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Integrating the divine feminine and divine masculine - the heart is the new base line

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​Archives 9/22/16 to 9/27/17

9/27/17 - Recovering from Irma has been a struggle but I am happy to report that I will survive and my husband will too. After six days with no power or water, we moved to a hotel two hours north, as all the hotels were either closed or filled locally. There we stayed in relative luxury for another 6 days. On the 12th day after the hurricane we came home to what looked like a war-torn area. The following is a letter I sent out to family and friends to report on our emotional wellness. We will postpone the planned October 7th love club gathering, which was meant to be our first love club meet. We need time to recover and clean up.

Yesterday I went shopping to restock bare refrigerators and was gone 7 hours, I was barely walking when I came home. Hubby unloaded the car and I laid down and slept for an hour and a half. Then had a bite to eat amidst the bags of stuff, still chaos everywhere - I just can't get to it - and went upstairs to bed. I woke around 2 am my body full of aches and stuck energy. I got the Tiger Balm and the DMSO roll on. My beloved had applied both the day before on my back which helped. I put more Tiger Balm on my lower back and all up and down my right leg and especially the knee, hip and groin - energy blocked there - and then rubbed the DMSO over on top of it. Then I had a one-hour discussion with higher forces - and listened! - and I was shown how to move energy. Stuck energy is a major problem.

I slept good after that and got up feeling pretty limber. But while showering I thought to take another Epsom Salts bath - my third one since coming back. It was amazing. I felt SO good, light and limber when I came downstairs, no aches, no pains, feeling free as a feather, and immediately started sinking as I came downstairs - back into third dimensional activities again. Just moving around the kitchen doing tasks like putting things away left out the night before, clearing space, floors a mess, kitties mewing, and fixing something to eat - this closed down all the nice 5D floating energy and I felt trapped and imprisoned again in an achy body, heavy all over again. But not quite. I am managing to maintain some of it. I am learning to take time out and breathe 5D air and THEN get up and do 3D tasks and then go lie down and breathe 5D air, and then get up and do 3D tasks again.

The old world/new world is fluctuating strongly, back and forth in me. We (the Earth and the people) are all ascending out of the third dimension into the fifth dimension which is peaceful, harmonious and beautiful. Higher realms are there all the time but we don't know it because we don't practice it. Each person is on his/her own journey of learning this and coping with dramatic fluctuations. It's sort of like a roller coaster. Earth changes are happening everywhere, inside people too. In order to work the way I have always worked before, I have to shut down the peace and comfort in confine myself to the old way of doing things - like making breakfast, washing dishes, feeding the kitties and a thousand other labor intensive things that need doing.

These things used to be important to me, to maintain order, to stay alive. Now they are meaningless. It makes me not want to be here. I'd rather not be alive here. But here I am so I am learning to take time out to and sit or lie down and breathe 5D air of peace and comfort. It is my new normal and I need it to survive. I am sure many people in war-torn countries and disaster situations are having the same types of experiences. I just don't really care any more if the house is a mess, or if everything is in turmoil and chaos, as long as I am in peace and comfort and breathing free. That's all that matters. It makes me feel light as a feather and actually euphoric. I told Doug this morning that I am no longer a resident of the third dimension. I am a full-time resident of the fifth dimension so get used to the fact I won't be able to do the things I used to do. His response: "I'm changing too!" We are in synch. He is making all the practical applications that need to be done under the circumstances, whatever they are, I'm not paying any attention to what he's doing. It's a man thing.

I had an interesting experience the night after Irma struck - Irma struck Sunday, it could have been Sunday night, I can't recall now - Lying in bed about ready to go to sleep I was suddenly out of body and part of the chaos out in the wild, experiencing the aftermath of the storm. It was just a flash. It happened in that inbetween state of sleep and wake, but it was like being dipped into hell. There was so much hate and anger and fury that it was visceral. No words to describe. For an instant I was one with the raw, angry, terrible vengence of the elemental rebellion and knew what they felt. It was horrible. We call it nature's cleansing but it was not nature in her beautiful state, but nature as a wild tormented beast thrashing about, lashing about in a crazed condition. This was after the hurricane had passed. Outwardly the wind had died and was still, but the thrashing was still taking place in the invisible.

At the same instant that I was one with the thrashing elements I realized that I do not belong here and I heard the words, "Thank God, I'll be going home soon." Flashes of various homes came to me then, one after the other. Places that I've lived in in this life time. But which home? I wondered. Where is home? I came fully awake to ponder this. I reasoned that maybe I would leave the body and the earth world and die. But as I contemplated this, suddenly I felt myself saying, NO!!!!  No way!  I am not going to leave here. I am going to stay right here and help. I have made a commitment to see this transition through to the end and the end is almost here. I am not going to leave. This was such a firm resolve. This is just not big enough to scare me out of here.

So now I am back on track again. But there are forces at work, intense chaos and turmoil, that are playing on everyone now in war-torn and disaster areas. I am sure everyone is having to make that decision whether to stay or leave the body. It's just too much trouble, too much pain. It's a soul decision made deeper than consciously. Everyone makes such soul decisions at certain points in their life. I resolved to stay. The feeling came from some place deeper than my rational mind. I feel that it has made a signficant impact on my healing process. Because spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and physically too, I got very low. It's the feeling of not wanting to be here, not caring any more to be here. I could picture my sister Shirley at that point and her giving up with the pain she was experiencing. And in fact I had a visitation with Shirley one night around 2 am at the hotel one night. I was so stiff and sore I couldn't sleep, I couldn't move, it was perhaps my deepest point in the journey. I went out on the balcony for a long time - it's a pretty place -and just sat there without thought. Suddenly Shirley was present in my mind. I started talking with her. I'll tell more later about that. But she helped. Now my spirit is strong. My body needs some work though (!) but I have help and guidance. Inner work is a major priority now.

Meanwhile, my husband is coping very well. It has been hard on him and he is doing the man thing of filing reports and doing what needs to be done to pull things together again, like filing for auto insurance, FEMA for disaster relief, house insurance to replace the screen room, where to get help to clear the land. It's too big for us old people. And there are power surges so we need an electrician. But he is focused on doing these things, plus he is taking lots of naps to keep himself emotionally peaceful and calm. This is a major part of disasters - staying emotionally and mentally calm. Everything is turned topsy turvy. The body suffers because no one is giving sane orders. It was bad. But while our house is messed up, we are OK. We have a good partnership sharing the peace and comfort between ourselves. It is stabilizing work. So many people forget to stabilize and suffer worse by running around crazy, forgetting that the first job is to take root in calmness. Clean the mind first. I've noticed a lot of people expressing crazy, while others express calm. How to do this is a lesson that our world badly needs because we were trained - programmed - during our growing up years, to work, work, work and not daydream. We were punished for daydreaming. We have been programmed to be worker slaves, not the beautiful dreamers which we, in fact are, which raises the hope and the spirit and the excitement that keep the mind and body healthy and vitally alive, instead of susceptible to depression.

Well, I guess I have meandered around this subject long enough, so I'll quit for now. This is an update on our emotional well beings. We are good, thanks for asking!

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9/8/17 - The Love Club's first massage swap for loving couples Sat., October 7, 2017. $20 pp.
Hello everyone!  You are invited to attend our very first massage swap for loving couples. It is going to take place in my home out on rural pastureland in North Collier County, Naples. Imagine, if you will, arriving at the door and being hugged through the front door by me and my partner David. We will have four massage tables set up in various rooms in the house, completely equipped with sheets, towels and lotion. We are friendly and love to host small gatherings. My husband who is not interested in massage will also be here in the background as protector. This gathering will be no more than 8 couples. A total of 16 people. It starts at 4 pm and goes until at least 8 pm but it may last longer. There will be light snacks and drinks to tide over the hunger pangs.
 
The first thing we'll do is give you time to mill around and meet the others who are here, and also have a tour of the house to locate the bathrooms and where to put your things. If you are the first couple here, then you can help us greet the next couple who arrives and give them a tour of the house. We do not know yet how many will be here, because this is only the first one and sometimes people wait to see how the first one goes before attending. And, yes, there will be more to come. They are scheduled for the first of every month on into the future. The schedule of dates is posted at the bottom. Mark your calendar if interested.   .
 
The second thing we'll do is have a sit down introduction circle. We feel it is important to get to know everyone face-to-face and put a feeling to each face. Emotional feelings are what helps us to "read" someone. We read people better through our feelings and emotional responses than we do through eye and ear.
The third thing we'll do is have a discussion and demonstration about massage. David will demonstrate on someone on a massage table. This type of massage is loving and it feels sensual and is very, very nurturing and healing, but it is not sexual. We will not go in that direction so everyone can relax. I have to say this because some will want to go there, causing stress and anticipation, and others will NOT want to go there, causing stress and anticipation. That is why we keep it safely non-sexual. David is our in-house massage therapist. He is trained in all methods of massage and channels heavenly divine love.
 
The fourth thing we'll do is choose partners for the massage. Massage swaps are one-on-one. Two people to a table. You give to someone and you receive from that same person. You will be asked to choose a partner other than your own mate. It is important that you are OK with this so discuss it first before accepting. If you really need to stay together for the massage, you might as well stay home. By sharing massage with a stranger you'll step outside your comfort zone and enlarge your ability to interact intimately with others. This is a test. It is the price of admission to join the Love Club. There will be some flexibility in choosing massage partners. We will do everything we can to make sure everyone is comfortable and no one is pressured, but this is the whole point of the Love Club - stretching your boundaries and diminishing fear of intimate touch. Since there will only be four massage tables operating (we're limited by space) half of the group will massage while the other half will be in discussion. Then they'll swap places. I'll ask for questions ahead of time. They can be anonymous. No one will know it was you who asked it. You'll have a chance to ask any question you like, including very personal questions which are awkward to ask. We are equipped to handle it all.
 
Please reply directly to me by clicking HERE to ask questions or to register to attend on October 7. Each couple are potential friends and I'll treat them that way. We have single friends who would love to attend but at the moment we need to limit it to couples to assure gender balance. We can pair two singles together on a first-come number basis. Just let me know if you want to come without a partner. I'll keep track. I am personally hosting and monitoring the list of people. We will ask $20 pp to help with costs, pay on arrival. Free to a couple who can arrive early and stay late to help.

Dates for Massage Swaps
$20/pp couples
        
Sat., Oct. 7, 2017 - 4 to 8 pm
Sat., Nov. 4, 2017 - 4 to 8 pm
Sat., Dec. 2, 2017 - 4 to 8 pm
Sat., Jan. 6, 2018 - 4 to 8 pm
Sat., Feb. 3, 2018 - 4 to 8 pm
Sat., Mar. 3, 2018 - 4 to 8 pm
Sat., Apr. 7, 2018 - 4 to 8 pm
Sat., May 5, 2018 - 4 to 8 pm
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9/7/17 - Do not be afraid. Your fear is your very best friend because when you pass through the doorway of your fear, you literally change yourself on a cellular level.  Walk into the mouth of the lion.  That is your most powerful and rapid transformation.  That's what the vision quest is all about.  You are put into situations where you must rely only on what is inside you.  The person faces his demons.  You move through very quickly.  The civilized structure put a stop to this because they wanted to keep fear in its place, to frighten you. They wanted you to be afraid.  So, embrace the thing that has kept you from moving - that which you fear the most.
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9/6/17 - Love is contained not in the physical body itself but in the consciousness that resides in the physical body, and is moving through the physical body like electricity moves through a light bulb lighting it up and casting a radiance around it. Individually, you and I, each person is that unique consciousness that is streaming non-stop through our body. We are more than the physical flesh and bone. Much of what we radiate out into the atmosphere is coming from what we are conscious of. And most of it is not constructive. We listen to the news and we listen to friends' complaints and we ourselves are unhappy and live in fear and in stress, which means our consciousness is DESTRUCTIVE. We are all putting destructive radiation out into the atmosphere. Our thoughts and our feelings need to be raised up to a more positive, constructive, intelligent and refined attitude. Consciousness means attention. Whatever you put your attention on, there goes your destructive or CONstructive radiation out into the world. Into the world that you are building around you as you walk, talk and move about. You create your own reality.

It is no wonder that the earth is hurting and in pain and is now revolting and rebelling and thrashing out with storms, earthquakes and fire. Love is contained not in the physical body itself but in the consciousness that is streaming through the body right now. Right this very instant. The love is not contained in the physical body of the tree, love is contained in the consciousness of the tree. Love is not contained in the body of the fish or the blade of grass, it is contained in the consciousness of the fish and the blade of grass. Consciousness is everywhere existent. Consciousness is the sea of life that enters into a human body and becomes personal as soon as it becomes conscious of being human. But we humans are also conscious of love. Or are we? We come from love so love is built into our physicality, but are we conscious of love? Do we reflect love? Do we express love in our words? Our consciousness is our life force. Our consciousness builds our personal world around us. A loving consciousness builds a loving world around a person.  An angry consciousness builds a world that is less desirable, less happy. It is easy to understand when you look at it from that angle.

I am focusing these days on love because it is the end of my tedious and uncomfortable journey through this life. It has been quite an adventure but I have arrived at the final conclusion. The conclusion is that love is all there is. It is being validated for me in many ways and I am writing about it here. I am blogging about it and I have posted a page called "The Love Club". A lot of people will think that it's about sex and on one hand it is and on the other hand it isn't. Because love is contained in the consciousness of an individual, not in the flesh body. Where is your attention focused right now?
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8/31/17 - Dates have been posted for the The Love Club massage swaps - Click HERE

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8/11/17 -  Words shape our reality. We need to introduce some new words. Old words of yesterday and centuries past created our world as it is today by everyone's common agreement. While it is slowly changing, it is important to note that words are a significant factor in changing our physicality and our physical limitations. New words create a new reality. It's not the actual word itself but the emotion that the word contains and carries out to its mark. It's the FEELINGS of the words that create our world, our home environment, work environment, towns, cities and countries. The TV, news, mags, books, internet, entertainment, everything that broadcasts words is either re-affirming the old or introducing the new, moment by moment. When we use new words with new meaning that is more emotionally elevating, we are changing our world for the better because it is our emotions that weigh us down or lift us up. Words that create worry or fear are heavy. Words that make us wonder or consider, lift us up. It's subtle. Some people don't bother to wonder over something they don't understand and flip it off. Others will get it if they consider it. That is not a judgment. It is a filtering mechanism. It's how we attract the kinds of people we want to us. That's why I write on this blog.

I am introducing not just new words, but new meanings by how they are strung together. It brings new light into the reader. Meaningful emotions are involved with the way I string the messages together. They are in a formation that expresses something. One word after another specific word carries forward and upwad an emotional feeling. It lines up in a slightly different way. It is coded to attract certain people who are on the same feeling wave length. This changing of our world is going on rapidly right now. Some people are not paying attention to the change and prefer to reject change. They prefer to see the old words spoken in the old way to reaffirm what they knew and are attached to. But old words used in old lineups tend to be heavy and weigh people down. A lot of us are bored with the old way. We are trying to lighten our world. We do it with words that contain our feelings. Truth works that way.

Telling someone a half truth in order to maintain a status quo is heavy energy. We all do it. But if I try to stretch that half truth into a whole truth, I actually can make changes in my environment like I did this morning. I won't tell you the details, but it worked. I was in just the right state of mind to tell the whole truth instead of fudging my feelings and telling only a half truth. The whole truth altered my experience. I frankly was amazed! I must try this again. I urge others to try it. We have learned to compromise in order to fit in and make things work. But what if it works better by telling the whole truth instead of a lie or half truth?

It's the same way with blame. There is blame going on around me. The blame is  when someone refuses to accept responsibility that something irritating that happened was attracted to you by you, yourself. Everything that affects me has been attracted by me for a reason I don't want to look at and so I assign blame to someone else. Someone else did it. And yet, I drew it to myself because I needed to resolve this lack in me once and for all. It keeps coming back up so it's time I dealt with it. If I try to blame someone else for it, I will successfully divert it now, but it will pop back up again sometime in the future. It'll keep coming because I'm not accepting it. The answer is to accept responsibility for anything irritating or "bad" that happens to me. Worse, I cause resentment and retaliation because most people won't accept blame and an argument follows. It's a negative when someone throws blame around.

I've learned this. I've learned to accept negative situations and not blame other people for something "bad" that happens to me. And ever since I've learned that, "bad" things don't happen to me any more. It's an interesting phenomena. Interesting things to me. Challenging things happen. Opportunities happen. Excitement happens. Life happens. But "bad" does not happen any more. This is a learned skill. I'm not "better" than anyone else. I've just been around longer. I've learned how to do it.

Yesterday I posted a message on the page, THE LOVE CLUB on this website. It's interesting. Since launching that page several weeks ago there have been a lot of hits. People are curious. They wonder about it. It looks interesting. Let's see what THE LOVE CLUB is all about. There was nothing on the page for several weeks. It just said, "Coming soon!" But yesterday I posted a lengthy message. Most people will not read it because it's not a brief message. It's not fast enough to hook the busy person's attention. It's not a quick fix. I've been told for years that my articles are too long but it hasn't daunted me. If anything, I have grown longer articles. That's because I'm putting feelings into my words. I am putting more feelings into my words than I used to. I'm broadcasting more of my Self out into the world. I am changing my personal up close environment by doing that. I'm filling up my own energy field, my aura, with my OWN feelings instead of letting other peoples' energies infiltrate me.

It is like the weeds around my house. They pop up. I cut them down and pull them out, and they keep growing back and popping up. They are invisible to me until they break through the top soil and I see them. That's the way the emotions work. The feelings inside a human being is the love inside the human being that has been repressed or suppressed. It would be love if it were expressed, but it turns to not-love when it is repressed. It takes on a darker color and becomes invisible. And so, while it can't be seen or felt for the moment, it weighs heavy. It's a bog-down situation. And it builds up inside. It can't be felt but it grows and grows because it's a seed of a feeling that should have been let go and like, gone with the wind. But when it's held back it becomes so strong that eventually it feels like you're going to explode. That's when a person takes notice. That's why I write lengthy articles. I'm expressing feelings that, literally, no one wants to hear. So I am talking to the air around me. Anyone can pick up on it. I am releasing it into the world. I am no longer hiding myself. There are no more secrets.

Maybe I am influencing the feelings in others. I don't know. I am altered by others when I read the articles that capture my attention and so probably others are likewise being influenced. We are all in the world together and we are all influencing each other in ways that are good and light, or negative and heavy. That's the way I weight the words I read. Do I feel lighter? Happier? Freer? Joyful? Yes, I stop and read this. So if someone doesn't get that feeling from my writings, they will flip the page and move on. That is good. They are choosing what they want to influence them. We all have free choice and we have to be responsible for what we let into our energy field. I have gotten so much through the written words of others. I have been lightened by the words of others - INlightened - by the words that others have written. I pay attention to how I feel when I am reading. And sometimes I want a heavier thrust to my emotions. It takes all kinds. But I get the message better through my emotions than I do through my intellect. Words create our reality and our immediate surroundings.

So, as I ramble on with these thoughts, I am sharing with you certain information about myself. They are my feelings in a certain formation. They are strung together in order of emotional content rather than intellectual content. Some people find my writings spacey and whoo-whoo. That's how the ascended masters dictate. It would seem they are being random, but they're not. Over time I have learned how to "read" the ascended masters dictations when they come through someone reliable and is a clear channel. There is light - enlightened information - in every sentence that one would not get if they scanned it briefly. You have to link one word with the next with the next on down the line to the period at the end of the sentence. And then you go on to the next sentence and see that the enlightened message keeps going on through the page to the next page and the next.

And hidden in this message, for those who have continued to read through this, is an invitation to join David and me next Wednesday, from 1 to 4 pm for an informal chat at my house. Strictly informal. Just spontaneous chat session. We are beginning to gather those who resonate with the messages I've been writing. We want to have people join us to plan with us and soundboard with us, sort of like a steering committee, who want to feel it, who want to feel part of a loving and uplifting community who is interested in tantra. I understand someone in Hong Kong might read this or South America who will not be able to attend, but perhaps someone in Naples will read this and want to join David and me Wednesday from 1 to 4 pm. We want to meet some local people who themselves have dreams and want to share the love that is within. David arrives at my house from 1 to 4 pm every Wednesday. It's informal. We just hang out together.

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8/1/17 - Sex has been long maligned as a bad thing and so it was necessary to have a sexual revolution that began in the 40’s with key clubs, when military men returned from foreign lands with an expanded consciousness. The 40‘s key clubs grew into the 60’s sexual revolution when women were gifted with the pill and they joined the men in burning their bras and limitations. Happy drugs, hippy days, San Francisco, Woodstock, free love - it was all a necessary evolution to break the chains that surrounded sexual shame and guilt. The 60’s grew into the 80’s and swinging came out of the closet via the internet with adult social clubs popping up online and nudist clubs becoming socially accepted. Even seniors in their 60’s and 70’s whose parents used to retire to nursing homes at their age started signing up online. Swing conventions reached a peak in the ‘80’s and ‘90’s and now in 2017 there is a noticeable decline in swing conventions and more seekers signing up on SLS and other swing/dating sites who are less focused on sex and more focused on making friends - open-minded friends that might be able to evolve further. What is happening?

What’s happening is sex is becoming boring.  It reached a peak and the sexual revolution is declining. It served us well. It elevated us to higher ground, as a wave would do for a surfer, and it came down on shore with more awareness and discrimination. Non-discriminating sex is no longer acceptable to mature couples. The old anonymous sex that was so much fun in dark group rooms flailing about in total abandon (without drugs, mind you) is swiftly going out of style. It is becoming crude where once it was liberating. We are at a higher place and we see through clearer eyes with more discernment. A white noise can be sensed growing in the background among our people. A white noise that is silent in tone but you can feel the vibrations when you put your ear to the ground. Like when you put your ear to the iron rails you can hear a distant train approaching. 

The white noise is a yearning in the feelings of people. It can't be explained logically because we haven’t been here before. We‘ve never experienced this particular location before in the grand scheme of things. This is new ground. The white noise sounds like (to me), “Is this all there is?” This white noise can be seen vocalized on swing sites like SLS. “We’re not looking for one-night stands.” And, “Seeking friendship and open-minded friends.” And “We are happy with each other and looking for friends in and out of the bedroom.” And, “Getting to know one another first makes for better sex.”

As a culture, generally speaking, we are looking at sex through different eyes today. We see from a more elevated plateau with a longer vision than our parents and grandparents could see. Can you even imagine your parents or grandparents seeing as we see today? Each generation is a little higher up the mountain and therefore more advanced. A little more sophisticated. We, as a culture, in one lifetime (mine) we have crawled out of the prehistoric mud of shame and guilt over sex, and we are standing at a brink with anticipation, feeling around for this new direction, sexually speaking.

So, can sex get any better? A resounding YES! But not by doing it the old way. Not by going down on more people faster with more rudimentary force. That would be immature and going backward. No, there is more to this whole sex business that has yet to be discovered. I have been studying Tantra. Tantra contains hidden information that most everyone has missed. Those who DO know about this hidden information are keeping it to themselves and not revealing it. This hidden information is subtle, so virtually everyone is missing it. You can start receiving it by turning eyes skyward, upward towards the stars. Especially at night. You can do it with the sun too, but there is something magical, something grounding, something visceral, something akin to love that is felt by looking up at the stars. There is information coming from the stars.

The stars bring imagination and softness. When we gaze upward toward the stars at night, we wonder. There are questions that start to form. Our minds retreat to the back row of the theatre and leave us open to see beyond ourselves, beyond what we know every day with our conscious minds. There IS more and we can feel it then, in the nighttime when the sun goes down because daytime glare is too bright. There is more when we look up and it comes to us when we recede from ego power and allow ourselves to drift to higher planes of imagination. We experience it in subtle ways. You can‘t put your finger on it. You can‘t describe it. It is a feeling impossible to identify. It comes as a knowing. It just is. It is just there and you don’t know how you know. And it’s soft. It is not pushy. It blooms like a night flower inside of you. It is not an interference in our daytime way of life. It just is. It’s there and coming closer. And sometimes it actually touches you.

David and I call it love or ascension, but really, no name can be assigned to it. And each of us experiences it differently.  David and I don’t claim to know all about it. We have simply teamed up to do something with it. We call it love and, because in our culture of current belief systems about marriage and fidelity, monogamy and cheating, swinging and sex, and violence and abuse, and all the other unfinished things we struggle with in our personal relationships, we needed to have a name so we call it “The Love Club“. We settled on that name after two years of discussion during which semantics bogged us down. I think we ended up calling it “The Love Club” simply because it‘s simple and leaves you wondering.

I’ve posted a page on the Anakosha website called “The Love Club” but nothing is on it yet. It’s waiting. We are starting to use new words, like kundalini. The old words don’t work any more. For example, the word “sex” is boring to me, and to a lot of other people too, women especially. Actually, just hearing the word “sex” is to watch eyes roll around in sockets, like, “Oh, no, not that again.” Because people everywhere are yearning for something more whole-body. Yet there are others who haven’t even begun their sexual journey yet and sex is something they look forward to. The diversity among people is astounding. That is why “The Love Club” must be open-ended and tolerant of all. It is intended to be loving and to open-minded. It is intended to provide information that is sorely needed. Ancient mystery schools and goddess temples taught sacred rituals. The Love Club will employ some of these.

There will be opportunities to meet others and together, learn these new applications and grow together. There is so much more information about love that will enhance sex than can be told in words because love is a feeling and you have to practice it with someone. Knowing about love will enhance lovemaking skills and relationships. We won’t engage in sex at the Love Club, but we will pack in some powerful techniques which will build self-esteem and confidence.  
 
I will be back tomorrow with some new insight. I get new insight every morning after being in the dream state all night long. You get new insight too every night, even if you are not aware of it. You are learning things while your body sleeps. You may be unconscious of it yet but it is a grass roots thing. In other words, it is growing underground, beneath your conscious mind and one day soon it will pop into sight and you’ll be aware of something that makes you feel, “Ahhhh! I knew that!” And another piece of the puzzle will click into place.

There is more to you than you are giving yourself credit for. You are more valuable that you know. You are wise beyond logic and more noble and more perfect than you realize. You are from the stars. You have information in your cells that have come from the stars that has been locked in by restrictive taboos and it can’t get out. But there are ways to unlock the internal codes. They can be accessed, and love is fundamental to triggering those codes. Loving touch and loving ministration applied to all situations, unlocks the doors. Love - and the freedom to express love - will bring us back to our own natural state of comfort.

I have posted two links at the bottom of the Massage page today. One to some private letters I have written to people about David‘s Tantric Massage. Not letters FROM people, only my responses to them. Anyone who writes a letter to me may be assured of privacy. Your letter is sacred, unless you want to be published. In that case, I will publish it. When someone writes to me (Anakosha) I get all excited because they are giving me permission to talk about things that I have known but have been unable to speak of, for ages. They’ve been unacceptable to the times. But when individuals ask, then I can talk and write about it. That’s how life works. It‘s a universal law. It's called the law of non-interference. The prime directive of Star Trek.

And so, the next time someone asks YOU about something that you have been shy about telling what you know, you are actually being given permission to speak about it. It is then OK for you to tell the truth about what you know. Don’t by shy. Tell the truth because the truth will set you free. There is a great yearning to be set free and this is partly where that comes from. It is the yearning to be yourself.  So when next someone asks, tell what you know, with wisdom, of course. You just might trigger a natural response in that other person which will surprise you and enhance you. There is more in people that is locked up than we realize, and they too are waiting to be recognized and appreciated. We are all united on a level that runs deep underground. We draw from the same nourishment, and that nourishment is love. It comes form Mother Earth. Like grass roots are connected, so are we connected to one another on this deep inner level, and an enlightened intelligence and wisdom is a part of it. We are wise beyond our few known years on Earth. This wisdom and intelligence wants to be set free. It is time to release. It is time to reveal the truth of who you are and what you know, wisely and without hurt to another. That is why the Love Club is coming into being soon.

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7/29/17 - With love and a sense of liberation and freedom I posted a new page on this website called "The Love Club" a couple of days ago. Nothing is in it yet, but it is a beginning. It is waiting. The feeling behind it is that of a mother's maternal need to hug everyone free, and it's backed with a fierce determination to override all obstruction. There is a softness coming that is natural to everyone. As I search once more through the massive quantities of journals I've kept since that day in 1976 when kundalini awakened, I am re-discovering the original intention. I have been waylaid, due to forces beyond my understanding, and this re-search is bringing me back in touch with the original plan for Anakosha.

I always believed that Anakosha was my higher self speaking to me, and I still believe that today. The name was given to me in a deep meditational trance back in 1993 after my husband died. It was during a healing session and I was out of body when I was presented with the word "Anakosha" written slowly across a black void in red and gold firey flames. I was awash in the name Anakosha. It consumed me. And then, after that, I resumed normal life and went on along my path, just like everyone else.

But besides Anakosha, which is my real self or higher self who is always impressing me and trying to express through me (and not always succeeding), there is another guide, an ascended master by the name of Djwal Khul. He is commonly known as DK for he guides many people. He was a Tibetan Buddhist when he was embodied centuries ago and, unbeknownst to a lot of people, he was a Tantric master. Thus, because of my sexual lifestyle and struggles between love and hate that it has caused in me, it is to DK that I go for guidance. The feeling I get from him is compassion. That's his calling card feeling. And he is always there when I need to ask a question. He usually starts answering me before I have finished asking. I can tell he is interrupting me because of his use of the word "you". Up to that point I am using the word "I" as in "I am confused." And "I don't know what to do." And then my thoughts take a turn to "you". I found a journal entry yesterday from  2015,which I'd like to share with you. My thoughts turned to...

