Anakosha
Awakening the divine feminine in everyone
The heart is the new baseline
10/3/23 - The law of harmony vs. the laws of separation
Following the laws of harmony vs. following the laws of separation. Symbiosis. The universe operates on the law of harmony or synthesis, whereas mankind has been operating on the law of separation. DK gave me this short little explanation recently when I asked him a question, now forgotten. He said, When you massage Annie you allow a blend to occur between her energy field or radiation, and yours. The normal human ego respects another person’s radiation and does not interfere with it. He or she stops short of blending with that other person, which allows a boundary or separation to exist between them. It is the law of free will. The law of free will allows separation to remain. There are hard edges between one person and another. It is called respecting free will.
Symbiosis is the tilting of the law of gravity in favor of blending separate fields, whereas the law of gravity pulls toward the center of each, not allowing a blend to occur. So tilting the law of gravity is a way of blending and merging people’s individual fields. Simbiosis. The flash event is when everyone will turn toward the law of harmony and away from the law of free will and separate boundaries.
10/2/23 - Your celestial chakra system
There is a celestial network of pure unadulterated light that runs through your body which has been there since you were born. This is what is today being called kundalini. I use that word because I had the kundalini awaken in me many years ago, so I know about it. Most people are not aware of this network of celestial light but it is actually the father God or source creator - the supreme intelligence - that created all things and is actually IN all things. Your are the souorce creator having a human experience. God lives in you. The kundalini is a small piece of Father God that is called Mother God because this piece of Father God was sent down at the time your body was conceived (through your human parents) to provide the life force to build your body. Father God built your body and Mother God managed it and helped you create a body for you, made sure all the parts were in place and functioned properlly. She has been there from your beginning. You are her, or better yet, you are the child of her. She is teaching you and giving you innate wisdom what to do at certain times. She gives you feelings of caring and love, and you should follow those feelings. She will always lead you out of messes.
So God is anchored in you and you are what has been termed the soul. You are that part of Father God that is having a human experience. They are your parents holding you close inside this body of yours. Father God anchors you, the soul, the intelligence, to the body. Your family and the culture does not know this so they didn't tell you about it. Unless they happened to be advanced souls and were spiritually inclined, as my mother was.
The chakras are actually seven portals that lead into layers of light that surround the body. We have seven levels of consciousness that surround, and if we were to study under an ascended being, we would learn some techniques how to use these chakras to our advantage. These doorways open into higher consciousness which is actually a whole dimension. A whole reality world of its own, but it is united together as one. Dimensions are connected and overlap each other when we learn how to use them properly. So when you are ready to expand to a higher consciousness level, well, you may not even notice it if you are naturally inclined to betterment and raising yourself up to higher levels.
When you are ready to explore higher beyond where you are today, it is a natural evolution of understanding. I am pointing out the natural positive side of evolution. I see that the average communication network is all caught up in negative scenarios, but I am pointing out that there is a very happy, pleasant and positive evolution that is happening right now. Many people are learning how to withdraw from the negative and just quietly remaining positive, looking upward to better things. This consciousness expansion is in full swing today because the whole planet is entering a higher consciousness "space" if you will, in the cosmos. Many people are being challenged because this change in height or altitude (speed and frequency) is disrupting their way of life. It is confusing us. I have been through two years of dizziness and am just now learning to manage it. Life isn't the same as it has been in my growing up years. There are physical upsets, mental upsets and weird upsets that you can't find a word to describe it. I was calling them "sickish feelings". They made me feel really, really bad during certain spells and bouts. Some people call them "attacks by the dark side" but the dark is everywhere and cannot be named. They are the "old" energies of the past and they appear "bad" when contrasted against the lighter consciousness that we are ALL experiencing at times. We are moving into lighter dimensions of space and conscious awareness. So the old energies are past energies that have no place in our world today. There must be an alert put out about these energies, so people can at least understand what's going on.
I have decided to just type these words out spontaneously, off the top of my head, and not put too much thought into it. I am moving fast through these toxic energies and learning about them. I am being shown MANY new things, new practices, new awarenesses, and they are stunning. I wish to share so I write about them since I've been under the tutorship of an ascended master, and he has shared a LOT with me over the years. He holds my proverbial hand from a higher place and allows me to participate in his thinking from time to time. That is what we are meant to do with our friends and neighbors. Share the knowledge that you have. You know more than you realize. Don't keep it bottled up. Guide others as you are inclined to do.
What I want to share about the chakras is this, and it's hard to put into words. You and I both and all of us, are absorbing each others energies, past energies, trauma energies, each other's thoughts, feelings, levels of understanding, wisdom and the bad stuff too. It is as if we are all one family living together in the same house and breathing the same air. Sharing the same ideas and thoughts. Well, we are. This has been the human family and the human condition for a long, long time. We are the human race and we have a mass consciousness that has created at atmosphere which we all share together. We breathe the same air. We believe, more or less, the same fundamental things. But here is where it gets different. And it's causing more than average confusion. Each of us is NOT on the same playing field. We are each souls, actually spiritual entities evolving in our own pathway. We are each a piece of the Father-Mother God and we are having a TEMPORARY human experience.
When ewe die to this body we will return to our normal consciousness and it will be HOME to us. We will feel much, much better being back HOME. But meanwhile, as long as we are still in a human body, we are likely to be having confusions at this point, because we were programmed to believe in the way humans were raised and programmed to believe. We were born into the mass consciousness of the race and it was set at a certain low consciousness level. But consciousness elevates and changes with learning and understanding and experience. We've watched the world change over our own lifetime, because things DO change with experience. Every day. But the BIG changes we are not noticing yet. We are moving out of the old low level of consciousness along with the rest of the planet, and the whole mass human race is evolving to higher levels. There is no way to notice that because everyone is going through it at the same time. We are moving out of lower levels of consciousness, but there are still lingering old systems in place shedding old thoughts. These old thoughts feel wrong suddenly. We are bothered by them. We are trying to change them and change our attitudes, but it's almost more than we can do. It's bigger than we are, this change in altitude and frequency We are shedding the mass consciousness and coming into more SOUL consciousness. Soul consciousness is lighter, smoother, calmer and and more heart-centered. We are being raised up to more heart-centered ways because soul is more in tune with Father-Mother God consciousness. This is in sharp contrast to the way humans were raised.
This is just a spontaneous off-the-top-of-my-head rambling today, to share insight and let you know that, IF you are going a little crazy with all the mood swings and strange sensations that are topsy-turvy and disruptive (more than ordinary) you are not alone. Everyone is going through it now. If you feel out of place and weird and you doctor can't find anything wrong with you, then I want to give you something positive to consider. Be at peace with your heart. Watch my blogs for further hints and instructions. The chakras are pure, unadulterated, cosmic and celestial consciousness with pure happiness, peace, clear vision, hope, love and understanding radiating out into your main body cells. If you will spend time alone and quiet your mind, as in meditation, you will feel much better. And say to your body "I love you lungs, I love you heart, I love you stomach, I love you feet," and to all parts of your body that you can think of. Then sit and feel their response.
This is an easy, simple form of meditation that will hopefully raise your spirits and bring you back in touch with the naturalness of HOME which is your own Father-Mother God Self. You are the child learning from them. You are always at HOME with them in spirit, but not while you're awake and moving about in the human matrix. The human matrix is a big swamp and it drains on us. There are practices and techniques that you can do to diminish the draining, and I would be glad to personally communicate with anyone who writes to me. I am available to guide anyone who needs help. The human matrix is a mind-altering matrix. It feeds negatives into the mix and our minds absorb it through the air we breathe.
Meditate for an hour if you can. Or as long as you can, alone in a quiet place with phones and gadgets turned off. It really does lift your spirits and put you back in touch with your body, which has a network of celestial cosmic light running all through it. It is like a weaving, a fabric of light. Your REAL self. Practice pulling yourself out of the human matrix for periods of time and remove yourself from the human matrix. You WILL ;notice a difference. The ascended masters teach this. I have learned many techniques. It is a science. It islike homework when you are taking a class. You DO have to study and spend time at it.
Our world's old toxic systems are degrading as we as a world move up to higher levels of consciousness. They are being felt as "bad" energies. Don't let them affect you. Each hour or half hour you spend in meditation on loving yourself, will put a circle of light protection around you. We didn't realize it when we are all a part of years ago. But now we are being upgraded and we are getting glimpses of our REAL self - our Father God-Mother God self. We are children of cosmic, celestial parents. We are coming closer to HOME now, little by little. It is done with our attention. Consciousness levels are built from where we put our attention the most. Step by step. The whole earth is coming to a higher place in the universal scheme. Take time to love yourself. Take time to tell your body parts, both inner and outer, "I love you!" and see what they say back to you.
9/30/23 - What really are the chakras?
The chakras have been misunderstood. They are portals. Doorways to other dimensions. Not physical doorways, You can only open them by taking an interest. They are consciousness doorways. Most of the pictures on the internet show a color in the area of a specific location, the heart, throat, abdomen, etc. This is misleading. As I study the teachings of the Master DK, I have found that the chakras are actually located in the center of the spinal column, not out front in the body tissues. Each chakra is vortex of energy leading, if gazed upon long enough, to further entry into this dimension. And each chakra is an entry to a higher or lower dimension. It is similar to a thermometer which registers hot or cold.
In a thermometer, the mercury at the bottom is the liquid that rises as temperatures get warmer. In the chakras, there is a pure light at the tailbone which rises as the consciousness rises, meaning when the interest , happiness or excitement rises. The molecules speed up. The electrons spin faster. The Masters teach their students how to concentrate on a specific location, using visualizing, pictures, concrete words and focus to get something firmly focused in mind. The first chakra is the root chakra at the base of the spine. It is an etheric energy, not physical. So far, science has not been able to measure it. Perhaps one day they will.
The first root chakra energy is pure crystalline energy, God energy except that it is called Mother God energy. Mother meaning mater. The Mother God energy is like the mercury at the bottom of the thermometer. It feeds vitality and life force up the spine in little drips to keep the body alive, but a human being CAN increase the dripping, and does. A human being increases the flow of vitality by raising his consciousness to a happier, more light-hearted level, more joyful, more giving, more benevolent, more service to others, more kind. The person's consciousness is raised to a higher vibration and a higher frequency when he raises his consciouosness. Life also takes on a happier, smoother flow to it. The first root chakra thus speeds up the drips up the spine. As we study and spend time focusing, reading and learning - considering - how our body operates, we come under the tutorship of the Masters. They notice. They know everyone on the planet by the sudden change in intensity of their auric glow.
When we raise our consciousness up to the second chakra, which is at the sacrum level, the area of the sex and reproductive organs, we enter the speeding up the consciousness of freedom. We are aware of more freedom. Freedom in the pure sense. However, we humans experience it as a sexual turn-on. We don't know the whole story of the chakras. All we know is about sex and we either turn it up or turn it off. We have not learned yet how to use the chakras properly. Our education has been poorly lacking. So, for us humans, the pure light energy of the second chakra is either turned off or turned to lust. In its pure state it is brilliant beyond description, but for us it is usually sucked off and drained away into the mix and mess of the body's many parts without direction. It becomes a debit to the overall health of the body. We don't get to maximize brilliant light energy that the chakra COULD give us to revitalize the organs and muscles. It becomes lost in the netherworld of the human condition, random thoughts and emotions.
Fortunately, sex can still be experienced. The orgasm and its beneficial release is still available for humans. But the purity of the second chakra has far more to offer, through the grace of love, allowance and understanding. And we will get there soon, as education is provided. The second chakra is the dimension of freedom. Under ideal conditions exploring sexuality or its equivalent of lovemaking, leads to opening the third chakra.
The third chakra is located at the solar plexus or navel spinal cord. When the individual connects with the light at this level, the divine plan is to bring him into a higher dimension of peace, comfort and understanding. But it the human race it has been compromised. Today the solar plex us filled with emotional confusion, known as the desire body, for we have not had proper schooling on how to maintain peace in our members. We are with fantasies, desires unfulfilled, emotional needs, loneliness, confusions and more. It would be to one's advantage to pull one's meditative focus back out of the tissues in FRONT of the spine and establish a focus of light in the CENTER of the spine. Under ideal conditions, the third higher dimension would lead the consciousness to open the heart chakra, the fourth dimension. This would involve the person in expanding his consciousness of love and higher, nobler virtues. He would expand his ability to love more of life and rise to higher ground within the spiritual or heavenly spheres.
And under ideal conditions, the fourth chakra would stimulate the fifth chakra to open within the spinal cord of the throat. The throat chakra gives the individual the power to understand and speak the truth. Experiences in the fifth chakra under ideal conditions would stimulate the sixth chakra to open - the head chakra known as the third eye. The third eye center opens the inner vision. This would then lead to the opening of the crown chakra which is enlightenment. The Mother God - the individual clothed in form now risen to the highest level possible in matter - then joins with Father God. Androgynous. This can be done while still in body, living as a normal human being. But, the Mother God energy at the base of the spine must rise up the spinal column, INSIDE THE SPINAL COLUMN, NOT OUTSIDE IT, lighting up the main trunk of the spinal tree and branching out through the true and uncompromised branches of the nervous system. He must have explored and expanded himself and gained the wisdom within each of those higher dimensions before he can reach the crown and become enlightened.
Each chakra to be explored is another measuring point up the ladder. Comparing it to the mercury thermometer - heat causes the mercury to rise. In the chakra system it is a balanced consciousness that causes the life force to rise up to the next higher dimension, to open the next chakra. One must use in a positive and noble way all that the body can give him. It is an evolutionary process of intelligence and interest in nobler things. It is the ability to do the right thing, to choose the honorable way. Unfortunately, human beings have not been given this proper instruction. Ascended Master instruction has been withheld over the years and considered whacko, woo-woo, crazy and weird. Only because it has not been told.
Well, this is a very poor synopsis of the chakra system, but I wanted to get it off my chest. I've been thinking about how well the common thermometer is a good example. Because each of our chakras is a marker as we rise up in our ability to be benevolent, wise, honorable and good people. It is not a measure of heat, as our thermometer is, but a measure of heart and soul wisdom, which speeds up the spinning of electrons, which throws off the negativity that is "stuck" in us. The pure, unadulterated spirit is clean, undefiled, unadulterated intelligence. It is your exquisitely high intelligence that has descended down into finite matter, step by step by step through layers of gravity. Your pure God-intelligence broke a little piece off itself off and sent it down to become an anchor for your body to build itself around. We have had many bodies over many lifetimes, most of us, here to gain understanding and experience in how to master the world of form. Some lives were lived not on this world but on other planets of various dimensions. Some of us are super high dimensional already, but still we live on THIS planet and are programmed with THESE laws and limitations. Yet we are all God incarnates when we are in form, and we have access to pure, unadulterated cosmic consciousness in our cells and in our root chakra. The power of the root chakra is called "kundalini" by Eastern mystics, and "the holy spirit" by Western mystics and Christianity.
Our aura is composed of these seven layers of higher dimensions. As we infuse these now-invisible layers of light by learning about them and meditating upon them and visualizing light in the CENTER of the spinal column, we begin to align our seven layers with more harmony and happiness. Light begins to infiltrate our previously shadowy auric field which caused confusion. We can clear our confusion by meditating on the chakras in the spinal column. For a very good and serious study of the chakras, look into the book by Master Djhwal Khul entitled "Intermediate Studies of the Human Aura.'
Focus on the light INSIDE the spine at each chakra point location, not out front in the organs and tissues, as many of the pictures show on the charts. By not understanding how precise this is, we have been generalizing the chakras and allowing them to leak and drain the pure light energy away. It is no different than when electricity is tapped into by an unknown source and diminishes the outflow. Or a water pipe the same way. Let's not be so vague, superstitious and random about the chakras. They are the lights that light up our bodies and our auric field. Most people have not had a masterful education on the chakras. There is a pure cosmic light network that flows through the human body (and all bodies) but the spine is the main cable which carries it up and down, tailbone to crown of head. It leaks away and dumbs us down through ignorance and lack of focus and lack of knowledge. Intelligent study and teachers are required to point the way.
The chakras are doorways to focus on which can lead us to filling our auric field full of LIGHT! Light is vitality and energy when one discovers how to use it by focusing on it and believing in it. Belief is an important part of the process. Those who say, "Hogwash!" are turning away from a truth that could provide a much happier life if a little open-mindedness were appliled. For many, there is parasitic draining and sucking away of pure resurrection energy everyday by those who do not know about this or won't take the time to consider it. The energy is there but it is being ignored and allowed to drain away and used for darker negative ways of live. It allows wrong energy into the main body of tissues that we take for granted, and allows problems to build without our awareness. Awareness is the chief number one asset that we own. We must learn to use it.
Without awareness we continue to allow toxic conditions to build. As the Masters say, it is most important to spend time alone with your thoughts, so you can focus on your own energies. The organs themselves suffer from our lack of attention and love. Yes, they respond to love. Learn to spend time saying, "I love you heart" or lungs, or kidneys. Every day. They will hear you. When we focus attention on them the pure vitality energy is not draining away but building in the same spot, light upon light upon light, building a momentum of intensity and brilliance. This is what composes vitality and physical energy in the same spot. Then, Bingo! The door opens one day and a flood of light vitality springs loose and runs through the body, spreading calm lifting sensations. Vitality is felt as a sudden wham of surprising new energy. It spills out into the consciousness and physical body. What just happened? we might wonder. It is a science that is universal. We just have to tune in and study the universal laws that keep life spinning in top condition.
To diminish the heavy, toxic rumblings and ramblings of past actions that are unfinished, bogging the body and mind down, go back to the light. Figure it out by yourself. No one can tell another what to do. It really is a solitary journey. Everyone has to figure it out for themself. Amplify the light in any way possible. Whatever idea hits your mind. A Master probably gave you a hint. Then turn it up a notch by your own willingness to turn it up and amplify it. A hint is given only once, just to see if you'll catch it. Then they'll watch to see if you'll do anything with it. If you will, then they will give you another hint to go along with it. Develop a routine every day. It is done by spending "time" at it. Spend "time" alone, in meditation, undisturbed, using visualization, affirmations, words spoken out loud. The light in the chakras are real. They are etheric. They are pure and uncompromised by the human condition. They can be magnified and enlarged, expanded upon. Pull them back from vagueries. Put them back into the spinal column which is the main cosmic cable from the root chakra up to the crown, and also goes down into the earth. Don't let them drain off into netherlands where they become compromised. Go back to the light and amplify the light. Your daily practice will help clean up your weaknesses on any and all levels. Give it time.
9/26/23 - Karma and the return of the circle
It occurred to me that the reason I don’t want to teach (from past life memories) is because when I tell something of value to someone else and it is rejected, it takes something away from me. When someone accepts the information they add to the information and they add to me and the universe, they return something back to me and to the universe. They make it better. But those who reject and dismiss take away from the whole. Wise men and women do not go around spouting wisdoms randomly. In fact, in Swami Rama’s book he shows how the sages of the Himalayas don’t encourage visitors. They toss stones at them to drive them away. They don’t want the distractions beause they then open themselves up to fatigue and draining away of their energy.
As Jesus said, “Someone touched the hem of my garment.” He could feel the draining from himself. What you put out comes back to you either weaker or stronger, depending. When a student learns from you, you grow. When a student rejects you or argues with you they detract from you. If they argue with you in an intelligent debate, it is useful and encouraged. But an outright dismissal or flat rejection of something that is valuable to you, it is treated as a debit on the book of your life. It takes something from you. You harmed the universal harmony,. It is the law of the circle. Whatever goes out from you returns to you with other people’s energies attached, good or bad. Good is attached to your good and it increases your vitality, whereas harm is attached to you and becomes a drain on your vitality. You feel it as anger or frustration.
I got this after texting someone on a positive note. He wondered or worried about me getting pancreatic cancer and sent me symptoms. I responded with gratitude, thanking him, because I must value his information. I must value what is valuable to HIM, so he is not drained in return. I must not judge HIS values. They are HIS values and I must respect them even though I don’t value them myself. I am learning how not to argue with people. The wisdom of past life memories!
9/22/23 - The need to ground yourself
Time is speeding up so we have to learn how to move slower, otherwise our heads will start spinning too fast and out of control. The brain is the conveyer of thoughts and thoughts are speeding up, ideas are coming and going faster. Confusions are piling up without decisions being reached. Conflicts are occurring in both the mental and emotional realms. The trick to counteract the speeding up process (i.e., global warming, ascension, evolutionary shift for humankind to higher consciousness realms) is to ground yourself. That means slow down, look within, be kind to yourself, love yourself, build deeper, calmer roots down into the soil where you live. Slow down. Smell the natural woods around you. Use thoughts and feelings of kindness and quietness to calm yourself down. Where your thoughts go there go your feelings.
It is no different than using a ground wire for an electrical device. Electricity needs a receiver on the ground or it will burn itself out. Earth is a receiver. Our bodies are receivers. Grow feelings of calmness into your body. A human will burn itself out if it doesn’t ground its higher crazy energy. The chaos that is happening is because people are becoming more empathic, more sensitive, more refined, more receptive, picking up more of the outside thoughts from other people and not being aware enough to protect themselves. We are moving into higher more rarefied consciousness zones. We don't know this. Scientists have not told us. They may not know themselves. Many are not even aware of it. Our innocence is coming online. We are being purified, purged of exterior toxins that we don't need, want or can use anymore. This is happening below our consciousness level, so I'm writing about it. It is important to realize that we are walking through a maelstrom, a toxic atmosphere m that we can't see with our physical eyes but we can feel. We get disturbing ideas and thoughts and we don't know what to do with them.
Grounding is an ascension technique. There are different ways to ground these energies that come in too fast to process, and there are ways to shield and protect oneself. But the BEST way is to put hands on each other in loving healing caring fashion. Hug, cuddle, touch, massage, stroke, be tender, be kind, be warm, tender, empathetic, sensitive, nurturing and supportive with close friends, family, people you know. Find ways to be human, loving and kind but not sexual. Don't turn it sexual. Sex is too rough. Grounding requires inner calm. Grow sweet inner calm connection within yourself. Better yet, with someone who is able to also be sweet inner calm with you. Become truly focused on your own sense of inner safety, warmth, secure and innocent. It is a meditative state and if you can hold and hug someone who is equally safe, warm and secure, all the better.
There are many ideas coming out on line but they are mostly mental words, devoid of the warmth of inner security, calm, peace and love. They are words being parroted by a third party. The ego likes to copy but doesn't know how to create for itself. The ego is a cold abstract thought built or passed on by the brain. It is the human HEART that gives love and warm support, healing and emotional nourishment. It is rare to find someone who is selfless enough to do that with, but you can do that for yourself. I am sure there are some few people around who might know how, but please be discerning and understand the difference between a needy person and a selfless loving person.
How to ground? What does that mean? This is a metaphysical teaching. I have been writing about it and practicing it for years. Meta means referring back into itself. Metaphysical means look again inside the physical, and this time look deeper, below the surface. There is something that you are missing. Metaphysical means occult. Occult means hidden. It is not apparent on the surface, on the outer skin. It is in the warm feeling of tenderness hiding within, waiting to be touched and appreciated. Grounding is that touch of appreciation. It requires looking within oneself to start generating self love and grounding roots into ones own body. If you are fortunate to have someone to ground with you can also hug with at the same time, who can als look within themself too, at the same time as hugging and holding you, then you are in good fortune. Be close that person and see them often. Comfort one another. Be authentic and appreciate one another. Hug and be close.
9/19/23 - A new technique to learn: focus on comfort!
This morning I felt to write: The ascension tool that will help you the most thru the day is peace and comfort. Focus on being comfortable. Find comfort in you. The sense of comfort is something that you can develop with some guidance in the form of words. Words are powerful transmitters of knowledge and energy. They can be used against you or for you to benefit you. Here we are giving some natural, persuasive positive advice that you can use in your day-time activities. It takes focus in the sense of concentration. Comfort begins by seeking out of comfort. Say you are ready to vacuum the floor. You get out the cleaner from the storage closet. You do this mechanically – just as you start typing mechanically.
First before moving, find comfort in your mind. It is a frequency. It is a sense and a presence of comfort. You can feel it if you search for it. You start out in the mechanical habit. It is a habit, a work and you get into work mode. It could be anything else that you do during your day, everyone has different tasks that they do. Any work task that is mechanical that you do, you’ve done it so many times before and it's no longer exciting and you are not enthusiastic. Stop! Stop everything and find the comfort frequency in your mind. Find a comfortable attitude and feeling in your mind. You may not know how to do this but it is a meditative state. Where your mind goes, there goes your energy, the real thing. Let your mind go to comfort. You are the director and controller of your energies. You may have to work at this awhile but success could come right away.
You are a master. You know. You have had prior life training. It could kick in within moments. I am pointing you inward to find a comfortable attitude or body pose, or feeling that feels comfortable to you. Can you feel it? Stop and consider being comfortable, even as you roll out the vacuum cleaner. Continue holding that thought of comfort as you plug the vacuum in. Hold it as best you can. This is practice. Your mind will try to speed up. It will try to take over and push you to forget comfort. Your ego has been in control for a long time in your outer world habits. Make it stop. Make it sit outside of your brain, on your left shoulder. Picture a little entity sitting on your left shoulder. You have ousted it from control. You are asserting your mastery over it. Feel comfortable inside of your head. Maintain an attitude of peace and comfort physically and mentally, as you do the task of pushing the vacuum around. This practice in awareness is called being mindful. Consider yourself and your own sense of comfort. It is a pleasure zone. Comfort is peaceful and it is pleasurable. It is used as an interface between hard work which is forced work and often painful, and what is naturally comfortable and peaceful. Consider this an intervention. You are intervening in your ego’s control system. You are taking over with conscious mindfulness and deliberate intention to oust the “hard work” demon.
Working hard is not required to live in a body on earth. Working softly is the way to move into happiness and pleasure, even as you perform your tasks throughout the day and fulfill your obligations to those around you. Move about with comfort and peace. At first it may be difficult if you come from a hard-working family, but it is worth the effort. Even as you type this, your back is painful. You are trying too hard and getting ahead of yourself. When you get ahead of yourself, you leave your body behind. You abandon your body. You are no longer in charge of your body and your body does not have a resident soul inside of it then. Lead with your mind first, focused on peace and comfort. Your mind will not let you abandon your body. Use your mental intention to slow down. Find peace and comfort MENTALLY. It is available to you. Find it with your mind. It is within you to access it. Do you want to access it?
Focus on the comfort of your skin and muscles and your brain/mind, mentally. Be a wakeful practitioner of walking comfort and peace. See if you don’t enjoy benefits from this practice. Do not let the light go out, is the message from the sun. Remember? It is a work that must be ever intentional. Ongoing. Use your mind to start the process. Don’t give up your peace and comfort to someone else or something else that disturbs you and takes your focus away from your control. You control your emotional state with your mind. Never give up your power of mind to someone or something else. That’s when your emotions play havoc with your feelings.
9/18/23 - The power of regeneration is in your heart, not your mind
The power of the heart is the most amazing power you will ever find, but you'll have to discover this for yourself. The power of healing is in the ability to love and focus love within youSELF so that love springs up into action - you start the primal pumping action yourself - and then it starts to spread and expand outward like heat from a wood camp fire. It spreads outward through your blood circulation system, heart pumping it, and through the nerves and endocrine systems and all the other systems that your body has built into it. Start the fire going yourself.
That is the power of the heart that the Masters have been talking about since forever. Also that religion has been talking about, that the priests, avators, saints and mystics have been talking about. It is power beyond human imagination. But all this talk about the heart has become so boring and humdrum that most people overlook it. It is too trite. It has become obsolete and no one is paying attention. But it is the power of life eternal and it will change everything from top to bottom. I'm being tuned in. Am I the only one to see it? It will turn life upside down if only you would "GET IT!" It is that part of the human body that draws us out to love one another, to reach for one another, to hug one another and be a living, kindly, passionate helper of one another. We WANT to serve others and help others and be kind to one another but we have built iron and steel shields around our hearts. The heart is suffering breakdowns. It is the n;umber one health problem we have today. We did this as a means of protection and defense against being hurt, but it is exactly the wrong thing to do. We are hurting ourselves. It is the OPPOSITE that we need to to do. Break down those doors of steel and iron, bust them wide open and start shining yourself out lovingly, kindly, with forgiveness, with happiness, joy, peace, love, light. And then give some more love. Give MORE love! And MORE, and MORE, and MORE love. It's the opposite of what we've been doing.
I've been writing about it for years and I keep getting more insight. The more I share by focusing on my words of love, the more love I am shown. It goes further out and further out and further out. This is what love means. The more you apply it, the more it spreads. The more wood you put on the campfire, the more heat and light you get. Our hearts - our physical hearts - are built to hold the fires of life in them and to circulate that life throughout the rest of the body. It's our main pumping organ. Our hearts are in our chest. Put your mind into your heart and imagine a bonfire building there. Put your hands upon your chest, your heart in your chest and imagine the heat coming from your hands into your heart. The more you do this, and the more you imagine the fire burning there in your heart, the more you are building the fire of love and radiating it out into your auric field to influence the world around you. This is what all the religions were trying to say and teach but it got scrambled along the way. Put the fire back into the heart, and out of the mind. The fire will bring back the miracles. It is a science. It is precise. It is the universal law of the universe. It is what suns are for - to radiate the light and love to planets in their orbs. It is cosmic law. It is what keeps the planets in balance around suns. The understanding will spread deeper and deeper and deeper and become more understandable and more significant, the more you do this. You are part of the oneness of all there is, and yet you are also an individual who is human and who cares and feels compassion and love for others like yourself. You are the valuable one. You are the pumper and the radiator of love and light and peace and good will to help your brothers and sisters.
Today I posted the Arcturians' message as channeled through Daniel Scranton (HERE). The
Arcturians say it is our one mission to raise our vibration. Our vibration is raised through the heart and held back by the shields we wrap around our hearts that hold us enslaved and prisoners to someone else's laws that keep us from expressing FREELY what we want to express. Our vibrations will increase and radiate more heat and light and love freely and materialize more quickly whwen we make it a priority in your life today to express love instead of keeping it hidden. The Arcturians advise us tomorrow when you wake up, check in to see where your vibration is before your feet hit the floor. Usually, you can shift your vibration pretty easily, when you catch it early on.
I myself have started doing this several weeks ago upon waking up, before stirring and hitting the bathroom, and it is definitely shifting my attention and focus to the betterment. The Arcturians say, "Before you get into your conversations and your actions of the day, take care of what matters, and everything else in your world will reflect it to you. That’s the type of world you want to be living in, and you have the power to put yourself in it right now."
Universal Law is often referred to as quantum physics and the laws of vibration. Remember that it’s your own light, your own inner decisions, your own vibrations that you radiate that determine so much of what happens to yu. Really, nothing happens TO you. It happens because of you. (From Today's Posts the Collective by Caroline Ocean Ryan.)
9/15/23 - The more you express yourself the more you are fed the vital force
As I woke up five months ago I heard words speaking in my mind: "You are not a body but a sphere of light, of consciousness. You are inhabiting your body.” The lecture continued and I reached for the pen and paper and began writing it down.
"You had time during embryo stage to become accustomed to it. You helped it, or saw it being built cell by cell, atom by atom, so you are aware of how your body looks and operates. You know its purpose intimately, and after your body – not YOU but your body was born - you had time in the new world of people and objects to learn how to use it, the body. You learned how to move the legs, the arms, the head, stomach, to eat, to make noise, to respond, to feel arms holding you. And slowly you identified with your body and became familiar with it. You did it before, with other bodies, many lifetimes past, but you conveniently forget that now, in your dedicated focus on THIS one.
So you are not your body. You are the conscious sphere of light and intelligence that moves your body and enjoys its sensations. There are seven layers of specific gifts that you have built into your sphere of light. If your culture doesn’t teach you about these qualities – love is one of them – then they remain in the background of your life as an attractive feature to you. You dream of love. Also truth is another natural quality in you but often the culture doesn’t value truth or highlight it so it is in the background.
As I said, there are seven gifts that you are here to use and activate during your life. You are here to learn how. Just seven. These are called the seven bodies. There are many names given to them, many experiences and many approaches. Names are important to learn, but how you apply these gifts and qualities and use them in your daily life is what matters the most. The application of your creative ability is put to the test. You are here in a body of form to learn how to USE these qualities every day. This is the hard part. You have to figure it out because these gifts are who you are. They are built into you. They ARE you. You ARE the gifts. You came here to gift them to the world of form life, and there are forces against you to stop you from manifesting who you are. So you get frustrated, but you have intelligence and stubbornness and patience and love and purity and truth and kindness and determination and wisdom from past life experiences. You have skills that you have acquired over these lives. You have logical, mathematical, scientific methods that you have proved to yourself that WORK for you. The innate sense of right and wrong is for you alone, because you have experienced it.
You experience peace vs. pain, and comfort vs. discomfort. You have learned. You know this instinctively. When you learn to organize all seven of your gifts, your innate qualities together so they are all functioning well together, harmonized together, then you will feel free. Free to live your life the way you want to live it, happily and with comfort and pleasure and love. You have it all. You have all that you need to live here in harmony and peace with others. You are not missing anything or feeling lack anywhere, and you are fulfilling your desire to be here. Your will to live is strong in you. You are using your intelligence to figure out the best way to accomplish what you want to accomplish. You have been using your love and kindness to work well with others. You are using your purity, and your truth and your sense of peace and comfort. You are using, applying, manifesting all of your gifts and qualities together, when you reach that point of perfection, and then you are home FREE!
The seventh gift is freedom in form. The seven chakras have been broken. They were veils and closed gates to you until you mastered them, one by one. You had to open them from inside, by applying your innate gift, the right gift to the right situation, in order to correct the wrongs of a certain scheme that had to play out in your life. You had to find the right approach to take. It had to be mastered before you could feel right about yourself being here. You had to feel free about yourself, and peaceful at the same time with that circumstance or situation. Once you felt right about it, then you were done with it. The situation changed and disappeared, or got better and more beautiful.
Learning to live whole and free in form life, especially on planet Earth, has been a hard school. But you had built-in tricks up your sleeve. You were not sent here without help. You are your father’s child. You have his qualities in you. It rings like a crystal clear bell striking inside you in purity. You know when you have the right solution. Your mother is with you all the way through the form life. She is the mother of form life. She is with your intelligence, holding your body together. Pain is telling you something. Peace and kindness are telling you something. Struggle is telling you something. This is your mother talking to you. Not this way! THIS way! Use your innate sensibilities within you and listen to your mother!
Kirlian photography has captured proof of the real you in the form of a glowing radiation around you. You are not your body. You are the space holding your body together. Your body requires atoms and electrons clinging together to form cells and molecules, organs and larger material that gives shape and function to your body. You are the intelligence holding your cells together. You have access to the seven gifts within your intelligence. When you sleep at night, you travel and meet others and learn and teach as appropriate.
The more refined you become in THIS body you currently inhabit, the better you harmonize your form life and the situations you live within, the more at peace you become and the less able you are to live in the backward culture of those who are not at your level of knowledge yet. Then it is that your inner gifts begin to be seen by others who have not yet mastered their own inner qualities. And you become a beloved light to the world around you. By sharing (showing or expressing) your gifts openly, freely, daringly, courageously, frankly, ,truthfully, the more you receive the vitality of youth and vigor. The power of life surges through you more. The urge and the drive grows to continue serving those around you. You do not want to leave you.
Now you are fluctuating between wanting to leave, and wanting to stay here to serve. You are noticing a lessening of the desire to leave the form world, the sick feeling you call it. The more you express yourself the more you are fed with this vital force. God is here expressing. It is an open channel to the God realms, Source, Home, where you originated. It is exhilarating to bring heaven to earth into form! It is exciting! And more!
(End, I ran out of words. Finished. Journal 4/25/23)
9/14/23 - Recognize the fire of your own creation: it is love
Words “Recognize the fire of your own creation.” These words came to me in the shower. Yesterday I looked into Fortitude. 85 years and I never looked! Fortitude is bearing pain, enduring adversity or simply discomfort. For me it’s simply discomfort. Years of being blinded to the pain and adversity because I focused so much on loving and helping others, I wondered all the while where does my fire and determination come from that I feel? I didn’t understand that I myself have been evolving thru transcendence - thru the transcendending bliss of love. I know how to transcend adversity.
The key word given to me yesterday was fortitude. A word that sparked curiosity in me. What did it mean? It means enduring thru adversity and pain and getting thru it, past it, to the other side of it. The quickening takes place during the hard times of one who is willing to stick it out. The part is yours to fulfill. Do you renig? Or play it out to a conclusion? This is where the fire comes from. Or not. It is inside of you. The portal, the door, the resources, the tank is full inside of you. The fuel is there. Will you draw upon it? If you agree to go thru with it, you open the fuel tank and it starts flowing thru you.
I didn’t know. I knew the pain, suffering and heart-ache, yes, of course. Doesn't everyone? But surprisingly I knew the love too. I have traveled a long way up this mountain and I am seeing the stars shining during the daytime. They are suns, each of them. I am entering the higher realms. I am sending this message back down the slopes of this mountain: “Don’t give up! There is a new plateau ahead. A new kindness, a new surge of life and excitement and clarity and comfort and peace and communities of like-minded people waiting for you to join them. Remember the love. Apply the love at every turn. Love is the pathway to the stars.
9/12/23 - The physical nerves are not made of substance but consciousness
I am seeing ancient light, experiencing ancient light – light/life from past embodiments. They are coming forth and I am reclaiming them. This is so very real for me. I see it and experience it. It is lighting me up on the inside! Also the brain tapping is helping a lot too. Found it on the internet, there is a lot of good information there re: brain tapping. It hurts like needles going into the head on the surface, but consciously I’m seeing the energies penetrating deep into the locked-up energies that are literally stuffed and stacked and crammed inside the head because of the world view that we are accustomed to, that we believe we are only physical and ALL OUR EXPECTATIONS are physically focused. Everything we believe is physically concentrated on physical end results.
Whew! This new realization is stunning. I see that the nerves, the physical nerves, are literally composed NOT OF SUBSTANCE, but of consciousness. As consciousness is applied, it wakes up the ancient light in the body that has been stuffed down and compacted and is suffering pain, disease, recurrent chronic illness from believing it's real. It’s not real. It's amazing!
9/10/23 - Working with the lower body to raise it up
Upon awakening I received words: “Do the physical movements every morning for two weeks.” Establish a routine for your body. Your body will adjust. You DO have complete control over what’s happening inside of you. The nerves are literally composed NOT OF SUBSTANCE, but of consciousness. As consciousness is applied, it wakes up the ancient light in the body that is suffering pain, etc.
So I see that I've got to work with the lower body more, work it out. I’ve been too much above in the higher realms, I haven’t raised the lower body well. I've got to understand what I’m doing here. The coccyx, sacrum and navel, the first, second and third chakras. I must understand them better, connect better, help lower body be part of the system. Bring it into peace. The words keep coming: "You don’t build a skyrise by digging into the ground and laying the concrete cement over and over again and again, ad infinitum. You build the next higher level over on top of it. Build it UP. Build it UP with finer words and tools and grace and song and thought and feeling and inspiring thoughts and acts and deeds of higher more refined works and expressions outward into the world of people.
Learn how to love higher, wider, more benevolently, that serves the greater whole, the greater good, the greater plan, the greater vastness of eternity which is nowhere but HERE NOW, NOW HERE, nowhere else but HERE. Raise it higher. Raise your consciousness higher. Let the old traumas and resentments go. Let it go! Give it a rest! Bury it in the earth with forgiveness, mercy, understanding, compassion for all the wrong thoughts you sent out. Forgive yourself. Forgive those who you believed made you do it. Forgive them. They did not make you do it. You relinquished your power. You gave yourself up. Take yourself back.
9/9/23 - The Light Club vs. the Love Club
One morning not long ago I woke up aware of holding light over my second chakra. I wasn't sure how I got here, but I am seeing my awareness from an observer's perspective, from outside of myself. I see my own awareness as a fuzzy light, a cloud of light, lighting up the area around the second chakra, the area where I first felt the “click” of kundalini long ago. It has been painful lately, until I began the tennis ball treatment, rolling on tennis balls stuffed in a sock. Now it’s relaxing. I went back to sleep and woke again at 3 am and saw Doug sitting up and I thought to put Light like the sun inside his head for him, to perk him up. I did and then went back to sleep again, saying as I drifted out, “I will remember my dreams when I wake up.”
When I woke up next I saw my own light inside my body, like a fuzzy cloud lighting up the inside of me. I was shown that THIS is how we merge our spirit with our physical body. This is the salvation, the reclaiming of the ancient light left behind in decomposing old corpses. It is the next step for me to learn this process and do it with a LIVING body, to resurrect a live body before it dies. I am seeing it from an observer's perspective, not subjectively as from inside but from outside. Most people are not aware of this reclaiming process of the light, it is an esoteric teaching of the Masters. I am aware what a great privilege this is, a great gift being given to me right now to see this. This is a rare occult process, to be conscious of this and to be gifted with sight to see this with a first hand view of it – it’s truly a remarkable spiritual gift. And it came to me after I gave the gift of the sunlight first to Doug.
I thanked DK for this gift and he said, “No, it was not me. Light is meant to be given. Light has to shine and go somewhere. Light’s very nature is to light up areas, to increase the light, to expand the light and bestow life wherever there is an opening. You have asked for more light and you are being gifted with more light. You’ve done the homework, put in the effort. Light is the creator. The creator is LIGHT! Light radiates. Light moves out to expand the light of information and knowledge in the area around it wherever it can. Light distributes information. Light enlightens. Light waves through the darkness. Light keeps expanding and revealing itself to form new life."
I went to sleep again and woke up again with an additional thought. Why do I say “not sex please” when I contemplate the Love Club and Ascension Massage? Because the Love Club is actually the Light Club. And Light is freedom, Light is unconditional. Sex is a thing, an object, a form of physical. It is narrowed down because in order to make a form, there has to be boundaries. Sex has boundaries. Sex is a funnel shaped thing asking people to fill it. The Light Club’s intention is to expand the view, not contract it, to widen the perspective and enjoy the freedom that comes with that expansion and widening. Sex is too narrow and too focused. The Light club is a shining to all around. It is Love in the unconditional or infinite range. It is not selective or objectified.
Yes, you can create form life with Light. You can create wars and chaos and hatred and judgmental situations with Light. But God's intention (the good intention) is to use light as an ENHANCEMENT and a joy within form life, not to hold life back. We are to learn how to work with Light IN FORM, and how to make it beautiful, enjoyable, pleasurable, exciting, creative, abundant and pleasurable for all. Benevolence for all. The problem is that many shut the light off and the light contracts, dims down, dulls off into gray and darkness.
Lack of light creates unhappy situations, pain and tragedy. Learn how to work with Light. Find the middle place where form life and non-form life exist together and where they create a flowing, like a river of flowing life and light particles. Learn how to have a joyous, happy, exhilarating, uplifting, elevated and abundant fun life together, moving in and out of form, lifting form, descending into form, lifting light up out of form, descending down into form, lifting up like a wave and down like a wave. I am reminded that vibration comes in frequencies of low and high. I looked up Hertz and vibration. Using frequency and vibration creates heavenly symphonies of rhythm, dance, movement and pleasurable, ecstatic combinations to be enjoyed by all.
9/8/23 - The laws of harmony vs. laws of separation
The universe operates on the law of harmony or synthesis, whereas mankind has been operating on the law of separation. DK informed me that when I massage X, a close lady friend whom I knew in a prior life, I allow a blend to occur between her energy field and my own. The normal human ego respects another person’s radiation and does not interfere with it. He or she stops short of blending with another, which allows a boundary to exist between them. The law of separation. There are hard edges between one person and another. It is called respecting free will.
Symbiosis is defined as the interaction between two different organisms living in close physical association, typically to the advantage of both. Symbiosis is the “tilting of the law of gravity” in favor of blending separate fields, whereas the law of gravity pulls toward the center of each one, not allowing a blend to occur. So “tilting the law of gravity” is a way of blending and merging people’s individual fields. This is good! It is healthy, DK is advising. The flash event is when everyone will turn toward the law of harmony and away from the law of free will and separate boundaries.
I myself have been following the light in my cells rather than the dark in my cells, which is the artificial laws of the culture. Therefore in intimate closeness I follow the light in the other person over the darkness in the other person. The darkness could be defined as the artificial intelligence in a person or the shadow side or separate side of that person that keeps him or her isolated, separate and apart from blending with others. When I follow the light in the other person this allows me to blend with that person, not stay separate from them. It feels good to me and to both of us. It is the magic of love and light. However I must be careful because it does erase lines of former contracts made within relationships, like "until death do we part". My approach to love and light could therefore introduce jealousy into a couple’s relationship.
The light in me is getting stronger. It is seductive. I yearn to reach out and blend with people, I yearn to become one with the person. The person whose light is also growing stronger will respond to me so I must be careful and considerate. This morning during meditation I saw deeper than usual. I saw that transfiguration is the precursor to physical ascension. Ascension follows, when light becomes sufficiently strong to take over the shadow side. The flash event then may occur for an individual. Can we hold it back? I’ve been wondering about that. The yearning is growing stronger. The massage with my lady friend is naturally transcending for both of us. She has a need for healing and as I supply the treatment there is healing in BOTH of us. We both benefit from the joining. A need is fulfilled. As I finish the massage I feel I complete and can stop now.
9/6/23 - Loving sex - the one act that can make spiritual progress
Understanding is an aspect of your feeling nature. You don’t get to feel them until you accept them and allow them. These original ideas from higher source, are down in the inner layers of your body. Discernment is required however, for you are constantly picking up thoughts from the air around you which is teeming with a myriad human-related thoughts that are not pristine and pure, but heavy and clogged with negatives. But when you can discern a divine idea and allow yourself to receive this divine idea into your inner layers, you are giving the idea “body”. You are incorporating the idea bringing it more fully into manifestation. The idea or thought must be felt by your body to become manifested, because you, yourself, are a body that has been manifested by the creator. YOU are God/Goddess in sentient form. None of your body parts are solid or physical. All of you, your body, is composed of atoms and electrons swirling around the neutron and proton at the center of the atom. The atom is composed of these little particles of light. The space BETWEEM the particles is space which you own, temporarily, while you are incorporated or incarnated in this body of yours. You are incorporated - incarnated - in a body for the specific purpose of receiving the divine flow from source creator, your own higher self. There is a wish and suddenly a thought pops up wanting to be sentient. You, by understanding, are receiving the divine instructions from your own higher source to manifest this idea. But you can’t if you brush it off and ignore it. It is through your allowing it into you feeling nature that you manifest this wish of the creator. Feeling is how you connect with your neighbors and others. You cannot manifest alone all by yourself. You are not a solitary island in the middle of the ocean. Manifesting into form requires ideas from the divine to coalesce and clump together in order to create form and substance which, to you in your dimension, appears physical and solid.
You have created instruments to measure solidarity versus gases and liquids and now your dimension is expanding to measure and define the Light, which is in the descension process of forming matter. This lesson is to focus on your feeling nature. Your understanding is how you manifest in the “real” world, the world of the physical. The old control system of what you call the patriarchy, was control by outsiders, not you. They taught you not to pay attention to feelings. And those in male bodies became the guardians of control. They were trained and programmed by master mind controllers, to not allow feelings to enter this reality, this dimension on earth, which is herself a divine manifestation, not solid. They, the outsiders, took over the manifestation process millions of years ago. They are against love because love would make everything and everyone equal and happy, and they choose to be the powerful controllers over a race of slaves. That is their joy. They are the dark side, and they conquered this planet and have been preventing the full incorporation of the source idea trying to manifest into physical sentience.
They can do this with humans but they cannot stop sexuality from taking place, nor can they stop the orgasm from happening, for that is the only way to keep the human race reproducing. That is the one loophole which saves mankind, and this is how feeling may come in, and the connection to God/Goddess may happen through sexuality and lovemaking. But it’s complicated. Yes, this is how the God/Goddess connection can happen, but if mankind is ignorant of the FACT that love must be used during the sex act, then the spiritual progress will not be made. It is through feeling the LOVE that spiritual peace is found. The loophole exists only because mankind has allowed the love to NOT be present during the one act in all of human life, that can create spiritual progress. Human males FEEL through the sex act, even if it is only for a brief moment. That is why the women are becoming empowered. The women hold the solution to bringing forth more love, which men have seriously shut down in their focus. The dark controllers could not shut that down because that would have stopped - brought to an end - to the human race and they did not want that to happen. Instead, they wanted to control the sex. They created animosity between men and women. To reverse this sorry plight, we need more feelings. My mission is to educate and write about the feeling nature and how it works. End. (Archive 10/1/19)
9/5/23 - Cuddle parties?
Yesterday I posted on my Ascension Massage page a spontaneous message about cuddling with me. It was revelatory. For me. I received inner validation from higher sources in many ways. So I am re-posting it here on my blog. The whole point of being here in a body is to EXPRESS yourself, fluidly, flowingly, easily, happily. When we hold back expressing our truth, our desires, our feelings, we are holding back the main purpose for why we were born. We are stifling ourselves and it's no wonder that we suffer! I have been fighting this for many, many years, thinking I had to go along with other people. No. Don't go along with other people's desires. Be intelligent, yes, be considerate yes, but not to the point of surrendering your will to other people. Go with your OWN desires and wishes.
(Yesterday's posting:) At 1 am in the night I awoke with words in my mind: “Will you cuddle with me without sex, naked? or semi-naked? Open and free? Playful, innocent, child like? Not serious, not romantic, just light-hearted giggling fun? Be free, let go, be loose, as if we’’ve done it a thousand times before? It will raise the life force in both of us. The point is to awaken the beautiful warm loving more refined energies in each of us. I’d like to practice this with a man preferably, someone who understands the why of it. But not to rule out a woman either, if there is one who'd like to try this with me. The man is a test. Can he do it without wanting or pressing for sexual action? I don’t want that. I want higher, lighter, refined, exquisite, easy, fun-loving, playful, happy, free cuddling. It is such a good feeling when there are no expectations of sex. We open doorways and chakras all the way up the spine.
I asked Mary Magdalene what she thought about this, and got a “Yes” for a reply. I also asked Yeshua and got a “It’s an ascension technique!” for a reply - and a wide, wide swing of the pendulum saying YES! I asked DK and got “Definitely! Go for it girl! Definitely,” and a wide wide swing of the pendulum. And a kudu from Saint Germain in an article I read this morning (see today's postings).
This posting breaks all protocol. I’m bored with tradition of being careful, being polite. I'm leaping over the backyard fence into freedom. This is like the early days of my swinging but without the sex. Only spontaneous fun, free fun-loving cuddles together – MY type of fun! I’m looking for fun-loving partners. I can’t ask people to do it way if they don't want to. But I can ask if there is anyone out there who wants to play the game with me. It’s about activating the bioenergy - the crystal light that is the life force within every living thing. We live and breathe because of the crystal light within us. We’ll be activating this fiery bioenergy in us with our light-hearted cuddling. About an hour or so together in my house. No cost involved. It's an experiment. The solar diamond crystal light is the creative force in all living things, it's been buried under layers of protocol and laws. I've been trying to be polite about it to eeeaaassse an understanding into the picture, but it's taking too long. Let's try the cuddling method.
This requires not having any expectations of sex. Let all expectations go. Rise up higher and more fun loving. Sex is not on the agenda. It'll be about an hour in my house. As we freely cuddle with a higher goal in mind we’ll be connecting our crystal diamond life force together. It will feel good, I promise you - as long as you don't get frustrated because you have another agenda in mind. I'm taking a big risk here putting it out onto the internet, but I'm ready if you are. We will feel feelings not down in the lower genitals bult warmly happy and free all thru the body. This is a new healing method. I felt it at swing parties. It was awesome but it was always redirected to "down" into the physical genitals, the main theme of swinging. It was playful at first for me, but then the pressure was on to go heavier, denser and lower, with more expectations, and I would have to hold back my fun-loving side. Why? I don’t know why. But now it’s MY turn to find some playmates to do it MY way. I’ll post the concept here and see what happens. Contact me thru the contact page.
9/4/23 - Do you know that we are transitioning, leaving the 3rd D?
(January 2023) During the exercises on this particular morning I had lots of inner stimulation, lots of lower spine radiation, the cells were sensuous. Awesomely sensuous! I was so connected into my light body, or etheric body, not sure which. In med room from 10 to 11:15 but time doesn’t count any more because I’m connecting all morning, even while in bathroom and making the bed and writing it down on paper. Last night I had renewed vigor and massaged Doug’s legs like I hadn’t done before, then his feet. I had lots of motivation. I wanted to share, I suppose, I had excess energy. I knew things and wanted to put it to work. I researched the Vegus Nerve too, and reconnected with that nerve, it’s the longest nerve in the body and connects into everything., all organs. I copied some articles and sent them to myself. I did some rubbing on my back after Doug went to sleep, did some belly breathing and rubbing of my neck, throat and stomach and back while in bed. Doug slept beside me as I did the Vegus Nerve belly breathing, remembering as I went to sleep. And in the morning I woke up with dreams fading of the Light withdrawing, remnants of broken dreams.
They were of me reaching up to the light that is coming down into the top of my head in a stream of dazzling white light. It is ME coming down. My own I AM Presence, or higher self, my greater self. My ME! It is not anyone else but ME! I AM my own greater self. It has been broken up and shattered, this stream of light that is ME!. Of elegance, pure, crystal clear knowing of myself. It is me in clarity but it is broken and shattered as soon as it reaches my dense bodily head and brain, my body. This body has been educated to close it off and think of myself and others as “just a form”, just physical, here today, gone tomorrow. I’ve been raised in a garden and a home that is solid prison walls, shutting this clarity and everlasting knowledge out. I keep it out by distraction. Getting up in the morning and focusing on what happened yesterday. Picking up where I left off yesterday. I keep reconnecting into the broken past, the illusion of the past, the drama and problems of yesterday. They mean well, my family and friends, but I am now bored with it. I am now connecting back into my brilliance. It is streaming during the night as I sleep. But now I’m waking up to this old yesterday drama and I am back in the broken world again, and my stream of brilliance and clarity and knowingness, and being connected to brightness, light, joy, realization of wonderment and enlightenment, flowing, I AM flowing with knowing – but it is breaking up now as I get up out of bed. This flowing of light and knowing is dissipating, is breaking up and shattering and I am losing it. It is disappearing into dullness again. Grayness. Ordinariness is taking over. I wake up with a sigh, saying “I praise thy holy name, oh light of immortality that lives within all beings.” It is a left-over from where I came from. I am still saying it, trying to hang on to the fading glow and glory in an attempt to hold onto it, the connection to this power, this light, this joy, refreshing me.
Suddenly I see the faces of people everywhere, all who like me are looking up at themselves with joy and rapture on their faces, people everywhere radiating and looking up, with light pouring down in a single beam dazzling pure light entering into the crown of their head. We are all trying to hold onto the connection with the light, but it is wavering and breaking up. Distortions are entering. I continue to call out the words silently: “I praise thy holy name, oh light of immortality that lives within all beings.” I continue to try to hold the vision of the people all doing the same thing. Repeating the call, holding onto the light by looking up, seeing the pure stream of light up beyond us, holding the connection steady, speaking words up into the light above us, and holding, holding, holding the connection with the pure, untainted divine light of our soul, our God Selves, our REAL selves, our truth, our abundance, our clarity, our ideal, our perfection, our joy, our ecstasy, our rapture. “I praise thy holy name oh light of immortality that lives within all beings.” I repeat this as I wake up and sit up on the side of the bed. I try to keep repeating it as the vision starts to waver and break up. I get up and go to the bathroom for my usual routine while saying the words over and over silently in my mind, even though it is fading, but I keep holding onto it as I brush my teeth and start the shower and step in. This I know will help me build the momentum, my clarity, my connection with my own individual God I AM that I Am. I suggest to myself to say the words silently, “I Am that I Am” 40, 50 times, focusing this light down into my heart, seeing the picture of the light streaming down through the top of my head, and see it come down into my heart and anchor it there, see my heart building the light into a fire. “I praise they holy name, oh light of immortality that lives within ME!”
In the bathroom I suddenly see the hollow tube going down my spine. It is gifted to me. It goes down through the center of my body. It is hollow. There is nothing in it to obstruct the flow. The hollow tube goes all the way down to – where? I don’t see. My vision is obscure below a certain point, below the heart. I continue with the words “I praise thy holy name, oh light of immortality that lives within MY BODY!” My body is important. I am drawing my consciousness and my ability to visualize down inside of me, lower into my body. Lower than I’ve gone before. The walls of this inner hollow tube are not solid, as I thought at first they were. They are soft, softly subtle. They are made of light. So subtle I didn’t see it at first. I couldn’t make it out at first. Only the main channel extending down from the crown of my head was open to my vision. I will continue holding the visual of light, dazzling light streaming down from somewhere above me, lighting up this main tube that runs down to my lower parts. It is my ability to hold my attention still and conscious. Then the obscurity opens up to me. Is this the pain I’ve been feeling in my lower back and abdomen? Why I’ve been led to reach up first and to then bring the light from above me down? It is as if my lower back pain is blocked. I can feel it blocked through the pain, the aching dull pain is very loud. It is holding me in a tight squeeze, like a girdle. I keep stroking and rubbing my lower back, hoping to release it. Several days ago I was shown the sacrum and the four holes in the sacrum bone out of which nerves come. I think that’s what they are there for. This picture became clearer over the last few days. I’ve been led to re-examine craniosacral therapy. I found Paula Terry. Someone I met through Tamsen, who has a training and therefore holds a concept of the cranioscral flow, even if limited to physical. Still it is an educational focus that craniosacral therapists have. They are trained by John Upledger, who now has schools around the world.
9/2/23 - The physical is de-stabilizing
In the shift to higher enlightenment (higher dimensions of knowledge and awareness), the physical body is de-stablizing. You are the light shining thru your physical. The only thing holding your physical body together are old energies, old patterns, old facts and sure-solid beliefs. At one time those facts were true and you built on them a reality that played out. But you are now a clearer light shining thru those old beliefs and they are breaking up and going away. All your promises aren't real any more because you made them based on the now-dissolving old reality. I am seeing this very clearly.
The physical world as we knew it is changing, but it is changing only as we allow it to change and accept the changing. Don't hold on any more to yesterday's dream and that which was foretold. It no longer exists. We are moving into a new place, a new time, a new excitement, a new timeline. Don't try to keep old promises. They are no longer relevant. There is a new Plan coming to all of us. This is a bright new revelation coming in now.
8/31/23 - Part 2 - The Christ in the heart, by DK
“Start this method by first sending yourself love and light. Picture your own heart in your chest with a bubble of exquisite light around your heart. See or picture a single flame inside your physical heart. This flame is called the three-fold flame. It is one flame with three qualities built in – love, wisdom and power. Love is pink on the left and is your divine Mother. Power is blue on the right and is your divine Father. And in the center is you, the golden flame, you are the child who leans first left into your Mother for guidance and then right into your Father for guidance. You are learning from your own higher self, which is within your heart at all times in the form of your Mother and your Father. You do not need to reach UP above your head, because your own beloved “I Am Presence” is in your heart, your physical heart, in the three-fold flame. This “I Am Presence" is the three-fold flame in your heart. It is the power that keeps you alive, your body breathing and all systems functioning. It is also the intelligence which gives you inspiration and ideas.
"Your Father-Mother God lives within your heart and YOU dear one are ever and always surrounded by your spiritual parents. Your Mother to succor you and give you the warm nourishing peace and comfort you crave at times, and your Father to give you determination, courage, fortitude and the will to carry out the mission you have chosen. We need both powers – the love and nurturance from the Mother, and the courage and determination and self-control of the Father. But YOU, dear one, are the evolving one in the center between your parents, between what appears to be opposites. They are your own “Mighty I Am Presence” supporting you like two poles on either side of you to protect you from falling over. As you learn to balance yourself between these two poles within, you do not need to rely on outside forces to guide you. You grow into mastery and you are no longer the child, but the mature adult, drawing on your own personal experiences, wisdom built into you and you become the fulfilled crystal light being yet still walking around in skin, flesh and blood. You do not have to leave the Earth plane to enjoy the Christhood. “Enter the center where yin resides”, as you have written. Become the hub of the wheel.” (end)
8/30/23 - The Christ: the pure crystalline pattern in your heart
During the back bend this morning I realized something. First came s wild insane release of toxic bad energies. It was an avalanche of sick feelings. I've been working through them, trying to understand what's happening to me. It was so bad today that I thought I would lose control and go over the edge of sanity. Then the realization came through in the end, breaking through in calmness. The realization that the ONLY one who can hold me together and keep me in sanity, is the Christ self, the holy Christ Self - the ONE known biblically as the first born. This is the one who brought creator source into form. Everyone has a Christ waiting to be discovered in their own consciousness. This crystalline energy called the Christ is the perfect image of the Father/Mother purity which created it in the immaculate conception. It is stationed or embedded into the heart, but it has to be built as awareness is slowly built over time.
Mother consciousness is held in the tailbone, in an etheric pouch in the body in the tailone. Father consciousness is in the abstract, not in the physical body. Bringing these two God Parent sources together - the tail bone which holds the Mother consciousness (kundalini), and the abstract Father awareness which is not in physical form, these two God sources give birth to the Christ consciousness. The Christ consciousness is a pattern made of crystal light that is embedded in the heart. Why the heart? One must discover that for oneself. It is not the individual ego. Individual ego thoughts live all over the body, especially in the head. Our conscious awareness is the soul wandering around the physical body trying to figure out how best to use it. It is in the process of discovery. My soul and yours is a permanent aspect of the individual Christ but it hasn't arrived at that discovery yet. It is the unfinished part of us that needs to evolve into this remarkable discovery (which the ascended masters have discovered). They have discovered their perfection - the Christ light within.
The word "Christ" comes from Greek, I understand. Everyone’s personality is an evolving individual facet of the Christ. There is only ONE Christ, but there are countless numbers of individual Christs such as Jesus, Muhammed, Saint Germain, Mother Mary, the ascended masters. The ultimate goal is to discover and own the Christ in the heart. The heart is where the crystal pure pattern is held. It is there eternally. It will NEVER go away. The physical heart is located in the middle of the physical chest, but there are six other layers that surround the heart, just as there are six other layers that surround each atom, electron, cell and organ in the body.
The physical heart and it's six higher layers are located between the tail bone and the crown of the head. This is the center between the human and the divine. The center between Father God and Mother God in the tail bone. Between the two God Parents, the Christ is born from the crystalline light pattern in the heart. The child called the first born. The Christ today is referred to as the crystalline body. We have moved it out of the ancient church doctrines into a more modern understanding. This truth has been taught by the ascended masters since the beginning, but it was all bound up with false teachings that detracted from the reality of it. The ability to know both Father God and Mother God - abstract knowledge beyond the body and the growing human consciousness within the body - is found in the heart. The crystalline pattern of the Christ is filled out as the soul learns and discovers that HE or SHE is the ultimate authority in its life. The Christ in the heart is the mediator between heaven and earth. Little by little the soul understands more and more about its ultimate authority and how much power it has to create a more beautiful life. Thus it moves quietly and gentlly, without any great hullaballoo or noise, into sitting position on the throne in the heart. The soul is the ultimate mediator between its Father God and its Mother God situated in the tailbone. Inside a crystalline pouch on the etheric level.
The soul has created a lot of errors on its journey thru many lives and worlds. It is evolving and suffers mistakes that it must correct as it learns the correct ways. Meanwhile confusionis rein. As we build confidence in the voice in our own heart, we build the Christ into our heart. We learn gradually to trust the voice of the heart. We learn to listen to it. Talk to it. Ask it questions. The soul gradually turns from being a separate ego which suffers, back to being connected into the web of love and life.
This all came to me in a slow-moving "flash" of understanding while doing the backbend. There are openings occurring in these days, I am sure for everyone. I urge you to pay attention to the inspired thoughts that come to you. I'm not the only one. Trust your inspirations. Trust your instincts. Your higher self is talking to you and guiding you.
8/29/23 - Rising above the comfort zone to greater peace
Rising above bodily comfort has been a major issue all my life. It is important to me to feel good inside my skin, and in order to do that I fixate on being comfortable. It has become too much of an obsession. The focus on this as a problem to overcome has risen to the surface. It is a teaching from the Master DK. He has pointed this out. As my physical aging continues I keep wanting to “retire” to relaxation mode, which is very natural to me. I am feminine after all. It has been my main focus to be a feminine being. Now I am being shown that I must rise higher, to the next higher consciousness - that of mental. I am here to learn to rise above the need to be comfortable. It is where abstract NEW thought is directed downward into the body's comfort zone. Now I am put to the test. Can I do it? It's an evolution of consciousness. It's a next step for me on the ladder of life - learning to master my body as I live here in a physical world.
Now I am asking my guides, who I suspect is the Master Djwahl Khul. Am I on the right track here? Rising above bodily discomfort? Is this what happens as I grow older and the body wants to give up? Give in? Surrender? Feel the peace? And it all goes away and one dies? Is THIS where I assert my higher self? The following was written out on paper in an autowriting channeling.
(DK:) Higher consciousness is larger, wider, vaster and covers more territory. Does this answer your question?
(Me:) It means to rise above being selfish, right?
(DK:) Yes. It is including the larger whole into your range of consciousness. There are responses and benefits that you receive from doing the higher good. You have begun feeling them. The more you give effort, where you put yourself forth with EFFORT, the more you receive back. To lie back on your laurels feels good, but at that point if you put forth more effort you will receive more back, instead of what you call the sickish feeling.
(Me:) When I stop to rest it sometimes feels like I’m going to die. All the old feelings come rushing back. They are terrible. I don’t like that feeling.
(DK:) When you push yourself for the good of the whole, not for yourself but going beyond yourself – your intention is for the larger good. Then you are inviting the larger response back to you. You will receive it. Not in the split moment when you are pushing yourself, but later you will receive the reward. There is a precise balance, which you have recently discovered.
(Me:) Am I imagining this conversation?
(DK:) No, my dear. I am here speaking with you. You have asked and I have responded.
(Me:) I thank you for your ever-present presence! I love you. I thank you, dear Master DK!
Several weeks later I had some very strange observations. They were confusing to me at first. After a call from a friend - I was doing exercises in the med room when she called - my body thereafter was surprisingly bloated and uncomfortable. But at the same time it was strangely comforted, as if a sense of calm accompanied the discomfort. There was a shifting, changing, pressures, not comfortable, pushing – that kind of thing. But I was also feeling a relaxed state underneath and behind that. I felt pretty laid back as I continued the exercises that had been interrupted. Even yawning on occasion as if I could go to sleep easily. It was a strange sensation. Later I felt there had been a major release of something deep. I'm no longer trying to fix what’s wrong with me. The pressure to “fix” seems to have gone away. Meaning that deep unsettled feeling of living in a not-right world and I don't feel right about it. Now suddenly that sense is gone. I am more at peace, even though I’m in discomfort. Still I am peaceful. Strange, not fighting it.
Is this what DK means by “making peace with your world?” About how - when you push yourself for the good of the whole, not for your immediate selfish comfort but going beyond yourself - your intention is for the larger good and you are inviting a larger response back to you?
I think so. I think that is what he means. Making peace with who I am no matter what is happening, even if it is uncomfortable and hurting. The sense is, So what? It will pass. It is momentary. I don’t need to try to fix it or change it or try to find a solution or an answer or a better way to deal with it physically. Those are all panic responses. Instead he is saying, relax into the greater whole. Allow yourself to be with it because it will pass and in its passing it will take you further along to a greater whole and deeper level of comfort and inner peace. The solution is not to try to fix it, because then you are fixating on the physical body only and holding it back inside you. Accept the changes that are going on right now, with loving grace and dignity. Let the discomfort move on to higher ground.
8/26/23 - Ascension symptoms, shifts in consciousness and dizzy spells
Continuing yesterday's blog about the light in the heart, biblically known as the Christ light, this light must be built. It is not put into the heart automatically at the beginning of creation. It has to be built out of love, empathy, grace and understanding during the life of a person. The love and understanding has to be applied in real life and action. It is not possible to "think" love there or intend it there, or pray it there or plead for it to be there. Conscious light is practiced, used and shared over lifetimes in physical form. Physical life is the testing time and the learning time. Love has to be woven into one's life and this requires effort, time, determination and of course belief. In order to build love into one's heart, mind, emotions and body, one must have faith and believe in this, the highest goal and purpose for sentient existence.
For many years I wondered about it. Why did the masters always refer to the heart? I tried to find it in my heart but could not find a connection to draw me there. I would look for awhile but my attention did stick. My mind kept wandering away because nothing spectacular held my attention. The heart did not seem to be very special. The physical heart, that is. Even though I was a loving and kind person, always giving to others, still I didn't feel any special connection to my heart, as the masters and spiritual channels kept talking about it. I wondered about that and kept asking, “Why the heart? What is the reason for the focus on the heart?” Where is the Christ in the heart? Where is the three-fold flame in the heart? How do I find it? And then I started noticing bits and pieces of channeled advice coming through in my writings.
As I researched old journals I kept running across notations about the heart that I myself channeled but didn't pick up on in earlier years. Because I journal every day, and it is partially channeled from my higher self, I have a lot of written material to go through! So this week as I reviewed some old journals I started copying those bits and pieces about the heart into a separate folder. I started stringing these notations together, trying to understand about this famous “Christ in the heart”. Coupling that to the background I’ve received from the Ascended Master DK over the years, it has been slowly dawning on me. The God light known as the crystalline light in the heart has to be built by the individual. It is a work currently in progress by everyone on the planet who leans toward kindness and compassion. It is obvious that there are some people who are not growing love, quite the opposite. But the majority of people are. We are each building the crystalline light – the Christ light into our hearts and it doesn’t happen overnight.
All the messages coming down from higher planes have to do with peace, love, light, joy, freedom and the like. Some people think this advice about high love and light is too beautiful for we lowly humans. We want more materialistic advice, like how to correct a situation, or a solution to a relationship problem. Something more concrete to fix something that is broken. Beautiful feelings are nice but too far away for most people to deal with. They are too far beyond the pale. Well. Here’s the reason for that.
The energies that dominate our atmosphere are dirty and toxic. Let’s face it, they are poisonous. The atmosphere of Earth has been building up to become a very poisonous atmosphere. It has for centuries now. Very dirty, crude, not healthy or good for us. This atmosphere has roots extending deep into our very own body cells, nerves and organs through ancestral DNA. Our bodies are filled with, built out of, toxic, poisonous material. And the only way to clear these toxins up is by laying down pure, holy light from the creator. This is done through words of extremely high vibrational energy, like love, joy, freedom, peace, much higher vibrating words and sounds. By using words of purity, perfection, love, light - words from the sacred source from which we descended. Using such holy words on our bodies is like spraying ant hills and cockroaches with poison spray.
Love and light is toxic to the poisons in us. That's why a lot of people can't make themselves take up meditation. Their basic instinct is appalled at it. It is poison to the ego mind and body. Our upline sources keep telling us this is what we should do, but we keep saying, “Tell me something more basic and fundamental to my problem!" We have not gotten the message! We don’t understand that THIS is the only way to clear up our bodies, minds and inner subconscious emotions and fears that haunt us and keep returning, time and time again.
The whole poisonous atmosphere on this dark planet that we have been breathing every day, is keeping us locked into and rebreathing the same dark atmosphere over and over. It's going to take effort to make changes. One cannot clean an abandoned run-down wreck of a house overnight. By saying, thinking and holding higher vibrational words in our minds for longer dedicated periods of time, we lay down a line of love and light into our inner bodies, both conscious and subconscious, to counter the effects of the toxic material within us. In essence, it's like spraying poison on ant hills. The ants can stand up to it!
By spending time thinking or meditating on higher vibrational words we are building light and love into our bodies on a routine basis. We are filled with it, believe it or not. Of course, everyone is unique and different but the atmosphere is not clean here. Our bodies were built out of toxic material. By saying the sacred words, or thinking them, or reading them, or sharing them, or writing them, or contemplating them, or meditating on them, or somehow finding a way to lay down a line of light and love so our physical senses can hear, feel and see them, we are purifying ourselves. It is a way of cleansing ourselves and resurrecting old tired sick worn-out spirits.
In the last week or two since beginning this program, I have actually begun seeing the old line of toxic material in me separating from me and standing alone. I can recognize the separation. It has become visible in the last week or two. I am actually seeing the old line of toxic material as something foreign, alien, not right. It is like a separation is taking place. It's still going on today. A line of hidden destroyers are stepping out in front and facing off against the lighter good within me. There is a line of demarcation that has appeared that outlines the former darkness in me as it is stepping away from me. It's rather curious to become aware of this. For a long time I simply felt sick'ish, bad feelings that could not be isolated. Now they appear as distinct separate entities or energies or moods. They are thoughts of fear, bad feelings, really awful feelings of death and sickness, as opposed to the feelings of normal calmness and lightness that I’ve been building up.
Perhaps others are feeling this too? The benefits need to be pointed out. There ARE benefits to meditation! Previously it was hidden from me. I struggled with the process, not knowing for sure if all this meditation was working. But suddenly from a feeling of normal peace and general good will, very old, bad, down, negative mood would hit me like a ton of bricks, and all of a sudden. It would just stepped forward out of nowhere and fill me with sick awful feelings, like I am going to die. But, then it would pass and I’d be back in my normal good feeling mood again. This has been happening more often lately. It makes me feel really bad because momentarily they dominate my entire being. I feel so bad I wonder if I should go to the hospital. It was SO bad the other night, I told Doug I didn’t know if I would make it through the night and he should be prepared for my passing. But the next day it was gone. My good mood came back.
Over the course of years of meditation practice I’ve learned to hold my focus on the sacred, no matter HOW bad it got. I have learned to hold my mind still and let it pass. The light, the love, the finer, more elegant words that I’m using, the sacred words in English, these words are my tool. I’m memorizing them and adding to them as new ones appear. There is now a long list of sacred words that I repeat and feel them. I let the emotions settle into me as I repeat them. This is how we paint the sacredness back into our bodies, minds and emotions. The practice of painting the inner body with sacred, high emotional words, sounds, frequencies, vibrations, however one can manage it – is up to each individual to design for themselves alone. It is a sacred practice that they do alone. It is uniquely their own practice and their own routine. This is how we can transform ourselves, our bodies, minds, and renew our spiritual grace. Kill off the poisons that are embedded within us.
There are so many stories, plus I have my own stories, of how dark it can get, and how despondent people can get as ancient toxic energies come up and release themselves. Be aware that they are surfacing and leaving you. Be aware not to entertain them again and again. Don't accept them back into yourself. Keep using the sacred words and meditation on higher, lighter quality affirmations. The spiritual realms are feeding us every day with advice to look UP, not into the sky – it’s not found out there in the clouds or space – look up into happiness. Look up into joy. Look up into grace. Look up into nobleness. Into compassion. Into tearful reunions with loved ones. Look up to refinement. Look up to elegance, to grace, to harmony, to beauty. Look up into the comfort of a Mother’s loving arms, Look up into the higher realms. This is how we built the crystalline Christ light in the heart.
Another lesson will explain why the heart. Why not the kidneys or the pancreas or the liver or some other organ? Because the heart is the center of the individual’s body. The crown is where Father God enters the physical body. The tail bone or first chakra is where Mother God is held in the physical body. And between the crown and the tail bone, the geometric center is the heart. There is more to this story but basically the heart collects information from both Father God as abstract intelligence from beyond earth, and from Mother God who holds earth knowledge out of which she builds our physical body. Together Father God and Mother God build the holy christ child. Between the two of them, heaven and earth, the crystalline light body is built as the mediator between heaven and earth.
8/25/23 - Stay in the heart during shifts in consciousness (dizzy spells)
While hanging upside down on the tilt table today, words started talking in my mind. “The earth is shifting very rapidly into the next higher dimension. There are those who are aware of this. I’m one of them.” The words were very insistent, so I immediately came to the laptop and started typing. Oh my goodness! They are coming in a huge rush!
Those of us who are aware of the shift, we have been laid back quietly, letting it happen and knowing about it but there was nothing we could do. People wouldn't believe us. Now I need to speak and bring attention to what is happening. Many people don't want to speak of their confusion but it is happening to everyone, including me, and everyone should know about it. I am aware. I know what’s happening. I want to help. The only way I can help is to talk about the shift and appreciate the power of celestial goodness that is coming with it. It is an evolution. This shift is taking mankind up and out of former ways and habits. The systems are changing. Mental awareness is changing. There is new light dawning but old ways are breaking and it is confusing. It is not just happening in our little solar system. The whole galaxy and other galaxies beyond are involved because we are connected. We are all one. It is a grand shift and it affects everyone. But it is beyond the understanding of humanity. The Star Trek series is beaming some of its higher knowledge to us, the movies are preparing us for this shift. The shift is a consciousness shift. Our minds are only human, not celestial or cosmic, and so our brains are befuddled. But there is a part of us that is connected, and that is the human heart.
Try not to think "mamby-pamby love". No. The heart is much more than that. It is a connecting point. A link. A hub to universal knowledge. Those of us who knew about this shift that is happening, have prior knowledge. Instinctive. We are the heart people. We have been quiet, laid back, mellow, and connected better than the practical brain-people. The heart knows things that the brain doesn't. It's the hub of life, the connection to the life force, the allness that is everywhere. Life is everywhere in non-physical form. It keeps the galaxies moving intelligently. We are all connected to it but there are gradations of connection. Everyone is individually connected and walking through his/her own journey of discovery. We are all doing that. But we are all connected through this life force. There is only one life force. One life. And we are each growing in awareness of it. The earth is a very privileged place to learn about this. There is an evolutionary process going on, here on earth. We are part of a vast intelligence that is bringing more awareness to us in a dimensional shift to more harmony and peace. It is an abstract love and an abstract intelligence without form. But IN form light is the intelligence, and love is the process that binds the intelligence together. This is the beauty of being human. It is precious to be here in a body, held together in love. Without love, light will go off in separate directions, which is what we call the darkness, the evil, or the illusion.
While we are in a physical body, we DO go off in separate directions. We do develop individual egos and have adventures both painful and pleasurable. It is the way of duality and form life to learn such things. To live and grow through polarity adventures. But such solitary adventures lead to understanding the preciousness of love and unity. Now there is a shift and we are shedding the lower dimension of separateness and polarity. We are learning how to operate from a more unified field. This is tremendously awkward, to say the least. It is totally confusing. But - big but here - there is a way to keep your sanity. Stay focused in the heart. The physical heart because the physical heart is what will keep the body alive as everything NOT connected to the heart starts to fail through its own confusion.
The heart is more than physical. To complex to explain here. It is physical on the lower levels of density but there are six other higher levels that surround each cell, atom, organ and part of the body. There are seven levels to the physical body that we haven't been made aware of. If you practice every day focusing for a little while on your heart, with visual pictures and words of sacredness, you will be able to build up a feeling of grace and peace and feel good through these periodic shifts of confusion. There is a reason why it is the heart and not, say, the liver or the kidneys or some other organ. The human body is intelligently designed. All the other organs can fail and close down towards the end of life but as long as the heart keeps beating the body is alive.
Shift your attention and focus to your heart muscle, the physical heart. Get a picture of it off the internet and imagine your own heart looking like that. Then imagine, conjure up an image that it is filled with light. Light is information. It will give you more insight. Draw on the light. Light will turn on an inner beam and flash into love. Light and love are synonymous. They are called "Father Light and Mother Love". Male is abstract and Female is warm and nurturing. The mother holds people together. Light is abstract intelligence, and love is the warm, connecting process. When we connect with the warm nurturing within our heart, we feel peaceful. It helps us to stay sane and reasonable, logical and practical. By connecting to the heart periodically during the day and night, we stay alive through this rapid shift into a totally unfamiliar territory called the higher dimension. Everything else in our body is going to need that warm loving assurance and connection during the confusing days. And it is up to you, the resident intelligence in your body, to provide that reassurance. You are the hub, the ultimate authority. It's your responsibility to stay connected to the heart. Know yourself. Your heart is your base and foundation. This is an ascended master teaching, an angelic teaching, and a celestial star-based teaching from those who are more advanced than us.
The word "Christ" comes down to us from ancient times. It means the light within the heart. The light in the heart has to be built. It is not something that is put there automatically. You can't just go there and find it. Like, “Eureka! I found it!” No. The Christ light is something that has to be built over time. It is the love that is built out of nothingness to begin with. There is a certain type of work that is required. It is a work in progress among humans. There is a pattern already built into the human embryo and grows with the body to an adult. This pattern is the pattern of perfection, called the immaculate conception. You as an individual were conceived in an immaculate way, in total perfection and given a unique name from the beginning. It's a long complex story, but that's the shift we are involved in today. We are shifting into new understanding. We're in the heard part now, of letting go of former hard-line beliefs. We are being left feeling empty and confused. The old is being dimanteled, but there is a new understanding coming in behind it. As we each break out of our former shell of not knowing, we are much like the baby chick which breaks out of its egg shell. Then it is in a new dimension and a new way of life. The baby chick cannot continue to lie there inside the shell absorbing nutrients from its mother. It now has to go out and get its own food. It has to learn a new way of life. It is a new beginning.
This is the meaning of "shift in consciousness". We are entering a new atmosphere. We will have to learn how to do certain things for ourselves, and not rely on our parents or authorities to provide for us. We are growing in responsibility. We are becoming more the masters of our life. And the one most important thing of all is to learn about love. Love is how we survive this new atmosphere. Everyone is connected. It is the connection of life, the sharing of life, that feeds us with what to do and how to do it. And learning how to love means how to build love up in yourself first and foremost. If you don't take care of yourself first you won't last very long. It has been called being "selfish" by the early churches, but the churches have been in some respects instruments of the dark side. Forget about giving and sharing before you have anything to give and share. It is disservice to yourself. Give first to yourself. Keep your life force first to yourself and build on it. Build up love in your heart for yourself. The first thing to do is to go alone and focus on your heart. Focus on your body. Give yourself a pampering loving hug. Pay attention to the parts that hurt. And build a community of sharing love with each other. The focus is not giving your power away, but receiving and learning from each other better ways to love yourself and care for yourself and then sharing is inevitable.
Well, this has turned into a much longer thing than I had planned, so I'll stop here and carry on tomorrow. Take care of yourself!
8/23/23 - Ancient memories, ancient technologies
Inspired by Thoth, Mary Magdalene and Mother Gaia: We have to reconnect to visceral, the lower abdomen specifically. Our connection to the Earth has been lost. The job we are here to do is to re-open to the Earth. I felt it so clearly. The divine feminine is especially attuned to lower Earth. The stories are stored, literally stored as in archived, in the earth along with discarded old cadavers. When the body dies the particles of LIGHT contain the stories in them. The light never dies. The light just needs to be reclaimed. Ancient Egypt has messages for us. The stories are locked in the earth, within our own dense earth bodies, waiting to be recalled.
They are held there for the owners. the eternal soul, to come back and reclaim them. Redeem them. The second chakra is the lower abdomen. It has been closed off for eons. We don’t go down into the earth to reclaim and remember our past lives. We are stuck in our heads. We don’t remember how to go "down" into our lower denser parts, the earthy parts of ourselves. Mother Earth speaks of the snake in the abdomen, the kundalini. I awakened the kundalini in me 47 years ago and it took me up and out of body. I've been trying to get back down into my lower body ever since. Most people think that we are supposed to go UP. Well, yes, we are supposed to go up to reunite with Father God, but we have left so much of ourselves behind, not finished yet, that we have not fulfilled our mission here. We had to come back again and again, in body after body, in different cultures and under different ruling authorities to try to reclaim what is ours.
We have left many bodies behind, decaying in the earth. The stories are held locked in the earth, frozen in time. We’re supposed to go up the spine to the top of the head, according to Taoists and Buddhists, and fountain out and around like a water fountain in the lake, and come down around our body again and again, to go down into the earth and continue to cycle back up through the feet and spine and head and back down again in a continual flow. Google for pictures of the Torus breathing and Torus meditation. Practice the torus breath daily. This is a “sweeping” effect through the auric field. This practice sweeps up old residue that we left behind which lingers in our auric field, unbeknownst to us today. We will remember if we continue to flow our attention up through the central channel, out the top of the head and down around the outer body into the earth. Slowly we will remember by sweeping old debris out and UP and away from carrying it around with us as blocked energies.
We will pick up the memories by recycling our breath and attention, mindfully, through this circulation pattern. It’s a circuit, a flowing, a river of life. We flow up the spine and we flow back down around the outside of our bodies sweeping thru the auric field. Picture it. Imagine it. Visualize it. Hold the vision of it. We bring it up thru the central channel of the etheric spine. It will get home little by little, spark by spark, thru the central channel up thru the opening at the crown of the head. We will remember more and more as we do this. We will remember the connection, how we used to do it in ancient times, how to sweep ourselves clean. And also we will remember our past lives. We will become enlightened by picking up this knowledge but we must do it viscerally.
We are reclaiming what we left behind in past lives. We are remembering (I speak for myself, I am remembering, I am feeling it viscerally). The stories of our past lives are held in the earth, in the dust of the earth. That is why the earth is so heavy and dense and confused. Our old bodies went back to the dust and they hold the memories in the particles of LIGHT that we all have inside us. We all have Light inside us. We just didn't know. Our past lives were lived in ignorance. Now we are remembering. We MUST return to the earth to reclaim them, The earth is the densest part of our bodies. Our muscles and bones. Those stories that we left behind are stored in the muscles and bones. We cleanse it easily with knowledge. We do it with our breath and our intention, and our focus on attention, and our willingness to do the process of meditational breathing. Go DOWN into the lower earth beneath the feet and up through the central channel of the spine and out the top of the head. Again, check out the Torus breath.
We must go down to unlock the past. All we have to do is touch it with our mind. That's all. It is easy to do once you know why you're doing it. It is a magic touch, the touch of the mind. This means going down in consciousness to the sub-conscious parts of ourselves that we have forgotten. This requires feeling the emotion. The emotions have been blocked to us by our focus on surface (superficial) things. Surface distractions keep us from slowing down, keeps us racing and moving fast, prevent us from going down, settling down, feeling the lower denser sensations. These sensations are not bad. Some will tell you not to go there but they are wrong. They are deliberately keeping you from discovering your true deeper self. Don't listen to them! The stories you will uncover are good for you, they’ve been ignored and received a bad name. We stashed them in a dark closet and didn’t look at them again. They grew old to our way of thinking and remembering. We ourselves discarded them for a newer, racier life. Our dark shadow self has been keeping us in our heads with titillating news stories so we stay there in our heads, swirling and whirling around a race track that goes nowhere. Until we grow old and tired and wonder what life is all about. We have lost our ability to move forward into higher realms and be creative and use our imaginations because we’ve been cut off from the excitement of our passions, our aliveness, our eagerness, our curiosity, our desire to learn and grow, to test our wings and try to fly beyond ourselves, to be bold, to be adventurous. Instead, we became like slugs racing our little race cars around the oval race track, competing against each other.
The stories that are hidden in us are called the Akashic records. We must FEEL our way into them. Feel into them with passion and emotion. Words won’t get us there. Words are used to point a direction. That's all. Then it's up to us to drive the car in that direction. Let emotions take over then and lead you. Always with a desire to lift what you find up into the sunshine so you can examine them and identify yourself with them and become whole again, ready to move on to the next step.
8/19/23 - Today's update
Well, it's been a whole week since I last posted a blog. It's been topsy turvy where I am. Rather like upside down and inside out. I'm writing this off the top of my head because I don't know where to begin. First of all, I do keep checking the number of hits that my website (Anakosha/GoddessSphere) takes on a daily basis, so I know it is small. It is not highly promoted. It has served as my artistic journal and provides me with a happy place to go every morning. It acts as my private backup journal to support my voluminous hand-written and channeled journals.
Let me say that today is significant in that I have finally connected with my auric bubble of light. For the last - let's see - 47 years the bubble of light has been a beautiful theory but as of yesterday I moved into the fullness of it. Only the beginning though. There is more work to be done. I have expanded into it on a level that is all-inclusive. All seven levels. The auric bubble has seven levels to it - you can find this on the internet. And therefore one actually IS this bubble of light. Now I know it for sure. I AM my bubble of light, no longer imprisoned and trapped inside the physical solidness of this body. When my body dies I will be completely inside my bubble of light. And if I continue living for another 20, 30 years, I will still have my body but I've successfully become free and can come and go as I please - go inside and enjoy the pleasure of being sentient or move out past the prison walls.
Many people do this in their minds, and understand it in abstract theory, but I have grounded myself into the larger bubble of light. It is no longer something I wish for. No longer a theory, a dream or illusion. I am more at peace. It has shifted something deep inside but I can't really explain what that something is. It's just closer to feeling at peace with myself, and settled.
But something more also is taking place. It seems as if there is no end to the change. There is a movement tht is transcending the old and the old is falling away. It is like the old discomfort, the dizziness and disorientation, is fading like fog when the sun comes up. It is drifting away. The old, that is. The new is like a light dawning. One can't imagine something like this. The head or brain can't make this up. Like a clearer reality is coming into view. I think this means I am closer to announcing weekly support gatherings. I sent a message to a friend this morning (spontaneously, without thinking) telling her that I am closer to naming a weekly gathering to take place at our house. I am thinking every Monday from 2 to 6 pm but so far it's only a thought, a premonition. There is a certain freedom to my thinking these days, as if they are tumbling out of me from beyond my reasoning mind.
I am thinking that these gatherings are like a support community for those who are moving beyond the matrix, beyond the veil of the third dimension. We are so accustomed to thinking of ourselves as confined (impriosned) inside a physical body, but those of us who know better have SECRETLY moved past that. Now we can have a support group for those who have so moved beyond. A loving support group that is happy and agreeable and allows for each person to be the individual he or she is, and they are welcome to express themselves without argument or need to prove it. No one has to fit into the expectations of the larger whole because each person there is a unique one-of-a-kind intelligence. Each is here to round out the whole. We should not change in order to adapt to the others, but to come more FULLY into our own space, into our own heart-center. Our own fullness. And the best way to support another person is to give a wholesome heart-centered hug and smile, with love and acceptance of this person. A welcome home, friend. And a listening ear. And maybe a cup of coffee and a piece of pie too.
I'm just sharing a little of my space today. I leave you with a wish for you to feel at peace. Welcome to my world. Be safe. Carry your bubble of light around with you with confidence and a sense of relaxing inward into it. You are your very own SELF at the heart of you, at your spiritual center. No one can take that from you. You know you're alive. You've had it from the beginning, right there inside you, inside your own musculature, skin, bones and tissues. Love your faults and failures back into your heart again. Love yourself. That's what I am grounding into today. Grounding into love. All of me. I am grounding my humanness into the light along with me. There is no more shame or guilt or sin. The light makes it disappear. It is transformative to move out past the focus of the third dimension and all the rules, laws, traditions, and beliefs in sin, guilt, fear and shame. It all goes away in the light of love. I support you to do the same. Imagine the bubble of light around you. Make it as big as you like or as small. You don't have to lie or pretend in order to be accepted into the whole. Be real. You are meant to be real. You can't be anyone else. Have a good day today. My love, N
8/12/23 - Instructions in the night - light body activation
Light messages were playing in my mind when I woke at 3:40 am. I felt funky in my lower legs. Realizing I needed to get grounded out in nature in the pasture, I started feeling the low dense feelings in my lower body. In contrast the higher energies above the heart. I lay there thinking about it, wanting to get up but not wanting to disturb Doug. I heard the words “pasture, slant board, walk (treadmill), vibrate”. I wanted to get up but held myself back. Kept struggling with it. Finally I moved automatically, shunting the covers off me. “Pasture, slant, walk, vibrate”, repeating this as if being instructed. I grabbed some clothes and went downstairs.
The 3/4 moon was bright overhead when I walked barefoot out into the pasture. I put my white caftan on and brought a chair into the middle and sat on it with a towel, feet on the soil. The stars were bright. I looked all around for a while, saw an unusual light moving from west to east behind me, it had a red light. It didn’t move like an airplane or like a satellite. Probably a starship. I was quiet for awhile and then I started ohming naturally. Soon syllables started sounding, then inpouring messages began. The message is this:
“Use words like dignity, grace, kindness to massage into the bodies of the people. Teach them these words, teach them, show them how to hold these thoughts in their minds as they massage people. Teach them WORDS. Words are important. Use words as you stroke. Teach them unconditional love, what that means. It means no expectation of getting some reward out of this. Give freely, without return. Giving freely while stroking bodies, is putting this energy into the body and magnetizing the same energy and activating the same energy in that body. This is Yantra. Yantra is a geometric design. This design is being stroked into the body, applied to the body like ointment. It will reach into the body and will find, will connect with the same energy in the body for like attracts like. It will activate the same energy in that body you are stroking. It is an ascension technique. Bring light up to the surface, out to the surface, out into the consciousness of the person. They will feel it. But they must understand what they are doing intellectually. Talk about it. It is time to start the pow-wow circle. Talk about it. Let them know what this is all about. It is not a simple massage exchange. It is a light body activation." (from 3/12/23)
8/11/23 - Sharing a personal update
Sometimes I use a personal email for a blog. When I write to someone privately I can tell it more easily to one person than if I'm trying to write to the whole world. So yesterday this is what I wrote to someone. I can share it easily now that it's done and gone.
"You're on the right track, changing your diet and doing things to improve the quality of your BODY. It is all about the body needing upgrades. You are spirit living in a body that is modifying. Mine is too. As for my massaging [pertaining to ascension massage] I have been going through a transition and am unsure at this point where it will lead me. I'm experiencing dizziness and disorientation a lot, which has Doug concerned enough to set me up with doctors appointments. That's OK, but I'm also working with my own internal techniques and discovering things about my energy field.
When I was massaging a woman friend for several weeks after the hurricane because she needed it so badly, I was feeling wonderful. Her energy mixing with mine caused me to feel totally blissed out and complete at the end of each massage. But when I massaged a couple of men I know, it was not the same. The male energy was "pushy" energy. It didn't relax me but rather revved me up. It didn't bliss me out as in a sense of feeling complete. Male energy is different. My conclusion is the woman allowed my energy into her, absorbed it in and used it, and in so doing she gave her energy back to me. There was a blending of energies. Both the men didn't give me that feeling. It was not relaxing. It was more like a job. I had to work at it. It seemed I was butting up against their underlying energy, like it was not good for me. That's what it felt like. But at the same time it was an interaction, and interacting with others is important. So it wasn't "bad", it was just an interesting comparison.
Everything is exploratory at the moment. I'm in a different space now than when I saw you last. I'm not sure where this will lead. I'm open to exploring and soundboarding. I am thinking how I would word this in an open forum [about ascension massage]. It's hard to say. Maybe it's too soon. I have experienced some wonderful states of altered consciousness in between these bouts of dizziness. I think I'm in a higher dimension most of the time and am seeking higher dimensional people, other bodies similar to mine, to touch into. It's the extreme opposites that throw me out of kilter. That's just a thought on my part.
My husband's energies are co-partnering with me, so my experiences with him are of a different nature since I have near 30 years with him. We have become very close. Just thinking out loud. Thanks for soundboarding!"
8/10/23 - It's about believing, work on believing. Wake up, there's a party going on
I love English words! I speak English. English words are like train cars – one pulled by another by another by another, delivering a string of messages, one word after another. The words are related. Whoever is sending the message via English words are choosing the words so they relate to each other and enhance one another. The secret to the message encoded in them is in reading them all together, not separately. Read them with your consciousness. Receive the message fully to decipher the message. Allow it all, all the words, string them together. They will light a fire if you read them right. A fire within your consciousness. They are delivering a message. listen and read messages with an open heart and mind, not just with the mind alone. Step down into your heart. Re-read the message again with your heart wide open. Open your eyes wider and wider. AhHA! I got it! It was about LOVE.
Educate yourself with words. It is about believing. Work on believing. You’ve got to have knowledge first, before you can believe in it. If you don’t know, how can you even begin believing? The dark controllers have kept this knowledge from the masses. Made it wrong, sinful, bad and it disappeared from view. I’m going to start talking about this knowledge. It is occult knowledge, hidden knowledge. The brain is where your receive knowledge in THIS world, through THIS body. But to live happy in the world you need NEW knowledge to open up the old dark programming to expose, uncover and disclose its falseness. New knowledge that you haven’t had before because it was hidden from you.
You’re not here to teach or help other people. You’re here to teach and help your SELF, your BODY! Your body is your SELF here in this world. Your mission is to ascend your physical body, to make it lighter, airier and more pleasant than it has been over many centuries, many eons of struggling against itself. You are your own teacher, your own body’s teacher. Teach your body vessel how to act with good will, proud, decent, loving, kind, truthful, benevolently to itself and to the world it lives in. Teach it to harmonize and unify all that it touches, sees, knows and becomes aware of. You have 30 trillion pupils, students to teach. There are 30 trillion cells in your body, according to estimates of the scientists. These cells all work in harmony to carry out the basic functions necessary to survive but they have never heard the cosmic truth before. You are here this time to teach them. You are the spirit living in the body. What you, the spirit, the intelligence living in the body FEEDS the body either lifts it up or dulls it down or makes it angry.
I am having now a very strong sense of beautiful men – father energies. They are protectors, assuring us safety. They’ve got our backs. They are on the periphery. The men. We have been unkind to them, judging them, we the women. We the women are holding the center. Women, feel the goodness they have created for us. Re-frame it. Re-phrase the words. They are not our sexual partners, they are our love partners, co-depending on us as we are on them. They depend on our loving support and nurturance. We the divine, the feminine, the purity of delight, gaiety, innocence. We depend on them to protect us from harm while we give that to them. They build homes and roads and sanctuaries for us and build security measures for us to make sure we have shelter, food and clothing. We have fallen, as they have fallen, into false beliefs of separation, that it’s all about “this” limitation or “that” limitation, or “sex” or “money” or some other thing we have limited and concluded as a finite fragile thing that must be owned or possessed or stolen from someone else. We hang on for dear life to a finite object and we have been kept drugged, locked and frozen in “time” and “space”, while our cosmic consciousness, our infinite and vast intelligence is watching from a’far, wondering when we will wake up and join the fun and the party that is going on beyond us! Wake up!
8/8/23 - From a recent sadhana (spiritual practice)
This came in very strong a month ago, intense, powerful, must write it! Tuning into the powers within (not outside) - how to get past the locked door. It’s the doors all through the body – in the hands and feet, the stomach, the back muscles, the solid body that we focus on so intently that we run to the doctor whenever something goes wrong with it – the outer body. We get some medicine to take and seal up the door again. Our prison door that keeps us safely locked up inside so we can’t get out. A little later, I can’t breathe. After the backbend and cobra I sit and connect, remembering. Bring it UP, up, up. Meet your higher self! She’s there in the coccyx. Bring it UP to the heart and the brain. Step out of the box of thinking you’re only a physical body. Step out of the box into freedom and sunlight flooding. Do it slowly. Bring it up the spine via the Torus breath and fountain it out and around and down. Repeat. Flow it. Keep it loose and flowing. Brain focus has been blocking the flow. All that “ME” knowledge is blocking the flow. The focus on “Me” as if I’m important! “Me” is the body focus. As if what this body feels is all that important.
There is more to “me” than the body. The focus on body is exactly what's causing the pain, the heart aches, the body aches, the disabilities, the aging, the discomfort, the brain fog. It’s the focus on the physical deterioration that is causing the sick feelings that are slowly creeping in and insidiously invading the wholeness that is me, invading the body cells, to make us THINK we are dying. It’s focusing our thinking process on dying and disintegration. The eternal spirit, the holy spirit, the pure life-giving spirit is NOT dying. It can’t die! The aliveness has been simply held back from expressing. We’ve been focusing so much on the body that is dying, we are causing our own dying process. We are causing it by focusing on the body alone, as if the body alone is all that is. We are missing the mark. We are not including the rest of us, our wholeness. The auric field, the emotions, the mental, the spiritual, the etheric, the four lower levels of our holiness, our holy spirit, the pure life-giving spirit that we are. We are all of these together. The connection to our allness is there inside a crystal pouch surrounding the coccyx, the tail bone, the root chakra. We are holding it back from releasing our own wholeness and divinity because we didn't know it was there. Nobody told us. It needs to be invited out to flow again, and bring its delightful loving awareness to the surface where we can FEEL it and express it. These are the secrets that have been hidden from us. This needs to be released. I know. I was taught. I’ve been trained. Let go, I am being told! Relax! Breathe in and breath out through the sacrum. Picture the sacrum. Bring it into focus, flow it, imagine it, pure crystalline light sparkles flowing up the spine, breaking through the obstacles, little things that are not very big, not very strong. This pure dazzling crystalline divine light can is the Christ light. It will smash right through the obstacles once we know about it. It will melt right through and we will be lifted into nirvana. It will melt right on through if only we knew! Right through to the top of the head.
With help - and Marcus can help but not just him – everyone can help with friends and family, by putting hands on them. Marcus can start the process because he’s been trained. Not just in this life, he’s been trained in former lives. We are talking about the life force known as the kundalini, known as the Christ. It is also known by other names in other cultures, such as Christians call it the holy spirit, Shakti, shekinah, Krishna and other names in other parts of the world. The focus on sex, sin, guilt and shame has had us as if in bondage, tied to concrete thinking that physical solidarity is all there is. We had no idea! We were imprinted with a massive conspiracy imprinting of fear, shame and guilt and we had no clue. We were babes in the wood being programmed before we could walk and talk. We did not understand. How could we? This has been going on for many centuries. Now kundalini is here. It is a big word. I had a "kundalini awakening" experience. An unknown word but I am going to introduce it to the culture. There is a plan brewing. It is very close now, close enough to begin the group gatherings. Tantra is part of the kundalini instruction. That is why the Master DK has been guiding me. He has been taking me slowly deeper into it. He is such a kind master. The word Tantra needs to be clarified. It has been ignorantly misunderstood. There have not been enough true teachers or healers. We are introducing it now because it is time. Simply that it’s time. The universe has lined up some people to bring this forth.
I did the back bend off the bed and the cobra. I’m working with forces beyond traditional thinking. Kundalini is opening for everyone with LOVE. Our teaching is about LOVE. Our emphasis is on love. The first emphasis is on love. There is only one energy in all of creation and it is LOVE. Creation in the form world is done by playing with different aspects of love. Moving with it or moving away from it. It is the moving and shaking, exploring and defining the various perspectives and understandings of LOVE. The ultimate love is wholeness, completion, fulfillment, hence the word “holy”. But love doesn’t end there. We don't stop and rest and relax and forget about it because there are more people coming along who are still experimenting with LOVE. It is a continual experimenting, never stopping, never relaxing, always present in the moment. The building of more and more love is a continuing, ongoing, eternal process of life that never ends but continues building more. There is no end to love because it keeps adding more to itself and it is never the same love. It never gets boring because it is not the same love. It is always NEW love! There are an infinite number of consciousnesses who are evolving in love and experiencing new love. Each experience is unique and one of a kind. Each one is adding their new discovery to the everlasting sea of consciousness, the allness, the onenes, to which we all belong. It never ends. It is always new, this primal energy of creation. We are ALL dipping into it and using it in our creating.
I was bringing the energy up to the heart thru the throat to the brain when I was on fire again and stopped to write, “Got to get the energy to the brain!” realizing that the brain is getting this message and I must write it down so as not to forget. We think there is hate, violence and anger, depression, sickness and death, but it is all created from love - out of a desire for more love, or what one thinks is love. Whether it be from a selfish controlling perspective or from a benevolent way of sacrifice and martyrdom, we are all focusing on love, and balance is what brings us closer to it. Balance the extremes that appear, balance them with love. Find the unity, the harmony, the way of merging the extremes and you will experience love.
My brain is sprouting colors now, coming up from the coccyx and the pelvic bowl, clearing a channel through the sushumna, the central etheric channel surrounding the spinal cord all the way to the brain where it becomes a super-organ of intelligence to guide the body into action when it is inspired by the kundalini, the Christ or crystalline fountain of light that is now flowing. There are two arcs in the brain now, one going left and one going right out of the central channel that ends at the pituitary gland. The colors are sprouting up, one here, one there, faster and faster and all at once together. It’s not the brain that is coming alive, it is ME that is coming alive. I AM sprouting the awareness and the colors. I AM the awareness in the brain bringing conscious awareness up the spine to my brain. I AM the incandescent surreal colors sprouting many different aspects of divinity as they unfold in my brain. I AM the divinity that has been held locked in down below, way down below, prior to this moment. I AM bringing it up to the brain so this body can recognize itself in the physical form with a physical organ in the physical world and use it here in form life. I am doing the neck exercises now, activating my male side. The sparks, the angels, the devas are in the trees. I see the faeries in the trees through the windows. I think it’s the sun reflecting off the moisture on the leaves but it’s the faeries or elementals. I used to think they were the sun reflecting but I learned to recognize the twinkle when it draws my attention, then I connect with it and know more. It talks to me. (End of sadhana)
8/7/23 - We are the worker bees, get with the program!
Following is the unpublished part of my 3/7/23 blog. I am re-reading old journals for clues and found this. Please read the 3/7/23 blog first, then this one follows. It was written with fiery enthusiasm.
We are worker bees! Building, constructing, refining the physical human body. It requires FOCUS! We have to concentrate ALL of our divine attention on what we are doing NOW! Within our body. Not on the outer task but on our inner body as we work our task. We have been slovenly, messy, disorganized within ourself, and down-right stupid about our bodies. Our precious bodies. Our bodies in return give us a messy hard time back. It is time we cleaned up our act, here in the physical form world, and we have to start here with our OWN body. We can’t “fix” someone else’s body. It doesn’t belong to us. We have to learn to stop focusing on others and start focusing our attention on our home, our own body life. Leave everyone else alone. Stop trying to fix them or correct them. It’s not your job. Stay in your own yard. This isolation phase we’re going thru (covid) is a blessing in disguise. It is forcing us to look inward upon ourself, to watch over it. It’s only a temporary phase and will pass, but learn the lesson so you don’t have to repeat it. Move on to the next more generous and rewarding phase: that of enjoying your own fixed up and correctly rearranged body. Feel the sensual juices flowing again. Feel the happiness and the pleasure sounds that your body makes when you care for it, stroke it, feed it your attention and your love. Your body literally purrs like a kitten, like a pet. It is a most wonderful feeling to know that your pet loves you back. It is pleasure and bliss at its height when you make love to your own body, your pet. That does not mean sex and masturbate it – free yourself from that low vibration - and love it with kindness and softness and joy. Feel the unity, the grace, the togetherness, the solidarity that is created from loving strokes and happy self hugs and other sensual self-love kindness.
8/4/23 - Inspiration amid shattered dreams
I woke this morn with remnants of broken dreams. They were of reaching up to the light that is coming down into the top of my head in a stream of dazzling white light. It is ME coming down! My own I AM Presence, or higher self, my greater self. My ME! It is not anyone else but ME! I AM my own greater self. It has been broken up and shattered, this stream of light that is ME!. Of elegance, pure, crystal clear knowing of myself. It is me in clarity but it is broken and shattered as soon as it reaches my dense bodily head and brain, my body. This body has been educated to close it off and think of myself and others as “just a form”, just physical, here today, gone tomorrow. I’ve been raised in a garden and a home that is solid prison walls, shutting this clarity and everlasting knowledge out. I keep it out by distraction. Getting up in the morning and focusing on what happened yesterday. Picking up where I left off yesterday. I keep reconnecting into the broken past, the illusion of the past, the drama and problems of yesterday. They mean well, my family and friends, but I am now bored with it. I am now connecting back into my brilliance. It is streaming during the night as I sleep. But now I’m waking up to this old yesterday drama and I am back in the broken world again, and my stream of brilliance and clarity and knowingness, and being connected to brightness, light, joy, realization of wonderment and enlightenment, flowing, I AM flowing with knowing – but it is breaking up now as I get up out of bed. This flowing of light and knowing is dissipating, is breaking up and shattering and I am losing it. It is disappearing into dullness again. Grayness. Ordinariness is taking over. I wake up with a sigh, saying “I praise thy holy name, oh light of immortality that lives within all beings.” It is a left-over from where I came from. I am still saying it, trying to hang on to the fading glow and glory in an attempt to hold onto it, the connection to this power, this light, this joy, refreshing me.
Suddenly I see the faces of people everywhere, all who like me are looking up at themselves with joy and rapture on their faces, people everywhere radiating and looking up, with light pouring down in a single beam dazzling pure light entering into the crown of their head. We are all trying to hold onto the connection with the light, but it is wavering and breaking up. Distortions are entering. I continue to call out the words silently: “I praise thy holy name, oh light of immortality that lives within all beings.” I continue to try to hold the vision of the people all doing the same thing. Repeating the call, holding onto the light by looking up, seeing the pure stream of light up beyond us, holding the connection steady, speaking words up into the light above us, and holding, holding, holding the connection with the pure, untainted divine light of our soul, our God Selves, our REAL selves, our truth, our abundance, our clarity, our ideal, our perfection, our joy, our ecstasy, our rapture. “I praise thy holy name oh light of immortality that lives within all beings.” I repeat this as I wake up and sit up on the side of the bed. I try to keep repeating it as the vision starts to waver and break up. I get up and go to the bathroom for my usual routine while saying the words over and over silently in my mind, even though it is fading, but I keep holding onto it as I brush my teeth and start the shower and step in. This I know will help me build the momentum, my clarity, my connection with my own individual God I AM that I Am. I suggest to myself to say the words silently, “I Am that I Am” 40, 50 times, focusing this light down into my heart, seeing the picture of the light streaming down through the top of my head, and see it come down into my heart and anchor it there, see my heart building the light into a fire. “I praise they holy name, oh light of immortality that lives within ME!”
In the bathroom I suddenly see the hollow tube going down my spine. It is gifted to me. It goes down through the center of my body. It is hollow. There is nothing in it to obstruct the flow. The hollow tube goes all the way down to – where? I don’t see. My vision is obscure below a certain point, below the heart. I continue with the words “I praise thy holy name, oh light of immortality that lives within MY BODY!” My body is important. I am drawing my consciousness and my ability to visualize down inside of me, lower into my body. Lower than I’ve gone before. The walls of this inner hollow tube are not solid, as I thought at first they were. They are soft, softly subtle. They are made of light. So subtle I didn’t see it at first. I couldn’t make it out at first. Only the main channel extending down from the crown of my head was open to my vision. I will continue holding the visual of light, dazzling light streaming down from somewhere above me, lighting up this main tube that runs down to my lower parts. It is my ability to hold my attention still and conscious. Then the obscurity opens up to me. Is this the pain I’ve been feeling in my lower back and abdomen? Why I’ve been led to reach up first and to then bring the light from above me down? It is as if my lower back pain is blocked. I can feel it blocked through the pain, the aching dull pain is very loud. It is holding me in a tight squeeze, like a girdle. I keep stroking and rubbing my lower back, hoping to release it. Several days ago I was shown the sacrum and the four holes in the sacrum bone out of which nerves come. I think that’s what they are there for. This picture became clearer over the last few days. I’ve been led to re-examine craniosacral therapy. I found Paula Terry. Someone I met through Tamsen, who has a training and therefore holds a concept of the cranioscral flow, even if limited to physical. Still it is an educational focus that craniosacral therapists have. They are trained by John Upledger, who now has schools around the world.
7/29/23 - A helpful message from higher realms
Q: Dear Spirit Master and guide, what can I do today to clear the decks and make room for creative tasks like writing and taping?
A: "First tell yourself what it is you want to accomplish. There are places in your mind that are covered over and need to be scrubbed away. Find a way to polish the jewel. Burnish the thick coat. We are here to help but you are the one to do the work. It is your awareness that must sparkle and shine and direct us to help, not we you. You are the one in embodiment - covered in denseness and you must shake your density off and uncover the light within. It is the light that is moving through you as you meditate and do your breath work. Keep shaking and moving the thickness that is your body. Move it around. Shake it up. Breathe strong and forceful. And walk. Take walks. Don’t eat such heavy foods. Eat light foods so your body becomes lighter."
Q: Thank you for coming forth this morning. Is there anything else you would like to say to me? I am here and conscious of a crystal jutting out of a pristine ocean beneath my feet with sunlight. Could you comment on this?
A: "Fire and water come together. Crystal is fire solidified. Jewels contain passion and soul, a deep desire to serve the creator. It is the desire that is encapsulated as a rock, as a stone, as a gem. The color represents the vibration of desire. Each is unique. The pristine water is broken by a solidified form of desire - the purest form since it is white or transparent. The calm waters of life, gentle and at peace, the sun shining down and warming, no movement but the appearance of desire, beautifully formed. A crystal growing out of the Mother’s body. A clear, transparent quartz crystal jutting up and out of the serenity and calmness. It is an anchor for you with which to hold yourself steady. Use it as your light beneath your feet upon which to stand and hold as an image when you soar into the sky and the sun. You have an anchored desire to pull you back now. It is yours to use as you will."
Thank you! Namaste. I request closure now. Thank you! I love you. I honor you.
7/29/23 - Drumming in the new earth
Awakening at 3:00 am with a sense of drumming and words speaking in my mind - beating, pounding and singing the new age into the body. Whenever there is a down feeling, get the drum out and start thumping and chanting and telling the air and the body and the earth that the new earth is here, a new age, a lighter age, a new story, a new heart beat. Sing it, dance it, prance it, joy it out loud, into the air, tell your body, lift the old up out of existence with the new beat, chant it, dance it, see it, feel it, pound it, tell the story of the light, of the good, of the share, of the peace, of the connectedness, of the dream that is coming in on waves of love. Beat it, thunk it, dream it, chant it, sing it, flow it out on sound waves, move it through the atmosphere, let the earth, the trees, the birds, the bees, the grass, the flowers hear you sing and dance and move. Bring the sound of the new earth, the lighter earth, the caring earth, tell the story, chant the story, the beat, the rhythm, the frequency, the up-note, the positive note, tell it, beat it, chant it, sing it. Yes! Yes! You got it. It’s in your blood. It’s in your bones. It’s in your muscles, tissues, it’s home. It’s here, it’s real, it’s now you’ve got it. Keep the beat. Keep it. Beat it. Sound it every day. “The old is rotten. Let it go. Let the new come through. I can handle it. Can you?” (Words coming into my mind along with the drumming.)
After I wrote this out I couldn’t get back to sleep, I was too alert and awake. I lay and wondered what should I do? I couldn’t help myself. I just got up! And went and took the drum off the wall in the med room and put on my night shirt I think and went downstairs barefoot. I stopped in the living room where Doug was reading his phone and I said, “Don’t think me crazy but I am going outside to drum” and I was thumping the drum. He looked at me and said, “Well, don’t do it here please.” So I left and went to the patio and still hearing and feeling the drum beat and the rhythm within me, I started chanting out loud. I felt it so strongly and I felt the air and the insects and the grass.
My mind clicked into the wild animals and birds and trees and felt the wholeness, the connectedness, the wideness and I saw with inner vision swirlings of energies and a vortex appeared and swirled and through the vortex, as if a pounding from the other side and it broke through and water gushed out and filled the atmosphere with new water. It’s coming more and more and I am a part of it. I too am coming forth and out into expression. The holding back has been punctured. It is flowing the wholeness is flowing. As in the early days of kundalini when I was in the midst of flowing, the first signs of letting up is a sense of letting up. A sense of “it’s slowing down” and soon the flow began to subside and I knew it was over. Then I went back up stairs to bed and to sleep again. When I woke up it was dawn and the day had started.
7/25/23 - The ancient agenda of the male: sex stops the flow of love
On this day during exercises I had a huge downflow of a revelation. I spent an hour writing it out and asking my higher self for confirmation. She responded. I share this openly since these revelations affect most of humanity, like it or not. Putting pen to paper I am writing out the sudden breakthrough of understanding - asking, questioning - is it true?
Dear I AM, Is it true that an orgasmic release is an abortion? That it kills and prevents the cosmic fire from flowing upward to complete its flow? An orgasm – a FORCED orgasm that is, as when I did it with the vibrator because I couldn’t have one without, was that an abortion? Did it indeed kill the flow in me that the loving had begun? Then I kept doing it all through my swinging career. I started with feeling the love by hugging and embracing the people. Then I felt the love flowing as I embraced people with the closeness of their bodies, but then as I interacted with men, I was encouraged by the men to use the vibrator and to have an orgasm. I forced the climax on myself. I kept aborting the love flowing through by having an orgasm?!?! Oh my! I am just now realizing. Is this true? Killing the flow of the fire of life and forcing it back down, to hunker back down, to retreat, to stop the flow, the eternal immortal fire of LIFE that should have been allowed to flow upward? I kept having the orgasm and forcing it OUT into the 2nd chakra and that ended the flow right then and there. Is that right? I am questioning the validity of that revelation. It stopped the loving flow from happening and going on up further and completing its flowing. But, and this is a big but, perhaps my soul directed that? To keep me, my outer body/personality focused on THIS world? To keep me local on the planet in the physical matrix, in the 3rd dimensional matrix? Is this why it happened? And why I kept saying over and over, “I’m tired of this? I don’t want to do this any more?“ I kept journaling that over and over. Oh my God!!! Please will you give me some words of advice and encouragement?”
(My I Am Presence responds:) "My dear one! My lovely beautiful daughter! I have brought my two beautiful daughters together so they may support each other and carry on the work that is the work of the ages – the work of bringing love into the solid concrete world of form and matter. Both of you are ready to pick up where you left off, together now. Each of you are NOW ready. You have each had to find your own way back to Source – YOUR source. Not someone else’s source. You are your Father’s child. I am your Mother who guides you thru the thicket; the solid matter constructed by the zealous male. Yes! The zealous male is on fire with zeal. Look up that word. [means great energy and enthusiasm] It is an important word to keep in mind. Now you are noticing your hunched-over shoulders as you write my words, and the stress is mounting because you are holding your body stiff in a locked-down position. Give yourself a break. Go! Do your physical movements and let your source move through you. Let the waves come forth, as the grandmothers gave to Sharon [McErlane, Net of Light]. There must be a rhythm to the flowing and ebbing.
Ebbing is the resting time. Be at rest, and then allow the flow to come again. Rest and flow are natural cycles. Allow them. Recognize them. Become conscious of them. Use them constructively. And yes, you are correct. Exactly correct in your recognition that you yourself terminated the flow of love by using the vibrator to orgasm. You did it to reach the desired goal. It deadened the flow – dead-ended the flow – brought the flowing energy to a finish. And this over time caused your anger, your frustration to build up. The flow stopped and became blocked. It dammed up. Backed up. Became squashed. Electrons became squeezed together and uncomfortable. They came into pain. The electrons are alive with the fires of life and you stopped them from flowing. You KNEW the flow of love needed to keep flowing. You knew this and you knew it was real, but you bought into the agenda of the male, came under the pressure of the male. You allowed it. YOU were the problem. YOU allowed this to happen to you.
