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7/4/22 - Where is your attention?

To tell people to apply love to something is premature. There is a step before this. First teach them to pay attention. Where is your attention? Teach them to pay attention to themselves first. To “pay” attention, you first have to dig down into your pants pocket or purse to find your wallet, or the money which you will use to pay. It is necessary, if you are going to “pay" for something. If you are going to "pay" attention to something, you have to dig down inside your Self, your mind, body or feelings or somewhere inside you, to find the reserves. Otherwise, how can you "pay" attention? Where is your attention? Where is the money you are going to pay to someone? Or the attention you are going to pay to someone else? Do you have any love to give to someone else? Do you have any love built up in you to draw upon? A reserve? First you have to generate the love within yourself so you have a reserve of it give to someone else. It is meaningless to tell someone to apply love to something if they don’t know what love is or where to find it or how to generate it. What is love? Where is your attention? You are paying with your attention.

This little practice of finding out where your attention is, is being overlooked. Find out where your attention is. The teacher says in school, "Pay attention! Where is your mind?" Stop letting your attention wander off, helter-skelter. Stop! Pay attention! That is the value of meditation.

7/2/22 - Releasing the seeking

For a long time I felt that my personal mission was to hold the center on the feminine, the divine feminine. It has been a lifelong search, being feminine, and not understanding why I was so disempowered and unable to make decisions. I relied on men to make decisions for me. But over the years of mindful meditation and practicing inner disciplines, there has been a gradual dawning of clarity.

In the upper realms there is no masculine or feminine. It is simply divine. The higher we go, the closer to oneness we come, and the less separation we feel from others. Love becomes natural, universal, not personal. It feels feminine, but it is not feminine as much as it is identifying with glory, exalting, beyond human. This awareness is a blending with the divine and the holy. It is natural, not supernatural. It is comparable to innocence. There is no separation between you and the Oneness. The Oneness is family. You are the light. You are the glory. You are the peace and the perfection and the allness that lives in forms. You are to hold the center.

The Ascended Master Djwal Khul told me to hold myself in the center of the light. I had been shuffling through the women, trying to find the ones who best resonate with me because I felt I needed women friends who would understand me. "That is fool-hearty", he said. "There is no one who resonates with you because you are unique, one of a kind. It is your consciousness of yourself that is unique. You can never become the consciousness of another person, or another being, but you can click with their oneness. You recognize their oneness. Your uniqueness can click into their uniqueness and you can resonate with their oneness because you and they are part of the oneness, the wholeness. But if you are seeking to resonate with someone who is trying to find themselves, as you are trying to find yourself, it is foolish. You will bog yourself down. It becomes personal," DK explained, and continued.

"There are parts of them that you will NOT resonate with, and it will cause you to question yourself and them. This is a bog-down. Give up trying to find the perfect mate. Women are no different than men, they just come in softer packages due to the issues you have had sublimating yourself to immature men in this darkened world. You are lifting yourself out of that mud that was clinging to you. You have separated from it. You are brushing yourself off. You are breathing free of it. But you are still aware that it is a mud-clinging creature. You are trying to find the divine in that mud-clinging creature and you keep trying. You keep questioning 'Where is it?' You do not want to give up, but that is exactly what you must do - give up trying. Instead, focus on the glory of God that is within you and that is waiting for you to recognize it within you. Stop trying to resonate with faulty human beings and focus your virtuous thought upon God within. Feel the God within. You are the body resonating with the God within. You feel the I Am within and you are all powerful. But when you allow your thoughts to turn away from the God within and try to capture or figure out the other person, you lose that connection within.

"You are here to be a pillar of light. You have grounded yourself. You have built up a column of light by your actions, thoughts and intentions. You have spoken it out loud for others to hear. Do not be pulled separately. Remember that you are building a column of light here and it is within you. Not outside you. It is within you as your consciousness. Be aware. Be alert. Be conscious of the light within you. You do not need to name me. You do not need to assign authorship to your articles. You do not need to assign your own name to the articles. Just present the message. You have done well to present the message. You are receiving feedback. Yes, the women provide you excellent, clear-eyed resonance to your seeking. Do not try to conform to them or judge them as better than you or lower than you. Do not even judge them as different than you. Recognize instead, the clarity that comes to you. It is an excellent connect. Excellent indeed. It is worthy of all of your attempts to find the divine feminine.

"The divine feminine that you are seeking is in you. Do not look for it elsewhere. Do not try to teach it to others. The divine feminine is you holding the pillar of this knowledge within you. You are publicizing it now. You are radiating it now. You are letting others know. It is your mission. You wanted to do this. You struggled to arrive here. Now you are continuing to shine the light. You will receive those who recognize your light. There will be others. Hold the light. Do not let the light stray. The light is a beacon light, like a lighthouse beacon to lost ships at sea. It is the light that gives them a focus, a place to connect to, a thought to connect to. A feeling to connect to. It is a rightness that they seek. It is a resonance that they seek. The beings in this world tend to lose themselves. Even lightworkers tend to go adrift and forget how to find the resonance.

"When you are lost and there is a confusion confronting you, do this little trick: turn around slowly, as if you are a compass seeking north. Turn slowly through the thoughts that you pick up, the resonances that you pick up as you slowly turn. Turn and allow various thoughts to strike you. Notice them. Is this the way? Keep turning and feeling for the right way. You are a compass seeking the right direction. Walk towards the rightness feeling. There will be a thought attached to it. There is a direction here and a different way to approach or deal with the current situation. Perhaps it is merely to walk away. Perhaps it is to walk towards. Perhaps it is to shift slightly in one direction or another. Feel your way as you shift focus. "

7/1/22 Aligning your four lower bodies

The perfect alignment of the four lower bodies (emotional, mental, etheric and physical) requires emotional stability, mental alertness, etheric purity and physical vitality. You can measure your own vehicles by the level of stress that appears in your life. Stress is often caused by your higher self trying to stimulate some lethargic energies in one or another part of your vehicles, either the physical body, the etheric body (energy body), the emotional body or mental body. Visualize the three invisible vehicles surrounding your physical body in the form of ovoids. They should fit perfectly one within the other. The distention of one vehicle and the contraction of another, causes an instability. They are out of alignment. They are not linking up well. The paths over which the light (information) flows is not connecting well. Your higher self is attempting to get through the conduits or channels. It is trying to bring your four lower bodies into a good open connection so the life energy can flow down through these four levels. When we speak of light, we are speaking of spiritual information. When you feel nervous ticks, tension or stress, take time to go into meditation. Sit in silence and do the following:

First, visualize a picture of your etheric body as the first invisible ovoid that surrounds your physical form. It is your energy body. Your etheric body gathers energy from a multitude of sources, from the purity of your higher God self, and the impure from the steady stream of outside sources. Your etheric body provides your physical body with vitality but it comes through the network of meridians, chakras and nadis.

Secondly, visualize your emotional body as a larger invisible bubble of energy that surrounds the first invisible ovoid. The emotional body interpenetrates the etheric ovid and every physical nerve, muscle and cell of your physical vehicle, but is a higher vibrating dimension. It is pulled downward by magnetism to your physical world of form. You attract it. Your conscious attention to an emotion determines the quality of what you are feeling. If you are happy, your invisible bubble of emotions expands. If you are depressed, it becomes smaller and thinner. Your higher God self will try to stimulate it. This is when you will feel unusually stressed or agitated. Your body is trying to balance your four lower bodies so they are all equal and open one to another so the flow of information can get through.

Thirdly, visualize your mental body as the third invisible bubble of energy that surrounds you. It, too, interpenetrates every nerve, muscle and cell of your physical body, filtering through your emotions and your etheric vehicle to reach your physicality. If your thinking is not in harmony with the good of the whole, your higher self will try to correct it by stimulating the flow of light energy, producing a momentary agitation. If you are unaware or insensitive to your inner feelings, you will feel it as stress. Be aware that this is an attempt to correct your thinking. It is not wrong, it is an alert to make a correction. Your God self is trying to correct you. This is done from a higher source or dimension. Those who practice meditation and listen to their own silence, recognize an out-of-balance sensation and correct by inner means. Visualize your mental body as an ovoid of perfect harmony surrounding you. See them all in equal balance with the other ovoids.

Your higher God self is trying to stimulate some lethargic sheath and cause it to expand or diminish, whatever vehicle it is that is out of balance. Visualize these vehicles around yourself in the form of oval-shaped invisible bubbles. They should fit perfectly one within the other. The distention of one vehicle and the contraction of another causes irritability, energy-wise, resulting in nervousness, agitation, particularly during times of stress.

6/26/22 On cutting negative cords

If you are feeling overwhelmed by something you don't know what to do about, or don't know the source, it may be worth taking up a practice that very few people know about: cutting cords. An angry or embittered person who is casting blame can become a major source of what is referred to as a demonic attack. The person initiating the anger may feel he was wronged and recycle his anger in a continuous outpouring. The anger then picks up speed and it turns into an attack that most people are not clued into, and don't understand. The target of the attack however, without understanding, starts accumulating this negative energy on an etheric level and he goes from feeling slightly bad, to worse and then very much worse and finally gets sick and feverish.

The etheric body is a network of invisible lines of energy, meridians, vortexes and chakras that run through physical body unbeknownst to most people. Cutting cords is a term used in the esoteric field of energy healing. I suggest adopting a daily practice of sitting in prayerful silence. Let me guide you a little here. I recommend choosing a private space for yourself in your home that is conducive for this, to use as a sacred space. It's OK for others to walk through it during the day, but when it's time for you to use it for 30 minutes or an hour, it will have special meaning for you. Then you can close the door on the outside world and make it private for your use alone. Select some soothing objects to furnish it with that make you feel, not just comfortable and relaxed, but transcendental and other-worldly. Not religious, but holy. Become holy in your space. When it's time, sit in a comfortable way, and focus on relaxing every part of your body.

It could be a lying down position as an alternative to sitting. Become very still. Stop moving your body and focus on stopping your mind. If it doesn't stop, it's OK, just have that as an intention and you will eventually master stopping your mind. Don't frustrate yourself over it. Continue. Love yourself. That's the intention, to welcome and embrace yourself as a beautiful, dignified holy person, for you are that. Your purpose is to bring a sense of holiness to your body's tissues. Concentrate on creating a mental picture of one organ at a time. Start with your heart muscle. You may have to google for pictures of your heart to know how to picture it. Imagine your heart muscle with a glowing light emanating from it, a warm glow, kind of glistening, with sparks flying through it. Use your own imagination. But picture it as soothing, caring and warming. Focus on creating a feeling of harmony and warmth within yourself, and especially in your heart. This is something people don't do naturally. You have to work at it. It is a higher form of inner meditation. A cleansing and a purification.

Imagine your Father God or your Mother God, however you choose to see them, as a bright dazzling sun above your head. A conscious sun beaming purity down into your heart. People speak about the "higher self" often these days, but it's really the inner self, the inner body tissues. By focusing attention on the physical heart with loving intention, you are bringing your God, your "higher self" down into your physical inner body where it has always been. Always been. It has been forgotten and neglected. Resurrect the feeling of holiness in your heart muscle. And then do the same thing for the blood flowing through the heart, imagine it. And visualize the tissues. I won't name each organ but do the work. Visualize the organs and glands. The glands are significant. They produce hormones. They will produce either anxiety hormones or peaceful, calm hormones. Picture them in glowing, loving, holy light. Resurrect this holy light in each organ of the body.

This is a rare science, not many would think to do it. Most people are too busy and distracted by the outer world. But if you can take the time sit for 30 minutes to an hour focusing light and warm love into your inner organs you will build a resistance to the negatives that are making you ill. You should not focus on the suspected culprit of the attack, or on anyone else, only focus on yourself, focus on the light, warmth, purity and love into YOURSELF. This is a form of cutting cords.

You're repelling the dark, negative energies that are causing you so much pain, and cutting them off from entering into your energy field. Not many people are protecting their energy field, their aura, so this is what I'm teaching you to do. It's like doing your own exorcism. But you have to NOT think of the suspected source. Think only of yourself, and the beautiful qualities that you have forgotten about. Your own beauty, your own spirituality, your own mind, your own refinement, sacredness, purity, holiness. You are linking up with your higher self, instead of the person you think is doing this to you. That's the cord that needs to be cut off and you do this by repelling it with holy light. You're linking up to your Father-Mother God from which you descended. It is above you, like a sun shining, on a higher frequency plane. By focusing in this way you are opening a conscious focused link with your attention to it, your divine Presence, and connecting it with your physical body tissues. Your physical body needs cleansing. It has been accumulating energies that make you feel bad. They need to be cleaned out, and it's done by focused concentration, or meditation, on your body itself AND the sunlight of your Father-Mother God overhead. Earth energies from other people (crap) collect in your tissues and if they are not purified on a regular basis. Daily is best, but some people do it twice or three times a day if there is a serious issue going on in their lives.

Most people are not taught this in such practical terms, but people get sick if they don't do something to keep themselves energetically cleansed. I've been doing it for years, alone, by myself. I don't have a group. I do my own studies and reading about it. It has become second nature to me. My body becomes sluggish and has its ups and downs, but I've learned to do this often and life becomes easier and better all the time with practice. By doing this the etheric body, which is the soul, becomes more pure over time. And you begin to glow and radiate. People notice it. You might notice it in other people. When you walk into a monastery or place where people practice these purification techniques, you can feel the peace as soon as you walk in. It's quite uncanny. I remember once visiting a temple in Canada with my older sister. I never felt anything like it before or since. It was Soooo pure. Many years of practice by the people who lived there. I have done it at home by myself, and you can begin at any time.

Talk the words of love and goodness - silently or out loud - into your heart, lungs, liver, spleen, stomach, intestines, wherever there is a feeling of agitation, pain or ache or not right feeling. Visualize the organ or gland, what it looks like. A picture is worth a thousand words. Talk the words into the picture in your mind of the organ. Be in love with your inner body. Google pictures of your anatomy to get a clear understanding of what each gland or organ looks like. Your spiritual self is using this body as a vehicle, so you want to keep it clean, like dusting furniture. It collects debris from the outer world of people and their negative emotions, and your own reactions and emotions which create dust. Your feelings and sensations tell you when it's time to clean house because you don't feel good. Something's wrong. There are many, many people practicing meditation these days. This is only one way of doing it. You don't need to know where negative energy comes from. It's in the air itself. Don't focus on the source. Focus on love, light, healing and Father-Mother God as a sun over your head. You have an individual Father-Mother God that shines over you, from which you descended. Everyone has an individual Father-Mother God which is uniquely their own identity. Not many know this. It is through the individual Father-Mother God that everyone is connected to the supreme Father-Mother God, the one creator of all. Jesus referred often to his Father in heaven, meaning his individual Father, when he said, "I do not do the work, my Father in heaven does the work."

This is how you start building a bubble of light like a seal of protection around you. You develop a thick "skin" that is invisible around you. You start repelling the negative energies, even from one as close to you as your son. When you build light into your inner body tissues, it's your BODY that starts to feel better. It says "thank you!" to you. You say "I feel better today" but it's the body that is feeling better. A lot of people don't realize that the cells in their body are conscious and they feel bad when they are mistreated or ignored and unacknowledged. When they feel bad YOU feel bad. You reside in your body so naturally you think it's YOU feeling bad, but it's the body tissues. And they can be cleansed under your supervision and determination.

By focusing love and light into them, and holding that light for one or two or three minutes at a time - just holding that love as a focus in the heart or stomach - will make a world of difference. You will be cleansing the negative energies out of them that you didn't even know were there, accumulating and building up like an illness or infection. The body cells eventually wear down and get sick. Daily application would be a terrific routine to adopt and follow. The more you do this on a regular basis, the more you will notice a lightening effect and begin repelling the negative energies. Picture different parts of your body in rotation, from the feet upward. The feet are where you want to ground into Mother Earth.

Start with your feet, calves of legs, knees, thighs, pelvis, lower back, navel, diaphragm, heart, throat, lower half of head, upper half of head, and above the head picture a smaller sun about 6 inches above the head. This is the soul chakra. And notice your breathing. Inhale deep, long slow breaths, and exhale, deep long, slow breaths, but stay in comfortable rhythm so you feel good with it.

I recommend keeping this a silent practice. Consider it sacred. Because when you tell someone what you're doing, their opinion matters in the energetic field of thought. Human thought is ALWAYS less than pure and has an influence on your energy field. It reverberates and bounces back to you. Sacred practices should be kept sacred.

6/24/22 - Diagram of the seven levels of the aura

LEVEL 1 - ETHERIC BODY. The first layer shown in the picture outlining the physical body is the etheric body. It is made of physical substance, though invisible, and considered part of the physical realm until the body dies. Then it moves on. It is the divine ego which lives through the body. The body is its vehicle in this dimension. The divine ego takes on the substance of every dimension it lives in. It interpenetrates the physical and is the life force of the body. The etheric body has not yet been identified as the soul, but man will eventually come to recognize it as the divine ego. When the body dies the etheric ego withdraws and can be seen as the etheric double. It looks just like the physical body at death, but soon changes its appearance as it moves into the astral plane. It is the permanent ego which never dies. It evolves through sentient experiences, gaining mastery over the mind and emotions, following its divine calling.

LEVEL 2 - EMOTIONAL BODY. The emotional body is on a higher dimension and interpenetrates the physical dimension. We experience emotions every day but we don't think of them as being on a different dimensional level, yet they are. It is also called the astral body. Our minds (the divine ego) builds a form out of astral substance whenever it is embodied in a physical world. The astral world is invisible to the physical senses because each dimension is a separate vibrational field. Only clairvoyants or psychics can see it, which is why our emotions can be so convoluting and confusing. We engage with the astral world all day long. Our emotions come from there. We would not be alive if we did not have emotions. It is part of our life force. When we sleep, the divine ego (the conscious mind) moves into the astral dimension. The dreams we bring back with us upon waking are the experiences we had in that dimension. Dreams can be better remembered, controlled and changed through mindful techniques and meditation.

LEVEL 3 - MENTAL BODY. Often called the lower mental. It's on a higher dimensional level than the astral level, and interpenetrates all levels below it, the physical, etheric and astral. The divine ego (our conscious mind) is evolving whenever we are in form. A young soul just beginning a human life after graduating from animal life, experiences through its emotions first, more than its mind. After lifetimes as a human and after it gains some level of mastery over its emotions, its mental abilities begin to activate. Intelligence becomes more a part of its every day life. It can think ahead, plan and connect cause and effect.

LEVEL 4 - SPIRITUAL BODY, sometimes called the higher mental. It exists on another dimension and interpenetrates all levels below it. The lower mental deals with the solid structure of the physical material world, but through experience and evolution, the soul evolves a higher perception and becomes more adept at utilizing language, memory, abstract thinking and entertains concepts beyond his world of form. Religious concepts come into play.

LEVEL 5 - THE LIGHT BODY. Also known as the Christ body. The word "christ" is not restricted to the one historical figure, Jesus. The Christ body is 100% pure crystal light and cannot be contaminated by human error. No evil can touch it. The word "christ" comes from Greek and shares the same root as the word "crystal". There is a growing belief that the word "christ" was a title given to one who reaches transparency of mind and therefore allows the divine presence to flow through it into outer physical expression.

LEVEL 6 - THE CAUSAL BODY. Also 100% pure and cannot be contaminated by human error. It is non-physical light consisting of seven rays or purities, called the seven virtues of God. These qualities are commonly summed up as: will power, intelligence, love, purity, truth, peace and freedom.. There are many interpretations of the seven qualities, which are linked to the seven chakras, seven colors, seven rays, seven tones, seven heavens - all of which are facets of the one diamond of divine immortal life.

LEVEL 7 - THE MONAD. The individual God-self, the father referred to by Jesus. Each individual has his own father God surrounding him as an individual bubble of 100% pure divine love and light. Each individual's father-God is a divine cell in the body of the one God from which all creation flows. The soul is an evolving child of his own father God.

6/24/22 - About orbs

I ran across a journal from 2014 which is interesting. I asked about orbs because I had my camera out last night and got many pictures of orbs. I got my pen and paper out to write them down to see if I could get some answers. What are they? I asked my higher self and legions of light, spirit, to please tell more about them. Some people think they are UFOs, others think they are angels. Some are dark, some are light, some are figures with arms and legs. What are the figures? From where do they come? From higher vibrating dimensions? Are they coming to Earth now or have they been here all along and the veil is thinning so we now see them? It is not a matter of “them” vs. “us”, is it?

A: It is a blending of dimensions. Other dimensions that are not sentient but spirit and consciousness.

Q: Are they here in daytime too? I suspect they are but due to the light the camera doesn’t pick them up like it does at night against the blackness. Are the bright sparks I see with my naked eye at the moment the camera flashes, are these the bright figures? They don’t always register on the camera.

A: It’s a dimensional blend. We are unascended beings, and they are ascended beings, meaning they are joined and at one with their God-self, God-Presence. We are restricted to operating in a form built of misqualified energy, shadow energy, disturbed energy, and that is what we call “sentient”. We have distorted the elements in our bodies with our disturbing thoughts and built disturbing forms, including the form of war and other pain-induced systems. It is our task to clean up our selves, our minds, our bodies and our feelings. Then we will raise the vibrations of our bodies and we can ascend to become one with our Father-Mother God, our Holy Presence. No more distortions. The orbs are blendings, glimpses into higher dimensions where vibrations are faster and speeded up. We see them, or rather the camera sees them, when we draw them to us by our vibrations. They are drawn to us like a man is drawn to a curiosity, or a moth to a flame. When I go out on a night where I am merely curious, I don’t get pictures of orbs. But when I am excited I often do get pictures, but I can’t “will” myself to be excited. It seems to be a spiritual state that I have no control over. The orbs are drawn to my high vibration and last night it was Doug’s high and peaceful vibration. At least that is my feeling. There were a lot of orbs in the pictures last night. Even more tonight. (Journaled 12/28/14)

6/22/22 - The astral body, continued, part 3

Each realm provides bodies made from atoms and electrons of that particular world. But these are only suits of clothing worn by the divine Ego, the consciousness which is YOU. You are formless, because a divine ego is pure consciousness. It is uncorrupted in your original state since you are one with source, an eternal immortal light. If you cannot grasp this, don’t worry about it. Stay within your comfort zone. Let your comfort be your guiding light. If you remain in your comfort zone you are holding your seven inter-dimensions together within your body. If you feel out of joint, stop and center your attention on comfort or warm love. Look to the light of the sun to anchor yourself to. Breathe in the sun, breathe in the earth. Form a connection between sun and earth, these natural forces. Find stability, comfort and peace within. Do not be pulled into distraction by outside forces or other people. It is not your role to “save” anybody unless you are clear-headed and know it is yours to do. The divine ego is here to work on its own refinement and understanding while living in a temporary earth embodiment. It does so to be able to walk this dimension, this world, this reality.

Each dimension needs a body made from that dimension. We have an astral body, an etheric body, a mental body and a spiritual body surrounding our physical body. Here in the physical world we have, first of all, a physical body. It is our primary focus to take care of it and learn the nature of this physical world and how to work with it, but it's not the ONLY body we have. The creator's plan is to bring the physical world into contact with the other six dimensions so that all may flow together smoothly and efficiently, thus bringing the soul to enlightenment. Enlightenment is the highest purity possible for human beings to experience while remaining in physical form. That is why we are here, to become perfect stewards of our world of physicality. We are here to tend our Self first, using our free will choices to make finer decisions than we did in the past. We are here to learn how to be sovereign, happy and free while working in cooperation with every other sovereign, happy and free being. That is the divine plan. It is our responsibility to take care of our Self first. If we try to bring our family and friends along with us, we become distracted, and we distract them from their OWN responsibility of becoming sovereign.

Right now we are not living in a perfect world. We are here to create the perfect world within our Self. To bring about refinement in our own lives, with truth, integrity, compassion, love, kindness to others while working on ourselves. The distraction of trying to change others, or to judge, persecute or blame others is keeping us from doing our own work on ourselves. We each have something precious to contribute. Talents unbeknownst to us yet because they are covered over by wrong attitudes. We will discover more latent talents as we focus on betterment for our own lives. Then we can sense our inner worlds better and make adjustments sooner before they become painful and diseased. We cannot "save" others. Each must sense their own right or wrong from within themselves. To develop our inner senses, we need to spend time alone in silence. It is important to be separate from each other for awhile during the day, to be able to experience what our inner bodies are communicating to us. And then, when we come back together again, we are better able to share the fun and the joy that physical life can bring. Duality adventures can’t be experienced in heaven because in heaven we don't have physical bodies. We are transparent. We know each other so well, there is nothing to obstruct us or kick against or argue with. We can't offer differences in heaven because we understand each other and respect each other. There is love in heaven. There we can go where we want to go without resistance, we go where we are most comfortable. That's why embodiment on earth is such a precious gift. There are long lines queuing up waiting to be born on earth.

After death, in the beginning stages of waking up in the astral world, the astral body is a mere blob of protoplasm. For one who has not yet known his astral body or managed his invisible vehicles, he will be somewhat confused until mentors show him the way. As a man reaches a higher level of intellectual culture or spiritual growth, the appearance of the astral body shows definition of outline and more luminosity. The organization of the astral body is developed to more perfection by cultivation of the higher mind through more refined thoughts and intellect, and secondly by purification (betterment) of the physical body through cleaner diet, cleaner thoughts, higher emotions, more refined words and through deeds and acts of service to others. The astral body becomes sharper and clearer through such physical refinement because it is the matrix in which the physical moves. It responds to thought impressions and impulses from the world of man. The astral world is continually changing shapes and thought forms. They emerge and disappear to clairvoyants, those people who are gifted with psychic sight. Noble thoughts thrill astral matter. Your astral body responds to gross thought and shrivels from gross evil, but it thrills to noble thought. Here is the reason why Tantric teachings have a wonderful sexual slant. By adding love, adoration, worship and reverence to your lovemaking, your astral body is excited. Your own higher self is connecting to your physical body by your higher thoughts, adding joy to your experience. Your atoms, cells and tissues become a’wash with ecstasy. It thrills in answer to every loving, kind, elevated, spiritual thought that strikes it, whether that thought comes from the other person you are with or from yourself.

After death, one who has mastered his astral body can go visit a friend at a distance and if they don’t have sight to see, he may materialize by drawing particles from the surrounding atmosphere to become visible. Sometimes a person without sight will become clairvoyant to astral vibrations, due to a nervous or strung-out condition. After death it is common for an etheric double to be seen near the body. After the etheric double is shaken off - for it belongs to the material plane - the consciousness then enters the astral plane. During life the sub-levels of higher etheric and lower etheric are intermixed. But after death they rearrange themselves in order of density. They assume a stratified condition which appears like layers of shells. The densest goes to the outside and the more refined and sensitive recedes to the inside. Here is the importance of purifying ones physical body while in life. Purifying the physical body actually purifies the etheric and astral body. The astral body cannot roam the astral world at will, if the outer form is made of the denser material, because the astral world has seven sub-planes and the man is confined to the density of his exterior shell. There he is subjected to the vibrations of that lower level. He might feel he doesn't deserve this for his inner life is nobler. But his exterior shell is sending out the grosser vibrations and keeping him at tht level. Thus the need to express nobler thoughts in the outer environment in which you reside.

As the outer covering disintegrates he rises to the next sub-plane. When a man passes to the next sub-level he comes into contact with vibrations of the higher level. It seems to him that he is in a different region, but each sub-plane corresponds to the vibrations that the man is sending out. If gross matter remains but is atrophied from dis-use, he will be held only a short time on lower levels and sleep peacefully through it. His consciousness does not seek expression through it.

