Integrating the divine feminine and divine masculine - the heart is the new base line
Archives 9/28/19 to 2/17/20
Archives 9/28/19 to 2/17/20
(Much of 2020 is missing, there are no more)
2/17/20 - Today I am once again posting on the GALACTIC page and on the GODDESS page, because it is getting too much for me to post on 3 separate websites. I will maintain the separate websites for awhile but because I am unifying, as compared to starting new projects (which I was for awhile), everything I wish to share with the public will go into Anakosha. I am Anakosha and it is getting tiresome to have to separate postings by subject matter so people can find them. Everything that is of interest to me will now be be united and posted here. It simplifies things for me to gather all my chicks and children into one whole website presence. I am Anakosha, known as Diana, and I wish you a pleasant day today.
1/20/20 - Well, hello again! It is a new year and over a month since I have blogged on Anakosha. However, I have been busy posting on the GoddessSphere.org website and also on the Galactic Federation website, both of which can be accessed by clicking "Goddess" and "Galactic" on the menu. Also I have been sending newsletters under the GoddessSphere signature. Busy, busy, busy, going back and forth between 3D and 5D reality and trying to stay balanced. Time passes quickly in 3D but does not exist in 5D, so it is a challenge coming and going.
Today I created a new category on the ARTICLES page called "Ascended Master Djwal Khul Speaks". These are messages he has given me over the years. I thought I would be able to organize them, but time is passing too quickly so I've decided to post them as they make themselves known to me. In 5D you do things as they flow by your window - that is, if you can capture them on the fly-by. DK has been my guide for 44 years and they are priceless dictations of wisdom and instruction. I will post them as time permits.
I wish all a wonderful year in 2020. The world is about to change and unfold in quick succession. Stay centered in your own heart and mind no matter what happens. Be real. Be solid. Be at peace within your skin. Your first obligation is to keep yourself in the center of your universe. Everyone has to hold their own center. You are not responsible for them (except for the children who are not mature enough to make their own decisions.)
12/20/19 - After a good solid 10 hour sleep last night with no lingering dreams, an awareness started to dawn on me like a sunrise casting ah-HA! rays all around as I laid on the acupuncture mat. I urge everyone to get an acupuncture mat. It stimulates the meridians and helps back pain.* (See footnote*)
Over the last month I’ve been plugged into an extraterrestrial group called www.girk-fit-niir.com, which is akin to plugging into a galactic wall socket. Before this, I believed it. Now I feel it. On this website beings from outside our world speak through channels and give us wisdom. It’s not just information. There's a feeling of familiarity. There's a sense of finding something that had been forgotten. Like, “Yes! Of course, of course, I know.” So it’s plugging in to something I once knew but had somehow lost the thread and I've been wandering around looking for it. It's similar to when you're on the phone and suddenly lots of static comes in and you can't hear them any more. Then just as suddenly it clears up and you hear their voice strong and loud again.
The aliens talk about it as telepathic. They are becoming stronger in telepathic communication with us. Instead of appearing in physical form in front of us, which they attempted to do right after WWII showing their ships, but it didn’t work well, there was too much fear, their efforts to approach us stepped back. They didn't want to cause fear and panic. They have been studying us to see how best they could reach us in a smoother way. Abductions took place for a few decades by some of the off-world races in order to get human DNA to mix with their own to create hybrid children. This is standard practice throughout the universe, to mix genes to advance a race. But the abductions, even with amnesia, were causing negative reactions, so that was stopped. They were stumped. They didn’t know how to reach us without causing fear because Earth and its citizens have been so locked down against outside interference.
Then everything changed when they discovered that some humans were empaths. They didn’t realize. It was a profound discovery. They had been perceiving Earth humans as having disorganized minds and emotions that made us impossible to reason with. Thus channeling began through people who were meditators and empaths. They are connecting with us by telepathy. Mind-to-mind. The problem is, most of us have been taught that such things are ridiculous and not remotely possible. It's just so-much fantasy. So people are not pickinup up on higher-dimensional whisperings through their extra-sensory perceptions. The website mentioned above is a portal. It is now online at: www.girk-fit-niir.com. The point for bringing this forward is to share how it fits into a very personal local matter. It dawned on me as I listened through earphones. As the awareness grew steadily brighter and saturated my entire understanding, I realized this is about couples' relationships.
We speak about our relationships sometimes while focusing on issues we have with each other. And yet, issues aside, there is something larger that holds us together inside the relationship. While the aliens are addressing this on a galactic scale, I am seeing the positives playing out personally in our individual relationships. I didn’t see it until this morning. What we have going for us inside our couples' relationships is the same thing the aliens are talking about - telepathic communication. They are talking about a species “collective”. Couples have a relationship "collective". The aliens speak of being part of a collective on their planet, and we don't understand collectives because we on Earth are not one. Not yet anyway. But we understand our own relationships. Those of us who are coupled anyway. Singles may not understand right now, but they have had relationships at one time or another.
The relationship is our collective of two. In swinging we have evolved to include more. Those who are engaged in intimate friendships have moved themselves into a collective. Inside our couple relationships we have built a trust and we have faith in each other. We know what each other is capable of, what motivations, what intentions, what weaknesses, what strengths. We may have disrespected it, we may have cheated or done things behind the other's back, but we knew when it was against the health of the relationship and we tried not to do it again. We who are couples live inside this larger agreement that we could call a collective because it is so much bigger than two individuals. In swinging it is not two individuals who participate, but the relationship itself that participates. And other couples can sense it when a couple is not in agreement with each other. In swinging, there is no confrontation between couples, but there is knowledge, intuitive knowledge, of what the others are thinking. These couples who align with each other grow their twosome collective into a moresome collective. And so do mature civilizations grow also into planetary collectives.
When two individuals fall in love, they join forces, not just bodies. They join minds and hearts and souls and life forces and belief systems and errors and mistakes and issues and everything. Everything that life has to offer is there and present in the relationship. It's a force to be recognized. A relationship is so much more than I understood last week. A nation is a collective, and this week it made a collective agreement to impeach President Trump. A huge sigh of relieve or a long, low moan and beating of breasts. That's what collectives do - they grow together through consensus. Issues are resolved. We as a nation are growing. I believe we are also growing as a planetary collective. We are moving towards consensus as a planet.
Because the aliens are reaching out to us and revealing big-brother wisdom and maturity, and trying to do it in a way that is soft and benevolent, not to cause fear - that's how they reach us. That's how anyone reaches anyone - through gentleness and wisdom so they don't cause fear. Then there is a growing of respect. Perhaps even reverence. When I watch the channel’s eyes and see his arms and hands moving to try to express, and hear the different tones and inflections of the voice, it's easy to recognize a presence that is different from the human who is allowing his body to be spoken through. There are over 2,000 videos posted on the Girk-Fit-Niir website. By watching, my understanding of universal love is expanding. Love works through inclusivity, not exclusivity. Exclusivity is not even mentioned because it's a dead end. Fighting one another does not work. They are pointing out how the wisdom and logic of including those who appear different at first. By including them it gives us more power as a larger whole, whereas excluding them by hating them or holding them in contempt or making intellectual arguments against them, is loss of power. It cuts one off from the whole. They say that the enemy is another you, another aspect of yourself, so why do you fight against yourself? Instead, you should be gathering the different aspects back into yourself to make you more complete.
We know these words from religious texts but we have been schooled away from that approach. We don’t live them because we were trained not to. Now, our neighboring brothers and sisters are reaching out to us to add their voices to our emerging consciousness as a planet. To help, not to conquer or control. They who are coming through Girk-Fit-Niier are a small alliance of 6 species, just a small part of a universal collective. They in turn are communicating with other collectives.
Because couples swinging is my rooted reality, where I evolved personally in understanding the power of inclusivity, I am sensitive to the issues that are often raised inside the couples collective. It takes two to form a relationship and close body contact is an important part of it. As they bond together physically, each one's personal inner net changes and modifies. When two, four, six, eight couples bond together physically, each individual grows to the degree they accept the others. We grow in freedom. Close body contact through swinging, also known as couples dating, is an evolutionary path. It takes us into other dimensions, beyond current "norms". Interdimensional experiences take place when there is a larger love, or a larger acceptance, a larger agreement. Without SOME form of love, there is a closing down, a competition, jealousy, fear, suffocation. There are many names. Love is the word that means “inclusive”. Love finds a way, including someone is a way enlarge and evolve. We enlarge to accept the other's thought patterns and emotions, which modifies one's own thought patterns and emotions. Everything becomes larger and more whole. I'm carefully avoiding spiritual words here, but the word "holy" simply means more whole, more wholey, instead of less whole.
Those in swinging are on one hand finding marriage to be a conundrum in the primitive sense of the word (too confining) and on the other hand it is more wholesome. To those on the spiritual path trying to become more open and free, if their spouses are not willing to go along with them and are holding them back, what do they do? Some older people are finding they need to separate from their partner of many years, in order to complete themselves before they die. The galactics are bringing us a reminder of universal love, not the restrictive one-on-one love where you feel you have to protect yourself against invaders. Communication. Communication. Communication.
If we as an individual can't get along with our mate on this little ol' planet of nations that can't get along, where does it all start? I can't help but think close loving body contact. It's a beginning. There are pockets of people gathering to include others up close. I really don't know if the aliens swing or not, but I bet some of them do. If the species are compatible. Watch Star Trek and the like. The question is raised and considered. With the myriad numbers of planets and star systems out there whose inhabitants are getting along with each other, it goes without saying that they have found the answers that they are qualified to pass on to us. Granted there a few races that refuse to get along with the others, but they are diminishing in number because more and more of them are joining together and relinquishing the belief in separation. The light forces, known as the benevolent ones, are of higher dimensions and higher standards. They are winning because they are joining forces and are more powerful intellectually, emotionally, spiritually and technologically.
This all makes so much sense to me, this joining of forces. It is practical. It is logical. And it feels good. It is joining everything together, no matter on what level one comes from. The effort creates harmony. The universe operates on harmony. Disharmony causes galactic wars. In 1987 there was a harmonic convergence which not many understood at the time. Understanding is growing about harmonics. Sound healing and Reiki is becoming popular and saving lives. The harmonic convergence was an intervention. Joining forces is spreading as a result, globally. It happening in couples' relationships. Swinging, couples dating, polyamory, all forms of alternative intimacies is being explored as a joining of forces. It works when two different individuals, or four or six, sit and talk honestly from the heart with each other, and really focus the light of their understanding on what is being said. Both listening and revealing honestly. So many people are avoiding “the talk“. The inner dawning is slow to rise and shed light, but it does rise if all involved are willing to stop and listen, not just talk but really listen. And not pretend to go along with it just to keep the peace. There is no peace if there is pretense.
A common problem is where one wants to have "the talk" but the other doesn't. Consider this: it is not a problem but an opportunity to try something different. A refusal or rejection is like a door that quietly opens up to give permission to go back and re-consider. What comes forward in the moment is a path to consider. Choices arise. We create by the seat of our pants. We choose as we go. We learn by mistakes. And if there is a brick wall in front, you walk around it to see how the view appears from over there. I saw a mimic recently work his way along a wall of air. He moved his hands up, down, left and right and he eventually found the end of the wall, and he turned the corner. He got past the wall. You never know what you'll find when you turn the corner. A new view always appears.
A choice is what we do when we are faced with a brick wall. There are many choices. You can back off and let the other win. You can argue and fight back. You can get in the car and drive for hours. Or go to bed and forget it. Or call a friend to talk to. Or you can go meditate and try to transcend it. There is no end of options. You can leave. What I do - I may appear to give in and let it go, but I am including what is uncomfortable, into my heart. I'm allowing it and respecting it. I am revering it as best I can. It is something the higher ones are teaching us to do. It works for me. It's only the ego that fights and feels it must win, but the heart is not an ego. So I feel more whole and actually feel more peaceful and expanded. It's almost a sensual feeling.
My late husband’s way of dealing with a brick wall (me) was to say, "we're not going to bed with an argument unresolved." He was the wiser of the two of us. He would wait me out. I would eventually fold and sit down to talk with him. He was bigger than me, and older by 14 years. As I listen to the extraterrestrials I realize they are bigger than me. They are waiting us out but they're sitting there waiting. They are reaching us through thought to help us in our understanding. How to overcome brick walls which cause separation and loneliness.
They don’t want to interfere with us but they want to share with us how THEY did it. They are acting like older brothers and sisters. Each species has their own collective, and they are constantly working with other collectives. They use mind-to-mind communication which we have yet to understand. Extrasensory field communication. They are in touch with their collective constantly. In the video sessions I am watching, it is a call-in show, and callers call in with questions to the aliens. Every once in a while after a question is asked, the person who is channeling will sometimes say, “One moment please, I will ask.” There is a pause and then the channel speaks again. The alien presence apparently reached a questionable point where he or she was unsure whether to speak on this line of thought. If the advice is no, then they say, “I cannot say at this time.” And if the advice is yes, they alien presence continues elaborate on the subject asked.
We have this kind of telepathic agreement in our couple relationships, and work relationships and gender relationships. There are relationships of all kinds that are networked into our lives that go far beyond what we are normally conscious of. It behooves us to be more conscious of this beautiful network upon when we rely and have faith it. Having faith in a relationship is a wonderful thing, and we don't want to abuse it by overstepping our boundaries of what is appropriate. By being more aware of this faith-based network that exists between us, we can expand on it with positives. We are all learning. When we feel not to say something out loud, then we don't. We are designed to be in communication with our larger collectives, of all sorts. There are many different ones. The aliens are teaching us about this harmony that exists among us. We are learning how to retain harmony. When we go against our innate feeling of harmony, otherwise known as conscience, we experience a “bad feeling”.
Couples don’t have to put it into words. They understand each other. They know each other. But if something new comes up and there is a question, maybe a feeling of separation, then that's the time to talk. Allowing a feeling of separation to remain, doesn't just "go away". Without noticing it, it's an energy and it would sink down into the body's muscles and tissues. infiltrate muscles and tissues. “The issues are stored in the tissues”, say the healers, and become blockages. It is healthier to clear the air. Sometimes a jealousy is not jealousy at alla, but rather a sense of separation and the worst is imagined. It could be simply a bold new thought coagulating in the unified field where harmony existed, and the other senses the separation. Telepathy at work. The larger network of harmony that keeps the parties informed has thrown off a ripple. Wives often suspect husbands of having an affair because she “just know”. Sometimes it's true and sometimes it's not. Female instincts are commonly used as a crutch when they're not reliable. Some men do the same, although often men don't pay attention to their inner feelings the way women do. Clear the air when in doubt. Bring the unified field up to par, up to current, to reposition the understanding.
The galactics are from all over the galaxy and some from beyond. They are here to assist us into the galactic neighborhood. They are not here to disturb our planetary collective, but to enrich it by adding light and understanding. To help us bring ourselves more into alignment and to a higher standard of inclusiveness to join the rest of the galaxy. They are all different species and so are we. Each a part of their own collective but they have matured in spiritual, moral, ethical levels to respect the other collectives. They form alliances. They arrange meetings. They have ambassadors they send to delegations, just as we have here on Earth but they are not fighting each other. Instead, they are working at how to join each other. They discuss whatever comes to the foreground to be discussed.
That is what I‘m doing with the women‘s gatherings. We are meeting to discuss whatever comes up. We do not know what will come up. It’s an alliance of females. The galactics do this in a mature, grow-up manner because they have greater understanding of the power of telepathy. Women use telepathy more than men do in our world. That’s why I am inclined to meet with women first. Later we can form an alliance with men and see whatever comes up that may be inclusive and respectful to enhance us all and bring us closer together. When the galactics meet together with their vast differences, they do it better than us. We can learn from them. Women are easier to connect with because of their underlying nature being affectionate, spontaneous, loving, unifying and nurturing.
Higher dimensions are higher in all those qualities. We don’t understand what dimensions mean because we don‘t understand what love means. The galactics of higher dimensions are expressing these qualities. Empaths and spiritual people are the ones listening and spreading the knowledge. Everyone has the capacity to be an empath. An empath is one who listens and allows new thought to enter and be considered. It allows differences in. The world is in chaos because people are fighting against others who are different. We can change and we are changing. More light is coming to us and we are receiving it. Galactic intervention has already been happening. There is growing evidence from scientists and others that they have always been here. And further that we are related. They are our extended family. Their genes are in us through our DNA. Hybridization has always been done, from race to race, since the beginning, I am learning.
The galactics, or so-called aliens, live outside of our physical reality but that is not a problem. That is fact. All races have their own physical reality on their planets. It is by consensus that a planetary civilization grows together, evolves and matures together because there is a force field to the planet. We are maturing enough to be aware of their presence. Some are eager, some afraid. But they are peeking in through our windows and waving at us and we are receiving them. This is so amazing to me. I am so excited. It is part of why I am inspired to anchor a women‘s group as a portal to that which is coming. Contact with aliens has been represented as a dark, scary thing. The military has been armed, trained and prepared with super-hero warriors and weapons ready to fight to protect our planet, even while ridiculing the idea there is such a thing to protect against. How strange that they should turn out to be like the lovable ET in the movie by Steven Spielberg. And that the beloved Yeshua and his mother was one of them.
12/4/19 - My evolutionary journey to higher levels of understanding continues. Spirituality and sexuality has always been the central theme of my entire adult life. However, from the spiritual love perspective, I found men were slowly but surely wearing me down to where I did not want to be. It was uncomfortable but I didn't know how to not be there if I were to be a loving, giving person. I was both in the lifestyle and a professionally licensed massage therapist working from the spiritual love perspective. But I found myself being reduced, when in contact with men's bodies, to the lowest level of skin contact. It was making me resentful and on the verge of becoming embittered. One day after an encounter where I hit rock bottom, I asked the Ascended Master Djwal Khul, who had been my spiritual advisor for over 40 years, "Please tell me what's wrong with me? I love massage, I love people, why do I hate it now?" And this is what he told me. This is Master DK speaking:
“When a man has his release in a sexual orgasm, he is expelling all the toxins and misqualified energies that he has allowed to build up within him. These impure energies which he himself creates, drop downward, pulled by gravity to the lower parts of his body. Uplifting happy thoughts and feelings gather around the upper body and head and bubble upward into the atmosphere above the head, but negative particles are dense, made heavier by impure thoughts, selfish motives, unkindness, anger, hatred and meanness. These fall earthward within the auric field of the individual, creating a heaviness that encircles him around. The desire to have sex is a desire to rid himself of unclean emotions and thoughts which he terms “stress”. He feels it as stress and as a suffocation because it really is preventing his own clean and pure life from shining forth and expressing freely in his life.
The desire to have a sexual blowout is a desire to get rid of this heaviness that has built up in his energy field and is now suffocating him. It is causing tension which causes erratic and moody behavior. It is like being in a straight jacket. Women experience this too, in subtly different ways. The life-long work is to learn what causes these mood swings. If a man or woman would learn to raise their thoughts to a happier, higher level and not permit negative thoughts or emotions to linger in them, they would enjoy a more pleasant and freely expressive life - one not driven by the constant need to have a sexual release to feel good again.
There is nothing wrong with sex but the intent and motive behind it. A sexual "need" is selfish, where a loving attraction to be with someone is not selfish but an expression of joy and wonder. In the latter case a sexual encounter would be relaxed and equally loving rather than darkly demanding. When sexual need is present, there is force behind it which is unnatural. When one has become more uplifting and happy in thought and feeling one feels free and no force is required to feel loving. No negative particles are involved that are pushing for release.
Human kind is here to learn to choose wisely the types of thoughts and feelings entertained. You are here to learn the cause and effect of negative vs. positive thought. You are the masters of your thoughts; choose wisely for you prepare your future by the thoughts you carry around with you today. Negative and depressing thoughts are best changed with forgiving yourself and appreciating even the bad thought. Love and appreciation is the transformative agent. Do not permit negative thoughts to build up and you will not build heavy dense layers that suffocate you.
Mankind is here to learn from mistakes, not be buried by the aftermath of mistakes. Be wise. Become enlightened to the laws of life and flow with them, not against them. Man is here to raise the energies that flow through him cleanly, like a fresh sparkling river of pure undiluted LIFE. Do not allow that pure undiluted life to become impure by negative thought whether it be a negative reaction or a negative experience.
There is a universal sense of “dirtiness” around sex and prostitution for this reason, though most people are unaware of the truth of it. Women who work in this field take these toxins into themselves in the process of giving the man the release they need. She is doing him a great service. Likewise the man who is performing the service for women. Or men for men and women for women. It does not matter who is performing the service, they are accepting the misqualified energies of the other. That is why you are resisting this behavior. Those who perform sexual services should learn how to cleanse themselves before and after so they may remain healthy in body, mind and spirit.
The introduction of Tantra is instruction in inner work. The Western version of Tantra is in error, with a sexual overcast to it. Tantra is a teaching in elevating thought. Practitioners are taught not to release their energies or physical semen (their dirty laundry) into a lover. Tantra is a beautiful purifying course of study that one may undertake alone without a partner. This inner work involves keeping one’s thoughts and feelings pure and uplifted. Even when a thought or a feeling enters, one learns how to be the master of those thoughts and feelings, and how to change them to kind, loving, intelligent and beautiful thoughts and feelings. In this way he elevates and inspires himself and all who come in contact with him (or her). Purity of body is also required, which one would automatically and naturally be impulsed to follow, if one's thoughts and feelings are inspired by higher and more elevated living. These are the trainings of Tantra. When done in advance, prior to love-making with another person, one has most loving and sweet encounters." (End of message)
11/12/19 Thought for the day! Stay positive in your focus, even in the midst of challenges. A powerful period of change is upon us. There are so many changes happening at once, it's like a whirlwind. Staying positive puts you above the rocky changes so they don’t bother you so much. Joy is a lifting emotion, find ways to stay in joy. You won't notice the craziness so much. Transcend the changes and be like a bird flying over the terrain. Fly smoothly over the rocking of the earth by find something positive to think on, or do. It's your responsibility to stay sane and positive. Go up to the sun. Imagine connecting with the source of warmth, comfort, light and goodness. You are a creator. Create positive, create goodness, create joy, create vitality. Stay positive in your focus.
Listen to your spiritual guides and teachers. They speak to you by blending in with your own thoughts and thinking. You sometimes wonder, “Now where did THAT thought come from?” Say “Thank you!” to your spirit guides. They are blending with you. Your higher self and spirit guides are always trying to reach you to lift you up. They give you more positive thoughts than your own mind can give you, since your own mind has been programmed to the outer world of physicality, low vibration. Trust any new thoughts that come your way, even if they are out of your league. Trust them. There is a war in consciousness going on. A battle for where you put your focus. Lower forces try to attract your attention tramatic events that rock you, like bombings that cause you to fear, murders close to home, explosions, political dramas, even your own friends and family members spit out dramas and traumas. Don't close off, don't go into panic, don't go into fear and don't argue with them. Just go into positive mode. Stay positive in attitude, thought and feeling. Higher thoughts, higher feelings, higher attitudes. Raise your vibrations to higher frequency. Go up to the sun, give a prayer of thanksgiving, be in peace. Go to the top of a mountain in your imagination. Be above the rocking and rolling. When you do this you are a light worker and peace keeper.
11/4/19 - This message was given to me this morning without my asking for it. It surprised me. I started writing a note to myself but my hand kept on going for two whole pages, front and back. While I was writing I was aware that I am to send this out today. No holding it back, which I am prone to do. Do it today. And I am to send it to the men as well as the women. There is no duality, I am getting. No feminine and masculine in the divine nature within.
The human craziness we see in the world around us is not out there - it is in you. You fight against yourself. What has happened over many centuries is the imprinting of ugliness by bad controllers and dictators pushing humanity repeatedly into corners, and persecuting those who were not willing and obedient slaves. This created terrible marks on the genetics of those who experienced trauma. Our ancestors then passed their wounded genes on to their children who led still more damaged lives. Also buried in our DNA is rebellion. Our ancestors fought against the oppressors and went through many revolutions, wars and battles. So today we protest and express our frustration. Some express it by spewing hate words out into the already toxic atmosphere, while others attempt to apply reason. Still others retreat into the depths of despair and depression and others pick up guns and go on shooting sprees. It all adds more chaos to the world we live in but we were born into it, and we assume it is normal.
But it’s not. You carry a divine blueprint within you that is perfect, sane, loving and healthy. There are some who recognize this and take steps to raise themselves above the turmoil. They take up yoga, meditation, self-healing, and study ways to bring peace to their own world. These people are on the right track, focusing their attention on themselves, within, to get back in touch with the divinity. Increasing numbers are leaving religion in an attempt to find some semblance of a higher order outside of doctrine, but many still focus on what’s wrong with the world instead of what's wright. They do not realize they carry the wrongness within themselves.
The scars are still there from long-ago ancestors. You cannot be free from corruption when you carry corruption within you. The craziness is not OUT THERE, it’s inside you but it is not supposed to be there. Get rid of it. There are ways. Start the purification process today. Shift back to the center of your body, your heart, your soul, and find some peace.
I took a detour off to the side and started writing only to women, because I needed the feminine for validation. But as I get closer to the divine feminine within myself, I see that this is the same divinity in men, too. It makes no difference whether a man or a woman. I find myself oscillating back and forth in my understanding that men and women are not different. They are the same creature: human. It doesn’t matter if they have a penis or a vagina. They are divine in their inner nature.
Through the GoddessSphere newsletter I am amplifying the divine feminine because that's who I relate to right now. Women offer me comfort because men seem to obstruct me. But, be that as it may, I see that it is the outer human nature that is careening wildly off the page and hurting people, whereas the divine nature is buried down under and inside the human. The human nature has corrupted us but the divine is still there within. This is the message that came to me this morning.
The Seven Seals
You are a divine being born straight out of the heart of Father-Mother God - a divine and holy spark of the Creator. Pure. Sacred. Innocent. And conscious of yourself as an individual. You had no corruption in you. You were simply a consciousness, a spirit spark, conscious of love. As you grew in self awareness you found that others responded to you, so you began to develop an individuality, just like a human baby. And eventually you wanted to explore. You learned about physicality and creatures and worlds and galaxies. And you wanted to go there too. You wanted to descend down into the form world. But before you could do that you were told you had to attend seven schools. These schools would imprint you with essential qualities that you would need, for you will enter a world of many different forms and opposites, and you will need to remember who you are.
Each of the seven schools taught a specific quality. There were many teachers because each quality had many different aspects to it. You were shown the many differences in colors, feelings, tones and vibrations. You were exposed to all of the God qualities before incarnating into flesh. Your mentors were elders who had been through all of it before, and they taught you how to identify subtle situations while on Earth.
You stayed in one school for as long as it took for you to absorb the quality fully so you resonated with it. And when your teachers felt that you were ready to move on to the next school, you began your studies with the next quality. There were only seven schools but each one had so many facets to it - today we have many slightly different sounding words that resonate near the same quality as another, only a smidge apart - so each school was vast, like a university. Everyone who desired to explore the world of form, or third dimension where we are today, had to complete the seven schools. They are referred to as the seven rays of the creator.
The seven qualities are accessed through the seven chakras. For bible scholars, they refer to the seven churches, or the seven candles, or the seven seals. Each quality has a color and a tone, hence there are seven primary colors on Earth, and seven notes on the musical scale. Following are the seven qualities:
The first school imprinted you with will power, for you would need to be fully armed with a strong will to go the whole nine yards and not give up, no matter what situation you faced. The second school imprinted you with intelligence, for you had to be well armed with enlightened intelligence so you would not get pulled off the beaten track by outside forces and do something stupid. The third school imprinted you with love and reverence, for you had to have enough love in you and reverence for ALL life in the outer world that, no matter how dreary a situation, you would be able to melt it with that quality.