The ancient agenda of male works by focusing his attention on an outcome. He does not need or want the female around when he is working. He has forgotten to be in balance himself. He has become out of alignment and backed up with stress and tension himself. So he seeks the female for relief and release. Then he needs the female as a receiver for his stress and tension. It is by focus that the male is able to carry forth their plan to build concrete worlds. For love would not have allowed the concretization of matter into structured form. Love would have allowed the electrons of fire to keep moving and flowing, refreshing and staying light and liquid. It is an unbalanced world that you entered, to bring forth love. It was the Plan to enter the world of unbalanced concrete form and release it with love, by flowing love. It is the plan of all the souls who are born of love, to release the blocks that obstruct the flow. You have come to dismantle the concretization. You have done exceptionally well, my beloved sister friend. Use your sister friend Trisha to complete the flowing of love. You will know what to do. You are One. We are One, you and I." (end)
PS from me: Settling down energy is a dying energy if not careful. I know from my long history of being “settled comfortably into my comfort zone”. This needs to be explored. When a person starts settling in and becoming comfortable, the way an older person does, that’s when the dying energy starts creeping in. I am truly sorry to have to say that, BUT, it is being active that keeps the cosmic fire burning and moving and flowing through a body.
7/24/23 - Revealings during a morning exercise
Today during exercises I became aware of the need to form a chalice above my head open to the sky, constantly, like a funnel, to collect the golden electrons consciously. I should do this more often while exercising. Should I keep it open all day? The golden life force in the form of golden sparkling electrons comes down through the chalice (per the Maha Chohan). It is my own consciousness that collects them through my alertness, awareness and attention. I have been closed to it. I’ve been trying to pump energy from inside my spinal column and coccyx but energy can’t be replaced if there’s no new energy coming in. I’m closed. I need to maintain an open channel consciously, or my body becomes a fixed vessel, closed and growing old. No wonder life becomes boring and dull, recycling the same old stuff all the time. I lose interest. The form grows old and eventually dies on the vine because there is no new fresh life force. Fresh life force comes in through a CONSCIOUS open channel that reaches up into the higher realms of myself, to the sea of conscious life, pure, and exquisite and innocent and fresh, to which all life eventually returns and springs out of. As DK said, “Go in and UP!” to connect with the I Am Presence. How could I have missed this?
Sri Aurobindo was the first one to alert us to the downward flow of kundalini. I noticed today that when I do exercises and I remember to keep an open channel to the infinite, that the fresh new sparkling electrons coming down into my body via the breath replaces the old ones and creates a refreshing feeling in my body. I am noticing it for the first time. Yoga teachers instruct their students to keep an open mind to the sky while doing the exercises. It creates a feeling of lightness. All practices have a goal of providing lightness, the higher the light, the better. It’s like moving old marbles out of the way with new marbles in a ground game of marbles. It is my own consciousness that does it. I have to be conscious and alert and pay attention. Hold attention open. I must be aware of what I’m doing. Conscious awareness is the key.
We are ALL only consciousness. God is awareness. Or lack, thereof. That’s all we are, awareness, currently inhabiting a physical body vessel which is made of old material and the old material dies if it’s not replenished. I’m here to learn and understand. It is my consciousness that is doing the replenishing and rebuilding and resurrecting. I am giving my body conscious direction, awareness and commandments by being quickened and alert during my practice time. When I do that I am inviting electrons into my body, a stream of electrons from the sea of life when I do that. I come out of the sea of life daily, hourly, moment by moment. But am I releasing the old? I don't know. I'm not doing it consciously. Is it blocking up in me? I am receiving new information. I am learning. I am sharing what I am learning.
7/23/23 - Crystal Light Body Activation - Video
Just posted in Today's Posts, a 28 minute long youtube by Summer Jenna Lyons. She channels Archangel Chamuel. It was posted two years ago. Last night I was told during sleep to google "Crystal Light Body Activation", so I did and found this website and video. It was a much-appreciated find. Thank you to my guides. Information on light body activation is available online, but I doubt that many people know to look for it. I didn't. So I am posting it here. This is advanced information for those experiencing symptoms that can't be explained, such as sudden dizziness, confusion or sickish, disorienting type feelings that are simply too strange and weird to account for it. Google "Light Body Activation" to explore more.
The Light Body is part of our energy body (aura or presence) which gets activated with increased awareness and with the new energies coming in. The energetic and physical body, the four lower contaminated bodies, then start to release trapped emotions and beliefs, breaking down old paradigms and artificial constructs. This can create problems. The process is often overlooked as a medical condition. It is often accompanied by emotional and physical symptoms like feeling dizzy, disoriented, emotionally disruptive, not well feelings. As we remove old programs and experiences, we are releasing a huge amount of density and making room for more photonic light to run through us, so that our bodies are able to hold much more light. This process can be challenging, but with instruction, guidance and feedback, we can better understand. We are going through a clearing process that most of us have not been prepared for. We are then able to better ground ourselves and work within more normal parameters. The ascension shift we are undergoing at this time is a first-time-ever physical, biological, mental and spiritual evolution of the human species. We are moving out of the 3rd dimension to the 4th and 5th dimension. Our consciousness is expanding to accommodate this evolution, thus we are feeling the constrictions, tightness and resistance which is dizzy and disorienting. We have not been prepared for this. Feel free to contact me if you need a friendly voice to soundboard with. Use the CONTACT page to reach me. I too have been having difficulties. My guides are helping me through it. Also my husband loves me, thank God!
7/22/23 - Born of the Earth now reaching beyond
The words came to me in the night, as usual, so I write them down or I will forget.
I am born of the Earth, the Earth gave me form. The substance of old matter built my form. This old matter was discarded by others when they died and it went back into the earth. The Earth recycles matter that was once used by others. The Earth provides a home for form beings to start out as basic form. The first basic form is mineral. It then grows in self awareness to learn movement, like one-celled amoeba, then two-celled and more. Then self-consciousness grows into rock and then grass and vegetables and trees. Then self-consciousness grows into crawling things on the ground,, then into animals with four legs, then into higher animal forms, taking on more and more self awareness. Then self consciousness grows upright to stand on two legs, and all the while earth is home to this self-conscious being.
We are that human who is now growing upward as a whole race growing more civilized. We are reaching beyond earth, learning more about space and ourselves. We are learning about other galactic civilizations, planets, inhabitants, about the sun, the galaxy and more. Then kundalini starts to expand and geniuses are formed. New brain cells in the head grow beyond earth’s limits. The upright spine opens and the mother flame heats up and burns through what are called veils or chakras and the heat, the intelligence flows further upward. It is kindled and activated by certain asanas, movements, disciplines, learned and taught by teachers. The physiology in matter begins to activate and movement is felt throughout the body, organs, nerves, tissues, there is mystery involved. One must struggle through pain and hysteria, but mastery and control grows firm and sure.
The human race is on its way to reaching beyond the earth planet in understanding and awareness. There is a greater intelligence beyond him and he is excited by this knowing. The spine is the trunk of the human tree of life. When it reaches the brain it pounds through the skull at the top and hits space and more refined intelligence. It activates the brain to more intelligence, to the need for more control over the mind. My mind is clearing more and more and receiving this insight.
7/21/23 - It's my responsibility to change my feelings & energies
If I don't do the necessary work the energies and feelings - and life itself - stays the same. The same old, same old, on into endless future. The work is mine alone to do. I've reached a critical stage in my journey. If I want to change or improve, I have to do the work myself. The doctors can't help - but I'll go anyway just to keep peace in the family.
My head is ready to lift off, so so dizzy, and I speak to my higher self, wondering what advice you would give me? I am asking for help to adjust my energies so I can stay in body a little longer. Oh!! I must do it myself!! I see!! Adjust the energies myself? OK. I capped off all my chakras just now, cut off the dangling energies that were extending out and trailing off into the world ahead of me. This act is strengthening my backbone. The chakra cores are in the spinal cord on an etheric level. I am doing the I AM Light chant slowly articulating the words, emphasizing the words, spinning the chakras. I am breathing in Oregano oil now. It is surprising how helpful it is. It had a troubling influence on my lower abdomen in front, disturbing the digestion system.
I did the "love-the-organs" exercise, and the violet flame but restricting it to my head. My head is swirling. I asked to remove toxins or if it’s too much light. I don’t know which to ask for. Should I ask to cut down the light, or increase it? I am confused and don’t know what to do. I continued doing the routine exercises, did the torus and infinity breath and the others. A serious meditation followed and ended near midnight.
I went to sleep and slept well. In the morning I woke up still chanting the I AM Light in my semi-conscious state. As I sat up I felt much lighter and began preparing for the day, getting only small stabs of the bad old sick energy that caused my brain to spin dizzily. I continued calling for alignment of the four lower bodies - physical, emotional, mental, spiritual - asking them or rather directing them to surrender to the God forces within.
The last few days I've had a distinct return to an old timeline when kundalini was active in me, so I am now tuning into that time in my life, imagining what I looked like then and felt back then. A lot of purity, innocence and love, along with super high activity. A different energy. I see I must adjust my perspective of today. It is more broken up than it was back then. I must make the correction myself. I have been thinking people don’t understand, but I see that everyone is understanding from their own perspective, as I am. I must return to non-judgment, more openness, more acceptance of people. All people understand what they understand and must be honored for that. Must be loved regardless of who or where they are. They have their own connection to Source, just as I do. Everyone is processing their own understanding of who they are in relation to Source. My judgment of others is wrong. I have to correct this attitude. This is not a human world, it is the creator's world. The creator is in charge. The creator is changing people from within, inside, where it counts. I must see it that way and everything in it is creator’s world blossoming. This is a drastic correction to normal thinking. The pure crystal light body is coming through to me, it is seeping into my consciousness causing me disorientation. It is coming outward into manifestation, into understanding, into my reality. I must assist it. Each person must do this for themselves. My awareness is changing. I’m not to be proactive after all. I thought I was here to become stronger and more active, but I've been wrong. That’s the world of duality causing me to think that way. Either/or. Now I see that I am to become merged to the love within that is trying to manifest, the crystal light body is activating in me.
I did the violet flame and the regular routine this morning and began zoning out into higher fields. I felt the wham of nearly passing out but made myself come back to finish the routine. I started zoning out again but forced myself not to go. The light energy is powerful! It is lifting me higher. I am aware that the crystal light body is an eternal, unpolluted, never changing pattern within me. I see it. I feel it. I know it is there within my consciousness. I have neglected it. It is not somewhere outside of me. My job, my role, my responsibility is to re-enforce it to make it stronger and more real in me. I have to find ways to activate it and merge with it. I have to spend time doing this. I have to yield my human ways, human habits, human sub-routines to the lighter larger consciousness within me. I started zoning out again. This time I allowed myself to go with it. It was easy, a great peace came upon me, it was elevating, taking me over. I haven’t felt this in a long time. I’m connecting with the the ways I experienced back when kundalini was first active. I had lost this connection. Love is now around me influencing me. I asked, "Is it possible to feel the connection as once I did?" The answer was immediate.
"Yes. The crystal light body is the babe born of the Mother and the Father’s input. Both are crossed together to make the holy crystal self. Both are needed to grow the baby, the light child takes from both influences - both Heaven and Earth influences. Both immortal and mortal. The holy child, the crystal light body, grows from their/our influence. This is you being born underneath the human exterior/error. Humans were led away from the holiness - the wholeness, virtue and truth - and so became lost. But the crystal light body is always there for you are the holy one in the original seeding. It is within you. As you reconnect with it, your error side that you gave so much of your life to, feels hurt, rejected, abandoned and disempowered. Any negative feeling, ALL negative feelings are from this part of you, your dark web. Nurse it through to its inevitable demise. It is painful, yes, but the promised land is inevitable. It will come forward to bless your life as you continue and give yourself love, patience and kindness. Hang tight to the light."
7/20/23 - The river of light in the heart known as the Christ
It was during the back bend recently that I had the following revelation. It came in one large package of awareness, and now I will use many words to describe it. There have been some wild fluctuations over the past months as I veer wildly through unknown territory. Dimensions? I try first one approach, then another, and another. Dizziness is causing the swinging madly back and forth between crown of head and tailbone and off in other directions. It has been quite a wild time. Bad sickish feelings come to say "not this way", and then clarity appears to point another way, revelations appear. My energies speed up, then slow down. My mind is a runaway train that I lose control over, but determination makes me hold on as the train swerves around corners.
There have been a series of breakthrough revelations. This one tops it off. It is the realization that the ONLY one who can hold me together is the Christ self of the heart, known in religion as the Holy Christ Self, and by the spiritual community as the crystalline light body. Mental understanding did not bring me to this realization. Only direct contact made an impact and broke through the confusion. The one known as "the first born" or "the Christ" is always the one who brings forth the truth and the purity we seek. It is the crystalline light that holds the Father/Mother purity together. This consciousness has to be built. It is not there until we build it. The space for it is in the vehicle's heart on a more refined etheric level as a growing awareness. The awareness grows slowly. Is built slowly.
The Mother consciousness is in the a bulbous container wrapped around the tailbone, known as the first chakra. It was sent down into matter at the time of conception to anchor the life for the soul to use while it sojourned on earth. The Father consciousness remains above in the abstract, and does not enter into the material matter body but the Father and Mother consciousness are one and the same. They are only divided during the temporary lifespan of the soul's embodiment. It is the mission of the soul to bring these two God consciousnesses together - the Father and the Mother. One in the tail bone and one in spirit. The one in the tailbone is wrapped in an etheric bubble called kundalini in Sanskrit. It is also called the holy spirit in the Christian religion. Father God has provided an individual representation of Himself called the Monad. The Monad is connected to the physical body at the crown of the head, and may respond as the soul calls to it. The Monad is abstract spiritual intelligence.
The soul's mission is to bring these two divine intelligences - Father God and Mother God - together for they are one and the same divinity. They are separated only for the duration of the embodied life of the soul in material matter. The purpose of the soul's embodiment is to explore for clues of its divine origin and to trace it. In so doing, it then brings the encapsulaed Mother spirit in the tail bone up through the spine to meet the abstract Father spirit above the head. The goal is to bring the two parent sources together in the heart. The Father God source cannot descend below the heart, and the Mother God source cannot ascend above the heart, until they are brought together within the heart to give birth to the crystalline light body within the chest area, the etheric heart. Then a great sense of peace prevails. A peace that it is written "passes all understanding." It is home. The birth of the pure Christ consciousness takes place. It DOES happen in people. It is not a myth, or a lie. It is real and it is normal and it is expected. The soul knows on inner levels what it is looking for. The problem is, the outer self has become distracted by many voices that are not real. The crystal pure consciousness then remains unrachable. It is quiet and saintly, gentle and uncontaminated intelligence. It is located in the chest, in the region of the heart. This is the mid-way point between the crown of the head and the tailbone, where the Mother Kundalini dwells, locked in place until the soul begins to purify itself and look to clean up its life.
This is a study that I have been involved in for many years and, suddenly, it is coming to a conclusion. The pieces of the puzzle are finding each other and fitting themselves together. I did not know how to do it myself, but my greater self has been in charge. I turned the job over as a process of surrendering to my higher nature. Suddenly there are things clicking into place. Saint Germain is also making himself known to me and speaking to me in various ways. His voice is uniquely powerful, more powerful than DK's voice, but he is speaking through Geoffrey Hoppes. I asked "Why is it in the Heart?" And the answer explained that the pure crystal consciousness, the one known as the Christ down through the ages, is the only "first born" consciousoness in the material world. All else is fake, phoney and not pure. The individual ego is an illusion and a separated construct make from errors and mistakes. The individual ego lives as a shadow consciousness, and it trails like a dark web all through the body, helter-skelter. It wanders around the tissues, bone and blood like a lost puppy without a home. It does not know itself. It seeks for answers and makes up its own answers. Meanwhile the crystalline consciousness is also present but it has not been identified yet. It is too refined to be seen or known. It is the child, the son or daughter of the Father God and Mother God, and it is present in every human body, but too refined to be seen. The soul has not discovered it yet. So it is that lifetime after lifetime the soul is born and dies and is born again to explore, search and seek for clues as to who it is. It comes back again and again, and is born in other worlds, other planets, as well as on Earth.
Individual thoughts run like dark threads all thru the body, especially in the head. The brain is the storehouse of our individual experiences. We keep a record in our head of past experiences, beliefs and habits. These are not memories of the "first born" crystalline self, for it has not made an appearance yet on the planet(s). The "first born" is the real self, the higher self, the permanent self that lives life after life after life, waiting to be touched and tapped for its purity. The soul is drawn to the task, not sure how to go about it. The individual who feels lost and alone sometimes and at other times high on excitement and has the pleasure of belonging to a group or a family, is the soul experiencing duality. It has good times and bad times and slowly it builds awareness of a higher self that exists beyond its low esteem. Then the day comes that it encounters its true self by having a direct contact experience. It then steps for the first time upon the spiritual path that leads inward. Inward and outward, back and forth. At first it does not recognize itself as God, but it is drawn to explore deeper. It may join a religious group, temple or monastery, for the soul is on a mission to find its true nature. The soul itself is hidden buried within the darker shadows of human nature so that the ego is unaware that it is a soul, and is unaware that it is God.
The individual ego is a facet of the crystalline self - the only true self there is. It is not whole or complete until it becomes fully realized and embodied as itself. Everyone’s personality is a facet of the Christ but there is only ONE Christ. The one crystalline Christ is in the heart, a position located half way between the crown of the head and the tailbone. When it is time the soul begins seriouso exploration, as I am doing now. It works at owning it, making it its own personal consciousness. It must make it real and it is done by picturing it, imagining it and holding the picture for longer and longer periods of time. It is important to imagine the best and most beautiful image of oneself as it can find. A photo even of many years ago, it doesn't matter. It must be one that FEELS whole and right. I have found such a picture. A picture that speaks to me in my feelings of love and praise and worship. Now I am imbuing it with patterns of colored light, dazzling white light, blue light, gold light, green light. There are seven pure colors to be brought DOWN from higher realms and installed into the new me that I am building in my heart. There are many techniques that have been taught over the years. It is in the heart that one must focus when it is time to build the crystalline light body. There is a pattern waiting to be filled in at that location in the heart. It is a pattern of the purist, clearest, most REAL image possible, but it's too refined to see so one must build into it from the ground up. From where we are today, in the current reality. The pattern is like an architect's blueprint that the builders refer to as they start building in concrete material, pouring the foundation for the future building. The Christ must be built into the body and it can only be done by the soul itself, by the consciousness and intelligence and the love and the will power of the lesser self which does not know but struggles to know and is drawn to know.
The heart is in the middle of the chest, between the tail bone and the crown of head. We can use the physical heart as a reference point in the beginning, but eventually the light will surpass the smallness of the physical heart, and an auric glow will appear. They say it will appear right through the physical skin. It grows and expands over time beyond the physical nature of the heart but it can begin there. The heart pumps the blood and the light is carried on the blood stream to all parts of the body so the light is imprinted into the body structure itself. We grow the light into the blood by holding various images of crystalline light in our imagination while chanting, singing, praying or speaking. There are many techniques that may be used to build the crystalline light body within the physical flesh body.
The heart is in the center of the chest where the heart and lungs are located. The lungs breathe in and out and pump the heart, helping to distribute the light that is held consciously by the only person who can build its crystalline light body. No one else can build it for someone else. Father God is the abstract pure divine intelligence flowing the pure light down through the crown of the head, if and when the crown is open. And Mother God is the life force (kundalini) flowing the light up the spine. The soul strives to bring the two God sources together to meet in the heart, where a great peace is experienced in that divine union, and the birth of the Christ consciousness takes place during that interlude of joining. The Father and the Mother come together in the heart at the midway point between the human body and the divine abstract intelligence. The Mother is the nurturer and protector of the form. The Father is the one infinite Creator of all that is.
Between these two parent lights the one and only Christ is built through alert conscious mindful application of imagery, tones, and willful direction of thought. We have to build our own Christ consciousness. No one can do it for us. But love is a wonderful assistance to those around us who are our friends, family and associates. Love is the tool, comfort and peace are allies as we learn and grow. The only divine energy comes from within. It comes from the Father and the Mother being brought together as one. They are the birthers of the eternal life through the son or daughter, now being constructed by us in our own hearts. Energy does not come from outsiders. It comes from our inner sources. We are drawn inward to the inner senses, whisperings, guidance, and instincts. The time comes when we learn to remove ourselves from the distractions of the outer world, in order to spend more quiet time alone with our inner God self. The world is full of dark errors and beliefs. We learn through trial and error and turn them off. Politely, not with violence or anger, but with quiet withdrawal. The world calls us to listen but eventually their voices fade as the inner path starts to glow more warmly and calls to us. The inner path is one we must walk alone. Our responsibility is to pay attention. We may live with and enjoy the presence of our brothers and sisters, but we learn to do it respectfully, with discernment and wisdom, for they too are following their own path within and need the solitude. It is the coming way of the new Earth. We are friends along the way with compatible others as we leave those who are not compatible to walk away. As we grow quieter and wiser, we settle more comfortably into our own light within, yet still have our special close friends for companionship.
7/19/23 - Technique for energizing the body - spin the chakras
Lately I have been learning some new techniques to stir up energy and increase vitality. It started with difficulty breathing. First it was disorientation, then dizziness, then by practicing certain techniques, clear-headedness. Then back to dizziness until I get it right. I am still learning and practicing. Some of these energy techniques are too subtle to explain in words. It would take pages to spell it out. But this is a very good one to share if a person is having difficulty breathing or can't catch their breath. The key is to do this regularly, every day, or twice a day or even three times a day. It seems to work for me.
One night my breathing was very bad and in my despair I asked for instructions. Always ask when you are desperate. I do. Your higher self WILL answer. We often forget that we have an advisor ALWAYS on hand. Or did you know? Trust that you will get an answer in the form of a thought or idea or simply an instinct. It will suddenly dawn on you or appear to you as a thought. The higher self speaks through instinct, thought and ideas. After all, the higher self IS you. You will know what to do. It is your own mind that tells you if you are alert to your own self and not being distracted by someone else. On this occasion I was told to do the following.
"Inhale while spinning the chakra clockwise, exhale while spinning the chakra counter-clockwise."
Imagine a transparent horizontal tube running through the chakra, for example the navel. The navel is a good one to start with. It is the portal to the emotional chakra. Spin the tube clockwise as if you were standing behind yourself. Then exhale while spinning the tube counterclockwise. Again, as if standing behind yourself. Spin the tube clockwise on the inhale, and counterclockwise on the exhale. Do this at least 10 times, inhaling and exhaling.
Next, imagine a transparent tube running all the way down around the spinal column from crown to below your feet. Use your own feeling about how wide the tube should be. Perhaps start with an inch or two in diameter. You can widen it or make it smaller as you feel to. I follow my instinct on that. Again, inhale while spinning the tube clockwise (as imagined from above the head) and exhale while spinning the tube counterclockwise.
This was a very specific instruction. Someone was guiding me to “inhale clockwise, exhale counterclockwise" and was shown where and how to position myself. I lay down and practiced the breathing. I then received the words:
“Inhale God’s love down on the inhale, and exhale God’s love back up on the exhale."
“Inhale, descend and contract. Exhale, ascend and release."
"Inhale descend into form, exhale release from form.”
“Inhale the world, exhale the world.”
I pictured the world forming into concrete reality on the inhale, and releasing from concrete reality on the exhale. I continued to have a heavy chest and a hard time breathing. I continued to spin the chakras. I was next brought into the position of sitting up and clapping hands. This was instinctive. I hadn't planned it. It was automatic. As I clapped my hands I began chanting a familiar phrase which I use - “Peace, love, light, joy, freedom, grace, gratitude"
Send the light OUT!!! I was reminded. The words came strongly to me, as if shouting at me. There is only so much light you can build and cram into your body! You have to release it! Light is meant to flow, not be stored and die slowly to death in place. Move itl!! Move it around!! Activate your body. The light is getting too crammed up inside the body. Breathe!! Breathe it out!! Light is love. Breathe it out on your breath. Distribute it to the world around you. Don't hold it under lock and key. Spread it around, even if it's into the air around you. Engage with the world. Distribute it to others.
Do this as a routine. Inhale the light down into the physical body and exhale the light up or out and away from the physical. Make it move. Activate it. Distribute it. Clap your hands and chant out loud. Difficulty breathing is caused by the energy of life slowing down to a slower, lower vibration, to a standstill. It must be reactivated.
Follow your instincts on this. What feels right and true and good to you.
7/16/23 - The rainbow bridge called "Antahkarana"
A new revelation concerning where bad energies come from. These blogs are more like journals for ME, rather than to persuade or educate the reader. Sharing information in public forum helps me, because I am not holding onto the information as if it were some big secret. When I hold onto new informatioin, it becomes cumbersome and gets stuck in my brain like a treasure that someday I will have to get rid of. It's like cleaning out a closet that hasn't been touched in years. There's so much junk in there that I had no idea where it even came from in the first place. This is one of the most valuable lessons I have learned along the way: keep telling people about what you know. It's a form of letting it go free, plus it is of value to the population. It is a form of contributing to the whole. Let it go free like the bird since it came to you free. Don't keep it in a cage locked up. Many people do, simply because they think nobody will understand so why bother? I always feel free and elevated after I've blogged something that is important to me.
The word Antahkarana came to me many years ago, being a student of the spiritual sciences. I knew it was the rainbow bridge intellectually, but that's about all I knew about it. Over the last few days I have come face to face with it. It is now not only in my face but inside of me running up and down my spine. Because I am directing and breathing the colors into my spine as I understand it. It is now a part of my conscious awareness and focus. It is having a clearing effect on me. I understand its purpose now. Overnight it has cleared up my dizziness issues. Hopefully. We will see about that in a few more weeks, but I feel sure it is the solution. I want to share it openly here. Google "Antahkarana" to learn more if you feel inclined. One of the best authorities is Benjamin Creme at esoteric-philosophy dot net.
For would-be metaphysical students: this is a nutshell version of the Antahkarana. The divine self is encapsulated in an etheric ball of light surrounding the coccyx. It is known as the Mother, and it was placed there before the embryo is born. It was sent by the Father to prepare the form body and help it grow, feed it and nurture it in the world of planetary material substance. The Father remains beyond form in the heavens. The Father is the creator and is abstract intelligence, while Mother is the care-giver and nurturer of the form body.
After many lifetimes in form, from primitive up to today, a soul (a human being) evolves in understanding. It grows through many personalities alternating being born in both genders male and female, in different countries, different worlds, through different times and different locations, until the soul is ready to meet the Father again. There is a purpose for the many lives. It is a soul evolving matter into a more refined human being. God the Father with the help of the Mother is evolving a world of enlightened human beings. The Mother is known as the Higher Self. There is always a Higher Self available at any moment of the day in us. She is closer than hands and feet. She is literally our breath. All we have to do is call upon her, but we have to know and trust. The Mother is ALWAYS there feeding the soul, caring for the soul, cradling the soul, whispering love and wisdom into the soul. If only we had this instruction earlier in life!
Well, the new age is all about the movement upward into higher consciousness where our children's children will learn about such things. The children of the next generations will have an easier time of it, for this will become public knowledge.
So, after many lifetimes living in a physical body, a soul (a human being) is ready to meet the Father. But first some preparation is necessary. Some spiritual interest in the soul is required. This is metaphysical information, not every-day practical information for the average person. Someone has to have a calling to explore. Who and what is the soul? Being prepped about the seven virtues or the seven truths, or the seven colors, or the seven tones, or the seven purities (there are many words for the same thing) and listening and studying is how we are prepared mentally to understand. This is how we slowly evolve our human understanding about the Antahkarana. The rainbow bridge is the slow dawning of understanding of the seven chakras or seven dimensions of consciousness. Studying will lead us to the divine Father. The son of the Father is the soul. We didn't know that growing up. The son is the soul, and the soul was integrated at birth into a local time and space and fed a lot of information about cultural "do's and don'ts", sin and shame and fear, etc. So the soul didn't have a chance to learn about the Father in the old world of sin and shame. Today, however, the times they are a'changing. We are growing more sophisticated as a society.
Well, that's it in a nutshell. Oh, I forgot to mention: my dizziness cleared up as the result of this change-over. Dizziness, and cloudiness of mind was the result of confusion, not knowing and not having a mental (formal) preparation. It was time for the body to die, its time was up. But because I very seriously demanded an explanation, because I KNEW my time wasn't up yet, then I was given instruction - inner instruction - virtually overnight. If you ask seriously enough for instruction and demand to know "Why?" you will get an answer. I have come to see and recognize now the rainbow bridge. Being awakened in the night and told what to do, I am now practicing the techniques given to me during arduous sleep-wake-sleep periods. I would be glad to assist or soundboard with anyone who feels compelled to contact me. Just write to me thru the contact page. There are some youtubes on the internet that discuss it. Check out Chloe Folan HERE if interested. I just checked this morning for the first time but have not begun to listen.
The rainbow bridge consists of seven colors, dimensions, tones, purities, etc. Understanding is required to connect the Father in heaven with the Mother in the body. The Mother in the body is the life force of the body. She provides the breath of life. She cares like any good Mother does. As long as there is life flowing in the body, the divine Mother is there feeding the body and preparing the divine child for the Father's connection to the body. The many lifetimes we live are preparation in how to manage our human vehicle "better". It is always about doing it "better", no matter WHAT it is we are involved in. It's all about refining ourselves and learning better ways to accomplish our tasks. That includes being more compassionate with others we work with, more honest with them, being more precise with them such as not sloughing them off because we're too busy. There are many ways to do it "better" than we did it before. Better means evolving from past mistakes. Feeling good about yourself is a natural benefit and result from doing it "better". Doing it more intelligently, more refined, more pure, more true, more loving, perhaps more stern, or better at explaining or better at focusing attention. It is always about "betterment". And by looking to higher, more refined realms, that brings us ultimately more joy, more peace, more harmony and a better life. The higher realms come down to us from the Father closer to the dense physical form via the rainbow bridge. As we tune into the Mother we also tune into the Father.
7/15/23 - Where do bad depressing energies come from?
One morning a month ago I called to my I AM Presence (higher God self) seeking council. I have done many what could be called "automatic writings" over the years, but I feel to share this one since it is recent. I know other people are also experiencing weird strange confusing moods, thoughts and feelings, and they can be very depressing indeed. It is difficult to know what to do with them. Some kind of insight or understanding would be helpful. Listen to what my Higher Self says about it, and take heart. It is apparently a necessary stage that we must go thru in the big "shift" from 3D to 5D. It's a cleansing and everyone is going through the same thing.
I asked: Dear Beloved I AM, I seek some feedback from you. I have questions, and seek answers that only you can give me. What is the cause of my “bad” feelings of isolation and separation? Am I under attack? Am I drawing “bad” feelings to me? Where are they coming from? Why am I seemingly inundated with “bad” feelings? What can I do? What direction should I take? Or should I just be patient (I’m getting I should be patient) and it will go away? Is it karma I am burning off? Dross? Will you teach me, tell me, guide me, assure me? The answer is as follows:
"My Dear, you are my only precious child and I am here waiting for you to come to me. Come to me more often with your pen and clipboard. Let me talk to you in a way that YOU can hear me. Even as Daniel Scranton must listen in HIS own way. Yes, my child. You are burning dross. It is the final remnants of your ancient form life. You have had many forms. Come out of your hiding place now and let the violet flame help you burn the toxins from your system. Ask me and I will tell you. You are very close to final moments. Do not try to presume or anticipate. Let the wounds open and drain out of you. It is a bleeding, as in olden days they would open the skin and let the infection drain out of the body. You are doing this now. In your surrendering of your human past you are letting them surface so you can feel them as sick and depressing. Feel them as they float outward, upward, into the atmosphere. You are sending them home to your highest God Father. Back to the light. You are doing well to send them Home with love and thanksgiving. Let them return to the light and the love of the Father-Mother. Send them with love. Nurture your new space with love, self-love. Do not try to create a new project now. Let the old diminish and fade until you are empty and at peace.
(Thank you beloved I AM. Do you have a closing thought for me? Where do these confusing thoughts come from? I should know better but I don't.)
"They were created in past lives. You repressed them in favor of peace and expressing peace. Yes, as a priestess and Tantric master, you were on the mission of teaching love, but you still received the wandering thoughts of those around you, for you had no answers to give them. They have piled up in you, creating holding patterns within you. You yourself did wonder and you had no way of expressing the no answer. You continued doing the only thing you knew how to do and that was to love the people who came to you. You are now reaping the final energies that accumulated. Let them come and let them go. There will come a time when you will be able to once again teach the Law of Love in physical action. (pause for light language) That is why you are a writer now. You want to tell the people the reasons why, the causes, the responses, reactions, expressions. You are accumulating many words."
(OK, thank you. Are we done? Is there something more I should hear from you, my beloved I AM?)
"My heart to your heart. We are one. Know that I am you and you are me and we are One." (End)
7/14/23 - The auric field and its four lower bodies
Following the laws of harmony vs. following the laws of separation. Symbiosis. The universe operates on the law of harmony or synthesis, whereas mankind has been operating on the law of separation. DK gave me this short little explanation recently when I asked him a question, now forgotten. He said, When you massage Annie you allow a blend to occur between her energy field or radiation, and yours. The normal human ego respects another person’s radiation and does not interfere with it. He or she stops short of blending with that other person, which allows a boundary or separation to exist between them. It is the law of free will. The law of free will allows separation to remain. There are hard edges between one person and another. It is called respecting free will.
Symbiosis is the tilting of the law of gravity in favor of blending separate fields, whereas the law of gravity pulls toward the center of each, not allowing a blend to occur. So tilting the law of gravity is a way of blending and merging people’s individual fields. Simbiosis. The flash event is when everyone will turn toward the law of harmony and away from the law of free will and separate boundaries.
10/2/23 - Your celestial chakra system
There is a celestial network of pure unadulterated light that runs through your body which has been there since you were born. This is what is today being called kundalini. I use that word because I had the kundalini awaken in me many years ago, so I know about it. Most people are not aware of this network of celestial light but it is actually the father God or source creator - the supreme intelligence - that created all things and is actually IN all things. Your are the souorce creator having a human experience. God lives in you. The kundalini is a small piece of Father God that is called Mother God because this piece of Father God was sent down at the time your body was conceived (through your human parents) to provide the life force to build your body. Father God built your body and Mother God managed it and helped you create a body for you, made sure all the parts were in place and functioned properlly. She has been there from your beginning. You are her, or better yet, you are the child of her. She is teaching you and giving you innate wisdom what to do at certain times. She gives you feelings of caring and love, and you should follow those feelings. She will always lead you out of messes.
So God is anchored in you and you are what has been termed the soul. You are that part of Father God that is having a human experience. They are your parents holding you close inside this body of yours. Father God anchors you, the soul, the intelligence, to the body. Your family and the culture does not know this so they didn't tell you about it. Unless they happened to be advanced souls and were spiritually inclined, as my mother was.
The chakras are actually seven portals that lead into layers of light that surround the body. We have seven levels of consciousness that surround, and if we were to study under an ascended being, we would learn some techniques how to use these chakras to our advantage. These doorways open into higher consciousness which is actually a whole dimension. A whole reality world of its own, but it is united together as one. Dimensions are connected and overlap each other when we learn how to use them properly. So when you are ready to expand to a higher consciousness level, well, you may not even notice it if you are naturally inclined to betterment and raising yourself up to higher levels.
When you are ready to explore higher beyond where you are today, it is a natural evolution of understanding. I am pointing out the natural positive side of evolution. I see that the average communication network is all caught up in negative scenarios, but I am pointing out that there is a very happy, pleasant and positive evolution that is happening right now. Many people are learning how to withdraw from the negative and just quietly remaining positive, looking upward to better things. This consciousness expansion is in full swing today because the whole planet is entering a higher consciousness "space" if you will, in the cosmos. Many people are being challenged because this change in height or altitude (speed and frequency) is disrupting their way of life. It is confusing us. I have been through two years of dizziness and am just now learning to manage it. Life isn't the same as it has been in my growing up years. There are physical upsets, mental upsets and weird upsets that you can't find a word to describe it. I was calling them "sickish feelings". They made me feel really, really bad during certain spells and bouts. Some people call them "attacks by the dark side" but the dark is everywhere and cannot be named. They are the "old" energies of the past and they appear "bad" when contrasted against the lighter consciousness that we are ALL experiencing at times. We are moving into lighter dimensions of space and conscious awareness. So the old energies are past energies that have no place in our world today. There must be an alert put out about these energies, so people can at least understand what's going on.
I have decided to just type these words out spontaneously, off the top of my head, and not put too much thought into it. I am moving fast through these toxic energies and learning about them. I am being shown MANY new things, new practices, new awarenesses, and they are stunning. I wish to share so I write about them since I've been under the tutorship of an ascended master, and he has shared a LOT with me over the years. He holds my proverbial hand from a higher place and allows me to participate in his thinking from time to time. That is what we are meant to do with our friends and neighbors. Share the knowledge that you have. You know more than you realize. Don't keep it bottled up. Guide others as you are inclined to do.
What I want to share about the chakras is this, and it's hard to put into words. You and I both and all of us, are absorbing each others energies, past energies, trauma energies, each other's thoughts, feelings, levels of understanding, wisdom and the bad stuff too. It is as if we are all one family living together in the same house and breathing the same air. Sharing the same ideas and thoughts. Well, we are. This has been the human family and the human condition for a long, long time. We are the human race and we have a mass consciousness that has created at atmosphere which we all share together. We breathe the same air. We believe, more or less, the same fundamental things. But here is where it gets different. And it's causing more than average confusion. Each of us is NOT on the same playing field. We are each souls, actually spiritual entities evolving in our own pathway. We are each a piece of the Father-Mother God and we are having a TEMPORARY human experience.
When ewe die to this body we will return to our normal consciousness and it will be HOME to us. We will feel much, much better being back HOME. But meanwhile, as long as we are still in a human body, we are likely to be having confusions at this point, because we were programmed to believe in the way humans were raised and programmed to believe. We were born into the mass consciousness of the race and it was set at a certain low consciousness level. But consciousness elevates and changes with learning and understanding and experience. We've watched the world change over our own lifetime, because things DO change with experience. Every day. But the BIG changes we are not noticing yet. We are moving out of the old low level of consciousness along with the rest of the planet, and the whole mass human race is evolving to higher levels. There is no way to notice that because everyone is going through it at the same time. We are moving out of lower levels of consciousness, but there are still lingering old systems in place shedding old thoughts. These old thoughts feel wrong suddenly. We are bothered by them. We are trying to change them and change our attitudes, but it's almost more than we can do. It's bigger than we are, this change in altitude and frequency We are shedding the mass consciousness and coming into more SOUL consciousness. Soul consciousness is lighter, smoother, calmer and and more heart-centered. We are being raised up to more heart-centered ways because soul is more in tune with Father-Mother God consciousness. This is in sharp contrast to the way humans were raised.
This is just a spontaneous off-the-top-of-my-head rambling today, to share insight and let you know that, IF you are going a little crazy with all the mood swings and strange sensations that are topsy-turvy and disruptive (more than ordinary) you are not alone. Everyone is going through it now. If you feel out of place and weird and you doctor can't find anything wrong with you, then I want to give you something positive to consider. Be at peace with your heart. Watch my blogs for further hints and instructions. The chakras are pure, unadulterated, cosmic and celestial consciousness with pure happiness, peace, clear vision, hope, love and understanding radiating out into your main body cells. If you will spend time alone and quiet your mind, as in meditation, you will feel much better. And say to your body "I love you lungs, I love you heart, I love you stomach, I love you feet," and to all parts of your body that you can think of. Then sit and feel their response.
This is an easy, simple form of meditation that will hopefully raise your spirits and bring you back in touch with the naturalness of HOME which is your own Father-Mother God Self. You are the child learning from them. You are always at HOME with them in spirit, but not while you're awake and moving about in the human matrix. The human matrix is a big swamp and it drains on us. There are practices and techniques that you can do to diminish the draining, and I would be glad to personally communicate with anyone who writes to me. I am available to guide anyone who needs help. The human matrix is a mind-altering matrix. It feeds negatives into the mix and our minds absorb it through the air we breathe.
Meditate for an hour if you can. Or as long as you can, alone in a quiet place with phones and gadgets turned off. It really does lift your spirits and put you back in touch with your body, which has a network of celestial cosmic light running all through it. It is like a weaving, a fabric of light. Your REAL self. Practice pulling yourself out of the human matrix for periods of time and remove yourself from the human matrix. You WILL ;notice a difference. The ascended masters teach this. I have learned many techniques. It is a science. It islike homework when you are taking a class. You DO have to study and spend time at it.
Our world's old toxic systems are degrading as we as a world move up to higher levels of consciousness. They are being felt as "bad" energies. Don't let them affect you. Each hour or half hour you spend in meditation on loving yourself, will put a circle of light protection around you. We didn't realize it when we are all a part of years ago. But now we are being upgraded and we are getting glimpses of our REAL self - our Father God-Mother God self. We are children of cosmic, celestial parents. We are coming closer to HOME now, little by little. It is done with our attention. Consciousness levels are built from where we put our attention the most. Step by step. The whole earth is coming to a higher place in the universal scheme. Take time to love yourself. Take time to tell your body parts, both inner and outer, "I love you!" and see what they say back to you.
9/30/23 - What really are the chakras?
The chakras have been misunderstood. They are portals. Doorways to other dimensions. Not physical doorways, You can only open them by taking an interest. They are consciousness doorways. Most of the pictures on the internet show a color in the area of a specific location, the heart, throat, abdomen, etc. This is misleading. As I study the teachings of the Master DK, I have found that the chakras are actually located in the center of the spinal column, not out front in the body tissues. Each chakra is vortex of energy leading, if gazed upon long enough, to further entry into this dimension. And each chakra is an entry to a higher or lower dimension. It is similar to a thermometer which registers hot or cold.
In a thermometer, the mercury at the bottom is the liquid that rises as temperatures get warmer. In the chakras, there is a pure light at the tailbone which rises as the consciousness rises, meaning when the interest , happiness or excitement rises. The molecules speed up. The electrons spin faster. The Masters teach their students how to concentrate on a specific location, using visualizing, pictures, concrete words and focus to get something firmly focused in mind. The first chakra is the root chakra at the base of the spine. It is an etheric energy, not physical. So far, science has not been able to measure it. Perhaps one day they will.
The first root chakra energy is pure crystalline energy, God energy except that it is called Mother God energy. Mother meaning mater. The Mother God energy is like the mercury at the bottom of the thermometer. It feeds vitality and life force up the spine in little drips to keep the body alive, but a human being CAN increase the dripping, and does. A human being increases the flow of vitality by raising his consciousness to a happier, more light-hearted level, more joyful, more giving, more benevolent, more service to others, more kind. The person's consciousness is raised to a higher vibration and a higher frequency when he raises his consciouosness. Life also takes on a happier, smoother flow to it. The first root chakra thus speeds up the drips up the spine. As we study and spend time focusing, reading and learning - considering - how our body operates, we come under the tutorship of the Masters. They notice. They know everyone on the planet by the sudden change in intensity of their auric glow.
When we raise our consciousness up to the second chakra, which is at the sacrum level, the area of the sex and reproductive organs, we enter the speeding up the consciousness of freedom. We are aware of more freedom. Freedom in the pure sense. However, we humans experience it as a sexual turn-on. We don't know the whole story of the chakras. All we know is about sex and we either turn it up or turn it off. We have not learned yet how to use the chakras properly. Our education has been poorly lacking. So, for us humans, the pure light energy of the second chakra is either turned off or turned to lust. In its pure state it is brilliant beyond description, but for us it is usually sucked off and drained away into the mix and mess of the body's many parts without direction. It becomes a debit to the overall health of the body. We don't get to maximize brilliant light energy that the chakra COULD give us to revitalize the organs and muscles. It becomes lost in the netherworld of the human condition, random thoughts and emotions.
Fortunately, sex can still be experienced. The orgasm and its beneficial release is still available for humans. But the purity of the second chakra has far more to offer, through the grace of love, allowance and understanding. And we will get there soon, as education is provided. The second chakra is the dimension of freedom. Under ideal conditions exploring sexuality or its equivalent of lovemaking, leads to opening the third chakra.
The third chakra is located at the solar plexus or navel spinal cord. When the individual connects with the light at this level, the divine plan is to bring him into a higher dimension of peace, comfort and understanding. But it the human race it has been compromised. Today the solar plex us filled with emotional confusion, known as the desire body, for we have not had proper schooling on how to maintain peace in our members. We are with fantasies, desires unfulfilled, emotional needs, loneliness, confusions and more. It would be to one's advantage to pull one's meditative focus back out of the tissues in FRONT of the spine and establish a focus of light in the CENTER of the spine. Under ideal conditions, the third higher dimension would lead the consciousness to open the heart chakra, the fourth dimension. This would involve the person in expanding his consciousness of love and higher, nobler virtues. He would expand his ability to love more of life and rise to higher ground within the spiritual or heavenly spheres.
And under ideal conditions, the fourth chakra would stimulate the fifth chakra to open within the spinal cord of the throat. The throat chakra gives the individual the power to understand and speak the truth. Experiences in the fifth chakra under ideal conditions would stimulate the sixth chakra to open - the head chakra known as the third eye. The third eye center opens the inner vision. This would then lead to the opening of the crown chakra which is enlightenment. The Mother God - the individual clothed in form now risen to the highest level possible in matter - then joins with Father God. Androgynous. This can be done while still in body, living as a normal human being. But, the Mother God energy at the base of the spine must rise up the spinal column, INSIDE THE SPINAL COLUMN, NOT OUTSIDE IT, lighting up the main trunk of the spinal tree and branching out through the true and uncompromised branches of the nervous system. He must have explored and expanded himself and gained the wisdom within each of those higher dimensions before he can reach the crown and become enlightened.
Each chakra to be explored is another measuring point up the ladder. Comparing it to the mercury thermometer - heat causes the mercury to rise. In the chakra system it is a balanced consciousness that causes the life force to rise up to the next higher dimension, to open the next chakra. One must use in a positive and noble way all that the body can give him. It is an evolutionary process of intelligence and interest in nobler things. It is the ability to do the right thing, to choose the honorable way. Unfortunately, human beings have not been given this proper instruction. Ascended Master instruction has been withheld over the years and considered whacko, woo-woo, crazy and weird. Only because it has not been told.
Well, this is a very poor synopsis of the chakra system, but I wanted to get it off my chest. I've been thinking about how well the common thermometer is a good example. Because each of our chakras is a marker as we rise up in our ability to be benevolent, wise, honorable and good people. It is not a measure of heat, as our thermometer is, but a measure of heart and soul wisdom, which speeds up the spinning of electrons, which throws off the negativity that is "stuck" in us. The pure, unadulterated spirit is clean, undefiled, unadulterated intelligence. It is your exquisitely high intelligence that has descended down into finite matter, step by step by step through layers of gravity. Your pure God-intelligence broke a little piece off itself off and sent it down to become an anchor for your body to build itself around. We have had many bodies over many lifetimes, most of us, here to gain understanding and experience in how to master the world of form. Some lives were lived not on this world but on other planets of various dimensions. Some of us are super high dimensional already, but still we live on THIS planet and are programmed with THESE laws and limitations. Yet we are all God incarnates when we are in form, and we have access to pure, unadulterated cosmic consciousness in our cells and in our root chakra. The power of the root chakra is called "kundalini" by Eastern mystics, and "the holy spirit" by Western mystics and Christianity.
Our aura is composed of these seven layers of higher dimensions. As we infuse these now-invisible layers of light by learning about them and meditating upon them and visualizing light in the CENTER of the spinal column, we begin to align our seven layers with more harmony and happiness. Light begins to infiltrate our previously shadowy auric field which caused confusion. We can clear our confusion by meditating on the chakras in the spinal column. For a very good and serious study of the chakras, look into the book by Master Djhwal Khul entitled "Intermediate Studies of the Human Aura.'
Focus on the light INSIDE the spine at each chakra point location, not out front in the organs and tissues, as many of the pictures show on the charts. By not understanding how precise this is, we have been generalizing the chakras and allowing them to leak and drain the pure light energy away. It is no different than when electricity is tapped into by an unknown source and diminishes the outflow. Or a water pipe the same way. Let's not be so vague, superstitious and random about the chakras. They are the lights that light up our bodies and our auric field. Most people have not had a masterful education on the chakras. There is a pure cosmic light network that flows through the human body (and all bodies) but the spine is the main cable which carries it up and down, tailbone to crown of head. It leaks away and dumbs us down through ignorance and lack of focus and lack of knowledge. Intelligent study and teachers are required to point the way.
The chakras are doorways to focus on which can lead us to filling our auric field full of LIGHT! Light is vitality and energy when one discovers how to use it by focusing on it and believing in it. Belief is an important part of the process. Those who say, "Hogwash!" are turning away from a truth that could provide a much happier life if a little open-mindedness were appliled. For many, there is parasitic draining and sucking away of pure resurrection energy everyday by those who do not know about this or won't take the time to consider it. The energy is there but it is being ignored and allowed to drain away and used for darker negative ways of live. It allows wrong energy into the main body of tissues that we take for granted, and allows problems to build without our awareness. Awareness is the chief number one asset that we own. We must learn to use it.
Without awareness we continue to allow toxic conditions to build. As the Masters say, it is most important to spend time alone with your thoughts, so you can focus on your own energies. The organs themselves suffer from our lack of attention and love. Yes, they respond to love. Learn to spend time saying, "I love you heart" or lungs, or kidneys. Every day. They will hear you. When we focus attention on them the pure vitality energy is not draining away but building in the same spot, light upon light upon light, building a momentum of intensity and brilliance. This is what composes vitality and physical energy in the same spot. Then, Bingo! The door opens one day and a flood of light vitality springs loose and runs through the body, spreading calm lifting sensations. Vitality is felt as a sudden wham of surprising new energy. It spills out into the consciousness and physical body. What just happened? we might wonder. It is a science that is universal. We just have to tune in and study the universal laws that keep life spinning in top condition.
To diminish the heavy, toxic rumblings and ramblings of past actions that are unfinished, bogging the body and mind down, go back to the light. Figure it out by yourself. No one can tell another what to do. It really is a solitary journey. Everyone has to figure it out for themself. Amplify the light in any way possible. Whatever idea hits your mind. A Master probably gave you a hint. Then turn it up a notch by your own willingness to turn it up and amplify it. A hint is given only once, just to see if you'll catch it. Then they'll watch to see if you'll do anything with it. If you will, then they will give you another hint to go along with it. Develop a routine every day. It is done by spending "time" at it. Spend "time" alone, in meditation, undisturbed, using visualization, affirmations, words spoken out loud. The light in the chakras are real. They are etheric. They are pure and uncompromised by the human condition. They can be magnified and enlarged, expanded upon. Pull them back from vagueries. Put them back into the spinal column which is the main cosmic cable from the root chakra up to the crown, and also goes down into the earth. Don't let them drain off into netherlands where they become compromised. Go back to the light and amplify the light. Your daily practice will help clean up your weaknesses on any and all levels. Give it time.
9/26/23 - Karma and the return of the circle
It occurred to me that the reason I don’t want to teach (from past life memories) is because when I tell something of value to someone else and it is rejected, it takes something away from me. When someone accepts the information they add to the information and they add to me and the universe, they return something back to me and to the universe. They make it better. But those who reject and dismiss take away from the whole. Wise men and women do not go around spouting wisdoms randomly. In fact, in Swami Rama’s book he shows how the sages of the Himalayas don’t encourage visitors. They toss stones at them to drive them away. They don’t want the distractions beause they then open themselves up to fatigue and draining away of their energy.
As Jesus said, “Someone touched the hem of my garment.” He could feel the draining from himself. What you put out comes back to you either weaker or stronger, depending. When a student learns from you, you grow. When a student rejects you or argues with you they detract from you. If they argue with you in an intelligent debate, it is useful and encouraged. But an outright dismissal or flat rejection of something that is valuable to you, it is treated as a debit on the book of your life. It takes something from you. You harmed the universal harmony,. It is the law of the circle. Whatever goes out from you returns to you with other people’s energies attached, good or bad. Good is attached to your good and it increases your vitality, whereas harm is attached to you and becomes a drain on your vitality. You feel it as anger or frustration.
I got this after texting someone on a positive note. He wondered or worried about me getting pancreatic cancer and sent me symptoms. I responded with gratitude, thanking him, because I must value his information. I must value what is valuable to HIM, so he is not drained in return. I must not judge HIS values. They are HIS values and I must respect them even though I don’t value them myself. I am learning how not to argue with people. The wisdom of past life memories!
9/22/23 - The need to ground yourself
Time is speeding up so we have to learn how to move slower, otherwise our heads will start spinning too fast and out of control. The brain is the conveyer of thoughts and thoughts are speeding up, ideas are coming and going faster. Confusions are piling up without decisions being reached. Conflicts are occurring in both the mental and emotional realms. The trick to counteract the speeding up process (i.e., global warming, ascension, evolutionary shift for humankind to higher consciousness realms) is to ground yourself. That means slow down, look within, be kind to yourself, love yourself, build deeper, calmer roots down into the soil where you live. Slow down. Smell the natural woods around you. Use thoughts and feelings of kindness and quietness to calm yourself down. Where your thoughts go there go your feelings.
It is no different than using a ground wire for an electrical device. Electricity needs a receiver on the ground or it will burn itself out. Earth is a receiver. Our bodies are receivers. Grow feelings of calmness into your body. A human will burn itself out if it doesn’t ground its higher crazy energy. The chaos that is happening is because people are becoming more empathic, more sensitive, more refined, more receptive, picking up more of the outside thoughts from other people and not being aware enough to protect themselves. We are moving into higher more rarefied consciousness zones. We don't know this. Scientists have not told us. They may not know themselves. Many are not even aware of it. Our innocence is coming online. We are being purified, purged of exterior toxins that we don't need, want or can use anymore. This is happening below our consciousness level, so I'm writing about it. It is important to realize that we are walking through a maelstrom, a toxic atmosphere m that we can't see with our physical eyes but we can feel. We get disturbing ideas and thoughts and we don't know what to do with them.
Grounding is an ascension technique. There are different ways to ground these energies that come in too fast to process, and there are ways to shield and protect oneself. But the BEST way is to put hands on each other in loving healing caring fashion. Hug, cuddle, touch, massage, stroke, be tender, be kind, be warm, tender, empathetic, sensitive, nurturing and supportive with close friends, family, people you know. Find ways to be human, loving and kind but not sexual. Don't turn it sexual. Sex is too rough. Grounding requires inner calm. Grow sweet inner calm connection within yourself. Better yet, with someone who is able to also be sweet inner calm with you. Become truly focused on your own sense of inner safety, warmth, secure and innocent. It is a meditative state and if you can hold and hug someone who is equally safe, warm and secure, all the better.
There are many ideas coming out on line but they are mostly mental words, devoid of the warmth of inner security, calm, peace and love. They are words being parroted by a third party. The ego likes to copy but doesn't know how to create for itself. The ego is a cold abstract thought built or passed on by the brain. It is the human HEART that gives love and warm support, healing and emotional nourishment. It is rare to find someone who is selfless enough to do that with, but you can do that for yourself. I am sure there are some few people around who might know how, but please be discerning and understand the difference between a needy person and a selfless loving person.
How to ground? What does that mean? This is a metaphysical teaching. I have been writing about it and practicing it for years. Meta means referring back into itself. Metaphysical means look again inside the physical, and this time look deeper, below the surface. There is something that you are missing. Metaphysical means occult. Occult means hidden. It is not apparent on the surface, on the outer skin. It is in the warm feeling of tenderness hiding within, waiting to be touched and appreciated. Grounding is that touch of appreciation. It requires looking within oneself to start generating self love and grounding roots into ones own body. If you are fortunate to have someone to ground with you can also hug with at the same time, who can als look within themself too, at the same time as hugging and holding you, then you are in good fortune. Be close that person and see them often. Comfort one another. Be authentic and appreciate one another. Hug and be close.
9/19/23 - A new technique to learn: focus on comfort!
This morning I felt to write: The ascension tool that will help you the most thru the day is peace and comfort. Focus on being comfortable. Find comfort in you. The sense of comfort is something that you can develop with some guidance in the form of words. Words are powerful transmitters of knowledge and energy. They can be used against you or for you to benefit you. Here we are giving some natural, persuasive positive advice that you can use in your day-time activities. It takes focus in the sense of concentration. Comfort begins by seeking out of comfort. Say you are ready to vacuum the floor. You get out the cleaner from the storage closet. You do this mechanically – just as you start typing mechanically.
First before moving, find comfort in your mind. It is a frequency. It is a sense and a presence of comfort. You can feel it if you search for it. You start out in the mechanical habit. It is a habit, a work and you get into work mode. It could be anything else that you do during your day, everyone has different tasks that they do. Any work task that is mechanical that you do, you’ve done it so many times before and it's no longer exciting and you are not enthusiastic. Stop! Stop everything and find the comfort frequency in your mind. Find a comfortable attitude and feeling in your mind. You may not know how to do this but it is a meditative state. Where your mind goes, there goes your energy, the real thing. Let your mind go to comfort. You are the director and controller of your energies. You may have to work at this awhile but success could come right away.
You are a master. You know. You have had prior life training. It could kick in within moments. I am pointing you inward to find a comfortable attitude or body pose, or feeling that feels comfortable to you. Can you feel it? Stop and consider being comfortable, even as you roll out the vacuum cleaner. Continue holding that thought of comfort as you plug the vacuum in. Hold it as best you can. This is practice. Your mind will try to speed up. It will try to take over and push you to forget comfort. Your ego has been in control for a long time in your outer world habits. Make it stop. Make it sit outside of your brain, on your left shoulder. Picture a little entity sitting on your left shoulder. You have ousted it from control. You are asserting your mastery over it. Feel comfortable inside of your head. Maintain an attitude of peace and comfort physically and mentally, as you do the task of pushing the vacuum around. This practice in awareness is called being mindful. Consider yourself and your own sense of comfort. It is a pleasure zone. Comfort is peaceful and it is pleasurable. It is used as an interface between hard work which is forced work and often painful, and what is naturally comfortable and peaceful. Consider this an intervention. You are intervening in your ego’s control system. You are taking over with conscious mindfulness and deliberate intention to oust the “hard work” demon.
Working hard is not required to live in a body on earth. Working softly is the way to move into happiness and pleasure, even as you perform your tasks throughout the day and fulfill your obligations to those around you. Move about with comfort and peace. At first it may be difficult if you come from a hard-working family, but it is worth the effort. Even as you type this, your back is painful. You are trying too hard and getting ahead of yourself. When you get ahead of yourself, you leave your body behind. You abandon your body. You are no longer in charge of your body and your body does not have a resident soul inside of it then. Lead with your mind first, focused on peace and comfort. Your mind will not let you abandon your body. Use your mental intention to slow down. Find peace and comfort MENTALLY. It is available to you. Find it with your mind. It is within you to access it. Do you want to access it?
Focus on the comfort of your skin and muscles and your brain/mind, mentally. Be a wakeful practitioner of walking comfort and peace. See if you don’t enjoy benefits from this practice. Do not let the light go out, is the message from the sun. Remember? It is a work that must be ever intentional. Ongoing. Use your mind to start the process. Don’t give up your peace and comfort to someone else or something else that disturbs you and takes your focus away from your control. You control your emotional state with your mind. Never give up your power of mind to someone or something else. That’s when your emotions play havoc with your feelings.
9/18/23 - The power of regeneration is in your heart, not your mind
The power of the heart is the most amazing power you will ever find, but you'll have to discover this for yourself. The power of healing is in the ability to love and focus love within youSELF so that love springs up into action - you start the primal pumping action yourself - and then it starts to spread and expand outward like heat from a wood camp fire. It spreads outward through your blood circulation system, heart pumping it, and through the nerves and endocrine systems and all the other systems that your body has built into it. Start the fire going yourself.
That is the power of the heart that the Masters have been talking about since forever. Also that religion has been talking about, that the priests, avators, saints and mystics have been talking about. It is power beyond human imagination. But all this talk about the heart has become so boring and humdrum that most people overlook it. It is too trite. It has become obsolete and no one is paying attention. But it is the power of life eternal and it will change everything from top to bottom. I'm being tuned in. Am I the only one to see it? It will turn life upside down if only you would "GET IT!" It is that part of the human body that draws us out to love one another, to reach for one another, to hug one another and be a living, kindly, passionate helper of one another. We WANT to serve others and help others and be kind to one another but we have built iron and steel shields around our hearts. The heart is suffering breakdowns. It is the n;umber one health problem we have today. We did this as a means of protection and defense against being hurt, but it is exactly the wrong thing to do. We are hurting ourselves. It is the OPPOSITE that we need to to do. Break down those doors of steel and iron, bust them wide open and start shining yourself out lovingly, kindly, with forgiveness, with happiness, joy, peace, love, light. And then give some more love. Give MORE love! And MORE, and MORE, and MORE love. It's the opposite of what we've been doing.
I've been writing about it for years and I keep getting more insight. The more I share by focusing on my words of love, the more love I am shown. It goes further out and further out and further out. This is what love means. The more you apply it, the more it spreads. The more wood you put on the campfire, the more heat and light you get. Our hearts - our physical hearts - are built to hold the fires of life in them and to circulate that life throughout the rest of the body. It's our main pumping organ. Our hearts are in our chest. Put your mind into your heart and imagine a bonfire building there. Put your hands upon your chest, your heart in your chest and imagine the heat coming from your hands into your heart. The more you do this, and the more you imagine the fire burning there in your heart, the more you are building the fire of love and radiating it out into your auric field to influence the world around you. This is what all the religions were trying to say and teach but it got scrambled along the way. Put the fire back into the heart, and out of the mind. The fire will bring back the miracles. It is a science. It is precise. It is the universal law of the universe. It is what suns are for - to radiate the light and love to planets in their orbs. It is cosmic law. It is what keeps the planets in balance around suns. The understanding will spread deeper and deeper and deeper and become more understandable and more significant, the more you do this. You are part of the oneness of all there is, and yet you are also an individual who is human and who cares and feels compassion and love for others like yourself. You are the valuable one. You are the pumper and the radiator of love and light and peace and good will to help your brothers and sisters.
Today I posted the Arcturians' message as channeled through Daniel Scranton (HERE). The
Arcturians say it is our one mission to raise our vibration. Our vibration is raised through the heart and held back by the shields we wrap around our hearts that hold us enslaved and prisoners to someone else's laws that keep us from expressing FREELY what we want to express. Our vibrations will increase and radiate more heat and light and love freely and materialize more quickly whwen we make it a priority in your life today to express love instead of keeping it hidden. The Arcturians advise us tomorrow when you wake up, check in to see where your vibration is before your feet hit the floor. Usually, you can shift your vibration pretty easily, when you catch it early on.
I myself have started doing this several weeks ago upon waking up, before stirring and hitting the bathroom, and it is definitely shifting my attention and focus to the betterment. The Arcturians say, "Before you get into your conversations and your actions of the day, take care of what matters, and everything else in your world will reflect it to you. That’s the type of world you want to be living in, and you have the power to put yourself in it right now."
Universal Law is often referred to as quantum physics and the laws of vibration. Remember that it’s your own light, your own inner decisions, your own vibrations that you radiate that determine so much of what happens to yu. Really, nothing happens TO you. It happens because of you. (From Today's Posts the Collective by Caroline Ocean Ryan.)
9/15/23 - The more you express yourself the more you are fed the vital force
As I woke up five months ago I heard words speaking in my mind: "You are not a body but a sphere of light, of consciousness. You are inhabiting your body.” The lecture continued and I reached for the pen and paper and began writing it down.
"You had time during embryo stage to become accustomed to it. You helped it, or saw it being built cell by cell, atom by atom, so you are aware of how your body looks and operates. You know its purpose intimately, and after your body – not YOU but your body was born - you had time in the new world of people and objects to learn how to use it, the body. You learned how to move the legs, the arms, the head, stomach, to eat, to make noise, to respond, to feel arms holding you. And slowly you identified with your body and became familiar with it. You did it before, with other bodies, many lifetimes past, but you conveniently forget that now, in your dedicated focus on THIS one.
So you are not your body. You are the conscious sphere of light and intelligence that moves your body and enjoys its sensations. There are seven layers of specific gifts that you have built into your sphere of light. If your culture doesn’t teach you about these qualities – love is one of them – then they remain in the background of your life as an attractive feature to you. You dream of love. Also truth is another natural quality in you but often the culture doesn’t value truth or highlight it so it is in the background.
As I said, there are seven gifts that you are here to use and activate during your life. You are here to learn how. Just seven. These are called the seven bodies. There are many names given to them, many experiences and many approaches. Names are important to learn, but how you apply these gifts and qualities and use them in your daily life is what matters the most. The application of your creative ability is put to the test. You are here in a body of form to learn how to USE these qualities every day. This is the hard part. You have to figure it out because these gifts are who you are. They are built into you. They ARE you. You ARE the gifts. You came here to gift them to the world of form life, and there are forces against you to stop you from manifesting who you are. So you get frustrated, but you have intelligence and stubbornness and patience and love and purity and truth and kindness and determination and wisdom from past life experiences. You have skills that you have acquired over these lives. You have logical, mathematical, scientific methods that you have proved to yourself that WORK for you. The innate sense of right and wrong is for you alone, because you have experienced it.
You experience peace vs. pain, and comfort vs. discomfort. You have learned. You know this instinctively. When you learn to organize all seven of your gifts, your innate qualities together so they are all functioning well together, harmonized together, then you will feel free. Free to live your life the way you want to live it, happily and with comfort and pleasure and love. You have it all. You have all that you need to live here in harmony and peace with others. You are not missing anything or feeling lack anywhere, and you are fulfilling your desire to be here. Your will to live is strong in you. You are using your intelligence to figure out the best way to accomplish what you want to accomplish. You have been using your love and kindness to work well with others. You are using your purity, and your truth and your sense of peace and comfort. You are using, applying, manifesting all of your gifts and qualities together, when you reach that point of perfection, and then you are home FREE!
The seventh gift is freedom in form. The seven chakras have been broken. They were veils and closed gates to you until you mastered them, one by one. You had to open them from inside, by applying your innate gift, the right gift to the right situation, in order to correct the wrongs of a certain scheme that had to play out in your life. You had to find the right approach to take. It had to be mastered before you could feel right about yourself being here. You had to feel free about yourself, and peaceful at the same time with that circumstance or situation. Once you felt right about it, then you were done with it. The situation changed and disappeared, or got better and more beautiful.
Learning to live whole and free in form life, especially on planet Earth, has been a hard school. But you had built-in tricks up your sleeve. You were not sent here without help. You are your father’s child. You have his qualities in you. It rings like a crystal clear bell striking inside you in purity. You know when you have the right solution. Your mother is with you all the way through the form life. She is the mother of form life. She is with your intelligence, holding your body together. Pain is telling you something. Peace and kindness are telling you something. Struggle is telling you something. This is your mother talking to you. Not this way! THIS way! Use your innate sensibilities within you and listen to your mother!
Kirlian photography has captured proof of the real you in the form of a glowing radiation around you. You are not your body. You are the space holding your body together. Your body requires atoms and electrons clinging together to form cells and molecules, organs and larger material that gives shape and function to your body. You are the intelligence holding your cells together. You have access to the seven gifts within your intelligence. When you sleep at night, you travel and meet others and learn and teach as appropriate.
The more refined you become in THIS body you currently inhabit, the better you harmonize your form life and the situations you live within, the more at peace you become and the less able you are to live in the backward culture of those who are not at your level of knowledge yet. Then it is that your inner gifts begin to be seen by others who have not yet mastered their own inner qualities. And you become a beloved light to the world around you. By sharing (showing or expressing) your gifts openly, freely, daringly, courageously, frankly, ,truthfully, the more you receive the vitality of youth and vigor. The power of life surges through you more. The urge and the drive grows to continue serving those around you. You do not want to leave you.
Now you are fluctuating between wanting to leave, and wanting to stay here to serve. You are noticing a lessening of the desire to leave the form world, the sick feeling you call it. The more you express yourself the more you are fed with this vital force. God is here expressing. It is an open channel to the God realms, Source, Home, where you originated. It is exhilarating to bring heaven to earth into form! It is exciting! And more!
(End, I ran out of words. Finished. Journal 4/25/23)
9/14/23 - Recognize the fire of your own creation: it is love
Words “Recognize the fire of your own creation.” These words came to me in the shower. Yesterday I looked into Fortitude. 85 years and I never looked! Fortitude is bearing pain, enduring adversity or simply discomfort. For me it’s simply discomfort. Years of being blinded to the pain and adversity because I focused so much on loving and helping others, I wondered all the while where does my fire and determination come from that I feel? I didn’t understand that I myself have been evolving thru transcendence - thru the transcendending bliss of love. I know how to transcend adversity.
The key word given to me yesterday was fortitude. A word that sparked curiosity in me. What did it mean? It means enduring thru adversity and pain and getting thru it, past it, to the other side of it. The quickening takes place during the hard times of one who is willing to stick it out. The part is yours to fulfill. Do you renig? Or play it out to a conclusion? This is where the fire comes from. Or not. It is inside of you. The portal, the door, the resources, the tank is full inside of you. The fuel is there. Will you draw upon it? If you agree to go thru with it, you open the fuel tank and it starts flowing thru you.
I didn’t know. I knew the pain, suffering and heart-ache, yes, of course. Doesn't everyone? But surprisingly I knew the love too. I have traveled a long way up this mountain and I am seeing the stars shining during the daytime. They are suns, each of them. I am entering the higher realms. I am sending this message back down the slopes of this mountain: “Don’t give up! There is a new plateau ahead. A new kindness, a new surge of life and excitement and clarity and comfort and peace and communities of like-minded people waiting for you to join them. Remember the love. Apply the love at every turn. Love is the pathway to the stars.
9/12/23 - The physical nerves are not made of substance but consciousness
I am seeing ancient light, experiencing ancient light – light/life from past embodiments. They are coming forth and I am reclaiming them. This is so very real for me. I see it and experience it. It is lighting me up on the inside! Also the brain tapping is helping a lot too. Found it on the internet, there is a lot of good information there re: brain tapping. It hurts like needles going into the head on the surface, but consciously I’m seeing the energies penetrating deep into the locked-up energies that are literally stuffed and stacked and crammed inside the head because of the world view that we are accustomed to, that we believe we are only physical and ALL OUR EXPECTATIONS are physically focused. Everything we believe is physically concentrated on physical end results.
Whew! This new realization is stunning. I see that the nerves, the physical nerves, are literally composed NOT OF SUBSTANCE, but of consciousness. As consciousness is applied, it wakes up the ancient light in the body that has been stuffed down and compacted and is suffering pain, disease, recurrent chronic illness from believing it's real. It’s not real. It's amazing!
9/10/23 - Working with the lower body to raise it up
Upon awakening I received words: “Do the physical movements every morning for two weeks.” Establish a routine for your body. Your body will adjust. You DO have complete control over what’s happening inside of you. The nerves are literally composed NOT OF SUBSTANCE, but of consciousness. As consciousness is applied, it wakes up the ancient light in the body that is suffering pain, etc.
So I see that I've got to work with the lower body more, work it out. I’ve been too much above in the higher realms, I haven’t raised the lower body well. I've got to understand what I’m doing here. The coccyx, sacrum and navel, the first, second and third chakras. I must understand them better, connect better, help lower body be part of the system. Bring it into peace. The words keep coming: "You don’t build a skyrise by digging into the ground and laying the concrete cement over and over again and again, ad infinitum. You build the next higher level over on top of it. Build it UP. Build it UP with finer words and tools and grace and song and thought and feeling and inspiring thoughts and acts and deeds of higher more refined works and expressions outward into the world of people.
Learn how to love higher, wider, more benevolently, that serves the greater whole, the greater good, the greater plan, the greater vastness of eternity which is nowhere but HERE NOW, NOW HERE, nowhere else but HERE. Raise it higher. Raise your consciousness higher. Let the old traumas and resentments go. Let it go! Give it a rest! Bury it in the earth with forgiveness, mercy, understanding, compassion for all the wrong thoughts you sent out. Forgive yourself. Forgive those who you believed made you do it. Forgive them. They did not make you do it. You relinquished your power. You gave yourself up. Take yourself back.
9/9/23 - The Light Club vs. the Love Club
One morning not long ago I woke up aware of holding light over my second chakra. I wasn't sure how I got here, but I am seeing my awareness from an observer's perspective, from outside of myself. I see my own awareness as a fuzzy light, a cloud of light, lighting up the area around the second chakra, the area where I first felt the “click” of kundalini long ago. It has been painful lately, until I began the tennis ball treatment, rolling on tennis balls stuffed in a sock. Now it’s relaxing. I went back to sleep and woke again at 3 am and saw Doug sitting up and I thought to put Light like the sun inside his head for him, to perk him up. I did and then went back to sleep again, saying as I drifted out, “I will remember my dreams when I wake up.”
When I woke up next I saw my own light inside my body, like a fuzzy cloud lighting up the inside of me. I was shown that THIS is how we merge our spirit with our physical body. This is the salvation, the reclaiming of the ancient light left behind in decomposing old corpses. It is the next step for me to learn this process and do it with a LIVING body, to resurrect a live body before it dies. I am seeing it from an observer's perspective, not subjectively as from inside but from outside. Most people are not aware of this reclaiming process of the light, it is an esoteric teaching of the Masters. I am aware what a great privilege this is, a great gift being given to me right now to see this. This is a rare occult process, to be conscious of this and to be gifted with sight to see this with a first hand view of it – it’s truly a remarkable spiritual gift. And it came to me after I gave the gift of the sunlight first to Doug.
I thanked DK for this gift and he said, “No, it was not me. Light is meant to be given. Light has to shine and go somewhere. Light’s very nature is to light up areas, to increase the light, to expand the light and bestow life wherever there is an opening. You have asked for more light and you are being gifted with more light. You’ve done the homework, put in the effort. Light is the creator. The creator is LIGHT! Light radiates. Light moves out to expand the light of information and knowledge in the area around it wherever it can. Light distributes information. Light enlightens. Light waves through the darkness. Light keeps expanding and revealing itself to form new life."
I went to sleep again and woke up again with an additional thought. Why do I say “not sex please” when I contemplate the Love Club and Ascension Massage? Because the Love Club is actually the Light Club. And Light is freedom, Light is unconditional. Sex is a thing, an object, a form of physical. It is narrowed down because in order to make a form, there has to be boundaries. Sex has boundaries. Sex is a funnel shaped thing asking people to fill it. The Light Club’s intention is to expand the view, not contract it, to widen the perspective and enjoy the freedom that comes with that expansion and widening. Sex is too narrow and too focused. The Light club is a shining to all around. It is Love in the unconditional or infinite range. It is not selective or objectified.
Yes, you can create form life with Light. You can create wars and chaos and hatred and judgmental situations with Light. But God's intention (the good intention) is to use light as an ENHANCEMENT and a joy within form life, not to hold life back. We are to learn how to work with Light IN FORM, and how to make it beautiful, enjoyable, pleasurable, exciting, creative, abundant and pleasurable for all. Benevolence for all. The problem is that many shut the light off and the light contracts, dims down, dulls off into gray and darkness.
Lack of light creates unhappy situations, pain and tragedy. Learn how to work with Light. Find the middle place where form life and non-form life exist together and where they create a flowing, like a river of flowing life and light particles. Learn how to have a joyous, happy, exhilarating, uplifting, elevated and abundant fun life together, moving in and out of form, lifting form, descending into form, lifting light up out of form, descending down into form, lifting up like a wave and down like a wave. I am reminded that vibration comes in frequencies of low and high. I looked up Hertz and vibration. Using frequency and vibration creates heavenly symphonies of rhythm, dance, movement and pleasurable, ecstatic combinations to be enjoyed by all.
9/8/23 - The laws of harmony vs. laws of separation
The universe operates on the law of harmony or synthesis, whereas mankind has been operating on the law of separation. DK informed me that when I massage X, a close lady friend whom I knew in a prior life, I allow a blend to occur between her energy field and my own. The normal human ego respects another person’s radiation and does not interfere with it. He or she stops short of blending with another, which allows a boundary to exist between them. The law of separation. There are hard edges between one person and another. It is called respecting free will.
Symbiosis is defined as the interaction between two different organisms living in close physical association, typically to the advantage of both. Symbiosis is the “tilting of the law of gravity” in favor of blending separate fields, whereas the law of gravity pulls toward the center of each one, not allowing a blend to occur. So “tilting the law of gravity” is a way of blending and merging people’s individual fields. This is good! It is healthy, DK is advising. The flash event is when everyone will turn toward the law of harmony and away from the law of free will and separate boundaries.
I myself have been following the light in my cells rather than the dark in my cells, which is the artificial laws of the culture. Therefore in intimate closeness I follow the light in the other person over the darkness in the other person. The darkness could be defined as the artificial intelligence in a person or the shadow side or separate side of that person that keeps him or her isolated, separate and apart from blending with others. When I follow the light in the other person this allows me to blend with that person, not stay separate from them. It feels good to me and to both of us. It is the magic of love and light. However I must be careful because it does erase lines of former contracts made within relationships, like "until death do we part". My approach to love and light could therefore introduce jealousy into a couple’s relationship.
The light in me is getting stronger. It is seductive. I yearn to reach out and blend with people, I yearn to become one with the person. The person whose light is also growing stronger will respond to me so I must be careful and considerate. This morning during meditation I saw deeper than usual. I saw that transfiguration is the precursor to physical ascension. Ascension follows, when light becomes sufficiently strong to take over the shadow side. The flash event then may occur for an individual. Can we hold it back? I’ve been wondering about that. The yearning is growing stronger. The massage with my lady friend is naturally transcending for both of us. She has a need for healing and as I supply the treatment there is healing in BOTH of us. We both benefit from the joining. A need is fulfilled. As I finish the massage I feel I complete and can stop now.
9/6/23 - Loving sex - the one act that can make spiritual progress
Understanding is an aspect of your feeling nature. You don’t get to feel them until you accept them and allow them. These original ideas from higher source, are down in the inner layers of your body. Discernment is required however, for you are constantly picking up thoughts from the air around you which is teeming with a myriad human-related thoughts that are not pristine and pure, but heavy and clogged with negatives. But when you can discern a divine idea and allow yourself to receive this divine idea into your inner layers, you are giving the idea “body”. You are incorporating the idea bringing it more fully into manifestation. The idea or thought must be felt by your body to become manifested, because you, yourself, are a body that has been manifested by the creator. YOU are God/Goddess in sentient form. None of your body parts are solid or physical. All of you, your body, is composed of atoms and electrons swirling around the neutron and proton at the center of the atom. The atom is composed of these little particles of light. The space BETWEEM the particles is space which you own, temporarily, while you are incorporated or incarnated in this body of yours. You are incorporated - incarnated - in a body for the specific purpose of receiving the divine flow from source creator, your own higher self. There is a wish and suddenly a thought pops up wanting to be sentient. You, by understanding, are receiving the divine instructions from your own higher source to manifest this idea. But you can’t if you brush it off and ignore it. It is through your allowing it into you feeling nature that you manifest this wish of the creator. Feeling is how you connect with your neighbors and others. You cannot manifest alone all by yourself. You are not a solitary island in the middle of the ocean. Manifesting into form requires ideas from the divine to coalesce and clump together in order to create form and substance which, to you in your dimension, appears physical and solid.
You have created instruments to measure solidarity versus gases and liquids and now your dimension is expanding to measure and define the Light, which is in the descension process of forming matter. This lesson is to focus on your feeling nature. Your understanding is how you manifest in the “real” world, the world of the physical. The old control system of what you call the patriarchy, was control by outsiders, not you. They taught you not to pay attention to feelings. And those in male bodies became the guardians of control. They were trained and programmed by master mind controllers, to not allow feelings to enter this reality, this dimension on earth, which is herself a divine manifestation, not solid. They, the outsiders, took over the manifestation process millions of years ago. They are against love because love would make everything and everyone equal and happy, and they choose to be the powerful controllers over a race of slaves. That is their joy. They are the dark side, and they conquered this planet and have been preventing the full incorporation of the source idea trying to manifest into physical sentience.
They can do this with humans but they cannot stop sexuality from taking place, nor can they stop the orgasm from happening, for that is the only way to keep the human race reproducing. That is the one loophole which saves mankind, and this is how feeling may come in, and the connection to God/Goddess may happen through sexuality and lovemaking. But it’s complicated. Yes, this is how the God/Goddess connection can happen, but if mankind is ignorant of the FACT that love must be used during the sex act, then the spiritual progress will not be made. It is through feeling the LOVE that spiritual peace is found. The loophole exists only because mankind has allowed the love to NOT be present during the one act in all of human life, that can create spiritual progress. Human males FEEL through the sex act, even if it is only for a brief moment. That is why the women are becoming empowered. The women hold the solution to bringing forth more love, which men have seriously shut down in their focus. The dark controllers could not shut that down because that would have stopped - brought to an end - to the human race and they did not want that to happen. Instead, they wanted to control the sex. They created animosity between men and women. To reverse this sorry plight, we need more feelings. My mission is to educate and write about the feeling nature and how it works. End. (Archive 10/1/19)
9/5/23 - Cuddle parties?
Yesterday I posted on my Ascension Massage page a spontaneous message about cuddling with me. It was revelatory. For me. I received inner validation from higher sources in many ways. So I am re-posting it here on my blog. The whole point of being here in a body is to EXPRESS yourself, fluidly, flowingly, easily, happily. When we hold back expressing our truth, our desires, our feelings, we are holding back the main purpose for why we were born. We are stifling ourselves and it's no wonder that we suffer! I have been fighting this for many, many years, thinking I had to go along with other people. No. Don't go along with other people's desires. Be intelligent, yes, be considerate yes, but not to the point of surrendering your will to other people. Go with your OWN desires and wishes.
(Yesterday's posting:) At 1 am in the night I awoke with words in my mind: “Will you cuddle with me without sex, naked? or semi-naked? Open and free? Playful, innocent, child like? Not serious, not romantic, just light-hearted giggling fun? Be free, let go, be loose, as if we’’ve done it a thousand times before? It will raise the life force in both of us. The point is to awaken the beautiful warm loving more refined energies in each of us. I’d like to practice this with a man preferably, someone who understands the why of it. But not to rule out a woman either, if there is one who'd like to try this with me. The man is a test. Can he do it without wanting or pressing for sexual action? I don’t want that. I want higher, lighter, refined, exquisite, easy, fun-loving, playful, happy, free cuddling. It is such a good feeling when there are no expectations of sex. We open doorways and chakras all the way up the spine.
I asked Mary Magdalene what she thought about this, and got a “Yes” for a reply. I also asked Yeshua and got a “It’s an ascension technique!” for a reply - and a wide, wide swing of the pendulum saying YES! I asked DK and got “Definitely! Go for it girl! Definitely,” and a wide wide swing of the pendulum. And a kudu from Saint Germain in an article I read this morning (see today's postings).
This posting breaks all protocol. I’m bored with tradition of being careful, being polite. I'm leaping over the backyard fence into freedom. This is like the early days of my swinging but without the sex. Only spontaneous fun, free fun-loving cuddles together – MY type of fun! I’m looking for fun-loving partners. I can’t ask people to do it way if they don't want to. But I can ask if there is anyone out there who wants to play the game with me. It’s about activating the bioenergy - the crystal light that is the life force within every living thing. We live and breathe because of the crystal light within us. We’ll be activating this fiery bioenergy in us with our light-hearted cuddling. About an hour or so together in my house. No cost involved. It's an experiment. The solar diamond crystal light is the creative force in all living things, it's been buried under layers of protocol and laws. I've been trying to be polite about it to eeeaaassse an understanding into the picture, but it's taking too long. Let's try the cuddling method.
This requires not having any expectations of sex. Let all expectations go. Rise up higher and more fun loving. Sex is not on the agenda. It'll be about an hour in my house. As we freely cuddle with a higher goal in mind we’ll be connecting our crystal diamond life force together. It will feel good, I promise you - as long as you don't get frustrated because you have another agenda in mind. I'm taking a big risk here putting it out onto the internet, but I'm ready if you are. We will feel feelings not down in the lower genitals bult warmly happy and free all thru the body. This is a new healing method. I felt it at swing parties. It was awesome but it was always redirected to "down" into the physical genitals, the main theme of swinging. It was playful at first for me, but then the pressure was on to go heavier, denser and lower, with more expectations, and I would have to hold back my fun-loving side. Why? I don’t know why. But now it’s MY turn to find some playmates to do it MY way. I’ll post the concept here and see what happens. Contact me thru the contact page.
9/4/23 - Do you know that we are transitioning, leaving the 3rd D?
(January 2023) During the exercises on this particular morning I had lots of inner stimulation, lots of lower spine radiation, the cells were sensuous. Awesomely sensuous! I was so connected into my light body, or etheric body, not sure which. In med room from 10 to 11:15 but time doesn’t count any more because I’m connecting all morning, even while in bathroom and making the bed and writing it down on paper. Last night I had renewed vigor and massaged Doug’s legs like I hadn’t done before, then his feet. I had lots of motivation. I wanted to share, I suppose, I had excess energy. I knew things and wanted to put it to work. I researched the Vegus Nerve too, and reconnected with that nerve, it’s the longest nerve in the body and connects into everything., all organs. I copied some articles and sent them to myself. I did some rubbing on my back after Doug went to sleep, did some belly breathing and rubbing of my neck, throat and stomach and back while in bed. Doug slept beside me as I did the Vegus Nerve belly breathing, remembering as I went to sleep. And in the morning I woke up with dreams fading of the Light withdrawing, remnants of broken dreams.
They were of me reaching up to the light that is coming down into the top of my head in a stream of dazzling white light. It is ME coming down. My own I AM Presence, or higher self, my greater self. My ME! It is not anyone else but ME! I AM my own greater self. It has been broken up and shattered, this stream of light that is ME!. Of elegance, pure, crystal clear knowing of myself. It is me in clarity but it is broken and shattered as soon as it reaches my dense bodily head and brain, my body. This body has been educated to close it off and think of myself and others as “just a form”, just physical, here today, gone tomorrow. I’ve been raised in a garden and a home that is solid prison walls, shutting this clarity and everlasting knowledge out. I keep it out by distraction. Getting up in the morning and focusing on what happened yesterday. Picking up where I left off yesterday. I keep reconnecting into the broken past, the illusion of the past, the drama and problems of yesterday. They mean well, my family and friends, but I am now bored with it. I am now connecting back into my brilliance. It is streaming during the night as I sleep. But now I’m waking up to this old yesterday drama and I am back in the broken world again, and my stream of brilliance and clarity and knowingness, and being connected to brightness, light, joy, realization of wonderment and enlightenment, flowing, I AM flowing with knowing – but it is breaking up now as I get up out of bed. This flowing of light and knowing is dissipating, is breaking up and shattering and I am losing it. It is disappearing into dullness again. Grayness. Ordinariness is taking over. I wake up with a sigh, saying “I praise thy holy name, oh light of immortality that lives within all beings.” It is a left-over from where I came from. I am still saying it, trying to hang on to the fading glow and glory in an attempt to hold onto it, the connection to this power, this light, this joy, refreshing me.
Suddenly I see the faces of people everywhere, all who like me are looking up at themselves with joy and rapture on their faces, people everywhere radiating and looking up, with light pouring down in a single beam dazzling pure light entering into the crown of their head. We are all trying to hold onto the connection with the light, but it is wavering and breaking up. Distortions are entering. I continue to call out the words silently: “I praise thy holy name, oh light of immortality that lives within all beings.” I continue to try to hold the vision of the people all doing the same thing. Repeating the call, holding onto the light by looking up, seeing the pure stream of light up beyond us, holding the connection steady, speaking words up into the light above us, and holding, holding, holding the connection with the pure, untainted divine light of our soul, our God Selves, our REAL selves, our truth, our abundance, our clarity, our ideal, our perfection, our joy, our ecstasy, our rapture. “I praise thy holy name oh light of immortality that lives within all beings.” I repeat this as I wake up and sit up on the side of the bed. I try to keep repeating it as the vision starts to waver and break up. I get up and go to the bathroom for my usual routine while saying the words over and over silently in my mind, even though it is fading, but I keep holding onto it as I brush my teeth and start the shower and step in. This I know will help me build the momentum, my clarity, my connection with my own individual God I AM that I Am. I suggest to myself to say the words silently, “I Am that I Am” 40, 50 times, focusing this light down into my heart, seeing the picture of the light streaming down through the top of my head, and see it come down into my heart and anchor it there, see my heart building the light into a fire. “I praise they holy name, oh light of immortality that lives within ME!”
In the bathroom I suddenly see the hollow tube going down my spine. It is gifted to me. It goes down through the center of my body. It is hollow. There is nothing in it to obstruct the flow. The hollow tube goes all the way down to – where? I don’t see. My vision is obscure below a certain point, below the heart. I continue with the words “I praise thy holy name, oh light of immortality that lives within MY BODY!” My body is important. I am drawing my consciousness and my ability to visualize down inside of me, lower into my body. Lower than I’ve gone before. The walls of this inner hollow tube are not solid, as I thought at first they were. They are soft, softly subtle. They are made of light. So subtle I didn’t see it at first. I couldn’t make it out at first. Only the main channel extending down from the crown of my head was open to my vision. I will continue holding the visual of light, dazzling light streaming down from somewhere above me, lighting up this main tube that runs down to my lower parts. It is my ability to hold my attention still and conscious. Then the obscurity opens up to me. Is this the pain I’ve been feeling in my lower back and abdomen? Why I’ve been led to reach up first and to then bring the light from above me down? It is as if my lower back pain is blocked. I can feel it blocked through the pain, the aching dull pain is very loud. It is holding me in a tight squeeze, like a girdle. I keep stroking and rubbing my lower back, hoping to release it. Several days ago I was shown the sacrum and the four holes in the sacrum bone out of which nerves come. I think that’s what they are there for. This picture became clearer over the last few days. I’ve been led to re-examine craniosacral therapy. I found Paula Terry. Someone I met through Tamsen, who has a training and therefore holds a concept of the cranioscral flow, even if limited to physical. Still it is an educational focus that craniosacral therapists have. They are trained by John Upledger, who now has schools around the world.
9/2/23 - The physical is de-stabilizing
In the shift to higher enlightenment (higher dimensions of knowledge and awareness), the physical body is de-stablizing. You are the light shining thru your physical. The only thing holding your physical body together are old energies, old patterns, old facts and sure-solid beliefs. At one time those facts were true and you built on them a reality that played out. But you are now a clearer light shining thru those old beliefs and they are breaking up and going away. All your promises aren't real any more because you made them based on the now-dissolving old reality. I am seeing this very clearly.
The physical world as we knew it is changing, but it is changing only as we allow it to change and accept the changing. Don't hold on any more to yesterday's dream and that which was foretold. It no longer exists. We are moving into a new place, a new time, a new excitement, a new timeline. Don't try to keep old promises. They are no longer relevant. There is a new Plan coming to all of us. This is a bright new revelation coming in now.
8/31/23 - Part 2 - The Christ in the heart, by DK
“Start this method by first sending yourself love and light. Picture your own heart in your chest with a bubble of exquisite light around your heart. See or picture a single flame inside your physical heart. This flame is called the three-fold flame. It is one flame with three qualities built in – love, wisdom and power. Love is pink on the left and is your divine Mother. Power is blue on the right and is your divine Father. And in the center is you, the golden flame, you are the child who leans first left into your Mother for guidance and then right into your Father for guidance. You are learning from your own higher self, which is within your heart at all times in the form of your Mother and your Father. You do not need to reach UP above your head, because your own beloved “I Am Presence” is in your heart, your physical heart, in the three-fold flame. This “I Am Presence" is the three-fold flame in your heart. It is the power that keeps you alive, your body breathing and all systems functioning. It is also the intelligence which gives you inspiration and ideas.
"Your Father-Mother God lives within your heart and YOU dear one are ever and always surrounded by your spiritual parents. Your Mother to succor you and give you the warm nourishing peace and comfort you crave at times, and your Father to give you determination, courage, fortitude and the will to carry out the mission you have chosen. We need both powers – the love and nurturance from the Mother, and the courage and determination and self-control of the Father. But YOU, dear one, are the evolving one in the center between your parents, between what appears to be opposites. They are your own “Mighty I Am Presence” supporting you like two poles on either side of you to protect you from falling over. As you learn to balance yourself between these two poles within, you do not need to rely on outside forces to guide you. You grow into mastery and you are no longer the child, but the mature adult, drawing on your own personal experiences, wisdom built into you and you become the fulfilled crystal light being yet still walking around in skin, flesh and blood. You do not have to leave the Earth plane to enjoy the Christhood. “Enter the center where yin resides”, as you have written. Become the hub of the wheel.” (end)
8/30/23 - The Christ: the pure crystalline pattern in your heart
During the back bend this morning I realized something. First came s wild insane release of toxic bad energies. It was an avalanche of sick feelings. I've been working through them, trying to understand what's happening to me. It was so bad today that I thought I would lose control and go over the edge of sanity. Then the realization came through in the end, breaking through in calmness. The realization that the ONLY one who can hold me together and keep me in sanity, is the Christ self, the holy Christ Self - the ONE known biblically as the first born. This is the one who brought creator source into form. Everyone has a Christ waiting to be discovered in their own consciousness. This crystalline energy called the Christ is the perfect image of the Father/Mother purity which created it in the immaculate conception. It is stationed or embedded into the heart, but it has to be built as awareness is slowly built over time.
Mother consciousness is held in the tailbone, in an etheric pouch in the body in the tailone. Father consciousness is in the abstract, not in the physical body. Bringing these two God Parent sources together - the tail bone which holds the Mother consciousness (kundalini), and the abstract Father awareness which is not in physical form, these two God sources give birth to the Christ consciousness. The Christ consciousness is a pattern made of crystal light that is embedded in the heart. Why the heart? One must discover that for oneself. It is not the individual ego. Individual ego thoughts live all over the body, especially in the head. Our conscious awareness is the soul wandering around the physical body trying to figure out how best to use it. It is in the process of discovery. My soul and yours is a permanent aspect of the individual Christ but it hasn't arrived at that discovery yet. It is the unfinished part of us that needs to evolve into this remarkable discovery (which the ascended masters have discovered). They have discovered their perfection - the Christ light within.
The word "Christ" comes from Greek, I understand. Everyone’s personality is an evolving individual facet of the Christ. There is only ONE Christ, but there are countless numbers of individual Christs such as Jesus, Muhammed, Saint Germain, Mother Mary, the ascended masters. The ultimate goal is to discover and own the Christ in the heart. The heart is where the crystal pure pattern is held. It is there eternally. It will NEVER go away. The physical heart is located in the middle of the physical chest, but there are six other layers that surround the heart, just as there are six other layers that surround each atom, electron, cell and organ in the body.
The physical heart and it's six higher layers are located between the tail bone and the crown of the head. This is the center between the human and the divine. The center between Father God and Mother God in the tail bone. Between the two God Parents, the Christ is born from the crystalline light pattern in the heart. The child called the first born. The Christ today is referred to as the crystalline body. We have moved it out of the ancient church doctrines into a more modern understanding. This truth has been taught by the ascended masters since the beginning, but it was all bound up with false teachings that detracted from the reality of it. The ability to know both Father God and Mother God - abstract knowledge beyond the body and the growing human consciousness within the body - is found in the heart. The crystalline pattern of the Christ is filled out as the soul learns and discovers that HE or SHE is the ultimate authority in its life. The Christ in the heart is the mediator between heaven and earth. Little by little the soul understands more and more about its ultimate authority and how much power it has to create a more beautiful life. Thus it moves quietly and gentlly, without any great hullaballoo or noise, into sitting position on the throne in the heart. The soul is the ultimate mediator between its Father God and its Mother God situated in the tailbone. Inside a crystalline pouch on the etheric level.
The soul has created a lot of errors on its journey thru many lives and worlds. It is evolving and suffers mistakes that it must correct as it learns the correct ways. Meanwhile confusionis rein. As we build confidence in the voice in our own heart, we build the Christ into our heart. We learn gradually to trust the voice of the heart. We learn to listen to it. Talk to it. Ask it questions. The soul gradually turns from being a separate ego which suffers, back to being connected into the web of love and life.
This all came to me in a slow-moving "flash" of understanding while doing the backbend. There are openings occurring in these days, I am sure for everyone. I urge you to pay attention to the inspired thoughts that come to you. I'm not the only one. Trust your inspirations. Trust your instincts. Your higher self is talking to you and guiding you.
8/29/23 - Rising above the comfort zone to greater peace
Rising above bodily comfort has been a major issue all my life. It is important to me to feel good inside my skin, and in order to do that I fixate on being comfortable. It has become too much of an obsession. The focus on this as a problem to overcome has risen to the surface. It is a teaching from the Master DK. He has pointed this out. As my physical aging continues I keep wanting to “retire” to relaxation mode, which is very natural to me. I am feminine after all. It has been my main focus to be a feminine being. Now I am being shown that I must rise higher, to the next higher consciousness - that of mental. I am here to learn to rise above the need to be comfortable. It is where abstract NEW thought is directed downward into the body's comfort zone. Now I am put to the test. Can I do it? It's an evolution of consciousness. It's a next step for me on the ladder of life - learning to master my body as I live here in a physical world.
Now I am asking my guides, who I suspect is the Master Djwahl Khul. Am I on the right track here? Rising above bodily discomfort? Is this what happens as I grow older and the body wants to give up? Give in? Surrender? Feel the peace? And it all goes away and one dies? Is THIS where I assert my higher self? The following was written out on paper in an autowriting channeling.
(DK:) Higher consciousness is larger, wider, vaster and covers more territory. Does this answer your question?
(Me:) It means to rise above being selfish, right?
(DK:) Yes. It is including the larger whole into your range of consciousness. There are responses and benefits that you receive from doing the higher good. You have begun feeling them. The more you give effort, where you put yourself forth with EFFORT, the more you receive back. To lie back on your laurels feels good, but at that point if you put forth more effort you will receive more back, instead of what you call the sickish feeling.
(Me:) When I stop to rest it sometimes feels like I’m going to die. All the old feelings come rushing back. They are terrible. I don’t like that feeling.
(DK:) When you push yourself for the good of the whole, not for yourself but going beyond yourself – your intention is for the larger good. Then you are inviting the larger response back to you. You will receive it. Not in the split moment when you are pushing yourself, but later you will receive the reward. There is a precise balance, which you have recently discovered.
(Me:) Am I imagining this conversation?
(DK:) No, my dear. I am here speaking with you. You have asked and I have responded.
(Me:) I thank you for your ever-present presence! I love you. I thank you, dear Master DK!
Several weeks later I had some very strange observations. They were confusing to me at first. After a call from a friend - I was doing exercises in the med room when she called - my body thereafter was surprisingly bloated and uncomfortable. But at the same time it was strangely comforted, as if a sense of calm accompanied the discomfort. There was a shifting, changing, pressures, not comfortable, pushing – that kind of thing. But I was also feeling a relaxed state underneath and behind that. I felt pretty laid back as I continued the exercises that had been interrupted. Even yawning on occasion as if I could go to sleep easily. It was a strange sensation. Later I felt there had been a major release of something deep. I'm no longer trying to fix what’s wrong with me. The pressure to “fix” seems to have gone away. Meaning that deep unsettled feeling of living in a not-right world and I don't feel right about it. Now suddenly that sense is gone. I am more at peace, even though I’m in discomfort. Still I am peaceful. Strange, not fighting it.
Is this what DK means by “making peace with your world?” About how - when you push yourself for the good of the whole, not for your immediate selfish comfort but going beyond yourself - your intention is for the larger good and you are inviting a larger response back to you?
I think so. I think that is what he means. Making peace with who I am no matter what is happening, even if it is uncomfortable and hurting. The sense is, So what? It will pass. It is momentary. I don’t need to try to fix it or change it or try to find a solution or an answer or a better way to deal with it physically. Those are all panic responses. Instead he is saying, relax into the greater whole. Allow yourself to be with it because it will pass and in its passing it will take you further along to a greater whole and deeper level of comfort and inner peace. The solution is not to try to fix it, because then you are fixating on the physical body only and holding it back inside you. Accept the changes that are going on right now, with loving grace and dignity. Let the discomfort move on to higher ground.
8/26/23 - Ascension symptoms, shifts in consciousness and dizzy spells
Continuing yesterday's blog about the light in the heart, biblically known as the Christ light, this light must be built. It is not put into the heart automatically at the beginning of creation. It has to be built out of love, empathy, grace and understanding during the life of a person. The love and understanding has to be applied in real life and action. It is not possible to "think" love there or intend it there, or pray it there or plead for it to be there. Conscious light is practiced, used and shared over lifetimes in physical form. Physical life is the testing time and the learning time. Love has to be woven into one's life and this requires effort, time, determination and of course belief. In order to build love into one's heart, mind, emotions and body, one must have faith and believe in this, the highest goal and purpose for sentient existence.
For many years I wondered about it. Why did the masters always refer to the heart? I tried to find it in my heart but could not find a connection to draw me there. I would look for awhile but my attention did stick. My mind kept wandering away because nothing spectacular held my attention. The heart did not seem to be very special. The physical heart, that is. Even though I was a loving and kind person, always giving to others, still I didn't feel any special connection to my heart, as the masters and spiritual channels kept talking about it. I wondered about that and kept asking, “Why the heart? What is the reason for the focus on the heart?” Where is the Christ in the heart? Where is the three-fold flame in the heart? How do I find it? And then I started noticing bits and pieces of channeled advice coming through in my writings.
As I researched old journals I kept running across notations about the heart that I myself channeled but didn't pick up on in earlier years. Because I journal every day, and it is partially channeled from my higher self, I have a lot of written material to go through! So this week as I reviewed some old journals I started copying those bits and pieces about the heart into a separate folder. I started stringing these notations together, trying to understand about this famous “Christ in the heart”. Coupling that to the background I’ve received from the Ascended Master DK over the years, it has been slowly dawning on me. The God light known as the crystalline light in the heart has to be built by the individual. It is a work currently in progress by everyone on the planet who leans toward kindness and compassion. It is obvious that there are some people who are not growing love, quite the opposite. But the majority of people are. We are each building the crystalline light – the Christ light into our hearts and it doesn’t happen overnight.
All the messages coming down from higher planes have to do with peace, love, light, joy, freedom and the like. Some people think this advice about high love and light is too beautiful for we lowly humans. We want more materialistic advice, like how to correct a situation, or a solution to a relationship problem. Something more concrete to fix something that is broken. Beautiful feelings are nice but too far away for most people to deal with. They are too far beyond the pale. Well. Here’s the reason for that.
The energies that dominate our atmosphere are dirty and toxic. Let’s face it, they are poisonous. The atmosphere of Earth has been building up to become a very poisonous atmosphere. It has for centuries now. Very dirty, crude, not healthy or good for us. This atmosphere has roots extending deep into our very own body cells, nerves and organs through ancestral DNA. Our bodies are filled with, built out of, toxic, poisonous material. And the only way to clear these toxins up is by laying down pure, holy light from the creator. This is done through words of extremely high vibrational energy, like love, joy, freedom, peace, much higher vibrating words and sounds. By using words of purity, perfection, love, light - words from the sacred source from which we descended. Using such holy words on our bodies is like spraying ant hills and cockroaches with poison spray.
Love and light is toxic to the poisons in us. That's why a lot of people can't make themselves take up meditation. Their basic instinct is appalled at it. It is poison to the ego mind and body. Our upline sources keep telling us this is what we should do, but we keep saying, “Tell me something more basic and fundamental to my problem!" We have not gotten the message! We don’t understand that THIS is the only way to clear up our bodies, minds and inner subconscious emotions and fears that haunt us and keep returning, time and time again.
The whole poisonous atmosphere on this dark planet that we have been breathing every day, is keeping us locked into and rebreathing the same dark atmosphere over and over. It's going to take effort to make changes. One cannot clean an abandoned run-down wreck of a house overnight. By saying, thinking and holding higher vibrational words in our minds for longer dedicated periods of time, we lay down a line of love and light into our inner bodies, both conscious and subconscious, to counter the effects of the toxic material within us. In essence, it's like spraying poison on ant hills. The ants can stand up to it!
By spending time thinking or meditating on higher vibrational words we are building light and love into our bodies on a routine basis. We are filled with it, believe it or not. Of course, everyone is unique and different but the atmosphere is not clean here. Our bodies were built out of toxic material. By saying the sacred words, or thinking them, or reading them, or sharing them, or writing them, or contemplating them, or meditating on them, or somehow finding a way to lay down a line of light and love so our physical senses can hear, feel and see them, we are purifying ourselves. It is a way of cleansing ourselves and resurrecting old tired sick worn-out spirits.
In the last week or two since beginning this program, I have actually begun seeing the old line of toxic material in me separating from me and standing alone. I can recognize the separation. It has become visible in the last week or two. I am actually seeing the old line of toxic material as something foreign, alien, not right. It is like a separation is taking place. It's still going on today. A line of hidden destroyers are stepping out in front and facing off against the lighter good within me. There is a line of demarcation that has appeared that outlines the former darkness in me as it is stepping away from me. It's rather curious to become aware of this. For a long time I simply felt sick'ish, bad feelings that could not be isolated. Now they appear as distinct separate entities or energies or moods. They are thoughts of fear, bad feelings, really awful feelings of death and sickness, as opposed to the feelings of normal calmness and lightness that I’ve been building up.
Perhaps others are feeling this too? The benefits need to be pointed out. There ARE benefits to meditation! Previously it was hidden from me. I struggled with the process, not knowing for sure if all this meditation was working. But suddenly from a feeling of normal peace and general good will, very old, bad, down, negative mood would hit me like a ton of bricks, and all of a sudden. It would just stepped forward out of nowhere and fill me with sick awful feelings, like I am going to die. But, then it would pass and I’d be back in my normal good feeling mood again. This has been happening more often lately. It makes me feel really bad because momentarily they dominate my entire being. I feel so bad I wonder if I should go to the hospital. It was SO bad the other night, I told Doug I didn’t know if I would make it through the night and he should be prepared for my passing. But the next day it was gone. My good mood came back.
Over the course of years of meditation practice I’ve learned to hold my focus on the sacred, no matter HOW bad it got. I have learned to hold my mind still and let it pass. The light, the love, the finer, more elegant words that I’m using, the sacred words in English, these words are my tool. I’m memorizing them and adding to them as new ones appear. There is now a long list of sacred words that I repeat and feel them. I let the emotions settle into me as I repeat them. This is how we paint the sacredness back into our bodies, minds and emotions. The practice of painting the inner body with sacred, high emotional words, sounds, frequencies, vibrations, however one can manage it – is up to each individual to design for themselves alone. It is a sacred practice that they do alone. It is uniquely their own practice and their own routine. This is how we can transform ourselves, our bodies, minds, and renew our spiritual grace. Kill off the poisons that are embedded within us.
There are so many stories, plus I have my own stories, of how dark it can get, and how despondent people can get as ancient toxic energies come up and release themselves. Be aware that they are surfacing and leaving you. Be aware not to entertain them again and again. Don't accept them back into yourself. Keep using the sacred words and meditation on higher, lighter quality affirmations. The spiritual realms are feeding us every day with advice to look UP, not into the sky – it’s not found out there in the clouds or space – look up into happiness. Look up into joy. Look up into grace. Look up into nobleness. Into compassion. Into tearful reunions with loved ones. Look up to refinement. Look up to elegance, to grace, to harmony, to beauty. Look up into the comfort of a Mother’s loving arms, Look up into the higher realms. This is how we built the crystalline Christ light in the heart.
Another lesson will explain why the heart. Why not the kidneys or the pancreas or the liver or some other organ? Because the heart is the center of the individual’s body. The crown is where Father God enters the physical body. The tail bone or first chakra is where Mother God is held in the physical body. And between the crown and the tail bone, the geometric center is the heart. There is more to this story but basically the heart collects information from both Father God as abstract intelligence from beyond earth, and from Mother God who holds earth knowledge out of which she builds our physical body. Together Father God and Mother God build the holy christ child. Between the two of them, heaven and earth, the crystalline light body is built as the mediator between heaven and earth.
8/25/23 - Stay in the heart during shifts in consciousness (dizzy spells)
While hanging upside down on the tilt table today, words started talking in my mind. “The earth is shifting very rapidly into the next higher dimension. There are those who are aware of this. I’m one of them.” The words were very insistent, so I immediately came to the laptop and started typing. Oh my goodness! They are coming in a huge rush!
Those of us who are aware of the shift, we have been laid back quietly, letting it happen and knowing about it but there was nothing we could do. People wouldn't believe us. Now I need to speak and bring attention to what is happening. Many people don't want to speak of their confusion but it is happening to everyone, including me, and everyone should know about it. I am aware. I know what’s happening. I want to help. The only way I can help is to talk about the shift and appreciate the power of celestial goodness that is coming with it. It is an evolution. This shift is taking mankind up and out of former ways and habits. The systems are changing. Mental awareness is changing. There is new light dawning but old ways are breaking and it is confusing. It is not just happening in our little solar system. The whole galaxy and other galaxies beyond are involved because we are connected. We are all one. It is a grand shift and it affects everyone. But it is beyond the understanding of humanity. The Star Trek series is beaming some of its higher knowledge to us, the movies are preparing us for this shift. The shift is a consciousness shift. Our minds are only human, not celestial or cosmic, and so our brains are befuddled. But there is a part of us that is connected, and that is the human heart.
Try not to think "mamby-pamby love". No. The heart is much more than that. It is a connecting point. A link. A hub to universal knowledge. Those of us who knew about this shift that is happening, have prior knowledge. Instinctive. We are the heart people. We have been quiet, laid back, mellow, and connected better than the practical brain-people. The heart knows things that the brain doesn't. It's the hub of life, the connection to the life force, the allness that is everywhere. Life is everywhere in non-physical form. It keeps the galaxies moving intelligently. We are all connected to it but there are gradations of connection. Everyone is individually connected and walking through his/her own journey of discovery. We are all doing that. But we are all connected through this life force. There is only one life force. One life. And we are each growing in awareness of it. The earth is a very privileged place to learn about this. There is an evolutionary process going on, here on earth. We are part of a vast intelligence that is bringing more awareness to us in a dimensional shift to more harmony and peace. It is an abstract love and an abstract intelligence without form. But IN form light is the intelligence, and love is the process that binds the intelligence together. This is the beauty of being human. It is precious to be here in a body, held together in love. Without love, light will go off in separate directions, which is what we call the darkness, the evil, or the illusion.
While we are in a physical body, we DO go off in separate directions. We do develop individual egos and have adventures both painful and pleasurable. It is the way of duality and form life to learn such things. To live and grow through polarity adventures. But such solitary adventures lead to understanding the preciousness of love and unity. Now there is a shift and we are shedding the lower dimension of separateness and polarity. We are learning how to operate from a more unified field. This is tremendously awkward, to say the least. It is totally confusing. But - big but here - there is a way to keep your sanity. Stay focused in the heart. The physical heart because the physical heart is what will keep the body alive as everything NOT connected to the heart starts to fail through its own confusion.
The heart is more than physical. To complex to explain here. It is physical on the lower levels of density but there are six other higher levels that surround each cell, atom, organ and part of the body. There are seven levels to the physical body that we haven't been made aware of. If you practice every day focusing for a little while on your heart, with visual pictures and words of sacredness, you will be able to build up a feeling of grace and peace and feel good through these periodic shifts of confusion. There is a reason why it is the heart and not, say, the liver or the kidneys or some other organ. The human body is intelligently designed. All the other organs can fail and close down towards the end of life but as long as the heart keeps beating the body is alive.
Shift your attention and focus to your heart muscle, the physical heart. Get a picture of it off the internet and imagine your own heart looking like that. Then imagine, conjure up an image that it is filled with light. Light is information. It will give you more insight. Draw on the light. Light will turn on an inner beam and flash into love. Light and love are synonymous. They are called "Father Light and Mother Love". Male is abstract and Female is warm and nurturing. The mother holds people together. Light is abstract intelligence, and love is the warm, connecting process. When we connect with the warm nurturing within our heart, we feel peaceful. It helps us to stay sane and reasonable, logical and practical. By connecting to the heart periodically during the day and night, we stay alive through this rapid shift into a totally unfamiliar territory called the higher dimension. Everything else in our body is going to need that warm loving assurance and connection during the confusing days. And it is up to you, the resident intelligence in your body, to provide that reassurance. You are the hub, the ultimate authority. It's your responsibility to stay connected to the heart. Know yourself. Your heart is your base and foundation. This is an ascended master teaching, an angelic teaching, and a celestial star-based teaching from those who are more advanced than us.
The word "Christ" comes down to us from ancient times. It means the light within the heart. The light in the heart has to be built. It is not something that is put there automatically. You can't just go there and find it. Like, “Eureka! I found it!” No. The Christ light is something that has to be built over time. It is the love that is built out of nothingness to begin with. There is a certain type of work that is required. It is a work in progress among humans. There is a pattern already built into the human embryo and grows with the body to an adult. This pattern is the pattern of perfection, called the immaculate conception. You as an individual were conceived in an immaculate way, in total perfection and given a unique name from the beginning. It's a long complex story, but that's the shift we are involved in today. We are shifting into new understanding. We're in the heard part now, of letting go of former hard-line beliefs. We are being left feeling empty and confused. The old is being dimanteled, but there is a new understanding coming in behind it. As we each break out of our former shell of not knowing, we are much like the baby chick which breaks out of its egg shell. Then it is in a new dimension and a new way of life. The baby chick cannot continue to lie there inside the shell absorbing nutrients from its mother. It now has to go out and get its own food. It has to learn a new way of life. It is a new beginning.
This is the meaning of "shift in consciousness". We are entering a new atmosphere. We will have to learn how to do certain things for ourselves, and not rely on our parents or authorities to provide for us. We are growing in responsibility. We are becoming more the masters of our life. And the one most important thing of all is to learn about love. Love is how we survive this new atmosphere. Everyone is connected. It is the connection of life, the sharing of life, that feeds us with what to do and how to do it. And learning how to love means how to build love up in yourself first and foremost. If you don't take care of yourself first you won't last very long. It has been called being "selfish" by the early churches, but the churches have been in some respects instruments of the dark side. Forget about giving and sharing before you have anything to give and share. It is disservice to yourself. Give first to yourself. Keep your life force first to yourself and build on it. Build up love in your heart for yourself. The first thing to do is to go alone and focus on your heart. Focus on your body. Give yourself a pampering loving hug. Pay attention to the parts that hurt. And build a community of sharing love with each other. The focus is not giving your power away, but receiving and learning from each other better ways to love yourself and care for yourself and then sharing is inevitable.
Well, this has turned into a much longer thing than I had planned, so I'll stop here and carry on tomorrow. Take care of yourself!
8/23/23 - Ancient memories, ancient technologies
Inspired by Thoth, Mary Magdalene and Mother Gaia: We have to reconnect to visceral, the lower abdomen specifically. Our connection to the Earth has been lost. The job we are here to do is to re-open to the Earth. I felt it so clearly. The divine feminine is especially attuned to lower Earth. The stories are stored, literally stored as in archived, in the earth along with discarded old cadavers. When the body dies the particles of LIGHT contain the stories in them. The light never dies. The light just needs to be reclaimed. Ancient Egypt has messages for us. The stories are locked in the earth, within our own dense earth bodies, waiting to be recalled.
They are held there for the owners. the eternal soul, to come back and reclaim them. Redeem them. The second chakra is the lower abdomen. It has been closed off for eons. We don’t go down into the earth to reclaim and remember our past lives. We are stuck in our heads. We don’t remember how to go "down" into our lower denser parts, the earthy parts of ourselves. Mother Earth speaks of the snake in the abdomen, the kundalini. I awakened the kundalini in me 47 years ago and it took me up and out of body. I've been trying to get back down into my lower body ever since. Most people think that we are supposed to go UP. Well, yes, we are supposed to go up to reunite with Father God, but we have left so much of ourselves behind, not finished yet, that we have not fulfilled our mission here. We had to come back again and again, in body after body, in different cultures and under different ruling authorities to try to reclaim what is ours.
We have left many bodies behind, decaying in the earth. The stories are held locked in the earth, frozen in time. We’re supposed to go up the spine to the top of the head, according to Taoists and Buddhists, and fountain out and around like a water fountain in the lake, and come down around our body again and again, to go down into the earth and continue to cycle back up through the feet and spine and head and back down again in a continual flow. Google for pictures of the Torus breathing and Torus meditation. Practice the torus breath daily. This is a “sweeping” effect through the auric field. This practice sweeps up old residue that we left behind which lingers in our auric field, unbeknownst to us today. We will remember if we continue to flow our attention up through the central channel, out the top of the head and down around the outer body into the earth. Slowly we will remember by sweeping old debris out and UP and away from carrying it around with us as blocked energies.
We will pick up the memories by recycling our breath and attention, mindfully, through this circulation pattern. It’s a circuit, a flowing, a river of life. We flow up the spine and we flow back down around the outside of our bodies sweeping thru the auric field. Picture it. Imagine it. Visualize it. Hold the vision of it. We bring it up thru the central channel of the etheric spine. It will get home little by little, spark by spark, thru the central channel up thru the opening at the crown of the head. We will remember more and more as we do this. We will remember the connection, how we used to do it in ancient times, how to sweep ourselves clean. And also we will remember our past lives. We will become enlightened by picking up this knowledge but we must do it viscerally.
We are reclaiming what we left behind in past lives. We are remembering (I speak for myself, I am remembering, I am feeling it viscerally). The stories of our past lives are held in the earth, in the dust of the earth. That is why the earth is so heavy and dense and confused. Our old bodies went back to the dust and they hold the memories in the particles of LIGHT that we all have inside us. We all have Light inside us. We just didn't know. Our past lives were lived in ignorance. Now we are remembering. We MUST return to the earth to reclaim them, The earth is the densest part of our bodies. Our muscles and bones. Those stories that we left behind are stored in the muscles and bones. We cleanse it easily with knowledge. We do it with our breath and our intention, and our focus on attention, and our willingness to do the process of meditational breathing. Go DOWN into the lower earth beneath the feet and up through the central channel of the spine and out the top of the head. Again, check out the Torus breath.
We must go down to unlock the past. All we have to do is touch it with our mind. That's all. It is easy to do once you know why you're doing it. It is a magic touch, the touch of the mind. This means going down in consciousness to the sub-conscious parts of ourselves that we have forgotten. This requires feeling the emotion. The emotions have been blocked to us by our focus on surface (superficial) things. Surface distractions keep us from slowing down, keeps us racing and moving fast, prevent us from going down, settling down, feeling the lower denser sensations. These sensations are not bad. Some will tell you not to go there but they are wrong. They are deliberately keeping you from discovering your true deeper self. Don't listen to them! The stories you will uncover are good for you, they’ve been ignored and received a bad name. We stashed them in a dark closet and didn’t look at them again. They grew old to our way of thinking and remembering. We ourselves discarded them for a newer, racier life. Our dark shadow self has been keeping us in our heads with titillating news stories so we stay there in our heads, swirling and whirling around a race track that goes nowhere. Until we grow old and tired and wonder what life is all about. We have lost our ability to move forward into higher realms and be creative and use our imaginations because we’ve been cut off from the excitement of our passions, our aliveness, our eagerness, our curiosity, our desire to learn and grow, to test our wings and try to fly beyond ourselves, to be bold, to be adventurous. Instead, we became like slugs racing our little race cars around the oval race track, competing against each other.
The stories that are hidden in us are called the Akashic records. We must FEEL our way into them. Feel into them with passion and emotion. Words won’t get us there. Words are used to point a direction. That's all. Then it's up to us to drive the car in that direction. Let emotions take over then and lead you. Always with a desire to lift what you find up into the sunshine so you can examine them and identify yourself with them and become whole again, ready to move on to the next step.