There is a critical point between sub-planes where the least increment will move a man’s consciousness to jump a sub-plane, as ice will change to water at a certain temperature. A point of refinement transforms it from sub-plane to sub-plane. Degrees of delicacy and purification of the astral body is done by physical and mental processes on the earth plane. This is important knowledge for the new astral body that will be formed in the next incarnation. Evil thought forms cannot exist in the heaven realms because the astral plane is emotion, and emotion cannot exist in the land of the Gods. Heavenly matter cannot answer to the coarse vibrations of evil passions and desires. Evil is self-oriented and while a man may not use evil passions in his present earth life, latent germs or tendencies can manifest in the next incarnation when they find an outlet in the form of corresponding vibration. These latent germs he takes with him and in the next incarnation he throws them outward and draws to himself similar material from the astral world to form his next astral body for his next physical incarnation. In every physical incarnation his physical atoms float in the astral matrix. Thus the importance to bring evil seeds to the surface and work at dissolving them with noble thoughts. If evil thoughts continue to be buried, the seeds become latent and form part of the new astral body yet to come.

Purify the present astral body (emotional body) to the utmost to ensure future progress. Our lives past and future are linked together. We have but one life. What we call lives are really only days. We never begin a new life with a clean slate. We begin a new chapter to further develop the old plot. We cannot get rid of karmic liabilities by death. It carries forward into the new day. The life of man is continuously linked together, not isolated. The processes of purification are also continuous and must be carried on successively in each new earth life. Sometime or other each will grow weary of the sensations of the lower nature and being subject to the animal and the tyranny of the senses, sensuality, sexuality, depravity, pornography. Then he will no longer consent to submit to them. He will decide that the bonds of his captivity shall be broken. The beginning of the shattering of the fetters is when a man determines to make the lower nature the servant of the higher, and here on the plane of physical consciousness he will begin building the higher bodies which are obscured to his awareness and attention by the animal nature within him. (End)

(Much of this information comes from the book "The Astral Body" by Annie Besant, a famous clairvoyant who lived from 1847-1933.)

6/21/22 - The astral body, continued, part 2

The physical body is composed of seven sub-levels, four which are seen by the naked eye, and three which are not seen. The four which are seen are earth, air, fire and water. The three not seen are called etheric 1 which is too subtle for eyes to perceive, etheric 2 which is even more subtle, and etheric 3 which is the highest etheric level of all. Beyond etheric-3 physical matter becomes astral matter, due to the speeding up of the electrons that whiz around the center of the atom. Everything and all matter is made of subatomic particles called electrons. The ascended master instructions speak of this in depth. To become visible, the electrons slow down, and to become invisible the electrons speed up and swirl faster. Speeding up puts them further apart from each other and makes them invisible, just as the whirling blades of a fan become invisible. The speeding up and slowing down of electrons is under the direct control of the resident ego or soul.

As the lower level of physical electrons speed up, they enter the astral level. As the astral level electrons speed up, they move into higher levels of the astral plane. There are seven sub-levels of astral, so when the astral electrons reach the highest level, they become the mental level - the lowest and slowest level of mental. As a person increases his vibrations and/or frequency, he moves his body and consciousness into more harmony. and he becomes more luminous. Increasing your frequency and vibration is done consciously, with intention and practice in meditation and various other betterment routines. Consciousness increases as the ability to hold awareness at that level. He experiences a smoother, more peaceful life. He is happier, calmer, more loving or truthful. He allows for more universal harmony and rightness to influence him. You are 100% pure God consciousness but being earth-born in dense matter, you are not aware. You were born into what is called "the veil". As a consciousness, you are somewhere on the ladder of evolving your true self-realization. You are growing in awareness through experiences, both good and bad. They lead you toward understanding and eventually better ways of applying your life. You learn to work your way through dense layers of grossness instead of repressing them or running away from them. You follow the urge to get clarity and understanding and this takes you sometimes into the mouth of the roaring lion. You may even be eaten, but you are refining your understanding and ridding yourself of fear. You are the divine monad which is pure, seeking to clear itself of errors, which create obstructions and thick walls around your purity, and keep you from knowing yourself as you truly are. The Monad is a term used for the God-self.

Chakras are vortexes of pure energy located in the astral body. Hair-thin streams of light radiate out from these vortexes called 'nadis", and go to every part of the physical body. They carry pure consciousness mixed with error energy to every part of the body, so you receive both the good and pure and the bad and ugly energy. Nadis deliver this two-fold energy to the physical nerves and blood, so that this energy goes everywhere in the body. The dense physical body can receive both negtive energy and positive clarity consciousness. Whichever one you "feed" or respond to, your body responds to. You suffer ill health or good health. It all depends on what you are responding to in your daily life. Your nerves, heart, liver and lungs tell you the story. The nadis feed first into the meridians and then into the nerves of the physical body. Through the stepping down of the 100% pure God consciousness into the physical body, the body is nourished and supported by the vital fires of life. But it is important to recognize that, mixed in with the purity of God consciousness, is the trash, junk and absolute evil that we've picked up over the many lives we've lived. This so-called "evil" goes against and thus blocks out, the 100% pure God consciousness that we know ourselves to be in our natural state.

There are seven sub-layers to each dimension, and there are seven major dimensions that can be accessed by a human being during life in form. In the physical form, the nerves are physical, but the meridians are etheric, a higher form of physical. The nadis and chakras are a higher form of physical, called astral. The soul is trying to reach the physical and be in direct contact with the physical so it can manifest in the physical world. But there are obstructions in the way. Each body and person is at a different level of clearing those obstructions away. n. The etheric body, invisible to most people, is called the etheric double. It looks exactly like the physical body, but is composed of the higher etheric substance of the physical world.

It is worth repeating this. The physical body has seven sub-levels made of physical matter. The lowest and densest is that which we can see with our eyes, and feel when we touch and move about in. This substance is the grossest of all the levels above. The highest of the physical is etheric. These are the three levels of etheric called etheric 1, etheric 2 and etheric 3. Conscious realization, such as "aHa!" moments increases the vibration of the body up a notch. This happens when a person makes a betterment or correction in the way he lives, thinks, moves or speaks with another. This moves him into closer alignment with universal laws of love, light and forgiveness.

Each atom and electron is surrounded by these seven sub-levels of the physical. Every molecule, every gland, organ, bone and nerve is surrounded by seven dimensions. You carry the dimensions with you. You are a multi-dimensional being on your way to realizing this. Every particle of physical matter floats in the higher plane of etheric matter. Each etheric particle floats in the higher planes of astral matter. Each astral particle floats in the higher planes of mental matter. And each mental particle floats in the higher planes of spiritual matter. Each successively higher plane is thinner and the subatomic particles spread further apart than the plane below it. The spiritual plane, in turn, floats in the light body known which religion has named the "Christ" body. The light body is the immaculate concept for you, the intended God being in form, working through the evolutionary process of becoming a God. Or Goddess. The male term here is generalized and refers also to females.

And then there are two more "bodies" that surround the particles of the Christ body: (1) the causal body which is composed of the seven rays of God qualities and, (2) the I Am Presence which is referred to as the monad or father in heaven.

The immaculate concept is a divine pattern of light which cannot be altered or modified. It can only be filled in, as a child fills in a black and white drawing in a coloring book with colors. The immaculate concept is what draws the electrons from the Monad into shape and form. The pattern is embedded in the electrons of your seven bodies as a homing device, calling you home and whispering your name. However, your four lower bodies have accumulations of mistakes and wrong beliefs that prevent you from hearing the call so the light doesn't get through to your physical brain and body tissues. The light is who you are, but you are temporarily living in a densely packed-down (crunched) animal form made of contaminants and light mixed together. The dense earth matter of your body may not have experienced the divine but you DO have flashes from time to time.

As we journey from infant into childhood and adulthood we become programmed to the outer world which fixates only on material forms. Our animal bodies learn to follow our predecessors' rules. Yet we manage to have our own individual experiences outside the box, so to speak. And through trial and error we learn secretly what works for us and what doesn't. But we keep it to ourselves. We have a secret life growing inside of us. An awareness that is sacred. The creator's plan is to have us evolve ourselves on our own, and not to follow the rules laid down by others. The urge to find ourself is a strong motivating force that drives us onward, seeking for something better. What drives us? We don't know. We just keep looking for that which warms our heart and feels right. There is an ideal within that pulls us forward - until we grow tired and give up on this life. Then we return to our natural state and learn our rightful place in the heavens. Then we come back to another reincarnated form with another family to continue following the inner voice, this mysterious inner call.

To repeat some of the afore-mentioned for clearer understanding, we grow towards refinement by choosing to discard that which is NOT-Light, NOT-love, NOT-truth, NOT-good, NOT-clear. That which does not feel good or right to us. Through experiences both good and bad we learn to discern and discriminate. The astral body is made of the substance of the astral world, and is one of the seven planes of our universe. All seven planes are - physical, astral aka emotional, mental, spiritual, light, causal and God aka the Monad. The four lower bodies are - (1) physical, (2) astral aka emotional, (3) mental, and (4) spiritual aka higher mental. These four lower bodies contain accumulated mistakes, errors and contaminants. We refer to them as dark and evil. These contaminants are the result of millions of years of living and dying, living by trial and error, both individually and combined with the planetary consciousness of the race of human.

The HIGHER bodies that surround us as a bubble of light are pure 100% consciousness, without contamination. They are known as (1) the light body aka christ body, (2) the causal body containing the seven rays of God, and (3) the Monad aka the God-self. These "bodies" or layers of light are beyond human contamination. No darkness can touch them. These three dimensions surround us at all times, wherever we go. No matter what we are doing, they are the life, the consciousness that feeds us while we live in the physical world. It is imperative that we learn the words and start talking about them because if we don't, we will continue to live in a dark space of struggle to understand. It is impossible to understand who we are until we take in the truth of who we are, and awaken to the seven levels of consciousness that is our soul. The seven planes of matter, and the chakras, meridians and nadis that are our very life force which allows us to walk, talk and breathe.

As it is reported in the scriptures of the world, "In the beginning was the WORD..." It is by assigning a sound to an idea or a concept that begins intelligent conversation with another. Without talking with each other we remain closed up in our own non-sounding world feeling alone, confused, in the dark, and isolated. If we don't have the right words or if we're afraid to say the words out of fear of retaliation or rejection, we shall remain closed up in a prison of our own making. We begin the purification of dead fear and false terror by talking about it. Movement of energy begins flowing as soon we start telling our secret and sacred stories, our knowledge and beliefs. Try telling someone a secret you've never told anyone before and see the lightness that transforms you. Ascension is an awareness and sensation of expanding consciousness hitting the body's cells and tissues. It happens when we get over ourselves and start loosening up and radiating our knowledge. Self-created fears release blockages. Pure 100% conscious energy starts to flow. It is felt as exuberance, or higher still - ecstasy. Ascension is simply letting the old dark energies go and fade away by releasing them and telling them. The energies of ore purity can then flow as they were meant to flow, and touch the nerves and cells of the human body with light. (Part 3 tomorrow)

(Much of this information comes from the book "The Astral Body" by Annie Besant, a famous clairvoyant who lived from 1847-1933.)

6/20/22 - The astral body, aka the emotional body, part 1

It is important to develop the mental practice of imagining your astral body. It is the first step in connecting to your emotions. Your emotional body is not “in” your body. The astral (emotional body) is a subtle plane, invisible to eyesight. Once you begin to imagine yourself larger than physical, you begin to receive more subtle impressions. You become more sensitive. In essence you are stepping outside of the box of 3D with your awareness which gives you some idea of the astral matrix you swim in. Imagining it will help you to step into it. As you imagine entering into the interstellar spaces between the atoms and molecules that make up your physical body, you enter into the astral plane which is the next dimension higher than the physical. Your imagination is the magic which has been shut down since childhood. After practicing this for a while, you may then begin having lucid night dreams. As you do this, your I Am Presence, called the Monad, is expanding into the astral. The purity of your divine monad, which is in essence your consciousness, passes downward into lower dimensions through first your mental, then down through your astral, then down through your etheric and into your physical body. It must pass through distortions to get to your physical body. Your monad is a perfect blueprint of yourself destined to become a perfect human physical, but the mental body and emotional body is packed with distortions, not complete concepts, not complete ideas. Unresolved trauma picked up from lifetimes past have not been resolved. These are what cause you frustration. They are packed closely in and around you on the etheric, astral and mental level. Your physical body cannot be a perfect vehicle for you to express through until these are purified and cleansed.

You think you are cleaning up your physical body when you are trying to cleanse. But you are actually cleaning up your mental, astral and etheric bodies through your efforts at purifying towards betterment. These bodies are invisible and unknowable to you for you were never told about them. They are the interdimensional space between the physical atoms. What takes place on the etheric, astral and mental level plays out on the physical. It is through the subtle astral body that you receive physical sensations. Without the astral you would not hear, see, smell, taste or feel through skin touch. The astral body is the ocean in which your physical atoms and cells swim like fishes. You hear sound through this ocean within you vibrating on your ears. You see objects and people through this ocean within you as vibration on your eyes. You smell fragrances through this ocean within you as vibration on your nostrils. You taste through vibrations on your tongue. You feel the touch of another through this ocean of vibration hitting your outer skin and the many nerve endings there. You think you are only physical and do not know about the etheric and astral, both on higher dimensional planes from the physical. If the physical world were to disappear, everything would appear the same to you because the astral is the cause of the physical and carries the vibrations of the physical world. When you die and your monad leaves the body vehicle, your astral body remains, looking exactly like your physical. If your body collapsed on the floor, the astral would remain standing along with your etheric. Your etheric is made of physical matter and so it would fade away first, leaving your astral body which is of the astral plane, still remaining. The astral body is what we today call the emotional body.

(This information comes from the book "The Astral Body" by Annie Besant, a famous clairvoyant who lived from 1847-1933. Part 2 tomorrow.)

6/13/22 - The etheric body, aka the light body

Imagine yourself surrounded by a bubble of brilliant white light. Your physical body is also made of light but the light particles have been densely crushed together so it appears to be solid. The human anatomy is a marvelous design that was created to express this purity in dense physical form but there are kinks in the way. The bubble of light that surrounds us is contaminated on the four lower levels, but the three higher levels remain pure and perfect and dazzlingly clean and white.

The three higher levels are always there, wherever we go, whatever we do, however we respond, they are pure perfection. We carry pure perfect light and idealism with us at all times. It is pure conscious light but it’s not getting through the four denser layers. The etheric body, which we cannot see with our physical senses, feeds our physical body with life, vitality and intelligent clarity, but there are clogs in the way. It is time we knew about it so we can begin the cleansing process consciously. And open the pathways of belief and understanding that we are pure consciousness. The etheric body is subtle, sensitive and more knowledgeable than we from the perspective of walking around in heavy, dense physical vehicles with blinders on.

So why don’t we know about the etheric body? First of all, because it has not been part of our education system. Secondly, because there are seven layers to the etheric body and FOUR of them, the four lower bodies, are contaminated with errors and sludge. There is plaque built up in them like the plaque in the arteries of the heart. They block the flow through the subtle nerves, called nadis, and their subtle distribution centers called chakras.

Of the seven layers of light that compose the etheric body, the three higher layers are pure radiant exquisite light, not contaminated by human error. They are what we call our higher self, or spiritual guides, or higher angels, or God self. We walk around with this light intact and a permanent part of our living life force. It is ever available for us to call to it and ask questions and receive answers. But this pure unadulterated light is out there on the outer edge of our bubble of light, and there are blockages in the way. We either don’t ask, or we don’t listen, or we remain blind, deaf, dumb and ignorant.

Let's define the seven levels, often called the seven bodies. The four lower levels are, in order of density: (1) the physical body as the heaviest, (2) the etheric body, (3) the emotional body aka astral body, and (4) the mental body. Each interpenetrates the one below it because they are, in reality, all one body of light. This will be explained in more detail in later chapters. These four lower "bodies" have collected dark energies and need to be cleared out. Techniques are forthcoming.

The remaining three layers are uncontaminated by human mistakes, errors and sludge. They remain on the higher dimensions and therefore compose the outer periphery of our bubble of light. They are (5) the light body known as the Christ, which is a pure crystalline filigree pattern of light that looks like a living tree of light and runs through the physical body. It is also called the Adam Kadmon. (6) The causal body containing the seven rainbow rays of God qualities that were imprinted into our consciousness before we ventured away from our paradise home in heaven. (7) The individualized Monad, known as the Father-Mother God, or I AM Presence, which is our pure Self consciousness.

It is time to learn about the etheric body. We cannot begin to comprehend the fullness of who we are until we become educated. The light that we are will never die. We are eternal. However, the lower human mistakes, errors, confusions and negative memories will pass away in time and be forgotten. They are the crud that blocks the flow of life and light. As we get educated about who we really are as normal, walking, talking, breathing human beings, we clean up our personal lives and begin to enjoy life with many happy benefits, including pure joy and happiness to be alive. We also clean up our neighbors, friends, families, gardens, homes, businesses, our environment in every corner. It is the the practical education about the etheric body that we need. Let us be practical about it and bring this knowledge into livable action. It is the only way to bring ourselves into alignment with who we are. The etheric body is purely physical. It is the body double. It looks just like the physical body. It FEEDS the physical body. We must come to know about it. Knowing about the etheric body is key to increased vitality, clear-mindedness, health, right relationships, more love, empathy, kindness and happiness. We live on one of the densest planets in the universe, if not THE densest, where we are confined to the belief that we are “just physical”. We don’t really believe that, I don't think, but it’s part of the mainstream culture so we pretend to believe it. I don't think we really believe that, do we?

6/11/22 - What is sex anyway?

Sex is just another thing you do with your body. Your body is the vehicle for you to use while in embodiment. You’re actually a non-physical being. But when you’re in a body it’s just another thing to do, like playing tennis or washing your car or cleaning your house or going shopping or painting a picture, or playing the piano. All of these are things you do with your body. You can do them with a partner or alone. Sex is different however than these other things you do, because when you’re doing it with a partner you can soar upward into higher dimensions and into that sacred space called nirvana. That is, if you take the time to learn how. You can go all the way back to source and become one with source again which is the most glorious place in all of existence. And you can do that because when two people resonate together and match vibration by vibration and match up each chakra portal with the other’s chakra portals, the portals open and the power of two bounces back and forth from one to the other.

It’s like playing tennis. You need a partner to bounce balls back and forth. So you need a partner to receive and send energy back and forth. But you’re carrying the energy upward, not staying on the ground floor. That’s part of the training and need for education and practice. Dimension by dimension, step by step you walk up the stairs together to the top of your head, consciously. You bounce the energy back and forth in each dimension. You can’t do this alone in the same way. There are other ways, of course, like solitary prayer and worship to your God alone. But it’s not a physical visceral feeling carrying someone along with you in a sensual way. To resonate the nirvanic experience with another human sentient body you need to send or reflect or bounce or align each chakra portal energy with that same chakra portal of your partner. It is this connection at the root chakra, sacral chakra, solar chakra, diaphragm chakra (if you have both worked with this chakra), heart chakra, thymus chakra, throat chakra, third eye chakra, crown chakra, soul star chakra and your Presence, meaning you’ve learned to stay in the present moment. You can go as far as you like with a partner and experience body sensations that are so elevated that you are not aware of your body any longer. You lose consciousness of your body the higher you go together into bliss or nirvana, for you are joining with the oneness, the wholeness, the all-that-is, which is God. And then you can stay there as long as you are permitted by your higher selves, and then you will be brought back down to earth again.

6/10/22 - Sharing a revelation from 40 years ago

Last night the presence came again, after fifteen months. Fifteen months during which I lost count the number of times I crumbled my writings into a ball and threw them into the wastebasket to stare hopelessly out the window at the ever changing colors in the air around me, oblivious to my frustrated attempts.

How does one explain the splendor of the sun? How does one name that which has no name? Where does one find the temerity - the audacity - to attempt to fit that celestial brilliance into the rigid casing of the English language, where it must conform to human logic? For fifteen months I tried. I have been trying to create a helpful program of instruction to suit the times. There are so many people who want to know about meditation and the long lost powers of a race of gods now disguised in flesh. I could tell them. For fifteen months I have examined my task from every perspective imaginable. I have built it up and I have honed it down so that the simplest minds could understand. I have colored it with the truth that is stranger than fiction and I have filled it out with the meat of the practical mind. I have written it and revised it, again and again and again. And each time I have thrown it away. I have tried to explain the nature of that which cannot be explained. I have tried to fit the immortal into a mortal format, and for the last fifteen months the presence has not come, neither in the day nor in the night as it used to. Its absence seems to say, “Go ahead! Chisel it down to human size if you want but the fires of vision will not support you, nor will the majesty that you once knew visit you during such miniscule efforts!”

Finally I have been forced to admit to that which I once knew but had conveniently forgot. That which touches my inner heart from time to time, does so at the whim of a law not my own. That which illumines my inner eye is a light of a type unknown to me. I am but a fluff riding on giant waves, the recipient of a flame whose origins I do not understand. And so, two days ago I gave up in utter and complete frustration and agreed to stop all attempts to capture it in words. I gave up and in the wake of my surrender, the presence came again. In the night it came - that mystical light which conforms not an iota to the laws of this world, nor to the piousness of my body and mind. Undaunted by my imperfections it sought once more to establish itself within my being in all its sunlit magnificence and impart a message to me.

Somewhere around dawn it came. I do not remember if my physical eyes ever opened or not, for I was in that peculiar state of consciousness which I have come to know so well, and for which I yearn so much these days, where my physical surroundings dwindle into nothingness as the ephemeral lights begin to twinkle into a crackling alertness in my mind, which signifies the coming of a great event.

The following attempt to describe the vision is a direct result of that particular visitation last night. I must put this down in writing. I must. I do not know why but I must. As I awoke from the stupor of sleep, I became conscious of an immense sea of pulsating and sparkling lights which seemed to be electrical in nature. The over-all color was orange but with gold overlying and darkness underlying and blackness in the background. Upon closer inspection I found that I was WITHIN this sea of tiny little specks of light, each one of which was so miniscule as to be as small or smaller than an atom, for they were not able to be seen with the physical eye.

I did not see any one speck individually, per se, yet somehow I knew that each one was distinctly separate from its neighbors and unique. Yet simultaneously it was a unified part of the whole. The effect was like a strange kind of liquid undulation heaving with a mightiness that defied description, and a unity that defied separation. This flowing sea of lights stretched in all directions into infinity for, again I don’t know how, but I knew that there was no end. I seemed to be part of this network of crackling lights that caused a great increase in my state of alertness. And as I watched I saw that each tiny spark was a mind with a consciousness all its own and it moved and glittered and sparkled with an intensity unique from its neighbors. The overall movement was one of exquisite sophistication and harmony not unlike a great orchestra caught up in a symphony of sounds where each instrument moves only in relation to the whole, never, never by itself.

I was overwhelmed with the immensity which was so obviously a living mind with vast powers of intelligence capable of holding the whole system together and in my heart there rose a song of devotion and praise, and I knew that I was one of those sparkling specks of light. I was struck with awe, and no matter in which direction I turned to look I could see far and deep. And I saw the varying shades and hues of light, the darker ones brownish in color falling into the backdrop, while the most brilliant ones, the color of the sun, came forward to catch and dazzle my eye, so alive where they - and radiating.

And now comes the hardest part of all. My words describe what I saw but there was another dimension to the vision which involved a penetration of feeling. The message that soon began to impress upon me was done through this deeper level of feeling. The sense of awe and grandeur to which I first awoke out of a dead sleep, was only the beginning. For shortly I found myself within the brilliant rays of a flaming intelligence focalized in the form of a sun. It burned with a white fire, whiter than any white I have seen thus far, yet I knew it to be a person. And as I fell into the magnetism of this intellect, I felt myself absorbing its attributes so that I was no longer myself, though I must have retained the shell of my former being in order to remember and describe it now. But for that span of time I was a part of that magnificent singular mind - that most impressive being - and I felt the whole spectrum of goodness - compassion, wisdom, intelligence, love, strength, purpose, clarity, refinement - it was, somehow, a fulfillment of what every mind should be, although who am I to say? I cannot imagine any mind on Earth ever attaining this grandeur even if it were to evolve for a million years. Such purity is impossible to imagine and yet, perhaps not. Perhaps not.

As I was being absorbed into the radiation of those rays, it was like being absorbed into the delicious rays of the warm summer sun yet a thousand times over. I became conscious of absorbing also a message most especially meant for me. I was being drenched with a quite specific instruction, through and through, body, mind and soul. It was so abundant and overflowing that at the height of the message it seemed that I WAS the instruction itself imprinting itself into every atom that composed my body. The moving pageant of the entire solar system would have faded into insignificance compared to that one moment in my life. And now I must attempt a translation into English, for this is specifically my task.

There was a prelude to the main body of the message and it was this: Had I been outside of the brilliance of this solar presence I would not have been able to receive its message. Thus for the short time that the message was being impressed upon me I was absorbed into it to become one with it. Only this way, I was told, could I have withstood its presence. This knowledge was given to me through an absorption into my whole being. The main part of the message was as follows:

“There is an element unlike any element thus far discovered by mankind. It has yet to be researched and known. This elemental experience was given to me but I cannot describe it in words. I felt it and I knew it for the space of several moments. This element is similar to a power, yet it is more than a power for it comes close to being a substance. It is not fire, yet it is similar to fire. It is not water yet it is similar to water. It is not air yet it is similar to air. It is not substance yet it is similar to substance. It is not intelligence yet it is similar to intelligence. It has all of the above elements within it, yet it is more. It is somewhere between the physical and the nonphysical.

“This element has yet to be discovered and known and written about, and I am one of many who can do it. There are others. Many, many people are involved with it at varying levels, but those who are dealing with it on other levels cannot define it. I am to define what I experience. The visions I see come out of it and my movements are an effect of it. All of the incredible experiences I have been having come out of it and now I must put my experiences into words.”

In the lingering afterglow of this message I waited, as if on pause, because there was a secondary message. Its meaning was burned even deeper into the very core of me so that it became a permanent part of me, and it was this.

“I am not to presume that I know any more than anyone else pertaining to this element, for this is not the case. I have a certain purpose to accomplish, and I have been prepared to carry out this purpose. My purpose is that of a recorder, not unlike the historian who records the facts as he sees them. If there were no historians, there would be no history books for others to use as reference points and guidelines in their work with this new element.”

The experience was still going on as I began coming out of that brilliant place into a smaller, darker space and I awoke in bed beside Bob, who was still asleep, trying to capture the echoes of it as it faded. Through my mind moved the haunting impression of once having held the glory of a sunset in the palms of my hands. It took me a long time to adjust to the flat darkness of my bedroom, time in which I became once more conscious of the clock whose red numerals glowed in the semi-dark and the heaviness of sleeping bodies. The soft light of the dawn was apparent through the draperies.

At length a bird called and pulled me all the way awake. I lay still and then at length shifted and put one arm across Bob and pulled myself close against his warm back, glad now for his fierce protection which, in times past, so annoyed me. I was glad because I could tell him in the morning about it. Who else would have encouraged these other worldly things and listened with such patience as I stumbled over the words? I pondered the element. What was it? The extraordinary feeling of it still soaking in my depths. It was sensory. What does it mean? The feeling is hauntingly familiar. It is extraordinarily close. It is significant. But of what? I pondered a long time and finally went to sleep.

I woke about 10 with Bob and even before I opened my eyes I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt the meaning of the message. I could identify the element that has yet to be discovered. The element is the soul. The substance of the soul, the other side of the physical. I was stunned. My experiences have been with the mysterious substance of the soul, alive and real in everyone but yet unknown. The unknown element is the soul, that illusive substance of personal identity which is the keystone of the new age. Chills run through me as I write this
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Postscript: This was journaled (channeled?) in 1982. This morning, 40 years later, I had a significant experience with the Ascended Master Djwal Khul (DK). He told me to re-read this one again. I ran across it yesterday. He showed me that the nadis, nerves, chakras and layers of the etheric body I’ve been studying (under his direction) is the soul. It has been called the etheric body but it is the soul - the exact duplicate of the physical body. When a person dies, the etheric double can be seen as an apparition or a visitation by those with inner sight. It is a real communication from a loved one who has passed. I'm posting it here, lengthy as it is, as an official statement from me. There have been many youtube posts lately of pre-birth memories (google 'pre-birth memories') along with after-life or NDE experiences. So this long-hidden information, referred to as "occult", is coming out big time into the mainstream. DK is now showing me that it's OK for me to start posting what I know. It's time. DK says it must be delivered with love. Love has been flowing in me for a long time. The chakras, nadis, nerves and blood are all composed of fiery love substance that flows like water. It has been largely unknown but now it's official. Humanity as a whole has reached the level of evolution to understand these things. Love from me!