The fourth school imprinted you with purity for you would need to know what impurity is when you encountered a situation that did not have the right vibration of purity to you. . It has been called the immaculate concept and you carry within you. It is your saving grace and you need to know these things.
The fifth quality you were imprinted with was truth. You were saturated with God’s truth so that you would know the true truth when you encountered the not-truth in your Earth wanderings. Truth is an immaculate science which is contained within you on a soul level and it heals all disease and error.
The sixth school imprinted you with peace and comfort. You were swaddled and coddled and held inside the arms of peace and comfort so long that you would know whenever you came into contact with not-peace and not-comfort while on the Earth.
The seventh and final quality you were imprinted with was liberation. You were held within the vibrational resonance of freedom for so long that you were saturated with it and would recognize not-freedom whenever you encountered it.
Further, the essence of freedom was to be held in balance along with the other six qualities - will power, intelligence, love, purity, truth and peace. When you had completed attending all seven schools and were fully imprinted with the qualities of divinity you would need, you were then born into a human body. They told you that you would forget all of this when you arrived on Earth, but that you carry these divine vibrations within you, in your soul, and they would be there for you to use but you have to locate them after you arrive. They are your inner nature.
It doesn‘t matter if you are a man or a woman. Your inner nature is divine. Be aware of that. All imperfection that you today call "human" has been overlaid into your cells by human mistakes and errors. Remember that you are divine. Let your inner nature guide you. You have not been taught this. You need to know that you have that within you. You are a noble being from a pristine and high estate. Your soul is divine. You were created from the highest level of all, and you have angel qualities within you. You were born into a world of a myriad strange, foregin and alien differences, but you are armed with the highest and noblest. You are right to say, "I Am What I Am" and believe it. Feel it. It is you. Don’t let others pull you away from who you are. Guide your actions through the feelings of your highest, noblest and truest.
Is it your will and not someone else’s will that you are following?
Does it strike you as intelligent or stupid that you are doing?
Does this situation feel loving?
Does it feel pure and innocent?
Does it have the ring of truth?
Does it give you a sense of comfort and peace?
Does it give you a feeling of liberation?
I received the following youtube today, which validates all that has been said here. I’m including the link for you to listen to. It is by a man who works with small intimate groups around the world, guiding them lovingly back into their own inner truth.
11/1/19 - The Shadow in you. What you resist composes your shadow. What is something you fear? Name it and repeat it. We need to face the shadow energy in us for the shadow forms at the exact moment that a strong conscious position is staked out. The shadow consists of all the rejected elements of the conscious mind. When we identify ourselves with one end of the spectrum, the rejected end begins taking on a life of its own below the conscious level. In this secret place, whatever is not acknowledged has to be projected onto the outside world in order to be experienced, for the creator has rejected it. The power of the shadow is equal to the degree of insistence and brittleness of the position you take and maintain. Monstrous acts. We must face and integrate elements of the shadow into our lives.
This does not mean becoming a monster; it means acknowledging it. The activity that creates monsters is not integrating with the shadow and denying its existence in oneself. (i.e., Me? I would never do that!) Integration does not mean acting out, but genuine acknowledgement, admitting that one is capable of doing such a thing. Acknowledging the shadow in you, that which you are fighting against, acts as a psychic release valve relieving unconscious pressure so you are better able to hear the promptings of your higher self. Learn how to approach the shadow. Resistance is your barrier and block. What you resist composes your shadow.
Resistance is the process by which seeds of evil are sown and grown. When you acknowledge a shadow element in yourself, you feel a sigh. A deep intake of breath. It’s a sign that there was a release. In me, in you, is the full spectrum of human experience, good and bad. We want to acknowledge this. It doesn’t change our approval or disapproval of particular factors. It’s simply willingness to face facts. Allowing a fact is integration. The act of acknowledgement frees you to make better choices. The shadow is redeemed by continual process of honest self-evaluation. When you’re uncomfortable, pay attention and ask yourself, “What am I trying to avoid or repress or deny?” What is making me squirm?
Be your own therapist. It’s never a person or thing or act that makes you uncomfortable. It’s something you are trying to avoid seeing and dealing with. Stop and look objectively at yourself. Perhaps someone is coming up your walk right now, ready to knock on your door, and you are uncomfortable for some reason. The best solution to this experience is to say to yourself, “OK, I don’t have control over this so I shall embrace it.” Acknowledgement and embracing is always the best solution. Walk into the discomfort or the fear. It is powerful.
10/23/19 - My blogs are going into the Goddess page because I can't seem to write if men are in my mind. Once I get past the block that men are holding me back, I will resume posting here on Diana's blog. Meanwhile, check the Goddess page if you are interested.
9/28/19 - This morning I realized something. Instead of giving credit to a particular ascended master for the many dictations I have been getting over the years, I am supposed to OWN the wisdom for myself. Whatever I become aware of is MY intelligence in a process of recognition. I have been giving my power away thinking the words came from someone else. I did not recognize my own enlightenment process. (i.e., yesterday's NL) Today I see that God is not a "thing", God is a process. God is one's higher self blending with lower self. And there's a higher self beyond that, and another higher self and another and another, on into infinity. God is growing itself through the many parts. God is evolving. There is no end to God. There is only a process of unfolding. God is not a thing to chase down and discover. Rather, it's a process of recognition. God is the ascended masters, God is the galactics, God is our loved ones who died, God is the angelics, God is the tree, the vegetable, the animal, the insect, the stone, the air, the water. God is the many parts. God is everything. God is you. God is me. God is awareness, intelligence, wisdom. God is lighting up the world. God is your ex-wives and my ex-husbands. God is space. God is time. God is the sun, the moon, the planets, the extraterrestrials. Not different but the same. I am recognizing this. God is not separate. God is not a "thing". God cannot be owned, one becomes God through the process of elimination (of what is wrong). God is a process of becoming more aware of what is right, and therefore it is a process of becoming more connected. God is a process of evolving. God is the lesser, the dumber, the blinder, the more ignorant, the more dark, the more unenlightened, the more obstruction, the more resistance because God is the many parts. God is the evil evolving into good. The Buddhists don't use the word "God" because then it would become something outside of oneself, set apart, a separation, a difference. God is self. God is soul seeking its father and mother. Today I sense familiarity, I sense family. I'm moving closer. God is not separate and apart. I am not ready to say I am God and I am everywhere. But I am in process of becoming more aware than I was yesterday.
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12/30/21 - Control freaks & terrorists vs. wisdom & generosity
Entanglement happens through both pleasure and traumatic experience, good and bad. Good experiences entangle us as much as bad experiences. Stay in the middle for clarity. Meditate often. Authorities are those who think they know more than the others around. It’s not true of course, but the others are holding themselves back from expressing through thought, word, feeling or form. This holding back appears to be a dumb creature to those who are more vocal but there are many reasons for holding back. The greatest reason is often wisdom and generosity, to allow others a chance to show their true colors and character. True, there are those who were born into unrefined or corrupted bodies due to genetics, which is a choice, nature knows best, but the intelligence of the higher mind is always ALWAYS there, residing in, through and around the body, just waiting for someone to recognize it, nurture it, nourish it and invite it to express itself, its voice and its actions. Often the quiet people are the more intelligent ones. Instead of boasting and showing everyone a racist, a bully, an elitist, a control freak, a terrorist, criminal, jerk or ignoramus, a quiet one waits until the air settles down and is clear of stupidity before they speak. So it does not suit anyone well to assume an authoritative role over anyone who is quiet, especially over a child because a child can see right through the curtain. It‘s better to take the kinder approach anyway, no matter who it is. Kindness has been known to change the course of historical events and divert disaster. Among the quiet ones there may be the one who is seething with quiet anger and planning a vengeful act and no one knows the danger about to explode. Kindness can change the mind of that one and save lives. Be conscious and choose kindness.
12/28/21 - Stay positive
Stay positive in your focus, even in the midst of challenges. A powerful period of change is upon us, so many changes happening at once. Staying positive puts you above the changes so they don’t bother you so much. Like transcending the changes. You have a birds eye view. Fly over the rocking of the earth by staying positive. Go up to the sun. Imagine connecting with the source of warmth, comfort, light and goodness. You are a creator. Create something positive and new. Create an agenda and follow it. Stay positive in your focus. Listen to your spiritual guides and teachers. They speak to you by blending in with your own thoughts and thinking process. You sometimes wonder “Now where did THAT thought come from?” Then simply say “Thank you!” to your spirit guides. They are blending with you when you stay positive. Your higher self and spirit guides, all are the same thing. It is higher than what your own mind and brain can give you. Trust the new thoughts. There is a war in consciousness going on. There are forces that are trying to attract your attention by whatever means possible. Bombs, killings, explosions, political dramas, your own friends and families are spitting out dramas and traumas. Stay positive in attitude, thought and feeling. Higher thoughts, higher feelings, higher attitudes. This is how you raise your vibrations so you are in a higher dimension. Go up to the sun, go up to where the birds fly in your imagination.
12/27/21 - Remove the ego
Received two years ago in the night. I woke up and began writing for I was flowing with intelligent information.
“Remove the ego and see the purity of right action. Take right action without sullying it with judgments, anger or boasting.”
We are born into a cocoon and the cocoon is this body. We begin our metamorphosis immediately into a chrysalis stage by becoming aware of our little body. Awareness is light. As we begin to move our arms and legs and find that our mouth makes a sound, we put the light of our consciousness into our little body that surrounds us and we wake it up. We then learn we can control it. We focus our light into this little body. The obstruction comes in when outside forces teach us to focus our attention on the outside world of other people. We are taught that THAT is more important, and to do otherwise is selfish. So we listen to our family, mother, father, we listen to them and mimic them. Then our siblings who come to play with us. Then we learn to hold a spoon, and to walk, and to talk and then we go to school and learn from books and teachers. We learn how to manage this body from both the outside world and from practicing from inside. As soon as we know how to move our little hands and feet, from that point on we neglect and avoid the ongoing process of enlightening the body. It is the body that we need to enlighten. We can do things by watching and learning from other people, but our greatest lesson of staying centered comes from inside our body if we pay attention to it.
Our brain is the storage vault of data which we learn from the outside world of others, but the BODY is the mechanism by which we learn from within. The body is the portal to higher consciousness. Not the body itself, but how our body FEELS under different situations. We use our elemental body (etheric body) and our feeling body, which are energy bodies. It is our consciousness that comes through the body cells that teaches us. It comes through the DNA of the body and changes our DNA. Our consciousness composes our DNA and alters it. When focus on the feelings that happen in our inner body, we open and activate the DNA within our biology. When we sit in silence, when we use certain silence techniques, when we stop the mind from moving on its own and creating fear and anxiety, and when we stop our focus on emotions that are bothering us, wondering about them and regurgitating them like anger or sadness or fear, when we stop those movements and focus simply as an observer on the organs, blood and tissues, we resume the metamorphosis process of bringing light into our vessel of a body. Our consciousness is the light of the body. We have been intimidated into studying the outer world, the history of the world, outer space, politics of the nations, religions, culture, cuisine, fashion, industries - everything that is going on outside of our own body, and thus we are distracted. We are distracted and delayed from continuing our metamorphosis from cocoon to butterfly, the earth angel we are designed to be.
We are distracted from the main reason we are here - to germinate as physical angels or physical galactics, or physical celestials. We are here to enlighten our body vehicle and pay homage to our body so it is purified and not degraded and weighted down by toxins and lower vibrations. We are to allow it to be natural as God created it so we can walk in it, talk through it and work it smoothly, efficiently and elegantly, like a nobleman or noblewoman, benevolent, wise and virtuous. The I AM Presence is the purity that flows through me. Then the higher light keeps on flowing smoothly because our BODY flows smoothly. It is pure and natural and organic. The goal is to not let the light, the grace, gratitude and love get hung up in the mind and stopped there. The light must come down into and through the body. If the body gets the light, so does the brain. If the body does not get the light neither does the brain. It remains hung up in the ethers. Through the sensations of the body we become conscious of our cosmic and galactic connections for we are one with them. They are part of us and we are part of them. Until we allow light and sensation into the body, the brain only knows what the outer world has fed to us.
It is ONLY by becoming aware of our astute feelings, the emotions that register on and through the body that we become aware of a higher light and a higher love and higher emotions and higher empathy and sensitivity. The human race has been masculine in the extreme because it has relied solely on what the brain knows. We think we are a mental race, but we are not even mental, our race (up to now) has been a hung-up mental race. Not really mental, but artificially mental. Psychologists have labeled it the ego. It’s not connected to the whole body vessel. Our human race runs its institutions by relying on only what the brain knows and what the brain has accumulated from the outside world. It does not use the higher consciousness that is available through the body’s awareness, which can perceive motives in people, and read the energy field that surrounds them like a glowing presence. If we were more tuned into our body, we would be an enlightened race. We would know what is true and what is not true, and we would be the wiser for it. But as long as we do not allow ourselves to FEEL – meaning to stop and still the mind and the body and all the muscles and be silent and FEEL – we will not become any wiser than we were yesterday. Our bodies are more intelligent that we are. We must continue our metamorphosis by listening to the wisdom of our bodies. Then we grow into more ideal people.
Up until today we have forgotten the body as a species. Individuals here and there are enlightened, it’s true, but up until today the mass consciousness has yet to return to enlightening itself through inner work. Our relationships have suffered as a result of it. We have forgotten how to love one another and appreciate what the other feels because we can’t feel our own. We became a weakened race. That is, up until today. Today there is a massive shift underway as the US presidential election is still undecided. After the pandemic closed us down we began inner work again. Many of us. The light has been turning on in the mass consciousness. But we should have been doing this a long time ago and made it a daily practice sitting in silence for an hour a day, thanking the organs, muscles, tissues, blood, brain, bone and cartilage. We are still inside a cocoon. This is the way to break open the cocoon, by assuming a prayerful humble attitude daily to all the parts within it. And best to spend this one hour outdoors in nature if possible. This is how we turn on the light inside it and activate it so it begins to work for us and scan the world outside our doors. It feeds back information and guides us wisely.
You are a living presence of the holy spirit, the one who says I AM, your higher self. That is not the brain. The brain doesn’t know who “I AM” yet. The divine blueprint called the immaculate concept is the I AM. The I AM needs a body to express through. The I AM is an exquisite light shining over the head up about 7000 feet – above the psychic effluvia that gathers on the ground. Shine the light of I AM down into the body cells and enjoy the IN lighting process. Wake it up!
12/26/21 - The Shadow Side of You
The shadow forms at the exact moment that a strong conscious position is staked out. The shadow consists of all the rejected elements of the conscious mind. When we identify ourselves with one end of the spectrum, the other end feels rejected and begins taking on a life of its own, the ego, out of defensiveness and survival. This is done below the conscious level in a secret place because it is not being appreciated. Whatever is not appreciated is rejected and projected like a rocket away into the outside world in order to be experienced and appreciated there because the creator has rejected it. The power of the shadow in me is equal to the degree of insistence I take in the resistance position. Monstrous acts are created by rejecting and dismissing. They feel alone and separate. They take on a life of their own. They are consciousness that was not accepted. They create the disconnect. Bringing balance back to the body requires us to face and integrate these conscious elements of the shadow side. Finding them is difficult because we rejected them and we dismissed them and covered them over with pleasantries. But we must find them. Life and circumstances bring them forward so we can see them. They are the unpleasantries that keep popping up. We must look at them and embrace them with our love, nurturance and grace, back into our lives.
Sometimes a very monstrous memory surfaces of something terrible that happened. Facing it and embracing it does not mean you become a monster. You melt the monster with love. Do you realize the power of love? It is an amazing power. But first comes recognition. It means acknowledging it. The activity that creates monsters is the continued refusal to acknowledge a wrong and continually rejecting it. By not integrating the shadow you continue denying its existence BUT IT IS INSIDE ONESELF! (Me? I would never do that!) Integration does not mean acting out, it means genuine acknowledgement, admitting that one is capable of doing such a thing. Acknowledging the shadow in you is that part of you which you are fighting against. It is you. Acknowledging it acts as a psychic release valve relieving unconscious pressure so you are better able to hear the promptings of your higher real self. Learn how to approach the shadow. Resistance is your barrier and block. What you resist composes a bad feeling, your shadow. Resistance is the process by which seeds of evil are sown and grown. When you acknowledge a shadow element in yourself, you feel a sigh. A deep intake of breath. It’s a sign that there was a release of resistance. The full spectrum of human experience is in me and you, the good and the bad. We want to acknowledge this. It doesn’t change our approval or disapproval of particular factors. It’s simply willingness to face facts. Allowing a fact is integration. The act of acknowledgement frees you to make better choices. The shadow is redeemed by continual process of honest self-evaluation. When you’re uncomfortable, pay attention and ask yourself, “What am I trying to avoid or repress or deny?” What is making me squirm? Be your own therapist. It’s never a person or thing or act that makes you uncomfortable. It’s something you are trying to avoid seeing and dealing with. Stop and look objectively at yourself. Perhaps someone is coming up your walk right now, ready to knock on your door, and you are uncomfortable for some reason. The best solution to this experience is to say to yourself, “OK, I don’t have control over this so I shall embrace it.” I don’t have control over a bad feeling but I will embrace it. I don’t have control over this monster but I will forgive it. Acknowledgement and embracing and forgiving is always the best solution. Walk into the discomfort or the fear with courage and with love. It is powerful.
12/25/21 - My body is the Avatar in the movie
This morning when I became conscious in my bed, I asked a question of spirit, of my own Light body, “What is my job today? How should I begin my day? How should I act?“ And I received the following answer: The human vessel has taken over and usurped the holy will - the I AM Presence. The divine feminine is the I AM. The human woman is the usurper. As a human body vessel, I am not my I AM Presence. As a human body vessel complete with brain and nervous system, my job is to receive the divine nature that I AM, which has been called the Holy Christ Self. My job as a human vessel is to yield and surrender to my highest will. I am to forego discipline and yield and surrender the human shenanigans, human plans, human wishes and human desires which are lowly and not very noble. My job is to move in accord with the holy wind that I AM. I AM descending from higher realms. My job as a human vessel is to act as the highest I AM tells me to act – me being the lowly human.
I saw an image of the movie “Avatar”. My body is like the avatar who lives on a strange alien world that is unknown to me, the I AM. I AM the will power and the mind that enters into the avatar to make it move. I AM the driving force of the avatar called the body.
I saw myself go into the spinal column and light it up, and I saw the body take on life and livingness because I moved into it. Everything in my body began to come alive. I saw the meridians light up and distribute the golden light, and my body began to undulate and move. My body is an avatar and every morning when I awake to this world I plug into it, into the avatar body which is like an appliance. I plug my conscious mind into the body and feed it my life force. I AM the electricity for the body. I AM the soul, the spirit living through the body which is an appliance. This was a most wonderful revelation.
12/23/21 - A dimension is not a place but a state of consciousness
A friend wrote about her negative situations and I wanted to write to her, advising her. But in the shower I was shown to only write her in a loving uplifting way, blessing her with words of love that I see in her. No advice from my stored up junk/trunk of wisdom. Only that I see her hurt hip through loving eyes, not sympathy, but with love. I love her hip and her hurt body. I am hugging her and embracing her with the hands of angels, warm and comforting. Now today I see that my desire to tell others how to correct THEIR hurts, is me telling me how to correct my own. Don’t tell others. It is just ego puffing itself up. It doesn’t help them. I hear the words, "They can feel that it is your ego. You have been attempting to define the HUMAN feminine, not the divine feminine. This is your lesson. It comes to you in feeling, not in words. Now you know. You are your only teacher. The I AM That I AM. You’ve been trying to teach the divine feminine but you can’t teach it. It has to be realized. The words are only shells and shadows of shells."
Male bodies were being born with a program specific to males to put down and control the females. They were told don’t let the females get to you with their devious ways they call love. The male program resists love, thinking it is dangerous. They are told females are dangerous. But that is changing now as the unity principle is coming into the planet. Male bodies are feeling looser and lighter and more welcoming. Transgender is a sign this is happening.
A dimension is not a place but a state of consciousness. A deep meditation state or a daydream state where you unfocus on the world around you is 5th dimensional state or higher. It is the heaven state of bliss and it is the divine feminine. The great central sun at the center of the galaxy is at the 12th dimension. Our central sun is at the 5th Dimension. Darkness is not going to be eliminated as we ascend upwards from 3rd and 4th into 5th dimension, it’s going to be illuminated. Exposed. There will be no more duality.
12/22/21 - Coming home to the self - pulling yourself together
When connecting with the divine there are three separate aspects of yourself that are brought into alignment: your mind, which is an endless ocean of thoughts; your emotions, which are an endless ocean of feelings; and your physical/etheric, which is an endless ocean of sub-atomic particles made up of atoms and electrons. As you settle yourself into silence you bring these three separate aspects into connection. The turbulence relaxes and becomes still. The three layers or bodies that overlay your physical body are brought into alignment. This is important information to understand. We’ve lumped these into one generic term called the “aura” but they are unique and distinct, each aspect of yourself. Understand the spiritual anatomy. It is the first step in the process of embodying the great love that you are, which has been held back through ignorance, through the misalignment. Every day that we do not sit in silence for an hour, we use them randomly, they do not stay connected as a whole, they each go off in their own direction and do things separately and disconnectedly. They do not work together in harmony and they accumulate debris which is in error, which does not fit together. This happens because we are not even aware these layers exist. We do not know ourselves. We were born with a disadvantage. We were born with blinders on, like horses we were led in a straight-ahead direction to follow the path laid out ahead of us by our predecessors who were following THEIR predecessors who were following theirs, etc.
So now we are getting this information. I’ve been studying it for myself over many years and now I am disseminating it by posting it on my websites for free. By taking off the blinders we look around to the left and right and behind, and we see that we are actually multidirectional, which means multidimensional. We have choices and options. We can go where we want to. We do not have to follow the straight line ahead that our parents and teachers taught. We can stop and sit down and be still for awhile and gather our wits about us, contemplate this new idea and weigh it against the other. By doing this, we allow light to settle into our bodies, minds, emotions and feelings. We embody the light into our flesh and blood and bones. We make it part of our physicalness. We understand better. We feel it better. It makes sense better. It feels peaceful and good. Just following along behind what others have given to us does not lead us into peace. It leads us continually further away from ourselves, and keeps our attention directed forward instead of inward. At some point we have to stop following others and come home to self, the inner self, the source of who we are, and follow the homing instinct, and turn around and come back home to our true nature within, which is a divine and restful nature. Sitting in silence is how we feel good with ourself. We bring into alignment these four discordant parts of ourself which are continually out of sync with each other. Mind is out of sync with feeling, feeling is out of sync with body, body is out of sync with mind and they are in constant state of changing. When we take time to relax and breathe - breathing deep and slow - thoughts, feelings and sub-atomic particles of our physical body come tumbling to a halt. The turbulence comes to stillness. It is similar to lining up a set of kitchen colanders - the bowl with holes in it to let liquid drain through – four colanders nestled one inside another is a graphic picture to show how when are four lower bodies are lined up, the light and love can pour through. It expands our consciousness, it expands our thoughts, expands our feelings and our abilities, our knowledge, our serenity, our peace, prayer, wisdom and power. We ARE the light and love that is now pouring in. For THIS is who you are behind the mask which has been drawn about you as a disguise. Center yourself and become the Mother Flame within you. Do not follow. Lead.
12/18/21 - The light body in you
I am seeing with inner vision the golden threads weaving in and through and around the physical substance of my body. These are the meridians as described by the ancients. It is a literal web, like a spiders web, but with many more strands crisscrossing through my body. I saw this in magnification as under a microscope several days ago. Gold threads woven in with the mundane, average, human threads of the body. The golden threads are pure light. Spirit flows through these meridians and they are everywhere I see. Top to bottom, head to toe, shoulders, fingers. This is what props up and holds up the physical, otherwise it would not live. This is the substance of our body, made alive by the golden life force coming through the meridians. It, the meridians, the web of life within, is what keeps me alive and supplies me with consciousness and feeling and connection to everyone else around me. And objects outside of me. Without it, if it were to withdraw, my body would die. I would leave. I see that I AM the life force and I am being drawn to this light increasingly so. Am I being drawn down to my earth chakra embedded in the earth? It seems I am to write about it to bring awareness forward into the atmosphere of earth. I see the light is flowing upward and light is also flowing downward and the light is meeting in the middle, in me, in my body. And as I become more conscious of this light above and below and how it is meeting in the middle, I feel more comfortable in my skin. I feel more here now. More present. It is like coming home. It is my awareness that brings about the truth and the reality of who I am. It creates peace. It is as if all of the atoms, electrons, molecules, sub-atomic particles that make up my physical body can stop being random, confused, lost in the maze and fog of the netherworld. They become settled down and peaceful. Then I become peaceful too, for I am not my body. I am the consciousness moving through my body like electricity moves through a light bulb.
I have been using my body without giving it much thought or honor or respect. I have actually been ignoring my body and abusing it. And it has grown tired and achy, with pains here and there sporadically popping up. Now, as I am being drawn into realization that there is a river of Light and Life flowing through me, my body is happy when I place my attention on it. My body rests in the arms of someone who cares. Is it me? Or is it someone bigger? Yes, it is someone bigger than me, who cares for this body and would make it feel better so it will live longer and healthier. I am drawn back to the teachings of the Tao and Tantra - Tantra meaning “web” as in “web of life”. I see the golden strands in me are not physical, they are currents. They are of my very own making. They are me. I designed them. I am the life force. I am not human. I am not the personality ego but that which I am eternally, the presence from the beginning. I Am the “I Am Presence” that is the creator of all individual humans and animals. This river of light is not human, neither masculine nor feminine. It is pure undivided, unfragmented, unmanifested light from heaven that was sent forth by the Father/Mother Creator of all things, as an individual light. I am an individual light, and I am here to create the perfect human. My I Am Presence is unique from all other I Am Presences in existence. My Father in Heaven is unique from everyone else’s Father in Heaven, and my Father Light circulating through my body becomes Mother Light now that it is in the body. It is the Mother. Father Light becomes Mother light in the body to uphold and support the physical atoms in place so I the Father can think and plan and design and create. The mother light is the love that supports, nurtures, nourishes and allows the creative Father Light to move about freely and bring his action into manifestation. Does this even make sense?
12/16/21 - The pro and con of orgasm
The double edge sword of sex. If the truth is to be told – and I’m a writer, writers tell their stories - there is a double edge to the story of orgasm. I realized this today, once again. I knew it before but wasn't ready to deal with it. I don’t see the truth until I write about it and I’ve put it out there, away from myself, onto the blog and published it. This then leaves a vacuum to allow further insight to move up and out from buried zones. Buried treasure. Truth is buried treasure. The double edged sword of sex is this: Orgasm is a way of releasing stress. When a man has an orgasm he explodes that stress and releases it out in a burst of fury. Behind it comes the cosmic bliss and euphoria that rocks his world. This is the great power that builds empires. It is an amazing, awesome power, an awesome process that only God and God’s celestial assistants can manage or pull off.