8/19/23 - Today's update
Well, it's been a whole week since I last posted a blog. It's been topsy turvy where I am. Rather like upside down and inside out. I'm writing this off the top of my head because I don't know where to begin. First of all, I do keep checking the number of hits that my website (Anakosha/GoddessSphere) takes on a daily basis, so I know it is small. It is not highly promoted. It has served as my artistic journal and provides me with a happy place to go every morning. It acts as my private backup journal to support my voluminous hand-written and channeled journals.
Let me say that today is significant in that I have finally connected with my auric bubble of light. For the last - let's see - 47 years the bubble of light has been a beautiful theory but as of yesterday I moved into the fullness of it. Only the beginning though. There is more work to be done. I have expanded into it on a level that is all-inclusive. All seven levels. The auric bubble has seven levels to it - you can find this on the internet. And therefore one actually IS this bubble of light. Now I know it for sure. I AM my bubble of light, no longer imprisoned and trapped inside the physical solidness of this body. When my body dies I will be completely inside my bubble of light. And if I continue living for another 20, 30 years, I will still have my body but I've successfully become free and can come and go as I please - go inside and enjoy the pleasure of being sentient or move out past the prison walls.
Many people do this in their minds, and understand it in abstract theory, but I have grounded myself into the larger bubble of light. It is no longer something I wish for. No longer a theory, a dream or illusion. I am more at peace. It has shifted something deep inside but I can't really explain what that something is. It's just closer to feeling at peace with myself, and settled.
But something more also is taking place. It seems as if there is no end to the change. There is a movement tht is transcending the old and the old is falling away. It is like the old discomfort, the dizziness and disorientation, is fading like fog when the sun comes up. It is drifting away. The old, that is. The new is like a light dawning. One can't imagine something like this. The head or brain can't make this up. Like a clearer reality is coming into view. I think this means I am closer to announcing weekly support gatherings. I sent a message to a friend this morning (spontaneously, without thinking) telling her that I am closer to naming a weekly gathering to take place at our house. I am thinking every Monday from 2 to 6 pm but so far it's only a thought, a premonition. There is a certain freedom to my thinking these days, as if they are tumbling out of me from beyond my reasoning mind.
I am thinking that these gatherings are like a support community for those who are moving beyond the matrix, beyond the veil of the third dimension. We are so accustomed to thinking of ourselves as confined (impriosned) inside a physical body, but those of us who know better have SECRETLY moved past that. Now we can have a support group for those who have so moved beyond. A loving support group that is happy and agreeable and allows for each person to be the individual he or she is, and they are welcome to express themselves without argument or need to prove it. No one has to fit into the expectations of the larger whole because each person there is a unique one-of-a-kind intelligence. Each is here to round out the whole. We should not change in order to adapt to the others, but to come more FULLY into our own space, into our own heart-center. Our own fullness. And the best way to support another person is to give a wholesome heart-centered hug and smile, with love and acceptance of this person. A welcome home, friend. And a listening ear. And maybe a cup of coffee and a piece of pie too.
I'm just sharing a little of my space today. I leave you with a wish for you to feel at peace. Welcome to my world. Be safe. Carry your bubble of light around with you with confidence and a sense of relaxing inward into it. You are your very own SELF at the heart of you, at your spiritual center. No one can take that from you. You know you're alive. You've had it from the beginning, right there inside you, inside your own musculature, skin, bones and tissues. Love your faults and failures back into your heart again. Love yourself. That's what I am grounding into today. Grounding into love. All of me. I am grounding my humanness into the light along with me. There is no more shame or guilt or sin. The light makes it disappear. It is transformative to move out past the focus of the third dimension and all the rules, laws, traditions, and beliefs in sin, guilt, fear and shame. It all goes away in the light of love. I support you to do the same. Imagine the bubble of light around you. Make it as big as you like or as small. You don't have to lie or pretend in order to be accepted into the whole. Be real. You are meant to be real. You can't be anyone else. Have a good day today. My love, N
8/12/23 - Instructions in the night - light body activation
Light messages were playing in my mind when I woke at 3:40 am. I felt funky in my lower legs. Realizing I needed to get grounded out in nature in the pasture, I started feeling the low dense feelings in my lower body. In contrast the higher energies above the heart. I lay there thinking about it, wanting to get up but not wanting to disturb Doug. I heard the words “pasture, slant board, walk (treadmill), vibrate”. I wanted to get up but held myself back. Kept struggling with it. Finally I moved automatically, shunting the covers off me. “Pasture, slant, walk, vibrate”, repeating this as if being instructed. I grabbed some clothes and went downstairs.
The 3/4 moon was bright overhead when I walked barefoot out into the pasture. I put my white caftan on and brought a chair into the middle and sat on it with a towel, feet on the soil. The stars were bright. I looked all around for a while, saw an unusual light moving from west to east behind me, it had a red light. It didn’t move like an airplane or like a satellite. Probably a starship. I was quiet for awhile and then I started ohming naturally. Soon syllables started sounding, then inpouring messages began. The message is this:
“Use words like dignity, grace, kindness to massage into the bodies of the people. Teach them these words, teach them, show them how to hold these thoughts in their minds as they massage people. Teach them WORDS. Words are important. Use words as you stroke. Teach them unconditional love, what that means. It means no expectation of getting some reward out of this. Give freely, without return. Giving freely while stroking bodies, is putting this energy into the body and magnetizing the same energy and activating the same energy in that body. This is Yantra. Yantra is a geometric design. This design is being stroked into the body, applied to the body like ointment. It will reach into the body and will find, will connect with the same energy in the body for like attracts like. It will activate the same energy in that body you are stroking. It is an ascension technique. Bring light up to the surface, out to the surface, out into the consciousness of the person. They will feel it. But they must understand what they are doing intellectually. Talk about it. It is time to start the pow-wow circle. Talk about it. Let them know what this is all about. It is not a simple massage exchange. It is a light body activation." (from 3/12/23)
8/11/23 - Sharing a personal update
Sometimes I use a personal email for a blog. When I write to someone privately I can tell it more easily to one person than if I'm trying to write to the whole world. So yesterday this is what I wrote to someone. I can share it easily now that it's done and gone.
"You're on the right track, changing your diet and doing things to improve the quality of your BODY. It is all about the body needing upgrades. You are spirit living in a body that is modifying. Mine is too. As for my massaging [pertaining to ascension massage] I have been going through a transition and am unsure at this point where it will lead me. I'm experiencing dizziness and disorientation a lot, which has Doug concerned enough to set me up with doctors appointments. That's OK, but I'm also working with my own internal techniques and discovering things about my energy field.
When I was massaging a woman friend for several weeks after the hurricane because she needed it so badly, I was feeling wonderful. Her energy mixing with mine caused me to feel totally blissed out and complete at the end of each massage. But when I massaged a couple of men I know, it was not the same. The male energy was "pushy" energy. It didn't relax me but rather revved me up. It didn't bliss me out as in a sense of feeling complete. Male energy is different. My conclusion is the woman allowed my energy into her, absorbed it in and used it, and in so doing she gave her energy back to me. There was a blending of energies. Both the men didn't give me that feeling. It was not relaxing. It was more like a job. I had to work at it. It seemed I was butting up against their underlying energy, like it was not good for me. That's what it felt like. But at the same time it was an interaction, and interacting with others is important. So it wasn't "bad", it was just an interesting comparison.
Everything is exploratory at the moment. I'm in a different space now than when I saw you last. I'm not sure where this will lead. I'm open to exploring and soundboarding. I am thinking how I would word this in an open forum [about ascension massage]. It's hard to say. Maybe it's too soon. I have experienced some wonderful states of altered consciousness in between these bouts of dizziness. I think I'm in a higher dimension most of the time and am seeking higher dimensional people, other bodies similar to mine, to touch into. It's the extreme opposites that throw me out of kilter. That's just a thought on my part.
My husband's energies are co-partnering with me, so my experiences with him are of a different nature since I have near 30 years with him. We have become very close. Just thinking out loud. Thanks for soundboarding!"
8/10/23 - It's about believing, work on believing. Wake up, there's a party going on
I love English words! I speak English. English words are like train cars – one pulled by another by another by another, delivering a string of messages, one word after another. The words are related. Whoever is sending the message via English words are choosing the words so they relate to each other and enhance one another. The secret to the message encoded in them is in reading them all together, not separately. Read them with your consciousness. Receive the message fully to decipher the message. Allow it all, all the words, string them together. They will light a fire if you read them right. A fire within your consciousness. They are delivering a message. listen and read messages with an open heart and mind, not just with the mind alone. Step down into your heart. Re-read the message again with your heart wide open. Open your eyes wider and wider. AhHA! I got it! It was about LOVE.
Educate yourself with words. It is about believing. Work on believing. You’ve got to have knowledge first, before you can believe in it. If you don’t know, how can you even begin believing? The dark controllers have kept this knowledge from the masses. Made it wrong, sinful, bad and it disappeared from view. I’m going to start talking about this knowledge. It is occult knowledge, hidden knowledge. The brain is where your receive knowledge in THIS world, through THIS body. But to live happy in the world you need NEW knowledge to open up the old dark programming to expose, uncover and disclose its falseness. New knowledge that you haven’t had before because it was hidden from you.
You’re not here to teach or help other people. You’re here to teach and help your SELF, your BODY! Your body is your SELF here in this world. Your mission is to ascend your physical body, to make it lighter, airier and more pleasant than it has been over many centuries, many eons of struggling against itself. You are your own teacher, your own body’s teacher. Teach your body vessel how to act with good will, proud, decent, loving, kind, truthful, benevolently to itself and to the world it lives in. Teach it to harmonize and unify all that it touches, sees, knows and becomes aware of. You have 30 trillion pupils, students to teach. There are 30 trillion cells in your body, according to estimates of the scientists. These cells all work in harmony to carry out the basic functions necessary to survive but they have never heard the cosmic truth before. You are here this time to teach them. You are the spirit living in the body. What you, the spirit, the intelligence living in the body FEEDS the body either lifts it up or dulls it down or makes it angry.
I am having now a very strong sense of beautiful men – father energies. They are protectors, assuring us safety. They’ve got our backs. They are on the periphery. The men. We have been unkind to them, judging them, we the women. We the women are holding the center. Women, feel the goodness they have created for us. Re-frame it. Re-phrase the words. They are not our sexual partners, they are our love partners, co-depending on us as we are on them. They depend on our loving support and nurturance. We the divine, the feminine, the purity of delight, gaiety, innocence. We depend on them to protect us from harm while we give that to them. They build homes and roads and sanctuaries for us and build security measures for us to make sure we have shelter, food and clothing. We have fallen, as they have fallen, into false beliefs of separation, that it’s all about “this” limitation or “that” limitation, or “sex” or “money” or some other thing we have limited and concluded as a finite fragile thing that must be owned or possessed or stolen from someone else. We hang on for dear life to a finite object and we have been kept drugged, locked and frozen in “time” and “space”, while our cosmic consciousness, our infinite and vast intelligence is watching from a’far, wondering when we will wake up and join the fun and the party that is going on beyond us! Wake up!
8/8/23 - From a recent sadhana (spiritual practice)
This came in very strong a month ago, intense, powerful, must write it! Tuning into the powers within (not outside) - how to get past the locked door. It’s the doors all through the body – in the hands and feet, the stomach, the back muscles, the solid body that we focus on so intently that we run to the doctor whenever something goes wrong with it – the outer body. We get some medicine to take and seal up the door again. Our prison door that keeps us safely locked up inside so we can’t get out. A little later, I can’t breathe. After the backbend and cobra I sit and connect, remembering. Bring it UP, up, up. Meet your higher self! She’s there in the coccyx. Bring it UP to the heart and the brain. Step out of the box of thinking you’re only a physical body. Step out of the box into freedom and sunlight flooding. Do it slowly. Bring it up the spine via the Torus breath and fountain it out and around and down. Repeat. Flow it. Keep it loose and flowing. Brain focus has been blocking the flow. All that “ME” knowledge is blocking the flow. The focus on “Me” as if I’m important! “Me” is the body focus. As if what this body feels is all that important.
There is more to “me” than the body. The focus on body is exactly what's causing the pain, the heart aches, the body aches, the disabilities, the aging, the discomfort, the brain fog. It’s the focus on the physical deterioration that is causing the sick feelings that are slowly creeping in and insidiously invading the wholeness that is me, invading the body cells, to make us THINK we are dying. It’s focusing our thinking process on dying and disintegration. The eternal spirit, the holy spirit, the pure life-giving spirit is NOT dying. It can’t die! The aliveness has been simply held back from expressing. We’ve been focusing so much on the body that is dying, we are causing our own dying process. We are causing it by focusing on the body alone, as if the body alone is all that is. We are missing the mark. We are not including the rest of us, our wholeness. The auric field, the emotions, the mental, the spiritual, the etheric, the four lower levels of our holiness, our holy spirit, the pure life-giving spirit that we are. We are all of these together. The connection to our allness is there inside a crystal pouch surrounding the coccyx, the tail bone, the root chakra. We are holding it back from releasing our own wholeness and divinity because we didn't know it was there. Nobody told us. It needs to be invited out to flow again, and bring its delightful loving awareness to the surface where we can FEEL it and express it. These are the secrets that have been hidden from us. This needs to be released. I know. I was taught. I’ve been trained. Let go, I am being told! Relax! Breathe in and breath out through the sacrum. Picture the sacrum. Bring it into focus, flow it, imagine it, pure crystalline light sparkles flowing up the spine, breaking through the obstacles, little things that are not very big, not very strong. This pure dazzling crystalline divine light can is the Christ light. It will smash right through the obstacles once we know about it. It will melt right through and we will be lifted into nirvana. It will melt right on through if only we knew! Right through to the top of the head.
With help - and Marcus can help but not just him – everyone can help with friends and family, by putting hands on them. Marcus can start the process because he’s been trained. Not just in this life, he’s been trained in former lives. We are talking about the life force known as the kundalini, known as the Christ. It is also known by other names in other cultures, such as Christians call it the holy spirit, Shakti, shekinah, Krishna and other names in other parts of the world. The focus on sex, sin, guilt and shame has had us as if in bondage, tied to concrete thinking that physical solidarity is all there is. We had no idea! We were imprinted with a massive conspiracy imprinting of fear, shame and guilt and we had no clue. We were babes in the wood being programmed before we could walk and talk. We did not understand. How could we? This has been going on for many centuries. Now kundalini is here. It is a big word. I had a "kundalini awakening" experience. An unknown word but I am going to introduce it to the culture. There is a plan brewing. It is very close now, close enough to begin the group gatherings. Tantra is part of the kundalini instruction. That is why the Master DK has been guiding me. He has been taking me slowly deeper into it. He is such a kind master. The word Tantra needs to be clarified. It has been ignorantly misunderstood. There have not been enough true teachers or healers. We are introducing it now because it is time. Simply that it’s time. The universe has lined up some people to bring this forth.
I did the back bend off the bed and the cobra. I’m working with forces beyond traditional thinking. Kundalini is opening for everyone with LOVE. Our teaching is about LOVE. Our emphasis is on love. The first emphasis is on love. There is only one energy in all of creation and it is LOVE. Creation in the form world is done by playing with different aspects of love. Moving with it or moving away from it. It is the moving and shaking, exploring and defining the various perspectives and understandings of LOVE. The ultimate love is wholeness, completion, fulfillment, hence the word “holy”. But love doesn’t end there. We don't stop and rest and relax and forget about it because there are more people coming along who are still experimenting with LOVE. It is a continual experimenting, never stopping, never relaxing, always present in the moment. The building of more and more love is a continuing, ongoing, eternal process of life that never ends but continues building more. There is no end to love because it keeps adding more to itself and it is never the same love. It never gets boring because it is not the same love. It is always NEW love! There are an infinite number of consciousnesses who are evolving in love and experiencing new love. Each experience is unique and one of a kind. Each one is adding their new discovery to the everlasting sea of consciousness, the allness, the onenes, to which we all belong. It never ends. It is always new, this primal energy of creation. We are ALL dipping into it and using it in our creating.
I was bringing the energy up to the heart thru the throat to the brain when I was on fire again and stopped to write, “Got to get the energy to the brain!” realizing that the brain is getting this message and I must write it down so as not to forget. We think there is hate, violence and anger, depression, sickness and death, but it is all created from love - out of a desire for more love, or what one thinks is love. Whether it be from a selfish controlling perspective or from a benevolent way of sacrifice and martyrdom, we are all focusing on love, and balance is what brings us closer to it. Balance the extremes that appear, balance them with love. Find the unity, the harmony, the way of merging the extremes and you will experience love.
My brain is sprouting colors now, coming up from the coccyx and the pelvic bowl, clearing a channel through the sushumna, the central etheric channel surrounding the spinal cord all the way to the brain where it becomes a super-organ of intelligence to guide the body into action when it is inspired by the kundalini, the Christ or crystalline fountain of light that is now flowing. There are two arcs in the brain now, one going left and one going right out of the central channel that ends at the pituitary gland. The colors are sprouting up, one here, one there, faster and faster and all at once together. It’s not the brain that is coming alive, it is ME that is coming alive. I AM sprouting the awareness and the colors. I AM the awareness in the brain bringing conscious awareness up the spine to my brain. I AM the incandescent surreal colors sprouting many different aspects of divinity as they unfold in my brain. I AM the divinity that has been held locked in down below, way down below, prior to this moment. I AM bringing it up to the brain so this body can recognize itself in the physical form with a physical organ in the physical world and use it here in form life. I am doing the neck exercises now, activating my male side. The sparks, the angels, the devas are in the trees. I see the faeries in the trees through the windows. I think it’s the sun reflecting off the moisture on the leaves but it’s the faeries or elementals. I used to think they were the sun reflecting but I learned to recognize the twinkle when it draws my attention, then I connect with it and know more. It talks to me. (End of sadhana)
8/7/23 - We are the worker bees, get with the program!
Following is the unpublished part of my 3/7/23 blog. I am re-reading old journals for clues and found this. Please read the 3/7/23 blog first, then this one follows. It was written with fiery enthusiasm.
We are worker bees! Building, constructing, refining the physical human body. It requires FOCUS! We have to concentrate ALL of our divine attention on what we are doing NOW! Within our body. Not on the outer task but on our inner body as we work our task. We have been slovenly, messy, disorganized within ourself, and down-right stupid about our bodies. Our precious bodies. Our bodies in return give us a messy hard time back. It is time we cleaned up our act, here in the physical form world, and we have to start here with our OWN body. We can’t “fix” someone else’s body. It doesn’t belong to us. We have to learn to stop focusing on others and start focusing our attention on our home, our own body life. Leave everyone else alone. Stop trying to fix them or correct them. It’s not your job. Stay in your own yard. This isolation phase we’re going thru (covid) is a blessing in disguise. It is forcing us to look inward upon ourself, to watch over it. It’s only a temporary phase and will pass, but learn the lesson so you don’t have to repeat it. Move on to the next more generous and rewarding phase: that of enjoying your own fixed up and correctly rearranged body. Feel the sensual juices flowing again. Feel the happiness and the pleasure sounds that your body makes when you care for it, stroke it, feed it your attention and your love. Your body literally purrs like a kitten, like a pet. It is a most wonderful feeling to know that your pet loves you back. It is pleasure and bliss at its height when you make love to your own body, your pet. That does not mean sex and masturbate it – free yourself from that low vibration - and love it with kindness and softness and joy. Feel the unity, the grace, the togetherness, the solidarity that is created from loving strokes and happy self hugs and other sensual self-love kindness.
8/4/23 - Inspiration amid shattered dreams
I woke this morn with remnants of broken dreams. They were of reaching up to the light that is coming down into the top of my head in a stream of dazzling white light. It is ME coming down! My own I AM Presence, or higher self, my greater self. My ME! It is not anyone else but ME! I AM my own greater self. It has been broken up and shattered, this stream of light that is ME!. Of elegance, pure, crystal clear knowing of myself. It is me in clarity but it is broken and shattered as soon as it reaches my dense bodily head and brain, my body. This body has been educated to close it off and think of myself and others as “just a form”, just physical, here today, gone tomorrow. I’ve been raised in a garden and a home that is solid prison walls, shutting this clarity and everlasting knowledge out. I keep it out by distraction. Getting up in the morning and focusing on what happened yesterday. Picking up where I left off yesterday. I keep reconnecting into the broken past, the illusion of the past, the drama and problems of yesterday. They mean well, my family and friends, but I am now bored with it. I am now connecting back into my brilliance. It is streaming during the night as I sleep. But now I’m waking up to this old yesterday drama and I am back in the broken world again, and my stream of brilliance and clarity and knowingness, and being connected to brightness, light, joy, realization of wonderment and enlightenment, flowing, I AM flowing with knowing – but it is breaking up now as I get up out of bed. This flowing of light and knowing is dissipating, is breaking up and shattering and I am losing it. It is disappearing into dullness again. Grayness. Ordinariness is taking over. I wake up with a sigh, saying “I praise thy holy name, oh light of immortality that lives within all beings.” It is a left-over from where I came from. I am still saying it, trying to hang on to the fading glow and glory in an attempt to hold onto it, the connection to this power, this light, this joy, refreshing me.
Suddenly I see the faces of people everywhere, all who like me are looking up at themselves with joy and rapture on their faces, people everywhere radiating and looking up, with light pouring down in a single beam dazzling pure light entering into the crown of their head. We are all trying to hold onto the connection with the light, but it is wavering and breaking up. Distortions are entering. I continue to call out the words silently: “I praise thy holy name, oh light of immortality that lives within all beings.” I continue to try to hold the vision of the people all doing the same thing. Repeating the call, holding onto the light by looking up, seeing the pure stream of light up beyond us, holding the connection steady, speaking words up into the light above us, and holding, holding, holding the connection with the pure, untainted divine light of our soul, our God Selves, our REAL selves, our truth, our abundance, our clarity, our ideal, our perfection, our joy, our ecstasy, our rapture. “I praise thy holy name oh light of immortality that lives within all beings.” I repeat this as I wake up and sit up on the side of the bed. I try to keep repeating it as the vision starts to waver and break up. I get up and go to the bathroom for my usual routine while saying the words over and over silently in my mind, even though it is fading, but I keep holding onto it as I brush my teeth and start the shower and step in. This I know will help me build the momentum, my clarity, my connection with my own individual God I AM that I Am. I suggest to myself to say the words silently, “I Am that I Am” 40, 50 times, focusing this light down into my heart, seeing the picture of the light streaming down through the top of my head, and see it come down into my heart and anchor it there, see my heart building the light into a fire. “I praise they holy name, oh light of immortality that lives within ME!”
In the bathroom I suddenly see the hollow tube going down my spine. It is gifted to me. It goes down through the center of my body. It is hollow. There is nothing in it to obstruct the flow. The hollow tube goes all the way down to – where? I don’t see. My vision is obscure below a certain point, below the heart. I continue with the words “I praise thy holy name, oh light of immortality that lives within MY BODY!” My body is important. I am drawing my consciousness and my ability to visualize down inside of me, lower into my body. Lower than I’ve gone before. The walls of this inner hollow tube are not solid, as I thought at first they were. They are soft, softly subtle. They are made of light. So subtle I didn’t see it at first. I couldn’t make it out at first. Only the main channel extending down from the crown of my head was open to my vision. I will continue holding the visual of light, dazzling light streaming down from somewhere above me, lighting up this main tube that runs down to my lower parts. It is my ability to hold my attention still and conscious. Then the obscurity opens up to me. Is this the pain I’ve been feeling in my lower back and abdomen? Why I’ve been led to reach up first and to then bring the light from above me down? It is as if my lower back pain is blocked. I can feel it blocked through the pain, the aching dull pain is very loud. It is holding me in a tight squeeze, like a girdle. I keep stroking and rubbing my lower back, hoping to release it. Several days ago I was shown the sacrum and the four holes in the sacrum bone out of which nerves come. I think that’s what they are there for. This picture became clearer over the last few days. I’ve been led to re-examine craniosacral therapy. I found Paula Terry. Someone I met through Tamsen, who has a training and therefore holds a concept of the cranioscral flow, even if limited to physical. Still it is an educational focus that craniosacral therapists have. They are trained by John Upledger, who now has schools around the world.
7/29/23 - A helpful message from higher realms
Q: Dear Spirit Master and guide, what can I do today to clear the decks and make room for creative tasks like writing and taping?
A: "First tell yourself what it is you want to accomplish. There are places in your mind that are covered over and need to be scrubbed away. Find a way to polish the jewel. Burnish the thick coat. We are here to help but you are the one to do the work. It is your awareness that must sparkle and shine and direct us to help, not we you. You are the one in embodiment - covered in denseness and you must shake your density off and uncover the light within. It is the light that is moving through you as you meditate and do your breath work. Keep shaking and moving the thickness that is your body. Move it around. Shake it up. Breathe strong and forceful. And walk. Take walks. Don’t eat such heavy foods. Eat light foods so your body becomes lighter."
Q: Thank you for coming forth this morning. Is there anything else you would like to say to me? I am here and conscious of a crystal jutting out of a pristine ocean beneath my feet with sunlight. Could you comment on this?
A: "Fire and water come together. Crystal is fire solidified. Jewels contain passion and soul, a deep desire to serve the creator. It is the desire that is encapsulated as a rock, as a stone, as a gem. The color represents the vibration of desire. Each is unique. The pristine water is broken by a solidified form of desire - the purest form since it is white or transparent. The calm waters of life, gentle and at peace, the sun shining down and warming, no movement but the appearance of desire, beautifully formed. A crystal growing out of the Mother’s body. A clear, transparent quartz crystal jutting up and out of the serenity and calmness. It is an anchor for you with which to hold yourself steady. Use it as your light beneath your feet upon which to stand and hold as an image when you soar into the sky and the sun. You have an anchored desire to pull you back now. It is yours to use as you will."
Thank you! Namaste. I request closure now. Thank you! I love you. I honor you.
7/29/23 - Drumming in the new earth
Awakening at 3:00 am with a sense of drumming and words speaking in my mind - beating, pounding and singing the new age into the body. Whenever there is a down feeling, get the drum out and start thumping and chanting and telling the air and the body and the earth that the new earth is here, a new age, a lighter age, a new story, a new heart beat. Sing it, dance it, prance it, joy it out loud, into the air, tell your body, lift the old up out of existence with the new beat, chant it, dance it, see it, feel it, pound it, tell the story of the light, of the good, of the share, of the peace, of the connectedness, of the dream that is coming in on waves of love. Beat it, thunk it, dream it, chant it, sing it, flow it out on sound waves, move it through the atmosphere, let the earth, the trees, the birds, the bees, the grass, the flowers hear you sing and dance and move. Bring the sound of the new earth, the lighter earth, the caring earth, tell the story, chant the story, the beat, the rhythm, the frequency, the up-note, the positive note, tell it, beat it, chant it, sing it. Yes! Yes! You got it. It’s in your blood. It’s in your bones. It’s in your muscles, tissues, it’s home. It’s here, it’s real, it’s now you’ve got it. Keep the beat. Keep it. Beat it. Sound it every day. “The old is rotten. Let it go. Let the new come through. I can handle it. Can you?” (Words coming into my mind along with the drumming.)
After I wrote this out I couldn’t get back to sleep, I was too alert and awake. I lay and wondered what should I do? I couldn’t help myself. I just got up! And went and took the drum off the wall in the med room and put on my night shirt I think and went downstairs barefoot. I stopped in the living room where Doug was reading his phone and I said, “Don’t think me crazy but I am going outside to drum” and I was thumping the drum. He looked at me and said, “Well, don’t do it here please.” So I left and went to the patio and still hearing and feeling the drum beat and the rhythm within me, I started chanting out loud. I felt it so strongly and I felt the air and the insects and the grass.
My mind clicked into the wild animals and birds and trees and felt the wholeness, the connectedness, the wideness and I saw with inner vision swirlings of energies and a vortex appeared and swirled and through the vortex, as if a pounding from the other side and it broke through and water gushed out and filled the atmosphere with new water. It’s coming more and more and I am a part of it. I too am coming forth and out into expression. The holding back has been punctured. It is flowing the wholeness is flowing. As in the early days of kundalini when I was in the midst of flowing, the first signs of letting up is a sense of letting up. A sense of “it’s slowing down” and soon the flow began to subside and I knew it was over. Then I went back up stairs to bed and to sleep again. When I woke up it was dawn and the day had started.
7/25/23 - The ancient agenda of the male: sex stops the flow of love
On this day during exercises I had a huge downflow of a revelation. I spent an hour writing it out and asking my higher self for confirmation. She responded. I share this openly since these revelations affect most of humanity, like it or not. Putting pen to paper I am writing out the sudden breakthrough of understanding - asking, questioning - is it true?
Dear I AM, Is it true that an orgasmic release is an abortion? That it kills and prevents the cosmic fire from flowing upward to complete its flow? An orgasm – a FORCED orgasm that is, as when I did it with the vibrator because I couldn’t have one without, was that an abortion? Did it indeed kill the flow in me that the loving had begun? Then I kept doing it all through my swinging career. I started with feeling the love by hugging and embracing the people. Then I felt the love flowing as I embraced people with the closeness of their bodies, but then as I interacted with men, I was encouraged by the men to use the vibrator and to have an orgasm. I forced the climax on myself. I kept aborting the love flowing through by having an orgasm?!?! Oh my! I am just now realizing. Is this true? Killing the flow of the fire of life and forcing it back down, to hunker back down, to retreat, to stop the flow, the eternal immortal fire of LIFE that should have been allowed to flow upward? I kept having the orgasm and forcing it OUT into the 2nd chakra and that ended the flow right then and there. Is that right? I am questioning the validity of that revelation. It stopped the loving flow from happening and going on up further and completing its flowing. But, and this is a big but, perhaps my soul directed that? To keep me, my outer body/personality focused on THIS world? To keep me local on the planet in the physical matrix, in the 3rd dimensional matrix? Is this why it happened? And why I kept saying over and over, “I’m tired of this? I don’t want to do this any more?“ I kept journaling that over and over. Oh my God!!! Please will you give me some words of advice and encouragement?”
(My I Am Presence responds:) "My dear one! My lovely beautiful daughter! I have brought my two beautiful daughters together so they may support each other and carry on the work that is the work of the ages – the work of bringing love into the solid concrete world of form and matter. Both of you are ready to pick up where you left off, together now. Each of you are NOW ready. You have each had to find your own way back to Source – YOUR source. Not someone else’s source. You are your Father’s child. I am your Mother who guides you thru the thicket; the solid matter constructed by the zealous male. Yes! The zealous male is on fire with zeal. Look up that word. [means great energy and enthusiasm] It is an important word to keep in mind. Now you are noticing your hunched-over shoulders as you write my words, and the stress is mounting because you are holding your body stiff in a locked-down position. Give yourself a break. Go! Do your physical movements and let your source move through you. Let the waves come forth, as the grandmothers gave to Sharon [McErlane, Net of Light]. There must be a rhythm to the flowing and ebbing.
Ebbing is the resting time. Be at rest, and then allow the flow to come again. Rest and flow are natural cycles. Allow them. Recognize them. Become conscious of them. Use them constructively. And yes, you are correct. Exactly correct in your recognition that you yourself terminated the flow of love by using the vibrator to orgasm. You did it to reach the desired goal. It deadened the flow – dead-ended the flow – brought the flowing energy to a finish. And this over time caused your anger, your frustration to build up. The flow stopped and became blocked. It dammed up. Backed up. Became squashed. Electrons became squeezed together and uncomfortable. They came into pain. The electrons are alive with the fires of life and you stopped them from flowing. You KNEW the flow of love needed to keep flowing. You knew this and you knew it was real, but you bought into the agenda of the male, came under the pressure of the male. You allowed it. YOU were the problem. YOU allowed this to happen to you.
The ancient agenda of male works by focusing his attention on an outcome. He does not need or want the female around when he is working. He has forgotten to be in balance himself. He has become out of alignment and backed up with stress and tension himself. So he seeks the female for relief and release. Then he needs the female as a receiver for his stress and tension. It is by focus that the male is able to carry forth their plan to build concrete worlds. For love would not have allowed the concretization of matter into structured form. Love would have allowed the electrons of fire to keep moving and flowing, refreshing and staying light and liquid. It is an unbalanced world that you entered, to bring forth love. It was the Plan to enter the world of unbalanced concrete form and release it with love, by flowing love. It is the plan of all the souls who are born of love, to release the blocks that obstruct the flow. You have come to dismantle the concretization. You have done exceptionally well, my beloved sister friend. Use your sister friend Trisha to complete the flowing of love. You will know what to do. You are One. We are One, you and I." (end)
PS from me: Settling down energy is a dying energy if not careful. I know from my long history of being “settled comfortably into my comfort zone”. This needs to be explored. When a person starts settling in and becoming comfortable, the way an older person does, that’s when the dying energy starts creeping in. I am truly sorry to have to say that, BUT, it is being active that keeps the cosmic fire burning and moving and flowing through a body.
7/24/23 - Revealings during a morning exercise
Today during exercises I became aware of the need to form a chalice above my head open to the sky, constantly, like a funnel, to collect the golden electrons consciously. I should do this more often while exercising. Should I keep it open all day? The golden life force in the form of golden sparkling electrons comes down through the chalice (per the Maha Chohan). It is my own consciousness that collects them through my alertness, awareness and attention. I have been closed to it. I’ve been trying to pump energy from inside my spinal column and coccyx but energy can’t be replaced if there’s no new energy coming in. I’m closed. I need to maintain an open channel consciously, or my body becomes a fixed vessel, closed and growing old. No wonder life becomes boring and dull, recycling the same old stuff all the time. I lose interest. The form grows old and eventually dies on the vine because there is no new fresh life force. Fresh life force comes in through a CONSCIOUS open channel that reaches up into the higher realms of myself, to the sea of conscious life, pure, and exquisite and innocent and fresh, to which all life eventually returns and springs out of. As DK said, “Go in and UP!” to connect with the I Am Presence. How could I have missed this?
Sri Aurobindo was the first one to alert us to the downward flow of kundalini. I noticed today that when I do exercises and I remember to keep an open channel to the infinite, that the fresh new sparkling electrons coming down into my body via the breath replaces the old ones and creates a refreshing feeling in my body. I am noticing it for the first time. Yoga teachers instruct their students to keep an open mind to the sky while doing the exercises. It creates a feeling of lightness. All practices have a goal of providing lightness, the higher the light, the better. It’s like moving old marbles out of the way with new marbles in a ground game of marbles. It is my own consciousness that does it. I have to be conscious and alert and pay attention. Hold attention open. I must be aware of what I’m doing. Conscious awareness is the key.
We are ALL only consciousness. God is awareness. Or lack, thereof. That’s all we are, awareness, currently inhabiting a physical body vessel which is made of old material and the old material dies if it’s not replenished. I’m here to learn and understand. It is my consciousness that is doing the replenishing and rebuilding and resurrecting. I am giving my body conscious direction, awareness and commandments by being quickened and alert during my practice time. When I do that I am inviting electrons into my body, a stream of electrons from the sea of life when I do that. I come out of the sea of life daily, hourly, moment by moment. But am I releasing the old? I don't know. I'm not doing it consciously. Is it blocking up in me? I am receiving new information. I am learning. I am sharing what I am learning.
7/23/23 - Crystal Light Body Activation - Video
Just posted in Today's Posts, a 28 minute long youtube by Summer Jenna Lyons. She channels Archangel Chamuel. It was posted two years ago. Last night I was told during sleep to google "Crystal Light Body Activation", so I did and found this website and video. It was a much-appreciated find. Thank you to my guides. Information on light body activation is available online, but I doubt that many people know to look for it. I didn't. So I am posting it here. This is advanced information for those experiencing symptoms that can't be explained, such as sudden dizziness, confusion or sickish, disorienting type feelings that are simply too strange and weird to account for it. Google "Light Body Activation" to explore more.
The Light Body is part of our energy body (aura or presence) which gets activated with increased awareness and with the new energies coming in. The energetic and physical body, the four lower contaminated bodies, then start to release trapped emotions and beliefs, breaking down old paradigms and artificial constructs. This can create problems. The process is often overlooked as a medical condition. It is often accompanied by emotional and physical symptoms like feeling dizzy, disoriented, emotionally disruptive, not well feelings. As we remove old programs and experiences, we are releasing a huge amount of density and making room for more photonic light to run through us, so that our bodies are able to hold much more light. This process can be challenging, but with instruction, guidance and feedback, we can better understand. We are going through a clearing process that most of us have not been prepared for. We are then able to better ground ourselves and work within more normal parameters. The ascension shift we are undergoing at this time is a first-time-ever physical, biological, mental and spiritual evolution of the human species. We are moving out of the 3rd dimension to the 4th and 5th dimension. Our consciousness is expanding to accommodate this evolution, thus we are feeling the constrictions, tightness and resistance which is dizzy and disorienting. We have not been prepared for this. Feel free to contact me if you need a friendly voice to soundboard with. Use the CONTACT page to reach me. I too have been having difficulties. My guides are helping me through it. Also my husband loves me, thank God!
7/22/23 - Born of the Earth now reaching beyond
The words came to me in the night, as usual, so I write them down or I will forget.
I am born of the Earth, the Earth gave me form. The substance of old matter built my form. This old matter was discarded by others when they died and it went back into the earth. The Earth recycles matter that was once used by others. The Earth provides a home for form beings to start out as basic form. The first basic form is mineral. It then grows in self awareness to learn movement, like one-celled amoeba, then two-celled and more. Then self-consciousness grows into rock and then grass and vegetables and trees. Then self-consciousness grows into crawling things on the ground,, then into animals with four legs, then into higher animal forms, taking on more and more self awareness. Then self consciousness grows upright to stand on two legs, and all the while earth is home to this self-conscious being.
We are that human who is now growing upward as a whole race growing more civilized. We are reaching beyond earth, learning more about space and ourselves. We are learning about other galactic civilizations, planets, inhabitants, about the sun, the galaxy and more. Then kundalini starts to expand and geniuses are formed. New brain cells in the head grow beyond earth’s limits. The upright spine opens and the mother flame heats up and burns through what are called veils or chakras and the heat, the intelligence flows further upward. It is kindled and activated by certain asanas, movements, disciplines, learned and taught by teachers. The physiology in matter begins to activate and movement is felt throughout the body, organs, nerves, tissues, there is mystery involved. One must struggle through pain and hysteria, but mastery and control grows firm and sure.
The human race is on its way to reaching beyond the earth planet in understanding and awareness. There is a greater intelligence beyond him and he is excited by this knowing. The spine is the trunk of the human tree of life. When it reaches the brain it pounds through the skull at the top and hits space and more refined intelligence. It activates the brain to more intelligence, to the need for more control over the mind. My mind is clearing more and more and receiving this insight.
7/21/23 - It's my responsibility to change my feelings & energies
If I don't do the necessary work the energies and feelings - and life itself - stays the same. The same old, same old, on into endless future. The work is mine alone to do. I've reached a critical stage in my journey. If I want to change or improve, I have to do the work myself. The doctors can't help - but I'll go anyway just to keep peace in the family.
My head is ready to lift off, so so dizzy, and I speak to my higher self, wondering what advice you would give me? I am asking for help to adjust my energies so I can stay in body a little longer. Oh!! I must do it myself!! I see!! Adjust the energies myself? OK. I capped off all my chakras just now, cut off the dangling energies that were extending out and trailing off into the world ahead of me. This act is strengthening my backbone. The chakra cores are in the spinal cord on an etheric level. I am doing the I AM Light chant slowly articulating the words, emphasizing the words, spinning the chakras. I am breathing in Oregano oil now. It is surprising how helpful it is. It had a troubling influence on my lower abdomen in front, disturbing the digestion system.
I did the "love-the-organs" exercise, and the violet flame but restricting it to my head. My head is swirling. I asked to remove toxins or if it’s too much light. I don’t know which to ask for. Should I ask to cut down the light, or increase it? I am confused and don’t know what to do. I continued doing the routine exercises, did the torus and infinity breath and the others. A serious meditation followed and ended near midnight.
I went to sleep and slept well. In the morning I woke up still chanting the I AM Light in my semi-conscious state. As I sat up I felt much lighter and began preparing for the day, getting only small stabs of the bad old sick energy that caused my brain to spin dizzily. I continued calling for alignment of the four lower bodies - physical, emotional, mental, spiritual - asking them or rather directing them to surrender to the God forces within.
The last few days I've had a distinct return to an old timeline when kundalini was active in me, so I am now tuning into that time in my life, imagining what I looked like then and felt back then. A lot of purity, innocence and love, along with super high activity. A different energy. I see I must adjust my perspective of today. It is more broken up than it was back then. I must make the correction myself. I have been thinking people don’t understand, but I see that everyone is understanding from their own perspective, as I am. I must return to non-judgment, more openness, more acceptance of people. All people understand what they understand and must be honored for that. Must be loved regardless of who or where they are. They have their own connection to Source, just as I do. Everyone is processing their own understanding of who they are in relation to Source. My judgment of others is wrong. I have to correct this attitude. This is not a human world, it is the creator's world. The creator is in charge. The creator is changing people from within, inside, where it counts. I must see it that way and everything in it is creator’s world blossoming. This is a drastic correction to normal thinking. The pure crystal light body is coming through to me, it is seeping into my consciousness causing me disorientation. It is coming outward into manifestation, into understanding, into my reality. I must assist it. Each person must do this for themselves. My awareness is changing. I’m not to be proactive after all. I thought I was here to become stronger and more active, but I've been wrong. That’s the world of duality causing me to think that way. Either/or. Now I see that I am to become merged to the love within that is trying to manifest, the crystal light body is activating in me.
I did the violet flame and the regular routine this morning and began zoning out into higher fields. I felt the wham of nearly passing out but made myself come back to finish the routine. I started zoning out again but forced myself not to go. The light energy is powerful! It is lifting me higher. I am aware that the crystal light body is an eternal, unpolluted, never changing pattern within me. I see it. I feel it. I know it is there within my consciousness. I have neglected it. It is not somewhere outside of me. My job, my role, my responsibility is to re-enforce it to make it stronger and more real in me. I have to find ways to activate it and merge with it. I have to spend time doing this. I have to yield my human ways, human habits, human sub-routines to the lighter larger consciousness within me. I started zoning out again. This time I allowed myself to go with it. It was easy, a great peace came upon me, it was elevating, taking me over. I haven’t felt this in a long time. I’m connecting with the the ways I experienced back when kundalini was first active. I had lost this connection. Love is now around me influencing me. I asked, "Is it possible to feel the connection as once I did?" The answer was immediate.
"Yes. The crystal light body is the babe born of the Mother and the Father’s input. Both are crossed together to make the holy crystal self. Both are needed to grow the baby, the light child takes from both influences - both Heaven and Earth influences. Both immortal and mortal. The holy child, the crystal light body, grows from their/our influence. This is you being born underneath the human exterior/error. Humans were led away from the holiness - the wholeness, virtue and truth - and so became lost. But the crystal light body is always there for you are the holy one in the original seeding. It is within you. As you reconnect with it, your error side that you gave so much of your life to, feels hurt, rejected, abandoned and disempowered. Any negative feeling, ALL negative feelings are from this part of you, your dark web. Nurse it through to its inevitable demise. It is painful, yes, but the promised land is inevitable. It will come forward to bless your life as you continue and give yourself love, patience and kindness. Hang tight to the light."
7/20/23 - The river of light in the heart known as the Christ
It was during the back bend recently that I had the following revelation. It came in one large package of awareness, and now I will use many words to describe it. There have been some wild fluctuations over the past months as I veer wildly through unknown territory. Dimensions? I try first one approach, then another, and another. Dizziness is causing the swinging madly back and forth between crown of head and tailbone and off in other directions. It has been quite a wild time. Bad sickish feelings come to say "not this way", and then clarity appears to point another way, revelations appear. My energies speed up, then slow down. My mind is a runaway train that I lose control over, but determination makes me hold on as the train swerves around corners.
There have been a series of breakthrough revelations. This one tops it off. It is the realization that the ONLY one who can hold me together is the Christ self of the heart, known in religion as the Holy Christ Self, and by the spiritual community as the crystalline light body. Mental understanding did not bring me to this realization. Only direct contact made an impact and broke through the confusion. The one known as "the first born" or "the Christ" is always the one who brings forth the truth and the purity we seek. It is the crystalline light that holds the Father/Mother purity together. This consciousness has to be built. It is not there until we build it. The space for it is in the vehicle's heart on a more refined etheric level as a growing awareness. The awareness grows slowly. Is built slowly.
The Mother consciousness is in the a bulbous container wrapped around the tailbone, known as the first chakra. It was sent down into matter at the time of conception to anchor the life for the soul to use while it sojourned on earth. The Father consciousness remains above in the abstract, and does not enter into the material matter body but the Father and Mother consciousness are one and the same. They are only divided during the temporary lifespan of the soul's embodiment. It is the mission of the soul to bring these two God consciousnesses together - the Father and the Mother. One in the tail bone and one in spirit. The one in the tailbone is wrapped in an etheric bubble called kundalini in Sanskrit. It is also called the holy spirit in the Christian religion. Father God has provided an individual representation of Himself called the Monad. The Monad is connected to the physical body at the crown of the head, and may respond as the soul calls to it. The Monad is abstract spiritual intelligence.
The soul's mission is to bring these two divine intelligences - Father God and Mother God - together for they are one and the same divinity. They are separated only for the duration of the embodied life of the soul in material matter. The purpose of the soul's embodiment is to explore for clues of its divine origin and to trace it. In so doing, it then brings the encapsulaed Mother spirit in the tail bone up through the spine to meet the abstract Father spirit above the head. The goal is to bring the two parent sources together in the heart. The Father God source cannot descend below the heart, and the Mother God source cannot ascend above the heart, until they are brought together within the heart to give birth to the crystalline light body within the chest area, the etheric heart. Then a great sense of peace prevails. A peace that it is written "passes all understanding." It is home. The birth of the pure Christ consciousness takes place. It DOES happen in people. It is not a myth, or a lie. It is real and it is normal and it is expected. The soul knows on inner levels what it is looking for. The problem is, the outer self has become distracted by many voices that are not real. The crystal pure consciousness then remains unrachable. It is quiet and saintly, gentle and uncontaminated intelligence. It is located in the chest, in the region of the heart. This is the mid-way point between the crown of the head and the tailbone, where the Mother Kundalini dwells, locked in place until the soul begins to purify itself and look to clean up its life.
This is a study that I have been involved in for many years and, suddenly, it is coming to a conclusion. The pieces of the puzzle are finding each other and fitting themselves together. I did not know how to do it myself, but my greater self has been in charge. I turned the job over as a process of surrendering to my higher nature. Suddenly there are things clicking into place. Saint Germain is also making himself known to me and speaking to me in various ways. His voice is uniquely powerful, more powerful than DK's voice, but he is speaking through Geoffrey Hoppes. I asked "Why is it in the Heart?" And the answer explained that the pure crystal consciousness, the one known as the Christ down through the ages, is the only "first born" consciousoness in the material world. All else is fake, phoney and not pure. The individual ego is an illusion and a separated construct make from errors and mistakes. The individual ego lives as a shadow consciousness, and it trails like a dark web all through the body, helter-skelter. It wanders around the tissues, bone and blood like a lost puppy without a home. It does not know itself. It seeks for answers and makes up its own answers. Meanwhile the crystalline consciousness is also present but it has not been identified yet. It is too refined to be seen or known. It is the child, the son or daughter of the Father God and Mother God, and it is present in every human body, but too refined to be seen. The soul has not discovered it yet. So it is that lifetime after lifetime the soul is born and dies and is born again to explore, search and seek for clues as to who it is. It comes back again and again, and is born in other worlds, other planets, as well as on Earth.
Individual thoughts run like dark threads all thru the body, especially in the head. The brain is the storehouse of our individual experiences. We keep a record in our head of past experiences, beliefs and habits. These are not memories of the "first born" crystalline self, for it has not made an appearance yet on the planet(s). The "first born" is the real self, the higher self, the permanent self that lives life after life after life, waiting to be touched and tapped for its purity. The soul is drawn to the task, not sure how to go about it. The individual who feels lost and alone sometimes and at other times high on excitement and has the pleasure of belonging to a group or a family, is the soul experiencing duality. It has good times and bad times and slowly it builds awareness of a higher self that exists beyond its low esteem. Then the day comes that it encounters its true self by having a direct contact experience. It then steps for the first time upon the spiritual path that leads inward. Inward and outward, back and forth. At first it does not recognize itself as God, but it is drawn to explore deeper. It may join a religious group, temple or monastery, for the soul is on a mission to find its true nature. The soul itself is hidden buried within the darker shadows of human nature so that the ego is unaware that it is a soul, and is unaware that it is God.
The individual ego is a facet of the crystalline self - the only true self there is. It is not whole or complete until it becomes fully realized and embodied as itself. Everyone’s personality is a facet of the Christ but there is only ONE Christ. The one crystalline Christ is in the heart, a position located half way between the crown of the head and the tailbone. When it is time the soul begins seriouso exploration, as I am doing now. It works at owning it, making it its own personal consciousness. It must make it real and it is done by picturing it, imagining it and holding the picture for longer and longer periods of time. It is important to imagine the best and most beautiful image of oneself as it can find. A photo even of many years ago, it doesn't matter. It must be one that FEELS whole and right. I have found such a picture. A picture that speaks to me in my feelings of love and praise and worship. Now I am imbuing it with patterns of colored light, dazzling white light, blue light, gold light, green light. There are seven pure colors to be brought DOWN from higher realms and installed into the new me that I am building in my heart. There are many techniques that have been taught over the years. It is in the heart that one must focus when it is time to build the crystalline light body. There is a pattern waiting to be filled in at that location in the heart. It is a pattern of the purist, clearest, most REAL image possible, but it's too refined to see so one must build into it from the ground up. From where we are today, in the current reality. The pattern is like an architect's blueprint that the builders refer to as they start building in concrete material, pouring the foundation for the future building. The Christ must be built into the body and it can only be done by the soul itself, by the consciousness and intelligence and the love and the will power of the lesser self which does not know but struggles to know and is drawn to know.
The heart is in the middle of the chest, between the tail bone and the crown of head. We can use the physical heart as a reference point in the beginning, but eventually the light will surpass the smallness of the physical heart, and an auric glow will appear. They say it will appear right through the physical skin. It grows and expands over time beyond the physical nature of the heart but it can begin there. The heart pumps the blood and the light is carried on the blood stream to all parts of the body so the light is imprinted into the body structure itself. We grow the light into the blood by holding various images of crystalline light in our imagination while chanting, singing, praying or speaking. There are many techniques that may be used to build the crystalline light body within the physical flesh body.
The heart is in the center of the chest where the heart and lungs are located. The lungs breathe in and out and pump the heart, helping to distribute the light that is held consciously by the only person who can build its crystalline light body. No one else can build it for someone else. Father God is the abstract pure divine intelligence flowing the pure light down through the crown of the head, if and when the crown is open. And Mother God is the life force (kundalini) flowing the light up the spine. The soul strives to bring the two God sources together to meet in the heart, where a great peace is experienced in that divine union, and the birth of the Christ consciousness takes place during that interlude of joining. The Father and the Mother come together in the heart at the midway point between the human body and the divine abstract intelligence. The Mother is the nurturer and protector of the form. The Father is the one infinite Creator of all that is.
Between these two parent lights the one and only Christ is built through alert conscious mindful application of imagery, tones, and willful direction of thought. We have to build our own Christ consciousness. No one can do it for us. But love is a wonderful assistance to those around us who are our friends, family and associates. Love is the tool, comfort and peace are allies as we learn and grow. The only divine energy comes from within. It comes from the Father and the Mother being brought together as one. They are the birthers of the eternal life through the son or daughter, now being constructed by us in our own hearts. Energy does not come from outsiders. It comes from our inner sources. We are drawn inward to the inner senses, whisperings, guidance, and instincts. The time comes when we learn to remove ourselves from the distractions of the outer world, in order to spend more quiet time alone with our inner God self. The world is full of dark errors and beliefs. We learn through trial and error and turn them off. Politely, not with violence or anger, but with quiet withdrawal. The world calls us to listen but eventually their voices fade as the inner path starts to glow more warmly and calls to us. The inner path is one we must walk alone. Our responsibility is to pay attention. We may live with and enjoy the presence of our brothers and sisters, but we learn to do it respectfully, with discernment and wisdom, for they too are following their own path within and need the solitude. It is the coming way of the new Earth. We are friends along the way with compatible others as we leave those who are not compatible to walk away. As we grow quieter and wiser, we settle more comfortably into our own light within, yet still have our special close friends for companionship.
7/19/23 - Technique for energizing the body - spin the chakras
Lately I have been learning some new techniques to stir up energy and increase vitality. It started with difficulty breathing. First it was disorientation, then dizziness, then by practicing certain techniques, clear-headedness. Then back to dizziness until I get it right. I am still learning and practicing. Some of these energy techniques are too subtle to explain in words. It would take pages to spell it out. But this is a very good one to share if a person is having difficulty breathing or can't catch their breath. The key is to do this regularly, every day, or twice a day or even three times a day. It seems to work for me.
One night my breathing was very bad and in my despair I asked for instructions. Always ask when you are desperate. I do. Your higher self WILL answer. We often forget that we have an advisor ALWAYS on hand. Or did you know? Trust that you will get an answer in the form of a thought or idea or simply an instinct. It will suddenly dawn on you or appear to you as a thought. The higher self speaks through instinct, thought and ideas. After all, the higher self IS you. You will know what to do. It is your own mind that tells you if you are alert to your own self and not being distracted by someone else. On this occasion I was told to do the following.
"Inhale while spinning the chakra clockwise, exhale while spinning the chakra counter-clockwise."
Imagine a transparent horizontal tube running through the chakra, for example the navel. The navel is a good one to start with. It is the portal to the emotional chakra. Spin the tube clockwise as if you were standing behind yourself. Then exhale while spinning the tube counterclockwise. Again, as if standing behind yourself. Spin the tube clockwise on the inhale, and counterclockwise on the exhale. Do this at least 10 times, inhaling and exhaling.
Next, imagine a transparent tube running all the way down around the spinal column from crown to below your feet. Use your own feeling about how wide the tube should be. Perhaps start with an inch or two in diameter. You can widen it or make it smaller as you feel to. I follow my instinct on that. Again, inhale while spinning the tube clockwise (as imagined from above the head) and exhale while spinning the tube counterclockwise.
This was a very specific instruction. Someone was guiding me to “inhale clockwise, exhale counterclockwise" and was shown where and how to position myself. I lay down and practiced the breathing. I then received the words:
“Inhale God’s love down on the inhale, and exhale God’s love back up on the exhale."
“Inhale, descend and contract. Exhale, ascend and release."
"Inhale descend into form, exhale release from form.”
“Inhale the world, exhale the world.”
I pictured the world forming into concrete reality on the inhale, and releasing from concrete reality on the exhale. I continued to have a heavy chest and a hard time breathing. I continued to spin the chakras. I was next brought into the position of sitting up and clapping hands. This was instinctive. I hadn't planned it. It was automatic. As I clapped my hands I began chanting a familiar phrase which I use - “Peace, love, light, joy, freedom, grace, gratitude"
Send the light OUT!!! I was reminded. The words came strongly to me, as if shouting at me. There is only so much light you can build and cram into your body! You have to release it! Light is meant to flow, not be stored and die slowly to death in place. Move itl!! Move it around!! Activate your body. The light is getting too crammed up inside the body. Breathe!! Breathe it out!! Light is love. Breathe it out on your breath. Distribute it to the world around you. Don't hold it under lock and key. Spread it around, even if it's into the air around you. Engage with the world. Distribute it to others.
Do this as a routine. Inhale the light down into the physical body and exhale the light up or out and away from the physical. Make it move. Activate it. Distribute it. Clap your hands and chant out loud. Difficulty breathing is caused by the energy of life slowing down to a slower, lower vibration, to a standstill. It must be reactivated.
Follow your instincts on this. What feels right and true and good to you.
7/16/23 - The rainbow bridge called "Antahkarana"
A new revelation concerning where bad energies come from. These blogs are more like journals for ME, rather than to persuade or educate the reader. Sharing information in public forum helps me, because I am not holding onto the information as if it were some big secret. When I hold onto new informatioin, it becomes cumbersome and gets stuck in my brain like a treasure that someday I will have to get rid of. It's like cleaning out a closet that hasn't been touched in years. There's so much junk in there that I had no idea where it even came from in the first place. This is one of the most valuable lessons I have learned along the way: keep telling people about what you know. It's a form of letting it go free, plus it is of value to the population. It is a form of contributing to the whole. Let it go free like the bird since it came to you free. Don't keep it in a cage locked up. Many people do, simply because they think nobody will understand so why bother? I always feel free and elevated after I've blogged something that is important to me.
The word Antahkarana came to me many years ago, being a student of the spiritual sciences. I knew it was the rainbow bridge intellectually, but that's about all I knew about it. Over the last few days I have come face to face with it. It is now not only in my face but inside of me running up and down my spine. Because I am directing and breathing the colors into my spine as I understand it. It is now a part of my conscious awareness and focus. It is having a clearing effect on me. I understand its purpose now. Overnight it has cleared up my dizziness issues. Hopefully. We will see about that in a few more weeks, but I feel sure it is the solution. I want to share it openly here. Google "Antahkarana" to learn more if you feel inclined. One of the best authorities is Benjamin Creme at esoteric-philosophy dot net.
For would-be metaphysical students: this is a nutshell version of the Antahkarana. The divine self is encapsulated in an etheric ball of light surrounding the coccyx. It is known as the Mother, and it was placed there before the embryo is born. It was sent by the Father to prepare the form body and help it grow, feed it and nurture it in the world of planetary material substance. The Father remains beyond form in the heavens. The Father is the creator and is abstract intelligence, while Mother is the care-giver and nurturer of the form body.
After many lifetimes in form, from primitive up to today, a soul (a human being) evolves in understanding. It grows through many personalities alternating being born in both genders male and female, in different countries, different worlds, through different times and different locations, until the soul is ready to meet the Father again. There is a purpose for the many lives. It is a soul evolving matter into a more refined human being. God the Father with the help of the Mother is evolving a world of enlightened human beings. The Mother is known as the Higher Self. There is always a Higher Self available at any moment of the day in us. She is closer than hands and feet. She is literally our breath. All we have to do is call upon her, but we have to know and trust. The Mother is ALWAYS there feeding the soul, caring for the soul, cradling the soul, whispering love and wisdom into the soul. If only we had this instruction earlier in life!
Well, the new age is all about the movement upward into higher consciousness where our children's children will learn about such things. The children of the next generations will have an easier time of it, for this will become public knowledge.
So, after many lifetimes living in a physical body, a soul (a human being) is ready to meet the Father. But first some preparation is necessary. Some spiritual interest in the soul is required. This is metaphysical information, not every-day practical information for the average person. Someone has to have a calling to explore. Who and what is the soul? Being prepped about the seven virtues or the seven truths, or the seven colors, or the seven tones, or the seven purities (there are many words for the same thing) and listening and studying is how we are prepared mentally to understand. This is how we slowly evolve our human understanding about the Antahkarana. The rainbow bridge is the slow dawning of understanding of the seven chakras or seven dimensions of consciousness. Studying will lead us to the divine Father. The son of the Father is the soul. We didn't know that growing up. The son is the soul, and the soul was integrated at birth into a local time and space and fed a lot of information about cultural "do's and don'ts", sin and shame and fear, etc. So the soul didn't have a chance to learn about the Father in the old world of sin and shame. Today, however, the times they are a'changing. We are growing more sophisticated as a society.
Well, that's it in a nutshell. Oh, I forgot to mention: my dizziness cleared up as the result of this change-over. Dizziness, and cloudiness of mind was the result of confusion, not knowing and not having a mental (formal) preparation. It was time for the body to die, its time was up. But because I very seriously demanded an explanation, because I KNEW my time wasn't up yet, then I was given instruction - inner instruction - virtually overnight. If you ask seriously enough for instruction and demand to know "Why?" you will get an answer. I have come to see and recognize now the rainbow bridge. Being awakened in the night and told what to do, I am now practicing the techniques given to me during arduous sleep-wake-sleep periods. I would be glad to assist or soundboard with anyone who feels compelled to contact me. Just write to me thru the contact page. There are some youtubes on the internet that discuss it. Check out Chloe Folan HERE if interested. I just checked this morning for the first time but have not begun to listen.
The rainbow bridge consists of seven colors, dimensions, tones, purities, etc. Understanding is required to connect the Father in heaven with the Mother in the body. The Mother in the body is the life force of the body. She provides the breath of life. She cares like any good Mother does. As long as there is life flowing in the body, the divine Mother is there feeding the body and preparing the divine child for the Father's connection to the body. The many lifetimes we live are preparation in how to manage our human vehicle "better". It is always about doing it "better", no matter WHAT it is we are involved in. It's all about refining ourselves and learning better ways to accomplish our tasks. That includes being more compassionate with others we work with, more honest with them, being more precise with them such as not sloughing them off because we're too busy. There are many ways to do it "better" than we did it before. Better means evolving from past mistakes. Feeling good about yourself is a natural benefit and result from doing it "better". Doing it more intelligently, more refined, more pure, more true, more loving, perhaps more stern, or better at explaining or better at focusing attention. It is always about "betterment". And by looking to higher, more refined realms, that brings us ultimately more joy, more peace, more harmony and a better life. The higher realms come down to us from the Father closer to the dense physical form via the rainbow bridge. As we tune into the Mother we also tune into the Father.
7/15/23 - Where do bad depressing energies come from?
One morning a month ago I called to my I AM Presence (higher God self) seeking council. I have done many what could be called "automatic writings" over the years, but I feel to share this one since it is recent. I know other people are also experiencing weird strange confusing moods, thoughts and feelings, and they can be very depressing indeed. It is difficult to know what to do with them. Some kind of insight or understanding would be helpful. Listen to what my Higher Self says about it, and take heart. It is apparently a necessary stage that we must go thru in the big "shift" from 3D to 5D. It's a cleansing and everyone is going through the same thing.
I asked: Dear Beloved I AM, I seek some feedback from you. I have questions, and seek answers that only you can give me. What is the cause of my “bad” feelings of isolation and separation? Am I under attack? Am I drawing “bad” feelings to me? Where are they coming from? Why am I seemingly inundated with “bad” feelings? What can I do? What direction should I take? Or should I just be patient (I’m getting I should be patient) and it will go away? Is it karma I am burning off? Dross? Will you teach me, tell me, guide me, assure me? The answer is as follows:
"My Dear, you are my only precious child and I am here waiting for you to come to me. Come to me more often with your pen and clipboard. Let me talk to you in a way that YOU can hear me. Even as Daniel Scranton must listen in HIS own way. Yes, my child. You are burning dross. It is the final remnants of your ancient form life. You have had many forms. Come out of your hiding place now and let the violet flame help you burn the toxins from your system. Ask me and I will tell you. You are very close to final moments. Do not try to presume or anticipate. Let the wounds open and drain out of you. It is a bleeding, as in olden days they would open the skin and let the infection drain out of the body. You are doing this now. In your surrendering of your human past you are letting them surface so you can feel them as sick and depressing. Feel them as they float outward, upward, into the atmosphere. You are sending them home to your highest God Father. Back to the light. You are doing well to send them Home with love and thanksgiving. Let them return to the light and the love of the Father-Mother. Send them with love. Nurture your new space with love, self-love. Do not try to create a new project now. Let the old diminish and fade until you are empty and at peace.
(Thank you beloved I AM. Do you have a closing thought for me? Where do these confusing thoughts come from? I should know better but I don't.)
"They were created in past lives. You repressed them in favor of peace and expressing peace. Yes, as a priestess and Tantric master, you were on the mission of teaching love, but you still received the wandering thoughts of those around you, for you had no answers to give them. They have piled up in you, creating holding patterns within you. You yourself did wonder and you had no way of expressing the no answer. You continued doing the only thing you knew how to do and that was to love the people who came to you. You are now reaping the final energies that accumulated. Let them come and let them go. There will come a time when you will be able to once again teach the Law of Love in physical action. (pause for light language) That is why you are a writer now. You want to tell the people the reasons why, the causes, the responses, reactions, expressions. You are accumulating many words."
(OK, thank you. Are we done? Is there something more I should hear from you, my beloved I AM?)
"My heart to your heart. We are one. Know that I am you and you are me and we are One." (End)
7/14/23 - The auric field and its four lower bodies
There are seven levels to the aura. See the various charts showing up on the internet. These are just symbolic. The truth is more real and subject to one's own sense of right and wrong. Each level shown expanding wider and wider on the chart is on a higher frequency than the one below it. Higher frequency means the electrons that whirl around its central sun whirl faster than the level below. The tighter into the body the level is, the heavier its density and the slower the frequency. On the physical body level, the electrons are slowed down to a bare crawl in order to hold the body fixed in place on the earth. But the electrons are still whirling, have not doubt about it. We CAN change our bodies as we become more aware. On the lower frequency levels the electrons slow down through the process of focusing small, tiny and becoming detail-oriented. This is how we pick up wrong thoughts and we cling onto them, thinking they are "right". They then become stuck in time and space. It is done because we THINK them over and over in our time and space. They become "stuck". When we clear up the errors in thinking and believing, through intelligent thought and analysis, the electrons start to spin faster. By surrendering tightly held thoughts and turning it over to love and light, we can change our lives very quickly and move ourselves on. This is a brief summary of the teachings.
The four lower bodies are filled with contaminated beliefs that may not necessarily be wrong, but they are stuck in a holding pattern. They have been built from childhood and held in the consciousness of the person without the person realizing it. Becoming aware of a wrongly held mistake and letting that old belief go, release it, is how we cleanse our time and space. And the electrons can spin faster. Our frequency raises higher because the electrons start whirling and throwing off the heavy yoke of pressure. Elation, happiness, enthusiam, freedom, excitement, vitality is among the many feelings that might result. It is a raising of frequency, the number of times an electron spins around its central sun. This causes a higher feeling of vibration, a thrill you could say, throughout the body. Notice feelings of "thrill"!
Each human has three HIGHER bodies on higher levels that are not contaminated ever. And never will be. They are pure God-light. As we click into our own God-light which is on the higher enthusiasm levels, you could say, we become more aware of happiness, peace, elation, inspiration, reverence, even holiness. But realization comes slowly because we are so weighed down with the human condition. We live inside the human condition. We are a product of the human condition, which is heavy indeed, compared to the three HIGHER bodies.
While we have a total of seven levels in our aura, it is not easy to click into them or understand them because we were born into very, very low self-esteem. We were born into sin, guilt, shame and fear. We were not told that we had a God source flowing within us. This is what the Ascended Masters teach through their presence. The three higher levels of our auric field can't be contaminated because they are pure God. We are pure God. These three higher levels are our own pure God SELF animating us from higher levels. It is our own God-light that is our life force. When we die our God-life goes back home again. But while we live in a human body, the God SELF is animating us. It is alive within us. It can be accessed if someone points it out to you. It lives vibrantly within you. Each human being has a body, emotions, mental thoughts and spiritual beliefs. These are the four levels that are weighed down. The pure God Self is hard to access from within the human life, because we don't believe it's real. We weren't taught. We were taught the opposite and are continuing to be taught through the media and the average systems of earth life. We receive distraction from every which way and these distractions continue to bog us down. Why do you suppose some people retire to monestaries, mountains and caves? The seven levels of the human aura are:
1. The physical body - the heaviest and lowest and densest part of us
2. The emotional body - a level higher in frequency where feelings interact with other form life
3. The mental body - a level higher in frequency where abstract thoughts interact with other form life
4. The spiritual body - a level higher in frequency where abstract thoughts interact with angelics
5. The crystalline light body - the pure uncontaminated pattern of God-light unique to the individual soul
6. The causal light body - the pure uncontaminated purity of the seven God attributes we are to discover
7. The monad light body - the unique God self as an individual offspring of the creator
Words are poor expressions for these seven great dimensions. I share them as I have come to understand them. The four lower bodies are referred to by the Masters through ALL of their teachings. Their primary goal and focus is to teach us how to cleanse our four lower bodies. As humans born into finite bodies we each have these four levels that are laden with errors from the past. While it may seem like a heavy burden to carry for any human being, the way to cleanse these erroneous beliefs and ideas can be done rather rapidly through application of the seven virtues contained in the causal light body.
These seven virtues are: (1) will power/moral courage, (2) enlightened intelligence, (3) love/reverence, (4) purity/innocence, (5) truth/honesty, (6) peace/comfort, and (7) freedom/both giving and receiving. The seven chakras have been recognized as sealed doors that need to be opened to access the flood of truth that would be released. A chakra door is opened by applying one of these virtues in one's outer life. It is in the application of will power and moral courage, for example that one opens the door and invites more of that will power and moral courage to enter in.
Applying it in one's life is why I write and post blogs. It makes me feel good about myself. It helps me to grow and expand. As I give outward, I make room for more to move into my life. My posting of this information is to share what I have learned from the ascension teachings over the years of accessing works by the Ascended Masters. I have been applying these teachings quietly to my own life and have been learning astounding things. Instead of promoting my work as others have done, I have strengthened and enriched my SELF!
7/13/23 - Introducing the background consciousness
The power to change for the better lies in our background consciousness - not the forefront consciousness but the BACKGROUND consciousness. This is my latest self-discovery. Background consciousness is not obvious. It is hidden behind the surface movements of life. The immediate environment is the people and things in my life that capture my attention. They are family, neighbors, friends, strangers, co-workers, playmates, animals, objects, nature and situations. As an elder I am mostly at home, either in the kitchen or in the office or outside in the yard, or upstairs cleaning. These are my physical environments as I move through the day. This is the conglomerate "nest" in which I find myself, day in and day out. It takes up most of my exterior awareness. However, I have discovered there is a background consciousness that doesn't give a damn about my exterior environment. It cares only how I react and respond throughout the day and night. It cares only how I bounce back and feed information back into whatever caused me to react and respond. What type of game am I playing? A negative one? Or a positive one?
You could think of a Native American Indian hiding in the trees, peering through the foliage to see what you are doing. You cannot see the Indian because he is very good at staying hidden, but he is observing you and whether you know it or not he has an influence on you. He nudges you in directions that you aren't even aware of. This is my BACKGROUND consciousness. It is now creating havoc with my life because I didn't know it was there. I had no idea. I have been following exercise routines that are keeping my body in shape but my mind or rather the brain itself has not been prepared for this. I am experiencing the strangest, weirdest, most uncomfortable dizziness, wondering what is going on. And now I am learning.
After trying everything I can think of to correct the fuzziness in my brain and it's not working, I am discovering something about myself that I did not know. After trying many different techniques learned over the years to correct the distortions in my brain, I have hit upon a truth that I had forgotten. Not really forgotten, but ignored as fantasy or frivolous. I don't have any power whatsoever over the life force in me. It is greater than me. I am a passing personality that keeps changing and growing and dying and being reborn in another body. I am a temporary thing. A tomato on a vine that will perish one day and a new tomato will take its place. Yet I AM the eternal power that never dies that is flowing through me currently as the background consciousness.
My body feels great, it's just the brain that's acting out of phase with my surroundings. My surroundings keep changing but I have not recognized that I must keep pace with the changes going on around me. I can't hold on forever to who I think I am - a fixed stable person. I'm changing. Other people are also having dizziness issues, so I am not alone with it. But it's MY problem to deal with ME, and I alone can fix it. I'm learning about how important the flow of this eternal something within. It is a discovery process and an expansion is reqired to embrace it. Relinquishing control over who I am is only part of it. A blending and acceptance is required that there is greater aspect of "me" seeping through and I must allow it, integrate with it, blend with it and agree, to bend the knee to it, to this greater aspect of me as it tries to incarnate in this body. This is advanced science and many people reading this won't understand. It has been called mystical in the old ways. But that's OK if you don't understand. It's Tantric and Tantra is not understood. Tantra is not about winning vs. losing or about sickness vs. health, or about sex. It is about accepting the flow that is taking place - WHATEVER is taking place - could be anything, could be something truly bad - and joining in with it. It is about becoming one with it thru love and by harmonizing with it. It is about becoming MORE. It is called evolution - evolution of soul, of body, mind, emotions and spirit and acceptance of the greater life.
Meanwhile, I hear echoes of "Go to the doctor!" Yes, yes, yes. I made an appointment with the doctor for a checkup, OK? I've done that. My husband took care of that. And later this month I'll have the checkup. Now can I get back to the REAL work? The work of discovering who I am and what I can do for myself? Which is why I'm here in the first place, in a body incarnate on Earth as a soul, learning lessons of self mastery and self discovery.
What I've been discovering is that my BACKGROUND consciousness is not just a theory or piece of intellectual information. My background consciousness is the bigger me and it is influencing me. I am my own background consciousness lurking behind the foliage of the trees. I am the greater me flowing through my body, watching, observing, nudging my outer smaller self to "try this" or "try that". I am the hidden part that supports the outer part and I didn't know. Wasn't aware. It is below my subconscious. It is way beneath my exterior conscious mind, thought and feelings and external decisions I make. I am the sub-sub-cconsciousness that lives on after this body dies. I am the hidden part of me that is learning through superficial outer trials, errors and experiments. It's a game of hide and seek. Surface thoughts come and go easily. I can switch them on and switch them off, using various techniques. But what I can't switch off is that elusive consciousness that is in charge and lurks in the background behind a veil, peering from behind a curtain. THIS is the real me. This is the real power of me. Its reality has been breaking through to me, causing me some headaches and dizziness. I have to adapt.
There are times when my brain is clear and not dizzy, not fuzzy. What is it that causes clarity? I am dying to know the truth about this. Why am I suddenly clear-brained and later again fuzzy-brained? Most people think a pill is the answer, and I'll consider that. But I know there is more to this than a pill or a drug. I am on the road of discovery. I have already discovered that I'm not who I thought I was over the last 40 or so years. I've been believing a lie about myself. I thought I was "this" or "that" but I've discovered more truths about who I am. So I've been learning to let go of this image about myself and adapting to the unknown. Could this be one of the reasons for my bouts of clarity and sanity? Accepting the unknown? The clear vision that happens here and there? And then, again, fuzzy brain returns. It is fluctuating wildly. I want to die, then I don't want to die. I am willing to allow the truth to take over and bend me back into shape. But we will see. There is more to uncover. Pardon my frankness - just sharing some thoughts from an elder!
7/8/23 - Unlocking the doors to powers within
I started receiving while in the shower this morning, writing notes to myself. Feeling super energies, too much, in fact, must slow myself down. This is coming in very strong, intense, powerful. Tuning into the powers within, how to get past the locked door. The doors are all through the body – in the hands and feet, the stomach, the back muscles, the solid body that we focus on so intently so that we run to the doctor whenever something goes wrong. We get some medicine to take and seal up the door again, our prison door that keeps us safely locked up inside so we can’t get out.
A little later, I can’t breathe. After the backbend and cobra I sit and connect, remembering I must bring it UP, up, up. "Meet your higher self! She’s there in the coccyx. Bring it UP to the heart and the brain." Step out of the box of limited thinking that you’re only a physical body. Step out of the box into freedom and sunlight flooding. Do it slowly. Bring it up the spine via the Torus breath and fountain it out and around and down. Repeat it. Flow it. Keep it loose and flowing. The brain has been blocking the flow. All that “ME” knowledge is blocking the flow. The focus on “Me” as if I’m important! As if what this body feels is important. But that’s exactly what is causing the pain, the heart aches, the body aches, the disabilities, the aging, the discomfort, the brain fog – it’s the focus on the physical deterioration that is causing the “sick” feelings that are slowly creeping in and insidiously invading the Self, the body cells, to make us think we are dying. It’s focusing our thinking process on dying and disintegration.
The eternal spirit, the holy spirit, the pure life-giving spirit is NOT dying! It can’t die! It has been simply held back from expressing. We’ve been focusing so much on the body dying that we are causing our own dying process. The holy spirit, the pure life-giving spirit is still there inside a crystal ball in the pelvic bowl, and we are holding it back from releasing. It needs to be invited out to flow again, to express. It needs to be released. Let go! Relax! Breathe in and breath out through the sacrum. Picture the sacrum. Bring it into focus, flow it, imagine it, pure crystalline light sparkles flowing up the spine, breaking through the obstacles. This purity can smash right through them when it is flowing, melt right on through them to the top of the head.
We are talking about the life force known as kundalini. It is also known by other names in other cultures, such as Christians call it the holy spirit, or the Christ. Shakti, Shekinah, Krishna and other names in other parts of the world. It has been locked in down there in the coccyx and sacrum, not allowed to flow up the spine. Sin, sex, guilt and shame has had us, as if in bondage tied to limited thinking, and we had no idea. We were imprinted with a massive conspiracy imprinting of fear, shame and guilt and we had no clue. We were babes in the wood being programmed before we could walk and talk. We did not understand. How could we? This has been going on for many centuries. Now kundalini is here. It is a big word. An unknown word but I am going to introduce it to the culture. Other people are introducing it, I see. Yes, the word is coming out into the public eye. There is a plan brewing. It is very close now, close enough to begin the group gatherings. Tantra is part of the kundalini instruction. The word Tantra needs to be straightened out. It has been ignorantly misunderstood. There have not been enough true teachers or healers. We are introducing it now because it’s time. Simply that it’s time. The universe has lined up some people to bring this forth.
I did the back bend off the bed and the cobra. I’m working with forces beyond traditional thinking. The kundalini, the holy spirit, is opening for everyone at a different pace. It is opening with LOVE. The teaching is about LOVE. The emphasis is on love. The first emphasis is on love. There is only one energy in all of creation and it is LOVE. Creation in the form world is done by playing with different aspects of love. Moving with it or moving away from it by rejecting it. It is the moving and shaking, exploring and defining the various perspectives and understandings of LOVE. The ultimate love is wholeness, completion, fulfillment, hence the word “holy”. But love doesn’t end there, to rest and relax and be forgotten, because there are more people coming up behind us who are still experimenting with LOVE, hesitant and unsure but experimenting. The building of more and more love is a continuing, ongoing, eternal process of life that never ends but continues building more. There is no end to love because it keeps adding more to itself. There are an infinite number of consciousnesses who are evolving in love and each is unique, one of a kind, discovering yet another new way to experience love – the primal energy of creation that we are ALL using in our creating.
As I was bringing the energy up to the heart thru the throat to the brain, I was on fire again and stopped to write, “Get the energy to the brain!” realizing that the brain is getting this message and I must write it! We think there is hate, violence and anger, depression, sickness and death, but it is all created from love - out of a desire for more love, or what one thinks is love. Whether it be from a selfish controlling perspective or from a benevolent way of sacrifice and martyrdom, we are all focusing on love. And BALANCE is what brings us closer to it. Balance the extremes that appear, balance them with love. Find the unity, the harmony, the way of merging the extremes and you will experience love.
My brain is sprouting colors now, coming up from the coccyx and the pelvic bowl, clearing a channel through the sushumna, the central etheric channel all the way to the brain. It is clearing. There are two arcs in the brain now, going left and right of the central channel to the pituitary. The colors are sprouting up, one here, one there, faster and faster and all at once! It’s not the brain that is coming alive, it is ME that is sprouting the awareness and the colors. I AM the awareness in the brain bringing conscious awareness up the spine to my organ of the brain. I Am the incandescent surreal colors sprouting many different aspects of divinity as they unfold into my brain.
I Am the divinity that has been held locked in down below, prior to this moment. I Am bringing it up to the brain so this body can recognize itself in the physical form and the physical world and use it here! (I am doing the neck exercises now.) I am activating my male side. The sparks, the angels, the devas are in the trees. I used to think it was the sun catching and glinting off the moisture on the leaves but it’s the faeries or elementals, whatever name they might be called. I first think it’s the sun but it looks a bit too bright and it twinkles at me as if it’s sending a message. I pause and connect with it and then I know.
7/7/23 - Breathing difficulties
This was a month ago. In the night I woke with the message that galactic ships were sending positive energies into the Earth atmosphere, making it difficult for negative thinking people to breathe and to please post this. This is why we have to think more love-light thoughts. We must work at cultivating more light into our bodies, minds and feelings to elevate our frequencies, or we won’t survive these higher energies that are flooding the planet. I have posted a link HERE (page down to "my personal decrees") to find some mantras and affirmations to use - prayers and positive decrees. Do use them. Select some that appeal to you and say them out loud 15 minutes a day or more often. The more the better. It will help to lighten your body’s energies. This will elevate you to higher vibrations. It brings in vitality, cosmic energy that will surprise you if you do it enough to notice. Most people will not do it because they are lazy and too embedded in the routine of their lives. But the work WILL have an effect. The intergalactic ships are actively assisting the solar ascension rays and they are warning that it will be hard to breathe.
I've been having a hard time catching my breath, and a friend writes that he has been having difficulties too. It helps to spend time doing the light affirmations. Say them out loud, so the sound reverberates into your auric field that surrounds you. It is your auric field that needs lifting, not the physical body. The physical body is the "shell" in which your personal energies are floating. It is the ENERGIES that need lifting. Routine day-to-day energies are the ones that lag behind and droop like wilting flowers. They become dull and lifeless energies. These are the energies that are your life force. Lift them with higher prayers and light-filled, love-filled, praise-filled words of higher qualities and tones. The light that is hitting the planet through the sun and the greater sun is so much higher than what it has been previously, that people who are not aware will not know what is happening to them. This is a message from the galactics. Please do this. Become more light-endowed by chanting these higher words into the air every day. If a person hasn't activated the light in their physical body, it's going to be difficult to catch a breath. The body needs to be elevated and take in some of this higher energy to match the incoming light.
I got up and went into the meditation room and participated in the uplifting of the earth, cleansing the earth and all inhabitants, waking up the light. With my inner sight I sensed the Earth starting to separate. This is on an etheric level. I was aware of it. A lot took place last night. It was a major step in the separation of old and new earth. An hour and 20 minutes later I felt it was over and I could go back to bed.
Additional revelations: Routine is so boring! It is the same old, same old stuff, day in, day out, always the same. When I write new information from higher up, I get excited. It is creative. Tantra is the sacred art of growing new links by conjoining opposites. Not by replacing or substituting one for another. It is like grafting a different plant onto another plant to create a more advanced evolved plant from two separate species. Opposites can be grafted together to create something new and more advanced. More evolved. My higher self is divine and holy. I am not. It is coming closer down to me as I use enlightened words that are higher and purer than my normal words. My higher self links with these higher holy words and can come closer to me. I can see my higher aspect more closely as I do this. It is more brilliant than me. More colorful, it is bluish and with other colors mixed in, transparent colors, divine, holy, pure. It is coming closer and it is connecting my awareness to itself. I feel myself becoming more elevated. I am merging with my higher self. I am an opposite of my higher self. I am human. It is divine. We are grafting together like two species. One not pure, the other pure. This is Tantra.
7/5/23 - Settle in with the forces of nature
The forces of nature are not wild. They are soothing and calm. And when we acknowledge that feeling it is like coming home to the ancestral hearth. Relax into it. Coming home is a settling in feeling. It is a stopping of the struggle in the outer-world journey. It is accepting where you came from, your ancient lineage is nature. Natural. It feels at peace. Remember the feeling of walking in the forest? The wood? The quiet of dawn or the late night after dark? There is a quietness in nature. It is the coming home to what THE BODY feels is natural. After all, we are first of all the body. A solid form made of the substance of earth. And Mother Earth is the intelligent mother who oversees her brood - the kingdoms of nature. Mankind and womankind are part of that kingdom of her nature. We can feel the "coming home" at certain times when we are alone and not being distracted. We are drawn naturally, inexplicably, inward. It is similar to the ripening of a fruit. It is impossible to ripen fruit in an artificial environment. It is not natural. But falling in step with the forces of nature provides a feeling of settling in and relaxing into a flow that is almost always forgotten during the active hours of human activity. Relinquish the struggle in those opportunities to fall in step with nature. It knows what you need. This is an advanced teaching. We think we are so smart and intelligent to be in our brains, but the greater intelligence is in the WHOLE BODY. In the DNA of each tiny cell that makes up the liver, the heart, the lungs, the kidneys, the prostate gland, the ovaries,, the muscles, and the bones and blood. And the brain itself. This is far removed from the controlling ego which does not provide peace and calm. This is how we follow the spirit, the higher angel of our own divine nature. It is the coming together of our own heavenly nature with the earth's nature. When we agree to surrender our controlling ego and allow ourselves to walk in the natural way of the earth-walker, the skin-walker, we bring our heavenly nature in harmony with the earth nature. Look for nature's signs that come to you - the bird that swoops out of the sky, the snake that crawls unexpectedly nearby, the call of the owl, the feather that drops at your feet, the many movements in the air, unexpectedly. Stop and acknowledge RECEIPT of the contact. This is disclosure of the Earth kind. There is no need to look for it. No need to struggle. No need to work at it. We are one with nature.
7/3/23 - Me and my four lower bodies!
Yes, I'm still here! It's been a week since my last blog. I've hit a new stuck point in the transition of my life, moving out of 3D into 4D and 5D, and it's taking all my attention to work it out. How best can I align my four lower (denser) bodies? The consciousness evolution that is taking place is affecting everyone, but perhaps not like it's affecting me right now. I'm getting whoozy, dizzy and have strange sickish-type feelings. It is causing a lot of confusion but I know what the cause is and it has affected me physically, mentally and emotionally. Ugh! It's very draining and disturbing.
The four lower bodies are the four densest consciousness levels of a person. There are seven levels of consciousness in all (picture the aura) but the three higher levels are saintly, holy and perfect. It is the four lower, tighter, denser levels that are the problem. These are the human conditions composed of errors and mistakes that need correcting or leaving behind. This is an advanced peek into a larger truth, so we won't go any further than that. It's just background food for thought as we tackle the more local issue of these four dense levels of the human apparatus, and what I am currently struggling with.
The four lower denser levels are the (1) emotional level, (2) the mental level, (3) the spiritual or higher mind level and (4) the physical body level. Old energies (issues) that have not been redeemed or released yet, are still stuck in the auric field, which is our consciousness. These are now being affected because we are going through a major shift in consciousness to a higher, lighter dimension. These old energies (issues) are holding us back. They are knots in our consciousness. They are causing (me) dizziness problems and sickish feelings - and keeping me busy trying to figure out what next to try to correct it because I'm an energy worker. I do my own energy corrections to keep healthy and active.
Other people are experiencing this too, I see, as I read the articles. But we each have to work it out alone, by ourselves, because no two people have the same issues going on from the past, including past lives. Not everyone is aware of this physical shift from the 3rd to the next higher dimension of consciousness, be it the 4th or the 5th. The shift is taking place on inner levels of consciousness that, unfortunately, many people are unaware of. How many people have been educated about their four lower bodies? The lowest and densest body is the physical body, which we can see and touch, but the other three are on a finer frequency level. We can't "see" them per se. So the shift is affecting these three finer bodies that we don't even know we have. We think it's the physical body that is having the problem and it's not! We might go to a doctor and learn that nothing is the matter since the instruments don't pick up on it, but there is a lot more going on than doctors are aware of. If you have not been filled in about how these four lower bodies operate, for example, your emotional body and your mental body, then it's time we started to address it.
Imagine yourself as you are right now, doing what you're doing (like I am sitting at my laptop), imagine how you look right now but twice as large and as a transparent figure hovering over you or around you. This is your emotional body. This is the energy body where all your emotions and feelings take place. Your emotions and feelings do NOT take place in your physical body, nor in your mental body. They take place at a certain frequency level. Your emotional body is the plane where all your feelings occur. This transparent body (you don't see it so you don't realize it's there) is hovering around every cell in your physical body. When you feel a surge of anger, for example, your emotional body feels, not your physical body. This is a long complicated story to explain.
Next, imagine yourself again, as you are right now, but three times as large and also a transparent figure, hovering over your emotional body or around you. Use your imagination. This is your mental body. It is functioning at an even HIGHER frequency level than your emotional body. This is where thought takes place. This is your mind, where you think things through and come to decisions. This body does NOT have feelings like your emotional body does. It is a separate frequency that operates on a specific plane for the specific purpose of working out mental processes pertaining to human practical life.
Next, imagine yourself again as you are right now but four times as large and also a transparent figure, hovering over your mental body. This is your spiritual body, sometimes known as the etheric body. This is on a still HIGHER frequency than either your emotional or mental body. This is a larger aspect of you which is in touch with MORE of who you are as a spiritual intelligence. This body does not have feelings per se, as we define feelings in the human realm, but it is closer to love, harmony, unity and the higher cosmic laws of the universe. This is closer to heaven than the other two denser realms, but it is not perfect either. It is designed for the purpose of working out and understanding what spirit is as compared with human. That takes care of three of the four lower bodies. The fourth lower body that gets out of alignment is the physical body.
The three invisible bodies - emotional, mental and spiritual - are all operating within the physical body and most people know nothing about them. This is information that is taught in the mystery schools, esoteric and metaphysical classes. Emotions and feelings get tangled up with our thoughts, and our thoughts get tangled up with our religious and spiritual beliefs, and our bodies get confused over which is which and how to deal with it. This has been going on for a long time. We have been kept uneducated about this. Now there is a consciousness evolution taking place. We are growing up and out of the third dimension and into the fourth dimension and the fifth. Everyone is different. Your family, friends and neighbors aren't aware of what you are aware of, because consciousness is unique to each person. What I know is what I know. What YOU know is what YOU know. We know different things, pertaining to different areas of our lives. But the biggest single problem we have is that these four lower bodies are entangled. Like four different balls of yarn, each with a different color, has been allowed to become unwound and bunched into knots. Our consciousness has become all twisted up together, including issues from past life experiences that are not yet resolved.
It is the end of past times and the beginning of a new time - one that is happy and peaceful. The transition from the old times requires putting an end to the problems of the past. We don't have to solve the problems, we simply have to stop worrying about them. All of the advice from the masters is to "let go". Stop worring. Stop fixating. Stop hanging on to the old life. Let go. Relax. Find something fun to do. Put your attention on fun and happy projects that make you excited. Then the problems of the past disappear. Because what you are aware of is what we focus on. Our emotions and feelings are a separate part of our life, quite different from the thoughts we think. Our spiritual thoughts about God and the universe, and about E.T.'s are different from our thoughts about the practical life, like politics, money, hospitalization, sending kids to school, etc. We have four different consciousnesses taking place simultaneously in us every day. Each one of them needs to be examined separately. Untangle them. We have only one consciousness but it has become tangled and twisted and it torments us because we don't understand. Why? But this one consciousness that we are, goes higher and higher and higher and higher, as we look to the higher aspects of ourself. As we learn about these four lower bodies we will begin to notice the changes. Become conscious.
6/25/23 - Love is not an emotion - it's the life force
During my morning meditations today I was shown that love is the life force. It is not an emotion. The life force called love is everywhere. The universe is composed of living, breathing, conscious electrons and atoms, and the masters speak of them often. How they are eager little beings of love desirous to serve in positive ways. They are filled with love, light, warmth and goodness and they bring this warmth and comfort to all who attract them. These little beings are not to be confused as an emotion. They are the life force.
Yes, personal love is an emotion because it is being directed to someone specifically. The sender draws on the ocean of life that exists everywhere and focuses his attention on a person of his or her choice. Love is available to be used, and we do use love for all that we do. We even use love to hate someone or be jealous, envious, controlling, violent and to engage in personal drama with. Everything we do is done with the power of love because love powers the universe, the planets, suns and all life everywhere. That is why we are capable of growing past a difficult situation that is bogging us down. Since love is the motivating force behind all creation and it is within us, and within our own consciousness, it IS possible to change a difficult situation by imagining or reaching beyond the difficulty or the down side of something, and apply a higher, better, more ebullient application of love.
Love is the sea of life that exists everywhere. It is circulating even now within our own bodies and is available to use but we have to KNOW this first, before we can make such changes. It was shown to me this morning to be aware of it, to make this message public so others can be aware of the sea of life is actually LOVE. Then perhaps a person can make changes in their life by boosting, reaching, imagining, raising their attitude to a higher level. It is up to us to make the changes in how we apply the law of life, the law of love. It is intelligence that directs love into action. It is will power that directs it. It is a change in how we think, a change in how we want to be. But first we must believe this is true. There have been vague references to such a powerful law of but very few truly understand it. We have been massively programmed to believe in loss, lack, poverty and disempowerment.
Yet, we are the master intelligences. This is proven by the fact that we can think for ourselves, and we can change our minds when we want to. We often just don't think it is possible. We have been weighed down under the weight of dark beliefs, when the brilliant, dazzling truth of love is a conscious choice. We can make a change for ourself through WILL POWER any time we want - conscious will power - instead of accepting the "down" feeling of despair, low self confidence or hopelessness. It takes concentrated effort and every day practice, which is the backbone philosophy of doing spiritual practice every day. Benefits can be seen almost immediately by those who practice consistently. They are drawing on the sea of love, which is the sea consciousness. Every human being is conscious and therefore can reach UP and draw on a higher level of thought. But it must be done every day and often several times a day to make serious changes.
Changes have to be directed. Most emotions are not directed. There is a horrendous lack of understanding about the conscious sea of life in which we swim. We remain ignorant and vulnerable to the random emotions that are spewed out by our neighbors, families and friends. All emotions less than love are not well thought out. It "just happens" to someone and the emotion radiates out to invade a passer by. Someone has to direct a feeling of goodness to make changes and raise the level of consciousness, and maintain that direction for awhile to set it into motion. Love is a feeling of life. It is encouraging, exciting, vitalizing, uplifting, creative, productive, life-giving, warm, comforting, nurturing, living, breathing. And there is more of the same higher up. There is no end to how high you can reach on the ladder of goodness and love. The mystics and saints will tell you.
For example, when we pray to God and experience love as worship. It is an open door that brings forth even more worshipful feelings of song, praise and goodness. There is a very high form of love to be had through private worship and praise. But we can also experience love for the earth, too, the trees, the waters, the sunset, the grass, the people we pass on the street, cars, babies, buildings, pets, careers, sciences, music, art- there is no end of the love that mankind can experience in his earthly life. We are preparing to bring forth a new earth and a new WAY of life through the power of our loving one another in this way. Not sexual, personal love, but immense, universal love that goes far, far, far, when we open our minds to the highest in us. We can experience love at any time of the day or night because love is not only inside us, and inside the objects that we have created that populate our homes and villages, but love is in the air itself. Love is the life force. Love is known as prana or chi when we BECOME CONSCIOUS of it. When we USE conscious consciousness to wake it up.
This was revealed to me after an ongoing discussion with someone about sex, romance and the falling in and out of love, with divorces and separation. How does love work on a personal level? From the perspective of most people love has been considered a human emotion. And of course I have too. But I have experienced love from the plane of spirit, from the mystical side of life that goes beyond understanding, when you open up to higher realms and are brought to tears and deep, overwhelming states. Then you become like the kitchen strainer - you just let the water pour through without trying to catch it and you disappear in the flowing rapture.
I was shown this morning that love is the life force of the universe, I suppose, because I was ready to understand the difference. Love is like water. It doesn't really move. It simply flows around waiting to be used. We exist in the ocean of its movement. Love is available to hold everything together, but it doesn't have to move because it already is everywhere. When someone sends a message it quivers through the sea of love and the sea of love responds. The awareness of love can move into a person's life through that person's consciousness of it. Or as that person lowers it to a lower emotion it will respond in kind and provide the lower emotion. Whatever the person wants to do with it, the love force is available to be used. It is consciousness that raises or lowers the life force to a high place or brings it down low to a low place. It is all done with consciousness. That is the reason for spending time in meditation and practicing the art of stillness and mastering of one's own consciousness.
Most human emotions are less than love. This morning feelings of all kinds flashed before me, revealing the great diversity of emotions and feelings that we humans are privy to that influence us. Love is not an emotion. Love is the power behind emotion. It is the source of emotion. It creates life, empowers life, thrills life, pushes life onward to higher planes of understanding. Motivates, vitalizes, excites, kindles, ignites, enflames. All else is less than that but we have the capability of working ourselves up to higher levels. It was shown to me how we can rise above emotion to greater and greater feelings that thrill us and inspire us. USE EMOTION, it said to me, of a higher nature. Allow emotion to work for you and bring you the thrills and pleasures that you enjuoy the most. Whatever emotion is being felt, raise it higher by conscious will power. Love is the life force. Do not confuse emotion with the life force. Love is the source of life. Reach for the source of life. Do not settle for less than love. Love is not an emotion. It is life itself. It circulates within our physical body right now. If there is a "down" feeling, raise it up higher by any word, thought, feeling or action you can find. It is within your power to do that, to create a warmer, safer, more security, loving feeling for yourself and your home by reaching higher.
6/24/23 - The fifth dimension is an attitude adjustment
The concept of moving from the third to the fifth dimension has become such a big deal - many articles have been shining the light on it and helping us to understand what this means. But it all boils down to the fact that it's an attitude adjustment. Attitudes are being affected. We are being nudged to make changes. Small changes are easier, so make them sooner. It's not such a big deal after all unless, of course, we don't want to make any changes at all. Yes, then it is a big deal. Working against the tide takes work. An attitude of resisting takes a lot of work. I would like to add my two-cents worth here - changing your attitude in small ways is much easier than the work that must be done later from resisting the change. Making a few changes along the way actually makes you feel good. The changes are going to happen anyway, sooner or later. So why not allow for the changes now, today? Relax and expand and accept the changes that are sneaking in through your back door and you're trying to avoid them. You don't want to change your way of life. You have always done it your way - approached life the way you have always done. But if you are flexible and open to accepting small changes, you will be taking small steps up the multi-layered ladder to the higher plane, where it is MUCH more comfortable than the lower plane below.
6/23/23 - Experiencing physical ascension
The ascension process is a removal of old energies. Old energies in the body and mind. We don't think of them as old, we think of ourselves as simply who we are. But it's been happening for me that who I am is disappearing and there is a renewed vitality taking place. Only at certain times. It fluctuates. It takes concentration but I am being revitalized. My body is experiencing a renewal of energy that is somehow different from what I'm used to. I have to keep physical engaged with the world to experience this, otherwise, I fade in that energy. The energy fades and I am left feeling hopeless. It's like running a marathon. I have to keep going, not strong, but simply keep active. It is very important to keep physically active. My old way of thinking, my old belief was that it was important always to be comfortable. No matter what, find comfort. That belief is disappearing. Because comfort in the old way meant resting, passive. There is a new kind of comfort to be experienced which is up, alert with things running smoothly. Like the motor is at its best and it's purring! It is vitality but it is a ccomfortable vitality. My old views on what is important is changing. My understanding is changing. My belief in what is important is changing. They are fading and there is a new me coming forward.
There is a new goal now. I'm seeing past the comfort zone to the "more" of me. It's all tied in with the kundalini that awakened in me 47 years ago when I went into the light. Ever since then I have been struggling to understand. Oh my! It is deepening - er, no. It is an expanding and elevating. It's an expanding. elevating, lightening, rising upward process, and it is revealing more and more. As long as I don't give up.
The most important thing I have discovered on the journey of ascending consciousness is - there’s too much focusing on the genitals. The focus on the genitals and the whole sex thing has to change to flowing. Lift the sluice gates. Allow the flowing to continue on. The flow is the flow of love, tenderness, sympathies, compassion, innocence, goodness, sharing, and the whole nine yards of giving and sharing and feeling the love as it flows from person to person, non-stop. This is the flowing that has been stopped by the gates. There is a solid vitality feeling that flows at times, and at other times a feeling of death and dying sweeps through me and my knees buckle. Weakness enters. Death enters. The greater picture is unfolding. It comes in and shows me that I am the life of the body. The body is just a mechanical object. It has a low consciousness. It has been trained to do certain things automatically. But I am the driving force of this body and I have to put my full concentration on it.
There is no one technique, No one method of doing the work of resurrecting the body which is failing, because it requires the full flowing of the life force. I had cut it off, cut down, just like everyone else. Now I am learning to not follow the program I was trained to do. Now I am flowing the light within me. I am flowing the energies but I am also releasing the old and dying energies. I feel as if I am old and dying but I know better. I am not. New light power is being injected into the inner spaces that make up my body organs and muscles. The old and new energies are swirling and mixing together and I see more and more, and further and further. Deeper and deeper. The power which is me, my eternal soul or spirit, whatever you want to call it, is immense. Just like everyone's power is immense. It is so immense that it can only make its appearance in stages, little by little, or it would overwhelm the body and blow it apart. This power is known today as kundalini, but it is really the Mother. Mother Kundalini. She is the power behind the throne. She is what makes the life happen or, if withheld, to wither and die. She is the cosmic mother of all life everywhere. She is held locked inside the form body, all forms, all bodies, even insects and birds and plants and water.
In bits and pieces the awareness is expanding. Form life happens by closing the focus down to one thing. To bring movement to a halt. To make a piece of furniture or a house or bridge, it requires a solid, non-movalbe structure. Mother kundalini is showing me how to open my focus now and release that focus on immobility. Let go of the focus and let the flow begin again. Resurrect the body. Most specifically, stop focusing on the genitals. This has affected the lower abdomen, the digestive tract, the ovaries, the prostate, the urinary tract, the whole pelvic/hip area. This is where the flowing of the life force, the love force has been blocked. We need to release the excessive focus on sex because it is the main cause. It is the one main reason there is suffering in the world. Love has been prevented from flowing. The focus has been on the genitals and the love stops there, another agenda has been structured around this area. This massive overwhelming focus and obsession on sex has impacted the hips, the legs, the knees, the feet, everything below the heart. Plus it has impacted the intelligence and good sense of the person. It has thrown the body out of kilter and introduced sickness, old age, dying, disintegration and death. It is LOVE that has been compacted in one way or the other. Love is what holds things together. By focusing too much on the material building of forms, love has been prevented from flowing up the spinal column to the heart, to the voice which would tell the truth if it were able, and to the brain which would be enlightened, and out the top of the head into the welcoming arms of the Cosmic Father and Mother of all that is.
Love has been held back and compacted. Two alternative routes have been established. Detours, if you will. In Sanskrit these two routes are called the IDA and the PINGALA. The Ida is the feminine route, the left-hand route. The Pingala is the masculine route, the right-hand route. Love needs to flow to keep the body alive, so when the alternative routes were built into the body, the main route to the top of the head was shut down. In Sanskrit the main spinal channel to the top of the head is called the SUSHUMNA. So the soul goes either up the Pingala, the assertive side which is the masculine side, or it takes the alternative route and goes up the Ida, which is the submissive feminine side. The soul withdraws from being active and follows her masculine soul mate instead. This choice, whether to go up the feminine side or the masculine side, affects the whole body and the circuitry and programming of the body. How it operates and how it approaches life. It is the Mother Kundalini that is flowing up the left hand or the right hand path. (Mystery school teachings teach students how to bring these two paths together, but that's another article.)
Breathing complications occur during this ascension process. I cannot speak too much on it because I am still learning myself. I am sharing this information for maybe some hints and clues to others. I have discovered some methods of alleviating the sensation of not being able to breathe. The blockage is occurring around the diaphragm area, just under the heart. This morning I had some good feedback, working on this area with light, with the knowledge I've received so far. There is massive amounts of information coming through. I wish I could share it with others, but it's so deeply personal. It is all about raising the attitude to a more refined state of being, a more pristine state of awareness, a cleaner, more holy state of awareness. It uses visions of sparkling dazzling purity. When I follow the guidance to "expand higher", after a while this opens the blocks. It is quite amazing, working with the light and watching (later) as the old energies close back up again. Then I work with the light again and the visualizations. There is WORK involved. It is about concentrating on higher, purer visions.
Two years ago I had to go to the hospital because I couldn't breathe. It happened within hours of my using a new mantra of purity. How could I know? It brought too much light into my body and my body closed down. It couldn't handle it. Now I know. I see what happened back then. So, OK. I now have to take heart pills but no big deal. It's part of being human. But there is a deeper instruction going on within, that is telling me far more than the doctors and pharmacists are. There is a new life force coming alive in me. I am learning how to use it. I can feel it taking place in alternating currents. Awareness is increasing by leaps and bounds. This old body is resurrecting from the inside out. It may be too late. After all it's 85 years old! But the vitality I am feeling is superb. I have to stay active and let the light of life flow. Flowing the life through the muscles, tissues, brain and heart is important. And to be conscious. We must be MORE conscious. Not less. Put the light of conscious awareness into every action. Or as best you can. Move yourself into action through conscious intention. Through will power. The phrase, "Thy will be done" takes on new meaning. Move the light of awareness into outward action through will power. Will power is the Light of the body.
Plus live a clean healthy diet. Eat enough food but only what I want to eat. Not according to the world and what the doctors say, but what I feel is in my best interest (instinct) to eat. I am negotiating between my physical needs and the needs of the higher self which has different needs in order to be properly reconnected with the body. The higher ME is shining through the old muck and drudgery of yesteryear and the old muck and mud has to be released and allowed to leave. Then exercise. Fulfill the needs of the lower body to be active, activate the hips, the lower back muscles, legs and feet. Fulfill the desires of the lower body to be active. That's why they are built into the body.
My original urge was to do lower back massages with people, through the use of yantras and mantras. This means holding the light in your mind and speaking it softly into the body with your hands. This original urge is still with me. I am piecing the new higher self information together. The light must flow through the body that is murky and dark in order to bring relief and vitality back to the aging tissues. We have been ignorant of it. The body does not know about the light that is moving through it. The light is the light of the higher self, what has been called the light body, or the christ body, the crystalline body. If we don't activate the crystalline body, the diamond light grids in the body, the body will die. It is only a temporary vehicle until the residing soul wakes up and starts managing it properly, meaning resurrecting it properly. We are here on a mission to learn how to maintain a physical body in good health for a long time. There is no expiration date on a body that can maintain its youth. That is what the ascended masters learn how to do. We are here temporarily to expand and explore who we are, and when done to move on to greater things. But only when WE decide to move on.
Well, that's the end of my lecture for today. I wanted to share this because it is SO exciting and invigarating to experience resurrecting the body. My time may yet come but I'm filling in every moment with new information. Filling it with light! It is an amazing experience. I asked my Higher Self yesterday what to do when I can't catch my breath, when my diaphragm locks up on me. The answer was: “Relax, expand, let go, surrender, hold love in your mind. Surrender into love”. So I've been practicing. It takes time and concentration. It doesn’t work in a moment’s notice. What causes it, I asked? "The lowering of vibrations. It is the loss of life force when you move from higher lighter density to lower heavier density. Train yourself to hold the light. Be aware of your higher and lower vibrations."
6/20/23 - Loving touch massage swaps
During a bonding session recently there was a beautiful download of cosmic love information from higher spheres. Let me try to put it into easy language. He was energized and my energies were not peaceful but highly active so I slowed him down by rubbing my hands on him. I could feel my energies starting to come more into harmony. It is obvious that the man’s energies are focused so much on the outer world, thrusting outward, seeing the goal in front of him like a carrot, that he isn’t able to pay attention to lining up his inner energies. The woman, on the other hand, that is her role. She must manage the inner energies, especially during lovemaking times, when the purpose is to integrate and heal the divisions. They are to come together and mesh their two separate and diverse energies, which, in a duality world, is a constant. There is divisiveness. But the reason there is a male and a female in the first place is to create things physically. So the physical thrust is necessary, and the inner maintenance of harmony is also necessary to keep it together. During bonding I could see myself trying to harmonize the energies in the form of atoms and molecules. These tiny particles which make up our physicality and our mentality and emotionality, are imbued with “not-self” and “not comfortable”. There is “not right” in our atomic structure, so we have to MAKE them right. We need to take the time to harmonize them and soothe them and comfort them. These are the energies of our bodies that we are harmonizing and soothing. Through loving administration we line up first our mental.
We “think” harmonizing thoughts. This can be done in an instant if we know how to do it. It doesn’t take a long time. Then we have to line up our feelings, our sensations, because the mental does not feel. Mental arranges and controls our energies by thinking them. Then when we allow ourselves to feel softness, warmness, comfort, lovingness. First the mental, then the emotional feeling. Then there is the etheric body, or spiritual body. These are the energies (atoms and molecules) that are from prior lives. We’ve had many prior lives that our culture doesn’t acknowledge but they still exist in us. Traumatic and unresolved issues that we have not a clue about. But they exist in us in the form of tendencies. A tendency towards anger at men, or anger at women, or hatred towards another race, or fear of sex, or fear of love or fear of fire or of falling off a cliff or dislike of children or tendency towards addiction to alcohol, or tendency towards violence, or - on the other hand - tendencies toward grace, beauty, art, great music, dance, invention, holiness, religion, spiritual. We carry these forward into our current life and they are inside us, as the saying goes, “the issues are in our tissues”. I would say “our history is in our tissues”.
Anyway, it is like two separate colors. While we were bonding I could see the male outer thrusting as the color blue, and the female inner harmonizing as the color red. When mixed together blue and red make purple or violet, depending on the subtleties of the hues. If the blue bangs into the red the colors do not mix. The inner harmonizing does not take place. It becomes yet more of a separation and more of a trauma that becomes stored in the tissue as frustration and unresolved energy. So what we have to do is learn how to harmonize the male and female bodies. What we are doing in my theoretical loving touch massage is learning what it feels like to touch opposite gender bodies. How it feels to each person is an inner experience that has no words to it, but as we introduce LOVING touch, I would point out that there is a reason why we don’t go into sexuality here, because we are practicing the harmonizing of male to female. Harmonizing the feelings we experience when we are touched by a strange man, or a strange woman. Feel what is going on with your energies inside.
Imagine, if you’re a man, that your energies (mind, emotions and body) are the color blue. And imagine the woman massaging you as the color red or if you like, pink. Some shade of the red/pink hue. Imagine your two colors mixing and blending. You do this by accepting and allowing. You do this by trusting and receiving. You do this by relaxing and letting go. Never mind what it is you’re letting go of. Just let go. Let it be. Surrender. Jump off the cliff and feel the free fall. And manage your feelings. If you feel like screaming and jumping off the table as I did once, manage that. Harmonize that. Get a grip on that. Soothe that feeling within yourself. That is an old, old, ancient frustration or issue that is being released. Allow it its freedom. Let it go. Love it and bless it and soon it will pass because, by your application of soothing love, you are gaining mastery over very old issues that have been stored in your tissues. A great phrase. Let’s remember that our ancient, past life issues are stored in our tissues. Loving touch massage without an agenda of sex is healing and softening. It is a lesson and a practice in self mastery and releasing old blockages.
I am trying to get a large poster of the human body - man and woman - to show where the chakras are. The chakras are portals through which divinity flows down through the mental, emotional and etheric bodies into the physical body. There are issues blocking this flow on each of the three levels above. There are issues in the mental body, issues in the emotional body and issues in the etheric (past life) body, that block pure love, happiness and spontaneity from coming into our lives. So that’s why we are doing this loving touch massage. It’s a healing practice and it will help us to get to where we want to go. But this is practice time. We’ve got to practice loving touch and let that melt the barriers that have been there for thousands of years and lifetimes. This is the end time. It’s time to graduate from the school of hard knocks and it’s time to give all those issues in the tissues some freedom and relief. (inspired by DK several years ago. We may start this up again soon.)
6/16/23 - A collaboration is unfolding between....
I'm borrowing words from another article I just read - a Collaboration is unfolding between all sentient life on Earth and the non-physical realms - the cosmos. This is SO Tantric! Yes! I've been following the Ascended Master Djwahl Khul for 47 years and he has led me true. Blend the physical with the non-physical and BE HERE NOW! There is much happening in these days. There is a dramatic rise in consciousness among all the people on the planet. For those who follow the ascension drama and all the articles that go along that theme, YES! It is happening. But it is happening here on Earth. We don't have to leave. The light is coming into the earth plane. There are many of us conscious of the light coming in and holding space for it, pulling it in like pulling in the helium balloon which floats in the sky. We are here in physical bodies and we are pulling in the light from higher planes. This light is buoying the planet up. The result is a dramatic consciousness expansion. Don't give up! Keep the faith!
One result is felt right here in our house. Doug switched our internet provider a couple weeks ago and this new provider is downloading capacities of speed never experienced before. I'm not into technology so I don't know the proper words for it, but the electronic devices here - computers, TVs and cell phones - are going a bit crazy. They are going up, down and shutting off, then up, then down, then shutting off. They are trying to adjust. The electrons are trying to adapt to the lower freqencies here. The electrons are the living matter that makes up the universe. The Ascended Masters have informed me over the years. Electrons, as in "electronic" gadgets and devices are the little workers that give us life. They obey the commands of the living masters. We are the living masters here. We must learn to respect them. We thought they were just non-living particles that we could use any way we wanted to. But, no. It turns out that these little eletrons power our bodies, our homes, our refrigerators, cars, factories, traffic lights and etc. Electrons power the universe. Electrons power the suns. Electrons power the planets and our very own divine nature.
We are flowing with electrons and electrons are love and light. We are ready to start learning the truth: that we are the masters who have brought our lives down into muck, confusion and depression, and it's time to become more enlightened. It's time to turn things around and start raising ourselves up into the light with new knowledge and with the love embedded in the knowledge. We are the ones who have to do it in our own minds and hearts. We are the love. We are the sense of rightness, of justice, of truth, of freedom, of peace, of unity, of courage, of joy and happiness and gratitude for our lives. (Or not.) Electrons obey the light in us. They also obey the dark in us. They have to because they are programmed to obey the master intelligences and that is who we are - master intelligences. We just don't know it yet. WAKE UP! Realize it. And start to use that intelligence. If we do something wrong that is against our nature - and we KNOW it - well then. Be prepared to pay the price. What you know will hurt you or help you. Be on the right side or things could go wrong. An injustice will bring an injustice. Let us learn our lesson and quickly, because we are rising to a higher dimension where the laws of the universe are quick to respond. It is harmony that we need to become aware of. Be in harmony.
We are the masters of our lives. We are the ones who have set out the Plan for ourselves. Be sure you set out a positive plan. Be happy! Be glad of heart. Be light and in joy and at peace with the world. Be in collaboration with the sentient world. If there is something really, really bad and uncomfortable in your life, change it right now. Love it to death. Say it out loud. "I love you to death!" Anything that fills you with depression, muck and mud. Give it love and light immediately. Say it out loud. Find some words to use. They will start coming to you as you stumble over a beginning word. Build the momentum of light and love.
As we lighten ourself every morning when we get up, we lay out a path to follow. It spreads out around us so that no matter which direction you go in, there is a path of happy light leading there. Be sure to start the day off right. Take up meditation. Just a 15-minute connection with your higher self. Lay out a path of gladness and see what happens. The world is changing and rising upward to lighter dimensions. There is more harmony and happiness in the higher dimensions. Be a part of it. The electrons that are coming into your house and my house are the same electrons. They are seeking the light and the love. Give them light and love. Light is abstract, not yet used. Love is when you use the abstract light. When you take a theory and put it to a test and act on it, that's when you're applying love.
This is an "off-the-top-of-my head" message. I am connecting this morning with everyone's blue-white light of courage, strength, tenacity and joy for life and living. Be glad that you are here. Spread gladness around everywhere you go today. BE HERE FULLY. Notice what is going on around you and lift it up even more.
6/15/23 - Sexual energy is soul energy awakening in the body
Soul energy seeks expression in the body through sexual balance. It is ironic that while meditation travels the road of non-attachment to physical things, yet all the while it leads you back to your own humanness, and to a better knowledge of how to use your physical body with greater finesse and with the deft skill of a master perfecting his art – the art of being human with a divine soul. We are here to learn these things, not to be dictated to nor conditioned to obey the whims of the masses.
We don’t want to separate the soul from the body. We are living in a body. We must not throw it away. We must understand the body and its needs so that we can make it healthy and balanced. We must learn how to operate it, as we must learn how to operate an automobile and maintain it in good working condition. Meditation is not removing ourselves from the world. It is learning how to live in the world. We are spirits already. We are spiritually complete right now. We do not need to become more spiritual. We need to EXPRESS our spirituality, this purity of soul in physical form, awake and alive and full of the vibrancy of health and spontaneous, child-like joy for adventure and action of goodwill towards all life. Only then can we transform our world from one of confusion to one of light and beauty and rich and flavorful colors and tastes.
(Excerpt from the Master Djwahl Khul, HERE "The 7 veils of attachment".
6/12/23 - Re-activating Kundalini
The idea of holding weekly gatherings has come up recently as a way of introducing Kundalini in a formal way. No schedule has been set yet. It will take more time to allow the idea to expand. How many have heard the word "kundalini" before today? Perhaps it was heard in relation to Tantra, but that has been a somewhat misguided focus on the physical body. There are deeper roots leading down to subterranean influences that that have not been presented yet. After 47 years of trying to write about it, I have been shifted to a new level. It is time to hold in-person meetings to spark the auric field of those within ear-shot. It is the auric field that is influenced by this delicate subject. Auric field "sparking" has been known as shaktipat in the era before computers were invented. Now, with computers, we read articles with our brain and think with our brain, and analyze and deduce with our brain, and the rest of the body remains pretty much untouched.
Thoughts are coming to the fore in the last few weeks letting me know that my time is nearly up. I'll have to get on with the mission or miss my chance to present it. When Kundalini activated in me it circulated through me and changed me. It took about 7 years or more. The body is made of consciousness but it takes on other beliefs that are not pure or holy, as the kundalini is. Kundalini realigned me. Consciousness is a beautiful life force. It is a common element in all of life and we have access to everything through our consciousness, but the human being in his busy-ness takes on a lot of unimportant thoughts and beliefs. The purity of his consciousness disappears in favor of the overly-active mind, peripheral thoughts and brain activities. We are busy little bees, having our dramas, traumas and situational learning experiences. We are always trying to overcome something that bothers us. Kundalini has not been formally addressed as a most beautiful part of who we are. It has never been presented as a "real thing". That is what I am here to do - to expose kundalini as something real and very active within us. How to pan for the gold.
I am here to show those who will listen, and to tease it, coax it, seduce it out of hiding so it can be known, highlighted, appreciated and raised to the highest possible level. Kundalini is right now circulating through us as breath. I don't pay any more attention than anyone else - until I remember. Then I stop what I am doing and return to it. Awakening the kundalini has been the main goal in the East Indian spiritual tradition. They worked hard at creating a science of yoga and meditation to be taught. But kundalini awakened in me without any training or knowledge beforehand. It was during a guided meditation by a follower of a guru, it's true, but I had to learn what to do with it all alone by myself. I was then approached by an Ascended Master, the Master Djwahl Khul. The ascended hierarchy, known as the spiritual brotherhood, are aware of everyone on the planet and will step forward as needed. So from an early stage I had a guide to assist me.
Becoming aware of kundalini is a most wonderful, happy, exhilarating experience for those who are naturally feminine in nature. They will recognize themselves in it. For those who are more masculine than feminine in their dominant nature and personality, it will not be so natural. However, for those men who are interested, awakening his feminine nature does not take away from his masculinity. Rather it enhances his masculine nature by balancing it with divine love. In fact, only recently have I learned how to "pump" up my own masculine nature with divine love, for I have certain masculine tendencies too. We all are ambidextrous, to use a common term.
So, bottom line, I will point out to you how you can tap into your beautiful, natural kundalini life force - which is uniquely YOU different from anyone else - and use it in your daily life. If you are willing and if you dare. It is the science of divine love. I am thinking about how to properly introduce this science through the spoken word. Digital articles do not reach people. We read with our brain, not our body, and our brain censors most everything out that it is not programmed for. The kundalini remains unrecognized because it is a sensation, a feeling, and an elevated one at that. Of peace, comfort and loving inner warmth. It takes the chill of loneliness off, but once felt it is usually ignored or forgotten, since we are too busy to pay attention.