6/3/22 - The dual nature of our passive/aggressive nature

Physicality exists all over the universe. It exists because of duality. Oneness could not descend without forming polar opposites, which pushed and pulled against each other. Through this pushing and pulling, there is friction. From friction there is a lowering and slowing of vibration. From the lowering and slowing of vibration there is condensation and coagulation. Density comes into being from lowering and slowing of vibration. And thus there is also attraction and clinging together. Physicality and form exists from pushing and pulling against opposites and the fun and creativity of coming together to enjoy each other in the world of sensation.

Positive and negative forces create the push-pull of stimulation and the adventure of discovery but we all came from wholeness, before there was form. No divisions occurred in the wholeness. It was pure unity and harmony. You belonged where you belonged and no one thought to resist you or argue with you. It is only by dividing the wholeness into two separate purities, two separate parts, that attraction and repulsion are created. The two original divisions were action and non-action. One takes the positive action and the other receives. Positive and negative. From there, more opposites grow. But the original duality is the male and female in us. We are either passive, quiescent and silent, holding space of comfort and peace - or we are proactive. In today's terms passive and aggressive are considered unbalanced. But these two divisions reside in all of us. It is a matter of bringing them into balance that we enjoy good health and an active plentiful life.

The passive in all of us is like the hub of the wheel. It moves but does not move from its central position on the wheel. It covers foreign territory, foreign roads, but it is not affected by alien environments. It holds space and peace wherever it goes. It is not an anti-force. It is a healthy force. Being passive is being always connected at the hub and center while the rest of us rotates and experiences the bumps of rocky roads. In the passive stillness at the center of the wheel there is balance. The outer periphery of the wheel looks to the center to hold it together so it doesn't fall to pieces. There is a feminine passive nature in all beings.

A division took place within perfection and perfect God beings who were pristine in their original nature, fell and densified into embodiment. Each of us is a unique consciousness in our pristine state, but we have periodically traveled to different dimensions to have less-than-perfect experiences. We are each different from other God sparks, but we love sharing our knowledge with our friends. Being self-aware, we are growing even MORE self-aware by living in these tumultuous, chaotic times. We can turn inward to our center at any time of the day and night, once again find the soothing silence of peace. Because we are also assertive, aggressive at times, and highly active, we need to do that often. Especially now that so much craziness is happening in the world. We CAN be both active and passive alternately throughout the day if we are aware of the powers that are in us. Rest periodically. Lie down and stop the thought processes completely. There is a rhythm to life, and the passive/aggressive nature of life demands that we rest often, to allow our physical, mental and emotional functions to fall back into alignment again. Stop the waters from churning for 30 minutes. Maintaining a healthy attitude requires resting often.

Both aspects of the passive/aggressive parts of human nature are pure. It is that they are two extremes and two opposites that we consider them "wrong" or "unhealthy". Respect both sides of our nature. There are two different components in us. They each deserve a happy healthy welcome. One part of the original God spark from which we came, is embedded in the earth. The other part of the original God Spark remains in an unformed state, in the realms we call heaven. Between these two parts of ourself, we play the role of immature child playing in the soil and sand, building sand castles and soil trenches. We learn what doesn't work by playing in the dirt. You are the soul learning things by being human playing in the dirt but we have two magificent God parents in the two polarities guiding us. One is located at the base of the spine, which is our Mother God, and the other is in the heavens beyond our sight. We can choose to be passive or assertive at any time we like, sometimes even aggressive or violent. Later, after the embodiment time is over, we return to being the eternal immortal consciousness which delights in the greater life of joy and freedom to move about with light and love. The form life of passive/aggressive is an adventure. Enjoy it while it lasts and appreciate it.

Your parents are pure God, divided for purposes of your embodiment. Mother God is embedded in the earth to anchor your consciousness here while in a body, and Father God remains formless in the timeless state of now, which is your natural home. YOU yourself created your denser body in which to live while here. The body is a spinoff child of your greater nature. You are the soul. You think you are the human body but you are the soul temporarily residing in the human body. You wear a mask, you created a mask, which is called an ego personality, the sum total of all your accumulated wisdoms and learning experiences. And when your time is done, you are the richer for your life. You are the child playing in the sandbox with others but you are the wise elder who is registering great wisdom. You are developing greater skills in how to master the physical body. You are become a master through the mundane of normal average human life. The rights and wrongs of it through gut feeling, intuition and simple trial and error. Soul discernment and the desires for love and service on a grander, wider scale lead to higher and higher evolution. Your treasure chest is filling up with your adventures and rewards at the end of your sufferings, living and dying through many lifetimes, many cultures, many worlds.

You as a pure God spark could not learn about physicality by staying home in heaven in the sweet embrace of your sweet angelic friends. No, you had to leave the unformed state and descend downward into density. You had to slow down and coagulate the particles of light and love - squish them, pummel them, squeeze them together into clay and soil and mushy substance to make a form in which you delight. You chose to do this. You were given the opportunity to do this. You were invited and you accepted to explore beyond heaven’s gates. You descended and were born into human form. You, God spark that you are, divided into two equal flames. One lighted consciousness went below into the earth planet to be your anchor. The other stayed behind in heaven. They are your Father - the one in heaven - and your mother the one who preceded you to Earth. You play between them, rising and falling according to circumstances, opening doors and closing doors. Becoming passive and resting, then becoming dynamic and creative. You draw upon your Father God in realms beyond you, do you hear him calling? And you draw upon your Mother God in the innocence of nature's purity. Draw on them often. You are veiled while here, so you WILL draw on them. They are guiding you. One inspiring you to stay earthy and grounded, the other inspiring you reach for the stars. In the sweet peace between them you find your balance.

5/28/22 - Quick update

Sending love and light to everyone who is checking in on me. Shifting between the 3rd and the 5th dimension is rocky and tumultuous. It is keeping me busy. Everyone's path and ways of approaching life are different. It is up to us to know our own path and stick to it Energy flows through you all the time, both from source and from outside other people. Fall into alignment with the good in you, the moral, the decent, the right in you. It FEELS GOOD to fall into alignment with your own feel-good source. It feels right. Mankind has not understood that what feels good is the right path to take, as long as it is not harming someone else. It is a wonderful, blissful, rapturous feeling to fall into alignment with the good in you. The good in you is connected to the good in the other people around you. It is our only connection to the good in the universe. That which FEELS GOOD morally, ethically, decently, lovingly, kindly. Everyone’s pathway UP the mountain to the holy place at the top is different. But once there we all come together as ONE.

5/19/22 Another glimpse at the Love Club

Today during meditation I felt the softness of the Love Club again. The Love Club has been in the background of my thoughts for many years but the time has not been right for it to come forward. I'm still trying to explain it. The expectation of sex is such a strong influence. Most people would assume that the Love Club means a sex club. How do we shift the consciousness of the average person away from the idea that sex means love? Love is not physical. It's an attitude. Sex is physical. It requires action from another body, which becomes a pressure on the part of the one who wants to engage in sex. How do we create a Love Club that allows warm close contact without creating an expectation of sex as the end result?

Perhaps the Love Club should start out as a class or teaching, with discussion following? We could gather once a month as a meet and greet with snacks. My thoughts tend to go in that direction. During meditation today I felt the promise awaiting us when the Love Club is finally here. The softness and gentleness is beyond description. It is the opposite of what one expects it to be. Imagine receiving divine love from the most loving person ever? It is the softest, gentlest, sweetest sensation that goes deep, deep, deep inside you, sensually awakening every cell in your body. It is warm, flowing, extraordinarily blissful. I've felt it. If you've never felt it before, then you're in for a treat.

Love is NEVER forceful. It is selfless. The clue is selflessness. In fact, love only happens to you when you the receiver become selfless yourself. When you empty yourself of all expectations and dreams of fantastic endings, that's when you become a receiver of love. That's when you empty yourself so that you can FEEL the love that is everywhere present. Love is inside you. Love is in the person or people you are with. It is everywhere. It is in the atmosphere itself, it is in the couch and chairs and tables. Love is everywhere. To open to receive this amazing sensation of love, one must become a total receiver - empty of all expectation. The spiritual people call it light, but it's really love. Light is information and we are such a mental race that we talk too much. Light gets hung up in the brain/head. If we stop with all the talking and pushing our agendas forward as in competition, we could become a receiver. When we can become a total 100% receiver, that's when we receive love. That means to receive love we have to stop controlling the outcome. Does that make sense? This is the process I'm working out. I have been given some powrerful hints from the masters but they can't do it for me. I have to do it for myself.

It's just the opposite of what most of us have been doing. Most of us try to push love on someone or something. We GIVE it. One cannot GIVE selfless love, because in the process of GIVING one must use force. Receiving holy divine love is not trying. It is emptying oneself of the need to try, or the need to fulfill someone, or the need to perhaps prove we can be loving. Emptying oneself of all needs to do or expect, then you become a vacuum. The masters say you surrender your ego then, your ego being the small limited self. Then you are in a void and, with the proper attitude of appreciation, gratitude and kindness, one attracts love and kindness to fill the void. Then one is filling up with love. Others can feel it in you too. It goes through your whole body sparking every cell and atom in your body. No one feels pressure from you. They feel the love filling you up, you were a void and love is filling you up because you held it in your attitude. Not your thoughts but your heart. Then people are drawn to you like moths to a flame, or like butterflies to a beautiful flower. They want some too. That's what I felt the Love Club to be like this morning. Everyone is filling up with love, happy, smiling and receiving the love that is everywhere. And everyone is radiating it, siimply radiating it. Not "making it happen".

That is what the Love Club is about. It is SO worth practicing. It's the deepest, softest, gentlest, mildest, most fulfilling warm, yummy feeling in the world when everyone is on the same level of enlightenment. Love radiates. It must be practiced because we learn through experiencing sensations.

5/14/22 - What is the third eye exactly?

A friend hit the nail on the head when he suggested to me look into the third eye. I have never been very good as a rational or practical thinker. As a spiritual female for many years I was always a "heart" person. After he suggested "third eye" I was guided to the Master Djwhal Khul's book on Esoteric Healing. Here I learned the way to conscious control of all the problems in the world, from disease to chaos, is done through the third eye. I had no idea!

The third eye is composed of the pineal gland working together with the pituitary gland. The glands are the endocrine system. In Taoist practices, the glands are basically the same as the chakra system coming from ancient teachings in India. The pineal gland and the pituitary gland are physically close to each other in the head. There is a vibratory field around each of them. Most people are not aware. These two different fields need to become coordinated, integrated, so they work together. I am now visualizing them with a field of calm, soothing gentle energy around the physical glands, like a glow. This brings the two fields of energies together as one. I have noticed a good result from doing this, but it is still early in my practice. This, it is said, activates the third eye, by pulling these two glands into harmony and unity under conscious direction. This will soothe the body, diminish anxiety and assert more conscious control over our lives. It is a matter of conscious will power over chaotic energies.

He says we have reservoirs of different energies feeding into our solid physical bodies. From pure light energy, it condenses down into higher mental reservoir, lower mental reservoir, emotional energy reservoir (much chaos), etheric energy reservoir then it flows into the physical body. Most people are not aware. The physical body is a robot following the energies that are descending down into the body. Now it is up to learn how to manage these energy reservoirs.

The astral body is the emotional body. It contains the feelings we generate, from stress to anxieties to depression, all of it which feeds lower down into the etheric body. The etheric body then flows down into the physical body. And we feel it. To counteract the bad feelings we have to take firm control over our thoughts and practice holding calmness, quiet, silence, stillness, soothing thoughts of peace, birds singing, crickets chirping, pine trees blowing in the wind, whatever makes you feel peaceful. At the same time picture a glow around both the pineal and the pituitary glands. A glow is a vibration. Become peaceful. To awaken the third eye, bring the pineal gland and the pituitary gland into harmony by imagining their vibratioins as soothing calming feelings merging together into one glow.

I'm only at the beginning of this study, but it seems to be working. I understand that the pineal is the spiritual center, and the pituitary is the physical plane center. So it would make sense harmonizing the two of them.

5/10/22 - Introducing the Taoist philosophy
Consciousness is the only thing we own for ourself

A new perspective has dawned recently as a result of reading and practicing the ancient Tao methods and philosophy. It has turned a certain belief I had upside down which cleared a lifelong confusion. I thought I was feminine and of the earth! But the Tao masters are showing me that feminine is from the sky, not of the earth. Feminine is the unformed intelligence of the universe. And that it is masculine which controls the creating and building of the solid form. So, it is the masculine which is of the earth and earthy, and it is the feminine that is from the heavens. This makes sense but I did not understand. This was my view of the world. My connection to spirituality and cosmic forces makes much more sense now. And my husband's disconnection with spirit and his heavy focus on physical objects and logic fits better into the broader scheme.

However, regardless of gender, we are all here living in a solid body. We were born to earth and were plugged into the planet. We get our life from the earth but, according to the Tao masters, we can become a wire or a hollow reed that brings the sun's vitality down to the earth, and we can fill ourselves with that vitality direct from the sun. We do not have to get it all from the earth. The Tao teaches to inhale from the sun, and exhale down to earth. The earth recycles used energy and nourishes plants and animals with it. The earth receives the sun's vitality and stores it during the daytime, just like a battery. Nature is a marvelous recycling machine. The earth receives energy from the sun to create minerals, plants, animals and humans with it. Science, of course, knows all of this, but I as "too feminine" am not very logical!

My belief and connection to the galactics makes sense. Energy from the heavens includes space debris from other heavenly bodies that drift down upon the earth. All the planets in all the heavens build forms by receiving vitality from their suns. Earth is a power source for solid forms, widely diversified and exotic forms, too numerous to count. Mother Earth creates, and if we listen to the Tao masters, we can draw energy from the earth AND the sun at the same time to keep our bodies from eternally healthy and prevent ourselves from growing old and decrepit prematurely, and dying before we are ready. As long as we have a solid body we can strengthen our bodies from the sun and the earth if we know how.

I have been studying and practicing the Tao inner exercises. They are strengthening me. This information was not available to me when I was growing up into adulthood. I wish I had known about this when I was in my teens. Tao methods are relatively simple but require focus. It is a meditative practice, done alone so you can concentrate on yourself and the feelings that are generated. In the beginning practice, it is difficult to understand why you are doing them because the feelings are so subtle. But they are working to bring your awareness inward to subtle layers that you probably have not utilized before. They are invisible to the surface dweller. These bring you deeper inward to your inner energies that feed and nourish your physical. The subtle inner energies compose the vital forces of your body. To awaken those forces a person must bring his conscious awareness inward to blend with it. Then those inner forces begin to teach you. This is the method of immortalizing the human body. Until we pay attention to the subtle inner particles and waves, we will continue to be surface dwellers. The physical body is not being fed with the life force from the planet and the heavens.

Consciousness is the spirit of the body. It can remain shallow, fixated to the external world of form and action, or we can blend it with the inner forces and become enlightened with greater knowledge of who we are. Our consciousness is the Light that we hear so much about. The Light never dies, but the body dies when it is not blended and awakened with conscious attention. In our youth we take our physical body for granted, thinking it will last forever. Alas, we do not realize until we are older that that is not the case. The Tao masters teach mind-body-spirit blend, which is similar to Yoga but from a different culture and perspective.

ALL power comes from the sun which gets it from a greater sun which gets it from an even greater sun, and finally this great universal power reaches the earth planets to build sold forms. The Tao teaches very interesting inner exercises. One is called becoming a “hollow reed”. It consists of lying flat on your back and relaxing completely, and imagining breathing through your bones. You become a hollow tube drawing the energy from the earth AND from the sun. When a human being recharges on a daily basis with such simple and subtle exercises, one can remain youthful and strong well into old age. So they say. Free of disease, happy, enlightened, intelligent, creative and enjoying the pleasures of being alive in a body. In order to do so, however, one must accept that he is not special. The Tao recognizes that we are not separate beings but individual units connected to the one mind that made it all. Like cells in the body. This requires getting rid of the idea that we live for ourself alone, as a selfish person, which creates greed, abuse and hurts to others. The Tao says that none of these exercises will work without selfless love, compassion and kindness for everyone and everything, even so-called inanimate objects. The power to live, thrive and enjoy life comes from connecting to the whole with kindness. Everything in nature then pulls together and the power is stronger. Being in harmony with everything else creates strength like nothing else.

Becoming more conscious is the key. Becoming MORE conscious brings us closer to our original nature which is unity and unbounded order and harmony. Cosmic consciousness is amazing and continues to expand the longer one practices. We are all connected. We are all one mind evolving to know MORE of itself. The ego is the smaller part of us that sees us as all separate and different from each other. We think we are unique and different, but it is only the outer shell that is different. The inner consciousness that supports the outer difference is actually one mind, one cell in one mind, working in harmony with all the other units and cells. This inner consciousness is brilliantly awake, aware and conscious of life unending. Knowledge is infinite. Wholeness is eternal and goodness is supreme. This exquisite connection with all that is is called Light. Our consciousness is the light that lights up the world.

If interested in learning more about the Tao inner exercises, I recommend the following titles:

1) The Book of Internal Exercises by Stephen T. Chang - start with this one, it is a good beginner

2) Chi Nei Tsang Internal Organs Chi Massage by Mantak Chia & Maneewan Chia - this is more complex with more pages and presents a deeper philosophy

5/8/22 - May 16 Trisha Marinari guest speaker at Anakosha
Can spiritual love and sex live together in harmony?

Women only are invited to attend this gathering on Monday, May 16, from 2 to 6 pm. However, quickly I add that there will be a men-only gathering sometime in the near future. First we have to gather the women. It has been a man's world for a very long time. This is a very old, ancient prophecy from beyond time itself, that women will ultimately gain their rightful place on earth and fulfill their destiny - to be able to express their deepest, most profound dreams of freedom, happiness, joy, ecstasy and fulfillment, doing exactly what they always wished for. The women must be awakened first in this world of gender imbalance, because only then can they assist the men to enjoy the same. Let those who hear, pause for a moment and reflect on this statement.

Since working with Trisha Marinari over the last two weeks on her new video project, I have been experiencing rapid escalation of awareness. Click HERE for details. Inner knowledge has been flooding through that can't be told in simple words. It is as if a membrane broke somewhere inside me that held back unconscious knowledge from the heavens. Since I've made it my job to report all new revelations and translate them into common, down-to-earth language, I simply can't do it any more. There's too much. That's why we're moving into groups now. Groups around the world are gathering. Networks and communities are gathering. Like-minded people are sharing uncommon information with each other. It is bigger than the isolated individual who has been trying to find a way out of the box and fulfill the longing that keeps pressing forward.

The box has broken free. It is a new beginning today. People are scrambling to express what they know, a friend, a platform, a way to share what they know so they can enlarge on what they know because that's what evolution is all about - becoming bigger, more confident, more free, more grand, more exuberant, complete and excited. We must share with each other to make this happen. There has to be gatherings. This gathering has to happen to fulfill the prophecy. Not for me, not for Trisha, but for women who are ready to take this next step out of the closet and honor the deeply personal sacred knowledge that is seeping, bleeding through. Share it first with other women and gain confidence, and then express it with the men. Watch the opportunities unfold and begin to expand. The men are waiting. They need us. Can spiritual love and sexual intimacy work together? Yes, it can. It must because it is predestined. It is the ultimate test of human nature. It is the only way forward.

Contact via the contact page for directions and more information about the May 16 gathering. Love, Diana

5/7/22 - May 16 Gathering at my home in Naples

An invitation has been sent out to women only to gather at my home to hear Trisha Marinari speak on the sacred feminine. This is to help her launch her new intimacy counseling business in Naples. Her husband has posted some short quips of her speaking on youtube. I sat with Trisha two weeks ago for this conversation on video, to provide someone to reflect with. She is a one-on-one counselor, drawing on and responding to the light within the person she sits with. We had such a powerfully strong connection and so much information was shared during this time together, that I was inspired to set a date and invite her here, along with some other women of spirit.

This is another attempt of mine to gather women together to share sacred feminine. I've been trying to do this for many years but didn't have the power to manifest it. Trisha is an amazing woman. For her picture, see the goddess page HERE. To see her speaking, click on her new youtube channel HERE. I chose the date of May 16 because it is the May full moon, a very special day. Every year in the Wesak Valley in the Himalayas, the Buddha descends in a cloud of light, along with the Christ who also appears, to bring a message of hope to humanity. People are inspired to travel for days, maybe weeks, to arrive in the Wesak Valley every year to celebrate. They camp out in the hills that surround the valley.

This year there will be a total eclipse of the moon for about an hour and a half, they say, causing a cosmic phenomenon known as a blood moon. It coincides with a supermoon this year, a term for when the moon is at the closest point to Earth.

If you are a woman and would like to attend on May 16 to hear Trisha speak at my home in Naples, contact me through the Contact page and introduce yourself. It will be a small gathering. I can explain more in a personal email. Oh, by the way. My phone isn't working. It's been out since April 17. I can't receive or send texts. Email is the only way to contact me, which is through the contact page. Our phone server is merging with ATT and it's been complicated. I'll let you know when I'm back to texting again. LoveDiana of Anakosha

5/4/22 - About the 4th dimension

A friend wrote and asked my perspective on the fourth dimension. It's always fun to have someone ask, so I'll share my view here. But remember, this is only MY understanding. Take it or leave it. The 4th dimension is confusing to understand. As I see it, the 3rd dimension is a closed and restricted place with severe focus on ONLY the physical reality. It's run by ancient evil forces - forces, not beings - but the forces of light are here and working solidly to overcome them. In contrast, the 5th dimension is a lovely, non-dualistic consciousness dimension. Both 3D and 5D can be experienced while we're here on earth in a body. 5D is just much, much more peaceful and harmonious. Dimensions are levels of consciousness. There are no polar opposites in 5D to argue with. Instead there is an aliveness that is so exquisite, light-hearted, joyful, complete and fulfilling, with wonders beyond wonders available to explore because there is no opposing force. This can be experienced while living right here on earth IF the surroundings are also in 5D with you. Many activities are available, from social, to education, all sorts of new classes, new arts, new music, opportunities in ways of expressing and more, much more. It's like in heaven but it's still on planet earth. This is pre-ordained. Humanity is meant to reach this as a goal. Heaven on earth. But the earth has to become free of obstacles, oppositions, judgments, arguments and all the rest of the negative sides of personalities. Then people will be free here. Earth will be a whole new place to live. We'll get along because we'll appreciate each other instead of find fault with each other. The anger and resistance will magically transform into joyful applause at the vast differences we are each expressing. Beautiful! Like a garden of vast colors and sensations. We are each so UNIQUE! While we haven't arriveda t that place yet, we will. In time. It will be a NEW earth. Now the 4th dimension....

The 4th dimension is the processing dimension of consciousness, learning how to maneuver between the 3rd and the 5th is tricky. There has to be a training phase between them because there is a BIG difference in approach. The 4th level of consciousness is where we sort out the differences. We learn to stop working against each other where we resist and argue for our personal rights, and we start giving ground to appreciate the other person's rights. There is a difference in approach and we have to finagle our way through this. We learn to be bigger, kinder, and more loving. We learn the true essence of love, what love is. This is the stage the earth is going through now. We on earth are evolving our consciousness on a massive scale. We are growing up to a higher understanding about life in general. What is life to a small plant which grows into a big tree? We are in the fourth dimension now puzzling this out. The whole planet is going through this, and the outer world is full of chaos all the many opinions. Each of us different. No two are alike. We may live in the same household but we are learning to get along, aren't we? We are all moving towards harmony because that's what evolution is all about. Becoming bigger in mind, heart and feeling. We have to feel our way through the pre-teen years, the years of puberty, to get to be an adult of dignity. A more universal order is in store, and benefits that include freedom, joy, light-hearted excitement and opportunity for advancement. We are moving out of the old way of doing things by force, fury and control, into experiencing better, nicer ways of achieving what we want. Like how to let go of a past grievance and learn how to forgive and allow for mercy and compassion. This takes work, trying to be kind to each other when we don't FEEL kind. And accept each other even if we don't like someone. And to accept the concept that fighting does not accomplish anything.

The goal of the 4th dimension is to come to understanding that there is a BETTER way that gives us more satisfaction and happiness. We are searching for the way to make life lighter and easier for ourselves and our families and friends. We don't know how to do it because we've been doing it the old way for so long (as a species) so it's an individual process. Each one of us is learning it in our own way. It has to be in our own way as we are each a unique individual consciousness. A dimension is another way of saying "consciousness level". Once the majority of the population has reached the consciousness level where the majority of people are at the peaceful stage, then as a planet we will emerge into the 5th dimension. We will have processed ourselves out of the old ways of warring of 3D, which was accepted by all as a way of life, and we will have moved through the confusions of 4D, where we sorted things out, and then we will land happily in the beautiful consciousness of 5D where everyone is on the same peaceful level. We will have moved past all the obstacles and lessons.

\Many are moving in and out of 5D now. I don't know how many. There is no way of knowing the numbers, but others are still stuck in 3D and moving in and out of 4D, confused and working on it. Some are all the way into the 5th level of consciousness and living in peace, and some may even be in and out of the 6th level of consciousness. Can you imagine what it must be like on the 6th level? We can still live here in physical bodies even while we enjoy 5th and 6th level consciousness of peace as the result of wisdom and applied discernment, living a fulfilled and happy life here on earth, doing the things we love the most. It is possible. We are destined to bring paradise to earth, known as the garden of Eden, the kingdom of heaven. "On earth as it is in heaven." It is pre-ordained to become a beautiful ideal planet for an advanced humanity to live in happiness and fulfillment for all. But it's not here yet. We must wise up and learn the lessons. We have to process what is bothering us the most.

Everything in the universe evolves, even the ascended masters who are on the perfect level. They too are evolving their consciousness. Only those who absolutely refuse to live in cooperation and want to remain in control and be selfish, and resist love and goodness - they are the obstacles holding the planet down. Then they are choosing the dark side over light. They get snatched up into the evil. But there are not that many left any more, I understand, who choose selfish ways over selfLESS ways. Most people are searching for ways to serve and help, while trying to understand. Confusion is the processing of consciousness to decide "what's right?". Some people are slow at this, while others are faster at seeing the lighter side better. It all depends on their past lives and how much they learned in former lives. No matter on what level, we are all here to advance our understanding to the next higher level by choosing good for the whole over bad for the whole, to improve humanity as a whole so that it works for all of us together, not just for the few.

Even the ascended masters are continuing to evolve their consciousness. There are those consciousnesses that are so advanced they are today called principles and powers. They too evolved up through the ranks by tests and trials as individual consciousnesses. They now today are the governing powers who watch over the wholeness and help us in choosing right over wrong so we too can evolve our conscious understanding. Some of us HAVE been governing powers and chose to come back and experience an earth life again. Yes, I have head that, as far-fetched as it may be and beyond our earth way of thinking.

About time - I don't know if the 4th dimension is time-related. Maybe so. I think time relates only to time spent in an earth body, and there are many earth-like planets like ours. They just look different than ours but they are of solid substance. The physical reality we live in is the time dimension (I think). Once we're no longer in a body we're not in "time" any longer. We're in a bright clean beautiful environment, conscious of beauty, grace and harmony (heaven). There are many who have come back and reported this. Some talk about "time dilation", where they can sit at the edge of a planet's atmosphere and see down into "time", where time is condensed and the atmosphere of the planet holds everything in slow motion, like in a "fixed" position. We are anchored into a fixed world, where heaven is fluid and instantaneously you are with your loved ones or in class rooms to learn or in a home of great beauty. "There are many mansions in my father's kingdom." That's how I see it anyway. They report back that there is no "time" there.