“The man-woman issues that you experience and continue to experience are actually an inner journey as you seek understanding about yourself. You learn through bumping up against what is NOT comfortable to you. You play with this for awhile, struggling with it, and if you are successful in accepting that this really is not what you want (some people never discover this) then you will shed it and not do it again. Of course the evolutionary journey is about discovering this process in a kindly way so that you do not hurt other people in the process. So when you reject them you find ways to let them down easily. This is the hard part. What you are learning about yourself is what doesn’t fit comfortably with you, and what does.. What doesn’t feel right to you? Do you continue to hash it around and try to make it work? This prolongs the pain and the struggle. What feels good to you on all levels, will cause elation and joy. if it feels good on only one level but not the other two or three levels, It does not cause elation, but rather a sense of a pulling towards something as if that something will give you completion. For example, a piece of chocolate cake might taste good to your tongue, but your mind knows it is wrong for your diet and your feeling causes a feeling of guilt. The man-woman issues are the bumping up against energies of other people, to show you that there are many energies that exist in your life and it is a matter of selecting those energies that complete you and fulfill you, rather than trying to make something fit when it doesn’t fit you at all. Like a dress two sizes too small just won’t give you a good feeling. The man-woman issues are a journey in self discovery but many people do not give themselves enough credit to believe their inner intuition. They may have a gut feeling that this person is not right for them, but they try to make it work because they don’t believe their feeling. They believe MORE in being courteous and trying to fit in. This is being dishonest to yourself when you do this. It is damaging not only to yourself but to the other people you are engaging with because they too are not feeling comfortable. If you’re not feeling good about the connection, then they are not feeling good about the connection. Elation and a joyful happy feeling is always the sign that you are doing the right thing.

"The man-woman issues and struggles that you have pertaining to sex is your path of learning about what fits with you and what doesn’t. The discovery part is what doesn’t fit. Trust that and release it and let it go. You will move on when you become consciously aware of this. To remain unwilling to accept this is how you remain in the struggle. Evolve your awareness by trusting your sense of good and bad. By discovering what makes you feel bad and releasing it or taking steps to release it (it may take time) you are discovering the truth of your inner self. It is a discovery of awareness. It is not an outer world discovery. The outer world presents things to you one at a time. As if on parade these things and people come into your view. It is up to you to say “yes” or “no” to these persons and objects. You must decide what doesn’t fit with you. As you eliminate the not-self, you will be left with your authentic self. Your real self. That which is what has been called “the Knower”. This is the part of you that is eternal and lives on after death of the body to live again in another body, all the while gathering wisdom and understanding."

DK’s words were very clear.  I understood. This was in February 2015 and in May 2015 I told everyone that I was quitting the lifestyle. Within a week of my announcement to long-time lifestyle friends, I met David who has become a soul-mate friend on the journey to greater love - greater than personal love. The kind that awaits everyone as a next step on their path.
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7/26/17 -  Greetings to all my dear readers! I am flooded with information about Love today!  I can't keep up with it all. I am by-passing a lot of them, because there are simply too many. When I find myself skimming articles instead of absorbing the light from them (light is information) I know it’s time to be more selective in my reading. I learn by absorbing the light. When I just skim through beautiful articles of higher meaning, my eyes get it and my brain gets it but my FEELINGS don’t get it. Light remains unfelt. It is when I absorb the Light fully into my feelings, by taking the time to absorb the information that is hidden within and behind the word itself, that’s when the Love takes hold in me. I feel the Love within the information.

Love and Light seems to be flooding the planet hourly. It is lifting those who hear and see and know. It is bypassing those who do not hear or see and therefore do not know. The earth is in transition. I am in transition. Anakosha is in transition. You are in transition. We are all gaining higher ground. Any pain we feel is caused by resistance. What are we resisting? We are naturally Love and Light. We are made of Love and Light. If we are resisting we are fighting against our nature.

A woman contacted Anakosha last week. I get several messages through the Anakosha website every week. David and I went to meet a lovely lady and had such a delightful time. She subsequently had a massage session with David. David is a miracle worker. He channels divine love and light. You too can have a beautiful healing session with David. You can reach him through the contact page HERE. He does therapeutic massage and also Tantric Massage but the energy is the same.

Everybody we meet these days is an Anakosha contact. She lives somewhere else, not in Florida, as many Anakosha contacts come from around the country, even other countries as far away as Singapore, the United Kingdom, South Africa, Australia. I receive letters from both couples and singles seeking something. There is a something missing in the lives of virtually everyone, but most people don’t know how to find it. Men think it’s more meaning sex, women think it’s more meaningful love. Some want to know how to get it through the swing parties, which Anakosha speaks of fluently, and others want more loving connections and meaningful love encounters. Everyone is very different, depending upon their prior history going back many lifetimes. All of us are evolving. You, me, your husband, wife, and each alone, on our own, privately, in the inner levels of our soul. There is hunger within the heart for something more. The soul is parched. We are all seeking for something that stirs us. A fire? A hope? A vision? A connection?

You wouldn’t believe the stories I hear from people. I don’t post these letters because they are private and sacred. But sometimes I post my response. I just responded to a woman I've been communicating with for awhile. I keep talking about hosting a group here but I haven’t issued an invitation yet. Meanwhile she is struggling within herself over things she doesn’t understand. This is why I'm planning to host a gathering of like-minded people, but it’s not in right divine time yet. The energies are not quite right yet. I have an inner ear to the heavens and I see the smooth perfection of the higher realms. I see many people there moving and working and sending us thoughts of love to try to wake us up to our natural relaxed state. But we are so busy struggling and resisting that light. We feel guilty when we sit down and take time out. We feel we must keep working or we must keep helping or we must keep resisting the “bad guys”. There are many resistance projects in the world being labeled love and light and help, but they are all struggles. What David and I have agreed upon, is simply Love. Love not as in lovemaking, but simply Love. Love is not a personal relationship or a sexual relationship. Love is a selfless shining of goodness from ones heart. It is as natural as the sun that shines, and the water that flows downhill. We are Love and Light and we need to shine more naturally.

This is easier for women to do. And in fact the modern woman is being primed to be the leaders in helping to de-stress the world and bring calm. Women have been disempowered of their natural ability to shine love because they (we) have submitted to the male in our lives. The way for women to become empowered is to attune with the divine feminine within themselves, which is unconditional Love - not their sexuality as the men keep pushing them into against their nature. Since sex is the primary driving force within many men - it being the most peak experience that leaves them feeling de-stressed and good - sex has been the main focus for women as well. It is natural to submit to men, biologically. The magnetic attraction is more than can be controlled, normally, by those who are yet unaware of their power. And so women follow the men into sexual activities when they don’t really want to.

This has caused no end of trouble at home and confusion for women. Many women are emotionally struggling because they are hooked into the men in their lives. Having been in the lifestyle of swinging for over 40 years now, and still engaged somewhat but from a higher and smoother perspective, I continue to see this. Many women identify with my writings, which is why I keep writing.

Empowering the women is what my colleague (David) and I are intending and projecting into the future. He works with his hands, as a licensed massage therapist; I am giving up my massage license and moving on. Empowering women requires some sharing of information. Such as - women are not intellectual. They don't relate easily to the logic that men promote. Women are brighter and smarter but they’re not intellectual in the sense they are not ruled by the head, but by the heart which also means gut instinct. It’s biological based on the flow of the soul.  Those women who are entrepreneurs and acclaimed by the world for their intelligence are still just women using native skills - the same native skills that ALL women have. The women who are considered intellectual giants are still women. They're just more determined to use their brains more than their feminine energies. Strong business-like women are still female first, biologically, and thus they have a superior foot up compared to men who are not biologically connected to the great unbroken sea of love and light which we were born out of, men included. Men simply have an outer orientation because they have a different role to play in life.

When women are connected into their divine feminine, they become balanced again, still able to do what they want to do, but with far more brightness. Women are amazing creatures when they are empowered. They are nurturers and wise beyond men because they're connected to the divine. They know more, see further and feel deeper. Women have become sublimated, dumbed down and messed up by a too-dominant masculine force - impersonally speaking - so our first job is to empower the women and bring them up and out of the smog. Help them reconnect through loving, warming, encouraging support, to the divine feminine within them. This is no mamby-pampy, wishy-washy love! Watch out for the empowered woman! That's what David and I are planning to do. He is doing it already with his massage sessions. I will fill in from my end by hosting some warming, loving, massage parties or workshops.

The men are invited but they’re going to have to take several steps back in the sense that this workshop is not going to end in sex. I feel confident they will understand and feel the goodness that will emerge from this effort. It is all about empowering the women. David is giving sessions to women right now and they are divine love sessions. He channels divine love. His sessions are called "therapeutic" or "tantric massage", but they are not restricted to those labels. He is totally 100% selfless. He empties himself of his ego and is able to use the divine love that flows through him like a radar beam. It finds blockages and melts them. She feels the releasing of blockages as blissful, warmth, peaceful, and sometimes tears stream down her cheeks.

David is not a saint by any means. But during this time when he channels divine love, he empties himself of the ego. He doesn’t have a personal motivation. No personal needs or desires. He is a tool of universal, pure love energy. Don’t expect anything from him. Let him channel. When the session is over, he is back to normal man again.

Since most everybody is coming from a level of sexual neediness or wantingness, I am unsure how many will respond to this invitation. Sex has been such a nuisance to shoo out of the way to get to the larger picture. It keeps bugging me. Lovemaking is not the demon, you understand; it’s the focus on sex. Attention is where we focus. Sex is too small and too petty and too physical to focus on, so we must learn to widen our focus. The focus on sex is a bully. It keeps clouding the issue of Love. It’s pushy and pushes itself into the limelight, when there are bigger things at stake.  The focus on sex prevents Love from being FELT. It keeps shorting out the fires of love which burn across the heavens and attempts to touch the soul but the focus on sex keeps getting in the way. Anyone who wants to get down to the "meat" of the matter (i.e., sex) should not come to this event, but should go to a swing club. Because we'll be focusing our attention on loftier planes via human hands, human hugs, human connection. It will be very human and very meaningful. It will be more intimate than sex. It will be more about Love, not sex, and how to MAKE Love, how to generate it, how to cultivate it, learning where it is located, learning what thoughts attract it and what thoughts repulse it. How to maintain love within a relationship, and how to make a relationship feel sacred.

The Love Party will be far, far, far, far, far, more than sex. Sex has limited me for the major part of my adult life because of its narrowness. I SO wanted to feel the largeness of love with a man, but I couldn’t because of sex. The pushiness of sex would always get in the way and demand attention and fulfillment like a little boy stamping his feet in a tantrum. Of course, I yielded and gave in to the little boy in the men. I always thought that was my duty. And then I met David and he helped to grow out of that submissive state. So the Love Club or Love Party, or the Love Workshop, whatever we end up calling it, is going to be a breakthrough experience for everyone who is drawn to attend. It truly i's about something far greater and far nobler and far more god-like than human beings have generally been able to experience up until now - except for those who have studied the proper Tantra.

Watch for an invitation. It will be coming soon. It will go out to all who ever contacted Anakosha. Remember, you are made of love. And light. Light is information so you have this information about love within you, through inner knowing. You can feel it. You are made of happiness and peace. You are made of joy. You don’t have to put forth effort to be in your natural state of peace, relaxation and happiness. It is natural to you underneath the facade of stress. You can fulfill yourself without exertion. Exertion is a sign that you are fighting something. Relax and be yourself. What are you fighting? What are you resisting? A relaxed state of mind and action is natural. Ease is natural. Comfort is natural. The trials and hardships are wearing you out. Relax, close your eyes, breathe in deep and breathe out deep, fill your lungs and empty your lungs, put your hand over your higher heart (between your heart and throat). Do this until you feel the peace come forth. You will feel the peace. Do this periodically. Relax. Breathe. Re-set your vibrations back to natural.
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7/6/17 - The Massage Club posted under MASSAGE is actually a Love Club. I used to call it that but then changed it to a Massage Club. No, it hasn’t started yet. It’s getting closer to becoming reality though. I’m waiting for everything to be ripe, smooth and ready. It’s close. Recently I received validating information from Spirit regarding the Love Club. I channel sometimes. I usually get this information when I have fingers on the keyboard and it just flows on through. Sometimes I am writing to a friend, sometimes to my journal, and sometimes for my blog here on this website. Today I stumbled upon an entry from a while ago, as if a reminder to get with it and get started. Actually I am getting ready to send announcements out. I’ve been dragging my feet, for which I apologize. I know people are waiting. I’m somewhat of a space case with my head in the clouds. It is taking me awhile to get my feet on the ground.  

From Spirit: The Love Club is being formed to introduce love into the world of human relations on a scale that is larger than has been known before. The concept is one of receiving love first, before giving love, for the world has you all indoctrinated into believing you are not capable of receiving love. That you are not worthy of receiving love. That you are sinners and therefore that you must somehow redeem yourselves and prove that you are worthy of being loved. Nonsense! You are a child of love and therefore love has been built into you. Your design has been cut out of the father and mother of love. You are immensely valuable and irreplaceable. Within your body, mind and feelings there runs gold. It is a firey brilliant flashing golden river that breathes through you. You ARE love walking. You ARE love talking. You ARE love expressing. You ARE Love on every level of your being. You simply do not believe it. This is the reason why the Love Club is being brought forth at this time.

Once you have accepted love, and allowed love to reside in you, and to be received by you, into your body cells and your structure, then you will be able to give love to others because you will KNOW love and what love feels like. Until then, you cannot give love to others. And you will learn how extraordinarily free love feels when you have removed all barriers and false beliefs that hold you back. Love is your natural environment. Love is free. Love flows freely through you now. Believe it and set your sights higher, wider and without reservations. Love yourself first. Allow yourself to receive love from your higher mind and higher heart, for you have reduced your mind and heart to lower vibrations and you cannot see or feel clearly the truth of love.

You are an infinite expression of love. You are a higher mind and a higher heart than you realize. You are an immense well spring of love. An artesian well of love pumping up from the depths that are beyond you unknown to you, being pumped up into sight and vision, into your personal world. You are ready to receive love. Practice receiving love. Practice being held by friends, lovingly. Feel the love start to flow within you. Just feel it. Don’t respond. Just feel and allow the love to register on your inner body structure. See what it feels like.

The Love Club starts out on an esoteric level (inner level) but it will expand outward into physical relationships as the Love Club grows. We will maintain the inner connection all the while, for love comes from within each person. Each one is a transforming station stepping down the infinite and formless energy of love, through the perceptions of the mind, and down further into the body cells of the organs and tissues of the heart.  First it is received, then it is expressed outwardly to others.

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7/4/17 - All is quiet here at our place on this holiday of the 4th of July. Freedom day and celebrations are in order. But I am peaceful, internal, hopeful and I will leave all celebration to those tied to the "form" world. I'm in a unified field which is very peaceful to me. I can feel things backing up, sorting out, adjusting, realigning, becoming more unified. Things are on the brink of spilling over into the vision and sound world so we can see and hear.

This morning there are wonderful postings on the sananda.website, one of several I trust and check every morning. Many, many, many. I hope you are participating. There is an increasing flow of truth coming out. It's flooding the planet. It's too fast and too much for me to keep up, but I try. This is a major thing that's happening to our world. As an ET from another place told Bob Dean, contactee, (I'm listening to youtubes) the ET told Bob "If you only knew how special you are, you would bend your knee to one another...."  I must find that spot and take it down exactly - and I'm planning to. The ET who works in a lab undercover is giving a history of who we earthlings are and how important we are, how special, how remarkable.

The human being on this planet is the culmination of many, many, many other races from other planes, dimensions, planets and places in the universe. They all came here and manipulated - planted their genes into us, this planet, the earth, rearranged its natural order - and stepped back to watch to see what would happen. It was interference on one hand but it was an experiment on the other by god-like-beings who themselves are evolving, though far ahead of us. The earthling is some kind of miracle that made it. The human being was apparently messed up so many times it looked hopeless, held back and enslaved and damaged and obstructed and prevented from seeing, but all the while the genes from all these other races are in us, floating as junk DNA. Their intelligence is in us, and it's connecting now. It's linking up. We are becoming aware and, as the ET told Bob Dean, we're more than them. We are becoming something they are NOT! And they're watching to see what we're going to do and how we're going to do it.

I received just a hint of this stupendous thing, this miracle that the earthling has hidden inside of himself and herself. The human race - each human - the poor and penniless and the rich and famous (who were poor and penniless in another life) and the ignorant and the wise. We are all members of a special species that will change things not just in this world but in many worlds and planes of existence. Our world is not being changed by "them" from outside and beyond. Our world is being changed from within us, from within each one of us. They are giving us affirmations and confirmations but we are doing the work. They're not giving us anything we don't already know, somewhere inside of us. Haunting flashes, shadowy memories, familiar sensings, gut feelings. We're linking up junk DNA, the part of us that comes from other races and other dimensions. We are so much more than we've been told.

"They" are helping us by giving us hints but we are doing the job. One of those jobs is to "simply be". Hold onto the good feeling that comes. That's all we need to do. The good feelings are the natural feelings. We don't have to do earth-shaking acts. It's a participation effort to become natural. Every single human being on the planet is doing its part. We're cultivating our genetic pool to become good, intelligent, loving and wise. And "they" are able to watch and monitor us, to see how we're doing. The level of conscious awareness that is taking place. How far we are waking up. How much of the inner truth we are allowing and accepting.

"If only you knew..." and now we are becoming aware and getting to know. We are now getting this information, not from "them" but from ourselves. We are revealing what we know. I am feeling the readying of this within me. And you are feeling the readying of this within yourself. Word is out. It's flooding the internet. People are waking up. We're not just waiting for the RV or for Nesara or free energy devices or cures for diseases - it's a team effort to bring all of these and more out into the open and not be afraid any more to be who we are. It's a blossoming. It brings tears to the eyes of those who know what's happening. We just have to apply wisdom and patience as the process is ongoing and connecting genetic material in our bodies and brains. We have to use heart-centered intuition and wisdom to recognize what's true and what's disinformation, what is the timing and what is not time.

Oh, I have a lot to write. The massage club remains my focus but within me the energy still hasn't settled yet. There's more coming in. It's still processing and I'm sure it is for you too. New energies - facets of ourselves that are disconnected - are coming home to roost. Parts of you and parts of me are coming back to us and we have to stop and let it enter our daily lives and welcome it home. Embrace it in fullness. It all has to be connected up as a whole. This is happening to everyone. We had been cut up and distorted and parts of us were left out there hanging, unused and unusable. This is the end times now. In order to move ourselves into the new times, all those parts of us have to be gathered up and accounted for. Forgiveness is a major thing. Forgiveness of self and others. This is going on with everyone. It's not a matter of waiting, it's not a matter of patience, it's a matter of accepting, opening, allowing and adjusting to ourselves. Not to other people, but to our inner selves. We are getting ready to receive more - and bend the knee to each and everyone who comes in our front door.

6/16/17 -  Today’s blog is about Tantra but it’s rather lengthy, so please bear with it as I prepare the way. Do you know that a closed mind leads to degeneration?  Firm and fixed belief systems are good on one hand, to keep life organized, but one must have some openness mixed in to allow fluidity and change. It is the fresh infusion of newness over on top of the old that humanizes us and brings us the feeling of being alive. Keep an open mind as you read this, but don’t give up your own ideas and your own past experiences. Rely on yourself. It is the fusion of the old and the new that stabilizes you and makes you more solid. Sometimes new ideas are scary and threatening, but as we consider them and allow them to process - is it good for me or not? - this is how we expand ourselves to become more of of our potential. We must grow or we will stagnate. Learning more about Tantra is two-pronged. We become more spiritual, and we become more physical. In other words, we become more human. Human beings are gods and goddesses in training to do miraculous things in the world of men. We are learning. We are becoming more aware of ourselves.

Humanity believes itself physical. It has believed so for a long time. But slowly and gradually we have become aware that there is a non-physical part within us. We are physical but we are not dead pieces of meat. There is something alive in us walking, breathing, seeing, hearing, feeling. There are stories being told from the “return-to-life” people. I’ve met some and heard the stories. You probably have, too. These stories tell us that when we die, only the body dies but that we actually go on living. The spirit thought it was a body but when it stepped out of the body it found itself in an etheric type body, fully conscious and aware. Even MORE aware than it was while in the body. Tantra works with spiritual forces that most of us are not very aware of.

The etheric body is an exact duplicate of the physical body at death. It looks the same but it can start changing its appearance soon after death, because the person finds it can "think" changes almost instantly. It can think back to its childhood home and in an instant, be there. Or think of a loved one and be there in that person’s presence, instantly. And one can change how the body looks. It can appear younger or older or more beautiful, however it wants to. And if a limb is missing, it can have a new limb instantly. This process of learning how to use the etheric body, and live in the etheric world of emotions and thought, takes a little time to get used to. But there are helpers who come to assist. But the point is, you are not just a physical body. There is an emotional aspect to you that has been curtailed. Both men and women. Through Tantra we can access that part of us that we have blocked or suppressed. We don’t use our emotions very effectively here on earth in our earth bodies. Tantra is love in the etheric body; it is called emotions in the physical body. We need to access our emotions.

We can begin accessing Tantric love now, while we still live in a physical body. We don’t have to wait until after death to step into our etheric body which is our awareness body. We can open channels to our etheric body right now, through certain training. This is why we need a more open mind. This can be a big jump for some people. To begin to wake up to our fuller potential while remaining human, is to spiritualize our human bodies. When we spiritualize our bodies we can enjoy all that physical life can offer but in a better, smoother, peaceful, more loving way. That’s the main objective of Tantra. Not to leave the body but to come more fully into it and ground it into reality.

I didn't mean to write this when I started. My thoughts just took a quirky turn. The intention was to write something on my blog just to let everyone know that I am still here. It's been awhile since I last journaled. Yes, things are happening in my life and yes, things are evolving. The death and dying scenario above is merely a lead-in to the subject of healing brokenness, boredom and stagnation. There are ways to uplift, refresh and rejuvenate. Tantra is an ancient teaching, but a new idea to us in the West. It is coming into awareness in America. I’ve been mentioning it for years as a slide-by. It is thought of as sexual because everything has been made sexual here in America. People think, maybe it is a new sexual technique?  A new love technique? A new spiritual technique?

I’m letting my mind free-fall here because it’s a subject that no one is master of. Well, almost no one. I want to explore this concept in writing, for it is the way I grow awareness. By writing about it I can put into words what, alone in mind, is confusing. It has been said, “When confused, talk to someone. It will help.“ So this is my way of talking about what is on my mind. People write to me through Anakosha and they express various needs. Everyone is searching for something that is slightly different from everyone else, but almost everyone wants more freedom to interact with others. They are reaching to interact but there are blockages. There are situations holding us back. Or belief structures holding us back. Or contracts and agreements holding us back. We are antsy. We want more connection. More freedom. More love. More honesty. Fill in your own words here.

As I read the letters coming to me I feel as if they are straining at the bit. Like a horse strains to be let loose of the reins that hold it back. What is it that holds us back? Most of the letters coming to are written by men, but that's understandable I suppose. After all, Anakosha started out as a swing club and its pages are filled with references pertaining to the subjects of love, sex and intimacy. But now that Anakosha has changed focus towards love in human sexual affairs, the communications coming from men are surprisingly more heart-centered. They contain more of a feminine quality. Men too are seeking more intimacy, not just women. But we’re not leaving sex out of the picture. Sex is a very important part of being human. It is the evolutionary force within humankind which elevates us to higher status. The sexual feeling of release, as in orgasm, is a lesser version of the bliss and rapture that awaits us. There is a spiritual truth waiting to be discovered behind what we think of as sex.

So why has it been so degraded and misunderstood? Because women are damaged. Men too have been damaged, but with all due respect, men are secondary to the main problem. Sorry, but that’s just the way it is. Feminine sexual energy is the strongest creative force on this planet but it‘s not free. It has been locked into place and hunkered down. It is not free and it must be liberated. Sexual energy is sacred and women carry the sacred key within their bodies, unknowingly. When the women are liberated and healed of their blockages, they will become empowered in ways that men will LOVE!  Therefore, men will be healed secondly. It is all very natural.

As I wrote yesterday to someone, I have seen so much and learned so much, that I am now a graduate of a very advanced school that has no name but ranges from the lowest to the highest. I am a woman who has been in the lifestyle and hosted swinging events for 40 years, while simultaneously studying advanced spiritual matters, mystery school teachings that most people aren’t privy to because they are not interested. Not that I’m better than anyone else, but that I’ve studied and learned some things that opened doors for me - doors that were pretty heavy and required some intense training to get through.

Now that I have integrated both paths together, the down and dirty and the divine grace that is the true aspect within us, you could say I am fairly well learned on the subject of sex, love and intimacy. I’m kind of smiling as I write this because I want to lighten the mood. But learned as I am, I am only a woman, and a woman can’t do the things a man can do. It’s a function of biology. A man’s energy flows in an outward direction to move, shake and change the world in which he lives, whereas a woman’s energy flows inward and upward to the heart to ensure comfort, peace and emotional nourishment for whoever needs it. It’s difficult to be a mover and shaker outwardly, while maintaining emotional peace and comfort at home (within).
 
Then I met David. David is a soul mate friend. He is me in a man’s body. He is a licensed professional massage therapist. David is not his real name. He and I have been weaving our knowledge together over the past two years, communicating on all levels. Our minds are linked and we think pretty much like one. But I’ll be retiring as a therapist this year while David is expanding his professional career by adding Tantric Massage to his venue. He has broken through a ceiling which is profound, in my estimation.

David’s sessions range from therapeutic massage to loving energy massage to tantric massage to ascension massage. Actually it is all of these and more, because universal love energy cannot be defined in words. It is an experience. David channels creative love energy from source. He is a gifted healer.  He flows love when he puts his hands on people. I can write about it but I don’t flow it the way he does. When he flows love, he knows where the blockages are. He tells me things that he probably wouldn’t tell a client. For example, he wrote yesterday, “I could feel the Love flowing, but it was like a trickle in certain areas. Being squeezed as it were. She has deep seated blockages, but if I was to work with her to help her to heal, the first things to concentrate on are the huge scars she has. These are absolutely interfering with the flow.”

He was referring to etheric scars. He can tell when the flow of energy is blocked or is being diverted around an area that is closed off. In another instance, he wrote, “She received and received and received. And, so did I. The feedback was pure bliss. Afterwards, as I tried to process the sheer beauty of it all, I knew that a huge breakthrough had been made and that it was as if from that point onwards, everything will be deeper, more powerful and at the same time more nuanced.”

Remember, this is not personal lovemaking. It may sound like it but it’s not. This is therapy. It is important to understand that this is a more true Tantric Massage than most of what you see online, which is often portrayed as pornographic. A Tantric Massage channels creator energy, which is love, through the body‘s meridians. The meridians are a web-like structure that criss-crosses the whole body. Acupuncturists have charts of the meridians on their walls, which identify junctures where blockages occur in which to put a needle. In ancient Sanscrit the word meaning “web” is called tantra. Tantra means web. That is where Tantra comes from. We have adopted the word when but it simply means a web, like a net. It's not so esoteric after all!

Our physical bodies have an etheric webbing running through it which also spills out into the air around is as a force field. We call it an aura. Our auras can be dim and dark, or bright and light and colorful, depending on how well our life force is moving through our bodies. The webbing is composed of tiny, hair-like hollow tubes, and they go everywhere. Through these tubes our consciousness, which is spirit, flows. Either fast and full of vitality, or weak and slow. When those tiny tubes become blocked in any number of places, our consciousness - our life force - slows down. Less life force to the brain causes slower mental alertness. Less life force to the liver causes slower liver functions, etc. David flows life force into his client’s body, similar to how an acupuncturist works with needles. It is an increase in the love force. Anybody who has had acupuncture will remember how peaceful they felt afterwards. David’s clients feel the same way.

Knowledge of Tantra is actually knowledge of the web and life force. One FEELS the web, and when one feels the life force one feels it as love. It is a wonderful feeling. As David is working on a client, he can feel where the love is flowing because it causes a feedback loop and he feels it too. He feels blissful feelings which enhances his own loving feelings within himself. That is the science of Tantra. People must train for it. It is not done overnight. He can likewise feel when the life force has diminished or come to a stopping point. Or where it diverges into two separate flows as it goes around a blockage. Knowledge of Tantra is done through feelings, feelings of love which expand or contract. An authentic Tantric practitioner is able to influence the flow from having practiced with it, but it is not coming from him personally. He is allowing the flow to come through him as a channel and into the body of his client. He cannot personalize it or it would cut down the flow through him. He would not be able to be a channel or a healer if he did that.

David can feel love flowing versus where love has been diminished and where there is no love flowing at all. As he continues to hold his hands on the physical body, the love flowing from him (through him) seeks for the love that is present within the client and is attracted towards it in that direction, and thus breaks barriers caused by pain, trauma, surgery or whatever caused the emotional repression. This is a very rudimentary definition. The real experience has to be felt.   

The teachings of Tantra come in layers. You can only learn up to a certain point and then you need help for an expert. I have studied and learned it intellectually, while David has the “feel” for it intuitively. Maybe he lived it in prior lives, I suspect he did. But advanced knowledge of Tantra at some point by-passes conscious understanding and becomes pure feelings of love. That’s where the references of Shiva and Shakti come in. They represent the universal creative force as one. The male creative force and the female creative force at the highest levels are one being and it is purely experiential.

