel in the center - the prize that has been overlooked by everyone who is seeking outside of themselves for answers. The expectations showed themselves to me as walls and barriers. Boundaries that block the way to the real within. Yet they are safe enough. They are OK. We search outside of ourselves, facing away from our real and authentic self - the ultimate prize at the center. By trying to define what we want, what we need, what we feel to others, we do not see the beauty that is lying within. We look and reach to others for what we want to have happen, and what we want the other person to do for us. And when we get together in little groups, each person has a different set of scenarios of what they want to have happen, and with who, and under what conditions, etc. Each person's expectation of the best possible outcome is hanging out there in his or her auric field, in the far reaches of our minds, and it blocks us from successfully getting it because it's too fixed, too narrow, too focused, too unattainable. Nobody could possibly fill that expectation. It is less than what our real self can provide if only we would stop expecting.
It is OK, though, because we are creators and we are here to learn by creating through trial and error and experimentation. We are here to experiment with other people as our mirrors. We have created a lot of wisdom through our experimentation and our travels with people, some special people, some accidental, some traumatic. We have been creating our life situations by defining what we want and then expecting it to work out that way. Sometimes it does, but often it doesn't because the real jewel is at the center of the flower. The jewel is in the lotus at the center but we are distracted by the beautiful, glamours petals of many colors and designs. The jewel in the lotus is our real self. The sovereign self who stands alone. We haven’t discovered it yet. We haven't learned the practice of sitting alone by ourselves and looking inside the treasure chest. When we start to open the jewel-encrusted chest, which we will learn later is the body itself, we are going to find the most extraordinary things. Within the physical body is an amazing ability to feel depths upon depths of feelings.
Expectations are a problem. Expectations are scenes and beliefs we hold in our minds of what we want to have happen. It's a planned scenario. We fix our mind on something and it stays there solid and immovable, like a barrier. We are seeking this thing to happen for us, but it's unattainable because every person has a different substructure than we do. Our infrastructures are all different. There are no two alike. We don't match. We can't fit. The only way we can fit together is to drop our expectations and allow the subconscious infrastructure (the soul) to find itself. We cannot know what that will be. It will be spontaneous because it doesn't come from pre-determination. It doesn't come from the mind. It comes from the flow between people. The chemistry can't be controlled. We can't imagine it. It is a feeling from a deeper place. A wider place. A cosmic place. We don't know what is to come because it hasn't arrived yet. We have to open ourselves to the flow first, and then it will arrive. The joyful experience of merging with others without expectations allows the moving of emotions, the sensation of feelings within us that have not surfaced yet and are therefore not restricted to a limited mental expectation. We can find this by coming together with others with an open HEART and an open mind, touching them and hugging them and interacting with them closely, yes, close and real but without expectations. Without demands on someone else to fulfill us. This is the hardest thing to understand, but understand we must. We are to drop our expectations which have fixed us on lesser things, narrow things which hold us trapped in petty goals, fixed like concrete. And they are holding us back.
Freedom is a sensation. We all want to feel free to enjoy ourselves, freedom to move around and freedom to feel the excitement that comes from no pressure, nobody demanding anything from us, freedom to move as we feel to move. But freedom does not come from someone outside. Freedom is a sensation that one must give to oneself, but dropping all expectations. Then the freedom can flow out and meet the ones who are on the same wave length. Freedom to be authentic is the jewel in the lotus. It's hard to imagine, although we've all had a momentary flash here and there. We know the potential is there. It's possible. What is holding it back? I saw this morning that it is expectations that are holding us back.
1/17/23 - The fully realized man
(From 9 years ago) This morning a wonderful vision was shown to me of a fully realized man. Uumm, lovely. This vision came as a feeling coupled with a picture. It affected me on levels that are wordless. I want to try to express the feeling because I am always focusing on the feminine qualities and, contrary to popular belief, a man who is fully in touch with his feminine side is waaaaay more attractive than one who is not. Most readers interpret feminine to mean woman or a gay man, but there is something powerfully masculine in a man who is whole and complete with both a gentle side and a strong masculine side. Every man has a feminine side, for he is 50% male and 50% female. Most men have been conditioned to hide their female side. Likewise, every woman is 50% female and 50% male, she just hides the 50% male side so she is not wholly empowered. But let's look at an empowered man.
A man's body is male, no question about it. But his body is only the vessel through which he moves and operates as an intelligent operating force. The body is a vehicle, just like his car that he gets into every day and drives. The body is not who he is. Who he is is intelligence manifesting as thought and feeling. This intelligent being is both male and female in thought and feeling. It is only when he is raised in a less-than-perfect society as ours is, that he is indoctrinated from infancy to hide his female side. A boy is taught from infancy to "be a man" and thus close off his delicate sensitivities which are his feminine side. Most boys are taught not to cry and not to express emotion or high ideals or a sense of justice or fairness, or appreciation for beauty or a taste for dance or the arts. These are too delicate, in our society, for a man to have. They are "gay". And yet these are very much a part of his wholeness. He cannot be complete without them. As he grows into adulthood and continues to deny expression to his own inner beauty and grace, he grows harder and more masculine. More macho. He develops a certain hunger for the feminine touch, for his body needs it. His body follows its natural growth pattern and at puberty there is a physical awakening of sex hormones in the genital region, indicating he can now reproduce, but there is a deeper and more intense hunger. He needs feminine energy for his soul, not just his body. He is lacking in that area - intimacy, gentleness, awe and wonder, because he has been trained to shut that side of him down and he is energetically out of balance. He is tilting too far over into the masculinity zone.
Perhaps the reader will disagree with me, but I am sharing a word picture of something I saw today - a fully-realized man. A whole man, not a screwed-up man with issues. We do not see such men in our society often, if ever. A fully realized man is not hungry for sex, nor is he hungry for a relationship. He is his own man and happy with his life. He is balanced between his heart (feminine) and his mind (masculine). He has learned to keep his heart open. He has not closed off his feminine side. His physical body is male and he is attracted to women in the same way as any normal man, for he loves to be in love and he loves beauty, grace and togetherness. But sex is not driving him. He has a respect for the whole person, and an appreciation of nature and ALL people everywhere - not just women. He has the ability to enjoy the many pleasures that the world has to offer, and the ability to be in joy and spontaneity as he feels, as well as to be serious, practical and a leader of men where needed. He can laugh and cry as he is moved to do so. And he can be the warrior when he is called upon, because he does not have unresolved issues plaguing him. He embodies his own wholeness in his skin, and he is comfortable with who he is. He is not operating at the 50% level, which we would call the macho male, but is the kind of man all men and all women would find attractive and likeable.
It's hard to describe the feeling of what I saw. It was a feeling. It was a presence. It was loving and warm and yet masculine in every way. It was wise and intelligent. Profoundly knowledgeable. He was like a god in a man's body. You could not help but stop and gaze at him in wonder, trying to figure out what it was that captivated you. But he was just a human being. I am trying to define the feeling, the impact, the glow and the presence of this man in my vision. He had a very powerful presence. You could imagine him being able to move mountains if he wanted to, but that he kept that power under wraps until needed. This gave an image of a very strong, very warm, very gentle, very human, and very attractive man.
I am painting this picture so that men who read this might understand - allowing your female side to express in your thoughts and emotions. This picture I paint is not being gay, and not being feminine. It is being more masculine, not less. It is important that a man realize how much he loses by not allowing his sensitive nature to co-exist along with his masculine. He has this energy within him. It is a powerful spiritual energy. I am articulating this for a reason. If men everywhere accepted his femaleness, the world would spring back to rightness immediately, for it has been the unbalanced male who has become unduly aggressive, mean and vicious without his feminine side. He would become in short time very comfortable with himself and at peace with his life. What at first feels vulnerable to him would eventually prove to be a wholeness that he has not experienced before, and it would give him more power, purpose and meaning.
The inner feminine is sometimes called the inner child. The inner child has been neglected. The inference is that the child has not grown up to adulthood, but here’s the thing: the inner female is always a child. It is happy and joyful and spontaneous and in love with life. It is the delightful twinkling in the eye at play. A man who has these qualities would be stronger than those men who do not express it. All men could express their inner child, with a little shift into solitary alone time to connect with it. He would be able to give expression to his inner, heretofore unexpressed inner thoughts and feelings. He would be MORE of a man, not less. He would find himself surprisingly stronger than he ever thought possible, because he would be operating on 100% fuel instead of only 50%.
The fuel is the spirit of the person, not the body itself. The fuel is the life force of an individual, not the body itself. The body is only the vehicle, the car, that the person gets into and drives around. When the person runs out of fuel, out of spirit, out of life force, then the car, the body, runs down and grows old. It cannot keep itself alive. It needs the fuel - the 100% octane. The macho male thinks he is so powerful and manly, but he can't do it alone without the spiritual fuel of 100% - the other half of himself which is hidden. One who has accepted his own gentleness, grace, vulnerability, beauty and refinement, would appear as a gentleman. That private acceptance within would flood his mind, body and feelings and saturate him with powerful confidence and inner knowledge. No amount of book learning or higher education gives that to a man. Only his willingness to connect with his heart, the feminine and spiritual side of himself.
The same is true with a woman. Most women operate on 50% of their life force, not 100% as they could. Yes, their physical bodies are feminine and they might be the most beautiful woman in the world. But their bodies are only a vessel, a vehicle. She herself is a non-physical, very powerful being using that beautiful body to operate through. When she, the powerful being, is raised as a young girl by her parents, she is more than likely being cultivated toward the feminine side. They are probably clipping and cutting back her male side, so she will fit in better with the world. Most girls are taught to be soft and gentle and to not express their intellectual side or their strengths or practicalities or tendencies for science, math, politicians, baseball or motorcycles. And yet she has all of these tendencies within her. They are skills and talents and abilities. Who knows what she would produce if she did not cut off her male side?
As young girls grow into womanhood they become increasingly hungry for male energy - the male energy that they rejected and were denied expression to. They grow unbalanced. She develops a certain hunger for boys. And when her body awakens at puberty with sex hormones flooding her nerves and tissues, she has no control over it. She needs and wants a boy man. Whereas if she had been allowed to be a fully-realized girl from childhood she would not be caught in the flood of emotions at puberty. Imbalance causes her intense desire for male energy, for she has refused to let it live and express in her. This hunger radiates out into the atmosphere around her and men and boys are attracted to it like a moth to a flame.
When a person blocks whole portions of themselves from expressing, which our society unfortunately requires, there is the beginning of imbalance. It manifests as inability to see clearly or choose wisely and as a hunger for the opposite sex or fighting with the opposite sex. Wholeness, on the other hand, is a feeling of being healthy, at peace and more or less fulfilled. It is the aching hunger for the opposite sex that is the most damaging result of denying the inner male or the inner female from expressing. It creates the friction and the struggle that exists between men and women everywhere. It is global. Even in our enlightened society here in the West, there is enmity between men and women. This enmity dissolves into love during a love affair and honeymoon, but quickly disappears after that. Why?
Because while they are in love they are balanced in their energies. Love balances. Love accepts. Love does not reject or deny. Love includes. As soon as they stop being in love, they fall out of balance again and the hunger returns for the opposite sex. And yet it is within the man himself, within the woman herself, that the balance is found. One can have hundreds of sex partners in life and never achieve that ultimate peace that comes with being in balance. It is all about energy. Inner energy. Male and female energy integrated inside one's own skin. Is it possible a baby can be raised as a fully-realized boy or girl? I believe it is not only possible but that we are seeing it with our own eyes. It is happening right now in the child prodigies. What we call "geniuses" but they are not geniuses. They are merely healthy, whole-bodied individuals operating on a full tank of life force, fully realized. I believe these child prodigies are not super human but wholly human. (Journaled 10/7/14)
1/16/23 - What kundalini is and feels like when it's flowing
This was written ten years ago after a session of going with the flow of it for an hour, spontaneously following where it led. I had read an old journal and remembered how wonderful it felt, so I gave into it that day for an hour. It was soft, pleasing, warm and the "fuzzies" appeared - that exotic feeling that I can't describe. It feels as if my hands are surrounded by cotton and I am entirely empty of thought. No mind at all. The following words are automatic, as if channeled. I wanted to write about it - the sensations.
Kundalini is a sensation that radiates through the body. It has a purpose. One does not know the purpose because it is another mind, not your own. You can’t read it but you can work with it and communicate with it. It has your own best interests at heart. It is here to serve life, not you in your mortal form, but the life that is trying to blossom in you. It is trying to push the stones and rocks and roots out of the way so it can pierce through the top soil into the light of day. Like a seed that is sprouting from within. Your body has grown old and tired and dense with pollution and poisons. Your belief system is also blocked with walls and limits on what you believe, and rigid thinking of “my way is the right way”. Kundalini is pushing those rigid beliefs out of the way. If you struggle and resist you feel pain. The advice is to yield, surrender, even if you are afraid and don’t understand, yet you must open yourself to this expansion that is going on. Open to this inner sensation the way you would open to a lover. The sensation is expansive, light and buoyant, and blissful and you can feel every cell as if your cells are each one waking up and signaling they are awake. Expanding and pushing outward through the cell walls, as if something is growing larger from inside them and the cell wall is feeling the pressure to expand and open. If you were a seed you would burst your shell and grow a little shoot to grow up through the soil.
This is a real power. You can feel it pressing on your physical cells and you have no clue what it is. It is disturbing to one who does not know these things. It is another part of you that is being born. You do not know this part yet but you will. You should be aware of it before it happens, to be prepared for it. It is a larger intelligence and a larger power. It is both mental and feeling. You can talk to it silently or out loud, mind to mind. And you should. If you don’t, it will expand arbitrarily through your body and leave you in its wake, not knowing, no clue. Stay with it. Agree to it. Ride with it. Yield to it consciously. Say, “Yes, I will go with you. Teach me.” Don’t be left behind. Otherwise you will be overwhelmed by how big it is. It’s greater than you. Keep up with it. Work with it. When you talk with it it will answer and listen to you. But if you don’t talk to it it will carry on without you. It will give you guidance, like to go to a certain area for calmness, or what foods to eat, or what drinks, or when to get up and when to sleep. To show you what you need to do to connect with it. It is a power moving in your body. Talk to it as if it were a friend on the outside of you and you need to communicate with this person who has a different mind than yours. But this friend is on the inside and it is the unborn part you. You are being born a second time now. You are being born again. (Journaled 7/28/14)
1/12/23 - Ancient memories coming alive
The back pain is lessening. Rolling on two tennis balls stuffed into a sock is doing good work. It's a DIY treatment, the best so far to ease and press out the locked-in pain from years doing the same motions over and over. It's lightening up, the cartilage and ligaments which attach bone to muscle. Inwardly I am experiencing ancient light, life, from past embodiments. Awareness is blending into my mind. It feels as if I am reclaiming them after being lost from me from past lives. It's an occult, mystical happening, but it feels so very real and natural. Extremely natural. It is lighting me up on the inside! Giving me more clarity. I see better. Understand better. It is the kundalini stirring.
During the morning routine I've been doing the brain tapping, also. I found the techique online. It is helping. My finger tips feel like needles when they tap on my head, but the voice said, "You have rays of energy coming from your finger tips going into your brain. See the energies penetrating deep into the energies stuck in the brain that have been locked down in there from being recycled and repeated, the same thoughts over and over. Tap, tap, tap them loose. They are literally stuffed and stacked and crammed inside the head and brain as energies forgotten. We think it is a physical brain, but it is a storehouse for memories. We have been trained to focus on only physical outcomes, but we are not physical. We are energy beings. We create with our mental life and our feelings and emotional life. Our energies are what creates our hard physical shell of a body. All our expectations and goals are wrongly focused on physical results. The kundalini re-awakening.
This new realization is stunning. The nerves are literally composed of consciousness, not substance. We are energy beings. As I move through my own awakening process it is a remembering process. I see past lives I have lived coming alive. It's my own effort at learning new techniques that is stirring my consciousness. I am allowing new information to enter. The ancient light from past lives is waking up as pain in my body. It has moved steadily closer to the surface so I can see it and feel it and know it is there. I have suffered so much in past lives and these sufferings are literally "stuck" and are now waking up as I learn new techniques, new exercises, new teachings. Ancient memories coming alive but they move on quickly because I am moving on. I am allowing them and absorbing them into who I am today and who I am today is growing clearer and better. I am lifting them. Lifting them.
The Masters teachings all point in one direction, UP! "Lift them up in to the light, release them and send them back to the light." So that's what I am doing. It is bringing forth old pain and freeing that pain from my body which inherited it because it's mine. Past diseases, past wrong doings, past sufferings, it’s amazing what I am becoming aware of. And the lessons I learned in those lives, the positives are also coming forward. The kundalini is being rekindled. The life force is the kundalini, known by the Christians as the holy spirit. I see who I am better as I fill in long lost gaps in my memory. I am more than I thought I was. I am not a small, narrow, little creature with only one life to suffer through. I have a long line of memory. There is so much more to me. My sister on her death bed said the same thing. In her last moments just before leaving her body, "I'm not who I thought I was!"
And so it is with me as I learn these new techniques and keep myself active. There is movement here. Life is flowing even though sometimes I’m walking bent over from lower back pain, the pain is lessening. I am experiencing betterment. Life is a mysterious thing. It is flowing more today than it was in the past. I’m getting inspired to keep moving and being productive. This is mysterious to me. What is this? Being productive and creative is life-renewing. Lying down to rest must be done quickly or it is stagnating. It is being in balance between action and rest that the mysterious thing called excitement comes alive. The dullness goes away. The boring parts are gone. There is a new lease on life. An old journal from 40 years ago when kundalini was fresh, new and alive, reminds me.....
(6/18/82) This morning as I lay in bed awake, waiting for Bob to wake, there came a sense of light flooding into me. I saw it with that peculiar sense that dawns in the inner mind no matter whether the eyes are open or closed. I saw a steady stream of little sparkling golden balls, almost solid they appeared, moving into me, rolling into me and settling along my back as I lay upon the bed, then steadily as more filled in, slowly rising and disbursing through the rest of me. At the same instant a crystal clearness filled my mind as though I were suddenly clear of the maze and filled with a powerful will to accomplish my purpose. No particular purpose was apparent, only that I could accomplish anything that I set my mind to, that I had the power, or rather I WAS the power to accomplish. I was filled with a will to do and I knew that nothing could ever hold me back. Further, I was in love with life, eager to do, to express, singularly pure and unadulterated. And then it passed.
1/10/23 - Physical nerves are pure consciousness compacted
(automatic writing/channeling) There are only two things you have control over: your thoughts that you think and the feelings that you have. You have control over your thoughts though you may not know it yet. And you have control over your feelings, like happiness, sadness or depression. You may not know this yet but this is the crux of life in general. It is the heart and soul of life and this teaching today. Now, the first aspect is the thought and thinking, because your feeling follows AFTER the thought is entertained and focused on for a while. Most people are unaware of this but energy follows thought. Feeling is an energy. Mantras and affirmations and continual chanting, humming or repeating words. These are the techniques for changing thoughts to a more preferrable place. Gradually the feelings and moods change as more preferred thoughts are applied.
The second thing to be taught to you is this: you could not even have a thought in the first place, if you were not a self-conscious immorotal being. You are an eternal, everlasting being. You have evolved yourself up from a mere babe of an immortal spark in your father’s eye and he made you. He brought you into being, into life, and you are a self-conscious baby, a future God like Him when you grow up. But you were only a baby in the beginning, only an aware babe. That’s all. Just aware. Then began your growing awareness. The mineral kingdom was the first experience of being aware. There was no movement in the mineral kingdom, just sedentary. Then you experienced the plant kingdom with some movement there. Then you experienced being a small animal, then a larger animals. Then animal men walking on two legs, and all the while you grew in self awareness, developing ways to communicate with others.
Today you are a human and your self-awareness has grown to vast proportions. You are aware of happy states and low depressed states, and of couse you are aware of pain and death. Or you are the immortal being who experiences life in different vehicles called bodies. Your body comes and goes, lives and dies, while YOU continue to live and grow in self-awareness and knowledge of yourself. Today you are taking more new steps into self-awareness.
(Me) During practice today, during the MIAP, while bringing down the silver cord to anchor consciously the three-fold flame of love, wisdom and power into the heart, I added the permanent atom to the heart, connecting the silver cord to it. It is THIS body that we are making immortal with our practices.
(Spirit) You’ve always been immortal but your bodies have not been. You have reached the point of realizing that the self-conscious inner work is not an abstract mental technique, but a technique of connecting to your physical body. You are working with THIS body, the one that your mother created in her womb for you. Also, while calling forth the crystal heart from Mother Earth, you’re calling the light, love, wisdom and knowledge of Mother Earth up into your heart. You are inviting it to enter into your physical heart. Your body is a physical child of Mother Earth. You are a child of God, immortal, learning the ways of the planet and of those who have gone before you on this planet. You are building on the structures and pathways of the ones before you. Mother Earth is your mentor and your grandmother as regards the body. She loaned you the material to create the vessel you are living in. The material is HER body. She loans it to the souls who want to come here to have an experience on Earth. Her light is embedded in the cells of your body. When you the immortal comes to live with her, you send your Mother flame ahead of you, down to join with Mother Earth’s light, and together you grow in knowledge and experience. You and Mother Earth.
Your individual light in the form of your Mother flame is your guidance. This is the ancient light you have left behind when you lived and died and left your corpses behind to be buried, unrecognized and unfulfilled. Your weak back is due to giving your power away to others. Females give their power away by giving in to men without understanding the consequences, and men give their power away for taking selfishly from women for themselves alone, without understanding the consequences. Both genders pay with your life. Your life force is depleted for lack of balance.
A weak back is the sign that the mother flame or mother power does not go up the main trunk of the spinal column as it should, in a balanced way. If it DID go up the central spine in a regular ongoing flow, not stopping along the way but recycling in a never-ending river of life, it would create a strong back bone. During sex, the woman gives her power to the man, and the man takes it from her willingly, selfishly using it to rebalance him SELF. He needs to do that because he gives his own power away following the expectations of an unbalanced civilization. He then interprets the sex act as pleasure since it feels good to him, but it is actually the filling in of the depleted back bone and other organs in the lower body. He takes balance from the woman who willingly gives it to him in what she thinks is lovemaking. She even fights for the right to give him this power, which she jealously guards as her rightful possession.
1/9/23 - Expanding past discomfort
This morning I woke with words in my mind: "When you are in pain, expand. When you are frustrated, expand. When you are angry, expand. When you are confused, expand. When you are lonely, expand." The sense I was getting was that it's the conscious effort to expand that does the work. The "working it out" is done by thought, desire and intention, not by physical labor. I remembered the pool filter. Spray cleaning the filter is a job I have to do every month. It's the perfect example of how to apply this principle to every day life.
When I clean the cartridge filter to the pool every month I have to struggle with the steel housing. It's old and bent and it's seen its best years. To unscrew the top of the housing is a job. I have to chisel it off with a screw driver and hammer because it won't budge any more. Then I lift out the cartridge to spray it to clean it with a hose. That's the easy part. Then I have to screw the top back on, which is terribly difficult because the threads are all worn. I started hating this job. I was developing an attitude over this monthly project that used to be easy. The alternative is to buy an whole new, very expensive pool filter. Screwing the top back on requires three or four repeated efforts because the thread do not catch, so I have to back it off and try it again, and finally using the monster wrench to force it at the end. I was using force on this job from beginning to end.
One day it dawned on me as I was struggling to put the steel cover back on, that I needed to ask the elementals in the steel to help me. I have been reading in the ascended master books principles for living more in harmony with the earth. My attacking the frozen and resistant steel housing with frustration was not being very harmonious. So I stopped what I was doing and went silent, imagining the living conscious spirit in the atomic structure of the metal container. I first connected with my higher self by focusing on my heart, and then imagined the living consciousness of the metal housing. I started talking to the steel elementals and thanking them for their service, all the while imagining the steel housing in a state of perfect harmony with beautiful transparent rays of light enfolding it. This was a fairly normal meditative visualization, but I seldom think to do it when I am involved in a mundane task - like working with a frozen steel housing.
When I felt I was harmonized sufficiently, I very slowly turned the large screw on the top, listening with inner ears and seeing with inner eyes the life and consciousness within the steel. I maintained this awareness with every slow turn of the large screw. It takes 21 turns to complete the screw-down of the top of the pool filter. As I reached the 10th and expected resistance, there was none. I cautiously continued, keeping my harmony and stillness and reached the 15th turn. Still no resistance. I continued on 18, 19, 20, 21. Still no resistance. I felt around the rim for lop-sidedness which signals that it went on crooked again. If so, I would have to back out and do it over again. But this time it was firmly embedded into its groove. The steel was purring like a kitten. I was amazed! It worked! I didn't even have to use the oversize wrench to make the final turn to tighten it by force which I had done in the past. I felt the urge to say silently, "Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! I love you. I love you. I love."This was the day that changed my relationship with the pool filter housing. It is still old, bent, and frozen in certain parts, but I have a new relationship with it. I don't hate the job any more.
Neale Donald Walsh once said, “Life begins at the end of your comfort zone”. What the heck does that mean? I related that statement to this experience with the pool filter. Discomfort is normal for most people. We've grown comfortable with discomfort and therefore we don't always realize that we are having a situation that we could improve upon if we were aware. Discomfort is the normal comfort zone for a lot of us but it creates labor-intensive responses to situations, which only builds stress, anger and frustration because we're doing it the hard way. We are comfortable with discomfort. We're comfortable using force on what is a living, conscious, breathing being. It's normal for humans to use force. It's the big change that we are all growing through now. How to expand past force and become friends with objects of nature and people who are not normally likeable. Our old way of doing things is our comfort zone, but we need to come to the end of our comfort zone of discomfort. It's time to find more expanded and harmonious comfort that is gentle with us.
It takes awareness to know when we're uncomfortable, to catch ourselves in the act of being uncomfortable so that we can do something about it. So that we can stretch ourself beyond that discomfort. That is where pain, a bad situation or a terrible, traumatic event is an opportunity. I can’t open the door to new life when everything is going well and I am happy. But when I am at the threshold of pain or suffering or something is going wrong, then I have an opportunity. Standing at the threshold of feeling bad and life is threatening to pull down under into a bad place, it's a perfect opportunity to go within and push that feeling back. Expand when you are in pain. Expand when you are lonely. Expand when you are sad.
At that moment of discomfort I have a choice whether to continue being in discomfort, or expand by relaxing inward into the silence and stillness of my heart. Meditation is something that everyone should be doing, at least a little every day, to get some practice in for the real thing, for when it is needed the most. By expanding inward into the silence of your heart you open the door to - what? You don't know but there is stillness there. There is silence there. There is peace and there is acceptance And newness. It's a new place and there is fresh air. Relaxing inward and shifting the anger or pain to silence and stillness opens the door to newness. It is expansive. It lets in new life. It is a widening that sheds light on what has been an uncomfortable situation which was hurting and bothering me.
I think this is what is meant by growing by expanding. It‘s a choice to expand and not resist or continue hating and being uncomfortable. Choosing to expand is a gentle act. There is a subtle shift of consciousness to adapt to a larger field. Feeling comfortable is the reward. It is not drastic, like jumping off a cliff, eyes closed and hoping for the best. It’s a gentle thing, pushing the limits back on my own horizon. It blends my former horizon with the new horizon. It’s comfortable. The unknown becomes like being an open field of fresh air and soft grassy meadows under a blue sky. It is peaceful. Our job as human beings who are evolving our consciousness to higher planes is to keep pushing on the limitations. Expanding the envelope that we live in. Our job is to open windows and doors and let fresh air in. As the teacher Ramtha said, to make known the unknown. The unknown is full of opportunity and promise but we can't see it if we are in resisting mode.
It’s like when clothes are too tight and I can’t fit into them any more. The human response is to hate ourselves and determine to go on a diet or do more exercise to whittle down who we are, try to fit into the old clothes instead of adjusting our attitude and going out and buying new clothes that fit better and we are more comfortable in them. Allowing the expansion to take place instead of fighting it relieves the pressure. It ends the fight we are having with ourselves. Duality has become such a way of life for us that we have grown accustomed to fighting. We fight mostly with ourselves, not with other people. We are competitive because we see we are in duality and the two opposing forces continue to grind in on each other. There is consciousness in everything, including our own brain and muscles. By entering into the silence, we can bend those forces to harmonize instead of fight, if we choose to and know how to. And when we experience harmony we can't help but bend the knee in thanksgiving for this opportunity to heal. Weaving the known (the former perspective) with the unknown (that which we are inviting to come forth) together is like two lover’s embracing after a quarrel. There is a sensation of being stronger yet gentler. By joining together two separate energies, two different perspectives, two opposing thoughts, two different colors and world views, we become whole. (from 4/2/17)
1/8/23 - Assigning words to the mystery
There is an inner life within all of us. It is hidden from view among those who haven‘t started awakening to their spiritual self. Who knows who has and who has not awakened and begun to have a rich inner life not known to others? While we are all dramatically different on the outside, because of our experiences and adventures we've had and the many lifetimes we’ve lived, we have the same spiritual template within.
The human template is the same all over the universe, the galactics say. It is called the Adam Kadmon, or the Christ, or the Buddha body. There are many names for it. It is a spiritual blueprint for the human being and it is within us. We mold ourselves around it when we are embodied, and we hunger to touch it because it’s home to us. We are brothers and sisters of the same light. Our inner life is a journey back to that sacred blueprint, but we are veiled from knowing this. On purpose we are veiled. The divine intention is that we learn to follow our INNER path, and not the outer which is a distraction. So we wander until we are guided by good sense. Then the veil thins and the inner light shines through, starting a gradual process of unfolding excitement. Inner excitement of private discovery. This is why we are here: to find that secret inner thread which excites us to spend time alone with ourselves. It is an inner magic. It is rare to experience on Earth because the outer glamour and confusion captures our attention and holds us locked to the world of chaos.
We do not know what our soul is up to until the light begins to shine through, and then we sense there is a higher mind to us and a higher emotional range that we can feel that is more noble than previously known. When the veil is pierced and the light and life shines around inside our consciousness, a new kind of journey begins. Mysterious pathways suddenly open. A new excitement dawns. We see beyond the horizon, or we think we do, and we are tantalized and drawn to it like butterflies to pretty flowers. This is the inner life.
The veil was pierced for me in 1976 when unexpectedly the force known as kundalini activated in me in a most dramatic way. It was then that I began a relationship with something larger than me. At first I thought it was another entity that had moved in and taken me over. It caused me concern at first, but over time I developed a relationship with it. Ever since that day in April 1976 I have been journaling my experiences. I wrote lengthy hand-written pages at first because I didn’t have a typewriter. Then a typewriter came into our possession, and much later, a computer.
I wrote about these experiences because I am tactile. I encourage everyone to journal their private thoughts and experiences, and re-read them later, not the same day. I understand things when I write them down with pen and paper. Writing grounded the experience and fleshed out the nebulous flights into other realms and the interactions with invisible beings who I later learned were the guardians of the human race. At first, I couldn’t write - it was too strange - but as I continued to flash in and out of other realities, I had to write it down and assign words to it. Putting words to the mystery seemed to make it real. If left undefined it remained elusive and etheric. As I struggled to find words to describe these experiences, the mystery slowly became history. With each journey I was structuring a new reality for myself. An inner reality that I could not share with anyone else. But over time I had the notes to prove it had really happened, just in case I forgot it. It seemed important that I do this. And I put dates on them.
I am reminded that “In the beginning was the Word.” Assigning words to these strange and wonderful - and sometimes negative - experiences was a beginning. Even if only built of words, it was a structure that was real to me. My exterior world kept changing but this inner life of understanding has become more enlightened and more solid and more permanent. As if I have been molding and shaping this mysterious other dimension into or over this dimension. There is a merge happening. We really do create our own reality. Other people are doing the same thing, I see, as I read the blogs on the internet.
Looking back and reading the words I wrote so long ago helps me to see that I have been in the process of transition. Ascension they call it these days. There is an expansion of consciousness. There is a higher order at work. My everyday world has been seeded with another more beautiful and harmonious world that is full of light and love, goodness and beauty. I have been integrating the two worlds - my outside world and my inside world. I have been building a new world structure right here on the ground where I live. Others have been doing this too. We are seeding a new reality, a new rich reality into the outer world. We are transitioning. That is why I urge keeping a hand-written journal. Handwritten in private is best, because then the higher self can enter merge and blend better with the human nervous system via the hand and fingers. It is the human body, not the brain, that is seeding the new earth through feelings and emotions. (Re-posted from 9/12/16)
1/7/23 - Message from my higher self
In the night I was awakened to write down a message. "How can your higher self connect with you, your mortal self, except by you the mortal reaching up and being the best you can be? In every moment? Then your immortal self can reach down to connect with you. For, having been born into the lower vibrational world you had to descend to fit in with the lower vibrations. It is by giving of yourself in the best way possible that the honorable, compassionate, forgiving you will become reintegrated with the real you again. Become the most honest you can be, the most pure you can be, the most perfect you can be, the most wise, the most intelligent, the most modest, the most selfless. Then you become your highest and best and your Christ body can make that connection with you.
"Your connection to your higher self is like any other friend you have in your life. To maintain communication with it you must direct attention to your friend. A telephone line opening, a glance in its direction, a remembrance of its presence, talking to it, asking it questions, listening to its answers, fitting in with it, knowing and respecting its qualities, its nature - that’s how you connect with your higher self. Your higher self is buttoned in through your chakras. [I saw this vividly] Higher self is all around you like a bubble. It is not only up in the sky but around you on all sides and below you. It is you as you appear on the higher dimensions that vibrate faster and purer. You are a small dark and dense form suspended and floating inside a bubble of clarity, love, perfection like crystal clear waters twinkling as sunlight splashes colors through the water, like a diamond flashes prismed light. You are the rich yolk inside the egg of your higher self bubble. You are the child inside the womb of your Divine Mother. You are the figure inside the glass snow ball. You are the seed germinating.
"You are surrounded on all sides by your very own God/Goddess/Divinity. Expand yourself to connect with the answers to your question. Touch the hem of the garment of your higher self and listen to its advice and counsel. All your needs are answered when you go IN and then UP to your higher self, higher dimensions where purity and everything you need is available to you. When you are lonely, hungry, depressed, inadequate, afraid, failing, confused, hurt, suffering, overwhelmed, shut down, frozen, go in and UP. Up in the higher realms you are none of these things. You are perfect, complete and ascended. Go IN and then UP to your higher regions to feel the peace and assurance.
"You adopted the low vibrations so you could fit into the world and work here. To re-adopt your former glory, go in and UP to your higher self. Focus on your higher self. Give attention to your higher self. Contemplete it and release your adopted vibrations that are less than who you are. Simply touch the hem of the garment and you will receive a sense of your greatness. Do not be afraid. Release the fear. Become ME for I am your true self. The Self you want to become.. The self you dream about. As you move up the frequency range to higher, more noble sense of self, you will not be able to connect with those who are on the lower frequency range except through love. They become static to your ears and disharmonious to your sensitivities. If you want to stay in contact with the lower frequency range of people, then you must bring my love down with you into lower frequencies and not compromise yourself. Your loving can influence others.
1/6/23 - God is not a "thing", but a process toward betterment
This morning I realized something. Instead of giving credit to a particular ascended master for the many dictations I have been getting over the years, I am supposed to OWN the wisdom for myself. Whatever I become aware of is MY intelligence. It is a process of recognition. I have been giving my power away thinking the words came from someone else. I did not recognize my own enlightenment process.
Today, suddenly, I see that God is not a "thing". God is a process. God is one's higher self blending with lower self. God is short for good. There is a process toward good going on, a process toward betterment, in all of us. There's a higher self beyond us, and another higher self beyond that, and another and another, on into infinity. God is growing itself through the many parts. Good is evolving. There is no end to Good. There is only a process of unfolding. God is not a thing to chase down and discover. Rather, it's a process of recognition. God is the ascended masters, God is the galactics, God is our loved ones who died, God is the angelics, God is the tree, the vegetable, the animal, the insect, the stone, the air, the water. God is the many parts evolving to somethin better. God is everything. God is you. God is me. God is awareness, intelligence, wisdom. God is lighting up the world. God is your ex-wives and my ex-husbands. God is space. God is time. God is the sun, the moon, the planets, the extraterrestrials. Not different but the same.
I am recognizing this today. God is not separate. God is not a "thing". God cannot be owned, discovered or monopolilzed. One becomes God through the process of elimination of what is wrong and feels bad. God is a process of becoming more aware of what is right and feels better. Therefore it is a process of becoming more connected. God is a process of evolving. God is the lesser, the dumber, the blinder, the more ignorant, the more dark, the more unenlightened, the more obstruction, the more resistance because God is the many parts. God is the evil evolving into something better and more connected. The Buddhists don't use the word "God" because then it would become something outside of them, something set apart, a separation, a difference. God is self. God is soul seeking its betterment. Today I sense familiarity, I sense family. I'm moving closer. God is not separate and apart from me. I am not ready to say I am God and I am everywhere, but I am in process of becoming more aware than I was yesterday. (Journaled 9/28/19)
1/2/23 - Crude sex is killing humanity
This morning was a morning of revelations for me, brought about by receiving this wonderful, beautiful, massage this morning from my husband. I do believe your own partner at home is a better person to do this, even though it's never been done before. There's always a time to start.
The energies of the human being. The whole system opened up to me this morning. The human body is designed to receive energy from the earth. The human body is made of earth elements and the same life that fuels the grass, trees and animals and makes them grow, wither and die when their cycle is over, also fuels the human being who is an animal waking up to his higher nature. The human being is different from the animal in this sense. He has been gifted with an immortal spirit or consciousness. This immortal spirit is coming down while the earth energy is going up. So there is a two-way energy flow happening in the human. One coming up from earth, and one coming down from the sky.
The energy flow coming up from earth enters through the bottoms of the feet and travels up the legs to the tail bone which is the first chakra, the beginning link to the stars. The human body is designed to carry the flow up through the second chakra (reproductive or sex chakra) which is another, higher, link with the stars and which provides new more expanded insight to the human. And then it travels up to the third chakra (solar plexus or naval) which is still more expanded and another higher link with the stars and provides vaster insight to the human. This is the first three of a seven-step ladder that the human climbs by opening and experiencing each step, one at a time. In this manner he gains his immortal status.
From the third chakra the life travels up to the fourth chakra (heart) where it links with the down-flowing energy, which causes quite a stir. He sees for the first time the higher way. It melds him in with his lower understanding. He opens to vaster knowledge and he begins to question and consider higher ideals, morals, ethics. As his heart opens new understanding floods through him which carries him naturally upward to the fifth chakra (throat), where another star link opens to provide him with the power of truth, to communicate his voice to others. Understanding takes shape and form and he centers his attention around a career or vocation, what field of service to work within. Doors open wider. From there he travels up to the sixth chakra (third eye) which opens when he is finished with the career and wants to retire, perhaps in solitude, taking a break from the world before deciding what's next. Then he travels naturally from there up to the seventh chakra (crown of head) where it links with the incoming energy from the stars and Home, the place from which he came, the source of life, comfort and bliss.
This seventh chakra gives him his freedom from the physical material world and he becomes liberated. If he has completed his soul journey to his satisfaction he earns his ascension to become the god or goddess he/she is destined to become. But if not fulfilled in that life, then he returns to another life, again as an infant through a mother and father’s seed. And another life and another, until he completes his soul mission. It is the same process as the acorn on the ground which is destined to become a great oak tree. The little acorn grows through certain stages to become a tree. So does a human being grow through its seven stages step by step, to grow from animal man to God man. It must be that way, because each step fits him to a broader expanse so that he is ready to step into the next stage. If he stops at any level along the way, he is incomplete.
This is what is SUPPOSED to happen for human beings. It is the plan. The earth energy travels up from earth to the heart which is the central gathering place, and he links with the heaven energy that is descending. Eternal life and immortality descends downward, ever downward into density to enrich the lower planes of planetary life. The whole system is enriched and grows wiser and more efficient, more perfect. It’s a partnership between heaven and earth. The immortal spirit is pure consciousness. Consciousness is growing ever wider. It is flowing down from the light above. It is the divine plan to flow down and enrich the lower realms. There is an immaculate concept for earth to become more perfect and beautiful, and for the human being to become a more perfect, more conscious human, a better man and a better woman. A God-man and God-woman, if we can use those terms. They become more graceful and more marvelous, walking and expressing the joy they feel unfolding within themselves. They are becoming enlightened. We are a divine consciousness coming down into a heavy earth body made of clay, dust and matter. We are trying to partner with this animal body and bring it into its fuller human potential beyond the former animal nature. As consciousness we do that by linking up and melding with the earth energy that's coming up through our feet and up through our chakras, bones, blood and tissue.
The problem is, we haven’t been doing that. We stopped the flow by diverting the earth energy to sex. Very, very, very few people understand how this works. Everybody thinks that sex is so important but it is actually disrupting the flow that is trying to reach the brain and connect with the universal system from which all life came. The connection is with the universe. The system is designed to bring enlightenment, happiness, joy, creative inspiration, abundance on every level and perfection to the human being who is evolving from a lowly animal creature into a higher intelligence. A god if you will.
It is not that sex is not important, it is rather a side enjoyment of a greater power source that the human has been gifted with. But crude sex is killing the human race. The goal of orgasm – and the orgasm itself – stops the flow at the second or third chakra. The animals have not been gifted with immortality consciousness but mankind has. The animals do not have the ability to evolve into a god or goddess. That is the role of the human, to take this animal body up to a higher level of respect, love, purity, decency, understanding, universal consciousness. He then becomes immortal PHYSICAL beings. He is not evolving to escape the earth plane, he is evolving to become a resident in the garden of Eden, of paradise, of plenty, of joy, love and freedom. We have yet to know this. We don’t understand what our role is. The human being is meant to grow into a higher ethical powerful being, but crude sex is stopping him. As a selfish glutton lusting after sex and orgasm, he is putrifying his own body and that of those around him. He is causing a serious backup, a damming up of the earth power which seeks to rise higher through the seven steps to completioin.
The human being is a god in the making and we have this incredible immortal energy at our disposal to do it with, known as the holy spirit, or kundalini or some other word. You name it. It can be called simply the life force. The eternal life force. It is stored at the tail bone, the first root chakra on the etheric level. It is a power that requires love to release it. Once released, it needs respect or it turns negative. The immature ego is too small to handle it. There is meant to be a figure 8 flow with the descending energy from the sun. There is meant to be the ascending force from earth meeting up with and melding with the descending energy from the sun, from the light above us. There are distributing centers all through the universe sending this light of consciousness and intelligence out to the planets to grow these god-men and god-women. Ascending and descending forces flow in the figure eight sign, the infinity sign, but we are interfering with it by diverting the power off into sex. The orgasm explodes, the life force cleans up the local area of the body, provides bliss, and then dies. The upper regions of the body do not receive it. We want the orgasm. We press for the orgasm. We use artificial means to get an orgasm and we are trying to prolong the orgasm, to linger with it. We want to extend the orgasm. We cum and cum and cum and cum and keep shorting out the vast immortal power, and then we die. The immortality gene never gets awakened because the earth energy doesn't link up with it. It must reach the heart.
The next step in the evolution of mankind is to learn about this. And do the inner homework on themselves to merge the two rivers in us – one flowing up, one flowing down - to flow together. It will bring balance. Balance will bring clarity in a natural way, easily, lovingly, lightly. By not obsessing over the orgasm, one falls into a natural state of being and THEN he can make love. Making love replaces the obsession over sex. Making love is natural and innocent and timely. Making love comes with harmony and with rhythm when two people are aligned with purity in their own hearts. It is not impossible. It is done on other planets of higher grade than ours. Once we learn to stop being selfish and crude with our bodies, we will begin to distribute the energies known as the cerebralspinal fluid all through the body in a steady flow, including the brain which is important to the human evolving. And then when these flows are flowing nicely the human race will be a race of peace and love. That's when sex changes and is no longer crude but is a form of worship and love.
When two bodies are flowing with bliss energy together, and both bodies are in synch and both bodies are at one and both bodies feel good, then they are making love and miraculous things happen. The mind opens to the universe, they expand and expand and expand and they learn who they really are and they soar among the stars, even as their bodies are entwined on the earth plane. This is the gift of the gods. It is the next step beyond sex. The way sex works now, the one who is most turned on seduces or ravishes the other who goes along with it, ignoring the chakras. One of them cums but usually not the other one and the other one is confused about that, perhaps resentful, becoming embittered over time. Sex aborts the whole process and diminishes love.
My life journey has me focusing on massage. I took to it naturally. Then I went to school. But the school doesn't have the right knowledge either. Enlightened spiritual massage, if you know what you're doing, is the best way to link up the earth energy with the sky energy. We need to connect the ascending earth energy with the descending sky energy. The end product is bliss and love. Many people are NOT getting the bliss and love from the crude sex act, only the one who is pressing it another person is getting it. Temprarily. But it's not lasting. We have to get over the crude selfishness of the animal nature we carry in our genes. Respectful caring massage is the best way to do this, in my estimation. I am receiving revelation after revelation after revelation about this. And finally I am overcoming my fear to say it out loud. Fear is deeply imbedded over this issue. There are souls who are so turned off but they can't speak it out loud.
There will be a loud clamor of resistance and rebellion, over this suggestion, I am sure. And yet, those who rebel do not hear the message. It is not the end of sex that is suggested, it is the end of small-minded sex that is selfish, that has not matured yet out of ancient animal creature habits. They press sex on others because they have not been educated in the higher form of lovemaking. Ending the crudity of sex is focused mostly on men, but this includes women too because women have been men before, and men have been women before. Ending low-grade sex will require some re-training but it is the beginning of learning about love and the gifts that the human body is capable of receiving. A loving massage by people who are more or less on the same wave length would be nice, but perhaps not realistic. Who do you know who is ready for this? Perhaps those with some spiritual understanding, but my goal is to have loving, enlightened massage exchanges who agree to practice the "don't focus on cumming" rule.
This will allow the raising of the powerful earth energy up through the WHOLE body to connect with the descending energy coming down through the crown of the head. We have to reach the crown to open the crown. This is the beginning of the science of connecting heaven and earth. It will require practice but it WILL lead to clarity, to healing, and to fabulous blissful experiences. It is the beginning of flowing the fires of life instead of blocking them as humankind has done for thousands of years. It will clear the debris of accumulated trauma of every kind. Craniosacral massage is the closest thing we have to it, but the kundalini energy connection is missing. Bringing the earth energies all the way up to the crown of the head is necessary, and to do this we must not stop at the groin level to release it by cumming. This will take some serious re-training, since we all are so obsessed with the orgasm. The orgasm energy is needed up higher than groin level. The orgasm is the only goal we have right now to give us a semblance of bliss. But there is a greater future ahead if only we know. We must be re-trained. We must break the habit that is holding the whole human race back, spell-bound, trapped and recycling such low vibrations. We must, in order to get to the abundance of clear vision and thinking, and the bliss of constant love. (Journaled 1/20/15)
"The spinal column is the central pole of the body around which the various organisms and electrons spin. It is like unto the axis of the physical earth held in place by Polaris and Magnus. Within this spinal column is the magnetic core of love that holds the physical vehicle itself in manifest expression. Within the spinal column is the cosmic keynote for each lifestream. The tone and the natural harmony of the vehicle are constantly flowing through the nervous system from the spinal column; and that harmony is the sustaining power of the outer self of each such chela [student].
"When harmony in the physical form is temporarily broken through strain and tension, it may be acquired again if the chela will lie quietly upon his bed with a low headrest (or none) and visualize his spinal column as the "pole." Then, in relaxation, let the light from the spinal column go through the nervous system and the entire physical vehicle carrying the light into every cell and atom of his being. If this can be done for 15 minutes daily, the chela breathing deeply and rhythmically, holding the thought and feel of LIGHT, he can again adjust his physical body and arise refreshed and relaxed."
4/7/23 - Inspiration and ascension
Energies have been swirling very fast the last few weeks, and picking up more and more speed. I tend to think it is planetary because I know we are in the middle of a planetary shift to higher consciousness, but this is personal. I want to share today what I have learned about GROUNDING the light. The light waves that are coming in are sweeping like a little old lady with a big broom, sweeping up the old dusty energies that have settled down into our carpets and furniture, and it’s causing a great deal of dust The dust is swirling and I was experiencing dizziness to the extreme, I couldn’t think.
Then the Master Djwahl Kuhl stepped in. What he told me I should have known but didn’t. He tells me again and this is something very important to remember and to pass on to others. Whenever I have an inspiration that thrills me and lifts my excitement up so much that it fills me with elation and quickness, then I better use it RIGHT AWAY. I must get rid of it or my brain will be filled with vital force and it will scatter and shatter my brain cells. It is no different than when a balloon is filled up with helium. It causes the balloon to fly away. The brain cells lose contact with their normal abode. The light fills in the spaces and moves them apart. There is too much light coming into the body’s cells and tissues.
This is good on one hand, but bad on the other. I have vitality and excitement filling me but my head is not cooperating. And when the brain is not performing its normal function of maintaining control, I am useless. DK says “share the light”. Tell someone, incorporate it into your practical life. Find a way to use the knowledge that is exciting you. It is a passion for life. Use it for life-giving purposes. Something beneficial, benevolent, to help your neighbors, family, friends, community. If nothing else, get up and do some gardening, or a project that needs muscle and labor. Use the light, the vitality, the excitement and passion until you run out of gas. Otherwise you will be like the helium balloon and rise upward, lift off the ground and float away. Your spirit is drawn to its father light on higher consciousness dimensions unless it is used right here on earth.
What I discovered was, when I lay down to rest to let it pass was NOT good. It caused me bad feelings, as if death were waiting to take me. This is a very subtle point that might be overlooked. And it is this. The spirit wants to return to its father. It is a powerful draw to leave the body when the mission is done. It wants to go home. However, if there is more work to be done, the spirit can be drawn back into action and WILL revitalize the body again if it is determined by the individual to do so. It takes will power and desire to overcome the feeling to “lie down and rest”. The light is the light of spirit, and the light of spirit tends to want to go home where it is welcomed by the father-parent. But this CAN be overcome, according to DK. He spent many years teaching these methods to his students. He has been showing me how to do it.
Many people have not had the benefit of the Ascended Masters’ teacings about death and dying. So when death comes knocking and the swooning starts, most people give in to it. But there is another way. It is important that I pass this information on to the world via my writings. It is how I contribute. Ascension symptoms can be alarmingly tempting to give up and give in, but you don’t have to if you know more about the higher consciousoness that is lifting you to higher realms. You CAN take the body up with you. This is the embodiment stage of ascension. Bring the light down into the body by sharing the knowledge that you have. In any way that feels right to you.
If the physical body - the tissues, muscles, organs, lungs, heart - if they cannot keep up with the higher light that is sweeping through the earth in cycles and waves (and it does cycle, it’s cyclical) the body wants to swoon. It is so tempted to lie down and rest. But when I lay down to rest I started feeling the old sick feeling again. I don’t like that feeling. It feels really bad. I used to blame someone else for the sick feeling, but it’s my own flagging, lagging energies that are causing it. They are failing to keep up with the light. There are methods. I have been using ancient Tao methods for a long while. These are helpful. There are many other ways that can be shared. Share the knowledge. That is what I am doinng. A light worker is one who shares the knowledge. Light is refreshing new knowledge. It fills in the gaps of empty unknowns. Bad feelings like “I’m going to die”, the death and dying feeling, also come in cycles. They can be filled in with new knowledge. So I have learned NOT to lie down when I am swooning, but to get up and move. Do something physical.
It is important that you get this. This has never been written about before. I haven’t seen it in any of the ascension articles. So what do I do? DK tells me to get active. Do something to use the light up. Use it. Distribute it. Share it. Tell the people in some way. Figure out a practical way to contribute. You are a lightworker. You are here to contribute light to the world, a lighter way of living IN the world. It is a more loving realm that we are moving into. Find a more beautiful, refined way to do something positive and constructive. Do not fall back down into the old ways of grunt work. Do not let yourself float away either. Find the balance between the two ways. Ground the balanced way into the earth. Give balance to the earth to lighten the earth and the people. If you are an artist, paint! If you are a construction worker, construct. If you are a gardener, weed and plant. If you are a writer, write. I am a writer. I WAS a massage therapist at one time but I had to stop doing that because male energies kept dragging me down into sexual areas, by sheer magnetism, and I didn’t want to go there so I resigned massage therapy.
So now writing is my way of contributing. I write about what I am experiencing and there are many. Too many to get them all into written words. But everyone is different. Everyone must find their own way of becoming a light USER. USE the light, which is information. Use it in a way that benefits the world around you. Radiate the knowledge that is coming through you.
My dizziness and swirling energies have mostly gone away. Not entirely but mostly. The main cause was too much light and I couldn’t use it fast enough. I began recognizing it slowly. Whenever I sit down at the computer and send a newsletter or post an article by DK or a channeling from the Presence, or communicate with someone or swap a massage with someone, I feel more alert, vital and alive, filled with renewed energy. I became more aware as time went on that THIS was the answer to renewing myself. It is vital that we stay active, but only doing that which brings us a feeling of goodness. Not to waste time doing mundane, dull stuff. It just drains our vitality away. Feeling good with yourself is the most crucial part of living. It keeps you sane, clear-headed, not dizzy as I was starting to feel. I couldn’t believe it. I began to notice the difference, whereas when I went through a day doing ordinary mundane things that didn't elevate me in spirit-led fashion, I felt dull, empty, and the sickish feeling would come to remind me, "this is not right". It would hover over me nearby until I found something exciting to do.
The earth is going through an ascension shift. We need to get onboard with it and go WITH the ascending flow, the exciting flow, not hold ourselves against it. Quantum field energies are sweeping the planet bringing us closer to zero energy, balance energy. Most people are not aware of this. I am writing about something from a more advanced understanding. I’m sorry but I must speak of these things. I know them. They must be shared. They are pure light, pure knowledge, pure love, pure order and harmony. It is how the planets stay on course and how the sun rises every day and sets at night. We are rising to join the galactic knowledge but currently it is beyond what most of the population has been prepared for. But we can work with it. We can handle it. We can open our minds and relax inward for 15 minutes and reconnect with the light that is flowing through us. It WILL sustain the body if we do that periodically. .
For the benefit of those reading this, the solution to swirling energies that are causing turmoil, whether light-headedness or depression and moroseness, the solution is not a mental solution, but a practical body solution. Do something active that takes physical energy movement. When I tried to ground my bad feelings with mental techniques, as in meditation, it wasn’t working. Slowly, gradually, I became dissatisfied with meditation. Meditation is rapidly going away for the new-age light worker. It was used to bring us into the modern age, but now it is giving way to practical work – the work of grounding and growing roots into the mainstream community. Help the world change through practical applications. Most important is sharing stories openly. Stop hoarding and being secretive. Open the heart and mind and become sincere, become authentic, become real. Share who you are and what you know. You know things that others don’t know.
The new world system we are moving into is a fairer system, it is more tender, more considerate, more loving, more wholesome, more natural, more organic, more emotional and of a feeling nature, more supportive, more connected to the whole human race without judging those who are different. There is more vitality felt when this approach is taken. It is simplistically alive. It is not a mental method. It is a heart and gut method. We are here to use our hearts and guts. When you want to know more, when the solution evades you and you’re just not getting it and you’re up against a blank wall, it’s because you’re up there in your brain. Old thoughts run through the brain. The brain is not the mind. The mind covers you like a sheath, from head to toe. It is your consciousness.
The solution will not come from the brain, it will come from your consciousness that covers you like a sheath, from head to toe. It’s a physical solution that will give you an answer and dissolve the blank wall that you’ve run into. It is a whole-consciousness solution that is needed. Plant some of YOUR seeds, YOUR knowledge out there in the world, but do it humbly, with humility, with compassion. Figure out how to do that in a way that causes you to feel good about yourself. Find the passion in you. Your passion is the thread that will start your motor running again. You will be amazed. I was. As you share some of who you are, your inner talents, your innate skills, you will feel it. It will feel good. Follow your feelings. Cast your seeds out around you in your own special way. Become a new kind of Johnny Appleseed on a practical level. Don’t let it smoulder up there in the higher mind without some balancing ground work. Build channels into the soil. It can’t help you
“up there”. Or me. Tell ME what you know!
3/26/23 - Stirring the pot of energies that surround you
I had extreme dizziness when I entered the kitchen this morning. After reading an article about divine love and what that really reams, it confirmed what's going on with me. I wasn't sure. I am all alone in my transformation but this article hit home and validated what was happening for me.
See, I have been connecting with the sun for the past years. Connecting with the sun is connecting with light. Light means information. So when I connect with the sun I am downloading cosmic information into my body. However, I live with a man who doesn't know anything about this, so I am alone in handling it my way. If I were to tell him my uncomfortable feelings he would insist I go to the hospital where they would insist on giving me "something" that I don't want to take. I'm working on aligning my seven layers of consciousness. They are not in alignment. Drugs would cause worse misalignment.
So anyway, the article confirmed for me what was happening. I immediately started to REAFFIRM what I was doing and within 5 minutes my dizziness cleared up. It was my belief that was not strong enough. I had doubts. This is inner work. Inner work is sacred. It is totally private. I can't tell anyone what I am doing within myself because then they would express THEIR doubts, and they would influence my confidence in what I am doing on a supremely subjective level. Because we are all ONE. You are connected to me and I am connect to you but I don't want to hear what you are going through, because it is YOUR journey. It is YOUR sacred inner work that you are trying to develop into fuller awareness.
I have started a new mantra of bringing the light down from the sun. It uses visualization. I can share this part because it is generalized. The reader may be at the right place in consciousness to be able to read between the lines and interpret for him/herself, tap into it, pick up on it and carry it further. This is partially channeled information from the sun. There is a cosmic order in the universe and humanity is on a cusp, a threshold of learning something new. So new that it can easily be rejected as fantasy. But it is not a fantasy. It is a step into another dimension. and it is done with conscious awareness. Where you put your focus and STAY with your focus concentrated there for a period of time, even for one minute is a long time to hold focus on a new dimensional level that you've never held focus on before. (Only in flashes.)
Consciousness is our intelligent spirit. It is our individuality. We are each different from our neighbors. We have evolved on our own individual path to where we are today. What we are conscious of, we influence our bodies and minds with. Needless to say, don't focus on anything negative! When I focus on the sun I visualize the brilliant, dazzling sun at zenith in the sky overhead and hold that visualization in my mind's eye for a small period of time. The new higher light comes down through the crown of the head and into the brain. The part of the visual that is above the head is abstract, not yet in form. But when you hold the visual of the dazzling light there above the crown, as if it is sitting on top of the crown, even for the span of 60 seconds, you are inviting the light to enter down into the brain. When the light enters into the brain, it starts to move through the physical body. The longer you can hold that light on top of the head, the longer time it has to seep downward, coalesce or condense downward into the physical matter of the body and brain. The brain is an important part of the physical body structure. From the brain the light impulses descend further down through the nerves and other mechanisms of the human body. Everything is involved, blood, circulation, hormones, everything. But it starts with YOU, the resident intelligence, holding consciousness on the dazzling light of the sun above your head.
As for me, I had this information years ago, but no one to verify it for me from the human physical realm. I've been working with this information alone, except for my invisible guides. Guides come from higher dimensions. They are always available when you ask for it, or when you start using and believe in the light coming down from the greater expanses. The sun is a distributor of the light from source. It is how we all grow here on earth, from mineral, plant, animal to human. We look to the light for our life, for happiness, for knowledge and understanding. All suns are distributors of light from source. And even we humans have a sun growing in our hearts of SELF consciousness. We too are growing into suns. The process works through self consciousness. When you are conscious of the light and believe in the light coming down from higher realms, then it DOES come down into the brain. It becomes part of the body's physical structure and physical consciousness and mental understanding. Then it gets distributed through the nervous system, blood, hormones, all the other systems into the lower, heavier, denser regions of the body, down into the feet and the denser earth below our feet. We literally bring the light down into the earth and we help the earth and other bodies and forms that we live with during our daily incarnation. So I consciously bring the visualization of the sun down into my body through my belief system coupled with my concentration. It comes down through the crown of my head, down through my brain, and down into my body. But it does alter things in the body. It changes the body and we have to learn how to manage these changes. It speeds things up. The atomic structure speeds up.
So there is a second step. The second stop is to visualize the space between the atoms and electrons of my physical body. I am altering my physical body by bringing the information from the sun down into the SPACE BETWEEN THE ATOMS AND ELECTRONS of my physicality. Because I am the intelligence that lives in that space between the atoms and electrons. I am part of the cosmic order and intelligence. I am the harmony. I am the awareness of my physical form. I've been trapped here, thinking this form is all there is, but now I am awaking to the fact that I am the intelligent spirit behind this form. And I am bringing more light (more information) from source into my physical brain cells and body cells. The fact that the terrible dizziness started to go away when I did that this morning, was further evidence that it works. I have to align my inner space with the light. My physical body has become old and deteriorated. It was created out of finite material. I now am reconstructing it, realigning it with the light from source. I am the one doing this. I am doing this with my consciousness and my physical body starts straightening out for me. This is new information and new validlation. I am in the process of transforming my old body into a new light body. This takes time. It is a meshing process. You can't just snap your fingers and have it done instantly. You have to believe in this process.
Things are fast changing. I was not privy to this before. This is the time of revealing hidden information formerly known as occult, which merely means "hidden". It is not a secret. It was never a secret. It just was not understood and therefore not accepted by the mass population. Now there is an acceptance of formerly hidden knowledge. I am hearing about it. I am reading about it. I am having my own visions and downloads about it. I am integrating my physical body with this new knowledge. This body of light information. I am believing it. As I do, my dizziness and spaciness clears but I have to keep doing it. Dizziness or sick feelings are caused by misalignments. The body was built on old intel. Intel is changing. I am therefore changing. I must keep up with the changes in alignment. It is now a way of life for me. I am bringing the light of my new knowledge down into the concrete matter of my body. I am manifestation a new body. I am allowing the light to influence my old deteriorating physical body. The light is weaving back and forth a new network into my old network. It is meshing new and old together. It is blending what was and what is now coming in - newer understandings. It is like blending new spices to an old soup that has grown old and tasteless. It improves the flavor. It brings "oomph" to the taste. It adds spice, pleasure and enjoyment to the body's senses. It brings excitement. It brings enthusiastic responses of laughter and fun. It brings bliss sometimes, joy other times, rapture other times, creative projects other times. Upgrading the body physical is a work in process. We don't know where it will end up, but we are promised that it will end up happy for us.
It is a process of alignment. There are energies in us that we did not know were there. We just didn't know. And they are still there. By visualizing dazzling sunlight entering into the brain from above the head, new information comes in, too. It brings alignment. Spend time alone, quietly, visualzing a sun at the crown of your head. Visualize your brain and body as a root system in the earth. The sun is pouring down now into this tree of light and resurrecting the cells of the body. It is a newer, spacious understanding entering into the blood stream of my former finite body, built with clumsy understanding. The transformation takes place in the space BETWEEN the atoms and electrons and feeds into the physical nervous system. Say, "I AM the consciousness of this body and I dedicate this body to the higher will that I AM."
My consciousness is widening. I am allowing myself to accept this as fact. I am exerpeincing the ascension process. Ascension means lightening the heaviness of the former condition. I feel like a bird taking to the air. Perhaps not literally, but consciously feeling airy and light-hearted, joyful even. Peaceful. Contented. There is open sky ahead. There are possibilities and I am heading into it. I am no longer confined to former beliefs. At the same time I am merging my former beliefs with contentment, with peace and with love. Just as lovers do when they unite and hold each other and continue to hold their love together. So do I unite and merge with my former self. In that way I expand my former self and alleviate the misalignments of dizziness, feeling out of sorts, off kilter and feeling poorly, not well, as if there is something wrong. Those feelings disappear as I breathe the light from the sun into my brain and body, visualizing that I am stepping into the space between the atoms and electrons of my physicality.
Readers may not have the years of training I’ve had but you can create your own phrases from words that make you smile and say AhHA! Use your own words to create a mantra, a repetitive phrase that you say out loud, 10 or 15 times at a sitting. The sound of the words will ‘ping’ and ‘resonate’ on your physical body cells and ‘shake’ them up, loosen them from their rusty old hinges. It's like shaking loose an old stuck door after years of no change, no action. Break them loose with words of encouragement.
3/23/23 - About the dark intelligences, who are they?
(From a journal 7/10/20, I just found this today, and decided to share it.)
Just as light forces have infiltrated every field of endeavor of this dark-infested planet, so have light souls infiltrated the sex field to bring healthy loving change to the human race who, unknowingly, have been led into a distorted program to be slaves to the elite cabalists who are human in appearance but are run by dark ET intelligence forces. How did this happen you ask? [I was channeling but didn't recognize it at the time.] The dark ETs are intelligences, not physical. They can manipulate physicals to do their bidding. It’s fun and games for them. They are the dark gods of the universe (little g) and the light gods of the universe (little g) are fighting for the freedom of the immature races who don’t know any better, using the big God’s laws of harmony, abundance, freedom, love and good will. The dark gods are the fallen angels spoken of in the scriptures. The light gods are the ascendeds and beings from far regions of space. We term them “galactics” who are also not physical, being high intelligences. There are many levels of physicality, many different forms in the universe. Physicality is a descending of vibration, a cohesion of closer-knitted atoms. Similar vibrating atoms are attracted to each other and gather into groups. Higher intelligences direct them with a mental blueprint, as such. The formation of physical organisms is divinely directed. It is a science built on divine understanding of cosmic laws of cohesion through attunement. It is done in harmony, through peaceful, natural attunement. There are countless levels of physicality. The light is intelligence coupled with balance between all the powers, and the greatest of these is love. The light intelligences is chasing down the dark intelligences because dark intel has rejected love and God’s laws requiring balance.
The dark intelligences use and abuse the immature physicals who don’t know any better. Earth is such an immature world. It was originally a garden of great beauty and refinement. It was etheric in the beginning but it was invaded by dark intelligence forces, without love or empathy. A long complex history evolved that requires much background information to understand what happened. The bottom line is God the Father-mother gives everyone a chance to redeem itself. We, the light intelligences, are infiltrated into the dark-infested planets by being born among them. Light souls are being born into dark cabal families on Earth. The light forces are you and me who are drawn to love mankind and womankind. We care for each other. We do not have an inclination to hurt people or torture or manipulate or kill people. We are among those who are being born here to cultivate and grow the human race, the human bodies, the human garden of paradise from within the physical environment.
The dark intelligences are aware that we are here and they attack whenever they can. Most of us are of higher vibration and cannot be damaged, unless we let our vibrations fall down into lower realities. Then we can be hurt. The dark intelligences are aware but they have been unable to stop the infiltration of light souls because the light souls are protected and surrounded by higher light forces. We are therefore more powerful than the dark-infested humans who have not yet learned how to align with the light. Instructions must be accepted. Instructions on the light are available, but they are not seen until a soul is ready to receive. Then such souls are drawn to discover light instructions, often called metaphysical instructions or mystery school instructions. The light is unified. All the powers of the universe are unified in orderly fashion. That is the nutshell of how to do it: use love and harmony.
Intelligence is everywhere. Intelligence is Father God. Love is Mother God. Intelligence can reject love and does. That makes it inferior to the light forces, except that free will is given to ALL life, which allows dark to exist. It is a choice to align with dark and negative forces such as greed and selfishness which does not have empathy for other life forms. Light has love and the dark does not. That makes the dark a cutting edge intelligence who can go against the laws of God but only to a certain extent. Like a rebellious teenager can join a gang of thieves and do violence, rape and murder until the system steps in and ends it. So does the greater cosmic law have greater forces on its side and is more powerful, love being the greatest power because it is the element that binds all life together. Love is the Mother force.
Love heals by not interfering but by giving free will choice to everyone. When it is time for a dark soul to return to Mother Father God, it is forgiven and embraced. The only punishment is the dark soul’s own facing of its own deeds, for it is responsible for everything it has ever done. Life is a playing out of free will and also a responsibility to own every act, thought and feeling it sent out. That is the great learning. Each spirit spark has free will to choose what it wants to do next, but the realization that it must pay for everything it does, has not dawned upon it yet. It must learn this through trial and error. It feels free to play out its fun life the way it wants to, but it is responsible for the damage it causes others. Whatever impact it has on others will return to him so he too experiences what he caused others. Good comes back as good, negative comes back as negative. Whatever his actions, thoughts and feelings caused to others returns back to the sender, and often many times over because on its return journey it picks up similar energies to build a greater mass. So when the backlash comes it often has a more powerful kick than the original act done, seemingly, in fun. The dark is on its way to realizing that.
The dark is dark because it rejects that concept. It does not believe it so it is limited in how far it can evolve. But it can cause mayhem in the lower stages of life and basically it can infest and takeover whole worlds which is what happened to Earth. That is why the light forces, the Galactic Federation and other federations of light, are here, to countermand the dark intelligences. The light must stay within the boundaries of cosmic law – the Star Trek’s Prime Directive – so it must work within certain parameters. The goal is to get rid of the dark-infested intelligences that have held humanity in lock-down to physical, without allowing the soul to gain access to love, light, truth, other dimensional powers, which humanity does have, but under programmed manipulation humanity does not know the powers it has locked up within its own muscles, tissues, blood and bones as a species.
Humanity is an amazing species but it has been held back. The light forces are here to help humanity get back on course of growing its amazing properties WITHIN each body into full-bloom physical expression, to bring about an actual garden of love, light, joy, pleasure and freedom of expression and creation. Today we TALK noble words like justice, truth, peace, love, freedom, wisdom, faith, purity, will, enlightenment, but we do not live them. When the dark intelligences who have been ruling the planet are removed, these qualities will no longer need to be spoken and written in poetry and scripture for they will be lived daily, hourly, moment by moment. The original garden of paradise will return as all who are different on the outside - skin color, language, culture and history – are honored, elevated, appreciated and held in high esteem. Where there will be no more a higher or lower people, or a better or worse people, or a left-leaning or right-leaning people. There will be freedom of expression to be WHO YOU ARE. There is acceptance by all, because all are recognized as a child of the Light and Love within. They have all chosen to live in alignment with that which is in their own heart and soul, which makes them equal to all life no matter WHAT THEY LOOK LIKE OR ACT LIKE!
3/22/23 - There is a science of love
There is a science of love. It comes down from above and enters into the human body but it follows pathways that are not linear or physical. Love involves higher qualities and higher values. Principles, not mental thoughts, but mental thought activates the principles. If held long enough in the consciousness love is invited through higher thought, words, actions and intentions. Love flows along with the use of kindness, givingness, affectionate touch along with a moral and ethical foundation. Love can be enduced by the use of colors, prayers and visualizations, not in a mechanical way, but in a spontaneous way. It must come from intentional will power and choice. A person begins to open to love by turning thoughts in an upward direction, consciously. Because mankind has been brought low and blocked off by negative thinking, erroneous actions and beliefs which have colored him dark, it has shut down the flow of love. Our culture today is mechanical with finite laws and strict rules and punishment which diminish the flow of love - the flow of life itself which keeps us healthy and young. No wonder we grow old, diseased and die!
We must learn how to draw on love from within and cultivate it as we would a garden of vegetables, fruit or flowers. Life is constantly flowing as a river of life into the body but the body is constantly shutting it down because of the rules. We are obliged to follow rules. Society demands we follow the rules but there is a way to break through the ceiling and become liberated.
Love is flowing IN but not out. We are blocking it. We need to find ways to let it flow OUT. We need to find ways to break the blocks that hold us back from feeling love and freedom because they are flowing in. Love and life are constantly flowing into us as a river of life. Tantra teaches this. Currently, we are in a state of need. We must find ways to live this spontaneous love and light OUT into our daily affairs. Most people have experienced those unguarded moments when the heart opened and love flowed along with tears. We don’t reveal this love because it is too intimate, too private, too vulnerable, too sensitive, too tender, too innocent. And feeling like a child that needs protecting, we move to stop it. We think we are defending ourself from the cruelties of the outer world, but we are holding back the very love that will transform our life. We must find ways to release this love to others who will reciprocate in kind and build on it. Others are hungry to receive love. We need to start somewhere, and that somewhere is with people who resonate with these words.
3/19/23 - The Mother Light in the tailbone
Your mother is in the earth, your mother light. Mother is in the earth, father is in the sky. Our brain waves take us into multiple dimensions where we think we are out of body, but we are still in the body, just on higher frequencies. There is another reality in these higher dimensions but it is all taking place “here and now”. There is no “other” place. Higher dimensions are not “in the sky” but we who are rooted in the physical dimension, because we inhabit a body with 5 senses, live in duality where there is space between physical bodies. The etheric body is in a different reality. It is the akashic, where all records and memories are kept of your past lives, the good, the bad and the holy. Although the holy returns to the Holy, leaving the duality experiences in your etheric body, or etheric double which surrounds you and which keeps seeping through into your life because you have to resolve them, you use your innate wisdom to teach you and take you through the dissolution of the unpleasant in you.
The emotional body is another reality. You work with your feelings, sensations, good and bad, and you play with others also working and playing in emotions and feelings. The mental body the same. It is another reality world, a world of thought which contains low thoughts on the lower levels, higher thoughts on the higher levels and exquisite thoughts on the exquisite upper levels that take us into the mystical and sublime, which is the light body known as the Christ body. Bring father light and mother light together in the heart. Sex keeps them apart. Sex siphons the mother light off to feel good and have orgasms. Your consciousness is the key to bringing father light and mother light together in the heart. Conscious breathwork as I am doing now is bringing the mother light up to the heart. Today I had a most wonderful experience feeling that. Unconscious breathing is barely keeping the body alive, but conscious breathing exercises quickens your mother light and awakens her, brings her up into the body. She is the divine mother of you that is embedded in the earth. She is part of the dullness and sleepiness of mother Gaia. Quicken her, wake her up through your own breathing technique and through your OWN mother light, and Gaia wakes up too. As you do this, you remove some of the heaviness that has kept the planet in low vibrations. (Partial of DK's online book, see 7/23/19)
3/16/23 - The desire to give - stop trying
I’ve met some amazingly loving people recently who are frustrated because they want to give so badly so deeply that their hearts are on the verge of breaking because it all seems so futile, lost. They are trying to figure it out. But it can’t be figured out from the level of mind. It has to be a surrender to the higher self. I have been tracking the divine feminine for this reason. It is taking me to a higher level, yet I am still on the lower level too. I have learned that we must merge divine love with the human level. The human level is the result of worldly programming but the divine level is within us too. It’s within our consciousness. My path in this life has taken me deeper into this divine level than any life prior, and I've had quite a few prior lives. I am now breaking new ground and having entirely new experiences which I've never had before. This is a new experience for me - to let go of my dreams of helping people. There is a higher level to love, it can’t be figured out by the ego, by mental effort. One must give up trying to figure it out and stop projecting the need to help outward. Only by stop wanting and trying, yearning for what you don't have, can you stop the hurt, the pain of heartbreak and struggle. This is a next-step teaching for humanity. Give up the struggle for what you don't have. Surrender to the love and peace within. It is there on a higher level.
Recently I had communication with my higher self in which my thoughts were directed to the warmth and goodness of love. I was told the word "Feminine" and I felt the echoes and essence of women down through the ages since the beginning. I felt the essence of women, not their outer human shells which struggled through life, but the soft resilient intelligent tender femininity at the heart of each woman or girl child who ever lived. Warm femininity swirled around me. I touched it as I would touch a raw warm human organ with my fingers, liquid and pulsing with life. I felt its soul enter me. I felt feminine and sensual. I felt the love and joy and nurturing that each of these women brought to the planet, whether they were fulfilled or died in pain. It didn't matter because they brought with them a living potential of love that they left here as a gift to the earth, and it's still here.
I said to myself softly, "Love." I felt love and femininity as one, including the feminine side of men. Love is reconnecting to the soul. It's the inner warmth that is accomplished by turning within to stoke the fires of one's own hearth (heart). After having thrust outward in competition and aggression and driven by ambition, love as good intention is the returning home. Love begins at home for oneself. The turning within to the heart is the female in us who wants to nest and wrap ourselves in a warm and cozy cocoon, in a sense of completion and a work well done and completed. Love is the one gift that we can give to ourselves that does not require anyone else. It is the hour of meditation and prayer in solitude, inward directed devotion and praise for the highest in us. We can feel love even if we are alone, homeless and stricken with cancer. Love is a choice to return to the heart to elevate our very own self, our higher self, to appreciate ourself and say, "I love you." There is a strange and wonderful power that comes forth at this time that soothes and calms the outer storm. It goes beyond logic. Loving oneself does not deny the world, the death, sickness, poverty and emotional pain. Rather it fulfills them. It includes them and puts them all to rest within the heart. Comforting it to completion. There is no exception. There is nothing bad enough that can't be loved and put to rest in the human heart. Love is unconditional.
This was my vision not too long ago. I am hearing a song by Nicholas John, one of my favorites: "Oh, my darlings! You were never out of place! You belong to eternity. What you are is amazing grace!” CLICK HERE TO LISTEN. You are here in this body enclosed in a cocoon, a little child protected against the powers that are locked within you, until the day you break the seal of your heart. When that day comes it will bring this power forward into your conscious mind to be worked with. This power is a consciousness expansion. You are not being given this power to save anyone else but to work this realization into your own life. You must empower yourself first. If you try to give to others before you are ready it will only bring frustration to you and to those others. You must come to empower yourself first by turning your outer consciousness inward and strengthening your heart center before attempting to help others.
It is an egotistical effort, a small and petty effort that is self-serving, to try to help others before you have grown yourself to full strength, maturity and wisdom. Turn around and go back in/within where there is refinement, grace, peace and comfort and build into that inner peace and knowledge so that you will grow strong and begin to overflow it outward to others. This is the new 5D teaching. We must learn it intellectually and then feel the peace and love within. Love is eager to move through you. You do not have to work at it and you should not, but wait until love moves within you. This does not take long if you do your homework. It takes a disciplined morning practice to weave yourself inward, ever inward, ever upward, for this is the evolutionary force that you are administering to yourself, to your body, mind and emotions. When you get started on that, you will find amazing progress at hand. Then you will feel first a sense of peace at home. The self love is growing and strengthening. You will fall into alignment with that amazing grace without effort.
Love is infinite but it is held back until one builds it first-hand and practices it at home. I have been practicing it. I have withdrawn my efforts to help others outwardly, and am instead focusing on building the deeper understanding. It is an effort to discipline oneself, but one must apply the higher unconditional love to oneself first. This is the home study course. They say it takes a guru, but the guru may be invisible. I had an invisible guru who came to me to teach me. Higher love will expand upward and call forth the teacher who can guide you. Who will listen to your questions and respond from the higher regions of thought. The higher impulses of self calls for the higher guru. Then love radiates from your heart and brings to you those who will attract from you that which THEY need, not what you think they need. You cannot fail to attract those who are ready to be close to you. The sea of conscious love is infinite and eternal, and out of mercy it is kept beyond reach until you are ready to drop your selfish ego pride which in itself is needy. When you have made strides in this direction, then you will break the seal of your heart and feel the love start to blossom. Conscious love is everywhere.
Then grace, love and peace will move to the forefront of your consciousness. You are aware and you love all things. Even the dark so-called evil ones will be affected by your loving presence because you are this amazing being and you are idiotically happy and unreasonably buoyant. You are uplifting, excited and illogically positive while others around you are in trouble. God-intoxicated, some might call it. What accounts for this idiocy? You who do the inner work every day will understand as you continue to prune back the undesirable. Not repress. No! But allow it into your transformation and it will melt away. You as a human being can’t do this with your little mind because it does not know how. It is enclosed inside a brain, a skull, a head. Instead, merge with the happiness, love, joy that is locked up inside you. Do this any way you can, without analyzing, without logic, without reason, without human ego, without mental effort. Step off the cliff into mid-air, into the arms of joy. This is a metaphor. Jump off the cliff because if you cling to the cliff you cling to logic and the ways of the world that demands reason. You will never get there with reason and logic.
The little seed in the ground bursts its outer casing and is seen above ground when it finally germinates a little sprout. You do too. You must surrender to the power of the joy within you. It is happiness and unfounded reason that sprouts and expands within you. You can’t do it with logic. Give up trying. Stop trying. Trying holds everyone back from the joy of love. You can’t be free as long as you are continuing to try to accomplish something of your own making. Surrender to the flow of the living light, the waters of spontaneous joy. This is the story of opening to the evolutionary force within. It is not of your own mental making. It is the power of infinity. It is taking you up on a wave, lifting you up higher on the top of a wave that is being sent to you out of love, because you are ready. Because the ego in you is letting go and jumping off the cliff, metaphorically speaking. The you that is letting go thus blends with the cosmic order of harmony and unity. The merge takes place. Whenever you as a human being “try” to do something, you are trying to be something smaller, lesser and more confined inside the nutshell.
You are a part of the sea of life that is eternal and immortal. As long as you remain separate from that you must continue to die and be reborn as separate, until comes this day that you break the cosmic seal and you pop out of that field of separation back into unity with love. You are love and you come from love. Love is the sea of consciousness trapped inside of your form. Stop trying is the first step. Work on not trying.
3/11/23 - Becoming whole-brained, access your etheric body
An interesting new idea was given to me several years ago by the Ascended Master DK, but I totally missed it at the time. I ran across it again the other day and it clicked this time. I was ready to hear it. For years I have been operating under the belief that I am too feminine, and that I had been functioning out of my RIGHT brain. I suddenly realized that this is not true. A friend had told me as much, saying that I hadn't activated my left brain, so I began calling to activate my left brain at that time. And it was true. I was not a logical thinker. Ever since I went into the light in an out-of-body experience. So I have been activating my left brain, and I DID notice a difference. I picked up more vitality and more abilities that I had not had before. I did not give in so much to feeling easy, seeking body comfort and body pleasure. But it also caused me other problems that I never had before. Like being more stressed out than I used to be.
Well, I did ask for it. And it was a good experience to feel what it is like to be less feminine and more pro-active by activating my male side. I felt more constructive and as if I was earning my way more in the world and not being so passive. There is a certain amount of satisfaction that comes from that. But what happened to my cool? My peace? My calm? My loving nature? Do I really have to suffer the stress and tension in order to be more left-brain oriented? Does that have to be the price I pay? Then I ran across the message from DK of several years ago. He said, "Don't just activate your left brain, activate your WHOLE brain."
I have been doing that. I am learning. The heavens are re-opening for me. I am regaining my ability to feel the heavenly love and peace again. The right brain is connected to Home, the stars, the celestial peace of harmony, love and light - that is the highest yearning of every heart. The right brain is designed to tune into the harmony of the universal creator. It has been called the "feminine" side. It is the passive side of us. It harmonizes situations that have become unbalanced. It is humble, considerate, kind, just, honest and provides space, allows for everyone to be simply who they are without pressure.
The left brain is the other side of human nature. It is focused. It concentrates. It puts up boundaries and limits on just about everything. It provides the ability to think, form thoughts, conclusions, languages, string formulas together, make music, form patterns, designs, mathematics, bridges and buildings, invent machines. It has the ability to take the universal stream of ideas and build a solid world of form, so we can live and enjoy ourselves in increasingly more efficient and beautiful ways. However, the left brain shuts out the right brain and the cosmic connection in order to get the job done. It has no time for love or celestial ecstasies. He leaves that to the women.
The insidiousness of this (for me) is this. I was TOLD I was feminine, and I therefore fit myself into the energy pattern of the subservient female, as women have done before me. Weak and in need of male help to get by in the world. I should remain soft, warm, loving and take care of the house, children and husband. It is a way of life that I fell into without thinking or knowing what I was doing. From the time I was old enough to think for myself and form conclusions, it was too late. I was female. Men have the same thing happen to them. They begin following the male programming early in their life. They are prepared to be responsible, hold down a job, be the protector of women and children, and man-up to the hardships of life.
Yesterday as I was re-read the old journal from DK, a new awareness clicked in. I thought I was usingmy right brain but I haven't been using my right brain at all. Not at all. Maybe in the beginning, when I first went into the light during my OBE I did, but thereafter I began changing. I've been using my left brain all along. I've been concentrating, analyzing and trying too hard to be something that I'm not naturally. I've been trying to fit in. It is not my nature to be left-brained but I tried to be. It is not natural to me. I have been working at something that is not natural to me. I've been trying and getting nowhere. I've just been busy. Busy trying. I have not been utilizing the right side of my brain at all for I have not felt very natural. The peace and harmony has been missing, even though I've "tried" to find it as all of the outside advisors tell me I should do. "Try!" I am told. And in the processing of trying, I have been using my left brain, the analyzing, concentrating, logical side of my nature, not my cosmic peaceful side.
I don't know if the reader can catch the drift and meaning of this, but I am a perfect example of perhaps most people in the current generation. We're all trying too hard to be something that is not natural to us. The right brain is tuned into our higher self, who we are BY NATURE. Our natural homing device is the right brain. It was the male paradigm culture that challenged me to be more logical, more "with it", more worldly, more part of the Matrix. And I tried. It caused me to become most unnatural and unbalanced, but I DID try! And I experienced what it's like to be male-oriented. I allowed myself to be caught up in the insidious Matrix. I thought I was feminine but it was all a false belief. It was a lie. I am not feminine at all. I am simply me. Now can I go back to being me?
Beware what you THINK you are doing. You are probably not. If you activate your right brain, you'll become more at peace with yourself. The "you" that is natural is a balanced "you". Try balancing yourself by activating your WHOLE brain. It requires stepping down and back and resting periodically throughout the day to let your blood and nervous system flow back into harmony again. The universe is an orderly universe because there is balance in all things. The planets stay in their orbit and human beings are evolving to become more in harmony with the universal plan of peace, love, harmony and order.
It is a loving universe when one is at rest. And yet we are meant to be active too. That's why we have a left brain AND a right brain. We can be mightily active and creative on a genius level, but 50% of the time we need to allow our unbalanced half to withdraw and rest. Truly rest, not just party with the guys and gals, but rest. Withdraw to regenerate. That is the whole point of meditation. It is a method of withdrawing into the celestial realms of pace, love and light to regenerate, reharmonize, rebalance ourselves. Then we can become the genius again next day. The right side of our brain is naturally in tune with our higher self. It is an open channel to where we came from originally - from a Home among the celestial stars.
Activate your right brain. This is a special hint to men. Activate your right brain and see if it doesn't bring you a little more calm in your life, a little more peace, a little more welcome rest from the tension and confusion. All you have to do is say throughout the day, silently to yourself: 'Right brain activate!" Use it as a mantra, a chant that becomes embedded into your brain. Or, according to your own sense of rightness, use the words: "Whole brain activate!" It is where you put your attention that turns the right brain on, or the whole brain. It is always your consciousness, for "you" are the power behind the physical body mechanism. It is where you put your awareness that turns the key in the lock and opens the door. The secret is consciousness.
Becoming whole brained leads naturally and automatically into contact with our etheric body. The etheric body is the space between the swirling atoms and electrons that make up our physical body. The space between the electrons is where thought and perception gathers before coalescing into physical nerves, blood and tissue that forms our physical body. The etheric body is the auric field that surrounds us, that Kirlian photography has captured on special film. Thought, feeling and perception gathers in our field around us before sinking down and coalescing into form and substance of our body. Once thoughts, perceptions and emotions become physical we "own" them. They become manifest and it's too late to back out of it. At least it is difficult to back out of it once these thoughts and feelings have become form and substance, with errors built into them, such as anger or wrong thinking, wrong feeling, wrong concepts and attitudes. Imagine stepping out of the physical body into the field of your etheric body and breathe freer there. Give yourself a few minutes now and then to lighten yourself up and step outside your physical. Experience your larger self, your etheric body self.
As we practice being whole-brained, being balanced equally left and right working together as one functioning brain, the body will lose its tendency to work so hard and create stress. We will become more relaxed, more restful, more prone to harmony. Let the world get on without you. Close the door to the outer world and retreat into the right brain or the whole brain. You decide. It is a self-exploration. Only you can take this step into cosmic love, light and harmony. It is a natural gift from the creator of life.
Then the etheric body will not be so quick to feed anger, fear or stress into the nerve, blood and tissues of the physical body. This is what throws our bodies into confusion. The balanced body is a balanced body, no matter what gender it is. We can be female or male, but when we are functioning with a whole brain, we then have the ability to focus, concentrate, be pro-active and constructive, and at the same time, relaxed and operating in harmony with others around us, for we are connected. We are part of the whole and will be aware when someone is NOT balanced. We will be more aware of how to respond and interact with them. We will be better able to be responsive in benevolent ways, guided to do our constructive best with all concerned, enhancing the community in which we live.
3/8/23 - The Lovers' Archetype
There's a wonderful message on "Today's Updates" page by Saint Germain. This is exactly what Anakosha is trying to bring about with its new love community (posted yesterday). One by one, the green lights are flashing on as I travel down the highway of life letting me pass on through. Every day I am getting another validation that dovetails with the dream project that I once called "The Love Club". I've been writing about for so long - been frustrated for so long, being unable to get it started. But it just wasn't time. I wasn't ready and others weren't ready. The world is changing however, and speeding up, raising its consciousness, raising its head, raising its values and self esteem. There is love in the air. I love that Saint Germain gave us this message through Jennier Crokaert several days ago. Be sure to read it. It is amazing. Click HERE.
Another validation received this morning that we are on course to greater Love, greater Peace, greater Togetherness in harmony. From the book, "The Brotherhood of Angels and of Men" by Geoffrey Hodson, circa 1927:
"Can you conceive an eagerness to work so great that even our bodies seem near to breaking under its power, yet an eagerness combined with patience that can wait a thousand years? To that sublime patience you must attain, for within the quality of patience are enclosed a multitude of virtues: strength to control, power to restrain, vision of the Plan, knowledge of the real, detachment from results and co-ordination of the will, the mind, the body, so that when the time comes they act as one. Patience of this kind does not extinguish the fire of eagerness to serve, rather does it glow ever more fiercely within the compression exercised by will and mind. When at last the order comes, when, after the passing of an age, the day arrives when the restraints are to be released, then it is that the power stored up for so long flashes forth through us. We become the catapults of God.
"Now that day has come; stored-up energies, resulting from the power of the great ideal, have been released into your world. Fear not for the result; the end is sure. Not for nought have your Hierarchy and ours planned, from time beyond your power to count, ever waiting for the arrival of the day; so I say the end is sure. Still they plan, for ages yet unborn, great schemes, embodying the divine Will; in detail, too, down to the angels and the men they choose. What, then, are we but incidents, straws, blown by the breath of God (?) except that within those straws the self-same breath is found, so that breath answers to breath, and His Will is done.
"Remember always that the ultimate source of power is in the idea, the power we use in manifested worlds is but the force emanating from and the reflection of the divine Idea. If this be true, then no delay can reduce its potency, nor any circumstance prevent its ultimate expression. Upon this knowledge should patience be based."
3/7/23 - Calling all lightworkers and mystics
Calling all lightworkers, spiritual students, mystics, visionaries, dreamers, galactic starseeds and other celestials masquerading as humans – welcome to my world! This is a shift in direction. Anyone who is drawn to these words are invited - will be invited when it is time - to a future gathering at my house, date and time to be announced. The purpose of the gathering is to open the door to our higher self, our higher heart, the higher and more refined nature waiting within for release. Our higher self connection resides in our hearts, not our brains. Our brains are unaccustomed to speaking from the heart so we are going to have to learn new skills and new words. That is the reason for the gathering. I have been advised to go ahead and begin issuing the call. The call is done by making it a public call. I can blog it now. It has been a long time in coming.
At this gathering to come, we will practice communicating intelligently in words from our higher self, our higher, wiser, more divine self, who is far more knowledgeable and authentically real. We each know this but we haven't had it confirmed before now. We know who we are on deeper levels, subconscious levels. Each of us has a background of prior lives where we have gained experience, skills, knowledge and wisdom in how to maneuver the human body experience. We come from higher planes but we have been blocked out from knowing that. Now is the time to start sharing what we know. It has been culturally unacceptable until now. This gathering will require that we trust each other and be upward-focused. In other words, positive in our thinking. This will bring about our sweeter natures that are more vulnerable and innocent. The heart is all of these things: wise, non-judgmental, truthful, ethical, discerning, loving, sensitive - and powerful but never pushy. Never, ever pushy. That is why we tread lightly here. We walk in the light and love of the one infinite creator. We do not accept pushy, judgmental, opinionated souls who are not ready to open the heart.
While it is true that we all have opinions, they are third dimensional opinions, formed from third-dimensional laws on the books. This gathering is a calling to those who are ready to reach higher. I am calling for the mystic and the visionary and the student of the heart that is open or ready to open - ready for more. The calling is for those who are willing to participate in speaking the finer natures that yearn to be said, to be free. Communities have already been forming. This is the beginning of a new local heart-centered community. It is yet to come into existence. It is an invitation to learn what higher self means. It is an invitation to go beyond what is already known by the brain. The heart knows more than the brain. It is connected to the higher self and the higher plan. This is an invitation to learn how to trust and how to hold hands despite differences, no matter on what level those differences appear to be. Some can be really crude and harsh. But if the divine thread is there, then we are to find it and support it, and nurture it in others, because that is how we nurture it in ourselves. It is how we access our higher natures. We must assist others who are having difficulty expressing their higher natures, just as we are, and then we will be assisted too. It is a "coming together" in more ways than one.
We will be practicing how it feels to be non-judgmental. Most of all, we will learn how to trust ourselves and what we have always felt but could never speak or tell someone out loud. Our higher nature has been curtailed. In this new community gathering others will support us in return as we support them. There are higher forces at work. More than we know or can understand. Only as we practice and experience this for ourselves, can the light turn up a notch so we can see and feel the difference. This is a gathering to support the process of ascension. It is the evolution from animal man to spiritual man. The spiritual man will learn to live in grace, unified with his brothers and sisters. The use of the term "he" automatically implies "she". They will be more refined, more honest, more decent, more loving, more nourishing, more fulfilled, more peaceful, more comfortable, more powerful, more passionate, more kind, more pure, more whole and therefore more holy.
This started out as an invitation to a small gathering in my home but as I began writing, I see that my initial thought was only the beginning of a much larger project. The Master DK has taken over! It is pre-mature to set a date. The place of the meeting will be in our home in the outskirts of Naples when the time comes, and the purpose is to open the door to the fifth dimension. At least in the beginning stages, for there is much in the way of sharing information that must be done first. We will be sharing from the bosom of the vulnerable heart, the beautiful soul of the higher individual. It will be in a round-robin discussion. There will be no teacher, only a hostess and two co-facilitators. We are all students, no teachers. We are all seekers. All fingers on one hand. All brain cells activating in one brain. All heart cells in one heart. We are non-judgmental, we are listeners, we are observers, we are unifiers and harmonizers. We are positive thinkers. We are active and outgoing sometimes and quiet and passive other times. We are oriented to receiving more light from higher regions. Light from higher regions means information from higher regions. We are open to hearing more information from the higher nature of both ourselves and from others who are present with us.
Our purpose is to explore, learn, discover and practice speaking from our tender, vulnerable, more sensitive higher selves. There are no words for them. They must be felt as we speak them. We encode our words with our feelings. They are our inner-most thoughts that have not been accepted by the traditional world. We are opening doors to beyond the established traditions of the world, and we are feeling courageous and bold to do so. Will we be rejected? We are being supported and we are feeling urges to dare to say these words, these feelings. We have been afraid of rocking the boat so we have been wisely staying quiet. But now the time has come that we are openly seeking support from like-hearted friends. We are mostly female but we are of both genders, so there will be a few men among us at first. Men are welcome if they are capturing the meaning of the words.
Each meeting will start with silence. We will enter into the heart center through silence. Silence is the supreme number one method that we need here today. Meditation without anyone to guide us. No words, no electronic devices, so that each one of us may enter our own silent heart all by ourself. There is no leader. The higher self is our only guide. I as the hostess and gatherer will invite you into the silence but you will enter alone. I am being guided - instructed is the better word - by the Brotherhood of Light, the Ascended Masters. In the silence we are the small ego entering the holy of holies, the secret chamber of the heart. Feel the sacred ambiance of this chamber. We are the smallness surrendering to the highest in us. We are the lowest possible point within our own God/Goddess self which exists beyond the world of form, beyond the myriad stars and galaxies. And each of us has the only key to unlock the door.
After we return from our silence in the secret chamber of the heart, we will have an honoring ceremony, and then an introduction round-robin. Each person present can say as little or as much as they want (within reason!) about who they are. Perhaps a cue card will help with prompt questions. Then we will evolve into discussion with two people acting as moderators.
I am being guided by the Master Djwal Khul who is a member of the Brotherhood of Light or, as it was called in earlier days, the Great White Brotherhood. It is also referred to as the Spiritual Hierarchy. There are many names for those who have mastered the form world as we know it. These great ones have all been where we are today at one time, and they have mastered its limitations and graduated. We are connected to these higher masters through our hearts. This gathering is a way for the masters to guide us through the next stages. This is why we are here - to learn more. This knowledge has been kept from us. Our higher self is a light within the heart. Our life is a conscious light but we didn't know that. We are being now exposed to the consciousness within our heart. It is the eternal living flame which keeps our bodies alive. There is so much to learn!
This knowledge will prolong our life on earth and raise it to the higher planes of love, abundance and happinness. It will bring us back into balance so we are not so stressed out living in pain and struggle for understanding. Those who are called ascended masters live in higher realms called higher dimensions. These dimensions are more refined, not so dense and concrete as we experience here. But they are able to zoom in on anyone who calls for help because we are a thread of life connected to all of life through the flame in our hearts. We will learn more as we open our hearts and access that flame through the process of sharing information. We did not understand. Our closed hearts were kept closed by the laws of former periods in our dark history. We were not free to express ourselves or our creativity or our free and enthusiastic loving nature.
We have been watched over through the dark periods of our history when mankind was in danger of destroying itself. We were guided as best we could be guided, but humanity was so closed down it just was out of reach. Still the ascended masters were there to help. They could see when a heart tried to open and called to God for help. There are bursts of sunlight when a call such as that appears. Shimmers of sunlight appear in the concrete exterior of a human body. There is no space or time in the universal oneness. The light reaches out and is heard throughout the lighted realms. Once, in the early days of my awakening when I was experiencing many odd things, I experienced an emergency rescue by an unknown source. Being ultra-sensitive to the outer environment, it was while I was in the car with my husband driving to downtown San Jose, when a huge semi-trailer truck came thundering past us blowing this incredible horn. I screamed, apparently in my etheric body because my husband didn't hear me, and I found myself sliding down the curvature of the earth into the blackness of space. Yes, you heard right - I was rolling down the curvature of this dark planet, solid black, into the even darker void of space - and suddenly someone or something grabbed me by the scruff of the neck and brought me back to the seat in the car with my husband driving. He didn't know what happened. I asked him. I was terribly shaken for a long time after. But how? Who did this? It has been forever registered on my brain. I will never forget it.
The universe operates in a harmony and order. We will ourselves know this once we are no longer confined in a concrete physical body. We are being watched over. Now all we have to do is learn how to respond. The universe is well organized and we are part of if. We will learn more soon. The earth has been a very difficult school but we have only been born here by the free will act of volunteering. Yes! We volunteered. That's what they say.
3/6/23 - Solar flare emissions cause dizziness - what to do
The following article was taken from a channeling 25 years ago, but it is so very relevant today. I love the concept of creating a buddy system to share feelings and awareness. Perhaps that is the next thing to do. I myself have been experiencing extreme changes in mood, both good and bad, distortions, out-of-body feelings, and flashes of cosmic clarity in-between. What a wild ride these ascension symptoms!
(Channeled:) When you identified with energies long ago that were not the same as your soul purpose, it pulled you out of alignment. The increase in light transmissions now are pulling you back to your soul purpose. The effect is a shifting in your mind causing some discomfort and dizziness. You are losing your separation consciousness in this time, which is the tendency to withdraw and turn inward. The new energy will not let you go into separation any more. Create a buddy system to talk about your awareness with.
Connecting with another person helps transmute the energy of separation that is being dislodged. During solar flares there will be depressions, sadness, loss of hope as the separation energy begins to float free. The sun is God-Love. During solar emissions, the first emissions are x-ray emanations from coronal mass ejections. Sensitive people will feel them in seconds but they go fast and don't impact your magnetosphere [the region surrounding the earth]. What comes next DOES impact. The actual magnetic plasma wave takes 48-72 hours to reach earth and it compresses and distorts the earth's electromagnetic field, and also the EM fields of all creatures including human. People will feel grief, anxiety, sadness, depression, not being yourself. This will pass in 90 days but during this time, reach out in a buddy system and share your feelings. The last emissions are M-class emissions (severe) and X-class emissions (very severe, like 10 on the Richter scale). When you hear NASA speak of X-class emissions coming from the sun, hang onto your hats and buckle your seat belts.
The solar emissions impacting earth is like squeezing a balloon and watching the balloon become distorted. So do the energies inside your EM fields. The physical body will also feel unbalanced, causing aches, pains, dizziness, falls and freak accidents. What you can do to stay balanced during solar maximum cycles - reach out in a buddy system and share your feelings. They will pass. Meanwhile, expose your body and consciousness to the light as much as you can to absorb what is being transmitted. There will be incredible sunsets. Use magnets taped to your skin and other grounding devices like copper bracelets and necklaces. Wear crystals and use visualizations. When you feel out of your body it's the result of one of these wave fronts. Carry black stones like hematite and obsidian, tourmaline.
Stand barefoot in the grass for two or more minutes a day, and anchor your earth chakra (6 inches below your feet) to the core of the planet. Do not anchor your light body. Sleep north to south, head at north. Or meditate two minutes head to north. Take salt baths to clear and protect your energy and ground you. Expose yourself to sunlight to attune to plasma waves. Let go of density. Do a body cleansing. Contractions are signs to expand yourself. Lighten up on your diet. Use fruits, light dairy (yogurts and light cheeses), more greens and raw foods, seeds and nuts. Do not use sugars, sweets and simple carbohydrates, they burn faster and are high-stimulus foods. They grow your system out of balance. Complex carbohydrates and fruit sugars are slower burning and keep you in balance. Back off of caffeine, and use herbal tea. Comfrey tea is excellent, also licorice and licorice tea.
It is important to connect mentally with others through the heart by saying what you feel. Say anything, it doesn't matter what. Mentally you will swing back and forth between high energy ambition and boredom or disgust, as patterns that relate to separation consciousness are dislodged. The solar storms are doing this. If you feel like you are losing hope or faith, it is the old separation consciousness being dislodged. The feeling of being "unconnected" is an ancient energy that is now floating free and moving out, making room for the great thing growing inside. Cut down on TV and overstimulation. Shorten your meditation times. Stay in the here and now and align your physical, mental and emotional bodies.
Your spiritual ego is realigning to become God in physicality. Even those who are asleep are experiencing it. Be non-judgmental. By detachment and non-judgment you detach your energies and support. When you judge, you participate in that which you judge. Detach from making judgments. You have been a part of all things, including war. You as God created war. You as people created war, you are not separate from All That Is. So you as God and People begin to heal the war by detaching your energies from it.
It is an illusion that you are going somewhere or becoming something. You are already all that you are. Detach from the illusions and projections you have created. You are simply awakening to your freedom and flowing forth without efforting, without judgment, without attaching or trying to be a certain way or do a certain thing.
3/5/23 - This is Tantra (Master Djwal Khul)
One day back in 2013 I received a message from DK that applies to what is happening in our world today. We definitely in the midst of the ascension process, moving into lighter atmospheres. There is much confusion by those who are not aware of the beautiful world that we are moving into. I wish to assure peace and calm. Be prepared for love and clarity and knowingness. People are confused because this information has been kept from the public's eye. As I am constantly reviewing DK's messages, he continues to inspire me and I wish to pass it on, reminding everyone of the hope and beauty that is on its way into our life. But it's not what you think. This is Tantra. I have been posting his messages received over the last 47 years HERE. Please check out his beautiful inspired teachings. The following instruction came when I asked him something but I don't remember what I asked him. I forgot to write it down!
"You have become fragmented into many pieces. You are not whole. You are learning to re-connect your four lower bodies - your physical, emotional, mental and spiritual or higher mind. You have been learning about integration and you have been practicing in your meditation room. Now you are getting the idea this morning. A new understanding is dawning. The others that you need are the fragments of yourself. You are learning how to expand your awareness to the higher plane of the emotions and from there to step up to the still higher plane of thought, the mental plane. And from there to the yet higher plane of higher mind. You are visualizing the expansion of your body to these higher planes. You are expanding your awareness to higher planes beyond the physical. You are waking yourself up on the higher plane of emotion and mental and spiritual and higher.
"As you consciously stepped out of your limited perception of being physical, and as you visualized yourself larger than physical, superimposed over your physical as you have been practicing, and then breathing consciously, allowing your breath to penetrate your larger self on the emotional and the next larger mental and the next larger spiritual and the next - as you breathed in and out of each plane while visualizing, you awakened and aligned these fragments of yourself with your physical. Many people are today working this process to bring their four lower bodies, anchored in the four lower chakras, into balance and alignment with the limited concrete physical body consciousness. This is what I meant by “you can’t do it alone.”
"Picture a line of people arriving to your house, each bearing gifts but they are stopped at the front door because you do not open the door or look out the window. You do not know the people are there with gifts for you, gifts that would make your life easier and more pleasant, more agreeable. Many riches await you when you stop trying to live your life as if you were all alone with no help. You have a network of help and helpers all around you but you do not see them. You have been living in a closet in the 3D world. You were kept from your own holy self and the powers of your full potential by the mass consciousness which is a fuzzy dark cloud which obscures your own light. This opening and piercing of the veils between your bodies which kept you locked as a prisoner in the physical material world is being broken as you practice awakening, enlarging, breathing, and calling upon your emotional, mental and spiritual self through the morning exercises. You are not alone because you have a wholeness that is connected to God and through that wholeness you are connected to all.
"You have been asking for guidance on Tantra. This is Tantra. This is awakening while in your physical body to the other planes of consciousness that you have access to but you have been kept locked away from. Tantra means a net or a web that connects all as one that has always existed. You were never alone in a separate body, but you were locked out and closed down from knowing this truth. Now you and others are piercing the veils. It is a conscious realization that connects you. The web of life is composed of conscious thought. Conscious awareness. Consciousness connects all that is. God enfolds all his creation alike in his arms and heart and mind. All is contained within the bosom of God. When you don’t know this, it is like being locked inside your closet and not opening the door to the people outside trying to reach you and give you the gifts, their hugs, their laughter and their joyous celebrations, and to invite you to party with them.
"Practice your awakening exercises every morning. When you do this, as you consciously awaken to your higher self and invite integration of your other dimensional you’s, mind, feelings, principles and values, you nourish and refresh your physical body. It is your physical body that grows old and tired because it is not being rejuvenated by spirit. When you enter 3D you enter a “time zone”. There is a beginning and an end locked in time. When you are born in 3D you agree to be closed off from the love and light of the Creator and all of the higher dimensions. You came to learn about darkness and what happens when you are without the light and love. As you remember how to pierce the darkness through the process of applying love and light, you can nourish the failing body and the physical cells will open and drink the divine nectar. Your body fills up, plumps up with life and your DNA expands as does your consciousness. This is how you align yourself with your own perfection, the Christ, known also as the Adam Kadmon, the divine perfect human being, designed as the original role model of each human being from the heart-mind of God.
3/4/23 - Use mantra and visualization to take control
Create a sacred seed thought to take control over your life. Sacred is the key word. It supplants the personal ego which is the little desire self which causes confusion by chasing and holding onto desires. The little desire self is limited and finite. We have been concentrating far too long on this small little self. Consider using the following mantra. I am sharing it today with whoever is drawn to it. I have been given permission. Anyone may use this mantra and guided words of instruction. This mantra must be made with repetition. It will access your personal God-self identity known as your Higher Self. The Higher Self is the ladder to the stars. It is a path that goes higher and higher and is endless, even while you are human living on Earth. Only you can walk the rungs of the ladder of the Higher Self. It is done by choice, free-will effort and concentration. This mantra was given to me by the Tibetan Master, Djwal Khul many years ago.
I AM THE HOLINESS OF THIS BODY, AND I DEDICATE THIS BODY, I CONSECRATE THIS BODY TO THE WILL THAT I AM.
This mantra gives your power over to your higher God-self. It directs your Higher Self to take control over your finite body and make decisions for you, which you do not have the ability or vision to make yourself . You are asking for help from higher realms. You must ask for this help by relinquishing control over your smaller ego. Your human ego is in control until you consciously surrender control to your Higher Self. Your Higher Self requires that you ask for its help before it can step in and take control. This mantra does that, but you have to take the lead and establish a conscious repetitive daily practice. It doesn't take too long. Repetition is how we create habits. We humans are really good at establishing habits, but we have not created good habits. It is time to create some sacred habits. A rhythm of repetition. Plus a humble attitude.
Along with the mantra, use a visualization of yourself that is beautiful to you, that is attractive to you, that is an ideal image of yourself. Visualize this within a bright sun. Use the light from the sun to brighten this image of yourself. You can play with this image by brightening it to the degree that your image almost disappears, and then bring it back into sharper outlines. You are manifesting your Higher Self into your current life while repeating the sacred mantra. First find a photo or remember a photo that you saw one day long ago, one that you especially liked of yourself. That perhaps shows you in a better light than you are today. What you would like to BE today. Use that image to imprint on your inner mind as you repeat the mantra, "I am the holiness of this body and I dedicate this body, I consecrate this body to the will that I AM!"
Close your eyes, lower your gaze downward as if looking at the tip of your nose, and repeat the mantra while holding this image of your beautiful personal self in the light of the sun. Do this often. It will help stabilize your mind. It is like planting a seed thought in your subconscious mind. Repetition of the same thought plants a seed of ONE thought - remember, it is ONE thought, not many different thoughts - that becomes implanted. It will start to grow and become stronger and radiate further out with repetition. Repetition is the key to this technique. Repeated every day and at least three times a day is recommended. I recommend having at least three set times during the day that you do this mantra and visualization. Start at 5 minutes each time and increase it to 10, then 15, then 30 minutes each time.
If something happens shocking or traumatic, take several minutes to use it to stabilize. This mantra and visualization, with practice, will help bring your whirling thoughts to a central "seed thought", giving permission to your Higher Self to step in and take control with peace and calmness. A vortex is being created of a divine, sacred nature with the use of this mantra and visualization. But nobody can do it for you. Only YOU can create this for yourself through practice. Otherwise, random thoughts will continue to invade your psyche and energy field and swirl with chaos, which we consider the human condition today. A sacred "seed thought" will grow roots going throughout your whole entire body via the nervous system. Experts tell us that by repeating the same words and patterns every day, you mold your life into what it has become today. You created your life, this is how you can change your life. Build this sacred seed thought every day and you will grow roots into your life that start to change the way things work out for you.
Without a sacred seed thought, energies cast off by other people will continue to swirl randomly through you and your mind like a frenzied storm with no direction. You are the directing intelligence of your body. This mantra and visualization will provide a central seed thought, like a mother thought. It is a parent thought. You are a child of the one infinite creator, but you are human and you didn't know that, being born here. This is a technique that has been used for centuries in the East, with a strong influence on the culture there. Wise sages and spiritual leaders abound in the remote sections of the Himalayas. Now these lessons are becoming accepted in our Western societies. It has taken time to accept them, but they have taken root in our western culture. It is a "next step" to accept repetition of sacred words, as in a mantra.
It takes effort to take time out in our busy lives to concentrate and actually sit for 5 minutes at a time being silent and concentrating. I myself have had difficulty controlling my own mind, which whirled on its own. I believed I was doing the right thing to be spontaneous and follow my free will spontaneity. And I was right, as it turns out, to honor and respect my thoughts and feelings. But as East and West learn to merge with each other, so does spirituality and personal empowerment merge and become one whole entity. We are destined to become whole, a divine Ego human with individual skills, talents and knowledge unlike any other. We ARE individuals. As we call on our own Higher Self to merge with our lesser human self, we build integrity into our human self, and learn to control our life with a more refined vision. I have been learning this over the many yrs that the Master DK has been my guide and teacher. I did not know. He has taught me. I am passing on some of his teachings on this website. Yes, we learn from others, of course we do. But the one we have not been learning from and we MUST learn from at ALL times, over and above input from others, is our Higher Self. This is the one path that takes us ever higher beyond what we can see here, today, in this hour. No one can do this for us. Only we can do it for ourselves, by ourself. As long as we listen to other people, we are gathering more confusions to consider, more to analyze, more to weigh, more to consider, more to struggle to fit into our days. These storm clouds that come to us regularly - we live inside the storm clouds - run havoc through our bodies and minds without direction.
That was the purpose of the guru. A guru was a no-nonsense guide. He gave a mantra and said "repeat it!" Westerners didn't want to do that. The times changed and we became intellectual and rationalized everything with our minds. We didn't need a teacher. We can do it ourselves. And so the intellect came into being. We are now intellectualizing ourselves into a mess. We've created a mess without the spiritual teacher to guide us to our HIGHER SELF. We are swirling with storm clouds, chaos, fear and indecision. We are a lost race until we turn ourselves over to our HIGHER SELF. The higher self is our individual personal self but uncontaminated by human faults. It leads us up the ladder to greater understanding, keeping us connected to our Self. It is important not to give up our sense of personal identity. We are God in embodied form. It is important to build on what we know. The God Self is pure and uncontaminated by human errors. How does one connect with it? By assuming the pose of surrendering and repeating sacred words intended and aimed upward to the highest in us.
Most people are reluctant to give someone else charge over their life, but giving the Higher Self permission to take charge over your life is a whole different story. You ARE your higher self temporarily living confined in a limited body which doesn't know anything at all about "higher selves". Thus this body is surrounded by confused input from other people. The only way to access your Higher Self - your real Self - is to take the time to go alone and practice assuring it and communicating with it. Repeat the coded words to only your Higher Self, no other. Find a picture you like of yourself that is healthier and more beautiful, more noble, more wise, more ideal that you wish you were, and focus that intention through the sacred words, appealing for its intervention with your life.
Say the suggested mantra, either silently or out loud. Use a timer and set it for two minutes or three or five and increase it as your feel to expand the time. Start today. And do it two more times today. And tomorrow two more times, and every day do it three times during the day. The longer you can do it the quicker you will plant a seed thought and take control over the stabilizing of your mind. Even if you don't feel anything is wrong in your life, even if you feel you are healthy, wealthy and wise enough not to need any help from your Higher Self, you will be surprised at how much better life can be. How much life can be improved by relinquishing your limited ego control over your life and adding your Higher Self into the mix. We are here to live a 50/50 life as a human being having a human life on Earth with the inflow and input from the one infinite creator, your God/Goddess Self.
Close your eyes and drop your gaze as if to look at the tip of your nose. This tells your body to follow suit. Everything in your body is connected to the one intelligence - YOU! You are giving direction now to your body. You have assumed your body was you but you are NOT your body. You are wearing your body like a suit of clothes. You, your REAL self, is abstract mind, much more than a limited physical body. You are the mind. You are the mind that can expand infinitely to an ever greater intelligence. You are what controls your body by giving it a direction to go in. Perhaps you have not been doing because you didn't know how to. Concentrate your mind on this one sacred seed thought and see what happens over the next month. The Master DK is now guiding you as he has been guiding me over the last 47 years.
3/1/23 - Ascension Massage - "the bump in the road", Part 2
This morning (channeled 11/9/17) I had a download of information. I asked DK to please help me remember this information about the primal divine earth energies coming up and gathering at the first root chakra. Then it comes up to the 2nd chakra which is the reproductive or sexual chakra, and....? He answered:
In the animal kingdom the flow of primal energy divides out at the second chakra in order to create a division into two separate genders. There must be separate genders, male and female, to create a hunger for reuniting. Separation at the second chakra is necessary for duality to play out. There is engagement and play between the two forces which makes the world go around. And create babies. Reproduction is important to perpetuate the species. The animal kingdom operates on animal instinct. Now, the human being is also an animal but it has been cultivated with altered DNA to become more conscious than the animal. It has evolved to become self-conscious and it continues to evolve to become God conscious. It knows that there is a refinement that draws him to seek into the spiritual realms. But his sexuality and reproductive functions remain as an animal.
The human has allowed himself to retain the animal drive to copulate as all animals do. The mechanism to overcome this drive lies in the second chakra, where the division takes place in the animal kingdom. When the primal divine life force comes up to the first root chakra, to overcome this drive, instead of dividing out left and right, the mechanism is to remain WITHIN the second chakra and not allow the division to take place. The division that takes place is the male pushing out and the female withdrawing or receiving. When the human male stops pushing and the female stops receiving, they both can integrate and experience union. This is difficult to explain to a 3D consciousness.
I heard this in a 5D altered state and was able to retain this information. What we are doing with the Ascension Massage - originally I called it The Love Club massage swaps - is teaching people how to integrate their male and female sides in peaceful embrace, rather than the male pushing and the female dancing around trying to attract his attention or running away. To overcome this animal instinct to push and run away (male and female animal instinct) we humans are to learn how to not do that by way of reducing or diminishing our outward actions. When we slow down to a full conscious stillness and allow ourselves to integrate, then we overcome the animal instinct to push and dance. Do you understand? (DK talking. Channeled on 11/9/17)
2/28/23 - Ascension massage takes you over the "bump in the road" (part 1)
The bump in the road to which I refer is sexual tension. On this website there is page called "Massage", and under that page is a link to Ascension Massage. Ascension Massage has lately received an increase in the number of hits. Interest appears to be rising. The reason Ascension Massage has not been promoted lately (by me on this site) is because of the sexual issue. Issues over sex remain constant. They are puzzling. I've been unsure how to promote the divine love nature of Ascension Massage because sexual issues continue to rise and get in the way. Sex is a bump in the road. It is an obstruction to what I'm trying to present through Ascension Massage. And yet sex is not even real! It is a misnomer, a mislabeling. There is a divine nature that is being held back. Recent revelations are insisting I go ahead and start revealing what I know. "Don't worry", I am assured. "It is time to shake the tree and see what falls out."
Here is a simple example of what sex is. Imagine if you will someone who continues to beat you up with daily angry tirades. It doesn't hurt you physically, but it is a bother. It is part of your life and you have lived with it a long time but it creates an agitation. It is not a big deal but after a while it becomes irritating and you finally become physically disturbed by it. After days and weeks pass, maybe even months of this irrating way of life, suddenly the angry tirades stop! What happened? An emptiness rushes in bringing peace, tranquility, even bliss. Some might call it ecstasy or rapture. You suddenly experience the sensation of peace and you enjoy freedom like you haven't felt in a long, long time. This changes your life, your thoughts, your emotions, your appreciation and joy of life increases. You had an orgasm, a release of pressure that had built up.
This is what sex is - the cessation of continual pounding and beating at an internal door that was closed. Most people are unaware of this door. This is a new concept. You don't have to believe it, but this door is blocking the flow of the divine love that should be flowing up the spine and all through the body, maintaining your life in a constant state of harmony, peace, rightness, abundance and good relations. The spine is actually a pathway for divine energy to flow from the coccyx up to the crown of the head, and equally, for the life force to flow DOWN from the abstract intelligence of light and love, entering through the crown of the head and flowing into the soil of earth through the feet. We have not been introduced to this except for those of us who study the occult and esoteric sciences. Clairvoyants and mediums can see the energies moving, but not the average person with training or natural inclination.
This life force of which I speak is pure, unadulterated and uncontaminated by the human belief system. Human beliefs don't influence it or alter it. Humanity has built an artificial life around it, living off it like a parasite. But the divine life is flowing through us still. We just don't know about it. The divine life runs the show, breathes our breath for us, keeps the body functioning. And disease happens only when we block the flow.
We have been blocking the flow when it comes to sex, big time. Our ignorance causes all sorts of problems for us, and not just sexually. On all levels of life. Fortunately, we are on the brink of opening doors we have not had opened in eons of time. We have been held back so it's not our fault entirely. But we have resisted the natural flow of our own divine nature - the internal natural nature of love. We have fallen into dark hands and we have listened to them. We are now reaping the rewards today and learning to not listen. We are returning to our natural divine nature with slow, steady steps of awareness of love.
There is a waking up and transformation happening. Many people are prepared to shed light on the way sex has been mislabeled, mishandled and abused. We DO have the ability to fix it if we knew more about how it went wrong. This is merely a preliminary introduction to the problem of sex. We really didn't know!? We have no idea how badly we have messed up what could have been a most beautiful love affair with life and over the centuries. There is a natural flow of bliss, love and joy running through our bodies - we tune into it now and then (ask the lovers of the world!) - but there is a closed door when it comes to mechanical sex. There is more to come.
Ascension Massage is a new method to bring ecstatic divine love up through the body PAST the sex block, not repressing it but lifting it up, raising it up, with honor, love and respect, up past the bulge that we refer to as a sexual need to release. When we release the divine love at this lower level (by cumming) we spend it outward into the physical abdomen and intestines, and the rest of the body cells and tissues - the stomach, heart, lungs, brain and more - doesn't receive it. Which is why we stay at the same consciousness level and don't grow wiser and happier. There is a next step. Tomorrow there will be more. Tune in!
2/26/23 - Accessing your higher self - part 2
Close your eyes and concentrate on the picture of yourself that you have chosen, the one you really love above yourself. Use this photograph as an image to fix your attention upon. Close your eyes and recreate this image above you high in the sky, in the clear blue of the sky and inside a bright, dazzling sun, like the real sun we see every day. Imagine a clear blue sky and the sun at zenith. Imagine you inside the sun. You are coming through the sun right now as your immaculate, perfect self, streaming like the TV show streams through the televion set into your living room. Right this very moment your perfect self is streaming through the sun and down into your body through a radiant ray of light, alongside other radiant rays of light of others in form.
Imagine this image. Focus on it. You are being created as an endless stream of perfection - a human being in form - and you are being created eternally. We experience "time" where we are in our bodies, but the one infinite creator does not experience time. It is the creator in the eternal moment of now. And you are riding into the earth's atmosphere constantly as a perfect creation of ahuman being. You are the creation of the one infinite creator - the one we call "Father" or "Lord". You were not created in the past; you are being created eternally now. Always. It is difficult for us to understand this, but picture yourself over your head in the brilliant sun. There is no time in the sea of eternity. You are living in the now and you know you are living because you are breathing - inhaling and exhaling, pumping blood through your organs which are functioning - you are being created always, in the now moment. There is only one now moment in eternity and you are living in that one moment, right now. Even though we do not see or realize this brilliant perfect "Me" or "I", it is happening, nonetheless. It is the consciousness of "me" or "I". This consciousness cannot be taken from us. We are conscious. We are aware. And we can grow our consciousness. We can expand it. We can refine it. We can tune in to a more beautiful "me" or "I". We do this through the art of concentration and blocking out all other images. Just for a short while. With practice we learn to hold this positive image for longer periods.
You are now creating a picture of yourself in the most beautiful image you can find of yourself. Photographs work perfectly for a starter. You are using a photograph that you like about yourself, that pictures you in a way that pleases you. You are placing that image into the sky above you inside a sun that you are creating in your mind, using the powers of concentration but you are opening a channel to receive more. You have a mind, an intelligence, an awareness, that you are using to create this channel. You use your mind all day long in more finite ways but now you are using your mind to open to more than you know. So far you have used your mind to create worries, anxieties, illusions, projections, relationships and a way of life that suits you. You create through the ability to find comfort and peace. More and more, people are learning to relax and use their minds in more expansive ways. Still, there are any distractions. The world is going through an upheaval, a regurgitation of old ways and a transition to newer, more uplifting ways of living. The world is giving birth to greater light. The old ways are falling behind. Chaos is in the air because there are 8 billion people on the planet, and each one is going through their own transition.
We tend to consider the feelings of other people around us, we like to help. But we cannot help with the undercurrents that are flowing. Stick to your own game plan. Follow your own heart and dream. That is the reason for accessing your higher self. Only your higher self knows what is good for you. Your higher self is the immaculate self that is flowing continually through you. Tune into it. Let others find their own higher self. It is not your job to assist them, unless there is an obvious way that you can step in. Then, in that case, step in and help, but don't get distracted from your main job - that of tuning into your own higher self which has the answers and solutions for you alone.
The state of the world is in chaos as the light is causing us each to shift focus to ourself alone. Silent mediation on our self alone brings peace and contentment if we stabilize into the practice. You use your mind all day long on "other things" not yourself, so you seldom tap into your own perfection which is ever present, flowing in on your breath, inhaling it and exhaling it as we speak, as I type these words. Only the wisest of the wise human beings take the time to STOP! Stop focusing on "other things" and focus on the perfection that is flowing through you right now. The immaculate concept that would bring you awareness of peace and revelations concerning your own life. Everyone thinks the immaculate concept refers to Mother Mary of biblical scripture, the mother of Jesus. But it pertains to the perfection of every form flowing into existence. Your form is building and flowing along a perfect pattern - a pattern called the Adam Kadmon, the Christ. It is a perfect human shape. All the organs are in perfect place to perform their function. Every cell is in place, every molecule, every organ, the brain, your heart, your lungs, your spleen, liver, kidneys, toes, fingers, hands, blood flow, nerves - everything is perfect because you are being created from the mind of the one infinite creator in this very moment.
Tune into the photographic image that you are holding in your hands, close your eyes and recreate this image in your mind. See yourself in the brilliant dazzling white light of the sun. Your image is almost lost in the sunlight because the sun is SO bright, SO dazzling, SO brilliant, SO all consuming. Yet, you can see yourself inside that radiant light because you are coming through the light. You are a thought of the creator, just as the sun is a thought of the creator. You are a part of the light as a unique and separate creation. You are the perfect creation that is being radiated outword as we speak of it. The one infinite creator did not create you a "long time ago" so that you had "time" to become lost. There is no time in the infinite expanse of forever. It is all happening in the eternal now. Be HERE NOW and picture yourself densifying into your current human form. You are manifesting as an embodied form. Hold that image for as long as you can. If your mind wanders, pull it back to the image of your immaculate self coming into manifestation as your current you. This is coming through strongly to me as I release these words. The image of the immaculate concept is always streaming forth. No matter where you "think" yourself to be, no matter what situation you "think" yourself in, be aware of this perfect immaculate you. This beautiful image of yourself that you hold in your mind right now.
The reason for holding it above your head is so you reach up to it. Think up to it as an open chalice to receive the divine blueprint as it funnels down into your crown. Receive it and create a direct line, a link, a thread, a channel, a path from you on the earth plane in your physical body that is aging, upward to the more of you that you do not see. You are using a photograph to picture yourself, to plant your image in the open spaces of the sky as a portal. The image is not the real you, it represents a frequency, a divine idea, a master plan coming from the creator flowing down into concrete form. The immaculate concept cannot be understood by the finite personality ego, but it can be open to receive revelation from the divine. That is what we want to do here - receive revelation. We need to have a portal to fix our attention on with an open, eager mind. It has been eternally flowing down but we have not known about it, so we have missed it. It is constantly descending down, and manifesting as clumps of solar fire into concrete atoms, cells and molecules to form a human body. We are creating this open channel by visualizing it. Visualizations are a thousand more effective than words. They are like containers into which we receive the divine substance that is flowing. Visualizations are like buckets put out in the rain to collect water. Something has to hold the water or it will be lost in the fray.
Create this pathway by holding this picture for as long as you can in one sitting. Then release it and return to your normal life. Continue to live your life as you normally would, do not "try" to make it better or different. Let the divine handle the absorption and correction as it flows into your daily life. Periodically, sit in the quiet and alone time and hold the vision again. Your human nature is valuable. Continue to construct it with purpose and vision. Your human ego and understanding is growing stronger as you do this. You are learning as you grow through the life you live as (insert your name). Your friends and family are doing the same but on a different time line than you. Don't expect them to follow along beside you. They too have an immaculate concept breathing through them but their time for understanding is different from yours. The more you sit in quiet and peace, holding this immaculate image, the more you strengthen the river of universal harmony and abundance into your physicalness. Be here now. Hold this beautiful image of yourself and notice the merging and how it affects your life. Know that the real sun in the sky is a distribution center for your immaculate blueprint. Your knowledge of this will keep the channel open more and more. Keep strengthening the path of light that is coming through the sun. Both the "real" sun in the sky and the "imagined" sun that you create in your mind.
Concentrate. This is work. Work at picturing yourself. Hold this image. If your mind wanders, pull it back with will power and determination. Work at holding the picture of your immaculate self - or the best image of yourself that you can muster. It is above you coming down from an abstract intelligence and entering through the top of your head. Focus on the crown. Bring the image down through the crown of your head and into the brain so it can register on the physical cells of your brain and be distributed through physical nerve cells. Imagine a portal at the crown of your head and imagine the revelations flowing down through the opening at the top of your head. The crown portal is known as the Dweller on the Threshold. It is half inside the crown and half outside. It sits there as a sphere of light at the crown, half in and half out, an open portal that may be opened by your focused awareness with love and devotion for your higher self.
Imagine the flow of light flowing into your brain, picture your brain as it appears in graphic form, and see the light lighting up this brain. It flows through your brain and center of the head, manifesting as the pituitary gland, the master gland which activates the various functions of the body. The light flows easily through the channels designed in perfection by the master blueprint. The more often you picture the light flowing, the more perfection flows into your aging, deteriorating body. For those who study the yoga sutras, the pituitary gland is not the Ajna center. The Ajna center is projected out from the center of the head to the front of the forehead. It is used for sending or directing, like a laser beam.
Bring the image of your immaculate perfection down into your head center. See the brain and nervous system light up. The more you do this and the longer you hold this image of light manifesting in your physical, the more you solidify this truth into your finite physical body. Blend your divine immortal self with your fun-loving, pleasure-loving, excitable, ever changing humanity and you will notice an uptick in your sensations and life. You are creating a blend of your true self in the abstract and your physical body self as a concrete human being. With this practice we are channeling the abstract solar fire into the physical brain cells so they can carry the divine fire to other locations in the body. The solar fire is known as the Presence of God, the Dweller on the Threshold and the Christ. The divine wants to be in form. Unfortunately, we have been covered over with false impressions and projections of illusion and limited wrong beliefs. Focus more and more and for longer periods of time on the best version of yourself you can find, and hold that image in the sun. Strengthen the channel between the divine you and the mortal finite you.
2/25/23 - Accessing your higher self - part 1
Stamina comes from your Higher Self. You cannot create stamina without tapping into your Higher Self. Your Higher Self is all that you are up to date. It is all that you have experienced up to date. You have collected an amazing amount of stamina throughout the eons. You can call it vital life force or some other word, the word is not important. Understand what we mean by stamina. You have built it into yourself by the actual LIVING of it thru form life. After each form life you return to the non-form life, the heaven worlds. And then you return to form life again. You have experienced form life before this human life you are living now. Your mastery is built through living in form life, mastering the form life and growing from being in form and learning how to manage yourself in embodiment. Your spiritual self is actually built from living in an embodied planet. This stamina - you call it energy but there are different kinds of energy - comes from knowing how to maneuver in form. All that you have ever experienced in form is the excellent stamina that you wish you had more of.
You have lived on other planets too, not just on Earth. There are galaxies upon galaxies - solar communities of countless other planets - which host beings like humans and animals on their surfaces. Also you have had pre-human lives as animals, plants and even minerals before becoming human. From the beginning of your sojourn into form and substance, you have been a child of the one infinite creator experiencing embodied life in form and substance. You have been one consciousness, the same consciousness that you are enjoying now, today, and thinking you know it all. And you DO know it all. You know all that you know, but there is more that you don't know. There is always more to become known. And there are always others to guide you and talk to you telepathically. Stamina is knowledge lived. It comes from the accumulated "know it all" part of you. It is your innate knowledge. Your instinct. Your intuition. Your sense of being right. You can tap into that rightness, that knowingness starting now. It is all the knowledge and understanding that you have accumulated so far in the eons and eons of time living in embodied form. You can start right now, just as you are today, even if you have low self esteem and don't believe you can.
We call this innate self the Higher Self or the God Self. Or perhaps you call it the Lord. Whatever you are accustomed to calling it, it is above and beyond you because your body today is finite. It was built at your conception, so it is only one life old, where you have lived countless lives before. This body is only temporary, but you can train it if you learn how to access your prior life knowledge. This body will not last forever unless you feed it with your past life memories, and then it may live longer than you planned. This body was built just for you for THIS life. It was built at the time of your conception and birth by your earth mother. So this body that you are living in today does not have memory of your past lives. But YOU do, you as an everlasting eternal consciousness. Your consciousness is what we call the spiritual self. You are eternal. You live over and over again in different forms. You grow up and learn the current culture by living in that particular form, and then that form passes away and you go on to the heavenly fields to debrief and consider the next step in form. You have embodied in various forms and usually don't remember them. You learn how to maneuver that one particular form that you currently inhabit, and you tap into your prior knowledge through some kind of homing device called instinct. Instinct is inherent. It is prior knowledge that has accumulated in your consciousness - that which we refer to as soul.