I did have an experience today which was interesting. While waiting for a pickup order at Walmart, I went outside because it was too hot and sunny sitting in the car, so I went outside in the shade of the building and began doing my tai chi movements. Once I started them, I started moving with the inner wind and felt the peace go through me, like a soft breeze of gentle awareness. It's always so beautiful to experience. I don't do it very often, but today I did and while doing that I noticed I could see into the atmosphere, see in the sense of being aware with inner awareness - the energies of different consciousnesses. Individual consciousnesses. Like how different people saw things. I detected so many different consciousnesses in the air, they were like shifting continually around me. I could see through one perspective, one approach, then another perspective, another approach, and another and another. They were like different textures, the differences were very obvious to me. It showed me that the air is in turmoil, kind of mixed up with many differences. This would not be in the 5th dimension. The 5D is like living in great peace because everyone is at the same level of consciousness. Everyone in 5D sees at the same level, even though they are each a unique individual. Life is not boring in 5D. It's exquisitely alive with awareness and exciting.

But here I could "see" so many different perspectives, and they were conflicting. They moved fast, as though not being managed. They are randomly flying around aimlessly. They came and went fast through my awareness. Really fast. The atmosphere was "busy"! As if the air was cooking itself and swirling. But because I was doing my tai chi movements I personally was at peace and not affected. It was a beautiful thing to see because I was outside of it. It reminded me that we are NOT a planet of peace. We are in the 4th dimension. We are all processing, including me. Not yet anyway. We are in that phase of consciousness expansion and evolution where each person is sorting things out for themselves. What do I believe? Where do I go? Should I stay? Should I go? Should I resist? Should surrender? What's the point of life and living? Should I end it all? There are so many questions and few answers. Only the person himself or herself can choose which way to go. That's the 4th dimension. It's a processing stage.

I believe I am living in the 5th dimension most of the time, at least upstairs during my meditation time. When I come downstairs I am living in 4D. There are things to be processed and done downstairs. It takes me awhile to adjust to the downstairs time. I actually feel dizzy and disoriented for a while. I'm working on that. I came to that realization only recently. Nobody can tell you where you are on the scale of consciousness. Only you can ascertain that. When you become aware of peace you are moving beyond the obstacles of opposition and duality and entering close into the 5th. If you are mostly at peace with yourself you are at least touching into the 5th dimension, perhaps all the way into it and connecting with others also in the peaceful vibrations of the 5th consciousness, called the 5th level. But you can still live in this world as it is today - a world that is processing in individuals who all have problems they're working through. But if you have worked through YOUR problems and feel at peace and are not disturbed by those around you, then you are moving into the 5th. Even while there are situations erupting around you. You are tested to hold your center on peace and love while others continue to process their own. That's why the atmosphere is so chaotic.

4/30/22 - How does consciousness expand?

During my meditations this morning I recognized the subtle bodies connecting as my consciousness expanded. The subtle bodies that have been separated for eons, like the etheric body, the emotional body, the mental body, the spiritual body. I asked DK some questions about, “Why was I so dense and so buried and so unawakened for so long? Why did I have to be so ignorant?” He then gave me a lesson. It was subtle information about how the dark comes into being. He explained that I came from pure light originally, that was where I came from before coing here. And as I came down into density it became darker to me. "You lose the light as the electrons densify and get packed together into form and structure, following lines of thought."

It's not easy to find words to explain this inner lesson that came to me subtly. The finer aspects of consciousness were shown to me, how this works, how the light dims. DK gave me a picture of a flower seed buried in soil, and how it starts out as pure consciousness at first, not knowing where it is, and then it starts to become aware of itself. And its awareness grows and becomes more intensely aware and soon becomes aware that it is confined and it expands against its own confinement. Finally it bursts its shell open because it can’t be contained in such a closed space any longer. It is becoming TOO aware! And then it becomes aware of other consciousness seeds around itself and they connect and see each other and their consciousness expands and they see OTHER consciousness seeds around them and they start connecting their awareness and the consciousness of the seeds grows and becomes more powerful. Soon they are growing up through the soil, the only thing they know, like we humans are growing in the earth plane the only location we know, and the seeds finally, one by one, pop out of the soil into the daylight and they see the sun and the light for the first time.

It’s a new dimension for the seed whose consciousness is now housed inside a green sprout, and it begins a new life in the light, and it continues to grow its conscious awareness. It is ALL consciousness. The seeds consciousness is not the form, it is building a form to fit its current state of consciousness. But the form keeps changing to reflect the consciousness. It changes its appearance as the seed's consciousness grows higher and wider and aware.

That’s what we, the human race, are doing on planet earth. We are growing our consciousness, our awareness of ourselves higher and wider. We see more, know more, consider more, have more visions and ideas more often. We too will soon break out of the enclosed form that we had grown accustomed to. We are breaking through into a new day, a new light, a new dimension, AND new powers. If we are wise and astute, we will start exercising our new powers. We don't have to die, not quite yet. We can renew and resurrect our old bodies, that we once thought wouldn't make it past the age of 80. And we are! We growing younger because we have new awareness. I am much lighter and aware at age 84 than I was at 50. I took my young body for granted back then, but now I see it is changing because I am so aware of the LIGHT! It's all about consciousness. The form has to keep up or it will die. Keep resurrecting your consciousness. Keep up with the new ideals and excitements. The spirit is consciousness. Consciousness is spirit. Keep up with the growth of consciousness that is happening around the earth planet today. Forget all this dumb talk about wars. They are the old thoughts scrambling to keep up and they're not going to be able to.

4/28/22 - Women of the Heart

When we can become women in our hearts, we will draw men into alignment with us, and stop pushing them away through the old duality machinations. I have been studying the higher teachings of the ascended masters, but they are too vague and unreal to express in every day language. Most people don’t trust those higher teachings. They have to be brought down into ordinary language, like connecting with the heart. When it comes to engaging with our fellow man, the higher teachings are a quandary. Higher teachings would refer to taking the high road, such as acting with grace, dignity, thoughtfulness and refinement. We are so accustomed to acting on the low road that it takes super human effort to deal from a higher, more dignified heart level. And yet that is what we must do to elevate our world to higher levels. A heart-based humanity will save us. We are the common people, the average people and we must learn how to act gracefully from that common place, which is from the heart.

Blending grace and kindness with practical life and action would be an improvement. This will take practice, education and training. But who are the teachers of the common people? There are actually extraterrestrial individuals on earth today, moving among us in disguise. They have been here for centuries but are on the increase, we understand. They help us quietly by drawing our attention to something unusual about them. Maybe it's a physical appearance, or a certain glow or presence about them, or a certain expression. We can't quite put our finger on it but they are here to show us by example. They are radiating something that is unusual to us. We are learning by exposure to a finer way of life. It is a gradual integration of a higher consciousness from races from other worlds sent as ambassadors to walk among us quietly, without fanfare or announcements. This preliminary walking and living among us is working. They are seeding something in our awareness. We who were born here are beginning to recognize a common good. We are beginning to feel the need for peace among the nations, to end the wars and stop the puffed up ambitions of the so-called powerful.

To reach the average person we must start addressing the commoner and stop fixating on the power struggle between the elites that has been distracting us. Becoming aware of the common good is becoming aware of heart-based intentions. Adopting the attitude of seeing all people as neither superior or inferior could bring us closer to a heart-based civilization like the benevolent ETs who walk among us unnoticed. They have not pulled rank on us. We don't even recognize them.. They are not superior to us. Why do we act superior to our neighbors who have less money, less status, less social standing? We have limited ourselves to seeing only the outer appearance. This makes us short-sighted and we end up defending ourselves in the quiet hours of reflection. We know in our heart of hearts that there is no one inferior to us, and no one superior, not even the ones who walk among us unnoticed from other planets. The only difference is the degree of awareness that is slowing penetrating our thick skulls. We have been programmed to THINK only, and so we all think about what to do. But the light in the heart is accessed through feeling, not intellectualism.

This blog is entitled "Women of the Heart" instead of "People of the Heart" because the feminine side of life holds the key to sacredness. The female of any species holds sacred space for the males who are the activators, action-makers, builders and protectors who have to focus on building the world into solid form. The females are connected to the heart. In recent years genders have become somewhat muddled, as souls are changing sides. There are many souls who, after lifetimes spent as a female, are now being born as males. And, on the opposite side, souls who have spent lifetimes in male bodies, are today being born as females. Confusion reigns across the globe. It is a universal phenomena because it is a new age and we are changing our location in the heavens. It is changing our perspective all around, upside down. We must learn not to judge someone based on the way they look, or their sexual preference or how they identify to their own body. Be kind. Be compassionate. Be understanding.

The male of the species is bigger, louder and more assertive because they must build the physical world in which we live, and protect it. Souls who have been feminine for many lifetimes are now being born as male. They must learn how to be boys and men. There has been a lot of unkind abuse over this strangeness, and not enough understanding. Wise male teachers are required to teach the masculine way with compassion and kindness. The male does not have time to sit in silence and follow feminine interests, however they can blend their male and female sides together in a balanced way that fulfills the soul's desire. Building a more balanced human life requires mentoring, teachers, gatherings in groups to validate one another. Life provides many opportunities for inventing better ways and not just physical, but psychological improvements, spiritual improvements and more. Physical refinement, mental refinement, emotional refinement, spiritual refinement, on all of these levels, organizing and planning is needed ON AN INDIVIDUAL SCALE. Institutions have grown too large and too almighty important. It is the individual who has been lost and needs personal, caring, wise and loving attention. It is one thing to believe in gentleness and love, and quite another to practice it.

This is the expertise of the feminine. Souls who are newly female after being male for many lifetimes, must learn how to be women of the heart. They are born into a female body but that's not enough. They must learn the feminine ways of life. What does the female do? What is her role? The culture has changed and women are struggling to understand. For a soul who has been masculine for lifetimes, there may be strong tendencies to competition, which is OK, but their first role is to adopt and learn the ways of the feminine being - the ways of the heart - for this is what fulfills the woman. This woman must bring about a balance within herself so that she can feel happy and fulfilled. What is it like to be a woman? Wise enlightened female teachers are required to pass on this ancient knowledge. How to cultivate the heart-centered woman. Having a female body in appearance is not enough.

Women of the heart are women of light, meaning they are connected to the Oneness, spiritually speaking. They are the wise women of the age. They are the ones who bring softer changes to humanity while the men continue to build and concentrate on practicalities. They have been doing this for eons but have generally gone unrecognized and unappreciated. Even in some countries today, women are being put to death or imprisoned for speaking out or daring to fulfill their feminine dreams. Mostly they are simply dismissed as second class citizens. In today's dawning new age, however, the women are gathering power and courage to come out of hiding. This is a hard thing to do. Learning how to shine their light after having kept it under cover for centuries, following the examples of their mothers and grandmothers, where do they begin? Wise enlightened feminine teachers are needed - holy women. How does a woman begin to shine her light? Through her own holiness.

Confidence can be built in gatherings of small groups. The sign of the new age is heart-based. Women are naturally heart-centered, so women's groups are ideal to begin with. There is no gender division at the level of the soul. The heart-based human of both genders are needed to build a better humanity and fulfill the human evolution to the spiritual destiny. We are all spiritual beings at heart, human beings only in body. A heart-centered woman does not compete with men. The first step is build up love for oneself and cultivate happiness being at home within oneself. That's the first step. As women learn the secret methods and techniques of how to do this, they access ancient wisdom that has been known and taught by mothers throughout eternity.

Women of ancient wisdom, known as women of the light, will soon be coming out in more noticeable form. We will know when their influence starts to take hold because men will begin to show respect and appreciation not only for women, but also for their brothers. Instead of competing, there will be a new attitude of brotherhood and cooperation among men. When men start to show respect and consideration on a universal scale, we will know that the women in their households are also expressing their own self love better. Women of the heart are humble but not in a phony or fake way. They are wise beyond even their own conscious understanding. Where do they get this quality? It comes from the universal substance of good which is everywhere present, even in outer space. Good has been shortened to mean God. Surrendering the ego to good is how the divine feminine operates. She is wise because she does not surrender to the ego, she surrenders to the good in her heart which is universal good. A man can do the same thing.

The average person passed on the street might be a genius in his field or he might be a simple laborer, perhaps even a homeless person. The goal for humanity is to bring light into physical expression to save humanity from extinction. The only way to do this is to open the heart to the universal flow of love and light. An enlightened intelligence and an enlightened heart. This is what is meant by “grounding” the light. The mind thinks about it first and then brings it down into physical expression through the desires and feelings of the heart. The heart feels emotion and distributes that desire to the rest of the body through the pumping action of the heart through the circulation system. It expresses what the heart feels - truth, kindness, justice, empathy, forgiveness, mercy, whatever the quality is being felt. If the soul feels angry and frustrated, then the heart distributes that to the rest of the body. Humanity's need is to invoke light and love as a feeling, instead of keeping it locked frozen in the brain. Bringing the concepts down into the heart will distribute the feeling down into the earth and soil to grow roots and spread it through the grassroots movement. This is the role of women. The divine feminine is the woman who has opened her heart and is living and expressing her feelings. The human female is one who has not yet been trained and feels confusion.

I met with a woman of the light yesterday. She will soon be coming out onto the world stage. She will instruct in ways that have not been shown before. I have been a student for many years of esoteric philosophies, mystics, ascended ones, the spiritual hierarchy and the benevolent galactics. But none of these can train us how to live the life of a human being better than another human who has connected to the light. The light has no name. It is simply light and when the light is lived and expressed to others, it becomes love. It is felt as love.

We all have certain ideals that we secretly entertain, but we have difficulty manifesting them because they don't come from the brain. The power to manifest comes through the heart. The heart, the physical heart, holds the universal power that creates good values. If the light is stuck in the brain and doesn't reach the heart, then the power is not accessed. The portal is not opened. There is no power to act in the brain alone. when someone becomes conscious of this, he or she will make inroads into the heart. Being conscious of kindness is what opens the portals of kindness in the heart. When the portal of kindness opens, the person starts expressing kindness to people around him.

That power of love, mercy and forgiveness must be felt and activated or it is not authentic. We can pretend but others don't feel it. The power is not "in" the physical heart, it flows "thru" the physical heart. The human becomes more divine when he becomes conscious of these higher attributes and begins to act outwardly on them. This is the power that moves mountains. It is a presence and it can be felt. It is a conscious feeling. It is a conscious connection of all life everywhere. The unity and harmony of all the good in life everywhere is the power of the universe. It is available to human beings as well as saints and mystics. Becoming aware of this is a personal discovery process. Reading books can stimulate it. We are all one mind, connected through individual experiences of one life. The one great eternal mind. There is no one person more important than another. We are all one, and yet we are all expressing differently. The great process that is unfolding on earth today comes through a portal in the heart, and women are the embodiment of heart-centered awareness. Love comes through the heart. The masters of old all hinted at connecting to the heart. We have been adulating the brain/ego but not the heart. We have dismissed the heart. When we finally get this, we will stop adulating the brain/ego/intellectualism, and start balancing the human condition with heart feelings. The impact of love does not dishonor or diminish the brain's intellect. It expands it so that it flows with more wisdom and genius.

Then humanity will start feeling the impact of love. If we want to improve our conditions, it cannot be done from the intellect alone. It must be connected to the real thing, the actions of the heart.

4/26/22 - Your mission in life

It’s not WHAT you do, it is the vibration with which you do it. Is it warm and exciting? Or cold and uninspiring? Are you feeling passion, compassion? Or are you analytical, without feeling? Are you quick and impatient? Or slow and kind? It doesn’t matter what we do, the goal we were given at birth as a mission is to create value and joy in all that we do. It is the high road of goodness and decency. The goal in life is not to create a career but to find the best avenue into which to channel love, passion, goodness and decency. The career will mold itself around us and be there for us when we need it. This is the secret to betterment on all levels. Relationships, job opportunities, abundance and success are in the eye of the beholder of love. Is the beholder of love asleep at the switch? Or awake and orchestrating the radiating of that which is downloading continuously without fail, day and night? Those are the qualities that make a a life and a career valuable.

Each person has the codes locked into his or her heart. Operate from the heart spontaneously with wisdom and discernment. It is the river of life that circulates downward with every breath. The obstacle to the download is non-thinking impatience. When we are so busy receiving input from the outside world and other people, then we are drowning in irrelevant data that is not of value. That which is not ours belongs to someone else’s value system as data that is delivered to us through contaminated words and actions and feelings. If we want to change the world around us, we need to detach from the debris left behind by others. Self love is the way we do that. Love is generated by the Self, at home, with reverence. We cannot expect reverence from outside ourselves. The data coming in from outside is delivered with putrefaction, old dead and dying stuff. It is not fresh nor alive but cast-offs being recycled second, third, fourth time. Vibrations that have lost their color, like second-hand clothes. Do not judge them, instead love them. Look upon them with thoughts of love and change them if they come your way.

Mental thoughts the same way. Change them with the love you generate yourself. Mental thoughts are the change-makers. Feelings come from thoughts that have been held in the mind, so hold loving, kind, clear thoughts, and feelings will follow along behind. Feelings start changing once you have rearranged the thought process to hold loving thoughts. We do not CREATE love, we do not actually make love, we channel love by mentally making space for love to flow through us. Love is everywhere. Love is all there is. By holding open channels to love by holding intentions on love, then love comes in from higher planes. It is delivered into the world through the life force that we breathe in. Love is the life that comes in on the breath, into the lungs, into the heart and circulation system, into the blood and nervous system through the nadis and meridians and chakras.

No, we do not create love, we make room for love and we enhance it, magnify it and increase it in the way we arrange our intentions, our brain patterns. We feel impatient and irritating sometimes when we are out and about, because the atmosphere is filled with electronic frequencies from everywhere. These are random frequencies from people who radiate uncontrolled thoughts and emotions even when they are inactive. We can control our own frequencies by filtering thoughts through the love and kindness filter. Love acts like a shield of softness, gentleness, calmness. It is a shield of protection that soothes everything and makes it nice. Impatience DOES appear even through the filter. It is not a perfect world we live in. Respond to impatience by consciously slowing down the thought process. Use determination to overcome impatience with love.

4/25/22 - Make love to everything you touch

We must go gently into a toxic environment, otherwise we will explode with incoming light, emphasis on explode. It’s all about slowing down, both for grounding the light and relieving the pressure of the backlog in the brain-mind. When we bonded today I started out spinning, I was so hyperactive with heightened energy. I had to slow myself down to enjoy our lovemaking. I am learning to be careful. Hyperactive makes me more energized than normal so I must watch myself. There is too much light coming into me. It requires me to slow down. Grounding the light is something everyone must do if they hyperactive. I'm getting validation and techniques how to do this from various youtubes online. We must ground the light that is coming onto the planet through sunflares because we are going through a remarkable upgrade as a planet. We are transitioning into a new age and a new dimension of understanding. It is lighter now than it ever was. We are loosening and letting go of heaviness. It's causing spinning of the atomic structure of our cells and tissues. There is too much light affecting us, and too much information reaching us through all the various implements we have. We must take responsibility for our own sanity and slow ourselves down. Blend with the light, don't explode with it! It is in the slowing down of the brain-mind activity that we do this. It's a difficult task if you don't know how or where to begin.

Slowing down is a conscious effort. It’s not a physical act. It’s a slowing down of physical acts. A conscious awareness that you're hyperactive is a good start to begin with. And then consciously slow yourself down, both in physical movements and in words you speak, and thoughts you think before speaking. Become conscious of yourself, where you are and what you are engaged in. Create a consciousness space around you. We have ego filters in our brain-minds. We shouldn't eliminate the filters, but rather widen the filter and give it more space to operate in. Add some additional information, i.e., "slow down!". This is consciousness work. Some call it being mindful or becoming aware. Slow down and become aware of what you are doing. Bring things to a standstill. A filter can be expanded by adding space and wisdom. The outer personality is the ego. We don’t want to erase the ego because it is who we are, we simply want to expand it by giving it more wisdom, more space, more love.
Make love in all that you do and you will notice more peace.

Make love in all that you do does not mean make sex in all that you! That would be laughable. Love is the universal harmonic that organizes everything so that it fits in with all other parts. The laws that govern the universe governs we the people on the ground too. When we bring our awareness down to the ground, we bring harmony down to the ground so that things operate more smoothly. Love is the secret process of alchemy, did you know that? The saying about alchemy is that it turns lead into gold. That means making heavy and crude into light, bright and cheerful. Love is the secret process of turning something ordinary into something precious, refined and valuable.

And so we begin at the most basic and ordinary of things - our own body. We begin to transform it into something more valuable by slowing down while using it. See that it performs well and according to harmony and smoothness. Make love to all things you touch. Make love with your toothbrush while brushing your teeth. Make love with the soap while washing your skin. Make love with your towel while drying yourself off. Make love with the ceramic toilet while using it. Make love with your computer keys while typing. Make love by becoming conscious of love. By thinking about love. By contemplating love. What is love? Become conscious of love while touching objects and looking out windows at passers by. Pass your love onto the objects you see. Instill love in everything you do. Connect every thought you think with love. Put love back into your life and actions.

The process of alchemy begins with our own body as we move through the day. WE are the ones who must transform the ugly, profane and mundane into the rare gold and jewels of dazzling, sparkling beauty. We are the transformers and changers of situations. We cannot expect someone else to do the transforming for us. WE are the one who imbues our life and the objects around us with value. Love is the ultimate energy of creation. It mends, it heals, it revitalizes, it makes whole. More than gold, more than money, more than diamonds and fine homes, cars and luxuries, more than any object we long for, more than anything we would kill for including sexual gratification, there is love. Love is the secret ingredient. Love doesn’t come from other people. It comes from within oneself. We are the magic or we are the dull automaton sleeping at the wheel, fatigued and drooping. It is we who must become aware and alert. WAKE UP! We are the beauty. We are the life. We are the love. The wondrous future is waiting for us to transform it. Let us begin.

4/23/22 - About Walk-in's

If your body is 5% of you, then who are you? Your body is a small part of you. You, your consciousness are the remaining 95% of you. Your consciousness is pure spirit, intelligence, awareness. How is it you don’t know about this? Because you are trapped and held down inside your body by the magnificent 5% - your feminine side in form, your solid body. Your 5% came to anchor you to the earth. Without an anchor here you wouldn’t have been able to come to this far-away outreach, so dark, dense and full of marauders. You - the 95% you don’t know about yourself (though some of you are getting the hint) - chose to come. You invested the 5%. You could see the value in this planet and you could see your friends trapped here from your vantage point outside of the entrapment and you volunteered. There is a long line of volunteers queuing up and waiting to be accepted to come to earth. But only a few are accepted based on their qualifications and what they can contribute. So you were among the chosen and you won the lottery. You came to earth and were either born as a baby to your parents or maybe you stepped into a fully grown body.

It happens sometimes where one soul who completed his mission and is ready to go home and would leave the body to die. But if the body is in good condition and another soul wants to take it over and skip the baby process they can do that. They must agree to do it that way, it cannot be forced one over the other. You can make an agreement with the outgoing soul to step in as he or she steps out. You take their place and it’s called a “walk-in” soul. This is another story. The incoming soul as 95% spirit in the unformed state. It then sends the “away” team member (the 5% soul) down into the body that has been vacated. The soul has to adjust once it enters a new grown-up body. It’s not like starting out as a baby creating your own body and learning how to move fingers and toes. In a body that is already grown to adulthood, the body itself already knows how to move its fingers and toes and how to manage itself.

As the new soul enters a used body, it is responsible for taking on what the other soul left behind in the form of thought patterns, emotions, abilities and family relations he or she had built into the body, such as respect, love, certain interests, etc. The new soul takes on the habits, interests, physical attractions, the husband or wife, the children and extended family situations. The family usually doesn’t know that a soul switch has taken place but they will notice changes over time. You see, the body hasn’t been replaced. Most earthlings do not know how to read beyond physical form. Everyone on the planet is a 5%’er. They know themselves only as bodies, not as spiritual and magnificent immortal beings who wander from life to life, planet to planet, body to body. They each come from celestial realms of great light. So whether you were born here as a baby or walked into a mature body as a walk-in, THIS is where you are now in this current moment, anchored into an aging body that may be going downhill fast, if it is no longer considered young. You may be deteriorating into aches, pains and wobbly knees, or you may be a healthy youth who has no idea of what happened - or do you?

Here I would like to point out that something is happening that hasn’t happened in previous centuries. There are changes taking place that have never taken place in the eons of earth’s history. You are noticing ways to improve your body through your own thoughts and feelings. You are experiencing ups and downs, visions and enlightenment thoughts. The earth is shifting. There is chaos in the air caused by fear of the unknown. But there is also peace and there is daydreaming. There are visions, there are breakthroughs, there are new inspirations along with perhaps dysfunctional pains, hurts and confusions. Some are experiencing dark nights of the soul, caused by separations, divorces, deaths and wars in your home land and crazy dreams or nightmares, while others are seeing angels and beautiful revelations of spiritual dimensions, or perhaps demons fighting and wars between worlds. Yet – and this is important - you are keeping your stability. You are growing up and evolving out of the past. The earth is going transitioning into a new era and a new timeline. A new age is being born and because your body is an earth body made of minerals and substances of physicality, your body is feeling this. Your chakras are opening. More of your 95% consciousness is coming through carrying light along with it. This will be coming through into your physical reality. It is an amazing time for physical beings to be alive on earth. You are becoming more enlightened, more happy, more graceful, more understanding. Continue to stay centered and grounded right where you are. (Thank you DK)

4/22/22 - Lightworkers weave broken edges back together

This morning I heard the words, “The healers of Earth are the lightworkers,” so I found paper and pen and wrote it down. Instead of stopping there, the words continued:

“Lightworkers are light weavers. They join the light to the light in the non-light. In the past era it was done thru the churches. But then the churches became crystalized and the teachings became doctrines that separated into black and white preachings of good and evil. This is what evil does, it separates wherever there is a weakness. It uses words to cut "edges" into unified fields and break them into continents. Boundaries appear around and between ideologies and thoughts. Lightworkers weave together those broken edges. They rejoin the fragmented thoughts with words of kindness. Words have become a tool of the evil forces. Evil is clever and manipulative. It is not held back by good and decency. It does not have any morals, rightness or truth that it is obliged to uphold. Whereas the light upholds the universal law of harmony.

Lightworkers are found in every walk of life, planted like seeds at every level of density. Some are deep underground where you would not think to look for them but they are there. They are not apparent from the surface or outer appearance. You can only connect with a lightworker thru a feeling. The feeling could be one of goodness, calmness or peace. Or it could be a message that only you can feel and interpret. The person prone to spreading evil is recognized through a feeling of selfishness. It is an inner body telling. The light in you, which is 100% good even if you are unaware, can interpret for you if you listen. If you feel conflicted or torn by a request to do something or what you hear from that person - it just doesn’t “feel right” - then you have connected with a contrary force. Contrary to your welfare. Stop and turn away.

This takes courage, for the person who is the deliverer of the uncomfortable feeling or idea could be a close family member or friend. Do not see them as evil or dark. See them through the goodness in you. They are more likely to be ignorant of the dark force that is using them. If they are intelligently using the dark for their own purposes, then you should leave them standing alone and walk away. Let the 100% feeling of good guide you. The dark invades man's consciousness at weak points, such as self-interest over the interest of mankind. The less ignorant person believes himself (or herself) is the thinker or creator of the thought. Do not cut them off unless it be to save yourself from dire consequences. Instead, if at all possible, call upon your lightworking skills and mend the rift, or walk away. Debate is dangerous, for as I have said, the dark is scheming and manipulative. Halt the potential conflict that could build to a breaking point. Calm the troubled waters and heal the separation immediately before that happens. Be a lightworker. The dark pulls back at the sudden flair of light. Kindness, good will, warmth, humor, empathy, intelligently applied caring and love are all part of the lightworker's bag of tricks. These are the skills of the lightworkers. Awareness and discernment. These are the qualities and attributes that repel the evil doers for they hate the light. The dark works undercover in secret to advance their aims. Lightworkers disarm the dark and set them scurrying because their shining transparency and openness is blinding to them." (Thank you DK)

4/21/22 - Being androgynous is being balanced

Being more aware of masculine focus is bringing certain tendencies to the surface. I am learning how to use my masculine side more. What is masculine focus as compared to feminine focus? Esoteric studies teach us that we are 50% masculine and 50% feminine. I am primarily feminine, so taking the effort to pause and reflect on this is revealing a much-needed perspective. During meditation this morning I decided to go spontaneous instead of following the separate routine. At the end of 40 minutes I felt complete, good, finished, balanced and didn’t want to do any more.