But coming back to the here and now of Tantra, the information is becoming known because we’ve asked for it. We are ready for it. And David has emerged as an authentic practitioner. Knowledge of Tantra has been vague for centuries but it’s starting to dawn on us that we are a loving people who have closed ourselves off to love. As we become more understanding and tolerant, Tantra is coming forth to us. Tantra is love. It is the web of life that is inside of us, on the etheric plane. As we open our minds to the possibilities, we will begin accessing it. It‘s experiential. We can access it during normal sexual activities as long as love is somehow involved. Just one person alone can access love, without telling the sex partner. Love is a real energy and it is possible to learn how to flow it. Let us learn together.

Anakosha is working towards a two-pronged effort - one is David’s Tantric Massage, which will empower  women by healing the damage done from living in a world of too much force. Also teaching men who assist with their wives. And secondly we are hoping to have enough people to hold massage swaps, so everyone can practice on other people, not just their own mates. Flowing impersonal love is an essential part of Tantra teachings. To flow love, one must take it beyond personal. Personal constricts and diminishes the flow.

The web of life - of love - is everywhere, hence the phrase “oneness of life“. It pervades humans, animals, plants, minerals, air, water, fire, earth. Love is the creative principle flowing down into density and manifestation. It is intelligent. If we think things are not intelligent, then they are not. They are dumb to us. But if we think things are in fact intelligent and have consciousness, then things everywhere respond and interact with us through the web of life. Thus, we become more spiritualized yet while still in a physical body enjoying good food, good friends, good sex, good entertainment, good ideas, and opportunities. We become more perfected and refined as human beings.  After all, we are gods and goddesses in training. We are learning, always learning, to keep an open mind to the possibilities that are endlessly pouring into us. Endlessly flowing downward into the material world and into our bodies. It is Shiva flowing into Shakti.  

I love to speak about these things. I don’t understand the life force but I have experienced it. David actually FEELS it as love flowing and he feels when it is not flowing. Life force energy can come in full strength or it can come diminished to a trickle. When it stops altogether the body dies. The heart stops pumping. When it flows full force it is felt as bliss and more bliss on into rapture and nirvana. But in practical terms for now, it is a healing force and women are the key holders and women are blocked.  We must liberate the feminine and free her to become natural woman, wild and free, so she can turn around and mirror back to the men in her life, the full force of what she is feeling. We cannot command her to feel if she is blocked. She must come into feeling from within herself. Only love can do that.

I receive requests from men who ask about women. For one who hears, let him hear this: The question to ask is about yourself, of yourself. You can start practicing FEELING feminine energy within yourself. Remove the blockages within yourself, by allowing love to activate within you. You can love yourself. Tantra is a teaching about loving yourself, but I better not get into that right now or it will lead to another lengthy article. We will keep posting about Tantra. The masters recommend reverence in solitude to get in touch with your own divinity.

David and I hold an intention for a massage club gathering but first we have to have more people who have expressed interest in this concept. It is a slow growth, which is the best type of growth. If you are interested, contact me through the contact page. If you want to contact David, also write to him through the massage page. We both receive it. Let us know your thoughts. Introduce yourself or selves. Become a participant.

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5/26/17 - Most people are afraid of love. Most people think it's about falling in love with someone else and thus dangerous to the current relationship. But it’s not. Love is not a falling. Love is expanding and enhancing. Love is not an emotional attachment. Love is not a substitution of one person for another. Love is much, much bigger than that. The mistake is in interpreting personal love for the immensely larger Love that is available to us. Love with a capital L.

So if you love your husband, as I love my husband, and we feel a lack somewhere that is not being fulfilled, then there is some love that your husband or my husband is not giving us. The same holds true for your husband. If there is something he feels is missing in his life which he cannot define (or dare not define), then there is some love that you are not able to fulfill in him. It’s scary, isn’t it? Most people don’t want to hear this, but love is lacking somewhere.

So what we have to do is build our love. Love is inherent within us. We don’t want to substitute the love we already have but expand on what we have. We don‘t want to sacrifice or give up what we already have. That has been very good so far, but we‘ve hit a ceiling. A limit. We simply want to expand. We are ready to expand. It’s time. We feel it’s time. It's like when a couple starts out in a small one-floor home, and they live together and grow together in many ways, on many levels, and they have babies and settle into hobbies or work projects, and they need more room. So they build a second floor on the house to provide more space.

We need more space. We need to stretch ourselves. We need to grow. Your creativity and your passion needs to grow. Your soul needs to express more outwardly into the physical world. You want to interact with more people, on more levels. You want to soundboard and to talk to people. You are happy with what you've already got at home, like the little flower bush in your garden is happy with what it's got, but it needs to grow more branches because it is growing past the wall. It’s trying to express more of life within itself.

So a relationship needs to grow more freely, more expressively, more passionately, more creatively and more spontaneously. That’s how human beings grow and evolve. We all, as souls in physical bodies, require room to grow ourselves outward more expressively. We might not want to call it “love” but that’s what it is actually. Everything is love. Everything is created out of love. Love with a capital L. Things are not created out of hate or anger or violence. Those things tear down and destroy. Anything good grows and evolves out of love with a capital L. We grow from love with a small l to Love with a capital L. And that Love that is capitalized grows bigger and bigger and bigger, the more we apply it sensibly, with wisdom, with truth, with respect.

So where do you go when you aren’t receiving enough love in your life and you don't want to throw away what you DO have?  You reach out to others. It’s time to talk. In past ages human beings cheated. Today, there is a movement towards more honesty, more openness. We are learning to be more truthful about our needs. We are growing up. We are beginning to learn that others feel like we do. We are suspect we are not alone. In prior ages we thought we were all alone in this, but now, with the internet and instant communication, we are learning we are more alike underneath, than not. The spiritual movement is showing that we all come from the same source. From Love with a capital L. The onus is on us to expand outside of our comfort zone which has not been fulfilling us.

Humanity is a species that is heart-centered. We did not know that before. Or if we did, we kept it to ourselves. Now, more openly we are admitting it, and drawing new conclusions. We are in an age of remarkable transition. We growing closer whether we like it or not because we know ourselves better. We are beginning to hold hands.  We are finding new ways to fulfill our needs and to advance ourselves so we feel better with ourselves. Feeling good is GOOD! To feel happy is good. To love each other is good. That is what my husband and I did with swinging, and that is what David and I are doing with the yet-to-unfold massage parties. Swinging wouldn’t give me what I needed, it only gave me sex. So I asked the universe to help me find a way to expand and bring love in. I don’t want to give up swinging but I have temporarily given it up because it was hurting me to conform to its limitations. In order to evolve into love I had to step outside of swinging. There was no opportunity for the deeper, wider, more loving interactions to develop in swinging. I wanted to spend more leisurely time with a man or a woman, alone without the pressure to “move on” and “get with it”. I wanted more time to enjoy the process of enhancing feelings of love. Not sex, but love. I subsequently learned that other women wanted this too, but the men didn’t understand my need. They only knew about copulating and oral sex. And once the climax took place, they were done and they moved on. And I was not fulfilled.

Please don’t get me wrong. I don’t judge them now. I did at first but not now. I understand the need for lovemaking. There is going to be a strong compulsion to go into lovemaking at the massage parties, just like in swinging. But if it goes into sexual lovemaking prematurely an abortion happens for those who are not ready or who simply don‘t want to. It is a waste of precious moments of pleasure and oneness - all lost forever - when someones need is so great that they must copulate NOW!  To satisfy a heated desire of someone else is what urges me to create a massage party that does not have sex as it’s goal. Sex has a way of taking over the more refined aspects of love. It’s denser, thicker, stronger, louder and lustier than the sensitive and delicate radiation that flows between two people, skin to skin, barely touching. Loving with hearts, minds and feelings is emotionally empowering and retrains the body’s capacity to FEEL love. This practice of slowing down and focusing on skin to skin produces more love than sex can produce. This is what people call “erotic”. Such moments are rarely felt in swinging scene because of the lack of education about love and eroticism. In the lack of knowing about it, sex is all there is.

Most people are not ready for FREE love. I don‘t mean free sex, but free love. Swingers are very good at free sex, but free love refers to loving others freely and giving them time to grow and expand their capacity to love. I give people the freedom to expand in love. David gives people the freedom to expand in love. We don’t pressure people into any kind of action at all. We give freely the time and energy and space for people to feel free. We would like to demonstrate this to others - how to give everyone they meet space and time to grow and expand their pleasure zones and feel the feelings of warmth that is so difficult to put into words but they are expansive and liberating, blissful, connective, fulfilling and more.

Free love is giving love freely to everyone. Free love is providing room, space and time for everyone to get to where they want to go without pressuring them or intervening for them or nudging them or wishing they would hurry up. Free love is the opposite of being selfish. Picture selfish, then picture the extreme opposite. That is unconditional love. No expectations. Free love is selfless. Free love allows love to grow in other people. The science of love is, If you want more love, you GIVE more love. Free love is a higher form of love.

Most of us think of love as being something personal between me and my mate, and that is very true. We don’t diminish that. It is beautiful love and it’s very personal. Free love is not personal. Free love is transparent and open and non-possessive. There is no emotional attachment in free love because it is not possessive. It is not exclusive. It is friendly and loving, but it is not an emotional attachment. This is what we have to learn how to do if we want to expand from small love into larger Love with a capital L because free love is inclusive and there are many people who are waiting to be loved and be shown how to love above and beyond the narrow confines of man-made laws of monogamy. You can have many, many friends in the free love category. You can enrich your world by leaps and bounds by learning about free love.

Most people are not ready for free love. Loose free love. Light free love. Transparent free love. Non-attachment free love. The kind of love that is patient and allows everyone to grow and adapt at their own rate of speed without pushing them to “get there”. Most of us need to be shown what free love looks like and feels like. Most of us need to experience it. Most of us need to practice it. Most of us would like to see it demonstrated. Most people fail in demonstrating free love because they become attached to someone emotionally, which creates an exclusive relationship shunning the others they would practice with. When someone falls in love with someone, even if only temporarily, an ownership quality develops. This, we need to learn how to overcome if we are to be free. None of us like the feeling of jealousy, but no one creates it except ourself. We don‘t like feeling suspicious, distrustful or insecure because someone we love is loving someone else. We create those feelings inside of us and we can uncreate them by becoming bigger people, capable of more Loving more with a capital L and giving them room to grow.

We couples - I include myself here - want to expand and enjoy free love but we are bogged down with the cultural tradition of ownership of partners. We are wrapped up in each other’s “stuff”.  Free, loose, light, transparent, non-attachment love is difficult to get to in the close-knit cocoon of a monogamous relationship. That’s why we need to get together and discuss this and practice this. I am eager to have a group of like-minded people to share this concept with. I know it can be done. We just need time to practice and find out what it feels like to loosen the stranglehold of the old paradigm - obeying each other til death do we part. It’s time to free ourselves up - not leave our wonderful beloved mates - but expand and experience the higher, greater, freer, looser, transparent, non-attachment friendships with other people without feeling guilty about it. It will enhance our home life. It will brighten our relationship. It will charge it, empower it, evolve it, lift it and create new opportunities. We will be surprised at ourselves in the end.

David has been saying right along. “All there is is love.“ He is referring to free unconditional, transparent, love from the highest source of all. David has been through a spiritual transformation. I watched him and supported him through an intense period. Today he says, “Once you experience this Love (with a capital L) you will never be the same. You will be changed.” He has said this repeatedly to me and to others.

Today I read a channeled massage from an ascended master the same thing. I get lots of channeled articles from the spiritual realms. I process these articles and lower them into the physical. I ask myself, how does this feel to a human body with five senses? We are human. We are physical. We have fives senses through which we interact with the world and other people. We are not spiritual, we are human. So how can we use this information in the physical world?  We five senses allow us to feel, see, hear, taste and smell other people and the world around us. Without them we would be alone in a sea of darkness. So I lower these very high, non-human, spiritual messages down into physical and imagine what it would be like to FEEL this in a human body. David has said, “All there is is love, and once you experience this Love you will never be the same.”

The article I read this morning says, “Love is POWERFUL!  You have no idea how powerful It is, and when you know yourself once more as Love, as you will, joy and wonder will flood into your heart – the Tsunami of Love. All you need do is to allow it to happen. You have become so accustomed to your severely limiting life as a human that it seems normal, and you are very reluctant to release your hold on it.  The awakening process has been carefully and divinely planned to ensure that it occurs smoothly, gently, and with an intense experience of being loved. When you feel the Love that is being offered to you, you will be unable to resist It or retreat from It because Its attraction is so strong.  It will draw you Home, which is where, at the deepest level of your being, you always are.”

But I am here to say, we don’t have to wait until we are out of body. Let‘s experience this Love while in a human body with five senses. It is sensual. It is erotic. It is Love that is so far beyond personal love that you can’t possess it. We can keep our personal love but this is going outside the front door into the wide open world of more love. Bigger love. It is kind of hard to understand what I’m talking about here, so the only thing to do is experience it. That’s why David and I are focusing on getting together a massage party.

Human beings are built to experience ecstasy. Dr. Candace Pert, PhD, was a neuroscientist who spent her life in a laboratory studying human cells. She said in a 2003 lecture, “We’re actually ‘hardwired‘ for bliss—both physical and divine.” Her work is worth exploring. You can find her on the internet. She changed the way we look at emotions and science.

In conclusion - again, I apologize for writing such lengthy articles - to all those swingers out there who would love to join a massage group for massage parties but hold back because there’s no romantic ending (sex) afterward, I’ll repeat what I have been saying all along. Swinging is a good first step but quick sex falls short. There are more steps we need to take in our exploration of human relationships, love, intimacy and eroticism.  These next steps must be tethered to the heart or we won‘t get there. Love is heart-centered, not groin-centered. If it's not heart-centered, our intimate connections are going to continue to be dirty, shameful, surrounded by guilt, kept away from children, done in the dark, in secret, cheating, afraid to talk about it, that kind of low attitude.

The next step toward bigger, better love is not the same steps you would take towards bigger, better sex. There are ways to intensify the sex feeling in you and your partners, but it won’t expand you or make you feel larger and more liberated. Intensifying sex feelings through whatever techniques you can find, is like creating a bomb. It compacts all the molecules, chemistry and energies into a smaller and smaller space - the smaller the better - so there is a bigger explosion. Love with a Capital L is felt as the opposite by allowing yourself and the others around you to decompact, loosen up, relax, breathe, slow down, unzip. Defuse the bomb

As we learn more about love, intimacy and eroticism, we expand our auras, open our hearts, lose our jealousy and possessiveness and elevate our minds. We learn how to keep love in our focus. We start building the second story on our home relationship in a wholesome, decent, uplifting and transparent way. There is more love to experience and our bodies are hard-wired to receive it, quivering in need for more love. We are ready to receive it. There is more love to tap into and to share, more love to give and more love to receive, more love to surround ourselves with. It is experiential. I could talk or write until I’m blue in the face but you wouldn’t feel it.  We have to feel it. It is all about owning the feelings of love. It is emotional. It is intuitive. It is genuine. It is authentic. It is sincere. But we can't keep talking about it. We have to do something about it to move the love out of its hidden spaces (the blocked areas) into action. We need to share it. That’s why David and I are focusing on creating a massage party.

I am also thinking of hosting a women’s talk and massage session because I see many women are disempowered and afraid to speak from their heart, the soft heart of the divine feminine, in the presence of men. I have been approached about doing women’s talk sessions in the past and have done some, but I have put this on the shelf and forgotten about them.  However, recent indications are showing that women continue to need same-gender support, both emotional and mental support, to help them clarify their feelings. Other women are healers for their sisters when they are genuinely supportive, nurturing and express qualities native to the divine feminine which is within each one, underneath the mask of male/mental programming (criticism, competition and condemnation). Women, when in the sacred goddess mode of heart-centered love, serve as wonderful, uplifting mirrors to their sisters, reflecting, “You’re OK, and what’s more, you are RIGHT!"

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5/14/17 - Happy Mothers Day to all the mothers and would-be mothers who read this. There is a happy upward movement of love going out and around the world today from offspring to Moms everywhere. A Mother's love is a special kind of love. It is feminine. It nurtures where things are not right and it helps to mend them.

Speaking of feminine, this week David and I will meet with a woman without her husband with the intention of inviting her into the  massage swap group for loving couples. Apparently he is not ready, bless his soul. We love the men - our men - but many of them simply are not ready to receive nourishing, loving massage. It is perhaps the objectivity and physicality that men have worked with all their life which cannot understand what this that we do is all about. What is the purpose? How does it fit it into MY life? Why should I do it? Why should I trust it?

This that David and I are offering is educational. It's a demonstration in how to relax and receive. I guess that is difficult for men to do but we are hoping. We invite the men to participate with us to LEARN about it. Accompany their wives and find out more about it. Learn what it is like to receive love in a different way other than sensual or sexual. How to relax and be soothed by people who care without wanting anything back. How to be appreciated in a kindly fashion. The biological chemistry that men work on, I suspect, not being masculine, is having to be on guard and watching out for the dangers in life. They are the protectors of their women and children. It has been the cultural programming of men of our species for a long time. And under those conditions, yes, I can see where it is difficult to drop one's guard and to suddenly trust. That is the woman’s role, to trust and intuite and feel kindly towards others. It is a difficult thing to do for men. That is why David and I invite couples to come in to meet us first, just to talk and share information. We don’t want to push massage on anyone, but that is our method of working with people and we do not charge money for it. It is free.

As I am beginning to understand it, men by and large have been so busy serving in the man's' role, that he cannot simply drop that role and open himself to receiving the support and nurturing from others.  That is what we have decided to offer this to the women even if their men do not want to, or are not ready to accompany them. It is the women who are the leaders of the new age dawning upon us, the age of enlightenment or lighting up on the INSIDE.  Light and love are synonymous, so when we light up the INSIDE, we are awakening the love inside. Women will be leading the way in the coming days.

Women have talents that men don't have. They just don’t have confidence in those talents. They have not been supported in those talents. They have been put down. Women have the softness that is inherent in human kind, and they are safeguarding that softness until it is time to bring it forth. David and I are offering to assist in bringing it forth. We love our men and we want to bring forth the softness in them. And the intuition and the feelings of being loved and cared for in our men. We have not been able to demonstrate that in the past ages because of the violence of our planet and cities.

Women have the inner connections that will help prepare the men to receive this finer activity of life, after they themselves have received the spiritual support and spiritual confidence that they are right and they have been all along. Now is the time for women to stop allowing themselves to be dismissed, and to be stronger and more daring and courageous in standing up for that softness that they represent in their inner hearts but have not dared express in their outer world.

It is a subtle but conscious act to press the will of love, kindness and nourishment outward onto life, after centuries of having been intimidated. Women are designed for this but have been forced to fold their wings because practical matters take precedence in a mentally-driven world. The divine feminine‘s purpose is to correct the mean and ugly and nourish the good and noble. Slow hands stroking with a warm heart is good for a person because there is a weaving together of both or all parties’ energies. It is used, not for foreplay, but for cellular healing, soul healing, which sensitizes a person to receive better, bigger, more and wiser. Slow massage is not foreplay for sex. Working the genitals is foreplay for sex. Slow massage with a warm heart all over the body is different. It prepares a person to receive love, to feel love, and to flow love back. This is the universal love. Love with a capital L. There is a “heart-of-God” feeling to it on a cosmic scale.

David and I work on the vibration of love. Love is not personal. Love is a universal principal. Is a spiritual intelligence. Most people think of love as something reserved for mates, lovers, families and very special friends, but it is actually the glue that holds everything together - galaxies and suns and planets and moons and the entire nature kingdom and allows civilizations to continue. And it holds people together, their relationships, communities and families, and neighbors and co-workers. When something is falling apart in life, think love. Shift the focus to love and picture love all around that part of life that is not working. Put some time into imagining Love.

Love has to be consciously applied and thought of. It's an effort to figure out what is the right vibration of love, how it feels, where to focus, what to do to bring it about. But finding the right feeling, texture or vibration of love is a worthwhile effort. When you hit on it you know. It’s transformational. It's a soothing, peaceful, mending vibration. The thing that is broken may not get fixed instantaneously, like magic, but YOU will be. And when YOU are soothed, mended and healed with the Love vibration, then your world begins to change. It will rearrange itself to conform to YOU. As David says, “After you have received this universal Love with a capital L, you will never be the same again.“  David channels more universal Love with a capital L than anyone else I know,
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5/8/17 - I want to share with you this morning what I wrote to a man who expressed "disconnect" with his wife. I share this with loving intentions. I have been thinking about the plight of men recently, and this one particular message spurred me into saying things that I have been hesitant to say because it makes me sound like a feminist. Without divulging his words, here is what I intuited and felt to write to him.

Thank you A for writing and expressing your inner feelings. It is good to reach out like this. And like you, I don't know where to begin to express what is in my heart to say to you. Let me pause and think - and ask guidance.

You are not alone in expressing thoughts about a disconnect with your wife. I hear this from many men.  I am pretty equally balanced today between the feminine and the masculine. I can see both sides and feel the frustration of both genders, but there is a bottom line cause to the disconnect that can be addressed. Again, this is universal. Not only between you and your wife, but between men and women everywhere who are experiencing this disconnect. Believe me! I've seen it up close and it's so real and so obvious that it has required everybody to turn a blind eye to it.

You call it a sexual disconnect but it's not sexual - it's a love disconnect. She needs a love connection. You may have had the love connection at one time, but then it went away probably. You probably say to her "I love you", but it's meaningless if there is no love energy flowing between you. Love is an energy - an emotional energy - that flows. When the love energy stops flowing, then it's a pretend game of being together. Most couples do the pretend game. I'm OK, you're OK, the kids are OK. Life is smooth, all is good, keep the bills paid, life goes on. But the love energy stops flowing.

You as a man are conditioned to relate to the outer world of objects, things, people, practical, logical, labor, get things done - and you don't allow yourself to feel the emotions. You were trained to be that way.

On the other hand, women are conditioned to relate to the inner world of feelings, intuition, emotions, the passing of the energies back and forth, love and nurturance, feeling the earth beneath her feet, intuiting the emotions of a friend or relative, wanting to hug and hold and befriend someone.

Now if you don't see your wife that way, it's because you have closed off to her. And if your wife does not see your hurt and pain and need and desire for her, it's because she has closed off to you. Women close off because they are not getting what they need on a deep, inner, soul level.

Men close off because they are trained to not feel, or at least not express their feelings, and not to dwell on those feelings. Emotions are something men are trained to bite back and suck it up. Real men don't cry. That sort of thing.

So both men and women are living closed off. The fault is in neither of you. It is a cultural phenomenon but it's now in the process of changing.

For thousands of years, our culture has been male dominated. Men ruled everywhere - in the home, in schools, in governments, in business, in military, everywhere. Men made the rules. Women were designed to stay at home and be available for the man when he came home. She had to do it. The new movie "The Hand Maids" is showing this in brutal relief. There is a new age coming, and it's feminine. It is feminine rising to balance the waaaaaayyyyyy overdue male imbalance. Men ruled and it's time for men to not rule any more. This is going to be a process. This is a time for women to become empowered and to allow their natural loving instincts to come forward. It's not going to happen overnight but there is some immediate advice that is coming forward to all the men everywhere. You too!

Take a step back. Allow your heart to receive this information. That it's not about sex. Sex is an illusion. What is sex? Is it penetration? Is it her being open to you? Is it a prolonged lovemaking that begins with softness and kisses and then lengthens into hugging and talking and whispering sweet nothings in each others ears? That is lovemaking. Sex is simply the ACT of penetration. Or the ACT of giving oral sex. Sex is the ACT of using the genitals to arouse.

Women don't want that. Women want love. Women want hugs. Women want patience. Women want men to stop what they're doing and listen. Women have a lot to say but men don't listen because men think it's irrelevant to their own life. They have to work. They have to pay bills. They have to be responsible. They have to objectify everything. They objectify their wives.

Women don't want to be objectified. Women don't want to be a sex object. Women don't want to be penetrated genitally -  unless they are turned on. Women don't get turned on by oral sex. Women don't want men to keep poking them and prodding them and making sexual jokes to them, trying to get them turned on. Women want to be loved.

Men don't know how to love. Men don't understand the purpose of love. Men only understand sex and penetration and that they want a woman because once he gets inside of her he feels safe and loved. Men know that women are important for that reason but men don't know how to GIVE love in return. Men take love through the sex act. They do everything in their power to persuade, coerce, sweet-talk a woman into opening herself to receive him sexually. And in that brief  time of sex he can have some softness. An orgasm. A climax. Or maybe just a feminine feeling. He needs the feminine.  She needs the masculine. But they don't get it through sex;  they get it through love.

I recommend a simple exercise that you can do all alone. Because you each have a higher self, a spiritual self that is hovering around and through you which is love. Your spiritual self is love and you ARE love.

The exercise is this. Visualize your wife's face in a smiling, glowing, beautiful expression. You can picture her whole body in a beautiful freedom in some way that is pleasing to you. But most important see her face. It is smiling and happy. An image that you would love to see on her face again. Visualize her smiling and glowing. And tune into that image as often as you can during the day. Take some time to be still and visualize it.  You will be actually touching her energy with that picture. You are superimposing new beautiful energy over her. Imprinting that loving energy into her. And make no mistake about it - this is a loving gesture. She needs love. And silently, quietly, without saying anything at all to her, see if you notice changes. Don't try. Just visualize and observe. It is very simple.

You can do this with other people too. It is a way of sending love. It is like a prayer but without words. It's sending light to lighten up a situation. You can do this with a friend, a boss, a child, a parent with whom there are disagreements. By visualizing "happy", or "glowing" or "joyful", you are helping to raise their mood and lighten them up. You're not asking for them to change, you're loving them. That's all you're doing. You're loving them. This is what your wife wants, but it's a feeling, not words. Not actions. Not a coercion or a manipulation. It's simply love. And you are simply loving her.

Let me know how it works for you.  And you can't do it one time only and hope to change the course of history. Do it all the time, or whenever you think to do it. Make it a new habit in your life.

So lighten up and see how it affects other areas in your life. It's not about sex. It's about love.
Diana of Anakosha
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4/28/17  Today I have posted some new information on the MASSAGE page about our newly forming massage club for loving couples. Also a new post, that David is offering Tantric Massage sessions for $100 per session. He is also offering training for couples to learn Tantric Massage, also for $100 per session.

David and I have been learning and growing, each individually, rapidly. For those who haven't kept up with this blog, David is not my husband, he is a soul-mate friend who thinks like I do and we share a common dream. We are collaborators in loving massage. We are each married to other people and happy with our home lives. But we have a common goal and a common dream, and we are working towards implementing it. It has taken time to get to this point. Nebulous shifts of energies -  trials, corrections and more trials - but a fixed pattern is finally emerging. We are confident it is ready. This is going to work. It is all about love.. We use the personal love to build on. We start with couples already in love. Each couple who has mated together and formed a bond knows what love is. Now we can expand on that to impersonal love - learning how to love other people without becoming attached to them. This is a larger love. A more universal love. Brotherly and sisterly love. Because we need each other in order to expand. That's what the new massage club for loving couples is all about. We're building on couples who already have love between them.

And yet, personal love tends to develop into a rut. A "ho hum" attitude of the same ol' same ol' thing, always the same. Where does one go to expand on love, or recharge it, or re-energize it? It was there once, where did it go? There have been women over the years who have voiced to me the following. Not just one woman, but quite a few of them, and it takes courage to say this out loud, even to another woman. They want more elegance, more refinement. They want to feel more important. They want to feel more respect, more dignity, more valuable. They would like to feel, as one woman said, like a princess and worshiped instead of being treated like a sex object.

But it is not the men's fault that women are treated in such a manner. It is partly the women's fault for consistently catering over eons of time to the needs of male sexuality. Boosting the male superiority. We live in a world that has been male-dominated for endless centuries. It is both mentally and physically male-oriented. And all the while, the feeling nature has been ridiculed and put down. In men especially, not just women.  And so women have adapted. We women have learned also to hide our feelings. We have become male-like ourselves. We too are mentally and physically oriented.

Now, today in 2017, the world is lightening. There is more feminine energy rising across the planet. It's coming onto the planet from space. The source is galactic. It is coming from the stars and the movement of space currents, star dust from billions of suns moving through the darkness of space. This is the real cosmic power. This is what is awakening our hearts and solar plexus and the earthiness of our bodies. It’s not a brain thing. The movement is going deeper down into the cells. We are feeling what we haven't felt before. These are body sensations. Our bodies want more refinement. They are taking on the cosmic star dust. Our bodies want to be respected more, and to feel as if they matter. They are not slugs or pieces of meat crawling on the ground barely alive. Our bodies want to be revered and be considered sacred. Men's bodies too. We all need to be treated with more dignity.

The women are leading the way on this new path to the stars. But curiously enough the men are wanting it too.  They just don’t know how to go about it. They are at a loss for words. They need the women to lead them and show them. To demonstrate sensitivity and caring. I have had experiences with men in the swinging lifestyle where they revealed to me that they are tired of the sexual pressure, of all the pressure of being "the man". . We women always thought it was us who were being treated badly, but men have been treated badly too. The responsibility lies on each of us. Men and women alike. Dignity and honor are star dust particles and we have ignored them. The particles are waking up in us. We are not just a brain walking, or genitals walking. We have been created every tiny atom out of a universal energy of intelligence, love, light, beauty and purity. Of course, we don’t know this. Of course!  We have been taught the exact opposite. We have been taught that we are low on the totem pole and we have been programmed to act lowly, with low self-esteem, low sense of value, low expectations, and to feel shame for attempting to matter. It was a clever ruse to disguise the human angel by covering us with dirt.