You don’t remember your past lives unless you have tapped into your Higher Self. You can tap into your Higher Self right now, and I will teach you a method how to do that. Your higher self is best known as intuition. It is innate. It is not just inside of you, it is your life force, your consciousness, your breath of awareness with which you first come awake and aware in the morning after sleep. Or after a coma of long duration. You are all that you have EVER been and ever experienced. You are awareness. You just don’t remember prior lives easily. Some of us do. But it is in THIS body that we are primarily focused. Learning to maneuver in THIS body. THIS body is a new body. It doesn't have the memories that YOU have as an everlasting consciousness. You probably haven't had the opportunity to know this before now, or maybe you have. Many people are learning about their spiritual selves today. Humanity is growing by leaps and bounds into higher consciousness levels. But if you don’t know how to access your Higher Self, I will give you some hints tomorrow. You have been held back on this planet called Earth. It has been a dark planet up until recently. Earth is growing up and taking on more of HER higher self too. Mother Earth is also an intelligent entity who has been held back. She is of a different species than human. She belongs to the planetary tribe. All planets belong to the planetary tribe. They can communicate with each other through the solar system - their male counterpartner. They host the human, animal, plantlife and other species on their surfaces.
If you are willing I would like to share with you some ways to access your Higher Self. These are from my own personal experiences. I will tell you more tomorrow. This is a prelude to lay a foundation before beginning. All techniques have a basis of a foundation, a reason for being to share and pass on to others. One must be prepared in order to be open enough to receive. Otherwise, why would you waste your time? Search your photographs and scrapbooks tonight and find a photo of yourself that you really, really like of yourself. The one photo that gives you a good feeling about yourself. One that shows you in the way you would like to look today. What quality does it bring to mind? Beauty? Dignity? Nobleness, grace, power, strength, intelligence? Whatever quality you most admire and want to enhance in yourself. That feeling can be enhanced with the help of your Higher Self. You can access this quality by picturing your Higher Self in a certain way. The photo can be of any age, it doesn’t matter. It can be used as a reminder, a reflection, thru which to access skills that you have but are currently beyond reach because your physical body and brain never experienced them before. Tomorrow then.
2/24/23 - Don't suppress the ego, soften it, and Tantra
Don’t suppress the ego, soften it. Many people think the personal ego is bad, but the Masters say you don’t want to suppress or repress your personal ego, or deny it, or even subdue it. Rather, soften it. Care for it with the wise gentleness of a good mother, because your human ego is of personal value - to you and to others. It is your uniqueness. The great plan behind all plans is to integrate your personal value, your knowledge and unique individuality into the overall master plan - the Oneness out of which all springs forth into form. The divine Oneness is ever growing richer because of the individual minds merging into it.
It is this Oneness that is the I AM Presence that descends into form. The I AM God Presence created you and supports you on your individual journey. It is immortal. It is the One I AM that created all forms everywhere. The great mystery is how this is done. We are on the road of discovery, each one of us, learning how it is done. It is the ONE out of which life springs a'new every day, every moment, eternally refreshing us if we can understand that and tap into it. The I AM is eternally new and more than it was before, because individual minds are constantly returning home with their individualities vastly expanded with understanding.
The problem we all experience is this. We as an individual mind have grown an intelligent branch off of the ONE intelligence, separate and apart from the great ocean of love and unified ooneness. Yet we cannot escape it entirely, we can only go off separate and alone, away from it. We can reject it and refuse to listen to the guiding voice within, but we cannot escape it because we ARE the oneness having a separate temporary experience. We are still in the oneness, or rather, the one vast intelligence is still in us. Many have taken the dark road away from love and light, for we have free will. But the better advice is always to go within and listen to the still small voice of conscience, of heart, of love.
We have each had many experiences out in the darkness as separate intelligences, away from the light and the love of the one infinite creator. We not only can say "I did it my way!" - we MUST do it "my way". That is the only way to find the light and the love within. No one else can do it for you. You are on a separate path from your friends. That is why your personal ego is not bad. It just needs to be softened, blended with the love and light within so it can feel wanted, valued and held in high esteem. Bad criminal cruel mean behavior is not valued, it needs to be awakened to the value it is running away from.
We all did many things against our own inner conscience, light and loving heart, but it taught us the value of right and wrong. We benefitted from the results. Good results from good and right behavior, and bad results from wrong behavior. We learned as we traveled and experimented about the value of having friends and being kind and doing the morally right thing, even if no one noticed. And we learned it was not worth it to go against that inner knowing. We learn to maintain personal integrity over the long haul. We learn to be less selfish, or perhaps we learn to be MORE selfish - those of us who are constantly giving our power away to the point of exhaustion - for there is a constant balance we are seeking to maintain. The balance is done within, by noticing, acknowledging the truth and applying it. The spiritual life is the path of maintaining balance between our own dual natures.
When you get angry, tone it down, bring it back to gentleness with words and considerations. The separate ego thinks it is all alone in life and it maintains a stubbornness to survive, not unlike the child having a temper tantrum. When things don’t go its way, it strikes out in ways that are not good for the whole. It sheds violence on the neighbors and family. Tone it down. Treat it with love and kindness and show it respect, and the personal ego will respond in kind. It needs to be respected. It needs to feel valued because it is a part of us. It is not separate. Be patient and kind to yourself. On a higher level you are your own God, your own Father God and your own Mother God. Be nice to yourself. Find a way that is balanced and does not hurt someone else in your vicinity. Work on this. The soul is a work in progress. The soul is the child learning how to live life in form in a balanced way. Then happiness is felt. Joy is felt. Abundance is felt.
The ego is the human child being raised by the Father-Mother God within. Father is abstract intelligence without form; the Mother is abstract intelligence INSIDE the form, flowing through the form as the life blood, circulating through the heart, lungs, nerves, glands and organs. You have access to the Father-Mother God within, for you are both the ego as little child and the wise parents of spiritual nature. As the little child you don't know this until you begin connecting with the love and light within - the Father-Mother who is the one infinite creator flowing through you. Act more like the father-mother God within you and you will mature as an ego. At that point you begin changing into aspects of the Divine Ego, which is more loving, graceful, patient and kind. You will be noticed as becoing a more peaceful, refined personality.
There are many religious and spiritual names used to refer to the Divine Ego – Higher Self, God-Self, Spirit, Holy Christ Self, Divine Feminine, Divine Masculine, but it is not the word that matters. It is your understanding that matters. When we live in a solid body form, we are operating on a closed circuit, not knowing these things. We are using that program that we were born into. Everyone born here in the past uses that program. It is "time" and "space", closed off restricted area from the wide open fields of intelligence, harmony and love. Here on this planet called Earth we were oriented to feeling separate. We were taught survivalism as one alone. There were survival laws that helped guide us. But things are changing. We are growing so wise now, the inhabitants of Earth, that we have entered into a higher consciousness field. It is known as the 4th dimension. The 4th dimension is one where we are sorting through things and making some choices and decisions that affect our future. We are choosing more wisely and with more unity consciousness. We want to live more peacefully and less in violence. As we find more and more self-enlightenment techniques on the net, we are stimulated to join classes or at least read about them and investigate a little further. Humanity is on the verge of raising the world's population to 5th density. In 5th density there is no violence. We leave violence behind us when we enter into that level of awareness.
Life continues on the 5th dimensional Earth differently than it did on the 3rd and 4th level of awareness. Too many people are now aware. Too many people want peace instead of fighting for survival. It is a different way. That is why your personal ego has value. IT is the one who is changing. The little egos are growing up and deciding in right ways that benefit everyone around them. We are integrating with our divine Father and Mother parent which is waiting for us. For we ARE the parent. We ARE the divine within, having a childhood lesson. Believe in a more unified and gracious way of life, considering the values and rights of others around you, and you will be valued in return more than you have been in the past. Rather than repress your personal needs, wants and desires, work with them and instill in them larger graciousness.
As a side note, for many years I have been seeking to understand the Tantra way of life, which is not sexual. The reason people think it’s about sex is because sex is the first door to open that allows the divinity to expand into the form body. The feeling is one of loving attraction which sort of overwhelms the young person in puberty. It is the beginning exposure to the power known as kundalini, or in the west known as the holy spirit. It is the secret power that lies in the etheric body at the base of the spine - specifically surrounding the coccyx. This area of the body is the geometric center of the human body. At a certain point in the aging of the body, it opens partially, gently, to allow these feelings to expand up the spine. Sexual feelings are the result. It is a touch of the divine nature within. The body feels it as sensually warm and loving. But since we have been born into a physical-only form of living, we seek an outward way to express it. With another person or through masturbation. We did not have teachers or guides to take us through this early stage of puberty. Unfortunately, in the dark ways of Earth, there were people (and still are) who became obsessed with the body feeling and abused younger ones and more vulnerable people. This has caused a lot of damage. Fortunately we are on the cusp of exposing this long abuse. New teachings are coming out fast in these days, especially about the kundalini or the sacred fire, as it is known. It is the divine nature that has been held locked inside the human body for eons. Now is the time for truth of the power behind sex to be revealed. Tantra is one of the paths that have an ancient grounding the sacred Vedas of India, I am told. I personally have not read them but the Masters have guided me. Kundalini is the Mother God flame at the base of the spine, called Shakti to the impersonal God Shiva which is abstract intelligence.
On a human level, yes, sex is the beginning. It is feeling so divine that if you are fortunate enough to have a Tantric master who will guide you, you will be led into a life of personal empowerment that no other spiritual path can match it. I was fortunate to have been given a Tantric Master 47 years ago, after I went into the Light by a dramatic awakening of Kundalini, without my having been prepared. When the shakti started to purify me of everything that I was made of that was embedded in me from childhood and previous lifetimes, it was a makeover which I didn't understand. I had no choice but to live through it. It was - and I love this phrase! - a blessing and a curse. My husband at the time and I were drawn into the lifestyle of swinging and through free intimate sex I became grounded back into normalcy, but with a lingering yearning for ever higher love which other people could not provide.
Bad situations and frustrations had to be confronted and dealt with, but in the long run the good benefits won out. I learned more through the swinging lifestyle than I could ever tell. I become more patient, more understanding, softer, kinder, gentler and more dignified. Tantra does not exclude sex but it does not focus on sex. Sex is not forbidden. It is a threshold over which a person passes to get to the larger room inside. It is a change in perspective. It changes the focus from hard bodies and hard outlines to softer, larger, more etheric bodies and outlines, and sensitivities. The sex act loses its crudity and matures into love-making. Sex becomes no longer a goal-oriented act. It becomes less physical and more sensual, more kind, more loving toward self and the other person. More considerate to self and the other, more elevating, more worshipful and reverent. There is a heavenly aspect that most do not quite reach but is available if one does not give up reaching for it. And also one becomes more discriminating and discerning about who you have sex with. You can feel a person’s motives and intentions when you are near them. You can read them. The energy fields overlap in close proximity and you can't fail to know what they are made of. And if you feel compatible you feel free to make love with a perfect stranger. That is, if your wife or husband doesn't resist.
The shakti (kundalini) is not directed towards the orgasm and physical penetration. It wants to go higher than that. It is energetically and magnetically attracted to beyond the heart and head to the Home from which it came. It wants to go Home so it expands up the spinal column in search of that ultimate blissful connection. Tantra is the path of learning about this mysterious power of enlightenment. The masters of Tantra teach how to build the power up and not to spend it on orgasm, but not to get lost in the shuffle either. It can go to the sun if you let it or it can be used with another human being in ecstatic lovemaking. Or it can rise up the spine and out the top of the head to reach ever higher levels of bliss and ecstasy alone, without a partner. Without a teacher who knows, a person will continue to want satisfaction from sex with someone else and will be driven by sex. Sex is not bad, but it can be misused to hold someone back from maturing into fulfillment. Sex is not the purpose of the kundalini. It is only the first step on the ladder to heaven. Tantra teachers guide a student into understanding both sides of the coin, both the spiritual and the human.
The power behind sex is a higher power of a divine, immaculate nature. It must be guided and understood how to work with it. When sex is first felt at puberty, it is felt as a loving thing. Without guidance it becomes focused on the physical body seeking something. Without wise teachers to guide the one in puberty, the young one stays with that focus - seeking the opposite gender for sex and penetration. How can he or she not know differently? So the all important focus is then finding a mate to help us fulfill ourselves. Or we are abused by someone else and thrown into trauma. The Tantric path is a path of spiritual enlightenment, not sex but may include sexual orientation. I have been writing about it for a long time.
2/23/23 - Rise above the stagnating energies of the body
This morning while showering I heard, "Rise above the stagnating energies of the body. The mind is your playground. Play! It brings you joy by discovery." The voice continued and I wrote on paper.
The world is a world of discovery. It is where you have the luxury of comparing differences. Only in the form life do you have differences. In the heavenly fields you don't have these differences. Let discovery be your game and your motto. You are learning how the great sages made their enlightenment. And why they are always in peace and joy. It is a lesson of discovery after discovery after discovery. Excitement of discovery, after excitement of discovery, after excitement of discovery. This is what grows your mind to happier planes and more fulfillment. It is a lesson of great importance. Make excitement your path. Your path to enlightenment is being highlighted with your discoveries and your excitements. Use your mind! Your master has led you thus far, now it is up to you to continue walking this path. Learn to do it yourself. Learn by trying it out for yourself. Instead of looking to your master every day and pouring over past journals, look to your OWN ability to discover excitement energy. Become your OWN master. Let your mastery over your dullness and boring stagnation emerge and guide you forward to discovery. Let excitement be your guide and dullness be a sign to turn around and go in another direction.
Life in form is filled with comparisons. The diversity is immense. This is the life of learning and growing. Of discovery that fills you with excitement. Discover what brings you down and what brings you up to high points. Discovery teaches you the proper use of your mind. The improper use of the mind is to let disappointment and frustration and bad attitudes stay inside you un-used, un-expressed and un-wanted. Don't hang onto them. Get ahead of your body’s tendency to stagnate. USE the discouraging energies and don’t let them sit and stew in you. Use them up. Use them as fuel. Use them in action. Put them to work. Do something with them. They are fuel for consumption. They are energies. That's all they are. Action is required to get rid of them. Don’t sit and stew in them. Get a grip on yourself. Make yourself get up and move in another direction. Don’t let bad energies sit inside of you bringing you down. Use bad energies to accomplish something positive. Spend them like money. Consider them fuel for your bank account. Whirl around like a spinning top if there is nothing else you can do.
Get them out of your system, out of your head, out of your muscles, they are holding your down. Get them out of your body and into the air and your energy field where they become free to disband into the light. Think AIR! Think UP! Think LIGHT! Send them UP and out into the air by the directing force of your conscious mind. Then stay open, stay ahead of stagnation. Don’t let old energies accumulate in your tissues. Be greater than your body. Your body is a shell composed of past energies that have accumulated and you did not know. Past energies from yesterday and last year and from childhood and prior lives. Be more than the accumulated energies of the past. The past has come and gone. Find NEW excitements. Be gentle with yourself as you walk slowly into new excitements. New excitements will move you in positive directions. They are like a flowing river. Follow the river of moving excitement. Let the river of your life teach you and guide you in a spontaneous and free way. But do not hurt anyone in your flowing. Be kind and be sensitive in your flowing. Be benevolent, be creative. Let freedom come and let freedom go out from your body. Don’t keep them close inside of you.
Share them with others. Tell your stories. Meet and converse openly with others. Share your discoveries. Spin them into action. Be a flowing river of stories and excitements as they come into your life and flow out, leaving you open-minded and open-hearted. Free to receive further flowing from the universe.
2/22/23 - Dissolving into larger love - don't turn it personal
I asked DK this morning, how do you be physically close without turning it personal or sexual? It's a philosophical question, intended to enlarge my intellectual understanding of this very major process. I was thinking of holding a women's session. He responded: "It requires silence. It’s not about touching. You don’t have to hug or lie down together. That would expose you to physical toxicities held in the body. Be close within the auric fields so they overlap."
He continued. "You can start with 4 or 6 women in a circle with a goal in mind, as you have been learning in the Tantra books. But this is not for sexual fulfillment. Its purpose is for grounding the holy light into the flesh body, as in the light body known as the christ body. This requires refinement of those impulses and tendencies when tend to rush, to reach, to stroke and to pull towards, which we call groping. The urge to reach for another body or to repel another body, comes up in people. It is the magnetic attraction of the earth forces. One must resist the earth force push and pull. You are to manage this impulse.
The practice is an inner practice to hold steady in the quiet in your body, in your mind, in your feelings. We use visualizations. Imagine a column of refined light coming down from above, through you and into the earth below. Know that this column of light is really a column of love. It is the ALL-THAT-IS direct from the heart of the sun behind the sun which comes from the creator, the father-mother God. An outsider’s touch or presence would be less than this holy light, holy love. This is the love-light of your own light body, your christ body. You swoon into it and everything human in you melts and dissolves in the light and love of your christ body. With practice you will not fall to the floor, as some have done, but contain it within your mind, body and feelings. This is the next step practice.
Anchor the light, which is actually love, into your human body, your physical flesh body which is composed of thoughts, beliefs, intentions, desires, tendencies, resentments, bitterness, hatreds, sorrows, weaknesses - all of the human stuff that is not holy. By allowing yourself to remain silent and centered, you will experience receiving the holiness of the love that is coming down into the ground through your visualization, you prepare your body to become the God-self in human form. All-knowing, all-wise, it dissolves all personal tendencies, involvements, attachments, etc. With each practice session it leaves you refreshed, open, aware, more knowledgeable, and infinitely more capable of FEELING love. Dissolving personal attachments is done without damage, effort or pain. There is never any pain when love dissolves personality stuff. Human relationships are possessive and controlling, so these are dissolved in the larger love. Your love enlarges to embrace so much more.
If you are connecting with your light body, christ body, it is a solitary process. You, the child, are becoming the grown-up now - one with your father-mother God. You are becoming the adult, the mature God-man or God-woman. The holy Christ self in physical form. Others will not have jurisdiction over you.
2/20/23 - How to eliminate a fuzzy head
After having a quiet household for years, just the two of us, we have a friend living with us who has been displaced from her home in the flood, and has many problems she is trying to resolve from our home. The house is buzzing with different energies, not our own. It is a time for learning. How to cope with other energies so close at hand? Not knowing what to do, I began searching among the hundreds of different methods offered by those who know, including the Ascended Masters, but which one? It's not like there are no solutioins. It's a matter of which solution to utilize, because it requires calmness and concentration to apply such methods that deal with out-of-balance energies that are disturbing. I have created my own buzzing energy field in the process, giving me a non-stop fuzzy brain.
Now I am finally getting it. It took a while. The correct answer is: I have to take charge of my own energies and not follow someone else's method. Stop looking for answers and start doing something. Nobody else's method applies to my situation because it is me and my own consciousness that creates the problem, and I have to do something about it myself. It's a consciousness thing. So no meditation today, just action is requried. I must consciously accelerate the electrons, atoms and cells in my own body, mind and energy field to bring in greater clarity and vision.
I am being told: Accelerate the body’s cells and feel the stimulation of interest. Become interested again in life. Speeding up the body’s cells, atoms and electrons clears away the effluvia, the debris, the old dead energy that weighs you down. Use this energy, don't let it stagnate. I can tell already - it works. Keep busy. It should not be manually difficult labor but be productively busy. Then lie down to rest, calmly and peacefully, for 20 or 30 minutes to allow the body to recuperate and fall back into its normal natural alignment. This part is crucial - to rest inbetween bouts of productivity and/or busy-ness. It prevents stress and tension from building up. Then get up and move again. You'll feel a lot better. It will clear the energies that are foreign to you. It will clear your head.
It helps to keep a running list of what you have accomplished during your active periods. Seeing the results of your productive and creative efforts not only boosts your energy, confidence, self-esteem and enthusiasm towards life and living, it actually increases the life force, allowing it to move through your blood, muscles and organs so you feel the building of stamina flowing through your physical body. Keep track of your good works. Journal your recovery process during your "down times" so you can remind yourself what to do again in the future.
2/18/23 - Nurturing Healing Love Massage Exchanges
A long time ago I was told by the Master Djwahl Khul: "Do not ask the male to change - just present the female.” A persistent dream nags at me to establish an ascension massage exchange network where individuals can meet others for mutual partner exchanges to assist in the growing need to overcome ascension symptoms. I have no idea how many people are aware of "ascension symptoms" but the world is going through not only climate changes but humans are too. There is a lightening process taking place worldwide, a consciousness elevation, a broadening, a widening, an awareness of one's personal space becoming more refined. Consciousness is becoming more spiritual, more rarified. Yet, the dense physical body and brain are the same. This is causing havoc on the coarse physical body which has been programmed to low expectations. Life has been restricted in many ways. There is an inner struggle going on, trying to understand. How to cope.
My desire for an ascension massage exchange network hasn't manifested yet, mostly because I haven't been ready before now. I have been advancing my understanding to the point where I have to do something soon or I'll leave my body and go elsewhere. (Just kidding.) I am by nature a passive person and a follower, not a leader so I've been doing lots of inner work, homework and opening myself up to specialized training. The ascension massage is a soft, gentle nurturing feminine approach, using priestess skills of ancient origin. It is not sexual. If there is a sexual body response, we simply ignore it and raise the energy up over the block and keep going. It is done consciously, mentally and intentionally. There are many lifetimes of training in this art.
The goal of ascension massage is to connect the pure uncontaminated light and love in one person to the pure uncontaminated light and love in another person. The light and love is the same in both persons, it is the HUMAN that makes us each different. The goal is to merge the uncontaminated light with the HUMAN. This is the hard part that we've been missing. Mutual body exchanges without sex or emotional attachment can do this. We are to merge the human with the divine so the human becomes the individualized god/goddess that is destined to be. We do it without emotionial or sexual involvement. When sexual response happens we direct our attention higher, that's all. We elevate it. We don't suppress it but raise it up higher. It takes some training to do this, and practice.
When we exchange ascending massage, the uncontaminated light and love from both giver and receiver combined is stronger than from just one person alone. It washes away the toxic energies in the system that cause confusion, sickness, pain and suffering. What most people are unaware of is that there is an immaculate blueprint within them, within everyone, including bad evil people. They wouldn't be alive, breathing and walking around if they did not have an immaculate divine blueprint functioning in their body. This divine blueprint has been covered over by imprinted false cultural programming from birth on up to the present day. This perfect immaculate blueprint can't be contaminated by human error or mistakes. It just can't. You can try but you can't contaminate it. It doesn't matter how bad a person is or what crimes they've committed, or how mean, cruel or vicious they are in life, they have a perfect immaculate divine blueprint that has been covered over by the culture. It can be uncovered with education, training and believing enough in it to do daily homework - and exchanging an ascension massage can help if they are willing to trust in the process. This immaculate blueprint is the life force of the body known historically as the christ, short for crystal or crystalline. Everyone has one.
The Ascended Masters have been guiding me to establish an ascension massage exchange for a long time. Click HERE to see the original posting back in 2014. An ascension massage leads to total bliss IF the receiver is ready to receive and can open to trusting the giver. The goal of receiving one is to become a giver of one. We will be creating a network of partner exchanges by starting one at a time, discussion and practice. I am starting it here, now, by writing about it.
If you are hungry for some loving touch, it requires giving loving touch in return, without sexual or romantic involvement or expectation. This is a higher form of love. A deeper form of love that goes to the bottom of the soul and collects the remnants of past action and brings them forth for redeeming. The result is feeling washed clean. It is divine nurturance. This is a spiritual technology that is older than the planet itself, and a teaching that comes from beyond the earth, beyond the galaxy and beyond the stars. There have ALWAYS been teachers of this ancient temple skill. Only those who were inclined to learn it, came again and again, over many lifetimes to the quiet cultures to be trained in out-of-the-way monasteries and underground sanctuaries, away from the noise and cloudy atmosphere of the evolving residents. It is a sacred art and a universal science. The universe operates on love. Love is the longing that everyone has in their deepest heart. We wish sometimes that our relationship partner would do this for us but it doesn’t happen. They haven't been taught. The art of feminine nurturing healing love is a higher science. The word feminine does not mean women only, it refers to the soul. It is the soul that is feminine.
If you are interested in learning and practicing it, contact me privately and we will plan. There is no cost involved. This is something new and exploratory. It is an exchange of loving soft nurturing energy, not to be compared with anything that has been experienced before. We will dip into ancient times when the planet was young, pure and full of the holy spirit unspoiled by humans. The world was quiet then. Serene. We will call upon the ancient land, peaceful and pure and warmed by the ancient sun. We will ask the sun to blow its ancient purity into this tired, weary body. We will call on ancient winds to blow through the cells and clear away the stress. We will call upon the ancient waters to wash away the tension in this body. We will ask the ancient trees to breath their green and pure oxygen through this body. We will ask the ancient flowers and herbs to sprinkle their healing fragrance deep into this soul and melt away the tightness in this body. We will ask the ancient sun to warm this body with its healing rays. We will call upon the ancient healing masters to place their sparkling spirit hands upon this body with nurturing love and light.
We will ask you to tune into the ancient quiet and tune out all outside thoughts. Focus on the here and now in this room. Stop thinking. Feel the quiet and trust the ancient peace that comes in. Develop the skill of tuning into harmony. One way to stop thoughts is to listen to your own breath. Notice the sound your breath makes. Feel your lungs and stomach inflating and deflating like balloons. Feel your hands with a thousand pores in the palm, inhaling clean white light and exhaling clean white light. Picture the bottoms of your feet with thousands of tiny pores opening and breathing in mother Earth on the inhale, and blowing out on the exhale. Imagine inhaling Earth magnetism up your legs to your heart and head, opening arteries and veins and exhaling down into the Earth again. Picture the pores in the skin on your back and spine opening as you inhale, and emptying out on the exhale. Picture your crown opening as you inhale, drawing in light from above, filling up your brain cells, and exhaling down the central column to Earth.
Imagine nurturing soft hands stroking your skin. Not heavy, not coarse, but light and airy. You might have a sheet covering your nakedness, or not, your choice, or light clothing. Expand into the air around you. Spiritual energy is all around you. Prana can be seen as sparkles. Manna is in the air. It is not mystical or mysterious. Prana and manna come from the sun. It is activated by your own consciousness. You are the one who creates manna and prana by connecting with the light and the love from the sun. You are the one who provides the force field of energy of light that encircles you and enfolds you. You are the one who refines it and makes it lighter than that of Earth atmosphere. Our bodies move inside this field of vitality which we create around us. It extends out to overlap with others. We are like fish swimming in an ocean of sparkling vitality. We were trained to focus on the physical world only - the hard edges of physical forms. Expand your eyesight and awareness beyond the form in a 360 degree circle so you can see into the heaven fields. You can with inner eyes and eyes that are beyond you. Picture yourself floating in a sea of pink light that extends into the distance. We are moving in a sea of energy like fish move in the sea. When we open our vision like this we stop thinking about day-to-day thoughts and begin drinking in the higher worlds. We allow the immaculate blueprint to sweep upward and outward around us, cleaning away the toxic energies, stress and tension that has been clinging to us. We are turning on our inner light and ascending our consciousness to higher realms.
2/15/23 - There is pure sweet love in the cells of your body
We are made of love. Love is everywhere. It governs the atoms and electrons of your body. Love is a conscious substance. It is intelligent. It is not felt as love when it is stuck and not moving, but it IS awake and aware. It is what moves your body around and your mind, brain and your feelings. It gives you breath and life. Inside the physical form made of substance, love is the atoms and swirling electrons that coalesce together and make up the cells, molecules and fibers of your body. If you did not have so many beliefs that cause you to be afraid, the atoms and electrons would be able to swirl and vibrate faster. The beliefs and thoughts are what restrict us. If we were more spontaneous and free we would feel lighter in body and happier in mind and feelings. It is limited belief - i.e., "I don't believe in such things" - and fear - i.e., "People are not to be trusted" - which leads to all sorts of negative attitudes that bog us down.
You use love to create because love drops your guard and expands your mind. Love is all there is. In the beginning creating something new is fun and exciting. You reduce love down into shape and form with substance and meat to it, by focusing with all your passion on your new creation. You take your ideas from infinite space and, with love, you mold and shape it into musical creations, artistic creations, relationships, school lessons, houses, tall buildings and bridges. You love to create. Your favorite creation is new relationships because old relationships tend to get dull and repetitious, repeating same old patterns over and over again is monotanous. New relationships feel good because you don't have any past memories or past mistakes to cast shadows. New relationships are pure love relationships. You glow when you think of your new lover or your new friend because nothing has spoiled it yet.
But creating in the world of form - our world of solid physicality - is pushing the envelope. We are each creating something new and so it is by trial and error. Our creations are experiments. We actually don't know how a new creation is going to work out. We plunge in with excitement, all aglow. Whether it be a workshop like my dream, or a new relationship that you have made. We are passionate. It is something NEW!
Why don't our old relationships and our old workshops feel like enough for us? Because we haven't continued to polish them with our love. Instead of polishing them up every morning with caring attention, respect and gratitude for their existence, we replay thoughts that had their day and they're now "old". Yesterday's oldness and mistakes creep into our thinking. The habits of the day before and the day before that and the day before that, until we are remembering all the mistakes, errors, and feelings of those mistakes and we are bogged down. What was originally a glowing exciting love affair of whatever - art, music, a class, a book - dulls down and becomes discarded. And we turn our attention to something new. That's why a new relationship, a new art piece, a new music CD, a new anything is so much more exciting. We are creating something new and there is no past to get in the way.
Is there a solution to this? The Galactics say it best: Learn to create with love in everything you do. Every moment of every hour of every day. It is a learning process. We are evolving into more advanced human beings by expanding our love and broadening our hearts. We need to love what we created YESTERDAY. Not discard it. Revivify it by picking it up again and caring for it, giving it loving attention. The most important creation of all is a primary relationship. I know many primary relationships that are not happy but they THINK they are. They could re-create their original love relationship by not following the same patterns and routines but taking a new approach today. Something different. Like taking a different road home from the store to provide new scenery, even if it takes longer time to get home. Forget the past and concentrate, meditate, focus on love. Make it new again.
Learn to create love every morning when you wake up in your mind. Say it to the walls, the ceilings, the floor, the bed sheets: "I love you windows, I love you carpet, I love you books, I love you bureau, I love you lamp!" Forget your tired old mundane responsibilities for an hour and spend time saying this new mantra: "I love you clothes!" And say it out loud if you dare. The sound of a word vibrating the air creates new energy in the air. "I love you, air!" If you don't have a partner, focus love on and into yourself. Love is in you already but it's not moving. If it's not moving, it's stuck and stagnant. Electrons never stop speeding in the subatomic structure of your body, but they slow down. The best love of all is love for yourself, your liver, your lungs, you stomach, your intestines. This is ancient yoga being revived in America today. You can do it o the run, as I do, or you can take an hour to sit quietly in a carefully designed location to give you peace of mind. You can add quiet music playing, perhaps a candle or two or three, and saying, "I love my heart, I love my brain, I love my blood flowing through my veins." But you can do it as you move about. I do. But do it. Start naming the parts of your body and putting your own hands on your own body and feel the love come alive. You can feel it! Allow the love to flow from your hands into your skin. Your legs, your feet, your arms, your stomach, the top of your head. Know that love is constantly pouring through you and love is the swirling atoms and electrons. Love never ceases flowing but it dumbs down when it's not being spoken or focused on. Think love for 5 or 10 minutes, or 30 minutes or an hour. It will help you to NOT go back to thinking negative. This is how to speed up the vibrations of the atomic structure of your body, brain and feeling world.
If you have a primary relationship, give your partner a massage once a week WITH LOVE. Buy a massage table and see what happens. Give your child a massage WITH LOVING HANDS and see what happens. Give your new born baby a massage WITH LOVE when it cries and see what happens. Give a friend a massage. A platonic massage. Give your SELF a loving massage. I do (on occasion!). Then you are re-creating something new. You become a god or goddess in training when you do this with love. Pick up discarded love objects off the floor and dust them off - with love. They too are composed of swirling electrons and nobody ever pays the kitchen chairs or table loving attention. You can transform your dull home into a sacred temple by doing this. Take an object over to the light blazing through the window and examine them. Hold them close to your lips. Smell the sweet fragrance of the love that is held locked inside the atoms and molecules. Revivify all in your life and love it back to excitement again. Be a happy god or goddess. Keep resurrecting that which was cast aside as old.
2/9/23 - Physically upgrading
There has been little time lately to visit the website and post articles. There have been changes. Many changes. A wonderful friend lives with us now, temporarily, until she gets her house back after the Hurricane Ian swept it away. And because we have opened our hearts and doors to give our friend sanctuary, we have taken on renewed responsibilities. We have expanded in different ways. There is a new dynamic in our house. As a result of our commitment to this, Doug and I have been upgraded. We are transforming, meaning we are changing the way we do things. There is additional understanding. We are wiser than we were before, and these create challenges. The challenges create opportunities to change if we are willing, and these bring on new responsibilities. Do we accept them? It's a test. I have found it comes with choices. It's a two-way street. One can refuse or one can suck it up and grow bigger. Get past it. Then I discovered that new energy comes along with it. This is not easy, so I wanted to write about it. I may be seen as an easy-going person to my friends, but I'm as stubborn as anyone else underneath where I live with myself. I have to do it "my way". And that's the part that needs "sucking up".
So now I've been given some specific yoga breathing techniques by my invisible sources, the Himalayan masters. I was guided to three separate books, all of which were tied together on higher levels. They were threaded together. What a privilege to be so connected to benefit from telepathic hints sent to me! It is mind-boggling to wake up with instructions to go here and there and get some new guidelines. However, it is always my choice to accept the guidance. I don't have to but I've learned over the years to pay attention and listen. I got down the three books. They were: Tibetan Tantric Mysticism, a book I didn't know I had - my sister boxed up all her books and sent them to me before she died. Another one led me to Swami Rama, also from my sister. Check him out on Amazon for books, and Youtube for glimpses from lectures. He was raised by the Himalayan masters from the age of three. The third book is a homemade item I made from collections of wisdoms by others. All three books were threaded together by a similar subject. They all contained a thread guiding me to yoga breathing techniques. I was ready and prepared through past practices, and this piece of information took me up another level. A most amazing higher level. One more precise, more refined, more detailed and specific. It is all about focusing and sharpening my focus to see more and better. It's a most interesting journey, the journey towards more enlightenment.
As I practice these techniques I am finding I can do more physical tasks. There is more power. Not muscle power but power of a greater nature. I am energized. It is surprising to me how excited I get. The excitement gives me sustainable power. Wanting to keep going even if it's painful. It's no longer boring. Doing tasks used to be boring. Now it's not boring any more as long as I am discerning. I have to do only those things that need doing, not get carried away into tasks that are not relevant. It's exciting to discover discernment. Stay in your own lane. Be single-minded. Don't let odds and ends creep in and distract. Wanting to get the tasks done is a power. There is a power overlighting me that is guiding me. It is my higher self wanting to get these tasks done. If I stray outside of the Plan of my higher self, I get tired. This is a most important point. If I stay with the Plan of my higher self, I am rewarded with enthusiasm and feel fulfilled and energized. There is an eternal presence around and over me. This presence is one of attention. I must be careful and stay in the present moment and the "presence". Then there is no room for boredom. There is too much aliveness and excitement happening. It comes flooding in, this aliveness. It is stimulating and revealing. Revelations happen on the go, as I move around.
Practicing these exercises, which are not new, but I have a new understanding of the NOW and the PRESENT, I am finding a new way to live. The benefits are without question the best ones I've seen. But they take time. Practicing breathing techniques requires time out to sit still and really do the breathing. I see there are huge benefits. There is a quickening and a resurrection of interest and joy of life. There is a reason why yoga has survived the eons. The techniques work.
The difference between the casual yoga practitioner and the one who carves out time every day to practice, is that there are provable benefits that show up physically. I am seeing them myself. I was the former practitioner before. Now I am following the masters' guidance. How they did it. Yoga can be done for fun and to socialize with others as a beginning. But eventually it leads to a commitment to one's self, to be done alone. One has to bite the bullet and shut off the world to do inner work. It's a focusing of the eternal mind. The mind has been allowed to be a follower of others. But now, feeding the mind with a specific job to concentrate upon is something quite different. The mind perks up and pays attention. It is a universal hook up with other cosmic minds and forces. It's a lineage. It's a thread to other minds who have gone before and can guide how to tweak a practice and make it even better. It's done through telepathy, mind to mind. There is a definite physical effect on the strengthening and vitality of the body. It's a linking into a power that we as limited creatures are not aware of normally. It's always been there but unless we take specific instructions, we would not know about it.
So I am upgrading. It is all done with the mind. The mind is eternal. It expands when we give it new direction. It relapses when we give up. We can expand it or reduce it. They say there is no end to mind, no final resting place, It is an expanding that goes beyond our traditional way of thinking, but we have to tap into it. The only way to get to the levels waaaaay-up-beyond where we are today is to start with the small, tightly closed end of our minds and agree to open that door and begin there. It's like opening a door of an abandoned old house, not very pleasant on the outside, not blissful at all, nor attractive. But by walking inside the front door and looking around inside (per instructions) one finds something interesting and attractive there. It is rather a simple thing to do. All we have to do is do it. It's tricky choosing to ignore the crowd outside yelling and trying to get our attention with trauma and drama on every side. But once we get past those distractions and carve out time to go alone to practice, one is well on the way to betterment. As the mind starts to focus on the the inner self, the muscles and tissues of our own body, including the brain, the better we feel. The body registers change and reaps the benefits, physically and energetically. One is upgraded.
2/1/23 - Moving closer to group ascension massage exchanges
Journaled six years ago. During meditations that morning I had a lot of realizations and had to write them down to remember them. First of all, I saw chaos this morning. It was in the form of different colored energies, little tiny particles. They were kind of lost and moving around and mixing in with other dissimilar colors, shapes and textures, seemingly at random. There was no order to the chaos. It was confusing. The feeling was that of being lost and trying to find their thread to home but didn’t know how. I realized that out of this confusing mix that it is up to me to sort them out. It is my job to make sense of the chaos. and yet how can I do it with my mind? I don’t know how. I can’t make sense of them but I can become peaceful.
I was shown that by becoming peaceful and not trying to make sense of them, I give them space to relax and spread out and slow down. By so doing they begin to sort them selves out. As they relax they come naturally into close vicinity of other familiar particles by natural attraction. By my becoming peaceful and serene, the chaos also becomes more peaceful. The restless particles slow down and are attracted to its own kind. They develop a bond with their family. They return home. They link and connect with their own families. As I become peaceful, I see that the chaos is coming from outside of me, and by becoming peaceful I produce a buffer zone that those little particles of chaotic energy cannot penetrate because I am not producing them. Therefore they are not returning to me. If I were producing them they would return to me, but I did not produce them so they are going away, by natural attraction, to someone else. I become like a mirror, reflecting the chaos away from me and sending it home to where it belongs.
Next, I see that my massage therapist friend, Marcus, is working with earth energies and the kundalini. I am working with the sky energies, the spirit or soul. We keep our soul, the same soul, from body to body but each new body gets a new spark of kundalini. We have been unsuccessful in bringing our soul down to meet our earth energy, the kundalini, which is the goal. We need to integrate our soul (our self) with the earth body’s energy in order to bring about an enlightened earth body. We fail to do this over and over and over. We live many lives to try again. We continually get a body and the body dies without having done the integration so we have to come back and try again. But my realization is that Marcus is here to work with the earth energies and I am focused on the sky energy, from which comes the formless light, which is abstract information. I like to write about spiritual law and spiritual light. I am in tune with and in touch with other ascended masters and the galactics. Both groups. Inner space and outer space. I invoke them every day. This is my source of information and my reason for being. Marcus is focused on love. He is a massage therapist and is focused on the physical body and the more practical, physical energies. He and his wife focus on the land around their property and they work with the elementals of trees, bushes, flowers, birds, bees and all within the nature kingdom. I do not have that interest. My interest is galactic and the ascended realms.
Marcus is male, focused on the physical and he is more mental than I am. I am female focused on the non-physical, and not mental at all. It would seem we are opposites but we both are focused on love and loving the body. It’s just that I am not interested in the physical muscles of the body where he is. I am interested in stroking the body in a subtle, loving way. Marcus can do that too, but he is different from me. We seem to be opposites and yet we are much the same. The differences are that he is focused on tantric massage, and getting the person’s consciousness to accept the kundalini so as to bring about the earth energies in a more real and benevolent way. Where I am interested in raising the person’s consciousness upward, above the dense lower vibrating body, to the higher heart and top of the head.
Marcus does both therapeutic massage and loving energy massage. I don’t know the physical very much and was not too interested when attending massage school. He knows both physical and non-physical modalities. He knows how to feel kundalini when the person allows it into her consciousness. Marcus can be contacted HERE.
My desire is to hold a layman’s massage workshop. Not to teach about muscles, and not to teach how to arouse erotically, and not to teach how energy works, and not to teach at all, actually. But simply to give each person in attendance the chance to feel what it’s like to touch other bodies openly and freely. We would start with clothes on as a beginning. It does not have to be in the nude. I want to give people the confidence in touching others. That it is OK and to give them assurances that it is OK and some simple encouragement. Go ahead and try it. As long as the receiver is giving their permission for you to touch them. When we all give permission, we can lay hands on each other. It is in the practice of this that we will become free. Don’t call it massage if you don’t want to . It is not really massage that we are doing. It is permission to touch, really. That’s all it is. And to experience what it feels like.
There is a mixing of energies when you touch someone else with caring. Slowly. Not just brushing them quickly, superficially, over the outer skin. The slowness makes it intimate. It allows YOUR energies to enter into the receiver’s energies through the skin. It’s not about arousing them for sex. It’s about connecting energies as an equal. It is an experience that cannot be defined in words. It is connecting up, linking up, joining, fusing and permission is needed. Each person is a piece of the sea of consciousness, what we call the creator or God. Each person is a piece of God’s consciousness. God wants to express itself in the physical. We have been holding it back. Our physical body houses a certain presence, a certain consciousness, a certain intelligence, a certain feeling that can’t be duplicated because each person has a unique pattern that is contained in the soul (the self). When we all get together for massage exchanges - ascension massage which has a higher goal than sexual arousal - we are broadening and expanding ourself by coming out of our private little isolated separated closet. When we blend openly this way with several others, we feel more free, more peaceful and more accepted into the fold of family. It is like coming home. We expand closer to the heaven world.
A Zoom meeting doesn’t provide the same feeling. Someone asked about having a Zoom meeting for this, but it wouldn't work. The Presence is housed inside the physical cells, blood, tissues, organs of the person's body and radiates outward. In some people it remains stifled and closed. We are each different. We are each a piece of the creator walking around on the earth feeling frustrated because of all these restrictions and limitations and taboos about not saying what you really feel and not being able to do what you really want to do, not feeling spontaneously free. In a carefully structured massage exchange, this sense of freedom can be taught and practiced. A zoom meeting would not allow this to happen. Our current societal laws prevent us from touching each other freely but this can change with some ground rules. We are blocking the creative intelligence that is within us wanting to express itself. Freedom to express is being blocked. Creativity is being blocked. Excitement is being blocked. The thrill of discoveries are being blocked. We are each here to bring it forth into the outer world. We’ve been blocked and held back from the time we were small children so that we have incorporated the taboos and cultural conditionings into our adult day-to-day life. We never get a chance to feel free because we are overly burdened to remember the laws. We are not allowed to be open, honest or able to touch freely and feel other people, even with caring loving intention.
I am saying here that there is a way to start moving outward from behind closed doors. There is a way to begin the process of shining our light, and our light is love.
I focus on light. I use the word “light” more often than Marcus does. Marcus focuses on love. He uses the love word more than I do. But they are the same thing. Light is unformed immaculate never-ending intelligence from the sky, and love is this light when it is owned by someone who applies it to their daily life. Then they make it physical and practical the light then becomes love. It becomes love when it is functioning and operating in a human body. No one knows who they really are underneath the pre-conditioned cultural restrictive mask until they start shining and expressing freely. It is about freedom. We each begin to know ourselves as we express freely during our daily life - with love, not violence! Not pushiness. Not demanding attention. Not egotistical or rude or arrogant. But quietly open and free and caring. (Journaled 2/9/17)
1/31/23 - Abortion, old age and other things
(From journal 9/26/81) I have such a desire to write but there is too much. I am seeing so many things. Yesterday on the way to our friend's house we drove past a cemetery and I saw – no, I KNEW, experienced something. I saw that the cemetery is a doorway, an opening through which the soul is freed. It is a marvelous threshold, but oh, these words are useless! It is so much more than that. It is a wonderful experience to be there, and after you have passed it, the threshold no longer exists. It is so unimportant – the cemetery!
Oh, the truth is so beautiful to know. It is so – merely there. It has never gone anywhere but it merely hides behind a little veil so we cannot see. But it is there, nonetheless. It is lovely, complete, like coming home whenever I see beyond that little veil. How I wish everyone could see as I do. I try to tell Bob but it sounds so useless, so out of place, and I am bursting with happiness but I must keep it to myself. I am overflowing with a sense of fulfillment, yet there is no one to share it with.
And I saw something else. Everyone has made such a big deal over abortions. How can you kill a living life? Others say, but there is no life there at all. I don’t know what caused me to see this but I did. At conception only a very small percentage of the spark of life that is the individual comes into the fetus. Only about 1 to 5%, so to abort it you are not killing anything, because 90 to 95% (more or less) remains where it was before coming. You haven’t killed anything because it has only just begun. The nine-month carrying period is too long for more than 1 to 5% of the living, breathing consciousness to be confined – shut up as it were with no way to express. This living flame of life which is our consciousness is too grand, too unique, too knowledgeable, to be cooped up like that. It cannot be cooped up in a prison. That is why it does not all gather at once at the moment of conception. It sends an advance guard to prepare its house – the house it shall move into when it is finished.
And then, at the grand moment of birth, the big exciting moment, the 90 or 95% of that vital living consciousness moves in, bag and baggage, like a monarch complete with troops. All together, alive, knowing, breathing, prepared to take over. And thus it is that the first breath of life is consciousness taking over the body. Thus it is that many people remember a long, dark tunnel with a light at the end. This is the moment of entering the body. It is a marvelous, psychic, conscious moment. And one not to be forgotten.
And I saw other things – I saw the reason consciousness sometimes seems to disconnect from the immediate problem of life – as when you daydream. This is living proof that the consciousness is a separate thing from the body and brain. How else could it drift away to some far off place and be conscious of other things? Because it is not anchored to the body – it is only using the body as a man uses a house and he may come and go at will. This is the majesty of man, he is a noble God that moves and breathes in living Light, in freedom and universality. How great it will be when he wakes up and realizes what he truly is!!!!
These things I see and more. I see that old age - I saw this, experienced it for a brief passing moment, for that is how I “see” – that old age is (I must be careful with my words) the flaming spirit that lives within the consciousness and is ALWAYS trying to manifest in the physical world and in the flesh. This is a preamble now. That is its purpose for coming – to realize itself in living flesh, in living solids, to UNITE with the physical world. It is attempting always to do this, that is its motivation, its reason for existence, that is the driving urge inside a man that yearns to be free. It matters not what avenue it takes, whether an intellectual like a professor, or a working man like a machinist – it doesn’t matter – a profession is only a colorful tool through which to express the INNER URGE. The inner urge is a spark which has been ignited and it is flaring now. Within the body of a man the living spirit is flaring and trying to find room in which to complete its pre-appointed task. And thus the living spirit in man is striving to come out into the world and be seen. Only that individual knows when the spark has succeeded. Only that individual knows the wonderful feeling of fulfillment, contentment, peace, which is the aftermath of an explosion that set him free. But for one reason or another he has failed. Failed to comply with the cosmic laws which say: yield! Bend! Hark! Listen! Follow your heart! The heart is speaking – the living spark within. But no. Man does not want to listen. He wants to do it HIS way, the way of his opinion. The way HE thinks is right. The way He has been trained. So long as a man says, “I think!” or “I know”, he does not know. He does not! Because when the day comes that he knows, he will not have to defend his right to know. He will step aside and smile the smile of knowingness.
And so old age is the giving up, the spark within knows that it is not going to accomplish its purpose in this life and so relinquishes its vitality over the cells of flesh. There is nothing a man can do, but look at himself in the mirror and watch old age creeping over his body. It is a sign that he will eventually die. Not his spark of consciousness – that will go on. But the chance of finding himself in this body has gone. Passed away. To try again in another body. Old age is the outer skin starting to decompose first. As the life is withdrawn it withdraws from the outer first, and it is slow, but steadily faster. Can it be checked? YES! It can be checked in midstream – at the age of 70, 80, or 90! All it takes is waking up! Determination to be free, determination to put aside the false habits of a false world and be oneself in living color! It is possible! It is desirable! But it is something one must do alone! No one will understand. And yet, there is a universe of living souls who know what you are doing. They are waiting to help. They are joined to the one who determines to succeed. They are there. They have talked to me. I have known them. (Journaled 9/26/81)
1/29/23 - Symbiosis
In the night the other night I woke with inspiration and began writing. "Symbiosis - allowing the laws of harmony vs. following the laws of separation. Symbiosis. The universe operates on the law of harmony or synthesis, whereas mankind has been operating on the law of separation. When you massage (friend staying with us) you allow a blend to occur between her energy field and yours. The normal human ego respects another person’s field and does not interfere with it. He or she stops short of blending with another, allowing the boundary to exist between them, the law of separation. Allowing the hard edges between one person and another. It is called respecting free will."
I went off to sleep and woke up again with more information. I wrote it down: "Symbiosis is tilting the law of gravity in favor of blending separate fields, whereas the law of gravity pulls toward the center of each being, whether man, animal, plant, etc., keeping each being separated from others."
I went off to sleep again and woke up a third time to write: "The flash event - when everyone will turn toward the law of harmony and away from the law of free will and separated boundaries. The harmony is expanding in the universe and it is hitting earth. It’s a shifting and the shift will reach that certain saturation point where everything will shift toward harmony."
I went off to sleep again and woke up a fourth time, with a realization that I have been following the light in my body rather than the dark in my body ever since I went into the light 47 years ago. Before that time, I too followed the dark in my body as the artificial laws of the culture lay heavy on me as they do on everyone I know, but after the kundalini awakened in 1976 I was changed by the ascension process. I didn't know what happened, but this realization was another added piece of information to inform me. Therefore, when I am close to another person I naturally attract the LIGHT in the other person rather than the dark or artificial or wrong beliefs in that person, often referred to as the artificial intelligence in that person. I understood that I have more light operating in me than most people, and this allows me to magnetize the light in the other person when I put myhands on them, as I have been doing with my friend since she has been staying with me.
It is not me giving something to her, but rather the light in me is connecting with the light in her. It is not anything that I am "doing" for her. It is a resonance, a universal law - the universal law of harmony - which was given to me in during my dream state, explaining it to me and shedding more light on my understanding. This explains why I feel so good at the end of my massage. It is a doubling effect of light, her light with my light increased for both of us. I have been feeling quite blissed out myself after giving the massage to my friend, and I wondered about this. It is the magic of the light moving within the cells and tissues of our bodies.
The light in me is getting stronger. It is seductive. I share this information knowing that it is happening with others, too. I yearn to reach out to other people and blend with the light in them, too, and so I reveal this inner happening. The light is growing stronger in people especially who meditate on spiritual concepts. Perhaps the time is coming when we can start the ascension massage exchange. I can't go forward with it until there is a "green light" that says "GO!" There are many signs coming through various spiritual channels. The physical body starts to glow. We can see it in some people. It is not a literal light, but it is a shining. You can see it in a person who captivates your attention. Someone you might like to get to know better but you don't know how to broach them. I believe transfiguration is a good word to use here. Perhaps it is a mild form of transfiguration. I am told that physical ascension may happen in a gentle manner, when light is triggered throughout the cells of the body and the body glows. As a person may master their light better as they become more aware of their inner thoughts and feelings and therefore are more gentle and careful how they express themselves. Becoming a master of their innermost self is the work that many people are going through in these days of mindfulness, meditation, yoga and other disciplines. There is a waking-up process taking place among many people. It is important to be aware of this.
A gradual understanding is taking place that the physical ascension that is being discussed more and more these days, is not necessarily a "disappearance" act. An individual might not be "taken up" as I once thought - as in "beam me up Scotty!" Rather, it is possible that an individual might become such a master of their thoughts and feelings that they can maintain a sufficient balance to stay grounded and present here. A balance between the light and dark within their physical cells, atoms and tissues that would allow them to maintain their physical presence here with the rest of us. This is an understanding that is gradually taking shape in my mind. The contrast is between the purity or holiness that is the actual life of the tissues of the body, versus the artificial beliefs, doubts and fears of the human ego that is constantly shifting and weighing outcomes.
The yearning to connect with others is growing ever stronger but so is my ability to discipline and control any selfish thought or desire that might pop up and lead me astray. Massaging my friend is natural and easy. It is a wonderful, blissful experience for both of us when it is done. She has a need for healing and I supply the hands, but there is healing in BOTH of us - I benefit from it too. I feel sure I will be led to connect with more people as time goes on. I welcome any comments and feedback from readers. Send it to me thru the contact page.
1/25/23 - Tantra teaches how to expand the rapture
During a new moon ceremony eleven years ago I began dreaming and chanting my hopes and wishes into a glass of water and subsequently poured it out into the earth outside the screen room. During this time I saw many visions and revelations. I saw that all of the rays of colors have to come down and reach the kundalini at the base of the spine in order to be complete down here in physical earth. It is called the Antahkarana, the rainbow bridge. The hard part is getting the vibrations of the colors to lower in density, for each color is vibrating at a different frequency, and it IS a light. It is an attribute in the form of light. Each color comes through the chakra portal. It needs to be brought down one by one to connect with kundalini, the light at the bottom of the tunnel, which is a portal to the reservoir of divinity within the root chakra.
I saw many many people bringing down these colored rays to connect with the etheric light at the base of the spine in what is termed “orgasm”. The orgasm is the connecting link. Then (WOW!) God is walking on earth! Each human being is a piece of God trying to reach earth from its high ethereal place and it is very difficult because earth is vibrating at such a low, dense level. This is a major project to bring down the light to earth, but when it does, the orgasm happens. God walks the earth when orgasm happens. How long the orgasm lasts is how long God-Goddess gets to walk in flesh. Can you hold it in the body? Can you prolong the rapture?
You can only do so by expanding your MIND. Your MIND allows the rapture to expand upward into the rest of the body above the pelvic zone. Don’t keep it down there but raise it up. Tantra masters try to teach this. As you work at this you will prolong the rapture of orgasm. The goal is to expand it so all the cells are bathed in this essence of divinity called the nectar of the Gods. I see it simply as an explosion of light that doesn’t die. It continues to shine and radiate.
Then I saw the master Djwal Khul. The pain that I see in his eyes are transformed now into deep humility, intelligence, adoration and gratitude is the highest vibration of all. It is the most exquisite, the most beautiful of all colors and textures and vibrations in all of God’s many vibrations. I see many people coming together and meeting in this “oneness” plane of God consciousness. They are making love by allowing love to expand between them. I do not know how this is accomplished, whether it is through sexual penetration or simply by tantric process. I see the light of God coming to human beings in a very real or surreal way.
And I am reminded not to forget the love. It is all about love. Love IS the body of God. God is Love. Words are speaking to me in my mind. Learn to use the higher road in choosing your words. Put sacred vibration into your words. Love of freedom is freedom to love. When love is coming through someone, God is coming through. The person is just the portal. God is coming through. God is love. That’s why love is the highest energy we can conceive as intelligent, thinking human beings. There is nothing higher. We are home when we are in love. It is our origin, and our source. Where we came from.
I am seeing a race of men and women who are graceful and walk with dignity and nobility AND they are human too. Can you imagine this? God walking around as a human? It’s happening right now and our lifestyle is allowing that because we are encouraging sexual exploration, which is the avenue for the divine to enter into the human body. We are playing with the essence of God Creator! (Journaled 6/2/11)
1/23/23 - The old timeline is disappearing
The old timeline is disappearing, a new timeline is coming into play. How do I process this? One timeline is grounded in the physical and traditional and is confusing. The typical solution when something is wrong is to go to the doctor. My husband keeps reminding me. But this thought is filled with doom and gloom for me. I don’t want to go to a doctor. It feels like more sickness to me. It confuses me. The other timeline is peaceful, blissful, warm, connected and loving. Is this what they call dementia? Or is this ascension? To me I feel best when I’m holding myself to my center, to the central column of my trunk and spine, leaning neither to the left or the right, or to the outside to someone else or to the heavens above to some unknown savior, but rather holding to neutrality, to balance, to oneness, to be fully present in the here and now. It feels like love to me. It is warm and comforting. Clarity fills my head and security fills my body, every cell and organ is more present and accounted for instead of confused and not knowing what to do. I am present in my body, I feel to be somewhere in the center of my heart and lung and lower body area. I feel as if everything is alright. It’s secure. There is a feeling of rightness. I move more easily to do what needs to be done, without thinking about it. This is what I’ve been feeling lately as I continue to use the two-tennis-balls-in-a-sock to press out the pain locked in my back. It is interesting to me because I am more detached. The DIY exercises at home, plus lying on the acupuncture mat every day, is changing me. I feel more alive, more able to respond, quick to react when I’m needed. What happened to my old sensation of, “Ohh, do I have to? I don’t want to!” What is going on in me? Whatever it is, I like it!
1/20/23 - The jewel in the lotus
This morning I had a most wonderful experience during my meditation. I saw what expectations are doing to people. To me. I saw expectations, many expectations and beliefs, in the form of a flower fully open. The flower petals were the expectations and beliefs, unfolding quite beautifully all around the central stamen, which appeared as a shining jewel in the center - the prize that has been overlooked by everyone who is seeking outside of themselves for answers. The expectations showed themselves to me as walls and barriers. Boundaries that block the way to the real within. Yet they are safe enough. They are OK. We search outside of ourselves, facing away from our real and authentic self - the ultimate prize at the center. By trying to define what we want, what we need, what we feel to others, we do not see the beauty that is lying within. We look and reach to others for what we want to have happen, and what we want the other person to do for us. And when we get together in little groups, each person has a different set of scenarios of what they want to have happen, and with who, and under what conditions, etc. Each person's expectation of the best possible outcome is hanging out there in his or her auric field, in the far reaches of our minds, and it blocks us from successfully getting it because it's too fixed, too narrow, too focused, too unattainable. Nobody could possibly fill that expectation. It is less than what our real self can provide if only we would stop expecting.
It is OK, though, because we are creators and we are here to learn by creating through trial and error and experimentation. We are here to experiment with other people as our mirrors. We have created a lot of wisdom through our experimentation and our travels with people, some special people, some accidental, some traumatic. We have been creating our life situations by defining what we want and then expecting it to work out that way. Sometimes it does, but often it doesn't because the real jewel is at the center of the flower. The jewel is in the lotus at the center but we are distracted by the beautiful, glamours petals of many colors and designs. The jewel in the lotus is our real self. The sovereign self who stands alone. We haven’t discovered it yet. We haven't learned the practice of sitting alone by ourselves and looking inside the treasure chest. When we start to open the jewel-encrusted chest, which we will learn later is the body itself, we are going to find the most extraordinary things. Within the physical body is an amazing ability to feel depths upon depths of feelings.
Expectations are a problem. Expectations are scenes and beliefs we hold in our minds of what we want to have happen. It's a planned scenario. We fix our mind on something and it stays there solid and immovable, like a barrier. We are seeking this thing to happen for us, but it's unattainable because every person has a different substructure than we do. Our infrastructures are all different. There are no two alike. We don't match. We can't fit. The only way we can fit together is to drop our expectations and allow the subconscious infrastructure (the soul) to find itself. We cannot know what that will be. It will be spontaneous because it doesn't come from pre-determination. It doesn't come from the mind. It comes from the flow between people. The chemistry can't be controlled. We can't imagine it. It is a feeling from a deeper place. A wider place. A cosmic place. We don't know what is to come because it hasn't arrived yet. We have to open ourselves to the flow first, and then it will arrive. The joyful experience of merging with others without expectations allows the moving of emotions, the sensation of feelings within us that have not surfaced yet and are therefore not restricted to a limited mental expectation. We can find this by coming together with others with an open HEART and an open mind, touching them and hugging them and interacting with them closely, yes, close and real but without expectations. Without demands on someone else to fulfill us. This is the hardest thing to understand, but understand we must. We are to drop our expectations which have fixed us on lesser things, narrow things which hold us trapped in petty goals, fixed like concrete. And they are holding us back.
Freedom is a sensation. We all want to feel free to enjoy ourselves, freedom to move around and freedom to feel the excitement that comes from no pressure, nobody demanding anything from us, freedom to move as we feel to move. But freedom does not come from someone outside. Freedom is a sensation that one must give to oneself, but dropping all expectations. Then the freedom can flow out and meet the ones who are on the same wave length. Freedom to be authentic is the jewel in the lotus. It's hard to imagine, although we've all had a momentary flash here and there. We know the potential is there. It's possible. What is holding it back? I saw this morning that it is expectations that are holding us back.
1/17/23 - The fully realized man
(From 9 years ago) This morning a wonderful vision was shown to me of a fully realized man. Uumm, lovely. This vision came as a feeling coupled with a picture. It affected me on levels that are wordless. I want to try to express the feeling because I am always focusing on the feminine qualities and, contrary to popular belief, a man who is fully in touch with his feminine side is waaaaay more attractive than one who is not. Most readers interpret feminine to mean woman or a gay man, but there is something powerfully masculine in a man who is whole and complete with both a gentle side and a strong masculine side. Every man has a feminine side, for he is 50% male and 50% female. Most men have been conditioned to hide their female side. Likewise, every woman is 50% female and 50% male, she just hides the 50% male side so she is not wholly empowered. But let's look at an empowered man.
A man's body is male, no question about it. But his body is only the vessel through which he moves and operates as an intelligent operating force. The body is a vehicle, just like his car that he gets into every day and drives. The body is not who he is. Who he is is intelligence manifesting as thought and feeling. This intelligent being is both male and female in thought and feeling. It is only when he is raised in a less-than-perfect society as ours is, that he is indoctrinated from infancy to hide his female side. A boy is taught from infancy to "be a man" and thus close off his delicate sensitivities which are his feminine side. Most boys are taught not to cry and not to express emotion or high ideals or a sense of justice or fairness, or appreciation for beauty or a taste for dance or the arts. These are too delicate, in our society, for a man to have. They are "gay". And yet these are very much a part of his wholeness. He cannot be complete without them. As he grows into adulthood and continues to deny expression to his own inner beauty and grace, he grows harder and more masculine. More macho. He develops a certain hunger for the feminine touch, for his body needs it. His body follows its natural growth pattern and at puberty there is a physical awakening of sex hormones in the genital region, indicating he can now reproduce, but there is a deeper and more intense hunger. He needs feminine energy for his soul, not just his body. He is lacking in that area - intimacy, gentleness, awe and wonder, because he has been trained to shut that side of him down and he is energetically out of balance. He is tilting too far over into the masculinity zone.
Perhaps the reader will disagree with me, but I am sharing a word picture of something I saw today - a fully-realized man. A whole man, not a screwed-up man with issues. We do not see such men in our society often, if ever. A fully realized man is not hungry for sex, nor is he hungry for a relationship. He is his own man and happy with his life. He is balanced between his heart (feminine) and his mind (masculine). He has learned to keep his heart open. He has not closed off his feminine side. His physical body is male and he is attracted to women in the same way as any normal man, for he loves to be in love and he loves beauty, grace and togetherness. But sex is not driving him. He has a respect for the whole person, and an appreciation of nature and ALL people everywhere - not just women. He has the ability to enjoy the many pleasures that the world has to offer, and the ability to be in joy and spontaneity as he feels, as well as to be serious, practical and a leader of men where needed. He can laugh and cry as he is moved to do so. And he can be the warrior when he is called upon, because he does not have unresolved issues plaguing him. He embodies his own wholeness in his skin, and he is comfortable with who he is. He is not operating at the 50% level, which we would call the macho male, but is the kind of man all men and all women would find attractive and likeable.
It's hard to describe the feeling of what I saw. It was a feeling. It was a presence. It was loving and warm and yet masculine in every way. It was wise and intelligent. Profoundly knowledgeable. He was like a god in a man's body. You could not help but stop and gaze at him in wonder, trying to figure out what it was that captivated you. But he was just a human being. I am trying to define the feeling, the impact, the glow and the presence of this man in my vision. He had a very powerful presence. You could imagine him being able to move mountains if he wanted to, but that he kept that power under wraps until needed. This gave an image of a very strong, very warm, very gentle, very human, and very attractive man.
I am painting this picture so that men who read this might understand - allowing your female side to express in your thoughts and emotions. This picture I paint is not being gay, and not being feminine. It is being more masculine, not less. It is important that a man realize how much he loses by not allowing his sensitive nature to co-exist along with his masculine. He has this energy within him. It is a powerful spiritual energy. I am articulating this for a reason. If men everywhere accepted his femaleness, the world would spring back to rightness immediately, for it has been the unbalanced male who has become unduly aggressive, mean and vicious without his feminine side. He would become in short time very comfortable with himself and at peace with his life. What at first feels vulnerable to him would eventually prove to be a wholeness that he has not experienced before, and it would give him more power, purpose and meaning.
The inner feminine is sometimes called the inner child. The inner child has been neglected. The inference is that the child has not grown up to adulthood, but here’s the thing: the inner female is always a child. It is happy and joyful and spontaneous and in love with life. It is the delightful twinkling in the eye at play. A man who has these qualities would be stronger than those men who do not express it. All men could express their inner child, with a little shift into solitary alone time to connect with it. He would be able to give expression to his inner, heretofore unexpressed inner thoughts and feelings. He would be MORE of a man, not less. He would find himself surprisingly stronger than he ever thought possible, because he would be operating on 100% fuel instead of only 50%.
The fuel is the spirit of the person, not the body itself. The fuel is the life force of an individual, not the body itself. The body is only the vehicle, the car, that the person gets into and drives around. When the person runs out of fuel, out of spirit, out of life force, then the car, the body, runs down and grows old. It cannot keep itself alive. It needs the fuel - the 100% octane. The macho male thinks he is so powerful and manly, but he can't do it alone without the spiritual fuel of 100% - the other half of himself which is hidden. One who has accepted his own gentleness, grace, vulnerability, beauty and refinement, would appear as a gentleman. That private acceptance within would flood his mind, body and feelings and saturate him with powerful confidence and inner knowledge. No amount of book learning or higher education gives that to a man. Only his willingness to connect with his heart, the feminine and spiritual side of himself.
The same is true with a woman. Most women operate on 50% of their life force, not 100% as they could. Yes, their physical bodies are feminine and they might be the most beautiful woman in the world. But their bodies are only a vessel, a vehicle. She herself is a non-physical, very powerful being using that beautiful body to operate through. When she, the powerful being, is raised as a young girl by her parents, she is more than likely being cultivated toward the feminine side. They are probably clipping and cutting back her male side, so she will fit in better with the world. Most girls are taught to be soft and gentle and to not express their intellectual side or their strengths or practicalities or tendencies for science, math, politicians, baseball or motorcycles. And yet she has all of these tendencies within her. They are skills and talents and abilities. Who knows what she would produce if she did not cut off her male side?
As young girls grow into womanhood they become increasingly hungry for male energy - the male energy that they rejected and were denied expression to. They grow unbalanced. She develops a certain hunger for boys. And when her body awakens at puberty with sex hormones flooding her nerves and tissues, she has no control over it. She needs and wants a boy man. Whereas if she had been allowed to be a fully-realized girl from childhood she would not be caught in the flood of emotions at puberty. Imbalance causes her intense desire for male energy, for she has refused to let it live and express in her. This hunger radiates out into the atmosphere around her and men and boys are attracted to it like a moth to a flame.
When a person blocks whole portions of themselves from expressing, which our society unfortunately requires, there is the beginning of imbalance. It manifests as inability to see clearly or choose wisely and as a hunger for the opposite sex or fighting with the opposite sex. Wholeness, on the other hand, is a feeling of being healthy, at peace and more or less fulfilled. It is the aching hunger for the opposite sex that is the most damaging result of denying the inner male or the inner female from expressing. It creates the friction and the struggle that exists between men and women everywhere. It is global. Even in our enlightened society here in the West, there is enmity between men and women. This enmity dissolves into love during a love affair and honeymoon, but quickly disappears after that. Why?
Because while they are in love they are balanced in their energies. Love balances. Love accepts. Love does not reject or deny. Love includes. As soon as they stop being in love, they fall out of balance again and the hunger returns for the opposite sex. And yet it is within the man himself, within the woman herself, that the balance is found. One can have hundreds of sex partners in life and never achieve that ultimate peace that comes with being in balance. It is all about energy. Inner energy. Male and female energy integrated inside one's own skin. Is it possible a baby can be raised as a fully-realized boy or girl? I believe it is not only possible but that we are seeing it with our own eyes. It is happening right now in the child prodigies. What we call "geniuses" but they are not geniuses. They are merely healthy, whole-bodied individuals operating on a full tank of life force, fully realized. I believe these child prodigies are not super human but wholly human. (Journaled 10/7/14)
1/16/23 - What kundalini is and feels like when it's flowing
This was written ten years ago after a session of going with the flow of it for an hour, spontaneously following where it led. I had read an old journal and remembered how wonderful it felt, so I gave into it that day for an hour. It was soft, pleasing, warm and the "fuzzies" appeared - that exotic feeling that I can't describe. It feels as if my hands are surrounded by cotton and I am entirely empty of thought. No mind at all. The following words are automatic, as if channeled. I wanted to write about it - the sensations.
Kundalini is a sensation that radiates through the body. It has a purpose. One does not know the purpose because it is another mind, not your own. You can’t read it but you can work with it and communicate with it. It has your own best interests at heart. It is here to serve life, not you in your mortal form, but the life that is trying to blossom in you. It is trying to push the stones and rocks and roots out of the way so it can pierce through the top soil into the light of day. Like a seed that is sprouting from within. Your body has grown old and tired and dense with pollution and poisons. Your belief system is also blocked with walls and limits on what you believe, and rigid thinking of “my way is the right way”. Kundalini is pushing those rigid beliefs out of the way. If you struggle and resist you feel pain. The advice is to yield, surrender, even if you are afraid and don’t understand, yet you must open yourself to this expansion that is going on. Open to this inner sensation the way you would open to a lover. The sensation is expansive, light and buoyant, and blissful and you can feel every cell as if your cells are each one waking up and signaling they are awake. Expanding and pushing outward through the cell walls, as if something is growing larger from inside them and the cell wall is feeling the pressure to expand and open. If you were a seed you would burst your shell and grow a little shoot to grow up through the soil.
This is a real power. You can feel it pressing on your physical cells and you have no clue what it is. It is disturbing to one who does not know these things. It is another part of you that is being born. You do not know this part yet but you will. You should be aware of it before it happens, to be prepared for it. It is a larger intelligence and a larger power. It is both mental and feeling. You can talk to it silently or out loud, mind to mind. And you should. If you don’t, it will expand arbitrarily through your body and leave you in its wake, not knowing, no clue. Stay with it. Agree to it. Ride with it. Yield to it consciously. Say, “Yes, I will go with you. Teach me.” Don’t be left behind. Otherwise you will be overwhelmed by how big it is. It’s greater than you. Keep up with it. Work with it. When you talk with it it will answer and listen to you. But if you don’t talk to it it will carry on without you. It will give you guidance, like to go to a certain area for calmness, or what foods to eat, or what drinks, or when to get up and when to sleep. To show you what you need to do to connect with it. It is a power moving in your body. Talk to it as if it were a friend on the outside of you and you need to communicate with this person who has a different mind than yours. But this friend is on the inside and it is the unborn part you. You are being born a second time now. You are being born again. (Journaled 7/28/14)
1/12/23 - Ancient memories coming alive
The back pain is lessening. Rolling on two tennis balls stuffed into a sock is doing good work. It's a DIY treatment, the best so far to ease and press out the locked-in pain from years doing the same motions over and over. It's lightening up, the cartilage and ligaments which attach bone to muscle. Inwardly I am experiencing ancient light, life, from past embodiments. Awareness is blending into my mind. It feels as if I am reclaiming them after being lost from me from past lives. It's an occult, mystical happening, but it feels so very real and natural. Extremely natural. It is lighting me up on the inside! Giving me more clarity. I see better. Understand better. It is the kundalini stirring.
During the morning routine I've been doing the brain tapping, also. I found the techique online. It is helping. My finger tips feel like needles when they tap on my head, but the voice said, "You have rays of energy coming from your finger tips going into your brain. See the energies penetrating deep into the energies stuck in the brain that have been locked down in there from being recycled and repeated, the same thoughts over and over. Tap, tap, tap them loose. They are literally stuffed and stacked and crammed inside the head and brain as energies forgotten. We think it is a physical brain, but it is a storehouse for memories. We have been trained to focus on only physical outcomes, but we are not physical. We are energy beings. We create with our mental life and our feelings and emotional life. Our energies are what creates our hard physical shell of a body. All our expectations and goals are wrongly focused on physical results. The kundalini re-awakening.
This new realization is stunning. The nerves are literally composed of consciousness, not substance. We are energy beings. As I move through my own awakening process it is a remembering process. I see past lives I have lived coming alive. It's my own effort at learning new techniques that is stirring my consciousness. I am allowing new information to enter. The ancient light from past lives is waking up as pain in my body. It has moved steadily closer to the surface so I can see it and feel it and know it is there. I have suffered so much in past lives and these sufferings are literally "stuck" and are now waking up as I learn new techniques, new exercises, new teachings. Ancient memories coming alive but they move on quickly because I am moving on. I am allowing them and absorbing them into who I am today and who I am today is growing clearer and better. I am lifting them. Lifting them.
The Masters teachings all point in one direction, UP! "Lift them up in to the light, release them and send them back to the light." So that's what I am doing. It is bringing forth old pain and freeing that pain from my body which inherited it because it's mine. Past diseases, past wrong doings, past sufferings, it’s amazing what I am becoming aware of. And the lessons I learned in those lives, the positives are also coming forward. The kundalini is being rekindled. The life force is the kundalini, known by the Christians as the holy spirit. I see who I am better as I fill in long lost gaps in my memory. I am more than I thought I was. I am not a small, narrow, little creature with only one life to suffer through. I have a long line of memory. There is so much more to me. My sister on her death bed said the same thing. In her last moments just before leaving her body, "I'm not who I thought I was!"
And so it is with me as I learn these new techniques and keep myself active. There is movement here. Life is flowing even though sometimes I’m walking bent over from lower back pain, the pain is lessening. I am experiencing betterment. Life is a mysterious thing. It is flowing more today than it was in the past. I’m getting inspired to keep moving and being productive. This is mysterious to me. What is this? Being productive and creative is life-renewing. Lying down to rest must be done quickly or it is stagnating. It is being in balance between action and rest that the mysterious thing called excitement comes alive. The dullness goes away. The boring parts are gone. There is a new lease on life. An old journal from 40 years ago when kundalini was fresh, new and alive, reminds me.....
(6/18/82) This morning as I lay in bed awake, waiting for Bob to wake, there came a sense of light flooding into me. I saw it with that peculiar sense that dawns in the inner mind no matter whether the eyes are open or closed. I saw a steady stream of little sparkling golden balls, almost solid they appeared, moving into me, rolling into me and settling along my back as I lay upon the bed, then steadily as more filled in, slowly rising and disbursing through the rest of me. At the same instant a crystal clearness filled my mind as though I were suddenly clear of the maze and filled with a powerful will to accomplish my purpose. No particular purpose was apparent, only that I could accomplish anything that I set my mind to, that I had the power, or rather I WAS the power to accomplish. I was filled with a will to do and I knew that nothing could ever hold me back. Further, I was in love with life, eager to do, to express, singularly pure and unadulterated. And then it passed.
1/10/23 - Physical nerves are pure consciousness compacted
(automatic writing/channeling) There are only two things you have control over: your thoughts that you think and the feelings that you have. You have control over your thoughts though you may not know it yet. And you have control over your feelings, like happiness, sadness or depression. You may not know this yet but this is the crux of life in general. It is the heart and soul of life and this teaching today. Now, the first aspect is the thought and thinking, because your feeling follows AFTER the thought is entertained and focused on for a while. Most people are unaware of this but energy follows thought. Feeling is an energy. Mantras and affirmations and continual chanting, humming or repeating words. These are the techniques for changing thoughts to a more preferrable place. Gradually the feelings and moods change as more preferred thoughts are applied.
The second thing to be taught to you is this: you could not even have a thought in the first place, if you were not a self-conscious immorotal being. You are an eternal, everlasting being. You have evolved yourself up from a mere babe of an immortal spark in your father’s eye and he made you. He brought you into being, into life, and you are a self-conscious baby, a future God like Him when you grow up. But you were only a baby in the beginning, only an aware babe. That’s all. Just aware. Then began your growing awareness. The mineral kingdom was the first experience of being aware. There was no movement in the mineral kingdom, just sedentary. Then you experienced the plant kingdom with some movement there. Then you experienced being a small animal, then a larger animals. Then animal men walking on two legs, and all the while you grew in self awareness, developing ways to communicate with others.
Today you are a human and your self-awareness has grown to vast proportions. You are aware of happy states and low depressed states, and of couse you are aware of pain and death. Or you are the immortal being who experiences life in different vehicles called bodies. Your body comes and goes, lives and dies, while YOU continue to live and grow in self-awareness and knowledge of yourself. Today you are taking more new steps into self-awareness.
(Me) During practice today, during the MIAP, while bringing down the silver cord to anchor consciously the three-fold flame of love, wisdom and power into the heart, I added the permanent atom to the heart, connecting the silver cord to it. It is THIS body that we are making immortal with our practices.
(Spirit) You’ve always been immortal but your bodies have not been. You have reached the point of realizing that the self-conscious inner work is not an abstract mental technique, but a technique of connecting to your physical body. You are working with THIS body, the one that your mother created in her womb for you. Also, while calling forth the crystal heart from Mother Earth, you’re calling the light, love, wisdom and knowledge of Mother Earth up into your heart. You are inviting it to enter into your physical heart. Your body is a physical child of Mother Earth. You are a child of God, immortal, learning the ways of the planet and of those who have gone before you on this planet. You are building on the structures and pathways of the ones before you. Mother Earth is your mentor and your grandmother as regards the body. She loaned you the material to create the vessel you are living in. The material is HER body. She loans it to the souls who want to come here to have an experience on Earth. Her light is embedded in the cells of your body. When you the immortal comes to live with her, you send your Mother flame ahead of you, down to join with Mother Earth’s light, and together you grow in knowledge and experience. You and Mother Earth.
Your individual light in the form of your Mother flame is your guidance. This is the ancient light you have left behind when you lived and died and left your corpses behind to be buried, unrecognized and unfulfilled. Your weak back is due to giving your power away to others. Females give their power away by giving in to men without understanding the consequences, and men give their power away for taking selfishly from women for themselves alone, without understanding the consequences. Both genders pay with your life. Your life force is depleted for lack of balance.
A weak back is the sign that the mother flame or mother power does not go up the main trunk of the spinal column as it should, in a balanced way. If it DID go up the central spine in a regular ongoing flow, not stopping along the way but recycling in a never-ending river of life, it would create a strong back bone. During sex, the woman gives her power to the man, and the man takes it from her willingly, selfishly using it to rebalance him SELF. He needs to do that because he gives his own power away following the expectations of an unbalanced civilization. He then interprets the sex act as pleasure since it feels good to him, but it is actually the filling in of the depleted back bone and other organs in the lower body. He takes balance from the woman who willingly gives it to him in what she thinks is lovemaking. She even fights for the right to give him this power, which she jealously guards as her rightful possession.
1/9/23 - Expanding past discomfort
This morning I woke with words in my mind: "When you are in pain, expand. When you are frustrated, expand. When you are angry, expand. When you are confused, expand. When you are lonely, expand." The sense I was getting was that it's the conscious effort to expand that does the work. The "working it out" is done by thought, desire and intention, not by physical labor. I remembered the pool filter. Spray cleaning the filter is a job I have to do every month. It's the perfect example of how to apply this principle to every day life.
When I clean the cartridge filter to the pool every month I have to struggle with the steel housing. It's old and bent and it's seen its best years. To unscrew the top of the housing is a job. I have to chisel it off with a screw driver and hammer because it won't budge any more. Then I lift out the cartridge to spray it to clean it with a hose. That's the easy part. Then I have to screw the top back on, which is terribly difficult because the threads are all worn. I started hating this job. I was developing an attitude over this monthly project that used to be easy. The alternative is to buy an whole new, very expensive pool filter. Screwing the top back on requires three or four repeated efforts because the thread do not catch, so I have to back it off and try it again, and finally using the monster wrench to force it at the end. I was using force on this job from beginning to end.
One day it dawned on me as I was struggling to put the steel cover back on, that I needed to ask the elementals in the steel to help me. I have been reading in the ascended master books principles for living more in harmony with the earth. My attacking the frozen and resistant steel housing with frustration was not being very harmonious. So I stopped what I was doing and went silent, imagining the living conscious spirit in the atomic structure of the metal container. I first connected with my higher self by focusing on my heart, and then imagined the living consciousness of the metal housing. I started talking to the steel elementals and thanking them for their service, all the while imagining the steel housing in a state of perfect harmony with beautiful transparent rays of light enfolding it. This was a fairly normal meditative visualization, but I seldom think to do it when I am involved in a mundane task - like working with a frozen steel housing.
When I felt I was harmonized sufficiently, I very slowly turned the large screw on the top, listening with inner ears and seeing with inner eyes the life and consciousness within the steel. I maintained this awareness with every slow turn of the large screw. It takes 21 turns to complete the screw-down of the top of the pool filter. As I reached the 10th and expected resistance, there was none. I cautiously continued, keeping my harmony and stillness and reached the 15th turn. Still no resistance. I continued on 18, 19, 20, 21. Still no resistance. I felt around the rim for lop-sidedness which signals that it went on crooked again. If so, I would have to back out and do it over again. But this time it was firmly embedded into its groove. The steel was purring like a kitten. I was amazed! It worked! I didn't even have to use the oversize wrench to make the final turn to tighten it by force which I had done in the past. I felt the urge to say silently, "Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! I love you. I love you. I love."This was the day that changed my relationship with the pool filter housing. It is still old, bent, and frozen in certain parts, but I have a new relationship with it. I don't hate the job any more.
Neale Donald Walsh once said, “Life begins at the end of your comfort zone”. What the heck does that mean? I related that statement to this experience with the pool filter. Discomfort is normal for most people. We've grown comfortable with discomfort and therefore we don't always realize that we are having a situation that we could improve upon if we were aware. Discomfort is the normal comfort zone for a lot of us but it creates labor-intensive responses to situations, which only builds stress, anger and frustration because we're doing it the hard way. We are comfortable with discomfort. We're comfortable using force on what is a living, conscious, breathing being. It's normal for humans to use force. It's the big change that we are all growing through now. How to expand past force and become friends with objects of nature and people who are not normally likeable. Our old way of doing things is our comfort zone, but we need to come to the end of our comfort zone of discomfort. It's time to find more expanded and harmonious comfort that is gentle with us.
It takes awareness to know when we're uncomfortable, to catch ourselves in the act of being uncomfortable so that we can do something about it. So that we can stretch ourself beyond that discomfort. That is where pain, a bad situation or a terrible, traumatic event is an opportunity. I can’t open the door to new life when everything is going well and I am happy. But when I am at the threshold of pain or suffering or something is going wrong, then I have an opportunity. Standing at the threshold of feeling bad and life is threatening to pull down under into a bad place, it's a perfect opportunity to go within and push that feeling back. Expand when you are in pain. Expand when you are lonely. Expand when you are sad.
At that moment of discomfort I have a choice whether to continue being in discomfort, or expand by relaxing inward into the silence and stillness of my heart. Meditation is something that everyone should be doing, at least a little every day, to get some practice in for the real thing, for when it is needed the most. By expanding inward into the silence of your heart you open the door to - what? You don't know but there is stillness there. There is silence there. There is peace and there is acceptance And newness. It's a new place and there is fresh air. Relaxing inward and shifting the anger or pain to silence and stillness opens the door to newness. It is expansive. It lets in new life. It is a widening that sheds light on what has been an uncomfortable situation which was hurting and bothering me.
I think this is what is meant by growing by expanding. It‘s a choice to expand and not resist or continue hating and being uncomfortable. Choosing to expand is a gentle act. There is a subtle shift of consciousness to adapt to a larger field. Feeling comfortable is the reward. It is not drastic, like jumping off a cliff, eyes closed and hoping for the best. It’s a gentle thing, pushing the limits back on my own horizon. It blends my former horizon with the new horizon. It’s comfortable. The unknown becomes like being an open field of fresh air and soft grassy meadows under a blue sky. It is peaceful. Our job as human beings who are evolving our consciousness to higher planes is to keep pushing on the limitations. Expanding the envelope that we live in. Our job is to open windows and doors and let fresh air in. As the teacher Ramtha said, to make known the unknown. The unknown is full of opportunity and promise but we can't see it if we are in resisting mode.
It’s like when clothes are too tight and I can’t fit into them any more. The human response is to hate ourselves and determine to go on a diet or do more exercise to whittle down who we are, try to fit into the old clothes instead of adjusting our attitude and going out and buying new clothes that fit better and we are more comfortable in them. Allowing the expansion to take place instead of fighting it relieves the pressure. It ends the fight we are having with ourselves. Duality has become such a way of life for us that we have grown accustomed to fighting. We fight mostly with ourselves, not with other people. We are competitive because we see we are in duality and the two opposing forces continue to grind in on each other. There is consciousness in everything, including our own brain and muscles. By entering into the silence, we can bend those forces to harmonize instead of fight, if we choose to and know how to. And when we experience harmony we can't help but bend the knee in thanksgiving for this opportunity to heal. Weaving the known (the former perspective) with the unknown (that which we are inviting to come forth) together is like two lover’s embracing after a quarrel. There is a sensation of being stronger yet gentler. By joining together two separate energies, two different perspectives, two opposing thoughts, two different colors and world views, we become whole. (from 4/2/17)
1/8/23 - Assigning words to the mystery
There is an inner life within all of us. It is hidden from view among those who haven‘t started awakening to their spiritual self. Who knows who has and who has not awakened and begun to have a rich inner life not known to others? While we are all dramatically different on the outside, because of our experiences and adventures we've had and the many lifetimes we’ve lived, we have the same spiritual template within.
The human template is the same all over the universe, the galactics say. It is called the Adam Kadmon, or the Christ, or the Buddha body. There are many names for it. It is a spiritual blueprint for the human being and it is within us. We mold ourselves around it when we are embodied, and we hunger to touch it because it’s home to us. We are brothers and sisters of the same light. Our inner life is a journey back to that sacred blueprint, but we are veiled from knowing this. On purpose we are veiled. The divine intention is that we learn to follow our INNER path, and not the outer which is a distraction. So we wander until we are guided by good sense. Then the veil thins and the inner light shines through, starting a gradual process of unfolding excitement. Inner excitement of private discovery. This is why we are here: to find that secret inner thread which excites us to spend time alone with ourselves. It is an inner magic. It is rare to experience on Earth because the outer glamour and confusion captures our attention and holds us locked to the world of chaos.
We do not know what our soul is up to until the light begins to shine through, and then we sense there is a higher mind to us and a higher emotional range that we can feel that is more noble than previously known. When the veil is pierced and the light and life shines around inside our consciousness, a new kind of journey begins. Mysterious pathways suddenly open. A new excitement dawns. We see beyond the horizon, or we think we do, and we are tantalized and drawn to it like butterflies to pretty flowers. This is the inner life.
The veil was pierced for me in 1976 when unexpectedly the force known as kundalini activated in me in a most dramatic way. It was then that I began a relationship with something larger than me. At first I thought it was another entity that had moved in and taken me over. It caused me concern at first, but over time I developed a relationship with it. Ever since that day in April 1976 I have been journaling my experiences. I wrote lengthy hand-written pages at first because I didn’t have a typewriter. Then a typewriter came into our possession, and much later, a computer.
I wrote about these experiences because I am tactile. I encourage everyone to journal their private thoughts and experiences, and re-read them later, not the same day. I understand things when I write them down with pen and paper. Writing grounded the experience and fleshed out the nebulous flights into other realms and the interactions with invisible beings who I later learned were the guardians of the human race. At first, I couldn’t write - it was too strange - but as I continued to flash in and out of other realities, I had to write it down and assign words to it. Putting words to the mystery seemed to make it real. If left undefined it remained elusive and etheric. As I struggled to find words to describe these experiences, the mystery slowly became history. With each journey I was structuring a new reality for myself. An inner reality that I could not share with anyone else. But over time I had the notes to prove it had really happened, just in case I forgot it. It seemed important that I do this. And I put dates on them.
I am reminded that “In the beginning was the Word.” Assigning words to these strange and wonderful - and sometimes negative - experiences was a beginning. Even if only built of words, it was a structure that was real to me. My exterior world kept changing but this inner life of understanding has become more enlightened and more solid and more permanent. As if I have been molding and shaping this mysterious other dimension into or over this dimension. There is a merge happening. We really do create our own reality. Other people are doing the same thing, I see, as I read the blogs on the internet.
Looking back and reading the words I wrote so long ago helps me to see that I have been in the process of transition. Ascension they call it these days. There is an expansion of consciousness. There is a higher order at work. My everyday world has been seeded with another more beautiful and harmonious world that is full of light and love, goodness and beauty. I have been integrating the two worlds - my outside world and my inside world. I have been building a new world structure right here on the ground where I live. Others have been doing this too. We are seeding a new reality, a new rich reality into the outer world. We are transitioning. That is why I urge keeping a hand-written journal. Handwritten in private is best, because then the higher self can enter merge and blend better with the human nervous system via the hand and fingers. It is the human body, not the brain, that is seeding the new earth through feelings and emotions. (Re-posted from 9/12/16)
1/7/23 - Message from my higher self
In the night I was awakened to write down a message. "How can your higher self connect with you, your mortal self, except by you the mortal reaching up and being the best you can be? In every moment? Then your immortal self can reach down to connect with you. For, having been born into the lower vibrational world you had to descend to fit in with the lower vibrations. It is by giving of yourself in the best way possible that the honorable, compassionate, forgiving you will become reintegrated with the real you again. Become the most honest you can be, the most pure you can be, the most perfect you can be, the most wise, the most intelligent, the most modest, the most selfless. Then you become your highest and best and your Christ body can make that connection with you.
"Your connection to your higher self is like any other friend you have in your life. To maintain communication with it you must direct attention to your friend. A telephone line opening, a glance in its direction, a remembrance of its presence, talking to it, asking it questions, listening to its answers, fitting in with it, knowing and respecting its qualities, its nature - that’s how you connect with your higher self. Your higher self is buttoned in through your chakras. [I saw this vividly] Higher self is all around you like a bubble. It is not only up in the sky but around you on all sides and below you. It is you as you appear on the higher dimensions that vibrate faster and purer. You are a small dark and dense form suspended and floating inside a bubble of clarity, love, perfection like crystal clear waters twinkling as sunlight splashes colors through the water, like a diamond flashes prismed light. You are the rich yolk inside the egg of your higher self bubble. You are the child inside the womb of your Divine Mother. You are the figure inside the glass snow ball. You are the seed germinating.
"You are surrounded on all sides by your very own God/Goddess/Divinity. Expand yourself to connect with the answers to your question. Touch the hem of the garment of your higher self and listen to its advice and counsel. All your needs are answered when you go IN and then UP to your higher self, higher dimensions where purity and everything you need is available to you. When you are lonely, hungry, depressed, inadequate, afraid, failing, confused, hurt, suffering, overwhelmed, shut down, frozen, go in and UP. Up in the higher realms you are none of these things. You are perfect, complete and ascended. Go IN and then UP to your higher regions to feel the peace and assurance.
"You adopted the low vibrations so you could fit into the world and work here. To re-adopt your former glory, go in and UP to your higher self. Focus on your higher self. Give attention to your higher self. Contemplete it and release your adopted vibrations that are less than who you are. Simply touch the hem of the garment and you will receive a sense of your greatness. Do not be afraid. Release the fear. Become ME for I am your true self. The Self you want to become.. The self you dream about. As you move up the frequency range to higher, more noble sense of self, you will not be able to connect with those who are on the lower frequency range except through love. They become static to your ears and disharmonious to your sensitivities. If you want to stay in contact with the lower frequency range of people, then you must bring my love down with you into lower frequencies and not compromise yourself. Your loving can influence others.
1/6/23 - God is not a "thing", but a process toward betterment
This morning I realized something. Instead of giving credit to a particular ascended master for the many dictations I have been getting over the years, I am supposed to OWN the wisdom for myself. Whatever I become aware of is MY intelligence. It is a process of recognition. I have been giving my power away thinking the words came from someone else. I did not recognize my own enlightenment process.
Today, suddenly, I see that God is not a "thing". God is a process. God is one's higher self blending with lower self. God is short for good. There is a process toward good going on, a process toward betterment, in all of us. There's a higher self beyond us, and another higher self beyond that, and another and another, on into infinity. God is growing itself through the many parts. Good is evolving. There is no end to Good. There is only a process of unfolding. God is not a thing to chase down and discover. Rather, it's a process of recognition. God is the ascended masters, God is the galactics, God is our loved ones who died, God is the angelics, God is the tree, the vegetable, the animal, the insect, the stone, the air, the water. God is the many parts evolving to somethin better. God is everything. God is you. God is me. God is awareness, intelligence, wisdom. God is lighting up the world. God is your ex-wives and my ex-husbands. God is space. God is time. God is the sun, the moon, the planets, the extraterrestrials. Not different but the same.
I am recognizing this today. God is not separate. God is not a "thing". God cannot be owned, discovered or monopolilzed. One becomes God through the process of elimination of what is wrong and feels bad. God is a process of becoming more aware of what is right and feels better. Therefore it is a process of becoming more connected. God is a process of evolving. God is the lesser, the dumber, the blinder, the more ignorant, the more dark, the more unenlightened, the more obstruction, the more resistance because God is the many parts. God is the evil evolving into something better and more connected. The Buddhists don't use the word "God" because then it would become something outside of them, something set apart, a separation, a difference. God is self. God is soul seeking its betterment. Today I sense familiarity, I sense family. I'm moving closer. God is not separate and apart from me. I am not ready to say I am God and I am everywhere, but I am in process of becoming more aware than I was yesterday. (Journaled 9/28/19)
1/2/23 - Crude sex is killing humanity
This morning was a morning of revelations for me, brought about by receiving this wonderful, beautiful, massage this morning from my husband. I do believe your own partner at home is a better person to do this, even though it's never been done before. There's always a time to start.
The energies of the human being. The whole system opened up to me this morning. The human body is designed to receive energy from the earth. The human body is made of earth elements and the same life that fuels the grass, trees and animals and makes them grow, wither and die when their cycle is over, also fuels the human being who is an animal waking up to his higher nature. The human being is different from the animal in this sense. He has been gifted with an immortal spirit or consciousness. This immortal spirit is coming down while the earth energy is going up. So there is a two-way energy flow happening in the human. One coming up from earth, and one coming down from the sky.
The energy flow coming up from earth enters through the bottoms of the feet and travels up the legs to the tail bone which is the first chakra, the beginning link to the stars. The human body is designed to carry the flow up through the second chakra (reproductive or sex chakra) which is another, higher, link with the stars and which provides new more expanded insight to the human. And then it travels up to the third chakra (solar plexus or naval) which is still more expanded and another higher link with the stars and provides vaster insight to the human. This is the first three of a seven-step ladder that the human climbs by opening and experiencing each step, one at a time. In this manner he gains his immortal status.
From the third chakra the life travels up to the fourth chakra (heart) where it links with the down-flowing energy, which causes quite a stir. He sees for the first time the higher way. It melds him in with his lower understanding. He opens to vaster knowledge and he begins to question and consider higher ideals, morals, ethics. As his heart opens new understanding floods through him which carries him naturally upward to the fifth chakra (throat), where another star link opens to provide him with the power of truth, to communicate his voice to others. Understanding takes shape and form and he centers his attention around a career or vocation, what field of service to work within. Doors open wider. From there he travels up to the sixth chakra (third eye) which opens when he is finished with the career and wants to retire, perhaps in solitude, taking a break from the world before deciding what's next. Then he travels naturally from there up to the seventh chakra (crown of head) where it links with the incoming energy from the stars and Home, the place from which he came, the source of life, comfort and bliss.
This seventh chakra gives him his freedom from the physical material world and he becomes liberated. If he has completed his soul journey to his satisfaction he earns his ascension to become the god or goddess he/she is destined to become. But if not fulfilled in that life, then he returns to another life, again as an infant through a mother and father’s seed. And another life and another, until he completes his soul mission. It is the same process as the acorn on the ground which is destined to become a great oak tree. The little acorn grows through certain stages to become a tree. So does a human being grow through its seven stages step by step, to grow from animal man to God man. It must be that way, because each step fits him to a broader expanse so that he is ready to step into the next stage. If he stops at any level along the way, he is incomplete.
This is what is SUPPOSED to happen for human beings. It is the plan. The earth energy travels up from earth to the heart which is the central gathering place, and he links with the heaven energy that is descending. Eternal life and immortality descends downward, ever downward into density to enrich the lower planes of planetary life. The whole system is enriched and grows wiser and more efficient, more perfect. It’s a partnership between heaven and earth. The immortal spirit is pure consciousness. Consciousness is growing ever wider. It is flowing down from the light above. It is the divine plan to flow down and enrich the lower realms. There is an immaculate concept for earth to become more perfect and beautiful, and for the human being to become a more perfect, more conscious human, a better man and a better woman. A God-man and God-woman, if we can use those terms. They become more graceful and more marvelous, walking and expressing the joy they feel unfolding within themselves. They are becoming enlightened. We are a divine consciousness coming down into a heavy earth body made of clay, dust and matter. We are trying to partner with this animal body and bring it into its fuller human potential beyond the former animal nature. As consciousness we do that by linking up and melding with the earth energy that's coming up through our feet and up through our chakras, bones, blood and tissue.
The problem is, we haven’t been doing that. We stopped the flow by diverting the earth energy to sex. Very, very, very few people understand how this works. Everybody thinks that sex is so important but it is actually disrupting the flow that is trying to reach the brain and connect with the universal system from which all life came. The connection is with the universe. The system is designed to bring enlightenment, happiness, joy, creative inspiration, abundance on every level and perfection to the human being who is evolving from a lowly animal creature into a higher intelligence. A god if you will.
It is not that sex is not important, it is rather a side enjoyment of a greater power source that the human has been gifted with. But crude sex is killing the human race. The goal of orgasm – and the orgasm itself – stops the flow at the second or third chakra. The animals have not been gifted with immortality consciousness but mankind has. The animals do not have the ability to evolve into a god or goddess. That is the role of the human, to take this animal body up to a higher level of respect, love, purity, decency, understanding, universal consciousness. He then becomes immortal PHYSICAL beings. He is not evolving to escape the earth plane, he is evolving to become a resident in the garden of Eden, of paradise, of plenty, of joy, love and freedom. We have yet to know this. We don’t understand what our role is. The human being is meant to grow into a higher ethical powerful being, but crude sex is stopping him. As a selfish glutton lusting after sex and orgasm, he is putrifying his own body and that of those around him. He is causing a serious backup, a damming up of the earth power which seeks to rise higher through the seven steps to completioin.
The human being is a god in the making and we have this incredible immortal energy at our disposal to do it with, known as the holy spirit, or kundalini or some other word. You name it. It can be called simply the life force. The eternal life force. It is stored at the tail bone, the first root chakra on the etheric level. It is a power that requires love to release it. Once released, it needs respect or it turns negative. The immature ego is too small to handle it. There is meant to be a figure 8 flow with the descending energy from the sun. There is meant to be the ascending force from earth meeting up with and melding with the descending energy from the sun, from the light above us. There are distributing centers all through the universe sending this light of consciousness and intelligence out to the planets to grow these god-men and god-women. Ascending and descending forces flow in the figure eight sign, the infinity sign, but we are interfering with it by diverting the power off into sex. The orgasm explodes, the life force cleans up the local area of the body, provides bliss, and then dies. The upper regions of the body do not receive it. We want the orgasm. We press for the orgasm. We use artificial means to get an orgasm and we are trying to prolong the orgasm, to linger with it. We want to extend the orgasm. We cum and cum and cum and cum and keep shorting out the vast immortal power, and then we die. The immortality gene never gets awakened because the earth energy doesn't link up with it. It must reach the heart.
The next step in the evolution of mankind is to learn about this. And do the inner homework on themselves to merge the two rivers in us – one flowing up, one flowing down - to flow together. It will bring balance. Balance will bring clarity in a natural way, easily, lovingly, lightly. By not obsessing over the orgasm, one falls into a natural state of being and THEN he can make love. Making love replaces the obsession over sex. Making love is natural and innocent and timely. Making love comes with harmony and with rhythm when two people are aligned with purity in their own hearts. It is not impossible. It is done on other planets of higher grade than ours. Once we learn to stop being selfish and crude with our bodies, we will begin to distribute the energies known as the cerebralspinal fluid all through the body in a steady flow, including the brain which is important to the human evolving. And then when these flows are flowing nicely the human race will be a race of peace and love. That's when sex changes and is no longer crude but is a form of worship and love.
When two bodies are flowing with bliss energy together, and both bodies are in synch and both bodies are at one and both bodies feel good, then they are making love and miraculous things happen. The mind opens to the universe, they expand and expand and expand and they learn who they really are and they soar among the stars, even as their bodies are entwined on the earth plane. This is the gift of the gods. It is the next step beyond sex. The way sex works now, the one who is most turned on seduces or ravishes the other who goes along with it, ignoring the chakras. One of them cums but usually not the other one and the other one is confused about that, perhaps resentful, becoming embittered over time. Sex aborts the whole process and diminishes love.
My life journey has me focusing on massage. I took to it naturally. Then I went to school. But the school doesn't have the right knowledge either. Enlightened spiritual massage, if you know what you're doing, is the best way to link up the earth energy with the sky energy. We need to connect the ascending earth energy with the descending sky energy. The end product is bliss and love. Many people are NOT getting the bliss and love from the crude sex act, only the one who is pressing it another person is getting it. Temprarily. But it's not lasting. We have to get over the crude selfishness of the animal nature we carry in our genes. Respectful caring massage is the best way to do this, in my estimation. I am receiving revelation after revelation after revelation about this. And finally I am overcoming my fear to say it out loud. Fear is deeply imbedded over this issue. There are souls who are so turned off but they can't speak it out loud.
There will be a loud clamor of resistance and rebellion, over this suggestion, I am sure. And yet, those who rebel do not hear the message. It is not the end of sex that is suggested, it is the end of small-minded sex that is selfish, that has not matured yet out of ancient animal creature habits. They press sex on others because they have not been educated in the higher form of lovemaking. Ending the crudity of sex is focused mostly on men, but this includes women too because women have been men before, and men have been women before. Ending low-grade sex will require some re-training but it is the beginning of learning about love and the gifts that the human body is capable of receiving. A loving massage by people who are more or less on the same wave length would be nice, but perhaps not realistic. Who do you know who is ready for this? Perhaps those with some spiritual understanding, but my goal is to have loving, enlightened massage exchanges who agree to practice the "don't focus on cumming" rule.
This will allow the raising of the powerful earth energy up through the WHOLE body to connect with the descending energy coming down through the crown of the head. We have to reach the crown to open the crown. This is the beginning of the science of connecting heaven and earth. It will require practice but it WILL lead to clarity, to healing, and to fabulous blissful experiences. It is the beginning of flowing the fires of life instead of blocking them as humankind has done for thousands of years. It will clear the debris of accumulated trauma of every kind. Craniosacral massage is the closest thing we have to it, but the kundalini energy connection is missing. Bringing the earth energies all the way up to the crown of the head is necessary, and to do this we must not stop at the groin level to release it by cumming. This will take some serious re-training, since we all are so obsessed with the orgasm. The orgasm energy is needed up higher than groin level. The orgasm is the only goal we have right now to give us a semblance of bliss. But there is a greater future ahead if only we know. We must be re-trained. We must break the habit that is holding the whole human race back, spell-bound, trapped and recycling such low vibrations. We must, in order to get to the abundance of clear vision and thinking, and the bliss of constant love. (Journaled 1/20/15)
12/31/22 - Wishing the world will change?
We are all wishing for the world to be a happier place, but we are looking for happiness in all the wrong places. It will NEVER NEVER NEVER be found outside of YOU. The world was not created to provide you with love and peace. It was created to be a gameboard within which to explore what is "right" for you vs. what is "wrong" for you. It is a place of diversity to give everyone opportunities to learn and grow wiser, stronger, more true to themselves. Everyone is different here. Peace, love and happiness have to come from inside. It has to be generated and a momentum built up. We have to build it with our own effort, and with our own consciousness and focused attention. We've been expecting happiness to be handed to us, and we've been looking in all the wrong places.
This is the meaning of inner work. We have to do our own homework. There is no cheating. We have to study at home and take time to study. Plan time when you will do this. After school, in private, at home, without company or distraction of any kind. We have been looking for teachers to lead us from among the scattered remains of a lost civilization. We've been searching through rubble and we won't find it there. The ONLY authorized teacher to go to is your own Holy Christ Self (HCS). Don't be fooled by the religious connotation. He is you. He/She is your own higher self. You've been blinded. He/She is as pure as the driven snow. He/She is not found in the religions. He/She is the voice who has been trying to get your attention through your deepest longings and desires. She/He wants your attention. Your outer attention, but you keep looking to other sources. You keep looking to the millions of voices that clamor at you. They are coming in through your wide open solar plexus where you were fed by your mom's umbilical cord as a fetus. The solar plexus is the third chakra, the third dimension. It contributes food and nourishment from the outside world directly into your subconscious. This area needs to be closed and capped off CONSCIOUSLY, though focused homework. Close down the third chakra and turn it upside down and inside out to receive from higher planes. Imagine a large sphere of golden light surrounding your naval area while repeating "I Am That I Am" 20, 30, 40 times or more.
Nobody seems to know about this vulnerable area left over from birth. It's still open, seeking nourishment. You are connected to your Holy Christ Self by consciousness and always have been. It has been called that, but don't get hung up with religious words. It really means the pure you. The crystal perfect you. It has never gone away. It is a pattern of intelligence. The intelligence is laid out in the form of a network, like a spider's web, a gridwork. But it is only a pattern. It hasn't been filled in yet. It has to be filled in by YOU. You have to fill it in by living it. You have never been separated from your Holy Crystal Self. You are your own God self laid out in a pre-destined blueprint, ready for you to follow its guidelines and fill it in for real, in your embodied life. Your Holy Crystal Self is the light, the abstract life force in your cells and muscles and organs. The physical cells in your body could not live and breathe, function and reproduce without this fire within. This is YOUR fire.
When you were born you started receiving input from the outside world - the mass consciousness formed by all the others who are also hardwired into the outside world. We were all born into the same matrix of outside forces. It has been up to us to tune into our inner holy selves. Your Holy Crystal Self has been speaking all along, too, because you are connected to yourself. You can't be separated from yourself, even while you are exteriorly focused on the outside forces, or you wouldn't be alive. But you can be distracted and overwhelmed by the other voices. The forces in the world speak louder and carry hammers and nails and whack at you constantly. That's why you need to do inner homework and take time out to listen to inner voices and build up a momentum of understanding and faith, and drink the holy waters of higher idealistic feelings. And spend time practicing and following the inner guidance. They provide the techniques you are looking for when you are ready to listen. That is the homework. Nobody does inner homework until they DECIDE to do homework. When the time comes that they get so bored and so disgusted and so lost and feeling so low with the chase, then they are ready to hunker down and and spend some time on inner homework. That's when you will receive guidance, in the private hours of serious solitude. Not wishy-washy solitude listening to dreamy music, but SERIOUS study. That is the guidance I follow.
Happy New Year to you! The end of the old time is about to expire its last breath, and the new breath begins at midnight. Stop and clear your mind. Clear, clear, clear your mind. That's the first step. Empty your mind and look up. Look UP! Establish an opening and a link to the higher realms above you and let the light stream in through the crown of your head - the crown chakra. Then ask your Holy Crystal Self, your God Self, to give you advice. You can ask a question and you will receive an answer. The answer is the first clear words that come to your mind. They may be followed by doubt and confusion, but listen to the first clear words and build your faith in them.
12/30/22 - Spontaneous puffs of bliss are natural
Yoga teachers teach specific hand and body movements called "kriyas" or "mudras" as something to be learned and practiced. But EVERY body is capable of releasing little puffs of soft divine energy spontaneously. The body has a reservoir of divine energy held in the tail bone, located in the geometric center of the body. It can't be found by Earth scientists because it is on a higher dimensional level, but it is, well, divine. Earth scientists are focused on material matter so instruments can't register it yet. They will eventually. But human beings are part of one mind that is vast and eternal. We have a piece of that one eternal mind locked as an anchor into our bodies. It is known as the root chakra. We tap into that divine energy whenever we go into a day dream state, as one example of it.
It's not that mysterious. Notice whenever you go into a day dream state (if you CAN notice) take note of when you return to the "real" world and think back about it. It usually happens spontaneously, as spirit moves you. It is an entranced state. Yogis made it famous in the Eastern tradition but anyone can become "entranced" at any time. During such an "entranced" state there may be a stirring of the physical body if you notice. You might feel to move your hands spontaneous, or to take a certain position with your feet, or a stance, or to start dancing. Such spontaneous movements can't be forced or created by the mind. It is created by surrendering the mind, or emptying the mind. That's when the divine energy enters or "touches" into the physical body and CAN create spontaneous feelings of harmony and bliss.
If one becomes aware of this ever-so-gentle puff of divinity flowing, one can allow it to flow even MORE. It is a surrendering to the inner spontaneeity. It has been called kundalini energy, but it is best not to think about it. Don't think. Just let it flow. These spontaneous experiences bring you eventually into a more natural experience of yourself. They are moments of sacred connection with the divine within. It is natural. Not special but part of what a human being is. He has been created to access this natural state. If allowed, a most wonderful feeling emanates and produces the most exquisite state. It cannot be contrived. This state has been a part of my life for over 50 years. I thought I was the only one who felt it. Now I realize that others are experiencing it too, but may not realize the profoundness of it. And that it is natural. It hasn't been discussed in ordinary terms. I would like to speak of it. I suspect that other people have experienced it but perhaps they are not aware that it is natural? And that it is a natural aspect of the human being. It is the soul making contact, emerging during a moment of receptivity. I wrote the following in a 2013 journal to remember, as I have written so often in the past. Perhaps you have experienced something similar?
"While I was standing and slowly moving in the familiar dance, repeating "I Am That I Am", about 8 minutes or so later I stopped suddenly and my body sighed, expelling air, in a long slow release. My whole body just sighed and let go, letting go more and more and more. And then silence. The silence was palpable. It was swirling through me. The outer world retreated. My eyes were open but fixed on some invisible point because I was alert to the sensation of silence invading me everywhere. This silence was bliss. I was feeling bliss everywhere. I was caught up in the sensation, mostly in my middle, and then in my head, face, arms, fingers, mid-torso, hips, my back, my legs were slower in responding. I was in bliss everywhere. Now what I want to remind myself for the future is - this ability and capacity to enjoy physical sensations of bliss is at my finger tips. It is always there. And yet I don’t use it!
Why don’t I use it? It is remarkable! It is exquisite. It is what I used to do every day when kundalini was active. I don’t know why I stopped it. It only took half an hour today to get into a state of bliss that I would call ecstasy, maybe samadhi (not sure of that word). And I did not want to leave. I asked questions of 'why' while in the midst of this silent bliss and the answer was: "You are an animal body born of animal bodies with chaotic animal particles in your body. You cannot bring your immense self into an animal body without first moving out the chaotic animal stuff. As you bring in your divine self you move OUT the dead animal particles that are not the real you, and YOU move in! You are vast and eternal."
I saw the earth and the small little animal earth bodies running around doing their small little animal things, and realized how true it was that we cannot fit our immensity into those little bodies. We MUST make room for our immensity. We must release the pettiness and surrender, expand our bodies to allow in the immensity. This is not easy to put into words, but it is just a reminder.
12/29/22 - About hiding and suppressing feelings
Everyone talks about God, religion talks about God, the books I am reading talk about God (and Goddess), everyone on the spiritual path talks about God, but it turns everyone off because no one knows who God is. I am having insights which are showing me that the SELF is God. It is really all about the inner self. The divine immortal self who doesn't die. It is the real self within that is God/Goddess. The power of immortality, infinity, unbounded knowledge, intelligence which is everywhere present. The inner self has been covered over by muck for lifetime after lifetime and we've lost track of who we really are.
As I re-read 30-year-old journals (in my own hand) of a time when kundalini was fresh and innocent and powerfully flowing every day and every day, as I re-read them I am reunited with something. Something I missed. It is reminding me and it is moving me. I don't think I could take the next step without it. So this is carrying me into a new place, a new awareness, the next mission or role that I am to take. But first I have to go back and re-member what it is that I have forgotten. As I am posting these old journals on my website, as I run across the meaningful ones, I ran across one that caused me to stop and say, "Uh oh!"
This journal included some picturesque details about a swing party. It was a wonderful party. I remember it well but I had a sudden shudder, a fear? A sense of guilt? Of shame? Of "I must hide this!" Do I want to post this one? Or should I pass on it? I do not want to edit these journals. I either post them as is or I don't post them at all. So I asked my mentor, my wonderful guide who lives beyond physical sight (who is available whenever I have a serious question. I don't bother him otherwise.) And he answered me with a question of his own: "What do YOU feel about it?" He directed me back to my feelings. What do I feel? What do I really, really feel? Very appropriate, for there was something there that I needed to address. It was heavy. It has been a heavy for many, many years.
I said, This particular journal includes some great insight and I would like to post it but it also has quite a lot of detail about the party the night before. What do I feel? I feel fear surrounding this lifestyle. This fear runs deep and includes shame and guilt and involves cultural taboos and family beliefs and thoughts of sin and the whole nine yards, if you will. I have hidden this lifestyle from those who didn't need to know, but every time I consciously hide it from someone who doesn't need to know, there is a crust that forms over that thought. It gets buried. The whole concept of sex, even between a married woman and husband, is filled with hot flashes of bad stuff, never mind the activities of sex with multiple others. And yet I have experienced it as loving.
I have been 30 to 40 years studying love, including physical love, emotional love, spiritual love, mental love. It has all been there within the practice of swinging. And yet there has always been an underlying energy of hiding, keeping it secret, don't tell. There has been an underlying repression about everything to do with sex. It's OK to talk about spiritual love, but not about physical love. These feelings came up for me. Am I ready to expose my participation in this? I feel I am at a crossing point. [This journal is a repost from 2016.] There is a crossing over where two paths intersect and it's an opportunity for a decision. A choice. Each path has an entirely different energy and momentum going for it which carries it strongly forward undiluted.
My movements and experiences over the last 30-40 years have been soaked and immersed in love. I have expanded in my capacity to not only love, but to discern, understand and master my abilities to love. Swing parties are about love too, because people are enlarged by their experiences, in one way or another. You can't help but learn from such close contact. So my feelings of keeping them hidden, versus talking openly about them, presents me with an opportunity to come out of the closet. Do I dare to post this journal? What is holding me back? This is an old energy. It is actually obsolete today. So it's just my own feelings that I have to deal with. It is no longer appropriate for me to have these feelings of shame, guilt, fear of repercussions and whatever else is attached to them, any more. The love, beauty, grace and dignity that I have experienced is part of the new human who is poised and ready to own all of who he/she is.
We are human and we are beautiful. We are graceful, we are honorable, we are caring, we are loving, and we share our love openly. It comes in all forms, shapes, ages, sizes, you name it - as long as it is love. There are all kinds of love. Physical, emotional, mental, spiritual. And love is not love if it is not shared. "Love isn't something that was put here to stay, Love isn't love 'til it's given away." I love that saying. Love is shared. Love is shared closely. Intimately, whether it be mental or emotional or spiritual or physical. There is no division in love, but there is choice. Free will choice. So I feel I am on the cusp, on the brink, on the edge, on the very cutting edge of coming out of the closet. Two paths crossing each other, each with a momentum of their own. It's actually not that difficult. It's an easy choice. Nothing hard about it. I just had to put the two paths together so they can be consciously joined. I am doing this by writing about it.
Evolution is a conscious choice and so I choose to unite these two paths. Human love is expressed on different levels. It does not have to be expressed physically but it can be. It should never be forced or pressured, but rather enjoyed. There are those who choose to dabble at the sexual level, others choose not to. There is no judgment. Only choice. Love is not just etheric, not just spiritual, not just a fantasy of the mind. It is also about feeling. Feelings have been put down. Fear, shame and guilt are feelings. Feelings have been repressed. Repressed feelings become negative with crusts and scabs forming over them. That's when they turn negative. Why hide feelings and let them become negative? That doesn't mean we tell everybody indiscriminately, but not to hide it because we hide it from OURSELVES. That's the danger - hiding it from ourselves. Then we forget we have put it there and it grows a crust over it, a fungus, a disease.
So, no, I must become aware when I am consciously hiding a feeling. Feelings are for expressing and letting flow out of us, for that is God/Goddess expressing. We are Gods/Goddesses trying to express the purity and innocence that we are, truthfully, within, uncolored, untainted by feelings of "sin". We do this with grace, wisdom, intelligence, and with love. I want to share this beautiful party. It was a fantastic party, warm and loving and most of all it was a whole bunch of diverse people sharing and coming together and learning about each other and from each other. They shared intimacy, intimately. They didn't share "just sex". They learned about their own inner selves and they evolved from it. So, I am going to do it. Yes. I am going to post the party on the Kundalini Journals page. Thank you, DK.
[So sorry! I've searched and searched but I can't find the party referred to here. It sounds lovely, I'll keep looking. This was journaled on 9/21/16]
12/28/22 - Learning to use masculine qualities
In order to “see” the divine feminine, I have had to use my masculine qualities. I had to step away from the “flow” or sacred space where I normally dwell, lost in the feminine fulfillment feeling which is everywhere and nowhere since it is all-inclusive, all loving, all connected, and where I’m blissfully unaware of anything else. It is peaceful at all times. That’s the space I was in until I became aware that I had to step away from that space and outside of it. I had to become objective. Being masculine is being objective - something I was not. I had to start projecting myself outside my comfort zone and start narrowing my focus into a laser-like ray of focus.
Looking back at my urge to explore the divine feminine, which was the first sign of what was to follow, I see I had to carve out time and space to study it, observe it, write about it. I started doing a vigil for the divine feminine. I tried to gather women to join me but it didn’t work out. No one was interested, perhaps I didn't explain myself very well. So I did it myself.
When I do the vigil for the divine feminine I have a notebook and pen with me so I can write down my observations. I started studying the divine feminine from outside my normal “lost in spaciousness” default program. I am jotting down my observations. This is a masculine tendency, to observe and write. I have been extremely feminine, loving everyone alike, but I did become lost because of it. In my earlier life I became overwhelmed and taken over by other people who gave me direction because I was a "go-with-the flow" type of person. I abandoned my own masculine side. I am VERY aware of this today. I can see what I did wrong, or perhaps not wrong, maybe I did it on purpose. Maybe that was my plan all along, to become lost in the feminine in order to find my way back out of the maze. I don’t know. So now recently I have had the urge to seek the divine feminine in order to once and for all put it to rest, to understand it and balance it. I didn't know it would lead me into my masculine side. I just wanted to understand where I went wrong so I never did THAT again. So I had to withdraw from my feminine default in order to start this study, this program, and the withdrawing was a masculine act.
Writing in journals is also a masculine act, but I started out from a purely divine flow, the divine feminine flow, after I went into the Light and lost my personal identity to something greater than me. I had difficulty coming back to a personal life again after that, but when I started journaling I had to pick and choose words, the right words, the words that best fit the subjective feeling of this divine space that I was experiencing. The experience of being within the inner realms of divinity are elusive to words. Yet that is where I seemed to be most of the time during the next 5, 6, 7 years as I slowly returned to a personal life again. The divine light was my default program. I was in great peace and acceptance of all life there. Then I slowly became human again.
From the divine feminine light, I began to see men were different from me. As I became more "human" again, for lack of a better way to say it, I had differences with men. Whenever I tried to discuss my views and opinions with a man, most often he didn’t want to listen. This became an issue in lovemaking, which I was freely engaged in during my transition from light to human through swinging with other couples. Over time I decided that women would be the better ones suited to listen to me and soundboard with so I decided to gather women together without men for discussions about everything.
Strangely enough, as a result of focusing on the divine feminine with women only, I learned about the masculine and how the masculine thinks and performs. I reached the zenith point of the divine feminine one day where I couldn‘t go any further. There was nothing more for me to learn there. Then I started exploring the masculine qualities. How strange to learn that the same divinity resides in men as in women. The male view is simply narrowed down to a focus point and projected forward, whereas the feminine - the divine feminine - remains at peace in the center of love, accepting of all life everywhere. While the consciousness of every human being is flowing out of the peaceful and divine heart of the creator (the Light) the masculine directs his consciousness to focus and narrow down to thought, analysis and concentration, while the feminine (at least for me) floats in the here and now. (Journaled 2/14/20)
12/27/22 - How to build energy into the physical body
Our internet connection keeps going out so Doug and I are not able to access the internet all the time. So I will make this quick. I’ll try to capture this concept which I am going through as best I can put words to it. I didn’t do the back exercises this morning, like a test to see if I’ll notice. There is a combination of two different exercises that I am being led to do. One is the affirmations. These take about 40 minutes more or less, and I’m saying them once a day OUTLOUD. I do some silent ones too but these are spotty. It is the OUTLOUD affirmations that are most important to move the energies in my air space surrounding me. Every day I must rebuild the electrons in the air around me. They are strengthening my plan and my intentions. My four lower bodies, I've discovered, are the etheric meridians that are the infrastructure to my physical body. They support and feed my heart, lungs, stomach, brain, physical nervous system, etc., etc., etc. Everything physical relies on my etheric connections. Most people are not aware of how important the meridian system is. The accupuncturists know and use it all the time.
My four lower bodies feed into my etheric body. This takes the form of meridians that run through my physical body. My mental realm with mind thoughts, and my emotional realm with my emotional feelings, all gather into my etheric real which feeds into my nervous system, blood system, etc. The four lower bodies that the masters are always talking about are: physical body, etheric body, mental body and emotional body. The physical body comes in two parts: (1) the solid concrete shell which dies at the end of life and returns to dust, and (2) the etheric meridians which run through the concrete shell and NEVER DIES. The etheric meridians are the light body. They have to connect with the physical nerves in order to feed life to the physical body. The etheric meridians maintain health and a sense of aliveness for the body. The life force comes from the etheric body. The physical shell, aka "the body", cannot live without this life force. That's why the body dies when the etheric body isn't strong enough to keep feeding life force into it. The etheric body is basically the soul. What we call the soul. You can call it anything you want to. Just understand how the forces work.
I mentioned two different exercises I am doing over the last week or two. One is the affirmations. These are the most important to me because I'm strengthening my intentions, my game plan by "telling" it to the air molecules that surround me. The second exercise is a lower back strength training because my back is really bad. I've noticed improvement. The improvement is coming in the form of a new kind of strength. It is not what I call "normal" strength. I'm not feeling like I'm 30 years old again, lol! But this is even better. The new strength that I'm aware of, that is coming to me is - hard to put into words - like a power that I might call "steel". It's a strong power that I've never felt before. Strong like nothing can hold me back. Even pain can't hold me back. Although the pain is weaker than it was before I started. This power that I am feeling is slowly building or feeding into my consciousness. I'm aware of something new happening. It's coming in small doses, so it's not like I'm superwoman or anything like that. But it's just a small taste of a new kind of power. I'm trying to put words to a feeling of strength. These lower back exercises are quite simple. I found them on the internet. But they seem to be exactly right for my particular ailment. This seems to be partnering up with my affirmations.
The affirmations are the most important though, and I highly recommend everyone take up the process of writing and experimenting with daily affirmations. You have to create your own affirmations and stick to the same words. The simpler the better. Not too complicated. They are words that "feel right" if they come from your higher self. The higher self is connected to an even higher self, and that to an even higher self, and on and on. It is the power of God, Source. All That Is, descending down, down, down the descension road to meet up with the hard concrete shell of the physical body. Then, on the other end, on the physical level, it is important to do some physical exercises, but gentle. I am being shown gentle is better. Be kind, be loving, be aware, be more in listening and attentive mode. Not like in the gym! This is the second part of the merging of spirit with matter. Use some exercises for your type of ailment, that directly affects what you feel needs correting or strengthening.
The physical exercises are the physical human counterpart to the spiritual self. Spirit and matter have to meet and co-exist together. They are a merge. I am feeling the merge. The etheric body feeds the physical but the physical has to contribute its part too. Exercising the physical alone doesn’t do it. We must strengthen the etheric body at the same time. The etheric body is where the life forces gather before entering the physical. Most people are not aware of the etheric body or the life forces. Women are more aware than men. Men, generally speaking, are too focused on physical and not enough on their feeling centers. The etheric body requires a feeling to access it. It is on a higher dimensional level and it overlaps the physical unless the person refuses to allow it to overlap and cuts it off.
The life forces gather from sources beyond physical and accumulate there like a reservoir of life forces. There are many, too many to name. The Master Djwhal Khul (DK) writes about them. I've been reading about them. So the etheric body gathers forces and pools those forces in and around the physical body in an atmosphere of higher dimension. If the person doesn't know how to utilize those forces, how to feed into them and pull them in to the body physical, they are shut off and shut down. They can't be accessed. It is your CONSCIOUSNESS that does the work of merging the physical and the non-physical. If you're not aware and you go about your normal, daily routine without being aware of this power that is forming and building up in the atmosphere around your body, then your body won't get that power. The good power, that is. You'll get some of the negative power but not the GOOD power. YOU as the residing soul has to be the one to determine which energy you want to feed into your physical body and life. This requires the affirmations on a daily basis. This is how you can feed that good strong power into your physical body. DK reminds me, "Do you understand?"
The idea of doing physical exercise while at the same time being aware of the forces of your etheric body is how you merge your etheric forces with your physical body. The etheric meridians are pure, unadulturated lines of light, pure light. It's been called the christ light or crystal light, but leave religion out of it. Pure divine light is what meridians are made of. If you can get this concept registered on your brain, you will be taking steps in merging your spiritual power with your physical body. The nadis of the pure light body have to connect with and plug into the physical nerves. You don't have to have the engineering specs laid out in front of you to do that. It's not a brain maneuver. It's a trust maneuver. One of understanding. All you have to do is believe in the process. Have faith in the process. Have faith that your soul knows what to do and how to do it. This teaching is missing from our school system.
12/24/22 - Conversing with my higher self
Several days ago I had a conversation with my higher self because I was in so much pain. I had been doing various inner techniques expanding my consicousness but too much to explain here. But I began with pen and paper to make a definite link with my higher self. I wrote, "About the pain in my hips.....) Immediately the words started to flow.
It’s the old energy queuing up, coming on line. You are doing well.
(Q: You’ve validated that you are me and you are my I AM Presence, and you are my Mother Kundalini, and you are my Father God. Are you also my Higher Self?)
"I am all that you are. I am you and you are me. I know who you are. You do not know yet who I AM. You are gaining access to your whole self. You will merge with me, your wholeness, as you follow my signs and signals that I give to you on a subjective level, an inner feeling level. I am coming forward into your range of perception, and into your personal identity. You are me and I am you. You have been veiled and now you are expressing more of me – your wholeness, your higher self. I know your language and your words. I can speak with you, my friend, as if you and I are two separate persons walking on Earth. Except that I am materializing or coming into range around you as a larger “figure”, so to speak. I am your “etheric” self. Your friend, and master guide, Djwhal Khul, has been leading you very well. He has brought me into visual range for you to “see” me, which means you are now able to know that I AM real. You are I AM. You are me, and I AM you. You have been separated since you came into and adjusted to this Earth vibration. You had to adapt to Earth’s frequency, a low frequency in order to live here. It is what holds you here so you can function and interact with others. (Q: When I experience distortion or dizziness in my head/brain/consciousness, what should I do to correct it?) Affirmations. Out loud. Use words, sounds, tones. They will correct or re-align the out-of-tune vibrations. You as the outer aspect of ME, are the one on the Earth plane, at the lowest point. So it is your job as the connecting link to make the necessary command. Affirmations spoken out loud moves the energy in your body and outside your body."
(At this point I stopped to do back exercises, which have shown signs of improving my strength, and then continued to talk (write) with my higher self. Q: I realized during exercises that by being aware of the space beyond the skin, beyond where my body stops, the air immediately around me, like imagining a glow around me, all the parts, whichever part I’m focusing on like the hamstring stretch, as I focus on the whole “glow” around the leg – this opens my mind to larger territory, to a larger space. My awareness takes on a larger space. This is how I’m connecting with you, my higher aspect of myself, my higher more intelligent self, isn’t it?)
"Yes, you and I are merging. From my vantage point I do not see the separation. I AM you! But you have shut me down, shut me off. So now that you are accepting of me, trusting that I Am here, that there is more to you than the physical body, I AM - which means YOU are - experiencing more harmony and a rush of bliss. This is you allowing more of you to enter into your earthly vehicle. Your vehicle – our vehicle – is composed of very sluggish, low vibrating atoms and electrons. As you expand your awareness, your focus, you are opening doors to the networks invisible to you called the meridians of your web-like body of light - the filigree of etheric light which carries purity into your physical sluggish system that has been depleted from being closed off and separated from source, the fountain of life." (End transmission)
12/20/22 - Matrix man, spiritual woman
While men want love and soul connection and the underlying sweetness and purity which they receive from women, when it is offered they “tweak it” or “twist it”. They change it, due to the way the male body is programmed. The male program is a much deeper infrastructure than we realize. I only saw this in a meditation after holding a goddess gathering several years ago. While in the silence I was shown that men are programmed with an ancient program that holds their belief locked down solid into the physical plane. Deeply rooted into the physical. Everything mental is held to the physical plane. If it doesn’t fit into the five senses, it is not real to a man. So everything has to fit into the physical patterning or it will be rejected. Beliefs, thoughts, perceptions, understandings, sight, hearing, smelling, tasting, touching. This is the matrix. It is solidly fixed and firmly cemented into the physical realm. So when love comes to them in the form of sweet love, they twist it to fit their physical belief.
As I was shown this, I understood. It may not be right or good from the woman's perspective, it corrupts everything that a woman holds dear, such as love, such as honor, respect, adoration, reverence, refinement, appreciation, gratitude. But if these concepts don't fit into the man's deeply rooted logic and physicality, it is not respected. It just doesn't fit. Matrix man, spiritual woman. How do we fix this?
12/19/22 - Pure liquid light runs through female bodies
A vein of pure liquid light runs through female bodies. The female body holds the codes of divinity within the space between the spinning atoms and electrons, to balance the male who must focus intently to the outer world in his strong, competitive role. It is easy to understand why men chase after women and want to have a woman all for himself. To date her - or rape her as the darker side of man would do - because she is a treasure trove of delicious yummy warm fuzzy feminine energy that he doesn’t have access to, himself, though he should and could if he had proper training. Woman is precious but has not been treated so. Even women don’t know how beautiful she is and how much celestial light and love power she holds within her body. Not in her mind, but in her body.
Most women have not had the time or inclination to pursue the inner life to get in touch with her own inner light and love, her own sensations, and what ecstatic feelings are available to her. She has not had the time. Nor has she had the mentors. Our mothers did not know either, suppressed as they were. Even the basic sensation of an arousal feeling has been denied many women just because they were rushed into the sex act or forcefully trained to serve the man’s before being prepared and ripened into the juiciness and natural lushness of the lovemaking act. Life is demanding, and women adapt to demands. They serve in many roles. They were raised in a culture that said “keep busy, keep working, keep serving. It’s selfish to think of yourself.” They were second-class citizens, or perhaps third.
But the age is turning. Women’s circles are gathering to mentor each other. We are being guided slowly into practices that in ancient times girls were taught as part of their schooling. How to treat their own bodies with sacredness. It is not religious training. Not the male-worshipping religion devoted to an impossibly out-of-reach God high in the sky, but to the inner God, the feminine God that lives within in the cells and tissues of her body. Love that is whole, warm, luscious and comforting, and does not need a man.