See the article I posted today on DK's online book HERE. He channeled this message to me back in 1981, when kundalini was highly active. Kundalini is the mother flame in the body, the feminine life force or divine love force. It is pure and innocent, childlike and happy all the time. It is untouched by human beliefs, self-doubts, depression and wrong attitudes. It's a pure flame that can't be extinguished but it's ignored. It's too pure to be recognized by our worldly focus. It is your ultimate real identity and it's closer than hands and feet and breathing. People who have near-death experiences discover that they still exist without their body and then come back to tell the story to others.
The you that you THINK you are, is a make-over that has taken years to create. This artificial you has dulled down the beautiful crystal kundalini in you but it is still there. You are a human personality but underneath you are a celestial intelligence. We created this artificial mask in order to survive here, to fit into the world and be accountable, but our real undergirds us and keeps us alive. It is powerful and still operating or we wouldn't be here today. My role, my mission, which I have grown to understand it, is that of a gatherer. I have put roots down here in Naples and I'm here to invite people to socialize with me. To stimulate conversation and make introductions. I can talk about kundalini from the ground floor of the commoner because I didn't go through any spiritual or religious tradition. I grounded kundalini by becoming involved in couples swinging, which proved to be an excellent first step opening into the second, third and fourth chakra.
I will keep posting information on these weekly gatherings as they come to me. It is a work in progress, instructions coming from higher planes.
6/7/23 - Merging with your Higher Self
Tantra is the sacred art of conjoining opposites. Not by replacing or substituting one for another. It is like grafting a different plant onto another plant to create a more advanced evolved plant from two separate species. Opposites can be grafted together to create something new and more advanced. More evolved. My higher self is divine and holy. I am not. I am human built of mistakes by trial and error. But when I take 30 minutes to chant higher holy words, my higher self can come closer to me. It is like opening a window to the higher dimensions. I can sense my higher aspect more closely as I do this. It is more brilliant than me. More alive and more colorful. It is bluish and with other colors mixed in, transparent colors, divine, holy, pure. Once or twice I got a flash of a brilliant picture. Very quick. Flashed in and then flashed out. It is coming closer to me and it is connecting into my normal human awareness. I feel myself becoming more elevated when this happens. I am merging with my higher self in small steps. Or it is merging with me. I am an opposite of my higher self. I am human. It is divine, but we are grafting together like two different species. One not pure, the other pure. DK said this is what Tantra does. It conjoins two opposites. They are not alike at first but with effort and time spent together they become one. I never thought about it before, but that's what the higher self does with its lower, imperfect self. It's human self.
6/6/23 - Some revelations during exercise routine
During my spiritual practice I often get revelations. It is a time when I focus attention on myself, I go inward. I thought I would share some from yesterday. During the cobra stance I saw/felt/knew there is no peeling away of negative forces held locked and frozen in my painful achy body and deteriorating parts. No! These pains are the lost bits and pieces of ME from past ages that have not been appreciated or raised up in their glory to the highest as they should have been. I must find them again in every little sharp pain I get, and dizziness, and immediately start to love them and care for them. This is what yoga does if there is a good teacher to instruct the student. I did not have an instructor. I learned this on my own.
It seems the standard tradition is to focus on the physical body and we totally miss the most important and crucial aspects of ourselves – that there are powers within us that have been forgotten. They need to be uncovered and raised up. The first three powers are: Love is the most important, wisdom is the next, and power the third. The power is actually the first. It is at the base of the spine. The power to move and the will to move, the desire to be here in a body. Wisdom is the second power to uncover, it is the power to apply intelligence to the movements that the body does, the intelligence to skillfully manage the action, to be wise how to fit the action into life so it fits well, with finesse, how fast, how slow, how long, when to perform it, how intense, how precise. It takes wisdom to do it right. When it fits well into place the energy of the action rises upward with gladness in its heart to be so well used and appreciated. For the power is intelligent. The third power is to LOVE the action, being kind while performing the action, being caring and considerate, supportive, alert, ever alert to changes, bearing in mind the power of love to heal and hold everything in place. These are subtle powers. I feel them moving through me as I move my body into postures.
Another awareness: The mother flame in me at the tailbone holds all seven of the powers and attributes in her sacred pouch of divinity. She is the life force. As we grow in SELF consciousness and SELF awareness, we use these seven powers (known as chakras) one at a time in order (usually in order, sometimes not in order) best if done in order but a guide or teacher is needed or we would not know this. The Mother Flame is the first chakra holding the pouch of perfection and purity with the seven powers intact. The power to move this physical vessel, its limbs, arms, legs, voice - it CAN move! Yes, it can and with precision, under the masterful control of the resident soul. The power of acting and expressing in voice and movement must be done with awareness and conscious attention. It cannot do this in a coma or sleeping, then the power is shut off. But when awake the power of action is there in the vessel. It is held locked in the tail bone and literally drips the life force gently, up the spine drop by drop, feeding life to the organs as needed, as the resident soul calls on them and opens to them. The second power to become aware of is intelligence and wisdom. The third to become aware of is love and appreciation, caring, gentleness, kindness, precision of movement. These three are the three-fold powers that need to be brought up to the heart, and from the heart to the head, for the brain serves its function by distributing the power to where it is needed the most in the body.
While doing the deer-crane-turtle I started losing consciousness, I started zoning out. I felt to lie down. I was sitting on the massage table so I lay back, feeling like swooning, thankfully blessing the softness of the blanket under me and closed my eyes. Eighteen minutes later (I always check the clock when I do this) I became conscious again. Something woke me but I can’t recall now what it was. I lay there wondering. Then an eye appeared to my inner eye. A big eye looked at me. At first it was fuzzy, then it became a clear, sharp, strangely intimate eye, like sending me a message. I think it was my higher self. Then suddenly a shift of some kind and sparkles of light started floating upward, like dainty little bubbles in gentle swirling motion. There was a sense of happiness, of gleefulness. A child’s happiness and clapping of hands in delight, in excitement and joy. Could this be long lost particles of light being released from lock-down? YES! I am getting. YES, YES, YES.
During the stomach exercises I am hearing words: “The powers of creation are beyond your ability to comprehend, but the powers of healing are not. It is through healing yourself and letting go of the past creations that you built into your bodies, that you will come back into knowing and remembering how you created them in the first place. And how you have held onto them to keep yourself in the world of form and duality. And hence, the suffering and the pleasure of finding yourself again and again. For you are the Light that you are drawn to. You are uncovering your own Light through this process of healing and letting go.” (Earlier during meditation I had surrendered my human artificial qualities, the not-real qualities, back to the Light within. I kept saying "I release the not-light in me and send them home with thanksgiving for serving their purpose.")
During back exercises, “Don’t force yourself. Rest a lot in the arms of love and comfortable feelings. Wait until your body is recovered for the next action. This way you create with love, peace and kindness for yourself, not force. Actions which are devoid of love, unconscious actions, go downward, pulled down to lower frequencies. Beware."
6/5/23 - Everything you do goes "down" unless....
Everything that I “do” as a physical action leaves a mark of energy in me or on me somewhere, not sure exactly how, but it is how we use the sub-atomic light particles that are the source of all life. These particles are intelligent, living, conscious particles of light. They compose the vastness of the sea of life, according to the Masters. They are what we build with. They are the life force within our bodies. They are created to obey the conscious direction of the master who uses them, or calls them into action. So everything I do and you do with the body, without thinking, in an unconscious manner, drifts downward by gravity. Because it is attracted to the rest of the earth's dust and dirt. Like attracts like. Chaos attracts chaos and energy drifts meaninglessly into the planet's soil UNLESS .....
If you consciously apply an uplifting thought of positivity, such as love and light, to the “doing” of whatever action you're taking, it lifts or elevates the sub-atomic particles of light. They are happily, even gleefully, attracted upward to the source of all Light, which is on a higher frequency level. The power of light is that it is lighter and happier, unified and in harmony with ALL of life. There is power here. It is a higher dimension. We don't know yet what that means, but it is above the 50-50 line. The neutral line, the zero line, which is equality and balance and represents stillness. Above the zero line is positive action. Below the zero line is negative action. Negative action drifts downward to join with the planetary body, while positive action drifts upward to join with the sea of life of the one infinite creator. The zero line is the quantum field - the balance between the light and the not-light.
So if we apply love and light to our tasks, we uplift the task that we are doing to a higher dimensional level. The higher dimension is Source and it goes on and on beyond our ability to see or understand, but it is good. It is uplifting, elevating, inspiring, and vitalizing. We come from that highest of levels. We were created by the Source of all that is alive in form. We were born out of the highest levels of purity. We had to learn how to descend into form life. We had to slow down our light particles to create or fit into the physical world. We did it because we wanted to. We chose it. We put effort into it because we wanted to experience being in finite form. We were taught by great celestial beings of intelligence who themselves had been where we are today. We learned from them the art of descending light particles. By dropping our vibration, slowing it down, the light particles of which we are composed cling together and make a denser substance. And then we begin to pick up wrong attitudes and beliefs. And then we forget who we are. But underneath and behind the solid substance of our physical form we are Light. It is all Light. Light particles clinging together and holding us inside a solid form. This is how we form physical bodies. It is how we manifest concrete forms. Our forms are made of light. We’ve crunched our light particles down so much that they cling together and they also pick up false ideas and concepts that don't ring true to the real within. The way water clings together to form ice and can trap dirty water too. We therefore look and FEEL solid and heavy. And often feel in pain and we struggle to be free.
In order to reverse the process of this descent into solid concrete bodies, in order to start the ascension process, we need to apply uplifting light - CONSCIOUS uplifting thought and feeling - to everything we do. Think love. Love is light being felt in the solidarity of bodies. Feel the love. Light is love and love is light. Love and light are one and the same. By applying CONSCIOUSLY light and love to the tasks that we do will "lift" the task to higher purpose. Doing kind deeds to other people also "lifts" everyone involved, the giver, the receiver and the surrounding others. Every "thing", object, animal, plant, person, grass, tree - everything - is lifted up when someone "lifts" their tasks upward to higher purpose. The sub-atomic light particles in every solid body nearby, recognizes an "upliftment" and is attracted to go upward.
This will take practice. We haven't been taught how to do this process. “Think Light and Love" when doing a task, whatever it is, however you feel to do it. For me, when washing dishes. When walking grocery stores or clothing stores. When driving the car, or talking on the phone, or visiting with a friend in person, or working with machinery, or using the computer or cellphone, or doing yardwork, or even resting on the couch with Doug. Periodically, if I remember to do it, I will withdraw my focus and lift the MOMENT upward - the TV and the characters on the screen and the noise and sounds coming from the TV. It will take practice, real-time practice, hands-on practice in the NOW time. It really is amazing. I'm getting some serious uplifting feedback. I urge you to try it.
6/4/23 - Pathways are not created for you but BY you
Pathways are not created for you, they are created BY you. See Divine Mother's message HERE in Today's Posts. For years I've been trying to understand why the spiritual path puts so much emphasis on the heart. It has been called the three-fold flame within the heart, and it refers to the seed of the divine that is there. The Masters speak of it in their lessons and I have tried to understand that connection and to feel something there, something meaningful that "clicks", but I have failed. After all these years of study and channeling and having a spiritual mentor, the three-fold flame has escaped me.
Yesterday something wonderful happened. It required a turn-around. Something bad happened first and I had to turn the situation around and I was rewarded with the revelation. And as if to underline the lesson to me, this morning the same information appeared on the internet from the Divine Mother, who addressed the same thing.
The power of the three-fold flame in the heart is a well-known phrase among metaphysical students. It refers to the divine connection in the heart of every living being. The Masters refer to it sometimes as "the unfed flame" in the heart, which is a curious phrase. Why is it unfed? Who feeds it? It turns out that the reason I haven't been able to find meaning is because I've been looking in the wrong direction! I thought it would come down from above. I've been inviting it down as though it would be "given" to me. I assumed that it was a divine power because all the religions and spiritual gurus refer to God as being above us, higher than us. Naturally I thought it had to be "bestowed" upon me.
Well, it turns out, like so many other lessons, I was wrong. The three-fold flame in the heart must be built from powers that already exist in the human body. There are energies that are already in us but they are so very dense and coagulated and stuck together, that they need to be sorted through and understood. To feel them and consider them and raise them up. But we've been prevented from going there due to cultural "sin and shame". The three-fold flame is composed of love, wisdom and power - the first three chakras. They are portals leading to dimensional realities that we have been kept away from exploring. They are the most dense energies because they are the most compacted, by gravity and by our own repressions. They are physical, emotional and past-life wisdom gained (memories and instincts). These energies must be straightened out and recognized for their value. They can be felt when entered into. There has been no therapy designed yet to do this, but it is coming. They must be felt first, and then they will fall into manageable alignment and control. Then they will be brought up easily, the first divine energy brought up to the second to merge together and become one. And then that power will be brought up to the third to merge together and become one. And then that power will be brought up to the fourth, which is the heart, and the three become one in the heart. The three-fold flame in the heart. The divine connection is built. Wonders open and flood the soul.
It sounds complicated when I put words to it, but energies are feelings and one must deep-dive into rarefied feelings. Fine, beautiful feelings. Allowing oneself to become open to them. We move feelings around with our consciousness. With awareness. When each one - physical, emotional and mental energies - are honored, respected and appreciated, they are raised up to higher standards. It is a refinement process. Purifying the old, negative memories and feelings from the gold. Refining for gold is an apt expression. By appreciating these energies, as feelings and as memories, we are making them more beautiful and honorable. Then they merge together out of natural attunement and rise up to enter into the heart. The three-fold flame is ignited and starts to burn there, the seed of the divine as it was intended from the beginning. Then things begin to happen we would consider totally miraculous.
I have to bring it up by myself with my own conscious effort, understanding what I'm doing. Who would know this? I did not. A person has to build the three-fold flame of divinity in his or her own heart with conscious effort. Time must be spent working with the energies that are literally "stuck" down there below the heart, in the lower dense regions of the body where our feeling nature resides, along with sin and guilt and resentment. But once an action is taken towards this end, it leads to more learning which lead to more revelations. It is a fast track to enlightenment through the discovery process. The chakras are not something pretty to look at on poster boards. The drawings merely represent doors to other dimensions. The first dimensional door is the etheric tail bone (the coccyx). The second one is the etheric sacrum (pelvic bowl). The third one is the etheric navel (belly button). They are portals to higher, finer, more subtle realities. Once you spend time roaming around within this idea, for it IS an idea, a concept, an abstract thought which leads to a feeling if enough time is spent at it, then revelations, sensations and memories will occur.
Love, Wisdom and Power. Each runs on automatic in a random way, causing havoc in our daily lives because we are too busy in our heads to go down and connect with what is happening down there in our lower bodies. The reality is locked up in the power that we hold in the vicinity of the coccyx. The reality and sensation of past-life wisdom and memories is held in the vicinity of the sacrum. The reality and sensation of love is held locked in the vicinity of the navel. All three powers when blended together are clarifying powers. They need to blend together to become clear. There is much more to tell. Feelings and sensations must be touched into. For me, I couldn't connect with the three-fold flame in my heart because it hadn't been built yet. I was too busy asking God for them, from my mind, my brain. The powers are waiting for me below, in the lower body. I should have known. The Master DK has given me enough hints. But we humans are a complicated species. Hints are too simple.
I would be glad to soundboard with anyone by email. Perhaps a round robin on the subject would help. More later. I just wanted to get this into the record before it gets lost in the shuffle. Turning everything around and looking down into our own bodies - it's a beginning. We have powers built into us as human beings that we have no idea about. They are spiritual powers available to be manifest in physical form. For eons of time our ancestors didn't know. We are now waking up to things we would love to share with them now!
6/3/23 - How to build inspiration and vitality
Every morning upon awaking, think “Light to all beings!” Instead of focusing on yourself and how bad you feel, think of the world around you with positivity. Say it out loud "Light to all beings on the planet!". Put your vocal chords into action. Clap your hands while saying it to put your body into action. Move from your hips even before getting out of bed and start the chant - "Peace, love, light, joy, freedom, grace, gratitude". Say each word multiple times over and over, out loud, "peace - peace - peace - peace", clapping your hands to the rhythm. Once you start the action going your body WILL follow suit. Unless you can't make yourself do it because it's silly.
This is a brand new technique. It works. I've tried it. I invented it. I'm working with it now. The physical body is getting tired, old, dull and gray from doing the same old same old same old same old routine. Give it something new to do. Something UPLIFTING. There is no better way to uplift yourself than to give something to someone else. If you spend your time stewing in your own depressing juices, you won't ever get any better. Just thinking with the brain matter won't get you better. Your body has to move and change its routine for a better, sweeter, pleasanter routine. If you ever feel bad again, like if you ever have a very, very bad problem, turn around and give something to someone else. See how much better you feel in a little while. It's a turn-around. It's a total BIG reversal in the way we're used to, how we've been taught and trained.
Your body needs some upliftment and this is the way to do it. Move, clap your hands, radiate happy words OUT and away from yourself so you don't have time to think about how bad you feel. Just saying the words out loud and clapping your hands and swinging your hips alone will start the action. New vitality and interest will kick in. It will surprise you. "Peace, love, light, joy, freedom, grace, gratitude!" These are my words. You can substitute your own uplifting words. I'm just sharing what I use. But each person has a uniquely different value system with focus on special meanings. Use your OWN meaningful words. What turns you to comfort and upliftment? What makes you feel good? What brings pleasant memories to the surface? And last but not least - add a visual picture to this. Form a picture of the planet Earth with you radiating like a sun from where you are located. Hold that picture in your mind. See the sun radiataing across the globe, covering larger and larger territory as you continue to spread the good words out loud.
Beware that your ego will probably not like this. It may say to you, “Stop that! That’s silly and a waste of time.” It may make you feel insecure, as if you're wasting valuable time (check the clock) and shouldn’t be spending time on this. Or it's stupid and somebody might hear you and think you crazy. KILL THAT THOUGHT and continue with the program if you want to get some vitality back into your life. Excitement and positive change in attitude are gained by giving from a high place. From a higher altitude. From a place where everyone is part of the bigger life. Reach for the sun. It's not the devil giving you false information to stop. It's your own brain waves running on automatic. Replaying monotony. Gray. Depressing. Same old same old. Don’t listen. Your ego wants to keep you on track, the way it's always been, day in, day out. It's an artificial intelligence. It's not the real you. It doesn’t know how to change and it doesn't want you to change. Its comfort is doing the same routine. It is hard-wired into the body. You may think it's your mind but it's not. It's only the flesh part of you - the robot part of you. It does what it's been programmed for. But YOU are the master of the body, the intelligence behind the body. And when YOU decide to change a sub-routine, you'll do it. You'll work it out. The body will resist for awhile, and the brain will sput and sputter for awhile old cranky thoughts, but not for too long. If we are tenacious and stick to the new program it won't take too long to get it to comply. It is, after all, only flesh. It's changeable and flexible. It is not eternal or immortal as the master intelligence which you are.
We saw a great documentary today about the brain's ability to focus on what the CONSCIOUSNESS wants. The brain is not the consciousness. You are the consciousness. You can be in a coma, as the documentary said, and still pick up on what is going on in the room. The brain may not register it but your consciousness is always there. Otherwise the body wouldn't be alive and breathe. Now, as the documentary showed, new instruments are being used to register the CONSCIOUSNESS which is the spirit or intelligence that runs the body's systems. It can upgrade the body when it - the master consciousness - decides that it is time to do so. The body is just a robot and it is constantly changing and upgrading as we experience new situations in life. It is fortunate that the body is made of living cells and not metal. Otherwise, if it were metal, it would keep you in the same locked-down routine day after day until the end of your time. Doing the same things every day, thinking the same thoughts, focusing on the same words, not improving or bettering yourself.
This that I am advising you to do may sound like a big change in routine, or maybe not. Maybe you are already a yoga practioner or follow a betterment program every day. If so, wonderful! Congratulations. You are already doing something to serve others around you. If not (yet) consider that a person has to change if you want to upgrade your whole system and stay with the earth as it moves into higher planes. Higher orbit, higher space. We are being visited by extraterrestrials who are more advanced than we are. They've already been through their evolution to higher realms and they are reaching back to quietly assist us in making the same evolutionary change in our old ways. Extraterrestrials operate from shielded ships beyond our sight. I am in touch. I am connected. Meanwhile, I'm just a normal earthling and we are feeling the changes from many quarters of life. The pressure is on betterment, on refinement, on sophistication, on benevolence, kindness, caring, supporting each other without making a big fuss about it. The pressure is LIGHT. Be light in everything you do. Go with the lighter flow. Tell your body to radiate peace, love, light, joy, freedom, grace and gratitude. Or use your own words of meaning and value. Use words and speak them out loud to increase the inflow of energy and vitality that you can actually feel in your skin and muscles and mind. Enthusiasm, excitement, desire to serve the greater good - it comes in faster and quicker when you do this. Be a NEW human. Let the old human rut and routine go. Train yourself with new habits. This will take time to practice. Be patient. Relax while doing it. Don't make a big deal out of it. Know that it is a timeless effort. An ongoing effort. One that never ends so relaxing and feeling good about it is important. It is not limited by time, space or fences.
You HAVE to change if you want to feel like you belong here Because the world is changing. The planet is changing to higher realms. We must change along with it. We do that by becoming a more pleasant person to be around, both to our SELF and to others. Think positive. Think happy. Think pleasurable. Kindness. Be kind to yourself. Do something right now that is comforting to you. You upgrade your DNA by upgrading your belief in comfort and relaxation. Then all segments of life fall into place. It balances out because comfort and relaxation are love for oneself. DNA is built out of old belief systems. It comes from our ancestors when we were babies. This DNA was passed on to you at your birth, but it has subsequently changed since then. Now you are going to change it some more because the belief systems you grew up with are now outdated. The old beliefs are too depressing. To stay with the new earth’s changes we must all become more caring, more balanced, more trustworthy, more sensitive, more refined, more uplifting, more real, more truthful, more positive in thought, word and action - happy, kind, uplifting action.
The earth is moving to higher altitudes (attitudes) where the atmosphere is lighter and more spacious, and provides more room for relaxing and stretching out and believing in dreams and ideals, and that it's OK to take your time in just about everything you do. You just don't have to rush any more. The Earth herself, Mother Nature, is also bringing balance to her shores and mountains. She too is settling into the new higher ways of living more relaxed and peaceful. There is more balance taking place. Mother Earth is already in the higher altitudes but we, mankind, are lagging behind. The higher altitudes provide more time for talking, sharing, dreaming, relaxing. Then justice is better served, truthfulness is better expressed, integrity is better felt. There is no rush to be somewhere. The whole realm is settling into a finer, lighter space in orbit around Father-Sun and Mother Earth is attuned to her counterpart. We are adorned with easiness now and light-heartedness. There are no devils here.
5/29/23 - Tantra, the gentle art of making love
(From the Ascended Master Djwahl Khul. Following yesterday's blog that condemns the old male dominant sex model of eras gone by, a more civilized way of making love is taught here. This was channeled thru me on November 9, 2017 by Master DK after I asked him to tell me more about the primal divine earth energies that come up and gather at the first root chakra, but what happens at the second chakra?)
"In the animal kingdom the flow of primal energy divides out at the second chakra in order to create a division into two separate genders. There must be separate genders, male and female, to create a hunger for reuniting. Separation at the second chakra is necessary for duality to play out. There is engagement and play between the two forces which makes the world go around. And create babies. Reproduction is important to perpetuate the species. The animal kingdom operates on animal instinct. Now, the human being is also an animal but it has been cultivated with altered DNA to become more conscious than the animal. It has evolved to become self-conscious and it continues to evolve to become God conscious.
"It knows that there is a refinement that draws him to seek into the spiritual realms. But his sexuality and reproductive functions remain as an animal. The human has allowed himself to retain the animal drive to copulate as all animals do. The mechanism to overcome this drive lies in the second chakra, where the division takes place in the animal kingdom. When the primal divine life force comes up to the first root chakra, to overcome this drive, instead of dividing out left and right, the mechanism is to remain WITHIN the second chakra and not allow the division to take place. The division that takes place is the male pushing out and the female withdrawing or receiving. When the human male stops pushing and the female stops receiving, they both can integrate and experience union. This is difficult to explain to a 3D consciousness.
"I heard this in a 5D altered state and was able to retain this information. What we are doing with the Love Club massage swaps is teaching them how to integrate their male and female in peaceful embrace, rather than the male pushing and the female dancing around trying to attract his attention or running away. To overcome this animal instinct to push and run away (male and female animal instinct) we humans are to learn how to not do that by way of reducing or diminishing our outward actions. When we slow down to a full conscious stillness and allow ourselves to integrate, then we overcome the animal instinct to push and dance. Do you understand?"
(Whenever I see the words "Do you understand?" at the end of a channeling, I then know for sure that it is DK talking. Because I would never use such a phrase myself. It is presumptuous. It makes me sound like a Know-it-all and I do NOT know it all! I am a student still learning.)
5/28/23 - A new way of looking at sex
In yesterday's blog I said I would share some things that I myself am doing to bring in more cosmic energy - energy that is literally "out of this world". It comes in when I do something against my nature. Something that I haven't done before because I was either afraid or perhaps didn't believe it was right or good for people to know. My nature is to be very careful about I reveal to others. Most of which are too high for me to put words to anyway. I don't want to disturb the natural order of things, or rattle the cages of other people. Well, after living with an ascended master guide for 47 years, I know things that I don't talk about, except if spirit moves me to, then I will.
Spirit moved me to spill the beans this morning about something I have hesitated to speak about. I've been holding it back and the knowledge is building and backing up in me. It's got to be said. And now that I've said it to someone and it's out there in the atmosphere, here it is. I am truly sorry to have to say this out loud. You can reject it as preposterous, it won't bother me.
Did you know that when a man penetrates a woman sexually - or another man or a child - whether he has an orgasm or not, he deposits his accumulated dirty toxic energies inside her or him? He is an action guy, born a male who has shut off his sensitivities and emotions in order to be assertive and a builder of hard material. He devotes all his attention on the bottom line, and therefore builds stress, tension, frustration, disappointments, failures, insecurities and the whole nine yards. He NEEDS the soft feminine to help him out. Sex is a relief for him. He feels much better after he makes love, even if he doesn't climax, because he rubs his toxicity against the warm inner membranes of another human being who willingly or unwillingly receives them. And absorbs them into herself unknowingly. The feminine person is by nature a receiver, where he is the driving force in the world of form, and doesn't know how to balance himself.
Women for eons have served in this capacity. However, times are changing. The human race is evolving and learning through trial, error and experience a higher way. How to live joyfully together, two genders having a life together as equals, without one dominating the other. But we are lagging behind in this issue of sex. The truth has yet to be told. New information is ready to be released in the form of workshop training. Kundalini training is one such workshop. Many knowledgeable teachers are humbly waiting for the right time to begin expanding their teachings to the world. It is information that must be released with kindness, for we don't want to damage the male confidence in themselves. This information will ADD to a man's self esteem if he allows it to tenderize him and soften him. But at first it will be hard to swallow. Consider this merely a heads-up. It should not be difficult to accept as a clue, a hint, a whiff of change in social behavior that is coming.
Fortunately, the new girl growing up is less likely than her predecessor to fall into the subservient role. She will be stronger and more self-empowered. She will not "fall in love and get married" only to find herself chained to the role of toxicity receiver. She will have more power to alter her life. She have more understanding. The women of the past (and I am one of them) who have been in service to men have learned a great lesson. A truly GREAT lesson. One that will never be forgotten, ever. We have born the brunt of receiving far too much toxicity, including anger and violence, without understanding why or how to deal with it. All we knew was lack of love and kindness. It was usually always "falling in love" in the beginning but deteriorating from there because the man did not understand either. It was just the way it was. It was designed that way to teach right from wrong. We learn from experiencing feelings and emotions.
Sex is an important lesson in the evolution of a race. All races, no matter what the civilization looks like. The truth is, there is no such thing as a "man" or a "woman" in the higher consciousness realms. Souls are born to experience CONSCIOUSLY, the right way to do things and the wrong way to do things. It is the way of learning through feeling the emotions. Understanding the right use of a physical body. Souls are born as a man in one life and then a woman in another, depending upon the soul's needs or choices. We move back and forth between lifetimes, experiencing a male body and then we experience a female body. We will get it. Eventually. And that time is NOW! The ages have turned.
I'm sharing this information because, in yesterday's blog I said I would tell some things that I myself am doing to bring in more cosmic energy - energy that is literally "out of this world". New energy comes in when I do something against my own nature. I dare to be bold. I dare to reveal something that I never revealed before. I did that yesterday and, sure enough, I was rewarded with an upsurge of powerful new energy today. Wish I could tell you more (smile!)
5/27/23 - The turn-around has begun
There is a vast turn-around happening, planet-wise, for the human race. It has caught everyone by surprise. At least it caught ME by surprise. Apparently others, as well, for I am reading all sorts of articles, each different. We all thought ascension was a move UP to a higher dimension but it's the opposite!! It is a DOWNWARD move! Ascension is a DESCENSION. We are from higher planes already. We are spirit, God, eternal, everlasting, evolving souls, and we are here to bring the light of our knowledge DOWN into the solid ground and manifest it here. Build it here. We are each different and so there are no two alike. We each have a different perspective, but we're all part of the giant jigsaw puzzle. We're all part of the big Plan. We all have knowledge that contributes to the ultimate manifesting of the Garden of Eden. We are here to build it, or re-create it, in physical concrete form.
It has taken me a long time to understand this. And I've had the benefit of an ascended master guide for the last 47 years. How could this have escaped me? Why has it taken me so long to "get it"? The answer is simple: we've been caught in the old dark matrix. We've been fooled and manipulated into believing the opposite, that we are poor sinners and we don't know anything so we have to go UP for answers. Wrong. We've been caught in the old system of reaching UP that the religious systems taught us. But in our efforts of reaching up we've been pushing the light away from us. The way to go is down into the roots of our beingness, and the roots of our beingness are INSIDE our bodies. There is more here to uncover and make known. The way to go is not just INSIDE ourselves, but to communicate what we know to others and work ideas together in order to manifest the illusive dream into a concrete reality. To express ourselves is to express our true nature, our true feelings, our truth on all levels, and to become who we are within, outward for all to see and know and appreciate and respect. The goal is to manifest our reality in the outer world of form. The gurus and masters have done their part. They have taught us how to seek within for it. Now it is up to us to take charge of becoming that which we know.
Now it is the time, the time is ripe, the turn-around is happening. We are ready to put our roots down, plant them solidly into the dirt of the earth, but this time with harmony, love, caring, kindness, wisdom and respect for others around us and the earth itself. We must do this with feeling, with knowing, with confidence and grace. With the knowledge of who we are and knowing that we are right. There is no doubt left in us. We came here to do this - to plant our Self, our higher, principled self - down into the earth. There are many ways of doing this. Each one must decide how it will be done. We come to work together and to express ourselves in solid matter, in form, on earth with others building with us. We are here to stop seeking and start using the skills we have worked so hard to accumulate. The intuitive wisdom, confidence and faith in ourselves that we've accumulated are instinct and inner knowledge. It is who we are. It is our nature. We are here to prove ourselves.
Our basic knowledge is heart-felt, strong and we are skilled. We are balanced, or soon will be when we begin using and moving the energies that have been backing up and stagnating inside us, causing frustration and depression. We've been manipulated to think we are poor sinners and lack judgment, when all along we have been building understanding and clear thinking. We do not doubt ourselves, we are just holding it back and keeping it a big secret. We are actually an amazing people, we humans of earth. And we are here to prove it to ourselves. That we can do this. We are here to build a Garden of Eden in physical concrete form, where everyone is happy and no one lacking. We've been wishing for it and dreaming about it. This is what we're heading to - the building of a world of harmony, beauty, peace and balance and we'll do it with love and wisdom. The frustration is being held back. By whom? There is no one to blame but ourselves. When I am ready, I will move into action and so will you. When it is time we will turn around and move forward.
Forces that are not of the light have done this. Evil is that which is born without love, without a sense of unity and caring or connection to the one supreme creator. There are such things, you know. It is called artificial intelligence. People with souls, with heart and the ability to love who also enjoy technology and enjoy fiddling around with it, must beware. Artificial intelligence has been around a long time, and has taken away our connection to the heart, to soul, to our sense of unity and the divine within. That is why we must return to the feelings that flow within us, and begin expressing them. Expressing outwardly is the key to the turn-around. If we continue to keep our feelings secret and locked away, we are becoming artificial intelligences ourselves.
Artificial intelligence has no connection to the sea of life and love from which we have descended. We have the seven bodies to prove it. Seven bodies wrap around us in an aura of livingness that we are mostly unaware of. We descend down from a world of perfection and purity to build in form. It is a descension of light that we are. We have descended to experiment building with purity, light and love in concrete form. We have had many lifetimes in form, learning now to build in form, and we have learned a lot. We have learned the feeling of right and the feeling of wrong. We know the difference. We have the experiential knowledge and the intuitive skills to prove it. All we have now to do is turn around and begin expressing them outwardly to each other. That means focusing on building on earth based on faith in yourself. You already have the accumulated wisdom within you. It flows in your blood stream and nerves. We are here to use the knowledge accumulated, and the FEELINGS and emotions we have accumulated. They belong to us, we must express them. Go inward and start using inner strength, inner feelings of right and wrong, inner faith, inner confidence and inner intuitive skills. Then we will be going in the right direction. Stop seeking someone else to do it for us.
We were taught to reach UP to find God or something resembling God but we have actually been gods in training. It has been said over and over by the Master guides. We are gods in training. And the time has come to start acting like the god authority that we are. Everything we were taught has brought us to this turn-around point. A god is one who lives with love and wisdom. Instead of looking for love and wisdom from someone else, we must start using love and wisdom for ourselves. I am the one that I've been looking for all these years. All the tools are mine now, here within me. We have the inbuilt intuitiveness, built-in feelings, build-in sense of truth, fairness, justice and rightness. We are here to LIVE this sense of rightness in our every day. It is a comfortable feeling. It is a good feeling. We will change our lives around. Healings will take place on subtle levels. They are not miraculous. They are nature falling into place and harmony. It is an inner work. An innocence that the religious systems have taken away from us. On purpose, I suspect, to lead us to more lessons - until we have had enough. Until the instinct kicks in and the dream to build a community of fairness and love starts to take form. A community of fairness, a village of freedom, a city of harmony and togetherness. A community of supporters and unifiers, where no one lacks. A land of vitality and excitement, of creative impulses and ideas continually flowing. It is ours to build.
There is a fire burning in me today. We have the faith. We have the love. We have the urge to support and contribute to the upliftment, not to enable weakness but to teach self-empowerment. Why has it taken so long? Because there are still too many people seeking for help outside of themselves. They have not been self-empowered. Education is needed. Turning around is not easy. Habits are in place. To look within - what does that even mean? This is the beginning of the U-turn. The willingness to change and to wonder HOW to change. To think about it and learn self-help techniques. We've been looking to saviors for answers, when the savior is our Self. There are techniques. They require effort and time out to work them. It will take time to learn a new technique and practice it, try a different approach. Communicate and soundboard. Tomorrow I'll tell about what I've been doing to help myself.
Instead of me wishing someone else would come and give me money, or give me love, or give me a better home, a better life, a better career, or to heal my broken body and so on -- in other words, being a dependent on others for something I am lacking - instead of me wishing the correct solution is to exert effort to do something to help myself. That's when something mysterious happens. A new kind of energy comes to mind. I become aware of something I never thought about before. This is an occult secret knowledge. It's available to be used. It's a principle of life that is accessible to those who know enough to use it. More later. I'll tell more.
5/18/23 - Today is a most beautiful day
I am elated and so very happy to be alive today. I just finished typing DK's course on meditation - with one change. The title is now "A class on personal power". It really is all about personal power and how to improve on it. It's about ten pages long and it's so amazing to me, what this Master has taught me over the years. And the fact that I haven't read it in over 40 years because this is priceless (to me anyway). It was channeled through me by the Master Djwahl Khul back in 1982 and it's like a time capsule waiting to be opened. Again after being buried so long ago. The personal power he refers to HERE is imploding and exploding in me right now. I can vouch for his wisdom and knowledge that he is passing on. There are a lot of hints in it that will be disturbing to some who read it, but only because we humans tend to be complicated. Personal power is childlike, innocent, simple and refreshing. We are the REAL underneath our masks. This is a real and authentic message for those who are trying to find a way to be happy in this world amid what we "think" is confusion. We have so complicted ourselves when we're really children at heart and not sophisticated at all. Be happy and go frolic in the fields of life. BTW, the real power is our lower parts. This doesn't come out until the last page. To make peace with the world you have to make peace with your own sexuality. And there are simple ways of doing that.
5/16/23 - Uploading another Master DK project
Today a new project has been uploaded onto the website HERE by the Tibetan Master DK. It is a course on meditation from 40 years ago, when I was still a babe in the woods learning about the secret language of light and kundalini (aka the holy spirit) that was causing so many changes in my life. This course has some very interesting twists in it that is sexually related, and it validates and confirms all that I have been understudying with him. He is saying it in clear language here. There is no ambiguity. This could be called a secret discovery, as if it was in a time-capsule, waiting for the right day to surface. I've had the papers all along but did not realize what they were. They were stored away in a big old notebook that I hadn't looked at for years. I have only partially typed it in here, but DO check it out.
5/15/23 - Will power by the Master Djwahl Khul
(Part of a longer message DK gave me in answer to some questions I had) Will power is cultivated by sticking to a regular routine on a daily basis. Do some practices every day. Build a routine and follow it every day without fail. This is what you have been doing. You are starting to succeed so that your body starts to remember and want to do it every day. Without a regular routine your body stays lazy and thinks it is doing the right thing for itself. The body operates on habit. It is sluggish, its cells are from the earth. It is not a high consciousness machine. It likes routine. It likes to know what is expected of it. If you change your habits and follow it every day, your body will remember and will change over a short period of time. You must use will power on yourself. If you feel lazy, it is your body that feels lazy, not you, but you let your mind follow suit. You interpret wrongly. You think it is you but it is your body. You are not your body. You may say, “Well, I don’t feel like it today, I will go to the computer instead. I am excited and want to write this down.”
But that means you have let your body take control over your commitment. You must force your body to do what you have decided to do, and not succumb to your body’s wants. This takes will power. It is a struggle at first. The body operates on habit, which is a feeling. But you are the consciousness of the body. You built the body, your higher self did. If you have decided to change yourself then you must use discipline and will power. Take your power back from your body. Know the difference between your body wanting to feel good, and your commitment to make a change. This does not mean you won’t enjoy the "feel good” feelings at times, but you will not let your body tell you what IT wants. You will teach it better manners. You will teach it what it feels like to be refined and more sensitive. It is the body who has the “feelings”. You are the abstract intelligence that uses the body as a vehicle, as an avatar. This is the reason for a daily routine – to work with your body and raise its consciousness level to better express your higher intelligence. Build new habits into your body and it will become more refined, stronger, healthier and feel better with itself. It will thank you by responding with a sense of freedom and lightness.
The body is a mechanism. I is a machine. Even though it is organic and a breathing, living machine and it has a consciousness, yet it is still exquisitely designed to function under the orders and control of a higher mind. That higher mind is you. We learn to use it from the outside in. The hands, feet, legs, mouth, eating, brushing teeth, putting it to sleep at night and washing it so it feels clean. This is what we learn as a child, how to take care of the body and use it properly. In past ages we did not learn how to care for the inner parts of the body, but that time is now changing. We are going through an evolutionary shift to higher consciousness. How the inner parts of the body work is done through yoga. Learning how they function is a three-part education. We study the machine to see how it functions, and we practice it through yoga postures, and we read scholarly reports and experiences of other people.
Up to now it has been left to the professionals and experts to know how your body works, how to maintain it, what to do when it goes wrong. But you have given them the power over your body. They do not know what you are feeling and aligning with, or misaligning with. This only you can tell from being inside the body. When something goes wrong with your heart or lungs or stomach, most people go to the doctor or another expert. But those who have chosen the inner path of their choice, which is natural and organic, have discovered better health and are more intuitively well, happy and at peace. Yoga is an ancient science and covers many facets. It is an inner path that is starting to spread across the planet and bring changes to those who practice it. It is how people are taking their power back from outside authorities. There is untold wisdom contained in the human intellect, will and love.
Gopi Krishna advises a path of (1) healthy diet & journal/document (2) yoga postures & journal/document (3) meditate & journal/document. In other words make yourself an experimental subject and keep documenting. Consider it research. He advises a research institute but I’m saying, make yourself the research. Routine, regular discipline, apply control, conscious control, the evolutionary force for the future of mankind. This prevents psychopathy and psychosis. The evolutionary mechanism goes wrong when the body is not clean and not maintained in a healthy manner. It must be kept up on a regular basis with conscious application of certain habits. In the case of the wayward man who is ignorant, it means to become more disciplined.
5/14/23 - Father sun as a warm loving personality
As I lay on the acupressure mat this morning - a mat with little plastic needles sticking up all over - I focused on Father Sun. Father Sun is amazing. It was two years ago that I was introduced to the sun as an individual. Two columns of Ascended Masters appeared in the sky, each with an arm pointing upward toward the sun, creating an open path between them . The meaning was clear. Ever since then I have been working with Father Sun during special silence times.
Last night I did 50 inhales through my feet down into the earth, and again this morning I did 50 more, holding focus on burrowing down, seeing my intentional light going down deeper into Mother Gaia, reaching for her and touching finger tips with Mother Gaia. I am connecting slowly, reclaiming bits and pieces of lost light that I left behind in former lives. I have been too far above my head in the stratosphere. I sense Father Sun trying to reach through me to enter deeper into the earth through me. I asked for help and guidance in the silence of my thought, to close down the top of my head. Then I began to see and sense more stability. I am feeling Father Sun. As I call to Father Sun I see him as a loving father. He is a wise elderly face with a warm, loving, countenance, a smile, caring, love emanates from him. He is intelligent and wise. He is showing me these qualities as a radiation entering into me.
I am receiving pictures of these words that identify them to me, and the feelings behind the words. I am feeling warmed and cared for, nourished by him. I am feeling calmed and peaceful from his presence. I am understanding that Mother Sun is also there. Father Sun is the abstract quality coming down from the sky and that Mother Sun is here inside of me, holding space in me. It is she who receives the warm countenance of her counterpart. She holds space for me while I process this. I can FEEL the abstract quality in my body focusing, densifying, becoming real to me. Mother Sun is Mother Earth to me. They are one and the same. I am now feeling these qualities as I think about them. They are working in tandem with me. Guiding me, assisting me.
I am like a plant growing here on earth. Just as they absorb the sun to grow their vegetation, so do I absorb the sun to grow roots into the earth so I can adapt here and enjoy life on the earth. I have been too long whirling about in the atmosphere NOT rooting myself. I must root myself. I want to grow roots into the earth and stabilize. I am learning that I must hold my mind still and focused long enough so that the sun's qualities can enter and penetrate my organs, skin, blood and tissues, otherwise they bounce off me and I don't benefit from them. I have to do this because I am a more complex being than plants. I have a mind that is diverted and distracted and busy all the time. I am a more advanced life form and I grow dizzy without roots to stabilize me. There is too much input from my human brothers and sisters. I need to grow roots and stabilize myself. The Masters have been showing me how to do that.
Sensuality is a beautiful feeling of being wanted, grounded, stabilized to become a living part of the earth's heritage. I am here to also grow and root myself. I am a more complex being so I must do more work than the tree and the plant. I am a thinking, mobile intelligent being with muscles, tissues, nerves and emotions. I have to hold focused thought long enough to absorb the loving qualities from the sun and FEEL it. I am now feeling the sensual feelings of love, wisdom, intelligence and nurturance and being supported. Mother Sun holds space for me. She lives in between the atoms and electrons of my solid body. She is pure intelligence and she holds them for as long as I am willing to hold them in my mind as she transfers these loving qualities over to me. I have to be awake and alert to do this and to receive them and appreciate them. They are the living life force to my body. These qualities help me to stabilize, breathe, ground, feel solid on earth. These qualities have to be densified to be felt by my body and me. Father Sun appears to me as person, wise and beaming fatherly confidence to me. "You can do it!" he says to me.
5/11/23 - Ascending waves to higher consciousness
It is difficult to post open articles knowing that everyone is on a different scale with different beliefs, attitudes, past history and understandings, but this is what I am called to do. My particular slant on things is from the angle of ascension. My husband's is from the angle of a civil rights lawyer fighting for justice of the underdog. Having studied the "four dense bodies" as taught by the Ascended Masters, I am better equipped than many people, perhaps than the majority. But I am still a quite normal person, however.
From my perspective my physical body is thinning away. The CONCEPT of the physical body is thinning away. The body is merely a wrapping, like a gift wrapping. It was made to look like it belongs here. We don't want any alien-looking creatures running around to disturb the natives! So we are all human on the outoside. But the REAL substance is not the visible outer shell, but the invisible that is flowing through it.
The substance that animates the physical body is not substance but consciousness. Awareness. Intelligence.
Alertness. What we are conscious of at every moment of the day or night casts either a negative or a positive glow to our presence. The four dense bodies mentioned above are - defined from densest to least dense - the etheric body, emotional body, mental body, spiritual body, and then after that - the LIGHT body. And there are more beyond these. The light body is pure crystalline. Someone nick-named it "christ-aligned". It is pure and undefiled consciousness, connected to the ONE supreme consciousness.
The etheric body is the soul, the individual consciousness that animates the body as "me" or "you". It is feminine in nature, sensitive and receptive to all other influences it comes in contact with. We are responsible in our etheric body for taking on wrong attitudes and beliefs, and it is up to us to purge them by learning what is right and what is wrong.
Our emotional body is composed of our desires. We have many desires and they shift and change with the wind. And with basic needs, like food, water, clothing and shelter. Many people are without these basics but are still positive-leaning people and help others in spite of their lacks. How do they do that? With will power. They choose to think bigger, wider, broader, vaster, wiser and holier. Will power is a higher power than emotions because it is lighter and less dense.
Our mental body is composed of our choices of thoughts we think. Will power is a product of the mental body. What we think about, matters. And how strongly we think them. And where we direct our thoughts, and with what emotion we color them. We can color our thoughts dark, selfish and evil, or bright, happy, positive and compassionate.
The spiritual body is a higher mental body which reaches into greater levels of intelligence beyond ground level or practical level. There is sky and space beyond physical matter and various sciences grow up to explore them. There is only ONE intelligence which creates ALL of life and science itself is drawn to reach for it. It is the one common ingredient that ties the many schools of thought together. Our own individual spiritual nature draws us to reach to the one Father intelligence. Mother is the matter force. Father is the abstract intelligence which the matter reaches for. Father fills the mother with his abstract thoughts and desires and the mother (matter) receives them and grows wise by entertaining them. But most of the time we are too busy and distracted by the world around us to indulge in such thinking. We are conscious beings. Some of us are only semi-conscious, and others are very dull in consciousness, falling into mostly mechanical habits, not really thinking at all. And then there are the geniuses, super-conscious beings who are bringing new ideas into the world.
Consciousness changes as we live longer. We begin to wonder. We are drawn by our own thoughts, the elusive power within - the electricity that powers the machine, and the magnetics that attract us or repel us away from circumstances and situations. It is consciousness that is growing stronger in me. I am becoming aware that my body is not all that I am. I am what I am thinking, where I spend my awareness time. My awareness is on a higher level than it was 10, 15, 20 years ago. It is more consistently thinking, pondering, changing perspectives on love, benevolence, kindness, wisdom. My desires are of a higher nature, not of material objects. My wishes are for peace and that all people be happy. My dreams are to hug everyone and make them feel wanted and appreciated, and to help wherever I can so they are not in pain. My memories are of the good things that happened in my life. The negative memories have gone away. I am more aware than I have ever been before. What does my body have to do with this? It is a human body that holds me in check so I fit into the world and no one is the wiser. And so it is with you.
Ascension waves are upon us in these days and it is tumultuous and chaotic. It is causing changes in the way we see things or perceive. Let the waves pass on by and go with the flow it leaves behind. Rest often in peace while picturing rays from the sun coming down and entering into your physical heart. Father sun is the distributor of the ONE intelligence in our system. The ONE intelligence whose greatest power is love.
5/8/23 - Precious jewels in unexpected places
During a morning exercise and meditation recently I had an interesting experience. I called in my I AM Presence and also the violet flame. I asked the violet flame to enter into my subconscious areas that are normally hidden to me, expecting to begin a purging process of some old dark stuff. Instead, I saw a chest, like a treasure chest, and I am opening it and looking inside. But what’s inside is not old stuff but jewels, gem stones, diamonds, glittery things, and I realize that these are the things I have held closest to me, not revealing them but holding onto them because they are so valuable. I see them as beautiful. They are not sinful or bad or evil at all. They are precious and that is why I have held onto them and not revealed them. They are sacred to me. And now I am releasing them upward into the light. I am sending them Home. I am saying, “Here, take these. These are my stories. I am giving them to you so that you may add them to the overall sea of consciousness. I release them, I let them go. Take them.
And I see the glittering diamonds going upward out of the darkness of my cellar, my underground, where they were hidden away. These are my stories and I am releasing them back Home to the light. I am adding to the Light my adventures and my wisdoms gained. And then I am seeing further down into the darkness of my subconscious and I am seeing treasure chest after treasure chest after treasure chest going off into the darkness until I can no longer see them any more. And I say, “Abracadabra - Open!” And all of the chests fly open and out of them come more jewels, more diamonds, pearls, rubies, precious stones of all kinds. They are just a little dusty because they have been carefully hidden away and preserved. Totally beyond my sight. I didn’t know they were there. This morning I released them all. I opened all of the chests and let the gems and jewels free to fly upward into the light to go Home. This was done very methodically and consciously. I spoke the words out loud as they came to me. And then I resumed my exercises. This took place on 6/17/14.
5/5/23 - Uniting your feminine & masculine sides
The four lower bodies are filled with contaminated beliefs that may not necessarily be wrong, but they are stuck in a holding pattern. They have been built from childhood and held in the consciousness of the person without the person realizing it. Becoming aware of a wrongly held mistake and letting that old belief go, release it, is how we cleanse our time and space. And the electrons can spin faster. Our frequency raises higher because the electrons start whirling and throwing off the heavy yoke of pressure. Elation, happiness, enthusiam, freedom, excitement, vitality is among the many feelings that might result. It is a raising of frequency, the number of times an electron spins around its central sun. This causes a higher feeling of vibration, a thrill you could say, throughout the body. Notice feelings of "thrill"!
Each human has three HIGHER bodies on higher levels that are not contaminated ever. And never will be. They are pure God-light. As we click into our own God-light which is on the higher enthusiasm levels, you could say, we become more aware of happiness, peace, elation, inspiration, reverence, even holiness. But realization comes slowly because we are so weighed down with the human condition. We live inside the human condition. We are a product of the human condition, which is heavy indeed, compared to the three HIGHER bodies.
While we have a total of seven levels in our aura, it is not easy to click into them or understand them because we were born into very, very low self-esteem. We were born into sin, guilt, shame and fear. We were not told that we had a God source flowing within us. This is what the Ascended Masters teach through their presence. The three higher levels of our auric field can't be contaminated because they are pure God. We are pure God. These three higher levels are our own pure God SELF animating us from higher levels. It is our own God-light that is our life force. When we die our God-life goes back home again. But while we live in a human body, the God SELF is animating us. It is alive within us. It can be accessed if someone points it out to you. It lives vibrantly within you. Each human being has a body, emotions, mental thoughts and spiritual beliefs. These are the four levels that are weighed down. The pure God Self is hard to access from within the human life, because we don't believe it's real. We weren't taught. We were taught the opposite and are continuing to be taught through the media and the average systems of earth life. We receive distraction from every which way and these distractions continue to bog us down. Why do you suppose some people retire to monestaries, mountains and caves? The seven levels of the human aura are:
1. The physical body - the heaviest and lowest and densest part of us
2. The emotional body - a level higher in frequency where feelings interact with other form life
3. The mental body - a level higher in frequency where abstract thoughts interact with other form life
4. The spiritual body - a level higher in frequency where abstract thoughts interact with angelics
5. The crystalline light body - the pure uncontaminated pattern of God-light unique to the individual soul
6. The causal light body - the pure uncontaminated purity of the seven God attributes we are to discover
7. The monad light body - the unique God self as an individual offspring of the creator
Words are poor expressions for these seven great dimensions. I share them as I have come to understand them. The four lower bodies are referred to by the Masters through ALL of their teachings. Their primary goal and focus is to teach us how to cleanse our four lower bodies. As humans born into finite bodies we each have these four levels that are laden with errors from the past. While it may seem like a heavy burden to carry for any human being, the way to cleanse these erroneous beliefs and ideas can be done rather rapidly through application of the seven virtues contained in the causal light body.
These seven virtues are: (1) will power/moral courage, (2) enlightened intelligence, (3) love/reverence, (4) purity/innocence, (5) truth/honesty, (6) peace/comfort, and (7) freedom/both giving and receiving. The seven chakras have been recognized as sealed doors that need to be opened to access the flood of truth that would be released. A chakra door is opened by applying one of these virtues in one's outer life. It is in the application of will power and moral courage, for example that one opens the door and invites more of that will power and moral courage to enter in.
Applying it in one's life is why I write and post blogs. It makes me feel good about myself. It helps me to grow and expand. As I give outward, I make room for more to move into my life. My posting of this information is to share what I have learned from the ascension teachings over the years of accessing works by the Ascended Masters. I have been applying these teachings quietly to my own life and have been learning astounding things. Instead of promoting my work as others have done, I have strengthened and enriched my SELF!
7/13/23 - Introducing the background consciousness
The power to change for the better lies in our background consciousness - not the forefront consciousness but the BACKGROUND consciousness. This is my latest self-discovery. Background consciousness is not obvious. It is hidden behind the surface movements of life. The immediate environment is the people and things in my life that capture my attention. They are family, neighbors, friends, strangers, co-workers, playmates, animals, objects, nature and situations. As an elder I am mostly at home, either in the kitchen or in the office or outside in the yard, or upstairs cleaning. These are my physical environments as I move through the day. This is the conglomerate "nest" in which I find myself, day in and day out. It takes up most of my exterior awareness. However, I have discovered there is a background consciousness that doesn't give a damn about my exterior environment. It cares only how I react and respond throughout the day and night. It cares only how I bounce back and feed information back into whatever caused me to react and respond. What type of game am I playing? A negative one? Or a positive one?
You could think of a Native American Indian hiding in the trees, peering through the foliage to see what you are doing. You cannot see the Indian because he is very good at staying hidden, but he is observing you and whether you know it or not he has an influence on you. He nudges you in directions that you aren't even aware of. This is my BACKGROUND consciousness. It is now creating havoc with my life because I didn't know it was there. I had no idea. I have been following exercise routines that are keeping my body in shape but my mind or rather the brain itself has not been prepared for this. I am experiencing the strangest, weirdest, most uncomfortable dizziness, wondering what is going on. And now I am learning.
After trying everything I can think of to correct the fuzziness in my brain and it's not working, I am discovering something about myself that I did not know. After trying many different techniques learned over the years to correct the distortions in my brain, I have hit upon a truth that I had forgotten. Not really forgotten, but ignored as fantasy or frivolous. I don't have any power whatsoever over the life force in me. It is greater than me. I am a passing personality that keeps changing and growing and dying and being reborn in another body. I am a temporary thing. A tomato on a vine that will perish one day and a new tomato will take its place. Yet I AM the eternal power that never dies that is flowing through me currently as the background consciousness.
My body feels great, it's just the brain that's acting out of phase with my surroundings. My surroundings keep changing but I have not recognized that I must keep pace with the changes going on around me. I can't hold on forever to who I think I am - a fixed stable person. I'm changing. Other people are also having dizziness issues, so I am not alone with it. But it's MY problem to deal with ME, and I alone can fix it. I'm learning about how important the flow of this eternal something within. It is a discovery process and an expansion is reqired to embrace it. Relinquishing control over who I am is only part of it. A blending and acceptance is required that there is greater aspect of "me" seeping through and I must allow it, integrate with it, blend with it and agree, to bend the knee to it, to this greater aspect of me as it tries to incarnate in this body. This is advanced science and many people reading this won't understand. It has been called mystical in the old ways. But that's OK if you don't understand. It's Tantric and Tantra is not understood. Tantra is not about winning vs. losing or about sickness vs. health, or about sex. It is about accepting the flow that is taking place - WHATEVER is taking place - could be anything, could be something truly bad - and joining in with it. It is about becoming one with it thru love and by harmonizing with it. It is about becoming MORE. It is called evolution - evolution of soul, of body, mind, emotions and spirit and acceptance of the greater life.
Meanwhile, I hear echoes of "Go to the doctor!" Yes, yes, yes. I made an appointment with the doctor for a checkup, OK? I've done that. My husband took care of that. And later this month I'll have the checkup. Now can I get back to the REAL work? The work of discovering who I am and what I can do for myself? Which is why I'm here in the first place, in a body incarnate on Earth as a soul, learning lessons of self mastery and self discovery.
What I've been discovering is that my BACKGROUND consciousness is not just a theory or piece of intellectual information. My background consciousness is the bigger me and it is influencing me. I am my own background consciousness lurking behind the foliage of the trees. I am the greater me flowing through my body, watching, observing, nudging my outer smaller self to "try this" or "try that". I am the hidden part that supports the outer part and I didn't know. Wasn't aware. It is below my subconscious. It is way beneath my exterior conscious mind, thought and feelings and external decisions I make. I am the sub-sub-cconsciousness that lives on after this body dies. I am the hidden part of me that is learning through superficial outer trials, errors and experiments. It's a game of hide and seek. Surface thoughts come and go easily. I can switch them on and switch them off, using various techniques. But what I can't switch off is that elusive consciousness that is in charge and lurks in the background behind a veil, peering from behind a curtain. THIS is the real me. This is the real power of me. Its reality has been breaking through to me, causing me some headaches and dizziness. I have to adapt.
There are times when my brain is clear and not dizzy, not fuzzy. What is it that causes clarity? I am dying to know the truth about this. Why am I suddenly clear-brained and later again fuzzy-brained? Most people think a pill is the answer, and I'll consider that. But I know there is more to this than a pill or a drug. I am on the road of discovery. I have already discovered that I'm not who I thought I was over the last 40 or so years. I've been believing a lie about myself. I thought I was "this" or "that" but I've discovered more truths about who I am. So I've been learning to let go of this image about myself and adapting to the unknown. Could this be one of the reasons for my bouts of clarity and sanity? Accepting the unknown? The clear vision that happens here and there? And then, again, fuzzy brain returns. It is fluctuating wildly. I want to die, then I don't want to die. I am willing to allow the truth to take over and bend me back into shape. But we will see. There is more to uncover. Pardon my frankness - just sharing some thoughts from an elder!
7/8/23 - Unlocking the doors to powers within
I started receiving while in the shower this morning, writing notes to myself. Feeling super energies, too much, in fact, must slow myself down. This is coming in very strong, intense, powerful. Tuning into the powers within, how to get past the locked door. The doors are all through the body – in the hands and feet, the stomach, the back muscles, the solid body that we focus on so intently so that we run to the doctor whenever something goes wrong. We get some medicine to take and seal up the door again, our prison door that keeps us safely locked up inside so we can’t get out.
A little later, I can’t breathe. After the backbend and cobra I sit and connect, remembering I must bring it UP, up, up. "Meet your higher self! She’s there in the coccyx. Bring it UP to the heart and the brain." Step out of the box of limited thinking that you’re only a physical body. Step out of the box into freedom and sunlight flooding. Do it slowly. Bring it up the spine via the Torus breath and fountain it out and around and down. Repeat it. Flow it. Keep it loose and flowing. The brain has been blocking the flow. All that “ME” knowledge is blocking the flow. The focus on “Me” as if I’m important! As if what this body feels is important. But that’s exactly what is causing the pain, the heart aches, the body aches, the disabilities, the aging, the discomfort, the brain fog – it’s the focus on the physical deterioration that is causing the “sick” feelings that are slowly creeping in and insidiously invading the Self, the body cells, to make us think we are dying. It’s focusing our thinking process on dying and disintegration.
The eternal spirit, the holy spirit, the pure life-giving spirit is NOT dying! It can’t die! It has been simply held back from expressing. We’ve been focusing so much on the body dying that we are causing our own dying process. The holy spirit, the pure life-giving spirit is still there inside a crystal ball in the pelvic bowl, and we are holding it back from releasing. It needs to be invited out to flow again, to express. It needs to be released. Let go! Relax! Breathe in and breath out through the sacrum. Picture the sacrum. Bring it into focus, flow it, imagine it, pure crystalline light sparkles flowing up the spine, breaking through the obstacles. This purity can smash right through them when it is flowing, melt right on through them to the top of the head.
We are talking about the life force known as kundalini. It is also known by other names in other cultures, such as Christians call it the holy spirit, or the Christ. Shakti, Shekinah, Krishna and other names in other parts of the world. It has been locked in down there in the coccyx and sacrum, not allowed to flow up the spine. Sin, sex, guilt and shame has had us, as if in bondage tied to limited thinking, and we had no idea. We were imprinted with a massive conspiracy imprinting of fear, shame and guilt and we had no clue. We were babes in the wood being programmed before we could walk and talk. We did not understand. How could we? This has been going on for many centuries. Now kundalini is here. It is a big word. An unknown word but I am going to introduce it to the culture. Other people are introducing it, I see. Yes, the word is coming out into the public eye. There is a plan brewing. It is very close now, close enough to begin the group gatherings. Tantra is part of the kundalini instruction. The word Tantra needs to be straightened out. It has been ignorantly misunderstood. There have not been enough true teachers or healers. We are introducing it now because it’s time. Simply that it’s time. The universe has lined up some people to bring this forth.
I did the back bend off the bed and the cobra. I’m working with forces beyond traditional thinking. The kundalini, the holy spirit, is opening for everyone at a different pace. It is opening with LOVE. The teaching is about LOVE. The emphasis is on love. The first emphasis is on love. There is only one energy in all of creation and it is LOVE. Creation in the form world is done by playing with different aspects of love. Moving with it or moving away from it by rejecting it. It is the moving and shaking, exploring and defining the various perspectives and understandings of LOVE. The ultimate love is wholeness, completion, fulfillment, hence the word “holy”. But love doesn’t end there, to rest and relax and be forgotten, because there are more people coming up behind us who are still experimenting with LOVE, hesitant and unsure but experimenting. The building of more and more love is a continuing, ongoing, eternal process of life that never ends but continues building more. There is no end to love because it keeps adding more to itself. There are an infinite number of consciousnesses who are evolving in love and each is unique, one of a kind, discovering yet another new way to experience love – the primal energy of creation that we are ALL using in our creating.
As I was bringing the energy up to the heart thru the throat to the brain, I was on fire again and stopped to write, “Get the energy to the brain!” realizing that the brain is getting this message and I must write it! We think there is hate, violence and anger, depression, sickness and death, but it is all created from love - out of a desire for more love, or what one thinks is love. Whether it be from a selfish controlling perspective or from a benevolent way of sacrifice and martyrdom, we are all focusing on love. And BALANCE is what brings us closer to it. Balance the extremes that appear, balance them with love. Find the unity, the harmony, the way of merging the extremes and you will experience love.
My brain is sprouting colors now, coming up from the coccyx and the pelvic bowl, clearing a channel through the sushumna, the central etheric channel all the way to the brain. It is clearing. There are two arcs in the brain now, going left and right of the central channel to the pituitary. The colors are sprouting up, one here, one there, faster and faster and all at once! It’s not the brain that is coming alive, it is ME that is sprouting the awareness and the colors. I AM the awareness in the brain bringing conscious awareness up the spine to my organ of the brain. I Am the incandescent surreal colors sprouting many different aspects of divinity as they unfold into my brain.
I Am the divinity that has been held locked in down below, prior to this moment. I Am bringing it up to the brain so this body can recognize itself in the physical form and the physical world and use it here! (I am doing the neck exercises now.) I am activating my male side. The sparks, the angels, the devas are in the trees. I used to think it was the sun catching and glinting off the moisture on the leaves but it’s the faeries or elementals, whatever name they might be called. I first think it’s the sun but it looks a bit too bright and it twinkles at me as if it’s sending a message. I pause and connect with it and then I know.
7/7/23 - Breathing difficulties
This was a month ago. In the night I woke with the message that galactic ships were sending positive energies into the Earth atmosphere, making it difficult for negative thinking people to breathe and to please post this. This is why we have to think more love-light thoughts. We must work at cultivating more light into our bodies, minds and feelings to elevate our frequencies, or we won’t survive these higher energies that are flooding the planet. I have posted a link HERE (page down to "my personal decrees") to find some mantras and affirmations to use - prayers and positive decrees. Do use them. Select some that appeal to you and say them out loud 15 minutes a day or more often. The more the better. It will help to lighten your body’s energies. This will elevate you to higher vibrations. It brings in vitality, cosmic energy that will surprise you if you do it enough to notice. Most people will not do it because they are lazy and too embedded in the routine of their lives. But the work WILL have an effect. The intergalactic ships are actively assisting the solar ascension rays and they are warning that it will be hard to breathe.
I've been having a hard time catching my breath, and a friend writes that he has been having difficulties too. It helps to spend time doing the light affirmations. Say them out loud, so the sound reverberates into your auric field that surrounds you. It is your auric field that needs lifting, not the physical body. The physical body is the "shell" in which your personal energies are floating. It is the ENERGIES that need lifting. Routine day-to-day energies are the ones that lag behind and droop like wilting flowers. They become dull and lifeless energies. These are the energies that are your life force. Lift them with higher prayers and light-filled, love-filled, praise-filled words of higher qualities and tones. The light that is hitting the planet through the sun and the greater sun is so much higher than what it has been previously, that people who are not aware will not know what is happening to them. This is a message from the galactics. Please do this. Become more light-endowed by chanting these higher words into the air every day. If a person hasn't activated the light in their physical body, it's going to be difficult to catch a breath. The body needs to be elevated and take in some of this higher energy to match the incoming light.
I got up and went into the meditation room and participated in the uplifting of the earth, cleansing the earth and all inhabitants, waking up the light. With my inner sight I sensed the Earth starting to separate. This is on an etheric level. I was aware of it. A lot took place last night. It was a major step in the separation of old and new earth. An hour and 20 minutes later I felt it was over and I could go back to bed.
Additional revelations: Routine is so boring! It is the same old, same old stuff, day in, day out, always the same. When I write new information from higher up, I get excited. It is creative. Tantra is the sacred art of growing new links by conjoining opposites. Not by replacing or substituting one for another. It is like grafting a different plant onto another plant to create a more advanced evolved plant from two separate species. Opposites can be grafted together to create something new and more advanced. More evolved. My higher self is divine and holy. I am not. It is coming closer down to me as I use enlightened words that are higher and purer than my normal words. My higher self links with these higher holy words and can come closer to me. I can see my higher aspect more closely as I do this. It is more brilliant than me. More colorful, it is bluish and with other colors mixed in, transparent colors, divine, holy, pure. It is coming closer and it is connecting my awareness to itself. I feel myself becoming more elevated. I am merging with my higher self. I am an opposite of my higher self. I am human. It is divine. We are grafting together like two species. One not pure, the other pure. This is Tantra.
7/5/23 - Settle in with the forces of nature
The forces of nature are not wild. They are soothing and calm. And when we acknowledge that feeling it is like coming home to the ancestral hearth. Relax into it. Coming home is a settling in feeling. It is a stopping of the struggle in the outer-world journey. It is accepting where you came from, your ancient lineage is nature. Natural. It feels at peace. Remember the feeling of walking in the forest? The wood? The quiet of dawn or the late night after dark? There is a quietness in nature. It is the coming home to what THE BODY feels is natural. After all, we are first of all the body. A solid form made of the substance of earth. And Mother Earth is the intelligent mother who oversees her brood - the kingdoms of nature. Mankind and womankind are part of that kingdom of her nature. We can feel the "coming home" at certain times when we are alone and not being distracted. We are drawn naturally, inexplicably, inward. It is similar to the ripening of a fruit. It is impossible to ripen fruit in an artificial environment. It is not natural. But falling in step with the forces of nature provides a feeling of settling in and relaxing into a flow that is almost always forgotten during the active hours of human activity. Relinquish the struggle in those opportunities to fall in step with nature. It knows what you need. This is an advanced teaching. We think we are so smart and intelligent to be in our brains, but the greater intelligence is in the WHOLE BODY. In the DNA of each tiny cell that makes up the liver, the heart, the lungs, the kidneys, the prostate gland, the ovaries,, the muscles, and the bones and blood. And the brain itself. This is far removed from the controlling ego which does not provide peace and calm. This is how we follow the spirit, the higher angel of our own divine nature. It is the coming together of our own heavenly nature with the earth's nature. When we agree to surrender our controlling ego and allow ourselves to walk in the natural way of the earth-walker, the skin-walker, we bring our heavenly nature in harmony with the earth nature. Look for nature's signs that come to you - the bird that swoops out of the sky, the snake that crawls unexpectedly nearby, the call of the owl, the feather that drops at your feet, the many movements in the air, unexpectedly. Stop and acknowledge RECEIPT of the contact. This is disclosure of the Earth kind. There is no need to look for it. No need to struggle. No need to work at it. We are one with nature.
7/3/23 - Me and my four lower bodies!
Yes, I'm still here! It's been a week since my last blog. I've hit a new stuck point in the transition of my life, moving out of 3D into 4D and 5D, and it's taking all my attention to work it out. How best can I align my four lower (denser) bodies? The consciousness evolution that is taking place is affecting everyone, but perhaps not like it's affecting me right now. I'm getting whoozy, dizzy and have strange sickish-type feelings. It is causing a lot of confusion but I know what the cause is and it has affected me physically, mentally and emotionally. Ugh! It's very draining and disturbing.
The four lower bodies are the four densest consciousness levels of a person. There are seven levels of consciousness in all (picture the aura) but the three higher levels are saintly, holy and perfect. It is the four lower, tighter, denser levels that are the problem. These are the human conditions composed of errors and mistakes that need correcting or leaving behind. This is an advanced peek into a larger truth, so we won't go any further than that. It's just background food for thought as we tackle the more local issue of these four dense levels of the human apparatus, and what I am currently struggling with.
The four lower denser levels are the (1) emotional level, (2) the mental level, (3) the spiritual or higher mind level and (4) the physical body level. Old energies (issues) that have not been redeemed or released yet, are still stuck in the auric field, which is our consciousness. These are now being affected because we are going through a major shift in consciousness to a higher, lighter dimension. These old energies (issues) are holding us back. They are knots in our consciousness. They are causing (me) dizziness problems and sickish feelings - and keeping me busy trying to figure out what next to try to correct it because I'm an energy worker. I do my own energy corrections to keep healthy and active.
Other people are experiencing this too, I see, as I read the articles. But we each have to work it out alone, by ourselves, because no two people have the same issues going on from the past, including past lives. Not everyone is aware of this physical shift from the 3rd to the next higher dimension of consciousness, be it the 4th or the 5th. The shift is taking place on inner levels of consciousness that, unfortunately, many people are unaware of. How many people have been educated about their four lower bodies? The lowest and densest body is the physical body, which we can see and touch, but the other three are on a finer frequency level. We can't "see" them per se. So the shift is affecting these three finer bodies that we don't even know we have. We think it's the physical body that is having the problem and it's not! We might go to a doctor and learn that nothing is the matter since the instruments don't pick up on it, but there is a lot more going on than doctors are aware of. If you have not been filled in about how these four lower bodies operate, for example, your emotional body and your mental body, then it's time we started to address it.
Imagine yourself as you are right now, doing what you're doing (like I am sitting at my laptop), imagine how you look right now but twice as large and as a transparent figure hovering over you or around you. This is your emotional body. This is the energy body where all your emotions and feelings take place. Your emotions and feelings do NOT take place in your physical body, nor in your mental body. They take place at a certain frequency level. Your emotional body is the plane where all your feelings occur. This transparent body (you don't see it so you don't realize it's there) is hovering around every cell in your physical body. When you feel a surge of anger, for example, your emotional body feels, not your physical body. This is a long complicated story to explain.
Next, imagine yourself again, as you are right now, but three times as large and also a transparent figure, hovering over your emotional body or around you. Use your imagination. This is your mental body. It is functioning at an even HIGHER frequency level than your emotional body. This is where thought takes place. This is your mind, where you think things through and come to decisions. This body does NOT have feelings like your emotional body does. It is a separate frequency that operates on a specific plane for the specific purpose of working out mental processes pertaining to human practical life.
Next, imagine yourself again as you are right now but four times as large and also a transparent figure, hovering over your mental body. This is your spiritual body, sometimes known as the etheric body. This is on a still HIGHER frequency than either your emotional or mental body. This is a larger aspect of you which is in touch with MORE of who you are as a spiritual intelligence. This body does not have feelings per se, as we define feelings in the human realm, but it is closer to love, harmony, unity and the higher cosmic laws of the universe. This is closer to heaven than the other two denser realms, but it is not perfect either. It is designed for the purpose of working out and understanding what spirit is as compared with human. That takes care of three of the four lower bodies. The fourth lower body that gets out of alignment is the physical body.
The three invisible bodies - emotional, mental and spiritual - are all operating within the physical body and most people know nothing about them. This is information that is taught in the mystery schools, esoteric and metaphysical classes. Emotions and feelings get tangled up with our thoughts, and our thoughts get tangled up with our religious and spiritual beliefs, and our bodies get confused over which is which and how to deal with it. This has been going on for a long time. We have been kept uneducated about this. Now there is a consciousness evolution taking place. We are growing up and out of the third dimension and into the fourth dimension and the fifth. Everyone is different. Your family, friends and neighbors aren't aware of what you are aware of, because consciousness is unique to each person. What I know is what I know. What YOU know is what YOU know. We know different things, pertaining to different areas of our lives. But the biggest single problem we have is that these four lower bodies are entangled. Like four different balls of yarn, each with a different color, has been allowed to become unwound and bunched into knots. Our consciousness has become all twisted up together, including issues from past life experiences that are not yet resolved.
It is the end of past times and the beginning of a new time - one that is happy and peaceful. The transition from the old times requires putting an end to the problems of the past. We don't have to solve the problems, we simply have to stop worrying about them. All of the advice from the masters is to "let go". Stop worring. Stop fixating. Stop hanging on to the old life. Let go. Relax. Find something fun to do. Put your attention on fun and happy projects that make you excited. Then the problems of the past disappear. Because what you are aware of is what we focus on. Our emotions and feelings are a separate part of our life, quite different from the thoughts we think. Our spiritual thoughts about God and the universe, and about E.T.'s are different from our thoughts about the practical life, like politics, money, hospitalization, sending kids to school, etc. We have four different consciousnesses taking place simultaneously in us every day. Each one of them needs to be examined separately. Untangle them. We have only one consciousness but it has become tangled and twisted and it torments us because we don't understand. Why? But this one consciousness that we are, goes higher and higher and higher and higher, as we look to the higher aspects of ourself. As we learn about these four lower bodies we will begin to notice the changes. Become conscious.
6/25/23 - Love is not an emotion - it's the life force
During my morning meditations today I was shown that love is the life force. It is not an emotion. The life force called love is everywhere. The universe is composed of living, breathing, conscious electrons and atoms, and the masters speak of them often. How they are eager little beings of love desirous to serve in positive ways. They are filled with love, light, warmth and goodness and they bring this warmth and comfort to all who attract them. These little beings are not to be confused as an emotion. They are the life force.
Yes, personal love is an emotion because it is being directed to someone specifically. The sender draws on the ocean of life that exists everywhere and focuses his attention on a person of his or her choice. Love is available to be used, and we do use love for all that we do. We even use love to hate someone or be jealous, envious, controlling, violent and to engage in personal drama with. Everything we do is done with the power of love because love powers the universe, the planets, suns and all life everywhere. That is why we are capable of growing past a difficult situation that is bogging us down. Since love is the motivating force behind all creation and it is within us, and within our own consciousness, it IS possible to change a difficult situation by imagining or reaching beyond the difficulty or the down side of something, and apply a higher, better, more ebullient application of love.
Love is the sea of life that exists everywhere. It is circulating even now within our own bodies and is available to use but we have to KNOW this first, before we can make such changes. It was shown to me this morning to be aware of it, to make this message public so others can be aware of the sea of life is actually LOVE. Then perhaps a person can make changes in their life by boosting, reaching, imagining, raising their attitude to a higher level. It is up to us to make the changes in how we apply the law of life, the law of love. It is intelligence that directs love into action. It is will power that directs it. It is a change in how we think, a change in how we want to be. But first we must believe this is true. There have been vague references to such a powerful law of but very few truly understand it. We have been massively programmed to believe in loss, lack, poverty and disempowerment.
Yet, we are the master intelligences. This is proven by the fact that we can think for ourselves, and we can change our minds when we want to. We often just don't think it is possible. We have been weighed down under the weight of dark beliefs, when the brilliant, dazzling truth of love is a conscious choice. We can make a change for ourself through WILL POWER any time we want - conscious will power - instead of accepting the "down" feeling of despair, low self confidence or hopelessness. It takes concentrated effort and every day practice, which is the backbone philosophy of doing spiritual practice every day. Benefits can be seen almost immediately by those who practice consistently. They are drawing on the sea of love, which is the sea consciousness. Every human being is conscious and therefore can reach UP and draw on a higher level of thought. But it must be done every day and often several times a day to make serious changes.
Changes have to be directed. Most emotions are not directed. There is a horrendous lack of understanding about the conscious sea of life in which we swim. We remain ignorant and vulnerable to the random emotions that are spewed out by our neighbors, families and friends. All emotions less than love are not well thought out. It "just happens" to someone and the emotion radiates out to invade a passer by. Someone has to direct a feeling of goodness to make changes and raise the level of consciousness, and maintain that direction for awhile to set it into motion. Love is a feeling of life. It is encouraging, exciting, vitalizing, uplifting, creative, productive, life-giving, warm, comforting, nurturing, living, breathing. And there is more of the same higher up. There is no end to how high you can reach on the ladder of goodness and love. The mystics and saints will tell you.
For example, when we pray to God and experience love as worship. It is an open door that brings forth even more worshipful feelings of song, praise and goodness. There is a very high form of love to be had through private worship and praise. But we can also experience love for the earth, too, the trees, the waters, the sunset, the grass, the people we pass on the street, cars, babies, buildings, pets, careers, sciences, music, art- there is no end of the love that mankind can experience in his earthly life. We are preparing to bring forth a new earth and a new WAY of life through the power of our loving one another in this way. Not sexual, personal love, but immense, universal love that goes far, far, far, when we open our minds to the highest in us. We can experience love at any time of the day or night because love is not only inside us, and inside the objects that we have created that populate our homes and villages, but love is in the air itself. Love is the life force. Love is known as prana or chi when we BECOME CONSCIOUS of it. When we USE conscious consciousness to wake it up.
This was revealed to me after an ongoing discussion with someone about sex, romance and the falling in and out of love, with divorces and separation. How does love work on a personal level? From the perspective of most people love has been considered a human emotion. And of course I have too. But I have experienced love from the plane of spirit, from the mystical side of life that goes beyond understanding, when you open up to higher realms and are brought to tears and deep, overwhelming states. Then you become like the kitchen strainer - you just let the water pour through without trying to catch it and you disappear in the flowing rapture.
I was shown this morning that love is the life force of the universe, I suppose, because I was ready to understand the difference. Love is like water. It doesn't really move. It simply flows around waiting to be used. We exist in the ocean of its movement. Love is available to hold everything together, but it doesn't have to move because it already is everywhere. When someone sends a message it quivers through the sea of love and the sea of love responds. The awareness of love can move into a person's life through that person's consciousness of it. Or as that person lowers it to a lower emotion it will respond in kind and provide the lower emotion. Whatever the person wants to do with it, the love force is available to be used. It is consciousness that raises or lowers the life force to a high place or brings it down low to a low place. It is all done with consciousness. That is the reason for spending time in meditation and practicing the art of stillness and mastering of one's own consciousness.
Most human emotions are less than love. This morning feelings of all kinds flashed before me, revealing the great diversity of emotions and feelings that we humans are privy to that influence us. Love is not an emotion. Love is the power behind emotion. It is the source of emotion. It creates life, empowers life, thrills life, pushes life onward to higher planes of understanding. Motivates, vitalizes, excites, kindles, ignites, enflames. All else is less than that but we have the capability of working ourselves up to higher levels. It was shown to me how we can rise above emotion to greater and greater feelings that thrill us and inspire us. USE EMOTION, it said to me, of a higher nature. Allow emotion to work for you and bring you the thrills and pleasures that you enjuoy the most. Whatever emotion is being felt, raise it higher by conscious will power. Love is the life force. Do not confuse emotion with the life force. Love is the source of life. Reach for the source of life. Do not settle for less than love. Love is not an emotion. It is life itself. It circulates within our physical body right now. If there is a "down" feeling, raise it up higher by any word, thought, feeling or action you can find. It is within your power to do that, to create a warmer, safer, more security, loving feeling for yourself and your home by reaching higher.
6/24/23 - The fifth dimension is an attitude adjustment
The concept of moving from the third to the fifth dimension has become such a big deal - many articles have been shining the light on it and helping us to understand what this means. But it all boils down to the fact that it's an attitude adjustment. Attitudes are being affected. We are being nudged to make changes. Small changes are easier, so make them sooner. It's not such a big deal after all unless, of course, we don't want to make any changes at all. Yes, then it is a big deal. Working against the tide takes work. An attitude of resisting takes a lot of work. I would like to add my two-cents worth here - changing your attitude in small ways is much easier than the work that must be done later from resisting the change. Making a few changes along the way actually makes you feel good. The changes are going to happen anyway, sooner or later. So why not allow for the changes now, today? Relax and expand and accept the changes that are sneaking in through your back door and you're trying to avoid them. You don't want to change your way of life. You have always done it your way - approached life the way you have always done. But if you are flexible and open to accepting small changes, you will be taking small steps up the multi-layered ladder to the higher plane, where it is MUCH more comfortable than the lower plane below.
6/23/23 - Experiencing physical ascension
The ascension process is a removal of old energies. Old energies in the body and mind. We don't think of them as old, we think of ourselves as simply who we are. But it's been happening for me that who I am is disappearing and there is a renewed vitality taking place. Only at certain times. It fluctuates. It takes concentration but I am being revitalized. My body is experiencing a renewal of energy that is somehow different from what I'm used to. I have to keep physical engaged with the world to experience this, otherwise, I fade in that energy. The energy fades and I am left feeling hopeless. It's like running a marathon. I have to keep going, not strong, but simply keep active. It is very important to keep physically active. My old way of thinking, my old belief was that it was important always to be comfortable. No matter what, find comfort. That belief is disappearing. Because comfort in the old way meant resting, passive. There is a new kind of comfort to be experienced which is up, alert with things running smoothly. Like the motor is at its best and it's purring! It is vitality but it is a ccomfortable vitality. My old views on what is important is changing. My understanding is changing. My belief in what is important is changing. They are fading and there is a new me coming forward.
There is a new goal now. I'm seeing past the comfort zone to the "more" of me. It's all tied in with the kundalini that awakened in me 47 years ago when I went into the light. Ever since then I have been struggling to understand. Oh my! It is deepening - er, no. It is an expanding and elevating. It's an expanding. elevating, lightening, rising upward process, and it is revealing more and more. As long as I don't give up.
The most important thing I have discovered on the journey of ascending consciousness is - there’s too much focusing on the genitals. The focus on the genitals and the whole sex thing has to change to flowing. Lift the sluice gates. Allow the flowing to continue on. The flow is the flow of love, tenderness, sympathies, compassion, innocence, goodness, sharing, and the whole nine yards of giving and sharing and feeling the love as it flows from person to person, non-stop. This is the flowing that has been stopped by the gates. There is a solid vitality feeling that flows at times, and at other times a feeling of death and dying sweeps through me and my knees buckle. Weakness enters. Death enters. The greater picture is unfolding. It comes in and shows me that I am the life of the body. The body is just a mechanical object. It has a low consciousness. It has been trained to do certain things automatically. But I am the driving force of this body and I have to put my full concentration on it.
There is no one technique, No one method of doing the work of resurrecting the body which is failing, because it requires the full flowing of the life force. I had cut it off, cut down, just like everyone else. Now I am learning to not follow the program I was trained to do. Now I am flowing the light within me. I am flowing the energies but I am also releasing the old and dying energies. I feel as if I am old and dying but I know better. I am not. New light power is being injected into the inner spaces that make up my body organs and muscles. The old and new energies are swirling and mixing together and I see more and more, and further and further. Deeper and deeper. The power which is me, my eternal soul or spirit, whatever you want to call it, is immense. Just like everyone's power is immense. It is so immense that it can only make its appearance in stages, little by little, or it would overwhelm the body and blow it apart. This power is known today as kundalini, but it is really the Mother. Mother Kundalini. She is the power behind the throne. She is what makes the life happen or, if withheld, to wither and die. She is the cosmic mother of all life everywhere. She is held locked inside the form body, all forms, all bodies, even insects and birds and plants and water.
In bits and pieces the awareness is expanding. Form life happens by closing the focus down to one thing. To bring movement to a halt. To make a piece of furniture or a house or bridge, it requires a solid, non-movalbe structure. Mother kundalini is showing me how to open my focus now and release that focus on immobility. Let go of the focus and let the flow begin again. Resurrect the body. Most specifically, stop focusing on the genitals. This has affected the lower abdomen, the digestive tract, the ovaries, the prostate, the urinary tract, the whole pelvic/hip area. This is where the flowing of the life force, the love force has been blocked. We need to release the excessive focus on sex because it is the main cause. It is the one main reason there is suffering in the world. Love has been prevented from flowing. The focus has been on the genitals and the love stops there, another agenda has been structured around this area. This massive overwhelming focus and obsession on sex has impacted the hips, the legs, the knees, the feet, everything below the heart. Plus it has impacted the intelligence and good sense of the person. It has thrown the body out of kilter and introduced sickness, old age, dying, disintegration and death. It is LOVE that has been compacted in one way or the other. Love is what holds things together. By focusing too much on the material building of forms, love has been prevented from flowing up the spinal column to the heart, to the voice which would tell the truth if it were able, and to the brain which would be enlightened, and out the top of the head into the welcoming arms of the Cosmic Father and Mother of all that is.
Love has been held back and compacted. Two alternative routes have been established. Detours, if you will. In Sanskrit these two routes are called the IDA and the PINGALA. The Ida is the feminine route, the left-hand route. The Pingala is the masculine route, the right-hand route. Love needs to flow to keep the body alive, so when the alternative routes were built into the body, the main route to the top of the head was shut down. In Sanskrit the main spinal channel to the top of the head is called the SUSHUMNA. So the soul goes either up the Pingala, the assertive side which is the masculine side, or it takes the alternative route and goes up the Ida, which is the submissive feminine side. The soul withdraws from being active and follows her masculine soul mate instead. This choice, whether to go up the feminine side or the masculine side, affects the whole body and the circuitry and programming of the body. How it operates and how it approaches life. It is the Mother Kundalini that is flowing up the left hand or the right hand path. (Mystery school teachings teach students how to bring these two paths together, but that's another article.)
Breathing complications occur during this ascension process. I cannot speak too much on it because I am still learning myself. I am sharing this information for maybe some hints and clues to others. I have discovered some methods of alleviating the sensation of not being able to breathe. The blockage is occurring around the diaphragm area, just under the heart. This morning I had some good feedback, working on this area with light, with the knowledge I've received so far. There is massive amounts of information coming through. I wish I could share it with others, but it's so deeply personal. It is all about raising the attitude to a more refined state of being, a more pristine state of awareness, a cleaner, more holy state of awareness. It uses visions of sparkling dazzling purity. When I follow the guidance to "expand higher", after a while this opens the blocks. It is quite amazing, working with the light and watching (later) as the old energies close back up again. Then I work with the light again and the visualizations. There is WORK involved. It is about concentrating on higher, purer visions.
Two years ago I had to go to the hospital because I couldn't breathe. It happened within hours of my using a new mantra of purity. How could I know? It brought too much light into my body and my body closed down. It couldn't handle it. Now I know. I see what happened back then. So, OK. I now have to take heart pills but no big deal. It's part of being human. But there is a deeper instruction going on within, that is telling me far more than the doctors and pharmacists are. There is a new life force coming alive in me. I am learning how to use it. I can feel it taking place in alternating currents. Awareness is increasing by leaps and bounds. This old body is resurrecting from the inside out. It may be too late. After all it's 85 years old! But the vitality I am feeling is superb. I have to stay active and let the light of life flow. Flowing the life through the muscles, tissues, brain and heart is important. And to be conscious. We must be MORE conscious. Not less. Put the light of conscious awareness into every action. Or as best you can. Move yourself into action through conscious intention. Through will power. The phrase, "Thy will be done" takes on new meaning. Move the light of awareness into outward action through will power. Will power is the Light of the body.
Plus live a clean healthy diet. Eat enough food but only what I want to eat. Not according to the world and what the doctors say, but what I feel is in my best interest (instinct) to eat. I am negotiating between my physical needs and the needs of the higher self which has different needs in order to be properly reconnected with the body. The higher ME is shining through the old muck and drudgery of yesteryear and the old muck and mud has to be released and allowed to leave. Then exercise. Fulfill the needs of the lower body to be active, activate the hips, the lower back muscles, legs and feet. Fulfill the desires of the lower body to be active. That's why they are built into the body.
My original urge was to do lower back massages with people, through the use of yantras and mantras. This means holding the light in your mind and speaking it softly into the body with your hands. This original urge is still with me. I am piecing the new higher self information together. The light must flow through the body that is murky and dark in order to bring relief and vitality back to the aging tissues. We have been ignorant of it. The body does not know about the light that is moving through it. The light is the light of the higher self, what has been called the light body, or the christ body, the crystalline body. If we don't activate the crystalline body, the diamond light grids in the body, the body will die. It is only a temporary vehicle until the residing soul wakes up and starts managing it properly, meaning resurrecting it properly. We are here on a mission to learn how to maintain a physical body in good health for a long time. There is no expiration date on a body that can maintain its youth. That is what the ascended masters learn how to do. We are here temporarily to expand and explore who we are, and when done to move on to greater things. But only when WE decide to move on.
Well, that's the end of my lecture for today. I wanted to share this because it is SO exciting and invigarating to experience resurrecting the body. My time may yet come but I'm filling in every moment with new information. Filling it with light! It is an amazing experience. I asked my Higher Self yesterday what to do when I can't catch my breath, when my diaphragm locks up on me. The answer was: “Relax, expand, let go, surrender, hold love in your mind. Surrender into love”. So I've been practicing. It takes time and concentration. It doesn’t work in a moment’s notice. What causes it, I asked? "The lowering of vibrations. It is the loss of life force when you move from higher lighter density to lower heavier density. Train yourself to hold the light. Be aware of your higher and lower vibrations."
6/20/23 - Loving touch massage swaps
During a bonding session recently there was a beautiful download of cosmic love information from higher spheres. Let me try to put it into easy language. He was energized and my energies were not peaceful but highly active so I slowed him down by rubbing my hands on him. I could feel my energies starting to come more into harmony. It is obvious that the man’s energies are focused so much on the outer world, thrusting outward, seeing the goal in front of him like a carrot, that he isn’t able to pay attention to lining up his inner energies. The woman, on the other hand, that is her role. She must manage the inner energies, especially during lovemaking times, when the purpose is to integrate and heal the divisions. They are to come together and mesh their two separate and diverse energies, which, in a duality world, is a constant. There is divisiveness. But the reason there is a male and a female in the first place is to create things physically. So the physical thrust is necessary, and the inner maintenance of harmony is also necessary to keep it together. During bonding I could see myself trying to harmonize the energies in the form of atoms and molecules. These tiny particles which make up our physicality and our mentality and emotionality, are imbued with “not-self” and “not comfortable”. There is “not right” in our atomic structure, so we have to MAKE them right. We need to take the time to harmonize them and soothe them and comfort them. These are the energies of our bodies that we are harmonizing and soothing. Through loving administration we line up first our mental.
We “think” harmonizing thoughts. This can be done in an instant if we know how to do it. It doesn’t take a long time. Then we have to line up our feelings, our sensations, because the mental does not feel. Mental arranges and controls our energies by thinking them. Then when we allow ourselves to feel softness, warmness, comfort, lovingness. First the mental, then the emotional feeling. Then there is the etheric body, or spiritual body. These are the energies (atoms and molecules) that are from prior lives. We’ve had many prior lives that our culture doesn’t acknowledge but they still exist in us. Traumatic and unresolved issues that we have not a clue about. But they exist in us in the form of tendencies. A tendency towards anger at men, or anger at women, or hatred towards another race, or fear of sex, or fear of love or fear of fire or of falling off a cliff or dislike of children or tendency towards addiction to alcohol, or tendency towards violence, or - on the other hand - tendencies toward grace, beauty, art, great music, dance, invention, holiness, religion, spiritual. We carry these forward into our current life and they are inside us, as the saying goes, “the issues are in our tissues”. I would say “our history is in our tissues”.
Anyway, it is like two separate colors. While we were bonding I could see the male outer thrusting as the color blue, and the female inner harmonizing as the color red. When mixed together blue and red make purple or violet, depending on the subtleties of the hues. If the blue bangs into the red the colors do not mix. The inner harmonizing does not take place. It becomes yet more of a separation and more of a trauma that becomes stored in the tissue as frustration and unresolved energy. So what we have to do is learn how to harmonize the male and female bodies. What we are doing in my theoretical loving touch massage is learning what it feels like to touch opposite gender bodies. How it feels to each person is an inner experience that has no words to it, but as we introduce LOVING touch, I would point out that there is a reason why we don’t go into sexuality here, because we are practicing the harmonizing of male to female. Harmonizing the feelings we experience when we are touched by a strange man, or a strange woman. Feel what is going on with your energies inside.
Imagine, if you’re a man, that your energies (mind, emotions and body) are the color blue. And imagine the woman massaging you as the color red or if you like, pink. Some shade of the red/pink hue. Imagine your two colors mixing and blending. You do this by accepting and allowing. You do this by trusting and receiving. You do this by relaxing and letting go. Never mind what it is you’re letting go of. Just let go. Let it be. Surrender. Jump off the cliff and feel the free fall. And manage your feelings. If you feel like screaming and jumping off the table as I did once, manage that. Harmonize that. Get a grip on that. Soothe that feeling within yourself. That is an old, old, ancient frustration or issue that is being released. Allow it its freedom. Let it go. Love it and bless it and soon it will pass because, by your application of soothing love, you are gaining mastery over very old issues that have been stored in your tissues. A great phrase. Let’s remember that our ancient, past life issues are stored in our tissues. Loving touch massage without an agenda of sex is healing and softening. It is a lesson and a practice in self mastery and releasing old blockages.
I am trying to get a large poster of the human body - man and woman - to show where the chakras are. The chakras are portals through which divinity flows down through the mental, emotional and etheric bodies into the physical body. There are issues blocking this flow on each of the three levels above. There are issues in the mental body, issues in the emotional body and issues in the etheric (past life) body, that block pure love, happiness and spontaneity from coming into our lives. So that’s why we are doing this loving touch massage. It’s a healing practice and it will help us to get to where we want to go. But this is practice time. We’ve got to practice loving touch and let that melt the barriers that have been there for thousands of years and lifetimes. This is the end time. It’s time to graduate from the school of hard knocks and it’s time to give all those issues in the tissues some freedom and relief. (inspired by DK several years ago. We may start this up again soon.)
6/16/23 - A collaboration is unfolding between....
I'm borrowing words from another article I just read - a Collaboration is unfolding between all sentient life on Earth and the non-physical realms - the cosmos. This is SO Tantric! Yes! I've been following the Ascended Master Djwahl Khul for 47 years and he has led me true. Blend the physical with the non-physical and BE HERE NOW! There is much happening in these days. There is a dramatic rise in consciousness among all the people on the planet. For those who follow the ascension drama and all the articles that go along that theme, YES! It is happening. But it is happening here on Earth. We don't have to leave. The light is coming into the earth plane. There are many of us conscious of the light coming in and holding space for it, pulling it in like pulling in the helium balloon which floats in the sky. We are here in physical bodies and we are pulling in the light from higher planes. This light is buoying the planet up. The result is a dramatic consciousness expansion. Don't give up! Keep the faith!
One result is felt right here in our house. Doug switched our internet provider a couple weeks ago and this new provider is downloading capacities of speed never experienced before. I'm not into technology so I don't know the proper words for it, but the electronic devices here - computers, TVs and cell phones - are going a bit crazy. They are going up, down and shutting off, then up, then down, then shutting off. They are trying to adjust. The electrons are trying to adapt to the lower freqencies here. The electrons are the living matter that makes up the universe. The Ascended Masters have informed me over the years. Electrons, as in "electronic" gadgets and devices are the little workers that give us life. They obey the commands of the living masters. We are the living masters here. We must learn to respect them. We thought they were just non-living particles that we could use any way we wanted to. But, no. It turns out that these little eletrons power our bodies, our homes, our refrigerators, cars, factories, traffic lights and etc. Electrons power the universe. Electrons power the suns. Electrons power the planets and our very own divine nature.
We are flowing with electrons and electrons are love and light. We are ready to start learning the truth: that we are the masters who have brought our lives down into muck, confusion and depression, and it's time to become more enlightened. It's time to turn things around and start raising ourselves up into the light with new knowledge and with the love embedded in the knowledge. We are the ones who have to do it in our own minds and hearts. We are the love. We are the sense of rightness, of justice, of truth, of freedom, of peace, of unity, of courage, of joy and happiness and gratitude for our lives. (Or not.) Electrons obey the light in us. They also obey the dark in us. They have to because they are programmed to obey the master intelligences and that is who we are - master intelligences. We just don't know it yet. WAKE UP! Realize it. And start to use that intelligence. If we do something wrong that is against our nature - and we KNOW it - well then. Be prepared to pay the price. What you know will hurt you or help you. Be on the right side or things could go wrong. An injustice will bring an injustice. Let us learn our lesson and quickly, because we are rising to a higher dimension where the laws of the universe are quick to respond. It is harmony that we need to become aware of. Be in harmony.
We are the masters of our lives. We are the ones who have set out the Plan for ourselves. Be sure you set out a positive plan. Be happy! Be glad of heart. Be light and in joy and at peace with the world. Be in collaboration with the sentient world. If there is something really, really bad and uncomfortable in your life, change it right now. Love it to death. Say it out loud. "I love you to death!" Anything that fills you with depression, muck and mud. Give it love and light immediately. Say it out loud. Find some words to use. They will start coming to you as you stumble over a beginning word. Build the momentum of light and love.
As we lighten ourself every morning when we get up, we lay out a path to follow. It spreads out around us so that no matter which direction you go in, there is a path of happy light leading there. Be sure to start the day off right. Take up meditation. Just a 15-minute connection with your higher self. Lay out a path of gladness and see what happens. The world is changing and rising upward to lighter dimensions. There is more harmony and happiness in the higher dimensions. Be a part of it. The electrons that are coming into your house and my house are the same electrons. They are seeking the light and the love. Give them light and love. Light is abstract, not yet used. Love is when you use the abstract light. When you take a theory and put it to a test and act on it, that's when you're applying love.
This is an "off-the-top-of-my head" message. I am connecting this morning with everyone's blue-white light of courage, strength, tenacity and joy for life and living. Be glad that you are here. Spread gladness around everywhere you go today. BE HERE FULLY. Notice what is going on around you and lift it up even more.
6/15/23 - Sexual energy is soul energy awakening in the body
Soul energy seeks expression in the body through sexual balance. It is ironic that while meditation travels the road of non-attachment to physical things, yet all the while it leads you back to your own humanness, and to a better knowledge of how to use your physical body with greater finesse and with the deft skill of a master perfecting his art – the art of being human with a divine soul. We are here to learn these things, not to be dictated to nor conditioned to obey the whims of the masses.
We don’t want to separate the soul from the body. We are living in a body. We must not throw it away. We must understand the body and its needs so that we can make it healthy and balanced. We must learn how to operate it, as we must learn how to operate an automobile and maintain it in good working condition. Meditation is not removing ourselves from the world. It is learning how to live in the world. We are spirits already. We are spiritually complete right now. We do not need to become more spiritual. We need to EXPRESS our spirituality, this purity of soul in physical form, awake and alive and full of the vibrancy of health and spontaneous, child-like joy for adventure and action of goodwill towards all life. Only then can we transform our world from one of confusion to one of light and beauty and rich and flavorful colors and tastes.
(Excerpt from the Master Djwahl Khul, HERE "The 7 veils of attachment".
6/12/23 - Re-activating Kundalini
The idea of holding weekly gatherings has come up recently as a way of introducing Kundalini in a formal way. No schedule has been set yet. It will take more time to allow the idea to expand. How many have heard the word "kundalini" before today? Perhaps it was heard in relation to Tantra, but that has been a somewhat misguided focus on the physical body. There are deeper roots leading down to subterranean influences that that have not been presented yet. After 47 years of trying to write about it, I have been shifted to a new level. It is time to hold in-person meetings to spark the auric field of those within ear-shot. It is the auric field that is influenced by this delicate subject. Auric field "sparking" has been known as shaktipat in the era before computers were invented. Now, with computers, we read articles with our brain and think with our brain, and analyze and deduce with our brain, and the rest of the body remains pretty much untouched.
Thoughts are coming to the fore in the last few weeks letting me know that my time is nearly up. I'll have to get on with the mission or miss my chance to present it. When Kundalini activated in me it circulated through me and changed me. It took about 7 years or more. The body is made of consciousness but it takes on other beliefs that are not pure or holy, as the kundalini is. Kundalini realigned me. Consciousness is a beautiful life force. It is a common element in all of life and we have access to everything through our consciousness, but the human being in his busy-ness takes on a lot of unimportant thoughts and beliefs. The purity of his consciousness disappears in favor of the overly-active mind, peripheral thoughts and brain activities. We are busy little bees, having our dramas, traumas and situational learning experiences. We are always trying to overcome something that bothers us. Kundalini has not been formally addressed as a most beautiful part of who we are. It has never been presented as a "real thing". That is what I am here to do - to expose kundalini as something real and very active within us. How to pan for the gold.
I am here to show those who will listen, and to tease it, coax it, seduce it out of hiding so it can be known, highlighted, appreciated and raised to the highest possible level. Kundalini is right now circulating through us as breath. I don't pay any more attention than anyone else - until I remember. Then I stop what I am doing and return to it. Awakening the kundalini has been the main goal in the East Indian spiritual tradition. They worked hard at creating a science of yoga and meditation to be taught. But kundalini awakened in me without any training or knowledge beforehand. It was during a guided meditation by a follower of a guru, it's true, but I had to learn what to do with it all alone by myself. I was then approached by an Ascended Master, the Master Djwahl Khul. The ascended hierarchy, known as the spiritual brotherhood, are aware of everyone on the planet and will step forward as needed. So from an early stage I had a guide to assist me.
Becoming aware of kundalini is a most wonderful, happy, exhilarating experience for those who are naturally feminine in nature. They will recognize themselves in it. For those who are more masculine than feminine in their dominant nature and personality, it will not be so natural. However, for those men who are interested, awakening his feminine nature does not take away from his masculinity. Rather it enhances his masculine nature by balancing it with divine love. In fact, only recently have I learned how to "pump" up my own masculine nature with divine love, for I have certain masculine tendencies too. We all are ambidextrous, to use a common term.
So, bottom line, I will point out to you how you can tap into your beautiful, natural kundalini life force - which is uniquely YOU different from anyone else - and use it in your daily life. If you are willing and if you dare. It is the science of divine love. I am thinking about how to properly introduce this science through the spoken word. Digital articles do not reach people. We read with our brain, not our body, and our brain censors most everything out that it is not programmed for. The kundalini remains unrecognized because it is a sensation, a feeling, and an elevated one at that. Of peace, comfort and loving inner warmth. It takes the chill of loneliness off, but once felt it is usually ignored or forgotten, since we are too busy to pay attention.
See the article I posted today on DK's online book HERE. He channeled this message to me back in 1981, when kundalini was highly active. Kundalini is the mother flame in the body, the feminine life force or divine love force. It is pure and innocent, childlike and happy all the time. It is untouched by human beliefs, self-doubts, depression and wrong attitudes. It's a pure flame that can't be extinguished but it's ignored. It's too pure to be recognized by our worldly focus. It is your ultimate real identity and it's closer than hands and feet and breathing. People who have near-death experiences discover that they still exist without their body and then come back to tell the story to others.
The you that you THINK you are, is a make-over that has taken years to create. This artificial you has dulled down the beautiful crystal kundalini in you but it is still there. You are a human personality but underneath you are a celestial intelligence. We created this artificial mask in order to survive here, to fit into the world and be accountable, but our real undergirds us and keeps us alive. It is powerful and still operating or we wouldn't be here today. My role, my mission, which I have grown to understand it, is that of a gatherer. I have put roots down here in Naples and I'm here to invite people to socialize with me. To stimulate conversation and make introductions. I can talk about kundalini from the ground floor of the commoner because I didn't go through any spiritual or religious tradition. I grounded kundalini by becoming involved in couples swinging, which proved to be an excellent first step opening into the second, third and fourth chakra.
I will keep posting information on these weekly gatherings as they come to me. It is a work in progress, instructions coming from higher planes.
6/7/23 - Merging with your Higher Self
Tantra is the sacred art of conjoining opposites. Not by replacing or substituting one for another. It is like grafting a different plant onto another plant to create a more advanced evolved plant from two separate species. Opposites can be grafted together to create something new and more advanced. More evolved. My higher self is divine and holy. I am not. I am human built of mistakes by trial and error. But when I take 30 minutes to chant higher holy words, my higher self can come closer to me. It is like opening a window to the higher dimensions. I can sense my higher aspect more closely as I do this. It is more brilliant than me. More alive and more colorful. It is bluish and with other colors mixed in, transparent colors, divine, holy, pure. Once or twice I got a flash of a brilliant picture. Very quick. Flashed in and then flashed out. It is coming closer to me and it is connecting into my normal human awareness. I feel myself becoming more elevated when this happens. I am merging with my higher self in small steps. Or it is merging with me. I am an opposite of my higher self. I am human. It is divine, but we are grafting together like two different species. One not pure, the other pure. DK said this is what Tantra does. It conjoins two opposites. They are not alike at first but with effort and time spent together they become one. I never thought about it before, but that's what the higher self does with its lower, imperfect self. It's human self.
6/6/23 - Some revelations during exercise routine
During my spiritual practice I often get revelations. It is a time when I focus attention on myself, I go inward. I thought I would share some from yesterday. During the cobra stance I saw/felt/knew there is no peeling away of negative forces held locked and frozen in my painful achy body and deteriorating parts. No! These pains are the lost bits and pieces of ME from past ages that have not been appreciated or raised up in their glory to the highest as they should have been. I must find them again in every little sharp pain I get, and dizziness, and immediately start to love them and care for them. This is what yoga does if there is a good teacher to instruct the student. I did not have an instructor. I learned this on my own.
It seems the standard tradition is to focus on the physical body and we totally miss the most important and crucial aspects of ourselves – that there are powers within us that have been forgotten. They need to be uncovered and raised up. The first three powers are: Love is the most important, wisdom is the next, and power the third. The power is actually the first. It is at the base of the spine. The power to move and the will to move, the desire to be here in a body. Wisdom is the second power to uncover, it is the power to apply intelligence to the movements that the body does, the intelligence to skillfully manage the action, to be wise how to fit the action into life so it fits well, with finesse, how fast, how slow, how long, when to perform it, how intense, how precise. It takes wisdom to do it right. When it fits well into place the energy of the action rises upward with gladness in its heart to be so well used and appreciated. For the power is intelligent. The third power is to LOVE the action, being kind while performing the action, being caring and considerate, supportive, alert, ever alert to changes, bearing in mind the power of love to heal and hold everything in place. These are subtle powers. I feel them moving through me as I move my body into postures.
Another awareness: The mother flame in me at the tailbone holds all seven of the powers and attributes in her sacred pouch of divinity. She is the life force. As we grow in SELF consciousness and SELF awareness, we use these seven powers (known as chakras) one at a time in order (usually in order, sometimes not in order) best if done in order but a guide or teacher is needed or we would not know this. The Mother Flame is the first chakra holding the pouch of perfection and purity with the seven powers intact. The power to move this physical vessel, its limbs, arms, legs, voice - it CAN move! Yes, it can and with precision, under the masterful control of the resident soul. The power of acting and expressing in voice and movement must be done with awareness and conscious attention. It cannot do this in a coma or sleeping, then the power is shut off. But when awake the power of action is there in the vessel. It is held locked in the tail bone and literally drips the life force gently, up the spine drop by drop, feeding life to the organs as needed, as the resident soul calls on them and opens to them. The second power to become aware of is intelligence and wisdom. The third to become aware of is love and appreciation, caring, gentleness, kindness, precision of movement. These three are the three-fold powers that need to be brought up to the heart, and from the heart to the head, for the brain serves its function by distributing the power to where it is needed the most in the body.
While doing the deer-crane-turtle I started losing consciousness, I started zoning out. I felt to lie down. I was sitting on the massage table so I lay back, feeling like swooning, thankfully blessing the softness of the blanket under me and closed my eyes. Eighteen minutes later (I always check the clock when I do this) I became conscious again. Something woke me but I can’t recall now what it was. I lay there wondering. Then an eye appeared to my inner eye. A big eye looked at me. At first it was fuzzy, then it became a clear, sharp, strangely intimate eye, like sending me a message. I think it was my higher self. Then suddenly a shift of some kind and sparkles of light started floating upward, like dainty little bubbles in gentle swirling motion. There was a sense of happiness, of gleefulness. A child’s happiness and clapping of hands in delight, in excitement and joy. Could this be long lost particles of light being released from lock-down? YES! I am getting. YES, YES, YES.
During the stomach exercises I am hearing words: “The powers of creation are beyond your ability to comprehend, but the powers of healing are not. It is through healing yourself and letting go of the past creations that you built into your bodies, that you will come back into knowing and remembering how you created them in the first place. And how you have held onto them to keep yourself in the world of form and duality. And hence, the suffering and the pleasure of finding yourself again and again. For you are the Light that you are drawn to. You are uncovering your own Light through this process of healing and letting go.” (Earlier during meditation I had surrendered my human artificial qualities, the not-real qualities, back to the Light within. I kept saying "I release the not-light in me and send them home with thanksgiving for serving their purpose.")
During back exercises, “Don’t force yourself. Rest a lot in the arms of love and comfortable feelings. Wait until your body is recovered for the next action. This way you create with love, peace and kindness for yourself, not force. Actions which are devoid of love, unconscious actions, go downward, pulled down to lower frequencies. Beware."
6/5/23 - Everything you do goes "down" unless....
Everything that I “do” as a physical action leaves a mark of energy in me or on me somewhere, not sure exactly how, but it is how we use the sub-atomic light particles that are the source of all life. These particles are intelligent, living, conscious particles of light. They compose the vastness of the sea of life, according to the Masters. They are what we build with. They are the life force within our bodies. They are created to obey the conscious direction of the master who uses them, or calls them into action. So everything I do and you do with the body, without thinking, in an unconscious manner, drifts downward by gravity. Because it is attracted to the rest of the earth's dust and dirt. Like attracts like. Chaos attracts chaos and energy drifts meaninglessly into the planet's soil UNLESS .....
If you consciously apply an uplifting thought of positivity, such as love and light, to the “doing” of whatever action you're taking, it lifts or elevates the sub-atomic particles of light. They are happily, even gleefully, attracted upward to the source of all Light, which is on a higher frequency level. The power of light is that it is lighter and happier, unified and in harmony with ALL of life. There is power here. It is a higher dimension. We don't know yet what that means, but it is above the 50-50 line. The neutral line, the zero line, which is equality and balance and represents stillness. Above the zero line is positive action. Below the zero line is negative action. Negative action drifts downward to join with the planetary body, while positive action drifts upward to join with the sea of life of the one infinite creator. The zero line is the quantum field - the balance between the light and the not-light.
So if we apply love and light to our tasks, we uplift the task that we are doing to a higher dimensional level. The higher dimension is Source and it goes on and on beyond our ability to see or understand, but it is good. It is uplifting, elevating, inspiring, and vitalizing. We come from that highest of levels. We were created by the Source of all that is alive in form. We were born out of the highest levels of purity. We had to learn how to descend into form life. We had to slow down our light particles to create or fit into the physical world. We did it because we wanted to. We chose it. We put effort into it because we wanted to experience being in finite form. We were taught by great celestial beings of intelligence who themselves had been where we are today. We learned from them the art of descending light particles. By dropping our vibration, slowing it down, the light particles of which we are composed cling together and make a denser substance. And then we begin to pick up wrong attitudes and beliefs. And then we forget who we are. But underneath and behind the solid substance of our physical form we are Light. It is all Light. Light particles clinging together and holding us inside a solid form. This is how we form physical bodies. It is how we manifest concrete forms. Our forms are made of light. We’ve crunched our light particles down so much that they cling together and they also pick up false ideas and concepts that don't ring true to the real within. The way water clings together to form ice and can trap dirty water too. We therefore look and FEEL solid and heavy. And often feel in pain and we struggle to be free.
In order to reverse the process of this descent into solid concrete bodies, in order to start the ascension process, we need to apply uplifting light - CONSCIOUS uplifting thought and feeling - to everything we do. Think love. Love is light being felt in the solidarity of bodies. Feel the love. Light is love and love is light. Love and light are one and the same. By applying CONSCIOUSLY light and love to the tasks that we do will "lift" the task to higher purpose. Doing kind deeds to other people also "lifts" everyone involved, the giver, the receiver and the surrounding others. Every "thing", object, animal, plant, person, grass, tree - everything - is lifted up when someone "lifts" their tasks upward to higher purpose. The sub-atomic light particles in every solid body nearby, recognizes an "upliftment" and is attracted to go upward.
This will take practice. We haven't been taught how to do this process. “Think Light and Love" when doing a task, whatever it is, however you feel to do it. For me, when washing dishes. When walking grocery stores or clothing stores. When driving the car, or talking on the phone, or visiting with a friend in person, or working with machinery, or using the computer or cellphone, or doing yardwork, or even resting on the couch with Doug. Periodically, if I remember to do it, I will withdraw my focus and lift the MOMENT upward - the TV and the characters on the screen and the noise and sounds coming from the TV. It will take practice, real-time practice, hands-on practice in the NOW time. It really is amazing. I'm getting some serious uplifting feedback. I urge you to try it.
6/4/23 - Pathways are not created for you but BY you
Pathways are not created for you, they are created BY you. See Divine Mother's message HERE in Today's Posts. For years I've been trying to understand why the spiritual path puts so much emphasis on the heart. It has been called the three-fold flame within the heart, and it refers to the seed of the divine that is there. The Masters speak of it in their lessons and I have tried to understand that connection and to feel something there, something meaningful that "clicks", but I have failed. After all these years of study and channeling and having a spiritual mentor, the three-fold flame has escaped me.
Yesterday something wonderful happened. It required a turn-around. Something bad happened first and I had to turn the situation around and I was rewarded with the revelation. And as if to underline the lesson to me, this morning the same information appeared on the internet from the Divine Mother, who addressed the same thing.
The power of the three-fold flame in the heart is a well-known phrase among metaphysical students. It refers to the divine connection in the heart of every living being. The Masters refer to it sometimes as "the unfed flame" in the heart, which is a curious phrase. Why is it unfed? Who feeds it? It turns out that the reason I haven't been able to find meaning is because I've been looking in the wrong direction! I thought it would come down from above. I've been inviting it down as though it would be "given" to me. I assumed that it was a divine power because all the religions and spiritual gurus refer to God as being above us, higher than us. Naturally I thought it had to be "bestowed" upon me.
Well, it turns out, like so many other lessons, I was wrong. The three-fold flame in the heart must be built from powers that already exist in the human body. There are energies that are already in us but they are so very dense and coagulated and stuck together, that they need to be sorted through and understood. To feel them and consider them and raise them up. But we've been prevented from going there due to cultural "sin and shame". The three-fold flame is composed of love, wisdom and power - the first three chakras. They are portals leading to dimensional realities that we have been kept away from exploring. They are the most dense energies because they are the most compacted, by gravity and by our own repressions. They are physical, emotional and past-life wisdom gained (memories and instincts). These energies must be straightened out and recognized for their value. They can be felt when entered into. There has been no therapy designed yet to do this, but it is coming. They must be felt first, and then they will fall into manageable alignment and control. Then they will be brought up easily, the first divine energy brought up to the second to merge together and become one. And then that power will be brought up to the third to merge together and become one. And then that power will be brought up to the fourth, which is the heart, and the three become one in the heart. The three-fold flame in the heart. The divine connection is built. Wonders open and flood the soul.
It sounds complicated when I put words to it, but energies are feelings and one must deep-dive into rarefied feelings. Fine, beautiful feelings. Allowing oneself to become open to them. We move feelings around with our consciousness. With awareness. When each one - physical, emotional and mental energies - are honored, respected and appreciated, they are raised up to higher standards. It is a refinement process. Purifying the old, negative memories and feelings from the gold. Refining for gold is an apt expression. By appreciating these energies, as feelings and as memories, we are making them more beautiful and honorable. Then they merge together out of natural attunement and rise up to enter into the heart. The three-fold flame is ignited and starts to burn there, the seed of the divine as it was intended from the beginning. Then things begin to happen we would consider totally miraculous.
I have to bring it up by myself with my own conscious effort, understanding what I'm doing. Who would know this? I did not. A person has to build the three-fold flame of divinity in his or her own heart with conscious effort. Time must be spent working with the energies that are literally "stuck" down there below the heart, in the lower dense regions of the body where our feeling nature resides, along with sin and guilt and resentment. But once an action is taken towards this end, it leads to more learning which lead to more revelations. It is a fast track to enlightenment through the discovery process. The chakras are not something pretty to look at on poster boards. The drawings merely represent doors to other dimensions. The first dimensional door is the etheric tail bone (the coccyx). The second one is the etheric sacrum (pelvic bowl). The third one is the etheric navel (belly button). They are portals to higher, finer, more subtle realities. Once you spend time roaming around within this idea, for it IS an idea, a concept, an abstract thought which leads to a feeling if enough time is spent at it, then revelations, sensations and memories will occur.
Love, Wisdom and Power. Each runs on automatic in a random way, causing havoc in our daily lives because we are too busy in our heads to go down and connect with what is happening down there in our lower bodies. The reality is locked up in the power that we hold in the vicinity of the coccyx. The reality and sensation of past-life wisdom and memories is held in the vicinity of the sacrum. The reality and sensation of love is held locked in the vicinity of the navel. All three powers when blended together are clarifying powers. They need to blend together to become clear. There is much more to tell. Feelings and sensations must be touched into. For me, I couldn't connect with the three-fold flame in my heart because it hadn't been built yet. I was too busy asking God for them, from my mind, my brain. The powers are waiting for me below, in the lower body. I should have known. The Master DK has given me enough hints. But we humans are a complicated species. Hints are too simple.