It is easy for mankind to be drawn to the magnificence of ecstasy and bliss, but what about the anger, resentment and frustration that had built up in the man? That also comes out with the orgasm. Where does THAT go when it is released? Why, into the body of the woman, of course. Or into the bed sheet or into the ground or the air. It doesn’t disappear. It’s energy and energy stays until it is redeemed, transformed and changed into something more wonderful. The man eliminates it from him, but he does not change it. It is the junk or the trash that he leaves behind him as he lives his life. At least it does not stay inside the man. It is a cleanser for him. He has a way to get rid of it. He blows it off. He blows off steam and stress and he enjoys the bliss that comes behind it. Yet it is no different than throwing out the trash, empty bottles, papers and used up items of daily living. He throws it away, the stress and frustration that he himself created unknowingly, and it returns to earth to get recycled and add to the overall negativity of the planet. He didn’t know that he was doing this, of course. No knowledge has been given about it. There is a complete lack of understanding and training, but that doesn’t diminish the fact that mankind has been adding to the negativity of earth for thousands and thousands of years. It will be understood one day. This is a truth that must be told. Orgasm is both a merciful act for the man but a burden for the earth - and for the woman who is a receptacle. The women who provide this service for men turn cold, callous and hard at the end of such a life from the continued build up they receive. It is a negative for the earth, a weight for the earth and a burden for humanity.
I received this insight when I had reason to re-examine the Tao philosophy. The Tao understanding is that behind the double edge sword is the infinite silent unchangeability. The nameless silence. The oneness. The all-intelligence that never moves but is conscious. Mankind is a child of that consciousness. Mankind is a limited child of consciousness. He lives in the form world where duality plays out as a game of opposites. We play with limitations to learn and understand. We experience a thing first one way and then the other way to compare. When it comes to sex and orgasm, we must include this truth. We cannot ignore it forever. We are a growing intelligent species and new knowledge is a natural result of evolution. We replace outdated wrong beliefs with more enlightened truth. We are re-examining ourselves. The Tao teaches internal exercises that bring our attention inward to observe and participate in our own bodily functions. The power of consciousness is huge. What we focus on becomes real. What is behind all of these cruel experiences? This swinging of the pendulum back and forth from left to right and back again? The Master asks, "Why do I tell you these things? Because the power of your attention gives you realization."
12/14/21 - Goddess gatherings or I Am Decrees?
How much I decree or chant makes a difference in my energy and interest in life. Over the last few years I have been thinking a lot about goddess gatherings. I have hosted a few but something prevents me from scheduling a regular event. I have my solitary practice which satisfies me, which includes decreeing and chanting, but there is something not finished yet. I sense the goddess gatherings. It comes out of my solitary practice, as if I should merge the two concepts. It eludes me what it is I am trying to achieve. I release the idea of goddess gatherings and yet the visions come back in a fresh new way. I am trying to draw on the feminine because I know women are more attuned to spiritual matters than men, but I hesitate to call it spiritual. And I hesitate to exclude men as a strict rule. So what is it that I am trying to manifest here? I seek others to join me in this effort, but of higher mind, not lower. I hesitate to call this effort spiritual, and yet it IS of a higher, more refined quality than human. It is actually MORE real than human. It is more REAL than what everyone thinks of as spiritual. It is more solid, more grounded, more touchable and huggable. It is more physical than spiritual.
I went to sleep and dreamt of Egyptian priests and priestesses and unusual phrases and names, and I woke up this morning and something had changed. Today I posted on Anakosha a "Personal Empowerment" page. The page was up but did not have text yet. Today I filled it in with calls and affirmations to the "Mighty I AM Presence" that I have been using for many, many years. Click HERE to access it. This posting is a striking separation from my usual postings. I am revealing what it is I do in my inner solitary work. It is now made public, at least a small part of it. I couldn't give it all because my experiences take place in other realms. But the methodology is very practical. I have posted the method.
There is a directing intelligence operating above the normal limits of the human mind and feelings. It has been called the Holy Christ Self by the Christian religion, and other names by Eastern religions and practices. Words have separated us into judgmental camps, but the bottom line is that there is a directing intelligence that is pure, clear and intelligent within each individual. It is so pure that it is called "holy". Most people wouldn't think about it because they don't feel "holy". But the fact is, we have been cut off from our own pure intelligence and knowledge. The four lower bodies called physical, mental, emotional and subconscious, have interfered with, and muddied up, the directing intelligence that would and could bring us happiness and fulfillment if we followed its direction! But through the use of free will and free choice, we have been entangled with each other and distracted by what is happening to everyone else. We human beings have interfered with the perfect intelligence which overlights us but we don't even know it's there.
So to reverse that entanglement and return to, and access, that beautiful directing intelligence that is built into us, and is actually US! You and me! we have to apply that same free will and conscious choice and apply some daily discipline to practices that will lift our spirits, minds, bodies and feelings. This is what I was hoping for with the goddess gatherings. I wanted women to join me in this endeavor, because men do not see eye to eye with me on these philosophical issues. But then, I have learned, neither do women. I was operating under a false belief system. Now I know how important it is to give each individual time and space to follow his or her own dreams and plans. We are each so different. When someone is ready to get back into alignment with their divine nature that is ever ready and waiting, they will. No one can push them before they are ready. Now I see why I have had to post so many of these thoughts on Anakosha. There have been a few here and there who have contacted me because of these posts. When it is time.
We each have a perfect design that is part of our nature, and when it is time the outer entanglements fall away and the inner nature is revealed to us. It is a matter of waiting for that click in to happen. I have been clicking in on a rather fast track lately. A lot has been happening for me. No one would notice it because my outer movements are not affected. I wanted to start the practice in the company of others on the same wave length, doing what I've been doing alone for so many years. Now I wish to expand it to include friends, to gather the feminine. Men can be feminine too. Not in their outer expression but in their hearts they can be feminine, tender and connected to the spiritual.
So what I thought of as goddess techniques, I have learned bear the same outcome as the "I AM" teachings of Saint Germain. Following the ascended masters for years makes this easier. This may not be earthy or indigenous but it does have the overlighting of the NEW earth. The NEW earth is fifth dimensional. The NEW earth is physical and grounded. Doing the "I AM" decrees and the accompanying light language is helping to bring forth the grounded, solid, practical, NEW Earth, with its happier, more joyous, more welcoming systems of equality, education, health and all systems of more enlightenment. There is more light coming to the people.
Each person I know has a light body and it is time to turn it on and increase the voltage. A house divided against itself cannot stand and our houses - our bodies - have been divided. We have no idea how badly they have been divided. This one method has been tried and it works. I've connected with my own light body and I wish to share. That is why I am posting it today. I wish that others would respond to this. I have no idea if they will but I am putting it out there for all to see. I AM what I AM and I AM revealing the process by which I have increased my own sense of fulfillment and peace - and abundance. By taking up this new practice of decreeing, affirming and chanting, a person can raise him/herself to levels of glory and purifications that he has no idea is available to him/her. Transformation is done on a consciousness level and affects all outward things, people and objects. But it starts with consciousness and becomes gradually clearer, purer, happier, lighter, freer, more abundant, joyous, connected with a sense of fulfillment that keeps growing. It doesn't stagnate. There is always something new. Every day something new. It's another world. Welcome to the NEW Earth.
Pull together the four lower bodies in your own house so there is peace in your seven bodies. We are composed of seven layers of consciousness. The four lower layers of consciousness are the physical, mental, emothional and etheric (subconscious), plus the three higher, pure and uncontaminated layers that we are normally not aware of. That makes seven layers of consciousness available to us. When we offer our attention and focus to the lower layers, we become trapped in negative outcomes. By turning our attention and focus to the three higher layers, which is the ascended master state, the lower layers of consciousness start to clear up. What we call the third dimension raises up to the fourth and ultimately the fifth dimension. Negativity cannot exist in the fifth dimension, and that is where earth is heading - to the NEW earth. Our many contaminated thoughts, beliefs and memories cannot live in the atmosphere of the three higher levels of our consciousness. They will fade away, and we will naturally become more clear. We let them go and they fade in natural ways, they move away from us without trauma or drama. We evolve when we stop recycling the negatives and the problems. We stop activating them. In this way we overcome the problems we used to have while still living in the world and the world we know becomes happier and more peaceful and problem-free. This happens because we begin focusing on the higher realms above us, using the words and applying the disciplines left by Sainit Germain in the green books.
Yesterday I tested this theory. I did double the decreeing. Decreeing is the same as chanting or doing mantra. Yesterday I did it while moving around. I didn’t stop and sit. I said the words out loud when out of ear shot of my husband, and said them under my breath while he was nearby. I moved around and continued decreeing all day. And by nightfall I was very much energized, so much that I wanted to keep going and do things. I was eager and excited to keep on creating a’new. Everything felt new to me. But it was time for bed. One goes to bed to be refreshed when one is tired, but if one is constantly refreshed, which I was from decreeing all day, then what does one do? I’ll figure it out. Meantime I proved to myself that decreeing does really work to liberate the heavy feeling. I was light. I was flying high. Decreeing is only one of the technologies of the Goddess. Those into yoga and the eastern traditions call it the science of mantra. There is a lot being said about ascension in these days, but it is the same thing - raising one's consciousness through various techniques. When the attention is raised, the body follows. Everything becomes re-vitalized. Re-charged. The person’s consciousness or mind is more clear, less dull, less tired. It becomes more refined. It has been referred to as “divine” but it is simply LIFE flowing through the body with less contaminants or toxins in it. That cleaner life flows in and interweaves through the now-cleared conduits and ties the seven levels (bodies) together so they feel more linked together and more whole. There ARE techniques that help us transform, which leads us to a better life. And it doesn’t have to be sitting in silence for hours at a time. Chanting and decreeing all day long is referred to as walking meditation. You can do your work at the same time. It is a very practical method to lift you out of this world into a higher world - and still be here on the ground!
12/10/21 - Receiving is the greatest lesson of all
(Spirit channeled yesterday) Receiving is a truly blessed sacred gift. Once tapped into receiving, you receive the scepter, the power, the glory that you have kept at bay outside of you, walled off. Receiving is the greatest lesson of all. It is easy to push outward your wants and desires onto those around you. But to RECEIVE from those around you? That is the pearl of great price that has evaded those searching for this mystical quality. You see, YOU are the quality. You are the receiver. You yourself are the quality of receiving. You are the stillness. Your ability to receive has been denied by you. You closed it down. What do you think meditation is designed for? What does it mean to “go into the silence”?
Becoming still and not moving is only the first step to the long-desired goal. The holy chalice refers to emptying yourself so that you become hollow, void of desire, void of illusions, void of expectations. The search is over. You give up. You yield. You surrender. Do you know what this means? It means you connect into the oneness. You become the oneness, the eternal oneness, the sea into which ALL rivers must eventually flow. All individuals must in the end offer up their accumulated wisdom and knowledge to the allness and in return they are joined with the power of the allness. We call it “the Harvest”. The separated individual pushes himself outward, ever and always outward, over the mountains, down into crevices, joining with others in adventures building and creating and fighting together in form, but never receiving, never listening, always facing outward, forgetting the reality and the beauty of the inner life, the father of life, the mother of life, the ONLY life they have that fuels the adventures.
We pay no attention to that which fuels and nourishes us by the minute, the hour, the day, weeks and years. We are blessed with this holy Presence which inspires us but do we acknowledge it? It is the beginning of the turn-around to acknowledge the Holy Presence which is the eternal flame, the fountain of youth, health and strength that never goes out. It cannot be extinguished without terrible, awful works done over multiple lifetimes of embodiment. Even then, one is given one last chance to turn around and acknowledge the Presence within, before that light withdraws permanently. The turn-around from facing outward to facing inward and acknowledging one’s Holy God Self, the Presence, begins with listening. Stop and become still.
While there is nothing to see at first because focus is dimmed, remain in the stop position and be alert. Ask. Ask a question and listen. Don’t expect anything. The practice of listening is being alert. What was that sound? What was that flicker? What was that fleeting thought? It’s gone now. Remain alert. Remain open. Remain receptive. Imagine a funnel opening upward from the top of your head, opening up into the space above you. Picture the sun brilliantly shining overhead. You are coming through the sun. You are ray of sunlight entering down through the funnel into the top of your head. Perhaps it is only a single ray or perhaps an avalanche of brilliant sparkles raining down on you and some of them are caught into your funnel that you have built. And the light flows down into the main trunk of your body, your spinal column, and goes down into the ground beneath your feet and on down to the crystal sun at the center of the Earth. Be open. Receive. Listen. Allow the power to enter into your blood stream, nerves, tissues, organs, revitalizing your body.
12/9/21 - Building trust in yourself, sexual and otherwise
My life took an unusual path when I went into heaven in an out-of-body experience years ago. For maybe 5 or 10 minutes I was totally immersed in pure light and love. As far as I could tell it was a sea that went on forever. I was drenched as it were, soaked through and through, so that it took ten years for me to return to normal. It was a NEW normal, granted, but I was able to function back on Earth again. During those ten years my husband and I entered into swinging and had casual sex with other couples. It was the most dynamic and exciting time of my life. For awhile. It stabilized me and grounded the power that was flowing constantly, keeping me often out of body and unable to think or function. My metabolism high. I was always high, in space high. It was uncomfortable. So wrapping myself around the body of another human being, man or woman but mostly men, was a saving grace. A huge relief as long as they were friendly and wanted me to. They made me feel oohhh so good. More peaceful, more connected, more at home and more grounded.
Orgasms were part of it, yes, it was expected. But it wasn’t all about orgasms. The men seemed to think it was but for me it didn't matter because I was more interested in cuddling with warm human bodies. In fact, it took years but eventually I lost the ability to have orgasms at all. I always needed a vibrator to make it happen. The last time I tried to have an orgasm I thought I would have a heart attack because I tried so hard to please the man. What I was missing was the emotional, mental and spiritual connection. I was giving so much love to my partners but not receiving it back. I didn’t know this at the time because I was too busy being spontaneously loving with everyone, but gradually my interest in this activity began to fade. In its place there arose a need and desire to connect on a higher mental and spiritual level, yet still through intimate and close physical touch. It is a peculiar sense of wanting to blend the spiritual with human flesh and blood intimacy.
I tried talking about it with those in the lifestyle of swinging, but they were the wrong audience. They made me feel something was wrong with me. They wanted to give me even MORE sex (!) and offered various approaches to achieve orgasms. The focus kept returning to sex, which is what drained me in the first place. I kept trying to hint that I didn't want that, I just wanted to be close and cuddle freely with people. But it seemed that most of the men - and some women - didn't understand. I just wanted cuddle time with people, it raised my spirits to share love and closeness. I felt the love in people and tried to draw it from them to match my own, but they keep trying to distract me with sex innuendos and actions.
I feel this information is important to share publicly because I am sure there are others who feel this way. Sharing personal stories is an important part of our human nature. It validates those who need to hear it. Those who don't will not absorb it. Sharing truths helps those who need to hear it from someone else because we all doubt ourselves. When I began feeling resentment and didn't like the sense of hate that was borderline in me, I made the hard decision to withdraw from swinging, and disappoint my husband. I loved hosting parties, I loved the people and I loved the closeness of hugging and socializing and wanted to continue that part of it. But swinging required sex, and men just didn't understand. I changed our timeline then.
Why I am writing about this. As a spiritual writer and student of the esoteric, I realize that humanity and the world is going through a transition and sex is a formidable subject. It's a key fulcrum point. It is something that everyone must face within themselves. It is not fair to push sex on people who don't want it. And furthermore, it is not fair for those who don't want it to continue to blame those who do. Sexual intimacy allows for spiritual growth for those who are equally matched and balanced enough to enjoy each other with a loving or at least a chemical match. Then it is not only pleasant and enjoyable, it opens chakras to greater heights, to ecstasies and bliss. This is a positive, but it is wrong to expect sex from people, or to push it on them when they don't want it. But it is equally wrong to hurt someone's feelings by leading them on. The responsibility is on each of us to live our truth openly and not pretend. Love is a cosmic quality which contains truth, purity, intelligence, peace, courage and more. We are here to learn how to live it in physical life. We can only learn it in physical life, in a physical body, because we already know what love is like when we're NOT in a body. We are spiritual beings having a physical life for a reason. We don't have to preach about love to the saints. Love is all there is. We come from a loving universe with a loving mother and father God. Love is everywhere, but it's not on earth. We are here to bring it to earth. Earth needs it. Love is what we were born here for.
During my early swinging years which were so dynamic, I learned by plunging in and engaging without thinking. By experiencing sex with others, both with love and then without love after realizing that I was not getting love back and they were just using me for selfish ends, that was my lesson. Then I began to withdraw. My own ability to love began to fade. I should have stopped then, but I didn't. I continued to operate under the illusion that I was wrong and there was something missing in me and I kept trying harder. When I finally burned out I began changing myself. It was a hard lesson but it was a positive change for me. I stood firm and began rebuilding my inner power. That was what I should have done from the beginning, believe in myself.
There is a certain weakness, not in all women but especially in older women, myself included, which relies on the man for practical decisions. The need for sex falls into this category in various ways. I believed what men told me or implied more than I believed in myself. Now that I have been through that particular scenario (lol!) I am back to believing in my own sense of what is good for me and what is not. My higher ideals and principles are my strength. I know who I am. I write these words and tell my private story to reinforce the sacred inner truth in each person who reads this. What you want and believe is a precious gift. It is your divinity and it is sacred. Believe in it and rely on it at all times. If in doubt, contact me. I will reaffirm it for you. It is important to trust your own perceptions. I had them all along but I didn't trust them. Now I do. But I am also aware that I have some quirks that are not right, and I must look to myself to correct them. I trust that feeling too. We are here to be honest with ourselves and live according to our highest sense of what is right, good and true. Blessings to one and all in this Christmas season.
12/8/21 - Growing personal love into cosmic love
I am getting many thoughts these days. Many petals are opening. There are so many that I am learning to let them all go on without me. They are passing through me. If I try to keep them and hold onto them, they get scrambled and bunched up into knots, and I can’t use any of them then. I am useless. I have to let them go. If I hold them back they add stress and worry to my normal stress and worry. Then I have to go into meditation and release them. So I am learning to let these inspiring downloads and revelations breeze through me without grabbing pen and paper. I haven’t perfected this yet but I’m getting better at it. It seems as if I am becoming a channel of MANY enlightened thoughts, not all of which are meant for me. I think I am transitioning to higher ground.
As I work at letting them all go, one particular thought continues to reoccur. This one is for me. This is mine, my calling, my mission. I’m beginning to understand. It is the thought of bringing love – divine impersonal love - into the physical body. Individuals are continuing to block love out, simply because there has been so little instruction or permission. We have all been so afraid of love because it keeps turning personal and brings forth jealousy, possessiveness, emotional hurt and suffering, but that’s not love. That’s entanglement. The love I’m talking about is universal love. It is impersonal. It is cosmic. It is what holds life together. This love is absolutely unblemished and free. It is vast and wide and eternal. There are no conditions attached. I’ve been trying to write about it. It seems no one understands. It comes from our higher self down to us. We all need to get to know what this true love feels like. It starts inside ourselves. We have to allow it. We have to learn to touch it.
Love is not physical. Love is not a human quality. We are here to LEARN about love and how to cultivate it. It is our main job here. For a human being to bring forth love into his actions, it requires an expression of givingness. It would be to treat everyone with a smile or a hug without expecting anything back. It would bring a sense of warmth inside. This is what love is. Love uplifts both the giver and the receiver. Love is not personal. It is impersonal like the sun which shines on everyone alike. The goal for all of us is to learn what this love feels like inside. It transcends human foibles and personalities. It takes lifetimes to master, but if we can learn the secret of love it can be learned quite quickly. Love is universal and can be applied to every single situation imaginable. The secret to fast learning is by FEELING love inside. Watch when someone gives you something. Then use that feeling as a reminder and a memory. Use it to feel it again and again.
We humans are dissuaded from doing that. We try to love others first, and when the others don’t return the favor, we feel rotten. Human give and take is not love. It’s bartering. Two people can enjoy the cosmic love for a period of time, but they must learn to make it unconditional and remove all expectations from the other person. We must learn to grow our small human love to large divine love if we are to find true fulfillment and happiness. Most human love is an emotional contract between two or more people. The struggle and pain is the result from trying to live confined within the narrow rules of the contract.
We human beings CAN transcend the negatives in our lives if we use cosmic universal love. Unconditional love, without demands. It may sound crazy, but actually, it works. I’ve been using it for years. It brings about a much happier life. You feel peaceful with yourself because you’re using universal love. It does require focus and attention. It requires practice. It requires mindfulness. Thinking about it and then applying it to someone or something that is happening. It can turn a negative into a rich joy with ease. It is really a simple matter. There are many differences in the world and people love to argue and fight over whose version is better. But all it takes is the willingness to surrender to love, and it soothes the vibrations to soft and smooth quickly. Destructive opinions and emotions wither and disappear.
This is real. All of the pleasures one can possibly want, CAN blossom forth out of free-flowing expressions of unconditional, undemanding love. Love is what holds the planets together, and it holds families together too. It is not necessary to learn fancy words. It is an attitude of gratitude, humbleness, words of encouragement, praise, admiration on a continuous basis. In a never-ending flow of uplifting words to those we live with and around. Youth can be rekindled, vitality increased, excitement re-ignited, dreams reborn, romance returned and intimacy a deep, deep love that is impossible to describe. This kind of love is returning to humankind today. I am seeing it. I am feeling it inside me. Perhaps you are seeing it too. I hope you are. Notice it. There is something magical happening. There is a new light, a new glow in the air. Is it only me?
12/3/21 - More on goddess gatherings
This no longer fits the history of Anakosha, which was founded on bringing men and women together under the umbrella of sexual love. But in the lifestyle of swinging, love was unable to blossom. It was continually missing from swing parties so I started researching. Seriously researching. I've been looking at sexual love from a higher plane for years but recently I discovered the goddess movement. It's relatively new but I've made the difficult decision to start something that excluded men. The principles of the divine feminine applies to men, but would be labeled the divine masculine. The principles are the same, it is all about love and how to apply love in human affairs. But since women approach life differently than men do, the women have different values as human beings in a duality world. We have issues we must discuss, and how to get around them, how to address them. We cannot do this with men present. So I am addressing the women.
In mulling over how best to proceed with goddess gatherings I've done a good bit of browsing through the internet. I've taken the pulse of the goddess movement. I am surprised. There are more than I expected to see. They have sprung up in the last five years as far as I can tell. One website was posted in 1993 but was not kept up to date and is obviously an early attempt to reintroduce the goddess to the world. The other goddess-type websites, while different in personality, all have the same underlying goal: to empower women by providing a safe environment and an atmosphere of joyful celebration of feminine values. Men are excluded. There are workshops, classes, meditations, parties, weekend campouts, all sorts of different formats and themes. All without men. The purpose is to assist women to unfold their feminine wings and hearts without men dictating to them, or holding them back, or arguing with them, or demanding an explanation or otherwise disapproving of their choices. Goddess gatherings are for women to explore, discover, engage in discussions to find their OWN inner truth. Their inner feminine has been hidden and buried for eons, under the predominantly patriarchal system, and it needs a safe womb in which to learn how to become free and strongly feminine again, sovereign in her own powers of choice. This is the entrance into the rebirth of the ancient goddess. Perhaps for the first time ever, for never has the world been so ready for this movement.
11/29/21 - Breaking through to power
This morning I picked up the little plastic frame that sits on my bureau. It sits among other frames. I've been doing focused breathing through my heart lately. I've always tried to focus on my heart during exercises but for some reason I haven't felt the connection but it has been starting to happen. The connection is beyond mental. I didn't understand. It has taken a long time to get past the limitations of my little mind and what I believe in. The connection is a breakthrough to POWER. There's no way to describe it. I feel powerful. I proved it to myself by getting into a shouting match with my husband, which surprised me, because I felt so much strength of conviction. It was so strong! But I quickly dimmed it to be civil. Amazing what powers lie within us that we haven't accessed yet.
Normal life is a muddling around with concepts and ideas, seemingly new ideas, trying them out here and there, but that's not power. That's just rearranging furniture in the house. It's still the same old house of the mind. It doesn't bring in the power. The power is something else. I picked up the little frame randomly, without thinking, that contained the flash of inspiration from long ago. It has been sitting on the bureau for all of these 28 years - it was our anniversary Friday - and I read it again probably for the first time in 10 years. It was a shout-out, a "bravo, well done!" to punctuate what I have achieved through focused concentration on my heart - the heart that pumps inspiration via the blood to the furthest reaches of the body.
The little frame
"Practice in the midst of work. Stop and focus on the etheric world. Call into your consciousness the energies of nobility, power, courage and protection. At the same time, know that the spirit realm is close at hand and with love you call them to you, to help you and guide you. It is through the lifting of your mind and awareness that they are permitted to come to your aid. Practice doing this. Place yourself in a flame of upward flowing energies, a great flame of love to all mankind. This is the greatest protection you can have in turmoil, for it is the power of giving, radiating, expanding. And as you know, when you are busy giving, it is difficult indeed for any other person to hurt you for their malevolent intent is turned aside, backlashing upon them, by the invisible radiation of selfless love surrounding you and protecting. This is the battle armour of the great ones - courage and love, honor and truth, desire for freedom and purity of heart, all rolled into one mighty armour, burnished by the touch of God."
11/28/21 - The Goddess and Emotions
One of the things that the Goddess teachings bring to us is the fact that ascended masters and angels are real, very real, and helping us and are available to communicate with. We have been programmed not to see them, or if we do, to think of them as our imagination. We don’t see them physically but we see them internally in some fashion. Sometimes in a clear mental picture, and sometimes it’s just through a sense of knowing. We have been totally brain-washed into thinking that our internal knowing is hallucinatory. Not true. We can “see” pictures and messages with an internal mechanism that is like a radar or an x-ray machine. It senses the outline of a person or a message or a realization. It seems that men (my experience with men) are programmed to see only the outer physical forms, thus they have come to believe only in text-book science which is proven through physical measurements. The Goddess teachings cultivate believing, hoping, overcoming self-doubt by building confidence in oneself, and developing the power of faith, love, reverence for life, peace, harmony, good will, justice, courage, truth. These are all powers.
By holding thought and focus on these powers we become freer and freer, because we are made from these powers. We have forsaken them. We have given them away. We have allowed our powers to be stolen from us, diverted into other channels. That is why we are a lost race. That is what the NEW age is all about – reclaiming our powers of selfhood. Then we will be free to live without entanglements and put-downs by others which interferes with our positive lifestyle. Our lovestyle. Love is a lifestyle. It's a way of living. Love is about becoming free of entanglements and negatives, but it only happens when we change our SELF by ourself. It doesn’t come from blaming or crediting other people. That’s how we gave our power away in the first place. The new age is here to teach us how to raise our SELF and transform our SELF into higher, better, more courageous and refined human beings. We must not lay blame on others, nor lay credit on others either. Take responsibility for everything that happens to you, with love. Love is a power. By using love as a power we become free and FEEL free. We feel free to love in our own way. The love of freedom. Love and freedom work together. Love and freedom are one coin, one couple, working together. We have the powers within us. We must use them to increase our vibrations.