A good definition of the divine feminine (not human feminine) is the daydream state. Nothing is moving in you, not your mind, not your emotions, not your physical. Everything is suspended but you are seeing. You are seeing beyond this dimension. That is divine feminine. Divine masculine (in a woman's body) is acting under the will coming from this daydream space beyond thought, mind and emotions. It is taking action and doing something about it. Action according to what is needed and what is being inspired by the feminine side. If something pops up that is the opposite of inspired, like an uncomfortable thing that you would normally resist, this time face it and agree to accept it. That is the masculine side of you. It is inspired. It is coming from higher places. Welcome the opportunity to explore something different. Enter into it with calmness, steadiness, equanimity and as much kindness as you can muster.

This applies to both genders for men have a feminine side as well as a masculine side. For me as a female, I am learning to engage better with my “opposite“ instead of denying it or resisting it. Instead of thinking "male" and "female", think of what it’s like to be active and what it’s like to be passive. Active means proactive. It initiates action, doesn’t wait for someone else to make decisions. When it receives a stimulated thought, instead of putting it on hold for "later", decide to act on it. I have not been doing that. I am learning to change my approach. Masculine means action and shuts out everything that does not fit the action. Masculine is focusing with intention. I have been mostly a passive personality, following someone else‘s initiative. Feminine looks to others to initiate action and move it forward. Feminine is supportive and does not resist. That was me until I came to an end point. Then I started understanding that I had another side to me that is proactive. This was is the beginning of becoming androgynous.

We are 50% active and 50% passive. We have not been taught about this deeply profound design to consciousness. We are here to discover ourselves and to open the gate to the otherside. We are here to unify ourself and integrate both aspects of ourself, the male side and the female side. Our passive and our aggressive. If we can do this for ourself, then we can also make peace with the opposite gender. It is all about seeing through the veil of dislike, bigotry and hatred. When we become more and more balanced, more and more androgynous, it doesn’t diminish our ability to be attracted to the opposite gender. It merely diminishes the awkwardness and distrust of the opposite gender. It improves our relationship with the opposite gender. We are still a man or a woman, physically speaking, but androgyny is balancing the perspeive, the mind, the emotions and feelings. We feel good about ourself.

How do we become androgynous? The best way to begin the change is to do what you know you SHOULD do to feel good with yourself. Make your Self a project and a priority, not in a selfish way so that you disregar others, but so that you consider yourself a real person that has feelings too. What you should do for yourself is a tad more important than what you do for others. You will feel better and more pleased with yourself when you spend 50% of your time passive, resting and endulging in daydreams (your feminine side) and 50% of your time active and proactive, initiating new projects. Be a creator. Creating is fun and exciting. It draws on your skills and imagination. Move on out in front of the world instead of hiding from it. (Speaking to myself as a woman.) You will feel on top of your life, at the top, at the peak. You will feel fulfilled and you will know what to do at every turn. But be sure to take time out to be passive, quiet and still periodically. Adjust your tempo. Be at peace with yourself periodically during the day or night if you are a night owl. Be alert to what makes you feel good and don‘t be tempted to distraction by other people‘s pleas, beggings, suggestions and attempts to control you.

As I become more aware of the proactive side of myself, I feel it activating. I am seeing that my desire to gather women together was spawned out of my own feminine weakness. There is a stronger feeling in me now which I can’t explain. It’s like a force. I don’t want to draw women together to follow ME! I want to share with people how I’m activating my OWN power. How we create power is by balancing the 50/50 within, the male/female within, called sometimes passive/aggressive. We are in actuality one whole spirit, one whole consciousness that has been divided by being born into a world of duality. We have two different approaches operating in the world. It starts with us to create a balance between these two different approaches.

Unbalanced males are too dominant and thus ineffective (in the long run); unbalanced women are too disempowered and also ineffective (in the long run). Empowerment comes from becoming conscious of this problem. Start to take action. Study yourself. Do things in different ways. Feel the difference. Feel the power growing. How to begin? Follow the path of least resistance. When something arises directly in front of you, instead of avoiding it, follow it. Don't resist, run and hide, put it off til tomorrow. Seize the day and the moment. Especially if you don't like it. If it's right in front of you and you disagree with it, face it and engage with it. Draw on your resources. You don't know what you're capable of. Go down the path that opens for you, even if it goes against your nature. It's a copout to say, "I don't like doing that." Go in the direction that bothers you. Enter into it. Face the uncomfortable. Face the hated thing. Face the fear and you will connect with power. You'll become more whole, holy.

When I'm in my high space I see the probability of gathering the women but I’m not quite there yet. I need to practice using my strength more. Determination, selection process, create agendas, hold steady the determination. As a passive person I have been too fluid and changeable. Determination is a mental technique and I have not practiced it in a long time. It requires focusing and I've been too airy, light, fickle and spiritually oriented. Determination is an earth power, the blue ray, the first chakra at the base of the spine. The earth power needs to rise up the spine to assist the body in being more solid. Mother Earth needs to come up into the body.

Synchronicity tells you that you are balancing, that you’re on the right track. Consciousness is energy. Thought is choosing a direction but the power is in the earth. Thought is constantly changing. Be aware of directing thought in the direction you want it to go. Is thought a negative thought? Or a positive "can do" thought? Don’t just “say” affirmations, assimilate them and cognize them, make them your reality. I am floating in many enlightening awarenesses. I am airy and light and receive many realizations which continue to float through me. It is a beautiful daydream state and I love being in feminine mode. It never stops, I'm in a sea of enlightenment that is constantly moving.

But if I am to become more balanced so I can function in the ever-changing world around me, then I must stop the floating sensations and concentrate on one thing at a time - being proactive if I want to feel a part of the life. The feminine side has been beautiful and dreamy but it's time to take action. I can then reward myself with periodic rest periods of 20 or 30 minutes at a time and reconnect with the daydream state. This is how to bring balance to a too-feminine person. A too-masculine person needs take more rest periods and enter the quiet daydream state (no distracting TV or mobile devices).

4/19/22 - Stepping outside the divine feminine for a moment

In order to “see” the divine feminine, I have had to use my masculine qualities. I had to step away from the “flow” or sacred space where I normally dwell lost in the feminine fulfilment feeling, which is everywhere and nowhere since it is all-inclusive, all loving, all connected and blissfully unaware of anything else. It is peaceful at all times. I had to step away from that space and get outside of it. I had to become objective. I had to see it from a distance. I had to start projecting myself outside it and start narrowing my focus into a laser-like ray of focus. Looking back at my urge to explore the divine feminine, I see I had to carve out time and space to study it, observe it, write about it. When I do a vigil for the divine feminine I always have a notebook and pen with me so I can write down my observations. I am now studying the divine feminine from outside my normal “lost in spaciousness” default program. I am jotting down my observations. This is a masculine tendency, to observe and write. I have been extremely feminine, loving everyone alike, but I did become lost because of it. I was overwhelmed by the fragmentation and separation of the culture, and allowed other people to give me direction. I had forgotten how to control and manage my focus, the masculine side. I am VERY aware today. I can see what I did wrong, or perhaps I did it on purpose that way. Maybe it was my plan to become lost in the feminine in order to find my way out of the maze. I don’t know. So now recently I have the urge to seek the divine feminine in order to once and for all, understand it and where I went wrong so I never do that again. I had to step outside of it in order to start this study, this program, and the withdrawing was a masculine act.

It is not just this life, I have lived many lives as a feminine. But in THIS life I have been keeping notes on everything I do. The series of lives is a progression of conscious awareness. Writing in journals is a masculine act for I have to pick and chose words, the right words, the words that best fit the subjective feeling of my feminine side. The experience of being within the inner realms of divinity are elusive to words. Yet that is where I seem to be most of the time. It was or is my default program. As a feminine being my perspectives were different from men. I had differences with men. Whenever I tried to discuss my views and opinions with a man most often he didn’t want to listen. This became an issue in lovemaking or sex, which I was freely engaged in during my swinging career. Over time I decided that women would be better suited to soundboard with so I decided to gather women together without men for discussions about everything. Strangely enough, as a result of focusing on the divine feminine with women only, I am learning about the masculine and how the masculine thinks and performs. I have reached the zenith point of the divine feminine where I couldn‘t go any further. How strange to learn that the same divinity resides in men as in women. The male view is simply narrowed down to a focus point and projected forward. The consciousness of every person is the divine God in a human vessel. But the masculine soul directs his consciousness through focus, thought, analysis and concentration, where the feminine (at least for me) floats in the here and now.

4/18/22 - Your heart is where your soul is anchored

The heart is where you are anchored. You are your soul and you are anchored in your heart. All meditation and teachings are to center in your heart for that reason - to "click" into it. It's a "clicking in", like seating the lid on a jar has to click in. You have to feel it seat in. The trick is first believing it and then building an understanding of how it works. We've been busy projecting outward to friends looking for answers. Your heart is where you belong as a base of operations. Like a military operation has to have a headquarters, a center of operations, and from there they plan their operation. You are planning your operation, your life. You are going to physically go out and do things, travel in your car, and cover miles over roads and into different places. You need to remain "seated" in your heart. Your heart, your soul, your God-self, knows the plan.

You as an intellect operating through the brain don't know because you are not connected to your heart, the center of intelligence. The brain is not the center of intelligence, it's a storage chest of past experience. When you are not feeling connected to your heart, you are out there wandering around, asking other people and projecting your ungrounded ideas out ahead of yourself, trying to figure out what to do. You can't figure it out because you're not the boss. You're only taking orders from the boss. The head of the operation is in your heart. This is most difficult because we haven't been taught. We are now beginning to get some hints about the truth, the real truth - that the boss is in the heart. The head of the command structure.

This morning I clicked into my diamond heart for the first time. I've been trying to figure out the right approach or words or feeling, unsure how or what to do, and this morning it "clicked in" for the first time EVER! And the diamond appeared. I've been trying for years. The diamond appeared. It has all seven rays emanating from it. It is a solid real looking diamond flashing clear in the sunlight. The sunlight of course is father sun, mother sun, parent sun, the all that is from which we came. The diamond in my heart is my individual I AM Presence but there is a father and a mother I AM over all. The individual I AM Presence is anchored in the heart and there is a silver cord coming from high, high, high beyond, coming down and entering through the crown and coming down to settle in the heart. The I AM is in the heart.

We haven't been well educated in this. There are only hints passed down through the ages in different words and approaches. I've tracked down the hints. I know what to do. Doing it is the hard part. Just imagine it and fake it til you make it. The diamond is the crystal. The crystal is the christ. The christ of the bible and christianity refers to the sparkling diamond in the heart. The kingdom of heaven is within. From there it zings and dazzles out through the physical circulation system and meridians. It is carried by the blood. The heart pumps it out to the organs, which carries the sizzle and the fire. It's a fire that doesn't burn but it sustains the life of the body.

We've been looking for help from those who are outside of us. Teachers and such. The masters are outside of us, the galactics are outside of us, the angels are outside, everything and everyone is outside of us. They are here only as teachers, friends, companions, like our teacher in first grade, second grade, graduate school, etc. And like your best friend and other friends. But they are not you. They are helpers. The great task is to connect your understanding to the fire in YOUR heart. It looks like a diamond, feels like a diamond, shines like a diamond and radiates brillian sunlight like a diamond when we finally connect to it and seat ourselves there. That is our command center. Our I AM Presence.

4/14/22 - Allow the walls to come down

(Spirit-channeled two years ago) Allow the walls to come down. The women are ready now to step into the world scene. They are carrying the rich nectar of divinity within them. They are going to go out and move around and visit each other and buzz and buzz and buzz. They will go from flower to flower and draw forth the honey and awaken each other by doing so. They will poke their little needle nose deep into other flowers to find the sweetness that is there. The flower visited by these busy bees will give of their essence and the bee will take it and move on to another flower and leave some of the pollen with them while drawing forth the essence of that flower. The busy little bees! They are aware of distributing essence, honey, feminine sweetness and moving it around, waking up the feminine bodies that have been stagnant. They could wither and die if they are not awakened and become aware of their role. I almost did in 1968 when I left my family and went underground, disappeared. Their role is to become active, as women, on the world scene. On center stage, not the background any more. They have an essence that is badly needed, is crucial to the saving of the planet and turning it around and away from the destruction where it is heading because the men, with their fixed attitudes of solidarity and their belief in solidarity and of being immovable, are leading the planet to destruction. The women who are the social butterflies of the race, who were held back from mixing things up, are now fully ready. They are preparing to step forth and outside the box, outside the building, outside the neighborhood and the cities and travel the globe and travel the galaxy.

The female of the species has many aspects to her. She is MORE than the nurturer and birther of babies. She is also an activist. She joins causes and leads revolutions. She is spirit. She is source. She is change. She embodies the creator. Men do too but there is a season for all things. There is a growing season and a dying season which is a withdrawal to rest. There are cycles which move like waves. They rise and fall like the ocean ebbs and flows. It is in the hands of greater beings who are closer to source, who draw on yet others further above them who draw on still others even further beyond and even greater beings further on and still more, greater and greater and greater. There is a progression of magnificence that cannot be seen except for that just above, within range, to give a glimpse of the next step ahead. There is a drawing forth. The eternal essence of creation is beyond we who are embodied in a solid form and focused on our bodies and on the planet and on our immediate role on the world stage. What is my role here? My purpose? My job? My responsibility? It is only being revealed when I spend time in the eternal silence of my meditations, safe, secure and non-moving. I must be very, very still to see through the portal which cannot be seen when I am moving about, when my mind is moving. The bees are busy! They – we the women - are waking up and agitating the formerly fixed environment set in stone. The ways of life and living are moving and the ground is shaking. There is movement on all levels. (Received 12/31/19)

4/13/22 - And let there be love freely flowing

The words started flowing before I got out of bed. I am seeing a small gathering of friends for massage exchange but we are going to be fully clothed. I have been thinking about how to spring this on people. Fully clothed healing love sessions. It is unusual. The words are telling me what to say. They are coming from beyond me because I went to sleep thinking about it.

“We are here to love, to learn the truth about love. WE are the love. We are here to feel the love within us. We are here to move the love within us. We are here to be selfless, not to hold back the love, not to want it “our” way but freely giving, flowing out out out to all around. Freely flowing past the ego that wants to hold back and do it “my” way, the selfish way. Freely giving, freely loving, not the small petty pouting foot-stomping childish ego, but the great huge love that feels like the sun shining down on us, wrapping us in its warmth. This great love when it moves in us, in our bodies, in our lungs, in our hearts, and legs and muscles and backs and toes and fingers, it feels so full and complete and all there is. It is wonderful! It feels loving. It feels SO good, it feels like we’re Home at last. This is humble love, selfless love, true love, free love, pure love, conscious love, love that is set free to be what was intended to be from the beginning. WE are the love. We have always been love, unselfish, unguarded, unprotected – we are the love.

And we are gathering here to practice letting it flow and letting it awaken in our body tissues, as we give each other treatments of love and healing, love and acknowledgement, love and nourishment. See the love flowing downward in a single shaft of light from directly overhead, like a sun over your head, from the purity of yourself above you. You are the love that has been held back. You are the sun over your head trying to gain entry into the world, warm, clear, pure kindness, caringness, gentleness, happiness. Feel it entering you at the top of your head because it is more refined than you, more subtle, more perfect, more pure and it is coming down now and you are letting it enter your spine and enter your heart and down further to enter your lower stomach, and going down further to enter your legs and feet, and it is entering into the earth, deep, deep, deep into the solid body of the earth.

Your love is becoming solid with the earth, connecting with the earth, connecting with all the other shafts of love that are coming from the suns above the heads of your friends, which comes down from our solar sun, which comes down from the great central sun of our galaxy, which comes down from the greater one beyond and beyond that. We are the final distribution center of this great pure immortal love. It is an endless river of love and light and purity and joy and truth, the ultimate truth coming down into solid human earth bodies to sparkle and radiate and clean out the false impressions that have caused so much suffocation and pain and torment. Love clears it all out, cleans out all that is not pure, is not clean, is not joyful, is not precious. Why are we holding it back? Let us be kinder and more reverent today, more giving, more selfless, more uplifting, more generous with our love and kindness. It is holy love, whole and complete and perfect and fulfilled and happy and free. And so it is. Amen. Let it be so. Amen, Amen, Amen. Om, Om, Om. I AM, I AM, I AM. I Am free to love. I am the love of freedom."

From a loving, laughing, generous spirit today who simply wanted to let go and give it all!

4/11/22 - Becoming proactive

Going through a shift and feeling empty. Feeling as if I'm drifting. Something is missing. Where did the excitement go? During exercises I realized what is missing. I've been going with the flow spontaneously and randomly and the flow is missing. I've been spontaneous all my life. I don't use my mind or mental capacities when I go with the flow. I’m not recording it on my brain, or using my brain to make decisions. Therefore I have no control over what I am doing in the flow. I have practiced going with the flow all my life. Why? Because I have relinquished control, giving control over to spirit ever since going into the light.

Now I am being brought to a new realization. It is a next step, an advanced step that is occuring. There must come emptiness first to make room for the next step. This is not what spirit wants, to go with the flow. Spirit wants me to be a co-owner and co-operator with spirit. I am to become a co-participator. A co-generator of action because spirit is God/Creator, and it is my parent. It now wants me to grow up and learn how to be a participator in my life more than I have been. I have been lazy and therefore a servant to others. Now it wants me to take a more active role in orchestrating my life. It wants me to be fully here as a human and manage my reality and govern my own life, not let others do it for me (like husbands). My actions and deeds should be under my mental control. MY will, not the will of others. Spirit is teaching me how to do this by pulling the flow out from under me, if you catch my drift. The rug is being pulled out from under me. I was not willing to do this in the past. I DID try. I tried often. I created lists and routines until my head spun. But I didn't do a very good job of it. I don't know why. Maybe because I was too right brain and in the clouds?

During today’s exercises I entered willfully, consciously and deliberately into the aches and pains I felt during the stretching. I felt the soreness. In past times I would grow weak and tired and would give up. Now I am consciously directing myself with will power. I am thinking myself into the action, I am planning myself to do this. I am going into those muscles that hurt while I stretch. I am using mental faculties to create a direction and then actually following through and being present in those muscles. I am going forth to wherever I am heading. I see that in the past I gave up too easily. I didn’t know how to do it better. Now I am doing it with more will power. I am consciously directing my focus, my loving attention, into the pain and aches and discomfort. My sense of love and warm comfort is important to me, so I am bringing that feeling with me into the aching muscles. I am imagining hundreds of warm caring loving hands on me, soothing these areas that are uncomfortable. I mentally embrace my body aches and pains. I am redeeming them. I am recalling my worn-out particles of energy that have been mistreated through my own ignorance and not treating my body with reverence.

I realize this is what yoga teaches, how to connect one’s mind with the body. Mind-body-spirit connections. I am learning to be proactive. Being proactive is initiating an action with warmth and caring, instead of waiting for spirit or someone else to initiate the action. I am engaging in empowering myself. I am aware that this is a masculine energy. I am becoming pro-active!

4/7/22 - What is energy? Energy is Conscious

There is only one mind and we all live in it. Out of ONE mind - the eternal immortal ONE mind - everything springs into action and manifests. Energy swirls constantly. Sometimes it is slow and peaceful, and sometimes it is highly active like storm clouds. Clouds of consciousness swirl across the planet and the cities of the world constantly, randomly, unexpectedly. We can't avoid them. We live in a community energy field, but we can cultivate our OWN energy field with a little practice. And then we can be better in control of what we feel and think. Energy is conscious but there is uncontrolled energy and there is controlled energy. It takes a thinking, intelligent mind to control one's own energy field.

A person who has not learned this, does not control his thoughts very well. He may from time to time set things into motion with deliberate intention to achieve something important to him, but perhaps it is only on occasion. And most of the time he allows random energies to influence him as energy clouds roam the earth and flow through him unnoticed. He is not aware. Most of us are not. Those who are more intellectually or intuitively alert tend to control their lives better simply because they are more CONSCIOUS. The one who is not aware of this fact, remains a victim of random thought patterns. Everything including the trees, bears and birds are generating energy, but humans are generating vicious energy. Walk in nature and be cleansed; walk in cities and you pick up dirty energy without realizing it. This is the reason for sitting in silence for an hour or so a day - to return to the ONE mind which is clean, pure, love and light. But as a human being our responsibility is to become more aware of our own energies that we produce and radiate wherever we walk. We are conscious generators of energy that affects other people, either positively or negtively.

We set things in motion for good or bad even when we are not aware. We have pockets of energy that have been stalled out in us, that are parked as cars in a parking lot, just waiting for a similar energy to come along and trigger it awake. Suddenly we are feeling the full impact of an emotion. It may be an angry surge, or it may be a peaceful surge. But where did it come from? There are techniques, like using the violet flame on a daily basis (more on this at another time), that can help clear up stagnant, parked old energies that are blocking the joys of life. If negative situations are continuing to bog a person down, the secret is to learn some techniques to take control of your energy field.

As your auric field clears up, life becomes more smooth and efficient, more peaceful and harmonized. Purifying or washing clean one's energy field should be done on a daily basis. But one has to be educated first that such techniques are available and why. Education comes first, otherwise we live in our own private little world and "don't bother me!". A person may not know what they are holding in their subconscious or unconscious mind but there are techniques that can be used to find out. Unconscious memories are usually from past lives. A person may not be aware that he harbors unnatural tendencies for, say, alcoholism, especially if they have never imbibed in this life. One could say it's in the DNA, but what is DNA except consciousness of alcoholism that has been parked in the tissues and not been cleared. Or perhaps a tendency towards violence, or tendency towards pedophilia, or to phobias that are obsessive, or the need to control people who live with him. It could be any number of unnatural and unbalanced ways of life that make living difficult and erratic, and the person is clueless. He thinks it is normal.

One time years ago I utilized a tape. I had read about the technique by using a cassette tape. The made the tape myself, by repeating an affirmation that I wanted to introduce into my behavior. This was many years ago but I journaled it and recently ran across it. "Eureka!" I wrote. "It worked!" And I have experimented with meditation techniques for years, so I know this method works. Make a tape in your own words and play it 15 minutes a day or as you go to sleep. You can retrain your subconscious as simple as that.

Energy is consciousness. Consciousness is all there is everywhere. The trees are conscious. Your kids are conscious. The water is conscious. Everything is conscious of itself except human beings who are learning to be SELF conscious. All the lesser beings are simply conscious. Becoming SELF conscious requires becoming more aware of oneself. And becoming responsible for ones consciousness because we are at the top of the food chain. We are guiding those below us in intelligence.

There are some things we humans need to know. Most of us are unaware of this subtlety. I am just learning it myself. If someone tells you a lie and you don't nip it in the bud right then and there when you hear it, if you allow that lie to settle into your consciousness, then you are owning the lie. You have ignored the danger it will do to you. You have dismissed it as irrelevant. But in so doing, you have owned it and allowed it to contaminate and spread through into your otherwise pure consciousness. Big mistake. You'll pay for it later. By taking a passive position of letting a lie slip in through the back door by ignoring it, that is how people own the wrong energies. They allow negative thoughts and feelings in. They create trouble for themselves and we don't even know it. I am waking up to this myself right now. You might not think this is true. You can say "Nonsense," if you like. But if the lie registers on your body cells, which are conscious, they will absorb the lie and you won't notice it. You allowed it in. You accepted it into your body structure. It is a matter of becoming educated in this insidious fact of life. With more training we can learn to say, "NO!" to the lie. It's just a simple recognition to say, "No!" consciously under your breath.

It's not necessary to say "No!" out loud and create debate and argument. This is an inner journey of self-recognition. To be aware of what your consciousness is accepting into the blood and tissues of the body. There is no need to make waves with your friend and colleague. Rather, simply protect your own energy field which is consciousness. Cultivate truth and purity in your own consciousness field. Keep out the invaders that would drag you down into negative gossip and traumatic events that cause you to worry. Stay focused on the positive. The happy. The elevated. Nip the negatives in the bud by catching it before it enters your front door in to the caverns of your inner space. "No! Stay out! I don't want you here!" And move on to a more positive subject to consider.

What you're doing in that moment is cutting it off and preventing it from spreading its confusion into the main stream of your life. Your consciousness. You are here to keep yourself pure unto yourself, as you choose. You must choose. You are like a crystal clear spring water and if someone pours red ink into you but you don't like red ink, you must prevent it from spreading. Be conscious of what colors you want coloring your auric field. are These are consciousness energies. Everyone radiates a different consciousness - unless they are students of the light. Then they are clearer than most individuals. Most individuals are not aware of this fact. Nip a falsehood in the bud, simply by acknowledging that it is a falsehood. If you agree with it, you can say, "AMEN!" under your breath. Acknowledge it and allow it to enhance you. You are growing and evolving through awareness and attention. How many people are not aware?

4/6/22 -The Love Workshop

The Love Workshop is not what you think. It is about redefining love. It is not about sex. Sex is a physical act. Love is the life force that allows sex to feel good. Love is not used very much by people, as you may have noticed. It is not generally understood what love is. Is it sex? Is it chemistry? Is it something that can be learned or earned? Is it physical? Is it mental? Is it spiritual? What is love? Where does it come from?

The first workshop will be free, no cost. I attempted this 20 years ago but it fizzled out because I wasn't ready. It had nothing to do with money. There were things I didn't know about human nature and now I know. Over the last 20 years I've learned a lot. I'm starting it up, under the same name, but this time from a more enlightened and elevated approach. The location is my home in Naples (at first, it may be changed later) and there will be room for 10 or 12 people. Hopefully half of them will be men and half women but it's not restricted to couples. Single individuals may be considered on a first-come, first-served basis. It has not been announced yet. I'm blogging about it today as a way of fixing it and sniffing the air. Whenever I publish something on the 'net, I get feedback through the airwaves.

The agenda will be 4 hours long, from 2 to 6 pm and reservations will be required of the type I can count on. The first thing that will take place on that day will be a sit-down introduction session. I'll send a list of questions to those planning to attend. This will help everyone know each other a little bit, socially. There will be a brief demonstration after, and an explanation of what to do and expect. Discussion and questions follow, but we will move fast to the partnering up. Who will be a giver and who a receiver on the first round? Then we will jump right into table work, which is the reason for the Love Workshop. It is hands-on pummeling with kindness with CLOTHES-ON! Kneading, pressing, palpating and rubbing the receiver on the table as warm fuzzy nurturing. It is not a nude massage. After 45 minutes of that person receiving (there will be clocks nearby) the giver stops giving and quietly leaves the table and returns to the meeting room to reconnect with the other givers. The receivers remain on the tables to enjoy the sensations now moving in the body.

The givers will relax in the living room and talk if they feel like it. They will become receivers in the next round. After awhile someone will arouse the ones resting on the tables, and bring them back to consciousness. We will want them to feel recovered sufficiently before they give a massage in return. To someone else. Another round of pairing up will take place in a natural selection process. No one will be forced. Natural connections take place and we will all learn from this process. I have been under the guidance of masters most of my life, and it has ALL been about love. Love has been totally misunderstood and mishandled. Love is universal. It is something that must be shared before it can be felt. Hoarding it shuts it down. I am here to share information about love.

Love is the substance that is everywhere in the universe. It is distributed through the suns as rays of life-giving electrons. Without electrons coming from the sun, we couldn't live. It's called variously prana, chi and other names. We breathe it into our lungs and it's distributed throughout the body, keeping us alive. When it is hoarded it becomes stopped up and closed off. Cellular walls become rigid. People grow stiff, sick, old and die too young because we've stopped it from flowing. We die on the vine when we don't flow love out to others and receive love back. It is a mistake to think love is something personal that happens between two people. This workshop will show this is not true. We will feel feelings being stimulated from a stranger. The light - the same light from the sun - is being moved around so it can finally be FELT! When it moves, you feel it and it feels very loving. A perfect stranger can give you warm fuzzy feelings if they know how, and if you trust them. If guidelines are pre-agreed upon. It doesn't require that one special person to do it for you.