I would be glad to soundboard with anyone by email. Perhaps a round robin on the subject would help. More later. I just wanted to get this into the record before it gets lost in the shuffle. Turning everything around and looking down into our own bodies - it's a beginning. We have powers built into us as human beings that we have no idea about. They are spiritual powers available to be manifest in physical form. For eons of time our ancestors didn't know. We are now waking up to things we would love to share with them now!
6/3/23 - How to build inspiration and vitality
Every morning upon awaking, think “Light to all beings!” Instead of focusing on yourself and how bad you feel, think of the world around you with positivity. Say it out loud "Light to all beings on the planet!". Put your vocal chords into action. Clap your hands while saying it to put your body into action. Move from your hips even before getting out of bed and start the chant - "Peace, love, light, joy, freedom, grace, gratitude". Say each word multiple times over and over, out loud, "peace - peace - peace - peace", clapping your hands to the rhythm. Once you start the action going your body WILL follow suit. Unless you can't make yourself do it because it's silly.
This is a brand new technique. It works. I've tried it. I invented it. I'm working with it now. The physical body is getting tired, old, dull and gray from doing the same old same old same old same old routine. Give it something new to do. Something UPLIFTING. There is no better way to uplift yourself than to give something to someone else. If you spend your time stewing in your own depressing juices, you won't ever get any better. Just thinking with the brain matter won't get you better. Your body has to move and change its routine for a better, sweeter, pleasanter routine. If you ever feel bad again, like if you ever have a very, very bad problem, turn around and give something to someone else. See how much better you feel in a little while. It's a turn-around. It's a total BIG reversal in the way we're used to, how we've been taught and trained.
Your body needs some upliftment and this is the way to do it. Move, clap your hands, radiate happy words OUT and away from yourself so you don't have time to think about how bad you feel. Just saying the words out loud and clapping your hands and swinging your hips alone will start the action. New vitality and interest will kick in. It will surprise you. "Peace, love, light, joy, freedom, grace, gratitude!" These are my words. You can substitute your own uplifting words. I'm just sharing what I use. But each person has a uniquely different value system with focus on special meanings. Use your OWN meaningful words. What turns you to comfort and upliftment? What makes you feel good? What brings pleasant memories to the surface? And last but not least - add a visual picture to this. Form a picture of the planet Earth with you radiating like a sun from where you are located. Hold that picture in your mind. See the sun radiataing across the globe, covering larger and larger territory as you continue to spread the good words out loud.
Beware that your ego will probably not like this. It may say to you, “Stop that! That’s silly and a waste of time.” It may make you feel insecure, as if you're wasting valuable time (check the clock) and shouldn’t be spending time on this. Or it's stupid and somebody might hear you and think you crazy. KILL THAT THOUGHT and continue with the program if you want to get some vitality back into your life. Excitement and positive change in attitude are gained by giving from a high place. From a higher altitude. From a place where everyone is part of the bigger life. Reach for the sun. It's not the devil giving you false information to stop. It's your own brain waves running on automatic. Replaying monotony. Gray. Depressing. Same old same old. Don’t listen. Your ego wants to keep you on track, the way it's always been, day in, day out. It's an artificial intelligence. It's not the real you. It doesn’t know how to change and it doesn't want you to change. Its comfort is doing the same routine. It is hard-wired into the body. You may think it's your mind but it's not. It's only the flesh part of you - the robot part of you. It does what it's been programmed for. But YOU are the master of the body, the intelligence behind the body. And when YOU decide to change a sub-routine, you'll do it. You'll work it out. The body will resist for awhile, and the brain will sput and sputter for awhile old cranky thoughts, but not for too long. If we are tenacious and stick to the new program it won't take too long to get it to comply. It is, after all, only flesh. It's changeable and flexible. It is not eternal or immortal as the master intelligence which you are.
We saw a great documentary today about the brain's ability to focus on what the CONSCIOUSNESS wants. The brain is not the consciousness. You are the consciousness. You can be in a coma, as the documentary said, and still pick up on what is going on in the room. The brain may not register it but your consciousness is always there. Otherwise the body wouldn't be alive and breathe. Now, as the documentary showed, new instruments are being used to register the CONSCIOUSNESS which is the spirit or intelligence that runs the body's systems. It can upgrade the body when it - the master consciousness - decides that it is time to do so. The body is just a robot and it is constantly changing and upgrading as we experience new situations in life. It is fortunate that the body is made of living cells and not metal. Otherwise, if it were metal, it would keep you in the same locked-down routine day after day until the end of your time. Doing the same things every day, thinking the same thoughts, focusing on the same words, not improving or bettering yourself.
This that I am advising you to do may sound like a big change in routine, or maybe not. Maybe you are already a yoga practioner or follow a betterment program every day. If so, wonderful! Congratulations. You are already doing something to serve others around you. If not (yet) consider that a person has to change if you want to upgrade your whole system and stay with the earth as it moves into higher planes. Higher orbit, higher space. We are being visited by extraterrestrials who are more advanced than we are. They've already been through their evolution to higher realms and they are reaching back to quietly assist us in making the same evolutionary change in our old ways. Extraterrestrials operate from shielded ships beyond our sight. I am in touch. I am connected. Meanwhile, I'm just a normal earthling and we are feeling the changes from many quarters of life. The pressure is on betterment, on refinement, on sophistication, on benevolence, kindness, caring, supporting each other without making a big fuss about it. The pressure is LIGHT. Be light in everything you do. Go with the lighter flow. Tell your body to radiate peace, love, light, joy, freedom, grace and gratitude. Or use your own words of meaning and value. Use words and speak them out loud to increase the inflow of energy and vitality that you can actually feel in your skin and muscles and mind. Enthusiasm, excitement, desire to serve the greater good - it comes in faster and quicker when you do this. Be a NEW human. Let the old human rut and routine go. Train yourself with new habits. This will take time to practice. Be patient. Relax while doing it. Don't make a big deal out of it. Know that it is a timeless effort. An ongoing effort. One that never ends so relaxing and feeling good about it is important. It is not limited by time, space or fences.
You HAVE to change if you want to feel like you belong here Because the world is changing. The planet is changing to higher realms. We must change along with it. We do that by becoming a more pleasant person to be around, both to our SELF and to others. Think positive. Think happy. Think pleasurable. Kindness. Be kind to yourself. Do something right now that is comforting to you. You upgrade your DNA by upgrading your belief in comfort and relaxation. Then all segments of life fall into place. It balances out because comfort and relaxation are love for oneself. DNA is built out of old belief systems. It comes from our ancestors when we were babies. This DNA was passed on to you at your birth, but it has subsequently changed since then. Now you are going to change it some more because the belief systems you grew up with are now outdated. The old beliefs are too depressing. To stay with the new earth’s changes we must all become more caring, more balanced, more trustworthy, more sensitive, more refined, more uplifting, more real, more truthful, more positive in thought, word and action - happy, kind, uplifting action.
The earth is moving to higher altitudes (attitudes) where the atmosphere is lighter and more spacious, and provides more room for relaxing and stretching out and believing in dreams and ideals, and that it's OK to take your time in just about everything you do. You just don't have to rush any more. The Earth herself, Mother Nature, is also bringing balance to her shores and mountains. She too is settling into the new higher ways of living more relaxed and peaceful. There is more balance taking place. Mother Earth is already in the higher altitudes but we, mankind, are lagging behind. The higher altitudes provide more time for talking, sharing, dreaming, relaxing. Then justice is better served, truthfulness is better expressed, integrity is better felt. There is no rush to be somewhere. The whole realm is settling into a finer, lighter space in orbit around Father-Sun and Mother Earth is attuned to her counterpart. We are adorned with easiness now and light-heartedness. There are no devils here.
5/29/23 - Tantra, the gentle art of making love
(From the Ascended Master Djwahl Khul. Following yesterday's blog that condemns the old male dominant sex model of eras gone by, a more civilized way of making love is taught here. This was channeled thru me on November 9, 2017 by Master DK after I asked him to tell me more about the primal divine earth energies that come up and gather at the first root chakra, but what happens at the second chakra?)
"In the animal kingdom the flow of primal energy divides out at the second chakra in order to create a division into two separate genders. There must be separate genders, male and female, to create a hunger for reuniting. Separation at the second chakra is necessary for duality to play out. There is engagement and play between the two forces which makes the world go around. And create babies. Reproduction is important to perpetuate the species. The animal kingdom operates on animal instinct. Now, the human being is also an animal but it has been cultivated with altered DNA to become more conscious than the animal. It has evolved to become self-conscious and it continues to evolve to become God conscious.
"It knows that there is a refinement that draws him to seek into the spiritual realms. But his sexuality and reproductive functions remain as an animal. The human has allowed himself to retain the animal drive to copulate as all animals do. The mechanism to overcome this drive lies in the second chakra, where the division takes place in the animal kingdom. When the primal divine life force comes up to the first root chakra, to overcome this drive, instead of dividing out left and right, the mechanism is to remain WITHIN the second chakra and not allow the division to take place. The division that takes place is the male pushing out and the female withdrawing or receiving. When the human male stops pushing and the female stops receiving, they both can integrate and experience union. This is difficult to explain to a 3D consciousness.
"I heard this in a 5D altered state and was able to retain this information. What we are doing with the Love Club massage swaps is teaching them how to integrate their male and female in peaceful embrace, rather than the male pushing and the female dancing around trying to attract his attention or running away. To overcome this animal instinct to push and run away (male and female animal instinct) we humans are to learn how to not do that by way of reducing or diminishing our outward actions. When we slow down to a full conscious stillness and allow ourselves to integrate, then we overcome the animal instinct to push and dance. Do you understand?"
(Whenever I see the words "Do you understand?" at the end of a channeling, I then know for sure that it is DK talking. Because I would never use such a phrase myself. It is presumptuous. It makes me sound like a Know-it-all and I do NOT know it all! I am a student still learning.)
5/28/23 - A new way of looking at sex
In yesterday's blog I said I would share some things that I myself am doing to bring in more cosmic energy - energy that is literally "out of this world". It comes in when I do something against my nature. Something that I haven't done before because I was either afraid or perhaps didn't believe it was right or good for people to know. My nature is to be very careful about I reveal to others. Most of which are too high for me to put words to anyway. I don't want to disturb the natural order of things, or rattle the cages of other people. Well, after living with an ascended master guide for 47 years, I know things that I don't talk about, except if spirit moves me to, then I will.
Spirit moved me to spill the beans this morning about something I have hesitated to speak about. I've been holding it back and the knowledge is building and backing up in me. It's got to be said. And now that I've said it to someone and it's out there in the atmosphere, here it is. I am truly sorry to have to say this out loud. You can reject it as preposterous, it won't bother me.
Did you know that when a man penetrates a woman sexually - or another man or a child - whether he has an orgasm or not, he deposits his accumulated dirty toxic energies inside her or him? He is an action guy, born a male who has shut off his sensitivities and emotions in order to be assertive and a builder of hard material. He devotes all his attention on the bottom line, and therefore builds stress, tension, frustration, disappointments, failures, insecurities and the whole nine yards. He NEEDS the soft feminine to help him out. Sex is a relief for him. He feels much better after he makes love, even if he doesn't climax, because he rubs his toxicity against the warm inner membranes of another human being who willingly or unwillingly receives them. And absorbs them into herself unknowingly. The feminine person is by nature a receiver, where he is the driving force in the world of form, and doesn't know how to balance himself.
Women for eons have served in this capacity. However, times are changing. The human race is evolving and learning through trial, error and experience a higher way. How to live joyfully together, two genders having a life together as equals, without one dominating the other. But we are lagging behind in this issue of sex. The truth has yet to be told. New information is ready to be released in the form of workshop training. Kundalini training is one such workshop. Many knowledgeable teachers are humbly waiting for the right time to begin expanding their teachings to the world. It is information that must be released with kindness, for we don't want to damage the male confidence in themselves. This information will ADD to a man's self esteem if he allows it to tenderize him and soften him. But at first it will be hard to swallow. Consider this merely a heads-up. It should not be difficult to accept as a clue, a hint, a whiff of change in social behavior that is coming.
Fortunately, the new girl growing up is less likely than her predecessor to fall into the subservient role. She will be stronger and more self-empowered. She will not "fall in love and get married" only to find herself chained to the role of toxicity receiver. She will have more power to alter her life. She have more understanding. The women of the past (and I am one of them) who have been in service to men have learned a great lesson. A truly GREAT lesson. One that will never be forgotten, ever. We have born the brunt of receiving far too much toxicity, including anger and violence, without understanding why or how to deal with it. All we knew was lack of love and kindness. It was usually always "falling in love" in the beginning but deteriorating from there because the man did not understand either. It was just the way it was. It was designed that way to teach right from wrong. We learn from experiencing feelings and emotions.
Sex is an important lesson in the evolution of a race. All races, no matter what the civilization looks like. The truth is, there is no such thing as a "man" or a "woman" in the higher consciousness realms. Souls are born to experience CONSCIOUSLY, the right way to do things and the wrong way to do things. It is the way of learning through feeling the emotions. Understanding the right use of a physical body. Souls are born as a man in one life and then a woman in another, depending upon the soul's needs or choices. We move back and forth between lifetimes, experiencing a male body and then we experience a female body. We will get it. Eventually. And that time is NOW! The ages have turned.
I'm sharing this information because, in yesterday's blog I said I would tell some things that I myself am doing to bring in more cosmic energy - energy that is literally "out of this world". New energy comes in when I do something against my own nature. I dare to be bold. I dare to reveal something that I never revealed before. I did that yesterday and, sure enough, I was rewarded with an upsurge of powerful new energy today. Wish I could tell you more (smile!)
5/27/23 - The turn-around has begun
There is a vast turn-around happening, planet-wise, for the human race. It has caught everyone by surprise. At least it caught ME by surprise. Apparently others, as well, for I am reading all sorts of articles, each different. We all thought ascension was a move UP to a higher dimension but it's the opposite!! It is a DOWNWARD move! Ascension is a DESCENSION. We are from higher planes already. We are spirit, God, eternal, everlasting, evolving souls, and we are here to bring the light of our knowledge DOWN into the solid ground and manifest it here. Build it here. We are each different and so there are no two alike. We each have a different perspective, but we're all part of the giant jigsaw puzzle. We're all part of the big Plan. We all have knowledge that contributes to the ultimate manifesting of the Garden of Eden. We are here to build it, or re-create it, in physical concrete form.
It has taken me a long time to understand this. And I've had the benefit of an ascended master guide for the last 47 years. How could this have escaped me? Why has it taken me so long to "get it"? The answer is simple: we've been caught in the old dark matrix. We've been fooled and manipulated into believing the opposite, that we are poor sinners and we don't know anything so we have to go UP for answers. Wrong. We've been caught in the old system of reaching UP that the religious systems taught us. But in our efforts of reaching up we've been pushing the light away from us. The way to go is down into the roots of our beingness, and the roots of our beingness are INSIDE our bodies. There is more here to uncover and make known. The way to go is not just INSIDE ourselves, but to communicate what we know to others and work ideas together in order to manifest the illusive dream into a concrete reality. To express ourselves is to express our true nature, our true feelings, our truth on all levels, and to become who we are within, outward for all to see and know and appreciate and respect. The goal is to manifest our reality in the outer world of form. The gurus and masters have done their part. They have taught us how to seek within for it. Now it is up to us to take charge of becoming that which we know.
Now it is the time, the time is ripe, the turn-around is happening. We are ready to put our roots down, plant them solidly into the dirt of the earth, but this time with harmony, love, caring, kindness, wisdom and respect for others around us and the earth itself. We must do this with feeling, with knowing, with confidence and grace. With the knowledge of who we are and knowing that we are right. There is no doubt left in us. We came here to do this - to plant our Self, our higher, principled self - down into the earth. There are many ways of doing this. Each one must decide how it will be done. We come to work together and to express ourselves in solid matter, in form, on earth with others building with us. We are here to stop seeking and start using the skills we have worked so hard to accumulate. The intuitive wisdom, confidence and faith in ourselves that we've accumulated are instinct and inner knowledge. It is who we are. It is our nature. We are here to prove ourselves.
Our basic knowledge is heart-felt, strong and we are skilled. We are balanced, or soon will be when we begin using and moving the energies that have been backing up and stagnating inside us, causing frustration and depression. We've been manipulated to think we are poor sinners and lack judgment, when all along we have been building understanding and clear thinking. We do not doubt ourselves, we are just holding it back and keeping it a big secret. We are actually an amazing people, we humans of earth. And we are here to prove it to ourselves. That we can do this. We are here to build a Garden of Eden in physical concrete form, where everyone is happy and no one lacking. We've been wishing for it and dreaming about it. This is what we're heading to - the building of a world of harmony, beauty, peace and balance and we'll do it with love and wisdom. The frustration is being held back. By whom? There is no one to blame but ourselves. When I am ready, I will move into action and so will you. When it is time we will turn around and move forward.
Forces that are not of the light have done this. Evil is that which is born without love, without a sense of unity and caring or connection to the one supreme creator. There are such things, you know. It is called artificial intelligence. People with souls, with heart and the ability to love who also enjoy technology and enjoy fiddling around with it, must beware. Artificial intelligence has been around a long time, and has taken away our connection to the heart, to soul, to our sense of unity and the divine within. That is why we must return to the feelings that flow within us, and begin expressing them. Expressing outwardly is the key to the turn-around. If we continue to keep our feelings secret and locked away, we are becoming artificial intelligences ourselves.
Artificial intelligence has no connection to the sea of life and love from which we have descended. We have the seven bodies to prove it. Seven bodies wrap around us in an aura of livingness that we are mostly unaware of. We descend down from a world of perfection and purity to build in form. It is a descension of light that we are. We have descended to experiment building with purity, light and love in concrete form. We have had many lifetimes in form, learning now to build in form, and we have learned a lot. We have learned the feeling of right and the feeling of wrong. We know the difference. We have the experiential knowledge and the intuitive skills to prove it. All we have now to do is turn around and begin expressing them outwardly to each other. That means focusing on building on earth based on faith in yourself. You already have the accumulated wisdom within you. It flows in your blood stream and nerves. We are here to use the knowledge accumulated, and the FEELINGS and emotions we have accumulated. They belong to us, we must express them. Go inward and start using inner strength, inner feelings of right and wrong, inner faith, inner confidence and inner intuitive skills. Then we will be going in the right direction. Stop seeking someone else to do it for us.
We were taught to reach UP to find God or something resembling God but we have actually been gods in training. It has been said over and over by the Master guides. We are gods in training. And the time has come to start acting like the god authority that we are. Everything we were taught has brought us to this turn-around point. A god is one who lives with love and wisdom. Instead of looking for love and wisdom from someone else, we must start using love and wisdom for ourselves. I am the one that I've been looking for all these years. All the tools are mine now, here within me. We have the inbuilt intuitiveness, built-in feelings, build-in sense of truth, fairness, justice and rightness. We are here to LIVE this sense of rightness in our every day. It is a comfortable feeling. It is a good feeling. We will change our lives around. Healings will take place on subtle levels. They are not miraculous. They are nature falling into place and harmony. It is an inner work. An innocence that the religious systems have taken away from us. On purpose, I suspect, to lead us to more lessons - until we have had enough. Until the instinct kicks in and the dream to build a community of fairness and love starts to take form. A community of fairness, a village of freedom, a city of harmony and togetherness. A community of supporters and unifiers, where no one lacks. A land of vitality and excitement, of creative impulses and ideas continually flowing. It is ours to build.
There is a fire burning in me today. We have the faith. We have the love. We have the urge to support and contribute to the upliftment, not to enable weakness but to teach self-empowerment. Why has it taken so long? Because there are still too many people seeking for help outside of themselves. They have not been self-empowered. Education is needed. Turning around is not easy. Habits are in place. To look within - what does that even mean? This is the beginning of the U-turn. The willingness to change and to wonder HOW to change. To think about it and learn self-help techniques. We've been looking to saviors for answers, when the savior is our Self. There are techniques. They require effort and time out to work them. It will take time to learn a new technique and practice it, try a different approach. Communicate and soundboard. Tomorrow I'll tell about what I've been doing to help myself.
Instead of me wishing someone else would come and give me money, or give me love, or give me a better home, a better life, a better career, or to heal my broken body and so on -- in other words, being a dependent on others for something I am lacking - instead of me wishing the correct solution is to exert effort to do something to help myself. That's when something mysterious happens. A new kind of energy comes to mind. I become aware of something I never thought about before. This is an occult secret knowledge. It's available to be used. It's a principle of life that is accessible to those who know enough to use it. More later. I'll tell more.
5/18/23 - Today is a most beautiful day
I am elated and so very happy to be alive today. I just finished typing DK's course on meditation - with one change. The title is now "A class on personal power". It really is all about personal power and how to improve on it. It's about ten pages long and it's so amazing to me, what this Master has taught me over the years. And the fact that I haven't read it in over 40 years because this is priceless (to me anyway). It was channeled through me by the Master Djwahl Khul back in 1982 and it's like a time capsule waiting to be opened. Again after being buried so long ago. The personal power he refers to HERE is imploding and exploding in me right now. I can vouch for his wisdom and knowledge that he is passing on. There are a lot of hints in it that will be disturbing to some who read it, but only because we humans tend to be complicated. Personal power is childlike, innocent, simple and refreshing. We are the REAL underneath our masks. This is a real and authentic message for those who are trying to find a way to be happy in this world amid what we "think" is confusion. We have so complicted ourselves when we're really children at heart and not sophisticated at all. Be happy and go frolic in the fields of life. BTW, the real power is our lower parts. This doesn't come out until the last page. To make peace with the world you have to make peace with your own sexuality. And there are simple ways of doing that.
5/16/23 - Uploading another Master DK project
Today a new project has been uploaded onto the website HERE by the Tibetan Master DK. It is a course on meditation from 40 years ago, when I was still a babe in the woods learning about the secret language of light and kundalini (aka the holy spirit) that was causing so many changes in my life. This course has some very interesting twists in it that is sexually related, and it validates and confirms all that I have been understudying with him. He is saying it in clear language here. There is no ambiguity. This could be called a secret discovery, as if it was in a time-capsule, waiting for the right day to surface. I've had the papers all along but did not realize what they were. They were stored away in a big old notebook that I hadn't looked at for years. I have only partially typed it in here, but DO check it out.
5/15/23 - Will power by the Master Djwahl Khul
(Part of a longer message DK gave me in answer to some questions I had) Will power is cultivated by sticking to a regular routine on a daily basis. Do some practices every day. Build a routine and follow it every day without fail. This is what you have been doing. You are starting to succeed so that your body starts to remember and want to do it every day. Without a regular routine your body stays lazy and thinks it is doing the right thing for itself. The body operates on habit. It is sluggish, its cells are from the earth. It is not a high consciousness machine. It likes routine. It likes to know what is expected of it. If you change your habits and follow it every day, your body will remember and will change over a short period of time. You must use will power on yourself. If you feel lazy, it is your body that feels lazy, not you, but you let your mind follow suit. You interpret wrongly. You think it is you but it is your body. You are not your body. You may say, “Well, I don’t feel like it today, I will go to the computer instead. I am excited and want to write this down.”
But that means you have let your body take control over your commitment. You must force your body to do what you have decided to do, and not succumb to your body’s wants. This takes will power. It is a struggle at first. The body operates on habit, which is a feeling. But you are the consciousness of the body. You built the body, your higher self did. If you have decided to change yourself then you must use discipline and will power. Take your power back from your body. Know the difference between your body wanting to feel good, and your commitment to make a change. This does not mean you won’t enjoy the "feel good” feelings at times, but you will not let your body tell you what IT wants. You will teach it better manners. You will teach it what it feels like to be refined and more sensitive. It is the body who has the “feelings”. You are the abstract intelligence that uses the body as a vehicle, as an avatar. This is the reason for a daily routine – to work with your body and raise its consciousness level to better express your higher intelligence. Build new habits into your body and it will become more refined, stronger, healthier and feel better with itself. It will thank you by responding with a sense of freedom and lightness.
The body is a mechanism. I is a machine. Even though it is organic and a breathing, living machine and it has a consciousness, yet it is still exquisitely designed to function under the orders and control of a higher mind. That higher mind is you. We learn to use it from the outside in. The hands, feet, legs, mouth, eating, brushing teeth, putting it to sleep at night and washing it so it feels clean. This is what we learn as a child, how to take care of the body and use it properly. In past ages we did not learn how to care for the inner parts of the body, but that time is now changing. We are going through an evolutionary shift to higher consciousness. How the inner parts of the body work is done through yoga. Learning how they function is a three-part education. We study the machine to see how it functions, and we practice it through yoga postures, and we read scholarly reports and experiences of other people.
Up to now it has been left to the professionals and experts to know how your body works, how to maintain it, what to do when it goes wrong. But you have given them the power over your body. They do not know what you are feeling and aligning with, or misaligning with. This only you can tell from being inside the body. When something goes wrong with your heart or lungs or stomach, most people go to the doctor or another expert. But those who have chosen the inner path of their choice, which is natural and organic, have discovered better health and are more intuitively well, happy and at peace. Yoga is an ancient science and covers many facets. It is an inner path that is starting to spread across the planet and bring changes to those who practice it. It is how people are taking their power back from outside authorities. There is untold wisdom contained in the human intellect, will and love.
Gopi Krishna advises a path of (1) healthy diet & journal/document (2) yoga postures & journal/document (3) meditate & journal/document. In other words make yourself an experimental subject and keep documenting. Consider it research. He advises a research institute but I’m saying, make yourself the research. Routine, regular discipline, apply control, conscious control, the evolutionary force for the future of mankind. This prevents psychopathy and psychosis. The evolutionary mechanism goes wrong when the body is not clean and not maintained in a healthy manner. It must be kept up on a regular basis with conscious application of certain habits. In the case of the wayward man who is ignorant, it means to become more disciplined.
5/14/23 - Father sun as a warm loving personality
As I lay on the acupressure mat this morning - a mat with little plastic needles sticking up all over - I focused on Father Sun. Father Sun is amazing. It was two years ago that I was introduced to the sun as an individual. Two columns of Ascended Masters appeared in the sky, each with an arm pointing upward toward the sun, creating an open path between them . The meaning was clear. Ever since then I have been working with Father Sun during special silence times.
Last night I did 50 inhales through my feet down into the earth, and again this morning I did 50 more, holding focus on burrowing down, seeing my intentional light going down deeper into Mother Gaia, reaching for her and touching finger tips with Mother Gaia. I am connecting slowly, reclaiming bits and pieces of lost light that I left behind in former lives. I have been too far above my head in the stratosphere. I sense Father Sun trying to reach through me to enter deeper into the earth through me. I asked for help and guidance in the silence of my thought, to close down the top of my head. Then I began to see and sense more stability. I am feeling Father Sun. As I call to Father Sun I see him as a loving father. He is a wise elderly face with a warm, loving, countenance, a smile, caring, love emanates from him. He is intelligent and wise. He is showing me these qualities as a radiation entering into me.
I am receiving pictures of these words that identify them to me, and the feelings behind the words. I am feeling warmed and cared for, nourished by him. I am feeling calmed and peaceful from his presence. I am understanding that Mother Sun is also there. Father Sun is the abstract quality coming down from the sky and that Mother Sun is here inside of me, holding space in me. It is she who receives the warm countenance of her counterpart. She holds space for me while I process this. I can FEEL the abstract quality in my body focusing, densifying, becoming real to me. Mother Sun is Mother Earth to me. They are one and the same. I am now feeling these qualities as I think about them. They are working in tandem with me. Guiding me, assisting me.
I am like a plant growing here on earth. Just as they absorb the sun to grow their vegetation, so do I absorb the sun to grow roots into the earth so I can adapt here and enjoy life on the earth. I have been too long whirling about in the atmosphere NOT rooting myself. I must root myself. I want to grow roots into the earth and stabilize. I am learning that I must hold my mind still and focused long enough so that the sun's qualities can enter and penetrate my organs, skin, blood and tissues, otherwise they bounce off me and I don't benefit from them. I have to do this because I am a more complex being than plants. I have a mind that is diverted and distracted and busy all the time. I am a more advanced life form and I grow dizzy without roots to stabilize me. There is too much input from my human brothers and sisters. I need to grow roots and stabilize myself. The Masters have been showing me how to do that.
Sensuality is a beautiful feeling of being wanted, grounded, stabilized to become a living part of the earth's heritage. I am here to also grow and root myself. I am a more complex being so I must do more work than the tree and the plant. I am a thinking, mobile intelligent being with muscles, tissues, nerves and emotions. I have to hold focused thought long enough to absorb the loving qualities from the sun and FEEL it. I am now feeling the sensual feelings of love, wisdom, intelligence and nurturance and being supported. Mother Sun holds space for me. She lives in between the atoms and electrons of my solid body. She is pure intelligence and she holds them for as long as I am willing to hold them in my mind as she transfers these loving qualities over to me. I have to be awake and alert to do this and to receive them and appreciate them. They are the living life force to my body. These qualities help me to stabilize, breathe, ground, feel solid on earth. These qualities have to be densified to be felt by my body and me. Father Sun appears to me as person, wise and beaming fatherly confidence to me. "You can do it!" he says to me.
5/11/23 - Ascending waves to higher consciousness
It is difficult to post open articles knowing that everyone is on a different scale with different beliefs, attitudes, past history and understandings, but this is what I am called to do. My particular slant on things is from the angle of ascension. My husband's is from the angle of a civil rights lawyer fighting for justice of the underdog. Having studied the "four dense bodies" as taught by the Ascended Masters, I am better equipped than many people, perhaps than the majority. But I am still a quite normal person, however.
From my perspective my physical body is thinning away. The CONCEPT of the physical body is thinning away. The body is merely a wrapping, like a gift wrapping. It was made to look like it belongs here. We don't want any alien-looking creatures running around to disturb the natives! So we are all human on the outoside. But the REAL substance is not the visible outer shell, but the invisible that is flowing through it.
The substance that animates the physical body is not substance but consciousness. Awareness. Intelligence.
Alertness. What we are conscious of at every moment of the day or night casts either a negative or a positive glow to our presence. The four dense bodies mentioned above are - defined from densest to least dense - the etheric body, emotional body, mental body, spiritual body, and then after that - the LIGHT body. And there are more beyond these. The light body is pure crystalline. Someone nick-named it "christ-aligned". It is pure and undefiled consciousness, connected to the ONE supreme consciousness.
The etheric body is the soul, the individual consciousness that animates the body as "me" or "you". It is feminine in nature, sensitive and receptive to all other influences it comes in contact with. We are responsible in our etheric body for taking on wrong attitudes and beliefs, and it is up to us to purge them by learning what is right and what is wrong.
Our emotional body is composed of our desires. We have many desires and they shift and change with the wind. And with basic needs, like food, water, clothing and shelter. Many people are without these basics but are still positive-leaning people and help others in spite of their lacks. How do they do that? With will power. They choose to think bigger, wider, broader, vaster, wiser and holier. Will power is a higher power than emotions because it is lighter and less dense.
Our mental body is composed of our choices of thoughts we think. Will power is a product of the mental body. What we think about, matters. And how strongly we think them. And where we direct our thoughts, and with what emotion we color them. We can color our thoughts dark, selfish and evil, or bright, happy, positive and compassionate.
The spiritual body is a higher mental body which reaches into greater levels of intelligence beyond ground level or practical level. There is sky and space beyond physical matter and various sciences grow up to explore them. There is only ONE intelligence which creates ALL of life and science itself is drawn to reach for it. It is the one common ingredient that ties the many schools of thought together. Our own individual spiritual nature draws us to reach to the one Father intelligence. Mother is the matter force. Father is the abstract intelligence which the matter reaches for. Father fills the mother with his abstract thoughts and desires and the mother (matter) receives them and grows wise by entertaining them. But most of the time we are too busy and distracted by the world around us to indulge in such thinking. We are conscious beings. Some of us are only semi-conscious, and others are very dull in consciousness, falling into mostly mechanical habits, not really thinking at all. And then there are the geniuses, super-conscious beings who are bringing new ideas into the world.
Consciousness changes as we live longer. We begin to wonder. We are drawn by our own thoughts, the elusive power within - the electricity that powers the machine, and the magnetics that attract us or repel us away from circumstances and situations. It is consciousness that is growing stronger in me. I am becoming aware that my body is not all that I am. I am what I am thinking, where I spend my awareness time. My awareness is on a higher level than it was 10, 15, 20 years ago. It is more consistently thinking, pondering, changing perspectives on love, benevolence, kindness, wisdom. My desires are of a higher nature, not of material objects. My wishes are for peace and that all people be happy. My dreams are to hug everyone and make them feel wanted and appreciated, and to help wherever I can so they are not in pain. My memories are of the good things that happened in my life. The negative memories have gone away. I am more aware than I have ever been before. What does my body have to do with this? It is a human body that holds me in check so I fit into the world and no one is the wiser. And so it is with you.
Ascension waves are upon us in these days and it is tumultuous and chaotic. It is causing changes in the way we see things or perceive. Let the waves pass on by and go with the flow it leaves behind. Rest often in peace while picturing rays from the sun coming down and entering into your physical heart. Father sun is the distributor of the ONE intelligence in our system. The ONE intelligence whose greatest power is love.
5/8/23 - Precious jewels in unexpected places
During a morning exercise and meditation recently I had an interesting experience. I called in my I AM Presence and also the violet flame. I asked the violet flame to enter into my subconscious areas that are normally hidden to me, expecting to begin a purging process of some old dark stuff. Instead, I saw a chest, like a treasure chest, and I am opening it and looking inside. But what’s inside is not old stuff but jewels, gem stones, diamonds, glittery things, and I realize that these are the things I have held closest to me, not revealing them but holding onto them because they are so valuable. I see them as beautiful. They are not sinful or bad or evil at all. They are precious and that is why I have held onto them and not revealed them. They are sacred to me. And now I am releasing them upward into the light. I am sending them Home. I am saying, “Here, take these. These are my stories. I am giving them to you so that you may add them to the overall sea of consciousness. I release them, I let them go. Take them.
And I see the glittering diamonds going upward out of the darkness of my cellar, my underground, where they were hidden away. These are my stories and I am releasing them back Home to the light. I am adding to the Light my adventures and my wisdoms gained. And then I am seeing further down into the darkness of my subconscious and I am seeing treasure chest after treasure chest after treasure chest going off into the darkness until I can no longer see them any more. And I say, “Abracadabra - Open!” And all of the chests fly open and out of them come more jewels, more diamonds, pearls, rubies, precious stones of all kinds. They are just a little dusty because they have been carefully hidden away and preserved. Totally beyond my sight. I didn’t know they were there. This morning I released them all. I opened all of the chests and let the gems and jewels free to fly upward into the light to go Home. This was done very methodically and consciously. I spoke the words out loud as they came to me. And then I resumed my exercises. This took place on 6/17/14.
5/5/23 - Uniting your feminine & masculine sides
A revelation occurred recently while doing breathing exercises. While breathing up and down the spine I was again conscious of a tendency to lean to the left, as if my right side is too dominant and pushes over into my left side, making it appear that my left side is too weak to stand up for itself. I thought it was because I was too feminine and submissive, and I've been trying to strengthen it through certain practices.
Suddenly I realized that my left side - my feminine side - is not supposed to be equal to my right side. At least not in the way I thought it should be. My left side is composed of Light! Pure divine crystal light. Duh! I should have known. I knew it theoretically, but never connected with it before. My mind thinks it knows everything, but it only knows what it knows. It knows about linear logic and human ways, but it does not know the higher dimensions at all. This is what I am here to study. My left side, my feminine or passive side, is higher dimensional. And it is true for everyone, not just me.
After recognizing this while doing my breathing, then I began seeing the two sides of me - the female and male sides - entwined together like a corded rope, thick and tight, like a cord running up and down my spine. In yoga science the left feminine is called Ida and the right masculine is called Pingala. Ida and Pingala are Sanskrit terms from ancient teachings. Both start out at the same root, the tailbone chakra, and separate out immediately upon leaving the root. They each travel up and around the central column separately and in opposite directions - the symbol of the caduceus in medicine. As one continues evolving in sacred knowledge of the inner science and through the practices of yoga, breathing or other disciplines taught by metaphysical schools, one learns more about it. That's where I am today, after many years of study. I am still learning and receiving inner revelations.
As I continued the breathing exercise, now seeing the corded rope running up my spinal column, I saw it thicken. It runs upward, tightly wound together. This is a new revelation to me. They used to spiral separately, AROUND the central column. They never ever entered INTO the central column, because each had their separate path they followed, up around the spine in opposite directions for they opposed each other. They represented the dualities and challenges of different opinions and ways of life. But as I continued breathing the exercise, the pure light of the ida and the darker light of the pingala came together as one rope. They grew closer and tighter together, so that I could SEE it happen. The rope of the central column is now stronger, thicker and wider. It is covering more territory in the central trunk. They still go in opposite directions but but they wrap around each other, adding support to each other, one divine, the other human who makes mistakes.
When I saw the two sides entwined together like this - one pure crystal light and one darker more concentrated energy - I had a new awareness. Why I always felt as if I was tipping over to the left. Why it was so difficult for me to balance my left and right. I couldn't do it by mind power alone. I had to go to the next higher level to understand it from a higher, or you could say deeper, level. Higher or deeper are one and the same thing, a merge of two opposites. The mind is used to opposites, it fights and resists against opposites. But the mind is not used to merging opposites! This is the rare gift that Tantra brings to us. But that's another story for another day.
The great mystery to us humans who think we are so rational and logical (!) is that consciousness is the power, not the mind. The mind does not have the same power to change things that consciousness does. Consciousness is the silent power behind the mind. It is vaster. It is supreme. Through the practice of meditation and sitting in silence and observing oneself, one becomes conscious of this vaster consciousness and intelligence. It is more powerful than the mind. Consciousness is attention. Wherever attention goes, there is consciousness. This fact is overlooked by the vast majority, if they don't practice sitting in silence and observing. Our mental powers are important for producing thoughts and directing thought to specific areas that we want to explore. We can concentrate on one area over and above another area. We can shut out distractions through the power of our concentration. But there is a silent consciousness behind our thinking. Thinking is forceful. We "push" it out into areas. But consciousness remains silent behind the thought. It is called the spirit flowing through the body.
I am here to learn this truth and to dig deeper into who I am. I see that I am the larger aspect that moves through my body. I can control my body's leanings left and right better when I am aware of this. I am the power of consciousness behind my body, and behind my mind and emotions. The ida and pingala are the two energy pathways that spiral up around my spinal trunk in opposite directions, causing me to struggle with myself. I am both divine AND human. I didn't know that. People have been saying it, but just reading it is not enough. I had to come to realize it for myself, within. It is important to study it and feel its effects sensually, in a practical manner, and watch for the goosebumps and chills that run over your skin when you connect with the truth.
We are here to work 50-50 with the divine in us. We are born human but the divine is there underneath, supporting the human. We didn't know. Our parents and teachers didn't tell us because they didn't know either. We as a race of intelligent creatures are evolving our consciousness, our intelligence, our awareness. . We are entering the higher dimensions and becoming more enlightened. The light within is beginning to glow and radiate. We are becoming INNER-lightened. Our personality has lived before, in many other bodies, gaining experience in how to better drive a human body. It is a vehicle. How do the parts work? We have to practice with them, consciously. The divine is always here to guide us. It is the immortal aspect that has never been influenced by human faults or failures. It cannot be contaminated by failure. The divine aspect has been called the Christ by the Christian religion, and Krishna by the Hindu religion. It means the divine aspect. It remains pure. It is the God-self. It is what creates the human body in the first place.
It is the power behind the throne. It is here to support, advise and counsel the human as it grows stronger and better at mastering the functions of the physical body. The human is the masculine side, the right side, the divine is the feminine side, the left side. Men and women have both aspects running through them. The feminine side is soft, tender, supportive and nourishing, but never pushy. It allows the human to have free will and do it "his" way, "her" way. But it never abandons us. We would die if it did. It is ALWAYS there. Deeply personal, ready and waiting for the human to connect with it, to ask it questions and to then listen to it. It is an ever sacred, ever private, persoal guide.
When the human practicality and the divine work in harmony together, a happier, more peaceful life is experienced. This is true for every man, woman and child. It would be good to pass this information along to the next generation. Both sides of us have always been there, as long as we are in physical embodiment. I have grown wiser through trial, error and mistakes, but the divine has always been there in the pattern of the right, the true and honorable way to go - a higher guide to my human side. But I have to ask and I have to listen in time-out mode. We must ask and then take time to sit quietly and pay attention. If only I had known earlier in life! It is consciousness that does the work of growing up and balancing, not mind alone. Getting to know the difference takes practice, sitting in silence and observing the difference. Mental thinking is a thrusting, pushy effort, whereas silence is like listening to the void. Thought is a forced movement that is started like one starts the engine of a car and starts driving it off in a direction. But consciousness does not start nor does it move. It observes. It is a silent wise counselor. It doesn't move at all. It just is. It is the intelligence of the one infinite creator. Vast and infinite and we humans have it running through us. We are one with the infinite, even while we are unique and one of a kind. There is no duplicate because we have had many lives to create our personality and our uniqueness. We can be picked out by Those Who Know among the gray masses of the many.
Silent awareness is how we connect to our divine feminine side. Men, you have a divine feminine side. Women, you have a divine masculine side. Don't be fooled. You are androgynous. I am more impressed today with yoga disciplines than I was in my earlier life. I did not know back then. Today I would advise everyone to take up one of the disciplines that appeals to you and to which you are drawn by magnetic attraction. A sign of knowing when you've hit on a truth is when goosebumps run up and down your body, giving you chills. It is a "clicking" in of the human with the divine in you. It is as if you were slightly off kilter and suddenly now you hit the right key note on the keyboard. The download begins then from the divine side, and the upload begins from the human side and the link-up takes place. Trust it. Revelations may or may not occur immediately, but they will appear in days to come. This inner connection between the divine and human is symbolized in the beautiful picture of the androgynous statue shown above.
4/28/23 Updating...
Suddenly I realized that my left side - my feminine side - is not supposed to be equal to my right side. At least not in the way I thought it should be. My left side is composed of Light! Pure divine crystal light. Duh! I should have known. I knew it theoretically, but never connected with it before. My mind thinks it knows everything, but it only knows what it knows. It knows about linear logic and human ways, but it does not know the higher dimensions at all. This is what I am here to study. My left side, my feminine or passive side, is higher dimensional. And it is true for everyone, not just me.
After recognizing this while doing my breathing, then I began seeing the two sides of me - the female and male sides - entwined together like a corded rope, thick and tight, like a cord running up and down my spine. In yoga science the left feminine is called Ida and the right masculine is called Pingala. Ida and Pingala are Sanskrit terms from ancient teachings. Both start out at the same root, the tailbone chakra, and separate out immediately upon leaving the root. They each travel up and around the central column separately and in opposite directions - the symbol of the caduceus in medicine. As one continues evolving in sacred knowledge of the inner science and through the practices of yoga, breathing or other disciplines taught by metaphysical schools, one learns more about it. That's where I am today, after many years of study. I am still learning and receiving inner revelations.
As I continued the breathing exercise, now seeing the corded rope running up my spinal column, I saw it thicken. It runs upward, tightly wound together. This is a new revelation to me. They used to spiral separately, AROUND the central column. They never ever entered INTO the central column, because each had their separate path they followed, up around the spine in opposite directions for they opposed each other. They represented the dualities and challenges of different opinions and ways of life. But as I continued breathing the exercise, the pure light of the ida and the darker light of the pingala came together as one rope. They grew closer and tighter together, so that I could SEE it happen. The rope of the central column is now stronger, thicker and wider. It is covering more territory in the central trunk. They still go in opposite directions but but they wrap around each other, adding support to each other, one divine, the other human who makes mistakes.
When I saw the two sides entwined together like this - one pure crystal light and one darker more concentrated energy - I had a new awareness. Why I always felt as if I was tipping over to the left. Why it was so difficult for me to balance my left and right. I couldn't do it by mind power alone. I had to go to the next higher level to understand it from a higher, or you could say deeper, level. Higher or deeper are one and the same thing, a merge of two opposites. The mind is used to opposites, it fights and resists against opposites. But the mind is not used to merging opposites! This is the rare gift that Tantra brings to us. But that's another story for another day.
The great mystery to us humans who think we are so rational and logical (!) is that consciousness is the power, not the mind. The mind does not have the same power to change things that consciousness does. Consciousness is the silent power behind the mind. It is vaster. It is supreme. Through the practice of meditation and sitting in silence and observing oneself, one becomes conscious of this vaster consciousness and intelligence. It is more powerful than the mind. Consciousness is attention. Wherever attention goes, there is consciousness. This fact is overlooked by the vast majority, if they don't practice sitting in silence and observing. Our mental powers are important for producing thoughts and directing thought to specific areas that we want to explore. We can concentrate on one area over and above another area. We can shut out distractions through the power of our concentration. But there is a silent consciousness behind our thinking. Thinking is forceful. We "push" it out into areas. But consciousness remains silent behind the thought. It is called the spirit flowing through the body.
I am here to learn this truth and to dig deeper into who I am. I see that I am the larger aspect that moves through my body. I can control my body's leanings left and right better when I am aware of this. I am the power of consciousness behind my body, and behind my mind and emotions. The ida and pingala are the two energy pathways that spiral up around my spinal trunk in opposite directions, causing me to struggle with myself. I am both divine AND human. I didn't know that. People have been saying it, but just reading it is not enough. I had to come to realize it for myself, within. It is important to study it and feel its effects sensually, in a practical manner, and watch for the goosebumps and chills that run over your skin when you connect with the truth.
We are here to work 50-50 with the divine in us. We are born human but the divine is there underneath, supporting the human. We didn't know. Our parents and teachers didn't tell us because they didn't know either. We as a race of intelligent creatures are evolving our consciousness, our intelligence, our awareness. . We are entering the higher dimensions and becoming more enlightened. The light within is beginning to glow and radiate. We are becoming INNER-lightened. Our personality has lived before, in many other bodies, gaining experience in how to better drive a human body. It is a vehicle. How do the parts work? We have to practice with them, consciously. The divine is always here to guide us. It is the immortal aspect that has never been influenced by human faults or failures. It cannot be contaminated by failure. The divine aspect has been called the Christ by the Christian religion, and Krishna by the Hindu religion. It means the divine aspect. It remains pure. It is the God-self. It is what creates the human body in the first place.
It is the power behind the throne. It is here to support, advise and counsel the human as it grows stronger and better at mastering the functions of the physical body. The human is the masculine side, the right side, the divine is the feminine side, the left side. Men and women have both aspects running through them. The feminine side is soft, tender, supportive and nourishing, but never pushy. It allows the human to have free will and do it "his" way, "her" way. But it never abandons us. We would die if it did. It is ALWAYS there. Deeply personal, ready and waiting for the human to connect with it, to ask it questions and to then listen to it. It is an ever sacred, ever private, persoal guide.
When the human practicality and the divine work in harmony together, a happier, more peaceful life is experienced. This is true for every man, woman and child. It would be good to pass this information along to the next generation. Both sides of us have always been there, as long as we are in physical embodiment. I have grown wiser through trial, error and mistakes, but the divine has always been there in the pattern of the right, the true and honorable way to go - a higher guide to my human side. But I have to ask and I have to listen in time-out mode. We must ask and then take time to sit quietly and pay attention. If only I had known earlier in life! It is consciousness that does the work of growing up and balancing, not mind alone. Getting to know the difference takes practice, sitting in silence and observing the difference. Mental thinking is a thrusting, pushy effort, whereas silence is like listening to the void. Thought is a forced movement that is started like one starts the engine of a car and starts driving it off in a direction. But consciousness does not start nor does it move. It observes. It is a silent wise counselor. It doesn't move at all. It just is. It is the intelligence of the one infinite creator. Vast and infinite and we humans have it running through us. We are one with the infinite, even while we are unique and one of a kind. There is no duplicate because we have had many lives to create our personality and our uniqueness. We can be picked out by Those Who Know among the gray masses of the many.
Silent awareness is how we connect to our divine feminine side. Men, you have a divine feminine side. Women, you have a divine masculine side. Don't be fooled. You are androgynous. I am more impressed today with yoga disciplines than I was in my earlier life. I did not know back then. Today I would advise everyone to take up one of the disciplines that appeals to you and to which you are drawn by magnetic attraction. A sign of knowing when you've hit on a truth is when goosebumps run up and down your body, giving you chills. It is a "clicking" in of the human with the divine in you. It is as if you were slightly off kilter and suddenly now you hit the right key note on the keyboard. The download begins then from the divine side, and the upload begins from the human side and the link-up takes place. Trust it. Revelations may or may not occur immediately, but they will appear in days to come. This inner connection between the divine and human is symbolized in the beautiful picture of the androgynous statue shown above.
4/28/23 Updating...
Well, the vastness energies are swirling like crazy, widening me and updating my brain. I am being expanded from the old me to a newer model and it's dizzying. My abilities to handle the lighter, more expanded energies are working overtime. I am adapting very slowly, but adapting I am. It is extremely difficult to think straight but determination to see it through to the end is the only way to deal with it. Determined to stay standing and talk normally and don't give in to what other people say. I am my own authority. I know what I'm doing. The downloads of new revelations continue create new brain cells as long as I stay determined and keep my mind open. I am OK even though my brain swirls and bumps against the walls of my skull. I have received instructions and am allowing it. The goal is to bring the "far out" in closer,, narrower, more focused, more real, with boundaries. Every morning I wake up with new information talking to me and my brain is accepting unbelievable information. As I journal each day my own revealings, I don't have time to read and post beautiful, awesome articles by other people, though I scan through them and am educated by them. We are all working this spiritual widening process together, each in our own way.
On the physical level, today Doug switched us over from one internet provider who is an older one, to another, newer, younger company who can provide faster service. The technicians were here installing and explaining to Doug as I listened, and my mind exploded into their space and reeled dizzily with unfamiliar energies. But I continued to listen like a normal person.
Wednesday Doug created a zoom meeting with my family to celebrate my 85th birthday. I haven't been in contact with them much over the years, but it was fabulous and awesome because, while talking with them on a mundane level I was also connecting with them in the starry planes of their higher selves. I saw their energies and merged with them, becoming one with them in their vastness. There is no way to say it better than that. I was able to participate with each of my family on both the ground level and in the vastness of their higher intelligence. Afterward, while sleeping, I saw even more and further, and I woke up the next morning with more connection. The connection is solid and real with them. Even after all these years.
I cannot begin to say here in words the experience but I'm trying. I want to share what I know. The result of all this unfolding contact with higher dimensional space is overwhelming, would be overwhelming if I didn't know that it's a normal process of consciousness evolution. And that it IS natural and we ARE protected by an infinitely compassionate God who is pulling the strings and has a Plan. Do not fear it. I am being told that I'm simply widening my abilities to handle it. Nerve synapses are expanding and upgrading the limitations I have been carrying. A dizzy, empty mind is a temporary inconvenience. Accommodate it with faith. The higher dimensional insights are worth it. It is my job, my duty, my mission to write my story to encourage others that it is OK, that it is normal and natural, and to go with the circumstances. They will pass and you will be better for it. I want to help. I wish I could help those who may be going through a difficult time right now. It could be any number of things that cause confusion, pain or upheavals. Please know, if you are reading this, that you are not alone. We are all part of the process of an immaculate evolution for the Earth. There is far, far, far, far more than we understand that is behind this evolution to higher planes. We are going to be the winners if we can get through it without crumbling. It WILL pass. Be strong and be determined. It changes quickly if you let it. No matter what the world is going through outside your front door, if you stay standing and stay centered in your own body and spinal column, and agree to let every one else take care of their own problems, it will pass on by you. Keep your connection to the ground you stand on. Go outside and sit or lie down on the grass for half an hour. Mother Earth will nourish you and take away your confusion.
There is a tube of etheric light that runs up and down around your spinal column. Breathe up and down it, from Sun to Earth. It comes in from above your head and down into your brain and your brain squeezes it to fit. Let it squeeze. Pretend you are normal and it's OK. It will pass. Give it a little time. Lie down and rest while picturing this tube of light going down your spinal cord into the earth beneath you (even when you're lying down). It is the main trunk of your REAL self. You are flowing into your body through your spine and going down to connect with the Earth who is your Mother life force. Your brain is flowering as you hold this picture in your mind. The top of your tree of life is a flowering of new leaves and branches growing. And the dove of peace and love is sitting in those top-most branches giving you comfort.
Repeat the OM or Aum. The symbol is pictured at the top of this page. The Om is a long drawn-out sound "ooooommmmm", which is comforting to the body. It is like a mother's lullaby. It is the universal music of the spheres. Picture the symbol of the OM, memorize it. Hold it in your mind's eye as you silently or slightly louder chant the Om. This will help to stabilize your physical body, all the parts will feel nourished and soothed. Lie down and do this as often as you feel the need to. But then get up and move, again, because moving stretches your muscles and your brain cells so that your true and authentic spiritual, mental, emotional self can flow through into your body and enlarge the parts that need enlarging. This is an alignment process. Align your various levels so they are in harmony. Do this often. Do it before sleep or in the night when you can't sleep. And if you need some encouraging words, contact me via the contact page and I'll write you back. Bless you. Peace and love. You are not alone.
4/25/23 - You are a sphere of light!
I woke up this morning hearing words in my mind: “You are not a body but a sphere of light, of consciousness." As the words continued I took the note pad and began writing.
You had time during embryo stage to become accustomed to it. You helped it, or saw it being built cell by cell, atom by atom, so you are aware of how your body looks and operates. You know its purpose intimately, and after your body – not YOU but your body - was born you had time in the new world of people and objects to learn how to use your new body. You learned how to move the legs, the arms, the head, stomach, the mouth to eat, to make noise, to respond to the feel of arms holding you. And slowly you identified with your body and became familiar with it. You did it before with other bodies, many other lifetimes in the past, but you have forgotten that now, in your dedicated focus on this one body.
So you are not your body. You are the conscious sphere of light and intelligence that moves your body and enjoys its sensations. There are seven layers of specific gifts that you have built into your sphere of light. If your culture doesn’t teach you about these qualities – love is one of them – then they remain in the background of your life as a feature that you long for. You dream of love. Truth is another natural quality in you but often the culture doesn’t value truth or high-light it, so it too reains in the background.
As I said, there are seven gifts that you are embedded with, that are given to you to use and to learn how to activate during your life in form. You are here to learn how. There are only seven. These ae called the seven bodies and the seven chakras. There are many other names that have been given for them, for there are many shades, colors and approaches you may use. Names are important to learn, but how you apply these gifts and qualities in your daily life is what matters the most. Your creative ability is put to the test. Do you apply them to your life and actions? You are here in a body of form to learn how to USE these qualities every day, for they are YOU. This is the hard part. You have to figure it out because these gifts are who you are. They are built into you. They ARE you. You ARE the gifts. You came here to gift them to the world of form. There are forces against you to stop you from manifesting these gifts, so you get frustrated. But you have intelligence and stubbornness and patience and love and purity and truth and kindness and determination and wisdom from past life experiences. You have skills that you have acquired over many lives in form.
You have logical, mathematical, scientific methods that you have proven to yourself that work for you. Your innate sense of right and wrong is your own personal nature, there for you to use as needed. You have already experienced the form life. You know how it works. You experience peace as it contrasts against pain, and comfort vs. discomfort. You have learned. You know this instinctively. As you continue to organize and apply your seven virtues and qualities - the gifts given you by the creator - so they are functioning well together, aligned together and harmonized together, then you will feel more and more free, happy and in the right place to fulfill yourself. You are becoming more free to live your life the way you want to live it, happily and with creativity, comfort, pleasure and love. You have it all. You have all that you need to live in form, on earth, in harmony and in peace with others. You are not missing anything or feeling lack anywhere. You are fulfilling your desire to be here. Your will to live is strong. You are using your intelligence to figure out the best way to accomplish what you want to accomplish. You are using love, kindness and patience to work well with others. You are using your purity, your truth, your sense of peace and comfort to tell you when you are on the right path.
As you apply, manifest and express all of yourself, your gifts and qualities freely, to reach that point of perfection while in body, then you are home free. The seventh gift is freedom in form. The seven chakras have been broken. They were the closed gates until you mastered them, one by one, and opened them from your inside knowledge. Not by what other people told you, but by applying yourself, your own innate knowings to situations. Always the freedom to express your OWN truth, not someone else's truth, is the right way to go to order to correct the disfigurement that had to play out in your life. It had to draw your attention to it. You had to find the right approach to take and it was within you all the time. Distraction caused by outsiders caused you to forget yourself. This distraction had to be mastered before you could turn within and listen to your own guidance. You had to reach that point of listening to your heart, your heart's intelligence, your feeling channels of comfort and peace and knowledge. Then circumstances changes. Then you are done with it. And life becomes ,more beautiful.
Learning to live whole and free in form life, especially on planet Earth, has been a hard school. But you have learned. You had tricks up your sleeve. You were not sent here without guides. You are your father’s child. You have his qualities in you. These qualities ring like a crystal clear bell striking another inside you in purity. You know when you have the right solution. Your mother is with you all the way through the form life. She is the mother of form life. She is your innate intelligence, holding your body together. Pain tells you one thing, peace and kindness tells you another. You have learned to be discerning. And to listen. To follow the rightness, and turn away from the wrongness. Struggle tells which way to go. Your mother is there to tell you, for she lives in your feelings and your innate body intelligence.
Kirlian photography has captured proof of the real you in the form of pictures of glowing radiation around you. You are not your body. You are the radiation that moves through your body with intelligence. You are the space holding your body together, which requires atoms and electrons to cling together to form cells and molecules and larger organs, bones and muscles that gives shape and function to your body. You are the intelligence holding these cells together. And when you sleep at night, you travel to other realities and meet and enjoy interacting with others, learning and teaching as you go, as appropriate. Life is harmonious. Life flows together as needs are expressed and answered.
The more refined you become in your ability to express your seven gifts, manifest your seven gifts into your outer life, the better your life adjusts to harmony and happiness. Harmony is the natural order of life. You no longer need to seek answers because solutions just appear naturally. You are becoming balanced, just as the planets are balanced in their orbits around the suns. As your own life improves you may notice that you are less able to feel good around certain people. They do not belong to your natural resonance - your home energies. Then it is that your inner gifts may begin to be seen by others who have not yet mastered their own inner qualities. You then become a light to the world around you. By sharing your truth openly and freely, daringly and courageously, frankly and truthfully, then the more you will notice vitality creeping into your day-to-day life. The vitality of youth and vigor. Life becomes more powerful when things are harmonized. When thoughts and emotions harmonize and don't conflict. Then the urge and excitement to serve the world around you increases. You find solutions more quickly. You find people responding to you more readily. You do not want to lie down and rest so much because there is a quickening of interest. Life is moving more swiftly through your body as you enter the higher regions of thought, feeling and mind.
4/23/23 - Born of the Earth, heading for the Stars
I am born of the Earth, the Earth gave me form. The substance of old matter built my form. This old matter was discarded by others when they died and it went back into the earth. The Earth recycles matter that was once used by others. The Earth provides a home for self-aware beings to start out as basic form. The first basic form is mineral, sand and rock. It is a dull consciousness at first. It then grows in self awareness to learn movement, like the one-celled amoeba, then two-celled and more. Then self-consciousness grows into larger substances like grass and then into fruit and then into trees. Then self-consciousness grows into crawling things on the ground, then into animals with four legs, then into higher animal forms, each round of evolultion for this SELF awareness taking on more and more alertness.
Then self consciousness grows upright to stand on two legs, and all the while earth is home, born of the earth. We are that self-aware human who is now standing up, walking, talking and growing more civilized. We are looking up beyond earth, wondering what's out there, building telescopes, learning more about space and other planets, other galactic civilizations, wondering about inhabitants, about the sun, the galaxy and more. The mother flame kundalini has started expanding in us. Geniuses have come forward. Children are showing signs of knowing more than the parents. New brain cells are growing beyond earth’s former limits. The upright spine has opened in some, not in others, and the mother flame is giving birth to the pouch of life called the christ or crystal at the tailbone. The tail bone flame is heating up and burning through the veils, obstructions called chakras, and the heat is radiating a vaster intelligence as it flows up the spine. That which was called "the christ" in religious terms has been activated by certain movements, disciplines taught by teachers coming suddenly forward.
The physiology, muscles, nerves and tissues, are activated. Movement is felt throughout the body, organs. There is mystery, there is confusion, there is pain, disease, problems. We must struggle through it. The evolution from earth human to divine human is underway. It is SELF consciousness. No one can do it for us. We are the intelligence inside the shell. We are breaking free of the shell. Hysteria and fear walk hand in hand with awesome elation and excitement. The human is reaching beyond the earth. He can't help it. It is in his nature. He is intelligence walking the earth. There is a greater intelligence beyond him and he is reaching for it, drawn like a moth to a flame. Like a female to a male. The spine is an open channel from earth to sky. Out of the sides grow smaller nerves to feed the vital organs with awareness. The body is waking up. We have drunk the elixer of life and we don't know what to do with it. What do we do with the old ways? When it reaches the brain it creates headaches and dizziness and it pounds - knock, knock, knock - against the skull, building pressure. Trying to get free, to find the father. It is self-aware now. The brain is activated to more intelligence, to the need for more control over the mind. The craziness, the dizziness, the hypocondriac CAN BE controlled. My mind is clearing now. New insight is coming.
The pure crystal light pattern has been with me forever, but today for the first time I am accepting it. I am realizing it. I received instruction in the night. I asked about it as I went to sleep - I asked Yeshua how did HE find it and how and could he give me some instruction. And I got it in the night, both in printed form, words after words after words printed, and also in spoken words. I am shown the seven layers of attributes, the gifts that we parrot the words of but don't apply. These need to be applied regularly, hourly, outwardly in daily life. I saw the multi-colored spheres around me in the oval shape of the auric field and I was shown the words - will power, intelligence, love, purity, truth, mind and freedom. These are to be applied in real life silently, under conscious control and managed to perfection.
The pure crystal light is unfolding in me. I already know it as a pattern for the human. It was shown to me as a tree of life, as a web of pure gold light. And it was also shown to me how a darker web of limited sight has created an artificial web over it. A darker web has grown over in front of it, around it and is feeding off it like a parasite. We are the ego, gaining in understanding as we live through circumstances and pressures. The pure gold light is still there or we wouldn't be alive. It takes care of our bodily systems and needs to breathe, eat and eliminate. The pure gold light is the same pattern in everyone. It is what we as individuals that builds character over on top of it. Infuses our unique ways into the pure gold of our life force. The pure gold is the template we all live off of without exception, but it is we who must perfect our life through conscious managing of the details. As we become more in touch with our own internal nature we follow the pure gold pattern within. We nbecome more knowledgeable, more patient, more peaceful, more gracious, more refined. We are a combination of divine and human.
The crystal pure light is the same in everyone. It is the individual who gives it character and builds into it the unique experiences which we entertain through our life on earth. We "color" our divine pure gold light with our personality. It is not wrong. It is meant to be. We are meant to become living individual masters of our lives. We have much to offer from our accumulated skills. There is no other like me or you. We alone are the creator of our perfection.
We are becoming an individual that is unique in the whole living sea of the One. You are connected to the One life through the gold and crystal pattern within. It looks like a web of gold. It is the link to the One intelligence - the only ONE intelligence in existence - out of which all life springs. This link lies within the human frame, within the human cells, the atoms and, yes, even the space between the swirling electrons of the atoms. The space is the consciousness. God consciousness means the Good consciousness. The right consciousness. The Father-Mother consciousness. Father is the abstract intelligence, and Mother is the form-building consciousness. She holds the atoms and molecules together like glue to form the solid structure of the human body, cells and tissues.
She is known as Mother Shakti, or Mother Kundalini. She resides in the ethers around the coccyx (tailbone) at the base of the spine. She feeds intelligence and life up the spine to keep the body alive. She will enlarge the dose of life if the individual will turn inward and ask for it. She is intelligent and will listen and respond. She is the divine feminine. She receives abstract intelligence from the One and gives form and life to the individual from birth through until death of the form. She will provide not only life but intelligent answers and instructions if the being will listen and follow through. If the individual will not listen or pay attention, then the flow remains the same. But if the individual will become silent and carry on a conversation with the Mother Shakti who is intelligent, she will increase the dose of life. It is the same type of relationship as a good child listening and talking with a good responsive mother.
4/19/23 - Why do we go to the heart?
Imagine being in a black room. You can’t see anything. You reach out to feel your way around. You can feel walls and objects but they are foreign to you. You continue fumbling for a long time. It is very confusing and unfamiliar. You feel scared. Finally, after some length of time and fumbling, your hands run across a button, you push it and suddenly there is light! It is a light switch! You find that you are in a beautiful room with windows that you did not see before. You see friends, familiar friends, waiting for you outside, and more friends behind them, and even more friends, as if there is a gathering of family. And you see a door which you did not see before. It is open. It was never locked to you. You just didn’t know it was there. The feelings of loss, confusion and panic that covered you and smothered you are now gone. You feel free and happy because - all because you can see. And because you can see your friends happily waiting for you, happy that you found the right switch. The secret switch in human beings is the heart.
These revelations are sent to me, I just realized, in one fell-swoop blast. I get the information all at once, in words, but not in words. It is as if I receive the information from all over everywhere at once. Like when the light turns on in a completely black room. It doesn’t require "time" to receive this information, as in one word after another after another, which we need in 3D. It takes "time" to read words, to use our senses or listen to someone speak, but when we go into the heart and look up, with patience we can turn on the light. I just realized that this morning.
4/13/23 - The holy spirit as a radiating sun in the body
In the last few days I have been led to find answers, click-click-click, that I've been searching for since 1976. It was in 1976 that I went into the light during a meditation in an OBE - out-of-body experience. When I returned to normalcy (although a new normal) I had questions. What just happened? Today I'm filled with excitement because, again, click-click-click, things are linking up like wild fire. Yesterday I found something in my journals and want to share it (Click HERE). This was a channeling from the Master DK. I had forgotten about it and revisiting it was mind-blowing. I see with new eyes. I'm linking in better to it. Each of us is on our own unique one-of-a-kind spiritual journey to higher understanding. We are evolving our understanding. It's a new age and the new age is dawning fast. It is an age of sharing, revealing and telling each other what is going on in our lives. Hearing other people's stories helps us. They remind us that we are all connected. They fill in gaps in our understanding. We are linking up. Even though we are each different and our paths take different routes up the mountain (and through rocky places) still, we are on the same journey to the same destination. We are part of one vast elegant superior mind that holds the suns, planets and people in orbit around the sun - plus we are human too. We are meant to know this about ourselves. There is a sun within us trying to shine.
The process of kundalini awakening is the process of the sun trying to shine outward into manifestation from inside us. The holy spirit is awakening in the human body, and it is causing a lot of havoc and confusion. We don't understand what is happening. It has ALWAYS been here. It has ALWAYS been operating. We just weren't evolved enough to see it, as a race of humans evolving. We didn't realize that puberty and the sexual arousal had anything to do with the holy spirit trying to shine. We didn't know the word "kundalini". But today we are learning about it. There is research going on behind the scenes which we don't know about. There are lights in the sky, aurora borealis and star ships and other unknowns - radiations from beyond us. There is a cosmic story unfolding and we're starting to become aware of it. Suddenly it is breaking free of the closet in which it has been hiding. Suddenly there are headlines. And there are people talking about it. There are books being written. Youtubes being aired. Scholars writing about it.
And here's the thing: Behind every young person's puberty, around age 10, 12 or so, the kundalini stirs. It is also known as the holy spirit. It stirs and sends radiations up the spine to adjust and prepare the body - making it tender for love - because what is to come is loving beyond measure. It is time for the body to quicken for love. The fruit has ripened. This body has grown and is ready to bring forth the first glimmerings of the holy life that is held within. That gave it life to begin with. Can you remember back to that day of puberty? When the feelings started? There was a warmth, a loving goodness that needed to be expressed, shared, allowed to grow. Perhaps there was abuse or something worse. But we, humanity, did not know. There was ignorance. It was insinuated that it was bad, evil, and to stifle it, put it back down, ignore it. We became divided then.
Meanwhile the sages of the East were developing their enlightenment techniques, following ancient texts. Today they have spread those techniques around the world and have drawn millions into practicing yoga, meditation and inner spiritual studies. The planet is moving slowly but surely out of the dark ages. We as a race are evolving consciously from animal man to God man, turning animal grunts to refined noises of song, love and reverence. The awakening of kundalini brings betterment, sophistication, intelligence, beauty and truth. There is a higher power now moving through our lives. It is active, for good or for bad because there are misalignments and misconceptions that need clearing. Detox is a purging. Shortly after my dramatic awakening of kundalini in 1976 and my journey into the light, I was led in a higher way. I felt it. I found the Gopi Krishna interview tapes which preceded his books. Gopi Krishna had a similar awakening experience prior to me, but it was a bad one. He had a terrible time adjusting to the pure God-like energy. He had not prepared for it. I had been better prepared without realizing.
Gopi Krishna was so haunted by his years-long trauma with kundalini, that he began a study of the ancient texts and pushed for scientific research. In the 1970's John White published a book of many sources, writings of many teachers, gurus and scholars on the subject of kundalini awakening. He was not the author but the editor. Gopi Krishna comes out on top, remaining the scholarly leader of the pack by bringing the mysterious subject into modern terms. It is natural, he says. We must understand how it functions biologically. It is this other-worldly radiation that begins quickening in every child around the age of 10 or 11 at puberty. It is the breaking free of the light within, the love within. The consciousness of the child is getting ready to expand and reach the brain. It first awakens the body, then the brain and delivers new insight and information about who he/she is, and what he is capable of, his destined place among the stars, enlightened. But he is told to bury it. Hide it. It is sex and it is sinful.
Yet the sun still shines within. The mystery is still unexplored and unexplained. Our bodies are still in confusion, our minds unsure which way to go. All the while there is a sun shining and breaking up the false ideas that have led us wrong, down negative paths into bad ways that hurt us. The sun that is shining is trying to reach out and connect with others, to share the stories so we can bring love, joy and freedom back to the planet. The plan is to become a radiating planet of happiness, peace among all the people, with intelligent, benevolent leaders. The shining comes and goes and comes back again. We haven't been paying attention. We haven't gotten the message yet - that we are a people of light, not darkness. It is the plan that we evolve OURSELVES. We don't have a savior. We are the one who saves our bodies from wrack and ruin, by operating together, peacefully, harmoniously, sharing as a team.
And the wonderful, beautiful human bodies of my friends and peers whom I have held and loved and stroked all through my adult life, were the ones that kept me grounded, sane, happy and moving forward with my own plan. So I am here today to talk about the kundalini and tell my story. Many stories. Others had to go through horror stories because they didn't have the insight that I had been given - to follow my instincts, my heart, my feelings of goodness that arose naturally from within. Follow your GOOD feelings. The feelings of rightness. It is the love within the human body that is trying to be born. Not to save others, but to save ourself. We are the first one to save, our own body. Be selfish about loving your own body. Make sure you are the first one to take care of. Then you can reach out and care for others. Be kind. Be aware. Love is the guiding light. Love is what we must follow in everything we touch, hold and do. Love is not what we used to think. Love is not personal. It can't be closed down and locked inside a narrow box. It can't be fixed like that. The love in us has to expand to others or it becomes warped. Love has to be opened up INSIDE the marriage or the marriage will fail. Truth, freedom, balance of power, openness, respect for individuality, of kindness, sharing experiences, sensitivity, and all the rest of the good qualities also need to be present inside the relationship or it won't work.
Love is much bigger than the words "I love you." Love is kind and highly aware of right and wrong. It keeps the peace and the precision of things moving orderly through life. There is a balance to all things. It keeps the universe running smoothly and our personal lives as human beings can also be run smoothly. Tuning into the sun within - the love within - is the answer to whatever might be hindering or blocking us from moving on. It is the bigger part of our humanness. Its the OLD thoughts and restrictions that cause the problems. Sharing stories openly can help. That's why I'm posting articles about kundalini here. One of the more beautiful ones, was channeled by Master DK and can be read HERE, in my new "Kundalini Blog".
4/11/23 - Your tailbone holds the key to your identity
On the physical level, today Doug switched us over from one internet provider who is an older one, to another, newer, younger company who can provide faster service. The technicians were here installing and explaining to Doug as I listened, and my mind exploded into their space and reeled dizzily with unfamiliar energies. But I continued to listen like a normal person.
Wednesday Doug created a zoom meeting with my family to celebrate my 85th birthday. I haven't been in contact with them much over the years, but it was fabulous and awesome because, while talking with them on a mundane level I was also connecting with them in the starry planes of their higher selves. I saw their energies and merged with them, becoming one with them in their vastness. There is no way to say it better than that. I was able to participate with each of my family on both the ground level and in the vastness of their higher intelligence. Afterward, while sleeping, I saw even more and further, and I woke up the next morning with more connection. The connection is solid and real with them. Even after all these years.
I cannot begin to say here in words the experience but I'm trying. I want to share what I know. The result of all this unfolding contact with higher dimensional space is overwhelming, would be overwhelming if I didn't know that it's a normal process of consciousness evolution. And that it IS natural and we ARE protected by an infinitely compassionate God who is pulling the strings and has a Plan. Do not fear it. I am being told that I'm simply widening my abilities to handle it. Nerve synapses are expanding and upgrading the limitations I have been carrying. A dizzy, empty mind is a temporary inconvenience. Accommodate it with faith. The higher dimensional insights are worth it. It is my job, my duty, my mission to write my story to encourage others that it is OK, that it is normal and natural, and to go with the circumstances. They will pass and you will be better for it. I want to help. I wish I could help those who may be going through a difficult time right now. It could be any number of things that cause confusion, pain or upheavals. Please know, if you are reading this, that you are not alone. We are all part of the process of an immaculate evolution for the Earth. There is far, far, far, far more than we understand that is behind this evolution to higher planes. We are going to be the winners if we can get through it without crumbling. It WILL pass. Be strong and be determined. It changes quickly if you let it. No matter what the world is going through outside your front door, if you stay standing and stay centered in your own body and spinal column, and agree to let every one else take care of their own problems, it will pass on by you. Keep your connection to the ground you stand on. Go outside and sit or lie down on the grass for half an hour. Mother Earth will nourish you and take away your confusion.
There is a tube of etheric light that runs up and down around your spinal column. Breathe up and down it, from Sun to Earth. It comes in from above your head and down into your brain and your brain squeezes it to fit. Let it squeeze. Pretend you are normal and it's OK. It will pass. Give it a little time. Lie down and rest while picturing this tube of light going down your spinal cord into the earth beneath you (even when you're lying down). It is the main trunk of your REAL self. You are flowing into your body through your spine and going down to connect with the Earth who is your Mother life force. Your brain is flowering as you hold this picture in your mind. The top of your tree of life is a flowering of new leaves and branches growing. And the dove of peace and love is sitting in those top-most branches giving you comfort.
Repeat the OM or Aum. The symbol is pictured at the top of this page. The Om is a long drawn-out sound "ooooommmmm", which is comforting to the body. It is like a mother's lullaby. It is the universal music of the spheres. Picture the symbol of the OM, memorize it. Hold it in your mind's eye as you silently or slightly louder chant the Om. This will help to stabilize your physical body, all the parts will feel nourished and soothed. Lie down and do this as often as you feel the need to. But then get up and move, again, because moving stretches your muscles and your brain cells so that your true and authentic spiritual, mental, emotional self can flow through into your body and enlarge the parts that need enlarging. This is an alignment process. Align your various levels so they are in harmony. Do this often. Do it before sleep or in the night when you can't sleep. And if you need some encouraging words, contact me via the contact page and I'll write you back. Bless you. Peace and love. You are not alone.
4/25/23 - You are a sphere of light!
I woke up this morning hearing words in my mind: “You are not a body but a sphere of light, of consciousness." As the words continued I took the note pad and began writing.
You had time during embryo stage to become accustomed to it. You helped it, or saw it being built cell by cell, atom by atom, so you are aware of how your body looks and operates. You know its purpose intimately, and after your body – not YOU but your body - was born you had time in the new world of people and objects to learn how to use your new body. You learned how to move the legs, the arms, the head, stomach, the mouth to eat, to make noise, to respond to the feel of arms holding you. And slowly you identified with your body and became familiar with it. You did it before with other bodies, many other lifetimes in the past, but you have forgotten that now, in your dedicated focus on this one body.
So you are not your body. You are the conscious sphere of light and intelligence that moves your body and enjoys its sensations. There are seven layers of specific gifts that you have built into your sphere of light. If your culture doesn’t teach you about these qualities – love is one of them – then they remain in the background of your life as a feature that you long for. You dream of love. Truth is another natural quality in you but often the culture doesn’t value truth or high-light it, so it too reains in the background.
As I said, there are seven gifts that you are embedded with, that are given to you to use and to learn how to activate during your life in form. You are here to learn how. There are only seven. These ae called the seven bodies and the seven chakras. There are many other names that have been given for them, for there are many shades, colors and approaches you may use. Names are important to learn, but how you apply these gifts and qualities in your daily life is what matters the most. Your creative ability is put to the test. Do you apply them to your life and actions? You are here in a body of form to learn how to USE these qualities every day, for they are YOU. This is the hard part. You have to figure it out because these gifts are who you are. They are built into you. They ARE you. You ARE the gifts. You came here to gift them to the world of form. There are forces against you to stop you from manifesting these gifts, so you get frustrated. But you have intelligence and stubbornness and patience and love and purity and truth and kindness and determination and wisdom from past life experiences. You have skills that you have acquired over many lives in form.
You have logical, mathematical, scientific methods that you have proven to yourself that work for you. Your innate sense of right and wrong is your own personal nature, there for you to use as needed. You have already experienced the form life. You know how it works. You experience peace as it contrasts against pain, and comfort vs. discomfort. You have learned. You know this instinctively. As you continue to organize and apply your seven virtues and qualities - the gifts given you by the creator - so they are functioning well together, aligned together and harmonized together, then you will feel more and more free, happy and in the right place to fulfill yourself. You are becoming more free to live your life the way you want to live it, happily and with creativity, comfort, pleasure and love. You have it all. You have all that you need to live in form, on earth, in harmony and in peace with others. You are not missing anything or feeling lack anywhere. You are fulfilling your desire to be here. Your will to live is strong. You are using your intelligence to figure out the best way to accomplish what you want to accomplish. You are using love, kindness and patience to work well with others. You are using your purity, your truth, your sense of peace and comfort to tell you when you are on the right path.
As you apply, manifest and express all of yourself, your gifts and qualities freely, to reach that point of perfection while in body, then you are home free. The seventh gift is freedom in form. The seven chakras have been broken. They were the closed gates until you mastered them, one by one, and opened them from your inside knowledge. Not by what other people told you, but by applying yourself, your own innate knowings to situations. Always the freedom to express your OWN truth, not someone else's truth, is the right way to go to order to correct the disfigurement that had to play out in your life. It had to draw your attention to it. You had to find the right approach to take and it was within you all the time. Distraction caused by outsiders caused you to forget yourself. This distraction had to be mastered before you could turn within and listen to your own guidance. You had to reach that point of listening to your heart, your heart's intelligence, your feeling channels of comfort and peace and knowledge. Then circumstances changes. Then you are done with it. And life becomes ,more beautiful.
Learning to live whole and free in form life, especially on planet Earth, has been a hard school. But you have learned. You had tricks up your sleeve. You were not sent here without guides. You are your father’s child. You have his qualities in you. These qualities ring like a crystal clear bell striking another inside you in purity. You know when you have the right solution. Your mother is with you all the way through the form life. She is the mother of form life. She is your innate intelligence, holding your body together. Pain tells you one thing, peace and kindness tells you another. You have learned to be discerning. And to listen. To follow the rightness, and turn away from the wrongness. Struggle tells which way to go. Your mother is there to tell you, for she lives in your feelings and your innate body intelligence.
Kirlian photography has captured proof of the real you in the form of pictures of glowing radiation around you. You are not your body. You are the radiation that moves through your body with intelligence. You are the space holding your body together, which requires atoms and electrons to cling together to form cells and molecules and larger organs, bones and muscles that gives shape and function to your body. You are the intelligence holding these cells together. And when you sleep at night, you travel to other realities and meet and enjoy interacting with others, learning and teaching as you go, as appropriate. Life is harmonious. Life flows together as needs are expressed and answered.
The more refined you become in your ability to express your seven gifts, manifest your seven gifts into your outer life, the better your life adjusts to harmony and happiness. Harmony is the natural order of life. You no longer need to seek answers because solutions just appear naturally. You are becoming balanced, just as the planets are balanced in their orbits around the suns. As your own life improves you may notice that you are less able to feel good around certain people. They do not belong to your natural resonance - your home energies. Then it is that your inner gifts may begin to be seen by others who have not yet mastered their own inner qualities. You then become a light to the world around you. By sharing your truth openly and freely, daringly and courageously, frankly and truthfully, then the more you will notice vitality creeping into your day-to-day life. The vitality of youth and vigor. Life becomes more powerful when things are harmonized. When thoughts and emotions harmonize and don't conflict. Then the urge and excitement to serve the world around you increases. You find solutions more quickly. You find people responding to you more readily. You do not want to lie down and rest so much because there is a quickening of interest. Life is moving more swiftly through your body as you enter the higher regions of thought, feeling and mind.
4/23/23 - Born of the Earth, heading for the Stars
I am born of the Earth, the Earth gave me form. The substance of old matter built my form. This old matter was discarded by others when they died and it went back into the earth. The Earth recycles matter that was once used by others. The Earth provides a home for self-aware beings to start out as basic form. The first basic form is mineral, sand and rock. It is a dull consciousness at first. It then grows in self awareness to learn movement, like the one-celled amoeba, then two-celled and more. Then self-consciousness grows into larger substances like grass and then into fruit and then into trees. Then self-consciousness grows into crawling things on the ground, then into animals with four legs, then into higher animal forms, each round of evolultion for this SELF awareness taking on more and more alertness.
Then self consciousness grows upright to stand on two legs, and all the while earth is home, born of the earth. We are that self-aware human who is now standing up, walking, talking and growing more civilized. We are looking up beyond earth, wondering what's out there, building telescopes, learning more about space and other planets, other galactic civilizations, wondering about inhabitants, about the sun, the galaxy and more. The mother flame kundalini has started expanding in us. Geniuses have come forward. Children are showing signs of knowing more than the parents. New brain cells are growing beyond earth’s former limits. The upright spine has opened in some, not in others, and the mother flame is giving birth to the pouch of life called the christ or crystal at the tailbone. The tail bone flame is heating up and burning through the veils, obstructions called chakras, and the heat is radiating a vaster intelligence as it flows up the spine. That which was called "the christ" in religious terms has been activated by certain movements, disciplines taught by teachers coming suddenly forward.
The physiology, muscles, nerves and tissues, are activated. Movement is felt throughout the body, organs. There is mystery, there is confusion, there is pain, disease, problems. We must struggle through it. The evolution from earth human to divine human is underway. It is SELF consciousness. No one can do it for us. We are the intelligence inside the shell. We are breaking free of the shell. Hysteria and fear walk hand in hand with awesome elation and excitement. The human is reaching beyond the earth. He can't help it. It is in his nature. He is intelligence walking the earth. There is a greater intelligence beyond him and he is reaching for it, drawn like a moth to a flame. Like a female to a male. The spine is an open channel from earth to sky. Out of the sides grow smaller nerves to feed the vital organs with awareness. The body is waking up. We have drunk the elixer of life and we don't know what to do with it. What do we do with the old ways? When it reaches the brain it creates headaches and dizziness and it pounds - knock, knock, knock - against the skull, building pressure. Trying to get free, to find the father. It is self-aware now. The brain is activated to more intelligence, to the need for more control over the mind. The craziness, the dizziness, the hypocondriac CAN BE controlled. My mind is clearing now. New insight is coming.
The pure crystal light pattern has been with me forever, but today for the first time I am accepting it. I am realizing it. I received instruction in the night. I asked about it as I went to sleep - I asked Yeshua how did HE find it and how and could he give me some instruction. And I got it in the night, both in printed form, words after words after words printed, and also in spoken words. I am shown the seven layers of attributes, the gifts that we parrot the words of but don't apply. These need to be applied regularly, hourly, outwardly in daily life. I saw the multi-colored spheres around me in the oval shape of the auric field and I was shown the words - will power, intelligence, love, purity, truth, mind and freedom. These are to be applied in real life silently, under conscious control and managed to perfection.
The pure crystal light is unfolding in me. I already know it as a pattern for the human. It was shown to me as a tree of life, as a web of pure gold light. And it was also shown to me how a darker web of limited sight has created an artificial web over it. A darker web has grown over in front of it, around it and is feeding off it like a parasite. We are the ego, gaining in understanding as we live through circumstances and pressures. The pure gold light is still there or we wouldn't be alive. It takes care of our bodily systems and needs to breathe, eat and eliminate. The pure gold light is the same pattern in everyone. It is what we as individuals that builds character over on top of it. Infuses our unique ways into the pure gold of our life force. The pure gold is the template we all live off of without exception, but it is we who must perfect our life through conscious managing of the details. As we become more in touch with our own internal nature we follow the pure gold pattern within. We nbecome more knowledgeable, more patient, more peaceful, more gracious, more refined. We are a combination of divine and human.
The crystal pure light is the same in everyone. It is the individual who gives it character and builds into it the unique experiences which we entertain through our life on earth. We "color" our divine pure gold light with our personality. It is not wrong. It is meant to be. We are meant to become living individual masters of our lives. We have much to offer from our accumulated skills. There is no other like me or you. We alone are the creator of our perfection.
We are becoming an individual that is unique in the whole living sea of the One. You are connected to the One life through the gold and crystal pattern within. It looks like a web of gold. It is the link to the One intelligence - the only ONE intelligence in existence - out of which all life springs. This link lies within the human frame, within the human cells, the atoms and, yes, even the space between the swirling electrons of the atoms. The space is the consciousness. God consciousness means the Good consciousness. The right consciousness. The Father-Mother consciousness. Father is the abstract intelligence, and Mother is the form-building consciousness. She holds the atoms and molecules together like glue to form the solid structure of the human body, cells and tissues.
She is known as Mother Shakti, or Mother Kundalini. She resides in the ethers around the coccyx (tailbone) at the base of the spine. She feeds intelligence and life up the spine to keep the body alive. She will enlarge the dose of life if the individual will turn inward and ask for it. She is intelligent and will listen and respond. She is the divine feminine. She receives abstract intelligence from the One and gives form and life to the individual from birth through until death of the form. She will provide not only life but intelligent answers and instructions if the being will listen and follow through. If the individual will not listen or pay attention, then the flow remains the same. But if the individual will become silent and carry on a conversation with the Mother Shakti who is intelligent, she will increase the dose of life. It is the same type of relationship as a good child listening and talking with a good responsive mother.
4/19/23 - Why do we go to the heart?
Imagine being in a black room. You can’t see anything. You reach out to feel your way around. You can feel walls and objects but they are foreign to you. You continue fumbling for a long time. It is very confusing and unfamiliar. You feel scared. Finally, after some length of time and fumbling, your hands run across a button, you push it and suddenly there is light! It is a light switch! You find that you are in a beautiful room with windows that you did not see before. You see friends, familiar friends, waiting for you outside, and more friends behind them, and even more friends, as if there is a gathering of family. And you see a door which you did not see before. It is open. It was never locked to you. You just didn’t know it was there. The feelings of loss, confusion and panic that covered you and smothered you are now gone. You feel free and happy because - all because you can see. And because you can see your friends happily waiting for you, happy that you found the right switch. The secret switch in human beings is the heart.
These revelations are sent to me, I just realized, in one fell-swoop blast. I get the information all at once, in words, but not in words. It is as if I receive the information from all over everywhere at once. Like when the light turns on in a completely black room. It doesn’t require "time" to receive this information, as in one word after another after another, which we need in 3D. It takes "time" to read words, to use our senses or listen to someone speak, but when we go into the heart and look up, with patience we can turn on the light. I just realized that this morning.
4/13/23 - The holy spirit as a radiating sun in the body
In the last few days I have been led to find answers, click-click-click, that I've been searching for since 1976. It was in 1976 that I went into the light during a meditation in an OBE - out-of-body experience. When I returned to normalcy (although a new normal) I had questions. What just happened? Today I'm filled with excitement because, again, click-click-click, things are linking up like wild fire. Yesterday I found something in my journals and want to share it (Click HERE). This was a channeling from the Master DK. I had forgotten about it and revisiting it was mind-blowing. I see with new eyes. I'm linking in better to it. Each of us is on our own unique one-of-a-kind spiritual journey to higher understanding. We are evolving our understanding. It's a new age and the new age is dawning fast. It is an age of sharing, revealing and telling each other what is going on in our lives. Hearing other people's stories helps us. They remind us that we are all connected. They fill in gaps in our understanding. We are linking up. Even though we are each different and our paths take different routes up the mountain (and through rocky places) still, we are on the same journey to the same destination. We are part of one vast elegant superior mind that holds the suns, planets and people in orbit around the sun - plus we are human too. We are meant to know this about ourselves. There is a sun within us trying to shine.
The process of kundalini awakening is the process of the sun trying to shine outward into manifestation from inside us. The holy spirit is awakening in the human body, and it is causing a lot of havoc and confusion. We don't understand what is happening. It has ALWAYS been here. It has ALWAYS been operating. We just weren't evolved enough to see it, as a race of humans evolving. We didn't realize that puberty and the sexual arousal had anything to do with the holy spirit trying to shine. We didn't know the word "kundalini". But today we are learning about it. There is research going on behind the scenes which we don't know about. There are lights in the sky, aurora borealis and star ships and other unknowns - radiations from beyond us. There is a cosmic story unfolding and we're starting to become aware of it. Suddenly it is breaking free of the closet in which it has been hiding. Suddenly there are headlines. And there are people talking about it. There are books being written. Youtubes being aired. Scholars writing about it.
And here's the thing: Behind every young person's puberty, around age 10, 12 or so, the kundalini stirs. It is also known as the holy spirit. It stirs and sends radiations up the spine to adjust and prepare the body - making it tender for love - because what is to come is loving beyond measure. It is time for the body to quicken for love. The fruit has ripened. This body has grown and is ready to bring forth the first glimmerings of the holy life that is held within. That gave it life to begin with. Can you remember back to that day of puberty? When the feelings started? There was a warmth, a loving goodness that needed to be expressed, shared, allowed to grow. Perhaps there was abuse or something worse. But we, humanity, did not know. There was ignorance. It was insinuated that it was bad, evil, and to stifle it, put it back down, ignore it. We became divided then.
Meanwhile the sages of the East were developing their enlightenment techniques, following ancient texts. Today they have spread those techniques around the world and have drawn millions into practicing yoga, meditation and inner spiritual studies. The planet is moving slowly but surely out of the dark ages. We as a race are evolving consciously from animal man to God man, turning animal grunts to refined noises of song, love and reverence. The awakening of kundalini brings betterment, sophistication, intelligence, beauty and truth. There is a higher power now moving through our lives. It is active, for good or for bad because there are misalignments and misconceptions that need clearing. Detox is a purging. Shortly after my dramatic awakening of kundalini in 1976 and my journey into the light, I was led in a higher way. I felt it. I found the Gopi Krishna interview tapes which preceded his books. Gopi Krishna had a similar awakening experience prior to me, but it was a bad one. He had a terrible time adjusting to the pure God-like energy. He had not prepared for it. I had been better prepared without realizing.
Gopi Krishna was so haunted by his years-long trauma with kundalini, that he began a study of the ancient texts and pushed for scientific research. In the 1970's John White published a book of many sources, writings of many teachers, gurus and scholars on the subject of kundalini awakening. He was not the author but the editor. Gopi Krishna comes out on top, remaining the scholarly leader of the pack by bringing the mysterious subject into modern terms. It is natural, he says. We must understand how it functions biologically. It is this other-worldly radiation that begins quickening in every child around the age of 10 or 11 at puberty. It is the breaking free of the light within, the love within. The consciousness of the child is getting ready to expand and reach the brain. It first awakens the body, then the brain and delivers new insight and information about who he/she is, and what he is capable of, his destined place among the stars, enlightened. But he is told to bury it. Hide it. It is sex and it is sinful.
Yet the sun still shines within. The mystery is still unexplored and unexplained. Our bodies are still in confusion, our minds unsure which way to go. All the while there is a sun shining and breaking up the false ideas that have led us wrong, down negative paths into bad ways that hurt us. The sun that is shining is trying to reach out and connect with others, to share the stories so we can bring love, joy and freedom back to the planet. The plan is to become a radiating planet of happiness, peace among all the people, with intelligent, benevolent leaders. The shining comes and goes and comes back again. We haven't been paying attention. We haven't gotten the message yet - that we are a people of light, not darkness. It is the plan that we evolve OURSELVES. We don't have a savior. We are the one who saves our bodies from wrack and ruin, by operating together, peacefully, harmoniously, sharing as a team.
And the wonderful, beautiful human bodies of my friends and peers whom I have held and loved and stroked all through my adult life, were the ones that kept me grounded, sane, happy and moving forward with my own plan. So I am here today to talk about the kundalini and tell my story. Many stories. Others had to go through horror stories because they didn't have the insight that I had been given - to follow my instincts, my heart, my feelings of goodness that arose naturally from within. Follow your GOOD feelings. The feelings of rightness. It is the love within the human body that is trying to be born. Not to save others, but to save ourself. We are the first one to save, our own body. Be selfish about loving your own body. Make sure you are the first one to take care of. Then you can reach out and care for others. Be kind. Be aware. Love is the guiding light. Love is what we must follow in everything we touch, hold and do. Love is not what we used to think. Love is not personal. It can't be closed down and locked inside a narrow box. It can't be fixed like that. The love in us has to expand to others or it becomes warped. Love has to be opened up INSIDE the marriage or the marriage will fail. Truth, freedom, balance of power, openness, respect for individuality, of kindness, sharing experiences, sensitivity, and all the rest of the good qualities also need to be present inside the relationship or it won't work.
Love is much bigger than the words "I love you." Love is kind and highly aware of right and wrong. It keeps the peace and the precision of things moving orderly through life. There is a balance to all things. It keeps the universe running smoothly and our personal lives as human beings can also be run smoothly. Tuning into the sun within - the love within - is the answer to whatever might be hindering or blocking us from moving on. It is the bigger part of our humanness. Its the OLD thoughts and restrictions that cause the problems. Sharing stories openly can help. That's why I'm posting articles about kundalini here. One of the more beautiful ones, was channeled by Master DK and can be read HERE, in my new "Kundalini Blog".
4/11/23 - Your tailbone holds the key to your identity
The sacrum and coccyx at the bottom of the spinal column in the pelvic region is the geometric center of the human body. This is an ancient occult secret that has never been brought forth in a public platform until recently. Suddenly, over the last six months youtubes by different individuals have appeared, pointing in the direction of this most wondrous secret. The key word is kundalini, also known as the holy spirit. Watch for more articles about kundalini but take care. This is a subject that deserves discretion and inner wisdom. The holy spirit is breaking through the dark web that covers the human soul, so there are obscurities that will arise. Be careful and follow the sweetness of your breath, not the sour notes that hurt and damage. I have been witness to the magnificence and brilliance of what is to come. I will tell more as the days go on. There is a crystal sphere surrounding the coccyx and sacrum ("sacred bone") that is uncontaminated by human life, feelings and thought. It is pure beyond imagination. It is this sphere that holds the keynote of who you are. It is the purity that is seeping forth into the lives of people in strange and mysterious ways. It brings miracles. Trust it and allow it. It brings with it a breath of innocence, love beyond measure, gentleness, calmness and peace that is undiluted by what has gone before. Allow this purity to breathe through you. It is your own cosmic identity coming forth. If it feels good, it IS good! Allow it freedom to breathe through you. Take a moment to feel it. Focus your love in that area of your body, knowing it is the heart of you. The geometric heart of your body.
4/8/23 - Your spinal column holds love
4/8/23 - Your spinal column holds love
The following is a direct quote from the Maha Chohan, delivered through the channel Geraldine Innocente on 3/20/60, and published through the Ascended Master Teaching Foundation (AMTF). It is a wonderful, clear explanation of how important the human spinal column is. The Maha Chohan is the GRAND chohan. Chohan means master, chief, leader, lord or guide. In other words, friend who assists those coming up behind him on the ladder of ascension or consciousness evolution.
"The spinal column is the central pole of the body around which the various organisms and electrons spin. It is like unto the axis of the physical earth held in place by Polaris and Magnus. Within this spinal column is the magnetic core of love that holds the physical vehicle itself in manifest expression. Within the spinal column is the cosmic keynote for each lifestream. The tone and the natural harmony of the vehicle are constantly flowing through the nervous system from the spinal column; and that harmony is the sustaining power of the outer self of each such chela [student].
"When harmony in the physical form is temporarily broken through strain and tension, it may be acquired again if the chela will lie quietly upon his bed with a low headrest (or none) and visualize his spinal column as the "pole." Then, in relaxation, let the light from the spinal column go through the nervous system and the entire physical vehicle carrying the light into every cell and atom of his being. If this can be done for 15 minutes daily, the chela breathing deeply and rhythmically, holding the thought and feel of LIGHT, he can again adjust his physical body and arise refreshed and relaxed."
4/7/23 - Inspiration and ascension
Energies have been swirling very fast the last few weeks, and picking up more and more speed. I tend to think it is planetary because I know we are in the middle of a planetary shift to higher consciousness, but this is personal. I want to share today what I have learned about GROUNDING the light. The light waves that are coming in are sweeping like a little old lady with a big broom, sweeping up the old dusty energies that have settled down into our carpets and furniture, and it’s causing a great deal of dust The dust is swirling and I was experiencing dizziness to the extreme, I couldn’t think.
Then the Master Djwahl Kuhl stepped in. What he told me I should have known but didn’t. He tells me again and this is something very important to remember and to pass on to others. Whenever I have an inspiration that thrills me and lifts my excitement up so much that it fills me with elation and quickness, then I better use it RIGHT AWAY. I must get rid of it or my brain will be filled with vital force and it will scatter and shatter my brain cells. It is no different than when a balloon is filled up with helium. It causes the balloon to fly away. The brain cells lose contact with their normal abode. The light fills in the spaces and moves them apart. There is too much light coming into the body’s cells and tissues.
This is good on one hand, but bad on the other. I have vitality and excitement filling me but my head is not cooperating. And when the brain is not performing its normal function of maintaining control, I am useless. DK says “share the light”. Tell someone, incorporate it into your practical life. Find a way to use the knowledge that is exciting you. It is a passion for life. Use it for life-giving purposes. Something beneficial, benevolent, to help your neighbors, family, friends, community. If nothing else, get up and do some gardening, or a project that needs muscle and labor. Use the light, the vitality, the excitement and passion until you run out of gas. Otherwise you will be like the helium balloon and rise upward, lift off the ground and float away. Your spirit is drawn to its father light on higher consciousness dimensions unless it is used right here on earth.
What I discovered was, when I lay down to rest to let it pass was NOT good. It caused me bad feelings, as if death were waiting to take me. This is a very subtle point that might be overlooked. And it is this. The spirit wants to return to its father. It is a powerful draw to leave the body when the mission is done. It wants to go home. However, if there is more work to be done, the spirit can be drawn back into action and WILL revitalize the body again if it is determined by the individual to do so. It takes will power and desire to overcome the feeling to “lie down and rest”. The light is the light of spirit, and the light of spirit tends to want to go home where it is welcomed by the father-parent. But this CAN be overcome, according to DK. He spent many years teaching these methods to his students. He has been showing me how to do it.
Many people have not had the benefit of the Ascended Masters’ teacings about death and dying. So when death comes knocking and the swooning starts, most people give in to it. But there is another way. It is important that I pass this information on to the world via my writings. It is how I contribute. Ascension symptoms can be alarmingly tempting to give up and give in, but you don’t have to if you know more about the higher consciousoness that is lifting you to higher realms. You CAN take the body up with you. This is the embodiment stage of ascension. Bring the light down into the body by sharing the knowledge that you have. In any way that feels right to you.
If the physical body - the tissues, muscles, organs, lungs, heart - if they cannot keep up with the higher light that is sweeping through the earth in cycles and waves (and it does cycle, it’s cyclical) the body wants to swoon. It is so tempted to lie down and rest. But when I lay down to rest I started feeling the old sick feeling again. I don’t like that feeling. It feels really bad. I used to blame someone else for the sick feeling, but it’s my own flagging, lagging energies that are causing it. They are failing to keep up with the light. There are methods. I have been using ancient Tao methods for a long while. These are helpful. There are many other ways that can be shared. Share the knowledge. That is what I am doinng. A light worker is one who shares the knowledge. Light is refreshing new knowledge. It fills in the gaps of empty unknowns. Bad feelings like “I’m going to die”, the death and dying feeling, also come in cycles. They can be filled in with new knowledge. So I have learned NOT to lie down when I am swooning, but to get up and move. Do something physical.
It is important that you get this. This has never been written about before. I haven’t seen it in any of the ascension articles. So what do I do? DK tells me to get active. Do something to use the light up. Use it. Distribute it. Share it. Tell the people in some way. Figure out a practical way to contribute. You are a lightworker. You are here to contribute light to the world, a lighter way of living IN the world. It is a more loving realm that we are moving into. Find a more beautiful, refined way to do something positive and constructive. Do not fall back down into the old ways of grunt work. Do not let yourself float away either. Find the balance between the two ways. Ground the balanced way into the earth. Give balance to the earth to lighten the earth and the people. If you are an artist, paint! If you are a construction worker, construct. If you are a gardener, weed and plant. If you are a writer, write. I am a writer. I WAS a massage therapist at one time but I had to stop doing that because male energies kept dragging me down into sexual areas, by sheer magnetism, and I didn’t want to go there so I resigned massage therapy.
So now writing is my way of contributing. I write about what I am experiencing and there are many. Too many to get them all into written words. But everyone is different. Everyone must find their own way of becoming a light USER. USE the light, which is information. Use it in a way that benefits the world around you. Radiate the knowledge that is coming through you.
My dizziness and swirling energies have mostly gone away. Not entirely but mostly. The main cause was too much light and I couldn’t use it fast enough. I began recognizing it slowly. Whenever I sit down at the computer and send a newsletter or post an article by DK or a channeling from the Presence, or communicate with someone or swap a massage with someone, I feel more alert, vital and alive, filled with renewed energy. I became more aware as time went on that THIS was the answer to renewing myself. It is vital that we stay active, but only doing that which brings us a feeling of goodness. Not to waste time doing mundane, dull stuff. It just drains our vitality away. Feeling good with yourself is the most crucial part of living. It keeps you sane, clear-headed, not dizzy as I was starting to feel. I couldn’t believe it. I began to notice the difference, whereas when I went through a day doing ordinary mundane things that didn't elevate me in spirit-led fashion, I felt dull, empty, and the sickish feeling would come to remind me, "this is not right". It would hover over me nearby until I found something exciting to do.
The earth is going through an ascension shift. We need to get onboard with it and go WITH the ascending flow, the exciting flow, not hold ourselves against it. Quantum field energies are sweeping the planet bringing us closer to zero energy, balance energy. Most people are not aware of this. I am writing about something from a more advanced understanding. I’m sorry but I must speak of these things. I know them. They must be shared. They are pure light, pure knowledge, pure love, pure order and harmony. It is how the planets stay on course and how the sun rises every day and sets at night. We are rising to join the galactic knowledge but currently it is beyond what most of the population has been prepared for. But we can work with it. We can handle it. We can open our minds and relax inward for 15 minutes and reconnect with the light that is flowing through us. It WILL sustain the body if we do that periodically. .
For the benefit of those reading this, the solution to swirling energies that are causing turmoil, whether light-headedness or depression and moroseness, the solution is not a mental solution, but a practical body solution. Do something active that takes physical energy movement. When I tried to ground my bad feelings with mental techniques, as in meditation, it wasn’t working. Slowly, gradually, I became dissatisfied with meditation. Meditation is rapidly going away for the new-age light worker. It was used to bring us into the modern age, but now it is giving way to practical work – the work of grounding and growing roots into the mainstream community. Help the world change through practical applications. Most important is sharing stories openly. Stop hoarding and being secretive. Open the heart and mind and become sincere, become authentic, become real. Share who you are and what you know. You know things that others don’t know.
The new world system we are moving into is a fairer system, it is more tender, more considerate, more loving, more wholesome, more natural, more organic, more emotional and of a feeling nature, more supportive, more connected to the whole human race without judging those who are different. There is more vitality felt when this approach is taken. It is simplistically alive. It is not a mental method. It is a heart and gut method. We are here to use our hearts and guts. When you want to know more, when the solution evades you and you’re just not getting it and you’re up against a blank wall, it’s because you’re up there in your brain. Old thoughts run through the brain. The brain is not the mind. The mind covers you like a sheath, from head to toe. It is your consciousness.
The solution will not come from the brain, it will come from your consciousness that covers you like a sheath, from head to toe. It’s a physical solution that will give you an answer and dissolve the blank wall that you’ve run into. It is a whole-consciousness solution that is needed. Plant some of YOUR seeds, YOUR knowledge out there in the world, but do it humbly, with humility, with compassion. Figure out how to do that in a way that causes you to feel good about yourself. Find the passion in you. Your passion is the thread that will start your motor running again. You will be amazed. I was. As you share some of who you are, your inner talents, your innate skills, you will feel it. It will feel good. Follow your feelings. Cast your seeds out around you in your own special way. Become a new kind of Johnny Appleseed on a practical level. Don’t let it smoulder up there in the higher mind without some balancing ground work. Build channels into the soil. It can’t help you
“up there”. Or me. Tell ME what you know!
3/26/23 - Stirring the pot of energies that surround you
I had extreme dizziness when I entered the kitchen this morning. After reading an article about divine love and what that really reams, it confirmed what's going on with me. I wasn't sure. I am all alone in my transformation but this article hit home and validated what was happening for me.
See, I have been connecting with the sun for the past years. Connecting with the sun is connecting with light. Light means information. So when I connect with the sun I am downloading cosmic information into my body. However, I live with a man who doesn't know anything about this, so I am alone in handling it my way. If I were to tell him my uncomfortable feelings he would insist I go to the hospital where they would insist on giving me "something" that I don't want to take. I'm working on aligning my seven layers of consciousness. They are not in alignment. Drugs would cause worse misalignment.
So anyway, the article confirmed for me what was happening. I immediately started to REAFFIRM what I was doing and within 5 minutes my dizziness cleared up. It was my belief that was not strong enough. I had doubts. This is inner work. Inner work is sacred. It is totally private. I can't tell anyone what I am doing within myself because then they would express THEIR doubts, and they would influence my confidence in what I am doing on a supremely subjective level. Because we are all ONE. You are connected to me and I am connect to you but I don't want to hear what you are going through, because it is YOUR journey. It is YOUR sacred inner work that you are trying to develop into fuller awareness.
I have started a new mantra of bringing the light down from the sun. It uses visualization. I can share this part because it is generalized. The reader may be at the right place in consciousness to be able to read between the lines and interpret for him/herself, tap into it, pick up on it and carry it further. This is partially channeled information from the sun. There is a cosmic order in the universe and humanity is on a cusp, a threshold of learning something new. So new that it can easily be rejected as fantasy. But it is not a fantasy. It is a step into another dimension. and it is done with conscious awareness. Where you put your focus and STAY with your focus concentrated there for a period of time, even for one minute is a long time to hold focus on a new dimensional level that you've never held focus on before. (Only in flashes.)
Consciousness is our intelligent spirit. It is our individuality. We are each different from our neighbors. We have evolved on our own individual path to where we are today. What we are conscious of, we influence our bodies and minds with. Needless to say, don't focus on anything negative! When I focus on the sun I visualize the brilliant, dazzling sun at zenith in the sky overhead and hold that visualization in my mind's eye for a small period of time. The new higher light comes down through the crown of the head and into the brain. The part of the visual that is above the head is abstract, not yet in form. But when you hold the visual of the dazzling light there above the crown, as if it is sitting on top of the crown, even for the span of 60 seconds, you are inviting the light to enter down into the brain. When the light enters into the brain, it starts to move through the physical body. The longer you can hold that light on top of the head, the longer time it has to seep downward, coalesce or condense downward into the physical matter of the body and brain. The brain is an important part of the physical body structure. From the brain the light impulses descend further down through the nerves and other mechanisms of the human body. Everything is involved, blood, circulation, hormones, everything. But it starts with YOU, the resident intelligence, holding consciousness on the dazzling light of the sun above your head.
As for me, I had this information years ago, but no one to verify it for me from the human physical realm. I've been working with this information alone, except for my invisible guides. Guides come from higher dimensions. They are always available when you ask for it, or when you start using and believe in the light coming down from the greater expanses. The sun is a distributor of the light from source. It is how we all grow here on earth, from mineral, plant, animal to human. We look to the light for our life, for happiness, for knowledge and understanding. All suns are distributors of light from source. And even we humans have a sun growing in our hearts of SELF consciousness. We too are growing into suns. The process works through self consciousness. When you are conscious of the light and believe in the light coming down from higher realms, then it DOES come down into the brain. It becomes part of the body's physical structure and physical consciousness and mental understanding. Then it gets distributed through the nervous system, blood, hormones, all the other systems into the lower, heavier, denser regions of the body, down into the feet and the denser earth below our feet. We literally bring the light down into the earth and we help the earth and other bodies and forms that we live with during our daily incarnation. So I consciously bring the visualization of the sun down into my body through my belief system coupled with my concentration. It comes down through the crown of my head, down through my brain, and down into my body. But it does alter things in the body. It changes the body and we have to learn how to manage these changes. It speeds things up. The atomic structure speeds up.
So there is a second step. The second stop is to visualize the space between the atoms and electrons of my physical body. I am altering my physical body by bringing the information from the sun down into the SPACE BETWEEN THE ATOMS AND ELECTRONS of my physicality. Because I am the intelligence that lives in that space between the atoms and electrons. I am part of the cosmic order and intelligence. I am the harmony. I am the awareness of my physical form. I've been trapped here, thinking this form is all there is, but now I am awaking to the fact that I am the intelligent spirit behind this form. And I am bringing more light (more information) from source into my physical brain cells and body cells. The fact that the terrible dizziness started to go away when I did that this morning, was further evidence that it works. I have to align my inner space with the light. My physical body has become old and deteriorated. It was created out of finite material. I now am reconstructing it, realigning it with the light from source. I am the one doing this. I am doing this with my consciousness and my physical body starts straightening out for me. This is new information and new validlation. I am in the process of transforming my old body into a new light body. This takes time. It is a meshing process. You can't just snap your fingers and have it done instantly. You have to believe in this process.
Things are fast changing. I was not privy to this before. This is the time of revealing hidden information formerly known as occult, which merely means "hidden". It is not a secret. It was never a secret. It just was not understood and therefore not accepted by the mass population. Now there is an acceptance of formerly hidden knowledge. I am hearing about it. I am reading about it. I am having my own visions and downloads about it. I am integrating my physical body with this new knowledge. This body of light information. I am believing it. As I do, my dizziness and spaciness clears but I have to keep doing it. Dizziness or sick feelings are caused by misalignments. The body was built on old intel. Intel is changing. I am therefore changing. I must keep up with the changes in alignment. It is now a way of life for me. I am bringing the light of my new knowledge down into the concrete matter of my body. I am manifestation a new body. I am allowing the light to influence my old deteriorating physical body. The light is weaving back and forth a new network into my old network. It is meshing new and old together. It is blending what was and what is now coming in - newer understandings. It is like blending new spices to an old soup that has grown old and tasteless. It improves the flavor. It brings "oomph" to the taste. It adds spice, pleasure and enjoyment to the body's senses. It brings excitement. It brings enthusiastic responses of laughter and fun. It brings bliss sometimes, joy other times, rapture other times, creative projects other times. Upgrading the body physical is a work in process. We don't know where it will end up, but we are promised that it will end up happy for us.
It is a process of alignment. There are energies in us that we did not know were there. We just didn't know. And they are still there. By visualizing dazzling sunlight entering into the brain from above the head, new information comes in, too. It brings alignment. Spend time alone, quietly, visualzing a sun at the crown of your head. Visualize your brain and body as a root system in the earth. The sun is pouring down now into this tree of light and resurrecting the cells of the body. It is a newer, spacious understanding entering into the blood stream of my former finite body, built with clumsy understanding. The transformation takes place in the space BETWEEN the atoms and electrons and feeds into the physical nervous system. Say, "I AM the consciousness of this body and I dedicate this body to the higher will that I AM."
My consciousness is widening. I am allowing myself to accept this as fact. I am exerpeincing the ascension process. Ascension means lightening the heaviness of the former condition. I feel like a bird taking to the air. Perhaps not literally, but consciously feeling airy and light-hearted, joyful even. Peaceful. Contented. There is open sky ahead. There are possibilities and I am heading into it. I am no longer confined to former beliefs. At the same time I am merging my former beliefs with contentment, with peace and with love. Just as lovers do when they unite and hold each other and continue to hold their love together. So do I unite and merge with my former self. In that way I expand my former self and alleviate the misalignments of dizziness, feeling out of sorts, off kilter and feeling poorly, not well, as if there is something wrong. Those feelings disappear as I breathe the light from the sun into my brain and body, visualizing that I am stepping into the space between the atoms and electrons of my physicality.
Readers may not have the years of training I’ve had but you can create your own phrases from words that make you smile and say AhHA! Use your own words to create a mantra, a repetitive phrase that you say out loud, 10 or 15 times at a sitting. The sound of the words will ‘ping’ and ‘resonate’ on your physical body cells and ‘shake’ them up, loosen them from their rusty old hinges. It's like shaking loose an old stuck door after years of no change, no action. Break them loose with words of encouragement.
3/23/23 - About the dark intelligences, who are they?
(From a journal 7/10/20, I just found this today, and decided to share it.)
Just as light forces have infiltrated every field of endeavor of this dark-infested planet, so have light souls infiltrated the sex field to bring healthy loving change to the human race who, unknowingly, have been led into a distorted program to be slaves to the elite cabalists who are human in appearance but are run by dark ET intelligence forces. How did this happen you ask? [I was channeling but didn't recognize it at the time.] The dark ETs are intelligences, not physical. They can manipulate physicals to do their bidding. It’s fun and games for them. They are the dark gods of the universe (little g) and the light gods of the universe (little g) are fighting for the freedom of the immature races who don’t know any better, using the big God’s laws of harmony, abundance, freedom, love and good will. The dark gods are the fallen angels spoken of in the scriptures. The light gods are the ascendeds and beings from far regions of space. We term them “galactics” who are also not physical, being high intelligences. There are many levels of physicality, many different forms in the universe. Physicality is a descending of vibration, a cohesion of closer-knitted atoms. Similar vibrating atoms are attracted to each other and gather into groups. Higher intelligences direct them with a mental blueprint, as such. The formation of physical organisms is divinely directed. It is a science built on divine understanding of cosmic laws of cohesion through attunement. It is done in harmony, through peaceful, natural attunement. There are countless levels of physicality. The light is intelligence coupled with balance between all the powers, and the greatest of these is love. The light intelligences is chasing down the dark intelligences because dark intel has rejected love and God’s laws requiring balance.
The dark intelligences use and abuse the immature physicals who don’t know any better. Earth is such an immature world. It was originally a garden of great beauty and refinement. It was etheric in the beginning but it was invaded by dark intelligence forces, without love or empathy. A long complex history evolved that requires much background information to understand what happened. The bottom line is God the Father-mother gives everyone a chance to redeem itself. We, the light intelligences, are infiltrated into the dark-infested planets by being born among them. Light souls are being born into dark cabal families on Earth. The light forces are you and me who are drawn to love mankind and womankind. We care for each other. We do not have an inclination to hurt people or torture or manipulate or kill people. We are among those who are being born here to cultivate and grow the human race, the human bodies, the human garden of paradise from within the physical environment.
The dark intelligences are aware that we are here and they attack whenever they can. Most of us are of higher vibration and cannot be damaged, unless we let our vibrations fall down into lower realities. Then we can be hurt. The dark intelligences are aware but they have been unable to stop the infiltration of light souls because the light souls are protected and surrounded by higher light forces. We are therefore more powerful than the dark-infested humans who have not yet learned how to align with the light. Instructions must be accepted. Instructions on the light are available, but they are not seen until a soul is ready to receive. Then such souls are drawn to discover light instructions, often called metaphysical instructions or mystery school instructions. The light is unified. All the powers of the universe are unified in orderly fashion. That is the nutshell of how to do it: use love and harmony.
Intelligence is everywhere. Intelligence is Father God. Love is Mother God. Intelligence can reject love and does. That makes it inferior to the light forces, except that free will is given to ALL life, which allows dark to exist. It is a choice to align with dark and negative forces such as greed and selfishness which does not have empathy for other life forms. Light has love and the dark does not. That makes the dark a cutting edge intelligence who can go against the laws of God but only to a certain extent. Like a rebellious teenager can join a gang of thieves and do violence, rape and murder until the system steps in and ends it. So does the greater cosmic law have greater forces on its side and is more powerful, love being the greatest power because it is the element that binds all life together. Love is the Mother force.
Love heals by not interfering but by giving free will choice to everyone. When it is time for a dark soul to return to Mother Father God, it is forgiven and embraced. The only punishment is the dark soul’s own facing of its own deeds, for it is responsible for everything it has ever done. Life is a playing out of free will and also a responsibility to own every act, thought and feeling it sent out. That is the great learning. Each spirit spark has free will to choose what it wants to do next, but the realization that it must pay for everything it does, has not dawned upon it yet. It must learn this through trial and error. It feels free to play out its fun life the way it wants to, but it is responsible for the damage it causes others. Whatever impact it has on others will return to him so he too experiences what he caused others. Good comes back as good, negative comes back as negative. Whatever his actions, thoughts and feelings caused to others returns back to the sender, and often many times over because on its return journey it picks up similar energies to build a greater mass. So when the backlash comes it often has a more powerful kick than the original act done, seemingly, in fun. The dark is on its way to realizing that.
The dark is dark because it rejects that concept. It does not believe it so it is limited in how far it can evolve. But it can cause mayhem in the lower stages of life and basically it can infest and takeover whole worlds which is what happened to Earth. That is why the light forces, the Galactic Federation and other federations of light, are here, to countermand the dark intelligences. The light must stay within the boundaries of cosmic law – the Star Trek’s Prime Directive – so it must work within certain parameters. The goal is to get rid of the dark-infested intelligences that have held humanity in lock-down to physical, without allowing the soul to gain access to love, light, truth, other dimensional powers, which humanity does have, but under programmed manipulation humanity does not know the powers it has locked up within its own muscles, tissues, blood and bones as a species.
Humanity is an amazing species but it has been held back. The light forces are here to help humanity get back on course of growing its amazing properties WITHIN each body into full-bloom physical expression, to bring about an actual garden of love, light, joy, pleasure and freedom of expression and creation. Today we TALK noble words like justice, truth, peace, love, freedom, wisdom, faith, purity, will, enlightenment, but we do not live them. When the dark intelligences who have been ruling the planet are removed, these qualities will no longer need to be spoken and written in poetry and scripture for they will be lived daily, hourly, moment by moment. The original garden of paradise will return as all who are different on the outside - skin color, language, culture and history – are honored, elevated, appreciated and held in high esteem. Where there will be no more a higher or lower people, or a better or worse people, or a left-leaning or right-leaning people. There will be freedom of expression to be WHO YOU ARE. There is acceptance by all, because all are recognized as a child of the Light and Love within. They have all chosen to live in alignment with that which is in their own heart and soul, which makes them equal to all life no matter WHAT THEY LOOK LIKE OR ACT LIKE!