About vibrations. A low vibration is heavy and dark, a high vibration is light and smooth. Vibration is a pulsing. Rap a table with a knuckle slow and methodical. That’s a slow vibration. It's heavy. Speed it up to a faster tapping, that’s a higher vibration. It's lighter. It's higher on the scale of movement. Vibration refers to how an idea FEELS as compared to how an idea is perceived. A thought is an abstract, intellectual concept. Abstract intellectualism doesn’t have a feeling to it. It has to slow down to be felt as a vibration, viscerally, sensually, to cause an emotion. The body is a slower, lower vibration. An abstract thought is vibrating too high. It does not register on the body. We have to lower the thought down to a slower vibration for the body to FEEL it. This is how we "quicken" the body with higher thought. Spiritual concepts are too high for the body to understand. I am getting this now. This is a new understanding for me. By bringing these very high perceptions and visions down into slower, lower vibration is the BIG job we face. I used to think "It's no use trying to explain. They won't get it." And I kept my high perceptions to myself, alone, secret, my private life was secret. But now I am understanding what it means. Bring these lighter, abstract thoughts down into common language and try to put them into action. Join them with the body. Look for a FEELING. Love is a vibration that can be felt by the body when it is expressed through touch, song, spoken words, hugs, gestures, kindness, benevolence, invention, deeds of mercy, charity, justice. In other words, by living them.
A thought about love is abstract, it is spiritual. There is no feeling in a spiritual or abstract thought unless it is coupled with a feeling or action that touches the life of another. Vibrate the feeling of love slower and lower. Vibrate the feeling of kindness slower and lower. Vibrate patience slower and lower. Vibrate truth slower and lower. You get the idea. Vibrate these higher vibrational qualities with feeling. Put feeling into the body and into life and action. We are being told to raise our vibrations. This refers to our body's vibration. The body is the last to pick up a vibration. We mentally pick up a thought faster, but how do we register it on the body? How do we show it to someone else through action? I didn't understand.
We are being asked to LIVE our truth and our love by putting those feelings into action. Love is not a word, it's a vibration. Love is a Goddess teaching. The Mother Goddess shapes and molds light and love into form by using light from the sun and love from her own kindness and desire to serve. Light and love has been missing from the average human life. We have been a purely mental race, intellectual giants and poor expressors of love. We have remained separate, distant, aloof, cold, uncaring, in the stratosphere of the intellect of mind. The Goddess, the feminine aspect of God, is what takes these abstract qualities and lowers them down into form. She empowers the abstract through feeling. She is the FEELING side of life. She takes abstract qualities and compacts them, coagulates them, crushes them down into a matting of substance. She expresses the God consciousness into form, into the body called animal, human, bird, bear, snake. We feel because we are composed of qualities of love and light. She made us so we could feel them. Feeling is an emotion, an energy that moves. Moving energy is the quality of the divine feminine. She is the feminine aspect of God the Creator. She is the feminine aspect of God who shapes the Earth and the humans and animals into form. She molds it all with light from the sun and with love from her heart and soul. She is a celestial being, a master in her own right, here to serve.
11/27/21 - Random thoughts and visions
When I was a child I was open to all things. It worked fine until I was older. Actually it was fine until I got married. Then situations came into my life and I had to deal with them. They were old issues. I am here to face disempowerment issues and clear them. Coming from a spiritual place, as a child I was in openness. Mostly in spirit. Spirit unifies everything. It does not analyze them or work with them. It simply is open to the flow. Love is not ego. It is total 100% receptive to spirit. It is ego to analyze and decide if a thing is good or bad, right or wrong. Goddess energy is 100% flowing with spirit and love precedes you. Love takes you to where you want to go in your heart. It is overwhelmingly awesome to be in the flow of love. As a human we learn how to be open to the, what we call negative, sad, or bad situations that come to us. We need that negative side as a backdrop, like a deep velvet background allows love to stand out in stark intense beautiful colors. We are here to grow in understanding that love is the healer and the helper along the way. Love gets us through our situations quicker if we will go into 100% receptive mode and not resist the flow of the atoms and molecules moving us into harmony.
I have had to become human in order to highlight the Love that I am here to reawaken. I had to learn how to be human all over again after kundalini awakened. I was in spirit with kundalini and then I descended once more into human. Being human is a separating experience, a duality, and ability to discern comes forward for me to use. I have to learn how to discern, how to judge what is good for me and what is not, and not to be so blindly open as one does in the heavens. In a world of duality we are to develop insight and perception, in order to recognize and understand that there are many diverse people through many diverse energies here in the world. Stay balanced in love while learning these lessons. Now I see. As a sexual being I have to present goddess love through my sexual history, through the eyes of my personal story, because the history of sex is one of perversion. Goddess love is shown in living color against that black velvet backdrop, which sucks everything into its black nothingness, or would if it could. But Goddess love comes forward and lights the way. Goddess love is not sexual any more than God is sexual. However (I have a vision now) the purity of love washes down over the planet and the people. It is breathed in and then utilized and shaped by the people, by their free will. The people are creative. They are imaginative. They take the purity that flows down from the heavens of their being - each one - and they mold it according to personal taste and preference. They add this to the world around them as a creative gift to the planet.
Many darker forms of cruelty have been made from purity, and it was allowed to exist for an age. But it is time for goddess love to shine the light and expose the truth of love light. How to create in form. We are growing our divine personalities out of the darker colors of human. They are taking on more light and more livingness and more sparkle, more clarity. We are becoming divine humans or galactic humans with multidimensional souls. I’m a focus of the Light. I am pulling in the Light and molding it to my focus as I write. I am shaping my perspective through my eyes, through my will, through my way, and showing it to the world what and who I am, how I see, how I act, what I know. I am the Light within me and must show it, just as others are Light within themselves and they must show it. I draw my Light from the sun, who draws his Light from the higher sun, the galactic central sun, who draws his Light from the sun higher above him. This is the descension process of the Light. The Light is descending down and it is our job to receive it with appreciation by looking up to the Light and acknowledging it. We have not been looking up, but now we are starting to look up. The process of acknowledging the light is the process of receiving the light and the next process is expressing the light into form, which is love.
Planets are forms. Planets are ensouled by great beings of Light and mastery who focus the Light into their spherical forms, maintaining their forms. Likewise other forms, wholesome and round, whether it be a woman or a man or a mountain or an ocean. All forms are feminine. We, the consciousness, are pure spirit, not yet in form, descending into form. Each of us has a responsibility to utilize the light as we become aware of it, as it descends into us, as we breathe it in, as we draw it forth into action in the physical. Light is unformed intelligence, and we shape it to our preference by our personal intelligence, will, desire, intention, by our wanting to express something in the world. This is why we are here - to learn how to shape and mold the Light, the intelligence which we are, which is spirit, which is consciousness. It is intelligence and it is Light and it is God/Goddess. How to shape and mold consciousness in a way which is of benefit to all around for the good of the whole - that is the task.
The dark side which has very little Light within, by choice, is selfish by choice. They take the light and mold inward to suit their greedy ways, and do not give to others. They harm others by hoarding what they are given and keep it for themselves. It is not good for the whole. It holds creation back and destroys the creations that others build and obstruct what others attempt to build. We are gaining more understanding now, as we learn about how the process works. There are Light forces coming to this planet, circling this planet, staying in orbit around this planet and beaming their understanding onto the earth. They know we are a troubled planet. They are here to help. They have access to more Light. They use it in a positive way. They have perfected their own civilizations on their own planes. They are sending us information as mental thoughts into our minds. Without their help we would continue to be dark, unlighted, unresponsive to goodness that is trying to gain our attention. Light and Love. The whole process of taking the unformed Light from the suns which represent focuses of Godhead, taking unformed light and creating forms with it - planets, mountains, trees, animals, humans, relationships, better homes, better foods, better ways of living - this is feminine. This is Goddess love at work. Goddess is turning intelligence into form. It is the work of love. Goddess is the feminine side of God which births forms.
11/26/21 - Shamanism and the Goddess
Yesterday in the middle of meditation I had a thought to bring the stuffed owl down and place it near me. I did and continued my meditations. Then I had a thought to light a candle. I did that and lit an incense too. I continued with my meditations. Then I had a thought to take the giant feather and sweep the room in which I sat. So I did and resumed my meditations. Then I had a thought of the women gathering and I thought of the several musical instruments hanging on the wall. So I got up and brought down a rattle and a shaker and the big white drum that Tamsen painted. And I resumed my meditations. Then I thought of other objects and so I got up and looked around the room. I as amazed at how many indigenous objects were waiting to be used. Many years have passed with them sitting immobile against the wall, like the stuffed owl. And the wand with the crystal, and the long shaman's walking stick that Tamsen made. All made of earth material, goards, leather, feathers. Indigenous to the earth.
That was yesterday. Today instead of my usual meditation, I was led into a goddess ceremony as soon as I walked into the room. The language of light began to speak through me. It sounded like Native American. I tapped lightly on the drum and sang in the ancient language which I have done for years, not knowing where it comes from. I used the rattles, the drum, the chimes, the feather, allowed the light language to speak. Then I was led to an old notebook. It is our anniversary today. 28 years in this house. I brought this notebook with me. I opened the cover to the first page, the second, the third. Not sure what I was looking for I scanned each page with the drum still in my left hand. Finally I found it about a third in. Something I had copied in earlier years. Something I must have thought valuable at the time. I read each word carefully, wondering who wrote it. There wasn't a source printed under it. When I reached the final paragraph I started remembering. I wrote this? There was no date. It was slowly coming back to me. Ever so slowly. I wrote it during a time when I was flowing with understanding. It was an Ode to the Earth Mother, the Mother Goddess.
My body has been registering high stress lately, a sign that I must do more to ground my high energy which is moving too fast. The goddess energies are coming up for me to remind me what to do. I am being led to restore my shaman abilities. Where does this come from? I don't know. I can only follow and see where it leads. I see women gathering, each holding a rattle, a drum, a wand, a candle, a rattle, a branch, something of the earth.
Later, after I have finished inside the house, I go out to the pasture and sit in the sun. When it becomes too hot, I move my chair to the shade. It is warm today, beautiful. I sit alone with nothing in my hand. Yes, this is a perfect place for an earth ceremony. I look up at the blue sky, very few clouds, the air is still. I start chanting light language again. Two yellow butterflies are flitting through the bushes by the pool. A third joins them. One comes over to me and circles overhead, then it returns to join the other two. My mind is quiet but my nerves are still strung out. My body is struggling to become still, to connect with the stillness. I understand the pressure to hold a gathering of women. It is an ancient ritual designed to ground and anchor the soul, the feminine. I can't do it alone by myself. I need others to connect with.
(Click HERE to read what I wrote about the Goddess, circa 1986.)
11/25/21 - Goddess is yin - the consort of yang
In men as well as women
Enter the center where Yin resides. Yang is the outer whirling arms, legs and mind. Some people say time is moving past so fast they can’t keep up, but time is not moving at all. Only the hands of the clock move, and the arms and legs. Time does not move. There is no movement at the center. Enter the center where there is no movement. There is no sense of movement in the center. The center is where love resides. Love can blossom when two people connect at the center, or three or four or a group. Wherever individuals merge yet retain their individuality. Where individuality expands to greater clarity. The center is where you know yourself and I know myself. The center is where we can enjoy connection together. The center is an elevator to higher grander vaster ground, to a higher form of love that is not possessive, not personal. The center is where you can have many lovers, many friends, many family members, in harmony, without conflict, without jealousy. The center is where you access your own deepest resources. The center is where physical sex becomes a spiritual and emotional connection. The center is where wisdom flows like water, where visions twinkle and sparkle, where love becomes freedom, and freedom becomes love, where yang becomes yin and yin becomes yang, the outer and the inner merge and become One with everyone and everyone becomes One. The result is bliss, ecstasy, rapture and more. Everyone is One. Everyone is individual. In order to grow in wisdom and love, one must learn how to integrate and balance the yin and yang within which, unbalanced becomes ego, becomes the feeling of being separate from everyone else. Your higher self is one with all others. Higher self keeps you sane, whole, balanced, clear and real.
11/24/21 - Training for a goddess ceremony
I have been thinking a lot about hosting a goddess gathering but I have been unsure how to begin. What should we do at a goddess gathering? I've tried it before but the plan died because I didn't have it in me to carry it further. So I began asking, "What do we do in a goddess gathering?" Master DK says, "What have YOU been doing all these years?", suggesting that I already know what to do. But I don't, because my expectations are too high, too complex. There is too much to consider. I am in space and ungrounded. I want to ground and the idea of a goddess ceremony comes to me. But where do we begin? How do we reconnect with the Earth? I ask my guides. "What is the beginning step to a goddess ceremony?" I feel I must write about it. Plan it. Imagine it. So that is what I am doing today.
Let's pretend we are attending a goddess gathering. Not on zoom. No, no. A real live in-person gathering of women only. Let each person who reads this, read it at their own leisure in their own home and engage or not, as they choose. The advice I am being given is to slow down and widen my consciousness. To connect with Mother Earth will require slowing down and widening your consciousness. Not the mind but the consciousness. Consciousness is the stillness in the background of being. It is the awareness from which thoughts spring forth. It is the stillness from which all life springs. It is the same for Mother Earth. She too has a stillness which is her consciousness. Her stillness runs through nature at its best and most pure. That's why we love to be in the raw and wild nature because we too are composed of that same raw and wild nature. But we have become too mental. We have become disconnected from our own nature. To reconnect, we slow our thoughts and slow our energies and connect with those who are similar to us, not dis-similar. Those who are dis-similar agitate us and tempt us into action and reaction. So we gather with like minds, and slow our busy thoughts. We slow, slow, slow down to reconnect with the Earth forces that are INSIDE us. We are made of the same stuff, you and I. Tio reconnect, we must slow down our thoughts and engage our feelings. Our feelings of peace are what connect us. Abstract thoughts do not have feelings. Thought is an offshoot that reaches for something. It reaches for what it doesn't have. It reaches upwards, higher and higher beyond us, for what is lacking inside us. We must slow that reaching down and become quieter and slower. Attaining stillness and peace is a process that is difficult to attain alone.
We are in a goddess circle of 7 women sitting in a screen room. Each participant sits at a round table with an unlit candle and a stick in front of her. The stick is 6 or 7 inches long. We are asked to take our stick and light one end from the mother flame in the center of the table, and light our own individual candle in front of us, dousing the burning end in the water bowl nearby. We are guided to breathe into our own fire, naturally, easily, peacefully while our hostess begins a guided journey into the mother flame in the center of the table, representing our divine nature. Outside there is a pasture of grass, no houses can be seen. Nature is quiet around us. Only the occasional bird call or butterfly attracts our attention.
It is a mystery why the mind becomes peaceful and more expansive when thinking slows down. Stopping the merry-go-round brings the blur of passing objects into more focus. When it fully stops it places us into firmly into the picture. We are a part of the whole picture when we stop moving. But moving into stillness is a choice. Some do not want to slow down. Some do not want to enter the stillness yet. We may stop at any point along the way into the slowing down. It is each one's choice because we are an individual. We can choose and it is not wrong. We have a say in how far we go into stillness, but not here. We have been invited to this goddess gathering and we know ahead of time what we will be doing. That is the process of creating a word picture first.
Oh! So that's why I have to do this. I am growing in understanding. I am being led. I have had to understand because I've been afraid to hold a goddess gathering. I have been afraid that the pushiness of the outer minds of the people would take over and I wouldn't be able to stand up against their needs, that overwhelming tide of different desires, needs and pushiness of personalities that are ever present. I seek the quiet of the DIVINE feminine, not the earth feminine. I am calling it forth. As I write these words I realize that I have nothing to be afraid of because the others present want the same thing. Because I have explained the process ahead of time.
On the screen room at the round table, we are guided to hold hands with those on either side of us. We are led further into unity and reconnection with parts of ourselves we seldom experience. We now feel ourselves becoming slower in thought, wider in connection. The goddess ceremony is a process of quietening the mind and connecting with the oneness. It takes a while. The music is very quiet and the air wafting through the screens is also quiet. It is a ritual of becoming present with one another. It is a ritual of feeling peace while in the presence of others. The ego is the agent of separation. When the mind is busy reaching for something not here yet, it separates from everyone else and goes alone. The goddess ritual is stopping the mind from reaching. When we go quiet, the sense of separation melts away. We sense the oneness. It is natural. It is quiet. It is still.
At the end we have snacks and chat easily, becoming our normal selves again. What else will we do during the goddess circle? I ask this question because my mind races ahead to wonder. I am caught up in reaching again. The energies of life flow fast through me and around me. I seem to be cranked up high all the time. It keeps me buzzing. So I have been asking, "What can we do at a goddess gathering?" I will continue to ask and listen and will post my findings here in my blog.
Meanwhile, enjoy the peace of stress release. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving day. I am grateful to be alive in this beautiful property and house which we have been fighting to save. I bought a Pointsettia and a balloon today to celebrate. We will have turkey and the fixings tomorrow. I wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving who happens to see this blog. These blogs help me to focus on what I want and understand my place in the scheme of things. I hope you enjoy them. Feel free to write me any time and offer suggestions. Love, Diana
11/23/21 - Tantric love by Master DK
I received a clear picture of two people doing Tantra love today, from Master DK. A man and woman sitting together facing each other in a meditation, eyes closed, in silence, each focusing on their inner light and love whatever way they do that. Neither one of them made an effort at pushing it. They waited, and communed with their light bodies until their light bodies moved them to engage in physical lovemaking. Slowly. I don’t know how to describe this to someone who is not aware of their light body. But the words “precise balance” came to me. Each physical body, both the man and the woman, the male and female energies had to be precisely balanced. Neither one pushing on the other one, or the other withdrawing. Both precisely equally balanced. Both surrendered to the love WITHIN. They did not focus on each other. Their focus was a meditation pose, focusig on their individual I Am Presence. When each of their individual I Am Presence(s) reached that precise balance point where they merged and blended in oneness and connection, both the man and the woman responded at the same timef. The personalities were not engaged. They were drawn magnetically to join. Only the love and light of their God Presence within them acted since it was the same sameness in each one. It was Self making love with Self but they were able to enjoy it through two separate bodies. This was shown to me clearly and perfectly as the ultimate Tantric union between two people.
11/22/21 - How to raise your consciousness
It starts out as a belief. You have to change your belief system to create a new belief to set the direction in a positive, upward direction. By continuing to believe this, eventually it turns into faith. And then into knowing which is the real connection. It takes holding onto the belief in order to process your “old” that has kept you in limbo. Keep holding onto the belief by wanting to believe. This is how you raise your consciousness. Personal connection is human day-to-day interactions which are filled with personal debris that is unimportant to spirit. Going beyond personal to a larger expanse level is creating through less focus. Lesser and more refined, more free, more loose, more liquid, more light, more letting go of the “old”. This is how we connect with our higher selves which is sheer pure divinity for we are the children of divinity, growing ourselves back home. There is a divine electric in us that keeps us ticking and breathing. It comes from higher planes, so our direction is “up” and away from the dense physical focus, BUT not leaving the dense physical behind but incorporating the dense physical into our upward journey. We do not divide ourselves out of physicality, we incorporate the non-physical love and refinement into the physical. Thus we integrate physical and non-physical and we feel wonderful.
There’s a cheater in every one of us. It’s the personal aspect of us, the small aspect that feels unloved and unwanted. But there is a larger aspect in us who lives interwoven alongside the personal unloved aspect of us. Both are us. The human experience is a learning experience. We are not human for very long. It’s a lifetime incased inside skin and bone to learn how to choose between the larger aspect which is love and light and transparent, seeking the good of the whole, or choosing the small dense personal unloved and unwanted aspect. We are both. We are the chooser. We are the grand person of nobility and we are the small and rejected hurting person in pain. Which one do we feed?
11/21/21 - Cast your stories upon the waters
One day I asked spirit to please help me ground the light into my writings. I need help grounding. The answer came in the following words.
Begin by falling forward. You have a momentum. It is rushing forward. A river of intention is rushing like a stream from the top of the mountain down to the sea - an allegory very apt. Be who you are at all times. Don’t listen to the fears and concerns that come from other people. Transcend them and listen to your rushing desires. Step aboard your waters of life for they are pure and buoyant. They will carry you forward, downward, down the mountain to meet the sea of human consciousness where your input will ripple outward to touch the consciousness and the energies of so many people you have no idea how many. You have only just begun your teaching. There is far more for you to do. Cast your stories upon the waters and let them go freely where they will. Do not try to control the venue or the title or the market or the audience. We will handle that. You just write. Use your journals as reference only. Use your knowledge, your experience, your wisdom, your sight, and your love - your deep, deep love of freedom for all - let this ripple through your writings. Give encouragement, give support, give invitations to come forth, give space, give opportunities. You are so beautiful. You have much to give. We stand over and around you protecting you, guiding you, supporting you, shifting your attention as needed to keep you on your rightful track as you request us to do and give us authority. We are your helpers, your friends, your spiritual support on the other side of your veil. You do not see us but you feel us and our influence upon you never ceases. We are here for you and you are here for us. We serve as do you. Shalom!
11/20/21 - Loving the WHOLE body, not just the physical
The future man and woman will be able to love the WHOLE body, not just the surface shell or skin of a person. By that I mean we will be able to love and connect with the etheric body, the astral body (emotional), the mental body and the spiritual body all at the same time. These are the four densest layers of our humanness, all of which feed and nourish and inspire the physical body. We have been led to believe we are just physical. That we have only one body and there’s nothing more to us than that. That is our finite limited belief and we focus on that. But we know we are more than a piece of meat held together by muscle, blood and bone. Loving the WHOLE body doesn’t pertain to the sexuality of the body but to adoring the whole body, worshiping the whole body, loving the whole body in such a way that there is a deep and profound peace and calm throughout, from feet to head.
Many people already know what I know but most are unwilling to speak of these things, not daring to acknowledge this that we know deep in our hearts and souls. Most people are not speaking about them because they think nobody else knows and you don’t want to be the one who rocks their boat with wild unbelievable off-the-chart stories. Now I am being shown that many people are thinking the same thing. Everyone is being, like, “Shhhh! Don’t tell!” Trying to keep it quiet and under the radar. We are all cowards! We don’t want to be the one who says, “Look! The king has no clothes!” (famous children's story) and all the adults say, “Shhh, don’t say anything.” So we are all keeping it a secret. We are not talking about what we know but it's coming. We are getting ready.
11/19/21 - Aloneness
There is an innocence and a naturalness to you that has been corrupted and made to feel unnatural, made to feel you are wrong for feeling the way you do. To hold such lies in place a control system of laws was created to prevent you from knowing the truth and gaining your freedom. From the lies that you are sinful and less than absolutely and stunningly perfect just as you are, government, laws, authorities and police enforcement manipulate people unnaturally. News media, congress, politicians, Hollywood entertainment, food and pharmacy industries, music bands, sports, any venue that draws crowds. There are experts who study the psychology of crowd control.
Where do you feel most free? Alone, right? Alone walking in nature, at the beach, in the forest, on the mountains, even in your own room alone without the electronic gadgetry. Alone you can hear and feel yourself. When you are exposed to others outside yourself alone, your brain and nervous system are being inundated with “not-self” particles of energy that push and pull and suck on you. Meditation is becoming more popular as people discover the value of alone time. And yet we long to be in company with others who are like us. That is I have the yearning to call together those who want to cultivate closer friendships that are more quiet, more warm, more connective and comfortable to be with. We call it love, but it’s not what you think of as personal love. It’s rather just feeling alive, warm and good with other people around. It’s loving and caring.
It’s heart-centered. It is a yearning to be free to connect without jealousy or sex threatening to become an issue. But in order to do that we have to release everything that obstructs our forward movement into happier places and more comfortable people. The freedom to be simply who we are, naturally who we are. How do we do that? We don’t find freedom out there on the street in the world at large because the atmosphere is clouded and crowded with too many issues and don’ts. We walk carefully out there but in here, in a gathering of like-minded friends we can focus on relaxing. Or can we? This is why I write about it so much. I want to cultivate a network of people, normal, average human beings like you and me, where we can gather and talk together frankly and openly. I mean really OPENLY. Share, tell, reveal, disclose, be honest. There is a natural goodness underlying each person’s outer personality or face. We call it a mask. There is a natural goodness underlying the mask really deep down. An innocence. A powerful being of light and love and freedom who is a royal, sovereign power. How can we cultivate this power? It exists even in the hateful or angry person who is filled with resentment for having to shut down his natural goodness. When your friends let you breathe free, you are perfect.
Speaking of freedom, I am testing the waters of the community. I just posted an invitation to come to me for an ascension massage. Click HERE. It is being sponsored by the ascended masters. I have been a student of theirs for 50 years. I am testing the waters of the community by revealing more about myself. I posted it several days ago. Whenever I disclose more of myself I always experience more happiness, joy and freedom afterward. It is like pumping fresh blood into my system. I urge everyone to try being more honest, truthful, vulnerable, revealing. The truth will set you free in ways you can't even imagine.
11/17/21 - Ascended Master Teachings
Ascended Master knowledge is knowledge of good and evil. It is knowledge that goes beyond gender masculine and feminine. The goal is to bring knowledge about the human form being a divine manifestation, but it must be washed clean of the human confusion and errors that have caused backups and bog-downs. Good old fashioned mud! The human is a divine god-man and god-woman underneath the cloak of mud. This is beyond human. It is about bringing forth the DIVINE human. The human individual is designed to become a human IMMORTAL individual, but that can only be accomplished by leaving behind the limited errors which make up the human which are not in harmony with perfection. This is known as the immaculate concept of each individual soul. In the beginning the soul was created in purity. The human experience has accumulated a massive amount of errors. These errors that clog up the human soul are to be lighted up by the divine, by our higher selves. That’s when we become Christed. That’s when we begin reversing the aging process. The human becomes an immortal forever more at the prime of life – ageless. An ascended being.
11/16/21 - Your attention is your power
When you hear your name called on the street, you turn your attention to the source of the sound. That is how the Masters respond when you call them. Unless you call them, they do not hear you. You are hidden among the smog of the mass collective. It is your calling to them by name that turns their attention to you. You attract them like a bird calling to its mate. That is how an embodied soul creates a line of communication with the ascended masters and also with those who are disembodied. Loved ones who have passed. Call them by name but you must be sincere. You must be focused. You must put all of your attention into the calling. Your attention is your power. And then listen. Be silent. Enter the stillness. They will respond. You must listen for their response. Cultivate a line of communication. Pave it over and over again with your calling them by name. Be sure to use the title "Ascended Master" before their name for their are other embodied souls who bare the same name.
Your attention must have the proper respect and uplifting attitude of trust, hope and faith that will reach them. This is like a telephone line. You do not want the line to be filled with static. Become a silent listener. This is meditation at its best. Make the call and then become silent and turn inward and listen upward into the blankness and nothingness of space, where there is no thought or image to distract you. It is the sacred telephone line of listening.
You may not hear words spoken the way you are accustomed, as you hear an Earth word uttered. But you will receive guidance. You will receive guidance in a way that is natural to you. You will simply know what to do. Spiritual guidance comes in many ways. A visit from a friend, a new business opportunity, a chance meeting that changes your life, a book falling off the shelf, a wild animal approaching you, a pine cone dropping on your head as it once did to me. You and the masters are one mind. We all are part of the one mind. How can life be otherwise? How can someone find one soul in a vastness that includes everyone? It must be by calling out a name. A name is a singular resonance. It is an individual vibration. We in solid earth bodies have been cut off from the vastness of the one mind so we can focus on the outer solid material world. But we can also connect with the ascended masters and those who are not in our reality when you understand the protocol of calling and listening. Reconnect with the ascended master realm and you will begin to know again. You have always known but you did not know that you knew. You had amnesia.