But that time is over now. We are awakening and embarking on a new trail up the mountain of conscious awareness. The innate dream we carry is real and has to be implemented because we are the dream.  Each one of us has something of value to offer the world right here in our own quiet little place in life. We're connected to the larger picture. We're not separate. The feelings of sensitivity, passion and idealism are connections are activating us. David and I believe in sharing because it is through sharing that we are going awaken the sleeping giant inside each of us. We’ll help you awaken if you help us awaken. We’re all in this together. It's a click-click-click connecting up to something we cannot even imagine. Together we will know ourselves where we couldn't know ourselves, alone, separated from the whole. Together we have enough power to lift this earth out of the mud and chaos that it has been wallowing in for centuries. This power is not physical. Not in muscles but in intelligence, feeling and wisdom. We are first and last internal creatures, not external. There is an inner fire in us that is getting ready to flame into action. And that action is love. Respect. Sacred union with other bodies, other minds, other souls. Lest I lose you in all this lofty talk, it's about making sex sacred.

Women are asking for more respect and the men are willing to give it if they only knew how. They need help. Women, we must give them that help. The problem is, many women are simply getting angry. They themselves need help. Women don't know how to be honorable and respectful to men because they don't feel honored or respected themselves. How do we correct this deplorable situation? We get together and start loving one another in a new kind of way. A lifting up way.  Women are seen lashing out because they don't know what to do or how to raise themselves.  Men are doing the same thing. Frustration is emerging because the feeling nature has been shut down. We need to wake up the feeling nature and we do that through loving massage. That's the reason for the massage club for loving couples.

The feminine nature in us that is rising and we're calling feminine, is not feminine at all. It is spiritual. It's the inner life of emotions and feelings and intuition that is rising and breaking through the crust like a new innocent blade of grass.  It’s the inner growing outer. It’s love and we're going to have FEEL that love. Along with love we're going to feel respect and honored and appreciated. We are going to feel like celebrating and loving everyone. And we can lie with people and love them and stroke them and kiss them in ways that are honorable and not dirty.

Our massage club is about pulling together people who enjoy higher qualities. Who enjoy the journey itself, not the goal. Not the finish line. Not the end, but the journey. The process is the journey.  We don‘t change overnight. We'll have to practice how to appreciate one another and how to open to one another. We are hugely defensive and shut down, as a people, as a culture. So we'll have to learn how to trust one another and massage one another with caring. This is the reason for the massage club for loving couples. We'll stop looking at each other as if we were physical objects, and start looking at each other as emotional, spiritual beings that are changing, that are filled with love and light and purpose and purity.

We have been treating our bodies as stationary objects, like a wooden chair that is broken. Our medical community examines the physical and tries to fix the physical part, yet it is the spirit that has been broken. The spirit has left the body and we need to find a way to reel it back in. We do that by feeling the feelings of love and caring. And the way to regenerate love and caring is to GIVE love and caring. It is amazing to me that so many people don't understand that feeling love and caring does not mean you have to give up sex! It means to care about how you perform sexually. An attitude shift is required to bring in love and respect into the sexual act.

These feelings have been shut down so we live in a shell. We need to reawaken the inner self. We need a transfusion of nourishment for the soul. This is how we make sex a sacred act. When we start to treat each other, not as problems to be fixed, or controlled or educated or changed to do it "our way or the highway", and when we stop programming our children after our own ideas, and give them space to grow and enlarge themselves from within, when we stop storing our elders in a nursing home when we get tired of "fixing" them, when we get tired of booting out the politicians and replace them with new politicians who turn corrupt the minute they get into office because that's the nature of politics, when we wake up and realize that this type of "fixing" is not going to fix anything because we're not physical beings. Nor are we mental beings. We are intelligent beings who are spiritual. It's a spiritual intelligence and it is networked into the heart.

We are separated through the mental construct, but we are connected with each other through the heart, which is the core of the feeling membrane. It leaves the body at death and moves on to higher life. We are supposed to become heart-oriented BEFORE we die - to bring this feeling element back into the world of the living. Our feeling nature is all but dead in us right now, in the way we live. It is waking up. Yes. But it's not being lived. What's the phrase? We need to walk our talk, and talk our walk. We haven't learned what love is yet. It contains the answers to life's mysteries. Love harmonizes all that we do. It is loving and understanding. We are interwoven with the stars and suns of our home galaxy, which supports us with light, intelligence and love. It's time we break out of our cocoon stage and grow some wings. The men like to say, "Grow some balls". But what we really need to do is grow our wings and fly effortlessly higher than that.

There are emotional energies pouring through the atoms and molecules of our bodies, and these energies keep changing. We keep evolving. The world is changing. The banks, economies, policies, schools, police, medicine - all are in the midst of change via chaos. Turbulence is underway, but turbulence is love in motion. We can use it.  Vast loving chaos is underway and love will pull to us what we need. We can use it. The more sensitive spirit within each of us has had enough and we‘re stepping forward, ahead of the masses. We are not going to leave our bodies and go to some higher plane. We are bringing forth love into our bodies. Each of us in our own way, during the day as we walk and talk. Notice how much love you express. Notice how much not-love you express.

And relationships are changing. Love relationships are changing. Love is growing larger. Love is bursting out of its seams. It's wanting to expand but we're holding it back, holding it in. We will explode if we don't find a way to express love. We need to gather together, and we are forming the massage club for loving couples to help us do that.  Emotional energies are waking up. Feelings are coming up and pressing to be expressed. Bite the bullet and express them.

I am doing that right now. I am aware that I am pushing the envelope here and typing things that probably sound crazy or off the deep end, but I'm letting go and letting these feelings come out into words. It feels good. There's a flow and I always feel good when I finish and press "Publish" and it's out there on the web for all to see. We don't know what's inside us until we say it or hug someone or take the initiative to jump over the fence into the wide open spaces of freedom.  Then we know ourselves. We know ourselves the way we are supposed to know ourselves - from the heights of our beings. Not from the meagerness of hiding inside the closet.

These high, high energies are descending down and through what we think are physical bodies but they're not physical. So, OK, you can call them physical if you want to. But they are really whirling particles of intelligence that have become clumped together because we've been taught to hold back and therefore have slowed down so they're like sticky molasses glued together over time. Our bodies are really not physical at all underneath the molasses.  My body is not physical and my husband's body is not physical. We're clumps of slowed-down energy, thick with holding back the free energy that we are (inside). Release that energy and we're free.

When we go to a swing club the guys are so hungry for feminine energy (which they have refused to express in their daily lives) that they rush toward the women, any woman, to get up close, to hug, to touch and they think it's for sex. Sex is the goal.  But, truly, it's not sex they want. They don't know any other way to make contact with the lovely feminine feeling that they, themselves, have blocked off from expressing, that they must fight other men for a woman. It's the only way they know how to feel the softness of femininity. Capture a woman and make her his own, even if for only an hour. The solution to this madness is to start opening up our feelings and sharing them. The massage club for loving couples to swap massages with each other is a beginning.

 Men admire femininity in a woman but they don’t see it or feel it inside themselves. So we women have to stop capitulating to the lowest common denominator in the man who does not know yet that sex IS the lowest common denominator, and it's keeping him there. We must help men to feel the love and nourish his soul, not for our sake, but for his.

We are spiritual people with emotional feelings, and we are mal-nourished in feeling wanted and appreciated. Many of us are skin hungry, which means our souls are hungry for deeper nourishment. Men especially have been closed down due to their outward orientation. They interact with the physical world, not the inner world of emotions. They don't know how to connect with their feelings. The massage club for loving couples will help.
We all need it, but men especially need to be led back to their own hearts and feelings through experience. Not just with words. Let us nurture one another without using each other as sex objects. When we allow ourself to be nurtured by someone else, it doesn't matter who, it is a matter of receiving love, then our feminine energy comes alive. We change. We become more balanced. More whole. More complete. Women don't have to give a man a blow job to make them feel like a man. In fact, I have learned that some men feel abused and dirtied when a woman does that to him. He's not fooled. He may appreciate the kindness temporarily, but he knows it is all an act. It’s not real. We’re not being honest with each other. Let’s speak our truth out loud and stop catering to the lowest in each other. It is time we women started to revere the men and offer them honest feedback to break the crust open. Let the inner life bleed.  It's good energy to offer honest feedback.

I have been patiently considering the ways of how to do this. I hosted swing parties for so many years. I saw things and have tried things - various ways to bring forth a higher vibration of love connection to the lifestyle. Forty years of hosting swing parties have been peppered with single solitary workshops, massage events, exercises, whatever. So many. But mostly I failed. I failed myself.  I wasn't strong enough to stick to the power of love and truth of my inner knowing. I kept folding and capitulating. I kept giving up. I kept surrendering to the lowest common denominator until I couldn't take it any more. Then I began my journey which is leading me here, now, today.

Recently I met a man who is a good listener and has reflected with me on this subject. How do we awaken the respect in people? David and I met every Tuesday and it was not and is not sexual, nor romantic. It is a larger love that has taken place. We have been weaving together inner thoughts and visions, sharing our thoughts with each other. It has been the building of a sacred relationship.  It's more real and I always feel lighter and clearer minded when he leaves.  When you take away controlling ego - i.e., intellectual superiority - and you take away sexuality and personal romance in a relationship, what you have left is something more real.

Swinging is actually a good beginning. it just doesn't go far enough. It becomes fixated on the physical sex, which becomes the goal of the gathering.  Swinging has carefully avoided love as though it’s a taboo subject. Swinging lacks feminine energy. It lacks feeling. Swinging is not going to last if it doesn't bring in more love and more feeling. It must grow up and become a mature activity with a larger purpose than sex as the end result. A larger goal like compassion and love for everyone in the room. If women keep capitulating to male dominance and control, this isn't going to happen. Men have been spoiled. Mothers, wives and daughters all spoil them because OUR mothers and grandmothers demonstrated this is the way we survive in a man's world. Women have learned to be clever. They know how to play that angle.

David and I would like to see more depth and realism in human relationships. We'll start with intimacy relationships because love between a man and woman, or lack thereof, is at the crux of the matter. Babies born to unloving parents contain the seed of not-love. So let's start with learning what love is between a man and a woman and stop pretending it's a man's world because it isn't. It's a human world that is unbalanced and it needs to be balanced, and love is the ONLY way to bring it together in harmony. The call is going out for empowered couples. Will you please join David and me in starting a massage club of loving couples? 
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4/2/17  This morning I woke with feelings and impressions of expansion. I think I was learning in my dreamtime how to expand. I could still feel the sensation of expanding myself. The words were, "When you are in pain, expand. When you are frustrated, expand. When you are angry, expand. When you are confused, expand. When you are lonely, expand." The sense  I was getting was that it's the conscious effort to expand that does the work. The "working it out" is done by thought, desire and intention, not by physical labor. I remembered the pool filter.  Spray cleaning the filer is a job I have to do every month. It's the perfect example of how to apply this principle to every day life.

When I clean the cartridge filter to the pool every month I have to struggle with the steel housing.  It's old and bent and it's seen its best years. To unscrew the top of the housing is a job. I have to chisel it off with a screw driver and hammer because it won't budge any more. Then I lift out the cartridge to spray it to clean it with a hose. That's the easy part. Then I have to screw the top back on, which is terribly difficult because the threads are all worn. I started hating this job. I was developing an attitude over this monthly project that used to be easy. The alternative is to buy an whole new, very expensive pool filter. Screwing the top back on requires three or four repeated efforts because the thread do  not catch, so I have to back it off and try it again, and finally using the monster wrench to force it at the end. I was using force on this job from beginning to end.

One day it dawned on me as I was struggling to put the steel cover back on, that I needed to ask the elementals in the steel to help me. I have been reading in the ascended master books principles for living more in harmony with the earth. My attacking the frozen and resistant steel housing with frustration was not being very harmonious. So I stopped what I was doing and went silent, imagining the living conscious spirit in the atomic structure of the metal container. I first connected with my higher self by focusing on my heart, and then imagined the living consciousness of the metal housing. I started talking to the steel elementals and thanking them for their service, all the while imagining the steel housing in a state of perfect harmony with beautiful transparent rays of light enfolding it. This was a fairly normal meditative visualization, but I seldom think to do it when I am involved in a mundane task - like working with a frozen steel housing.

When I felt I was harmonized sufficiently, I very slowly turned the large screw on the top, listening with inner ears and seeing with inner eyes the life and consciousness within the steel. I maintained this awareness with every slow turn of the large screw. It takes 21 turns to complete the screw-down of the top of the pool filter. As I reached the 10th and expected resistance, there was none. I cautiously continued, keeping my harmony and stillness and reached the 15th turn. Still no resistance. I continued on 18, 19, 20, 21. Still no resistance.  I felt around the rim for lop-sidedness which signals that it went on crooked again. If so, I would have to back out and do it over again. But this time it was firmly embedded into its groove. The steel was purring like a kitten. I was amazed! It worked! I didn't even have to use the oversize wrench to make the final turn to tighten it by force which I had done in the past. I felt the urge to say silently, "Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! I love you. I love you. I love."This was the day that changed my relationship with the pool filter housing. It is still old, bent, and frozen in certain parts, but I have a new relationship with it. I don't hate the job any more.

Neale Donald Walsh once said, “Life begins at the end of your comfort zone”. I related that statement to this experience with the pool filter. Discomfort is normal for most people. We've grown comfortable with discomfort and therefore we don't always realize that we are having a situation that we could improve upon if we were aware. Discomfort is the normal comfort zone for a lot of us but it creates labor-intensive responses to situations, which only builds stress, anger and frustration because we're doing it the hard way.  We're using force on what is a living, conscious, breathing being. It's normal for humans to use force. It's the big change that we are all growing through now. How to expand past force and become friends with objects of nature and people who are not normally likeable.  Our old way of doing things is our comfort zone, but we need to come to the end of our comfort zone of discomfort. It's time to find more expanded and harmonious comfort that is gentle with us.

It takes awareness to know when we're uncomfortable, to catch ourselves in the act of being uncomfortable so that we can do something about it. So that we can stretch ourself beyond that discomfort. That is where pain, a bad situation or a terrible, traumatic event is an opportunity. I can’t open the door to new life when everything is going well and I am happy. But when I am at the threshold of pain or suffering or something is going wrong, then I have an opportunity. Standing at the threshold of feeling bad and life is threatening to pull down under into a bad place, it's a perfect opportunity to go within and push that feeling back. Expand when you are in pain. Expand when you are lonely. Expand when you are sad.

At that moment of discomfort I have a choice whether to continue being in discomfort, or expand by relaxing inward into the silence and stillness of my heart. Meditation is something that everyone should be doing, at least a little every day, to get some practice in for the real thing, for when it is needed the most. By expanding inward into the silence of your heart you open the door to - what? You don't know but there is stillness there. There is silence there. There is peace and there is acceptance And newness. It's a new place and there is fresh air. Relaxing inward and shifting the anger or pain to silence and stillness opens the door to newness. It is expansive. It lets in new life. It is a widening that sheds light on what has been an uncomfortable situation which was hurting and bothering me.

I think this is what is meant by growing by expanding. It‘s a choice to expand and not resist or continue hating and being uncomfortable. Choosing to expand is a gentle act. There is a subtle shift of consciousness to adapt to a larger field. Feeling comfortable is the reward. It is not drastic, like jumping off a cliff, eyes closed and hoping for the best. It’s a gentle thing, pushing the limits back on my own horizon.  It  blends my former horizon with the new horizon. It’s comfortable. The unknown becomes like being an open field of fresh air and soft grassy meadows under a blue sky. It is peaceful. Our job as human beings who are evolving our consciousness to higher planes is to keep pushing on the limitations. Expanding the envelope that we live in. Our job is to open windows and doors and let fresh air in. As the teacher Ramtha said, to make known the unknown. The unknown is full of opportunity and promise but we can't see it if we are in resisting mode.

It’s like when clothes are too tight and I can’t fit into them any more. The human response is to hate ourselves and determine to go on a diet or do more exercise to whittle down who we are, try to fit into the old clothes instead of adjusting our attitude and going out and buying new clothes that fit better and we are more comfortable in them. Allowing the expansion to take place instead of fighting it relieves the pressure. It ends the fight we are having with ourselves. Duality has become such a way of life for us that we have grown accustomed to fighting. We fight mostly with ourselves, not with other people. We are competitive because we see we are in duality and the two opposing forces continue to grind in on each other. There is consciousness in everything, including our own brain and muscles. By entering into the silence, we can bend those forces to harmonize instead of fight, if we choose to and know how to. And when we experience harmony we can't help but bend the knee in thanksgiving for this opportunity to heal. Weaving the known (the former perspective) with the unknown (that which we are inviting to come forth) together is like two lover’s embracing after a quarrel. There is a sensation of being stronger yet gentler. By joining together two separate energies, two different perspectives, two opposing thoughts, two different colors and world views, we become whole.

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3/26/17  The other morning while making love, once again the heavens opened and I could see beyond my normal sight. It happens after meditating on love. That particular morning I had been thinking about our massage project and how so many people spoil the massage by anticipating sex afterwards or during, and I was wondering as I often do, how can we circumvent this problem?  While making love that morning I saw a most wonderful vision. I saw what expectations are doing to people. I saw expectations as a flower fully open, its petals were the expectations, each one different, unfolding in complex patterns outward, all around the center stamen, which appeared as the jewel in the lotus.

The central stamen was revealed as the prize that is overlooked by everyone holding an expectation and seeking its fulfillment outside, beyond the center. The expectations showed themselves to me as walls, barriers and boundaries that block our way to the real and true core of self. We search outside of ourselves and away from our real self at the center by defining for ourselves what it is we want to have happen, based on prior experience. Our prior experience becoming the standard by which we base future desires upon.

Each person holding an expectation has set up a scenario of what they want to have happen, and with who, and under what conditions. Each person's expectation of the best possible outcome is hanging out there in the far reaches of the mind, far away from the prized central core. The expectations are so much less than what our real self wants us to have and can gift us with. It is OK, though, because we are creators and we are here to experiment with this. We have created what we are so far, by holding onto lesser images than we are capable of. We are learning. We are the creators of our life. We just haven’t learned to look beyond what we know to the unknown that is waiting to flow in. We are each holding onto limited standards. It was apparent that we must relax our expectations and allow ourselves to drift back to our center, and drink from the nectar that is waiting for us there. It is our spiritual core.

Expectations are a though we hold in our minds and wish for, but newness does not come from a thought held in the mind. It comes from beyond the mind, beyond what is formerly known, from what is formerly experienced. The newness is something that has never been experienced before. It has to be new to move our feelings and emotions to excitement. The spontaneity of random encounters. When we fix our mind on an object, we are stopping energy from moving. Mental energy stays still and fixed, when we hold a thought. This will not work for us to give us an exciting new experience. We need the sensation of energy moving through us. That is what causes excitement, exhilaration of feelings.  A mental picture that is stationary and holding cannot provide that excitement.

Random encounters are exciting because they are not set up ahead of time by the mind. They are not expected. We can only have this kind of enthusiasm by retaining an open mind. A truly wide open mind. This means going into the heart and releasing all mental control over what happens. Expectations are stationary and immovable. They just sit there on a shelf collecting star dust. They cannot provide emotional feelings. Joy and elevated feelings of rapture come from opening the mind and the mental window to let fresh air blow in from beyond. There is a river of life and light and love that comes through in a spontaneous flow, if there is freedom and no  coercion, no pressure, no boundaries set by expectations. By hanging onto the expectation of wanting a particular person, a particular outcome, a particular mood enhancer, the gifts that spirit can provide are held back. The gifts that are waiting for us are the gifts of awakening love within our own body cells. It is unexpected. We do not know what they will be or what they will feel like because we have never experienced them before. They are beyond our control. We can’t control this experience waiting to be visited upon us. We can only allow it to flow. The only thing we can do to help it along is drop all boundaries, expectations, walls and barriers that would block it from happening.

We must interact with real live human people to create a flow that is unlimited and unconditional, with no expectations. That is the only way to be truly free. In our massage gatherings it order to create a truly free environment for massage it must be safe from expectations. A truly free and loving massage can release elevated feelings, even rapture, when there is no expectation of sex, either wishing for it or being afraid of it. Many women are hesitant to have massage because of their fear of being violated. Many women would love to have a warmly loving and nurturing massage but are defensive because they do not trust what will happen. Each of us has a lot of different energies and histories that we hold locked inside our body. Inside our bodies we have exquisite feelings, both good and bad, but they are generally kept tightly closed to us, so we can't feel them. They are not moving. When a small group of us gather for mutual massage, we will be helping each other to release those feelings, so we don't want any pressuring or coercion to take place, even if it is just a "wish" for something more. An open mind needs to be held by both the giver and receiver. We will be merging with love. We want each other to experience an openness to love that is within them. When there is love flowing within, there is softness and a relaxing and an ease of restriction. Sensation begins moving and it is a wonderful release of the long-time stress that held it in.

This type of massage goes beyond the limitations and focus on physicality. We allow feelings to move when we are not fixated on any particular part of the body. The feelings locked up in us are indefinable and unknown, and they will be able to move only when there is unconditionally loving people assisting. Even the receiver is assisting the giver by being unconditionally open and receptive. Healing hands and receiving hearts are the formula for connecting in an authentic and mutually compatible way, for neither will be expecting anything from the other. This is how we expand beyond ourselves into something greater. Again, this is how we help each other through massage, both giver and receiver can experience the expansion together, as one. Even two strangers who do not know each other. Such is the power of unconditional love. Not personal love, but impersonal love. Impersonal love is greater than personal love.

The greater is more than can be understood in words. Words are finite, fixed and concrete. That is why we have to experience it. The flow we will be able to assist in releasing is a gift of profound value. As the giver pours all of self into the moments of the massage, the receiver feels it and both enjoy the expansion process. This is a highly unusual process. One that cannot easily be found through mental processes, such as meditation. As we open the dense physical body to spiritual love, we enter into a connection that is unusual for strangers to experience together. Both giver and receiver may experience a oneness. The sense of being two separated people often disappears. This is not personal love, and a couple need not feel jealous if one of them experiences this with another person. It is not personal. It is spiritual but the body is going through a metamorphosis of releasing. The giver is a healer. The receiver is also a self-healer, allowing it to happen. It is universal love, impersonal love that does the work. Not the individual.

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3/15/17 Today I am becoming conscious of my four lower bodies coming into alignment. I experience them as bubbles within bubbles, exactly like the pictures of the aura is portrayed in graphic form. I am aware that they are not in alignment. So I am seeing the process of my awareness bring them into alignment. I am balancing them simply by being aware, and visualizing them, these four lower bodies. I doubt many people have heard that term so I am introducing it here now. My four lower bodies are the energies of my mind thinking (one body), my feelings feeling (another body), subconscious or automatic tendencies like habits (another body) and my physical body (the flesh body). The three non-physical bodies are my eternal immortal consciousness that jumps from body to body when one body dies and it must take on another body. The soul, you might call it.

These four lower bodies are fragmented. Because I am studying cosmic law with the masters I am boning up on knowledge that has been around from before the beginning. Jewels of teachings that are not commonly known. I am here to share this knowledge as I myself am experiencing.

My four lower bodies are being pulled into alignment as I wash dishes and prepare breakfast. There is a beam of light shining on this process. I can see them, sense them, as these four alignments take place. I have been wondering about them. They are coming into alignment now, this morning. This process is becoming conscious. It's in the forefront of my brain.  I need to share it so I am here to describe it.

What David and I are doing with our loving touch massage is realigning the four lower bodies in people to bring about healing and a sense of love. Self love. It starts from within. When the four lower bodies are integrated and realigned, the person feels peaceful, happy, and more present in their body. This is what love feels like. It is personal and it is powerful. It's hard to shake someone out of their feelings of love. This happens automatically when someone receives a massage, more or less. It depends on their ability to relax and receive it whole-heartedly. Some people can't. Whether a person can maintain the beautiful feeling also depends on whether the person is aware enough to know what is actually happening within them. The lack of knowledge keeps people from maintaining the alignment.

Very few people are aware of the four lower bodies - the three subtle bodies they carry around with them as an auric force field, emanating through the physical body.  It is not knowledge that is commonly available.
The four lower bodies are not supposed to be separate, but the way humankind has fragmented itself over the eons, these four lower bodies have become separated. Our job - all of us - is to become aware of how we let them fall out of alignment and how we might maintain their integrated wholeness as we work through our day. 

The ascension process (you may know that term by now) is an integration process. It's an inner process of realigning these four lower bodies, because the higher bodies are already aligned. They don't fall out of alignment. They are in their perfection at all times. But everyone is struggling with their four lower bodies being out of balance, and struggling without having this knowledge. How many people know that they have four bodies and not just one? Having this knowledge will help. You have been mis-aligned and diverted away from your own naturalness and your own power source.  You are a natural being that has been torn apart by forces you do not know about. You are seeking to know yourself, and well you should, for you are an immortal being temporarily living in a temporary body which may die without your consent. You have lived many lives, one body after another, in a series of reincarnations which you are mercifully shielded from remembering. If you were able to remember, you might not be able to handle what you learn about yourself. You are meant to live only one life at a time, so you can focus without distraction on your life immediately in front of you.

When you descend as one integrated consciousness into a human embryo and grow up through childhood and adulthood, you become fragmented. Parents don’t know these things, you are not taught these things, and so-called experts don’t know these things either. Only the ancient master teachers know these things and have left clues in hidden places. This knowledge is completely overlooked in the maze of  human life as it is today. But because you don't know this, it doesn't take away from the facts. You have four lower bodies that are misaligned and therefore not in tune with each other. This scatters your energy. People wither and die from fatigue struggling to understand their problems and confusions, and they are missing important information.  Imagine a car that loses some of its cylinders or they are misfiring.

The master teachers keep telling us about these four lower bodies and how to realign them. I am using my own words to describe this. There are many ways to describe it, using different words and terms. This is my way. But the term "four lower bodies" is a phrase that can be found most everywhere on the internet today if you look for it. And you'll get a ton of information. The masters keep telling us to go into your own heart and breathe into the heart and focus on the light in the heart, because that’s where your core is. That's where you r understanding is. That's where you are integrated into your naturalness. Your wholeness. That’s where your consciousness is anchored. We call it the soul. When your body dies, you might degenerate slowly and die in stages. In fact, other organs can stop functioning one by one, but but as long as your heart keeps beating there is a chance you can regenerate if you know how. Nobody else can do it for you. Because your consciousness is the life of your body and it is anchored in your heart. It is the power that powers your body. It dimmed down in most of us so we have to blow on it and breathe on it and focus on it, like we do on dying embers in a camp fire, to bring it back to life. This flame of life is what keeps your body alive. Your soul is already alive. It is not going to die when the body dies.

Back to the practical. Your four lower bodies need to be brought back into alignment. Our culture keeps us fixated on outer world things, like making money, tending children and medical issues, etc. We won't go into all the distractions that keep sucking us outward, fragmenting us into dozens of different areas that need our help.  We struggle to keep ourselves together. The four lower bodies are the four parts of us that need realigning. Again, they are: (1) your mind which spans both high intelligence and low; (2) your feelings/emotions, both high feelings/emotions and low; (3) your subconscious tendencies that come from your past lives, with bits and pieces from your ancestors, and these are both of high quality and low; and (4) your physical body.

During a normal therapeutic massage, even an at-home massage, where someone gives a simple stroking to help relax someone, there will be some integration of these four lower bodies. You can tell how successful you are by how good the receiver feels afterward, how peaceful, warm and nourished they feel. It is easy to read someone who has been well loved.

David and I have posted a simple "welovemassage" invitation on the massage page on this website. We are inviting couples only at this time to come in and have a four-handed massage with us. Actually three of us will work on each of you, one at a time, individually. It sounds like a basic sensual massage, but what we are actually doing here is CONSCIOUS massage. We both are aware of what is happening, on a deep level, within the body being massaged. We are bringing about an alignment of fragmented, distorted energies within the body. We call it by different names. David calls it "love". I call it "light". But love and light are one and the same energy. Light is information as in understanding something through the brain in a thoughtful manner, where love is the FEELING in the body which doesn't require the mind. You can feel something without it going through the brain. It is a direct transfer of power into the cells of the receiving body.

A physical body can be assisted to wholeness and balance through massage, but it is even more successful when it is done by people with conscious knowledge of what they are doing. If they are able to maintain a steady stream of elevating energies of peace and calm, the four lower bodies - body, mind, feelings and etheric body - flow naturally together into oneness. This is what brings about the state of peace and bliss. Normally fragmented in all of us, they are positively affected by a loving consciousness. And it is best that it be a peaceful, serene, loving consciousness.  God forbid it be a negative consciousness. Scattered, random thoughts that bounce from thought to thought and thing to thing, or talking mindlessly in chatter during the massage, will do more harm than good. This approach to massage is much more than a therapeutic massage. It is immensely valuable to their wholeness.

The masters call these four lower bodies four separate WORLDS in which we live. Your mind lives in its own world with thoughts, both high thoughts that are creative and exciting, and low thoughts that drag you down. Your mind seeks other people whose minds are compatible with your mind. Your feelings and emotions live in another world composed of feelings and emotions, high feelings that inspire and elevate and low feelings that drag you down. You tend to seek out people who are compatible with and supportive of your feelings and emotions. You validate each other and help each other to grow and understand when you share your feelings and emotions with other people.