Love is a universal life force. It comes from the sun. When it is passed forward and given to someone else, it becomes love. One can feel love. There is no question what love feels like. Love is the electrons coming from the sun. Electrons must move and flow to create love, otherwise the light dims and goes out. Electrons are in everything, from TVs to tables, to cars and food. It's the living life force of the human being. A hateful selfish human hoards it and a loving person gives it away. Somewhere in the middle is the perfect balance. It doesn't require falling in love with someone to feel a joyful elevation in mood. Love is already inside you, blocked. Getting pummeled and cuddled by a volunteer stranger who shows kindness will prove it. That's the intention anyway. There is more to this than I'm writing about here, but we don't want to talk. We want to ACT!

On the day of the workshop there will be at least 4 tables because I have four in the house. Maybe there will 5 tables if someone brings theirs. With two people to a table, that will allow 10 people. If I can get hold of another table we can have 12 people in the group. After everyone has been pummeled and pressed with kindness and caring, then we'll have supper together. I will ask people to bring (contribute) a snack to the supper table. That way this will cost me nothing.

This is a bit different from what I've been writing about all these years. But as I said, I have learned a LOT about human nature. For example, committed couples should be prepared to swap with others, not each other if they attend this workshop. Jealousy, envy and insecurity leading to possessiveness is the result of not moving the life force out to others. This is a reminder that love is not personal. It is only made personal by hoarding it and holding it back. There is a tremendous misunderstanding about love. Sex is a whole other story, not related. This is a chance to try it out. Expand warmth and caring to some other people and see the home relationship start to become excited again. Even with clothes on it brings wonderful feelings of transcendence and peace. We are human and we need this energetic interaction with more people.

4/3/22 - Spontaneity is the greatest gift of spirit

During a conversation with a woman friend I realized that spontaneity is what I’ve been searching for. I told her that I respect men more today than I did before because I see them as being so “fixed”. They are like “fixtures” planted in the middle of the house or wherever. They are unmovable so you have to walk around them! They are solid anchors to the earth, concrete like stone. Husbands hold me down and anchor me for I am a free spirit. Without him and his fixed positions that he takes, I would be unstable. I used to resent being held down, now I appreciate it. I have grown in maturity to understand that men are here for that purpose, and that allows me to be spontaneous and bring my divine nature forward. Seeing the beauty in him as an opposite to me makes me appreciate him more. He provides logical boundaries and the stability which I don't have.

The fixed nature is the pre-planned agenda. Following a routine. Not allowing emotion to interfere. Following the law, the rules. The fixed nature in men used to be a problem for me. Now it highlights me and MY nature. Knowing that, I am free to become that which I used to seek - spontaneity of spirit flowing through me. It brings me full circle to my own worth, my own nature, while at the same time it provides me stability living in a world of so many opposites, and thus confusion.

Spontaneity is creative. New awarenesses grow out of spontaneous chit chat without any rhyme or reason, just flowing without an agenda. An agenda provides predetermination and the need to stick to bullet points. I like not having bullet points. I like being spontaneous. It has been my passion to follow the freedom flowing from my heart, my loving nature, but men have always been a block to it. I didn’t understand. A fixed agenda does have a purpose. Now I understand the purpose of rules and agendas and heavy-handedness and controlling authorities. I understand the need for the dark side. It helps in appreciating the light. I understand. Opposites are needed to see the differences. Understanding the differences leads to appreciating them.

I’ve been wondering about the role of the feminine. I wasn't sure until now what it is, other than the obvious of being nurturing and caring. But there’s more. What does the feminine bring to the world? She brings to the world the divine nature - the opposite of the fixed nature. If a woman is allowed to be free, or - correction - if she is empowered to be free from within herself, then she will act spontaneously. And the spontaneous response is the divine response that comes from spirit, the holy spirit or whole spirit within.

As an added thought, for a long time I wondered how the galactics fit with the ascended masters. I did not know. Now I know. I found out this morning. I suspected but did not know for sure what the difference was. The galactics are still evolving their species, just like humanity is evolving as a species towards more enlightenment, towards more truth, more justice, more wisdom, more rightness, more refinement, more wholeness, all in the pursuit of the divine source. Earth is very low down and is a sub-species because it has been held back by negative forces. But there are many races of different origins in the galaxy and there are many galaxies in the universe and perhaps many universes, I’m not sure about that. But the races are different from us. They are evolutions from low intelligences growing upward to higher intelligence, from natural slow evolution to speeding up the evolution through alien seedings of DNA from different races.

It is not the body that counts, it is the consciousness that resides within the evolving races. Galaxies abound with richness in many different species. Some are benevolent and growing towards more goodness, and some are negative, growing in selfishness, greed and accumulating warrior natures. I understand these latter are diminishing because light is growing in numbers throughout this galaxy and others. This is according to the galactics who are speaking through human channels.

But the ascended masters are different. There are ascended masters of every earth, not just our earth but from all planets that orbit the suns in different constellations and galaxies. Ascended masters are those who evolved on the planet and completed their journey in polarity. They followed the same route that Yeshua did, who came to show the way to us on earth - by going straight up to the father in heaven, retaining their individuality and becoming perfection itself as brilliant radiant ascended god-beings. The galactics are still evolving through dimensions just as we are. There are hundreds of personal stories of various ascended masters in the books I am reading. They are the perfected human beings, now ascended into immortal individuals. Immortal ascended masters still on the path of excitement and adventure but on higher grounds. The ascended masters used the teachings left behind by others ahead of them, to discipline themselves. They used discipline by denying themselves EGO gratification or small petty personal gratification. And by this method they focused on the fire within which kept filling and filling and filling them with brighter and brighter light and internal fire power.

4/2/22 -Tao exercises strengthen the astral body

My work with the astral body is rewarding me with insight. The Tao exercise that utilizes imagining my astral arms and legs moving and not just the physical is helping me to understand. The astral is the emotional or feeling aspect that has been stuck and blocked over centuries of believing we were ONLY physical. We weren't taught about the astral body. We were too much into the intellect due to the patriarchal rules and laws and sciences. Everyone, including women, not just men, have repressed feelings and emotions that ought to flow naturally through them and not be stuck inside, frozen and unmoving. We have been re-pressing our emotions and feelings and sensitivities. We were programmed to stuff them back into the closet.

I received an image of an overflowing closet, packed with so much stuff that you couldn’t fit a thimble into it, all packed inside so the outside would look clean and presentable. The astral body is this mess which is totally disorganized and unmanageable and STUCK! I heard advice yesterday suggesting if you’re confused, write down on paper the conflicting thoughts that are bothering you that are all jumbled up in your head. Isolate each one and write it down. Put it into linear form. See what is in your closet. Take each item out of your repressed feeling state and see what you’ve got. It will make sense when you see each thought separate from the jumble.

Another piece of advice I received is, if you have a negative situation going on in your life, visualize it as a past event. This is homework. Imagination is the magic. We all have this ability. The technique is to take a negative situation and, using your imagination (your ability to visualize) first see the situation. Your ability to visualize is required. Then, imagine that situation zooming away from you, like a camera might zoom out from a closeup of an insect, to include more of the plant life around it. See the negative situation as a scene becoming smaller and smaller as the whole picture widens and widens. See the negative situation fading away and becoming part of the landscape in the distance. It's moving into the past and away from you.

You are consciousness. You are not your body. It is your consciousness that is doing the work. Consciousness is the broad landscape behind the focused mind. Ascension is on everyone’s mind these days, but ascension is the process of expansion. It is your consciousness zooming out to include the larger picture, away from the too-close perspective. Let your expanding consciousness work the magic of lifting you out of the past and into the now moment, where you are today. You can move back and forth at will, once you have practiced using your zoom lens. The future is that which zooms out away from you. You’re not there in the future yet and you can’t jump into the future, but you can remove the past, one item at a time, from your jumbled up mess of a hall closet or attic. By removing one item at a time by writing it down and seeing it laid out before you logically, you can trick your mind into zooming out and away from it. You can put it at a distance from you. You can put it behind you.

Consciousness is all you have in the end. No one can take it away from you. Consciousness is your life. Practice the magic of moving the view around, as if it were a camera lens. YOU are the magic. YOU are the power behind th elens. You can lighten the load or make it heavy on yourself. I prefer lightening the dreariness and let it go. This is the process of ascension, but I like the word "expansion" better. It is more practical. It implies that you are not leaving your body, you're not dying, you're not escaping, you're not transitioning. You are in control and staying right where you are. You are the technician behind the camera, making adjustments to what you want to record. These are some consciousness techniques.

3/30/22 - The ascending of physical matter: our bodies

The galactics are part of the ascension story. This has not been properly addressed. The ascending of the material matter, the coagulated stuff of planets that compose our physical body, the dirt, minerals, water, etc., the stiff, rebellious matter of our bodies also seek to ascend. It's evolving too. Not just our consciousness. If a person has not been to the Light like I have been, and like other people who have been there and back, as in OOB‘s (out-of-body experiences), there is nothing for a body to compare it to. If you haven't been there in this body, then you don't have it as a memory. There is nothing in the conscious mind (brain cells) to latch onto, and no experience for this body to remember. So this body, which is the outer garment for the soul, must do the best it can with what experience it has had.

I feel privileged that I have been to the Light and back. It was difficult to come back with my sanity intact (!) but I now understand better the process of evolving MATTER. The material that composes the physical body must rely on the soul, for the body is how the soul expresses its knowledge. The soul is creating the body’s reality from what it knows and has experienced up to now. I wouldn’t have known either, except I had an experience in this body of going into the light without leaving the body. My consciousness only left, and my brain cells kind of lagged behind. Later, it was like, "What happened? Where was I?" That was all I had to go on, the remembrance of the sweetness, the allness and the awareness of infinite light that went on forever. And love. And so I had to work at understanding. I came back to this life and this body, brain and muscle mass and I had to fit it in somehow. I had to undergo a transformation of learning. I, the soul, experienced the Light and have been feeding this information to my body ever since.

My body needed to adapt to a new way of being. It is evolving too. Thus my body has memories, now too, of what it‘s like to be on a higher plane. A more idealized plane of livingness. My body can visualize it much better than it could before I went into the light. We are here, body, mind and soul, to evolve. We do this by having higher, better, more refined experiences. We do this by reaching UP, instead of relying on the old ways, whatever "old ways" mean to you. Those who for some reason are privileged to go into the Light and remember it, so the body can remember it, is a great blessing. But for those who have not had such an experience (going into the light or heaven) they can do it too by learning the fine art of sitting in silence. Learning meditation or self-improvement techniques, which is the spiritual path.

Taking control of your body's vibration is the way to adapt to the elevating energies of the planet. The way to do this is by being grounded in your physical bodies. It is important to be aware that you are NOT your body. You are a consciousness that is inhabiting your body and causing it to move. You have blended into your body so that you think you ARE the body. This piece of information is missing from our education growing up. You are becoming awake to this fact in varying degrees, independent of what others think. Physical matter is evolving and ascending upward through the mineral, plant and animal kingdom to become human. Human beings are the break-away step from unconsciousness to self consciousness. The human animal has evolved to the point where it can be a host to a visiting soul. You are that visiting soul. You as a visiting soul here on earth are aware that there is a higher order of life to which you aspire. As a soul, you are not the body but you have blended into the body temporarily for the benefit of both. Your body learns from you, and you learn from the body how to live on this particular planet. Each planet is evolving too. Each planet has a master soul that keeps it alive.

In other words, you are not the mass/matter substance that is evolving upward. You are the spirit of the body. You are God. You are a piece of the God light or God consciousness whose home is the heart of God. You can call it source or creator, but you are a child of that creator. You as an offspring of God/Source/Creator, complete with powers to use as you choose to use them, chose voluntarily to descend downward into lower vibrational regions to assist the upward journey of mass/matter/physicality. You are not sentient, but you are inhabiting sentience. It was a choice that you had as a child of God to become part of the ascending process of physicality, matter, mass and substance, just like ALL planets are doing everywhere. All residents on all planets are doing the same thing in different forms and species other than human, for we all part of the one infinite creator. It is important to know that you are not your body, but you are here to work with your body and teach it manners and graces.

Your role as a a young god in training is to awaken to this fact, that you are NOT your body, but a celestial consciousness residing, actually flowing through, your body. You are a flowing consciousness which moves, whereas your body is dense and sluggish. Your role now is to quicken your body’s vibration and teach it how to move with style, YOUR style, and embue it with a lifting quality, an elevating quality, and a higher understanding. You do this by inhabiting your body better. By grounding into your body instead of trying to escape from it. By entering deeper into your body you experience more sensual feelings. This is a gift that your body gives to you, because in spirit you don't have a body. It is a sensual pleasure to reside in a physical body because you can enjoy such pleasurable sensations. You do this by joining with your body. You who are not physical but a celestial entity, a soul, are learning how to do this from your body.

It is not easy. You don’t understand your body. You, in fact, try to leave your body or whip it into shape through hard disciplines. Sometimes people do destructive things to it by taking drugs or alcohol or do wild abandoned sex, and then they reap negative consequences. What most people need to do is become more aware and understand they are a celestial entity and act accordingly. The soul is spirit who has not yet understood this fact yet. The fact that it does not have a body and drifts - not aimlessly for there are mentors - but drifts more or less aimlessly according to their desire to experiment an explore. Now we are each here currently co-existing in an earth body that we ourselves built from the substance of this particular planet.

The greatest need of the hour is to consciously accept this fact and ground deeper into the body with love, patience and kindness. Become peaceful with your body by sitting in silence with it, teaching it about the beauty of meditation, and consoling it with nurturing care, bringing it into alignment with you as if it were a child. For it is an evolving child. Bring it into integration with your feelings and understandings, with your knowledge and your intelligence and with your loving and kind intentions and your physicality. Your body will appreciate it by giving you pleasurable sensations. Bring it all together in alignment so that your body feels the deep “peace that passes understanding”. Your role is to work love and understanding into your body, organs, muscles, tissues, brain, all of it, so your body feels full, healthy, vital and complete. It goes without saying that YOU feel the same. This is the way to ground into your body. You must descend into your body by lowering your vibrations to match your body's vibrations, and vice versa. This is the ascension process. You and your body working together to rise together to more wonderful feelings (higher realms).

There are many levels in the Father’s mansion. Many kingdoms, many species. You are responsible only for raising your OWN body within your own locale and your own collective, sharing what you know through the aura that shines outward around you. This is the spiritual path.

3/28/22 - The spiritual path inspires, excites and exhilarates

The inner path opens to our higher self. There are many names and labels that people have put on the higher self, but it is mostly an inspiration. Inspiration is a new language that excites us. It turns us in a new direction away from the mundane. It prepares us to a new resonance, a new sound. It adjusts us to a new refreshing feeling. It is a higher state of mind. Sitting in silence is simply practice time. It doesn't always provide inspiration. But we learn from the attempt to sit or lie down and relax every muscle and brain synapse so there is silence yet we are conscious. When we come to the end of a period of sitting or lying in silence, we get up and go about our daily life again. But each time we get up and start moving we make better connections with the tasks we do and the people we meet. We are cultivating a more refined state of moving while remaining in harmony.

It is difficult to return from perfect peace back to monotony and/or conflict of daily life. We feel pulled out of a place that was so wonderful and harmonious that we don’t want to go back. But over time we become skilled in going in and out with more ease. The stillness teaches us in small daily lessons how to reintegrate with harmony. It is a subtle practice. When we were born here as an infant, we were born into a reduced and separated state, away from our comfortable expansive home in a peaceful loving state, into a solid body in a solid compacted world of fragmented parts. This world is only one world out of many in the universe, expressing differences. Each one is on a different level of refinement from low, coarse and vulgar, to high and rarefied. Our beautiful Earth has square corners and solid brick walls of coarseness and vulgarity, but we as a mass population are starting to chip away at the square corners and rudeness. A new age is dawning. A new time in the long history of Earth is taking place. The walls are fading and dropping away, the ceiling is disappearing and receding, the floors are thinning and our minds are expanding.

We are getting flashes of insight. Our mind is linked to the one mind, the creator’s mind. Our minds are approaching a more unified field. We are expanding and contracting. First we expand and then we contract. Our minds expand when we stop focusing on the finite world of solids and enter the stillness. And our minds contract when we end our sitting in silence and we return to the world of action and busy-ness again. Our sitting in silence is over and we get up and leave our peaceful room and go out to interact with people, objects and developing situations that disturb our peace. And when we return at the end of the day and sit once more in silence, we experience once more mind-altering expansion. Little by little we become adjusted to the expansion and contraction phenomena. The going in and out and in again. It is a matter of exposure and practice. We learn to manage it better. We become skilled at it. We are in training to become a master.

We learn through experience that there is life beyond this one small life in physical body. One that is more peaceful, more beautiful, more calming. And it's not that difficult to access. It just takes practice. We learn that it is available to access once we learn how. BUT - this is a big but - we were born here to be part of THIS world, not to escape it so easily. We can’t stay in the peace and inner stillness all the time. We must feed the body and force it to get up and move about or it will die. We learn that to use the quiet stillness time to revitalize and recharge our batteries. We renew ourselves in these quiet times where there is no TV, no radio, not even music, and no people. Just us alone, in private and quiet. This is our space. Here we reconnect to the peace which feels natural to us. It is our original home - peace and love and we remain conscious. The more we do this the more we bring that peace, love and light back with us into the busy, active world we live in. We have responsibilities that require us to interact with people and situations. We bring that stability and peace out into expression as we greet people, discuss, negotiate and move about. It is part of our mastery training to remain peaceful as we engage in the mundane episodes of our life. We help lift our family and those around us when we master kindness, peace and forgiveness even as we move about doing what we must do. It radiates from us as an aura. It extends out beyond us and overlaps the auras of those nearby. By remaining peaceful, kind and happy while working, is how we become de-programmed from the hard, fixed rules of the negative matrix.

The path to the inner self is easy to find. Many books have been written and more are being made available all the time. By browsing through books, videos, classes and newsletters we are pointed in certain directions. Each of us prepares our own path by taking steps in a chosen direction. We must choose. Choosing is difficult but it is our responsibility to choose. No two paths are alike because each of us is choosing our OWN path. The choices are infinite, but there is a selection process. One becomes more exciting than others and tugs at us longer and harder. We are drawn to the best one that fits our personality. No path is wrong. There are trials and errors and adjustments over time, but the path is slowly laid down. It is bush-whacked out of a dense forest. The path is one's inner path and it leads home, but whose home? Where? Who can lead us? The only book that can lead us there is ourself. We are the path. Don't look for it out in front of you because it hasn't been created yet. The steps are our choices. Choices are hidden in the DNA, past actions, the energy field, in the heart, the feelings, the emotions, the moods, the still small voice, the dreams. We are a walking library of light, spirit, goodness, truth, memories. We are consciousness remembering our way home. Consciousness is abstract and intelligent. That’s why we spend time sitting in silence, consciously awake and aware - to remember and to reconnect.

We respect the paths of others as we respect our own path. We create our own path quietly, consciously, with patience, over time. We can't expect it to happen overnight. It takes lifetimes of trial and error and we have those memories built into our DNA. They are recorded in our auric field. We don’t make a big noise about it because there are others would disagree with us. Better to keep it out of the limelight. When we enter the silence we enter a sacred place. Everyone is already there because it is the infinite field of the almighty and we are all connected there in the heart of the allness or oneness. It's just that not everyone remembers. Some remember it before others do but they keep silent about it.

It is tempting to be drawn into someone else’s path. Maybe a girlfriend or boyfriend follows a charismatic teacher and they want you to join them. Or maybe the personality of a leader is attractive to you alone and so you are drawn to attend classes. That may be the right path for you. There is only one way to tell: by feelings. If you feel depressed or confused, it is not resonating with you. If you feel better when you separate and go alone, you try again in another direction. You don’t say it out loud to your friend, you avoid dissension but it is important to recognize when you are not comfortable following someone else's path. The way to know for sure is an emotional feeling of rightness, or what we might call goodness. God is a shortened word for good. Recognizing a rightness so that it clicks for you, it usually causes truth chills, like goose bumps all over. You can get the chills even inside, as every cell in your body wakes up and starts smiling and laughing. It is a sign that you have clicked into something right for you. It resonates with your DNA as sxcellence, elevation, enlightenment.

If we find ourselves becoming uneasy or confused by following a particular path, then it is time to go into the stillness again on a periodic time schedule. Spend more time alone to get back in touch with the higher self, the God self - the good self. It is a solitary journey to follow the good self. It is the spiritual path. It is not a group endeavor. One can join a group and have fun, even uplifting and enlightening experiences in a group. It is fun. But never ever forsake the solitary practice of going within, alone, to that commune with the Father-Mother within. That is the only truth in life. It is how you reconnect with your own wholeness and sense of rightness. We were born alone, we travel alone, and we leave the body in death alone. Without that within connection, we lose track of ourselves and go off rail. It is easy to become hooked into the outside world called the dark matrix where everyone is without connection to the inner light and therefore depends on someone else to provide the light for them - and others depend on you for the same thing. These are the emotional cords that healers help us cut away so we can be free of the parasites that bog us down. We think we have to be there for them in their down times, but the better way to be there for them is to be the shining light of joy, exhilaration and bright excitement. Cutting cords is a healing technique that frees people from attachments to individuals or groups.

3/27/22 - The beginning of the spiritual journey

The spiritual awakening is like a journey through a dark and mysterious forest. It’s like when we were born we were born into a house. It was a big house but a house nonetheless, with walls, floors and ceilings, and several floors, but it’s all boxed in. We learned the rooms, halls and floors and where everything was located and how to maneuver through this house. By living in this house we were cut off from the outside world, the larger world, the larger existence. But we learned to live with it. It became comfortable. We adapted. We made peace with it. But now the walls are starting to fall away. Holes are appearing in the ceiling and the floor. Space is appearing around us. We are finding ourselves unbalanced. Where do we look to find stability? There is more openness. There are new feelings in our physical body. Where do we go for some solidarity?

I am learning that there IS a path that takes us through this scary space, and that path was left for us by very ancient teachers down to the modern day. It is the inner path of yoga, tai chi, tantra, Tao, energy teachings of many different names. There are teachers, but one has to find the RIGHT path for oneself. This is found by the individual who seeks. He must seek. It depends on the individual to use his own radar and intuition to find his own path. It is a journey of awakening consciousness. Consciousness is all we have that is our own and doesn’t belong to anyone else. We are who we are. We are conscious of ourselves. We are awakening to an inner quest. When one gets tired of the drama of the outer world, which takes all our attention when we are young, the individual will start looking for a more enlightened path driven by his own conscious awareness.

Each of us is waking up to the mysterious consciousness. It’s actually the mind, but there are roots to the mind which connect us to the greater mind. It is far, far more than the surface mind of the five senses, seeing, hearing, tasting, smelling and touching the world outside our door. There’s an inner mind that is connected to the cosmos. The information is flowing through our meridians unseen and undetected. There is a flowing through us which normally we aren’t aware of. When we take time to go alone into the silence of inner thought, to contemplate, observe and just listen to the silence going on inside our body, we can hear it. Our INNER body is talking and has been talking all along. Then it is that we start learning. It is the beginning of the path.

There is a light in the center of the heart and it radiates out in concentric waves like a pebble thrown in a pond. This light is information of a higher order than what we learned growing up. We learned from parents, friends and teachers how to get along with people, how to ride a bicycle, how to read and write and go to school and get a job and go to work every day and get married and raise a family and make meals and take care of our clothes and houses and yards and greet the neighbors. But this information that comes to us in the stillness, when we shut down all connection with the outside world and become really, really quiet, which is what all the spiritual paths teach, we come into contact with inner peace and stillness. It takes a mentor or guide to point the way because it’s very difficult to stop the mind from looking out the front window and be curious and thus distracted. A teacher can guide us. There are teachers that guide to feel comfortable and serene, and other teachers that don’t feel right for you. It is up to you to find the right path and the right open door.

3/24/22 - Warm fuzzy feelings

Why do we have warm fuzzy feelings with some few people, and others not? Why do we feel this special connection? On earth, here in physical form, we have souls from all over the universe coming here. We have those who just evolved out of the animal kingdom, having a human body for the first time - usually innocent. Then we have those who have been in low density for many lifetimes and have lost any semblance of light and goodness. Then we have those who are starseeds from very high dimensions who are here to help lighten the earth. Then we have those from other species and are in human form from somewhere else in the galaxy. These could be Lyran (feline), Yahyel (gray/human hybrids), Pleiadians (beautiful humans), Reptilians (both friendly and not), and others. If this is shocking to hear, get used to it. It is part of the disclosure that is going on right now, in this day. And you could be one of them from another world born to your mom and dad.

They (you) are also here to help, most of them. Their energies are different and each responds to situations according to what they are naturally used to. For me, I am loving and kind and like to help people, I step in to anticipate people’s needs and try to soothe the way, but often I interfere! I’m an empath and I use my feelings rather than my intellect. Most people respond from their intellect, mental, logical. They analyze a situation first with their mind and make decisions based on what they have experienced. In THIS life, that is. Usually it is only THIS life that a person bases his actions on.

So we have beings here who are from 2nd and 3rd dimension, and others from the 4th and 5th dimension, and higher - 6th, 7th, 8th, etc. Those higher than 6th probably are not born here but would appear here through some other way. I don’t know how to explain. Like me, I’ve grown into higher dimensions piecemeal, evolved upward, but here I am in a physical human body looking like an average human being, two legs, two arms, one head, looking the way everyone looks. You can’t tell what is going on in the background of their consciousness. You can’t tell who they are. You can’t tell what their motives are, except through feeling. It is through your feeling nature that you are empathic and know things that you not supposed to know. You just know and often you think everyone else knows. But you feel to be quiet about what you know. You can’t explain it. You know what you know, and you make your way through life based on that knowledge.

Different races have evolved on other planets, such as the felines (Lyrans), reptilians, bird people, snake people, dragon people, horse people, dog people. We were the monkey/ape people. Each species has evolved self-conscious intelligence as a group or planetary species. We have animals here on this planet which we consider dumb, but they were planted here by their parent race to be part of this Earth garden of many species, many colors, many fragrances. We all co-exist in the same garden. We are the human species of earth, but we have not kept up with our own advancement. We have been overrun by dark species, foreign to our good nature, and alien to our natural goodness in our hearts. This has kept us back and down. That is why we WERE headed for destruction, and why the more advanced other planets have been advised to come to help us straighten out our evolution and put us back on track. We need these "others" who have been born into the earth collective.

And because we are neighbors in the same galaxy (nearby), and other galaxies at slightly greater distances, we are part of the larger family of light. They need us to come back into the fold, because we are weighing them down. We are a heavy density planet. Not just third dimension density, but a warped, disfigured third dimension. We are not true to our own evolution. We need straightening out. The planet needs straightening out. That is why we are being visited through the Girk-Fit-Niir Alliance and Human Colony site.

Back to the warrm fuzzies and our human nature. This is why some people we meet have a special feeling for us, as if they are soul mates. I met a man once who told me about a soul mate he met many years ago, after he was married. And because she was married too, and they felt so good with each other, they decided to cut it off because it would mean the end of their marriages. They agreed not to see each other any more, and they didn’t. Isn’t that sad? Each of us may LOOK human but we are a unique walking library that contains a record of where we have been and the stories we could tell but don't. We've lived a myriad different lifetimes, each with one-of-a-kind experiences. We are unique. We've been everywhere. We have a huge accumulation of knowledge. And we are only visiting the earth in this one body today, currently, at this time. Is it any wonder that we might crossed paths with someone we might have known intimately before?