3/22/23 - There is a science of love
There is a science of love. It comes down from above and enters into the human body but it follows pathways that are not linear or physical. Love involves higher qualities and higher values. Principles, not mental thoughts, but mental thought activates the principles. If held long enough in the consciousness love is invited through higher thought, words, actions and intentions. Love flows along with the use of kindness, givingness, affectionate touch along with a moral and ethical foundation. Love can be enduced by the use of colors, prayers and visualizations, not in a mechanical way, but in a spontaneous way. It must come from intentional will power and choice. A person begins to open to love by turning thoughts in an upward direction, consciously. Because mankind has been brought low and blocked off by negative thinking, erroneous actions and beliefs which have colored him dark, it has shut down the flow of love. Our culture today is mechanical with finite laws and strict rules and punishment which diminish the flow of love - the flow of life itself which keeps us healthy and young. No wonder we grow old, diseased and die!
We must learn how to draw on love from within and cultivate it as we would a garden of vegetables, fruit or flowers. Life is constantly flowing as a river of life into the body but the body is constantly shutting it down because of the rules. We are obliged to follow rules. Society demands we follow the rules but there is a way to break through the ceiling and become liberated.
Love is flowing IN but not out. We are blocking it. We need to find ways to let it flow OUT. We need to find ways to break the blocks that hold us back from feeling love and freedom because they are flowing in. Love and life are constantly flowing into us as a river of life. Tantra teaches this. Currently, we are in a state of need. We must find ways to live this spontaneous love and light OUT into our daily affairs. Most people have experienced those unguarded moments when the heart opened and love flowed along with tears. We don’t reveal this love because it is too intimate, too private, too vulnerable, too sensitive, too tender, too innocent. And feeling like a child that needs protecting, we move to stop it. We think we are defending ourself from the cruelties of the outer world, but we are holding back the very love that will transform our life. We must find ways to release this love to others who will reciprocate in kind and build on it. Others are hungry to receive love. We need to start somewhere, and that somewhere is with people who resonate with these words.
3/19/23 - The Mother Light in the tailbone
Your mother is in the earth, your mother light. Mother is in the earth, father is in the sky. Our brain waves take us into multiple dimensions where we think we are out of body, but we are still in the body, just on higher frequencies. There is another reality in these higher dimensions but it is all taking place “here and now”. There is no “other” place. Higher dimensions are not “in the sky” but we who are rooted in the physical dimension, because we inhabit a body with 5 senses, live in duality where there is space between physical bodies. The etheric body is in a different reality. It is the akashic, where all records and memories are kept of your past lives, the good, the bad and the holy. Although the holy returns to the Holy, leaving the duality experiences in your etheric body, or etheric double which surrounds you and which keeps seeping through into your life because you have to resolve them, you use your innate wisdom to teach you and take you through the dissolution of the unpleasant in you.
The emotional body is another reality. You work with your feelings, sensations, good and bad, and you play with others also working and playing in emotions and feelings. The mental body the same. It is another reality world, a world of thought which contains low thoughts on the lower levels, higher thoughts on the higher levels and exquisite thoughts on the exquisite upper levels that take us into the mystical and sublime, which is the light body known as the Christ body. Bring father light and mother light together in the heart. Sex keeps them apart. Sex siphons the mother light off to feel good and have orgasms. Your consciousness is the key to bringing father light and mother light together in the heart. Conscious breathwork as I am doing now is bringing the mother light up to the heart. Today I had a most wonderful experience feeling that. Unconscious breathing is barely keeping the body alive, but conscious breathing exercises quickens your mother light and awakens her, brings her up into the body. She is the divine mother of you that is embedded in the earth. She is part of the dullness and sleepiness of mother Gaia. Quicken her, wake her up through your own breathing technique and through your OWN mother light, and Gaia wakes up too. As you do this, you remove some of the heaviness that has kept the planet in low vibrations. (Partial of DK's online book, see 7/23/19)
3/16/23 - The desire to give - stop trying
I’ve met some amazingly loving people recently who are frustrated because they want to give so badly so deeply that their hearts are on the verge of breaking because it all seems so futile, lost. They are trying to figure it out. But it can’t be figured out from the level of mind. It has to be a surrender to the higher self. I have been tracking the divine feminine for this reason. It is taking me to a higher level, yet I am still on the lower level too. I have learned that we must merge divine love with the human level. The human level is the result of worldly programming but the divine level is within us too. It’s within our consciousness. My path in this life has taken me deeper into this divine level than any life prior, and I've had quite a few prior lives. I am now breaking new ground and having entirely new experiences which I've never had before. This is a new experience for me - to let go of my dreams of helping people. There is a higher level to love, it can’t be figured out by the ego, by mental effort. One must give up trying to figure it out and stop projecting the need to help outward. Only by stop wanting and trying, yearning for what you don't have, can you stop the hurt, the pain of heartbreak and struggle. This is a next-step teaching for humanity. Give up the struggle for what you don't have. Surrender to the love and peace within. It is there on a higher level.
Recently I had communication with my higher self in which my thoughts were directed to the warmth and goodness of love. I was told the word "Feminine" and I felt the echoes and essence of women down through the ages since the beginning. I felt the essence of women, not their outer human shells which struggled through life, but the soft resilient intelligent tender femininity at the heart of each woman or girl child who ever lived. Warm femininity swirled around me. I touched it as I would touch a raw warm human organ with my fingers, liquid and pulsing with life. I felt its soul enter me. I felt feminine and sensual. I felt the love and joy and nurturing that each of these women brought to the planet, whether they were fulfilled or died in pain. It didn't matter because they brought with them a living potential of love that they left here as a gift to the earth, and it's still here.
I said to myself softly, "Love." I felt love and femininity as one, including the feminine side of men. Love is reconnecting to the soul. It's the inner warmth that is accomplished by turning within to stoke the fires of one's own hearth (heart). After having thrust outward in competition and aggression and driven by ambition, love as good intention is the returning home. Love begins at home for oneself. The turning within to the heart is the female in us who wants to nest and wrap ourselves in a warm and cozy cocoon, in a sense of completion and a work well done and completed. Love is the one gift that we can give to ourselves that does not require anyone else. It is the hour of meditation and prayer in solitude, inward directed devotion and praise for the highest in us. We can feel love even if we are alone, homeless and stricken with cancer. Love is a choice to return to the heart to elevate our very own self, our higher self, to appreciate ourself and say, "I love you." There is a strange and wonderful power that comes forth at this time that soothes and calms the outer storm. It goes beyond logic. Loving oneself does not deny the world, the death, sickness, poverty and emotional pain. Rather it fulfills them. It includes them and puts them all to rest within the heart. Comforting it to completion. There is no exception. There is nothing bad enough that can't be loved and put to rest in the human heart. Love is unconditional.
This was my vision not too long ago. I am hearing a song by Nicholas John, one of my favorites: "Oh, my darlings! You were never out of place! You belong to eternity. What you are is amazing grace!” CLICK HERE TO LISTEN. You are here in this body enclosed in a cocoon, a little child protected against the powers that are locked within you, until the day you break the seal of your heart. When that day comes it will bring this power forward into your conscious mind to be worked with. This power is a consciousness expansion. You are not being given this power to save anyone else but to work this realization into your own life. You must empower yourself first. If you try to give to others before you are ready it will only bring frustration to you and to those others. You must come to empower yourself first by turning your outer consciousness inward and strengthening your heart center before attempting to help others.
It is an egotistical effort, a small and petty effort that is self-serving, to try to help others before you have grown yourself to full strength, maturity and wisdom. Turn around and go back in/within where there is refinement, grace, peace and comfort and build into that inner peace and knowledge so that you will grow strong and begin to overflow it outward to others. This is the new 5D teaching. We must learn it intellectually and then feel the peace and love within. Love is eager to move through you. You do not have to work at it and you should not, but wait until love moves within you. This does not take long if you do your homework. It takes a disciplined morning practice to weave yourself inward, ever inward, ever upward, for this is the evolutionary force that you are administering to yourself, to your body, mind and emotions. When you get started on that, you will find amazing progress at hand. Then you will feel first a sense of peace at home. The self love is growing and strengthening. You will fall into alignment with that amazing grace without effort.
Love is infinite but it is held back until one builds it first-hand and practices it at home. I have been practicing it. I have withdrawn my efforts to help others outwardly, and am instead focusing on building the deeper understanding. It is an effort to discipline oneself, but one must apply the higher unconditional love to oneself first. This is the home study course. They say it takes a guru, but the guru may be invisible. I had an invisible guru who came to me to teach me. Higher love will expand upward and call forth the teacher who can guide you. Who will listen to your questions and respond from the higher regions of thought. The higher impulses of self calls for the higher guru. Then love radiates from your heart and brings to you those who will attract from you that which THEY need, not what you think they need. You cannot fail to attract those who are ready to be close to you. The sea of conscious love is infinite and eternal, and out of mercy it is kept beyond reach until you are ready to drop your selfish ego pride which in itself is needy. When you have made strides in this direction, then you will break the seal of your heart and feel the love start to blossom. Conscious love is everywhere.
Then grace, love and peace will move to the forefront of your consciousness. You are aware and you love all things. Even the dark so-called evil ones will be affected by your loving presence because you are this amazing being and you are idiotically happy and unreasonably buoyant. You are uplifting, excited and illogically positive while others around you are in trouble. God-intoxicated, some might call it. What accounts for this idiocy? You who do the inner work every day will understand as you continue to prune back the undesirable. Not repress. No! But allow it into your transformation and it will melt away. You as a human being can’t do this with your little mind because it does not know how. It is enclosed inside a brain, a skull, a head. Instead, merge with the happiness, love, joy that is locked up inside you. Do this any way you can, without analyzing, without logic, without reason, without human ego, without mental effort. Step off the cliff into mid-air, into the arms of joy. This is a metaphor. Jump off the cliff because if you cling to the cliff you cling to logic and the ways of the world that demands reason. You will never get there with reason and logic.
The little seed in the ground bursts its outer casing and is seen above ground when it finally germinates a little sprout. You do too. You must surrender to the power of the joy within you. It is happiness and unfounded reason that sprouts and expands within you. You can’t do it with logic. Give up trying. Stop trying. Trying holds everyone back from the joy of love. You can’t be free as long as you are continuing to try to accomplish something of your own making. Surrender to the flow of the living light, the waters of spontaneous joy. This is the story of opening to the evolutionary force within. It is not of your own mental making. It is the power of infinity. It is taking you up on a wave, lifting you up higher on the top of a wave that is being sent to you out of love, because you are ready. Because the ego in you is letting go and jumping off the cliff, metaphorically speaking. The you that is letting go thus blends with the cosmic order of harmony and unity. The merge takes place. Whenever you as a human being “try” to do something, you are trying to be something smaller, lesser and more confined inside the nutshell.
You are a part of the sea of life that is eternal and immortal. As long as you remain separate from that you must continue to die and be reborn as separate, until comes this day that you break the cosmic seal and you pop out of that field of separation back into unity with love. You are love and you come from love. Love is the sea of consciousness trapped inside of your form. Stop trying is the first step. Work on not trying.
3/11/23 - Becoming whole-brained, access your etheric body
An interesting new idea was given to me several years ago by the Ascended Master DK, but I totally missed it at the time. I ran across it again the other day and it clicked this time. I was ready to hear it. For years I have been operating under the belief that I am too feminine, and that I had been functioning out of my RIGHT brain. I suddenly realized that this is not true. A friend had told me as much, saying that I hadn't activated my left brain, so I began calling to activate my left brain at that time. And it was true. I was not a logical thinker. Ever since I went into the light in an out-of-body experience. So I have been activating my left brain, and I DID notice a difference. I picked up more vitality and more abilities that I had not had before. I did not give in so much to feeling easy, seeking body comfort and body pleasure. But it also caused me other problems that I never had before. Like being more stressed out than I used to be.
Well, I did ask for it. And it was a good experience to feel what it is like to be less feminine and more pro-active by activating my male side. I felt more constructive and as if I was earning my way more in the world and not being so passive. There is a certain amount of satisfaction that comes from that. But what happened to my cool? My peace? My calm? My loving nature? Do I really have to suffer the stress and tension in order to be more left-brain oriented? Does that have to be the price I pay? Then I ran across the message from DK of several years ago. He said, "Don't just activate your left brain, activate your WHOLE brain."
I have been doing that. I am learning. The heavens are re-opening for me. I am regaining my ability to feel the heavenly love and peace again. The right brain is connected to Home, the stars, the celestial peace of harmony, love and light - that is the highest yearning of every heart. The right brain is designed to tune into the harmony of the universal creator. It has been called the "feminine" side. It is the passive side of us. It harmonizes situations that have become unbalanced. It is humble, considerate, kind, just, honest and provides space, allows for everyone to be simply who they are without pressure.
The left brain is the other side of human nature. It is focused. It concentrates. It puts up boundaries and limits on just about everything. It provides the ability to think, form thoughts, conclusions, languages, string formulas together, make music, form patterns, designs, mathematics, bridges and buildings, invent machines. It has the ability to take the universal stream of ideas and build a solid world of form, so we can live and enjoy ourselves in increasingly more efficient and beautiful ways. However, the left brain shuts out the right brain and the cosmic connection in order to get the job done. It has no time for love or celestial ecstasies. He leaves that to the women.
The insidiousness of this (for me) is this. I was TOLD I was feminine, and I therefore fit myself into the energy pattern of the subservient female, as women have done before me. Weak and in need of male help to get by in the world. I should remain soft, warm, loving and take care of the house, children and husband. It is a way of life that I fell into without thinking or knowing what I was doing. From the time I was old enough to think for myself and form conclusions, it was too late. I was female. Men have the same thing happen to them. They begin following the male programming early in their life. They are prepared to be responsible, hold down a job, be the protector of women and children, and man-up to the hardships of life.
Yesterday as I was re-read the old journal from DK, a new awareness clicked in. I thought I was usingmy right brain but I haven't been using my right brain at all. Not at all. Maybe in the beginning, when I first went into the light during my OBE I did, but thereafter I began changing. I've been using my left brain all along. I've been concentrating, analyzing and trying too hard to be something that I'm not naturally. I've been trying to fit in. It is not my nature to be left-brained but I tried to be. It is not natural to me. I have been working at something that is not natural to me. I've been trying and getting nowhere. I've just been busy. Busy trying. I have not been utilizing the right side of my brain at all for I have not felt very natural. The peace and harmony has been missing, even though I've "tried" to find it as all of the outside advisors tell me I should do. "Try!" I am told. And in the processing of trying, I have been using my left brain, the analyzing, concentrating, logical side of my nature, not my cosmic peaceful side.
I don't know if the reader can catch the drift and meaning of this, but I am a perfect example of perhaps most people in the current generation. We're all trying too hard to be something that is not natural to us. The right brain is tuned into our higher self, who we are BY NATURE. Our natural homing device is the right brain. It was the male paradigm culture that challenged me to be more logical, more "with it", more worldly, more part of the Matrix. And I tried. It caused me to become most unnatural and unbalanced, but I DID try! And I experienced what it's like to be male-oriented. I allowed myself to be caught up in the insidious Matrix. I thought I was feminine but it was all a false belief. It was a lie. I am not feminine at all. I am simply me. Now can I go back to being me?
Beware what you THINK you are doing. You are probably not. If you activate your right brain, you'll become more at peace with yourself. The "you" that is natural is a balanced "you". Try balancing yourself by activating your WHOLE brain. It requires stepping down and back and resting periodically throughout the day to let your blood and nervous system flow back into harmony again. The universe is an orderly universe because there is balance in all things. The planets stay in their orbit and human beings are evolving to become more in harmony with the universal plan of peace, love, harmony and order.
It is a loving universe when one is at rest. And yet we are meant to be active too. That's why we have a left brain AND a right brain. We can be mightily active and creative on a genius level, but 50% of the time we need to allow our unbalanced half to withdraw and rest. Truly rest, not just party with the guys and gals, but rest. Withdraw to regenerate. That is the whole point of meditation. It is a method of withdrawing into the celestial realms of pace, love and light to regenerate, reharmonize, rebalance ourselves. Then we can become the genius again next day. The right side of our brain is naturally in tune with our higher self. It is an open channel to where we came from originally - from a Home among the celestial stars.
Activate your right brain. This is a special hint to men. Activate your right brain and see if it doesn't bring you a little more calm in your life, a little more peace, a little more welcome rest from the tension and confusion. All you have to do is say throughout the day, silently to yourself: 'Right brain activate!" Use it as a mantra, a chant that becomes embedded into your brain. Or, according to your own sense of rightness, use the words: "Whole brain activate!" It is where you put your attention that turns the right brain on, or the whole brain. It is always your consciousness, for "you" are the power behind the physical body mechanism. It is where you put your awareness that turns the key in the lock and opens the door. The secret is consciousness.
Becoming whole brained leads naturally and automatically into contact with our etheric body. The etheric body is the space between the swirling atoms and electrons that make up our physical body. The space between the electrons is where thought and perception gathers before coalescing into physical nerves, blood and tissue that forms our physical body. The etheric body is the auric field that surrounds us, that Kirlian photography has captured on special film. Thought, feeling and perception gathers in our field around us before sinking down and coalescing into form and substance of our body. Once thoughts, perceptions and emotions become physical we "own" them. They become manifest and it's too late to back out of it. At least it is difficult to back out of it once these thoughts and feelings have become form and substance, with errors built into them, such as anger or wrong thinking, wrong feeling, wrong concepts and attitudes. Imagine stepping out of the physical body into the field of your etheric body and breathe freer there. Give yourself a few minutes now and then to lighten yourself up and step outside your physical. Experience your larger self, your etheric body self.
As we practice being whole-brained, being balanced equally left and right working together as one functioning brain, the body will lose its tendency to work so hard and create stress. We will become more relaxed, more restful, more prone to harmony. Let the world get on without you. Close the door to the outer world and retreat into the right brain or the whole brain. You decide. It is a self-exploration. Only you can take this step into cosmic love, light and harmony. It is a natural gift from the creator of life.
Then the etheric body will not be so quick to feed anger, fear or stress into the nerve, blood and tissues of the physical body. This is what throws our bodies into confusion. The balanced body is a balanced body, no matter what gender it is. We can be female or male, but when we are functioning with a whole brain, we then have the ability to focus, concentrate, be pro-active and constructive, and at the same time, relaxed and operating in harmony with others around us, for we are connected. We are part of the whole and will be aware when someone is NOT balanced. We will be more aware of how to respond and interact with them. We will be better able to be responsive in benevolent ways, guided to do our constructive best with all concerned, enhancing the community in which we live.
3/8/23 - The Lovers' Archetype
There's a wonderful message on "Today's Updates" page by Saint Germain. This is exactly what Anakosha is trying to bring about with its new love community (posted yesterday). One by one, the green lights are flashing on as I travel down the highway of life letting me pass on through. Every day I am getting another validation that dovetails with the dream project that I once called "The Love Club". I've been writing about for so long - been frustrated for so long, being unable to get it started. But it just wasn't time. I wasn't ready and others weren't ready. The world is changing however, and speeding up, raising its consciousness, raising its head, raising its values and self esteem. There is love in the air. I love that Saint Germain gave us this message through Jennier Crokaert several days ago. Be sure to read it. It is amazing. Click HERE.
Another validation received this morning that we are on course to greater Love, greater Peace, greater Togetherness in harmony. From the book, "The Brotherhood of Angels and of Men" by Geoffrey Hodson, circa 1927:
"Can you conceive an eagerness to work so great that even our bodies seem near to breaking under its power, yet an eagerness combined with patience that can wait a thousand years? To that sublime patience you must attain, for within the quality of patience are enclosed a multitude of virtues: strength to control, power to restrain, vision of the Plan, knowledge of the real, detachment from results and co-ordination of the will, the mind, the body, so that when the time comes they act as one. Patience of this kind does not extinguish the fire of eagerness to serve, rather does it glow ever more fiercely within the compression exercised by will and mind. When at last the order comes, when, after the passing of an age, the day arrives when the restraints are to be released, then it is that the power stored up for so long flashes forth through us. We become the catapults of God.
"Now that day has come; stored-up energies, resulting from the power of the great ideal, have been released into your world. Fear not for the result; the end is sure. Not for nought have your Hierarchy and ours planned, from time beyond your power to count, ever waiting for the arrival of the day; so I say the end is sure. Still they plan, for ages yet unborn, great schemes, embodying the divine Will; in detail, too, down to the angels and the men they choose. What, then, are we but incidents, straws, blown by the breath of God (?) except that within those straws the self-same breath is found, so that breath answers to breath, and His Will is done.
"Remember always that the ultimate source of power is in the idea, the power we use in manifested worlds is but the force emanating from and the reflection of the divine Idea. If this be true, then no delay can reduce its potency, nor any circumstance prevent its ultimate expression. Upon this knowledge should patience be based."
3/7/23 - Calling all lightworkers and mystics
Calling all lightworkers, spiritual students, mystics, visionaries, dreamers, galactic starseeds and other celestials masquerading as humans – welcome to my world! This is a shift in direction. Anyone who is drawn to these words are invited - will be invited when it is time - to a future gathering at my house, date and time to be announced. The purpose of the gathering is to open the door to our higher self, our higher heart, the higher and more refined nature waiting within for release. Our higher self connection resides in our hearts, not our brains. Our brains are unaccustomed to speaking from the heart so we are going to have to learn new skills and new words. That is the reason for the gathering. I have been advised to go ahead and begin issuing the call. The call is done by making it a public call. I can blog it now. It has been a long time in coming.
At this gathering to come, we will practice communicating intelligently in words from our higher self, our higher, wiser, more divine self, who is far more knowledgeable and authentically real. We each know this but we haven't had it confirmed before now. We know who we are on deeper levels, subconscious levels. Each of us has a background of prior lives where we have gained experience, skills, knowledge and wisdom in how to maneuver the human body experience. We come from higher planes but we have been blocked out from knowing that. Now is the time to start sharing what we know. It has been culturally unacceptable until now. This gathering will require that we trust each other and be upward-focused. In other words, positive in our thinking. This will bring about our sweeter natures that are more vulnerable and innocent. The heart is all of these things: wise, non-judgmental, truthful, ethical, discerning, loving, sensitive - and powerful but never pushy. Never, ever pushy. That is why we tread lightly here. We walk in the light and love of the one infinite creator. We do not accept pushy, judgmental, opinionated souls who are not ready to open the heart.
While it is true that we all have opinions, they are third dimensional opinions, formed from third-dimensional laws on the books. This gathering is a calling to those who are ready to reach higher. I am calling for the mystic and the visionary and the student of the heart that is open or ready to open - ready for more. The calling is for those who are willing to participate in speaking the finer natures that yearn to be said, to be free. Communities have already been forming. This is the beginning of a new local heart-centered community. It is yet to come into existence. It is an invitation to learn what higher self means. It is an invitation to go beyond what is already known by the brain. The heart knows more than the brain. It is connected to the higher self and the higher plan. This is an invitation to learn how to trust and how to hold hands despite differences, no matter on what level those differences appear to be. Some can be really crude and harsh. But if the divine thread is there, then we are to find it and support it, and nurture it in others, because that is how we nurture it in ourselves. It is how we access our higher natures. We must assist others who are having difficulty expressing their higher natures, just as we are, and then we will be assisted too. It is a "coming together" in more ways than one.
We will be practicing how it feels to be non-judgmental. Most of all, we will learn how to trust ourselves and what we have always felt but could never speak or tell someone out loud. Our higher nature has been curtailed. In this new community gathering others will support us in return as we support them. There are higher forces at work. More than we know or can understand. Only as we practice and experience this for ourselves, can the light turn up a notch so we can see and feel the difference. This is a gathering to support the process of ascension. It is the evolution from animal man to spiritual man. The spiritual man will learn to live in grace, unified with his brothers and sisters. The use of the term "he" automatically implies "she". They will be more refined, more honest, more decent, more loving, more nourishing, more fulfilled, more peaceful, more comfortable, more powerful, more passionate, more kind, more pure, more whole and therefore more holy.
This started out as an invitation to a small gathering in my home but as I began writing, I see that my initial thought was only the beginning of a much larger project. The Master DK has taken over! It is pre-mature to set a date. The place of the meeting will be in our home in the outskirts of Naples when the time comes, and the purpose is to open the door to the fifth dimension. At least in the beginning stages, for there is much in the way of sharing information that must be done first. We will be sharing from the bosom of the vulnerable heart, the beautiful soul of the higher individual. It will be in a round-robin discussion. There will be no teacher, only a hostess and two co-facilitators. We are all students, no teachers. We are all seekers. All fingers on one hand. All brain cells activating in one brain. All heart cells in one heart. We are non-judgmental, we are listeners, we are observers, we are unifiers and harmonizers. We are positive thinkers. We are active and outgoing sometimes and quiet and passive other times. We are oriented to receiving more light from higher regions. Light from higher regions means information from higher regions. We are open to hearing more information from the higher nature of both ourselves and from others who are present with us.
Our purpose is to explore, learn, discover and practice speaking from our tender, vulnerable, more sensitive higher selves. There are no words for them. They must be felt as we speak them. We encode our words with our feelings. They are our inner-most thoughts that have not been accepted by the traditional world. We are opening doors to beyond the established traditions of the world, and we are feeling courageous and bold to do so. Will we be rejected? We are being supported and we are feeling urges to dare to say these words, these feelings. We have been afraid of rocking the boat so we have been wisely staying quiet. But now the time has come that we are openly seeking support from like-hearted friends. We are mostly female but we are of both genders, so there will be a few men among us at first. Men are welcome if they are capturing the meaning of the words.
Each meeting will start with silence. We will enter into the heart center through silence. Silence is the supreme number one method that we need here today. Meditation without anyone to guide us. No words, no electronic devices, so that each one of us may enter our own silent heart all by ourself. There is no leader. The higher self is our only guide. I as the hostess and gatherer will invite you into the silence but you will enter alone. I am being guided - instructed is the better word - by the Brotherhood of Light, the Ascended Masters. In the silence we are the small ego entering the holy of holies, the secret chamber of the heart. Feel the sacred ambiance of this chamber. We are the smallness surrendering to the highest in us. We are the lowest possible point within our own God/Goddess self which exists beyond the world of form, beyond the myriad stars and galaxies. And each of us has the only key to unlock the door.
After we return from our silence in the secret chamber of the heart, we will have an honoring ceremony, and then an introduction round-robin. Each person present can say as little or as much as they want (within reason!) about who they are. Perhaps a cue card will help with prompt questions. Then we will evolve into discussion with two people acting as moderators.
I am being guided by the Master Djwal Khul who is a member of the Brotherhood of Light or, as it was called in earlier days, the Great White Brotherhood. It is also referred to as the Spiritual Hierarchy. There are many names for those who have mastered the form world as we know it. These great ones have all been where we are today at one time, and they have mastered its limitations and graduated. We are connected to these higher masters through our hearts. This gathering is a way for the masters to guide us through the next stages. This is why we are here - to learn more. This knowledge has been kept from us. Our higher self is a light within the heart. Our life is a conscious light but we didn't know that. We are being now exposed to the consciousness within our heart. It is the eternal living flame which keeps our bodies alive. There is so much to learn!
This knowledge will prolong our life on earth and raise it to the higher planes of love, abundance and happinness. It will bring us back into balance so we are not so stressed out living in pain and struggle for understanding. Those who are called ascended masters live in higher realms called higher dimensions. These dimensions are more refined, not so dense and concrete as we experience here. But they are able to zoom in on anyone who calls for help because we are a thread of life connected to all of life through the flame in our hearts. We will learn more as we open our hearts and access that flame through the process of sharing information. We did not understand. Our closed hearts were kept closed by the laws of former periods in our dark history. We were not free to express ourselves or our creativity or our free and enthusiastic loving nature.
We have been watched over through the dark periods of our history when mankind was in danger of destroying itself. We were guided as best we could be guided, but humanity was so closed down it just was out of reach. Still the ascended masters were there to help. They could see when a heart tried to open and called to God for help. There are bursts of sunlight when a call such as that appears. Shimmers of sunlight appear in the concrete exterior of a human body. There is no space or time in the universal oneness. The light reaches out and is heard throughout the lighted realms. Once, in the early days of my awakening when I was experiencing many odd things, I experienced an emergency rescue by an unknown source. Being ultra-sensitive to the outer environment, it was while I was in the car with my husband driving to downtown San Jose, when a huge semi-trailer truck came thundering past us blowing this incredible horn. I screamed, apparently in my etheric body because my husband didn't hear me, and I found myself sliding down the curvature of the earth into the blackness of space. Yes, you heard right - I was rolling down the curvature of this dark planet, solid black, into the even darker void of space - and suddenly someone or something grabbed me by the scruff of the neck and brought me back to the seat in the car with my husband driving. He didn't know what happened. I asked him. I was terribly shaken for a long time after. But how? Who did this? It has been forever registered on my brain. I will never forget it.
The universe operates in a harmony and order. We will ourselves know this once we are no longer confined in a concrete physical body. We are being watched over. Now all we have to do is learn how to respond. The universe is well organized and we are part of if. We will learn more soon. The earth has been a very difficult school but we have only been born here by the free will act of volunteering. Yes! We volunteered. That's what they say.
3/6/23 - Solar flare emissions cause dizziness - what to do
The following article was taken from a channeling 25 years ago, but it is so very relevant today. I love the concept of creating a buddy system to share feelings and awareness. Perhaps that is the next thing to do. I myself have been experiencing extreme changes in mood, both good and bad, distortions, out-of-body feelings, and flashes of cosmic clarity in-between. What a wild ride these ascension symptoms!
(Channeled:) When you identified with energies long ago that were not the same as your soul purpose, it pulled you out of alignment. The increase in light transmissions now are pulling you back to your soul purpose. The effect is a shifting in your mind causing some discomfort and dizziness. You are losing your separation consciousness in this time, which is the tendency to withdraw and turn inward. The new energy will not let you go into separation any more. Create a buddy system to talk about your awareness with.
Connecting with another person helps transmute the energy of separation that is being dislodged. During solar flares there will be depressions, sadness, loss of hope as the separation energy begins to float free. The sun is God-Love. During solar emissions, the first emissions are x-ray emanations from coronal mass ejections. Sensitive people will feel them in seconds but they go fast and don't impact your magnetosphere [the region surrounding the earth]. What comes next DOES impact. The actual magnetic plasma wave takes 48-72 hours to reach earth and it compresses and distorts the earth's electromagnetic field, and also the EM fields of all creatures including human. People will feel grief, anxiety, sadness, depression, not being yourself. This will pass in 90 days but during this time, reach out in a buddy system and share your feelings. The last emissions are M-class emissions (severe) and X-class emissions (very severe, like 10 on the Richter scale). When you hear NASA speak of X-class emissions coming from the sun, hang onto your hats and buckle your seat belts.
The solar emissions impacting earth is like squeezing a balloon and watching the balloon become distorted. So do the energies inside your EM fields. The physical body will also feel unbalanced, causing aches, pains, dizziness, falls and freak accidents. What you can do to stay balanced during solar maximum cycles - reach out in a buddy system and share your feelings. They will pass. Meanwhile, expose your body and consciousness to the light as much as you can to absorb what is being transmitted. There will be incredible sunsets. Use magnets taped to your skin and other grounding devices like copper bracelets and necklaces. Wear crystals and use visualizations. When you feel out of your body it's the result of one of these wave fronts. Carry black stones like hematite and obsidian, tourmaline.
Stand barefoot in the grass for two or more minutes a day, and anchor your earth chakra (6 inches below your feet) to the core of the planet. Do not anchor your light body. Sleep north to south, head at north. Or meditate two minutes head to north. Take salt baths to clear and protect your energy and ground you. Expose yourself to sunlight to attune to plasma waves. Let go of density. Do a body cleansing. Contractions are signs to expand yourself. Lighten up on your diet. Use fruits, light dairy (yogurts and light cheeses), more greens and raw foods, seeds and nuts. Do not use sugars, sweets and simple carbohydrates, they burn faster and are high-stimulus foods. They grow your system out of balance. Complex carbohydrates and fruit sugars are slower burning and keep you in balance. Back off of caffeine, and use herbal tea. Comfrey tea is excellent, also licorice and licorice tea.
It is important to connect mentally with others through the heart by saying what you feel. Say anything, it doesn't matter what. Mentally you will swing back and forth between high energy ambition and boredom or disgust, as patterns that relate to separation consciousness are dislodged. The solar storms are doing this. If you feel like you are losing hope or faith, it is the old separation consciousness being dislodged. The feeling of being "unconnected" is an ancient energy that is now floating free and moving out, making room for the great thing growing inside. Cut down on TV and overstimulation. Shorten your meditation times. Stay in the here and now and align your physical, mental and emotional bodies.
Your spiritual ego is realigning to become God in physicality. Even those who are asleep are experiencing it. Be non-judgmental. By detachment and non-judgment you detach your energies and support. When you judge, you participate in that which you judge. Detach from making judgments. You have been a part of all things, including war. You as God created war. You as people created war, you are not separate from All That Is. So you as God and People begin to heal the war by detaching your energies from it.
It is an illusion that you are going somewhere or becoming something. You are already all that you are. Detach from the illusions and projections you have created. You are simply awakening to your freedom and flowing forth without efforting, without judgment, without attaching or trying to be a certain way or do a certain thing.
3/5/23 - This is Tantra (Master Djwal Khul)
One day back in 2013 I received a message from DK that applies to what is happening in our world today. We definitely in the midst of the ascension process, moving into lighter atmospheres. There is much confusion by those who are not aware of the beautiful world that we are moving into. I wish to assure peace and calm. Be prepared for love and clarity and knowingness. People are confused because this information has been kept from the public's eye. As I am constantly reviewing DK's messages, he continues to inspire me and I wish to pass it on, reminding everyone of the hope and beauty that is on its way into our life. But it's not what you think. This is Tantra. I have been posting his messages received over the last 47 years HERE. Please check out his beautiful inspired teachings. The following instruction came when I asked him something but I don't remember what I asked him. I forgot to write it down!
"You have become fragmented into many pieces. You are not whole. You are learning to re-connect your four lower bodies - your physical, emotional, mental and spiritual or higher mind. You have been learning about integration and you have been practicing in your meditation room. Now you are getting the idea this morning. A new understanding is dawning. The others that you need are the fragments of yourself. You are learning how to expand your awareness to the higher plane of the emotions and from there to step up to the still higher plane of thought, the mental plane. And from there to the yet higher plane of higher mind. You are visualizing the expansion of your body to these higher planes. You are expanding your awareness to higher planes beyond the physical. You are waking yourself up on the higher plane of emotion and mental and spiritual and higher.
"As you consciously stepped out of your limited perception of being physical, and as you visualized yourself larger than physical, superimposed over your physical as you have been practicing, and then breathing consciously, allowing your breath to penetrate your larger self on the emotional and the next larger mental and the next larger spiritual and the next - as you breathed in and out of each plane while visualizing, you awakened and aligned these fragments of yourself with your physical. Many people are today working this process to bring their four lower bodies, anchored in the four lower chakras, into balance and alignment with the limited concrete physical body consciousness. This is what I meant by “you can’t do it alone.”
"Picture a line of people arriving to your house, each bearing gifts but they are stopped at the front door because you do not open the door or look out the window. You do not know the people are there with gifts for you, gifts that would make your life easier and more pleasant, more agreeable. Many riches await you when you stop trying to live your life as if you were all alone with no help. You have a network of help and helpers all around you but you do not see them. You have been living in a closet in the 3D world. You were kept from your own holy self and the powers of your full potential by the mass consciousness which is a fuzzy dark cloud which obscures your own light. This opening and piercing of the veils between your bodies which kept you locked as a prisoner in the physical material world is being broken as you practice awakening, enlarging, breathing, and calling upon your emotional, mental and spiritual self through the morning exercises. You are not alone because you have a wholeness that is connected to God and through that wholeness you are connected to all.
"You have been asking for guidance on Tantra. This is Tantra. This is awakening while in your physical body to the other planes of consciousness that you have access to but you have been kept locked away from. Tantra means a net or a web that connects all as one that has always existed. You were never alone in a separate body, but you were locked out and closed down from knowing this truth. Now you and others are piercing the veils. It is a conscious realization that connects you. The web of life is composed of conscious thought. Conscious awareness. Consciousness connects all that is. God enfolds all his creation alike in his arms and heart and mind. All is contained within the bosom of God. When you don’t know this, it is like being locked inside your closet and not opening the door to the people outside trying to reach you and give you the gifts, their hugs, their laughter and their joyous celebrations, and to invite you to party with them.
"Practice your awakening exercises every morning. When you do this, as you consciously awaken to your higher self and invite integration of your other dimensional you’s, mind, feelings, principles and values, you nourish and refresh your physical body. It is your physical body that grows old and tired because it is not being rejuvenated by spirit. When you enter 3D you enter a “time zone”. There is a beginning and an end locked in time. When you are born in 3D you agree to be closed off from the love and light of the Creator and all of the higher dimensions. You came to learn about darkness and what happens when you are without the light and love. As you remember how to pierce the darkness through the process of applying love and light, you can nourish the failing body and the physical cells will open and drink the divine nectar. Your body fills up, plumps up with life and your DNA expands as does your consciousness. This is how you align yourself with your own perfection, the Christ, known also as the Adam Kadmon, the divine perfect human being, designed as the original role model of each human being from the heart-mind of God.
3/4/23 - Use mantra and visualization to take control
Create a sacred seed thought to take control over your life. Sacred is the key word. It supplants the personal ego which is the little desire self which causes confusion by chasing and holding onto desires. The little desire self is limited and finite. We have been concentrating far too long on this small little self. Consider using the following mantra. I am sharing it today with whoever is drawn to it. I have been given permission. Anyone may use this mantra and guided words of instruction. This mantra must be made with repetition. It will access your personal God-self identity known as your Higher Self. The Higher Self is the ladder to the stars. It is a path that goes higher and higher and is endless, even while you are human living on Earth. Only you can walk the rungs of the ladder of the Higher Self. It is done by choice, free-will effort and concentration. This mantra was given to me by the Tibetan Master, Djwal Khul many years ago.
I AM THE HOLINESS OF THIS BODY, AND I DEDICATE THIS BODY, I CONSECRATE THIS BODY TO THE WILL THAT I AM.
This mantra gives your power over to your higher God-self. It directs your Higher Self to take control over your finite body and make decisions for you, which you do not have the ability or vision to make yourself . You are asking for help from higher realms. You must ask for this help by relinquishing control over your smaller ego. Your human ego is in control until you consciously surrender control to your Higher Self. Your Higher Self requires that you ask for its help before it can step in and take control. This mantra does that, but you have to take the lead and establish a conscious repetitive daily practice. It doesn't take too long. Repetition is how we create habits. We humans are really good at establishing habits, but we have not created good habits. It is time to create some sacred habits. A rhythm of repetition. Plus a humble attitude.
Along with the mantra, use a visualization of yourself that is beautiful to you, that is attractive to you, that is an ideal image of yourself. Visualize this within a bright sun. Use the light from the sun to brighten this image of yourself. You can play with this image by brightening it to the degree that your image almost disappears, and then bring it back into sharper outlines. You are manifesting your Higher Self into your current life while repeating the sacred mantra. First find a photo or remember a photo that you saw one day long ago, one that you especially liked of yourself. That perhaps shows you in a better light than you are today. What you would like to BE today. Use that image to imprint on your inner mind as you repeat the mantra, "I am the holiness of this body and I dedicate this body, I consecrate this body to the will that I AM!"
Close your eyes, lower your gaze downward as if looking at the tip of your nose, and repeat the mantra while holding this image of your beautiful personal self in the light of the sun. Do this often. It will help stabilize your mind. It is like planting a seed thought in your subconscious mind. Repetition of the same thought plants a seed of ONE thought - remember, it is ONE thought, not many different thoughts - that becomes implanted. It will start to grow and become stronger and radiate further out with repetition. Repetition is the key to this technique. Repeated every day and at least three times a day is recommended. I recommend having at least three set times during the day that you do this mantra and visualization. Start at 5 minutes each time and increase it to 10, then 15, then 30 minutes each time.
If something happens shocking or traumatic, take several minutes to use it to stabilize. This mantra and visualization, with practice, will help bring your whirling thoughts to a central "seed thought", giving permission to your Higher Self to step in and take control with peace and calmness. A vortex is being created of a divine, sacred nature with the use of this mantra and visualization. But nobody can do it for you. Only YOU can create this for yourself through practice. Otherwise, random thoughts will continue to invade your psyche and energy field and swirl with chaos, which we consider the human condition today. A sacred "seed thought" will grow roots going throughout your whole entire body via the nervous system. Experts tell us that by repeating the same words and patterns every day, you mold your life into what it has become today. You created your life, this is how you can change your life. Build this sacred seed thought every day and you will grow roots into your life that start to change the way things work out for you.
Without a sacred seed thought, energies cast off by other people will continue to swirl randomly through you and your mind like a frenzied storm with no direction. You are the directing intelligence of your body. This mantra and visualization will provide a central seed thought, like a mother thought. It is a parent thought. You are a child of the one infinite creator, but you are human and you didn't know that, being born here. This is a technique that has been used for centuries in the East, with a strong influence on the culture there. Wise sages and spiritual leaders abound in the remote sections of the Himalayas. Now these lessons are becoming accepted in our Western societies. It has taken time to accept them, but they have taken root in our western culture. It is a "next step" to accept repetition of sacred words, as in a mantra.
It takes effort to take time out in our busy lives to concentrate and actually sit for 5 minutes at a time being silent and concentrating. I myself have had difficulty controlling my own mind, which whirled on its own. I believed I was doing the right thing to be spontaneous and follow my free will spontaneity. And I was right, as it turns out, to honor and respect my thoughts and feelings. But as East and West learn to merge with each other, so does spirituality and personal empowerment merge and become one whole entity. We are destined to become whole, a divine Ego human with individual skills, talents and knowledge unlike any other. We ARE individuals. As we call on our own Higher Self to merge with our lesser human self, we build integrity into our human self, and learn to control our life with a more refined vision. I have been learning this over the many yrs that the Master DK has been my guide and teacher. I did not know. He has taught me. I am passing on some of his teachings on this website. Yes, we learn from others, of course we do. But the one we have not been learning from and we MUST learn from at ALL times, over and above input from others, is our Higher Self. This is the one path that takes us ever higher beyond what we can see here, today, in this hour. No one can do this for us. Only we can do it for ourselves, by ourself. As long as we listen to other people, we are gathering more confusions to consider, more to analyze, more to weigh, more to consider, more to struggle to fit into our days. These storm clouds that come to us regularly - we live inside the storm clouds - run havoc through our bodies and minds without direction.
That was the purpose of the guru. A guru was a no-nonsense guide. He gave a mantra and said "repeat it!" Westerners didn't want to do that. The times changed and we became intellectual and rationalized everything with our minds. We didn't need a teacher. We can do it ourselves. And so the intellect came into being. We are now intellectualizing ourselves into a mess. We've created a mess without the spiritual teacher to guide us to our HIGHER SELF. We are swirling with storm clouds, chaos, fear and indecision. We are a lost race until we turn ourselves over to our HIGHER SELF. The higher self is our individual personal self but uncontaminated by human faults. It leads us up the ladder to greater understanding, keeping us connected to our Self. It is important not to give up our sense of personal identity. We are God in embodied form. It is important to build on what we know. The God Self is pure and uncontaminated by human errors. How does one connect with it? By assuming the pose of surrendering and repeating sacred words intended and aimed upward to the highest in us.
Most people are reluctant to give someone else charge over their life, but giving the Higher Self permission to take charge over your life is a whole different story. You ARE your higher self temporarily living confined in a limited body which doesn't know anything at all about "higher selves". Thus this body is surrounded by confused input from other people. The only way to access your Higher Self - your real Self - is to take the time to go alone and practice assuring it and communicating with it. Repeat the coded words to only your Higher Self, no other. Find a picture you like of yourself that is healthier and more beautiful, more noble, more wise, more ideal that you wish you were, and focus that intention through the sacred words, appealing for its intervention with your life.
Say the suggested mantra, either silently or out loud. Use a timer and set it for two minutes or three or five and increase it as your feel to expand the time. Start today. And do it two more times today. And tomorrow two more times, and every day do it three times during the day. The longer you can do it the quicker you will plant a seed thought and take control over the stabilizing of your mind. Even if you don't feel anything is wrong in your life, even if you feel you are healthy, wealthy and wise enough not to need any help from your Higher Self, you will be surprised at how much better life can be. How much life can be improved by relinquishing your limited ego control over your life and adding your Higher Self into the mix. We are here to live a 50/50 life as a human being having a human life on Earth with the inflow and input from the one infinite creator, your God/Goddess Self.
Close your eyes and drop your gaze as if to look at the tip of your nose. This tells your body to follow suit. Everything in your body is connected to the one intelligence - YOU! You are giving direction now to your body. You have assumed your body was you but you are NOT your body. You are wearing your body like a suit of clothes. You, your REAL self, is abstract mind, much more than a limited physical body. You are the mind. You are the mind that can expand infinitely to an ever greater intelligence. You are what controls your body by giving it a direction to go in. Perhaps you have not been doing because you didn't know how to. Concentrate your mind on this one sacred seed thought and see what happens over the next month. The Master DK is now guiding you as he has been guiding me over the last 47 years.
3/1/23 - Ascension Massage - "the bump in the road", Part 2
This morning (channeled 11/9/17) I had a download of information. I asked DK to please help me remember this information about the primal divine earth energies coming up and gathering at the first root chakra. Then it comes up to the 2nd chakra which is the reproductive or sexual chakra, and....? He answered:
In the animal kingdom the flow of primal energy divides out at the second chakra in order to create a division into two separate genders. There must be separate genders, male and female, to create a hunger for reuniting. Separation at the second chakra is necessary for duality to play out. There is engagement and play between the two forces which makes the world go around. And create babies. Reproduction is important to perpetuate the species. The animal kingdom operates on animal instinct. Now, the human being is also an animal but it has been cultivated with altered DNA to become more conscious than the animal. It has evolved to become self-conscious and it continues to evolve to become God conscious. It knows that there is a refinement that draws him to seek into the spiritual realms. But his sexuality and reproductive functions remain as an animal.
The human has allowed himself to retain the animal drive to copulate as all animals do. The mechanism to overcome this drive lies in the second chakra, where the division takes place in the animal kingdom. When the primal divine life force comes up to the first root chakra, to overcome this drive, instead of dividing out left and right, the mechanism is to remain WITHIN the second chakra and not allow the division to take place. The division that takes place is the male pushing out and the female withdrawing or receiving. When the human male stops pushing and the female stops receiving, they both can integrate and experience union. This is difficult to explain to a 3D consciousness.
I heard this in a 5D altered state and was able to retain this information. What we are doing with the Ascension Massage - originally I called it The Love Club massage swaps - is teaching people how to integrate their male and female sides in peaceful embrace, rather than the male pushing and the female dancing around trying to attract his attention or running away. To overcome this animal instinct to push and run away (male and female animal instinct) we humans are to learn how to not do that by way of reducing or diminishing our outward actions. When we slow down to a full conscious stillness and allow ourselves to integrate, then we overcome the animal instinct to push and dance. Do you understand? (DK talking. Channeled on 11/9/17)
2/28/23 - Ascension massage takes you over the "bump in the road" (part 1)
The bump in the road to which I refer is sexual tension. On this website there is page called "Massage", and under that page is a link to Ascension Massage. Ascension Massage has lately received an increase in the number of hits. Interest appears to be rising. The reason Ascension Massage has not been promoted lately (by me on this site) is because of the sexual issue. Issues over sex remain constant. They are puzzling. I've been unsure how to promote the divine love nature of Ascension Massage because sexual issues continue to rise and get in the way. Sex is a bump in the road. It is an obstruction to what I'm trying to present through Ascension Massage. And yet sex is not even real! It is a misnomer, a mislabeling. There is a divine nature that is being held back. Recent revelations are insisting I go ahead and start revealing what I know. "Don't worry", I am assured. "It is time to shake the tree and see what falls out."
Here is a simple example of what sex is. Imagine if you will someone who continues to beat you up with daily angry tirades. It doesn't hurt you physically, but it is a bother. It is part of your life and you have lived with it a long time but it creates an agitation. It is not a big deal but after a while it becomes irritating and you finally become physically disturbed by it. After days and weeks pass, maybe even months of this irrating way of life, suddenly the angry tirades stop! What happened? An emptiness rushes in bringing peace, tranquility, even bliss. Some might call it ecstasy or rapture. You suddenly experience the sensation of peace and you enjoy freedom like you haven't felt in a long, long time. This changes your life, your thoughts, your emotions, your appreciation and joy of life increases. You had an orgasm, a release of pressure that had built up.
This is what sex is - the cessation of continual pounding and beating at an internal door that was closed. Most people are unaware of this door. This is a new concept. You don't have to believe it, but this door is blocking the flow of the divine love that should be flowing up the spine and all through the body, maintaining your life in a constant state of harmony, peace, rightness, abundance and good relations. The spine is actually a pathway for divine energy to flow from the coccyx up to the crown of the head, and equally, for the life force to flow DOWN from the abstract intelligence of light and love, entering through the crown of the head and flowing into the soil of earth through the feet. We have not been introduced to this except for those of us who study the occult and esoteric sciences. Clairvoyants and mediums can see the energies moving, but not the average person with training or natural inclination.
This life force of which I speak is pure, unadulterated and uncontaminated by the human belief system. Human beliefs don't influence it or alter it. Humanity has built an artificial life around it, living off it like a parasite. But the divine life is flowing through us still. We just don't know about it. The divine life runs the show, breathes our breath for us, keeps the body functioning. And disease happens only when we block the flow.
We have been blocking the flow when it comes to sex, big time. Our ignorance causes all sorts of problems for us, and not just sexually. On all levels of life. Fortunately, we are on the brink of opening doors we have not had opened in eons of time. We have been held back so it's not our fault entirely. But we have resisted the natural flow of our own divine nature - the internal natural nature of love. We have fallen into dark hands and we have listened to them. We are now reaping the rewards today and learning to not listen. We are returning to our natural divine nature with slow, steady steps of awareness of love.
There is a waking up and transformation happening. Many people are prepared to shed light on the way sex has been mislabeled, mishandled and abused. We DO have the ability to fix it if we knew more about how it went wrong. This is merely a preliminary introduction to the problem of sex. We really didn't know!? We have no idea how badly we have messed up what could have been a most beautiful love affair with life and over the centuries. There is a natural flow of bliss, love and joy running through our bodies - we tune into it now and then (ask the lovers of the world!) - but there is a closed door when it comes to mechanical sex. There is more to come.
Ascension Massage is a new method to bring ecstatic divine love up through the body PAST the sex block, not repressing it but lifting it up, raising it up, with honor, love and respect, up past the bulge that we refer to as a sexual need to release. When we release the divine love at this lower level (by cumming) we spend it outward into the physical abdomen and intestines, and the rest of the body cells and tissues - the stomach, heart, lungs, brain and more - doesn't receive it. Which is why we stay at the same consciousness level and don't grow wiser and happier. There is a next step. Tomorrow there will be more. Tune in!
2/26/23 - Accessing your higher self - part 2
Close your eyes and concentrate on the picture of yourself that you have chosen, the one you really love above yourself. Use this photograph as an image to fix your attention upon. Close your eyes and recreate this image above you high in the sky, in the clear blue of the sky and inside a bright, dazzling sun, like the real sun we see every day. Imagine a clear blue sky and the sun at zenith. Imagine you inside the sun. You are coming through the sun right now as your immaculate, perfect self, streaming like the TV show streams through the televion set into your living room. Right this very moment your perfect self is streaming through the sun and down into your body through a radiant ray of light, alongside other radiant rays of light of others in form.
Imagine this image. Focus on it. You are being created as an endless stream of perfection - a human being in form - and you are being created eternally. We experience "time" where we are in our bodies, but the one infinite creator does not experience time. It is the creator in the eternal moment of now. And you are riding into the earth's atmosphere constantly as a perfect creation of ahuman being. You are the creation of the one infinite creator - the one we call "Father" or "Lord". You were not created in the past; you are being created eternally now. Always. It is difficult for us to understand this, but picture yourself over your head in the brilliant sun. There is no time in the sea of eternity. You are living in the now and you know you are living because you are breathing - inhaling and exhaling, pumping blood through your organs which are functioning - you are being created always, in the now moment. There is only one now moment in eternity and you are living in that one moment, right now. Even though we do not see or realize this brilliant perfect "Me" or "I", it is happening, nonetheless. It is the consciousness of "me" or "I". This consciousness cannot be taken from us. We are conscious. We are aware. And we can grow our consciousness. We can expand it. We can refine it. We can tune in to a more beautiful "me" or "I". We do this through the art of concentration and blocking out all other images. Just for a short while. With practice we learn to hold this positive image for longer periods.
You are now creating a picture of yourself in the most beautiful image you can find of yourself. Photographs work perfectly for a starter. You are using a photograph that you like about yourself, that pictures you in a way that pleases you. You are placing that image into the sky above you inside a sun that you are creating in your mind, using the powers of concentration but you are opening a channel to receive more. You have a mind, an intelligence, an awareness, that you are using to create this channel. You use your mind all day long in more finite ways but now you are using your mind to open to more than you know. So far you have used your mind to create worries, anxieties, illusions, projections, relationships and a way of life that suits you. You create through the ability to find comfort and peace. More and more, people are learning to relax and use their minds in more expansive ways. Still, there are any distractions. The world is going through an upheaval, a regurgitation of old ways and a transition to newer, more uplifting ways of living. The world is giving birth to greater light. The old ways are falling behind. Chaos is in the air because there are 8 billion people on the planet, and each one is going through their own transition.
We tend to consider the feelings of other people around us, we like to help. But we cannot help with the undercurrents that are flowing. Stick to your own game plan. Follow your own heart and dream. That is the reason for accessing your higher self. Only your higher self knows what is good for you. Your higher self is the immaculate self that is flowing continually through you. Tune into it. Let others find their own higher self. It is not your job to assist them, unless there is an obvious way that you can step in. Then, in that case, step in and help, but don't get distracted from your main job - that of tuning into your own higher self which has the answers and solutions for you alone.
The state of the world is in chaos as the light is causing us each to shift focus to ourself alone. Silent mediation on our self alone brings peace and contentment if we stabilize into the practice. You use your mind all day long on "other things" not yourself, so you seldom tap into your own perfection which is ever present, flowing in on your breath, inhaling it and exhaling it as we speak, as I type these words. Only the wisest of the wise human beings take the time to STOP! Stop focusing on "other things" and focus on the perfection that is flowing through you right now. The immaculate concept that would bring you awareness of peace and revelations concerning your own life. Everyone thinks the immaculate concept refers to Mother Mary of biblical scripture, the mother of Jesus. But it pertains to the perfection of every form flowing into existence. Your form is building and flowing along a perfect pattern - a pattern called the Adam Kadmon, the Christ. It is a perfect human shape. All the organs are in perfect place to perform their function. Every cell is in place, every molecule, every organ, the brain, your heart, your lungs, your spleen, liver, kidneys, toes, fingers, hands, blood flow, nerves - everything is perfect because you are being created from the mind of the one infinite creator in this very moment.
Tune into the photographic image that you are holding in your hands, close your eyes and recreate this image in your mind. See yourself in the brilliant dazzling white light of the sun. Your image is almost lost in the sunlight because the sun is SO bright, SO dazzling, SO brilliant, SO all consuming. Yet, you can see yourself inside that radiant light because you are coming through the light. You are a thought of the creator, just as the sun is a thought of the creator. You are a part of the light as a unique and separate creation. You are the perfect creation that is being radiated outword as we speak of it. The one infinite creator did not create you a "long time ago" so that you had "time" to become lost. There is no time in the infinite expanse of forever. It is all happening in the eternal now. Be HERE NOW and picture yourself densifying into your current human form. You are manifesting as an embodied form. Hold that image for as long as you can. If your mind wanders, pull it back to the image of your immaculate self coming into manifestation as your current you. This is coming through strongly to me as I release these words. The image of the immaculate concept is always streaming forth. No matter where you "think" yourself to be, no matter what situation you "think" yourself in, be aware of this perfect immaculate you. This beautiful image of yourself that you hold in your mind right now.
The reason for holding it above your head is so you reach up to it. Think up to it as an open chalice to receive the divine blueprint as it funnels down into your crown. Receive it and create a direct line, a link, a thread, a channel, a path from you on the earth plane in your physical body that is aging, upward to the more of you that you do not see. You are using a photograph to picture yourself, to plant your image in the open spaces of the sky as a portal. The image is not the real you, it represents a frequency, a divine idea, a master plan coming from the creator flowing down into concrete form. The immaculate concept cannot be understood by the finite personality ego, but it can be open to receive revelation from the divine. That is what we want to do here - receive revelation. We need to have a portal to fix our attention on with an open, eager mind. It has been eternally flowing down but we have not known about it, so we have missed it. It is constantly descending down, and manifesting as clumps of solar fire into concrete atoms, cells and molecules to form a human body. We are creating this open channel by visualizing it. Visualizations are a thousand more effective than words. They are like containers into which we receive the divine substance that is flowing. Visualizations are like buckets put out in the rain to collect water. Something has to hold the water or it will be lost in the fray.
Create this pathway by holding this picture for as long as you can in one sitting. Then release it and return to your normal life. Continue to live your life as you normally would, do not "try" to make it better or different. Let the divine handle the absorption and correction as it flows into your daily life. Periodically, sit in the quiet and alone time and hold the vision again. Your human nature is valuable. Continue to construct it with purpose and vision. Your human ego and understanding is growing stronger as you do this. You are learning as you grow through the life you live as (insert your name). Your friends and family are doing the same but on a different time line than you. Don't expect them to follow along beside you. They too have an immaculate concept breathing through them but their time for understanding is different from yours. The more you sit in quiet and peace, holding this immaculate image, the more you strengthen the river of universal harmony and abundance into your physicalness. Be here now. Hold this beautiful image of yourself and notice the merging and how it affects your life. Know that the real sun in the sky is a distribution center for your immaculate blueprint. Your knowledge of this will keep the channel open more and more. Keep strengthening the path of light that is coming through the sun. Both the "real" sun in the sky and the "imagined" sun that you create in your mind.
Concentrate. This is work. Work at picturing yourself. Hold this image. If your mind wanders, pull it back with will power and determination. Work at holding the picture of your immaculate self - or the best image of yourself that you can muster. It is above you coming down from an abstract intelligence and entering through the top of your head. Focus on the crown. Bring the image down through the crown of your head and into the brain so it can register on the physical cells of your brain and be distributed through physical nerve cells. Imagine a portal at the crown of your head and imagine the revelations flowing down through the opening at the top of your head. The crown portal is known as the Dweller on the Threshold. It is half inside the crown and half outside. It sits there as a sphere of light at the crown, half in and half out, an open portal that may be opened by your focused awareness with love and devotion for your higher self.
Imagine the flow of light flowing into your brain, picture your brain as it appears in graphic form, and see the light lighting up this brain. It flows through your brain and center of the head, manifesting as the pituitary gland, the master gland which activates the various functions of the body. The light flows easily through the channels designed in perfection by the master blueprint. The more often you picture the light flowing, the more perfection flows into your aging, deteriorating body. For those who study the yoga sutras, the pituitary gland is not the Ajna center. The Ajna center is projected out from the center of the head to the front of the forehead. It is used for sending or directing, like a laser beam.
Bring the image of your immaculate perfection down into your head center. See the brain and nervous system light up. The more you do this and the longer you hold this image of light manifesting in your physical, the more you solidify this truth into your finite physical body. Blend your divine immortal self with your fun-loving, pleasure-loving, excitable, ever changing humanity and you will notice an uptick in your sensations and life. You are creating a blend of your true self in the abstract and your physical body self as a concrete human being. With this practice we are channeling the abstract solar fire into the physical brain cells so they can carry the divine fire to other locations in the body. The solar fire is known as the Presence of God, the Dweller on the Threshold and the Christ. The divine wants to be in form. Unfortunately, we have been covered over with false impressions and projections of illusion and limited wrong beliefs. Focus more and more and for longer periods of time on the best version of yourself you can find, and hold that image in the sun. Strengthen the channel between the divine you and the mortal finite you.
2/25/23 - Accessing your higher self - part 1
Stamina comes from your Higher Self. You cannot create stamina without tapping into your Higher Self. Your Higher Self is all that you are up to date. It is all that you have experienced up to date. You have collected an amazing amount of stamina throughout the eons. You can call it vital life force or some other word, the word is not important. Understand what we mean by stamina. You have built it into yourself by the actual LIVING of it thru form life. After each form life you return to the non-form life, the heaven worlds. And then you return to form life again. You have experienced form life before this human life you are living now. Your mastery is built through living in form life, mastering the form life and growing from being in form and learning how to manage yourself in embodiment. Your spiritual self is actually built from living in an embodied planet. This stamina - you call it energy but there are different kinds of energy - comes from knowing how to maneuver in form. All that you have ever experienced in form is the excellent stamina that you wish you had more of.
You have lived on other planets too, not just on Earth. There are galaxies upon galaxies - solar communities of countless other planets - which host beings like humans and animals on their surfaces. Also you have had pre-human lives as animals, plants and even minerals before becoming human. From the beginning of your sojourn into form and substance, you have been a child of the one infinite creator experiencing embodied life in form and substance. You have been one consciousness, the same consciousness that you are enjoying now, today, and thinking you know it all. And you DO know it all. You know all that you know, but there is more that you don't know. There is always more to become known. And there are always others to guide you and talk to you telepathically. Stamina is knowledge lived. It comes from the accumulated "know it all" part of you. It is your innate knowledge. Your instinct. Your intuition. Your sense of being right. You can tap into that rightness, that knowingness starting now. It is all the knowledge and understanding that you have accumulated so far in the eons and eons of time living in embodied form. You can start right now, just as you are today, even if you have low self esteem and don't believe you can.
We call this innate self the Higher Self or the God Self. Or perhaps you call it the Lord. Whatever you are accustomed to calling it, it is above and beyond you because your body today is finite. It was built at your conception, so it is only one life old, where you have lived countless lives before. This body is only temporary, but you can train it if you learn how to access your prior life knowledge. This body will not last forever unless you feed it with your past life memories, and then it may live longer than you planned. This body was built just for you for THIS life. It was built at the time of your conception and birth by your earth mother. So this body that you are living in today does not have memory of your past lives. But YOU do, you as an everlasting eternal consciousness. Your consciousness is what we call the spiritual self. You are eternal. You live over and over again in different forms. You grow up and learn the current culture by living in that particular form, and then that form passes away and you go on to the heavenly fields to debrief and consider the next step in form. You have embodied in various forms and usually don't remember them. You learn how to maneuver that one particular form that you currently inhabit, and you tap into your prior knowledge through some kind of homing device called instinct. Instinct is inherent. It is prior knowledge that has accumulated in your consciousness - that which we refer to as soul.
You don’t remember your past lives unless you have tapped into your Higher Self. You can tap into your Higher Self right now, and I will teach you a method how to do that. Your higher self is best known as intuition. It is innate. It is not just inside of you, it is your life force, your consciousness, your breath of awareness with which you first come awake and aware in the morning after sleep. Or after a coma of long duration. You are all that you have EVER been and ever experienced. You are awareness. You just don’t remember prior lives easily. Some of us do. But it is in THIS body that we are primarily focused. Learning to maneuver in THIS body. THIS body is a new body. It doesn't have the memories that YOU have as an everlasting consciousness. You probably haven't had the opportunity to know this before now, or maybe you have. Many people are learning about their spiritual selves today. Humanity is growing by leaps and bounds into higher consciousness levels. But if you don’t know how to access your Higher Self, I will give you some hints tomorrow. You have been held back on this planet called Earth. It has been a dark planet up until recently. Earth is growing up and taking on more of HER higher self too. Mother Earth is also an intelligent entity who has been held back. She is of a different species than human. She belongs to the planetary tribe. All planets belong to the planetary tribe. They can communicate with each other through the solar system - their male counterpartner. They host the human, animal, plantlife and other species on their surfaces.
If you are willing I would like to share with you some ways to access your Higher Self. These are from my own personal experiences. I will tell you more tomorrow. This is a prelude to lay a foundation before beginning. All techniques have a basis of a foundation, a reason for being to share and pass on to others. One must be prepared in order to be open enough to receive. Otherwise, why would you waste your time? Search your photographs and scrapbooks tonight and find a photo of yourself that you really, really like of yourself. The one photo that gives you a good feeling about yourself. One that shows you in the way you would like to look today. What quality does it bring to mind? Beauty? Dignity? Nobleness, grace, power, strength, intelligence? Whatever quality you most admire and want to enhance in yourself. That feeling can be enhanced with the help of your Higher Self. You can access this quality by picturing your Higher Self in a certain way. The photo can be of any age, it doesn’t matter. It can be used as a reminder, a reflection, thru which to access skills that you have but are currently beyond reach because your physical body and brain never experienced them before. Tomorrow then.
2/24/23 - Don't suppress the ego, soften it, and Tantra
Don’t suppress the ego, soften it. Many people think the personal ego is bad, but the Masters say you don’t want to suppress or repress your personal ego, or deny it, or even subdue it. Rather, soften it. Care for it with the wise gentleness of a good mother, because your human ego is of personal value - to you and to others. It is your uniqueness. The great plan behind all plans is to integrate your personal value, your knowledge and unique individuality into the overall master plan - the Oneness out of which all springs forth into form. The divine Oneness is ever growing richer because of the individual minds merging into it.
It is this Oneness that is the I AM Presence that descends into form. The I AM God Presence created you and supports you on your individual journey. It is immortal. It is the One I AM that created all forms everywhere. The great mystery is how this is done. We are on the road of discovery, each one of us, learning how it is done. It is the ONE out of which life springs a'new every day, every moment, eternally refreshing us if we can understand that and tap into it. The I AM is eternally new and more than it was before, because individual minds are constantly returning home with their individualities vastly expanded with understanding.
The problem we all experience is this. We as an individual mind have grown an intelligent branch off of the ONE intelligence, separate and apart from the great ocean of love and unified ooneness. Yet we cannot escape it entirely, we can only go off separate and alone, away from it. We can reject it and refuse to listen to the guiding voice within, but we cannot escape it because we ARE the oneness having a separate temporary experience. We are still in the oneness, or rather, the one vast intelligence is still in us. Many have taken the dark road away from love and light, for we have free will. But the better advice is always to go within and listen to the still small voice of conscience, of heart, of love.
We have each had many experiences out in the darkness as separate intelligences, away from the light and the love of the one infinite creator. We not only can say "I did it my way!" - we MUST do it "my way". That is the only way to find the light and the love within. No one else can do it for you. You are on a separate path from your friends. That is why your personal ego is not bad. It just needs to be softened, blended with the love and light within so it can feel wanted, valued and held in high esteem. Bad criminal cruel mean behavior is not valued, it needs to be awakened to the value it is running away from.
We all did many things against our own inner conscience, light and loving heart, but it taught us the value of right and wrong. We benefitted from the results. Good results from good and right behavior, and bad results from wrong behavior. We learned as we traveled and experimented about the value of having friends and being kind and doing the morally right thing, even if no one noticed. And we learned it was not worth it to go against that inner knowing. We learn to maintain personal integrity over the long haul. We learn to be less selfish, or perhaps we learn to be MORE selfish - those of us who are constantly giving our power away to the point of exhaustion - for there is a constant balance we are seeking to maintain. The balance is done within, by noticing, acknowledging the truth and applying it. The spiritual life is the path of maintaining balance between our own dual natures.
When you get angry, tone it down, bring it back to gentleness with words and considerations. The separate ego thinks it is all alone in life and it maintains a stubbornness to survive, not unlike the child having a temper tantrum. When things don’t go its way, it strikes out in ways that are not good for the whole. It sheds violence on the neighbors and family. Tone it down. Treat it with love and kindness and show it respect, and the personal ego will respond in kind. It needs to be respected. It needs to feel valued because it is a part of us. It is not separate. Be patient and kind to yourself. On a higher level you are your own God, your own Father God and your own Mother God. Be nice to yourself. Find a way that is balanced and does not hurt someone else in your vicinity. Work on this. The soul is a work in progress. The soul is the child learning how to live life in form in a balanced way. Then happiness is felt. Joy is felt. Abundance is felt.
The ego is the human child being raised by the Father-Mother God within. Father is abstract intelligence without form; the Mother is abstract intelligence INSIDE the form, flowing through the form as the life blood, circulating through the heart, lungs, nerves, glands and organs. You have access to the Father-Mother God within, for you are both the ego as little child and the wise parents of spiritual nature. As the little child you don't know this until you begin connecting with the love and light within - the Father-Mother who is the one infinite creator flowing through you. Act more like the father-mother God within you and you will mature as an ego. At that point you begin changing into aspects of the Divine Ego, which is more loving, graceful, patient and kind. You will be noticed as becoing a more peaceful, refined personality.
There are many religious and spiritual names used to refer to the Divine Ego – Higher Self, God-Self, Spirit, Holy Christ Self, Divine Feminine, Divine Masculine, but it is not the word that matters. It is your understanding that matters. When we live in a solid body form, we are operating on a closed circuit, not knowing these things. We are using that program that we were born into. Everyone born here in the past uses that program. It is "time" and "space", closed off restricted area from the wide open fields of intelligence, harmony and love. Here on this planet called Earth we were oriented to feeling separate. We were taught survivalism as one alone. There were survival laws that helped guide us. But things are changing. We are growing so wise now, the inhabitants of Earth, that we have entered into a higher consciousness field. It is known as the 4th dimension. The 4th dimension is one where we are sorting through things and making some choices and decisions that affect our future. We are choosing more wisely and with more unity consciousness. We want to live more peacefully and less in violence. As we find more and more self-enlightenment techniques on the net, we are stimulated to join classes or at least read about them and investigate a little further. Humanity is on the verge of raising the world's population to 5th density. In 5th density there is no violence. We leave violence behind us when we enter into that level of awareness.
Life continues on the 5th dimensional Earth differently than it did on the 3rd and 4th level of awareness. Too many people are now aware. Too many people want peace instead of fighting for survival. It is a different way. That is why your personal ego has value. IT is the one who is changing. The little egos are growing up and deciding in right ways that benefit everyone around them. We are integrating with our divine Father and Mother parent which is waiting for us. For we ARE the parent. We ARE the divine within, having a childhood lesson. Believe in a more unified and gracious way of life, considering the values and rights of others around you, and you will be valued in return more than you have been in the past. Rather than repress your personal needs, wants and desires, work with them and instill in them larger graciousness.
As a side note, for many years I have been seeking to understand the Tantra way of life, which is not sexual. The reason people think it’s about sex is because sex is the first door to open that allows the divinity to expand into the form body. The feeling is one of loving attraction which sort of overwhelms the young person in puberty. It is the beginning exposure to the power known as kundalini, or in the west known as the holy spirit. It is the secret power that lies in the etheric body at the base of the spine - specifically surrounding the coccyx. This area of the body is the geometric center of the human body. At a certain point in the aging of the body, it opens partially, gently, to allow these feelings to expand up the spine. Sexual feelings are the result. It is a touch of the divine nature within. The body feels it as sensually warm and loving. But since we have been born into a physical-only form of living, we seek an outward way to express it. With another person or through masturbation. We did not have teachers or guides to take us through this early stage of puberty. Unfortunately, in the dark ways of Earth, there were people (and still are) who became obsessed with the body feeling and abused younger ones and more vulnerable people. This has caused a lot of damage. Fortunately we are on the cusp of exposing this long abuse. New teachings are coming out fast in these days, especially about the kundalini or the sacred fire, as it is known. It is the divine nature that has been held locked inside the human body for eons. Now is the time for truth of the power behind sex to be revealed. Tantra is one of the paths that have an ancient grounding the sacred Vedas of India, I am told. I personally have not read them but the Masters have guided me. Kundalini is the Mother God flame at the base of the spine, called Shakti to the impersonal God Shiva which is abstract intelligence.
On a human level, yes, sex is the beginning. It is feeling so divine that if you are fortunate enough to have a Tantric master who will guide you, you will be led into a life of personal empowerment that no other spiritual path can match it. I was fortunate to have been given a Tantric Master 47 years ago, after I went into the Light by a dramatic awakening of Kundalini, without my having been prepared. When the shakti started to purify me of everything that I was made of that was embedded in me from childhood and previous lifetimes, it was a makeover which I didn't understand. I had no choice but to live through it. It was - and I love this phrase! - a blessing and a curse. My husband at the time and I were drawn into the lifestyle of swinging and through free intimate sex I became grounded back into normalcy, but with a lingering yearning for ever higher love which other people could not provide.
Bad situations and frustrations had to be confronted and dealt with, but in the long run the good benefits won out. I learned more through the swinging lifestyle than I could ever tell. I become more patient, more understanding, softer, kinder, gentler and more dignified. Tantra does not exclude sex but it does not focus on sex. Sex is not forbidden. It is a threshold over which a person passes to get to the larger room inside. It is a change in perspective. It changes the focus from hard bodies and hard outlines to softer, larger, more etheric bodies and outlines, and sensitivities. The sex act loses its crudity and matures into love-making. Sex becomes no longer a goal-oriented act. It becomes less physical and more sensual, more kind, more loving toward self and the other person. More considerate to self and the other, more elevating, more worshipful and reverent. There is a heavenly aspect that most do not quite reach but is available if one does not give up reaching for it. And also one becomes more discriminating and discerning about who you have sex with. You can feel a person’s motives and intentions when you are near them. You can read them. The energy fields overlap in close proximity and you can't fail to know what they are made of. And if you feel compatible you feel free to make love with a perfect stranger. That is, if your wife or husband doesn't resist.
The shakti (kundalini) is not directed towards the orgasm and physical penetration. It wants to go higher than that. It is energetically and magnetically attracted to beyond the heart and head to the Home from which it came. It wants to go Home so it expands up the spinal column in search of that ultimate blissful connection. Tantra is the path of learning about this mysterious power of enlightenment. The masters of Tantra teach how to build the power up and not to spend it on orgasm, but not to get lost in the shuffle either. It can go to the sun if you let it or it can be used with another human being in ecstatic lovemaking. Or it can rise up the spine and out the top of the head to reach ever higher levels of bliss and ecstasy alone, without a partner. Without a teacher who knows, a person will continue to want satisfaction from sex with someone else and will be driven by sex. Sex is not bad, but it can be misused to hold someone back from maturing into fulfillment. Sex is not the purpose of the kundalini. It is only the first step on the ladder to heaven. Tantra teachers guide a student into understanding both sides of the coin, both the spiritual and the human.
The power behind sex is a higher power of a divine, immaculate nature. It must be guided and understood how to work with it. When sex is first felt at puberty, it is felt as a loving thing. Without guidance it becomes focused on the physical body seeking something. Without wise teachers to guide the one in puberty, the young one stays with that focus - seeking the opposite gender for sex and penetration. How can he or she not know differently? So the all important focus is then finding a mate to help us fulfill ourselves. Or we are abused by someone else and thrown into trauma. The Tantric path is a path of spiritual enlightenment, not sex but may include sexual orientation. I have been writing about it for a long time.
2/23/23 - Rise above the stagnating energies of the body
This morning while showering I heard, "Rise above the stagnating energies of the body. The mind is your playground. Play! It brings you joy by discovery." The voice continued and I wrote on paper.
The world is a world of discovery. It is where you have the luxury of comparing differences. Only in the form life do you have differences. In the heavenly fields you don't have these differences. Let discovery be your game and your motto. You are learning how the great sages made their enlightenment. And why they are always in peace and joy. It is a lesson of discovery after discovery after discovery. Excitement of discovery, after excitement of discovery, after excitement of discovery. This is what grows your mind to happier planes and more fulfillment. It is a lesson of great importance. Make excitement your path. Your path to enlightenment is being highlighted with your discoveries and your excitements. Use your mind! Your master has led you thus far, now it is up to you to continue walking this path. Learn to do it yourself. Learn by trying it out for yourself. Instead of looking to your master every day and pouring over past journals, look to your OWN ability to discover excitement energy. Become your OWN master. Let your mastery over your dullness and boring stagnation emerge and guide you forward to discovery. Let excitement be your guide and dullness be a sign to turn around and go in another direction.
Life in form is filled with comparisons. The diversity is immense. This is the life of learning and growing. Of discovery that fills you with excitement. Discover what brings you down and what brings you up to high points. Discovery teaches you the proper use of your mind. The improper use of the mind is to let disappointment and frustration and bad attitudes stay inside you un-used, un-expressed and un-wanted. Don't hang onto them. Get ahead of your body’s tendency to stagnate. USE the discouraging energies and don’t let them sit and stew in you. Use them up. Use them as fuel. Use them in action. Put them to work. Do something with them. They are fuel for consumption. They are energies. That's all they are. Action is required to get rid of them. Don’t sit and stew in them. Get a grip on yourself. Make yourself get up and move in another direction. Don’t let bad energies sit inside of you bringing you down. Use bad energies to accomplish something positive. Spend them like money. Consider them fuel for your bank account. Whirl around like a spinning top if there is nothing else you can do.
Get them out of your system, out of your head, out of your muscles, they are holding your down. Get them out of your body and into the air and your energy field where they become free to disband into the light. Think AIR! Think UP! Think LIGHT! Send them UP and out into the air by the directing force of your conscious mind. Then stay open, stay ahead of stagnation. Don’t let old energies accumulate in your tissues. Be greater than your body. Your body is a shell composed of past energies that have accumulated and you did not know. Past energies from yesterday and last year and from childhood and prior lives. Be more than the accumulated energies of the past. The past has come and gone. Find NEW excitements. Be gentle with yourself as you walk slowly into new excitements. New excitements will move you in positive directions. They are like a flowing river. Follow the river of moving excitement. Let the river of your life teach you and guide you in a spontaneous and free way. But do not hurt anyone in your flowing. Be kind and be sensitive in your flowing. Be benevolent, be creative. Let freedom come and let freedom go out from your body. Don’t keep them close inside of you.
Share them with others. Tell your stories. Meet and converse openly with others. Share your discoveries. Spin them into action. Be a flowing river of stories and excitements as they come into your life and flow out, leaving you open-minded and open-hearted. Free to receive further flowing from the universe.
2/22/23 - Dissolving into larger love - don't turn it personal
I asked DK this morning, how do you be physically close without turning it personal or sexual? It's a philosophical question, intended to enlarge my intellectual understanding of this very major process. I was thinking of holding a women's session. He responded: "It requires silence. It’s not about touching. You don’t have to hug or lie down together. That would expose you to physical toxicities held in the body. Be close within the auric fields so they overlap."
He continued. "You can start with 4 or 6 women in a circle with a goal in mind, as you have been learning in the Tantra books. But this is not for sexual fulfillment. Its purpose is for grounding the holy light into the flesh body, as in the light body known as the christ body. This requires refinement of those impulses and tendencies when tend to rush, to reach, to stroke and to pull towards, which we call groping. The urge to reach for another body or to repel another body, comes up in people. It is the magnetic attraction of the earth forces. One must resist the earth force push and pull. You are to manage this impulse.
The practice is an inner practice to hold steady in the quiet in your body, in your mind, in your feelings. We use visualizations. Imagine a column of refined light coming down from above, through you and into the earth below. Know that this column of light is really a column of love. It is the ALL-THAT-IS direct from the heart of the sun behind the sun which comes from the creator, the father-mother God. An outsider’s touch or presence would be less than this holy light, holy love. This is the love-light of your own light body, your christ body. You swoon into it and everything human in you melts and dissolves in the light and love of your christ body. With practice you will not fall to the floor, as some have done, but contain it within your mind, body and feelings. This is the next step practice.
Anchor the light, which is actually love, into your human body, your physical flesh body which is composed of thoughts, beliefs, intentions, desires, tendencies, resentments, bitterness, hatreds, sorrows, weaknesses - all of the human stuff that is not holy. By allowing yourself to remain silent and centered, you will experience receiving the holiness of the love that is coming down into the ground through your visualization, you prepare your body to become the God-self in human form. All-knowing, all-wise, it dissolves all personal tendencies, involvements, attachments, etc. With each practice session it leaves you refreshed, open, aware, more knowledgeable, and infinitely more capable of FEELING love. Dissolving personal attachments is done without damage, effort or pain. There is never any pain when love dissolves personality stuff. Human relationships are possessive and controlling, so these are dissolved in the larger love. Your love enlarges to embrace so much more.
If you are connecting with your light body, christ body, it is a solitary process. You, the child, are becoming the grown-up now - one with your father-mother God. You are becoming the adult, the mature God-man or God-woman. The holy Christ self in physical form. Others will not have jurisdiction over you.
2/20/23 - How to eliminate a fuzzy head
After having a quiet household for years, just the two of us, we have a friend living with us who has been displaced from her home in the flood, and has many problems she is trying to resolve from our home. The house is buzzing with different energies, not our own. It is a time for learning. How to cope with other energies so close at hand? Not knowing what to do, I began searching among the hundreds of different methods offered by those who know, including the Ascended Masters, but which one? It's not like there are no solutioins. It's a matter of which solution to utilize, because it requires calmness and concentration to apply such methods that deal with out-of-balance energies that are disturbing. I have created my own buzzing energy field in the process, giving me a non-stop fuzzy brain.
Now I am finally getting it. It took a while. The correct answer is: I have to take charge of my own energies and not follow someone else's method. Stop looking for answers and start doing something. Nobody else's method applies to my situation because it is me and my own consciousness that creates the problem, and I have to do something about it myself. It's a consciousness thing. So no meditation today, just action is requried. I must consciously accelerate the electrons, atoms and cells in my own body, mind and energy field to bring in greater clarity and vision.
I am being told: Accelerate the body’s cells and feel the stimulation of interest. Become interested again in life. Speeding up the body’s cells, atoms and electrons clears away the effluvia, the debris, the old dead energy that weighs you down. Use this energy, don't let it stagnate. I can tell already - it works. Keep busy. It should not be manually difficult labor but be productively busy. Then lie down to rest, calmly and peacefully, for 20 or 30 minutes to allow the body to recuperate and fall back into its normal natural alignment. This part is crucial - to rest inbetween bouts of productivity and/or busy-ness. It prevents stress and tension from building up. Then get up and move again. You'll feel a lot better. It will clear the energies that are foreign to you. It will clear your head.
It helps to keep a running list of what you have accomplished during your active periods. Seeing the results of your productive and creative efforts not only boosts your energy, confidence, self-esteem and enthusiasm towards life and living, it actually increases the life force, allowing it to move through your blood, muscles and organs so you feel the building of stamina flowing through your physical body. Keep track of your good works. Journal your recovery process during your "down times" so you can remind yourself what to do again in the future.
2/18/23 - Nurturing Healing Love Massage Exchanges
A long time ago I was told by the Master Djwahl Khul: "Do not ask the male to change - just present the female.” A persistent dream nags at me to establish an ascension massage exchange network where individuals can meet others for mutual partner exchanges to assist in the growing need to overcome ascension symptoms. I have no idea how many people are aware of "ascension symptoms" but the world is going through not only climate changes but humans are too. There is a lightening process taking place worldwide, a consciousness elevation, a broadening, a widening, an awareness of one's personal space becoming more refined. Consciousness is becoming more spiritual, more rarified. Yet, the dense physical body and brain are the same. This is causing havoc on the coarse physical body which has been programmed to low expectations. Life has been restricted in many ways. There is an inner struggle going on, trying to understand. How to cope.
My desire for an ascension massage exchange network hasn't manifested yet, mostly because I haven't been ready before now. I have been advancing my understanding to the point where I have to do something soon or I'll leave my body and go elsewhere. (Just kidding.) I am by nature a passive person and a follower, not a leader so I've been doing lots of inner work, homework and opening myself up to specialized training. The ascension massage is a soft, gentle nurturing feminine approach, using priestess skills of ancient origin. It is not sexual. If there is a sexual body response, we simply ignore it and raise the energy up over the block and keep going. It is done consciously, mentally and intentionally. There are many lifetimes of training in this art.
The goal of ascension massage is to connect the pure uncontaminated light and love in one person to the pure uncontaminated light and love in another person. The light and love is the same in both persons, it is the HUMAN that makes us each different. The goal is to merge the uncontaminated light with the HUMAN. This is the hard part that we've been missing. Mutual body exchanges without sex or emotional attachment can do this. We are to merge the human with the divine so the human becomes the individualized god/goddess that is destined to be. We do it without emotionial or sexual involvement. When sexual response happens we direct our attention higher, that's all. We elevate it. We don't suppress it but raise it up higher. It takes some training to do this, and practice.
When we exchange ascending massage, the uncontaminated light and love from both giver and receiver combined is stronger than from just one person alone. It washes away the toxic energies in the system that cause confusion, sickness, pain and suffering. What most people are unaware of is that there is an immaculate blueprint within them, within everyone, including bad evil people. They wouldn't be alive, breathing and walking around if they did not have an immaculate divine blueprint functioning in their body. This divine blueprint has been covered over by imprinted false cultural programming from birth on up to the present day. This perfect immaculate blueprint can't be contaminated by human error or mistakes. It just can't. You can try but you can't contaminate it. It doesn't matter how bad a person is or what crimes they've committed, or how mean, cruel or vicious they are in life, they have a perfect immaculate divine blueprint that has been covered over by the culture. It can be uncovered with education, training and believing enough in it to do daily homework - and exchanging an ascension massage can help if they are willing to trust in the process. This immaculate blueprint is the life force of the body known historically as the christ, short for crystal or crystalline. Everyone has one.
The Ascended Masters have been guiding me to establish an ascension massage exchange for a long time. Click HERE to see the original posting back in 2014. An ascension massage leads to total bliss IF the receiver is ready to receive and can open to trusting the giver. The goal of receiving one is to become a giver of one. We will be creating a network of partner exchanges by starting one at a time, discussion and practice. I am starting it here, now, by writing about it.
If you are hungry for some loving touch, it requires giving loving touch in return, without sexual or romantic involvement or expectation. This is a higher form of love. A deeper form of love that goes to the bottom of the soul and collects the remnants of past action and brings them forth for redeeming. The result is feeling washed clean. It is divine nurturance. This is a spiritual technology that is older than the planet itself, and a teaching that comes from beyond the earth, beyond the galaxy and beyond the stars. There have ALWAYS been teachers of this ancient temple skill. Only those who were inclined to learn it, came again and again, over many lifetimes to the quiet cultures to be trained in out-of-the-way monasteries and underground sanctuaries, away from the noise and cloudy atmosphere of the evolving residents. It is a sacred art and a universal science. The universe operates on love. Love is the longing that everyone has in their deepest heart. We wish sometimes that our relationship partner would do this for us but it doesn’t happen. They haven't been taught. The art of feminine nurturing healing love is a higher science. The word feminine does not mean women only, it refers to the soul. It is the soul that is feminine.
If you are interested in learning and practicing it, contact me privately and we will plan. There is no cost involved. This is something new and exploratory. It is an exchange of loving soft nurturing energy, not to be compared with anything that has been experienced before. We will dip into ancient times when the planet was young, pure and full of the holy spirit unspoiled by humans. The world was quiet then. Serene. We will call upon the ancient land, peaceful and pure and warmed by the ancient sun. We will ask the sun to blow its ancient purity into this tired, weary body. We will call on ancient winds to blow through the cells and clear away the stress. We will call upon the ancient waters to wash away the tension in this body. We will ask the ancient trees to breath their green and pure oxygen through this body. We will ask the ancient flowers and herbs to sprinkle their healing fragrance deep into this soul and melt away the tightness in this body. We will ask the ancient sun to warm this body with its healing rays. We will call upon the ancient healing masters to place their sparkling spirit hands upon this body with nurturing love and light.
We will ask you to tune into the ancient quiet and tune out all outside thoughts. Focus on the here and now in this room. Stop thinking. Feel the quiet and trust the ancient peace that comes in. Develop the skill of tuning into harmony. One way to stop thoughts is to listen to your own breath. Notice the sound your breath makes. Feel your lungs and stomach inflating and deflating like balloons. Feel your hands with a thousand pores in the palm, inhaling clean white light and exhaling clean white light. Picture the bottoms of your feet with thousands of tiny pores opening and breathing in mother Earth on the inhale, and blowing out on the exhale. Imagine inhaling Earth magnetism up your legs to your heart and head, opening arteries and veins and exhaling down into the Earth again. Picture the pores in the skin on your back and spine opening as you inhale, and emptying out on the exhale. Picture your crown opening as you inhale, drawing in light from above, filling up your brain cells, and exhaling down the central column to Earth.
Imagine nurturing soft hands stroking your skin. Not heavy, not coarse, but light and airy. You might have a sheet covering your nakedness, or not, your choice, or light clothing. Expand into the air around you. Spiritual energy is all around you. Prana can be seen as sparkles. Manna is in the air. It is not mystical or mysterious. Prana and manna come from the sun. It is activated by your own consciousness. You are the one who creates manna and prana by connecting with the light and the love from the sun. You are the one who provides the force field of energy of light that encircles you and enfolds you. You are the one who refines it and makes it lighter than that of Earth atmosphere. Our bodies move inside this field of vitality which we create around us. It extends out to overlap with others. We are like fish swimming in an ocean of sparkling vitality. We were trained to focus on the physical world only - the hard edges of physical forms. Expand your eyesight and awareness beyond the form in a 360 degree circle so you can see into the heaven fields. You can with inner eyes and eyes that are beyond you. Picture yourself floating in a sea of pink light that extends into the distance. We are moving in a sea of energy like fish move in the sea. When we open our vision like this we stop thinking about day-to-day thoughts and begin drinking in the higher worlds. We allow the immaculate blueprint to sweep upward and outward around us, cleaning away the toxic energies, stress and tension that has been clinging to us. We are turning on our inner light and ascending our consciousness to higher realms.
2/15/23 - There is pure sweet love in the cells of your body
We are made of love. Love is everywhere. It governs the atoms and electrons of your body. Love is a conscious substance. It is intelligent. It is not felt as love when it is stuck and not moving, but it IS awake and aware. It is what moves your body around and your mind, brain and your feelings. It gives you breath and life. Inside the physical form made of substance, love is the atoms and swirling electrons that coalesce together and make up the cells, molecules and fibers of your body. If you did not have so many beliefs that cause you to be afraid, the atoms and electrons would be able to swirl and vibrate faster. The beliefs and thoughts are what restrict us. If we were more spontaneous and free we would feel lighter in body and happier in mind and feelings. It is limited belief - i.e., "I don't believe in such things" - and fear - i.e., "People are not to be trusted" - which leads to all sorts of negative attitudes that bog us down.
You use love to create because love drops your guard and expands your mind. Love is all there is. In the beginning creating something new is fun and exciting. You reduce love down into shape and form with substance and meat to it, by focusing with all your passion on your new creation. You take your ideas from infinite space and, with love, you mold and shape it into musical creations, artistic creations, relationships, school lessons, houses, tall buildings and bridges. You love to create. Your favorite creation is new relationships because old relationships tend to get dull and repetitious, repeating same old patterns over and over again is monotanous. New relationships feel good because you don't have any past memories or past mistakes to cast shadows. New relationships are pure love relationships. You glow when you think of your new lover or your new friend because nothing has spoiled it yet.
But creating in the world of form - our world of solid physicality - is pushing the envelope. We are each creating something new and so it is by trial and error. Our creations are experiments. We actually don't know how a new creation is going to work out. We plunge in with excitement, all aglow. Whether it be a workshop like my dream, or a new relationship that you have made. We are passionate. It is something NEW!
Why don't our old relationships and our old workshops feel like enough for us? Because we haven't continued to polish them with our love. Instead of polishing them up every morning with caring attention, respect and gratitude for their existence, we replay thoughts that had their day and they're now "old". Yesterday's oldness and mistakes creep into our thinking. The habits of the day before and the day before that and the day before that, until we are remembering all the mistakes, errors, and feelings of those mistakes and we are bogged down. What was originally a glowing exciting love affair of whatever - art, music, a class, a book - dulls down and becomes discarded. And we turn our attention to something new. That's why a new relationship, a new art piece, a new music CD, a new anything is so much more exciting. We are creating something new and there is no past to get in the way.
Is there a solution to this? The Galactics say it best: Learn to create with love in everything you do. Every moment of every hour of every day. It is a learning process. We are evolving into more advanced human beings by expanding our love and broadening our hearts. We need to love what we created YESTERDAY. Not discard it. Revivify it by picking it up again and caring for it, giving it loving attention. The most important creation of all is a primary relationship. I know many primary relationships that are not happy but they THINK they are. They could re-create their original love relationship by not following the same patterns and routines but taking a new approach today. Something different. Like taking a different road home from the store to provide new scenery, even if it takes longer time to get home. Forget the past and concentrate, meditate, focus on love. Make it new again.
Learn to create love every morning when you wake up in your mind. Say it to the walls, the ceilings, the floor, the bed sheets: "I love you windows, I love you carpet, I love you books, I love you bureau, I love you lamp!" Forget your tired old mundane responsibilities for an hour and spend time saying this new mantra: "I love you clothes!" And say it out loud if you dare. The sound of a word vibrating the air creates new energy in the air. "I love you, air!" If you don't have a partner, focus love on and into yourself. Love is in you already but it's not moving. If it's not moving, it's stuck and stagnant. Electrons never stop speeding in the subatomic structure of your body, but they slow down. The best love of all is love for yourself, your liver, your lungs, you stomach, your intestines. This is ancient yoga being revived in America today. You can do it o the run, as I do, or you can take an hour to sit quietly in a carefully designed location to give you peace of mind. You can add quiet music playing, perhaps a candle or two or three, and saying, "I love my heart, I love my brain, I love my blood flowing through my veins." But you can do it as you move about. I do. But do it. Start naming the parts of your body and putting your own hands on your own body and feel the love come alive. You can feel it! Allow the love to flow from your hands into your skin. Your legs, your feet, your arms, your stomach, the top of your head. Know that love is constantly pouring through you and love is the swirling atoms and electrons. Love never ceases flowing but it dumbs down when it's not being spoken or focused on. Think love for 5 or 10 minutes, or 30 minutes or an hour. It will help you to NOT go back to thinking negative. This is how to speed up the vibrations of the atomic structure of your body, brain and feeling world.
If you have a primary relationship, give your partner a massage once a week WITH LOVE. Buy a massage table and see what happens. Give your child a massage WITH LOVING HANDS and see what happens. Give your new born baby a massage WITH LOVE when it cries and see what happens. Give a friend a massage. A platonic massage. Give your SELF a loving massage. I do (on occasion!). Then you are re-creating something new. You become a god or goddess in training when you do this with love. Pick up discarded love objects off the floor and dust them off - with love. They too are composed of swirling electrons and nobody ever pays the kitchen chairs or table loving attention. You can transform your dull home into a sacred temple by doing this. Take an object over to the light blazing through the window and examine them. Hold them close to your lips. Smell the sweet fragrance of the love that is held locked inside the atoms and molecules. Revivify all in your life and love it back to excitement again. Be a happy god or goddess. Keep resurrecting that which was cast aside as old.
2/9/23 - Physically upgrading
There has been little time lately to visit the website and post articles. There have been changes. Many changes. A wonderful friend lives with us now, temporarily, until she gets her house back after the Hurricane Ian swept it away. And because we have opened our hearts and doors to give our friend sanctuary, we have taken on renewed responsibilities. We have expanded in different ways. There is a new dynamic in our house. As a result of our commitment to this, Doug and I have been upgraded. We are transforming, meaning we are changing the way we do things. There is additional understanding. We are wiser than we were before, and these create challenges. The challenges create opportunities to change if we are willing, and these bring on new responsibilities. Do we accept them? It's a test. I have found it comes with choices. It's a two-way street. One can refuse or one can suck it up and grow bigger. Get past it. Then I discovered that new energy comes along with it. This is not easy, so I wanted to write about it. I may be seen as an easy-going person to my friends, but I'm as stubborn as anyone else underneath where I live with myself. I have to do it "my way". And that's the part that needs "sucking up".
So now I've been given some specific yoga breathing techniques by my invisible sources, the Himalayan masters. I was guided to three separate books, all of which were tied together on higher levels. They were threaded together. What a privilege to be so connected to benefit from telepathic hints sent to me! It is mind-boggling to wake up with instructions to go here and there and get some new guidelines. However, it is always my choice to accept the guidance. I don't have to but I've learned over the years to pay attention and listen. I got down the three books. They were: Tibetan Tantric Mysticism, a book I didn't know I had - my sister boxed up all her books and sent them to me before she died. Another one led me to Swami Rama, also from my sister. Check him out on Amazon for books, and Youtube for glimpses from lectures. He was raised by the Himalayan masters from the age of three. The third book is a homemade item I made from collections of wisdoms by others. All three books were threaded together by a similar subject. They all contained a thread guiding me to yoga breathing techniques. I was ready and prepared through past practices, and this piece of information took me up another level. A most amazing higher level. One more precise, more refined, more detailed and specific. It is all about focusing and sharpening my focus to see more and better. It's a most interesting journey, the journey towards more enlightenment.
As I practice these techniques I am finding I can do more physical tasks. There is more power. Not muscle power but power of a greater nature. I am energized. It is surprising to me how excited I get. The excitement gives me sustainable power. Wanting to keep going even if it's painful. It's no longer boring. Doing tasks used to be boring. Now it's not boring any more as long as I am discerning. I have to do only those things that need doing, not get carried away into tasks that are not relevant. It's exciting to discover discernment. Stay in your own lane. Be single-minded. Don't let odds and ends creep in and distract. Wanting to get the tasks done is a power. There is a power overlighting me that is guiding me. It is my higher self wanting to get these tasks done. If I stray outside of the Plan of my higher self, I get tired. This is a most important point. If I stay with the Plan of my higher self, I am rewarded with enthusiasm and feel fulfilled and energized. There is an eternal presence around and over me. This presence is one of attention. I must be careful and stay in the present moment and the "presence". Then there is no room for boredom. There is too much aliveness and excitement happening. It comes flooding in, this aliveness. It is stimulating and revealing. Revelations happen on the go, as I move around.
Practicing these exercises, which are not new, but I have a new understanding of the NOW and the PRESENT, I am finding a new way to live. The benefits are without question the best ones I've seen. But they take time. Practicing breathing techniques requires time out to sit still and really do the breathing. I see there are huge benefits. There is a quickening and a resurrection of interest and joy of life. There is a reason why yoga has survived the eons. The techniques work.
The difference between the casual yoga practitioner and the one who carves out time every day to practice, is that there are provable benefits that show up physically. I am seeing them myself. I was the former practitioner before. Now I am following the masters' guidance. How they did it. Yoga can be done for fun and to socialize with others as a beginning. But eventually it leads to a commitment to one's self, to be done alone. One has to bite the bullet and shut off the world to do inner work. It's a focusing of the eternal mind. The mind has been allowed to be a follower of others. But now, feeding the mind with a specific job to concentrate upon is something quite different. The mind perks up and pays attention. It is a universal hook up with other cosmic minds and forces. It's a lineage. It's a thread to other minds who have gone before and can guide how to tweak a practice and make it even better. It's done through telepathy, mind to mind. There is a definite physical effect on the strengthening and vitality of the body. It's a linking into a power that we as limited creatures are not aware of normally. It's always been there but unless we take specific instructions, we would not know about it.
So I am upgrading. It is all done with the mind. The mind is eternal. It expands when we give it new direction. It relapses when we give up. We can expand it or reduce it. They say there is no end to mind, no final resting place, It is an expanding that goes beyond our traditional way of thinking, but we have to tap into it. The only way to get to the levels waaaaay-up-beyond where we are today is to start with the small, tightly closed end of our minds and agree to open that door and begin there. It's like opening a door of an abandoned old house, not very pleasant on the outside, not blissful at all, nor attractive. But by walking inside the front door and looking around inside (per instructions) one finds something interesting and attractive there. It is rather a simple thing to do. All we have to do is do it. It's tricky choosing to ignore the crowd outside yelling and trying to get our attention with trauma and drama on every side. But once we get past those distractions and carve out time to go alone to practice, one is well on the way to betterment. As the mind starts to focus on the the inner self, the muscles and tissues of our own body, including the brain, the better we feel. The body registers change and reaps the benefits, physically and energetically. One is upgraded.
2/1/23 - Moving closer to group ascension massage exchanges
Journaled six years ago. During meditations that morning I had a lot of realizations and had to write them down to remember them. First of all, I saw chaos this morning. It was in the form of different colored energies, little tiny particles. They were kind of lost and moving around and mixing in with other dissimilar colors, shapes and textures, seemingly at random. There was no order to the chaos. It was confusing. The feeling was that of being lost and trying to find their thread to home but didn’t know how. I realized that out of this confusing mix that it is up to me to sort them out. It is my job to make sense of the chaos. and yet how can I do it with my mind? I don’t know how. I can’t make sense of them but I can become peaceful.
I was shown that by becoming peaceful and not trying to make sense of them, I give them space to relax and spread out and slow down. By so doing they begin to sort them selves out. As they relax they come naturally into close vicinity of other familiar particles by natural attraction. By my becoming peaceful and serene, the chaos also becomes more peaceful. The restless particles slow down and are attracted to its own kind. They develop a bond with their family. They return home. They link and connect with their own families. As I become peaceful, I see that the chaos is coming from outside of me, and by becoming peaceful I produce a buffer zone that those little particles of chaotic energy cannot penetrate because I am not producing them. Therefore they are not returning to me. If I were producing them they would return to me, but I did not produce them so they are going away, by natural attraction, to someone else. I become like a mirror, reflecting the chaos away from me and sending it home to where it belongs.
Next, I see that my massage therapist friend, Marcus, is working with earth energies and the kundalini. I am working with the sky energies, the spirit or soul. We keep our soul, the same soul, from body to body but each new body gets a new spark of kundalini. We have been unsuccessful in bringing our soul down to meet our earth energy, the kundalini, which is the goal. We need to integrate our soul (our self) with the earth body’s energy in order to bring about an enlightened earth body. We fail to do this over and over and over. We live many lives to try again. We continually get a body and the body dies without having done the integration so we have to come back and try again. But my realization is that Marcus is here to work with the earth energies and I am focused on the sky energy, from which comes the formless light, which is abstract information. I like to write about spiritual law and spiritual light. I am in tune with and in touch with other ascended masters and the galactics. Both groups. Inner space and outer space. I invoke them every day. This is my source of information and my reason for being. Marcus is focused on love. He is a massage therapist and is focused on the physical body and the more practical, physical energies. He and his wife focus on the land around their property and they work with the elementals of trees, bushes, flowers, birds, bees and all within the nature kingdom. I do not have that interest. My interest is galactic and the ascended realms.
Marcus is male, focused on the physical and he is more mental than I am. I am female focused on the non-physical, and not mental at all. It would seem we are opposites but we both are focused on love and loving the body. It’s just that I am not interested in the physical muscles of the body where he is. I am interested in stroking the body in a subtle, loving way. Marcus can do that too, but he is different from me. We seem to be opposites and yet we are much the same. The differences are that he is focused on tantric massage, and getting the person’s consciousness to accept the kundalini so as to bring about the earth energies in a more real and benevolent way. Where I am interested in raising the person’s consciousness upward, above the dense lower vibrating body, to the higher heart and top of the head.
Marcus does both therapeutic massage and loving energy massage. I don’t know the physical very much and was not too interested when attending massage school. He knows both physical and non-physical modalities. He knows how to feel kundalini when the person allows it into her consciousness. Marcus can be contacted HERE.
My desire is to hold a layman’s massage workshop. Not to teach about muscles, and not to teach how to arouse erotically, and not to teach how energy works, and not to teach at all, actually. But simply to give each person in attendance the chance to feel what it’s like to touch other bodies openly and freely. We would start with clothes on as a beginning. It does not have to be in the nude. I want to give people the confidence in touching others. That it is OK and to give them assurances that it is OK and some simple encouragement. Go ahead and try it. As long as the receiver is giving their permission for you to touch them. When we all give permission, we can lay hands on each other. It is in the practice of this that we will become free. Don’t call it massage if you don’t want to . It is not really massage that we are doing. It is permission to touch, really. That’s all it is. And to experience what it feels like.
There is a mixing of energies when you touch someone else with caring. Slowly. Not just brushing them quickly, superficially, over the outer skin. The slowness makes it intimate. It allows YOUR energies to enter into the receiver’s energies through the skin. It’s not about arousing them for sex. It’s about connecting energies as an equal. It is an experience that cannot be defined in words. It is connecting up, linking up, joining, fusing and permission is needed. Each person is a piece of the sea of consciousness, what we call the creator or God. Each person is a piece of God’s consciousness. God wants to express itself in the physical. We have been holding it back. Our physical body houses a certain presence, a certain consciousness, a certain intelligence, a certain feeling that can’t be duplicated because each person has a unique pattern that is contained in the soul (the self). When we all get together for massage exchanges - ascension massage which has a higher goal than sexual arousal - we are broadening and expanding ourself by coming out of our private little isolated separated closet. When we blend openly this way with several others, we feel more free, more peaceful and more accepted into the fold of family. It is like coming home. We expand closer to the heaven world.
A Zoom meeting doesn’t provide the same feeling. Someone asked about having a Zoom meeting for this, but it wouldn't work. The Presence is housed inside the physical cells, blood, tissues, organs of the person's body and radiates outward. In some people it remains stifled and closed. We are each different. We are each a piece of the creator walking around on the earth feeling frustrated because of all these restrictions and limitations and taboos about not saying what you really feel and not being able to do what you really want to do, not feeling spontaneously free. In a carefully structured massage exchange, this sense of freedom can be taught and practiced. A zoom meeting would not allow this to happen. Our current societal laws prevent us from touching each other freely but this can change with some ground rules. We are blocking the creative intelligence that is within us wanting to express itself. Freedom to express is being blocked. Creativity is being blocked. Excitement is being blocked. The thrill of discoveries are being blocked. We are each here to bring it forth into the outer world. We’ve been blocked and held back from the time we were small children so that we have incorporated the taboos and cultural conditionings into our adult day-to-day life. We never get a chance to feel free because we are overly burdened to remember the laws. We are not allowed to be open, honest or able to touch freely and feel other people, even with caring loving intention.
I am saying here that there is a way to start moving outward from behind closed doors. There is a way to begin the process of shining our light, and our light is love.
I focus on light. I use the word “light” more often than Marcus does. Marcus focuses on love. He uses the love word more than I do. But they are the same thing. Light is unformed immaculate never-ending intelligence from the sky, and love is this light when it is owned by someone who applies it to their daily life. Then they make it physical and practical the light then becomes love. It becomes love when it is functioning and operating in a human body. No one knows who they really are underneath the pre-conditioned cultural restrictive mask until they start shining and expressing freely. It is about freedom. We each begin to know ourselves as we express freely during our daily life - with love, not violence! Not pushiness. Not demanding attention. Not egotistical or rude or arrogant. But quietly open and free and caring. (Journaled 2/9/17)
1/31/23 - Abortion, old age and other things
(From journal 9/26/81) I have such a desire to write but there is too much. I am seeing so many things. Yesterday on the way to our friend's house we drove past a cemetery and I saw – no, I KNEW, experienced something. I saw that the cemetery is a doorway, an opening through which the soul is freed. It is a marvelous threshold, but oh, these words are useless! It is so much more than that. It is a wonderful experience to be there, and after you have passed it, the threshold no longer exists. It is so unimportant – the cemetery!
Oh, the truth is so beautiful to know. It is so – merely there. It has never gone anywhere but it merely hides behind a little veil so we cannot see. But it is there, nonetheless. It is lovely, complete, like coming home whenever I see beyond that little veil. How I wish everyone could see as I do. I try to tell Bob but it sounds so useless, so out of place, and I am bursting with happiness but I must keep it to myself. I am overflowing with a sense of fulfillment, yet there is no one to share it with.
And I saw something else. Everyone has made such a big deal over abortions. How can you kill a living life? Others say, but there is no life there at all. I don’t know what caused me to see this but I did. At conception only a very small percentage of the spark of life that is the individual comes into the fetus. Only about 1 to 5%, so to abort it you are not killing anything, because 90 to 95% (more or less) remains where it was before coming. You haven’t killed anything because it has only just begun. The nine-month carrying period is too long for more than 1 to 5% of the living, breathing consciousness to be confined – shut up as it were with no way to express. This living flame of life which is our consciousness is too grand, too unique, too knowledgeable, to be cooped up like that. It cannot be cooped up in a prison. That is why it does not all gather at once at the moment of conception. It sends an advance guard to prepare its house – the house it shall move into when it is finished.
And then, at the grand moment of birth, the big exciting moment, the 90 or 95% of that vital living consciousness moves in, bag and baggage, like a monarch complete with troops. All together, alive, knowing, breathing, prepared to take over. And thus it is that the first breath of life is consciousness taking over the body. Thus it is that many people remember a long, dark tunnel with a light at the end. This is the moment of entering the body. It is a marvelous, psychic, conscious moment. And one not to be forgotten.
And I saw other things – I saw the reason consciousness sometimes seems to disconnect from the immediate problem of life – as when you daydream. This is living proof that the consciousness is a separate thing from the body and brain. How else could it drift away to some far off place and be conscious of other things? Because it is not anchored to the body – it is only using the body as a man uses a house and he may come and go at will. This is the majesty of man, he is a noble God that moves and breathes in living Light, in freedom and universality. How great it will be when he wakes up and realizes what he truly is!!!!
These things I see and more. I see that old age - I saw this, experienced it for a brief passing moment, for that is how I “see” – that old age is (I must be careful with my words) the flaming spirit that lives within the consciousness and is ALWAYS trying to manifest in the physical world and in the flesh. This is a preamble now. That is its purpose for coming – to realize itself in living flesh, in living solids, to UNITE with the physical world. It is attempting always to do this, that is its motivation, its reason for existence, that is the driving urge inside a man that yearns to be free. It matters not what avenue it takes, whether an intellectual like a professor, or a working man like a machinist – it doesn’t matter – a profession is only a colorful tool through which to express the INNER URGE. The inner urge is a spark which has been ignited and it is flaring now. Within the body of a man the living spirit is flaring and trying to find room in which to complete its pre-appointed task. And thus the living spirit in man is striving to come out into the world and be seen. Only that individual knows when the spark has succeeded. Only that individual knows the wonderful feeling of fulfillment, contentment, peace, which is the aftermath of an explosion that set him free. But for one reason or another he has failed. Failed to comply with the cosmic laws which say: yield! Bend! Hark! Listen! Follow your heart! The heart is speaking – the living spark within. But no. Man does not want to listen. He wants to do it HIS way, the way of his opinion. The way HE thinks is right. The way He has been trained. So long as a man says, “I think!” or “I know”, he does not know. He does not! Because when the day comes that he knows, he will not have to defend his right to know. He will step aside and smile the smile of knowingness.
And so old age is the giving up, the spark within knows that it is not going to accomplish its purpose in this life and so relinquishes its vitality over the cells of flesh. There is nothing a man can do, but look at himself in the mirror and watch old age creeping over his body. It is a sign that he will eventually die. Not his spark of consciousness – that will go on. But the chance of finding himself in this body has gone. Passed away. To try again in another body. Old age is the outer skin starting to decompose first. As the life is withdrawn it withdraws from the outer first, and it is slow, but steadily faster. Can it be checked? YES! It can be checked in midstream – at the age of 70, 80, or 90! All it takes is waking up! Determination to be free, determination to put aside the false habits of a false world and be oneself in living color! It is possible! It is desirable! But it is something one must do alone! No one will understand. And yet, there is a universe of living souls who know what you are doing. They are waiting to help. They are joined to the one who determines to succeed. They are there. They have talked to me. I have known them. (Journaled 9/26/81)
1/29/23 - Symbiosis
In the night the other night I woke with inspiration and began writing. "Symbiosis - allowing the laws of harmony vs. following the laws of separation. Symbiosis. The universe operates on the law of harmony or synthesis, whereas mankind has been operating on the law of separation. When you massage (friend staying with us) you allow a blend to occur between her energy field and yours. The normal human ego respects another person’s field and does not interfere with it. He or she stops short of blending with another, allowing the boundary to exist between them, the law of separation. Allowing the hard edges between one person and another. It is called respecting free will."
I went off to sleep and woke up again with more information. I wrote it down: "Symbiosis is tilting the law of gravity in favor of blending separate fields, whereas the law of gravity pulls toward the center of each being, whether man, animal, plant, etc., keeping each being separated from others."
I went off to sleep again and woke up a third time to write: "The flash event - when everyone will turn toward the law of harmony and away from the law of free will and separated boundaries. The harmony is expanding in the universe and it is hitting earth. It’s a shifting and the shift will reach that certain saturation point where everything will shift toward harmony."
I went off to sleep again and woke up a fourth time, with a realization that I have been following the light in my body rather than the dark in my body ever since I went into the light 47 years ago. Before that time, I too followed the dark in my body as the artificial laws of the culture lay heavy on me as they do on everyone I know, but after the kundalini awakened in 1976 I was changed by the ascension process. I didn't know what happened, but this realization was another added piece of information to inform me. Therefore, when I am close to another person I naturally attract the LIGHT in the other person rather than the dark or artificial or wrong beliefs in that person, often referred to as the artificial intelligence in that person. I understood that I have more light operating in me than most people, and this allows me to magnetize the light in the other person when I put myhands on them, as I have been doing with my friend since she has been staying with me.
It is not me giving something to her, but rather the light in me is connecting with the light in her. It is not anything that I am "doing" for her. It is a resonance, a universal law - the universal law of harmony - which was given to me in during my dream state, explaining it to me and shedding more light on my understanding. This explains why I feel so good at the end of my massage. It is a doubling effect of light, her light with my light increased for both of us. I have been feeling quite blissed out myself after giving the massage to my friend, and I wondered about this. It is the magic of the light moving within the cells and tissues of our bodies.
The light in me is getting stronger. It is seductive. I share this information knowing that it is happening with others, too. I yearn to reach out to other people and blend with the light in them, too, and so I reveal this inner happening. The light is growing stronger in people especially who meditate on spiritual concepts. Perhaps the time is coming when we can start the ascension massage exchange. I can't go forward with it until there is a "green light" that says "GO!" There are many signs coming through various spiritual channels. The physical body starts to glow. We can see it in some people. It is not a literal light, but it is a shining. You can see it in a person who captivates your attention. Someone you might like to get to know better but you don't know how to broach them. I believe transfiguration is a good word to use here. Perhaps it is a mild form of transfiguration. I am told that physical ascension may happen in a gentle manner, when light is triggered throughout the cells of the body and the body glows. As a person may master their light better as they become more aware of their inner thoughts and feelings and therefore are more gentle and careful how they express themselves. Becoming a master of their innermost self is the work that many people are going through in these days of mindfulness, meditation, yoga and other disciplines. There is a waking-up process taking place among many people. It is important to be aware of this.
A gradual understanding is taking place that the physical ascension that is being discussed more and more these days, is not necessarily a "disappearance" act. An individual might not be "taken up" as I once thought - as in "beam me up Scotty!" Rather, it is possible that an individual might become such a master of their thoughts and feelings that they can maintain a sufficient balance to stay grounded and present here. A balance between the light and dark within their physical cells, atoms and tissues that would allow them to maintain their physical presence here with the rest of us. This is an understanding that is gradually taking shape in my mind. The contrast is between the purity or holiness that is the actual life of the tissues of the body, versus the artificial beliefs, doubts and fears of the human ego that is constantly shifting and weighing outcomes.
The yearning to connect with others is growing ever stronger but so is my ability to discipline and control any selfish thought or desire that might pop up and lead me astray. Massaging my friend is natural and easy. It is a wonderful, blissful experience for both of us when it is done. She has a need for healing and I supply the hands, but there is healing in BOTH of us - I benefit from it too. I feel sure I will be led to connect with more people as time goes on. I welcome any comments and feedback from readers. Send it to me thru the contact page.
1/25/23 - Tantra teaches how to expand the rapture
During a new moon ceremony eleven years ago I began dreaming and chanting my hopes and wishes into a glass of water and subsequently poured it out into the earth outside the screen room. During this time I saw many visions and revelations. I saw that all of the rays of colors have to come down and reach the kundalini at the base of the spine in order to be complete down here in physical earth. It is called the Antahkarana, the rainbow bridge. The hard part is getting the vibrations of the colors to lower in density, for each color is vibrating at a different frequency, and it IS a light. It is an attribute in the form of light. Each color comes through the chakra portal. It needs to be brought down one by one to connect with kundalini, the light at the bottom of the tunnel, which is a portal to the reservoir of divinity within the root chakra.
I saw many many people bringing down these colored rays to connect with the etheric light at the base of the spine in what is termed “orgasm”. The orgasm is the connecting link. Then (WOW!) God is walking on earth! Each human being is a piece of God trying to reach earth from its high ethereal place and it is very difficult because earth is vibrating at such a low, dense level. This is a major project to bring down the light to earth, but when it does, the orgasm happens. God walks the earth when orgasm happens. How long the orgasm lasts is how long God-Goddess gets to walk in flesh. Can you hold it in the body? Can you prolong the rapture?
You can only do so by expanding your MIND. Your MIND allows the rapture to expand upward into the rest of the body above the pelvic zone. Don’t keep it down there but raise it up. Tantra masters try to teach this. As you work at this you will prolong the rapture of orgasm. The goal is to expand it so all the cells are bathed in this essence of divinity called the nectar of the Gods. I see it simply as an explosion of light that doesn’t die. It continues to shine and radiate.
Then I saw the master Djwal Khul. The pain that I see in his eyes are transformed now into deep humility, intelligence, adoration and gratitude is the highest vibration of all. It is the most exquisite, the most beautiful of all colors and textures and vibrations in all of God’s many vibrations. I see many people coming together and meeting in this “oneness” plane of God consciousness. They are making love by allowing love to expand between them. I do not know how this is accomplished, whether it is through sexual penetration or simply by tantric process. I see the light of God coming to human beings in a very real or surreal way.
And I am reminded not to forget the love. It is all about love. Love IS the body of God. God is Love. Words are speaking to me in my mind. Learn to use the higher road in choosing your words. Put sacred vibration into your words. Love of freedom is freedom to love. When love is coming through someone, God is coming through. The person is just the portal. God is coming through. God is love. That’s why love is the highest energy we can conceive as intelligent, thinking human beings. There is nothing higher. We are home when we are in love. It is our origin, and our source. Where we came from.