And then there is your subconscious world which contains all of your past lives and unresolved situations that need resolving and therefore "nudge" you to do things you don't want to do. This part of you is called your astral body or etheric body. You carry it around with you wherever you go. You can't run away from it. It comes forward to be integrated. It will make you more whole as you come to understand yourself more. Our culture has kept us in darkness about these things. But it is time to become aware of them and we can start doing that through conscious and loving, kindly massage to wake up the inner body's feelings.

When you bring these three non-physical bodies into alignment with your physical body, even if only temporarily, say for an hour or more after you've had a really good massage, your physical body feels wonderfully peaceful. Everything is right with the world and even if it's not, you don't care because you are back at the center of your galaxy again. You are deliciously warm and feel SOOOO good! It is love. It is an inner love becoming activated because love is all there is. Love holds you together. So when you feel loving, know that you are healing by integrating. It is important to find ways to feel loving throughout the day, week, month and years of your life.

When your body keeps trying to fit things together and there is continually confusion,  your four lower bodies are out of alignment. Go into your heart, your neutral place, where you live in the center of your four worlds. Try your own form of visualization. That's part of meditation;. Find your own way to imagine this. Use your own resources. Breathe into your heart. Meditation is a generic term for going into your heart, or inner core. Only you know where your inner core is at the moment. If it feels in your solar plexus (navel) then start there. Work with what you FEEL. It is recommended by the ancient masters to do this for 10 minutes three times a day. Just breathe. Breathe in and breathe out while focusing on your heart (or navel as the case may be) and you will receive inner instructions.

The vision that David and I hold is of a community of consciously aware individuals who can maintain their equilibrium. Who are loving and kind individuals who want to help "right" the world by bringing people back into alignment and balance. It is up to each person to want to do this. We want to put our hands on as many people as we can to bring about this integration. As someone is integrated from a conscious massage, session, you might tend to credit the giver of the massage for the good feeling he ends up with. And then go home and allow him/herself to drop out of orbit again an and become fragmented again. The work is simply to become aware of how you spin off into separate worlds - mental world and feeling world. And how you do things out of habit, automatically.  The mind thinks one thing, the feelings feel another, the automatic tendencies (subconscious past) nudges them in a certain way, even against your wanting to go that way. And the physical body still struggles with keeping it all together.

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3/12/17  When David and I first met, we found ourselves compatible on one particular point that has become the basic foundation of our continuing relationship. First of all, we are colleagues with a shared vision, we are not romantically involved. This one particular point binds us together. We call it "healing the feelings".

Feelings are a feminine quality. They are non-physical. They are not emotional but they BECOME emotional when they are not expressed. When feelings are held back from expressing on a continual basis, they become suppressed. But in the beginning a feeling is a gentle whiff of a want. It is not pushy. It is sweet and gentle and simple wish. When it is ignored, it drifts downward by the pull of gravity to the lower part of the physical body. If continued, a scab grows around it for lack of attention.  It doesn't go away. It just stays there and eventually it is felt as an emotion.

Emotion is a feeling charged with energy. The longer it grows underground unnoticed, the more powerful it becomes.  The initial anger is simply the body telling the owner of the body that something is wrong here and you better deal with it. If it is not dealt with (expressed) then it becomes rage. Jealousy is the same thing. It starts out with a gentle feeling, doesn't get expressed and so it is buried. Needs that go unfulfilled start out lightly. As light as a feather. Feelings are beautiful gifts of the spirit. These are the feelings that need healing.

What David and talked about from the first day we met, was about our own feelings that have gone unfulfilled. But instead of jumping into bed and having rocking-rolling sexual encounter, as so many people think will clear the air, we talked about ourselves to each other. We compared notes and revealed things about ourselves because we had someone who listened. That's the only requirement to healing feelings - to have someone who listens and allows. People pay lots of money to go to psychiatrists who listen. But we didn't have to pay for this. We found a friend in each other who listened and we listened in return.

We're not trained to do mental work. We are hands-on loving people. We like to hug. We like to hold hands. We like to touch and nurture and be kind. We listen. And we hear. This is mostly non-verbal work. That is how we met. We are both massage therapists and we began by swapping massages first and then discussing our feelings. How wonderful it feels just to touch without expectations.  Massage is not just therapeutic, it is nurturing. It feels good to be touched with kindness that is open-ended. We realized that a kind, open-ended massage is probably one of the best ways to help heal the feelings that have been buried down deep and forgotten. It's a releasing of blockages.

Because of my many years in the sexual arena of swinging - 40 years now - I have accumulated a vast amount of knowledge  about the intimacy needs of people. Very up close. More up close and intimate than most people have had, because I stuck with it long past my desire to do it. I stuck with it because I was a giver and a nurturer and I wanted to help people. I saw a lot of healing during my years of swinging. But I eventually learned that  that people wee covering over their deeper needs and pretending they were OK.  I saw people become more and more shallow the longer they stayed in swinging. I felt we were misplacing our focus. We were replacing our need for love and intimacy with superficial sex.

The shift from needing love and intimacy happens gradually, imperceptibly. It goes unnoticed by the one in need because a temporary high takes place at a swing party. There is sex and social camradery and the couple goes home and makes love and they are happily pleased with themselves. If they are among the lucky ones. Others do not get so lucky and have rocky experiences. But the lucky ones blow out the tubes and re-establish harmony and balance to their bodies and their home relationship. It is good as long as everyone is truly happy. But so often there are deeper needs that go unfulfilled. That is when sex becomes a bandaid.

We are fortunate, those of us who have found this outlet of swinging. But it is not the answer to the longing for love that inevitably wafts upward from somewhere unknown. It is a deeper longing, more than for a sexual encounter. It could be as simple as a need for a hug. We often say to each other, "I need a hug!"

By not getting that simple hug and perhaps a friendly ear to sit, talk and listen with, the need for a simple hug gets buried. The common practice of having sex might relieve the need for a little while, but soon the longing returns.  The momentary purge of a sexual encounter is superficial. The need for intimacy is not relieved by sex because it is not a physical need.  It is an emotional need. Sexual activity does not go deep enough to heal what is malnourished down below. There is a hunger there that is going unnoticed. The need for healing the feelings, in our estimation, means assisting individuals in becoming aware. Becoming aware of feelings that are not even being noticed by the one living in the body temple. 

The flow of life is being curtailed. Blocked. And we need to find ways to alleviate this unnoticed condition.
David and I have found that loving touch, hugs, true conversation while cuddling that may last hours, is a fulfilling way to heal the feelings that we did not know we had.

We flow with feelings all day long. Some people are very good about expressing their feelings, but more of us have not learned how to do that. Many really nice people are blocked because they are so busy helping others that they bury their OWN feelings. Many giving and nourishing people are the worst for wear and tear. Are the first in need of healing. We all need to find ways to express feelings, otherwise they get covered over and a scab forms. Scabs upon scabs upon scabs create a resistance to receiving care for themselves. Givers are the worst offenders to themselves, because they become martyrs and the world loses a beautiful soul as they fade away and dry up. It is easy to say to someone who asks, "Nothing's wrong!"  "I'm OK!"  "I don't have time for this conversation!" And we live on the surface of our skins because we don't let anyone in. It is this type of feeling that needs healing. That needs release. But how? Where do we begin?
 
David and I have discussed it until we plumb ran out of talk. We finally posted a simple invitation on the massage page (here) inviting couples to contact us for a massage swap. We have reduced it to a massage swap as a way to help us all relax and let our defenses drop. We are the first ones in line who need this and want this. And because we are the first in line, everybody who comes to us receives our love from us. It is not sexual but it is tender, caring, sensual and relaxing. To the question "Will it be sexual?" The answer is No. It will not be sexual. Sorry if this disappoints you. But it will be loving to the point that you will feel warm, and loved and perhaps wish it to be so. But no. It will not turn sexual.

Love is the whole point. Not love in the groin area, but love in every single cell of the body, with no focus on any one spot over another. Because a physical body is a complex mix of energies - some divine and some human - we stir the energies up, like we might stir a pot of soup of many ingredients. And we add our love to the mix. We channel love. We ARE love. David and I want to share our love with other people. It is not a personal love. It is holistic. It is universal. It is oneness. A loving touch massage fulfills the need to be loved in a holistic and natural way, simple as a child needs love when it is hurt or hungry. To be alive is to feel the need for love.  Unconditionally loved, without demands for anything more. Just to be accepted, appreciated, adored - even worshiped, as David likes to say. 

Healing the feelings is a step towards feeling free. Everyone is seeking freedom, but much of the sense of suffocation comes from being inhibited by the culture. If we are released from what inhibits us, we feel liberation flood through our bodies. We may laugh and giggle from joy without knowing why we feel so happy. Liberation brings joy and peace. It is a step towards feeling free in all areas of life. This is cosmic law and an ancient teaching of Tantra.  Everyone agrees that feelings and emotions are a feminine need, not a masculine one. Jokes about women and their emotions are a crutch to lean on by men. Men can easily hide their buried feelings in the macho way of making a joke out of women and their feelings.  It may be that men are more in need of healing their feelings than  women.  Women at least know they have unfulfilled longings but men do not often admit to having such feelings.  The male-dominant culture has harmed men as much as it has harmed and damaged women.  Everyone, men and women alike, turn to sex for relief - which causes pleasure - because as of today there is no other way. But we are moving into a more enlightened age.

Now, David and I we are not seeking to give free massages away every day to people free of charge. Because we don't charge for what we are proposing here.  Our goal is find couples to join with our vision. We want a group of couples for massage swaps. We are hoping to share our loving approach and our philosophy in a teaching, counseling manner so others may also  learn on-site, the hands-on and happy practice of giving AND RECEIVING massages to and from others. It is liberating and exciting to do this. It helps heal the feelings by swapping massages with others and talking and getting to know others in a way you can't possibly do over dinner, or even in swinging.

We are hoping to meet a group of couples and eventually a few special singles who are compatible to our philosophy, gather occasionally in a massage swap, one-on-one. To meet, lay hands on people, discuss feelings privately and personally, and enjoy the sense of floating high on liberation of blocked energies that happens when the heart opens and the feelings begin to flow. It's like magic but there must be an attitude preparation before beginning.

When feelings are flowing out from you through your hands, you are LOVE is flowing out through your hands. It's not just a physical rough rubbing of skin on skin. You are releasing your feelings as you massage someone else. Your feelings are required as part of the mix. It is a natural form of loving expression, such as hugging someone to your heart. It is not personal. It is simply nurturing and loving. Love is at the heart of every single human being alive. Love is at the heart of every animal, every plant, every vegetable you eat. Love can be seen in the form of light sparkles in the air outdoors in the sunlight. Love IS the sunlight shining down on us all. Love is the intelligence that is everywhere around us.

This is Tantra. The original Tantra. This teaching is at the heart of the Kama Sutra which teaches the art of lovemaking. How to love another human being is not about sex. How to make love is like learning how to make a cake. There is a protocol and a recipe for making a cake. It takes time. The final result is eating the cake and enjoying the taste.  The final result of making love is the enjoyment of two bodies enjoying the perfect union.
Contentment proceeds out of this type of lovemaking, where a quickie in the bedroom before work or dinner does not produce contentment. A quickie during lunch hour is like popping a pill.  The masters taught the art of lovemaking many centuries ago, but the masses were not sufficiently evolved enough to understand it.
Today we are ready, as a people to receive these instructions. A revolution of consciousness has begun.

When a couple comes to David and I to experience a massage swap with us, they will then go home and discuss it between themselves. What was your reaction? They will ask one another. How did it make you feel? Was there a a thrill or excitement, or was it uncomfortable? It all depends on how they receive it. If the thrill of excitement was felt, then there was movement of energy inside the body, mind and feelings. If so, perhaps they will contact us again, to be placed on our email list to be invited to a group massage swap with a few other couples.

It will be under David's and my guidance to keep it to our standards. It is easy to let standards fall, as everyone can imagine. Especially when there is skin to skin contact for prolonged periods of time, as in massage. So there will be a certain preparation to set the mood before beginning. Our standards are of a higher nature than probably will find anywhere else. I say that without pride or boastfulness. It is simply a fact.

 I think it is important to say as a final note - this is not a pretext to find couples for swinging. I am sure many who read this will wonder if that might be our ulterior motive. But, no. A couple joining this network may become authentically intimate with one or two other couples, or more perhaps, as they get to know each other, and they may swap contact information, but it is not our intention to induce swinging. Our desire is larger than that. It is to heal the feelings and show the way for others to heal the feelings by flowing genuine love to as many people as possible. Love is all there is and it has been blocked in people. We want to help release blocked love. It will change the world.

After 40 years in the swinging lifestyle serving in the sexual arena without the higher sensations of love, I seek to introduce true lovemaking.  Each person may take from our loving massage swapping what they will. It is each person's liberation that is our greatest desire and wish. Becoming freer and freer with each massage swap is our intention. What they do with that freedom is up to them. It is their choice. But it really is all about the freedom to love and the love of freedom.

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3/10/17  David and I have been meeting with a couple and expanding the vision of massage swaps. It is too personal to write about here. But it's all about light and love and the symbiotic relationship between light and love. There is an inner life to each person that is sacred.  But that inner life has been blinded by the insidious controlling games of the outer world. Not only TV, media, news, authorities watching, toxic food, environmental health hazards, violence, crime, disease, etc., all holding your focus on external things - but our own personal involvements with each other that need not be. The focus on the outside world and other people has been the main distraction that keeps us away from our inner life which is rich with clarity, purpose, intelligence, wisdom,  truth and peace. The outer world is a trap and a hazard. There are warnings lights all around but we don't see them.

Meanwhile, we each have a rich and sacred inner life  hat is all-knowing, intelligent, wise, loving, enlightened and at peace. This part is going unnoticed in the chaotic struggle of day to day happenings "out there beyond us".  I woke up last night with these words: Wake up! Pay attention. Your inner life is waiting for you to listen. Listen to your heart. Listen to your OWN feelings. You are an immortal being locked in a cage that is not a cage at all! The outside world has programmed you to think you are trapped but inside there is a secret life that knows. This most sacred life is rich beyond compare.

As David and I continue meeting with this one couple and a second couple is coming to see us soon , we are sharing a great awakening. It is more than we realized when we first started. The inner life begins to awaken with loving touch massage. It is not about sex. Our loving touch massage swap awakens inner wisdom and inner feelings. There is an activation, a stirring of things within. Inside the body. But only if you're ready. You can resist the awakening and just receive a massage. But it's getting more difficult to resist the light and love and wisdom that is inside of you. We each need it. We help each other to wake up by touching each other with love and caring. David and I started it and we are showing others now.

It's simple when we all understand that this is a very loving massage and very sensual, but it is not sexual. It is through sharing touch that we share the spark and the inner knowing. The light turns on INSIDE! The feelings are felt INSIDE.  It is not sexual but it is sensual. The difference between sexual and sensual is that you can feel sensual but you don't act on those feelings. You can feel very, very sensual to the point of being so hot that you feel like you're going to explode. But as long as you don't act on it you are still being sensual and not sexual. If a person can allow themselves to just feel, then the light turns on inside. If you are distracted and start to act towards becoming sexual, then you abort the light-turning on. This doesn't mean you can't make love. It doesn't mean that at all. Making love is a tremendously valuable process between two people. But know the difference between sensuality and sexuality and you will learn more about the awakening process within your own body, mind and feelings. It really does help to clear the mind and balance the chaos and turn on the light and peace within.

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2/18/17 Much has been happening on inner levels. There is more harmony and sensitivity as layers fall a
way like autumn leaves, leaving the more solid trunk clearly showing. The last two mornings I lay in bed feeling warm love and peace as a wholesome and natural radiation within me. It is very unusual and very comforting. I feel so very complete and connected with myself.  This morning it was so deep, so complete, that I didn't feel any need or wish to get up so I laid there for two hours basking in self-love. And I was alone in bed by now! This was an unusual feeling. I've had it periodically over the last weeks. Sometimes after bonding with my husband (meaning making love), but more often alone by myself.

The reason for this unusual activity is that I am in the middle of a certain training or tutorial. I do certain disciplines every day. And my instructor is not in a physical body. I receive these instructions in my mind, quite succinctly. I am learning techniques from a tantra teacher who lived centuries ago and now resides on the ascended planes.  I made contact with him when I bean asking for help with tantra, because tantra was so confusing to me.  He has been showing me that tantra is the path of reconnecting with the body.  With ones OWN body. It is a mystery to those who haven't learned how to do this. But to someone who has practiced this and studied it, it is completely natural and wholesome and real and wonderful. And love is really all that is.

Today I was led to post another channeled article by Mary Magdalene (see it here), another ascended being, and while I was looking through the page on divine feminine, I re-read the one by the Magdalena from last June  (see it here).  As I re-read last June's article, it touched my heart more deeply than it did eight months ago. I understood it better. While Mary Magdalene is commonly thought of as saintly and far beyond human reach, she speaks of the physical body and how she felt when she was human, and about physical love. For those who do not believe in channeling, I would urge you to  read with your heart.

These two articles tie in with the project that my partner David and I have undertaken. We have met and come to know another couple in the last few weeks through our "welovemassage" posting (here). We meet together often and our discussions are taking the shape of a two-prong workshop which is not yet finalized. We are still in the "unfolding it" stage. We would teach these techniques of body connection - getting to know your body through heart-centered love, through hands-on application with and by others of similar mind.

Ideally, we would like to have 20 couples in a massage network, where everyone could learn these techniques and practice on one another. With 20 local couples, we could be assured of at least a handful of couples at each meeting. In simple terms, we would guide focus to the heart, to the chest area, and pull in thought and feeling to that area. The heart is the fulcrum between sexuality and spirituality. The heart is where love resides and where everything, high and low, come together and become one. So there would be conscious training involved.

To fill in a little bit, there are seven energy centers in the body, up and down the spine. Out of the seven energy centers, three reside above the heart and three below the heart. The heart is the central point which integrates above and below. The physical heart resides in the physical level, which is the densest of the seven levels. The physical heart is encapsulated in a beautiful etheric bubble of highly concentrated love and light, which in turn is enclosed round about by an even more refined bubble of love-light, which again is surrounded by an even more refined bubble of love-light. And there are four more increasingly more refined "bubbles" of love-light, one above the other.

Ancient schools taught these techniques for healing, to bring back wholeness to body, mind and feelings. Now they becoming available to us today. We can literally bring our physical illnesses, mental confusions and emotional confusions, back into harmony through certain techniques. We believe massaging the body with kindness, empathy, forgiveness and love, with an awareness of the brilliant sun of the real self shining in the heart, miracles will occur. They already have, but we won't say any more at this time. 

The heart is an untapped source for healing on all levels. And when uncapped, through certain practices and processes, and with love, we can be uplifted and transformed in a very real and practical way. We will soon send out the notice that we are ready to begin practicing with some intimate friends. We will keep you posted. Meanwhile, if you are so eager to begin that you can't stand waiting for us to finalize the plan, do contact us. We would love to meet you for a massage swap.

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1/28/17 This was given to me two days ago. It started out as a message for me, as usual, and I as usual, took the message and expanded on it.  

The kundalini is a mysterious force held in check at the bottom of the tail bone. It is on the etheric plane. Material scientists will not find it unless they have some ideas or knowledge about it. The kundalini is the other half of your spirit. It is the feminine half of your spirit embedded in matter, in your physical body. There is a design to the human body that has been largely unknown except to the few. The kundalini - or kanda - is waiting for you to drop your mental process and lofty ideals and focus - really focus - down into your body. Into the parts of your physical body. This takes some degree of humbleness, humility in the form of love for the body.   This is necessary to connect with the feminine half of yourself, which is locked up tight as a drum at the base of the spine.

Kundalini is feminine. It is the intuitive feeling element of the body. It is soft, warm and is the good feeling of being safe and loved. It is all-knowing and wise, just as women are innately, by nature, all-knowing and wise when they are expressing their natural femininity. But most women have been closed down. The masculine side of each of us, women included, has repressed our feminine side and do not allow it to show. We don't realize we are doing that because we FEEL feminine. But we do not show it. We have learned from the culture to repress our inner feelings, our intuitions, our knowings, our realizations. We zip our lips and remain dumb about it. We have all relied on our mental side as being superior. Men and women included. We have been taught the teachings. Use your mind. Think. Don't be stupid. Remember what you were told. Remember the rules. Don't cry. Don't show your emotions. Emotions are for weaklings.

So the kundalini remains held in check. She, our sweet and beautiful femininity, our feelings, our emotions, our perceptions, our wisdom, our safety, is locked up and we can’t get out. This includes men as well as women, for all of us are angelic in nature. The divine feminine in each human being is held in check and cannot come out when she is not honored. When she is ignored. When she is considered unnecessary and a hindrance. When she is put on the back shelf and dismissed.

The kundalini - the kanda - must be invited to leave her nest. She must be invited by your male side, your superior mental attitude that you know best. This requires on your part, humility, a humbling down, in order to descend and come within range of the kanda. Kanda is a secret name. It means “beloved” in the ancient inner language. Kanda is your feminine side of your male spirit whose separation came about at the time of birth into the physical. The feminine was needed to go down into the dense physical to anchor you, your spirit, to the earth. Your feminine nature is love and love is required to hold something in place. And so there was a division. Your male half remained above, your female half plunged into the earth plane to provide maintenance of the human body. This love is still within you. It has never left. The body temple has been much abused and maligned, but the feminine spirit in the form of the kundalini is still there within the womb of the body, holding the light and the love. This is true of men’s bodies too. Men have spiritual wombs, too. The kanda is there to be “found” by your other half - your superior male abstract consciousness which feels above it all, and thus superior to the body and to feelings of the body.

Our superior mental attitude must descend in attitude. It’s an attitude thing, and it’s a loving thing. As you descend down into your body, you begin to connect with your body. As you lower your expectations you lower your ambitions. Your lower your desire to control, you lower your sight, so instead of seeing outside of yourself, you see inside of yourself. You awaken your inner self as you continue doing this. You lower your dreams. You don’t give them up, you lower them down into your body, gently, carefully. You lower your ideals. You carry them in loving consciousness down. You don’t discard them. You carry them in your embrace, as you would carry an infant. Your dreams are your infant children. Your lofty ambitions and your high principles - these are your children. As you surrender your male attitudes and take on the role of nurturing parent, you descend into the depths of your self. You come closer to the mystery lover within. This is a grand initiation experience.

Humility and humbleness is the key. As you surrender your defensive resistance to the unpleasant, bad and ugly things of the world, the surrendering to love takes place. You begin to feel soft. You feel vulnerable. You feel holy. You feel things you haven't felt in a long time. As you give up the superior defensive attitude, you move closer to the kanda, your beloved, which is truly your SELF! And you move softly - ever so softly - through the thinning illusion - it is thinning more and more as you practice this - the thinning illusion that kept you separate from yourself. What the world knows as kundalini is felt in each person differently. Only you know. The sensation spreads. You are the sensation. It feels like you but you haven't ever felt this before. It is a surprise. It is warm and safe. It feels like you've come home. You are becoming intimate with your other half. Your feminine half that was divided from you before you were born into this world. She came first, ahead of you, down into the earth vessel to hold space for the other half, your male half, to come down and join her.

Your feminine feeling self moves when it is honored. When it is focused on with love. Then it moves. When it is honored. When it is loved. When it is focused upon as in worshiped. It is sacred. You are sacred, but you have been only one half of the whole and you didn't know that. You could not FEEL the sacredness before, but now when you blend with your feminine half which is down there in the body and in the cells of the body, you begin to feel that sacredness. It is all about love.

Practice. You may do this periodically during silent alone time. You may come and go in your experimentation. It is done gradually, little by little, as you grow familiar with your sweet other half. Whenever you surrender your superior position in the ivory tower of the skull and humbly descend down into the body in a sacred, loving, intentional way, you come within range of your beloved feminine side. It is you. It is not someone else. It is you.

When you surrender, the attitude is not in hopelessness or in despair, but in knowledge that something is waiting for you. You don’t know what. Your mind does not know. There is a pull to do this. Everyone feels the pull but most people don't know how to get there or what the pull is. But there is a pull. And when you are ready to hear it, you will. This is the work of every human being. Your other half is waiting for you to connect with it through the body. Sexuality now takes on a new meaning. Your feminine spirit is waiting for you to finish wandering about the surface world of intrigue, adventure and trauma with other beings. It has been waiting for you to be done with that and are willing to undertake the inner journey. To reconnect with the divine self within. It is a journey to be done alone, but it can be facilitated with others who are also aware of this same  inner journey. This is what David and I are exploring. Your inner feminine may also connect with others who are also awakening their inner feminine. Together feminine love may be enhanced. By networking with other people love can be double, triple the feelings of love. It is all about expanding the quality of love within the human community and leave behind the violent nature due to repression of the female and the magnification of the masculine competition and control.

The kundalini is a mystery to humankind but it is not a mystery to someone who has made the journey and eased into sweet balance. The mystery is knowable when the love connection is made. Ascension is not a place, nor a higher plane of existence. It is not in the sky on a star ship or on another planet. Ascension is right here on earth in your earth body as you reconnect with the divine that is also on and in the earth. It has always been here right along. It just needs to be focused on, honored and used in the right way. It’s in the body. It's in the cells. It's in the blood and the water and the bones.  It's available. Most people try to get away from the body and the ugliness that is attached to the human condition. But that's the outer world, not the inner. What we are supposed to do, and what we are designed to do which most people do not understand even today, is that, to COMPLETE the body, we must embrace it in gratitude and in love, from one body to another. That is the “calling home of the body”. When we reconnect with our inner bodies in moments of stillness and love, we touch the fringes of our sacredness. The divine. It's huge.

The key to all of this?  How does one do it? I've been on the spiritual path from age 15 on, and I have felt the pull to leave the body. The spiritual and religious paths take people AWAY from the body, promising more heavenly rewards "above". However, through the sexual lifestyle, coupled with the spiritual lifestyle, I have learned the way to complete the body. You don't want to leave it behind, for then how can you enjoy those beautiful sensations? This is the path of the ancient tantric masters. We must love the body and awaken the kanda, the feminine feeling centers of the body, and integrate our internal male and our female halves to become whole. This is how we do it.

David and I love massage.  We are interested in developing a local network of couples who are interested in group massage nights/days which would act as a social mixer as well as elevating and healing the rift between men and women. David also does a tantric massage with couples for pay, but I do not participate in that. David is more qualified than me for he has had training. You may contact him through the massage page. We both receive it and will answer accordingly.

We are exploring. I'll keep posting as we go along. Meanwhile, if you would like more information, feel free to write through the contact page.

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1/24/17 - We Love Massage. Two days ago I shared a vision about expectations. This morning I came awake
seeing myself among a group of people who were not together but milliing around, like in a mall. I felt them, each one, as if I were in touch with them. I could feel their nearness, each one, even though there were many. I was so open to them. I could feel myself merging with them. They didn't know. They didn't respond. But I could feel them real close. I knew that I would become close with them. I could feel myself merging with them.  I WAS merging with them, all of them, each one separately. They did not have to know. Maybe some of them did.

When I woke up there were words in my mind, ”Imagination is the language of light. Imagine beautiful things and you will be a lightworker.” I wrote it down so as not to forget as often I do in the morning. As I wrote, other words started to flow. “Uplifting things, courageous things, truthful things, justice, mercy, forgiveness, joy, happiness.” All of these start with imagination. Maybe they are not evident in the outer world but we become lightworkers when we use imagination to uplift to higher degrees.

Then I realized this is like a continuation of the message on expectation. “Thought uses words, imagination does not use words. It is uses imagination. Pictures.” Yesterday I awoke imagining projecting myself ahead of myself as I walked. As if I were sending a ghostly image of myself ahead of me in the direction I wanted to go. Today  I am told the words, “Imagination”. Imagination is not thought as we know thought to be. Thought has ground rules. Imagination extends beyond thought, beyond the brain, beyond words.  Words are fixed. The brain is fixed. Thought is fixed words. Imagination is fluid. It is a flow of inspiration. It is fantasy. The only thing we have to do is see that it is uplifting, rather than depressing. Imagination creates so we don't want dark imaginings. We are lightworkers, not darkworkers.

Imagination is fantasy - beyond what is practical in a physical matter world. Imagination can do anything!  Imagination can be applied to a new job, a new house, a new car, a new relationship, solutions to an old problem. Imagination doesn't have to think about it, because thought would take us out of fantasy. We would have to think, "How to accomplish it!" We are not meant to "think". We are being told to imagine. Simply imagine. Think of the Beatles song. They left us with a message. What are the words to that song?

Simply imagine the most beautiful, the best possible scenario you can imagine, and you will be a lightworker. You will be informing the universe that this is what you want. And then leave it. Don't try to make it happen because you can't make it happen. The universe makes it happen for you. That is being a lightworkers. Just imagine it. When we use the language of light, we are allowing our higher self to speak through us. We are simply allowing it. We are allowing the language of light from our ascended self to speak to our world of physicality. Being a lightworker is allowing these beautiful fantasies to flow through us without stopping them with our expectations or doubts. This is the coming age of love. That which we seek is love. The language of light is a flowing of universal information (a language) down into form, into shape, into expression, into sensation.

The language of the fifth dimension, the language of light, the language of fantasy, is a flowing. It is where anything is possible. It is how the ascended ones live, how they communicate, how they create instantaneously. We are getting primed and ready to learn how to use it. We have to jump outside the box of our brain and which holds old programmed thoughts and beliefs, to jump outside that ivory tower into the soup, into the mix, into the creating of a new world for ourselves and our family and community. Like the children do. They don't bother "thinking", they just imagine. We must awaken the child in us.