Cultivating a relationship with the ascended masters is to develop a belief in them. You begin by experimenting. Try it out. Trust what you are receiving. It requires your attention. Your attention is your power. It is not just your imagination, as you have been told. When you connect with the ascended masters you are connecting with Source, the creator. This connection will bring you not only happiness and freedom, but it will open you to be of service. Your most fervent wishes and desires to contribute will unfold miraculously. They want to help you but they are not allowed to intervene until you call and ask for assistance. They will help to bring you in touch with your divine plan, that which is your underlying desire. Everyone wants to be of service but we don't kow how. We need help. We have been cut off from Source. Connecting with the Ascended Masters is how they help us. It is why they are there, waiting for us to ask for help.
It takes time but once you have begun a daily practice, you will be surprised at how quickly your life begins to have more meaning. Realigning with Source means realigning with your own divine plan. You are linking up to the greater plan. Trusting the Ascended Masters is how we begin the linking up. You will notice a lightening of spirit and happiness. Your heart will start opening and radiating joy. Your heart has been held in bondage to the intellect, which is only one half of your wholeness. The heart must be opened too. This is what the light can do for you. The ascended masters are eager for this heart connection. They too wish to be of service but they cannot intervene. Mankind must ask for help. The earth would have been destroyed long ago, without the help of the Ascended Masters working through embodied human beings who spent time listening and following Their guidance.
Use the mantra, “I Am light" (1) that was given to us by Master El Morya (or maybe St. Germain). Memorize it and repeat it often throughout the day. Go to sleep saying it. This will set your etheric body in a direction to pour forth love and blessings throughout the night, so that when you wake in the morning you will be refreshed. You are revitalized when light pours through you unconditionally. It sets you to rightness. You do not show favoritism but on all alike, just as the sun pours forth light on the great and small alike. You will be activating the law of forgiveness and harmony within your mind, feelings and etheric body as you sleep. All that you pour forth from within you, will return to you many times over. It is the Law of reciprocity.
(Footnote) I am light, glowing light, radiating light, intensified light. God consumes my darkness, transmuting it into light. This day I am a focus of the central sun. Flowing through me is a crystal river, a living fountain of light that can never be qualified by human thought and feeling. I am an outpost of the divine. Such darkness as has used me is swallowed up by the light which I am. I am, I am, I am light. I live, I live, I live in light. I am light’s fullest dimension, I am light’s purest intention. I am Light! Light! Light! Flooding the world everywhere I move, blessing, strengthening and conveying the purpose of the Kingdom of Heaven!
11/15/21 - H is for Home
I woke up with words running through my mind. A is for allowing, awesome, accepting. B is for breathing, C is for caring, D is delightful, dazzling. E is for excellent, excitement, F is for fun, fabulous, freedom, G is for God/Goddess, H is for heart, home. I is for intelligence, I Am, integration. J is for joy, jubilation. H is for home. The idea of Home started to expand into a broader concept. Home is inside.
The world and relationships are outside and always changing and moving. They are transient, not stable. Home is inside, it is never moving. It is stable, it can be trusted. Home is not the house where you live or the town or city or country, or the person who lives with you. Family is not home. It is temporary. You have had many families, many homes, many cities, towns, villages. They are all transient.
Home is inside. It is where YOU are. YOU are home when you are within yourself. Learn to trust yourself. You are forever and you never ever change. Only your perceptions change. Only your lessons change. Only your mind changes. It grows and expands and sometimes it loses track of who you are, but YOU - the one you identify as “me” or “I” - the one who observes through your eyes, smells through your nose, tastes through your tongue, hears through your ears, touches other people - this “me” never changes because it is the real you who dies and is born and dies and is born and dies and is born, and inbetween you remember.
You forget when you are in a body, but the real you is there within, in every cell of your body. You are the same you that was pure and whole in the beginning and you remain pure and whole even when you’re in a body, even as you dwell inside your body. Do you remember? You are always you. You forget who you are when in the body because you are distracted by the changes and movements of the people around you. But you are eternally you and you are remembering through flashes of insight. This is a wonderful warm home-coming as you remember to love yourself and be kind to yourself and to return your attention back into yourself. You are remembering yourself so you do not get lost the way you have been lost before.
11/14/21 - From DK on being too feminine
One day I asked my invisible guide, Master DK, "How do I control my attention?" His answer: "You are too feminine. You must learn to use your brain too, along with your heart/feeling. You are too much in waiting mode and receiving mode, because that is your primary default as feminine through lifetimes. You MUST wake up to your brain activity and take charge of the direction of your life. Your brain is the human vessel control mechanism. This is the next stage in your development. Work together with your brain. The brain is how you control your attention. The general emphasis to the public has been directing people to go to their hearts and feelings because the masses are too brain centered. You are too heart/feeling centered."
(Me: So it’s OK to have an agenda?)
Yes, it’s OK. Make an agenda and use your brain which is your masculine side to control your daily life.
(Me: Oops. I started kicking in with too much energy, like I had been let out of the box, and realized it)
Remember to stay connected to your heart. Equality is remaining connected to the heart and the mind. Equality is perfect balance between mind and heart. The masters use the heart flame to raise or lower their vibrations as needed. They use the masculine directing force through the brain to direct their attention. Direction is given to act but the heart provides the power to act. The brain does not have the power. The brain is the masculine force and the heart/body is the feminine force. They must work together like fingers on one hand work together and help one another. They do not fight and contradict one another. So the brain and heart must work together. You have been learning this through your sexual activity between men and women.
The brain is not the controller. Control comes from higher than the physical brain or the physical heart. It comes down THROUGH the heart from the God-self. The brain makes the decision where to focus attention. You are in the brain most of the time, so you must use the brain to decide to focus attention on the heart. This is the work of the modern day westerner for he is too brain-focused. The heart is the main portal, the front door to the house you live in. Go and open the front door and let your God-self speak. You listen. You will feel it through sensations of wholeness, sureness, clarity, liberation, goodness, peace, truth. This is the God-self speaking to you. If you are connected brain-to-heart in a wholesome way, then your brain will make a wise decision to act. If the brain and heart remain connected, the heart/body will provide the power to act and the wisdom to act, the knowledge of how to act, and the truth and best way to act. The heart receives, the brain decides, the heart supports the decision and they work together, intellect and body. The power comes through the heart.
If the brain tries to act on its own without the power of the wholesome heart, the innocent heart, it will not be able to sustain the action. It will collapse, either today or tomorrow or next week or next month. The sustainability is the power of the God-self. Learn to listen to the heart but USE THE BRAIN! The message from the God-self descends down through seven levels. The first three levels are perfect, but when the message enters the mental, emotional, etheric and physical, the four lower bodies have a will of their own called the ego or artificial intelligence that is not connected to the God-self. The physical heart lives and pumps blood and messages from the God-self as long as the God-self is connected to the body. We call it the life force. The physical heart pumps the life force and light messages out into the rest of the body, wherever the arteries and veins and capillaries go, so the whole body is capable of getting the sensation of life. Do you understand? (Yes)
(Me: Re: massage by women for women only - why are we doing this?)
It’s a simple matter. Those who are too masculine, many male bodies, but there are some female bodies also whose biology is too focused on outer physical interactions. If the women are also brain-based rather than heart-based, they are also too controlling. Some masculine souls are focused on outer physical interactions but are also heart-based. They are tender men. But the majority of men are too masculine because they are brain-based plus focused on physical interactions. The result is pressure on those who are too feminine and receptive. Many women feel pressured by men, as you did. But there are some women who are masculine and therefore focused on physical interaction and brain-based like a man, even though her body is female. Those who are too feminine are receptive and passive and allow others to guide them and set direction. These souls are connected to their inner feelings more than connected to their brain or outer physical interactions. These souls must be awakened to understand this.
This is an esoteric teaching because it is deeply personal to each soul how to adjust. No education has been provided on this subject. Knowledge has been given in esoteric schools called mystery schools and kept underground because the majority of the population was not ready to hear it. Women today need other women to work out an understanding between themselves without the pressure from those whose biology is from a different perspective. Each person is a package of dynamic knowledge locked in and held back from experiences from past lives, both skills and talents of the human kind and also spiritual wisdom and knowledge from the God-self. But it is all being held back because of cultural taboos and training against freedom to express. Her beliefs may be right or may be wrong, but she will not know until she is allowed to expose and express herself in spontaneous ways, in an atmosphere of feeling free.
Recognize your default program which is hard-wired into you and try using opposite approaches, like ways you don’t like. Start the change process. For example, women don’t know how to be truly intimate or how to cuddle because they are programmed to think that intimacy with men - perhaps women too - means sex. Teach women how to not be afraid of intimacy. Massage, cuddle, touch and hug without sex as a motive. Discuss that warm arousal feelings of love are natural and not to be afraid of it. Teach NOT TO GO THERE! Discuss this. Get over the sex obstruction. It is subliminal obstruction which is preventing women from feeling true intimacy and love. Women have been insidiously blocked from love without their realizing how it happened. Now they are trying to find the “right” man who will “make” them feel love. It doesn’t work because he will not always be in the right mood to “make” her feel love. He will change. (Received 5/12/19)
11/12/21 - Revelations from 40 years ago
It was 1981 and we were in Costa Rica visiting friends. While Bob and our hosts sat discussing the affairs of the collapsed economy, I was drawn irresistibly to their tiny library and what I knew is on those shelves. I pulled out a book printed in the 1800’s by an enlightened man by the name of leReaux in Michigan. It had gold printing on an old dark blue cover, tattered at the edges. I opened it and began to read under the hall light. It was a translation from the writings of a magician during the years between 1501 and 1550 when he was attempting to make some sense out of those esoteric and ancient truths that had come tumbling down through the ages. This morning as I write I am still vibrating with the glimpses revealed to me then, for as we drove home I was on a cloud of light.
When we climbed into bed it seemed the very heavens were pushed back for me. I felt as though I were waking up from a long sleep. How could this be, I thought to myself? I could see beyond the reasoning mind, or was it that the reasoning grew up in one single jump, far beyond its old outposts? I know more today than I did yesterday and the knowledge is stupendous. But it is knowledge about which I cannot write yet. Although one thing I know with an absoluteness that defies proof. And that is that there are beings, intelligent beings helping me, and probably helping others, too. I can see them with those faculties that perceive things not physical.
With these same faculties I saw the first glimpses while we were still in Florida. We had gone out to eat at a seafood restaurant, just Bob and me, and I had smoked a marijuana cigarette alone before we left. Though I do not smoke often, perhaps two a month, on those occasions when I do it is always a revelation of extraordinary dimensions. On this occasion as we sat in a second class restaurant near the water dipping lobster into melted butter, I looked through the dark window pane to the even darker trees on the other side of the road and saw instead of the darkness a sea of something indescribable. It was an essence like a heat mirage from the road in the distance. It was a lovely thing, alive, not solid, not liquid, not gas, not space, not sound, not color, but it was something else unnameable. Yet it is more alive, more intelligent and more knowledgeable and more perfect and more compassionate than any of the above. If I had to choose a name for this unnameable essence, it would be intelligence. Intelligence that is refined to such perfection and including all beneath it, that it became beauty and loveliness - a thing to be desired. There was a magnetism that drew me irristably to forget all else around me. It was absorbing me and teaching me at the same time.
As I watched the movements of this lovely essence, for it never stopped its action which radiated with purpose, I saw it consolidating and stopping here and there, falling to a close or an end, though all around it the action continued. And each stopping point was a human consciousness that could not comprehend any more. That was its limit of reason. Then I realized the science of astrology for each stopping point fixed it at a certain place and time. Therefore a man born in 1510 in Europe, for example, would have had a life totally different from that same consciousness if it were born again in 1924 in Chicago.
And then between the verbal conversation which I was carrying on with Bob, I saw the lightening of the ages, the thinning out and elevating of the years and the coming gifts that will arrive from the ancients who watch us. Those marvelous, non-selfish, human beings who are helping us by stimulating our instincts for growth, the genetic implants within us which have been so slow in developing, And as they stimulate us with visions and dreams and thoughts we learn to let go and move on.
Do I dare form the words that are hanging in the hallway of my mind? If I were living in 1510 would I have gotten this far? Surely not. But today is a new time and a new space, and I am at the brink of breaking through and expressing that which I am. Only then can I go on and continue my journey through the rarefied mists of intelligence beyond.
As I lay last night in the arms of Bob, cuddling against his hairy chest and feeling my skin melt into his, the cells jumping in my leg muscles, my stomach, arms, head and skin. It prickled all over as though being charged with electricity. I wanted to jump out of bed and run through the house and out of doors and shout that I am free! Something inside of me wanted to do just that, but I couldn’t. That would have pushed me beyond reason and I must fight to stay within the confines of logic. Hard to do but consciousness expands slowly, so a physical acceptance can keep up with it, all moving together in a delicate balance. The limits of that balance are the limits of sanity. It is no wonder that those who have glimpsed these things have often flipped out. A glimpse into the unknown is the thinning away of the barriers that protect us - the barrier that enfolds us as the shell of an egg protects the delicate yoke inside. Some call it the aura but it is the protective veil that shields us from too much of the cosmic power that sizzles with a life beyond our ability to handle. And thus we stop there. It is the edge of our consciousness. And slowly we push upon it. Only subtle thinning is safe. The mild, gentle learning, all within reason, within “time”, within the ability of the environment to handle it, for an opening in this veil is an entry point of this power into the world. It is an awesome power and we must become responsible.
And further, I saw something which still lingers in me awaiting capture and definition. It concerns the wondrous art of meditation. So many people want to meditate and yet, very few are successful in their attempts and are thus living in a frustration which need not be. Meditation lies not in the technique. It lies not in what you do with your hands, your feet, your sitting position. It lies not in a peaceful environment or a place of privacy. Meditation does not depend on any of these things. Successful meditation depends upon desire. Desire is the only ingredient that will assure success and one must wait until desire builds sufficiently to push oneself into action. One may read, one may imagine, one may talk with others and one may learn techniques. But in the end none of these things will do it for him. Only his desire will catapult him finally into giving up some of his life to make room for it.
Desire is the seed that causes change. Desire stimulates the cosmic energy in the center of the body. Desire is the vacuum into which rushes the answer. Desire stimulates the psychic energy, the cosmic power which lives dormant in the center, in the geometric enter of the body as in the heart of a seed. Therefore it must be a deep desire, a strong desire. I am speaking of the kundalini now.
Sexual desire is the primal stimulation, the first movement of the cosmic growth. Use it with the same curiosity with which it was first born. Use it with awe, with respect, with wonder. Discover its magic, encourage its feeling, for it is a beginning. use it until you can use it with freedom, the freedom to do or not to do, as you yourself choose and then knowledge will come. For knowledge follows such a freedom like a shadow follows a man as he walks toward the light. Then the great mystery of sex is reduced to rubble in the light and a new science is born - the science of spiritual knowledge and it is built upon a physical base. A base strong enough to support it.
11/11/21 - The feminine and the patriarchy
The feminine aspect of life is that part which likes to share. This part of the human is open and connected to everyone and everything in the natural state. But it has been usurped, stolen from, weakened, closed down. During the dark ages, the masculine aspect of life took control through various and sundry means, which in essence, drew on that feminine openness, pleaded with that openness, expressed deep needs and hungers that only the feminine could fill and therefore could not resist, and she answered the call. She was sucked into a trap and the trap sprang closed on her. She gave her power away to the masculine power and today we have a patriarchal system and a disempowered, disconnected humankind. It is important to understand that disconnection is true in both genders, not just the man, not just the woman. For the man has a feminine side to him and a woman has a masculine side to her. But it is primarily the male who expresses the patriarchy because, after all, he is in a masculine body.
The patriarchal system we call monogamy grew out of the need of a man to own a woman all for himself, so he could draw on her as an energy source. It kept women isolated. What the men did not realize was they too were trapped in the system, as part of the larger, more insidious system that was surreptitiously designed by off-worlders. Highly intelligent races from other worlds who watched and visited the Earth in prehistory to explore, discover and experiment with the humanoid race. With different motives behind them, each alilen race came to fiddle with the young and vulnerable evolving humans. They were the ones who put the monkey wrench into the works. They modified our DNA for purposes of their own, and thus we have been kept in separation, divided from each other, when natural evolution would have us growing together peacefully. We have been kept uneducated.
We, the evolving human race, has been kept unbalanced, divided and prevented from growing into fully integrated sentient beings, heart-centered and balanced in mind, body and feeling as a progressive race. Thus we have been unable to gather and commune with each other honestly, openly and freely. We didn't have the chance to grow our freedom to circulate, move about and learn for ourselves. Monogamy served very well to keep the separation going. With each man having his own feminine body to live with, it was an ideal way to keep females tied down, from openly expressing their love, kindness, tenderness freely flowing. This was the big mistake. And because she couldn‘t be open, neither could he. The men were just as much a victim as the women because they did not know the super alien powers that controlled them from a malevolent master mind. They were locked into an energy vortex pointing downward. This was written into law. It has evolved into our legal system of today, theoretically meant to keep everyone safe, but in actuality intended to shape and mold a prison-like structure of do's and don'ts. There is no free and open spirit flowing today. Laws were put into place a long time ago.
The return of the goddess is the return of balance to humankind. Known as the divine feminine, the goddess energy is a gentle and sensitive return to heart-centered living and open and healthy communication in a free-flowing way. Freedom to speak, think, believe, act and exchange insights and opinions and love without being arrested, censored, condemned, ostracized or killed. Freedom to be simply who one is by nature, by the wisdom accumulated through many, many prior lives, which knowledge is innate and part of the evolving soul's experience. Right now, in this current moment, men who themselves are shut down and censored by higher authorities, are being used as the enforcers on other men and women. It is an insidious system. The male is programmed to be closed-lipped. That means, don‘t talk don‘t tell, don‘t reveal what you know. Keep your knowledge secret. Keep your past repressed. Don't share, don't speak, don't wonder, don't investigate. Why? No one knows why.
Governments say it’s for “Homeland Security“ but that‘s nonsense. The female has been programmed to obey and go along with the rules or suffer the consequences. Today's female thinks this is a natural state for her to be this way. It is not. She is a goddess who has been held back in class. She has not been allowed to study and learn her trade. She is a goddess in training who is not allowed to gather with her sisters and practice goddess skills. She has not been allwoed to live openly, freely, the love that she has accumulated. In the past and in other parts of the world today, if a woman crosses a legal line, she gets shot, stoned, imprisoned or harassed to death. Both genders have been shut down. Look at the US patriarchal government. Neither gender in government has power. They are told to be close-lipped. “Keep it secret”. “Don’t tell the other side." It's a structure of governing that does not work. We remain divided on all levels. It has closed everybody down, including the president.
Without realizing it, the goddess energy is in the process of changing all this. It is working quietly behind the scenes to correct the alien law on the books today, and bring about a more decent, natural universal law which can help the humans live together in peace. There is a higher law in place. It pervades space and keeps the suns and planets in orbit through enlightened intelligence. There are no secrets. There is only a continuous process of integration. It is a learning. It is a science. It is a teaching. There are great beings who are guiding us. There is a continual integration into oneness and wholeness as each soul chooses to take it. Or not. They can refuse but the offer is there always. We are meant to be part of the whole, which is the equivalent o living in a large family who supports you and loves you. We are heading in that direction through the ascension process. It's going to take time, but we've come a long way in the last 50 years.
Those worlds who are more advanced than us, have learned to live in a more civilized way with open communication direct with Source. They live an enjoyable individual life of excitement. For them, life is good. Life is not an accident. It is designed, and it is designed with love and intelligence. The goddess energy has been shut off on this planet and we haven't been allowed to design our life the way we want it. The goddess energy is now being turned back on. The return of the goddess will bring back equality between the sexes in a more beautiful, integrated way. We've had limiting structures built into us and we've been stopped from growing in a positive upward way. The natural way is returning now. It is being seen on the internet. It’s not the human woman who is going to save the planet, for she is just as lost as the men have been. She does not have any more power to change the world as she is today than the men do, unless and until she become empowered by her own free will choices. Then she will change the world. Input by the feminines of the planet is going to save the race. The feminine side is what is our divine side. There is a masculine side which is that part which explores over the mountainand far away out into the void. But the feminine side keeps us connected to the divine. She does not move. She is the center of the hub, the center of the home. It is not being a saint to be in divine communication with Source. It is being wise, graceful, intelligent, true to oneself. It is being a part of Source, compassionate, patient, loving and forgiving. The feminine side of life is our natural innate intelligence. It has been seduced into a corrupt version of female. But the real divine feminine is still there. It has not disappeared. It has simply been covered over and lost to the outer sight, but it is still there. We have to dig for it like archeologists dig for ancient relics and bones.
What is this feminine aspect? There is a tenderness in the human being which is innate sensitivity to life. It exists within both men and women. The divine masculine and divine feminine is the same oneness that is separated by human words. It is really all one. The human version is waiting to be integrated and brought back together again into oneness. The twin flame is not a twin at all. It is ONE! It has been divided by humans who love to divide everything up into fragmented pieces. This oneness is waiting for the outer personality to bend, soften and surrender. The outer human personality is an alien product, shaped by alien races, but underneath is the natural human soul waiting to come out on the world stage. The natural wholeness is waiting for the outer personality to relinquish control, and allow the return to softness again. It is the great power within. It is the great unifier. How can we do this?
It just takes a few moments to stop and be still and turn inward often throughout the day and depressurize. Fall back on the softness within. Stop the thoughts from churning. In time each person will learn how to do this. It is destined. That upon which the alien outer personality relies for breath and energy is softness. It has always been there underneath the hard shell of outer focus. It is the life of the body. It is closer than hands and feet and breath. It is what beats our heart and moves our limbs. It digests the food we eat, and it supports EVERTHING we do, every second of the day. Even the evil that we do. When we stop and surrender to it, we are transformed into warmth and contentment. It feels like a great mother is holding us wrapped to her bosom. It is love. It is our own guiding force. It shows us how to yield in situations that previously caused terror, fear and angst. It teaches us how to maneuver in safer, more secure ways. It is instructive. It is what we are calling today the goddess energy. It is inside us. We just have to know it is there and test it. Cultivate it, lean on it, develop it. We have been taught lies. It doesn’t cost money. It doesn’t require us to take a test or to pass an initiation.
That which is whole and integrated in harmony and peace does not obey the artificial human which is an alien creation. What we call human standards today are sub-standard and below the dignity of the wholeness. This wholeness provides a sense of peace that goes waaaay beyond human peace. Wholeness becomes wholeness by integrating with neighbors in tenderness, softness, peacefulness, love, truth, purity, harmony, happiness, sharing, giving, receiving. Without limits or conditions attached. This wholeness lives within us every moment of the day and supports the actions we take and the words we speak even when we take wrong actions. It supports us until we use it all up and we are weakened to the point of growing old and decrepit. The next stage is death of the body. But it is only we ourselves that allow old age. We can reverse that process by living true to ourself and in tune with everyone else around us. By living integrated with the wholeness we extend our longevity, living healthy, happy and without struggle or pain. It is destined.
To grow back into the wholeness again all we need to do is surrender to that soft place within. It is silence and stillness when human alien thoughts stop churning. It may be hard to do at first, but a beginning must happen somewhere. Sometime. Today. Stop trying to fit into an alien world. Stop fighting. Stop resisting. By going within to the silence which is felt as love, warmth and peace, we leave the alien culture of loneliness. The universe is maintained by the myriads of intelligent beings who have chosen THIS over separation. Go within and go up the inner elevator to the top floor and assume the overview. Be your own master, guide and angel. See the truth from that high place of silence. See the purity. See the courage. See the love. See the peace. Stand inside it and become integrated into the wholeness of life. Whether you're a man or a woman, you are entering the divine feminine, the center of yourself. Become that which is there within you which has been supporting the limitations and the lies. Fall back on the good, the decent, the honorable. It is good for everyone, not just for you alone. You join the wholeness and there are many here with you.
Each human being has the wholeness within. It is the goddess energy. The divine mother. It exists as the god within men, the divine father, as it exists as the goddess within women, the divine mother. We are gods and goddesses here on earth to learn these things. We are in training. We are here to discover the wholeness within, that oneness, that source energy out of which we were divided into man and woman. The wholeness is who we really are. We are our own connection to the infinite, to the everlasting and the evermore, the same wholeness to which the angelics and the ascended masters belong, and the galactics are moving into ahead of us and showing us the way as older brothers and sisters.
11/10/21 - May the Force be with you
This morning during my free-style movements I began focusing love into my inner body, organs and tissues by naming them each one. “I love you lungs”, heart, brain, liver, etc. - and feeling the warm and comforting sensation as my body was being stroked and loved and purring like a kitten. This is part of my routine these days, usually while sitting down stationary and not moving. I never did it while standing and doing the graceful movements of spirit which comes with the inner wind. After about 20 minutes of slow free dance, I stopped to write because I felt SO good, SO warm, SO loved and SO comforted that I began to think, how natural it is to want to extend this loving feeling to others. I sensed I was approaching the culmination of many lifetimes, the fulfillment of my journey into the light and then into swinging trying to share the spiritual love through sex with others, and then having to stop because they didn’t know how to keep up with me. Bringing love to the WHOLE body means more than sexual or romantic lovemaking or wild abandoned lusty sex. It’s more even than spiritual Tantric love. It includes all of the above but it goes further. It doesn’t stop there but goes on into ascension. It is no wonder I could find no responders. It is a brand new adventure, yet to be explored.
The other day I thought, I must start teaching how to tap into the mystical wind within. What I do has always been a mystery to me. I simply call them “my movements.” I’m going out to do my movements now, I tell my husband. Several months ago I found out they are called “kriyas”. Most people think kriyas are hand movements that you learn from a teacher but to me they are whole body movements and spring forth spontaneously from some mysterious source when I yield and surrender to it. They are spontaneous movements, graceful movements where, under certain conditions, the body yields itself naturally to an inner wind. It bends and twists and sways and dances like leaves on a tree when there is a breeze. I have a yearning to tell others because this is love. Love enters the physical body through this inner wind from someplace beyond the body. I must tell about this holy innocence that lives within, and how to surrender to it. It flows through the meridians and nerves of the body involuntarily. One cannot “make” it happen. It is a force that comes alive under the praises of love. The praises of love. The inner web (called tantra in Sanskrit) lights up and comes alive when love is lavished within upon the organs, tissues, muscles of the body.
Love is what opens the chakras and starts a river of bliss flowing. It’s more like a radiation that moves through the meridians. It’s almost instantaneous all over the body at once, like a moving prayer through the molecules and cells. Try it. You start by intending to go into prayer, into praise, into worship of the divine within. I recommend starting by standing very quietly, very still, very serene, and focusing somewhere within, or focus on NOT focusing but simply watching. Be a silent watcher. Put every cell in your body into watch mode. Listen for the sound of God coming. It is within the stillness that you feel the movement. Some part of your body will want to twist or turn in a certain direction. Slowly. Not fast. Very, very slowly. Surrender to it. Yield to it. “May the Force be with you". The Force is an inner force. Yield to it. The force starts moving through the meridians as you allow it to move through you. Your muscles follow suit. Don’t resist. Don’t anticipate. Stay in watch mode. Be simply the leaf on the tree. Be the watcher. Follow the wind. Don't try to make it happen. Fallow along behind it like the wake of a motor boat. Follow the will of the spirit known as father-mother God. The life force. It is the source of love, warming, comforting, blissful, peaceful. I had this thought to offer it and so I am offering it now.