It is the end of a dark age and the dawning of a new. We have entered the age of Aquarius, which is a long, drawn-out period. Everyone remembers that wonderful song by the 5th Dimension, “When the moon is in the Seventh House and Jupiter aligns with Mars, then peace will guide the planets and love will steer the stars.” It goes on to promise “Harmony and understanding, sympathy and trust abounding, no more falsehoods or derisions, golden living dreams of visions, mystic crystal revelation, and the mind's true liberation.” It’s the dawning of the Age of Aquarius and we are seeing the glimmers. I am seeing the glow. The onus is on women to wake up right where they are and realize there is shimmering gold within them. It is divine love-light and it is conscious. Women hold the key to the new age. They can’t miss now. They are activating the threads of liquid light within them that connects them directly to the sun and the sun behind the sun.
Putting hands on each other in mutual massage exchanges, which is my mission, may bring up sexual thoughts and sensations because of centuries of male imprinting. And, as women we want to be fully conscious that this may happen and we don’t want to block it or deny it, but rather to lift it up. By allowing those thoughts and honoring them by loving them, deeply buried fear, guilt and shame energy can surface and be dissolved. Instead of focusing on men, sex and substituting women for men, lifting to higher planes is how the sacred healing and restoring of the womb takes place. Women need to own the warm sensations that accompany the healing of the yoni, the second chakra, and keep it for themselves instead of reaching out to give it away. The tendency is to share it with someone, to give it to someone else, which is in effect, giving it away, repelling it away, this inner love that is meant for her body and her alone. This does not mean she can’t indulge in lovemaking later with someone, but as a healing procedure, she is to keep the love for herself and allow it to grow and expand inside her body, and especially her womb as she is being massaged.
She can quadruple what she gives to a man by owning the love within herself and amplifying it within herself first, which has not yet been done. It is easier to work with women in this new way because women are not programmed to give love away to a sister/woman in the same way she is programmed to give love to a man. As women gather together to discuss and learn new closeness techniques, we serve as mirrors to each other. We mirror feminine back to feminine. We see love and feel love within our OWN body. mind and soul. Go into the womb. There is silence in the womb. There is peace in the womb. There is love, nurturance, warmth, vital wholeness. Don’t bring thought in here. Don't bring desire in here. Don't bring expectation in here.
This is the most sacred of all sacred locations on Earth. The male has “poked” into this sacred space and defiled it. Let us enter, sit in silence inside this holy temple. There are no walls. It is a very large space. There is a candle here, a light which is fathomless. It represents divinity. It grows larger as we allow ourselves to settle in and grow quiet. There is a drum beat. It grows to become a constant. It is like a heart beat, stabilizing us and anchoring us. The feelings start to rise like vapors. Like smoke. They are not dense feelings that contract and squeeze. This is evaporation, a movement upward to home, to more refinement. The yoni/vagina is the outer court. The entrance to the temple. The womb/uterus is the holy sanctuary within. Several doors need to open yet. Visualize a very pure lingam/penis entering the yoni, the outer court. It is entering with sacredness, fully conscious, feeling the sacredness of this holy place. It is your own male self. Proud, strong, protective, caring. That part of you which was missing. It is coming to join you, His holiness. This lingam/penis is no foreigner, no stranger, but familiar. He has been missing for a long time.
A haunting memory of sweet peace fills you as your other half slowly fills your inner sanctum. The holy matrimony, the sacred marriage, is about to take place. It is rising, rising, rising, slowing, slowing, slowing to come to a full stop. Hail to the light in the pelvis, hail to the light in the mind, hail to the light in the cells inbetween throughout this body of mine.
12/18/22 - Update on the divine feminine movement
I've been deeply involved in inner explorations, namely for myself alone, shutting off the rest of the world and plunging deep into the depths of the past, reading through numerous journals, channelings, revelations, remembering the bad times and the good times, and the wisdoms gained from the journey. Very few people contact me any more. Only occasionally. There is a process going on that requires my full attention. It is subjective and amazing information is taking place. On outer concrete levels I'm engaged in a self-imposed exercise program, a rehab program, due to injuries sustained from overworking my back muscles. In between the inner and outer exercises, there is a connection, an overlapping, an interesting joining together. It takes all of my attention. Something big is coming, but it won't be that big when it arrives because I'm adapting as I go. I'm absorbing the bigness day in, day out, and weaving it together, inner and outer is being merged. By the time it arrives most of the impact will have been leveled into peace. Certainly there are major changes going on in the outer world of politics, international, financial, cultural, social, business, etc., but I'm not paying any attention to it. Doug is, but he is cool about it and we are at peace in our little place in the country, merging on levels that are part of the big thing that is happening. Meanwhile I'm all caught up in this, my own personal transformation. It has to do with the female empowerment, an ancient process a long time in coming. In other words, allowing in the beautiful, soft, nurturing, divine feminine to come out of the closet and express herself. This is what will change the world, and save it from destruction.
Today’s female empowerment movement is divinely directed. It is not a human ego movement. It is under the auspices of a vaster intelligence than humans who think they are in charge. Without understanding the spiritual anatomy intellectually and logically, women are regaining confidence. It's a quiet process. Very internal. They are gathering together to validate and confirm their gentle femininity. I sense this on inner levels, subjectively. It is not intellectual or brainy. She is owning the CELLS in her body, feeling the CELLS come alive. She is reclaiming the flow and her rightful share of the energy coming up from Mother Earth to meet the sky spirit coming down into her inner body cells. She is feeling her emotions again. She doesn’t have to give up her intellectual pursuits, but too much intellectual pursuits steals the body’s natural bliss, which is harmony, balance, peace and spiritual nourishment, and turns it into head trips.
When the head takes over without the body, it becomes ego. It thinks it knows it all. I have had to get out of my own way. Out of my own head. The BODY is the location where higher self and earthy self connects and plays out and fulfills the game of life. It is done for the sheer enjoyment of spirit, father/mother God and human soul, in a beautiful garden of Eden. It’s in the body, not the brain that this happens. It‘s in the body that is the Garden of Eden - the paradise that man was kicked out of and was not allowed to return because he was engaging in head-trips, judging, condemning, blaming, criticising, fearing, and feeling shame, guilt and victimhood as a result. By creating an intellect too big and too powerful for the body’s naturalness, mankind created the chaos of today. That is why the goddess, the sweet and beautiful divine feminine went underground. The natural divinity went into hiding. She hides behind a shield. She is still in hiding but there are signs it is starting to awaken. Mostly in the women but men have the divine feminine in them too. They will lag behind for aw hile. I am geared into the divine feminine wisdom and it shows in my private writings from over the last 50 years. I am starting to post more of these writings now. My confidence is building. I send love and a warm feminine hug to everyone who reads this. Feel free to contact me privately via the Contact page.
12/16/22 - Your body cells carry ancient wisdom
In the dream we were gathering for an advisory committee meeting and I asked everyone to form a circle. I asked them first to hold hands and then to move closer together in the center, still holding hands, as if to form a hugging circle as best they could considering their numbers, because I wanted their bodies to merge and connect. I did not want their mental energies, I wanted their body energies. I was still talking to them as I awoke so I could remember my words: Your minds are the filters, filtering out what society says is not appropriate. Your minds censor what your bodies are feeling. Your minds are opinionated and restricted, but your bodies are full of a vaster, far superior intelligence. Your body cells know precisely what to do and they are fed with a magnificent energy, a powerful knowledgeable healing energy that is a oneness energy. But your minds filter out this energy because society says it is not acceptable. Since it is the mind’s job to interface with society and make sure everything is done according to society and not upset the apple cart, your minds are continually censoring, rejecting, resisting these powerful knowings that are inherent in the body. But what I want from you is your body intelligence, your gut intelligence, your intuitive reasoning, the talent that you have built over a lifetime and many lifetimes of experience.
Your body cells carry this ancient wisdom in them. You each have a unique history and superb talents to give to the world. Beautiful extraordinary knowledge, long histories of successes and failures and volumes have been written into your body cells. You know SO much, but you are continually filtering out this knowledge. But THAT is what I want from you - all that you are. Everything that is in you. I want you to express and I want you to pass this on to those coming behind you. Each human being is so full of energy and talents and this energy and talent is so wasted in a structured society when it is held back. But THAT is what I want from you on this advisory committee and I think partying after a committee meeting is very appropriate, to share our body intuitions. They are genuine. They are not masked. Only the mind masks those feelings. I don’t want just your regular corporate mask with your censored beliefs and opinions. I want what you REALLY know inside. And as I was talking I felt this to the bone. I felt this through and through to the depths and beyond. I was totally drenched and immersed in the knowledge that THIS is where we are headed. THIS is the body wisdom that I am seeking in the people. THIS is what is going to change the world.
12/13/22 - The feminine spirit vs. masculine spirit
Last night I was tutored in what it means to be in feminine spirit vs. masculine spirit. I woke in the night to see once again 444 on the digital clock, and I was fully aware of this information. It was still playing through my consciousness as I got up to go to the bathroom. What I was seeing, and I have been thinking about all day is this. In a nutshell, the feeling world of the feminine side of life is a world of the formless. Electrons move about quietly, randomly, as if in a sea of liquid, aimless except under the influence of a defining thought. The mental world of the masculine side of life is a world of form. Electrons move in the shape of a defining thought, a plan, an agenda, a direction, an idea. All electrons are joining forces with others to move in that direction. Thought is what activates the electrons. This was so very clear to me.
Following up on that, in a later segment of the tutorial, I was shown that men are so busy planning, controlling and thinking of what they will be doing in the next moment, that they do not know how to access their feminine. They ARE half feminine, they have a feminine nature too, but they have been programmed to be mostly in the planning and thinking stage, using their minds to be ever active. They think of the quiet ones as being weak or effeminate, the cause of ridicule or dismissal. They do not consider the quiet ones to be important. And yet they hunger for the feminine! This is evident in their seeking after sexual union with someone they can plunge into. As my friend says, “Men all want to climb back into the womb!” They need, want and long for feminine energy and do not know how to get it.
The bridge to higher consciousness is the heart. The bridge to lower consciousness is the heart. The heart is the connecting link. Feelings are non-defined electrons moving randomly in the feeling world, simply feeling. The feeling world is a world of liquidity, formless, aimless except under the influence of a defining thought - waiting for direction. Feminine. I was reminded of King Arthur’s sword. An ancient one had thrust a mighty sword into the heart of a big rock and there it remained stuck and immovable for ages. No one could budge it. This mighty sword represented the sword of truth and it awaited someone to come along who would recognize its value. It was plunged into the rock by a higher being. The rock represented the material, immovable, concretized mind of mankind. The sword of higher consciousness was implanted into the hard rock of human kind to wait for someone to come along - a brighter-than-average soul - to recognize its value and thus have the inner power to activate the energy of the sword. King Arthur was a more evolved soul and was able to remove the sword from the rock. Without his consciously knowing, his energy matched the energy of the sword, the higher power of nobility, truth, daring, courage, honesty, humility, love. honor, and more, over other humans who had not yet evolved to such grace.
12/11/22 - A personal update
Here I am to let everyone know, who checks this website, that I'm still here. This is Diana speaking. I have not fallen through the cracks into the invisible spaces. A new drainfield was put in behind our house in the pasturelands of North Naples, We live on acreage and the house is 75 years old. Everything has gotten old and worn out and we are not spring chickens. The workers and their earth-moving machines left a pile of dirt when done. According to county regulations we need to plant sod on the slopes of the mound so it won't crumble away. We chose to plant grass seed instead.
Growing up on the farm I have a farming instinct, so I began raking and planting grass seed on my knees, despite Doug's warning not to. Nine days later, I had to admit I couldn't go any further. My body rebelled and the pain has grown increasingly worse. A visit to the chiropractor, and a visit to Marcus in Naples (see Massage for his info, he has the touch) have contributed mightily to helping, but my own awakening consciousness has taken me to new levels. I can't describe in words, so I'll leave it at that. From the depths of pain the light shone through with greater clarity, and light is information. I have some new information.
There is much emerging from the depths of my lesson in pain, one of which is the blossoming and furthering of the idea of sharing human love through the close touch with others. Unconditionally snuggling, cuddling, hugging, and sharing soul talk, heart-to-heart talk, but not romantic talk. Not sexual. Simply sharing one's inner light with the inner light of another human being in an upward focus of higher, finer, freer, happier, and more elevating feelings, thoughts and ideas. It is profound. I have been doing a little of it with a few friends. It's not sexual because sexual love is personal and self-focused. Selfish. It goes draws bodies to focus downward into lower density. Upward focused love is hugely invigorating and healing. It is the opposite type of love. It is a revolutionary concept that has been germinating for a long time.
12/6/22 - Another word for energy is emotion
Another word for energy is emotion. It is a better word because it is more understandable and practical. We can connect better with the word “emotion” than “energy”. An energy field is an emotional field. When someone steps inside your personal space you can FEEL it. It changes your consciousness. Consciousness is also an emotion. It is an extremely high emotion. There is an endless spectrum of feelings which may be registered by the mind and body. It is a process of evolution to raise the capacity to detect feelings on the higher planes, which we call mental or intellectual. But the very sea of life is a sea of emotional awareness that is in harmony all the way through and through. It is not separated as we humans have done into distinctly different layers. This is a new thought and new way of defining it, but it struck me today very powerfully that energy and emotion is one thing and interchangeable.
We become aware of higher planes of consciousness as we become aware of higher planes of feeling, perceiving and yes, even thought. It has been said that thought is abstract, but every thought registers a feeling along with it. We expand our awareness as we expand our feelings. It is an endless journey of sensations, sensitivities and awareness. And there are those emotions that fall below the neutral line and are negatively colored, and those which rise above the line to become positively colored. When we fall down into the dull gray zones of disinterest and boredom, we are registering emotion. Emotion is a new word to consider in place of energy. While there will be disagreement in this statement, it might be interesting to note how it changes your understanding. It is more visceral when thinking "emotion", than when thinking "energy". It connects better with the practical man.
When you expand your consciousness, you expand your emotions. Expanding emotions means expanding the space between the subatomic particles we call "energy". It expands the space between the subatomic particles in the substance of matter. It MOVES the emotion. It MOVES the energy so that it is more flowing and allowing. It becomes more positive instead of stuck recycling the same old stuff and not moving it. Expanding emotion means raising the emotion, allowing it to flow better, resulting in a finer emotion, one that is more appreciative, graceful, charming, happier. Awareness is also a feeling. Awareness is a feeling that is so much more elevated that we don't think of it as an emotion. But notice the next time you become aware of something new, something different. Is there not an emotion that is registered at the same time? Like a perception? Perceiving is an emotion. Sensitivity is an emotion. Divinity is an emotion.
Praising the Lord is an emotion. Reverence is an emotion. Attitudes of sacredness are emotions. It is not possible to be in the presence of such highly exalted states of love without feeling emotional. Ecstacy, bliss and rapture are emotions. It is the sea of life in which we move and and have our being. Emotions connect us, heart, mind, body and soul. It is a harmonizer. Another word we might consider is soul. Maybe emotions are the soul? Notice what your emotions are registering right now. Is your soul registering this? What are you feeling about the discussion? Are you bored with it? Impressed? Disagree? Disgusted? Calling it "energy" neutralizes it somewhat. We lose the value of this which is quite real. The sea of emotions is playing out all around us but we are not recognizing it.
If you don’t like the feeling you are currently having, substitute something exciting and positive for you. Focus on something you WANT to do. Change what you're doing, your attention on what you're doing, and you'll change your emotions (your energies). Change your emotional field. You are the one creating it. You can change it. Have a prepared list of things, tasks or projects to be done that you can switch gears and jump into at a moment’s notice. Something that interests you so it captures your complete attention. It will then take you away from the emotional field (energy field) you did not like. Do you get bored easily and wish something exciting would happen in your life? You would be surprised how easy it is to change your emotional field and raise your excitement level. I've tried it. I've been following Ascended masters instructions. They've been here where we are and they've learned some tricks. Are you frustated? Confused? Can't identify what to call it? It's just a matter of changing tasks and focus to something you'd rather be doing. It is usually just a matter of changing focus. Stop the slide into dullness, which is a matter of losing interest. Vitality. Life force. You CAN change it immediately if you are aware. Aware that your mood is the result of losing vital life force. Stay interested. Change often.
Surprisingly, the heart is like the doorway to the underground spring that feeds you vitality. The heart is an instrument that registers BOTH sides of life, the spiritual and the material or practical. The heart is the fulcrum. A deep underground spring feeds upward into the heart which pumps blood to the nerves and endocrine system, brain and organs. Your true Self is an underground spring that descends down from pure unadulterated, uncontaminated divinity. Your true Self is purer underground than it is on the surface where you interact with other people. You are constantly giving and receiving emotions (energies) from strangers and family all day long and even during sleeping hours. We live in a sea of emotions (energies). But with careful attention to shifts in perception, it is possible to stay alert. Keep moving. Don't stop. Don't stagnate. When resting, have affirmations to repeat to keep your mind alert until you fall asleep.
Your real Self is more pure, graceful and holy the deeper you go into stillness. It is like going underground to the wellspring that feeds your body, mind and spirit. The artificial you on the surface are watered down, along with everyone else, and modified by the constant interactions of unidentified emotions being shared and exchanged. The confusions of the mass population. We are feel blah, drained and confused from all the input in the environment. Remember your purer Self is coming up gently through underground springs that feed pure life force to you. Shut off the world for 20 or 30 minutes, morning, noon and night before going to bed, and go silent. Picture your heart with a sun shining inside. Enter softly into this imaginary picture superimposed over your heart. Your purity and innocence dwells there in pure rare softness. There is also a heart living inside each and every cell in your body. In the brain cell, muscle cell, lung or liver cell. As your heart pump, pump, pumps the blood, it will carry your emotion of reverence and grace out to the cells via the circulation system. They receive it and spring to life unnoticed by you. It is a revival mechanism - a process taught by the masters and their followers. That is why meditation has grown in popularity over the years. People are discovering its ability to regenerate. It is literally a life saver by resurrecting the tired and worn out cells of the body and brain.
11/29/22 - A self-help technique for anxiety to do at home
A friend wrote and said her anxiety levels are skyrocketing. I received the following suggestion in my mind and immediately wrote to her about it - and tried it out for myself. It works. Massage the sides of your neck with some soft lotion, slow and gentle. Both the left side and the right sides of your neck. Both up behind the ear to where the skull starts and down into the collar bone. Also up around the back of the ear on the bone itself. This is relaxing to the vegus nerve which is a big nerve that touches in and influences everywhere in the body. Also massage the back of your neck too, and the front of your throat and down into the upper chest. And all over the neck and the ears. Go up around the ears and pull on the ear lobes. Stretch the earlobes gently. Even put your fingers inside the ears just to touch the skin there, not deeply or forcefully, just to touch them and say "hello" to your ears. The neck is holding all the energies up inside the brain. It is a forced position for the head. The neck is a major stress point. A fulcrum point. It needs releasing and this cannot be forced. It must be relaxed. You don't need to spend money by going to a massage therapist. You'll just get anxiety ridden going and coming in all that traffic!
Most people are trying to "think" their way out of problems and world situations. It can't be done, world problems must be relieved and relaxed away. The brain doesn't have the ability to solve world problems. It only adds to the world problems. Your body DOES have the ability to relax those worries away. Open the trap door in the neck, which is around the medulla oblongata, what we call the Atlas at the top of the spine. Atlas, who carries the weight of the world on his shoulders. The vegus nerve among other lesser nerves can be massaged here. That's why a shoulder and neck massage feels so good. But you can do this for yourself alone, by tenderly massaging the neck. Allow the stress energies to fall down through the Atlas, the trap door in the neck, and down into the body where it is grounded. It finds a more natural relaxed state of being because it is joining in with the rest of the bodoy.
It helps to put your feet up to help blood circulation during the neck massage if you can manage that comfortably. Or any time of the day, lie down and put your feet up higher than your head. Blood carries anxiety energies from place to place in your body, and the blood pools down in the feet from standing up or sitting for so long. So putting your feet up during the massage will help distribute the energies as they start moving.
Alternatively, you can light a candle and stare into the candle flame while you are massaging your neck, if you have one convenient. The fire is a natural energy radiating natural soothing energy. Stare into the candle flame while feeling the soothing neck massage. Consider that someone else's hands are massaging you. Imagine yourself giving you a neck and shoulder massage. Imagine yourself relaxing while someone is doing this for you. It might trance you out. Allow for it. Breathe. Relax. Massage yourself slowly, gently, tenderly, soothingly. This is self love.
I've been studying the effects of the neck massage on myself. I can feel it. It is wonderful!
11/26/22 - More about the etheric body
Waking up this morning with a dream still playing out. Trees that were dying because they lived too close to each other and couldn't expand their auric field, and one particular young man 16 years old, who was weakening from living too close to his family who were crowding him. He didn't have enough individual space in which to grow. And other jungle scenes showing trees unable to support the wild life which lived in them. Upon waking I recognized the message was about the etheric body. It's time to start writing about it.
The etheric body is the understructure for the physical body. It is body of vitality which feeds physical power to the physical body. It is the substructure - or the infrastructure you could say - of the physical body. It supports, nurtures and feeds the muscles, nerves, bones, blood and organs of the physical body. When the physical body becomes weak, it's because the etheric body has become loosely connected to the physical. It is connected through the nervous system which is fed by the nadis, the currents of light from the meridian system of the etheric body. The etheric body is sometimes referred to as the soul in religious or spiritual terms, but it is not so easily defined since it is not an object like the physical body. So it doesn’t matter what name we call it, it is more important to become educated and understand its role in our life. And why it is important. Every physical body has an etheric body underlying it, or better put, OVERlying it for the enery is coming down into the physical, not up from underneath. It is the energy body, or the vitality body.
The etheric body is physical. It is made of physical atoms and electrons, but these particles are spaced further apart than in the physical. They are on higher, more rarified planes and therefore invisible to our eyesight. Except to sensitives, such as clairvoyants. Plus anyone might see the bluish glow surrounding a tree, plant or person in the growing darkness of evening hours if they are relaxed enough. The physical body is more solidly compacted together. The etheric body is the gathering space of forces composed of random atoms and subatomic particles that wander around in the atmosphere and attach to a person's auric field. Here they ripple their presence through the person as either a heightened thought or a chill of something foreign or negative. The etheric body is a space around the physical body into which settles floating energies from the atmosphere. They either settle there, up close to the body, or move on. This is the reason we need to become aware of the etheric body. It is an influence on our lives. It impacts us with whatever energies it has collected.
The ether ic body is also known as the etheric double. When the body dies, an exact replica of the person can be seen by sensitives for a short time time after death. The etheric double acts like a reservoir of bits and pieces of the planetary life that is constantly moving through the atmosphere. These energies pour into our auric fields under forces we are not aware of. There are many forces. Too many to identify. They are like clouds of subatomic matter that are loose and wandering around, and are attracted to someone with similar thoughts and feelings. they are simply part of the human collective worldwide, and through atmospheric currents they are present at all times. When they come into close proximity to us, they become either lodged in our auric field or they may be repelled by our awareness and move on. Our auric field on the outer perimeter attracts these energies and if we don't repel them, they move closer in to our physical level and then enter our nervous system. Hence, feelings "out of the blue" that descend on us and we don't know why. The etheric body, is loosely referred to as the aura. It is referred to as our soul. It influences our moods and what thoughts we think, what choices and decisions we make, how much vitality we have, for they can suck the life out of us and drain us without our knowing. If they are negative energies, they are parasitic in nature. They are hungry for the living life force because they are negative energies, meaning below the 50-50 balance line or neutral line.
It is worthwhile painting a picture of what a human body looks like to a celestial being or master. Our solid bodies are only a small part of who we are. The body itself is embedded inside a large sphere which, on the outer level is pure white light and love. It is not physical light, it is intelligence. The pure white light darkens by degree the closer it gets to the physical body at the center, which is the emanating source of the darkness. The soul who is inhabiting the human body is what the masters monitor. They know every living soul on the planet and where they are on the evolutionary path. The physical body is the solid at the center of the sphere of light, like the yolk inside an egg.
Running through the sphere of light, ever darkening toward the center, hair-thin lines of crystal pure white light weave like a spiders web, seeking to connect with the physical nerves, but there are obstructions. The pure light is available to feed into every cell in the body, except there are false beliefs in the way. The etheric body is a moving, heaving, fluctuating reservoir of forces surrounding the physical body. Composed of forces and influences from many sources. Some good, some bad, some indifferent. As a person thinks are these forces attracted into his life, thought and feeling. They are brought in by himself. He sucks them in, as if through a straw by his own thoughts and attention he holds with his feelings and moods. These then affect his psychology, the way he thinks, the way he feels, his vitality or lack thereof, his weakness, his musculature, organs, bones, hair, teeth. The etheric body is the infrastructure that supports his physical body and presence on Earth. His etheric body builds these forces into his physical body, to either vitalize it or wear it down because the majority do not know. This is a new-age science that has only barely begun to be revealed, studied and experimented with. Energy workers are starting to put it together but science is lagging behind. The physical body literally feeds off of this fluctuating, moving cloud of forces that surrounds him. He feeds on it through the day and through the night.
All through the physical body and stretching out into the sphere of darker light that surrounds him, are invisible threads of pure white light. This is the invisible network of nadis and meridians that run through the etheric body, that carry crystal pure white light, the crystalline light of perfection. The acupuncturists put needles into certain points on the body to open blockages and let the light flow through better. The darkened light that surrounds the human being is contaminated because he hasn't cleaned it up. Humanity is on the brink of discovering the process. Once pure, the sphere of white dazzling light of pure intelligence has been filled with wrong thoughts, wrong feelings, wrong assumptions and conclusions. These wrong assumptions have been carried over from lifetime to lifetime building a momentum of evil into the world from which we are in the midst of turning around. The new golden age is upon us and ascension techniques are everywhere available to those with eyes open and minds alert. Understandings need to be cleared up, but only the individual can do this for himself. Further information is needed to understand how this works.
NADI is a Sanskrit word from the ancient practices of the Eastern tradition. The nadis are microscopic threads of crystal pure light which link up and connect with our physical nervous system. The way to strengthen the physical body is to strengthen these connections to the etheric body. Expand awareness to include the spacious aura that surrounds the body. The body does not stop at the skin level. It is not just physical. It is bigger and extends further out beyond sight. The trick is to expand awareness by using imagination - mental powers. Imagine a more spacious field of light surrounding you like a radiation or a higher spectrum of light that you can't see. It is invisible. Image your brain stretching and growing lighter and brighter. It takes mental effort and imagination. It is within each person's ability to grow himself or herself lighter, brighter and larger beyond physical eyesight.
Visualize a light sphere interpenetrating the physical body and extending out around the body at a distance of two or three or even four feet beyond you. Visualize a particle, molecule or cell within the body with a sphere of radiating light around it, an etheric light. Each physical cell is a living thing - science tells us that - but science does not tell us about the ethers or the etheric double. Science is behind the times! The etheric body exists beyond what science can prove. It lives on and on and on, into higher and ever higher planes of life. The physical brain is a mere shell of what lies behind the brain and supports the brain. It is like looking at an ice cube and not realizing that it is melted water and, further, it is a condensation of other, finer material.
As you mentally picture this graphic picture, your brain is receiving the picture. YOU are the creator of the picture. YOU are the master of your body. YOU are the one who is educating your body by opening to the "more" that is above and beyond you. This is how we program our bodies with more information. The brain is expands and becomes more attuned to the new information. It absorbs this new information. New synapses are built, gaps are filled in, understanding takes place. "Ahhhh, I see!" Refinement takes place as the brain "gets it". We need to program our brain and help it to grow and widen its understanding. When the brain can comprehend the idea in abstract, soon the body will register symbiotic feelings. Connections between the invisible world and the physical world will take place as relaxing, endearing, softening feelings. We melt the two worlds together and our understanding expands. Relax and breathe! Enjoy the show. Enjoy the feelings of melting into harmony. The body is getting it too and enjoying the soothing, interrelationship. The crystalline light from higher planes of life is penetrating into the physical cells.
The more we practice visualizing, the more blending takes place between dimensions. The lines melt and dimensions become closer in harmony. From ancient days this process has been known as the Christ. The Christian religion assigned the word to one single gentleman 2000 years ago, but was known prior to that period. The word "christ" means crystal. Their are crystalline threads of pure light running through our etheric body, coming down from higher planes, and entering into our physical body. We can help it along by picturing the process and reading up on it. More info is becoming available.
There are other, not-so-nice forces also gathering in the etheric body. It is not all pure. We have built up mistakes and errors over the many lifetimes of living in different bodies. So now, in these so-called "end times", where the mass consciousness is shifting from dark to light, the technique being offered is to expand awareness to include the surrounding space - the auric field. And bad influences we nip in the bud before they take hold and settle down into us.
We receive forces from many sources. They are attracted either by affinity - the law of attraction - or by close proximity. Many clouds of energy are randomly passing by in loose, fluid state, the way chaos passes in a storm or a flood. There is chaos around. People are spewing restlessness, anxiety and confusion. Thoughts of fear and depression. What matters is to change the dark to a positive note before it settles in. Become aware. Scan the auric field. You can do it for a loved one if your partner(s) are not aware of this technique. Do it silently without speaking. Use the inner science of magic - imagination. Become attunded to the subjective world of perception and knowing. Become aware when a negative enters your field, your mind, so you notice it. Don't dismiss it. Rather transform it by replacing it with a swarm of loving thoughts. Sweep it away with love, or kindness, or whatever benevolent word you prefer to use. It's a mental vacuum cleaner. You will notice the difference soon enough.
Subatomic particles of energy are electrons, misguided, mismanaged electrons that are alive with life. They seek a home. Someone who will give them a resting place. They flow in currents. They are attracted to and pushed around by larger more potent forces. Some are good, some not so good, some downright negative. These are random particles seeking a home. They gather together when they find others like them. They are little conscious entities that have a life. They too want families to live with. If you like them, then give them a home and welcome them. But if you find them uncomfortable, then change them with a sweeping force of powerful love. More positive, agreeable thoughts, that make YOU feel better. So many people are unaware of how powerful positive feelings are. They are the measuring rod. Listen to your bodies feelings of goodness vs. bodily feelings of badness. Don't let badness coagulate and settle in your auric field, else it will enter into your physical body through the etheric body.
If you are not managing your thoughts in your mental body and giving them direction, if you are not discerning which ones you want and which ones you don’t want, these particles will accumulate in your field. When you become aware of them and you take charge over them, then you are helping yourself to stay strong. You are guarding your auric field against invasion by negative forces. It is entirely up to you WHICH kinds of influences you want to entertain in your etheric body, your infrastructure. That which supports you or that which weakens you. Again, you are receiving forces from beyond your control, so it is up to you to be responsible for keeping your etheric body clean and positive. Transform the thoughts you don't want, or they will become physical and emotional feelings you don't like. Your substructure is the infrastructure of your physical body. It is no different than the concrete foundation or steel girders of your house. Because the etheric body is invisible to eyesight, this has not been part of our schoolroom education. Traditional classroom education has been restricted to the old way of "believe only in what we can see, hear, smell, touch or taste."
The etheric body is the space around us that is held in place by our own unique and personal energy signature. Our permission allows them to settle, whether we are ignorant of the process or not. This energy field supports, feeds and maintains our concrete physical body and gives us vitality and power - or takes it away. It is the universal force that we draw on. It is time we understood what "universal force" is made of. It comes from everywhere. It is up to us to discern what "universal force" we allow to settle in our field, and which ones we want to expel. The negatives suck the life out of us and weakens our muscles, blood, organs, nerves and bones and gives us disease. The majority don't even know, let alone make corrections and follow exercises to strengthen it. It is the reason for yoga, meditation, self-improvement techniques, becoming more universally acceptedthan ever before. These are consciousness-building exercises to take the place of pharmaceuticals and drugs. Self-enlightenment recipes hold the power of change. It is inner work. As someone visualizes and becomes consciously aware of their etheric body, they start to notice things they never noticed before. The knowledge seeps in quietly, like a thought out of the blue sky. Like a sponge absorbs water. The forces start to talk to you. You become aware of the good ones and the bad ones. You become more knowledgeable about your energy field. You start to improve your energy and your vitality. Cultivate a belief in this by practicing it. Otherwise it is just abstract theory.
Become familiar with the forces that influence you, especially the forces that you don't like. Change them and substitute a BETTER force. Which ones are you allowing in because you're not paying attention? Start by paying attention. This morning after I did my usual preparation (shower, etc.) I sat down in my usual chair to begin my morning practice, and my chair spoke to me for the first time ever. It said "Good morning!" to me in a subjective kind of way. It was the first time I heard that. It told me I am sitting in my "thinking chair". In my thinking chair I start receiving voices in my awareness. More bleed-throughs. My awareness is so open now that I have almost too many to remember them all. I am now forced to switch them off and go into the silence. Otherwise I would become bogged down with too many ideas. All good ideas but I seek the place of peace where the voices stop coming. And the peace starts replacing them.
You become more discerning. Always there is more to become aware of. It never ends but YOU can stop it anytime you like. You are the authority over these forces. It is time to realize that. You become more conscious of other entities or energies coming in - both good and bad. It doesn't matter. You can take control over them and shift your mood. Maybe it’s a shift in physical feeling. Like for me today, after eating Chinese food I had an immediate abdominal reaction and spent the next hour back and forth to the bathroom. I forgot. I had this reaction before from Chinese food. It could have been a psychological reaction or an emotional reaction, but this was simply a physical body reaction.
Maybe forces enter your awareness like a strong dislike. It just strikes you distastefully. Or anger strikes out of the blue. Or hatred. Or fear. Fear is a biggie. Instead of wondering where it came from, don't analyze it. Change it. Love it. Send a wave of overwhelming love at it and wash it away. Maybe a warning strikes of danger, or suspicion or jealousy. Instead of wondering where it's coming from (and who to start watching out for) change it. Change it with love. Love is the balancing force for everything awkward, distasteful, uncomfortable and - yes - dangerous.
Love is all there is, as Marcus is constantly saying. Love is ALL there is. And the masters and celestials say it too. Over and over and over. It is what keeps the universe orderly. The planets are classrooms. We come into embodiment to learn more about love and how to apply it to situations we run into. Love is all there is. It's the greatest tool and technique ever made available. How to use it requires individual experimentation. Various energies are striking our auric fields all the time. They are all different, and some are truly dangerous. They can suck us in until we forget what we are here for. Humanity has not been aware of these insidious forces until very recently. The wars have been telling us, and the pandemic has been a blast in our faces. But we are starting to get it, aren't we? There are negative forces everywhere. The most dangerous ones are at first sweet and kind to tempt us. The technique for overcoming them is forgiveness, mercy, kindness and overwhelming love. This sweeps them away. Negativity does not like love and kindness!!!
Negative forces are even out there in space, as we are told. And they are inside of us too. When we hold onto sin, shame, dirty thoughts, angry thoughts, we are holding onto energies that do not belong with us. We have to sweep them away with loving kindness for ourselves and others. We have been told by the religions that we are sinners and should feel guilty, but it is untrue. Love is all there is! There is a sphere of dazzling pure white light all around us and which runs through us in tiny strands of living light. We live in a sea of eternally pure white light. We are a unique, one-of-a-kind child of pure white light and love. Light is information, love is what we do with that information. The piece of information that was missing in our training as young children was about the etheric body. The space that surrounds us is the gathering place of subatomic particles of light that are floating around aimlessly. Some good, some bad, some in between. They are fluid and fluctuating under various forces and sources. It doesn't matter what they are or where they come from, we must expand our consciousness to be aware of what is influencing us. What energies are striking our minds and feelings. And take charge of changing them on the spot. Change them into love and light. Strange forces surround you without your realizing it. Take control over these forces. YOU are the one in control. Or should be. If you are not in control of these forces, then you are susceptible to being continually influenced by outsiders controlling your thoughts and feelings. Don't be led. Be a leader of your own sphere of light that you carry around with you.
This is the battlefield to be aware of. Consider this before going tp a doctor to seek a prescription drug. Not to give up your prescription drugs but to become aware of your OWN powers alongside of the prescription drugs you may currently take. In the religions of the world the etheric body was referred to as the soul, a vague unknown term until recently. We are becoming wise to the vagaries of the religious past. You are the landowner of your physical body. It was given to you to take care of it. Again, you were never told about the etheric body being a collector of forces. Become a wise and good steward of the land of your body. You own this piece of land. Notice what is growing in it, or below out of sight, beneath the surface. You can improve on your own health and strengthen it, by nipping a growing negative force in the bud, before it has time to take root. Before a doctor pronounces a word that puts fear into you. Disease has become like religion, people believe in sickness. Can you imagine believing in sickness? It is time to put an end to belief in wrong thoughts. It is time to end the downward spiral. This is about becoming educated. Health is a science, not witchcraft. Techniques and classes are becoming more available by the day. Listen to them. Choose one that appeals to your sense of rightness and comfort. Try it out. It is YOU who are the final authority.
Learn some words to speak out loud. Affirmations. When you say a word out loud it changes the energy in your immediate sphere of influence. Try it out. The “I AM” affirmations are statements of a positive nature. They are called mantras and chants. Oming is a universal sound to use, or humming. Aum (OM) means “I AM”. It affirms I AM as a self-conscious being. It means simply I am what I am.
11/21/22 - Uncovering the ancient light buried within
In the pre-dawn hours this morning I woke slowly from a very, very deep place down inside my sentience, with bodily feelings of heaviness. Not bad, not painful and not suffering, simply heavy. “I am the heavy in you” says the divine mother. And so I am awake and feeling very very heavy. Awareness flooded thru me of eons and eons of time spent in physical form. “I am the Light in you!” says the mother flame, and she is covered over by eons and eons of mistakes, errors, separate lives spent away from the divine light of home. She is awakening now, after years of inner work that I've done, she is feeling the weight of the heaviness. I AM feeling the weight of the heaviness. I am the mother in me. What do I do with this?
The question does not even need to be asked. I must honor it, the heaviness, and respect it. Lift it up with the lightness of my gratitude. Only the mother’s love or equivalent, can lift it up and raise it up out of the heaviness. I am assigned the task. I am what I am. I am here now and I am feeling the weight of the ages, the eons of misused life force. Gradually I rouse myself and go for my shower, stopping to write a post-it note on the way. Something important I must remember: “The concrete foundation has flaws in it. The human race has flaws in it." We are here, each of us, to correct the ancient flaws. The vision, “I am the heavy in you”, is connected to the ancient light buried in the bones and tissues of our bodies. I woke up with it. I was deep inside the heaviness, the feeling of it, the heavy awareness in me. The light in me is not dead, it is tired and covered over with the weight of the ages. It needs salvaging.
I ask DK briefly, without thinking. He says, “Shake it off. Shake it off like a wet dog shaking off water. Shake it, shake it, spin it, spin it." Then I see the violet flame in my mind. "Use the violet flame. Use the blue flame, use the gold flame, use the seven flames, the seven lights. Shake out the seven lights from the buried light. Shake it loose from the heaviness, cast off the heaviness. Shake it loose. Move it loose. Spin in loose. Spin the heaviness off and let the light come loose and be flexible. Let the light shine." We are part of the creator’s correction process. Creator has been trying to manifest the perfect physical human race with purity and perfection. We are angels in solid form that need tweaking and refining. There were mistakes made along the way. The human race is going through a correction process. There is an evolution going on. The evolution is the God-consciousness in the human evolving upward out of denser, heavier states. The mineral state evolves to the vegetable kingdom, which evolves to the animal kingdom, which evolves to the human kingdom, and now we are perfecting the human to evolve to the God-consciousness state. It has been confirmed and validated by DK’s writings in his books (Treatise on White Magic, and Esoteric Healing.)
There is also an INvolution going on. The evolution is the building of the perfect form. The INvolultion is the shrinking of focus on the solid form and the movement into the divine, the inner awareness of spiritual intelligence and the building of inner knowledge of heaven. While doing the inner organs pose today I became aware of the ancient light stuck in the solid mass of tissues of my physical. As I exercise my limbs, I am exercising this ancient light, the little lives of electrons and sub-atomic particles. Living light so long held captured and imprisoned inside the dust of earth. I am holding attention on the light sparks, the little sparks of life in my cells that have been frozen in place, locked in place, unable to move because no one knew they were there. This is old, ancient life buried in me. It has a consciousness. I feel it is alive. There is FIRE here that was paralyzed!!! I see it. I know it. I am here to rescue it and unlock it from its confinement for unknown countless centuries. It is the God Force. The God Force is locked into the dirt, dust and debris of what we mistakenly call “physical”. As I shake it loose I become aware that it is FIRE in me. I become zapped with more energy and vitality. Vitality moves in me because FIRE is a vitality force, a quickening force. OMG! I am in touch with a great occult mystery.
During the stomach rub my hands felt SO warm. Something deep within was tugging at me and longing for the warmth of my hands on my abdomen. A little later during the leg exercise I stopped when a new idea struck – I did the shoulder stand. The first time in many years for this old body. Awkward but easy enough. I bent the legs over my head and tried to touch the floor but couldn’t. I moved them around and felt the energy loosen. Amazing. Then I did the leg exercises and felt sensations similar to physical ecstasy. I didn’t want to stop at the required number of each move of the leg but I made myself stick to the routine. Amazing!! I can feel the ancient light responding to my attention. These are the electrons that carry my signature. They are mine, my life force. The ancient light is scattered throughout the four lower bodies, the emotional body, the mental body, etheric body and physical body. As I become knowledgeable about this, my attention calls to them and the scattered sparks respond. They hear me and quicken their speed.
The next step is to direct them and this requires my mental intellect. I must instruct them and guide them where to go, what to do, they must attach to the meridians. The meridians are lines of light energy that all too often go unnoticed by the average citizen. It is the divine or master blueprint. It is there in the first born as a pattern of pure intelligence for the mind to flow into naturally. It is pre-determined. It is the original blueprint. The plan is to bring the loose and rambling lost light particles, the life of the body that has been forgotten and paralyzed, back to life again so it can join the living flow of the current life. It is light and it is intelligence. The lost little ones will know it when they come closer to the main flow. That is why we must keep moving our limbs and not stagnate. The lost light particles need our movement. They are made of the same stuff as our current body. They will feel the calling as they are directed to their assigned places. You and I are doing the calling. Throughout the eons of evolution on the planet, we have evolved from mineral, plant, animal, to human and now to divine human. We are in the process of ascension which is the final perfecting of the human body so that it may enjoy the exquisite, impeccable harmony, peace, ecstasy and rapture of co-existing with our soul mates.
The mainstream media have been showing ads, movies and wars, keeping us fixated, focused and obsessed with the perfect body, perfect health, perfect clothes, perfect relationships, perfect living conditions, perfect homes, perfect economic conditions, perfect family arrangements, perfect sex, and the endless varieties of perfect versions. All of which keep us feeling bad because, in comparison, we are told that we don’t measure up. We are constantly told that we are imperfect, we are failures, by waving a different kind of "perfect" version in front of us day and night. It’s all a distraction. Don't show me any more perfect!!! It is an illusion. Perfect is who I already am. I don't have to create someone else's idea of what perfect should be. I am what I am naturally. As I unfold myself from within and gather up all of the ancient buried light sparks that have been feeling alone and lonely, I start feeling MORE of who I am. I feel more confident by the day. I feel the vitality building in me. The energy is exquisite. I am powerful in my own right. I know myself better. I am perfect just the way I am. I don't to change to fill someone else's criteria.
11/15/22 - Listen to the cells in your body
Reprinted from five years ago, after Hurricane Irma struck SWFL. In the aftermath I experienced heavy aches and pains everywhere. It was bad. Stumbling across this journal by accident serves as a good reminder, since we just went through Hurricane Ian. Talk to the cells in your body. (Copying as written:)
(9/29/17) It's 1 am and I’m up meditating. Couldn’t sleep. Applied Tiger Balm to my lower aching back. Thoughts have led me to the subject of refinement. I am learning about refining my awareness. Middle of the night is becoming my new normal time to converse with my higher guides, and when I applied the balm I noticed my nostrils crackled clear. I heard the words, "Refining the energies". This is how new lessons begin. They begin with words in my mind. The words kept coming. "Notice, pay attention, listen, observe the feelings in your body. Just observe. Let your body teach you. Your body seeks refinement. Allow it to show you, rather than you trying to impose your less-than-perfect technologies upon it. Your body is a mixture of unrefined and refined materials floating around in it, and some are not floating but remain stuck. The atoms that compose your body are conscious. They make up your body consciousness." **** After I finished applying Tiger Balm and DMSO to my back, I sat quietly, feeling the feelings that were generated from the application. Then I switched on the lamp and began writing, for the inner thoughts were coming through one after the other, easy and clear. This is what was written.
(DK channeled) “Some of this conscious material that makes up your body is slowed down and is what you call stuck energy. It is not moving well. But you have also higher moving materials in your body, and these are directing you to use certain balms and fluids externally, topically, such as the Tiger Balm and DMSO and taking Epsom salt baths. You credit me (DK) for these inner discussions but I am only one voice in the mix of voices you are receiving. Refining your perceptions is like picking up a telephone and listening. You are paying more attention. You are putting attention on your inner sensations. When higher vibrations meet lower vibrations, you as the resident agent of the body, cast the deciding vote. You are the steward and land owner of your body. Be a good land owner. Be accountable. Pay attention. Listen to what your body is telling you. It will tell you what you need to do.
“When integration of high and low-moving vibrational substances take place, healing is the result. Can you feel it now? (There was tingling and buzzing going on.) It is a unification. Blending and allowing, even welcoming the joining with a sense of awe and inspiration, a celebration if you will. This is how YOU create and bring about your own refinement. You are refining your body by listening to it. You call it healing. That is a third dimension term for a spiritual evolutionary process. When kundalini awakened in your body in 1976, YOU were conscious and awed by the refinement that flowed through you. It lifted you. If you had not been conscious and aware of the process, the process of kundalini awakening would have been aborted. YOU are the directing intelligence of your body. You are the master of the various and sundry energies, both high and low vibrating atoms that are moving throughout your four lower bodies. As you refine your perception, it is equivalent to meditation when you cease moving and thinking and begin listening to the advice and counsel of higher guidance. Your body is full of higher guiding forces. You do not have to follow a specific routine, such as a learned meditation that you have used before. Refining your consciousness is a fluid, subtle work of consciousness. Pay attention. Be still and listen and persevere in remaining alert and listening at all times. This is a walking meditation.
“Don’t force a thought because you are not the master planner. You are the student of all of this. You are the learner and the observer. You are the steward who does not know everything, because you are learning as you go. Learning as you go means you listen as you go. Listen and make decisions as the manager of this operating unit of many voices and many vibrations. You are the one who is learning by doing. You are growing wiser through the process of holding the balance and being the overseer of the project. It is on the job training. You are also known as the host. You are the one who is proving your worth by caring for this land over which you have been made responsible, your body-mind. Embrace this understanding of who you are. Your job is to listen to your little workers, millions of elementals in the form of atoms and subatomic particles needing an overseer. Listen to them for they are speaking to you even now. Some are in pain, others are happy. Listen, because as you listen you are sending love and love soothes, heals and unifies. Simply listening to someone speak, truly listening, is sending love. Allowing love to radiate. Love is the healing element. Do you understand?”
(Yes, master DK. Thank you. I do see. I must practice this and you are here with me, guiding me each night. You are patient with me. Thank you.)
“My dear, patience, no. It is not patience. It is allowing you the freedom to take the lead. It must be you who decides when to get up in the night and listen to me. When you are ready, you call me and I come forward to assist. I do not wait around for you! (Laughingly) I have others who I assist. There is much for me to do.
(Thank you for telling me that. It takes a load off my mind.)
(Laughter!) “Take the time to listen to your body. Listen to the tweaks, bumps and moans that your body is making. Learn how to move WITH them rather than try to fix them. Because, again, you do not have the master plan in your conscious mind. The master design for a perfect mind and body is descending through you in continuous flow, just as a river flows down the mountain becomes part of the landscape, influencing all of the surrounding territory. As the master design flows forth through you it causes FEELINGS in your body and influences your body if you let it. Listen to those feelings. The master plan is coming into you through your breath, in fluid motion, pressing here and there causing sensations, Sometimes you have a painful sensation when the breath of life bumps up against a resistance. Wherever there is pain, go there in your attention and continue to listen. Dissolve it by listening and paying attention. The master plan for your body is perfection but you have created energy blocks with false ideas of what should and shouldn’t be. The master plan is not an object to grasp and lay out on a table to examine. It is an unfolding current with you that is invisible, flowing from higher planes down into slower vibrating substance. You are the co-creator. Your perfect self is TRYING to come into manifestation but it is forced into an obstacle course made of prior human experience. As I said earlier, you are a mix of both high and low vibrating energies. It is YOU who enables the integration of high and low substances within you. You are the awake and aware steward of this land called a body. This nation of many voices, all of whom speak in different tongues. They need to be held together by a wise and benevolent master - a higher intelligence than themselves. This is you. You are not the ultimate authority however. There is one higher than you. You are a steward of this body, learning how to govern wisely the many voices that are speaking within you. The health and vitality of this land (your body) depends on how well you listen to those workers that compose it. Mankind is learning to listen to the landscape within. As he does, he nurtures and nourishes the land of his body. He has not done a good job of paying attention in the past. He has pushed his body beyond endurance and worn himself out, exhausted, lame, debilitated, without understanding that he was supposed to CARE for his body. It is no one else’s responsibility but his own to make peace within his inner world which is accessed by feeling, listening and responding to the subtle and invisible movements within.
“Listen to your own body feelings and perceptions first, before listening to an outsider. Even professional health experts do not know your body or what it needs. Listen to the voices of your people - your cells, tissues, organs of your inner world. They hurt and seek your forgiveness, not your “fixing” with prescription drugs. They do not need fixing, they need you to care and love away their pain - YOUR pain. Your love moves the stuckness within you. In feeling their pain you become the solution to removing that pain. Relief comes in the form of gratitude and “I love you“ thoughts. Yes, it is through mental communication that you talk to and listen to your cells. There is happiness when you care for your body, and joy at being allowed to breathe free again. This is true liberation, to breathe through the stuck energies that block the perfection within you.
(I thought of the hurricane and the lost elementals uprooted through the fierceness of the winds.)
“Yes, you could say that it was the elementals as a whole who were ravished by the hurricane and said, “Thank God I’ll be going home soon.” And your statement of “NO! I will not leave!” was your determination to stay the course and help in this transition. It was your way of putting loving arms around them and assuring them you would welcome them back to a place where they belong. To a sense of being whole again. Home is wholeness. Home is a heart at peace.
(Thank you DK. for your words of wisdom. I sense this is the end of our session?)
“Yes, you are to be congratulated. You are waking yourself up in the night to learn more but you are growing tired now. We will continue tomorrow in the night or day. If you call me we can continue with the learning.” End.
11/13/22 - Your body is an end product of your skills
Your body is a manifested creation by you, an end product of your efforts. It is your proof of success in becoming a master controller. Your body is always changing, or fluctuating, as you test new theories on yourself. Your body is the creation or expression of your higher, greater self, your soul self. Every time you reincarnate in a new body as a baby, you can work with it a little better than the last time you incarnated. You are evolving your body a little more each time, as you participate in the life of the human race as an individual. We are all in it together. We who are here in body are evolving the human race to a finer degree as we experiment with it. In the world of physicality we are the human form, but we are interacting with all the other kingdoms within the planetary life, too. Like our horses, cows, pets and wild life. The human body is evolving to a finer, more efficient, valuable and well-designed form, but it takes a self-aware creative idea person with an intelligence that is ever evolving, to mold that form so it works in a kindly manner. In a gentler, more sophisticated manner, so that it becomes easier to manage and not so crude or forceful. Not so violent, or angry, or temperamental. It takes a higher intelligence to do the work of refining the human vehicle. The vehicle is like a car. It is NOT the soul who resides in it. It is a vehicle to use while here in body. On a daily basis we not only use our bodies to do things, we are also training it as we live in it. Training it to do a better job than yesterday.
We have an ideal picture of what we want our bodies to look like as we walk around in it and do things. We hold that ideal in our mind. We know what we want it to do here in the physical world, but it’s not easy to make it happen. It is a slow, cumbersome work to bring the body up to match our ideal of what it should do. At other times there is joyful success, but most of the time we put ourselves down and hold back the grudges we feel about ourselves. But we have been learning how to build and maintain a human body for eons of lifetimes. It is necessary to work with it slowly and patiently, the way a parent does teaching a child.
If we don’t work with our bodies consistently and routinely and with patience and kindness to mold it lovingly so it WANTS to follow our directions, then it resist and rebel. When treating our bodies with kindness and love it is EAGER to comply and follow directions. Most of us don't realize that we are a separate entity residing in the body, and that the body is a separate entity from us. This is part of the waking-up process. We often think that there is something wrong with us if we get depressed, when it is actually the body that is down in the dumps. The body is impacted by floating clouds of energies in the atmosphere or the building where we have temporarily visited. It is important to become aware of this. You can change your feelings by realizing, "Oh, I just walked through a doom-and-gloom cloud. Get out of there and shake it off. Don't get depressed for the wrong reason. Then you'll quit when it's not even you who is depressed. It's just your body. This is the great work we are here for - to realize we are the master controller at the switch of our bodies. Our bodies are less intelligent creatures who are made from the dust of the earth. They require a master, or better yet, a loving parent to guide them and tell them what to do. As you come to realize this you will want to put the effort in and you will become more determined.
There are three spiritual gifts that have been given to us to use while we undertake this work of building and maintaining a sentient body, for we are not the body. We are pure spirit in our consciousness, and a lot of planning and preparation goes into our birth into a physical baby body. The three spiritual gifts that we are prepared with are the first three of the seven (chakras). The first is will power, the second is intelligence and the third is love. If we don’t have these three powers working for us every day we have obstructions at every turn. Guiding our body to do better and better skills requires determination in the form of will power, and intelligence and loving kindness.
These are the teachings of the ascended masters. They have been showing me and others. Without this knowledge and understanding, the average human thinks life is a one-time event, so what’s the use? Most people have not been given access to the truth called the ancient wisdom. The greater picture. There IS a greater picture. It's been referred to as the divine plan. Without getting at least a small glimpse of the greater picture, there is no motivation. No incentive. No interest to continue on. We need a goal. It is easy to give in and give up and slough along as best they can. We NEED motivation. Something that interests us and indeed, getting to know a little of the greater plan is just the thing. Otherwise, people think, “Well, I just want to be me!” ” “I’m achy and full of pain!” Or “I am too old to change” We grumble and complain and let the body slide. It gets to have its own way, which it doesn't know how to manage itself and so it gets worse as time goes on. If we give up and stop trying to better ourselves, the body stagnates and grows old. The energy of life stops moving through it. Aches and pain become disease and the brain stops registering ideas and concepts of betterment. The life force stops flowing. Joy is no longer felt. The brain slowly degenerates and dementia sets in. The commonly accepted sign of old age.
Yet it need not be. Old age need not creep in until death comes knocking. The brain can still function and the body can still enjoy life until the soul, the master control, decides it is time to leave. Then we can leave the physical environment and return to the father’s house for a rest. We earned it. And with the help of mentors, we again remember why we took form in the first place. Why we entered into a solid form and started walking on two legs. We came with hope and dreams of perfecting the body, bringing the ideal plan to fruition, with beauty and grace so that we can live a life within a perfected vehicle of flesh and blood. This is the ultimate plan - to develop the most beautifully designed human body we can. After many years of perfecting our skill at maintaining a physical body without disease, aches or pains so it is healthy, happy and successful in every way, this is the ultimate success story. Life can be exquisite in form. There are many pleasures to enjoy in the physical world of sensuality with intelligence and wisdom skills. But we are the ones who must do the work of shaping and molding the body and becoming self-realized. We are the ones who must do the disciplining of the body with patience, kindness, wisdom and of love. Even adoration, praise and reverence, for the body is the work of the creator. The muscles, heart, glands and organs are all a product of the creator's loving care. For we are the creator. The body becomes more efficient and beautiful as we, the creator, learn to work with it patiently and with the excellence that is required of a master.
A little side story here reveals how well the body responds to determined effort. This was told to me by a friend whose mother had been given 24 hours to live. She was on life-support. The extended family had gathered to say their good-byes, and after everyone left, she and her sister each climbed in bed beside their mother. They agreed to focus on – one on the kidneys, the other on another part of the mother’s body. They spent the night focusing, praying and picturing the organs living and resuming health again. It worked. In the morning, the mother was awake, the life support was removed and the mother lived another ten years.
The body requires love and encouragement. It has intelligence but depends on a master consciousness to keep it running smoothly. We are here to guide our bodies intelligently. It is a learning process on both the master and the body vehicle itself. We are here to persuade the vehicle to do what WE want it to do, not by the whip but by loving patience and encouragement, as we would train a pet. We are here to become masters of the physical realm. How do you get a child to do what you want it to do? The body is like a child. It has not grown up yet. It needs guidance. You are the parent. You have lived many lives. You have had the training. It takes time to learn. You have had the time. We are each in our own stage of evolving skills of mastery. Some of us are ahead of others. Some are behind. It’s a matter of training and how often we have skipped school and didn’t do our homework. We are realizing each in our own way, at our own pace, in our own comfort zone, in our own timing. Each of us is on a solitary journey while living with friends, neighbors and a planet full of other people – all like us. In training with their bodies. We get distracted. We start arguing one against another but we’re all in it together, to discover the inner fire in the body. There is an ancient dimmed down dull fire trapped in the body. It is what allows it to be taught. It does listen with the right approach. We all know that. We've been working with it in this life. It is an INNER fire, not an outer one. It is a dull conscious fire, a dull consciousness trapped in the body. A divine alertness. A divine intelligence. The body could not respond to our directions without this inner intelligence, small and dim that it is, but it is intelligent. Like a little puppy it is intelligent. It is on the evolutionary trail from the monkey man, the neanderthal, and it too has the capacity to feel joy and excitement. When your body is happy, YOU are happy. You feel exalted and joyful.
Each soul has the fire embedded in its vehicle, the body. That means WE have a fire embedded in us. The fire we brought with us at birth, and the ancient buried fire that is implanted in the body itself. We are the self-conscious beings who came here to take up residence in this particular body, in this particular location and culture, to this particular family. We are now grown up and communicating with this body in a more mature way. This is the vehicle we reside in. Some of us are young enough to try to improve it, while others of us are long in years and trying to keep it going through senior years. We wonder why it doesn't work better. We are living in a day and age where ancient mystery schools are revealing the greater picture. The advice to seniors is - don't give up! There are amazing techniques coming online. Are even now streaming on youtube and other sources. The day is saved because there is new information that was not here five, ten, twenty years ago. The world is changing and becoming enlightened. We are being visited by angels, galactics, ascended masters, spiritual beings of such magnitude there are no names for them. The planet is going through an ascension process, and that means WE ARE TOO! Our solid bodies are becoming more refined. We are molding them into better creatures with new skills we are learning. Bend and flow with the new feelings. Accept the present moment as it is. Love yourself. It is a major leap in evolution that is happening. We are part of the evolving scheme of the divine plan.
Planning is required. The forethought of managing each day’s agenda requires that we fit inner work into the 24 hours that we are allotted. Managing does not require physical labor. It requires attention, conscious attention. Planning out a schedule is a work of intelligence. How should we do certain inner routines? They are routines done with conscious application of caring and kindness. Kindness is the part that is easy to forget in the frenzied distractions. Many voices call for our attention. It requires the application of self love, self comfort, self-awareness, self-discernment, self-intimacy, self-organization, self-routines, self-management, self-structure, self-refinement, self-forgiveness, self-purity, self-devotion. Choose any word that appeals to your sense of warmth and loving comfort, and highlight it in your frontal lobe. Fix it there as a mantra. I am using one today “my brain is sharp, clear and focused”. It could be “devotion”. Devotion to one’s own plan of action. Or commitment to something that is especially important to you. It's just a word. It takes a word or a series of words strung together into a mantra or affirmation that you can easily remember. Imprint it on your brain. Make it real. It is your plan of action that motivates you, that you remember on the spot. Memorize it. Let it be at your beck and call. It will bring you back to center. It is success that lights the fire of enthusiasm and excitement when you see it working. It gives you joy to be alive. There is a reason for being here. Find out what that reason is. What strikes the match and lights your fire? The light is always burning just ahead in the frontal cortex, just beyond the ”now”. It’s the carrot on the stick ahead. Keep your eye on it. That light is always burning. It is source light. It is the forever light because YOU made it and YOU lighted it. If you light it every day it doesn’t ever stop shining. We stop it by pulling the curtain over it and giving up.
One last thing: it’s OK to pull the curtain. It’s OK to retreat and give yourself a rest. I rest often during the day. Just light it again when you get up. It is not wrong to stop and rest. There is always time for rest from following the dream, the ideal, the ultimate, because this is a journey that never stops. It is eternal. The Godhead itself never stops evolving. It is always ahead of us to draw us onward. There are rest stops all along the way. Each rest stop is a fulfillment. One can stop and rest forever if one wishes, but he would grow bored eventually and resume the journey again one day. There is a time for expansion and a time for contraction and going to sleep. There is a season for all things. There is a human plan as well as a divine plan. It is an up and down movement – a contraction and expansion. A mountain and a valley. It is like crouching low to gather strength for the leap, and there is a yawning and a lying down to sleep. Former limits are surpassed and then there is a rest period. The spirit is refreshed and the bar is raised by our own work. And there is a play period following. There is a master at work planning the whole thing. Your higher self is the master planner. You can raise or lower the bar as you choose. You as the sentient personality are the worker in the field as the the arms and legs, hands and feet. But in the higher realms you are your own higher self sending instructions down the line. These instructions descending into your body through invisible lines of force, energy, nudges of inspiration and guidance. You are becoming better at recognizing these instructions. You are growing more efficient, learning as you go, testing yourself. And there are moments when you become one with your higher self in a flash of light and you know the truth of it all.
11/9/22 - Will power the first of seven spiritual gifts
The physical human body is the end result of self-conscious efforts to improve it. The purpose of disciplined practices such as meditation and yoga is to develop and strengthen oneself, but it takes will power to even begin. Will power is the first school we attended as pure spirit sparks before coming into embodiment on the earth plane. There are seven schools we must attend as immortals before embodying on Earth. The descent into form is an ancient mastery course. Seven schools are taught by great beings, mentors who have been where we are today. They teach the seven gifts of spirit that are so important for one who is about to leave the father’s blissful nest. We must be imprinted with the consciousness of the father.
The first school is that of the blue light. This is taught by the Ascendeds in mystery schools. The blue light is a certain power to use when confronted with the dualities and diversities of life in form. This gift is one of will power, strength, courage and determination. It is the will of source, the great one, that is imprinted into our consciousness before we descend. We need this gift first before the others, in order to even WANT to step out of our happy blissful life in heaven, and journey out beyond into the darkness to find adventure. There is struggle, excitement, pain and pleasure here, but one must have some direction and knowledge to know how to maneuver here - and choose rightly. The blue ray is the power of protection of Archangel Michael and of the Ascended Master El Morya, who is the current chohan of the blue ray. Chohan means “lord”.
Over the years I have learned much from the Ascendeds. It began after I was launched into the light. I didn't practice meditation before that, only after did I begin receiving meditation-type nudges, pokes, prods and hints. Being launched into the light was an initiation. It was not a near-death experience, it was an out-of-body experience. It happened thru the spontaneous and instantaneous opening of kundalini when I was 38 years old. It happened during a guided meditation under my sister’s instruction. It was spontaneous, but later I learned I had experienced it before in earlier lifetimes. And so it was innate in my consciousness. In other words, I was ready on the spiritual level, but had not had any preparation during my current life. My brain did not have any information, nor did my body. But I must have been prepared because I heard that unless you are prepared, it is dangerous to activate the kundalini. It causes insanity.
Activating kundalini – the mother flame at the base of the spine - is an individual event. Each person responds differently. For me, I experienced going up and out of my head into the light. It initiated a new consciousness in my mind, body and feelings and it took me ten years to become normal after that. But I only became normal with the help of hugging other bodies in the lifestyle of swinging. I’ve been in training ever since that initial event. So learning meditation was not in the cards at first. I WAS the meditation. Mental discipline was impossible. The more important training - picking up where I left off in prior lives apparently - was interacting in close proximity and intimately, with other warm-bodied human beings. I had an overwhelming power of love and couldn't handle it all alone. Apparently I needed to give it away by hugging other people. It wasn't sex, it was a love beyond measure. I was an activating force of love and didn’t know it. When I hugged on00 them intimately, I activated them. They told me. And they were able to return the favor back to me. This was the more important training that took place in those early years of my husband's and my lifestyle organization. We gave seminars, hosted gatherings of various kinds and, by the end of it all when my husband died 17 years later, I was sufficiently grounded back into the world of normal people again.
But enough about me. This message is about will power and how important it is to cultivate. After 46 years of working with love and light, I have "graduated" to mental discipline. With tongue in cheek I write this for I thought I would NEVER! But I am being guided. The first spiritual power required in order to descend into lower vibrations and take on a sentient earth body is will power. Apparently I entered into this life backward - ascending first and then descending to learn the lessons. Over time the mentors, bless their souls, channeled instructions to me. Over the first 10, 15 years they instilled in me the need to take control over my mind, and I didn't do so well with that! I was so full of love and light that I couldn't go against the grain of others I lived with, so I became a pussy cat. I felt so much empathy and caring and desire to hold them and care for them, I couldn't develop my will power. This has proven to be a failure on my part. But recently I have succeeded in passing the required mark. I developed will power to stick to my routines of meditation. In the beginning there were revelatory dreams at night and channeled messages during the day. As I learned to take time out and sit in silence, simply to sit still and enjoy the peace enfold me, I began receiving messages. Meditation, I guess they call it.
This was preliminary to undertaking routine disciplines. This should help people who find meditation difficult. I promise that it is worth it, once you develop will power. It took 30 years before I could actually control my mind to follow a set list of exercises and stick to it. Years of trying and failing, then trying again and failing again, until finally I understood I was weaving the right brain and left brain together. The passive and active together. Heaven and earth needed to join together and become oneness. My sense of Home was sitting in silence. Eventually you will find this to be true if you continue to practice. Sitting in silence I felt the universe and the stars and the oneness of being with them, and I allowed myself to drift there. It was not natural for me to focus on a script on paper. It was too superficial. However, with the help of the mentors, I became aware that this was the plan all along - to bring back the beautiful consciousness of peace, of love, of light from heaven, the stars, and plant it on earth by living it in the physical world. Over time I became better at following the script or list on paper. Just in the last few days I’ve accessed the mental fire in me. This is awesome. I can see it. It sparks sharply like electricity but it’s not physical. It’s an outline of the web of nerves that run thru my body, spine and brain. It resembles fire and is a keen and sharp focus that is suddenly there when I want it to be, or when I think about it.
So only gradually have I cultivated my mind to overcome my need to be constantly in comfort and peace. I have developed a pro-active, pro-assertive part of me. I am told this is the masculine side of me. It is becoming more dominant to focus mentally on the script on paper. The list of exercises. It is becoming more natural to use my mind, my intellect. I thought I would never do that so I guess I have advanced sufficiently, according to the mentors' instructions, since I have seen the fire in me. I now am coming to understand what will power means. It is a very powerful blue ray. It is will power, strength, courage and determination that has been the missing link for me. I had to learn to incorporate will power, mental will power, into my daily habits and so I am here to speak of this.
Many women are not prone to use discipline. It requires cutting off the sensuality that is inherent in women – or at least dimming it so that mental discipline can be used equally, along with sensual sentiency, at the rate of 50/50. Women are more spontaneous and follow their hearts. There are some men also who are more feminine than masculine and need to be aware of developing their will power. It is easy to fall back into the comfort zone and say, “I am what I am!” and let it go at that. But there is an evolution going on in the human race, spiritual progress does happen whether we like it or not, because there is a bigger, more powerful plan in action. And each one of us is on our own path to fulfill that divine plan as an individual. It's a plan to fulfill the higher good within us, under the guidance of our own Presence. So follow your heart. Your oversoul will lead you. You ARE your own oversoul.
Will power is the gift of the Mother flame planted at the base of the spine. The Mother flame is the counterpart of the Father who remains in the unformed state. The Mother flame is known as kundalini in the East, and as the holy spirit in the West. Will power is the first chakra in the form of the Mother flame at the base of the spine. It is barely active in the unawakend person, semi-active in the awakened, and more and more so as the person progresses at his own pace. For centuries it has been basically closed off to the average human being, but times are changing.
The second chakra is the gift of enlightened intelligence, wisdom and discernment. It is a portal that opens when the first chakra, the mother flame, expands. As the Mother flame expands, it melts the seal of the second chakra, known as the sex chakra, but it is really about discernment, wisdom and intelligence in how to use this beautiful spiritual gift. As the second chakra melts and opens in the right way, slowly enlightenment seeps into the consciousness and daily action is altered. Choices become apparent so the person is made aware of the subtle gifts being presented to him, instead of blindly following the sexual habits of the forefathers.
The third chakra is the gift of unconditional love and reverence for life, adoration and devotion to the highest and best. The third chakra is the solar plexus. It is a portal that opens when the Mother flame melts thru the second chakra of enlightened intelligence, releasing that gift, and expands further up to the solar plexus along the etheric hollow of the spine. Then the Mother flame melts the door of the third chakra, and a love that has not been felt before seeps slowly into the consciousness of the person. Love beyond understanding pervades the daily life if this door is opened and maintained in the gentle way of reverence.
These first three chakras represent what is called “the holy trinity”. They are gifts of the father and are most important, being the basic and fundamental powers for a human being to learn to use in daily life. We have largely mimicked the instruction in an empty, superficial way. But power doesn't come from mimicking and pretending. It is not theoretical, nor abstract. Power requires applying the gift to daily life. It then transforms the human life. Each gift is to be applied and worked with in daily situations. These are the tests and trials of the person who is bent on improving or evolving his life. The quicker these three powers are put to action and used day and night, the quicker the outer life will show signs of it. Little miracles start to take place.
One of the common tests that pops up for everyone in life, is this. Are you going to let pain stop you from applying what you know you should do? It could be a physical pain that confronts you, when you have made a decision to go ahead with a certain action. Are you going to let pain stop you from proceeding with the plan? Or are you going to let pain stop you? This is a hard one. Pain stops everyone from doing what they planned to do. Very few souls opt to plunge ahead despite the pain to accomplish the pre-planned task. It is a test of the soul. It is the test of choice. Which is more important? The eternal soul or the temporary body vessel which is disposable?
Another example. You belong to a group of beloved like-minded friends, but the consensus of a specific action they are going to take causes you to disagree with them. You have never gone against them before. Are you now going to act upon your innate intelligence even if it goes against your friends? Or are you going to let yourself be talked into going along with their way, even if you don't agree? This is another test of the soul. It is a test of choice. Who is more important? God the father in you? Or your standing with your friends?
The body is a temporary vehicle for the soul to learn through. Tests are created by the soul for the soul to see and isolate the differences between right and wrong. The higher self which lives forever? Or the body personality which lives only one lifetime and is gone. This requires deep understanding. If you let the pain or social discomfort stop you, you are choosing to let the physical body stay in charge over your higher self. The body remains the master control. The soul is the one who creates the test, and the soul is the one who benefits or loses. The soul is the one evolving. The soul is the immortal one who orchestrates the life, but the personality often takes over and takes charge, denying the soul its chance to grow. The body is temporary, though most people do not consider it that way. The body is the more powerful of the two to most people, since it is the most present and here now and solid. The average person is unaware of his true status as an eternal immortal self. The recent rash of near-death experiences is bringing this truth forward like never before in modern history. This body built of dust of the earth dies at the end of its life, and he realizes at the transition point, as my sister did on her death bed, “I’m not who I thought I was!”
The body doesn’t have the ability to live forever. Only you who live in the body is benefiting from the many lessons that you learn throughout this life. You are the immortal one. You are the one who never dies but lives forever. Not as THIS body, but as this consciousness of being "me"! I am what I am. Thus, the reason for the soul to take on one body after another after another after another in a series of incarnations. We are here to grow in understanding, which brings us into mastery over our bodies. That is how we join the ranks of the other ascended masters. For we live with the awareness that we are who we are. I am what I am. And we can create a body when we want one because we have learned how to maintain a perfectly functioning physical body.
The disciplines of meditation, mindfulness, yoga and other routines are practices in developing will power and control over the body. This has been the school of the past, the ancients left us with routines. The future rouotine is one of grace, love, empathy, kindness, understanding and more along these lines of gentleness. It is a forward progress of melding and weaving both thought and feeling together as one. But I am getting ahead of myself here. I will stop for now. As you do the work of molding and shaping your physical body, remember that you are both masculine and feminine. Both will power and love-light. Both mind and heart. Together we weave them into a heavenly physical life.
11/7/22 - Briefly...
Very busy with inner work AND outer work, trying to manage the various foci. Just to let anyone know who is wondering - yes! I'm still here. Will be posting more soon enough. I love hearing from people, so write me if you feel to. Use the contact form. Sending good wishes to all and lots of love and light. Take care of yourselves deeply and with tenderness. Take time out often and breathe into your heart.
11/2/22 - The rewards of meditation practices
My inner meditation practices were boring at first. They were intellectual pursuits. There were years of struggle trying to get it right. I had a goal, I had a list of techniques to practice, but it was constantly changing, adapting, correcting. It was fun for a while and then it grew frustrating. A period of satisfaction - Ojala! It worked and I felt good. Then slowly dissatisfaction crept into the works. I wanted to rearrange the routine. Why? I was seeking perfection.
Meditation is a struggle. It's practice doing something from a different angle. Angle? Angel? Changing my approach is like changing from the head trip I was on to the angelic or divine approach. I continued to work at it. Looking back on the years I've been practicing meditation, it's like weaving threads into my life that are opposite threads. I am trying for perfection but it is never completed. I hold it up and look at it in the mirror at a distance and I feel somewhat satisfied, but it’s not complete yet. There is more work to be done on it. More weaving, more thinking, a slightly different approach, a different angle of perspective. THIS is the real work. Meditation practice is not a “thing”, it is an on-going, ever-changing of the mind to more subtleness, more inwardness, more sacredness, and it is constantly blending and healing. One must not give up.
I must not give up because I am noticing the refinements in myself. There is something pulling me into betterment. I am developing softness and resilience - the ability to recover from difficulties and spring back into shape more quickly after tense situations. The more time I take away from the outer world of the mundane (social and work pressures) the more I find myself applying these new tactics. I discover abilities during meditation practice. The more time I go alone into my room away from people, the more focus I apply to the pre-planned list of exercises, the better I can weave the the "warp and woof" together. The warp and woof is a term that comes from the world of weaving vertical threads with horizontal threads. It is learning how to weave consciousness of the outer world, the horizontal, with the consciousness of the higher spiritual world, the vertical. It is subtle learning. It requires total attention to what you're doing. The results are an inner telepathy from spirit. Words filter down out of the blue into my mind. I get a thought suddenly to check out a book on the shelf, or to go online and research a word, or to realize the significance of the dream last night. There is a cross-weaving going on. It is subtle and if I am distracted by a buzz or a bell or a knock on the door, I lose it.
Meditation time is alone time. It requires pre-planning. It is not something done spontaneously as I once thought. It requires regularity, what the Masters call "rhythm". There are cycles to living a good life. This is work. It is study. It is homework. Everyday homework. Each day when I stop focusing on the outer world of "things" and "people", I touch the forces within me. The subconscious, the unconscious, the present conscious and the super conscious all at the same time. They are blending and bending together, weaving together. Universal laws, galactic laws and human laws all flow together. I am becoming more and more aware, little by little, ever so gradually, that I am not the separated self that I thought I was. I've grown my awareness like a seed in the ground grows and grunts and pushes itself upward to break the surface and drink in the sun's rays. The sun delights in me and approves of my hard labor. The sun shines down on me and beams happily, refreshing me with new life force.
So does each individual who takes the time to apply him or herself. It requires taking the time. During this time you see things that are hidden. Occult. Beyond physical sight. Revelations come unbidden. It's the earned reward. It is especially important to take solitary time in these days of planetary changes, as we move to a new position in the heavens, closer to the central source of it all. Forces beyond our understanding are operating. It is a resting period to go alone without anyone else around to distract you. Aloneness with your higher, inner self is assurance that everything is going well. It is all good. There is a sense of peace and home-coming beyond understanding why or what causes it.
The light from the sun is a distributor of a still greater light. It's influencing our solid world of physicality. We've been taught to see only the physical world, so we are blinded. We have been trying to see thru closed doors in the mind, but there is life in the physical cells of the organs. And there is the Mother flame down below at the base of the spine - the base chakra. It is called kundalini by the Eastern mystics and the holy spirit by Christian mystics. We were trained from infancy to stay in the head and think with the head (and higher by the churches) but the soul is not confined to the head. It lives in the dense cells of the body and in everything around us, our friends, our family, our house, furniture, cars, bushes and animals. Everything is alive with the life from the sun, the life of the soul. Everything has a soul. The earth itself is alive because of the sun and the soul that lives in it. The soul is our higher self. It is the REAL in us, the authentic, the impersonal and the everlasting me and you.
The life force of the Mother flame in the root chakra is planted there as our base of operations as long as we live in a sentient body. She will remain there as our guardian and mother until death - or until we start working with her and recognizing her and start raising her up with respect and honor. She, the Mother flame is a powerful force - more powerful than we can know - and more pure. The mind cannot grasp this power without surrendering to it in appreciation, respect and humbleness. It is an inner force. It is in bending and blend with this inner force that the human personality begins to expand and enlarge its awareness. Understanding seeps in. This process has been misunderstood. We don’t become subservient to the pleasures and lusts of the body. Rather we become subservient to the Mother flame, and the Mother flame responds with a different kind of pleasure. The reward is one of great peace, the peace that passes all understanding. It is the peace of the mystic and it leads to rapture.
Then the body consciousness and the Mother flame become united and begin a relationship that is equal - as equal as a friend accepts a new best friend forever. They become equals and they tell each other EVERYTHING. They don’t hold anything back. It’s a sacred blend. One that cannot be told to someone else because it's private. It's the REAL you communicating with the little you. The little you personality expands then and takes on more and more of the grandeur of the REAL you. The Mother flame is holding space and power for you to discover it.
The physical body (your personality) then expands and opens the doors from inside. It is a willing conscious choice to do this. It has to come from you. You have to do the work. It's like French doors, they push outward under pressure from your hands. We’ve been locking this REAL self out. We've been locking out the Mother flame at the base chakra. We’ve closed the doors on it with sin and shame. There is a conscious practice to meditation, and to each one it is a solitary journey. It is loosely called meditation, but you are the creator of your own program and agenda. It requires daily maintenance and modification which seeps in from your REAL self which is your soul self. How often you take time out from your physical outer life will bring its own rewards. New ideas and concepts will come gradually, automatically. The rearranging of your practice and your time routine, plus the what, how, when and level of commitment, is what makes it work. And the silence. Of just sitting in silence and becoming conscious of the silence and your breathing. Allow for silence every day. Blend silence with the pre-planned routine.
The more you pre-plan it and practice with silence, the better will be your comfort zone, as routine becomes a daily practice. The inner application is one that will inspire you, motivate you and resurrect you with an inflowing vitality. If it’s boring, it’s being done mechanically in your head. It doesn't work that way. Meditation and inner work is something that blends the physical body with the spiritual intellect. It feels good to blend them together. Perhaps you will discover this for yourself. Perhaps you will look forward to meditation time and start planning your day around it.
It is the work of connecting your outer mundane social personality with your REAL personality, the big one you didn't realize you had. You DO have a larger personality, a more REAL one. It has been called the crystal self or the christ self. It is untainted, pure, crystalline consciousness light. It is made of the same substance as the One who made you. This REAL personality connects heaven with earth in a unique way so there is a blend of both heaven and earth involved. You don't have to give up your earthly personality; it is transformed into a more perfect one. It is the goal and purpose of Earth life and the eons of reincarnating in body after body until we can bring forth the beauty and perfection of the REAL self. We need to learn how to maintain the body first, and learn how to manage it better. As a self-conscious soul which separated from the infinite body of the One Whole, our goal is to reconnect and recreate and maintain a happy physical body, fulfilled. Then life is pleasurable, beautiful, creative, abundant with new ideas, projects, art, science and more. We are a race ready to explode into a whole new way of being and living in the midst of an evolving, well-maintained and managed physical environment – a literal garden of Eden.
It will take time but that’s what we’re here for – to contribute to the beautifying of humanity. We musn’t wait any longer for someone else to create it for us. We must begin by cultivating it ourselves, by harmonizing and refining our own home life and relationships with the larger community around us, as we settle and nest into it. We are becoming team players even in the midst of the current turmoil called "transition". It will not last much longer. People are changing and getting it. Blessings especially to YOU who are reading this today!
11/1/22 - The feminine way vs. the masculine way
The masculine way is to focus and press. The feminine way is to receive, allow and be spontaneous. Men shut out extraneous thoughts and influences to get the job done - an objective with a goal, whether he knows it or not. It is programmed into the male. He strives for an end result. The feminine opens to all and everyone in order to connect and pull in what belongs to her. She seeks to enhance herself, she opens to it, knowing it is out there and she will attract it to herself, whatever she needs. She allows it. She doesn’t want to exclude anything because she knows she is part of the allness. She doesn't know she knows but she does. This automatically draws to her what she needs and wants and repels what she doesn’t need or want. The two opposite approaches, masculine and feminine, often causes friction. Sometimes fun and love but more often friction. It’s been a journey of trying to find balance with the others who are not quite like us. I used to think my way of open femininity was the best way, but thru many years involved in the swinging experience of yielding to men, even those who didn't really fit with me, I learned that by being so totally open I took on negative energies. I allowed myself to become subserviant. I gave up discretion and discernment and lost the ability to feel what was right for me and what was wrong. I accepted ALL men and they all left a mark on my energy field so I maxxed out in confusion and frustration. It came to a halt when I found myself beginning to harbor hatred. I stopped then.
The planet Earth has been a male world for centuries. The fathers ruled. It was a patriarchy. This system allowed the evil doers to come from off-planet sources and influence the human men. The men were encouraged, the women discouraged from living naturally and spontaneously. Over time, without the balancing spontaneous freedom and happiness of women, evil insidiously crept into humanity. Without the free-flowing love expression of women, evil will always take over. Through logic. This is a downhill slide into the dark place where we have ended up as a race, as a planet. As we are starting to become aware, the universe functions on balance - equal balance between contraction and expansion. Today the expansion process is underway, and the contraction process is diminishing and losing power. The feminine is on the rise in both genders and it is supported by galactic sources. A new era is dawning. The age of Aquarius is next in the Zodiac, where love rules the stars. Think “grace, graceful”, and bending and blending. Think "unity" and "harmonizing". Think softening and neutralizing.
For the men it is time to pay attention to the feminine approach, maybe not all women express femininity, so not all women are good examples. But take on and try out some of the softer, more loving approaches. And for the women it is time to learn to focus attention on their own leadership abilities, building confidence in their own thoughts. It is helpful to create an agenda, a plan of action, and stick to it. Live within your own planned actions, instead of following someone else's plan. It is time for women to cultivate their assertive leadership skills, take some self-help courses, and practice asserting themselves to gain some confidence. And it is time for the men to step down from having to be the leader and feel solely responsible for everything. Ease up feeling as if there is no hope for them, they have to keep trudging and laboring. Men should learn how to bend and blend with their feminine counterparts and treat them as equals. To listen to feminine ideas and notice how they approach things. Only for the sake of noticing and learning from women, not to give up their approach but to expand and blend their approach with some softer, gentler, big brother skills. It is a mix of both feminine and masculine that creates balance.
Think “grace”, “dignity” to help find the right angle of approach, the exact right degree of being sensitive. Not too much, but just a little more than usual. It is a work in process in these days. It is a meld of both sides. For the overly controlling man, there are certain signs that you are doing it right. A yawn for example. Notice when you yawn or take a sudden deep breath. These are two signs signaling a switch-over to the parasympathetic nervous system which is the rest and relax nervous system. Hard-working women should notice it too. As you consciously relax your hardened or fixed focus, you expand yourself deeper to touch into subconscious or unconscious areas. It's called the parasympathetic nervous system. The entire underlying bodily structure of mental, emotional and other forces relax and adjust, balance and align, meld and blend into more of a wholeness. Tears may be felt gathering as emotions are stirred, a yawn may appear unexpectedly, a deeper-than usual intake of breath, a sigh takes place as the underlying subconscious/unconscious is tapped into. Yay! It’s a good sign.
The women who are too soft, too feminine, too open and too yielding, have an opposite job to do. They need to harden their focus and create an agenda for themselves. It is as hard for a woman to do this, as it is for a man to do the opposite. Living together as a couple of opposites requires work - the work of becoming sensitive to each other. Cultivate inner discernment of noticing body talk and body habits. Care for one another and help each other to find that inner balance that expresses outwardly as love. Inner balance is the sacred work we are all working towads. Nobody can do it for you, and you can’t do it for another. Only sensitive quiet love will do the work which does not announce itself in words. Trying to tell a partner what is wrong and how to do it “better” just creates guilt and adds to their already unbalanced condition of low self esteem. They’ll put up resistance and build a harder shell so they can’t be hurt more than they have been. Instead, help each other with silent acts of kindness, caring and with wisdom. Notice. Be aware.
I notice that my husband yawns sometimes when we are discussing a meaningful topic. He yawns repeatedly when he hits the maximum point, and I know it is time to bring the conversation to an end without telling him why. I am aware of this subconscious response in him. There is no more need to explain or keep talking. I just slow down and come to an end. His yawn communicated to me without words that he had reached his maximum level of expansion. Enough! I too notice it in myself. I learn about me by watching him. His normal and natural nature as a man conditioned all his life as a man, is primal. He shuts me off with sharp words if he’s not in a receptive mood. It is an automatic reaction to interruption of his plane of thought. He doesn’t intend to bark at me and apologizes later, or he just keeps moving on past me to continue with what he was doing, usually in a noticeable huff. I might as well stop talking mid-sentence. He won’t even notice - and doesn’t. He is on automatic response. I have learned to be aware, and over time, kind and sensitive. I learn from him. I have learned a lot about a man’s nature by spending 28 years living with him.
It was my understanding in earlier years that wives are better at noticing and being sensitive than husbands are, but in recent years I have gradually noticed that men are changing as a general rule. There are a growing number of men who are becoming very self aware and wise about how to treat and respond to women. When my husband is not in the mood to pause what he’s doing and listen to me, his body language tells me. But it takes sensitivity on my part to notice and be wise in response. Growing in grace is the preferred method, in place of arguing! Some women may be more like a man by being focused, controlling and argumentative. Then it is up to the men in her life to respond with wisdom and astute kindness, but NOT subservience. I have often seen men become patronizing in the presence of their wives. But this is not preferable for anyone. Women need input from an intelligent, confident and kind husband, but not a servile one! Woman will continue to look to the man, as evolution continues to expand, for the man is her other half, her counterpart. He is equal in power to her power. They balance each other as they bend and blend together, with honest kindness. Or kind honesty. Then both of them benefit. A hard-line focus and resistance comes from lack of confidence and low self-esteem. Not knowing what to do, a barrier is erected to prevent further hurt or questioning. Information is needed. Create conversation wisely and share what you know with each other. Kindly, please.
10/29/22 - Awakening past lives
This morning around 4 am I woke with heavy legs. They have been feeling dense and uncomfortable for a few days now. I got out the acupressure mat, the one with small plastic points all over it, and lay down on it and put my feet up on the shelf above the bed. After 20 minutes with raised legs, I felt to massage my legs following the leg meridians. I sat on the floor and began. Many thoughts started coming. Concerned about the feeling of heaviness. What's wrong with me? How best can I deal with it? What's causing it? The thought came then not to focus on the physical, but rather to expand my focus larger to include the etheric body - the forces that accumulate in the etheric body before channeling into the physical. No sooner did I do that then the subtle flows of bliss began, subtle lightness ran up the legs. Ahhh! A good connection. It felt good but not nearly good enough because this was a very heavy, dense feeling in my legs. A feeling of deadness.
I remembered the blog I posted yesterday, which was from my Presence, the Mother I AM in me, my higher self. She had told me, “I AM the heavy in you.” At the time, that statement was confusing. It didn’t make sense, for I was always focusing on Light work. But what followed next cleared up the confusion.
“I AM the heavy in you,” she said. As I continued stroking my legs, for an hour or more, more information came seeping into my consciousness. It was as if I was calling forth particles of myself that I had left behind over many lifetimes on Earth, through many bodies I lived in which had died unfulfilled. I began seeing sparks of myself twinkling from all over the planet. I saw the round dark ball of Earth and little lights responding to me, popping up out of the heavy darkness. Bits and pieces of my life, MY fire, in the form of golden sparkles. They were scattered all over the planet like gold dust. I had left them behind when I died those countless numbers of deaths. I, the immortal one, had lived in many bodies but had not completed or fulfilled these matter bodies. The whole purpose of building, creating and living through a body made of solid matter. I had not self-realized myself in those prior bodies so I was called to return again and again, and to reclaim them. And each time I came back I accumulated more knowledge, more wisdom, more self-realization, but not completing the process. I died each time incomplete and was either buried, burned or in some other way disposed of, my corpses decaying into Mother Earth's soil to add to the growing heap of other corpses, and each corpose leaving the golden sparks of atoms and electrons - the immortal life - buried along with it.
Bits and pieces of my immaculate eternal life, the fire of immortality, was left still alive, trapped in the decaying tissue. Suddenly the whole picture expanded like - zap! I knew the truth. My life was given to me in the beginning to hold onto and expand upon, to evolve with and into, and to I was held responsible to it. And so far it had not been accomplished. These bits and pieces of my sparkle, my life, were left drifting aimlessly around the planet, Mother Earth. They had become buried deeper and deeper under the sludge of many lives, many souls, for eons, for this was a dark planet, not an enlightened. We did not know. No one told us how to evolve the goodness in us. We died often in despair. Many souls have come and gone on Mother Earth, all of whom had also lived and died and left their decaying tissue behind. How many lives had I lived on this planet?
Two nights ago I had awakened with words talking to me: “interment and disinterment”. At the time I had no idea why I was given them but I wrote them down and researched them on line. I learned that interment was the burying of a corpse, and disinterment was the dredging up of old corpses. Now I understood. It made sense. I had been given the words in preparation for what I was about to be shown. This revelation was a next step in the process of self-discovery. I am now gathering long lost bits and pieces of my immortal life that belong to me, that I have lost over the ages and eons of time, and they are heavy with age. They carry the weight of the world around them, but they are still pure. They are living light that cannot be tainted because they are immortal life. They belong to me. It is my job to reclaim them and LIFT them, RAISE them, with my positivity that I have learned. I have been instructed and prepared for this and so I am in joy to discover this. I am found! I have lived many lives, many, many, many lives, even before I became a human being of modern time. I was alive in the mineral kingdom, in the plant kingdom, in the animal, in the early animal-man. I have been evolving my self-consciousness out of the beginning dust of earth because I am the creator. Now I am reaching the epitome, the peak of the evolving sequence. It is the process of returning home to the immaculate Presence that awaits. The creator manifesting a solid body that is complete to the perfection of itself. It is all a game, it is not serious, it is the fun of manifesting the beauty and idealism that one feels deep within themselves.
The fire, the immortal fire that had been lost in all those previous embodiments, is coming home to me now. It was unfulfilled and unclaimed at the end of each embodiment, at each death, and therefore parts of me kept calling me back to Earth to reclaim them. A sense of something missing or unfinished. It is my responsibility to find it. They had became lost, detached, scattered like dust, and I never knew until now. Now I have gained sufficient understanding to be told the truth. I am here to gather myself back together again. The heaviness is the old light, still living, but weight down because it is separate, left behind, lost and detached in the soil of earth. “I AM the heaviness in you.” And now I am gathering and lightening it as I understand, and gathering it into my heart with love. Love is the underlying agenda. Love life back into yourself. Love your organs, love your muscles. Love the cells of each bone, each tissue of your body. As I learn the truth, as I lift myself and my light higher and higher, discarding the heaviness, like peeling away the skin of an onion, I become the Light fulfilled. More an more of the ancient lost light joins with me, to my organs, muscles and skin as I repeat the words: “I Am Light!”
Ahh! It is coming clearer. So that is why I had the experience during the Torus breath of gathering my bits and pieces of myself as I plunged deep into Earth and held focus there, gathering, calling out to the fragments that had been scattered, calling them to me to come home to me. Mother God said “I Am the heaviness in you!” and she was referring to the parts of myself that are immortal, that I had left behind. I am now reclaiming them to me. I am in the last stages of completing my mission. Reconnecting all the parts of myself that I had left behind over many lifetimes on Earth. She is saying “I AM the heaviness in you!” and indeed I do feel the heaviness in my lower legs and feet – the Mother God immortal in me - was also buried along with the matter of decaying tissue. The fire of many electrons are still alive for they can NEVER die but they were lost. They are immortal but they were detached. They added to the life blood of the planet, left behind from many other embodied souls before me, unrealized bodies of decomposing in the earth’s soil, adding to the ground effluvia. Building, decomposing and creating the solid matter of the planet. Living sparks of fire adding their mark. I too left my gold dust here. Now I see and feel in the trees surrounding our house that I am part of the tree, part of the birds that fly to and fro around us. I am one with all that is. I understand. I see this now. It is a coming home. It is very clear. Very simple. A much larger picture than I could grasp before now. I understand the process. It is everyone’s process. It is not a loud “Oh, WOW!” It is a simple completion, a final act, the last stone imbedded in the temple of oneself, one's knowledge and self-realization. It is a lovely, sweet, gentle acceptance. As gentle and smooth as a baby going to sleep in one's arms. It is not a celebration or a hoopla of joy. It is an Amen.
And when I massaged my friend the other night and saw the beings starting to gather to her, I know now – I didn’t know then who they were – but now I know these are her past personalities, lives, embodiments of different ages and cultures coming home to her. It is a soul gathering. Gathering pieces of her lost soul. Her embodied selves, all ghosts of her own experiences coming home to her to be reclaimed by her. Many lives, many personalities, many memories are part of the journey. They come home when the the creator is ready to acknowledge them. Ghosts of ourselves return to be honored, respected, appreciated and raised up. I saw them only subtly coming to her as I held my hand against the severe pain in her side. The reaction of a vaccine injection. As I held my hand against her skin I passed the light into her body and called to the Light in her. They were attracted to the Light, to their mother, the creator who left them behind. They too wanted closure. They were waiting for just such a moment. They were attracted to her, awaiting her acceptance. I discussed it further with her, only later, after I understood. There is so much to learn, to share, to tell, to acknowledge and so I am writing about it.
We are the immortal ones who have lived many lives before this one, and we are here to reclaim and remember that light, which was covered over by the darkness here. Do not be afraid. Light is ecstasy and rejuvenation. Light is resurrection. Light is clarity and most of all Light is Love when it starts to awaken and move about. It is felt as Love. There is nothing like it anywhere in the universe. Love is all there is. Each piece of immortal fire that was left unclaimed behind, is a piece of love that belongs to oneself. As we gather our past together, we gather our love, knowledge, respect for ourselves and understanding of who we REALLY are. This is the great journey that we are on here - remembering and reclaiming our lost light and lost love.
10/27/22 - A galactic message about sex
I found a validating statement about sex this morning in an old Sedona Journal. I've been waiting for over 30 years for spiritual sources to validate what I already know deep in my heart, and from personal experience, and nobody else seems to know. I have never seen it in print before. The consciousness of the channels have apparently been unable to handle sexual information, but finally this message came through someone. It is a quote and the source is not mentioned. It's what I have felt for many years. This is the push, the incentive, the knowledge, behind the beautiful love that humans are capable of experiencing.
(Anonymous) “Most humans are afraid of their own sexual energies. The history on your planet of keeping sex hidden has caused many problems. Now is a time to channel it and use it in the beautiful way it was meant to be used. [i.e., with freedom and love] You are seeing a different change in your own physical sex drives. There are some who for a variety of reasons have turned the switch off. You may find it coming back all by itself. It is a natural reaction for humans to think of sexuality as being a base energy of the animalistic nature. We tell you that is not the case. Sexual energy is light coming in from Home being shared through your body. As you make these evolutions, your own sexual connections will come to life. It is simply more of spirit being infused into your bodies. This is the basis of sexual energy. Watch for these things. Play with them. Find a way that you can use these intentionally instead of being overwhelmed by them. Know that every step you take is a new path and you are being watched throughout the universe. Even many of the races that came here originally to help you form these physical bodies, are watching in the most incredible amazement. You are doing it. Nice work.”
10/26/22 - Channeled: Your feminine is your anchor
A dream woke me. In the dream I am trying to find something heavy to hold on to, like an anchor to hold me down. I hear a voice saying, "I am the heavy in you. I am the mother in you. Everything heavy in you is me. I am all the heaviness in you. Find ME!" I wrote it down - my dreams are often messages - and went back to sleep. Again I woke up with words to write down: "Put everything good and heavy in one place. Anchor it. It will hold you down. It is solid. It is real. It is good. It is the condenser. Feminine is the condensing agent."
Later, during exercise time I was feeling SOOOO heavy and thick that I decided to sit down and ask in writing for advice. I sat at the table and took paper and pen. I asked, “Can you instruct me about this need I have for some hands-on work? I don‘t want men, I want to have women either to cuddle or hold close or massage. It is a pressure, a need, a desire? I am ashamed to say I have a desire. I thought I was over all personal desires. Will you please instruct me? Should I start a women‘s massage and hot tub party? The need is so great? The following words began to flow across the paper:
"My darling one! I am within you now, within the cells of your vehicle. There are many dimensions coming together within your physical vessel. There is yet time. However, your sense of urgency is noticed. Thank you for speaking with me about your heart’s longing, your feelings. Let us not call it desire or frustration as you were - on the tip of your tongue - about to say. No. The sensations that you are feeling is the power of love. You need to express your love to others, yes, and to receive the love from others, yes. The coming together of the dimensions are causing mini-explosions of love from Creator within your body, they are from Father-Mother God/Goddess/All That IS. These are coming into your body vessels through your seven bodies. Yes, SEVEN bodies. You have opened yourself to the seven levels and the seven tones. The frequencies are unfolding and spreading through your physical, etheric, emotional and mental bodies. Affinity and love, as you yourself picked up on this morning, and registered from reading the book, “Beyond the Light Barrier”. When Akon met with the woman from South Africa it was a twin-flame meeting. You felt that. Your body is registering the affinity of love which is everywhere present. Most bodies are not prepared to receive as yours is. You WILL be bringing more affinity and love to others as you dare to ask for these gatherings. You have asked for Friday as a party of freedom for women. Now you are asking for Saturday as a massage gathering for women. It is the Saturday party for massage that you are now radiating upon with affinity and love for the PHYSICAL connection. You are focusing on this and registering this on your conscious brain cells. The feeling you are asking about is the entertaining of frequencies within your central hub that is the gathering place of all the frequencies from your mind and emotions and etheric and your precious light - that which you have correctly identified as the Christ. You have done well, my beloved. You have been doing the clearing which allows your body to remain sensitive and networked with the physical world.
"Therefore you must interact in some manner with the physical world around you, that comforts your physical body. Your physical body is the connecting point with the world. Without your body being comforted, you will leave. You know that. You are working along those thoughts. You are aware. (Q about the power that is blossoming inside the physical.) Yes, the physical body holds a power - THE power that has not been manifested on earth for a very long time. It is the feminine power from source. It has been held back which is why there is so much resistance over allowing love to be free. The dark side is the male side for a purpose: to prevent love and light from interfering with construction of the physical world, for the physical world requires boundaries and limits. It would not have been constructed to this advanced point if everyone had been free to love and grow ecstasy, rapture and bliss. It was not “time” for that. There had to be a “time” for the construction with limits and boundaries, when love and bliss - the energy of oneness - to be held back so that solid construction of a physical world could take place. The women, as you have noticed and learned through your lifestyle activities, are open to love and affinity with “All That Is” - the sea of harmony. They have been held back until now. The seeds of change have been planted that carry the codes, the frequencies of love, harmony, peace, freedom, truth, purity, innocence - these frequencies have been planted in the new-borns.
"They are growing up with these frequencies as their Home, their default system. They do not know resistance other than what is imposed upon them from their parents, friends, school system, etc. Then it is THEIR testing time. Be careful how you verbalize this. Be a comforting agent. Your knowledge is wisdom in you, but this knowledge is not in your brain cells or outer flesh. This knowledge comes THROUGH you as a continual flowing from your higher self. From ME! I am your life and your knowing and flowing. I live in your body. You as a physical vessel do not know these things. You are preparing your vessel for ME! I am what I Am and you are an outward representative of me. Continue to plan for ME! I am feeding you with instruction via the feelings within your body-mind. Your body has a mind of its own and could displace me if you let it. It is a shadow of ME!! I am your life and your love, and your yearning to know and to experience through communication and touch with others. Your spontaneity was gifted to you many years ago. You were a body of the matrix, and your sister, Muniji, Bob and you, all came together - especially YOU - to initiate this experience. YOU have always been at the crux of your matrix body and YOU called for this opening, this ascension. Yes, it was indeed an ascension. YOUR ascension, and you decided to return to the lower dimension, the matrix, to gift the matrix world with your knowledge. You have been doing that. You have done wonders with your lifestyle and now you will continue to work wonders by leaving the lifestyle to work with the women’s empowerment." (The words faded and I knew it was done. Received/channeled 10/9/19)
10/25/22 - A technique for balancing left & right brain
The last ten days have been dizzying and life-altering as a result of Hurricane Ian, but today it has cleared. I am clear-headed today and amazed. Going back over recent days and changes I've been doing, I want to share this discovery. Just before closing my laptop for the night, I chose a random page out of thousands of journaled inspirational writings and channelings. A spontaneous selection process is often exactly what one needs, and so it is tonight. Out of the dizzying array of changes over the past weeks, I began formulating a routine of activities to balance my left and right brain. Or you could say, of alternating my passive activities with my active activities. A spontaneous inspirational message echoed my new routine. It was a message I received from DK back in 2009, thirteen years ago. He said to me:
"Enter the center where Yin resides. Yang is the outer whirling arms. Meditation and Tantra is the practice of stilling the outer senses and focusing on the inner imagination. Some people say time is moving past so fast they can’t keep up, but time is not moving at all. Only the hands of the clock move, and the arms and legs. Time does not move. There is no movement at the center. Enter the center where there is no movement. There is no sense of movement in the center. The center is where love blossoms. Where connections are felt. Where individuals merge yet retain their individuality. Where individuality expands to greater clarity. The center is where you know yourself and I know myself. The center is where we can enjoy intimacy together. The center is an elevator to higher grander vaster ground, to a higher form of love that is not possessive. The center is where you can have many lovers, many friends, many family members, in harmony, without conflict, without jealousy. The center is where you access your own deepest resources. The center is where physical sex becomes a spiritual and emotional connection. The center is where wisdom flows like water, where visions twinkle and sparkle, where love becomes freedom, and freedom becomes love, where yang becomes yin and yin becomes yang, the outer and the inner merge and become One with All That Is. The result is bliss, ecstasy, rapture and more. In order to grow in wisdom and love, you must learn how to integrate and balance the ego - which is your sense of being separate from others - with your higher self which is one with all others. Higher self keeps you sane, whole, balanced, clear and real."
What I concluded at the end of the day today was that when I take time out to rest periodically and rest with conscious breathing exercises, I enter the center of myself where yin resides. It proved to me that my regimen was producing the desired result. But the key was that I did it proactively. I consciously created my own routine and followed it as one might follow a script. It was a pre-plan. Conscious choice and conscious determination in following one's own plan is the key to success. To create betterment it requires a pre-plan. An agenda. This has been difficult for me to do. It has taken years for me to learn how to do this. But it has succeeded. I enter the center where yin resides, and yin is peace, quiet, resuscitating, loving and nurturing.
And when I decide to end my resting period - my choice - with pro-choice determination and begin moving about again, doing constructive projects, I start my physical body moving, which includes circulating the blood, pumping the heart, activating the muscles and brain function. By moving physically I enter the solid world of my environment which is my responsibility. It needs my continual care. I am responsible for it, but it wears me out if I don't rest periodically and regenerate. As Seven of Nine on the Star Trek series says, "I must regenerate" when I am tired. Or perhaps bored, or simply get an inner sense that it's time to rest. When I CONSCIOUSLY choose to stop my physical activities and rest, release all outer focus and once more enter the center where yin resides, and there I feel an inner peace start to seep all through me. It blossoms within me, within the cells of my body. And there is a sense of somethin like love or bliss that moves simultaneously all through me. I sulspect this is because I have been meditating for so many years but it should work for anyone, even a beginner to try this. I highly recommend it.
And when I get up again to resume outer physical action, I am more clear-headed and balanced between my inner and outer forces. Balance is restored between yin and yang, the positive and negative in me. Or you could say between the left brain and right brain. Male-female. Right-wrong. Spirit-Matter. Whatever opposites were in agitation, creating imbalance, are righted again and put back into alignment in the physical, mental and emotional body. Regaining balance between yin and yang, positive and negative, or left brain and right brain. I notice too that my vision clears and my optimism returns. And feeling of youthful vitality that wasn't there before. The aging factor diminishes and youth reappears. I post this hoping a few readers will try it. How often to rest in a day of activity will have to be be independently lexplored.
10/21/22 - 1:00 pm - Artificial light vs the light of Self
(Journaled 40 years ago) Into my movements today out back, in the far left corner by the fence, I am suddenly aware of the light in the pelvic bowl and simultaneously of my whole body. I see the outer me like a dead shell enclosing a source of light in the pelvic region. The deadness is striking! The body is aging and dying. The brain, the eyes, the organs, arms, legs, the whole thing is only a casing. It was created merely to house the Force - the Presence. But, where is the force?
It is bubbling up from below, like a tiny light that is growing and spreading upwards. The body is dead, it cannot operate at all by itself. It is being generated from this light. I see the reason why people are confused! I can see it! There are thousands of tiny streams - pinstripes - entering the body from outside. There is a stream of input from outside the body, from other sources. Sources other than the self.
Tiny, hair-like lines are entering the body through the skin, wending their way into the interior of the body, deeper and deeper, criss-crossing each other in tiny delicate patterns, weaving a complex web of artificial beliefs. Laying a garment over the Self, but a garment made of other people’s lives and beliefs. The real self who lives inside, the force, the presence, is being drowned out. What is this web that is woven into the very fabric of our bodies? Being absorbed into our blood streams and nerve centers? It is not light like the Light in the pelvic bowl, it is simply energy. Steadily, with relentless consistency and perseverance, outside influences pour into the body via these roadways, no thicker than a spider’s webbing.
Constantly, with hardly a break in the flow, those contrary ideas enter the Self and penetrate deeper and deeper til finally the light itself begins to look dull. The will of the individual allows it. The self, the holy presence of self located at the center of the body in the pelvic region, the home of instinct, the heart of individuality, is killed. I can see it: it looks like a battle: the inflowing streams of other people’s thoughts and ideas converging on the streamlets of light. The darker streams coming down from the head, the light streams coming up from the pelvic bowl., meeting, converging. Which is stronger? In my case, the light is stronger. I am generating it every day, as I do my movements. And I do not answer the telephones, even for friends, except for an occasional purpose. I do not read the newspapers. I do not watch the news. I do not discuss world affairs with Bob. I do not involve myself with mundane activities of other people. I seldom leave the house except for a social affair. I am fairly well insulated from the confusions going on around us. But what of other people? How can they hope to overcome this constant pummeling from without?
Inpouring confusion, inpouring turmoil, inpouring dogmas, inpouring family beliefs, inpouring expectations, inpouring cultural patterns, inpouring political, economic, religious, philosophical views, inpouring news, inpouring TV shows, inpouring problems, everything is inpouring! Versus - what? How much light is coming out? So little, I think. It is no wonder the people are confused. It was never meant to be this way. The light in the center of the bowl is the Self - the real person. Individuality which is constantly on the march for expression, and constantly in battle with friends and family who would repress it. The enemy is in one’s own house: family, friends, work associates, and one’s own weak will. Freedom to be is no laughing matter, no obscure thing. It is the greatest pursuit of life: freedom. It means exactly that, I feel free even as I am insulated from the world. I am free to be me.
All of this mixed bag of potpourri has nothing - NOTHING - to do with the self. It is like a dirty rag thrown over a radiant, crystal pure light. I see it! Indeed, it lays a dirty shadow over that radiance. Hiding the light under a bushel, the Presence of Selfhood within. I see it and I know how it works. Solution is to have a strong sense of self and a strong will to accomplish one’s personal desires. Don’t swerve from your personal course. Your personal course is your destiny, is freedom, is required. Stop talking and do something you want to do. Anything! I tell Bob - don’t talk any more about Bobby. Do something! So many people believe in the democratic way. That is fine for people who do not have any power. But for someone who wants to become free - it is not the way. Free to be is free to act - finally act.
That’s the light. Self is personal intuition, personal choice. It doesn’t pass through the brain. It radiates directly upward from the pelvic source. It passes through the nerves - at least in me it does - and my body perceives it before my brain. I feel it. It radiates directly form the pelvic source through the nervous system to the whole body. The whole body picks it up at the same time that the brain does - not before. The brain is not the initiator. It is the observer. The brain cannot initiate an intuitive feeling, nor a psychic experience, nor a revelation. It is felt all over and the brain observes. I sometimes see the brain observing. I stopped just now to look inward again. I let go, or give up, or step back, whichever the wording is, I release control of the body and then I feel the gentle movement of the force swaying through me, and the presence is there - like a unifying thing - pulling it all together. It is quite beautiful. I am trying to be objective. How I wish I could be more objective. And yet, perhaps I would lose the wonderful sensations I feel.
The chief number one argument is: “But it takes the brain to pick up the fact of movement. Without the brain, you would never perceive that you are moving.” And I disagree. The out-of-body experiences confirm that the Observer, the Intelligent Resident, the Self, continues to think, perceive, make decisions and choices, even when the brain is sleeping or even dead. Especially this is confirmed by those who clinically died and then DECIDED to return, to reactivate the body. Finally, the day has arrived where we have some proof. Perhaps not proof as science would demand, but proof for beginning researchers to use as guide-finders. There is a larger Self which resides in the body. I AM that Self. (From a journal 10/24/82, on a Sunday after a VERY good party the night before, mellow, sweet and happy. Everything flowed beautifully.)
10/19/22 - 3:00 pm - The coat of many colors
The seven rays of light which are embedded in the body as the seven main chakras, has been called "the coat of many colors" in ancient scripture. The deeper one goes into this subject, the more one moves past the chart seen on the internet and begins to blend with the subtleties and meanings of them. A brief description of these seven colors is a good place to start. As one visualizes colors, one becomes aware of feelings, tones and sensations. Inner contemplation is required. The more time one spends visualizing, with perhaps breathwork to support the effort, the more one is drawn consciously into one's own coat of many colors. We wear a coat of many colors, but we are the supreme being who puts on the coat and takes it off. These are the gifts and attributes we are given when we come here to an earth life. They are all too often forgotten in the day-to-day activities. Understanding begins when we take time out to sit in silence and visualize. Then the inner opens and seeps out to merge with the physical body and brain, the solid body of worldly knowledge.
Begin by visualizing yourself surrounded by a sphere of perfect white light. Very wide. Perhaps 10, 20 or 30 feet out. It can be even further. You decide. Your physical body is embedded as a small figure in the center of this sphere of light, and there is space all around you. This space is filled with layers of protective light - your light. These layers are the seven aspects of the divine light given to you at birth. Each layer is more dense the closer it comes to your physical body. Just as a diamond in the sun can be seen flashing different colors through its various cut surfaces, so does a human being flash forth different aspects of the pure white light into colors - either dirty or clean - as we live and evolve in the material world of the solid state. The seven chakras are portals into higher dimensions, higher understandings, higher consciousnesses. There are seven purities. Seven chakras. Seven colors. Seven tones. Seven gifts of spirit. Seven perspectives. The seven candlesticks and seven churches of holy scripture. Always there are seven.
In order of applying them to oneself or to a loved one we wish to help.....
The BLUE LIGHT for will power, strength, courage, determination and protection. The GOLD LIGHT for enlightened intelligence, wisdom and discernment. The PINK LIGHT for love, reverence, adoration and devotion. The WHITE LIGHT for purity, perfection and the immaculate conception. The GREEN LIGHT for truth, science, authenticity and healing. The RUBY LIGHT for peace, comfort and ministration. The VIOLET LIGHT for freedom, mercy and forgiveness.
These words in English come down to us from individual masters thru teachings left behind. But there are many related words that can be used. The blue light portal is located at the base of the spine. The gold light portal is at the sacral or sex chakra (in the spine) The pink light portal is at the solar plexus (in the spine). The white light portal is at the heart (in the spine). The green light portal is at the throat (in the spine). The ruby light portal is at the third eye (in the head). The violet light portal is at the crown (of the head, known as the thousand-petalled lotus). More cannot be given here. These are only hints. Understanding must be woven into one's life through one's own attention, practice and consciousness, with one's own will power, with one's own intelligence, love, purity, love and scientific practice, with peacefulness and comfort, and it must be freely given, freely chosen. No one can do it for someone else.
These are the attributes that we are each called to cultivate within our self, to work on for our own sake, for our own benefit, with our own time, in our own way, with our own persistence, patience, willingness, in peacefulness and comfort, and intelligence. It is the greatest work that we can do for our self. This is the inner work that inspires us, impresses us, impassions us with enthusiasm, interest, enlightenment. It is life-giving energy, health-giving and prolonged life-giving. And we are rewarded by things not seen with physical eyes. Only we ourselves know the blessings for we evolve to higher planes of thought and knowledge. We go where no man has gone before because it is our own space that we are exploring.
10/16/22 - 11:00 AM - Brief Update
There is no time to spend at the laptop. Not posted in days. Much upheaval and change going on in the brain/mind. My brain can handle only so much, it is only human. But my mind is vast and covering a lot more than my poor physical body can handle. I will continue to post periodically for things WILL calm down. Have faith! I'm in contact with the galactics on a level beyond words.
This morning I went outside early before the sun came up, it was just rising. My legs felt "dead", I needed to ground or reconnect with the energies of the earth barefoot. Inside the house it's tight and compacted with routines and mechanized habits. The energy not conducive to the new energies of expansion. I tried to use routines and practices I knew over the years, but nothing helped. Well, a little. I asked the Master Hilarian of the green ray for ideas and he gave me some. The earth energy in the cells of my body are suffocating. It needs fresh air. .It needs expansion, revitalizing, it needs to flow, needs to activate. So in the night I did what I could and waited for dawn. As the sun rose over the trees I was there in my chair in the grass waiting for it, and I began breathing in the seven colors, the seven rays of light - blue, gold, pink, white, green, ruby and violet - as I have learned over many years. As I breathed in the sun I breathed in first the blue light - will power, strength, courage, determination, protection, and exhaled the same out. I then breathed in the gold light - enlightened intelligence, wisdom and discernment, and exhaled the same out. Next I breathed in the pink light - love, reverence, adoration, devotion, and exhaled the same out. These are the first three colors that form the most important aspects to help the human being on the upward path. They are referred to as the trinity, or the three-fold flame - Love, wisdom and power. The first three chakras, root, sacral, solar plexus.
Then I breathed in the white light (heart) - purity, perfection, the immaculate conception, and exhaled the same out. Then I breathed in the green light (throat) - truth, science and healing, and I exhaled the same out. Next I breathed in the ruby light flecked with gold (third eye) - peace, comfort and ministration, and I exhaled the same out. Lastly I breathed in the violet light (crown) of freedom, mercy and forgiveness, and exhaled the same out. This I repeated, over and over and over, and I could feel myself as a conduit, a wire, a river of light and life. The powers don't stop with me if I let them go on through me and out into my environment around me. Out to bless the world and the people, animals, plants and everything everywhere. I am a conduit, a part of earth who has become an open conduit, a channel for the light. The spirit of me is in the sky somewhere, connected in and merged with the infinite that is beyond me and which I can't define, but it is the awesome part of who I am. I don't need to know with my brain. I simply am what I am at the moment that I am.
As I sat and radiated the seven colors, I could feel my cells activating all over, a combination of tingling feelings with bliss feelings. It was good. It was peaceful. I could have zoned out and allowed myself to become lost in the feelings, but those days are over. I am on a new timeline, one of work. I have work to do. It was time to go inside. My house guest was looking for the coffee pot. She lost everything in the hurricane Ian so she is here staying with us, working out what she needs to do.
For those who are similarly displaced, continue to hold faith in yourself for you too are connected to the infinity power of who you are beyond sight. You are a descending immortal, condensing yourself into a finite mortal skin. You are a skin walker. Have faith in your higher self, the individual that you are on higher levels. You are a god among many gods. Believe in your own creator, the One God within who holds us all together as The One. Picture yourself as an ideal version of you and hold fast to that version, to that picture, as you walk through your day. Ground yourself barefoot in the earth's soil when you can. You too have a place here as a conduit, as a portal for the light, for Father Sun to come in and connect with Mother Earth, the planet. You are a conduit for the divine rays coming in from the sun, who is one of many suns, to enlighten, empower, impassion, embrace and grow the sentient beings on the planets.
10/10/22 - 11:51 AM - Starships and Contact
(Displaced due to Hurricane Ian while texting to a friend 10/3/22:)
Well, we don't have power but we went home last night and slept in our own bed with candles all night. A starship followed us home, beaming to me so I noticed. I didn't mention it to Doug. We woke up this morning in 5D, cozy, at peace, feeling connected, in the right place. There was more, but I can't explain. There's no power here but some neighbors have it.
Re: the star ship, you have them. There are many around. I used to wonder if a certain star was a ship. For years I would notice one, wonder, and then dismiss it as my imagination. Then about two or three months ago I noticed a bright star while sitting on the john looking out the window which faces west. Early morning, dawn was just beginning. I noticed its placement among the tree branches. I wondered. Could it be? An hour later it hadn't changed location. If it is a star it should be further along in a different location. I felt it was a ship. I kept checking and later it was gone. That's when I knew for sure. I made contact that time. It dawned on me that THIS is the contact - knowing for sure. The test is one of belief turning into knowing. That's what they're looking for. The contact is in the knowing. This is how contact is being made. From mind to mind. For years they have been available. I just kept dismissing it. I've been contacted many times over the years. I remember them now. Many, many times, but I kept thinking it was my imagination. I too was looking for PHYSICAL contact. Looking out a window before going to bed and noticing a star that stood out among other stars. Or driving home at night and a star keeps following ahead of me, continuing to beam at me and me continuing to dismiss it. conscious contact has now been made, there is no doubt.
10/8/22 - Update on Hurricane Ian
Reporting in - we have our power back after 9 days of homelessness. We are grateful to our friend Bob who invited us in and never lost power. Lots and lots of revelations have occurred over the last few days, involving star ships and galactics, but these are not easy to express in words. I will post more tomorrow. We are busy cleaning up after 9 days being away, including the pool. There is a major world shift going on to higher dimensions, and everyone is experiencing this transition differently, depending on how connected they are to their own soul. I will shed some light tomorrow. We hope others fared as well as we did on the physical 3D level. We are grateful and holding the light for those who need it, some very desperately. Please - keep your faith alive. Find some humor in your situations. Laugh. It will help. This too will pass if you hold your ground steady.
9/26/22 - Advice from my higher self, the "I Am Presence"
One day in 2008, the archives reveal, I asked my I Am Presence and master guides, what can you tell me about manifesting my dreams?
A: I can tell you much, my child, but first I ask that you still the vibrations of your body. Bring them under control. Peace. Allow yourself to become peaceful. Yes, that is better. Find me in the depths of the stillness. I am there. As the chaos is brought to a standstill you connect with me, your larger, fuller, more complete self. I am you but you are busy facing outward and away from me - away from yourself - and so you see yourself as small and lost. But when you become still, yes, you are feeling me now - yourself - you ARE the sparkle in the cell, igniting the fuel that moves the mechanism. We are one. I am you and you are me. We are one.
Q: Where does that lead me? I‘m not sure what the question is but I feel to ask it?
A: You are merging your “human” consciousness - that part of you which does not know itself - with your divine consciousness - that part which knows itself and is connected to the creator. Love, bliss, hope, clarity - these are the pleasures Creator God, Creator Goddess desires to express in physical form. He and She are the One who is living its dream. We are cells in the body of this grand omnipotent being, enjoying the adventure of our role, and doing our part in maintaining the whole. As we learn and as we grow and move and enjoy ourselves, so does the Creator move and learn and grow. One cell in the body of God/Goddess, All That Is.
Q: I have several dreams....
A: Stop right there. You are part of the dream. Creator is dreaming and creating as he dreams. It is not your individual set of dreams dreamt by (my name). These are the dreams of Creator and you are receiving them as a cell in the body of Creator. You are being guided, or better yet instructed to manifest this dream. It is linked to the dreams that others are trying to manifest. All dreams in the vicinity of the vibration will grow and manifest into physical form in your world, as each one of you dares to break from human programming to step forward into a leadership position. As you know, a leader is one who steps forward first, and is therefore at the head of the line. He or She is the first one of many, who have a role in creating the dream into a concrete reality to benefit the whole.
Q: Can you give me some concrete (human) advice, coming from the divine intelligence, looking at the wise women gathering that I want to do, in practical terms. Can you speak on this? For me? A: (Pause, considering.) Most of the people who seek concrete answers - (lost the rest of it as I started getting a vision and did not write it down.)
9/25/22 - I saw my higher self!
From the archives 20 years ago.
"During a brief meditation today I saw my higher self. It is the one giving me the visions. It is IT who is speaking to me through inspirations all these years. It is IT who wants these things to be done, not me. Anakosha and all the instructions I’ve been given is coming from my higher self who is trying to communicate to me, trying to live through me, by giving me these thoughts. Those are IT’s thoughts, not mine. I have been struggling to implement them and tainting them by trying too hard. But I didn’t know who was doing the talking. Spirit? Anakosha? Oversoul? Ascended masters? I just didn’t know. A spirit guide? Now I know. I know for sure. I see that it is my own higher self. I have seen my own higher self a few times over the years. I saw her first from profile (she is feminine) with long flowing hair. The face is so beautiful, glowing from within. The details of the face are kind of lost to me but yet there is a physical appearance. I see it in my third eye or spiritual eye. It is just that the beauty of the figure is so awesome, so splendid, it is so ALL. It is a most beautiful presence, and I guess I realized it was me, but not really putting it together. Because whenever I see this figure, I am already in a space or a place where there is no separation, no “this” and “that”, no division between you and me.
"I have seen this image from time to time and the beauty is so nice, so overwhelming. It is THIS presence that is giving me these visions. I now understand. It’s very real and very specific. Last week during meditation there was a brief flash from my presence. It flashed in on me from the right and I saw her face, my face – its a brilliant, beautiful face. It is the face of an angel, of God. I have the feeling that it is trying to find a way to communicate with me and is having a hard time. I am not understanding her communication attempts. I guess at that particular moment my guard was down and there was an opening so it rushed in and presented itself to me. I am not sure how to call it. It is my higher self, or divine self, or God self. In contrast to IT I am just a shell of a vessel. My relationship to it is similar to the relationship between the point on a pencil to the hand that holds the pencil. Today, upon realizing this, I asked my higher self what do YOU want to do today? What is it that YOU would like me to do? This is your body, tell me and I will do it. And then, in the silence that followed, I had a distinct impression to go out by the pool and replace that old green mat that has mold on it with a fresh mat from the barn, and to clean up that little garden and spend some time out there - and plant the flowers I bought last week. Spend time outdoors.
"I felt this was confirmation that my higher self is indeed the one who is trying to talk to me through these visions or inspirations. Jesus called his higher self 'Father'. It occurred to me today that naturally his higher self would appear as a male figure. But I would call my higher self 'Mother' because of her feminine appearance."
9/24/22 - Kundalini, the innocent mind at the base chakra
Time is speeding up and my interests are changing. There is less and less incentive to read and post articles written by other people - and more interest in re-visiting my own journals of the past. They are more stimulating, being spiritually oriented. I am being brought back in touch with my own soul path and my own truth, to remember why I am here. The advice is strong these days to follow your own heart, your own dreams and your own ideals, and don't be sucked onto paths that don't belong to you. Use discernment. Be strongly committed to your OWN path. And so in these days I have been researching my own past life. The following message is meaningful to me and I share it publicly for what it's worth to others. This revelation came in February 1987, during the height of our lifestyle days when we entertained many beautiful couples in our home.
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Today after the Valentine’s party last night, I went out into the sun and balanced myself. It was a warm, sunny day, like spring, and was amazed to find myself tuned right back into my higher Self as if a week had not passed at all, nor that I had become so out of tune. Perhaps I was not out of tune after all. Well, to cut directly to the heart of the matter, for this record is important for me to remember, let us move on.
Today I started out by placing light once more into the chakras, starting with the base. A light was placed in the region of the uterus and then, surprisingly, at four corners outside of the uterus, two on either side in front and two on either side in back, to make a square with a center. After a few seconds of holding this in mind, I moved up to the kidney area, then to the pancreas area, then to the heart/lung area, throat, pituitary and pineal. Then in the peace that followed, for there followed somewhat of a peace, I seemed to be shown that the base chakra (uterus) is the purest of all. Words played through my peaceful mind and I was reminded that this area is the CREATOR. The next one above, the kidneys, is the ELIMINATOR. The one above, the pancreas and stomach, the DIGESTOR. The next one above, the heart/lung seemed to be two-fold and was a bit more complicated: ABSORBER (lungs) and DISTRIBUTOR (heart as pump). The throat was a little confusing, being word power, but not clear at all, and the pituitary (carnal mind) quite confusing so that I did not get to the pineal (crown) at all.
As I dwelt on the meaning of this revelation, I was reminded once again that the purer intelligence is at the base. And then began a series of remembrances. I once gave a lecture to a small group of people in El Bosque during the days when I was sweeping with the fire, that we have not one mind, but TWO! And that the second mind is down below, in the pelvic bowl. How taken up with this belief I was then! I have forgotten. And then I was reminded that my very first contact with the kundalini back in 1976 was clicked into in the lower bowel region. Very distinctly. There is no room for doubt. And then I was reminded of my vision where a large sphere of light was seen in the pelvic bowl and the yin and yang (negative and positive) energies left, first one, then the other, and swirled in opposite directions to the top of the head where I was prevented from going on and shown to look back down a central tube of light to the bottom where the large sphere of light remained still, as at the bottom of a deep well. Upon questioning, “What does this mean?” I was told at that time that I must return and fetch the larger light and carry it to the top, too, else I could not go on. And again, I was reminded that the flower does not have any intelligence in its beautiful head, nor life of its own, but that it requires the root system to supply it with plant blood. Cut the flower and it will soon die.
As this was shown to me, it seems to correct an error in my thinking, and that error is the false belief that I am the controller and director of my life. I am not. I was reminded of the many false influences that have diverted my attention away from this beautiful fact. One of the first was a yoga teacher I met at Elka’s house in Costa Rica. She directed us to focus on a spot at the crown of the head, saying THIS was the intelligence of the body. I suggested that I felt the center of intelligence was in the pelvic region. She said no, that was the power center of the BODY but that the power of the spirit was in the head. I remember being torn as to whether or not to believe her.
The second that I can remember was Albert, in Costa Rica. He was disturbed by my constant movements and suggested, with quite some anger that I couldn’t account for, that I must learn to control such movements. That I must become the final control and determine the when and where of such movements.
The third instance was Feliciano who, when called upon by me to help with the over-heating of my nervous system in the early days, told me again that I must learn to control the whims of the kundalini energy currents. That it was indeed up to me as to how to use them. I was to develop my own will. He spoke of a different thing however, then his wife (a ridiculous character) who exhibited anger that I should even THINK I could do anything at all by myself unless I gave myself to a teacher who would help me to develop.
All of this took place in the days when, after submitting to the movements during which I consciously gave up my will to the higher will for I knew it WAS higher, it left me feeling wonderfully pure and innocent, in contrast to the valleys inbetween, during which I consciously chose to insert my own will out of consideration of Bob, and then became increasingly more tight until I was tight as a high-strung wire which vibrated at the slightest discord and at one time nearly drove me mad.
All of this I recalled today in the sun and then I recalled the more recent struggle over the last four, five years, as I strive to cram this wonderful, unlimited, super-powerful energy into an order of my own making, to confine its exhibition, and to dictate when, where and how it should move - and by the end of the revelation I realized that I have been following a wrong track. I am not meant to control this power. It is the first mind, the first cause, and the creator of my life. I can no more control this than the flower can control its life from the lofty heights. For years I have been trying to superimpose my will over the thing, but I am no more than a flower on the end of a long, long stalk, and during those times when I am confused and the waters are muddied, it is because I have cut off the life from flowing.
But, I argued, how can this be? Can the religions be wrong? Can all of the others be wrong, and I right in this belief that the greater mind is not in the head, but in the root system? In answer I saw the adult with all of his complexities standing next to the child, with all his innocence and realized the truth: That, yes, they are wrong. I am the child. It is the child that we must emulate. How? By not thinking and forming beliefs, but by following the naturalness of action. The child is rooted in a wonderful innocence. He follows a will that does not come from his mind, or from a complex belief system. He follows his heart, the purity of which shines in his eyes. I remember my feelings of purity and innocence after the movements and regret losing them, and often wonder what happened that I no longer find the feeling so easily. This is my answer. I am recording this for my own remembrance, so that I can get back on track with the HIGHER WILL, and follow THAT, instead of my own. Who am I to think that I control my own life? The purpose for having the brain at all (the little mind) is so that we may consciously come to REALIZE this truth: that we are not our own maker and that we must return control back to the creator on a daily basis, hour by hour, minute by minute.
9/23/22 - Understanding yin and yang and the sex drive
I realized the meaning of yin and yang forces while doing meditation in the sun. It was a brief experience, but an immersion nonetheless. The words "yin and yang" have been no more than words until today, when I was TOUCHED and FELT the substances flowing within me. It is somewhat like a force, yes, a very definite force, but which was quick to point out to me (the intelligence of the whole thing) that this force is created by my own consciousness. My mind. The direction of my thought. My own will power is what creates the force.
The subtlety of my thought in the direction of the LESSER, or more COMPACT, seemed to me to be the female force, or the yin. It was as if my tendency to reel in and focus my awareness on detail tended to send my energies towards earth, in a downward direction. It was a subservient tendency, a recoiling action, or digging in process. The female? This was the message - that the female tendency to hold back and rebuild, or “nest”, or go back over to re-examine, to study, to withhold conclusions until ALL detail had been accounted for - that THIS was the famous “yin” of ancient teachings. It is not necessarily confined to women, but is more prominent in women than in men, culturally.
The other force activating in my body is an almost exact opposite, in the sense that it is surging outward to reach for something without thought of consequences. This force seemed to be the need to accomplish, to break free of the confines of the “yin”, and to become free in totality. To cut away all restriction and soar uninhibited by ANY restraints. I was told that this was the “yang”, the male power drive and that it was necessary in order to counteract the negative yin tendencies of my personality.
The yin and the yang pull and push within the average individual as mood swings, and operate uncontrollably, often unbeknownst to the conscious mind. Yet, one becomes slowly conscious of it, undoubtedly as the ancients did, for the terms “yin” and “yang” seem to denote far more than the terms “positive” and “negative”. It was made known to me that it is THIS duality that is to be understood and mastered by the mind as a person develops spiritually, for it is the surging yang that directs the consciousness, which is the life force, UPWARD. If one could neutralize the restraining yin so that it were non-existent, without restraining the yang, the consciousness (life force) would begin to flow more actively upward in search of its freedom. It would begin to enjoy greater happiness and freedom. How this is done was not made known to me, but for a brief glimpse at the end of the revelation. This is the science one ought to study to provide ground work.
I am overly yin. How does the restraining yin manifest in daily life? Yin does not allow me to walk boldly out onto a platform to speak to people. It would remain a follower and hide my light under a bushel. Yin does not allow me to implement an idea, out of fear that I will go out on a limb that will crack under my weight. Yin does not allow me to think that I am the sole authority of my life. Yin would have me believe that I must lean upon “another”. Who is this other unless it be the yang? Yin does not allow me to soar into the clouds, or to break free of the earth for I am of the earth and therefore earth bound. Yin is afraid to go public for it holds itself behind the screen of physical manifestation where it enjoys the privacy, the SACREDNESS, the secrecy of the state of aloneness, or all-oneness. Yin admonishes yang for being so bold, yet yang is the doer and would make real what yin only contemplates in the privacy of thought.