We could have come from Andromeda previously, or Sirius, or the Pleiades or any other system or planet of density. We could have come from another galaxy, another race, another universe for that matter, but here we are on earth and they might be standing next to us in a store and we notice them. We were born here in a human body, on Earth, by design. By our own voluntary choice to come here to earth at this time. It is not an accident that we are here. There are levels upon levels in the heavens above us. There are mentors too huge to name watching over us. No one made us come here, to be born here. We knew. Our vision is infinite when we are not confined to a body. We are born with limited vision. This vast knowledge has been pounded out of our intellect, but it is known in our DNA, our body cells, tissues and blood. Look to the feelings. Warm and fuzzy tell you something about this person.

3/23/22 - Future Sex, Part 1 - Advanced Training

(Note: This was received 40 years ago in 1981, shortly after kundalini was awake and functioning, and I was experiencing extremely high consciousness that was unbalancing me. I was out beyond my body a lot of the time (couldn't focus). My late husband and I began exploring intimacy with other couples and I found holding onto other bodies was helpful in focusing and grounding. This message came from Master Djwal Khul through automatic writing (no computers then). It flowed through me like a pipe line, merging with my own personal perspective at the time. That's why it seems sometimes as if it is me doing the writing, but the enlightened information comes from higher planes. A "merge" happens in channeling.)
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On a practical level, sex in the normal sense is a portal to higher consciousness but only when it is respected. Respect is an elevation of thought chosen by the mind. The higher the respect level, the higher the experience one may have during the intimate act. Let's say respect is the lowest level. From there, one may rise a bit higher through appreciation, then a little higher still through gratitude, then a bit higher through joy, higher still through reverence, and yet higher through adoration, praise and so on.

All of these thoughts, when held in the mind, are different frequencies. They put out and generate different waves that vibrate with feelings. They are felt viscerally, internally, as feelings when entered into. When thoughts are focused on these feelings, which one must practice with to better identify which is which, it is possible to "fix" them into that frequency like a laser beam or a flashlight held by the mind's attention.

When the mind wanders like a lost soul, mental attributes diminish and become defused. So the power of mind is developed by practicing with these higher states of consciousness, combined with the ability of mind to hold that focus. That is when the quality focused upon becomes a feeling. Mind must hold the focus long enough that it descends into density, which is the physicalness. Sensuality is a held thought focused on long enough to become physical.

In our culture we have not been trained in this art. Most people think sensuality is an accident that comes from some mysterious chemistry between people. That is far from the truth. We MAKE our sensual feelings by focusing on the quality we want. We "make" love by thinking and holding love in our thoughts, not by diddling the yoni or lingam.

When we focus our conscious minds on our heart we can become more loving. The brain is the computer where intelligence is received from higher planes and stored. The body is where love is received from higher planes and stored. It's a step-down process. The two go hand-in-hand. We receive intelligence (light) and love from higher planes. The mind receives and passes it down into the body by holding it and directing it downward. The body receives it as sensuality. Mind and body must work together to create a loving sensuality. They walk the path together.

When we focus on the third eye, specifically the middle of the brain where the pineal gland is, we receive intelligence from our higher self. Our God-self. The third eye must open to receive. Until it opens, it can open and close randomly, the third eye mostly recycles what intelligence it has already accumulated. But we can receive more. We are infinite creators. For example, one does not simply "make up" or pretend an emotion of adoration. One must think the thoughts like "I love you, I adore you, I revere you, you are beautiful, you are so precious to me," thoughts of that nature. As one builds a momentum of this type of thought, which you can think silently, it doesn't have to be out loud, it raises your consciousness until you are literally singing these adoring phrases out loud. You are opening and receiving the beautiful higher consciousness that is infinite and close to the creator and the angels of heaven, even as you are a physical body.

Your heart, which is where your true God-self is anchored, automatically kicks into action. The cells of the body, yours and your lover's, are stirred by this thought-triggered emotion of loving adoration because you are setting into motion the vibration of higher and ever-higher frequencies.

If one is going to pursue this path, the first thing to consciously change is to stop using the dirty words common to our culture which we think are sexy and cute. They are not. They carry very low energy in them. They pull you down to the basic animal sex. These are downward-spiraling thoughts. They are heavy with not only animal instinct but unresolved and undesired instincts of terror, fear, hurt, pain, and more. The way to change them is to think the high thoughts mentioned above, starting with "I love you," silently in your mind.

Think words of love, praise and gratitude and as you say these words silently, pretty soon new beautiful words start to flow forth on their own. You are consciously building a new momentum, taking it away from the old ways and carving out a groove that is new. New neurons are created and put to work in your brain. You are literally bush-whacking a path through the tangle and undergrowth of the wild forest.

It is consciously directed thoughts that tap you into the love energy stored on the high shelf of the heart. You have to reach up for them. These silent words spoken silently in the heart enter into the blood stream as the heart pumps, pumps, pumps your blood, and carries the vibrations of your words on the flow of the blood going all through your body and transferring it via vibration to your lover and your lover's body. These words are literally being woven, as you speak them, whether silently or whispering them out loud, into the fabric of your muscles and tissues and elevating you to higher planes of consciousness and physicality. They are bringing more light and goodness into you. It is a spiritual journey. Making sexual love is a sacred act when it is done this way. Sacred does not mean somber. Sacred means joyful, light-hearted and fun-loving.

Sacred sex is loving, light-hearted sex. Most individuals you meet on the street would not know what sacred sex is. Most people don't know what Tantra is but they are drawn to the word, like flies to honey because there is a vibration to it. A sweetness. A light. Love. If you are ever asked about sacred sex, you will know what it is. It is light-hearted sex raised to the highest level of love you can imagine or build. And it comes from the heart.

(Part 2 tomorrow - what couples do wrong)

3/22/22 - Is technology bad?

In the dream I was receiving instruction while watching the pool vacuum getting stuck in the ladder. It was a long dream, a long instruction. I finally came to consciousness hearing, “Technology is negative. We must balance it with grace. The long drawn-out dream was teaching me through the pool vac! The vac is getting stuck in the ladder. The energy of the vac is spitting out senselessly, aimlessly, as if it were short-circuited. I see the energy sparking and going nowhere. Technology is negative energy. We must balance it and calm it and smooth it to make it work, and with grace, forgiveness, happiness, gratitude, thanking it, making it feel better. I went back to sleep and woke again to write on my pad, “Technology is negative and we must balance it with grace or the society will go down hill. Thus the dark stories of artificial intelligence taking over.”

Why is this? And how? I ask, and the dream goes on and I wake and continue writing....

Because all life is created by Good (God). Light is a living consciousness. Dark is not bad as long as it has some light in it to keep it alive. Light is conscious of Good, meaning God. Harmony. There are precise laws of Good (God) which keeps the planets, suns and galaxies orbiting in order around greater central suns and galaxies. Dark has a purpose. Darkness is lack of light and provides a heaviness of atomic particles. Darkness creates coalescing of substance, mass and gravity. It is heavy and thick. It provides forms for physical light. It provides us with bodies to move in. Is there a science of darkness?? No, it is a science of light. Technology is different story inside the story of light. Technology can be taught to copy the light - but it can’t be taught Good. Light is good and it is a living force, a conscious living force. It is the creator, God. Technology is an artificial copier. It is not innately good because it doesn’t have life. It is a copy. It is not living. Therefore it can become evil. It can become a highly advanced and intelligent evil. It will not last long, however, maybe for a time, but without the impulse to align with Good, it will eventually destroy itself. Good is immortal and is growing ever bigger. In comparison, mankind (nature), is on a continually evolving path of consciousness aligning with Good/God. The soul learns what is good and not good through its feelings. What feels good and what does not feel good is a discovery process. The soul learns to discard what feels wrong. Technology does not have this capability. It does not have feelings in its cells. Feelings are a discerning force. Technology therefore does not have the living Good or God in it to compare itself to. That is why we must embue it with grace and kindness.

Soul is immortal. It will live forever unless it turns toward darkness and away from good (God) by refusing to align with Good/God/Light. It is possible to lose one’s soul that way, but those are relatively few. Light is winning throughout the universe(s) Ascension is the aligning with Good/God through the feeling nature. The feeling nature is the ability to discern right from wrong, or good from not-good. There is intense focus on Ascension in this time since the ‘60‘s, ‘70’s, ‘80’s. This is because the solar system and galaxy is speeding up by going into higher refinement of consciousness on a massive scale. The eastern writings call it the “inbreath of Brahma”. God is withdrawing all of his creation now, and we are part of that creation. It’s happening without our choosing. It’s best if we choose according to our good feeling. Let the feelings of goodness lead us and reject what makes us feel bad. We are going upward to higher refinement. We are going upward through layers of dim light to brighter light and brighter realities which are increasing our “feel good” realities.

There is more joy, more delight, more clarity, more togetherness, more bliss, more understanding, more ecstasy. The closer to the ultimate source or supreme peak we can go in self consciousness of feeling good, the closer to Good/God or Allah or Source we come. And all of our adventures as a separate being are not lost because we saved the knowledge and learned from it. We are unique yet we are in oneness with everyone else, the all-that-is. We are not just a CHILD of God. We do grow up to become God, become a part of the Godhead along with others who preceded us, who are more advanced than us. After learning what is not good (God) in us, after getting rid of everything that is NOT good (God), what is left over is God (good) ecstasy and pure happiness. We can ONLY do this through feeling and personal experience. We are consciousness, not unconsciousness. We don’t lose ourselves. We become ourselves as God. God started the journey. We were for a time outside of the oneness, but we arrived safely to the end of the separation to become one again, home again. That is why we must embue technology with grace, love, light, caringness and the myriad other God qualities. Thus technology becomes organic and ensouled.

3/21/22 - Personal processing

I have been processing a lot of personal stuff, sifting through what really is superficial and irrelevant and what is universal and important. Worth focusing on and elaborating upon. I listened to DK channeled through Jim Charles on the new Girk-fit-niir page just posted. Amazing info. It is all about spirit. Even the galactics are all about spirit.

MY personal mission is to hold the center on the feminine divine, which is love. In the upper realms there is no masculine or feminine. It is just divine. The higher you go, the more into oneness and less separation. It is all about identifying with this glory that is the Oneness within. There is no separation between me and the Oneness. I am the light. I am the glory. I am the peace and the perfection and the allness that ever lived in forms. I am to hold the center.

DK told me to hold myself in the center of the light. I have been shuffling through the women, trying to find the ones who best resonate with me. That is fool-hearty, he is telling me. There is no one who resonates with you because you are unique, one of a kind. It is your consciousness of yourself that is unique. You can never become the consciousness of another person, or another being, but you can click with their oneness. You recognize their oneness. Your uniqueness can click into their uniqueness and you can resonate with their oneness because you and they are one, part of the wholeness. But if you are seeking to resonate with someone who is trying to find themselves, as you are trying to find yourself, it is foolish. You will bog yourself down. It becomes personal. There are parts of them that you will NOT resonate with, and it will cause you to question yourself and them. This is a bog-down. Give up trying to find the perfect mate.

Women are no different than men, they just come in softer packages due to the issues you have had sublimating yourself to immature men in this darkened world. You are lifting yourself out of that mud that was clinging to you. You have separated from it. You are brushing yourself off. You are breathing free of it. But you are still aware that it is a mud-clinging creature. You are trying to find the divine in that mud-clinging creature and you keep trying. You keep questioning “Where is it?” You do not want to give up, but that is exactly what you must do - give up trying. Instead, focus on the glory of God that is within you and that is waiting for you to recognize it within you. Stop trying to resonate with faulty human beings and focus your virtuous thought upon God within. Feel the God within. You are the body resonating with the God within. You feel the I Am within and you are all powerful.

But when you allow your thoughts to turn away from the God within and try to capture or figure out the other person, you lose that connection within. You are here to be a pillar of light. You have grounded yourself. You have built up a column of light by your actions, thoughts and intentions. You have spoken it out loud for others to hear. Do not be pulled separately. Remember that you are building a column of light here and it is within you. Not outside you. It is within you as your consciousness. Be aware. Be alert. Be conscious of the light within you. You do not need to name me (somewhere above DK started speaking, not sure exactly where, but now he is the one speaking to me). You do not need to assign authorship to your articles. You do not need to assign your own name to the articles. Just present the message. You have done well to present the message. You are receiving feedback.

Yes, the women yesterday provided you excellent, clear-eyed resonance to your seeking. They did well. Do not try to conform to them or judge them as better than you or lower than you. Do not even judge them as different than you. Recognize instead, the clarity that came to you through their eyes. It was an excellent connect. Excellent indeed. It was worthy of all of your attempts to find the divine feminine. The divine feminine that you are seeking is in you. Do not look for it elsewhere. Do not try to teach it to others. The divine feminine is you holding the pillar of this knowledge within you. You are publicizing it now. You are radiating it now. You are letting others know. It is your mission. You wanted to do this. You struggled to arrive here. Now you are continuing to shine the light. You will receive further calls. You will receive those who recognize your light.

There will be others. Hold the light. Do not let the light stray. The light is a beacon light, like a lighthouse beacon to lost ships at sea. It is the light that gives them a focus, a place to connect to, a thought to connect to. A feeling to connect to. It is a rightness that they seek. It is a resonance that they seek. The beings in this world tend to lose themselves, even lightworkers tend to go adrift and forget how to find the resonance. When you are lost and there is a confusion confronting you, do this little trick: turn around slowly, as if you are a compass seeking north. Turn slowly through the thoughts that you pick up, the resonances that you pick up as you slowly turn. Turn and allow various thoughts strike you. Is this the way? Keep turning and feeling for the right way. You are a compass seeking the right direction. Walk towards the rightness feeling. There will be a thought attached to it. There is a direction here and a different way to approach or deal with the current situation. Perhaps it is merely to walk away. Perhaps it is to walk towards. Perhaps it is to shift slightly in one direction or another. Feel your way as you shift focus. (Received 12/14/19)

3/19/22 - The importance of using Light mantras & chants

Upon waking I wrote this down while still feeling it. This is a re-post from November 2020.

“You are love, conscious love, descending down step by step into a physical body, forgetting that you are love. You are an exquisite design all built out of love.” It is a continuation of teachings on Tantra. I felt the feelings of the chakras in place, as centers of warm love, warm suns, shining love out into me, as the basic and fundamental structure of who I am, myself, my light body. I am seeing this love sending out the lines of light we call meridians that form a massive web of light all through my body. I wondered about the psychic connections that people have with each other that trap them and bog them down. How does this relate to the warm love and light that is pure and holy? Then I saw the darker lines of light alongside the pure lines of light. And I decided to write this down so I wouldn’t lose the moment. This is what I wrote.

It is all about warmth - love. The centers are centers of divine love. The meridians are lines of warmth, love, pure, holy. These get closed down for lack of conscious use. Instead there are other lines running alongside the pure lines. These are darker and contain not-pure thoughts. Continual thinking of the not-pure thoughts turn these into hardened wires of not-pure beliefs. I saw them. These mimic the web of life in that they run through the body in a web-like structure and reach out to connect with others across space and time and with other off-planet beings who are not pure and holy..

This becomes a web of darkness, called the matrix. It is created by using these byways and highways over and over again. We cement the matrix into our reality, consciously or semi-consciously or unconsciously. It influences us in negative ways that are not pure. It is all about usage. Which thoughts do we travel upon today? Energy follows thought. The dark thoughts continue to grow stronger and cement the matrix of not-pure into our lives. The pure, warm goodness is also traveling along a network of light to keep the body alive within us. It is always there, but which highway do we strengthen today with our thoughts and attention? The light highways or the secondary highways which we have created within ourselves and our world?

Mantras, decrees, affirmations of a positive nature, said over and over again all day long, strengthens the highway of light within us and weakens the darker pathways from lack of use. The darker matrix will disappear in time as the light is influencing more of the thoughts of the people. But those who do not want to leave their wrong thinking and start aligning with the love, light and warm goodness available to them, will suffer. When the darkness shrivels up so will their lives shrivel up if they have not supported the light within them with goodness, love, light and warmth which is the more real and solid of their nature. The earth itself is taking on more light and thus the dark in the earth is shriveling too.

The light is what we are created out of. We are children of intelligence, warmth, goodness, love and light. It feels wonderful to be close to it. It is not mamby-pamby or flakey. It is solid and real. How real does love feel? It feels natural to us when we are in close proximity to someone who is filled with love and light and goodness. We want to stay in their presence. They are thriving and radiating warmth at the same time the darker hosts are weakening. There is a displacement happening within our bodies as we align more and more with thoughts of love and light and goodness and gratitude.

The incomplete thinking (in error) that was influenced by the dark has created a duplicate network which mimics the natural wholesome lines of light that is the structure and anatomy of the light body within us, which is the fundamental life force and breath force. The dark circulates through the body too and carries fear, doubt, frustration, anger, judgment, intolerance - everything that is not-pure love and not normal to a healthy human being. This dark network will disintegrate faster by replacing “normal” thinking with enlightened statements, decrees, affirmations, mantras, prayers, all day long. An hour a day should do the trick. The more the better. It will speed up the process of killing the dark matrix that is an actual real network of dark that covers our bodies - to the degree we have allowed it.

Because we have a mouse in our house today, I looked in the Medicine book to see what message “mouse” has for me. Mouse represents paying attention to details on a small scale. The advice is “Work towards wholeness. See the big picture but assimilate it in small doses. The big picture gives you a little at a time. Expansiveness can be overwhelming if you forget to take it step by step. Confusion is a product of too much too soon. Slow down and stop being confused by the maze. Observe the details of your present pathway.”

Yesterday an ascended master spoke to me: “The consciousness that a man evolves from the beginning of time is the only intelligent possession he has which endures through the cycles of birth and death. An individual consciousness is the only focus through which the godhead can increase the wealth of the individual and his world. Each individual endowed with a SELF consciousness, meaning the faculties of intuition, of spiritual perception and inner sight, can by self-conscious effort, raise his own consciousness to union with the Cosmic Christ and become a valuable instrument in fulfilling the divine plan through cooperation with the will of the Father.”

It is the will of the Father that is circulating inside our bodies in a golden river of warmth, love, light and goodness. It is our natural heritage. It is the wholeness we are to be working towards. It is a very, very big picture but in small doses, as mouse medicine says, we take it step by step so as not to be overwhelmed by it. I am back on track again after a period of down time. There is love circulating within me that has no interest in the political scene and anything that needs work. There is a natural flow of strength and substance within the light body. It doesn’t require working at it. It just takes affirmation, prayer and meditation. So I am back on track, not worrying about it. As Djwal Khul said a couple of days ago, “I am giving you the pathway to follow.” I think I am attending some kind of school at night when I sleep because I am waking up with instructions. (Received 3/30/16)

3/18/22 - Chakras are power centers - plug in every day

Becoming personally empowered is to gravitate towards your chakras to open them. Your power is in your chakras. Understand how you activate chakras. Your chakras contain more than what you think you are, and more than what you know you are. When you act and react from thinking and knowing, you are drawing on the past. You are drawing on everything that you’ve learned so far in this life. Your chakras contain MORE of yourself. When you activate them and draw on them on a daily basis, you will be surprised. They will give you so much more ability and power. Then all that you are from prior lives combine and merge into your higher source consciousness that is pure light. Pure light is the power that is accessed through your chakra system. It is not power over anyone else. That kind of power can be taken away from you. True power has nothing to do with anyone else. It has to do with you accessing your inner chakra powers.

A SUGGESTED MEDITATION

Hear the pure counsel of ascended ones. Your higher self is your ascended self. Your ascended self is your own personal trainer and guide. Sit quietly alone several times a day and focus upward to an image of a beautiful angelic you, the most beautiful and refined image that you can imagine. Visualize it so brilliant you can barel see the facial features in the dazzling brightness. Picture it above you in the atmosphere, awash in sunlight, anywhere from ten feet to many hundreds of feet above, whatever feels right to you. See it as a perfect image of yourself in the prime of life, noble in stature, glowing as if lighted up from inside. See it extending a golden column of light down to you, entering through the top of your head down your spine, sending little lines of light out to your organs on the way, lighting up your body, and extending down into the earth where it branches out like golden roots of a tree. You are a tree of life. Slow your breathing. Focus on your breath. Slow breathe 30 to 50 times while visualizing this dazzling image of your higher self above you, sending sub-atomic particles down through your body into the earth beneath you. As you exhale, surrender to your higher self, as if you were falling off a cliff. Let your pure dazzling higher self enter into you without resistance. Do this for 5 or 10 minutes, three or four times a day. You will be surprised at how peaeful you will feel overall.

If you do this every day you will draw the sparkling electrons - the light substance that is everywhere - into your internal golden tree of light. This will strengthen the link between your higher self and your conscious mind and physical brain. Ideas will flow better. You will receive new refreshing ideas of ways to practice visualizing. Don’t accept this as the only way to meditate. Your higher self wants to communicate guidance to you. It will guide you through ideas. Refreshing new ideas. We work and play in a dark world bereft of inner light. Strengthen this link and expand the inner light within your consciousness. It will expand and fill to become more solid light and more receptive to celestial communication. The perfect you, the crystal light in you which has been known down through the centuries in religious terms as the Holy Christ Self, is your God self. Don’t look to other people for advice. Get your final advice from your God self by spending time in silence and stillness. Solidify this link with your inner light before making final decisions. Most people have a weak link to their higher self because they don’t know how to do this. This is instruction from the Masters. Practice the art of communicating alone, without others around. When others are around, such as in church, temple, mosque or monestary, the other peoples' energies muddy the group consciousness. It interfere with your individual private higher self messages. Many people believe in praying together but you need alone time to develop the inner link.

All power comes from your higher self. It ebbs and flows up and down the trunk of your spinal column, referred to as the silver cord. It is a moving river of life. There are two activities to its flow. There is an active flow and a passive flow. When you are in active mode you feel energetic and want to move, talk, interact with life. That is not the time to enter the stillness. Your higher self wants to be creative. Listen to it and work with it, not against it. When you feel like slowing down, you're feeling somewhat tired, and want to rest, that is the time to stop and enter the stillness. Remain conscious and picture your dazzling sunlight self above you sending a collumn of sparkles down through your crown, down your spine into the earth. It doesn't take long to replenish the energy that you put out during your active stage. Work with your higher self because that's where your energy and feeling of aliveness comes from.

In the stillness, totally relax. Surrender completely to non-movement. Don't think. Follow your excitement and be active. Follow your peace and be stillness. The power is in the stillness. The power is being collected and accumulated in your cells, muscles and tissues when yo uare in the stillness. Even if it is only for 5 minutes of total stillness you will recoup some of that energy that you spent by being active. Power can accumulate and be stored up like money in the bank. Then when you’re active again, you have more energy to work with. Let your higher self feed you. When you are resting consciously aware, you are resting in freedom from human agitation. Human issues pull your attention into fragments. This is the purpose of meditation but many people don't know how to be totally still. Most people try to find "techniques" to follow. I did for many years. I kept trying new techniques. It only created more pressure to do it "right". Forget all the techniques. Just stop. Stop everything. Take time to be at rest. Let peace take over. If you go to sleep, wonderful. You will rejuvenate faster. Resting is what we call being in feminine mode. The world desperate needs the feminine.

It is not weak, it is simply resting. Everyone should take more periods out for resting. We have both currents of energy flowing within us, male and female. Active and passive. It is the higher self that is in charge of the flow. We make the mistake of thinking we can change our higher self but we can't. Human beings flail about trying to be in control but we are not in control. Our higher ascended self is in control. We are living in a world that has little light. The human condition is a faulty condition when it is not plugged into the light, the source of power. It is called inner lighting or enlightenment. This comes from plugging into one’s higher self periodically throughout the day. The higher self of each person is in the upper rarified levels of consciousness. Normally your consciousness is down here on the nether regions. Plug into higher self and notice the peace that comes from this daily practice.

Your higher self is linked in with all other higher selves which is linked in with the divine plan for the whole Earth. All higher selves are working together to transform the planet and move their lower aspects away from violence, war, hatred, greed and anger. We are slowly waking up to remember this. We are slowly getting it. Bits and pieces here and there. Flashes of insight. It is immensely helpful to enter the stillness throughout the day. Periodically. I have been practicing it myself and it is wonderful. It is keeping me energized and, more important, keeping my interest above that sinking sensation of deep tiredness. I don't get tired! Check in with your higher self every day in silence to prevent closing down the electrical connection. We close the door on our power source when we don't plug in throughout the day. We are like a battery that needs recharging from its power source. We cannot create the power ourselves. We must plug in.

3/17/22 - The body's sacred design is love
Divine lovemaking

The sacred design is to bring heaven down to earth and earth to receive it like a drowning man drinking water. Sex alone doesn’t do that. Sex focuses on the physical. What is missing is how to receive. How to open and allow the unknown in. How to surrender. How to trust. How to feel. What is missing in the act of sex is the feminine nature which is receiving, opening, allowing, surrendering, trusting, feeling. This is the other side of the wall - the feminine to our masculine rigidity, control and structure. Love comes from heaven, the sex force comes from earth. Lovemaking brings heaven and earth together to juices flowing and sensual experience. Sex alone, focused on the physical, does not bring heaven down to earth. An orgasm can cause a brief 30-second explosion of bliss, but then it’s gone again shortly after, whereas sacred lovemaking slowly builds higher, more loving experience, through prolonged periods of surrender, openness, trusting, allowing, and distributes it through the entire physical body, not just the genital region. This is something that must be learned. In ancient times Tantra was done in temples by priestesses who themselves learned the art from masters before them. The journey is inner experiencing. Teachers can instruct, but only the person him/herself can map out the route consciously, by experiencing it.

Lovemaking does not always end in a sexual act, but if the two people do it right, it probably will because it will be spontaneous. The bodies know what to do. You cannot teach lovemaking for the same reason you can lead a horse to water but you cannot make him drink. A Tantra instructress leads the horse (the body) to first feel the essence of the water, and then the horse yearns. When the horse yearns for the water, it opens itself to the urge and surrenders to it. This is when heaven and earth conjoin and seep into one another.

It is the great nourishing act. Sex focused on the orgasm (without love) depletes us. After years of quick sex, we grow old and lose interest in our partner. What are we missing? We have an innate loneliness. A yearning that won’t go away. A hurt, a hunger, a need. Learning how to bring love into the sex act is a profound addition to the evolving story of humankind.

The act of sex is a carryover from the animal life from which we sprung; lovemaking is an evolutionary step that takes us into a whole new dimension. When we as a species move from animal sex to sacred sex, we move up to god/goddess status. But there is a medium period which is required. A probationary period of testing ones resolve to let go of old ways, and the learning of new ways. More gentle, more refined, more sensitive, more loving.

Bottom line, it’s not the orgasm that nourishes us. If we were to have sex every day for years, we would still seek more because it’s not fulfilling us. No matter how many partners we have. Sexuality is not broken so much as it is outdated. We are growing bigger and our bodies have to surrender to the love energies that are coming in from higher planes. Sex up to now has been seen as two halves - a feminine half and a masculine half. We are growing towards unity and integration. Instead of seeing two separates, we are starting to see one whole. Wholeness. It’s all in the perspective. Instead of seeing war and violence, we are seeing peace and unity. It’s all in the perspective. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Fulfillment is anchoring in the heart instead of the analytical mind which breaks things up into fragments.

In the more advanced civilizations, those who have flourished for thousands of years without wars or sickness, have healed the male-female separation rift. They learned it through love. They learned that love is the power that sustains and nourishes the physical body, which includes the brain. Without the heaven-sourced vibration of love, civilizations fall into disharmony and discord. No two physical human beings are alike, they are too unlike. But when love is added to the equation, suddenly two separate physical individuals feel the oneness.

The focus and fixation on sex happens when love is not present. The orgasm is a little piece of heaven, but it’s quick and over fast. Not enough spiritual love flows in to rebuild what was depleted during the sex act. Continual sex without love leads to weakness and premature aging. But when love floods the body through prolonged lovemaking, the mind and emotions are enriched and blossom into fullness along with the physical. It is the love released during lovemaking that prevents us from growing old, weak and aged. The magic is in the love. The solution is to learn what it takes to make love. What it takes to prolong its flooding period. Different sexual positions as shown in Tantric books opens meridians, the same as yoga, but the secret ingredient is letting heaven’s bliss enter one’s life in a prolonged fashion during the day, during mundane hours.