11/8/21 - The evil is in me and so is the Goddess
I had a dream last night. In my dream there is a man but he is a snake coming up out of the earth beneath a tree. That is where he lives. It is his home. He comes out and is my lover and I feel this evil in him. He emerges to be my lover and then he goes back down inside the ground. I was bothered by this evil one and when I woke up I mulled over this dream. I laid there for quite a while and thought about it, and finally - eureka! I found that the evil was in me. Maybe the man/snake was evil, but what bothered me was that I was focusing on the evil. The evil bothered me. The evil was in me. It was me who was entertaining the evil. All evil is in me. If I am not aware of evil it is not in me. How to get away from evil thoughts? The goddess energy shows me how. I love the man/snake. I shift my consciousness, open my heart, and find love for him. Divine love. True love. I accept him into my heart as a divine manifestation. This was a gift and a lesson for me to recognize this. My job is to realize that a bothersome thought is of my own doing. I have to transform it and I can do that only with love and forgiveness. This is not just words. It is a consciousness shift to feeling love and forgiveness for the one who bothers me. Then I am free.
11/7/21 - Goddess energy
Goddess information, also known as the divine feminine, is a specific teaching. It does not mean for women only but men may be uncomfortable with this information. At least until the teachings start to unfold. There is a gathering of data on this that is a science. It is as old as the earth itself. In fact, it comes from before the earth was born and before there was a separation into two genders. It includes men as well as women and can be a difficult concept for men to grasp under the current world view, which is male dominant, but it is easy for women.
In a nutshell, the point is that every human being - man and woman alike - is unique because each has lived many lifetimes in other bodies. Sometimes as a man, sometimes as a woman, and born in many other cultures with different skins. Each human being is ensouled by spirit - a consciousness that is learning about life in form. Each human being is a consciousness that is evolving through experiencing life on earth (or other planets) life after life, and is directly connected to the Oneness that makes it all happen – the creator, God, Allah, the Almighty, or whatever name you grew up with.
Each human being has an inner life, a well-spring of knowledge that he or she is connected to but does not speak of. This hidden, unspoken knowledge, is what we call the goddess energy or divine feminine. It is in the male body too. Because we live temporarily in a physical body, we are dominated by our physical senses. Pleasure and pain are the foremost consideration, so our outer life dominates and obscures the inner life which is subtle and brings peace when we turn our attention to it. If we had more guidance and instruction about it, or more data as my husband has so often said, perhaps we would make better choices and be happier. Well, the goddess teachings are coming forth now. They are appearing all over the internet. I have been writing about it from the beginning, so Anakosha is joining in.
Since women are more inclined towards inner feelings they tend to take up spiritual practices, such as yoga, meditation, tai chi and communal type gatherings. A women’s circle will be forming first, without the men. The only reason for making it women-only is because the current world view is patriarchal and men continue to disempower women without realizing it. Empowerment comes from validation and support and feminine values are different from masculine values. So being in a women-only circle can provide that support without the opposite gender inserting a distracting point of view. Mixed-gender circles have value, of course, and that will come about eventually. But same genders validate while opposite genders disagree with each other and tend to disempower. I anticipate that eventually men will start their own support circles, which will be called the divine masculine, not feminine.
In higher realms male and female are not divided in the same way we are divided here on Earth. They are perfectly balanced. There are male beings and female beings, but each male knows himself as whole and complete and is not dependent upon his mate to give him what he doesn’t have. And each female knows herself as whole and complete and is not dependent upon her mate to give her what she does’nt already have. Each is whole and complete and enjoying life together as men and women to the fullest, without the struggles that we have here today.
The goddess teachings are the inner truth teachings. Once understood, they will bring about balance between the men and women. The inner beliefs, ways and methods which keep us off-kilter and are out of balance will right themselves automatically. A saint is one who has brought balance to his inner forces. We are destined to do the same but we won’t be called saints. We’ll be called beautiful and graceful human beings. Instead of looking to someone else to provide what is lacking in us we will be living in paradise. Just imagine what paradise is like.
It’s kind of hard to understand, but that’s where we are heading today as a race. It’s difficult to understand because we have always been a divided race, separated, struggling with war and aggression, ugliness, torture, wounding each other, killing, poverty, hunger, you name it. It’s difficult to imagine living in a paradise of grace and beautiful people, but it’s actually quite simple when we live in balance. When the distorted male and distorted female tendencies are exquisitely balanced. Right now the masculine traits are dominant in virtually every human being today. Even those who are overly kind and loving, are TOO kind and loving due to the presence of male dominance. The feminine traits are lacking equality. Female traits have been ridiculed as weak, put down and stomped on for centuries. We can’t see this clearly because we live inside the problem, and you can't see the overview from inside the house. Education is needed but we absorb what we can handle and no more. It's going to take time to correct it, but it is beginning. We are being prepared in how to live in balance. There is a place for the feminine traits to come forth and express as feminine, equally, side by side with masculine traits. These traits pertain to the highest and purist expressions of love, respect, honor, humility, justice, truth – the noble and righteous expressions that consider the whole of life over and above one’s immediate needs.
The goddess energy (in both sexes) is saying to the unbalanced male energy (in both sexes), “Get down off your horse and stand on the earth. Feel the warm vibrations. Smell the roses. There is a fresh new wind coming from the mountains. You have forgotten yourself. The sweet fragrance you seek is coming from within you, can you detect it? It is coming from within your own heart and soul. There is a gentle song coming with it. Can you hear it? Goddess energy is a quiet feeling which puts you at peace. It connects you to everyone else around you in a way you will enjoy. It fills your soul so your outer life is happier, more abundant and complete. The loneliness goes away. The stress melts, the hunger dissipates." This is the balance between your inner male and inner female, and it pertains to both genders.
11/6/21 - Sexual enlightenment
(Channeled 10/10/93) There are many levels to the sexual activity and you could say there are many dimensions hidden behind the veils of illusion surrounding sex. Diana and her circle of professional and spiritual brothers and sisters all have one thing in common. They are interested in bringing sexual enlightenment to each and every individual who asks for it, no matter on what level he or she is. We are here to walk with you and talk with you. Anakosha refers to, and means the process of releasing the blocks around the root chakra at the base of the spine in the sex area, and instructing how to raise it up to the second.
Anakosha means releasing the Mighty God Presence that is locked in the body cells. Specifically it refers to processing the God Presence [kundalini or holy spirit] out into manifestation and provides gentle guidance in opening the stubborn resistance. It refers to the ecstasy that takes place when the individual learns how to let go and let God “come out” into his/her life and body, mind and actions. The process of releasing the sexual force is tremendous and momentus. It is earth shattering, quite literally, for it “moves” former conditions out of the way that once was blocking.
But it is not enough to release the monstrous force for it could be a dangerous force. The ancient cultures knew this and had schools to help people learn where to go with this powerful unleashing, which is like a snake whipping back and forth, lashing out and back, it could cause harm. They are taught how to control it, not repress it but be mindful of it and work with it as you would work with a mighty and wild unbroken stallion with soothing words, a gentle touch, an understanding ear, a softness, a wise gentling down with sensitivity which includes understanding that this force must have expression. This sex force must be released periodically in each person, according to his or her need. And so with guidance from “the one above”, referring to the next energy center above the root force [chakra], the emotional needs of this most basic force is met.
This is where those of you who are exploring the swinging field are today. You are in the process of recognizing, contrary to your forefathers, that this sex force MUST have release. Further, that it is good to release it, not bad, not dangerous, not likely to take you to hell but that it is actually wholesome and healthy for you, for your relationship. It creates balance for the rest of your life. It is the soul. The seat of the soul is the seat of sex. It is the bride, the female force. “Getting into swinging” is a major step over the threshold of the prison that says, “No, you mustn’t”. For a couple discussing this, getting to “Yes, I can,” or "Yes we can", is a decision-making process that requires connection, discussion and a mutual decision. “Yes, we can!” Or “Yes, we will explore,” or “Yes, we will give it a try!” A yes means you are ready to take the first step into a journey that will never end.
The raising of the sex force [the kundalini or holy spirit] is the raising of the soul to God. The repression of sex is repression of the soul. The prostituting of sex is prostituting of the soul. The guidance of the sex force through the six gates above the root, is the guidance of the soul through interdimensional sensitivity (second chakra), wisdom and strengthening (third chakra), unconditional love (fourth chakra), will and determination to act (fifth chakra), intellectualism (sixth chakra) and union with God (seventh chakra).
11/5/21 - Dimension is not a place but a state of consciousness
A dimension is not a place but a state of consciousness. A deep meditation state or a daydream state where you unfocus on the world around you is 5th dimensional state or higher. It is the heaven state of bliss and it is the divine feminine. The great central sun is at the 12th dimension. Our central sun is at the 5th Dimension. Darkness is not going to be eliminated as we ascend upwards from 3rd and 4th into the higher 5th dimension, it’s going to be illuminated. Exposed. There will be no more duality.
11/3/21 - There's only one consciousness
We are reflections of each other and intimately connected below the radar, below the line of sight and awareness. Enlightenment is experiencing that connection and cultivating awareness of it through feeling. We must develop confidence in our feeling of it, because we can’t see it, hear it, taste it or smell it. We can’t verbalize it with our brain or thought centers because we haven’t developed a language yet. We can only FEEL it as in perceiving. We must learn to be aware of our feelings. We must awaken our bodies to the emotions of the soul. The soul is alive, let us bring our bodies alive so it feels the soul living in it. We become enlightened by feeling the life in our bodies. We have to FEEL alive – more alive than we were before. I feel more alive when I am crackling with energy. That happens when I have a connection with something or someone. Bonding with Doug can do it. I used to feel it at a swing party in the earlier years, but it started to disintegrate after awhile. I feel it at odd times, sometimes while eating, sometimes while watching a movie or hearing a beautiful music, or in meditation. But those all rely on the physical senses. The life force is not physical. It is something else behind the physical or invisible to the physical senses. It’s a thrill or a clarity that turns on the light in my mind. It is not anchored to the physical senses I’m trying to integrate it into my physicality. I want it to support and validate it with my touch, sight, sound, taste, smell. I want to unite with it more. It is an intelligence. I’ve proven that by talking with it during meditation and internal exercises. I am normally not conscious of it. It is normally below my awareness, below the radar. But it is not dependent on my senses to draw my attention to it. It doesn’t require me to confirm or prove its existence. Suddenly it’s there, touching my attention and an internal understanding takes place. I think this is how we are connected, one human to another, every one of us sentient beings - humans, animals, fish, trees, flowers - all forms of life in nature. Could it be simply consciousness? Consciousness as a singularity? As in one mind? I can communicate with you because we are the same singularity. We don’t HAVE the same singularity. We ARE the same singularity. The same mind. I don’t have to speak or even think to communicate with you. I communicate with you by being conscious of you. My intention to connect with you is the signal to you to pick up the etheric phone. But I think this is why I must hold you in the highest esteem and in sacred love, because we are all that one sacred mind that runs through all things.
11/2/21 - Where did the dark come from?
What is the dark? First of all, it doesn’t have a soul. It does have intelligence but it does not have a soul or a spirit. It does not have light but it has a dark intelligence. It does not know God. Where did the dark intelligence come from? It came from a soul who in its search for wisdom and enlightenment, gathered intelligence. Mental intelligence. A soul who searches uses mental capacities. Wisdom and enlightenment is found by integrating intelligence with emotions. It must be felt within the body to become wisdom and enlightened. The mind alone does not have feeling. It cannot feel emotions. It is only a mind. In order to gain understanding of God, one must integrate with the Goddess which is the feminine, which is the mother, which is contained in the physical form. It must go through the heart. It must go through the feelings and emotions. The mental must descend down and connect with the heart to gain enlightenment and wisdom. Everything that was intellectual and held in the mind that was false or not real – like a belief in separation, or a belief that only Christians are right, or the belief that homosexuality is wrong - all these separation beliefs must go. They must be deleted when the mind descends downward into the heart and body, because it is through the visceral feeling that one becomes purified.
So where do all these false beliefs go that don’t have any spirit or light in them? They don’t disappear because they are a creation. Albeit an artificial creation, but a creation nonetheless. The soul who created them moves on to enjoy a more peaceful, beautiful life of unity with others through a heart connection. But an interesting thing happens. His past beliefs disentangle from him and drift like a cloud out into the atmosphere. There it is drawn to gather with other clouds of like intelligence and together this cloud of false beliefs grows and gathers intensity. The dark is the left-over false beliefs that have existed from the beginning. They are intelligent, but they are erroneous. They are not supported by truth. They are artificially created by minds that are searching and growing, but they are not truth.
The dark does not know God but it is intelligent. It has been created by a soul but when the soul chose light over its former belief, the false energy it had accumulated drifted away, retaining a certain amount of intelligence. The force we call dark is seeking the light-bearers to join with it. It needs the light to live but it does not understand the light for the truth of the light is contained in the heart. That is why we must not judge another person. We only make it worse for ourselves, for judging someone else is a divisive force. It separates us. It is not enlightened.
As I drove downtown today I realized that I myself have contributed to the dark. I have no right to judge the dark for it is part of the process of life. As we become more aligned with our emotions and feelings, we become more discerning and we discard former beliefs. The dark is that part of me that never understood love. It never unified with the light held in my body as love - the light that makes up my body. We are made of creator's light and we must learn how to unite with it. The dark is that part of me that did not descend into my body. It is the mental part of me. I learned to be mental from my upbringing and from school. The mental me is simply a cloud of intelligence that does not know love or light yet. It is an accumulation of data that hasn't been integrated into my physicality. The dark is all of the past errors that have peeled away from souls who unified with the love and light locked in their bodies. As they descended into the light of their body and feelings, their false beliefs that were wrong disentangled and drifted away.
In the beginning there was darkness from many planets and civilizations that went on before ever the Earth came into being. When the Earth was born the creator’s voice said, “Let there be light” and souls have been learning about the Light ever since. The darkness was there in the beginning, and souls who ventured out beyond the creator’s love and protection explored it. We all did, those of us in human form. The dark intelligence doesn’t have a soul. It is a purely mental force. It cannot feel. It does not have empathy. It does not understand love. It never experienced it. We can only know the difference between bad and good by FEELING good and bad. What causes us to feel, is the living life force that built the body. The creator lives inside our bodies as sparkling living electrons that hold our bodies together. These electrons know the truth and the goodness. Our bodies contain the quintessential qualities of creator.
We must use our bodies to feel. I think this is not understood yet. Our bodies are extremely important in learning the difference between right and wrong. Psychic channels and some untrained spiritual channels who are using their minds only and not their bodies to validate the truth, are picking up dark forces who are mimicking the light. We must use our innate feelings to know the difference. When you start questioning whether you’re on the right track or not, use your feelings. The right track feels warm and comfortable. It’s a nice feeling. Good feelings tell you if you are on the right path. Be ever aware of changes in direction of feelings. Negative feelings are in the air. We breathe negativity in along with goodness. Choose the good feeling. Don’t get trapped into something that has you fighting and using force. Don’t start beating yourself up over not accomplishing what you wanted to. Or because you argued with someone and you feel bad. All of that is telling you you are heading in the wrong direction.
Stop and change direction. Use will power and thought to redirect your the type of thoughts to entertain. Choose compassion, love, forgiveness, tenderness, empathy, gracefulness, elegance. Put "warm" words that feel good into your mind. This will thwart the negative feeling and bring you back into warm peace and comfort again. This is a technique for righting anything that feels wrong, and it requires conscious focus and work. Listen to the warmth in your heart. It is like an embrace. It is the connection with the light in your own body. It is a connection with source, because you are a child of the creator God, and his light is pointing you in the right direction. Leave the dark forces to the galactics who are better equipped to fight them.
11/1/21 - Prepare for Action
Prepare yourself for action! I was told this before by Master DK, but I kept thinking I had to DO something with this information, and it led off in another direction. My mistake. Interpretations are important. Understanding what was meant by “prepare yourself for action” became interpreted and entangled into WHAT? What is it that I must do? I assumed that advice meant to have a plan of action and contribute to the world. But that is not what it meant at all.
I realize today what it really means. It means to stay alive! Rotate your activities every hour, more or less. Rotate your attention span, keep it moving. Keep your conscious attention from becoming bogged down in a rut along one path. Move it! Move it around! Stay active in your mind. Every hour or so change location so you can change the focus of your attention. Change the direction of your attention and you won’t be tempted to become entangled and enmeshed in a lockdown that stagnates your energies. Get up physically and move. It will shift the energies that are becoming immobilized from a singular focus.
Thinking I had to keep moving physically, I became too active and made the mistake of jumping and becoming frenzied. Moving from one project to another without stopping to rest in between. It is important to learn how to move slowly, rhythmically, gracefully. Slowing down physically while changing thought direction is what is meant by being active. I can switch to another activity simply by leaving a location and facing another. Being in constant motion without conscious control is like starting the car and letting it drive itself. It is being pulled by outside forces. You are the driver of the car. Stay in the driver's seat. Don't let outside forces drive you. I am being told just move to another location. Break the energy lock that you have been on for the last hour.
Action refers to the BODY. The body tends to become locked into one energy. The body likes to settle. It is a slow-moving machine. It enjoys the comfort of settling. You the driver of the vehicle must take charge. When you feel yourself stagnating or becoming lethargic, insist on getting up and breaking the stagnation.
(I’m doing that right now. I just left the living room watching TV and walked through the kitchen, did the few dishes in the sink, filled my tumbler, came to the computer.)
DK says: "Your lower body ailments yesterday were heavy energies trying to escape, rumbling, painful, gurgling pressure. Your body was telling you something which you couldn’t understand with your physical brain. Today you are experiencing the rewards of yesterday’s process. You feel freer today because your body feels freer."
10/30/21 - A chat with my I Am Presence
In the middle of connecting with the sun and the ascendeds one day, I had the feeling to take up pen and paper. So, still sitting, I took the clip board. I heard “Nancy!” loud and clear so I wrote it down. Then, “We are here! Let us come! Call us!” This is what followed.
(Me: Thank you for answering!)
“Thank you for reaching up to us. We are here. Can you see us?"
(Me: I see many points of light in a sort of field, a strata, of golden light, and also more points of light, many, coming through the sun. They are not “ships” are they?)
"No, we are the beings, the host of heaven you have been in touch with."
(Me: Who are YOU who is talking with me?)
"I Am the Oneness. I Am all of these points of light that you are seeing. They are decloaking or rather cloaking is a better term, for they are taking ON a form so that you might see them or detect them. They come into manifestation as you focus on them by calling to them. You yourself are in oneness with me when you focus on me. You are me, and I am you and we are one. You have been in communication with me from the day - the big day - of your ascension. Yes, you DID INDEED ascend on that precious, precious day. You came to join - to rejoin - with me as in the beginning. As you have always been with me. I AM the one who created all that is. I AM your father AND your mother. Don’t separate me. I am mother down below you, as you have pictured mother as being 'below'. I Am below and I Am above, and I Am within and I Am without. I Am everywhere and you could say 'nowhere' if you prefer. Or 'now here'. Yes, I Am in Doug. I Am in Marcus, and you saw me in your son’s eyes. I reflected to you through his eyes. Yes, I Am you and you are me and we ARE One."
(Me: Thank you for this. I am speechless!) From that point I didn’t know what else to say. My mind was blank and the silence was deafening. Then I asked “Is it over?”
'Yes, it is over for now.'
This very interesting chat with the Oneness led to the following insight which I wrote out in longhand. I’m 100% feminine. I recognized that I am 100% feminine two days ago but I have been wondering, What does that mean to be 100% feminine? I’ve been on the trail for years. I am finding that it means being 100% spiritual, not feminine nor masculine, but balanced as an androgynous being. I am not 100% then, but I am getting there. I feel perfectly one with the I AM when I am in a good meditation. That is not always. I wonder, what is holding us ALL back? Men yes, but especially women. I know that it is because we listen too much to other people and become entangled with the thoughts, motives, feelings, goals, aspirations of these others that are not our own. We must get back to focusing on our own divinity, our own origins.
Getting back into our own origins I think requires being in the company with others who are more like us, who act as mirror reflections of us, people who are similar to us and resonate with us, not different. This means meeting with women. Women meeting with women, and men meeting with men, for men need to be validated by their own gender too. Same genders meeting will help us recognize our REAL selves and therefore we can move forward. We have been holding each other back, the genders hold each other back. We think we are stabilizing each other but we are holding each other back. While none of us are the same outside in personality and the many differences, both past lives and this life, we ARE the same in our spiritual origins. The original birth of our spirits.
The many paths we’ve taken since then that we have accumulated in both knowledge and wisdom makes us each unique. But the beginnings are the same. We are spirit sparks from source. We began as conscious beings of light and love in the warmth and comfort of our father-mother/parent, and then we set out to gather experiences and begin to understand and grow into more adult spiritual beings. Now is the end of an age. They say it is a 26,520 year cycle. It is time to return home to our origins through the process of ascension, and bring the knowledge we have achieved back to our father-mother-parent. It is a glorious reunion. A time of celebration. The time of the prodigal child returning home. There will be a party. The original energy of love and light has always continuously flown through our bodies. It has always flowed through us, giving us life and breath and supporting our journeys in density and the physical world.
There have been many lives. We couldn’t have lived without this original spirit flowing through us. This is our divine origin. Our individuality that we have been cultivating through choice and free will. It is important to recognize that we are not required to give up all that we have lived for and achieved as a conscious being. We can stay right here on earth with our friends and playmates. All we need to do is plug into our origins. Memory returns to us when we open to our innermost feelings and put our brain to rest. Stop the brain. Give the brain a rest. (All of this was received on 10/12/19)
Also, I just read something amazing. The double-strand DNA pertains to our first two chakras - root chakra for survival and sex chakra for reproduction. The 3rd chakra expands personal empowerment, it's on a higher frequency vibration. The 4th chakra expands into connection with higher realms, a still higher frequency. The 5th chakra expands the ability to express oneself in the choice of a career or vocation to contribute to the world, yet a still higher frequency. The 6th chakra is for preparing to connect with the I Am Presence and the withdrawal from worldly concerns. It is a higher frequency. The 7th chakra is for actually joining with the I Am Presence, or the individual father/mother God. It was and still is the intention that we do this all in one lifetime. Unfortunately the world took a downward spiral and we lost that connection. We are starting to remember. We are receiving instructions. Use the chakras as expanding into higher dimensions. Follow the inner light and inner wisdom.
10/28/21 - The realm of the goddess
In the night I received further information about the divine feminine. Feminine is heavy, solid. I was shown a centrifuge, the device used to separate red blood cells from liquid. The heaviest substance is spun the furthest out, like the planets that are spun out from the sun and held locked in orbit there. Planets and heavy bodies are the heaviest. They hold the atoms in place. The feminine is FORM. Anything that has form is feminine. Both men and women’s bodies are feminine. Everything in form is feminine. The center that is unformed abstract intelligence is masculine - the IDEA that is thrust outward further away from the center of infinity. As it slows down and takes form, like the planets in orbit, it becomes feminine. It is the FORM that is feminine, but in the center of the form is the unformed source which is the intelligence, the masculine idea that thrust outward.
In a queer turn of events, the abstract intelligence at the center is called the realm of the goddess. It is the 96% which is pure spirit as compared to the 4% which is physical. Women access it easily. Women access it through orgasm but men feed off of women’s orgasms. We humans shall achieve the stars and the higher worlds, not through technology which is focused on the physical, but through the inner fire which is created by balancing the male-female forces within us, which are out of balance. i.e., we are either more male or more female. When we learn to balance these forces through inner conscious disciplines, we create an inner fire. It has been said that women have been kept weakened by men stealing her feminine force over the eons, and that men have become overly powerful because of that, but today we are being given new information. By balancing the male and female forces within ONESELF, the spiritual fire can be accessed, and a new reality will be born of trust, love, truth, happiness, peace and abundance. The new golden age requires both men and women to study the techniques of self discipline and stop rampaging around the world in search of the unavailable. All that one needs and desires, including love, freedom and luxuries, may be found by balancing the inner forces. (Received 10/10/19)
10/26/21 - The world is mechanistic and artificial
There was an astonishing download this morning. Dear LLL (Lord of Living Light!) Good morning, MIAP. Will you confirm the information that I have just received? That we light bearers are the holy innocents? And that the rest are all mechanical, without a life force? Is that what we are here for? To hold steady the good within?
Yes, my beloved. You have come to an alternate world of created material - created by not human will but mechanical will. All that the earth holds now is mechanistic and artificial. This is why angels have been sent, have volunteered to be born here into this mechanistic world, and why YOU have chosen the path you did. To learn the secret implant, the devious process that was put in place to hold the holy innocents to their world, the mechanical world, and their way of life, to serve their own selfish functions. They have been controlling mankind for eons, and womenkind, through the thwarting of love, through the killing of love. You are bringing love into their world, their “holy” creation - for you are correct in that they see differently than you and what they have created is indeed sacrosanct to them, holy to them - and so they see you as the enemy. You who would kill them with your divine love, which melts all - everything - that is not divine and of the creator’s will to love all. You see, they see it differently. They have built a world of substance and material form which holds them to form. They have invested all of themselves into form, and they need those forms. They are parasites who grow dependent upon forms. They create many ingenious ways to manipulate forms (bodies) do their bidding, but they do not have love, my dear, as you do. You are there to bring forth an education to the masses with your love. You see love as the divine connection and you have been studying it and learned that it is true. You found the missing key, the missing link in this materialistic world of fake and falsehood, of artificiality and separation.
I am here with you to guide you. I act as a guidance system, like a GPS. There are many holy innocents walking beside you who have been hooked into the material world and do not know what you know. You cannot tell them or reach them with words, for words are of the separationists’ side. They isolate and divide. The kindness that you show and the understanding that you embody is greater than words. As Marcus says, There is only love, and he wishes to share this love by putting his hands on the beautiful holy ones. There will come an opportunity for you to work alongside him, for you share the same lineage. I am here. I am you. I am your higher self. You are me. You are my lower self. We are one being and I am guiding you through your heart. You have discovered a hidden link in the mantra, “I face thy eternal sunrise and I receive thy mighty radiance into my life and actions.” There will come a time soon. Soon. When this link to light will open further and start to spread outward into the mechanical world.
(Question) Yes. The women’s gathering movement. It is trying to find itself in the shadows of artificiality. It needs a living embodiment to serve as a star shining. You are that star. You have been carefully prepared. As you felt the need to post your pictures on display, I am guiding you. I am your light. I am your destiny. I am your purpose. I am your mission. As you have felt the potential of light and love in your physical body, in your sensation body, in your cells and tissues that were born of earth particles brought forth here from this dying planet, you are rejuvenating the planet earth. You and many others who are also on the same mission for me. I Am your Father. I AM your Mother. You have been trained. You know the truth. Yes, I do confirm for you what you saw, knew, this morning. It was another upgrade in your mission, for you have edged closer to the full consciousness and memory of the whole truth. Wisdom has been shielded, but you know how to gather the light now better than you did a few weeks ago. Your edging closer to your heart is the edging away from the artificial parts that you had been born into. You are ready, dear sister, to name the dates starting in January 2020. It is time. I am with you. I AM you. You ARE me. We are doing this together.