THIS, the message said, is the force that must be understood and overcome, so that the living force of yang can drive upward and outward, as it is its natural tendency to explore and experiment, to struggle and implement ideas without even a thought of failure. To strive ever onward to reach the goal. It is the life force returning to the heights from which it came, yet it cannot so long as yin is active in the organism. As long as yin is isolated from yang it works in opposition to yang, and the individual remains a victim of his mood swings, a victim of “fate” and the lesser gods.
The yin and the yang are the negative and positive poles of all human life and interaction. It is the explanation for the sexual drive. For when there is too much yang active, too much striving and struggling taking place in a person, whether that person be a man or a woman, that person, lacking in yin, looks to another person with more prominent yin characteristics, to balance him out, though the average person is unaware of the reasons why such attractions develop. In sex, the yang surges out to find relief and balance, while yin withholds and waits.
Likewise does the person with too much yin and not enough yang active in the life, seek a more yang-dominant sex partner, whether man or woman, to balance the inner propensity. Great and passionate is the sexual nature of one who has not balanced the yin and yang. Yet, as one matures and, through life experience balances, the two subtle counteracting forces (though he know it not) the sexual nature becomes more refined, with a tendency for gentleness and sharing. Sexual habits need not be given up when passion begins to subside through this balancing of forces (though this is often the case). Rather may begin the blossoming into new and higher fields of sharing and romantic lovemaking, as the old sex drive all but disappears. In this time of outgrowing of old sex appetites, there is often a “giving up” of physical love and a drifting into celibacy. Yet, unless there be an active interchange through physical joining, old age does creep fast upon a person. (End of transmission)
9/19/22 - The id and unconscious forces
A dream wakes me up this morning. In the dream I and another woman are doing a walk-through of a large office space of a third woman. The one who owns the space is looking to sub-let some rooms so we can all work together. We are all healers. Two men introduced us. The men are significant. We look around, feel it out and discuss it. Things seem to be compatible. The woman wants us to be in her space and, just as we are leaving, she bites me on the ear! An intimate bite and it makes me giggle and squirm. Emotional feelings spring to life all through me and I wake up still feeling the rush and tingle. I lay there wondering about it. Then get up to go to the bathroom.
In the bathroom I see out the only window which faces west a bright - what looks like a bright star - but it's a ship. A star to one who doesn't know, but I know it's a ship and I watch it. It dims and goes out. Or is it the branches that cover it over? I get up and study it. No, it moves its location. It is a star ship. I see it every once in a while. I used to dismiss it as a star but now I know better. I'm clued in. It's a sign, one of the signs in the sky we have been told to watch for.
I go back to bed and to sleep. I wake up an hour later from another dream. Three women including me are discussing the idea of creating a research project. How do we feel talking about exploring another woman’s body? What do we feel about being intimate with another women? There are three women here, as in the first dream. The other two women are younger than me, young beautiful women. Three of us are talking about starting something, a gathering of women to talk about deep innermost thoughts and feelings - the subconscious. Getting down into subconscious feelings in order to release them, or expose them, and bring them to the surface. At first the mere thought of…. Ugh! It’s uncomfortable. Or is it exciting? It is too subconscious to tell which.
I am the one offering to be the control for the experiment. I am the oldest. This is an experiment, to see if we can do it. We want to find out if we can release deep underground feelings and bring them up to the surface. There are men here too, as if they are watching and waiting to see what we do. One of the women is around 30, she is familiar. I see her clearly. She has short blond hair, pretty, slender, familiar. There is a man stepping forward to ask questions. What feelings does this dredge up? he asks. I remember the feeling. The more thought of doing this. It is uncomfortable, shaded in different colors of emotions, but it’s too hard to put in words. They are below my conscious mind. They are icky feelings, not good. Or maybe good, I can’t tell. Then I am hearing words in my mind as if from an instructor:
Women stimulate each other by talking about these feelings that they have experienced but repressed. What are some things you’ve noticed in yourself under various situations? During your swinging days during threesomes with women, what do you feel about that? Go deeper than the common “trite” expression. What more can you feel and how can you lighten it? Why did you repress it? How can you lift it up into the light where you can see it and share it? Can you tell it out loud to your sisters? Can you laugh about it? The purpose is not to repeat it, whatever you’re talking about, but to recall the sensation, the attitude, the feeling, the shadowy aspect that made you reject it. Can you identify with it? Can you name it? Define it? Identify it. Recall it. Associate it with a cause, trace it to a beginning? What causes the rush of feeling? Own it. Wrap it into your arms. Engage with it. Blend with it. There is a part of you that you lost when you rejected this feeling. Maybe you simply felt it was not important to tell anyone. When you judged it and dismissed it you threw out something of value. There is a light in it. You threw out something of value by not acknowledging it. There is something here that needs to be expressed openly. It is part of who you are. It belongs to you. It is your light, your life. It is an essential part of your immaculate light body. You are not complete without it.
Men too should talk with each other to stimulate the subconscious side of themselves, to reclaim it and own it. This is empowering, and it starts with the women for they are closest to it. When women stimulate and upearth their id, their unconscious, it has a profound effect on the men in their lives on sublevels, on the etheric level, which is below the surface mind, beyond brain recognition. It is part of the soul. The unconscious contains all the urges and impulses that belong to the soul. It is known as the etheric body, the body of forces, where unexpressed thoughts and feelings gather and collect, and back up to become a pressure that, if ignored, causes tension and a demand for release. It presses outward into expression in various ways, depending on the personality.
(I continue to hear the words and am now writing them down)
The growing disclosures of recent days are being shared through the atmosphere. Nature’s etheric body. The atmosphere which all minds feed into and breathe out of. Recognition travels undetected, below the conscious mind, via the etheric nervous system called intuition. We share thoughts and reactions without realizing, underground, the way trees communicate through their roots. So do humans breathe in and out the innate knowledge of the masses who participate in the atmosphere of the planet. We are intuitively connected on subconscious and unconscious levels. Knowledge that is not put into words until an awakened person recognizes it and starts talking about it. Emotional reactions in the form of thought and reactionary feelings go out into the atmosphere on sublevels, feeding all who breathe the air. Finely tuned nervous systems receive and trigger hormonal releases. The subconsciousness trembles at shocking revelations but the conscious mind doesn't even notice. The etheric body is building up pressure to release its gathering force. Its knowledge, its memories, its shadowy substances. When a cord is struck, a word spoken or a touch passed, the rush of excitement is felt and acknowledged. It is a breakthrough. A release. The human race is preparing to receive, and when we do we will begin the healing of the underworld. We will begin the transformation of our world. We will give it a name to define it and DO something about it to heal it or own it or change it, transform it.
"Heal yourselves. Be your own guides. Be your own family. The family of light on the ground, on the earth. Become more enlightened, more happy, more released, more free, more clear, more YOU."
9/18/22 - Freedom is dancing in the light
Freedom is dancing in the light in my body., my physical body. I am waking up and freeing the light in the cells of my body. This is a conscious awareness. I've been meditating for so many years that I've finally become part of the light within me. I was aware this morning and began naming each organ and seeing the light in the cells - liver cells, spleen cells, lung cells, heart cells, all other cells. I honored and respected and named each one. I have had many bodies that I have inhabited, including pre-human bodies too. I was a turtle, and I reconnected with my wolf life, lost and howling for home. Bodies come and go. All of them had my light in them. It is MY light that gives life to the body I inhabit. I have a unique signature energy to MY light. Everyone's signature light is uniquely their own. Now the light in the bodies all around earth is being "quickened". I like that term. Quickened is an old word from scripture. I must have run across it a long time ago because I'm not a scripture reader.
The life of the cells of our bodies is quickening now. They are being sped up under forces that are intentionally focused light from higher places. But we are not going to be overwhelmed. We are being gently rocked, buzzed, titillated and nudged out of the darkness that covers each cell, each organ, muscle and gland. We have a light inside our body cells that give it life. Our physical bodies have cells that have a nucleus of sparkling, twinkling, dazzling spirit. It is the only way such dead meat could be kept alive. There is a spiritual spark of life inside it which obeys the immaculate instruction from the Father light, and it is THAT which is increasing around the planet right now. The creator light.
Love is the name of the Father light moving around inside us, inside the thick density of matter. Eons of coming and going in bodies of all sorts of cultures and kinds have died and decayed into decomposing earth matter. The same earth matter that we use today to create a new body. Our bodies are made of heavy substance, filled with thoughts and feelings unused, lost, unclaimed and buried over time. Now the Father light is taking over and raising the light from the dead - the light that was forgotten and cast aside. HIS light, Creator's light. As this light "quickens", it moves. Literally shoves the dead matter out of the way and reclaims it for his own. When light moves inside the body, it is felt as love. Love is the sensation of light moving flesh and blood aside, flesh that is covered over by heavy unclaimed thoughts and feelings.
Love is light, the feeling of light waking up inside the cells. The phrase, "people are asleep but they're waking up" is often heard. Yes, we are all waking up to the light inside our bodies. We are becoming aware. Love is the sensation of becoming aware of kindness and caringness. It is unconditional love. It is also personal love but there is more to love than being "just personal" about it. We use personal love in the beginning to create help-mates, partners and families, but we grow and evolve. We had iron chains put on us when the religious monogamy laws came into affect. We closed down the larger aspects of love in the human race and employed tribal law in its place. The law of revenge. Because we were told "not to do that". We had sin given to us in place of love. They clamped iron chains on us.
But now the larger love is awakening. This time it is unconditional love. It is a powerful, never-felt-before step in our personal backyard, called the HUMAN race. That means we are going to stop holding back the kindness and caringness that we feel for others and start joining forces towards unity, peace on the planet and with great strength of purpose. When light moves, it moves in cycles, like breathing. There's an in and an out fluctuation. Light is life and it never stops moving unless we ourselves stop the movement. Then it stays still, and we stagnate. And grow frustrated. The forces of darkness tried to make us stop sharing our love, and so we did. For many years we stopped sharing and showing our love, our light freely to others. But now those days are over. We are coming into MORE light. Light from beyond ourselves. We had gotten pretty empty of light and life. Pretty low down. The earth could have been destroyed for lack of it. But we are still here as a planet. And now we have a sun shining MORE light on us. And we are experiencing a "quickening" in our bodies. The light in our physical bodies is quickening. We are becoming aware of being part of a greater wholeness, a oneness and a foreverness. Something in our physical body is incapable of dying. The flesh and blood part can die, but if that happens, then we'll just move on out as a mind and an intelligence, and rejoin the family of light and once again, make a new body for ourselves. We didn't know this, but now I know. We will not die unless we shut it all off ourselves.
All the bodies we've inhabited from the beginning of time, become clothings of flesh and blood and become the veils that cover our personal light until we are ready to claim it back. Then the awareness of who we are begins the process of revealing. These bits and pieces of earth substance that compose our bodies are bits and pieces of old stuff that had been discarded upon someone's death. The light of unclaimed decaying bodies dims slowly as it takes over the process of decaying and extrapolating every last glimmer of light from it. At first there is a dimming ember of a glow in the top most layer but slowly it dies out. Until the last bit of light has been extracted, they too are part of the family of light.
We had no way of knowing. We simply did not know. And so we let it die. We grew old and died without making that fabulous connection with the light inside. It is who we are. We cannot EVER not exist.
Now we enter this new phase, this new cycle of resurrection. We are in the throes of resurrecting the light within our cells while we're still living, breathing and alive. We are making the connection. Some are waaaay ahead of the others in knowing, but the others are getting it now too. It is a fact of human earth life. We are each on our own pathway of discovering the truth of our Self. Hint: stay in the comfort zone of feeling good with yourself. You ARE the light. The light is leading you through awareness of goodness and aliveness. Enthusiasm is proof that you're alive. What causes you enthusiasm? Love is proof that you're alive. What causes you to feel love? Follow your heart. Follow the good impulses. Follow the dream. Follow the vision. The lives we've been living over and over with friends, partners, associations and even enemies, are all part of the waking up process. We are working this out! We are shedding the uncomfortable, the disturbing, the bad, selfish and depressed stuff that makes us do things we don't want to do. We are learning.
Care about your Self. You ARE the light that lives in your body cells. Your brain cells, your nerve cells, glands, muscles, organs, tissues. You ARE the light and when it moves you feel it as love. Self love comes first, and then it shines greater and greater out to other people. Let the feelings of love be the dominant force today, even in situations of the mundane. Enjoy your Self as it comes alive. Be the peace. Be the One.
Post Script: I definitely feel the passing of the Queen is a major blow to the other side, as the Light is pouring in. We are being jiggled and tossed around as very old old energies, once packed on top of one another, are being dismantled. We will experience upsetness. I remember once being at the altar praying/meditating, and when I got up to leave, my legs buckled under me and a wave of something akin to dying, went through me. I could feel myself leaving my body. But I had enough light anchored that I knew it would pass. So I hung onto the chair nearby and let it pass. In days to come I asked what that was, and I was told a piece of the artificial life was removed from you. It was the artificial life that was dying and not me. It was like it disentangled and left me and I thought I was the one dying. We must expect different kinds of strange phenomena to occur and hang on. Hang in. Don't let it scare you. I am writing and posting my experiences as a reminder that someone else is experiencing this too. And it will pass. Everything is changing. What is no longer relevant is being removed.
9/16/22 - The Light is Powerful Today
The Light is powerful today. It reminds me of the Pleiadian message I posted yesterday (in Today's posts) about the sun's largest coronal projection in history which happened several days ago, around the time of the Queen's passing. I'm feeling the Light in me organizing, waking up, gathering excitement and energy. It's difficult to stay neutral when your whole body is sizzling with information. Light is information coming down the pike in rivers and torrents, loud, clear and lucid information. My excitement makes me want to invite everyone to come together this Sunday, and meet and hug and dance and celebrate and be joyful. The sensation is explosive. The incentive is to gather together. But it's important to stay in control. Each one of us must stay in control as this is happening. The light is moving through us and waking up the cells, the pure spirit (light) in the heart of the cells. We have to stay in control or we'll lose control of our body-minds.
It reminds me when the kundalini awakened in me 46 years ago, without preparation beforehand. It was a spontaneous awakening. It activated from prior life training. After the initial bliss experience, several days later, my body began sizzling, trying to clear the distortions and impurities in me. It came in cycles, allowing me time to process, and then it would start again, increasing the sizzle. At times it was too much, I was on the edge of going crazy. Mad. And that's when I (we) were led to engage intimately with others. Believe it or not sex was the saving grace. Not sex per se but the physical closeness, skin-to-skin contact with other people. It saved me from going over the edge. Balance is required. Conscious balance. We need to stay in control of what we do, and of our minds. People go crazy when the energy is too much, no matter WHAT kind of energy it is, stay in the center and BREATHE!
Today I received a download about what's happening with the increase of light coming from the sun. The light of purity in each cell was highlighted and shown to me, outlined in picture form. There's a core of light in each physical cell, composed of atoms and specifically each electron. The electrons obey the higher directing force. We each think we are in control of our minds and bodies, but there is a higher force over us. The sun is a distributor of that higher force. And the sun is amping up and sending huge projections. The light is overwhelming our physical bodies. The light in our electrons, the atoms that compose our cells, is responding to the light. Each cell in the body has been closed over and buried in a casket of doom and gloom. i.e., wrong beliefs, wrong attitudes, selfishness and other bad attitudes. The light in our cells is now receiving a higher directive: gather together, unify.
When kundalini awakens dramatically, as it did in me in 1976, all the light in my cells were "quickened". They sped up, and for the next 10 years I was engaged in crazy needs to ground, to connect with other people. I grounded it by being close with other human beings, physically close, and so the impulse is upon me again - to gather the people together and hug, be close, celebrate. Not for sex but to release and relax the tensioin from being separated so long.
We have to find a way to remain in control, and the one way to do that is to have fun. Laugh, be merry, be joyful, be with people. It is the destiny of the earth-bound humans to gather in unity and in peace. The word "neutral" is used only in the sense that control is maintained. Self-control. Not to be carried away against your will. Be the one in control of your own body, mind and desires. The Creator is the ultimate authority and we are the children of the Creator. Mother God is the intelligence, the light in matter which composes our bodies. Father God is the unlimited intelligence that flows through us. Mother God helps us to stay in control, to shape and mold the infinite into our bodies. She helps us to ground it and stabilize it.
Maintain a neutral course. Be in the center of things. Be the power in your center. It means being neutral and not taking sides with outsiders who pull, tug and try to change you. Remain in your center. Your center is light. And it feels good to be there.
Feel free to contact me by email HERE if you are feeling confused. I am of the Light and will help as best I can.
9/15/22 - About chakras and the mystical marriage
There are seven lights imprisoned in the body and they are purities, holy lights. They are part of the original immaculate conception but they are blocked and covered over. It is time we understood the true nature of the chakras. So much has been said about them but understanding is still vague and mysterious. It's time we learned the facts so we can work with them more efficiently and break through the blocks to release the immaculate within each cell, atom and electron of our body.
The mother light, what we refer to as the mother light, is the first chakra. It is located at the tailbone. It is known as kundalini, or kanda the beloved, also the holy spirit. It has been said that 5% of us is locked into the body to keep the body alive, but once activated it is connected to the Father, creator of all that is, unlimited intelligence, love and light. The mother light is an the etheric level so science can't see it or analyze it. Not yet, any way. Eventually we will gain higher level equipment. The mother light is only 5% active in an average human being who has not done any inner work on himself. Once a person starts doing focused inner exercises, the door will crack open slightly and assist him on his journey.
The life force that keeps our bodies alive and functioning is a concentration of pure, uncontaminated spirit, aka LIGHT! located at the tailbone. It is captured in the pelvic region and surrounded by material matter and energy of our own making, the makings of the misqualified and distorted energies from many past lives. It is called the Mother flame. It is here to ground the Father light on the earth plane. Each person's individual holy spirit is connected to Mother Earth herself, this ball of light that is locked away inside the physical flesh. From the mother light, a main channel runs up the spine on an etheric level to the brain. Smaller tributaries branch out all along the etheric central tube and goes all over the land of the body. Through this central tube flows pure unadulterated light, which is pure love, when the kundalini is active, and it flows gently sweetly, this great river of light, and it feeds the body its intelligence, its awareness and its sensings.
However in most people this mother light is almost totally blocked off so that only small portions of it is dropped into the main channel to keep the body alive at a bare minimum. In sub-average humans such tiny portions flow, the person is what we call “normal”. He does not have sufficient light moving through the body and brain to give him access to the wholeness of which he belongs. He does not know how to magnetize more of the light and draw it forth into action. But little by little, over lifetimes of experience and hard knocks, he is forced, literally forced, to expand the blocks. The blocks are the chakras, the gates that bar the way to his own heaven. Life after life he evolves and pierces the gates of heaven, melting them through continually butting against the walls of his own resistance. The blocks are the chakras.
We see graphics about the chakras on the internet and we are promised bliss and rapture but the knowledge of how to access them are not given to us. They are spoken of in vague terms. Light is understanding. Light is knowledge. Light is love, understanding, knowledge and application in practical terms. As understanding pierces each chakra, a tremor is felt in the mother light at the base of the spine and a door opens a crack, allowing in more light. It is carefully apportioned. Light moves with infinite patience and intelligence for it comes from the father through the mother. The mother knows when the body is ready for more. She watches and waits for love to be applied that will serve and benefit the surrounding atmosphere. When someone does something to help another without selfish motives, the mother flame is quickened and a door opens. A sense of goodness flows forth. Ready to batter against the next barrier.
The second chakra to be pierced above the root or mother flame, the one in closest proximity to the pelvic region, is what we call the sexual chakra, but it is more than sex. When this chakra is opened, the most important sensation is freedom. He feels free and he is overwhelmed with the ebullience and joy of being free. He cares about all people being free. He is the freedom fighter, the martyr for freedom in every avenue of human life. She is the scarlet woman, the free woman, the woman who loves freely, who is liberated from all sexual blocks, sin and shame. But she is also working to bring peace into the world - her world - for peace is the next chakra to be pierced, the 3rd chakra called the solar plexus located above the navel. Peace is the next level of life to be experienced. In many people this chakra is still closed. The flow of life is battering at the door but it is not giving in because there is hatred, violence and confusion involved. The block can only be pierced with a loving, gentle, forgiving attitude.
So freedom is the first block to break through (the sex chakra) and it is done with love. The second block to break through is the solar plexus and this must also be approached with love - those who want to open the solar plex chakra. Until the solar plexus chakra is penetrated and melted, there is emotional confusion and emotional problems. But once the attitude turns loving and benevolent kindness is applied, this block yields under love. It opens and the light flows in and brings a sense of stability and calmness. Those under the influence of the grace and peace of the mother flame, a person is apt to be a counselor and peace-maker in the many fields of human endeavor. There are many outlets for making peace. Ministers, educators, laborers, housewives, any field of industry may find rewarding work on a small discreet level helping people to maintain their calmness and peace. When this chakra is open the person’s tendency in life is to make peace. While this is going on, they are also working on the next block above, which is the heart chakra. The love chakra the fourth barrier to be pierced. It is located in the region of the heart. When the love chakra is pierced, they learn to apply impersonal love, meaning unconditional love, to people and situations which may take lifetimes to expand upon and understand what is happening. The breaking of chakras does not happen overnight, or even in one lifetime.
Until the heart chakra opens, a person has problems forgiving. They have not learned how to place love above all circumstances, but when they finally pierce the love chakra, light flows in and they are able to love freely. Then they live a life of total forgiveness. Their priority is to give and help and heal and love. And while they are experiencing life on the unconditional love plane, they are working on the power chakra, the fifth block, located in the region of the throat. They learn to express their truth through the vocal chords. Power is created through the speaking of The Word. Before the power chakra is penetrated, they have problems saying what they want and feel. They are stumbling and hiding certain aspects of themselves from their neighbors and friends. But when they pierce the throat chakra, suddenly they find themselves saying what they want. They are surprised, when suddenly one day they find themselves speaking a truth that they had been hiding. And so are their friends and neighbors. Their life begins to change. They express more of their authentic self, and therefore are more in control, making better decisions for themselves. The power chakra is a self control chakra. These are the orators of the world, those who speak before the multitudes. If this power is activated without the mother flame, the god flame, flowing through it from the other 5 chakras below, it is misused. They may become con artists, liars and manipulators, preachers and great industrial giants who can move others to their will.
While a person is enjoying and experiencing life flowing through an open throat chakra, they are also working to batter against the closed doors of the third-eye chakra, the sixth chakra. This chakra is located in the region of the brain, connected to conscious thought, the pituitary gland known as the master gland. This chakra controls many functions within the body. Before this chakra is pierced, the person does not think so much about putting things into an order, such as logic, truth or control over emotions. The world is in a state of chaos until the third eye chakra is pierced. Then the world begins to take on a semblance of organization and order. HIS world. He begins to piece things together for himself. Before the mother flame hits the pituitary gland known as the third eye, a person is busy controlling others. The mother flame is his own mother! His own evolutionary energy. He becomes aware of himself whenever a chakra is pierced and the mother flame, the holy spirit, flows through his organs via the blood and begins to activate his body intelligence. His mind and body become synthesized, blended, and operating more efficiently. The soul has a more dominant influence over his life.
The truth becomes important but wisdom is the order of the day. He sees a purpose in how the outer world works. When the mother flame flows from the tailbone straight up the spine to the brain, activating ALL of the chakras, his priority in life is in order - freedom of expression through the 2nd chakra, peace thru the 3rd chakra, unconditional love through the 4th chakra, the power to speak his truth through the 5th chakra, and the organizational skills of the third eye through the 6th chakra. The human being is now under the the sway of his own soul, not his petty, selfish, limited ego. People functioning in the mid-brain chakra are scientists, educators, researchers, whose top priority is work of a mental nature, sometimes so completely involved in their internal organizing they appear to be in an ivory tower. While these people are experiencing life in the mental plane, they are also battering against the doors of the highest chakra of all: the spiritual chakra or 7th chakra, located at the crown. Under the influence of the mother flame now flowing freely up the spine from the tailbone, they come to realize there is something higher and they become curious. So, when they cannot find the pieces to the mental puzzles they are working with in daily life, they begin to look higher.
The light flows in an upward direction, always, to something higher. The chakra at the crown is the one which will enhance and add greater value to the ones below. And so the ladder of life is piercing one barrier after another until finally the spiritual chakra is pierced and the union is made. In flows the light from the great sea of eternal life, the oneness from which the individual spark of the person first descended and subsequently forgot. These are the mystics who have the visions, see God, angels, and other beings who have gone on to higher worlds. They know the truth of life and they are ready to move on, IF - a big IF! - they have left nothing undone behind them. However, most people have left much undone, unfinished business, and gaps are still evident. So they have to go back and reconnect once more with the spark that lies at the bottom of the spinal column.
In the eager climb up the ladder to the crown, one often forgets the mother flame below, holding the anchor to the earth. They must return or they will leave the body behind. The mother flame, now flowing passion and intelligence, is what the Indian folklore calls kundalini and what the Christian world calls the holy spirit. If one forgets the mother flame, he forgets his connection to the earth and the practical life of nature. When kundalini is awakened and moves in an individual, it is dynamic. One feels the presence of something holy moving through him, or something powerful, or something free, or whatever he as a unique individual magnifies and enhances in his life. It is not easy to maintain a balanced life. This is where mastery comes into play. The person must assert control over his life, actions, words and caution is advised. Otherwise, it moves a person to far away from his own kind. He may transcend the outer world and be “wafted” on the breezes of something mightier than himself, giving more power to self-oriented endeavors rather to the good of the whole race, which is the ultimate purpose of the mother flame. He is not in control until he yields to the greater one who IS in control.
Let us not forget that chakras are blocks. Each person alive is walking about in a physical body, and operating within one or two of these seven purities or gifts of the spirit. We are children of the all-intelligence NOT IN FORM, known as the Father, and the all-intelligence who is confined in matter, known as the Mother. Between these two pure intelligences we are learning as children - offspring - of the parents. We are evolving through trial and error and experimentation.
Some individuals are operating on two levels at the same time. A person can be operating on the peace level and the love level, both at the same time. Or a person can be operating on the freedom level and the peace level, both at the same time. Or on the freedom level and the love level. Or on the love level and the power level, such as the charismatic ministers who spread love around. Or on the power level and the mental level at the same time, such as dictators. Most often these people go astray and exhibit less than honorable. Or a person can be operating on the mental and spiritual, such as religious leaders. Quite often they, too, exhibit less than honorable personalities. The danger is that, without careful management of oneself, so much Light floods a particular area of the body when a chakra is pierced, that a person becomes unbalanced. This person may experience knowing himself to have hit upon the truth, but go to extremes and, with power, impose his will on others. He has hit upon the truth, but he must yet learn to balance this particular aspect with all the other six qualities of his life, now flowing through him There are seven major ones, which may be called by many names. We must become aware what these chakras do when they quicken and come alive in us.
It is the work of the ages, and the reason why we must come back into embodiment again and again. To get it right. To complete the learning. How to balance the seven graces, the seven gifts, the seven purities locked within the physical form. We are children learning how to be a grown-up god. We have to learn how to manage the flows of the purities within us - freely, peacefully, truthfully, powerfully, intelligently - how to allow full expression of the light within us, flowing through us from above and from below. The mother light works its way upward through the chakras when the chakras are open - we have to learn the trick of applying goodness and kindness - and it is held back when the chakras are closed (when we are closed). The masters tell us this is the great work which draws us here. We WANT to come here to learn the great lessons. It is the goal of every human being born into an earth body. Each one of us knew before coming what it was that we were to do while here. We are working on something that is profound. We have the sense of a "perfect" within our deepest most immaculate heart. But we don't know what it is until we find it. We will know when we discover it. Then we will begin expressing it to the outer world and other people. Until then, we will continue to work at it. The ideal that we carry within our secret parts is waiting for us to find it. It is the fun and the light-heartedness of adventure and enthusiasm and playing with the dualities that lie all around us, in the many different forms and shapes and sizes.
We are reaching for something, we know not what. We know we have to work on it. It is a priority in our lives. And so our daily tasks, our human relationships, our interests in life are all dedicated to the resolving of the mystery that obsesses us, so that we may pierce the barriers or whatever that hold us back. Often our instincts place us in hard situations just so that we CAN learn. We could not break through a barrier unless we placed ourselves in front of an immovable wall on the physical level. We marry people we know subconsciously to represent road blocks to us. We do it from a soul level, not a mind level. We think we‘re in love. We are inordinately attracted to the person, and we commit to them. We can't help ourselves. Then, after a while, we find there is work involved in keeping this relationship together. What did we do to ourselves? we wonder. We are here to bring forth the seven purities waiting for us to open: will power (1st chakra), freedom (2nd chakra), peace (3rd chakra), love (4th chakra), truth (5th chakra), organizational skills (for lack of a better word for the 6th chakra), and surrender of ego to higher authority (7th chakra).
Now, when we have sufficiently done our work on each level, the next step is to coordinate ALL the levels. It is through the work of coordinating all the levels that we will experience the awakening of kundalini, or the washing of the holy spirit, which will help us to coordinate. Only by lining up the openings into one unobstructed channel, does the holy perfume flow without inhibition. Then we begin enjoying life in paradise in a physical sensual body. The Light flows down from above and up from below as the father light and the mother light meet and play with the child (us). We then experience the fulness of pleasure, joy, abundance freely on all levels. The mystical marriage is complete and life begins right here on earth in the fifth dimension.
9/11/22 - The Queen's Passing
There are weird changes in the atmosphere ever since news came out of the Queen's passing on Friday. That day I was in a null zone. I hadn't heard the news yet. I seemed to be empty, bare, desolate. Nothing of aliveness to live for. Naturally, I thought it was just me and another phase of ascension symptoms I was going through. But the sense of loss was overwhelming. Not depressing, just gone. All loss of interest gone. I've experienced funks before, but never one quite like this. I allowed the funk and slept most of the day. Gradually the news sunk in when Doug told me that the Queen had died, but it didn't register. It wasn't of interest. It didn't register until the next day, as the energies began to change. We are living in a remarkable world at a remarkable time in the history of our planet. I want to post this because I have subsequently learned that others experienced the same funk that I did, as the news of the Queens passing was carried around the world.
As we share our experiences, we are helping to lighten the planet. The darkness WILL pass. It's the passing of not just a cloud, but of a long tradition of heavy-handed rulership which influenced everyone, and everyone obeyed. There are mixed responses to the Queen's passing, all of which add to the changing atmospheric energies. Some think the Queen has been dead a long time and has been replaced by a clone. Others are truly in mourning over the loss. And then there are the random reactions of the 8 billion souls on the planet, all of which alter our emotional and mental sensitivities. Thoughts of what this means circle the globe. But the Light is moving in even as we react and write and speak about it, replacing the large chunk of dark history that disappeared from Earth. A certain heaviness is leaving.
Be patient, for this too will pass. We must be kind to each other during the transition. We need to remember that each person alive has feelings. Emotions color our world bad or good. We must be considerate of the feelings of others. Let's color it good. This is an emotional moment in history. I never realized it before, but politics are emotional. Political beliefs weave in and out of the Monarchy like colored thread in the wall hangings. Politics are perhaps the most passionate of all men's beliefs. Maybe not so much for women, but certainly for men. We musn't argue with someone else's emotions over this. Leave them be. Let them process. Let everyone process this moment. We are living through a world upheaval. We are transitioning from a lower vibrational world to a higher, brighter, lighter world. Minds and hearts are confused. Which way to turn for answers? Let's respect each other and allow the transition to take place quietly, peacefully. We would like time for ourselves. We must give that time to others. The feelings of warmth, caring, respect and kindness to others is the hallmark of the soul. The soul is moving closer in to take charge of human affairs.
There is an increase of Light in the world now that the Queen is gone. Now that the people KNOW she is gone. Maybe it's true that she was gone earlier, but if no one knew, there could be no emotional reaction. It is our emotional reaction that brings us either UP or down. It all depends on how we feel, and we have the power to lift our feelings up with determined thought.
To find out what the Masters say about the Queen's passing, check out the article I posted in "Today's Posts" entitled "The Collectives; Passing of the Crown". It was channeled thru Carolina Oceana Ryan.
9/8/22 - The I Am Presence speaks about the learning process
Q: What is the learning process? I awoke with this hint a few minutes ago. What would you like to tell me?
A: Great and gentle words are coming to you in these days of trial. You do not see the whole. Call upon me more often. Allow your mind to stand ajar. Do not think! Do not imagine all of the possible endings for there is no end. Journeys are made by the light that enters the tiny crack of the blind that you may see the passing events outside and thus you call it “movement”. But within, at the center, no movement is taking place, only the outer exterior may “move”. Wonders of the soul are the learning process. It is not a process of the mind. It is the unfolding, the pulling back of the outer skin to readjust to the eternal beauty of oneness, the ongoing fountain of truth which is new, light, and the glimpse vouchsafed those who would choose the inner sanctity over the outer darkness. For darkness is outer, out beyond the infinity that lies at the center of the soul.
The heart is still and peaceful. This can radiate its quality of peacefulness when the outer form allows it to enter into the life’s activities. The quality of eternal youth, beauty and peace may be absorbed into the day’s activities AT ANY TIME that you so will it, by letting go of the focus. By letting go of the pain. By leaning towards the dawn of self - the immaculate wonder within. The dawn and the Phoenix rising. Send your troubles away by releasing them to the fire of the heart. There is a sacred fire at the center. Will this to come forth in your life. Your life actions are a tightly fixed agenda for the day and so often there is only a merry-go-round circling the one at the center but never touching it. Claim the pole in the center as your own. Touch its core and know the strength available to you at all times. Be at peace from the outer world - they cannot harm you if you are attuned to the center.
The learning process is that process of peeling away the false beliefs that you must work and live in the world. You need not offer your focus to the world at all. Give your focus to the Presence within you, even as you move outward through the door onto the street, and you will be doing what enabled us in our domain - masters today over all conditions - to do that which is the true and proper way for you to go.
9/7/22 - Spirit channeling: Individualism is a lost art
Q: Dear Higher Self, can you explain who you are in terms other than “I am you”? How does this work when others read your words? Are you the same to other humans as you are to me?
A: When you were a small child your parents held you in their thoughts. You reflected outwardly as you watched them in their actions. Their deeds, their responses were a picture for you to copy. The ways of the world are hard and sure, not subtle at all compared to our relationship - you and me - yet the comparison is the same. As you move through the day I am projecting images upon your inner mind - on the delicate substance of your consciousness - that which I want to do. You in turn repeat the act in your outer form. Many, many people are following my progress towards a more enlightened world, yet they know it not. The beauty of perfect harmony between cause and effect is often too far for them to reach with their conscious minds. As you write these words, your mind is turned to a half-way position, like the shutters of a blind hanging over your windows. The sun’s rays are permitted entry into your room in the open position, yet as you close those same blinds the light is stopped. In the same manner does a mind open to the higher Self, whose sunlight is the power of consciousness - given unto the conscious (as you call it) part of the mind so that it may reason and cast insight onto the day by day activities which unfold and carry one to final conclusions. When you refer to the All Intelligence, you are using a most proper term, for there is no limit to the sea of awareness which has fathered you. You are but a tip of the proverbial iceberg, so to speak, and you do not use the eternal qualities that you have at your disposal.
The air within the room is the same as the air out doors in nature, yet when you close your blinds you cannot see. The sun is gone, shadows fill the room. You stumble and fall where, as you open the blinds once more, Lo and behold! There is Light! So, you see, my friend, you are but a tiny object, conscious of your tininess only when you open your mind to see the vastness lying beyond. But as the sun enters your little room you absorb the loveliness of the sun’s rays. You absorb the warmth, the vitality, the glow and you become in your oblivion the sun itself. Can you detect my meaning? There is no dividing line which tells that you are here and I am there, for as you open yourself to me, you become me! I am you as you are me. As I have told you before, I represent your greater attributes, yet I am not all. There is an infinity for us to draw upon, I am the greater side of your own consciousness because in your daily life you must focus (or so you believe) and there is an edge whenever a focus is brought to bear on an object. The edge represents the blinds drawn across your window to shut out the light. Can you understand?
(Q: Yes, I can understand. Thank you very much. This would indicate then, that all human beings are operating off of one consciousness, is this not true?)
You know it is! The wonder that we contemplate in our domain is that this is not apparent to the vast majority instead of the small minority. The lesser minds are focused within a nut shell, shut away by their own beliefs in their separateness from Life. Yet Life is true to itself. It feeds all who exist and have their being with no discrimination one to another. The Light of consciousness floods the open gates, is rejected and turned back by the closed. The practice of meditation as you call it, is a fine and delicate process in the turning of the mind to stand ajar. In silence it must begin out of necessity, due to the turmoil in your society. But in time, one may while yet living in that same turmoil, begin to enjoy the peace that comes from maintaining an eternal mind that is permanently open to the greater forces of Life, love, peace and harmony that is forever available to all.
Your own blessings of life have been culled by your practices of sitting in silence, performing the delicate operation of cutting away the shadows of the blinders. Your open mind draws the Light into your interior and the stars of the cosmos blink on and off to signal your retreat and your coming forth. Never allow the world to shut your doors for you. Only you should retain that privilege. Withdraw from the world when you sense confusion. Withdraw from the world when you can no longer see. That is the sign that an eclipse is happening - a cover placed over your flow of Self. None of the Great White Brotherhood would stand still should a shadow cross their path. They would bolt and run at the first sign of danger. Then, when all is well, they would resume their stand and continue with the task of individual identity. Individualism is a lost art in your world. Individualism is a cause but only yet a dream, for they who would be an individual must first come to the center of self - the center of the Sun. For only out of the heart of Light can individual expression show forth untainted, untainted by the confusion and thoughts of others.
(Q: Thank you for this thought. I am thinking now and therefore I have closed my mind to you - is this right? I am thinking that in order to create logic and conclusions, I must close my mind to follow them to an end. Is this right? Yet, why do I need an end. Why do I “work” to understand? You have told me that you would lead me. There is something here that makes a difference. I would be “different” from other humans if I did not “think” and form conclusions. Yet, my most happy times have been when I was not thinking, but enjoying the ebb and flow within and around me. This is where you are leading me, is it not? Back to the beginning where I do not “think” but act according to impulse? Human beings like to think because they/we like to believe that we are the creator of our life.)
Can you see so simply, beloved? I would take you by the hand and show you to the fountain of eternal life. There is no need to think. The process of life is an ongoing process that has no tomorrow. Tomorrow and yesterday do not exist but in the mind of the one who creates an “end”. There is no end and no beginning in the eternity of Now as your Emerson has so often said. We who grow in the Light of the Great One cannot bear to terminate the glow of Life as you do so often. The rush of power which you force into your minds and bodies through the closing of the doors, is a tension that causes blockages to occur on the tiny membranes of your body. The stress which you so adroitly used in your ad is the very reason why we would never go back to the time period of our mortal lives. The beginning of the end comes at the point of this realization. No can stop the flow and live!
(Q: You have pushed the edges of mind a little further than before. Thank you!)
A: No you have opened your mind to encompass a greater view of the Almighty’s mind. That which has no end. All-intelligence implies a never-ending, no-limit supply of knowledge and light. I am feeding you as you reach with the fingers of your mind. I am the answer as you create the question. Simultaneously do the two join and become one whole. Questions are but focuses on one half, restricting knowledge from entering in. Then the release, the opening and the cry for solution. The marriage of a long lost soul with its counterpart creates a new beginning.
Why do you wonder? Have I not told you that I am here always? The day cannot turn to night lest I am there to show you the night. The morning breaks clear and sweet because I am on the horizon, riding on the sun. There is no length, no depth, no turning of a page in the consciousness of an individual that I am not there holding the lamp that you may find your way.
(Q: Can you explain who are the voices speaking in the book "Spirit Speaks"? Are they members of the Great White Brotherhood or are they waiting embodiment? Dr. Peebles, for example, and Sole and Chief Sitting Bull once of the Sioux?)
Curiosity does not become an angel of Light.
(Q: Thank you. What can I do to help my own growth today?)
We who are joined in the eternal land of livingness can see with great pain the soiling of your earth. Why do you continue to smoke? Can you not see the harm it is doing to your delicacy? Your mental control is in the cannister of a nut shell. Come higher, my friend. Join with beauty and the order of togetherness in thought. Plan your day around me and I will show you many wonders. Fill the stars with your worship, the skies with your song, the trees with your laughter, the night with your (......). Now you are wearing down, put aside your pen and relax with me. I will be with you throughout the evening.
(Q: Thank you.)
Journaled 2/5/86
9/6/22 - Message from my I AM Presence
As I look through my past archives this is one that channeled through me before I knew the word "channeling", way back in the day, 10 years after kundalini took me up into the light and I had to work hard to find ways to come back down and ground and be a normal person again. I am in the process of editing my prolific journals. They are stored everywhere, a staggering amount. I keep finding hidden caches of handwritten messages I left behind. This particular one came after 3 weeks of no relaxation or meditation. My husband and I had just returned from Costa Rica after three weeks of hectic, non-stop busy activity closing out our life there. Back home in Zephyrhills (FL) I finally had a chance to stop. After a half-hour relaxing, I asked, writing it out on paper for I expected an answer:
(Q: Dear Lord of Light, am I OK? What would you have me do?) A: Wonderful sister I am you. Continue as you were. Find your space, accept my grace, for I give it unto you. Feelings race, power fair, generations come and gone do not release the fair increase of wonder in their souls. Do you have questions dear one or do you wish the solitude of my love?
(Q: I am sitting here, at first put out at having to move, but now feeling the radiation spreading throughout my body. It is growing increasingly stronger by the second. How I do love you and my/our connection! Please speak to me about the radiation I feel?)
A: Ten thousand souls would stand before my gaze and only one would sense what you are feeling now. The tender melting of hardness is the tendering of hardness - the crust that you permit to be built around you. Each cell, each particle of space that you affect is affected by your thought., Your immediate body is first to feel the crust of coagulated thought for you live within the spaces betwixt the center and the orbiting electrons. you are the creator of their worlds and your benediction soothes their vibrating bodies, your anger churns them into a vibrating mass of shock-filled wanting mass. Can you understand? Can you place yourself with me into this inner world that you carry around with you as you move? (Yes, I can understand.)
When you take your place in the sun as you did a while ago, you turned those tiny worlds over to Me. As I stepped through the veil of your focus, I stepped in with the power of love in my hands and in my heart, I stepped in to bring you peace. The radiation that you feel just now is my loving uninhibited by your actions and thought. I would give you this more often but you would have it not. (Why?) For months I have been prompting you with the proper way to go, your patterned past is still at work stopping much of the flow. Keep pressing on, do not give up, press the hardness out with love, tenderness is God’s own grace descending like a dove. Soft and sweet and easy, beautiful to behold, the gracious gift is the gift that is given without a thought to hold. Freedom is the facing of the sun, the acceptance of goodness and purity. Those who cannot accept that which is good in their lives are not free. Are trapped in the maze of a finite world.
You want to ask me about the wonder that you and I shared, you saw only a glimpse of our love upon awaking this morning. There is more to come. Open your mind, dear one, I am having a hard time coming through. Yes, that is better. Now, I am here with you at all times but you do not sense me because you are focusing on your outer world tasks. Do not misunderstand what I told you: to continue with your work. I do not mean for you to concentrate so hard! Let your vision lift to a higher plane as you work. Your thoughts are becoming too focused, too narrow, like a microscope focusing on a plate beneath its powerful gaze. Your world is one world - all that is in it is affected by your focus or by your freedom, by whichever thought and intensity that you assume. Would you not like to free your world? Yourself and your associates? Then free your mind from a too intense focus on one thing, one job. A job to do is but a minor act to perform in the maintenance of the whole. Your friends, your husband, your sons, your group, your very own grass and flowers and plants - these too must be cared for, not brushed aside for your work at your desk. Please - balance your focus, balance your vision, soothe your vibrating flesh. I cannot enter a place, a space that has become jagged with cross-currents of energy. Re-align your energies that you may feel whole again.
My beloved, my peace is hard to receive in your physical plane. All is against it. Those who have been able to receive me have removed themselves from exposure to the world’s influence. Yet, your world is against such removal and thus there are few who even try to find me. I am walking the cities’ streets with you. I am walking the isles of the offices and the investment houses, the stores and the many places of business. I am present in EVERY home - none escapes my presence, my longing, my love - and yet who hears my voice? How many stop and lift their vision to seek the peace I hold out to them in the palms - both palms - of my hands? Can you not feel my devotion? My love I yearn to give to you?
I do not ask you to give up all that you have worked for in this world of yours. I ask only that you give a nod of recognition as you pass, a quick raising of your mind to look up to find me before you continue on your frenetic pace. (End. Journaled 1/23/86)
9/3/22 - A vision during a business meeting
From an old journal in 1984. We are back in Costa Rica having a meeting on the macadamia farm, now living in Florida. Bob returns to finish odds and ends related to his old business. I’m there to take notes but a vision is overshadowing me. It's a lovely cathedral with light rays and I can’t keep my mind on the note-taking. The following is copied from my original notes:
I woke with a vision this morning, pushing itself forward, out of the misty distance of my mind. Light forms, graceful lines of sparkling radiance shaped into arches, spires and domes pulsated first within the threshold of my consciousness. It was simply there upon waking as if it had always been there. I ignored it and went into the bathroom, turned on the shower. As the warm water trickled over me I lathered my hair with vigor and rinsed out the suds. As I applied the conditioner my tired mind followed the path of least resistance and the intense activation of the past week began to roll effortlessly before my eyes, running smoothly on their own momentum. God! I was tired, mentally and physically. Images of the accountant sitting before me, ledgers of numbers continued to play the same scenes over and over, tumbling into each other and fading out, while new ledgers took their place. All the while the light vision lingered, superimposed transparently over the darker film, no less real for its transparency and lightness. Two totally different images played upon my visual apparatus, one on top of the other like a double-exposure upon a photographic film. But I was too exhausted to care and I allowed the interplay with little concern. I scrubbed my face with the rough teflon pad layered with soap, not even trying to come awake, allowing my body to wallow in its heaviness. My face hurt from the scrubbing so I stopped and then lifted my face into the spray from the shower head. So weak that my knees trembled. I had never worked so hard in my life as I had this week. Light flooded my consciousness, the vision moved forward. What is this light? I thought? Where does it come from? Myriads of rays of quivering light radiated outward from the strange domed and spired cathedral, glistening like early dew in the morning sun. Why is it here? What is the light raying out? Words flowed through my mind, answering me.
"All light is the connection between a body and its source. Light translated into the human condition becomes attribute which is felt rather than seen, as the body closes in around this life-giving essence. Truth, nobility, justice, and mercy, patience with those who are against you. Tolerance of that which opposes. They are the qualities of the great central source of life. As it passes through the density of physical thought and emotion, the light is filtered out and only its shadow remains, but when uncluttered by human emotions and human limitations, these attributes are seen in truer form, light forms direct from the heart of life. The soul sees the light visually just as the physical eye sees the sunrise in the morning as it impresses itself upon the optic nerve. Light is reason, intelligence, virtue and wisdom. Light is the absence of darkness caused by the encroachment of dense human beliefs, error, intolerance, discrimination, the theory of sin, weakness and mistakes."
The words tumbled over the darker images of the past week, like crystal spring water over rough stones in a creek bed. Like the song of a bird over the wet drizzle of a somber day. It ran through my mind effortlessly. Still, the weakened condition of my depleted mind did not allow me to be stimulated by this remarkable intrusion. The voice seemed to come from the lovely arcing cathedral, ever so subtly, ever so softly, yet ever present. I focused on the water knob, pulled the shower curtain back careful in the delicate maneuver of stepping out of the tiled bath while reaching at the same time for the fuzzy blue towel on the towel rack. Worrying about Jim and Flora waiting in the living room to take Bob and me to the office. The visual whisper of clean lines of golden pinkish light hung suspended in the tired spaces of my mind, light rays still glowed and radiated outward, as if the cathedral were the source of light itself. But as I dried myself off I knew different. The light rays were the open-ended connection between those who had built the cathedral and the source of life itself. That’s what caused the light.
“Did you get that? Make a note of that,” Bob said, looking to me while the rumble of voices cut in on my consciousness. The meeting on the Macadamia Plantation led by Bob, was nearly over. Embarrassed, I tried to recall what had been said, struggled to focus, and failed. Faking it, I wrote on the paper before me while the vision faded into the background, yet not beyond the threshold of consciousness. I knew what was happening to me. The intense output of the past week had drained and exhausted me and the abrupt stopping Friday night upon completion of our trouble-shooting project to set in new controls, had released the bars that chained me to this world. And once more, my spirit was soaring without an anchor. Body and mind weakened, supernormal will power needed to get the job done, was now gone. There was little to hold me in the mental and physical plane any longer. Yet this meeting was important. A last residual of the problem areas that needed careful analysis. “Oh well”, I thought. “I’m not really needed here. I’ll get notes from Bob later. Besides, I know everything they’re discussing already. I’d been over it this morning over coffee when Bob dictated the agenda. I plucked inane sentences out of the air and scribbled them onto the paper, pretending to take notes and a wave of softness fluttered through me as if I released all worry.
“We’ll issue notes in lieu of salary for April,” said Bob. “Interest should be paid on that amount, based on prime rate.” said Allen. “Libor,” said a third. “Libor’s always changing,” said the first. It didn’t make sense. Normally I would be following the flow of conversation. Now it was as if they were speaking a foreign language. I looked out the broad windows on the opposite side of the room of our office on the 6th floor. Between the tall buildings, the northern range of mountains surrounding the central valley of Costa Rica was dotted with yellow lights. The setting sun was now touching the overhanging clouds with a purplish-pink glow. The sky was darkening. Suddenly I was inside the light cathedral! An ever so subtle shift in consciousness and the rays of light were radiating from me, outward. A soft quivering sense of security and peace enfolded in upon me and I became part of the source of the light, radiating out of the sanctuary which had been hovering in my consciousness all day.
“Do you have everything now?” asked Bob. I pulled myself out of the sanctuary and looked down uneasily at the paper on my lap and squirmed. “Well, ah - I think I can pick up what I don’t have from you,” I said. “Later, tonight.” “Well, just look at the agenda,” said Bob. It’s all there!” Then Allen jumped to my rescue. “What do you have?’ he asked, coming over to look over my shoulder onto my scribbles. Quickly I tucked them under a clean sheet. (Journaled 1/28/84)
9/2/22 - The igniting of power: integrate the imbalance of masculine and feminine by holding the center
During meditation I was wondering, what is a man? What is a human being? After meditation I came out and sat down beside Bob and looked around. In my inner eye I saw a light above the head and a smaller light down below in the pelvic bowl. And the vision persisted. As I watched, a transcendence pervaded me. It became clearer and clearer to me what a human being really is. The answer to the million-dollar question and why man has been so confused over the centuries, with the answers seemingly locked away from him, a mystery.
I see a light above the head, a brilliant white radiation, and a smaller light down below in the pelvic bowl. The smaller light is identical to the brighter one above and man’s consciousness is the grey zone in between. Man, in ignorance of his real identity, is unsure which way to go. The truth is that his identity has been separated into two parts, and thus his power has been separated in two. The light above the head is a droplet from out of the overall sea of consciousness and it remains pure and undefiled, still in contact with the source of life and intelligence. The light above the head has become individualized for the purpose of manifesting in the physical world. But because it is too great, too pure to be contained in a corruptible body even though innocent as a babe, it broke a very small portion of itself away, as all human beings do, and cast it downward into the womb of a woman, round which it gathered material to build a baby infant form for birth.
This piece of original intelligence is the pilot power situated at the end of the spine, in the pelvic bowl, which is the geometric center, and it alone is responsible for keeping the body alive and governs its growth. It is the intelligence of the body. But because the baby grows up in a material environment and is fed information only through the outer senses, and the outer world, it is not guided to identify with the original consciousness which is pure, as we see in babies. And soon the purity of unadulterated consciousness begins to fade and in its confusion the individual begins to identify with the form in which it resides, and with the physical world which it sees outside. And soon, he begins to think that he is that form. Thus the light above the head, the source of his life and the greater portion of his consciousness, remains behind as a vast, untapped storehouse of power and knowledge, always there, intended for the soul to draw upon - an infinite potential waiting to be called upon and tapped for recognition, waiting for an invitation to come down and express outward into the physical world. That purity that is in heaven is intended to be expressed on earth.
But man has not learned this yet. Mankind has accumulated mistakes and errors which have built up inside of him. The world now is too glamorous for him to look within to his purity. The outer senses and material influences call to him from outside and pull his focus away from the higher consciousness which is more lofty and graceful, where holiness, innocence and peace prevail. Concepts that are not true have wheedled their way into the man’s awareness, and programmed his brain with a muddied discernment. Corruption seeps in and ferments. The higher power is all but forgotten except for some distant God who, the scriptures say looks down at us and doles out punishment and rewards. It is an erroneous concept from start. Thus the separation. Originally the little piece of purity was sent down as an advance scout to prepare the infant for the greater power coming behind. But the separation has become now a permanent separation. The scout is cut off. The piece of pure power at the end of the spine has virtually become a prisoner in the man’s own camp which he himself prepared. And because of this he is unable to contact the greater authority above his head, thus bringing alive the God within himself. The consciousness becomes confused, looks left and right and laments his condition. He becomes a mortal being, inculcated into the world and destined to die.
PART 2
The power in the pelvic bowl becomes known merely as physical sex which contains the spark of procreation. Its virtue and sacredness is lost upon the consciousness of the man. It becomes merely a pilot light on low simmer and must wait for the ambition of man to become tired and to give up so that the man will turn his attention inward and come back home to the nest within, where his real identity resides. The pilot light of pure consciousness must wait for ambition to run its course, for desire to spend itself, for appetites to fill to overflowing, so that the man will wish to return home and nourish himself again with his own inner flame of love. Then the power from above - the power known as God - may come down and fill the body and mind with the destined design and purity of purpose.
Once this begins to happen, once man returns to his within, the consciousness becomes more powerful, more glowing, more perceptive, more knowing. The individual begins the process of pulling the rest of himself down into his body and life simply by focusing on it. He pulls it down into the machinery of his being where it oils his physical body, sparks his mind and soothes his emotions and he becomes more sensitive to his feelings. Contrary to the popular belief that one must rise upward to find the light, one must first go down into the gut level of existence and contact the intuition which lies below the heart, below the navel, into the earthiness of his pelvic zone where the little seed of pure power is located. Around it has accumulated the energies of past mistakes, errors, damage to himself and others that he wishes he never did. One must act upon that level. When one acts upon intuition, known as gut feeling, one begins to pull the power above down. It is through action that one pulls it down. By the laws of mechanics one pulls it down. Through action one pulls it down but through RIGHT action. Through the action of proper choice and the acceptance of responsibility. Then the man begins to become virtuous, aware of what is good for him and what is not., And what is good IN him and what is not.
The physicality known as the carnal side of him begins to take on a certain glowing beauty, while his spirituality takes on an earthiness, and the two become integrated as one. The higher power known as spiritual flows down, and the smaller power flows up, known as carnal because it is covered by flesh – dense, heavy energy. The result is an igniting of force which manifests as a personal and practical power which one must process and allow. It is felt as attraction, love, beauty, grace, intimacy and by other names. It can also be called tempting, alluring, a siren’s call, charisma, which requires great wisdom to direct it along a path that does not harm, for it radiates outward and touches everyone who comes into contact with it. This power is called shakti, kundalini, the holy spirit, and many other names.
The man or woman in whom this takes place, becomes more aware for awareness is power and power is awareness, as always it has been, and he or she begins to create his or her own law and to pave his or her own way, and march to the beat of a different drummer than others around him. His or her acts become neither good nor evil but uniquely his or hers alone, a non-conformist to tradition. And he or she has the right to walk thus for it has been given to him or her to be a son or daughter of God on earth should they wish to cultivate it. He becomes a power on Earth greater than others because he has the authority from above manifesting within and through him. And so long as he follows the irrefutable laws of God - the laws of good - he will continue to grow in power. Should he fall away from the laws of good, the punishment will be separation from that power which he enjoyed and is now gone. The result will be a loss of awareness and a loss of understanding and he will find himself once more in the world of ignorance, struggle and confusion where there is no respect for life and evil prevails to torment and ridicule.
PART 3
What are these two lights? The large one over the head and the smaller one in the pelvis? Their essence is innocence. They are so pure, like a glistening radiation of life itself, the spark of life. It is the innocence that is unknown by adults except in the throes of hurt, the innocence of child-like love, the sense of fair play, of compassion and mercy, of honesty, of child-like willingness to help, of straightforwardness, of swift and bold action. All of these plus more of those attributes of the soul we call “the virtues”. All of these are but reflections out of this great white light of purity, for it is the heart of God himself. The sense of purity and wholeness are but signs that he is approaching more closely to the heart of his real self, the true self, the self that knows God and the cosmic laws which are pure, just and good.
The next question is, “How does one bring this power forth?” We bring these attributes forth by using them, by showing these very same attributes in spoken words out loud, and in acts reflecting them. Until they are used, they are just words. But by applying them and insisting upon using them courageously, in spite of rejection by those who would put them down, who would ridicule them as childish and simple, we bring them forth into our lives. They are not childish. They are the substance of the soul, which is simple, good and natural. And if we want to bring forth the power of the soul into our daily life, we must practice how to use them. They are the qualities of the soul, the link and the channels of connection to God. These are the conduits and meridians between the mortal and that mortal’s source of power. Only by using those qualities that are already built-in on a small scale, can we open the channels between the smaller light in the pelvis at the end of the spine, and the larger light above the head, known as the dweller on the threshold, the father of our life. As we open the channel between the two, we receive greater and greater power into the body and mind and feelings so that we can use more of it in our daily life for greater ease, happiness and abundance.
How can there be power in truth? How can there be power in justice? In mercy? In love? How can there be power in turning the other cheek? Meaning to walk away? Or in heroic action? Or in swiftness of action? Let us turn this around and ask, “How can there be power in dishonesty?” How can there be power in injustice? How can there be power in mercilessness? In hate? How can there be power in striking back? In cowardice? Or in slow-moving action? These are the opposites of those qualities of the soul that man has taken upon himself to use. He puts down his power, makes himself weak, sluggish, heavy, impoverished and unable to move. And beneath the heaviness he labors. He is slow to perceive, slow to move, slow to understand. The power of innocence is in the swiftness and the dynamics of spontaneity, because they are the same attributes as Source. This is what life is made of, this is what God is made of. This is what good is made of, and if we want to become powerful we will become like good, or like God.
You know yourself how much you want sometimes to just let everything go? To chuck it all overboard and turn your back and walk away? This is the urging from the soul within. It is saying in essence, “You don’t have to work so hard. Why do you work at it? Let me flow and ease your struggle. Let me flow and you will be in paradise.” Let the child in you come out – the light at the end of the tailbone. The child has become petulant because it has been held back. The child has been damaged, restricted. Let the child come out to play - the wondrous child who is innocent and who desires to laugh, cry, act, move, be natural, be free. Let him out. Let him come forth in innocence. Let him speak his feelings, they are your feelings. Let him feel what he wants to feel. It is you.
You sense there is something unknown that is pressuring you from inside but you are holding it back. Let it go or it could express in violence. Ease it out slowly, practice letting it happen naturally, spontaneously, and do not judge the results. They are neither good nor bad. Experiment with your inner tenderness. It is there. It is this tenderness that must come forth. Tenderness is power. It is the power of the blade of grass that cracks through the hard stone of the earth, where it takes a chisel and hammer to cut. It is the power of the babe to turn a hard man’s heart to jelly. It is the power of a woman’s tears to bend authority. The power of a saint to turn back a frenzied mob.
This power is the power of your soul, the power that gives you life, and yet you hold it back and keep it a prisoner within. You are afraid of that power and you call it wrong because it doesn’t “fit into the world” and so you reject it. Do you realize that you reject God by doing that? God is the power in you. It is the power that moves the mountain, it is that power of innocence that is contained in the mustard seed. It is the power that cracked and leveled the walls of Jericho when the army beat the drums and walked around it.
This is the power you are looking for. It is the power of responsibility. Response-ability is the ability to respond to the power within. Meaning to open and receive it and allow it to come forth through your actions and words. You are responding to it and welcoming it with your own tenderness and respect. You begin to call it forth when you accept your responsibility for the power that was long ago given to you as an infant. Return to the child in you. Forget all the adult stuff. Go ahead and say what you have been wanting to say to your friend, to your spouse, to your neighbor or boss. Get it over with. Unplug the dammed-up power and let it flow. Just say it. It’s very simple. Just practice the words once or twice alone. Pick a time and then let it loose. Go ahead and plan that trip you’ve been wanting to take. It doesn’t have to be tomorrow but put the plan into action. Plan for it. Arrange your finances and your time, and pick a date and work toward that date. Get it over with. Stop holding back your power of life, your power of abundance to fill your wants and needs. The mother of power is action. Move! Act! Do what you have to do to start the ball rolling. Do what you have to do instead of prolonging it.
A good example is the child. A little child shall lead you, say the scriptures, and this is your model to follow. Follow the straightforwardness of the child. The mercy of the child. The love of the child. Follow his example. He doesn’t hold back. And then, temper this with the wisdom of your life experience for you have to live in this world of hard knocks and there is a right way and a wrong way to do things. You have the formula to burst the locked-up dam of power. It is quite contrary to the theory of sitting in meditation and praying for change. Change will not happen by wishing for it, or praying for it. It will change only as you begin to move. (Journaled 7/9/83)
8/31/22 - What really matters to you? Your Brain vs. Your Mind
The brain has knowledge imprinted in it that YOU put there. Your mind is YOU, not the brain. The brain is formed out of clay and dust. It’s an object of solid matter. Your mind is not solid but a river of awareness moving through your body, which is composed of matter. As YOU flow through your body, your brain doesn’t discern the flow. It is not enlightened. It is simply a vehicle, a tool of solid earth. It responds to you and registers what you are aware of. You are a river flowing through its banks on either side, for you are a moving river of awareness. YOU, the river, are the one who discerns. YOU are the awareness that quickens your body – or depresses it. YOU are the one who goes to sleep to the world at night and wakes up to the world in the morning. YOU are the mind who becomes aware of what matters the most to you. What matters the most to you is what imprints on your brain cells. Your brain cells register it and log it in, as important because you paid attention to it. Where do you put your attention? What matters to you? It is better if inspirational things matter to you, more than depressing things. Because sad, angry or violent stuff brings will imprint on your brain cells and give them back to you throughout your day and night in the form of dreams.
It is better to pay attention to inspirational and uplifting thoughts, movies, friends, and news about the world, than paying attention to depressing stuff. Or you can go through life dulled down to not caring, and simply follow the routines learned from childhood and never change unless something exceptional happens to you. If you are not inspired and live a lack-luster life, nothing much matters. But you can make positive changes in your life by watching and discerning what inspires you. What matters to you? What sparks your attention? What makes you sit up and take notice? If you sit up and take notice of gossip or dramas of other people, or of news of vicious, hateful acts that stun and shock you, and cause you to stop in your tracks to think about it, then surely your brain will register that. Do you want that to register on your brain? Probably not. That is why it is important to become aware that YOU are the river of intelligence flowing through the nerve synapses of your brain cells, imprinting your brain cells with what you are thinking and observing. The practice of meditation is a daily routine of taking minutes out of a day and becoming physically relaxed and still, and stopping the brain cells from running on automatic. That is when you become aware that you are a river of awareness. You are not your body. You are an immortal intelligence.
8/29/22 - More on Kundalini
People speak freely today of universal energy and the vast powers of the cosmos. I would venture to say here that kundalini must be a condensation of those forces, compressed and compacted to almost a solidification of those powers, as much as powers can be solidified, for they really do press and bend the physical body structure. And once that remarkable mental contact occurs, when the door swings inward upon this hibernating potency, one is not as prone to speak about it so lightly, as once he may have been.
The ecstasies of high inspirational moments, those comfortable stretchings of feeling and awareness which occur periodically in individuals, would appear to be a gently flowing kundalini. These experiences would seem to be, and I speak only as an observer of certain actions in myself, the kundalini still in embryo form moving about, much like a human embryo kicks and shifts within the womb. But when the kundalini decides to become born into the physical body and thus into the world, the body and mind which bore it are never the same again.
These powers are no longer impersonal but deeply personal, as the objective succumbs, beyond reason, to the subjective experiences now unleashed. Influences and coercions come to bear on that body which seem not to be physical, and yet seem not to be mental in origin. They seem to come from a deeper level. These are forces uncontrollable, welling upwards as from a vast sea of something intangible and unknown. It is heightening and frightening at the same time. Forces, lights, visions, strange ideas, weird contortions, perversions and heart-felt sympathies and sensitivities and much, much more, all happen at once, magnified out of all normal proportion with no control over them to shut them off. One feels somewhat like a computer with an overload, helpless but to experience it or pull the plug. Without the tender sympathies of close associates, and I am fortunate to have a sympathetic husband, one could easily go mad, unable to accept the contradictions now thrust into the consciousness.
What am I? Who is this grand and noble one who is coming through, smiling at my wonderment? What lies hidden beyond the periphery of my consciousness? Perhaps it is too vast to measure, but while I am taking myself so exceedingly for granted, I - my very self - am being infused with a larger mind, a broader perspective, a knowledge of future. And with all due respect to the prevailing fears surrounding the subject matter, and these are heavy considerations, I fear more for the prevailing ignorance of my race concerning it. (journaled 6/17/79)
8/26/22 - The block at the lower lumbar region - the sex chakra
While doing the internal organ exercise today I saw the root chakra at the base of the spine as the primary seed of divinity in the body - the mother seed from which the other six qualities blossomed. I saw this in simple form, not special, it was simply the first seed planted deep down in my body, underneath where no one sees. It is a seed out of which the other qualities grow like vines on a fence. They simply grow because they are supposed to grow up the spine to open the other six chakras. When the baby is first conceived, the cells grow one by one around this first seed of pure divinity. And then when born the baby naturally learns to touch himself or herself because it feels good. And that’s when it begins.
The mothers says, “Don’t touch down there!”, the private part. But she herself will touch him there, the male child, when he won’t stop crying. It is soothing to him, the old wives tales say as much. We all feel soothed when touched gently there. But the “don’t touch” rule insidiously begins to imprint its evil early on, because the parents were imprinted with it. This imprinting successfully keeps the good warm comforting feelings from rising up the spine to the second chakra, which becomes blocked now at this second level - blocked because the “don’t touch” rule is seen, felt and heard and insinuated everywhere as he/she grows up. And is enforced. By the time the child is engaging socially with other kids, a backing and building up of the good warm comforting feeling is taking place. It accumulates all in one spot because it is prevented from flowing naturally, no different than a river accumulates when a cement dam is built to hold back the waters, preventing the rest of the forest from being fed. So the human body is meant to flow with the vital force from the earth, but the upper body is not receiving and begins to suffer from lack of primal life, the vitality of the body. The body shows symptoms of urgency and distress when it is held back and demands release.
The sex impulse from holding back a natural flow of vital energy becomes a pressure around age 10, 11, 12, 13. By then the “do not touch” principle is solidly established. The child knows it is wrong to touch down there; it’s against the rules. Guilt and worry adds further tension. The chakras above the second chakra are not receiving the life force, which would allow that part of the body to receive the much needed benefits of life, and would bring a natural calmness and health to the nervous system. Instead, we have a growing preponderance of ADD. The proper flow of warmth, comfort, truth, goodness, virtues of every kind, are not reaching the rest of the body. The boy child is now enamored with the bliss he feels each time he touches and releases the life force, which is natural, yet troubled with the guilt that has been laid upon him. He is doubly cursed but he is programmed to believe this is the only way open to him. The boy is part of the partriarchy and receives further false instruction as he matures to manhood and discovers women and the sex act. He learns that women are waiting for him and will play the distortion game with him, for they have also been programmed the “do not touch” rule, which is universal.
The process of wrongly holding back the life force and not allowing it to flow freely, is the gremlin in the works. The life force accumulates at the second chakra and does not flow to the upper body. Sexual release feels good but it happens in one big explosion at the second level. It feels good at the time, bliss for a half hour or so, but it’s wasted because the fires of life, the vitality, doesn’t reach the upper levels of the body - floors three to seven and the important organs up there. The human mistakenly feels he/she has done the right thing, it feels wonderful releasing in one big explosion, but in fact onlyl the lower body benefits. The upper body’s organs and glands do not. The third chakra does not receive the benefits (stomach, digestive and other related organs), and neither does the fourth (heart, lungs and related organs), nor the fifth, sixth and seventh.
The seven chakras, all located in the etheric body, so far undiscovered by modern scientists, are centers of distribution for the life force that comes up from a living earth. It is designed to flow evenly up through the spine to the top of the head and beyond. But it’s all stopped at the second chakra because humanity has been led to believe the “do not touch” rule. Humanity for eons have been stopped dead in its evolutionary tracks because of sexual prohibition. It has been kept from having a prolonged and healthy life of peace, love, good will, happiness and creative abundance for everyone equally. Because the sexual force is the life force. Life is love and wherever life flows, there flows love. The flow of love has been stopped, because somewhere along the line humans were led to feel guilty about it.
Fortunately, this sad tale will soon to be over. The world is changing even now, if we open our eyes and minds and look beyond our noses and what’s right in front of us. The innocence and purity of physical love is a wide open field. It comes into view from a distance. It will be slow at first, but it will move closer in as we look for it. Along with other disclosures it will bring natural gifts to men and women everywhere. The freedom to love and the love of freedom opens the gates of truth, love and intelligent to flow in creative ways. They will resuscitate old distorted views. They will bring excitement and enthusiasm and joy. The life force is designed to flow both up and down the spine equally, through the ETHERIC spine, so the chakras receive and distribute spiritual life force and also planetary life force. Flowing together brings harmony to both spirit and the physical matter of the body. Then new inspiration flows every day through the physical organs which keep the body alive.
8/24/22 - Awakening the light trapped in the physical body
Upon waking and before I begin my practice, I am consciously connecting with the light sparks in my skin, bone, muscles and organs. I am speaking silently in my mind, like a chanting. It is automatic. I am calling to the light trapped in me, covered inside veils of unawakened earth material. I am calling to the light in my skin, muscles, organs and bones. They are my people, my sparklets of light divine and pure that were left behind in prior lives when my bodies died. I am clicking into something natural, an evolutionary force is drawing me to click into. I am calling to the light trapped unknowingly, lonely and cut off from their sisters and brothers, lost and afraid. The have been in service to the One who governs all life. These little light sparkles are pure love and they serve to the best they are capable of. They are once more feeling the pull of the darkness again. Oh! Now I understand. That's the sickish feeling I’ve been having, the end of life feeling I've been feeling over the last two years which the pandemic released to humanity.
The sparkles that give life to the living cells of solid bodies, feel the pain that has been unleased on them. The sickness has been spreading among the people, because THEY are the livingness of the body, the life of the body. They feel when life is threatened, when sickness is killing their master. The minds of the people do not know that they have light sparkles of pure divinity in them, in their muscles, cells, organs. I did not know myself 10 years ago, but I've been learning. I'm catching on. I am more aware of the light within me now. The substance of my body, or rather the light within the substance of my body, is trying to shake off the mist and grunge but it isn't strong enough because the master isn't awake yet. She doesn’t know. It is the darkness. I call it the sickness. The light in me is feeling the sickness. I didn't understand that it is the LIGHT that is feeling the sickness. The LIGHT in me is feeling the pull of the ancient darkness again. It has felt it before. The little sparks of pure divinity have been through this before in my previous bodies. I didn't know. Many ages have past with me being unawakened. Lost in the past ages.
But now the cells in MY body are hearing MY voice. I am the soul, the spirit, the father-mother to them, the voice now awake and calling to them to come home to ME. I am gathering them during my silent times, during my meditation times, my alone times. I read from the Masters and they are teaching me. Now I am aware and I am calling to the light with me. The little light sparks are so clean and true and real. I have left them behind in past ages. Now I am calling to them. I am not going to leave them behind this time. I am more awake than ever before. The ascension of the planet is underway and I am part of it. I am conjoined with the ascending energies. The LIFE of my body is these little electrons of purity. They sparkle. I can see the now. They support my human body as others support other human bodies. They have been serving souls for eons of time, trapped as they have been, in the cells of earth matter when they die. They hold the form of the human body together for the souls that live in them. The cells are alive because of the electrons that are pure divinity living inside of them. They are living, but they have been feeling the death pangs of their cells. The earth matter is called to return to the soil of earth, and the light is called to return Home to the One who lives in endless light and love. The eternal father-mother.
So. Now I understand. The earth material has to return to the planet when the body dies, and the light returns Home. There is a tearing apart, a separation. There is confusion. I was feeling the confusion called it "sickness". I wondered what it was. Now I know. DK has been teaching me in his books. Now I know. Now I am calling to the light in my cells and they are hearing me. They are awakening, quickening, coming to me. They are vitalizing me. i am being energized. I am sprinting in my steppings. I feel more alive than ever. My cells are activating and remembering and responding to my call. They are responding to my calling. They are “quickening”. Yes, quicken. Stand to alert. They see the light in my calling because I have it now. They hear it. They sense it. They know the sound of their master. It is familiar. It is comforting to hear my call. It is love. It is harmony. It is friendly. It is peaceful. It is the Oneness. I am representing the Oneness to the lost light particles trapped in my body. Because I now know how it works and how my body functions, I am calling to them, to the light. Not to the form body - the form is made of earth substance - but to the light I am calling. The light is what keeps the earth substance alive. The light divine - electrons, atoms, subatomic light particles - have been holding my body together in a solid form for all these years - and all the other bodies too, including prior to this one - for they are my children, from my mother light. They are part of my spirit and therefore my responsibility. Now I know. They are my elementals, my little angels, they are my own. They are part of me, one with me and they are rejoining me as I call to them, chant to them, send them joy and happiness. Yes. yes, yes, yes! I am sprinting now, physically sprinting around getting things done with powerful energy because the light in my physical cells are gathering together and empowering me, responding, coming alive, joining with me. The power of the universe is waking up inside my body cells. (End)
8/23/22 - A message from Higher Self
“Take your focus off the physical body. Focus on the power within – your ‘I am Presence’. This is the time for you to shift your attention to your ‘I am Presence’ which is the only power you have to sustain your body, mind and feelings. This is for YOU to cultivate your real power within you. Stop measuring your shell, your outer crust, and focus instead on the love and the light within you, which you have been doing over the many years I have been training you to do. As you have written – you are the shell, I am the power behind the shell that motivates and moves you. Believe it MORE! You are the shell, I am the love. You are my vehicle. I am the power that moves the vehicle. I am you and you are ME! We are One power! You have been dividing your attention between your inner and your outer, when there IS NO DIVISION! You are coming home to me now, connecting with me now. You are realizing this truth now. This is where you stop depending on the physical measuring devices and focus on ME! Remember as you go about your love-in-motion tasks, that I Am the one moving through you. WE are conjoined together. Remember ME! Connect with ME! I Am you. You are ME. We are together love in motion. Rely on me. Remember me. Depend on me, not your devices which measure only the outer crust. I am you. You are me. Now, you may do your rhythmic breathing exercise. I Am doing them through you, my beloved. You are my outer aspect on the ground. Remain solid on the ground trusting in ME! I am you on the ground and I Am you in the heart of perfection. You do not need names and labels. You need only to remember ME! The power of all that you are in this moment and in every moment is the power that lives in you and motivates you and inspires you. Remain connected to this power through your movements and motions. You are love in motion. You are all that ever lived, ever, for you are me. Please remember me. Activate me NOW!”
8/22/22 - The earth journey - the making of an immortal (part 5 of 5)
Part 4 yesterday, 8/21/22, below
This is the meaning of inner work. We have to do our own homework. There is no cheating. We have to study at home and take time to study. Plan time when you will do this. After school, in private, at home, without company or distraction of any kind. We have been looking for teachers to lead us from among the scattered remains of a lost civilization. We've been searching through rubble and we won't find it there. The ONLY authorized teacher to go to is your own Holy Christ Self (HCS). Don't be fooled by the religious connotation. He is you. He/She is your own higher self. You've been blinded. He/She is as pure as the driven snow. He/She is not found in the religions. He/She is the voice who has been trying to get your attention through your deepest longings and desires. She/He wants your attention. Your outer attention, but you keep looking to other sources. You keep looking to the millions of voices that clamor at you. They are coming in through your wide open solar plexus where you were fed by your mom's umbilical cord as a fetus. The solar plexus is the third chakra, the third dimension. It contributes food and nourishment from the outside world directly into your subconscious. This area needs to be closed and capped off CONSCIOUSLY, though focused homework. Close down the third chakra and turn it upside down and inside out to receive from higher planes. Imagine a large sphere of golden light surrounding your naval area while repeating "I Am That I Am" 20, 30, 40 times or more.
Nobody seems to know about this vulnerable area left over from birth. It's still open, seeking nourishment. You are connected to your Holy Christ Self by consciousness and always have been. It has been called that, but don't get hung up with religious words. It really means the pure you. The crystal perfect you. It has never gone away. It is a pattern of intelligence. The intelligence is laid out in the form of a network, like a spider's web, a gridwork. But it is only a pattern. It hasn't been filled in yet. It has to be filled in by YOU. You have to fill it in by living it. You have never been separated from your Holy Crystal Self. You are your own God self laid out in a pre-destined blueprint, ready for you to follow its guidelines and fill it in for real, in your embodied life. Your Holy Crystal Self is the light, the abstract life force in your cells and muscles and organs. The physical cells in your body could not live and breathe, function and reproduce without this fire within. This is YOUR fire.
When you were born you started receiving input from the outside world - the mass consciousness formed by all the others who are also hardwired into the outside world. We were all born into the same matrix of outside forces. It has been up to us to tune into our inner holy selves. Your Holy Crystal Self has been speaking all along, too, because you are connected to yourself. You can't be separated from yourself, even while you are exteriorly focused on the outside forces, or you wouldn't be alive. But you can be distracted and overwhelmed by the other voices. The forces in the world speak louder and carry hammers and nails and whack at you constantly. That's why you need to do inner homework and take time out to listen to inner voices and build up a momentum of understanding and faith, and drink the holy waters of higher idealistic feelings. And spend time practicing and following the inner guidance. They provide the techniques you are looking for when you are ready to listen. That is the homework. Nobody does inner homework until they DECIDE to do homework. When the time comes that they get so bored and so disgusted and so lost and feeling so low with the chase, then they are ready to hunker down and and spend some time on inner homework. That's when you will receive guidance, in the private hours of serious solitude. Not wishy-washy solitude listening to dreamy music, but SERIOUS study. That is the guidance I follow.
Happy New Year to you! The end of the old time is about to expire its last breath, and the new breath begins at midnight. Stop and clear your mind. Clear, clear, clear your mind. That's the first step. Empty your mind and look up. Look UP! Establish an opening and a link to the higher realms above you and let the light stream in through the crown of your head - the crown chakra. Then ask your Holy Crystal Self, your God Self, to give you advice. You can ask a question and you will receive an answer. The answer is the first clear words that come to your mind. They may be followed by doubt and confusion, but listen to the first clear words and build your faith in them.
12/30/22 - Spontaneous puffs of bliss are natural
Yoga teachers teach specific hand and body movements called "kriyas" or "mudras" as something to be learned and practiced. But EVERY body is capable of releasing little puffs of soft divine energy spontaneously. The body has a reservoir of divine energy held in the tail bone, located in the geometric center of the body. It can't be found by Earth scientists because it is on a higher dimensional level, but it is, well, divine. Earth scientists are focused on material matter so instruments can't register it yet. They will eventually. But human beings are part of one mind that is vast and eternal. We have a piece of that one eternal mind locked as an anchor into our bodies. It is known as the root chakra. We tap into that divine energy whenever we go into a day dream state, as one example of it.
It's not that mysterious. Notice whenever you go into a day dream state (if you CAN notice) take note of when you return to the "real" world and think back about it. It usually happens spontaneously, as spirit moves you. It is an entranced state. Yogis made it famous in the Eastern tradition but anyone can become "entranced" at any time. During such an "entranced" state there may be a stirring of the physical body if you notice. You might feel to move your hands spontaneous, or to take a certain position with your feet, or a stance, or to start dancing. Such spontaneous movements can't be forced or created by the mind. It is created by surrendering the mind, or emptying the mind. That's when the divine energy enters or "touches" into the physical body and CAN create spontaneous feelings of harmony and bliss.
If one becomes aware of this ever-so-gentle puff of divinity flowing, one can allow it to flow even MORE. It is a surrendering to the inner spontaneeity. It has been called kundalini energy, but it is best not to think about it. Don't think. Just let it flow. These spontaneous experiences bring you eventually into a more natural experience of yourself. They are moments of sacred connection with the divine within. It is natural. Not special but part of what a human being is. He has been created to access this natural state. If allowed, a most wonderful feeling emanates and produces the most exquisite state. It cannot be contrived. This state has been a part of my life for over 50 years. I thought I was the only one who felt it. Now I realize that others are experiencing it too, but may not realize the profoundness of it. And that it is natural. It hasn't been discussed in ordinary terms. I would like to speak of it. I suspect that other people have experienced it but perhaps they are not aware that it is natural? And that it is a natural aspect of the human being. It is the soul making contact, emerging during a moment of receptivity. I wrote the following in a 2013 journal to remember, as I have written so often in the past. Perhaps you have experienced something similar?
"While I was standing and slowly moving in the familiar dance, repeating "I Am That I Am", about 8 minutes or so later I stopped suddenly and my body sighed, expelling air, in a long slow release. My whole body just sighed and let go, letting go more and more and more. And then silence. The silence was palpable. It was swirling through me. The outer world retreated. My eyes were open but fixed on some invisible point because I was alert to the sensation of silence invading me everywhere. This silence was bliss. I was feeling bliss everywhere. I was caught up in the sensation, mostly in my middle, and then in my head, face, arms, fingers, mid-torso, hips, my back, my legs were slower in responding. I was in bliss everywhere. Now what I want to remind myself for the future is - this ability and capacity to enjoy physical sensations of bliss is at my finger tips. It is always there. And yet I don’t use it!
Why don’t I use it? It is remarkable! It is exquisite. It is what I used to do every day when kundalini was active. I don’t know why I stopped it. It only took half an hour today to get into a state of bliss that I would call ecstasy, maybe samadhi (not sure of that word). And I did not want to leave. I asked questions of 'why' while in the midst of this silent bliss and the answer was: "You are an animal body born of animal bodies with chaotic animal particles in your body. You cannot bring your immense self into an animal body without first moving out the chaotic animal stuff. As you bring in your divine self you move OUT the dead animal particles that are not the real you, and YOU move in! You are vast and eternal."
I saw the earth and the small little animal earth bodies running around doing their small little animal things, and realized how true it was that we cannot fit our immensity into those little bodies. We MUST make room for our immensity. We must release the pettiness and surrender, expand our bodies to allow in the immensity. This is not easy to put into words, but it is just a reminder.
12/29/22 - About hiding and suppressing feelings
Everyone talks about God, religion talks about God, the books I am reading talk about God (and Goddess), everyone on the spiritual path talks about God, but it turns everyone off because no one knows who God is. I am having insights which are showing me that the SELF is God. It is really all about the inner self. The divine immortal self who doesn't die. It is the real self within that is God/Goddess. The power of immortality, infinity, unbounded knowledge, intelligence which is everywhere present. The inner self has been covered over by muck for lifetime after lifetime and we've lost track of who we really are.
As I re-read 30-year-old journals (in my own hand) of a time when kundalini was fresh and innocent and powerfully flowing every day and every day, as I re-read them I am reunited with something. Something I missed. It is reminding me and it is moving me. I don't think I could take the next step without it. So this is carrying me into a new place, a new awareness, the next mission or role that I am to take. But first I have to go back and re-member what it is that I have forgotten. As I am posting these old journals on my website, as I run across the meaningful ones, I ran across one that caused me to stop and say, "Uh oh!"
This journal included some picturesque details about a swing party. It was a wonderful party. I remember it well but I had a sudden shudder, a fear? A sense of guilt? Of shame? Of "I must hide this!" Do I want to post this one? Or should I pass on it? I do not want to edit these journals. I either post them as is or I don't post them at all. So I asked my mentor, my wonderful guide who lives beyond physical sight (who is available whenever I have a serious question. I don't bother him otherwise.) And he answered me with a question of his own: "What do YOU feel about it?" He directed me back to my feelings. What do I feel? What do I really, really feel? Very appropriate, for there was something there that I needed to address. It was heavy. It has been a heavy for many, many years.
I said, This particular journal includes some great insight and I would like to post it but it also has quite a lot of detail about the party the night before. What do I feel? I feel fear surrounding this lifestyle. This fear runs deep and includes shame and guilt and involves cultural taboos and family beliefs and thoughts of sin and the whole nine yards, if you will. I have hidden this lifestyle from those who didn't need to know, but every time I consciously hide it from someone who doesn't need to know, there is a crust that forms over that thought. It gets buried. The whole concept of sex, even between a married woman and husband, is filled with hot flashes of bad stuff, never mind the activities of sex with multiple others. And yet I have experienced it as loving.
I have been 30 to 40 years studying love, including physical love, emotional love, spiritual love, mental love. It has all been there within the practice of swinging. And yet there has always been an underlying energy of hiding, keeping it secret, don't tell. There has been an underlying repression about everything to do with sex. It's OK to talk about spiritual love, but not about physical love. These feelings came up for me. Am I ready to expose my participation in this? I feel I am at a crossing point. [This journal is a repost from 2016.] There is a crossing over where two paths intersect and it's an opportunity for a decision. A choice. Each path has an entirely different energy and momentum going for it which carries it strongly forward undiluted.
My movements and experiences over the last 30-40 years have been soaked and immersed in love. I have expanded in my capacity to not only love, but to discern, understand and master my abilities to love. Swing parties are about love too, because people are enlarged by their experiences, in one way or another. You can't help but learn from such close contact. So my feelings of keeping them hidden, versus talking openly about them, presents me with an opportunity to come out of the closet. Do I dare to post this journal? What is holding me back? This is an old energy. It is actually obsolete today. So it's just my own feelings that I have to deal with. It is no longer appropriate for me to have these feelings of shame, guilt, fear of repercussions and whatever else is attached to them, any more. The love, beauty, grace and dignity that I have experienced is part of the new human who is poised and ready to own all of who he/she is.
We are human and we are beautiful. We are graceful, we are honorable, we are caring, we are loving, and we share our love openly. It comes in all forms, shapes, ages, sizes, you name it - as long as it is love. There are all kinds of love. Physical, emotional, mental, spiritual. And love is not love if it is not shared. "Love isn't something that was put here to stay, Love isn't love 'til it's given away." I love that saying. Love is shared. Love is shared closely. Intimately, whether it be mental or emotional or spiritual or physical. There is no division in love, but there is choice. Free will choice. So I feel I am on the cusp, on the brink, on the edge, on the very cutting edge of coming out of the closet. Two paths crossing each other, each with a momentum of their own. It's actually not that difficult. It's an easy choice. Nothing hard about it. I just had to put the two paths together so they can be consciously joined. I am doing this by writing about it.
Evolution is a conscious choice and so I choose to unite these two paths. Human love is expressed on different levels. It does not have to be expressed physically but it can be. It should never be forced or pressured, but rather enjoyed. There are those who choose to dabble at the sexual level, others choose not to. There is no judgment. Only choice. Love is not just etheric, not just spiritual, not just a fantasy of the mind. It is also about feeling. Feelings have been put down. Fear, shame and guilt are feelings. Feelings have been repressed. Repressed feelings become negative with crusts and scabs forming over them. That's when they turn negative. Why hide feelings and let them become negative? That doesn't mean we tell everybody indiscriminately, but not to hide it because we hide it from OURSELVES. That's the danger - hiding it from ourselves. Then we forget we have put it there and it grows a crust over it, a fungus, a disease.
So, no, I must become aware when I am consciously hiding a feeling. Feelings are for expressing and letting flow out of us, for that is God/Goddess expressing. We are Gods/Goddesses trying to express the purity and innocence that we are, truthfully, within, uncolored, untainted by feelings of "sin". We do this with grace, wisdom, intelligence, and with love. I want to share this beautiful party. It was a fantastic party, warm and loving and most of all it was a whole bunch of diverse people sharing and coming together and learning about each other and from each other. They shared intimacy, intimately. They didn't share "just sex". They learned about their own inner selves and they evolved from it. So, I am going to do it. Yes. I am going to post the party on the Kundalini Journals page. Thank you, DK.
[So sorry! I've searched and searched but I can't find the party referred to here. It sounds lovely, I'll keep looking. This was journaled on 9/21/16]
12/28/22 - Learning to use masculine qualities
In order to “see” the divine feminine, I have had to use my masculine qualities. I had to step away from the “flow” or sacred space where I normally dwell, lost in the feminine fulfillment feeling which is everywhere and nowhere since it is all-inclusive, all loving, all connected, and where I’m blissfully unaware of anything else. It is peaceful at all times. That’s the space I was in until I became aware that I had to step away from that space and outside of it. I had to become objective. Being masculine is being objective - something I was not. I had to start projecting myself outside my comfort zone and start narrowing my focus into a laser-like ray of focus.
Looking back at my urge to explore the divine feminine, which was the first sign of what was to follow, I see I had to carve out time and space to study it, observe it, write about it. I started doing a vigil for the divine feminine. I tried to gather women to join me but it didn’t work out. No one was interested, perhaps I didn't explain myself very well. So I did it myself.
When I do the vigil for the divine feminine I have a notebook and pen with me so I can write down my observations. I started studying the divine feminine from outside my normal “lost in spaciousness” default program. I am jotting down my observations. This is a masculine tendency, to observe and write. I have been extremely feminine, loving everyone alike, but I did become lost because of it. In my earlier life I became overwhelmed and taken over by other people who gave me direction because I was a "go-with-the flow" type of person. I abandoned my own masculine side. I am VERY aware of this today. I can see what I did wrong, or perhaps not wrong, maybe I did it on purpose. Maybe that was my plan all along, to become lost in the feminine in order to find my way back out of the maze. I don’t know. So now recently I have had the urge to seek the divine feminine in order to once and for all put it to rest, to understand it and balance it. I didn't know it would lead me into my masculine side. I just wanted to understand where I went wrong so I never did THAT again. So I had to withdraw from my feminine default in order to start this study, this program, and the withdrawing was a masculine act.
Writing in journals is also a masculine act, but I started out from a purely divine flow, the divine feminine flow, after I went into the Light and lost my personal identity to something greater than me. I had difficulty coming back to a personal life again after that, but when I started journaling I had to pick and choose words, the right words, the words that best fit the subjective feeling of this divine space that I was experiencing. The experience of being within the inner realms of divinity are elusive to words. Yet that is where I seemed to be most of the time during the next 5, 6, 7 years as I slowly returned to a personal life again. The divine light was my default program. I was in great peace and acceptance of all life there. Then I slowly became human again.
From the divine feminine light, I began to see men were different from me. As I became more "human" again, for lack of a better way to say it, I had differences with men. Whenever I tried to discuss my views and opinions with a man, most often he didn’t want to listen. This became an issue in lovemaking, which I was freely engaged in during my transition from light to human through swinging with other couples. Over time I decided that women would be the better ones suited to listen to me and soundboard with so I decided to gather women together without men for discussions about everything.
Strangely enough, as a result of focusing on the divine feminine with women only, I learned about the masculine and how the masculine thinks and performs. I reached the zenith point of the divine feminine one day where I couldn‘t go any further. There was nothing more for me to learn there. Then I started exploring the masculine qualities. How strange to learn that the same divinity resides in men as in women. The male view is simply narrowed down to a focus point and projected forward, whereas the feminine - the divine feminine - remains at peace in the center of love, accepting of all life everywhere. While the consciousness of every human being is flowing out of the peaceful and divine heart of the creator (the Light) the masculine directs his consciousness to focus and narrow down to thought, analysis and concentration, while the feminine (at least for me) floats in the here and now. (Journaled 2/14/20)
12/27/22 - How to build energy into the physical body
Our internet connection keeps going out so Doug and I are not able to access the internet all the time. So I will make this quick. I’ll try to capture this concept which I am going through as best I can put words to it. I didn’t do the back exercises this morning, like a test to see if I’ll notice. There is a combination of two different exercises that I am being led to do. One is the affirmations. These take about 40 minutes more or less, and I’m saying them once a day OUTLOUD. I do some silent ones too but these are spotty. It is the OUTLOUD affirmations that are most important to move the energies in my air space surrounding me. Every day I must rebuild the electrons in the air around me. They are strengthening my plan and my intentions. My four lower bodies, I've discovered, are the etheric meridians that are the infrastructure to my physical body. They support and feed my heart, lungs, stomach, brain, physical nervous system, etc., etc., etc. Everything physical relies on my etheric connections. Most people are not aware of how important the meridian system is. The accupuncturists know and use it all the time.
My four lower bodies feed into my etheric body. This takes the form of meridians that run through my physical body. My mental realm with mind thoughts, and my emotional realm with my emotional feelings, all gather into my etheric real which feeds into my nervous system, blood system, etc. The four lower bodies that the masters are always talking about are: physical body, etheric body, mental body and emotional body. The physical body comes in two parts: (1) the solid concrete shell which dies at the end of life and returns to dust, and (2) the etheric meridians which run through the concrete shell and NEVER DIES. The etheric meridians are the light body. They have to connect with the physical nerves in order to feed life to the physical body. The etheric meridians maintain health and a sense of aliveness for the body. The life force comes from the etheric body. The physical shell, aka "the body", cannot live without this life force. That's why the body dies when the etheric body isn't strong enough to keep feeding life force into it. The etheric body is basically the soul. What we call the soul. You can call it anything you want to. Just understand how the forces work.
I mentioned two different exercises I am doing over the last week or two. One is the affirmations. These are the most important to me because I'm strengthening my intentions, my game plan by "telling" it to the air molecules that surround me. The second exercise is a lower back strength training because my back is really bad. I've noticed improvement. The improvement is coming in the form of a new kind of strength. It is not what I call "normal" strength. I'm not feeling like I'm 30 years old again, lol! But this is even better. The new strength that I'm aware of, that is coming to me is - hard to put into words - like a power that I might call "steel". It's a strong power that I've never felt before. Strong like nothing can hold me back. Even pain can't hold me back. Although the pain is weaker than it was before I started. This power that I am feeling is slowly building or feeding into my consciousness. I'm aware of something new happening. It's coming in small doses, so it's not like I'm superwoman or anything like that. But it's just a small taste of a new kind of power. I'm trying to put words to a feeling of strength. These lower back exercises are quite simple. I found them on the internet. But they seem to be exactly right for my particular ailment. This seems to be partnering up with my affirmations.
The affirmations are the most important though, and I highly recommend everyone take up the process of writing and experimenting with daily affirmations. You have to create your own affirmations and stick to the same words. The simpler the better. Not too complicated. They are words that "feel right" if they come from your higher self. The higher self is connected to an even higher self, and that to an even higher self, and on and on. It is the power of God, Source. All That Is, descending down, down, down the descension road to meet up with the hard concrete shell of the physical body. Then, on the other end, on the physical level, it is important to do some physical exercises, but gentle. I am being shown gentle is better. Be kind, be loving, be aware, be more in listening and attentive mode. Not like in the gym! This is the second part of the merging of spirit with matter. Use some exercises for your type of ailment, that directly affects what you feel needs correting or strengthening.
The physical exercises are the physical human counterpart to the spiritual self. Spirit and matter have to meet and co-exist together. They are a merge. I am feeling the merge. The etheric body feeds the physical but the physical has to contribute its part too. Exercising the physical alone doesn’t do it. We must strengthen the etheric body at the same time. The etheric body is where the life forces gather before entering the physical. Most people are not aware of the etheric body or the life forces. Women are more aware than men. Men, generally speaking, are too focused on physical and not enough on their feeling centers. The etheric body requires a feeling to access it. It is on a higher dimensional level and it overlaps the physical unless the person refuses to allow it to overlap and cuts it off.
The life forces gather from sources beyond physical and accumulate there like a reservoir of life forces. There are many, too many to name. The Master Djwhal Khul (DK) writes about them. I've been reading about them. So the etheric body gathers forces and pools those forces in and around the physical body in an atmosphere of higher dimension. If the person doesn't know how to utilize those forces, how to feed into them and pull them in to the body physical, they are shut off and shut down. They can't be accessed. It is your CONSCIOUSNESS that does the work of merging the physical and the non-physical. If you're not aware and you go about your normal, daily routine without being aware of this power that is forming and building up in the atmosphere around your body, then your body won't get that power. The good power, that is. You'll get some of the negative power but not the GOOD power. YOU as the residing soul has to be the one to determine which energy you want to feed into your physical body and life. This requires the affirmations on a daily basis. This is how you can feed that good strong power into your physical body. DK reminds me, "Do you understand?"
The idea of doing physical exercise while at the same time being aware of the forces of your etheric body is how you merge your etheric forces with your physical body. The etheric meridians are pure, unadulturated lines of light, pure light. It's been called the christ light or crystal light, but leave religion out of it. Pure divine light is what meridians are made of. If you can get this concept registered on your brain, you will be taking steps in merging your spiritual power with your physical body. The nadis of the pure light body have to connect with and plug into the physical nerves. You don't have to have the engineering specs laid out in front of you to do that. It's not a brain maneuver. It's a trust maneuver. One of understanding. All you have to do is believe in the process. Have faith in the process. Have faith that your soul knows what to do and how to do it. This teaching is missing from our school system.
12/24/22 - Conversing with my higher self
Several days ago I had a conversation with my higher self because I was in so much pain. I had been doing various inner techniques expanding my consicousness but too much to explain here. But I began with pen and paper to make a definite link with my higher self. I wrote, "About the pain in my hips.....) Immediately the words started to flow.
It’s the old energy queuing up, coming on line. You are doing well.
(Q: You’ve validated that you are me and you are my I AM Presence, and you are my Mother Kundalini, and you are my Father God. Are you also my Higher Self?)
"I am all that you are. I am you and you are me. I know who you are. You do not know yet who I AM. You are gaining access to your whole self. You will merge with me, your wholeness, as you follow my signs and signals that I give to you on a subjective level, an inner feeling level. I am coming forward into your range of perception, and into your personal identity. You are me and I am you. You have been veiled and now you are expressing more of me – your wholeness, your higher self. I know your language and your words. I can speak with you, my friend, as if you and I are two separate persons walking on Earth. Except that I am materializing or coming into range around you as a larger “figure”, so to speak. I am your “etheric” self. Your friend, and master guide, Djwhal Khul, has been leading you very well. He has brought me into visual range for you to “see” me, which means you are now able to know that I AM real. You are I AM. You are me, and I AM you. You have been separated since you came into and adjusted to this Earth vibration. You had to adapt to Earth’s frequency, a low frequency in order to live here. It is what holds you here so you can function and interact with others. (Q: When I experience distortion or dizziness in my head/brain/consciousness, what should I do to correct it?) Affirmations. Out loud. Use words, sounds, tones. They will correct or re-align the out-of-tune vibrations. You as the outer aspect of ME, are the one on the Earth plane, at the lowest point. So it is your job as the connecting link to make the necessary command. Affirmations spoken out loud moves the energy in your body and outside your body."
(At this point I stopped to do back exercises, which have shown signs of improving my strength, and then continued to talk (write) with my higher self. Q: I realized during exercises that by being aware of the space beyond the skin, beyond where my body stops, the air immediately around me, like imagining a glow around me, all the parts, whichever part I’m focusing on like the hamstring stretch, as I focus on the whole “glow” around the leg – this opens my mind to larger territory, to a larger space. My awareness takes on a larger space. This is how I’m connecting with you, my higher aspect of myself, my higher more intelligent self, isn’t it?)
"Yes, you and I are merging. From my vantage point I do not see the separation. I AM you! But you have shut me down, shut me off. So now that you are accepting of me, trusting that I Am here, that there is more to you than the physical body, I AM - which means YOU are - experiencing more harmony and a rush of bliss. This is you allowing more of you to enter into your earthly vehicle. Your vehicle – our vehicle – is composed of very sluggish, low vibrating atoms and electrons. As you expand your awareness, your focus, you are opening doors to the networks invisible to you called the meridians of your web-like body of light - the filigree of etheric light which carries purity into your physical sluggish system that has been depleted from being closed off and separated from source, the fountain of life." (End transmission)
12/20/22 - Matrix man, spiritual woman
While men want love and soul connection and the underlying sweetness and purity which they receive from women, when it is offered they “tweak it” or “twist it”. They change it, due to the way the male body is programmed. The male program is a much deeper infrastructure than we realize. I only saw this in a meditation after holding a goddess gathering several years ago. While in the silence I was shown that men are programmed with an ancient program that holds their belief locked down solid into the physical plane. Deeply rooted into the physical. Everything mental is held to the physical plane. If it doesn’t fit into the five senses, it is not real to a man. So everything has to fit into the physical patterning or it will be rejected. Beliefs, thoughts, perceptions, understandings, sight, hearing, smelling, tasting, touching. This is the matrix. It is solidly fixed and firmly cemented into the physical realm. So when love comes to them in the form of sweet love, they twist it to fit their physical belief.
As I was shown this, I understood. It may not be right or good from the woman's perspective, it corrupts everything that a woman holds dear, such as love, such as honor, respect, adoration, reverence, refinement, appreciation, gratitude. But if these concepts don't fit into the man's deeply rooted logic and physicality, it is not respected. It just doesn't fit. Matrix man, spiritual woman. How do we fix this?
12/19/22 - Pure liquid light runs through female bodies
A vein of pure liquid light runs through female bodies. The female body holds the codes of divinity within the space between the spinning atoms and electrons, to balance the male who must focus intently to the outer world in his strong, competitive role. It is easy to understand why men chase after women and want to have a woman all for himself. To date her - or rape her as the darker side of man would do - because she is a treasure trove of delicious yummy warm fuzzy feminine energy that he doesn’t have access to, himself, though he should and could if he had proper training. Woman is precious but has not been treated so. Even women don’t know how beautiful she is and how much celestial light and love power she holds within her body. Not in her mind, but in her body.
Most women have not had the time or inclination to pursue the inner life to get in touch with her own inner light and love, her own sensations, and what ecstatic feelings are available to her. She has not had the time. Nor has she had the mentors. Our mothers did not know either, suppressed as they were. Even the basic sensation of an arousal feeling has been denied many women just because they were rushed into the sex act or forcefully trained to serve the man’s before being prepared and ripened into the juiciness and natural lushness of the lovemaking act. Life is demanding, and women adapt to demands. They serve in many roles. They were raised in a culture that said “keep busy, keep working, keep serving. It’s selfish to think of yourself.” They were second-class citizens, or perhaps third.
But the age is turning. Women’s circles are gathering to mentor each other. We are being guided slowly into practices that in ancient times girls were taught as part of their schooling. How to treat their own bodies with sacredness. It is not religious training. Not the male-worshipping religion devoted to an impossibly out-of-reach God high in the sky, but to the inner God, the feminine God that lives within in the cells and tissues of her body. Love that is whole, warm, luscious and comforting, and does not need a man.
It is the end of a dark age and the dawning of a new. We have entered the age of Aquarius, which is a long, drawn-out period. Everyone remembers that wonderful song by the 5th Dimension, “When the moon is in the Seventh House and Jupiter aligns with Mars, then peace will guide the planets and love will steer the stars.” It goes on to promise “Harmony and understanding, sympathy and trust abounding, no more falsehoods or derisions, golden living dreams of visions, mystic crystal revelation, and the mind's true liberation.” It’s the dawning of the Age of Aquarius and we are seeing the glimmers. I am seeing the glow. The onus is on women to wake up right where they are and realize there is shimmering gold within them. It is divine love-light and it is conscious. Women hold the key to the new age. They can’t miss now. They are activating the threads of liquid light within them that connects them directly to the sun and the sun behind the sun.
Putting hands on each other in mutual massage exchanges, which is my mission, may bring up sexual thoughts and sensations because of centuries of male imprinting. And, as women we want to be fully conscious that this may happen and we don’t want to block it or deny it, but rather to lift it up. By allowing those thoughts and honoring them by loving them, deeply buried fear, guilt and shame energy can surface and be dissolved. Instead of focusing on men, sex and substituting women for men, lifting to higher planes is how the sacred healing and restoring of the womb takes place. Women need to own the warm sensations that accompany the healing of the yoni, the second chakra, and keep it for themselves instead of reaching out to give it away. The tendency is to share it with someone, to give it to someone else, which is in effect, giving it away, repelling it away, this inner love that is meant for her body and her alone. This does not mean she can’t indulge in lovemaking later with someone, but as a healing procedure, she is to keep the love for herself and allow it to grow and expand inside her body, and especially her womb as she is being massaged.
She can quadruple what she gives to a man by owning the love within herself and amplifying it within herself first, which has not yet been done. It is easier to work with women in this new way because women are not programmed to give love away to a sister/woman in the same way she is programmed to give love to a man. As women gather together to discuss and learn new closeness techniques, we serve as mirrors to each other. We mirror feminine back to feminine. We see love and feel love within our OWN body. mind and soul. Go into the womb. There is silence in the womb. There is peace in the womb. There is love, nurturance, warmth, vital wholeness. Don’t bring thought in here. Don't bring desire in here. Don't bring expectation in here.
This is the most sacred of all sacred locations on Earth. The male has “poked” into this sacred space and defiled it. Let us enter, sit in silence inside this holy temple. There are no walls. It is a very large space. There is a candle here, a light which is fathomless. It represents divinity. It grows larger as we allow ourselves to settle in and grow quiet. There is a drum beat. It grows to become a constant. It is like a heart beat, stabilizing us and anchoring us. The feelings start to rise like vapors. Like smoke. They are not dense feelings that contract and squeeze. This is evaporation, a movement upward to home, to more refinement. The yoni/vagina is the outer court. The entrance to the temple. The womb/uterus is the holy sanctuary within. Several doors need to open yet. Visualize a very pure lingam/penis entering the yoni, the outer court. It is entering with sacredness, fully conscious, feeling the sacredness of this holy place. It is your own male self. Proud, strong, protective, caring. That part of you which was missing. It is coming to join you, His holiness. This lingam/penis is no foreigner, no stranger, but familiar. He has been missing for a long time.
A haunting memory of sweet peace fills you as your other half slowly fills your inner sanctum. The holy matrimony, the sacred marriage, is about to take place. It is rising, rising, rising, slowing, slowing, slowing to come to a full stop. Hail to the light in the pelvis, hail to the light in the mind, hail to the light in the cells inbetween throughout this body of mine.
12/18/22 - Update on the divine feminine movement
I've been deeply involved in inner explorations, namely for myself alone, shutting off the rest of the world and plunging deep into the depths of the past, reading through numerous journals, channelings, revelations, remembering the bad times and the good times, and the wisdoms gained from the journey. Very few people contact me any more. Only occasionally. There is a process going on that requires my full attention. It is subjective and amazing information is taking place. On outer concrete levels I'm engaged in a self-imposed exercise program, a rehab program, due to injuries sustained from overworking my back muscles. In between the inner and outer exercises, there is a connection, an overlapping, an interesting joining together. It takes all of my attention. Something big is coming, but it won't be that big when it arrives because I'm adapting as I go. I'm absorbing the bigness day in, day out, and weaving it together, inner and outer is being merged. By the time it arrives most of the impact will have been leveled into peace. Certainly there are major changes going on in the outer world of politics, international, financial, cultural, social, business, etc., but I'm not paying any attention to it. Doug is, but he is cool about it and we are at peace in our little place in the country, merging on levels that are part of the big thing that is happening. Meanwhile I'm all caught up in this, my own personal transformation. It has to do with the female empowerment, an ancient process a long time in coming. In other words, allowing in the beautiful, soft, nurturing, divine feminine to come out of the closet and express herself. This is what will change the world, and save it from destruction.
Today’s female empowerment movement is divinely directed. It is not a human ego movement. It is under the auspices of a vaster intelligence than humans who think they are in charge. Without understanding the spiritual anatomy intellectually and logically, women are regaining confidence. It's a quiet process. Very internal. They are gathering together to validate and confirm their gentle femininity. I sense this on inner levels, subjectively. It is not intellectual or brainy. She is owning the CELLS in her body, feeling the CELLS come alive. She is reclaiming the flow and her rightful share of the energy coming up from Mother Earth to meet the sky spirit coming down into her inner body cells. She is feeling her emotions again. She doesn’t have to give up her intellectual pursuits, but too much intellectual pursuits steals the body’s natural bliss, which is harmony, balance, peace and spiritual nourishment, and turns it into head trips.
When the head takes over without the body, it becomes ego. It thinks it knows it all. I have had to get out of my own way. Out of my own head. The BODY is the location where higher self and earthy self connects and plays out and fulfills the game of life. It is done for the sheer enjoyment of spirit, father/mother God and human soul, in a beautiful garden of Eden. It’s in the body, not the brain that this happens. It‘s in the body that is the Garden of Eden - the paradise that man was kicked out of and was not allowed to return because he was engaging in head-trips, judging, condemning, blaming, criticising, fearing, and feeling shame, guilt and victimhood as a result. By creating an intellect too big and too powerful for the body’s naturalness, mankind created the chaos of today. That is why the goddess, the sweet and beautiful divine feminine went underground. The natural divinity went into hiding. She hides behind a shield. She is still in hiding but there are signs it is starting to awaken. Mostly in the women but men have the divine feminine in them too. They will lag behind for aw hile. I am geared into the divine feminine wisdom and it shows in my private writings from over the last 50 years. I am starting to post more of these writings now. My confidence is building. I send love and a warm feminine hug to everyone who reads this. Feel free to contact me privately via the Contact page.
12/16/22 - Your body cells carry ancient wisdom
In the dream we were gathering for an advisory committee meeting and I asked everyone to form a circle. I asked them first to hold hands and then to move closer together in the center, still holding hands, as if to form a hugging circle as best they could considering their numbers, because I wanted their bodies to merge and connect. I did not want their mental energies, I wanted their body energies. I was still talking to them as I awoke so I could remember my words: Your minds are the filters, filtering out what society says is not appropriate. Your minds censor what your bodies are feeling. Your minds are opinionated and restricted, but your bodies are full of a vaster, far superior intelligence. Your body cells know precisely what to do and they are fed with a magnificent energy, a powerful knowledgeable healing energy that is a oneness energy. But your minds filter out this energy because society says it is not acceptable. Since it is the mind’s job to interface with society and make sure everything is done according to society and not upset the apple cart, your minds are continually censoring, rejecting, resisting these powerful knowings that are inherent in the body. But what I want from you is your body intelligence, your gut intelligence, your intuitive reasoning, the talent that you have built over a lifetime and many lifetimes of experience.
Your body cells carry this ancient wisdom in them. You each have a unique history and superb talents to give to the world. Beautiful extraordinary knowledge, long histories of successes and failures and volumes have been written into your body cells. You know SO much, but you are continually filtering out this knowledge. But THAT is what I want from you - all that you are. Everything that is in you. I want you to express and I want you to pass this on to those coming behind you. Each human being is so full of energy and talents and this energy and talent is so wasted in a structured society when it is held back. But THAT is what I want from you on this advisory committee and I think partying after a committee meeting is very appropriate, to share our body intuitions. They are genuine. They are not masked. Only the mind masks those feelings. I don’t want just your regular corporate mask with your censored beliefs and opinions. I want what you REALLY know inside. And as I was talking I felt this to the bone. I felt this through and through to the depths and beyond. I was totally drenched and immersed in the knowledge that THIS is where we are headed. THIS is the body wisdom that I am seeking in the people. THIS is what is going to change the world.
12/13/22 - The feminine spirit vs. masculine spirit
Last night I was tutored in what it means to be in feminine spirit vs. masculine spirit. I woke in the night to see once again 444 on the digital clock, and I was fully aware of this information. It was still playing through my consciousness as I got up to go to the bathroom. What I was seeing, and I have been thinking about all day is this. In a nutshell, the feeling world of the feminine side of life is a world of the formless. Electrons move about quietly, randomly, as if in a sea of liquid, aimless except under the influence of a defining thought. The mental world of the masculine side of life is a world of form. Electrons move in the shape of a defining thought, a plan, an agenda, a direction, an idea. All electrons are joining forces with others to move in that direction. Thought is what activates the electrons. This was so very clear to me.
Following up on that, in a later segment of the tutorial, I was shown that men are so busy planning, controlling and thinking of what they will be doing in the next moment, that they do not know how to access their feminine. They ARE half feminine, they have a feminine nature too, but they have been programmed to be mostly in the planning and thinking stage, using their minds to be ever active. They think of the quiet ones as being weak or effeminate, the cause of ridicule or dismissal. They do not consider the quiet ones to be important. And yet they hunger for the feminine! This is evident in their seeking after sexual union with someone they can plunge into. As my friend says, “Men all want to climb back into the womb!” They need, want and long for feminine energy and do not know how to get it.
The bridge to higher consciousness is the heart. The bridge to lower consciousness is the heart. The heart is the connecting link. Feelings are non-defined electrons moving randomly in the feeling world, simply feeling. The feeling world is a world of liquidity, formless, aimless except under the influence of a defining thought - waiting for direction. Feminine. I was reminded of King Arthur’s sword. An ancient one had thrust a mighty sword into the heart of a big rock and there it remained stuck and immovable for ages. No one could budge it. This mighty sword represented the sword of truth and it awaited someone to come along who would recognize its value. It was plunged into the rock by a higher being. The rock represented the material, immovable, concretized mind of mankind. The sword of higher consciousness was implanted into the hard rock of human kind to wait for someone to come along - a brighter-than-average soul - to recognize its value and thus have the inner power to activate the energy of the sword. King Arthur was a more evolved soul and was able to remove the sword from the rock. Without his consciously knowing, his energy matched the energy of the sword, the higher power of nobility, truth, daring, courage, honesty, humility, love. honor, and more, over other humans who had not yet evolved to such grace.
12/11/22 - A personal update
Here I am to let everyone know, who checks this website, that I'm still here. This is Diana speaking. I have not fallen through the cracks into the invisible spaces. A new drainfield was put in behind our house in the pasturelands of North Naples, We live on acreage and the house is 75 years old. Everything has gotten old and worn out and we are not spring chickens. The workers and their earth-moving machines left a pile of dirt when done. According to county regulations we need to plant sod on the slopes of the mound so it won't crumble away. We chose to plant grass seed instead.
Growing up on the farm I have a farming instinct, so I began raking and planting grass seed on my knees, despite Doug's warning not to. Nine days later, I had to admit I couldn't go any further. My body rebelled and the pain has grown increasingly worse. A visit to the chiropractor, and a visit to Marcus in Naples (see Massage for his info, he has the touch) have contributed mightily to helping, but my own awakening consciousness has taken me to new levels. I can't describe in words, so I'll leave it at that. From the depths of pain the light shone through with greater clarity, and light is information. I have some new information.
There is much emerging from the depths of my lesson in pain, one of which is the blossoming and furthering of the idea of sharing human love through the close touch with others. Unconditionally snuggling, cuddling, hugging, and sharing soul talk, heart-to-heart talk, but not romantic talk. Not sexual. Simply sharing one's inner light with the inner light of another human being in an upward focus of higher, finer, freer, happier, and more elevating feelings, thoughts and ideas. It is profound. I have been doing a little of it with a few friends. It's not sexual because sexual love is personal and self-focused. Selfish. It goes draws bodies to focus downward into lower density. Upward focused love is hugely invigorating and healing. It is the opposite type of love. It is a revolutionary concept that has been germinating for a long time.
12/6/22 - Another word for energy is emotion
Another word for energy is emotion. It is a better word because it is more understandable and practical. We can connect better with the word “emotion” than “energy”. An energy field is an emotional field. When someone steps inside your personal space you can FEEL it. It changes your consciousness. Consciousness is also an emotion. It is an extremely high emotion. There is an endless spectrum of feelings which may be registered by the mind and body. It is a process of evolution to raise the capacity to detect feelings on the higher planes, which we call mental or intellectual. But the very sea of life is a sea of emotional awareness that is in harmony all the way through and through. It is not separated as we humans have done into distinctly different layers. This is a new thought and new way of defining it, but it struck me today very powerfully that energy and emotion is one thing and interchangeable.
We become aware of higher planes of consciousness as we become aware of higher planes of feeling, perceiving and yes, even thought. It has been said that thought is abstract, but every thought registers a feeling along with it. We expand our awareness as we expand our feelings. It is an endless journey of sensations, sensitivities and awareness. And there are those emotions that fall below the neutral line and are negatively colored, and those which rise above the line to become positively colored. When we fall down into the dull gray zones of disinterest and boredom, we are registering emotion. Emotion is a new word to consider in place of energy. While there will be disagreement in this statement, it might be interesting to note how it changes your understanding. It is more visceral when thinking "emotion", than when thinking "energy". It connects better with the practical man.
When you expand your consciousness, you expand your emotions. Expanding emotions means expanding the space between the subatomic particles we call "energy". It expands the space between the subatomic particles in the substance of matter. It MOVES the emotion. It MOVES the energy so that it is more flowing and allowing. It becomes more positive instead of stuck recycling the same old stuff and not moving it. Expanding emotion means raising the emotion, allowing it to flow better, resulting in a finer emotion, one that is more appreciative, graceful, charming, happier. Awareness is also a feeling. Awareness is a feeling that is so much more elevated that we don't think of it as an emotion. But notice the next time you become aware of something new, something different. Is there not an emotion that is registered at the same time? Like a perception? Perceiving is an emotion. Sensitivity is an emotion. Divinity is an emotion.
Praising the Lord is an emotion. Reverence is an emotion. Attitudes of sacredness are emotions. It is not possible to be in the presence of such highly exalted states of love without feeling emotional. Ecstacy, bliss and rapture are emotions. It is the sea of life in which we move and and have our being. Emotions connect us, heart, mind, body and soul. It is a harmonizer. Another word we might consider is soul. Maybe emotions are the soul? Notice what your emotions are registering right now. Is your soul registering this? What are you feeling about the discussion? Are you bored with it? Impressed? Disagree? Disgusted? Calling it "energy" neutralizes it somewhat. We lose the value of this which is quite real. The sea of emotions is playing out all around us but we are not recognizing it.
If you don’t like the feeling you are currently having, substitute something exciting and positive for you. Focus on something you WANT to do. Change what you're doing, your attention on what you're doing, and you'll change your emotions (your energies). Change your emotional field. You are the one creating it. You can change it. Have a prepared list of things, tasks or projects to be done that you can switch gears and jump into at a moment’s notice. Something that interests you so it captures your complete attention. It will then take you away from the emotional field (energy field) you did not like. Do you get bored easily and wish something exciting would happen in your life? You would be surprised how easy it is to change your emotional field and raise your excitement level. I've tried it. I've been following Ascended masters instructions. They've been here where we are and they've learned some tricks. Are you frustated? Confused? Can't identify what to call it? It's just a matter of changing tasks and focus to something you'd rather be doing. It is usually just a matter of changing focus. Stop the slide into dullness, which is a matter of losing interest. Vitality. Life force. You CAN change it immediately if you are aware. Aware that your mood is the result of losing vital life force. Stay interested. Change often.
Surprisingly, the heart is like the doorway to the underground spring that feeds you vitality. The heart is an instrument that registers BOTH sides of life, the spiritual and the material or practical. The heart is the fulcrum. A deep underground spring feeds upward into the heart which pumps blood to the nerves and endocrine system, brain and organs. Your true Self is an underground spring that descends down from pure unadulterated, uncontaminated divinity. Your true Self is purer underground than it is on the surface where you interact with other people. You are constantly giving and receiving emotions (energies) from strangers and family all day long and even during sleeping hours. We live in a sea of emotions (energies). But with careful attention to shifts in perception, it is possible to stay alert. Keep moving. Don't stop. Don't stagnate. When resting, have affirmations to repeat to keep your mind alert until you fall asleep.
Your real Self is more pure, graceful and holy the deeper you go into stillness. It is like going underground to the wellspring that feeds your body, mind and spirit. The artificial you on the surface are watered down, along with everyone else, and modified by the constant interactions of unidentified emotions being shared and exchanged. The confusions of the mass population. We are feel blah, drained and confused from all the input in the environment. Remember your purer Self is coming up gently through underground springs that feed pure life force to you. Shut off the world for 20 or 30 minutes, morning, noon and night before going to bed, and go silent. Picture your heart with a sun shining inside. Enter softly into this imaginary picture superimposed over your heart. Your purity and innocence dwells there in pure rare softness. There is also a heart living inside each and every cell in your body. In the brain cell, muscle cell, lung or liver cell. As your heart pump, pump, pumps the blood, it will carry your emotion of reverence and grace out to the cells via the circulation system. They receive it and spring to life unnoticed by you. It is a revival mechanism - a process taught by the masters and their followers. That is why meditation has grown in popularity over the years. People are discovering its ability to regenerate. It is literally a life saver by resurrecting the tired and worn out cells of the body and brain.
11/29/22 - A self-help technique for anxiety to do at home
A friend wrote and said her anxiety levels are skyrocketing. I received the following suggestion in my mind and immediately wrote to her about it - and tried it out for myself. It works. Massage the sides of your neck with some soft lotion, slow and gentle. Both the left side and the right sides of your neck. Both up behind the ear to where the skull starts and down into the collar bone. Also up around the back of the ear on the bone itself. This is relaxing to the vegus nerve which is a big nerve that touches in and influences everywhere in the body. Also massage the back of your neck too, and the front of your throat and down into the upper chest. And all over the neck and the ears. Go up around the ears and pull on the ear lobes. Stretch the earlobes gently. Even put your fingers inside the ears just to touch the skin there, not deeply or forcefully, just to touch them and say "hello" to your ears. The neck is holding all the energies up inside the brain. It is a forced position for the head. The neck is a major stress point. A fulcrum point. It needs releasing and this cannot be forced. It must be relaxed. You don't need to spend money by going to a massage therapist. You'll just get anxiety ridden going and coming in all that traffic!
Most people are trying to "think" their way out of problems and world situations. It can't be done, world problems must be relieved and relaxed away. The brain doesn't have the ability to solve world problems. It only adds to the world problems. Your body DOES have the ability to relax those worries away. Open the trap door in the neck, which is around the medulla oblongata, what we call the Atlas at the top of the spine. Atlas, who carries the weight of the world on his shoulders. The vegus nerve among other lesser nerves can be massaged here. That's why a shoulder and neck massage feels so good. But you can do this for yourself alone, by tenderly massaging the neck. Allow the stress energies to fall down through the Atlas, the trap door in the neck, and down into the body where it is grounded. It finds a more natural relaxed state of being because it is joining in with the rest of the bodoy.
It helps to put your feet up to help blood circulation during the neck massage if you can manage that comfortably. Or any time of the day, lie down and put your feet up higher than your head. Blood carries anxiety energies from place to place in your body, and the blood pools down in the feet from standing up or sitting for so long. So putting your feet up during the massage will help distribute the energies as they start moving.
Alternatively, you can light a candle and stare into the candle flame while you are massaging your neck, if you have one convenient. The fire is a natural energy radiating natural soothing energy. Stare into the candle flame while feeling the soothing neck massage. Consider that someone else's hands are massaging you. Imagine yourself giving you a neck and shoulder massage. Imagine yourself relaxing while someone is doing this for you. It might trance you out. Allow for it. Breathe. Relax. Massage yourself slowly, gently, tenderly, soothingly. This is self love.
I've been studying the effects of the neck massage on myself. I can feel it. It is wonderful!
11/26/22 - More about the etheric body
Waking up this morning with a dream still playing out. Trees that were dying because they lived too close to each other and couldn't expand their auric field, and one particular young man 16 years old, who was weakening from living too close to his family who were crowding him. He didn't have enough individual space in which to grow. And other jungle scenes showing trees unable to support the wild life which lived in them. Upon waking I recognized the message was about the etheric body. It's time to start writing about it.
The etheric body is the understructure for the physical body. It is body of vitality which feeds physical power to the physical body. It is the substructure - or the infrastructure you could say - of the physical body. It supports, nurtures and feeds the muscles, nerves, bones, blood and organs of the physical body. When the physical body becomes weak, it's because the etheric body has become loosely connected to the physical. It is connected through the nervous system which is fed by the nadis, the currents of light from the meridian system of the etheric body. The etheric body is sometimes referred to as the soul in religious or spiritual terms, but it is not so easily defined since it is not an object like the physical body. So it doesn’t matter what name we call it, it is more important to become educated and understand its role in our life. And why it is important. Every physical body has an etheric body underlying it, or better put, OVERlying it for the enery is coming down into the physical, not up from underneath. It is the energy body, or the vitality body.
The etheric body is physical. It is made of physical atoms and electrons, but these particles are spaced further apart than in the physical. They are on higher, more rarified planes and therefore invisible to our eyesight. Except to sensitives, such as clairvoyants. Plus anyone might see the bluish glow surrounding a tree, plant or person in the growing darkness of evening hours if they are relaxed enough. The physical body is more solidly compacted together. The etheric body is the gathering space of forces composed of random atoms and subatomic particles that wander around in the atmosphere and attach to a person's auric field. Here they ripple their presence through the person as either a heightened thought or a chill of something foreign or negative. The etheric body is a space around the physical body into which settles floating energies from the atmosphere. They either settle there, up close to the body, or move on. This is the reason we need to become aware of the etheric body. It is an influence on our lives. It impacts us with whatever energies it has collected.
The ether ic body is also known as the etheric double. When the body dies, an exact replica of the person can be seen by sensitives for a short time time after death. The etheric double acts like a reservoir of bits and pieces of the planetary life that is constantly moving through the atmosphere. These energies pour into our auric fields under forces we are not aware of. There are many forces. Too many to identify. They are like clouds of subatomic matter that are loose and wandering around, and are attracted to someone with similar thoughts and feelings. they are simply part of the human collective worldwide, and through atmospheric currents they are present at all times. When they come into close proximity to us, they become either lodged in our auric field or they may be repelled by our awareness and move on. Our auric field on the outer perimeter attracts these energies and if we don't repel them, they move closer in to our physical level and then enter our nervous system. Hence, feelings "out of the blue" that descend on us and we don't know why. The etheric body, is loosely referred to as the aura. It is referred to as our soul. It influences our moods and what thoughts we think, what choices and decisions we make, how much vitality we have, for they can suck the life out of us and drain us without our knowing. If they are negative energies, they are parasitic in nature. They are hungry for the living life force because they are negative energies, meaning below the 50-50 balance line or neutral line.
It is worthwhile painting a picture of what a human body looks like to a celestial being or master. Our solid bodies are only a small part of who we are. The body itself is embedded inside a large sphere which, on the outer level is pure white light and love. It is not physical light, it is intelligence. The pure white light darkens by degree the closer it gets to the physical body at the center, which is the emanating source of the darkness. The soul who is inhabiting the human body is what the masters monitor. They know every living soul on the planet and where they are on the evolutionary path. The physical body is the solid at the center of the sphere of light, like the yolk inside an egg.
Running through the sphere of light, ever darkening toward the center, hair-thin lines of crystal pure white light weave like a spiders web, seeking to connect with the physical nerves, but there are obstructions. The pure light is available to feed into every cell in the body, except there are false beliefs in the way. The etheric body is a moving, heaving, fluctuating reservoir of forces surrounding the physical body. Composed of forces and influences from many sources. Some good, some bad, some indifferent. As a person thinks are these forces attracted into his life, thought and feeling. They are brought in by himself. He sucks them in, as if through a straw by his own thoughts and attention he holds with his feelings and moods. These then affect his psychology, the way he thinks, the way he feels, his vitality or lack thereof, his weakness, his musculature, organs, bones, hair, teeth. The etheric body is the infrastructure that supports his physical body and presence on Earth. His etheric body builds these forces into his physical body, to either vitalize it or wear it down because the majority do not know. This is a new-age science that has only barely begun to be revealed, studied and experimented with. Energy workers are starting to put it together but science is lagging behind. The physical body literally feeds off of this fluctuating, moving cloud of forces that surrounds him. He feeds on it through the day and through the night.
All through the physical body and stretching out into the sphere of darker light that surrounds him, are invisible threads of pure white light. This is the invisible network of nadis and meridians that run through the etheric body, that carry crystal pure white light, the crystalline light of perfection. The acupuncturists put needles into certain points on the body to open blockages and let the light flow through better. The darkened light that surrounds the human being is contaminated because he hasn't cleaned it up. Humanity is on the brink of discovering the process. Once pure, the sphere of white dazzling light of pure intelligence has been filled with wrong thoughts, wrong feelings, wrong assumptions and conclusions. These wrong assumptions have been carried over from lifetime to lifetime building a momentum of evil into the world from which we are in the midst of turning around. The new golden age is upon us and ascension techniques are everywhere available to those with eyes open and minds alert. Understandings need to be cleared up, but only the individual can do this for himself. Further information is needed to understand how this works.
NADI is a Sanskrit word from the ancient practices of the Eastern tradition. The nadis are microscopic threads of crystal pure light which link up and connect with our physical nervous system. The way to strengthen the physical body is to strengthen these connections to the etheric body. Expand awareness to include the spacious aura that surrounds the body. The body does not stop at the skin level. It is not just physical. It is bigger and extends further out beyond sight. The trick is to expand awareness by using imagination - mental powers. Imagine a more spacious field of light surrounding you like a radiation or a higher spectrum of light that you can't see. It is invisible. Image your brain stretching and growing lighter and brighter. It takes mental effort and imagination. It is within each person's ability to grow himself or herself lighter, brighter and larger beyond physical eyesight.
Visualize a light sphere interpenetrating the physical body and extending out around the body at a distance of two or three or even four feet beyond you. Visualize a particle, molecule or cell within the body with a sphere of radiating light around it, an etheric light. Each physical cell is a living thing - science tells us that - but science does not tell us about the ethers or the etheric double. Science is behind the times! The etheric body exists beyond what science can prove. It lives on and on and on, into higher and ever higher planes of life. The physical brain is a mere shell of what lies behind the brain and supports the brain. It is like looking at an ice cube and not realizing that it is melted water and, further, it is a condensation of other, finer material.
As you mentally picture this graphic picture, your brain is receiving the picture. YOU are the creator of the picture. YOU are the master of your body. YOU are the one who is educating your body by opening to the "more" that is above and beyond you. This is how we program our bodies with more information. The brain is expands and becomes more attuned to the new information. It absorbs this new information. New synapses are built, gaps are filled in, understanding takes place. "Ahhhh, I see!" Refinement takes place as the brain "gets it". We need to program our brain and help it to grow and widen its understanding. When the brain can comprehend the idea in abstract, soon the body will register symbiotic feelings. Connections between the invisible world and the physical world will take place as relaxing, endearing, softening feelings. We melt the two worlds together and our understanding expands. Relax and breathe! Enjoy the show. Enjoy the feelings of melting into harmony. The body is getting it too and enjoying the soothing, interrelationship. The crystalline light from higher planes of life is penetrating into the physical cells.
The more we practice visualizing, the more blending takes place between dimensions. The lines melt and dimensions become closer in harmony. From ancient days this process has been known as the Christ. The Christian religion assigned the word to one single gentleman 2000 years ago, but was known prior to that period. The word "christ" means crystal. Their are crystalline threads of pure light running through our etheric body, coming down from higher planes, and entering into our physical body. We can help it along by picturing the process and reading up on it. More info is becoming available.
There are other, not-so-nice forces also gathering in the etheric body. It is not all pure. We have built up mistakes and errors over the many lifetimes of living in different bodies. So now, in these so-called "end times", where the mass consciousness is shifting from dark to light, the technique being offered is to expand awareness to include the surrounding space - the auric field. And bad influences we nip in the bud before they take hold and settle down into us.
We receive forces from many sources. They are attracted either by affinity - the law of attraction - or by close proximity. Many clouds of energy are randomly passing by in loose, fluid state, the way chaos passes in a storm or a flood. There is chaos around. People are spewing restlessness, anxiety and confusion. Thoughts of fear and depression. What matters is to change the dark to a positive note before it settles in. Become aware. Scan the auric field. You can do it for a loved one if your partner(s) are not aware of this technique. Do it silently without speaking. Use the inner science of magic - imagination. Become attunded to the subjective world of perception and knowing. Become aware when a negative enters your field, your mind, so you notice it. Don't dismiss it. Rather transform it by replacing it with a swarm of loving thoughts. Sweep it away with love, or kindness, or whatever benevolent word you prefer to use. It's a mental vacuum cleaner. You will notice the difference soon enough.