Imagination is flexible, fluid. open, moving, not fixed as in expectations or beliefs.  Fantasy is a fun flowing, an endless dreaming. There is no finite to it. It takes a little while to get used to using it as a normal way of life. We have to leave the boxed-in parameters behind. We can't fix imagination or it becomes a dead-end. An expectation. Let it come and let it go. It's coming from higher planes. For example, President Trump. He was a disturbance while he was running for president. Now is a wild card. He came out of the blue and he ruffled feathers. He disturbed people mightily. He is breaking into our fixed beliefs. I didn't know I had so many fixed beliefs. Now I am seeing that I do. Trump is breaking them up. He is breaking up a lot of fixed attitudes. He is bringing them out into the foreground for us to see.

His raw and rough approach is causing chaos. Worry. He is rattling the country and the world like an earthquake shaking the ground and uprooting long-standing trees and highways. He has no respect, it is said. He is not respecting manmade protocol and tradition. He is causing us to open our minds (after a lot of struggle). When a tornado comes ripping and roaring through town, we can't stop it because it is bigger than us. We can fight it, we can swear at it, we can get mad, we can get scared, worried, defensive, angry, attitudes that don't help us at all, unless we want a heart attack. A lightworker raises it up, because it is the only weapon we are allowed to change something ugly and bad into something good and positive. We cannot be harmed if we use our imagination for good. Let us be lightworkers. 

It's not about politics, though. It's about our own personal life and finding a way to bring about peace, love, and a better world for ourselves and our loved ones. Protestations and arguments don't bring peace and love. We have to change our attitude, our approach, relax our mind and allow imagination to flow through us for betterment. That is the spiritual law of the universe. It's time for us to learn about it and use it in our own personal world.

We are here to fight corruption and it begins with us, personally. The only weapon we have is imagining better, instead picking up guns and sticks and going to war, we are to imagine something better. We are not allowed, by universal law, to fight the dark with dark. We don’t fight fire with fire. We fight dark with light and the light is our own consciousness. The language of of light is our only tool, and light and love are the same thing. Light is information and love is taking that information and making it real. Living it in our world openly and freely, to
make it manifest into the physical where others can see it, hear it, taste it, feel it, know it is real and not a fantasy. We take free-flowing information and let it free flow through us into the world. We move it. Not just think about or talk about it. We act upon it. That has been my big mistake. Talking about it and thinking about it and not acting on it. My job now is to take this information and act upon what I have been imagining for a long time, and stop thinking about it so much!

We can remold our world by imagining it better, looser, more flowing, more beautiful.  As we do, the dark is lit up as if a flashlight was turned on into a dark closet. The people in the dark are lit up and revealed. Everyone who has dark thoughts are exposed. We can‘t hide our darkness when light is shining. Our weapon is light. When we allow light to express in our personal world, it is felt as love. Maybe sometimes it is felt as tough love, but it‘s love all right. It definitely is. It is information no longer being avoided or denied or repressed. These lit-up areas of our life transform our world almost like magic. It is like when a long-held shame that has been held secret for 25 years, is now told to someone and suddenly we are free. We are the ones we are saving, not the other guy. The dark in us is what holds us back by shutting down information that we have. The dark we should be concerned about is not the other people, but what is locked up inside us. Nothing - literally nothing - is so dark that it cannot relief the pain and suffering and bring about peace and good. That is our job. To stop blaming others and the politicians and the bankers and whoever we want to blame, and start living the light and the love within ourselves.

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1/22/17 - We Love Massage. This is a new project that David and I are working on and slowly unrolling. The vision is far-reaching but it starts with massage. I have posted it in the MASSAGE page. We have had a few massages with a few people and we invite more to contact us. Couples and single women only for now, as we are still evolving.  I am still evolving. There are layers and layers and still more layers of things I have to get through. Clarity is coming every day but it is like peeling an onion. I get past one thing and then something else pops up. These are clearings. AhHA moments. What is being peeled away are layers of expectations. And beliefs I did not know I had.

This morning I had a most wonderful experience during my meditation. I saw what expectations are doing to people. To me. I saw expectations, many expectations and beliefs, in the form of a flower fully open. The flower petals were the expectations and beliefs, unfolding quite beautifully all around the central stamen, which appeared as a shining jewel in the center - the prize that has been overlooked by me. By everyone who is seeking outside of themselves for answers. The expectations showed themselves to me as walls and barriers. Boundaries that block my way to the real within. Yet they are safe enough. They are OK. We search outside of ourselves, facing away from our real self, the prize at the center, by trying to define what we want, what we need, what we feel to others. And what we want to have happen and what we want the other person to do for us. And when we get together in little groups, each person has a different set of scenarios of what they want to have happen, and with who, and under what conditions, etc. Each person's expectation of the best possible outcome is hanging out there in his or her auric field, in the far reaches of our minds, and it blocks us from getting it because it's too fixed, too narrow, too focused. Nobody could possibly fill that expectation.
It is less than what our real self can provide if only we would stop expecting.

It is OK, though, because we are creators and we are here to learn through trial and error. We are here to experiment through and with other people. We have created a lot of wisdom through our experimentation and our travels with people, some special people, some accidental, some traumatic. We have been creating our life situations by defining what we want and then expecting it to work out that way. But there is the jewel in the lotus at the center of the flower. The real self. The sovereign self who stands alone. We haven’t found it yet. We haven't learned to look inside the treasure chest. When we start to open the jewel-encrusted chest (the body) we are going to find the most extraordinary things. The jewel in the lotus is our bodies and our ability to feel feelings. We are being asked to make arrangements to bring people together so they/we can facilitate each other. With the help of friends we can tap the unknown and allow the sensations of love that will be unearthed. Together, we can do this, with and for each other.

Expectations are a problem. Expectations are scenes and beliefs we hold in our minds of what we want to have happen. It's a planned scenario. We fix our mind on something and it stays there solid and immovable, like a barrier of sorts. We are seeking this thing to happen for us, but it's unattainable because every person has a different picture. No two are alike. We must drop our expectations and allow the unforeseen to happen.  The spontaneous. The flow between people. This can't be controlled. We can't imagine it. It is a feeling. It is a flow. We don't know what is to come because it hasn't arrived yet.  The joyful experience of merging with others without expectations, allows the moving of emotions, the sensation of feelings within us that are not restricted to a limited mental picture. We can find this by coming together with others and touching them and hugging them and interacting with them closely - but without expectations. This is hte hardest thing to understand, but understand we must. We are to drop our expectations which have fixed us on lesser things and hold us to petty goals, fixed like concrete. They are holding us back.

Freedom does not come from someone outside. Freedom is a sensation. It is a sensation of love flowing freely within the self. It is the jewel in the lotus.  It's hard to imagine. Well, I think we've all had a momentary flash here and there. I know I have. We know it's there and it's possible. But what is holding it back? I saw this morning that expectations are holding us back.

Joy does not come from another person. It can be facilitated by another person but that other person cannot give me joy. I have to allow joy to flow freely within me. And to do that I need to trust the person who is touching me. Joy comes from within. Love comes from within, but I have to trust and allow and yield and surrender my blockages so it is flowing from within me. Wow! This, I would not have seen. The concept continues to evolve. I need to trust. So, that is why I have been insisting on no sex during the massage. Another "AhHa!" If we know sex is a maybe or a possible, it keeps my focus outside, external, on what the other people are doing or thinking of doing to me. I am either in fear or in hope. I am kept away from relaxing and trusting and allowing myself to surrender.

The spontaneous free flow with a group of trusted friends is an amazing experience. I have felt it. To be able to flow with freedom and love without having to think about reciprocating or performing or worrying about what's going to happen after. Just allowing the sensations of love to spread all through and through the bodoy from head to toe. And to give that same sensation to another person later. It is a most wonderful experience.
We can’t control that type of feeling. We can only give in to it. We can only go with the flow but we first must create a flow. We must have people to create a flow. We must interact in a way that is free and safe. Safe massage, safe from expectations, safe in the way of simply loving the experience.

We are to merge our personal knowledge with the personal knowledge of other people, up close and intimate but not with sex because sex is an expectation. Massage is safe when everyone agrees there is no expectation of sex. Each of us is an encapsulated body of knowledge and sensation, of light and love, We have exquisite feelings inside but they are locked up and not moving. Warm, loving hands by trusted friends will move sensation around so we can feel more. Our knowledge (our light) is inside us but not moving very much. When gentle caring hands move across our back, legs, arms, face, it moves this light, this inner knowing, around so we become aware of what we know. We are being asked to come together. It is a vision that both David and I have had for many years, but we did not know quite how to bring it about. 

We have evolved a concept of bringing people together through massage to merge our bodies and our knowings and our sensations and wisdoms together - but not with sex because sex is an expectation. We are asked to bring our bodies together so the love that is trapped within us can relax and flow and merge with the love of the others we are interacting with through a simple massage encounter. Sharing to give and receive the sensations. Then we can expand into something greater. The greater cannot be captured in words because words are finite and fixed. The flow of love is not a flow of love but a flow of sensation. We are being asked to drop expectations and enter into the jewel in the lotus which is an eternally flowing river of love. We are being asked to facilitate its moving through the physical bodies. We will be enriched by it.

By dropping expectations we will experience more than we have before, when we held expectations. This is a concept that cannot be properly explained because it is a feeling. It has taken us a long time to put it into words thus far.  The plan is to gather people together who understand, as best they can, and to trust it and not give in to the lesser temptations that our minds have known prior to this. We must let go of prior memories and enter the flow of the "now" moment that is created by our coming together with loving and kindly intentions to assist one another in experiencing the greater without trying to control it or direct it.  Thank you for listening!

I have seen into the future. There is a new age coming of men and women who have overcome personal issues and achieve remarkable heights of love and lovemaking. Sex becomes lovemaking. Sex as we know it disappears from view and it is all about love and lovemaking. This knowledge has been reserved for when the consciousness of the culture is more ready for it. It appears that we are ready for it is coming through many people. This knowledge has heretofore not been accessible. Our minds were too restricted. But it is coming. It is possible. It is of galactic proportions. It is available for those who can set aside their old limitations and yield to the love that is already held locked up inside the muscles, organs, tissues, cells of the body. Oh, the things I have seen! I wish I could express them in words but maybe you get the feeling? I hope so!

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1/18/17 - I had a light bulb pop on this morning. This is something I have known mentally before, but the full meaning hit me in a more personal level. A gut feeling you could say. It hit home.

Stop wanting things! Stop wanting a massage group. Stop wanting this. If you really, really want something, you’ve got to let it go. It is like letting the bird out of its gilded cage. If it's meant for you it will come back. Stop wanting.

I read this in a journal entry from 1982. I started off thinking of a friend who wants a man in her life as a partner so much that she is not getting one. I want a massage group of uplifting and elevating people so much that I am not getting it. Many people are wanting things so badly that they are not getting them. The answer is "Stop wanting." Stop wanting money to pay bills. Stop wanting a new car. Stop wanting a better house. Stop wanting to get well. Stop wanting to fix the daughter's mess she made. Stop wanting. Stop focusing on what you want because what you’re doing without realizing, is you’re focusing on what you don’t have, and when you focus on what you don't have you are blocking the flow of the infinite sea of life, love, abundance, freedom, all that is, the sea of oneness. The universe is designed to provide everything you could possibly want, but you are signalling that you want poverty, lack, pain and suffering, so this comes back to you.

We are focusing on a brick wall made of substance and preventing that which we want from flowing to us. We live in a sea of abundance and trying to manipulate it by telling the flow to "do it THIS way". We are trying to tell the universe what is best for us and we don't tell it in the proper words. We need to change our words. We are using tunnel vision when we should be using higher vision. We are focusing on disharmony when we should be focusing on harmony. The universe works in a loving and harmonious manner, lining up the atoms and molecules so they fit and dance well together.

The sea of life is large and doesn’t have the capacity to manipulate the way humans do. There are laws in effect. Besides, we are focusing outside of ourselves, out there in the maze of the outer world of matter and the telephone to speak to the universal flow is inside our hearts. As we continue to tell the outer world what we want, it is like - to use a popular phrase - like pissing in the wind. It comes right back into our face. This is not working. It is draining our power away. It is stopping us from getting what we want so badly. Universal law is scientific. We must stop wanting whatever it is we  are lacking because lack is the message we are sending out. So how do we stop wanting? My journal entry reminded me. We must replace the continued thought of "want and lack" with a proactive thought of fulfillment and happineness. We do this in the form of an invocation or affirmation. A prayer or a mantra is composed positive happy and fulfilled thoughts.

An invocation is asking someone of higher authority for assistance, like the ascended masters or the heavenly host or the angels or a special guardian spirit, or God. A request for help. Invocations are repetitions that open portals to higher consciousness individuals. Masters. Help comes from higher places when we ask. Help doesn ot come when we close the portal and go about our business on a human level, thinking we can find the answer on our own. The problem we have is not trusting the higher realms. It is a science. Universal law is scientific. And Certain ways of living have been proven. It’s not about being "good" or "bad", but about using the right technique. Looking to higher minds, higher beings, higher laws, is a must to get what we want. Stop wanting and issuing calls for lack, and start issuing calls that are filled with happiness and abundance. Even the ascended masters look to someone higher as they evolve in consciousness. There is always someone higher.  

An affirmation is different. It is the act of verbalizing a positive statement of support and encouragement for oneself alone. It is not asking for a higher being, but affirming something good that you want.This is harder to do because our subconscious is filled with lack and impoverishment and we may think we are affirming good things for ourselves, but in reality an underlying message of lack is woven into the affirmation. That is why calling upon higher beings to help us in getting what we want, is the better and higher way. Look up invocation and see where it leads you. Start doing it. This is my own message to myself. I am just sharing it. An invocation is a mantra calling on higher energies that are not our own.

A mantra or invocation is done in repeated fashion, over and over, to reshape and remold the negative thought patterns that made ruts in the brain synapses. It takes conscious effort to reshape and remold negative thoughts into positive ones. Fifteen minutes a day is a good start, and twice a day morning before starting the day and evening before going to sleep is a very good start, to anchor a new direction. Before we sleep we set the pattern in a positive direction, and during sleep our real self goes in that direction to talk with masters. We always journey while the body sleeps, and we can entrain ourselves to remember when we wake up in the morning. An invocation is more powerful than an affirmation, because we are going directly to the presence of an ascended being and asking him or her specifically for advice and help.

Stop wanting. Stop wanting and relax your efforts to get it. Settle back and trust that your wants are being handled. Relax and smell the roses and use your invocation, affirmation, mantra or whatever technique you have chosen. I will give you my absolutely most favorite mantra of all.

          “I am the light of the heart, shining in the darkness of being and changing all into the golden treasury of
          the mind of the crystal one. I am projecting my love out into the world to erase all errors and to break
          down all barriers. I am the power of infinite love, amplifying itself until it is victorious, world without
          end, amen.”

It was given by an ascended master. I forget who at this point, it was so long ago. I memorized it years ago and continue to use it today, whenever a moment comes along I notice I am saying it automatically. In the beginning I had to work at memorizing it but today I sometimes wake up with this song ringing through my consciousness.

There are many such radiant words available to be found on the internet. One that comes form an ascended master has more light in it. Committing it to memory will help change brain cells from dark to light so you can better receive more goodness. The universe wants you to receive good things. And if your brain can receive more light and goodness, so will your heart, organs, body and your entire world. But it does take conscious will power and an effort to dedicate a certain amount of time to this every day.

Another way to change negative thoughts to positive thoughts is to call forth the positive qualities that you want, specifically. Name them. "I call forth joy from the heart of creation. I call forth courage from the heart of creation. I call forth intelligence from the heart of creation. I call forth truth from the heart of creation. I call forth healing from the heart of creation. I call forth freedom from the heart of creation. I call forth peace from the heart of creation.

The sophistry of the world tends to degrade and ridicule such activities, and if you are thinking, "Ridiculous", be aware that our world is a dark planet that has been mind-controlled and programmed to be at odds with everyone and everything. To be at war and to be in fear and to be in poverty. This is the only way back to self-empowerment. Through the use of consciousness. Consciousness is the only thing you own, because you ARE consciousness. Without consciousness, you are dead. With a twisted consciousness you are at the mercy of those who manipulate you.

Consciousness is not energy. Consciousness CREATES energy. Consciousness does not move. Consciousness is everywhere. Consciousness is life, and it is intelligence, and it is love. But it does not move. It is stillness. You are supported by consciousness and I am supported by consciousness. It is our job to identify with that sea of abundance, intelligence, love, light, information and all that we are. We are more than we think we are. And, what you become conscious of creates your world. What you like and what you don't like. It is all created by what you are conscious of. We do not want to become conscious of dark thoughts or of lack, because that is what comes back to us. We DO want to become conscious of positive thoughts. Mantras and invocations and affirmations are what we use to replace negative or dark thoughts of lack, poverty, pain, anger.

Love is all there is. Love and intelligent consciousness exists in the non-moving space between the whirling atoms and electrons that hold your body together.  Identify with that non-moving space between the electrons and begin filling it with positive thoughts.

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1/15/17 This weekend we had a visit from a couple we've known for many years. It provided two things for me: One was an incredible cuddling, snuggling experience with a man of advanced age.  I haven't experienced anything quite so beautiful in a long time. The second insight is that two people who have been married for a long time are probably not going to be able to do this for each other, and that we need other people with whom to expand our love because the home relationship is usually stuck in a rut of sameness. With all respect to each relationship reading this, we do build a comfortable nest and a wall around our lives together, and it is virtually impossible to break out of that walled-in nest without outside help.

My husband cannot give me the  same quality of tenderness that this elderly man gave me this weekend. And likewise, my husband could not have received from me that beautiful experience which he received from the other lady. We long-time married or coupled individuals need to expand our love with other people outside of ourselves but - and this is a big but - it is not easy to find two individuals who are each compatible to both of us. Not easy to find. However what is compatible? Does it mean we have to find the same age? The same body type? The same economic class? The same political party? The same philosophy? The same spirituality? The same mental intelligence? There are thousands of categories that could be named and not one couple could fill all of them. No one person can fill all expectations. Not even our true and only best friend we married so long ago. Because we are changing. Everything about is is changing. Because we are evolving past yesterday. We are evolving past what we thought and believed yesterday.

Strangers bring newness. Strangers bring challenges. Strangers bring different energies into our auric field. It shakes us up. It tears us down and undermines our pre-set, pre-negotiated values. It is refreshing. It is my belief that a massage group composed of strangers will provide opportunities for growth. Spiritual, mental, emotional and - yes - physical healing. As long as it is in a safe environment, which means a non-sexual environment. We can practice intimate encounters with strangers via massage and social time as long as we don't have sex as the ulterior motive for our gathering. 

Swinging philosophy is all about intimacy with strangers using sex as the focus, a loving massage group is all about intimacy with strangers using body contact as the focus in a kind and focused way. Love can be felt between bodies when in close contact. It is amazing. I have proven this over and over to myself privately, alone, in my encounters with people. It is absolutely amazing what can be felt when two bodies - or three or four - get together and share love. The weakness in swinging is that it is all about sex and not about love. Love is the important ingredient that is missing. Did you know that traditional swingers do not like the word "love"? They do not want to hear the L word mentioned in swinging circles. They are afraid of it because most people think of love as meaning personal attachment love, as in falling in love and moving in together. Most people are afraid that loving someone means disrupting the home life, getting a separation or a divorce, how to tell the children, and the whole nine yards. The easiest way to defend against this type of disruption is to reject the word "love".

This has been a huge motivation for me over the years. I have been musing over it for a long time. How can I bring love back into human affairs? It is not about "falling in love". That would be exclusionary. It is about expanding love to include more people. Inclusive, not exclusive.  But how? It is about massage. When bodies are close together without sex being the ulterior motive, the bodies can slow down and appreciate simply being together in close contact. Body to body. Hands, feet, arms, legs, toes, stomachs, butts, but not focusing on the genitals. The hair on the head. The whole body feels the contact with another body or two or three or four bodies. This is how we can include love back into human affairs.

Today I re-read the Anakosha ABOUT page (in the above menu) and I realized it was outdated. The last entry on that page was updated in 2014. The Florida Silver Foxes website was announced for couples over 50.  Well, that website has been taken down so it was time today to amend the ABOUT page. It gave me an opportunity to say more about this love approach. It now reads:

Florida Silver Foxes was taken down in 2015. Today Brian and Diana live together in Naples, Florida in a semi-retired, happy couple relationship with occasional visits from a few free-minded friends. They have found a happy medium where each can devote their days to their own interests without interference or supervision from the other. Diana is the web writer of Anakosha. As a student of spirituality, she is aligned with Ascended Master instructions on how to live human life to the fullest. Her interactions with sexual people have been the focus for her instructions.  Over the years she has learned how to channel higher love into human affairs. Her intention is how to express love physically, using the correct mental and emotional approach. The emphasis is on freedom and each one's freedom to choose compatible lovers and how to consciously create one's own experiences without pressure or coercion from anyone, including a mate.  In a truly free society, each individual is sovereign and not obligated to serve anyone else's needs, but rather to live the law of kindness, compassion and love for everyone. Every relationship is sacred but the first relationship to make sacred is the one to SELF.

An expanding understanding of such spiritual forces at play within the seeming ordinariness of life inspires Diana, and fuels her desire to start a loving massage group where everyone can practice conscious choice in company with others who are practicing conscious choice. In a compatible group they can practice sharing hands-on, close and intimate experiences in higher love. This requires moving past physical sex as an expectation. Swinging requires sex. In her experience swinging has limited people to the first two or three chakras which creates pressure, expectation and muddling of boundaries. It stops short of sovereign higher love which can only be experienced by releasing all expectation and entering into the energy of love. Diana is prepared to guide us. She is a prolific writer and uses Anakosha as an outlet for her thoughts.
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1/9/17 - The other day David and I had a group massage with a couple we just met. We did it four people on one table. We massaged first the man and then the woman. We ran energy and raised the vibrations to an extraordinary height. It has taken me a few days to process the experience in order to write about it. It was beautiful!  They did not massage us but we are invited to their house next week so they can reciprocate.

During the massaging we moved energy. It is all about running energy. I just posted something in the kundalini journals, written 35 years ago and never published. No one has ever seen it but me. This channeling tells the story of what we did the other day, massaging. It was all about love and moving the old energies out of the way. Pushing them out of the way so the love could be felt. And we all felt it. It was amazing.

There was no agenda. We just went with the flow. We let our instincts be our guide, although David is more of the leader than I am. We are both trained in massage but he is much better at muscles. I only do energy, he does both muscles and energy. We both have advanced training in running energy and guess what that energy is? It is Love. Love is all there is everywhere in nature, inside people and out. The problem is, we have misused that love and held it back, and colored it with all sorts of this and that and up and down and good and bad and manipulations, etc., etc., politics, selfish motives, ambitions, dislikes, likes, discriminations. Well, I could go on and on describing the darkness that covers the love that is inside of us, in the heart of every cell. We are children of light and love. Light and love are synonymous.

Every human being was born out of Love and I don't mean the human mom and dad because they did not know about this either. They brought you into the world but then you were on your own from the first breath. Love is at the heart and soul of each person. Love is light in formation. Love is light that has been formed into a pattern. There are many patterns. Many species. Mankind is only one species. But within the species there is uniqueness. Each individual has a unique love-light pattern within, over which the muscles, organs and bone structure are built, based on the original perfect design. Always beautiful. Always young. Always. Without love the minerals of earth would not adhere to build a body. Love is the glue that sticks them together and holds them in place. You ARE love and I am love underneath the physical shell, and we are conscious at that perfect level. It is not airy-fairy. We are who we are. We each have a perfect template inside us, over and around us, but we don't know it yet because we are buried inside the human shell. We think like a human and act like a human, but let the human step aside for awhile and we can feel who we are beneath the charade. And we can get there faster with some helpers, as in massage, to help push aside the human energies that clog the arteries of our perfect pattern. There is a design, there is a plan, there is a divine and perfect plan behind everything in our life. We need to find it. We need to own it. We need to put our focus on what is real within our hearts.

Each person we meet on the street has a divine light-love body which is perfect in every way, beautiful, handsome, clean, sparkling and perfect in every way, waiting to be let out of its cage of dirtiness. Just to clear up the words "light" and "love", because it's misunderstood. Light is the creator and the architect who dreams life into existence. Light in this context is the masculine side of the creative intelligence. Love, which is also the creator but in this context it is the feminine side of creator. Love becomes the form. Love is that part of creator that descends into earth planets and takes clay, soil and minerals and builds a form out of them. Only the creator can do that and creator is both light and love. They work together.

Light dreams the blueprint on the architects table, and love goes to work and builds it in reality. We are both the architect and the builder. We are both the masculine side of creator and the feminine side of creator. It is our job to know this and bring these into balance within ourselves. We breathe in the formless design (ideas and insight and vision) and then we go to work and breathe out - build the forms into our world and our reality, via our relationships, our inventions, our music, our art, our writings, our businesses, our brilliant ideas, our newness, our excitement. Our passion goes into the building of our world. But most of us have had to work at bringing forth what is deep, deep, deep inside of us as a knowing and a vision and a hope and a dream. We have to work at it and not give up. And not give in to the dreams of other people because we have our own dream to nurture and see that it becomes manifest. We were born into a slave world. We were taught to obey the rules of others. That makes some people authorities and other people slaves. That is not how it is supposed to be. It was not designed that way. We must take our power back through love, through kindness, by owning our love and our kindness, and making it superior and the supreme voice in our world. We don't do this by fighting or opposing others. We do it through love. By owning the love that we are inside of us. It's time to break the spell of authority figures. All authority figures. We are moving into higher dimensional consciousness. That means you and me and our friends and neighbors. Each of us is sovereign and free of limitations.

We have an exquisite and perfect form on the higher consciousness plane, the etheric plane, that breathes life into our physical body. It already exists in heaven and we are meant to discover it, or uncover it. It is a game of hide and seek. Our beautiful light body is our own true self. It is a light-LOVE body hiding at the very center of our being. Don't use logic on this. Just know it. You do know it if you trust yourself. You are unlimited. Unconfined. Unfettered underneath mankind’s illusions. Recognize the illusions. See them for what they are. Our true self, otherwise known as our higher self, is hidden in the cells of our body at what we call “zero point”, in the space between the swirling electrons. It is exquisite bliss in the non-movement and silence of the space between the electrons, atoms and molecules. Except we don't know it yet.  We haven't tapped that silence yet. The silence of love. The science of love.

We are supposed to find it and uncover it and we can do that through meditation practice and also by moving the old energy out of the way through loving massage (not just therapeutic massage). With loving massage we can move the human energies out of the way so the love can come out of the shadows and circulate freely through a body made loose by tenderness and kindness. We have to move the old "fixed" energy out of the way to be able to do that, while at the same time consciously but silently, with our minds free and unfettered by discipline, engage the love light in the body. By gently loving the energies out of the way, with love, our hands move the fixed-in-place energy, the stuck-in-the-mud energy, the limitations, the set beliefs built up over a lifetime, all the human beliefs like "I'm not good enough" or "I'm a sinner,"  thoughts of incorrect and false vibrations, low vibrations, low feelings. We push all of that out of the way and let the love shine through and waft through the body-mind-feelings like a fragrance from a beautiful flower. We can feel it if - IF - the people are aware of love. We must intend a loving massage, not a sexual massage.

A sexual massage is too low in vibration because it is restricted to the outer shell, the physical.  Love is not physical. It can be seen and felt through the physical, but it must be sparked by the intention of love. Then the physical body can feel the love. So very loving. So full of love it is impossible to describe. Let the love flow. The end result is we feel so loving that when we are done we just want to be still and let ourselves feel that. It is intensified when there are several people involved, hugging at the same time. You don't want to move because you're afraid you'll lose it.  So you just hug together and let it seep into everywhere. That’s a group hug worth waiting for! That’s what happened for the four of us. Contact us through the contact page if you are a couple wishing to share massage with David and me.

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1/5/17 We have had our first meeting with a couple interested in joining our newly planned massage group. A wonderful, lively interaction took place and found that it was easy to come to a meeting of minds. We met simply to chat first and tomorrow we scheduled the massage. I posted a new MASSAGE page today in the menu above and we are hoping for more responses. A few single men were quick to express their interest in joining and sadly we had to decline, at least for the time being. We have expressed our current philosophy on the MASSAGE page, and hope this will change in the near future. Meanwhile women are always welcome and hope they will contact us. Just to meet and talk. After all, this idea of a wholesome, loving massage in group format, is set up primarily for women to feel safe, loved and able to give and receive freely without expectation, and participate in awakening and expressing the divine feminine within all of us.

A special note to single men: Thank you for your interest in our massage group. However, it has only just begun.  We are meeting one couple at a time for discussion first. Secondly we set up a day for massage. At this point we are having only couples. This is to help you understand how we are progressing. If you have a wife or girlfriend or simply a friend who would be willing to come in and talk with us about it, we think we could persuade them to try it. But there is no massaging on the day of our meeting. We are very kind and loving people. We are authentic and sincere. We are not threatening at all. We find women are kind of defensive about having strange men touch their bodies, so we are having couples only at this point. When this group grows, as we anticipate it will, and fills out with more people and there are enough women as there are men, then we can have a single person join once in a while. It is important for everyone's comfort that we have equal numbers of men and women. Wish us luck and wish us to grow bigger!

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1/1/17 Last week David and I met and discussed more on the idea of a massage group. We have been discussing this for over a year and we finally distilled it down to the following verbiage. We are planning to put up a website called "welovemassage" but it hasn't been created yet. I will include it here as a preview of what is to come.