I am seeing a race of men and women who are graceful and walk with dignity and nobility AND they are human too. Can you imagine this? God walking around as a human? It’s happening right now and our lifestyle is allowing that because we are encouraging sexual exploration, which is the avenue for the divine to enter into the human body. We are playing with the essence of God Creator! (Journaled 6/2/11)
1/23/23 - The old timeline is disappearing
The old timeline is disappearing, a new timeline is coming into play. How do I process this? One timeline is grounded in the physical and traditional and is confusing. The typical solution when something is wrong is to go to the doctor. My husband keeps reminding me. But this thought is filled with doom and gloom for me. I don’t want to go to a doctor. It feels like more sickness to me. It confuses me. The other timeline is peaceful, blissful, warm, connected and loving. Is this what they call dementia? Or is this ascension? To me I feel best when I’m holding myself to my center, to the central column of my trunk and spine, leaning neither to the left or the right, or to the outside to someone else or to the heavens above to some unknown savior, but rather holding to neutrality, to balance, to oneness, to be fully present in the here and now. It feels like love to me. It is warm and comforting. Clarity fills my head and security fills my body, every cell and organ is more present and accounted for instead of confused and not knowing what to do. I am present in my body, I feel to be somewhere in the center of my heart and lung and lower body area. I feel as if everything is alright. It’s secure. There is a feeling of rightness. I move more easily to do what needs to be done, without thinking about it. This is what I’ve been feeling lately as I continue to use the two-tennis-balls-in-a-sock to press out the pain locked in my back. It is interesting to me because I am more detached. The DIY exercises at home, plus lying on the acupuncture mat every day, is changing me. I feel more alive, more able to respond, quick to react when I’m needed. What happened to my old sensation of, “Ohh, do I have to? I don’t want to!” What is going on in me? Whatever it is, I like it!
1/20/23 - The jewel in the lotus
This morning I had a most wonderful experience during my meditation. I saw what expectations are doing to people. To me. I saw expectations, many expectations and beliefs, in the form of a flower fully open. The flower petals were the expectations and beliefs, unfolding quite beautifully all around the central stamen, which appeared as a shining jewel in the center - the prize that has been overlooked by everyone who is seeking outside of themselves for answers. The expectations showed themselves to me as walls and barriers. Boundaries that block the way to the real within. Yet they are safe enough. They are OK. We search outside of ourselves, facing away from our real and authentic self - the ultimate prize at the center. By trying to define what we want, what we need, what we feel to others, we do not see the beauty that is lying within. We look and reach to others for what we want to have happen, and what we want the other person to do for us. And when we get together in little groups, each person has a different set of scenarios of what they want to have happen, and with who, and under what conditions, etc. Each person's expectation of the best possible outcome is hanging out there in his or her auric field, in the far reaches of our minds, and it blocks us from successfully getting it because it's too fixed, too narrow, too focused, too unattainable. Nobody could possibly fill that expectation. It is less than what our real self can provide if only we would stop expecting.
It is OK, though, because we are creators and we are here to learn by creating through trial and error and experimentation. We are here to experiment with other people as our mirrors. We have created a lot of wisdom through our experimentation and our travels with people, some special people, some accidental, some traumatic. We have been creating our life situations by defining what we want and then expecting it to work out that way. Sometimes it does, but often it doesn't because the real jewel is at the center of the flower. The jewel is in the lotus at the center but we are distracted by the beautiful, glamours petals of many colors and designs. The jewel in the lotus is our real self. The sovereign self who stands alone. We haven’t discovered it yet. We haven't learned the practice of sitting alone by ourselves and looking inside the treasure chest. When we start to open the jewel-encrusted chest, which we will learn later is the body itself, we are going to find the most extraordinary things. Within the physical body is an amazing ability to feel depths upon depths of feelings.
Expectations are a problem. Expectations are scenes and beliefs we hold in our minds of what we want to have happen. It's a planned scenario. We fix our mind on something and it stays there solid and immovable, like a barrier. We are seeking this thing to happen for us, but it's unattainable because every person has a different substructure than we do. Our infrastructures are all different. There are no two alike. We don't match. We can't fit. The only way we can fit together is to drop our expectations and allow the subconscious infrastructure (the soul) to find itself. We cannot know what that will be. It will be spontaneous because it doesn't come from pre-determination. It doesn't come from the mind. It comes from the flow between people. The chemistry can't be controlled. We can't imagine it. It is a feeling from a deeper place. A wider place. A cosmic place. We don't know what is to come because it hasn't arrived yet. We have to open ourselves to the flow first, and then it will arrive. The joyful experience of merging with others without expectations allows the moving of emotions, the sensation of feelings within us that have not surfaced yet and are therefore not restricted to a limited mental expectation. We can find this by coming together with others with an open HEART and an open mind, touching them and hugging them and interacting with them closely, yes, close and real but without expectations. Without demands on someone else to fulfill us. This is the hardest thing to understand, but understand we must. We are to drop our expectations which have fixed us on lesser things, narrow things which hold us trapped in petty goals, fixed like concrete. And they are holding us back.
Freedom is a sensation. We all want to feel free to enjoy ourselves, freedom to move around and freedom to feel the excitement that comes from no pressure, nobody demanding anything from us, freedom to move as we feel to move. But freedom does not come from someone outside. Freedom is a sensation that one must give to oneself, but dropping all expectations. Then the freedom can flow out and meet the ones who are on the same wave length. Freedom to be authentic is the jewel in the lotus. It's hard to imagine, although we've all had a momentary flash here and there. We know the potential is there. It's possible. What is holding it back? I saw this morning that it is expectations that are holding us back.
1/17/23 - The fully realized man
(From 9 years ago) This morning a wonderful vision was shown to me of a fully realized man. Uumm, lovely. This vision came as a feeling coupled with a picture. It affected me on levels that are wordless. I want to try to express the feeling because I am always focusing on the feminine qualities and, contrary to popular belief, a man who is fully in touch with his feminine side is waaaaay more attractive than one who is not. Most readers interpret feminine to mean woman or a gay man, but there is something powerfully masculine in a man who is whole and complete with both a gentle side and a strong masculine side. Every man has a feminine side, for he is 50% male and 50% female. Most men have been conditioned to hide their female side. Likewise, every woman is 50% female and 50% male, she just hides the 50% male side so she is not wholly empowered. But let's look at an empowered man.
A man's body is male, no question about it. But his body is only the vessel through which he moves and operates as an intelligent operating force. The body is a vehicle, just like his car that he gets into every day and drives. The body is not who he is. Who he is is intelligence manifesting as thought and feeling. This intelligent being is both male and female in thought and feeling. It is only when he is raised in a less-than-perfect society as ours is, that he is indoctrinated from infancy to hide his female side. A boy is taught from infancy to "be a man" and thus close off his delicate sensitivities which are his feminine side. Most boys are taught not to cry and not to express emotion or high ideals or a sense of justice or fairness, or appreciation for beauty or a taste for dance or the arts. These are too delicate, in our society, for a man to have. They are "gay". And yet these are very much a part of his wholeness. He cannot be complete without them. As he grows into adulthood and continues to deny expression to his own inner beauty and grace, he grows harder and more masculine. More macho. He develops a certain hunger for the feminine touch, for his body needs it. His body follows its natural growth pattern and at puberty there is a physical awakening of sex hormones in the genital region, indicating he can now reproduce, but there is a deeper and more intense hunger. He needs feminine energy for his soul, not just his body. He is lacking in that area - intimacy, gentleness, awe and wonder, because he has been trained to shut that side of him down and he is energetically out of balance. He is tilting too far over into the masculinity zone.
Perhaps the reader will disagree with me, but I am sharing a word picture of something I saw today - a fully-realized man. A whole man, not a screwed-up man with issues. We do not see such men in our society often, if ever. A fully realized man is not hungry for sex, nor is he hungry for a relationship. He is his own man and happy with his life. He is balanced between his heart (feminine) and his mind (masculine). He has learned to keep his heart open. He has not closed off his feminine side. His physical body is male and he is attracted to women in the same way as any normal man, for he loves to be in love and he loves beauty, grace and togetherness. But sex is not driving him. He has a respect for the whole person, and an appreciation of nature and ALL people everywhere - not just women. He has the ability to enjoy the many pleasures that the world has to offer, and the ability to be in joy and spontaneity as he feels, as well as to be serious, practical and a leader of men where needed. He can laugh and cry as he is moved to do so. And he can be the warrior when he is called upon, because he does not have unresolved issues plaguing him. He embodies his own wholeness in his skin, and he is comfortable with who he is. He is not operating at the 50% level, which we would call the macho male, but is the kind of man all men and all women would find attractive and likeable.
It's hard to describe the feeling of what I saw. It was a feeling. It was a presence. It was loving and warm and yet masculine in every way. It was wise and intelligent. Profoundly knowledgeable. He was like a god in a man's body. You could not help but stop and gaze at him in wonder, trying to figure out what it was that captivated you. But he was just a human being. I am trying to define the feeling, the impact, the glow and the presence of this man in my vision. He had a very powerful presence. You could imagine him being able to move mountains if he wanted to, but that he kept that power under wraps until needed. This gave an image of a very strong, very warm, very gentle, very human, and very attractive man.
I am painting this picture so that men who read this might understand - allowing your female side to express in your thoughts and emotions. This picture I paint is not being gay, and not being feminine. It is being more masculine, not less. It is important that a man realize how much he loses by not allowing his sensitive nature to co-exist along with his masculine. He has this energy within him. It is a powerful spiritual energy. I am articulating this for a reason. If men everywhere accepted his femaleness, the world would spring back to rightness immediately, for it has been the unbalanced male who has become unduly aggressive, mean and vicious without his feminine side. He would become in short time very comfortable with himself and at peace with his life. What at first feels vulnerable to him would eventually prove to be a wholeness that he has not experienced before, and it would give him more power, purpose and meaning.
The inner feminine is sometimes called the inner child. The inner child has been neglected. The inference is that the child has not grown up to adulthood, but here’s the thing: the inner female is always a child. It is happy and joyful and spontaneous and in love with life. It is the delightful twinkling in the eye at play. A man who has these qualities would be stronger than those men who do not express it. All men could express their inner child, with a little shift into solitary alone time to connect with it. He would be able to give expression to his inner, heretofore unexpressed inner thoughts and feelings. He would be MORE of a man, not less. He would find himself surprisingly stronger than he ever thought possible, because he would be operating on 100% fuel instead of only 50%.
The fuel is the spirit of the person, not the body itself. The fuel is the life force of an individual, not the body itself. The body is only the vehicle, the car, that the person gets into and drives around. When the person runs out of fuel, out of spirit, out of life force, then the car, the body, runs down and grows old. It cannot keep itself alive. It needs the fuel - the 100% octane. The macho male thinks he is so powerful and manly, but he can't do it alone without the spiritual fuel of 100% - the other half of himself which is hidden. One who has accepted his own gentleness, grace, vulnerability, beauty and refinement, would appear as a gentleman. That private acceptance within would flood his mind, body and feelings and saturate him with powerful confidence and inner knowledge. No amount of book learning or higher education gives that to a man. Only his willingness to connect with his heart, the feminine and spiritual side of himself.
The same is true with a woman. Most women operate on 50% of their life force, not 100% as they could. Yes, their physical bodies are feminine and they might be the most beautiful woman in the world. But their bodies are only a vessel, a vehicle. She herself is a non-physical, very powerful being using that beautiful body to operate through. When she, the powerful being, is raised as a young girl by her parents, she is more than likely being cultivated toward the feminine side. They are probably clipping and cutting back her male side, so she will fit in better with the world. Most girls are taught to be soft and gentle and to not express their intellectual side or their strengths or practicalities or tendencies for science, math, politicians, baseball or motorcycles. And yet she has all of these tendencies within her. They are skills and talents and abilities. Who knows what she would produce if she did not cut off her male side?
As young girls grow into womanhood they become increasingly hungry for male energy - the male energy that they rejected and were denied expression to. They grow unbalanced. She develops a certain hunger for boys. And when her body awakens at puberty with sex hormones flooding her nerves and tissues, she has no control over it. She needs and wants a boy man. Whereas if she had been allowed to be a fully-realized girl from childhood she would not be caught in the flood of emotions at puberty. Imbalance causes her intense desire for male energy, for she has refused to let it live and express in her. This hunger radiates out into the atmosphere around her and men and boys are attracted to it like a moth to a flame.
When a person blocks whole portions of themselves from expressing, which our society unfortunately requires, there is the beginning of imbalance. It manifests as inability to see clearly or choose wisely and as a hunger for the opposite sex or fighting with the opposite sex. Wholeness, on the other hand, is a feeling of being healthy, at peace and more or less fulfilled. It is the aching hunger for the opposite sex that is the most damaging result of denying the inner male or the inner female from expressing. It creates the friction and the struggle that exists between men and women everywhere. It is global. Even in our enlightened society here in the West, there is enmity between men and women. This enmity dissolves into love during a love affair and honeymoon, but quickly disappears after that. Why?
Because while they are in love they are balanced in their energies. Love balances. Love accepts. Love does not reject or deny. Love includes. As soon as they stop being in love, they fall out of balance again and the hunger returns for the opposite sex. And yet it is within the man himself, within the woman herself, that the balance is found. One can have hundreds of sex partners in life and never achieve that ultimate peace that comes with being in balance. It is all about energy. Inner energy. Male and female energy integrated inside one's own skin. Is it possible a baby can be raised as a fully-realized boy or girl? I believe it is not only possible but that we are seeing it with our own eyes. It is happening right now in the child prodigies. What we call "geniuses" but they are not geniuses. They are merely healthy, whole-bodied individuals operating on a full tank of life force, fully realized. I believe these child prodigies are not super human but wholly human. (Journaled 10/7/14)
1/16/23 - What kundalini is and feels like when it's flowing
This was written ten years ago after a session of going with the flow of it for an hour, spontaneously following where it led. I had read an old journal and remembered how wonderful it felt, so I gave into it that day for an hour. It was soft, pleasing, warm and the "fuzzies" appeared - that exotic feeling that I can't describe. It feels as if my hands are surrounded by cotton and I am entirely empty of thought. No mind at all. The following words are automatic, as if channeled. I wanted to write about it - the sensations.
Kundalini is a sensation that radiates through the body. It has a purpose. One does not know the purpose because it is another mind, not your own. You can’t read it but you can work with it and communicate with it. It has your own best interests at heart. It is here to serve life, not you in your mortal form, but the life that is trying to blossom in you. It is trying to push the stones and rocks and roots out of the way so it can pierce through the top soil into the light of day. Like a seed that is sprouting from within. Your body has grown old and tired and dense with pollution and poisons. Your belief system is also blocked with walls and limits on what you believe, and rigid thinking of “my way is the right way”. Kundalini is pushing those rigid beliefs out of the way. If you struggle and resist you feel pain. The advice is to yield, surrender, even if you are afraid and don’t understand, yet you must open yourself to this expansion that is going on. Open to this inner sensation the way you would open to a lover. The sensation is expansive, light and buoyant, and blissful and you can feel every cell as if your cells are each one waking up and signaling they are awake. Expanding and pushing outward through the cell walls, as if something is growing larger from inside them and the cell wall is feeling the pressure to expand and open. If you were a seed you would burst your shell and grow a little shoot to grow up through the soil.
This is a real power. You can feel it pressing on your physical cells and you have no clue what it is. It is disturbing to one who does not know these things. It is another part of you that is being born. You do not know this part yet but you will. You should be aware of it before it happens, to be prepared for it. It is a larger intelligence and a larger power. It is both mental and feeling. You can talk to it silently or out loud, mind to mind. And you should. If you don’t, it will expand arbitrarily through your body and leave you in its wake, not knowing, no clue. Stay with it. Agree to it. Ride with it. Yield to it consciously. Say, “Yes, I will go with you. Teach me.” Don’t be left behind. Otherwise you will be overwhelmed by how big it is. It’s greater than you. Keep up with it. Work with it. When you talk with it it will answer and listen to you. But if you don’t talk to it it will carry on without you. It will give you guidance, like to go to a certain area for calmness, or what foods to eat, or what drinks, or when to get up and when to sleep. To show you what you need to do to connect with it. It is a power moving in your body. Talk to it as if it were a friend on the outside of you and you need to communicate with this person who has a different mind than yours. But this friend is on the inside and it is the unborn part you. You are being born a second time now. You are being born again. (Journaled 7/28/14)
1/12/23 - Ancient memories coming alive
The back pain is lessening. Rolling on two tennis balls stuffed into a sock is doing good work. It's a DIY treatment, the best so far to ease and press out the locked-in pain from years doing the same motions over and over. It's lightening up, the cartilage and ligaments which attach bone to muscle. Inwardly I am experiencing ancient light, life, from past embodiments. Awareness is blending into my mind. It feels as if I am reclaiming them after being lost from me from past lives. It's an occult, mystical happening, but it feels so very real and natural. Extremely natural. It is lighting me up on the inside! Giving me more clarity. I see better. Understand better. It is the kundalini stirring.
During the morning routine I've been doing the brain tapping, also. I found the techique online. It is helping. My finger tips feel like needles when they tap on my head, but the voice said, "You have rays of energy coming from your finger tips going into your brain. See the energies penetrating deep into the energies stuck in the brain that have been locked down in there from being recycled and repeated, the same thoughts over and over. Tap, tap, tap them loose. They are literally stuffed and stacked and crammed inside the head and brain as energies forgotten. We think it is a physical brain, but it is a storehouse for memories. We have been trained to focus on only physical outcomes, but we are not physical. We are energy beings. We create with our mental life and our feelings and emotional life. Our energies are what creates our hard physical shell of a body. All our expectations and goals are wrongly focused on physical results. The kundalini re-awakening.
This new realization is stunning. The nerves are literally composed of consciousness, not substance. We are energy beings. As I move through my own awakening process it is a remembering process. I see past lives I have lived coming alive. It's my own effort at learning new techniques that is stirring my consciousness. I am allowing new information to enter. The ancient light from past lives is waking up as pain in my body. It has moved steadily closer to the surface so I can see it and feel it and know it is there. I have suffered so much in past lives and these sufferings are literally "stuck" and are now waking up as I learn new techniques, new exercises, new teachings. Ancient memories coming alive but they move on quickly because I am moving on. I am allowing them and absorbing them into who I am today and who I am today is growing clearer and better. I am lifting them. Lifting them.
The Masters teachings all point in one direction, UP! "Lift them up in to the light, release them and send them back to the light." So that's what I am doing. It is bringing forth old pain and freeing that pain from my body which inherited it because it's mine. Past diseases, past wrong doings, past sufferings, it’s amazing what I am becoming aware of. And the lessons I learned in those lives, the positives are also coming forward. The kundalini is being rekindled. The life force is the kundalini, known by the Christians as the holy spirit. I see who I am better as I fill in long lost gaps in my memory. I am more than I thought I was. I am not a small, narrow, little creature with only one life to suffer through. I have a long line of memory. There is so much more to me. My sister on her death bed said the same thing. In her last moments just before leaving her body, "I'm not who I thought I was!"
And so it is with me as I learn these new techniques and keep myself active. There is movement here. Life is flowing even though sometimes I’m walking bent over from lower back pain, the pain is lessening. I am experiencing betterment. Life is a mysterious thing. It is flowing more today than it was in the past. I’m getting inspired to keep moving and being productive. This is mysterious to me. What is this? Being productive and creative is life-renewing. Lying down to rest must be done quickly or it is stagnating. It is being in balance between action and rest that the mysterious thing called excitement comes alive. The dullness goes away. The boring parts are gone. There is a new lease on life. An old journal from 40 years ago when kundalini was fresh, new and alive, reminds me.....
(6/18/82) This morning as I lay in bed awake, waiting for Bob to wake, there came a sense of light flooding into me. I saw it with that peculiar sense that dawns in the inner mind no matter whether the eyes are open or closed. I saw a steady stream of little sparkling golden balls, almost solid they appeared, moving into me, rolling into me and settling along my back as I lay upon the bed, then steadily as more filled in, slowly rising and disbursing through the rest of me. At the same instant a crystal clearness filled my mind as though I were suddenly clear of the maze and filled with a powerful will to accomplish my purpose. No particular purpose was apparent, only that I could accomplish anything that I set my mind to, that I had the power, or rather I WAS the power to accomplish. I was filled with a will to do and I knew that nothing could ever hold me back. Further, I was in love with life, eager to do, to express, singularly pure and unadulterated. And then it passed.
1/10/23 - Physical nerves are pure consciousness compacted
(automatic writing/channeling) There are only two things you have control over: your thoughts that you think and the feelings that you have. You have control over your thoughts though you may not know it yet. And you have control over your feelings, like happiness, sadness or depression. You may not know this yet but this is the crux of life in general. It is the heart and soul of life and this teaching today. Now, the first aspect is the thought and thinking, because your feeling follows AFTER the thought is entertained and focused on for a while. Most people are unaware of this but energy follows thought. Feeling is an energy. Mantras and affirmations and continual chanting, humming or repeating words. These are the techniques for changing thoughts to a more preferrable place. Gradually the feelings and moods change as more preferred thoughts are applied.
The second thing to be taught to you is this: you could not even have a thought in the first place, if you were not a self-conscious immorotal being. You are an eternal, everlasting being. You have evolved yourself up from a mere babe of an immortal spark in your father’s eye and he made you. He brought you into being, into life, and you are a self-conscious baby, a future God like Him when you grow up. But you were only a baby in the beginning, only an aware babe. That’s all. Just aware. Then began your growing awareness. The mineral kingdom was the first experience of being aware. There was no movement in the mineral kingdom, just sedentary. Then you experienced the plant kingdom with some movement there. Then you experienced being a small animal, then a larger animals. Then animal men walking on two legs, and all the while you grew in self awareness, developing ways to communicate with others.
Today you are a human and your self-awareness has grown to vast proportions. You are aware of happy states and low depressed states, and of couse you are aware of pain and death. Or you are the immortal being who experiences life in different vehicles called bodies. Your body comes and goes, lives and dies, while YOU continue to live and grow in self-awareness and knowledge of yourself. Today you are taking more new steps into self-awareness.
(Me) During practice today, during the MIAP, while bringing down the silver cord to anchor consciously the three-fold flame of love, wisdom and power into the heart, I added the permanent atom to the heart, connecting the silver cord to it. It is THIS body that we are making immortal with our practices.
(Spirit) You’ve always been immortal but your bodies have not been. You have reached the point of realizing that the self-conscious inner work is not an abstract mental technique, but a technique of connecting to your physical body. You are working with THIS body, the one that your mother created in her womb for you. Also, while calling forth the crystal heart from Mother Earth, you’re calling the light, love, wisdom and knowledge of Mother Earth up into your heart. You are inviting it to enter into your physical heart. Your body is a physical child of Mother Earth. You are a child of God, immortal, learning the ways of the planet and of those who have gone before you on this planet. You are building on the structures and pathways of the ones before you. Mother Earth is your mentor and your grandmother as regards the body. She loaned you the material to create the vessel you are living in. The material is HER body. She loans it to the souls who want to come here to have an experience on Earth. Her light is embedded in the cells of your body. When you the immortal comes to live with her, you send your Mother flame ahead of you, down to join with Mother Earth’s light, and together you grow in knowledge and experience. You and Mother Earth.
Your individual light in the form of your Mother flame is your guidance. This is the ancient light you have left behind when you lived and died and left your corpses behind to be buried, unrecognized and unfulfilled. Your weak back is due to giving your power away to others. Females give their power away by giving in to men without understanding the consequences, and men give their power away for taking selfishly from women for themselves alone, without understanding the consequences. Both genders pay with your life. Your life force is depleted for lack of balance.
A weak back is the sign that the mother flame or mother power does not go up the main trunk of the spinal column as it should, in a balanced way. If it DID go up the central spine in a regular ongoing flow, not stopping along the way but recycling in a never-ending river of life, it would create a strong back bone. During sex, the woman gives her power to the man, and the man takes it from her willingly, selfishly using it to rebalance him SELF. He needs to do that because he gives his own power away following the expectations of an unbalanced civilization. He then interprets the sex act as pleasure since it feels good to him, but it is actually the filling in of the depleted back bone and other organs in the lower body. He takes balance from the woman who willingly gives it to him in what she thinks is lovemaking. She even fights for the right to give him this power, which she jealously guards as her rightful possession.
1/9/23 - Expanding past discomfort
This morning I woke with words in my mind: "When you are in pain, expand. When you are frustrated, expand. When you are angry, expand. When you are confused, expand. When you are lonely, expand." The sense I was getting was that it's the conscious effort to expand that does the work. The "working it out" is done by thought, desire and intention, not by physical labor. I remembered the pool filter. Spray cleaning the filter is a job I have to do every month. It's the perfect example of how to apply this principle to every day life.
When I clean the cartridge filter to the pool every month I have to struggle with the steel housing. It's old and bent and it's seen its best years. To unscrew the top of the housing is a job. I have to chisel it off with a screw driver and hammer because it won't budge any more. Then I lift out the cartridge to spray it to clean it with a hose. That's the easy part. Then I have to screw the top back on, which is terribly difficult because the threads are all worn. I started hating this job. I was developing an attitude over this monthly project that used to be easy. The alternative is to buy an whole new, very expensive pool filter. Screwing the top back on requires three or four repeated efforts because the thread do not catch, so I have to back it off and try it again, and finally using the monster wrench to force it at the end. I was using force on this job from beginning to end.
One day it dawned on me as I was struggling to put the steel cover back on, that I needed to ask the elementals in the steel to help me. I have been reading in the ascended master books principles for living more in harmony with the earth. My attacking the frozen and resistant steel housing with frustration was not being very harmonious. So I stopped what I was doing and went silent, imagining the living conscious spirit in the atomic structure of the metal container. I first connected with my higher self by focusing on my heart, and then imagined the living consciousness of the metal housing. I started talking to the steel elementals and thanking them for their service, all the while imagining the steel housing in a state of perfect harmony with beautiful transparent rays of light enfolding it. This was a fairly normal meditative visualization, but I seldom think to do it when I am involved in a mundane task - like working with a frozen steel housing.
When I felt I was harmonized sufficiently, I very slowly turned the large screw on the top, listening with inner ears and seeing with inner eyes the life and consciousness within the steel. I maintained this awareness with every slow turn of the large screw. It takes 21 turns to complete the screw-down of the top of the pool filter. As I reached the 10th and expected resistance, there was none. I cautiously continued, keeping my harmony and stillness and reached the 15th turn. Still no resistance. I continued on 18, 19, 20, 21. Still no resistance. I felt around the rim for lop-sidedness which signals that it went on crooked again. If so, I would have to back out and do it over again. But this time it was firmly embedded into its groove. The steel was purring like a kitten. I was amazed! It worked! I didn't even have to use the oversize wrench to make the final turn to tighten it by force which I had done in the past. I felt the urge to say silently, "Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! I love you. I love you. I love."This was the day that changed my relationship with the pool filter housing. It is still old, bent, and frozen in certain parts, but I have a new relationship with it. I don't hate the job any more.
Neale Donald Walsh once said, “Life begins at the end of your comfort zone”. What the heck does that mean? I related that statement to this experience with the pool filter. Discomfort is normal for most people. We've grown comfortable with discomfort and therefore we don't always realize that we are having a situation that we could improve upon if we were aware. Discomfort is the normal comfort zone for a lot of us but it creates labor-intensive responses to situations, which only builds stress, anger and frustration because we're doing it the hard way. We are comfortable with discomfort. We're comfortable using force on what is a living, conscious, breathing being. It's normal for humans to use force. It's the big change that we are all growing through now. How to expand past force and become friends with objects of nature and people who are not normally likeable. Our old way of doing things is our comfort zone, but we need to come to the end of our comfort zone of discomfort. It's time to find more expanded and harmonious comfort that is gentle with us.
It takes awareness to know when we're uncomfortable, to catch ourselves in the act of being uncomfortable so that we can do something about it. So that we can stretch ourself beyond that discomfort. That is where pain, a bad situation or a terrible, traumatic event is an opportunity. I can’t open the door to new life when everything is going well and I am happy. But when I am at the threshold of pain or suffering or something is going wrong, then I have an opportunity. Standing at the threshold of feeling bad and life is threatening to pull down under into a bad place, it's a perfect opportunity to go within and push that feeling back. Expand when you are in pain. Expand when you are lonely. Expand when you are sad.
At that moment of discomfort I have a choice whether to continue being in discomfort, or expand by relaxing inward into the silence and stillness of my heart. Meditation is something that everyone should be doing, at least a little every day, to get some practice in for the real thing, for when it is needed the most. By expanding inward into the silence of your heart you open the door to - what? You don't know but there is stillness there. There is silence there. There is peace and there is acceptance And newness. It's a new place and there is fresh air. Relaxing inward and shifting the anger or pain to silence and stillness opens the door to newness. It is expansive. It lets in new life. It is a widening that sheds light on what has been an uncomfortable situation which was hurting and bothering me.
I think this is what is meant by growing by expanding. It‘s a choice to expand and not resist or continue hating and being uncomfortable. Choosing to expand is a gentle act. There is a subtle shift of consciousness to adapt to a larger field. Feeling comfortable is the reward. It is not drastic, like jumping off a cliff, eyes closed and hoping for the best. It’s a gentle thing, pushing the limits back on my own horizon. It blends my former horizon with the new horizon. It’s comfortable. The unknown becomes like being an open field of fresh air and soft grassy meadows under a blue sky. It is peaceful. Our job as human beings who are evolving our consciousness to higher planes is to keep pushing on the limitations. Expanding the envelope that we live in. Our job is to open windows and doors and let fresh air in. As the teacher Ramtha said, to make known the unknown. The unknown is full of opportunity and promise but we can't see it if we are in resisting mode.
It’s like when clothes are too tight and I can’t fit into them any more. The human response is to hate ourselves and determine to go on a diet or do more exercise to whittle down who we are, try to fit into the old clothes instead of adjusting our attitude and going out and buying new clothes that fit better and we are more comfortable in them. Allowing the expansion to take place instead of fighting it relieves the pressure. It ends the fight we are having with ourselves. Duality has become such a way of life for us that we have grown accustomed to fighting. We fight mostly with ourselves, not with other people. We are competitive because we see we are in duality and the two opposing forces continue to grind in on each other. There is consciousness in everything, including our own brain and muscles. By entering into the silence, we can bend those forces to harmonize instead of fight, if we choose to and know how to. And when we experience harmony we can't help but bend the knee in thanksgiving for this opportunity to heal. Weaving the known (the former perspective) with the unknown (that which we are inviting to come forth) together is like two lover’s embracing after a quarrel. There is a sensation of being stronger yet gentler. By joining together two separate energies, two different perspectives, two opposing thoughts, two different colors and world views, we become whole. (from 4/2/17)
1/8/23 - Assigning words to the mystery
There is an inner life within all of us. It is hidden from view among those who haven‘t started awakening to their spiritual self. Who knows who has and who has not awakened and begun to have a rich inner life not known to others? While we are all dramatically different on the outside, because of our experiences and adventures we've had and the many lifetimes we’ve lived, we have the same spiritual template within.
The human template is the same all over the universe, the galactics say. It is called the Adam Kadmon, or the Christ, or the Buddha body. There are many names for it. It is a spiritual blueprint for the human being and it is within us. We mold ourselves around it when we are embodied, and we hunger to touch it because it’s home to us. We are brothers and sisters of the same light. Our inner life is a journey back to that sacred blueprint, but we are veiled from knowing this. On purpose we are veiled. The divine intention is that we learn to follow our INNER path, and not the outer which is a distraction. So we wander until we are guided by good sense. Then the veil thins and the inner light shines through, starting a gradual process of unfolding excitement. Inner excitement of private discovery. This is why we are here: to find that secret inner thread which excites us to spend time alone with ourselves. It is an inner magic. It is rare to experience on Earth because the outer glamour and confusion captures our attention and holds us locked to the world of chaos.
We do not know what our soul is up to until the light begins to shine through, and then we sense there is a higher mind to us and a higher emotional range that we can feel that is more noble than previously known. When the veil is pierced and the light and life shines around inside our consciousness, a new kind of journey begins. Mysterious pathways suddenly open. A new excitement dawns. We see beyond the horizon, or we think we do, and we are tantalized and drawn to it like butterflies to pretty flowers. This is the inner life.
The veil was pierced for me in 1976 when unexpectedly the force known as kundalini activated in me in a most dramatic way. It was then that I began a relationship with something larger than me. At first I thought it was another entity that had moved in and taken me over. It caused me concern at first, but over time I developed a relationship with it. Ever since that day in April 1976 I have been journaling my experiences. I wrote lengthy hand-written pages at first because I didn’t have a typewriter. Then a typewriter came into our possession, and much later, a computer.
I wrote about these experiences because I am tactile. I encourage everyone to journal their private thoughts and experiences, and re-read them later, not the same day. I understand things when I write them down with pen and paper. Writing grounded the experience and fleshed out the nebulous flights into other realms and the interactions with invisible beings who I later learned were the guardians of the human race. At first, I couldn’t write - it was too strange - but as I continued to flash in and out of other realities, I had to write it down and assign words to it. Putting words to the mystery seemed to make it real. If left undefined it remained elusive and etheric. As I struggled to find words to describe these experiences, the mystery slowly became history. With each journey I was structuring a new reality for myself. An inner reality that I could not share with anyone else. But over time I had the notes to prove it had really happened, just in case I forgot it. It seemed important that I do this. And I put dates on them.
I am reminded that “In the beginning was the Word.” Assigning words to these strange and wonderful - and sometimes negative - experiences was a beginning. Even if only built of words, it was a structure that was real to me. My exterior world kept changing but this inner life of understanding has become more enlightened and more solid and more permanent. As if I have been molding and shaping this mysterious other dimension into or over this dimension. There is a merge happening. We really do create our own reality. Other people are doing the same thing, I see, as I read the blogs on the internet.
Looking back and reading the words I wrote so long ago helps me to see that I have been in the process of transition. Ascension they call it these days. There is an expansion of consciousness. There is a higher order at work. My everyday world has been seeded with another more beautiful and harmonious world that is full of light and love, goodness and beauty. I have been integrating the two worlds - my outside world and my inside world. I have been building a new world structure right here on the ground where I live. Others have been doing this too. We are seeding a new reality, a new rich reality into the outer world. We are transitioning. That is why I urge keeping a hand-written journal. Handwritten in private is best, because then the higher self can enter merge and blend better with the human nervous system via the hand and fingers. It is the human body, not the brain, that is seeding the new earth through feelings and emotions. (Re-posted from 9/12/16)
1/7/23 - Message from my higher self
In the night I was awakened to write down a message. "How can your higher self connect with you, your mortal self, except by you the mortal reaching up and being the best you can be? In every moment? Then your immortal self can reach down to connect with you. For, having been born into the lower vibrational world you had to descend to fit in with the lower vibrations. It is by giving of yourself in the best way possible that the honorable, compassionate, forgiving you will become reintegrated with the real you again. Become the most honest you can be, the most pure you can be, the most perfect you can be, the most wise, the most intelligent, the most modest, the most selfless. Then you become your highest and best and your Christ body can make that connection with you.
"Your connection to your higher self is like any other friend you have in your life. To maintain communication with it you must direct attention to your friend. A telephone line opening, a glance in its direction, a remembrance of its presence, talking to it, asking it questions, listening to its answers, fitting in with it, knowing and respecting its qualities, its nature - that’s how you connect with your higher self. Your higher self is buttoned in through your chakras. [I saw this vividly] Higher self is all around you like a bubble. It is not only up in the sky but around you on all sides and below you. It is you as you appear on the higher dimensions that vibrate faster and purer. You are a small dark and dense form suspended and floating inside a bubble of clarity, love, perfection like crystal clear waters twinkling as sunlight splashes colors through the water, like a diamond flashes prismed light. You are the rich yolk inside the egg of your higher self bubble. You are the child inside the womb of your Divine Mother. You are the figure inside the glass snow ball. You are the seed germinating.
"You are surrounded on all sides by your very own God/Goddess/Divinity. Expand yourself to connect with the answers to your question. Touch the hem of the garment of your higher self and listen to its advice and counsel. All your needs are answered when you go IN and then UP to your higher self, higher dimensions where purity and everything you need is available to you. When you are lonely, hungry, depressed, inadequate, afraid, failing, confused, hurt, suffering, overwhelmed, shut down, frozen, go in and UP. Up in the higher realms you are none of these things. You are perfect, complete and ascended. Go IN and then UP to your higher regions to feel the peace and assurance.
"You adopted the low vibrations so you could fit into the world and work here. To re-adopt your former glory, go in and UP to your higher self. Focus on your higher self. Give attention to your higher self. Contemplete it and release your adopted vibrations that are less than who you are. Simply touch the hem of the garment and you will receive a sense of your greatness. Do not be afraid. Release the fear. Become ME for I am your true self. The Self you want to become.. The self you dream about. As you move up the frequency range to higher, more noble sense of self, you will not be able to connect with those who are on the lower frequency range except through love. They become static to your ears and disharmonious to your sensitivities. If you want to stay in contact with the lower frequency range of people, then you must bring my love down with you into lower frequencies and not compromise yourself. Your loving can influence others.
1/6/23 - God is not a "thing", but a process toward betterment
This morning I realized something. Instead of giving credit to a particular ascended master for the many dictations I have been getting over the years, I am supposed to OWN the wisdom for myself. Whatever I become aware of is MY intelligence. It is a process of recognition. I have been giving my power away thinking the words came from someone else. I did not recognize my own enlightenment process.
Today, suddenly, I see that God is not a "thing". God is a process. God is one's higher self blending with lower self. God is short for good. There is a process toward good going on, a process toward betterment, in all of us. There's a higher self beyond us, and another higher self beyond that, and another and another, on into infinity. God is growing itself through the many parts. Good is evolving. There is no end to Good. There is only a process of unfolding. God is not a thing to chase down and discover. Rather, it's a process of recognition. God is the ascended masters, God is the galactics, God is our loved ones who died, God is the angelics, God is the tree, the vegetable, the animal, the insect, the stone, the air, the water. God is the many parts evolving to somethin better. God is everything. God is you. God is me. God is awareness, intelligence, wisdom. God is lighting up the world. God is your ex-wives and my ex-husbands. God is space. God is time. God is the sun, the moon, the planets, the extraterrestrials. Not different but the same.
I am recognizing this today. God is not separate. God is not a "thing". God cannot be owned, discovered or monopolilzed. One becomes God through the process of elimination of what is wrong and feels bad. God is a process of becoming more aware of what is right and feels better. Therefore it is a process of becoming more connected. God is a process of evolving. God is the lesser, the dumber, the blinder, the more ignorant, the more dark, the more unenlightened, the more obstruction, the more resistance because God is the many parts. God is the evil evolving into something better and more connected. The Buddhists don't use the word "God" because then it would become something outside of them, something set apart, a separation, a difference. God is self. God is soul seeking its betterment. Today I sense familiarity, I sense family. I'm moving closer. God is not separate and apart from me. I am not ready to say I am God and I am everywhere, but I am in process of becoming more aware than I was yesterday. (Journaled 9/28/19)
1/2/23 - Crude sex is killing humanity
This morning was a morning of revelations for me, brought about by receiving this wonderful, beautiful, massage this morning from my husband. I do believe your own partner at home is a better person to do this, even though it's never been done before. There's always a time to start.
The energies of the human being. The whole system opened up to me this morning. The human body is designed to receive energy from the earth. The human body is made of earth elements and the same life that fuels the grass, trees and animals and makes them grow, wither and die when their cycle is over, also fuels the human being who is an animal waking up to his higher nature. The human being is different from the animal in this sense. He has been gifted with an immortal spirit or consciousness. This immortal spirit is coming down while the earth energy is going up. So there is a two-way energy flow happening in the human. One coming up from earth, and one coming down from the sky.
The energy flow coming up from earth enters through the bottoms of the feet and travels up the legs to the tail bone which is the first chakra, the beginning link to the stars. The human body is designed to carry the flow up through the second chakra (reproductive or sex chakra) which is another, higher, link with the stars and which provides new more expanded insight to the human. And then it travels up to the third chakra (solar plexus or naval) which is still more expanded and another higher link with the stars and provides vaster insight to the human. This is the first three of a seven-step ladder that the human climbs by opening and experiencing each step, one at a time. In this manner he gains his immortal status.
From the third chakra the life travels up to the fourth chakra (heart) where it links with the down-flowing energy, which causes quite a stir. He sees for the first time the higher way. It melds him in with his lower understanding. He opens to vaster knowledge and he begins to question and consider higher ideals, morals, ethics. As his heart opens new understanding floods through him which carries him naturally upward to the fifth chakra (throat), where another star link opens to provide him with the power of truth, to communicate his voice to others. Understanding takes shape and form and he centers his attention around a career or vocation, what field of service to work within. Doors open wider. From there he travels up to the sixth chakra (third eye) which opens when he is finished with the career and wants to retire, perhaps in solitude, taking a break from the world before deciding what's next. Then he travels naturally from there up to the seventh chakra (crown of head) where it links with the incoming energy from the stars and Home, the place from which he came, the source of life, comfort and bliss.
This seventh chakra gives him his freedom from the physical material world and he becomes liberated. If he has completed his soul journey to his satisfaction he earns his ascension to become the god or goddess he/she is destined to become. But if not fulfilled in that life, then he returns to another life, again as an infant through a mother and father’s seed. And another life and another, until he completes his soul mission. It is the same process as the acorn on the ground which is destined to become a great oak tree. The little acorn grows through certain stages to become a tree. So does a human being grow through its seven stages step by step, to grow from animal man to God man. It must be that way, because each step fits him to a broader expanse so that he is ready to step into the next stage. If he stops at any level along the way, he is incomplete.
This is what is SUPPOSED to happen for human beings. It is the plan. The earth energy travels up from earth to the heart which is the central gathering place, and he links with the heaven energy that is descending. Eternal life and immortality descends downward, ever downward into density to enrich the lower planes of planetary life. The whole system is enriched and grows wiser and more efficient, more perfect. It’s a partnership between heaven and earth. The immortal spirit is pure consciousness. Consciousness is growing ever wider. It is flowing down from the light above. It is the divine plan to flow down and enrich the lower realms. There is an immaculate concept for earth to become more perfect and beautiful, and for the human being to become a more perfect, more conscious human, a better man and a better woman. A God-man and God-woman, if we can use those terms. They become more graceful and more marvelous, walking and expressing the joy they feel unfolding within themselves. They are becoming enlightened. We are a divine consciousness coming down into a heavy earth body made of clay, dust and matter. We are trying to partner with this animal body and bring it into its fuller human potential beyond the former animal nature. As consciousness we do that by linking up and melding with the earth energy that's coming up through our feet and up through our chakras, bones, blood and tissue.
The problem is, we haven’t been doing that. We stopped the flow by diverting the earth energy to sex. Very, very, very few people understand how this works. Everybody thinks that sex is so important but it is actually disrupting the flow that is trying to reach the brain and connect with the universal system from which all life came. The connection is with the universe. The system is designed to bring enlightenment, happiness, joy, creative inspiration, abundance on every level and perfection to the human being who is evolving from a lowly animal creature into a higher intelligence. A god if you will.
It is not that sex is not important, it is rather a side enjoyment of a greater power source that the human has been gifted with. But crude sex is killing the human race. The goal of orgasm – and the orgasm itself – stops the flow at the second or third chakra. The animals have not been gifted with immortality consciousness but mankind has. The animals do not have the ability to evolve into a god or goddess. That is the role of the human, to take this animal body up to a higher level of respect, love, purity, decency, understanding, universal consciousness. He then becomes immortal PHYSICAL beings. He is not evolving to escape the earth plane, he is evolving to become a resident in the garden of Eden, of paradise, of plenty, of joy, love and freedom. We have yet to know this. We don’t understand what our role is. The human being is meant to grow into a higher ethical powerful being, but crude sex is stopping him. As a selfish glutton lusting after sex and orgasm, he is putrifying his own body and that of those around him. He is causing a serious backup, a damming up of the earth power which seeks to rise higher through the seven steps to completioin.
The human being is a god in the making and we have this incredible immortal energy at our disposal to do it with, known as the holy spirit, or kundalini or some other word. You name it. It can be called simply the life force. The eternal life force. It is stored at the tail bone, the first root chakra on the etheric level. It is a power that requires love to release it. Once released, it needs respect or it turns negative. The immature ego is too small to handle it. There is meant to be a figure 8 flow with the descending energy from the sun. There is meant to be the ascending force from earth meeting up with and melding with the descending energy from the sun, from the light above us. There are distributing centers all through the universe sending this light of consciousness and intelligence out to the planets to grow these god-men and god-women. Ascending and descending forces flow in the figure eight sign, the infinity sign, but we are interfering with it by diverting the power off into sex. The orgasm explodes, the life force cleans up the local area of the body, provides bliss, and then dies. The upper regions of the body do not receive it. We want the orgasm. We press for the orgasm. We use artificial means to get an orgasm and we are trying to prolong the orgasm, to linger with it. We want to extend the orgasm. We cum and cum and cum and cum and keep shorting out the vast immortal power, and then we die. The immortality gene never gets awakened because the earth energy doesn't link up with it. It must reach the heart.
The next step in the evolution of mankind is to learn about this. And do the inner homework on themselves to merge the two rivers in us – one flowing up, one flowing down - to flow together. It will bring balance. Balance will bring clarity in a natural way, easily, lovingly, lightly. By not obsessing over the orgasm, one falls into a natural state of being and THEN he can make love. Making love replaces the obsession over sex. Making love is natural and innocent and timely. Making love comes with harmony and with rhythm when two people are aligned with purity in their own hearts. It is not impossible. It is done on other planets of higher grade than ours. Once we learn to stop being selfish and crude with our bodies, we will begin to distribute the energies known as the cerebralspinal fluid all through the body in a steady flow, including the brain which is important to the human evolving. And then when these flows are flowing nicely the human race will be a race of peace and love. That's when sex changes and is no longer crude but is a form of worship and love.
When two bodies are flowing with bliss energy together, and both bodies are in synch and both bodies are at one and both bodies feel good, then they are making love and miraculous things happen. The mind opens to the universe, they expand and expand and expand and they learn who they really are and they soar among the stars, even as their bodies are entwined on the earth plane. This is the gift of the gods. It is the next step beyond sex. The way sex works now, the one who is most turned on seduces or ravishes the other who goes along with it, ignoring the chakras. One of them cums but usually not the other one and the other one is confused about that, perhaps resentful, becoming embittered over time. Sex aborts the whole process and diminishes love.
My life journey has me focusing on massage. I took to it naturally. Then I went to school. But the school doesn't have the right knowledge either. Enlightened spiritual massage, if you know what you're doing, is the best way to link up the earth energy with the sky energy. We need to connect the ascending earth energy with the descending sky energy. The end product is bliss and love. Many people are NOT getting the bliss and love from the crude sex act, only the one who is pressing it another person is getting it. Temprarily. But it's not lasting. We have to get over the crude selfishness of the animal nature we carry in our genes. Respectful caring massage is the best way to do this, in my estimation. I am receiving revelation after revelation after revelation about this. And finally I am overcoming my fear to say it out loud. Fear is deeply imbedded over this issue. There are souls who are so turned off but they can't speak it out loud.
There will be a loud clamor of resistance and rebellion, over this suggestion, I am sure. And yet, those who rebel do not hear the message. It is not the end of sex that is suggested, it is the end of small-minded sex that is selfish, that has not matured yet out of ancient animal creature habits. They press sex on others because they have not been educated in the higher form of lovemaking. Ending the crudity of sex is focused mostly on men, but this includes women too because women have been men before, and men have been women before. Ending low-grade sex will require some re-training but it is the beginning of learning about love and the gifts that the human body is capable of receiving. A loving massage by people who are more or less on the same wave length would be nice, but perhaps not realistic. Who do you know who is ready for this? Perhaps those with some spiritual understanding, but my goal is to have loving, enlightened massage exchanges who agree to practice the "don't focus on cumming" rule.
This will allow the raising of the powerful earth energy up through the WHOLE body to connect with the descending energy coming down through the crown of the head. We have to reach the crown to open the crown. This is the beginning of the science of connecting heaven and earth. It will require practice but it WILL lead to clarity, to healing, and to fabulous blissful experiences. It is the beginning of flowing the fires of life instead of blocking them as humankind has done for thousands of years. It will clear the debris of accumulated trauma of every kind. Craniosacral massage is the closest thing we have to it, but the kundalini energy connection is missing. Bringing the earth energies all the way up to the crown of the head is necessary, and to do this we must not stop at the groin level to release it by cumming. This will take some serious re-training, since we all are so obsessed with the orgasm. The orgasm energy is needed up higher than groin level. The orgasm is the only goal we have right now to give us a semblance of bliss. But there is a greater future ahead if only we know. We must be re-trained. We must break the habit that is holding the whole human race back, spell-bound, trapped and recycling such low vibrations. We must, in order to get to the abundance of clear vision and thinking, and the bliss of constant love. (Journaled 1/20/15)
"The spinal column is the central pole of the body around which the various organisms and electrons spin. It is like unto the axis of the physical earth held in place by Polaris and Magnus. Within this spinal column is the magnetic core of love that holds the physical vehicle itself in manifest expression. Within the spinal column is the cosmic keynote for each lifestream. The tone and the natural harmony of the vehicle are constantly flowing through the nervous system from the spinal column; and that harmony is the sustaining power of the outer self of each such chela [student].
"When harmony in the physical form is temporarily broken through strain and tension, it may be acquired again if the chela will lie quietly upon his bed with a low headrest (or none) and visualize his spinal column as the "pole." Then, in relaxation, let the light from the spinal column go through the nervous system and the entire physical vehicle carrying the light into every cell and atom of his being. If this can be done for 15 minutes daily, the chela breathing deeply and rhythmically, holding the thought and feel of LIGHT, he can again adjust his physical body and arise refreshed and relaxed."
4/7/23 - Inspiration and ascension
Energies have been swirling very fast the last few weeks, and picking up more and more speed. I tend to think it is planetary because I know we are in the middle of a planetary shift to higher consciousness, but this is personal. I want to share today what I have learned about GROUNDING the light. The light waves that are coming in are sweeping like a little old lady with a big broom, sweeping up the old dusty energies that have settled down into our carpets and furniture, and it’s causing a great deal of dust The dust is swirling and I was experiencing dizziness to the extreme, I couldn’t think.
Then the Master Djwahl Kuhl stepped in. What he told me I should have known but didn’t. He tells me again and this is something very important to remember and to pass on to others. Whenever I have an inspiration that thrills me and lifts my excitement up so much that it fills me with elation and quickness, then I better use it RIGHT AWAY. I must get rid of it or my brain will be filled with vital force and it will scatter and shatter my brain cells. It is no different than when a balloon is filled up with helium. It causes the balloon to fly away. The brain cells lose contact with their normal abode. The light fills in the spaces and moves them apart. There is too much light coming into the body’s cells and tissues.
This is good on one hand, but bad on the other. I have vitality and excitement filling me but my head is not cooperating. And when the brain is not performing its normal function of maintaining control, I am useless. DK says “share the light”. Tell someone, incorporate it into your practical life. Find a way to use the knowledge that is exciting you. It is a passion for life. Use it for life-giving purposes. Something beneficial, benevolent, to help your neighbors, family, friends, community. If nothing else, get up and do some gardening, or a project that needs muscle and labor. Use the light, the vitality, the excitement and passion until you run out of gas. Otherwise you will be like the helium balloon and rise upward, lift off the ground and float away. Your spirit is drawn to its father light on higher consciousness dimensions unless it is used right here on earth.
What I discovered was, when I lay down to rest to let it pass was NOT good. It caused me bad feelings, as if death were waiting to take me. This is a very subtle point that might be overlooked. And it is this. The spirit wants to return to its father. It is a powerful draw to leave the body when the mission is done. It wants to go home. However, if there is more work to be done, the spirit can be drawn back into action and WILL revitalize the body again if it is determined by the individual to do so. It takes will power and desire to overcome the feeling to “lie down and rest”. The light is the light of spirit, and the light of spirit tends to want to go home where it is welcomed by the father-parent. But this CAN be overcome, according to DK. He spent many years teaching these methods to his students. He has been showing me how to do it.
Many people have not had the benefit of the Ascended Masters’ teacings about death and dying. So when death comes knocking and the swooning starts, most people give in to it. But there is another way. It is important that I pass this information on to the world via my writings. It is how I contribute. Ascension symptoms can be alarmingly tempting to give up and give in, but you don’t have to if you know more about the higher consciousoness that is lifting you to higher realms. You CAN take the body up with you. This is the embodiment stage of ascension. Bring the light down into the body by sharing the knowledge that you have. In any way that feels right to you.
If the physical body - the tissues, muscles, organs, lungs, heart - if they cannot keep up with the higher light that is sweeping through the earth in cycles and waves (and it does cycle, it’s cyclical) the body wants to swoon. It is so tempted to lie down and rest. But when I lay down to rest I started feeling the old sick feeling again. I don’t like that feeling. It feels really bad. I used to blame someone else for the sick feeling, but it’s my own flagging, lagging energies that are causing it. They are failing to keep up with the light. There are methods. I have been using ancient Tao methods for a long while. These are helpful. There are many other ways that can be shared. Share the knowledge. That is what I am doinng. A light worker is one who shares the knowledge. Light is refreshing new knowledge. It fills in the gaps of empty unknowns. Bad feelings like “I’m going to die”, the death and dying feeling, also come in cycles. They can be filled in with new knowledge. So I have learned NOT to lie down when I am swooning, but to get up and move. Do something physical.
It is important that you get this. This has never been written about before. I haven’t seen it in any of the ascension articles. So what do I do? DK tells me to get active. Do something to use the light up. Use it. Distribute it. Share it. Tell the people in some way. Figure out a practical way to contribute. You are a lightworker. You are here to contribute light to the world, a lighter way of living IN the world. It is a more loving realm that we are moving into. Find a more beautiful, refined way to do something positive and constructive. Do not fall back down into the old ways of grunt work. Do not let yourself float away either. Find the balance between the two ways. Ground the balanced way into the earth. Give balance to the earth to lighten the earth and the people. If you are an artist, paint! If you are a construction worker, construct. If you are a gardener, weed and plant. If you are a writer, write. I am a writer. I WAS a massage therapist at one time but I had to stop doing that because male energies kept dragging me down into sexual areas, by sheer magnetism, and I didn’t want to go there so I resigned massage therapy.
So now writing is my way of contributing. I write about what I am experiencing and there are many. Too many to get them all into written words. But everyone is different. Everyone must find their own way of becoming a light USER. USE the light, which is information. Use it in a way that benefits the world around you. Radiate the knowledge that is coming through you.
My dizziness and swirling energies have mostly gone away. Not entirely but mostly. The main cause was too much light and I couldn’t use it fast enough. I began recognizing it slowly. Whenever I sit down at the computer and send a newsletter or post an article by DK or a channeling from the Presence, or communicate with someone or swap a massage with someone, I feel more alert, vital and alive, filled with renewed energy. I became more aware as time went on that THIS was the answer to renewing myself. It is vital that we stay active, but only doing that which brings us a feeling of goodness. Not to waste time doing mundane, dull stuff. It just drains our vitality away. Feeling good with yourself is the most crucial part of living. It keeps you sane, clear-headed, not dizzy as I was starting to feel. I couldn’t believe it. I began to notice the difference, whereas when I went through a day doing ordinary mundane things that didn't elevate me in spirit-led fashion, I felt dull, empty, and the sickish feeling would come to remind me, "this is not right". It would hover over me nearby until I found something exciting to do.
The earth is going through an ascension shift. We need to get onboard with it and go WITH the ascending flow, the exciting flow, not hold ourselves against it. Quantum field energies are sweeping the planet bringing us closer to zero energy, balance energy. Most people are not aware of this. I am writing about something from a more advanced understanding. I’m sorry but I must speak of these things. I know them. They must be shared. They are pure light, pure knowledge, pure love, pure order and harmony. It is how the planets stay on course and how the sun rises every day and sets at night. We are rising to join the galactic knowledge but currently it is beyond what most of the population has been prepared for. But we can work with it. We can handle it. We can open our minds and relax inward for 15 minutes and reconnect with the light that is flowing through us. It WILL sustain the body if we do that periodically. .
For the benefit of those reading this, the solution to swirling energies that are causing turmoil, whether light-headedness or depression and moroseness, the solution is not a mental solution, but a practical body solution. Do something active that takes physical energy movement. When I tried to ground my bad feelings with mental techniques, as in meditation, it wasn’t working. Slowly, gradually, I became dissatisfied with meditation. Meditation is rapidly going away for the new-age light worker. It was used to bring us into the modern age, but now it is giving way to practical work – the work of grounding and growing roots into the mainstream community. Help the world change through practical applications. Most important is sharing stories openly. Stop hoarding and being secretive. Open the heart and mind and become sincere, become authentic, become real. Share who you are and what you know. You know things that others don’t know.
The new world system we are moving into is a fairer system, it is more tender, more considerate, more loving, more wholesome, more natural, more organic, more emotional and of a feeling nature, more supportive, more connected to the whole human race without judging those who are different. There is more vitality felt when this approach is taken. It is simplistically alive. It is not a mental method. It is a heart and gut method. We are here to use our hearts and guts. When you want to know more, when the solution evades you and you’re just not getting it and you’re up against a blank wall, it’s because you’re up there in your brain. Old thoughts run through the brain. The brain is not the mind. The mind covers you like a sheath, from head to toe. It is your consciousness.
The solution will not come from the brain, it will come from your consciousness that covers you like a sheath, from head to toe. It’s a physical solution that will give you an answer and dissolve the blank wall that you’ve run into. It is a whole-consciousness solution that is needed. Plant some of YOUR seeds, YOUR knowledge out there in the world, but do it humbly, with humility, with compassion. Figure out how to do that in a way that causes you to feel good about yourself. Find the passion in you. Your passion is the thread that will start your motor running again. You will be amazed. I was. As you share some of who you are, your inner talents, your innate skills, you will feel it. It will feel good. Follow your feelings. Cast your seeds out around you in your own special way. Become a new kind of Johnny Appleseed on a practical level. Don’t let it smoulder up there in the higher mind without some balancing ground work. Build channels into the soil. It can’t help you
“up there”. Or me. Tell ME what you know!
3/26/23 - Stirring the pot of energies that surround you
I had extreme dizziness when I entered the kitchen this morning. After reading an article about divine love and what that really reams, it confirmed what's going on with me. I wasn't sure. I am all alone in my transformation but this article hit home and validated what was happening for me.
See, I have been connecting with the sun for the past years. Connecting with the sun is connecting with light. Light means information. So when I connect with the sun I am downloading cosmic information into my body. However, I live with a man who doesn't know anything about this, so I am alone in handling it my way. If I were to tell him my uncomfortable feelings he would insist I go to the hospital where they would insist on giving me "something" that I don't want to take. I'm working on aligning my seven layers of consciousness. They are not in alignment. Drugs would cause worse misalignment.
So anyway, the article confirmed for me what was happening. I immediately started to REAFFIRM what I was doing and within 5 minutes my dizziness cleared up. It was my belief that was not strong enough. I had doubts. This is inner work. Inner work is sacred. It is totally private. I can't tell anyone what I am doing within myself because then they would express THEIR doubts, and they would influence my confidence in what I am doing on a supremely subjective level. Because we are all ONE. You are connected to me and I am connect to you but I don't want to hear what you are going through, because it is YOUR journey. It is YOUR sacred inner work that you are trying to develop into fuller awareness.
I have started a new mantra of bringing the light down from the sun. It uses visualization. I can share this part because it is generalized. The reader may be at the right place in consciousness to be able to read between the lines and interpret for him/herself, tap into it, pick up on it and carry it further. This is partially channeled information from the sun. There is a cosmic order in the universe and humanity is on a cusp, a threshold of learning something new. So new that it can easily be rejected as fantasy. But it is not a fantasy. It is a step into another dimension. and it is done with conscious awareness. Where you put your focus and STAY with your focus concentrated there for a period of time, even for one minute is a long time to hold focus on a new dimensional level that you've never held focus on before. (Only in flashes.)
Consciousness is our intelligent spirit. It is our individuality. We are each different from our neighbors. We have evolved on our own individual path to where we are today. What we are conscious of, we influence our bodies and minds with. Needless to say, don't focus on anything negative! When I focus on the sun I visualize the brilliant, dazzling sun at zenith in the sky overhead and hold that visualization in my mind's eye for a small period of time. The new higher light comes down through the crown of the head and into the brain. The part of the visual that is above the head is abstract, not yet in form. But when you hold the visual of the dazzling light there above the crown, as if it is sitting on top of the crown, even for the span of 60 seconds, you are inviting the light to enter down into the brain. When the light enters into the brain, it starts to move through the physical body. The longer you can hold that light on top of the head, the longer time it has to seep downward, coalesce or condense downward into the physical matter of the body and brain. The brain is an important part of the physical body structure. From the brain the light impulses descend further down through the nerves and other mechanisms of the human body. Everything is involved, blood, circulation, hormones, everything. But it starts with YOU, the resident intelligence, holding consciousness on the dazzling light of the sun above your head.
As for me, I had this information years ago, but no one to verify it for me from the human physical realm. I've been working with this information alone, except for my invisible guides. Guides come from higher dimensions. They are always available when you ask for it, or when you start using and believe in the light coming down from the greater expanses. The sun is a distributor of the light from source. It is how we all grow here on earth, from mineral, plant, animal to human. We look to the light for our life, for happiness, for knowledge and understanding. All suns are distributors of light from source. And even we humans have a sun growing in our hearts of SELF consciousness. We too are growing into suns. The process works through self consciousness. When you are conscious of the light and believe in the light coming down from higher realms, then it DOES come down into the brain. It becomes part of the body's physical structure and physical consciousness and mental understanding. Then it gets distributed through the nervous system, blood, hormones, all the other systems into the lower, heavier, denser regions of the body, down into the feet and the denser earth below our feet. We literally bring the light down into the earth and we help the earth and other bodies and forms that we live with during our daily incarnation. So I consciously bring the visualization of the sun down into my body through my belief system coupled with my concentration. It comes down through the crown of my head, down through my brain, and down into my body. But it does alter things in the body. It changes the body and we have to learn how to manage these changes. It speeds things up. The atomic structure speeds up.
So there is a second step. The second stop is to visualize the space between the atoms and electrons of my physical body. I am altering my physical body by bringing the information from the sun down into the SPACE BETWEEN THE ATOMS AND ELECTRONS of my physicality. Because I am the intelligence that lives in that space between the atoms and electrons. I am part of the cosmic order and intelligence. I am the harmony. I am the awareness of my physical form. I've been trapped here, thinking this form is all there is, but now I am awaking to the fact that I am the intelligent spirit behind this form. And I am bringing more light (more information) from source into my physical brain cells and body cells. The fact that the terrible dizziness started to go away when I did that this morning, was further evidence that it works. I have to align my inner space with the light. My physical body has become old and deteriorated. It was created out of finite material. I now am reconstructing it, realigning it with the light from source. I am the one doing this. I am doing this with my consciousness and my physical body starts straightening out for me. This is new information and new validlation. I am in the process of transforming my old body into a new light body. This takes time. It is a meshing process. You can't just snap your fingers and have it done instantly. You have to believe in this process.
Things are fast changing. I was not privy to this before. This is the time of revealing hidden information formerly known as occult, which merely means "hidden". It is not a secret. It was never a secret. It just was not understood and therefore not accepted by the mass population. Now there is an acceptance of formerly hidden knowledge. I am hearing about it. I am reading about it. I am having my own visions and downloads about it. I am integrating my physical body with this new knowledge. This body of light information. I am believing it. As I do, my dizziness and spaciness clears but I have to keep doing it. Dizziness or sick feelings are caused by misalignments. The body was built on old intel. Intel is changing. I am therefore changing. I must keep up with the changes in alignment. It is now a way of life for me. I am bringing the light of my new knowledge down into the concrete matter of my body. I am manifestation a new body. I am allowing the light to influence my old deteriorating physical body. The light is weaving back and forth a new network into my old network. It is meshing new and old together. It is blending what was and what is now coming in - newer understandings. It is like blending new spices to an old soup that has grown old and tasteless. It improves the flavor. It brings "oomph" to the taste. It adds spice, pleasure and enjoyment to the body's senses. It brings excitement. It brings enthusiastic responses of laughter and fun. It brings bliss sometimes, joy other times, rapture other times, creative projects other times. Upgrading the body physical is a work in process. We don't know where it will end up, but we are promised that it will end up happy for us.
It is a process of alignment. There are energies in us that we did not know were there. We just didn't know. And they are still there. By visualizing dazzling sunlight entering into the brain from above the head, new information comes in, too. It brings alignment. Spend time alone, quietly, visualzing a sun at the crown of your head. Visualize your brain and body as a root system in the earth. The sun is pouring down now into this tree of light and resurrecting the cells of the body. It is a newer, spacious understanding entering into the blood stream of my former finite body, built with clumsy understanding. The transformation takes place in the space BETWEEN the atoms and electrons and feeds into the physical nervous system. Say, "I AM the consciousness of this body and I dedicate this body to the higher will that I AM."
My consciousness is widening. I am allowing myself to accept this as fact. I am exerpeincing the ascension process. Ascension means lightening the heaviness of the former condition. I feel like a bird taking to the air. Perhaps not literally, but consciously feeling airy and light-hearted, joyful even. Peaceful. Contented. There is open sky ahead. There are possibilities and I am heading into it. I am no longer confined to former beliefs. At the same time I am merging my former beliefs with contentment, with peace and with love. Just as lovers do when they unite and hold each other and continue to hold their love together. So do I unite and merge with my former self. In that way I expand my former self and alleviate the misalignments of dizziness, feeling out of sorts, off kilter and feeling poorly, not well, as if there is something wrong. Those feelings disappear as I breathe the light from the sun into my brain and body, visualizing that I am stepping into the space between the atoms and electrons of my physicality.
Readers may not have the years of training I’ve had but you can create your own phrases from words that make you smile and say AhHA! Use your own words to create a mantra, a repetitive phrase that you say out loud, 10 or 15 times at a sitting. The sound of the words will ‘ping’ and ‘resonate’ on your physical body cells and ‘shake’ them up, loosen them from their rusty old hinges. It's like shaking loose an old stuck door after years of no change, no action. Break them loose with words of encouragement.
3/23/23 - About the dark intelligences, who are they?
(From a journal 7/10/20, I just found this today, and decided to share it.)
Just as light forces have infiltrated every field of endeavor of this dark-infested planet, so have light souls infiltrated the sex field to bring healthy loving change to the human race who, unknowingly, have been led into a distorted program to be slaves to the elite cabalists who are human in appearance but are run by dark ET intelligence forces. How did this happen you ask? [I was channeling but didn't recognize it at the time.] The dark ETs are intelligences, not physical. They can manipulate physicals to do their bidding. It’s fun and games for them. They are the dark gods of the universe (little g) and the light gods of the universe (little g) are fighting for the freedom of the immature races who don’t know any better, using the big God’s laws of harmony, abundance, freedom, love and good will. The dark gods are the fallen angels spoken of in the scriptures. The light gods are the ascendeds and beings from far regions of space. We term them “galactics” who are also not physical, being high intelligences. There are many levels of physicality, many different forms in the universe. Physicality is a descending of vibration, a cohesion of closer-knitted atoms. Similar vibrating atoms are attracted to each other and gather into groups. Higher intelligences direct them with a mental blueprint, as such. The formation of physical organisms is divinely directed. It is a science built on divine understanding of cosmic laws of cohesion through attunement. It is done in harmony, through peaceful, natural attunement. There are countless levels of physicality. The light is intelligence coupled with balance between all the powers, and the greatest of these is love. The light intelligences is chasing down the dark intelligences because dark intel has rejected love and God’s laws requiring balance.
The dark intelligences use and abuse the immature physicals who don’t know any better. Earth is such an immature world. It was originally a garden of great beauty and refinement. It was etheric in the beginning but it was invaded by dark intelligence forces, without love or empathy. A long complex history evolved that requires much background information to understand what happened. The bottom line is God the Father-mother gives everyone a chance to redeem itself. We, the light intelligences, are infiltrated into the dark-infested planets by being born among them. Light souls are being born into dark cabal families on Earth. The light forces are you and me who are drawn to love mankind and womankind. We care for each other. We do not have an inclination to hurt people or torture or manipulate or kill people. We are among those who are being born here to cultivate and grow the human race, the human bodies, the human garden of paradise from within the physical environment.
The dark intelligences are aware that we are here and they attack whenever they can. Most of us are of higher vibration and cannot be damaged, unless we let our vibrations fall down into lower realities. Then we can be hurt. The dark intelligences are aware but they have been unable to stop the infiltration of light souls because the light souls are protected and surrounded by higher light forces. We are therefore more powerful than the dark-infested humans who have not yet learned how to align with the light. Instructions must be accepted. Instructions on the light are available, but they are not seen until a soul is ready to receive. Then such souls are drawn to discover light instructions, often called metaphysical instructions or mystery school instructions. The light is unified. All the powers of the universe are unified in orderly fashion. That is the nutshell of how to do it: use love and harmony.
Intelligence is everywhere. Intelligence is Father God. Love is Mother God. Intelligence can reject love and does. That makes it inferior to the light forces, except that free will is given to ALL life, which allows dark to exist. It is a choice to align with dark and negative forces such as greed and selfishness which does not have empathy for other life forms. Light has love and the dark does not. That makes the dark a cutting edge intelligence who can go against the laws of God but only to a certain extent. Like a rebellious teenager can join a gang of thieves and do violence, rape and murder until the system steps in and ends it. So does the greater cosmic law have greater forces on its side and is more powerful, love being the greatest power because it is the element that binds all life together. Love is the Mother force.
Love heals by not interfering but by giving free will choice to everyone. When it is time for a dark soul to return to Mother Father God, it is forgiven and embraced. The only punishment is the dark soul’s own facing of its own deeds, for it is responsible for everything it has ever done. Life is a playing out of free will and also a responsibility to own every act, thought and feeling it sent out. That is the great learning. Each spirit spark has free will to choose what it wants to do next, but the realization that it must pay for everything it does, has not dawned upon it yet. It must learn this through trial and error. It feels free to play out its fun life the way it wants to, but it is responsible for the damage it causes others. Whatever impact it has on others will return to him so he too experiences what he caused others. Good comes back as good, negative comes back as negative. Whatever his actions, thoughts and feelings caused to others returns back to the sender, and often many times over because on its return journey it picks up similar energies to build a greater mass. So when the backlash comes it often has a more powerful kick than the original act done, seemingly, in fun. The dark is on its way to realizing that.
The dark is dark because it rejects that concept. It does not believe it so it is limited in how far it can evolve. But it can cause mayhem in the lower stages of life and basically it can infest and takeover whole worlds which is what happened to Earth. That is why the light forces, the Galactic Federation and other federations of light, are here, to countermand the dark intelligences. The light must stay within the boundaries of cosmic law – the Star Trek’s Prime Directive – so it must work within certain parameters. The goal is to get rid of the dark-infested intelligences that have held humanity in lock-down to physical, without allowing the soul to gain access to love, light, truth, other dimensional powers, which humanity does have, but under programmed manipulation humanity does not know the powers it has locked up within its own muscles, tissues, blood and bones as a species.
Humanity is an amazing species but it has been held back. The light forces are here to help humanity get back on course of growing its amazing properties WITHIN each body into full-bloom physical expression, to bring about an actual garden of love, light, joy, pleasure and freedom of expression and creation. Today we TALK noble words like justice, truth, peace, love, freedom, wisdom, faith, purity, will, enlightenment, but we do not live them. When the dark intelligences who have been ruling the planet are removed, these qualities will no longer need to be spoken and written in poetry and scripture for they will be lived daily, hourly, moment by moment. The original garden of paradise will return as all who are different on the outside - skin color, language, culture and history – are honored, elevated, appreciated and held in high esteem. Where there will be no more a higher or lower people, or a better or worse people, or a left-leaning or right-leaning people. There will be freedom of expression to be WHO YOU ARE. There is acceptance by all, because all are recognized as a child of the Light and Love within. They have all chosen to live in alignment with that which is in their own heart and soul, which makes them equal to all life no matter WHAT THEY LOOK LIKE OR ACT LIKE!
3/22/23 - There is a science of love
There is a science of love. It comes down from above and enters into the human body but it follows pathways that are not linear or physical. Love involves higher qualities and higher values. Principles, not mental thoughts, but mental thought activates the principles. If held long enough in the consciousness love is invited through higher thought, words, actions and intentions. Love flows along with the use of kindness, givingness, affectionate touch along with a moral and ethical foundation. Love can be enduced by the use of colors, prayers and visualizations, not in a mechanical way, but in a spontaneous way. It must come from intentional will power and choice. A person begins to open to love by turning thoughts in an upward direction, consciously. Because mankind has been brought low and blocked off by negative thinking, erroneous actions and beliefs which have colored him dark, it has shut down the flow of love. Our culture today is mechanical with finite laws and strict rules and punishment which diminish the flow of love - the flow of life itself which keeps us healthy and young. No wonder we grow old, diseased and die!
We must learn how to draw on love from within and cultivate it as we would a garden of vegetables, fruit or flowers. Life is constantly flowing as a river of life into the body but the body is constantly shutting it down because of the rules. We are obliged to follow rules. Society demands we follow the rules but there is a way to break through the ceiling and become liberated.
Love is flowing IN but not out. We are blocking it. We need to find ways to let it flow OUT. We need to find ways to break the blocks that hold us back from feeling love and freedom because they are flowing in. Love and life are constantly flowing into us as a river of life. Tantra teaches this. Currently, we are in a state of need. We must find ways to live this spontaneous love and light OUT into our daily affairs. Most people have experienced those unguarded moments when the heart opened and love flowed along with tears. We don’t reveal this love because it is too intimate, too private, too vulnerable, too sensitive, too tender, too innocent. And feeling like a child that needs protecting, we move to stop it. We think we are defending ourself from the cruelties of the outer world, but we are holding back the very love that will transform our life. We must find ways to release this love to others who will reciprocate in kind and build on it. Others are hungry to receive love. We need to start somewhere, and that somewhere is with people who resonate with these words.
3/19/23 - The Mother Light in the tailbone
Your mother is in the earth, your mother light. Mother is in the earth, father is in the sky. Our brain waves take us into multiple dimensions where we think we are out of body, but we are still in the body, just on higher frequencies. There is another reality in these higher dimensions but it is all taking place “here and now”. There is no “other” place. Higher dimensions are not “in the sky” but we who are rooted in the physical dimension, because we inhabit a body with 5 senses, live in duality where there is space between physical bodies. The etheric body is in a different reality. It is the akashic, where all records and memories are kept of your past lives, the good, the bad and the holy. Although the holy returns to the Holy, leaving the duality experiences in your etheric body, or etheric double which surrounds you and which keeps seeping through into your life because you have to resolve them, you use your innate wisdom to teach you and take you through the dissolution of the unpleasant in you.
The emotional body is another reality. You work with your feelings, sensations, good and bad, and you play with others also working and playing in emotions and feelings. The mental body the same. It is another reality world, a world of thought which contains low thoughts on the lower levels, higher thoughts on the higher levels and exquisite thoughts on the exquisite upper levels that take us into the mystical and sublime, which is the light body known as the Christ body. Bring father light and mother light together in the heart. Sex keeps them apart. Sex siphons the mother light off to feel good and have orgasms. Your consciousness is the key to bringing father light and mother light together in the heart. Conscious breathwork as I am doing now is bringing the mother light up to the heart. Today I had a most wonderful experience feeling that. Unconscious breathing is barely keeping the body alive, but conscious breathing exercises quickens your mother light and awakens her, brings her up into the body. She is the divine mother of you that is embedded in the earth. She is part of the dullness and sleepiness of mother Gaia. Quicken her, wake her up through your own breathing technique and through your OWN mother light, and Gaia wakes up too. As you do this, you remove some of the heaviness that has kept the planet in low vibrations. (Partial of DK's online book, see 7/23/19)
3/16/23 - The desire to give - stop trying
I’ve met some amazingly loving people recently who are frustrated because they want to give so badly so deeply that their hearts are on the verge of breaking because it all seems so futile, lost. They are trying to figure it out. But it can’t be figured out from the level of mind. It has to be a surrender to the higher self. I have been tracking the divine feminine for this reason. It is taking me to a higher level, yet I am still on the lower level too. I have learned that we must merge divine love with the human level. The human level is the result of worldly programming but the divine level is within us too. It’s within our consciousness. My path in this life has taken me deeper into this divine level than any life prior, and I've had quite a few prior lives. I am now breaking new ground and having entirely new experiences which I've never had before. This is a new experience for me - to let go of my dreams of helping people. There is a higher level to love, it can’t be figured out by the ego, by mental effort. One must give up trying to figure it out and stop projecting the need to help outward. Only by stop wanting and trying, yearning for what you don't have, can you stop the hurt, the pain of heartbreak and struggle. This is a next-step teaching for humanity. Give up the struggle for what you don't have. Surrender to the love and peace within. It is there on a higher level.
Recently I had communication with my higher self in which my thoughts were directed to the warmth and goodness of love. I was told the word "Feminine" and I felt the echoes and essence of women down through the ages since the beginning. I felt the essence of women, not their outer human shells which struggled through life, but the soft resilient intelligent tender femininity at the heart of each woman or girl child who ever lived. Warm femininity swirled around me. I touched it as I would touch a raw warm human organ with my fingers, liquid and pulsing with life. I felt its soul enter me. I felt feminine and sensual. I felt the love and joy and nurturing that each of these women brought to the planet, whether they were fulfilled or died in pain. It didn't matter because they brought with them a living potential of love that they left here as a gift to the earth, and it's still here.
I said to myself softly, "Love." I felt love and femininity as one, including the feminine side of men. Love is reconnecting to the soul. It's the inner warmth that is accomplished by turning within to stoke the fires of one's own hearth (heart). After having thrust outward in competition and aggression and driven by ambition, love as good intention is the returning home. Love begins at home for oneself. The turning within to the heart is the female in us who wants to nest and wrap ourselves in a warm and cozy cocoon, in a sense of completion and a work well done and completed. Love is the one gift that we can give to ourselves that does not require anyone else. It is the hour of meditation and prayer in solitude, inward directed devotion and praise for the highest in us. We can feel love even if we are alone, homeless and stricken with cancer. Love is a choice to return to the heart to elevate our very own self, our higher self, to appreciate ourself and say, "I love you." There is a strange and wonderful power that comes forth at this time that soothes and calms the outer storm. It goes beyond logic. Loving oneself does not deny the world, the death, sickness, poverty and emotional pain. Rather it fulfills them. It includes them and puts them all to rest within the heart. Comforting it to completion. There is no exception. There is nothing bad enough that can't be loved and put to rest in the human heart. Love is unconditional.
This was my vision not too long ago. I am hearing a song by Nicholas John, one of my favorites: "Oh, my darlings! You were never out of place! You belong to eternity. What you are is amazing grace!” CLICK HERE TO LISTEN. You are here in this body enclosed in a cocoon, a little child protected against the powers that are locked within you, until the day you break the seal of your heart. When that day comes it will bring this power forward into your conscious mind to be worked with. This power is a consciousness expansion. You are not being given this power to save anyone else but to work this realization into your own life. You must empower yourself first. If you try to give to others before you are ready it will only bring frustration to you and to those others. You must come to empower yourself first by turning your outer consciousness inward and strengthening your heart center before attempting to help others.
It is an egotistical effort, a small and petty effort that is self-serving, to try to help others before you have grown yourself to full strength, maturity and wisdom. Turn around and go back in/within where there is refinement, grace, peace and comfort and build into that inner peace and knowledge so that you will grow strong and begin to overflow it outward to others. This is the new 5D teaching. We must learn it intellectually and then feel the peace and love within. Love is eager to move through you. You do not have to work at it and you should not, but wait until love moves within you. This does not take long if you do your homework. It takes a disciplined morning practice to weave yourself inward, ever inward, ever upward, for this is the evolutionary force that you are administering to yourself, to your body, mind and emotions. When you get started on that, you will find amazing progress at hand. Then you will feel first a sense of peace at home. The self love is growing and strengthening. You will fall into alignment with that amazing grace without effort.
Love is infinite but it is held back until one builds it first-hand and practices it at home. I have been practicing it. I have withdrawn my efforts to help others outwardly, and am instead focusing on building the deeper understanding. It is an effort to discipline oneself, but one must apply the higher unconditional love to oneself first. This is the home study course. They say it takes a guru, but the guru may be invisible. I had an invisible guru who came to me to teach me. Higher love will expand upward and call forth the teacher who can guide you. Who will listen to your questions and respond from the higher regions of thought. The higher impulses of self calls for the higher guru. Then love radiates from your heart and brings to you those who will attract from you that which THEY need, not what you think they need. You cannot fail to attract those who are ready to be close to you. The sea of conscious love is infinite and eternal, and out of mercy it is kept beyond reach until you are ready to drop your selfish ego pride which in itself is needy. When you have made strides in this direction, then you will break the seal of your heart and feel the love start to blossom. Conscious love is everywhere.
Then grace, love and peace will move to the forefront of your consciousness. You are aware and you love all things. Even the dark so-called evil ones will be affected by your loving presence because you are this amazing being and you are idiotically happy and unreasonably buoyant. You are uplifting, excited and illogically positive while others around you are in trouble. God-intoxicated, some might call it. What accounts for this idiocy? You who do the inner work every day will understand as you continue to prune back the undesirable. Not repress. No! But allow it into your transformation and it will melt away. You as a human being can’t do this with your little mind because it does not know how. It is enclosed inside a brain, a skull, a head. Instead, merge with the happiness, love, joy that is locked up inside you. Do this any way you can, without analyzing, without logic, without reason, without human ego, without mental effort. Step off the cliff into mid-air, into the arms of joy. This is a metaphor. Jump off the cliff because if you cling to the cliff you cling to logic and the ways of the world that demands reason. You will never get there with reason and logic.
The little seed in the ground bursts its outer casing and is seen above ground when it finally germinates a little sprout. You do too. You must surrender to the power of the joy within you. It is happiness and unfounded reason that sprouts and expands within you. You can’t do it with logic. Give up trying. Stop trying. Trying holds everyone back from the joy of love. You can’t be free as long as you are continuing to try to accomplish something of your own making. Surrender to the flow of the living light, the waters of spontaneous joy. This is the story of opening to the evolutionary force within. It is not of your own mental making. It is the power of infinity. It is taking you up on a wave, lifting you up higher on the top of a wave that is being sent to you out of love, because you are ready. Because the ego in you is letting go and jumping off the cliff, metaphorically speaking. The you that is letting go thus blends with the cosmic order of harmony and unity. The merge takes place. Whenever you as a human being “try” to do something, you are trying to be something smaller, lesser and more confined inside the nutshell.
You are a part of the sea of life that is eternal and immortal. As long as you remain separate from that you must continue to die and be reborn as separate, until comes this day that you break the cosmic seal and you pop out of that field of separation back into unity with love. You are love and you come from love. Love is the sea of consciousness trapped inside of your form. Stop trying is the first step. Work on not trying.
3/11/23 - Becoming whole-brained, access your etheric body
An interesting new idea was given to me several years ago by the Ascended Master DK, but I totally missed it at the time. I ran across it again the other day and it clicked this time. I was ready to hear it. For years I have been operating under the belief that I am too feminine, and that I had been functioning out of my RIGHT brain. I suddenly realized that this is not true. A friend had told me as much, saying that I hadn't activated my left brain, so I began calling to activate my left brain at that time. And it was true. I was not a logical thinker. Ever since I went into the light in an out-of-body experience. So I have been activating my left brain, and I DID notice a difference. I picked up more vitality and more abilities that I had not had before. I did not give in so much to feeling easy, seeking body comfort and body pleasure. But it also caused me other problems that I never had before. Like being more stressed out than I used to be.
Well, I did ask for it. And it was a good experience to feel what it is like to be less feminine and more pro-active by activating my male side. I felt more constructive and as if I was earning my way more in the world and not being so passive. There is a certain amount of satisfaction that comes from that. But what happened to my cool? My peace? My calm? My loving nature? Do I really have to suffer the stress and tension in order to be more left-brain oriented? Does that have to be the price I pay? Then I ran across the message from DK of several years ago. He said, "Don't just activate your left brain, activate your WHOLE brain."
I have been doing that. I am learning. The heavens are re-opening for me. I am regaining my ability to feel the heavenly love and peace again. The right brain is connected to Home, the stars, the celestial peace of harmony, love and light - that is the highest yearning of every heart. The right brain is designed to tune into the harmony of the universal creator. It has been called the "feminine" side. It is the passive side of us. It harmonizes situations that have become unbalanced. It is humble, considerate, kind, just, honest and provides space, allows for everyone to be simply who they are without pressure.
The left brain is the other side of human nature. It is focused. It concentrates. It puts up boundaries and limits on just about everything. It provides the ability to think, form thoughts, conclusions, languages, string formulas together, make music, form patterns, designs, mathematics, bridges and buildings, invent machines. It has the ability to take the universal stream of ideas and build a solid world of form, so we can live and enjoy ourselves in increasingly more efficient and beautiful ways. However, the left brain shuts out the right brain and the cosmic connection in order to get the job done. It has no time for love or celestial ecstasies. He leaves that to the women.
The insidiousness of this (for me) is this. I was TOLD I was feminine, and I therefore fit myself into the energy pattern of the subservient female, as women have done before me. Weak and in need of male help to get by in the world. I should remain soft, warm, loving and take care of the house, children and husband. It is a way of life that I fell into without thinking or knowing what I was doing. From the time I was old enough to think for myself and form conclusions, it was too late. I was female. Men have the same thing happen to them. They begin following the male programming early in their life. They are prepared to be responsible, hold down a job, be the protector of women and children, and man-up to the hardships of life.
Yesterday as I was re-read the old journal from DK, a new awareness clicked in. I thought I was usingmy right brain but I haven't been using my right brain at all. Not at all. Maybe in the beginning, when I first went into the light during my OBE I did, but thereafter I began changing. I've been using my left brain all along. I've been concentrating, analyzing and trying too hard to be something that I'm not naturally. I've been trying to fit in. It is not my nature to be left-brained but I tried to be. It is not natural to me. I have been working at something that is not natural to me. I've been trying and getting nowhere. I've just been busy. Busy trying. I have not been utilizing the right side of my brain at all for I have not felt very natural. The peace and harmony has been missing, even though I've "tried" to find it as all of the outside advisors tell me I should do. "Try!" I am told. And in the processing of trying, I have been using my left brain, the analyzing, concentrating, logical side of my nature, not my cosmic peaceful side.
I don't know if the reader can catch the drift and meaning of this, but I am a perfect example of perhaps most people in the current generation. We're all trying too hard to be something that is not natural to us. The right brain is tuned into our higher self, who we are BY NATURE. Our natural homing device is the right brain. It was the male paradigm culture that challenged me to be more logical, more "with it", more worldly, more part of the Matrix. And I tried. It caused me to become most unnatural and unbalanced, but I DID try! And I experienced what it's like to be male-oriented. I allowed myself to be caught up in the insidious Matrix. I thought I was feminine but it was all a false belief. It was a lie. I am not feminine at all. I am simply me. Now can I go back to being me?
Beware what you THINK you are doing. You are probably not. If you activate your right brain, you'll become more at peace with yourself. The "you" that is natural is a balanced "you". Try balancing yourself by activating your WHOLE brain. It requires stepping down and back and resting periodically throughout the day to let your blood and nervous system flow back into harmony again. The universe is an orderly universe because there is balance in all things. The planets stay in their orbit and human beings are evolving to become more in harmony with the universal plan of peace, love, harmony and order.
It is a loving universe when one is at rest. And yet we are meant to be active too. That's why we have a left brain AND a right brain. We can be mightily active and creative on a genius level, but 50% of the time we need to allow our unbalanced half to withdraw and rest. Truly rest, not just party with the guys and gals, but rest. Withdraw to regenerate. That is the whole point of meditation. It is a method of withdrawing into the celestial realms of pace, love and light to regenerate, reharmonize, rebalance ourselves. Then we can become the genius again next day. The right side of our brain is naturally in tune with our higher self. It is an open channel to where we came from originally - from a Home among the celestial stars.
Activate your right brain. This is a special hint to men. Activate your right brain and see if it doesn't bring you a little more calm in your life, a little more peace, a little more welcome rest from the tension and confusion. All you have to do is say throughout the day, silently to yourself: 'Right brain activate!" Use it as a mantra, a chant that becomes embedded into your brain. Or, according to your own sense of rightness, use the words: "Whole brain activate!" It is where you put your attention that turns the right brain on, or the whole brain. It is always your consciousness, for "you" are the power behind the physical body mechanism. It is where you put your awareness that turns the key in the lock and opens the door. The secret is consciousness.
Becoming whole brained leads naturally and automatically into contact with our etheric body. The etheric body is the space between the swirling atoms and electrons that make up our physical body. The space between the electrons is where thought and perception gathers before coalescing into physical nerves, blood and tissue that forms our physical body. The etheric body is the auric field that surrounds us, that Kirlian photography has captured on special film. Thought, feeling and perception gathers in our field around us before sinking down and coalescing into form and substance of our body. Once thoughts, perceptions and emotions become physical we "own" them. They become manifest and it's too late to back out of it. At least it is difficult to back out of it once these thoughts and feelings have become form and substance, with errors built into them, such as anger or wrong thinking, wrong feeling, wrong concepts and attitudes. Imagine stepping out of the physical body into the field of your etheric body and breathe freer there. Give yourself a few minutes now and then to lighten yourself up and step outside your physical. Experience your larger self, your etheric body self.
As we practice being whole-brained, being balanced equally left and right working together as one functioning brain, the body will lose its tendency to work so hard and create stress. We will become more relaxed, more restful, more prone to harmony. Let the world get on without you. Close the door to the outer world and retreat into the right brain or the whole brain. You decide. It is a self-exploration. Only you can take this step into cosmic love, light and harmony. It is a natural gift from the creator of life.
Then the etheric body will not be so quick to feed anger, fear or stress into the nerve, blood and tissues of the physical body. This is what throws our bodies into confusion. The balanced body is a balanced body, no matter what gender it is. We can be female or male, but when we are functioning with a whole brain, we then have the ability to focus, concentrate, be pro-active and constructive, and at the same time, relaxed and operating in harmony with others around us, for we are connected. We are part of the whole and will be aware when someone is NOT balanced. We will be more aware of how to respond and interact with them. We will be better able to be responsive in benevolent ways, guided to do our constructive best with all concerned, enhancing the community in which we live.
3/8/23 - The Lovers' Archetype
There's a wonderful message on "Today's Updates" page by Saint Germain. This is exactly what Anakosha is trying to bring about with its new love community (posted yesterday). One by one, the green lights are flashing on as I travel down the highway of life letting me pass on through. Every day I am getting another validation that dovetails with the dream project that I once called "The Love Club". I've been writing about for so long - been frustrated for so long, being unable to get it started. But it just wasn't time. I wasn't ready and others weren't ready. The world is changing however, and speeding up, raising its consciousness, raising its head, raising its values and self esteem. There is love in the air. I love that Saint Germain gave us this message through Jennier Crokaert several days ago. Be sure to read it. It is amazing. Click HERE.
Another validation received this morning that we are on course to greater Love, greater Peace, greater Togetherness in harmony. From the book, "The Brotherhood of Angels and of Men" by Geoffrey Hodson, circa 1927:
"Can you conceive an eagerness to work so great that even our bodies seem near to breaking under its power, yet an eagerness combined with patience that can wait a thousand years? To that sublime patience you must attain, for within the quality of patience are enclosed a multitude of virtues: strength to control, power to restrain, vision of the Plan, knowledge of the real, detachment from results and co-ordination of the will, the mind, the body, so that when the time comes they act as one. Patience of this kind does not extinguish the fire of eagerness to serve, rather does it glow ever more fiercely within the compression exercised by will and mind. When at last the order comes, when, after the passing of an age, the day arrives when the restraints are to be released, then it is that the power stored up for so long flashes forth through us. We become the catapults of God.
"Now that day has come; stored-up energies, resulting from the power of the great ideal, have been released into your world. Fear not for the result; the end is sure. Not for nought have your Hierarchy and ours planned, from time beyond your power to count, ever waiting for the arrival of the day; so I say the end is sure. Still they plan, for ages yet unborn, great schemes, embodying the divine Will; in detail, too, down to the angels and the men they choose. What, then, are we but incidents, straws, blown by the breath of God (?) except that within those straws the self-same breath is found, so that breath answers to breath, and His Will is done.
"Remember always that the ultimate source of power is in the idea, the power we use in manifested worlds is but the force emanating from and the reflection of the divine Idea. If this be true, then no delay can reduce its potency, nor any circumstance prevent its ultimate expression. Upon this knowledge should patience be based."
3/7/23 - Calling all lightworkers and mystics
Calling all lightworkers, spiritual students, mystics, visionaries, dreamers, galactic starseeds and other celestials masquerading as humans – welcome to my world! This is a shift in direction. Anyone who is drawn to these words are invited - will be invited when it is time - to a future gathering at my house, date and time to be announced. The purpose of the gathering is to open the door to our higher self, our higher heart, the higher and more refined nature waiting within for release. Our higher self connection resides in our hearts, not our brains. Our brains are unaccustomed to speaking from the heart so we are going to have to learn new skills and new words. That is the reason for the gathering. I have been advised to go ahead and begin issuing the call. The call is done by making it a public call. I can blog it now. It has been a long time in coming.
At this gathering to come, we will practice communicating intelligently in words from our higher self, our higher, wiser, more divine self, who is far more knowledgeable and authentically real. We each know this but we haven't had it confirmed before now. We know who we are on deeper levels, subconscious levels. Each of us has a background of prior lives where we have gained experience, skills, knowledge and wisdom in how to maneuver the human body experience. We come from higher planes but we have been blocked out from knowing that. Now is the time to start sharing what we know. It has been culturally unacceptable until now. This gathering will require that we trust each other and be upward-focused. In other words, positive in our thinking. This will bring about our sweeter natures that are more vulnerable and innocent. The heart is all of these things: wise, non-judgmental, truthful, ethical, discerning, loving, sensitive - and powerful but never pushy. Never, ever pushy. That is why we tread lightly here. We walk in the light and love of the one infinite creator. We do not accept pushy, judgmental, opinionated souls who are not ready to open the heart.
While it is true that we all have opinions, they are third dimensional opinions, formed from third-dimensional laws on the books. This gathering is a calling to those who are ready to reach higher. I am calling for the mystic and the visionary and the student of the heart that is open or ready to open - ready for more. The calling is for those who are willing to participate in speaking the finer natures that yearn to be said, to be free. Communities have already been forming. This is the beginning of a new local heart-centered community. It is yet to come into existence. It is an invitation to learn what higher self means. It is an invitation to go beyond what is already known by the brain. The heart knows more than the brain. It is connected to the higher self and the higher plan. This is an invitation to learn how to trust and how to hold hands despite differences, no matter on what level those differences appear to be. Some can be really crude and harsh. But if the divine thread is there, then we are to find it and support it, and nurture it in others, because that is how we nurture it in ourselves. It is how we access our higher natures. We must assist others who are having difficulty expressing their higher natures, just as we are, and then we will be assisted too. It is a "coming together" in more ways than one.
We will be practicing how it feels to be non-judgmental. Most of all, we will learn how to trust ourselves and what we have always felt but could never speak or tell someone out loud. Our higher nature has been curtailed. In this new community gathering others will support us in return as we support them. There are higher forces at work. More than we know or can understand. Only as we practice and experience this for ourselves, can the light turn up a notch so we can see and feel the difference. This is a gathering to support the process of ascension. It is the evolution from animal man to spiritual man. The spiritual man will learn to live in grace, unified with his brothers and sisters. The use of the term "he" automatically implies "she". They will be more refined, more honest, more decent, more loving, more nourishing, more fulfilled, more peaceful, more comfortable, more powerful, more passionate, more kind, more pure, more whole and therefore more holy.
This started out as an invitation to a small gathering in my home but as I began writing, I see that my initial thought was only the beginning of a much larger project. The Master DK has taken over! It is pre-mature to set a date. The place of the meeting will be in our home in the outskirts of Naples when the time comes, and the purpose is to open the door to the fifth dimension. At least in the beginning stages, for there is much in the way of sharing information that must be done first. We will be sharing from the bosom of the vulnerable heart, the beautiful soul of the higher individual. It will be in a round-robin discussion. There will be no teacher, only a hostess and two co-facilitators. We are all students, no teachers. We are all seekers. All fingers on one hand. All brain cells activating in one brain. All heart cells in one heart. We are non-judgmental, we are listeners, we are observers, we are unifiers and harmonizers. We are positive thinkers. We are active and outgoing sometimes and quiet and passive other times. We are oriented to receiving more light from higher regions. Light from higher regions means information from higher regions. We are open to hearing more information from the higher nature of both ourselves and from others who are present with us.
Our purpose is to explore, learn, discover and practice speaking from our tender, vulnerable, more sensitive higher selves. There are no words for them. They must be felt as we speak them. We encode our words with our feelings. They are our inner-most thoughts that have not been accepted by the traditional world. We are opening doors to beyond the established traditions of the world, and we are feeling courageous and bold to do so. Will we be rejected? We are being supported and we are feeling urges to dare to say these words, these feelings. We have been afraid of rocking the boat so we have been wisely staying quiet. But now the time has come that we are openly seeking support from like-hearted friends. We are mostly female but we are of both genders, so there will be a few men among us at first. Men are welcome if they are capturing the meaning of the words.
Each meeting will start with silence. We will enter into the heart center through silence. Silence is the supreme number one method that we need here today. Meditation without anyone to guide us. No words, no electronic devices, so that each one of us may enter our own silent heart all by ourself. There is no leader. The higher self is our only guide. I as the hostess and gatherer will invite you into the silence but you will enter alone. I am being guided - instructed is the better word - by the Brotherhood of Light, the Ascended Masters. In the silence we are the small ego entering the holy of holies, the secret chamber of the heart. Feel the sacred ambiance of this chamber. We are the smallness surrendering to the highest in us. We are the lowest possible point within our own God/Goddess self which exists beyond the world of form, beyond the myriad stars and galaxies. And each of us has the only key to unlock the door.
After we return from our silence in the secret chamber of the heart, we will have an honoring ceremony, and then an introduction round-robin. Each person present can say as little or as much as they want (within reason!) about who they are. Perhaps a cue card will help with prompt questions. Then we will evolve into discussion with two people acting as moderators.
I am being guided by the Master Djwal Khul who is a member of the Brotherhood of Light or, as it was called in earlier days, the Great White Brotherhood. It is also referred to as the Spiritual Hierarchy. There are many names for those who have mastered the form world as we know it. These great ones have all been where we are today at one time, and they have mastered its limitations and graduated. We are connected to these higher masters through our hearts. This gathering is a way for the masters to guide us through the next stages. This is why we are here - to learn more. This knowledge has been kept from us. Our higher self is a light within the heart. Our life is a conscious light but we didn't know that. We are being now exposed to the consciousness within our heart. It is the eternal living flame which keeps our bodies alive. There is so much to learn!
This knowledge will prolong our life on earth and raise it to the higher planes of love, abundance and happinness. It will bring us back into balance so we are not so stressed out living in pain and struggle for understanding. Those who are called ascended masters live in higher realms called higher dimensions. These dimensions are more refined, not so dense and concrete as we experience here. But they are able to zoom in on anyone who calls for help because we are a thread of life connected to all of life through the flame in our hearts. We will learn more as we open our hearts and access that flame through the process of sharing information. We did not understand. Our closed hearts were kept closed by the laws of former periods in our dark history. We were not free to express ourselves or our creativity or our free and enthusiastic loving nature.
We have been watched over through the dark periods of our history when mankind was in danger of destroying itself. We were guided as best we could be guided, but humanity was so closed down it just was out of reach. Still the ascended masters were there to help. They could see when a heart tried to open and called to God for help. There are bursts of sunlight when a call such as that appears. Shimmers of sunlight appear in the concrete exterior of a human body. There is no space or time in the universal oneness. The light reaches out and is heard throughout the lighted realms. Once, in the early days of my awakening when I was experiencing many odd things, I experienced an emergency rescue by an unknown source. Being ultra-sensitive to the outer environment, it was while I was in the car with my husband driving to downtown San Jose, when a huge semi-trailer truck came thundering past us blowing this incredible horn. I screamed, apparently in my etheric body because my husband didn't hear me, and I found myself sliding down the curvature of the earth into the blackness of space. Yes, you heard right - I was rolling down the curvature of this dark planet, solid black, into the even darker void of space - and suddenly someone or something grabbed me by the scruff of the neck and brought me back to the seat in the car with my husband driving. He didn't know what happened. I asked him. I was terribly shaken for a long time after. But how? Who did this? It has been forever registered on my brain. I will never forget it.
The universe operates in a harmony and order. We will ourselves know this once we are no longer confined in a concrete physical body. We are being watched over. Now all we have to do is learn how to respond. The universe is well organized and we are part of if. We will learn more soon. The earth has been a very difficult school but we have only been born here by the free will act of volunteering. Yes! We volunteered. That's what they say.
3/6/23 - Solar flare emissions cause dizziness - what to do
The following article was taken from a channeling 25 years ago, but it is so very relevant today. I love the concept of creating a buddy system to share feelings and awareness. Perhaps that is the next thing to do. I myself have been experiencing extreme changes in mood, both good and bad, distortions, out-of-body feelings, and flashes of cosmic clarity in-between. What a wild ride these ascension symptoms!
(Channeled:) When you identified with energies long ago that were not the same as your soul purpose, it pulled you out of alignment. The increase in light transmissions now are pulling you back to your soul purpose. The effect is a shifting in your mind causing some discomfort and dizziness. You are losing your separation consciousness in this time, which is the tendency to withdraw and turn inward. The new energy will not let you go into separation any more. Create a buddy system to talk about your awareness with.
Connecting with another person helps transmute the energy of separation that is being dislodged. During solar flares there will be depressions, sadness, loss of hope as the separation energy begins to float free. The sun is God-Love. During solar emissions, the first emissions are x-ray emanations from coronal mass ejections. Sensitive people will feel them in seconds but they go fast and don't impact your magnetosphere [the region surrounding the earth]. What comes next DOES impact. The actual magnetic plasma wave takes 48-72 hours to reach earth and it compresses and distorts the earth's electromagnetic field, and also the EM fields of all creatures including human. People will feel grief, anxiety, sadness, depression, not being yourself. This will pass in 90 days but during this time, reach out in a buddy system and share your feelings. The last emissions are M-class emissions (severe) and X-class emissions (very severe, like 10 on the Richter scale). When you hear NASA speak of X-class emissions coming from the sun, hang onto your hats and buckle your seat belts.
The solar emissions impacting earth is like squeezing a balloon and watching the balloon become distorted. So do the energies inside your EM fields. The physical body will also feel unbalanced, causing aches, pains, dizziness, falls and freak accidents. What you can do to stay balanced during solar maximum cycles - reach out in a buddy system and share your feelings. They will pass. Meanwhile, expose your body and consciousness to the light as much as you can to absorb what is being transmitted. There will be incredible sunsets. Use magnets taped to your skin and other grounding devices like copper bracelets and necklaces. Wear crystals and use visualizations. When you feel out of your body it's the result of one of these wave fronts. Carry black stones like hematite and obsidian, tourmaline.
Stand barefoot in the grass for two or more minutes a day, and anchor your earth chakra (6 inches below your feet) to the core of the planet. Do not anchor your light body. Sleep north to south, head at north. Or meditate two minutes head to north. Take salt baths to clear and protect your energy and ground you. Expose yourself to sunlight to attune to plasma waves. Let go of density. Do a body cleansing. Contractions are signs to expand yourself. Lighten up on your diet. Use fruits, light dairy (yogurts and light cheeses), more greens and raw foods, seeds and nuts. Do not use sugars, sweets and simple carbohydrates, they burn faster and are high-stimulus foods. They grow your system out of balance. Complex carbohydrates and fruit sugars are slower burning and keep you in balance. Back off of caffeine, and use herbal tea. Comfrey tea is excellent, also licorice and licorice tea.
It is important to connect mentally with others through the heart by saying what you feel. Say anything, it doesn't matter what. Mentally you will swing back and forth between high energy ambition and boredom or disgust, as patterns that relate to separation consciousness are dislodged. The solar storms are doing this. If you feel like you are losing hope or faith, it is the old separation consciousness being dislodged. The feeling of being "unconnected" is an ancient energy that is now floating free and moving out, making room for the great thing growing inside. Cut down on TV and overstimulation. Shorten your meditation times. Stay in the here and now and align your physical, mental and emotional bodies.
Your spiritual ego is realigning to become God in physicality. Even those who are asleep are experiencing it. Be non-judgmental. By detachment and non-judgment you detach your energies and support. When you judge, you participate in that which you judge. Detach from making judgments. You have been a part of all things, including war. You as God created war. You as people created war, you are not separate from All That Is. So you as God and People begin to heal the war by detaching your energies from it.
It is an illusion that you are going somewhere or becoming something. You are already all that you are. Detach from the illusions and projections you have created. You are simply awakening to your freedom and flowing forth without efforting, without judgment, without attaching or trying to be a certain way or do a certain thing.
3/5/23 - This is Tantra (Master Djwal Khul)
One day back in 2013 I received a message from DK that applies to what is happening in our world today. We definitely in the midst of the ascension process, moving into lighter atmospheres. There is much confusion by those who are not aware of the beautiful world that we are moving into. I wish to assure peace and calm. Be prepared for love and clarity and knowingness. People are confused because this information has been kept from the public's eye. As I am constantly reviewing DK's messages, he continues to inspire me and I wish to pass it on, reminding everyone of the hope and beauty that is on its way into our life. But it's not what you think. This is Tantra. I have been posting his messages received over the last 47 years HERE. Please check out his beautiful inspired teachings. The following instruction came when I asked him something but I don't remember what I asked him. I forgot to write it down!
"You have become fragmented into many pieces. You are not whole. You are learning to re-connect your four lower bodies - your physical, emotional, mental and spiritual or higher mind. You have been learning about integration and you have been practicing in your meditation room. Now you are getting the idea this morning. A new understanding is dawning. The others that you need are the fragments of yourself. You are learning how to expand your awareness to the higher plane of the emotions and from there to step up to the still higher plane of thought, the mental plane. And from there to the yet higher plane of higher mind. You are visualizing the expansion of your body to these higher planes. You are expanding your awareness to higher planes beyond the physical. You are waking yourself up on the higher plane of emotion and mental and spiritual and higher.
"As you consciously stepped out of your limited perception of being physical, and as you visualized yourself larger than physical, superimposed over your physical as you have been practicing, and then breathing consciously, allowing your breath to penetrate your larger self on the emotional and the next larger mental and the next larger spiritual and the next - as you breathed in and out of each plane while visualizing, you awakened and aligned these fragments of yourself with your physical. Many people are today working this process to bring their four lower bodies, anchored in the four lower chakras, into balance and alignment with the limited concrete physical body consciousness. This is what I meant by “you can’t do it alone.”
"Picture a line of people arriving to your house, each bearing gifts but they are stopped at the front door because you do not open the door or look out the window. You do not know the people are there with gifts for you, gifts that would make your life easier and more pleasant, more agreeable. Many riches await you when you stop trying to live your life as if you were all alone with no help. You have a network of help and helpers all around you but you do not see them. You have been living in a closet in the 3D world. You were kept from your own holy self and the powers of your full potential by the mass consciousness which is a fuzzy dark cloud which obscures your own light. This opening and piercing of the veils between your bodies which kept you locked as a prisoner in the physical material world is being broken as you practice awakening, enlarging, breathing, and calling upon your emotional, mental and spiritual self through the morning exercises. You are not alone because you have a wholeness that is connected to God and through that wholeness you are connected to all.
"You have been asking for guidance on Tantra. This is Tantra. This is awakening while in your physical body to the other planes of consciousness that you have access to but you have been kept locked away from. Tantra means a net or a web that connects all as one that has always existed. You were never alone in a separate body, but you were locked out and closed down from knowing this truth. Now you and others are piercing the veils. It is a conscious realization that connects you. The web of life is composed of conscious thought. Conscious awareness. Consciousness connects all that is. God enfolds all his creation alike in his arms and heart and mind. All is contained within the bosom of God. When you don’t know this, it is like being locked inside your closet and not opening the door to the people outside trying to reach you and give you the gifts, their hugs, their laughter and their joyous celebrations, and to invite you to party with them.
"Practice your awakening exercises every morning. When you do this, as you consciously awaken to your higher self and invite integration of your other dimensional you’s, mind, feelings, principles and values, you nourish and refresh your physical body. It is your physical body that grows old and tired because it is not being rejuvenated by spirit. When you enter 3D you enter a “time zone”. There is a beginning and an end locked in time. When you are born in 3D you agree to be closed off from the love and light of the Creator and all of the higher dimensions. You came to learn about darkness and what happens when you are without the light and love. As you remember how to pierce the darkness through the process of applying love and light, you can nourish the failing body and the physical cells will open and drink the divine nectar. Your body fills up, plumps up with life and your DNA expands as does your consciousness. This is how you align yourself with your own perfection, the Christ, known also as the Adam Kadmon, the divine perfect human being, designed as the original role model of each human being from the heart-mind of God.
3/4/23 - Use mantra and visualization to take control
Create a sacred seed thought to take control over your life. Sacred is the key word. It supplants the personal ego which is the little desire self which causes confusion by chasing and holding onto desires. The little desire self is limited and finite. We have been concentrating far too long on this small little self. Consider using the following mantra. I am sharing it today with whoever is drawn to it. I have been given permission. Anyone may use this mantra and guided words of instruction. This mantra must be made with repetition. It will access your personal God-self identity known as your Higher Self. The Higher Self is the ladder to the stars. It is a path that goes higher and higher and is endless, even while you are human living on Earth. Only you can walk the rungs of the ladder of the Higher Self. It is done by choice, free-will effort and concentration. This mantra was given to me by the Tibetan Master, Djwal Khul many years ago.
I AM THE HOLINESS OF THIS BODY, AND I DEDICATE THIS BODY, I CONSECRATE THIS BODY TO THE WILL THAT I AM.
This mantra gives your power over to your higher God-self. It directs your Higher Self to take control over your finite body and make decisions for you, which you do not have the ability or vision to make yourself . You are asking for help from higher realms. You must ask for this help by relinquishing control over your smaller ego. Your human ego is in control until you consciously surrender control to your Higher Self. Your Higher Self requires that you ask for its help before it can step in and take control. This mantra does that, but you have to take the lead and establish a conscious repetitive daily practice. It doesn't take too long. Repetition is how we create habits. We humans are really good at establishing habits, but we have not created good habits. It is time to create some sacred habits. A rhythm of repetition. Plus a humble attitude.
Along with the mantra, use a visualization of yourself that is beautiful to you, that is attractive to you, that is an ideal image of yourself. Visualize this within a bright sun. Use the light from the sun to brighten this image of yourself. You can play with this image by brightening it to the degree that your image almost disappears, and then bring it back into sharper outlines. You are manifesting your Higher Self into your current life while repeating the sacred mantra. First find a photo or remember a photo that you saw one day long ago, one that you especially liked of yourself. That perhaps shows you in a better light than you are today. What you would like to BE today. Use that image to imprint on your inner mind as you repeat the mantra, "I am the holiness of this body and I dedicate this body, I consecrate this body to the will that I AM!"
Close your eyes, lower your gaze downward as if looking at the tip of your nose, and repeat the mantra while holding this image of your beautiful personal self in the light of the sun. Do this often. It will help stabilize your mind. It is like planting a seed thought in your subconscious mind. Repetition of the same thought plants a seed of ONE thought - remember, it is ONE thought, not many different thoughts - that becomes implanted. It will start to grow and become stronger and radiate further out with repetition. Repetition is the key to this technique. Repeated every day and at least three times a day is recommended. I recommend having at least three set times during the day that you do this mantra and visualization. Start at 5 minutes each time and increase it to 10, then 15, then 30 minutes each time.
If something happens shocking or traumatic, take several minutes to use it to stabilize. This mantra and visualization, with practice, will help bring your whirling thoughts to a central "seed thought", giving permission to your Higher Self to step in and take control with peace and calmness. A vortex is being created of a divine, sacred nature with the use of this mantra and visualization. But nobody can do it for you. Only YOU can create this for yourself through practice. Otherwise, random thoughts will continue to invade your psyche and energy field and swirl with chaos, which we consider the human condition today. A sacred "seed thought" will grow roots going throughout your whole entire body via the nervous system. Experts tell us that by repeating the same words and patterns every day, you mold your life into what it has become today. You created your life, this is how you can change your life. Build this sacred seed thought every day and you will grow roots into your life that start to change the way things work out for you.
Without a sacred seed thought, energies cast off by other people will continue to swirl randomly through you and your mind like a frenzied storm with no direction. You are the directing intelligence of your body. This mantra and visualization will provide a central seed thought, like a mother thought. It is a parent thought. You are a child of the one infinite creator, but you are human and you didn't know that, being born here. This is a technique that has been used for centuries in the East, with a strong influence on the culture there. Wise sages and spiritual leaders abound in the remote sections of the Himalayas. Now these lessons are becoming accepted in our Western societies. It has taken time to accept them, but they have taken root in our western culture. It is a "next step" to accept repetition of sacred words, as in a mantra.
It takes effort to take time out in our busy lives to concentrate and actually sit for 5 minutes at a time being silent and concentrating. I myself have had difficulty controlling my own mind, which whirled on its own. I believed I was doing the right thing to be spontaneous and follow my free will spontaneity. And I was right, as it turns out, to honor and respect my thoughts and feelings. But as East and West learn to merge with each other, so does spirituality and personal empowerment merge and become one whole entity. We are destined to become whole, a divine Ego human with individual skills, talents and knowledge unlike any other. We ARE individuals. As we call on our own Higher Self to merge with our lesser human self, we build integrity into our human self, and learn to control our life with a more refined vision. I have been learning this over the many yrs that the Master DK has been my guide and teacher. I did not know. He has taught me. I am passing on some of his teachings on this website. Yes, we learn from others, of course we do. But the one we have not been learning from and we MUST learn from at ALL times, over and above input from others, is our Higher Self. This is the one path that takes us ever higher beyond what we can see here, today, in this hour. No one can do this for us. Only we can do it for ourselves, by ourself. As long as we listen to other people, we are gathering more confusions to consider, more to analyze, more to weigh, more to consider, more to struggle to fit into our days. These storm clouds that come to us regularly - we live inside the storm clouds - run havoc through our bodies and minds without direction.
That was the purpose of the guru. A guru was a no-nonsense guide. He gave a mantra and said "repeat it!" Westerners didn't want to do that. The times changed and we became intellectual and rationalized everything with our minds. We didn't need a teacher. We can do it ourselves. And so the intellect came into being. We are now intellectualizing ourselves into a mess. We've created a mess without the spiritual teacher to guide us to our HIGHER SELF. We are swirling with storm clouds, chaos, fear and indecision. We are a lost race until we turn ourselves over to our HIGHER SELF. The higher self is our individual personal self but uncontaminated by human faults. It leads us up the ladder to greater understanding, keeping us connected to our Self. It is important not to give up our sense of personal identity. We are God in embodied form. It is important to build on what we know. The God Self is pure and uncontaminated by human errors. How does one connect with it? By assuming the pose of surrendering and repeating sacred words intended and aimed upward to the highest in us.
Most people are reluctant to give someone else charge over their life, but giving the Higher Self permission to take charge over your life is a whole different story. You ARE your higher self temporarily living confined in a limited body which doesn't know anything at all about "higher selves". Thus this body is surrounded by confused input from other people. The only way to access your Higher Self - your real Self - is to take the time to go alone and practice assuring it and communicating with it. Repeat the coded words to only your Higher Self, no other. Find a picture you like of yourself that is healthier and more beautiful, more noble, more wise, more ideal that you wish you were, and focus that intention through the sacred words, appealing for its intervention with your life.
Say the suggested mantra, either silently or out loud. Use a timer and set it for two minutes or three or five and increase it as your feel to expand the time. Start today. And do it two more times today. And tomorrow two more times, and every day do it three times during the day. The longer you can do it the quicker you will plant a seed thought and take control over the stabilizing of your mind. Even if you don't feel anything is wrong in your life, even if you feel you are healthy, wealthy and wise enough not to need any help from your Higher Self, you will be surprised at how much better life can be. How much life can be improved by relinquishing your limited ego control over your life and adding your Higher Self into the mix. We are here to live a 50/50 life as a human being having a human life on Earth with the inflow and input from the one infinite creator, your God/Goddess Self.
Close your eyes and drop your gaze as if to look at the tip of your nose. This tells your body to follow suit. Everything in your body is connected to the one intelligence - YOU! You are giving direction now to your body. You have assumed your body was you but you are NOT your body. You are wearing your body like a suit of clothes. You, your REAL self, is abstract mind, much more than a limited physical body. You are the mind. You are the mind that can expand infinitely to an ever greater intelligence. You are what controls your body by giving it a direction to go in. Perhaps you have not been doing because you didn't know how to. Concentrate your mind on this one sacred seed thought and see what happens over the next month. The Master DK is now guiding you as he has been guiding me over the last 47 years.
3/1/23 - Ascension Massage - "the bump in the road", Part 2
This morning (channeled 11/9/17) I had a download of information. I asked DK to please help me remember this information about the primal divine earth energies coming up and gathering at the first root chakra. Then it comes up to the 2nd chakra which is the reproductive or sexual chakra, and....? He answered:
In the animal kingdom the flow of primal energy divides out at the second chakra in order to create a division into two separate genders. There must be separate genders, male and female, to create a hunger for reuniting. Separation at the second chakra is necessary for duality to play out. There is engagement and play between the two forces which makes the world go around. And create babies. Reproduction is important to perpetuate the species. The animal kingdom operates on animal instinct. Now, the human being is also an animal but it has been cultivated with altered DNA to become more conscious than the animal. It has evolved to become self-conscious and it continues to evolve to become God conscious. It knows that there is a refinement that draws him to seek into the spiritual realms. But his sexuality and reproductive functions remain as an animal.
The human has allowed himself to retain the animal drive to copulate as all animals do. The mechanism to overcome this drive lies in the second chakra, where the division takes place in the animal kingdom. When the primal divine life force comes up to the first root chakra, to overcome this drive, instead of dividing out left and right, the mechanism is to remain WITHIN the second chakra and not allow the division to take place. The division that takes place is the male pushing out and the female withdrawing or receiving. When the human male stops pushing and the female stops receiving, they both can integrate and experience union. This is difficult to explain to a 3D consciousness.
I heard this in a 5D altered state and was able to retain this information. What we are doing with the Ascension Massage - originally I called it The Love Club massage swaps - is teaching people how to integrate their male and female sides in peaceful embrace, rather than the male pushing and the female dancing around trying to attract his attention or running away. To overcome this animal instinct to push and run away (male and female animal instinct) we humans are to learn how to not do that by way of reducing or diminishing our outward actions. When we slow down to a full conscious stillness and allow ourselves to integrate, then we overcome the animal instinct to push and dance. Do you understand? (DK talking. Channeled on 11/9/17)
2/28/23 - Ascension massage takes you over the "bump in the road" (part 1)
The bump in the road to which I refer is sexual tension. On this website there is page called "Massage", and under that page is a link to Ascension Massage. Ascension Massage has lately received an increase in the number of hits. Interest appears to be rising. The reason Ascension Massage has not been promoted lately (by me on this site) is because of the sexual issue. Issues over sex remain constant. They are puzzling. I've been unsure how to promote the divine love nature of Ascension Massage because sexual issues continue to rise and get in the way. Sex is a bump in the road. It is an obstruction to what I'm trying to present through Ascension Massage. And yet sex is not even real! It is a misnomer, a mislabeling. There is a divine nature that is being held back. Recent revelations are insisting I go ahead and start revealing what I know. "Don't worry", I am assured. "It is time to shake the tree and see what falls out."