(Question) Yes, it should be only women first. Others will pick up the men’s gathering. (Thank you, I love you! Received 10/4/19)
10/22/21 - Understanding is an aspect of your feeling nature
Understanding is an aspect of your feeling nature. You don’t get to feel until you accept what is offered and allow it to descend into your feelings. These original ideas come from higher source, down into the inner layers of your body. Discernment is required, however, for you are constantly picking up thoughts from the air around you which is teeming with a myriad human-related thoughts that are not pristine and pure, but heavy and clogged with negatives. When you discern a divine idea and allow yourself to receive this divine idea into your inner layers, you are giving the idea “body”. You are incorporating the idea, bringing it more fully into manifestation. The idea or thought must be felt by your body to become manifested, because you, yourself, are a body that has been manifested by the creator. YOU are God/Goddess in sentient form. None of your body parts are solid or physical. All of you, your body, is composed of electrons swirling around the neutron and proton at the center of the atom. The atom is composed of these little particles of light. The space between the particles is space which you own, temporarily while you are incorporated or incarnated in this body of yours. You are incorporated - incarnated - in a body for the specific purpose of receiving the divine flow from source creator, your own higher self. There is a wish and suddenly a thought pops up wanting to be sentient.
You, by understanding, are receiving the divine instructions from your own higher source to manifest this idea. But you can’t if you brush it off and ignore it. It is through your allowing it into your feeling nature that you manifest this wish of the creator. Feeling is how you connect with your neighbors and others. You cannot manifest alone all by yourself. You are not a solitary island in the middle of the ocean. Manifesting into form requires ideas from the divine to coalesce and clump together in order to create form and substance which, to you in your dimension, appear physical and solid. You have created instruments to measure solidarity versus gases and liquids and now your dimension is expanding to measure and define the Light, which is spirit in the descension process of forming matter.
This lesson is to focus on your feeling nature. Your understanding is how you manifest in the solid world, the world of the physical. The old control system of what you call the patriarchy, was control by outsiders, not you. They taught you not to pay attention to feelings. And those in male bodies became the guardians of control. They were trained and programmed by master mind controllers, to not allow feelings to enter this reality, this dimension on earth, which is herself a divine manifestation, not solid. They, the outsiders, took over the manifestation process millions of years ago. They are against love because love would make everything and everyone equal and happy, and they choose to be the powerful controllers over a race of slaves. That is their joy. They are the dark side. They conquered this planet and have been preventing the full incorporation of Source trying to manifest into physical sentience. They can do this with humans but they cannot stop sexuality from taking place. Nor can they stop the orgasm from happening, for that is the only way to keep the human race reproducing. That is the one loophole which saves mankind, and THIS is how feeling may come in. The connection to God/Goddess may happen through sexuality and lovemaking. But it’s complicated.
Yes, this is how the God/Goddess connection can happen, but if mankind remains ignorant about the facts of love that are to be used during the sex act, then the spiritual progress will continue to be held back. It is through feeling LOVE that spiritual peace is found. The loophole of love exists only because mankind has allowed love to NOT be present during the one act in all of human life that can create spiritual progress. Human males FEEL through the sex act, even if it is only for a brief moment. That is why the women are becoming empowered. The women hold the key to bringing forth more love, which men have seriously shut down in their focus. The dark controllers could not shut that down because that would have ended the human race, brought it to an end, for without reproduction the human race would fade out and they did not want that to happen. Instead, they wanted to control the sex. They created animosity between men and women. To reverse this sorry plight, we need more feelings of love. (Received 10/1/19)
10/21/21 - No difference between men and women?
Two days in a row I am getting a very subtle impression. It is about there is no difference between men and women. They are both the same in their energy bodies. It is only in the physical that they are different in their body shape. One with a lingam, the other with a yoni, a hole to receive the lingam it for connection purposes. But inwardly, on inner planes, we are built the same. We each have a feminine flow and a masculine flow. It is THIS that is so subtle and will require a gentle approach to explain it. Can we really explain it to another? We are goddess when we receive divine instructions and we are masculine when we act on those instructions. We should be receiving and acting at the same time, without stopping to consider whether it is good or bad for us. We are supposed to express our divine light in every moment of the day. A man is goddess when he receives divine instruction and he is god when he is acting on it. A woman likewise is a goddess when she receives divine instruction and she is god when she is acting on it. But she - woman - has been held back. And he - man has been pushed forward to be all-powerful. Thus the imbalance in our world.
10/20/21 - Ground into the earth through your feet
In meditation I asked Master DK to help me find a solution to my body aches. What followed was a lesson that involved first sitting as I normally do in front of the altar, then standing and connecting the sky force and the earth force. Then focusing on the bottoms of my feet and breathing more through my feet. Focus! Focus on the bottoms of your feet and open them up. Breathe through the bottoms of your feet. Breathe through your feet. You have nostrils on the bottoms of your feet, and a lengthy talk through breathing upward through the bottoms of my feet, placing noses all over the bottoms and focusing first on the left to strengthen the left since it’s the right side that I overuse, so strengthen the left. Think left. Breathe up the left and lift it higher up through blocked veins, bringing up the fire from earth. You do this with your mind, with your consciousness, you have been in the sky in the dreams, in the ethereal, now you are breathing the ground, bringing up the ground. You ARE the earth, your consciousness on this end IS the earth. You are creating the earth through your consciousness. You are sky creating sky when you are on that end of consciousness. You are the whole. You are the creator. You are the One. You are One with all that is creating all that is. Breathe through your feet. Breathe in the fire of Earth power. Earth has a fire and a power.
This body is just a creature of earth. YOU give it refinement. YOU are the god raising the elements of the body of matter you are residing in. YOU are the visiting divinity that teaches and raises the elemental life in the substance of your body and organizes it to greater and greater refinement so it can perform greater and more beautiful tasks. YOU are the quickening agent. You have been identifying with the creature body, thinking you are the body, when in fact you are not the body at all but the resident agent flowing through the creature.
Awakening to this fact will change your perspective. Recognize your true identity. You are here to complete the task of raising the creature to immortal status. YOU are already immortal. The creature you live in is not. It was born of the earth from an earth mother. Your job is to raise it to God frequency. When kundalini awakened in you  it separated you from your physical body and you have had to apply yourself to come back and become reunited with your creature body. This has been your mission - to reintegrate with the physical and bring the light into the physical. You can’t do that if you think you are the physical. Change your perspective now. There was a separation [in 1976] but you determined to return to the body. You employed the sexual connection with other earth creatures to keep you here. Now, the movements that you do is allowing the flowing of your god-self into your elemental creature body to quicken it and raise its vibrations. Your body was dying through the aging process, which unawakened humans believe is the only way. But you know different. You know different but you are still identifying with the creature body, thinking you are of creature substance when you are not. It’s not too late. No, it’s not too late. Do the flowing movements every day and begin the awakening of the creature body.
10/19/21 - Assimilating new downloads from your higher self
Rest often. When you rest you assimilate the upgrade and download the new energies into your cellular structure. Instead of doing it the old way of pushing your way through the irritation or disruption or confusion, take time out. Slow down your wonderment and your thinking. Slow down into silence and surrender to what is happening within you. Go into receiving mode. Lie down. Be quiet. Allow your cells to receive the irritating or confusing energies. New energies from higher planes are descending into your existing energies that you have been living with all your life. Allow this integration. Transform and transmute the old energies by resting often. Physically lie down and breathe through your heart. Focus on your heart and imagine your mouth and nose in your heart. Breathe through your heart. Your heart holds your I Am Presence, your divinity, your first, last and always. Relax your body and mind and move into your heart to experience the enegy meld - the old into the new, greater, wider aspect of yourself. Use the love in your heart by focusing and breathing through your heart, no matter what is bothering you. This is how to use the love within your I Am Presence in transforming yourself.
10/17/21 - Why the need for boundaries
We are being bombarded with a thousand different streams of energy every day. We need to create boundaries to stay centered and clear-minded. Practice living true to your boundaries. Say no when you don’t want to follow someone’s suggestion. Say no to yourself when you don’t want to do what you feel you "should" because of guilt, coercion or self-denial. What frequency matches your own? Does it pull you down to think about it? Or raise you up with inspired enthusiastic joyful feelings? Go with what inspires you. Go with the matching frequency. Don’t go against your self.
To form a boundary, build a 4-inch thick shell of intense white light around your aura. First imagine your auric field as a bubble of light by using your creative mind. Then add a 4-inch thick membrane, like a wall, around the perimeter of your bubble of light. Re-create it every day. Re-strengthen it every morning when you rise from sleep. Build this white light around yourself. The reason is this.
Everybody has a sub-atomic signature energy. It comes in the shape of the electrons, the teeny tiny sub-atomic particles that orbit around the nucleus of an atom. Atoms cling to other atoms to form matter. The ascended masters tell us each person's electrons are shaped in a unique design, like a leaf or a flower or a spiral or a square or a pyramid or a bird. It is their own personal signature energy. A person can be tracked by the trail of electrons they leave behind them everywhere they go. When they breathe they leave electrons in the air. When they speak they send forth a steady stream of these little tiny electrons. When you open a door, walk into a room or a garden, or a city bus, or shake someone's hands, you leave your unique signature energy behind you. You can be tracked by the God-free beings who know. When you live with someone you intermingle your partner’s electrons with your own. It is no wonder that you become emotionally entangled with them! You take on each other’s issues and strengths and weaknesses. You become one through continued close proximity.
In a crowded room where you mingle with many people walking around, you are walking through many of these tiny little signature energies coming from other people. You can't escape it unless you go to live on a mountain top alone. It is not wrong, nor is it a negative. It is the lesson plan. It is the curriculum of the Earth school. We are exposed to the seething, moving, creative sea of life. There is unity and harmony on higher planes and we will all get there some day. But while we are here on the Earth plane we are learning about diversity through duality. It is the creator operating, living, acting, learning, growing, understanding the differences between "this" and "that". Each person is a creator and has a signature energy they are responsible for. How are we using our creative energies?
As an innocent spirit spark before becoming incarnated as a sentient human being, our signature energy was pure, innocent, divine and holy. We are built out of pure light and love. Each new spirit is built with a different "signature", the same power as the father creator. Each soul has the power to create because it is a creator god and it has the mark of a god built into him. Each one of us leaves our signature everywhere we go. We build a life that is unique from everyone else. We cannot hide who we are. We build an eternal life that suits us, through trial and error. At first we build an ego personality that is ever changing and growing, but eventually it becomes the purified divine personality of an ascended master. Meanwhile, we leave our signature energy on everything we touch, say, think and do, and every particle comes back to us eventually in a returning loop. For all the cows come home at the end of the day, and the birds to their nest. And so do the energies we put out come back home to roost where they belong.
It is through the process of experiencing other signature energies of our friends, family and associates, that we discover ourselves by discarding what we don't like or want in our lives, and going after what we DO like and want more of. We are learning constantly. By building a bubble of pure white light around us, we can block what does not resonate with us, from entering our consciousness. As we learn to apply some of these techniques that the masters have given us, we can walk through bad neighborhoods and not be affected. The influences of those who are closer to our resonant energy field will not be blocked by the protective bubble because like attracts like, while those who are anathema to us will be repelled by the circle of white light around us, IF we build it and keep it strong every day. This is a protective meditation technique. Even if we don't believe in such things, it is worth experimenting with to see if just might work. The proof is in the pudding. If it works to keep your mind clearer than you are accustomed to, then you will enjoy the benefits, AND avoid karmic situations caused by the clash of opposing energies that do not fit well together.
Notice when you are in a neighborhood or location of lower-vibrational people, drunks, bars, back allies and compare that to how it feels to be in a church, sanctuary, monastery or out in nature with no one else around. In ordinary daily life a steady stream of tiny energy forms are entering the pores of our skin and blood stream. It is like smog to a clear mind. When alone we enjoy thinking our own thoughts, which is why we meditate or walk along in nature, getting away from the barrage of energies from other people. On the other hand, it is also why people LIKE crowded rooms, pubs, taverns and party houses. It drowns out their own thought and feeling. Maybe they don’t like their own thoughts or feelings. Maybe they are running away from listening to their own conscience. Being around other people helps them to mask it. Maybe they like the distraction of being numbed-down.
It is worth experimenting with building a bubble of white light around yourself every morning before setting out to be with other people. Re-build it every day or it will fade. The bubble of white light helps to stop the ever-present streams of energies that do not resonate with you from entering your consciousness. Spend at least 5 minutes focusing on building this bubble of white light around you. Add a 4-inch MORE INTENSE shell of white light around the circumference of your auric bubble.
10/16/21 - Searching for the spiritual gold in everyday life
Searching for the spiritual gold in everyday life. This is the opposite of religion. Religion worships a far-off God, takes us out of our every day life and keeps us in a search mode. Where is God? In a book? In a teacher? In a church? We look outside but God-Goddess is flowing INSIDE our body, inside our minds, inside our actions, inside our words. How are you responding right now to these words. What are you feeling? Notice your feelings right now. What is the human in you being challenged with right now? Most human beings stay on the outer surface of things, observing from a distance. It is the way of the mass consciousness in which we dwell. This attitude is ignoring (ignorant) the wonderful opportunity to learn something from this very immediate moment. By entering deeper down and inside this moment, by stopping and really listening to this moment, you are exerting the spiritual muscle of empowerment called “feeling” or emotion. Rise to the occasion. Seize the moment. Plunge in.
The normal mass-mind does not see anything special in front of him or her. No, because they’re looking outside. One must stop looking outside and be still and feel the inside. Sink down into the feeling inside of this moment. There is nothing special to be seen outside in the passing parade of action. The specialness can only be seen by stopping the brain from swirling and in a sublime state, entering into the heart or lungs or back or stomach - anywhere within - and feeling what the organs are feeling. Feeling what the muscles are feeling. The higher dimensional self is flowing through the muscles, tissues, blood and bones of your body. The spiritual golden river of light that supports your inner body parts comes from source. To detect it we must stop the mind from analyzing what other people are saying, doing and planning, and listen to our body talk. When the mind dares to break focus on the outer life and enter the silence within, it’s like watching the sun clear the fog away. One opens to the light and listens to it. Drinks it in and links in to the moment. Even an ugly argument that may appear to be rising in front of you, can be transformed into a sensation of peace, even a miracle, by learning this technique. It is a skill that can be learned with practice.
The power of the divine golden river within, once tapped, can break through the dull normalcy of victimhood. Cracks it open like an egg shell against a pan. Source light which is available but normally shut down, can flood forth easily into any situation that is taking place in your immediate environment. Can you feel the potential of this right now? Practice this method in all things and you will first of all be serving yourself, and secondly you will be serving humanity. Searching for God or Goddess outside of you, as religion teaches us to do, actually takes us further off the path and away from the desired goal. We are looking in all the wrong places for love because YOU are the God/Goddess gleefully flowing in plain sight, only in more exquisite refinement to what you are used to. The difference is akin to you noticing a street brawl which disturbs you, and suddenly you’re distracted by a rainbow that appears and you look up, filled with wonder. It is as simple as that but you must make the consciousness shift yourself, and not wait for someone to do it for you. Choose to feel joy! Choose to feel sublime. Choose to feel grateful to be alive. Like the absent minded professor looking for his glasses when all the time they are on his head. His eyes were looking outside on tables and chairs, when all the while they were above him. God is in the chair you sit on, the bed you lie on, the car you’re driving, the pavement you’re walking on - God/Goddess is everywhere. Joy is everywhere. Sublime is everywhere, but you can’t see it until you step inside first and see through your inner window. You must tap into your inner now moment, which is stillness, sublime, grace. Your feet can be walking but if your mind can come to a standstill and remember what grace feels like, you can see God/Goddess everywhere you look.
10/15/21 - God is not a 'thing", God is a process
During meditation I was told God is not a "thing", God is a process. God is one's higher self. And there's a higher self after that, and a higher and a higher on into infinity. There is no end. God is growing itself. God is a process of consciousness evolving. God is the ascendeds, God is the galactics, God is the angelics, God is the tree, the vegetable, the animal, the insect, the stone, the lowly human, the highly evolved human, the celestial. God is everything. God is you. God is me. God is awareness, intelligence, wisdom. God is your ex-wives and my ex-husbands. God is space. God is time. God is the sun, the moon, the planets, the extraterrestrials we think are separate from us. But God is not separate. God is not a "thing" to think about but to be appreciated. God is a process of becoming more aware and therefore more connected to everything and everyone else. God is a process of evolving out of mud. God is the mud. The Buddhists don't use the word "God" because if they did, then it would become something outside, set apart, a separation. God is not a "thing" separate and apart. God is a process of becoming aware, and more aware and more aware and more aware.....
“Ascendeds are masculine and sending light packets of information down, down, down. The body and soul (you) are the feminine. You are supposed to take it and run with it. Catch the ball and own it. Put it to good use. Put it into activity. What you, the feminine (body) have been doing is praising the enlightened ones, the ascended ones, as in worshipping them. You have been giving your power away - away from yourself. You have not been planting it into your own body flesh and mind. You have not been receiving it. You have been giving your power away through your attention and focus - away to the Gods, the Ascendeds, the Galactics, to whoever you admire most, all of the higher ones of light, instead of receiving it and making it your own intelligence and wisdom. The higher ones ahead of you are trying to get you to act on your own power. In other words, create your own power. Stop giving your power away to others. Admire yourself. Worship yourself. Love yourself. Own the light information and use it on yourself. Don’t give credit to someone else. The book you read yesterday and were about to focus on it, don’t! Own the information, modify it to suit you, explain yourself through your own feelings and understandings, not through their words. Use your own. Be your own intelligence. It was given to you and you accepted it. You began to write about it. Now take that light information, for it is power given to you to create with, and use it. Create something that YOU enjoy doing.” (From Master DK)
10/5/21 - Removing implants
During meditation today I said to anyone who would listen - "I want to remove ALL the implants in me! Please help me remove all that does not belong in me." I lay on the massage table after and asked for St. Germain and Sananda and my I Am Presence (again) and my angel guides and the Master Djwal Khul - especially DK - I just named a few but asked them to help me remove the implants that have been blocking me. And then I said, "I'm going to go down deep now and find them and release them." And I closed my eyes and imagined myself diving down into the bottom of the ocean where it's dark and looking around and trying to find things that were darker, and I found things, and said, "I know there is a way to release this. How do I cut these away from myself? I am releasing, how do I release? I know there is a way. Where is the door? How do I release?" And then I thought, "Love is the door". And as soon as I said that, light went surging out into the dark objects and I felt emotion ripple through me like I was going to cry. My body wanted to sob. What I was experiencing was these bits and pieces of myself were the embarrassing moments, hurtful moments, damaged moments where I had recoiled and sucked it in and buried it. So now, with love - love is the door to get in to these buried treasures - and it felt as though they were my children and I was their parent and I was loving them unconditionally again and receiving them back home again. It was THEY who were sobbing and so glad to see me. It was their hurt, not mine, for I am the Presence who does not get hurt. It was a very simple thing. The flood gates are opening.
10/4/21 - Man-woman issues
The man-woman issues that you experience and continue to experience are actually an inner journey as you seek understanding about yourself. You learn through bumping up against what is NOT comfortable to you. You play with this for a while, struggling with it, and if you are successful in accepting that this really is not what you want (some people never discover this) then you will shed it and not do it again. Of course the evolutionary journey is about discovering this process in a kindly way so that you do not hurt other people in the process. So when you reject them you find ways to let them down easily. This is the hard part. What you are learning about yourself is what doesn’t fit comfortably with you, and what does.. What doesn’t feel right to you? Do you continue to hash it around and try to make it work? This prolongs the pain and the struggle. What feels good to you on all levels, will cause elation and joy. if it feels good on only one level but not the other two or three levels, It does not cause elation, but rather a sense of a pulling towards something as if that something will give you completion. For example, a piece of chocolate cake might taste good to your tongue, but your mind knows it is wrong for your diet and your feeling causes a feeling of guilt. The man-woman issues are the bumping up against energies of other people, to show you that there are many energies that exist in your life and it is a matter of selecting those energies that complete you and fulfill you, rather than trying to make something fit when it doesn’t fit you at all. Like a dress two sizes too small just won’t give you a good feeling. The man-woman issues are a journey in self discovery but many people do not give themselves enough credit to believe their inner intuition. They may have a gut feeling that this person is not right for them, but they try to make it work because they don’t believe their feeling. They believe MORE in being courteous and trying to fit in. This is being dishonest to yourself when you do this. It is damaging not only to yourself but to the other people you are engaging with because they too are not feeling comfortable. If you’re not feeling good about the connection, then they are not feeling good about the connection. Elation and a joyful happy feeling is always the sign that you are doing the right thing.
The man-woman issues and struggles that you have pertaining to sex is your path of learning about what fits with you and what doesn’t. The discovery part is what doesn’t fit. Trust that and release it and let it go. You will move on when you become consciously aware of this. To remain unwilling to accept this is how you remain in the struggle. Evolve your awareness by trusting your sense of good and bad. By discovering what makes you feel bad and releasing it or taking steps to release it (it may take time) you are discovering the truth of your inner self. It is a discovery of awareness. It is not an outer world discovery. The outer world presents things to you one at a time. As if on parade these things and people come into your view. It is up to you to say “yes” or “no” to these persons and objects. You must decide what doesn’t fit with you. As you eliminate the not-self, you will be left with your authentic self. Your real self. That which is what has been called “the Knower”. This is the part of you that is eternal and lives on after death of the body to live again in another body, all the while gathering wisdom and understanding.
10/3/21 - Are you giving your power away to ego?
Learn how your own body functions through the chakras and the light flowing through it. The higher body, the lower body, all the body as a whole. There is a spiritual flow which is not being honored, acknowledged, appreciated or activated. More fulfilling experiences are made by breaking out of the limited focus on physical body as the ONLY body. There are more refined energies in your body. Learn about them. Rise up to them. Think about them. Refine your consciousness. Rise to higher ideals that you hold. Can you touch another without thinking sex or making it personal or giving your power away to another? Can you rise above the basic lower two chakras which keep you focused on the physical limits that are pervasive in traditional society? Which prevent you from rising to higher, more refined levels? Slower, surer and more compatible levels that feel good to you? Where your connection with the other person or object is more genuine, authentic, more elegant and more comforting? These noble energies lie waiting your recognition. It is your conscious attention that actives the chakras.
Activate the inner and higher realm of the 3rd chakra - the solar plexus chakra aka navel chakra - where personal power is felt viscerally and all-pervasively. And move on to the higher dimension of the 4th chakra - the heart chakra, the portal to your higher self and higher realms. Has someone told you repeatedly, “Don’t tell me what to do!” by someone in your life whom you have tried to give your observation to a situation? Have you been shut down by learning to keep quiet, thus giving your power away to another short-sighted ego? Do you still retain the memory of the old, “Don’t tell me what to do” which keeps you conflicted? An ego-driven person does not want to be told what to do or how to do it. Recognize an ego-driven person. Do you give power to them?
Your higher self is not ego-driven. All higher selves are motivated by love and compassion, wisdom, truth, purity and also the courage to speak when necessary. Higher self is well-rounded and does not give ground to ego. Open the higher chakras to activate your higher self. The higher self is strong and not afraid of ego, yet it is all-wise, humble, sure, pure, innocent and truthful. Higher self is that part of you which is at peace with who you are. You are your own higher self but you do not realize it yet, and so you are often cut down by a defensive ego-driven person who is less aware. To allow more of your higher self into your daily life and action, instead of giving in to defensive ego-driven people, consider this: If you are sensitive to any sign of opposition which forces you to go into hiding, how are you going to access the higher principles that you are seeking which will raise you up by flooding your lower body with peace and comfort?
During both meditation and during lovemaking this morning I went up above the earth’s atmosphere where it is clear and pure. I saw down into the smog and smoke that covers the planet and saw despair, confusion, pain, and struggle. And I saw that I am making a space in the smog which is clearer than the surrounding atmosphere. I make space for love and light by being honest and humble at the same time. If you want to clear the atmosphere in your home for making love, and create a better space for uplifting light in your world, do daily meditation. And for lovemaking, get a massage table and before every bedroom activity, give each other a massage with LOVE. Not rushing through it. Not impatiently. Not with resentment, but with love. There are chakras in the feet and in the hands and the shins and the head, and all over the body. Slow down and silently, mentally send from the middle of your brain thoughts of “I love you!”
10/2/21 - What it means to be a chela (student)
I got up in the night thinking I'd be entering a steeper discipline program but when awakening at 4:30 I intuited to go back to bed. I asked why? I slept and then woke in extreme coziness with a message. Awesome peace enfolded me. Why am I not being directed to meditate? Answer was lovely, stunningly not what I expected. "Coming home means settling down and inward, ceasing the struggle and accepting yourself just the way you are. It is similar to the ripening of a fruit. Germination is a surging forward, chelaship is learning how to settle. Relinquish the struggle. Surrender to the force of nature within you. It knows what you need. Your training as a chela is in following your heart, not a premeditated structure such as an imposed meditation discipline program. That is now in the past. You have earned a new role. You have earned the right to be a chela. It is not what you think! Chelahood is not following the controlling ego but following the peace within, following Your spirit, your angel, your divinity. Mankind has presupposed a falsehood concerning God and deity. There is no need to struggle. Look for signs around you, follow the flow about and in you. Do not work at it, allow it. All of the teachings are pointing you in this direction: Allow!" (Received 11/18/95)
9/23/21 - What is mystical?
(This was guidance for me in my writings.) Use the word mystical in your writings. In this infinite zone beyond consciousness, beyond understanding, one may feel the intelligence of something greater than yourself, it is YOU, the observer. This “something greater” has been termed “God” or “supreme being”. It may be called any word but it is not beyond the person observing it. It should not be considered outside and beyond. It is the consciousness of the person itself looming up greater than before. It comes from the source of the observer himself or herself. It is the observer’s consciousness expanding. This is the part which should be shared with others. One must not try to bring it into control, which is the way of the past. If you do that, then the expansion will be cut off. The mystical connection will be cut off. The mystical connection is the window through which expansion and higher forces connect with the immediate local consciousness - the mind. One must not try to capture the mystical, but step back and retain the sensation of awe and mystery and wonder, leaving the window open. Remain a student in the receptive learning stance, rather than assuming the role of teacher. Don’t be worried if you should or shouldn’t be open, it is the flow that matters. It is the flow that counts for once you are flowing many ideas will come. Be ready to put them down on paper. This is for your own good, to stimulate you when you re-read it. (Received 8/14/19)
9/17/21 - Why do we search for the divine feminine?
I had many questions about why the difference between women and men. Why was I searching for the answer to the divine feminine? What is the divine feminine? The answer came: To find the divine masculine of course! The search is inner, we are looking for it not in the outer but in the inner. Once we find the divine masculine in ourselves, then the divine feminine will feel complete and we will be able to balance ourselves and have a lighter, healthier, easier flowing life here on Earth. Life will be fun. Relationships will be fun. We will have an easier mind and less or NO emotional issues to cause problems. One time I asked, “Were we created as feminine originally? Or masculine originally? No, was the answer. You were created as a whole child of God. What you do with that is up to you and how you choose. You become feminine by choosing passivity and peace over making waves. You become masculine by choosing to be proactive in making changes and being assertive. You are only feminine, however, when you are in the presence of a masculine, for then you compare yourself and the masculine triggers you. You are only masculine when you are in the presence of a feminine for then you compare and the feminine triggers you. When you live alone and don’t have an opposite to compare yourself to, you are whole and complete as you are. In oneness. Each aspect of yourself is a standing wave separate from the other aspects - physical, etheric, emotional, mental, spiritual, etc. - we are to align them so they are all one integrated whole.