      "We Love Massage"
        Naples, Florida, USA

            We love to share massage!
            The joy is in the sharing.
            Sensual but not sexual.
            We are a man and a woman who are experienced in massage.
            We do not live together but we both live in Naples.
            Our desire is to find other couples who enjoy massage as much as we do.
            We would like to form a small group of like-minded people to meet for massage periodically.
            No experience is required. We will guide those who are unsure or hesitant.
            It is actually quite natural!
            If you love massage as much as we do we would love to hear from you.
            Contact us HERE
            Thank you.

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12/30/16  Men write me from time to time about the intimate subject matter on this website. They are each one so very unique and personal, I would never post them here. However when I receive a really good response to one of my letters, thanking me with such enthusiasm, I can't help but think, "Wow!" to myself. Then I feel it might be worth posting my letter on the website for the benefit of others. This letter could be written to many men in diferent circumstances, and so consider it an open letter to the guys. It is responding to a single man seeking advice in how to get women into the lifestyle of swinging. 

"I am so sorry but I do not have any constructive advice for your stated goal. My philosophy as stated in the Anakosha website is so much about the feminine side of life that I am at a loss what to say to men. Married men have the same problems, I have come to find out. I know married men who are trying to get their wives into swinging and the women are not cooperating. You probably will have better luck with single women because at least single women are seeking some intimacy, where married women are tired of the intimacy that requires them to have sex. Sexual pressure is a constant in the men of their lives. Imagine constant pressure to do something over and over and over, for 20, 30 years. You would shut down too.

If you are truly interested in my website, you will pick up on the hint that love is what makes a woman's world go round. And love is not what men think it is. For any woman, even cold, frigid, up tight women, If you can love her without pressuring her for sex for a period of time that is unknown by anyone, you will gain her trust and love and respect and she will want to give you more than what you could possibly want. It is so very difficult to explain this to a man. But it's all about centuries of being enslaved. It's in the genes passed down the female line. Beneath all of that is the divine feminine - the spirit of the female. Women now want their freedom back, freedom to pick, choose and be free in every way without control, without pressure and without ridicule or degradation by men. Give her absolute freedom and she will (maybe) come around and be willing because that is true love. Anything that even remotely resembles pressure - even an unspoken wish to do more - she sees as a pressure. If she likes you enough she will give you the "more", such as entering into the lifestyle, but first you must prove that you are capable of giving her her freedom. That is love. Then she will follow your lead. The new woman is coded for freedom. Anything less is going to tone her down or turn her off after a while. After the fun of a new relationship.

She wants the freedom to choose and freedom to act and freedom means "don't pressure me". Sex to a woman means sensuality and sensuality is something felt through the whole body as freedom thrilling through her cells. Love does not mean "falling in love".  Love does not mean commitment or marriage. Love does not mean monogamy. Men have it all wrong. Love is not about owning someone and marrying them. Today's woman does not want to "fall in love". She simply wants to enter into love. Love is not attachment. True love is impersonal even at the deepest and most sensual and most intimate of moments. There is no attachment at that level, there is only a bonding between two people that two people enjoy. Nobody is controlling it. She does not attach when she is in divine love.

I am speaking allegorically. There is a hidden meaning. You must look for it. You can help a woman get there to her own hidden meaning because this depth within women is not even known by most women, consciously. It has not been brought forth where they can experience it. They must experience it. Men can help them experience this freedom. It is the new age of love, freedom, equality for women and it comes from the spirit buried in their heart.

I had the most wonderful discussion today with a male friend with whom I have been round and round a lot of issues, discussing them. We do not engage in sex. We are going to start a love club based on massage that does not include sex and does not end in sex, but includes practicing how to be open to love and how to flow with love back and forth like a figure 8 flowing. How to receive love and send it back slightly more enhanced from your own love, and she flows it back even more enhanced with her love, and back and forth. It's tantra-like but we won't call it tantra. It's simply love on an open scale. We will use massage as the tool.

I would be happy to chat more with you. Thank you for the opportunity to speak of these things. I truly wish you beautiful experiences with your seeking love experiences with women. Swinging is a wonderful, personally empowering lifestyle if love is part of your own actions."

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12/22/16  A few women have been writing to me that they like what they read on this website. A few men too, but it is the women who are nudging me to start a love club. I am wishing for it and hope it will come about in time, but this is a struggle on the inner levels for me. A love club will based on the divine feminine level, not the outer masculine. It would not be appropriate for me to post these beautiful letters that are written to me confidence because they are deeply intimate and personal, but I feel it is helpful to publish my responses which they have triggered in me.

Every man also has a divine feminine within him that is covered over by the illusion of "male energy" and "got to be a man" and "got to act like a man". Sometimes I think he is the greater victim of our male-oriented culture.  even more so than women. But this website is a feminine-oriented website, and addresses women, not men.

As a result of the beautiful divine feminine letters I am getting, I am inspired with beautiful feelings how nice it would be to have a women's spirituality group to honor and validate the divine feminine within each of us. When I say "feelings", I mean feelings, not mental ideas or instructions to start such a group. I am simply being reminded of what the femininity feels like.

I was drawn to the divine feminine or goddess teachings many years ago and then didn't stick with it. I was drawn away. Then once again I was led back to divine feminine or goddess feelings. Then once again I was pulled away to the mental perspective and the need to live in this world like other people. This has happened over and over again. Then two years agao I was once again drawn back to the divine feminine through the tantra route and I found a rare writing about the divine feminine. Not the outer tantra as in sexual, but the inner tantra as in sacred relationship with self.

Now again, through rare letters from other women who read this site, I am being drawn back to the divine feminine way of inner feeling as a whole approach to life, instead of approaching through the mind/brain. Feeling is a something that occurs outside of the brain/mind. It is different. Sort of timeless or spaceless. No boundaries but a feeling nonetheless.  For so long I have wanted to not exclude men from anything we women might coordinate, like a gathering, but I can't make myself do it. I have been frozen into inactivity because do I include men? Or don't I? I don't want to exclude them, but I secretly want to. Through recent letters I am once again reminded that women are designed to look inward while men are designed to look outward. And there is a problem in our culture between the two genders. Whenever we women include men into our discussions (and we've tried) the magnetic pull is too strong to hold the vision on the inner. The male energy is just too strong and we fold our wings and let them take over. It is a crazy situation!

This morning during a meditation I was reminded of this. Again. The inner feeling. It is a feeling of such love. Such feminine motherly love and I only get this feeling when I connect with a certain inner vibration. I get this inner vibration when I go into the kundalini spontaneous movements. These inner kundalini movements look like Tai Chi movements when I see myself in the mirror doing them, but I never learned Tai Chi. The movements came automatically and they continue to come automatically and spontaneously when I focus on them, and I can feel the inner "wind" if I can call it that, when it starts to happen. The feeling seeps into my body all over at once. It is like a sweet-smelling fragrance (sometimes I smell a real fragrence). It is like fresh mountain air, or a lovers musk. It is intimate and all over. This I could guide women into feeling but I doubt I could guide men into it. Women are natural at listening within. But we women are constantly drawn away from our inner sanctums (feelings) to serve others.

I would like to bring about a women's workshop on the sacred feminine as an introduction to the kundalini. It would be done through feeling with a minimum of words or explanation, as men would require. Mostly guiding inward. Do you feel it? There is an etheric flower inside of you ready to blossom, and it resides down at the bottom of your abdomen. It is stimulated by loving focus. I would send them home with homework to practice it  alone because it's difficult to do in the presence of others. We women tend to be drawn away from our inner feelings, like the beautiful inner kundalini feeling, which is oh, so feminine in nature, because we want to please our man or to please others, boss, family, children, whoever is in front of us, even other women. This tendency to serve others takes us away from ourselves.

This workshop would not to teach them selfishness but would teach them balance. There is an inner masculine in every women who serves as the protector and male guide. This inner masculine is the practical side of the woman. This inner male knows when it is time to stop giving to others and start giving love to self alone, without others being present. This would be like a meditation or some form of inner discipline of their own choice. The inner masculine knows also when it is time to stop giving love to self and start giving to others again. There is a balance required between activity, as in giving outward, and inactivity, as in giving inward to ourself alone. This balance is true for men also.

The most erotic, the most beautiful, the most seductive, the most tempting and desirous woman of all women, is the one who is fully seated on her own sacred throne. Her inner feminine. She does not give an inch of her feminine power away unless she is fully balanced and whole. If she is not ready to give to "her man" or to anyone, she does not move from off her sacred throne. She remains seated, quiet, regal. She may answer in words but her words are wise and truthful. And when she is ready, she will move off her throne and give like no one has ever given before. She moves like a fierce tiger or a benevolent friend or an angel in disguise or a loving mother or judge and jury. Whatever is required. Because she is balanced.

This is new information that I have been receiving. I see that I had a total breakdown many years ago because I was blindly giving my inner feminine power away to people without discernment and without being balanced. I gave and gave and gave right up to the brink of death so that I had to run away to survive. It was the dark night of the soul that brought me out of the pit of self-sacrifice. It has been a slow journey of learning the lesson. Many, many women have paraded before me revealing the same exact weakness. I see it all around me. It is something that has been a slow learn. But learning, I have been. It is seeping into me through daily life and through being in contact with the ascended ones.  Everyone is giving their power away. Not just women but men too. It is a deeply personal journey we are on.

Women becoming disempowered because the world pats them on their back and gives us validation that we are "nice". We all like being "nice" but we are not meant to sacrifice the bold power that is our inner masculine. Likewise men like being called a strong macho man, but men are not supposed to sacrifice their inner compassion in the form of their inner femininene. It is balance that is coming into the world. When we are in balance we have both boldness of strength to protect, and the loving compassion to give to others. Maintaining this balance is the work of the ages. Growing in awareness is a the journey through life, from birth through death and we continue to grow on the other side of the veil for life is everlasting. We do not stop or end. We continue growing.

While we are in a body and in relationships of all sorts, the true goddess is the woman who maintains her balance and owns her femininity not 100% but fully 50%. There are many men who have a feminine spirit. They too must own their femininity, not 100% buy a full 50% . Feminine power is recognized when held up against masculine power. One is protective and strong and focused on the outer world, and the other is compassionate and loving and focused on the inner relationship with God from whence comes all life. It is she, the feminine side of us that keeps us connected to balance, to intelligence, to love, ever open to the river of life that flows eternally. When we are out of balance and have given our power away so we are weakened, the river of life stops flowing and the "mask" takes over, what we call the ego or outer personality.

The divine feminine does not give up her sensuality or her lusty sex. She owns it entirely. The divine masculine does not give up his sexuality or lusty sex. He owns it entirely. The person who has balanced their inner feminine and inner masculine is a master at everything. They do it right. They do not hurt others intentionally. They are not drawn away from their balance. They are both powerful and loving.

For we woman, this is difficult to do because of centuries of masculine control. We still live in an overly mental (masculine) world. Everything is measured by the mind/brain and controlled from the head by the men in our lives. For women to start putting themselves back in touch with their natural inner feelings again, it is going to take some alone time. Some practice time. Some time being with other women who will validate the divine feminine. How can a woman own her inner power when the world continues to validate her masculine power? Speak up! Take action! Be strong! Don't cry! Don't show your emotions! Women get this program shoved into them  from an early age too, just like the boys.

She has to own herself. And become herself.  When a woman can find her inner kundalini, and feel it open, ah! That is the reward. It spreads so softly like an inner wind, so gentle and subtle that you hardly notice it. But you do notice it because it is so beautiful. It is familiar because it feels natural. How is it you haven't felt this before? But it is so natural that you don’t think about it twice. It takes awhile to even notice that you are in that sweet place within because it is harmony. How long  has it been since you felt harmony all around and inside of you? The longer we can maintain that beautiful feeling in the cells and tissues of our body, the more it lifts, softens and dissolves whatever is not natural. Then it spreads outward into the atmosphere around you and influences others. It is like a super natural feeling. Beyond natural. It is the way life in the ascended master realm. It is possible to experience it here in the physical body. I feel it can be taught if we have a feminine gathering of like-minded women.

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12/9/16  The page most often visited on this website after the whole book on swinging, is the articles on the divine feminine. This continues month after month as I look at the numbers of page visits. This tells me that there is a need to know more about how women truly feel about their sexuality, love and intimacy.  I know from first-hand experience talking with women that men misuse women without realizing they do, by not knowing the inner nature of women and what women really want, both in bed and out of bed. Most men do not have a clear picture of what women yearn for. It is a touchy subject because, from my experience, men really think they DO know. The women they engage with compliment them, and often pretend. Most women adopt the role of being supportive to the men in their lives. They don't want to hurt male egos. Women seldom reveal their secret inner feelings, mostly because they don't don't how.

Again, this is a delicate situation to address, because most men consider sexuality a physical act which requires physical solutions to achieve orgasm and completion, whereas women by nature seek love which lies beyond the physical. We don't know how to explain this to a man, so we women often have to hold back and repress what we really want to say. We just don't have the language or ability to explain. In my struggle to shed more light on this problem, which is why I talk so much about this subject, I asked the ascended masters for enlightenment and asked if they were against sex the way it was being done today, commonly, in most relationships. I was given the following response. 

We are not against anything, for if we chose a side we would divide ourselves. Rather, we choose love. We choose right. We choose light, openness, goodness, joy, freedom. These are the higher, nobler qualities to reach for. When facing the evil being done on Earth by calculated self-serving individuals, we meet together and discuss how to use peace and love to rid the planet of the evil. We do not go “against” the evil, as in using force, but we seek the good response in them. We seek and choose the right response. We seek out the highest good and the most intelligent way to accomplish our purpose of righting the situation. Do you understand the difference? Sex is not evil, it is misunderstood.

Evil is like an unruly bush whch is growing in your back yard that is beginning to look very ugly, with long spindly limbs and very little growth in its center. It appears thin and sickly. A good gardener will clip the unwieldy branches and force the growth back to the center with care and kindness, because he loves his garden and wishes all to be healthy and to grow in the right direction.  So he gently cares for the bush while taking action to curtail the limbs that are growing in the wrong way. He knows there is a purpose for this soul and its existence, so the gardener tends to its growth in the manner of a parent who loves its child. This is how we oversee the evolving human race. We guide with positive inspiration and nudges to do right. We use intelligence  along with patience while the individual struggles to grow. We are teachers seeking the highest and most enlightened way to train these mischief makers who lord it over mankind, keeping them in poverty, lack and suffering. There has been a sad condition on planet earth and it can no longer be allowed to continue. If it is not corrected, the evil will bring the Earth to destruction.

Thus we are making our presence known to humankind. It has been decreed by supreme intelligence and universal law to end the evil but not by force. We are overlighting the Earth and people are responding by choosing the higher way of peace and liberty for all. As the planet rises in vibration, the darker side of all human beings will no longer be able to withstand it. Those who have consciously chosen to cultivate the selfishness and control over others, will drop out. They will not be able to function as they have been functioning. This is how we operate and you are learning to operate within a chaotic culture. By chosing love and light over violence and taking stands against an "opposing" side, you will help yourself.  Ride the waves of rising frequency with joy and optimism and let what you see as negative wither up and fall away.  This is the way of love.

On another note I received the information that, if the first sexual experience is a negative one, no matter what age, if the first sexual experience is done when the body is not prepared in a loving way so it enjoys the experience which awakens the cells within the body to a beautiful experience, then the body closes down. If it is not ready, it is traumatized, for an invasion into the body in a less than loving manner will plant a seed of darkness or rejction. That first experience is then locked into the body as a pain and, unless healed and removed, it becomes a core seed which gathers more dark energy around itself. The body eventually shuts down to feeling.

Most people have negativity in their lower body from sexual experiences, which is the root cause of problems and disease in the area. The river of life is closed down by the body's contraction of muscles and rejection. Love cannot enter freely or flow in a way that it is meant to flow. Innocence and cellular joy is returned to the region only through caring attention and love. This requires advanced healing techniques by accomplished professionals for it cannot be forced. Healing is difficult to accomplish if there is an ongoing relationship which puts pressure on the person to continue to engage sexually. Re-birthing experiences would help by bringing forward the feelings and loving them free by a qualified rebirther.

If there is a problem situation that has arisen in your life, love it. Beam love into it. Embrace it. Welcome it home to your heart. Own it. Love yourself. Love all that you are. Love all that is unlovable about yourself. Of all the noble qualities, love is the greatest. It is the healer of all unpleasant situations that appear in your life. They have arisen before you for you to clear them once and for all so you are free of this problem and forever free of it. Love is the only solution to ridding yourself of it.

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12/8/16 - I continue to receive instructions from the Ascended Masters> I am sharing them openly now, instead of keeping them private as I have done for decades. This site started out as a swing club for couples but is changing its focus as I am changing. As a one-woman website, I express my evolving changes in perception here.  With decades of experience behind me in the lifestyle of swinging, as I look back I have pleasant memories and would not change it for the world. Sexual exploration with my husband was fun, happy, growthul and spiritual. But slowly, after becoming saturated with too much sex I began feeling not so fulfilled as in the beginning. I began coming away from parties feeling disappointed, frustratedg and hungry for deeper touch. The parties became superficial to me, changing gradually over a long period of time, from fun and happy to disappointing and limited. So I stopped. Where was the love in lovemaking? Which is how I thought of it when I started exploring with a loving husband, expanding our love to include other people.

I have since learned that sex is not lovemaking. They are two separate things entirely. There is a reason for sex. There is nothing wrong with sex but I have found that most people shorten the love experience to get to the sex part. Sex is not love and it is inaccurate to think of love as being sexual. It can, of course, between two people in love, but even there it often becomes reduced to sexmaking instead of lovemaking. Sex is a physical act which requires physical effort and action, whereas love is a feeling. And that feeling of love is best experienced when there is little to no physical action. Love is felt on a deeper level. Love is a very refined vibration.

I have been privy to many, many couples and individuals up close during deeply intimate encounters. Most all of them use love in connection with sex. They start out with love, thinking of it as love, and they end up with physical sex. In my opinion, focusing on sex is holding us back from experiencing the profound sensations of love that we are capable of experiencing. Physically. I'm not talking about spiritual love, the kind that takes us away from our body, but the combined sensation of physical and spiritual. Making love seems to be a lost art in the current human civilization.

When love is restricted to the physical, namely by focusing on the hot spots of the body, there is certainly a warm and wonderful feeling that is shared. But if orgasm is the goal, then love is limited. You can't get beyond the physical very far after all energy is spent on getting to the orgasm. We then disentangle and go home or go to sleep, sometimes with one party secretly disappointed and unfulfilled.

There is a capacity for love within our bodies that goes far, far beyond this common experience. It cannot be described except to say that love can expand the experience to the point of filling the whole body to saturation and overflowing, to carry us to realms unknown. At that point the orgasm is blip on the radar. Very small. We experience it as something way beyond describable. It is ecstatic. It is euphoric. It is what people refer to as nirvana. Traditional sex holds us back from this awesome experience because it keeps us in the third dimension.

Fifth dimensional love is the next step for the whole human race. We are on the verge of discovering it. We have evolved past the prudish age where sex was never discussed, to the open age of where we are today, but we have a ways to go yet.  As a civilization we are currently trapped into a web of illusion, caught like a fly in a spider web. A tightly wound web of fantasies, wishes, hopes, desires, disappointments, unfulfilled yearnings, trials and errors, lies, deceat, cheating. Maybe bondage will do it? And on and on, trying new things. All in an attempt for  love. We know we can reach it because we ARE love and it is innate inside of us. The soul knows even if the mind doesn't.  This web of illusion is like a spider web with sex at the center instead of the spider. An illusive concoction that has no resemblance to love.  It's a wrong road. That's why I left the swinging lifestyle and went on to inquire further about the true and ultimate nature of love, because I know it exists. And since human beings didn't seem to know, I began a personal relationship with the ascended masters, who I thought were beyond all of us. To my surprise, they are not. They are available to help, if asked.

So now I am speaking with ascended beings and receiving information. I will explain how this happens. Channeling is something of a mysterious process for a lot of people, even though it's becoming more of a natural thing for many people. First I go into a meditative state. I go to a high level of consciousness by using my own special techniques, and my own thought processes slow down and stop. Then I ask pre-formed questions that I have either written down or fixed firmly into my mind ahead of time. Something I really want to know the answer to because I would not remember to ask once I cleared my mind of all thought. Then I write it down whatever information comes to me. I have a clipboard in my lap. The words are very clear because I am a blank page. However, what comes through is colored by my brain cells and my capacity for words.  That means a part of "me" bleeds through in the information coming from the very high ascended being who is talking to me. In addition, I am editing the information as I post it here, because ascended master dictations are not in colloquial English. They are exquisite and high-minded. So here we go. I am getting permission to do it this way.

Light is not a feeling. Light is information and this information flows constantly through us, each of us. It is unformed information. Free flowing. It is truth.  Light does not have a fixed pattern. It is fluid, not attached to any pattern. It is the formless energy of creation. Light is everywhere. It is the light sparkles I see in the air sometimes. Our untrained minds think of this light as whimsical and random, but the trained mind of a master forms a pattern that is specific to what he wants to manifest. The universal light energy then flows into that pattern like water into a cup. It is then molded and shaped into what the master desires to accomplish or manifest. Thus the light energy becomes a form with a purpose. The master with his trained mind receives and directs the flow of light into something quite specific. He molds the divine light into a shape.

This process is a two-pronged process. First step, he receives the universal light energy by consciously looking up to the source of universal light and making of himself a cup in which to receive the universal light of creation. Secondly, he directs the universal light through his own consciousness which hold a picture of what he wants to do with it. He directs the unformed universal energy into the "cup" or pattern that he is holding as a focus in his mind. His focus is precise and immaculate, for he has learned how to use his mind in this manner. This two-pronged process of receiving and directing is done simultaneously and contiguously. We can learn how to do this ourselves, with training and practice, and we are meant to. It is in our future to learn these skills.

Now (he is speaking to me personally here) You have chosen to manifest a certain approach in your service to Earth and the people. You have chosen touch. Loving touch in a transcendent manner that does not engage the animal instinct. The instinct to copulate is a lower instinct,  limited to the physical body. It does not take into account the higher energy fields that exist within the body. As a soul evolves in consciousness it comes to realize that the body does not fulfill the deeper hungers of the soul. It comes to understand that it is more than a physical body. As it raises its conscious awareness to higher levels, so does its feelings elevate and become exquisitely more refined. It begins to learn and feel that there is so much more to the human capacity to feel.

You are actually not a body but a vibrational field held in form by the fixed vibrations of your thoughts and your beliefs. The vibrations that hold you fixed into the so-called body shape that you see in the mirror, are actually whirling atoms and electrons held in place by the repeating thoughts you think, and the subconscious thoughts of your past. This can be changed. Notice what a person looks like at the end of a hard day at work, before going into an hour of meditation. Then notice what that person looks like after the meditation. How he or she stands, the facial expressions, the smile, the glow in the eyes. The vibrations have changed during that one hour because the mind relaxed and opened. Refreshing new flow of life, love, joy and happiness came flooding in. The body received it because it was open. The cells relaxed. The energy inundated the body and mind and changed the nature of the person. In only one hour. It feels calm now, and happy. It is at peace. That is why meditation is becoming more popular today. It is improving the quality of life for many.

Light and Love are one and the same energy. The same source.  Light is unformed energy that is not fixed; love is energy that is fixed - funneled into the shape of form by an intricate divine plan. The evolution of consciousness takes place in all sentient life. It is focused attention on creation. We love our creations into existence. Light is constantly flowing into and out of form to be used in the living process. Light is a river of life that never stops. You mold this river of life into the creations that you see around you, by your intelligence and choices, and often by your deeply held beliefs. Subconscious beliefs. Your home, children, career, lack, health, relationships, car. all are your creations built and sustained by your beliefs and thoughts. You have limited yourself by believing what you believe, but you can change by changing your thought patterns and choices.

You have held back the unformed river of life that flows endlessly through you from the creator, and it  stops where there is a fixed belief and it can go no further. Thus we mold our reality by our ability to receive fresh new inspiration. What we believe becomes a permanent wall that prevents this river of life from bringing new fresh inspiration into our consciouosness. Your continual fixation on what you believe in has created your environment, your health issues, your relationships, everything that is in your world. To advance yourself, you must open your mind and begin changing your how you react. How do you do this? 

Question yourself. Simply take notice of how you respond to situations and re-examine your responses. Just noticing a response, instead of acting automatically to a situation or person, is the first step. Become aware. Become more awake. When you notice something out of the ordinary, your mind shifts from its customary position.  The ego personality is an automated personality. It is fixed into a pattern which you yourself have built for yourself. To open your mind to more beauty, productivity, creativity, harmony, success, simply begin noticing how you respond automatically. This begins the change in your consciousness. This will open your mind to refreshing new thoughts. To change. If you are afraid of something and fear has always held you back from doing that thing, change your thought to “I can," or "I will", and go ahead and do it.

It is a simple matter but most individuals are stuck in a repeating pattern which is an automatic, robot-like way of thinking. Like the movie “Groundhog Day”. If you put an effort into changing fear into an "I will!", you will be surprised at what happens next. Or in the case of someone who is used to being a doormat, change the thought to "I won't!"  The goal is to get out of your rigid habit pattern, which is mechanical, and allow new air in.  It might be foreign to you at first. But new is exciting. A strange idea can bring forth some very interesting results. Try it. This can be done in small steps. Change doesn't happen over night but it must begin somewhere because the whold world is rising in consciousness and speeding up in vibration. Old belief systems are breaking down. We all need to adapt to the changes that happening, and find alternative ways of doing things instead of copying the old systems in us. An open mind brings forth more feelings that fulfill. They come up from deeper places that feel more authentic and real. They feel more natural, wholesome and good. This is a process of coming back in touch with your own real self. Not the mask but what lies beneath the mask. There is a more powerful you beneath the outer face. Your inner self is hungry to be set free to laugh, enjoy and appreciate other people. Love is what people are seeking. Not sex but love. Love is a sense of belonging and being cared for and the best love is of self. It is an inner journey and it begins with finding the love within.
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12/6/16 - From a soul perspective, marriage is a school where we are given opportunities to expand our ability to love. We learn to be tolerant and not so rigid. We learn this by bumping up against negative situations within the home that we can’t escape because, well, we sleep there. Sometimes our ego gets bruised and we may lash out or we may repress our hurt. We may try to defend ourself or we may develop a harder shell around our heart. Living with another person provides opportunities to become more loving but most often we don't.  Frictions often grow us harder, rather than softer. Let's talk about love and the lessons that relationships provide for us. The challenge is to become a bigger person - and I dont mean fatter!  Expanding our love capability is the most important opportunity that marriage brings us. When we are young we don't usually have the wisdom to respond with a bigger heart, but as we mature and gain in experience we learn the lessons that life is so good at bringing to us. That then makes life smoother.

This happens in other types of live-together situations, too, not just marriage. But with the traditional marriage or live-in relationship, once the honeymoon stage is over and the practicalities of living set in, the two personalities that were overwhelmed by love during the honeymoon, relax. Slowly the signs appear that each person is an individual and not on the same page with the other. They are different now that they relax and let their hair down. Each one is by nature a sovereign being inside their own skin, and now that they are living together, there are certain adjustments that need to be made. Compromises and negotiations. Is one stronger than the other? Which one gives in first? All goes beautifully as long as love reigns supreme and is the primary feeling between them, but it is a shock to wake up one day and find that a disagreement that is blown out of proportion. Suddenly we don‘t know this person at all. We presumed that the love would last forever, but it does not. It's going to require some soul searching.

It is true that love conquers all. All there is is love. The universe was born out of love, and so were we. It is not trite to say that love solves all problems. It does and will.. But this is not minor league advice. It is ascended master advice who, themselves, have conquered their human ego and returned to their divine nature which is love. Applying love to a situation is not done mentally, by thought. It is done deep down in the heart where humility reigns supreme. In order to change the course of an awkward marital situation, love needs to be reawakened in all its power and meaning. A relationship needs to cultivate love every day, by both partners to make it work happily. Learning how to grow love in a marriage requires a heart-based relationship that places love first before ego needs or wants. Sometimes we don't know the difference between ego need and a true need, which is understandable. That is why we are taking the time and energy to explore the subject.

How one cultivates a relationship beyond the honeymoon phase (the teen years of a relationship) into a mature and sacred relationship is by expanding beyond the "me" to the "we". In a sacred relationship we learn to sacrifice our ego which says “I want!” and “I need“, and we adopt the premise of there are actually two of us now working together. This does not cancel out the sovereign rights of each individual but creates a third partner to consider. There is him, her and the relationship. We are now expanding our consciousness. There are three separate entities to consider and it's not easy to manage unless there is a larger love operating within the folds.

Marriage is a tough road to travel, but it has tremendous rewards when the ego is kept under control and the heart continues to reign. The challenges we face polish and refine the rough edges of our small and petty "me" wants.  Learning about love is a process that engages the heart and soul, and only a small percentage of the brain-mind. We use our brain-mind in ordinary day-to-day life to make decisions. The most important part of the brain-mind is making a decision to choose love over the ego wants. There is always a fork in the road at decision time, and choosing the "we" over the "I" is perhaps the most important decision we can make. If we make the right choice, the journey is easy. But if we are unwilling to sacrifice ego needs, the road continues to challenge our spiritual maturity. Many cop out and don’t last long enough in the relationship to learn the lessons the soul prepares for us. There is a reason we were brought together. This mate is the right mate for us at this time. Nothing is an accident. All is in order. It is how we respond that makes the difference between going uphill or downhill.