Subatomic particles of energy are electrons, misguided, mismanaged electrons that are alive with life. They seek a home. Someone who will give them a resting place. They flow in currents. They are attracted to and pushed around by larger more potent forces. Some are good, some not so good, some downright negative. These are random particles seeking a home. They gather together when they find others like them. They are little conscious entities that have a life. They too want families to live with. If you like them, then give them a home and welcome them. But if you find them uncomfortable, then change them with a sweeping force of powerful love. More positive, agreeable thoughts, that make YOU feel better. So many people are unaware of how powerful positive feelings are. They are the measuring rod. Listen to your bodies feelings of goodness vs. bodily feelings of badness. Don't let badness coagulate and settle in your auric field, else it will enter into your physical body through the etheric body.
If you are not managing your thoughts in your mental body and giving them direction, if you are not discerning which ones you want and which ones you don’t want, these particles will accumulate in your field. When you become aware of them and you take charge over them, then you are helping yourself to stay strong. You are guarding your auric field against invasion by negative forces. It is entirely up to you WHICH kinds of influences you want to entertain in your etheric body, your infrastructure. That which supports you or that which weakens you. Again, you are receiving forces from beyond your control, so it is up to you to be responsible for keeping your etheric body clean and positive. Transform the thoughts you don't want, or they will become physical and emotional feelings you don't like. Your substructure is the infrastructure of your physical body. It is no different than the concrete foundation or steel girders of your house. Because the etheric body is invisible to eyesight, this has not been part of our schoolroom education. Traditional classroom education has been restricted to the old way of "believe only in what we can see, hear, smell, touch or taste."
The etheric body is the space around us that is held in place by our own unique and personal energy signature. Our permission allows them to settle, whether we are ignorant of the process or not. This energy field supports, feeds and maintains our concrete physical body and gives us vitality and power - or takes it away. It is the universal force that we draw on. It is time we understood what "universal force" is made of. It comes from everywhere. It is up to us to discern what "universal force" we allow to settle in our field, and which ones we want to expel. The negatives suck the life out of us and weakens our muscles, blood, organs, nerves and bones and gives us disease. The majority don't even know, let alone make corrections and follow exercises to strengthen it. It is the reason for yoga, meditation, self-improvement techniques, becoming more universally acceptedthan ever before. These are consciousness-building exercises to take the place of pharmaceuticals and drugs. Self-enlightenment recipes hold the power of change. It is inner work. As someone visualizes and becomes consciously aware of their etheric body, they start to notice things they never noticed before. The knowledge seeps in quietly, like a thought out of the blue sky. Like a sponge absorbs water. The forces start to talk to you. You become aware of the good ones and the bad ones. You become more knowledgeable about your energy field. You start to improve your energy and your vitality. Cultivate a belief in this by practicing it. Otherwise it is just abstract theory.
Become familiar with the forces that influence you, especially the forces that you don't like. Change them and substitute a BETTER force. Which ones are you allowing in because you're not paying attention? Start by paying attention. This morning after I did my usual preparation (shower, etc.) I sat down in my usual chair to begin my morning practice, and my chair spoke to me for the first time ever. It said "Good morning!" to me in a subjective kind of way. It was the first time I heard that. It told me I am sitting in my "thinking chair". In my thinking chair I start receiving voices in my awareness. More bleed-throughs. My awareness is so open now that I have almost too many to remember them all. I am now forced to switch them off and go into the silence. Otherwise I would become bogged down with too many ideas. All good ideas but I seek the place of peace where the voices stop coming. And the peace starts replacing them.
You become more discerning. Always there is more to become aware of. It never ends but YOU can stop it anytime you like. You are the authority over these forces. It is time to realize that. You become more conscious of other entities or energies coming in - both good and bad. It doesn't matter. You can take control over them and shift your mood. Maybe it’s a shift in physical feeling. Like for me today, after eating Chinese food I had an immediate abdominal reaction and spent the next hour back and forth to the bathroom. I forgot. I had this reaction before from Chinese food. It could have been a psychological reaction or an emotional reaction, but this was simply a physical body reaction.
Maybe forces enter your awareness like a strong dislike. It just strikes you distastefully. Or anger strikes out of the blue. Or hatred. Or fear. Fear is a biggie. Instead of wondering where it came from, don't analyze it. Change it. Love it. Send a wave of overwhelming love at it and wash it away. Maybe a warning strikes of danger, or suspicion or jealousy. Instead of wondering where it's coming from (and who to start watching out for) change it. Change it with love. Love is the balancing force for everything awkward, distasteful, uncomfortable and - yes - dangerous.
Love is all there is, as Marcus is constantly saying. Love is ALL there is. And the masters and celestials say it too. Over and over and over. It is what keeps the universe orderly. The planets are classrooms. We come into embodiment to learn more about love and how to apply it to situations we run into. Love is all there is. It's the greatest tool and technique ever made available. How to use it requires individual experimentation. Various energies are striking our auric fields all the time. They are all different, and some are truly dangerous. They can suck us in until we forget what we are here for. Humanity has not been aware of these insidious forces until very recently. The wars have been telling us, and the pandemic has been a blast in our faces. But we are starting to get it, aren't we? There are negative forces everywhere. The most dangerous ones are at first sweet and kind to tempt us. The technique for overcoming them is forgiveness, mercy, kindness and overwhelming love. This sweeps them away. Negativity does not like love and kindness!!!
Negative forces are even out there in space, as we are told. And they are inside of us too. When we hold onto sin, shame, dirty thoughts, angry thoughts, we are holding onto energies that do not belong with us. We have to sweep them away with loving kindness for ourselves and others. We have been told by the religions that we are sinners and should feel guilty, but it is untrue. Love is all there is! There is a sphere of dazzling pure white light all around us and which runs through us in tiny strands of living light. We live in a sea of eternally pure white light. We are a unique, one-of-a-kind child of pure white light and love. Light is information, love is what we do with that information. The piece of information that was missing in our training as young children was about the etheric body. The space that surrounds us is the gathering place of subatomic particles of light that are floating around aimlessly. Some good, some bad, some in between. They are fluid and fluctuating under various forces and sources. It doesn't matter what they are or where they come from, we must expand our consciousness to be aware of what is influencing us. What energies are striking our minds and feelings. And take charge of changing them on the spot. Change them into love and light. Strange forces surround you without your realizing it. Take control over these forces. YOU are the one in control. Or should be. If you are not in control of these forces, then you are susceptible to being continually influenced by outsiders controlling your thoughts and feelings. Don't be led. Be a leader of your own sphere of light that you carry around with you.
This is the battlefield to be aware of. Consider this before going tp a doctor to seek a prescription drug. Not to give up your prescription drugs but to become aware of your OWN powers alongside of the prescription drugs you may currently take. In the religions of the world the etheric body was referred to as the soul, a vague unknown term until recently. We are becoming wise to the vagaries of the religious past. You are the landowner of your physical body. It was given to you to take care of it. Again, you were never told about the etheric body being a collector of forces. Become a wise and good steward of the land of your body. You own this piece of land. Notice what is growing in it, or below out of sight, beneath the surface. You can improve on your own health and strengthen it, by nipping a growing negative force in the bud, before it has time to take root. Before a doctor pronounces a word that puts fear into you. Disease has become like religion, people believe in sickness. Can you imagine believing in sickness? It is time to put an end to belief in wrong thoughts. It is time to end the downward spiral. This is about becoming educated. Health is a science, not witchcraft. Techniques and classes are becoming more available by the day. Listen to them. Choose one that appeals to your sense of rightness and comfort. Try it out. It is YOU who are the final authority.
Learn some words to speak out loud. Affirmations. When you say a word out loud it changes the energy in your immediate sphere of influence. Try it out. The “I AM” affirmations are statements of a positive nature. They are called mantras and chants. Oming is a universal sound to use, or humming. Aum (OM) means “I AM”. It affirms I AM as a self-conscious being. It means simply I am what I am.
11/21/22 - Uncovering the ancient light buried within
In the pre-dawn hours this morning I woke slowly from a very, very deep place down inside my sentience, with bodily feelings of heaviness. Not bad, not painful and not suffering, simply heavy. “I am the heavy in you” says the divine mother. And so I am awake and feeling very very heavy. Awareness flooded thru me of eons and eons of time spent in physical form. “I am the Light in you!” says the mother flame, and she is covered over by eons and eons of mistakes, errors, separate lives spent away from the divine light of home. She is awakening now, after years of inner work that I've done, she is feeling the weight of the heaviness. I AM feeling the weight of the heaviness. I am the mother in me. What do I do with this?
The question does not even need to be asked. I must honor it, the heaviness, and respect it. Lift it up with the lightness of my gratitude. Only the mother’s love or equivalent, can lift it up and raise it up out of the heaviness. I am assigned the task. I am what I am. I am here now and I am feeling the weight of the ages, the eons of misused life force. Gradually I rouse myself and go for my shower, stopping to write a post-it note on the way. Something important I must remember: “The concrete foundation has flaws in it. The human race has flaws in it." We are here, each of us, to correct the ancient flaws. The vision, “I am the heavy in you”, is connected to the ancient light buried in the bones and tissues of our bodies. I woke up with it. I was deep inside the heaviness, the feeling of it, the heavy awareness in me. The light in me is not dead, it is tired and covered over with the weight of the ages. It needs salvaging.
I ask DK briefly, without thinking. He says, “Shake it off. Shake it off like a wet dog shaking off water. Shake it, shake it, spin it, spin it." Then I see the violet flame in my mind. "Use the violet flame. Use the blue flame, use the gold flame, use the seven flames, the seven lights. Shake out the seven lights from the buried light. Shake it loose from the heaviness, cast off the heaviness. Shake it loose. Move it loose. Spin in loose. Spin the heaviness off and let the light come loose and be flexible. Let the light shine." We are part of the creator’s correction process. Creator has been trying to manifest the perfect physical human race with purity and perfection. We are angels in solid form that need tweaking and refining. There were mistakes made along the way. The human race is going through a correction process. There is an evolution going on. The evolution is the God-consciousness in the human evolving upward out of denser, heavier states. The mineral state evolves to the vegetable kingdom, which evolves to the animal kingdom, which evolves to the human kingdom, and now we are perfecting the human to evolve to the God-consciousness state. It has been confirmed and validated by DK’s writings in his books (Treatise on White Magic, and Esoteric Healing.)
There is also an INvolution going on. The evolution is the building of the perfect form. The INvolultion is the shrinking of focus on the solid form and the movement into the divine, the inner awareness of spiritual intelligence and the building of inner knowledge of heaven. While doing the inner organs pose today I became aware of the ancient light stuck in the solid mass of tissues of my physical. As I exercise my limbs, I am exercising this ancient light, the little lives of electrons and sub-atomic particles. Living light so long held captured and imprisoned inside the dust of earth. I am holding attention on the light sparks, the little sparks of life in my cells that have been frozen in place, locked in place, unable to move because no one knew they were there. This is old, ancient life buried in me. It has a consciousness. I feel it is alive. There is FIRE here that was paralyzed!!! I see it. I know it. I am here to rescue it and unlock it from its confinement for unknown countless centuries. It is the God Force. The God Force is locked into the dirt, dust and debris of what we mistakenly call “physical”. As I shake it loose I become aware that it is FIRE in me. I become zapped with more energy and vitality. Vitality moves in me because FIRE is a vitality force, a quickening force. OMG! I am in touch with a great occult mystery.
During the stomach rub my hands felt SO warm. Something deep within was tugging at me and longing for the warmth of my hands on my abdomen. A little later during the leg exercise I stopped when a new idea struck – I did the shoulder stand. The first time in many years for this old body. Awkward but easy enough. I bent the legs over my head and tried to touch the floor but couldn’t. I moved them around and felt the energy loosen. Amazing. Then I did the leg exercises and felt sensations similar to physical ecstasy. I didn’t want to stop at the required number of each move of the leg but I made myself stick to the routine. Amazing!! I can feel the ancient light responding to my attention. These are the electrons that carry my signature. They are mine, my life force. The ancient light is scattered throughout the four lower bodies, the emotional body, the mental body, etheric body and physical body. As I become knowledgeable about this, my attention calls to them and the scattered sparks respond. They hear me and quicken their speed.
The next step is to direct them and this requires my mental intellect. I must instruct them and guide them where to go, what to do, they must attach to the meridians. The meridians are lines of light energy that all too often go unnoticed by the average citizen. It is the divine or master blueprint. It is there in the first born as a pattern of pure intelligence for the mind to flow into naturally. It is pre-determined. It is the original blueprint. The plan is to bring the loose and rambling lost light particles, the life of the body that has been forgotten and paralyzed, back to life again so it can join the living flow of the current life. It is light and it is intelligence. The lost little ones will know it when they come closer to the main flow. That is why we must keep moving our limbs and not stagnate. The lost light particles need our movement. They are made of the same stuff as our current body. They will feel the calling as they are directed to their assigned places. You and I are doing the calling. Throughout the eons of evolution on the planet, we have evolved from mineral, plant, animal, to human and now to divine human. We are in the process of ascension which is the final perfecting of the human body so that it may enjoy the exquisite, impeccable harmony, peace, ecstasy and rapture of co-existing with our soul mates.
The mainstream media have been showing ads, movies and wars, keeping us fixated, focused and obsessed with the perfect body, perfect health, perfect clothes, perfect relationships, perfect living conditions, perfect homes, perfect economic conditions, perfect family arrangements, perfect sex, and the endless varieties of perfect versions. All of which keep us feeling bad because, in comparison, we are told that we don’t measure up. We are constantly told that we are imperfect, we are failures, by waving a different kind of "perfect" version in front of us day and night. It’s all a distraction. Don't show me any more perfect!!! It is an illusion. Perfect is who I already am. I don't have to create someone else's idea of what perfect should be. I am what I am naturally. As I unfold myself from within and gather up all of the ancient buried light sparks that have been feeling alone and lonely, I start feeling MORE of who I am. I feel more confident by the day. I feel the vitality building in me. The energy is exquisite. I am powerful in my own right. I know myself better. I am perfect just the way I am. I don't to change to fill someone else's criteria.
11/15/22 - Listen to the cells in your body
Reprinted from five years ago, after Hurricane Irma struck SWFL. In the aftermath I experienced heavy aches and pains everywhere. It was bad. Stumbling across this journal by accident serves as a good reminder, since we just went through Hurricane Ian. Talk to the cells in your body. (Copying as written:)
(9/29/17) It's 1 am and I’m up meditating. Couldn’t sleep. Applied Tiger Balm to my lower aching back. Thoughts have led me to the subject of refinement. I am learning about refining my awareness. Middle of the night is becoming my new normal time to converse with my higher guides, and when I applied the balm I noticed my nostrils crackled clear. I heard the words, "Refining the energies". This is how new lessons begin. They begin with words in my mind. The words kept coming. "Notice, pay attention, listen, observe the feelings in your body. Just observe. Let your body teach you. Your body seeks refinement. Allow it to show you, rather than you trying to impose your less-than-perfect technologies upon it. Your body is a mixture of unrefined and refined materials floating around in it, and some are not floating but remain stuck. The atoms that compose your body are conscious. They make up your body consciousness." **** After I finished applying Tiger Balm and DMSO to my back, I sat quietly, feeling the feelings that were generated from the application. Then I switched on the lamp and began writing, for the inner thoughts were coming through one after the other, easy and clear. This is what was written.
(DK channeled) “Some of this conscious material that makes up your body is slowed down and is what you call stuck energy. It is not moving well. But you have also higher moving materials in your body, and these are directing you to use certain balms and fluids externally, topically, such as the Tiger Balm and DMSO and taking Epsom salt baths. You credit me (DK) for these inner discussions but I am only one voice in the mix of voices you are receiving. Refining your perceptions is like picking up a telephone and listening. You are paying more attention. You are putting attention on your inner sensations. When higher vibrations meet lower vibrations, you as the resident agent of the body, cast the deciding vote. You are the steward and land owner of your body. Be a good land owner. Be accountable. Pay attention. Listen to what your body is telling you. It will tell you what you need to do.
“When integration of high and low-moving vibrational substances take place, healing is the result. Can you feel it now? (There was tingling and buzzing going on.) It is a unification. Blending and allowing, even welcoming the joining with a sense of awe and inspiration, a celebration if you will. This is how YOU create and bring about your own refinement. You are refining your body by listening to it. You call it healing. That is a third dimension term for a spiritual evolutionary process. When kundalini awakened in your body in 1976, YOU were conscious and awed by the refinement that flowed through you. It lifted you. If you had not been conscious and aware of the process, the process of kundalini awakening would have been aborted. YOU are the directing intelligence of your body. You are the master of the various and sundry energies, both high and low vibrating atoms that are moving throughout your four lower bodies. As you refine your perception, it is equivalent to meditation when you cease moving and thinking and begin listening to the advice and counsel of higher guidance. Your body is full of higher guiding forces. You do not have to follow a specific routine, such as a learned meditation that you have used before. Refining your consciousness is a fluid, subtle work of consciousness. Pay attention. Be still and listen and persevere in remaining alert and listening at all times. This is a walking meditation.
“Don’t force a thought because you are not the master planner. You are the student of all of this. You are the learner and the observer. You are the steward who does not know everything, because you are learning as you go. Learning as you go means you listen as you go. Listen and make decisions as the manager of this operating unit of many voices and many vibrations. You are the one who is learning by doing. You are growing wiser through the process of holding the balance and being the overseer of the project. It is on the job training. You are also known as the host. You are the one who is proving your worth by caring for this land over which you have been made responsible, your body-mind. Embrace this understanding of who you are. Your job is to listen to your little workers, millions of elementals in the form of atoms and subatomic particles needing an overseer. Listen to them for they are speaking to you even now. Some are in pain, others are happy. Listen, because as you listen you are sending love and love soothes, heals and unifies. Simply listening to someone speak, truly listening, is sending love. Allowing love to radiate. Love is the healing element. Do you understand?”
(Yes, master DK. Thank you. I do see. I must practice this and you are here with me, guiding me each night. You are patient with me. Thank you.)
“My dear, patience, no. It is not patience. It is allowing you the freedom to take the lead. It must be you who decides when to get up in the night and listen to me. When you are ready, you call me and I come forward to assist. I do not wait around for you! (Laughingly) I have others who I assist. There is much for me to do.
(Thank you for telling me that. It takes a load off my mind.)
(Laughter!) “Take the time to listen to your body. Listen to the tweaks, bumps and moans that your body is making. Learn how to move WITH them rather than try to fix them. Because, again, you do not have the master plan in your conscious mind. The master design for a perfect mind and body is descending through you in continuous flow, just as a river flows down the mountain becomes part of the landscape, influencing all of the surrounding territory. As the master design flows forth through you it causes FEELINGS in your body and influences your body if you let it. Listen to those feelings. The master plan is coming into you through your breath, in fluid motion, pressing here and there causing sensations, Sometimes you have a painful sensation when the breath of life bumps up against a resistance. Wherever there is pain, go there in your attention and continue to listen. Dissolve it by listening and paying attention. The master plan for your body is perfection but you have created energy blocks with false ideas of what should and shouldn’t be. The master plan is not an object to grasp and lay out on a table to examine. It is an unfolding current with you that is invisible, flowing from higher planes down into slower vibrating substance. You are the co-creator. Your perfect self is TRYING to come into manifestation but it is forced into an obstacle course made of prior human experience. As I said earlier, you are a mix of both high and low vibrating energies. It is YOU who enables the integration of high and low substances within you. You are the awake and aware steward of this land called a body. This nation of many voices, all of whom speak in different tongues. They need to be held together by a wise and benevolent master - a higher intelligence than themselves. This is you. You are not the ultimate authority however. There is one higher than you. You are a steward of this body, learning how to govern wisely the many voices that are speaking within you. The health and vitality of this land (your body) depends on how well you listen to those workers that compose it. Mankind is learning to listen to the landscape within. As he does, he nurtures and nourishes the land of his body. He has not done a good job of paying attention in the past. He has pushed his body beyond endurance and worn himself out, exhausted, lame, debilitated, without understanding that he was supposed to CARE for his body. It is no one else’s responsibility but his own to make peace within his inner world which is accessed by feeling, listening and responding to the subtle and invisible movements within.
“Listen to your own body feelings and perceptions first, before listening to an outsider. Even professional health experts do not know your body or what it needs. Listen to the voices of your people - your cells, tissues, organs of your inner world. They hurt and seek your forgiveness, not your “fixing” with prescription drugs. They do not need fixing, they need you to care and love away their pain - YOUR pain. Your love moves the stuckness within you. In feeling their pain you become the solution to removing that pain. Relief comes in the form of gratitude and “I love you“ thoughts. Yes, it is through mental communication that you talk to and listen to your cells. There is happiness when you care for your body, and joy at being allowed to breathe free again. This is true liberation, to breathe through the stuck energies that block the perfection within you.
(I thought of the hurricane and the lost elementals uprooted through the fierceness of the winds.)
“Yes, you could say that it was the elementals as a whole who were ravished by the hurricane and said, “Thank God I’ll be going home soon.” And your statement of “NO! I will not leave!” was your determination to stay the course and help in this transition. It was your way of putting loving arms around them and assuring them you would welcome them back to a place where they belong. To a sense of being whole again. Home is wholeness. Home is a heart at peace.
(Thank you DK. for your words of wisdom. I sense this is the end of our session?)
“Yes, you are to be congratulated. You are waking yourself up in the night to learn more but you are growing tired now. We will continue tomorrow in the night or day. If you call me we can continue with the learning.” End.
11/13/22 - Your body is an end product of your skills
Your body is a manifested creation by you, an end product of your efforts. It is your proof of success in becoming a master controller. Your body is always changing, or fluctuating, as you test new theories on yourself. Your body is the creation or expression of your higher, greater self, your soul self. Every time you reincarnate in a new body as a baby, you can work with it a little better than the last time you incarnated. You are evolving your body a little more each time, as you participate in the life of the human race as an individual. We are all in it together. We who are here in body are evolving the human race to a finer degree as we experiment with it. In the world of physicality we are the human form, but we are interacting with all the other kingdoms within the planetary life, too. Like our horses, cows, pets and wild life. The human body is evolving to a finer, more efficient, valuable and well-designed form, but it takes a self-aware creative idea person with an intelligence that is ever evolving, to mold that form so it works in a kindly manner. In a gentler, more sophisticated manner, so that it becomes easier to manage and not so crude or forceful. Not so violent, or angry, or temperamental. It takes a higher intelligence to do the work of refining the human vehicle. The vehicle is like a car. It is NOT the soul who resides in it. It is a vehicle to use while here in body. On a daily basis we not only use our bodies to do things, we are also training it as we live in it. Training it to do a better job than yesterday.
We have an ideal picture of what we want our bodies to look like as we walk around in it and do things. We hold that ideal in our mind. We know what we want it to do here in the physical world, but it’s not easy to make it happen. It is a slow, cumbersome work to bring the body up to match our ideal of what it should do. At other times there is joyful success, but most of the time we put ourselves down and hold back the grudges we feel about ourselves. But we have been learning how to build and maintain a human body for eons of lifetimes. It is necessary to work with it slowly and patiently, the way a parent does teaching a child.
If we don’t work with our bodies consistently and routinely and with patience and kindness to mold it lovingly so it WANTS to follow our directions, then it resist and rebel. When treating our bodies with kindness and love it is EAGER to comply and follow directions. Most of us don't realize that we are a separate entity residing in the body, and that the body is a separate entity from us. This is part of the waking-up process. We often think that there is something wrong with us if we get depressed, when it is actually the body that is down in the dumps. The body is impacted by floating clouds of energies in the atmosphere or the building where we have temporarily visited. It is important to become aware of this. You can change your feelings by realizing, "Oh, I just walked through a doom-and-gloom cloud. Get out of there and shake it off. Don't get depressed for the wrong reason. Then you'll quit when it's not even you who is depressed. It's just your body. This is the great work we are here for - to realize we are the master controller at the switch of our bodies. Our bodies are less intelligent creatures who are made from the dust of the earth. They require a master, or better yet, a loving parent to guide them and tell them what to do. As you come to realize this you will want to put the effort in and you will become more determined.
There are three spiritual gifts that have been given to us to use while we undertake this work of building and maintaining a sentient body, for we are not the body. We are pure spirit in our consciousness, and a lot of planning and preparation goes into our birth into a physical baby body. The three spiritual gifts that we are prepared with are the first three of the seven (chakras). The first is will power, the second is intelligence and the third is love. If we don’t have these three powers working for us every day we have obstructions at every turn. Guiding our body to do better and better skills requires determination in the form of will power, and intelligence and loving kindness.
These are the teachings of the ascended masters. They have been showing me and others. Without this knowledge and understanding, the average human thinks life is a one-time event, so what’s the use? Most people have not been given access to the truth called the ancient wisdom. The greater picture. There IS a greater picture. It's been referred to as the divine plan. Without getting at least a small glimpse of the greater picture, there is no motivation. No incentive. No interest to continue on. We need a goal. It is easy to give in and give up and slough along as best they can. We NEED motivation. Something that interests us and indeed, getting to know a little of the greater plan is just the thing. Otherwise, people think, “Well, I just want to be me!” ” “I’m achy and full of pain!” Or “I am too old to change” We grumble and complain and let the body slide. It gets to have its own way, which it doesn't know how to manage itself and so it gets worse as time goes on. If we give up and stop trying to better ourselves, the body stagnates and grows old. The energy of life stops moving through it. Aches and pain become disease and the brain stops registering ideas and concepts of betterment. The life force stops flowing. Joy is no longer felt. The brain slowly degenerates and dementia sets in. The commonly accepted sign of old age.
Yet it need not be. Old age need not creep in until death comes knocking. The brain can still function and the body can still enjoy life until the soul, the master control, decides it is time to leave. Then we can leave the physical environment and return to the father’s house for a rest. We earned it. And with the help of mentors, we again remember why we took form in the first place. Why we entered into a solid form and started walking on two legs. We came with hope and dreams of perfecting the body, bringing the ideal plan to fruition, with beauty and grace so that we can live a life within a perfected vehicle of flesh and blood. This is the ultimate plan - to develop the most beautifully designed human body we can. After many years of perfecting our skill at maintaining a physical body without disease, aches or pains so it is healthy, happy and successful in every way, this is the ultimate success story. Life can be exquisite in form. There are many pleasures to enjoy in the physical world of sensuality with intelligence and wisdom skills. But we are the ones who must do the work of shaping and molding the body and becoming self-realized. We are the ones who must do the disciplining of the body with patience, kindness, wisdom and of love. Even adoration, praise and reverence, for the body is the work of the creator. The muscles, heart, glands and organs are all a product of the creator's loving care. For we are the creator. The body becomes more efficient and beautiful as we, the creator, learn to work with it patiently and with the excellence that is required of a master.
A little side story here reveals how well the body responds to determined effort. This was told to me by a friend whose mother had been given 24 hours to live. She was on life-support. The extended family had gathered to say their good-byes, and after everyone left, she and her sister each climbed in bed beside their mother. They agreed to focus on – one on the kidneys, the other on another part of the mother’s body. They spent the night focusing, praying and picturing the organs living and resuming health again. It worked. In the morning, the mother was awake, the life support was removed and the mother lived another ten years.
The body requires love and encouragement. It has intelligence but depends on a master consciousness to keep it running smoothly. We are here to guide our bodies intelligently. It is a learning process on both the master and the body vehicle itself. We are here to persuade the vehicle to do what WE want it to do, not by the whip but by loving patience and encouragement, as we would train a pet. We are here to become masters of the physical realm. How do you get a child to do what you want it to do? The body is like a child. It has not grown up yet. It needs guidance. You are the parent. You have lived many lives. You have had the training. It takes time to learn. You have had the time. We are each in our own stage of evolving skills of mastery. Some of us are ahead of others. Some are behind. It’s a matter of training and how often we have skipped school and didn’t do our homework. We are realizing each in our own way, at our own pace, in our own comfort zone, in our own timing. Each of us is on a solitary journey while living with friends, neighbors and a planet full of other people – all like us. In training with their bodies. We get distracted. We start arguing one against another but we’re all in it together, to discover the inner fire in the body. There is an ancient dimmed down dull fire trapped in the body. It is what allows it to be taught. It does listen with the right approach. We all know that. We've been working with it in this life. It is an INNER fire, not an outer one. It is a dull conscious fire, a dull consciousness trapped in the body. A divine alertness. A divine intelligence. The body could not respond to our directions without this inner intelligence, small and dim that it is, but it is intelligent. Like a little puppy it is intelligent. It is on the evolutionary trail from the monkey man, the neanderthal, and it too has the capacity to feel joy and excitement. When your body is happy, YOU are happy. You feel exalted and joyful.
Each soul has the fire embedded in its vehicle, the body. That means WE have a fire embedded in us. The fire we brought with us at birth, and the ancient buried fire that is implanted in the body itself. We are the self-conscious beings who came here to take up residence in this particular body, in this particular location and culture, to this particular family. We are now grown up and communicating with this body in a more mature way. This is the vehicle we reside in. Some of us are young enough to try to improve it, while others of us are long in years and trying to keep it going through senior years. We wonder why it doesn't work better. We are living in a day and age where ancient mystery schools are revealing the greater picture. The advice to seniors is - don't give up! There are amazing techniques coming online. Are even now streaming on youtube and other sources. The day is saved because there is new information that was not here five, ten, twenty years ago. The world is changing and becoming enlightened. We are being visited by angels, galactics, ascended masters, spiritual beings of such magnitude there are no names for them. The planet is going through an ascension process, and that means WE ARE TOO! Our solid bodies are becoming more refined. We are molding them into better creatures with new skills we are learning. Bend and flow with the new feelings. Accept the present moment as it is. Love yourself. It is a major leap in evolution that is happening. We are part of the evolving scheme of the divine plan.
Planning is required. The forethought of managing each day’s agenda requires that we fit inner work into the 24 hours that we are allotted. Managing does not require physical labor. It requires attention, conscious attention. Planning out a schedule is a work of intelligence. How should we do certain inner routines? They are routines done with conscious application of caring and kindness. Kindness is the part that is easy to forget in the frenzied distractions. Many voices call for our attention. It requires the application of self love, self comfort, self-awareness, self-discernment, self-intimacy, self-organization, self-routines, self-management, self-structure, self-refinement, self-forgiveness, self-purity, self-devotion. Choose any word that appeals to your sense of warmth and loving comfort, and highlight it in your frontal lobe. Fix it there as a mantra. I am using one today “my brain is sharp, clear and focused”. It could be “devotion”. Devotion to one’s own plan of action. Or commitment to something that is especially important to you. It's just a word. It takes a word or a series of words strung together into a mantra or affirmation that you can easily remember. Imprint it on your brain. Make it real. It is your plan of action that motivates you, that you remember on the spot. Memorize it. Let it be at your beck and call. It will bring you back to center. It is success that lights the fire of enthusiasm and excitement when you see it working. It gives you joy to be alive. There is a reason for being here. Find out what that reason is. What strikes the match and lights your fire? The light is always burning just ahead in the frontal cortex, just beyond the ”now”. It’s the carrot on the stick ahead. Keep your eye on it. That light is always burning. It is source light. It is the forever light because YOU made it and YOU lighted it. If you light it every day it doesn’t ever stop shining. We stop it by pulling the curtain over it and giving up.
One last thing: it’s OK to pull the curtain. It’s OK to retreat and give yourself a rest. I rest often during the day. Just light it again when you get up. It is not wrong to stop and rest. There is always time for rest from following the dream, the ideal, the ultimate, because this is a journey that never stops. It is eternal. The Godhead itself never stops evolving. It is always ahead of us to draw us onward. There are rest stops all along the way. Each rest stop is a fulfillment. One can stop and rest forever if one wishes, but he would grow bored eventually and resume the journey again one day. There is a time for expansion and a time for contraction and going to sleep. There is a season for all things. There is a human plan as well as a divine plan. It is an up and down movement – a contraction and expansion. A mountain and a valley. It is like crouching low to gather strength for the leap, and there is a yawning and a lying down to sleep. Former limits are surpassed and then there is a rest period. The spirit is refreshed and the bar is raised by our own work. And there is a play period following. There is a master at work planning the whole thing. Your higher self is the master planner. You can raise or lower the bar as you choose. You as the sentient personality are the worker in the field as the the arms and legs, hands and feet. But in the higher realms you are your own higher self sending instructions down the line. These instructions descending into your body through invisible lines of force, energy, nudges of inspiration and guidance. You are becoming better at recognizing these instructions. You are growing more efficient, learning as you go, testing yourself. And there are moments when you become one with your higher self in a flash of light and you know the truth of it all.
11/9/22 - Will power the first of seven spiritual gifts
The physical human body is the end result of self-conscious efforts to improve it. The purpose of disciplined practices such as meditation and yoga is to develop and strengthen oneself, but it takes will power to even begin. Will power is the first school we attended as pure spirit sparks before coming into embodiment on the earth plane. There are seven schools we must attend as immortals before embodying on Earth. The descent into form is an ancient mastery course. Seven schools are taught by great beings, mentors who have been where we are today. They teach the seven gifts of spirit that are so important for one who is about to leave the father’s blissful nest. We must be imprinted with the consciousness of the father.
The first school is that of the blue light. This is taught by the Ascendeds in mystery schools. The blue light is a certain power to use when confronted with the dualities and diversities of life in form. This gift is one of will power, strength, courage and determination. It is the will of source, the great one, that is imprinted into our consciousness before we descend. We need this gift first before the others, in order to even WANT to step out of our happy blissful life in heaven, and journey out beyond into the darkness to find adventure. There is struggle, excitement, pain and pleasure here, but one must have some direction and knowledge to know how to maneuver here - and choose rightly. The blue ray is the power of protection of Archangel Michael and of the Ascended Master El Morya, who is the current chohan of the blue ray. Chohan means “lord”.
Over the years I have learned much from the Ascendeds. It began after I was launched into the light. I didn't practice meditation before that, only after did I begin receiving meditation-type nudges, pokes, prods and hints. Being launched into the light was an initiation. It was not a near-death experience, it was an out-of-body experience. It happened thru the spontaneous and instantaneous opening of kundalini when I was 38 years old. It happened during a guided meditation under my sister’s instruction. It was spontaneous, but later I learned I had experienced it before in earlier lifetimes. And so it was innate in my consciousness. In other words, I was ready on the spiritual level, but had not had any preparation during my current life. My brain did not have any information, nor did my body. But I must have been prepared because I heard that unless you are prepared, it is dangerous to activate the kundalini. It causes insanity.
Activating kundalini – the mother flame at the base of the spine - is an individual event. Each person responds differently. For me, I experienced going up and out of my head into the light. It initiated a new consciousness in my mind, body and feelings and it took me ten years to become normal after that. But I only became normal with the help of hugging other bodies in the lifestyle of swinging. I’ve been in training ever since that initial event. So learning meditation was not in the cards at first. I WAS the meditation. Mental discipline was impossible. The more important training - picking up where I left off in prior lives apparently - was interacting in close proximity and intimately, with other warm-bodied human beings. I had an overwhelming power of love and couldn't handle it all alone. Apparently I needed to give it away by hugging other people. It wasn't sex, it was a love beyond measure. I was an activating force of love and didn’t know it. When I hugged on00 them intimately, I activated them. They told me. And they were able to return the favor back to me. This was the more important training that took place in those early years of my husband's and my lifestyle organization. We gave seminars, hosted gatherings of various kinds and, by the end of it all when my husband died 17 years later, I was sufficiently grounded back into the world of normal people again.
But enough about me. This message is about will power and how important it is to cultivate. After 46 years of working with love and light, I have "graduated" to mental discipline. With tongue in cheek I write this for I thought I would NEVER! But I am being guided. The first spiritual power required in order to descend into lower vibrations and take on a sentient earth body is will power. Apparently I entered into this life backward - ascending first and then descending to learn the lessons. Over time the mentors, bless their souls, channeled instructions to me. Over the first 10, 15 years they instilled in me the need to take control over my mind, and I didn't do so well with that! I was so full of love and light that I couldn't go against the grain of others I lived with, so I became a pussy cat. I felt so much empathy and caring and desire to hold them and care for them, I couldn't develop my will power. This has proven to be a failure on my part. But recently I have succeeded in passing the required mark. I developed will power to stick to my routines of meditation. In the beginning there were revelatory dreams at night and channeled messages during the day. As I learned to take time out and sit in silence, simply to sit still and enjoy the peace enfold me, I began receiving messages. Meditation, I guess they call it.
This was preliminary to undertaking routine disciplines. This should help people who find meditation difficult. I promise that it is worth it, once you develop will power. It took 30 years before I could actually control my mind to follow a set list of exercises and stick to it. Years of trying and failing, then trying again and failing again, until finally I understood I was weaving the right brain and left brain together. The passive and active together. Heaven and earth needed to join together and become oneness. My sense of Home was sitting in silence. Eventually you will find this to be true if you continue to practice. Sitting in silence I felt the universe and the stars and the oneness of being with them, and I allowed myself to drift there. It was not natural for me to focus on a script on paper. It was too superficial. However, with the help of the mentors, I became aware that this was the plan all along - to bring back the beautiful consciousness of peace, of love, of light from heaven, the stars, and plant it on earth by living it in the physical world. Over time I became better at following the script or list on paper. Just in the last few days I’ve accessed the mental fire in me. This is awesome. I can see it. It sparks sharply like electricity but it’s not physical. It’s an outline of the web of nerves that run thru my body, spine and brain. It resembles fire and is a keen and sharp focus that is suddenly there when I want it to be, or when I think about it.
So only gradually have I cultivated my mind to overcome my need to be constantly in comfort and peace. I have developed a pro-active, pro-assertive part of me. I am told this is the masculine side of me. It is becoming more dominant to focus mentally on the script on paper. The list of exercises. It is becoming more natural to use my mind, my intellect. I thought I would never do that so I guess I have advanced sufficiently, according to the mentors' instructions, since I have seen the fire in me. I now am coming to understand what will power means. It is a very powerful blue ray. It is will power, strength, courage and determination that has been the missing link for me. I had to learn to incorporate will power, mental will power, into my daily habits and so I am here to speak of this.
Many women are not prone to use discipline. It requires cutting off the sensuality that is inherent in women – or at least dimming it so that mental discipline can be used equally, along with sensual sentiency, at the rate of 50/50. Women are more spontaneous and follow their hearts. There are some men also who are more feminine than masculine and need to be aware of developing their will power. It is easy to fall back into the comfort zone and say, “I am what I am!” and let it go at that. But there is an evolution going on in the human race, spiritual progress does happen whether we like it or not, because there is a bigger, more powerful plan in action. And each one of us is on our own path to fulfill that divine plan as an individual. It's a plan to fulfill the higher good within us, under the guidance of our own Presence. So follow your heart. Your oversoul will lead you. You ARE your own oversoul.
Will power is the gift of the Mother flame planted at the base of the spine. The Mother flame is the counterpart of the Father who remains in the unformed state. The Mother flame is known as kundalini in the East, and as the holy spirit in the West. Will power is the first chakra in the form of the Mother flame at the base of the spine. It is barely active in the unawakend person, semi-active in the awakened, and more and more so as the person progresses at his own pace. For centuries it has been basically closed off to the average human being, but times are changing.
The second chakra is the gift of enlightened intelligence, wisdom and discernment. It is a portal that opens when the first chakra, the mother flame, expands. As the Mother flame expands, it melts the seal of the second chakra, known as the sex chakra, but it is really about discernment, wisdom and intelligence in how to use this beautiful spiritual gift. As the second chakra melts and opens in the right way, slowly enlightenment seeps into the consciousness and daily action is altered. Choices become apparent so the person is made aware of the subtle gifts being presented to him, instead of blindly following the sexual habits of the forefathers.
The third chakra is the gift of unconditional love and reverence for life, adoration and devotion to the highest and best. The third chakra is the solar plexus. It is a portal that opens when the Mother flame melts thru the second chakra of enlightened intelligence, releasing that gift, and expands further up to the solar plexus along the etheric hollow of the spine. Then the Mother flame melts the door of the third chakra, and a love that has not been felt before seeps slowly into the consciousness of the person. Love beyond understanding pervades the daily life if this door is opened and maintained in the gentle way of reverence.
These first three chakras represent what is called “the holy trinity”. They are gifts of the father and are most important, being the basic and fundamental powers for a human being to learn to use in daily life. We have largely mimicked the instruction in an empty, superficial way. But power doesn't come from mimicking and pretending. It is not theoretical, nor abstract. Power requires applying the gift to daily life. It then transforms the human life. Each gift is to be applied and worked with in daily situations. These are the tests and trials of the person who is bent on improving or evolving his life. The quicker these three powers are put to action and used day and night, the quicker the outer life will show signs of it. Little miracles start to take place.
One of the common tests that pops up for everyone in life, is this. Are you going to let pain stop you from applying what you know you should do? It could be a physical pain that confronts you, when you have made a decision to go ahead with a certain action. Are you going to let pain stop you from proceeding with the plan? Or are you going to let pain stop you? This is a hard one. Pain stops everyone from doing what they planned to do. Very few souls opt to plunge ahead despite the pain to accomplish the pre-planned task. It is a test of the soul. It is the test of choice. Which is more important? The eternal soul or the temporary body vessel which is disposable?
Another example. You belong to a group of beloved like-minded friends, but the consensus of a specific action they are going to take causes you to disagree with them. You have never gone against them before. Are you now going to act upon your innate intelligence even if it goes against your friends? Or are you going to let yourself be talked into going along with their way, even if you don't agree? This is another test of the soul. It is a test of choice. Who is more important? God the father in you? Or your standing with your friends?
The body is a temporary vehicle for the soul to learn through. Tests are created by the soul for the soul to see and isolate the differences between right and wrong. The higher self which lives forever? Or the body personality which lives only one lifetime and is gone. This requires deep understanding. If you let the pain or social discomfort stop you, you are choosing to let the physical body stay in charge over your higher self. The body remains the master control. The soul is the one who creates the test, and the soul is the one who benefits or loses. The soul is the one evolving. The soul is the immortal one who orchestrates the life, but the personality often takes over and takes charge, denying the soul its chance to grow. The body is temporary, though most people do not consider it that way. The body is the more powerful of the two to most people, since it is the most present and here now and solid. The average person is unaware of his true status as an eternal immortal self. The recent rash of near-death experiences is bringing this truth forward like never before in modern history. This body built of dust of the earth dies at the end of its life, and he realizes at the transition point, as my sister did on her death bed, “I’m not who I thought I was!”
The body doesn’t have the ability to live forever. Only you who live in the body is benefiting from the many lessons that you learn throughout this life. You are the immortal one. You are the one who never dies but lives forever. Not as THIS body, but as this consciousness of being "me"! I am what I am. Thus, the reason for the soul to take on one body after another after another after another in a series of incarnations. We are here to grow in understanding, which brings us into mastery over our bodies. That is how we join the ranks of the other ascended masters. For we live with the awareness that we are who we are. I am what I am. And we can create a body when we want one because we have learned how to maintain a perfectly functioning physical body.
The disciplines of meditation, mindfulness, yoga and other routines are practices in developing will power and control over the body. This has been the school of the past, the ancients left us with routines. The future rouotine is one of grace, love, empathy, kindness, understanding and more along these lines of gentleness. It is a forward progress of melding and weaving both thought and feeling together as one. But I am getting ahead of myself here. I will stop for now. As you do the work of molding and shaping your physical body, remember that you are both masculine and feminine. Both will power and love-light. Both mind and heart. Together we weave them into a heavenly physical life.
11/7/22 - Briefly...
Very busy with inner work AND outer work, trying to manage the various foci. Just to let anyone know who is wondering - yes! I'm still here. Will be posting more soon enough. I love hearing from people, so write me if you feel to. Use the contact form. Sending good wishes to all and lots of love and light. Take care of yourselves deeply and with tenderness. Take time out often and breathe into your heart.
11/2/22 - The rewards of meditation practices
My inner meditation practices were boring at first. They were intellectual pursuits. There were years of struggle trying to get it right. I had a goal, I had a list of techniques to practice, but it was constantly changing, adapting, correcting. It was fun for a while and then it grew frustrating. A period of satisfaction - Ojala! It worked and I felt good. Then slowly dissatisfaction crept into the works. I wanted to rearrange the routine. Why? I was seeking perfection.
Meditation is a struggle. It's practice doing something from a different angle. Angle? Angel? Changing my approach is like changing from the head trip I was on to the angelic or divine approach. I continued to work at it. Looking back on the years I've been practicing meditation, it's like weaving threads into my life that are opposite threads. I am trying for perfection but it is never completed. I hold it up and look at it in the mirror at a distance and I feel somewhat satisfied, but it’s not complete yet. There is more work to be done on it. More weaving, more thinking, a slightly different approach, a different angle of perspective. THIS is the real work. Meditation practice is not a “thing”, it is an on-going, ever-changing of the mind to more subtleness, more inwardness, more sacredness, and it is constantly blending and healing. One must not give up.
I must not give up because I am noticing the refinements in myself. There is something pulling me into betterment. I am developing softness and resilience - the ability to recover from difficulties and spring back into shape more quickly after tense situations. The more time I take away from the outer world of the mundane (social and work pressures) the more I find myself applying these new tactics. I discover abilities during meditation practice. The more time I go alone into my room away from people, the more focus I apply to the pre-planned list of exercises, the better I can weave the the "warp and woof" together. The warp and woof is a term that comes from the world of weaving vertical threads with horizontal threads. It is learning how to weave consciousness of the outer world, the horizontal, with the consciousness of the higher spiritual world, the vertical. It is subtle learning. It requires total attention to what you're doing. The results are an inner telepathy from spirit. Words filter down out of the blue into my mind. I get a thought suddenly to check out a book on the shelf, or to go online and research a word, or to realize the significance of the dream last night. There is a cross-weaving going on. It is subtle and if I am distracted by a buzz or a bell or a knock on the door, I lose it.
Meditation time is alone time. It requires pre-planning. It is not something done spontaneously as I once thought. It requires regularity, what the Masters call "rhythm". There are cycles to living a good life. This is work. It is study. It is homework. Everyday homework. Each day when I stop focusing on the outer world of "things" and "people", I touch the forces within me. The subconscious, the unconscious, the present conscious and the super conscious all at the same time. They are blending and bending together, weaving together. Universal laws, galactic laws and human laws all flow together. I am becoming more and more aware, little by little, ever so gradually, that I am not the separated self that I thought I was. I've grown my awareness like a seed in the ground grows and grunts and pushes itself upward to break the surface and drink in the sun's rays. The sun delights in me and approves of my hard labor. The sun shines down on me and beams happily, refreshing me with new life force.
So does each individual who takes the time to apply him or herself. It requires taking the time. During this time you see things that are hidden. Occult. Beyond physical sight. Revelations come unbidden. It's the earned reward. It is especially important to take solitary time in these days of planetary changes, as we move to a new position in the heavens, closer to the central source of it all. Forces beyond our understanding are operating. It is a resting period to go alone without anyone else around to distract you. Aloneness with your higher, inner self is assurance that everything is going well. It is all good. There is a sense of peace and home-coming beyond understanding why or what causes it.
The light from the sun is a distributor of a still greater light. It's influencing our solid world of physicality. We've been taught to see only the physical world, so we are blinded. We have been trying to see thru closed doors in the mind, but there is life in the physical cells of the organs. And there is the Mother flame down below at the base of the spine - the base chakra. It is called kundalini by the Eastern mystics and the holy spirit by Christian mystics. We were trained from infancy to stay in the head and think with the head (and higher by the churches) but the soul is not confined to the head. It lives in the dense cells of the body and in everything around us, our friends, our family, our house, furniture, cars, bushes and animals. Everything is alive with the life from the sun, the life of the soul. Everything has a soul. The earth itself is alive because of the sun and the soul that lives in it. The soul is our higher self. It is the REAL in us, the authentic, the impersonal and the everlasting me and you.
The life force of the Mother flame in the root chakra is planted there as our base of operations as long as we live in a sentient body. She will remain there as our guardian and mother until death - or until we start working with her and recognizing her and start raising her up with respect and honor. She, the Mother flame is a powerful force - more powerful than we can know - and more pure. The mind cannot grasp this power without surrendering to it in appreciation, respect and humbleness. It is an inner force. It is in bending and blend with this inner force that the human personality begins to expand and enlarge its awareness. Understanding seeps in. This process has been misunderstood. We don’t become subservient to the pleasures and lusts of the body. Rather we become subservient to the Mother flame, and the Mother flame responds with a different kind of pleasure. The reward is one of great peace, the peace that passes all understanding. It is the peace of the mystic and it leads to rapture.
Then the body consciousness and the Mother flame become united and begin a relationship that is equal - as equal as a friend accepts a new best friend forever. They become equals and they tell each other EVERYTHING. They don’t hold anything back. It’s a sacred blend. One that cannot be told to someone else because it's private. It's the REAL you communicating with the little you. The little you personality expands then and takes on more and more of the grandeur of the REAL you. The Mother flame is holding space and power for you to discover it.
The physical body (your personality) then expands and opens the doors from inside. It is a willing conscious choice to do this. It has to come from you. You have to do the work. It's like French doors, they push outward under pressure from your hands. We’ve been locking this REAL self out. We've been locking out the Mother flame at the base chakra. We’ve closed the doors on it with sin and shame. There is a conscious practice to meditation, and to each one it is a solitary journey. It is loosely called meditation, but you are the creator of your own program and agenda. It requires daily maintenance and modification which seeps in from your REAL self which is your soul self. How often you take time out from your physical outer life will bring its own rewards. New ideas and concepts will come gradually, automatically. The rearranging of your practice and your time routine, plus the what, how, when and level of commitment, is what makes it work. And the silence. Of just sitting in silence and becoming conscious of the silence and your breathing. Allow for silence every day. Blend silence with the pre-planned routine.
The more you pre-plan it and practice with silence, the better will be your comfort zone, as routine becomes a daily practice. The inner application is one that will inspire you, motivate you and resurrect you with an inflowing vitality. If it’s boring, it’s being done mechanically in your head. It doesn't work that way. Meditation and inner work is something that blends the physical body with the spiritual intellect. It feels good to blend them together. Perhaps you will discover this for yourself. Perhaps you will look forward to meditation time and start planning your day around it.
It is the work of connecting your outer mundane social personality with your REAL personality, the big one you didn't realize you had. You DO have a larger personality, a more REAL one. It has been called the crystal self or the christ self. It is untainted, pure, crystalline consciousness light. It is made of the same substance as the One who made you. This REAL personality connects heaven with earth in a unique way so there is a blend of both heaven and earth involved. You don't have to give up your earthly personality; it is transformed into a more perfect one. It is the goal and purpose of Earth life and the eons of reincarnating in body after body until we can bring forth the beauty and perfection of the REAL self. We need to learn how to maintain the body first, and learn how to manage it better. As a self-conscious soul which separated from the infinite body of the One Whole, our goal is to reconnect and recreate and maintain a happy physical body, fulfilled. Then life is pleasurable, beautiful, creative, abundant with new ideas, projects, art, science and more. We are a race ready to explode into a whole new way of being and living in the midst of an evolving, well-maintained and managed physical environment – a literal garden of Eden.
It will take time but that’s what we’re here for – to contribute to the beautifying of humanity. We musn’t wait any longer for someone else to create it for us. We must begin by cultivating it ourselves, by harmonizing and refining our own home life and relationships with the larger community around us, as we settle and nest into it. We are becoming team players even in the midst of the current turmoil called "transition". It will not last much longer. People are changing and getting it. Blessings especially to YOU who are reading this today!
11/1/22 - The feminine way vs. the masculine way
The masculine way is to focus and press. The feminine way is to receive, allow and be spontaneous. Men shut out extraneous thoughts and influences to get the job done - an objective with a goal, whether he knows it or not. It is programmed into the male. He strives for an end result. The feminine opens to all and everyone in order to connect and pull in what belongs to her. She seeks to enhance herself, she opens to it, knowing it is out there and she will attract it to herself, whatever she needs. She allows it. She doesn’t want to exclude anything because she knows she is part of the allness. She doesn't know she knows but she does. This automatically draws to her what she needs and wants and repels what she doesn’t need or want. The two opposite approaches, masculine and feminine, often causes friction. Sometimes fun and love but more often friction. It’s been a journey of trying to find balance with the others who are not quite like us. I used to think my way of open femininity was the best way, but thru many years involved in the swinging experience of yielding to men, even those who didn't really fit with me, I learned that by being so totally open I took on negative energies. I allowed myself to become subserviant. I gave up discretion and discernment and lost the ability to feel what was right for me and what was wrong. I accepted ALL men and they all left a mark on my energy field so I maxxed out in confusion and frustration. It came to a halt when I found myself beginning to harbor hatred. I stopped then.
The planet Earth has been a male world for centuries. The fathers ruled. It was a patriarchy. This system allowed the evil doers to come from off-planet sources and influence the human men. The men were encouraged, the women discouraged from living naturally and spontaneously. Over time, without the balancing spontaneous freedom and happiness of women, evil insidiously crept into humanity. Without the free-flowing love expression of women, evil will always take over. Through logic. This is a downhill slide into the dark place where we have ended up as a race, as a planet. As we are starting to become aware, the universe functions on balance - equal balance between contraction and expansion. Today the expansion process is underway, and the contraction process is diminishing and losing power. The feminine is on the rise in both genders and it is supported by galactic sources. A new era is dawning. The age of Aquarius is next in the Zodiac, where love rules the stars. Think “grace, graceful”, and bending and blending. Think "unity" and "harmonizing". Think softening and neutralizing.
For the men it is time to pay attention to the feminine approach, maybe not all women express femininity, so not all women are good examples. But take on and try out some of the softer, more loving approaches. And for the women it is time to learn to focus attention on their own leadership abilities, building confidence in their own thoughts. It is helpful to create an agenda, a plan of action, and stick to it. Live within your own planned actions, instead of following someone else's plan. It is time for women to cultivate their assertive leadership skills, take some self-help courses, and practice asserting themselves to gain some confidence. And it is time for the men to step down from having to be the leader and feel solely responsible for everything. Ease up feeling as if there is no hope for them, they have to keep trudging and laboring. Men should learn how to bend and blend with their feminine counterparts and treat them as equals. To listen to feminine ideas and notice how they approach things. Only for the sake of noticing and learning from women, not to give up their approach but to expand and blend their approach with some softer, gentler, big brother skills. It is a mix of both feminine and masculine that creates balance.
Think “grace”, “dignity” to help find the right angle of approach, the exact right degree of being sensitive. Not too much, but just a little more than usual. It is a work in process in these days. It is a meld of both sides. For the overly controlling man, there are certain signs that you are doing it right. A yawn for example. Notice when you yawn or take a sudden deep breath. These are two signs signaling a switch-over to the parasympathetic nervous system which is the rest and relax nervous system. Hard-working women should notice it too. As you consciously relax your hardened or fixed focus, you expand yourself deeper to touch into subconscious or unconscious areas. It's called the parasympathetic nervous system. The entire underlying bodily structure of mental, emotional and other forces relax and adjust, balance and align, meld and blend into more of a wholeness. Tears may be felt gathering as emotions are stirred, a yawn may appear unexpectedly, a deeper-than usual intake of breath, a sigh takes place as the underlying subconscious/unconscious is tapped into. Yay! It’s a good sign.
The women who are too soft, too feminine, too open and too yielding, have an opposite job to do. They need to harden their focus and create an agenda for themselves. It is as hard for a woman to do this, as it is for a man to do the opposite. Living together as a couple of opposites requires work - the work of becoming sensitive to each other. Cultivate inner discernment of noticing body talk and body habits. Care for one another and help each other to find that inner balance that expresses outwardly as love. Inner balance is the sacred work we are all working towads. Nobody can do it for you, and you can’t do it for another. Only sensitive quiet love will do the work which does not announce itself in words. Trying to tell a partner what is wrong and how to do it “better” just creates guilt and adds to their already unbalanced condition of low self esteem. They’ll put up resistance and build a harder shell so they can’t be hurt more than they have been. Instead, help each other with silent acts of kindness, caring and with wisdom. Notice. Be aware.
I notice that my husband yawns sometimes when we are discussing a meaningful topic. He yawns repeatedly when he hits the maximum point, and I know it is time to bring the conversation to an end without telling him why. I am aware of this subconscious response in him. There is no more need to explain or keep talking. I just slow down and come to an end. His yawn communicated to me without words that he had reached his maximum level of expansion. Enough! I too notice it in myself. I learn about me by watching him. His normal and natural nature as a man conditioned all his life as a man, is primal. He shuts me off with sharp words if he’s not in a receptive mood. It is an automatic reaction to interruption of his plane of thought. He doesn’t intend to bark at me and apologizes later, or he just keeps moving on past me to continue with what he was doing, usually in a noticeable huff. I might as well stop talking mid-sentence. He won’t even notice - and doesn’t. He is on automatic response. I have learned to be aware, and over time, kind and sensitive. I learn from him. I have learned a lot about a man’s nature by spending 28 years living with him.
It was my understanding in earlier years that wives are better at noticing and being sensitive than husbands are, but in recent years I have gradually noticed that men are changing as a general rule. There are a growing number of men who are becoming very self aware and wise about how to treat and respond to women. When my husband is not in the mood to pause what he’s doing and listen to me, his body language tells me. But it takes sensitivity on my part to notice and be wise in response. Growing in grace is the preferred method, in place of arguing! Some women may be more like a man by being focused, controlling and argumentative. Then it is up to the men in her life to respond with wisdom and astute kindness, but NOT subservience. I have often seen men become patronizing in the presence of their wives. But this is not preferable for anyone. Women need input from an intelligent, confident and kind husband, but not a servile one! Woman will continue to look to the man, as evolution continues to expand, for the man is her other half, her counterpart. He is equal in power to her power. They balance each other as they bend and blend together, with honest kindness. Or kind honesty. Then both of them benefit. A hard-line focus and resistance comes from lack of confidence and low self-esteem. Not knowing what to do, a barrier is erected to prevent further hurt or questioning. Information is needed. Create conversation wisely and share what you know with each other. Kindly, please.
10/29/22 - Awakening past lives
This morning around 4 am I woke with heavy legs. They have been feeling dense and uncomfortable for a few days now. I got out the acupressure mat, the one with small plastic points all over it, and lay down on it and put my feet up on the shelf above the bed. After 20 minutes with raised legs, I felt to massage my legs following the leg meridians. I sat on the floor and began. Many thoughts started coming. Concerned about the feeling of heaviness. What's wrong with me? How best can I deal with it? What's causing it? The thought came then not to focus on the physical, but rather to expand my focus larger to include the etheric body - the forces that accumulate in the etheric body before channeling into the physical. No sooner did I do that then the subtle flows of bliss began, subtle lightness ran up the legs. Ahhh! A good connection. It felt good but not nearly good enough because this was a very heavy, dense feeling in my legs. A feeling of deadness.
I remembered the blog I posted yesterday, which was from my Presence, the Mother I AM in me, my higher self. She had told me, “I AM the heavy in you.” At the time, that statement was confusing. It didn’t make sense, for I was always focusing on Light work. But what followed next cleared up the confusion.
“I AM the heavy in you,” she said. As I continued stroking my legs, for an hour or more, more information came seeping into my consciousness. It was as if I was calling forth particles of myself that I had left behind over many lifetimes on Earth, through many bodies I lived in which had died unfulfilled. I began seeing sparks of myself twinkling from all over the planet. I saw the round dark ball of Earth and little lights responding to me, popping up out of the heavy darkness. Bits and pieces of my life, MY fire, in the form of golden sparkles. They were scattered all over the planet like gold dust. I had left them behind when I died those countless numbers of deaths. I, the immortal one, had lived in many bodies but had not completed or fulfilled these matter bodies. The whole purpose of building, creating and living through a body made of solid matter. I had not self-realized myself in those prior bodies so I was called to return again and again, and to reclaim them. And each time I came back I accumulated more knowledge, more wisdom, more self-realization, but not completing the process. I died each time incomplete and was either buried, burned or in some other way disposed of, my corpses decaying into Mother Earth's soil to add to the growing heap of other corpses, and each corpose leaving the golden sparks of atoms and electrons - the immortal life - buried along with it.
Bits and pieces of my immaculate eternal life, the fire of immortality, was left still alive, trapped in the decaying tissue. Suddenly the whole picture expanded like - zap! I knew the truth. My life was given to me in the beginning to hold onto and expand upon, to evolve with and into, and to I was held responsible to it. And so far it had not been accomplished. These bits and pieces of my sparkle, my life, were left drifting aimlessly around the planet, Mother Earth. They had become buried deeper and deeper under the sludge of many lives, many souls, for eons, for this was a dark planet, not an enlightened. We did not know. No one told us how to evolve the goodness in us. We died often in despair. Many souls have come and gone on Mother Earth, all of whom had also lived and died and left their decaying tissue behind. How many lives had I lived on this planet?
Two nights ago I had awakened with words talking to me: “interment and disinterment”. At the time I had no idea why I was given them but I wrote them down and researched them on line. I learned that interment was the burying of a corpse, and disinterment was the dredging up of old corpses. Now I understood. It made sense. I had been given the words in preparation for what I was about to be shown. This revelation was a next step in the process of self-discovery. I am now gathering long lost bits and pieces of my immortal life that belong to me, that I have lost over the ages and eons of time, and they are heavy with age. They carry the weight of the world around them, but they are still pure. They are living light that cannot be tainted because they are immortal life. They belong to me. It is my job to reclaim them and LIFT them, RAISE them, with my positivity that I have learned. I have been instructed and prepared for this and so I am in joy to discover this. I am found! I have lived many lives, many, many, many lives, even before I became a human being of modern time. I was alive in the mineral kingdom, in the plant kingdom, in the animal, in the early animal-man. I have been evolving my self-consciousness out of the beginning dust of earth because I am the creator. Now I am reaching the epitome, the peak of the evolving sequence. It is the process of returning home to the immaculate Presence that awaits. The creator manifesting a solid body that is complete to the perfection of itself. It is all a game, it is not serious, it is the fun of manifesting the beauty and idealism that one feels deep within themselves.
The fire, the immortal fire that had been lost in all those previous embodiments, is coming home to me now. It was unfulfilled and unclaimed at the end of each embodiment, at each death, and therefore parts of me kept calling me back to Earth to reclaim them. A sense of something missing or unfinished. It is my responsibility to find it. They had became lost, detached, scattered like dust, and I never knew until now. Now I have gained sufficient understanding to be told the truth. I am here to gather myself back together again. The heaviness is the old light, still living, but weight down because it is separate, left behind, lost and detached in the soil of earth. “I AM the heaviness in you.” And now I am gathering and lightening it as I understand, and gathering it into my heart with love. Love is the underlying agenda. Love life back into yourself. Love your organs, love your muscles. Love the cells of each bone, each tissue of your body. As I learn the truth, as I lift myself and my light higher and higher, discarding the heaviness, like peeling away the skin of an onion, I become the Light fulfilled. More an more of the ancient lost light joins with me, to my organs, muscles and skin as I repeat the words: “I Am Light!”
Ahh! It is coming clearer. So that is why I had the experience during the Torus breath of gathering my bits and pieces of myself as I plunged deep into Earth and held focus there, gathering, calling out to the fragments that had been scattered, calling them to me to come home to me. Mother God said “I Am the heaviness in you!” and she was referring to the parts of myself that are immortal, that I had left behind. I am now reclaiming them to me. I am in the last stages of completing my mission. Reconnecting all the parts of myself that I had left behind over many lifetimes on Earth. She is saying “I AM the heaviness in you!” and indeed I do feel the heaviness in my lower legs and feet – the Mother God immortal in me - was also buried along with the matter of decaying tissue. The fire of many electrons are still alive for they can NEVER die but they were lost. They are immortal but they were detached. They added to the life blood of the planet, left behind from many other embodied souls before me, unrealized bodies of decomposing in the earth’s soil, adding to the ground effluvia. Building, decomposing and creating the solid matter of the planet. Living sparks of fire adding their mark. I too left my gold dust here. Now I see and feel in the trees surrounding our house that I am part of the tree, part of the birds that fly to and fro around us. I am one with all that is. I understand. I see this now. It is a coming home. It is very clear. Very simple. A much larger picture than I could grasp before now. I understand the process. It is everyone’s process. It is not a loud “Oh, WOW!” It is a simple completion, a final act, the last stone imbedded in the temple of oneself, one's knowledge and self-realization. It is a lovely, sweet, gentle acceptance. As gentle and smooth as a baby going to sleep in one's arms. It is not a celebration or a hoopla of joy. It is an Amen.
And when I massaged my friend the other night and saw the beings starting to gather to her, I know now – I didn’t know then who they were – but now I know these are her past personalities, lives, embodiments of different ages and cultures coming home to her. It is a soul gathering. Gathering pieces of her lost soul. Her embodied selves, all ghosts of her own experiences coming home to her to be reclaimed by her. Many lives, many personalities, many memories are part of the journey. They come home when the the creator is ready to acknowledge them. Ghosts of ourselves return to be honored, respected, appreciated and raised up. I saw them only subtly coming to her as I held my hand against the severe pain in her side. The reaction of a vaccine injection. As I held my hand against her skin I passed the light into her body and called to the Light in her. They were attracted to the Light, to their mother, the creator who left them behind. They too wanted closure. They were waiting for just such a moment. They were attracted to her, awaiting her acceptance. I discussed it further with her, only later, after I understood. There is so much to learn, to share, to tell, to acknowledge and so I am writing about it.
We are the immortal ones who have lived many lives before this one, and we are here to reclaim and remember that light, which was covered over by the darkness here. Do not be afraid. Light is ecstasy and rejuvenation. Light is resurrection. Light is clarity and most of all Light is Love when it starts to awaken and move about. It is felt as Love. There is nothing like it anywhere in the universe. Love is all there is. Each piece of immortal fire that was left unclaimed behind, is a piece of love that belongs to oneself. As we gather our past together, we gather our love, knowledge, respect for ourselves and understanding of who we REALLY are. This is the great journey that we are on here - remembering and reclaiming our lost light and lost love.
10/27/22 - A galactic message about sex
I found a validating statement about sex this morning in an old Sedona Journal. I've been waiting for over 30 years for spiritual sources to validate what I already know deep in my heart, and from personal experience, and nobody else seems to know. I have never seen it in print before. The consciousness of the channels have apparently been unable to handle sexual information, but finally this message came through someone. It is a quote and the source is not mentioned. It's what I have felt for many years. This is the push, the incentive, the knowledge, behind the beautiful love that humans are capable of experiencing.
(Anonymous) “Most humans are afraid of their own sexual energies. The history on your planet of keeping sex hidden has caused many problems. Now is a time to channel it and use it in the beautiful way it was meant to be used. [i.e., with freedom and love] You are seeing a different change in your own physical sex drives. There are some who for a variety of reasons have turned the switch off. You may find it coming back all by itself. It is a natural reaction for humans to think of sexuality as being a base energy of the animalistic nature. We tell you that is not the case. Sexual energy is light coming in from Home being shared through your body. As you make these evolutions, your own sexual connections will come to life. It is simply more of spirit being infused into your bodies. This is the basis of sexual energy. Watch for these things. Play with them. Find a way that you can use these intentionally instead of being overwhelmed by them. Know that every step you take is a new path and you are being watched throughout the universe. Even many of the races that came here originally to help you form these physical bodies, are watching in the most incredible amazement. You are doing it. Nice work.”
10/26/22 - Channeled: Your feminine is your anchor
A dream woke me. In the dream I am trying to find something heavy to hold on to, like an anchor to hold me down. I hear a voice saying, "I am the heavy in you. I am the mother in you. Everything heavy in you is me. I am all the heaviness in you. Find ME!" I wrote it down - my dreams are often messages - and went back to sleep. Again I woke up with words to write down: "Put everything good and heavy in one place. Anchor it. It will hold you down. It is solid. It is real. It is good. It is the condenser. Feminine is the condensing agent."
Later, during exercise time I was feeling SOOOO heavy and thick that I decided to sit down and ask in writing for advice. I sat at the table and took paper and pen. I asked, “Can you instruct me about this need I have for some hands-on work? I don‘t want men, I want to have women either to cuddle or hold close or massage. It is a pressure, a need, a desire? I am ashamed to say I have a desire. I thought I was over all personal desires. Will you please instruct me? Should I start a women‘s massage and hot tub party? The need is so great? The following words began to flow across the paper:
"My darling one! I am within you now, within the cells of your vehicle. There are many dimensions coming together within your physical vessel. There is yet time. However, your sense of urgency is noticed. Thank you for speaking with me about your heart’s longing, your feelings. Let us not call it desire or frustration as you were - on the tip of your tongue - about to say. No. The sensations that you are feeling is the power of love. You need to express your love to others, yes, and to receive the love from others, yes. The coming together of the dimensions are causing mini-explosions of love from Creator within your body, they are from Father-Mother God/Goddess/All That IS. These are coming into your body vessels through your seven bodies. Yes, SEVEN bodies. You have opened yourself to the seven levels and the seven tones. The frequencies are unfolding and spreading through your physical, etheric, emotional and mental bodies. Affinity and love, as you yourself picked up on this morning, and registered from reading the book, “Beyond the Light Barrier”. When Akon met with the woman from South Africa it was a twin-flame meeting. You felt that. Your body is registering the affinity of love which is everywhere present. Most bodies are not prepared to receive as yours is. You WILL be bringing more affinity and love to others as you dare to ask for these gatherings. You have asked for Friday as a party of freedom for women. Now you are asking for Saturday as a massage gathering for women. It is the Saturday party for massage that you are now radiating upon with affinity and love for the PHYSICAL connection. You are focusing on this and registering this on your conscious brain cells. The feeling you are asking about is the entertaining of frequencies within your central hub that is the gathering place of all the frequencies from your mind and emotions and etheric and your precious light - that which you have correctly identified as the Christ. You have done well, my beloved. You have been doing the clearing which allows your body to remain sensitive and networked with the physical world.
"Therefore you must interact in some manner with the physical world around you, that comforts your physical body. Your physical body is the connecting point with the world. Without your body being comforted, you will leave. You know that. You are working along those thoughts. You are aware. (Q about the power that is blossoming inside the physical.) Yes, the physical body holds a power - THE power that has not been manifested on earth for a very long time. It is the feminine power from source. It has been held back which is why there is so much resistance over allowing love to be free. The dark side is the male side for a purpose: to prevent love and light from interfering with construction of the physical world, for the physical world requires boundaries and limits. It would not have been constructed to this advanced point if everyone had been free to love and grow ecstasy, rapture and bliss. It was not “time” for that. There had to be a “time” for the construction with limits and boundaries, when love and bliss - the energy of oneness - to be held back so that solid construction of a physical world could take place. The women, as you have noticed and learned through your lifestyle activities, are open to love and affinity with “All That Is” - the sea of harmony. They have been held back until now. The seeds of change have been planted that carry the codes, the frequencies of love, harmony, peace, freedom, truth, purity, innocence - these frequencies have been planted in the new-borns.
"They are growing up with these frequencies as their Home, their default system. They do not know resistance other than what is imposed upon them from their parents, friends, school system, etc. Then it is THEIR testing time. Be careful how you verbalize this. Be a comforting agent. Your knowledge is wisdom in you, but this knowledge is not in your brain cells or outer flesh. This knowledge comes THROUGH you as a continual flowing from your higher self. From ME! I am your life and your knowing and flowing. I live in your body. You as a physical vessel do not know these things. You are preparing your vessel for ME! I am what I Am and you are an outward representative of me. Continue to plan for ME! I am feeding you with instruction via the feelings within your body-mind. Your body has a mind of its own and could displace me if you let it. It is a shadow of ME!! I am your life and your love, and your yearning to know and to experience through communication and touch with others. Your spontaneity was gifted to you many years ago. You were a body of the matrix, and your sister, Muniji, Bob and you, all came together - especially YOU - to initiate this experience. YOU have always been at the crux of your matrix body and YOU called for this opening, this ascension. Yes, it was indeed an ascension. YOUR ascension, and you decided to return to the lower dimension, the matrix, to gift the matrix world with your knowledge. You have been doing that. You have done wonders with your lifestyle and now you will continue to work wonders by leaving the lifestyle to work with the women’s empowerment." (The words faded and I knew it was done. Received/channeled 10/9/19)
10/25/22 - A technique for balancing left & right brain
The last ten days have been dizzying and life-altering as a result of Hurricane Ian, but today it has cleared. I am clear-headed today and amazed. Going back over recent days and changes I've been doing, I want to share this discovery. Just before closing my laptop for the night, I chose a random page out of thousands of journaled inspirational writings and channelings. A spontaneous selection process is often exactly what one needs, and so it is tonight. Out of the dizzying array of changes over the past weeks, I began formulating a routine of activities to balance my left and right brain. Or you could say, of alternating my passive activities with my active activities. A spontaneous inspirational message echoed my new routine. It was a message I received from DK back in 2009, thirteen years ago. He said to me:
"Enter the center where Yin resides. Yang is the outer whirling arms. Meditation and Tantra is the practice of stilling the outer senses and focusing on the inner imagination. Some people say time is moving past so fast they can’t keep up, but time is not moving at all. Only the hands of the clock move, and the arms and legs. Time does not move. There is no movement at the center. Enter the center where there is no movement. There is no sense of movement in the center. The center is where love blossoms. Where connections are felt. Where individuals merge yet retain their individuality. Where individuality expands to greater clarity. The center is where you know yourself and I know myself. The center is where we can enjoy intimacy together. The center is an elevator to higher grander vaster ground, to a higher form of love that is not possessive. The center is where you can have many lovers, many friends, many family members, in harmony, without conflict, without jealousy. The center is where you access your own deepest resources. The center is where physical sex becomes a spiritual and emotional connection. The center is where wisdom flows like water, where visions twinkle and sparkle, where love becomes freedom, and freedom becomes love, where yang becomes yin and yin becomes yang, the outer and the inner merge and become One with All That Is. The result is bliss, ecstasy, rapture and more. In order to grow in wisdom and love, you must learn how to integrate and balance the ego - which is your sense of being separate from others - with your higher self which is one with all others. Higher self keeps you sane, whole, balanced, clear and real."
What I concluded at the end of the day today was that when I take time out to rest periodically and rest with conscious breathing exercises, I enter the center of myself where yin resides. It proved to me that my regimen was producing the desired result. But the key was that I did it proactively. I consciously created my own routine and followed it as one might follow a script. It was a pre-plan. Conscious choice and conscious determination in following one's own plan is the key to success. To create betterment it requires a pre-plan. An agenda. This has been difficult for me to do. It has taken years for me to learn how to do this. But it has succeeded. I enter the center where yin resides, and yin is peace, quiet, resuscitating, loving and nurturing.
And when I decide to end my resting period - my choice - with pro-choice determination and begin moving about again, doing constructive projects, I start my physical body moving, which includes circulating the blood, pumping the heart, activating the muscles and brain function. By moving physically I enter the solid world of my environment which is my responsibility. It needs my continual care. I am responsible for it, but it wears me out if I don't rest periodically and regenerate. As Seven of Nine on the Star Trek series says, "I must regenerate" when I am tired. Or perhaps bored, or simply get an inner sense that it's time to rest. When I CONSCIOUSLY choose to stop my physical activities and rest, release all outer focus and once more enter the center where yin resides, and there I feel an inner peace start to seep all through me. It blossoms within me, within the cells of my body. And there is a sense of somethin like love or bliss that moves simultaneously all through me. I sulspect this is because I have been meditating for so many years but it should work for anyone, even a beginner to try this. I highly recommend it.
And when I get up again to resume outer physical action, I am more clear-headed and balanced between my inner and outer forces. Balance is restored between yin and yang, the positive and negative in me. Or you could say between the left brain and right brain. Male-female. Right-wrong. Spirit-Matter. Whatever opposites were in agitation, creating imbalance, are righted again and put back into alignment in the physical, mental and emotional body. Regaining balance between yin and yang, positive and negative, or left brain and right brain. I notice too that my vision clears and my optimism returns. And feeling of youthful vitality that wasn't there before. The aging factor diminishes and youth reappears. I post this hoping a few readers will try it. How often to rest in a day of activity will have to be be independently lexplored.
10/21/22 - 1:00 pm - Artificial light vs the light of Self
(Journaled 40 years ago) Into my movements today out back, in the far left corner by the fence, I am suddenly aware of the light in the pelvic bowl and simultaneously of my whole body. I see the outer me like a dead shell enclosing a source of light in the pelvic region. The deadness is striking! The body is aging and dying. The brain, the eyes, the organs, arms, legs, the whole thing is only a casing. It was created merely to house the Force - the Presence. But, where is the force?
It is bubbling up from below, like a tiny light that is growing and spreading upwards. The body is dead, it cannot operate at all by itself. It is being generated from this light. I see the reason why people are confused! I can see it! There are thousands of tiny streams - pinstripes - entering the body from outside. There is a stream of input from outside the body, from other sources. Sources other than the self.
Tiny, hair-like lines are entering the body through the skin, wending their way into the interior of the body, deeper and deeper, criss-crossing each other in tiny delicate patterns, weaving a complex web of artificial beliefs. Laying a garment over the Self, but a garment made of other people’s lives and beliefs. The real self who lives inside, the force, the presence, is being drowned out. What is this web that is woven into the very fabric of our bodies? Being absorbed into our blood streams and nerve centers? It is not light like the Light in the pelvic bowl, it is simply energy. Steadily, with relentless consistency and perseverance, outside influences pour into the body via these roadways, no thicker than a spider’s webbing.
Constantly, with hardly a break in the flow, those contrary ideas enter the Self and penetrate deeper and deeper til finally the light itself begins to look dull. The will of the individual allows it. The self, the holy presence of self located at the center of the body in the pelvic region, the home of instinct, the heart of individuality, is killed. I can see it: it looks like a battle: the inflowing streams of other people’s thoughts and ideas converging on the streamlets of light. The darker streams coming down from the head, the light streams coming up from the pelvic bowl., meeting, converging. Which is stronger? In my case, the light is stronger. I am generating it every day, as I do my movements. And I do not answer the telephones, even for friends, except for an occasional purpose. I do not read the newspapers. I do not watch the news. I do not discuss world affairs with Bob. I do not involve myself with mundane activities of other people. I seldom leave the house except for a social affair. I am fairly well insulated from the confusions going on around us. But what of other people? How can they hope to overcome this constant pummeling from without?
Inpouring confusion, inpouring turmoil, inpouring dogmas, inpouring family beliefs, inpouring expectations, inpouring cultural patterns, inpouring political, economic, religious, philosophical views, inpouring news, inpouring TV shows, inpouring problems, everything is inpouring! Versus - what? How much light is coming out? So little, I think. It is no wonder the people are confused. It was never meant to be this way. The light in the center of the bowl is the Self - the real person. Individuality which is constantly on the march for expression, and constantly in battle with friends and family who would repress it. The enemy is in one’s own house: family, friends, work associates, and one’s own weak will. Freedom to be is no laughing matter, no obscure thing. It is the greatest pursuit of life: freedom. It means exactly that, I feel free even as I am insulated from the world. I am free to be me.
All of this mixed bag of potpourri has nothing - NOTHING - to do with the self. It is like a dirty rag thrown over a radiant, crystal pure light. I see it! Indeed, it lays a dirty shadow over that radiance. Hiding the light under a bushel, the Presence of Selfhood within. I see it and I know how it works. Solution is to have a strong sense of self and a strong will to accomplish one’s personal desires. Don’t swerve from your personal course. Your personal course is your destiny, is freedom, is required. Stop talking and do something you want to do. Anything! I tell Bob - don’t talk any more about Bobby. Do something! So many people believe in the democratic way. That is fine for people who do not have any power. But for someone who wants to become free - it is not the way. Free to be is free to act - finally act.
That’s the light. Self is personal intuition, personal choice. It doesn’t pass through the brain. It radiates directly upward from the pelvic source. It passes through the nerves - at least in me it does - and my body perceives it before my brain. I feel it. It radiates directly form the pelvic source through the nervous system to the whole body. The whole body picks it up at the same time that the brain does - not before. The brain is not the initiator. It is the observer. The brain cannot initiate an intuitive feeling, nor a psychic experience, nor a revelation. It is felt all over and the brain observes. I sometimes see the brain observing. I stopped just now to look inward again. I let go, or give up, or step back, whichever the wording is, I release control of the body and then I feel the gentle movement of the force swaying through me, and the presence is there - like a unifying thing - pulling it all together. It is quite beautiful. I am trying to be objective. How I wish I could be more objective. And yet, perhaps I would lose the wonderful sensations I feel.
The chief number one argument is: “But it takes the brain to pick up the fact of movement. Without the brain, you would never perceive that you are moving.” And I disagree. The out-of-body experiences confirm that the Observer, the Intelligent Resident, the Self, continues to think, perceive, make decisions and choices, even when the brain is sleeping or even dead. Especially this is confirmed by those who clinically died and then DECIDED to return, to reactivate the body. Finally, the day has arrived where we have some proof. Perhaps not proof as science would demand, but proof for beginning researchers to use as guide-finders. There is a larger Self which resides in the body. I AM that Self. (From a journal 10/24/82, on a Sunday after a VERY good party the night before, mellow, sweet and happy. Everything flowed beautifully.)
10/19/22 - 3:00 pm - The coat of many colors
The seven rays of light which are embedded in the body as the seven main chakras, has been called "the coat of many colors" in ancient scripture. The deeper one goes into this subject, the more one moves past the chart seen on the internet and begins to blend with the subtleties and meanings of them. A brief description of these seven colors is a good place to start. As one visualizes colors, one becomes aware of feelings, tones and sensations. Inner contemplation is required. The more time one spends visualizing, with perhaps breathwork to support the effort, the more one is drawn consciously into one's own coat of many colors. We wear a coat of many colors, but we are the supreme being who puts on the coat and takes it off. These are the gifts and attributes we are given when we come here to an earth life. They are all too often forgotten in the day-to-day activities. Understanding begins when we take time out to sit in silence and visualize. Then the inner opens and seeps out to merge with the physical body and brain, the solid body of worldly knowledge.
Begin by visualizing yourself surrounded by a sphere of perfect white light. Very wide. Perhaps 10, 20 or 30 feet out. It can be even further. You decide. Your physical body is embedded as a small figure in the center of this sphere of light, and there is space all around you. This space is filled with layers of protective light - your light. These layers are the seven aspects of the divine light given to you at birth. Each layer is more dense the closer it comes to your physical body. Just as a diamond in the sun can be seen flashing different colors through its various cut surfaces, so does a human being flash forth different aspects of the pure white light into colors - either dirty or clean - as we live and evolve in the material world of the solid state. The seven chakras are portals into higher dimensions, higher understandings, higher consciousnesses. There are seven purities. Seven chakras. Seven colors. Seven tones. Seven gifts of spirit. Seven perspectives. The seven candlesticks and seven churches of holy scripture. Always there are seven.
In order of applying them to oneself or to a loved one we wish to help.....
The BLUE LIGHT for will power, strength, courage, determination and protection. The GOLD LIGHT for enlightened intelligence, wisdom and discernment. The PINK LIGHT for love, reverence, adoration and devotion. The WHITE LIGHT for purity, perfection and the immaculate conception. The GREEN LIGHT for truth, science, authenticity and healing. The RUBY LIGHT for peace, comfort and ministration. The VIOLET LIGHT for freedom, mercy and forgiveness.
These words in English come down to us from individual masters thru teachings left behind. But there are many related words that can be used. The blue light portal is located at the base of the spine. The gold light portal is at the sacral or sex chakra (in the spine) The pink light portal is at the solar plexus (in the spine). The white light portal is at the heart (in the spine). The green light portal is at the throat (in the spine). The ruby light portal is at the third eye (in the head). The violet light portal is at the crown (of the head, known as the thousand-petalled lotus). More cannot be given here. These are only hints. Understanding must be woven into one's life through one's own attention, practice and consciousness, with one's own will power, with one's own intelligence, love, purity, love and scientific practice, with peacefulness and comfort, and it must be freely given, freely chosen. No one can do it for someone else.
These are the attributes that we are each called to cultivate within our self, to work on for our own sake, for our own benefit, with our own time, in our own way, with our own persistence, patience, willingness, in peacefulness and comfort, and intelligence. It is the greatest work that we can do for our self. This is the inner work that inspires us, impresses us, impassions us with enthusiasm, interest, enlightenment. It is life-giving energy, health-giving and prolonged life-giving. And we are rewarded by things not seen with physical eyes. Only we ourselves know the blessings for we evolve to higher planes of thought and knowledge. We go where no man has gone before because it is our own space that we are exploring.
10/16/22 - 11:00 AM - Brief Update
There is no time to spend at the laptop. Not posted in days. Much upheaval and change going on in the brain/mind. My brain can handle only so much, it is only human. But my mind is vast and covering a lot more than my poor physical body can handle. I will continue to post periodically for things WILL calm down. Have faith! I'm in contact with the galactics on a level beyond words.
This morning I went outside early before the sun came up, it was just rising. My legs felt "dead", I needed to ground or reconnect with the energies of the earth barefoot. Inside the house it's tight and compacted with routines and mechanized habits. The energy not conducive to the new energies of expansion. I tried to use routines and practices I knew over the years, but nothing helped. Well, a little. I asked the Master Hilarian of the green ray for ideas and he gave me some. The earth energy in the cells of my body are suffocating. It needs fresh air. .It needs expansion, revitalizing, it needs to flow, needs to activate. So in the night I did what I could and waited for dawn. As the sun rose over the trees I was there in my chair in the grass waiting for it, and I began breathing in the seven colors, the seven rays of light - blue, gold, pink, white, green, ruby and violet - as I have learned over many years. As I breathed in the sun I breathed in first the blue light - will power, strength, courage, determination, protection, and exhaled the same out. I then breathed in the gold light - enlightened intelligence, wisdom and discernment, and exhaled the same out. Next I breathed in the pink light - love, reverence, adoration, devotion, and exhaled the same out. These are the first three colors that form the most important aspects to help the human being on the upward path. They are referred to as the trinity, or the three-fold flame - Love, wisdom and power. The first three chakras, root, sacral, solar plexus.
Then I breathed in the white light (heart) - purity, perfection, the immaculate conception, and exhaled the same out. Then I breathed in the green light (throat) - truth, science and healing, and I exhaled the same out. Next I breathed in the ruby light flecked with gold (third eye) - peace, comfort and ministration, and I exhaled the same out. Lastly I breathed in the violet light (crown) of freedom, mercy and forgiveness, and exhaled the same out. This I repeated, over and over and over, and I could feel myself as a conduit, a wire, a river of light and life. The powers don't stop with me if I let them go on through me and out into my environment around me. Out to bless the world and the people, animals, plants and everything everywhere. I am a conduit, a part of earth who has become an open conduit, a channel for the light. The spirit of me is in the sky somewhere, connected in and merged with the infinite that is beyond me and which I can't define, but it is the awesome part of who I am. I don't need to know with my brain. I simply am what I am at the moment that I am.
As I sat and radiated the seven colors, I could feel my cells activating all over, a combination of tingling feelings with bliss feelings. It was good. It was peaceful. I could have zoned out and allowed myself to become lost in the feelings, but those days are over. I am on a new timeline, one of work. I have work to do. It was time to go inside. My house guest was looking for the coffee pot. She lost everything in the hurricane Ian so she is here staying with us, working out what she needs to do.
For those who are similarly displaced, continue to hold faith in yourself for you too are connected to the infinity power of who you are beyond sight. You are a descending immortal, condensing yourself into a finite mortal skin. You are a skin walker. Have faith in your higher self, the individual that you are on higher levels. You are a god among many gods. Believe in your own creator, the One God within who holds us all together as The One. Picture yourself as an ideal version of you and hold fast to that version, to that picture, as you walk through your day. Ground yourself barefoot in the earth's soil when you can. You too have a place here as a conduit, as a portal for the light, for Father Sun to come in and connect with Mother Earth, the planet. You are a conduit for the divine rays coming in from the sun, who is one of many suns, to enlighten, empower, impassion, embrace and grow the sentient beings on the planets.
10/10/22 - 11:51 AM - Starships and Contact
(Displaced due to Hurricane Ian while texting to a friend 10/3/22:)
Well, we don't have power but we went home last night and slept in our own bed with candles all night. A starship followed us home, beaming to me so I noticed. I didn't mention it to Doug. We woke up this morning in 5D, cozy, at peace, feeling connected, in the right place. There was more, but I can't explain. There's no power here but some neighbors have it.
Re: the star ship, you have them. There are many around. I used to wonder if a certain star was a ship. For years I would notice one, wonder, and then dismiss it as my imagination. Then about two or three months ago I noticed a bright star while sitting on the john looking out the window which faces west. Early morning, dawn was just beginning. I noticed its placement among the tree branches. I wondered. Could it be? An hour later it hadn't changed location. If it is a star it should be further along in a different location. I felt it was a ship. I kept checking and later it was gone. That's when I knew for sure. I made contact that time. It dawned on me that THIS is the contact - knowing for sure. The test is one of belief turning into knowing. That's what they're looking for. The contact is in the knowing. This is how contact is being made. From mind to mind. For years they have been available. I just kept dismissing it. I've been contacted many times over the years. I remember them now. Many, many times, but I kept thinking it was my imagination. I too was looking for PHYSICAL contact. Looking out a window before going to bed and noticing a star that stood out among other stars. Or driving home at night and a star keeps following ahead of me, continuing to beam at me and me continuing to dismiss it. conscious contact has now been made, there is no doubt.
10/8/22 - Update on Hurricane Ian
Reporting in - we have our power back after 9 days of homelessness. We are grateful to our friend Bob who invited us in and never lost power. Lots and lots of revelations have occurred over the last few days, involving star ships and galactics, but these are not easy to express in words. I will post more tomorrow. We are busy cleaning up after 9 days being away, including the pool. There is a major world shift going on to higher dimensions, and everyone is experiencing this transition differently, depending on how connected they are to their own soul. I will shed some light tomorrow. We hope others fared as well as we did on the physical 3D level. We are grateful and holding the light for those who need it, some very desperately. Please - keep your faith alive. Find some humor in your situations. Laugh. It will help. This too will pass if you hold your ground steady.
9/26/22 - Advice from my higher self, the "I Am Presence"
One day in 2008, the archives reveal, I asked my I Am Presence and master guides, what can you tell me about manifesting my dreams?
A: I can tell you much, my child, but first I ask that you still the vibrations of your body. Bring them under control. Peace. Allow yourself to become peaceful. Yes, that is better. Find me in the depths of the stillness. I am there. As the chaos is brought to a standstill you connect with me, your larger, fuller, more complete self. I am you but you are busy facing outward and away from me - away from yourself - and so you see yourself as small and lost. But when you become still, yes, you are feeling me now - yourself - you ARE the sparkle in the cell, igniting the fuel that moves the mechanism. We are one. I am you and you are me. We are one.
Q: Where does that lead me? I‘m not sure what the question is but I feel to ask it?
A: You are merging your “human” consciousness - that part of you which does not know itself - with your divine consciousness - that part which knows itself and is connected to the creator. Love, bliss, hope, clarity - these are the pleasures Creator God, Creator Goddess desires to express in physical form. He and She are the One who is living its dream. We are cells in the body of this grand omnipotent being, enjoying the adventure of our role, and doing our part in maintaining the whole. As we learn and as we grow and move and enjoy ourselves, so does the Creator move and learn and grow. One cell in the body of God/Goddess, All That Is.
Q: I have several dreams....
A: Stop right there. You are part of the dream. Creator is dreaming and creating as he dreams. It is not your individual set of dreams dreamt by (my name). These are the dreams of Creator and you are receiving them as a cell in the body of Creator. You are being guided, or better yet instructed to manifest this dream. It is linked to the dreams that others are trying to manifest. All dreams in the vicinity of the vibration will grow and manifest into physical form in your world, as each one of you dares to break from human programming to step forward into a leadership position. As you know, a leader is one who steps forward first, and is therefore at the head of the line. He or She is the first one of many, who have a role in creating the dream into a concrete reality to benefit the whole.
Q: Can you give me some concrete (human) advice, coming from the divine intelligence, looking at the wise women gathering that I want to do, in practical terms. Can you speak on this? For me? A: (Pause, considering.) Most of the people who seek concrete answers - (lost the rest of it as I started getting a vision and did not write it down.)
9/25/22 - I saw my higher self!
From the archives 20 years ago.
"During a brief meditation today I saw my higher self. It is the one giving me the visions. It is IT who is speaking to me through inspirations all these years. It is IT who wants these things to be done, not me. Anakosha and all the instructions I’ve been given is coming from my higher self who is trying to communicate to me, trying to live through me, by giving me these thoughts. Those are IT’s thoughts, not mine. I have been struggling to implement them and tainting them by trying too hard. But I didn’t know who was doing the talking. Spirit? Anakosha? Oversoul? Ascended masters? I just didn’t know. A spirit guide? Now I know. I know for sure. I see that it is my own higher self. I have seen my own higher self a few times over the years. I saw her first from profile (she is feminine) with long flowing hair. The face is so beautiful, glowing from within. The details of the face are kind of lost to me but yet there is a physical appearance. I see it in my third eye or spiritual eye. It is just that the beauty of the figure is so awesome, so splendid, it is so ALL. It is a most beautiful presence, and I guess I realized it was me, but not really putting it together. Because whenever I see this figure, I am already in a space or a place where there is no separation, no “this” and “that”, no division between you and me.
"I have seen this image from time to time and the beauty is so nice, so overwhelming. It is THIS presence that is giving me these visions. I now understand. It’s very real and very specific. Last week during meditation there was a brief flash from my presence. It flashed in on me from the right and I saw her face, my face – its a brilliant, beautiful face. It is the face of an angel, of God. I have the feeling that it is trying to find a way to communicate with me and is having a hard time. I am not understanding her communication attempts. I guess at that particular moment my guard was down and there was an opening so it rushed in and presented itself to me. I am not sure how to call it. It is my higher self, or divine self, or God self. In contrast to IT I am just a shell of a vessel. My relationship to it is similar to the relationship between the point on a pencil to the hand that holds the pencil. Today, upon realizing this, I asked my higher self what do YOU want to do today? What is it that YOU would like me to do? This is your body, tell me and I will do it. And then, in the silence that followed, I had a distinct impression to go out by the pool and replace that old green mat that has mold on it with a fresh mat from the barn, and to clean up that little garden and spend some time out there - and plant the flowers I bought last week. Spend time outdoors.
"I felt this was confirmation that my higher self is indeed the one who is trying to talk to me through these visions or inspirations. Jesus called his higher self 'Father'. It occurred to me today that naturally his higher self would appear as a male figure. But I would call my higher self 'Mother' because of her feminine appearance."
9/24/22 - Kundalini, the innocent mind at the base chakra
Time is speeding up and my interests are changing. There is less and less incentive to read and post articles written by other people - and more interest in re-visiting my own journals of the past. They are more stimulating, being spiritually oriented. I am being brought back in touch with my own soul path and my own truth, to remember why I am here. The advice is strong these days to follow your own heart, your own dreams and your own ideals, and don't be sucked onto paths that don't belong to you. Use discernment. Be strongly committed to your OWN path. And so in these days I have been researching my own past life. The following message is meaningful to me and I share it publicly for what it's worth to others. This revelation came in February 1987, during the height of our lifestyle days when we entertained many beautiful couples in our home.
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Today after the Valentine’s party last night, I went out into the sun and balanced myself. It was a warm, sunny day, like spring, and was amazed to find myself tuned right back into my higher Self as if a week had not passed at all, nor that I had become so out of tune. Perhaps I was not out of tune after all. Well, to cut directly to the heart of the matter, for this record is important for me to remember, let us move on.
Today I started out by placing light once more into the chakras, starting with the base. A light was placed in the region of the uterus and then, surprisingly, at four corners outside of the uterus, two on either side in front and two on either side in back, to make a square with a center. After a few seconds of holding this in mind, I moved up to the kidney area, then to the pancreas area, then to the heart/lung area, throat, pituitary and pineal. Then in the peace that followed, for there followed somewhat of a peace, I seemed to be shown that the base chakra (uterus) is the purest of all. Words played through my peaceful mind and I was reminded that this area is the CREATOR. The next one above, the kidneys, is the ELIMINATOR. The one above, the pancreas and stomach, the DIGESTOR. The next one above, the heart/lung seemed to be two-fold and was a bit more complicated: ABSORBER (lungs) and DISTRIBUTOR (heart as pump). The throat was a little confusing, being word power, but not clear at all, and the pituitary (carnal mind) quite confusing so that I did not get to the pineal (crown) at all.
As I dwelt on the meaning of this revelation, I was reminded once again that the purer intelligence is at the base. And then began a series of remembrances. I once gave a lecture to a small group of people in El Bosque during the days when I was sweeping with the fire, that we have not one mind, but TWO! And that the second mind is down below, in the pelvic bowl. How taken up with this belief I was then! I have forgotten. And then I was reminded that my very first contact with the kundalini back in 1976 was clicked into in the lower bowel region. Very distinctly. There is no room for doubt. And then I was reminded of my vision where a large sphere of light was seen in the pelvic bowl and the yin and yang (negative and positive) energies left, first one, then the other, and swirled in opposite directions to the top of the head where I was prevented from going on and shown to look back down a central tube of light to the bottom where the large sphere of light remained still, as at the bottom of a deep well. Upon questioning, “What does this mean?” I was told at that time that I must return and fetch the larger light and carry it to the top, too, else I could not go on. And again, I was reminded that the flower does not have any intelligence in its beautiful head, nor life of its own, but that it requires the root system to supply it with plant blood. Cut the flower and it will soon die.
As this was shown to me, it seems to correct an error in my thinking, and that error is the false belief that I am the controller and director of my life. I am not. I was reminded of the many false influences that have diverted my attention away from this beautiful fact. One of the first was a yoga teacher I met at Elka’s house in Costa Rica. She directed us to focus on a spot at the crown of the head, saying THIS was the intelligence of the body. I suggested that I felt the center of intelligence was in the pelvic region. She said no, that was the power center of the BODY but that the power of the spirit was in the head. I remember being torn as to whether or not to believe her.
The second that I can remember was Albert, in Costa Rica. He was disturbed by my constant movements and suggested, with quite some anger that I couldn’t account for, that I must learn to control such movements. That I must become the final control and determine the when and where of such movements.
The third instance was Feliciano who, when called upon by me to help with the over-heating of my nervous system in the early days, told me again that I must learn to control the whims of the kundalini energy currents. That it was indeed up to me as to how to use them. I was to develop my own will. He spoke of a different thing however, then his wife (a ridiculous character) who exhibited anger that I should even THINK I could do anything at all by myself unless I gave myself to a teacher who would help me to develop.
All of this took place in the days when, after submitting to the movements during which I consciously gave up my will to the higher will for I knew it WAS higher, it left me feeling wonderfully pure and innocent, in contrast to the valleys inbetween, during which I consciously chose to insert my own will out of consideration of Bob, and then became increasingly more tight until I was tight as a high-strung wire which vibrated at the slightest discord and at one time nearly drove me mad.
All of this I recalled today in the sun and then I recalled the more recent struggle over the last four, five years, as I strive to cram this wonderful, unlimited, super-powerful energy into an order of my own making, to confine its exhibition, and to dictate when, where and how it should move - and by the end of the revelation I realized that I have been following a wrong track. I am not meant to control this power. It is the first mind, the first cause, and the creator of my life. I can no more control this than the flower can control its life from the lofty heights. For years I have been trying to superimpose my will over the thing, but I am no more than a flower on the end of a long, long stalk, and during those times when I am confused and the waters are muddied, it is because I have cut off the life from flowing.
But, I argued, how can this be? Can the religions be wrong? Can all of the others be wrong, and I right in this belief that the greater mind is not in the head, but in the root system? In answer I saw the adult with all of his complexities standing next to the child, with all his innocence and realized the truth: That, yes, they are wrong. I am the child. It is the child that we must emulate. How? By not thinking and forming beliefs, but by following the naturalness of action. The child is rooted in a wonderful innocence. He follows a will that does not come from his mind, or from a complex belief system. He follows his heart, the purity of which shines in his eyes. I remember my feelings of purity and innocence after the movements and regret losing them, and often wonder what happened that I no longer find the feeling so easily. This is my answer. I am recording this for my own remembrance, so that I can get back on track with the HIGHER WILL, and follow THAT, instead of my own. Who am I to think that I control my own life? The purpose for having the brain at all (the little mind) is so that we may consciously come to REALIZE this truth: that we are not our own maker and that we must return control back to the creator on a daily basis, hour by hour, minute by minute.
9/23/22 - Understanding yin and yang and the sex drive
I realized the meaning of yin and yang forces while doing meditation in the sun. It was a brief experience, but an immersion nonetheless. The words "yin and yang" have been no more than words until today, when I was TOUCHED and FELT the substances flowing within me. It is somewhat like a force, yes, a very definite force, but which was quick to point out to me (the intelligence of the whole thing) that this force is created by my own consciousness. My mind. The direction of my thought. My own will power is what creates the force.
The subtlety of my thought in the direction of the LESSER, or more COMPACT, seemed to me to be the female force, or the yin. It was as if my tendency to reel in and focus my awareness on detail tended to send my energies towards earth, in a downward direction. It was a subservient tendency, a recoiling action, or digging in process. The female? This was the message - that the female tendency to hold back and rebuild, or “nest”, or go back over to re-examine, to study, to withhold conclusions until ALL detail had been accounted for - that THIS was the famous “yin” of ancient teachings. It is not necessarily confined to women, but is more prominent in women than in men, culturally.
The other force activating in my body is an almost exact opposite, in the sense that it is surging outward to reach for something without thought of consequences. This force seemed to be the need to accomplish, to break free of the confines of the “yin”, and to become free in totality. To cut away all restriction and soar uninhibited by ANY restraints. I was told that this was the “yang”, the male power drive and that it was necessary in order to counteract the negative yin tendencies of my personality.
The yin and the yang pull and push within the average individual as mood swings, and operate uncontrollably, often unbeknownst to the conscious mind. Yet, one becomes slowly conscious of it, undoubtedly as the ancients did, for the terms “yin” and “yang” seem to denote far more than the terms “positive” and “negative”. It was made known to me that it is THIS duality that is to be understood and mastered by the mind as a person develops spiritually, for it is the surging yang that directs the consciousness, which is the life force, UPWARD. If one could neutralize the restraining yin so that it were non-existent, without restraining the yang, the consciousness (life force) would begin to flow more actively upward in search of its freedom. It would begin to enjoy greater happiness and freedom. How this is done was not made known to me, but for a brief glimpse at the end of the revelation. This is the science one ought to study to provide ground work.
I am overly yin. How does the restraining yin manifest in daily life? Yin does not allow me to walk boldly out onto a platform to speak to people. It would remain a follower and hide my light under a bushel. Yin does not allow me to implement an idea, out of fear that I will go out on a limb that will crack under my weight. Yin does not allow me to think that I am the sole authority of my life. Yin would have me believe that I must lean upon “another”. Who is this other unless it be the yang? Yin does not allow me to soar into the clouds, or to break free of the earth for I am of the earth and therefore earth bound. Yin is afraid to go public for it holds itself behind the screen of physical manifestation where it enjoys the privacy, the SACREDNESS, the secrecy of the state of aloneness, or all-oneness. Yin admonishes yang for being so bold, yet yang is the doer and would make real what yin only contemplates in the privacy of thought.
THIS, the message said, is the force that must be understood and overcome, so that the living force of yang can drive upward and outward, as it is its natural tendency to explore and experiment, to struggle and implement ideas without even a thought of failure. To strive ever onward to reach the goal. It is the life force returning to the heights from which it came, yet it cannot so long as yin is active in the organism. As long as yin is isolated from yang it works in opposition to yang, and the individual remains a victim of his mood swings, a victim of “fate” and the lesser gods.
The yin and the yang are the negative and positive poles of all human life and interaction. It is the explanation for the sexual drive. For when there is too much yang active, too much striving and struggling taking place in a person, whether that person be a man or a woman, that person, lacking in yin, looks to another person with more prominent yin characteristics, to balance him out, though the average person is unaware of the reasons why such attractions develop. In sex, the yang surges out to find relief and balance, while yin withholds and waits.
Likewise does the person with too much yin and not enough yang active in the life, seek a more yang-dominant sex partner, whether man or woman, to balance the inner propensity. Great and passionate is the sexual nature of one who has not balanced the yin and yang. Yet, as one matures and, through life experience balances, the two subtle counteracting forces (though he know it not) the sexual nature becomes more refined, with a tendency for gentleness and sharing. Sexual habits need not be given up when passion begins to subside through this balancing of forces (though this is often the case). Rather may begin the blossoming into new and higher fields of sharing and romantic lovemaking, as the old sex drive all but disappears. In this time of outgrowing of old sex appetites, there is often a “giving up” of physical love and a drifting into celibacy. Yet, unless there be an active interchange through physical joining, old age does creep fast upon a person. (End of transmission)
9/19/22 - The id and unconscious forces
A dream wakes me up this morning. In the dream I and another woman are doing a walk-through of a large office space of a third woman. The one who owns the space is looking to sub-let some rooms so we can all work together. We are all healers. Two men introduced us. The men are significant. We look around, feel it out and discuss it. Things seem to be compatible. The woman wants us to be in her space and, just as we are leaving, she bites me on the ear! An intimate bite and it makes me giggle and squirm. Emotional feelings spring to life all through me and I wake up still feeling the rush and tingle. I lay there wondering about it. Then get up to go to the bathroom.
In the bathroom I see out the only window which faces west a bright - what looks like a bright star - but it's a ship. A star to one who doesn't know, but I know it's a ship and I watch it. It dims and goes out. Or is it the branches that cover it over? I get up and study it. No, it moves its location. It is a star ship. I see it every once in a while. I used to dismiss it as a star but now I know better. I'm clued in. It's a sign, one of the signs in the sky we have been told to watch for.
I go back to bed and to sleep. I wake up an hour later from another dream. Three women including me are discussing the idea of creating a research project. How do we feel talking about exploring another woman’s body? What do we feel about being intimate with another women? There are three women here, as in the first dream. The other two women are younger than me, young beautiful women. Three of us are talking about starting something, a gathering of women to talk about deep innermost thoughts and feelings - the subconscious. Getting down into subconscious feelings in order to release them, or expose them, and bring them to the surface. At first the mere thought of…. Ugh! It’s uncomfortable. Or is it exciting? It is too subconscious to tell which.
I am the one offering to be the control for the experiment. I am the oldest. This is an experiment, to see if we can do it. We want to find out if we can release deep underground feelings and bring them up to the surface. There are men here too, as if they are watching and waiting to see what we do. One of the women is around 30, she is familiar. I see her clearly. She has short blond hair, pretty, slender, familiar. There is a man stepping forward to ask questions. What feelings does this dredge up? he asks. I remember the feeling. The more thought of doing this. It is uncomfortable, shaded in different colors of emotions, but it’s too hard to put in words. They are below my conscious mind. They are icky feelings, not good. Or maybe good, I can’t tell. Then I am hearing words in my mind as if from an instructor:
Women stimulate each other by talking about these feelings that they have experienced but repressed. What are some things you’ve noticed in yourself under various situations? During your swinging days during threesomes with women, what do you feel about that? Go deeper than the common “trite” expression. What more can you feel and how can you lighten it? Why did you repress it? How can you lift it up into the light where you can see it and share it? Can you tell it out loud to your sisters? Can you laugh about it? The purpose is not to repeat it, whatever you’re talking about, but to recall the sensation, the attitude, the feeling, the shadowy aspect that made you reject it. Can you identify with it? Can you name it? Define it? Identify it. Recall it. Associate it with a cause, trace it to a beginning? What causes the rush of feeling? Own it. Wrap it into your arms. Engage with it. Blend with it. There is a part of you that you lost when you rejected this feeling. Maybe you simply felt it was not important to tell anyone. When you judged it and dismissed it you threw out something of value. There is a light in it. You threw out something of value by not acknowledging it. There is something here that needs to be expressed openly. It is part of who you are. It belongs to you. It is your light, your life. It is an essential part of your immaculate light body. You are not complete without it.
Men too should talk with each other to stimulate the subconscious side of themselves, to reclaim it and own it. This is empowering, and it starts with the women for they are closest to it. When women stimulate and upearth their id, their unconscious, it has a profound effect on the men in their lives on sublevels, on the etheric level, which is below the surface mind, beyond brain recognition. It is part of the soul. The unconscious contains all the urges and impulses that belong to the soul. It is known as the etheric body, the body of forces, where unexpressed thoughts and feelings gather and collect, and back up to become a pressure that, if ignored, causes tension and a demand for release. It presses outward into expression in various ways, depending on the personality.
(I continue to hear the words and am now writing them down)
The growing disclosures of recent days are being shared through the atmosphere. Nature’s etheric body. The atmosphere which all minds feed into and breathe out of. Recognition travels undetected, below the conscious mind, via the etheric nervous system called intuition. We share thoughts and reactions without realizing, underground, the way trees communicate through their roots. So do humans breathe in and out the innate knowledge of the masses who participate in the atmosphere of the planet. We are intuitively connected on subconscious and unconscious levels. Knowledge that is not put into words until an awakened person recognizes it and starts talking about it. Emotional reactions in the form of thought and reactionary feelings go out into the atmosphere on sublevels, feeding all who breathe the air. Finely tuned nervous systems receive and trigger hormonal releases. The subconsciousness trembles at shocking revelations but the conscious mind doesn't even notice. The etheric body is building up pressure to release its gathering force. Its knowledge, its memories, its shadowy substances. When a cord is struck, a word spoken or a touch passed, the rush of excitement is felt and acknowledged. It is a breakthrough. A release. The human race is preparing to receive, and when we do we will begin the healing of the underworld. We will begin the transformation of our world. We will give it a name to define it and DO something about it to heal it or own it or change it, transform it.
"Heal yourselves. Be your own guides. Be your own family. The family of light on the ground, on the earth. Become more enlightened, more happy, more released, more free, more clear, more YOU."
9/18/22 - Freedom is dancing in the light
Freedom is dancing in the light in my body., my physical body. I am waking up and freeing the light in the cells of my body. This is a conscious awareness. I've been meditating for so many years that I've finally become part of the light within me. I was aware this morning and began naming each organ and seeing the light in the cells - liver cells, spleen cells, lung cells, heart cells, all other cells. I honored and respected and named each one. I have had many bodies that I have inhabited, including pre-human bodies too. I was a turtle, and I reconnected with my wolf life, lost and howling for home. Bodies come and go. All of them had my light in them. It is MY light that gives life to the body I inhabit. I have a unique signature energy to MY light. Everyone's signature light is uniquely their own. Now the light in the bodies all around earth is being "quickened". I like that term. Quickened is an old word from scripture. I must have run across it a long time ago because I'm not a scripture reader.
The life of the cells of our bodies is quickening now. They are being sped up under forces that are intentionally focused light from higher places. But we are not going to be overwhelmed. We are being gently rocked, buzzed, titillated and nudged out of the darkness that covers each cell, each organ, muscle and gland. We have a light inside our body cells that give it life. Our physical bodies have cells that have a nucleus of sparkling, twinkling, dazzling spirit. It is the only way such dead meat could be kept alive. There is a spiritual spark of life inside it which obeys the immaculate instruction from the Father light, and it is THAT which is increasing around the planet right now. The creator light.
Love is the name of the Father light moving around inside us, inside the thick density of matter. Eons of coming and going in bodies of all sorts of cultures and kinds have died and decayed into decomposing earth matter. The same earth matter that we use today to create a new body. Our bodies are made of heavy substance, filled with thoughts and feelings unused, lost, unclaimed and buried over time. Now the Father light is taking over and raising the light from the dead - the light that was forgotten and cast aside. HIS light, Creator's light. As this light "quickens", it moves. Literally shoves the dead matter out of the way and reclaims it for his own. When light moves inside the body, it is felt as love. Love is the sensation of light moving flesh and blood aside, flesh that is covered over by heavy unclaimed thoughts and feelings.
Love is light, the feeling of light waking up inside the cells. The phrase, "people are asleep but they're waking up" is often heard. Yes, we are all waking up to the light inside our bodies. We are becoming aware. Love is the sensation of becoming aware of kindness and caringness. It is unconditional love. It is also personal love but there is more to love than being "just personal" about it. We use personal love in the beginning to create help-mates, partners and families, but we grow and evolve. We had iron chains put on us when the religious monogamy laws came into affect. We closed down the larger aspects of love in the human race and employed tribal law in its place. The law of revenge. Because we were told "not to do that". We had sin given to us in place of love. They clamped iron chains on us.
But now the larger love is awakening. This time it is unconditional love. It is a powerful, never-felt-before step in our personal backyard, called the HUMAN race. That means we are going to stop holding back the kindness and caringness that we feel for others and start joining forces towards unity, peace on the planet and with great strength of purpose. When light moves, it moves in cycles, like breathing. There's an in and an out fluctuation. Light is life and it never stops moving unless we ourselves stop the movement. Then it stays still, and we stagnate. And grow frustrated. The forces of darkness tried to make us stop sharing our love, and so we did. For many years we stopped sharing and showing our love, our light freely to others. But now those days are over. We are coming into MORE light. Light from beyond ourselves. We had gotten pretty empty of light and life. Pretty low down. The earth could have been destroyed for lack of it. But we are still here as a planet. And now we have a sun shining MORE light on us. And we are experiencing a "quickening" in our bodies. The light in our physical bodies is quickening. We are becoming aware of being part of a greater wholeness, a oneness and a foreverness. Something in our physical body is incapable of dying. The flesh and blood part can die, but if that happens, then we'll just move on out as a mind and an intelligence, and rejoin the family of light and once again, make a new body for ourselves. We didn't know this, but now I know. We will not die unless we shut it all off ourselves.
All the bodies we've inhabited from the beginning of time, become clothings of flesh and blood and become the veils that cover our personal light until we are ready to claim it back. Then the awareness of who we are begins the process of revealing. These bits and pieces of earth substance that compose our bodies are bits and pieces of old stuff that had been discarded upon someone's death. The light of unclaimed decaying bodies dims slowly as it takes over the process of decaying and extrapolating every last glimmer of light from it. At first there is a dimming ember of a glow in the top most layer but slowly it dies out. Until the last bit of light has been extracted, they too are part of the family of light.
We had no way of knowing. We simply did not know. And so we let it die. We grew old and died without making that fabulous connection with the light inside. It is who we are. We cannot EVER not exist.
Now we enter this new phase, this new cycle of resurrection. We are in the throes of resurrecting the light within our cells while we're still living, breathing and alive. We are making the connection. Some are waaaay ahead of the others in knowing, but the others are getting it now too. It is a fact of human earth life. We are each on our own pathway of discovering the truth of our Self. Hint: stay in the comfort zone of feeling good with yourself. You ARE the light. The light is leading you through awareness of goodness and aliveness. Enthusiasm is proof that you're alive. What causes you enthusiasm? Love is proof that you're alive. What causes you to feel love? Follow your heart. Follow the good impulses. Follow the dream. Follow the vision. The lives we've been living over and over with friends, partners, associations and even enemies, are all part of the waking up process. We are working this out! We are shedding the uncomfortable, the disturbing, the bad, selfish and depressed stuff that makes us do things we don't want to do. We are learning.
Care about your Self. You ARE the light that lives in your body cells. Your brain cells, your nerve cells, glands, muscles, organs, tissues. You ARE the light and when it moves you feel it as love. Self love comes first, and then it shines greater and greater out to other people. Let the feelings of love be the dominant force today, even in situations of the mundane. Enjoy your Self as it comes alive. Be the peace. Be the One.
Post Script: I definitely feel the passing of the Queen is a major blow to the other side, as the Light is pouring in. We are being jiggled and tossed around as very old old energies, once packed on top of one another, are being dismantled. We will experience upsetness. I remember once being at the altar praying/meditating, and when I got up to leave, my legs buckled under me and a wave of something akin to dying, went through me. I could feel myself leaving my body. But I had enough light anchored that I knew it would pass. So I hung onto the chair nearby and let it pass. In days to come I asked what that was, and I was told a piece of the artificial life was removed from you. It was the artificial life that was dying and not me. It was like it disentangled and left me and I thought I was the one dying. We must expect different kinds of strange phenomena to occur and hang on. Hang in. Don't let it scare you. I am writing and posting my experiences as a reminder that someone else is experiencing this too. And it will pass. Everything is changing. What is no longer relevant is being removed.
9/16/22 - The Light is Powerful Today
The Light is powerful today. It reminds me of the Pleiadian message I posted yesterday (in Today's posts) about the sun's largest coronal projection in history which happened several days ago, around the time of the Queen's passing. I'm feeling the Light in me organizing, waking up, gathering excitement and energy. It's difficult to stay neutral when your whole body is sizzling with information. Light is information coming down the pike in rivers and torrents, loud, clear and lucid information. My excitement makes me want to invite everyone to come together this Sunday, and meet and hug and dance and celebrate and be joyful. The sensation is explosive. The incentive is to gather together. But it's important to stay in control. Each one of us must stay in control as this is happening. The light is moving through us and waking up the cells, the pure spirit (light) in the heart of the cells. We have to stay in control or we'll lose control of our body-minds.
It reminds me when the kundalini awakened in me 46 years ago, without preparation beforehand. It was a spontaneous awakening. It activated from prior life training. After the initial bliss experience, several days later, my body began sizzling, trying to clear the distortions and impurities in me. It came in cycles, allowing me time to process, and then it would start again, increasing the sizzle. At times it was too much, I was on the edge of going crazy. Mad. And that's when I (we) were led to engage intimately with others. Believe it or not sex was the saving grace. Not sex per se but the physical closeness, skin-to-skin contact with other people. It saved me from going over the edge. Balance is required. Conscious balance. We need to stay in control of what we do, and of our minds. People go crazy when the energy is too much, no matter WHAT kind of energy it is, stay in the center and BREATHE!
Today I received a download about what's happening with the increase of light coming from the sun. The light of purity in each cell was highlighted and shown to me, outlined in picture form. There's a core of light in each physical cell, composed of atoms and specifically each electron. The electrons obey the higher directing force. We each think we are in control of our minds and bodies, but there is a higher force over us. The sun is a distributor of that higher force. And the sun is amping up and sending huge projections. The light is overwhelming our physical bodies. The light in our electrons, the atoms that compose our cells, is responding to the light. Each cell in the body has been closed over and buried in a casket of doom and gloom. i.e., wrong beliefs, wrong attitudes, selfishness and other bad attitudes. The light in our cells is now receiving a higher directive: gather together, unify.
When kundalini awakens dramatically, as it did in me in 1976, all the light in my cells were "quickened". They sped up, and for the next 10 years I was engaged in crazy needs to ground, to connect with other people. I grounded it by being close with other human beings, physically close, and so the impulse is upon me again - to gather the people together and hug, be close, celebrate. Not for sex but to release and relax the tensioin from being separated so long.
We have to find a way to remain in control, and the one way to do that is to have fun. Laugh, be merry, be joyful, be with people. It is the destiny of the earth-bound humans to gather in unity and in peace. The word "neutral" is used only in the sense that control is maintained. Self-control. Not to be carried away against your will. Be the one in control of your own body, mind and desires. The Creator is the ultimate authority and we are the children of the Creator. Mother God is the intelligence, the light in matter which composes our bodies. Father God is the unlimited intelligence that flows through us. Mother God helps us to stay in control, to shape and mold the infinite into our bodies. She helps us to ground it and stabilize it.
Maintain a neutral course. Be in the center of things. Be the power in your center. It means being neutral and not taking sides with outsiders who pull, tug and try to change you. Remain in your center. Your center is light. And it feels good to be there.
Feel free to contact me by email HERE if you are feeling confused. I am of the Light and will help as best I can.
9/15/22 - About chakras and the mystical marriage
There are seven lights imprisoned in the body and they are purities, holy lights. They are part of the original immaculate conception but they are blocked and covered over. It is time we understood the true nature of the chakras. So much has been said about them but understanding is still vague and mysterious. It's time we learned the facts so we can work with them more efficiently and break through the blocks to release the immaculate within each cell, atom and electron of our body.
The mother light, what we refer to as the mother light, is the first chakra. It is located at the tailbone. It is known as kundalini, or kanda the beloved, also the holy spirit. It has been said that 5% of us is locked into the body to keep the body alive, but once activated it is connected to the Father, creator of all that is, unlimited intelligence, love and light. The mother light is an the etheric level so science can't see it or analyze it. Not yet, any way. Eventually we will gain higher level equipment. The mother light is only 5% active in an average human being who has not done any inner work on himself. Once a person starts doing focused inner exercises, the door will crack open slightly and assist him on his journey.
The life force that keeps our bodies alive and functioning is a concentration of pure, uncontaminated spirit, aka LIGHT! located at the tailbone. It is captured in the pelvic region and surrounded by material matter and energy of our own making, the makings of the misqualified and distorted energies from many past lives. It is called the Mother flame. It is here to ground the Father light on the earth plane. Each person's individual holy spirit is connected to Mother Earth herself, this ball of light that is locked away inside the physical flesh. From the mother light, a main channel runs up the spine on an etheric level to the brain. Smaller tributaries branch out all along the etheric central tube and goes all over the land of the body. Through this central tube flows pure unadulterated light, which is pure love, when the kundalini is active, and it flows gently sweetly, this great river of light, and it feeds the body its intelligence, its awareness and its sensings.
However in most people this mother light is almost totally blocked off so that only small portions of it is dropped into the main channel to keep the body alive at a bare minimum. In sub-average humans such tiny portions flow, the person is what we call “normal”. He does not have sufficient light moving through the body and brain to give him access to the wholeness of which he belongs. He does not know how to magnetize more of the light and draw it forth into action. But little by little, over lifetimes of experience and hard knocks, he is forced, literally forced, to expand the blocks. The blocks are the chakras, the gates that bar the way to his own heaven. Life after life he evolves and pierces the gates of heaven, melting them through continually butting against the walls of his own resistance. The blocks are the chakras.
We see graphics about the chakras on the internet and we are promised bliss and rapture but the knowledge of how to access them are not given to us. They are spoken of in vague terms. Light is understanding. Light is knowledge. Light is love, understanding, knowledge and application in practical terms. As understanding pierces each chakra, a tremor is felt in the mother light at the base of the spine and a door opens a crack, allowing in more light. It is carefully apportioned. Light moves with infinite patience and intelligence for it comes from the father through the mother. The mother knows when the body is ready for more. She watches and waits for love to be applied that will serve and benefit the surrounding atmosphere. When someone does something to help another without selfish motives, the mother flame is quickened and a door opens. A sense of goodness flows forth. Ready to batter against the next barrier.
The second chakra to be pierced above the root or mother flame, the one in closest proximity to the pelvic region, is what we call the sexual chakra, but it is more than sex. When this chakra is opened, the most important sensation is freedom. He feels free and he is overwhelmed with the ebullience and joy of being free. He cares about all people being free. He is the freedom fighter, the martyr for freedom in every avenue of human life. She is the scarlet woman, the free woman, the woman who loves freely, who is liberated from all sexual blocks, sin and shame. But she is also working to bring peace into the world - her world - for peace is the next chakra to be pierced, the 3rd chakra called the solar plexus located above the navel. Peace is the next level of life to be experienced. In many people this chakra is still closed. The flow of life is battering at the door but it is not giving in because there is hatred, violence and confusion involved. The block can only be pierced with a loving, gentle, forgiving attitude.
So freedom is the first block to break through (the sex chakra) and it is done with love. The second block to break through is the solar plexus and this must also be approached with love - those who want to open the solar plex chakra. Until the solar plexus chakra is penetrated and melted, there is emotional confusion and emotional problems. But once the attitude turns loving and benevolent kindness is applied, this block yields under love. It opens and the light flows in and brings a sense of stability and calmness. Those under the influence of the grace and peace of the mother flame, a person is apt to be a counselor and peace-maker in the many fields of human endeavor. There are many outlets for making peace. Ministers, educators, laborers, housewives, any field of industry may find rewarding work on a small discreet level helping people to maintain their calmness and peace. When this chakra is open the person’s tendency in life is to make peace. While this is going on, they are also working on the next block above, which is the heart chakra. The love chakra the fourth barrier to be pierced. It is located in the region of the heart. When the love chakra is pierced, they learn to apply impersonal love, meaning unconditional love, to people and situations which may take lifetimes to expand upon and understand what is happening. The breaking of chakras does not happen overnight, or even in one lifetime.
Until the heart chakra opens, a person has problems forgiving. They have not learned how to place love above all circumstances, but when they finally pierce the love chakra, light flows in and they are able to love freely. Then they live a life of total forgiveness. Their priority is to give and help and heal and love. And while they are experiencing life on the unconditional love plane, they are working on the power chakra, the fifth block, located in the region of the throat. They learn to express their truth through the vocal chords. Power is created through the speaking of The Word. Before the power chakra is penetrated, they have problems saying what they want and feel. They are stumbling and hiding certain aspects of themselves from their neighbors and friends. But when they pierce the throat chakra, suddenly they find themselves saying what they want. They are surprised, when suddenly one day they find themselves speaking a truth that they had been hiding. And so are their friends and neighbors. Their life begins to change. They express more of their authentic self, and therefore are more in control, making better decisions for themselves. The power chakra is a self control chakra. These are the orators of the world, those who speak before the multitudes. If this power is activated without the mother flame, the god flame, flowing through it from the other 5 chakras below, it is misused. They may become con artists, liars and manipulators, preachers and great industrial giants who can move others to their will.
While a person is enjoying and experiencing life flowing through an open throat chakra, they are also working to batter against the closed doors of the third-eye chakra, the sixth chakra. This chakra is located in the region of the brain, connected to conscious thought, the pituitary gland known as the master gland. This chakra controls many functions within the body. Before this chakra is pierced, the person does not think so much about putting things into an order, such as logic, truth or control over emotions. The world is in a state of chaos until the third eye chakra is pierced. Then the world begins to take on a semblance of organization and order. HIS world. He begins to piece things together for himself. Before the mother flame hits the pituitary gland known as the third eye, a person is busy controlling others. The mother flame is his own mother! His own evolutionary energy. He becomes aware of himself whenever a chakra is pierced and the mother flame, the holy spirit, flows through his organs via the blood and begins to activate his body intelligence. His mind and body become synthesized, blended, and operating more efficiently. The soul has a more dominant influence over his life.
The truth becomes important but wisdom is the order of the day. He sees a purpose in how the outer world works. When the mother flame flows from the tailbone straight up the spine to the brain, activating ALL of the chakras, his priority in life is in order - freedom of expression through the 2nd chakra, peace thru the 3rd chakra, unconditional love through the 4th chakra, the power to speak his truth through the 5th chakra, and the organizational skills of the third eye through the 6th chakra. The human being is now under the the sway of his own soul, not his petty, selfish, limited ego. People functioning in the mid-brain chakra are scientists, educators, researchers, whose top priority is work of a mental nature, sometimes so completely involved in their internal organizing they appear to be in an ivory tower. While these people are experiencing life in the mental plane, they are also battering against the doors of the highest chakra of all: the spiritual chakra or 7th chakra, located at the crown. Under the influence of the mother flame now flowing freely up the spine from the tailbone, they come to realize there is something higher and they become curious. So, when they cannot find the pieces to the mental puzzles they are working with in daily life, they begin to look higher.
The light flows in an upward direction, always, to something higher. The chakra at the crown is the one which will enhance and add greater value to the ones below. And so the ladder of life is piercing one barrier after another until finally the spiritual chakra is pierced and the union is made. In flows the light from the great sea of eternal life, the oneness from which the individual spark of the person first descended and subsequently forgot. These are the mystics who have the visions, see God, angels, and other beings who have gone on to higher worlds. They know the truth of life and they are ready to move on, IF - a big IF! - they have left nothing undone behind them. However, most people have left much undone, unfinished business, and gaps are still evident. So they have to go back and reconnect once more with the spark that lies at the bottom of the spinal column.
In the eager climb up the ladder to the crown, one often forgets the mother flame below, holding the anchor to the earth. They must return or they will leave the body behind. The mother flame, now flowing passion and intelligence, is what the Indian folklore calls kundalini and what the Christian world calls the holy spirit. If one forgets the mother flame, he forgets his connection to the earth and the practical life of nature. When kundalini is awakened and moves in an individual, it is dynamic. One feels the presence of something holy moving through him, or something powerful, or something free, or whatever he as a unique individual magnifies and enhances in his life. It is not easy to maintain a balanced life. This is where mastery comes into play. The person must assert control over his life, actions, words and caution is advised. Otherwise, it moves a person to far away from his own kind. He may transcend the outer world and be “wafted” on the breezes of something mightier than himself, giving more power to self-oriented endeavors rather to the good of the whole race, which is the ultimate purpose of the mother flame. He is not in control until he yields to the greater one who IS in control.
Let us not forget that chakras are blocks. Each person alive is walking about in a physical body, and operating within one or two of these seven purities or gifts of the spirit. We are children of the all-intelligence NOT IN FORM, known as the Father, and the all-intelligence who is confined in matter, known as the Mother. Between these two pure intelligences we are learning as children - offspring - of the parents. We are evolving through trial and error and experimentation.
Some individuals are operating on two levels at the same time. A person can be operating on the peace level and the love level, both at the same time. Or a person can be operating on the freedom level and the peace level, both at the same time. Or on the freedom level and the love level. Or on the love level and the power level, such as the charismatic ministers who spread love around. Or on the power level and the mental level at the same time, such as dictators. Most often these people go astray and exhibit less than honorable. Or a person can be operating on the mental and spiritual, such as religious leaders. Quite often they, too, exhibit less than honorable personalities. The danger is that, without careful management of oneself, so much Light floods a particular area of the body when a chakra is pierced, that a person becomes unbalanced. This person may experience knowing himself to have hit upon the truth, but go to extremes and, with power, impose his will on others. He has hit upon the truth, but he must yet learn to balance this particular aspect with all the other six qualities of his life, now flowing through him There are seven major ones, which may be called by many names. We must become aware what these chakras do when they quicken and come alive in us.
It is the work of the ages, and the reason why we must come back into embodiment again and again. To get it right. To complete the learning. How to balance the seven graces, the seven gifts, the seven purities locked within the physical form. We are children learning how to be a grown-up god. We have to learn how to manage the flows of the purities within us - freely, peacefully, truthfully, powerfully, intelligently - how to allow full expression of the light within us, flowing through us from above and from below. The mother light works its way upward through the chakras when the chakras are open - we have to learn the trick of applying goodness and kindness - and it is held back when the chakras are closed (when we are closed). The masters tell us this is the great work which draws us here. We WANT to come here to learn the great lessons. It is the goal of every human being born into an earth body. Each one of us knew before coming what it was that we were to do while here. We are working on something that is profound. We have the sense of a "perfect" within our deepest most immaculate heart. But we don't know what it is until we find it. We will know when we discover it. Then we will begin expressing it to the outer world and other people. Until then, we will continue to work at it. The ideal that we carry within our secret parts is waiting for us to find it. It is the fun and the light-heartedness of adventure and enthusiasm and playing with the dualities that lie all around us, in the many different forms and shapes and sizes.
We are reaching for something, we know not what. We know we have to work on it. It is a priority in our lives. And so our daily tasks, our human relationships, our interests in life are all dedicated to the resolving of the mystery that obsesses us, so that we may pierce the barriers or whatever that hold us back. Often our instincts place us in hard situations just so that we CAN learn. We could not break through a barrier unless we placed ourselves in front of an immovable wall on the physical level. We marry people we know subconsciously to represent road blocks to us. We do it from a soul level, not a mind level. We think we‘re in love. We are inordinately attracted to the person, and we commit to them. We can't help ourselves. Then, after a while, we find there is work involved in keeping this relationship together. What did we do to ourselves? we wonder. We are here to bring forth the seven purities waiting for us to open: will power (1st chakra), freedom (2nd chakra), peace (3rd chakra), love (4th chakra), truth (5th chakra), organizational skills (for lack of a better word for the 6th chakra), and surrender of ego to higher authority (7th chakra).
Now, when we have sufficiently done our work on each level, the next step is to coordinate ALL the levels. It is through the work of coordinating all the levels that we will experience the awakening of kundalini, or the washing of the holy spirit, which will help us to coordinate. Only by lining up the openings into one unobstructed channel, does the holy perfume flow without inhibition. Then we begin enjoying life in paradise in a physical sensual body. The Light flows down from above and up from below as the father light and the mother light meet and play with the child (us). We then experience the fulness of pleasure, joy, abundance freely on all levels. The mystical marriage is complete and life begins right here on earth in the fifth dimension.
9/11/22 - The Queen's Passing
There are weird changes in the atmosphere ever since news came out of the Queen's passing on Friday. That day I was in a null zone. I hadn't heard the news yet. I seemed to be empty, bare, desolate. Nothing of aliveness to live for. Naturally, I thought it was just me and another phase of ascension symptoms I was going through. But the sense of loss was overwhelming. Not depressing, just gone. All loss of interest gone. I've experienced funks before, but never one quite like this. I allowed the funk and slept most of the day. Gradually the news sunk in when Doug told me that the Queen had died, but it didn't register. It wasn't of interest. It didn't register until the next day, as the energies began to change. We are living in a remarkable world at a remarkable time in the history of our planet. I want to post this because I have subsequently learned that others experienced the same funk that I did, as the news of the Queens passing was carried around the world.