9/16/21 - Love is not in the physical body
Love is contained not in the physical body itself but in the consciousness that resides in the physical body, or is moving through the physical body like electricity moves through a light bulb lighting it up and casting a radiance around it. We are that consciousness that is streaming non-stop through this body. Much of what we radiate out into the atmosphere is not constructive, which means it is DESTRUCTIVE. It is no wonder that the earth is hurting and in pain and is revolting through earthquakes and storms. The love is not contained in the physical body of the tree, love is contained in the consciousness of the tree. Love is not contained in the body of the fish or the blade of grass, but in the consciousness of the fish and the blade of grass. Consciousness is alive and loving. Consciousness is the life force. Consciousness is the livingness and the lovingness and the peacefulness that supports the physical and the physical thrives upon. But we don’t see it. We take the physical like we take a piece of meat and hold it in our hands and examine it for flaws. We don’t see that it is the consciousness that is the light of the body and the love of the body.
8/31/21 - Lord Lanto
Last night or this morning I asked Lord Lanto how he brought the flame into his heart (it was so bright that people could see the glow) and he showed me the secret. To me it is a major piece of advice. He said, “It is not light, it is love.” I tried saying “love” over and over but he said, “No, it’s not done through the intellect. It’s through the feelings. Through the emotions. Imagine it. Use your imagination.” Then he gave me a feeling of warm love in my heart area to show me what it felt like. It is like mothers love. Warm love. It is very warm, very warming, very nurturing. It’s not warm as in temperature, but warm in feeling, a feeling that you are loved, but it is simply love. This is the flame in the heart. I was so happy to learn this. I am practicing with love through emotion.
Later in the day I received the following and feel it is important to share this. We are living inside a soup of sexual deviation and distraction. In order to get back to our spiritual connection we have to stop playing with sex the way we have been. It is preventing the sky-earth connection. The self-to-self connection. We are divided. We need to get our spirit connected back with spirit. A few weeks ago I got the info that when we were born we divided ourself and a portion of our spirit/soul went down into the earth to become embedded in the earth. We joined with the earth energies but the soul is still unique us. This is the portion of us that is coming up into our bodies, attracted by our higher self coming down through us, but it’s unfortunately being siphoned off into sex. The sexual activity at the second chakra, the genital and reproduction area, is going either left or right - it’s being divided there - preventing the spiritual power from rising higher to re-connect with our higher self. It must connect with higher self to make us whole again. This is the earth connection that everybody is talking about we must make. We must have earth connection but most people don’t know what they means. We are supposed to bring our bodies into wholeness so that we can grow naturally and be productive naturally. But the basic problem needs correcting and then we will feel at peace again with ourselves. The great healing will be accomplished. Our earth spirit will be able to connect with our sky spirit we call higher self, and then we will feel wonderful again. We will make good decisions, rational decisions. But we must come to understand that the earth has a matrix around it which is a pollution. It is largely a sexual matrix, the reason being that we have been programmed (by alien races from the sky who wanted to control us). They did things that altered our DNA, but we can change that by simply not following the sex program any more. The majority of humans - especially the men - will have a huge uproar over this but I quickly add that there is something more beautiful coming in the way of making love. Love with someone who is of your same vibration, along with this new information, will be ultra super beautiful. We take away the old sex act and introduce a higher, more wonderful, more beautiful way. It cannot be explained in words other than it will fill your body full of ecstasy instead of a 30-second “pop” of an orgasm. We are going through a great awakening to bring us to this new beautiful place. Trust me. It’s real. It is the ancient teaching of Tantra. The unbalanced sex block at the sacral center is the thing that has kept us on lower vibrational levels. We have not been taught. This is a complex teaching, but it will be coming soon to the masses. (Received 8/28/18)
8/30/21 - Ascension
I felt the flow of life as a flash and a zing of connection. I realized - and felt it - that the life force which we all want and need and feel depleted of so often, is the connection in a STRAIGHT LINE between the light we planted in the earth at birth, and the light remaining aloft as the higher self. This connection is what the monks and spiritual masters have been trying to tell us. Stick to your own life force. Find that connection to your own power source. We have been distracted from our own power source by listening to other people, reading their books and following their advice, when their advice was for THEM, the author. YOUR advice is within you. It is so important to find your own connection to your power source. At conception we have been dividing ourselves. We put one piece of our spirit into mother earth as an anchor to hold us here, and the other piece remains above in the sky. We - You and I - are then responsible to connect these two parts of ourselves to become one whole - our spiritual self that is in the earth and feeds our body upward from below, and our spiritual self that is in the sky and feeds our mind from above. Intelligence flows down in vibration from the higher self above. We are the ones who have to make the connection. Ascension is simply another word meaning - “Ah! You’ve got it! You’ve connected your body, lower self, with your higher self.” This is not easy but it is the great work for which we volunteered to be born here and take it on. It’s a challenge. (Received 8/26/18)
8/29/21 - Taoism works with sex energy
Taoism works with sex energy – the feeling of the sexual buildup - by circulating the power throughout the whole body, and not letting it go into orgasm. There are etheric pathways built into the body called “meridians” and “chakras”. When sex energy circulates through these meridians and chakras, it becomes the chi or prana. By practicisg Taoist exercises, you can increase your capacity for vibrancy - the energy of glowing vigorous vitality and health. When a person orgasms, he uses this power on the lower physical body only, meaning the physicality only. It does not circulate on up to the higher dimensions of the person. This is a science unknown to most people. When the sex energy is spent on orgasm without circulating it through the meridians and chakras, as Taoism teaches, a person uses up his vibrancy and develops weaknesses, diseases, disabilities and eventually dies. The Taoists claim the human body can achieve the great age of a thousand years in one body, and even achieve immortality of body, as Jesus and many others did. There is a science to it.
So this morning I was prompted to sit down and write as it has become my custom to do. I was hearing the words “Meditation on the BODY is the feminine energy, the healing love energy, the goddess, the mother flame. Religions teach everyone to focus on God as being above the head, in the sky, or some vague beyond. This is the masculine focus. The masculine focus has become the norm for many thousands of years, whether one is religious or not. We have all been taught to look up to at least the brain if not higher for our answers, and definitely not to the body. In fact, the body has been made to feel shame and guilt and to ask “God” for forgiveness for feeling what we feel. The looking up for answers is indeed PART of the process but not all of the process. There is a looking WITHIN that has been missing. The teachings to look WITHIN are wonderful, easy to understand (for me), with rewarding instructions provided by the ancient masters of Taoism, many thousands of years old. Looking WITHIN and UP, as DK says, is how we get our answers, learn, grow and gain wisdom.
Entering into the body is how we stabilize the overemphasis of looking up into the empty sky for answers. Entering into the body through meditative exercises that include breathing and visualizing, we learn to “flow” the energy through the etheric conduits which are the prescribed pathways that were built into the body initially, as a blueprint from the beginning, before the world began. The template of the human has been around from before time, and creation began the great adventure. We’ve been “designed”. Our journey is of one of mind and awareness learning to enter into and plant itself into the organs, glands, blood and bones. We need to take up residence in our own body, and “own” our body, by becoming conscious of each part. The ascended masters are graduates of Earth. They have perfected themselves by lifting up each part of their body with higher love. There are ascended masters from every planet in existence, such as Venus and Vega in the Pleiades, but OUR ascended masters gained their immortality right here on Earth. They learned how to do it. They can guide us but they can’t do it for us. There is no savior, only teachers to advise and role model for us.
The angels and other celestials don’t have to learn this because they never descended into physicality. They can love, comfort, and lift in emergencies, but they cannot do this physical process for us. WE HAVE TO DO IT FOR OURSELVES. We who descended from heaven have to return to heaven and the only way to do that is to own every jot and title of our flesh body. Move into the body, accept the body, ground love, appreciation, faith, truth and purity into your body. Become aware. Awaken within the body. Awaken the body. The Taoists teach us how to circulate our awareness by focusing our mind on certain “spots” in the body and going step by step from “spot to spot”. There are diagrams to follow. We can ONLY learn how to own our body while we are IN our body. If we fail to do that in one body and we die before completing the program, then we come back and try again with a new body. The fact that we have been prevented from knowing this, has held humankind back for millennia. It is the soul that we are circulating through the meridians. The process is all about recognizing the soul and identifying with the spiritual soul, bringing it into the body and grounding it here.
The masters of the east learned how to ascend by another method. It was different. They ascended by by-passing the body. They learned how to go up and out of their body. They could do that because the earth was in low frequency then. We are today in a new cycle of higher light energy. We are in a new region of the universe with higher energies. Our own earth, Mother Gaia, is raising her planetary material too, within herself. So everyone on the planet is doing it differently today. We are all, humans as well as animals and plants, are raising their physical vibrations. We are all going through the process of “own” our bodies. We need to bring our truth and high ideals down into our bodies to ground our souls on earth. It is a different time. A new master plan is unfolding. It just is. You can’t fight it. Get on board. Get with the program. The Mother flame is the source of life and immortality, and it’s within the pelvis, not the brain. The ascended masters can’t do it for us. They can advise and counsel but they can’t do it for us. It is like one man eating the food for another man who is starving next door. It doesn’t work. The starving man has to eat, chew and digest the food to maintain his OWN body. This has to be done consciously. Not automatically. Every conscious being in the universe and creation is unique, and he has built his uniqueness by choice, free will, willful design and conscious design. Every one of us has a unique and different perspective on life and everything. Everything from AA Michael to Jesus to Buddah to Mother Mary and Djwal Kul, St. Germain, Mary Magdalene - each of them is a unique personality. They’re not the same. They are each unique and individual with a divine personality who is still growing their Godhood and their understanding of the Creator God. God himself is growing in understanding because God is US.
We are the cells - the female side of him - and we are growing in understanding that. The masters say, “Choose your favorite quality and make that your life’s work to focus on that quality. Excel in that quality. You are here to develop the body, not the mind but the body. You are here to cultivate your body by bringing in the qualities and the virtues and APPLYING them to your life through your senses and your words, thoughts and emotions. You need your physical senses to do that. You need to experience the qualities and the virtues that you are bringing into expression and showing to your family, friends and yourself. Live these qualities during the day with friends and co-workers. You’re here to develop the body and build the body into a more refined body, a more perfect temple for the soul to live in. You are not here to develop the mind because you are already a mind. You are a conscious mind, or should be. If you are not conscious then you are a robot functioning on programs that were installed in you. Your destiny is to become an awakened mind in human form. As you become more SELF conscious, you become more mindful and more awake and more aware of just exactly what you are spewing out into the world. Anger? Jealousy? Envy? Condemnation? Judgment? Vengence? Unhappiness? You need the body to experience the emotions you are having. Pay attention.
Remember, he who has descended into a body must ascend back home again. Many minds did not descend into a third dimensional physical body. Many more stayed in the heaven realm and found a different function there. We who find ourselves on earth in a flesh body are obligated to refine this body we live in. It’s the only way to get back home. The body is the feminine side of God. God lives in human flesh, blood, bone, organs and muscles. You have a unique, one-of-a-kind opportunity to become a god-man or god-woman, literally an immortal who walks on the ground, but it can’t be achieved through the ego (small e). The small e ego is the mechanical mind which is an artificial mind because it does not share its consciousness with the flesh and blood of its body. It lives totally 100% in the head, in the brain, which is a storehouse of accumulated learning but it is not original intelligence. Original intelligence belongs to the creator, to source. A person living in the head thinks he is special because he is using 100% of his intelligence and does not share it with his flesh and blood body. Therefore it is not a natural, caring, symbiotic mind that networks with his body or that of other bodies, including animals, plants, mother earth and all of nature. The ego (small e) has a superiority complex. It thinks it knows everything and everybody else is wrong or confused. This small ego does not respect the intelligence of the body which is also God, the feminine aspect of God which is embedded into the cells and tissues of material substance. (Received 8/28/19)
8/28/21 - Sound and coded words
By using the words love, trust, faith, compassion, grace and gratitude, we can link up with our creator self. Our higher self. We ARE the creator, we are aspects of the creator. We are thoughts of the creator, desires of the creator. But we are reduced from our original magnificent omnipotence by our focus on a point ahead of us. We have become linear when in the heavens of our being we are like a light bulb and radiate in all directions at once. We have become tunnel-visioned into the front of us. We have become creator focusing on a goal. We are the tip of the pen writing our story on the world, while the main part of us (the creator) is behind us out of sight. We have become densified in order to write our story on the world with our physical body.
To get back home to the heavens of our being while being here in the physical, we need the code words. The words of love, trust, faith, compassion, grace and gratitude are coded words. They contain a magnificent potent energy. We need to bring this energy into our bodies. The words are vibrations and sound makes the vibration physical. It resonates our vocal chords and our brain. The words cause feelings in us. They have wavelengths to them. Hateful words have short wavelengths; loving words have long rolling wavelengths. These waves penetrate the cells of our bodies. These words are the codes that we need to change the vibration of our bodies. They are words that we know in our English language as love, trust, faith, compassion, grace, gratitude. There are many words of the noble variety in every language on Earth and beyond Earth. They are specific codes that we can use.
I have been given these six words as a beginning, as a place to start. Memorize them and use them when time and circumstance permits. As we focus our thought on love for example, saying it silently or out loud is better, over and over as in a chant, we are sending the code vibration of love into our body, brain, cells and tissues of the body. The vibration pulsates through cell walls into the molecules and atoms that make up our physical body. Three or five minutes is a good time to use on one word, but the longer you chant a noble word, the more effect it will have on your body. Try it. Vibrate the body with the word love. Our scriptures tell us that in the beginning was the Word. The word started it all, and now the word can bring us back home. We are taking a mental abstract thought and making it physical through the sounding of its word. This is how we create sensation in the body. Take the best and most noble of words and use them as chants. That way, the body joins with us in our mental quest for the ultimate answer. We make it physical. It is no longer abstract. We are linking up the mental to the physical. We are moving through the emotions. We are bringing mind, body and spirit together. We will feel calm and peaceful.
As we densify the word we also raise the body. We are calming the outer aspects of ourselves which are quite chaotic. We have been journeying in the outer world and have gotten out of control. We feel anxieties, pressure, stress, dis-ease, pain, fragmentation. We feel aches, pains, dark moods, anger, frustration, hopelessness and other unpleasant feelings through our outer-world encounters. That is our human experience. Through chanting noble words we can calm that outer chaos and bring peace to our physical bodies, mind and emotions. We are being reabsorbed back into the creator god, which is our higher self. Through chanting for five minutes the word love or joy or peace or hallelujah or hope or trust or any word of the noble spectrum, you are gathering focus and calming your physical body cells and bringing them back into alignment with your higher self, your true self. You notice it after 5 minutes. When we work through the day we are bombarded with other people’s stuff, often negative thought but sometimes positive thoughts that do not resonate with you because they are not meant for you. We are daily subjected to other people’s emotions, intentions, desires, fantasies, goals which overlay on top of our own truth, and we become mixed up.
Five or ten minutes of chanting one of the noble words and you will find yourself much more peaceful and stable and back in alignment with your own truth. The outer you is that part of you that focuses on the outer world, other people and sometimes you feel quite lost. But in reality you have never been lost. The real you, your higher self, is the one pulling the strings of your life, nudging you here and there. You think you, as your conscious mind, are in control of your life but your creator god self is the one breathing your breath, digesting your food, pumping your blood and desiring to move to Hawaii or change jobs or get married. Your higher mind plants these seeds of inspiration into your conscious mind, to give you direction. It is how your higher nobler self moves your little self through the day while your little self’s mind is busy focusing on external problems and the daily goals of creating.
Now, through chanting code words, you are literally calling yourself back home, no different than the farmer calling his cows back to the barn at dusk. You are linking up with your away team. Use the code words. They contain creator god magic. You know what they are. Start out with love, trust, faith, compassion, grace and gratitude, and you will get other words coming forth out of the mental mist. Your mind is linking up to your higher mind. The veil thins away so you can hear your higher self speaking through these high and noble ideas. When you feel hopeless, chant the word “hope“. If you are weak, chant the word “strength”. When you are sick chant the word “health“ or “healing“. If you are lonely call upon love. You know what I mean. Our human journey has been a journey into duality. There are two sides of our life - the dark, heavy, stressful, hurtful side, and the lighter, loving, harmonious, peaceful side. We are here to change ourselves while in a physical body - it's the only way we CAN change ourselves - and to learn how to turn darkness into light. The lead of the human body is changed into the gold of the god within which is our creator god self. We have played long enough on the dark side. Now let’s start playing with our golden light side. It is the journey back to forgiveness, wholeness, completion, ecstatic reunion with home and family and those who have preceded us to the other side.
We need to use the code words. We have to take the time and the focus to apply them. This is meditation. We have not applied them. We have bandied them about and written about them, but they remain trite and boring because we haven’t planted them into the body. They remain on the mental plane only. They are useless on the mental plane. They don’t mean anything on the mental plane. We must put them into the body to free the body up from its dark monsters that hold it locked in chains. We must feed the body these vibrations through these code words. What are some code words that bring you light? Remember them. Write them down. Do 5 minutes of chanting that word. Zohar. Peace. Hallelujah. Honor. Respect. Delight. Caring. Concentrate on the sound of the best and most noble in you, and pull yourself away from the dark confusions of the outer world. If people truly understood prayer and the power of prayer, they could use this to overcome their drug dependency or depression. No power on Earth is greater than the light, and the light energy in prayer is inestimable! (Received 10/16/10)
8/27/21- Men need the feminine mirror of softness
During morning exercises I saw the tree of life. It was a tree of brilliant light in the shape of the kabbala. It was a tree of conduits, channels and webbing of light that is in me, in my flesh body, and I am surrendering to it when I am up doing spontaneous movements and going with the dance-like flowing. There is an inner wind. Afterwards I sit and write. The words are flowing easily through me and I write them down on paper.
Men are in need of the feminine mirror to be reflected back to them what feminine is like. Most women are reflecting masculine back to men and to the outer world. It is ego-centered, or mental-centered. The masculine predominates everywhere. EVERYWHERE. Ego is everywhere. Where is spirit? Divine? Naturalness? When women think they are showing empowerment by resisting the men and authorities, when they show rebellious, willful attitude to prove they can be complete and equal with men, that is masculine energy they are using. Men do not need more masculine energy reflected back to them. It just makes them angry. They have enough of that every where they turn. It creates competitiveness for control. Who can be best? And who can be on the top? It is feminine they seek. It is the gentleness they seek. The kindness, the motherly caring and encouragement which is selfless. The mother cares more for others than herself, but she is wise and doesn’t deplete her own powers.
Most women try to do this but deplete their own powers. Women do not know how to be truly feminine. They give their powers away without realizing how they are doing this. Even when men push for sex they are seeking the feminine love and acceptance. It is not the flesh they seek but the softness of attitude, the warmth of mood and love that feminine can offer. It is a quality and a virtue. It is an energy and a feeling. It is not flesh. But we women do not have enough confidence in our femininity. We do not even KNOW what femininity really is or feels like. It is pure heaven. We have the bodies that are created to be naturally feminine, so we are full of the potential to be divine feminine, but due to eons and eons of lifetimes and cultural training and programming to operate through the brain we do not know how to be in our bodies. Our bodies are feminine. We don’t know nor have we been trained. We don’t have confidence.
That is why we must gather as women, to build confidence and to reflect back to each other that which is feminine, and that which is NOT feminine. We’ll know it when we see it. It’s not just softness and tenderness, it is also truth, honesty, courage, intelligence and perfection. It is the seven qualities and the seven colors we were embedded with on a soul level, what we call the seven virtues and the seven chakras seven bodies. What makes us feminine instead of masculine is we do it with wholeness, with love, compassion, consideration for the feelings of those around us. We deal out truth with softness. We deal out courage with softness. We deal out determination with softness. We deal out intelligence with softness. We deal out perfection with softness. That is feminine.
The true feminine, the divine or ideal feminine is selfless, and wise beyond reason. Feminine is spiritual. It expresses with tenderness and mindfulness the qualities of the seven which the spiritual connection inspires. It comforts and lifts to higher planes, to nobleness, regal-ness, and majestic-ness and freedom. We women need to build confidence in how to speak and express ourselves. We need to have a circle of safety and protection. We need a women’s circle where we can gain confidence and enlightened responses from other women. We have to cultivate our inner feminine. Then we can bring it home to express to our families and friends.
Every little piece of feminine expressed is like a building block cemented into place in the world. It goes out in a ripple effect through the ethers and touches the planet's atmosphere. Men need encouragement in expressing their own softer side. We add to the healing of the planet when we express our truth. Women learned to surrender their power over the ages. It was a cycle that had to be lived through, but now that cycle is over. Cosmic timing tells us it is time to come out of the closet and enjoy being freely feminine because the men need some proof that softness, genuine softness, tenderness, compassion, honesty, courage, truth, perfection can be lived in the flesh in the world, and in the family, community and government. The men don’t believe it because they haven’t seen it yet. They must see it role modeled in action. I remember a few scenarios where I expressed my truth and my husbands enjoyed it. Feminine truth is one such virtue they are waiting for. They don’t like for us to surrender ourselves to them. It puts added burden and pressure on them. (Received 8/25/19)
8/26/21 - We have to work at it to stay in this reality
During early morning wakeup time, struggling to become conscious, I asked a question: "Do I have to put so much effort into being here in body? Or can I just go with the spacious flow that is so natural for me? Why is it important to have a personal physical identity anyway?" The answer came in my mind: “Of course you do! When you went into the light in 1976 you lost your personal physical identity and had to work at rejoining the earth reality. Bob helped you [my late husband]. Relationships, intimate relationships, help you to ground into earth reality. It is a necessary evil to stay in the earth reality, otherwise you lose it. You lose the connection to this reality, this dimension of life. Many people don’t want to connect with this reality, or can’t because they have not developed a method that is practical, in a uniform manner. You have to build your identity and your knowledge in how to do it, up through the levels so that your life here is coherent and a base is established to make it easier. Many people don’t do that. They don’t know how. For most people their education is lacking. Your work with intimacy through swinging and sex has given you a solid base because you had the grounding in the light first before beginning. Then you were able to take it to the next level (up the spine to higher levels) because you were able to FEEL what was not a right vibration for you, what was not a good fit for you. You were able to detect the difference. It was coherent to you, you were equipped to handle it. And the longer you stayed in duality, you continued to test the waters of the 'other' vibrations around you that you were exposed to, and compare them with your own true comforting vibrations."
Q: So every morning when I wake up I’m lying here trying to re-attach with THIS personal identity, THIS body and THIS timeline, otherwise I am a groggy and out of sorts, kind of lost with hardly no vitality. So THIS is what gives me vitality? By tuning into THIS body? That’s what I do in the morning lying here in bed trying to find some reason to move. Some connection.
Answer: "Yes! Vitality flows through your connection with this earth identity, this earth dimension is the dimension you are anchored into."
&nbsGood morning! The most difficult part of what is happening right now, is the tendencity towards human curiosity. Do not go there! The war and the chaos is being caused by people's lack of inner light, in-lightenment. When you have learned how to focus on the light in your heart more often, you will reconnect with the positive and most beautiful light that you are already. YOU ARE LIGHT! You are your own consciousness. If your consciousness is more on human affairs, then you are not connected to your God Self. The majority of people are focused on the external world, the world outside of their own feelings and knowings. You are the light of the one consicousness that governs the universe. Everything is living off that one consciousness. You can't escape it no matter how hard you try. You can even kill yourself but you can't escape the fact that you are a cell in the body of the ONE creative love and intelligence that maintains the universe.
But you've (we've) been covered over during this lifetime with programs that make you (us) want to interact FIRST with the outside world. Then maybe later when everything is finished and done and you have some time left over, you might spend a little time in going within to your Godself, your real self. This is what we humans have been doing right along and it's the wrong approach. We've got it backwards. We should be checking in with our inner God light FIRST in the morning and every so often throuoghout the day to re-establish a strong firm connection with the fact - THE FACT - that you are God consciousness first, last and always. Everything is already right and perfect with your world. YOUR world but you have forgotten that and lost the connection. We all have. That's why we're here --- to remember it and get back in touch with it.
Forget everyone else's worlds. They have to create their own world for themselves. They are part of the one God consciousness too, but it's their responsibility to get back in touch. That is why the chaos in the outside world. The outside world is disrupted and everyone's world is not going so well because they haven't learned how to reconnect with their first and always immortal God self. This is why people should meditate for time periods throughout the day. It doesn't have to be long but we have to set an agenda. We have to do the work and set time aside. It feels ridiculous to the modern man because he has totally lost the connection. Women are better at it but men can do the same thing. I have been doing that. I have created my own agenda and routine. My own routine. It is separate and apart from my husband's routine. Included in my routine is to see HIM as perfect too. I help him through my sacred work. Because i want a nice environment to live in so I must help him. But it has nothing to do with anyone else's routine.
I have mentors on the Ascended Master plane. They guide me through feelings and knowings and urges. They are part of my consciousness because I believe in them and i talk to them and I know they are there through thought alone. I am feeling very positive about the world I live in. It will be over soon, the war. At least in my world it will be. it is already. And more and more people are getting it. Thisis the quantum physics you are studying. It is how you "see" it. You can change your world by "seeing" it in the eyes of the Masters and you ARE a master if you believe these things. The Masters are telling me things that are positive and bright and dazzlingling forever beautiful. The mystics of history discovered this and danced in rapture while the people stared in amazement. They knew the truth. I know that the war is going to be over soon. In MY world, the war is going to be over soon. However, in my husband's opinion, he is very worried and I can't change him. He is creating his own world, how he sees the world, so I will not try to persuade him. Instead I love him and his Higher God Self to keep feeding him.
Do focus on your heart. See it as a physical heart, for it is. But it has an eternal light in it. The heart is the number one organ in your body. Keep focusing there because it feeds the rest of the body with light through it's pumping of blood which carries the light through the cells of your body. And picture - visualize - above your head is a sun on invisible planes. A sun that shines more brilliant that the sun in the sky. That is your Mighty I AM Presence. Your individualized I AM Presence that has your own unique signature, different from everyone else's signature. It is you as a unique and separate individual called "I AM". It is you for eternity and forever. This invisible to the naked eye is shining dazzling brightly there above you and from it is descending a stream of life - your life stream - composed of particles called electrons by the Masters. The electrons are alive and conscious and need direction. You are the one directing them, so direct them by focusing on your heart. The light of your I AM Presence is coming down into your body through top of your head and down your spine into the earth where it becomes one with mother Earth's light. She feeds you as the Mother of your life in this body. It is feeding you with this positive light. She is positive too.
Spend at least 5 minutes, better 10, while imagining this, picturing it, connecting with it, reaffirming it, solidifying it into your brain and memory. As you spend time picturing it becomes a part of your physical reality. It is real for everyone but very few spend the time solidying it into theier current life which is physical. We need to feed the physical body with this knowledge of who we REALLY are. It is the eternal immortal YOU creating the world you life in. It is true and it is fact. Most people do not know this. Spend just a little time imagining it throughout the day. Create it in your mind's eye. As you imagine it you are connecting with it and creating it. You are connecting your worried human consciousness with your real, true, God consciousness which is perfect and can be nothing less than perfect. You as a master in training have been experimenting with less than perfect. Now is the time to change back to perfect. Picture perfection. Think perfection even as you are doing the mundane things that you do. You have always been perfect. In just 5 minutes you can reconnect, it is just a little bit every time, but that little bit gains momentum. And then go about your daily business and your daily business begins to pick up and become more positive. For you DO have a mission here. You came here for a reason. Go in and out often to reconnect with that perfection from which you descended, and carry it forward. Know the brilliance that you are and carry it forward, just a little at a time. Reaffirm and re-strengthen that bond and see if you don't make a difference. Leave the war to other people to ponder about it. Carry o with your OWN mission in a positive way.
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