A very deep love is found by continually examining one’s own ego, the identity created in the mind, devoid of feelings and heart. The ego is the head trip. The mask. The one we developed from childhood into our personality. The ego feels it must have certain rights given to it or it is not content. The heart does not function that way. The ego personality has been trained to strive for fulfillment through other people and outer material objects or goals. More money, better jobs, etc. We were trained to seek perfection in the outer world, not the inner world. The heart does not care about the outer world at all. Physical needs, physical hungers and other urges like sex and the sense of loneliness that crop up over and over again, keeping us striving for fulfillment in the right person, the right job, the right career, but we are seldom satisfied for very long. There are always hungers and needs that push us on to continue seeking.

The divine heart does not have needs, nor hungers, nor wants. That which we call a lonely heart is not the divine heart.  The divine heart is never lonely. It is always fulfilled, joyous and happy. The divine heart is the heart that is the well-spring of love. The human heart does not have the capacity for unconditional love. The human heart loves with a condition attached to it. The divine heart is pure and at peace. It knows only divinie love and it is available to us at all times. It behooves us to learn more about it and to spend more time exploring it and questioning ourselves about it. We are speaking of the etheric heart now, not the physical heart. The etheric heart lies over the physical heart on the etheric plane.  The heart chakra has been called the higher heart. When we go into our higher heart, we enter the holy of holies. It is the sacred heart of our perfection, ga piece of the Almighty. This part of us - and it is right there within our heart - does not hunger or have needs. It is a transcendental experience when we enter it. You cannot miss it if you're looking for it. We are meant to go into our divine heart often, in order to maintain our goodness while on the human journey. It is like going to the watering hole in the middle of the desert to be refreshed before going back on the road again, for human conditions stress and strain us to limits beyond endurance. We must drink of that sacred wellspring as often as we can. It love without any limits or foundaries but we must cultivate it within ourself alone, in private.

When someone says “go into the heart”, it means get out of your head. Take your focus out of your head and put it into your chest area. Your brain is limited to what you know. Your heart accesses intelligence beyond what you know. Breathe through your heart. Use your physical heart as a visual picture. Imagine the sun shining through your physical heart. There are many beautiful pictures on the internet that display the light in the heart, symbolizing the purity there. It cannot be tainted by human actions or thoughts. As more artists tune into spirituality they draw pictures of the heart with light shining through. Your divine self is anchored in your heart. Through your heart you draw forth supernatural qualities that your brain does npt have. So how do we access this divine love in normal everyday situations?

Let’s look at this in a practical, human way. Say you have experienced a situation that is really bad and there seems to be no way out. It’s a road block. You can’t go any further. You and your live-in mate are barely speaking. Each of you is upset, angry and you don’t know where to turn. You are stuck. You have tried everything you can "think" of and it is a blind ally. You have never experienced this particular bump in the road before. It‘s new so you don‘t have answers.

Well, believe it or not, spirit does not care what you are doing on the human level, so don't worry about what God thinks.  Spirit's only interest is in you and your ability to love.  Love is all there is. Everything is made of love. Love and light are synonymous, hence the light in the heart means love in the heart. According to the ascended masters, the human perspective on Earth has gone off the deep end a long time ago and we were but a whisper away from being written off as a planet in the solar system only a short time ago. Mankind’s spiritual nature was aborted. He had gone to the dark side living a heartless, mechanical, robot-type of existence because he lost the way to his divine heart and the love connection. Thankfully, there has been a spiritual turn-around in the last 50 years and we are well on our way to recovering the heart connection and saving the planet.

It is important to realize that the human condition is a very limited field. Spirit does not respect human laws, including marriage laws, because human laws are not heart-based. They are brain-based. Human laws contain so much double-talk that common sense has disappeared and confusion takes its place. Laws contradict. What we know in our conscious brain-minds is miniscule compared to the knowledge and truth that can be accessed through the divine heart. W e know only what we know. We do not know what we do not know and there is a lot to know beyond us. There are levels to consciousness. Many levels. We call them dimensions. But consciousness is still all one consciousness. We are capable of spanning many levels and learning far more than our brain minds could possibly contain, for consciousness is not confined to the brain. We grow as we lift up, look up, and draw on higher authority. The supreme intelligence of what we imagine is our maker, cannot be imagined because we exist inside of it. It's not outside of us. God is not outside of us and neither is love. We cannot find love outside of us because we are living and breathing manifestations of love. By accessing this love there are answers and solutions to every conceivable problem imaginable, including how to travel effortlessly to Mars, Venus, Saturn and other galaxies. While scientists work inside their old guidelines, visionaries draw on universal intelligence (love) and invent new systems of thought.

There is a higher mind that is not confined to the brain. Mind is important. I am not diminishing its importance. But the human matrix says all knowledge is in the brain and it is not. We all use our higher mind during times of inspiration when we receive brilliant downloads of information that appear out of nowhere. This higher mind is accessed through the sacred divine heart and we link up to truths that no human has ever known before. We are invading new territory as we use our divine heart and access higher mind. We do this by going into the heart chakra and spending time in the peace that can be found there. How do we get there? By arranging time out to do it. It is crucial. Everyone should be doing it daily.

Schedule time away from everybody, from phones, computers, children, neighbors, co-workers, and find a quiet place. This is an almost impossible effort in most people’s lives today, so it requires special effort to plan for it. It won't happen unless we schedule it and plan how to make it work. It is essential to prepare the gateway. Once you are in your quiet alone space settled into a comfortable position, close your eyes and take your attention out of your brain and put it down into your physical heart. WILL your attention to move out of your brain and down into your chest area. Imagine a sun shining in your heart. Breathe slow and deep. It will take awhile to slow the breath if you‘re coming from busy activity. Slow your breath down systematically. It is like stopping a giant machine. It takes a while to turn it totally off. Slow it down some more until a certain feeling of peace starts to take hold.

Spirit doesn’t consider your marital problems very important, and neither should you. What spirit considers important is your ability to transcend the problems of your life, and so you are doing that now. You are transcending the outer world's problems and entering into a peaceful inner calm. You sensations of quietness and stillness tell you when you are entering your sacred inner heart. You are an immortal conscious being, just like the ascended masters, but you have forgotten and over-identified with your physical body. You don’t realize just how spiritually powerful and enlightened you are. As you practice sitting in silence every day (and not go to sleep but remain conscious), you will begin to experience your spiritual goodness and wholeness. You will begin to cultivate that all-knowing look that people point to and say things like, “Oh, I’d like to get to know him or her,” because you have a presence that belies your outer form. It radiates from you.

You may not reach a very high state on first try of sitting in silence, but with practice you will. It is a skill that can be learned. It is also an art because you are applying your own understanding and methodology to the practice. It is a solo practice. You are not copying someone else’s technique. You should not copy. You are an original. You are unique. You are one of a kind. You are a child of the light and you have direct access to the natural gifts that the divine has stored within you. It will feel natural because you will be cultivating what you are made of. It is your nature. All that you do in the outer world is not natural to you divine nature, which is why spirit doesn't care what you do outside. It is what you do on the inside that matters to spirit. So now you are cultivating what is in your heart. An ancient teaching given long ago by an ascended one, was “I AM That I Am”. This is a good phrase to use as a mantra. You might try this out and own it for yourself. Everyone is a manifestation of the one universal consciousness. Everyone is an “I Am" for we all inside the supreme intelligence.

While spirit doesn’t care what your human life is doing, YOU care. And what you will find from going into your heart and drawing on the goodness that is there on a daily basis, is that your human life will begin to smooth out. I cannot tell you how this will happen. It just does. It evolves from your calm practice of sitting in silence and absorbing the divinity within you. As you sit in silence daily and evolving your consciousness to higher levels, you will see your home and family, and your work life become happier and more in harmony with your sense of right. It is a growing upward into the light. You will have a wider lens. You are developing spiritual skills and you are choosing to do it of your own free will. It is not a random accident but an inspiration. Mankind must choose to take the high road up the lofty mountain willingly. It may not be time yet for you. Perhaps you will not do anything with this at all. But there will come a day when you will want to sit in silence and contemplate the love that you have been seeking outside in the outer world. You don’t have to call it meditation. It is sitting with your own heart in silence. There really is no name to call it. You are discovering yourself and it is the spiritual path to more love.

Whatever you are doing does not matter to spirit. Just find the love in your heart and don’t abandon the practice because it will carry you beyond and transform the desires, needs and hungers of the outer self. The inner self is greater than the outer self. The outer self is small. The secret life of human beings is much, much greater than the outer life whose focus is on material objects and the limited knowledge taught in schools of higher education. Physical urges will dissipate and the spiritual urge will become your main driving force. Meanwhile, your family and work life will be noticeably happier and run more smoothly. Your ability to tap into your beautiful divine nature is the plan of the creator, whom we call God. It was always The Plan for human evolution to grow in spiritual strength and nobleness and self esteem to become god-man and god-women, while still remaining in physical bodies and enjoying the beautiful bounty of Mother Earth. By going within and tapping your own divine nature - which is natural - you are blending the spirit and matter and bringing heaven to earth.
. It’s a science that is provable.

Love is a universal healing energy but most people do not understand that what we call human love is merely a shadow of the great universal sea of unconditional love. We often think that we must feel love and when we don‘t feel it we think there is something wrong with us. We lose faith in ourselves and God. We doubt. We diminish ourselves. This is wrong. We do not feel love automatically (with the exception of temporarily falling in love).  We have to cultivate love within ourselves, with our mental choices. When we put the effort towards cultivating love within ourselves and practicing with love in our daily tasks, spirit pays attention. Sometimes you might get a prickly sensation on the skin. It’s a message that lets you know you’ve hit upon the right thought. You’re going in the right direction. Spirit is perking up and noticing. You are lining up with the truth that lies within your heart. Or maybe you just notice that you are more calm than usual. Be conscious of these shifts in sensation. They are feelings AND perceptions.

Most people try to solve their marital problems in a traditional human way, by avoiding true intimacy. The Ascended Masters teach that sacred relationships are honest relationships. Each party honors the other by sharing openly their feelings with the other. The masters advise is that this is the direct way to honor each other and elevate the relationship. Even if a feeling is hurtful to the other, if it is an honest portrayal of feeling, then it brings us closer together. Telling the truth sets us both free.

Marriage is intimate. It is not automatically sacred; we must make it sacred by the way we live within it. Many people use marriage for reasons other than love. Many marriages are made for convenience, or to guarantee a sex mate, or to put food on the table for the kids, or for any number of reasons. Even this type of marriage can be nurtured and cultivated into a sacred marriage through the application of universal love principles. If only one partner puts the effort in and the other does not, then that one who desires it most should go once again into the inner chambers of his sacred heart and seek counsel. By cultivating divine love, one cannot fail to find direction. However, the best relationship is where both partners agree to try this approach of honesty and the sharing of inner feelings.

Most of us don't realize that we ARE spirit, not a body or a brain. These are vehicles which we use to move around in the physical world. We are soul inhabiting what is not physical at all but a whirling mass of electrons and atoms held together by thought. We have been living in a restrictive way of life because that’s what we were born into. We have been closed down to the natural law of harmony and love that the rest of the universe enjoys.  We have been crimped. Just as when we crimp a hose and the water cannot get through, so are we  stopped from flowing with the universal life force. As we choose to return to love and the ways of kindness, gentleness and understanding, we feel once again the truth contained within. .

Marriage is a school where we learn tolerance and if we succeed, we enjoy the fruits of greater love. There is nothing the two cannot do if they are together in their agreements. We learn compromise without repressing our needs. Love is not about repression or suppression of needs. A single person living alone can follow his or her own whims without considering a mate. But in marriage we agree to join and go forward as a team and a partnership. There is only one way to have a positive partnership and that is by telling the truth continually. Every day in every way. This is the only way to build true intimacy and true love. We deepen our love by sharing our feelings, the good and the bad.  Otherwise, it is a superficial partnership in name only.

Many people make the mistake of thinking that once they marry, they can stop trying, they can stop putting the effort in. The thinking is that they have captured the man or woman of their dreams. It‘s now locked down and there is no need to try any more. But each one who is now locked into the relationship, continues to grow, change and evolve in consciousness. There is no other way to keep the union together but to keep sharing the changes that occur, every day along the way, so that you grow wider and broader while remaining linked together. Many couples have grown apart but stay together for convenience, which may work for awhile, but without sharing the changes between them, they are not free to evolve in the manner of their liking.

A common problem in relationships is a sense of false possession. Marriage is not an ownership contract. We cannot possess another human being. If we try, we create frustration on both our parts. We are each a free agent. Marriage does not diminish the fact that we are a free agent capable of thinking for ourself. By taking the spiritual path, we will know how to walk the path in a way that is positive and good for all. Oh so often people hide the truth because they don’t want to deliver bad news or to disappoint, but the lie is the beginning of a downhill spiral. Truth is the only way to approach a loving relationship. The spiritual path provides wisdom greater than human courts of law and justice.  

We cannot stop life from happening within us for there is a river of golden life flowing down from our higher self, our God-self. We are evolving and changing. It behooves us to allow this change to take place and not hold it back. When the marriage changes into a difficult school, even if we have small children, or a job or a location that holds us back and there seems no way out, there is only thing to do.  You must talk to each other. It is the time for the tough love talk. It is really surprising at how easy it becomes once the decision is made to have “the talk”. In so many relationships where the two partners each go their own way and avoid sharing deep and honest feelings, it does not need to remain stuck. It is a matter of courage to prepare the way to start the talking. Sitting in the silence of your loving heart, you may ask your soul to help prepare the way for you. The ascended ones are available to help. Ask them.

The answers come in the form of thought. Thought that surprises you because it’s different from your usual thinking. You sense, “Now where did that come from?”

I would venture to say that 95% of the couples I have met in the lifestyle do not share their secret inner life. Mostly because they are not on the same wave length. They are an “outer world” couple, not soul mates who share an inner life that helps them evolve. An outer world couple is brought together for karmic reasons, to help each other resolve issues from other lives. When the karmic debt is fulfilled and paid off, then there is a feeling that they do not need to be with each other any more. Sharing these deep inner thoughts with each other, smoothes the way to freedom on both sides - or brings them back together again on a deeper and more intimate level.

A marriage that is at a stalemate remains a status quo marriage. Non-movement between them leads to holding each other back from moving on with their inner life. We are born to expand our love. If it is not going anywhere in the relationship, then it is best to talk about it and find a way to change it. Again, truth is going to set everyone free. You might say, “Except for the children,” but even children can be dealt with honestly instead of thinking of them as children. Truth is truth no matter what age, and when truth is shared with love, then love wins and the spirit in both is thankful and appreciates it.

Suppression of feelings leads to anger, frustration, depression. Cheating is a temporary relief. It is common. Swinging is comfortable for some, if they are both honest with each other and both want to explore that as an avenue. Open marriages may work, again, if they are both willing to give their blessings to each other in love. Two people can be very creative if they are honest with each other. They will devise a workable solution to their enigma. It is so sad when a man and woman gloss over their secret inner life and pretend that all is well.

They must talk if they want to evolve. This is the advice of the ascended ones. If they do not talk, they will find more awkwardness, separation and unpleasantness ahead. I don’t think any of us fully realizes just how beautifully harmonious two people can come together, how intimate, how enchanted, how sacred they can become, by simply telling each other their innermost secrets and feelings. By taking the time to talk sincerely and authentically. I myself have recently had such an experience. It is difficult to tell a mate what you really want to say to him or her. It’s scary but it must be done if we want to get the feeling of stuckness out and gone so we can move ahead. It is a matter of getting it off our chest. Of removing the block that is holding back our freedom.

Talking and sharing information in words spoken out loud is the only way to convey a message to another person. We can’t keep presuming. Women are guilty of presuming that men “ought” to know what we are feeling. Well, they don’t. Clearly spoken words are the only way to release the truth. We must talk. If one or the other refuses to listen, then we must get creative. It’s a challenge. Find a way. This is tough love. Tough love breaks down barriers so the parties involved can move ahead. How we apply tough love is by delivering hurtful words with compassion. And by being consistent in applying these words with love. It is not helpful to be loving one time when you speak, and the next time being angry when speaking. It is important to be consistent. The soothing flow of water wears away the hardest stone in the river.

Have a fierce determination to not stop applying love. This is for your own sake, because you are cultivating a spiritual quality when you do this. It is good for your own soul and your own future happiness to do this in the manner of a well-spoken gentleman or gentlewoman. It doesn’t even matter if your mate refuses to listen. You will have done your best and moved yourself. You will know when it is done and when you do not have to try any more. You in your secret inner heart are the ultimate authority and creator of your life. Not your mind, not your brain, not your ego, but your divine heart which knows only the truth from a calm inner place. No one else has authority over you except your own soul. Not your mate, not the priest, not the guru or the minister, and not even the guardian angel who watches over you. You have the right to choose how to handle any situation, but choose you must. It is your decision and your free will that will take you where you want to go. Use the enlightened intelligence and discernment that is within your heart.

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12/5/16 - Greetings to the readers of this blog. I have been away studying, learning and growing. Learning how to deal with transition by breaking open blocks caused by old beliefs, which were holding back the flow of energy. Life. Now that I have opened up new levels of energy I would like to explain it and define the instruction I received. Perhaps others will benefit from what I have learned about energy. Invisible guides in the form of ascended masters are available to anyone. It's just a matter of focusing your thoughts. They will answer if you ask. It is kind of amazing. Most people are not aware of this, or just how available this assistance is. 

What is energy anyway? Everybody talks about it but what is energy? Spiritual energy, that is. This is not an article on quantum physics - although in the end it is indeed the same thing. We just approach the subject from a different direction, a different angle, a different consciousness, and therefore we define it differently.

Energy is composed of sub-atomic particles that are intelligent. They are conscious and they are units of consciousness. Little bitty ultra-small particles of intelligence.  Everything in existence, both physical and non-physical, is composed of these invisible sub-atomic particles, held in place by super-intelligent conscious beings called ascended masters and other even greater intelligent beings who are way more evolved than we are. But we evolving to become great masters ourselves one day, as we learn to apply the cosmic and universal laws of life. We live inside the vast and infinite body of God, Creator, All That is, Allah, whatever name you wish to call the supreme intelligence. These sub-atomic sparkles of conscious intelligence are the universal substance by which we build our world and maintain our bodies through constant flow of elements, nutriments, air and consciousness. We are not stagnant. Or we should not be stagnant.

When these little sparkles are randomly floating around, and we see them in the air sometimes sparkling, they are just waiting to be used. We live inside a sea of consciousness while we remain unconscious of this rich field of builiding material.  Through the use of careful study and conscious intelligence we build our world, go to school and study architecture, design, engineering, mathematics and we build bridges, buildings, machines to enhance health, all by applying our consciousness and putting these tiny consciousness units to work for us. It requires focus and attention to detail. Thus we go to school.

As we use intelligence constructively, we build the world around us with more refinement, more beauty, more grace and harmony. Relationships smooth out. Love and peace become more apparent. We use these units of intelligence constructively by directing our thoughts carefully, with more attention and more commitment. But when we are unconscious of what we are doing - and most often we are unconscious - we create unwanted situations. We are meant to learn about these intelligence units and become more conscious of energy. These units can also become blocked or dammed up because we are too "fixed" in our belief system. We mold our life  through our thought patterns. What we focus our attention on we become. What we focus on, these little intelligence units go immediately to work and bring it to us. so we must learn to be more careful what we focus on.

 If we are whimsical and don’t linger too long on any one thought, the intelligence units can't do their job because the master has left the building and abandoned the plan. The little intelligence units go back to floating freely in the air to be used by someone who has a plan. As we become more conscious of these energy units, we will start to use them more constructivelly. We will then begin to change our lives to more beautiful, happy, refined lives. We are to apply more focus - for as long as we feel is necessary. To build a new home, for example, we must spend considerable time with the design of it, or the selection of an architect, or where to get the money. But it is positive movement on our part, and we are putting the available energy units in the air - WHO ARE CONSCIOUSLY AWARE - to work for us. It is our attention, focus and consciousness that commands them to do our bidding. So we are required to become more conscious and we must become more disciplined in how we use our minds.

The more firmly focused on what we want, the more successful we are. However, there is a consideration of marriage partners. Those of us who are committed to living with someone else make compromises. That is another article for tomorrow. It is already written. For now, I want to define these precious energy particles that are available to us, and understand how to use them properly, in constructive ways, not destructive, so that we can improve our lives and our bodies and the world we live in.  This is called energy work. My sister and her partner have a healing business called “Energy Works”. That’s what they do. They are healers and they work with these little bright, golden sparkles of intelligence that we ALL swim in like fish in the ocean. They may not know they do but they are  confident that universal energy works, and it heals. Their practice is thriving.

Those who are not aware of these sub-atomic particles, otherwise known as "energy" or intelligence units, recycle their old thoughts and beliefs over and over again. Their lives do not change but remains in more or less the same condition as always. Life is random and accidental, he or she might say, and this person does not change easily. He wishes for change without having the tools for change. The universe is intelligent and provides intelligent units to accomplish change, but we must know about them. We must know they are there, right there in the air around us. Change comes from consciously tuning into this concept. This idea that is so foreign to most human beings on the planet. Then, once he consciously tunes in, he can begin experimenting and proactively changing HIMSELF. Not the world and not other people and not one’s own husband or wife, but oneself. It is within oneself that change begins. One person can change a whole nation. There are many examples. A person who reads this and comes to a new awareness of intelligence units sparkling in the air around him might say, “Hey! I created this situation, I am going to change it!“ And he or she begins to re-create his world to something better, more loving, more gentle, more productive, more free with more positive outcomes

Otherwise, we build our own house of cards which fall and we build again and they fall, all because we do not realize that we must maintain an orderly thought process long enough to form a pattern of thought and a building of that thought into a feeling that is felt in the body. You literally become the thought and feeling and it transforms your world. It is feeling that keeps us molded into the physical world and physical form. A mental thought cannot do it, it has to be transmitted into a feeling. So it is not a fast, quick operation. It takes time to condense it into matter.

It is by holding a continual pattern of who we are and having continual beliefs that we became who we are today. Even our DNA particles are consciousness units molded into form and passed down to us from our ancesters.  If we want to change ourselves, we must change our beliefs and thought patterns that better express who we want to be. Who we intend to be to reflect the higher truth of ourselves. Our face, hair, body type and personality reflects our long-held beliefs and thought patterns, locked into a fixed position. Our body is a hologram. It radiates out from us with our energy signature. A blind person can tell a familiar person approaching from the energy they radiate. These fixed patterns of beliefs and thoughts draw the same people to us, over and over again. We draw people we want and we draw people we don’t want. Maybe because we have an unresolved karmic debt that needs resolution, or maybe because our higher self (soul/spirit) sees that it is time for us to have an intervention, usually as a reward for having passed a test without knowing we did. Then we meet a new person who has a positive influence on us.

So, considering the vast sea of intelligence units floating in the air around us, when we say, “I am sending healing light to Susan during her surgery,”  I am turning my attention and focus on Susan. I am picturing her and intending (thinking) about healing or loving healing light. I am not just focusing on Susan, I am coloring my thoughts with love. It is the human perogative (free will) to color our thoughts with anything we want to color it with. We could color it black if we were an evil person set on destruction. But that is hardly the case! We “select” the color or quality we want to send the person. If we intend that Susan be healed and feel our love, we qualify our thoughts with that vibration of love and healing. It is that simple. Just an intention alone lines up these little intelligence units of light into an orderly fashion and goes straight to Susan, like a bullet shot from a gun. It is instantaneous because there is no distance in the vast body of God, Creator, in which we move and live. And no time is required. In the vast universe it is all here and now. As we swim in an ocean of an infinite number of sub-atomic conscious units of awareness, we sometimes see them in the air sparkling in the sunlight. They are all around us, all the time. Masters and angels use these conscious units to create physical bodies for themselves so they may appear long enough to deliver a message. These little sparkly guys are friendly, eager to serve, fluid and pliable. They await instructions. They are available to be used to build from.

In our ignorance and untrained minds, we use intelligence units most often to create negative situations for ourselves, which keeps us locked into scenarios we don’t like. The human being is designed to learn, grow and evolve. This is one of those advanced lessons that we need to learn today. Understand that intelligence is available all around us and in us, but we need to wake up and realize it. If we use our minds in a conscious and productive manner, in other words in a way that is constructive to the world around us, we are bringing heaven to earth. This is cosmic law in full bloom. We must learn how to manage our thoughts and relax our firm and rigid beliefs that prevent us from blossoming into a stronger person. For example, religious beliefs that instead of being humane , judge other people according to some set-in-stone standard that is keeps us intolerant.  Such as belief in racial purity resulting in racial bigotry and intolerance, instead of treating people of all types, nationalities and colors with equal respect and honor them as children of the one creator. Such as exerting control over those we love and let them go free to chose teir experiences and explore their own capacities and evolve their own wisdoms. Stop trying to control them. Stop owning them. They do not belong to you. They are sovereign beings in their own skin.  These are examples of rigid belief systems that hold us locked into sameness.

As we become conscious of how much expansive intelligence is out there in the air around us and in us and everywhere - it is inside our own muscles, blood and tissues - we draw more health and harmony into our immediate personal lives. If we practice this even a little, quietly, so no one knows, we can prove it to ourselves. This is a skill that must be learned. It is learned by us as we evolve our consciousness and practice it in a way that we gain confidence in the results. We learn as we go. It doesn't come all at once and it doesn't come automatically by accident. It is not bestowed on an innocent bystander and this knowledge is not random. Incidentally, a random act of kindness is not random. It is a conscious decision to do something kind for another person and it brings its own rewards. As we consciously select kindness and focus on a specific deed, we direct these little intelligence units with more solid results. We don't think of them as "units". We just apply our authority and say, as the master did to the storm, "Peace, be still!" and the storm obeyed. The winds died down. We are to become masters like him.

We have at our disposal the means to create a more harmonious life for ourselves, with more abundance, more good and more positive and uplifting friends. Then, just by radiating positivity we spark others and influence them in a way they can understand without preaching or teaching in words. We simply pay it forward by being who we are.  These intelligent units do not require you to sit in silence for long periods. They require only your awareness of them and your authority over them and the knowledge that they are really there.

Watch and you can see sparkles in the outdoors at certain times of the day. This is the sea of universal consciousness. They obey the voice of authority.  You!  Most people do not know they are the authority of their own life. The universe is moldable and flexible. It is not fixed like concrete. It is always changing, depending on the movements, actions and thoughts of the population. Some are higher thoughts, some are lower thoughts. A more positive life requires higher thoughts. Even the human body is moldable and changeable for the better through the use of positive and loving thoughts. Hateful, fearful,  depressing thoughts, and belief in the "fixed" medical industry which has some answers but far from all answers, can hold you back through the contraction of the muscles and cells of the body which goes into lock-down position out of refusal to expand and become more open-minded. In my estimation, fear is the worst thought and belief of all. By believing that the world is dangerous - then so it will be. You will attract what you focus on

Tomorrow:  how to use energy in a marriage or partnership where compromise is required.

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10/8/16 - Just checking in. I am in an observer position. I am receiving information about the world changing and I can't tell anyone about it because I'm an "insider". I know things that others don't know, it would appear. Because every time I send out a blurb about it, or tell someone, I get a blank look back or no response back by email. I feel I am talking to the wall.  The world is not on the threshold of change, it is already INSIDE the change! We have just not adjusted our eyesight yet. Or our minds. We are blind yet to the new atmosphere and new energies that are swirling in the air around us. We can't see it yet. I think I will add a new page today called "Ascension". This is not ethereal. It is all about you and me and the people around us and the ground under our feet shifting to a new pattern. A new modality. A new consciousness. A new energy is working its way through nerves, muscles, organs and blood.  In other words, a new Earth is forming right here, right now, inside our bodies, inside our minds, inside our homes, our children, our spouses, boyfriends, girlfriends, work buddies and bosses and our government - and the old pattern is breaking down. Melting. Going away. And there is
conflict at the moment but it will pass. Don't fight it. Have faith.

The news media is not reporting what is going on behind the scenes because, if they DO know anything and most of them probably don't, they are under strict orders on penalty of death not to talk about it. About what is coming. About what they know. So the news media is operating on the old grid system which is tied into the oil pipeline. The profit motive. The capitalism that feeds on the people. The status quo.

Meanwhile, there are millions who are working to change things and bring prosperity and peace (no more wars) to the planet. The world is shifting underneath our feet, and in front of our noses. We can't see it yet in the news. We all seem to be waiting for the news to say something. Well, it WILL happen. And soon. Keep watch and keep the faith. Meanwhile, I have decided to go ahead and  post what I know on the Ascension page. These are articles that you probably wouldn't see in your daily life unless you were part of the galactic society that I am part of. This will contain some insider information but not all of it. Nobody has ALL of it. It's like a jigsaw puzzle and there are pieces yet missing. But they are coming together slowly.  I have been in the loop since 1965 gathering this information, and my mind has been stretching ever since because it's a slow drip. A gentle feed. I also post this stuff on my other website: www.galacticfederation-naplesFL.org. 

This does not take away from my primary purpose and that of Anakosha, which is to integrate sex and spirituality. To bring them together through love. The physical grounding of love is probably the most important part of the ascension or speeding up of the joy and happiness and prosperity that is coming - and letting go of the old dark ways of control, greed, selfishness, possession, jealousy and the like. Integrating sex and spirituality together, weaving them together through the love channel is the most important part of keeping sane and balanced. This does not mean you have to go out and have more sex. It means bringing unconditional love into your thought processes. And bringing unconditional love into your emotional and feeling processes. And bringing unconditional love into your daily actions, physical movements, physical tasks, physical walking and talking throughout the day. Anakosha's new ascension page is here.
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