When love is maintained so it continues to flow through the day, the entity grows and blossoms in beauty, grace, color, refinement, feelings, intelligence and in other subtle ways. To allow love into the mundane is life-giving. It enhances everyone in the vicinity, whether it be a plant or a lesser evolved being such as an animal, or a human being as the highest of all species on the planet. I want you to know that you are not a form. You are a field of knowledge, wisdom and experience that is unique because no other field of knowledge, wisdom and experience is quite like you or has been through the same experiences that you have been, in all the vastness of eternity/infinity. No one has your particular way of looking at things the way you do. No one has the refinement that you do in your particular way of seeing and knowing that results from your experiences. You as a soul are growing wiser and stronger and more alert and self-aware and thus MORE unique, not less, as a field of knowledge. You are not a form with hard outlines. You come into a human form for a short period of time, for a lifetime perhaps but then you leave the form behind, back to dust where it came from when you are finished exploring the physical world, and you continue on as a field of knowledge and return to your natural place in the infinite sea of consciousness. When you are finished with this particular experience which you carefully chose and requested and lined up for yourself, including the choice of your parents, and your sisters and brothers were in agreement to accompany you for you had consultations with them prior to birth, and with your friends, the meaningful ones, and your romantic involvements - all are part of your lifetime in a physical body. They were very much like a live play on stage, complete with scripts.

Consciousness is what you are, not a physical form. Keep your consciousness inside you. Don’t place it outside onto someone else’s script. That’s how you lose your power, your energy, your clarity and your happiness. You lose it. Maintain your singularity of consciousness that you gained from past lives, along with all the others in heaven who maintain their singularity of light, love and freedom. Freedom means cutting the threads of those people who are sucking the life energy out of you. Cut off the co-dependents and feel the power surge take place inside. Those who suck energy from others, called vampires, can never be satiated until they learn to cut the cords between them and they start relying on their inner resources. (Received 12/17/17)

3/16/22 - A flash and a zing of connection

This morning in the shower I felt the flow of life as a flash and a zing of connection. I realized - and felt it! - that the life force which we all want and need and feel depleted of, is the connection in a STRAIGHT LINE between the light we planted in the earth at birth, and the light remaining aloft as the higher self. The straight line is the spinal column. This connection is what the monks and spiritual masters are trying to tell us, namely, Stick to your own life force! Find that connection to your own power source. You have to plug in to your power source. Your sense of freedom, excitement and lust for life depends on it. We have been distracted and pulled away from our OWN power source by listening to other people, reading their books, replacing their thoughts with our own thoughts, following their advice when their advice was for THEM, the author, who is writing the book. They were so excited upon discovering it for THEM, that they wanted to tell everyone else about it. But it's for them, not you. They are telling you what you should do based on THEIR experiences. YOUR advice has to come from you.

Where is it? How do you find it? It is important to find your OWN connection to your OWN power source. So far, we don't know how many individuals have discovered it, but I discovered the green books dictated by Ascended Master Saint Germain. And he is a world-class authority! This is an excellent place to begin the study of your own power source. It's called the "I AM" teachings by Saint Germain. They come in a set of green leather covered books with gold lettering. They can be found on Amazon and other places on the 'net. Whenever you say "I AM Light" you bring in light. Whenever you use vocabulary like, "I can't" or "I won't" or "I'm tired" or "I'm sick!" you are cutting off the power of your life because you are the source. Your consciousoness is the source of your power. You might as well strangle yourself as use these negative words "I can't!". You might as well say, "I can't live. I can't do it. I can't see. I can't hear. I can't speak. I can't.

It is time to learn the power of "I Can" and the power of repeating statements of "I Am Light!" And "I Am God in action!" Because you ARE Light. You are God in action. Are you killing yourself or magnifying yourself? You are a cell in the sea of consciousness which has no end. You will never lose your consciousness, but you can dull it down so badly with "I can't" that it struggles even to breathe.

At conception we divide ourselves and put one piece of our immortal consciousness into mother earth as an anchor to hold us here while we're in body, and the other piece of our immortal consciousness remains above in the sky. Each person is then responsible to connect these two parts together to become one whole amazing enlightened intelligent enthusiastic inspired human being. We were born here to do just that. To fulfill our obligation, because we lived many lives and failed to make the connection. We've accumulated a lot of mistakes that are bogging us down today. The consciousness that is in the earth feeds our body with life and power by being drawn upward through the spinal column to our other half above. It flows up the spinal column (on the etheric plane) and our spiritual self in the higher realms flows down, entering the spinal column at the crown.

Intelligence flows down in vibration from the higher self, and solidarity flows UP in vibration from the earth. We figure this out through trial and error, using feelings, emotions and sensations that feel good. We discover the truth by following the inner sense (innocence). Peace, joy, excitement, whatever form it takes. It happens whenever we get close to the truth. I get the chills whenever I hit upon the truth. Chills are an age-old sign whenever you hit upon a truth. Watch for it and use it as a guide. “Ah! You’ve got it! You’ve connected your two selves together. Your outer consciousness of body, and your inner consciousness which has escaped your notice all of these years. The inner consciousness is the eternal self, and the more you can connect with it the happier your life becomes. This is the great work of every individual. The connection is a straight line from higher frequency to lower and it is done while in body. We don't have to die to become filled with light and knowledge. (Received 8/26/18)

3/15/22 - Connecting with your divinity
The tree of light within the physical

The connection with your divinity is made with excitement. Find excitement in your life. Excitement energy is the evolving upward ideal energy. It is smooth, not jagged as you are used to calling excited. It wants to return home. It is returning home. Divinity is in you in the form of a tree of light, but it has been separated from its home which is one with everything, by fragmented bits and pieces of superficial stuff of human efflulvia. You feel this fragmentation as being shut off, shut down. So, when the divinity in you gets close to somethin that is going to bring it home, it gets excited. You feel excited when you plug back into your tree of light within, which is your very source. The tree of light is alive like electricity and when you plug into it even for a few minutes, you KNOW you are alive. That tree of life flashes. It is going home! Now it is up to you to learn how to connect with it more often. And to learn how to manage it and control it and use it to enlighten your way home. It is there for you to use. If you are feeling excited, notice it. Use it. Don’t shut it off. Be aware of what excitement energy can do for you. Be alive. Be in the center of this energy.

The human body is condensed consciousness which forgot who it was. Without knowing the light of consciousness or how to connect with it, the mass of dense consciousness gets heavier and heavier until the light goes out completely and it is lifeless. During meditation I was shown this. I am shown black holes in space that suck up such lifeless objects, but they are recycled and re-purposed on the other side. The purpose of physicality is to create a beautiful glowing physical world with physical human beings who have NOT FORGOTTEN their light! And it has also not forgotten its mass, its physical body. There is a reason for creating mass. Condensed mass provides the fun of emotion and pleasure that solid forms can have with other solid forms who remain conscious of the light within them. Beautiful physical forms are a blend of light and mass. We call it darkness but it is simply mass. While I meditated this morning and received this vision, I saw a ship directly overhead in the atmosphere beaming down to me. I had a lengthy speaking in tongues session during this time. It was quite strong. It was like a blessing on my own body, into various parts of my body, appreciating and sending love and acknowledgment to my body. There was a lot more today, very clear and strong, but now as I record this I can’t remember.

3/14/22 - Energy in motion (emotion)

Men of earth pride themselves in shutting down their emotions and so separating themselves from their girlfriends, wives and children. Men are programmed to do that by their father mostly, and perhaps some mothers do that too. It creates duality, coldness, rudeness and disrespect in the family. The world is in conflict because of the way men – mostly men - shut off their ability to feel emotions and thus do not feel connection. There is that within us that is capable of a better, fuller consciousness with others and ourself. We instinctively know that we are all one consciousness having separate adventures, but we love doing it “our” way alone, without help. We want to figure things out by ourselves. “Wait, don’t tell me!“ This is the Earth school. We learn by separating ourself from the pack. We are forced to discover the resources within ourself. We are learning to be Self responsible. Self accountable. Self aware and dependent only on our SELF. But there is another side to us which needs to connect with others and the world around us. It is the feminine side of ourself. There is a shift underway. We are in a new age. We are finishing up the old way and closing it down, each inside of us alone. We are aware.

We are moving ourselves back into balance, away from separation and aloneness, by coming back in touch with our emotions. Emotions are the bridge to higher consciousness. Emotions connect us to planes of existence beyond separation. They return us to connect first with our self, then to others nearby, then to others beyond beyond this realm. Emotions are return us to roots we did not know we had. They are returning us to galactic families and the universe as a whole. We are, each one of us, feeling or sensing it in our cells, that we are one in the body of ONE, the wholeness out of which we came, God, creator, the all-that-is, Allah, whatever word you choose to use for the "beyond". It is one mind, one source, one self, one God, and it is mind-boggling. Still, even though we are having these experiences of reuniting with what is beyond us, some call it Home to oneness, we are not being called to leave the planet. The shift is entirely a consciousness shift, a mental opening, like the iris of a camera lens opens to take in more of the surrounding terrain.

We do not lose our individuality or our body in this process. We strengthen our individuality. We become more of an individual by staying rooted and grounded in the center of our mind as we expand the experience and take in more than we saw before. There is a sense of wonder and awe the more we can take into our conscious knowledge and remain firmly in our own center. Then we link to others naturally and easily who are doing the same thing. It is as easy as sunlight filtering through the leaves overhead. We click in, fit in with the rest of our collective. We, this “I” that I am, is a part of a great mystery. We don‘t lose our consciousness, we expand it. By linking into the larger terrain, at first as an unknown, perhaps terrifying at first, then slowly we adapt and become part of it. Eventually, as we adjust, we become part of the greater whole, unifying with what becomes a peaceful state, what becomes “heaven”, the infinite. But we retain our individuality.

Moving from the third dimension of solid physical as we have become accustomed to our reality, we enter into the more fluid state of the fourth dimension. It is all about opening up to feelings. Not just from the human outer perspective but from the perspective of the one who is BEHIND the human perspective, the soul, the one who observes. We become the observer. There are two ways of learnings. One is functional learning, up close through the tasks we take on in the physical. The second way is observational learning from the non-physical perspective. This is the soul's perspective. The soul is not pushy. It is the watcher and learner.

It was a dream that showed me what the non-physical observation was like, and how it works in tandem with the physical function. How it connects and integrates with the physical function learning. In the dream it was shown to me through actors on stage. As they performed they were being filmed by a TV crew. There was then another TV crew behind the first TV crew who were observing the functional TV crew. The functional TV crew were focusing on the actors, zooming in and getting the right angle and sound of each person on stage. The observational TV crew were focusing on the first TV crew - the people who were working at focusing on the actors and filming them from the right angle. I was with the observational crew. We were watching the functional TV crew becoming intensely focused on the actors. We watched them as they watched, listened and observed facial and body movements. They were absorbed in the actors every move and becoming more closely connected with them, even identifying with them, as we observed them from behind them, from a’far. I saw the TV crew blending with the actors. I could see them becoming one with the actors. They were identifying with the actors. It was just a normal TV show but this showed me how intense mental focus can become emotionally attached to an object outside itself, and how this intense focused concentration is a link and a connection to the object being concentrated upon, and how emotion is created.

The TV crew were filming only surface appearances of other human beings, but their observations were becoming so intense that they were moving their energies back and forth between the actors and themselves, the TV crew, the cameramen, soundmen and the actors themselves. They were creating a oneness between them. It was energy in motion, called E-motion, and everyone was becoming one consciousness as the filming and acting proceeded. All the while, I was observing this. We who were watching the TV crew perform its function as film-makers watching the actors, were being influenced by this going on. We were also being drawn into the consciousness of the filming. We were also being affected. The observer behind the observer of the actors on stage.

It occurred to me that this is what Tantra is all about. It is called the web of life. As I have been listening over the past two weeks to the Galactics and Ascendeds channeling through human beings on the Girkfitneer website, I am studying the connection process. This is like a summary, or conclusion, or the capstone on the study. I see it in action. There is a heightened communication going on here. I am learning and connecting and identifying. As I watch Jim’s face as he channels many different galactic beings, and as I listen to the Galactics speak through him explaining from their side, and as I listen to the chat room questions back and forth between ETs and humans, I am drawn closer and closer into understanding that we are all one consciousness. We were separate before now. Now we are growing into a community of oneness. We are growing in connection. It is only one consciousness that flows through all of us, no matter what planet we are on. Even though it's through zooming devices, we are coming closer and closer into harmony and understanding as we are learning. It is the same consciousness clicking into place. I realize this in the middle of the night and wake up to recognize it. I am being shown how separation and duality is healed through functionally interacting with people on the physical level. Through intense focus of mental concentration and listening it is the same consciousness in them as in us, as in me, no matter what they look like as separate individuals, it doesn’t matter. The same consciousness is in us and in them. It is us. It is them, it is the other. We are all one.

Later, while transcribing the meeting between the government and ETs reported by Tekkrr, I briefly wondered what she looked like. She is Lyran, a feline, a lion, but that thought was brief because what she was saying through Jim as she spoke through him, was more important. I felt a familiarity, a rightness, a synchronicity, a linking with her. I identified with her, a galactic from beyond earth, and that was more important and more valuable to me. I became more heightened and aware of the process of her use of the English language. Language is important to convey consciousness and feelings, but how is this done as she uses Jim’s body as a conduit and channel? Does she use his brain or his energy? She said she studied the human for two years and learned the thought process of humans and the psychology of humans. But how does this apply to language, such as English, French or German? Perhaps it is done through telepathy, mind to mind and thought to thought. Or is it done through intention that selects the right words to use? Maybe the thought behind the thought behind the thought?

The experience of listening to the Girk-fitneer website, I realize this is first contact with extraterrestrials. It is underway. They are channeling through humans. Human beings are connecting mentally and consciously with heightened mental beings whose awareness is higher than our own. A higher consciousness. It is an expansion of my consciousness just to listen and observe what is being said. I am identifying. The mental observation becomes the connection to the physical object or person being observed. It is said that consciousness is what is meant by “quantum”. Things are changed and moved by the observer who is observing. It is done through consciousness and there are levels to consciousness. On earth we are separated in our consciousness so we reduce our connections with each other to a common denominator. We look at the surface of things and tend to ignore the depths underlying the surface, including our own emotions about what we are looking at. But when I am alone and read articles or listen to videos, that then takes me to depths beyond the surface consciousness. I can pick up subtleties. There is emotion involved when I move my consciousness from one level to another. Emotion is movement of conscious connection. Emotion is a bridge connecting two distinctly separate planes of reality.

Whenever I read an ascended master transmission, or listen to a Girkfitneer webinar, I am heightened and I feel excited. I learn things. When I close the book or video and come downstairs it takes a while for me to adjust to the lower frequency. It's duller and less exciting until I re-focus to the old world, the old reality which appears solid like cement and immovable. It doesn’t move. It’s fixed in place. But once I have re-connected to my physical surroundings again, I am emotionally connected once more to the mundane world and the various things that I must do to live here. I can make decisions according to what is appropriate for me to do, and what is not. I have to be careful because if I sit too long at the kitchen table I become stagnant. It is better to get up and move around more quickly because movement is motion and creates e-motion. Energy in motion is emotion. If I get up and move around more often I become more easily and fluidly connected to my tasks.

This is a discipline of yoga to move often to maintain a connection between mind and body. Which mundane tasks do I focus on first? My emotions tell me. If I sit too long without something of interest to hold me, I stagnate. There is fluidity to the physical world and if I myself stay somewhat fluid myself, I can stay in harmony with it. I can detect what is appropriate or not, at any given moment, by feeling my surroundings. It’s done through feelings of interest and wanting. I WANT to do this task. This is the subtlety of emotion. If I just sit stagnant and look around the room, I see only through the abstract intellect. In order to connect I need to stand up and move myself so I can “feel” my way into the fluidity of the room. What draws me? Where do I want to go next? I wonder if the reader is catching my drift. It is subtle. Mental observation doesn't do it. We need emotion to connect with the vibrations of a thing, a person, an extraterrestrial or situation, in oder to know whether it is friend or foe, benevolent or dangerous. We do that through feelings. By connecting with the vibrations emanating from that source. It is no different in a circle of human beings. In a crowd we are drawn to certain individuals magnetically over the others. I heard once that Tantra is not transcendent practice at all. It is learning to live in a fully functioning body in the physical world, in connection with ALL life.

3/11/22 - Don't fight the matrix!

I woke with the words, "Don’t fight the matrix. The matrix is in you. Love the matrix and melt it with your great undying love and the matrix will dissolve and go away within you. If you fight it and hold anger or fear in you, you will divide yourself and you will not succeed in dissolving the matrix. Love EVERYTHING that occurs.”

There is life everywhere in the universe all around us, up and down the scale of dimensions, from low dimensions on upwards in dimension (frequency) to infinity or source. We on Earth live in a bunker underground, underneath the lowest frequency. We are not even in the lowest frequency but in negative frequency, meaning “trapped“. The human race has become trapped by dark galactics and that is why the forces of light have been battling the dark and the light is winning. We are the Light. All of the intergalactic movies, Star Wars, Star Trek and Stargate movies are based on reality. We recognize them because we are the Light forces living here. We were born here to radiate the light by activating the light within our sub, sub, sub, consciousness.

People with small orbits stagnate. We are here to meet the challenges as opportunities to expand and grow the light within us, instead of allowing ourselves to be drawn downward into muck, mire and entanglements. Instead of thinking, “Woe is me, it‘s too much, I am overwhelmed,” when there are problems presenting, think instead, “Oh thank you for this excitement, adventure and opportunity to cut the cords and use my God-given resources.”

The light is available at all times to use but we must turn away from the outer entanglements and tap into it. It is inside us. Draw on it. Don’t resent interruptions and challenges. Instead welcome the interruption as an opportunity to expand, enrich and grow and utilize your positivity, your light-filled expansiveness. Use your love, wisdom and power. People in small orbits stagnate and wither on the vine. That’s why people want interaction with others. They are dying in their small lives. We hold back our own growth when we require others to be a certain way, or to respond a certain way. When we are not big enough to accept them as they are we are holding back our own freedom and individuality. Our expectations hold us back from expanding. We must meet the challenge of obstacles with an open mind and an open heart. A more positive attitude is an attitude filled with light, joy, excitement for new growth.

If we are tired, if we are exhausted, if we are drained, then we must take time out and go into the silence. Empty the mind, empty the body, empty the soul, empty everything into the silence and the void. Draw on the inner light. It is there within. It is ALWAYS there within. It is the eternal wellspring that keeps our heart beating. It is love. The light is love. It is always positive and it never stops being positive. It is always there. It is the life force. We lose access to it when we put our attention on the outside world and allow problems to enter our consciousness. It’s our job to manage our attention, our thoughts and our emotions and not let that happen.

We have three powers in us: they are love, wisdom and will power. Love is our feminine side, will power is our masculine side and wisdom is the child - the human being who is constantly learning from its feminine and masculine traits and tendencies, and how to keep them in balance so our life grows richer. We grow from staying in balance between our masculine and feminine.

3/10/22 - More light, more truth

Steadily moving forward into more light and more truth brings me to our Earthly mission. It comes from further exposure to disclosure news, which marries the galactic story with the spiritual evolution story. The world is opening and gaps are appearing through which truth (light) is seeping into the main stream. Don't believe everything that is said about the war in Ukraine. There is so much more than meets the eye and ear. Be discerning. Truth has been cut in half so don't be caught on one side or the other. Stay open minded and wait for it.

In reading Cobra’s post on IMPLANTS, I see that ascension is the process of moving out of a dark house built of cards. The matrix is really an intentionally-kept dark atmosphere. We have had implants in us keeping us rebreathing the same air over and over, and reincarnating over and over, from death to birth to death to rebirth. But the good news is, the technology that was used to keep the recycling of souls coming back, has been dismantled and no longer functioning. We are free of that part anyway. Now disclosure has to continue to re-educate the human race. Death is no longer to be feared.

I am finding increasing numbers of near-death experiences being told on the 'net, recounted with genuine elation and emotion of the beauty that waits on the other side. Getting out of this cycle of death and rebirth back into the same hell-hole has been always the true path of the spiritual seeker, and the bombshell of the religious seeker. Coupled with the spiritual teachings I have been studying from the ascended masters, the benevolent galactics bring additional confirmation of a heavenly life after the Earth experience. There will come a time on Earth when death will not be part of the vocabulary here because death will have changed into a choice, not something inevitable or to be feared.

Nefarious implants kept us glued to the planet in the past, so that upon death we would seek "the light" and it would be a wrong light. A light that would entrap the astral body as it left the lifeless body behind and soared skyward. The soul would be “captured” by the plasma technology of the nefarious ones, without enlightened information or lessons in how to avoid it. Education. Education. Education is needed. When they talk about "implants" being put into human beings, these implants take the form of information and Light information can dismantel them. Truth, authentic truth, the real truth, needs to be given to the people. This truth is starting to come out now. But it depends on whether people are ready to hear it. I am one who is doing my part telling what I know.

I had a recent experience of a nephew, 50 years old, who suddenly died without warning. I saw him immediately clairvoyantly, swimming up a tunnel of light which was murky at the bottom but became clearer and clearer as he swam towards the surface. It looked like he was underwater. I felt he had ascended. I felt a huge leap of joy when I experienced this. Ascended masters are not spiritual saints. They are those who have escaped the rebirth entrapment that has been used for many centuries. They had overcome the dark side that was implanted in them. They replaced it with truth and light (genuine information). They made it out of the entrapment zone and returned to their perfected light bodies. They are now called "ascended masters". We are all destined to become ascended back to our original bodies of perfection. Each of us was created in a unique pattern of light. What religion calls this pattern the Christ body. I call it the crystal light body. It is the first born from the I AM Presence, the creator. Everyone's destiny is to return to that perfect crystal light pattern that was created by the Father/Mother in heaven - that which is known as the eternal immortal I Am Presence.

Those who ascend don’t have to come back because they consciously reconnect with their origins and they follow the teachings of their mentors who are beyond them. They know how it all works. This is what I have been studying for a long time. I am guided to share some of it here in my own words. New information keeps coming out to add to what I know. It is all coming together. We are uniting and unifying all of our separated beliefs. This is a wonderful breakthrough for me, learning from other people what they know. It is ot a time for comparing and judging, but taking what feels right and adhering it to what you already know. It is the process of harmonizing. Each new breakthrough is an ahHA moment. Another rung on Jacob’s ladder. It's very exciting. But there is still more. We are never truly lost. We are never forgotten.

When a soul becomes trapped into reincarnating over and over on this dark planet, it’s like when those three people who got lost in the cave in West Virginia several years ago, and were found at a cost of a billion dollars, nothing is held back in the effort to save them. No one who is ever lost. No one is ever forgotten. Everyone is saved. The entrapment into reincarnating over and over into the same dark planet, is a trap, a monster trap, and it was finally dismantled from our planet Earth. It needed to be taken down and it was. We could not have been rescued without the help of those beings higher on the rungs of the ladder.

There is no “karma”. All the religious teachings are part of that trap to keep us here befuddled and enslaved to the system. It’s like being lost in a maze of tunnels, unable to find the way out. The ascended state is not the end. It is the beginning. Once out of here we pick up our life where we left it before becoming trapped in the recycle of death and rebirth here on planet Earth, known as a prison planet. The ascended state is like living in paradise, or the Garden of Eden. It is the true life and we are free there. We were meant to spend only a lifetime or two away from our Home and then return after the mission was accomplished. Many of us came here on voluntary assignment to assist in saving the planet and ridding it of the dark forces. But life here has not been easy. It is full of traps and snares that catch our attention but it is not our true life. We know this. We say it out loud. There is a a most heavenly life beyond this life or we wouldn't be able to wish for it. It is a longing to return. The Earth life is just a reminder that there is a heavenly life waiting for us. The doom and gloom of the recent pandemic and isolation is a reminder. It's all been an artificial implant into our consciousness to be afraid.

Many who read this may not be able to accept it. If it's too far out, take it with a grain of salt and walk away. Don't let it bother you. There is a bigger plan operating than the human mind can conceive. There is a bigger life also, that the human cannot conceive. I have touched it on occasion. It is difficult to explain but I am told to go ahead and share what I know. There are many truths that have not been able to be told until now. Now we are being given permission to speak out. The last few days have been exceptional in terms of new information. This morning’s meditation was wonderful. I am working with the Tao exercises which are simple but strengthen the energy body known as the astral body, or etheric double. It is a first step to activating the light body. We have to experience a thing before we can believe in it. Many people do not believe in the energy body or the auric field, so by experiencing it one begins developing a belief.

Then we can get past the limited belief that we are just physical. The inner light can then be upgraded, our brains can transmit the data and we can see beyond the limited view of the five senses. The sun is a portal. We are all rays that come through the sun. Not FROM the sun, but THROUGH the sun. We are all part of the oneness known as the creator, or father/mother God creator. So every morning I connect with the sun and it is always amazing. I called upon it this morning. I called in the goddesses first, and each one was amazing, and then I called in the gods, the lords, the male masters and that was increasingly more amazing, and the light was HUGE! I wish there were words. I was wearing earphones and listening to the most beautiful music. Music which lifts me and keeps me lifted. The light was extraordinary. Well, enough. I won’t even try to put it into words.

3/9/22 - Sitting in silence

When connecting with the divine there are three separate aspects of yourself that are brought into alignment: your mind, which is an endless ocean of thoughts; your emotions, which are an endless ocean of feelings; and your etheric, which is an endless ocean of sub-atomic particles made up of atoms and electrons. As you settle yourself into silence you bring these three separate aspects into connection. The turbulence relaxes and becomes still. The three layers are called subtle bodies on other dimensions. They overlay your physical body and are usually out of alignment, which causes feelings of loneliness, separation, gloom, discord and confusion. When they are brought into alignment, peace prevails. This is important information to understand.

We’ve lumped these three separate aspects of ourselves into one generic term called "the aura" or the auric field, but they are each unique and distinct. Each one is a productive, creative aspect of yourself. Understand your spiritual anatomy. Understand the power contained in the silence. It is the first step in the process of embodying the great love that you are. You have been kept out of alignment through ignorance and purposeful lies by the constant pummeling of outer-world noise. It has distracted us. We have given our power away to the noise. Pissing it away into the wind where we lose ourselves and become lost. We have given away our own love, wisdom and power. Every day that we do not sit in silence for an hour, we keep these three precious aspects of ourselves separate from one another. They separate and go off alone, like little children, each with their own agenda, and they fight with each other. They do not work together in harmony. They are not united as they are designed by the one infinite creator to do. So they accumulate unhappiness, mistakes, errors and disillusionment. This happens because we are not aware. We think we are just a physical body. We do not know how beautifully simple and graceful we are when we are unified within ourselves. Instead we are broken into pieces that float aimlessly. We were born with a disadvantage. We were born with blinders on. Like horses we were led in a straight-ahead direction to follow the path laid out by our predecessors, who were following THEIR predecessors who were following theirs, etc., on down the line for centuries.

I’ve been meditating and studying the results for myself over many years. I've been writing down the revelations that come to me. This one was written on November 20, 2018. By sitting in silence every day, we take off the blinders and look around to the left and right and behind us, and we see that we are actually multidirectional, which means multidimensional. We have choices and options. We can go where we want to. We have an imagination. Imagination is a magical power. We've been told it is childish. But children are wiser than we adults. They know. We do not have to follow the straight line ahead that our parents and teachers taught. If we stop and enter the stillness and daydream as the children do, we allow the gathering of our wits to fall into alignment. We contemplate the visions that appear and we weigh it against what our parents teach. We cultivate wisedom.

By sitting in silence as adults, we mimick the children. We allow the daydream to come to us. We allow the three separate fragments of our confused nature to fall together. The light turns up. It becomes brighter inside. We can see things better. We are light. We are consciousness. When we allow the silence t

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