Here is a simple example of what sex is. Imagine if you will someone who continues to beat you up with daily angry tirades. It doesn't hurt you physically, but it is a bother. It is part of your life and you have lived with it a long time but it creates an agitation. It is not a big deal but after a while it becomes irritating and you finally become physically disturbed by it. After days and weeks pass, maybe even months of this irrating way of life, suddenly the angry tirades stop! What happened? An emptiness rushes in bringing peace, tranquility, even bliss. Some might call it ecstasy or rapture. You suddenly experience the sensation of peace and you enjoy freedom like you haven't felt in a long, long time. This changes your life, your thoughts, your emotions, your appreciation and joy of life increases. You had an orgasm, a release of pressure that had built up.
This is what sex is - the cessation of continual pounding and beating at an internal door that was closed. Most people are unaware of this door. This is a new concept. You don't have to believe it, but this door is blocking the flow of the divine love that should be flowing up the spine and all through the body, maintaining your life in a constant state of harmony, peace, rightness, abundance and good relations. The spine is actually a pathway for divine energy to flow from the coccyx up to the crown of the head, and equally, for the life force to flow DOWN from the abstract intelligence of light and love, entering through the crown of the head and flowing into the soil of earth through the feet. We have not been introduced to this except for those of us who study the occult and esoteric sciences. Clairvoyants and mediums can see the energies moving, but not the average person with training or natural inclination.
This life force of which I speak is pure, unadulterated and uncontaminated by the human belief system. Human beliefs don't influence it or alter it. Humanity has built an artificial life around it, living off it like a parasite. But the divine life is flowing through us still. We just don't know about it. The divine life runs the show, breathes our breath for us, keeps the body functioning. And disease happens only when we block the flow.
We have been blocking the flow when it comes to sex, big time. Our ignorance causes all sorts of problems for us, and not just sexually. On all levels of life. Fortunately, we are on the brink of opening doors we have not had opened in eons of time. We have been held back so it's not our fault entirely. But we have resisted the natural flow of our own divine nature - the internal natural nature of love. We have fallen into dark hands and we have listened to them. We are now reaping the rewards today and learning to not listen. We are returning to our natural divine nature with slow, steady steps of awareness of love.
There is a waking up and transformation happening. Many people are prepared to shed light on the way sex has been mislabeled, mishandled and abused. We DO have the ability to fix it if we knew more about how it went wrong. This is merely a preliminary introduction to the problem of sex. We really didn't know!? We have no idea how badly we have messed up what could have been a most beautiful love affair with life and over the centuries. There is a natural flow of bliss, love and joy running through our bodies - we tune into it now and then (ask the lovers of the world!) - but there is a closed door when it comes to mechanical sex. There is more to come.
Ascension Massage is a new method to bring ecstatic divine love up through the body PAST the sex block, not repressing it but lifting it up, raising it up, with honor, love and respect, up past the bulge that we refer to as a sexual need to release. When we release the divine love at this lower level (by cumming) we spend it outward into the physical abdomen and intestines, and the rest of the body cells and tissues - the stomach, heart, lungs, brain and more - doesn't receive it. Which is why we stay at the same consciousness level and don't grow wiser and happier. There is a next step. Tomorrow there will be more. Tune in!
2/26/23 - Accessing your higher self - part 2
Close your eyes and concentrate on the picture of yourself that you have chosen, the one you really love above yourself. Use this photograph as an image to fix your attention upon. Close your eyes and recreate this image above you high in the sky, in the clear blue of the sky and inside a bright, dazzling sun, like the real sun we see every day. Imagine a clear blue sky and the sun at zenith. Imagine you inside the sun. You are coming through the sun right now as your immaculate, perfect self, streaming like the TV show streams through the televion set into your living room. Right this very moment your perfect self is streaming through the sun and down into your body through a radiant ray of light, alongside other radiant rays of light of others in form.
Imagine this image. Focus on it. You are being created as an endless stream of perfection - a human being in form - and you are being created eternally. We experience "time" where we are in our bodies, but the one infinite creator does not experience time. It is the creator in the eternal moment of now. And you are riding into the earth's atmosphere constantly as a perfect creation of ahuman being. You are the creation of the one infinite creator - the one we call "Father" or "Lord". You were not created in the past; you are being created eternally now. Always. It is difficult for us to understand this, but picture yourself over your head in the brilliant sun. There is no time in the sea of eternity. You are living in the now and you know you are living because you are breathing - inhaling and exhaling, pumping blood through your organs which are functioning - you are being created always, in the now moment. There is only one now moment in eternity and you are living in that one moment, right now. Even though we do not see or realize this brilliant perfect "Me" or "I", it is happening, nonetheless. It is the consciousness of "me" or "I". This consciousness cannot be taken from us. We are conscious. We are aware. And we can grow our consciousness. We can expand it. We can refine it. We can tune in to a more beautiful "me" or "I". We do this through the art of concentration and blocking out all other images. Just for a short while. With practice we learn to hold this positive image for longer periods.
You are now creating a picture of yourself in the most beautiful image you can find of yourself. Photographs work perfectly for a starter. You are using a photograph that you like about yourself, that pictures you in a way that pleases you. You are placing that image into the sky above you inside a sun that you are creating in your mind, using the powers of concentration but you are opening a channel to receive more. You have a mind, an intelligence, an awareness, that you are using to create this channel. You use your mind all day long in more finite ways but now you are using your mind to open to more than you know. So far you have used your mind to create worries, anxieties, illusions, projections, relationships and a way of life that suits you. You create through the ability to find comfort and peace. More and more, people are learning to relax and use their minds in more expansive ways. Still, there are any distractions. The world is going through an upheaval, a regurgitation of old ways and a transition to newer, more uplifting ways of living. The world is giving birth to greater light. The old ways are falling behind. Chaos is in the air because there are 8 billion people on the planet, and each one is going through their own transition.
We tend to consider the feelings of other people around us, we like to help. But we cannot help with the undercurrents that are flowing. Stick to your own game plan. Follow your own heart and dream. That is the reason for accessing your higher self. Only your higher self knows what is good for you. Your higher self is the immaculate self that is flowing continually through you. Tune into it. Let others find their own higher self. It is not your job to assist them, unless there is an obvious way that you can step in. Then, in that case, step in and help, but don't get distracted from your main job - that of tuning into your own higher self which has the answers and solutions for you alone.
The state of the world is in chaos as the light is causing us each to shift focus to ourself alone. Silent mediation on our self alone brings peace and contentment if we stabilize into the practice. You use your mind all day long on "other things" not yourself, so you seldom tap into your own perfection which is ever present, flowing in on your breath, inhaling it and exhaling it as we speak, as I type these words. Only the wisest of the wise human beings take the time to STOP! Stop focusing on "other things" and focus on the perfection that is flowing through you right now. The immaculate concept that would bring you awareness of peace and revelations concerning your own life. Everyone thinks the immaculate concept refers to Mother Mary of biblical scripture, the mother of Jesus. But it pertains to the perfection of every form flowing into existence. Your form is building and flowing along a perfect pattern - a pattern called the Adam Kadmon, the Christ. It is a perfect human shape. All the organs are in perfect place to perform their function. Every cell is in place, every molecule, every organ, the brain, your heart, your lungs, your spleen, liver, kidneys, toes, fingers, hands, blood flow, nerves - everything is perfect because you are being created from the mind of the one infinite creator in this very moment.
Tune into the photographic image that you are holding in your hands, close your eyes and recreate this image in your mind. See yourself in the brilliant dazzling white light of the sun. Your image is almost lost in the sunlight because the sun is SO bright, SO dazzling, SO brilliant, SO all consuming. Yet, you can see yourself inside that radiant light because you are coming through the light. You are a thought of the creator, just as the sun is a thought of the creator. You are a part of the light as a unique and separate creation. You are the perfect creation that is being radiated outword as we speak of it. The one infinite creator did not create you a "long time ago" so that you had "time" to become lost. There is no time in the infinite expanse of forever. It is all happening in the eternal now. Be HERE NOW and picture yourself densifying into your current human form. You are manifesting as an embodied form. Hold that image for as long as you can. If your mind wanders, pull it back to the image of your immaculate self coming into manifestation as your current you. This is coming through strongly to me as I release these words. The image of the immaculate concept is always streaming forth. No matter where you "think" yourself to be, no matter what situation you "think" yourself in, be aware of this perfect immaculate you. This beautiful image of yourself that you hold in your mind right now.
The reason for holding it above your head is so you reach up to it. Think up to it as an open chalice to receive the divine blueprint as it funnels down into your crown. Receive it and create a direct line, a link, a thread, a channel, a path from you on the earth plane in your physical body that is aging, upward to the more of you that you do not see. You are using a photograph to picture yourself, to plant your image in the open spaces of the sky as a portal. The image is not the real you, it represents a frequency, a divine idea, a master plan coming from the creator flowing down into concrete form. The immaculate concept cannot be understood by the finite personality ego, but it can be open to receive revelation from the divine. That is what we want to do here - receive revelation. We need to have a portal to fix our attention on with an open, eager mind. It has been eternally flowing down but we have not known about it, so we have missed it. It is constantly descending down, and manifesting as clumps of solar fire into concrete atoms, cells and molecules to form a human body. We are creating this open channel by visualizing it. Visualizations are a thousand more effective than words. They are like containers into which we receive the divine substance that is flowing. Visualizations are like buckets put out in the rain to collect water. Something has to hold the water or it will be lost in the fray.
Create this pathway by holding this picture for as long as you can in one sitting. Then release it and return to your normal life. Continue to live your life as you normally would, do not "try" to make it better or different. Let the divine handle the absorption and correction as it flows into your daily life. Periodically, sit in the quiet and alone time and hold the vision again. Your human nature is valuable. Continue to construct it with purpose and vision. Your human ego and understanding is growing stronger as you do this. You are learning as you grow through the life you live as (insert your name). Your friends and family are doing the same but on a different time line than you. Don't expect them to follow along beside you. They too have an immaculate concept breathing through them but their time for understanding is different from yours. The more you sit in quiet and peace, holding this immaculate image, the more you strengthen the river of universal harmony and abundance into your physicalness. Be here now. Hold this beautiful image of yourself and notice the merging and how it affects your life. Know that the real sun in the sky is a distribution center for your immaculate blueprint. Your knowledge of this will keep the channel open more and more. Keep strengthening the path of light that is coming through the sun. Both the "real" sun in the sky and the "imagined" sun that you create in your mind.
Concentrate. This is work. Work at picturing yourself. Hold this image. If your mind wanders, pull it back with will power and determination. Work at holding the picture of your immaculate self - or the best image of yourself that you can muster. It is above you coming down from an abstract intelligence and entering through the top of your head. Focus on the crown. Bring the image down through the crown of your head and into the brain so it can register on the physical cells of your brain and be distributed through physical nerve cells. Imagine a portal at the crown of your head and imagine the revelations flowing down through the opening at the top of your head. The crown portal is known as the Dweller on the Threshold. It is half inside the crown and half outside. It sits there as a sphere of light at the crown, half in and half out, an open portal that may be opened by your focused awareness with love and devotion for your higher self.
Imagine the flow of light flowing into your brain, picture your brain as it appears in graphic form, and see the light lighting up this brain. It flows through your brain and center of the head, manifesting as the pituitary gland, the master gland which activates the various functions of the body. The light flows easily through the channels designed in perfection by the master blueprint. The more often you picture the light flowing, the more perfection flows into your aging, deteriorating body. For those who study the yoga sutras, the pituitary gland is not the Ajna center. The Ajna center is projected out from the center of the head to the front of the forehead. It is used for sending or directing, like a laser beam.
Bring the image of your immaculate perfection down into your head center. See the brain and nervous system light up. The more you do this and the longer you hold this image of light manifesting in your physical, the more you solidify this truth into your finite physical body. Blend your divine immortal self with your fun-loving, pleasure-loving, excitable, ever changing humanity and you will notice an uptick in your sensations and life. You are creating a blend of your true self in the abstract and your physical body self as a concrete human being. With this practice we are channeling the abstract solar fire into the physical brain cells so they can carry the divine fire to other locations in the body. The solar fire is known as the Presence of God, the Dweller on the Threshold and the Christ. The divine wants to be in form. Unfortunately, we have been covered over with false impressions and projections of illusion and limited wrong beliefs. Focus more and more and for longer periods of time on the best version of yourself you can find, and hold that image in the sun. Strengthen the channel between the divine you and the mortal finite you.
2/25/23 - Accessing your higher self - part 1
Stamina comes from your Higher Self. You cannot create stamina without tapping into your Higher Self. Your Higher Self is all that you are up to date. It is all that you have experienced up to date. You have collected an amazing amount of stamina throughout the eons. You can call it vital life force or some other word, the word is not important. Understand what we mean by stamina. You have built it into yourself by the actual LIVING of it thru form life. After each form life you return to the non-form life, the heaven worlds. And then you return to form life again. You have experienced form life before this human life you are living now. Your mastery is built through living in form life, mastering the form life and growing from being in form and learning how to manage yourself in embodiment. Your spiritual self is actually built from living in an embodied planet. This stamina - you call it energy but there are different kinds of energy - comes from knowing how to maneuver in form. All that you have ever experienced in form is the excellent stamina that you wish you had more of.
You have lived on other planets too, not just on Earth. There are galaxies upon galaxies - solar communities of countless other planets - which host beings like humans and animals on their surfaces. Also you have had pre-human lives as animals, plants and even minerals before becoming human. From the beginning of your sojourn into form and substance, you have been a child of the one infinite creator experiencing embodied life in form and substance. You have been one consciousness, the same consciousness that you are enjoying now, today, and thinking you know it all. And you DO know it all. You know all that you know, but there is more that you don't know. There is always more to become known. And there are always others to guide you and talk to you telepathically. Stamina is knowledge lived. It comes from the accumulated "know it all" part of you. It is your innate knowledge. Your instinct. Your intuition. Your sense of being right. You can tap into that rightness, that knowingness starting now. It is all the knowledge and understanding that you have accumulated so far in the eons and eons of time living in embodied form. You can start right now, just as you are today, even if you have low self esteem and don't believe you can.
We call this innate self the Higher Self or the God Self. Or perhaps you call it the Lord. Whatever you are accustomed to calling it, it is above and beyond you because your body today is finite. It was built at your conception, so it is only one life old, where you have lived countless lives before. This body is only temporary, but you can train it if you learn how to access your prior life knowledge. This body will not last forever unless you feed it with your past life memories, and then it may live longer than you planned. This body was built just for you for THIS life. It was built at the time of your conception and birth by your earth mother. So this body that you are living in today does not have memory of your past lives. But YOU do, you as an everlasting eternal consciousness. Your consciousness is what we call the spiritual self. You are eternal. You live over and over again in different forms. You grow up and learn the current culture by living in that particular form, and then that form passes away and you go on to the heavenly fields to debrief and consider the next step in form. You have embodied in various forms and usually don't remember them. You learn how to maneuver that one particular form that you currently inhabit, and you tap into your prior knowledge through some kind of homing device called instinct. Instinct is inherent. It is prior knowledge that has accumulated in your consciousness - that which we refer to as soul.
You don’t remember your past lives unless you have tapped into your Higher Self. You can tap into your Higher Self right now, and I will teach you a method how to do that. Your higher self is best known as intuition. It is innate. It is not just inside of you, it is your life force, your consciousness, your breath of awareness with which you first come awake and aware in the morning after sleep. Or after a coma of long duration. You are all that you have EVER been and ever experienced. You are awareness. You just don’t remember prior lives easily. Some of us do. But it is in THIS body that we are primarily focused. Learning to maneuver in THIS body. THIS body is a new body. It doesn't have the memories that YOU have as an everlasting consciousness. You probably haven't had the opportunity to know this before now, or maybe you have. Many people are learning about their spiritual selves today. Humanity is growing by leaps and bounds into higher consciousness levels. But if you don’t know how to access your Higher Self, I will give you some hints tomorrow. You have been held back on this planet called Earth. It has been a dark planet up until recently. Earth is growing up and taking on more of HER higher self too. Mother Earth is also an intelligent entity who has been held back. She is of a different species than human. She belongs to the planetary tribe. All planets belong to the planetary tribe. They can communicate with each other through the solar system - their male counterpartner. They host the human, animal, plantlife and other species on their surfaces.
If you are willing I would like to share with you some ways to access your Higher Self. These are from my own personal experiences. I will tell you more tomorrow. This is a prelude to lay a foundation before beginning. All techniques have a basis of a foundation, a reason for being to share and pass on to others. One must be prepared in order to be open enough to receive. Otherwise, why would you waste your time? Search your photographs and scrapbooks tonight and find a photo of yourself that you really, really like of yourself. The one photo that gives you a good feeling about yourself. One that shows you in the way you would like to look today. What quality does it bring to mind? Beauty? Dignity? Nobleness, grace, power, strength, intelligence? Whatever quality you most admire and want to enhance in yourself. That feeling can be enhanced with the help of your Higher Self. You can access this quality by picturing your Higher Self in a certain way. The photo can be of any age, it doesn’t matter. It can be used as a reminder, a reflection, thru which to access skills that you have but are currently beyond reach because your physical body and brain never experienced them before. Tomorrow then.
2/24/23 - Don't suppress the ego, soften it, and Tantra
Don’t suppress the ego, soften it. Many people think the personal ego is bad, but the Masters say you don’t want to suppress or repress your personal ego, or deny it, or even subdue it. Rather, soften it. Care for it with the wise gentleness of a good mother, because your human ego is of personal value - to you and to others. It is your uniqueness. The great plan behind all plans is to integrate your personal value, your knowledge and unique individuality into the overall master plan - the Oneness out of which all springs forth into form. The divine Oneness is ever growing richer because of the individual minds merging into it.
It is this Oneness that is the I AM Presence that descends into form. The I AM God Presence created you and supports you on your individual journey. It is immortal. It is the One I AM that created all forms everywhere. The great mystery is how this is done. We are on the road of discovery, each one of us, learning how it is done. It is the ONE out of which life springs a'new every day, every moment, eternally refreshing us if we can understand that and tap into it. The I AM is eternally new and more than it was before, because individual minds are constantly returning home with their individualities vastly expanded with understanding.
The problem we all experience is this. We as an individual mind have grown an intelligent branch off of the ONE intelligence, separate and apart from the great ocean of love and unified ooneness. Yet we cannot escape it entirely, we can only go off separate and alone, away from it. We can reject it and refuse to listen to the guiding voice within, but we cannot escape it because we ARE the oneness having a separate temporary experience. We are still in the oneness, or rather, the one vast intelligence is still in us. Many have taken the dark road away from love and light, for we have free will. But the better advice is always to go within and listen to the still small voice of conscience, of heart, of love.
We have each had many experiences out in the darkness as separate intelligences, away from the light and the love of the one infinite creator. We not only can say "I did it my way!" - we MUST do it "my way". That is the only way to find the light and the love within. No one else can do it for you. You are on a separate path from your friends. That is why your personal ego is not bad. It just needs to be softened, blended with the love and light within so it can feel wanted, valued and held in high esteem. Bad criminal cruel mean behavior is not valued, it needs to be awakened to the value it is running away from.
We all did many things against our own inner conscience, light and loving heart, but it taught us the value of right and wrong. We benefitted from the results. Good results from good and right behavior, and bad results from wrong behavior. We learned as we traveled and experimented about the value of having friends and being kind and doing the morally right thing, even if no one noticed. And we learned it was not worth it to go against that inner knowing. We learn to maintain personal integrity over the long haul. We learn to be less selfish, or perhaps we learn to be MORE selfish - those of us who are constantly giving our power away to the point of exhaustion - for there is a constant balance we are seeking to maintain. The balance is done within, by noticing, acknowledging the truth and applying it. The spiritual life is the path of maintaining balance between our own dual natures.
When you get angry, tone it down, bring it back to gentleness with words and considerations. The separate ego thinks it is all alone in life and it maintains a stubbornness to survive, not unlike the child having a temper tantrum. When things don’t go its way, it strikes out in ways that are not good for the whole. It sheds violence on the neighbors and family. Tone it down. Treat it with love and kindness and show it respect, and the personal ego will respond in kind. It needs to be respected. It needs to feel valued because it is a part of us. It is not separate. Be patient and kind to yourself. On a higher level you are your own God, your own Father God and your own Mother God. Be nice to yourself. Find a way that is balanced and does not hurt someone else in your vicinity. Work on this. The soul is a work in progress. The soul is the child learning how to live life in form in a balanced way. Then happiness is felt. Joy is felt. Abundance is felt.
The ego is the human child being raised by the Father-Mother God within. Father is abstract intelligence without form; the Mother is abstract intelligence INSIDE the form, flowing through the form as the life blood, circulating through the heart, lungs, nerves, glands and organs. You have access to the Father-Mother God within, for you are both the ego as little child and the wise parents of spiritual nature. As the little child you don't know this until you begin connecting with the love and light within - the Father-Mother who is the one infinite creator flowing through you. Act more like the father-mother God within you and you will mature as an ego. At that point you begin changing into aspects of the Divine Ego, which is more loving, graceful, patient and kind. You will be noticed as becoing a more peaceful, refined personality.
There are many religious and spiritual names used to refer to the Divine Ego – Higher Self, God-Self, Spirit, Holy Christ Self, Divine Feminine, Divine Masculine, but it is not the word that matters. It is your understanding that matters. When we live in a solid body form, we are operating on a closed circuit, not knowing these things. We are using that program that we were born into. Everyone born here in the past uses that program. It is "time" and "space", closed off restricted area from the wide open fields of intelligence, harmony and love. Here on this planet called Earth we were oriented to feeling separate. We were taught survivalism as one alone. There were survival laws that helped guide us. But things are changing. We are growing so wise now, the inhabitants of Earth, that we have entered into a higher consciousness field. It is known as the 4th dimension. The 4th dimension is one where we are sorting through things and making some choices and decisions that affect our future. We are choosing more wisely and with more unity consciousness. We want to live more peacefully and less in violence. As we find more and more self-enlightenment techniques on the net, we are stimulated to join classes or at least read about them and investigate a little further. Humanity is on the verge of raising the world's population to 5th density. In 5th density there is no violence. We leave violence behind us when we enter into that level of awareness.
Life continues on the 5th dimensional Earth differently than it did on the 3rd and 4th level of awareness. Too many people are now aware. Too many people want peace instead of fighting for survival. It is a different way. That is why your personal ego has value. IT is the one who is changing. The little egos are growing up and deciding in right ways that benefit everyone around them. We are integrating with our divine Father and Mother parent which is waiting for us. For we ARE the parent. We ARE the divine within, having a childhood lesson. Believe in a more unified and gracious way of life, considering the values and rights of others around you, and you will be valued in return more than you have been in the past. Rather than repress your personal needs, wants and desires, work with them and instill in them larger graciousness.
As a side note, for many years I have been seeking to understand the Tantra way of life, which is not sexual. The reason people think it’s about sex is because sex is the first door to open that allows the divinity to expand into the form body. The feeling is one of loving attraction which sort of overwhelms the young person in puberty. It is the beginning exposure to the power known as kundalini, or in the west known as the holy spirit. It is the secret power that lies in the etheric body at the base of the spine - specifically surrounding the coccyx. This area of the body is the geometric center of the human body. At a certain point in the aging of the body, it opens partially, gently, to allow these feelings to expand up the spine. Sexual feelings are the result. It is a touch of the divine nature within. The body feels it as sensually warm and loving. But since we have been born into a physical-only form of living, we seek an outward way to express it. With another person or through masturbation. We did not have teachers or guides to take us through this early stage of puberty. Unfortunately, in the dark ways of Earth, there were people (and still are) who became obsessed with the body feeling and abused younger ones and more vulnerable people. This has caused a lot of damage. Fortunately we are on the cusp of exposing this long abuse. New teachings are coming out fast in these days, especially about the kundalini or the sacred fire, as it is known. It is the divine nature that has been held locked inside the human body for eons. Now is the time for truth of the power behind sex to be revealed. Tantra is one of the paths that have an ancient grounding the sacred Vedas of India, I am told. I personally have not read them but the Masters have guided me. Kundalini is the Mother God flame at the base of the spine, called Shakti to the impersonal God Shiva which is abstract intelligence.
On a human level, yes, sex is the beginning. It is feeling so divine that if you are fortunate enough to have a Tantric master who will guide you, you will be led into a life of personal empowerment that no other spiritual path can match it. I was fortunate to have been given a Tantric Master 47 years ago, after I went into the Light by a dramatic awakening of Kundalini, without my having been prepared. When the shakti started to purify me of everything that I was made of that was embedded in me from childhood and previous lifetimes, it was a makeover which I didn't understand. I had no choice but to live through it. It was - and I love this phrase! - a blessing and a curse. My husband at the time and I were drawn into the lifestyle of swinging and through free intimate sex I became grounded back into normalcy, but with a lingering yearning for ever higher love which other people could not provide.
Bad situations and frustrations had to be confronted and dealt with, but in the long run the good benefits won out. I learned more through the swinging lifestyle than I could ever tell. I become more patient, more understanding, softer, kinder, gentler and more dignified. Tantra does not exclude sex but it does not focus on sex. Sex is not forbidden. It is a threshold over which a person passes to get to the larger room inside. It is a change in perspective. It changes the focus from hard bodies and hard outlines to softer, larger, more etheric bodies and outlines, and sensitivities. The sex act loses its crudity and matures into love-making. Sex becomes no longer a goal-oriented act. It becomes less physical and more sensual, more kind, more loving toward self and the other person. More considerate to self and the other, more elevating, more worshipful and reverent. There is a heavenly aspect that most do not quite reach but is available if one does not give up reaching for it. And also one becomes more discriminating and discerning about who you have sex with. You can feel a person’s motives and intentions when you are near them. You can read them. The energy fields overlap in close proximity and you can't fail to know what they are made of. And if you feel compatible you feel free to make love with a perfect stranger. That is, if your wife or husband doesn't resist.
The shakti (kundalini) is not directed towards the orgasm and physical penetration. It wants to go higher than that. It is energetically and magnetically attracted to beyond the heart and head to the Home from which it came. It wants to go Home so it expands up the spinal column in search of that ultimate blissful connection. Tantra is the path of learning about this mysterious power of enlightenment. The masters of Tantra teach how to build the power up and not to spend it on orgasm, but not to get lost in the shuffle either. It can go to the sun if you let it or it can be used with another human being in ecstatic lovemaking. Or it can rise up the spine and out the top of the head to reach ever higher levels of bliss and ecstasy alone, without a partner. Without a teacher who knows, a person will continue to want satisfaction from sex with someone else and will be driven by sex. Sex is not bad, but it can be misused to hold someone back from maturing into fulfillment. Sex is not the purpose of the kundalini. It is only the first step on the ladder to heaven. Tantra teachers guide a student into understanding both sides of the coin, both the spiritual and the human.
The power behind sex is a higher power of a divine, immaculate nature. It must be guided and understood how to work with it. When sex is first felt at puberty, it is felt as a loving thing. Without guidance it becomes focused on the physical body seeking something. Without wise teachers to guide the one in puberty, the young one stays with that focus - seeking the opposite gender for sex and penetration. How can he or she not know differently? So the all important focus is then finding a mate to help us fulfill ourselves. Or we are abused by someone else and thrown into trauma. The Tantric path is a path of spiritual enlightenment, not sex but may include sexual orientation. I have been writing about it for a long time.
2/23/23 - Rise above the stagnating energies of the body
This morning while showering I heard, "Rise above the stagnating energies of the body. The mind is your playground. Play! It brings you joy by discovery." The voice continued and I wrote on paper.
The world is a world of discovery. It is where you have the luxury of comparing differences. Only in the form life do you have differences. In the heavenly fields you don't have these differences. Let discovery be your game and your motto. You are learning how the great sages made their enlightenment. And why they are always in peace and joy. It is a lesson of discovery after discovery after discovery. Excitement of discovery, after excitement of discovery, after excitement of discovery. This is what grows your mind to happier planes and more fulfillment. It is a lesson of great importance. Make excitement your path. Your path to enlightenment is being highlighted with your discoveries and your excitements. Use your mind! Your master has led you thus far, now it is up to you to continue walking this path. Learn to do it yourself. Learn by trying it out for yourself. Instead of looking to your master every day and pouring over past journals, look to your OWN ability to discover excitement energy. Become your OWN master. Let your mastery over your dullness and boring stagnation emerge and guide you forward to discovery. Let excitement be your guide and dullness be a sign to turn around and go in another direction.
Life in form is filled with comparisons. The diversity is immense. This is the life of learning and growing. Of discovery that fills you with excitement. Discover what brings you down and what brings you up to high points. Discovery teaches you the proper use of your mind. The improper use of the mind is to let disappointment and frustration and bad attitudes stay inside you un-used, un-expressed and un-wanted. Don't hang onto them. Get ahead of your body’s tendency to stagnate. USE the discouraging energies and don’t let them sit and stew in you. Use them up. Use them as fuel. Use them in action. Put them to work. Do something with them. They are fuel for consumption. They are energies. That's all they are. Action is required to get rid of them. Don’t sit and stew in them. Get a grip on yourself. Make yourself get up and move in another direction. Don’t let bad energies sit inside of you bringing you down. Use bad energies to accomplish something positive. Spend them like money. Consider them fuel for your bank account. Whirl around like a spinning top if there is nothing else you can do.
Get them out of your system, out of your head, out of your muscles, they are holding your down. Get them out of your body and into the air and your energy field where they become free to disband into the light. Think AIR! Think UP! Think LIGHT! Send them UP and out into the air by the directing force of your conscious mind. Then stay open, stay ahead of stagnation. Don’t let old energies accumulate in your tissues. Be greater than your body. Your body is a shell composed of past energies that have accumulated and you did not know. Past energies from yesterday and last year and from childhood and prior lives. Be more than the accumulated energies of the past. The past has come and gone. Find NEW excitements. Be gentle with yourself as you walk slowly into new excitements. New excitements will move you in positive directions. They are like a flowing river. Follow the river of moving excitement. Let the river of your life teach you and guide you in a spontaneous and free way. But do not hurt anyone in your flowing. Be kind and be sensitive in your flowing. Be benevolent, be creative. Let freedom come and let freedom go out from your body. Don’t keep them close inside of you.
Share them with others. Tell your stories. Meet and converse openly with others. Share your discoveries. Spin them into action. Be a flowing river of stories and excitements as they come into your life and flow out, leaving you open-minded and open-hearted. Free to receive further flowing from the universe.
2/22/23 - Dissolving into larger love - don't turn it personal
I asked DK this morning, how do you be physically close without turning it personal or sexual? It's a philosophical question, intended to enlarge my intellectual understanding of this very major process. I was thinking of holding a women's session. He responded: "It requires silence. It’s not about touching. You don’t have to hug or lie down together. That would expose you to physical toxicities held in the body. Be close within the auric fields so they overlap."
He continued. "You can start with 4 or 6 women in a circle with a goal in mind, as you have been learning in the Tantra books. But this is not for sexual fulfillment. Its purpose is for grounding the holy light into the flesh body, as in the light body known as the christ body. This requires refinement of those impulses and tendencies when tend to rush, to reach, to stroke and to pull towards, which we call groping. The urge to reach for another body or to repel another body, comes up in people. It is the magnetic attraction of the earth forces. One must resist the earth force push and pull. You are to manage this impulse.
The practice is an inner practice to hold steady in the quiet in your body, in your mind, in your feelings. We use visualizations. Imagine a column of refined light coming down from above, through you and into the earth below. Know that this column of light is really a column of love. It is the ALL-THAT-IS direct from the heart of the sun behind the sun which comes from the creator, the father-mother God. An outsider’s touch or presence would be less than this holy light, holy love. This is the love-light of your own light body, your christ body. You swoon into it and everything human in you melts and dissolves in the light and love of your christ body. With practice you will not fall to the floor, as some have done, but contain it within your mind, body and feelings. This is the next step practice.
Anchor the light, which is actually love, into your human body, your physical flesh body which is composed of thoughts, beliefs, intentions, desires, tendencies, resentments, bitterness, hatreds, sorrows, weaknesses - all of the human stuff that is not holy. By allowing yourself to remain silent and centered, you will experience receiving the holiness of the love that is coming down into the ground through your visualization, you prepare your body to become the God-self in human form. All-knowing, all-wise, it dissolves all personal tendencies, involvements, attachments, etc. With each practice session it leaves you refreshed, open, aware, more knowledgeable, and infinitely more capable of FEELING love. Dissolving personal attachments is done without damage, effort or pain. There is never any pain when love dissolves personality stuff. Human relationships are possessive and controlling, so these are dissolved in the larger love. Your love enlarges to embrace so much more.
If you are connecting with your light body, christ body, it is a solitary process. You, the child, are becoming the grown-up now - one with your father-mother God. You are becoming the adult, the mature God-man or God-woman. The holy Christ self in physical form. Others will not have jurisdiction over you.
2/20/23 - How to eliminate a fuzzy head
After having a quiet household for years, just the two of us, we have a friend living with us who has been displaced from her home in the flood, and has many problems she is trying to resolve from our home. The house is buzzing with different energies, not our own. It is a time for learning. How to cope with other energies so close at hand? Not knowing what to do, I began searching among the hundreds of different methods offered by those who know, including the Ascended Masters, but which one? It's not like there are no solutioins. It's a matter of which solution to utilize, because it requires calmness and concentration to apply such methods that deal with out-of-balance energies that are disturbing. I have created my own buzzing energy field in the process, giving me a non-stop fuzzy brain.
Now I am finally getting it. It took a while. The correct answer is: I have to take charge of my own energies and not follow someone else's method. Stop looking for answers and start doing something. Nobody else's method applies to my situation because it is me and my own consciousness that creates the problem, and I have to do something about it myself. It's a consciousness thing. So no meditation today, just action is requried. I must consciously accelerate the electrons, atoms and cells in my own body, mind and energy field to bring in greater clarity and vision.
I am being told: Accelerate the body’s cells and feel the stimulation of interest. Become interested again in life. Speeding up the body’s cells, atoms and electrons clears away the effluvia, the debris, the old dead energy that weighs you down. Use this energy, don't let it stagnate. I can tell already - it works. Keep busy. It should not be manually difficult labor but be productively busy. Then lie down to rest, calmly and peacefully, for 20 or 30 minutes to allow the body to recuperate and fall back into its normal natural alignment. This part is crucial - to rest inbetween bouts of productivity and/or busy-ness. It prevents stress and tension from building up. Then get up and move again. You'll feel a lot better. It will clear the energies that are foreign to you. It will clear your head.
It helps to keep a running list of what you have accomplished during your active periods. Seeing the results of your productive and creative efforts not only boosts your energy, confidence, self-esteem and enthusiasm towards life and living, it actually increases the life force, allowing it to move through your blood, muscles and organs so you feel the building of stamina flowing through your physical body. Keep track of your good works. Journal your recovery process during your "down times" so you can remind yourself what to do again in the future.
2/18/23 - Nurturing Healing Love Massage Exchanges
A long time ago I was told by the Master Djwahl Khul: "Do not ask the male to change - just present the female.” A persistent dream nags at me to establish an ascension massage exchange network where individuals can meet others for mutual partner exchanges to assist in the growing need to overcome ascension symptoms. I have no idea how many people are aware of "ascension symptoms" but the world is going through not only climate changes but humans are too. There is a lightening process taking place worldwide, a consciousness elevation, a broadening, a widening, an awareness of one's personal space becoming more refined. Consciousness is becoming more spiritual, more rarified. Yet, the dense physical body and brain are the same. This is causing havoc on the coarse physical body which has been programmed to low expectations. Life has been restricted in many ways. There is an inner struggle going on, trying to understand. How to cope.
My desire for an ascension massage exchange network hasn't manifested yet, mostly because I haven't been ready before now. I have been advancing my understanding to the point where I have to do something soon or I'll leave my body and go elsewhere. (Just kidding.) I am by nature a passive person and a follower, not a leader so I've been doing lots of inner work, homework and opening myself up to specialized training. The ascension massage is a soft, gentle nurturing feminine approach, using priestess skills of ancient origin. It is not sexual. If there is a sexual body response, we simply ignore it and raise the energy up over the block and keep going. It is done consciously, mentally and intentionally. There are many lifetimes of training in this art.
The goal of ascension massage is to connect the pure uncontaminated light and love in one person to the pure uncontaminated light and love in another person. The light and love is the same in both persons, it is the HUMAN that makes us each different. The goal is to merge the uncontaminated light with the HUMAN. This is the hard part that we've been missing. Mutual body exchanges without sex or emotional attachment can do this. We are to merge the human with the divine so the human becomes the individualized god/goddess that is destined to be. We do it without emotionial or sexual involvement. When sexual response happens we direct our attention higher, that's all. We elevate it. We don't suppress it but raise it up higher. It takes some training to do this, and practice.
When we exchange ascending massage, the uncontaminated light and love from both giver and receiver combined is stronger than from just one person alone. It washes away the toxic energies in the system that cause confusion, sickness, pain and suffering. What most people are unaware of is that there is an immaculate blueprint within them, within everyone, including bad evil people. They wouldn't be alive, breathing and walking around if they did not have an immaculate divine blueprint functioning in their body. This divine blueprint has been covered over by imprinted false cultural programming from birth on up to the present day. This perfect immaculate blueprint can't be contaminated by human error or mistakes. It just can't. You can try but you can't contaminate it. It doesn't matter how bad a person is or what crimes they've committed, or how mean, cruel or vicious they are in life, they have a perfect immaculate divine blueprint that has been covered over by the culture. It can be uncovered with education, training and believing enough in it to do daily homework - and exchanging an ascension massage can help if they are willing to trust in the process. This immaculate blueprint is the life force of the body known historically as the christ, short for crystal or crystalline. Everyone has one.
The Ascended Masters have been guiding me to establish an ascension massage exchange for a long time. Click HERE to see the original posting back in 2014. An ascension massage leads to total bliss IF the receiver is ready to receive and can open to trusting the giver. The goal of receiving one is to become a giver of one. We will be creating a network of partner exchanges by starting one at a time, discussion and practice. I am starting it here, now, by writing about it.
If you are hungry for some loving touch, it requires giving loving touch in return, without sexual or romantic involvement or expectation. This is a higher form of love. A deeper form of love that goes to the bottom of the soul and collects the remnants of past action and brings them forth for redeeming. The result is feeling washed clean. It is divine nurturance. This is a spiritual technology that is older than the planet itself, and a teaching that comes from beyond the earth, beyond the galaxy and beyond the stars. There have ALWAYS been teachers of this ancient temple skill. Only those who were inclined to learn it, came again and again, over many lifetimes to the quiet cultures to be trained in out-of-the-way monasteries and underground sanctuaries, away from the noise and cloudy atmosphere of the evolving residents. It is a sacred art and a universal science. The universe operates on love. Love is the longing that everyone has in their deepest heart. We wish sometimes that our relationship partner would do this for us but it doesn’t happen. They haven't been taught. The art of feminine nurturing healing love is a higher science. The word feminine does not mean women only, it refers to the soul. It is the soul that is feminine.
If you are interested in learning and practicing it, contact me privately and we will plan. There is no cost involved. This is something new and exploratory. It is an exchange of loving soft nurturing energy, not to be compared with anything that has been experienced before. We will dip into ancient times when the planet was young, pure and full of the holy spirit unspoiled by humans. The world was quiet then. Serene. We will call upon the ancient land, peaceful and pure and warmed by the ancient sun. We will ask the sun to blow its ancient purity into this tired, weary body. We will call on ancient winds to blow through the cells and clear away the stress. We will call upon the ancient waters to wash away the tension in this body. We will ask the ancient trees to breath their green and pure oxygen through this body. We will ask the ancient flowers and herbs to sprinkle their healing fragrance deep into this soul and melt away the tightness in this body. We will ask the ancient sun to warm this body with its healing rays. We will call upon the ancient healing masters to place their sparkling spirit hands upon this body with nurturing love and light.
We will ask you to tune into the ancient quiet and tune out all outside thoughts. Focus on the here and now in this room. Stop thinking. Feel the quiet and trust the ancient peace that comes in. Develop the skill of tuning into harmony. One way to stop thoughts is to listen to your own breath. Notice the sound your breath makes. Feel your lungs and stomach inflating and deflating like balloons. Feel your hands with a thousand pores in the palm, inhaling clean white light and exhaling clean white light. Picture the bottoms of your feet with thousands of tiny pores opening and breathing in mother Earth on the inhale, and blowing out on the exhale. Imagine inhaling Earth magnetism up your legs to your heart and head, opening arteries and veins and exhaling down into the Earth again. Picture the pores in the skin on your back and spine opening as you inhale, and emptying out on the exhale. Picture your crown opening as you inhale, drawing in light from above, filling up your brain cells, and exhaling down the central column to Earth.
Imagine nurturing soft hands stroking your skin. Not heavy, not coarse, but light and airy. You might have a sheet covering your nakedness, or not, your choice, or light clothing. Expand into the air around you. Spiritual energy is all around you. Prana can be seen as sparkles. Manna is in the air. It is not mystical or mysterious. Prana and manna come from the sun. It is activated by your own consciousness. You are the one who creates manna and prana by connecting with the light and the love from the sun. You are the one who provides the force field of energy of light that encircles you and enfolds you. You are the one who refines it and makes it lighter than that of Earth atmosphere. Our bodies move inside this field of vitality which we create around us. It extends out to overlap with others. We are like fish swimming in an ocean of sparkling vitality. We were trained to focus on the physical world only - the hard edges of physical forms. Expand your eyesight and awareness beyond the form in a 360 degree circle so you can see into the heaven fields. You can with inner eyes and eyes that are beyond you. Picture yourself floating in a sea of pink light that extends into the distance. We are moving in a sea of energy like fish move in the sea. When we open our vision like this we stop thinking about day-to-day thoughts and begin drinking in the higher worlds. We allow the immaculate blueprint to sweep upward and outward around us, cleaning away the toxic energies, stress and tension that has been clinging to us. We are turning on our inner light and ascending our consciousness to higher realms.
2/15/23 - There is pure sweet love in the cells of your body
We are made of love. Love is everywhere. It governs the atoms and electrons of your body. Love is a conscious substance. It is intelligent. It is not felt as love when it is stuck and not moving, but it IS awake and aware. It is what moves your body around and your mind, brain and your feelings. It gives you breath and life. Inside the physical form made of substance, love is the atoms and swirling electrons that coalesce together and make up the cells, molecules and fibers of your body. If you did not have so many beliefs that cause you to be afraid, the atoms and electrons would be able to swirl and vibrate faster. The beliefs and thoughts are what restrict us. If we were more spontaneous and free we would feel lighter in body and happier in mind and feelings. It is limited belief - i.e., "I don't believe in such things" - and fear - i.e., "People are not to be trusted" - which leads to all sorts of negative attitudes that bog us down.
You use love to create because love drops your guard and expands your mind. Love is all there is. In the beginning creating something new is fun and exciting. You reduce love down into shape and form with substance and meat to it, by focusing with all your passion on your new creation. You take your ideas from infinite space and, with love, you mold and shape it into musical creations, artistic creations, relationships, school lessons, houses, tall buildings and bridges. You love to create. Your favorite creation is new relationships because old relationships tend to get dull and repetitious, repeating same old patterns over and over again is monotanous. New relationships feel good because you don't have any past memories or past mistakes to cast shadows. New relationships are pure love relationships. You glow when you think of your new lover or your new friend because nothing has spoiled it yet.
But creating in the world of form - our world of solid physicality - is pushing the envelope. We are each creating something new and so it is by trial and error. Our creations are experiments. We actually don't know how a new creation is going to work out. We plunge in with excitement, all aglow. Whether it be a workshop like my dream, or a new relationship that you have made. We are passionate. It is something NEW!
Why don't our old relationships and our old workshops feel like enough for us? Because we haven't continued to polish them with our love. Instead of polishing them up every morning with caring attention, respect and gratitude for their existence, we replay thoughts that had their day and they're now "old". Yesterday's oldness and mistakes creep into our thinking. The habits of the day before and the day before that and the day before that, until we are remembering all the mistakes, errors, and feelings of those mistakes and we are bogged down. What was originally a glowing exciting love affair of whatever - art, music, a class, a book - dulls down and becomes discarded. And we turn our attention to something new. That's why a new relationship, a new art piece, a new music CD, a new anything is so much more exciting. We are creating something new and there is no past to get in the way.
Is there a solution to this? The Galactics say it best: Learn to create with love in everything you do. Every moment of every hour of every day. It is a learning process. We are evolving into more advanced human beings by expanding our love and broadening our hearts. We need to love what we created YESTERDAY. Not discard it. Revivify it by picking it up again and caring for it, giving it loving attention. The most important creation of all is a primary relationship. I know many primary relationships that are not happy but they THINK they are. They could re-create their original love relationship by not following the same patterns and routines but taking a new approach today. Something different. Like taking a different road home from the store to provide new scenery, even if it takes longer time to get home. Forget the past and concentrate, meditate, focus on love. Make it new again.
Learn to create love every morning when you wake up in your mind. Say it to the walls, the ceilings, the floor, the bed sheets: "I love you windows, I love you carpet, I love you books, I love you bureau, I love you lamp!" Forget your tired old mundane responsibilities for an hour and spend time saying this new mantra: "I love you clothes!" And say it out loud if you dare. The sound of a word vibrating the air creates new energy in the air. "I love you, air!" If you don't have a partner, focus love on and into yourself. Love is in you already but it's not moving. If it's not moving, it's stuck and stagnant. Electrons never stop speeding in the subatomic structure of your body, but they slow down. The best love of all is love for yourself, your liver, your lungs, you stomach, your intestines. This is ancient yoga being revived in America today. You can do it o the run, as I do, or you can take an hour to sit quietly in a carefully designed location to give you peace of mind. You can add quiet music playing, perhaps a candle or two or three, and saying, "I love my heart, I love my brain, I love my blood flowing through my veins." But you can do it as you move about. I do. But do it. Start naming the parts of your body and putting your own hands on your own body and feel the love come alive. You can feel it! Allow the love to flow from your hands into your skin. Your legs, your feet, your arms, your stomach, the top of your head. Know that love is constantly pouring through you and love is the swirling atoms and electrons. Love never ceases flowing but it dumbs down when it's not being spoken or focused on. Think love for 5 or 10 minutes, or 30 minutes or an hour. It will help you to NOT go back to thinking negative. This is how to speed up the vibrations of the atomic structure of your body, brain and feeling world.
If you have a primary relationship, give your partner a massage once a week WITH LOVE. Buy a massage table and see what happens. Give your child a massage WITH LOVING HANDS and see what happens. Give your new born baby a massage WITH LOVE when it cries and see what happens. Give a friend a massage. A platonic massage. Give your SELF a loving massage. I do (on occasion!). Then you are re-creating something new. You become a god or goddess in training when you do this with love. Pick up discarded love objects off the floor and dust them off - with love. They too are composed of swirling electrons and nobody ever pays the kitchen chairs or table loving attention. You can transform your dull home into a sacred temple by doing this. Take an object over to the light blazing through the window and examine them. Hold them close to your lips. Smell the sweet fragrance of the love that is held locked inside the atoms and molecules. Revivify all in your life and love it back to excitement again. Be a happy god or goddess. Keep resurrecting that which was cast aside as old.
2/9/23 - Physically upgrading
There has been little time lately to visit the website and post articles. There have been changes. Many changes. A wonderful friend lives with us now, temporarily, until she gets her house back after the Hurricane Ian swept it away. And because we have opened our hearts and doors to give our friend sanctuary, we have taken on renewed responsibilities. We have expanded in different ways. There is a new dynamic in our house. As a result of our commitment to this, Doug and I have been upgraded. We are transforming, meaning we are changing the way we do things. There is additional understanding. We are wiser than we were before, and these create challenges. The challenges create opportunities to change if we are willing, and these bring on new responsibilities. Do we accept them? It's a test. I have found it comes with choices. It's a two-way street. One can refuse or one can suck it up and grow bigger. Get past it. Then I discovered that new energy comes along with it. This is not easy, so I wanted to write about it. I may be seen as an easy-going person to my friends, but I'm as stubborn as anyone else underneath where I live with myself. I have to do it "my way". And that's the part that needs "sucking up".
So now I've been given some specific yoga breathing techniques by my invisible sources, the Himalayan masters. I was guided to three separate books, all of which were tied together on higher levels. They were threaded together. What a privilege to be so connected to benefit from telepathic hints sent to me! It is mind-boggling to wake up with instructions to go here and there and get some new guidelines. However, it is always my choice to accept the guidance. I don't have to but I've learned over the years to pay attention and listen. I got down the three books. They were: Tibetan Tantric Mysticism, a book I didn't know I had - my sister boxed up all her books and sent them to me before she died. Another one led me to Swami Rama, also from my sister. Check him out on Amazon for books, and Youtube for glimpses from lectures. He was raised by the Himalayan masters from the age of three. The third book is a homemade item I made from collections of wisdoms by others. All three books were threaded together by a similar subject. They all contained a thread guiding me to yoga breathing techniques. I was ready and prepared through past practices, and this piece of information took me up another level. A most amazing higher level. One more precise, more refined, more detailed and specific. It is all about focusing and sharpening my focus to see more and better. It's a most interesting journey, the journey towards more enlightenment.
As I practice these techniques I am finding I can do more physical tasks. There is more power. Not muscle power but power of a greater nature. I am energized. It is surprising to me how excited I get. The excitement gives me sustainable power. Wanting to keep going even if it's painful. It's no longer boring. Doing tasks used to be boring. Now it's not boring any more as long as I am discerning. I have to do only those things that need doing, not get carried away into tasks that are not relevant. It's exciting to discover discernment. Stay in your own lane. Be single-minded. Don't let odds and ends creep in and distract. Wanting to get the tasks done is a power. There is a power overlighting me that is guiding me. It is my higher self wanting to get these tasks done. If I stray outside of the Plan of my higher self, I get tired. This is a most important point. If I stay with the Plan of my higher self, I am rewarded with enthusiasm and feel fulfilled and energized. There is an eternal presence around and over me. This presence is one of attention. I must be careful and stay in the present moment and the "presence". Then there is no room for boredom. There is too much aliveness and excitement happening. It comes flooding in, this aliveness. It is stimulating and revealing. Revelations happen on the go, as I move around.
Practicing these exercises, which are not new, but I have a new understanding of the NOW and the PRESENT, I am finding a new way to live. The benefits are without question the best ones I've seen. But they take time. Practicing breathing techniques requires time out to sit still and really do the breathing. I see there are huge benefits. There is a quickening and a resurrection of interest and joy of life. There is a reason why yoga has survived the eons. The techniques work.
The difference between the casual yoga practitioner and the one who carves out time every day to practice, is that there are provable benefits that show up physically. I am seeing them myself. I was the former practitioner before. Now I am following the masters' guidance. How they did it. Yoga can be done for fun and to socialize with others as a beginning. But eventually it leads to a commitment to one's self, to be done alone. One has to bite the bullet and shut off the world to do inner work. It's a focusing of the eternal mind. The mind has been allowed to be a follower of others. But now, feeding the mind with a specific job to concentrate upon is something quite different. The mind perks up and pays attention. It is a universal hook up with other cosmic minds and forces. It's a lineage. It's a thread to other minds who have gone before and can guide how to tweak a practice and make it even better. It's done through telepathy, mind to mind. There is a definite physical effect on the strengthening and vitality of the body. It's a linking into a power that we as limited creatures are not aware of normally. It's always been there but unless we take specific instructions, we would not know about it.
So I am upgrading. It is all done with the mind. The mind is eternal. It expands when we give it new direction. It relapses when we give up. We can expand it or reduce it. They say there is no end to mind, no final resting place, It is an expanding that goes beyond our traditional way of thinking, but we have to tap into it. The only way to get to the levels waaaaay-up-beyond where we are today is to start with the small, tightly closed end of our minds and agree to open that door and begin there. It's like opening a door of an abandoned old house, not very pleasant on the outside, not blissful at all, nor attractive. But by walking inside the front door and looking around inside (per instructions) one finds something interesting and attractive there. It is rather a simple thing to do. All we have to do is do it. It's tricky choosing to ignore the crowd outside yelling and trying to get our attention with trauma and drama on every side. But once we get past those distractions and carve out time to go alone to practice, one is well on the way to betterment. As the mind starts to focus on the the inner self, the muscles and tissues of our own body, including the brain, the better we feel. The body registers change and reaps the benefits, physically and energetically. One is upgraded.
2/1/23 - Moving closer to group ascension massage exchanges
Journaled six years ago. During meditations that morning I had a lot of realizations and had to write them down to remember them. First of all, I saw chaos this morning. It was in the form of different colored energies, little tiny particles. They were kind of lost and moving around and mixing in with other dissimilar colors, shapes and textures, seemingly at random. There was no order to the chaos. It was confusing. The feeling was that of being lost and trying to find their thread to home but didn’t know how. I realized that out of this confusing mix that it is up to me to sort them out. It is my job to make sense of the chaos. and yet how can I do it with my mind? I don’t know how. I can’t make sense of them but I can become peaceful.
I was shown that by becoming peaceful and not trying to make sense of them, I give them space to relax and spread out and slow down. By so doing they begin to sort them selves out. As they relax they come naturally into close vicinity of other familiar particles by natural attraction. By my becoming peaceful and serene, the chaos also becomes more peaceful. The restless particles slow down and are attracted to its own kind. They develop a bond with their family. They return home. They link and connect with their own families. As I become peaceful, I see that the chaos is coming from outside of me, and by becoming peaceful I produce a buffer zone that those little particles of chaotic energy cannot penetrate because I am not producing them. Therefore they are not returning to me. If I were producing them they would return to me, but I did not produce them so they are going away, by natural attraction, to someone else. I become like a mirror, reflecting the chaos away from me and sending it home to where it belongs.
Next, I see that my massage therapist friend, Marcus, is working with earth energies and the kundalini. I am working with the sky energies, the spirit or soul. We keep our soul, the same soul, from body to body but each new body gets a new spark of kundalini. We have been unsuccessful in bringing our soul down to meet our earth energy, the kundalini, which is the goal. We need to integrate our soul (our self) with the earth body’s energy in order to bring about an enlightened earth body. We fail to do this over and over and over. We live many lives to try again. We continually get a body and the body dies without having done the integration so we have to come back and try again. But my realization is that Marcus is here to work with the earth energies and I am focused on the sky energy, from which comes the formless light, which is abstract information. I like to write about spiritual law and spiritual light. I am in tune with and in touch with other ascended masters and the galactics. Both groups. Inner space and outer space. I invoke them every day. This is my source of information and my reason for being. Marcus is focused on love. He is a massage therapist and is focused on the physical body and the more practical, physical energies. He and his wife focus on the land around their property and they work with the elementals of trees, bushes, flowers, birds, bees and all within the nature kingdom. I do not have that interest. My interest is galactic and the ascended realms.
Marcus is male, focused on the physical and he is more mental than I am. I am female focused on the non-physical, and not mental at all. It would seem we are opposites but we both are focused on love and loving the body. It’s just that I am not interested in the physical muscles of the body where he is. I am interested in stroking the body in a subtle, loving way. Marcus can do that too, but he is different from me. We seem to be opposites and yet we are much the same. The differences are that he is focused on tantric massage, and getting the person’s consciousness to accept the kundalini so as to bring about the earth energies in a more real and benevolent way. Where I am interested in raising the person’s consciousness upward, above the dense lower vibrating body, to the higher heart and top of the head.
Marcus does both therapeutic massage and loving energy massage. I don’t know the physical very much and was not too interested when attending massage school. He knows both physical and non-physical modalities. He knows how to feel kundalini when the person allows it into her consciousness. Marcus can be contacted HERE.
My desire is to hold a layman’s massage workshop. Not to teach about muscles, and not to teach how to arouse erotically, and not to teach how energy works, and not to teach at all, actually. But simply to give each person in attendance the chance to feel what it’s like to touch other bodies openly and freely. We would start with clothes on as a beginning. It does not have to be in the nude. I want to give people the confidence in touching others. That it is OK and to give them assurances that it is OK and some simple encouragement. Go ahead and try it. As long as the receiver is giving their permission for you to touch them. When we all give permission, we can lay hands on each other. It is in the practice of this that we will become free. Don’t call it massage if you don’t want to . It is not really massage that we are doing. It is permission to touch, really. That’s all it is. And to experience what it feels like.
There is a mixing of energies when you touch someone else with caring. Slowly. Not just brushing them quickly, superficially, over the outer skin. The slowness makes it intimate. It allows YOUR energies to enter into the receiver’s energies through the skin. It’s not about arousing them for sex. It’s about connecting energies as an equal. It is an experience that cannot be defined in words. It is connecting up, linking up, joining, fusing and permission is needed. Each person is a piece of the sea of consciousness, what we call the creator or God. Each person is a piece of God’s consciousness. God wants to express itself in the physical. We have been holding it back. Our physical body houses a certain presence, a certain consciousness, a certain intelligence, a certain feeling that can’t be duplicated because each person has a unique pattern that is contained in the soul (the self). When we all get together for massage exchanges - ascension massage which has a higher goal than sexual arousal - we are broadening and expanding ourself by coming out of our private little isolated separated closet. When we blend openly this way with several others, we feel more free, more peaceful and more accepted into the fold of family. It is like coming home. We expand closer to the heaven world.
A Zoom meeting doesn’t provide the same feeling. Someone asked about having a Zoom meeting for this, but it wouldn't work. The Presence is housed inside the physical cells, blood, tissues, organs of the person's body and radiates outward. In some people it remains stifled and closed. We are each different. We are each a piece of the creator walking around on the earth feeling frustrated because of all these restrictions and limitations and taboos about not saying what you really feel and not being able to do what you really want to do, not feeling spontaneously free. In a carefully structured massage exchange, this sense of freedom can be taught and practiced. A zoom meeting would not allow this to happen. Our current societal laws prevent us from touching each other freely but this can change with some ground rules. We are blocking the creative intelligence that is within us wanting to express itself. Freedom to express is being blocked. Creativity is being blocked. Excitement is being blocked. The thrill of discoveries are being blocked. We are each here to bring it forth into the outer world. We’ve been blocked and held back from the time we were small children so that we have incorporated the taboos and cultural conditionings into our adult day-to-day life. We never get a chance to feel free because we are overly burdened to remember the laws. We are not allowed to be open, honest or able to touch freely and feel other people, even with caring loving intention.
I am saying here that there is a way to start moving outward from behind closed doors. There is a way to begin the process of shining our light, and our light is love.
I focus on light. I use the word “light” more often than Marcus does. Marcus focuses on love. He uses the love word more than I do. But they are the same thing. Light is unformed immaculate never-ending intelligence from the sky, and love is this light when it is owned by someone who applies it to their daily life. Then they make it physical and practical the light then becomes love. It becomes love when it is functioning and operating in a human body. No one knows who they really are underneath the pre-conditioned cultural restrictive mask until they start shining and expressing freely. It is about freedom. We each begin to know ourselves as we express freely during our daily life - with love, not violence! Not pushiness. Not demanding attention. Not egotistical or rude or arrogant. But quietly open and free and caring. (Journaled 2/9/17)
1/31/23 - Abortion, old age and other things
(From journal 9/26/81) I have such a desire to write but there is too much. I am seeing so many things. Yesterday on the way to our friend's house we drove past a cemetery and I saw – no, I KNEW, experienced something. I saw that the cemetery is a doorway, an opening through which the soul is freed. It is a marvelous threshold, but oh, these words are useless! It is so much more than that. It is a wonderful experience to be there, and after you have passed it, the threshold no longer exists. It is so unimportant – the cemetery!
Oh, the truth is so beautiful to know. It is so – merely there. It has never gone anywhere but it merely hides behind a little veil so we cannot see. But it is there, nonetheless. It is lovely, complete, like coming home whenever I see beyond that little veil. How I wish everyone could see as I do. I try to tell Bob but it sounds so useless, so out of place, and I am bursting with happiness but I must keep it to myself. I am overflowing with a sense of fulfillment, yet there is no one to share it with.
And I saw something else. Everyone has made such a big deal over abortions. How can you kill a living life? Others say, but there is no life there at all. I don’t know what caused me to see this but I did. At conception only a very small percentage of the spark of life that is the individual comes into the fetus. Only about 1 to 5%, so to abort it you are not killing anything, because 90 to 95% (more or less) remains where it was before coming. You haven’t killed anything because it has only just begun. The nine-month carrying period is too long for more than 1 to 5% of the living, breathing consciousness to be confined – shut up as it were with no way to express. This living flame of life which is our consciousness is too grand, too unique, too knowledgeable, to be cooped up like that. It cannot be cooped up in a prison. That is why it does not all gather at once at the moment of conception. It sends an advance guard to prepare its house – the house it shall move into when it is finished.
And then, at the grand moment of birth, the big exciting moment, the 90 or 95% of that vital living consciousness moves in, bag and baggage, like a monarch complete with troops. All together, alive, knowing, breathing, prepared to take over. And thus it is that the first breath of life is consciousness taking over the body. Thus it is that many people remember a long, dark tunnel with a light at the end. This is the moment of entering the body. It is a marvelous, psychic, conscious moment. And one not to be forgotten.
And I saw other things – I saw the reason consciousness sometimes seems to disconnect from the immediate problem of life – as when you daydream. This is living proof that the consciousness is a separate thing from the body and brain. How else could it drift away to some far off place and be conscious of other things? Because it is not anchored to the body – it is only using the body as a man uses a house and he may come and go at will. This is the majesty of man, he is a noble God that moves and breathes in living Light, in freedom and universality. How great it will be when he wakes up and realizes what he truly is!!!!
These things I see and more. I see that old age - I saw this, experienced it for a brief passing moment, for that is how I “see” – that old age is (I must be careful with my words) the flaming spirit that lives within the consciousness and is ALWAYS trying to manifest in the physical world and in the flesh. This is a preamble now. That is its purpose for coming – to realize itself in living flesh, in living solids, to UNITE with the physical world. It is attempting always to do this, that is its motivation, its reason for existence, that is the driving urge inside a man that yearns to be free. It matters not what avenue it takes, whether an intellectual like a professor, or a working man like a machinist – it doesn’t matter – a profession is only a colorful tool through which to express the INNER URGE. The inner urge is a spark which has been ignited and it is flaring now. Within the body of a man the living spirit is flaring and trying to find room in which to complete its pre-appointed task. And thus the living spirit in man is striving to come out into the world and be seen. Only that individual knows when the spark has succeeded. Only that individual knows the wonderful feeling of fulfillment, contentment, peace, which is the aftermath of an explosion that set him free. But for one reason or another he has failed. Failed to comply with the cosmic laws which say: yield! Bend! Hark! Listen! Follow your heart! The heart is speaking – the living spark within. But no. Man does not want to listen. He wants to do it HIS way, the way of his opinion. The way HE thinks is right. The way He has been trained. So long as a man says, “I think!” or “I know”, he does not know. He does not! Because when the day comes that he knows, he will not have to defend his right to know. He will step aside and smile the smile of knowingness.
And so old age is the giving up, the spark within knows that it is not going to accomplish its purpose in this life and so relinquishes its vitality over the cells of flesh. There is nothing a man can do, but look at himself in the mirror and watch old age creeping over his body. It is a sign that he will eventually die. Not his spark of consciousness – that will go on. But the chance of finding himself in this body has gone. Passed away. To try again in another body. Old age is the outer skin starting to decompose first. As the life is withdrawn it withdraws from the outer first, and it is slow, but steadily faster. Can it be checked? YES! It can be checked in midstream – at the age of 70, 80, or 90! All it takes is waking up! Determination to be free, determination to put aside the false habits of a false world and be oneself in living color! It is possible! It is desirable! But it is something one must do alone! No one will understand. And yet, there is a universe of living souls who know what you are doing. They are waiting to help. They are joined to the one who determines to succeed. They are there. They have talked to me. I have known them. (Journaled 9/26/81)
1/29/23 - Symbiosis
In the night the other night I woke with inspiration and began writing. "Symbiosis - allowing the laws of harmony vs. following the laws of separation. Symbiosis. The universe operates on the law of harmony or synthesis, whereas mankind has been operating on the law of separation. When you massage (friend staying with us) you allow a blend to occur between her energy field and yours. The normal human ego respects another person’s field and does not interfere with it. He or she stops short of blending with another, allowing the boundary to exist between them, the law of separation. Allowing the hard edges between one person and another. It is called respecting free will."
I went off to sleep and woke up again with more information. I wrote it down: "Symbiosis is tilting the law of gravity in favor of blending separate fields, whereas the law of gravity pulls toward the center of each being, whether man, animal, plant, etc., keeping each being separated from others."
I went off to sleep again and woke up a third time to write: "The flash event - when everyone will turn toward the law of harmony and away from the law of free will and separated boundaries. The harmony is expanding in the universe and it is hitting earth. It’s a shifting and the shift will reach that certain saturation point where everything will shift toward harmony."
I went off to sleep again and woke up a fourth time, with a realization that I have been following the light in my body rather than the dark in my body ever since I went into the light 47 years ago. Before that time, I too followed the dark in my body as the artificial laws of the culture lay heavy on me as they do on everyone I know, but after the kundalini awakened in 1976 I was changed by the ascension process. I didn't know what happened, but this realization was another added piece of information to inform me. Therefore, when I am close to another person I naturally attract the LIGHT in the other person rather than the dark or artificial or wrong beliefs in that person, often referred to as the artificial intelligence in that person. I understood that I have more light operating in me than most people, and this allows me to magnetize the light in the other person when I put myhands on them, as I have been doing with my friend since she has been staying with me.
It is not me giving something to her, but rather the light in me is connecting with the light in her. It is not anything that I am "doing" for her. It is a resonance, a universal law - the universal law of harmony - which was given to me in during my dream state, explaining it to me and shedding more light on my understanding. This explains why I feel so good at the end of my massage. It is a doubling effect of light, her light with my light increased for both of us. I have been feeling quite blissed out myself after giving the massage to my friend, and I wondered about this. It is the magic of the light moving within the cells and tissues of our bodies.
The light in me is getting stronger. It is seductive. I share this information knowing that it is happening with others, too. I yearn to reach out to other people and blend with the light in them, too, and so I reveal this inner happening. The light is growing stronger in people especially who meditate on spiritual concepts. Perhaps the time is coming when we can start the ascension massage exchange. I can't go forward with it until there is a "green light" that says "GO!" There are many signs coming through various spiritual channels. The physical body starts to glow. We can see it in some people. It is not a literal light, but it is a shining. You can see it in a person who captivates your attention. Someone you might like to get to know better but you don't know how to broach them. I believe transfiguration is a good word to use here. Perhaps it is a mild form of transfiguration. I am told that physical ascension may happen in a gentle manner, when light is triggered throughout the cells of the body and the body glows. As a person may master their light better as they become more aware of their inner thoughts and feelings and therefore are more gentle and careful how they express themselves. Becoming a master of their innermost self is the work that many people are going through in these days of mindfulness, meditation, yoga and other disciplines. There is a waking-up process taking place among many people. It is important to be aware of this.
A gradual understanding is taking place that the physical ascension that is being discussed more and more these days, is not necessarily a "disappearance" act. An individual might not be "taken up" as I once thought - as in "beam me up Scotty!" Rather, it is possible that an individual might become such a master of their thoughts and feelings that they can maintain a sufficient balance to stay grounded and present here. A balance between the light and dark within their physical cells, atoms and tissues that would allow them to maintain their physical presence here with the rest of us. This is an understanding that is gradually taking shape in my mind. The contrast is between the purity or holiness that is the actual life of the tissues of the body, versus the artificial beliefs, doubts and fears of the human ego that is constantly shifting and weighing outcomes.
The yearning to connect with others is growing ever stronger but so is my ability to discipline and control any selfish thought or desire that might pop up and lead me astray. Massaging my friend is natural and easy. It is a wonderful, blissful experience for both of us when it is done. She has a need for healing and I supply the hands, but there is healing in BOTH of us - I benefit from it too. I feel sure I will be led to connect with more people as time goes on. I welcome any comments and feedback from readers. Send it to me thru the contact page.
1/25/23 - Tantra teaches how to expand the rapture
During a new moon ceremony eleven years ago I began dreaming and chanting my hopes and wishes into a glass of water and subsequently poured it out into the earth outside the screen room. During this time I saw many visions and revelations. I saw that all of the rays of colors have to come down and reach the kundalini at the base of the spine in order to be complete down here in physical earth. It is called the Antahkarana, the rainbow bridge. The hard part is getting the vibrations of the colors to lower in density, for each color is vibrating at a different frequency, and it IS a light. It is an attribute in the form of light. Each color comes through the chakra portal. It needs to be brought down one by one to connect with kundalini, the light at the bottom of the tunnel, which is a portal to the reservoir of divinity within the root chakra.
I saw many many people bringing down these colored rays to connect with the etheric light at the base of the spine in what is termed “orgasm”. The orgasm is the connecting link. Then (WOW!) God is walking on earth! Each human being is a piece of God trying to reach earth from its high ethereal place and it is very difficult because earth is vibrating at such a low, dense level. This is a major project to bring down the light to earth, but when it does, the orgasm happens. God walks the earth when orgasm happens. How long the orgasm lasts is how long God-Goddess gets to walk in flesh. Can you hold it in the body? Can you prolong the rapture?
You can only do so by expanding your MIND. Your MIND allows the rapture to expand upward into the rest of the body above the pelvic zone. Don’t keep it down there but raise it up. Tantra masters try to teach this. As you work at this you will prolong the rapture of orgasm. The goal is to expand it so all the cells are bathed in this essence of divinity called the nectar of the Gods. I see it simply as an explosion of light that doesn’t die. It continues to shine and radiate.
Then I saw the master Djwal Khul. The pain that I see in his eyes are transformed now into deep humility, intelligence, adoration and gratitude is the highest vibration of all. It is the most exquisite, the most beautiful of all colors and textures and vibrations in all of God’s many vibrations. I see many people coming together and meeting in this “oneness” plane of God consciousness. They are making love by allowing love to expand between them. I do not know how this is accomplished, whether it is through sexual penetration or simply by tantric process. I see the light of God coming to human beings in a very real or surreal way.
And I am reminded not to forget the love. It is all about love. Love IS the body of God. God is Love. Words are speaking to me in my mind. Learn to use the higher road in choosing your words. Put sacred vibration into your words. Love of freedom is freedom to love. When love is coming through someone, God is coming through. The person is just the portal. God is coming through. God is love. That’s why love is the highest energy we can conceive as intelligent, thinking human beings. There is nothing higher. We are home when we are in love. It is our origin, and our source. Where we came from.
I am seeing a race of men and women who are graceful and walk with dignity and nobility AND they are human too. Can you imagine this? God walking around as a human? It’s happening right now and our lifestyle is allowing that because we are encouraging sexual exploration, which is the avenue for the divine to enter into the human body. We are playing with the essence of God Creator! (Journaled 6/2/11)
1/23/23 - The old timeline is disappearing
The old timeline is disappearing, a new timeline is coming into play. How do I process this? One timeline is grounded in the physical and traditional and is confusing. The typical solution when something is wrong is to go to the doctor. My husband keeps reminding me. But this thought is filled with doom and gloom for me. I don’t want to go to a doctor. It feels like more sickness to me. It confuses me. The other timeline is peaceful, blissful, warm, connected and loving. Is this what they call dementia? Or is this ascension? To me I feel best when I’m holding myself to my center, to the central column of my trunk and spine, leaning neither to the left or the right, or to the outside to someone else or to the heavens above to some unknown savior, but rather holding to neutrality, to balance, to oneness, to be fully present in the here and now. It feels like love to me. It is warm and comforting. Clarity fills my head and security fills my body, every cell and organ is more present and accounted for instead of confused and not knowing what to do. I am present in my body, I feel to be somewhere in the center of my heart and lung and lower body area. I feel as if everything is alright. It’s secure. There is a feeling of rightness. I move more easily to do what needs to be done, without thinking about it. This is what I’ve been feeling lately as I continue to use the two-tennis-balls-in-a-sock to press out the pain locked in my back. It is interesting to me because I am more detached. The DIY exercises at home, plus lying on the acupuncture mat every day, is changing me. I feel more alive, more able to respond, quick to react when I’m needed. What happened to my old sensation of, “Ohh, do I have to? I don’t want to!” What is going on in me? Whatever it is, I like it!
1/20/23 - The jewel in the lotus
This morning I had a most wonderful experience during my meditation. I saw what expectations are doing to people. To me. I saw expectations, many expectations and beliefs, in the form of a flower fully open. The flower petals were the expectations and beliefs, unfolding quite beautifully all around the central stamen, which appeared as a shining jewel in the center - the prize that has been overlooked by everyone who is seeking outside of themselves for answers. The expectations showed themselves to me as walls and barriers. Boundaries that block the way to the real within. Yet they are safe enough. They are OK. We search outside of ourselves, facing away from our real and authentic self - the ultimate prize at the center. By trying to define what we want, what we need, what we feel to others, we do not see the beauty that is lying within. We look and reach to others for what we want to have happen, and what we want the other person to do for us. And when we get together in little groups, each person has a different set of scenarios of what they want to have happen, and with who, and under what conditions, etc. Each person's expectation of the best possible outcome is hanging out there in his or her auric field, in the far reaches of our minds, and it blocks us from successfully getting it because it's too fixed, too narrow, too focused, too unattainable. Nobody could possibly fill that expectation. It is less than what our real self can provide if only we would stop expecting.
It is OK, though, because we are creators and we are here to learn by creating through trial and error and experimentation. We are here to experiment with other people as our mirrors. We have created a lot of wisdom through our experimentation and our travels with people, some special people, some accidental, some traumatic. We have been creating our life situations by defining what we want and then expecting it to work out that way. Sometimes it does, but often it doesn't because the real jewel is at the center of the flower. The jewel is in the lotus at the center but we are distracted by the beautiful, glamours petals of many colors and designs. The jewel in the lotus is our real self. The sovereign self who stands alone. We haven’t discovered it yet. We haven't learned the practice of sitting alone by ourselves and looking inside the treasure chest. When we start to open the jewel-encrusted chest, which we will learn later is the body itself, we are going to find the most extraordinary things. Within the physical body is an amazing ability to feel depths upon depths of feelings.
Expectations are a problem. Expectations are scenes and beliefs we hold in our minds of what we want to have happen. It's a planned scenario. We fix our mind on something and it stays there solid and immovable, like a barrier. We are seeking this thing to happen for us, but it's unattainable because every person has a different substructure than we do. Our infrastructures are all different. There are no two alike. We don't match. We can't fit. The only way we can fit together is to drop our expectations and allow the subconscious infrastructure (the soul) to find itself. We cannot know what that will be. It will be spontaneous because it doesn't come from pre-determination. It doesn't come from the mind. It comes from the flow between people. The chemistry can't be controlled. We can't imagine it. It is a feeling from a deeper place. A wider place. A cosmic place. We don't know what is to come because it hasn't arrived yet. We have to open ourselves to the flow first, and then it will arrive. The joyful experience of merging with others without expectations allows the moving of emotions, the sensation of feelings within us that have not surfaced yet and are therefore not restricted to a limited mental expectation. We can find this by coming together with others with an open HEART and an open mind, touching them and hugging them and interacting with them closely, yes, close and real but without expectations. Without demands on someone else to fulfill us. This is the hardest thing to understand, but understand we must. We are to drop our expectations which have fixed us on lesser things, narrow things which hold us trapped in petty goals, fixed like concrete. And they are holding us back.
Freedom is a sensation. We all want to feel free to enjoy ourselves, freedom to move around and freedom to feel the excitement that comes from no pressure, nobody demanding anything from us, freedom to move as we feel to move. But freedom does not come from someone outside. Freedom is a sensation that one must give to oneself, but dropping all expectations. Then the freedom can flow out and meet the ones who are on the same wave length. Freedom to be authentic is the jewel in the lotus. It's hard to imagine, although we've all had a momentary flash here and there. We know the potential is there. It's possible. What is holding it back? I saw this morning that it is expectations that are holding us back.
1/17/23 - The fully realized man
(From 9 years ago) This morning a wonderful vision was shown to me of a fully realized man. Uumm, lovely. This vision came as a feeling coupled with a picture. It affected me on levels that are wordless. I want to try to express the feeling because I am always focusing on the feminine qualities and, contrary to popular belief, a man who is fully in touch with his feminine side is waaaaay more attractive than one who is not. Most readers interpret feminine to mean woman or a gay man, but there is something powerfully masculine in a man who is whole and complete with both a gentle side and a strong masculine side. Every man has a feminine side, for he is 50% male and 50% female. Most men have been conditioned to hide their female side. Likewise, every woman is 50% female and 50% male, she just hides the 50% male side so she is not wholly empowered. But let's look at an empowered man.
A man's body is male, no question about it. But his body is only the vessel through which he moves and operates as an intelligent operating force. The body is a vehicle, just like his car that he gets into every day and drives. The body is not who he is. Who he is is intelligence manifesting as thought and feeling. This intelligent being is both male and female in thought and feeling. It is only when he is raised in a less-than-perfect society as ours is, that he is indoctrinated from infancy to hide his female side. A boy is taught from infancy to "be a man" and thus close off his delicate sensitivities which are his feminine side. Most boys are taught not to cry and not to express emotion or high ideals or a sense of justice or fairness, or appreciation for beauty or a taste for dance or the arts. These are too delicate, in our society, for a man to have. They are "gay". And yet these are very much a part of his wholeness. He cannot be complete without them. As he grows into adulthood and continues to deny expression to his own inner beauty and grace, he grows harder and more masculine. More macho. He develops a certain hunger for the feminine touch, for his body needs it. His body follows its natural growth pattern and at puberty there is a physical awakening of sex hormones in the genital region, indicating he can now reproduce, but there is a deeper and more intense hunger. He needs feminine energy for his soul, not just his body. He is lacking in that area - intimacy, gentleness, awe and wonder, because he has been trained to shut that side of him down and he is energetically out of balance. He is tilting too far over into the masculinity zone.
Perhaps the reader will disagree with me, but I am sharing a word picture of something I saw today - a fully-realized man. A whole man, not a screwed-up man with issues. We do not see such men in our society often, if ever. A fully realized man is not hungry for sex, nor is he hungry for a relationship. He is his own man and happy with his life. He is balanced between his heart (feminine) and his mind (masculine). He has learned to keep his heart open. He has not closed off his feminine side. His physical body is male and he is attracted to women in the same way as any normal man, for he loves to be in love and he loves beauty, grace and togetherness. But sex is not driving him. He has a respect for the whole person, and an appreciation of nature and ALL people everywhere - not just women. He has the ability to enjoy the many pleasures that the world has to offer, and the ability to be in joy and spontaneity as he feels, as well as to be serious, practical and a leader of men where needed. He can laugh and cry as he is moved to do so. And he can be the warrior when he is called upon, because he does not have unresolved issues plaguing him. He embodies his own wholeness in his skin, and he is comfortable with who he is. He is not operating at the 50% level, which we would call the macho male, but is the kind of man all men and all women would find attractive and likeable.
It's hard to describe the feeling of what I saw. It was a feeling. It was a presence. It was loving and warm and yet masculine in every way. It was wise and intelligent. Profoundly knowledgeable. He was like a god in a man's body. You could not help but stop and gaze at him in wonder, trying to figure out what it was that captivated you. But he was just a human being. I am trying to define the feeling, the impact, the glow and the presence of this man in my vision. He had a very powerful presence. You could imagine him being able to move mountains if he wanted to, but that he kept that power under wraps until needed. This gave an image of a very strong, very warm, very gentle, very human, and very attractive man.
I am painting this picture so that men who read this might understand - allowing your female side to express in your thoughts and emotions. This picture I paint is not being gay, and not being feminine. It is being more masculine, not less. It is important that a man realize how much he loses by not allowing his sensitive nature to co-exist along with his masculine. He has this energy within him. It is a powerful spiritual energy. I am articulating this for a reason. If men everywhere accepted his femaleness, the world would spring back to rightness immediately, for it has been the unbalanced male who has become unduly aggressive, mean and vicious without his feminine side. He would become in short time very comfortable with himself and at peace with his life. What at first feels vulnerable to him would eventually prove to be a wholeness that he has not experienced before, and it would give him more power, purpose and meaning.
The inner feminine is sometimes called the inner child. The inner child has been neglected. The inference is that the child has not grown up to adulthood, but here’s the thing: the inner female is always a child. It is happy and joyful and spontaneous and in love with life. It is the delightful twinkling in the eye at play. A man who has these qualities would be stronger than those men who do not express it. All men could express their inner child, with a little shift into solitary alone time to connect with it. He would be able to give expression to his inner, heretofore unexpressed inner thoughts and feelings. He would be MORE of a man, not less. He would find himself surprisingly stronger than he ever thought possible, because he would be operating on 100% fuel instead of only 50%.
The fuel is the spirit of the person, not the body itself. The fuel is the life force of an individual, not the body itself. The body is only the vehicle, the car, that the person gets into and drives around. When the person runs out of fuel, out of spirit, out of life force, then the car, the body, runs down and grows old. It cannot keep itself alive. It needs the fuel - the 100% octane. The macho male thinks he is so powerful and manly, but he can't do it alone without the spiritual fuel of 100% - the other half of himself which is hidden. One who has accepted his own gentleness, grace, vulnerability, beauty and refinement, would appear as a gentleman. That private acceptance within would flood his mind, body and feelings and saturate him with powerful confidence and inner knowledge. No amount of book learning or higher education gives that to a man. Only his willingness to connect with his heart, the feminine and spiritual side of himself.
The same is true with a woman. Most women operate on 50% of their life force, not 100% as they could. Yes, their physical bodies are feminine and they might be the most beautiful woman in the world. But their bodies are only a vessel, a vehicle. She herself is a non-physical, very powerful being using that beautiful body to operate through. When she, the powerful being, is raised as a young girl by her parents, she is more than likely being cultivated toward the feminine side. They are probably clipping and cutting back her male side, so she will fit in better with the world. Most girls are taught to be soft and gentle and to not express their intellectual side or their strengths or practicalities or tendencies for science, math, politicians, baseball or motorcycles. And yet she has all of these tendencies within her. They are skills and talents and abilities. Who knows what she would produce if she did not cut off her male side?
As young girls grow into womanhood they become increasingly hungry for male energy - the male energy that they rejected and were denied expression to. They grow unbalanced. She develops a certain hunger for boys. And when her body awakens at puberty with sex hormones flooding her nerves and tissues, she has no control over it. She needs and wants a boy man. Whereas if she had been allowed to be a fully-realized girl from childhood she would not be caught in the flood of emotions at puberty. Imbalance causes her intense desire for male energy, for she has refused to let it live and express in her. This hunger radiates out into the atmosphere around her and men and boys are attracted to it like a moth to a flame.
When a person blocks whole portions of themselves from expressing, which our society unfortunately requires, there is the beginning of imbalance. It manifests as inability to see clearly or choose wisely and as a hunger for the opposite sex or fighting with the opposite sex. Wholeness, on the other hand, is a feeling of being healthy, at peace and more or less fulfilled. It is the aching hunger for the opposite sex that is the most damaging result of denying the inner male or the inner female from expressing. It creates the friction and the struggle that exists between men and women everywhere. It is global. Even in our enlightened society here in the West, there is enmity between men and women. This enmity dissolves into love during a love affair and honeymoon, but quickly disappears after that. Why?
Because while they are in love they are balanced in their energies. Love balances. Love accepts. Love does not reject or deny. Love includes. As soon as they stop being in love, they fall out of balance again and the hunger returns for the opposite sex. And yet it is within the man himself, within the woman herself, that the balance is found. One can have hundreds of sex partners in life and never achieve that ultimate peace that comes with being in balance. It is all about energy. Inner energy. Male and female energy integrated inside one's own skin. Is it possible a baby can be raised as a fully-realized boy or girl? I believe it is not only possible but that we are seeing it with our own eyes. It is happening right now in the child prodigies. What we call "geniuses" but they are not geniuses. They are merely healthy, whole-bodied individuals operating on a full tank of life force, fully realized. I believe these child prodigies are not super human but wholly human. (Journaled 10/7/14)
1/16/23 - What kundalini is and feels like when it's flowing
This was written ten years ago after a session of going with the flow of it for an hour, spontaneously following where it led. I had read an old journal and remembered how wonderful it felt, so I gave into it that day for an hour. It was soft, pleasing, warm and the "fuzzies" appeared - that exotic feeling that I can't describe. It feels as if my hands are surrounded by cotton and I am entirely empty of thought. No mind at all. The following words are automatic, as if channeled. I wanted to write about it - the sensations.
Kundalini is a sensation that radiates through the body. It has a purpose. One does not know the purpose because it is another mind, not your own. You can’t read it but you can work with it and communicate with it. It has your own best interests at heart. It is here to serve life, not you in your mortal form, but the life that is trying to blossom in you. It is trying to push the stones and rocks and roots out of the way so it can pierce through the top soil into the light of day. Like a seed that is sprouting from within. Your body has grown old and tired and dense with pollution and poisons. Your belief system is also blocked with walls and limits on what you believe, and rigid thinking of “my way is the right way”. Kundalini is pushing those rigid beliefs out of the way. If you struggle and resist you feel pain. The advice is to yield, surrender, even if you are afraid and don’t understand, yet you must open yourself to this expansion that is going on. Open to this inner sensation the way you would open to a lover. The sensation is expansive, light and buoyant, and blissful and you can feel every cell as if your cells are each one waking up and signaling they are awake. Expanding and pushing outward through the cell walls, as if something is growing larger from inside them and the cell wall is feeling the pressure to expand and open. If you were a seed you would burst your shell and grow a little shoot to grow up through the soil.
This is a real power. You can feel it pressing on your physical cells and you have no clue what it is. It is disturbing to one who does not know these things. It is another part of you that is being born. You do not know this part yet but you will. You should be aware of it before it happens, to be prepared for it. It is a larger intelligence and a larger power. It is both mental and feeling. You can talk to it silently or out loud, mind to mind. And you should. If you don’t, it will expand arbitrarily through your body and leave you in its wake, not knowing, no clue. Stay with it. Agree to it. Ride with it. Yield to it consciously. Say, “Yes, I will go with you. Teach me.” Don’t be left behind. Otherwise you will be overwhelmed by how big it is. It’s greater than you. Keep up with it. Work with it. When you talk with it it will answer and listen to you. But if you don’t talk to it it will carry on without you. It will give you guidance, like to go to a certain area for calmness, or what foods to eat, or what drinks, or when to get up and when to sleep. To show you what you need to do to connect with it. It is a power moving in your body. Talk to it as if it were a friend on the outside of you and you need to communicate with this person who has a different mind than yours. But this friend is on the inside and it is the unborn part you. You are being born a second time now. You are being born again. (Journaled 7/28/14)
1/12/23 - Ancient memories coming alive
The back pain is lessening. Rolling on two tennis balls stuffed into a sock is doing good work. It's a DIY treatment, the best so far to ease and press out the locked-in pain from years doing the same motions over and over. It's lightening up, the cartilage and ligaments which attach bone to muscle. Inwardly I am experiencing ancient light, life, from past embodiments. Awareness is blending into my mind. It feels as if I am reclaiming them after being lost from me from past lives. It's an occult, mystical happening, but it feels so very real and natural. Extremely natural. It is lighting me up on the inside! Giving me more clarity. I see better. Understand better. It is the kundalini stirring.
During the morning routine I've been doing the brain tapping, also. I found the techique online. It is helping. My finger tips feel like needles when they tap on my head, but the voice said, "You have rays of energy coming from your finger tips going into your brain. See the energies penetrating deep into the energies stuck in the brain that have been locked down in there from being recycled and repeated, the same thoughts over and over. Tap, tap, tap them loose. They are literally stuffed and stacked and crammed inside the head and brain as energies forgotten. We think it is a physical brain, but it is a storehouse for memories. We have been trained to focus on only physical outcomes, but we are not physical. We are energy beings. We create with our mental life and our feelings and emotional life. Our energies are what creates our hard physical shell of a body. All our expectations and goals are wrongly focused on physical results. The kundalini re-awakening.
This new realization is stunning. The nerves are literally composed of consciousness, not substance. We are energy beings. As I move through my own awakening process it is a remembering process. I see past lives I have lived coming alive. It's my own effort at learning new techniques that is stirring my consciousness. I am allowing new information to enter. The ancient light from past lives is waking up as pain in my body. It has moved steadily closer to the surface so I can see it and feel it and know it is there. I have suffered so much in past lives and these sufferings are literally "stuck" and are now waking up as I learn new techniques, new exercises, new teachings. Ancient memories coming alive but they move on quickly because I am moving on. I am allowing them and absorbing them into who I am today and who I am today is growing clearer and better. I am lifting them. Lifting them.
The Masters teachings all point in one direction, UP! "Lift them up in to the light, release them and send them back to the light." So that's what I am doing. It is bringing forth old pain and freeing that pain from my body which inherited it because it's mine. Past diseases, past wrong doings, past sufferings, it’s amazing what I am becoming aware of. And the lessons I learned in those lives, the positives are also coming forward. The kundalini is being rekindled. The life force is the kundalini, known by the Christians as the holy spirit. I see who I am better as I fill in long lost gaps in my memory. I am more than I thought I was. I am not a small, narrow, little creature with only one life to suffer through. I have a long line of memory. There is so much more to me. My sister on her death bed said the same thing. In her last moments just before leaving her body, "I'm not who I thought I was!"
And so it is with me as I learn these new techniques and keep myself active. There is movement here. Life is flowing even though sometimes I’m walking bent over from lower back pain, the pain is lessening. I am experiencing betterment. Life is a mysterious thing. It is flowing more today than it was in the past. I’m getting inspired to keep moving and being productive. This is mysterious to me. What is this? Being productive and creative is life-renewing. Lying down to rest must be done quickly or it is stagnating. It is being in balance between action and rest that the mysterious thing called excitement comes alive. The dullness goes away. The boring parts are gone. There is a new lease on life. An old journal from 40 years ago when kundalini was fresh, new and alive, reminds me.....
(6/18/82) This morning as I lay in bed awake, waiting for Bob to wake, there came a sense of light flooding into me. I saw it with that peculiar sense that dawns in the inner mind no matter whether the eyes are open or closed. I saw a steady stream of little sparkling golden balls, almost solid they appeared, moving into me, rolling into me and settling along my back as I lay upon the bed, then steadily as more filled in, slowly rising and disbursing through the rest of me. At the same instant a crystal clearness filled my mind as though I were suddenly clear of the maze and filled with a powerful will to accomplish my purpose. No particular purpose was apparent, only that I could accomplish anything that I set my mind to, that I had the power, or rather I WAS the power to accomplish. I was filled with a will to do and I knew that nothing could ever hold me back. Further, I was in love with life, eager to do, to express, singularly pure and unadulterated. And then it passed.
1/10/23 - Physical nerves are pure consciousness compacted
(automatic writing/channeling) There are only two things you have control over: your thoughts that you think and the feelings that you have. You have control over your thoughts though you may not know it yet. And you have control over your feelings, like happiness, sadness or depression. You may not know this yet but this is the crux of life in general. It is the heart and soul of life and this teaching today. Now, the first aspect is the thought and thinking, because your feeling follows AFTER the thought is entertained and focused on for a while. Most people are unaware of this but energy follows thought. Feeling is an energy. Mantras and affirmations and continual chanting, humming or repeating words. These are the techniques for changing thoughts to a more preferrable place. Gradually the feelings and moods change as more preferred thoughts are applied.
The second thing to be taught to you is this: you could not even have a thought in the first place, if you were not a self-conscious immorotal being. You are an eternal, everlasting being. You have evolved yourself up from a mere babe of an immortal spark in your father’s eye and he made you. He brought you into being, into life, and you are a self-conscious baby, a future God like Him when you grow up. But you were only a baby in the beginning, only an aware babe. That’s all. Just aware. Then began your growing awareness. The mineral kingdom was the first experience of being aware. There was no movement in the mineral kingdom, just sedentary. Then you experienced the plant kingdom with some movement there. Then you experienced being a small animal, then a larger animals. Then animal men walking on two legs, and all the while you grew in self awareness, developing ways to communicate with others.
Today you are a human and your self-awareness has grown to vast proportions. You are aware of happy states and low depressed states, and of couse you are aware of pain and death. Or you are the immortal being who experiences life in different vehicles called bodies. Your body comes and goes, lives and dies, while YOU continue to live and grow in self-awareness and knowledge of yourself. Today you are taking more new steps into self-awareness.
(Me) During practice today, during the MIAP, while bringing down the silver cord to anchor consciously the three-fold flame of love, wisdom and power into the heart, I added the permanent atom to the heart, connecting the silver cord to it. It is THIS body that we are making immortal with our practices.
(Spirit) You’ve always been immortal but your bodies have not been. You have reached the point of realizing that the self-conscious inner work is not an abstract mental technique, but a technique of connecting to your physical body. You are working with THIS body, the one that your mother created in her womb for you. Also, while calling forth the crystal heart from Mother Earth, you’re calling the light, love, wisdom and knowledge of Mother Earth up into your heart. You are inviting it to enter into your physical heart. Your body is a physical child of Mother Earth. You are a child of God, immortal, learning the ways of the planet and of those who have gone before you on this planet. You are building on the structures and pathways of the ones before you. Mother Earth is your mentor and your grandmother as regards the body. She loaned you the material to create the vessel you are living in. The material is HER body. She loans it to the souls who want to come here to have an experience on Earth. Her light is embedded in the cells of your body. When you the immortal comes to live with her, you send your Mother flame ahead of you, down to join with Mother Earth’s light, and together you grow in knowledge and experience. You and Mother Earth.
Your individual light in the form of your Mother flame is your guidance. This is the ancient light you have left behind when you lived and died and left your corpses behind to be buried, unrecognized and unfulfilled. Your weak back is due to giving your power away to others. Females give their power away by giving in to men without understanding the consequences, and men give their power away for taking selfishly from women for themselves alone, without understanding the consequences. Both genders pay with your life. Your life force is depleted for lack of balance.
A weak back is the sign that the mother flame or mother power does not go up the main trunk of the spinal column as it should, in a balanced way. If it DID go up the central spine in a regular ongoing flow, not stopping along the way but recycling in a never-ending river of life, it would create a strong back bone. During sex, the woman gives her power to the man, and the man takes it from her willingly, selfishly using it to rebalance him SELF. He needs to do that because he gives his own power away following the expectations of an unbalanced civilization. He then interprets the sex act as pleasure since it feels good to him, but it is actually the filling in of the depleted back bone and other organs in the lower body. He takes balance from the woman who willingly gives it to him in what she thinks is lovemaking. She even fights for the right to give him this power, which she jealously guards as her rightful possession.
1/9/23 - Expanding past discomfort
This morning I woke with words in my mind: "When you are in pain, expand. When you are frustrated, expand. When you are angry, expand. When you are confused, expand. When you are lonely, expand." The sense I was getting was that it's the conscious effort to expand that does the work. The "working it out" is done by thought, desire and intention, not by physical labor. I remembered the pool filter. Spray cleaning the filter is a job I have to do every month. It's the perfect example of how to apply this principle to every day life.
When I clean the cartridge filter to the pool every month I have to struggle with the steel housing. It's old and bent and it's seen its best years. To unscrew the top of the housing is a job. I have to chisel it off with a screw driver and hammer because it won't budge any more. Then I lift out the cartridge to spray it to clean it with a hose. That's the easy part. Then I have to screw the top back on, which is terribly difficult because the threads are all worn. I started hating this job. I was developing an attitude over this monthly project that used to be easy. The alternative is to buy an whole new, very expensive pool filter. Screwing the top back on requires three or four repeated efforts because the thread do not catch, so I have to back it off and try it again, and finally using the monster wrench to force it at the end. I was using force on this job from beginning to end.
One day it dawned on me as I was struggling to put the steel cover back on, that I needed to ask the elementals in the steel to help me. I have been reading in the ascended master books principles for living more in harmony with the earth. My attacking the frozen and resistant steel housing with frustration was not being very harmonious. So I stopped what I was doing and went silent, imagining the living conscious spirit in the atomic structure of the metal container. I first connected with my higher self by focusing on my heart, and then imagined the living consciousness of the metal housing. I started talking to the steel elementals and thanking them for their service, all the while imagining the steel housing in a state of perfect harmony with beautiful transparent rays of light enfolding it. This was a fairly normal meditative visualization, but I seldom think to do it when I am involved in a mundane task - like working with a frozen steel housing.
When I felt I was harmonized sufficiently, I very slowly turned the large screw on the top, listening with inner ears and seeing with inner eyes the life and consciousness within the steel. I maintained this awareness with every slow turn of the large screw. It takes 21 turns to complete the screw-down of the top of the pool filter. As I reached the 10th and expected resistance, there was none. I cautiously continued, keeping my harmony and stillness and reached the 15th turn. Still no resistance. I continued on 18, 19, 20, 21. Still no resistance. I felt around the rim for lop-sidedness which signals that it went on crooked again. If so, I would have to back out and do it over again. But this time it was firmly embedded into its groove. The steel was purring like a kitten. I was amazed! It worked! I didn't even have to use the oversize wrench to make the final turn to tighten it by force which I had done in the past. I felt the urge to say silently, "Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! I love you. I love you. I love."This was the day that changed my relationship with the pool filter housing. It is still old, bent, and frozen in certain parts, but I have a new relationship with it. I don't hate the job any more.
Neale Donald Walsh once said, “Life begins at the end of your comfort zone”. What the heck does that mean? I related that statement to this experience with the pool filter. Discomfort is normal for most people. We've grown comfortable with discomfort and therefore we don't always realize that we are having a situation that we could improve upon if we were aware. Discomfort is the normal comfort zone for a lot of us but it creates labor-intensive responses to situations, which only builds stress, anger and frustration because we're doing it the hard way. We are comfortable with discomfort. We're comfortable using force on what is a living, conscious, breathing being. It's normal for humans to use force. It's the big change that we are all growing through now. How to expand past force and become friends with objects of nature and people who are not normally likeable. Our old way of doing things is our comfort zone, but we need to come to the end of our comfort zone of discomfort. It's time to find more expanded and harmonious comfort that is gentle with us.
It takes awareness to know when we're uncomfortable, to catch ourselves in the act of being uncomfortable so that we can do something about it. So that we can stretch ourself beyond that discomfort. That is where pain, a bad situation or a terrible, traumatic event is an opportunity. I can’t open the door to new life when everything is going well and I am happy. But when I am at the threshold of pain or suffering or something is going wrong, then I have an opportunity. Standing at the threshold of feeling bad and life is threatening to pull down under into a bad place, it's a perfect opportunity to go within and push that feeling back. Expand when you are in pain. Expand when you are lonely. Expand when you are sad.
At that moment of discomfort I have a choice whether to continue being in discomfort, or expand by relaxing inward into the silence and stillness of my heart. Meditation is something that everyone should be doing, at least a little every day, to get some practice in for the real thing, for when it is needed the most. By expanding inward into the silence of your heart you open the door to - what? You don't know but there is stillness there. There is silence there. There is peace and there is acceptance And newness. It's a new place and there is fresh air. Relaxing inward and shifting the anger or pain to silence and stillness opens the door to newness. It is expansive. It lets in new life. It is a widening that sheds light on what has been an uncomfortable situation which was hurting and bothering me.
I think this is what is meant by growing by expanding. It‘s a choice to expand and not resist or continue hating and being uncomfortable. Choosing to expand is a gentle act. There is a subtle shift of consciousness to adapt to a larger field. Feeling comfortable is the reward. It is not drastic, like jumping off a cliff, eyes closed and hoping for the best. It’s a gentle thing, pushing the limits back on my own horizon. It blends my former horizon with the new horizon. It’s comfortable. The unknown becomes like being an open field of fresh air and soft grassy meadows under a blue sky. It is peaceful. Our job as human beings who are evolving our consciousness to higher planes is to keep pushing on the limitations. Expanding the envelope that we live in. Our job is to open windows and doors and let fresh air in. As the teacher Ramtha said, to make known the unknown. The unknown is full of opportunity and promise but we can't see it if we are in resisting mode.
It’s like when clothes are too tight and I can’t fit into them any more. The human response is to hate ourselves and determine to go on a diet or do more exercise to whittle down who we are, try to fit into the old clothes instead of adjusting our attitude and going out and buying new clothes that fit better and we are more comfortable in them. Allowing the expansion to take place instead of fighting it relieves the pressure. It ends the fight we are having with ourselves. Duality has become such a way of life for us that we have grown accustomed to fighting. We fight mostly with ourselves, not with other people. We are competitive because we see we are in duality and the two opposing forces continue to grind in on each other. There is consciousness in everything, including our own brain and muscles. By entering into the silence, we can bend those forces to harmonize instead of fight, if we choose to and know how to. And when we experience harmony we can't help but bend the knee in thanksgiving for this opportunity to heal. Weaving the known (the former perspective) with the unknown (that which we are inviting to come forth) together is like two lover’s embracing after a quarrel. There is a sensation of being stronger yet gentler. By joining together two separate energies, two different perspectives, two opposing thoughts, two different colors and world views, we become whole. (from 4/2/17)
1/8/23 - Assigning words to the mystery
There is an inner life within all of us. It is hidden from view among those who haven‘t started awakening to their spiritual self. Who knows who has and who has not awakened and begun to have a rich inner life not known to others? While we are all dramatically different on the outside, because of our experiences and adventures we've had and the many lifetimes we’ve lived, we have the same spiritual template within.
The human template is the same all over the universe, the galactics say. It is called the Adam Kadmon, or the Christ, or the Buddha body. There are many names for it. It is a spiritual blueprint for the human being and it is within us. We mold ourselves around it when we are embodied, and we hunger to touch it because it’s home to us. We are brothers and sisters of the same light. Our inner life is a journey back to that sacred blueprint, but we are veiled from knowing this. On purpose we are veiled. The divine intention is that we learn to follow our INNER path, and not the outer which is a distraction. So we wander until we are guided by good sense. Then the veil thins and the inner light shines through, starting a gradual process of unfolding excitement. Inner excitement of private discovery. This is why we are here: to find that secret inner thread which excites us to spend time alone with ourselves. It is an inner magic. It is rare to experience on Earth because the outer glamour and confusion captures our attention and holds us locked to the world of chaos.
We do not know what our soul is up to until the light begins to shine through, and then we sense there is a higher mind to us and a higher emotional range that we can feel that is more noble than previously known. When the veil is pierced and the light and life shines around inside our consciousness, a new kind of journey begins. Mysterious pathways suddenly open. A new excitement dawns. We see beyond the horizon, or we think we do, and we are tantalized and drawn to it like butterflies to pretty flowers. This is the inner life.
The veil was pierced for me in 1976 when unexpectedly the force known as kundalini activated in me in a most dramatic way. It was then that I began a relationship with something larger than me. At first I thought it was another entity that had moved in and taken me over. It caused me concern at first, but over time I developed a relationship with it. Ever since that day in April 1976 I have been journaling my experiences. I wrote lengthy hand-written pages at first because I didn’t have a typewriter. Then a typewriter came into our possession, and much later, a computer.
I wrote about these experiences because I am tactile. I encourage everyone to journal their private thoughts and experiences, and re-read them later, not the same day. I understand things when I write them down with pen and paper. Writing grounded the experience and fleshed out the nebulous flights into other realms and the interactions with invisible beings who I later learned were the guardians of the human race. At first, I couldn’t write - it was too strange - but as I continued to flash in and out of other realities, I had to write it down and assign words to it. Putting words to the mystery seemed to make it real. If left undefined it remained elusive and etheric. As I struggled to find words to describe these experiences, the mystery slowly became history. With each journey I was structuring a new reality for myself. An inner reality that I could not share with anyone else. But over time I had the notes to prove it had really happened, just in case I forgot it. It seemed important that I do this. And I put dates on them.
I am reminded that “In the beginning was the Word.” Assigning words to these strange and wonderful - and sometimes negative - experiences was a beginning. Even if only built of words, it was a structure that was real to me. My exterior world kept changing but this inner life of understanding has become more enlightened and more solid and more permanent. As if I have been molding and shaping this mysterious other dimension into or over this dimension. There is a merge happening. We really do create our own reality. Other people are doing the same thing, I see, as I read the blogs on the internet.
Looking back and reading the words I wrote so long ago helps me to see that I have been in the process of transition. Ascension they call it these days. There is an expansion of consciousness. There is a higher order at work. My everyday world has been seeded with another more beautiful and harmonious world that is full of light and love, goodness and beauty. I have been integrating the two worlds - my outside world and my inside world. I have been building a new world structure right here on the ground where I live. Others have been doing this too. We are seeding a new reality, a new rich reality into the outer world. We are transitioning. That is why I urge keeping a hand-written journal. Handwritten in private is best, because then the higher self can enter merge and blend better with the human nervous system via the hand and fingers. It is the human body, not the brain, that is seeding the new earth through feelings and emotions. (Re-posted from 9/12/16)
1/7/23 - Message from my higher self
In the night I was awakened to write down a message. "How can your higher self connect with you, your mortal self, except by you the mortal reaching up and being the best you can be? In every moment? Then your immortal self can reach down to connect with you. For, having been born into the lower vibrational world you had to descend to fit in with the lower vibrations. It is by giving of yourself in the best way possible that the honorable, compassionate, forgiving you will become reintegrated with the real you again. Become the most honest you can be, the most pure you can be, the most perfect you can be, the most wise, the most intelligent, the most modest, the most selfless. Then you become your highest and best and your Christ body can make that connection with you.
"Your connection to your higher self is like any other friend you have in your life. To maintain communication with it you must direct attention to your friend. A telephone line opening, a glance in its direction, a remembrance of its presence, talking to it, asking it questions, listening to its answers, fitting in with it, knowing and respecting its qualities, its nature - that’s how you connect with your higher self. Your higher self is buttoned in through your chakras. [I saw this vividly] Higher self is all around you like a bubble. It is not only up in the sky but around you on all sides and below you. It is you as you appear on the higher dimensions that vibrate faster and purer. You are a small dark and dense form suspended and floating inside a bubble of clarity, love, perfection like crystal clear waters twinkling as sunlight splashes colors through the water, like a diamond flashes prismed light. You are the rich yolk inside the egg of your higher self bubble. You are the child inside the womb of your Divine Mother. You are the figure inside the glass snow ball. You are the seed germinating.
"You are surrounded on all sides by your very own God/Goddess/Divinity. Expand yourself to connect with the answers to your question. Touch the hem of the garment of your higher self and listen to its advice and counsel. All your needs are answered when you go IN and then UP to your higher self, higher dimensions where purity and everything you need is available to you. When you are lonely, hungry, depressed, inadequate, afraid, failing, confused, hurt, suffering, overwhelmed, shut down, frozen, go in and UP. Up in the higher realms you are none of these things. You are perfect, complete and ascended. Go IN and then UP to your higher regions to feel the peace and assurance.
"You adopted the low vibrations so you could fit into the world and work here. To re-adopt your former glory, go in and UP to your higher self. Focus on your higher self. Give attention to your higher self. Contemplete it and release your adopted vibrations that are less than who you are. Simply touch the hem of the garment and you will receive a sense of your greatness. Do not be afraid. Release the fear. Become ME for I am your true self. The Self you want to become.. The self you dream about. As you move up the frequency range to higher, more noble sense of self, you will not be able to connect with those who are on the lower frequency range except through love. They become static to your ears and disharmonious to your sensitivities. If you want to stay in contact with the lower frequency range of people, then you must bring my love down with you into lower frequencies and not compromise yourself. Your loving can influence others.
1/6/23 - God is not a "thing", but a process toward betterment
This morning I realized something. Instead of giving credit to a particular ascended master for the many dictations I have been getting over the years, I am supposed to OWN the wisdom for myself. Whatever I become aware of is MY intelligence. It is a process of recognition. I have been giving my power away thinking the words came from someone else. I did not recognize my own enlightenment process.
Today, suddenly, I see that God is not a "thing". God is a process. God is one's higher self blending with lower self. God is short for good. There is a process toward good going on, a process toward betterment, in all of us. There's a higher self beyond us, and another higher self beyond that, and another and another, on into infinity. God is growing itself through the many parts. Good is evolving. There is no end to Good. There is only a process of unfolding. God is not a thing to chase down and discover. Rather, it's a process of recognition. God is the ascended masters, God is the galactics, God is our loved ones who died, God is the angelics, God is the tree, the vegetable, the animal, the insect, the stone, the air, the water. God is the many parts evolving to somethin better. God is everything. God is you. God is me. God is awareness, intelligence, wisdom. God is lighting up the world. God is your ex-wives and my ex-husbands. God is space. God is time. God is the sun, the moon, the planets, the extraterrestrials. Not different but the same.
I am recognizing this today. God is not separate. God is not a "thing". God cannot be owned, discovered or monopolilzed. One becomes God through the process of elimination of what is wrong and feels bad. God is a process of becoming more aware of what is right and feels better. Therefore it is a process of becoming more connected. God is a process of evolving. God is the lesser, the dumber, the blinder, the more ignorant, the more dark, the more unenlightened, the more obstruction, the more resistance because God is the many parts. God is the evil evolving into something better and more connected. The Buddhists don't use the word "God" because then it would become something outside of them, something set apart, a separation, a difference. God is self. God is soul seeking its betterment. Today I sense familiarity, I sense family. I'm moving closer. God is not separate and apart from me. I am not ready to say I am God and I am everywhere, but I am in process of becoming more aware than I was yesterday. (Journaled 9/28/19)
1/2/23 - Crude sex is killing humanity
This morning was a morning of revelations for me, brought about by receiving this wonderful, beautiful, massage this morning from my husband. I do believe your own partner at home is a better person to do this, even though it's never been done before. There's always a time to start.
The energies of the human being. The whole system opened up to me this morning. The human body is designed to receive energy from the earth. The human body is made of earth elements and the same life that fuels the grass, trees and animals and makes them grow, wither and die when their cycle is over, also fuels the human being who is an animal waking up to his higher nature. The human being is different from the animal in this sense. He has been gifted with an immortal spirit or consciousness. This immortal spirit is coming down while the earth energy is going up. So there is a two-way energy flow happening in the human. One coming up from earth, and one coming down from the sky.
The energy flow coming up from earth enters through the bottoms of the feet and travels up the legs to the tail bone which is the first chakra, the beginning link to the stars. The human body is designed to carry the flow up through the second chakra (reproductive or sex chakra) which is another, higher, link with the stars and which provides new more expanded insight to the human. And then it travels up to the third chakra (solar plexus or naval) which is still more expanded and another higher link with the stars and provides vaster insight to the human. This is the first three of a seven-step ladder that the human climbs by opening and experiencing each step, one at a time. In this manner he gains his immortal status.
From the third chakra the life travels up to the fourth chakra (heart) where it links with the down-flowing energy, which causes quite a stir. He sees for the first time the higher way. It melds him in with his lower understanding. He opens to vaster knowledge and he begins to question and consider higher ideals, morals, ethics. As his heart opens new understanding floods through him which carries him naturally upward to the fifth chakra (throat), where another star link opens to provide him with the power of truth, to communicate his voice to others. Understanding takes shape and form and he centers his attention around a career or vocation, what field of service to work within. Doors open wider. From there he travels up to the sixth chakra (third eye) which opens when he is finished with the career and wants to retire, perhaps in solitude, taking a break from the world before deciding what's next. Then he travels naturally from there up to the seventh chakra (crown of head) where it links with the incoming energy from the stars and Home, the place from which he came, the source of life, comfort and bliss.
This seventh chakra gives him his freedom from the physical material world and he becomes liberated. If he has completed his soul journey to his satisfaction he earns his ascension to become the god or goddess he/she is destined to become. But if not fulfilled in that life, then he returns to another life, again as an infant through a mother and father’s seed. And another life and another, until he completes his soul mission. It is the same process as the acorn on the ground which is destined to become a great oak tree. The little acorn grows through certain stages to become a tree. So does a human being grow through its seven stages step by step, to grow from animal man to God man. It must be that way, because each step fits him to a broader expanse so that he is ready to step into the next stage. If he stops at any level along the way, he is incomplete.
This is what is SUPPOSED to happen for human beings. It is the plan. The earth energy travels up from earth to the heart which is the central gathering place, and he links with the heaven energy that is descending. Eternal life and immortality descends downward, ever downward into density to enrich the lower planes of planetary life. The whole system is enriched and grows wiser and more efficient, more perfect. It’s a partnership between heaven and earth. The immortal spirit is pure consciousness. Consciousness is growing ever wider. It is flowing down from the light above. It is the divine plan to flow down and enrich the lower realms. There is an immaculate concept for earth to become more perfect and beautiful, and for the human being to become a more perfect, more conscious human, a better man and a better woman. A God-man and God-woman, if we can use those terms. They become more graceful and more marvelous, walking and expressing the joy they feel unfolding within themselves. They are becoming enlightened. We are a divine consciousness coming down into a heavy earth body made of clay, dust and matter. We are trying to partner with this animal body and bring it into its fuller human potential beyond the former animal nature. As consciousness we do that by linking up and melding with the earth energy that's coming up through our feet and up through our chakras, bones, blood and tissue.
The problem is, we haven’t been doing that. We stopped the flow by diverting the earth energy to sex. Very, very, very few people understand how this works. Everybody thinks that sex is so important but it is actually disrupting the flow that is trying to reach the brain and connect with the universal system from which all life came. The connection is with the universe. The system is designed to bring enlightenment, happiness, joy, creative inspiration, abundance on every level and perfection to the human being who is evolving from a lowly animal creature into a higher intelligence. A god if you will.
It is not that sex is not important, it is rather a side enjoyment of a greater power source that the human has been gifted with. But crude sex is killing the human race. The goal of orgasm – and the orgasm itself – stops the flow at the second or third chakra. The animals have not been gifted with immortality consciousness but mankind has. The animals do not have the ability to evolve into a god or goddess. That is the role of the human, to take this animal body up to a higher level of respect, love, purity, decency, understanding, universal consciousness. He then becomes immortal PHYSICAL beings. He is not evolving to escape the earth plane, he is evolving to become a resident in the garden of Eden, of paradise, of plenty, of joy, love and freedom. We have yet to know this. We don’t understand what our role is. The human being is meant to grow into a higher ethical powerful being, but crude sex is stopping him. As a selfish glutton lusting after sex and orgasm, he is putrifying his own body and that of those around him. He is causing a serious backup, a damming up of the earth power which seeks to rise higher through the seven steps to completioin.
The human being is a god in the making and we have this incredible immortal energy at our disposal to do it with, known as the holy spirit, or kundalini or some other word. You name it. It can be called simply the life force. The eternal life force. It is stored at the tail bone, the first root chakra on the etheric level. It is a power that requires love to release it. Once released, it needs respect or it turns negative. The immature ego is too small to handle it. There is meant to be a figure 8 flow with the descending energy from the sun. There is meant to be the ascending force from earth meeting up with and melding with the descending energy from the sun, from the light above us. There are distributing centers all through the universe sending this light of consciousness and intelligence out to the planets to grow these god-men and god-women. Ascending and descending forces flow in the figure eight sign, the infinity sign, but we are interfering with it by diverting the power off into sex. The orgasm explodes, the life force cleans up the local area of the body, provides bliss, and then dies. The upper regions of the body do not receive it. We want the orgasm. We press for the orgasm. We use artificial means to get an orgasm and we are trying to prolong the orgasm, to linger with it. We want to extend the orgasm. We cum and cum and cum and cum and keep shorting out the vast immortal power, and then we die. The immortality gene never gets awakened because the earth energy doesn't link up with it. It must reach the heart.
The next step in the evolution of mankind is to learn about this. And do the inner homework on themselves to merge the two rivers in us – one flowing up, one flowing down - to flow together. It will bring balance. Balance will bring clarity in a natural way, easily, lovingly, lightly. By not obsessing over the orgasm, one falls into a natural state of being and THEN he can make love. Making love replaces the obsession over sex. Making love is natural and innocent and timely. Making love comes with harmony and with rhythm when two people are aligned with purity in their own hearts. It is not impossible. It is done on other planets of higher grade than ours. Once we learn to stop being selfish and crude with our bodies, we will begin to distribute the energies known as the cerebralspinal fluid all through the body in a steady flow, including the brain which is important to the human evolving. And then when these flows are flowing nicely the human race will be a race of peace and love. That's when sex changes and is no longer crude but is a form of worship and love.
When two bodies are flowing with bliss energy together, and both bodies are in synch and both bodies are at one and both bodies feel good, then they are making love and miraculous things happen. The mind opens to the universe, they expand and expand and expand and they learn who they really are and they soar among the stars, even as their bodies are entwined on the earth plane. This is the gift of the gods. It is the next step beyond sex. The way sex works now, the one who is most turned on seduces or ravishes the other who goes along with it, ignoring the chakras. One of them cums but usually not the other one and the other one is confused about that, perhaps resentful, becoming embittered over time. Sex aborts the whole process and diminishes love.
My life journey has me focusing on massage. I took to it naturally. Then I went to school. But the school doesn't have the right knowledge either. Enlightened spiritual massage, if you know what you're doing, is the best way to link up the earth energy with the sky energy. We need to connect the ascending earth energy with the descending sky energy. The end product is bliss and love. Many people are NOT getting the bliss and love from the crude sex act, only the one who is pressing it another person is getting it. Temprarily. But it's not lasting. We have to get over the crude selfishness of the animal nature we carry in our genes. Respectful caring massage is the best way to do this, in my estimation. I am receiving revelation after revelation after revelation about this. And finally I am overcoming my fear to say it out loud. Fear is deeply imbedded over this issue. There are souls who are so turned off but they can't speak it out loud.
There will be a loud clamor of resistance and rebellion, over this suggestion, I am sure. And yet, those who rebel do not hear the message. It is not the end of sex that is suggested, it is the end of small-minded sex that is selfish, that has not matured yet out of ancient animal creature habits. They press sex on others because they have not been educated in the higher form of lovemaking. Ending the crudity of sex is focused mostly on men, but this includes women too because women have been men before, and men have been women before. Ending low-grade sex will require some re-training but it is the beginning of learning about love and the gifts that the human body is capable of receiving. A loving massage by people who are more or less on the same wave length would be nice, but perhaps not realistic. Who do you know who is ready for this? Perhaps those with some spiritual understanding, but my goal is to have loving, enlightened massage exchanges who agree to practice the "don't focus on cumming" rule.
This will allow the raising of the powerful earth energy up through the WHOLE body to connect with the descending energy coming down through the crown of the head. We have to reach the crown to open the crown. This is the beginning of the science of connecting heaven and earth. It will require practice but it WILL lead to clarity, to healing, and to fabulous blissful experiences. It is the beginning of flowing the fires of life instead of blocking them as humankind has done for thousands of years. It will clear the debris of accumulated trauma of every kind. Craniosacral massage is the closest thing we have to it, but the kundalini energy connection is missing. Bringing the earth energies all the way up to the crown of the head is necessary, and to do this we must not stop at the groin level to release it by cumming. This will take some serious re-training, since we all are so obsessed with the orgasm. The orgasm energy is needed up higher than groin level. The orgasm is the only goal we have right now to give us a semblance of bliss. But there is a greater future ahead if only we know. We must be re-trained. We must break the habit that is holding the whole human race back, spell-bound, trapped and recycling such low vibrations. We must, in order to get to the abundance of clear vision and thinking, and the bliss of constant love. (Journaled 1/20/15)