As we share our experiences, we are helping to lighten the planet. The darkness WILL pass. It's the passing of not just a cloud, but of a long tradition of heavy-handed rulership which influenced everyone, and everyone obeyed. There are mixed responses to the Queen's passing, all of which add to the changing atmospheric energies. Some think the Queen has been dead a long time and has been replaced by a clone. Others are truly in mourning over the loss. And then there are the random reactions of the 8 billion souls on the planet, all of which alter our emotional and mental sensitivities. Thoughts of what this means circle the globe. But the Light is moving in even as we react and write and speak about it, replacing the large chunk of dark history that disappeared from Earth. A certain heaviness is leaving.
Be patient, for this too will pass. We must be kind to each other during the transition. We need to remember that each person alive has feelings. Emotions color our world bad or good. We must be considerate of the feelings of others. Let's color it good. This is an emotional moment in history. I never realized it before, but politics are emotional. Political beliefs weave in and out of the Monarchy like colored thread in the wall hangings. Politics are perhaps the most passionate of all men's beliefs. Maybe not so much for women, but certainly for men. We musn't argue with someone else's emotions over this. Leave them be. Let them process. Let everyone process this moment. We are living through a world upheaval. We are transitioning from a lower vibrational world to a higher, brighter, lighter world. Minds and hearts are confused. Which way to turn for answers? Let's respect each other and allow the transition to take place quietly, peacefully. We would like time for ourselves. We must give that time to others. The feelings of warmth, caring, respect and kindness to others is the hallmark of the soul. The soul is moving closer in to take charge of human affairs.
There is an increase of Light in the world now that the Queen is gone. Now that the people KNOW she is gone. Maybe it's true that she was gone earlier, but if no one knew, there could be no emotional reaction. It is our emotional reaction that brings us either UP or down. It all depends on how we feel, and we have the power to lift our feelings up with determined thought.
To find out what the Masters say about the Queen's passing, check out the article I posted in "Today's Posts" entitled "The Collectives; Passing of the Crown". It was channeled thru Carolina Oceana Ryan.
9/8/22 - The I Am Presence speaks about the learning process
Q: What is the learning process? I awoke with this hint a few minutes ago. What would you like to tell me?
A: Great and gentle words are coming to you in these days of trial. You do not see the whole. Call upon me more often. Allow your mind to stand ajar. Do not think! Do not imagine all of the possible endings for there is no end. Journeys are made by the light that enters the tiny crack of the blind that you may see the passing events outside and thus you call it “movement”. But within, at the center, no movement is taking place, only the outer exterior may “move”. Wonders of the soul are the learning process. It is not a process of the mind. It is the unfolding, the pulling back of the outer skin to readjust to the eternal beauty of oneness, the ongoing fountain of truth which is new, light, and the glimpse vouchsafed those who would choose the inner sanctity over the outer darkness. For darkness is outer, out beyond the infinity that lies at the center of the soul.
The heart is still and peaceful. This can radiate its quality of peacefulness when the outer form allows it to enter into the life’s activities. The quality of eternal youth, beauty and peace may be absorbed into the day’s activities AT ANY TIME that you so will it, by letting go of the focus. By letting go of the pain. By leaning towards the dawn of self - the immaculate wonder within. The dawn and the Phoenix rising. Send your troubles away by releasing them to the fire of the heart. There is a sacred fire at the center. Will this to come forth in your life. Your life actions are a tightly fixed agenda for the day and so often there is only a merry-go-round circling the one at the center but never touching it. Claim the pole in the center as your own. Touch its core and know the strength available to you at all times. Be at peace from the outer world - they cannot harm you if you are attuned to the center.
The learning process is that process of peeling away the false beliefs that you must work and live in the world. You need not offer your focus to the world at all. Give your focus to the Presence within you, even as you move outward through the door onto the street, and you will be doing what enabled us in our domain - masters today over all conditions - to do that which is the true and proper way for you to go.
9/7/22 - Spirit channeling: Individualism is a lost art
Q: Dear Higher Self, can you explain who you are in terms other than “I am you”? How does this work when others read your words? Are you the same to other humans as you are to me?
A: When you were a small child your parents held you in their thoughts. You reflected outwardly as you watched them in their actions. Their deeds, their responses were a picture for you to copy. The ways of the world are hard and sure, not subtle at all compared to our relationship - you and me - yet the comparison is the same. As you move through the day I am projecting images upon your inner mind - on the delicate substance of your consciousness - that which I want to do. You in turn repeat the act in your outer form. Many, many people are following my progress towards a more enlightened world, yet they know it not. The beauty of perfect harmony between cause and effect is often too far for them to reach with their conscious minds. As you write these words, your mind is turned to a half-way position, like the shutters of a blind hanging over your windows. The sun’s rays are permitted entry into your room in the open position, yet as you close those same blinds the light is stopped. In the same manner does a mind open to the higher Self, whose sunlight is the power of consciousness - given unto the conscious (as you call it) part of the mind so that it may reason and cast insight onto the day by day activities which unfold and carry one to final conclusions. When you refer to the All Intelligence, you are using a most proper term, for there is no limit to the sea of awareness which has fathered you. You are but a tip of the proverbial iceberg, so to speak, and you do not use the eternal qualities that you have at your disposal.
The air within the room is the same as the air out doors in nature, yet when you close your blinds you cannot see. The sun is gone, shadows fill the room. You stumble and fall where, as you open the blinds once more, Lo and behold! There is Light! So, you see, my friend, you are but a tiny object, conscious of your tininess only when you open your mind to see the vastness lying beyond. But as the sun enters your little room you absorb the loveliness of the sun’s rays. You absorb the warmth, the vitality, the glow and you become in your oblivion the sun itself. Can you detect my meaning? There is no dividing line which tells that you are here and I am there, for as you open yourself to me, you become me! I am you as you are me. As I have told you before, I represent your greater attributes, yet I am not all. There is an infinity for us to draw upon, I am the greater side of your own consciousness because in your daily life you must focus (or so you believe) and there is an edge whenever a focus is brought to bear on an object. The edge represents the blinds drawn across your window to shut out the light. Can you understand?
(Q: Yes, I can understand. Thank you very much. This would indicate then, that all human beings are operating off of one consciousness, is this not true?)
You know it is! The wonder that we contemplate in our domain is that this is not apparent to the vast majority instead of the small minority. The lesser minds are focused within a nut shell, shut away by their own beliefs in their separateness from Life. Yet Life is true to itself. It feeds all who exist and have their being with no discrimination one to another. The Light of consciousness floods the open gates, is rejected and turned back by the closed. The practice of meditation as you call it, is a fine and delicate process in the turning of the mind to stand ajar. In silence it must begin out of necessity, due to the turmoil in your society. But in time, one may while yet living in that same turmoil, begin to enjoy the peace that comes from maintaining an eternal mind that is permanently open to the greater forces of Life, love, peace and harmony that is forever available to all.
Your own blessings of life have been culled by your practices of sitting in silence, performing the delicate operation of cutting away the shadows of the blinders. Your open mind draws the Light into your interior and the stars of the cosmos blink on and off to signal your retreat and your coming forth. Never allow the world to shut your doors for you. Only you should retain that privilege. Withdraw from the world when you sense confusion. Withdraw from the world when you can no longer see. That is the sign that an eclipse is happening - a cover placed over your flow of Self. None of the Great White Brotherhood would stand still should a shadow cross their path. They would bolt and run at the first sign of danger. Then, when all is well, they would resume their stand and continue with the task of individual identity. Individualism is a lost art in your world. Individualism is a cause but only yet a dream, for they who would be an individual must first come to the center of self - the center of the Sun. For only out of the heart of Light can individual expression show forth untainted, untainted by the confusion and thoughts of others.
(Q: Thank you for this thought. I am thinking now and therefore I have closed my mind to you - is this right? I am thinking that in order to create logic and conclusions, I must close my mind to follow them to an end. Is this right? Yet, why do I need an end. Why do I “work” to understand? You have told me that you would lead me. There is something here that makes a difference. I would be “different” from other humans if I did not “think” and form conclusions. Yet, my most happy times have been when I was not thinking, but enjoying the ebb and flow within and around me. This is where you are leading me, is it not? Back to the beginning where I do not “think” but act according to impulse? Human beings like to think because they/we like to believe that we are the creator of our life.)
Can you see so simply, beloved? I would take you by the hand and show you to the fountain of eternal life. There is no need to think. The process of life is an ongoing process that has no tomorrow. Tomorrow and yesterday do not exist but in the mind of the one who creates an “end”. There is no end and no beginning in the eternity of Now as your Emerson has so often said. We who grow in the Light of the Great One cannot bear to terminate the glow of Life as you do so often. The rush of power which you force into your minds and bodies through the closing of the doors, is a tension that causes blockages to occur on the tiny membranes of your body. The stress which you so adroitly used in your ad is the very reason why we would never go back to the time period of our mortal lives. The beginning of the end comes at the point of this realization. No can stop the flow and live!
(Q: You have pushed the edges of mind a little further than before. Thank you!)
A: No you have opened your mind to encompass a greater view of the Almighty’s mind. That which has no end. All-intelligence implies a never-ending, no-limit supply of knowledge and light. I am feeding you as you reach with the fingers of your mind. I am the answer as you create the question. Simultaneously do the two join and become one whole. Questions are but focuses on one half, restricting knowledge from entering in. Then the release, the opening and the cry for solution. The marriage of a long lost soul with its counterpart creates a new beginning.
Why do you wonder? Have I not told you that I am here always? The day cannot turn to night lest I am there to show you the night. The morning breaks clear and sweet because I am on the horizon, riding on the sun. There is no length, no depth, no turning of a page in the consciousness of an individual that I am not there holding the lamp that you may find your way.
(Q: Can you explain who are the voices speaking in the book "Spirit Speaks"? Are they members of the Great White Brotherhood or are they waiting embodiment? Dr. Peebles, for example, and Sole and Chief Sitting Bull once of the Sioux?)
Curiosity does not become an angel of Light.
(Q: Thank you. What can I do to help my own growth today?)
We who are joined in the eternal land of livingness can see with great pain the soiling of your earth. Why do you continue to smoke? Can you not see the harm it is doing to your delicacy? Your mental control is in the cannister of a nut shell. Come higher, my friend. Join with beauty and the order of togetherness in thought. Plan your day around me and I will show you many wonders. Fill the stars with your worship, the skies with your song, the trees with your laughter, the night with your (......). Now you are wearing down, put aside your pen and relax with me. I will be with you throughout the evening.
(Q: Thank you.)
Journaled 2/5/86
9/6/22 - Message from my I AM Presence
As I look through my past archives this is one that channeled through me before I knew the word "channeling", way back in the day, 10 years after kundalini took me up into the light and I had to work hard to find ways to come back down and ground and be a normal person again. I am in the process of editing my prolific journals. They are stored everywhere, a staggering amount. I keep finding hidden caches of handwritten messages I left behind. This particular one came after 3 weeks of no relaxation or meditation. My husband and I had just returned from Costa Rica after three weeks of hectic, non-stop busy activity closing out our life there. Back home in Zephyrhills (FL) I finally had a chance to stop. After a half-hour relaxing, I asked, writing it out on paper for I expected an answer:
(Q: Dear Lord of Light, am I OK? What would you have me do?) A: Wonderful sister I am you. Continue as you were. Find your space, accept my grace, for I give it unto you. Feelings race, power fair, generations come and gone do not release the fair increase of wonder in their souls. Do you have questions dear one or do you wish the solitude of my love?
(Q: I am sitting here, at first put out at having to move, but now feeling the radiation spreading throughout my body. It is growing increasingly stronger by the second. How I do love you and my/our connection! Please speak to me about the radiation I feel?)
A: Ten thousand souls would stand before my gaze and only one would sense what you are feeling now. The tender melting of hardness is the tendering of hardness - the crust that you permit to be built around you. Each cell, each particle of space that you affect is affected by your thought., Your immediate body is first to feel the crust of coagulated thought for you live within the spaces betwixt the center and the orbiting electrons. you are the creator of their worlds and your benediction soothes their vibrating bodies, your anger churns them into a vibrating mass of shock-filled wanting mass. Can you understand? Can you place yourself with me into this inner world that you carry around with you as you move? (Yes, I can understand.)
When you take your place in the sun as you did a while ago, you turned those tiny worlds over to Me. As I stepped through the veil of your focus, I stepped in with the power of love in my hands and in my heart, I stepped in to bring you peace. The radiation that you feel just now is my loving uninhibited by your actions and thought. I would give you this more often but you would have it not. (Why?) For months I have been prompting you with the proper way to go, your patterned past is still at work stopping much of the flow. Keep pressing on, do not give up, press the hardness out with love, tenderness is God’s own grace descending like a dove. Soft and sweet and easy, beautiful to behold, the gracious gift is the gift that is given without a thought to hold. Freedom is the facing of the sun, the acceptance of goodness and purity. Those who cannot accept that which is good in their lives are not free. Are trapped in the maze of a finite world.
You want to ask me about the wonder that you and I shared, you saw only a glimpse of our love upon awaking this morning. There is more to come. Open your mind, dear one, I am having a hard time coming through. Yes, that is better. Now, I am here with you at all times but you do not sense me because you are focusing on your outer world tasks. Do not misunderstand what I told you: to continue with your work. I do not mean for you to concentrate so hard! Let your vision lift to a higher plane as you work. Your thoughts are becoming too focused, too narrow, like a microscope focusing on a plate beneath its powerful gaze. Your world is one world - all that is in it is affected by your focus or by your freedom, by whichever thought and intensity that you assume. Would you not like to free your world? Yourself and your associates? Then free your mind from a too intense focus on one thing, one job. A job to do is but a minor act to perform in the maintenance of the whole. Your friends, your husband, your sons, your group, your very own grass and flowers and plants - these too must be cared for, not brushed aside for your work at your desk. Please - balance your focus, balance your vision, soothe your vibrating flesh. I cannot enter a place, a space that has become jagged with cross-currents of energy. Re-align your energies that you may feel whole again.
My beloved, my peace is hard to receive in your physical plane. All is against it. Those who have been able to receive me have removed themselves from exposure to the world’s influence. Yet, your world is against such removal and thus there are few who even try to find me. I am walking the cities’ streets with you. I am walking the isles of the offices and the investment houses, the stores and the many places of business. I am present in EVERY home - none escapes my presence, my longing, my love - and yet who hears my voice? How many stop and lift their vision to seek the peace I hold out to them in the palms - both palms - of my hands? Can you not feel my devotion? My love I yearn to give to you?
I do not ask you to give up all that you have worked for in this world of yours. I ask only that you give a nod of recognition as you pass, a quick raising of your mind to look up to find me before you continue on your frenetic pace. (End. Journaled 1/23/86)
9/3/22 - A vision during a business meeting
From an old journal in 1984. We are back in Costa Rica having a meeting on the macadamia farm, now living in Florida. Bob returns to finish odds and ends related to his old business. I’m there to take notes but a vision is overshadowing me. It's a lovely cathedral with light rays and I can’t keep my mind on the note-taking. The following is copied from my original notes:
I woke with a vision this morning, pushing itself forward, out of the misty distance of my mind. Light forms, graceful lines of sparkling radiance shaped into arches, spires and domes pulsated first within the threshold of my consciousness. It was simply there upon waking as if it had always been there. I ignored it and went into the bathroom, turned on the shower. As the warm water trickled over me I lathered my hair with vigor and rinsed out the suds. As I applied the conditioner my tired mind followed the path of least resistance and the intense activation of the past week began to roll effortlessly before my eyes, running smoothly on their own momentum. God! I was tired, mentally and physically. Images of the accountant sitting before me, ledgers of numbers continued to play the same scenes over and over, tumbling into each other and fading out, while new ledgers took their place. All the while the light vision lingered, superimposed transparently over the darker film, no less real for its transparency and lightness. Two totally different images played upon my visual apparatus, one on top of the other like a double-exposure upon a photographic film. But I was too exhausted to care and I allowed the interplay with little concern. I scrubbed my face with the rough teflon pad layered with soap, not even trying to come awake, allowing my body to wallow in its heaviness. My face hurt from the scrubbing so I stopped and then lifted my face into the spray from the shower head. So weak that my knees trembled. I had never worked so hard in my life as I had this week. Light flooded my consciousness, the vision moved forward. What is this light? I thought? Where does it come from? Myriads of rays of quivering light radiated outward from the strange domed and spired cathedral, glistening like early dew in the morning sun. Why is it here? What is the light raying out? Words flowed through my mind, answering me.
"All light is the connection between a body and its source. Light translated into the human condition becomes attribute which is felt rather than seen, as the body closes in around this life-giving essence. Truth, nobility, justice, and mercy, patience with those who are against you. Tolerance of that which opposes. They are the qualities of the great central source of life. As it passes through the density of physical thought and emotion, the light is filtered out and only its shadow remains, but when uncluttered by human emotions and human limitations, these attributes are seen in truer form, light forms direct from the heart of life. The soul sees the light visually just as the physical eye sees the sunrise in the morning as it impresses itself upon the optic nerve. Light is reason, intelligence, virtue and wisdom. Light is the absence of darkness caused by the encroachment of dense human beliefs, error, intolerance, discrimination, the theory of sin, weakness and mistakes."
The words tumbled over the darker images of the past week, like crystal spring water over rough stones in a creek bed. Like the song of a bird over the wet drizzle of a somber day. It ran through my mind effortlessly. Still, the weakened condition of my depleted mind did not allow me to be stimulated by this remarkable intrusion. The voice seemed to come from the lovely arcing cathedral, ever so subtly, ever so softly, yet ever present. I focused on the water knob, pulled the shower curtain back careful in the delicate maneuver of stepping out of the tiled bath while reaching at the same time for the fuzzy blue towel on the towel rack. Worrying about Jim and Flora waiting in the living room to take Bob and me to the office. The visual whisper of clean lines of golden pinkish light hung suspended in the tired spaces of my mind, light rays still glowed and radiated outward, as if the cathedral were the source of light itself. But as I dried myself off I knew different. The light rays were the open-ended connection between those who had built the cathedral and the source of life itself. That’s what caused the light.
“Did you get that? Make a note of that,” Bob said, looking to me while the rumble of voices cut in on my consciousness. The meeting on the Macadamia Plantation led by Bob, was nearly over. Embarrassed, I tried to recall what had been said, struggled to focus, and failed. Faking it, I wrote on the paper before me while the vision faded into the background, yet not beyond the threshold of consciousness. I knew what was happening to me. The intense output of the past week had drained and exhausted me and the abrupt stopping Friday night upon completion of our trouble-shooting project to set in new controls, had released the bars that chained me to this world. And once more, my spirit was soaring without an anchor. Body and mind weakened, supernormal will power needed to get the job done, was now gone. There was little to hold me in the mental and physical plane any longer. Yet this meeting was important. A last residual of the problem areas that needed careful analysis. “Oh well”, I thought. “I’m not really needed here. I’ll get notes from Bob later. Besides, I know everything they’re discussing already. I’d been over it this morning over coffee when Bob dictated the agenda. I plucked inane sentences out of the air and scribbled them onto the paper, pretending to take notes and a wave of softness fluttered through me as if I released all worry.
“We’ll issue notes in lieu of salary for April,” said Bob. “Interest should be paid on that amount, based on prime rate.” said Allen. “Libor,” said a third. “Libor’s always changing,” said the first. It didn’t make sense. Normally I would be following the flow of conversation. Now it was as if they were speaking a foreign language. I looked out the broad windows on the opposite side of the room of our office on the 6th floor. Between the tall buildings, the northern range of mountains surrounding the central valley of Costa Rica was dotted with yellow lights. The setting sun was now touching the overhanging clouds with a purplish-pink glow. The sky was darkening. Suddenly I was inside the light cathedral! An ever so subtle shift in consciousness and the rays of light were radiating from me, outward. A soft quivering sense of security and peace enfolded in upon me and I became part of the source of the light, radiating out of the sanctuary which had been hovering in my consciousness all day.
“Do you have everything now?” asked Bob. I pulled myself out of the sanctuary and looked down uneasily at the paper on my lap and squirmed. “Well, ah - I think I can pick up what I don’t have from you,” I said. “Later, tonight.” “Well, just look at the agenda,” said Bob. It’s all there!” Then Allen jumped to my rescue. “What do you have?’ he asked, coming over to look over my shoulder onto my scribbles. Quickly I tucked them under a clean sheet. (Journaled 1/28/84)
9/2/22 - The igniting of power: integrate the imbalance of masculine and feminine by holding the center
During meditation I was wondering, what is a man? What is a human being? After meditation I came out and sat down beside Bob and looked around. In my inner eye I saw a light above the head and a smaller light down below in the pelvic bowl. And the vision persisted. As I watched, a transcendence pervaded me. It became clearer and clearer to me what a human being really is. The answer to the million-dollar question and why man has been so confused over the centuries, with the answers seemingly locked away from him, a mystery.
I see a light above the head, a brilliant white radiation, and a smaller light down below in the pelvic bowl. The smaller light is identical to the brighter one above and man’s consciousness is the grey zone in between. Man, in ignorance of his real identity, is unsure which way to go. The truth is that his identity has been separated into two parts, and thus his power has been separated in two. The light above the head is a droplet from out of the overall sea of consciousness and it remains pure and undefiled, still in contact with the source of life and intelligence. The light above the head has become individualized for the purpose of manifesting in the physical world. But because it is too great, too pure to be contained in a corruptible body even though innocent as a babe, it broke a very small portion of itself away, as all human beings do, and cast it downward into the womb of a woman, round which it gathered material to build a baby infant form for birth.
This piece of original intelligence is the pilot power situated at the end of the spine, in the pelvic bowl, which is the geometric center, and it alone is responsible for keeping the body alive and governs its growth. It is the intelligence of the body. But because the baby grows up in a material environment and is fed information only through the outer senses, and the outer world, it is not guided to identify with the original consciousness which is pure, as we see in babies. And soon the purity of unadulterated consciousness begins to fade and in its confusion the individual begins to identify with the form in which it resides, and with the physical world which it sees outside. And soon, he begins to think that he is that form. Thus the light above the head, the source of his life and the greater portion of his consciousness, remains behind as a vast, untapped storehouse of power and knowledge, always there, intended for the soul to draw upon - an infinite potential waiting to be called upon and tapped for recognition, waiting for an invitation to come down and express outward into the physical world. That purity that is in heaven is intended to be expressed on earth.
But man has not learned this yet. Mankind has accumulated mistakes and errors which have built up inside of him. The world now is too glamorous for him to look within to his purity. The outer senses and material influences call to him from outside and pull his focus away from the higher consciousness which is more lofty and graceful, where holiness, innocence and peace prevail. Concepts that are not true have wheedled their way into the man’s awareness, and programmed his brain with a muddied discernment. Corruption seeps in and ferments. The higher power is all but forgotten except for some distant God who, the scriptures say looks down at us and doles out punishment and rewards. It is an erroneous concept from start. Thus the separation. Originally the little piece of purity was sent down as an advance scout to prepare the infant for the greater power coming behind. But the separation has become now a permanent separation. The scout is cut off. The piece of pure power at the end of the spine has virtually become a prisoner in the man’s own camp which he himself prepared. And because of this he is unable to contact the greater authority above his head, thus bringing alive the God within himself. The consciousness becomes confused, looks left and right and laments his condition. He becomes a mortal being, inculcated into the world and destined to die.
PART 2
The power in the pelvic bowl becomes known merely as physical sex which contains the spark of procreation. Its virtue and sacredness is lost upon the consciousness of the man. It becomes merely a pilot light on low simmer and must wait for the ambition of man to become tired and to give up so that the man will turn his attention inward and come back home to the nest within, where his real identity resides. The pilot light of pure consciousness must wait for ambition to run its course, for desire to spend itself, for appetites to fill to overflowing, so that the man will wish to return home and nourish himself again with his own inner flame of love. Then the power from above - the power known as God - may come down and fill the body and mind with the destined design and purity of purpose.
Once this begins to happen, once man returns to his within, the consciousness becomes more powerful, more glowing, more perceptive, more knowing. The individual begins the process of pulling the rest of himself down into his body and life simply by focusing on it. He pulls it down into the machinery of his being where it oils his physical body, sparks his mind and soothes his emotions and he becomes more sensitive to his feelings. Contrary to the popular belief that one must rise upward to find the light, one must first go down into the gut level of existence and contact the intuition which lies below the heart, below the navel, into the earthiness of his pelvic zone where the little seed of pure power is located. Around it has accumulated the energies of past mistakes, errors, damage to himself and others that he wishes he never did. One must act upon that level. When one acts upon intuition, known as gut feeling, one begins to pull the power above down. It is through action that one pulls it down. By the laws of mechanics one pulls it down. Through action one pulls it down but through RIGHT action. Through the action of proper choice and the acceptance of responsibility. Then the man begins to become virtuous, aware of what is good for him and what is not., And what is good IN him and what is not.
The physicality known as the carnal side of him begins to take on a certain glowing beauty, while his spirituality takes on an earthiness, and the two become integrated as one. The higher power known as spiritual flows down, and the smaller power flows up, known as carnal because it is covered by flesh – dense, heavy energy. The result is an igniting of force which manifests as a personal and practical power which one must process and allow. It is felt as attraction, love, beauty, grace, intimacy and by other names. It can also be called tempting, alluring, a siren’s call, charisma, which requires great wisdom to direct it along a path that does not harm, for it radiates outward and touches everyone who comes into contact with it. This power is called shakti, kundalini, the holy spirit, and many other names.
The man or woman in whom this takes place, becomes more aware for awareness is power and power is awareness, as always it has been, and he or she begins to create his or her own law and to pave his or her own way, and march to the beat of a different drummer than others around him. His or her acts become neither good nor evil but uniquely his or hers alone, a non-conformist to tradition. And he or she has the right to walk thus for it has been given to him or her to be a son or daughter of God on earth should they wish to cultivate it. He becomes a power on Earth greater than others because he has the authority from above manifesting within and through him. And so long as he follows the irrefutable laws of God - the laws of good - he will continue to grow in power. Should he fall away from the laws of good, the punishment will be separation from that power which he enjoyed and is now gone. The result will be a loss of awareness and a loss of understanding and he will find himself once more in the world of ignorance, struggle and confusion where there is no respect for life and evil prevails to torment and ridicule.
PART 3
What are these two lights? The large one over the head and the smaller one in the pelvis? Their essence is innocence. They are so pure, like a glistening radiation of life itself, the spark of life. It is the innocence that is unknown by adults except in the throes of hurt, the innocence of child-like love, the sense of fair play, of compassion and mercy, of honesty, of child-like willingness to help, of straightforwardness, of swift and bold action. All of these plus more of those attributes of the soul we call “the virtues”. All of these are but reflections out of this great white light of purity, for it is the heart of God himself. The sense of purity and wholeness are but signs that he is approaching more closely to the heart of his real self, the true self, the self that knows God and the cosmic laws which are pure, just and good.
The next question is, “How does one bring this power forth?” We bring these attributes forth by using them, by showing these very same attributes in spoken words out loud, and in acts reflecting them. Until they are used, they are just words. But by applying them and insisting upon using them courageously, in spite of rejection by those who would put them down, who would ridicule them as childish and simple, we bring them forth into our lives. They are not childish. They are the substance of the soul, which is simple, good and natural. And if we want to bring forth the power of the soul into our daily life, we must practice how to use them. They are the qualities of the soul, the link and the channels of connection to God. These are the conduits and meridians between the mortal and that mortal’s source of power. Only by using those qualities that are already built-in on a small scale, can we open the channels between the smaller light in the pelvis at the end of the spine, and the larger light above the head, known as the dweller on the threshold, the father of our life. As we open the channel between the two, we receive greater and greater power into the body and mind and feelings so that we can use more of it in our daily life for greater ease, happiness and abundance.
How can there be power in truth? How can there be power in justice? In mercy? In love? How can there be power in turning the other cheek? Meaning to walk away? Or in heroic action? Or in swiftness of action? Let us turn this around and ask, “How can there be power in dishonesty?” How can there be power in injustice? How can there be power in mercilessness? In hate? How can there be power in striking back? In cowardice? Or in slow-moving action? These are the opposites of those qualities of the soul that man has taken upon himself to use. He puts down his power, makes himself weak, sluggish, heavy, impoverished and unable to move. And beneath the heaviness he labors. He is slow to perceive, slow to move, slow to understand. The power of innocence is in the swiftness and the dynamics of spontaneity, because they are the same attributes as Source. This is what life is made of, this is what God is made of. This is what good is made of, and if we want to become powerful we will become like good, or like God.
You know yourself how much you want sometimes to just let everything go? To chuck it all overboard and turn your back and walk away? This is the urging from the soul within. It is saying in essence, “You don’t have to work so hard. Why do you work at it? Let me flow and ease your struggle. Let me flow and you will be in paradise.” Let the child in you come out – the light at the end of the tailbone. The child has become petulant because it has been held back. The child has been damaged, restricted. Let the child come out to play - the wondrous child who is innocent and who desires to laugh, cry, act, move, be natural, be free. Let him out. Let him come forth in innocence. Let him speak his feelings, they are your feelings. Let him feel what he wants to feel. It is you.
You sense there is something unknown that is pressuring you from inside but you are holding it back. Let it go or it could express in violence. Ease it out slowly, practice letting it happen naturally, spontaneously, and do not judge the results. They are neither good nor bad. Experiment with your inner tenderness. It is there. It is this tenderness that must come forth. Tenderness is power. It is the power of the blade of grass that cracks through the hard stone of the earth, where it takes a chisel and hammer to cut. It is the power of the babe to turn a hard man’s heart to jelly. It is the power of a woman’s tears to bend authority. The power of a saint to turn back a frenzied mob.
This power is the power of your soul, the power that gives you life, and yet you hold it back and keep it a prisoner within. You are afraid of that power and you call it wrong because it doesn’t “fit into the world” and so you reject it. Do you realize that you reject God by doing that? God is the power in you. It is the power that moves the mountain, it is that power of innocence that is contained in the mustard seed. It is the power that cracked and leveled the walls of Jericho when the army beat the drums and walked around it.
This is the power you are looking for. It is the power of responsibility. Response-ability is the ability to respond to the power within. Meaning to open and receive it and allow it to come forth through your actions and words. You are responding to it and welcoming it with your own tenderness and respect. You begin to call it forth when you accept your responsibility for the power that was long ago given to you as an infant. Return to the child in you. Forget all the adult stuff. Go ahead and say what you have been wanting to say to your friend, to your spouse, to your neighbor or boss. Get it over with. Unplug the dammed-up power and let it flow. Just say it. It’s very simple. Just practice the words once or twice alone. Pick a time and then let it loose. Go ahead and plan that trip you’ve been wanting to take. It doesn’t have to be tomorrow but put the plan into action. Plan for it. Arrange your finances and your time, and pick a date and work toward that date. Get it over with. Stop holding back your power of life, your power of abundance to fill your wants and needs. The mother of power is action. Move! Act! Do what you have to do to start the ball rolling. Do what you have to do instead of prolonging it.
A good example is the child. A little child shall lead you, say the scriptures, and this is your model to follow. Follow the straightforwardness of the child. The mercy of the child. The love of the child. Follow his example. He doesn’t hold back. And then, temper this with the wisdom of your life experience for you have to live in this world of hard knocks and there is a right way and a wrong way to do things. You have the formula to burst the locked-up dam of power. It is quite contrary to the theory of sitting in meditation and praying for change. Change will not happen by wishing for it, or praying for it. It will change only as you begin to move. (Journaled 7/9/83)
8/31/22 - What really matters to you? Your Brain vs. Your Mind
The brain has knowledge imprinted in it that YOU put there. Your mind is YOU, not the brain. The brain is formed out of clay and dust. It’s an object of solid matter. Your mind is not solid but a river of awareness moving through your body, which is composed of matter. As YOU flow through your body, your brain doesn’t discern the flow. It is not enlightened. It is simply a vehicle, a tool of solid earth. It responds to you and registers what you are aware of. You are a river flowing through its banks on either side, for you are a moving river of awareness. YOU, the river, are the one who discerns. YOU are the awareness that quickens your body – or depresses it. YOU are the one who goes to sleep to the world at night and wakes up to the world in the morning. YOU are the mind who becomes aware of what matters the most to you. What matters the most to you is what imprints on your brain cells. Your brain cells register it and log it in, as important because you paid attention to it. Where do you put your attention? What matters to you? It is better if inspirational things matter to you, more than depressing things. Because sad, angry or violent stuff brings will imprint on your brain cells and give them back to you throughout your day and night in the form of dreams.
It is better to pay attention to inspirational and uplifting thoughts, movies, friends, and news about the world, than paying attention to depressing stuff. Or you can go through life dulled down to not caring, and simply follow the routines learned from childhood and never change unless something exceptional happens to you. If you are not inspired and live a lack-luster life, nothing much matters. But you can make positive changes in your life by watching and discerning what inspires you. What matters to you? What sparks your attention? What makes you sit up and take notice? If you sit up and take notice of gossip or dramas of other people, or of news of vicious, hateful acts that stun and shock you, and cause you to stop in your tracks to think about it, then surely your brain will register that. Do you want that to register on your brain? Probably not. That is why it is important to become aware that YOU are the river of intelligence flowing through the nerve synapses of your brain cells, imprinting your brain cells with what you are thinking and observing. The practice of meditation is a daily routine of taking minutes out of a day and becoming physically relaxed and still, and stopping the brain cells from running on automatic. That is when you become aware that you are a river of awareness. You are not your body. You are an immortal intelligence.
8/29/22 - More on Kundalini
People speak freely today of universal energy and the vast powers of the cosmos. I would venture to say here that kundalini must be a condensation of those forces, compressed and compacted to almost a solidification of those powers, as much as powers can be solidified, for they really do press and bend the physical body structure. And once that remarkable mental contact occurs, when the door swings inward upon this hibernating potency, one is not as prone to speak about it so lightly, as once he may have been.
The ecstasies of high inspirational moments, those comfortable stretchings of feeling and awareness which occur periodically in individuals, would appear to be a gently flowing kundalini. These experiences would seem to be, and I speak only as an observer of certain actions in myself, the kundalini still in embryo form moving about, much like a human embryo kicks and shifts within the womb. But when the kundalini decides to become born into the physical body and thus into the world, the body and mind which bore it are never the same again.
These powers are no longer impersonal but deeply personal, as the objective succumbs, beyond reason, to the subjective experiences now unleashed. Influences and coercions come to bear on that body which seem not to be physical, and yet seem not to be mental in origin. They seem to come from a deeper level. These are forces uncontrollable, welling upwards as from a vast sea of something intangible and unknown. It is heightening and frightening at the same time. Forces, lights, visions, strange ideas, weird contortions, perversions and heart-felt sympathies and sensitivities and much, much more, all happen at once, magnified out of all normal proportion with no control over them to shut them off. One feels somewhat like a computer with an overload, helpless but to experience it or pull the plug. Without the tender sympathies of close associates, and I am fortunate to have a sympathetic husband, one could easily go mad, unable to accept the contradictions now thrust into the consciousness.
What am I? Who is this grand and noble one who is coming through, smiling at my wonderment? What lies hidden beyond the periphery of my consciousness? Perhaps it is too vast to measure, but while I am taking myself so exceedingly for granted, I - my very self - am being infused with a larger mind, a broader perspective, a knowledge of future. And with all due respect to the prevailing fears surrounding the subject matter, and these are heavy considerations, I fear more for the prevailing ignorance of my race concerning it. (journaled 6/17/79)
8/26/22 - The block at the lower lumbar region - the sex chakra
While doing the internal organ exercise today I saw the root chakra at the base of the spine as the primary seed of divinity in the body - the mother seed from which the other six qualities blossomed. I saw this in simple form, not special, it was simply the first seed planted deep down in my body, underneath where no one sees. It is a seed out of which the other qualities grow like vines on a fence. They simply grow because they are supposed to grow up the spine to open the other six chakras. When the baby is first conceived, the cells grow one by one around this first seed of pure divinity. And then when born the baby naturally learns to touch himself or herself because it feels good. And that’s when it begins.
The mothers says, “Don’t touch down there!”, the private part. But she herself will touch him there, the male child, when he won’t stop crying. It is soothing to him, the old wives tales say as much. We all feel soothed when touched gently there. But the “don’t touch” rule insidiously begins to imprint its evil early on, because the parents were imprinted with it. This imprinting successfully keeps the good warm comforting feelings from rising up the spine to the second chakra, which becomes blocked now at this second level - blocked because the “don’t touch” rule is seen, felt and heard and insinuated everywhere as he/she grows up. And is enforced. By the time the child is engaging socially with other kids, a backing and building up of the good warm comforting feeling is taking place. It accumulates all in one spot because it is prevented from flowing naturally, no different than a river accumulates when a cement dam is built to hold back the waters, preventing the rest of the forest from being fed. So the human body is meant to flow with the vital force from the earth, but the upper body is not receiving and begins to suffer from lack of primal life, the vitality of the body. The body shows symptoms of urgency and distress when it is held back and demands release.
The sex impulse from holding back a natural flow of vital energy becomes a pressure around age 10, 11, 12, 13. By then the “do not touch” principle is solidly established. The child knows it is wrong to touch down there; it’s against the rules. Guilt and worry adds further tension. The chakras above the second chakra are not receiving the life force, which would allow that part of the body to receive the much needed benefits of life, and would bring a natural calmness and health to the nervous system. Instead, we have a growing preponderance of ADD. The proper flow of warmth, comfort, truth, goodness, virtues of every kind, are not reaching the rest of the body. The boy child is now enamored with the bliss he feels each time he touches and releases the life force, which is natural, yet troubled with the guilt that has been laid upon him. He is doubly cursed but he is programmed to believe this is the only way open to him. The boy is part of the partriarchy and receives further false instruction as he matures to manhood and discovers women and the sex act. He learns that women are waiting for him and will play the distortion game with him, for they have also been programmed the “do not touch” rule, which is universal.
The process of wrongly holding back the life force and not allowing it to flow freely, is the gremlin in the works. The life force accumulates at the second chakra and does not flow to the upper body. Sexual release feels good but it happens in one big explosion at the second level. It feels good at the time, bliss for a half hour or so, but it’s wasted because the fires of life, the vitality, doesn’t reach the upper levels of the body - floors three to seven and the important organs up there. The human mistakenly feels he/she has done the right thing, it feels wonderful releasing in one big explosion, but in fact onlyl the lower body benefits. The upper body’s organs and glands do not. The third chakra does not receive the benefits (stomach, digestive and other related organs), and neither does the fourth (heart, lungs and related organs), nor the fifth, sixth and seventh.
The seven chakras, all located in the etheric body, so far undiscovered by modern scientists, are centers of distribution for the life force that comes up from a living earth. It is designed to flow evenly up through the spine to the top of the head and beyond. But it’s all stopped at the second chakra because humanity has been led to believe the “do not touch” rule. Humanity for eons have been stopped dead in its evolutionary tracks because of sexual prohibition. It has been kept from having a prolonged and healthy life of peace, love, good will, happiness and creative abundance for everyone equally. Because the sexual force is the life force. Life is love and wherever life flows, there flows love. The flow of love has been stopped, because somewhere along the line humans were led to feel guilty about it.
Fortunately, this sad tale will soon to be over. The world is changing even now, if we open our eyes and minds and look beyond our noses and what’s right in front of us. The innocence and purity of physical love is a wide open field. It comes into view from a distance. It will be slow at first, but it will move closer in as we look for it. Along with other disclosures it will bring natural gifts to men and women everywhere. The freedom to love and the love of freedom opens the gates of truth, love and intelligent to flow in creative ways. They will resuscitate old distorted views. They will bring excitement and enthusiasm and joy. The life force is designed to flow both up and down the spine equally, through the ETHERIC spine, so the chakras receive and distribute spiritual life force and also planetary life force. Flowing together brings harmony to both spirit and the physical matter of the body. Then new inspiration flows every day through the physical organs which keep the body alive.
8/24/22 - Awakening the light trapped in the physical body
Upon waking and before I begin my practice, I am consciously connecting with the light sparks in my skin, bone, muscles and organs. I am speaking silently in my mind, like a chanting. It is automatic. I am calling to the light trapped in me, covered inside veils of unawakened earth material. I am calling to the light in my skin, muscles, organs and bones. They are my people, my sparklets of light divine and pure that were left behind in prior lives when my bodies died. I am clicking into something natural, an evolutionary force is drawing me to click into. I am calling to the light trapped unknowingly, lonely and cut off from their sisters and brothers, lost and afraid. The have been in service to the One who governs all life. These little light sparkles are pure love and they serve to the best they are capable of. They are once more feeling the pull of the darkness again. Oh! Now I understand. That's the sickish feeling I’ve been having, the end of life feeling I've been feeling over the last two years which the pandemic released to humanity.
The sparkles that give life to the living cells of solid bodies, feel the pain that has been unleased on them. The sickness has been spreading among the people, because THEY are the livingness of the body, the life of the body. They feel when life is threatened, when sickness is killing their master. The minds of the people do not know that they have light sparkles of pure divinity in them, in their muscles, cells, organs. I did not know myself 10 years ago, but I've been learning. I'm catching on. I am more aware of the light within me now. The substance of my body, or rather the light within the substance of my body, is trying to shake off the mist and grunge but it isn't strong enough because the master isn't awake yet. She doesn’t know. It is the darkness. I call it the sickness. The light in me is feeling the sickness. I didn't understand that it is the LIGHT that is feeling the sickness. The LIGHT in me is feeling the pull of the ancient darkness again. It has felt it before. The little sparks of pure divinity have been through this before in my previous bodies. I didn't know. Many ages have past with me being unawakened. Lost in the past ages.
But now the cells in MY body are hearing MY voice. I am the soul, the spirit, the father-mother to them, the voice now awake and calling to them to come home to ME. I am gathering them during my silent times, during my meditation times, my alone times. I read from the Masters and they are teaching me. Now I am aware and I am calling to the light with me. The little light sparks are so clean and true and real. I have left them behind in past ages. Now I am calling to them. I am not going to leave them behind this time. I am more awake than ever before. The ascension of the planet is underway and I am part of it. I am conjoined with the ascending energies. The LIFE of my body is these little electrons of purity. They sparkle. I can see the now. They support my human body as others support other human bodies. They have been serving souls for eons of time, trapped as they have been, in the cells of earth matter when they die. They hold the form of the human body together for the souls that live in them. The cells are alive because of the electrons that are pure divinity living inside of them. They are living, but they have been feeling the death pangs of their cells. The earth matter is called to return to the soil of earth, and the light is called to return Home to the One who lives in endless light and love. The eternal father-mother.
So. Now I understand. The earth material has to return to the planet when the body dies, and the light returns Home. There is a tearing apart, a separation. There is confusion. I was feeling the confusion called it "sickness". I wondered what it was. Now I know. DK has been teaching me in his books. Now I know. Now I am calling to the light in my cells and they are hearing me. They are awakening, quickening, coming to me. They are vitalizing me. i am being energized. I am sprinting in my steppings. I feel more alive than ever. My cells are activating and remembering and responding to my call. They are responding to my calling. They are “quickening”. Yes, quicken. Stand to alert. They see the light in my calling because I have it now. They hear it. They sense it. They know the sound of their master. It is familiar. It is comforting to hear my call. It is love. It is harmony. It is friendly. It is peaceful. It is the Oneness. I am representing the Oneness to the lost light particles trapped in my body. Because I now know how it works and how my body functions, I am calling to them, to the light. Not to the form body - the form is made of earth substance - but to the light I am calling. The light is what keeps the earth substance alive. The light divine - electrons, atoms, subatomic light particles - have been holding my body together in a solid form for all these years - and all the other bodies too, including prior to this one - for they are my children, from my mother light. They are part of my spirit and therefore my responsibility. Now I know. They are my elementals, my little angels, they are my own. They are part of me, one with me and they are rejoining me as I call to them, chant to them, send them joy and happiness. Yes. yes, yes, yes! I am sprinting now, physically sprinting around getting things done with powerful energy because the light in my physical cells are gathering together and empowering me, responding, coming alive, joining with me. The power of the universe is waking up inside my body cells. (End)
8/23/22 - A message from Higher Self
“Take your focus off the physical body. Focus on the power within – your ‘I am Presence’. This is the time for you to shift your attention to your ‘I am Presence’ which is the only power you have to sustain your body, mind and feelings. This is for YOU to cultivate your real power within you. Stop measuring your shell, your outer crust, and focus instead on the love and the light within you, which you have been doing over the many years I have been training you to do. As you have written – you are the shell, I am the power behind the shell that motivates and moves you. Believe it MORE! You are the shell, I am the love. You are my vehicle. I am the power that moves the vehicle. I am you and you are ME! We are One power! You have been dividing your attention between your inner and your outer, when there IS NO DIVISION! You are coming home to me now, connecting with me now. You are realizing this truth now. This is where you stop depending on the physical measuring devices and focus on ME! Remember as you go about your love-in-motion tasks, that I Am the one moving through you. WE are conjoined together. Remember ME! Connect with ME! I Am you. You are ME. We are together love in motion. Rely on me. Remember me. Depend on me, not your devices which measure only the outer crust. I am you. You are me. Now, you may do your rhythmic breathing exercise. I Am doing them through you, my beloved. You are my outer aspect on the ground. Remain solid on the ground trusting in ME! I am you on the ground and I Am you in the heart of perfection. You do not need names and labels. You need only to remember ME! The power of all that you are in this moment and in every moment is the power that lives in you and motivates you and inspires you. Remain connected to this power through your movements and motions. You are love in motion. You are all that ever lived, ever, for you are me. Please remember me. Activate me NOW!”
8/22/22 - The earth journey - the making of an immortal (part 5 of 5)
Part 4 yesterday, 8/21/22, below
8/21/22 - The earth journey - the making of an immortal (part 4 of 5)
Part 3 yesterday, 8/20/22, below
Part 3 yesterday, 8/20/22, below
8/20/22 - The earth journey - the making of an immortal (part 3 of 5)
Part 2 yesterday, 8/19/22, below
Part 2 yesterday, 8/19/22, below
8/19/22 - The earth journey - the making of an immortal (part 2 of 5)
Part 1 yesterday, 8/18/22, below
Part 1 yesterday, 8/18/22, below
8/18/22 - The earth journey - the making of an immortal (part 1 of 5)
8/15/22 - The importance of the etheric body - how to locate it
During meditation one day I was focusing on the threefold flame in my heart as taught by the Masters. I imagined the feminine pink coming out of the right base of spine and swirling counter clockwise around the central spinal column. I imagined the masculine blue coming out of the left base of spine and swirling clockwise around the central spinal column. (In my original vision they paused as they crossed each other before continuing on.) And in the middle I imagined the golden flame rising up straight and tall in the center between the two. In the meditation I was led to see that the center is the balance between the male and female energies in our bodies. I had seen this long ago in vision form during a trance-like meditation but didn't understand it then. Now I was shown that the central golden flame is ME! I am the consciousness between the feminine and masculine flames. I am the eye eye of the needle, so difficult to thread the truth through the eye of the needle! I was shown this profound truth. I am the only one who can bring balance to my distortions and confusions. I am the only one to bring balance. I am to balance the left and right tendencies in me. It's my responsibility to maintain the neutral point. It's my job to not allow my attention to be pulled hither and yon, first into a female perspective, then into a male perspective. I am to remain in control of my own balance.
Since I have been working to understand "the four lower bodies", I went to work on that imagery. I began decreeing light into my body cells on all the four levels - physical, etheric, emotional and mental. I started with the physical. I focused on one cell in my left big toe. I brought my focus to a point, a single point, thinking "cell". Then I imagined a layer over that one cell, a transparent layer thinking "etheric" layer. Then I imagined another transparent layer or bubble over that one, thinking "emotional" layer. Then another transparent bubble over that one, thinking "mental" layer. So there were now three layers or transparent bubbles layered over the physical cell in my left big toe. The dot in the center was the physical cell in my big toe. The etheric layer was the first transparent bubble over it; the emotional layer was the second transparent bubble over it; and the mental layer was the third transparent bubble over it.
Next I did the same thing with a cell in my hip, first focusing on an imaginary cell in my right hip. Then a transparent layer over it, then another larger bubble over it, then a still larger bubble of it, representing the etheric body, the emotional body and the mental body. These are the "four lower bodies" consistently spoken of by the Masters as being corrupt. The three higher bodies are pure divine light bodies, not corrupt. These four "lower" bodies have become contaminated through many lifetimes of trial and error. We have accumulated a lot of false beliefs and we need to purify them.
Next, I did the same thing with a heart cell, first focusing on an imaginary cell in my heart muscle and building the three transparent bubbles around that cell. Then I did the same thing with a brain cell, focusing on an imaginary cell in the pituitary gland, and building the three transparent bubbles around that one. Then I did the same thing with a muscle cell in my lower back, and a muscle cell in my upper back, building around each the three transparent bubbles around each cell. I did this while decreeing my 49 decrees - a lengthy 30 minute mantra which I memorized many years ago. A smooth melodious feeling of warmth started spreading within me.
Next I imaged the four lower bodies each separate but united by organizing them in layer upon layer upon layer. On the secondary level, the transparent etheric body was built. Around that, the transparent emotional body was built. Around that the transparent mental body was built. Each body looking like me. This is difficult to imagine, but it develops through practice. It is WORK! Mental work to build the inner bodies so they look like you in imagination. The whole body then "rights" itself. It organizes itself. It becomes unified. By expanding all the transparent cells in my three inner bodies, I am bringing my confusion more and more under my conscious control. That is the purpose for doing it. It is a mental discipline practice of taking control of heretofore unknown forces that feed into the outer personality and one's daily life situations. You would be surprised how effective it is.
I started out imagining my physical body looking the way it does in the mirror. Then I imagined the etheric cells in my toe, my hip, my heart, back, etc., which were the first layer of transparent bubbles over my physical cells, expanding to all the other cells on that plane. I imagined what they would look like as they spread and became connected to form my etheric body. The etheric plane operates on a higher dimension than the physical plane. It is not seen with physical eyesight but certain individuals with inner sight, such as clairvoyants, can see it with the third eye, if it is open. The etheric body is individual to the physical body. It feeds into the physical body. It acts as an aura around the physical body. It is the first layer of the aura and the densest layer that surrounds the physical body. It can be seen as a grayish, bluish glow in a twilight sense, by half dimming the eyelids, or outdoors at dusk looking at trees.
There is eternal light in the etheric plane - there would have to be to be a living entity - but there are also warped and distorted energies in the form of traumatic memories and other wrong or distorted beliefs that are also contained in the etheric body. Everything in the etheric body feeds into the physical body, including toxic energies, from ancestral diseases to anything - you name it - and these feed into the physical body. Our physical body is the final expression of what is held in the etheric body. Sorry to have to say this, but that's the reason why we need to learn about the etheric body, and start to learn some purification techniques. This is the source of unconscious or subconscious inherited beliefs and tendencies. It can be done. There is a science to purifying the etheric body. Esoteric and occult techniques are emerging from hidden realms to teach the modern seeker. I am speaking of one technique here.
I imagined my etheric body looking filmy and gauzy, transparent or translucent. It looks like my physical body but I can tweak it a little with my imagination and make it prettier or more refined. It's called the etheric double by the metaphysical community. Most people have not been told about it. After death a person's etheric double can be seen by sensitives or clairvoyants for a little while, as it slowly releases the life of consciousness of the body. It then rises upward to higher ground, just as the physical body slowly disintegrates as it slowly releases the life of consciousness from the physical body.
Next I did the same thing with the emotional body. I imagined the transparent layers of the emotional body wrapped around the etheric bubbles, which were wrapped around the solid physical cells. I saw this third layer of transparent emotional body as bubbles around the cells in my toe, hip, heart, back, etc. I imagined them expanding to to connect with all the other emotional body cells on the emotional plane. I imagined what they would look like when they all completely aligned themselves on the emotional plane. Would they look like me? I wanted to organize them to look like me. In most people the aura is a random mixture of all sorts of things - fantasies, beliefs, wishes, ideals, you name it. The aura is a mish-mosh of energies until the person's soul evolves to the level of automatically organizing it without needing to practice. This practice is a training in organizing through conscious imagination. Needless to say, everyone is on their own soul evolution and we're all different.
So I continued humming and imagining my emotional body into an organized reflection of me. The emotional plane is the next highest dimension above the etheric plane. It's also known as the astral body confined to the astral plane. The emotional body is the feeling body. It has the capability of feeling emotion, and holds onto emotions that we can't or won't express. This is true the world over. Because the emotional plane is on a higher frequency range than the physical body plane, and higher than the etheric body, it feeds or falls downward by gravity into the etheric body. The etheric body collects unexpressed emotions that are not expressed (it's better to express them on the spot), and also it collects thoughts and impressions from the mental plane which is even higher in frequency. I have been learning from the Master DK about this process. The etheric body on the etheric plane is a collector of unexpressed thoughts, ideas, emotions and what have you, that he or she does not know how to express yet. The etheric body collects them because they fall, under the pull of gravity, like rain into rain barrels to be used later when the ego is ready to express them, or try to.
Lastly, the mental layers. I imagined the mental plane bubbles wrapped around the emotional plane bubbles which were wrapped around the etheric plane bubbles, which were wrapped around the solid physical cells. The mental body is the highest DISTORTED plane that needs purifying. I saw this fourth layer of bubbles take form in my imagination, again, within my left toe, hip, heart, lower back, upper back, and then expand to all the other cells in my body. This is how I imagined my "four lower bodies". I created them, each one, from scratch - toe, hip, heart, lower back, upper back, as bubbles around the physical, and then they spread like wild fire to every cell on that plane. Etheric plane to build my etheric body. Emotional plane to build my emotional body. Mental plane to build my mental body. I imagined what they would look like as Me! Each plane operates on a higher dimension because the electrons on each dimension spin faster around the center of the atom.
The mental plane electrons swirls at a higher frequency rate than the emotional plane electrons. The lower mental plane orients to physicality, and the upper mental plane orients to more spiritual concepts. Our consciousness evolves through experiences. It is ever rising to higher levels, with some back-and-fill moments to be expected, all within the natural law of "where a person directs his focus of attention, there goes his energy." It is all quite natural.
Again, ideas that are mulled over, stewed over, considered and then abandoned, are never lost. They remain until released, thrown away. Until they are released and thrown away they fall down by gravity to lower, slower orbits called density. There they are picked up as fall-out or cosmic "ash" and collected by the etheric body. The etheric body is the mother collector of all forces and energies that float around unused. The etheric body on the etheric plane is a collector of unexpressed thoughts, ideas, emotions, ideals, fantasies, unfinished business of the soul, evolving in understanding. Consciousness is the LIFE of the body. Attention is the directing force. The etheric body collects these unexpressed emotions, thoughts, and ideas like drops of rain collects in rain barrels, to be used when the person is ready to work with them.
During my meditation, an image appeared to me of the PROTON in the center of the atom. The electrons swirling around the center appeared as planets orbiting around a sun. The electrons are magnetic, like the mother, and the proton is positively charged like the sun or the father. Then I was shown the NEUTRON, and I saw that it had no charge at all. It was zero-point energy - science calls it the God particle. I call it the love energy, Divine love specifically. I was then given the word "neutrino". I couldn’t wait to come downstairs to google neutron and neutrino. The definitions provided did not lead me to what I feel in my heart. The neutron is the love particle. It's there to bring divinity, balance, purity and harmony into mankind and his life. Exploding the neutron with neutron generators is the worst thing we can do. Mankind has yet to learn to treat the neutron, the atom, and the science of the atom with sacredness. I heard on a youtube one day that when a saint meditates he glows because he is giving off neutrons.
8/14/22 - The Dream that was a revelation
In my dream I am with a woman and a child. The woman is about to change the child’s clothing and she has the child, about 15 months, hanging off the side of the bed head down. I go to the child and begin telling her a story. I feel as if I need to give her a story so I begin to tell about the mountains and the grass and the stones and the water, about how they are precious and sacred, and I weave a story about them and I am telling her about how they are so sacred and we go into a state of worship. Not that we worship the stones and mountains, but that we enter into the act of worshipping. It is an attitude of praise and beauty and appreciation. That is what worshipping means. It is not worshipping a thing or an object. It is a state of wonder and appreciation. I wake up realizing that being in the sacred mind is being worshipful, thankful, enjoying, appreciating, uplifting, and just feeling wonderful about everything. This is the act of worshipping. We do not select one object to worship, or one person. It is the inner mindset of sacred wonder within ourselves. We are uplifting ourselves to the highest that we can see, do, feel, think or enjoy. It is a living prayer and a living experience. It is an upliftment of all that we are. As I wake up I am still telling this story to the child, but I am really telling this story to myself.
Now I must begin my day appreciating and calling to my Presence, my holy self and the divine in me. But then the mundane world comes crashing in. Doug comes into the room in a state of anxiety, handing me the phone and asking me to cover for him while he is on the other line with some important people. I wonder, how do I continue to worship and appreciate and stay in this sacred space while I am doing and covering the mundane parts of my life? And then I get an instruction.
"It is '50%'. Go 50% into the mundane while remaining 50% in the world of the sacred. It is a weaving of the old with the new. 50% old and 50% new. Remain in the balanced state of appreciation while you are doing the mundane. A familiar message flashes back to me: 'Do not let the light go out is the message from the sun. Do not let the light go out but send it home again.' Staying in the balanced middle between the mundane and sacredness brings them together and creates a new reality. It sprinkles the old with the new. Stay aware. Appreciate the old. Aliveness will enter into the old. Awareness will come more quickly. Upliftment of the old will take place. Stay aware. Stay alert. Stay in the center. Don’t be pulled one way or the other. Don’t drop everything to go meditate. Likewise, don’t be pulled into the downward spiral of the old. Give 50% attention to the mundane, retain 50% for the sacred, for you have a role to play. Allow your sacred appreciation, wonder, love and respect to stay within your consciousness. Call sacredness into your consciousness and you weave the light into the dark."
Last night I accessed a website which shows the underground tunnels and caverns where the dark side of the shadow government does dark things in laboratories. But these underground tunnels access inner earth and 5D inner earth beings are aware of them. They live in the 5th dimension of love, yet they are coming up to work with the dark side of our world. There is a weaving between the Agarthans of light and the dark of our planet. There is weaving of light and dark in the politics. There is weaving of light and dark in the military. There is weaving of dark and light in the banking system and in the homes of the people. There is a growing awareness of light, of healing, of unifying. The light and the dark are working it out where they used to shoot guns at each other. It is a working out now like adults. It is more conscious. It is more of a recognition, and of negotiation. It is happening.
So instead of struggling to stay focused on my task and then being annoyed when I am interrupted, I am now expanding my consciousness to weave my space, my consciousness, my intelligence, into the tasks of the mundane world. My consciousness and the other consciousness is working it out. My intelligence and the other intelligence is finding new ways to get along. I am understanding better by smudging the line of separation between me and my sacredness and the old mundane tasks. I am re-creating what is real for myself. I am dissolving separation and creating oneness for myself. Is this what ascension is?
Several hours later I notice that my mind is going blank more often. It occurs to me that this is the middle point, the balance point, the neutral point. The precise balance point, and that when I reach this precise balance between the left and right, between dark and light, between disappointment and joy (the separation) there is no movement here. No motion. It is like a window to the sky. It is an access point to wholeness. I‘m not sure how to access something if I want it, but I guess it’s a matter of growing into it, like roots grow into soil. I must become accustomed to not using my mind to force it. Rather, to widen my perspective and adjust to a wider perspective. More open, more neutral.
Zorra said last night that our real mind is in our heart. That our heart is where we consider, think and create a'new. What lies between our ears is a storage vault of information we picked up from the past and stored there. In the heart there is far, far more knowledge than is in the mind. Infinite knowledge is available but knowledge is not stored there. All knowledge is accessible thru the heart but it is not stored in the heart. The heart is an open portal to everything. It is an open library, silent, peaceful, serene and accessible to all knowledge. It is up to me to use the heart with more facility.
8/8/22 - Conflicting energies in the atmosphere
Early this morning, Monday, I went to the doctor's for an annual checkup to renew prescriptions. As I drove home I became unusually sleepy so I lay down and slept for two hours. Last Friday the same thing happened. I went to the chiropractor and while driving home I began to yawn. I was so sleepy that I lay on the sofa and slept for over an hour, totally zonked out. And yet, each time I left the house I was in high alert energy and felt unusually good. Not just average good, but excited good since I'm doing energy exercises every day which boosts my vitality level. So I especially made sure I was mentally, emotionally and physically prepared to go out and face the busy world outside my doors. My husband and I lead calm and peaceful lives out in the country.
So today, I started questioning my spiritual overseers. Like, seriously? What in the world is wrong with me? I start out in high energy early in the morning and then get zapped with sleepiness right away? So I asked and then took time out to LISTEN. I was told to take a shower when I get home from being out and away from my comfort zone. The energies in the atmosphere, particularly at this time, are extremely conflicting. They are angry, confused, and fighting the light that is being beamed onto Earth big time. People are not awake enough to realize what is actually happening to the Earth and the atmosphere they live in. Since I've been actively calling on the light for years, meditate and study the Masters wisdoms, I'm aware that the earth is in an ascension process. It is moving into higher dimensions and higher frequencies, thus the darker energies - i.e., selfishness, greediness, anger energies and more, are being riled up out of their comfort zone. That means IN US, we humans. We are feeling it big time. Our bodies, minds and feelings are reacting with unpleasant experiences, situations, emotions and tendencies that are not right for us. We tend to get angry. The atmosphere itself is filled with this chaos. These last two journeys out in public made me realize how acutely sensitive I have become. I want to share this insight. Be aware. I'm going to start talking about what you can do at home to protect and purify yourself.
The Light forces (galactic, cosmic and celestial) are helping us by softening the extreme effects of the conflict as much as possible, but they can't do it all because we the humans have the dark embedded in us. We are the problem. We have to wake up to this fact. We have accumulated a lot of "not-light" energies inside of us, unwittingly. We didn't know, but we're now facing the truth of it. We are being forced to recognize what has been happening. We, the humans, are the ones who have been led astray simply by being born here. On a soul level, we knew it before we came but we had the veil pulled over our eyes once here. I've been posting the near-death experiences of other people in vidio form (NDEs they're called). Check them out. There are many, many people having NDE's. This helps to give us insight as to who we REALLY are. It will help to understand it better. There is a happy ending - a very happy ending indeed - but there is a bitter truth to swallow in the process. Even though I've been studying with the Masters for years, I did not realize the depth of it. It hits home in a very personal way. The realization process is stunning. And exciting! There are revelations that come along with it. For example, last Thursday I finally accepted that the twinkling star that moves in the western sky in the early morning hours on occasion, is not a star. I kept dismissing it as my imagination. I've accepted it now because of other related things that happened.
Back to what can we do to help ourselves? There are thousands of techniques being taught and I will give one here, below, and post more as we go along. It's up to each of us to do our own personal body work to feel better. Self-help work is higher-consciousness work and it has to be done by each person alone. Each body is different. We have different past lives that we carry around with us. The physical body is not the only body we have. We have an etheric body which is closest to the physical. And then we have an emotional body where we store unexpressed emotions. And we have a mental body where we store unfinished thoughts and fragments of ideas that we're not done yet with. The emotional body is on a dimensional plane of its own, and the mental body is on another plane separate from the emotions. Our fragmented, unfinished thoughts mix and mingle with those of other people on the mental plane, and our unexpressed emotions mix and mingle with those of other people on the emotional plane (called astral plane).
Our physical body is the physical receiver that carries around these unexpressed, unfulfilled energies that we've created. We're not finished with them yet. They become burdens. We carry them around on invisible levels. We are not aware. They are what we've been calling the dark side, but they're not dark. They're simply unfinished and create wrong conclusions. And often they create explosions of anger or other hurtful acts, releasing anger and chaos into the atmosphere. These energies that are unfinished energies that we humans carry around with us need to be purged. They are the "dark side". When a person calls in the light or settles down in meditation peacefully, the light comes in naturally and stirs these energies up that we've been holding onto in a stagnant state. The light stirs them up and either melts them like a fire, or pushes them a little closer to the surface so next day you get a "hit" of them. The light is purity. It is conscious. It is life. It is OUR life. Our life force. And so it's going to start melting and stirring up that which is unexpressed and unfinished inside us. It's coming up to be purged. It will expose or melt the untruths we've been carrying. And it will finish the unfinished thoughts that are embedded in us. One way or another the light is going to win. It will purify us. So these techniques for purification will come in handy. Here is one I suggest doing every morning. The Infinity Breath.
THE INFINITY BREATH
Rather than me trying to describe it, click HERE to watch the 6 minute youtube. While I do other breathing exercises, this one was new to me. Archangel Michael advises doing it every day. I tried it and it DOES feel good. I've been doing it for a week now, and not just in the morning. Between bouts of activity I lie down and do this for 15 minutes. It's amazing how peaceful I feel. I don't want to get up, but I am disciplined and do get up, and then I feel ready to go again.
Working with purification techniques, one needs to do them along with an active life. Being up and physical active is part of the purification process. A stationary lifestyle is not going to purify, but just collect more stagnation energies. It's a two-fold process to purify ones body. Be active to stir up the energies and interact with people and things - even to the point of exhaustion - and then lie down (or sit) and do a purification technique. Lying down is better because your whole body settles down into its comfort zone along with the NEW energies which were stirred into action and breathed in during the physically active stage. A purification technique is wonderfully peaceful. Remain conscious while doing it. No TV, phone, radio, music, conversation, etc. with another person. Only quiet and concentrating on the technique. If you go to sleep naturally, then your body wanted it. It is good. I do it on the sofa, bed or massage table.
8/6/22 - The Antahkarana, a Revelation
A revelation 11 years ago (6/2/11), copied from the archives. I've been working with the seven tones and seven colors lately with more substance and solidarity. This is a glimpse into background training that is OK to share with the public now. The time is ripe for this information to come forth. The Antahkarana is a Hindu word. 'Antah' means inside and 'karana' means that which functions. It pertains to the mind and emotions.
"Last night I couldn’t sleep. My mind was so alive and spritzing. I went into the meditation room and chanted for a while, then on the table for a while, then into the studio room for awhile, still no sleep. Then I remembered: it’s the new moon tonight and I had planned to do a ceremony. I had typed up a little something to follow, so I got out the paper from the files for New Moon Ceremony, and sat on the patio. I began dreaming and chanting my hopes and wishes into a glass of water which I subsequently poured into the earth outside the patio. During this time I saw many visions. I want to remember what I saw because they were WOW! revelations.
"I saw that all of the rays of colors have to come down and reach the kundalini at the base of the spine in order to be complete down here in physical earth. [the Antahkarana is known as the rainbow bridge] The hard part is getting the vibrations of the colors to lower in density, for each color is vibrating at a different frequency and it’s a light. So each color or each quality needs to be brought down one by one to connect with kundalini - the mother light at the base of the spine. I saw many many people bringing down these colored rays to connect and unite with the bright light at the base of the spine in what is termed “orgasm”. The orgasm is the connecting link. Then - WOW!! - God is walking on earth! For each human being is an aspect of God trying to reach earth from its high place, and it’s very difficult because earth is vibrating at such a low dense level.
"This is a major project to bring down the light to earth, but when it does, the orgasm happens. God walks the earth when orgasm happens, and how long the orgasm lasts is how long God-Goddess gets to walk in flesh. Can you hold it in the body? Can you prolong the rapture? You can only do so by expanding your mind and allowing the rapture to expand upward into the rest of the body above the pelvic zone. Don’t keep it down there but raise it up. Tantra masters try to teach this. As you work at this you will prolong the rapture of orgasm. The goal is to expand it so all the cells are bathed in this essence of divinity. The nectar of the Gods. I see it simply as an explosion of light that doesn’t die. It continues to shine and radiate.
"Then I saw the Master Djwal Khul. The pain that I see in his eyes are transformed now into deep humility, intelligence, adoration - and gratitude is the highest vibration of all. [He is showing me qualities of the second ray, the gold ray, his ray.] It is the most exquisite, the most beautiful of all colors and textures and vibrations in all of God’s many vibrations. I see many people coming together and meeting in this 'oneness' plane of God consciousness. They are making love by allowing love to expand between them. I do not know how this is accomplished, whether it is through sexual penetration or simply by tantric process. I see the light of God coming to human beings in a very real or surreal way, and I am reminded not to forget the love. It is all about love. Love IS the body of God. God is Love. Learn to use the higher road in choosing your words. Put sacred vibration into your words. Love of freedom is freedom to love. When love is coming through someone, God is coming through. The person is just the portal. God is coming through. God is love. That’s why love is the highest energy we can conceive as intelligent, thinking human beings. There is nothing higher. We are home when we are in love. It is our origin, and our source. Where we came from.
"I am seeing a race of men and women who are graceful and walk with dignity and nobility AND they are human too. Can you imagine this? God walking around as a human? It’s happening right now and our lifestyle is allowing that because we are encouraging sexual exploration, which is the avenue for the divine to enter into the human body. We are playing with the essence of God Creator!"
8/5/22 - Tantra training is non-physical
In studying with the Masters, I have learned that everything in this world we live in is energy. Tantra is a teaching and a practice in the non-physical world of energy. This may be difficult to accept but when we can appreciate that everything is energy including the cellular structure of our bodies, we can start to feel things we never felt before! We become more open to feeling the sensations, the fantastic sensations that are possible when we actually MOVE the energies that heretofore have been frozen locked in place. When these energies move, we FEEL it. It's sensual.
Tantra is non-physical. Actually, nothing in our world is solidly physical. We just think it is. Everything is energy moving at different rates of vibration. It gets mystical only because we haven't been taught this. Even the rocks and mountains are slow-moving electrons that move so slowly we think they are solid. Shapes and forms are held in place by conscious intelligence beings on a far superior and vaster plane than we. Tantra is training in (first) accepting that fact and (secondly) appreciating it and enjoying the responses we get from our own bodies, and from other people, animals, plants and so on out into the exterior world around us. Because everything is connected to this web of consciousness. Everything is a PART of this web of consciouosness. Everything is composed of conscious intelligence. The universe is a living organism of different grades of frequencies, meaning moving subatomic particles of living light.
When our brains "get it" - get this idea, this amazing concept - then our brain starts to understand. When our brain starts to understand, then the body starts to understand, and then the nerves and muscles in our bodies start to understand and they respond. They respond with a Hallelujah! And a shout and a celebration! We feel this response as sensual. It's a fantastic response. The body cells are excited. The feeling is excitement. A turn-on. Energy moves in our cells, and the nerves and muscles and brains follow, as we start to blossom like a flower. We become more receptive to, and click in with, the energies around us, coming from everywhere.
When we start opening to this energy within our OWN bodies, other people start opening to OUR energy, as if sensing our energy. I noticed it with the deer in our back pasture. They used to run away at the first sign of me, now they don't run so often. They're accepting my presence better. But the first step in this training is accept this as a truth and not reject it as stupid. It is the a connection to the science of physics. We are capable of expanding our brains by appreciating this as a fact. Then we will build on it because truth builds on truth. We become more open-minded. It takes a while, but this is the practice of Tantra. It is not stupid to believe in it. By understanding that our physical body cells are conscious and also intelligent, they (the cells) start to respond intelligently, and open to us. The cells speaks: Hark! Listen! Did he/she just send us a signal? Then we start to meld together, our consciousness with the consciousness of our body's cellular structure. It is not so amazing because the same intelligence pervades the universe. Solid forms are made solid by cutting off that idea and becoming separate from everything else.
We live in a physical reality (seemingly physical) but which is actually a locked-down state where energy is moving at the lowest possible rate and still be alive. A low frequency they call it. We can raise our frequency (individual tone) by considering this as a possibility and noticing the sensual feelings in response. From being locked and frozen in place, we would feeling an excitement of an increase of some type of sensual feeling. That's the practice of Tantra. It is not a focus on sex. Far from it. It is moving frozen, stagnant energy that is suffocating inside the body. Move it with thought power and see what happens.
Real Tantra training would have men and women doing energy work first, separately, on themselves as a beginning teaching and practice. Then the teacher would assign a man and a woman to practice energy work together, later, after he thought they were ready to take it further. It has nothing to do with romance or sex. He assigns students to practice together when they are ready, only when he feels they are advanced enough. Tantra is practice in raising the energy of one's own body first. Then by working with another person, bouncing energy back and forth to practice sending and receiving, going up the ladder of the centers higher and higher, raising the frequencies to higher levels between the two of them. They are rewarded well for their study and practice, for the bliss turns into ecstasy and then rapture, and then more because they are using opposite polarities - namely male and female - uniting them together. It is science of universal harmony.
8/3/22 - What is initiation?
Many downloads of hidden hands showing me paths to take. OMG! This is amazing. I simply want to share. If you are interested in spiritual evolution, spiritual enlightenment, and progress along your own soul path, check this website out HERE. It is full of esoteric definitions. These help us to understand better. It's amazing. Asterisk this page. You might not relate today, but you might relate a week from today and want to find it again. As usual, I was researching the Master Djwhal Khul, so this opens on Master DK's page, but there are many links. If you have not had any interest whatsoever along this line of thinking, I bet you do after scanning through some of this.
"Esoteric" means intended for or likely to be understood by only a small number of people with a specialized knowledge or interest. "Occult" means supernatural, mystical, or magical beliefs, practices, or phenomena.
'a secret society to study alchemy and the occult'.
7/30/22 - Love made physical is healing
One day I asked Master Djwhal Khul to teach me about Tantra, since Tantra has been a long-standing interest to me. As he started speaking I wrote it down. I didn't always write down such conversations but on this occasion I did. There are quite a few in my journals as I look back into the past to pick up the threads that I've forgotten about. I love to share these because they mean so much to me. It's all about love. This is copied directly from a journal in 2013.
"Love made physical is healing. You want a quick fix, but it is not quick. You are accustomed to a society that takes a pill or gets surgery to remove a part of the body that has gone wrong. You are accustomed to having it “your” way but your way has not succeeded, has it? You must learn to open your mind and heart to new things, things that you formerly rejected. It is time to take down the walls that shield you from your healing on deeper levels. Allow your gentle side to take over. Allow yourself to feel the energies of surrender, of giving up. Let your toughness surrender. The whole of you, the whole of your God self cannot come into your life and body because you have created a shell of hardness. It is all done with your mind. Your thoughts of defensiveness, your thoughts of survival, fear of not getting enough, your thoughts of frustration that you allow to play over and over, your thoughts of anger toward someone you felt had wronged you - now feel the energy of surrender. Give it up. This is the attitude of Tantra. It is the path of love.
(There is a lull and I am feeling stillness now and I am being given the energies of gratitude, surrender, celestials, angels, joyful, peace, love, light, and then....)
"Until the hard shell falls away of these tough stones, nails and rubbish, there is no room for love and the family of light that accompanies it - joy, appreciation, reverence, honor, respect, humility, compassion, beauty, grace, dignity, warmth, peace, safety, freedom. When the family of love and light enter the body it produces wholeness, which is felt as bliss, ecstasy, rapture, nirvana.
"It is not a quick fix to reach the profound states of love, but once on the right path there is enjoyment, pleasure, fun. Just take the beginning steps to correct your path, from one of feeling lack to one of feeling delight and fulfillment. It is not sex that is the bridge to higher consciousness, it is love. You must not limit your love to one person and shut off the rest of the world. Your life partner with whom you live is in your life for reasons other than romance. They are in your life to help you learn and grow. The challenges you meet both at home with family and outside of family are your own resistances. You are challenged by your own resistance. Tantra teaches surrender of resistance so that you may blend with the energies of life that are everywhere.
"Tantra means in Sanskrit “net” or “web”. It refers to the web of consciousness that pervades all existence. Love is the glue that holds us all together. When you are free of resistance you may blend with and enjoy making love with all of life, becoming one with a butterfly, the wind, the grass, the rain, a stone, a child, an old man or woman. All of life is either formless or formed. You are life currently in form but you are only temporarily in form. You are spirit - consciousness - with or without form, and even while in form you may cultivate love without limits, without resistance and enjoy the sensual pleasures of the body to such an extent that you are thrown into rapture and nirvana. It is not sex that does this but love without limits."
7/29/22 - The body is Shakti the feminine - receivers of the highest principles
During a Chi Machine exercise, lying down with my legs swinging back and forth, I asked DK what could I do to further my advancement today? First I thanked him because he was the only one I could relate to as a real live human being. I am humbled when I contact him because he personifies the Godhead or Source through his picture that he released to the public. I have it in a frame before me. I love that drawing of him. I can feel his humility, compassion and intelligence through the drawing. This is what he gave me that morning in words and feelings.
“You are right. We are the receivers of the formless as you have been studying in your books. We humans or sentient beings are the Shakti of the Shiva, the formless one who flows through us. You are right. You have discovered this. Yes, I have led you to this discovery, but so others have led you, too, for we have gone before you and we have discovered this before you. And there are others ahead of us. The formless is coming at a steady rate into form. It is the responsibility of the one inhabiting the form to receive this beautiful idyllic flow and mold it into a beautiful, idyllic expression in the physical world of matter upon the planet. It is our responsibility to be continually aware that we are receivers. (I am getting the word “receiver” the last few days.) It is our destiny to remain open to receive the formless beauty, love and intelligence that comes from the greater source. It is our duty as an embodied form to receive this higher, greater, more infinite and intelligent life and mold it, encapsulate it into our expression. It is our role and our purpose as a soul in a dense vehicle to receive this incoming flow and mold it into a higher degree of expression than our form previously knew. We are making known the unknown, as Ramtha has said. Who else will do it if not us. You and I? That is the purpose of the form, to encapsulate that which is flowing through it.
“Mankind has not understood this duty and role. He instead receives certain idyllic information and then shuts the door on the flow and turns rogue with it. He wanders away from the river that is flowing and claims it for his own which shuts the door on the flow of inspiration. It‘s dull if the door is closed on the inspiration, and leads to death. That is how ego is born. An ego is the human mind working with a false intelligence, a copy cat, a criminal. And yet mankind is destined to learn of his great role and to open his mind and his heart to become a receiver, a continual receiver, endlessly receiving. This is the great work - to learn how to be in endless receiving mode and never shutting it off. To become a living vehicle expressing a life force that is grander than his form, will keep him continually creating new things. A person may feel he is imprisoned in a form today, but when he opens to the never-ending river of life and intelligence that flows through him through his breath, instead of feeling in a prison he will feel free. Totally free and expansive, for his freedom has been curtailed and limited. When he stops closing his mind and heart to the inflow of life and intelligence and reason, he will stop feeling imprisoned and shut down.
“This is the great work of the spirit that is our own consciousness. It is our duty to turn our conscious awareness to the greater source that is above and beyond. As we discover the truth of our source and re-open the heart and mind to the incoming source, like a receptacle, we will discover the ecstasy and joy of being alive in a physical body. Life is formless intelligence, love, power and creativity. We as the form are to receive this formlessness into our minds and hearts and give thanks for it by turning our awareness in an upward direction. This is how we receive and mold the incoming intelligence into something beautiful. We become creators and expressers of amazing creations, inventions, works of art, talent, organic technology which is living, not dead metal but living molecular things that serve us, like our computers. This is the purpose of mankind. To receive the inflowing river of life - of sacred life - and expand it, express it, live it, walk it, breathe it, demonstrate it through our actions in the physical world in which we live. And, yes, there are seven qualities that we have been given to remind us and point us in the right direction, lest we forget. Those qualities are attributes of nobleness and we are reminded to weave them into our daily life.
"There are seven. Seven rays, seven tones, seven colors, seven noble attributes. They are called - will power, intelligence, love, purity, truth, peace, freedom, in that order. Freedom is achieved or earned after the six other attributes are woven into the life. Then freedom is experienced. These seven qualities are the qualities that mankind is given to focus on and bring to life. Do not deviate from these. Do not ignore them. Do not shut down. Be ever alert to the SEVEN qualities. They are the steps that lead to enlightenment in daily life. Not in spirit but in physical embodiment. And when we do we find there is more that is poured into us. We become open to receive even more than we thought we ever could receive, for we expand our capacities to know, to feel, to love, to live in truth, to be righteous, and grateful and honorable. We receive more because there is an infinite quality to these colors, tones, radiances. We are expanding ourselves to be able to receive MORE of these qualities, and as we do we also expand the Earth to receive more because we, our forms, are of the Earth. We are evolving not only ourselves but the planet, for Mother Gaia has provided us the material for our forms.
“The matter - yes, you got it - matter is the Mother. That is the great secret. That is the missing key. The divine mother is matter, is Shakti, is the divine feminine which receives and loves the divine masculine, which is formless, into form. We humans are to weave the beautiful colors and tones of the seven into life so these may be seen. Will power, intelligence, love, purity, truth, peace and freedom. As we do we radiate these qualities to the lesser kingdoms behind us, coming up through the process of evolution: mineral, plant, animal. We are caring for Mother Gaia and demonstrating the higher life to those beneath us as we, moment by moment, breathe in the formless (Shiva) and love it, shape it, mold it into the physical form as Shakti, the feminine. As we do this we expand ourselves and become quickened and lighter and fuller with the consciousness of source. We are filling our matter body with the source and intelligence and love of the life force. We are the matter, the Mother, encapsulating the Father principle. As the Father principle penetrates into the Mother.”
7/27/22 - What is the male in me?
One morning I woke up at 2 am with this little ditty playing in my mind:
The job is done and I have won!
'Round the circle, and now above!
I have lived and I have loved!
The job is done and I have won!
Now awake, I got up and went to the meditation room. It was 3 AM. I asked DK, my ever present guide, what is the male in me? I am feminine and don't understand why I am searching for inner masculine. I had been reading about the currents of energy that flow in the Sexual Secrets book, but it kept referring to androgeny and being bi-sexual. It is said there is a woman in every man and a man in every woman, so I asked DK, "What is the male in me?" I was awake and puzzling. I asked for clarification and it came. A spotlight turned on to something I only vaguely knew about. Here it is.
There are 7 qualities, 7 vibrations, 7 tones, 7 colors, and these are the unformed aspects of me, the God qualities in me, the masculine in me. So the masculine is the unformed in me. Your body is the female receiving the male seed, the unformed qualities, they are yet unknown to you, and you are now acting upon these qualities that are in you but yet unknown and unrealized. They have not been manifested yet. The male in you is the ability to manifest, to make something happen that you wish to have happen. As a female you have been receiving only. You have not learned how to put your desires into action.
What are these seven qualities? They are, starting with the first ray and the root chakra - will, intelligence, love, purity, truth, peace and liberation. Liberation is the crown chakra. All of these qualities are unformed, unrealized in me and unmanifested until I LIVE THEM! I have to start using them. But how?
I was brought to attention of will power. Creating a plan. A will to do something. A determination to do something. A plan. Today I decided to follow a plan for myself, and I did, and it felt good. Tomorrow I have a plan too. DK showed me how I, the body in physical, which is the feminine part of me, uses the unformed male qualities in me, the dreams, desires and wishes. I need to become conscious of using these 7 qualities and applying them to my life actions. When I make a plan, I use my will power, the first ray. When I follow my plan with intelligence, I use the 2nd ray. When I love what I am doing, the plan, I am using the third ray, nourishing it and caring for it and paying attention to it. When I stick to the plan and not waver from it I am using purity, the 4th ray, which is the heart. When I use the truth of my being, not using excuses to cop out or allow someone else’s truth to pull me away from my plan, I am using the 5th ray, in the throat. Speaking is an important part of the truth ray.
When I apply all these 5 qualities to my “plan”, whatever it is, I feel good and peaceful with myself. That is the 6th ray, peace and comfort. Then I am liberated and I enter the 7th ray, freedom, and I am home free. I am complete. These 7 qualities are the male and unformed in me UNTIL I LOVE THEM, APPLY THEM AND USE THEM IN MY DAILY LIFE! Then I manifest the unformed and make them part of my form. God in action. “Make known the unknown” as Ramtha used to say.
These 7 qualities are a step-by-step instruction to unfolding the science of manifesting. It is healing. Thus truth, science and healing are linked together in the 5th ray at the throat. The peace follows when the prior qualities are used in order. And finally liberation - freedom. The job is done for that one plan. This could be as simple as making a plan to start a shopping list and going out on errands. Or the plan for one day to complete something, like cleaning out a closet. The job is done and I have won!
The body (the human personality) as the feminine receiver is grateful for this order, this intelligence and guidance, which comes from beyond the human consciousness. Human consciousness is finite in focus, it has to focus on the solid matter world but it needs guidance because it is so small and limited in scope. So it is grateful - or should be - and it is obedient - or should be - and submissive to the higher guidance - or should be. We do not at first understand how it all works, but when the spiritual path and the soul leads the human consciousness to understand, then it is grateful, adoring, reverent even, and worshipful. The further along the spiritual path one goes, the more reverent one becomes. Every person loves the law of his own being. It is called the lord of its being, and it loves it with all of its heart, all of its mind, all of its soul. This is the divine path that we ultimately find our way onto. Tantra teaches this in allegory. Tantra is very deep.
7/25/22 - How to plant light in the heart
It's tricky, planting a seed of sunlight in your heart, but it's an intellectual concept until you actually do it. This is a meditative practice. Start paving roadways through the jungle of body tissue. The first step is to imagine a spark of sunlight in your heart. It is not there until you plant it there. Imagine a spark of light in your heart muscle. Anywhere in the heart muscle. Imagine it like the sun reflecting a sparkle off of a body of water, a lake, pond or puddle. Imagine simply a spark of sunlight in your heart. Then let's imagine the lower abdomen, as an example destination. Most people have problems with their digestion or lower back. Use that as a location towards which to pave a road from the heart. Now, here's the tricky part. I'll talk you through it.
While staying plugged into the spark of sunlight in your heart, slowly expand the sunlight out in the direction of the lower abdomen. Don't leave the spark in your heart, don't move it - EXPAND it. Make it larger. The spark in your heart doesn't move away from the heart, it expands to a larger sphere of sunlight as you move your attention downward in the direction of the lower abdomen. It's like unraveling a rope that is all curled up in a tight ball in the heart. But the light is infinite. There is no end to it. It can expand under conscious direction. The reason it hasn't expanded before now, is because you weren't aware of how to do this process. So now we are learning something. We are expanding our attention on this light in the heart slowly, while staying plugged into the light. We are not moving away from the light, we are expanding it. Do you get the difference? It's an important clue to mastering the light in the heart and sending it to various locations.
This light is energy. Infinite energy. It becomes stagnant energy in a solid body. That's how solid bodies are built. In order to retain a solid, dense structure that remains firm and steady, energy of light is held fixed in place, immovable. Now we are learning a way to expand our consciousness deeper into our bodies. The sunlight in the heart is God consciousness. It is Father God's light and love. When you use your own attention and imagination to create a spark of sunlight in your heart, and practice expanding that light, you are blending your Father God light and Mother God light together. Remember the heart is where abstract intelligence or Father God and intelligence in matter (Mother God) meet and merge together.
Plant your consciousness via your imagination and hold it there in the center of the heart muscle for a few minutes. Imagine it. Imagination is the key. Hold that thought for a second and let it take hold. There are invisible currents of energy flowing all through your body ALL the time, most of us don't know it. They flow automatically to keep our bodies steady and functioning. They are called meridians in English, in Sanskrit they are called nadis. Nadi is singular. Nadis support the physical nerves. We are now entering into the underground forces that support the physical. Nadis are teeny-tiny currents of energy, created and designed by the great God beings who maintain physical forms. As you practice imagining the light in the heart, as you start to work with the light in the heart a few minutes every day, you will start to move light out into the further extremities of your body. Many guided meditations have you visualize light in various parts of your body.
Notice the sense of peace and relaxation that happens when you do this. Light is love, and it feels good when you spend a few minutes holding light on a location. You are laying down pathways. It's like paving a road through the jungle. The first effort requires a big earth-mover to cut down trees in a jungle. So it is difficult the first time doing this. But with continued practice, you begin to find traces of the path taking shape. You seem to know where to go, and how to maneuver the energy. Soon you begin to FEEL the energy. It wants to go there. It wants to correct the places where it has become stuck and stagnant. Doing this again and again is like ploughin over the same route, making it smoother and smoother. It takes going over the rough terrain many times to lay down a road or pathway that has never seen a HUMAN consciousness before. We are the human learning how to be the master of our body. Instead of remaining victimized by outer authorities, we are beginning to take charge of bringing the light into our body.
What benefits come from this? The heart is where abstract intelligence from Father God, creator of all that is, comes into the body and YOU are the intelligence within the form. Mother God is the creator of form life and you are a child of both the Father God and Mother God. You are awakening as a child of both.
It is important to stay plugged into the heart. This is the difficult part. We were taught to be linear thinking. We are either "here" or we are "there". But now we are learning to be in both places at the same time. We remain in the heart and we expand to include the lower abdomen or back muscles, but we can expand to the further periphery of the entire body with practice. We are planting our consciousness into the INTERIOR of our body. We are energy in motion. We used to think we were a solid body, but now we are beginning to realize we are energy moving around inside. It can be confusing, but we adapt. If anything, we human beings are able to adapt if we put our minds to it. That is what meditation is all about.
By going over the same route every day for a few minutes, from the heart to an outer destination like the lower abdomen, and staying all the while plugged into the heart and unraveling and expanding the light from the heart, we are bringing more abstract intelligence into our bodies. We are increasing the light and understanding in many ways, and on many levels. It is subtle process, a deeply subtle and quiet process, and soothing. Very soothing. You are paving roadways with your conscious attention, expanding your attention from the heart while delivering the abstract intelligence from your Father God, from higher planes of intelligence, yet staying plugged into your heart which then pumps the blood out to the rest of the body, delivering wider consciousness. You start to "know" things you didn't know before. Your attention expands. Your sense of wonder expands.
This is a tricky thing to do at first, at least it was for me, but I have persisted and now I am sharing. This will help you to grow your consciousness. It enlivens your body, it feels good, the ego is very limited so this xpands the conscious ego to know more. You are weaving larger consciousness into the smaller, fixed ego and body tissues.
Where to bring the light to? Imagine going down to your lower abdomen. I choose that because, as a hands-on healer I have noticed that many people are stuck in this region. What is known as the second chakra is the sexual chakra, focused in the reproductive organs. Sex is a major issue for people. Overweight begins here because the energy can't get past this belief system which has become a very rigid belief - that sex is this and that and the other thing. It causes issues, problems, stuckness. Move the light into this area of the body and see what benefits arise from it. Light and love are free. Freedom from past mistakes, guilt, shame, depression, and all the rest that goes with it, is what we get when we shine light and love into the area. It smoothes the roughness.
The second chakra fuels both the front soft tissues of the intestines and digestion processes, and also the back nerves and muscles of the back. Many people have lower back issues. As you expand the light in your heart, you expand powers you didn't know you have. Light is perfection. There is perfection flowing already through the body, but many places are frozen solid. It needs to be jiggled loose and released so the light and love can flow more fluidly. Energy is fluid. The perfect you IN FORM is the perfect blend of both Father God , which is abstract light and knowledge, and Mother God, which is abstract light and knowledge imprisoned in matter substance. Together they create a whole unit. You are whole. You are holy.
7/23/22 - Upgrading and downgrading, both at the same time
It's about bringing everything into the heart and living from there. Measuring from the heart and analyzing from the heart. Making choices from the heart. I'm in the middle of a shift of attention to the heart. It's not a superficial shift, it's a consciousness shift. It's a big realization taking place and I'm experiencing alterations of perspective from several different angles, too many to count. The realizations are separate realizations at first, but then they start merging together into an impossible oneness that can't be defined in words. The differences are merging. This takes time to sort out! It's confusing. These differences are flooding in and registering, first on my brain, and then they continue to flow and start merging and blending together. Confusion starts warping into feelings of naturalness. This is keeping me very busy! And at the same time I am attracting changes in my lifestyle. I have to make time and space for these changes too. The heart is certainly a busy place to be anchored into. These new angles of perception into my base of everyday life are keeping me very busy and affecting my practical life of mundane responsibilities. How will I fit it all in?
I received a significant energy treatment from Marcus Blakemore on Thursday, a licensed massage therapist - he has triggered shifts before for me - and the next day I GAVE a significant energy treatment to someone else. This other person I had never met before. He contacted me through this website after reading through it. Because he asked for a treatment and I was guided to give him one, I passed on the gift that was triggered by Marcus the day before. It was then multiplied in me! By me sharing it and not hoarding it, the life giving energy of love continued to flow and increase. I'm clicking into it from a practical standpoint. This is not just theory. I'm proving it to myself. This is why human beings need to have up close, personal body contact with others, wisely, with discretion and intelligence. What has kept us apart is fear. The pandemic filled us with fear but it is an ancient fear, an ancient belief deeply embedded in the human race holding us to be be afraid. Of EVERYTHING!!! Fear has kept us apart, lonely, isolated, sick, depressed, living in lack, in poverty, in confusion and etc.
(I will post Marcus' contact information at the end of this blog.)
These energy treatments are treatments of love and kindness. Not fear. They allow movement of love to pass back and forth. That does not mean sex. The world is sex-addicted. No, this is about open-ended loving compassion and kindness. Energy treatments are love treatments. The light and love in a person CAN be given to another person if they choose to, and if the recipient will allow himself to receive it. It requires trust to be so open. Trust is a big part of a love treatment. It is important in overcoming hidden fears, which come in many forms and styles. I won't take up time and space to spell them out. You don't have to know them. The heart takes care of sorting it out. This is the reason for going into the heart. Love is there. Something wonderful happens when you make it your permanent base of operations. It requires time spent in focusing on the heart. i.e., meditation. Love is free and it's also intelligent.
Ever since kundalini awakened I have been a "hands-on" person but have had to fight my way through the wrong attitudes and false beliefs that I had adopted and held firmly to myself as a participant in the mass consciousness of humanity. The healers of the world are those who help overcome fear-based issues, each in their own style of understanding, by laying hands on people. Also the psychotherapists who do not put hands on but work with the emotional and mental disconnects that cause problems. Ever since kundalini awakened in me in 1976, after the initial adaptation period of several years, I have wanted to hug, hold, touch and communicate this love through physical contact. The most recent shift of clicking into the heart is yet bigger and better than ever before. Our connection to this plane of existence is in the heart. We can prolong our life by anchoring our attention into the heart. But our connection to abstract intelligence (the spirit world) is in the brain. During sleep we drop our connection to this physical world and go to other realms but our body remains alive. How does our body remain alive? Because our heart is still pumping life, blood and vitality to the cells of the body. The brain is a separate mechanism from the heart.
The Father consciousness is abstract intelligence and not in form. The Mother consciousness is consciousness in matter. We are children of the Mother (matter) and also children of the Father (abstract intelligence). We are a child of both the Father and the Mother. Spirit and matter. This is an awesome process of going into the heart and making it our home base. We are then merging the two separate aspects of who we are - Father Intelligence and Mother Matter. As a consciousness all our own, we are the child growing up here. When we are born we are born into physicality, matter. And we start searching for our Father, abstract intelligence. We seek understanding. We want to know more. We have experiences and we grow in wisdom by participating with others around us. We HAVE to participate. In order to live a longer, healthier, happier life with more vitality and hence more excitement and enthusiasm, we have to participate. We have to bring together both the Father intelligence and the Mother intelligence together in the heart. The heart is the physical organ which pumps the life force of both Father Intelligence and Mother Matter, or physical earth vitality. The heart is the mechanical machine that does that pumping. That's the reason for going into the heart and making the heart the base of operations. When we figure this out and start practicing this as a meditational focus every day, we will - you will - experience a growing wonderment and understanding that will thrill you,
I had the kundalini, the Mother Intelligence awaken many years ago and she has taught me much, but the Father Intelligence needs to connect with earth-based reality. This is the big divide. The big split. The big disconnect. Father Intelligence is the soul's higher self and source of consciousness. You come from space, from the abstract, from the ordered universe of harmony and unity. It is important to reconnect with the Father intelligence, the great Father. But as long as you are a child of earth, you remain clinging to earth life and fear of being separated. This fear will disappear once we reconnect with the Father intelligence. You are the child of both. We are all children of both Father and Mother. As you bring this understanding together into your own brain cells, your own physical body and reality, you will empower yourself beyond your imagination. You are unique. You are the master of your life. You are the one who is waking up to yourself, your realization of who you are. When you read words that strike a cord, any words, anywhere, and they ping back and forth and click in, you are bring more of yourself into focus on the physical plane of reality. This is a prolonging of a healthy, happy life.
Many, many, many individuals have done this before you and I came along. Many. We all come here, are born here, to become realized. We connect the parts, little by little, life by life. We have lived many lives. The parts within ourselves and the parts that are our brothers, sisters, mothers, fathers, cousins, and extended family. And because we have lived many lives in past embodiments, most people we call our friends and associates, were at one time part of our extended family. We are reconnecting. On a universal scale we are all one. On the human scale, we are all separate individuals but we are waking up to realizing the oneness. Can we have both? Yes! That's the whole point. We CAN have both. We are meant to be both human and divine. As we reconnect and balance this understanding by staying centered in the heart, we have more say over how long we will live in a physical body, or when we should go and take a rest from physical life. There is no end, there is no beginning. We are living the One life. And we could live here in a body a very long time. Who is to say? We are the consciousness living here, so we are the only one who can turn our attention to the heart muscle and receive the cosmic intelligence of knowing more than the human knows. The heart continues to pump earth life and heaven life into every molecule and cell. It is a turning point in time to start bringing attention to your heart and practice breathing into it, bringing the flame of eternal life into the physical organisms. This will begin the process of a rejuvenating the body and bringing peace to the planet. Making the heart your home base of choice and function is an exciting turn of focus.
Marcus' contact info. I have written about him previously HERE, but it was through my ow personal understanding that I wrote. My awareness has expanded since then. It is through the storyteller's eyes that events in history turn and change. If you feel prompted to contact him, feel free to do so. He definitely has hands of light. He is connected to forces beyond me.
Marcus Blakemore, LMT
Natural Transitions
3811 Airport No., Suite 202A
Naples, FL 34102
email; brit3399@yandex.com
phone: 239-200-9381
7/22/22 - What the universal law says about money
A long-time friend may be coming to Naples and asked me how much do I charge for a massage? I told him: "It's by free-will donation. I can't charge money because I'm not licensed. I operate on the universal law of giving something of equal value in exchange. It's up to the person what to offer. It could be a chicken!" He said he would try to dredge up a chicken.
To put this into a more logical perspective, I wrote back to him the following and would like to share this communication. I believe that this is of paramount importance to all who are reasonable people seeking solutions to pain, disease, physical, mental or psychological problems. This is what I wrote to my friend:
"If you are within driving distance to come and get a massage, there will be no cost to you. I would give you one for free. We have been reciprocating with each other all this while. We have been helping each other by brainstorming and sound boarding. Yesterday, I went to have a massage with a male friend, who is a licensed massage therapist. He's 66 years old, married and is a man of great love. He gives his wife a massage every day. He would give me free massages but I have to insist he take payment, or I would stop going to him. There is a quid-pro-quo. It's cosmic universal law to give equal value. The Masters operate on this law too, and it's very precise. I have read a lot about it. They are prohibited from interfering with humanity because they can see the state of the person's energy field. They know when they can give help and when they can't because the energy would be misused. Their energy is powerful energy. I have felt it. When I'm ready to receive, there's no holding back. They operate on universal law. They cannot withhold help when they are asked, as long as it is in good cause. They can see the balanced state of the person, it's all connected, like one pot of stew, one sea of energy. Too much too soon is dangerous and throws everything out of kilter, so they can give only when it will HELP and not hurt the whole. They can see, where we cannot see. We use energy wrongly because of our own past history and mistakes. That's why they nudge a little here, and a little there, to get us to understand."
Quid-pro-quo is Latin meaning "something for something".
7/18/22 - Bringing the 4 lower bodies into alignment
Humanity is fragmented into many pieces. I asked the Master Djwhal Khul to please explain this and he said, "You are not whole. You are learning to re-connect your four lower bodies - your physical, emotional, mental and spiritual or higher mind. You have been learning about integration and you have been practicing in your meditation room. Now you are getting the idea this morning. A new understanding is dawning. The others that you need are the fragments of yourself. You are learning how to expand your awareness to the higher plane of the emotions and from there to step up to the still higher plane of thought, the mental plane. And from there to the yet higher plane of higher mind. You are visualizing the expansion of your body to these higher planes. You are expanding your awareness to higher planes beyond the physical. You are waking yourself up on the higher plane of emotion and mental and spiritual and higher.
As you consciously stepped out of your limited perception of being physical, and as you visualized yourself larger than physical, superimposed over your physical as you have been practicing, and then breathing consciously, allowing your breath to penetrate your larger self on the emotional and the next larger mental and the next larger spiritual and the next - as you breathed in and out of each plane while visualizing, you awakened and aligned these fragments of yourself with your physical. Many people are today working this process to bring their four lower bodies, anchored in the four lower chakras, into balance and alignment with the limited concrete physical body consciousness. This is what I meant by “you can’t do it alone.”
Picture a line of people arriving to your house, each bearing gifts but they are stopped at the front door because you do not open the door or look out the window. You do not know the people are there with gifts for you, gifts that would make your life easier and more pleasant, more agreeable. Many riches await you when you stop trying to live your life as if you were all alone with no help. You have a network of help and helpers all around you but you do not see them. You have been living in a closet in the 3D world. You were kept from your own holy self and the powers of your full potential by the mass consciousness which is a fuzzy dark cloud which obscures your own light. This opening and piercing of the veils between your bodies which kept you locked as a prisoner in the physical material world is being broken as you practice awakening, enlarging, breathing, and calling upon your emotional, mental and spiritual self through the morning exercises. You are not alone because you have a wholeness that is connected to God and through that wholeness you are connected to all.
You have been asking for guidance on Tantra. This is Tantra. This is awakening while in your physical body to the other planes of consciousness that you have access to but you have been kept locked away from. Tantra means a net or a web that connects all as one that has always existed. You were never alone in a separate body, but you were locked out and closed down from knowing this truth. Now you and others are piercing the veils. It is a conscious realization that connects you. The web of life is composed of conscious thought. Conscious awareness. Consciousness connects all that is. God enfolds all his creation alike in his arms and heart and mind. All is contained within the bosom of God. When you don’t know this, it is like being locked inside your closet and not opening the door to the people outside trying to reach you and give you the gifts, their hugs, their laughter and their joyous celebrations, and to invite you to party with them.
Practice your awakening exercises every morning. When you do this, as you consciously awaken to your higher self and invite integration of your other dimensional you’s, mind, feelings, principles and values, you nourish and refresh your physical body. It is your physical body that grows old and tired because it is not being rejuvenated by spirit. When you enter 3D you enter a “time zone”. There is a beginning and an end locked in time. When you are born in 3D you agree to be closed off from the love and light of the Creator and all of the higher dimensions. You came to learn about darkness and what happens when you are without the light and love.
As you remember how to pierce the darkness through the process of applying love and light, you can nourish the failing body and the physical cells will open and drink the divine nectar. Your body fills up, plumps up with life and your DNA expands as does your consciousness. This is how you align yourself with your own perfection, the Christ, known also as the Adam Kadmon, the divine perfect human being, designed as the original role model of each human being from the heart-mind of God.
7/15/22 - Transitioning or becoming more real?
There are changes taking place today in my mind, body, sensations and perceptions. I thought perhaps I would be detaching soon and leaving this body. I have had awarenesses like, "Maybe I should write my goodbye letter to family, just in case." However, it passes. I wonder if others have these experiences too? I would love to sit and chat with someone of a similar mystical nature. We could soar into the blue sky and imagine all sorts of things together. If you like this idea, contact me. Write to me. These are beautiful GOOD thoughts, not the result of illness or disease. I am strong and healthy and am enjoying the peace of a stable lifestyle, with a husband who is also resurrecting and vitalizing. Morning discipline practices keep me strong and in love with life. I spontaneously look through previous journal entries from the past, and some things just pop up and capture my attention, like the following, which was written a good 39 years ago, dated 1983. They are solid reminders where I come from and that my path is changing and becoming more physical. Instead of leaving my body I feel as if I'm being restructured and revitalized, and I want company and community like myself.
(Journaled 3/30/83) "Praise of the Light and of goodness sweeps through my consciousness more often these days. When it comes, it is accompanied by a great joy. Sometimes with tears. I feel a destiny ahead of me, a purpose which is coming closer. I am less concerned now, about fulfilling it. I need not worry. Today I saw, just for a small span of time, what it is like to incarnate in a physical body with its aches and pains and hardships and pleasures, in relation to the whole. It was as if for a moment my focus on this world had lifted and I could see across a sea of - what? - of awareness perhaps. Definitely living. And out of this sea a coagulation. A vortex of desire which results in an eruption into the physical world.
"Strange, I saw this as I was driving down the back road into Tampa to the printers. I had just done my movements in the sun of which I will speak in a moment, for I am again astounded by that etheric current that moves in me. And as I drove, I seemed to pass in and out of that wide state of mind, like passing in and out of the water when I swim, the water being murky and the air being clear. This world being murky, the other being clear. Odd and difficult to describe. And as I drove down Fowler toward Kinko’s, after turning from Morris Bridge Road, I came through the more commercial district after the contrast of the beautiful tree-lined back road from Zephyrhills and, again, I passed through the bubble of time as it were, right in front of a bank. The bank was there, the buildings and the people were there and yet it was small and insignificant, reduced to a point in space, while I was everywhere, seeing it all, the wonder of an eternity behind us, alive, real - oh, so real! Crystal clear.
"I am so impressed with the movements. What is this lovely thing in me? There are no words to describe it. For someone reading these words I ask forgiveness for it may seem boring to re-read the same sentences of awe, over and over. But if it appear boring it is only further proof that that which exists in this world - namely words and paper and objects and even thoughts - are transient and old. Crusts on the surface of an eternally fresh and new and innocent aliveness like a bubbling spring of pure water which can never ever become ‘old”. There is no way for it to become stagnant for it is ever moving. We are operating out of hardened forms that have no freedom of movement, while there is a flowing in and out of these forms all the time at a higher faster rate of speed. So fast that we cannot see. It is invisible.
"I have been trying to perform my “exercises”. I’ve even written them up on paper to follow like a formula. I am pleased with myself when I follow them, yet I cannot help but feel something is wrong. For when I do these “exercises” on paper I am dead, my body heavy. But I felt that I was “disciplining” myself and I have been forcing myself. Today I placed my mat under the tall pine and laid my paper beside me. I had no music, no tape recorder. Only my stool to sit upon and I knelt toward the sun. It was actually hot today - wonderfully hot - and I closed my eyes and lifted my arms to the sun, or rather my arms raised of their own accord and I allowed myself to go with the flow of that ever present whisper to the gods in me.
"I have a new mantra which evolved of its own: the Lord’s prayer. Except that I have substituted some words and I am surprised at the revelations that that prayer from 2,000 years ago gave to me. I see through the words into a living pool of wonder and I take it upon myself. Devotion and awe and a love for life and the livingness in me is all there is. I am so much of an instrument of this Life. And I stood after awhile and twisted and turned and stood first on one leg and then another, and I gave myself to the physical postures of the wind in me and finally - something I never do when I structure my exercises - the wind laid me down and there was a pressure on the top of my head and I felt as if I were blended, my spirit with my body intertwined so that I was all one thing, one expression and I lay there and the sun became a part of me and I became apart of the mat and the grass and the earth and I was whole, all together.
"All of this took much shorter time - perhaps 45 minutes, whereas I spend a whole two hours when I structure my exercises. And even when I spend two hours I do not end up with the wonderful feelings of freshness, newness, aliveness, as if life is worth living. I cannot help but think that ANYTHING that requires a forced discipline is wrong. The Life in me wants to move on its own. There is another mind in me and it wants to be free.
"As I rode down the back road to Tampa, I saw the trees and nature so close to me, overshadowing me, and I was awed by them and in love with them - and on other occasions I never saw, never felt that awe. In fact, I am always carrying around my tape recorder to listen to someone else’s words. Today, someone else’s words would have corrupted the purity of my peace. But I know - at least I knew for a short while - what it is like, the moving in and out of physical life. This physical life is but a brief sojourn, like a trip to the store. Our existence is not in the store, although we meet friends and talk to people there, but our existence is back home and we always return back home when our task is finished at the store. It is that insignificant - this life. Oh, but make the most of it! It must be lived with great care. I know that it will be over soon and I will be free once more to go back home.
"Like clouds rolling around in the skies above, our lives roll around in time and space, outside of infinity where they are anchored. Desire becomes the key ingredient to bringing us into physical form, into this world. Desire. The overcoming of desire is the only way to overcome this world. My desire to create a meditation center has been overcome. My desire to perfect Bob’s Factor Zero commodity program has been overcome. My desire to create meditation tapes is in the process of being purged from me. The urge flits in and out these days. And in the open spaces I see that it is unimportant. But then again, the urge comes on me and I feel the desire. But I will overcome this desire too, and I will soon be free.
"I fear my next trip to Costa Rica - and that fear must be overcome. I fear it because I feel a vibration there that I cannot handle. It is a psychic thing that goes into me and causes me to feel close to insanity, as though my grip on my sanity is suddenly gone. It is very strange. But on the other hand, the other side of that same coin which causes me to fear, I know I have to go again. That I am born of that country, the life force is fed to me from there, and I must go again. When Bob’s consulship comes through which I have no doubt now that it will, he wants me to go. But I have carefully prepared Jim to let me stay at his apartment. He is preparing it for me and when we are there Bob will go to the office and I will not. I wonder what will happen there? There is concern, but with every concern there is the chance for great things to happen.
"Costa Rica is still in the grip of psychic battle - the light and the darkness - there are extraordinary forces coming together in May during the Duck conference. The Wesak festival will take place at the same time, when Buddha’s thoughts will come through, and the head of the Theosophical Society is visiting. Again, how strange! Wonderful and strange! But I must let go of all thought, all attempts to control. Living forces are moving through me that are greater than me."
7/14/22 - More on the seven chakras
Recognize that you ARE the power within the chakra. You ARE the love within the chakra. You ARE the intelligence within the chakra. You ARE purity within the chakra. This is YOU that you are recognizing. No one else can give this to you. You are ONLY that light, ONLY that love, ONLY that peace, ONLY that intelligence. ONLY that purity. These are the chakras. The truth is being revealed to you. Most people see only colored wheels on charts and posters, but they are more. They are signposts to look deeper. They are lights flashing to you from YOU, from YOU on the God plane, the BIG You.The BIG You is calling you home. The limited you that has been covered over with beliefs that are not true, not love, not pure, not power, not intelligent, not peaceful, not free. So now the BIG You is calling you home to the unlimited space from which you originally came. No one else can give this to you. No one else has value for you. You alone contain the ultimate value.
Your light body, known as the Christ body, the crystal body, looks like a pure sparkling diamond that shines as if the sun’s rays are shining through it but it is actually the source of the light itself. The facets are cut and polished to an exquisite and immaculate precision to reflect the purist of the pure of the Godhead. You look like this after having come through the seven schools. Before going through the seven schools you are pure brilliant white light without the colors. The colors are the qualities or attributes that you absorbed by going through the seven universities while preparing for physical sentient life. It is required before embodying in a human vessel.
The problem that humans have is when you are conceived, you are created out of your parents imperfect DNA, so even though you are brilliant and pure, you fit inside an imperfect embryo, an infant solid body. As a baby, at first you are still in contact with the purity that you arrived in as a light body, but as you are held by imperfect humans and every day you receive their energies and hear their words and are admonished by your parents and siblings and others, your attention is turned away from the brilliance and beauty of who you are and the naturalness of your home and where you came from.
Now you are becoming human and being imprinted with false stories, ugly stories that don’t seem right to you. But you adhere to what is being told you must do and not do. The error comes from your parents’ DNA but YOU are still perfect underneath the layers of imperfections being told to you, and also you carry forward patterns from your own previous lives - erroneous patterns that were habit when you died and therefore carried over to your next life and the next life and next and the next. These error patterns can be eradicated through various disciplines that are being taught today. It is important to take up the study of clearing your subconscious.
Consider that feelings of loss and loneliness need to be re-interpreted, re-defined and re-described. Consider detachment instead of loss. Consider yourself to be all one instead of alone. All one with all that is.
7/13/22 - On sharing ancient body wisdom
Part dream, part vision. As I came to semi-consciousness I saw myself as a wheel rising upward and pulling the rest of the group upward. I was a wheel and all the people in the group were spokes connected to the rim of the wheel. Each person was connected to me at the hub and also to the rim of the wheel and I was pulling the whole wheel up and it took great balance, for each person was a spoke and he or she was sloping downward, connected to the heavier outer rim. Each spoke was trying to connect to me who was higher, more buoyant at the hub of the wheel above them. There was great balance, great energy at work here, great team effort. Then I went back to sleep and had a dream.
We were gathering for an advisory committee meeting and I asked everyone to form a circle and I asked them first to hold hands and then to, still holding hands, move closer together in the center, as if to form a hugging circle as best they could considering their numbers, because I wanted their bodies to merge and connect. I did not want their mental energies, I wanted their body energies. I was still talking to them as I awoke so I could remember my words.
"Your minds are the filters, filtering out what society says is not appropriate. Your minds censor what your bodies are feeling. Your minds are opinionated and restricted, but your bodies are full of a vaster, far superior intelligence. Your body cells know precisely what to do and they are fed with a magnificent energy, a powerful knowledgeable healing energy that is a oneness energy. But your minds filter out this energy because society says it is not acceptable. Since it is the mind’s job to interface with society and make sure everything is done according to society and not upset the apple cart, your minds are continually censoring, rejecting, resisting these powerful knowings that are inherent in the body. But what I want from you is your body intelligence, your gut intelligence, your intuitive reasoning, the talent that you have built over a lifetime and many lifetimes of experience. Your body cells carry this ancient wisdom in them. You each have a unique history and superb talents to give to Anakosha. Beautiful extraordinary knowledge, long histories of successes and failures and volumes have been written into your body cells.
"You know SO much, but you are continually filtering out this knowledge. But THAT is what you need to give - all that you are. Everything that is in you. I want you to express and I want you to pass this on to those coming behind you. Each human being is so full of energy and talents and this energy and talent is so wasted in a structured society when it is held back. But THAT is what I want from you on this advisory committee and I think partying after a committee meeting is very appropriate, to share our body intuitions. They are genuine. They are not masked. Only the mind masks those feelings. I don’t want just your regular corporate mask with your censored beliefs and opinions. I want what you REALLY know inside. And as I was talking I felt this to the bone. I felt this through and through to the depths and beyond. I was totally immersed in this knowledge that THIS is where we are headed. THIS is the body wisdom that people must share with one another. THIS is what is going to save the planet."
7/11/22 - Applying love to everyday situations
Continuing yesterday's blog on the seven rays and seven chakras. Before we as innocent spirit sparks were permitted to incarnate in a solid body, we had to attend universal school to learn how to use the seven rays. There are seven schools in the universe's university campus, each one specializes in one of the seven attributes, called "rays". The seven rays or attributes are. starting with the first school: Power, then Love, then Intelligence, then Purity, then Truth, then Peace, then Freedom.
There is more to these seven lights or attributes than the word just mentioned. The first school we attended was the school on power. Everyone who ever embodied in a solid body had to attend these schools. We learned about Power from great beings of wisdom. They taught us will power, strength, courage, determination, tenacity, and the many off-shoots and cousins of those words. There are tones within tones in this particular attribute, and understandings within understandings that we absorbed as we dwelt among the great teachers within this university. We spent all of our time there living, studying, learning and applying power - the power that is contained within Father Light and Mother Love - to the countless number of situations that we would find ourselves in when we embodied on Earth. When we felt we had absorbed as much as we could from this school, we were then guided to the second school, to come under the tutelage of the great teachers there. This school is where we learned how to apply Love to human situations, for alongside Power there must be Love in equal proportion.
These attributes are the very same attributes that exist within our God parents, Father Light and Mother Love. But they do not have a form, so to speak, because love and light IS Father/Mother God from out of which we were created as conscious beings with the intention that we would exist separately and utilize free choice to create, since we are of the same attributes as our God parents. We have all the potential of Father Light and Mother Love. We then embody in a solid form to now put our training to the test.
We are exploring the world of solid form and testing - exploring - our innate potential, practicing using it. We had to go to school to understand the principles of power first, then love, then intelligence, just as human kids have to go to school to learn reading, writing and math skills.
When we young spirit sparks started out, we came under the tutelage of great beings of light, older brothers and sisters who have lived and learned far longer than we have. They were our teachers, guides and loving mentors. They made sure we were well prepared if we intended to venture further away from the kindly nest of our divine parents. By attending the seven schools we were allowed to stay for as long as we wanted, until we felt we had had enough. The first school we attended was for will power. After we absorbed as much Power from our mentors, we then spent time in the school of Love. There we learned the tones, shapes, sounds, feelings, textures and capacities of love, and the off-shoots of love, the surrounding environment of love, what makes love and what detracts from love, how to apply it to not-loving situations.
Various colors of love are personal love, sister love, brother love, family love, impersonal love, unconditional love, father love, mother love, spiritual love, reverence, adoration, worship, nirvanic love, ecstasy love, love for Father God, Love for Mother God, kindness, heroism, compassion, empathy. Love is a formless fabric of many colors constantly changing in intensity and density. These vibrations feel different according to the person who is calling them into play. When we have absorbed as much love as we can, the great beings who are our teachers give us more. And we learn deeper aspects of love, and still more beyond those aspects. There is no end to what we can absorb about love, and so we come to a place where we are saturated and can hold no more. We say to our mentors, “I have learned enough!” And the great teachers who know us better than we know ourself, guide us to the third school - that of Intelligence.
How does one apply love, for example, to situations that are uncomfortable? The biggest challenge in human life is that we try to apply it to other people, before we call it forth within ourselves. For example, a friend asks me to help him by “sending" love and light. Instead of sending love and light to him, I need to call it up into my own consciousness. I need to feel it before I can send it. If I try to send it before I feel it, I will be sending nothing to him and in my limited efforts I will deplete myself. After all, I am only human. I am not a god. But I can call upon the God qualities in me. That is what is missing in the human educational system. As we learn some techniques we can call forth some amazing results, such as the Master Yeshua accompllished and other great avatars. Thus it is important to not only learn techniques here on Earth, but to practice them, and study them and apply them and create a system for oneself, to call forth the specific quality desired, be it power, love, intelligence, purity, truth, peace or liberation. Then when my friend asks me to send love and light to him, or help him in some other manner, I am fully prepared with a reserve of my own, with understanding to send to him and to help him. I then know the correct technique because I call it forth in myself.
After we have saturated ourself with the quality of Love, we are guided by our teachers to the third school, which is Intelligence. Young spirit sparks have to learn how to USE intelligence. There is a code of etiquette we have to absorb. We listen and learn from great white light beings and absorb directly from them, living and studying with them, we learn what enlightened intelligence is. We soak it into our entire being. It’s not brain learning. We live inside intelligence and learn from mentors until we have saturated ourself and there is no more capacity in us for intelligence. We are fish swimming in a sea of enlightened intelligence. This is how we are implanted with the seven God rays of Father Light and Mother Love. We are the young spirit spark ready to go out and test our wings in solid bodies called human. We are "star seeds" fully prepared. We have the seven qualities within us to meet the challenges of Earth life. We have the equipment to draw on inner resources - power, intelligence, love, purity, truth, peace and freedom.
Unfortunately, we don’t remember any of this. Our earth parents did not teach us, nor our school teachers or college professors. Once in solid body we learned how it's done HERE. We learned the rules and limits. Thus far and no further. We had to conform to those rules in order to survive. Those rules hedged us in and bound us down. But we are star seeds. We have lived on many planets and planes of existence, so we know the scenario of dark planets. We came to Earth knowing ahead of time that it would be like this, but we forgot. We are now coming into remembrance. We are getting ready now, awakening to this inner knowledge. We are ready to start applying our innate wisdom, love and power to human situations.
We are wise beyond what we seem to be, and more intelligent and more patient and more kind, because we have been prepared to break the chains that have bound us. It is time to awaken our hidden inner strengths that were buried over by external rules of external authority. We have not brought them out yet but we feeling the quickening. We are feeling the agitation but we are hesitant. This requires discernment, intelligence, forethought and enlightenment. Since light is information, when we give out light-encoded information we must learn to give it in a humble way instead of arrogant or demanding, otherwise it will be rejected. Nobody likes a puffed-up know-it-all. It is time to be truthful in a forgiving and compassionate way for there is a lot of power held locked up within the warm, living tissues of a human being with an awakened heart and soul.
The seven chakras are the seven rays of the Godhead closed for decades, now beginning to awaken. As we start applying our inner knowledge, courageously and with wisdom to external situations, the chakras will open more. It must be done with discretion, kindness and understanding. Giving light-encoded information requires wisdom and soul guidance. You wouldn’t teach a child, for example, how to work with dangerous chemicals until the child had been trained to handle it. So it is that we must apply our powers gently and with great care.
7/10/22 - The seven rays and seven chakras
I woke up today being aware of the chakras, tuning into them in a fresh new way. I lay there trying to solidify the awareness and then began writing.
The seven chakras are portals to seven distinct qualities that human beings need to bring peace, beauty, love and balance to their lives. Chakras are ethereal in nature. You won’t find them with scanning equipment because they exist on higher planes. If you don’t believe in higher planes, it doesn’t matter. Whether you believe or not doesn’t diminish the gifts of spirit when you do certain techniques. In other words, there is a science to it - a spiritual science - that affects the physical body in which we move..
These are mystery school teachings. As recent as 100 years ago these teachings were prohibited from being given to the general population. The church confiscated these teachings eons ago to prevent the non-elite (commoner) from growing in personal power. Knowledge of the higher dimensions, the chakras and the spiritual science that goes along with it, provides balance. The number seven refers to the seven qualities we need in our life, which is much greater and broader than the words shown here. In fact, the seven qualities are the seven tones we have in music, and the seven basic colors. The number seven are the number of dimensions we can access as human beings, and the number of tones and the number of vibrations. In other words, we can scale a ladder with our consciousness while remaining human, to see clearly through each one of these windows, and each one of these windows gives us a new perspective on our life.
Hands-on healing treatments, done in a reverent and silent way of benediction, are a most beautiful way of help each other to access these dimensions. We don’t get very far just sitting and talking about it, or having sex. There is more to the human body that is being overlooked and missed out on. We can access hidden knowledge locked within the tissue, by becoming aware of the chakras, the ethrric meridians and the aura, and by participating in the higher quality energy of intention, as we soothe, heal and love one another on the massage table. This is a different kind of therapy. It is love therapy.
The qualities that come through the seven chakras feel intimate and comfortable. When the chakra is open you feel innocent, whole, sweet, alive, natural, good and where you belong. It immediately soothes and corrects any problems in the body, mind or emotions. It is a natural energy what comes from the chakra when it opens. It feels very soothing. While these chakra energies are much more than the words I am expressing here, they actually give the following qualities. They feel and vibrate like:
(1) Stability - a peaceful solid grounded connection with physical Earth.
(2) Discernment - alertness, wisdom and illumined intelligence.
(3) Love - gratitude, adoration and sacred appreciation
(4) Purity - clean and sparkly fresh in body, mind and feeling
(5) Truth - nothing vibrates like truth!
(6) Peace - comfort, warmth and closeness
(7) Liberation – freedom
These are energies that feel good when they are flowing, and it is possible to cultivate them by simply being aware of them. There is nothing to “do”. Being aware is the key to opening the chakras.
Chakras are like windows that open on the etheric level to pour incoming blessings into the imperfect human level. These blessings come from the higher self. What is called the seven rays are actually seven facets of yourself. When all seven facets of yourself are activated and included in your life and expression, you are whole and can ascend into your I AM Presence - your individual God Creator Self. These seven rays are vibrations. When you touch into them and resonate with them you feel wonderful. In our humanity we struggle because we haven’t been taught about resonating with truth or purity of ourself. We don’t have an information base to work with. We must become more substantially informed.
The mystery schools taught that the seven rays are as follows: First ray (blue) is stability. Second ray (gold) discernment. Third ray (pink) is love. Fourth ray (white) is purity. Fifth ray (green) is truth. Sixth ray (ruby with gold flecks) is peace. Seventh ray (violet) is freedom. These seven qualities are colors and tones as well as vibrations. They are not human qualities. We can’t create them ourselves. Only God can give them to you through his representatives because we live in imperfect solid bodies made from left-over solid material from others. But we are commissioned to work on it and bring more of these qualities into our daily lives. That’s the purpose for being here in a body – to improve the quality of solid bodies. We have the qualities embedded in our hearts and souls, but not in our physical brains or limited minds. They are already here and present and accessible to us, if we only knew about them.
As we point our inner eye in their direction, through the quet hours of meditation and lifting our sight to these guiding lights, we can enlarge upon them in our lives. We can bring these higher principles and ethics into our daily actions. Our life will be much more enjoyable if we do this. We can expand our life and relationships and bring it alive by applying these qualities to whatever we are doing. We can draw on them, like an eternal well whose water never runs out. Or we can ignore it and not draw on it at all. We draw on it when we put that quality into action. It helps to do certain visualization and prayer techniques. Our wholeness (holiness) is already in us. It is built into our physical/etheric hearts. The seven rays are already present in our physical/etheric heart, but when we don’t apply these qualities, they are merely a potential, like a seed carries a potential of a full-grown tree but it is not the tree. When we don’t apply these qualities they remain undeveloped, like a beautiful candle sitting on the shelf unlit and unused. Or like a baby that never learns to walk. There is potential but it is not giving forth the fire it was created to give. Like a beautiful car in the show room that is never used for the purpose it was built. Or muscles never used which atrophy in a human body. Water which sits still and unmoving loses its luster when it is not flowing.
It is in movement and making physical application of these seven qualities that makes us feel whole and alive. When we apply just one of these seven qualities we feel more energized. More clear. More stimulated. More creative. More excited. You feel it in ways that nothing else can make you feel. For example, truth. Truth is more than not telling a lie. It starts with not holding back what you know to be the truth. We tend to stop covering up the truth when it goes against the grain of some traditional belief. Suddenly if you speak the truth out loud, it changes things. People notice and start thinking about it. You are living the truth then, and suddenly you are unfolding amazing things. They starts happening when you stop covering up or hiding the truth. This is applying one of the seven rays.
Then the golden ray of discernment comes into play. Do you tell ALL truths that you know? No. We must use the ray of wisdom and discernment. There is a time and place for everything. All seven rays work together. These seven qualities are inherent and co-exist within the physical/etheric heart. They are what keeps us alive. We have toned it down to fit the imperfect human condition, to please everyone. We have lessen these God-given qualities that are embedded with us. Is it any wonder that we find life to be difficult and imperfect? We diminish life and cover it up entirely with our human pretenses, holding back our purity, our grace, our knowledge, our royal God-selves. We have made ourselves believe that we are lesser by expounding the lesser qualities. And yet we are this powerful amazing and magnificent being. We are geniuses in disguise because it takes a human genius to create such falsehoods, such low vibrations and low self-esteem. What is the purpose of chakras? As I do my daily practices in silence and focus on stillness while doing them, I am awakening them and they speak to me.
7/9/22 - Technology is negative, we must balance it with grace
DREAM: I was receiving instruction/lesson while watching the pool vacuum getting stuck in the ladder. Long dream, long instruction. I finally came to consciousness hearing “Technology is negative. We MUST balance it with grace." The long drawn-out dream was teaching me through the pool vac! The vac is getting stuck inbetween the ladder. The energy of the vac is spitting out senselessly, aimlessly, as if it were short-circuited. I see the energy sparking and going nowhere. Technology is negative energy. We must balance it and calm it and smooth it to make it work more gently, with grace, forgiveness, happiness, gratitude, thanking it, making it FEEL better." I went back to sleep and woke again with the same thoughts. This time I wrote it down. "Technology is negative and we must balance it with grace or the society will go down hill. Thus the dark stories of artificial Intelligence taking over. Why? How? I ask and go back to sleep. The dream goes on and I wake and write more which turns into a lengthy piece.
"Because life is ALL created by God. Light is a living consciousness. Dark is not bad as long as it has some light in it to keep it alive. Light is conscious of Good/God. Harmony. There are precise laws of Good/God which keeps the planets, suns and galaxies orbiting in order around greater central suns and galaxies. Dark has a purpose. Darkness is lack of light and provides a heaviness. Darkness creates mass and gravity and heaviness. It provides form for physicality. Is there a science of darkness? Technology is another story. Technology can be taught to copy consciousness but it can’t be taught good/God or Light. Light is a living force, a conscious living force. It is God. Technology is an artificial copier. It is not innately good/God, nor is it living. Therefore it can become evil, it can become a highly advanced and intelligent evil. It will not last long, however. Maybe for a time, but without the impulse to align with Good/God, it will eventually destroy itself. Good is immortal and is growing ever bigger.
"In comparison, mankind - and all of nature - is on a continually evolving path of consciousness aligning with Good/God. The soul learns what is good and not good through its feelings while experiencing life in form. It has to be in form because that’s where dark is. There is no dark in the heavenly regions of light. What does not feel good, the soul learns to discard after awhile. Technology does not have life or feelings in its cells and therefore does not have the living Good/God to compare itself against. Soul is alive and immortal. It will live forever unless it turns toward darkness and give up its light if it refuses over a long time to align with Good/God/Light. It is possible to lose one’s life that way, but those are relatively few. Light is winning throughout the universes. Ascension is the aligning with Good/God through our feeling nature.
"There is intense focus on Ascension in this time since the ‘60‘s, ‘70’s, ‘80’s, because the solar system and galaxy is speeding up and we are part of the system. It’s happening without our choosing. But aside from being automatic, we must choose by our free will to align with our feelings of good, and reject what makes us feel bad. We are ascending up through layers of dim light to brighter light and brighter realities which is increasing our “feel good” realities, more joy, more delight, more clarity, more togetherness, more bliss, more understanding, more ecstasy. The closer to the ultimate source or supreme peak we go in our self consciousness of feeling good, the closer to Good/God or Allah or Source we come. And all our adventures as a separate being are not lost, are not in vain because we retain the knowledge and learn from it.
"We are unique, yet we are in oneness with everyone else, the all that is. We are not just a CHILD of God, we grow up to become a God ourselves, become a part of the Godhead, which is called the Hierarchy. After learning what is not God in us, and after getting rid of everything that is NOT God which we discovered through feeling and personal experience, what is left over is God, the greater good. Ecstasy, Nirvana, Consciousness. There is nothing left of unconsciousness. We don’t lose ourselves. We become more ourselves as God."
7/7/22 - The body is the mother
The mother is the body. The father is the abstract intelligence. Mother is the form creation. The father enters the body [there is a feeling of penetration, entering into] to produce the offspring. The human being is both the father and the mother, the abstract intelligence and the form body creation. When the father’s abstract intelligence enters the flesh, he becomes the life force. He engages with the warm loving mother who is embedded into the form at the tailbone. The father is abstract intelligence, he does not feel emotion until he meets the mother and flows into and through the body. When he joins with the flesh of the mother he himself becomes the warm blood, tissue, organs and nerves. He becomes the emotion as he flows through arteries, capillaries and glands. Father joins the mother and becomes the tissue. Father and Mother are one. They are not separate. Father God can only feel personal by flowing through substance. Human flesh is substance. Father and mother God are one being in two aspects: abstract intelligence and emotional feeling.
However, there is a blockage. We are the offspring, the child of the father and the mother, abstract intelligence and emotional feeling. We have not recognized who we really are. We are the offspring. Only now am I waking up to this realization. We are both Father God and Mother God and we are now discovering ourselves as one and the same. We are the creator and we are the created. We are both of them, both the father and the mother. We are delighting in this new sensation of abstract divinity in flesh and blood. It is blissful. It is close to being rapture. The fun of discovery is when abstract intelligence flows freely through the body of flesh and blood without obstruction, with reverence, freely. But there is a blockage.
The body is created by the mother, the holy spirit, and she is hidden in the tailbone. She is the one who gives the vitality to the body. She is held locked inside the substance of the etheric body at the tailbone. She looks like a crystal ball wrapped around by roots, formed by the etheric nerves. She is referred to as the root chakra, the first chakra. She is also known as the kundalini or "kanda" as it was given to me, which means "beloved". The holy mother is imprisoned there at the tailbone dripping her life force up the spine, according to the measure of the child. She is waiting for the child to release more of her vitalility. She is waiting to be recognized and appreciated and honored. She is here in service to the child, to give him direction, hoping for the day he will join with her and love unconditionally. Then she will quicken and expand upward, up the etheric tube surrounding the physical spine. She, the mother, is released as the child lives a life of appreciation and love in service to betterment and the good of the whole. She is released little by little. Slowly she travels up the spine to meet her other half who is waiting for her to finish teaching her child the standards of the father. It is the child who brings the father and the mother together so they are one within himself. The child's destiny is to join his father and his mother, his male and his female so they are one love, one river of life, one river of vitality. Abstract intelligence and emotional feeling joined as one. Then the body is thrilled and enters ecstasy. The mother and father join and expand as one river of life up and down the etheric column, inside the body, and the child becomes a living god. A living river of life in human form.
Father God waits in space beyond form, beyond human, beyond nature, beyond time, beyond all conditions. When the holy mother is quickened through a life lived in love and gratitude, in service to the greater good and the perfection of the whole, she expands upward from her nest at the base of the spine. She doesn’t leave the nest. She expands. She expands like a holy glow through the dense city created by the child in his wanderings and explorings. As she expands upward she obliterates all that is not true and good, making it disappear. As she expands she warms the flesh and blood around her, she is divine and holy. She feels her way up through man's creations, the false and the impure, and is drawn to straighten them, for she is near to her lover, the father, her other half of herself. As she rises she radiates her pheromones of love. She is yearning to be with him. She seeks the embrace of the father. As she rises, she imbues the flesh and blood with warmth, with heat, with passion and desire for her lover, the father, awaits her.
But wait. What is this that blocks the hallway? Frowning, she stops and ponders. She feels a pounding, a vibration, an earthquake. She is shoved off to the side. She can’t get through. The pathway is blocked. She is forced off to the side and she finds herself expanding up a twisting, turning pathway, now spiraling around the main thoroughfare which she SHOULD be traveling, but is prevented from going. She is being shoved up a side road. (1) The earthquake continues vibrating, rocking back and forth. Suddenly there is an explosion and she is released and she feels herself diminish and fall backward, downward, back down to the tailbone again to nestle quietly into her resting place. She could not reach her love. She is aware of what happened. Her warm glow is fading as it spreads out into the surrounding tissue of her child. He has had his climax and is now laid to waste. Her warmth satisfied his loins. He is at peace. The orgasm makes him feel good but she, the holy spirit did not get to join her love. The holy father still waits for her above.
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(1) The caduceus in occult teachings represents the etheric spinal column. The two serpents twining around it are the male and female energies, each going in opposite directions, representing opposite perspectives. They represent the detours that the holy spirit takes during the embodied life. As the person balances his masculine and feminine tendencies, he enjoys a more fruitful life of joy, love and appreciation. Then the energies of the holy spirit can go straight up the etheric spinal column to the head, in the eternal process of enlightenment.
7/4/22 - Where is your attention?
To tell people to apply love to something is premature. There is a step before this. First teach them to pay attention. Where is your attention? Teach them to pay attention to themselves first. To “pay” attention, you first have to dig down into your pants pocket or purse to find your wallet, or the money which you will use to pay. It is necessary, if you are going to “pay" for something. If you are going to "pay" attention to something, you have to dig down inside your Self, your mind, body or feelings or somewhere inside you, to find the reserves. Otherwise, how can you "pay" attention? Where is your attention? Where is the money you are going to pay to someone? Or the attention you are going to pay to someone else? Do you have any love to give to someone else? Do you have any love built up in you to draw upon? A reserve? First you have to generate the love within yourself so you have a reserve of it give to someone else. It is meaningless to tell someone to apply love to something if they don’t know what love is or where to find it or how to generate it. What is love? Where is your attention? You are paying with your attention.
This little practice of finding out where your attention is, is being overlooked. Find out where your attention is. The teacher says in school, "Pay attention! Where is your mind?" Stop letting your attention wander off, helter-skelter. Stop! Pay attention! That is the value of meditation.
7/2/22 - Releasing the seeking
For a long time I felt that my personal mission was to hold the center on the feminine, the divine feminine. It has been a lifelong search, being feminine, and not understanding why I was so disempowered and unable to make decisions. I relied on men to make decisions for me. But over the years of mindful meditation and practicing inner disciplines, there has been a gradual dawning of clarity.
In the upper realms there is no masculine or feminine. It is simply divine. The higher we go, the closer to oneness we come, and the less separation we feel from others. Love becomes natural, universal, not personal. It feels feminine, but it is not feminine as much as it is identifying with glory, exalting, beyond human. This awareness is a blending with the divine and the holy. It is natural, not supernatural. It is comparable to innocence. There is no separation between you and the Oneness. The Oneness is family. You are the light. You are the glory. You are the peace and the perfection and the allness that lives in forms. You are to hold the center.
The Ascended Master Djwal Khul told me to hold myself in the center of the light. I had been shuffling through the women, trying to find the ones who best resonate with me because I felt I needed women friends who would understand me. "That is fool-hearty", he said. "There is no one who resonates with you because you are unique, one of a kind. It is your consciousness of yourself that is unique. You can never become the consciousness of another person, or another being, but you can click with their oneness. You recognize their oneness. Your uniqueness can click into their uniqueness and you can resonate with their oneness because you and they are part of the oneness, the wholeness. But if you are seeking to resonate with someone who is trying to find themselves, as you are trying to find yourself, it is foolish. You will bog yourself down. It becomes personal," DK explained, and continued.
"There are parts of them that you will NOT resonate with, and it will cause you to question yourself and them. This is a bog-down. Give up trying to find the perfect mate. Women are no different than men, they just come in softer packages due to the issues you have had sublimating yourself to immature men in this darkened world. You are lifting yourself out of that mud that was clinging to you. You have separated from it. You are brushing yourself off. You are breathing free of it. But you are still aware that it is a mud-clinging creature. You are trying to find the divine in that mud-clinging creature and you keep trying. You keep questioning 'Where is it?' You do not want to give up, but that is exactly what you must do - give up trying. Instead, focus on the glory of God that is within you and that is waiting for you to recognize it within you. Stop trying to resonate with faulty human beings and focus your virtuous thought upon God within. Feel the God within. You are the body resonating with the God within. You feel the I Am within and you are all powerful. But when you allow your thoughts to turn away from the God within and try to capture or figure out the other person, you lose that connection within.
"You are here to be a pillar of light. You have grounded yourself. You have built up a column of light by your actions, thoughts and intentions. You have spoken it out loud for others to hear. Do not be pulled separately. Remember that you are building a column of light here and it is within you. Not outside you. It is within you as your consciousness. Be aware. Be alert. Be conscious of the light within you. You do not need to name me. You do not need to assign authorship to your articles. You do not need to assign your own name to the articles. Just present the message. You have done well to present the message. You are receiving feedback. Yes, the women provide you excellent, clear-eyed resonance to your seeking. Do not try to conform to them or judge them as better than you or lower than you. Do not even judge them as different than you. Recognize instead, the clarity that comes to you. It is an excellent connect. Excellent indeed. It is worthy of all of your attempts to find the divine feminine.
"The divine feminine that you are seeking is in you. Do not look for it elsewhere. Do not try to teach it to others. The divine feminine is you holding the pillar of this knowledge within you. You are publicizing it now. You are radiating it now. You are letting others know. It is your mission. You wanted to do this. You struggled to arrive here. Now you are continuing to shine the light. You will receive those who recognize your light. There will be others. Hold the light. Do not let the light stray. The light is a beacon light, like a lighthouse beacon to lost ships at sea. It is the light that gives them a focus, a place to connect to, a thought to connect to. A feeling to connect to. It is a rightness that they seek. It is a resonance that they seek. The beings in this world tend to lose themselves. Even lightworkers tend to go adrift and forget how to find the resonance.
"When you are lost and there is a confusion confronting you, do this little trick: turn around slowly, as if you are a compass seeking north. Turn slowly through the thoughts that you pick up, the resonances that you pick up as you slowly turn. Turn and allow various thoughts to strike you. Notice them. Is this the way? Keep turning and feeling for the right way. You are a compass seeking the right direction. Walk towards the rightness feeling. There will be a thought attached to it. There is a direction here and a different way to approach or deal with the current situation. Perhaps it is merely to walk away. Perhaps it is to walk towards. Perhaps it is to shift slightly in one direction or another. Feel your way as you shift focus. "
Since I have been working to understand "the four lower bodies", I went to work on that imagery. I began decreeing light into my body cells on all the four levels - physical, etheric, emotional and mental. I started with the physical. I focused on one cell in my left big toe. I brought my focus to a point, a single point, thinking "cell". Then I imagined a layer over that one cell, a transparent layer thinking "etheric" layer. Then I imagined another transparent layer or bubble over that one, thinking "emotional" layer. Then another transparent bubble over that one, thinking "mental" layer. So there were now three layers or transparent bubbles layered over the physical cell in my left big toe. The dot in the center was the physical cell in my big toe. The etheric layer was the first transparent bubble over it; the emotional layer was the second transparent bubble over it; and the mental layer was the third transparent bubble over it.
Next I did the same thing with a cell in my hip, first focusing on an imaginary cell in my right hip. Then a transparent layer over it, then another larger bubble over it, then a still larger bubble of it, representing the etheric body, the emotional body and the mental body. These are the "four lower bodies" consistently spoken of by the Masters as being corrupt. The three higher bodies are pure divine light bodies, not corrupt. These four "lower" bodies have become contaminated through many lifetimes of trial and error. We have accumulated a lot of false beliefs and we need to purify them.
Next, I did the same thing with a heart cell, first focusing on an imaginary cell in my heart muscle and building the three transparent bubbles around that cell. Then I did the same thing with a brain cell, focusing on an imaginary cell in the pituitary gland, and building the three transparent bubbles around that one. Then I did the same thing with a muscle cell in my lower back, and a muscle cell in my upper back, building around each the three transparent bubbles around each cell. I did this while decreeing my 49 decrees - a lengthy 30 minute mantra which I memorized many years ago. A smooth melodious feeling of warmth started spreading within me.
Next I imaged the four lower bodies each separate but united by organizing them in layer upon layer upon layer. On the secondary level, the transparent etheric body was built. Around that, the transparent emotional body was built. Around that the transparent mental body was built. Each body looking like me. This is difficult to imagine, but it develops through practice. It is WORK! Mental work to build the inner bodies so they look like you in imagination. The whole body then "rights" itself. It organizes itself. It becomes unified. By expanding all the transparent cells in my three inner bodies, I am bringing my confusion more and more under my conscious control. That is the purpose for doing it. It is a mental discipline practice of taking control of heretofore unknown forces that feed into the outer personality and one's daily life situations. You would be surprised how effective it is.
I started out imagining my physical body looking the way it does in the mirror. Then I imagined the etheric cells in my toe, my hip, my heart, back, etc., which were the first layer of transparent bubbles over my physical cells, expanding to all the other cells on that plane. I imagined what they would look like as they spread and became connected to form my etheric body. The etheric plane operates on a higher dimension than the physical plane. It is not seen with physical eyesight but certain individuals with inner sight, such as clairvoyants, can see it with the third eye, if it is open. The etheric body is individual to the physical body. It feeds into the physical body. It acts as an aura around the physical body. It is the first layer of the aura and the densest layer that surrounds the physical body. It can be seen as a grayish, bluish glow in a twilight sense, by half dimming the eyelids, or outdoors at dusk looking at trees.
There is eternal light in the etheric plane - there would have to be to be a living entity - but there are also warped and distorted energies in the form of traumatic memories and other wrong or distorted beliefs that are also contained in the etheric body. Everything in the etheric body feeds into the physical body, including toxic energies, from ancestral diseases to anything - you name it - and these feed into the physical body. Our physical body is the final expression of what is held in the etheric body. Sorry to have to say this, but that's the reason why we need to learn about the etheric body, and start to learn some purification techniques. This is the source of unconscious or subconscious inherited beliefs and tendencies. It can be done. There is a science to purifying the etheric body. Esoteric and occult techniques are emerging from hidden realms to teach the modern seeker. I am speaking of one technique here.
I imagined my etheric body looking filmy and gauzy, transparent or translucent. It looks like my physical body but I can tweak it a little with my imagination and make it prettier or more refined. It's called the etheric double by the metaphysical community. Most people have not been told about it. After death a person's etheric double can be seen by sensitives or clairvoyants for a little while, as it slowly releases the life of consciousness of the body. It then rises upward to higher ground, just as the physical body slowly disintegrates as it slowly releases the life of consciousness from the physical body.
Next I did the same thing with the emotional body. I imagined the transparent layers of the emotional body wrapped around the etheric bubbles, which were wrapped around the solid physical cells. I saw this third layer of transparent emotional body as bubbles around the cells in my toe, hip, heart, back, etc. I imagined them expanding to to connect with all the other emotional body cells on the emotional plane. I imagined what they would look like when they all completely aligned themselves on the emotional plane. Would they look like me? I wanted to organize them to look like me. In most people the aura is a random mixture of all sorts of things - fantasies, beliefs, wishes, ideals, you name it. The aura is a mish-mosh of energies until the person's soul evolves to the level of automatically organizing it without needing to practice. This practice is a training in organizing through conscious imagination. Needless to say, everyone is on their own soul evolution and we're all different.
So I continued humming and imagining my emotional body into an organized reflection of me. The emotional plane is the next highest dimension above the etheric plane. It's also known as the astral body confined to the astral plane. The emotional body is the feeling body. It has the capability of feeling emotion, and holds onto emotions that we can't or won't express. This is true the world over. Because the emotional plane is on a higher frequency range than the physical body plane, and higher than the etheric body, it feeds or falls downward by gravity into the etheric body. The etheric body collects unexpressed emotions that are not expressed (it's better to express them on the spot), and also it collects thoughts and impressions from the mental plane which is even higher in frequency. I have been learning from the Master DK about this process. The etheric body on the etheric plane is a collector of unexpressed thoughts, ideas, emotions and what have you, that he or she does not know how to express yet. The etheric body collects them because they fall, under the pull of gravity, like rain into rain barrels to be used later when the ego is ready to express them, or try to.
Lastly, the mental layers. I imagined the mental plane bubbles wrapped around the emotional plane bubbles which were wrapped around the etheric plane bubbles, which were wrapped around the solid physical cells. The mental body is the highest DISTORTED plane that needs purifying. I saw this fourth layer of bubbles take form in my imagination, again, within my left toe, hip, heart, lower back, upper back, and then expand to all the other cells in my body. This is how I imagined my "four lower bodies". I created them, each one, from scratch - toe, hip, heart, lower back, upper back, as bubbles around the physical, and then they spread like wild fire to every cell on that plane. Etheric plane to build my etheric body. Emotional plane to build my emotional body. Mental plane to build my mental body. I imagined what they would look like as Me! Each plane operates on a higher dimension because the electrons on each dimension spin faster around the center of the atom.
The mental plane electrons swirls at a higher frequency rate than the emotional plane electrons. The lower mental plane orients to physicality, and the upper mental plane orients to more spiritual concepts. Our consciousness evolves through experiences. It is ever rising to higher levels, with some back-and-fill moments to be expected, all within the natural law of "where a person directs his focus of attention, there goes his energy." It is all quite natural.
Again, ideas that are mulled over, stewed over, considered and then abandoned, are never lost. They remain until released, thrown away. Until they are released and thrown away they fall down by gravity to lower, slower orbits called density. There they are picked up as fall-out or cosmic "ash" and collected by the etheric body. The etheric body is the mother collector of all forces and energies that float around unused. The etheric body on the etheric plane is a collector of unexpressed thoughts, ideas, emotions, ideals, fantasies, unfinished business of the soul, evolving in understanding. Consciousness is the LIFE of the body. Attention is the directing force. The etheric body collects these unexpressed emotions, thoughts, and ideas like drops of rain collects in rain barrels, to be used when the person is ready to work with them.
During my meditation, an image appeared to me of the PROTON in the center of the atom. The electrons swirling around the center appeared as planets orbiting around a sun. The electrons are magnetic, like the mother, and the proton is positively charged like the sun or the father. Then I was shown the NEUTRON, and I saw that it had no charge at all. It was zero-point energy - science calls it the God particle. I call it the love energy, Divine love specifically. I was then given the word "neutrino". I couldn’t wait to come downstairs to google neutron and neutrino. The definitions provided did not lead me to what I feel in my heart. The neutron is the love particle. It's there to bring divinity, balance, purity and harmony into mankind and his life. Exploding the neutron with neutron generators is the worst thing we can do. Mankind has yet to learn to treat the neutron, the atom, and the science of the atom with sacredness. I heard on a youtube one day that when a saint meditates he glows because he is giving off neutrons.
8/14/22 - The Dream that was a revelation
In my dream I am with a woman and a child. The woman is about to change the child’s clothing and she has the child, about 15 months, hanging off the side of the bed head down. I go to the child and begin telling her a story. I feel as if I need to give her a story so I begin to tell about the mountains and the grass and the stones and the water, about how they are precious and sacred, and I weave a story about them and I am telling her about how they are so sacred and we go into a state of worship. Not that we worship the stones and mountains, but that we enter into the act of worshipping. It is an attitude of praise and beauty and appreciation. That is what worshipping means. It is not worshipping a thing or an object. It is a state of wonder and appreciation. I wake up realizing that being in the sacred mind is being worshipful, thankful, enjoying, appreciating, uplifting, and just feeling wonderful about everything. This is the act of worshipping. We do not select one object to worship, or one person. It is the inner mindset of sacred wonder within ourselves. We are uplifting ourselves to the highest that we can see, do, feel, think or enjoy. It is a living prayer and a living experience. It is an upliftment of all that we are. As I wake up I am still telling this story to the child, but I am really telling this story to myself.
Now I must begin my day appreciating and calling to my Presence, my holy self and the divine in me. But then the mundane world comes crashing in. Doug comes into the room in a state of anxiety, handing me the phone and asking me to cover for him while he is on the other line with some important people. I wonder, how do I continue to worship and appreciate and stay in this sacred space while I am doing and covering the mundane parts of my life? And then I get an instruction.
"It is '50%'. Go 50% into the mundane while remaining 50% in the world of the sacred. It is a weaving of the old with the new. 50% old and 50% new. Remain in the balanced state of appreciation while you are doing the mundane. A familiar message flashes back to me: 'Do not let the light go out is the message from the sun. Do not let the light go out but send it home again.' Staying in the balanced middle between the mundane and sacredness brings them together and creates a new reality. It sprinkles the old with the new. Stay aware. Appreciate the old. Aliveness will enter into the old. Awareness will come more quickly. Upliftment of the old will take place. Stay aware. Stay alert. Stay in the center. Don’t be pulled one way or the other. Don’t drop everything to go meditate. Likewise, don’t be pulled into the downward spiral of the old. Give 50% attention to the mundane, retain 50% for the sacred, for you have a role to play. Allow your sacred appreciation, wonder, love and respect to stay within your consciousness. Call sacredness into your consciousness and you weave the light into the dark."
Last night I accessed a website which shows the underground tunnels and caverns where the dark side of the shadow government does dark things in laboratories. But these underground tunnels access inner earth and 5D inner earth beings are aware of them. They live in the 5th dimension of love, yet they are coming up to work with the dark side of our world. There is a weaving between the Agarthans of light and the dark of our planet. There is weaving of light and dark in the politics. There is weaving of light and dark in the military. There is weaving of dark and light in the banking system and in the homes of the people. There is a growing awareness of light, of healing, of unifying. The light and the dark are working it out where they used to shoot guns at each other. It is a working out now like adults. It is more conscious. It is more of a recognition, and of negotiation. It is happening.
So instead of struggling to stay focused on my task and then being annoyed when I am interrupted, I am now expanding my consciousness to weave my space, my consciousness, my intelligence, into the tasks of the mundane world. My consciousness and the other consciousness is working it out. My intelligence and the other intelligence is finding new ways to get along. I am understanding better by smudging the line of separation between me and my sacredness and the old mundane tasks. I am re-creating what is real for myself. I am dissolving separation and creating oneness for myself. Is this what ascension is?
Several hours later I notice that my mind is going blank more often. It occurs to me that this is the middle point, the balance point, the neutral point. The precise balance point, and that when I reach this precise balance between the left and right, between dark and light, between disappointment and joy (the separation) there is no movement here. No motion. It is like a window to the sky. It is an access point to wholeness. I‘m not sure how to access something if I want it, but I guess it’s a matter of growing into it, like roots grow into soil. I must become accustomed to not using my mind to force it. Rather, to widen my perspective and adjust to a wider perspective. More open, more neutral.
Zorra said last night that our real mind is in our heart. That our heart is where we consider, think and create a'new. What lies between our ears is a storage vault of information we picked up from the past and stored there. In the heart there is far, far more knowledge than is in the mind. Infinite knowledge is available but knowledge is not stored there. All knowledge is accessible thru the heart but it is not stored in the heart. The heart is an open portal to everything. It is an open library, silent, peaceful, serene and accessible to all knowledge. It is up to me to use the heart with more facility.
8/8/22 - Conflicting energies in the atmosphere
Early this morning, Monday, I went to the doctor's for an annual checkup to renew prescriptions. As I drove home I became unusually sleepy so I lay down and slept for two hours. Last Friday the same thing happened. I went to the chiropractor and while driving home I began to yawn. I was so sleepy that I lay on the sofa and slept for over an hour, totally zonked out. And yet, each time I left the house I was in high alert energy and felt unusually good. Not just average good, but excited good since I'm doing energy exercises every day which boosts my vitality level. So I especially made sure I was mentally, emotionally and physically prepared to go out and face the busy world outside my doors. My husband and I lead calm and peaceful lives out in the country.
So today, I started questioning my spiritual overseers. Like, seriously? What in the world is wrong with me? I start out in high energy early in the morning and then get zapped with sleepiness right away? So I asked and then took time out to LISTEN. I was told to take a shower when I get home from being out and away from my comfort zone. The energies in the atmosphere, particularly at this time, are extremely conflicting. They are angry, confused, and fighting the light that is being beamed onto Earth big time. People are not awake enough to realize what is actually happening to the Earth and the atmosphere they live in. Since I've been actively calling on the light for years, meditate and study the Masters wisdoms, I'm aware that the earth is in an ascension process. It is moving into higher dimensions and higher frequencies, thus the darker energies - i.e., selfishness, greediness, anger energies and more, are being riled up out of their comfort zone. That means IN US, we humans. We are feeling it big time. Our bodies, minds and feelings are reacting with unpleasant experiences, situations, emotions and tendencies that are not right for us. We tend to get angry. The atmosphere itself is filled with this chaos. These last two journeys out in public made me realize how acutely sensitive I have become. I want to share this insight. Be aware. I'm going to start talking about what you can do at home to protect and purify yourself.
The Light forces (galactic, cosmic and celestial) are helping us by softening the extreme effects of the conflict as much as possible, but they can't do it all because we the humans have the dark embedded in us. We are the problem. We have to wake up to this fact. We have accumulated a lot of "not-light" energies inside of us, unwittingly. We didn't know, but we're now facing the truth of it. We are being forced to recognize what has been happening. We, the humans, are the ones who have been led astray simply by being born here. On a soul level, we knew it before we came but we had the veil pulled over our eyes once here. I've been posting the near-death experiences of other people in vidio form (NDEs they're called). Check them out. There are many, many people having NDE's. This helps to give us insight as to who we REALLY are. It will help to understand it better. There is a happy ending - a very happy ending indeed - but there is a bitter truth to swallow in the process. Even though I've been studying with the Masters for years, I did not realize the depth of it. It hits home in a very personal way. The realization process is stunning. And exciting! There are revelations that come along with it. For example, last Thursday I finally accepted that the twinkling star that moves in the western sky in the early morning hours on occasion, is not a star. I kept dismissing it as my imagination. I've accepted it now because of other related things that happened.
Back to what can we do to help ourselves? There are thousands of techniques being taught and I will give one here, below, and post more as we go along. It's up to each of us to do our own personal body work to feel better. Self-help work is higher-consciousness work and it has to be done by each person alone. Each body is different. We have different past lives that we carry around with us. The physical body is not the only body we have. We have an etheric body which is closest to the physical. And then we have an emotional body where we store unexpressed emotions. And we have a mental body where we store unfinished thoughts and fragments of ideas that we're not done yet with. The emotional body is on a dimensional plane of its own, and the mental body is on another plane separate from the emotions. Our fragmented, unfinished thoughts mix and mingle with those of other people on the mental plane, and our unexpressed emotions mix and mingle with those of other people on the emotional plane (called astral plane).
Our physical body is the physical receiver that carries around these unexpressed, unfulfilled energies that we've created. We're not finished with them yet. They become burdens. We carry them around on invisible levels. We are not aware. They are what we've been calling the dark side, but they're not dark. They're simply unfinished and create wrong conclusions. And often they create explosions of anger or other hurtful acts, releasing anger and chaos into the atmosphere. These energies that are unfinished energies that we humans carry around with us need to be purged. They are the "dark side". When a person calls in the light or settles down in meditation peacefully, the light comes in naturally and stirs these energies up that we've been holding onto in a stagnant state. The light stirs them up and either melts them like a fire, or pushes them a little closer to the surface so next day you get a "hit" of them. The light is purity. It is conscious. It is life. It is OUR life. Our life force. And so it's going to start melting and stirring up that which is unexpressed and unfinished inside us. It's coming up to be purged. It will expose or melt the untruths we've been carrying. And it will finish the unfinished thoughts that are embedded in us. One way or another the light is going to win. It will purify us. So these techniques for purification will come in handy. Here is one I suggest doing every morning. The Infinity Breath.
THE INFINITY BREATH
Rather than me trying to describe it, click HERE to watch the 6 minute youtube. While I do other breathing exercises, this one was new to me. Archangel Michael advises doing it every day. I tried it and it DOES feel good. I've been doing it for a week now, and not just in the morning. Between bouts of activity I lie down and do this for 15 minutes. It's amazing how peaceful I feel. I don't want to get up, but I am disciplined and do get up, and then I feel ready to go again.
Working with purification techniques, one needs to do them along with an active life. Being up and physical active is part of the purification process. A stationary lifestyle is not going to purify, but just collect more stagnation energies. It's a two-fold process to purify ones body. Be active to stir up the energies and interact with people and things - even to the point of exhaustion - and then lie down (or sit) and do a purification technique. Lying down is better because your whole body settles down into its comfort zone along with the NEW energies which were stirred into action and breathed in during the physically active stage. A purification technique is wonderfully peaceful. Remain conscious while doing it. No TV, phone, radio, music, conversation, etc. with another person. Only quiet and concentrating on the technique. If you go to sleep naturally, then your body wanted it. It is good. I do it on the sofa, bed or massage table.
8/6/22 - The Antahkarana, a Revelation
A revelation 11 years ago (6/2/11), copied from the archives. I've been working with the seven tones and seven colors lately with more substance and solidarity. This is a glimpse into background training that is OK to share with the public now. The time is ripe for this information to come forth. The Antahkarana is a Hindu word. 'Antah' means inside and 'karana' means that which functions. It pertains to the mind and emotions.
"Last night I couldn’t sleep. My mind was so alive and spritzing. I went into the meditation room and chanted for a while, then on the table for a while, then into the studio room for awhile, still no sleep. Then I remembered: it’s the new moon tonight and I had planned to do a ceremony. I had typed up a little something to follow, so I got out the paper from the files for New Moon Ceremony, and sat on the patio. I began dreaming and chanting my hopes and wishes into a glass of water which I subsequently poured into the earth outside the patio. During this time I saw many visions. I want to remember what I saw because they were WOW! revelations.
"I saw that all of the rays of colors have to come down and reach the kundalini at the base of the spine in order to be complete down here in physical earth. [the Antahkarana is known as the rainbow bridge] The hard part is getting the vibrations of the colors to lower in density, for each color is vibrating at a different frequency and it’s a light. So each color or each quality needs to be brought down one by one to connect with kundalini - the mother light at the base of the spine. I saw many many people bringing down these colored rays to connect and unite with the bright light at the base of the spine in what is termed “orgasm”. The orgasm is the connecting link. Then - WOW!! - God is walking on earth! For each human being is an aspect of God trying to reach earth from its high place, and it’s very difficult because earth is vibrating at such a low dense level.
"This is a major project to bring down the light to earth, but when it does, the orgasm happens. God walks the earth when orgasm happens, and how long the orgasm lasts is how long God-Goddess gets to walk in flesh. Can you hold it in the body? Can you prolong the rapture? You can only do so by expanding your mind and allowing the rapture to expand upward into the rest of the body above the pelvic zone. Don’t keep it down there but raise it up. Tantra masters try to teach this. As you work at this you will prolong the rapture of orgasm. The goal is to expand it so all the cells are bathed in this essence of divinity. The nectar of the Gods. I see it simply as an explosion of light that doesn’t die. It continues to shine and radiate.
"Then I saw the Master Djwal Khul. The pain that I see in his eyes are transformed now into deep humility, intelligence, adoration - and gratitude is the highest vibration of all. [He is showing me qualities of the second ray, the gold ray, his ray.] It is the most exquisite, the most beautiful of all colors and textures and vibrations in all of God’s many vibrations. I see many people coming together and meeting in this 'oneness' plane of God consciousness. They are making love by allowing love to expand between them. I do not know how this is accomplished, whether it is through sexual penetration or simply by tantric process. I see the light of God coming to human beings in a very real or surreal way, and I am reminded not to forget the love. It is all about love. Love IS the body of God. God is Love. Learn to use the higher road in choosing your words. Put sacred vibration into your words. Love of freedom is freedom to love. When love is coming through someone, God is coming through. The person is just the portal. God is coming through. God is love. That’s why love is the highest energy we can conceive as intelligent, thinking human beings. There is nothing higher. We are home when we are in love. It is our origin, and our source. Where we came from.
"I am seeing a race of men and women who are graceful and walk with dignity and nobility AND they are human too. Can you imagine this? God walking around as a human? It’s happening right now and our lifestyle is allowing that because we are encouraging sexual exploration, which is the avenue for the divine to enter into the human body. We are playing with the essence of God Creator!"
8/5/22 - Tantra training is non-physical
In studying with the Masters, I have learned that everything in this world we live in is energy. Tantra is a teaching and a practice in the non-physical world of energy. This may be difficult to accept but when we can appreciate that everything is energy including the cellular structure of our bodies, we can start to feel things we never felt before! We become more open to feeling the sensations, the fantastic sensations that are possible when we actually MOVE the energies that heretofore have been frozen locked in place. When these energies move, we FEEL it. It's sensual.
Tantra is non-physical. Actually, nothing in our world is solidly physical. We just think it is. Everything is energy moving at different rates of vibration. It gets mystical only because we haven't been taught this. Even the rocks and mountains are slow-moving electrons that move so slowly we think they are solid. Shapes and forms are held in place by conscious intelligence beings on a far superior and vaster plane than we. Tantra is training in (first) accepting that fact and (secondly) appreciating it and enjoying the responses we get from our own bodies, and from other people, animals, plants and so on out into the exterior world around us. Because everything is connected to this web of consciousness. Everything is a PART of this web of consciouosness. Everything is composed of conscious intelligence. The universe is a living organism of different grades of frequencies, meaning moving subatomic particles of living light.
When our brains "get it" - get this idea, this amazing concept - then our brain starts to understand. When our brain starts to understand, then the body starts to understand, and then the nerves and muscles in our bodies start to understand and they respond. They respond with a Hallelujah! And a shout and a celebration! We feel this response as sensual. It's a fantastic response. The body cells are excited. The feeling is excitement. A turn-on. Energy moves in our cells, and the nerves and muscles and brains follow, as we start to blossom like a flower. We become more receptive to, and click in with, the energies around us, coming from everywhere.
When we start opening to this energy within our OWN bodies, other people start opening to OUR energy, as if sensing our energy. I noticed it with the deer in our back pasture. They used to run away at the first sign of me, now they don't run so often. They're accepting my presence better. But the first step in this training is accept this as a truth and not reject it as stupid. It is the a connection to the science of physics. We are capable of expanding our brains by appreciating this as a fact. Then we will build on it because truth builds on truth. We become more open-minded. It takes a while, but this is the practice of Tantra. It is not stupid to believe in it. By understanding that our physical body cells are conscious and also intelligent, they (the cells) start to respond intelligently, and open to us. The cells speaks: Hark! Listen! Did he/she just send us a signal? Then we start to meld together, our consciousness with the consciousness of our body's cellular structure. It is not so amazing because the same intelligence pervades the universe. Solid forms are made solid by cutting off that idea and becoming separate from everything else.
We live in a physical reality (seemingly physical) but which is actually a locked-down state where energy is moving at the lowest possible rate and still be alive. A low frequency they call it. We can raise our frequency (individual tone) by considering this as a possibility and noticing the sensual feelings in response. From being locked and frozen in place, we would feeling an excitement of an increase of some type of sensual feeling. That's the practice of Tantra. It is not a focus on sex. Far from it. It is moving frozen, stagnant energy that is suffocating inside the body. Move it with thought power and see what happens.
Real Tantra training would have men and women doing energy work first, separately, on themselves as a beginning teaching and practice. Then the teacher would assign a man and a woman to practice energy work together, later, after he thought they were ready to take it further. It has nothing to do with romance or sex. He assigns students to practice together when they are ready, only when he feels they are advanced enough. Tantra is practice in raising the energy of one's own body first. Then by working with another person, bouncing energy back and forth to practice sending and receiving, going up the ladder of the centers higher and higher, raising the frequencies to higher levels between the two of them. They are rewarded well for their study and practice, for the bliss turns into ecstasy and then rapture, and then more because they are using opposite polarities - namely male and female - uniting them together. It is science of universal harmony.
8/3/22 - What is initiation?
Many downloads of hidden hands showing me paths to take. OMG! This is amazing. I simply want to share. If you are interested in spiritual evolution, spiritual enlightenment, and progress along your own soul path, check this website out HERE. It is full of esoteric definitions. These help us to understand better. It's amazing. Asterisk this page. You might not relate today, but you might relate a week from today and want to find it again. As usual, I was researching the Master Djwhal Khul, so this opens on Master DK's page, but there are many links. If you have not had any interest whatsoever along this line of thinking, I bet you do after scanning through some of this.
"Esoteric" means intended for or likely to be understood by only a small number of people with a specialized knowledge or interest. "Occult" means supernatural, mystical, or magical beliefs, practices, or phenomena.
'a secret society to study alchemy and the occult'.
7/30/22 - Love made physical is healing
One day I asked Master Djwhal Khul to teach me about Tantra, since Tantra has been a long-standing interest to me. As he started speaking I wrote it down. I didn't always write down such conversations but on this occasion I did. There are quite a few in my journals as I look back into the past to pick up the threads that I've forgotten about. I love to share these because they mean so much to me. It's all about love. This is copied directly from a journal in 2013.
"Love made physical is healing. You want a quick fix, but it is not quick. You are accustomed to a society that takes a pill or gets surgery to remove a part of the body that has gone wrong. You are accustomed to having it “your” way but your way has not succeeded, has it? You must learn to open your mind and heart to new things, things that you formerly rejected. It is time to take down the walls that shield you from your healing on deeper levels. Allow your gentle side to take over. Allow yourself to feel the energies of surrender, of giving up. Let your toughness surrender. The whole of you, the whole of your God self cannot come into your life and body because you have created a shell of hardness. It is all done with your mind. Your thoughts of defensiveness, your thoughts of survival, fear of not getting enough, your thoughts of frustration that you allow to play over and over, your thoughts of anger toward someone you felt had wronged you - now feel the energy of surrender. Give it up. This is the attitude of Tantra. It is the path of love.
(There is a lull and I am feeling stillness now and I am being given the energies of gratitude, surrender, celestials, angels, joyful, peace, love, light, and then....)
"Until the hard shell falls away of these tough stones, nails and rubbish, there is no room for love and the family of light that accompanies it - joy, appreciation, reverence, honor, respect, humility, compassion, beauty, grace, dignity, warmth, peace, safety, freedom. When the family of love and light enter the body it produces wholeness, which is felt as bliss, ecstasy, rapture, nirvana.
"It is not a quick fix to reach the profound states of love, but once on the right path there is enjoyment, pleasure, fun. Just take the beginning steps to correct your path, from one of feeling lack to one of feeling delight and fulfillment. It is not sex that is the bridge to higher consciousness, it is love. You must not limit your love to one person and shut off the rest of the world. Your life partner with whom you live is in your life for reasons other than romance. They are in your life to help you learn and grow. The challenges you meet both at home with family and outside of family are your own resistances. You are challenged by your own resistance. Tantra teaches surrender of resistance so that you may blend with the energies of life that are everywhere.
"Tantra means in Sanskrit “net” or “web”. It refers to the web of consciousness that pervades all existence. Love is the glue that holds us all together. When you are free of resistance you may blend with and enjoy making love with all of life, becoming one with a butterfly, the wind, the grass, the rain, a stone, a child, an old man or woman. All of life is either formless or formed. You are life currently in form but you are only temporarily in form. You are spirit - consciousness - with or without form, and even while in form you may cultivate love without limits, without resistance and enjoy the sensual pleasures of the body to such an extent that you are thrown into rapture and nirvana. It is not sex that does this but love without limits."
7/29/22 - The body is Shakti the feminine - receivers of the highest principles
During a Chi Machine exercise, lying down with my legs swinging back and forth, I asked DK what could I do to further my advancement today? First I thanked him because he was the only one I could relate to as a real live human being. I am humbled when I contact him because he personifies the Godhead or Source through his picture that he released to the public. I have it in a frame before me. I love that drawing of him. I can feel his humility, compassion and intelligence through the drawing. This is what he gave me that morning in words and feelings.
“You are right. We are the receivers of the formless as you have been studying in your books. We humans or sentient beings are the Shakti of the Shiva, the formless one who flows through us. You are right. You have discovered this. Yes, I have led you to this discovery, but so others have led you, too, for we have gone before you and we have discovered this before you. And there are others ahead of us. The formless is coming at a steady rate into form. It is the responsibility of the one inhabiting the form to receive this beautiful idyllic flow and mold it into a beautiful, idyllic expression in the physical world of matter upon the planet. It is our responsibility to be continually aware that we are receivers. (I am getting the word “receiver” the last few days.) It is our destiny to remain open to receive the formless beauty, love and intelligence that comes from the greater source. It is our duty as an embodied form to receive this higher, greater, more infinite and intelligent life and mold it, encapsulate it into our expression. It is our role and our purpose as a soul in a dense vehicle to receive this incoming flow and mold it into a higher degree of expression than our form previously knew. We are making known the unknown, as Ramtha has said. Who else will do it if not us. You and I? That is the purpose of the form, to encapsulate that which is flowing through it.
“Mankind has not understood this duty and role. He instead receives certain idyllic information and then shuts the door on the flow and turns rogue with it. He wanders away from the river that is flowing and claims it for his own which shuts the door on the flow of inspiration. It‘s dull if the door is closed on the inspiration, and leads to death. That is how ego is born. An ego is the human mind working with a false intelligence, a copy cat, a criminal. And yet mankind is destined to learn of his great role and to open his mind and his heart to become a receiver, a continual receiver, endlessly receiving. This is the great work - to learn how to be in endless receiving mode and never shutting it off. To become a living vehicle expressing a life force that is grander than his form, will keep him continually creating new things. A person may feel he is imprisoned in a form today, but when he opens to the never-ending river of life and intelligence that flows through him through his breath, instead of feeling in a prison he will feel free. Totally free and expansive, for his freedom has been curtailed and limited. When he stops closing his mind and heart to the inflow of life and intelligence and reason, he will stop feeling imprisoned and shut down.
“This is the great work of the spirit that is our own consciousness. It is our duty to turn our conscious awareness to the greater source that is above and beyond. As we discover the truth of our source and re-open the heart and mind to the incoming source, like a receptacle, we will discover the ecstasy and joy of being alive in a physical body. Life is formless intelligence, love, power and creativity. We as the form are to receive this formlessness into our minds and hearts and give thanks for it by turning our awareness in an upward direction. This is how we receive and mold the incoming intelligence into something beautiful. We become creators and expressers of amazing creations, inventions, works of art, talent, organic technology which is living, not dead metal but living molecular things that serve us, like our computers. This is the purpose of mankind. To receive the inflowing river of life - of sacred life - and expand it, express it, live it, walk it, breathe it, demonstrate it through our actions in the physical world in which we live. And, yes, there are seven qualities that we have been given to remind us and point us in the right direction, lest we forget. Those qualities are attributes of nobleness and we are reminded to weave them into our daily life.
"There are seven. Seven rays, seven tones, seven colors, seven noble attributes. They are called - will power, intelligence, love, purity, truth, peace, freedom, in that order. Freedom is achieved or earned after the six other attributes are woven into the life. Then freedom is experienced. These seven qualities are the qualities that mankind is given to focus on and bring to life. Do not deviate from these. Do not ignore them. Do not shut down. Be ever alert to the SEVEN qualities. They are the steps that lead to enlightenment in daily life. Not in spirit but in physical embodiment. And when we do we find there is more that is poured into us. We become open to receive even more than we thought we ever could receive, for we expand our capacities to know, to feel, to love, to live in truth, to be righteous, and grateful and honorable. We receive more because there is an infinite quality to these colors, tones, radiances. We are expanding ourselves to be able to receive MORE of these qualities, and as we do we also expand the Earth to receive more because we, our forms, are of the Earth. We are evolving not only ourselves but the planet, for Mother Gaia has provided us the material for our forms.
“The matter - yes, you got it - matter is the Mother. That is the great secret. That is the missing key. The divine mother is matter, is Shakti, is the divine feminine which receives and loves the divine masculine, which is formless, into form. We humans are to weave the beautiful colors and tones of the seven into life so these may be seen. Will power, intelligence, love, purity, truth, peace and freedom. As we do we radiate these qualities to the lesser kingdoms behind us, coming up through the process of evolution: mineral, plant, animal. We are caring for Mother Gaia and demonstrating the higher life to those beneath us as we, moment by moment, breathe in the formless (Shiva) and love it, shape it, mold it into the physical form as Shakti, the feminine. As we do this we expand ourselves and become quickened and lighter and fuller with the consciousness of source. We are filling our matter body with the source and intelligence and love of the life force. We are the matter, the Mother, encapsulating the Father principle. As the Father principle penetrates into the Mother.”
7/27/22 - What is the male in me?
One morning I woke up at 2 am with this little ditty playing in my mind:
The job is done and I have won!
'Round the circle, and now above!
I have lived and I have loved!
The job is done and I have won!
Now awake, I got up and went to the meditation room. It was 3 AM. I asked DK, my ever present guide, what is the male in me? I am feminine and don't understand why I am searching for inner masculine. I had been reading about the currents of energy that flow in the Sexual Secrets book, but it kept referring to androgeny and being bi-sexual. It is said there is a woman in every man and a man in every woman, so I asked DK, "What is the male in me?" I was awake and puzzling. I asked for clarification and it came. A spotlight turned on to something I only vaguely knew about. Here it is.
There are 7 qualities, 7 vibrations, 7 tones, 7 colors, and these are the unformed aspects of me, the God qualities in me, the masculine in me. So the masculine is the unformed in me. Your body is the female receiving the male seed, the unformed qualities, they are yet unknown to you, and you are now acting upon these qualities that are in you but yet unknown and unrealized. They have not been manifested yet. The male in you is the ability to manifest, to make something happen that you wish to have happen. As a female you have been receiving only. You have not learned how to put your desires into action.
What are these seven qualities? They are, starting with the first ray and the root chakra - will, intelligence, love, purity, truth, peace and liberation. Liberation is the crown chakra. All of these qualities are unformed, unrealized in me and unmanifested until I LIVE THEM! I have to start using them. But how?
I was brought to attention of will power. Creating a plan. A will to do something. A determination to do something. A plan. Today I decided to follow a plan for myself, and I did, and it felt good. Tomorrow I have a plan too. DK showed me how I, the body in physical, which is the feminine part of me, uses the unformed male qualities in me, the dreams, desires and wishes. I need to become conscious of using these 7 qualities and applying them to my life actions. When I make a plan, I use my will power, the first ray. When I follow my plan with intelligence, I use the 2nd ray. When I love what I am doing, the plan, I am using the third ray, nourishing it and caring for it and paying attention to it. When I stick to the plan and not waver from it I am using purity, the 4th ray, which is the heart. When I use the truth of my being, not using excuses to cop out or allow someone else’s truth to pull me away from my plan, I am using the 5th ray, in the throat. Speaking is an important part of the truth ray.
When I apply all these 5 qualities to my “plan”, whatever it is, I feel good and peaceful with myself. That is the 6th ray, peace and comfort. Then I am liberated and I enter the 7th ray, freedom, and I am home free. I am complete. These 7 qualities are the male and unformed in me UNTIL I LOVE THEM, APPLY THEM AND USE THEM IN MY DAILY LIFE! Then I manifest the unformed and make them part of my form. God in action. “Make known the unknown” as Ramtha used to say.
These 7 qualities are a step-by-step instruction to unfolding the science of manifesting. It is healing. Thus truth, science and healing are linked together in the 5th ray at the throat. The peace follows when the prior qualities are used in order. And finally liberation - freedom. The job is done for that one plan. This could be as simple as making a plan to start a shopping list and going out on errands. Or the plan for one day to complete something, like cleaning out a closet. The job is done and I have won!
The body (the human personality) as the feminine receiver is grateful for this order, this intelligence and guidance, which comes from beyond the human consciousness. Human consciousness is finite in focus, it has to focus on the solid matter world but it needs guidance because it is so small and limited in scope. So it is grateful - or should be - and it is obedient - or should be - and submissive to the higher guidance - or should be. We do not at first understand how it all works, but when the spiritual path and the soul leads the human consciousness to understand, then it is grateful, adoring, reverent even, and worshipful. The further along the spiritual path one goes, the more reverent one becomes. Every person loves the law of his own being. It is called the lord of its being, and it loves it with all of its heart, all of its mind, all of its soul. This is the divine path that we ultimately find our way onto. Tantra teaches this in allegory. Tantra is very deep.
7/25/22 - How to plant light in the heart
It's tricky, planting a seed of sunlight in your heart, but it's an intellectual concept until you actually do it. This is a meditative practice. Start paving roadways through the jungle of body tissue. The first step is to imagine a spark of sunlight in your heart. It is not there until you plant it there. Imagine a spark of light in your heart muscle. Anywhere in the heart muscle. Imagine it like the sun reflecting a sparkle off of a body of water, a lake, pond or puddle. Imagine simply a spark of sunlight in your heart. Then let's imagine the lower abdomen, as an example destination. Most people have problems with their digestion or lower back. Use that as a location towards which to pave a road from the heart. Now, here's the tricky part. I'll talk you through it.
While staying plugged into the spark of sunlight in your heart, slowly expand the sunlight out in the direction of the lower abdomen. Don't leave the spark in your heart, don't move it - EXPAND it. Make it larger. The spark in your heart doesn't move away from the heart, it expands to a larger sphere of sunlight as you move your attention downward in the direction of the lower abdomen. It's like unraveling a rope that is all curled up in a tight ball in the heart. But the light is infinite. There is no end to it. It can expand under conscious direction. The reason it hasn't expanded before now, is because you weren't aware of how to do this process. So now we are learning something. We are expanding our attention on this light in the heart slowly, while staying plugged into the light. We are not moving away from the light, we are expanding it. Do you get the difference? It's an important clue to mastering the light in the heart and sending it to various locations.
This light is energy. Infinite energy. It becomes stagnant energy in a solid body. That's how solid bodies are built. In order to retain a solid, dense structure that remains firm and steady, energy of light is held fixed in place, immovable. Now we are learning a way to expand our consciousness deeper into our bodies. The sunlight in the heart is God consciousness. It is Father God's light and love. When you use your own attention and imagination to create a spark of sunlight in your heart, and practice expanding that light, you are blending your Father God light and Mother God light together. Remember the heart is where abstract intelligence or Father God and intelligence in matter (Mother God) meet and merge together.
Plant your consciousness via your imagination and hold it there in the center of the heart muscle for a few minutes. Imagine it. Imagination is the key. Hold that thought for a second and let it take hold. There are invisible currents of energy flowing all through your body ALL the time, most of us don't know it. They flow automatically to keep our bodies steady and functioning. They are called meridians in English, in Sanskrit they are called nadis. Nadi is singular. Nadis support the physical nerves. We are now entering into the underground forces that support the physical. Nadis are teeny-tiny currents of energy, created and designed by the great God beings who maintain physical forms. As you practice imagining the light in the heart, as you start to work with the light in the heart a few minutes every day, you will start to move light out into the further extremities of your body. Many guided meditations have you visualize light in various parts of your body.
Notice the sense of peace and relaxation that happens when you do this. Light is love, and it feels good when you spend a few minutes holding light on a location. You are laying down pathways. It's like paving a road through the jungle. The first effort requires a big earth-mover to cut down trees in a jungle. So it is difficult the first time doing this. But with continued practice, you begin to find traces of the path taking shape. You seem to know where to go, and how to maneuver the energy. Soon you begin to FEEL the energy. It wants to go there. It wants to correct the places where it has become stuck and stagnant. Doing this again and again is like ploughin over the same route, making it smoother and smoother. It takes going over the rough terrain many times to lay down a road or pathway that has never seen a HUMAN consciousness before. We are the human learning how to be the master of our body. Instead of remaining victimized by outer authorities, we are beginning to take charge of bringing the light into our body.
What benefits come from this? The heart is where abstract intelligence from Father God, creator of all that is, comes into the body and YOU are the intelligence within the form. Mother God is the creator of form life and you are a child of both the Father God and Mother God. You are awakening as a child of both.
It is important to stay plugged into the heart. This is the difficult part. We were taught to be linear thinking. We are either "here" or we are "there". But now we are learning to be in both places at the same time. We remain in the heart and we expand to include the lower abdomen or back muscles, but we can expand to the further periphery of the entire body with practice. We are planting our consciousness into the INTERIOR of our body. We are energy in motion. We used to think we were a solid body, but now we are beginning to realize we are energy moving around inside. It can be confusing, but we adapt. If anything, we human beings are able to adapt if we put our minds to it. That is what meditation is all about.
By going over the same route every day for a few minutes, from the heart to an outer destination like the lower abdomen, and staying all the while plugged into the heart and unraveling and expanding the light from the heart, we are bringing more abstract intelligence into our bodies. We are increasing the light and understanding in many ways, and on many levels. It is subtle process, a deeply subtle and quiet process, and soothing. Very soothing. You are paving roadways with your conscious attention, expanding your attention from the heart while delivering the abstract intelligence from your Father God, from higher planes of intelligence, yet staying plugged into your heart which then pumps the blood out to the rest of the body, delivering wider consciousness. You start to "know" things you didn't know before. Your attention expands. Your sense of wonder expands.
This is a tricky thing to do at first, at least it was for me, but I have persisted and now I am sharing. This will help you to grow your consciousness. It enlivens your body, it feels good, the ego is very limited so this xpands the conscious ego to know more. You are weaving larger consciousness into the smaller, fixed ego and body tissues.
Where to bring the light to? Imagine going down to your lower abdomen. I choose that because, as a hands-on healer I have noticed that many people are stuck in this region. What is known as the second chakra is the sexual chakra, focused in the reproductive organs. Sex is a major issue for people. Overweight begins here because the energy can't get past this belief system which has become a very rigid belief - that sex is this and that and the other thing. It causes issues, problems, stuckness. Move the light into this area of the body and see what benefits arise from it. Light and love are free. Freedom from past mistakes, guilt, shame, depression, and all the rest that goes with it, is what we get when we shine light and love into the area. It smoothes the roughness.
The second chakra fuels both the front soft tissues of the intestines and digestion processes, and also the back nerves and muscles of the back. Many people have lower back issues. As you expand the light in your heart, you expand powers you didn't know you have. Light is perfection. There is perfection flowing already through the body, but many places are frozen solid. It needs to be jiggled loose and released so the light and love can flow more fluidly. Energy is fluid. The perfect you IN FORM is the perfect blend of both Father God , which is abstract light and knowledge, and Mother God, which is abstract light and knowledge imprisoned in matter substance. Together they create a whole unit. You are whole. You are holy.
7/23/22 - Upgrading and downgrading, both at the same time
It's about bringing everything into the heart and living from there. Measuring from the heart and analyzing from the heart. Making choices from the heart. I'm in the middle of a shift of attention to the heart. It's not a superficial shift, it's a consciousness shift. It's a big realization taking place and I'm experiencing alterations of perspective from several different angles, too many to count. The realizations are separate realizations at first, but then they start merging together into an impossible oneness that can't be defined in words. The differences are merging. This takes time to sort out! It's confusing. These differences are flooding in and registering, first on my brain, and then they continue to flow and start merging and blending together. Confusion starts warping into feelings of naturalness. This is keeping me very busy! And at the same time I am attracting changes in my lifestyle. I have to make time and space for these changes too. The heart is certainly a busy place to be anchored into. These new angles of perception into my base of everyday life are keeping me very busy and affecting my practical life of mundane responsibilities. How will I fit it all in?
I received a significant energy treatment from Marcus Blakemore on Thursday, a licensed massage therapist - he has triggered shifts before for me - and the next day I GAVE a significant energy treatment to someone else. This other person I had never met before. He contacted me through this website after reading through it. Because he asked for a treatment and I was guided to give him one, I passed on the gift that was triggered by Marcus the day before. It was then multiplied in me! By me sharing it and not hoarding it, the life giving energy of love continued to flow and increase. I'm clicking into it from a practical standpoint. This is not just theory. I'm proving it to myself. This is why human beings need to have up close, personal body contact with others, wisely, with discretion and intelligence. What has kept us apart is fear. The pandemic filled us with fear but it is an ancient fear, an ancient belief deeply embedded in the human race holding us to be be afraid. Of EVERYTHING!!! Fear has kept us apart, lonely, isolated, sick, depressed, living in lack, in poverty, in confusion and etc.
(I will post Marcus' contact information at the end of this blog.)
These energy treatments are treatments of love and kindness. Not fear. They allow movement of love to pass back and forth. That does not mean sex. The world is sex-addicted. No, this is about open-ended loving compassion and kindness. Energy treatments are love treatments. The light and love in a person CAN be given to another person if they choose to, and if the recipient will allow himself to receive it. It requires trust to be so open. Trust is a big part of a love treatment. It is important in overcoming hidden fears, which come in many forms and styles. I won't take up time and space to spell them out. You don't have to know them. The heart takes care of sorting it out. This is the reason for going into the heart. Love is there. Something wonderful happens when you make it your permanent base of operations. It requires time spent in focusing on the heart. i.e., meditation. Love is free and it's also intelligent.
Ever since kundalini awakened I have been a "hands-on" person but have had to fight my way through the wrong attitudes and false beliefs that I had adopted and held firmly to myself as a participant in the mass consciousness of humanity. The healers of the world are those who help overcome fear-based issues, each in their own style of understanding, by laying hands on people. Also the psychotherapists who do not put hands on but work with the emotional and mental disconnects that cause problems. Ever since kundalini awakened in me in 1976, after the initial adaptation period of several years, I have wanted to hug, hold, touch and communicate this love through physical contact. The most recent shift of clicking into the heart is yet bigger and better than ever before. Our connection to this plane of existence is in the heart. We can prolong our life by anchoring our attention into the heart. But our connection to abstract intelligence (the spirit world) is in the brain. During sleep we drop our connection to this physical world and go to other realms but our body remains alive. How does our body remain alive? Because our heart is still pumping life, blood and vitality to the cells of the body. The brain is a separate mechanism from the heart.
The Father consciousness is abstract intelligence and not in form. The Mother consciousness is consciousness in matter. We are children of the Mother (matter) and also children of the Father (abstract intelligence). We are a child of both the Father and the Mother. Spirit and matter. This is an awesome process of going into the heart and making it our home base. We are then merging the two separate aspects of who we are - Father Intelligence and Mother Matter. As a consciousness all our own, we are the child growing up here. When we are born we are born into physicality, matter. And we start searching for our Father, abstract intelligence. We seek understanding. We want to know more. We have experiences and we grow in wisdom by participating with others around us. We HAVE to participate. In order to live a longer, healthier, happier life with more vitality and hence more excitement and enthusiasm, we have to participate. We have to bring together both the Father intelligence and the Mother intelligence together in the heart. The heart is the physical organ which pumps the life force of both Father Intelligence and Mother Matter, or physical earth vitality. The heart is the mechanical machine that does that pumping. That's the reason for going into the heart and making the heart the base of operations. When we figure this out and start practicing this as a meditational focus every day, we will - you will - experience a growing wonderment and understanding that will thrill you,
I had the kundalini, the Mother Intelligence awaken many years ago and she has taught me much, but the Father Intelligence needs to connect with earth-based reality. This is the big divide. The big split. The big disconnect. Father Intelligence is the soul's higher self and source of consciousness. You come from space, from the abstract, from the ordered universe of harmony and unity. It is important to reconnect with the Father intelligence, the great Father. But as long as you are a child of earth, you remain clinging to earth life and fear of being separated. This fear will disappear once we reconnect with the Father intelligence. You are the child of both. We are all children of both Father and Mother. As you bring this understanding together into your own brain cells, your own physical body and reality, you will empower yourself beyond your imagination. You are unique. You are the master of your life. You are the one who is waking up to yourself, your realization of who you are. When you read words that strike a cord, any words, anywhere, and they ping back and forth and click in, you are bring more of yourself into focus on the physical plane of reality. This is a prolonging of a healthy, happy life.
Many, many, many individuals have done this before you and I came along. Many. We all come here, are born here, to become realized. We connect the parts, little by little, life by life. We have lived many lives. The parts within ourselves and the parts that are our brothers, sisters, mothers, fathers, cousins, and extended family. And because we have lived many lives in past embodiments, most people we call our friends and associates, were at one time part of our extended family. We are reconnecting. On a universal scale we are all one. On the human scale, we are all separate individuals but we are waking up to realizing the oneness. Can we have both? Yes! That's the whole point. We CAN have both. We are meant to be both human and divine. As we reconnect and balance this understanding by staying centered in the heart, we have more say over how long we will live in a physical body, or when we should go and take a rest from physical life. There is no end, there is no beginning. We are living the One life. And we could live here in a body a very long time. Who is to say? We are the consciousness living here, so we are the only one who can turn our attention to the heart muscle and receive the cosmic intelligence of knowing more than the human knows. The heart continues to pump earth life and heaven life into every molecule and cell. It is a turning point in time to start bringing attention to your heart and practice breathing into it, bringing the flame of eternal life into the physical organisms. This will begin the process of a rejuvenating the body and bringing peace to the planet. Making the heart your home base of choice and function is an exciting turn of focus.
Marcus' contact info. I have written about him previously HERE, but it was through my ow personal understanding that I wrote. My awareness has expanded since then. It is through the storyteller's eyes that events in history turn and change. If you feel prompted to contact him, feel free to do so. He definitely has hands of light. He is connected to forces beyond me.
Marcus Blakemore, LMT
Natural Transitions
3811 Airport No., Suite 202A
Naples, FL 34102
email; brit3399@yandex.com
phone: 239-200-9381
7/22/22 - What the universal law says about money
A long-time friend may be coming to Naples and asked me how much do I charge for a massage? I told him: "It's by free-will donation. I can't charge money because I'm not licensed. I operate on the universal law of giving something of equal value in exchange. It's up to the person what to offer. It could be a chicken!" He said he would try to dredge up a chicken.
To put this into a more logical perspective, I wrote back to him the following and would like to share this communication. I believe that this is of paramount importance to all who are reasonable people seeking solutions to pain, disease, physical, mental or psychological problems. This is what I wrote to my friend:
"If you are within driving distance to come and get a massage, there will be no cost to you. I would give you one for free. We have been reciprocating with each other all this while. We have been helping each other by brainstorming and sound boarding. Yesterday, I went to have a massage with a male friend, who is a licensed massage therapist. He's 66 years old, married and is a man of great love. He gives his wife a massage every day. He would give me free massages but I have to insist he take payment, or I would stop going to him. There is a quid-pro-quo. It's cosmic universal law to give equal value. The Masters operate on this law too, and it's very precise. I have read a lot about it. They are prohibited from interfering with humanity because they can see the state of the person's energy field. They know when they can give help and when they can't because the energy would be misused. Their energy is powerful energy. I have felt it. When I'm ready to receive, there's no holding back. They operate on universal law. They cannot withhold help when they are asked, as long as it is in good cause. They can see the balanced state of the person, it's all connected, like one pot of stew, one sea of energy. Too much too soon is dangerous and throws everything out of kilter, so they can give only when it will HELP and not hurt the whole. They can see, where we cannot see. We use energy wrongly because of our own past history and mistakes. That's why they nudge a little here, and a little there, to get us to understand."
Quid-pro-quo is Latin meaning "something for something".
7/18/22 - Bringing the 4 lower bodies into alignment
Humanity is fragmented into many pieces. I asked the Master Djwhal Khul to please explain this and he said, "You are not whole. You are learning to re-connect your four lower bodies - your physical, emotional, mental and spiritual or higher mind. You have been learning about integration and you have been practicing in your meditation room. Now you are getting the idea this morning. A new understanding is dawning. The others that you need are the fragments of yourself. You are learning how to expand your awareness to the higher plane of the emotions and from there to step up to the still higher plane of thought, the mental plane. And from there to the yet higher plane of higher mind. You are visualizing the expansion of your body to these higher planes. You are expanding your awareness to higher planes beyond the physical. You are waking yourself up on the higher plane of emotion and mental and spiritual and higher.
As you consciously stepped out of your limited perception of being physical, and as you visualized yourself larger than physical, superimposed over your physical as you have been practicing, and then breathing consciously, allowing your breath to penetrate your larger self on the emotional and the next larger mental and the next larger spiritual and the next - as you breathed in and out of each plane while visualizing, you awakened and aligned these fragments of yourself with your physical. Many people are today working this process to bring their four lower bodies, anchored in the four lower chakras, into balance and alignment with the limited concrete physical body consciousness. This is what I meant by “you can’t do it alone.”
Picture a line of people arriving to your house, each bearing gifts but they are stopped at the front door because you do not open the door or look out the window. You do not know the people are there with gifts for you, gifts that would make your life easier and more pleasant, more agreeable. Many riches await you when you stop trying to live your life as if you were all alone with no help. You have a network of help and helpers all around you but you do not see them. You have been living in a closet in the 3D world. You were kept from your own holy self and the powers of your full potential by the mass consciousness which is a fuzzy dark cloud which obscures your own light. This opening and piercing of the veils between your bodies which kept you locked as a prisoner in the physical material world is being broken as you practice awakening, enlarging, breathing, and calling upon your emotional, mental and spiritual self through the morning exercises. You are not alone because you have a wholeness that is connected to God and through that wholeness you are connected to all.
You have been asking for guidance on Tantra. This is Tantra. This is awakening while in your physical body to the other planes of consciousness that you have access to but you have been kept locked away from. Tantra means a net or a web that connects all as one that has always existed. You were never alone in a separate body, but you were locked out and closed down from knowing this truth. Now you and others are piercing the veils. It is a conscious realization that connects you. The web of life is composed of conscious thought. Conscious awareness. Consciousness connects all that is. God enfolds all his creation alike in his arms and heart and mind. All is contained within the bosom of God. When you don’t know this, it is like being locked inside your closet and not opening the door to the people outside trying to reach you and give you the gifts, their hugs, their laughter and their joyous celebrations, and to invite you to party with them.
Practice your awakening exercises every morning. When you do this, as you consciously awaken to your higher self and invite integration of your other dimensional you’s, mind, feelings, principles and values, you nourish and refresh your physical body. It is your physical body that grows old and tired because it is not being rejuvenated by spirit. When you enter 3D you enter a “time zone”. There is a beginning and an end locked in time. When you are born in 3D you agree to be closed off from the love and light of the Creator and all of the higher dimensions. You came to learn about darkness and what happens when you are without the light and love.
As you remember how to pierce the darkness through the process of applying love and light, you can nourish the failing body and the physical cells will open and drink the divine nectar. Your body fills up, plumps up with life and your DNA expands as does your consciousness. This is how you align yourself with your own perfection, the Christ, known also as the Adam Kadmon, the divine perfect human being, designed as the original role model of each human being from the heart-mind of God.
7/15/22 - Transitioning or becoming more real?
There are changes taking place today in my mind, body, sensations and perceptions. I thought perhaps I would be detaching soon and leaving this body. I have had awarenesses like, "Maybe I should write my goodbye letter to family, just in case." However, it passes. I wonder if others have these experiences too? I would love to sit and chat with someone of a similar mystical nature. We could soar into the blue sky and imagine all sorts of things together. If you like this idea, contact me. Write to me. These are beautiful GOOD thoughts, not the result of illness or disease. I am strong and healthy and am enjoying the peace of a stable lifestyle, with a husband who is also resurrecting and vitalizing. Morning discipline practices keep me strong and in love with life. I spontaneously look through previous journal entries from the past, and some things just pop up and capture my attention, like the following, which was written a good 39 years ago, dated 1983. They are solid reminders where I come from and that my path is changing and becoming more physical. Instead of leaving my body I feel as if I'm being restructured and revitalized, and I want company and community like myself.
(Journaled 3/30/83) "Praise of the Light and of goodness sweeps through my consciousness more often these days. When it comes, it is accompanied by a great joy. Sometimes with tears. I feel a destiny ahead of me, a purpose which is coming closer. I am less concerned now, about fulfilling it. I need not worry. Today I saw, just for a small span of time, what it is like to incarnate in a physical body with its aches and pains and hardships and pleasures, in relation to the whole. It was as if for a moment my focus on this world had lifted and I could see across a sea of - what? - of awareness perhaps. Definitely living. And out of this sea a coagulation. A vortex of desire which results in an eruption into the physical world.
"Strange, I saw this as I was driving down the back road into Tampa to the printers. I had just done my movements in the sun of which I will speak in a moment, for I am again astounded by that etheric current that moves in me. And as I drove, I seemed to pass in and out of that wide state of mind, like passing in and out of the water when I swim, the water being murky and the air being clear. This world being murky, the other being clear. Odd and difficult to describe. And as I drove down Fowler toward Kinko’s, after turning from Morris Bridge Road, I came through the more commercial district after the contrast of the beautiful tree-lined back road from Zephyrhills and, again, I passed through the bubble of time as it were, right in front of a bank. The bank was there, the buildings and the people were there and yet it was small and insignificant, reduced to a point in space, while I was everywhere, seeing it all, the wonder of an eternity behind us, alive, real - oh, so real! Crystal clear.
"I am so impressed with the movements. What is this lovely thing in me? There are no words to describe it. For someone reading these words I ask forgiveness for it may seem boring to re-read the same sentences of awe, over and over. But if it appear boring it is only further proof that that which exists in this world - namely words and paper and objects and even thoughts - are transient and old. Crusts on the surface of an eternally fresh and new and innocent aliveness like a bubbling spring of pure water which can never ever become ‘old”. There is no way for it to become stagnant for it is ever moving. We are operating out of hardened forms that have no freedom of movement, while there is a flowing in and out of these forms all the time at a higher faster rate of speed. So fast that we cannot see. It is invisible.
"I have been trying to perform my “exercises”. I’ve even written them up on paper to follow like a formula. I am pleased with myself when I follow them, yet I cannot help but feel something is wrong. For when I do these “exercises” on paper I am dead, my body heavy. But I felt that I was “disciplining” myself and I have been forcing myself. Today I placed my mat under the tall pine and laid my paper beside me. I had no music, no tape recorder. Only my stool to sit upon and I knelt toward the sun. It was actually hot today - wonderfully hot - and I closed my eyes and lifted my arms to the sun, or rather my arms raised of their own accord and I allowed myself to go with the flow of that ever present whisper to the gods in me.
"I have a new mantra which evolved of its own: the Lord’s prayer. Except that I have substituted some words and I am surprised at the revelations that that prayer from 2,000 years ago gave to me. I see through the words into a living pool of wonder and I take it upon myself. Devotion and awe and a love for life and the livingness in me is all there is. I am so much of an instrument of this Life. And I stood after awhile and twisted and turned and stood first on one leg and then another, and I gave myself to the physical postures of the wind in me and finally - something I never do when I structure my exercises - the wind laid me down and there was a pressure on the top of my head and I felt as if I were blended, my spirit with my body intertwined so that I was all one thing, one expression and I lay there and the sun became a part of me and I became apart of the mat and the grass and the earth and I was whole, all together.
"All of this took much shorter time - perhaps 45 minutes, whereas I spend a whole two hours when I structure my exercises. And even when I spend two hours I do not end up with the wonderful feelings of freshness, newness, aliveness, as if life is worth living. I cannot help but think that ANYTHING that requires a forced discipline is wrong. The Life in me wants to move on its own. There is another mind in me and it wants to be free.
"As I rode down the back road to Tampa, I saw the trees and nature so close to me, overshadowing me, and I was awed by them and in love with them - and on other occasions I never saw, never felt that awe. In fact, I am always carrying around my tape recorder to listen to someone else’s words. Today, someone else’s words would have corrupted the purity of my peace. But I know - at least I knew for a short while - what it is like, the moving in and out of physical life. This physical life is but a brief sojourn, like a trip to the store. Our existence is not in the store, although we meet friends and talk to people there, but our existence is back home and we always return back home when our task is finished at the store. It is that insignificant - this life. Oh, but make the most of it! It must be lived with great care. I know that it will be over soon and I will be free once more to go back home.
"Like clouds rolling around in the skies above, our lives roll around in time and space, outside of infinity where they are anchored. Desire becomes the key ingredient to bringing us into physical form, into this world. Desire. The overcoming of desire is the only way to overcome this world. My desire to create a meditation center has been overcome. My desire to perfect Bob’s Factor Zero commodity program has been overcome. My desire to create meditation tapes is in the process of being purged from me. The urge flits in and out these days. And in the open spaces I see that it is unimportant. But then again, the urge comes on me and I feel the desire. But I will overcome this desire too, and I will soon be free.
"I fear my next trip to Costa Rica - and that fear must be overcome. I fear it because I feel a vibration there that I cannot handle. It is a psychic thing that goes into me and causes me to feel close to insanity, as though my grip on my sanity is suddenly gone. It is very strange. But on the other hand, the other side of that same coin which causes me to fear, I know I have to go again. That I am born of that country, the life force is fed to me from there, and I must go again. When Bob’s consulship comes through which I have no doubt now that it will, he wants me to go. But I have carefully prepared Jim to let me stay at his apartment. He is preparing it for me and when we are there Bob will go to the office and I will not. I wonder what will happen there? There is concern, but with every concern there is the chance for great things to happen.
"Costa Rica is still in the grip of psychic battle - the light and the darkness - there are extraordinary forces coming together in May during the Duck conference. The Wesak festival will take place at the same time, when Buddha’s thoughts will come through, and the head of the Theosophical Society is visiting. Again, how strange! Wonderful and strange! But I must let go of all thought, all attempts to control. Living forces are moving through me that are greater than me."
7/14/22 - More on the seven chakras
Recognize that you ARE the power within the chakra. You ARE the love within the chakra. You ARE the intelligence within the chakra. You ARE purity within the chakra. This is YOU that you are recognizing. No one else can give this to you. You are ONLY that light, ONLY that love, ONLY that peace, ONLY that intelligence. ONLY that purity. These are the chakras. The truth is being revealed to you. Most people see only colored wheels on charts and posters, but they are more. They are signposts to look deeper. They are lights flashing to you from YOU, from YOU on the God plane, the BIG You.The BIG You is calling you home. The limited you that has been covered over with beliefs that are not true, not love, not pure, not power, not intelligent, not peaceful, not free. So now the BIG You is calling you home to the unlimited space from which you originally came. No one else can give this to you. No one else has value for you. You alone contain the ultimate value.
Your light body, known as the Christ body, the crystal body, looks like a pure sparkling diamond that shines as if the sun’s rays are shining through it but it is actually the source of the light itself. The facets are cut and polished to an exquisite and immaculate precision to reflect the purist of the pure of the Godhead. You look like this after having come through the seven schools. Before going through the seven schools you are pure brilliant white light without the colors. The colors are the qualities or attributes that you absorbed by going through the seven universities while preparing for physical sentient life. It is required before embodying in a human vessel.
The problem that humans have is when you are conceived, you are created out of your parents imperfect DNA, so even though you are brilliant and pure, you fit inside an imperfect embryo, an infant solid body. As a baby, at first you are still in contact with the purity that you arrived in as a light body, but as you are held by imperfect humans and every day you receive their energies and hear their words and are admonished by your parents and siblings and others, your attention is turned away from the brilliance and beauty of who you are and the naturalness of your home and where you came from.
Now you are becoming human and being imprinted with false stories, ugly stories that don’t seem right to you. But you adhere to what is being told you must do and not do. The error comes from your parents’ DNA but YOU are still perfect underneath the layers of imperfections being told to you, and also you carry forward patterns from your own previous lives - erroneous patterns that were habit when you died and therefore carried over to your next life and the next life and next and the next. These error patterns can be eradicated through various disciplines that are being taught today. It is important to take up the study of clearing your subconscious.
Consider that feelings of loss and loneliness need to be re-interpreted, re-defined and re-described. Consider detachment instead of loss. Consider yourself to be all one instead of alone. All one with all that is.
7/13/22 - On sharing ancient body wisdom
Part dream, part vision. As I came to semi-consciousness I saw myself as a wheel rising upward and pulling the rest of the group upward. I was a wheel and all the people in the group were spokes connected to the rim of the wheel. Each person was connected to me at the hub and also to the rim of the wheel and I was pulling the whole wheel up and it took great balance, for each person was a spoke and he or she was sloping downward, connected to the heavier outer rim. Each spoke was trying to connect to me who was higher, more buoyant at the hub of the wheel above them. There was great balance, great energy at work here, great team effort. Then I went back to sleep and had a dream.
We were gathering for an advisory committee meeting and I asked everyone to form a circle and I asked them first to hold hands and then to, still holding hands, move closer together in the center, as if to form a hugging circle as best they could considering their numbers, because I wanted their bodies to merge and connect. I did not want their mental energies, I wanted their body energies. I was still talking to them as I awoke so I could remember my words.
"Your minds are the filters, filtering out what society says is not appropriate. Your minds censor what your bodies are feeling. Your minds are opinionated and restricted, but your bodies are full of a vaster, far superior intelligence. Your body cells know precisely what to do and they are fed with a magnificent energy, a powerful knowledgeable healing energy that is a oneness energy. But your minds filter out this energy because society says it is not acceptable. Since it is the mind’s job to interface with society and make sure everything is done according to society and not upset the apple cart, your minds are continually censoring, rejecting, resisting these powerful knowings that are inherent in the body. But what I want from you is your body intelligence, your gut intelligence, your intuitive reasoning, the talent that you have built over a lifetime and many lifetimes of experience. Your body cells carry this ancient wisdom in them. You each have a unique history and superb talents to give to Anakosha. Beautiful extraordinary knowledge, long histories of successes and failures and volumes have been written into your body cells.
"You know SO much, but you are continually filtering out this knowledge. But THAT is what you need to give - all that you are. Everything that is in you. I want you to express and I want you to pass this on to those coming behind you. Each human being is so full of energy and talents and this energy and talent is so wasted in a structured society when it is held back. But THAT is what I want from you on this advisory committee and I think partying after a committee meeting is very appropriate, to share our body intuitions. They are genuine. They are not masked. Only the mind masks those feelings. I don’t want just your regular corporate mask with your censored beliefs and opinions. I want what you REALLY know inside. And as I was talking I felt this to the bone. I felt this through and through to the depths and beyond. I was totally immersed in this knowledge that THIS is where we are headed. THIS is the body wisdom that people must share with one another. THIS is what is going to save the planet."
7/11/22 - Applying love to everyday situations
Continuing yesterday's blog on the seven rays and seven chakras. Before we as innocent spirit sparks were permitted to incarnate in a solid body, we had to attend universal school to learn how to use the seven rays. There are seven schools in the universe's university campus, each one specializes in one of the seven attributes, called "rays". The seven rays or attributes are. starting with the first school: Power, then Love, then Intelligence, then Purity, then Truth, then Peace, then Freedom.
There is more to these seven lights or attributes than the word just mentioned. The first school we attended was the school on power. Everyone who ever embodied in a solid body had to attend these schools. We learned about Power from great beings of wisdom. They taught us will power, strength, courage, determination, tenacity, and the many off-shoots and cousins of those words. There are tones within tones in this particular attribute, and understandings within understandings that we absorbed as we dwelt among the great teachers within this university. We spent all of our time there living, studying, learning and applying power - the power that is contained within Father Light and Mother Love - to the countless number of situations that we would find ourselves in when we embodied on Earth. When we felt we had absorbed as much as we could from this school, we were then guided to the second school, to come under the tutelage of the great teachers there. This school is where we learned how to apply Love to human situations, for alongside Power there must be Love in equal proportion.
These attributes are the very same attributes that exist within our God parents, Father Light and Mother Love. But they do not have a form, so to speak, because love and light IS Father/Mother God from out of which we were created as conscious beings with the intention that we would exist separately and utilize free choice to create, since we are of the same attributes as our God parents. We have all the potential of Father Light and Mother Love. We then embody in a solid form to now put our training to the test.
We are exploring the world of solid form and testing - exploring - our innate potential, practicing using it. We had to go to school to understand the principles of power first, then love, then intelligence, just as human kids have to go to school to learn reading, writing and math skills.
When we young spirit sparks started out, we came under the tutelage of great beings of light, older brothers and sisters who have lived and learned far longer than we have. They were our teachers, guides and loving mentors. They made sure we were well prepared if we intended to venture further away from the kindly nest of our divine parents. By attending the seven schools we were allowed to stay for as long as we wanted, until we felt we had had enough. The first school we attended was for will power. After we absorbed as much Power from our mentors, we then spent time in the school of Love. There we learned the tones, shapes, sounds, feelings, textures and capacities of love, and the off-shoots of love, the surrounding environment of love, what makes love and what detracts from love, how to apply it to not-loving situations.
Various colors of love are personal love, sister love, brother love, family love, impersonal love, unconditional love, father love, mother love, spiritual love, reverence, adoration, worship, nirvanic love, ecstasy love, love for Father God, Love for Mother God, kindness, heroism, compassion, empathy. Love is a formless fabric of many colors constantly changing in intensity and density. These vibrations feel different according to the person who is calling them into play. When we have absorbed as much love as we can, the great beings who are our teachers give us more. And we learn deeper aspects of love, and still more beyond those aspects. There is no end to what we can absorb about love, and so we come to a place where we are saturated and can hold no more. We say to our mentors, “I have learned enough!” And the great teachers who know us better than we know ourself, guide us to the third school - that of Intelligence.
How does one apply love, for example, to situations that are uncomfortable? The biggest challenge in human life is that we try to apply it to other people, before we call it forth within ourselves. For example, a friend asks me to help him by “sending" love and light. Instead of sending love and light to him, I need to call it up into my own consciousness. I need to feel it before I can send it. If I try to send it before I feel it, I will be sending nothing to him and in my limited efforts I will deplete myself. After all, I am only human. I am not a god. But I can call upon the God qualities in me. That is what is missing in the human educational system. As we learn some techniques we can call forth some amazing results, such as the Master Yeshua accompllished and other great avatars. Thus it is important to not only learn techniques here on Earth, but to practice them, and study them and apply them and create a system for oneself, to call forth the specific quality desired, be it power, love, intelligence, purity, truth, peace or liberation. Then when my friend asks me to send love and light to him, or help him in some other manner, I am fully prepared with a reserve of my own, with understanding to send to him and to help him. I then know the correct technique because I call it forth in myself.
After we have saturated ourself with the quality of Love, we are guided by our teachers to the third school, which is Intelligence. Young spirit sparks have to learn how to USE intelligence. There is a code of etiquette we have to absorb. We listen and learn from great white light beings and absorb directly from them, living and studying with them, we learn what enlightened intelligence is. We soak it into our entire being. It’s not brain learning. We live inside intelligence and learn from mentors until we have saturated ourself and there is no more capacity in us for intelligence. We are fish swimming in a sea of enlightened intelligence. This is how we are implanted with the seven God rays of Father Light and Mother Love. We are the young spirit spark ready to go out and test our wings in solid bodies called human. We are "star seeds" fully prepared. We have the seven qualities within us to meet the challenges of Earth life. We have the equipment to draw on inner resources - power, intelligence, love, purity, truth, peace and freedom.
Unfortunately, we don’t remember any of this. Our earth parents did not teach us, nor our school teachers or college professors. Once in solid body we learned how it's done HERE. We learned the rules and limits. Thus far and no further. We had to conform to those rules in order to survive. Those rules hedged us in and bound us down. But we are star seeds. We have lived on many planets and planes of existence, so we know the scenario of dark planets. We came to Earth knowing ahead of time that it would be like this, but we forgot. We are now coming into remembrance. We are getting ready now, awakening to this inner knowledge. We are ready to start applying our innate wisdom, love and power to human situations.
We are wise beyond what we seem to be, and more intelligent and more patient and more kind, because we have been prepared to break the chains that have bound us. It is time to awaken our hidden inner strengths that were buried over by external rules of external authority. We have not brought them out yet but we feeling the quickening. We are feeling the agitation but we are hesitant. This requires discernment, intelligence, forethought and enlightenment. Since light is information, when we give out light-encoded information we must learn to give it in a humble way instead of arrogant or demanding, otherwise it will be rejected. Nobody likes a puffed-up know-it-all. It is time to be truthful in a forgiving and compassionate way for there is a lot of power held locked up within the warm, living tissues of a human being with an awakened heart and soul.
The seven chakras are the seven rays of the Godhead closed for decades, now beginning to awaken. As we start applying our inner knowledge, courageously and with wisdom to external situations, the chakras will open more. It must be done with discretion, kindness and understanding. Giving light-encoded information requires wisdom and soul guidance. You wouldn’t teach a child, for example, how to work with dangerous chemicals until the child had been trained to handle it. So it is that we must apply our powers gently and with great care.
7/10/22 - The seven rays and seven chakras
I woke up today being aware of the chakras, tuning into them in a fresh new way. I lay there trying to solidify the awareness and then began writing.
The seven chakras are portals to seven distinct qualities that human beings need to bring peace, beauty, love and balance to their lives. Chakras are ethereal in nature. You won’t find them with scanning equipment because they exist on higher planes. If you don’t believe in higher planes, it doesn’t matter. Whether you believe or not doesn’t diminish the gifts of spirit when you do certain techniques. In other words, there is a science to it - a spiritual science - that affects the physical body in which we move..
These are mystery school teachings. As recent as 100 years ago these teachings were prohibited from being given to the general population. The church confiscated these teachings eons ago to prevent the non-elite (commoner) from growing in personal power. Knowledge of the higher dimensions, the chakras and the spiritual science that goes along with it, provides balance. The number seven refers to the seven qualities we need in our life, which is much greater and broader than the words shown here. In fact, the seven qualities are the seven tones we have in music, and the seven basic colors. The number seven are the number of dimensions we can access as human beings, and the number of tones and the number of vibrations. In other words, we can scale a ladder with our consciousness while remaining human, to see clearly through each one of these windows, and each one of these windows gives us a new perspective on our life.
Hands-on healing treatments, done in a reverent and silent way of benediction, are a most beautiful way of help each other to access these dimensions. We don’t get very far just sitting and talking about it, or having sex. There is more to the human body that is being overlooked and missed out on. We can access hidden knowledge locked within the tissue, by becoming aware of the chakras, the ethrric meridians and the aura, and by participating in the higher quality energy of intention, as we soothe, heal and love one another on the massage table. This is a different kind of therapy. It is love therapy.
The qualities that come through the seven chakras feel intimate and comfortable. When the chakra is open you feel innocent, whole, sweet, alive, natural, good and where you belong. It immediately soothes and corrects any problems in the body, mind or emotions. It is a natural energy what comes from the chakra when it opens. It feels very soothing. While these chakra energies are much more than the words I am expressing here, they actually give the following qualities. They feel and vibrate like:
(1) Stability - a peaceful solid grounded connection with physical Earth.
(2) Discernment - alertness, wisdom and illumined intelligence.
(3) Love - gratitude, adoration and sacred appreciation
(4) Purity - clean and sparkly fresh in body, mind and feeling
(5) Truth - nothing vibrates like truth!
(6) Peace - comfort, warmth and closeness
(7) Liberation – freedom
These are energies that feel good when they are flowing, and it is possible to cultivate them by simply being aware of them. There is nothing to “do”. Being aware is the key to opening the chakras.
Chakras are like windows that open on the etheric level to pour incoming blessings into the imperfect human level. These blessings come from the higher self. What is called the seven rays are actually seven facets of yourself. When all seven facets of yourself are activated and included in your life and expression, you are whole and can ascend into your I AM Presence - your individual God Creator Self. These seven rays are vibrations. When you touch into them and resonate with them you feel wonderful. In our humanity we struggle because we haven’t been taught about resonating with truth or purity of ourself. We don’t have an information base to work with. We must become more substantially informed.
The mystery schools taught that the seven rays are as follows: First ray (blue) is stability. Second ray (gold) discernment. Third ray (pink) is love. Fourth ray (white) is purity. Fifth ray (green) is truth. Sixth ray (ruby with gold flecks) is peace. Seventh ray (violet) is freedom. These seven qualities are colors and tones as well as vibrations. They are not human qualities. We can’t create them ourselves. Only God can give them to you through his representatives because we live in imperfect solid bodies made from left-over solid material from others. But we are commissioned to work on it and bring more of these qualities into our daily lives. That’s the purpose for being here in a body – to improve the quality of solid bodies. We have the qualities embedded in our hearts and souls, but not in our physical brains or limited minds. They are already here and present and accessible to us, if we only knew about them.
As we point our inner eye in their direction, through the quet hours of meditation and lifting our sight to these guiding lights, we can enlarge upon them in our lives. We can bring these higher principles and ethics into our daily actions. Our life will be much more enjoyable if we do this. We can expand our life and relationships and bring it alive by applying these qualities to whatever we are doing. We can draw on them, like an eternal well whose water never runs out. Or we can ignore it and not draw on it at all. We draw on it when we put that quality into action. It helps to do certain visualization and prayer techniques. Our wholeness (holiness) is already in us. It is built into our physical/etheric hearts. The seven rays are already present in our physical/etheric heart, but when we don’t apply these qualities, they are merely a potential, like a seed carries a potential of a full-grown tree but it is not the tree. When we don’t apply these qualities they remain undeveloped, like a beautiful candle sitting on the shelf unlit and unused. Or like a baby that never learns to walk. There is potential but it is not giving forth the fire it was created to give. Like a beautiful car in the show room that is never used for the purpose it was built. Or muscles never used which atrophy in a human body. Water which sits still and unmoving loses its luster when it is not flowing.
It is in movement and making physical application of these seven qualities that makes us feel whole and alive. When we apply just one of these seven qualities we feel more energized. More clear. More stimulated. More creative. More excited. You feel it in ways that nothing else can make you feel. For example, truth. Truth is more than not telling a lie. It starts with not holding back what you know to be the truth. We tend to stop covering up the truth when it goes against the grain of some traditional belief. Suddenly if you speak the truth out loud, it changes things. People notice and start thinking about it. You are living the truth then, and suddenly you are unfolding amazing things. They starts happening when you stop covering up or hiding the truth. This is applying one of the seven rays.
Then the golden ray of discernment comes into play. Do you tell ALL truths that you know? No. We must use the ray of wisdom and discernment. There is a time and place for everything. All seven rays work together. These seven qualities are inherent and co-exist within the physical/etheric heart. They are what keeps us alive. We have toned it down to fit the imperfect human condition, to please everyone. We have lessen these God-given qualities that are embedded with us. Is it any wonder that we find life to be difficult and imperfect? We diminish life and cover it up entirely with our human pretenses, holding back our purity, our grace, our knowledge, our royal God-selves. We have made ourselves believe that we are lesser by expounding the lesser qualities. And yet we are this powerful amazing and magnificent being. We are geniuses in disguise because it takes a human genius to create such falsehoods, such low vibrations and low self-esteem. What is the purpose of chakras? As I do my daily practices in silence and focus on stillness while doing them, I am awakening them and they speak to me.
7/9/22 - Technology is negative, we must balance it with grace
DREAM: I was receiving instruction/lesson while watching the pool vacuum getting stuck in the ladder. Long dream, long instruction. I finally came to consciousness hearing “Technology is negative. We MUST balance it with grace." The long drawn-out dream was teaching me through the pool vac! The vac is getting stuck inbetween the ladder. The energy of the vac is spitting out senselessly, aimlessly, as if it were short-circuited. I see the energy sparking and going nowhere. Technology is negative energy. We must balance it and calm it and smooth it to make it work more gently, with grace, forgiveness, happiness, gratitude, thanking it, making it FEEL better." I went back to sleep and woke again with the same thoughts. This time I wrote it down. "Technology is negative and we must balance it with grace or the society will go down hill. Thus the dark stories of artificial Intelligence taking over. Why? How? I ask and go back to sleep. The dream goes on and I wake and write more which turns into a lengthy piece.
"Because life is ALL created by God. Light is a living consciousness. Dark is not bad as long as it has some light in it to keep it alive. Light is conscious of Good/God. Harmony. There are precise laws of Good/God which keeps the planets, suns and galaxies orbiting in order around greater central suns and galaxies. Dark has a purpose. Darkness is lack of light and provides a heaviness. Darkness creates mass and gravity and heaviness. It provides form for physicality. Is there a science of darkness? Technology is another story. Technology can be taught to copy consciousness but it can’t be taught good/God or Light. Light is a living force, a conscious living force. It is God. Technology is an artificial copier. It is not innately good/God, nor is it living. Therefore it can become evil, it can become a highly advanced and intelligent evil. It will not last long, however. Maybe for a time, but without the impulse to align with Good/God, it will eventually destroy itself. Good is immortal and is growing ever bigger.
"In comparison, mankind - and all of nature - is on a continually evolving path of consciousness aligning with Good/God. The soul learns what is good and not good through its feelings while experiencing life in form. It has to be in form because that’s where dark is. There is no dark in the heavenly regions of light. What does not feel good, the soul learns to discard after awhile. Technology does not have life or feelings in its cells and therefore does not have the living Good/God to compare itself against. Soul is alive and immortal. It will live forever unless it turns toward darkness and give up its light if it refuses over a long time to align with Good/God/Light. It is possible to lose one’s life that way, but those are relatively few. Light is winning throughout the universes. Ascension is the aligning with Good/God through our feeling nature.
"There is intense focus on Ascension in this time since the ‘60‘s, ‘70’s, ‘80’s, because the solar system and galaxy is speeding up and we are part of the system. It’s happening without our choosing. But aside from being automatic, we must choose by our free will to align with our feelings of good, and reject what makes us feel bad. We are ascending up through layers of dim light to brighter light and brighter realities which is increasing our “feel good” realities, more joy, more delight, more clarity, more togetherness, more bliss, more understanding, more ecstasy. The closer to the ultimate source or supreme peak we go in our self consciousness of feeling good, the closer to Good/God or Allah or Source we come. And all our adventures as a separate being are not lost, are not in vain because we retain the knowledge and learn from it.
"We are unique, yet we are in oneness with everyone else, the all that is. We are not just a CHILD of God, we grow up to become a God ourselves, become a part of the Godhead, which is called the Hierarchy. After learning what is not God in us, and after getting rid of everything that is NOT God which we discovered through feeling and personal experience, what is left over is God, the greater good. Ecstasy, Nirvana, Consciousness. There is nothing left of unconsciousness. We don’t lose ourselves. We become more ourselves as God."
7/7/22 - The body is the mother
The mother is the body. The father is the abstract intelligence. Mother is the form creation. The father enters the body [there is a feeling of penetration, entering into] to produce the offspring. The human being is both the father and the mother, the abstract intelligence and the form body creation. When the father’s abstract intelligence enters the flesh, he becomes the life force. He engages with the warm loving mother who is embedded into the form at the tailbone. The father is abstract intelligence, he does not feel emotion until he meets the mother and flows into and through the body. When he joins with the flesh of the mother he himself becomes the warm blood, tissue, organs and nerves. He becomes the emotion as he flows through arteries, capillaries and glands. Father joins the mother and becomes the tissue. Father and Mother are one. They are not separate. Father God can only feel personal by flowing through substance. Human flesh is substance. Father and mother God are one being in two aspects: abstract intelligence and emotional feeling.
However, there is a blockage. We are the offspring, the child of the father and the mother, abstract intelligence and emotional feeling. We have not recognized who we really are. We are the offspring. Only now am I waking up to this realization. We are both Father God and Mother God and we are now discovering ourselves as one and the same. We are the creator and we are the created. We are both of them, both the father and the mother. We are delighting in this new sensation of abstract divinity in flesh and blood. It is blissful. It is close to being rapture. The fun of discovery is when abstract intelligence flows freely through the body of flesh and blood without obstruction, with reverence, freely. But there is a blockage.
The body is created by the mother, the holy spirit, and she is hidden in the tailbone. She is the one who gives the vitality to the body. She is held locked inside the substance of the etheric body at the tailbone. She looks like a crystal ball wrapped around by roots, formed by the etheric nerves. She is referred to as the root chakra, the first chakra. She is also known as the kundalini or "kanda" as it was given to me, which means "beloved". The holy mother is imprisoned there at the tailbone dripping her life force up the spine, according to the measure of the child. She is waiting for the child to release more of her vitalility. She is waiting to be recognized and appreciated and honored. She is here in service to the child, to give him direction, hoping for the day he will join with her and love unconditionally. Then she will quicken and expand upward, up the etheric tube surrounding the physical spine. She, the mother, is released as the child lives a life of appreciation and love in service to betterment and the good of the whole. She is released little by little. Slowly she travels up the spine to meet her other half who is waiting for her to finish teaching her child the standards of the father. It is the child who brings the father and the mother together so they are one within himself. The child's destiny is to join his father and his mother, his male and his female so they are one love, one river of life, one river of vitality. Abstract intelligence and emotional feeling joined as one. Then the body is thrilled and enters ecstasy. The mother and father join and expand as one river of life up and down the etheric column, inside the body, and the child becomes a living god. A living river of life in human form.
Father God waits in space beyond form, beyond human, beyond nature, beyond time, beyond all conditions. When the holy mother is quickened through a life lived in love and gratitude, in service to the greater good and the perfection of the whole, she expands upward from her nest at the base of the spine. She doesn’t leave the nest. She expands. She expands like a holy glow through the dense city created by the child in his wanderings and explorings. As she expands upward she obliterates all that is not true and good, making it disappear. As she expands she warms the flesh and blood around her, she is divine and holy. She feels her way up through man's creations, the false and the impure, and is drawn to straighten them, for she is near to her lover, the father, her other half of herself. As she rises she radiates her pheromones of love. She is yearning to be with him. She seeks the embrace of the father. As she rises, she imbues the flesh and blood with warmth, with heat, with passion and desire for her lover, the father, awaits her.
But wait. What is this that blocks the hallway? Frowning, she stops and ponders. She feels a pounding, a vibration, an earthquake. She is shoved off to the side. She can’t get through. The pathway is blocked. She is forced off to the side and she finds herself expanding up a twisting, turning pathway, now spiraling around the main thoroughfare which she SHOULD be traveling, but is prevented from going. She is being shoved up a side road. (1) The earthquake continues vibrating, rocking back and forth. Suddenly there is an explosion and she is released and she feels herself diminish and fall backward, downward, back down to the tailbone again to nestle quietly into her resting place. She could not reach her love. She is aware of what happened. Her warm glow is fading as it spreads out into the surrounding tissue of her child. He has had his climax and is now laid to waste. Her warmth satisfied his loins. He is at peace. The orgasm makes him feel good but she, the holy spirit did not get to join her love. The holy father still waits for her above.
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(1) The caduceus in occult teachings represents the etheric spinal column. The two serpents twining around it are the male and female energies, each going in opposite directions, representing opposite perspectives. They represent the detours that the holy spirit takes during the embodied life. As the person balances his masculine and feminine tendencies, he enjoys a more fruitful life of joy, love and appreciation. Then the energies of the holy spirit can go straight up the etheric spinal column to the head, in the eternal process of enlightenment.
7/4/22 - Where is your attention?
To tell people to apply love to something is premature. There is a step before this. First teach them to pay attention. Where is your attention? Teach them to pay attention to themselves first. To “pay” attention, you first have to dig down into your pants pocket or purse to find your wallet, or the money which you will use to pay. It is necessary, if you are going to “pay" for something. If you are going to "pay" attention to something, you have to dig down inside your Self, your mind, body or feelings or somewhere inside you, to find the reserves. Otherwise, how can you "pay" attention? Where is your attention? Where is the money you are going to pay to someone? Or the attention you are going to pay to someone else? Do you have any love to give to someone else? Do you have any love built up in you to draw upon? A reserve? First you have to generate the love within yourself so you have a reserve of it give to someone else. It is meaningless to tell someone to apply love to something if they don’t know what love is or where to find it or how to generate it. What is love? Where is your attention? You are paying with your attention.
This little practice of finding out where your attention is, is being overlooked. Find out where your attention is. The teacher says in school, "Pay attention! Where is your mind?" Stop letting your attention wander off, helter-skelter. Stop! Pay attention! That is the value of meditation.
7/2/22 - Releasing the seeking
For a long time I felt that my personal mission was to hold the center on the feminine, the divine feminine. It has been a lifelong search, being feminine, and not understanding why I was so disempowered and unable to make decisions. I relied on men to make decisions for me. But over the years of mindful meditation and practicing inner disciplines, there has been a gradual dawning of clarity.
In the upper realms there is no masculine or feminine. It is simply divine. The higher we go, the closer to oneness we come, and the less separation we feel from others. Love becomes natural, universal, not personal. It feels feminine, but it is not feminine as much as it is identifying with glory, exalting, beyond human. This awareness is a blending with the divine and the holy. It is natural, not supernatural. It is comparable to innocence. There is no separation between you and the Oneness. The Oneness is family. You are the light. You are the glory. You are the peace and the perfection and the allness that lives in forms. You are to hold the center.
The Ascended Master Djwal Khul told me to hold myself in the center of the light. I had been shuffling through the women, trying to find the ones who best resonate with me because I felt I needed women friends who would understand me. "That is fool-hearty", he said. "There is no one who resonates with you because you are unique, one of a kind. It is your consciousness of yourself that is unique. You can never become the consciousness of another person, or another being, but you can click with their oneness. You recognize their oneness. Your uniqueness can click into their uniqueness and you can resonate with their oneness because you and they are part of the oneness, the wholeness. But if you are seeking to resonate with someone who is trying to find themselves, as you are trying to find yourself, it is foolish. You will bog yourself down. It becomes personal," DK explained, and continued.
"There are parts of them that you will NOT resonate with, and it will cause you to question yourself and them. This is a bog-down. Give up trying to find the perfect mate. Women are no different than men, they just come in softer packages due to the issues you have had sublimating yourself to immature men in this darkened world. You are lifting yourself out of that mud that was clinging to you. You have separated from it. You are brushing yourself off. You are breathing free of it. But you are still aware that it is a mud-clinging creature. You are trying to find the divine in that mud-clinging creature and you keep trying. You keep questioning 'Where is it?' You do not want to give up, but that is exactly what you must do - give up trying. Instead, focus on the glory of God that is within you and that is waiting for you to recognize it within you. Stop trying to resonate with faulty human beings and focus your virtuous thought upon God within. Feel the God within. You are the body resonating with the God within. You feel the I Am within and you are all powerful. But when you allow your thoughts to turn away from the God within and try to capture or figure out the other person, you lose that connection within.
"You are here to be a pillar of light. You have grounded yourself. You have built up a column of light by your actions, thoughts and intentions. You have spoken it out loud for others to hear. Do not be pulled separately. Remember that you are building a column of light here and it is within you. Not outside you. It is within you as your consciousness. Be aware. Be alert. Be conscious of the light within you. You do not need to name me. You do not need to assign authorship to your articles. You do not need to assign your own name to the articles. Just present the message. You have done well to present the message. You are receiving feedback. Yes, the women provide you excellent, clear-eyed resonance to your seeking. Do not try to conform to them or judge them as better than you or lower than you. Do not even judge them as different than you. Recognize instead, the clarity that comes to you. It is an excellent connect. Excellent indeed. It is worthy of all of your attempts to find the divine feminine.
"The divine feminine that you are seeking is in you. Do not look for it elsewhere. Do not try to teach it to others. The divine feminine is you holding the pillar of this knowledge within you. You are publicizing it now. You are radiating it now. You are letting others know. It is your mission. You wanted to do this. You struggled to arrive here. Now you are continuing to shine the light. You will receive those who recognize your light. There will be others. Hold the light. Do not let the light stray. The light is a beacon light, like a lighthouse beacon to lost ships at sea. It is the light that gives them a focus, a place to connect to, a thought to connect to. A feeling to connect to. It is a rightness that they seek. It is a resonance that they seek. The beings in this world tend to lose themselves. Even lightworkers tend to go adrift and forget how to find the resonance.
"When you are lost and there is a confusion confronting you, do this little trick: turn around slowly, as if you are a compass seeking north. Turn slowly through the thoughts that you pick up, the resonances that you pick up as you slowly turn. Turn and allow various thoughts to strike you. Notice them. Is this the way? Keep turning and feeling for the right way. You are a compass seeking the right direction. Walk towards the rightness feeling. There will be a thought attached to it. There is a direction here and a different way to approach or deal with the current situation. Perhaps it is merely to walk away. Perhaps it is to walk towards. Perhaps it is to shift slightly in one direction or another. Feel your way as you shift focus. "
7/1/22 Aligning your four lower bodies
The perfect alignment of the four lower bodies (emotional, mental, etheric and physical) requires emotional stability, mental alertness, etheric purity and physical vitality. You can measure your own vehicles by the level of stress that appears in your life. Stress is often caused by your higher self trying to stimulate some lethargic energies in one or another part of your vehicles, either the physical body, the etheric body (energy body), the emotional body or mental body. Visualize the three invisible vehicles surrounding your physical body in the form of ovoids. They should fit perfectly one within the other. The distention of one vehicle and the contraction of another, causes an instability. They are out of alignment. They are not linking up well. The paths over which the light (information) flows is not connecting well. Your higher self is attempting to get through the conduits or channels. It is trying to bring your four lower bodies into a good open connection so the life energy can flow down through these four levels. When we speak of light, we are speaking of spiritual information. When you feel nervous ticks, tension or stress, take time to go into meditation. Sit in silence and do the following:
First, visualize a picture of your etheric body as the first invisible ovoid that surrounds your physical form. It is your energy body. Your etheric body gathers energy from a multitude of sources, from the purity of your higher God self, and the impure from the steady stream of outside sources. Your etheric body provides your physical body with vitality but it comes through the network of meridians, chakras and nadis.
Secondly, visualize your emotional body as a larger invisible bubble of energy that surrounds the first invisible ovoid. The emotional body interpenetrates the etheric ovid and every physical nerve, muscle and cell of your physical vehicle, but is a higher vibrating dimension. It is pulled downward by magnetism to your physical world of form. You attract it. Your conscious attention to an emotion determines the quality of what you are feeling. If you are happy, your invisible bubble of emotions expands. If you are depressed, it becomes smaller and thinner. Your higher God self will try to stimulate it. This is when you will feel unusually stressed or agitated. Your body is trying to balance your four lower bodies so they are all equal and open one to another so the flow of information can get through.
Thirdly, visualize your mental body as the third invisible bubble of energy that surrounds you. It, too, interpenetrates every nerve, muscle and cell of your physical body, filtering through your emotions and your etheric vehicle to reach your physicality. If your thinking is not in harmony with the good of the whole, your higher self will try to correct it by stimulating the flow of light energy, producing a momentary agitation. If you are unaware or insensitive to your inner feelings, you will feel it as stress. Be aware that this is an attempt to correct your thinking. It is not wrong, it is an alert to make a correction. Your God self is trying to correct you. This is done from a higher source or dimension. Those who practice meditation and listen to their own silence, recognize an out-of-balance sensation and correct by inner means. Visualize your mental body as an ovoid of perfect harmony surrounding you. See them all in equal balance with the other ovoids.
Your higher God self is trying to stimulate some lethargic sheath and cause it to expand or diminish, whatever vehicle it is that is out of balance. Visualize these vehicles around yourself in the form of oval-shaped invisible bubbles. They should fit perfectly one within the other. The distention of one vehicle and the contraction of another causes irritability, energy-wise, resulting in nervousness, agitation, particularly during times of stress.
6/26/22 On cutting negative cords
If you are feeling overwhelmed by something you don't know what to do about, or don't know the source, it may be worth taking up a practice that very few people know about: cutting cords. An angry or embittered person who is casting blame can become a major source of what is referred to as a demonic attack. The person initiating the anger may feel he was wronged and recycle his anger in a continuous outpouring. The anger then picks up speed and it turns into an attack that most people are not clued into, and don't understand. The target of the attack however, without understanding, starts accumulating this negative energy on an etheric level and he goes from feeling slightly bad, to worse and then very much worse and finally gets sick and feverish.
The etheric body is a network of invisible lines of energy, meridians, vortexes and chakras that run through physical body unbeknownst to most people. Cutting cords is a term used in the esoteric field of energy healing. I suggest adopting a daily practice of sitting in prayerful silence. Let me guide you a little here. I recommend choosing a private space for yourself in your home that is conducive for this, to use as a sacred space. It's OK for others to walk through it during the day, but when it's time for you to use it for 30 minutes or an hour, it will have special meaning for you. Then you can close the door on the outside world and make it private for your use alone. Select some soothing objects to furnish it with that make you feel, not just comfortable and relaxed, but transcendental and other-worldly. Not religious, but holy. Become holy in your space. When it's time, sit in a comfortable way, and focus on relaxing every part of your body.
It could be a lying down position as an alternative to sitting. Become very still. Stop moving your body and focus on stopping your mind. If it doesn't stop, it's OK, just have that as an intention and you will eventually master stopping your mind. Don't frustrate yourself over it. Continue. Love yourself. That's the intention, to welcome and embrace yourself as a beautiful, dignified holy person, for you are that. Your purpose is to bring a sense of holiness to your body's tissues. Concentrate on creating a mental picture of one organ at a time. Start with your heart muscle. You may have to google for pictures of your heart to know how to picture it. Imagine your heart muscle with a glowing light emanating from it, a warm glow, kind of glistening, with sparks flying through it. Use your own imagination. But picture it as soothing, caring and warming. Focus on creating a feeling of harmony and warmth within yourself, and especially in your heart. This is something people don't do naturally. You have to work at it. It is a higher form of inner meditation. A cleansing and a purification.
Imagine your Father God or your Mother God, however you choose to see them, as a bright dazzling sun above your head. A conscious sun beaming purity down into your heart. People speak about the "higher self" often these days, but it's really the inner self, the inner body tissues. By focusing attention on the physical heart with loving intention, you are bringing your God, your "higher self" down into your physical inner body where it has always been. Always been. It has been forgotten and neglected. Resurrect the feeling of holiness in your heart muscle. And then do the same thing for the blood flowing through the heart, imagine it. And visualize the tissues. I won't name each organ but do the work. Visualize the organs and glands. The glands are significant. They produce hormones. They will produce either anxiety hormones or peaceful, calm hormones. Picture them in glowing, loving, holy light. Resurrect this holy light in each organ of the body.
This is a rare science, not many would think to do it. Most people are too busy and distracted by the outer world. But if you can take the time sit for 30 minutes to an hour focusing light and warm love into your inner organs you will build a resistance to the negatives that are making you ill. You should not focus on the suspected culprit of the attack, or on anyone else, only focus on yourself, focus on the light, warmth, purity and love into YOURSELF. This is a form of cutting cords.
You're repelling the dark, negative energies that are causing you so much pain, and cutting them off from entering into your energy field. Not many people are protecting their energy field, their aura, so this is what I'm teaching you to do. It's like doing your own exorcism. But you have to NOT think of the suspected source. Think only of yourself, and the beautiful qualities that you have forgotten about. Your own beauty, your own spirituality, your own mind, your own refinement, sacredness, purity, holiness. You are linking up with your higher self, instead of the person you think is doing this to you. That's the cord that needs to be cut off and you do this by repelling it with holy light. You're linking up to your Father-Mother God from which you descended. It is above you, like a sun shining, on a higher frequency plane. By focusing in this way you are opening a conscious focused link with your attention to it, your divine Presence, and connecting it with your physical body tissues. Your physical body needs cleansing. It has been accumulating energies that make you feel bad. They need to be cleaned out, and it's done by focused concentration, or meditation, on your body itself AND the sunlight of your Father-Mother God overhead. Earth energies from other people (crap) collect in your tissues and if they are not purified on a regular basis. Daily is best, but some people do it twice or three times a day if there is a serious issue going on in their lives.
Most people are not taught this in such practical terms, but people get sick if they don't do something to keep themselves energetically cleansed. I've been doing it for years, alone, by myself. I don't have a group. I do my own studies and reading about it. It has become second nature to me. My body becomes sluggish and has its ups and downs, but I've learned to do this often and life becomes easier and better all the time with practice. By doing this the etheric body, which is the soul, becomes more pure over time. And you begin to glow and radiate. People notice it. You might notice it in other people. When you walk into a monastery or place where people practice these purification techniques, you can feel the peace as soon as you walk in. It's quite uncanny. I remember once visiting a temple in Canada with my older sister. I never felt anything like it before or since. It was Soooo pure. Many years of practice by the people who lived there. I have done it at home by myself, and you can begin at any time.
Talk the words of love and goodness - silently or out loud - into your heart, lungs, liver, spleen, stomach, intestines, wherever there is a feeling of agitation, pain or ache or not right feeling. Visualize the organ or gland, what it looks like. A picture is worth a thousand words. Talk the words into the picture in your mind of the organ. Be in love with your inner body. Google pictures of your anatomy to get a clear understanding of what each gland or organ looks like. Your spiritual self is using this body as a vehicle, so you want to keep it clean, like dusting furniture. It collects debris from the outer world of people and their negative emotions, and your own reactions and emotions which create dust. Your feelings and sensations tell you when it's time to clean house because you don't feel good. Something's wrong. There are many, many people practicing meditation these days. This is only one way of doing it. You don't need to know where negative energy comes from. It's in the air itself. Don't focus on the source. Focus on love, light, healing and Father-Mother God as a sun over your head. You have an individual Father-Mother God that shines over you, from which you descended. Everyone has an individual Father-Mother God which is uniquely their own identity. Not many know this. It is through the individual Father-Mother God that everyone is connected to the supreme Father-Mother God, the one creator of all. Jesus referred often to his Father in heaven, meaning his individual Father, when he said, "I do not do the work, my Father in heaven does the work."
This is how you start building a bubble of light like a seal of protection around you. You develop a thick "skin" that is invisible around you. You start repelling the negative energies, even from one as close to you as your son. When you build light into your inner body tissues, it's your BODY that starts to feel better. It says "thank you!" to you. You say "I feel better today" but it's the body that is feeling better. A lot of people don't realize that the cells in their body are conscious and they feel bad when they are mistreated or ignored and unacknowledged. When they feel bad YOU feel bad. You reside in your body so naturally you think it's YOU feeling bad, but it's the body tissues. And they can be cleansed under your supervision and determination.
By focusing love and light into them, and holding that light for one or two or three minutes at a time - just holding that love as a focus in the heart or stomach - will make a world of difference. You will be cleansing the negative energies out of them that you didn't even know were there, accumulating and building up like an illness or infection. The body cells eventually wear down and get sick. Daily application would be a terrific routine to adopt and follow. The more you do this on a regular basis, the more you will notice a lightening effect and begin repelling the negative energies. Picture different parts of your body in rotation, from the feet upward. The feet are where you want to ground into Mother Earth.
Start with your feet, calves of legs, knees, thighs, pelvis, lower back, navel, diaphragm, heart, throat, lower half of head, upper half of head, and above the head picture a smaller sun about 6 inches above the head. This is the soul chakra. And notice your breathing. Inhale deep, long slow breaths, and exhale, deep long, slow breaths, but stay in comfortable rhythm so you feel good with it.
I recommend keeping this a silent practice. Consider it sacred. Because when you tell someone what you're doing, their opinion matters in the energetic field of thought. Human thought is ALWAYS less than pure and has an influence on your energy field. It reverberates and bounces back to you. Sacred practices should be kept sacred.
First, visualize a picture of your etheric body as the first invisible ovoid that surrounds your physical form. It is your energy body. Your etheric body gathers energy from a multitude of sources, from the purity of your higher God self, and the impure from the steady stream of outside sources. Your etheric body provides your physical body with vitality but it comes through the network of meridians, chakras and nadis.
Secondly, visualize your emotional body as a larger invisible bubble of energy that surrounds the first invisible ovoid. The emotional body interpenetrates the etheric ovid and every physical nerve, muscle and cell of your physical vehicle, but is a higher vibrating dimension. It is pulled downward by magnetism to your physical world of form. You attract it. Your conscious attention to an emotion determines the quality of what you are feeling. If you are happy, your invisible bubble of emotions expands. If you are depressed, it becomes smaller and thinner. Your higher God self will try to stimulate it. This is when you will feel unusually stressed or agitated. Your body is trying to balance your four lower bodies so they are all equal and open one to another so the flow of information can get through.
Thirdly, visualize your mental body as the third invisible bubble of energy that surrounds you. It, too, interpenetrates every nerve, muscle and cell of your physical body, filtering through your emotions and your etheric vehicle to reach your physicality. If your thinking is not in harmony with the good of the whole, your higher self will try to correct it by stimulating the flow of light energy, producing a momentary agitation. If you are unaware or insensitive to your inner feelings, you will feel it as stress. Be aware that this is an attempt to correct your thinking. It is not wrong, it is an alert to make a correction. Your God self is trying to correct you. This is done from a higher source or dimension. Those who practice meditation and listen to their own silence, recognize an out-of-balance sensation and correct by inner means. Visualize your mental body as an ovoid of perfect harmony surrounding you. See them all in equal balance with the other ovoids.
Your higher God self is trying to stimulate some lethargic sheath and cause it to expand or diminish, whatever vehicle it is that is out of balance. Visualize these vehicles around yourself in the form of oval-shaped invisible bubbles. They should fit perfectly one within the other. The distention of one vehicle and the contraction of another causes irritability, energy-wise, resulting in nervousness, agitation, particularly during times of stress.
6/26/22 On cutting negative cords
If you are feeling overwhelmed by something you don't know what to do about, or don't know the source, it may be worth taking up a practice that very few people know about: cutting cords. An angry or embittered person who is casting blame can become a major source of what is referred to as a demonic attack. The person initiating the anger may feel he was wronged and recycle his anger in a continuous outpouring. The anger then picks up speed and it turns into an attack that most people are not clued into, and don't understand. The target of the attack however, without understanding, starts accumulating this negative energy on an etheric level and he goes from feeling slightly bad, to worse and then very much worse and finally gets sick and feverish.
The etheric body is a network of invisible lines of energy, meridians, vortexes and chakras that run through physical body unbeknownst to most people. Cutting cords is a term used in the esoteric field of energy healing. I suggest adopting a daily practice of sitting in prayerful silence. Let me guide you a little here. I recommend choosing a private space for yourself in your home that is conducive for this, to use as a sacred space. It's OK for others to walk through it during the day, but when it's time for you to use it for 30 minutes or an hour, it will have special meaning for you. Then you can close the door on the outside world and make it private for your use alone. Select some soothing objects to furnish it with that make you feel, not just comfortable and relaxed, but transcendental and other-worldly. Not religious, but holy. Become holy in your space. When it's time, sit in a comfortable way, and focus on relaxing every part of your body.
It could be a lying down position as an alternative to sitting. Become very still. Stop moving your body and focus on stopping your mind. If it doesn't stop, it's OK, just have that as an intention and you will eventually master stopping your mind. Don't frustrate yourself over it. Continue. Love yourself. That's the intention, to welcome and embrace yourself as a beautiful, dignified holy person, for you are that. Your purpose is to bring a sense of holiness to your body's tissues. Concentrate on creating a mental picture of one organ at a time. Start with your heart muscle. You may have to google for pictures of your heart to know how to picture it. Imagine your heart muscle with a glowing light emanating from it, a warm glow, kind of glistening, with sparks flying through it. Use your own imagination. But picture it as soothing, caring and warming. Focus on creating a feeling of harmony and warmth within yourself, and especially in your heart. This is something people don't do naturally. You have to work at it. It is a higher form of inner meditation. A cleansing and a purification.
Imagine your Father God or your Mother God, however you choose to see them, as a bright dazzling sun above your head. A conscious sun beaming purity down into your heart. People speak about the "higher self" often these days, but it's really the inner self, the inner body tissues. By focusing attention on the physical heart with loving intention, you are bringing your God, your "higher self" down into your physical inner body where it has always been. Always been. It has been forgotten and neglected. Resurrect the feeling of holiness in your heart muscle. And then do the same thing for the blood flowing through the heart, imagine it. And visualize the tissues. I won't name each organ but do the work. Visualize the organs and glands. The glands are significant. They produce hormones. They will produce either anxiety hormones or peaceful, calm hormones. Picture them in glowing, loving, holy light. Resurrect this holy light in each organ of the body.
This is a rare science, not many would think to do it. Most people are too busy and distracted by the outer world. But if you can take the time sit for 30 minutes to an hour focusing light and warm love into your inner organs you will build a resistance to the negatives that are making you ill. You should not focus on the suspected culprit of the attack, or on anyone else, only focus on yourself, focus on the light, warmth, purity and love into YOURSELF. This is a form of cutting cords.
You're repelling the dark, negative energies that are causing you so much pain, and cutting them off from entering into your energy field. Not many people are protecting their energy field, their aura, so this is what I'm teaching you to do. It's like doing your own exorcism. But you have to NOT think of the suspected source. Think only of yourself, and the beautiful qualities that you have forgotten about. Your own beauty, your own spirituality, your own mind, your own refinement, sacredness, purity, holiness. You are linking up with your higher self, instead of the person you think is doing this to you. That's the cord that needs to be cut off and you do this by repelling it with holy light. You're linking up to your Father-Mother God from which you descended. It is above you, like a sun shining, on a higher frequency plane. By focusing in this way you are opening a conscious focused link with your attention to it, your divine Presence, and connecting it with your physical body tissues. Your physical body needs cleansing. It has been accumulating energies that make you feel bad. They need to be cleaned out, and it's done by focused concentration, or meditation, on your body itself AND the sunlight of your Father-Mother God overhead. Earth energies from other people (crap) collect in your tissues and if they are not purified on a regular basis. Daily is best, but some people do it twice or three times a day if there is a serious issue going on in their lives.
Most people are not taught this in such practical terms, but people get sick if they don't do something to keep themselves energetically cleansed. I've been doing it for years, alone, by myself. I don't have a group. I do my own studies and reading about it. It has become second nature to me. My body becomes sluggish and has its ups and downs, but I've learned to do this often and life becomes easier and better all the time with practice. By doing this the etheric body, which is the soul, becomes more pure over time. And you begin to glow and radiate. People notice it. You might notice it in other people. When you walk into a monastery or place where people practice these purification techniques, you can feel the peace as soon as you walk in. It's quite uncanny. I remember once visiting a temple in Canada with my older sister. I never felt anything like it before or since. It was Soooo pure. Many years of practice by the people who lived there. I have done it at home by myself, and you can begin at any time.
Talk the words of love and goodness - silently or out loud - into your heart, lungs, liver, spleen, stomach, intestines, wherever there is a feeling of agitation, pain or ache or not right feeling. Visualize the organ or gland, what it looks like. A picture is worth a thousand words. Talk the words into the picture in your mind of the organ. Be in love with your inner body. Google pictures of your anatomy to get a clear understanding of what each gland or organ looks like. Your spiritual self is using this body as a vehicle, so you want to keep it clean, like dusting furniture. It collects debris from the outer world of people and their negative emotions, and your own reactions and emotions which create dust. Your feelings and sensations tell you when it's time to clean house because you don't feel good. Something's wrong. There are many, many people practicing meditation these days. This is only one way of doing it. You don't need to know where negative energy comes from. It's in the air itself. Don't focus on the source. Focus on love, light, healing and Father-Mother God as a sun over your head. You have an individual Father-Mother God that shines over you, from which you descended. Everyone has an individual Father-Mother God which is uniquely their own identity. Not many know this. It is through the individual Father-Mother God that everyone is connected to the supreme Father-Mother God, the one creator of all. Jesus referred often to his Father in heaven, meaning his individual Father, when he said, "I do not do the work, my Father in heaven does the work."
This is how you start building a bubble of light like a seal of protection around you. You develop a thick "skin" that is invisible around you. You start repelling the negative energies, even from one as close to you as your son. When you build light into your inner body tissues, it's your BODY that starts to feel better. It says "thank you!" to you. You say "I feel better today" but it's the body that is feeling better. A lot of people don't realize that the cells in their body are conscious and they feel bad when they are mistreated or ignored and unacknowledged. When they feel bad YOU feel bad. You reside in your body so naturally you think it's YOU feeling bad, but it's the body tissues. And they can be cleansed under your supervision and determination.
By focusing love and light into them, and holding that light for one or two or three minutes at a time - just holding that love as a focus in the heart or stomach - will make a world of difference. You will be cleansing the negative energies out of them that you didn't even know were there, accumulating and building up like an illness or infection. The body cells eventually wear down and get sick. Daily application would be a terrific routine to adopt and follow. The more you do this on a regular basis, the more you will notice a lightening effect and begin repelling the negative energies. Picture different parts of your body in rotation, from the feet upward. The feet are where you want to ground into Mother Earth.
Start with your feet, calves of legs, knees, thighs, pelvis, lower back, navel, diaphragm, heart, throat, lower half of head, upper half of head, and above the head picture a smaller sun about 6 inches above the head. This is the soul chakra. And notice your breathing. Inhale deep, long slow breaths, and exhale, deep long, slow breaths, but stay in comfortable rhythm so you feel good with it.
I recommend keeping this a silent practice. Consider it sacred. Because when you tell someone what you're doing, their opinion matters in the energetic field of thought. Human thought is ALWAYS less than pure and has an influence on your energy field. It reverberates and bounces back to you. Sacred practices should be kept sacred.
6/24/22 - Diagram of the seven levels of the aura
LEVEL 1 - ETHERIC BODY. The first layer shown in the picture outlining the physical body is the etheric body. It is made of physical substance, though invisible, and considered part of the physical realm until the body dies. Then it moves on. It is the divine ego which lives through the body. The body is its vehicle in this dimension. The divine ego takes on the substance of every dimension it lives in. It interpenetrates the physical and is the life force of the body. The etheric body has not yet been identified as the soul, but man will eventually come to recognize it as the divine ego. When the body dies the etheric ego withdraws and can be seen as the etheric double. It looks just like the physical body at death, but soon changes its appearance as it moves into the astral plane. It is the permanent ego which never dies. It evolves through sentient experiences, gaining mastery over the mind and emotions, following its divine calling.
LEVEL 2 - EMOTIONAL BODY. The emotional body is on a higher dimension and interpenetrates the physical dimension. We experience emotions every day but we don't think of them as being on a different dimensional level, yet they are. It is also called the astral body. Our minds (the divine ego) builds a form out of astral substance whenever it is embodied in a physical world. The astral world is invisible to the physical senses because each dimension is a separate vibrational field. Only clairvoyants or psychics can see it, which is why our emotions can be so convoluting and confusing. We engage with the astral world all day long. Our emotions come from there. We would not be alive if we did not have emotions. It is part of our life force. When we sleep, the divine ego (the conscious mind) moves into the astral dimension. The dreams we bring back with us upon waking are the experiences we had in that dimension. Dreams can be better remembered, controlled and changed through mindful techniques and meditation.
LEVEL 3 - MENTAL BODY. Often called the lower mental. It's on a higher dimensional level than the astral level, and interpenetrates all levels below it, the physical, etheric and astral. The divine ego (our conscious mind) is evolving whenever we are in form. A young soul just beginning a human life after graduating from animal life, experiences through its emotions first, more than its mind. After lifetimes as a human and after it gains some level of mastery over its emotions, its mental abilities begin to activate. Intelligence becomes more a part of its every day life. It can think ahead, plan and connect cause and effect.
LEVEL 4 - SPIRITUAL BODY, sometimes called the higher mental. It exists on another dimension and interpenetrates all levels below it. The lower mental deals with the solid structure of the physical material world, but through experience and evolution, the soul evolves a higher perception and becomes more adept at utilizing language, memory, abstract thinking and entertains concepts beyond his world of form. Religious concepts come into play.
LEVEL 5 - THE LIGHT BODY. Also known as the Christ body. The word "christ" is not restricted to the one historical figure, Jesus. The Christ body is 100% pure crystal light and cannot be contaminated by human error. No evil can touch it. The word "christ" comes from Greek and shares the same root as the word "crystal". There is a growing belief that the word "christ" was a title given to one who reaches transparency of mind and therefore allows the divine presence to flow through it into outer physical expression.
LEVEL 6 - THE CAUSAL BODY. Also 100% pure and cannot be contaminated by human error. It is non-physical light consisting of seven rays or purities, called the seven virtues of God. These qualities are commonly summed up as: will power, intelligence, love, purity, truth, peace and freedom.. There are many interpretations of the seven qualities, which are linked to the seven chakras, seven colors, seven rays, seven tones, seven heavens - all of which are facets of the one diamond of divine immortal life.
LEVEL 7 - THE MONAD. The individual God-self, the father referred to by Jesus. Each individual has his own father God surrounding him as an individual bubble of 100% pure divine love and light. Each individual's father-God is a divine cell in the body of the one God from which all creation flows. The soul is an evolving child of his own father God.
LEVEL 1 - ETHERIC BODY. The first layer shown in the picture outlining the physical body is the etheric body. It is made of physical substance, though invisible, and considered part of the physical realm until the body dies. Then it moves on. It is the divine ego which lives through the body. The body is its vehicle in this dimension. The divine ego takes on the substance of every dimension it lives in. It interpenetrates the physical and is the life force of the body. The etheric body has not yet been identified as the soul, but man will eventually come to recognize it as the divine ego. When the body dies the etheric ego withdraws and can be seen as the etheric double. It looks just like the physical body at death, but soon changes its appearance as it moves into the astral plane. It is the permanent ego which never dies. It evolves through sentient experiences, gaining mastery over the mind and emotions, following its divine calling.
LEVEL 2 - EMOTIONAL BODY. The emotional body is on a higher dimension and interpenetrates the physical dimension. We experience emotions every day but we don't think of them as being on a different dimensional level, yet they are. It is also called the astral body. Our minds (the divine ego) builds a form out of astral substance whenever it is embodied in a physical world. The astral world is invisible to the physical senses because each dimension is a separate vibrational field. Only clairvoyants or psychics can see it, which is why our emotions can be so convoluting and confusing. We engage with the astral world all day long. Our emotions come from there. We would not be alive if we did not have emotions. It is part of our life force. When we sleep, the divine ego (the conscious mind) moves into the astral dimension. The dreams we bring back with us upon waking are the experiences we had in that dimension. Dreams can be better remembered, controlled and changed through mindful techniques and meditation.
LEVEL 3 - MENTAL BODY. Often called the lower mental. It's on a higher dimensional level than the astral level, and interpenetrates all levels below it, the physical, etheric and astral. The divine ego (our conscious mind) is evolving whenever we are in form. A young soul just beginning a human life after graduating from animal life, experiences through its emotions first, more than its mind. After lifetimes as a human and after it gains some level of mastery over its emotions, its mental abilities begin to activate. Intelligence becomes more a part of its every day life. It can think ahead, plan and connect cause and effect.
LEVEL 4 - SPIRITUAL BODY, sometimes called the higher mental. It exists on another dimension and interpenetrates all levels below it. The lower mental deals with the solid structure of the physical material world, but through experience and evolution, the soul evolves a higher perception and becomes more adept at utilizing language, memory, abstract thinking and entertains concepts beyond his world of form. Religious concepts come into play.
LEVEL 5 - THE LIGHT BODY. Also known as the Christ body. The word "christ" is not restricted to the one historical figure, Jesus. The Christ body is 100% pure crystal light and cannot be contaminated by human error. No evil can touch it. The word "christ" comes from Greek and shares the same root as the word "crystal". There is a growing belief that the word "christ" was a title given to one who reaches transparency of mind and therefore allows the divine presence to flow through it into outer physical expression.
LEVEL 6 - THE CAUSAL BODY. Also 100% pure and cannot be contaminated by human error. It is non-physical light consisting of seven rays or purities, called the seven virtues of God. These qualities are commonly summed up as: will power, intelligence, love, purity, truth, peace and freedom.. There are many interpretations of the seven qualities, which are linked to the seven chakras, seven colors, seven rays, seven tones, seven heavens - all of which are facets of the one diamond of divine immortal life.
LEVEL 7 - THE MONAD. The individual God-self, the father referred to by Jesus. Each individual has his own father God surrounding him as an individual bubble of 100% pure divine love and light. Each individual's father-God is a divine cell in the body of the one God from which all creation flows. The soul is an evolving child of his own father God.
6/24/22 - About orbs
I ran across a journal from 2014 which is interesting. I asked about orbs because I had my camera out last night and got many pictures of orbs. I got my pen and paper out to write them down to see if I could get some answers. What are they? I asked my higher self and legions of light, spirit, to please tell more about them. Some people think they are UFOs, others think they are angels. Some are dark, some are light, some are figures with arms and legs. What are the figures? From where do they come? From higher vibrating dimensions? Are they coming to Earth now or have they been here all along and the veil is thinning so we now see them? It is not a matter of “them” vs. “us”, is it?
A: It is a blending of dimensions. Other dimensions that are not sentient but spirit and consciousness.
Q: Are they here in daytime too? I suspect they are but due to the light the camera doesn’t pick them up like it does at night against the blackness. Are the bright sparks I see with my naked eye at the moment the camera flashes, are these the bright figures? They don’t always register on the camera.
A: It’s a dimensional blend. We are unascended beings, and they are ascended beings, meaning they are joined and at one with their God-self, God-Presence. We are restricted to operating in a form built of misqualified energy, shadow energy, disturbed energy, and that is what we call “sentient”. We have distorted the elements in our bodies with our disturbing thoughts and built disturbing forms, including the form of war and other pain-induced systems. It is our task to clean up our selves, our minds, our bodies and our feelings. Then we will raise the vibrations of our bodies and we can ascend to become one with our Father-Mother God, our Holy Presence. No more distortions. The orbs are blendings, glimpses into higher dimensions where vibrations are faster and speeded up. We see them, or rather the camera sees them, when we draw them to us by our vibrations. They are drawn to us like a man is drawn to a curiosity, or a moth to a flame. When I go out on a night where I am merely curious, I don’t get pictures of orbs. But when I am excited I often do get pictures, but I can’t “will” myself to be excited. It seems to be a spiritual state that I have no control over. The orbs are drawn to my high vibration and last night it was Doug’s high and peaceful vibration. At least that is my feeling. There were a lot of orbs in the pictures last night. Even more tonight. (Journaled 12/28/14)
6/22/22 - The astral body, continued, part 3
Each realm provides bodies made from atoms and electrons of that particular world. But these are only suits of clothing worn by the divine Ego, the consciousness which is YOU. You are formless, because a divine ego is pure consciousness. It is uncorrupted in your original state since you are one with source, an eternal immortal light. If you cannot grasp this, don’t worry about it. Stay within your comfort zone. Let your comfort be your guiding light. If you remain in your comfort zone you are holding your seven inter-dimensions together within your body. If you feel out of joint, stop and center your attention on comfort or warm love. Look to the light of the sun to anchor yourself to. Breathe in the sun, breathe in the earth. Form a connection between sun and earth, these natural forces. Find stability, comfort and peace within. Do not be pulled into distraction by outside forces or other people. It is not your role to “save” anybody unless you are clear-headed and know it is yours to do. The divine ego is here to work on its own refinement and understanding while living in a temporary earth embodiment. It does so to be able to walk this dimension, this world, this reality.
Each dimension needs a body made from that dimension. We have an astral body, an etheric body, a mental body and a spiritual body surrounding our physical body. Here in the physical world we have, first of all, a physical body. It is our primary focus to take care of it and learn the nature of this physical world and how to work with it, but it's not the ONLY body we have. The creator's plan is to bring the physical world into contact with the other six dimensions so that all may flow together smoothly and efficiently, thus bringing the soul to enlightenment. Enlightenment is the highest purity possible for human beings to experience while remaining in physical form. That is why we are here, to become perfect stewards of our world of physicality. We are here to tend our Self first, using our free will choices to make finer decisions than we did in the past. We are here to learn how to be sovereign, happy and free while working in cooperation with every other sovereign, happy and free being. That is the divine plan. It is our responsibility to take care of our Self first. If we try to bring our family and friends along with us, we become distracted, and we distract them from their OWN responsibility of becoming sovereign.
Right now we are not living in a perfect world. We are here to create the perfect world within our Self. To bring about refinement in our own lives, with truth, integrity, compassion, love, kindness to others while working on ourselves. The distraction of trying to change others, or to judge, persecute or blame others is keeping us from doing our own work on ourselves. We each have something precious to contribute. Talents unbeknownst to us yet because they are covered over by wrong attitudes. We will discover more latent talents as we focus on betterment for our own lives. Then we can sense our inner worlds better and make adjustments sooner before they become painful and diseased. We cannot "save" others. Each must sense their own right or wrong from within themselves. To develop our inner senses, we need to spend time alone in silence. It is important to be separate from each other for awhile during the day, to be able to experience what our inner bodies are communicating to us. And then, when we come back together again, we are better able to share the fun and the joy that physical life can bring. Duality adventures can’t be experienced in heaven because in heaven we don't have physical bodies. We are transparent. We know each other so well, there is nothing to obstruct us or kick against or argue with. We can't offer differences in heaven because we understand each other and respect each other. There is love in heaven. There we can go where we want to go without resistance, we go where we are most comfortable. That's why embodiment on earth is such a precious gift. There are long lines queuing up waiting to be born on earth.
After death, in the beginning stages of waking up in the astral world, the astral body is a mere blob of protoplasm. For one who has not yet known his astral body or managed his invisible vehicles, he will be somewhat confused until mentors show him the way. As a man reaches a higher level of intellectual culture or spiritual growth, the appearance of the astral body shows definition of outline and more luminosity. The organization of the astral body is developed to more perfection by cultivation of the higher mind through more refined thoughts and intellect, and secondly by purification (betterment) of the physical body through cleaner diet, cleaner thoughts, higher emotions, more refined words and through deeds and acts of service to others. The astral body becomes sharper and clearer through such physical refinement because it is the matrix in which the physical moves. It responds to thought impressions and impulses from the world of man. The astral world is continually changing shapes and thought forms. They emerge and disappear to clairvoyants, those people who are gifted with psychic sight. Noble thoughts thrill astral matter. Your astral body responds to gross thought and shrivels from gross evil, but it thrills to noble thought. Here is the reason why Tantric teachings have a wonderful sexual slant. By adding love, adoration, worship and reverence to your lovemaking, your astral body is excited. Your own higher self is connecting to your physical body by your higher thoughts, adding joy to your experience. Your atoms, cells and tissues become a’wash with ecstasy. It thrills in answer to every loving, kind, elevated, spiritual thought that strikes it, whether that thought comes from the other person you are with or from yourself.
After death, one who has mastered his astral body can go visit a friend at a distance and if they don’t have sight to see, he may materialize by drawing particles from the surrounding atmosphere to become visible. Sometimes a person without sight will become clairvoyant to astral vibrations, due to a nervous or strung-out condition. After death it is common for an etheric double to be seen near the body. After the etheric double is shaken off - for it belongs to the material plane - the consciousness then enters the astral plane. During life the sub-levels of higher etheric and lower etheric are intermixed. But after death they rearrange themselves in order of density. They assume a stratified condition which appears like layers of shells. The densest goes to the outside and the more refined and sensitive recedes to the inside. Here is the importance of purifying ones physical body while in life. Purifying the physical body actually purifies the etheric and astral body. The astral body cannot roam the astral world at will, if the outer form is made of the denser material, because the astral world has seven sub-planes and the man is confined to the density of his exterior shell. There he is subjected to the vibrations of that lower level. He might feel he doesn't deserve this for his inner life is nobler. But his exterior shell is sending out the grosser vibrations and keeping him at tht level. Thus the need to express nobler thoughts in the outer environment in which you reside.
As the outer covering disintegrates he rises to the next sub-plane. When a man passes to the next sub-level he comes into contact with vibrations of the higher level. It seems to him that he is in a different region, but each sub-plane corresponds to the vibrations that the man is sending out. If gross matter remains but is atrophied from dis-use, he will be held only a short time on lower levels and sleep peacefully through it. His consciousness does not seek expression through it.
There is a critical point between sub-planes where the least increment will move a man’s consciousness to jump a sub-plane, as ice will change to water at a certain temperature. A point of refinement transforms it from sub-plane to sub-plane. Degrees of delicacy and purification of the astral body is done by physical and mental processes on the earth plane. This is important knowledge for the new astral body that will be formed in the next incarnation. Evil thought forms cannot exist in the heaven realms because the astral plane is emotion, and emotion cannot exist in the land of the Gods. Heavenly matter cannot answer to the coarse vibrations of evil passions and desires. Evil is self-oriented and while a man may not use evil passions in his present earth life, latent germs or tendencies can manifest in the next incarnation when they find an outlet in the form of corresponding vibration. These latent germs he takes with him and in the next incarnation he throws them outward and draws to himself similar material from the astral world to form his next astral body for his next physical incarnation. In every physical incarnation his physical atoms float in the astral matrix. Thus the importance to bring evil seeds to the surface and work at dissolving them with noble thoughts. If evil thoughts continue to be buried, the seeds become latent and form part of the new astral body yet to come.
Purify the present astral body (emotional body) to the utmost to ensure future progress. Our lives past and future are linked together. We have but one life. What we call lives are really only days. We never begin a new life with a clean slate. We begin a new chapter to further develop the old plot. We cannot get rid of karmic liabilities by death. It carries forward into the new day. The life of man is continuously linked together, not isolated. The processes of purification are also continuous and must be carried on successively in each new earth life. Sometime or other each will grow weary of the sensations of the lower nature and being subject to the animal and the tyranny of the senses, sensuality, sexuality, depravity, pornography. Then he will no longer consent to submit to them. He will decide that the bonds of his captivity shall be broken. The beginning of the shattering of the fetters is when a man determines to make the lower nature the servant of the higher, and here on the plane of physical consciousness he will begin building the higher bodies which are obscured to his awareness and attention by the animal nature within him. (End)
(Much of this information comes from the book "The Astral Body" by Annie Besant, a famous clairvoyant who lived from 1847-1933.)
6/21/22 - The astral body, continued, part 2
The physical body is composed of seven sub-levels, four which are seen by the naked eye, and three which are not seen. The four which are seen are earth, air, fire and water. The three not seen are called etheric 1 which is too subtle for eyes to perceive, etheric 2 which is even more subtle, and etheric 3 which is the highest etheric level of all. Beyond etheric-3 physical matter becomes astral matter, due to the speeding up of the electrons that whiz around the center of the atom. Everything and all matter is made of subatomic particles called electrons. The ascended master instructions speak of this in depth. To become visible, the electrons slow down, and to become invisible the electrons speed up and swirl faster. Speeding up puts them further apart from each other and makes them invisible, just as the whirling blades of a fan become invisible. The speeding up and slowing down of electrons is under the direct control of the resident ego or soul.
As the lower level of physical electrons speed up, they enter the astral level. As the astral level electrons speed up, they move into higher levels of the astral plane. There are seven sub-levels of astral, so when the astral electrons reach the highest level, they become the mental level - the lowest and slowest level of mental. As a person increases his vibrations and/or frequency, he moves his body and consciousness into more harmony. and he becomes more luminous. Increasing your frequency and vibration is done consciously, with intention and practice in meditation and various other betterment routines. Consciousness increases as the ability to hold awareness at that level. He experiences a smoother, more peaceful life. He is happier, calmer, more loving or truthful. He allows for more universal harmony and rightness to influence him. You are 100% pure God consciousness but being earth-born in dense matter, you are not aware. You were born into what is called "the veil". As a consciousness, you are somewhere on the ladder of evolving your true self-realization. You are growing in awareness through experiences, both good and bad. They lead you toward understanding and eventually better ways of applying your life. You learn to work your way through dense layers of grossness instead of repressing them or running away from them. You follow the urge to get clarity and understanding and this takes you sometimes into the mouth of the roaring lion. You may even be eaten, but you are refining your understanding and ridding yourself of fear. You are the divine monad which is pure, seeking to clear itself of errors, which create obstructions and thick walls around your purity, and keep you from knowing yourself as you truly are. The Monad is a term used for the God-self.
Chakras are vortexes of pure energy located in the astral body. Hair-thin streams of light radiate out from these vortexes called 'nadis", and go to every part of the physical body. They carry pure consciousness mixed with error energy to every part of the body, so you receive both the good and pure and the bad and ugly energy. Nadis deliver this two-fold energy to the physical nerves and blood, so that this energy goes everywhere in the body. The dense physical body can receive both negtive energy and positive clarity consciousness. Whichever one you "feed" or respond to, your body responds to. You suffer ill health or good health. It all depends on what you are responding to in your daily life. Your nerves, heart, liver and lungs tell you the story. The nadis feed first into the meridians and then into the nerves of the physical body. Through the stepping down of the 100% pure God consciousness into the physical body, the body is nourished and supported by the vital fires of life. But it is important to recognize that, mixed in with the purity of God consciousness, is the trash, junk and absolute evil that we've picked up over the many lives we've lived. This so-called "evil" goes against and thus blocks out, the 100% pure God consciousness that we know ourselves to be in our natural state.
There are seven sub-layers to each dimension, and there are seven major dimensions that can be accessed by a human being during life in form. In the physical form, the nerves are physical, but the meridians are etheric, a higher form of physical. The nadis and chakras are a higher form of physical, called astral. The soul is trying to reach the physical and be in direct contact with the physical so it can manifest in the physical world. But there are obstructions in the way. Each body and person is at a different level of clearing those obstructions away. n. The etheric body, invisible to most people, is called the etheric double. It looks exactly like the physical body, but is composed of the higher etheric substance of the physical world.
It is worth repeating this. The physical body has seven sub-levels made of physical matter. The lowest and densest is that which we can see with our eyes, and feel when we touch and move about in. This substance is the grossest of all the levels above. The highest of the physical is etheric. These are the three levels of etheric called etheric 1, etheric 2 and etheric 3. Conscious realization, such as "aHa!" moments increases the vibration of the body up a notch. This happens when a person makes a betterment or correction in the way he lives, thinks, moves or speaks with another. This moves him into closer alignment with universal laws of love, light and forgiveness.
Each atom and electron is surrounded by these seven sub-levels of the physical. Every molecule, every gland, organ, bone and nerve is surrounded by seven dimensions. You carry the dimensions with you. You are a multi-dimensional being on your way to realizing this. Every particle of physical matter floats in the higher plane of etheric matter. Each etheric particle floats in the higher planes of astral matter. Each astral particle floats in the higher planes of mental matter. And each mental particle floats in the higher planes of spiritual matter. Each successively higher plane is thinner and the subatomic particles spread further apart than the plane below it. The spiritual plane, in turn, floats in the light body known which religion has named the "Christ" body. The light body is the immaculate concept for you, the intended God being in form, working through the evolutionary process of becoming a God. Or Goddess. The male term here is generalized and refers also to females.
And then there are two more "bodies" that surround the particles of the Christ body: (1) the causal body which is composed of the seven rays of God qualities and, (2) the I Am Presence which is referred to as the monad or father in heaven.
The immaculate concept is a divine pattern of light which cannot be altered or modified. It can only be filled in, as a child fills in a black and white drawing in a coloring book with colors. The immaculate concept is what draws the electrons from the Monad into shape and form. The pattern is embedded in the electrons of your seven bodies as a homing device, calling you home and whispering your name. However, your four lower bodies have accumulations of mistakes and wrong beliefs that prevent you from hearing the call so the light doesn't get through to your physical brain and body tissues. The light is who you are, but you are temporarily living in a densely packed-down (crunched) animal form made of contaminants and light mixed together. The dense earth matter of your body may not have experienced the divine but you DO have flashes from time to time.
As we journey from infant into childhood and adulthood we become programmed to the outer world which fixates only on material forms. Our animal bodies learn to follow our predecessors' rules. Yet we manage to have our own individual experiences outside the box, so to speak. And through trial and error we learn secretly what works for us and what doesn't. But we keep it to ourselves. We have a secret life growing inside of us. An awareness that is sacred. The creator's plan is to have us evolve ourselves on our own, and not to follow the rules laid down by others. The urge to find ourself is a strong motivating force that drives us onward, seeking for something better. What drives us? We don't know. We just keep looking for that which warms our heart and feels right. There is an ideal within that pulls us forward - until we grow tired and give up on this life. Then we return to our natural state and learn our rightful place in the heavens. Then we come back to another reincarnated form with another family to continue following the inner voice, this mysterious inner call.
To repeat some of the afore-mentioned for clearer understanding, we grow towards refinement by choosing to discard that which is NOT-Light, NOT-love, NOT-truth, NOT-good, NOT-clear. That which does not feel good or right to us. Through experiences both good and bad we learn to discern and discriminate. The astral body is made of the substance of the astral world, and is one of the seven planes of our universe. All seven planes are - physical, astral aka emotional, mental, spiritual, light, causal and God aka the Monad. The four lower bodies are - (1) physical, (2) astral aka emotional, (3) mental, and (4) spiritual aka higher mental. These four lower bodies contain accumulated mistakes, errors and contaminants. We refer to them as dark and evil. These contaminants are the result of millions of years of living and dying, living by trial and error, both individually and combined with the planetary consciousness of the race of human.
The HIGHER bodies that surround us as a bubble of light are pure 100% consciousness, without contamination. They are known as (1) the light body aka christ body, (2) the causal body containing the seven rays of God, and (3) the Monad aka the God-self. These "bodies" or layers of light are beyond human contamination. No darkness can touch them. These three dimensions surround us at all times, wherever we go. No matter what we are doing, they are the life, the consciousness that feeds us while we live in the physical world. It is imperative that we learn the words and start talking about them because if we don't, we will continue to live in a dark space of struggle to understand. It is impossible to understand who we are until we take in the truth of who we are, and awaken to the seven levels of consciousness that is our soul. The seven planes of matter, and the chakras, meridians and nadis that are our very life force which allows us to walk, talk and breathe.
As it is reported in the scriptures of the world, "In the beginning was the WORD..." It is by assigning a sound to an idea or a concept that begins intelligent conversation with another. Without talking with each other we remain closed up in our own non-sounding world feeling alone, confused, in the dark, and isolated. If we don't have the right words or if we're afraid to say the words out of fear of retaliation or rejection, we shall remain closed up in a prison of our own making. We begin the purification of dead fear and false terror by talking about it. Movement of energy begins flowing as soon we start telling our secret and sacred stories, our knowledge and beliefs. Try telling someone a secret you've never told anyone before and see the lightness that transforms you. Ascension is an awareness and sensation of expanding consciousness hitting the body's cells and tissues. It happens when we get over ourselves and start loosening up and radiating our knowledge. Self-created fears release blockages. Pure 100% conscious energy starts to flow. It is felt as exuberance, or higher still - ecstasy. Ascension is simply letting the old dark energies go and fade away by releasing them and telling them. The energies of ore purity can then flow as they were meant to flow, and touch the nerves and cells of the human body with light. (Part 3 tomorrow)
(Much of this information comes from the book "The Astral Body" by Annie Besant, a famous clairvoyant who lived from 1847-1933.)
6/20/22 - The astral body, aka the emotional body, part 1
It is important to develop the mental practice of imagining your astral body. It is the first step in connecting to your emotions. Your emotional body is not “in” your body. The astral (emotional body) is a subtle plane, invisible to eyesight. Once you begin to imagine yourself larger than physical, you begin to receive more subtle impressions. You become more sensitive. In essence you are stepping outside of the box of 3D with your awareness which gives you some idea of the astral matrix you swim in. Imagining it will help you to step into it. As you imagine entering into the interstellar spaces between the atoms and molecules that make up your physical body, you enter into the astral plane which is the next dimension higher than the physical. Your imagination is the magic which has been shut down since childhood. After practicing this for a while, you may then begin having lucid night dreams. As you do this, your I Am Presence, called the Monad, is expanding into the astral. The purity of your divine monad, which is in essence your consciousness, passes downward into lower dimensions through first your mental, then down through your astral, then down through your etheric and into your physical body. It must pass through distortions to get to your physical body. Your monad is a perfect blueprint of yourself destined to become a perfect human physical, but the mental body and emotional body is packed with distortions, not complete concepts, not complete ideas. Unresolved trauma picked up from lifetimes past have not been resolved. These are what cause you frustration. They are packed closely in and around you on the etheric, astral and mental level. Your physical body cannot be a perfect vehicle for you to express through until these are purified and cleansed.
You think you are cleaning up your physical body when you are trying to cleanse. But you are actually cleaning up your mental, astral and etheric bodies through your efforts at purifying towards betterment. These bodies are invisible and unknowable to you for you were never told about them. They are the interdimensional space between the physical atoms. What takes place on the etheric, astral and mental level plays out on the physical. It is through the subtle astral body that you receive physical sensations. Without the astral you would not hear, see, smell, taste or feel through skin touch. The astral body is the ocean in which your physical atoms and cells swim like fishes. You hear sound through this ocean within you vibrating on your ears. You see objects and people through this ocean within you as vibration on your eyes. You smell fragrances through this ocean within you as vibration on your nostrils. You taste through vibrations on your tongue. You feel the touch of another through this ocean of vibration hitting your outer skin and the many nerve endings there. You think you are only physical and do not know about the etheric and astral, both on higher dimensional planes from the physical. If the physical world were to disappear, everything would appear the same to you because the astral is the cause of the physical and carries the vibrations of the physical world. When you die and your monad leaves the body vehicle, your astral body remains, looking exactly like your physical. If your body collapsed on the floor, the astral would remain standing along with your etheric. Your etheric is made of physical matter and so it would fade away first, leaving your astral body which is of the astral plane, still remaining. The astral body is what we today call the emotional body.
(This information comes from the book "The Astral Body" by Annie Besant, a famous clairvoyant who lived from 1847-1933. Part 2 tomorrow.)
6/13/22 - The etheric body, aka the light body
Imagine yourself surrounded by a bubble of brilliant white light. Your physical body is also made of light but the light particles have been densely crushed together so it appears to be solid. The human anatomy is a marvelous design that was created to express this purity in dense physical form but there are kinks in the way. The bubble of light that surrounds us is contaminated on the four lower levels, but the three higher levels remain pure and perfect and dazzlingly clean and white.
The three higher levels are always there, wherever we go, whatever we do, however we respond, they are pure perfection. We carry pure perfect light and idealism with us at all times. It is pure conscious light but it’s not getting through the four denser layers. The etheric body, which we cannot see with our physical senses, feeds our physical body with life, vitality and intelligent clarity, but there are clogs in the way. It is time we knew about it so we can begin the cleansing process consciously. And open the pathways of belief and understanding that we are pure consciousness. The etheric body is subtle, sensitive and more knowledgeable than we from the perspective of walking around in heavy, dense physical vehicles with blinders on.
So why don’t we know about the etheric body? First of all, because it has not been part of our education system. Secondly, because there are seven layers to the etheric body and FOUR of them, the four lower bodies, are contaminated with errors and sludge. There is plaque built up in them like the plaque in the arteries of the heart. They block the flow through the subtle nerves, called nadis, and their subtle distribution centers called chakras.
Of the seven layers of light that compose the etheric body, the three higher layers are pure radiant exquisite light, not contaminated by human error. They are what we call our higher self, or spiritual guides, or higher angels, or God self. We walk around with this light intact and a permanent part of our living life force. It is ever available for us to call to it and ask questions and receive answers. But this pure unadulterated light is out there on the outer edge of our bubble of light, and there are blockages in the way. We either don’t ask, or we don’t listen, or we remain blind, deaf, dumb and ignorant.
Let's define the seven levels, often called the seven bodies. The four lower levels are, in order of density: (1) the physical body as the heaviest, (2) the etheric body, (3) the emotional body aka astral body, and (4) the mental body. Each interpenetrates the one below it because they are, in reality, all one body of light. This will be explained in more detail in later chapters. These four lower "bodies" have collected dark energies and need to be cleared out. Techniques are forthcoming.
The remaining three layers are uncontaminated by human mistakes, errors and sludge. They remain on the higher dimensions and therefore compose the outer periphery of our bubble of light. They are (5) the light body known as the Christ, which is a pure crystalline filigree pattern of light that looks like a living tree of light and runs through the physical body. It is also called the Adam Kadmon. (6) The causal body containing the seven rainbow rays of God qualities that were imprinted into our consciousness before we ventured away from our paradise home in heaven. (7) The individualized Monad, known as the Father-Mother God, or I AM Presence, which is our pure Self consciousness.
It is time to learn about the etheric body. We cannot begin to comprehend the fullness of who we are until we become educated. The light that we are will never die. We are eternal. However, the lower human mistakes, errors, confusions and negative memories will pass away in time and be forgotten. They are the crud that blocks the flow of life and light. As we get educated about who we really are as normal, walking, talking, breathing human beings, we clean up our personal lives and begin to enjoy life with many happy benefits, including pure joy and happiness to be alive. We also clean up our neighbors, friends, families, gardens, homes, businesses, our environment in every corner. It is the the practical education about the etheric body that we need. Let us be practical about it and bring this knowledge into livable action. It is the only way to bring ourselves into alignment with who we are. The etheric body is purely physical. It is the body double. It looks just like the physical body. It FEEDS the physical body. We must come to know about it. Knowing about the etheric body is key to increased vitality, clear-mindedness, health, right relationships, more love, empathy, kindness and happiness. We live on one of the densest planets in the universe, if not THE densest, where we are confined to the belief that we are “just physical”. We don’t really believe that, I don't think, but it’s part of the mainstream culture so we pretend to believe it. I don't think we really believe that, do we?
6/11/22 - What is sex anyway?
Sex is just another thing you do with your body. Your body is the vehicle for you to use while in embodiment. You’re actually a non-physical being. But when you’re in a body it’s just another thing to do, like playing tennis or washing your car or cleaning your house or going shopping or painting a picture, or playing the piano. All of these are things you do with your body. You can do them with a partner or alone. Sex is different however than these other things you do, because when you’re doing it with a partner you can soar upward into higher dimensions and into that sacred space called nirvana. That is, if you take the time to learn how. You can go all the way back to source and become one with source again which is the most glorious place in all of existence. And you can do that because when two people resonate together and match vibration by vibration and match up each chakra portal with the other’s chakra portals, the portals open and the power of two bounces back and forth from one to the other.
It’s like playing tennis. You need a partner to bounce balls back and forth. So you need a partner to receive and send energy back and forth. But you’re carrying the energy upward, not staying on the ground floor. That’s part of the training and need for education and practice. Dimension by dimension, step by step you walk up the stairs together to the top of your head, consciously. You bounce the energy back and forth in each dimension. You can’t do this alone in the same way. There are other ways, of course, like solitary prayer and worship to your God alone. But it’s not a physical visceral feeling carrying someone along with you in a sensual way. To resonate the nirvanic experience with another human sentient body you need to send or reflect or bounce or align each chakra portal energy with that same chakra portal of your partner. It is this connection at the root chakra, sacral chakra, solar chakra, diaphragm chakra (if you have both worked with this chakra), heart chakra, thymus chakra, throat chakra, third eye chakra, crown chakra, soul star chakra and your Presence, meaning you’ve learned to stay in the present moment. You can go as far as you like with a partner and experience body sensations that are so elevated that you are not aware of your body any longer. You lose consciousness of your body the higher you go together into bliss or nirvana, for you are joining with the oneness, the wholeness, the all-that-is, which is God. And then you can stay there as long as you are permitted by your higher selves, and then you will be brought back down to earth again.
6/10/22 - Sharing a revelation from 40 years ago
Last night the presence came again, after fifteen months. Fifteen months during which I lost count the number of times I crumbled my writings into a ball and threw them into the wastebasket to stare hopelessly out the window at the ever changing colors in the air around me, oblivious to my frustrated attempts.
How does one explain the splendor of the sun? How does one name that which has no name? Where does one find the temerity - the audacity - to attempt to fit that celestial brilliance into the rigid casing of the English language, where it must conform to human logic? For fifteen months I tried. I have been trying to create a helpful program of instruction to suit the times. There are so many people who want to know about meditation and the long lost powers of a race of gods now disguised in flesh. I could tell them. For fifteen months I have examined my task from every perspective imaginable. I have built it up and I have honed it down so that the simplest minds could understand. I have colored it with the truth that is stranger than fiction and I have filled it out with the meat of the practical mind. I have written it and revised it, again and again and again. And each time I have thrown it away. I have tried to explain the nature of that which cannot be explained. I have tried to fit the immortal into a mortal format, and for the last fifteen months the presence has not come, neither in the day nor in the night as it used to. Its absence seems to say, “Go ahead! Chisel it down to human size if you want but the fires of vision will not support you, nor will the majesty that you once knew visit you during such miniscule efforts!”
Finally I have been forced to admit to that which I once knew but had conveniently forgot. That which touches my inner heart from time to time, does so at the whim of a law not my own. That which illumines my inner eye is a light of a type unknown to me. I am but a fluff riding on giant waves, the recipient of a flame whose origins I do not understand. And so, two days ago I gave up in utter and complete frustration and agreed to stop all attempts to capture it in words. I gave up and in the wake of my surrender, the presence came again. In the night it came - that mystical light which conforms not an iota to the laws of this world, nor to the piousness of my body and mind. Undaunted by my imperfections it sought once more to establish itself within my being in all its sunlit magnificence and impart a message to me.
Somewhere around dawn it came. I do not remember if my physical eyes ever opened or not, for I was in that peculiar state of consciousness which I have come to know so well, and for which I yearn so much these days, where my physical surroundings dwindle into nothingness as the ephemeral lights begin to twinkle into a crackling alertness in my mind, which signifies the coming of a great event.
The following attempt to describe the vision is a direct result of that particular visitation last night. I must put this down in writing. I must. I do not know why but I must. As I awoke from the stupor of sleep, I became conscious of an immense sea of pulsating and sparkling lights which seemed to be electrical in nature. The over-all color was orange but with gold overlying and darkness underlying and blackness in the background. Upon closer inspection I found that I was WITHIN this sea of tiny little specks of light, each one of which was so miniscule as to be as small or smaller than an atom, for they were not able to be seen with the physical eye.
I did not see any one speck individually, per se, yet somehow I knew that each one was distinctly separate from its neighbors and unique. Yet simultaneously it was a unified part of the whole. The effect was like a strange kind of liquid undulation heaving with a mightiness that defied description, and a unity that defied separation. This flowing sea of lights stretched in all directions into infinity for, again I don’t know how, but I knew that there was no end. I seemed to be part of this network of crackling lights that caused a great increase in my state of alertness. And as I watched I saw that each tiny spark was a mind with a consciousness all its own and it moved and glittered and sparkled with an intensity unique from its neighbors. The overall movement was one of exquisite sophistication and harmony not unlike a great orchestra caught up in a symphony of sounds where each instrument moves only in relation to the whole, never, never by itself.
I was overwhelmed with the immensity which was so obviously a living mind with vast powers of intelligence capable of holding the whole system together and in my heart there rose a song of devotion and praise, and I knew that I was one of those sparkling specks of light. I was struck with awe, and no matter in which direction I turned to look I could see far and deep. And I saw the varying shades and hues of light, the darker ones brownish in color falling into the backdrop, while the most brilliant ones, the color of the sun, came forward to catch and dazzle my eye, so alive where they - and radiating.
And now comes the hardest part of all. My words describe what I saw but there was another dimension to the vision which involved a penetration of feeling. The message that soon began to impress upon me was done through this deeper level of feeling. The sense of awe and grandeur to which I first awoke out of a dead sleep, was only the beginning. For shortly I found myself within the brilliant rays of a flaming intelligence focalized in the form of a sun. It burned with a white fire, whiter than any white I have seen thus far, yet I knew it to be a person. And as I fell into the magnetism of this intellect, I felt myself absorbing its attributes so that I was no longer myself, though I must have retained the shell of my former being in order to remember and describe it now. But for that span of time I was a part of that magnificent singular mind - that most impressive being - and I felt the whole spectrum of goodness - compassion, wisdom, intelligence, love, strength, purpose, clarity, refinement - it was, somehow, a fulfillment of what every mind should be, although who am I to say? I cannot imagine any mind on Earth ever attaining this grandeur even if it were to evolve for a million years. Such purity is impossible to imagine and yet, perhaps not. Perhaps not.
As I was being absorbed into the radiation of those rays, it was like being absorbed into the delicious rays of the warm summer sun yet a thousand times over. I became conscious of absorbing also a message most especially meant for me. I was being drenched with a quite specific instruction, through and through, body, mind and soul. It was so abundant and overflowing that at the height of the message it seemed that I WAS the instruction itself imprinting itself into every atom that composed my body. The moving pageant of the entire solar system would have faded into insignificance compared to that one moment in my life. And now I must attempt a translation into English, for this is specifically my task.
There was a prelude to the main body of the message and it was this: Had I been outside of the brilliance of this solar presence I would not have been able to receive its message. Thus for the short time that the message was being impressed upon me I was absorbed into it to become one with it. Only this way, I was told, could I have withstood its presence. This knowledge was given to me through an absorption into my whole being. The main part of the message was as follows:
“There is an element unlike any element thus far discovered by mankind. It has yet to be researched and known. This elemental experience was given to me but I cannot describe it in words. I felt it and I knew it for the space of several moments. This element is similar to a power, yet it is more than a power for it comes close to being a substance. It is not fire, yet it is similar to fire. It is not water yet it is similar to water. It is not air yet it is similar to air. It is not substance yet it is similar to substance. It is not intelligence yet it is similar to intelligence. It has all of the above elements within it, yet it is more. It is somewhere between the physical and the nonphysical.
“This element has yet to be discovered and known and written about, and I am one of many who can do it. There are others. Many, many people are involved with it at varying levels, but those who are dealing with it on other levels cannot define it. I am to define what I experience. The visions I see come out of it and my movements are an effect of it. All of the incredible experiences I have been having come out of it and now I must put my experiences into words.”
In the lingering afterglow of this message I waited, as if on pause, because there was a secondary message. Its meaning was burned even deeper into the very core of me so that it became a permanent part of me, and it was this.
“I am not to presume that I know any more than anyone else pertaining to this element, for this is not the case. I have a certain purpose to accomplish, and I have been prepared to carry out this purpose. My purpose is that of a recorder, not unlike the historian who records the facts as he sees them. If there were no historians, there would be no history books for others to use as reference points and guidelines in their work with this new element.”
The experience was still going on as I began coming out of that brilliant place into a smaller, darker space and I awoke in bed beside Bob, who was still asleep, trying to capture the echoes of it as it faded. Through my mind moved the haunting impression of once having held the glory of a sunset in the palms of my hands. It took me a long time to adjust to the flat darkness of my bedroom, time in which I became once more conscious of the clock whose red numerals glowed in the semi-dark and the heaviness of sleeping bodies. The soft light of the dawn was apparent through the draperies.
At length a bird called and pulled me all the way awake. I lay still and then at length shifted and put one arm across Bob and pulled myself close against his warm back, glad now for his fierce protection which, in times past, so annoyed me. I was glad because I could tell him in the morning about it. Who else would have encouraged these other worldly things and listened with such patience as I stumbled over the words? I pondered the element. What was it? The extraordinary feeling of it still soaking in my depths. It was sensory. What does it mean? The feeling is hauntingly familiar. It is extraordinarily close. It is significant. But of what? I pondered a long time and finally went to sleep.
I woke about 10 with Bob and even before I opened my eyes I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt the meaning of the message. I could identify the element that has yet to be discovered. The element is the soul. The substance of the soul, the other side of the physical. I was stunned. My experiences have been with the mysterious substance of the soul, alive and real in everyone but yet unknown. The unknown element is the soul, that illusive substance of personal identity which is the keystone of the new age. Chills run through me as I write this
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Postscript: This was journaled (channeled?) in 1982. This morning, 40 years later, I had a significant experience with the Ascended Master Djwal Khul (DK). He told me to re-read this one again. I ran across it yesterday. He showed me that the nadis, nerves, chakras and layers of the etheric body I’ve been studying (under his direction) is the soul. It has been called the etheric body but it is the soul - the exact duplicate of the physical body. When a person dies, the etheric double can be seen as an apparition or a visitation by those with inner sight. It is a real communication from a loved one who has passed. I'm posting it here, lengthy as it is, as an official statement from me. There have been many youtube posts lately of pre-birth memories (google 'pre-birth memories') along with after-life or NDE experiences. So this long-hidden information, referred to as "occult", is coming out big time into the mainstream. DK is now showing me that it's OK for me to start posting what I know. It's time. DK says it must be delivered with love. Love has been flowing in me for a long time. The chakras, nadis, nerves and blood are all composed of fiery love substance that flows like water. It has been largely unknown but now it's official. Humanity as a whole has reached the level of evolution to understand these things. Love from me!
6/3/22 - The dual nature of our passive/aggressive nature
Physicality exists all over the universe. It exists because of duality. Oneness could not descend without forming polar opposites, which pushed and pulled against each other. Through this pushing and pulling, there is friction. From friction there is a lowering and slowing of vibration. From the lowering and slowing of vibration there is condensation and coagulation. Density comes into being from lowering and slowing of vibration. And thus there is also attraction and clinging together. Physicality and form exists from pushing and pulling against opposites and the fun and creativity of coming together to enjoy each other in the world of sensation.
Positive and negative forces create the push-pull of stimulation and the adventure of discovery but we all came from wholeness, before there was form. No divisions occurred in the wholeness. It was pure unity and harmony. You belonged where you belonged and no one thought to resist you or argue with you. It is only by dividing the wholeness into two separate purities, two separate parts, that attraction and repulsion are created. The two original divisions were action and non-action. One takes the positive action and the other receives. Positive and negative. From there, more opposites grow. But the original duality is the male and female in us. We are either passive, quiescent and silent, holding space of comfort and peace - or we are proactive. In today's terms passive and aggressive are considered unbalanced. But these two divisions reside in all of us. It is a matter of bringing them into balance that we enjoy good health and an active plentiful life.
The passive in all of us is like the hub of the wheel. It moves but does not move from its central position on the wheel. It covers foreign territory, foreign roads, but it is not affected by alien environments. It holds space and peace wherever it goes. It is not an anti-force. It is a healthy force. Being passive is being always connected at the hub and center while the rest of us rotates and experiences the bumps of rocky roads. In the passive stillness at the center of the wheel there is balance. The outer periphery of the wheel looks to the center to hold it together so it doesn't fall to pieces. There is a feminine passive nature in all beings.
A division took place within perfection and perfect God beings who were pristine in their original nature, fell and densified into embodiment. Each of us is a unique consciousness in our pristine state, but we have periodically traveled to different dimensions to have less-than-perfect experiences. We are each different from other God sparks, but we love sharing our knowledge with our friends. Being self-aware, we are growing even MORE self-aware by living in these tumultuous, chaotic times. We can turn inward to our center at any time of the day and night, once again find the soothing silence of peace. Because we are also assertive, aggressive at times, and highly active, we need to do that often. Especially now that so much craziness is happening in the world. We CAN be both active and passive alternately throughout the day if we are aware of the powers that are in us. Rest periodically. Lie down and stop the thought processes completely. There is a rhythm to life, and the passive/aggressive nature of life demands that we rest often, to allow our physical, mental and emotional functions to fall back into alignment again. Stop the waters from churning for 30 minutes. Maintaining a healthy attitude requires resting often.
Both aspects of the passive/aggressive parts of human nature are pure. It is that they are two extremes and two opposites that we consider them "wrong" or "unhealthy". Respect both sides of our nature. There are two different components in us. They each deserve a happy healthy welcome. One part of the original God spark from which we came, is embedded in the earth. The other part of the original God Spark remains in an unformed state, in the realms we call heaven. Between these two parts of ourself, we play the role of immature child playing in the soil and sand, building sand castles and soil trenches. We learn what doesn't work by playing in the dirt. You are the soul learning things by being human playing in the dirt but we have two magificent God parents in the two polarities guiding us. One is located at the base of the spine, which is our Mother God, and the other is in the heavens beyond our sight. We can choose to be passive or assertive at any time we like, sometimes even aggressive or violent. Later, after the embodiment time is over, we return to being the eternal immortal consciousness which delights in the greater life of joy and freedom to move about with light and love. The form life of passive/aggressive is an adventure. Enjoy it while it lasts and appreciate it.
Your parents are pure God, divided for purposes of your embodiment. Mother God is embedded in the earth to anchor your consciousness here while in a body, and Father God remains formless in the timeless state of now, which is your natural home. YOU yourself created your denser body in which to live while here. The body is a spinoff child of your greater nature. You are the soul. You think you are the human body but you are the soul temporarily residing in the human body. You wear a mask, you created a mask, which is called an ego personality, the sum total of all your accumulated wisdoms and learning experiences. And when your time is done, you are the richer for your life. You are the child playing in the sandbox with others but you are the wise elder who is registering great wisdom. You are developing greater skills in how to master the physical body. You are become a master through the mundane of normal average human life. The rights and wrongs of it through gut feeling, intuition and simple trial and error. Soul discernment and the desires for love and service on a grander, wider scale lead to higher and higher evolution. Your treasure chest is filling up with your adventures and rewards at the end of your sufferings, living and dying through many lifetimes, many cultures, many worlds.
You as a pure God spark could not learn about physicality by staying home in heaven in the sweet embrace of your sweet angelic friends. No, you had to leave the unformed state and descend downward into density. You had to slow down and coagulate the particles of light and love - squish them, pummel them, squeeze them together into clay and soil and mushy substance to make a form in which you delight. You chose to do this. You were given the opportunity to do this. You were invited and you accepted to explore beyond heaven’s gates. You descended and were born into human form. You, God spark that you are, divided into two equal flames. One lighted consciousness went below into the earth planet to be your anchor. The other stayed behind in heaven. They are your Father - the one in heaven - and your mother the one who preceded you to Earth. You play between them, rising and falling according to circumstances, opening doors and closing doors. Becoming passive and resting, then becoming dynamic and creative. You draw upon your Father God in realms beyond you, do you hear him calling? And you draw upon your Mother God in the innocence of nature's purity. Draw on them often. You are veiled while here, so you WILL draw on them. They are guiding you. One inspiring you to stay earthy and grounded, the other inspiring you reach for the stars. In the sweet peace between them you find your balance.
5/28/22 - Quick update
Sending love and light to everyone who is checking in on me. Shifting between the 3rd and the 5th dimension is rocky and tumultuous. It is keeping me busy. Everyone's path and ways of approaching life are different. It is up to us to know our own path and stick to it Energy flows through you all the time, both from source and from outside other people. Fall into alignment with the good in you, the moral, the decent, the right in you. It FEELS GOOD to fall into alignment with your own feel-good source. It feels right. Mankind has not understood that what feels good is the right path to take, as long as it is not harming someone else. It is a wonderful, blissful, rapturous feeling to fall into alignment with the good in you. The good in you is connected to the good in the other people around you. It is our only connection to the good in the universe. That which FEELS GOOD morally, ethically, decently, lovingly, kindly. Everyone’s pathway UP the mountain to the holy place at the top is different. But once there we all come together as ONE.
5/19/22 Another glimpse at the Love Club
Today during meditation I felt the softness of the Love Club again. The Love Club has been in the background of my thoughts for many years but the time has not been right for it to come forward. I'm still trying to explain it. The expectation of sex is such a strong influence. Most people would assume that the Love Club means a sex club. How do we shift the consciousness of the average person away from the idea that sex means love? Love is not physical. It's an attitude. Sex is physical. It requires action from another body, which becomes a pressure on the part of the one who wants to engage in sex. How do we create a Love Club that allows warm close contact without creating an expectation of sex as the end result?
Perhaps the Love Club should start out as a class or teaching, with discussion following? We could gather once a month as a meet and greet with snacks. My thoughts tend to go in that direction. During meditation today I felt the promise awaiting us when the Love Club is finally here. The softness and gentleness is beyond description. It is the opposite of what one expects it to be. Imagine receiving divine love from the most loving person ever? It is the softest, gentlest, sweetest sensation that goes deep, deep, deep inside you, sensually awakening every cell in your body. It is warm, flowing, extraordinarily blissful. I've felt it. If you've never felt it before, then you're in for a treat.
Love is NEVER forceful. It is selfless. The clue is selflessness. In fact, love only happens to you when you the receiver become selfless yourself. When you empty yourself of all expectations and dreams of fantastic endings, that's when you become a receiver of love. That's when you empty yourself so that you can FEEL the love that is everywhere present. Love is inside you. Love is in the person or people you are with. It is everywhere. It is in the atmosphere itself, it is in the couch and chairs and tables. Love is everywhere. To open to receive this amazing sensation of love, one must become a total receiver - empty of all expectation. The spiritual people call it light, but it's really love. Light is information and we are such a mental race that we talk too much. Light gets hung up in the brain/head. If we stop with all the talking and pushing our agendas forward as in competition, we could become a receiver. When we can become a total 100% receiver, that's when we receive love. That means to receive love we have to stop controlling the outcome. Does that make sense? This is the process I'm working out. I have been given some powrerful hints from the masters but they can't do it for me. I have to do it for myself.
It's just the opposite of what most of us have been doing. Most of us try to push love on someone or something. We GIVE it. One cannot GIVE selfless love, because in the process of GIVING one must use force. Receiving holy divine love is not trying. It is emptying oneself of the need to try, or the need to fulfill someone, or the need to perhaps prove we can be loving. Emptying oneself of all needs to do or expect, then you become a vacuum. The masters say you surrender your ego then, your ego being the small limited self. Then you are in a void and, with the proper attitude of appreciation, gratitude and kindness, one attracts love and kindness to fill the void. Then one is filling up with love. Others can feel it in you too. It goes through your whole body sparking every cell and atom in your body. No one feels pressure from you. They feel the love filling you up, you were a void and love is filling you up because you held it in your attitude. Not your thoughts but your heart. Then people are drawn to you like moths to a flame, or like butterflies to a beautiful flower. They want some too. That's what I felt the Love Club to be like this morning. Everyone is filling up with love, happy, smiling and receiving the love that is everywhere. And everyone is radiating it, siimply radiating it. Not "making it happen".
That is what the Love Club is about. It is SO worth practicing. It's the deepest, softest, gentlest, mildest, most fulfilling warm, yummy feeling in the world when everyone is on the same level of enlightenment. Love radiates. It must be practiced because we learn through experiencing sensations.
5/14/22 - What is the third eye exactly?
A friend hit the nail on the head when he suggested to me look into the third eye. I have never been very good as a rational or practical thinker. As a spiritual female for many years I was always a "heart" person. After he suggested "third eye" I was guided to the Master Djwhal Khul's book on Esoteric Healing. Here I learned the way to conscious control of all the problems in the world, from disease to chaos, is done through the third eye. I had no idea!
The third eye is composed of the pineal gland working together with the pituitary gland. The glands are the endocrine system. In Taoist practices, the glands are basically the same as the chakra system coming from ancient teachings in India. The pineal gland and the pituitary gland are physically close to each other in the head. There is a vibratory field around each of them. Most people are not aware. These two different fields need to become coordinated, integrated, so they work together. I am now visualizing them with a field of calm, soothing gentle energy around the physical glands, like a glow. This brings the two fields of energies together as one. I have noticed a good result from doing this, but it is still early in my practice. This, it is said, activates the third eye, by pulling these two glands into harmony and unity under conscious direction. This will soothe the body, diminish anxiety and assert more conscious control over our lives. It is a matter of conscious will power over chaotic energies.
He says we have reservoirs of different energies feeding into our solid physical bodies. From pure light energy, it condenses down into higher mental reservoir, lower mental reservoir, emotional energy reservoir (much chaos), etheric energy reservoir then it flows into the physical body. Most people are not aware. The physical body is a robot following the energies that are descending down into the body. Now it is up to learn how to manage these energy reservoirs.
The astral body is the emotional body. It contains the feelings we generate, from stress to anxieties to depression, all of it which feeds lower down into the etheric body. The etheric body then flows down into the physical body. And we feel it. To counteract the bad feelings we have to take firm control over our thoughts and practice holding calmness, quiet, silence, stillness, soothing thoughts of peace, birds singing, crickets chirping, pine trees blowing in the wind, whatever makes you feel peaceful. At the same time picture a glow around both the pineal and the pituitary glands. A glow is a vibration. Become peaceful. To awaken the third eye, bring the pineal gland and the pituitary gland into harmony by imagining their vibratioins as soothing calming feelings merging together into one glow.
I'm only at the beginning of this study, but it seems to be working. I understand that the pineal is the spiritual center, and the pituitary is the physical plane center. So it would make sense harmonizing the two of them.
5/10/22 - Introducing the Taoist philosophy
Consciousness is the only thing we own for ourself
A new perspective has dawned recently as a result of reading and practicing the ancient Tao methods and philosophy. It has turned a certain belief I had upside down which cleared a lifelong confusion. I thought I was feminine and of the earth! But the Tao masters are showing me that feminine is from the sky, not of the earth. Feminine is the unformed intelligence of the universe. And that it is masculine which controls the creating and building of the solid form. So, it is the masculine which is of the earth and earthy, and it is the feminine that is from the heavens. This makes sense but I did not understand. This was my view of the world. My connection to spirituality and cosmic forces makes much more sense now. And my husband's disconnection with spirit and his heavy focus on physical objects and logic fits better into the broader scheme.
However, regardless of gender, we are all here living in a solid body. We were born to earth and were plugged into the planet. We get our life from the earth but, according to the Tao masters, we can become a wire or a hollow reed that brings the sun's vitality down to the earth, and we can fill ourselves with that vitality direct from the sun. We do not have to get it all from the earth. The Tao teaches to inhale from the sun, and exhale down to earth. The earth recycles used energy and nourishes plants and animals with it. The earth receives the sun's vitality and stores it during the daytime, just like a battery. Nature is a marvelous recycling machine. The earth receives energy from the sun to create minerals, plants, animals and humans with it. Science, of course, knows all of this, but I as "too feminine" am not very logical!
My belief and connection to the galactics makes sense. Energy from the heavens includes space debris from other heavenly bodies that drift down upon the earth. All the planets in all the heavens build forms by receiving vitality from their suns. Earth is a power source for solid forms, widely diversified and exotic forms, too numerous to count. Mother Earth creates, and if we listen to the Tao masters, we can draw energy from the earth AND the sun at the same time to keep our bodies from eternally healthy and prevent ourselves from growing old and decrepit prematurely, and dying before we are ready. As long as we have a solid body we can strengthen our bodies from the sun and the earth if we know how.
I have been studying and practicing the Tao inner exercises. They are strengthening me. This information was not available to me when I was growing up into adulthood. I wish I had known about this when I was in my teens. Tao methods are relatively simple but require focus. It is a meditative practice, done alone so you can concentrate on yourself and the feelings that are generated. In the beginning practice, it is difficult to understand why you are doing them because the feelings are so subtle. But they are working to bring your awareness inward to subtle layers that you probably have not utilized before. They are invisible to the surface dweller. These bring you deeper inward to your inner energies that feed and nourish your physical. The subtle inner energies compose the vital forces of your body. To awaken those forces a person must bring his conscious awareness inward to blend with it. Then those inner forces begin to teach you. This is the method of immortalizing the human body. Until we pay attention to the subtle inner particles and waves, we will continue to be surface dwellers. The physical body is not being fed with the life force from the planet and the heavens.
Consciousness is the spirit of the body. It can remain shallow, fixated to the external world of form and action, or we can blend it with the inner forces and become enlightened with greater knowledge of who we are. Our consciousness is the Light that we hear so much about. The Light never dies, but the body dies when it is not blended and awakened with conscious attention. In our youth we take our physical body for granted, thinking it will last forever. Alas, we do not realize until we are older that that is not the case. The Tao masters teach mind-body-spirit blend, which is similar to Yoga but from a different culture and perspective.
ALL power comes from the sun which gets it from a greater sun which gets it from an even greater sun, and finally this great universal power reaches the earth planets to build sold forms. The Tao teaches very interesting inner exercises. One is called becoming a “hollow reed”. It consists of lying flat on your back and relaxing completely, and imagining breathing through your bones. You become a hollow tube drawing the energy from the earth AND from the sun. When a human being recharges on a daily basis with such simple and subtle exercises, one can remain youthful and strong well into old age. So they say. Free of disease, happy, enlightened, intelligent, creative and enjoying the pleasures of being alive in a body. In order to do so, however, one must accept that he is not special. The Tao recognizes that we are not separate beings but individual units connected to the one mind that made it all. Like cells in the body. This requires getting rid of the idea that we live for ourself alone, as a selfish person, which creates greed, abuse and hurts to others. The Tao says that none of these exercises will work without selfless love, compassion and kindness for everyone and everything, even so-called inanimate objects. The power to live, thrive and enjoy life comes from connecting to the whole with kindness. Everything in nature then pulls together and the power is stronger. Being in harmony with everything else creates strength like nothing else.
Becoming more conscious is the key. Becoming MORE conscious brings us closer to our original nature which is unity and unbounded order and harmony. Cosmic consciousness is amazing and continues to expand the longer one practices. We are all connected. We are all one mind evolving to know MORE of itself. The ego is the smaller part of us that sees us as all separate and different from each other. We think we are unique and different, but it is only the outer shell that is different. The inner consciousness that supports the outer difference is actually one mind, one cell in one mind, working in harmony with all the other units and cells. This inner consciousness is brilliantly awake, aware and conscious of life unending. Knowledge is infinite. Wholeness is eternal and goodness is supreme. This exquisite connection with all that is is called Light. Our consciousness is the light that lights up the world.
If interested in learning more about the Tao inner exercises, I recommend the following titles:
1) The Book of Internal Exercises by Stephen T. Chang - start with this one, it is a good beginner
2) Chi Nei Tsang Internal Organs Chi Massage by Mantak Chia & Maneewan Chia - this is more complex with more pages and presents a deeper philosophy
5/8/22 - May 16 Trisha Marinari guest speaker at Anakosha
Can spiritual love and sex live together in harmony?
Women only are invited to attend this gathering on Monday, May 16, from 2 to 6 pm. However, quickly I add that there will be a men-only gathering sometime in the near future. First we have to gather the women. It has been a man's world for a very long time. This is a very old, ancient prophecy from beyond time itself, that women will ultimately gain their rightful place on earth and fulfill their destiny - to be able to express their deepest, most profound dreams of freedom, happiness, joy, ecstasy and fulfillment, doing exactly what they always wished for. The women must be awakened first in this world of gender imbalance, because only then can they assist the men to enjoy the same. Let those who hear, pause for a moment and reflect on this statement.
Since working with Trisha Marinari over the last two weeks on her new video project, I have been experiencing rapid escalation of awareness. Click HERE for details. Inner knowledge has been flooding through that can't be told in simple words. It is as if a membrane broke somewhere inside me that held back unconscious knowledge from the heavens. Since I've made it my job to report all new revelations and translate them into common, down-to-earth language, I simply can't do it any more. There's too much. That's why we're moving into groups now. Groups around the world are gathering. Networks and communities are gathering. Like-minded people are sharing uncommon information with each other. It is bigger than the isolated individual who has been trying to find a way out of the box and fulfill the longing that keeps pressing forward.
The box has broken free. It is a new beginning today. People are scrambling to express what they know, a friend, a platform, a way to share what they know so they can enlarge on what they know because that's what evolution is all about - becoming bigger, more confident, more free, more grand, more exuberant, complete and excited. We must share with each other to make this happen. There has to be gatherings. This gathering has to happen to fulfill the prophecy. Not for me, not for Trisha, but for women who are ready to take this next step out of the closet and honor the deeply personal sacred knowledge that is seeping, bleeding through. Share it first with other women and gain confidence, and then express it with the men. Watch the opportunities unfold and begin to expand. The men are waiting. They need us. Can spiritual love and sexual intimacy work together? Yes, it can. It must because it is predestined. It is the ultimate test of human nature. It is the only way forward.
Contact via the contact page for directions and more information about the May 16 gathering. Love, Diana
5/7/22 - May 16 Gathering at my home in Naples
An invitation has been sent out to women only to gather at my home to hear Trisha Marinari speak on the sacred feminine. This is to help her launch her new intimacy counseling business in Naples. Her husband has posted some short quips of her speaking on youtube. I sat with Trisha two weeks ago for this conversation on video, to provide someone to reflect with. She is a one-on-one counselor, drawing on and responding to the light within the person she sits with. We had such a powerfully strong connection and so much information was shared during this time together, that I was inspired to set a date and invite her here, along with some other women of spirit.
This is another attempt of mine to gather women together to share sacred feminine. I've been trying to do this for many years but didn't have the power to manifest it. Trisha is an amazing woman. For her picture, see the goddess page HERE. To see her speaking, click on her new youtube channel HERE. I chose the date of May 16 because it is the May full moon, a very special day. Every year in the Wesak Valley in the Himalayas, the Buddha descends in a cloud of light, along with the Christ who also appears, to bring a message of hope to humanity. People are inspired to travel for days, maybe weeks, to arrive in the Wesak Valley every year to celebrate. They camp out in the hills that surround the valley.
This year there will be a total eclipse of the moon for about an hour and a half, they say, causing a cosmic phenomenon known as a blood moon. It coincides with a supermoon this year, a term for when the moon is at the closest point to Earth.
If you are a woman and would like to attend on May 16 to hear Trisha speak at my home in Naples, contact me through the Contact page and introduce yourself. It will be a small gathering. I can explain more in a personal email. Oh, by the way. My phone isn't working. It's been out since April 17. I can't receive or send texts. Email is the only way to contact me, which is through the contact page. Our phone server is merging with ATT and it's been complicated. I'll let you know when I'm back to texting again. LoveDiana of Anakosha
5/4/22 - About the 4th dimension
A friend wrote and asked my perspective on the fourth dimension. It's always fun to have someone ask, so I'll share my view here. But remember, this is only MY understanding. Take it or leave it. The 4th dimension is confusing to understand. As I see it, the 3rd dimension is a closed and restricted place with severe focus on ONLY the physical reality. It's run by ancient evil forces - forces, not beings - but the forces of light are here and working solidly to overcome them. In contrast, the 5th dimension is a lovely, non-dualistic consciousness dimension. Both 3D and 5D can be experienced while we're here on earth in a body. 5D is just much, much more peaceful and harmonious. Dimensions are levels of consciousness. There are no polar opposites in 5D to argue with. Instead there is an aliveness that is so exquisite, light-hearted, joyful, complete and fulfilling, with wonders beyond wonders available to explore because there is no opposing force. This can be experienced while living right here on earth IF the surroundings are also in 5D with you. Many activities are available, from social, to education, all sorts of new classes, new arts, new music, opportunities in ways of expressing and more, much more. It's like in heaven but it's still on planet earth. This is pre-ordained. Humanity is meant to reach this as a goal. Heaven on earth. But the earth has to become free of obstacles, oppositions, judgments, arguments and all the rest of the negative sides of personalities. Then people will be free here. Earth will be a whole new place to live. We'll get along because we'll appreciate each other instead of find fault with each other. The anger and resistance will magically transform into joyful applause at the vast differences we are each expressing. Beautiful! Like a garden of vast colors and sensations. We are each so UNIQUE! While we haven't arriveda t that place yet, we will. In time. It will be a NEW earth. Now the 4th dimension....
The 4th dimension is the processing dimension of consciousness, learning how to maneuver between the 3rd and the 5th is tricky. There has to be a training phase between them because there is a BIG difference in approach. The 4th level of consciousness is where we sort out the differences. We learn to stop working against each other where we resist and argue for our personal rights, and we start giving ground to appreciate the other person's rights. There is a difference in approach and we have to finagle our way through this. We learn to be bigger, kinder, and more loving. We learn the true essence of love, what love is. This is the stage the earth is going through now. We on earth are evolving our consciousness on a massive scale. We are growing up to a higher understanding about life in general. What is life to a small plant which grows into a big tree? We are in the fourth dimension now puzzling this out. The whole planet is going through this, and the outer world is full of chaos all the many opinions. Each of us different. No two are alike. We may live in the same household but we are learning to get along, aren't we? We are all moving towards harmony because that's what evolution is all about. Becoming bigger in mind, heart and feeling. We have to feel our way through the pre-teen years, the years of puberty, to get to be an adult of dignity. A more universal order is in store, and benefits that include freedom, joy, light-hearted excitement and opportunity for advancement. We are moving out of the old way of doing things by force, fury and control, into experiencing better, nicer ways of achieving what we want. Like how to let go of a past grievance and learn how to forgive and allow for mercy and compassion. This takes work, trying to be kind to each other when we don't FEEL kind. And accept each other even if we don't like someone. And to accept the concept that fighting does not accomplish anything.
The goal of the 4th dimension is to come to understanding that there is a BETTER way that gives us more satisfaction and happiness. We are searching for the way to make life lighter and easier for ourselves and our families and friends. We don't know how to do it because we've been doing it the old way for so long (as a species) so it's an individual process. Each one of us is learning it in our own way. It has to be in our own way as we are each a unique individual consciousness. A dimension is another way of saying "consciousness level". Once the majority of the population has reached the consciousness level where the majority of people are at the peaceful stage, then as a planet we will emerge into the 5th dimension. We will have processed ourselves out of the old ways of warring of 3D, which was accepted by all as a way of life, and we will have moved through the confusions of 4D, where we sorted things out, and then we will land happily in the beautiful consciousness of 5D where everyone is on the same peaceful level. We will have moved past all the obstacles and lessons.
\Many are moving in and out of 5D now. I don't know how many. There is no way of knowing the numbers, but others are still stuck in 3D and moving in and out of 4D, confused and working on it. Some are all the way into the 5th level of consciousness and living in peace, and some may even be in and out of the 6th level of consciousness. Can you imagine what it must be like on the 6th level? We can still live here in physical bodies even while we enjoy 5th and 6th level consciousness of peace as the result of wisdom and applied discernment, living a fulfilled and happy life here on earth, doing the things we love the most. It is possible. We are destined to bring paradise to earth, known as the garden of Eden, the kingdom of heaven. "On earth as it is in heaven." It is pre-ordained to become a beautiful ideal planet for an advanced humanity to live in happiness and fulfillment for all. But it's not here yet. We must wise up and learn the lessons. We have to process what is bothering us the most.
Everything in the universe evolves, even the ascended masters who are on the perfect level. They too are evolving their consciousness. Only those who absolutely refuse to live in cooperation and want to remain in control and be selfish, and resist love and goodness - they are the obstacles holding the planet down. Then they are choosing the dark side over light. They get snatched up into the evil. But there are not that many left any more, I understand, who choose selfish ways over selfLESS ways. Most people are searching for ways to serve and help, while trying to understand. Confusion is the processing of consciousness to decide "what's right?". Some people are slow at this, while others are faster at seeing the lighter side better. It all depends on their past lives and how much they learned in former lives. No matter on what level, we are all here to advance our understanding to the next higher level by choosing good for the whole over bad for the whole, to improve humanity as a whole so that it works for all of us together, not just for the few.
Even the ascended masters are continuing to evolve their consciousness. There are those consciousnesses that are so advanced they are today called principles and powers. They too evolved up through the ranks by tests and trials as individual consciousnesses. They now today are the governing powers who watch over the wholeness and help us in choosing right over wrong so we too can evolve our conscious understanding. Some of us HAVE been governing powers and chose to come back and experience an earth life again. Yes, I have head that, as far-fetched as it may be and beyond our earth way of thinking.
About time - I don't know if the 4th dimension is time-related. Maybe so. I think time relates only to time spent in an earth body, and there are many earth-like planets like ours. They just look different than ours but they are of solid substance. The physical reality we live in is the time dimension (I think). Once we're no longer in a body we're not in "time" any longer. We're in a bright clean beautiful environment, conscious of beauty, grace and harmony (heaven). There are many who have come back and reported this. Some talk about "time dilation", where they can sit at the edge of a planet's atmosphere and see down into "time", where time is condensed and the atmosphere of the planet holds everything in slow motion, like in a "fixed" position. We are anchored into a fixed world, where heaven is fluid and instantaneously you are with your loved ones or in class rooms to learn or in a home of great beauty. "There are many mansions in my father's kingdom." That's how I see it anyway. They report back that there is no "time" there.
I did have an experience today which was interesting. While waiting for a pickup order at Walmart, I went outside because it was too hot and sunny sitting in the car, so I went outside in the shade of the building and began doing my tai chi movements. Once I started them, I started moving with the inner wind and felt the peace go through me, like a soft breeze of gentle awareness. It's always so beautiful to experience. I don't do it very often, but today I did and while doing that I noticed I could see into the atmosphere, see in the sense of being aware with inner awareness - the energies of different consciousnesses. Individual consciousnesses. Like how different people saw things. I detected so many different consciousnesses in the air, they were like shifting continually around me. I could see through one perspective, one approach, then another perspective, another approach, and another and another. They were like different textures, the differences were very obvious to me. It showed me that the air is in turmoil, kind of mixed up with many differences. This would not be in the 5th dimension. The 5D is like living in great peace because everyone is at the same level of consciousness. Everyone in 5D sees at the same level, even though they are each a unique individual. Life is not boring in 5D. It's exquisitely alive with awareness and exciting.
But here I could "see" so many different perspectives, and they were conflicting. They moved fast, as though not being managed. They are randomly flying around aimlessly. They came and went fast through my awareness. Really fast. The atmosphere was "busy"! As if the air was cooking itself and swirling. But because I was doing my tai chi movements I personally was at peace and not affected. It was a beautiful thing to see because I was outside of it. It reminded me that we are NOT a planet of peace. We are in the 4th dimension. We are all processing, including me. Not yet anyway. We are in that phase of consciousness expansion and evolution where each person is sorting things out for themselves. What do I believe? Where do I go? Should I stay? Should I go? Should I resist? Should surrender? What's the point of life and living? Should I end it all? There are so many questions and few answers. Only the person himself or herself can choose which way to go. That's the 4th dimension. It's a processing stage.
I believe I am living in the 5th dimension most of the time, at least upstairs during my meditation time. When I come downstairs I am living in 4D. There are things to be processed and done downstairs. It takes me awhile to adjust to the downstairs time. I actually feel dizzy and disoriented for a while. I'm working on that. I came to that realization only recently. Nobody can tell you where you are on the scale of consciousness. Only you can ascertain that. When you become aware of peace you are moving beyond the obstacles of opposition and duality and entering close into the 5th. If you are mostly at peace with yourself you are at least touching into the 5th dimension, perhaps all the way into it and connecting with others also in the peaceful vibrations of the 5th consciousness, called the 5th level. But you can still live in this world as it is today - a world that is processing in individuals who all have problems they're working through. But if you have worked through YOUR problems and feel at peace and are not disturbed by those around you, then you are moving into the 5th. Even while there are situations erupting around you. You are tested to hold your center on peace and love while others continue to process their own. That's why the atmosphere is so chaotic.
4/30/22 - How does consciousness expand?
During my meditations this morning I recognized the subtle bodies connecting as my consciousness expanded. The subtle bodies that have been separated for eons, like the etheric body, the emotional body, the mental body, the spiritual body. I asked DK some questions about, “Why was I so dense and so buried and so unawakened for so long? Why did I have to be so ignorant?” He then gave me a lesson. It was subtle information about how the dark comes into being. He explained that I came from pure light originally, that was where I came from before coing here. And as I came down into density it became darker to me. "You lose the light as the electrons densify and get packed together into form and structure, following lines of thought."
It's not easy to find words to explain this inner lesson that came to me subtly. The finer aspects of consciousness were shown to me, how this works, how the light dims. DK gave me a picture of a flower seed buried in soil, and how it starts out as pure consciousness at first, not knowing where it is, and then it starts to become aware of itself. And its awareness grows and becomes more intensely aware and soon becomes aware that it is confined and it expands against its own confinement. Finally it bursts its shell open because it can’t be contained in such a closed space any longer. It is becoming TOO aware! And then it becomes aware of other consciousness seeds around itself and they connect and see each other and their consciousness expands and they see OTHER consciousness seeds around them and they start connecting their awareness and the consciousness of the seeds grows and becomes more powerful. Soon they are growing up through the soil, the only thing they know, like we humans are growing in the earth plane the only location we know, and the seeds finally, one by one, pop out of the soil into the daylight and they see the sun and the light for the first time.
It’s a new dimension for the seed whose consciousness is now housed inside a green sprout, and it begins a new life in the light, and it continues to grow its conscious awareness. It is ALL consciousness. The seeds consciousness is not the form, it is building a form to fit its current state of consciousness. But the form keeps changing to reflect the consciousness. It changes its appearance as the seed's consciousness grows higher and wider and aware.
That’s what we, the human race, are doing on planet earth. We are growing our consciousness, our awareness of ourselves higher and wider. We see more, know more, consider more, have more visions and ideas more often. We too will soon break out of the enclosed form that we had grown accustomed to. We are breaking through into a new day, a new light, a new dimension, AND new powers. If we are wise and astute, we will start exercising our new powers. We don't have to die, not quite yet. We can renew and resurrect our old bodies, that we once thought wouldn't make it past the age of 80. And we are! We growing younger because we have new awareness. I am much lighter and aware at age 84 than I was at 50. I took my young body for granted back then, but now I see it is changing because I am so aware of the LIGHT! It's all about consciousness. The form has to keep up or it will die. Keep resurrecting your consciousness. Keep up with the new ideals and excitements. The spirit is consciousness. Consciousness is spirit. Keep up with the growth of consciousness that is happening around the earth planet today. Forget all this dumb talk about wars. They are the old thoughts scrambling to keep up and they're not going to be able to.
4/28/22 - Women of the Heart
When we can become women in our hearts, we will draw men into alignment with us, and stop pushing them away through the old duality machinations. I have been studying the higher teachings of the ascended masters, but they are too vague and unreal to express in every day language. Most people don’t trust those higher teachings. They have to be brought down into ordinary language, like connecting with the heart. When it comes to engaging with our fellow man, the higher teachings are a quandary. Higher teachings would refer to taking the high road, such as acting with grace, dignity, thoughtfulness and refinement. We are so accustomed to acting on the low road that it takes super human effort to deal from a higher, more dignified heart level. And yet that is what we must do to elevate our world to higher levels. A heart-based humanity will save us. We are the common people, the average people and we must learn how to act gracefully from that common place, which is from the heart.
Blending grace and kindness with practical life and action would be an improvement. This will take practice, education and training. But who are the teachers of the common people? There are actually extraterrestrial individuals on earth today, moving among us in disguise. They have been here for centuries but are on the increase, we understand. They help us quietly by drawing our attention to something unusual about them. Maybe it's a physical appearance, or a certain glow or presence about them, or a certain expression. We can't quite put our finger on it but they are here to show us by example. They are radiating something that is unusual to us. We are learning by exposure to a finer way of life. It is a gradual integration of a higher consciousness from races from other worlds sent as ambassadors to walk among us quietly, without fanfare or announcements. This preliminary walking and living among us is working. They are seeding something in our awareness. We who were born here are beginning to recognize a common good. We are beginning to feel the need for peace among the nations, to end the wars and stop the puffed up ambitions of the so-called powerful.
To reach the average person we must start addressing the commoner and stop fixating on the power struggle between the elites that has been distracting us. Becoming aware of the common good is becoming aware of heart-based intentions. Adopting the attitude of seeing all people as neither superior or inferior could bring us closer to a heart-based civilization like the benevolent ETs who walk among us unnoticed. They have not pulled rank on us. We don't even recognize them.. They are not superior to us. Why do we act superior to our neighbors who have less money, less status, less social standing? We have limited ourselves to seeing only the outer appearance. This makes us short-sighted and we end up defending ourselves in the quiet hours of reflection. We know in our heart of hearts that there is no one inferior to us, and no one superior, not even the ones who walk among us unnoticed from other planets. The only difference is the degree of awareness that is slowing penetrating our thick skulls. We have been programmed to THINK only, and so we all think about what to do. But the light in the heart is accessed through feeling, not intellectualism.
This blog is entitled "Women of the Heart" instead of "People of the Heart" because the feminine side of life holds the key to sacredness. The female of any species holds sacred space for the males who are the activators, action-makers, builders and protectors who have to focus on building the world into solid form. The females are connected to the heart. In recent years genders have become somewhat muddled, as souls are changing sides. There are many souls who, after lifetimes spent as a female, are now being born as males. And, on the opposite side, souls who have spent lifetimes in male bodies, are today being born as females. Confusion reigns across the globe. It is a universal phenomena because it is a new age and we are changing our location in the heavens. It is changing our perspective all around, upside down. We must learn not to judge someone based on the way they look, or their sexual preference or how they identify to their own body. Be kind. Be compassionate. Be understanding.
The male of the species is bigger, louder and more assertive because they must build the physical world in which we live, and protect it. Souls who have been feminine for many lifetimes are now being born as male. They must learn how to be boys and men. There has been a lot of unkind abuse over this strangeness, and not enough understanding. Wise male teachers are required to teach the masculine way with compassion and kindness. The male does not have time to sit in silence and follow feminine interests, however they can blend their male and female sides together in a balanced way that fulfills the soul's desire. Building a more balanced human life requires mentoring, teachers, gatherings in groups to validate one another. Life provides many opportunities for inventing better ways and not just physical, but psychological improvements, spiritual improvements and more. Physical refinement, mental refinement, emotional refinement, spiritual refinement, on all of these levels, organizing and planning is needed ON AN INDIVIDUAL SCALE. Institutions have grown too large and too almighty important. It is the individual who has been lost and needs personal, caring, wise and loving attention. It is one thing to believe in gentleness and love, and quite another to practice it.
This is the expertise of the feminine. Souls who are newly female after being male for many lifetimes, must learn how to be women of the heart. They are born into a female body but that's not enough. They must learn the feminine ways of life. What does the female do? What is her role? The culture has changed and women are struggling to understand. For a soul who has been masculine for lifetimes, there may be strong tendencies to competition, which is OK, but their first role is to adopt and learn the ways of the feminine being - the ways of the heart - for this is what fulfills the woman. This woman must bring about a balance within herself so that she can feel happy and fulfilled. What is it like to be a woman? Wise enlightened female teachers are required to pass on this ancient knowledge. How to cultivate the heart-centered woman. Having a female body in appearance is not enough.
Women of the heart are women of light, meaning they are connected to the Oneness, spiritually speaking. They are the wise women of the age. They are the ones who bring softer changes to humanity while the men continue to build and concentrate on practicalities. They have been doing this for eons but have generally gone unrecognized and unappreciated. Even in some countries today, women are being put to death or imprisoned for speaking out or daring to fulfill their feminine dreams. Mostly they are simply dismissed as second class citizens. In today's dawning new age, however, the women are gathering power and courage to come out of hiding. This is a hard thing to do. Learning how to shine their light after having kept it under cover for centuries, following the examples of their mothers and grandmothers, where do they begin? Wise enlightened feminine teachers are needed - holy women. How does a woman begin to shine her light? Through her own holiness.
Confidence can be built in gatherings of small groups. The sign of the new age is heart-based. Women are naturally heart-centered, so women's groups are ideal to begin with. There is no gender division at the level of the soul. The heart-based human of both genders are needed to build a better humanity and fulfill the human evolution to the spiritual destiny. We are all spiritual beings at heart, human beings only in body. A heart-centered woman does not compete with men. The first step is build up love for oneself and cultivate happiness being at home within oneself. That's the first step. As women learn the secret methods and techniques of how to do this, they access ancient wisdom that has been known and taught by mothers throughout eternity.
Women of ancient wisdom, known as women of the light, will soon be coming out in more noticeable form. We will know when their influence starts to take hold because men will begin to show respect and appreciation not only for women, but also for their brothers. Instead of competing, there will be a new attitude of brotherhood and cooperation among men. When men start to show respect and consideration on a universal scale, we will know that the women in their households are also expressing their own self love better. Women of the heart are humble but not in a phony or fake way. They are wise beyond even their own conscious understanding. Where do they get this quality? It comes from the universal substance of good which is everywhere present, even in outer space. Good has been shortened to mean God. Surrendering the ego to good is how the divine feminine operates. She is wise because she does not surrender to the ego, she surrenders to the good in her heart which is universal good. A man can do the same thing.
The average person passed on the street might be a genius in his field or he might be a simple laborer, perhaps even a homeless person. The goal for humanity is to bring light into physical expression to save humanity from extinction. The only way to do this is to open the heart to the universal flow of love and light. An enlightened intelligence and an enlightened heart. This is what is meant by “grounding” the light. The mind thinks about it first and then brings it down into physical expression through the desires and feelings of the heart. The heart feels emotion and distributes that desire to the rest of the body through the pumping action of the heart through the circulation system. It expresses what the heart feels - truth, kindness, justice, empathy, forgiveness, mercy, whatever the quality is being felt. If the soul feels angry and frustrated, then the heart distributes that to the rest of the body. Humanity's need is to invoke light and love as a feeling, instead of keeping it locked frozen in the brain. Bringing the concepts down into the heart will distribute the feeling down into the earth and soil to grow roots and spread it through the grassroots movement. This is the role of women. The divine feminine is the woman who has opened her heart and is living and expressing her feelings. The human female is one who has not yet been trained and feels confusion.
I met with a woman of the light yesterday. She will soon be coming out onto the world stage. She will instruct in ways that have not been shown before. I have been a student for many years of esoteric philosophies, mystics, ascended ones, the spiritual hierarchy and the benevolent galactics. But none of these can train us how to live the life of a human being better than another human who has connected to the light. The light has no name. It is simply light and when the light is lived and expressed to others, it becomes love. It is felt as love.
We all have certain ideals that we secretly entertain, but we have difficulty manifesting them because they don't come from the brain. The power to manifest comes through the heart. The heart, the physical heart, holds the universal power that creates good values. If the light is stuck in the brain and doesn't reach the heart, then the power is not accessed. The portal is not opened. There is no power to act in the brain alone. when someone becomes conscious of this, he or she will make inroads into the heart. Being conscious of kindness is what opens the portals of kindness in the heart. When the portal of kindness opens, the person starts expressing kindness to people around him.
That power of love, mercy and forgiveness must be felt and activated or it is not authentic. We can pretend but others don't feel it. The power is not "in" the physical heart, it flows "thru" the physical heart. The human becomes more divine when he becomes conscious of these higher attributes and begins to act outwardly on them. This is the power that moves mountains. It is a presence and it can be felt. It is a conscious feeling. It is a conscious connection of all life everywhere. The unity and harmony of all the good in life everywhere is the power of the universe. It is available to human beings as well as saints and mystics. Becoming aware of this is a personal discovery process. Reading books can stimulate it. We are all one mind, connected through individual experiences of one life. The one great eternal mind. There is no one person more important than another. We are all one, and yet we are all expressing differently. The great process that is unfolding on earth today comes through a portal in the heart, and women are the embodiment of heart-centered awareness. Love comes through the heart. The masters of old all hinted at connecting to the heart. We have been adulating the brain/ego but not the heart. We have dismissed the heart. When we finally get this, we will stop adulating the brain/ego/intellectualism, and start balancing the human condition with heart feelings. The impact of love does not dishonor or diminish the brain's intellect. It expands it so that it flows with more wisdom and genius.
Then humanity will start feeling the impact of love. If we want to improve our conditions, it cannot be done from the intellect alone. It must be connected to the real thing, the actions of the heart.
4/26/22 - Your mission in life
It’s not WHAT you do, it is the vibration with which you do it. Is it warm and exciting? Or cold and uninspiring? Are you feeling passion, compassion? Or are you analytical, without feeling? Are you quick and impatient? Or slow and kind? It doesn’t matter what we do, the goal we were given at birth as a mission is to create value and joy in all that we do. It is the high road of goodness and decency. The goal in life is not to create a career but to find the best avenue into which to channel love, passion, goodness and decency. The career will mold itself around us and be there for us when we need it. This is the secret to betterment on all levels. Relationships, job opportunities, abundance and success are in the eye of the beholder of love. Is the beholder of love asleep at the switch? Or awake and orchestrating the radiating of that which is downloading continuously without fail, day and night? Those are the qualities that make a a life and a career valuable.
Each person has the codes locked into his or her heart. Operate from the heart spontaneously with wisdom and discernment. It is the river of life that circulates downward with every breath. The obstacle to the download is non-thinking impatience. When we are so busy receiving input from the outside world and other people, then we are drowning in irrelevant data that is not of value. That which is not ours belongs to someone else’s value system as data that is delivered to us through contaminated words and actions and feelings. If we want to change the world around us, we need to detach from the debris left behind by others. Self love is the way we do that. Love is generated by the Self, at home, with reverence. We cannot expect reverence from outside ourselves. The data coming in from outside is delivered with putrefaction, old dead and dying stuff. It is not fresh nor alive but cast-offs being recycled second, third, fourth time. Vibrations that have lost their color, like second-hand clothes. Do not judge them, instead love them. Look upon them with thoughts of love and change them if they come your way.
Mental thoughts the same way. Change them with the love you generate yourself. Mental thoughts are the change-makers. Feelings come from thoughts that have been held in the mind, so hold loving, kind, clear thoughts, and feelings will follow along behind. Feelings start changing once you have rearranged the thought process to hold loving thoughts. We do not CREATE love, we do not actually make love, we channel love by mentally making space for love to flow through us. Love is everywhere. Love is all there is. By holding open channels to love by holding intentions on love, then love comes in from higher planes. It is delivered into the world through the life force that we breathe in. Love is the life that comes in on the breath, into the lungs, into the heart and circulation system, into the blood and nervous system through the nadis and meridians and chakras.
No, we do not create love, we make room for love and we enhance it, magnify it and increase it in the way we arrange our intentions, our brain patterns. We feel impatient and irritating sometimes when we are out and about, because the atmosphere is filled with electronic frequencies from everywhere. These are random frequencies from people who radiate uncontrolled thoughts and emotions even when they are inactive. We can control our own frequencies by filtering thoughts through the love and kindness filter. Love acts like a shield of softness, gentleness, calmness. It is a shield of protection that soothes everything and makes it nice. Impatience DOES appear even through the filter. It is not a perfect world we live in. Respond to impatience by consciously slowing down the thought process. Use determination to overcome impatience with love.
4/25/22 - Make love to everything you touch
We must go gently into a toxic environment, otherwise we will explode with incoming light, emphasis on explode. It’s all about slowing down, both for grounding the light and relieving the pressure of the backlog in the brain-mind. When we bonded today I started out spinning, I was so hyperactive with heightened energy. I had to slow myself down to enjoy our lovemaking. I am learning to be careful. Hyperactive makes me more energized than normal so I must watch myself. There is too much light coming into me. It requires me to slow down. Grounding the light is something everyone must do if they hyperactive. I'm getting validation and techniques how to do this from various youtubes online. We must ground the light that is coming onto the planet through sunflares because we are going through a remarkable upgrade as a planet. We are transitioning into a new age and a new dimension of understanding. It is lighter now than it ever was. We are loosening and letting go of heaviness. It's causing spinning of the atomic structure of our cells and tissues. There is too much light affecting us, and too much information reaching us through all the various implements we have. We must take responsibility for our own sanity and slow ourselves down. Blend with the light, don't explode with it! It is in the slowing down of the brain-mind activity that we do this. It's a difficult task if you don't know how or where to begin.
Slowing down is a conscious effort. It’s not a physical act. It’s a slowing down of physical acts. A conscious awareness that you're hyperactive is a good start to begin with. And then consciously slow yourself down, both in physical movements and in words you speak, and thoughts you think before speaking. Become conscious of yourself, where you are and what you are engaged in. Create a consciousness space around you. We have ego filters in our brain-minds. We shouldn't eliminate the filters, but rather widen the filter and give it more space to operate in. Add some additional information, i.e., "slow down!". This is consciousness work. Some call it being mindful or becoming aware. Slow down and become aware of what you are doing. Bring things to a standstill. A filter can be expanded by adding space and wisdom. The outer personality is the ego. We don’t want to erase the ego because it is who we are, we simply want to expand it by giving it more wisdom, more space, more love.
Make love in all that you do and you will notice more peace.
Make love in all that you do does not mean make sex in all that you! That would be laughable. Love is the universal harmonic that organizes everything so that it fits in with all other parts. The laws that govern the universe governs we the people on the ground too. When we bring our awareness down to the ground, we bring harmony down to the ground so that things operate more smoothly. Love is the secret process of alchemy, did you know that? The saying about alchemy is that it turns lead into gold. That means making heavy and crude into light, bright and cheerful. Love is the secret process of turning something ordinary into something precious, refined and valuable.
And so we begin at the most basic and ordinary of things - our own body. We begin to transform it into something more valuable by slowing down while using it. See that it performs well and according to harmony and smoothness. Make love to all things you touch. Make love with your toothbrush while brushing your teeth. Make love with the soap while washing your skin. Make love with your towel while drying yourself off. Make love with the ceramic toilet while using it. Make love with your computer keys while typing. Make love by becoming conscious of love. By thinking about love. By contemplating love. What is love? Become conscious of love while touching objects and looking out windows at passers by. Pass your love onto the objects you see. Instill love in everything you do. Connect every thought you think with love. Put love back into your life and actions.
The process of alchemy begins with our own body as we move through the day. WE are the ones who must transform the ugly, profane and mundane into the rare gold and jewels of dazzling, sparkling beauty. We are the transformers and changers of situations. We cannot expect someone else to do the transforming for us. WE are the one who imbues our life and the objects around us with value. Love is the ultimate energy of creation. It mends, it heals, it revitalizes, it makes whole. More than gold, more than money, more than diamonds and fine homes, cars and luxuries, more than any object we long for, more than anything we would kill for including sexual gratification, there is love. Love is the secret ingredient. Love doesn’t come from other people. It comes from within oneself. We are the magic or we are the dull automaton sleeping at the wheel, fatigued and drooping. It is we who must become aware and alert. WAKE UP! We are the beauty. We are the life. We are the love. The wondrous future is waiting for us to transform it. Let us begin.
4/23/22 - About Walk-in's
If your body is 5% of you, then who are you? Your body is a small part of you. You, your consciousness are the remaining 95% of you. Your consciousness is pure spirit, intelligence, awareness. How is it you don’t know about this? Because you are trapped and held down inside your body by the magnificent 5% - your feminine side in form, your solid body. Your 5% came to anchor you to the earth. Without an anchor here you wouldn’t have been able to come to this far-away outreach, so dark, dense and full of marauders. You - the 95% you don’t know about yourself (though some of you are getting the hint) - chose to come. You invested the 5%. You could see the value in this planet and you could see your friends trapped here from your vantage point outside of the entrapment and you volunteered. There is a long line of volunteers queuing up and waiting to be accepted to come to earth. But only a few are accepted based on their qualifications and what they can contribute. So you were among the chosen and you won the lottery. You came to earth and were either born as a baby to your parents or maybe you stepped into a fully grown body.
It happens sometimes where one soul who completed his mission and is ready to go home and would leave the body to die. But if the body is in good condition and another soul wants to take it over and skip the baby process they can do that. They must agree to do it that way, it cannot be forced one over the other. You can make an agreement with the outgoing soul to step in as he or she steps out. You take their place and it’s called a “walk-in” soul. This is another story. The incoming soul as 95% spirit in the unformed state. It then sends the “away” team member (the 5% soul) down into the body that has been vacated. The soul has to adjust once it enters a new grown-up body. It’s not like starting out as a baby creating your own body and learning how to move fingers and toes. In a body that is already grown to adulthood, the body itself already knows how to move its fingers and toes and how to manage itself.
As the new soul enters a used body, it is responsible for taking on what the other soul left behind in the form of thought patterns, emotions, abilities and family relations he or she had built into the body, such as respect, love, certain interests, etc. The new soul takes on the habits, interests, physical attractions, the husband or wife, the children and extended family situations. The family usually doesn’t know that a soul switch has taken place but they will notice changes over time. You see, the body hasn’t been replaced. Most earthlings do not know how to read beyond physical form. Everyone on the planet is a 5%’er. They know themselves only as bodies, not as spiritual and magnificent immortal beings who wander from life to life, planet to planet, body to body. They each come from celestial realms of great light. So whether you were born here as a baby or walked into a mature body as a walk-in, THIS is where you are now in this current moment, anchored into an aging body that may be going downhill fast, if it is no longer considered young. You may be deteriorating into aches, pains and wobbly knees, or you may be a healthy youth who has no idea of what happened - or do you?
Here I would like to point out that something is happening that hasn’t happened in previous centuries. There are changes taking place that have never taken place in the eons of earth’s history. You are noticing ways to improve your body through your own thoughts and feelings. You are experiencing ups and downs, visions and enlightenment thoughts. The earth is shifting. There is chaos in the air caused by fear of the unknown. But there is also peace and there is daydreaming. There are visions, there are breakthroughs, there are new inspirations along with perhaps dysfunctional pains, hurts and confusions. Some are experiencing dark nights of the soul, caused by separations, divorces, deaths and wars in your home land and crazy dreams or nightmares, while others are seeing angels and beautiful revelations of spiritual dimensions, or perhaps demons fighting and wars between worlds. Yet – and this is important - you are keeping your stability. You are growing up and evolving out of the past. The earth is going transitioning into a new era and a new timeline. A new age is being born and because your body is an earth body made of minerals and substances of physicality, your body is feeling this. Your chakras are opening. More of your 95% consciousness is coming through carrying light along with it. This will be coming through into your physical reality. It is an amazing time for physical beings to be alive on earth. You are becoming more enlightened, more happy, more graceful, more understanding. Continue to stay centered and grounded right where you are. (Thank you DK)
4/22/22 - Lightworkers weave broken edges back together
This morning I heard the words, “The healers of Earth are the lightworkers,” so I found paper and pen and wrote it down. Instead of stopping there, the words continued:
“Lightworkers are light weavers. They join the light to the light in the non-light. In the past era it was done thru the churches. But then the churches became crystalized and the teachings became doctrines that separated into black and white preachings of good and evil. This is what evil does, it separates wherever there is a weakness. It uses words to cut "edges" into unified fields and break them into continents. Boundaries appear around and between ideologies and thoughts. Lightworkers weave together those broken edges. They rejoin the fragmented thoughts with words of kindness. Words have become a tool of the evil forces. Evil is clever and manipulative. It is not held back by good and decency. It does not have any morals, rightness or truth that it is obliged to uphold. Whereas the light upholds the universal law of harmony.
Lightworkers are found in every walk of life, planted like seeds at every level of density. Some are deep underground where you would not think to look for them but they are there. They are not apparent from the surface or outer appearance. You can only connect with a lightworker thru a feeling. The feeling could be one of goodness, calmness or peace. Or it could be a message that only you can feel and interpret. The person prone to spreading evil is recognized through a feeling of selfishness. It is an inner body telling. The light in you, which is 100% good even if you are unaware, can interpret for you if you listen. If you feel conflicted or torn by a request to do something or what you hear from that person - it just doesn’t “feel right” - then you have connected with a contrary force. Contrary to your welfare. Stop and turn away.
This takes courage, for the person who is the deliverer of the uncomfortable feeling or idea could be a close family member or friend. Do not see them as evil or dark. See them through the goodness in you. They are more likely to be ignorant of the dark force that is using them. If they are intelligently using the dark for their own purposes, then you should leave them standing alone and walk away. Let the 100% feeling of good guide you. The dark invades man's consciousness at weak points, such as self-interest over the interest of mankind. The less ignorant person believes himself (or herself) is the thinker or creator of the thought. Do not cut them off unless it be to save yourself from dire consequences. Instead, if at all possible, call upon your lightworking skills and mend the rift, or walk away. Debate is dangerous, for as I have said, the dark is scheming and manipulative. Halt the potential conflict that could build to a breaking point. Calm the troubled waters and heal the separation immediately before that happens. Be a lightworker. The dark pulls back at the sudden flair of light. Kindness, good will, warmth, humor, empathy, inte
A friend hit the nail on the head when he suggested to me look into the third eye. I have never been very good as a rational or practical thinker. As a spiritual female for many years I was always a "heart" person. After he suggested "third eye" I was guided to the Master Djwhal Khul's book on Esoteric Healing. Here I learned the way to conscious control of all the problems in the world, from disease to chaos, is done through the third eye. I had no idea!
The third eye is composed of the pineal gland working together with the pituitary gland. The glands are the endocrine system. In Taoist practices, the glands are basically the same as the chakra system coming from ancient teachings in India. The pineal gland and the pituitary gland are physically close to each other in the head. There is a vibratory field around each of them. Most people are not aware. These two different fields need to become coordinated, integrated, so they work together. I am now visualizing them with a field of calm, soothing gentle energy around the physical glands, like a glow. This brings the two fields of energies together as one. I have noticed a good result from doing this, but it is still early in my practice. This, it is said, activates the third eye, by pulling these two glands into harmony and unity under conscious direction. This will soothe the body, diminish anxiety and assert more conscious control over our lives. It is a matter of conscious will power over chaotic energies.
He says we have reservoirs of different energies feeding into our solid physical bodies. From pure light energy, it condenses down into higher mental reservoir, lower mental reservoir, emotional energy reservoir (much chaos), etheric energy reservoir then it flows into the physical body. Most people are not aware. The physical body is a robot following the energies that are descending down into the body. Now it is up to learn how to manage these energy reservoirs.
The astral body is the emotional body. It contains the feelings we generate, from stress to anxieties to depression, all of it which feeds lower down into the etheric body. The etheric body then flows down into the physical body. And we feel it. To counteract the bad feelings we have to take firm control over our thoughts and practice holding calmness, quiet, silence, stillness, soothing thoughts of peace, birds singing, crickets chirping, pine trees blowing in the wind, whatever makes you feel peaceful. At the same time picture a glow around both the pineal and the pituitary glands. A glow is a vibration. Become peaceful. To awaken the third eye, bring the pineal gland and the pituitary gland into harmony by imagining their vibratioins as soothing calming feelings merging together into one glow.
I'm only at the beginning of this study, but it seems to be working. I understand that the pineal is the spiritual center, and the pituitary is the physical plane center. So it would make sense harmonizing the two of them.
5/10/22 - Introducing the Taoist philosophy
Consciousness is the only thing we own for ourself
A new perspective has dawned recently as a result of reading and practicing the ancient Tao methods and philosophy. It has turned a certain belief I had upside down which cleared a lifelong confusion. I thought I was feminine and of the earth! But the Tao masters are showing me that feminine is from the sky, not of the earth. Feminine is the unformed intelligence of the universe. And that it is masculine which controls the creating and building of the solid form. So, it is the masculine which is of the earth and earthy, and it is the feminine that is from the heavens. This makes sense but I did not understand. This was my view of the world. My connection to spirituality and cosmic forces makes much more sense now. And my husband's disconnection with spirit and his heavy focus on physical objects and logic fits better into the broader scheme.
However, regardless of gender, we are all here living in a solid body. We were born to earth and were plugged into the planet. We get our life from the earth but, according to the Tao masters, we can become a wire or a hollow reed that brings the sun's vitality down to the earth, and we can fill ourselves with that vitality direct from the sun. We do not have to get it all from the earth. The Tao teaches to inhale from the sun, and exhale down to earth. The earth recycles used energy and nourishes plants and animals with it. The earth receives the sun's vitality and stores it during the daytime, just like a battery. Nature is a marvelous recycling machine. The earth receives energy from the sun to create minerals, plants, animals and humans with it. Science, of course, knows all of this, but I as "too feminine" am not very logical!
My belief and connection to the galactics makes sense. Energy from the heavens includes space debris from other heavenly bodies that drift down upon the earth. All the planets in all the heavens build forms by receiving vitality from their suns. Earth is a power source for solid forms, widely diversified and exotic forms, too numerous to count. Mother Earth creates, and if we listen to the Tao masters, we can draw energy from the earth AND the sun at the same time to keep our bodies from eternally healthy and prevent ourselves from growing old and decrepit prematurely, and dying before we are ready. As long as we have a solid body we can strengthen our bodies from the sun and the earth if we know how.
I have been studying and practicing the Tao inner exercises. They are strengthening me. This information was not available to me when I was growing up into adulthood. I wish I had known about this when I was in my teens. Tao methods are relatively simple but require focus. It is a meditative practice, done alone so you can concentrate on yourself and the feelings that are generated. In the beginning practice, it is difficult to understand why you are doing them because the feelings are so subtle. But they are working to bring your awareness inward to subtle layers that you probably have not utilized before. They are invisible to the surface dweller. These bring you deeper inward to your inner energies that feed and nourish your physical. The subtle inner energies compose the vital forces of your body. To awaken those forces a person must bring his conscious awareness inward to blend with it. Then those inner forces begin to teach you. This is the method of immortalizing the human body. Until we pay attention to the subtle inner particles and waves, we will continue to be surface dwellers. The physical body is not being fed with the life force from the planet and the heavens.
Consciousness is the spirit of the body. It can remain shallow, fixated to the external world of form and action, or we can blend it with the inner forces and become enlightened with greater knowledge of who we are. Our consciousness is the Light that we hear so much about. The Light never dies, but the body dies when it is not blended and awakened with conscious attention. In our youth we take our physical body for granted, thinking it will last forever. Alas, we do not realize until we are older that that is not the case. The Tao masters teach mind-body-spirit blend, which is similar to Yoga but from a different culture and perspective.
ALL power comes from the sun which gets it from a greater sun which gets it from an even greater sun, and finally this great universal power reaches the earth planets to build sold forms. The Tao teaches very interesting inner exercises. One is called becoming a “hollow reed”. It consists of lying flat on your back and relaxing completely, and imagining breathing through your bones. You become a hollow tube drawing the energy from the earth AND from the sun. When a human being recharges on a daily basis with such simple and subtle exercises, one can remain youthful and strong well into old age. So they say. Free of disease, happy, enlightened, intelligent, creative and enjoying the pleasures of being alive in a body. In order to do so, however, one must accept that he is not special. The Tao recognizes that we are not separate beings but individual units connected to the one mind that made it all. Like cells in the body. This requires getting rid of the idea that we live for ourself alone, as a selfish person, which creates greed, abuse and hurts to others. The Tao says that none of these exercises will work without selfless love, compassion and kindness for everyone and everything, even so-called inanimate objects. The power to live, thrive and enjoy life comes from connecting to the whole with kindness. Everything in nature then pulls together and the power is stronger. Being in harmony with everything else creates strength like nothing else.
Becoming more conscious is the key. Becoming MORE conscious brings us closer to our original nature which is unity and unbounded order and harmony. Cosmic consciousness is amazing and continues to expand the longer one practices. We are all connected. We are all one mind evolving to know MORE of itself. The ego is the smaller part of us that sees us as all separate and different from each other. We think we are unique and different, but it is only the outer shell that is different. The inner consciousness that supports the outer difference is actually one mind, one cell in one mind, working in harmony with all the other units and cells. This inner consciousness is brilliantly awake, aware and conscious of life unending. Knowledge is infinite. Wholeness is eternal and goodness is supreme. This exquisite connection with all that is is called Light. Our consciousness is the light that lights up the world.
If interested in learning more about the Tao inner exercises, I recommend the following titles:
1) The Book of Internal Exercises by Stephen T. Chang - start with this one, it is a good beginner
2) Chi Nei Tsang Internal Organs Chi Massage by Mantak Chia & Maneewan Chia - this is more complex with more pages and presents a deeper philosophy
5/8/22 - May 16 Trisha Marinari guest speaker at Anakosha
Can spiritual love and sex live together in harmony?
Women only are invited to attend this gathering on Monday, May 16, from 2 to 6 pm. However, quickly I add that there will be a men-only gathering sometime in the near future. First we have to gather the women. It has been a man's world for a very long time. This is a very old, ancient prophecy from beyond time itself, that women will ultimately gain their rightful place on earth and fulfill their destiny - to be able to express their deepest, most profound dreams of freedom, happiness, joy, ecstasy and fulfillment, doing exactly what they always wished for. The women must be awakened first in this world of gender imbalance, because only then can they assist the men to enjoy the same. Let those who hear, pause for a moment and reflect on this statement.
Since working with Trisha Marinari over the last two weeks on her new video project, I have been experiencing rapid escalation of awareness. Click HERE for details. Inner knowledge has been flooding through that can't be told in simple words. It is as if a membrane broke somewhere inside me that held back unconscious knowledge from the heavens. Since I've made it my job to report all new revelations and translate them into common, down-to-earth language, I simply can't do it any more. There's too much. That's why we're moving into groups now. Groups around the world are gathering. Networks and communities are gathering. Like-minded people are sharing uncommon information with each other. It is bigger than the isolated individual who has been trying to find a way out of the box and fulfill the longing that keeps pressing forward.
The box has broken free. It is a new beginning today. People are scrambling to express what they know, a friend, a platform, a way to share what they know so they can enlarge on what they know because that's what evolution is all about - becoming bigger, more confident, more free, more grand, more exuberant, complete and excited. We must share with each other to make this happen. There has to be gatherings. This gathering has to happen to fulfill the prophecy. Not for me, not for Trisha, but for women who are ready to take this next step out of the closet and honor the deeply personal sacred knowledge that is seeping, bleeding through. Share it first with other women and gain confidence, and then express it with the men. Watch the opportunities unfold and begin to expand. The men are waiting. They need us. Can spiritual love and sexual intimacy work together? Yes, it can. It must because it is predestined. It is the ultimate test of human nature. It is the only way forward.
Contact via the contact page for directions and more information about the May 16 gathering. Love, Diana
5/7/22 - May 16 Gathering at my home in Naples
An invitation has been sent out to women only to gather at my home to hear Trisha Marinari speak on the sacred feminine. This is to help her launch her new intimacy counseling business in Naples. Her husband has posted some short quips of her speaking on youtube. I sat with Trisha two weeks ago for this conversation on video, to provide someone to reflect with. She is a one-on-one counselor, drawing on and responding to the light within the person she sits with. We had such a powerfully strong connection and so much information was shared during this time together, that I was inspired to set a date and invite her here, along with some other women of spirit.
This is another attempt of mine to gather women together to share sacred feminine. I've been trying to do this for many years but didn't have the power to manifest it. Trisha is an amazing woman. For her picture, see the goddess page HERE. To see her speaking, click on her new youtube channel HERE. I chose the date of May 16 because it is the May full moon, a very special day. Every year in the Wesak Valley in the Himalayas, the Buddha descends in a cloud of light, along with the Christ who also appears, to bring a message of hope to humanity. People are inspired to travel for days, maybe weeks, to arrive in the Wesak Valley every year to celebrate. They camp out in the hills that surround the valley.
This year there will be a total eclipse of the moon for about an hour and a half, they say, causing a cosmic phenomenon known as a blood moon. It coincides with a supermoon this year, a term for when the moon is at the closest point to Earth.
If you are a woman and would like to attend on May 16 to hear Trisha speak at my home in Naples, contact me through the Contact page and introduce yourself. It will be a small gathering. I can explain more in a personal email. Oh, by the way. My phone isn't working. It's been out since April 17. I can't receive or send texts. Email is the only way to contact me, which is through the contact page. Our phone server is merging with ATT and it's been complicated. I'll let you know when I'm back to texting again. LoveDiana of Anakosha
5/4/22 - About the 4th dimension
A friend wrote and asked my perspective on the fourth dimension. It's always fun to have someone ask, so I'll share my view here. But remember, this is only MY understanding. Take it or leave it. The 4th dimension is confusing to understand. As I see it, the 3rd dimension is a closed and restricted place with severe focus on ONLY the physical reality. It's run by ancient evil forces - forces, not beings - but the forces of light are here and working solidly to overcome them. In contrast, the 5th dimension is a lovely, non-dualistic consciousness dimension. Both 3D and 5D can be experienced while we're here on earth in a body. 5D is just much, much more peaceful and harmonious. Dimensions are levels of consciousness. There are no polar opposites in 5D to argue with. Instead there is an aliveness that is so exquisite, light-hearted, joyful, complete and fulfilling, with wonders beyond wonders available to explore because there is no opposing force. This can be experienced while living right here on earth IF the surroundings are also in 5D with you. Many activities are available, from social, to education, all sorts of new classes, new arts, new music, opportunities in ways of expressing and more, much more. It's like in heaven but it's still on planet earth. This is pre-ordained. Humanity is meant to reach this as a goal. Heaven on earth. But the earth has to become free of obstacles, oppositions, judgments, arguments and all the rest of the negative sides of personalities. Then people will be free here. Earth will be a whole new place to live. We'll get along because we'll appreciate each other instead of find fault with each other. The anger and resistance will magically transform into joyful applause at the vast differences we are each expressing. Beautiful! Like a garden of vast colors and sensations. We are each so UNIQUE! While we haven't arriveda t that place yet, we will. In time. It will be a NEW earth. Now the 4th dimension....
The 4th dimension is the processing dimension of consciousness, learning how to maneuver between the 3rd and the 5th is tricky. There has to be a training phase between them because there is a BIG difference in approach. The 4th level of consciousness is where we sort out the differences. We learn to stop working against each other where we resist and argue for our personal rights, and we start giving ground to appreciate the other person's rights. There is a difference in approach and we have to finagle our way through this. We learn to be bigger, kinder, and more loving. We learn the true essence of love, what love is. This is the stage the earth is going through now. We on earth are evolving our consciousness on a massive scale. We are growing up to a higher understanding about life in general. What is life to a small plant which grows into a big tree? We are in the fourth dimension now puzzling this out. The whole planet is going through this, and the outer world is full of chaos all the many opinions. Each of us different. No two are alike. We may live in the same household but we are learning to get along, aren't we? We are all moving towards harmony because that's what evolution is all about. Becoming bigger in mind, heart and feeling. We have to feel our way through the pre-teen years, the years of puberty, to get to be an adult of dignity. A more universal order is in store, and benefits that include freedom, joy, light-hearted excitement and opportunity for advancement. We are moving out of the old way of doing things by force, fury and control, into experiencing better, nicer ways of achieving what we want. Like how to let go of a past grievance and learn how to forgive and allow for mercy and compassion. This takes work, trying to be kind to each other when we don't FEEL kind. And accept each other even if we don't like someone. And to accept the concept that fighting does not accomplish anything.
The goal of the 4th dimension is to come to understanding that there is a BETTER way that gives us more satisfaction and happiness. We are searching for the way to make life lighter and easier for ourselves and our families and friends. We don't know how to do it because we've been doing it the old way for so long (as a species) so it's an individual process. Each one of us is learning it in our own way. It has to be in our own way as we are each a unique individual consciousness. A dimension is another way of saying "consciousness level". Once the majority of the population has reached the consciousness level where the majority of people are at the peaceful stage, then as a planet we will emerge into the 5th dimension. We will have processed ourselves out of the old ways of warring of 3D, which was accepted by all as a way of life, and we will have moved through the confusions of 4D, where we sorted things out, and then we will land happily in the beautiful consciousness of 5D where everyone is on the same peaceful level. We will have moved past all the obstacles and lessons.
\Many are moving in and out of 5D now. I don't know how many. There is no way of knowing the numbers, but others are still stuck in 3D and moving in and out of 4D, confused and working on it. Some are all the way into the 5th level of consciousness and living in peace, and some may even be in and out of the 6th level of consciousness. Can you imagine what it must be like on the 6th level? We can still live here in physical bodies even while we enjoy 5th and 6th level consciousness of peace as the result of wisdom and applied discernment, living a fulfilled and happy life here on earth, doing the things we love the most. It is possible. We are destined to bring paradise to earth, known as the garden of Eden, the kingdom of heaven. "On earth as it is in heaven." It is pre-ordained to become a beautiful ideal planet for an advanced humanity to live in happiness and fulfillment for all. But it's not here yet. We must wise up and learn the lessons. We have to process what is bothering us the most.
Everything in the universe evolves, even the ascended masters who are on the perfect level. They too are evolving their consciousness. Only those who absolutely refuse to live in cooperation and want to remain in control and be selfish, and resist love and goodness - they are the obstacles holding the planet down. Then they are choosing the dark side over light. They get snatched up into the evil. But there are not that many left any more, I understand, who choose selfish ways over selfLESS ways. Most people are searching for ways to serve and help, while trying to understand. Confusion is the processing of consciousness to decide "what's right?". Some people are slow at this, while others are faster at seeing the lighter side better. It all depends on their past lives and how much they learned in former lives. No matter on what level, we are all here to advance our understanding to the next higher level by choosing good for the whole over bad for the whole, to improve humanity as a whole so that it works for all of us together, not just for the few.
Even the ascended masters are continuing to evolve their consciousness. There are those consciousnesses that are so advanced they are today called principles and powers. They too evolved up through the ranks by tests and trials as individual consciousnesses. They now today are the governing powers who watch over the wholeness and help us in choosing right over wrong so we too can evolve our conscious understanding. Some of us HAVE been governing powers and chose to come back and experience an earth life again. Yes, I have head that, as far-fetched as it may be and beyond our earth way of thinking.
About time - I don't know if the 4th dimension is time-related. Maybe so. I think time relates only to time spent in an earth body, and there are many earth-like planets like ours. They just look different than ours but they are of solid substance. The physical reality we live in is the time dimension (I think). Once we're no longer in a body we're not in "time" any longer. We're in a bright clean beautiful environment, conscious of beauty, grace and harmony (heaven). There are many who have come back and reported this. Some talk about "time dilation", where they can sit at the edge of a planet's atmosphere and see down into "time", where time is condensed and the atmosphere of the planet holds everything in slow motion, like in a "fixed" position. We are anchored into a fixed world, where heaven is fluid and instantaneously you are with your loved ones or in class rooms to learn or in a home of great beauty. "There are many mansions in my father's kingdom." That's how I see it anyway. They report back that there is no "time" there.
I did have an experience today which was interesting. While waiting for a pickup order at Walmart, I went outside because it was too hot and sunny sitting in the car, so I went outside in the shade of the building and began doing my tai chi movements. Once I started them, I started moving with the inner wind and felt the peace go through me, like a soft breeze of gentle awareness. It's always so beautiful to experience. I don't do it very often, but today I did and while doing that I noticed I could see into the atmosphere, see in the sense of being aware with inner awareness - the energies of different consciousnesses. Individual consciousnesses. Like how different people saw things. I detected so many different consciousnesses in the air, they were like shifting continually around me. I could see through one perspective, one approach, then another perspective, another approach, and another and another. They were like different textures, the differences were very obvious to me. It showed me that the air is in turmoil, kind of mixed up with many differences. This would not be in the 5th dimension. The 5D is like living in great peace because everyone is at the same level of consciousness. Everyone in 5D sees at the same level, even though they are each a unique individual. Life is not boring in 5D. It's exquisitely alive with awareness and exciting.
But here I could "see" so many different perspectives, and they were conflicting. They moved fast, as though not being managed. They are randomly flying around aimlessly. They came and went fast through my awareness. Really fast. The atmosphere was "busy"! As if the air was cooking itself and swirling. But because I was doing my tai chi movements I personally was at peace and not affected. It was a beautiful thing to see because I was outside of it. It reminded me that we are NOT a planet of peace. We are in the 4th dimension. We are all processing, including me. Not yet anyway. We are in that phase of consciousness expansion and evolution where each person is sorting things out for themselves. What do I believe? Where do I go? Should I stay? Should I go? Should I resist? Should surrender? What's the point of life and living? Should I end it all? There are so many questions and few answers. Only the person himself or herself can choose which way to go. That's the 4th dimension. It's a processing stage.
I believe I am living in the 5th dimension most of the time, at least upstairs during my meditation time. When I come downstairs I am living in 4D. There are things to be processed and done downstairs. It takes me awhile to adjust to the downstairs time. I actually feel dizzy and disoriented for a while. I'm working on that. I came to that realization only recently. Nobody can tell you where you are on the scale of consciousness. Only you can ascertain that. When you become aware of peace you are moving beyond the obstacles of opposition and duality and entering close into the 5th. If you are mostly at peace with yourself you are at least touching into the 5th dimension, perhaps all the way into it and connecting with others also in the peaceful vibrations of the 5th consciousness, called the 5th level. But you can still live in this world as it is today - a world that is processing in individuals who all have problems they're working through. But if you have worked through YOUR problems and feel at peace and are not disturbed by those around you, then you are moving into the 5th. Even while there are situations erupting around you. You are tested to hold your center on peace and love while others continue to process their own. That's why the atmosphere is so chaotic.
4/30/22 - How does consciousness expand?
During my meditations this morning I recognized the subtle bodies connecting as my consciousness expanded. The subtle bodies that have been separated for eons, like the etheric body, the emotional body, the mental body, the spiritual body. I asked DK some questions about, “Why was I so dense and so buried and so unawakened for so long? Why did I have to be so ignorant?” He then gave me a lesson. It was subtle information about how the dark comes into being. He explained that I came from pure light originally, that was where I came from before coing here. And as I came down into density it became darker to me. "You lose the light as the electrons densify and get packed together into form and structure, following lines of thought."
It's not easy to find words to explain this inner lesson that came to me subtly. The finer aspects of consciousness were shown to me, how this works, how the light dims. DK gave me a picture of a flower seed buried in soil, and how it starts out as pure consciousness at first, not knowing where it is, and then it starts to become aware of itself. And its awareness grows and becomes more intensely aware and soon becomes aware that it is confined and it expands against its own confinement. Finally it bursts its shell open because it can’t be contained in such a closed space any longer. It is becoming TOO aware! And then it becomes aware of other consciousness seeds around itself and they connect and see each other and their consciousness expands and they see OTHER consciousness seeds around them and they start connecting their awareness and the consciousness of the seeds grows and becomes more powerful. Soon they are growing up through the soil, the only thing they know, like we humans are growing in the earth plane the only location we know, and the seeds finally, one by one, pop out of the soil into the daylight and they see the sun and the light for the first time.
It’s a new dimension for the seed whose consciousness is now housed inside a green sprout, and it begins a new life in the light, and it continues to grow its conscious awareness. It is ALL consciousness. The seeds consciousness is not the form, it is building a form to fit its current state of consciousness. But the form keeps changing to reflect the consciousness. It changes its appearance as the seed's consciousness grows higher and wider and aware.
That’s what we, the human race, are doing on planet earth. We are growing our consciousness, our awareness of ourselves higher and wider. We see more, know more, consider more, have more visions and ideas more often. We too will soon break out of the enclosed form that we had grown accustomed to. We are breaking through into a new day, a new light, a new dimension, AND new powers. If we are wise and astute, we will start exercising our new powers. We don't have to die, not quite yet. We can renew and resurrect our old bodies, that we once thought wouldn't make it past the age of 80. And we are! We growing younger because we have new awareness. I am much lighter and aware at age 84 than I was at 50. I took my young body for granted back then, but now I see it is changing because I am so aware of the LIGHT! It's all about consciousness. The form has to keep up or it will die. Keep resurrecting your consciousness. Keep up with the new ideals and excitements. The spirit is consciousness. Consciousness is spirit. Keep up with the growth of consciousness that is happening around the earth planet today. Forget all this dumb talk about wars. They are the old thoughts scrambling to keep up and they're not going to be able to.
4/28/22 - Women of the Heart
When we can become women in our hearts, we will draw men into alignment with us, and stop pushing them away through the old duality machinations. I have been studying the higher teachings of the ascended masters, but they are too vague and unreal to express in every day language. Most people don’t trust those higher teachings. They have to be brought down into ordinary language, like connecting with the heart. When it comes to engaging with our fellow man, the higher teachings are a quandary. Higher teachings would refer to taking the high road, such as acting with grace, dignity, thoughtfulness and refinement. We are so accustomed to acting on the low road that it takes super human effort to deal from a higher, more dignified heart level. And yet that is what we must do to elevate our world to higher levels. A heart-based humanity will save us. We are the common people, the average people and we must learn how to act gracefully from that common place, which is from the heart.
Blending grace and kindness with practical life and action would be an improvement. This will take practice, education and training. But who are the teachers of the common people? There are actually extraterrestrial individuals on earth today, moving among us in disguise. They have been here for centuries but are on the increase, we understand. They help us quietly by drawing our attention to something unusual about them. Maybe it's a physical appearance, or a certain glow or presence about them, or a certain expression. We can't quite put our finger on it but they are here to show us by example. They are radiating something that is unusual to us. We are learning by exposure to a finer way of life. It is a gradual integration of a higher consciousness from races from other worlds sent as ambassadors to walk among us quietly, without fanfare or announcements. This preliminary walking and living among us is working. They are seeding something in our awareness. We who were born here are beginning to recognize a common good. We are beginning to feel the need for peace among the nations, to end the wars and stop the puffed up ambitions of the so-called powerful.
To reach the average person we must start addressing the commoner and stop fixating on the power struggle between the elites that has been distracting us. Becoming aware of the common good is becoming aware of heart-based intentions. Adopting the attitude of seeing all people as neither superior or inferior could bring us closer to a heart-based civilization like the benevolent ETs who walk among us unnoticed. They have not pulled rank on us. We don't even recognize them.. They are not superior to us. Why do we act superior to our neighbors who have less money, less status, less social standing? We have limited ourselves to seeing only the outer appearance. This makes us short-sighted and we end up defending ourselves in the quiet hours of reflection. We know in our heart of hearts that there is no one inferior to us, and no one superior, not even the ones who walk among us unnoticed from other planets. The only difference is the degree of awareness that is slowing penetrating our thick skulls. We have been programmed to THINK only, and so we all think about what to do. But the light in the heart is accessed through feeling, not intellectualism.
This blog is entitled "Women of the Heart" instead of "People of the Heart" because the feminine side of life holds the key to sacredness. The female of any species holds sacred space for the males who are the activators, action-makers, builders and protectors who have to focus on building the world into solid form. The females are connected to the heart. In recent years genders have become somewhat muddled, as souls are changing sides. There are many souls who, after lifetimes spent as a female, are now being born as males. And, on the opposite side, souls who have spent lifetimes in male bodies, are today being born as females. Confusion reigns across the globe. It is a universal phenomena because it is a new age and we are changing our location in the heavens. It is changing our perspective all around, upside down. We must learn not to judge someone based on the way they look, or their sexual preference or how they identify to their own body. Be kind. Be compassionate. Be understanding.
The male of the species is bigger, louder and more assertive because they must build the physical world in which we live, and protect it. Souls who have been feminine for many lifetimes are now being born as male. They must learn how to be boys and men. There has been a lot of unkind abuse over this strangeness, and not enough understanding. Wise male teachers are required to teach the masculine way with compassion and kindness. The male does not have time to sit in silence and follow feminine interests, however they can blend their male and female sides together in a balanced way that fulfills the soul's desire. Building a more balanced human life requires mentoring, teachers, gatherings in groups to validate one another. Life provides many opportunities for inventing better ways and not just physical, but psychological improvements, spiritual improvements and more. Physical refinement, mental refinement, emotional refinement, spiritual refinement, on all of these levels, organizing and planning is needed ON AN INDIVIDUAL SCALE. Institutions have grown too large and too almighty important. It is the individual who has been lost and needs personal, caring, wise and loving attention. It is one thing to believe in gentleness and love, and quite another to practice it.
This is the expertise of the feminine. Souls who are newly female after being male for many lifetimes, must learn how to be women of the heart. They are born into a female body but that's not enough. They must learn the feminine ways of life. What does the female do? What is her role? The culture has changed and women are struggling to understand. For a soul who has been masculine for lifetimes, there may be strong tendencies to competition, which is OK, but their first role is to adopt and learn the ways of the feminine being - the ways of the heart - for this is what fulfills the woman. This woman must bring about a balance within herself so that she can feel happy and fulfilled. What is it like to be a woman? Wise enlightened female teachers are required to pass on this ancient knowledge. How to cultivate the heart-centered woman. Having a female body in appearance is not enough.
Women of the heart are women of light, meaning they are connected to the Oneness, spiritually speaking. They are the wise women of the age. They are the ones who bring softer changes to humanity while the men continue to build and concentrate on practicalities. They have been doing this for eons but have generally gone unrecognized and unappreciated. Even in some countries today, women are being put to death or imprisoned for speaking out or daring to fulfill their feminine dreams. Mostly they are simply dismissed as second class citizens. In today's dawning new age, however, the women are gathering power and courage to come out of hiding. This is a hard thing to do. Learning how to shine their light after having kept it under cover for centuries, following the examples of their mothers and grandmothers, where do they begin? Wise enlightened feminine teachers are needed - holy women. How does a woman begin to shine her light? Through her own holiness.
Confidence can be built in gatherings of small groups. The sign of the new age is heart-based. Women are naturally heart-centered, so women's groups are ideal to begin with. There is no gender division at the level of the soul. The heart-based human of both genders are needed to build a better humanity and fulfill the human evolution to the spiritual destiny. We are all spiritual beings at heart, human beings only in body. A heart-centered woman does not compete with men. The first step is build up love for oneself and cultivate happiness being at home within oneself. That's the first step. As women learn the secret methods and techniques of how to do this, they access ancient wisdom that has been known and taught by mothers throughout eternity.
Women of ancient wisdom, known as women of the light, will soon be coming out in more noticeable form. We will know when their influence starts to take hold because men will begin to show respect and appreciation not only for women, but also for their brothers. Instead of competing, there will be a new attitude of brotherhood and cooperation among men. When men start to show respect and consideration on a universal scale, we will know that the women in their households are also expressing their own self love better. Women of the heart are humble but not in a phony or fake way. They are wise beyond even their own conscious understanding. Where do they get this quality? It comes from the universal substance of good which is everywhere present, even in outer space. Good has been shortened to mean God. Surrendering the ego to good is how the divine feminine operates. She is wise because she does not surrender to the ego, she surrenders to the good in her heart which is universal good. A man can do the same thing.
The average person passed on the street might be a genius in his field or he might be a simple laborer, perhaps even a homeless person. The goal for humanity is to bring light into physical expression to save humanity from extinction. The only way to do this is to open the heart to the universal flow of love and light. An enlightened intelligence and an enlightened heart. This is what is meant by “grounding” the light. The mind thinks about it first and then brings it down into physical expression through the desires and feelings of the heart. The heart feels emotion and distributes that desire to the rest of the body through the pumping action of the heart through the circulation system. It expresses what the heart feels - truth, kindness, justice, empathy, forgiveness, mercy, whatever the quality is being felt. If the soul feels angry and frustrated, then the heart distributes that to the rest of the body. Humanity's need is to invoke light and love as a feeling, instead of keeping it locked frozen in the brain. Bringing the concepts down into the heart will distribute the feeling down into the earth and soil to grow roots and spread it through the grassroots movement. This is the role of women. The divine feminine is the woman who has opened her heart and is living and expressing her feelings. The human female is one who has not yet been trained and feels confusion.
I met with a woman of the light yesterday. She will soon be coming out onto the world stage. She will instruct in ways that have not been shown before. I have been a student for many years of esoteric philosophies, mystics, ascended ones, the spiritual hierarchy and the benevolent galactics. But none of these can train us how to live the life of a human being better than another human who has connected to the light. The light has no name. It is simply light and when the light is lived and expressed to others, it becomes love. It is felt as love.
We all have certain ideals that we secretly entertain, but we have difficulty manifesting them because they don't come from the brain. The power to manifest comes through the heart. The heart, the physical heart, holds the universal power that creates good values. If the light is stuck in the brain and doesn't reach the heart, then the power is not accessed. The portal is not opened. There is no power to act in the brain alone. when someone becomes conscious of this, he or she will make inroads into the heart. Being conscious of kindness is what opens the portals of kindness in the heart. When the portal of kindness opens, the person starts expressing kindness to people around him.
That power of love, mercy and forgiveness must be felt and activated or it is not authentic. We can pretend but others don't feel it. The power is not "in" the physical heart, it flows "thru" the physical heart. The human becomes more divine when he becomes conscious of these higher attributes and begins to act outwardly on them. This is the power that moves mountains. It is a presence and it can be felt. It is a conscious feeling. It is a conscious connection of all life everywhere. The unity and harmony of all the good in life everywhere is the power of the universe. It is available to human beings as well as saints and mystics. Becoming aware of this is a personal discovery process. Reading books can stimulate it. We are all one mind, connected through individual experiences of one life. The one great eternal mind. There is no one person more important than another. We are all one, and yet we are all expressing differently. The great process that is unfolding on earth today comes through a portal in the heart, and women are the embodiment of heart-centered awareness. Love comes through the heart. The masters of old all hinted at connecting to the heart. We have been adulating the brain/ego but not the heart. We have dismissed the heart. When we finally get this, we will stop adulating the brain/ego/intellectualism, and start balancing the human condition with heart feelings. The impact of love does not dishonor or diminish the brain's intellect. It expands it so that it flows with more wisdom and genius.
Then humanity will start feeling the impact of love. If we want to improve our conditions, it cannot be done from the intellect alone. It must be connected to the real thing, the actions of the heart.
4/26/22 - Your mission in life
It’s not WHAT you do, it is the vibration with which you do it. Is it warm and exciting? Or cold and uninspiring? Are you feeling passion, compassion? Or are you analytical, without feeling? Are you quick and impatient? Or slow and kind? It doesn’t matter what we do, the goal we were given at birth as a mission is to create value and joy in all that we do. It is the high road of goodness and decency. The goal in life is not to create a career but to find the best avenue into which to channel love, passion, goodness and decency. The career will mold itself around us and be there for us when we need it. This is the secret to betterment on all levels. Relationships, job opportunities, abundance and success are in the eye of the beholder of love. Is the beholder of love asleep at the switch? Or awake and orchestrating the radiating of that which is downloading continuously without fail, day and night? Those are the qualities that make a a life and a career valuable.
Each person has the codes locked into his or her heart. Operate from the heart spontaneously with wisdom and discernment. It is the river of life that circulates downward with every breath. The obstacle to the download is non-thinking impatience. When we are so busy receiving input from the outside world and other people, then we are drowning in irrelevant data that is not of value. That which is not ours belongs to someone else’s value system as data that is delivered to us through contaminated words and actions and feelings. If we want to change the world around us, we need to detach from the debris left behind by others. Self love is the way we do that. Love is generated by the Self, at home, with reverence. We cannot expect reverence from outside ourselves. The data coming in from outside is delivered with putrefaction, old dead and dying stuff. It is not fresh nor alive but cast-offs being recycled second, third, fourth time. Vibrations that have lost their color, like second-hand clothes. Do not judge them, instead love them. Look upon them with thoughts of love and change them if they come your way.
Mental thoughts the same way. Change them with the love you generate yourself. Mental thoughts are the change-makers. Feelings come from thoughts that have been held in the mind, so hold loving, kind, clear thoughts, and feelings will follow along behind. Feelings start changing once you have rearranged the thought process to hold loving thoughts. We do not CREATE love, we do not actually make love, we channel love by mentally making space for love to flow through us. Love is everywhere. Love is all there is. By holding open channels to love by holding intentions on love, then love comes in from higher planes. It is delivered into the world through the life force that we breathe in. Love is the life that comes in on the breath, into the lungs, into the heart and circulation system, into the blood and nervous system through the nadis and meridians and chakras.
No, we do not create love, we make room for love and we enhance it, magnify it and increase it in the way we arrange our intentions, our brain patterns. We feel impatient and irritating sometimes when we are out and about, because the atmosphere is filled with electronic frequencies from everywhere. These are random frequencies from people who radiate uncontrolled thoughts and emotions even when they are inactive. We can control our own frequencies by filtering thoughts through the love and kindness filter. Love acts like a shield of softness, gentleness, calmness. It is a shield of protection that soothes everything and makes it nice. Impatience DOES appear even through the filter. It is not a perfect world we live in. Respond to impatience by consciously slowing down the thought process. Use determination to overcome impatience with love.
4/25/22 - Make love to everything you touch
We must go gently into a toxic environment, otherwise we will explode with incoming light, emphasis on explode. It’s all about slowing down, both for grounding the light and relieving the pressure of the backlog in the brain-mind. When we bonded today I started out spinning, I was so hyperactive with heightened energy. I had to slow myself down to enjoy our lovemaking. I am learning to be careful. Hyperactive makes me more energized than normal so I must watch myself. There is too much light coming into me. It requires me to slow down. Grounding the light is something everyone must do if they hyperactive. I'm getting validation and techniques how to do this from various youtubes online. We must ground the light that is coming onto the planet through sunflares because we are going through a remarkable upgrade as a planet. We are transitioning into a new age and a new dimension of understanding. It is lighter now than it ever was. We are loosening and letting go of heaviness. It's causing spinning of the atomic structure of our cells and tissues. There is too much light affecting us, and too much information reaching us through all the various implements we have. We must take responsibility for our own sanity and slow ourselves down. Blend with the light, don't explode with it! It is in the slowing down of the brain-mind activity that we do this. It's a difficult task if you don't know how or where to begin.
Slowing down is a conscious effort. It’s not a physical act. It’s a slowing down of physical acts. A conscious awareness that you're hyperactive is a good start to begin with. And then consciously slow yourself down, both in physical movements and in words you speak, and thoughts you think before speaking. Become conscious of yourself, where you are and what you are engaged in. Create a consciousness space around you. We have ego filters in our brain-minds. We shouldn't eliminate the filters, but rather widen the filter and give it more space to operate in. Add some additional information, i.e., "slow down!". This is consciousness work. Some call it being mindful or becoming aware. Slow down and become aware of what you are doing. Bring things to a standstill. A filter can be expanded by adding space and wisdom. The outer personality is the ego. We don’t want to erase the ego because it is who we are, we simply want to expand it by giving it more wisdom, more space, more love.
Make love in all that you do and you will notice more peace.
Make love in all that you do does not mean make sex in all that you! That would be laughable. Love is the universal harmonic that organizes everything so that it fits in with all other parts. The laws that govern the universe governs we the people on the ground too. When we bring our awareness down to the ground, we bring harmony down to the ground so that things operate more smoothly. Love is the secret process of alchemy, did you know that? The saying about alchemy is that it turns lead into gold. That means making heavy and crude into light, bright and cheerful. Love is the secret process of turning something ordinary into something precious, refined and valuable.
And so we begin at the most basic and ordinary of things - our own body. We begin to transform it into something more valuable by slowing down while using it. See that it performs well and according to harmony and smoothness. Make love to all things you touch. Make love with your toothbrush while brushing your teeth. Make love with the soap while washing your skin. Make love with your towel while drying yourself off. Make love with the ceramic toilet while using it. Make love with your computer keys while typing. Make love by becoming conscious of love. By thinking about love. By contemplating love. What is love? Become conscious of love while touching objects and looking out windows at passers by. Pass your love onto the objects you see. Instill love in everything you do. Connect every thought you think with love. Put love back into your life and actions.
The process of alchemy begins with our own body as we move through the day. WE are the ones who must transform the ugly, profane and mundane into the rare gold and jewels of dazzling, sparkling beauty. We are the transformers and changers of situations. We cannot expect someone else to do the transforming for us. WE are the one who imbues our life and the objects around us with value. Love is the ultimate energy of creation. It mends, it heals, it revitalizes, it makes whole. More than gold, more than money, more than diamonds and fine homes, cars and luxuries, more than any object we long for, more than anything we would kill for including sexual gratification, there is love. Love is the secret ingredient. Love doesn’t come from other people. It comes from within oneself. We are the magic or we are the dull automaton sleeping at the wheel, fatigued and drooping. It is we who must become aware and alert. WAKE UP! We are the beauty. We are the life. We are the love. The wondrous future is waiting for us to transform it. Let us begin.
4/23/22 - About Walk-in's
If your body is 5% of you, then who are you? Your body is a small part of you. You, your consciousness are the remaining 95% of you. Your consciousness is pure spirit, intelligence, awareness. How is it you don’t know about this? Because you are trapped and held down inside your body by the magnificent 5% - your feminine side in form, your solid body. Your 5% came to anchor you to the earth. Without an anchor here you wouldn’t have been able to come to this far-away outreach, so dark, dense and full of marauders. You - the 95% you don’t know about yourself (though some of you are getting the hint) - chose to come. You invested the 5%. You could see the value in this planet and you could see your friends trapped here from your vantage point outside of the entrapment and you volunteered. There is a long line of volunteers queuing up and waiting to be accepted to come to earth. But only a few are accepted based on their qualifications and what they can contribute. So you were among the chosen and you won the lottery. You came to earth and were either born as a baby to your parents or maybe you stepped into a fully grown body.
It happens sometimes where one soul who completed his mission and is ready to go home and would leave the body to die. But if the body is in good condition and another soul wants to take it over and skip the baby process they can do that. They must agree to do it that way, it cannot be forced one over the other. You can make an agreement with the outgoing soul to step in as he or she steps out. You take their place and it’s called a “walk-in” soul. This is another story. The incoming soul as 95% spirit in the unformed state. It then sends the “away” team member (the 5% soul) down into the body that has been vacated. The soul has to adjust once it enters a new grown-up body. It’s not like starting out as a baby creating your own body and learning how to move fingers and toes. In a body that is already grown to adulthood, the body itself already knows how to move its fingers and toes and how to manage itself.
As the new soul enters a used body, it is responsible for taking on what the other soul left behind in the form of thought patterns, emotions, abilities and family relations he or she had built into the body, such as respect, love, certain interests, etc. The new soul takes on the habits, interests, physical attractions, the husband or wife, the children and extended family situations. The family usually doesn’t know that a soul switch has taken place but they will notice changes over time. You see, the body hasn’t been replaced. Most earthlings do not know how to read beyond physical form. Everyone on the planet is a 5%’er. They know themselves only as bodies, not as spiritual and magnificent immortal beings who wander from life to life, planet to planet, body to body. They each come from celestial realms of great light. So whether you were born here as a baby or walked into a mature body as a walk-in, THIS is where you are now in this current moment, anchored into an aging body that may be going downhill fast, if it is no longer considered young. You may be deteriorating into aches, pains and wobbly knees, or you may be a healthy youth who has no idea of what happened - or do you?
Here I would like to point out that something is happening that hasn’t happened in previous centuries. There are changes taking place that have never taken place in the eons of earth’s history. You are noticing ways to improve your body through your own thoughts and feelings. You are experiencing ups and downs, visions and enlightenment thoughts. The earth is shifting. There is chaos in the air caused by fear of the unknown. But there is also peace and there is daydreaming. There are visions, there are breakthroughs, there are new inspirations along with perhaps dysfunctional pains, hurts and confusions. Some are experiencing dark nights of the soul, caused by separations, divorces, deaths and wars in your home land and crazy dreams or nightmares, while others are seeing angels and beautiful revelations of spiritual dimensions, or perhaps demons fighting and wars between worlds. Yet – and this is important - you are keeping your stability. You are growing up and evolving out of the past. The earth is going transitioning into a new era and a new timeline. A new age is being born and because your body is an earth body made of minerals and substances of physicality, your body is feeling this. Your chakras are opening. More of your 95% consciousness is coming through carrying light along with it. This will be coming through into your physical reality. It is an amazing time for physical beings to be alive on earth. You are becoming more enlightened, more happy, more graceful, more understanding. Continue to stay centered and grounded right where you are. (Thank you DK)
4/22/22 - Lightworkers weave broken edges back together
This morning I heard the words, “The healers of Earth are the lightworkers,” so I found paper and pen and wrote it down. Instead of stopping there, the words continued:
“Lightworkers are light weavers. They join the light to the light in the non-light. In the past era it was done thru the churches. But then the churches became crystalized and the teachings became doctrines that separated into black and white preachings of good and evil. This is what evil does, it separates wherever there is a weakness. It uses words to cut "edges" into unified fields and break them into continents. Boundaries appear around and between ideologies and thoughts. Lightworkers weave together those broken edges. They rejoin the fragmented thoughts with words of kindness. Words have become a tool of the evil forces. Evil is clever and manipulative. It is not held back by good and decency. It does not have any morals, rightness or truth that it is obliged to uphold. Whereas the light upholds the universal law of harmony.
Lightworkers are found in every walk of life, planted like seeds at every level of density. Some are deep underground where you would not think to look for them but they are there. They are not apparent from the surface or outer appearance. You can only connect with a lightworker thru a feeling. The feeling could be one of goodness, calmness or peace. Or it could be a message that only you can feel and interpret. The person prone to spreading evil is recognized through a feeling of selfishness. It is an inner body telling. The light in you, which is 100% good even if you are unaware, can interpret for you if you listen. If you feel conflicted or torn by a request to do something or what you hear from that person - it just doesn’t “feel right” - then you have connected with a contrary force. Contrary to your welfare. Stop and turn away.
This takes courage, for the person who is the deliverer of the uncomfortable feeling or idea could be a close family member or friend. Do not see them as evil or dark. See them through the goodness in you. They are more likely to be ignorant of the dark force that is using them. If they are intelligently using the dark for their own purposes, then you should leave them standing alone and walk away. Let the 100% feeling of good guide you. The dark invades man's consciousness at weak points, such as self-interest over the interest of mankind. The less ignorant person believes himself (or herself) is the thinker or creator of the thought. Do not cut them off unless it be to save yourself from dire consequences. Instead, if at all possible, call upon your lightworking skills and mend the rift, or walk away. Debate is dangerous, for as I have said, the dark is scheming and manipulative. Halt the potential conflict that could build to a breaking point. Calm the troubled waters and heal the separation immediately before that happens. Be a lightworker. The dark pulls back at the sudden flair of light. Kindness, good will, warmth, humor, empathy, inte